The Jordan B. Peterson Podcast - 413. Raised by Thetans in a Galactic Gulag | Aaron Levin-Smtih

Episode Date: January 11, 2024

Dr. Jordan B. Peterson speaks with former-Scientologist and podcaster Aaron Levin-Smith. They explore his upbringing within the “church,” how Scientology entices new members, the basis for Dianetics in Freudian psychology, the religiously inspired twist only found behind multiple paywalls, the higher being known as Xenu, what broke Aaron’s belief, and his now ongoing fight against the manipulation of this still relevant, international cult. Aaron Smith-Levin is a former Scientologist and host of the “Growing Up In Scientology” YouTube channel. He was also a main interviewee on the docu-series “Leah Remini: Scientology and the Aftermath.” Since leaving the cult, he has devoted himself and his career to unmasking the harmful practices and beliefs held by the international religion. This episode was recorded on December 23, 2023  - Links - 2024 tour details can be found here - https://jordanbpeterson.com/events   Peterson Academy https://petersonacademy.com/ For Aaron Levin-Smith: “Growing Up in Scientology” YT Channel https://www.youtube.com/@GrowingUpInScientology/videos 

Hello, everyone. Today I'm talking to Aaron Smith-Levin, and he has a YouTube channel called Growing Up in Scientology, where he discusses, as he might guess, growing up in Scientology. But he left the organization after a number of decades. And we talked a fair bit about why he did that, why he came to the realization that this was a sterile root. But more importantly, the conversation allowed us to delve into a problem that we all face, which is the fundamental problem of distinguishing truth from falsehood, especially organized falsehood.

The difficulty that we face in determining what organizations, which are clearly necessary, can be trusted, what metaphysics are reliable, how you distinguish bitter fruit from sweet fruit in that regard or separate wheat from chaff. And so our discussion is very interesting in that regard, enabled us to take those abstract considerations and to nail them down to something very specific, you know, the events of Aaron's own life and the particular cult-like nature of Scientology, which is what it called among many. And so, well, welcome aboard for the trip. I've been writing a fair bit in this new book I'm finishing up. It's called We Who Resideth With God. It'll be the subject of my next tour. I've been writing a lot about the

manner in which we come to distinguish truth from falsehood in general in our lives in the scientific enterprise and then let's say in matters of faith, you know, now the scientist types would say, well, all faith is delusional, but I'm afraid we can't move forward without faith, so that's not a helpful objection. But it does raise the fact that that is an objection at all indicates the existence of a very serious underlying problem, which is, well, how do we distinguish truth from falsehood, especially in relationship to religious claims, which, in some sense, by definition, are amenable to scientific analysis or proof. One answer is we just throw out the entire religious domain. That's actually not even technically possible.

So I thought it'd be interesting to talk to you today about Scientology specifically, because I think that it's not unreasonable whatsoever to regard it as an outright cult. And that will enable us to use a very specific example to delve into a more general problem, which is how do you separate wheat from jaff or bitter fruit from good fruit in the pursuit of the truth, or even what is the truth. It's always better to ground and abstract analysis in something concrete and real. So talking to you about your experiences and what you've learned should enable us to get a lot of ways in this discussion. Then we can more broadly flesh it out into the issue of truth versus falsehood and issues of faith. So let's start right at the beginning.

Why don't we just, why don't you tell everybody a little bit about yourself personally, about where you come from, about your background, your employment, let everybody get to know you a bit, and then we'll turn to the Scientology issue more specifically. I'll do my best. How about I start from present time, and then I backfill a little bit. Sure.

So one of the things I spend most of my time on right now is my YouTube channel, Growing Up in Scientology. And so that alludes to the fact that I was essentially born and raised in Scientology. I was actually four years old when my mom got into Scientology. And so that alludes to the fact that I was essentially born and raised in Scientology. I was actually four years old when my mom got into Scientology as a single mom of two young boys.

And I was 12 years old, maybe just 13 years old, when I was taken out of school and started working for Scientology full time. Full time, not day job. 100 hours a week, 110 hours a week. And so my first employment history was Scientology. And I've had employment history. After getting into Scientology, I've

had employment history after leaving Scientology. But just probably most relevant to the conversation that we're having is, you know, by the time I was 30 years old, I'd spent half my life working for Scientology as a staff member and what they call a C organization member. Those are the guys who signed the billion year contracts. So yeah, I mean, we can go deeper in that if you want,

but that's the, that's the nutshell. Well, okay, I think there's two directions we could go there. The first is, well, let's start when you were four, even. So, what do you think it was that attracted your mother to Scientology? Like you said, she was a single mother, and so it's easy for single mothers to be preyed upon because they're quite isolated, generally speaking. And so that's a problem. What do you think and what does she told you about what pulled her in the direction to begin with? And what was her structure of belief for background, you know, say metaphysically before the blandishments of Scientology were laid out in front of her? So she was raised a Christian, she was raised in a very religious household, going to church every Sunday. I don't know exactly to what degree she would describe herself as having

been a true believer. But I know the way she's explained it to me, it was just this feeling, this understanding that there is something more, something greater, something outside ourselves, but not necessarily having bought in to the traditional religious story. She always, there was that. She was meant for something greater. She was here for some reason. There was some greater value to life

than is a, you know, just a parent in this mortal realm. And for her, Scientology answered that question that, you know, it filled that hole. Whatever shape that hole was, it was a Scientology shape that question. It filled that hole. Whatever shape that hole was, it was a Scientology shape to all apparently. She was introduced to Scientology by a woman her same age, roughly, who had just had her own son just a few weeks before my brother and I were born.

She was not a single mother, but that relationship between my mom and this woman named Cheryl who got her into Scientology, that's how my mom was introduced, was through her friend Cheryl. That's how most people are introduced to Scientology, is through some friend or associate, you know, business associates or acquaintance or something like that. Now, the thing about Scientology, particularly at the lower levels, is Scientology is something that builds itself as requiring no belief, no faith. Scientology does not see itself as a faith, even though it does see itself as a religion. And the distinction between those things, if there is one, might be an interesting thing

for us to discuss. But Scientologists do not believe that you have to believe in Scientology. They believe it is a technology. It is something you apply. It can be measured. The results can be measured. They have this device, the emitter, that they believe assists with this measurement. And so it's this kind of two-sided coin where my mom's looking for some greater meaning,

looking for some greater purpose, looking for a way to help others. Scientology doesn't, you know, she comes across Scientology and she goes, oh, it's something that will give me greater purpose and greater meaning, but isn't asking me to believe in X, Y, and Z. We can just do. There's a very kind of like self-helpy applied practical aspect to Scientology, which by the way is why they call themselves an applied religious philosophy, is how a Scientologist would describe Scientology. Okay, well, there's a bunch of things to delve into there. So, so let's list out some of them and we can pursue them. So your mother was raised religiously, and so there's two interpretations of

that on in the realm of possibility, the spring to mind. And one is that that prepared her to be subsumed into an alternate cult, right? Because you might say, well, because she was released in a religious family, she was in the belief that you should turn to some sort of religious belief system was inculcated into her. should turn to some sort of religious belief system was inculcated into her. You could also say that she needed that initial religious belief like everyone does, but she lacked something that she required, which is something you alluded to, which is the sense not only of a higher purpose that's specified for her, but a higher purpose that can be practically worked towards. And then you also mentioned, and this has more broad implications,

that Scientology was attractive to her because it claimed at least that the outset to be part of the technological enterprise, the scientific enterprise, you might say, that you didn't need faith. There was a technology that was at hand, it had that, at least the facade of scientific acceptability.

We can talk about the emeters in a while, and that it was practical. And so it seems to me that the most logical conclusion with regard to your mother isn't so much that her previous religious training had prepared her to be subsumed into a cult, but that the lack, that the relax in her previous religious training, for example, the specification of a particular destiny for her and the provision of practical, what would you say, practical guidelines for how she might act to bring the world into higher harmony. All of that was attractive to her. Does that seem, does that seem about right? Yeah, I would agree with that.

Okay, okay. And we'll talk about the emeter from my understanding of the emeter is that it's a galvanometer. And of course, that measures skin conducts and changes in people's hands. And, you know, when I did my PhD, we used a galvanometer, essentially, it was a bit more sophisticated, but same basic idea, back in the 1960s, and thereabouts, this was done even before then, I think reaching all the way back to the 1920s, it was shown that, you know, you could ask people questions, well, they were having the skin conductance of their skin surfaces, usually their fingers measured. And if something produces emotional arousal when it's touched upon, your skin conducts increases because you sweat a little bit and that makes electricity flow more easily.

And so you can use galvanometers to get at underlying complexes. And I know that the Scientologists have capitalized on that idea and the overlap between what they do with the emitter if I understand it properly and what psychophysiologists have capitalized on that idea and the overlap between what they do with the e-meter if I understand it properly and what Psychophysiologists have done for a hundred years with the galvanometer also adds a layer of scientific credibility to it So you know, and there is some utility in trying to get to the bottom of things So so let's unpack that a bit later. Okay, so now she got Introduced invited let's say, by a friend. Now, if you're an avid adherent of the Scientology discipline, let's say, or cult,

is it incumbent on you to try to bring other people into the faith and how is it or into the enterprise? How is it that that's done and how is that also developed and fostered or trained? So it's something that's highly encouraged. It's not mandatory, it's not required. There's an incentive to do it because when you bring someone into Scientology, you're called their field staff member, their FSM,

and that person is called your selectee. And as an FSM, you get 10 or 15% commission on every dollar that person pays to Scientology for courses or auditing or straight donations. So there's a financial incentive to bring people into Scientology in addition to the incentive. Right, so there's a pyramid. Is there a pyramid scheme element of that, or does it only go to one person? Like if your person brings in more people,

is that also a benefit to you? It's a one level, it's one level deep. So you don't get overrides on your downline. You only get credit for the people you directly bring in. And once you bring them in, you have to continue to be sort of their personal coach and mentor on their way up Scientology's bridge to total freedom or another Scientologist can swoop in and become that person's FSM and get commissions for them.

So obviously so there's a competition for that as well in ordinary competition. Yes, it's definitely a zero sum game and okay, let's start out by giving the devil is due. Obviously, your mother was attracted by this, and it's reasonable to assume that by hooker by crook, something that was genuine, or at least significantly attractive, was offered to her. What do you think to her. What do you think Scientology did for her that filled the void that that had opened up inside of her? At the lower level, Scientology gives you an explanation for what's wrong with you that or anything that you could in an insecure way feel is wrong with you. Indecisiveness, not living up to your full potential, self-doubt, insecurity, all these things, that the cause of this is called the reactive mind.

And that's kind of Elrond Hubbard's version of the 40-in subconscious. And that the reactive mind is a collection of all the recordings of pain and unconsciousness. And these recordings are called engrams. And these engrams compose your reactive mind. And you're not to blame for the fact that you have a reactive mind. It's not your fault. The engrams are the source of all of this wrongness and negativity. And Scientology and Dianetics give you the tools to resolve your reactive mind.

So there's an attractiveness to this, which is saying, you're someone who always has wanted to do better than how you've been doing. This thing called your reactive mind is holding you back. It's not your fault. And we have the technology through our procedures and our processes. We can get rid of your reactive mind and that will leave you once you shed your reactive mind, that basically leaves you as a perfect computing, analyzing, you'll leave you with a perfectly computing

and analyzing mind. That's the pitch in the beginning. So it's kind of solving a lot of problems at once and shifting responsibility to something outside of yourself. Right, now is that clearing? Yes, the procedure of getting rid of your reactive mind is called clearing. And then you achieve the state of clear. And if you ever hear Scientologists say our goal is to clear the planet, that's actually what they

mean. It's getting the majority of the population of Earth up to Scientology state of clear. Okay. Okay. So we're going to give the devil his due on that front too. So you know, obviously Hubbard pulled his ideas from the broader like intellectual body that was popular and developing during his time and all of what you just described is analogous to psychodynamic complex theory. And so the and you can see, so let me give you an example of that. So, if you're sitting with a client and they communicated dream to you and you want to analyze the dream, you can look for corresponding literary motifs, the same way you would when you're trying to understand any story and analyze it thinking of a dream is a story. But the association technique that Freud developed is predicated on the idea that.

You can flesh out the meaning of a dream or any thought for that matter any thought by analyzing the pattern of associations that surround that thought or story. So for example, if there's an image in a dream, you know, imagine that you were dreaming and you dreamt that you pulled a boot out of a rampaging river and there was a diamond inside of it. You know, the first thing I would ask you is, well, what comes to mind? And you have to watch this. What comes to mind when you think of a river? And then maybe personal tell you a couple of stories about a river, and then you can ask them about a boot, and you can ask them what a diamond means. And you try to flesh out the whole expanse of ideas that surrounds those images. And what you're doing is investigating the structure of the associated ideas that gave rise to the images to begin with. And what you're doing is investigating the structure of the associated ideas that

gave rise to the images to begin with. And what you find when you do that is that, and Freud laid this out first, is that if you pursue that with enough seriousness, you'll find something at the bottom of it that's often an unsolved problem, and that would be, so the end-grams are memories. That's a good way of thinking about them. And there are obstacles to people's progress that are un- implicit assumptions that they bring to bear about particular situations that are invisible impediments to their progress. So, for example, I had a client who had a very traumatic experience in a hospital when she was about five.

She fell into the hands of a... She had kind of a dreadful accident. She was in a shopping cart that actually rolled down a hill and it dumped her and heard her quite badly. And when she was put in the hospital, she fell into the hands of a very sadistic nurse who was kind of tormenting her behind the scenes. And at that time, the hospitals didn't let parents visit because they felt that the continual introduction

of a parent in this separation was harder on children than just the absence of the parents, which is an absolutely preposterous absurd and cruel theory. But that was the case. And so she felt simultaneously betrayed, hurt, betrayed, and then she fell into the hands of this sadistic nurse. And so when we were investigating some of the dream imagery associated with her memories, that story arose. and she'd actually developed an entire complex of paranoia and suspicion in relationship to all establishments of authority. Because when she was five, she had been betrayed by her parents, who abandoned her in the hospital.

That's how she felt when she was five. And then, of course, she fell into the hands of this psychopathic nurse, who is basically torturing her behind the scenes. And so it's often the case that, so what happened to her as a consequence of that was that because she developed such a deep distrust of institutions, every time she was involved with an institution, she got herself in trouble. Because she was, you know, she was like a little puppy that growled when someone leaned down to pet it because it had been kicked too many times. Her paranoia just got her in constant trouble with institutions and of course that fostered

her belief that institutions were basically bad news. The reason I'm going through all that is because the notion that there are invisible impediments to your progress that are nested inside your missystems of memory, that's true. And it's also true that clearing those, now you don't clear them just by recognizing them, you clear them by reconfiguring them, you know, so with her what we did was a pretty lengthy analysis of under what conditions a mature peep person would trust institutions and under what conditions you should be skeptical. We try to generate a more mature viewpoint of institutions per se rather than this reflexive distrust which was too unsophisticated and low resolution. Now the reason I went through all that is because that explanation is actually

through all that is because that explanation is actually quite credible. And even the alliance of the Galvanometer with that explanation, that's derived directly from early psychoanelitic work in the 1920s because that's when all that started. And psychologists, social psychologists, and personality psychologists, psychophysiologists still use psychophysiological measurements of various sorts to infer the existence of these complexes that lurk behind the scenes. It's very integral part of psychology. So you can understand, well, first of all, where those ideas actually came from, but even more importantly, why they would be attractive to people. Now, you added another thing that was of interest. Now, I want to ask you more about this. You said that the Scientologists also insist that this isn't your fault. Now, the classic Christian attitude towards your complex of problems is that the degree to which it's your fault is open for dispute.

So let me give you an example of that. So imagine that you have a mother who's kind of overbearing and overprotective. And you're a six year old kid and you didn't do your homework one day and so you decide to feign illness to skip school. And your mother who's overbearing and overprotective also hasn't pursued her

own life, and she's lo and so you tell her she's you're sick, but you're not. And she doesn't think you are, but she is just as happy if you're at home. And so you might say, well, that's the mother's fault because she's so damn overbearing, but it's also to some degree the kids fault because he's looking for an easy out. And so, and this is what you do in good psychotherapy too, you know, like if I found out that you had a complex, the first thing I'd try to do is think, okay, well, what were the situational conditions that gave rise to that? Like maybe you had a very overbearing father, but I'd also want to find out, well, what temptations did you fall prey to, let's say, that increased the probability that you would develop that complex for reasons of your

own? Those are called secondary gains. So, for example, this is the secondary gain issue. I'm curious about. You said that these, what did you call them? Endgrams. These endgrams, these endgrams in the reactive mind, they're not your fault. See, you can see why that would be attractive, right?

Because it enables you to place the responsibility for your suffering on someone else's, on someone or something else. And so I'm wondering what do you think about that? Like is that one of the things about Scientology that's particularly manipulative or there's a mercy in it, you know, and I mean lots of people are abused by their parents and abused by society and it's not surprising their hurt and it's not exactly their fault. So what do you think about that? The appeal and the attractiveness of being told that everything that's wrong with you is because of this thing and you are not to blame for this thing. The attractiveness of that is why that is the message Scientology gives you at the because of this thing, and you are not to blame for this thing.

The attractiveness of that is why that is the message Scientology gives you at the introductory lower levels. That's so it's the bait. The switch is that as you progress in Scientology, you come to realize that actually, as a spiritual being, everything that happens to you, by you, by others, to others is actually your fault. And to assume full responsibility, you have to understand how you are actually the prime cause for everything that has ever happened, including happened to you. And so this is the difference

between dienetics and Scientology, actually. Dienetics is supposed to be a mental science and it's supposed to be the process of getting rid of these engrams. And then fast forward a couple of years after everyone started dienetics and then he started pursuing the spiritual angle, the religion angle. And so instead of trying to recall

moments of pain and unconsciousness as early as prenatal incidents in the womb, all of a sudden people remembering painful incidents of pain and unconsciousness from previous lives. And that opened the door to, oh, previous lives, what's happening here, the introduction of an immortal spiritual being.

And then El Runhavard continued on with the religion angle and said, well, actually, as a spiritual being, you were the one creating your own reactive mind. And once you've gotten rid of your own reactive mind, Elrond Hubbard introduces you to the confidential upper-level materials, which is, by the way, you as a spiritual being, in Scientology, they call you a Thayton. You have now gotten rid of your own reactive mind.

But now, the reason why there's still things wrong with you is you have tens of thousands of other Thetans, spiritual beings stuck to you as parasites, as entities on your body, all over your body, and those beings all have their own reactive mind. And those beings are through some sort of spiritual connection, projecting onto you. You are experiencing their pains. You are experiencing their neuroses, psychoses, whatever, you know, anything that could be wrong with you. And so now you have to go through a years-long process of telepathically counseling using the Scientology procedures. These entities, these beings, these statins

to basically exercise them off of your body, wake them up so that they'll realize who they are, what they are, and go and pick up a new body at the local maternity ward, and grow up to be a cleared individual and likely join Scientology. So this idea of getting rid of your reactive mind is something that's introduced to you at the very lowest levels and applies all the way up to the highest levels. It just switches from getting rid of your own

reactive mind to getting rid of these entities reactive minds. Okay, okay. So let me take that apart in a couple of ways. So the first question I have there is, how is the switch from it's not your fault to it's your responsibility? How does that come about? And what's the rationale for that? It comes about when you introduce the immortal spiritual spiritual, faith in, the immortal spirit into the equation. And Elrond Hubbard's version of that is that about 65 trillion years ago, there was some sort of spiritual big bang when all spiritual entities that exist came into existence. You'd think he would talk a little bit more about this in Scientology, but he really doesn't. And that these spiritual entities are all natively God-like. And I'm not like the Christian God, but like ripping atmospheres off of galaxies, creating planets, destroying planets, creating universes like that each spiritual entity here on Earth,

me, you, we are natively God-like. And we've basically got so bored with our power that we wanted a more interesting game. So we decided to handicap ourselves in various ways and then just choose to forget that we had handicapped ourselves. We used to not even exist in a physical universe. They used to not be a physical universe. So we created a physical universe to have something

that we could then trap ourselves in, to have some sort of a game that we could try to, some sort of a trap that we could try to get out of to have this interesting experience. And without being too long-winded about this, it's basically when L.ond Hubbard makes the jump from just trying to be a poor man's mental healthcare, like a mental therapy,

Dynandix was supposed to be a mental therapy, to going, okay, we're gonna slightly jump off from what we're pretending as a science. Now we're gonna get into religion and spiritual philosophy. And honestly, that was introduced by going into past lives. When you start going into past life memories, you have to talk about some entity that transcends death. And that becomes Scientology's Thayton, the soul, the spirit. Right. Okay. okay. So, there is, he is introducing, part of the reason that cults have such attractiveness is that they do harness archetypal ideas, right?

Eternal religious ideas, that's a good way of thinking about it, or patterns of attention and action that are intrinsic to what it means to be human. And there's clearly the introduction of a karma-like idea there, right, that your destiny is a consequence of your past choices. I mean, that's a tenet of Hinduism, obviously, and that you're playing out the consequences of this infinite array of choices extended over the longest

possible period. And it's also the case that, see, and this is a very tricky issue. So Dostiewski said, for example, that you're not only responsible for everything that you do and that everything that happens to you, but for everything that everyone else does and everything that happens to them, right? And that's, well, that's a doctrine that's associated with the broadest possible conception of responsibility. And then the Buddha, now when the Buddha hits enlightenment under the bow tree,

he's offered the opportunity to stay in paradise forever. But eternally, and he rejects that because he believes that it would be inappropriate for him to occupy the paradise of state unless everyone was brought into the same state. And so in many religious systems, there is a transition point that you might consider equivalent to the initiation into the religious enterprise that brings people beyond their

local concerns, let's say, with their own destiny, and provides them with the insight, let's say, that they are in some sense ultimately responsible, right? And then God only knows what that ultimate responsibility means. Now, Hubbard concretized that and added a level of, you know, a variety of levels of strange narrative. Overlay, including the idea of these statements. But let's take that apart a little bit too. You might think that you have your act together quite well. Let's just assume that you do as a autonomous individual,

but then you're home for Christmas and you go see your family members and there's all sorts of unresolved issues around that within your family. Those are definitely affecting you in all sorts of ways, right? And then in the broader social community, you're going to be interacting with people who are possessed by one idea or another. And that's going to interfere with your movement forward. And so in some sense, there is no redemption for you in an absolute sense in the presence of the pathology, unresolved pathology of the past and of other people. And so it sounds to me like Hubbard concretized that idea with the notion of these fattens. And so you said that they're, he conceptualized them as sort of stuck to you.

And so can you elaborate a little bit more on that? Like did he conceptualize these fainting-like beings? What does it mean that they're intimately associated with you and that you have to also clear them? And how do you go about doing that? This gets into some things that have been widely ridiculed, fairly so, in places like South Park and other places on the internet. So at the lower levels of Scientology, the non-confidential levels,

everyone's considered a Thayton. A Thayton is the primary animator of the body. It is basically the prime mover unmoved. We are I'm a Thayton, you're a Thayton. A Thayton is something you are not something you have. Okay. It's not until you get to the upper confidential levels of Scientology that Elrond Hubbard introduces this concept

of a body Thayton and a Thayton cluster. And his explanation for what this is and how it came about is that, and by the way, Scientologist conception of life in the galaxy is very much like Star Wars. Every planet or every star system has intelligent biological life. Okay. So, Elvarn Hubbard discussed this thing called the Galactic Federation. However, in this galaxy of however many planets that was composed of, there was this politician Hubbard decided to give him a name.

It's Zeno or Zemu. And he decided his system was too populated. So his plan to get rid of, you know, a good portion of the population was to call everybody in for tax audits under false pretence. And then when they showed up to freeze them in glycol and load them up on space planes and fly them to earth and drop these people into volcanoes and blow them up with hydrogen bombs and fly them to earth and drop these people into volcanoes

and blow them up with hydrogen bombs. Now, this incident was so severe. This was such an end-gram for them. And this happened about 76 million years ago. Of course, the volcano's on Earth didn't exist 76 million years ago, but don't think about it too deeply. And this incident for these beings was so,

you can't kill a thing, but it came about as close to it as you could. That has basically left these beings in this half dead, unconscious, crazy state. And they're just blowing in the winds of earth for the last 76 million years. And so then when the human body evolved through natural selection with Scientologists are not opposed to necessarily. Hubbard had his own spin on evolution, but it doesn't necessarily contradict with natural selection.

That when human bodies arrived here on Earth, a fresh set of fatesons that were not exposed to the volcano incident, a fresh set of fates were rounded up and dropped off to this planet so that this planet could be a prison planet. And Elrond Hubbard says that if you're on this planet, you were a troublemaker, you were a rebel, you were an artist, you were someone who couldn't be controlled. The system wanted to, didn't like you, thought you were going to help overthrow the system one day. And you're like, the hippies, spiritual hippies. And so, LRH, I'll run Hubbard

Cray's this explanation that this is a prison planet that we are basically doomed to live life to after life to after lifetime with our memories being wiped in the between lives implant station. And that the fact that we live, we believe we live single lives. For the most part, most people on earth are not spiritual or religious. We believe we came from mud.

Elrond Hubbard was very much, he hates psychiatry, psychiatrists, psychology, Darwin, you know, the anything, anything opposed to spirituality Hubbard, you know, later on claim to be absolutely against. And so, and even Hubbard would even say that the religious people on earth who, according to Hubbard, have been pre-programmed by our alien capture overlords, sort of spiritually programmed to invent these stories, the world's major religions, to sort of keep us occupied and to keep us from realizing that earth is a prison and to keep us from seeking a way to get out of the prison, and that even the religions of earth serve the purpose of helping to keep the population of earth trapped, trapped spiritually.

Why is it, what's the explanation for the motivation to trap us spiritually and to put us on the prison planet? Like what's his so basically he's trying to conjure an up an explanation for the fallen state of man speaking. Let's say from a Judeo Christian perspective. Yeah, and we have to address that because people do feel that, well, people do feel that the world is a veil of tears and that that requires an explanation. So why, and you associated that to some degree with the fact that the the fainting spirits who were trapped on earth were there because they were rebels or because they were artists. So there's, but rebelling against what exactly? So Hubbard doesn't spend a lot of time talking about this. But it would just essentially be that, just think of Earth

as the gulag of the Galactic Federation, anyone who's speaking out, anyone who might become popular enough to gather enough power in society to be a thought leader, an opinion leader, maybe one day leader revolts that anyone that Zeno or anyone likes Zeno, I mean his name could have been Bob for all that it matters, that this is just a dumping ground, a dumping ground, a prison where no one's, people are going to forget that we were ever even sent here. No one will be coming to break us out.

And it's really only El-Ran Hubbard and Dynetics and Scientology that for the first time ever has offered the solution to free everyone from this trap. Now you mentioned Buddha. You might be interested to know that El-Ran Hubbard claimed to have been Buddha and claimed that as Buddha, the state that he thought he created,

and you'll know better than I, is it Bodhi? Is it Bodhi? Do you know? I don't know. Okay, that he thought Bodhi was a permanent state. But afterwards, he learned it was only temporary. And he had to come back and create dionetics and Scientology to create a permanent state

that you would not- Yeah, yeah, okay, that makes sense. Yeah. Well, I'd say. That makes sense. Yeah. Well, I'd say, okay, so it's so interesting, A, because Hubbard was the science fiction writer, and this is such an interesting meld of archetypal religious idea and science fiction presumption. And it is also the case, by the way, that science fiction is very, and fantasy associated with it is extremely popular among atheistic materialists, people like engineers, and the more technically minded. They get a tremendous amount of their religious education and motivation

through science fiction and fantasy. You can see that manifest itself in the absolute cult like followings of shows like Star Trek and Star Wars. And Hubbard was certainly part of that dynamic complex. I mean, I remember how many science fiction books he wrote, but plenty. And so, you can see this, you can see this as a more religious manifestation of a much broader cultural proclivity to turn this kind of mythologizing into something approximating a belief set. And that's certainly the case with Star Trek and Star Wars. You even see it to some degree in the Marvel universe, right, with the notion that the galaxy

is populated by these cosmic beings. It's a recreation of the divine hierarchy of the Greeks and the Romans, essentially, it's a recreation of the same ideas. And so how much? Okay, so I can see the archetypal rationale for many of these ideas. Now, there's a couple of things you touched on that are again temptations, I would say, but they also rely on archetypal structuring. So you don't get initiated into the mysteries

until you've demonstrated your commitment to the religion. That's not something you need to Scientology. And it's confidential. So that makes it into a mystery religion. But there's also a really interesting appeal to narcissism embedded in it. Because from what I've been able to derive from it, you've told me, Hubbard is also essentially describing, he's presenting

to his higher level accolades the possibility that they're truly remarkable divine beings, marked out by their ability to become potentially dangerously charismatic and to pose a threat to the cosmic tyrannical order. And you could imagine that that's also, you know, it's certainly the case that the typical sort of nerdy engineer who's a Star Wars accolite, let's say, likes to style himself in his fantasies in the image of Mark Hamill's character, right? And to look for a mentor like Obi-Wan Kenobi. I mean, and so the notion that Hubbard could, because you might ask yourself, well, what's enticing people farther down the rabbit hole?

Once they've hit that threshold of confidentiality and the higher mysteries are revealed and the revelation that you have this infinite responsibility to set the world right, but that you're also the sort of being that has that capacity because if you're intrinsic specialness, you can understand that that's a pretty potent and heady offering especially once you're in it. Why like you're in it for a long time I mean you said you were born into it. So you know that makes it more complicated But what element of ego

So, you know, that makes it more complicated. But what element of ego do you think was present in what Scientology offered you that was psychologically attractive to you? So, for me, and the experience of someone who was put into a brought into a push into it as a child is greatly different than someone who chose to join as an adult, I truly believed in the most fundamental level

of the Scientology story that we are eternal spiritual beings, that these bodies are actually a prison of their own type. And that with enough Scientology auditing, you can get to the point where you can causatively and stably exterior at will with full perceptions, go in and out of your body at will. This is you could go create this to remote viewing. You could like that is essentially what Scientologists are hoping to accomplish is to get to a point spiritually where you can be fully, stably, exterior of your body at will and with full perception.

So it's not some vague sense or feeling. It's like, as clearly as I'm looking at you from behind my eyeballs right now, I would be able to pop out over here and do the exact same thing and look at myself from behind. And that might seem like an interesting little parlor trick that people are hoping they're going to attain, except that the ability to do that would be evidence

that you are completely free from the pins that are holding you to this prison, this mortal flesh. And that you'd think that once you achieve that ability, you should be able to stop, keep reincarnating here on earth. You should be able to go out to visit all the other, get born on another planet somewhere or something. And I'll run over and said, no, no, no, no, you don't want your fellow mankind on your conscience. So, if you get to that level in Scientology, it's incumbent upon you to come back, reincarnate,

grow up again in a new body, and help get more people into Scientology and up Scientology's bridge to total freedom. Because, keep in mind, becoming this natively all-powerful spiritual being doesn't inherently give you the power to help your fellow mankind. You can still only help your fellow mankind by using Scientology's technology. And so, Scientologists are hoping to get to the point where they achieve the spiritual ability and also are able to bypass, I mentioned this word before, but I didn't describe it, the between-l lives implant station. So these are literal, you know, maybe a combination of physical and metaphysical locations that

Scientologists believe exist on the moon and Mars and Venus and whatever, and that were programmed as beings as a part of our sentence to be, you know, to this prison planet. Were programmed that once our body dies, we, you know, flash over to the implant station, get our memory wiped, or fate in memory wiped, flash back down, beamed back down to earth into a new baby body, and you live a brand new life with full amnesia of your prior life and lives. And Scientologists believe that with enough auditing, you can achieve this skill of being fully stable, exterior at will with full perceptions, and also the awareness and the ability to bypass the between-lives implant station so that when you come

back next lifetime, you'll have full and total recall of everything you learned in Scientology. You won't have to get trained on how to be a Scientology auditor again. You'll retain that knowledge, and you can just hit the ground running as, you know, I don't know, a 12, 13, 14-year-old Scientology auditor, helping to move more people up to the state of clear. Achieving the state of clear, getting rid of your reactive mind is everything Scientology is supposed to be about. Now in modern times, it's become nothing but a real estate fundraising scam.

But you know, if we're talking about, back when Elrond Hubbard was actually running things, achieving the state of clear and getting at least half the population of Earth to achieve the state of clear is the day-to-day mission of Scientology. Okay. Okay. So let's parallel two things here. So I think we've done a good job of giving the devil as do.

Now what we might ask ourselves is, well, Hubbard obviously had a talent for tapping into the archetypal fantasy substrate. He wouldn't have been a successful science fiction author if he hadn't been able to do that. So he certainly had some talent in that regard. Now, you made, I guess I would ask, like, so then given all this, it's attracted this on the ethical front, it's explanatory power. Why and the fact that you were born into it? Why in the world did you start to become skeptical? On what grounds did you manifest that skepticism? And how is that associated with your kind of off-the-cuff comment there at the end that, you know, this is degenerated into nothing but a giant real estate scam, right?

And this brings us back to the beginning of our discussion. It's like, well, we need to live in a metaphysical realm. We need to live in a story that what would you say offers food for the craving we have for a metaphysical explanation to round out our lives and hover provided a very broken elaborate explanation which isn't without its internal logic. Now, but you obviously decided at some point that this wasn't for you or maybe for anyone else. And so apart from the science fiction preposterousness of the entire account, which as I said, is grounded in a set of archetypal ideas, what is it that, well, let's say,

what bounced you out of the Scientology conceptual world? All right, let me take a whack at this because it's never just one thing, but I'm gonna try not to get too far into the weeds on this. And let me first make sure I fully answered your previous question, which was, even as a person being born into it, what was it that appealed to the ego of it?

And so for me, it was actually believing that this is a prison, we do only need to be free from the prison and that these upper confidential levels, which I had never done. I did not know what was on them. These upper confidential levels really did deliver that result and that basically we're in the matrix here. By doing Scientology, you get unplugged from the matrix and nothing could possibly be more important than that.

Even though I could see people in my environment as a young little good Scientology staff member, I could see people who had done all of Scientology's auditing levels. And I could see that they were no more special. In any way, then I was not having done any of the levels. That was evidence to me at a very young age. I still let the belief in what Scientologists call the upper unreleased

OT levels. So in Scientology, you can only go up to OT 8. Well, there's this story that Elrond Hubbard went off for the last six years of his life and created OT 9 through 15. And that when he dropped his body in 1986, he didn't die. He didn't have a stroke. He causatively shed his body after finishing up through OT15 and he shed his body so that he could continue on with upper OT level research that his body was preventing him from being able to do. So the myth that I believed as a Scientologist is the myth of the upper unreleased OT levels, OT9 through OT15. That simple little idea that the real magic is still

in the vault. And if we can only expand Scientology's current organizations up to a certain level, based on the instructions Elrond Hubbard left behind, these levels will be able to be released and will finally be able to have auditing that allows us to become fully stably exterior at will with full perception. That for me was the linchpin. That for me was like my version of believing in a heaven, right? Right. Okay. Well, did that also help to explain to you why the people who had gone through the clearing process were still not sufficiently special? It's because while they'd gone a long ways, but there was still much more to be discovered. Yes, exactly, exactly. And so what do you think?

Okay, so let's look into that a bit. What do you think? What do you think made you find that appealing? It was the knowledge of, I guess it was the knowledge that there were still things you could discover that would enlighten you, that were still part and parcel of the process that you'd already invested a fair bit of your life into and that also had encapsulated your mother.

I mean, because the step outside of that, you have to let go of the law, right? You have to think, oh my God, my mother was far off the beaten track. And that's a really complicated thing to come to terms with. And then you have to come to terms with the fact that you were sort of arbitrarily placed in a position at your birth where you were engaged, you know, involved in this cult, which seems to be kind of unfair at a cosmic level. And then you have to re-evaluate all of your own beliefs. Like, there's a lot that you have to let go of before you can escape from this. So that's a problem on the anxiety side. But then it also beckoned to you with the promise of knowledge yet, not yet attained that you could get to with sufficient discipline. Well, that's a heavy mix, you know.

Well, it's okay. And not knowledge, but ability. Okay, right, right, right. And I started to think that it's not that there was an aspect of this that I found appealing. It's that this is what I was told was true. It didn't matter if it was appealing. That's that this is what's true. And this is a prison planet. And it'd be like, you know, you're familiar with the move in the matrix, I assume?

Oh yes. Well, you live in the matrix. They can make your life amazing and the steak tastes great and the women and the everything. But reality, if you get unplugged from the matrix, reality is not as nice. It is not if you get unplugged from the matrix, reality is not as nice. It is not as fun. It is not as comfortable, but it's reality. And scientists, you know, as a Scientologist, what I was told is, look, this might be a great lifetime, right?

We might have trappings of wealth and great weather and vacations. But that's the prison. Don't be distracted's the prison. Don't be distracted by the matrix. We need to unplug ourselves from the matrix and we need to unplug everyone else. So in a sense, it's not appealing. In a sense, it's just the burden of the responsibility that we have. If this is the version of reality, we subscribe to. Right, OK.

That's so interesting because that means that it's not appealing in the narrowly hedonistic manner, but that it's actually a call strangely enough to adopt something like a higher order ethical responsibility, right? Adherence to the truth and then participation in this process of universal salvation. Okay, well, again, that sounds pretty good. So why did you stop? Why did you stop with your adherence? So the experience of being a staff member in Scientology and being a Seerig member in Scientology, it's a very hectic, chaotic, high stress experience. And as a good little Scientology staff member, I always believed that at Scientology's secret management base,

now I know it's in Gilman, Hossbrings, California. But at the time in Scientology, no one was allowed to know where the secret international management base was. Where David Misgavitch and all of his staff worked. In order, what I believed of Scientology led me to believe that if Scientology were true,

if Elrond Herbert's technology was true and accurate and worked all the time when applied correctly, the international Scientology base would be a utopia. It would be like a perfect existence of people working in harmony, in coordination, in affinity with one another, no stress, no anxiety, no anger, no temper, none of the trappings of the reactive mind, you might say. In 2009, the Tampa Bay Times did a series of articles called the Truth Run Down. And for the first time ever, some of these Scientology executives, high-level

Scientology executives, who had recently departed, but Scientologists didn't know these people had departed. Not only had these people left the management ranks, they had left Scientology altogether. These people were celebrities in Scientology. These were the international managers that all Scientologists would see at the international events five, six times a year. These people started speaking out about what a unmitigated hellhole the international Scientology management base was, working under David Misgavitch. That for me was the first crack in the dam.

It just caused me to immediately question and reframe things, like hold on, hold on, hold on. At the international base, they don't even have to deal with Scientology public. They don't even have to deal with anyone demands. They don't have to deliver services to anyone. All they have to do is get along with each other. How could it be so bad?

Why did you believe the accounts? Because they were people who I had famous figures in Scientology. I see. I see. I see. I see. So these people have been able to regard it as the highest level of managers working under David and Stach. Okay. Okay. So it was hard to reconcile. Well, that's right. And so up until then, any horrible experiences I had in Scientology working as a staff member or a C-Eric member, in my mind, I was like, it's only bad at this level because we're too far away

from David Miscavich. She hasn't, there's too many filters between us and him, but one of the things that kept me believing was that the closer you got to David Miscavich, the better things were. And once I was exposed to information that allowed me to credibly conclude that the actual opposite was true, the closer you got to David Miscavich, the worse it was, and what I was experiencing at the lower levels was just the trickle-down effect of his horribly abusive and psychotic behavior. Right, right.

So now the higher echelons are contaminated rather than pure. That's right. And so that's the first thing that got me going, hold on. Something is not as I thought it was. Okay, but that wasn't it. That wasn't it. The following item is what did it for me. There was a particular seagrard member that I knew of by the name of Dan Koon.

And he had a particular job at international management where I knew that if anyone knew what Elrond Hubbard left behind, it was this guy. Like the job that he had was to compile everything Elrond Hubbard had left behind and figure out what of that material, how it could be organized and released as services that Scientologists could do. He was one of the former executives that left him was speaking out. And when I heard from him that these upper unreleased OT levels were a myth, they don't exist. Elrond Hubbard did not leave behind any notes. There's nothing in the vault that no one in upper Scientology management has any clue whatsoever,

what was supposed to be on these upper OT levels. I said, you shouldn't tell me that's 20 years ago. I'm done. I said, that's all I needed to hear. I said, that was the keystone that was holding it all in place for me anyway, was this belief that that's why Scientology was important because these unreleased Othela was

as what would unplug all humanity from the matrix and then we would go off to another planet and unplug everyone on that planet and off to another planet. And so honestly, Jordan, it was just that one piece of information. There are no upper unreleased Othela. Well, that's a major piece. You know, well, honestly, Jordan, it was just that one piece of information. There are no upper, only the two of us. Well, that's a major piece.

Well, one of the, there's a gospel insistence that you have to evaluate the spirits to see if they're of God, right? Because you can have a revelation, you can encounter information that seems credible, but that is perverse in some manner. And so then the question is, how do you distinguish, again, truth from falsehood? And by their fruits, you will know them as a good one. So let me give you a concrete example of that. So I worked in the 90s at Harvard.

And that was a very interesting place to work. They claimed the pursuit of excellence. And when I went there, that was the case. Like everything at the university, virtually everything was subordinated to the pursuit of excellence. And when I went there, that was the case. Like everything at the university, virtually everything was subordinated to the pursuit of excellence. So when the undergraduate survived there, they weren't disciplined harshly. It wasn't a rule-bound tyranny. It was a place that was extremely competitive, but it was competitive because everyone was doing everything they could to work as hard as they possibly could. And so it was very intimidating for the undergraduates because they came there with all these other very smart kids.

And, you know, they were generally valedictorians and so forth in their own class, but when they got to Harvard, they were kind of average on average. And so it was a very intense place, but that also was true of the assistant professors, the junior professors. It was true of the assistant professors, the junior professors. It was true of the associate professors, it was true of the full professors, and the administrators served that enterprise and rebounded by the same ethos. And so not only was excellence worshiped at the top, you know, as a principle, that ethos saturated the entire organization. Okay, now I left Harvard and I went to the University of Toronto. And the University of Toronto is a pretty good university,

but it wasn't as good a university as Harvard by any stretch of the imagination. And it did a lot of mouth service with regard to excellence. In fact, you couldn't walk anywhere at the University of Toronto without being berated about excellence, but in the details, that just wasn't the case. The pursuit of excellence was frowned upon, often, and punished. Now, not universally, I'm not saying that, but in contrast to Harvard, which was arguably the preeminent University in the world at the time. And so you could tell the difference between the two organizations in the actual details

of day-to-day interaction, right? So there was a fractal relationship between what was being claimed excellence and its distribution at Harvard, which was obvious. And then at the University of Toronto, where any deviation in the direction of excellence, you might say this about Canada in general, by the way, was just as likely to be met with punishment as reward. And so that is one of the ways that people can calibrate the truth, right? It's not the only way, and it's not sufficient, but you can go to an organization. This is one of the reasons, by the way, I'd like to work with the daily wire. You know, I had no idea what would happen when I started a partnership with them,

but my experience is being that they're very open to creative ideas. And not only do they leave me the hell alone, if I have an idea, they try real hard to help me put it into practice, and it's actually helpful. Right. So as far as I'm concerned, that adds to their credibility, right, because they're practicing what they preach. Now, what you pointed out was that you had a belief that at the higher levels of effort, there would be a commensurate reward that the whole enterprise was predicated on the pursuit of something approximating excellence. And that was one of the things that kept you going. And then when you found out that that wasn't the case,

that the fruits were bitter, that was enough to collapse the enterprise for you. Now, you laugh about that now kind of rooffully, but that, like I can't imagine that discovery was anything approximating pleasant for you. Like, why didn't you collapse completely? I think it's because to a certain level, what I did in Scientology was,

I was really just as a child put on this path, given tasks, and at some point decided that what I, my goal was just gonna be the absolute best at doing what it was I was being asked to do, and I didn't necessarily require a huge commitment on my part other than getting really good at my job. I did not every day have to buy in to this entire story of the prison planet.

It was only when I would be struggling when I would feel underappreciated if I was feeling I was receiving an injustice that I didn't wanna do this anymore, that I would go, now hold on a second. There was a really good reason I'm spending my entire life dedicated to this cause. Now, what was that reason?

Cause I seem to have forgotten it. And then I'll go, oh, prison planet. Prison planets the reason, oh, I feel so much better now that I've reminded myself that the reason I'm suffering in this way is for the cause of freeing everyone from the prison planet. And then I would rededicate myself to very much doing my job in the best possible way. Right. But are you a conscientious person? Well, I mean, I don't know if I'm qualified to

Well, you said you, well, I'm asking because you said that you found it meaningful to be dedicating yourself to your job and attending to the details. There isn't moral striving in that. I'm going to use this example, and I'm not saying it characterizes you, but it's a good example. Many of the functionaries in extraordinarily pathological states, so we could take the National Socialists, for example, were very good at their local jobs. They tried to, now there would be some striving upward and some ego competition there and some struggling for power.

But lots of times people were just as they say following orders. But to make that more realistic is that they had a bounded world where they had their tasks and they were micro tasks in some ways. And there was no reason for them to lift their heads up above those micro tasks and ask where the whole damn ship was going. And you said, you know, essentially that characterized your life. That is part of being in the matrix in the sense. But it's also the case that people generally, that is generally how people run their lives. Like once you decide you're going to be a school teacher, you concentrate on teaching rather than assessing the validity

of the entire educational enterprise, right? Even if you're playing soccer, if you're out on the field, you don't be berating yourself because you're not playing basketball, right? You're concentrating on trying to get the ball in the goal. So it's not surprising that you took refuge in the microcosm that you inhabited. And what did you find that was locally rewarding about that? Like, what in your job day to day kept you going? I know you had to remind yourself of the metaphysics from time to time, but what kept you going day to day?

You know, there's a lot of great people in Scientology. Scientologists are good people. They're motivated by an intent to help, they think Scientology is the best tool by which to help people. And my job in Scientology was always to help people, this is interesting, I can think of it this way. My job was to help people who someone else

had already convinced to pay for the course. And yeah, another person had convinced them to come in and take the course. And my job was to help get them through the course. And yet another person had convinced them to come in and take the course. And my job was to help get them through the course. So I was in my own way as a good Scientology staff member, helping people who wanted to be helped. And that's just a rewarding experience, no matter what the, however it is you're helping. If you're doing something that's appreciated by someone who you think is a valuable person. And Scientologists, this is the irony of the whole thing.

Scientologists really are the ones who believe it and are in it. They genuinely believe they're saving all mankind. Tom Cruise believes that. I promise you, it's not a show. Well, you know, it's interesting too. One of the things I've thought about Tom Cruise, that's quite, you know, rather striking is,

all right, one of my friends in Hollywood informed me recently that there's maybe only one star now who's left that can guarantee boss office success on the basis of his name and that's Tom Cruise. And I've liked Tom Cruise's movies and one of the things you can say about Cruise that's very, it's preposterous in a way, but it happens to be the case is that his commitment to Scientology has protected him from woke nonsense. So, you know, that's very interesting for me to see that. And I would say like, you're a lot crazier if you're woke than you are if you're a Scientologist. And so, you know, it's a lot more destructive

and disciplined as far or endeavor as far as I can tell. But, but so the reason I'm saying that is because, you know, people can be in error in fundamental elements of their metaphysical commitment and still be in truth in some elements of the way they're acting and behaving. And you know, that's essentially what you were pointing out to yourself for yourself. But so that begs the question still is like, why did you decide not to just ignore that evidence? Like you could have twisted yourself into knots and said that these people who were now sort of heretics and who were criticizing the organization were corrupt or that they

were part of background conspiracy or something like that, like you could have written that evidence off. So what, you must have been at a point in your own psychological development where, for other reasons, you figured it was easier to accept what they had to say as truth, rather than, you know, to go through all the shenanigans you would have had to justify their, their deviation from the true path. To believe them was very easy, because they were there at the highest levels. So, even if they were lying about the existence of the upper-oat-levels, meaning even if

they were lying to me by saying they didn't exist, then they really did exist. There would clearly be something, I'll take half a step back. If we use this matrix analogy, and if someone can credibly convince you that the matrix is real, being unplugged from it is real, only Scientology can do it and nothing could ever be more valuable than that. And if you experience the truth of that for yourself, nothing could ever get you to leave. Nothing. Nothing. And so these people, and Dan Kuhn is only one person I mentioned because I knew that out

of all the people speaking out, he would know even more than the others about the upper unreleased OT levels. But the others would also know, just due to their proximity to David Miscavich and his entire staff, these people would know if Scientology provided so much, offered the promise of so much spiritual enhancement that you could put up with any amount of abuse. Obviously, I mean, if we try to switch the conversation

to Christians saving people to go to heaven, and I don't wanna talk about my pay grade here. But it's like if you truly believe that you're salvaging spirits for eternity, nothing could get you to stop. And I knew that these people at the highest levels, all having left and all saying the same thing. The fact that they could even bring themselves to leave

was already a hell of a lot of evidence that whatever was being offered at the top wasn't enough. Right, got it. So either way, even if they were lying, the fact that they had got that far and would then lie was even then that was indication that something wasn't right. Okay, got it, got it. Okay, so how I'd like to know two things as we go forward.

I want to talk about the material corruption of the Scientology Enterprise, because you referred to it as a real estate scam, and I want to delve into that. But I also want to know the mechanics of how you freed yourself, because you weren't only metaphysically committed, which is a big deal, and born into it,

which is a big deal, but you into it, which is a big deal. But you are also practically committed because it was your job. And so that's a lot of, so for you to leave, that's a more intense psychological transformation than even a divorce, which would be, you know, that's up there, that's about as bad as it gets for people in terms of that death. And so how did you manage to step out? Where did you step to? Why didn't you despair or deceive yourself? And, you know, what belief did you manage to orient yourself with as an alternative? So, the answer to that question starts in 2006 when my wife and I were both working

in the sea organization of Scientology out in Los Angeles. And we were getting sort of fed up with our day-to-day experience. And in the sea organization, you're not allowed to have children. If you're going to have children, you have to leave the sea organization. And so we basically got pregnant so that we could have a very easy route out of the sea organization. Now, we still believe in Scientology. We just no longer wanted to, you know, be basically working on a billion-year contract, 365, 18 hours a day. We were like, and you both agreed on that?

On leaving the sea organization? Yeah. It was very evident. So you're not allowed to talk with your spouse about leaving the sea organization But with like wing here and a nod there. We were like we're ready to be done with this And so you had an L.I.U. had a real L.I. that's helpful Okay, yeah, all right when we verified she was pregnant We each went to our respective ethics officers at our organizations that we work for and we said we're pregnant

We're not getting an abortion. We're leaving. And that was our fairly easy route out of the sea, or that was 2006. We didn't officially leave Scientology until 2014. Now, 2000, so when we leave the sea organization, at that point, we are what they call in Scientology public Scientologists.

We are now people who pay to do Scientology. We don't work for Scientology. So from my wife and I moved from Los Angeles to Clearwater, Florida, she had a lot of family here, a great place to raise a family. And I start working at jobs, making a good living for various Scientologists, different companies.

2009 is when the Tampa Bay Times newspapers, stories come out called the Truth Run Down. So that's three years after I left the C organization. Now information is coming out publicly, that's making me question the entire Scientology paradigm. I secretly start getting in touch with some of these former executives. Now this puts me in a very dangerous situation because speaking to people that leave Scientology

is something that can get you kicked out of Scientology. But I was still my entire existence. I was still dependent on the Scientology ecosystem for my friends, my income, my children's friends, my kids schooling, all connected to the world of Scientology. So interestingly enough, from 2009, as we described, that's when my whole belief in Scientology started to dwindle. Even when I no longer believed in any part of Scientology, I did not want to get kicked out.

I did not want to have the disconnect from my friends. I did not want my wife's family to disconnect. I didn't want my family to disconnect. I was willing to continue to exist in this ecosystem and not speak out, not spread around negative information or other scientists. I decided that how I was going to add value was I was going to be someone on the inside who shared information about the current status of things with former members who were now on the outside and are reporting on such things to the world. So you're a double agent.

I wanted to be a double agent. Yeah, yeah. Unfortunately, I'm just way too sloppy to succeed at that for more than a few years at a time. So eventually, and at this time, my mom had gotten kicked out for spreading around information about David Miscavige that they considered to be negative. And they told me I had to disconnect from my mom.

Well, or I was gonna be kicked out, but I didn't wanna be kicked out, but I was never gonna disconnect from my mom. So I just lied my butt off to them for two years about this. I had disconnected from my mom, but in reality I didn't. In Scientology, they have a very strong snitching culture, people are reporting on each other all the time.

And I was just getting less and less and more careless in how I was, well, I was hiding all of this. So that's that, that's something we shouldn't just jump over. We'll go back to the story here right away. In terms of the fruits by which you might no one organization, that's another good one, eh? So that we already talked about hypocrisy. People claim to be pursuing one thing,

but their actions indicate that they're not. That's a performative contradiction, philosophy philosophically, when you claim an explicit belief, but your actions be liate. But then that snitching culture, that's a really bad sign, right? Because one of the things you see that's absolutely 100% characteristic of totalitarian states is that they insist upon the ethical duty of their participants to inform on other people to the authorities. And you already can't think of anything

that poisons the relationship between people more thoroughly than that, right? Because not only are you in danger of being informed on at any moment, you're also in danger of being informed on by the worst sort of person who lies about you to inform on you, to do nothing but redound to their own credit. Plus, you don't know who you can trust and who you can't trust, in which case, you have a proclivity not to trust

anyone. So the snitch culture, how in the world did that develop within Scientology and what were its manifestations as far as you were concerned? Oh my goodness. How it developed, I mean, Elrond Hubbard explicitly laid down various sets of quite draconian rules and then created another policy that says if someone has found to have done something, and you were found to have known about it and to not have submitted a report on that activity and behavior, you would be penalized

to the same degree as the person who actually committed the crime. So in Scientology, there's something called a knowledge report and all Scientologists in behavior, you would be penalized to the same degree as the person who actually committed the crime. So in Scientology, there's something called a knowledge report, and all Scientologists are expected to submit knowledge reports on other Scientologists. It's considered the individual group members putting in ethics on each other, not leaving it up to the executives to put in ethics on everyone under them, but people putting in ethics on each other.

I'll run Harvard says to So to distribute it tyranny. That's right. He says a productive, easy to live with and work with group is a group that enforces the discipline member to member on each other and doesn't leave it up to the higher ups. And so the switching culture is such an important part of Scientology.

And I remember way back when, back in like 1998, I saw this movie called, oh my god, it was about swing kids. And it was about people in Nazi Germany and the swing dancing. And this is what I still believed in Scientology, but this should have been a red flag for me way back when I remember seeing the snitching culture portrayed in this movie about Nazi Germany. And I remember sitting there going, that's Scientology. That's Scientology. I mean, it might seem like it's a stretch there, but it's like the idea that the only good

Scientologist is the one who's reporting on all of his fellow Scientologists. Oh, yeah, boy. That's not that's bad. That's bad. Yeah, yeah. Well, that's also, you know, that's the one of the ways that totalitarian systems really get a grip. You know, one way is that everybody in a totalitarian system lies about everything all the time, but

the other one is they inform on each other to, to, so-called higher authority, right? And then they make that into a moral virtue. Yeah, that's really, that's really, really, that's really bad. So that, that's a bad one. Okay, so you're, you're being told you have to leave your mother, but you're not going to do that. You don't want to alienate her. Your wife and you have already decided that you're going to have a child. You've left the specifics of your job and you, and now you're kind of living a double

life, hey? No, I'm going to, I'm going to try to cover this superficially and quickly because if I get And you, and now you're kind of living a double life, hey? No, I'm gonna, I'm gonna try to cover this super officially and quickly, because if I get into the details, I'm gonna get emotional. And I'm gonna try not to do that, okay? Okay. So, what did you remember that produced that?

I'm sure response. It's the answer to this question. That's an end-growing question. That's an end-growing question. Yeah. And the story that I'm going to tell you here is why, why I do my YouTube channel and very much relish exposing Scientology

every single day on my YouTube channel. You can say I'm motivated by pure revenge and that's okay with me. So by the time they realize I'm not going to disconnect from my mom, they officially kick me out of Scientology. And then they go to my wife and they say, well, you have to divorce your husband. Now at this point, we have three daughters.

So you have to divorce your husband or you're going to get kicked out of Scientology. And she says, that's not going to work for me. So they kick her out of Scientology. And she says, that's not going to work for me. So they kick her out of Scientology. And so they make her her parents. And they say, you have to disconnect from your daughter and your three grand daughters. Or you're going to get kicked out of Scientology. But my wife's parents have three other kids who have spouses that are Scientologists, who have kids, you know, who's who spouses parents are

Scientologists. And I felt like my mom had had a choice that she could have made for herself. I felt I had a choice I could have made for myself. I felt my wife had a choice she could have made for myself. I felt my wife had a choice she could have made for herself. But by the time you get to her parents, they're basically going, which kids do we want to lose? Which grandkids are we never going to see again? So my wife's parents disconnect from her and the grandkids, even though they live five minutes down the road.

Brutal. And then my wife never saw her dad again until the day he died. Oh, yeah. And that's a rough one, all right. And so my kids, you know, when my wife and I were officially kicked out, we had both been working for Scientologists. So we lost our jobs. Our kids had been going to for Scientologists, so we lost our jobs. Our kids had been going to private Scientology schools, so they were kicked out of their schools.

And we live in Clearwater, Florida, which is the home of the largest Scientology organization in the world. So, the vast majority of all of our friends severed all ties with us, including our best friends. And so, that type of family destruction is what I personally find most objectionable about Scientology, whether it's coercing women to get abortions

to keep serving Scientology instead of starting families. I mean, I challenge anyone to name one other quote unquote religious organization that weekly busses its clergy members to the abortion clinic. I don't think you'll be able to find one. Oh yeah, that's a rough one. That's a rough one.

And those women have a lot of pressure applied to them to convince them that they have to get an abortion because it's so much more valuable to save the planet than it is to raise a family. Well, there's plenty of that going on in the broader public at the moment too. Yeah. All right, well, let's do this. Let's do this because we're coming up on our hour and a half.

I want to talk to you more about what happened to you personally after you've left. And about, I know for everyone who's watching and listening, there is a website, there is a website associated with Aaron that is hosted by people who aren't very happy with him. And we haven't had a chance to talk to that about that at all. And so what I think I'll do, we've gone through some of your autobiography,

which is often what I do in the additional half an hour that I speak to my guests on the daily wire plus side. But I think we'll do that there. And so for all of you who are watching and listening, you know, thank you very much for persevering with us through this part of the story. If you want to hear that part, which is extraordinarily interesting, it's the backlash against Aaron and what's happened to him publicly

as he's come out as a critic of the Scientology movement. We're going to delve into all that on the daily wearer plus side. And so before we do that all, thank everybody who are watching and listening for their attention and the daily wire plus people for facilitating this conversation. I'm way up here in Northern Alberta. We've got a crew gathered so we can do this today. So that's really good. And so we'll delve into all that for another half an hour. You guys can join us on the daily wire plus side if you want to do that. And I'm going to thank you for walking through this. I learned a lot about Scientology today. And it was very interesting to

see what it is that it offers that's so seductive both on the plus side. The fact that it provides people with a framework within which their life takes on an enhanced meeting. And then on the negative side, the punishments that are associated with any deviation from the true path. And so we'll delve into that more on the daily wear plus side. So thank you very much, sir, for your time and attention. And for everyone else who's participating and watching and film crew here in Sexmith, Alberta, which is where we are today.

And we'll take ten. And then we'll get together and finish this off. Sounds good. Thank you. Thank you very much sir.