The Jacqueline Monroe Show - 98- Sleepy Day :)

Episode Date: December 11, 2020

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What's up, guys? Happy Thursday. It's episode 98. Welcome back to the show. hey what's up it's Jacqueline how are you doing what's going on so I'm at my mom's office right now um recording this because the mobile hotspot at home is no longer working so I had to come get some wi-fi going for this show so it uploads I I'm in a spinny chair I'm next to a restaurant playing Christmas music there's people eating pizza outside it's a vibe um I don't know I'm enjoying myself it's currently what 3 47 p.m I had a dash here I was like telling my sister so I have to use her car while I'm home I'm like I was gonna come here tonight to do this I was like oh no I will feel so like scared to be locked in my mom's

office at nighttime in the city it's like ah so I'm doing it right now in an awkward time of day I don't know why that's important to tell you but here's a quick little uh podcast host update like I sometimes take you behind the scenes of what it's like to do this seven days a week because it's, you know, a whole new endeavor I'm doing and I'm on this new quest. So I thought, you know, sometimes it's interesting to tell you guys, right. I would think it's interesting to know what it's like to be me. But last night was the first time in the 97 days I've been doing this today's 98 where I had technical difficulties where I couldn't upload the episode. It was recorded. It's done. And by the time you're listening to this, it's already up. But I was

up until two in the morning trying to, I could have stayed up all night. I probably, if I was a real pro at this, I would have not slept. I would have gotten it done. I would have found a 24 hour place with wifi. I would have driven to like my grandparents' house to fucking upload it, but I needed sleep. Okay. COVID-19 is upon us. I don't want to fuck with my immune system. My circadian rhythm too bad. You know, I needed to get to bed by like 2 AM instead of pulling an all-nighter why am I even going on that immunity bullshit tangent I don't know you guys know what I mean so it's done it's up but yesterday was the first time I couldn't get it uploaded and it was like whoa this is what it feels like to feel like a failure a little bit I'm not a feel like I did

it but just like failing you guys um and my mom woke up I woke up to my mom let me just tell you my day let's just get into it I woke up to my mom going where's the episode I was on the rowing machine this morning and I didn't see it what happened like she listens every single morning when she works out at like 4 a.m she wakes up and listens to my episode and she's like where is the episode I missed it I couldn't you know she she listened to like Rush Limbaugh is that his name Rush Limbaugh instead uh I don't know so hold on I got to drink some coke zero dude I am out of control I'm pretty sure this is the last one left in the house because my mom had a bunch of them in the fridge I think this is the last one so we'll stop drinking this after today I

said that yesterday I probably said that every single day like I'll stop drinking soda at my mom's house tomorrow it's been a whole uh two weeks of it so far how long have I been home what did I get home like oh Thanksgiving I don't know so yeah I woke up let's just cut cut to the chase um honest to god honest to god I just feel like today was a wash kind of if you know what I mean like I woke up at 8 30 because I was up till 2 I like kind of slept in a little bit and my mom's like rushing around getting packed for her trip to Savannah she's going to Savannah and Charleston with her boyfriend for a week for like their holiday trip so she's like rushing around getting all ready and she's packing she's like Jacqueline I need help I need help and I

swear to god I love this about my mom she turns into like this like desperate not desperate it's like this cute like she's like Kris Jenner about when she packs and goes on trips she like wants everything perfect she's like showing me her outfits her heels she had all of her shoes lined up I'm like picking shit out for her like her assistant it was really fun we did that for like an hour this morning I was telling her like to bring a certain pair of heels that will go with all of her outfits instead of bringing these like navy blue ones that won't go with stuff and like I helped her pick out tennis shoes to walk around in instead of like uh casual like adidas ones she brought she brought athletic shoes I'm like mommy you're gonna want to have like running shoes for

this trip because she's gonna be walking a lot so whatever these are weird details what else can I tell you about what we did this morning packing I don't know it was fun I was wearing like my sister's hat her big it's kind of like a Amish not Amish looking hat it's like a so you know how there's cowboy hats and you know how there's those like floppy not like floppy hats they're like flat brimmed hats the girls wear it's like very trendy right now basically I look like a jackass I had my giant sheepy black coat on that's basically keeping me it's keeping me so warm um on this trip I had that on I had did I have like leggings I don't know I was just like wearing a bunch of clothes like big clothes and then I had that hat over my bun and it looked I look stupid

it was so funny like I was looking in the mirror and I'm like I look Amish or some shit I look crazy I just rolled out of bed to my mom like demanding me help her pack which was fine I had fun we had a lot of fun uh then we debated about like do you guys want to know this I don't know or like drinking coffee having a debate about because we've been talking about it a couple times on the trip home about playing devil's advocate and how uh she has an opinion about it I have an opinion about it and I'm trying to explain to her how a lot of times I listen to podcasts like there's a there's a time and a place to use devil's advocate and she was kind of explaining how there's like it's I don't even know why I want to tell you guys this is just

literally what happened today. That's all I'm doing. I'm trying to tell you like step by step what happened. I woke up, helped my mom pack. We had like a nice conversation about devil's advocate. I don't know why I even want to tell you this. It's like not even important. Basically I'm like, when someone's personally, if you're having like a discussion and you're playing devil's advocate and you're picking someone apart and it's like a personal matter or whatever you're dealing with, like that's different than having a conversation playing devil's advocate about something to do with politics or you know science or whatever where you you need to understand both sides to come to the solution or to figure out the problem fucking day you guys know what it is you guys are

I just listen to a lot of podcasts where they play devil's advocate so I was like mom I don't get it why is it so bad and she was explaining it to me in her eyes and I totally I agree 100% with it so I don't know. We talked about that. My sister's in the back room with a headache for like the second day in a row. She's like, why are we guys yelling at each other about what we, cause she overheard us. Like we weren't yelling. We're just like, you know, getting back. We're just talking it out. It's fun. My mom and I are really like, she's a really, um, fun person to talk to. Cause she's really smart and really insightful about things. And she sees stuff differently than I do on a lot of topics. So whatever we started our morning with that, my sister's like headache in

her big bed what what were you guys yelling about what's going on and I'm like we're fine everything's fine uh she's like can you get me uh what does she need me to get her I don't know like oh put her ice pack back in the freezer I'm always waiting on my sister it's just like what I do I think ever since I was little if she wanted something like can you go get me another glass of juice or can you put my plate away in the dishwasher like I would just do it for her and I haven't changed and I don't know why I put up with that shit but like sometimes I find myself doing it and I'm like I would never even think to ask her to do this for me if I was on the couch waking up from a nap asking for uh you know can you go get me a nice coffee

or some shit like I would I would get killed I couldn't do that so it's just funny like this morning she's sick in bed I'm waiting on her my mom's gonna she's about to leave um so anyways that happened I just like don't know what to tell you guys I like felt like shit after my mom left I was like oh I'm so tired I haven't stayed up till two in a while so I just like worked uh on my computer in bed and I don't know I like ended up napping for a bit my sister's like do you want to go to Starbucks and go to town I have to run I have to run some errands I was like sure and then it turned out where I slept for too long she's like I gotta go and I'm like fuck so she ran errands I stayed in bed I slept I took a fat nap and then I woke up worked more

and I'm like shit guys I gotta tell you I gotta be honest I don't know I don't know what else to do I'm like look it's currently 3 56 p.m. I rushed here to upload this episode or I rushed here to upload the episode from Wednesday yesterday so it's not even up when I'm recording this it'll be up for you guys but like I feel so weird about it I haven't been this behind or like this discombobulated by my podcast ever so I feel weird I'm like I don't know I had to like get I told her I was like I need to go to the office now and do this and I don't want it to be dark tonight when I'm here alone so that's kind of where I'm at I was literally the day that's why I said it's kind of a wash like I don't know I didn't really do anything other than like work

nap help my mom just like that's it and it's kind of getting to the point here where I said this I think two days ago where I don't want to be dramatic I'm not trying to be like a negative what the fuck uh Jacqueline like you're so lucky to even live where you live and have a great family and all this stuff but I'm actually noticing the weather and how I'm feeling about it and like how it feels to live here or be here for this long so far because normally when I come home I'm home I'm home for I don't know like four days maybe for a whole like Christmas time Thanksgiving I'll come home for like four or five days max but now I've been home for almost two weeks and it's like the rain's coming. It's always kind of dark and cloudy. And I've never really realized how good

I am in California or it's so different. It doesn't mean it's better. It's just a different feeling when you're, you know, up in the morning and when you're going around town, it's bright, there's tons of blue sky and it's sunny. And I don't know. So I'm starting to be like, whoa, holy shit like I can honestly say and as hard as this is to admit I can honestly say that I can't imagine being here or come uprooting from where I live now in San Diego and coming back and being in this for like oh you know a few years and like coming back to Washington to live and work so I don't know like that's just where I'm at it might change um but everything I'll say that that's the con right now just like obviously the weather and the gloom but the pros are out are outweighing

that so much I mean my day with my grandparents yesterday was like the best day of 2020 noble like that was so nice to just hang out with them help them around the house uh talk to my grandma hang out on their couch get food with them it just felt really great and I honestly like I've been doing that this whole time and I just keep telling myself like this is all that matters obviously family that's it and um it's easy for me to think and be like it's just like fuck this weather I don't want to Washington's like cold and rainy and depressing and the clouds are always hanging over and whatever but um my family's here so you gotta like push I mean honestly I can see through all that weather stuff it's not that big of a deal it's nothing compared

to the fact that, um, or to the fact that family and being close to them is so amazing so far. So I don't know. I just had to say that. Cause yeah, like if you live in the cold weather, um, you're probably, I mean, shit, it's not like I've, I've lived in Washington more than I've lived in California. You know what I mean? Like I've only been in California for two and a half years. So like I should be used to it, but I'm, it's different once you're gone. And once you live in the sun for a long time and come back, you notice it a lot more. So I don't know, I'm going to drink some more Diet Coke and think about this a little more. My mom told me to pick a topic and kind of stick on it for a while and then like pick something that could accompany it,

that relates to it. So maybe I'll ask you guys a question. I'll ask you a question. Please go to my DMs and tell me the answer. I don't know. Talk to me in the DMs, leave me a review, tell me your answer. Where do you live? Are you a sun person? Are you a rain person? Do you like the Pacific Northwest vibe over the Southern California vibe? Are you a snow person? Are you a beach person? Are you a mountain person? Do you have houses in two places? Do your parents live in one state and you live in another? And how's that going for you? I mean, I always say this, there's no rule book in life. There's no manual on what you're supposed to do and how you're supposed to do it. It's just like, okay, one day at a time, you make a choice, you go with the flow, see what happens. And two

and a half years later, after moving to California, I'm still 100% satisfied as fuck with my decision to live there. It's like a dream that I even live. It's like amazing. I can't, I'm never going to be like, oh, I wish I never did that. No, I've made the best decision in my life to move there. and now I'm starting to kind of weigh out the lifestyle away from family and what that means for my psyche and my feeling of wholeness inside because when you're away from family I think you it does something to you and I'm I'm putting on a you know on the calendar next year a good four or five times I'm gonna come home no matter what uh because that's what sucked about 2020 for me it was like oh you're isolated in your own little apartment uh no family I think they came one time

I had family visit twice which isn't too bad my mom's boyfriend came and took me out to dinner one time and then uh my mom and sister visited for my birthday week so uh yeah I don't know it's just like something to think about maybe you're I don't know if you're in that same situation I remember growing up we had neighbors who um their parents lived on the other side they lived on the east coast and they moved out here and their entire life like they lived away from their parents and that's just a thing so I don't know I'm I'm I don't feel it's like a weird guilt thing I don't know how to explain it I'm trying not to be hard on myself about it but I feel like I have it so good down there sometimes and I'm like you know I wish my family could live

here too with me I'm like can everyone just move to California like so much in my eyes it's like 10 times better just because I'm still kind of new and I love the beach thing and the sun but I feel kind of guilty that I'm not saying I want to live by my mom and be close to her and be able to like drive down the road and see her every time I want to like any day of the week you know that's oh man it's like I wish like I feel like if I'm not saying that I'm a terrible person do you know what I mean like if I don't because I love my mom I love my family I love my grandparents cousins uncles aunts everyone and um you know now I have a baby cousin growing up and I've been watching her grow up on my phone like since she was a little baby and I finally met her and she's

almost two or I met her last year excuse me I met her when she's one and two about so it's just so a different lifestyle you know what I mean I'm just thinking about it try not to be too hard of myself but uh the goal is to get back home a handful of times a year and I'll feel really good about that and I'll feel like 10 times better than I did this year because I like show up and I'm like I have I don't who are you guys what are you doing with your life like tell me the juice what's the update I don't know it's like same old same old but I noticed how like my sister is always around my aunt and my new cousin and like their relationship I know is totally blossomed because of that because they're always close by and that's something I'm missing out on like I'm not really

bonding with cousins and aunts and uncles and I don't know just distance distancing myself um or I've you know you guys know what I mean oh my god did mom did I go not she wanted me to pick a topic and stick on it stick to it and then elaborate more so there I did it about that was the, uh, in summary, that was the move away from your family in another state topic section. I don't fucking know. Did I finish my day? Oh, another thought I have, let me just tell you about being home. It's so quiet. Like I live in a city. I live like pretty much down, not downtown San Diego but I live like in that close I could see the skyscrapers you know what I mean so it's always loud because now that I'm home I was home today while my sister was doing errands

there was zero noise like no white noise I swear like I was in my bedroom there wasn't a you know heater going there wasn't a fan there was nothing making noise and I'm looking outside I'm like it's like serene I got the mountains in the backdrop the Olympic mountains I've got birds flying the the swans are flying across the fields there's giant yeah fields for all you can see and then a beautiful ridge in the backdrop and it's like the coolest scene ever and like I'm pinching myself like again I'm not it's like this thing I fight because it's so pretty here it's so amazing here but so is California and I'm like well I could easily come back and live live with in this town and work here um but I don't know it's just like this I have this

appreciation for for where I live more than ever and I found myself while I was working in my bedroom my old high school bedroom I talked to you guys yesterday about I'm sitting there looking out the window and I like kind of got not emo but just like I just felt grateful as fuck I'm like this is I have it so good and this is so cool that I grew up here and these are my roots and this is my upbringing, and my, you know, I, like, learned how to work at, like, work here, and, you know, feed animals here, I'm just thinking of, like, the farm stuff off the top of my head, you know, and this is where I, the school bus dropped me off, and this is where I did my homework, and this is where I applied for college, and this is where I, you know, it's kind of cool,

anyways, so what else was, I was gonna do a BuzzFeed quiz, that's such a cop-out, me doing a quiz just like what is but you know look for content on buzzfeed.com because it's always something fun like here's a bullshit quiz uh i just saw the headline and it's not going up what's going on um like pick your favorite holiday things and i'll tell you which role you play in your friend group well what friend group fuck wait is my laptop not charging my mom likes it when I talk I don't know I'm just bringing her up because I talked to her about the podcast a lot she's like I like it when it make when you make it people feel like they're in the room with you my charger's being finicky there we go

let's just do this quiz did I finish the topics I want to talk about yeah that was like a wholesome conversation um I think that's it today's was yeah today was just like a wash. I'm here doing this episode. Now I'm doing a quiz. Okay. Oh no, we're not going to do this. It's like pick the, like you, you guys can't see the quiz, like the pictures. I literally had to pick out of a list of like gingerbread houses and pick my favorite one. You guys can't see that. Um, Oh, good news guys. I'm going to do it live right now. I don't care. I don't, I don't edit this we're gonna do it live right now uh if you want to see behind the scenes Jacqueline Monroe show content go over to patreon.com slash tjms uh I'm thinking about

doing a video on behind the scenes like when I'm um uploading like what it looks like to sit here and do this I don't know but I'm uploading it right now the episode from yesterday I'm gonna call it uh talks with grandma wait no I think talks with grandma grandma's house no talks with grandma I like that talks with grandma I might change it but I just gotta get this up uh happy this is what I do I go happy what was yesterday Wednesday you guys are we're just hanging out we're besties you're at my house you're just hanging out with me narrating what i'm doing patreon.com slash i add the patreon to the show notes and then i add my brother's soundcloud uh shout out rob mon on soundcloud he did my intro music so i put him

in the show notes season one season two starts in 2021 i'm breaking the seasons in between or between um like each year a new season will start full content clean or explicit i always do explicit it, and it should be ready to go. I should be able to publish it. It won't let me publish it. Guys, save as draft. Okay, this is, like, this is, like, a little intermission. I'm sorry, but I'm gonna, I gotta get this done. Um, shit. BuzzFeed quizzes. Let's find a different one. Um, what are you guys doing for Christmas? Are you guys, like, I don't think we're having Christmas this year. I was talking to my grandma and grandpa yesterday, and they're, like, I don't think we're going to do it. Actually life update. One of my cousins has COVID and her whole entire

family is quarantining until I think the 27th. So they're not going to even be able to come to Christmas or do anything. Um, let's just do a food quiz here. I'm just pulling shit up. Um, yeah, let's talk about food. I haven't talked about like desserts and like cool food in a while. I don't know. It just says desserts. That's why I said desserts right here. Um, you guys, we got a big, we got a big plan for episode 100. My sister and I are doing something. So two days, tomorrow's 99. So what is it? Uh, Saturday episode 100 is dropping and we're going to have fun. Okay. Let's just do this quiz. Come on load. Um, um, my stalling is this boring did I finish talking about my day I did I did Jacqueline okay now I gotta check hold on one

thing oh my sister's quote yesterday I never I never told you guys this on the podcast I asked my mom for a quote and I asked my sister for a quote like random to tell like just something to tell you guys my sister's quote is I had to miss like a week of school because my upper lip was burned off and my mom's my mom's quote was stop saying fuck she doesn't like when I say fuck yeah my sister was talking about waxing your upper lip in high school and she had to miss like a week of school because it ripped off the skin really bad I think I remember that I just shave it I found myself in the shower today like I've never done this this is behind the scenes being a girl 101 uh I found myself shaving like I had a new razor uh it was my mom's

because I didn't pack any I like borrowed them from her because she has like a pack of fresh razors so I was like before I shave anything I'm gonna shave my stash and I like got the thing wet I didn't even look in the mirror I had no mirror I'm just like took like a second just on the corners of my lip I only get like a couple hairs there and then there's like peach fuzz but uh that was a risk I just like went in blind and I got the razor wet normally I do it dry like I dry shave it uh and anyways there's a little fun fact of today oh yeah I did like a I did like um after my mom left who um she like left for her trip I washed my hair I did like a self-care morning I hate that term I did like a pamper myself morning freshened up I wore like all

white sweats today just feeling like a little fresh I don't know you know what I mean it felt good okay let's just let's just do this order desserts from different chain restaurants and we'll tell you which appetizer you should you should try I'm honestly deserted out I've been eating so much shit lately I don't even want to look at this stuff oh my god oh okay this is from Applebee's oh fuck this shit I don't want it this is like tacky brownie bite blue ribbon brownie I mean it's the same shit these are literally the same all of these desserts I'm looking at the pictures will look exactly the same it's a scoop of ice cream a chocolate cake looking thing next to it and a drizzle of chocolate on top they all look exactly the same we got a brownie bite blue

ribbon brownie. It's literally the brownie bite, but with an extra scoop of ice cream and then an extra brownie. So it's like the, it's not a bite. It's like the, it's like a bigger version. Oh, I hate names like this. This is like diners, drive-ins and dives. This is the triple chocolate meltdown. That's like a lava cake. You know, everyone orders that shit for dessert in my family. And then the final one is a sizzling. This is some Guy Fieri shit. sizzling caramel apple blondie um I'm just gonna go with the fucking lava cake I'm I don't give a shit it sounds fine I don't think that the apple caramel thing would be probably they're all good it's dessert it's all good I'm gonna go with the lava cake yeah okay now I'm going to Buffalo

Wild Wings so we were just at Applebee's I'm getting in the car going to Apple or I'm going to Buffalo Wild Wings which I've never been to before fun fact uh that was like a big red flag to me if a guy asked me out on a date to Buffalo Wild Wings I always said no there was one in college and it was like come out to wing Wednesday let's go get wings I'm like fuck that shit I'm not sticking wings in my mouth for like a first date no thanks I'm just kidding it was just like a couple times that happened and it's like a particular person that would ask me to go there and I was just triggered I was like nope okay I don't know why am I I could tell college stories for days I don't really talk about college anymore because it's like the past I don't want to like

bring up the past college glory days but it was a great time um I went to Washington State if you're curious okay we're at Buffalo Wild Wings I'm getting either cheesecake okay oh my god chocolate fudge cake chocolate fudge cake loaded ice cream or none I'm not getting dessert i'm saying none i'm just being that bitch tonight i'm a little angsty about this i feel like you know i'm a i'm just like not feeling this quiz and i'm being negative but we're gonna do it together now i'm at the fucking cheesecake factory and if you know anything about the cheesecake factory you know that the last time i was in hawaii i told the girl at the front desk for disrespecting my mom to fuck off and we left after i said fuck i'm like literally i told her

to fuck off and we left we walked out because she disrespected my mom and i was like that's not okay she was being rude she was about my age and I just told her off and we left so I never I've literally never been the Cheesecake Factory in my life so I actually can't say that I ordered takeout on a date uh earlier this year from the Cheesecake Factory fuck I just got a flashback god damn it okay pick a Cheesecake Factory dessert okay I'm just going carrot cake I if there's ever carrot cake on the on the as an option I'm getting it the other ones were like birthday cake hot fudge sundae okay I'm not 92 and tiramisu my mom would get tiramisu she loves like she's she loves tiramisu

I'm a carrot cake bitch I think that's my favorite of all time it depends on like where you get it but it's so good pick now we're going to Chili's okay we just ubered to Chili's we're getting this is so boring I'm gonna but there's this is so long wait how many are left is this a poor use of time on a podcast is this an embarrassment to the Jocko Monroe show that I'm actually doing this for real right now okay we're at Chili's I'm getting a skillet chocolate chip cookie cheesecake or a molten chocolate I'm just getting the skillet okay it looks great no you know what fuck it I'm getting none okay I bet that that's like dry and shitty inside I don't want it okay now we're at Cracker Barrel I'm depressed is that the is cracker is that the buffet place

Cracker Barrel Cracker Barrel oh I feel like a diabetic I can't even look at this apple pecan streusel pie fruit cobbler chocolate chip cookies are double fudge coca-cola cake what the fuck is coca-cola cake I'm staring at my can of diet coke like how the fuck do you turn into cake um I gotta go chocolate chip cookies on base I just like the simplicity it's like a perfect food it doesn't need any just chocolate chip cookies I'm figuring out what's this quiz about like I'm picking desserts to figure out what which like what role I play in a friend group so this is important information for you guys to know pick a TGI Friday's dessert I've never even been there let's see um carlo's bakery rainbow cake does tgi fridays have a bakery like carlo's bakery inside

tgi they make it like a cool thing carlo in the back in the bakery he's got a rainbow cake brownie obsession oh man cinnabon caramel pecan cheesecake and dessert platter I want that rainbow cake Carlo looks like a that that looks good I don't know I want to be different fuck we're olive garden god damn it pick an olive garden dessert black thai mousse cake dolcini dolcini water medallion donut tortilla I'm going with fucking black thai I'm a black tie bitch black tie mousse cake okay pick a red lobster dessert god damn i've never been to a red lobster i don't trust that lobster fuck that shit pick a red lobster dessert i'm going key lime pie i don't give a fuck i love key lime pie you never see key lime pie on the menu and when you do you

kind of want it right i don't know uh pick a cheddars dessert what's cheddars is that like a TGI Fridays type of, there's so many guys. Okay. Can we just, I could talk about these, this, uh, these restaurant chains. I mean, let's just list them off here. I'm at Cheddar's right now. I've never heard of it. Red Lobster, Olive Garden, TGI Fridays, Cracker Barrel, Chili's, Cheesecake Factory. Oh, that's a little more upscale. Buffalo Wild Wings. Applebee's. It's just like a depression. Okay. I'm going to say that word a lot around the house. My sister and I, there's a word maybe she'll explain it when she's on the show we all say it like this potential got potential potential it's like it's a it's a fun fucking word we say potential

and i've been saying lately depression like when she's in bed this morning wearing her uh ice pack on her head looking like shit she was so like i think she had a migraine really bad i was like because she just looked like she had like depression depression but like these kind of places i just think of like fucking okay i don't mean to be like this but i gotta be like this this is like people of walmart uh vibes uh that dine here on a regular basis like who the fuck goes to cracker barrel what kind of i don't know okay so not to be offensive but to be if you know what I mean? It's just like middle of America chain, chain restaurants, people, um, actually all over America. These are fucking everywhere, but I don't, I don't hate on it.

I just think it's like, it's a whole vibe, like the aesthetic of these restaurants. I don't know. Uh, pick a cheddar's dessert. Um, none, uh, hot fudge Sunday. No, that looks terrible. These it's like cheesecake. That looks, I mean, they're all like decent. Cheddar's legendary monster cookie I've been talking about these fucking desserts for too long I'm going none I want to see what none gets me because I've been answering that for all the ones that have that as an option okay and finally finally we're almost we're almost there finally pick a P.F. Chang's dessert okay these look upscale I think we just went to a four-star restaurant looking at these pictures I've heard of P.F. Chang's actually there's one in La Jolla

I always drive by, by my gym, is it P.F. Chang's, there's, like, horses, giant horses, statue, horse statues, horse statues, statues outside, okay, we got, first dessert, the great wall of chocolate, okay, it's, like, got 22 layers of chocolate cake on it, uh, New York style cheesecake, banana spring rolls, don't do that, just don't do that, Vietnamese chocolate loft cake, I'm going on the gray wall of chocolate because that's a badass name oh my god wait this isn't the this is not the quiz I thought I was taking god damn it I feel like I just wasted literally episode 98 I just wasted like half of your fucking episode doing this shit to figure out the answer I got based on my choices was mozzarella sticks this makes zero sense the title of this quiz was

choose chain restaurant desserts and get app and order desserts from different chain restaurants and we'll tell you which appetizer you should try like how does this make any sense I feel like this is the dumbest quiz I've ever taken it makes no sense like pick out some dessert and we'll tell you to try an appetizer I got mozzarella sticks there's nothing better than fried cheese like god i just literally this is the reflection i have for the show right now i just wasted like i don't know 20 minutes for nothing was that oh god damn it i thought i was figuring out which role in a friend group group i play based on my dessert choices um let's see the comments

all of these look so sweet just looking at them gave me cavities i got notches but i do want some of those food options being so hungry like these fucking sad people who comments on buzzfeed.com um damn now low-key hungry this shit's got me hungry as fuck mozzarella sticks there's really nothing better than fried cheese never had them are they good are you kidding me I had a cheese stick today at my mom's house she's got those string cheese uh she got I think she got them at Costco those like classic string cheese like green wrapper that you got as a kid in your lunchbox and I'm still peeling that off like you know how I see my mommy my mom eat it and she bites it and I'm like I just can't do it

I have to peel it. Anyways, it's good stuff. I like, I like a little string cheese. Um, I don't know. Was that a waste of your fucking time? I feel really bad about this episode. I shouldn't do that. I shouldn't second guess myself.

I should just own it. That was a great episode. I'm really glad I just did that quiz. What else can I talk about? Dude, Pfizer, something's going on with Pfizer and the vaccine. Um, they're getting it like expedited or whatever the fuck. uh approved for emergency use or some shit shout out Pfizer um but that's going on I talked yesterday about Texas suing the battleground states I don't really know what's going on with

that um what else is going on in the world I know there's a lot of shit I don't know about um i saw this headline no i don't want to bring it up i don't want to let me just check a quick browse on my twitter just see the news shit um dk metcalf what are you doing he's posting shit okay shout out dk metcalf um on twitter right now i tweet sometimes um ah what did my whoop shop say I did today for nap time did it catch up yet 52 minutes that's a good nap that's what I thought about an hour um how much rem did I get six minutes of rem sleep okay that's cool uh uh dude episode 102 days it's gonna be lit almost done with my diet it's getting dark out

okay advisory panel endorses Pfizer vaccine paving way for FDA approval it's kind of like what i thought okay um biden picks more obama veterans for key roles okay cool don't care next we got u.s to shatter record for billion dollar climate disasters in 2020. Okay. You want to talk about food again? Here's the top 20 recipes of 2020. Oh, fucking A. First one, zucchini curly fries. Go fuck yourself. Just don't make them like that. Just eat regular fries. Slow cooker mushroom soup with sherry. No. Carrot soup. No. melting potatoes. What is that? What looks good on this list? Let me just pull something out here. Um, nothing's like Italian and good on here. Everything's not like I need Italian

food, but it's all like, it's just a bunch of cauliflower crusted shit. Cauliflower casserole. like everyone's on a low carb thing okay so I'm getting off that here's another headline um oh fuck guys I don't know what's going on with uh Space Force I kind of got on a rabbit hole a little bit about the sixth branch of the military called Space Force I think it started in 2018 or got like basically i saw this tiktok of course i saw a tiktok that was like not only like we're now going to be like putting like the military there's gonna be this like space is gonna have military um like monitoring or whatever the fuck like there's gonna be military in this in space to fight the aliens the potential aliens on this plane i don't

know. I just saw something. It was like space force. Is it? I don't. Okay. What am I trying to say? Let me go to the Instagram page. Just hanging out, sitting back 42 degrees here. I'm out running. Cool. I'm just tapping around my phone. Um, yeah. Space force. Oh, uh, the rocket it exploded yesterday. SpaceX launch. If you never try, you'll never know or whatever this quote is. You got to fail before you succeed. Yeah. So I'm looking here on the first post, us.spaceforce is the Instagram page. It doesn't seem like an official Instagram, but there's a lot of content on it that seems official. Like the posts themselves are official but it doesn't i don't know so in june 18th 2018 united states of america

department of the space force there's like 18 comments and it says um okay here's a thing by trump it is not enough to merely have an american presence in space we must have American dominance in space so important very importantly I'm here it's interesting like we have to have an American dominance

in space so I never knew the reason I'm bringing this up is because I saw a tick talk about it and then I started looking on this Instagram like oh shit this is like a branch of the military I've never like it's a new thing I don't know because okay

and this is tied into the whole like the guy from some country i think in europe i don't know or russia who came out talked about aliens uh earlier this week and said that donald trump is aware of it and the aliens aren't aren't showing themselves because they don't think and like the human like civilization is ready for them to be seen and known about so i don't know and so then like i saw the person being like whoa two years ago donald trump started space force so there's going to be military in space to fight the aliens you know how people tied or connect the dots i don't know do you guys know anything about this it's kind of interesting it kind of gives me star trek vibes like the um logo the space force force logo kind of looks like star trek actually it's

kind of wait let me look at the star trek logo um star trek it's like a triangle looking thing um yeah it's kind of similar the star trek ones were rounded it's like the same vibe though um what's like a recent post this is interesting to you guys i don't know i like i just never knew about this so the US Space Force has created a unit dedicated solely to orbital welfare and it includes the secret experimental x-378 space plane okay and they posted that November 8th it seems like they're working together with SpaceX obviously I feel like that's like they're make sense they're together I don't know anyways saw

that yesterday there's a life update Jacqueline saw something about Space Force I don't know much about it but here now you can go look for yourself I don't know I should wrap this up um I hope you're having a great December so far uh I could be like it's times are so strange now everything's different how are you doing you know I could like go on to that okay here's where I'm at my mom would like me she would probably be proud of me or excited that I say this there comes a point in time or there needs like how do I say this at some point you have to accept the fact that times are different shit's weird people are masking up there's a virus and you

have to march forward and try to like operate as like normal to like what you were doing before all this shit as possible because I think what happened to me this year is I kind of fell in a negative like well obviously mental health shit depression but I just like wasn't operating and and living as a as productive and as efficient as and as normal as like the fact I told you guys last month that I would like stay in my house for three days in a row like that's not normal that's not cool I shouldn't be like joking about it like that's not something I'm excited about I'm like Jacqueline you should be waking up you should be getting active going out on a walk going to the gym whatever well you know things are weird in California now with that again but uh you should

be going and sitting out outside at restaurants more often hanging out with people uh putting your laptop uh on a coffee shop table somewhere like go to a place with wi-fi and work somewhere outside of your apartment like get get out there do things um you know I'm proud of the fact like at least I went to the beach a lot excuse me I went to the beach and like enjoyed that this year but I don't know. I just like, didn't put myself out in public. And, uh, I felt like I was just like me and my apartment doing, I don't know. And now I'm just like ready to go back and be involved in the community and like do shit. And I do want to find, I know my mom would like to hear this too. And this is not just because my mom's listening. It's like, I need to volunteer.

I need to find something to do. I don't know, once a month, once a week, whatever, and get out and help people and I have a soft spot for the homeless so maybe I work at the like or the food donation center I think it's called Feeding San Diego I think they have a a way I could help out so whatever I'm just excited I'm sick and tired this is the thing I'm like this is my audio diary part of the episode where I'm kind of like writing about or thinking about what I want to work on and improve with myself um I think I'm getting sick and tired of my like the default setting of me that goes into like that introverted just like boring phase of like I can just literally live by myself be happy podcast work remote not really do much or interact very many people and be fine

like I don't freak out by that I think it's or I don't I know that was like a temporary 2020 thing but I don't want to get comfortable with that because I think it's not good for me I need to be around people and new ideas and more like shit going on so I'm excited I'm just like ready to put this year in the past and uh like I know it's gonna still be weird next year but I want to really like go forward with like hi guys I'm gonna go out in the world and be cool again and not just this little hermit crab that's been trying to figure herself out all year um because I'm there like I'm on the launch pad I told you guys this yesterday I feel like I'm there I'm ready to go to the next level uh and stop being a sad little depressed wimp I don't know it's not

who I am I'm really glad it happened I'm thankful for my struggle because I had a breakthrough okay that's what that's all about you go through something hard and you come out the other side a better person stronger person and um times tick you know clocks ticking you know the more I sit and overthink it the more I sit and stew about it it's just not it's not healthy it's not it's not useful to do that so I'm gonna just like I don't know just go out and do things okay what am I saying um happy Thursday hope you had a great day uh hope work's going well hope your family's healthy someday this won't be the way it is you know I don't want to go back to the COVID shit but like it's uh it's what you make it really and uh just focus on effort not the

end result I'm telling myself that right now focus on the effort and uh one day after all those little baby steps you'll get to where you want to be and that's how that works episode 98 that's all I got free today. Uh, once again, you can go over to patreon.com. Why do I have to announce it like that? Patreon.com slash TJMS to support the show. Uh, I'm doing Friday shout outs now and everyone on Patreon gets access to my exclusive content there. You can go over to the Apple podcast app and leave a review on the show. If you like what you're listening to, go over there and do that. And, uh, you can write something if you want, or you can just like leave one through five stars on the review section. Why do I even, I just, Jacqueline, I'm literally ready to go to

bed again. I'm so, I'm so tired. Okay. Uh, I dunno, follow me on Instagram. That's all I got for you today. I love you guys. Thanks for listening. That was a weird, I don't know why I went there at the end. Okay. Love you. All right. Bye.