The Jacqueline Monroe Show - 54- One of Those Days

Episode Date: October 27, 2020

I'm happy today :) I cancel mac&cheese, talk about getting snatched, and offer up advice to my fellow podcasters. Have a great day!! :) Patreon.com/TJMS https://soundcloud.com/robmonmusic  

Hey guys, happy Tuesday. Welcome back to the show. It's episode 54. what's up guys it's Jacqueline happy Tuesday welcome back to the show how's it going how's your week going what's up guys i don't know i just got to check in real quick before i talk about myself but yo i need your help right now i just saw something on twitter drake had a party or something let me pull it up uh he had a party and there was food served and the menu was posted and let's just i just want to start out i need your help right now i need your help canceling drake okay we need to cancel him for this shit i don't know how we're gonna do it but i know he's had a really successful career he's gone you know he's a decade in the rap

music industry i think this is worthy he's done after this shit are you ready we've got you know a nice second course here with chicken bolognese steak fries grilled shrimp cauliflower mac and cheese right mac and cheese is where we get this is where this is why we need to start i need to start this podcast out and discuss canceling him. We got mac and cheese, right? Mac and cheese with sun-dried tomatoes, capers, raisins, and parsley. Let that marinate, sink in. Think about those flavors. You're eating a bowl of mac and cheese right now. It's got capers, raisins, sun-dried tomatoes I don't know what the fuck is going on but I saw that posted and I'm like canceled what I saw someone comment they're like put raisins in my mac and cheese and we're gonna

move some furniture real quick yeah I feel like throwing I have a cup here I'm drinking coffee of course I am uh I got my mug here I just feel like throwing this against the wall that pisses me off so much capers and raisins like I love I like those things separate not together I just don't understand um anyways I feel like today's gonna be a fun show I it's one of those days though I'll be honest it's one of those days Jacqueline's feeling bitchy kind of angsty um I went blind this morning on my drive home from from the gym is that offensive to say I know there's actual blind people out there and I feel that's a that's rude but I'll be honest I did not wash my mascara off completely last night and I went to the gym I sweated my ass off I did

my little morning cardio which I would I have to talk about I have excellent peripheral vision and it worked today it worked sort of in my favor today anyways I'll get into that but I sweated my ass off drove home quickly because I'm on my new schedule this week I talked about yesterday I'm on this fast schedule I got alarms on my phone on the hour on the half an hour it's it's insane I really honestly after the first day I really feel like I was successful with it and it's excuse me I got some bodily functions happening I'm drinking sparkling water and it's making me burp uh so I like this you know the alarms telling me Jacqueline time to finish your workout and go home and podcast right so anyways I got mascara in my eye on my drive

home my right eye and I really overcompensated on my makeup this morning I don't know if you can tell go to YouTube to look I don't know I look kind of like shit but it's all good got my hair up in a bun again um but I had one eye I was trying to relax you know when you're you have like soap in your eye in the shower and you freak out you have to grab the towel real quick and you know like wash it out I didn't have that option driving I was just like panicking every time I tried to get the mascara or the eyelash out it got worse I couldn't fix it so I, I was like, wait, I can shut one eye at a time, so I was driving with one eye shut, and it's dripping, and it hurts, it's getting all, like, puffy, for about 10 minutes on my way home,

I had my eye closed, every time I opened it, it would, like, it would felt like a, like a dagger stabbing my eye, anyways, so that was my morning, I don't know, I don't really have a, like I said, I'm kind of feeling angsty today, bitchy, but I mean, like, whatever, it's, um, it's one of those days you know it's kind of like here's here's the format of the show I do it every day okay I put my heart and soul out there for you guys uh it's it's effortless though you know what I mean and I feel like today's uh a show like it's kind of like a reality show format this podcast if that makes sense I don't know if it's a thing I'm making it a thing apparently doing it every day but it's like watching the Real Housewives and like Lisa Rinna walks into

her daughter's room this is like an example I don't know if this has actually happened but it's like when you see a mom on the real housewives walk into her daughter's room and the daughter's like sleeping and she's got her eye mask on and the mom wakes her up she's like honey we gotta go we gotta go honey let's get up and the daughter's like mom I'm trying to sleep you know I feel like that mood today like I'm just trying to sleep like I don't I don't want to be on I don't want to talk you know uh but hey some days you get that some days you get me off the rails being crazy. Uh, whatever. Anyways. So, oh, at the gym, let me go back to that conversation I was going to have with y'all about, uh, my peripheral vision. So, and then I'll talk about

my super cozy fall evening I had last night. We'll get into my last 24 hours, but I'm at the gym this morning getting shit done and then like I just stay head forward you know what I mean like I'm on the treadmill and I'm not looking both ways I don't I you know when you you've got the peripheral vision engaged and you can tell when someone's looking your way directly like actually moving their neck towards you on the treadmills or just like in general anywhere in life and in public you can tell someone's looking at you so I have a situation I'm on the treadmill I've got a guy in front of me already being annoying I see him almost every morning do this he incline walks as high as it goes and he walks

backwards and he's got his hands on the rails and so I'm facing like I'm doing my shit I'm facing him he's walking backwards staring right at me and then there's this then this other gentleman comes on the treadmill next to me after you know like 15 minutes and I don't know how to say this I don't know okay in my peripheral vision I was like already annoyed I don't I didn't even get a look at what he I couldn't see what he looked like but I'm already annoyed I'm just like getting this sense that I don't know I'm being like stared the fuck down or something I don't know what he was doing he's turned sideways this makes it sound like Jacqueline oh my gosh the boys are looking at you at the gym like literally I look like shit okay I go to the

gym I try to look as terrible as possible that I had a giant baggy sweatshirt on like I'm always wearing a baggy sweatshirt it's like you know not trying to show off my body this year apparently but I just look like shit on purpose I don't want to get looked at but this guy was doing his like warm-up stuff sideways looking at me for like 15 minutes and I've got this other guy staring at me walking backwards and I was so annoyed I got so frustrated I just left I was like I can't be like doing my shit with this annoying person walking backwards in front of me and this annoying person doing his sideways shit you know what he was doing he was holding on the rail on the treadmill and we were social distancing you know we got one in between us it wasn't like he was in my grill

but he was turned sideways for like 15 minutes doing this side shuffle shit he didn't ever turn the other way that's why I was annoyed I'm like dude it's time to switch directions so I just left I was frustrated as fuck and I'm angsty all right if you want to put some puzzle pieces together right now I talk to you seven days a week go back to Saturday when I uh cried over Kanye West on Joe Rogan and I talked about how I got emotional and then I actually cried when I did my recap so listen to saturday's podcast put that emotion together or that emotional day together with the angsty fucking vibe i'm putting on today and just use your use some put those puzzle pieces together some contact context clues what do you think's going on in my life this week

just saying okay i've also been tired of shit if you want to know i broke out on my chin hormones going through the roof TMI I don't know what we're dating okay we're dating at this point talk to you every day we're on a phone call checking in let you know it's one of those days one of those times okay um so yeah that was my warning and let's change the subject to be more suite. I got the most cozy little apartment going on right now. So excited to report that I finally decided after this entire year being a little bit uncomfortable in my own home, I finally decided I'm here to stay. I'm going to renew my lease. I'm going to really, like I bought curtains. You know why, you know why this is a big thing to report is because I actually bought curtains. I've been

kind of wishy-washy like I don't know if I want to put holes in the wall and put curtains up I took out a painting that's been in my closet all year I'm like I'm gonna put this shit up I'm gonna move in and be here because this whole year has been like I got this pandemic going on maybe I'll move I don't know but last night I'm like it's cold out I got all my candles lit I got like everything I got Chris a Christmas candle it smells like Christmas trees got that shit lit I've got my painting out and I'm on, I'm on Amazon. I'm buying my huge curtains that are going floor to ceiling. What else did I do? I, I don't know. I just had like this cozy, oh, I meal prepped all my fall harvest fucking butternut squash and shit. It was such a good night. And

I felt really grateful not to be annoying like this, but like, I just sat there and I was like, I'm so blessed that I can even do this and be so content and fulfilled by myself in these crazy times because I've mentioned so many episodes like I was uncomfortable as shit with myself all year depressed feeling like a lost puppy not knowing what direction to take in life and truly ever since I did this podcast and started you know got super ambitious like I'm gonna do this seven days a week I feel happier than I've ever been in my life and so like comfortable alone and I just I don't I can't stop gushing about it I even got emo this morning again hormones but I'm driving to the gym and the sunrise is coming up I got my coffee I'm like feeling myself listen

my country music just really uh brushing up on my strong American values like I do every morning can't recommend it enough I got a dump truck outside one second I haven't mentioned my conspiracy theory about the San Diego waste management system but I'll touch on that in a second I'm driving to the gym sunrise and I saw some palm trees like the silhouette of like palm trees and the sun coming up and I was just emo because I'm realizing like I am so happy to live here and so blessed and this is what I always wanted you know what I mean it's like those quotes like remember remember the time you wanted what you currently have or something like that something along those lines like there was a time where you wanted this and so I think it's easy for

us to get caught up in you know busyness and life and stress and forget that we've got it really good so yeah and then I saw this fucking I'm pretty sure it was a comment guys I'm pretty sure i witnessed a comet crashing to earth breaking through the atmosphere i posted on my instagram story i know like no one's listening to this on that day i actually post i don't know i say that because i am insecure that no one listens to this and i don't well like i i'm that's cool with me because i get i don't i freak out like it's kind of crazy that i say so much shit about my life on here but i joke that oh yeah someone in like two years will finally listen this episode but uh dude i'm only on month two okay i'm working on my confidence but i post on my instagram story

today a picture or a video of the comet i'm pretty sure it was because look i've watched enough conspiracy theory documentaries out there to know what a chemtrail looks like this wasn't a chemtrail let me show the camera even though this is like your tease like go to youtube to see the picture of the comet you can't really see it on the video don't look at my bad manicure uh so i looked or i saw that saw the palm tree silhouette saw this comet going sunrise and i went to google apparently this is a meteor shower there's a meteor shower going on until november 3rd associated with haley's comet it's called the orions orionids the orion it's orion id orionid meteor is fading but still worth checking out here's how 60 hours

ago so excuse me another bodily function fucking hey too much sparkling water it happens to the best of us you know what i mean burpee it's burpee uh situation but i saw this was posted there's all these posts about this comet recently so i'm pretty sure i witnessed it and go to my Instagram story because it was it was huge actually it was like I don't know there's birds flying around too on the video I love life dude I got a life update a Jamie a young Jamie life update I just want to shout out the fact that he is COVID free and back on back in business I love talking about other podcasters dude I love it you know he's uh he carries that show on his back his fucking he's uh i don't know he got

jamie a young jamie i don't know if you listen to podcasts out there other podcasts besides mine i'm just assuming you you guys do but joe rogan's right hand boy on the show right hand man young Jamie was COVID positive and now he's clear. So I'm just excited about that. And, uh, you know, speaking about listening to other podcasters and Rogan show and everything, I overheard something yesterday that kind of inspired me to touch on this today. Um, regarding like, this is, this goes out to all my fellow podcasters out there. Okay. This isn't directed to any one person but a podcaster inspired me to say this if you are afraid of listening to other podcasts because you don't want to get influenced by their show

and change your personality and how you do your hosting that's a cop-out that's like saying you don't trust the fact that you're going to stay true to you if you listen to other people have a conversation so I don't know I just invite any other hosts out there to explore the podcast space they they play in themselves you know as a host and appreciate the people that came before you the Rogans out there you know what I mean the I just use him as an example every fucking show but like you know what I mean like appreciate the fact that people have come before you the Howard Sterns of the world and I don't know brush up on your cultural uh current cultural events and news and society like brush up on it there's

so much to know and learn from podcasts and I don't know I think I come from so many years of listening to podcasts and I'm doing it myself but I realized like I say it so much I'm like all the people I want to be friends with are podcasters like I love this shit I love the industry I love the art of I just love conversations I love telling stories and I have this appreciation for the craft or whatever uh radio talking and you know sharing ideas with other people I think it's it's one of the coolest things ever and so I don't know I just overheard something yesterday I don't want to throw shade I don't want to get specific this just goes out to podcasters that are that don't that are afraid they have a worry that they're not going to stay true to who they

who they are and get influenced by other people because listen i watch so many podcasts or i'm a youtube watcher i was watching bad friends yesterday i was watching fucking the star talk or i was listening to star talk radio i listened to i watch rogan all the time i you know whitney Cummings I watch who else Tim Dillon just listen to him little Zan this morning listen I I listen to them I watch them I consume so many podcasts and if anything it's made me feel as a host more than like truer to myself than ever because I see how other people do it and I'm like they're not being they're not putting on a show and overthinking it and pre-meditating for five days before they go and post a show and like overthinking it and and pulling all-nighters

for five days trying to edit which is like dude it's not that complicated you just record it and if it's I feel like if you're a host and you force it you try to overthink it and overwrite it it won't it doesn't come across it comes across like like uh scripted almost and not natural and I think it's it's the best when people just like go and hang out and they're like hey we're just doing a podcast and it's, it flows and it's not, there's, there doesn't need to be a competition about it. In my opinion, I feel like there's space for everyone to succeed in podcasting. And again, like, like I think that I joke, I'm like, I'm a conversation athlete. I'm a fucking, what do I say? I'm a podcast baddie. What do I say? But I relate it to like an athlete getting

ready before I podcast. I feel like I'm in the locker room drinking my coffee. I'm writing in my notebook, which I haven't written anything today. Cause it's one of those days, one of those days. And I joke that, you know, it's like being on the mic with the record going, being on, I'm feeling anxious today, guys. Can you hear it? Sorry. I'll, I'll, I'll cut this short with the sound waves moving. It makes me feel like I'm on the field. I'm on, I'm on the court. you know what I mean and it does feel sort of like an athlete uh sort of feels like when I used to be an athlete like I get that but I don't think in podcasting competition it's all like there's so many niches so many personalities it's all it's so subjective and I think there's no way

to really measure what the best podcast is obviously there is with the you know the ratings and the top charts and shit but look as long as you're under a contract and you've got the resources and you're you've got the narcissism and the um and the thirst to get people's attention and keep it and do this thing you're gonna if you've got that if you got an amazing uh if you got good people around you helping you out doing that you're gonna be the best in the world that's just the formula in play at play I feel really I feel like I'm really throwing shade right now but like look you have to have some self-awareness and as a podcast host like I don't think it's I don't know just

it's not like in golf where if you can't if you can sports and athletics weed people out based on skill like if you can't get the ball in the hole as a golfer you're not going to be the best in the world okay I guess in podcasting you could argue that you know if you don't get downloads and subscribers and reviews after you're doing it then you know maybe it's not for you or something like that but I don't know I just don't think it's the same I don't think competition it's not like that in podcasting I think it's people I think it should be and I'm just saying should and I know that's I just saw Gary V tweet yesterday like should is a dangerous word no one should use the word should but I think podcasting should be a bunch of people

appreciating each other and saying wow what a great mind over here and wow they're so funny they have such a great personality and wow this person just they teach me about this every week and you know there's a coffee podcast there's fashion podcasts there's food podcasts there's pop culture podcasts there's sex podcasts and dating and there's you know science and all the I think as in the podcasting space it should be this celebration of everyone and not this like I gotta sit and meditate for five days before I record this podcast I gotta pull all-nighters editing it because I want to be the best in the world like to me that's a little bit overthinking it you know what I mean and I think that's how it's coming across across lately

to be honest like I don't know just catching I'm just keeping it real okay I'm feeling angsty it's one of those days I'm gonna leave it at that but truly constructively as a fellow podcaster I'd like to talk to the podcasters out there and tell them that feel free to listen to other podcasters and do that thing and wow like enjoy that don't be afraid of that and and uh like I said it's like saying you don't trust you're gonna stay true to yourself if you do that And I think that's a bit do-do, like, come on. Anyways, I'm going to smell my lavender, my essential oil right now to chill out. DM me if you have any thoughts on that.

I just, like, you know how women go, oh, women celebrating other women. Like, you know, that's what it should be all about. It's like that in podcasting, too. I feel like it's podcasters supporting podcasters. Why can't we be supportive? Why does this have to be this competition thing? I don't know. dude I I just had I just had to say that I had to get that off my chest what did I talk about

earlier uh canceling Drake for that was kind of a weird uh start oh we got Alex Jones and Tim Dillon on the Rogan we have oh shit the Joe Rogan experience episode 1555 Alex Jones and Tim Dillon that is going to be a banger that's going to be so good I feel like I've mentioned you know, Kevin Hart, what's my list? I got Kevin Hart, Elon, and David Blaine is my top three this year. Oh, Kanye is up there. So now I have, this is going to be the list. Kanye just joined that as my top Rogan episodes. And then now Alex Jones and Tim Dillon is going to be bumped up in that too. I'm going to have, that's going to be my top five for 2020. I don't know who else he's gonna interview but that's probably gonna be it holy shit dude I'm obsessed with

podcasts I can't shut the fuck up about it I'm like you know what it's like okay I don't want to be the podcaster talking about podcasting on your Tuesday who's bored I get it but like it's not I don't find it personally challenging to pour my heart and soul out for you guys seven days a week this is like it's so effortless I don't think like podcasting itself isn't challenging I think podcasting seven days a week is more challenging that sounded like a contrary that sounded like it didn't make any sense but I'm realizing that when it's one of those days you know what I mean when Jacqueline's on one she's hormonal sometimes I'm like I don't want to fucking do it mom I don't want to like wake up right now like that vibe um

but it's so good for my soul I feel like I'm listening to my soul speak every day I've never been this happy I compare I compare this to morning journaling people recommend but doing it verbal like audio journaling can't recommend it enough um god I just felt so peaceful last night and this morning with a comment. I love 2020 has really turned out to be a fabulous year for me. Speaking of women supporting other women, I got Claudia from the morning toast putting out a book today. Really, you know, excited for her about that. She what's the book called? Let me go to her profile. Claudia. She's so funny. Um, do you guys listen to the morning toast? It's they talked about like pop pop culture news sorry I love Jackie and Claudia but I got an issue with

my Instagram today I updated my phone I finally went finally upgraded my phone guys I've been on iOS like 13 for since I got my iPhone 7 okay we had a I revealed on a podcast I think we found out together on one of the episodes like episode 10 that this whole time I thought I had an 8 and then I discovered no this is actually an iPhone 7 uh but I realized that I just I checked my iOS and it was 13 and yesterday I did 14 now everything's getting fucked up I'm really frustrated like I can't even search an Instagram profile it like delays and lags uh that's a synonym delays and lags those are synonyms I gotta oh god guys okay so I'm kind of feeling like God, I'm already shopping for Christmas, but I've been looking, you know, I've been on the prowl

for Christmas gifts. I'm going home for the holidays. I'll be doing interviews. I know a lot of you have been bugging me like, Jaclyn, you should interview people. We can't wait for interviews. Okay. Like it's happening when I go home for Christmas, but I've already been looking for presents and stuff. And of course, when I do that, I'm also shopping for myself. And I don't know i got another fucking gap hoodie today vintage gap hoodie and i'm excited about it because i feel like you know gap's gonna be the new shit i'm wearing one right now i'm a trendsetter you know i hear kanye talk about gap and i'm like well you just gotta get on that bandwagon now you gotta look cool if i'm gonna be an influencer a podcast

baddie i gotta have the newest i've gotta have the latest and greatest fashion I also got to get my appearance together I mean I'm looking like I fucking I got a bun up again I'm trying to get snatched okay I tell you guys all the time the reason I'm so like guys I can't bullshit this I can't the reason I do my cardio and sweat heart in the morning before I do the show is so I can look snatched and have a jawline on video for the podcast and I've been I've been slipping you know what I mean I haven't been going as hard as usual but uh I don't know I think you're gonna witness my glow up I can't I can't wait for that the year two of podcasting dude I'm gonna do like a fucking photo shoot with my headset on and lingerie just get just like no

in like two years I feel like that'll be my prime as a host because right now it's like we're coming out of depression it's 2020 you're only in month two I've been feeling like a blob all year I don't know who's that's like I know like guys out there like nobody gives a fuck you look fine but I'm a chick I think about my appearance sometimes here and there you know what I mean just like a normal american female western american what am i saying dude who's who's winning the presidency we got how many days seven congress needs to get their shit together that's all i need to say what a fucking shit show they're really they're really fucking up the stock market right now i don't appreciate it congress if you're listening please get your

shit together figure it out oh yeah okay so i got i love this dude is it sager i can't see his name he's uh from is it the hill that morning new show him and uh i can't remember her name but i like i told i like dm'd her one time i'm like i want to be as well spoken as you someday let me go to it uh I gotta say I gotta tell you what he just tweeted about Rogan and Tim Dillon and uh Alex Jones wait see again my Instagram isn't working is it my wi-fi host he's the host of rising yeah rising who's the other lady who's on it she's so good is it crystal like kimball crystal

yeah crystal crystal ball chris see i see like an instagram uh username all the time and i think it's crystal kimball but it's not it's crystal ball okay that's such a badass name of course her name's crystal ball her parents did a good job okay anyways her and sager i think it's a Sager. Sager's his name. They're some of my favorite news people. I like their show. I watch it on YouTube a lot. And anyways, I don't know why I'm making this sound so dramatic. He just tweeted that Joe Rogan flexing on Spotify employees and letting them know who's in charge because he posted he's having Alex Jones on his show and he's like with Tim Dillon. I just I don't know. Dude, just just like podcasting tea, I guess. You know, someone said it. I don't know

who it was but they're like eventually there's gonna be podcasts about podcasting who said that like imagine okay holy shit you know fashion police how like Joan Rivers and like uh Julianna Rancic all the e-people would god I can't believe Joan Rivers is gone that fucking just like still doesn't make sense but they'd sit around talk about fashion you know what happens at the Oscars or whatever like every week there's fashion police shit going on in Hollywood and how people are dressed and like imagine if there's a fashion police for or like a a podcast where people comment there's a there's a conversation about what people wore what they talked about you know people breaking down other podcasts that doesn't make any sense why would that exist I don't know

my brain just goes places sometimes it's one of those days one of those days like I could be I could do commentary on people's podcast costumes their studio setup what does their set design look like compare and contrast what works and what doesn't in fact one of the lighting videos I watched I don't know how I'm doing go to YouTube to look I feel like you know I got natural light from my window because I refuse to put myself in a little box a little cave as a host I gotta if I do this seven days a week I want a nice view I wanted I want a nice bright window to look through but anyways one of the videos I watched about lighting was this entire thing on why the title of the video was why your why your eyes hate Joe Rogan's new studio or

something and they broke down like the colors and the contrast and the just like the distance between like the the wall and him and his head position like everything and so anyways I watched that but I always I always talk about like my studio ideas and my set design and shit because look month two I'm still thinking about I'm still getting creative this is play this is gonna go places. You know what I mean? I love the thing about podcasting is it's so, I feel like I'm creating a new world for myself. It's like this, it's like painting. You know what I mean? If you just add new shit every day, you're like, how can I, I don't know, imagine it to be this, like I want my studio. So I just got curtains, right? I'm thinking about getting more curtains

for my studio to like close myself in a little bit and like make it cool. If you guys can't see you have to go to YouTube to like watch the podcast but you can't see the other side of what I'm looking at I got a real like open space setup I got a real open I got okay Jocelyn think about what you're gonna say before you say it I got big ass open I got open air around me all right I don't live in a little hole in my studio anyways I'm thinking about getting like nice curtains to go around to like close me in and make me feel like I'm in a like an actual studio but as long as I have a window

to look out I'm chilling you know what I mean that's part of the show I people watch I got other characters besides me I got man but neighbor who isn't being very like active lately he's usually outside working out and shit lately he's like every two days I'll see him walk with his dog and I haven't seen his fiancee slash girlfriend in a while I don't know wife whatever I haven't seen her in weeks so I don't know what's going on okay not speculating anything but um uh speaking of characters on the show update I got my neighbors having sex for the first time last night in months like I know it's like I hear it every time I swear it's like every three months do you hear that I don't know if you can hear that like I'm not good with my sound effects but

you know I heard that for a good fucking five minutes last night it was real quick so that's a you know an update I don't know who else could I mention or have I talked about my kindergarten teacher neighbor in a while she talks okay so I think I've mentioned this but every time I'm in my bathroom and she's in her bathroom at the same time I'm always nervous I'm gonna overhear her shitting or something so weird to admit like that's the last thing i want to hear because for whatever reason this place is pretty soundproof except for my bathroom can really the walls are really thin between us but she's always talking to her dog she's a 93 year old chihuahua i swear to god it's like a 25 year old dog and um it's like missing its its eyes or it

doesn't can't see anymore it's really sad but she's always like good girl good girl good girl like in the bathroom when she's like doing her I'm like what are you she like are you like I don't know it's all it's awkward it makes my life a little more interesting a little I feel like I feel like I have a social life when I overhear my fucking neighbors fucking and talking to their dogs Jesus Christ I love life it's been such a good like recently I feel like it's been really good just looking at my notes here before I wrap the show I had an idea this is how I know I'm happy this is how I know that I'm just it's a good time in my life right now okay it's a big accomplishment I'm proud of that I'm sharing my life story this is a fucking reality show

an audio reality show but I've been through it this year and I know I'm really happy right now because I'm trying to put together a nostalgia section in my apartment a room or something where I'm I went on um I was like on eBay I was looking around at vintage they're literally called vintage TVs VHS TVs you know where you stick the little VHS VHS tape in it like I'm trying to hook up in my apartment a section where I've got a VHS collection an old TV an old Mac computer I looked at those this morning I was on offer up there's a shit ton of those I don't know someone's got like a ton of them to sell they're cheap too they're so cheap um a guitar hero xbox xbox like the original xbox and guitar hero game set up i want like my i want 90s toys like

the little like slinky yo i want to yo-yo again i don't know for some reason i feel like part of my mental health journey and like moving forward with like progressing this happiness forward and sustaining it is trying to be mindful or whatever the fuck like remembering the happy times of my child and in my past and trying to relive those glory days am I stuck in the past it's not like that it's just like remembering what used to bring me joy and trying to as an adult replicate it again and invite it back into my life like yo yo I want to yo-yo. Okay. I want, I want to play guitar hero again. So right now, you know, I'd made the decision, told you guys, I'm like, I'm here to stay. I got my curtains, got my curtains. I'm

going to stay in my apartment here forever. No. But I think that little realization about my nostalgia section I want to put together, I don't know why I call it a section. I don't have a lot of rooms here. So it's going to be like a corner or whatever the fuck. I think that came out of the fact that I realized like I'm not I can acquire some vintage pieces for my apartment you know I keep hearing it speaking of podcasts and podcasters a lot of podcasters lately have been talking about how we're all just big kids we're all grown up but children we're basically five still and I'm embracing that I'm really taking that to heart and like it's so fun it's so fun to remember what used to bring you joy. All right. I'm going to do one quick swipey swipe

on my, uh, profile on Instagram here to get some, see, just like look for some talking points. I say this at the end of every show, cause I don't know how to wrap it. Um, I know it was one of those days, but I feel like I pulled my shit together at the end a little bit. Oh, I just talked about Gap. I got a Gap ad showing the camera. Shout out to my algorithm for giving me what I want. That's cool. Um, let me just like look and see here if I've got anything to talk about. Not really. I'm just looking forward to the holidays. I'm like feeling cozy as fuck. It's cold here in California. I went to bed with my socks on last night I was like oh I got my socks on it's cozy there you know they're my wool socks I'm like

nope two seconds into that took those motherfuckers off I was like cannot sleep with socks but it was cold enough you have hardwood floor so it's like and I marble so it's like cold all the time I'm realizing I need more um rugs so I'll probably be buying some rugs I need a big cozy rug in my bedroom so when I wake up I'm not on this hard cold um floor yeah oh um what else call your family here's your life advice I feel like I need to educate entertain inspire activate as Logan Paul loves to say activate my audience to do something that's helpful instead of just talking about myself seriously text your mom back call your family just like communicate with people in your life and cherish them hold them tight I don't know let's not forget the lesson we learned

like with Kobe and everything like fuck that was a time where everyone was just like be in your family's business 24 7 talk to them I mentioned this yesterday I was like I am noticing as I grow up I'm you know I'm obviously on my own in a different state but I feel like I'm drifting from family more and more and I'm less involved with them and so I'm making a point I've been making a point lately to talk to them all day long we're always texting all day long sending pictures calling like in each other's faces because I just it's so good for the soul and that's probably why I'm doing good so yo if you're out there call your family that's your life advice today also uh selfish moment go to youtube to watch this look at my

one of those days appearances what am i saying look at my hoodie i don't know what i'm saying this for i don't know how to plug myself just go to youtube if you want to watch this and hang out subscribe on my youtube channel actually uh patreon.com slash tjms if you want to support the show just calling it like I see it just give me your money basically that's what I'm asking for there starts out at five dollars you go all the way up I got a couple patrons paying me 20 bucks a month if you want to call me regularly you get to yeah I do phone calls that's where you get to see all my exclusive content I don't know how to say it sometimes I'm like why don't podcasters just say like yo just give me your money that's what all these ads are about it's

about money dude this is how people make their they make a living that's how they pay their bills and feed their children I'm hustling in these streets dude this is this is the time I gotta I gotta be bold I gotta gotta grind but y'all hear it my voice every day I do this for the love of it I love talking and podcasting and it's my hobby right now but yo if you want to support the show patreon.com slash tjms and uh fucking subscribe to the podcast and leave a review love you guys tuesday is done episode 54 is done i hope you're all fulfilled and happy i always say that i really mean it audit yourself right now audit your life but look around and go am I do I like my job am I fulfilled by what I'm doing I got I saw you know what I gotta I gotta

read this this is gonna be actually good for y'all I got I follow someone on Instagram that talks about business a lot I don't want to watch this Instagram live right now I didn't mean to tap that she talks about business and she posted something that was good yesterday about if you're aligned in your career so it's split down the middle the goal line of alignment or the sole line of career alignment and here's how it goes this is something to leave you guys with so the goal line is she she uh wrote here the good job that makes the goal line is the good job that makes enough money and you're good at it so it should make you happy and you've already spent so much time and money getting to this point that if you leave it wasn't worth it and you don't

want to disappoint people and there's no way you could be successful doing anything else that's not where you want to be technically the other line the sole line of career alignment is considered she wrote the other path the one you thought of in my case podcasting even if you had no idea what exactly it is or how to get there that's what your soul wants that's like if you're really honest with yourself and you're like if I could do anything and get paid for it because you know you got to like pay your bills like if what could I do every day that would make me so happy and what my soul wants think about that and go do it actually do it I'm actually practicing that myself for the first time in my life I'm like

holy shit this is like when people talk about oh I'm living my dream I am pursuing my dream I'm actually I know what that is now and I can't recommend like I can't recommend it enough I don't know how to say it whatever your dream is go do it I don't even know how it's kind of like a light switch went off to be honest that's do you guys want to know maybe should i just i can talk forever should i tell the story really quick to new listeners how i even started this i i gotta go to the dm conversation it's kind of crazy to me actually i'm reflecting episode 54 i gotta reflect then i'm gonna wrap try to keep this under an hour for you guys i don't want to

take too much of your time so i don't i was uh watching duncan trussell and rogan i think it was the last episode in his old studio before I moved and I was watching it and that day I'd posted something on my Instagram story and one of my followers I've been talking to he he's been following me for a long time he he said something like oh let me find it he goes like I want to frame this because this is literally how the podcast started and I always thank him so I I said okay wait wait wait ah sorry could have ended this five minutes ago but I'm not what did he say oh I posted oh okay I know I posted a screenshot this is what he responded to this like would be

something I posted I posted a Ben Shapiro podcast screenshot and I wrote in big letters respect under it because the title is episode 1085 blaming Trump for Antifa and then I can't read the rest of the title because it cuts off but I wrote respect because like I listened to the episode I was like respect you know what he said I really agreed with and I was like someone's saying finally you know someone fucking says it spells it out you know I don't agree with everything but Ben Shapiro does a good job of spelling shit out that I think is easy to like you don't see it unless he's the one that says it if that makes sense the counterpoints to the Democrats so anyways he this guy on my this follower I'm telling the story of how I started this podcast if you already know this story tune

out subscribe to my patreon youtube all that shit and you can leave right now the door is open you were welcome to leave but I gotta reflect I posted the screenshot he replied to it and then he's like I love me some Shapiro he gives zero fucks and then he's like hell yeah honestly I'd love to pick your brain over all of this I feel like you're one of the few people I see that's super logical and they're thinking okay that's nice and I said let's start a podcast and then he's like haha I'm super down I wanted to do one for the last year I was like give me a topic he's like all my ideas are about business is like bullshit but we were just going back and forth and then I'm watching the Duncan episode and then I took

a picture this is all recorded on my on one of my highlights potty time I really documented how this started and 10 minutes into the Rogan episode I was like I got my little headphones my old shitty like wired Apple headphones with a microphone and I pulled up Boss Jock a podcast or like a mixing of audio whatever recording thing an app that I downloaded in college I still I think I still have my iPhone 7 at that point I think I had I've had this this i've had this one for so long um this is like when everyone had the iphone 4 and it looks so small compared to the new phone like that's how i feel like this film looks it's like it's such a piece of shit it's it's still working though after all these years anyways i got

boss jock downloaded from when i did a podcast in college i literally did like a soundcloud podcast like six episodes and dipped out because that's when i would set goals and i would never follow through with them and continue something long term like I'm doing with this episode 54 54 days telling stories so I download I like pull that up put my headphones in stop the Rogan episode and I did a recap of 2020 posted on SoundCloud because I didn't have an Apple Apple didn't I didn't have a approval for the Apple podcast app at that point and then the next day I did it and then the next day I did it and I got addicted I was like I just want to check in and do a fucking podcast seven days a week i love it and here i am 54 54 days later so

shout out to kane he's my he's the guy that i was dming kane and he uh i'm gonna shout out his business if you're in arizona he uh is the owner of premier pool care they put pools in people's backyards and they're beautiful he's got a i think he has a tiktok like a famous tiktok premier pool care on Instagram anyways so that's how it started and that's super organic to me when I think about it I never intended to do this it was never like on my radar I was trying to do the vlog thing on YouTube like during my depression and the beginning of quarantine I was trying to pull my shit together once a week and post a vlog but it never felt as natural as this and as authentic as this and so I think this is my fucking calling though I can like I said stream

of consciousness is insane it can go forever I can talk all day long never get bored of it and that's really that's where it's at so happy Tuesday there was a little five minute tangent for your ending repeat myself because I think I've told that story about five times now dude I'm in month two okay I'm not good at this yet am I good at this I don't know leave a review and let me know what do you think was this like a two-star day was this a five-star day anyways i love you guys stick around if you're a patron for your shout out and i will talk to you tomorrow for wednesday's show bye what's up my patrons my people my support system my three amigos here's your shout out my patreon.com slash tj best patron shout outs

without further ado this is my favorite time of the day go out to ricky jensen trevor garrett and eagle one thank you guys so much for your support i really appreciate you i'm you know happy you're enjoying the show and so much so that you're willing to fork over some cash every month for me that's really sweet um anyways it's not about that it's more about like just my gratitude and love of you guys because damn i'm i'm literally living my dream and it feels amazing to have support and can't say thank you enough for that so uh see you guys over on patreon doing phone calls soon you know who you are all right guys talk to you tomorrow all right bye