The Jacqueline Monroe Show - 95- 3 Girls 2 Trucks

Episode Date: December 8, 2020

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What's up, guys? Happy Monday. It's episode 95. Welcome back to the show. hey guys what's up it's jacqueline welcome back to the show Happy Monday. I'm coming to you live from my mom's kitchen right now. It's Monday night, 7.23 PM. I'm about to do a little life update, recap the last 24 hours. That's really what the show is. It's an audio diary. I do it seven days a week. This is what happened over the last day. I'm going to tell you, and then I'm going to go to bed because it's been a weekend and then a long day today. And yeah, I don't mean to be negative. I should do Motivation Monday. Here's your motivation Monday. My mom's outside right now, blasting music. I feel like

we're having a little battle because she was drowning me out. I was like trying to record this and I'm like, mom, I can hear the music. She's blasting music outside right now, rowing for charity on her concept rowing machine. She's out there. She's like, I got to get the 5,000 meters done for today. I think she split it in half, 5,000 this morning and now another 5,000 because she does 10,000 a day. So there's your motivation Monday. My mom's rowing 200,000 miles for charity. She's breaking it up each day. She's out there. It's like fucking freezing out. She's got a, she's got like two coats on a hat, ski pants. Um, but it's cute. She's out there. There's Christmas lights. They put up tonight, twinkling my sister, my mom. But anyways, here's my day.

Here's my day. Let's get into it. Uh, last night, let me, let me bring you back to last night. As you know, if you've listened to the last few shows, I moved my sister's house and my aunt's house with my family over the weekend. And it was a Friday through Sunday event. We had two U-Hauls and tons of shit to haul. So basically last night we came back to Mount Vernon where we live and we unloaded the first U-Haul at my grandpa's house. There was some stuff we had to drop off there. And then we had to go to my aunt's house and then we had to go to my mom's house. Now, good news is my entire family lives within like a five mile radius we're all really close here so it's easy but uh it was the whole like we had to go on a five hour road trip before so we were

tired from the road trip and then we had to get up and get out of the cars and unload the entire fucking truck so it was cute my grandma and grandpa they got home first they were in their own car and uh my grandpa he's all like ready to help he's he oh my god I'm gonna burp no I'm Oh my God. My mom hates this part of the show. She's like, Jacqueline, hold it together. Be classy. Don't be tacky. Sorry. I'm drinking a Coke Zero. Not proud of it. Not proud of it. My mom's got Coke Zero in the house. I'm drinking it tonight. I don't know. Guys, I love Diet Coke. I love Diet Coke. I can't help it. I'm on a kick. Fuck. Okay. So anyways, my grandpa was so cute. he has a scooter now he like scooters around his little farm and he was all ready for us he even

had some eggs to give me from his chickens when we showed up but he had the garage all ready and lit up for us to drop off some of the stuff so we did that said goodbye to them and because we were with him all weekend so it was nice we just like chatted said goodbye um and then we went off to my aunt's house, quick drop off of a few things. Then it was three people left. Me, my mom and my sister had, so I had to drive my aunt's U-Haul home. My mom had the other U-Haul. So we backed those bitches up in her driveway and we're staring at two full trucks. Now the amount of shit we dropped off of my grandpa's house. And then my aunt's house was like one 24th of the shit, like the total amount of furniture and everything. So we open the back of those U-Hauls up. We're

staring it in the face. It's 5 p.m. and we're like, holy fuck, there's three of us. We have two beds. One of them's a king-size bed. We have an elliptical. We have a treadmill. We have a full three-piece huge couch set. We have, what else? Just like endless little boxes. My sister didn't have boxes when she moved, so it was random like bins and garbage bags. anyways oh we had a huge heavy um like an old antique office what are those called it's like a little it's like what your grandpa would have in his office I don't know how to explain it a cabinet thing super heavy oh we had like four dressers so we're staring at the u-hauls last night and I just want to I was just like fuck it we got to do it I got to be in a good mood let's

not complain let's just get it done so we pulled the ramp out of the u-haul one two three we started at five. We ended at 617. Moment of silence for that or a round of applause, whatever you'd like to do. Three women, a 20 foot U-Haul full, a 10 foot U-Haul full, one hour and 17 minutes. And half that shit went in the house. We had to walk it like a good, I don't know, 70 feet inside. We weren't just dropping it off in the garage because we backed up to the garage. the only thing that went in the garage were couches so everything else went inside the house and it was like a miracle I I looked around like at 6 17 I said how the fuck did we just do that did daylight savings happen and jump did the clocks do something weird like it was insane

because it seems like moving and you the amount of show we had to move is this boring I feel like I'm this is the most unnecessary bullshit for your life right now like who gives a fuck about Jacqueline and her sister and her mom moving furniture. Do you care? I feel like I'm wasting your time. This podcast is about mental health. We're going to talk about strategies to improve your mental health. Like I could do some quality, uh, shit like that, but I don't know what else to talk about other than my day. And when we did, this is my life, this is my podcast. I don't know what to do. So basically, uh, it was a miracle. I was actually speechless. I was in shock. I'm like, what I mean it was not easy we were lifting these things on little dollies shit was falling off the

sides drawers falling out it was heavy I didn't pull a muscle my back's okay everyone's fine healthy like we're not in pain but yeah that's what our night was and then we had to drive those U-Hauls back we had I had a U-Haul driving into town I don't know how my sister trusted me with that. Cause she's really paranoid about my driving. I don't know why, but, um, she was like allowing me to drive the U-Haul back to the place to drop it off. And I was like, holy shit. She followed us. And then we went to the wrong place. It was this big shit show. We had the wrong address. We had to go another place. It was just like a long night. And then my aunt lost her wallet and was in the U-Haul. We had to find that. Um, anyways, I'm trying to like recall what

happened so then I just went home I posted like 70 photos on Instagram I finished the day I was tired as shit I was laying in bed um oh my god wait did my sister set the beds up last night wait a minute holy shit we got home time out we got home from dropping off the u-hauls dust our hands off we're fucking done with these fucking trucks because we've had them since Friday and I'm like wait I don't have a bed to sleep on we had to set up the beds in my mom's house and my sister oh we made dinner my mom and I oh yeah my mom and I were the little housewives in the in the kitchen my sister was in the back with a screwdriver setting up her bed and then she set up my bed and uh because guys I told you a few podcasts ago or a week ago or whatever when I

came home for Thanksgiving my mom all the furniture's been gone it's being used by other siblings and shit and I had a blow-up mattress and a couch for sleeping place I could sleep with my mom sometimes I do that but I slept on a blow-up mattress for like the first week so anyways now I had a bed so my sister set up the beds my mom's making shrimp she made rice and shrimp it was so good and we just sat around and ate dinner my sister set the beds up um anyways we passed like everyone went to bed and then here I am glued to my phone in the darkness on my new bed like a jackass full full brightness there wasn't a lamp set up in my room it was just a like the room I was in because we put a bunch it's like the storage room I I used it for yoga uh the first

week I was here and I just you know put the new bed in it so it's just like right now full of random shit like bins side chairs mirrors tables lamps but nothing's really set up so last night I could have had a lamp on or the light but I just stared at my phone in the face for like a good two hours I had tiktok going I hadn't been on tiktok all weekend so I had to catch up scroll on social media and then I'm like shit I have all these pictures I take took take I have all these pictures I took this weekend and I never posted anything so I was like fuck it I'm gonna do like a three post uh situation here on the gram go over to instagram if you want to check it out um so I did that before and then I literally just like posted the last one fell

asleep like a degenerate social media addicted cracked out fucking millennial and it was great and I slept great I think I slept nine hours I think my whoop whoop strap said nine uh do you want to know the life update on this morning that was a lot I just told you about like pretty much from 5 p.m until like 11 p.m last night there's the itinerary there's the schedule is this unsafe like I'm literally telling you every fucking detail every single day of the week so I mean it's like I said an audio diary whatever but it's kind of weird to think about like you guys know exactly what I do every single day and now you have my sister and my mom in the equation because we're all home my sister's temporarily home just for a little bit but we're gonna be

all home for the holidays my brother's gonna be home it's gonna be great so uh anyways there's like the night finished off unloading shit out of the u-hauls return the u-hauls set up some beds ate dinner together i posted posted instagram pigs i passed out anyways i wake up my mom and my sister were up like two hours ahead of me of course they were we're drinking coffee we're sitting around watching the news chit-chatting girl time we got you know our little pjs on there's shit all over the house because we put a lot of my sister's stuff in the house we're like sitting on the couch in between garbage bags full of my sister's shoes and clothes and it's just like a great time so we did that for a little bit and then we got busy we were like we

cannot I can't because I had work to do today it's Monday I had a lot of shit to do and catch up on from being kind of you know dedicated to moving all weekend so anyways we're looking around like I can't function in this house if we don't kind of finally like put everything away so we spent a couple hours this morning um moving more furniture rearranging shit getting everything put away we had to lay rugs down we had to move all the couches move the huge queen excuse me king-size bed that my sister built last night we had to move that bitch and put a rug under it and it was just a it was a lot of like this morning's work I would argue I feel like it was harder than unloading the two u-hauls yesterday so that's what we did for a couple hours and I

had I told my mom like mom I need a stop time I have a job like I need to work am I like I know my sister's off the hook right now she's doing her own thing she doesn't need you know she's got all the time in the world to unpack shit and I'm like mom I need to shower I didn't I mean I hadn't even showered since unloading the U-Haul lot. I literally hadn't showered since Sunday morning before we went on the road trip back to the West side in Washington, where we're at now and unloaded everything. Like I was feeling like a piece of, like, I felt like a pig in a, in a pig pen. I said, dumb. That's like a kind of an easy example. What's a better example? I felt homeless. I felt like I'd been living on the street for a few days, like, and I couldn't

shower that's sad that's probably a worse example you know what I mean so I was just ready I was like mom this is as good as it's gonna get anyways so I showered took a cold shower I'm obsessed okay so I don't really my life is so different now without uh a regular gym routine because my normal like Jacqueline you know doing her bad bitch boss babe life is usually uh on a schedule that goes like this, wake up, caffeinate, drive to the gym, do some sort of intense morning workout between six to 8am somewhere around there and shower, get all pampered and cute outfit hair, like everything cute. And then I go to work. So this year has been weird because not only do I not do that gym routine and currently in California where I'm usually at,

all the gyms are outside I'll fuck with that I'm not gonna go work out outside and it's just like a shit show uh I'll do my own workout like I'll go on my own runs around my neighborhood or you know I'm not gonna go like weight lift and do shit outside I just I'm not I don't vibe with it I showed up one time to do it and I just felt like this it was annoying I was too annoyed to do it so lately it's been like slow morning walks yoga I'm not really getting this intense cardio anymore or heavy workouts in so my new thing I'm going back to my shower this morning is a cold shower like an intense 10 minute I go probably five to ten minutes I don't know if it's healthy I really don't know all I know is Wim Hof the guy that does deep breathing breathwork shit and ice baths I

think you know he's all about that cold shock therapy but I'm feeling like it's giving me that early morning energetic burst on my body that I need. Cause I'm not going and sweating really hard and doing some crazy workout. So I love it. I'm kind of addicted right now. And it's like the first hard thing I do in the day. Um, so anyways, I did like, I don't know if that's important to know, but Jacqueline took a cold ass shower and I kind of, well, I don't kind of, I love it here at my mom's house. The shower is so cold. I think it's San Diego. I need to figure out, can I, like, can I make my pipes colder? Like, can I make my water colder? I don't know. I live in an apartment in the city. I don't know if that's possible because it's kind of like lukewarm in

a way, if that makes sense. And here it's like literally ice bath quality shower water. And I'm like, I get to the point where I'm numb. I'm like, I can't feel my, my arm. I can't, if I touch my arm, I'm like, I can't even feel it. But as I'm in the shower doing it, I'm deep breathing. I'm like, uh, trying to calm my nervous system down because it's all about guys. I used to work at a cryotherapy place. It was all about, I taught people, you know, your norepinephrine, your epinephrine are releasing your body's in shock. It's like your fight or flight. Those are your fight or flight hormones. So cryotherapy is great because it puts your body in a state of, uh, you know, like fear it thinks it's, you know, it wants to protect itself. So that when those hormones

release it helps it's like it you know there's it's healing this whole fucking cold shock therapy move it's all about like healing and your boost your immune system it's great so I learned about all that shit and I kind of feel the same getting out of a cold shower this is this is a fucking cold shower podcast now Jesus Christ long story short I feel the same almost the same getting out of a cold shower that I do getting out of a cryotherapy booth and I did the cryotherapy where it's like a full body you walk in a booth like a shower booth and you stand in it and it's cold air around you it's not the chamber where your head's sticking out um it's like whole body cryotherapy so anyways I'm into that uh that's how I start my day uh fuck I added so basically

i told my mom like mom i gotta get to work and shower and like get ready for today so anyways i did that got to work uh i blasted music i was listening to country all day resetting my strong american values i always say that shit i'm like i gotta listen to country in the morning it just makes me feel good i love listening like it makes sense that i like country all this well not all of a sudden but i feel like in high school i hated country and i like i was like it just i don't know I didn't vibe with it and like ever since I feel like the end of college until now I it's like making me feel like it makes me think of home kind of so when I'm here listening to it I'm at my mom's house I'm looking around it's totally country it's like it makes sense

and I don't know like it kind of I just love listening to it while I work so I did that I worked my mom and my sister they were home what were they doing they're kind of like tidying up still moving furniture and shit. And then they went off to town to like, do my mom had some work stuff to do. They just ran errands. They got Christmas lights. And then I think, yeah, they went to Home Depot, I think. And then I took a nap. I was like, oh yeah, when they're gone, I'm going to take a nap. So they don't shame me. If they come home and I'm napping, they're going to get like, they'll be like, Jacqueline, what the fuck's wrong with you? Why are you napping all the time? What's wrong? Like, they don't know. I was up till I got good sleep, but

I probably napped because my eyeballs were fried from staring at my phone last night posting like I did three posts and each post had like a full amount of picture like 10 pictures per post I'm disgusting I'm just you know what I don't care like I don't think about it anymore I just post because I realize this I don't look at people's profiles like I don't really scroll on Instagram I just see whatever's on the top you know what I mean like I'm not like so I'm not paranoid that someone's gonna be like oh my god Jacqueline just posted three times they're not really even gonna see it probably so whatever um but I took a long nap while they were gone because I get nervous that they'll make fun of me if I'm not being I don't know

I don't want to I don't want them to see me slacking like is that a do you guys feel like that with family members like or your parents when you go home like if you look lazy and like because I'm already trying to prove to my mom I can do it I'm a hustler I'm in my zone and with my life in San Diego I'm like making shit happen I'm working so I wanted her to come I wanted her to come home from her errands seeing me like on my laptop with my glasses on working hard you know so whatever I napped and uh they came home and they saw me napping they snuck home I didn't hear the car come home I was asleep and mom's like oh Jacqueline what's up I was asleep in the bed and I saw her and she's like oh 2 p.m it's nap time isn't it I'm like fuck so I failed

there but she supports it she's also a napper my mom takes naps my sister ended up napping after me it like I feel so dumb right now for even telling you this again is this now the napping podcast Jesus okay 95 95 days in a row I don't even know what the show is anymore I still have fun doing it but Jesus Christ I feel like I'm oversharing my mom sometimes she's like Jacqueline just talk about something and move on like I'm going into too many details here's some Diet Coke ASMR for you should I gargle that's not good to do with carbonation fuck don't gargle carbonated beverages there was an episode a while ago where I gargled water and it sounded so disgusting but anyways

so I woke up from my nap made my mom and I afternoon coffees and I got back to work blasted music again I worked for a long time I just like got shit done today it's Monday you know what I mean they hung out they set up Christmas lights while I was working we found a baby bird it was so cute they were um they took a break and then they're like Jacqueline come look at this this little baby bird it was so so tiny it looked like um I don't know the type of bird but it had little speckles on its back and it was tucked up in the pillar like by our front door uh it was just like tucked up underneath it kind of hiding and it looked cold it looked lost it like it needed its mom and it didn't have one it wasn't flying away when we were looking you know

it wasn't scared well it was probably terrified but it didn't move you know so I don't know what's wrong with it I should check if it's even still there but that happened they said oh I took some selfies uh what else did I do and I just like oh I did yoga yeah okay they finished Christmas lights made dinner. My sister made nachos. I ate a can of tuna like a cat. I wasn't really hungry. So I just had tuna, which is like, I felt gross. I'm like taking the can. So I did yoga. I'm not really telling you guys about that. Watched TikTok and did yoga. It doesn't make sense. I was in like a pigeon pose. Speaking of birds, I was in a pigeon pose. So my hips are really tight from sitting in a car all weekend. So I did that and then got hungry. And I mean, I literally opened

a can of tuna uh and set it in a bowl like a small dish and I'm like this is literally what you feed a cat and this is the aesthetic like it's just plain tuna in a bowl and I put sriracha on it and I was like fuck it this is dinner my sister's across the table eating nachos I'm like I I just like wasn't that hungry so I don't know that's what I had for dinner if you're curious now I'm drinking a fucking diet coke this makes no sense and then we just talked hung out I helped my mom she needed some she needed me to pick up she had to like find pictures of herself and I helped her pick them out for this thing she's doing so I did that then I got really tired I'm like mom I don't know if I can do this right now I got a podcast I haven't done it today yet and she's like Jacqueline

just boss up do it you got it and I get and I get so energetic right before I do it so I'm like I got this got my headset on got my laptop set up got my coke diet coke in me I started doing I did my intro like 10 times just to like warm up like hi guys what's up it's episode 95 welcome you know I was doing that in front of her just getting all peppy and I did it and it's done that's all I have to share for for today like there's a oh there's a cashew on the floor next to me I got into my mom's nuts last night I'm like god damn it you guys know me and cashews remember the cashew episode I said how the fuck do you stop eating handfuls of cashews cashews is it cashews cashews uh I got I discovered a few weeks ago before I came to see or came up to Washington I bought myself

roasted cashews holy fuck I was like wait what the fuck I didn't realize that I don't eat cash like I I was like hold these are so good and they're hard to stop eating once you start so last night i got into my mom's nuts she has mixed nuts from costco and i downed probably like six fistfuls over the course of the night whatever we know happy holidays my sister now what do we call it the fat train i'm over the fat train like i like i said i wasn't really hungry i had fucking tuna tonight it's over the weekend i just feel like we ate like i had mcdonald's twice i had mcdonald's breakfast on the road trip over and mcdonald's on the way back literally bought a McChicken for the first time in like 10 years um I didn't even I wasn't a

McDonald's bitch in college I was a Taco Bell bitch that was my like drunk food I guess Taco Bell and then Domino's pizza like I didn't fuck with McDonald's ever the only thing I fuck with McDonald's usually I if I'm there the only thing I do sentences Jacqueline you're a podcast host form a sentence the only thing I really eat at McDonald's is uh I drink their black coffee because it's so good I am like that's what we do we even do it now like hey we should go get instead of going to the Starbucks drive-thru we'll go to McDonald's like the three of us girls we'll just show up there and order it but yeah so I feel like kind of like I don't know just like gross and you know but it's the holidays and it's easy to make excuses and just like be like

fuck it I got my sweatpants all month I've only packed sweatpants I'm fine but I don't really feel my in my prime because it's just like a lot of chemicals and shit from McDonald's and bad food so my grandpa got these cookies I ate like five there were these oatmeal cookies and I saw the box and it was like sugar-free I got fuck I just ate like five of these and if you know anything about sugar-free food uh the chemicals they use that are like the sorbitol or whatever the fuck it's not it hurts your uh insides and it makes you release your inside god damn it I didn't want to say that I don't want to go there it makes you shit your pants really bad so I got yeah there now you know all right so fuck um that's like those quest bars I

don't really I can't really eat those because it does that the chemical uh they have so much fiber in them I think that in the the fake sugar that it makes you yeah okay gonna nervously drink my diet coke dude we're in that comfy slob stage I say it all the time what other woman talks to you seven days a week I'm basically your girlfriend okay we're at that comfortable stage in the relationship 95 episodes in I said those fake sugar ingredients in those cookies made me shit my pants I'm sorry I'm not sorry I don't know what I do I don't edit this I can't delete it I can't go back I'm gonna you know what Jacqueline you just this will get buried this episode will get buried no one will listen to it it's okay no one's probably listening right now

I don't know what's happening all right that's that's basically all I have for you today I don't really know what else to say. It was a great Monday, productive, took a nap, which was great. Uh, finished all the moving. Okay. So that's finally done. Had a great day with my mom and sister and I just like need a good night's sleep. You know what I mean? It's almost 8 PM. I just want to go to bed at like nine. I got to scroll tick tick tock first. I'm not, I'm not maxed out for today. The day isn't done until you're fully maxed out. Every social media app has been fully scrolled through. Every account you stock has been fully browsed. Do you know what I mean? Like that's when the bedtime actually happens. It's not, it's never what you want. So like, I want

to go to bed at 9 PM, but I'll probably go to bed at like 10 30 because of social media and I'm not done yet so you know what I love my life I have fun I love social media I love entertainment I love fun videos I love laughing at TikToks I like weird shit on the internet I like memes I like stalking people and scrolling like I like zooming in on shit and being like wow that guy's got a hot fucking face like I love that shit my mom's done rowing I know she's not sorry now I'm getting sidetracked I'm still looking at her outside do you know what I mean as much as I can bitch about how horrible it is for my attention span obviously look what just happened and it makes it's like making me more anti-social it's not actually making me social it makes me

like feel like I have a social life when I really don't like you know what I mean I fucking love it and so do you and that's why you're tuning in today okay you're you're addicted to listening a podcast you love it you need background noise you need an you need some sort of person talking you can't listen to your own silence so here I am welcome to this is like Alcoholics Anonymous hi I'm Jacqueline I'm addicted to social media um that's it so my mom oh my god she took her hat off her hair's blown in the wind she has her fucking reader glasses on it's pitch black out the only lights are the Christmas lights twinkling she's poking at her concept rower she's stopped right now she's resetting the settings I think it's so windy I don't know

how she does it she has her mind I swear to god when I said it was kind of offensive I said this like I tacky or whatever I was like my mom is David Goggins with a vagina she is literally she now she's taking a selfie I'm making her feel insecure she's smiling like a little kid she's going she's flipping me off I love my mom she's like David Goggins with a vagina that's what I said because she has the the most like iron mind or what's it called like her discipline or her mind is so strong she's so strong-minded like or fuck what's the technical term um she doesn't complain she puts up with like she just gets shit done like she didn't she didn't want to go row 5,000 meters in the cold outside tonight but she just

did it she's like I have to do it gotta go do it just does it now she's blasting music taking selfies flipping me off having a good time like it's pretty cool to watch so she's just a hard worker she finds joy when she works really hard and especially when she does hard fitness stuff uh it makes her feel amazing so I'm super proud to be her daughter and I don't know I'm inspired by her because I feel like I feel like a lazy piece of shit I think she is not super excited about my yoga she's like she even said she's like does yoga burn calories like what are you what are you what you're juggling you're just doing yoga and I was like mom because to her exercise is like crossfit like go crazy fucking sweat go like you know get get intense with it

and I'm here at home now I'm like rolling out my yoga mat stretching just like deep breathing and shit she's confused anyways it's not like she she's like I think she would rather me she she probably thinks well I told her I'm like yeah mom I gained weight this year I was depressed I've I've been super sedentary like it's it's what it is okay she's like well wouldn't you want to like go hard and exercise hard right now to kind of like tighten back up and like I'm literally in the headspace of comfiness, sweatpants, slow sloth, yoga, feel good, take a nap, scroll on social media. Like that is my life. I've completely slowed down, but I think it's a positive step for me because I think my former self will be so much. Why is this not becoming a weight loss journey

fucking topic episode? I'm saying my former self was really hard on my, like I would be really hard on myself if I gained weight like I did this year and it's nothing dramatic it's just like I'm not stoked about where I'm at physically it's like I just feel like a like I I have the same body but it's just like a little bit more puffed up if that makes sense everyone knows what that's like um but my former self would be so negative and like mean and like Jacqueline you fat piece shit gotta go like run six miles every day eat egg whites all day long like don't fucking have any carbs like where now I'm just like not being like that and I feel like it's healthier and I don't feel I feel happy I feel fine I'm I feel confident I feel sexy like just because I have a

little more curve to my body does I mean my I'm not mad that my boobs got huge this year not mad at it I am not mad at it in fact I think I traumatized my mom my sister I was hot I don't know why because it's like cold in the house. I was super hot tonight when I was working on my laptop and I came out in a bralette and I think they were like, what the fuck? Holy shit. Where did those come from? Whatever. Anyways. Okay. I got to end the show. I got to get to bed. I hope you had a great Monday. I hope your week's going great. Have you kicked the holidays off yet? Are you with family? Are you putting up Christmas lights, Christmas trees? Are you excited about Christmas are you kind of like whatever how's your mental health how's your uh life going do

you have any new changes new beginnings we're coming up to a new beginning we got 2021 hitting us in a few weeks here and honestly I feel like it's going to be same shit different year and I hate to say that I want it to be like new year new me like but the world doesn't seem like it's going to be drastically different next month um other than obviously a presidential inauguration new shit happening there um but you know what I mean I'm not like I just wish we could start the year with like 100 back to pre-covid times like okay reset 2021 back in the office back in the restaurants back in the club like we can go out on New Year's Eve and you know be all up on each other like it's not going to be that so I'm just trying to stay on

my grinds what did my voice just do something there okay I'm just gonna stay on my grind keep myself up and like I love this podcast thing because I have to do it every day it's keeping me motivated it's keeping me positive it's keeping me happy I love the creative process of talking it out and coming up with content as I speak because it's not planned I don't script shit I don't like get on here with an sometimes I have notes that's like the form like early days I would always take like a ton of notes think of the shit before I did the show but it's I love the process of like trusting my mind to take me places and talk about whatever like I think and so it's a good I don't know like a good daily practice a good mental exercise it's like the mental gym

you know everyone talks about the mental gym is just as important as the physical gym because you know your mind everything's in the mind and people are meditating and I'm like this is like my way of working on my mental health just talking it out releasing it into the world telling people the truth being honest with myself and vulnerable not being shy about my life and my insecurities and the bullshit I go through like it's very therapeutic and cathartic and I'm over feeling like it's this self-indulgent narcissistic thing because to me it's not I think if I showed up in a fake way where I was trying to like act a certain way or make my life sound a certain way or anything like that would be red flag that's narcissistic like you're

it's fake it's not you but I feel like I'm literally picking up the phone seven days a week and talking to you like I'm checking in on like with my mom like I'm not or a boyfriend or whatever like I'm just naturally doing it where I don't feel weird about it anymore because at first I kind of struggle with that I'm like what bitch shows up seven days a week I don't I shouldn't call myself a bitch what girl like what person decides to do that and isn't full of themselves and it's really not that it's literally how I'm working on my discipline my consistency with setting uh like accomplishing goals and focusing on effort instead of the end result the effort is just the daily uh practice of doing this this is a huge journey for me because in the past I

set out to do something like this and I would get two weeks in and I'd quit where I can't quit like I'm committed and I love it I love that uh I love that little fire under my fire under my ass every day like I in the back of my head I know I have to do it and it's good for me because it's something I've struggled with for a really long time um that discipline so yeah you're along for the ride if you're listening and I really appreciate your ear today I'm gonna end this for real this time uh speaking of self-discipline I'm gonna call it I'm gonna call it and be self-discipline. I used to say that all the time. So happy at a great Monday. Um, and a couple things here. You can go over to patreon.com slash TJMS to support the show. I'm doing weekly

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my youtube channel uh i'll be back in january monday through friday right now i have i think 40 episodes on youtube you can tune in and hang out with me and watch if you just need a person to hang out with like it's me on camera there's not much going on other other than a bunch of shit all over my set to stare at. Um, anyways, there's my plugs, check it out, hit me up, whatever. Shoot me a DM. I like when you send me messages, it's fun. And yeah, I'll talk to you tomorrow for Tuesday. Um, who knows what's going to happen in the next 24 hours. Cause it's always, it's always entertainment here at the house and my mom and my sister, it's so fun being home and I hate to say this but I don't hate to say this but

they're slowly warming me up to the idea of temporarily moving home in the beginning of next year just for like instead of renewing my lease I'd like come home for six months just to like be home and because you know the world's not gonna be much different probably so might as well and not pay rent you know what I mean like I'm paying rent I'm not even there right now for a whole month but I don't know I'm just like loving being with family loving being with them and bonding because we grow up and then we kind of grow apart because we're not living together anymore and now it's like we're literally three of us back in like high school times my mom's here and my sister's here it's great anyways so that happened I'm not done with the show Jesus Christ

Self-discipline out the window. Take another sip of Coca-Cola. I should just be like, all right, bye. It's like when, okay, no, I'm not going to go into it. I was going to talk about middle school and you're on the phone with a boy and you're trying to hang up and you like don't and you fuck with them

and you try to see who like hangs up first or who doesn't, who stays on the phone the longest. Yeah. So finally, I'm going to do it. I'm going to hang up. Bye. Just kidding. And I feel awkward.

And I have my hands in my sweatpants like a boy to keep my hands warm. Okay. Happy Monday. Talk to you tomorrow for Tuesday's podcast. I hope you're having a great day. I appreciate your support and love and all the good things. Love you. I'm just saying I love you.

I love you very much. You're a great person. You deserve the best. You are important. You are special. You are worthy of great things. and, uh, I think you are so sexy and, uh, that's all I gotta say. All right. Bye-bye.