The Jacqueline Monroe Show - 7- Let Me Waste Your Time

Episode Date: September 10, 2020

It's Thursday. The NFL is coming back. I can't remember what I talked about. Is anyone reading this description? Anyways. Another day, another podcast. Still having fun. Hope you enjoy this episode lol talk to you tomorrow. xoxo. Patreon.com/tjms 

Hi, hello, welcome back to the podcast. Good morning. I'm sitting here waking up as always with my iced coffee and I just compulsively took six of these wellness formula supplements, which are my favorite immune support supplements because I slept like shit. And for some, for some reason, I think whenever I sleep bad, if I take these vitamins and minerals right in the morning, I'll feel better all day. But that's probably not how it works. Um, I just need to sleep better. Um, so I know I said a few podcasts ago that this is like a brain dump because I don't really have a purpose and a theme for the podcast. Like today, I can't sit here and tell you, hi, on today's episode, I'm going to talk about this. You know what I mean? Like you're, you're going to see the title of today and it's not, it's going to be like the most random thing. Cause I don't have, I just, I don't have a purpose right now for this and I don't have a single

singular topic I want to talk about. So I decided like, this is honestly like an obstacle course for you. This is like a daily obstacle course. You're going to tune in. You're going to sit here. Do I sound congested? Do you hear that? Checking in, doing a little Corona check, doing a little swallow in the throat sniffle sniffle that's a bunch of bs honestly is coronavirus even still a thing is it still a thing am i being ignorant am i being insensitive i don't care but i honestly have um my paranoia levels of thinking i'm sick are like if i had this amount of congestion back in march i would be like heart palpitations freaking out all day and uh like doing all the remedies thinking I had it at that point I thought if you got it

it was like a death sentence but we all know that's not the case um oh yeah so back to what I was saying of course all over the place yeah this is like you're gonna tune in it's like a obstacle course a mental obstacle course like you're gonna have to navigate this you're gonna have to come prepared um come prepared uh come prepared what am I trying to say I'm looking at a helicopter right now hi ADHD it's eight in the morning and I had uh I'm still waking up honestly my I'm looking at my iced coffee right now and it's this podcast sucks I'm looking at my iced coffee right now and it's only like a third of the way drink which means that I'm only a third of the way awake. So yeah, I am at the point, I will say in all seriousness, I'm at the point now

where I'm, I want to, I want to make this worth your time. I don't want to waste your time just talking about nothing for a whole podcast. So I'm kind of thinking now I want to do um, interviews. I know I've got family already hitting me up about that. Of course. I know when I go home for the holidays, I'm going to have every aunt, uncle, cousin, grandparent. I want to do a podcast with all of them. I think it'd be so fun. Um, so the interviews are going to come because that'll add some more, I don't know, like pizzazz to this podcast and more intrigue because I think that me just sitting here like on a phone call with myself all day is I don't know it's kind of boring in my opinion um but maybe that's what you tune in for the nonsense um

but yeah like doing Q&A interviews pick a topic and stick to it like I thought about doing a topic I might even talk about it a little bit today about uh like my first experience is doing different things like or my jobs I had or um stories from my past like I have a really wild story I feel like I need to tell the world about one of my first relationships that was long distance like very long distance I think it's a cool kind of uh like a it's it's honestly like at that point it was like a movie when I think about my first like serious relationship I'll just give you a little I don't want to talk I I don't know if I should even hint about it it's been so long now but let's just say I got on a plane and flew across the world and met someone

for the first time okay that's all I'm gonna say um oh and yesterday I want to say this oh I feel like I'm waking up a little bit right now hi here's more energy finally sitting up a little more straight but yesterday I felt like such a hypocrite my podcast was like the most hypocritical thing ever because here I am getting deep about social media and all my thoughts about consumerism and how things don't buy you or buying things doesn't bring happiness and whatever and how I was having an internal conflict with that and how I'm maxed out mentally with everything I've seen on on social media all the products and being sold all that shit like I constantly get inundated with it all day. So then of course, in the vlog part, at the end of the podcast, I'm at HomeGoods

buying fall decor and, uh, you know what I mean? Like it, it's hard. I, I, I, I think what I, my beef or my issue is just that it's, it's constantly flashed in our face all day. People telling us to buy stuff and we need this and we need that I even saw a girl yesterday I love following her she posted a picture on her of her nightstand of a really cute lamp and I was like prepared I was prepared for her to tell us where she got this lamp and then the next slide was oh this is an old lamp from Target from like two months ago like literally like an old lamp from target that's like two months old and she's looking for a new one it's been two months you know what I mean like what the hell I'm like it's cute leave it she wasn't satisfied it's like

it's never it's never enough with people it's never enough for with me like I get desensitized to stuff and things like seeing I don't okay we're gonna we're not gonna talk about this because this podcast is not about that anymore. Um, I'm, I'm annoyed that I keep ranting about social media, but yeah, yesterday was kind of funny how I had that little, uh, rant and then I went shopping. So nobody's perfect, but anyways. Okay. So I'm reading my little note in my phone right now. um yeah the the point where I was trying to get um with what I was saying earlier was that I am at the point with my life now where I'm like I just what's the point of posting any content or doing anything if it's not helping somebody if it's not helpful that's where that's where

I'm at and that's why this summer I don't know if you guys remember but I went through a phase this summer on Instagram of posting I it was called like take what you need because I had an epiphany that I'm so sick of posting pictures of myself with like a two you know two sentence caption or something that's like witty and then a picture it's like there's no that's not helping anybody it's just there and whatever it it's a nice little it's just that my my Instagram is like a just a it's like a scrapbook you know what I mean like here's a bunch of stuff from over the course of my life like it's it's there to stay you know what I mean like you can always go back and like look at pictures and stuff it's fun but I got to the point this summer I'm like

I just want to like what what more can I do here with my Instagram so what I did I spent literally like and this is where this is when I didn't have a job you know what I mean like I wasn't I was looking for something to do to help people. And I was like, okay, I'm going to do a thing called take what you need. And I'm going to have like history facts of the day, recipes that are easy for people, Amazon products that are, here I am product blogging. Literally, I'm again, a hypocrite. I found like cult followed Amazon products to share with people that are helpful for them uh like for daily daily life stuff around the house stuff for you know like your health and wellness and whatnot basically doing all the things I said I don't like yesterday

um and then like a random fact and whatever like I had a whole list I spent two days straight like cultivating all this information and I still have the document I love google docs I feel like such a college student again when I go in and start writing a lot but yeah I like have all these categories all this information positive affirmations I did that so yeah this summer I just had that epiphany like with social media if you're not helping people like stop posting self-serving content that's just like hey look at me you know what I mean I'm I'm not a hey look at me type of chick it might but that's how I felt like I felt like a fraud like that's how it looks on Instagram. Like, Hey, look at me. Um, and I, and it's, it's just, I'm over it. I'm ready to

do more than that. And lately, like, yeah, I haven't continued the take what you need theme with my posts, but I, that my intentions were there at one point this summer. And that's where I'm at with this podcast. Like, okay, how can I help people now with my voice? Use your voice you know that's that's the point of this using my voice to help the world in some ways my big fantasy I have for myself oh my gosh I I already I already hate this podcast a lot I feel like it sucks but okay I'm gonna drink some coffee how are you guys doing today are you it's Thursday it's Thursday the NFL is coming back who's excited to not see any fans in the stands that's gonna be so weird but

I thought that about baseball and basketball but I'm just happy to see it back that's where I'm at I'm like I don't just put it on the TV you know what I mean like I was at the gym yesterday watching um the Celtics Raptors game six or whatever but I was like so happy I this is what happened to me I I don't follow I haven't been following basketball lately or any sports really I see it you know here and there on on what people post so I like kind of know what's going on but I got on the treadmill to warm up and I didn't realize this game was on and I was on the treadmill for an hour and a half walking watching it I was like sucked in because it went into double overtime and I ended up just doing cardio yesterday which um I oh yeah yesterday I slept

like shit like I did last night and I didn't work out in the morning so I ended up going I worked all day after I did the podcast and then I went to the gym I'm such a simple person like that is my my ideal life or my ideal day is like wake up drink coffee work or pot yeah podcast now this like part of my routine podcast work go to the gym make dinner watch some like shit on youtube or netflix go to bed repeat simple like I think that's good that's a good thing to realize that I'm not but that's what I feel like everyone enjoys that type of routine but um anyways so yeah I'm at the the gym last night I sucked myself um out of my apartment and I went there at night and I ended up watching the Celtics game and um yeah it was it was crazy but yeah I was on

the treadmill for so long this guy next to me we were both watching it well he was two treadmills away because they have the social distancing in place there and we were both like gripping the treadmills like we were kind of watching it together which was fun he's this older older older guy but it's nice to see sports back that's why I'm saying this um um on the opposite the end of that so sports are back nfl's coming back keeping up with the kardashians now it's gone it's going away i don't know if you guys saw that um that uh news that broke with uh on kim's instagram of you know to our to our fans or whatever they said it is with our is i don't even remember what it said but it was like a really heartfelt statement that next year this

going to be the last season then they're gone for good so that came out of nowhere honestly I don't think anyone saw that coming um I knew it was going to happen at some point but it's kind of crazy that I just think of that show as like it's like the the OG like reality show or it's like the one that has the most I don't know like everyone knows about that show I mean those yeah anyways I don't want to talk about reality TV and shit like I don't it's the type that show like I remember when it first came out I was so like our whole my whole family would sit around and watch it together and then it's always been the show that I'll go back and it doesn't matter what I'm doing I can play old seasons and it's like the perfect it's like what people do with the office

when they play it in the background, I play keeping up. Um, yeah, like I have a love hate with it. I think a lot of people do like, uh, but it's just, it's a quality. I just think it's a well, well, I mean that show is, it's great. Um, just good entertainment. Okay. This podcast sucks. it's all good uh we're working on it I'm maybe I shouldn't podcast in the morning I was thinking about doing it in the afternoon or like before bed given given you guys a different like like vibe I guess of how I'm how I'm feeling instead of morning morning talk um a positive affirmation I heard the other day about doing something like you say this before doing something hard. I'm strong. I'm prepared. This is easy. I'm strong. I'm prepared. This is easy. That's

what I tell myself every morning before the podcast. I'm going to start doing that. But it's not hard. Like I will say this is what's crazy. My, my, uh, Oh, I love it. Like, okay. So I know I'm doing the right thing because I get this weird adrenaline rush around the podcast and I haven't felt like this about anything else I've done content wise like making videos posting on other platforms like um the podcast is the thing that like I get giddy about so it happens before I go to bed I'm like oh I can't wait to wake up and do a podcast and then I get giddy like I wake up and I'm like okay I can't wait to drink coffee and then boom I'm gonna be so like ready to do a podcast and I get like smiley about it so that's cool this podcast it's

not hard I just think that the first wave here as I'm getting my work in this muscle finding my voice and everything it's it's kind of sucky but it's like I I'm not I'm such a harsh critic of myself but I'm like I don't think I'm getting anywhere when I'm talking about nothing for an hour you know what I mean it's just like come on I can do better but that but the good thing is is I have the enthusiasm the energy the adrenaline all around it which is like insane in fact I was listening to the morning toast yesterday the one of my favorite podcasts um the morning toast and I'm sure maybe some of you guys out there listen to it but they're talking about podcasting and they're like it's uh they want to do it till the day they die like they're saying that they'll

live stream it out there on their deathbed like they're obsessed with podcasting and I totally get it I'm like I'm there I'm there I finally I figured it out I figured out my thing uh yeah so here we are okay so I'm looking at my little note here again yeah I slept like shit last night I was paranoid all night yeah it was weird I went to bed and like I tossed and turned because I have this fear now after that weird paranormal thing that happened the other day where I heard like a grunt after I dreamed about my great-grandma which was on my mom's Facebook. It was this weird dream. And then I heard a grunt and then I like jumped up and it was very strange. So I have this paranoia right now of going to sleep because I don't

want to hear that again. And guess what? I heard it yesterday and I heard it this morning and I'm really confused. And I think it's, I don't know what it is, but I had bad sleep last night because I couldn't get to sleep because I was afraid of going to sleep. I was like, I don't want to hear this I don't know what's going on I I just whatever you guys hearing about people's dreams is annoying I'll move on um coffee shop I wrote coffee shop on my note I want to let you guys know that I have not been proactive about supplying my household with coffee this week I I not only am I still staring at my recycling that's been there for like five days now just sitting by my door I have problems uh not only am I staring at that right now I haven't tended to

also the flower bag that exploded in my kitchen sitting sitting in front of me too I haven't tended to that yet but I also haven't gotten coffee so what's been a challenge for me lately is going like I wake up and I have a pre-workout drink I could caffeinate with that's fine but I want coffee of course that's my drug of choice I love it I will not shut up about it and it's been a challenge because I wake up and I'm like fuck I have to get my car and drive somewhere to go get or I have to walk to the coffee shop by me to get coffee and that's what I did this morning I got my car put on my flip-flops put on a huge tie-dye tie-dye hoodie and flip-flops rolled out of bed and went to the coffee shop again because I don't have coffee

and it was nice it was like oh I'm going somewhere to get coffee it felt nice but I hate it because I've realized like I need coffee as soon as I wake up I can't I don't have the my energy levels behind the wheel driving to the coffee shop I should not have my license at that like I should not be allowed on the road when I first wake up and go to the coffee shop like that time period is like me half dead like I'm I'm literally not a person and I know that's like a thing everyone says like I'm nobody before caffeine or coffee like don't talk to me but literally like it's a it's honestly a minute drive and I scare myself I'm like I I'm not awake so it's been a challenge I've been uh driving to

get coffee which is nice I like going to there's okay here's the thing I the one that I can walk to I'm like I just don't like this is me being so in my head I'm like I just don't want to see anyone. I don't want to talk to anyone. Like I just want to get in my car and go through drive through. So that's why I go to the other one. But, uh, it's hit and miss some days I'm, I'm down to like small talk with people because the coffee shop by my house is there's like a congregation of people. I always, you know, and I'm the, I'm the person like, I, I'm like, I will, I will pull, pull it together. Here's the thing. If I walked down to the coffee shop by my house and saw like a group you know there's always like a handful of people like let's say five

I will pull together and I will chum the crowd and I will fucking I'll have to small talk with everyone I'll have to I'll have to act like I'm I'm like not a zombie and not you know just like not like I just woke up and I have no energy and that's a little I just it's annoying sometimes because I just don't want to sometimes like I just don't want to see people until I have my coffee people watching right now okay I've got a woman outside my window opening the blinds a little more she's really cute she has a long floral skirt down to her ankles no shoes wait no she's uh she's rocking sandals but it looks like she's barefoot two dogs I'm looking at a pit bull and some sort of small terrier that's ugly as shit like those dogs are not cute they're both

spotted like their um coats their colors are uh not very cute either like they're just they look like a couple cows little mini cows out there kind of black and white she's walking away but she's cute I don't recognize her she's definitely not one of my close by neighbors she's probably from a few blocks away taking our dogs on a walk really enjoy the people watching here out of my window I love looking out my window I am such a uh and like the the most like simple shit entertains me like that I don't know fuck this podcast sucks again I am so sorry um I think I want to keep it short and sweet I think this type the title of this podcast will be the short and podcast um back to my note the point is to help people I wrote help have a purpose

yeah this podcast doesn't have a purpose um oh last night okay so I got down this happens every now and then I got down a little rabbit hole on Instagram of rappers that have passed away um it's insane like I got in my feels about it i was like this is crazy because i found so i the reason this happened is because i was listening to or is watching impulsive the podcast um that's logan paul's podcast and they had six nine on and i was like i always thought he was like this fucking crazy ass i mean he is but like i was like he's the fact he was in that studio like at their house i was so like taken back by I'm like, what? And then when he was talking, I'm like, I started, I was like, I get him kind of

like, I, he's, he kind of won me over in this interview. And, uh, I think a lot of what he does is it's, uh, it's, he's just an entertainer at the end of the day. He's just, he's just purposely effing with people. And like what he posts is all like, it's all polarizing and crazy, but that's the point and um I just liked I kind of liked what he said and honestly he's got some cute teeth I was like what he has some cute little teeth I feel like I haven't seen his teeth and yesterday I was like oh I don't know are those veneers um but yeah I like like the part that he uh he said where he's like I just love being me and he doesn't change for anyone and I respect that because that's that's where I'm at like wake up like who you are do what you want

be a good person and I feel like he's got some controversial shit under his belt which I don't know much about him but like yesterday I was like okay he's a I want him to I want him to make it like I want him to straighten out his life and I want him to make it I don't want him to be like one of these other rappers that that I keep seeing in the news in fact this is where this is what I was saying about um I got in a rabbit hole on Instagram I didn't realize pop smoke died I didn't realize Nipsey died well I think I know I knew Nipsey died but I didn't know pop smoke died because and who else I posted on my story let me look right here oh juice world yep xxx pop okay

it's really weird because this year in the quarantine like I started listening to a lot pop smoke juice world and xxx all that and I knew juice was gone and I knew x was but I didn't know I'm sounding like I know about music and rap right now and I really don't I'm putting that out there like I I go on Spotify I like discovered songs I like and then I start listening to a lot of those artists and it happens to be a lot of pop smoke this year and those other two and it was weird when I found out last night pop died in January I'm like I've been listening to music all year and it's such a mind fuck like I just it's so weird so I'm I'm rooting for uh 6ix9ine honestly I'll be I'll I don't know was it crazy for me to say that I don't know you guys are probably

like Jacqueline he's like just he's not a good person or whatever like I don't I don't know much about the guy but um I do remember I do remember the first time I discovered him though it's it's kind of a oh it's a weird story but I got real like okay it back in back in college I think it was college or after college he hasn't been around for very long but I got really really high one night and I on Instagram so he's the rainbow hair rainbow everything guy and I I got on his Instagram I was in my bed high as shit and it was the most fun little excursion I went on looking at his Instagram posts I was like what is this a real person the six nine tattoos all over his face and the hair and it was just a lot and so there's always a point when I feel like I

always get down a deep like stock when I'm high on rappers Instagram profiles like I seek it out I don't know why it's weird I don't know that's just the memory I have I know my mom doesn't like it when I talk about getting high but I don't anymore really like I haven't I'm not a I don't smoke like ever anymore it used to be it's more like a for me it's like a if I'm with people thing. And obviously this year I haven't really been with people. So that's where I'm at. Um, yeah, that, that, uh, the dead rappers are just, it's, it's, it's very sad. Um, so yeah, I don't want six, six, nine to join that club because I think I just, I'm, I, I, I want him, Like I have this dream that he's going to straighten things out and settle down a little

bit and, uh, stay true to him because I think that's important, but not getting it, not get into any shenanigans. So that's what I did last night after the gym. I came home and I watched that episode and, um, yeah, I don't have anything else on this note um drinking a little more coffee right now honestly out of all the podcasts I will say this is the worst one this one's the crash and burn burn cast but uh anyways I do enjoy it I do enjoy it I'm having fun who's sick of Jacqueline talking about podcasting like she's talking about like I I'm talking about the thing I'm doing I'm like I enjoy podcasting I get adrenaline

rush when I do this I'm this is my mental uh these are my thoughts about what I should do on the podcast as I'm podcasting but uh I'm I'm trying as hard as I can to be consistent right now and I don't care so much that it's nonsense you know what I mean like it's all about getting into the habit of doing this and I want to be more articulate and I know that's going to happen over time I think that um Logan Paul's actually said this and you know what I don't care who if you love him or hate him whatever but he really won me over this year with his podcast I watch impulsive on my big screen like I don't listen to I like watch the episodes um every single one this year I've watched and I really like what he said about podcasting because it's helped him

become more articulate and more well-spoken over time like the more he's done it it's it's helped that area improve for him and I want that to happen to me because it's something I I want to I want to improve with myself and work on, because I think that I'm trying to be more, like, I'm actively pursuing personal growth right now. I don't know, is that a weird phrase? wait I'm I'm like purposefully doing things right now to become the best version of myself and like really work on things and not only is that happening in therapy it's happening on this podcast because I I think I've struggled in the past with um speaking or not speaking but like yeah I will say speaking like getting my thoughts into words and having it make sense um that might

be a symptom of ADHD actually because a lot of um the the things that resonate with me when I look up the 80 when I've done some tests online I haven't been tested for it yet but people with ADHD say they just say shit without thinking a lot of the times and that's kind of what happens to me in conversation and the good good news is a lot of times they're the random shit I say is it's the fun part of the conversation with people it's like oh okay she just said that all right everyone's like gripping their chair like what and that's fun and I and I'm I'm happy to contribute that to you know a regular conversation but I question sometimes I'm like okay what would it be like if my brain and my words like it all synced up like like so well and so like you'd

listen to me you're like shit like you're like standing ovation she's so well spoken like Candace Owens the other day when I was watching her Instagram live she did on Cardi B I was like this is a well-spoken woman I aspire to be like that so that's where I'm at I do feel like this podcast needs to end it's only been 30 minutes damn it I did get some feedback yesterday my aunt let me know that I think she's like yeah 20 minutes is probably a good time frame because because people will you know they can't listen for very long but i understand that so but i i realize podcasts are long podcasts are an hour podcast or two hours look at rogan's podcast three three and a half um it's the long form

it's a it's a long long form type of thing um my brain is fried I really have nothing else to say right now though oh my gosh I just appreciate I will say this I will say this I will say this I appreciate the paragraphs you guys are sending me with feedback about the podcast like that is I don't know whenever someone writes me a lot I get overwhelmed I'm like okay they really took the time here but the fact that I'm even getting like input and feedback and everything I didn't expect that this is the only thing like I've done YouTube I not really but like I've thrown some YouTube videos out there and the there wasn't as much like I don't know in like I didn't get a lot of

feedback about that where this podcast is like, holy shit. Everyone's like, not everyone, but like a lot of people I didn't expect were like reaching out and saying something about it. And a lot of people DM me about it. And like I've said before, I'm nobody, I don't have a huge following, but the people that follow me really like enjoy, enjoy my content and they like, they like what I have to say. So that's been cool. Um, just as it's motivating, it's like, okay, I want to, I want to stick with this because it's the one thing that's been received it's been received the best out of everything else I've done and I enjoyed the most so that's probably that's probably a good sign like I feel like uh it the fact that I get the adrenaline rush I love doing this

it's so exciting for me and I don't think that's gonna wear wear off and ever go away um I don't I don't see how it will because I can talk forever and I love talking and I love writing and I love thinking about shit and getting it out there into the world. And that's what this podcast is. It's like, it's, it's, I love it. I just, I love it. And if anything, I'm like, it's like a little phone call with you. You know what I mean? I know you're not talking. I know there's no back and forth here, but I feel like when I get on this podcast, I'm like on the phone with someone, you know what I mean? Like, Hey, how are you? What's up? Hey. Hi. Weird. I need to drink some coffee.

Have I talked about TikTok? I don't think I've talked about TikTok. I should talk about TikTok. ASMR. Is that gross? So I'm going to expose myself here, but there's, okay. All the, all the big TikTokers that are, you know, like 18, 19, 20, 21, they're all like younger than me. I've been following all them. I'm talking about like Bryce Hall, Blake Gray Noah Beck Charlie Dixie Addison all these young kids right I'm like following like I see them on TikTok they come on my for you page and then I follow them so I like I like can't avoid it and I just I'm in I'm I'm in deep sometimes where I'm like okay I'm trying to like figure out like who's with who like what's the beef like what's going on it's gotten to the

point where I'll even go um my suggested videos on YouTube have been the Hollywood fix the guy that does the paparazzi it's like the dumbest thing like fame is it's gone like there's nothing cool about being famous anymore because like tiktokers that are just kids you know just any the kids now um that blow up overnight or whatever like they're they're I mean they're they're it's insane their follow their followings on TikTok like I think Charlie has 85 million I don't understand anyways yeah this my discover or my YouTube thing will be like so-and-so caught with so-and-so out at this restaurant or whatever and then I'll like see two seconds of that video and i'm like jacqueline you're too old for this like stop okay like why are you watching paparazzi

videos of these young kids and i don't know there's so much like there's drama there's it's interesting like i i don't know like i i went through a phase it's i'm i'm not really right now i'm not really into it but like say like a month ago when i found tiktok again like i redownloaded it and i started like watching tiktoks regularly i got sucked into these little these little like crews you know what it reminds me of so I feel like kids don't have like Saved by the Bell anymore and like what other shows are like young kids um I don't know like all those 90s kind of like shows what's another good one uh oh my gosh I can't think of it the oh my gosh I'm seeing his face and I can't see his name

Frankie Muniz what's that show there's all those shows you know like kids that were in high school and that's even like Disney Channel Nickelodeon like there's a lot um oh like Drake and Josh that's not really a good example I'm thinking of like those shows where there's a crew of kids so yeah Saved by the Bell is a great example this is kind of like the new age Saved by the Bell like this crew that you know they're in TikTok houses together and they're which I don't understand this at all it's like a there's like an agency that handles all them and it's like this weird new thing but yeah I guess for young kids like everyone's got a phone so you don't watch shows like Saved by the Bell you sit on TikTok and you watch like real kids like they're not

actors or anything and they're doing little dances and stuff and there's like people dating each other and it's interesting and um yeah but okay anyways I don't talk about TikTok most of you guys are like I'm assuming just older and wiser than than um you guys are older and you don't give a shit about that stuff. Um, but I just exposed myself and yeah, I, I've kind of found that little corner of the internet and it's slightly embarrassing, but I don't know. Like I get, I get sucked into cute stuff. I'm, and it's kind of cool to me. Like, I'm like, okay, that was like research. I finally kind of get what Gen Z is and their vibe and like how they talk and how they act. And it's like, I'm in my mid twenties. So looking at those kids is like how

I felt in high school, looking at middle schoolers, like they're so young and cute to me. And it's like, they're, I can't relate to them anymore. Like I'm not in that age group where they can't even drink or do anything. And they're like having fun and they're just doing their little, little kitchen and it looks young. But when I was that age, I felt on top of the world, like old, like I was like, Oh, I'm 20 or I'm 18. Like, I'm like, you know, I felt, I never felt like a little middle schooler to older people like in their 20s I don't know so it's exhausting though like I just waste a lot of time like scrolling on TikTok and it's too much information like it's so much information so quickly it's like a minute you

learn about like it'll be let me think of a TikTok routine it'll be like okay swipe and it's a TikTok dancer. Then it's, like, Swipe, Jason Derulo doing some sort of, like, green screen crazy thing with a car. Swipe, conspiracy theory about something. Swipe, recipe. Swipe, girl talk. Swipe, home decor. Like, it's just, like, so quick, and it's so much information. like I don't know this podcast sucks this podcast sucks if you're still listening um thank you I guess how are you how are you doing are you are you ready to tune out is this the point where you're like I should have I should have stopped listening 30 minutes ago that's okay that happens to the best of us but I'm proud of you for hanging in there listening to my bullshit

uh please don't do what I did and get down tiktok rabbit holes like young and up and coming young kids that are it's just don't do it don't do it um I like I said I did it for research I feel like I need to understand what's going on with the you know what's trendy what's cool the young kids it's just good to know I always say now I want to walk around like a middle school and a high school just walk around and observe because I have no clue how kids act now or like how they like what the like what the what the vibe I hate saying vibe like what what are they I don't know I feel like it's so different than when I was in school I know because everyone's it's like everyone's uh it's about social media now where when I

was growing up there was none of that so I don't know I don't know it'd just be cool to like walk around and see okay I feel like this is about 45 minutes I want to stretch this out to an hour I can do it I can do it I can do it um I do need to get to work though so the reason I do this right in the morning like early early is so I can like have a normal work day so it's been it's been good like I feel like this podcast isn't too it's not too much for my day like I can still I can still do everything else and I don't, that's why I like it. Okay. That's it. I just, I just unpacked something. I just had a little epiphany. So yeah, if you, if you hung in there till the end here,

you're hearing Jacqueline's little epiphany. So that's cool. Uh, I figured out, or I just realized that the podcast is the perfect thing for me to do because I don't have to sit and edit it for like 10 hours, like a YouTube video. I literally sit here, talk, post it. It's awesome. It's pretty much real time. Like, I mean, you know, I think it takes about maybe the turnover is 30 minutes, but I just like save this, upload it, done. It's on iTunes or it's on Apple podcast. It's on Spotify and bam done that's why I like this but everyone this is the thing everyone's a podcaster there's so many podcasters out there here I am doing a podcast but I don't care I think that there's an audience out there someone's interested somebody's curious hi are you curious are you

interested I don't know I just I know how it is to listen to someone else for a long time you're like, Oh my gosh, I tune in every day. I'm learning about their life. They're telling me stuff about themselves. That's, uh, it's, I don't know. It's interesting. It, it's like I said earlier, it's like a phone call. I don't know if you're bored and you just need something to play in the background. If you're, you know, doing dishes, I always think of people as, cause I personally listen to podcasts when I do the dishes. I'm like, someone's probably doing the dishes right now listening to me. Uh, you know what I mean? Like it's just filler it's just like background music so that's cool there's somebody out there's

like probably my mom she's probably cleaning the house she's probably like counting she's probably got a tally mark on a notepad or like a bunch of lines and how many f-words I dropped today and I'm proud of myself I don't think I dropped too many but I also know that's because I haven't been very like upbeat and I haven't been trying like purposely not like I purposely do it, but the, the comedy hasn't been coming out that much today. Really hasn't. It's been more flat and relaxed, but I'm rubbing my tummy right now. Why am I rubbing my tummy? There's an itch. I've got an itch on my tummy. Oh yeah. I'm going to, um, let's talk about my day. Let's talk about what I'm going to do. So I'm going to upload this,

upload this um this is so boring but I'm still talking I'm gonna upload this I'm going to work and then I'm gonna work out but I slept like shit so might have to take a nap for like 20 minutes at some point and uh get on with my day what else could I talk about I'm gonna go to my uh safari right now too many tabs open as always so I use a combination of safari and chrome chrome is for all of my stocky stuff, like, stock market shit, I have, like, all the tabs open for that, because I'm, like, I'm deep right now in it, not, like, so deep, but I'm, like, my, I'm, I have an ongoing education of the stock market right now, like, I have an ongoing, like, every day, I'm, like, learning and growing, man, I'm learning and growing, I think, I said this a few podcasts ago,

but my whole life I've heard about people talk about the stock market like I don't understand and nobody teaches this stuff teaches us this in school it's confusing you're gonna lose your money da da da da and I mean over the years like I I feel like I the more you like I I always question that when people say stuff like oh they don't teach us in school those are the things I seek out to learn and try to like understand better so I don't want to be one of those people and so yeah with the stock market right now I'm in deep because this year has been amazing and interesting and crazy I don't know if any of you guys are if you trade invest whatever like are you in it too um but yeah so I have my chrome open right now with like all the tabs I always

go on investopedia i try to learn learn a new term um i'm on yahoo finance all the time what else here stock stock twits of course robin hood um there's like youtube videos i watch that's cool so that's what my chrome is for in the safari too many tabs safari i was gonna go and check here this is where i'm looking for content this is the end the podcast I'm looking for content I'm looking for something to talk about so I'm on my um I'm on my pet finder right now there's pet finder still looking for a cat there's this other website I look for munchkin kittens on but they don't have any available right now and I really want a munchkin kitten apparently they're good for um apartments and stuff because they can't jump on

things they're too their legs are too short for them to jump up on your countertop so I like that I like that it's going to stay low. It's going to stay in its lane. Stay in your lane, bro. Like stay in your little cat lane on the ground. I don't need you on top of my refrigerator. I don't need you on top of my counter. And also the reason for that, I hope my landlord isn't listening, but get this. So I'm afraid that if I have a cat that can jump up high, it's going to be in the window and my landlord's going to see it. I'm going to probably be able to, she's probably gonna let me have a cat she's like the sweetest landlord ever but um yeah there's you can have dogs here but you can't have cats because the owner doesn't like cats apparently and I don't

know if it has to do with like oh if they piss on the hardwood or something like it's gonna that stench is gonna stay forever like apparently cats have like I don't know so I'm still looking for a cat and I can't find one so that tab is open uh YouTube of course open um I have so many tabs open amazon that podcast itunes connect x out of that see if i have any weird searches going on right now jacqueline's looking for content she's trying to make this podcast like a full hour but she has nothing to talk about so many tabs uh gmail um m1 finance that's usually on chrome i should shut that out and be on Chrome Google Drive Twitter PicMonkey oh yeah so I've gotten some like so the feedback I've gotten about my people like the podcast cover art the

puka shell or whatever the necklace I'm wearing in it just a couple of DMs about that they like the picture now the inspiration for the cover art well I feel like a lot of people do a very intense eye contact picture for their podcast cover so I feel like it's it's like you like see it and you're like you know oh like someone's staring in my eyes you know what I mean like I'll click that it's more I don't know it's like alluring but I looked I was like scrolling through all my podcast and I'm like whose covers like popping out to me like what do I like here and Ben Shapiro has like the most intense stare in his cover and I'm like oh okay and there's a couple other ones like that too so that's why I picked out that picture I did it in PicMonkey that's what I was

gonna say I could have done it in Photoshop but I just went on PicMonkey and I made it I thought I was going to redo my cover like a lot of times until I found like the perfect one I even thought about like posting different versions and like having you guys weigh in but I'm fine with it I feel like it's okay I don't know if I love the yellow the yellow font with my name but whatever I'm a newbie I'm a podcast newbie I changed my bio to podcast newbie joining the club joining the clurb oh my gosh like i want to scrap this already it's it's a flat it's a flat episode but that's that's okay yesterday was more uh

yesterday was more deep more uh i don't know it went places i literally got in my car and podcast yesterday so some days you get that some days you get this what do you guys you know what I think like I said I think I'm at the point where I'm gonna do Q&A have you guys weigh in have you guys ask questions have you guys give me some ideas for content thinking about doing that for Friday so today's Thursday I might do like a little Friday Q&A episode so um if I don't I'm probably going to post that. I'll post it on a story, questions for the podcast. Yeah. Ask me anything. Oh my gosh. I feel like the things you guys don't really know about. So I don't know. Do you guys want to know about like childhood stuff, my family,

my college experiences, my favorite things? Not to make this all about myself, but I do feel like when you listen to someone on a podcast, it's kind of nice to get to know them. I mean, like let's flirt, let's flirt, slide in my DMS, ask me some like first date questions and let's flirt. Let's get this party started. You know, it's a weekend, the podcast, you guys don't really know too much about me. I feel like just based on what I'm talking about now, if you follow me for a while, maybe you've seen stuff on my stories and shit I've posted over time, but, um, um, there's a lot I could talk about. Like, do you want to know the problems I face every day? Do you want to know about all my insecurities? Do you want to know about, um, my, like,

who I have a crush on right now? Oh my gosh, I could talk about, like, crushes. I could talk about exes. I could talk about, like, dating life stuff. I don't know. Just hit me up. um I think we're rolling up to the hour mark here hey you made it still looking at coffee so I feel like the fact I didn't finish it is is uh it's a bad sign because I think I should have finished it before I started because I'm not fully up on my best my energy levels aren't fully up you guys are awesome um still on my safari looking for things to talk about I feel like uh I don't really have any interesting searches going on right now

oh I searched laundromat because I didn't know how I didn't know how to spell it for yesterday's episode so that's open you know my podcast things are open um it's crazy like people thought that itunes like the fact it was on apple is such a big deal that i think that's the the dms i got about that were like insane i'm like okay first of all everyone has a podcast now everyone's a podcaster i'm just joining the club i'm nobody but i feel like they accept everyone like you just have to put up your rss thing and then they get it and then there's like an auto approve I don't know like it's not like they go in and listen I don't think but it's cool it's cool to see like when I go to my subscription box because I can subscribe to my own podcast

subscribe if you're listening oh my gosh subscribe oh yeah don't forget to leave a five-star review do I have to say that I feel like I have to say that like everyone else yeah it would really help me out just like leave a review um five stars prefer preferably um apparently like I feel like that helps I guess bump you up or like get you more exposure if you have a lot of reviews that makes sense um but yeah the apple thing is kind of cool to see like I'm scrolling through all my my episodes and then bam I see my face I'm like that's kind of cool it's cool because here's the thing I've been I've been doing this for years listening to podcasts and here I am looking at my own it's kind of crazy crazy um and honestly

not to toot my own horn but I I'm liking oh shit I just played a podcast um I'm liking how my cover flows when I'm scrolling I'm like boom there I am like I think it's a good cover it's intense. It's like, shit, she's, she's staring me down. Go look up Ben Shapiro's. I'm looking at his right now. He's the inspo for mine. So I could have done a more mean stare or like a more like, like it's not, I'm like a sassy bitch. I'm not a sweet bitch. Like the picture of me is kind of like, it's neutral. It's like, is she, is she mad at me? Or is she, is she like, I don't know she yeah it could be like staring at you because I'm pissed off or I'm like hey I don't know whatever yeah it's cool to see on iTunes um on my Apple podcast thing is it

iTunes or Apple podcast I don't even know I think it's Apple podcast talk about the app but yeah I've been tapping that podcast app for years it's cool to see mine um Spotify of course put it on there because spotify is popping off obviously with uh joe switching over and his is going to go only on to spot cat spodcast his is his podcast is going to be exclusively on spotify somewhere around december um which is going to be weird to see i feel like there's going to be a change on the the user experience and on the app like it's gonna be there's gonna be some sort of like overhaul of like video discovering new things is going to be like the browse thing's going to change because it doesn't come across as like a podcast um app to me like when you

the the search that like the search features and everything it's not like I don't know like you can yeah you can search for podcasts but it's it's not like we're with Apple where the app you click the app it's like this is the podcast app so I don't know what Spotify is gonna do but um yeah I'm on Spotify which is like I don't know I feel like everyone's podcast is on Spotify it's not special um that's the one I linked to though because I feel like can I link to an Apple podcast I don't know um speaking of what was I gonna say oh yeah speaking of Spotify I feel like if podcasting really switches heavily over to Spotify, like, that's where people go to listen

to them. The only reason I'm even thinking about this, I'm an idiot. I don't know anything. I'm, like, not plugged in. I don't know, like, how anything works, but I'm just thinking of Joe's podcast, like, the fact he's going to switch exclusively to Spotify. I don't know if that's going to be the trend, and that's what people will do and follow, but is that going to take away from people's listening uh time listening to music is that going to be some sort of like issue because Spotify is where you know that's where all the artists are and all the musicians and it's like okay what the fuck all these podcasters now are going to come over and clutter this this app and take over and take it take the listening away from the music I don't

know so that's just something I thought about but like I said I'm an idiot I'm a I don't want to call myself an idiot I'm just saying like I'm not well educated on this topic I have no fucking clue um but yeah it's kind of cool um I just like love that I'm so committed to this I'm proud of myself for that I'm in it I'm doing it oh my god I feel like that's an hour I should have a little timer a little stopwatch I think I started at 8 30 oh wait what the fuck is my clock it's behind an hour, 7.30, excuse me, so, um, yeah, I get this shit done early, early bird, I'm an early riser, I found out, though, like, I think it's, like, the time, like, I think 8 o'clock is, like, the most common time, like, it's, 8 o'clock is the time the most

people wake up well what what am i saying i think it's around eight i'm a 6 a.m or 6 a.m or 6 a.m boom wake up it's because the stock market opens at 6 30 so i have to like be up early that's what my brother if he's listening to this um he'd make fun of me for saying that but yeah you have to get up early when you're on the west coast if you're watching the stock market so that's cool um but yeah also just naturally I wake up around six which is annoying because this morning this podcast sucks I'm still talking I'm going over fuck I feel like it sucked in the beginning and now it might get better uh the thing is like I had shitty sleep last night but I still wake up at the same time you know what I mean that's what sucks like I went to bed tossed and turned for two

hours paranoid it was like with this weird anxiety about that voice I was gonna hear again and then I still woke up at six but I don't think my head went on the pillow and really slept hard well I can look on my whoop strap I didn't really sleep deeply or get into REM until let's see here yeah I only had six hours of sleep last night that's not good seven disturbances respiratory rate high yeah because I had some crazy adrenaline rush when I heard that little I heard it again this morning it's so weird I kind of think is my cheek full of air and then I move on my pillow and then it like puffs and then that's the noise I'm hearing it might be that it might be like a weird noise I'm making but it scares me and wakes me up but yeah it's seven disturbances sleep efficiencies down

today I love this whoop strap it tells you everything it does it it measures everything based on your um your heart rate which is cool um yeah like i was awake yeah there's a period it says for a half an hour i tossed and turned for sure and then like still light sleep so technically my recovery is 25 so i should take it easy today on the weights but i know i'm gonna go hard like a motherfucker tonight I'm so into lifting again it's so nice I can't wait I'm gonna do do a lot of like probably do another lower body day because I realized when I do yoga in my apartment I'm doing a lot of like um cobras and shit where I'm like using I'm doing a lot of up I feel like my yoga is my upper body workout because the most shredded I've ever been is when I

did yoga for six months straight and it would my arms and back were like ripped because like lean I mean like not like I'm I never got like buff buff from it but toned and lean and long I mean because when you're, it's all body weight, and you're using, like, when I do my sun salutation stuff, chaturangas, that's what I'm talking about, chaturangas, I'm like, if I do 20 of those in a little yoga session, I feel like that's my upper body, so I'm probably gonna do another lower body tonight and uh I can't wait because as long as I have a good work day right now you know I don't have to like my work day's not intense like I don't have to I'm not running around I'm not I'm basically at my computer and on my phone for that so um as long as that's chill and then

I take a nap I know I can't wait I'm gonna get that little boop 5 p.m let's go to the gym let's go hard let's put in some music okay I think this went over like 10 minutes but uh fuck it I was listening to old podcasts like I feel like the one I can't I can't say the one I'm thinking of because he got canceled this year but maybe you know who I'm talking about but I was like damn you know he just really sits back and says the whatever he wants and um the initials are c d that's all I'm going to say uh I don't know what's going on with that honestly with him but yeah I was listening to a old episode he did and I was like yep says it like it is just says whatever it's kind of cool there's no um

there's just like no fucks right there it's like say whatever you want your podcast is yours have a good time have fun that's my inspo a little bit um but I've said that like yesterday I said like the honest to god the people that are inspiring me the most right now to like just Jacqueline shut the fuck up and do a podcast are all these comedians that do it because like those are those are the people like all the all the podcasters out there that are also stand-ups those are all the people that I want to like hang with you know what I mean like they're all those are those are those are the kind of people that I fuck with and like if I consistently do this it's gonna help me just like you know people it's gonna attract

some sort of audience and I don't know what that audience is gonna be but it's kind of cool to know that maybe there's people out there that listen to this and they're um they i don't know they they want to hang with me too or something like some of you guys because i'm trying to find i'm like i'm in this phase right now i'm like who's my audience who's my who are who are my people you know what i mean it's gonna it's gonna unpack itself and we're all we're all gonna find out together I'll report back when I get the when I get the stats this podcast sucks I'm just happy I'm doing it I'm just happy I'm doing it I'm doing it

fucking doing it and I don't care how each podcast sounds right now I'm just doing it and cheers to that one more drink of caffeine before I tune out here how fucking gangster would it be if i had my own coffee company you know what i mean like i think at this point that's the one thing i don't shut the fuck up about and i constantly uh drink all day so i might at some point venture out into that world. Be a little coffee entrepreneur. Come out with a beverage for y'all to drink. That'd be cool. Small city, big dreams, baby. That overwhelms me though. I feel like there's so many things out there. I'm like, oh my gosh, I want to do this. I want to do that. I want to do this. I want to do

that. I'm like, I've been selling, like I was a kid. Now here I'm telling stories. This podcast this is going on too long, but I think I want to do a podcast on, I might write this down for tomorrow, on my young entrepreneurial adventures I went on with, and all the crazy shit I would sell, and the things I would do with my parents' mail, and like, yeah, I just, it's really in me, you know what I mean like I have a natural I'm an I'm a natural born entrepreneur like mentally like I don't I haven't really produced anything but the way I think and what the stuff I want to I still want to do it's all very entrepreneurial including this podcast hello how do you oh my god and here's the thing about the podcast and things that might happen eventually so

yesterday I bitched about people shoving products and things in front of your face all day and discount this, you know, and I realized like every fucking podcaster is, you know, sponsored by Casper mattresses, sponsored by Bluetooth, sponsored by, uh, whatever. And what's the other like really common one? Me undies. No. Um, thrive market or whatever. And here I am me out straight bitching about I'm sick of people doing that and it's like am I gonna have to have a sponsored segment at some point and I'm like fuck I don't want to I don't want to be that person still shoving product I don't want to be like adding to that like here's a discount code here's you know because that's how people you know make their money from the podcasting and

maybe I'll do like a patreon you know support me through patreon but this isn't that's not the point of this I'm just saying that does that I feel like that's what happens eventually like I'll get some um emails or something that's like hey we want to sponsor the podcast we like the I don't know how that works I honestly have I mean I'm like I've said before I don't know I'm not very like I should know but I don't I feel like it's pretty um like a no-brainer thing to understand how getting a podcast sponsorship works maybe I'm supposed to reach out I don't know but at this point I don't give a shit about that I don't want to that's not the point of this it's like I just look long term like I've said all the time like how does this play out

what will happen over time with a podcast and I can't wait to have interviews I can't wait to I think that's pretty much only going to be they're going to be like well yeah in person when I go home but a lot of like maybe I don't know zoom podcast interviews i don't know that'll be fun give you guys some juicier content yeah but like i said earlier send me some juicy questions in the dms uh like first date questions i don't care like what do you want to know about me i want to make a podcast tomorrow kind of filling you guys in about my like who the hell i am and what i stand for and where i come from and on that note have a great day have a great Thursday

and I will talk to you am I still recording did GarageBand quit oh fuck here we are hey talk to you guys tomorrow have a great Thursday all right bye oh yeah don't forget oh yeah I'm supposed to say don't forget to subscribe don't forget to give this a five-star review it really helps me out apparently well uh yeah so whatever okay bye