The Jacqueline Monroe Show - 50- Off The Rails Pt. 2

Episode Date: October 23, 2020

Happy Friday! I talk about the debate, football, 50 Cent, cockiness, body shaming, Seahawks + Antonio Brown?, and how bad my back hurts. Have a great day!! :) Patreon.com/TJMS https://soundcloud.com/robmonmusic

Happy Friday. It's episode 50. Welcome back to the show. hi it's Jacqueline welcome back to the show happy Friday I cannot believe I've done this 50 days in a row now. Hi. And on that note, I have a theme song for today's podcast. Cause I'm out here grinding. I do this for the streets. I don't care what nobody says. I'm going to be me. Okay. I'll stop. Um, hi. Uh, that's a theme song for today's podcast. I was going to play a 50 Cent song, but I'll be mentioning him a lot in the later half of this podcast. There's a reason for it. I'm looking at The 50th Law, a book by 50 Cent and Robert Green, and it's

going to be the last segment of the podcast. It's going to get juicy. It's going to get deep. This is going to be a great episode. It's Friday. I'm feeling good. So let's get into it. I mean, right off the bat, if you're new, if you're just joining, hi, I'm Jacqueline. from Washington state moved to San Diego in 2018 and I'm at the point now where I feel like this is the right time I'm in my mid-20s I feel like this is the right time to document my life experience and you know it's been a crazy year and I decided to do a podcast and here we are episode 50 and I feel like I'm becoming the best version of myself every day I get a little closer And I am sharing a lot about, um, the stuff I struggle with and my thought process behind

doing a podcast every day and being a, yeah, doing, breaking in this industry, drowning out these hoes, doing it seven days a week as I joke about all the time, but it's been a lot of fun. And, um, I just want to start off by saying like, thank you. You know, I don't know. I feel like I've come to a conclusion. And I'm like, I'm coming to a pause 50 episodes in like, wow, this has been a crazy podcast. This podcast is basically like whatever I want to talk about.

It's a politics podcast. It's a fitness podcast. It's sports, stock market, coffee, social media, fucking, you know, like pop culture news, everything. And you guys have been so accepting of whatever I talk about and you're down with it. You're down for the fact that I don't niche down. I don't niche down on any one topic and that's selfish. I get it.

You know what I mean? like it'd be helpful for me or for you guys let me slow down it would be more helpful if you clicked on my podcast every day and I hit a topic home and stuck to one theme but I just I I have undiagnosed adult ADHD probably and that's not happening so thank you for the support um but today I'm going to try to keep the train on the train tracks the wheels on the wagon whatever the hell I always say um and you know stick to the stick to the script here yeah I do write a I write some notes I'm totally cool with admitting that um I don't care what nobody says I'm gonna be me um oh okay shit let me turn that off I I've been so insecure about how terrible I am at sound

effects and like syncing up songs I just like actually planned that um as I said it I paused and then I played it and now I'm insecure about that so hi um eventually I'll get good at mixing sound effects and whatever but dude month two I know I've done this 50 episodes or excuse me 50 days in a row now but month two I have so much to learn I'm so new at this it's not like you can I mean yeah if I if I went hard in the paint and tried hard put in more effort instead of lounging around and taking naps all day for the first month if you're new I was uh chronically nap or I was napping for two hours a day not because of depression or anything I think it was my new medication side effect something like that and uh it's finally going I'm not that's not

happening anymore but I've come it's been a journey and I'm uh I'm at this phase now where I'm shifting gears you know episode 50 I'm like let's let's level up bitch let's level up let's let's take this a little more seriously and uh anyways I'm just trying to be honest you know what I mean I'm not a pro maybe someday but not now all right let's talk about yesterday anyways um my phone is at one percent battery it was so pissed right before I recorded so it's on a charger right now useless information nobody needs to know let's check my notes about yesterday um so I didn't take the garbage out first of all that was my goal I had two garbage I'm still looking at the two garbage bags um didn't happen I washed my kitchen though I put should I restart this I cleaned my

dishes yesterday and I didn't take out my garbage and I did not do laundry I'm a bad adult this is my vlog I'm telling you what I did anyways um that's annoying that's unimportant I went to the doctors yesterday morning I was wilding out on Instagram stories all day I don't know what that was um and i watched the debate and the eagles and uh giants game which was hilarious uh not actually the tripping part was hilarious excuse me excuse my language can i even form a fucking sentence today i don't know let me take some take a water break dude i should get a water boy oh by the way okay so i'm already thinking about hiring staff probably in like five years strictly diversity hires no white people so if you're white sorry you're I I can't um unfortunately

hire you but I I'm now that I'm you know I just said water boy I think I'm gonna I think I'm gonna include a water boy in my uh on my staff that'd be sick someone like I know I get real creative with my podcast shit but like I imagine me like here I am you know I've told you guys just like being an athlete every morning pre-podcast I feel like I'm in the locker room and now I'm out in the court or I'm on the field like this is game time game ready right now and I think a water boy would be hilarious I don't need to google I don't need someone to google for me like a Jamie I just want a water boy and again strictly diversity hires no white people anyway so what was I talking about oh yesterday um I don't know oh yeah I said I went to the

doctors I have a note here to tell you guys that I'm proud of myself I'm on my own health insurance pay for my own health insurance currently uh I feel proud about that you know for your whole life you're on your parents health insurance and then boom not anymore I'm paying for it myself which is kind of I finally had to figure out how it worked this year and damn I'm proud of that so I went to the doctors last night's debate was it was a great it was great honestly it was uh so much better obviously than last time but um I know this can become a political podcast very quickly if I let my mouth run a little too long and I'm going to refrain from that today I do want to get into the 50 cent topic the whole like more deep section of the podcast so I'm going to run through

the debate I mean on both sides they did a fabulous job in my opinion just the temperament was so like nice and lukewarm no um you know screaming and chaos like the like the first one i don't know i think the moderator she did a good job just keeping the ship afloat and really steering it and keeping it you know going she wasn't taking anyone's shit like she really i think she did a great job um anyways enough about that there's there's stats and data about the fact that the debates don't really uh impact the way the election goes like most people are decided and apparently like 40 million people have pre-voted so last night was a bunch of bullshit it was interesting it was entertainment i enjoy myself um anyways watch the eagles game dude

fucking daniel jones's trip after i think that was like an 80 yard run he did oh i know that is i know it was because i'm reading my note here so i'm cheating see you guys can't if you're not watching this on youtube you have to understand i might sound cool to you sometimes when i talk about football stats and you know what I mean like I'll drop some shit like a name drop like Daniel Jones QB for the Giants tripping like I'll say that and that might be impressive to you but just know I wrote that before the podcast and I'm proud I am I am proud to be American no I am embracing that you know what I mean it's part of being a host come prepared I come prepared I bring a notebook i come prepared um anyways that was funny their twitter was just freaking out about

that last night so yeah debate giants eagles game go eagles um great and i love close games like that um and then this morning of course worked out this is this seems so dry i need to like this is because i'm not drinking coffee right now i'm not jacked up enough um anyways this morning i worked out i did sprints yay okay same same shit different mornings different day and then i ate beef for breakfast i've been insecure about talking about beef and my consumption of beef beef this is like not i i think that's who i think a vegan gave me a one-star review because i i piss off i know i piss off a lot of vegans for uh how much i talk about animal products and consuming um beef anyways i ate beef and butternut squash for breakfast oh my gosh it's

alliteration beef and butternut squash for breakfast there's that onomatopoeia what is that dude words anyways it was so good i was starving after those sprints i need i needed some fuel i had some leftover ground beef and butternut squash and i ate that for breakfast then i took a zoom meeting with my job yeah dude you guys i don't know if anyone knows this but Yeah. I'm double teaming myself with my, no, I'm fucking, I got a job. All right. I got a job. I got a podcast. I do a lot of shit. You know, I'm a stock investor now, apparently, by the way, not shy about this. Here's a how to book on how to day trade for a living by, uh, Andrew Aziz. I'm showing off a lot of books today. I've got the 50, 50 cent book and how to day trade for a

living. I'm just saying, figure it out, figure out the stock market. That's your homework. go on Amazon there's some great books and you know what here's a tangent to go on I'm at this point now where I am so down to admit that I don't know shit about anything in the world and how shit works especially the stock market I am so comfortable saying that and admitting that because no one really knows what the fuck is going on on a lot of levels okay especially adults I'm not trying to pretend and posture and puff up my chest and be like I'm a businesswoman I'm so good at what I do I'm great at marketing I'm so good at the stock I can just pick the stocks like it's magical what I'm capable of doing like fuck that I'm young I'm I'm you know I've got I've got a

college education under my belt and a few years of corporate job experience and uh that's it I don't have I'm not Barbara Corcoran I'm not a shrewd businesswoman like Barbara Corcoran on Shark Tank fuck no I know I'm getting angsty right now but like yo I'm I want to invite everyone out there to be real honest with themselves you know it's 2020 let's dig deep let's you know let's get honest about our shit and admit that there's a lot to know there's a lot to learn and what I what I do now is I chunk out chunky dunk I chunk out my evenings I did it all week um I don't know why that's probably not a good bedtime story to read about the stock market like how dry but I've been reading a lot of um trying to brush up on the terms and I think I'm gonna

give myself a vocab test next week is that kind of shit like I think this what the stock market um this thing I struggle with a lot like when I watch people talk about it and and everything is the terminology and the words they use if you don't understand them it sounds like Chinese so oh is that offensive sorry like to an American it sounds like Chinese to a Chinese person it would sound like an American English language okay so anyways why did I say that oh um I don't know my back hurts. Oh, Oh, I was going to mention, I said, I'm, you know, a podcaster. I've got a job. I, you know, getting into the stock market, I'm a shrewd businesswoman, whatever. Uh, and I have a note here to tell you guys that these are my grinding years.

These are my grinding years. I'm in my mid twenties. You know what I mean? I'm throwing a bunch of shit against the wall and seeing what sticks. And right now it's obviously podcasting clearly 50 days in a row, but, um, I'm willing to work seven days a week can stay up all night and do that shit and I'm really I was so rejuvenated after my zoom call this morning I'm like ready to take it to the next level not only with this podcast but with my job and my life and my everything man okay this year has really thrown me into a trench and now on the other side I'm like never again I don't ever want to go back it's all about momentum baby just little baby steps accumulating over over time it's like a snowball rolling down a ski hill what the fuck

am I saying oh my oh um why was gonna why was I gonna talk about getting body shamed wait oh shit okay so I just said my back hurts let's get into this I just took a little time out and went to the locker room to tell myself to calm down collect my thoughts pace yourself today this is gonna be a banger of an episode Jacqueline if you could just calm down all right so I wrote here that my back hurts and then that made me that made me remember or recall a time when I used to date a former chiropractor who um body shamed me because I had a twisted rib cage anyways one one day he discovered that my rib cage is twisted and so I'm realizing now you know mid-20s you know things are breaking down slowly but surely it's probably the weight gain this year but honestly um I think

in a lot of ways it's probably contributing my misalignment of my body is probably contributing to my my pain my back pain but um you know he also body shamed me for having weak scapula control um and flat feet but you know what then I okay I'm literally reading notes and because I was I was spiraling I was thinking about it I'm like my back hurts I dated this chiropractor who would like I said it wasn't bought like body shaming like fat shaming even though he showed me a ton of pictures of his exes all the time who are real thin and I was always insecure about myself like I should never eat and I didn't I would protest I get pissed off at him and I wouldn't eat got real thin real thin real thin almost as skinny as his ex is not that close but

like on that level. Why am I saying this? He was, um, not good for me. I'm glad I ended that relationship, move forward in life. But I realized like the subtle comments about my bone structure, cause he was a chiropractor kind of got to me. It kind of got to me and I got real, I got real insecure about my shit, especially having flat feet. So anyways, I was spiraling here. I am writing notes, reading them to you guys. This is basically a, make this your fucking bedtime story. Okay. I'm reading off. I'm reading a book out to you guys right now. Good evening today. I'm gonna talk about flat feet anyways I started spiraling and thinking about fucking the time when okay a lot of people out there have flat feet in fact I want to prove it to you guys

a lot of badass motherfuckers out there have flat feet let's google this celebs with flat feet I do know Logan Paul and Mike from Impulsive talk about having flat feet and I'm like that's it if they need a female guest. They should, they should hire me up. Cause I also have flat feet. Um, dude, why does my brain work like this? I don't know what's going on. Celebs with flat feet. Dwayne Wade. Oh shit. Okay. A lot of NBA players have flat feet. Gasol, Tony Parker, Kobe. Oh fuck. I'm, I'm sad now. kobe bryant had flat feet apparently according to this um but it's i started remembering so i would get um shame about that and i worked for a company that was helping people reverse their flat feet

and like help okay it's called move you just go look it up on instagram that's what it was called i don't know i don't care about saying it uh saying the name of the company but there you go they help people like get control of their bone structure and like you know if I took if I you know applied myself I could probably untwist my rib cage with the direction of the or with you know the help of what they teach anyways what am I saying then I had an epiphany then I should I go back to the locker room should I go back this is a train wreck what did I say I have a hurt back because and then I remember getting body shamed I'm so dramatic I'm dramatic as fuck um sorry happy Friday this is I don't know is this too

energetic for you here's what I want to say again then Logan Paul and Mike have fluffy and okay so then I said that then I had this realization that I so when I worked for this company I got to work with ab and antonio brown when he was traded to the raiders and i got to go and he you know i was invited to his i don't know should i say this fuck it i don't give a shit um my boss was friends that type of connection went to his house i was doing like slow-mo footage of his footwork and as i'm doing it i'm like this motherfucker has flat feet and he's the number one wide receiver in the NFL the fuck that's that's honestly all I had to know I was like fuck it now I'm seeing Dwayne Wade has flat feet I'm seeing Kobe Bryant moment of silence please

has flat feet pad fuck um now that sounds fake how I'm like pausing like that no I'm genuinely like upset my stomach hurts right now those number one athletes have flat feet and look what they do so you know what i'm embracing it i'm down with it i'm cool with it it's sexy you know what the queen of fucking excuse me the princess of wales what is her name she has flat feet i saw a photo of her and um why can't i remember her name it's not megan markle jacqueline you know you're british royalty i'm tripping up right now should i just play the music um shit i'm tripping why can't i think you know my brain doesn't work right now um god damn it the duke duchess of cambridge

oh my god i'm looking at a picture of her i'm just losing brain cells today sorry um turning that off my bad oh too many tabs open dude this is a train wreck this is why I'm hiring up doing diversity hiring in five years I need help can you hear you guys like I said I'm I'm cozy and comfy telling you I'm new at this and I kind of suck I'm trying to remember a person's name right now and I'm trying to you know when I you know Kate Middleton motherfuckers Kate Middleton I should not put that in a sentence I saw a photo of her and she had flat feet so you know what this is a dude flat feet it's trendy that's all I have to say a lot of athletes have them a lot of great podcasters have them I'm pretty sure Joe Rogan has flat feet too um anyways

yeah so I'm like why am I telling this story so I'm at AB's house in the backyard dude we're throwing fucking football back and forth which is fun as shit and uh I hit his fence because I was going too hard, and I was not, not to toot my own horn, I don't want to sound cocky, I'm actually going to be talking about confidence and cockiness at the end of this podcast, but I was like, damn, I didn't know I had this in me, I haven't thrown a pigskin in a while, so anyways, it was a great time, but I saw his flat feet on the footage, and I'm like, the fuck, anyways, oh, speaking, oh, then I spiraled again, let's spiral even more, then I was seeing on, I was on NFL.com, you know, checking shit out, like I always do, and I saw that Russell Wilson came out with a

beautiful statement about Antonio Brown and giving him a second chance he deserves another chance and that was a beautiful statement and I um I actually posted on my Instagram story today because it was it choked me up a little bit because you know what I'll be honest until you meet someone you don't really know right and I think what how you see people through social media is usually inflated versions of you know someone's personality or they portray themselves larger than they really are or more out there clearly I'm performing and putting on a show right now for the podcast a little bit today I feel like I'm doing it some days I'm more relaxed and calm but today I do feel like I'm putting on a performance that is because it is episode 50 okay and I don't care

nobody says I'm gonna be me see it doesn't the the lyrics weren't synced up correctly there and it doesn't really work but I'm someday I'm gonna have little sound effects and shit um anyways what was I fucking saying I forget already um let's circle back put a pin in that like I legitimately just lost my train of thought flat feet I was talking about do I even okay I know guys I said in the beginning undiagnosed ADHD but I'm literally getting distracted by a truck outside right now a red Ford backing up okay anyways this is that's uh i i people watch to transition when i go brain dead i'm pissed why did i say that why did i forget my train of thought oh until you meet someone

in person you don't really know right like you i i'm the type of person where i have to like i want to until i know you personally and have a conversation like see the whites of your eyes, I'm not going to be so dead set in my opinion of you. That's a real kind of pussy, excuse me, thing to do. No, that's, that's weak shit. That's weak shit. I don't know. Like it's easy to mischaracterize someone, you know, online. Um, and I know I'm probably annoying as fuck to some people out there. I get it. I know what it's like to follow someone and be kind of annoyed by them be like this bitch I can't stop watching her listen to her but like something about her pisses me off you know what is it because I'm too comfortable and I admit that

I'm not comfortable and I don't give a fuck like I used to and I'm gonna tell you guys about my journey of um you know being an insecure wannabe influencer for my whole life and then coming out as myself this year as a podcaster is that annoying I just want to I guess the reason I say shit like that is to kind of like it's my audio diary first of all I'd be writing this in my journal I'm already writing first of all like my journal is part of the podcast but I speak out shit I think about and if it's annoying and offensive and if it rubs you the wrong way like maybe there's something in it that it's kind of true for you maybe you want to maybe this is motivating, or whatever, I don't know, anyways, let's get into, ah, um, dude, flat feet, new trend,

trend alert, um, ah, what was I gonna say, oh, I had an exciting Instagram story view yesterday, don't want to say who, but it was exciting, it's very exciting, like, geez, um, I do check it sometimes I think I don't know like I'm not a big I'm I have like a fake I have a thousand of my followers are fake because when I was 18 my brother he showed like we found an app when we were at a hotel one time on a family trip and I remember we were like getting he I got like an extra thousand followers so whatever I have right now I'll take a thousand off so I'm not like a big influencer you know and that's all you need to know about me by the way oh she like bought followers or she got an app to get followers. Dude, I'm a changed woman. You cannot look at

when I was 18, 18 year old me, she, she was a people pleaser. She wanted, she wanted more followers. She wanted people to like her. And now 26 year old me is like, dude, I'm chilling. I got my own health insurance. I got my own podcast. I don't give a shit. Take me or leave me. That's what I, that's how I, um, I, uh, live my life now, it's like, I'm not for everyone, you know what I mean, that's it, anyways, um, lost my train of thought again, dude, my, again, should I go back to the locker room, what's happening, um, reading my notes, oh, yeah, and I was gonna, I was gonna go into being, like, I was gonna go into having confidence, and, um, I was gonna go into, like, ego and cockiness. So let's get into this. First of all, 50th Law is my favorite book,

50 Cent Robert Greene. I read this at a time when I was just kind of lost, a lost puppy, you know, came across this book and it changed my life. And it changed my life so much to the point where now I'm showing the camera. I've got this giant spiral notebook with Jacqueline Kennedy on the front. She was, uh, the woman I was named after. And, uh, I basically, this is my giant, this, first of all, this book reminds me if you've ever watched the devil, devil wears Prada, it's like the same vibe as, um, was it Miranda Priestly? Who was the, like the villain woman? Who's the, the Vogue, like editor lady in that movie. Anyways, she had this booklet thing that was like the magazine blueprint what is that called I used to put shit together in InDesign

what's that called whatever um so I have one of those myself and I love that 50th law book so much that I took notes on it and actually did you all a solid I screenshotted it and posted on my Instagram story today to share with you because there's some banger um content in this book and the notes I took are like all my favorite parts so I'm showing the camera that too go over to YouTube to watch this you can see the spiral devil wears Prada notebook I'm talking about I think if you've seen the movie you know what I mean it's like the part where Anne Hathaway's character goes into the penthouse and has to like drop off the book thing the magazine blueprint thing in her apartment anyways so I have one of those myself um but oh shit now I lost my my

trying to thought my notebook gotta open my notebook back up because I'm I don't I don't speak off the top of my head I'm not that organized I'm not that good at this dude month two I I'm not a pro yet so I was gonna go into this confidence cockiness arrogance competitiveness topic because I was inspired by something I listened to yesterday I don't want to like this I'm not going to name drop or say anything but I just have some thoughts about what people I don't know how to portray yourself online that's friendly and and like real and relatable versus okay I don't know how to start this this is all going to tie into 50 cent so like get ready I'm going to sail this ship home I know I'm gonna sound like a train wreck right now and this might be all over

the place but I want to get my thoughts out so it would be really easy for me because I am competitive and I'm you know I played sports and whatever but um it would be easy for me to be super cocky about this if like imagine I know I know I got real cocky in the beginning about saying how I'm a daily podcaster I'm drowning out these hoes I'm doing it seven days a week you know like fucking I just spoke so highly of myself but there's a difference between me saying that and some other person with a headset on or a microphone saying that who isn't being sarcastic about it and I can't stand that so like I have some notes because of something I heard where um I say shit to kind of reinforce to try to help build my self-esteem but I'm always

self-deprecating and I'm always taking it down 10 10 levels because I'll just read it from the note from 50 cents book here to tie this together and sail the ship home 50 cents says my superiority is that I know nothing I must keep my mind open to experiencing things as they are the source of all knowledge uh here's another thing he said um see everything as a source of education basically his superiority is that he knows nothing and i apply that like i so tying into what i said about cockiness and being confident about being a podcaster and going to the big leagues and doing the seven days a week i don't know shit i'm still new and is that is he saying that's superior is that I know nothing I didn't want to say that I'm superior I'm just saying that

that's real and I'm sharing that with you and I'm not coming out of the gate saying I'm a pro and I've you know like yeah I've been training for this my whole life because I've been um talking to people forever and I enjoy that I love meetings at the jobs I've had I like talking to people you know what I mean I like chumming a crowd but uh I don't know I think if you're gonna come out and be confident and cocky about your podcasting career it's like sit down get real and just like slightly self-deprecate you have to like if you share that you do have a little self-doubt because no one has a hundred percent confidence and knows everything no one does so when I hear that when I overheard this thing I'm not again I don't want to name drop or say anything it's not relevant to

this story at all it's just like it was the source of my thought um or my reason for talking about this today um anyways I just lost my train dude this is I I so you know how I said I'm going to keep the train on the train tracks today I keep losing the train of thought the train is fucking falling off the tracks I know I said this is going to be all over the place I don't know and then it's like when I say I'm a shrewd businesswoman and I tell y'all to go to patreon.com slash tjms when I say that you can hear it in my voice that I'm like joking like I'm not like full of air and thinking that I'm I am I am so good at um like let's say example I am so good at generating or like

cultivating an audience and marketing this podcast and like I don't just come out saying that because the truth is I'm still learning I'm not a pro at this you know what I mean I'm kind of making it fun by saying I'm a shrewd businesswoman dude I'm not Barbara Corcoran okay I'm not on that level yet dude when I'm 60 I'll be confident about saying that right now it's uh it sounds ridiculous okay I have a lot to learn anyways another thing I wrote here on my notes a couple things is I don't like when people are too private I don't that's why I never really understood the Beyonce hype I don't like when people are too they don't share much about themselves and especially as a no I don't like when people people that are quote-unquote influencers

podcasters uh entertainers celebrities people that are in people in uh the public's face all day on social media and on tv and everything I don't like it when they withhold like the stuff you want to know about them that seems normal to talk about they like don't talk about I don't like that that's what I learned from like um I don't know just observing other people it feels it doesn't feel real and I feel that's why I'm doing the best I can to be honest and open and share kind of this the shit that I love and hate about myself and like you know I'm trying to give you everything and talk about my family and where I come from and my farm life and my fucking private school and getting bullied. I got, you know what? That's probably why I

self-deprecate so fucking much is I got bullied forever. I was fucking body shamed about my rib cage recently. So you know what? That's probably what helps me a little bit. Again, not to be cocky, but I'm, I'm aware. I have an awareness that when you just come out of the gates with confidence and you're just like I'm the best I'm this I'm that I'm competitive I'm just it's annoying it's annoying it's like there's there's a there's a you have to have some sort of like uh there's like a have some poise about it you know what I mean have some poise about your confidence um another thing sort of related is my favorite probably top three my top three Rogan episode this year where Kevin Hart, Elon, and David Blaine. I feel like I'm forgetting

another banger. Well, Nikki Glaser, of course, that was so good. But there's so many bangers. But Kevin Hart for sure, because I loved what he said about giving away the shit you know. Like you're not going to take it with you when you die. So help people, give away your knowledge. That's why I'm talking to you guys about my process and how I think and how I approach this and how I really feel like I'm not gonna fake confidence I think faking it till you make it's great in a lot of ways like I get it but I'm not I don't know if I have an audience if I have a billion eyeballs on me I'm still gonna keep it real like this I'm not gonna fake like fake that I'm great at something I know I'm not great I don't want to feel like a fraud I know what that's

like I've been fake all over the gram for so long trying to be a fucking I'm like a wannabe influencer back in the day you look like my fucking college days like I was trying to like be that girly influencer girl like whatever and I know what it's like to feel like a fraud and so now I'm just like I've learned you know back to Kevin Hart like help people give away what you know, and all I know, I know a lot of shit, so, ah, no, I really don't, is, like, talk about the process, talk about how you're really doing, and how you feel about your skills, you know, for me, in podcasting, like, talk about it, fuck it, who cares if someone knows you're tripping a little bit and you're kind of struggling and the train fell off the tracks six times already on this

episode i'll admit it okay that's real and i know if you're listening out there you're probably at work sometimes and you slip up on your words in a meeting and that sucks and you're embarrassed we all do that kind of shit so i'm doing it i'm like literally i'm in the meeting right now and i'm fucking up on my words and it's uh that's a human it's human it's real it's normal anyways I don't know let's get but let's get into the 50 cent shit now I'm a bit nervous if anyone read between the lines of who I might have been referring to earlier about cockiness and all that but uh it's uh it's good to have awareness you know know yourself it's real easy like I said it's really I'm competitive as shit it would be real easy for me to lean hard on that

and think so and like speak so highly of myself but I know that that's fucking annoying and like you guys are all out there you're like fuck you're all out there like it's 2020 this year's shitty for all of us I'm having a hard time and last thing I want to listen to is a girl thinking I'm the best podcaster in the world I'm the best podcast host I'm gonna go to the tops and drown out these hosts seven days a week fuck that shit okay no it's not real um like what could I tell you like me telling I mean I'm looking at two fucking garbage bags right now not proud of that David Goggins he already bitched me out yesterday he's bitch he mentally I'm getting bitched out right now um I want to read these 50 50th law snippets

these notes I took in 2018 when I wrote this um because and then I want to maybe elaborate on them or think about my life since I wrote this and kind of reflect so let's do this the first thing I wrote in no particular order um actually I'm going to go with this other page that says a thought I had in 2018 speak the this is not the 50th law this is um something else I wrote speak the vision speak the vision into existence I wrote everything begins in language and then I crossed out everything and wrote and wrote in all caps greatness begins in language and I wrote under that nothing is big deal showing the camera go over to YouTube to watch this um interesting I wrote nothing is a big deal speak the vision into existence it's crazy when I read this back

and I reflect on this and go, that's like what I'm doing now. Greatness begins in language. That's kind of cocky thinking I'm going to be some, but yo, I said it a couple of days ago. I want a fabulous life. Okay. I will want to be great. What's the point of your, like, if that's not your goal, I don't want to associate with people that are just like, this is not a diss it's just like I don't want to live an average life I like surrounding myself with people that are like 10 levels above me even though I haven't done that right now late or haven't done that lately especially this year I really but I admire you know I listen to podcasters I watch a ton of people's interviews that I look up to that are 10 levels plus above

me shout out Lex Friedman shout out Elon Musk shout out Mel Robbins shout out all these like oh oh is it todd herman i love no who's the other guy the mind architect guy he works with like athletes and shit um andy for sell another name drop all well rogan and all the people he interviews obviously so i i look up to a lot of great people in my mind that are 10 levels above me because they're where i want to be anyways then i wrote so greatness begins in language nothing is a big deal that's it nothing is a big deal nothing that's uh I've been open about the fact that I don't really I struggle more on the depression side of things more than I struggle on that in that area over or more than I guess anxiety and I know it's linked and related but

I don't have anxiety panic attacks I don't I don't know what it's like to feel pressure on my chest I can't relate to that uh I do a family that family members um real close to me that have that uh experience that so I I get it um but I wrote nothing is a big deal and I and I realized like that's my mindset about shit like I know and I think this is another name drop Marie Forleo yeah Marie Forleo says that heard the best advice she got when she was little I think it's from her mom is her mom told her that everything is figureoutable and a lot of shit sticks with me once I learn and see it I can't unsee it and that's really stuck with me like everything's gonna work out and nothing is a big deal it's like shit happens there's a solution there's

always a solution um so anyways let's get into the 50 law book notes we're getting back on the train track sorry whatever it's my podcast again I don't niche down I talk about whatever I want I don't topic down I don't segment down I pick a say I start a segment and get off the segment then I get back on the segment first note I took here uh from the book make every moment count have a sense of urgency about life have a sense of urgency about life so to reflect on that now this is the part where I'm going to reflect on what I wrote I realized that 2020 has really made adulthood feel like it's pounding on my door like Jacqueline wake up figure it out double down man double down as Gary V would say double down on your

strengths no like adulthood's knocking I'm in my mid-20s 2020 happened I'm looking around at my life no job no direction nothing's clear and so now I do have a sense of urgency that's why I'm doing a seven days a week man okay all right it feels like I'm in a fucking rocket ship it's like Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday Friday Saturday Sunday podcast shit so uh right now I feel like I have a sense of urgency as far as moving the needle forward and and executing on my goals every day where I got I was so uncomfortable with myself in the beginning of first half of 2020 because I was jobless doing nothing lounging so much so depressed just I was like a blob I was a literal couch potato literal like I know like I get the couch

potato thing like I like I identified as couch potato most of 2020 and I was really uncomfortable with myself about that and so now I'm trying to make up for lost time and have this urgency like okay now I have to do a podcast 70s a week to make up for that shit yo okay and next thing I wrote it takes constant effort to carve a place for yourself in this ruthlessly competitive world and hold on to it see I told you I was going to tie in the cockiness competitive topic thing I was mentioning earlier with the 50 cent book do you see how that worked Ruth so it takes constant effort to carve out a place for yourself in this ruthlessly competitive world and hold on to it so yeah constant effort so

to reflect on this as far as the thing I underlined here Ruth ruthlessly competitive world it goes back to what I wrote here about nothing is a big deal like I get it you got one life it's a lot of it's a lot of competition there's a lot of cop there's a lot of competition out there with other people and you know careers and making it to the top and all that shit like nothing fucking matters you know what I mean nobody knows what they're doing it's like whatever you value like if you value having if you if you admire people with you know a ceo title next to their name or a phd or a scientist or whatever like if you value if that's important to you you're gonna see people like that in the world and you're gonna

it's gonna make you feel some type of way what do i mean by this um I kind of want to tie this home or make this retract this thought undo this thought edit undo and say that like people are just people to me like I don't I don't care who you are what your job title is I've never really I've never been um phased by celebrity or status or any of that I've never been phased I've always kind of been like we're all the same at the end of the day like we're all we all got we all popped out of the womb the same we didn't at peace some people have an advantage some people get lucky some people work hard whatever but I've always kind of questioned that and I don't take it seriously like oh so and so's the I mean obviously I respect

and admire the fuck out of like the elons of the world and the people people that are like shifting culture and and technology like there's a difference there but for the everyday tiktoker tiktoker walking down the street you know what i mean like i don't give a fuck and it's not like i i don't know i think the world is competitive but it's kind of stupid sometimes especially in podcasting i'm like look it's subject it's it's not like a sport where there's like like think of golf as an example like there's like if someone's good at golf like how do I say this sports are wean people out because of the skills and the technique and the execution you have to be able to get the ball in the hole you know what I mean and what's a better example I don't know

but with podcasting it's like some people are really nerdy and they talk about science on their podcast. And some people enjoy that. And some people are more comedic and some people are more, um, educational about social justice movements and mental health and like whatever, but it's, it there's, I feel like there's room for everyone to be successful in podcasting because there's so many personalities. There's so many types of, um, there's so many niches, you know what I mean? Including my own, I am my, I'm my own niche. There's no little cocky for y'all. No. Um, so anyways I get kind of annoyed by competition sometimes I'm like who gives a fuck I'm I'm down for the I'm down for the NFL competitive shit I'm down for the NBA MLB I

like my basic bitch sports to be competitive but people I'm like sit down and shut the fuck up all right every there's room for everyone to be great there's room for I think and that's why I like to pep up my fellow podcasters and talk them up because I'm like yo I'm I'm I'm inspired by you I think you're great at what you do and I I love I love uh clapping people up you know clap clap them up next thing I wrote on here let's move forward chugging along the train tracks so I love this one oh you guys are gonna love this is a banger 50 cent reality is my drug the more I have of it the more power I get and the higher I feel moment of silence for that reality is my drug the more I have have of it the more power I get and the higher I feel dude that's so real right now

because of social media and you know the information age and being on our phones and me out of reality all the time take your power back get back to reality I don't know he said it's his drug. The more he has of reality, the more power he gets. Yeah. Oh, so Robert Green, by the way, 50th laws of power, or no, excuse me, 48 laws of power. He's the author of that. So this is the 50th law. And so I feel like that's kind of, um, that tracks because it's, he's talking about the more power he, the more reality as a higher, he feels the more power he has. I don't know. I just try to tie the, I just try to sail the ship back into the harbor there um anyways that's a great line so if I could reflect on that

reality is my drug I do feel like I'm as far as like oh I want to level up my life you know really double down right now go hard in the paint because it's my grinding years you know what I mean um I feel like I'm ready to discipline the fuck out of myself especially at night and do like an hour of yoga instead of scrolling social media you know what I mean like I really want to take that seriously especially after watching the social dilemma I'm so aware of my use okay I got a notification every day telling me Jacqueline you've been on Instagram for this amount of time today sometimes that happens at 10 a.m. like not proud of that like it'll like when you've maxed out your Instagram allotment of like scrolling time by 10 a.m. dude you're

fucked. So yeah, I think again, adulthood knocking on my door. I want to, you know, get, I want to level up, you know, I think I'm going to, I think, you know what, dude, I'm going to get an egg timer on Amazon. That's what I'm going to do. I should own one of those to, um, scream at me to, and ring going back to YouTube or excuse me, um, Google. So I need amazon.com. egg timer Amazon Prime this bitch it's gonna be like seven dollars I just got that tab ready for later when I stop podcasting but yeah I think I want to start yeah that's my goal sharing my goals that's what this podcast is all about sharing my behind the scenes like what's in my head you know what I mean spitting it out get your reality back uh 50 cent

people talk with solid opinions about matters of which they had no experience they are full of so much air told you I was going to tie that into what I was saying earlier yeah I don't like that shit people in their early 20s like I know it's a cliche but like life coaches that are 20 like shut the fuck up you know what I mean I don't like it when people that like for example I've been podcasting okay yes 50 days in a row but I've been it's like month two okay I'm not a pro with this I am fine admitting that but it's so insane to me when like young people speak to to go to your go back to this um quote thing they don't have that they don't have enough experience yet to be so solid you know what I mean it's exhausting people need to hum they need to be

humble they need to be taken down a few levels and shut up because it's uh all talk a lot of a lot of shit you see is all talk it's not there's nothing to back it and like especially entrepreneurs it's like yeah you sound really cool and you're saying this stuff but show me the money you know what I mean some of I gotta say though there's there's a there's a there's obviously a spectrum of people out there that are bosses and they're 20 and they're life coaches like I get it but for the most part I think it's sexy to talk a big game and you're you know as a millennial about like social media entrepreneurship marketing and it's like you're on year two out of college like sit down anyways and again I know what that's like because I used to feel like that I used to

I used to go on snapchat and I would like say shit so confidently about I got more into the I talked a lot about um science and stuff like climate stuff like back in the day I got really like nerdy about like veganism and I spoke in a way that was so solid just like chocolate sit down okay this is related to that and I said this earlier 50 cent my superiority is that I know nothing I must keep my mind open to experiencing things as they are the source of all knowledge so to reflect on that experiencing things as they are Jacqueline is on her laptop the headset on I got a ring light in front of my face got a fucking campfire next to me lit and I'm experiencing this off the cuff I know I know I write in my notebook I know I come prepared

with my notebook but I'm doing the reps I'm just experiencing this and I'm saying I know nothing back to 50 cent he knows nothing and I'm open-minded to experiencing new things so hey if I um if someone constructively criticizes me and says Jacqueline you know upgrade the mic take off the pop star headset. Let's get you a nice microphone. I'm open to that. I'm open to experiencing new things on the podcast. Okay. Hey, Jacqueline, take the hat off. I don't like the Seahawks. No, I'm kidding. I'm wearing a Seahawks hat today. Anyways, you get it. Experiencing things as they are the source of all knowledge. Yeah, that's fun as fuck. Like, I just, I really, like, I want to go play beach volleyball.

i haven't played beach volleyball in so long and it's like i just want to go learn and go play beach volleyball and be in the moment and be and get high off my reality no that's a weird example but like i want to learn new shit that's so fucking fun i love learning new shit that's like this podcast though for me it's it's like i'm entering a new world i'm like every day i'm like okay this is how i upload it and this is how i post it to instagram and it's obviously like so easy a caveman could do it so easy a two-year-old could click a link or like copy and paste a link but you know even the way I've written in my notebook changes and it shifts and I keep refining it and how I organize it and dude month two still learning um next thing 50 cent

basic ignorance I had as a child that's it be curious like a little kid you don't know anything You're young. You've never shoved a Lego in your mouth before, and then all of a sudden you do it. You're like, this bitch is crunchy. It hurts my teeth if I bite it too hard. Oh, God, if I step on it, that fucking hurts. You know what I mean? Basic ignorance. Okay. Next thing, 50 cents. See everything as a source of education. yeah that's dope um develop the last thing on this uh this is the last hyphen this is the last bullet point here taking along my notebook journey right now develop my mind into a powerful analytical instrument develop my mind into a powerful analytical instrument that's it i know

I keep saying that's it but like analyze shit ask questions sorry for screaming analyze ask questions don't just say don't take shit as fact and especially the media no I won't go into that it's not a I could go and spiral make this political show right now but I won't self self-discipline David Goggins just yelled at me and told me not to do that um but that's like I don't know I'm a curious cat I don't know if it's because I I don't know why I'm that way but I do ask a lot of questions I literally in my head all day long is why I'm like that shithead kid in the back seat I remember being like oh fuck when my brother started learning to talk oh my god I remember this so well I'm in like kindergarten I'm in my booster seat my mom's

Astro van. Yeah. We had an Astro van. My mom had like, I didn't, I was so mortified by her van growing up. I could totally go on a whole tangent about that, but we had a fucking Astro van and I'm in my booster seat. My brother, we're picking up, picking, picking them up from preschool. And the kid asked so many questions as we're driving around back home or whatever from school. Mommy, why does this happen? Why does the train look like that? Why is the sky blue? Like why, all day long and uh that's that's still part of me I still think that's one of my best qualities is asking why not to toot my own horn not to be annoying but like it helps I feel like it helps you understand life better and see things from a big picture and zoom out instead of being

um emotionally charged by shit when you ask why you can kind of settle yourself down and not be so like angry about a situation or whatever. If you understand how to ask questions, understand both sides and you know, you get the point. You got to keep your cool. You know what I mean? Keep your cool. Ask questions. Moving on. By the way, there's only a few more 50 cent quotes here. And then I'm going to try to sail the ship home, make episode 50 the best one yet and be more entertaining and interesting instead of, I feel like such a nerd right now, but i know it's good to reflect it's good to think thoughts and and uh go over book notes i guess can't recommend this book enough so i have a few more bullet points here let's go to the next bullet

point when you prove to yourself 50 cent when you prove to yourself that you can get things on your own then you you experience a sense of liberation it's like me getting health insurance feels good of shit yeah that's pretty self-explanatory I don't really need to reflect on that too much I love that you know becoming you know mid-20s now adulthood it's like being able to take care of yourself and being independent of your family and your parents and all that like I'm literally in my own world down here providing for myself I don't get support I'm not a excuse me I'm not a trust fund baby or anything like that which no no shade or anything like some people you know those are the cards that are dull and that's great but I've had to

earn everything I've had to work hard and do this on my own um I don't have you know I'm not um showered with money from a fan like a rich family or anything like that or I don't have a a man or in my life doing that for me so it's kind of it's I feel like I'm in the driver's seat you know what I mean I get to do whatever I want my own woman um is that sexy that's sexy as hell an independent woman a confident independent woman a oh a funny one at that according to uh according to my dms and enough people have told me I'm funny to believe it I guess now dude so this is my self acceptance journey I get it some people think I'm funny and I think that's a great quality anyways um dude next bullet point wean myself off of dependencies listen to my own voice

return to childhood ambivalence the freedom power to move on my own this is like redundant but rebel against the dependent part of my character oh wow that's hot that's real that's real sexy rebel against the dependent part of my character yeah if you notice how if you it's like codependence I don't know what that's all about yo that is it rebel against that shit don't want any part of that relying on other people is soul-sucking in a lot of ways like I don't know it's uh there's like being a being a supportive of whatever the relationship is friendship like boyfriend girlfriend marriage mother like your mom and dad your daughter son relationship what am I saying um have a sense of like

independence from I don't know just relying on people sucks I don't know okay anyways oh favorite line in the book actually the second favorite line the other one I have to dig in and find because I have to I don't know if I dog-eared it in the book because I didn't write it 50 cent my character traits are a kind of chemical mix that will never be repeated in history that's that's a woke quote right there that's dope holy shit when you really think about that let's overthink this right now like you are you there's no one else out there like you right now own that shit celebrate that shit your character traits are kind of chemical mix chemistry anatomy biology cells souls consciousness yeah bones blood guts the mix of that

that you hold and you are in the driver's seat of right now and you are awake and you are alive and you have a heartbeat and a soul and dreams and goals and a family and a dog and a cat and a horse no um that will never be repeated in history let's get woke right now let's you know what that's probably a high note i should end this on this segment i have a couple other bullet points obviously but that's badass i know as far as coming out as myself this year oh the gays are gonna come for me is that not okay to say I just feel like I've been uh putting on a little facade or just trying to be something I'm not like I told you my journey of wanting to do like the influencing shit and that never felt natural and so I'm coming out this

year as myself and I completely now I feel like I'm applying I wrote this in 2018 now I actually feel like I'm applying and believing that thought about my chemical mix who I am will never be repeated and I should own that and I should embrace that instead of trying to be something else fuck that shit no being someone else is sad all right next bullet point I know that was a high note but let's move forward then I'm gonna I don't know talk about day trading or something the process 50 cent 50 cent i have to start the fucking quote by saying that 50 cent the process of gaining power over the self is the most satisfying feeling of all knowing step by step you are elevating yourself above average dependent masses 50 cent is the

shit average dependent masses dude i need to pull up a 50 cent song let's just hold on stay with me well dj khaled sorry you're you're fired right now we got 50 cent i don't care nobody says i'm gonna be me because i don't care dude in the club no we want like dude too rich for the bitch um dude many men i uh need like a go a good god 50 cent no we gotta like oh I'm dude train track falling off the train rails I can't click a song whatever I'm just gonna click whatever first one comes up that's fun I don't know what you heard about me

that's fun I'm just celebrating 50 cent right now i really need to work on the audio no one can hear this oh shit my stress balls rolling off the table dude 50 cent what a man what a gem that's a great quote elevate yourself above the average dependent masses dude just boss up all right 2021 is about to hit boss up. Okay. No more. Okay. Let's not bond in 2021 over how depressed we are and how much anxiety we have and how much our acne sucks and how much like, I think over. So I have a theory. I'm going to just let me do this right now. Okay. This is my podcast. I have a theory that exposure like you can get overexposure to and the idea or like the like when people

publicize their problems all over social media and when you follow like 50 of them and you're consuming that all day I don't think that's good for us I get it it's like real it's relatable it's you know human we all go through shit but i feel like we gotta i think people can overdose on that too much and then we bond over it and then it's like you know i'm just like sad and people are just sad i don't know how to say it it's like these fucking rappers too it's like all they bitch about or all they rap about is sadness and it's like i don't know i like the 50 cent approach boss up just fucking like what's another thing i read in that reality is my drug the more i have of it that i don't know nothing is a big deal i'll go back to my quote let's

fucking do it i'll go back to my quote nothing is a big deal and then i don't know this is not okay to say but like i brought up crystal is special and the line he said uh yesterday i said when he came out he like opened with hey girls just gotta tell you something relax like that is sort of like how did I feel like about life and shit like yo all those people out there depressed sad anxiety just nothing's a big deal you can relax okay boss up I don't know just what you give energy to manifest you know what I mean and I think if you follow 50 depressed people and all your friends are talking about their anxiety and depression and it's just like this shit it's a shithole get back to reality go play beach volleyball fucking get high off reality

it's a new wave yo and i know that's not good for business i need people's attention i need people's eyeballs but yo like get back to reality man 50 cent would tell you to get back to reality i gotta find my favorite quote in this book okay there's like 300 pages in this um but i think i can find it quickly this quote is so good and I at the time I it hit me home because I was feeling a slight abuse psychologically and um I think it's like more in the beginning of the book just stay with me let me play the 50 cent song while this is like the here you go enjoy this banger of a 50 cent song while I find the quote

okay flipping pages found it dude that was so quick i'm so quick with my shit am i professional at this yet episode 50 i think we just discovered i just found this 50 cent quote in the book faster than jamie google google shit i'm just saying i'm just saying and this is prehistoric searching like going through a book to find something without seo and keywords and all that shit from google fuck off i'm i'm feeling cocky sorry sorry sorry i deeply apologize i'm proud of myself though um okay this is the quote that really struck a chord when i read it then i'm gonna end this

podcast because jesus christ what did i just say what did i just say i can i can find a quote in a book faster than jamie can google shit i'm just saying that was kind of funny okay who's i'm just look i'm trying to keep your ears engaged be entertained and if i fired you up and pissed you off right now a little bit i'm still looking for the haters okay because if you have haters you can you'll have a career you need haters to have a career okay I need vegans to follow me and hate me because I need a career okay putting it out there so 50 cent favorite quote the book hit home when I read it every negative is a positive the bad things that happen to me I somehow make them good that means you can't do anything to hurt me

that's fucking beautiful every negative is a positive the bad things that happen to me I somehow make them good that means you can't do anything to hurt me that's like me talking about Marie Forleo and her life advice from her mom and how everything is figureoutable nothing is a big deal like the bad shit in your life 50 Cent says he somehow makes them good the bad things that happen to him you know he's gone through a lot of hell and a lot of shit a lot of struggle in his life read the book it's great he figures out a way to spin it around and make it good again that's boss shit let's boss up let's be inspired by this quote right now and take this to the weekend it's Friday okay here's your it's not motivation Monday it's fucking

motivation Friday today I don't know why this podcast transitioned into this right now but it is and then at the last line here was like this was when I like I felt this in my soul that means you can't do anything to hurt me so yeah wow every negative is a positive I think when he wrote that or said that that's he he went I like the way that sounded he's like that sounds nice every negative is positive that's a sexy line it's all about perspective and how you perceive things and again it's like the this is possible every negative can be a positive in your life and you can make all the bad things good with perspective and keeping your cool and staying calm and asking why and honestly asking questions is going to help you with that because you know if someone

it's like it's like me being my i'm too uh i have like the over empathy shit or whatever the fuck it's called it's like someone robbing me and the reason why i'm gonna make that positive is because i'm gonna go you know i bet that robber lost his mom last week and he's really struggling or some shit like he broke up with his girlfriend i'm gonna sit there and ask why like why did he do that to me and then i'm gonna be like oh i forgive you i love you you know we're whatever it's kind of a weird example but you know what i mean just like ask why more it'll make you happier sometimes I learn too much though and I'm like I just did not need to know that dude episode 50

crazy thing to tell you guys right now actually about this book and everything is before the episode TMI I went pee okay whoa so like you know we're besties I'm telling you everything I don't give a shit I went pee and then I went to my bedroom to shut my door because like I'm trying to soundproof this bitch as much much as possible for you guys and I got a dog upstairs wrestling around and these fucking table kitchen table chairs moving so I gotta soundproof this studio studio as much as possible anyways I go into my I literally come out of my bathroom literally literally I come out of my bathroom go over to my door to my bedroom and my left eye not my not both just my left eye it glanced up on my bookshelf because I installed the bookshelf real high

above my window it looks sexy it's really like I don't know like vibey I don't know what the fuck it's like you'd see it on Pinterest okay I put a bookshelf real high and uh I see the number 50 sticking out and I was like oh shit I got an idea for episode 50 and that's why I read all those quotes and that's why i just did that whole episode about 50 cent and let's celebrate him one more time here i love 50 cent all right um dude he's a shrewd businessman a shrewd businessman okay there's an example of a businessman if you want to go again read the book um damn god damn 50 cent he can do it all what can he do um oh god i don't know i don't know where how to how to land this plane or end this or bring the ship back to the harbor right now so i'm going to go on

instagram and uh see what i could come up with for the last segment of the podcast oh my cousin just posted a skateboarding video that's cute oh jesus christ um oh by the way shout out russell Wilson again my mom just replied to my because I am reading this because my mom replied to my story where it posted Russell uh telling the world that Antonio Brown deserves a second chance and my mom goes I hope he goes to the Seahawks my mom loves AB she's so like when I got to go and work with him that story I told earlier she was like freaking the fuck out my mom loves football players she's so I think she always says like in another life she wants to be a like a running back she loves oh my god her favorite is Marshawn Lynch Marshawn Lynch is her like

favorite ever um love my mom let's see I'm speaking to my mom and go into my text right now content talking points here she is with her fucking chainsaw it's her hedge cutter she sent us a video of her cutting the trees Jesus she works so hard and thing is I don't know if anyone knows this I've never told the podcast my mom was uh she grew up on a dairy farm her her whole life and you know the cows eat before you do wake up before school and feed animals. So she's always, and I, I think that's where I get some of my work ethic is like the fact that even though we didn't live on a dairy farm growing up, we got scolded. Like if the horse didn't have hay before we were eating breakfast, it was like, you're grounded. Like

the animals eat first. So anyways, she's sending us videos. She's got these, Jesus Christ. She's got that uh little giant ladder system do you guys remember that infomercial holy shit here i'm showing the camera the little giant ladder that thing was so intriguing when the people would like they just made it look so sturdy you know what i mean they drive like a car across across it and shit i love infomercials that was my 3am uh hobby in middle school with my friends like I remember like going to my friend's basement hanging out at her house the only reason I went there is because she had snacks that my mom wouldn't allow us to have and uh I just ate all the snacks and all that oh my god our our favorite shit dude hi tangent like how serious I took this

podcast talking about those quotes from the 50 cent book and I'm talking about eating snacks in middle school and watching infomercials but yo uh we ate so much spinach ravioli from Costco do you know what that if you know what that is that's my favorite like fucking thing from Costco we ate so much of that and then we'd have like these um her mom was always on like Weight Watchers or something and we had these um like Weight Watchers ice cream sandwiches all the time we'd like sit in her basement at 3 a.m and eat those sandwich ice cream sandwiches and watch like fucking little giant a little giant ladder system infomercials and then like scribble out all over posters of Miley Cyrus because we hated her because she was dating Nick Jonas

and then now I love her and it's full circle and everything's great and wow episode 50 holy fuck oh my mom's in a selfie oh she's so cute in her blue hat she loves hats oh my god these bushes are so tall oh my god it looks so cold there Washington so I'm going home for Christmas time and I'm already mentally I've been doing some meditation practice or meditation exercises about being cold no it's gonna be fun I love it you know I'm trying to set the vibe here on the video podcast with uh my candle excuse me oh my god oh my god no it's my campfire fuck I was never I wasn't supposed to expose that he's my trying to be a creative podcaster thing I'll just fucking

say it now i've been teasing like a little shit the little shithead i am i've been saying yo i'm sitting next to a campfire in my studio right now go over to youtube to check it out and then you come to youtube and it's like this is a fucking candle that's kind of dude jacqueline that's fun for a five-year-old listenership five-year-old audience not the 30 year olds listening to you jesus i don't know though it's like i like to have fun okay i'm sitting next in my eyes dude everything is about perspective right everything's about perspective okay back let's get deep again back to the 50 cent shit in my perspective and how i'm perceiving what i'm looking at this is a fucking campfire and

yes i could roast a marshmallow on it and make a s'more and that makes it a campfire i'm kind of slightly overheating right now but i got my arm and hammer baking soda deodorant that i got at vaughn's that was on sale and i don't even know why i got it because i'm pretty sure this has parabens and sulfites dude oh my god if you're still putting i got hair in front of my eyes listen up i got one last statement to make if you're still putting parabens and sulfites and fucking chemicals in your deodorant in 2020 you might as well be driving to work excuse me riding to work in a horse-drawn carriage a covered wagon

pre like i don't know 1903 or whatever the fuck that's how that's how old-fashioned that shit is with the information we have now about parabens and sulfites in our armpits how could you how dare you get that shit out of your product get that shit out of your products okay so anyways I'm overheating because I can't fire an IBO actually no I don't I think I'm okay but I it's getting it's getting hot and that's an ending that's a red flag that I need to end the podcast so I don't know episode 50 feeling good feeling energized we got the Q&A tomorrow for saturday you can uh hang out with me on youtube monday through friday i post the video podcast on youtube during the week and then i've you know i slack off on the weekends i

roll out of bed and i podcast and i don't go on camera behind the scenes information uh and then also i've i think i'm up to like 20 posts on my patreon so go over to patreon.com slash tjms to literally look at my camera roll all the pics from all the all the shit i never post on the internet basically all over my patreon um everyone gets a shout out at the end of the podcast some people get i now have two people to call every month people get phone calls with jacqueline that's fun um so patreon.com slash tjms if you want to support the show you know it's a good time um and that's and follow my social media I got Jacqueline Monroe on Instagram I've never liked by the way Jacqueline Jacqueline Jacqueline Monroe I I struggle when I say my own

fucking name I think that's it's a overthinking it but like to say it fast like that it's kind of hard Jacqueline Monroe Jacqueline Monroe but it's Jacqueline Monroe go over to Instagram and i've been jacqueline monroe to follow my social media to watch my instagram story and dude it gets popping sometimes like yesterday i was like jesus christ i was talking about like fucking i'm playing with my boob do not do that on camera no boob touching on camera yesterday i was making a comment about my patreon like no one has subscribed and i was just poking fun like obviously i don't give a fuck it's not like that crazy you know i'm not that upset about it, but I was like, what if I made an OnlyFans and told, like, what poc, oh my, god, should I

edit that? No, no, embrace, embrace, embrace, love yourself, who cares, everyone burps sometimes. I was like, should I just link you guys to an OnlyFans? Should I just do an OnlyFans and, like, go big or go home and fucking, like, pop off in a bikini on there and, like, or, like, I would wear something, lingerie, whatever the fuck. I was thinking about it, I'm like, that, that's different what pot like you know who would she obviously like I don't want to say I was thinking of a podcaster that could probably get away with doing that and it would make sense but yeah like Lincoln like what podcaster links people they're only fans I guess I'm sure some of them do like Trisha Paytas or whatever the fuck her name is oh my god that sounds so rude

i'm so entertained by her she's like letting it all hang out now she doesn't everything is she's fully showing it all over twitter and i unfortunately had to see i wasn't you know on twitter nude nudity shows up and you can't like you can't avoid it there's no censoring of that so i'm like oh okay hi trisha but i'm sure she would link to it only fans i'm talking nonsense because I need to end this um but seriously if you want to see my content uh fully clothed content go over to patreon.com slash tjms and uh I'm gonna end this now but I get I get like attached I get attached I love podcasting and sometimes it's difficult for me to cut the chain and let go and continue my day but yo after that zoom meeting this morning I'm fired

the fuck up I've got work to do I know it's gonna be a long day and I'm excited I'm excited to kill it kill it for my uh country what the fuck am I saying how about that debate last night should I make this a political podcast now should I get into it I'm just kidding um imagine me going on for another 20 minutes about the debate and talking politics like Jacqueline at that point is like one star review quit podcasting night like nice try like participation trophy you did your best but Jacqueline the podcasting isn't for you like fuck I gotta be self-disciplined I gotta cut this I gotta say now is the time I'm gonna end this I'm gonna call it how to like when I watch other podcasters go like they they cut it so quickly they're just like end the conversation

i'm like it's like a knife in my heart i'm like i wasn't ready and i know right now you're like jacqueline i'm not ready for you to go this is like fucking titanic shit we're like you're you know i'm jack and you're um jane what the what's her name i can't even remember the girl wait what's her name in it draw me like one of your french girls anyways it's like the last scene when she's like hanging on the board in the water and like don't go you know okay anyways trying to help you guys whatever I hope I hope this helped hope you learned something from 50 cent honestly I was just sharing the good news I was regurgitating his quotes and information like I wasn't that's not from the top of my head obviously I write it down and um I'm curating I'm curating uh important

mindset life knowledge stuff for y'all that's kind of fun though I do like to get deep like that episode 50 gotta get deep gotta take gotta sort of take it seriously anyways i love you guys let's uh play a little 50 to end this have a great friday i will be here tomorrow for your saturday q a all right i'm out hello my patrons of patreon.com slash tjms it's that time it's that special time of day where i do your patron shout out to show my love and support of you guys because i know you're showing your love and support for me but i'm reciprocating i'm throwing it back in your face i'm sharing your beautiful names with the world so without further ado i have ricky jensen trevor garrett and eagle

one and yes if you're listening for the first time you've never heard those names get shot get shouted out those beautiful names you're allowed to make up a code name okay so just send me a message on patreon it's patreon.com slash tjms again if you didn't hear the first time and uh send me shoot me a little message tell me what you want your code name to be and uh that's fun so anyways thanks again guys for your support really appreciate you and i will talk to you tomorrow for Saturday's podcast.