The Jacqueline Monroe Show - 69+5- Molly

Episode Date: November 16, 2020

Here's a fun episode to start your week! I talk about my weekend, getting fresh air, Lil Wayne lyrics and seeing Skrillex live for the first time. Hope you have a great day!! :) Patreon.com/TJMS https://soundcloud.com/robmonmusic 

What's up, guys? It's episode 74. Woo! Happy Monday. Welcome back to the show. what's up guys it's Jacqueline welcome back to the show I'm back it's Monday if you're new I'm here seven days a week go ahead and subscribe to the podcast and leave me a review help me out all right go click some stars in fact let's go on a thumb exercise let's take our little social media addicted thumbs on a vacation right now actually it's not a vacation let's put them to work go over to your phone go to the apple podcast app click this podcast and tap one through five stars on my show and submit it. And, uh, that's your homework. We're going to start off with the homework assignment, and then I'm going to

get into the rest of the show. Obviously we're going to talk about Monday motivation, the shit I'm planning on doing this week. What, but, uh, what, uh, uh, it's pretty quick and simple. My only goal for this week in November is to get fresh air and go outside more than once this week because I'm ashamed I'm ashamed of myself I do everything indoors I work inside I do my yoga inside I have big windows so everything's like open and airy but it's not the same as going on a walk or something out in the great outdoors and I'm in San Diego and it's sunny and I should be out there and I'm not so anyways that's my only goal this week um oh real quickly this is all over the place but I do have a plan I'm a woman with a plan I have my notebook today I feel really

organized but uh patreon.com slash tjms if you want to support the show everyone gets a shout out everyone gets to see my exclusive content I've been getting a lot of dms lately and I think it's because I flash my tits on Instagram for the first time in like forever uh a couple days ago I got a lot of dms like why didn't you have an only fans and I'm like you guys just have to go subscribe to my patreon that's a little trade secret um you guys can figure out what the exclusive content is for yourself so if you're curious patreon.com slash tjms okay i need to stop making that noise why is that my noise why do i do that i don't understand myself that's what this podcast is all about i'm like trying to figure out who i am why i make the noises i make

i think it's a it's a nervous like thing i do to fill the air anyways also go to youtube to watch this i'm here monday through friday and you can hang out with me if you just need a little best friend to put up on your TV while you vacuum your house to like watch a person. Do you guys ever do that? I swear I put shit on mute all the time while I'm doing stuff around the house. Like I'll be playing a podcast, but I'll have the TV on like the news or golf or whatever on mute. I don't know. Um, okay. Let's just get into it. We're going to go back to the old format. Okay. I'm drinking my iced coffee. I feel good. It's, it's a great day. Sun is out. There are literally no clouds in the sky. I'm looking out my window right now. Um, it's, it's a great day. So I want

to start your week off, right? I want to get you happy. I want to get you upbeat. I want to pull you out of the trenches and talk about myself. Okay. So hopefully something I say about myself will make you feel good. I hope I don't understand how that works, but I know when I listen to other people just like talk about life it makes me feel good it makes me feel like I'm well we're just all the same we're all trying to have a good life and be happy and so I mean I was gonna go into the details of my day the old format is I told you what I did last night then I tell you what I did today and then I go into like it's Monday I could go over like the news this week I also will be telling you guys a Vegas story a better Vegas story than I told you yesterday because yesterday's

story was so boring like I literally said me and my friends went to Vegas and everyone we all got the flu like today we're gonna be talking about the first time I did Molly okay so stick around to the end for that for that conversation uh okay so let's go into it last night was a typical Jacqueline night I was doing yoga I did like an actual hour flow to Travis Elliott uh his class on YouTube, which was great. And it was Sunday night. So I did that. I watched football all day, obviously. Uh, don't want to talk about the Seahawks. I'm a little bit upset. I'm a lot upset, but yeah, I watched football, did yoga last night, watched, uh, the latest at the Tony Hinchcliffe episode. Rogan, I think it's like number 1563. I don't know why I have a photographic

memory for Rogan's episodes when I like see it on my phone come in or my YouTube, I see the number and I always know where he's at. I'm like, Oh, 1563, Tony Hinchcliffe. Hinchcliffe is how you say it. Anyways, they were shooting the shit, talking about golf and shit, shit and shit. Sorry, mom. I swore I I'm working on my swearing, but I did that. Um, and I was seriously like the whole night while I was chilling, watching that was like, I was in seventh grade again. I have never DM'd and messaged, messaged people as much as I did last night. Like it felt like you know back in the day in middle school you go on instant messenger and everyone it would show like who's online and you'd start a convo with someone it was so fun

literally my dms were like that last night i'd probably i don't know i could count i could look now but like 10 people bouncing back and forth between and then guys i was talking to someone on tinder i know i'm i'm lonely it's 2020 okay this is the truth i just want to i just want to talk to people and if it's through tinder fuck it um i'm not that i feel am i lonely yeah i'm okay yeah i am okay i can't i can't lie right now you guys know i'm this is honest abe right here abraham lincoln's my inspo um is he a controversial uh person of the past i don't know i swear to god someone said this year he's not actually the one who freed the slaves i don't know there's history facts that are trying like people are trying to burn books and get rid of history and i feel like

I always thought Abraham Lincoln was the most honest person so I'm inspired I like to tell you guys exactly what's going on and I'm lonely so there you go uh but I was on tinder bullshitting around swiping I just like to look it's fun as fuck and I swiped on someone because I'm like oh you're my co-worker from when I got laid off my job earlier this year and I'm like oh let's just I just want to catch up with you really I just want to say like hey how's life are you you know what are you doing now since getting you know the boot from the from the job and um he was a little bit more interested than I expected and I was kind of getting that vibe and it was like let's go out to dinner you know right away it was like let's do this let's hang out and I'm like in the age of

COVID when we're about to get locked down again here in California what the fuck I said well yeah maybe when the pandemic's over I was just trying to delay delay delay because guys Jacqueline's not available till january 2021 okay i'm going home for a month i'm not available right now i'm not ready to go out to dinner this week or next week before i leave it's go time i'm working hard i'm podcasting every day do not try to hang out with me and take me to dinner right now that's just where i'm at i'm setting boundaries for the first time in my life i don't feel bad about saying no like oh well juggling why are you on tinder if you're not gonna go on a date me i got a lady outside she's walking her dog

she's walking really slow i feel it her back probably hurts she's just walking oddly slow she's not old she's like 30 oh oh because she has a baby puppy the dog is so tiny that's why it has short legs it can't walk fast that was so cute it was behind bushes and i couldn't see it then it emerged she's got a big dog and then they look like little cows black and white cows if you're new I people watch on the show sometimes but anyways let's see if my brain can remember my train of thought I was just talking about anyways the guy was trying to you know it was a nice just to catch up but like don't hit me up till January okay if you're a man just fuck off let me have my Jacqueline time right now okay so I did that um oh I thought in the Rogan episode

it was funny how he's talking about how chimps like understand fairness and he was saying how they're the chimps are dangerous and they like get aggressive when they if you like let's say you have a pet monkey or pet chimp and you give your brother you give your brother an apple but you don't give the chimp the apple he'll be like what the fuck and he'll go attack you so you always have to give them like it has to be equal and fair so if you give your brother the apple you also have to give your pet chimp the the apple and they won't go ape shit on you literally ape shit claw your face out yeah it was a great episode i just like i don't know it's good background noise and literally this is my this is my bedtime routine honest abe here back at it again

oh no i can't say that back at it again who says that fuck that's the flashback from something alex cooper that's right this is not call her daddy don't get it twisted not trying to take over that's her shit I don't say back at it again she she anyways uh dude this is my bedtime routine fucking okay yoga like after I do yoga I make dinner and I like chill turn on the tv and while I watch youtube podcasts or like last time was rogan I keep doing yoga I was just stretching I wasn't doing a flow I was just kind of stretching and trying to work on my splits and literally then after I get tired of that I keep Rogan on and I lay on my couch and scroll TikTok while I watch Rogan in the background and I literally do that until I can't stay awake and I do that so

much and I sleep amazing I don't have issues sleeping my whoop strap can confirm that I'm showing the YouTube audience my whoop strap I get great sleep I knock out I think what I realized with the show and all the energy I exude is that by the end of the night when it's bedtime I'm out I don't sit up and think I don't have issues falling asleep which I feel really bad for people if you're someone out there that struggles falling to sleep holy shit I'm sorry I don't understand how do you do it because the second I'm tired like oh I can't keep my eyes open anymore I gotta I pass out in two minutes and it's great so that's what I did um I kind of want to mention a couple things about my dms last night with a little seventh grade instant messenger

excursion i went on literally it was so fun i was on tinder talking to my old co-worker i had like listeners in my dms we were just joking around it was super fun but i have a couple dms or polar opposites one actually has to do with color daddy which is funny and then it's a funny story i'm gonna it's gonna be anonymous i'm not gonna say who it is and the other one is i'll just make them anonymous but this guy asked me he asked me like what's your goal for the show and I'm like wait because I haven't I've thought about it maybe I've talked to you guys about it and this is what I wrote to him I said um god damn it stay with me stay with me oh he's like do you have any specific goals for the podcast other than daily

because, like, that was, like, to do this for 365 days in a row is, like, the overarching, like, mission I'm on, I'm on this marathon, it's so fun, I'm 74 days deep now, but I thought about this, and I think I've said it before, this, why is this getting boring now, I was going to talk about a more lit, lit, we got to work on my L pronunciation, lit DM in a second, but I said it sounds simple, but I just want to be a better person each day and love myself a little more each episode and that's it literally I just want to like whatever I'm totally up for whatever happens happens because I feel like the second I take this too seriously and have this like mission to I don't know get picked up or something I don't even want to do

that I just want to show up every day for myself build confidence become a better person learning a new skill is making me happy like getting a more and more efficient at this process podcasting and becoming a better speaker and like getting my thoughts out into the world every day is it's just helping me so much and I can't my mom is we were on the phone this morning I'll get into that but she's like I told her how I feel happy because I'm not bottling anything up I tell I speak it out every day and it's awesome so yeah he asked me about my goal for the show and it's literally just like, I want to be a better person. I want to love myself more. I want to learn. And, uh, yeah, I don't know. What's like a cooler answer to that. I want to go to the big leagues.

I want to drown out these hoes. Remember when I used to say that I got so cocky and arrogant in the first 10 episodes, I was like, um, so podcasting is actually so easy. I'm going to drown out these hoes and do it seven days a week. So I'm going to do it in order for me to get up to the 1500s to catch up to Rogan I have to do it for three years straight or whatever no four four years I don't know that was a joke but um speaking of efficiency and getting better at the skill it's fun it's kind of like a challenge every day like how tight can I make it as far as plugging my shit in writing in my notebook if I take notes on anything you know posting it editing the show it takes me it's kind of like I want to get one of those cute egg timers you do

for baking on Amazon where you set the timer for you know 12 minutes while your cookies bake I want to get one of those and time myself after I stop recording how much time it takes me to completely button up button up the show and finish it so you guys have it and it's on YouTube it's on all the podcast apps and stuff because I realized I think that's what I liked about podcasting early on is how like streamlined the process is for me if that makes sense instead of when I've done vlogging in the past it's so choppy you have to like get I love editing video like telling stories of video and like vlog format but this is so it's like a snap I've done this 74 days in a row I'm getting better and better every day at it but let me read the other dm then I'm going to talk about

what I did this morning. I didn't coffee. Hold on. I also have a LaCroix here. I'm sad. I ran out of my key lime LaCroix. So I'm down to the, it's the grapefruit one. Okay. This guy DM me and he's like, uh, he would talk about, I don't know, just nonsense. And he said that, oh shit where is it he's like I have the funniest story because of color daddy I don't know why he said that but I was like okay tell me he's like so when color daddy first started they created a Facebook group and I was in it I didn't know that and then a couple girls started a snapchat snapchat group and I got on that so one of the girls from the group added me and we started

snapping and shit and then she gave me her number she lived in Oklahoma I ended up going full send to see her and we hung out for a couple days he said they did more than just hanging out by the way and then she told me she was married and had three kids so that was the story he wanted to tell me I said can I read this tomorrow on the show and he's like yeah um and then he sent me like I don't know like a picture of her kid wearing his hat and I'm like okay holy shit um yeah that's call her daddy for you that attracts all kinds of people I didn't know they had a Facebook group that's kind of fun so anyway I don't know is that like relevant to the show not at all but it's some it's one of my regular listeners who said that he like traveled to another state to

meet a woman meet a girl and he she didn't he didn't know she had three kids and was married so that's fun that's exciting that's uh making me have i don't know sometimes when i when i used to hear stories like that i'm like oh i can't trust anyone i don't want to get married i don't want but i'm like it's a one-off situation like not everyone is like that and anyways okay let's get into my warning guys want to know specific details okay so i woke up to clothes hanging all over my bed because I am trying to save the world and you know slow down climate change so I don't use a dryer but I also like to preserve the integrity of the fabrics of my clothes so I hang dry so I woke up and I forgot kind of like when I wake up when that when I dry my clothes I kind

of forget I do it so I get I get like startled by it I'm like oh shit there's like clothes all over my face because I have a canopy bed with posts and stuff around it and I sat there and I was like okay I gotta get up but basically my morning was this I showered I sat in my bathroom did my makeup my coffee I worked and then my mom called we have some life shit going on um like it's it's on my end of things as far as like my personal business but she called me and just gave me a little check-in about it and I was like okay like yeah thanks for letting me know fill me in so we talked and ended up talking for like an hour about what we're gonna do when I come home and um it was fun and then like yeah I just like worked a little more now I'm recording it was

a great morning okay I don't know do you guys want to know like specifics like what kind of body wash do I use like what kind of coffee do you drink what is your drink of choice like what did you and your mom talk about like specifically do you guys want details do you guys like details we were kind of going through the list of family members who are gonna because washington's lockdown similar to here she's like yeah like no one's coming to the thanksgiving i don't know it's kind of depressing my brother's not even going to be there i'm not really going to see anyone till christmas but it'll be sweet to be home for a month and my mom and i are going to take selfies my new podcast microphone came and i said because she's

like jacqueline i have a nice podcast microphone here at my office and i was like okay well the reason i want to i want you to wear the same one i have is so we can take a set like a mom daughter selfie wearing the cute pop star mic it's so cute i want all my guests to wear it it's just the vibe i don't know the quality is not a1 steak sauce but it's wd40 it's 40 worse than one what just happened to my brain thinking thoughts okay so um yeah do you guys i don't want to go into details you're still waiting for my molly story i know i know what you're waiting for okay real quick before i get into my vegas story last night i was thinking about why when i was a little girl i liked rap music so much and i realized that i just love the

playfulness of the words and i think because i was i was listening to a lot of little way little way there's my l again little wayne last last uh not last year fucking when i was a little girl and it's like the first time I heard life is a beach I'm just playing in the sand you know I think I noticed in rap how cool the lyrics are and I just thought maybe for two seconds here I'll pull up some of my favorite Lil Wayne lyrics like this one let's see do you guys feel like that with rap it's so fun arthritis in my hand from writing but I'm a doctor they don't understand my writing interesting okay that wasn't like the one i want to find which is this is my stalling before telling the vegas story because i know my mom's still listening

i'm gonna be talking about drugs and i don't think she's gonna like it street sweeper in the back of the hatch make me pop the hatch leave you bloody with the cops to match okay dark uh i don't we don't need to be talking about that shit not in this current climate of cops doing things um you don't know how to sick you how sick you make us i want to throw up like chips and throw it up like chips in vegas where's the one wine and dine i like my girl thick not just kind of fine eat her till she call that wine and dine that's so good anyways this is my random segue into the vegas story let's do it you know what okay here's what here's what's up last year my sister god bless her soul

worked out like a literal soldier in the movie 300 to chisel her body for a figure competition she does a lot of bodybuilding type of stuff where she stands on a stage in those stripper heel stripper heels and a glitzy uh bikini and poses in front of a bunch of people that's her thing that's what she loves to do and it's awesome I've always enjoyed going to her shows but last year it was in Vegas I think she won something in Washington and she made it to Vegas type of thing but anyways my brother and I were planning on going to the Skrillex concert at what is the Club of the Palms why can't I think of the name of it it's on the tip of my tongue Club at the Palms like it's kind of a new one i think chaos yeah it was at chaos we were planning on going there

because my brother basically he he makes he makes dubstep he makes lots of music he made my intro song he makes all kinds of music so go over i always link his soundcloud in the uh show notes you can find it there uh it's rob mon rob mon short for robert monroe if you're curious but we planned on going to the Vegas show or excuse me the Skrillex show and this was on we went as a family to support my sister for like four days and where did we stay I don't even remember where we stayed oh we were in that we were in a really cool excuse me like timeshare place it was like a condo they got like they bought for her I don't or she like won a thing so they paid for it which is dope I think my parents stayed my mom and her boyfriend stayed at I've never said that

mixed up my mom's boyfriend from same parents basically my stepdad unofficially but I forget anyways it's irrelevant who cares where they stayed somewhere like cool but anyways my brother and I we always turn up when we go to Vegas together in like the best way we stay out like the year before we went to excess and we saw Diplo this is so like hey typical typical yeah we went and saw Diplo which was so fucking fun and it was like a situation where I'm like this is why I love my brother brother we show up the three of us my sister was there she ended up dipping early kind of a long story not really she's just like she's like she's into partying and clothing I don't know she just like wanted to go home so my brother and I stayed out until

6 a.m. we met this random guy he took us to Denny's I was literally eating a plate of fried food at 6 a.m. love and life it was crazy but that night I was like this is why I like my brother because he literally just like walks around and talks to everyone he ended up getting us a table these guys I think they're all from San Diego by the way randomly and I feel like one of them still like we connected on Instagram and I think he follows or maybe I don't know if he listens but anyways we spent the whole night at this table we invited people over to it was so fun it was like the time of our lives and I remember for the longest time we said like that was the best night of our lives because we met this guy I think his name was Don he was like 40 something

he has he was telling us how he's you know opens restaurants all around the world or something he's got a new one in Hawaii right now and fucking it was so dope we were just like dancing in the water watching diplo fun shit but this year the year after we went and saw skrillex together and uh and by the way at the first in the first night of our lives there were no drugs involved okay the second one is about my my molly story and it's kind of it literally changed my life and i feel like everyone who's ever done any sort of mdma knows like the feeling and it's so awesome and crazy and wonderful but anyways we went to the we went to chaos before that we got a couple drinks in the casino at the palms and hung out and I think I had two drinks and that's it and

then we went and saw the show and I love okay I love being in the club I can't wait to get back into that lifestyle because like I think what it is is whenever I see the dancers doing their thing I'm just like that is the ultimate I want to do that too I want to wear a cool mask that's got like lights all over it that are going with the lights on the stages and they're just like dancing and it's so badass and I'm not super into drinking like a lot where I feel terrible but I think I just had those two drinks and then the molly happened later in the night just get ready for it so uh there was like a pre-skrillex skrillex show anyways let me jump to the, cut to the chase. If you want to see me rolling, go to my highlight on Instagram called

personal chef. You got to scroll on my highlights, like 10 over. I don't know. I have a lot of highlights. Just understand that I wasn't necessarily drunk at 4am. I was rolling cause I had Molly in my system for the first time and it was amazing. And this is what happened. So I didn't feel it. I think my brother gave it to me. Um, Oh my God, is this like illegal? Can I even say this I feel like I've listened to so many podcasters talk about drugs so whatever I'm not going to ask him any I'm not going to disclose any information other than he gave it to me while we were at the concert I didn't feel anything I was like oh I feel like I just felt kind of like fuzzy from my two drinks I had at the bar okay I didn't get anything after that I

drank a bunch of water and went to the bathroom and like just drank water the whole time during the concert and all of a sudden so we were I don't know he was what he was feeling but I found the crew of people because we were by I loved it we were in the front like Skrillex is right in front of us and then we like worked ourselves over to the speakers and I was just like about my eardrums are definitely on their way out and we were just like I was just feeling happy but I wasn't it didn't hit me yet at all I know it didn't because of what's about to come you guys just I know you're on the edge of your seat I don't know if I'm the best storyteller this is a learning experience I'm trying to get good at this whatever

uh so we're by the speakers we're just like having fun we get kicked out of that area the security we're like you can't dance here so we're like okay fucking whatever so we found all the people that were doing drugs out by the water out kind of on the back side of the stage and they're all doing their shuffling and their dancing and shit and I haven't really I love the idea of going to festivals and like going to Coachella and going to that kind of you know like outdoor like EDM type of concerts Lollapalooza fucking what's the one in the gorge I never go to Paradiso I think yeah you know I like the idea of it but I just haven't really done that in my life necessarily I go to a lot of like the concerts I've been to are like

country concerts fucking like pop concert One Direction shit like I don't I haven't gone to like music festivals for anyways so I knew what was going on I'm like yep all these kids are on drugs it's what they're doing they're like yeah they're sweating a lot it's anyways it was cool to see anyways there's the turning point of the night so we see a girl from my brothers all of a sudden like hugging a girl that I recognized and she went to her high school and literally as soon as I saw her face I felt so sick I'm like okay I drank too much or something literally had two drinks in me I'm like I'm gonna puke so I just was like okay Rob I'm gonna like uber home I don't know like this is probably not good to do but I've only had good experiences in ubers to be honest

like everyone's pretty on the same page with each other in Vegas like people are drunk people are doing things they just need to help they just need a ride home no one's gonna fucking take you okay I'm I don't know I feel like it's like getting on a plane the bitch isn't gonna go down okay just get in the car just be social like I usually talk to people so they know I'm not some meek little weak person they can kidnap and anyways I like got the fuck out of there because I felt like I was gonna puke and I'm in the car and this cute little Asian guy around I think he was around my age he he was so cute he could barely speak English and um he I told him what I did I said my brother gave me molly I only drank a little bit but I don't know I feel sick and he

goes oh no oh shit can I even do an Asian accent or does that is that worthy of being I always get nervous am I gonna cancel he's like oh no oh no no no no Jacqueline you're gonna feel really good just wait just wait just go into your go into your hotel room lay down and play soft music play really soft music you're going to feel really good don't worry it's gonna be okay and I like thought i'm like wait am i gonna puke in his car and i said no because i kind of i just felt sick what was going on was it was processing in my system i guess i don't know this was good shit all i know is it worked basically i get to my hotel room i put in my ear pods and i play lonnie okay let me play the song this is always this is forever and always the molly the molly song

wait how does it go it's probably it's copyright i know it is i keep noticing on my youtube videos it's like copyright or I don't know I get flagged like I can't monetize which I'm not it's month two I'm not monetizing shit okay what's the playlist chill out I'll find it this is the first song I played oh yeah wait I never felt this way yeah so this was in my ears and I felt amazing because it hit and I was like holy fuck okay this is Molly hi nice to meet you Molly I get it and I was just like wearing my I remember I have I have videos of uh I took I immediately started taking footage of myself like what what do I what

am I doing with my life right now I had my phone set up in the kitchen in our little condo I had I did a catwalk I put my I had my heels they're in my hand walking to the you know through the hotel at that point it was like three in the morning my brother sold the club with the girl from we had we like went there with a bunch of people we met so it was fun but he was still there my sister was literally in the apartment condo thing getting ready for her show she woke up this is around 4 a.m she's already curling her hair i did her makeup rolling like it was the funnest fucking time of my life and again go to my highlight on instagram i literally make her eggs and pancakes at four in the morning and now you guys know the story behind that

but anyways when i first got to the hotel she was so annoyed by me by the way she's like oh she's just drunk coming back from the club fucking a but i like was doing catwalks in my heels i was just like feel myself listen to music this is the other song I listened to Lonnie yeah so like basically I played all this chill like good like the guy in my uber said just like listen to relaxing music and so I did my sister's full face of makeup for a competition that was literally at like 6 p.m that day she gets up because there's a whole host of tasks to do you have to check in get weighed or no do you have to get weighed I don't think they weigh I don't know they have to like get another spray tan do all this shit before the show but she woke

up literally at four oh she had to eat there's like certain things she has to do she had to eat through the night like egg whites every two hours or something tuna I made her eggs and pancakes go watch my highlight it's fucking funny my brother ends up coming in he lost his credit card at the club had to call like the credit card company and it was so funny and then we were just like he him and I at this point was 6 a.m the sun was coming up and I remember this is so real and this is why when I say my brother literally changed my life in so many ways my siblings both have and I just thanked my sister when we were facetiming a couple days ago I was like do you understand that intervention you have with me this summer was the little like like jab in my

side or whatever the little push to like work on myself and fix all the shit I deal with um you know my depression and my just I was all over the place I was a mess earlier this year with losing my job it was a bad situation a lot of my old stuff was surfacing and so she really helped me with that but my brother literally we're both sitting there and we're kind of like emotional book just like we have this weird connection we're like so he's like literally Jesus Christ if you want to understand his like aura what what it's like to hang out with him he gives off Justin Bieber vibes just like a very holy like kind pure-hearted presence and I remember he was just like hand on my shoulder the sun was rising and I wanted to document the moment because I

told him Robert I live in San Diego I'm so far away from you guys I love I didn't tell him this then but I did mention this after he yelled at me I said I love going back on my phone I have albums of family stuff because I when I get when I miss you guys I like to watch like us in Vegas doing stuff or whatever and basically he's like he threw my phone as soon as he saw me starting to record it because I literally wanted to record us by the window it was like a moment you know what I mean and he goes Jacqueline no he's like he threw my phone he's like you don't need this this is ruining your life it's not real like he's referring to social media and recording and documenting instagram stories and all that fucking bullshit i i can't stand anymore

about my past how i like didn't understand how much it made my life suck in the moment i'm like feeling amazing having this bonding moment with my brother um who i never see i'm like oh i need to document this and it wasn't going to be for our social media i think that's what he thought but i'll never forget that and he's always called me out on whenever we're at a family function i'm taking all these instagram things he's always like what the fuck are you doing and i get it now where before you know i didn't i was like well you don't understand me you don't understand like why this is special for me to record or whatever but i remembered that and i think it helped it kind of helped me after i still have it wait should i try to find it you guys are are you

sucked into the story that molly was it was it was a life-changing experience guys this is not new for me i've talked about dmt on here i've talked about smoking weed i've talked about um literally so many drug experience i don't think i've talked about mushrooms yet you know i'm i'm the type of person by the way if you're curious who's down to try something once and be like oh now i know what that is or i know what that's like and i always get in an environment where I feel safe and around people that I trust it's not a wild like excursion where I'm just like oh it's drugs are here I'm gonna do it I don't know these people fuck no I think about it I'm I might I'm like mom don't be worried about me and drugs you raised me right I'm I'm not

fucking stupid um and I've literally only done it one time so which I know a lot of people out there going to those festivals and shit they're like that's what you fucking do you just go Papa Molly yeah okay why am I on my settings and not my photos okay I want to find this so I gotta go to August I don't let a breath of air go for you guys August 2019 yeah I had brown hair brown hair this is weird okay Vegas where are you where was it July or no excuse me what's the date is it 2020 August 2019 bitch where's Vegas let me type Vegas yeah okay okay okay oh man it's just so many selfies in Vegas I gotta find the go through why can't I find it was it July oh maybe it was July 2019 I think that's it yeah

if it's not then I'm not gonna play the video of him yelling at me because I oh I do have it Okay, wait. Sorry, Rob. Oh, my pupils in these fucking photos. Oh, man, where is it? Oh, I have a video of me, like, dancing in the hallway. It's just such a, yeah. Okay, here it is. He flips me off by the window. Oh, damn, my legs look good. Wait, do you guys hear that wait listen to what I say it's for the emotional reminiscing time I want to have I told them that I'm like look I like to look back on these moments in my life on my phone and and like through my albums but it's just for like do you remember the last no it's remember i know i'm killing the vibe i have like the last time we were in vegas i have that video of you

crying and i thought you were crying literally fuck that shit this is so my brother i had the worst like cotton mouthy fucking the weight is it the tight jaw thing i don't know it was a great time though i have to say we slept the whole next day i think that always pisses off my mom she's like why are you guys still asleep it's like you know 11 a.m i'm like because we were literally awake until fucking 8 a.m so anyways there's my molly story i'm trying to think if i can tell you guys anything else i just love being in the club i love being around that energy and like skrillex is so amazing my brother ended up getting skrillex's um is this his logo or whatever tattoo because he's like a diehard like it changed his life like now he makes music skrillex is the best

didn't there's a there's amazing there's an amazing instagram he posted skrillex did that i won't forget uh i screenshotted it and the caption was something like life is make sure god's watching or something like you're a movie make sure you make god proud or something like fucking hey damn it shit fuck do you think i can find it really quick like i just did it was such a good quote about like living life for god or something like it made me think okay wait skrillex ah where's my jamie when i need him right just like pull this up for me skrillex okay i know the picture oh what he's one of those typical you know giant artists who fucking deletes like every picture whenever he rebrands but anyways there's a cool quote

should I talk about the news now it's Monday let's go into the news of the week literally all I have right here to say about the news is Dustin Johnson won the masters and I literally had that literally I had that on mute all weekend that's a thing I did I had you know podcast playing I was deep cleaning my apartment this weekend masters on me in the background I saw a lot of posts on social media about like I saw the different um you know like video clips from it but I didn't really pay attention this year but congrats to Dustin Johnson that's awesome um I really want to go I just want to cruise in a golf cart that's all I want to do I just want to go on a golf I don't golf I just like going along for the ride I love

being around it maybe I should go the range hit a few balls I don't know I actually thought about doing that yesterday I'm like why don't I take myself on little solo dates to do fun shit like that why is iced coffee so good I don't know answer that answer that in a comment below the YouTube video why is why is iced coffee so good okay here's what we're gonna do because it's Monday shit's going on the world I'm out of notes you guys heard about let's see we did a thumb exercise. So you guys went and reviewed the podcast on the Apple podcast app. So you took your little thumbs to where you put them to work. And that was fun. We did that. We talked about last night, messaging people all night long, not really all night long, but I had like 10

different conversations going on. It was super fun. Dude, social media really makes you feel like you have a social life when you actually don't, but fuck it. This is my mom wanted me to tell tell the audience today that she's like jockeling you don't you don't realize what you're doing is it's a way you're getting through like 2020 and because you've chosen to live on your own your own place and you've chosen to work on yourself instead of surrounding yourself with a bunch of people and activities and you know I could like I was on tinder like this guy wants to take me to dinner I could like get and he wants to invite me to football Sundays and shit like I could do that thing but I I feel like I I said I need to work on myself I need to literally be

anti-social and figure my shit out um even though people make me happy I understand community is everything connection with human beings is everything but this is the way I am like coping with the times and it's taken me 70 some episodes now to I guess come to that conclusion but it's worth it to me because I know this is setting me up for the future I know when I go out into the world when things on the curve flattens and things fucking normalize again Jesus Christ I'm so sick of the the jargon fucking words flatten the curve what's the the mask like there's a slang term I don't know but this was like my work on myself here and I just feel like I can't recommend talking to yourself enough or talking it out if you can't

go to therapy just talk to yourself it feels great um okay so here's what we're gonna do then we talked about anyways my morning and little Wayne rap music Molly okay um let's go to I'm gonna do my best let's go to what's like a good news website um NPR oh no let's go New York Times wait do I have to subscribe fuck subscribe because we don't make enough money we need your subscription okay I'm just gonna read some of the news going on the world Moderna has a new vaccine okay I know this Pfizer had a 90% effective one I love how they're playing this tit-for-tat shit. Pfizer had a 90% effective vaccine. Moderna has a 94% successful vaccine, effective vaccine, vaccine, vaccine.

Anyways, so looks like a vaccine's coming out, and no shit, but curious, are you guys gonna, like, will you voluntarily take it? There's a lot of conspiracies and shit how, I don't know if it's, I don't like to use that word and make it sound negative because I think there's a lot of good that comes out of conspiring and conspiracy. I mean, hey, a lot of it's factual, but people are talking about how, like, mark my words, it's going to be, you won't be able to get into a restaurant, go to your gym or whatever without a vaccine,

like a some sort of identification that you've been vaccinated or something in the future people are saying that and i don't know anything about it really i just hear stuff i love this is what this is my party line this is what i always say i don't get balls deep jacqueline why are you so tacky girl don't say that i don't necessarily dive in deep on like I'm not gonna say conspiracies again but like coronavirus news and what's going on and like the shit happening in the world I don't really go in deep I just enjoy listening to other people talk about it so I have this very surface level understanding of stuff where I have a pulse on what's going on but I'm not in deep where I'm like stuck on one narrative that's

you know this is what everyone's saying and then I get like I don't because I think it's because I get hyper focused on something and I'm like well this is gonna happen and then I get paranoid and I don't like to feel that way for the most part I like do my I live my life I try to stay up try to keep myself you know on the right path busy with good things instead of taking time to learn about I guess it's it's like good to educate yourself on this stuff but for me I like to I literally like to listen to podcasters talk about it I love Sam Tripoli's podcast they talk about conspiracies all the time you know obviously rogan has interesting people on but why don't i only mention him who else do i i mean i got tim dylan's podcast laughing my ass off at that i listen to

shapiro sometimes i listen to fucking like there's guys should i just tell you the podcast i listen to why am i doing this jackham's bad bad section uh gary v obviously here and there um ben greenfield fucking renegade radio whiskey ginger just getting confidential tim ferriss jaco model health show yeah what's it called tinfoil hat sam tripoli that's where i see and that's where back to the point i like to listen to people talk about it but i'm not the one doing the research i'm not the one getting myself in deep with it because it over it honestly overwhelms me but today this the whole purpose of what I was about to go into was the news today and to see if I can update my audience on what's going on in the world talked about the Moderna vaccine okay

are we buying that stock what's going on I'm not yo it's gonna the second fucking crash is coming probably literally I said that in my stock that I but I've been watching right now or excuse me I've invested in this it just gave me a notification what did it say let me see it's down 6.5% wait it went oh shit oh shit this is the highest it's been in like three weeks I'm not mad at that should I tell you the industry it's in let's just say this product is scarce in the United States but it's needed I don't know how else to say it that might give you a clue on to what I've invested um okay what's here something about Biden let's see Biden says more people may die if Trump refuses to coordinate on the virus

okay i listened to someone explain the legal paths to trump's re-election and i didn't understand how i guess i never thought about the situation we found ourselves in with this election you know how close it is and everything and there's like a the law accounts for this and if you do a little bit of you know little research or listen someone talk about it it's actually kind of cool i'm like basically i think how it works from the top of my head without this is i watch like one little video on it but it it it will basically get turned over at some point like the final straw is it gets turned over to the house or the senate whatever what i think the republicans dominate the senate right now it's like 37

republicans isn't there like 50 people i don't know basically it could get the the whole election the numbers that we've got from each state could be completely like washed and then it'll get it'll go to the house of reps or the senate and then they'll vote and it'll be strictly off of their vote the majority and that's how the president gets elected i think the final like the final way if i don't understand again like that's off the top of my head don't come for me if i thought was wrong but that's kind of cool i learned so much about politics this year it's it's not my thing really but i just like to feel like i'm a part of something i like to be involved in the drama as a spectator i'm like oh my god this is so cool like i'm just literally having fun

doing a podcast every day work from home like there's your tip of the day there's your monday motivation here we go and i'm gonna end this because i'm honestly just i don't know fucking whatever i want to i need to get outside guys jacqueline's gonna get her tan on it's kind of hot here i don't know if i can get tan right now actually i probably could i just want to go and get fresh hair i need to go to ups uh here's your words of wisdom from jacqueline jacqueline so i don't know i think you gotta realize you're not gonna save the world okay you're not going to save the world and stop trying to save the world real like what I mean by that is I think the older I've gotten the less I've like when I was in college when I was you

know first learning about being an adult in the real world because my whole life I was in school sheltered environment you know it's all simple classes teachers sports going home living with your parents once you're out on your own you start to figure things out but at first the second I saw some sort of injustice i was like oh that's not okay we can't have that and i got so sucked into it i got you guys i've told you my vegan story i got so sucked into veganism and like my brain just saw injustice it saw problems in the world and it it got upset it got i would viscerally react react and get emotional about stuff and i found myself preaching i used to be on snapchat stories that was like pre-instagram stories and i found myself going off like just being that annoying person

but obviously i was learning at the time i didn't know any better and now i realize like the funnest situation in life ever or like the best for your mental health that i found because i've struggled with obviously depression and all that bullshit of course you know it's human that's cool uh also childhood childhood childhood trauma I can't hear it in the compulsive joking I constantly do all day then it's trauma trauma is contributing to that uh I realized like the best solution is literally re I guess like looking at the world you have to change your perspective like when you change the way you look at things the things you look at change as they say in yoga literally when you're upside down whenever I'm doing a like a bridge they're like when you change

the way you look at things the things you look at just change I'm like yeah the ceiling is now the floor like everything but that's how life is if you you just got to get out think outside the box and enjoy the ride you have to look around at this nothing literally nothing matters everything is like it's all made up it all works within guys this is obvious you guys already know this everything okay everything works like we have a functioning society because of laws and like social whatever like mannerisms or etiquette unspoken things we do as humans like we're not I'm not just like in my other neighbor's house like crayons all over the wall stabbing your cat like no there's shit we do that keeps the peace in this country and I don't know I just mean like

have fun in life don't get don't take it too serious just sit back and have fun and watch the watch the news watch the election stuff watch what's going on and don't get so fucking mad about it your life isn't really going to change that much and it's kind of fun to get dramatic and and upset by the chaos like a little bit like it feels good to I don't know just get riled up but once you notice you get riled up it's like yeah well then you aren't sleeping because you're watching videos about conspiracies till 3am and you're just like oh in deep you're in way too deep and you're paranoid and you start hating other people you don't know on the internet and you see a tweet and you're like fuck you so I've just completely surrendered the fact that nobody knows

what the fuck's going on we're all just here trying to live a good life and I'm just trying to be a good person keep myself afloat keep myself happy and focus on what I'm passionate about focus on what I can control with my life and all the other rest is noise really it's all a distraction it's all manipulation obviously just like look at the election look at the election look at the news media that's the next thing i can't wait to the fucking revolution i can't wait to watch is the fall of the mainstream media that is going to happen in my lifetime for sure i think everything is going to get turned upside down inside out it's going to change um and i think it's weird how or kind of cool actually let me go into this real quick I even posted like my first

one of my first Q&A videos I did on YouTube like ask me a question I'm a narcissist I want it's all about me not really but I did one of those Q&A's and I said in it and I realized this early on that I said the news is a bunch of it's I didn't I wanted to go into broadcasting college that's my backstory always envisioned myself as a news reporter like doing something within that broadcasting world and I recognized early on how like fucked up it is and I just noticed things really like I don't know what it was but I got and this was back in like 2000 I guess like 12 2010 like mid high school college and I was just like no not cute and of course Jacqueline will be the change you want to see in the world go do it and be a good example like try to but i don't know

i know that's not how it works you can't just that's why i like um alternative like news like the people out there what are their names that i like watching the hill who are the peoples that crystal and sager i think it's crystal i've i've mentioned them before like i like the content they put out I just like I don't know I don't like I don't know fucking when you realize that I feel like I'm repeating this from an episode of a podcast I listen to but not that many people okay I don't want to go into this okay I'm just gonna end the show you guys get what I mean I'm just kind of it's cool that I'm doing a podcast now I'm a talking head on YouTube I'm a talking head on or I'm a voice on a podcast and I'm not reporting live from San Diego today a shark

attacked a seal like I'm not doing that and I'm kind of happy about that life choice so that was my audio diary section where I just vomited thoughts but I hope you enjoy the ride okay uh stick around if you're a patron you can go over to why am I pushing my boobs together why am I into doing this now? Cause I can actually like feel them push together for the first time in my life. Shout out gaining weight. Um, can I hold something in between lavender between my boobs? I can keep something in between them. Okay. That's cool. Okay. That's cool. New party trick. I can stick things between. Um, anyways, patreon.com slash TJMS if you want to support the show and stick around obviously if you're a patron for your shout out watch us on youtube monday

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