The Jacqueline Monroe Show - 49- Drop Kicking Ducks

Episode Date: October 22, 2020

Hiii here's a fun episode for your Thursday! I talk about finding my purpose, investing, farm life, puzzles, future interviews, and reflect on 2020. Have a great day!! :) Patreon.com/TJMS https://soundcloud.com/robmonmusic 

Hello, happy Thursday. It's episode 49. Welcome back to the show. what's up it's Jacqueline welcome back to the show Happy Thursday. Guess who's sleep deprived and delusional right now? Recording this at 1 p.m. Hi! That's the kind of day I'm having today. And a lot of you might have seen on my Instagram story, I wilded out and I don't even know what I posted, but I just, I'm keeping it up. Go over to Instagram to see that. One of those days. I know this whole podcast now, you know, 49 episodes in in a row 49 episodes in 49 49 days now fuck we're doing 50 tomorrow this has kind of been a journey I'm taking you guys along on the ride you're on the you're on long on the journey you

are on the ride of the journey you are along for the ride that's what I meant to say hi no sleep um anyway so I'm telling you guys the ins and outs of how my days are going how this podcasting every day is going and I'll let you know today is the struggle today is a big struggle um I don't know this is I feel self-conscious and insecure about telling everyone that I'm like look why why is this important information to tell people of the world right now but again this is my audio diary I do this every day and this is sometimes how it is anyways that's where I'm at I have no notes I have nothing you know groundbreaking to talk about so I asked the Instagram story people today what do you want to hear from Jacqueline what do you want me to talk

about because I'm brain dead. So let's see what the people said. I've got some replies here. Should I go into what I did yesterday? I might as well like try to recap, at least go into that. I don't know. Yesterday was, it was a good day. I think, ah, that's boring. I'm not gonna do it. Let's just go into the top. I'm like, I posted a video on YouTube and Instagram and I uploaded my podcast that's what I did and then I watched your mom's house with Cody Ko on YouTube and then I went to bed uh people's comments here say I should talk about how stupid the pandemic is and how there are probably people somewhere that sleep in masks true I bet there are people that you know super paranoid people that do that look I was talking to yeah I was talking to my mom

about this and I'm like I just can't wait to get this election over with and get to the other side I say that every day, but that's how I think things are going to go. I think the dust is going to settle. 2021 is going to hit and shit's going to feel a little bit less rocky. So we'll get through that. But anyways, yeah, but there's people that sleep in a mask. Great topic. I don't really have any personal, like, I don't want to, I don't have a lot to bitch about as far as the pandemic is going right now. I'm just like, I don't put a lot of energy and attention on it anymore. It's crazy though. Like if I just, you know, if, if, if I may feel, accept me and let me do this, if I can do a little reflection on early 2020 me, I was paranoid as fuck in March

and probably March through like June. I mean, pretty much. Yeah. I was, you know, washing my hands 90 times a day. My skin was peeling. It was so bad. No. Um, I was really squeamish in public around people and nervous about breathing in other people's air so it's crazy how now I'm just like going to the gym going around town not giving a fuck like I don't I don't get uh nervous like I used to so anyways um how's your Thursday going by the way what's everyone doing I feel like a spoiled rotten brat I like well should I go into my morning this morning I'll get to it let me just go over the rest of these topics someone wants me to talk about podcasting we've already hit that topic today here's all I have to say about podcasting

for 49 days in a row some days on your sleep deprived days where you feel like shit it sucks and this week I'm going to be super honest and blunt right now this week as I have not been on point I've not been on point I keep recording this midday my sleep's been kind of messed up um I just feel like a slacker in a lot of ways so anyways I know my it's like again unnecessary information but let's just tell you welcome back to my vlog I've got I'm looking at two garbage bags I'm gonna take out after this podcast I've got a load of laundry to do I'm gonna scrub my kitchen whenever I feel sleep deprived I just do a ton of chores I gotta keep my body in motion um and obviously drink coffee I don't talk about coffee on the podcast anymore

I really neglect talking about it it's so it man it's so it it's it's so good um drink coffee do chores it's gonna be a cozy day and then I'm gonna watch the debate tonight and hopefully I'll make it to the gym before that my goal is to do my chores upload this podcast do my chores and then go on some sort of like outdoor walk hike situation tonight and then watch the debate so you I'm I can tell today is going to be a negative day turned into a positive one by the end of this podcast and by the end of all my tasks tasks so anyways um thank you by the way for staying with me through this journey and accepting me for who I am and sending me nice messages I know people are like when are you going to do interviews like what the hell why are you doing

this by yourself seven days in a row, but like it's coming, it's coming in January. It's coming in, uh, excuse me, December when I go home for the holidays, going home for a month. So I'll have a ton of people to interview when I go home. And then when I come back to San Diego in January, I'm going to start, you know, recruiting people, line up at the door, come on in, let's have a conversation. That's what it's going to be. So this podcast is going to ebb and flow and change. And right now it's all about me showing up for myself every day. Cause honestly, let's get deep I haven't I've struggled for pretty much my whole life being consistent with my like consistent about like setting a goal and following through and completing it and

for whatever reason I decided well I know why I did this I have a secret mission to drown out all the podcast hoes by doing it seven days a week so if I do it for what is it three years no five years how many podcasts do I have to or how many years I have to do or go until I hit like 2000 podcasts. I know it's going to be a few years. So I require that requires me to do this seven days a week. And I know what you're thinking, Jacqueline, it's quality, not quantity, but I know myself. And if I say I'm going to do this once a week, I'll slack off and I'll fuck around the rest of the week. And I don't, I won't feel productive about my podcast careers or like, I won't be, I won't feel like I'm really moving forward if I don't do it seven

days a week so that's just what it is um I'm proud of myself I guess now like doing it like I haven't missed a day and that's a rare that's a rare thing for me when I set a goal I like get a week I don't know I'm like the type of person I'll set a goal and do it for a week oh my gosh I can't continue it and I don't I'm not proud of that but I know maybe if you're listening out listening to me if you've got ears engaged right now out there you might relate to that in some way you know you struggle following through with your goals and that's such a such a like human situation to deal with so anyways next topic someone sent me fighting 100 duck-sized horses oh I've heard this thing before fighting 100 duck-sized horses or one horse-sized duck

oh wait my dnd group spent 45 minutes sciencing that shit interesting um 100 duck-sized horses those would be like little teeny mini horses like when i was a little girl and i had like barbie horses so that's how big they would be so i'd fight those or one horse size duck. Oh, that would fuck me up with its beak. I would, it would just chop me in half. I would, it would, I would get like the pack. It would Pac-Man me if it was a horse size duck with a giant beak. I could just drop kick. What is it? A hundred horses. Yeah. I just drop kick them. I'm going to do that a hundred horse size ducks or a hundred duck size horses. This is confusing. If you're listening, I don't know if that picture was painted correctly.

but I'm gonna drop kick a hundred horse no duck like think of a pond think the size of the ducks in the pond paint a picture Bob Ross with my voice right now hi hi I'm gonna drop kick a hundred duck-sized horses that is my final answer locking it in all right um next thing someone wants me to talk about pooping no thanks um society and culture I don't have anything off the top of my head I could think about as far as society and culture I think now my mid-20s I've definitely seen a drastic drastic shift in how everything in the world operates where when I grew up it was so simple you know I'm out in the fields you know whisk or you know running around with horses and making mud pies and I'm you know just riding around on the lawnmower for fun and four-wheelers

and playing with like playing in cow shit and everything like I like grew up in farmland and my life was so simple and like what's another farmy thing I could talk about I don't know just like playing in the barns and the hay bales and just tending to so many little animals so many chickens and like bunnies to feed all the time my life was so simple and i was in school and the world seemed so huge and you know i wasn't an adult yet and now i think that with technology and all this this new wave of i don't know we're inundated all day with stuff and information it's just it's a new lifestyle it's a new culture and society to answer your question um I'm just commenting on how different it is now and you know there's so many positives

and obviously so many negatives and I heard today I was watching Claudia and Jackie again on the morning toast toast I'm obsessed with them you know what I'm subtly mentioning them every podcast because I'm like look it'd be so sweet to hear or just like if they ever talked about me so I just like shouting other podcasters out because I'm obsessed with podcasting obviously I was listening to Jackie and Claudia talk this morning and Jackie goes is the is what was she like the is this is it really a dilemma like is the social dilemma really a dilemma or she's like the dilemma is it really I don't know she made a funny like joke about the social dilemma like is it really a dilemma when she can order food and it shows up from her favorite restaurant in 10 minutes or

whatever you know what I mean so um another thing I'll go into as far as society and culture social media because that's just the current event we're all involved with right now we're all addicted to our phones and yes i'll be coming out with merch of um i'll be doing thumb brace merch i'm already thinking like that you know gotta dream big someday i'm gonna come out with a line of merchandise tjms merchandise and i think the first drop is gonna be a thumb brace a fashionable thumb brace you know i imagine louis vuitton chanel fendi prada all these fucking designer brands are gonna have thumb braces in 10 years so I think that's where the world's heading we're all gonna have um it's gonna be like going on vocal rest be on thumb rest or

people are gonna go left-handed something like that anyways um I'm saying this oh we're all in this together we're all social media addicts I mean everyone is my grandma's on Facebook all day like my mom's on her Instagram she does it too like my aunts cousins everyone I know friends It's like, it's a thing. Uh, I'm just speaking all this information out. Um, but I'll say this as far as my decision to podcast and own this choice to, you know, take my power back and take my time back and sit down once a day and do this. Um, I've realized that if you could somehow make social media work for you or like use your time on it in a productive way that you feel good about at the end of the day meaning like I feel good about posting a video to YouTube by the way you

can watch us on YouTube um so dumb uh you know I feel good about it at the end of the day I'm like well I just it's like it's a productive thing I took action I made a podcast I've recorded my voice then I uploaded it to you know iTunes Spotify and and YouTube and everything so for the first time in my life using social media I I feel like the needle's moving forward in a positive way and I don't feel like I'm wasting my time because for so many years I was keeping up with other people watching their stories watching their content consuming it learning so much like I feel like I just got a second education you know listening to Tony Robbins is inspirational stuff. Gary Vee, Andy Frisella, Ed Milet, Mel Robbins. Um, who else? Uh, Gary Vee again. I mean,

you just can't, he's, he's inspired me so much and I get like, I, it finally all clicked and here I am doing a podcast seven days a week. This is my hero's journey. This is my life story. I'm just taking you along for the ride, but yeah, that's my little, I don't know, tip today. Um, I guess if you want to I for me because this is my my experience maybe this this would work for you too like figure out a way to make to do something productive with your time on social media and it feels so much better because I was this like Walmart version of myself influencer like or I was this knockoff influencer what I wasn't really I never I could never take it seriously first of I can never take it seriously. I never went out of my way to like work with brands and do photo

shoots with products or clothes or any of that. I never, I never did that. And so I think the result of it was me feeling like, why am I posting pictures? And why am I doing this thing? If it's not like, what's the, well, that makes me sound like, you know, it's like, Oh, just doing it for money. But no, it's like doing it for it. It's like, Oh, I, it makes sense. Oh, Jacqueline just post that picture because she's working with this brand this is her job this is her career she's not just wasting her time you know what I mean so enough about that I could so that was your thanks for the topic on society and culture I just talked about productivity and social media and uh anyways um what else someone said just complain about something I don't know I I don't

want to be negative I've already been negative enough on my insta story today should I talk about my morning. I had an exciting morning. Wow. Today was such a good day for me. My day started amazing. Um, I'll get into that. Another topic, not sleeping enough and research how to get more. Um, that's a simple, that's a simple answer. I don't need to Google that. If you're not sleeping enough. So he's like research how to get more, just sleep more, just sleep more stay in bed longer that's it problem solved Jacqueline my Jacqueline's eyes woke up woken up malfunction my eyes opened at 4 44 a.m this morning and I'm you know there was a little like universe working on in my favor reason for that actually it turned out to be a very good

morning. Um, I'll get into that, but yeah, I had like, so if I just like kept my eyes shut longer, I would have been fine. Uh, great topic though. You know, you know, it's weird too. Oh, let's just talk on, talk about tangents and shit on a Thursday on a podcast that is probably wasting people's time. I need to stop doing that. I know someone out there is like, thank you for being in my ear today. Thank you for showing up when you were tired. Thank you. So cheers to that. I'm to take a sip of coffee I already lost my train of thought what the fuck was I gonna talk about um oh wait sleeping oh what I don't get you know how this you know how all the scientists are like don't watch you're gonna don't look at your phone before bed don't watch tv before bed turn off all

your devices like an hour before bed and stuff I literally fall asleep with my phone on my face some nights for my it's obviously for work I gotta know what's going on the world for the podcast it's part of my job so I justify it but I don't I don't struggle with sleep once I have a whoop strap I wear on my wrist uh not sponsored that's actually a lot that's a common sponsor on a lot of podcasts I listen to so a whoop if you're listening whoop whoop uh I don't know future sponsorship hit me up let me know uh anyways my whoop strap tells you it tells you how quickly you fall asleep, and I fall, I might, so basically, I get in bed, I put my phone, like, you know, I set my alarm, if I have an alarm to set or anything, which I, why did I say that I don't set an alarm

right now, yeah, like, put my phone away, maybe take a drink of water, so then I, like, open my covers, and then I, I do my, like, left foot first, then my right foot, and I lay on my back, usually I lay on my back for, like, the first 15 minutes, naturally, because I'm, like, making sure my skin care doesn't smear off all over my pillows right away anyway so I get I lay on my back and it's like as soon as the back half of my head like if you think of where like where a girl's ponytail like the middle of the back of your head is as soon as that contacts my pillow I'm asleep I'm out that quick so I have no trouble sleeping it doesn't matter if I'm watching tv up until the last second or staring at my phone on tiktok 10 seconds before I fall asleep I'm a good sleeper

but um anyways um that's stupid delusional I'm sounding crazy but that's a that's the best example I could come up with I'm trying to paint a picture trying to paint a picture because people are listening and they're trying to think about what I'm talking about um I don't know let's get into my day this morning because I can't even remember what I did yesterday so I told you I woke up at 4 44 a.m and I was like shit why did I wake up so early right and then I was like oh I you know I'm learning about stocks this year I check check my stocks every morning but not that early I know some people on the west coast wake up at like 4 a.m to check up check on the news or everything and read shit about all their stocks but like I don't do that I'm not that I'm

not in that deep with trading but I'm so happy I woke up early because the stock I was watching PR'd today, it was like a really good day for it and shout out Heelys and Reebok just go look up go on Instagram and look up Heelys and just see what they're collabing with Reebok anyway I watched my stock this morning

it was a very exciting morning for me in that way and I had this thought, I was like this is crazy I'm in my mid-twenties finally having success with this and I'm like I mentioned this so many times in the past

because guys if you're new if you're just tuning in if you've never listened to my podcast before I got into the stock market this year I started learning about it started really like taking it seriously as a way to you know multiply my income over time and um yeah it makes me kind of go insane when I'm like wait I clicked like so when I bought the stock so I'm like okay clicked buy then I typed in a number how many shares then I submitted that boom and then sell so that's like one two that's like three clicks it's basically I clicked my phone I clicked like six buttons and then boom money bags what was it like a month later you know what I mean or like a few weeks later it doesn't it's so stupid how like I'm not I don't want to say it's easy there's a lot of

research involved a lot of you have to know a lot of shit about how it works to like be successful at it but it pissed me off I'm like it's so easy a caveman could do it no but I don't understand why everyone is investing in the stock market especially this year like I don't know hit me up DM me if you talk let's talk about it let's chat send me your discord chat line or whatever the fuck it's called I I entered a few of those or I like signed up for a couple discord chats and it's so it's just very complicated stock market is there's just a lot to know so every day you know before this I was half napping half watching videos on the stock market just trying to learn new stuff and you really have to educate yourself every day and anyways so that was my

morning I was like what I was like this is stupid I'm like are you fucking kidding me how how's it taking me this long to understand how duh this is. Everyone figure out the stock market. That's your homework today. Figure it out. It's easy as shit. If you, once you get it, you get it. Anyways, I could go on and on and on and on and on and on, but I won't. Um, oh, my mom just sent in a question or a topic to talk about today. This is just like the random topics to talk about podcast. She said, favorite sauce. Okay. She wants to know my favorite sauce. I'm a big fan of sauce. First of all, let's get into this. I'm a sauce bitch. When I put my, when I put food on my plate, there's a, there's like a meme. It's like the food is a caring

or a mechanism a transport it's a transportation device for sauce like if you let's say you have a roasted carrot this is a disgusting combo but I'm just gonna I'm trying to like paint a picture got a roasted carrot maybe you have some paleo sriracha barbecue sauce on the side that carrot isn't the star of the show it's that sauce it's the whole point of you putting the carrot carrot on your plate that roasted carrot is to transport that sauce into your mouth is this weird and disgusting I don't know I'm a sauce bitch but my mom asked me what's your favorite sauce um oh my gosh there's so many um I'm not a ranch bitch I'm not I've never been a ranch bitch uh I feel like okay honestly my mom's spaghetti sauce obviously classic my mom's sauce

her spaghetti sauce is always it always hits it's always like just you know it's like childhood every time I have it but we also my favorite sauce is this garlic sauce I know I know is that does that mean I'm a vampire no wait what is the garlic thing in vampires I don't know is that like a Disney Channel movie I remember there was like a garlic scene in a Disney Channel movie in their vampire anyways I think it's called garlic sauce.com I think it is garlic garlicsauce.com there's this uh little yeah it's okay i just pull it up dude i'm quick i should uh no i'm not gonna say what i was gonna say do be a little substitute for a young jamie no whoa that's uh thinking too highly of myself too soon podcasting i'm only in month what oh i'm

in month two is that acceptable yet whatever imagine that me uh substitute googling for young Jamie while he has Corona. Um, anyways, garlic sauce.com. There's this little grocery store where I live called the co-op in Mount Vernon, Washington, really zero zeroing in on my location. If you want to come hunt me down this Christmas time, I'll be there a lot. Wow. Shouldn't say that. But anyways, um, there's this garlic sauce. My mom always has in her fridge at home. And last, wait, was it last Thanksgiving? She like froze it. She's like, take this home with you back to San Diego. And I forgot it. I was going to take it in my suitcase and then I tried to make it and it's not the same, but go look up garlic sauce.com. That's my favorite sauce.

Great question, mom. Great or great topic. Um, and then honestly, like all my, my favorite sauces are okay. I go to whole foods specifically. Like there's certain things I buy there that I don't buy anywhere else. And it's usually condiments and sauces that are good. So you got to get that chipotle lime mayo that I think it's primal kitchen anything primal kitchen anything paleo chef anything um what's the other one I don't know there's like a birdie one I like a birdie I like a lot of hot sauce wow I'm just talking about sauce too much um I don't fuck with ranch though I'm not like that with ranch and I don't we don't I don't I don't vibe with ranch you know why I think I uh I OD'd on ranch in high school it was only like it's we you know on pizza day

in high school I guess it was there every day but we had this like off-brand ranch that I would put on it and there was like a giant pump like think about the lunchroom and there's like a station with mustard ketchup and ranch I think I like maxed out my ranch consumption in high school and anyways so I do think I have a few notes this podcast I might wrap up kind of quickly here because I'm just like filling the midday blues um plus I want to do my chores and I want to like get some fresh air and try to stay awake why did my mom just sent me a send me a picture of a chainsaw mom here I'm showing the camera what's this what what is this wait oh it's a hedge cutter my mom's cutting hedges today she's like she sent us a video she's like debate tonight because the

last presidential debate tonight uh is going on she sends a video with that caption and it's like her working out in her garage and then she sends a picture of her hedge cutter because we have when i graduated eighth grade random stories that's what this fucking show is called random up stories with Jacqueline oh when I graduated eighth grade I remember on the day I graduated we all went home and planted like 70 trees around our property uh these like laurel bushes my mom's whole like landscaping vibe at her house is it's Italian as fuck we have like English roses and then Italian boxwood like hedge things everywhere and we planted those in eighth grade and now she's, you know, at her house, and she's, you know, no kids, no help, and she's got to cut

these fucking bushes today before the debate, and that's what my mom's up to, if you want to know. She will be the first guest, by the way. I know I mentioned having, doing interviews with other people. She'll be the first guest coming this December. Okay, let's look at my notes. Oh, here's a few things. Episode 49. I have so many notes. I do like a note a day, right? So this thing is it's long it's funny to like look back at old notes and go whoa why did I talk about that um oh life advice nah I wrote I want a fabulous life should I should I riff on that should I should I do that I always tell you guys my hopes and dreams and my goals and visions, right? So like I was thinking about it and I just want a fabulous life. I think

I have, I know I have one right now, but I imagine that this, it can only go up from here. You know what I mean? I'm at this mid twenties age where I'm like, I'm ready. You know what I mean? I'm ready for showbiz. I'm ready for this big stage. I'm ready for Broadway. Like I'm ready to take it to the next level. And I don't know if you can hear that in my voice every day, but I really feel like I've got I've got the I don't know like I've I'm at this like there's no going back turning point in life and I know it's only going to get more fabulous from here and I just dream about like I mentioned like going back back to London and traveling a lot more when shit opens back up and it's normal again and like having a rich social life I think I mentioned like episode

15 I'm like I want to be a San Diego socialite I want to put San Diego on the scene I want to be like in the know I want to be like part of the scene here I'm not a sceney type of person I'm not a big giant like social butterfly I'm a transplant I'm from Washington I'm not from here and I feel like I haven't really wedged myself in so I feel like the next couple years I'm gonna just get involved get out get out on the town more have more to talk about on the show someone pissed me the fuck off yesterday and they're like Jacqueline you just need to get out of the house that really hit me that hit me hard that hit me deep now I was like you're right but um dude part of 2020 is me accepting the fact that life is kind of net right now and as long as like I said I have

this vision and dream and goal that it only goes up from here I'm not going back I've learned so many lessons this year I've gotten so close to myself and like I I know I everything that's bad about all my bad behavior surface this year all the shit from my past like it came back up and I getting help for it now and I'm actually addressing it and I'm actually taking action on it so we're only going up for here from here and uh I don't know I think that's what makes me if I had to like deconstruct how I personally think I achieve success in life it's because I'm I think delusional optimism can backfire if you're it can be crazy sometimes so you have to have some sort of like compass about it you can't just be like delusionally optimistic like I'm

gonna you know I'll be the first person to land on Mars I'm gonna do it by myself like no you have to have some sort of rational thought process and strategy behind your goals and dreams and your optimism so I think what's been what's worked for me is I know life is a big roller coaster and there's downs and there's ups so I'm always thinking my brain is always I've done this forever I really when I really deconstruct this I've I always see things in chunks of time so I know like I've chunked out chunky dunk I've chunked out what is it October October November October through the end of December is like me time, family time. And then I look at January through the springtime, you know, getting back into the swing of things in life. You know,

we have a president again. It's not 2020 anymore. You know, maybe I'll, you know, I'll be, I'll be going out more. I'll be more out there. Cause I all I've mentally decided that. So everything in my life is, is it's, it's a little bit planned just a little bit so that I don't stay stuck. If I always have something to look forward to, if I always envision like where I'll be in three months, a year, it helps me work towards that. And, um, you know, I'll be podcasting. That's one thing that'll be consistent shit. And that's something I'm willing to sacrifice. I was really thinking about it. I'm like, you know, as much as I sort of regret not going hard in the paint in the party scene when I first moved to San Diego and like being like fuck it I'm young I

shouldn't I should partake in this I kind of I have a little bit of regret about that like when I first came here I should have lived it up a little bit more than I did I think um I was in a startup company and we did a lot of fun shit I did some traveling but it wasn't how I I wasn't like out in Pacific Beach you know every other weekend and like down in Gaslamp crump into I don't know what's a song a soldier boy song that's a stupid example but like I don't know but now I'm at this point where I'm like I'm willing to sacrifice I didn't actually love that or enjoy it I just envision myself doing more of that but I'm at this point where I'm willing to sacrifice let me just get to the point uh having a super crazy like you know social life where I'm

out late because I got a podcast every day and I'm willing to you know cut it early not stay out till 4 a.m. occasionally I'll obviously do that but I have to keep in mind that I gotta stay on the straight and narrow man I got a podcast seven days a week god you show people aren't what is this fucking quote I said I was like if it was easy everyone would do it so I'm gonna be that that person who's like sorry can't got a podcast that's why I'm good on the big leagues that's all i gotta say about that um believe in yourself of course oh shit i just had a dream last night oh okay i have a couple thoughts something about tinder and there's something about a dream that's actually more like an invention so i've been bored a little bit so i've been on tinder just

browsing kind of like i don't know reading bios seeing what people are saying about themselves and it's entertainment right i'm not a place to meet anyone or like do anything right now and i don't like I'm not seeing anything on there but it's fun so I found myself as I was swiping I'm like I'm being so judgmental and so like like in my head I'm being like so mean and then I was like Jacqueline because sometimes it's cringy like when you go on tinder it's it's a bit cringy when you read people's bios and you see their pictures it's like this is the best you can come up with and I know people are probably saying that about me so you know everyone's a hypocrite I want to talk whatever like I have I think my bio is just my Instagram handle okay so but here's what I want

to say I realized while I was swiping that we're all just trying to do our best you know what I mean they're these guys are doing the best they can and they're probably you know some of them might be a little insecure about their profiles and they're like damn I wish I had better pictures to post myself and they're just trying to do the best they can so I just changed my my mind about or like I reframed or re-thought about how I was swiping and thinking about people and I felt like empathy or whatever I'm like we're all just trying to do the best we can put our best foot forward you know what if your uh best foot forward is like what's the common picture I just cringe at Oh, I'm down. By the way, I don't understand the thing that's like, I think it's a meme or I don't

know. It's like girls don't like when guys are holding up a fish. That's my dream. Hold a fish up in a picture. Hit me up. If you got pictures of yourself with a fish, send them to me. That's your homework. Learn about the stock market and then send me a picture of you holding a fish. That's my shit. Those are my people. I talked about that yesterday. I like the country boy vibe and I like fishing I really want to go fishing actually um but it's like a big turnoff for a lot of girls they're like I don't want to see a picture of your fish and I'm like please show me it anyways um oh and I was gonna tell you the the dream I had that it was like an invention and this is why I woke up at 4 a.m oh my gosh this is like I don't know if it's genius but

let's get into it okay so for whatever reason I was dreaming about puzzles like puzzles everyone was playing at the beginning of quarantine like those kind of puzzles jigsaw puzzles little puzzles big puzzles puzzles I was dreaming about puzzles that puzzles what a cute word um and I came up with this idea in my dream and I wrote it down on a note I woke up and this is actually why I woke up at 4 a.m now that I think about it I had to look in my note to find that out but um I was thinking about this might sound so stupid but you know how the whole point of a puzzle is to put the bitch together like putting you find the puzzle pieces that connect and it makes a picture right that's the whole point of it so I'm like you know total

me my brand what's the opposite of that what's more trendy than that I want to do everything the opposite of what's normal um stop making that noise everyone hates that uh so it's like what if it was about taking the puzzle apart but you take the puzzle apart in a way that it's like choose your own adventure kind of there isn't so think of a this could be a drinking game this could be a like a Ouija board or like some sort of like directing your life game spiritual shit type of game I don't know basically think of a picture of let's just think of fucking a beach scene let's say okay you know what let's call this this is a drinking game version let's start with that then I'll get to my other version this puzzle is a picture of a beach with like a corona

a bottle in the middle. And this is a drinking game. It's in the middle of your, it's on a coffee table. You're in someone's apartment. Everyone's drinking beer. All right. And this is a drinking game. Again, this is a drinking game. This is a puzzle. Here's the point of the game. So you take the puzzle, the puzzle piece away randomly. And then on the bottom of it, it's like you have to do something. Okay. And then maybe there's like colors involved. So like if two colors happen in a row that means something you know what I mean so the whole point of the puzzle game is to take it apart and I'll put it together that is the gist of my dream that is my invention but then I was thinking this is where it got deep this is when I was dreaming and I'm like oh I don't know if I

like this I think I saw a TikTok last night yeah I did about I don't think I liked it I can't go play the audio but this guy was talking about how like time travel is real and every like you can think about doing something like I'm gonna drink this coffee right now boom I'm drinking coffee I just time traveled he like made this TikTok that was like it blew my mind kind of and I was like wait that makes sense so anyways I watched that right before bed of course and then I dreamed about this puzzle game but then I was thinking what if stay with me now I'm sleep deprived I'm going crazy but this is my invention what if like the puzzles you would like take a puzzle piece out let's say the scene is something more spiritual there's like

fucking moons and stars and astrology shit because that would sell okay I'm thinking this as a screwed businesswoman I'm thinking this thinking about this puzzle game as a this is like a i've got this uh you know something i could sell right what am i saying uh i'm thinking of this from a business perspective so yeah the the astrology shit would sell would sell hard um to all the white girls with nose rings so um is that am i gonna did i just say that i'm gonna get canceled i don't give a fuck white girls with the nose rings would love this shit basically take the puzzle piece away and would say something about life you know some sort of spiritual something but like the dream was creepy about this puzzle

because I was doing it in my dream and every puzzle piece I took away made sense for the one previously and that that's what was creepy about it and I'm like what if this was a game and it just made it did that for people like whatever was everything would make sense together no matter how you took the puzzle pieces away. But I don't know. I got like in my head about, I was dreaming about it. I'm like, I'm doing this and everything makes sense. Everything connects. I'm deconstructing this puzzle. I'm like, it's spiritual and it's telling me about my life and my, like the courses I'm going to take and inspirational shit. So anyways, that was on a note in my phone to talk about today. So there you go. Puzzle, puzzle drinking game slash puzzle astrology game for

white girls with nose rings um oh i was gonna talk about puking in elementary school and then i was gonna talk about the times i've puked in public i don't know if that's essential to talk about today but uh i'll just mention the elementary school puking so like it was obviously this is shit i see on tiktok i don't know who to give credit to but everyone makes up people a lot of people reminisce and talk about like elementary school and shit that would happen but someone talked about puking in elementary school and it made me realize how like do you remember how you'd be in the middle of third grade it's like 2 p.m you're doing social

studies learning about social i don't even know what the fuck social studies is wasn't that like I learned about towns I think like how a town works I don't even know there's like streets and a library and a PUD anyways um and then all of a sudden you know Martha in the back corner would puke all over her desk out of nowhere like it was always a kid puking on their desk with no like warning no trying to rush to the bathroom they just did it all over their desk and then you'd have i remember like the teacher's assistant or the teacher whoever the fuck like a mom would show up with a bag of cat litter to cover the desk of puke up to neutralize the scent and then we would like get excused while they cleaned it so we don't have to sit there and

smell it we'd always like go out to i remember we go out to the playground for like 10 minutes and fuck off and make fun of the person for puking anyways i don't think i ever puked in elementary school or did i ever like shit my pants i never do anything did i ever like i don't know I think I don't know but the only time so when I when I saw this last night on TikTok I was like I was thinking about the one time I puked in public in college was in a bagel shop at like 2 a.m and that's the only time I can remember and it wasn't that dramatic like could have been worse um and I was laughing all the way through it because I was like this is my first time I'm so sorry I've never puked and I'm like completely like drunk off my ass having fun about it I'm

like no I'm like taking care of it mopping up my own fucking puke like no no I got it let me take care you know and then I clean that bitch up in like two minutes I get real productive when I get drunk like my favorite thing to do at the end of a night when I'm done drinking and this isn't a flex this is just who I am okay this is me being real being authentic being honest my favorite thing to do when I'm super drunk at night is cleaning organizing it's like I'm cracked out i'm just like just like kitchen clean organization everything like lined up i don't know i get energy when i drink like um and especially if there's like people around that are i'm just talking i'm like talking and cleaning it's kind of like when you're on the phone mindlessly mindlessly walking

around when i'm drunk i'm mindlessly organizing shit so anywho i think this podcast turned around after uh you know a few minutes of working the kinks out oh life advice i'm gonna end this because i don't know uh life advice today this is a throwback to an impulsive episode who knows how long ago but they always say that they're the best advice they ever got this is logan paul and his guy logan paul and the boys on his podcast um but they they talked talked about the best life advice they ever got was to exceed expectations exceed expectations and that's that stuck with me a lot and then I was thinking about it like taking that to another level or the next step is like being unforgettable is so badass like if there's a if there's something I've learned

about or just I'm gonna I'm a huge observer I like look at it I look at successful people and i'm like what is it what do they have what is it that makes them special you know what i mean and they're unforgettable what what how they act how they talk to people how they present present themselves like um how they help people it's it's so like you can't forget it it's so i don't know something to think about you only live once you know not to get deep but it's like how can you go above and beyond and make your life experience as awesome as possible and And again, back to what I was saying about feeling good about posting on social media seven days a week, like where I finally, I know what it's like now to be in alignment

with my purpose, doing something that feels productive and not mindless, like posting on YouTube once a day instead of sitting and watching YouTube all day or like posting my own podcast. um I know what it's like now to be super fulfilled and feel like the quality of my life and my experience is so it's high quality as fuck right now it's high quality it's just it feels good so as far as being unforgettable exceeding expectations it's like be that person that chums up the lady at the grocery store who's checking out your groceries like that's a cliche example but like be the kind of person that is a crowd worker you know what I mean like

be it I don't know put yourself out there and in my experience with that it's like you feel good and then other people feel good and it's a domino effect I think it's easy especially now when we're all neck down or you know our necks are bent half staring at our phones in public It's kind of easy to fly under the radar and not really talk to people or exude energy and make conversation with strangers. It's a different world we live in now. So, I don't know. That's what I've, I don't know. I don't know.

I think I I prioritize that now more than ever because I think it's lacking and I love how I feel when I do it so I don't give a fuck honestly here's where I'm at too I like to sometimes I get angsty and bitchy but like look I already mentioned I think it was yesterday that I've completely given up on trying to appeal to people on the internet trying to like look hot and look a certain way and be like I'm this attractive influencer chick who's you know so dope like I've given up on that I don't care about that anymore it's not I don't value that anymore or prior it's not I don't look at that as an aspirational thing anymore like I used to and what was the see train of thought left the building um oh in the same way I don't give

the fuck about being obnoxious being out there a little bit and being social in public and saying hello and talking to people and like shaking hands and you know meet great people like I don't can't shake hands in 2020 but like you know what I mean because I know it's good for people I know it's good for me because it helps helps my boring ass social life no it helps me um feel connected feel a sense of community when i'm talking to people it helps other people feel connection and they feel good when someone else is acknowledging their existence and it's the change i want to see in the world you know i long for the days where you know it's it's it's my inner european bitch or inner wannabe european bitch who's like i just

want to be in Italy or no it's like France France is the shit for this like people are just out at cafes chit-chatting all day everyone's out everyone's involved with each other everyone's hanging out it's like this the whole culture is people hanging off each other and like the same like Barcelona when I was there uh all pretty much Europe Europe is like this as fuck um and then Italy like people just everyone's everyone's vibe and everyone's together and it's different here in California it's like I've said this so many times I'm like weirded the fuck out by how there's all these people I like comment on my neighbors I'm like my hot neighbor over there my noisy neighbors over there you know I always talk about them but I'm like it's kind of fucking

weird how I live so close to these pretty, I'm sure they're amazing people, these quality souls around me. And I don't even know anything about them. And here we are doing this life shit together. And I don't even like know them on a personal level. And I'm within, you know, walking distance of their house. It's like, why aren't we all hanging out? Like, why is it, why am I not at my neighbor's houses? Why isn't that a thing? Why isn't anyone leaving an apple pie on my doorstep when I first moved in here? You know what the, what the fuck? can we just pretend it's 1950 again I don't know and it's on me too I take full responsibility and accountability for my lack of putting myself out there and trying to have a rich social life

especially in 2020 like I keep justifying the fact that oh it's a pandemic and well I don't say that no I've never been like that I've never been like a hardcore believer and saying that but I've kind of ridden that wave of like shit's locked up or locked down people are you know no one's really out mingling bars everything's closed so I've been and I think on the flip side of that it's like well you started talking to yourself on a podcast every day so something positive came out of that but at some point a bitch is going to go crazy and you need to socialize so I'm going to practice what I preach coming 2021 coming soon to a theater near you coming soon to the Jacqueline Monroe show in 2021 I'm gonna be that socialite I dream of being of my I neighbors are being

fucking loud upstairs it's tripping me up on my words um got chairs rustling again no I'm gonna be I'm going to speak my shit into existence my goals into existence and that is the whole point of this podcast in a selfish way like my intentions and a lot of my intentions of doing this are rooted around saying something sharing it with the world and following through with it because I personally struggled with that for so long and I and I've been convinced like you know I have ADHD, adult undiagnosed ADHD, which I still have not gotten checked out yet, which I need to do. There's a lot of things that I go, why is this my behavior? Why am I like this? And I get real frustrated by it. So the one thing I know I can be consistent at, and it's so fulfilling that

I love to do is podcasting. So I'm doing it for myself. Gotta take care of myself before I can take care of anyone else. Yo, if I want to raise a family, if I want to have a, you know, if I want to commit to someone and be in a flourishing relationship someday, I got to take care of my shit. I got to take care of myself. And I know it's pretty unique and special to have a podcast in 2020. So here, that's what I got to do. I got to join that club. Got to do this every day. And anyways shout out realizing things shout out grove anyways let's check the dms just to see if anyone's making fun of me i don't know what i posted today but it was a lot i look like shit i'm so over it feels so good girls girls out there

listening here's some more life advice i can't tell you how freeing it feels it's not like i've given up so don't take this as like you're letting yourself go you've given up you're not gonna put yourself together and make yourself presentable anymore no it's not about that it's literally eliminating I've eliminated the mental like the fear I had the insecurity of like showing up on the internet in a you know looking like shit or just like being how I look in how I look at, you know, when I roll out of bed in the morning, like, I get, I gave up on, I've just, I don't give that energy anymore, I don't think about it, I'm not like, oh, I need to get my glam on before I post on social media, I know it's a competitive world, I know, I know there's levels

to this shit, I know that, you know, there's, it's, there's a hierarchy out there, there's a fucking pyramid, or whatever the fuck, there's a social ladder, there's a class system in this world, but I don't give a, I don't care about that. I don't, you know what? I think what's, what, it's changed for me. You know, I used to, I get it though. Like it's competitive. You want to put on a good face. You want to show off that you've got your shit together, especially if you got employers watching, you know what I mean? Like I get it, but there's something freeing ladies out there listening as a, as a girl who struggled this for a while. Like there's something so freeing about just not not worrying about it at all because people it's like

i don't know we're i i think we've learned the lesson of like that fakie shit or just like the perfect image stuff is it's old-fashioned now like it's getting so outdated like filters and looking a hundred a haunted a haunted always looking fucking airbrushed on the instagram I'm just like, it seems old fashioned now. It seems like a pastime. I think what people want to do now is like, I think the Gen Z kids are doing it right in a lot of ways. I know I've bitched. I'm like, these kids are literally becoming bajillionaires in their, you know, with their, in their oversized hoodies and acne, like act in talking about their depression and anxiety and they're millionaires for it. But there's something to be said about that. Like

it's real it's relatable it's it's actually like comfy to watch and pay attention to instead of being like like watching someone and just being kind of in your heart going like oh that's like unattainable and then you're kind of jealous and insecure about yourself because of it because everything you see is so perfect so yeah I'm saying it now it's old-fashioned as fuck I don't think we're gonna be maybe we will I'm sure Jeffree Star you know you got it's like keeping up the Kardashians they're probably going to continue it all the bloggers are going to continue because it's their careers but like I don't know it's freeing if you give it up and you're just like this is who I am I don't like to waste time I think time is it's so precious I take it a lot

more seriously now and I think I've wasted a lot of time in my womanhood so far caring too much it's that Krystalia fucking line he does in one of his specials back in the day uh he's like hey girls I just got to tell you something and he's like pause relax and I remember that so hard when I first saw that I'm like that's it that's really it relax it's we we care too much we worry too much we're overthinking everything and especially about fucking Instagram and like looking cute and not put yourself in a bad angle and fucking zit on your face and like I'm learning so much I didn't even understand there's so much like filler you can get done too now like I I get I get an education every day from Instagram but I didn't realize like

these different like I'm starting to get under my eyes like a I think it's like not eye bags but kind of like a like I'm getting older there's like a little crease there and I learned about getting you can get that shit injected now I'm like what the fuck now I have to do that too much man I get I get stressed out I just want to drink coffee and podcasts and age gracefully that's what I want to do I want to age gracefully I'm not going to let myself so when I go gray though this podcast is so random sorry what the fuck was that puzzle segment no but like yo when i go gray i'm not gonna i won't let myself go in that way like i'm definitely gonna dye my hair blonde for um for like as long as until i'm like 90 i just got a notification from san diego

earthquakes we got a 3.5 mag 97 northeast of san diego at 1 59 p.m in nyland nilland california yeah oh the 4.2 wait what time is that at somewhere up in uh is that the salton sea i don't like the san diego earthquake updates and the other day there was like 52 they called it like a earthquake storm or something in this is it the salt and sea yeah there are so many little ones and people are freaking the fuck out they're like yep 2020 this is how it's going this is how we're going out west coast has fallen in the water san andre's fault breaking the fucking half that's how it's happening I should end this podcast you know I gotta say for feeling tired before I did this and

not really having anything in particular to talk about I think I did a decent job today I always say podcasting makes me feel better by the time I'm done with it I'm like yes I can do anything I can accomplish all my goals I'm amazing I am beautiful I am smart I am talented I am important people care about me and that's how I feel when I'm done with this and that's that's cool so I don't know 49 episodes in I think I'm really coming into my own I think this is still so fulfilling I feel like so passionate about it I don't glow or no excuse me gush about podcasting that much anymore because I think it's annoying but right now I'm really feeling like doing it I really am I know this is only the this is only the beginning it's only

going up from here I'm taking you guys along for the ride it's like a little horseback ride this is a long you guys are on a we're crossing what is the Oregon Trail wait a minute didn't the Oregon Trail go through like the entire United States didn't start in like Louisiana and go all the way to Oregon I don't know but this is a long journey I've been here I'm in I'm in this bitch for a long time and I gotta be vulnerable right now and say this oh my gosh I thought I was gonna end the podcast but I feel like is there I don't know if it's pride or ego or I don't really know what what to call it but I know there's advice out there that's like don't tell people your goals and like keep it to yourself work in silence you know what I mean real g's move in silence and

don't tell people what you're up to and all that stuff but I think for me there's something to be said about sharing my goal to do this every day with the world and feeling like I have I'm doing this like I feel like I'm working for you like I'm doing this I'm proving it to myself I can do it every day but I'm like look this is a product recording and delivering to the people seven days a week so I feel a sense of and that's what I've I've struggled with especially in different jobs and stuff like I have to have some sort of accountability system I have to have some sort of like I have to have a very specific plan of execution when things are going to be you know dates timelines all that shit like down to a t you have to be very organized because if I don't

have that sort of structure in place if I didn't tell myself to if I didn't have the dream to do this seven days a week and I just said I want to be a podcaster without that specific goal I probably would this sucks to admit but I don't think I would I think I would have you know been wishy-washy once a week for like seven weeks and then dip out go home for the holidays forget about it come back in January a couple times you know what I mean but there's something we said about telling the world my goal. Stick into it. And it feels good. So anyways, happy Thursday. I have garbage to take out. Hi, welcome back to my vlog. I have garbage to take out. I have a laundry basket to clean and dishes to do and a nap to take and then a hike to go on and then

a debate to watch hope you guys are happy i hope you're fulfilled hope this podcast helped you some in some way go watch me on youtube if you need a buddy to hang out with on the if you just want a body to look at no that sounded weird you just need like a cam girl no i'm not a cam girl like that i don't show off my body my new thing is like oversized everything just like big ass crew neck hoodies and shit uh because I like to be cozy and I like to drink coffee and not try too hard but um oh a sexy podcast photo shoots to come you guys know like imagine okay think it like shoot this two years out probably not like a year out me and sling in some like boudoir is that what it's called boudoir like some lingerie podcast photo shoot you know

I'm gonna sex it up and put on this headset and look like a little pop star I I said this in the beginning I'm like I want to make this podcasting shit like a fucking like it's already a thing but I want to make it so like I don't know like the YouTube world I want to make podcasting that like every like having a little podcasting studio is like your own little it's like a fucking universe and then you have like your microphone collection I don't know I just like think about it I'm like this shit's kind of it's like a thing it's like a I can't just I can't put it into words normalized podcasting even though it's already normalized normalized talking to yourself normalized talk therapy solo talk therapy one last thing I've said that 10 times now but I

have something to say it's easy for me to get kind of insecure and nervous about people thinking I'm fucking crazy because who does this you know what I mean who does this who talks themselves on a podcast Sundays a week okay and it's easy for me to get in my head about that and that's me former me vintage Jacqueline trying to people please and caring what other people think about me and that's left the chat I've decided in 2020 that's left the chat I don't care this is my purpose this is my goal this is my dream I love I love podcasting so I'm gonna do what I love every day so that's it but I also get insecure about the fact that like if a boy was to see this then I like they'd be like this bitch is crazy it's because I've been gaslit in the past I've had so

much I was thinking about it and I've had like so much negative okay you know what I think it was I was in a relationship once twice two separate relationships where and I don't know if this applies to all guys but I was funnier or like I was I was the entertainer in the relationship when the guys I was dating prided themselves on being that and like being an entertainer and that was their thing and so I think there was some sort of a clash or they couldn't take it and so in one case the gaslighting situation the situation where I ended up my soul ended up being stripped it's like I was made to believe that this is crazy and this is like I'm psycho and I you know the quirky like the shit I say and the way I talk and my humor and all that stuff is

out there and it's not normal and it's crazy and like I don't know manic whatever I would I would get told everything and that's when I I think that was like a time where I just started shutting up I didn't I didn't exercise my free speech no I wasn't talking I just started clamming up and that's when I had this like this crazy I guess identity crisis where I was like I was I felt so suppressed and of course I got out of the situation left the relationship but like I never want to feel like that again and and the other case was similar was like the guy that I was like we got a well we got along so well because you know when like some certain people like post similar content on their social media and like the way they

caption shit is similar and then when you text it's like super it flows super well your humor is so like perfectly matched you can you can it it was great right but I feel like that at the end of the day it ended up clashing because I was the entertainer and he couldn't handle a girl that was more I don't know funny or more like he wanted to be that and then I was like outshining him around his friends and like not like I show up to the social event like hey everyone look at me but it just happens you know what I mean and I think that rubbed him the wrong way and then I don't know at the end it's probably again I'm probably overthinking that I'm a woman I overthink I'm an overthinker um no I'm kidding but like I don't know it's probably who knows what it was

it's just like chemistry it just didn't work out but I think about that sometimes and it's crazy how as much as I want a hundred percent say I don't care I'm showing up exactly who I am I'm giving everyone the most authentic version of me possible and I'm fully accepting that embracing that there's still a piece of me that's like fuck am I is this too over sharing is this too much information especially for my dating life you know what I mean I'm a little bit I'm not stupid you know what I mean I think if I saw a guy on a well no because I'm like I'm obsessed with podcasters hit me up if you're a podcaster I think it's dope but like sometimes it's a bit cringy when you when you see like someone eating hot on the internet start talking and like

it can get cringy because you're like they're just talking to themselves this is kind of weird I don't know I love being in my head though because you work your shit out you figure yourself out you get close to yourself it's real cozy and um that's why i'm gonna be successful at this shit well i am successful at i've done it 49 days in a row fuck off if you you know what what do i always say i'm like who else is doing seven days a row i'm looking at you mpr it's like they're the i think they're the only other seven day a week podcast crew there's got to be other people and I think that's also another that's like my unique so I said I'm such a little shit when the fuck am I gonna end this I was like wait am I done with my coffee no I'm not come on

I was like I told that I've told everyone that I want to be friends with people that are podcasters right established that I just want to be friends with a podcast crew I want to be friends with everyone who does podcasts right and uh want to join the club so I was like there's not something I don't I'm not great at any one thing you know what I mean I'm not like a special person worthy of showing up on a podcast to hit a topic home with someone and to be invited on a podcast you know what I mean I don't feel like I have enough life experience under my belt and enough career experience to show up and sit down across the table of someone and shoot the shit on a podcast at a national level on a worldwide level a large like top level okay so my thing is like

wait a minute I do seven days a week though is that worthy of being on the today show next year like oh this bitch did 365 days in a row let's interview her that's how I think I'm like well my little ego or my little like oh maybe I can really push myself for a year do it for a year straight is that'll make that'll make me that'll give people um peak their interest about me maybe again quantity not quality Jacqueline I don't give a fuck this is my passion I do it 70s a week and that's it and you guys are listening you know what I ran the numbers you guys are listening so that's cool um happy Thursday I'm officially going to call it be self-disciplined and end it right now I think Jocelyn's gonna do nap nap time round two before I take out my garbage

David Goggins would bitch me out and say Jocelyn take out your garbage do your laundry do your dishes upload the podcast do that all before you take a nap I'm feeling like a little quitter right no I just want to post this and nap anyways love you guys a lot really I do uh thanks for you know the support you guys are it feels nice it's different now that I have a podcast where you guys message me and bring up stuff I talk about and I feel like I'm closer than ever I don't have a huge audience I'm not like some mega influencer person but the conversations I do have with people are really like I value those a lot they're very I don't know full and I guess you guys really you know you really if you're listening to me

you probably relate to me in some way and that's cool and uh only going up from here I my neighbors sorry try not to be insecure about me them overhearing me but sometimes it's hard um rails are falling off the train what do i always say that train is falling off the tracks now the rails the wheels are falling off the wagon all right i love you guys again uh happy thursday patreon.com slash tjms if you want to support the show i always link it in the show notes if you want to click it uh get all my behind the scenes exclusive content and then also um excuse me get a shout out at the end of each podcast and then you can go over to youtube to watch this today i'm wearing my cotton candy sweatshirt and pearls again with my hair in a bun and i'm

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