The Jacqueline Monroe Show - 63- T or B

Episode Date: November 6, 2020

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This episode is sponsored by Jacqueline. Isn't that cool? She doesn't have sponsors yet. I'm just kidding. Welcome back to the show. It's episode 63. Let's do a podcast. what's up guys it's Jacqueline welcome back to the show happy Thursday if you're new I'm here 70s week go ahead and subscribe and leave a review on the podcast app also go over to patreon.com slash tjms if you want to support the show everyone gets a shout out everyone gets my exclusive content and some people are getting phone calls which is a lot of fun to call you guys. So now that's out of the way. It's Thursday. It's election week or whatever. And we don't know who the president is. And I'm sitting here and I'm just like, what is life? I'm putting myself

or I'm thinking about things outside of the box. And I'm like, this is fun as shit. I'm in a movie right now. Like watching the news and seeing what's going on with the election and the ballots being counted and everything. I feel like this is better than going into a movie theater and watching a movie about politics. It's like actual real life and it's kind of fun. So if you think outside the box, it's not that stressful. It's not that crazy. Anyways, what a week. I don't think anyone expected it to be this close. And yeah, in your face, mainstream media for just like, I feel like they're the real losers right now. I think I heard fucking Shapiro say that and I'm repeating it but I mean they thought they thought wrong that's all I have to say uh you

guys kind of probably can tell where I stand on things but uh I don't want to talk about the election so much I feel like everyone knows what's going on I don't need to do an update you guys have been following it like I have uh I do want to mention though real quick that the disrespect I witnessed in the last four years towards our president is absolutely to me insane and I feel like people just and I know people are like how could you say that but I don't care who's in the White House like the there needs to be a respect revolution I feel like our generation younger people that are sarcastic and say shit how it is on Twitter and on their you know texting and everyone just so loose with their words the tone and the

disrespect towards trump is not acceptable and i i don't think people are so quick to just say the witty remarks and the trash talk but instead of you know it doesn't make sense to me how i'm just going to speak on like the liberal mindset you know everyone on the left side is more they're like it's like the feminine energy they want to take care of everyone world peace every you know kumbaya so it's like can you maybe look at Trump as a person with mental struggles or something and like come down a notch with your verbiage and your rhetoric that's so negative and nasty towards him like I don't understand that and again I wasn't like personally wasn't raised to disrespect people that are uh you know my my leaders my coaches my teachers you know what I

me my president and across the board it's disgusting and you know what I don't give a fuck I'm gonna say it like it is it's my opinion you don't have to like it I don't think anyone could disagree with that that it's been nasty and regardless of what happens I really hope and pray that the next four years are less uh like disrespectful and you know I didn't want to make this political and shit but i don't know i just like i get exhausted of it you know i just want people to be kind and respectful and loving and not so dramatic this is the thing this is the fucking thing and i i've i'm an observer i i'm really intrigued by human psychology and behavior and i i'm commenting on it that's what's great about this podcast is i can watch other people

and talk about it and out from a from a it's like objective you know what I mean I'm just like okay this is what I see I feel like the internet and I've written about this has let me just read it off of my tweet the proximity to people so think about in relationships how the closer you are to them and like the proximity, like you are in person with your friends and you're close to them and you're more intimate. They don't, they, so here's the, I'll just read it because it's easier to explain if I read it word for word. I wrote this, um, do people are coming in on my poll tonight? I'm like, what are these news reporters taking to stay up for four days straight? And they're like Adderall and bath salts. Uh, shit. My mom or cocaine, like everyone's

tuning in um but I wrote I wrote this I said so proximity divided by intimacy is the amount that someone will hate you so the internet has increased proximity anyone the proximity the distance you are to someone else in the world you might live in Washington state you might live in I don't know South Carolina the proximity to you that you are to other people online is a profile click away so there's no increase in intimacy and in-person intimacy so that increases hate it's a simple algorithm I wrote the less you actually know someone in person the more you can hate them and that is my opinion on why the internet is dividing us right now and I mentioned yesterday it seems like the divide is virtual it's not actually reality because when

you go around the United States for the most part in public other than these unique events where there's protests and rioting people are cordial people are friendly people are civil you know they they cooperate with each other behind closed doors people might bitch about other people and you know get upset and have their opinions but out in public it's a I mean for the most part we're we're a friendly country and the internet is where it makes it look like we're this divided you know angry intolerant group and I just think that's that's causing all the shit we're seeing and you know I can speak on this because like unless you've I grew up in you know conservative you know environment where you know my grandparents were farmers and I grew up

in farmland and that was just like the vibe you know I like it's like that was what I grew up I didn't grow up in a you know I didn't grow up with two dads in San Francisco you know I didn't grow up in or whatever or it's like this it's like unless I so if you you can't unless you've been in person with people that you online disagree with unless you've been to the middle of Arkansas on a gun range with Trump supporters and talked to them and like interacted like don't just don't tweet and just shut the fuck up online you know what I mean like you don't even have the personal experience to talk about it you're just seeing something online that you're going oh you know and it's it's all inflated it's all dramatic over the top you don't have the life

experience you can't comment and disagree with other people and how they think about you know republican policies i just want to say it like versus democrat uh and you haven't you can't unless you can walk in their shoes meet them talk to them like don't you can't judge people for that and go online and and be disrespectful and say shitty things okay it's I feel like there's a double standard and I mean look same goes for what I said earlier it's like unless I've gone to a gay fucking castle in West Hollywood like if Trump supporters I won't say me I'm going to say like unless those Trump supporters on the gun range in Arkansas uh went to West Hollywood at a gay castle rave thing like do you guys get where I'm going with

this like we're not we don't talk to each other we're not in person with each other experiencing each other's lifestyles and seeing it from other people's shoes and having that sort of we're not gaining these perspectives because everything we're seeing is in an echo chamber online based on who we follow and the people that we agree with it's basically on one side attacking another side that we don't even we don't talk to we don't actually know okay I just took a little breather because I blacked out I don't know what I just said um that was a lot but look when I talk about walking in other people's shoes getting to know people you disagree with and like seeing it from their perspective it's easy for me to say this because I've done it so

much in my life I mean not only have I tried and then look maybe it's privilege whatever you want to call it I don't know but look I've traveled okay I've traveled a lot I've worked like my job for and just like being in um public education around different people in high school that are you know like you get all kinds of flavors in school so even if you haven't traveled you've seen you've been in public in cities you've seen people that are different than you so you can kind of maybe get where I'm going to the next layer where I've actually interacted and worked and built relationships with people and had conversations so what the reason I'm saying this is I had the opportunity to work for international students and professors and

people from all over the world you know my interns were from let's see Saudi Arabia Oman Iraq uh Colombia Nigeria you got your I had some Europeans fucking China like where else I'm like missing there's like but then all the people outside of my interns were like from literally every country in the world that came and got an education in the United States oh I met people that two weeks before I met them these uh medical students they were uh they lost family members in the Aleppo bombings in Syria like I have I'm not just this is me explaining the fact that I have like when you actually meet people that you have zero experience with their culture with their beliefs with how they think and they're like their customs like you know my intern from

um where was she from shit i'm blinking was it oman like they do arrange marriages still it's like they don't they don't drink it's so different you know what i mean so i don't know what i'm saying about america and how we interact with each other um online without actually having calm like in when you my when I'm I suck at this this is not a political podcast I need to I need to do a little breathing exercise or something Jesus Christ my look I think everyone can put themselves back in time when they met someone who they were a little bit like maybe at first they're like I don't think I'm gonna like this person then you meet them you're like whoa we're all the same we all want to have a happy life we all want to be successful and have a

like a family loving a loving family relationship and have a good job and make it and be healthy and it doesn't matter if you're a Biden supporter or a Trump supporter or if you're from this country or that country or believe this or that it's like we're at the end of the day where we all want the same things we're all human we're all in a human race okay so before you go to the internet to bitch about just like the words people use like the like the toxicity of donald trump and the like fucking people that support him are racist i love how the hispanic vote was it like 32 percent or something like the whole he debunked with his um the the black vote this year i don't remember what it like when uh everything went up so people can't call him racist when you look at the support

from the black and the uh the hispanic vote and the black vote this year it's just like it's dumb you can't even have that conversation you can't say oh you're racist the thing about people that look like they'd be racist the conservative trump supporter people they look like they'd be racist and that's just what you have in your head if you're um you know super liberal super left like they because you know that maybe they're country folk they have big trucks they like flying their American flag they have these down and they like their guns and they're like hunting and all that shit like just it's that doesn't make them racist I feel like people are quick to judge that it's so dumb it's so dumb and I and I feel like because I grew up

in places like that you know where it was real conservative and you know I fucking drove a truck to school i lived out in farmland my sister and brother and i shared we we drove a fucking f-250 to school in high like high school together we all went to high school together at the same time and like i'm not fucking like i just feel like i have to say this like i don't know trump supporters aren't racist that's the dumbest shit ever i'm just i'm really letting it all hang out right now because look the election's gonna go the election's gonna end this episode is gonna get buried because I do the 70s a week and by the time I hit like episode 100 in December me saying all these pro-Trump or pro you know conservative thoughts are or supportive of that uh it's all

gonna get buried so whatever I'm for freedom man I don't like how shit's getting locked down I live in California you know I want my freedoms I want all the things that make America great I'll just say it and I'm just sick of the look it's not we're not this isn't fucking Denmark okay this is not fucking Denmark it's never gonna be Denmark go move to Denmark if you don't like it here okay it's there's some hard shit and hard pills people need to swallow about this country that make it what it is that are good for it and that's all I have to say all right guys I did so much yoga today this is this is a big contrast to my bitch session I just had but look uh I told you guys this is gonna happen I am gonna get my addiction back because I feel so like every joint

my body is like singing a it's like a what kind of music would it be singing right now like a lullaby it's just like so happy because I I did so what's today Thursday I did yoga for the last four days and I like every joint my body has been all the kinks are worked out my hamstrings are getting looser my hips are super open my chest is open I like my collarbones are starting to pop out more like all the good things and I saw a quote or a meme repost thing um this guy I follow on Instagram his name's Patrick real estate pat I think he posted this I screenshotted it about the three things it resonated because I've been half pregnant on nine different hobbies and things I like especially with fitness for my entire life like I cannot decide on

something and stick to it I I feel like this year I've learned how fulfilling it is to go in on one thing like I'm doing the podcast like go all in on it I think I have an addictive personality I really do because like what the fuck I'm doing it seven days a week but I realized that I've struggled with accountability in the past where I'll get excited about doing something and like the idea of being successful at it but I can't sustain and follow through with complete like completing it and so that's why this is like a big test for me and my I guess my discipline my determination my perseverance as a you know an adult now because I'm in my mid-20s and my 20s are my adult head's knocking on the door and it's like Jacqueline figure it out uh this is a

good this is good for me and it feels really good but anyways this this has to do with um what I'm about to say has to do with going hard with yoga let me see did I screenshot so much and I never delete anything um I'll find it I'll find it I'll find it or did I save it damn it it's gonna take too long um I think I saved it I never look at my save post I save shot and I never look at my save post I realized you guys always look at their save post because of like hot girl pics they save like do they do you just always check your save pics I never do um god damn it I'm pissed it was like three things so you need something that it's like three things. Like you need something that makes you money. I could have figured this out in two

seconds or like just thinking about it. You need to find something that that'll make you money, something that will like related to your body and something like your physical health and then your creative. Yeah. Yeah. So it was money, which is my job, creative, which is my podcast, and then body physical health, which is yoga. And I'm like, you know what? I saw that. little infographic meme whatever the fuck it's called and I was like that's it I need to be decisive about the fact that I love fuck I love yoga it's my shit I love it and if I continue to do it consistently I'll feel accomplished I'll feel fulfilled I'll feel amazing because like look I it's like I go to sleep and I'm like my hips like everything feels like I'm sinking and

I'm like so relaxed and I don't feel like that after I deadlift you know what I mean it's a different thing which I don't love like I like lifting weights but I don't like love it so I got my split splits back already it's been four days uh feeling great so yeah I did that today this is gonna be the update the life update section uh it worked I um I don't know today was heavy it was weird I woke up and I was like you know the news has been in my face for the whole week and I'm like just like feeling weird um what else did I do I don't really know I just like worked and did yoga today I guess that's like a normal day I stuck my I voted sticker up on the wall um I don't know sorry for ranting I just think quick cliff notes about that respect

like like I have a proud to be an American thing in my house and I'm like I believe like that's true I wish the thing is I like all of the because I can't say I am you know I don't I'm I'm not pro-Trump I'm pro-Trump's policies let's make like let me make that clear I like the policies on the on the Republican side of things versus the Democrat side of things but I do like like i get i i think everyone's a little bit of both you have you like the different things on both you know you can take from each side it's a yin yang it's masculine energy and feminine energy and that's what it is if you look at democrats and republicans and i think both can should appreciate what the other has to offer and that's what we don't do in this country we just

hate on and shit on the other side um and again we're all just trying to have live a happy life we're all just trying to make it um take care of each other have you know no drama no war no chaos um but it's not gonna ever it's not gonna be perfect I don't think that exists okay there's always gonna be evil there's always gonna be hate that that's just an energy that flows through the world that is I think it's a necessary I think it's necessary if there was if everything was good we wouldn't like evolve we wouldn't grow we want to improve um does that make sense i think people think of this the dream of this utopia this like perfect world that doesn't factor in reality doesn't factor in what's currently happening and currently going on the country and

look look at the fucking economy trump's economy before covid hit look at that like there's a lot of positive shit that came out last four years and it's all been documented and written it's never public it's like barely talked about on the mainstream media but um let's all have some respect for that let's all be proud of that proud to be an American proud of you know he uh he got some shit done so anyways um I did yoga I did my work I put up my I voted sticker I watered my plants uh my little sprouts haven't sprouted yet I'm really pissed I checked one of the little packets though for my um my is my thyme or my rosemary I think it's my rosemary but it said it'll sprout in 12 to 18 days so it's coming up on 18 days so maybe

I'll see some sprouts but again I'm going home for Christmas break and I say like I say that like I'm back in high school I'm going home for an entire month Jesus uh and I won't be able to water my plants I'm kind of getting nervous they'll be okay like all my tropical shit will be okay but my little herb garden is gonna fail dude I cannot another life update I cannot stop looking at cats I know I've told you that I can't buy one till next year because I'm going home for a month like it doesn't make sense to get one right now and leave and have to deal with that so it's annoying though because I'm like I just want one right now I want my kitten I want to raise it I want to buy a bunch of shit for it I want to like you know set everything out I just

want to hold it it's so sad actually I was thinking about it I'm like I can't believe it's taken me this long into 2020 to adopt a pet and like get a little companion in my apartment like I live alone I gotta toot my own horn I did pretty good you you could say maybe Jacqueline insane because she's on she's on a headset by herself seven days a week you know that's a little schizo that's a little out there did I just offend did I just offend schizophrenics god damn I hate I hate this modern age. You know what I mean? Um, by the way, there's been a lot of, uh, schizophrenia commercials on TV. I noticed on Fox news, CNN, like they show a lot of medical or like medicine commercials. And I've never seen that before.

Like talking to you, like these two women are talking about their schizophrenia and they're like, I hear voices. I hear things. I'm like, Jesus, I, I don't watch TV. I didn't know this is going on, but that's progress. Okay. That's cool. Um, but anyways, I'm proud of the fact that I, I held my own. I worked on myself. It's November. I basically have a month left to be a solo podcast host for y'all and, uh, get my ducks in a row. I'm going to have to overwater my plants the day before I leave and then go home for a month and just celebrate the year then come back this in the new year with uh you know more interviews big plans lots of new things probably with my job um it's gonna be great I'm just really looking forward to it

uh yeah I don't know what else to update you guys on I I just feel good I feel really content I like this decision I made um I do notice I still fight fight myself like oh fuck I'm like putting too much out there I'm like oversharing about you know who I am and how I think and I think I might be shooting myself in the foot sometimes and like people are gonna hate on me but like look I I get those thoughts and then they I immediately squander them with the fact that look if I if I'm gonna be successful I gotta welcome the haters okay the only people the if you have haters if you could attract haters you'll have you can have a career like that's how it works if everyone loves you like you would need some sort of you know you need your support system you also need people

that are like fuck you Jacqueline you're a racist Trump supporter look it's not like that um Jesus Christ like do what else do I have to say about like being in in hand-to-hand conversation combat with people that are just, like, not like me, I mean, my whole fucking life, we would, like, take people in at my house, my mom always, she was, like, Mother Teresa, like, rescue people, homeless people, we did that one Christmas, I remember, exchange students, the whole thing, you know, adoption, we have family members that adopt, we have, like, I come from, like, a very open arms love everyone family and I don't get how I just don't want to make this a left and right thing but like people just like being I I think it's been said a lot it's like Trump

supporter people people that voted for Trump like their their disposition about if Biden wins is not like going to the internet and shitting on everyone that voted for but like voted for Biden saying all these hateful things they're gonna accept it with grace and move on and go back to work they're gonna live their life and it's like the fact the the fact if Trump wins oh we know we're gonna see protests we know we know we're gonna see crazy riots and dramatic fucking Instagram videos and tweets and all this obnoxious shit online and everyone's in their fucking mansions and their fancy Instagram outfits and they like it's so dumb I just don't think people realize how like odd that is that they they talk about wanting this utopia this

like you know shit I don't want to get into this it's like a double standard again but anyways what do I know just 20 something year old doing a podcast that's I'm not going to change the world I just want to share what I have to think that's all it's all I can do it's my contribution and look this is my audio diary diary if you're new it's an audio diary it's easy because I don't have to I'm not getting carpal tunnel doing this okay I might get choked up on my words a few times and get dry mouth from I do I have water today yeah I do I always like talk and then my I don't have any water and then it's like you know but when I talk my podcast out my audio diary it's saving me some I'm saving trees this is my contribution to uh helping out climate

change you know I'm not writing my journal okay I'm not wasting paper this is a this is an eco fucking friendly podcast you can clip this you can write this down you can write that in a review that jacqueline has an eco-friendly podcast that might be the title today i like talking shit out and then i come up with something like that look it's uh saving paper anyways what else do i got for you guy fieri's on my tv still got the food network on these baking competition shows are kind of just they're so phony and like i don't know like i kind of live for it though I do live for their commentary like let me just turn it on and like see I pulled my pies from the oven my only concern was that the crust was too burnt

so funny how they narrate it I love it um I just couldn't have the news on mute anymore it's like triggering to see it my peripheral vision guys have to let me set the scene I'm on my couch so my late night podcast again we're hanging out uh I kind of like how this is filling the void it's like instead of hanging out with friends at night I'm just doing my own podcast and like talking to you guys whatever fuck it it's 2020 this is my life story um but I feel like at night it kind of feels like that the lonely hours you know jumping on the mic saying hi it's good for me but anyways my peripheral vision I got the tv on that's why I didn't want it to be the news because I can see people like getting upset and shit. And then what else do I got? I got like

five pillows around me. I got my flowers. I got my candles lit. I got my, I got my water on deck. I've got my, I don't know, my laptop in front of me. Let's see my outfit. I haven't done an outfit of the day in like 15 podcasts. I have my whoops drop on. I got my black oversized big tee on. I've got my sweatshorts that are cute that are gray I've got a toe ring on um gold bracelet my nails are painted white uh what else is happening oh shit what was I gonna say uh I watched I know life update while I was working I put on um a couple podcasts, I listened to Impulsive again, yeah, was it that one, what else did I listen to, Julia Rose, yeah, I listened to that, Impulsive with Julia Rose today, and then I listened to

two of them, what was the other one, what was the other one, I think it was just the three guys, no guest, I don't know, anyways, apparently Mike broke up with Lana Rhodes, and I don't know, they didn't really talk much about it but I don't know I've been listening to Impulsive all year and I feel like I'm just one of the boys but I like listening to their show because it's they talk about current events and like their conversations flow I feel like I'm hanging out with them and it's I don't know they're cool I like what Logan's doing a lot I think he's you know turned a corner for himself um I'm just on Instagram reading DMs now oh i posted about bitcoin because it broke 15k today someone just responded

i've been riding the wave since earlier this year bitch i've been riding the wave since what year did i get in 2000 fucking 15 did i get in 2015 bitcoin let me check do you guys have coin coin base does anyone out there uh is anyone out there buying bitcoin what's going on i got ether ethereum ethereum and bitcoin let me see i invested in i think it was 2015 yeah so anyways um shit in the stock market's going good i think you know stock market doesn't give a fuck the president is that's for sure based on what's been going on this week it's like okay okay uh so that's good uh I got a like a pie on my tv screen right now on this baking competition show Janet bakery owner they're so cute these people are so like

happy to be baking this stuff being on tv you know they're just like having their 15 minutes of fame it's so cool um hitting a wall man I'm hitting a wall I've been trying to think I'm like not writing in my see again it's ego-friendly I'm not writing my journal usually I write my journal my little uh notes for the show like I'll have my talking points all listed out but today I don't so I'm like off the top of my head what can I remember fuck oh patreon.com slash tjms if you want to support the show and go over to the podcast app take a field trip are you guys close to your phone right now if you're not close to your phone right now I need you to walk over to your phone open the podcast app go to my show scroll down tap the one through five stars I

don't know this is like a lukewarm three today I'm pretty sure by the end of it I'll be a five let's go ahead and leave a review uh you can write something you can write that this is an eco-friendly podcast if you want um tell a friend oh also screenshot this if you're listening right now screenshot this podcast and share it on your story share the good news sell me around to your to your followers uh i don't know look a couple people have been i think it was last week they're like i want you to go pro with this i i think i read the whole conversation they're like you need to do something big with this you need to and I'm like look it overwhelms me to even think well I'd be lying if I said I don't think

that I could go big someday but I'm right now it overwhelms me to like to conceptualize that where I'm like in a million people's ears that freaks me out a little bit a little bit right now because I'm just trying to learn and grow and gain skills and be a good speaker and you know deliver 70s week like that is my goal right now and just discovering more and more parts of myself as I as I talk things out every day and and and yeah and that's what's cool so I feel like after a couple years of doing this getting it under my belt I'll be more solid in who I am and what the show is and you know of course interviews are going to spice things up and I don't know it's crazy though I still like you know even though I waited till the end of the day again

the second I get my head I put my headset on like a football coach like a fucking pop star I get like legit butterflies I'm like I get so excited I'm like a little kid again in school I'm like, I just want to do my podcast. It's so fun. Shit. So that's why I know this is going to have legs and I can do it forever because I know now what it's like to find your passion. I know what it's like. You don't, you want to, you want to do it every day. If a day goes by and I don't do this, it's like I got hit by a bus. Just know that. If I don't, if this episode doesn't drop in your inbox that means it got hit by a bus straight up okay so I just can't I it's like I unlock something it's like I just like turned a little key and it's like I opened the door and I

walked in the room it's like oh I'm home how beautiful is that I want that for everyone I want everyone to find that thing where it lights them the fuck up to the point where they can't stop thinking about they can't stop talking about they can't stop posting about it they can't stop like I'm literally addicted okay I have an addictive personality I think we've decided that what does that even mean I always hear people say that I'm like what is addictive personality I don't think that's a negative thing I think it's just like we're googling um 13 signs you might have an addictive personality better help let's do it uh I know that's gonna happen with yoga I know I'm gonna be a yogi yogi genetics okay so

uh that make that makes sense that makes sense um I have family members that struggle with addiction so like substance stuff environmental so I've always believed this having family family members with addictions doesn't automatically mean you're designed you're destined to have an addiction at some point in your life let me just see wait oh better help I just found you I just got a typo or found a typo yeah they meant to write addiction but they wrote addition should I email them I always call out people's typos because I'm I'm a scribe okay I'm a writer I see shit that other people wouldn't see because I have great eyes okay I have eagle eyes many other factors such as the friends you hang out with your education your social support

and then the environment you grew up in will play a part in whether your addictive personality traits develop into an addiction addiction is a medical illness and develops in the same ways as many other illnesses blah blah mental and emotional health person's state of mental and emotional health can give more significant rise to becoming addicted to something let's let's uh deconstruct that for me mental health was in the shitter from march through probably end of july 2020 and then august started getting help august september when the podcast drops september podcast dropped in september so i'd like august september or like a month or so to get my shit together and then i like did a podcast all of a sudden then i haven't

stopped since so my mental and emotional health has been maybe if it's if you're no because you know I think people do unhealthy addictions they get addicted to bad things like alcohol when they're not doing well mentally and emotionally where in my case this is a positive addiction I think people would say this is a good thing this is a good thing I gotta keep telling myself that or else I'll, I'll, I'll spiral and think that I'm a crazy person. Uh, but look, look at all the other podcasters out there doing this. Okay. They're not, you don't think they're crazy. You think they're fucking cool people. They're so fun to listen to. So I'm just joining the club. Okay. Drowning out these hoes. I'm doing it seven days a week, joining the club. Okay. It's going

to take me how many years to catch up to Rogan? I got fucking 365 times three. I think, what did I calculate he's at like 1500 that's less that's only a thousand I gotta do this for five years I think fuck yeah I got about 4.8 times 365 yeah I got like four and a half years so that's what it is all right I'm competitive I want to I want to drown out these hoes just joking but look um I like the idea of doing it every day because, like, okay, should I get back into the 13 signs you might be addicted to things and then elaborate on this? Hold on. Obsessing, always wanting more, lying. Well, that's gone out the window. Nothing I do on the internet anymore is me lying this whole this entire podcast is one vulnerable I'm being so honest with you guys

that it's so like I'm not trying to make myself look better sound better seem cooler smarter anything like I just don't I'm not trying hard anymore I'm not trying to curate this aesthetic you see when you're like oh who's Jacqueline what's this girl up to like who is she and then you go to the internet and it's like this thing that's not actually me like I'm over those days like I'm not but it says here addiction and lying go hand in hand and are multi-layered oh the user lies to themselves themselves about having an addiction look I don't think people with an addiction go to the internet to find out if they have an addiction I think that's what I'm finding and I'm not in denial I feel like this is an addiction but it's

not negative i'm literally doing personal therapy with myself seven days a week manipulation and criminal behavior continuing despite negative outcomes impulsive behavior like this isn't relationships this is helping relationships um sensation seeking secrecy risk taking this is not a secret i can't shut the fuck up about it i tell everyone look what was i saying earlier see I lost my train of thought I was gonna go on a tangent um oh lying being honest something like that can't remember not gonna try to remember moving on um I don't know I got I have an exciting delivery tomorrow that's a life update an exciting delivery tomorrow little uh package coming

fuck I'm pissed I forgot my train of thought oh I guess something I'm struggling with right now maybe I can share this is like kind of what I just mentioned about being like raw and real and this is who I am I'm letting I'm letting my freak flag fly I don't give a fuck anymore I'm like over those days I just mention that but I've been struggling because I still am in that age where I'm like okay I'm dating I'm trying to meet new people I'm trying to like yeah and I get insecure about what I post I'm like okay I'm putting on like this is me entertaining you guys okay I'm I've got a potential spam call from Pullman Washington what the fuck hello oh they hung up okay that's

interesting um like I know when I turn on the microphone I can't just go um the whole time I gotta I gotta keep the conversation flowing so a little bit of a little bit of what I'm doing here is you know I'm entertaining I'm putting on a little act a little bit it's me being who I am but a little bit of a you know line of cocaine involved or something not actually but like you know I'm like fucking putting the energy you know I drink my coffee I do my push-ups before this I get pumped up right I don't even know where you find coke that's when I've always been curious about like where do people find it where do they I don't get where it comes from it's always that I'm always at like that's where I've like whenever I've been around coke it's like I'm at a party

and I'm like I don't know who brought this or where it comes from it's always been this weird thing to me like this mystery I don't understand how people get drugs like I know marijuana is legal now so it's like you can go to the dispensary but other than that I'm like how do people get like where did heroin like fucking I don't know like they make this in a in a house somewhere cocaine's always weird to me I'm like where does it come from like you know a guy that knows the guy is that what it is anyways um but no I put on a little bit of a heightened personality I don't know what I'm fucking saying go to my Instagram like let me just be insecure right now and talk about myself send DM me your your least favorite post of mine and

tell me why and just be like you know this isn't a good look for you okay if I was a guy that came across your profile I'd be like turn off red flag that's what I'm worried about that's what I feel like my entire Instagram now is this giant obnoxious what the fuck red flag and I'm insecure about it I'm being honest I wish that I could have persevered and become you know and I could have become the fucking fashion of Instagram baddie bitch that I've always wanted to be and I never did that okay I became a depressed piece of shit in 2020 that turned into a podcaster and just like doesn't give a fuck anymore and that's it okay but I still have some flavors I threw out a few I threw out a few bangers this year okay there's like me laying on a bed me at the beach

you know just some cute shit but look I'm on my Instagram right now I'm like some of the IGTVs I posted I'm like oh I feel ugly and stupid that's dumb I should love myself I should not care but you guys are you guys are getting in my head right now I think everyone as much as I say I don't give a fuck like I'm like well if a guy wants to date me is he just like confused she's like cute but like weird and funny and like what did she just say that for I don't get it she's like too much for me and she looks like a crazy hot mess with like full of drama and like my life is literally no drama or chaos my entire like I don't relate to people with drama and chaos in their life because I'm a little lone wolf usually alone doing my own shit I keep like I have my

ducks in a row in every avenue of my life except for my social life let's just be honest but like for the most part i'm a thinker i'm not crazy it might come across crazy i like to i don't know stew on thoughts and ideas and get curious about shit and then i talk about it on here but i don't think it's common maybe that's it maybe i feel like i'm a fucking just train wreck that no people aren't used to DM me though I really want you guys to roast me go to go to my worst picture on Instagram send it to me and tell me like just pick me apart I'm not the thing is is I know I'm not for everyone so it doesn't really I'm not insecure about like physical stuff anymore like it used to be not on the same level like I can't say that a hundred percent but

like if you're like oh I think your nose is weird I'm not gonna get upset if you're like oh you're too fat like I'm not gonna get upset so dude there's a lot of people that don't think I'm too fat okay that sucks man going all the way you're fucking 90s and being like I'm fat I need to go on a diet I feel like that's what women do their entire life is like I'm just trying to lose weight I'm trying to go on a diet I'm trying to keep in shape it's like figure it out in your 20s ladies and just sustain that shit for the rest of your life and don't it's not that deep you know it doesn't need to be like every other year you're doing some new fitness challenge and like trying to do a different diet it's like it's not that deep I don't know like that's why I'm glad I

got that I adopted this mindset right now where I'm just like look I know what works for me I love yoga I have a certain diet that I follow that it's like me for me uh you know I've even done like fucking food tests to see what I should and shouldn't eat I just like do my own thing I stay in my lane and I don't get influenced anymore I'm not like oh what's the new fad thing that every woman's doing out there I don't care I'm like it's not that deep it's not like people that make their like diet and fitness a religion it's so strange to me I'm like nobody needs to know what you put in your mouth that is the most boring shit like unless you're posting some amazing recipe you just cooked that's like gourmet and I would see in a at a Michelin star restaurant I

don't give a fuck about your oatmeal okay and I'm one to talk because I used to post all that shit all the time but like okay I'm a changed woman I grew up and I learned better I'm like I don't want to influence people uh it's just like so boring to look at someone's fucking salad they ate for lunch like who gives a fuck oh but they'll tag the restaurant that makes them look rich and cool so that's why you know hey I'm drinking rosé it's lunchtime I got my salmon salad fuck you I'm cool I'm rich like who I'm so annoyed by that I'm so annoyed by that I want to see your fucking uh snack drawer at your house show me like a raw picture of your snack drawer that's cool to me that's interesting I don't know what I'm saying I could bitch about so much um back to Instagram

um okay I want to read people's responses about the reporters so I asked uh what I said what drugs are okay I need to turn that off I said what what drugs are the news reporters taking and people said there's no way they're doing this without some uh medical aid or fucking cocaine I don't know um they just probably crushed Adderall and snorted like the Stanford kids do Adderall if that's how you spell it my mom said crack Adderall everyone's saying Adderall cocaine coffee and Adderall bath salts Adderall I said don't say meth someone said meth most people are saying Adderall dude I can't I don't know what that's like I thought I had okay I probably do have ADHD let's be honest but um I've always wanted to take

it just to find like oh wait I did once oh oh god guys I don't I don't want to should I talk about this night just crazy ass fucking night I went to a beer fest I ended up doing Adderall but I couldn't tell that it I didn't even know what was happening because when you're drunk it's the end of the night I'm like drunk I'm high I'm like coming down for the night somehow I had an Adderall in my body and I'm like I don't know what I'm feeling right now um that always happens it's like mixing shit you're like what's the point of this I'm not going to be able to decipher what's happening so I popped an addy once I think it was like who it was like my friend I worked with I think she gave it to me yeah it was um so I can't say I've never taken Adderall but that was

like a one-off random night in PB Pacific Beach after a beer fest which was a great time it was there's like a concert you know it was beer drinking it was a lot of fun um dude those were the day's concerts I'm so sad but other than that I'm always like curious how people like day-to-day take Adderall what the fuck it comes like I just don't know what that's like I take I mean I drink coffee so it's like liquid Adderall or fucking I don't know oh guys I can't stop gushing I could I could talk forever let's be honest uh i cannot stop gushing about my new barista express my new machine my new espresso machine it's so good like it pisses me off how first of all i i mentioned

it pissed me off how long it took me to think about getting a cat can't have a dog well i'm not getting a dog for my little apartment not happening won't happen first dog i get is going to be golden retriever i need a yard i need land i need a fucking river to take it to to throw I need to take it to a river and throw sticks out for it to go fetch because it's a water dog okay it's a retriever I need some sort of I guess we have a fucking ocean here in California I'm just going back to when I grew up with our golden retrievers like going to the river and then buddy my dad uh traumatized him when he was a baby when he's a little puppy we went camping up in Washington and he threw him in the he like threw him in the waves on the beach and he like

hated water forever he like couldn't even giving him a bath was traumatizing um but anyways I want a I want a golden retriever I don't want or like some sort of big dog I gotta have land I gotta have a fence I gotta have a yard I will not do the apartment big dog thing unless it's a I feel like what dogs are that there's some dogs that thrive like big dogs that thrive like um is it greyhounds they do well big greyhounds do um do well in like a sedentary lifestyle in apartments anyways back to what I was saying I can't believe it took me this long to find this espresso machine because when I pulled my shots of coffee this morning I made an iced coffee I bought my beans for my favorite uh it's well there's two places I love in uh San Diego there's Bird Rock Bird Rock

coffee roasters and there's lofty coffee and the beans I got were from bird rock and I pulled the shots this morning and I was like this is exactly what it tastes like when I go to the coffee shop to a tea and I feel like the reason for that is because I have this fancy espresso machine if I made if I use those espresso beans and some I don't know like I don't know the science behind it but I can imagine if I had some like I don't know like stovetop espresso maker it wouldn't it wouldn't be the same. I don't know. I'm trying to justify the money I spent, but it wasn't that much. Oh shit. I'm trying to get my mom to buy one though. Cause like, I don't know when I go home for a month, I need her to have, well, we're going to go to coffee shops, but I really want her

to have it. Maybe I should treat her and that'll be her little Christmas present. You know what Jacqueline needs to buy herself for Christmas? A new car. Okay. I need a new car. I don't know what I'm doing I I feel like in past relationships this is what I always get this is my this is my this is my toxic toxic trait this is my toxic fucking trait let me drink some water um so I don't like so I do things a certain way okay I think everyone has their quirks but and I think this might be related to ADHD okay because I don't take care of shit that would seem obvious to take care of like oh Jacqueline your windshield is cracked like go take care of it oh two years later it's still cracked you know what I mean like that kind of shit oh Jacqueline

your car is probably ready for you know you should upgrade it it's embarrassing and I don't even do it I don't do it I don't think about doing it here I am driving around every day in this eyesore of a fucking vehicle and I'm not thinking oh maybe I should get a different car even though like I see other cars I'm like oh that's a nice car I don't like go oh I want one I should get a new one but my other toxic trade is I'd never update my phone I never upgrade my I don't upgrade my phone I have an iPhone 7 okay we're at the 12 currently I think we are uh on the iPhone 12 now but don't I don't know I don't update my phone I still have the old iOS actually I upgraded it but my phone still looks the same because I don't think it's the because they don't have face ID

or whatever like the screen still looks like the old way anyways I what else don't I do um I'm like there's certain things that are I'm like not stubborn about but I just don't do like I just absolutely I'm like nope I don't do that fuck what's the other thing it's like around is it around like something around the house um like thinking of all the rooms in my kitchen bathroom what do I do in the bathroom oh okay so I had a toilet seat situation should I go into this I have two I have two stories I could tell one about my sister when she visited this summer about the toilet toilet seat and then another one with a boyfriend I had with the toilet seat which I they're kind of the opposite I was like mad at my sister for always

putting the lid down and I was mad at my boyfriend for always leaving the seat up I'm a Nazi dude I'm like I'm yelling at my sister she's trying to be respectful because every time she's finished she like put the lid down like this is my house i don't like to touch i don't like to every time i pee because i drink so much fucking water because all these influencers tell me to drink water i don't like to have to go to my toilet seat every fucking time every 30 minutes and lift it up so when she visited this summer i was like we had to i'd like a sit down conversation with her i'm like julia if i go to my bathroom and see the lid down again I'm going to lose my shit like it because I live I've been the only person who

lives lived here so like I don't have other people coming in and out that often so when she stayed I was like this is the first time I've seen my lid shut other than when I clean it it's like usually all the way up okay anyways and then boyfriend situation always lifted up you probably can like already see where I was going with that but anyways what's the other toxic shit I do like thinking at stores what do i do like what are my quirks this is a two-hour podcast i don't give a fuck you guys are still listening go subscribe leave a review we can't people watch at night can we we cannot people watch when stark out all i'm all i can do right now is comment on the muted food network we got that where they're

bacon still stirring up milk in a hot pot probably gonna burn it what do you what do you heat milk up in a hot in a pot for when you're baking what is that oh probably like adding chocolate to melt in it I don't fucking know um I don't know am I lazy at anything I'm like really bad at procrastinating but like not as of late I don't know recently with my job and with this podcast I've been on it I've been on it hard like but I think I put things off that are annoying tasks like you guys know this my fucking garbage bags I'll set them by my door overnight and then I like won't go take them out for two days or my recycling like I'll just look at it and I'm like I don't want to it's such a bitch to have to go out to the the garbage can things and like there's

passcode and it's so gross and I have to like hold my breath for 30 seconds because when I open it it wafts the fucking shitty garbage smell in the air for like everyone to smell in the whole neighborhood it's disgusting so I'm not very good at that which is usually a man activity so when I live with a man they like take care of that shit they're they're the garbage person I'm not I clean I cook make you breakfast every morning and make coffee you know I'm not I'm that person but out of the goodness of my heart you know i i prefer to do that it's not like i forced to or like i have to but i like to um very like motherly and i'm just trying to sound sexy like an appeal to the males out there listening i'll make you breakfast i'll cook for you but

you got to take the garbage out okay um i'm like clean why am i going into this right now I'm like, I shaved my legs. I know I like not, you know, I'm like, I'm always taking like good to go. I'm always prepped and ready. Fuck for myself though. You know, I, I don't understand how women let their, their hair grow out. I'm like, I don't, how do you go to bed with your like hairy legs? Like I, I never understood that. I'm like, it's so uncomfortable. I shave fucking everything. And I'm about to get laser hair removal in the next couple of years. because a bitch is about to pop off because I'm just, you know, I got all this. I got multiple streams of income now, apparently. Is that what I have? I'm a podcast host. I'm an investor. I

have a fucking regular job. I got a piggy bank. I'm a smart ass and should end the podcast, but I don't want to episode 62 welcome back to the show round two let's restart oh they're judging them right now food network dude Guy Fieri's still doing it he's still doing it I didn't I got this uh cable network subscription or whatever the fuck from YouTube TV and I didn't realize Guy there's still diners drive-ins and dives he's still doing it all these people because I haven't really watched regular TV like this in probably like legit since I lived I didn't have tv in college yeah I'm tv I had like when I lived at home out of high school when I went to community college for a little bit I

yeah that's like seven years I don't fucking know but it's like weird to watch regular tv it's always a treat when I go to hotels like I like waking up and watching the news at hotels cause I don't actually have it. What's happening on social media? Um, I don't know. Let's go check. Let's go check my time hop. See what I was doing in the past years on November 5th. Cause I have a time hop app. So it tells me like, it's like my memories. Five years ago i tweeted i've had too much coffee help okay that's so me oh i asked people how to spell donut is it d-o-n-u-t or d-o-u-g-h-n-u-t isn't donut yeah i think donut's just d-o-n-u-t it's both but like just do it the short way it's

easier and it helps all the english as a second language people if everyone just spelled it the way it sounds like that makes sense like I feel so bad for people to have to learn English it's fucked up like the like the multiple spellings for the same word is so uncalled for and absolutely like we it's I don't know random thought are kids learning cursive anymore are kids writing anymore are they learning how to like everything's like digital now are they I don't know. Five years ago I tweeted, I need a teleporter. Who was I dating at the time? It was long distance probably. Yeah. I'd always tweet some bullshit like that when there was a guy that I couldn't like be close to or some shit. Oh, it was snowing five years ago. Oh, I retweeted

something from Matt Bellassai he's kind of funny uh he's so funny like here's an example of someone who's like a hardcore like I hate Trump love Biden guy funny as fuck on Twitter I don't care like I still follow these kinds of people you know what I mean I can appreciate and respect them for I can look past their political views and their opinions about you know what I mean I but he's an example so I retweeted him five years ago he tweeted ordered a dozen warm cookies to my apartment it ain't most of them and now I want to throw up adulthood is harder than it looks stay in school kids I don't know um five years ago tweeted snapchat update idea record video with without having to hold the button down I think you can do that now so they listened no I'm kidding

but uh i used to say shit i feel like whenever i check time hop i would like ask the universe for an update on a social media app like something a feature that i think would be cool and then it would happen but it's like a no-brainer it would happen like i'm sure everyone could have predicted that you wouldn't have to hold the button the whole time on snapchat but like i don't know i tweeted my ex because he was a british soccer player and he had a game despite getting hit by them deer actually love jeeps it's true i mean for example flip the word deer upside down oh my god deer upside down looks like a jeep wow seven years ago that's all i got okay now I should check

this is my routine let me tell you guys my phone routine text, check in the group chats alright my mom sent oh my brother sent a voter fraud tweet let's see what this is

wait voter fraud wake up America I'm going to send it to Bill oh shit oh shit they're like mass filling these out like they're moving swift like they're just

oh no way oh no way I mean shit there's too much of this out there and look if it was a landslide and there was still like voter fraud wouldn't be an issue but it's not the case like if it was like i don't know this is crazy this is crazy again it's like a movie think of think of everything you're witnessing

is like wow this is so entertaining it's a movie i'm just sitting back eating popcorn watching it because like how much is your life going to be fucked over what happens with the next presidency it's like not that deep and I hate when people get so dramatic about people's like what do I like followed someone again someone I like that posted she wrote something and posted on her profile and I'm like the words she chose to use were so over the top dramatic like like the republicans are messing with people's lives and their um rights as humans and all this dramatic shit and i'm like it's not that like that's an inappropriate use of language it's not rational you sound crazy

um fuck so i checked this my routine check my texts all right check my email all right do I have anything right now DHL is dropping a package off tomorrow okay um then I go to I try to stay disciplined so I don't go to social media so I go text email then I go like I just check time hop for fun this is a five-hour podcast I don't give a fuck um I check stocks let me check because I haven't since it closed okay and then I go to then I do the fun stuff let's be honest I go to Instagram

just kind of tap around okay and then I go sometimes I go to my notes app to write something I check my podcast host app where I can see all my stats just to like see how the episode performed I mean it's only been up from day one like it's only gone up I've only seen growth how beautiful

is that the trend is only positive it's never negative like the numbers just keep going up can't stop won't stop uh sometimes when I take a nap I check my whoop strap to see like how long my nap was which is my a fun game I like to play I like I'll nap and I won't really remember when I fell asleep and then I'll wake up like an hour or two later and then I go and it'll like process on my whoop strap and then it'll say like two hours and six minutes and then I can see like how much deep sleep I got REM whatever usually it's it's light sleep when you take a nap uh during the day um oh and then let's see what else I check I don't know news I go to Oh, Twitter. Of course. I'm a, I'm a phone. I'm addicted to my phone. Let's be honest. I'm

literally sitting here clicking apps. Oh, Amazon. Always on Amazon. Constantly adding shit to my, do you got, okay. Let me change your life right now. If you like, if you like making lists, if you're a procrastinator, indecisive shopper, where you're like, I want to buy this, but I don't know I don't really need it but I really want it I have I can make them public I should just make them public so you guys can see what I am like putting in my cart so I have like 15 lists okay so I have daily essentials which is stuff I currently like I constantly repurchase I have books I have Christmas gifts which is definitely private that's for family uh clothes like random clothes I want gifts which is a whole other section apart from Christmas gifts uh home

jewelry magazines wait why do I have magazines was I gonna subscribe I don't know what that is uh makeup pantry usually like I buy like canned goods now what the fuck I buy like protein shit off of Amazon you know what I mean and then or like drinks and then I have skincare podcast studio that's it but like let me go into my daily essentials let me guys let me give you guys a flavor of what i what i buy i have like vitamins um vitamins okay what else like dish soap light bulbs cleaner uh soft scrub for my fucking shower tile tiles uh nail polish remover deodorant like copper scrubbers for my pots and pans detergent sneaker ball sneaker balls for my tennis tennis shoes swiffers um retainer cleaner

i need to stop leaning back i'm like i'm too relaxed my vocal cords sound like shit oh my Dr. Broner's castile soap that I do use body wash because I don't like to put chemicals in my body uh my lubiderm my favorite lotion okay girls listening let me change your life right now I know everyone's got their shaving shaving routine with their legs and what and everything but like look I don't care like what's in this lotion like I I don't like scrubbing my body twice a day when I shower like with a lot of chemicals but okay my lotion my lubriderm it's dermatologist recommended I think it's been around since like 1700 okay okay it's like all the shit I think I started using it my grandparents always had in their house I think I'm pretty sure like

my grandparents always have bottles of lotion just like in every room like I don't know I don't know why but uh anyways it's just basic bitch lubriderm lotion but when you shave and you put this on after and you can add like I use almond oil the amount of like oh my god your skin is so soft like it's the perfect oh my god your skin is so soft combination you got to use raspberry rain shaving cream uh like a good five five blade razor uh exfoliate first of course like exfoliate exfoliate with I'm trying to think what I exfoliate with like a sugar I make my own scrubs for exfoliation like sugar I'll do like coarse coconut sugar or salt sometimes do a salt scrub coconut oil honey um yeah that kind of shit then you shave

raspberry rain shaving cream lubriderm with mixed with almond oil let me put your perfume on holy fucking shit it's sexy time it's the best combo lubriderm lotion everyone let's see what else is in my daily essential list um oh and it's really good lubriderm is really good for when you have spray tans i have cotton pads i have like razor refills okay boring what's on my book list no that's boring everyone knows all the books that everyone likes to read uh let's go to gifts okay oh I think these are things I want to buy myself a theragun for my muscles okay wait I won't scroll should I just end the podcast I think this is like way too long I don't care um I'm having fun oh fuck it won't scroll stay with me stay with me

oh it's funny I have my espresso machine in there purchased a kimchi maker of course I would have an ice machine oh my god guys I have an ice machine in this gift section it makes like special nice like my favorite coffee shop ice you know what I mean like the little flat ice I have like random furniture and like just household decoration shit I don't know so yeah go to Amazon make lists if you're indecisive if you're like it'll help you stop impulse buying because I don't know instead of like going fucking I'm just gonna buy it right now I have all these lists so every now and then I'll check what I wanted in the past year whatever the past six months and then like oh do I still need it and then I buy it instead of like immediately buying

something i don't care how much money you make you should think before you purchase you know it all adds up it all adds up it's not how much you make it's how much you spend i think gary v said that of course you did like if you don't spend your money and you invest it and you like are if you're smart about it you can uh flourish financially you can have that fucking freedom everyone wants back to the dms okay i don't want to open that someone said they loved me okay oh he's from washington all right just double tap like message and the conversation and the podcast jacqueline it is thursday night episode 60 is it 63 today i don't know what what is it 63 or 62 I think it's 63 anyways podcast over thank you for listening head over to patreon.com

slash tjms if you want to support the show go ahead and leave a review today if you like the show if you liked this episode I don't care if you agree or disagree with me I love you all I support you for just whatever I don't care who you voted for I'm not gonna hate on you for it I hope you can do the same for me. It's all love. I mean well. I think it's good to hear both sides of the conversation and see what other people think. It helps us become more empathetic, loving people at the end of the day when you know what everyone else wants and what their opinions are.

It's good. Great for business, too. If you're out there trying to grow a business, you've got to have that fucking empathy component or else you're fucked. okay empathy is the key to everything i used to live with a narcissist so i know all i know all about that because i am a highly empathetic person i don't like to identify as an empath i think that's dumb i don't like to do labels but i can cry like in two seconds if i know someone's struggling which always happens with me when i watch like when i drive by homeless people all right episode's

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ozzy but i'm saying ozzy osbourne so like how that flows love you guys thank you for your support i really appreciate you i live in my dream and you guys are you know support me along the ride and that's cool and thank you again talk to you tomorrow that's all i got for you all right bye