The Jordan Harbinger Show - 995: Cheating Chap Caught in Child Support Trap | Feedback Friday

Episode Date: May 24, 2024

You fathered a child with a lesbian couple without a contract absolving you of responsibility; now you've been sued for support. Welcome to Feedback Friday! And in case you didn't already know it, Jordan Harbinger (@JordanHarbinger) and Gabriel Mizrahi (@GabeMizrahi) banter and take your comments and questions for Feedback Friday right here every week! If you want us to answer your question, register your feedback, or tell your story on one of our upcoming weekly Feedback Friday episodes, drop us a line at [e-mail]. Now let's dive in! On This Week's Feedback Friday, We Discuss: You fathered a child with a lesbian couple without a contract absolving you of responsibility during a break from your sexless marriage. Now you've been sued for support and you fear the fallout once your wife finds out. What can you do? Aside from just offering him a place to stay, how can you effectively and sensitively support your friend who's facing legal issues and suicidal thoughts after his partner took off with the kids? The rapid advancement streak you've been experiencing has you worried about how long it'll take your higher-ups to realize you're just not cut out for the promotions they've given you. How can you overcome this imposter syndrome before it becomes self-fulfilling prophecy? How do visitors to North Korea make purchases? Do merchants there take AMEX? A listener shares heartstring-pulling news with us, and we feel compelled to share it with this community to which he belongs.  Have any questions, comments, or stories you'd like to share with us? Drop us a line at [e-mail]! Connect with Jordan on Twitter at @JordanHarbinger and Instagram at @jordanharbinger. Connect with Gabriel on Twitter at @GabeMizrahi and Instagram @gabrielmizrahi. Full show notes and resources can be found here: jordanharbinger.com/995 This Episode Is Brought To You By Our Fine Sponsors: jordanharbinger.com/deals Sign up for Six-Minute Networking — our free networking and relationship development mini course — at jordanharbinger.com/course! Like this show? Please leave us a review here — even one sentence helps! Consider including your Twitter handle so...See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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It was like a screensaver come to life. It was amazing. Brazil does look amazing. Yeah, it looks. Way to give me major fomo. You look all fresh and tan, and I'm like, hi, I'm a little bit sick again today, guys. Yeah, you're okay, man.

You sound a little under the weather. Yeah, so Jaden, I, I saw. sleep with Jaden, right? I sleep with a four-year-old, and he wants to snuggle, which is priceless, actually, so I wouldn't trade it, but, you know, he's, he's in preschool, so he comes home with a new virus every couple weeks, and he sniffles. Just a petri dish in your bed? Just sneeze right in your face at 4 o'clock in the morning, and what are you going to do? You know, there's nothing, there's nothing you can do about it. And so eventually my immune system has caved after months of him sneezing directly in my face or wiping boogers probably on me or adjacent to me. And that's what

happens. And I hope you listen to this when you're 25, Jaden, and you feel bad about this. No, you're kidding. So I have like virus-d-jure. I like that you think your son is going to spend his 20s going through the back catalog of your podcast. Of my wisdom. You know what this reminds me? It reminds me of, you ever see King of Queens? No. It's a sitcom with Jerry Stiller and Kevin, James. And former show guest, Leah Remini, who was a Scientologist and now speaks out against Scientology. Anyway, that's neither here nor there. Jerry still, there's one episode where Jerry Stiller are IP, he keeps ordering like Indian takeout food. And he's like, you're going to write my mentors.

And the delivery kid's like, no, here's your chicken Vindaloo man. Just leave me alone. And he's like, sit down. Let me tell you about my life. That's what I feel like right now, assuming that Jaden's going to spend any time listening to this. That's you and Jaden on your podcast. Dad, I don't even know how to play a podcast, those MP3s or whatever you call them.

They don't even play on phones anymore. It doesn't download automatically to my neural link. That's right. Yeah, there's no visual element. It's so weird. Anyway, I don't know why we're talking about this because no one else cares. On the Jordan Harbinger Show, though, which you do care about, presumably, we decode the stories, secrets, and skills of the world's most fascinating people

and turn their wisdom into practical advice that you can use to impact your own life and those around you. Our mission is to help you become a better informed, more critical thinker. And during the week, we have long-form conversations with a variety of amazing folks, from spies to CEOs, neuroscientists, astronauts, music moguls, and tech luminaries. On Fridays, though, we share stories, take listener letters, offer advice, play obnoxious sound bites and mercilessly roast Gabe for his undying commitment to the K. Benito lifestyle. Speaking of FOMO, Gabe, I was thinking a lot while you were away about the difference between

FOMO, so fear of missing out, and ambition. And it's interesting. I'm not totally sure how to separate the two. So let's say that somebody lives like a nomadic lifestyle and they're bringing their kids to a different country every month and they're homeschooling them and I'm like, oh my God, that looks awesome. And I kind of want to do it. But then do I want to do that because other people are doing something similar and some of it looks nice. Do I feel like I'm behind because I haven't figured that out? Or do I want something because there's value to it that I actually have another sort of intrinsic motivation to achieve or attain? Maybe the traveling nomadic lifestyle thing isn't a good example. But I'll see somebody who has like a giant YouTube channel and they

have a podcast where our YouTube channel is sort of like hit or miss, controversial videos do well, science stuff like no one cares somehow in YouTube because the algorithm doesn't pick it up. And it's really interesting. I'm like, oh, man, I really want that. But it's like, do I care? Right. I don't really think that I do care. I think I just feel lacking, which is totally different than having the ambition to create something. And I also see a lot of unhealthy ambition. I know friends of mine that have serious self-worth issues, they're brilliant creators, but they basically live to become famous so they can get the approval and appreciation of complete strangers. And they're successful in that. But when you peel away those layers, they're totally miserable.

And I'm like, this person, I don't even know if they have ambition. Their life is like pure fomo, but it looks to them like ambition because it's all they have. Isn't it interesting how many of the things we want are dependent on what other people want? Like, so much of what we care about is in reference to what other people seem to care about. And they themselves might not be asking themselves why I care about this in the first place. No. And you know what's weird is it's really easy to do this with material things. So I had a buddy who was driving, I don't know,

whatever, like a Toyota Corolla, for example. I can't remember now. And he was like, yeah, I'm going to get a new car soon. I was like, why? This car's fine. He's like, I want to get a BMW. And I said, why? And he goes, I feel like I'm the only person in the neighborhood that doesn't have one.

And I was like, that's the dumbest reason that I've ever heard to get a nicer car. You think, and you have no data for this, that your neighbors are judging you because you don't have one, which maybe they are. But also, you don't even know those people. You never talk to them. Who cares? And he was like, oh, yeah, that's a really good point. Now, we were in our 20s. This was deep back when we were like 25.

Right now it's self-evident truth. But as we get older and those things become more complex, it's hard to figure it out. Like when you go, oh, I really want a promotion to director. You do? Because yes, it comes to a little bit of a salary bump, but every director in your company is absolutely miserable and doesn't do any of the cool work that you're working on right now. They only manage projects at the 30,000 foot level and they work twice as much.

You're making less per hour for sure. Do you really want that? And it's like, but all my friends at this company are headed in that direction and I'll look bad if I stay at this level. You know, it's always something like that. It's a lot easier to rationalize your way into it. But if you tell somebody, if they're talking about a car, they're like, oh, I don't care. Right. It's just so much easier the more simple the thing is.

Like if it's a possession, you can sort of figure out that you don't need it. But when it's something that has to do with your identity, which possessions often do not, unless you're really unhealthy, it's so much harder. Right? Because it's like, am I a director at Apple? or am I just an engineer working on the keyboard for the new iPad? Right. Right.

Disentangling those things is so interesting. And it's also a theme on Feedback Friday. Like we get letters from people quite often saying, I really want this thing, but then I'm riddled with conflict, and I have all this fear, and I don't really know how to do it, and I don't know whether I deserve it or whether, but also I'm happy. And it's like, well, okay, let's take a step back. Why do you want this in the first place?

That's a tough question. It's very difficult. So anyway, I haven't solved this. I'm just sharing this because I think a lot of people probably feel the same way. It's a constant battle for me to be like, yeah, I'm not trying to build a big social media presence, although there are exceptions to that, because I don't really care about that. And I have to just become okay with that. And then other people are like, are you sure? Because so-and-so's doing that. And it's like, oh, man, that does look pretty cool. However, I kind of have to make some important choices about what I'm going

to leave behind, and I'm just not willing to do that. Gabe, tell me a little bit about Brazil, because it looked amazing. Yeah, speaking of FOMO versus Ambition. Right, exactly. A place I would like to go, but not enough to actually go there. But not really. It was amazing, man. God, dude, I have so many stories to tell you. We don't have enough time to get into all of the things. I was there for a few weeks, and I was there with a couple of friends, and we rented this way too small house in the jungle, basically, in this really small town that was, I don't know, like two or three hours away from the capital of Bahia, the state in the northeast that we were in. I have to tell you about this one thing that happened. That's so funny. So on the second or third day,

we did a breathwork workshop. A teacher led a class. It was about an hour. And it was just about breathing, which, by the way, it was amazing. And you don't even have to roast me for the fact that I did a breathwork workshop in Brazil. Thank you. But like 20 minutes into this breathwork class, I suddenly smell this smell. And I'm like, what is that smell? Like, smells kind of like cheese. Someone's cheese breath. And I realized that there are Cheeto feet in the vicinity. Oh, no. Cheeto feet detected.

There were like, yeah, teet-de-de-de-de-de. It was like 20 or 30 people in the group, so I was like, who, what? And then all the sudden I got really scared. I got very paranoid that I had the Cheeto feed. You know, everyone's shoes off and we're still sitting pretty close to one another. And I'm like, oh my God, do I have Cheeto feed? And I was replaying the episode where you talked about the flight to Tokyo. And I'm like, in the middle of the.

this class, I'm subtly leaning down in butterfly pose, like, trying to smell my feet to see if they're me. And I'm like, I don't think it is, but I can't tell. And I swear to God, half of this class was ruined because I was so in my head about my Cheetah, my potential Cheeto feed. But then the smell went away, and I was like, okay, that's weird. I don't understand what's happening. I went home at the end of it, and for like 10 minutes, I was just like sniffing my feet in the house, trying to figure out if I was the culprit. And I was like, and I even asked my friend, And I'm like, do I have cheetah? She's like, no, dude.

No, it's the guy with the greenish brown toenails. So that's the gift. Definitely not me. But I was dying, laughing afterward because I really enjoyed this class. It was really great. But about half of it was intolerable. Like, I couldn't enjoy it at all because I was so distracted by the smell. And also, it's a breathwork workshop.

So you're just inhaling, you're like smelling the air so hard. Like over and over and over again. It was horrifying. But yeah, I just had to tell you about. about that because you kind of ruined that class for me. Imagine the people next to whoever had Cheeto feet. And it's just like, inhale deep, get a big breath of Gaia. And it's like, oh, I'm taking a big breath of Gaia.

Of this Gaya's feet right next to me. And they're like one. And it's also so slow, too. Have you ever done a breathwork class? It was like, surprisingly no. One, two, three, four. Exhale, four, three. And I'm like, in my head, I'm like,

inhale, Cheeto Feet 1, 2, exhale, running, want to run away because it might be me to one. Yeah, no, and every time you're inhaling and smelling that, it's just fungal spores from some dude's feet that are looking for a place to reproduce. The only upside was that it was in the out, it was a half outdoor venue, so. Oh my God.

If you smell Cheeto Feet outdoors, that dude does serious Cheeto Feet. That's the thing. Yeah, that's not even an airplane cabin. You have no excuse. No, my God. Okay. So, we're experimenting, posting clips of the show on TikTok,

with the help of our former intern Cole. I was never interested in this. We posted on TikTok for a minute a while back. Basically no results whatsoever. I think it's possible that we are shadow banned on there because of the China episodes and our website is blocked in China. At least a lot of people tell us that.

So we're giving it another go with a new approach. I'm curious to see how we perform this time around. But if you're on TikTok, you use it and you want to see super short clips from our library of guests. Give us a follow at Jordan Harbinger. Just my name is one word. It would be awesome to connect on there

and it would be a huge help to us as we build our following, because I think it's all about momentum there. All right, as always, we've got some fun ones, we got some doosies. Gabe, what is the first thing out of ye old mailbag? Hey, Jordan and Gabe. I've been married for 12 years. It's a wonderful relationship with two kids,

except for one thing. I am a sex addict, and my wife has zero interest in sex. Okay. Since getting pregnant with our second child, we've pretty much almost never had sex. I'm still crazy. in love with her though, and everything else about our relationship is great. I wish you would be okay with

polyamory because I love how it feels to have a deep romantic relationship and be sexually desired. But my wife comes from a very orthodox background and has made it very clear that even watching porn is 100% not okay. So this is an interesting, quite mismatched couple from the sound of it. Yeah, woof, okay. Last year, my wife found out about a sugar baby. I had been keeping. For those that are too pure to know what a sugar baby is, it is a younger person who provides romantic companionship or sexual intimacy to a wealthier, usually older person in return for gifts or just straight up money. And if you're asking what the difference is between that and a sex worker, I'm not totally qualified to discuss that. I think often this is sort of like a relationship

that's almost like a girlfriend that you keep on the side that does that for money. Again, the distinction is a bit of a gray area, isn't it? It's a gray area. So he goes on. We got divorced. It was messy, but we ended up getting back together. It's been over a year, and I haven't cheated again, although it takes great determination. Then, recently, something from the past resurfaced. Five years ago, I met a lesbian couple that wanted to have a baby. Oh, here we go. They couldn't decide who should carry it, so they decided the best way was to let nature decide. After several months and some of the most wild fun three people, people can have, one of them got pregnant. So they just had a bunch of threesomes and they were like, screw it, let's leave it up to fate. Yeah, basically. I'm going to go ahead and guess this guy had all of the proper paperwork in place for such an

arrangement if that even exists. For this little game of conception roulette. Yeah. Let's find out. Okay, so this is messy. This is very messy. And that's all I'm going to say right now. I'm not even talking about the fluids exchange, if you know what I mean.

Yeah, everyone knows what you mean, dude. That's true. Yeah. So he goes on, they had me sign a contract. saying that I was just a donor, had no rights as a father, and would never contact them after my work was done. Ah, your work. That's funny. Yeah. Hard labor, that. If you know what I mean.

So he goes on, I signed it, but never got a copy. So now my lawyer brain is going, was that contract even real? Because that stuff's hard to do and often, often not enforcing. Who drew that up? Why didn't you request a copy? Did your lawyer look at it? I mean, I already know the answer to all of these questions. Yeah, exactly. This is concerning. Yeah. Oh, my God. If you're going to do something like this, I don't think there's really a way to do this if you're going to do that the old-fashioned way. Because without an agreement that is actually following some sort of state law here, my understanding is that you're legally the parent of any child that results. I mean, that's...

Well, grab your popcorn, my dude, because here comes the kicker. I thought this was all a happy memory until they broke up. And the mother came calling for child support in extortionate quantity. Yeah, there you go. Seems like not everybody was on board with that agreement when it's inconvenient for them. If this comes to light, my wife may explode in a fashion that would put Mount St. Helens to shame and would be equally devastating. What do I do here? Signed a distressed donor wondering what he owes here. Oh, boy, this is a real dozy, man. I can hear the stress and anxiety in your letter. Not only did you cheat on your wife, you cheated on her with two other women for a long period of time,

I mean an extended period of time, and had a baby with them or with one of them. Anyway, Gabe, I am just trying to imagine the custody agreement in a situation like this. What a mess. Total mess. And if slash when your wife finds out, yeah, she's going to be deeply hurt and disturbed,

especially given her very conservative religious values. So I'm gonna keep it real with you, man. I do not know what you are supposed to do here. You freely chose to engage with these women. You signed up to effectively be their sperm donor with dubious legal protection. And now you're facing the consequences. Obviously, your options are,

keep it a secret and just pray your wife never finds out. But look, that's kicking the can down the road, living with this secret, carrying this guilt and anxiety for a long time, maybe forever, which is a huge risk. because secrets like this have a way of coming to light eventually, which is just going to make the whole revelation worse. Although, I suppose there's a world where she just never finds out, but that doesn't make it okay. No, and it's going to do a real number on you psychologically, I would

imagine. Option two is you tell your wife the truth, you wipe the slate clean, you go from there, it's devastating, it's stressful, it's scary, but it's not a secret eating away at you anymore, and then you can each decide what you want to do about your marriage with all of the information on the table. Personally, of course I think option two is the way to go. It's the right thing to do at this point, given the circumstances. If you want to live honestly, if you want to live respectfully, which, you know, I guess that's a question you have to ask yourself. Maybe you don't.

But if you do, this is the only responsible way forward. And yeah, it's going to be horrible. Your wife doesn't even approve of watching porn, right? She comes from a conservative religious background. She's going to be shocked. She's probably going to feel dumb and betrayed, especially after the whole sugar baby incident, getting divorced, getting back together. You put your wife in a terrible position here.

And my heart really goes out to her. I obviously have no idea what she'll ultimately want to do with this information, but I just don't see what good could come from continuing to hide this. It's not like, man, because Gabriel, the timeline, right, he did this while he was married. So it's not like this was before he was in a relationship and there's any sort of reasonable explanation. Oh, yeah. It's just cheating 2.0 that he didn't get caught for.

And she's going to be like, what else have you done? So, I don't know. Gabe, I assume you concur, but what say you? Oh, what say I? Yes, I concur for sure. He's made his bed. Now he's got to, I don't know, wipe the fluids off the sheets. I'm sorry, that really went off the rails. Yeah. But let's put that question on ice for just a moment and talk about the bigger issue here. The bigger issue here to me is that our friend here is by his own admission, a sex addict. He has a history of infidelity. He has a history of lying. And with this whole relationship with this lesbian couple, he's exercised rather poor judgment and has been frankly reckless. I mean, look, we don't know the details. We don't know what his relationship with that couple was like, how well he knew them, how he felt about them, what agreement legal or otherwise they had. You know, we don't know how much he was willing to play in that reckless territory. We don't know why he wanted to give them a child.

You know, what process he went through to make that decision. If there was a process, it doesn't seem like there was a process. I mean, right. Why did he feel he was the right person to father their child in that way? But even the fact that he didn't let us in on the details there, that's also kind of meaningful, right? Yeah, interesting, good point. This kind of makes me wonder whether he wasn't really thinking at all, whether this is, it seems like his addiction really is in the driver's seat on this stuff.

Or he's just kind of a screw it, yolo kind of guy. But either way, I'm not hearing a ton of nuance or introspection in this letter. I'm hearing a lot of, this is how I am, this is how my wife is, this is what I did. You know, shit has hit the fan. Now, what do I do? when the more important questions to me are, how did I end up in this situation? What does this crisis say about my personality

and my patterns, my choices? How do I want to live my life? How do I want to treat people? Especially my wife. I'm sorry to be so blunt here, my man, because I know you're going through it, but my God, what a mess you've made for yourself, for your wife, for this couple,

potentially for this child. That's the part that upsets me the most. What all of this means for this child who had no say in this matter at all? And look, people are conceived as sperm donors all the time. That's not wrong or dysfunctional, obviously. But how do you tell a kid their birth story here? Daddy slept with mommies and I got knocked up, but we don't talk to him.

And the other mommy is not my spouse, wife, girlfriend anymore. So, like, it's just a mess. So there's another secret and more lying. And that's part of the problem. You're asking us what to do about this child support thing and how to manage this huge secret. But from where I'm sitting, those are kind of the least of your problems. Yeah, or the tip of the iceberg in any case. The other big question I have is, how does this marriage operate?

I know he said that it's a wonderful relationship except for the sex piece that he's still very much in love with her. Okay. I mean, look, I'll take his word for it there, but I have my doubts about that. Yeah, I don't know. I do too. I'm not entirely sure how our relationship can be great if one party is cheating or even just wants to cheat and is like white knuckling it through their marriage, you know?

Gigitty. Yep. Yeah. I mean, possibly literally. Yeah. Not sure what this guy's search history is like. Right. It's probably about as messy as the custody agreement, I'd imagine. But, like, really, how is the relationship great if one person is sitting on an earth-shattering secret?

That's another example of that oversimplification you mentioned a moment ago when he says, our relationship is great, except for the fact that I'm a sex addict and my wife has zero interest in sex. That kind of echoes the whole, this is the way I am, this is the way my wife is, and we divorced, but then we got back together, oh, well, but hey, what do I do about secretly impregnating this other woman who wants child support now? So I can see how a person who views his life that way could get himself into some real pickles. Some real pickles involving his pickle. If you know what I mean. Again, we all know what you mean.

Yes, good. Sometimes I worry I'm too subtle, Gabriel. That's the thing. No need to worry about that. But yes, that's exactly right. What I'm trying to understand is how did these two people get together? There's got to be so much happening in this dynamic. Yeah.

And also, dude, like, why did they get back together? I don't know. What is keeping them together? It's kind of a mystery. I mean, I have, again, I have my theories here, but it just doesn't make sense to me. I mean, look, he chose a spouse twice who is not compatible with him on one major dimension, and he fought for that relationship. And now he's working very hard not to cheat on her again.

Which, okay, by the way, I do commend him for, right? Like credit, where credit is due for that. Sure, he's trying to behave differently. I appreciate that. But he's not going, why do I have this urge to cheat in the first place? Is this even the right relationship for me, ultimately? Yeah, are the terms of this relationship the right ones for me? It's just fascinating. Why is he so in love with somebody who cannot meet this very important,

and yes, problematic in some cases, need of his? And to be fair, why is he so in love with somebody whose needs he can't seem to meet either, namely for honesty, for commitment, for basic respect? He says he wishes his wife would be okay with polyamory because he, what does he say? He loves how it feels to have a deep romantic relationship and to be sexually desired. He hasn't found those two two important experiences in the same person. You know, that's kind of how a romantic relationship should function, I would argue. Yeah. So is it possible that he has chosen somebody who can't give him those two experiences?

Or, and this is what I think he really needs to consider, is it hard for him to have those two experiences with the same person? You know, Gabe, my mind is going to our interview with Ken Adams, the enmeshment expert. That was episode 942, by the way. And one of the things he talks about is that men, well, well, people, general, but especially men, men who had overly enmeshed relationships with their mothers, they can sometimes find it difficult to enjoy both sex and emotional intimacy with the same partner. Interesting.

Right? If I recall correctly, at least in part, it's because it often activates these old wounds and patterns that were created in childhood, where a child is in an overly intimate relationship with a needy or demanding parent. And didn't Dr. Adams kind of say that a lot of these men end up cheating on their partners? He did, yeah. Because they can't find what they need in one person. Or end up struggling with sex addiction, interestingly, a lot of the time. Because that impulse has to go somewhere, right?

But for some people, it can't be fulfilled in the same relationship where the emotional intimacy is taking place for various reasons. Probably because it seems like you're sleeping with your mom, which is not, you know. Right. But didn't he also talk about how cheating, I can't remember if I'm attributing this to him or if this is something I'm bringing to what he wrote about. But didn't he say that also cheating can be an act of, like, protest, kind of, like an almost like an assertion of autism. autonomy, right? Like, I'm still in charge. I still have my own desires, my own agency. I can go off and have these experiences with, you know, with other people who are not you, you, my partner, who recreate this difficult, painful dynamic I had with my parent. Yeah, it sounds familiar. I'm sure

there's a lot more to it than that, and it's super complex. And obviously, every individual is different. Now I secretly wonder, was this guy's mom also really conservative and like... Dude, I'm dying to know who his parents were. I know. I don't want to speculate, but it's just, that has to be playing a huge role here. I would think so. Okay. So again, I have no idea if that applies to our friend here. We don't know his personal history. But to your point, Gabe, he has some personal history and it's got to be informing all this. His marriage, the infidelity, the sex addiction, this affair with the lesbian couple, the child support thing, his impulse to lie about all of it. Yes, and especially that impulse to have a secret life because I suspect that that's not just a

pragmatic thing. Like, oh, I have to keep this a secret in order to enjoy it. I think having a secret life, that often serves some deeper purpose. For sure, that's the stuff he needs to be curious about right now. The paternity child support thing, that's obviously a real issue. And the best advice I can offer there is to contact a reproductive law and or family attorney immediately and tell them your story. I'm sure they're going to ask to see that agreement. I hope one of those gals can produce it.

Obviously, the one who's suing you for child support is probably going to go, there wasn't one. Go for the other one that is probably angry at her former partner and say, hey, where's that document? Or at least she'll say, I remember you signed it and we agreed to it, but I don't know where it is. They're going to tell you, the attorney, will tell you what obligations you have to this child, if any, and they can help you negotiate a fair child support agreement if it comes to that. That's your move there. But in the bigger picture, man, you need to get to the root of this infidelity and sex thing. I'm not shaming you for it. I appreciate that you've shared

so much with us, but if you want to grow, if you want to have well-functioning relationships, If you want to avoid this kind of drama in the future, you have got to start digging into your patterns, your impulses, and your past. So you know what I'm about to say? Time to go to therapy. Find somebody good. Maybe somebody who specializes in sex addiction.

Definitely somebody who's interested in exploring childhood and early experiences, because that's where most of this stuff starts. And if any of the Ken Adams stuff resonated with you or you just want to learn more about how enmeshment might play a role in all this, I would read his books. I'd consider hitting him up and booking a consultation.

Maybe even check out one of his workshops. I hear they can be profound. And I hope all of this leads you to the answers that you're looking for. Look, thanks so much for letting us be unusually direct with you. I know that some of this might be hard to hear. I know we say this with love and a genuine hope that you can grow from all this, because you deserve that, man, and your wife does too. So good luck.

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Please consider supporting those who support the show. All right. Back to Feedback Friday. Okay, what's next? Hi, Jordan and Gabe. A close friend of mine has a successful career, owns properties, and has been open about his long battle with clinical depression. After his divorce four years ago, he quickly started a new relationship and had two children.

Despite not being married, they are in a de facto partnership recognized in our country. But two weeks ago, while I was visiting, he was in such a bad place that he canceled our meeting at the last minute. Turns out, his partner took their children and left without warning. This led him into a spiral of distress and heavy drinking. The next day, in a panic, he incessantly texted her, which culminated in her filing a police report against him, citing a previous physical altercation, which he insists was not aggressive, but defensive. It doesn't help that he has problems with alcohol and marijuana, which my friend believes his partner would use against him if he ever decided to escalate matters legally. He's now facing a criminal charge, is required to follow a strict

mental health plan, and is coping with a financial blow after his partner drained their joint bank account. His suicidal ideation has intensified. He has little will to engage in work, and he feels completely disconnected from his children and hopeless about reuniting his family. He's concerned about his job and income now, which he needs to fight the charges against him and to regain access to his family and his assets. While he can be challenging during depressive episodes, he's a fundamentally kind and empathetic person, never truly threatening, and I believe his partner knows this. I've offered my friend a place to stay for a change of scenery, but I realize that might not be sufficient. He didn't say no, though, which is encouraging. What are the do's and don'ts in such a

delicate situation? How can I ensure that my support is both effective and sensitive to his current state? Signed, looking for some guidelines while I watch my boy struggle from the sidelines. Yeah, this is a really good question. I'm sorry that your friend is going through it. It's very touching that you're so concerned about him. We should all have friends as supportive as you, so he's the lucky dude in that way. So the first thing you need to remember is that your friend's life is your life and your life is your life. I know that sounds really sort of basic, but look, your friend struggles with depression, with addiction, and what sounds like occasionally impulsive and unstable behavior, even if he has some good reasons for it, or it's not as bad as his partner as

making out sometimes, fine, but that's his stuff to work on or not. One of the most important things in life is to be available to somebody without becoming responsible for somebody, to support them without taking their stuff on as your own. And I'm sorry to rehash this old Feedback Friday Chestnut, but that is an essential boundary. It is the essential boundary. You cannot be truly helpful to your friend unless you honor it. This thing with his partner, it's interesting. It's obviously created a world of stress for him, but also he helped create this situation, right? Whether it's fair or unfair, whether he's dangerous or harmless, he has behaved in a way that has led to these consequences. One of those consequences is that he needs to follow a strict mental health

plan, which, look, given what you shared about the guy, that sounds like a great idea. Sounds like he needs that. We can debate whether he deserves what's happening to him or not. Maybe he does. Maybe he doesn't. Maybe he doesn't deserve it in a procedural sense, but it's exactly what he needs, you know, in a cosmic sense, man. But based on what you've shared, your boy needs to address this stuff if he's going to get healthy, if he's going to be a good father, if he's going to have good relationships. So I do wonder whether this situation with his partner or kind of, and I know you'll love it when I say this,

had to happen in some sense to bring to the surface some uncomfortable truths and to create the pressure that he needs to finally get healthier. So the best thing you can do is allow your friend to go through this period of suffering while encouraging him to seek the help that he needs. And the help he needs, in my opinion, is, well, first of all, therapy for sure. If he's been struggling with clinical depression and addiction for years, he needs to be talking to somebody. If he's having suicidal ideation, that is very concerning. At the very least, it's debilitating,

and it's something he absolutely should be addressing with a professional as of yesterday. Also, if he needs some additional support to get through this period, he might want to schedule a consult with a psychiatrist, see if medication might be part of his treatment. And look, this doesn't need to be forever. If going on meds for six months, a year, two years, if that allows him to keep showing up at work, if it quiets the voice inside telling him to hurt himself, if it keeps his addictions at bay. If it stops him from dipping below a certain level, I think that could be a game changer, but that's for him and his doctor to talk about. Now, the financial piece of this is obviously big. Your friend is struggling to engage with his work, which he needs to be able to do to get

better and keep his life together. So you could also recommend that he get a career coach to help him stay on track at work, but honestly, I also think that's something a good therapist could help him with. And then, of course, I think your friend needs to be taking care of himself in all the other important ways. He's got to be moving his body. It's got to be seeing friends. He's got to get outside. He's got to talk to people. Not sit there drinking and smoking a bunch, all that, which is something you could encourage him to do if slash when he comes to stay with you, like you said. But the main thing I want you to remember is that your role in this guy's life is to be a champion, a source of love and support, not to solve all this guy's problems. You cannot live someone else's life for them.

And when you're a parent, you'll find that out real, real fast. You cannot save someone who doesn't want to be saved. You cannot make someone change who isn't ready to change. And so that I would add, like we talked about in our newsletter recently, you cannot, and you really should not, spare people their fair share of appropriate suffering. Look, in a case like this, here's a guy who needs to confront some very important stuff, and he's participated in a dynamic with his family that has brought those things to a head. So when he comes to stay with you or when you talk on the phone, I would maybe tell him,

you know, you gotta work on this stuff, bud, or it's gonna make the rest of your life very, very difficult. And I'm here to support you however I can, but it's time for you to accept what's happening and put in the work. That's a gift, so don't be afraid to give it to him. And I hope your friend can take that in.

I hope he uses this crisis to heal and grow, wishing him and you all the best. And man, that's a tough one, Gabe, because I feel for the guy, right? His wife took the kids, or a partner took the kids, but I'm almost like, I kind of understand why somebody might do that

If you're married to an alcoholic who maybe is abusive sometimes or out of control and is depressed, it's like, do you want your kids around that? It's a tough one. He's got to deserve what he wants, which is to get his family back. You can reach us Friday at Jordan Harbinger.com. Please keep your emails concise. Use descriptive subject lines. That makes our job a lot easier. If your professional fate is in the hands of a conspiracy theorist, your mother keeps going back to her psychopathic abuser or you're trying to leave a narcissistic, addicted, manipulative spouse. But you're trapped. whatever's got you staying up at night lately, hit us up Friday at jordanharbinger.com. We're here to help and we keep every email anonymous.

Okay, next up. Hey guys, I'm in my late 20s and I'm a year and a half into being a community social worker. I don't have a master's in social work, which is typically industry standard for management, yet I landed a management role right after my bachelor's. My boss told me that my out-of-the-box thinking and detailed research landed me the job. I'm also pretty good at networking, in part because of your course, maybe too good at it. I've basically created an alter ego to get in the mindset as I'm a natural introvert. I also have ADHD and love to go down rabbit holes.

I memorize specific details about people and work them into conversations to connect with people in a memorable way. Because I've moved frequently and done a lot of volunteer work, my network is rather large and I'm fairly well known in my community. I've been invited to sit on local and state boards and testified at a Senate Health and Wellness Committee. I've helped start community initiatives and attended many charity events and partnerships with Big Wigs. Upper management often praises me, asks me to assist other departments and programs, and lets me take any trainings I choose. I've had over 100 hours of additional trainings. I'm on eight different committees with my organization. I even lead the book club, where we read books

recommended by you on the show. I'm asked to help directors as a mere coordinator, and I've secured over $100,000 in grant funding. Wow, you're killing it. This is extremely impressive. Where's the problem, Gabe? Lay it on me. The problem is that I often find myself with imposter syndrome. For example, I was recently invited to sit on my state's court-appointed special advocate association board, which is full of people with masters and decades of experience. When I do things that are a rung or two above me, I just tell myself, that'll be me in a few years. But I question whether I truly belong in these positions, or I just know how to play the game too well. I switch to my confident, knowledgeable persona and fit right in. But at the end of the day,

I'm drained and left wondering why I put myself in positions that feel more suitable for bigger fish. I mean, this is textbook imposter syndrome and is very normal, but continue. My husband and I are also the first people in our families to have bachelor's degrees. We're passionate about leveling up, but all of the women in both families are stay-at-home moms or have jobs that aren't careers. So I haven't had any personal role models. Also, I was a runaway teen at 17. I experienced homelessness, I struggled with addiction, anger, and abusive relationships. The people who know me now don't know that version of me. We recently moved near where I spent my teens, though, and it has stirred up more of the imposter syndrome. Since it's a small part of the Midwest, I'm also scared that my new

higher-level relationships will recognize me from my past as my career develops. Should I keep leaning into these opportunities, or should I scale back my networking and only focus on people at my level? Should I go back to school for a master's in social work to feel more self-assured? How do I finally kick this imposterism? Signed, looking for the right traits, and still outrunning my fate when I am punching way above my weight. Wow, what a story. I'm a little gobsmacked over here to go from being a runaway at 17 years old, being homeless, struggling with addiction, experiencing abuse, to go from all that to being a social worker managing people and testifying in front of senators and building relationships with all these impressive people in your late 20s, no less. Incredible. Can we just take a moment to appreciate what a huge accomplishment this is?

This reminds me of Adam Grant, where it's not the outcome. It's how far you've come to get there. And if you haven't heard that episode, go back and listen to the most recent Adam Grant episode. So you are an inspiration, my friend. Way to make me feel like a total slacker over here. I've never spoken to Congress. All of this speaks to your resourcefulness, your hard work, your curiosity, and maybe a sprinkle of that ADHD that you mentioned, which, by the way, way to make that work for you.

There's clearly a lot going on in this letter, Gabe, but it's obvious to me this is a remarkable person. So I'm so damn proud of her. This is amazing. So it's interesting. I'm getting the sense that this fire you have, this ambition. It's beautiful, right? And it's also probably a way to transcend your roots. And sometimes maybe it's also a way to compensate for them. My experience is that ambitious people, they're usually driven by certain needs, right? To be useful, to be effective, to be appreciated, to be respected, to be needed. And that's not inherently bad. All human beings do this to some degree. We should all strive to be useful, but I do think that it's important to acknowledge that ambition often has a shadow side. In your case, your ambition might be informed by a need, a very

adaptive and impressive need to create a very different life from the one you had when you were young. And hey, it's working. It's working brilliantly. But it might also be contributing to this sense of fraudulence. The other thing that's also playing a role is that you and your husband, who also, by the way, sounds like a remarkable guy, you haven't had a lot of models. for your kind of success, maybe any at all, from the sound of it, you don't have a clear template for your life here, and that can make things feel even scarier. You're inventing the way.

You are creating the template. So that's got to be kind of anxiety provoking, not just because you don't know how your career should look, but also because you might not always know whether you're doing something wrong, so to speak, whether you have what it takes to sustain the success, whether you deserve it, that's always going to linger. Whereas people with more obvious models,

they often inherit a certain confidence or security. It's in the water, so to speak. Although I got to say, another thing I've learned over the years is that so many confident and seemingly privileged people are also deep down just as lost and terrified as everybody else, oftentimes even more so. So imposter syndrome doesn't just hit people from humble backgrounds or whatever. Even people with good models, more secure childhoods, they have to chart their own path to, at least if they hope to individuate and build their own identities, which not everybody manages to do. So what I want you to remember is that being confused, being afraid, charting your own path, it's really hard sometimes, especially if you don't have a ton of role models, but it's a gift. It's the price you pay for pushing

yourself beyond your abilities, for charting a path that is authentically yours. And I know this is way easier said than done, and it's way easier for me to say it than for you to do it. But as much as you can, try to enjoy that gift. This fraudulence you feel, it doesn't have to be all bad. It can be a symptom of you playing, growing, punching above your weight, and not always knowing what you're doing, which is appropriate and sometimes even exciting. It's kind of cool in that light if you think about it. But there's one last thing we got to touch on here, which is you have experienced your fair share of very real trauma in your life, my friend, homelessness, addiction, abuse. These are profound experiences, tragic experiences, and I'm so sorry, first of all, that you went through them.

I'm sure you already know how meaningful these experiences are, but I just want to appreciate that part of what you're feeling is probably the legacy of this trauma. I'm sure that it has shaped your sense of self, your belonging in the world, your sense of worthiness. And I do wonder if that's a big part of the imposterism. Right. Not just a gap between her talent and her responsibilities, but maybe an old sense of unease that might make it hard to feel deserving of this objectively incredible life that she's built. Exactly. That might make it hard to feel grounded in her talent, and then it's hard to trust that other people are going to meet her with love, appreciation, acceptance, even if she's not perfect. Well, like she said, she's literally afraid of being found

out, which is a classic symptom of imposter syndrome, right? But I think that feeling, it's got to be especially acute when you have a painful past, because the other big theme in your letter is shame, right? There's some shame around your accomplishments, even though you have a ton of them. Like, is it enough? Am I enough? I also hear some shame about your background, especially since you moved back, which is so interesting, by the way, just the fact that being physically closer to where you grew up can make these fears more intense. I don't know what it is about that physical proximity, but it is powerful. I mean, you're clearly in touch with your roots more than ever, and that's making you anxious about being found out, almost to the point of,

like, mild paranoia. Like, are people going to suddenly realize that I'm this person and I came from these experiences. So this is intense stuff, but then the more you try to outrun that past, the more the shame seems to compound. By the way, I also hear some shame in the mere fact that you're struggling with this imposterism, even as you find objective success and great feedback in your career. What's interesting to me, to Jordan's point a moment ago, is the way that you've used that shame to fuel your ambition, the way that you sometimes maybe deny it or stuff it down by working really hard to invent a new story for yourself. Like you said, in those moments of stress or self-doubt,

I just tell myself that'll be me in a few years. So you're channeling this anxiety into your work, into your discipline, into your research, your relationship building, your charisma. That's actually a highly evolved way to cope with these feelings. But it might also be a way of dealing with a very old terror and embarrassment, which I just want you to know,

we all feel to some degree, but people with your particular traumas and background, they might feel it more acutely. So given all of that, how do you finally kick this thing? Well, I think it really begins with owning your story. Actually, let me rephrase. Not just owning your story, I don't mean like inventing one more story and then telling everybody about it and this is who I am, this is where I'm heading. I mean owning yourself, just as you are, your thoughts, your feelings, your memories,

your experiences, all of it. not just the pieces that you feel are acceptable or attractive or impressive. Now, look, I understand that nobody wants to advertise their shame. Nobody wants to publicize their fear, right? Well, especially at work, right? You're not supposed to be vulnerable at work, supposedly. That's the whole problem. Totally, certainly in our culture.

But I do think that you can begin integrating these two halves of yourself, the woman who came from this difficult background and doesn't always know what she's doing, and the woman who's extremely talented and performing at a remarkably high level. What I would love for you to play with is the idea that you don't need to quarantine these parts of your identity in order to succeed. In fact, my experience is that the opposite is usually true, especially in your line of work. I mean, you are dealing with human beings. You're dealing with people in need.

You're working on systems that are created to help them. So I'm not saying you need to go around telling every person you meet, you know, this is what I've been through and I feel like a fraud all the time. Obviously, there's a time and place for these conversations, but acknowledging where you've come from and what you've been through and where you struggle in the right settings, I think that could be very powerful for you, for you, for sure, and also for anyone who gets to know you better. And if you do that in the right spirit, if you do it in order to connect with people, or to educate, or to ask for help, or just, you know, to open up and heal a little bit, then I promise

you, you are going to find great results. Totally agree, Gabe. But you're right. She needs to share her story with the right intention and the right people. And I would start with people who have the capacity and desire to really know you. So your husband, friends, family, mentors, peers, a therapist. To Gabe's point, you don't need to be a hot mess. You don't need to be reckless.

We all know those people who trot out their tale of woe to elicit sympathy or get attention. I know you don't want to be that person. Or because they're working something out in a way that's just not appropriate. That's not you. But as you play with this, you'll know when you can tell somebody where your tender spots are. We talk about this a lot, but it's so important. I don't mind repeating it. The antidote to shame isn't hiding.

It's revealing. So fun, right? I know it sucks, but there's no way around it. And actually, my experience is that it gets to be kind of fun once you realize what a damn relief it is. So no, I definitely would not scale back your networking and only focus on people at your level. Keep doing what you're doing.

It's awesome. But build relationships with people at all levels, including your peers. And sure, you can go back to school, you can get your MSW when the time is right. and if the degree speaks to you and it would help your career, I'm all for it. But I wouldn't pin your hopes for feeling more self-assured on another degree. It's not that accomplishments are wrong or useless. They're important. They're part of your career. But a masters alone is not going to heal your childhood or make you feel more secure in your role. But if you pursue it with the right mindset,

I think it could be fantastic. But again, it's secondary. So keep up the amazing work. Keep leaning into these profound questions. What you're dealing with is so universal, so human. And honestly, it's a sign you're pushing yourself to grow and achieve at a very high level at such a young age, which is so awesome. Now you just got to balance that ambition with a little more self-acceptance and vulnerability, and that's a process. But you can start right now. That's going to take you very, very far.

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I know you've talked about going to North Korea a bunch. I hear that their banking system and money is a mess. how do you pay for things in North Korea? Was that hard? Signed, Curious About Income in the Hermit Kingdom. Okay, well, yeah, first of all, there's no banks and there's no cards you can use because they are cut off in terms of sanctions from the international banking system. So there's no swift system. There's no way they can transfer funds to and from any other countries as far as I understand. Maybe you could do something with like Russia, but I don't know anybody that's able to do that. And I wouldn't trust that anyways. I've never seen a bank in North Korea. When I asked about banking, nobody used one. Most people don't even have that much cash. And if they do, it's stashed safely under their metric. or whatever. So from foreigners, they accept Chinese currency, euros, and U.S. dollars. And of course, they would love it if people they transacted with domestically could also use those. But foreigners are not allowed to use local currency. And people domestically, from what I understand, are not allowed to use foreign currency because the government wants a monopoly and to maximize the amount of

foreign currency they have. Because unlike the U.S., which can print money when it needs to or shuffle things around, North Korea can't use its own local currency because it is worthless. So they need all the foreign currency they can get. So making sure that foreigners have to use it and locals can't use it is a great way to do that. And as far as how you buy things, Gabe, do you remember that store in the hotel that's super inefficient and totally weird? That weird department store? Is that what you're talking about? There's the weird department store, but there's a store at the hotel that was just bizarre. Oh, yeah, yeah, the convenience store where they have all like toothpaste and... Yeah, it's the most inconvenient convenience.

store in the world. So you walk in there and everything's in a case and you're like, oh, I need toothpaste. And they're like, okay, there's a person whose job it is to unlock the case to get the toothpaste out. And it's not the same person that you say that you want toothpaste. That person has to tell another person. That person then hands the toothpaste, not to you, but to the cashier who then has to ring this up. And by ring it up, I mean write everything on paper because most stuff is manual there. I was about to say, do you remember how every interaction required like a 10-minute receipt process where they would painstakingly write out every item you were buying and what the amount. It was absolutely ridiculous. It was like a third grade assignment where they make something

really complicated to make sure you know how to do it. They would do that and write several copies of this receipt out in pencil, which makes no sense. And you're like, give me the, to 20 minutes later you have your toothpaste that's been in that case for 15 years. And it's like fake crest from China, from like 90s China. It's just bizarre. And I remember being like, why don't they just have one person working here who does this. And the answer is communist, socialist country is they give people jobs even if the job is completely useless. Like, we need a person here instead of a traffic light, even though nobody has a car. So there's a traffic cop standing at an intersection where there hasn't been a car in five days. And they're just standing there because they need to

give jobs. And there's people manning escalators like, oh, we need someone at the top and we need somebody at the bottom to make sure the escalator's running. It's just that's the most communist thing ever. That's why they're so inefficient. There's a credit card there. It's not really that. It's a charge card that you have to load. It's called a choreo card. I got one. And nobody uses it. It requires electricity. They don't have electricity in most places at most times. Even the places that say they accept it often cannot accept it. I did buy a full set of money from the hotel and pristine condition. That was kind of cool. So I have a whole set of North Korean wand, which they sell you at their ridiculously inflated exchange rate. So you just have to look at it like you're buying. You're

buying a souvenir because you're buying a set of worthless paper with real money. In the end, there's not really a lot of places to spend money. Like they would love more foreign currency, and they're always trying to juice it out of you. But really, the hotel can accept foreign currency. There's a bookstore where you go in and they have to turn on the lights because they live there and no one ever goes there. So they turn on the lights and they're like, you can tell they just woke up or something when you go in there. There's a bookstore. Every single book is written by Kim Jong-il, Kim Il-Kimil Sung, or Kim Jong-un. I'm not exaggerating, every single one. And they look like textbooks. There's posters in there and stuff that you can buy. You don't

buy the books. You buy the posters. There's a brewery, which is also, again, I think, in the hotel. There's restaurants, but, you know, you can't just go to whichever one you want. You have to, like, make an appointment. Your whole crew has to show up there. The whole bus has to go there, because they open the place for you. The locals are not patronizing these places because they can't. There's also a fun fair. Gabe, you want to talk about the fun fair? Oh, the fun fair. I love the fun fair. Although, looking back, I really regret going on some of those rides because you know, I don't know what kind of safety standards. These rides are following and they're not, they're aggressive. Do you remember that one ride that was like mildly terrifying? Can you find out? Well, they were all kind of. So it's a modern amusement park instead of rides and you're like, I'm not going on this. And the guides go, don't worry, this stuff's all from Italy. Oh, yeah, that's right. And it's like, oh, okay, but then you go, oh, wait, if it's in Italy, they probably inspect this stuff like every. every month. Not here.

If it's in North Korea, they bought it from Italy and they've never looked at it since the installation. It was like there was one that was like a TikTok kind of thing. Like it would just tick and talk and it would spin. It was like a pendulum. Oh, that was terrifying. Yeah. But I love the fun fair. I feel like that was where we got to interact with more locals than any other place, right?

Yeah. I remember many girls standing near me and then when I looked in them, they would literally run away scared, which is weird. That just shows you the level of propaganda that was involved. Not like giggly runaway scared, but to actually skisks. that I'm going to somehow hurt them. Oh, really? And I remember there were a couple girls

that wanted to interact with us. Were you next? I can't remember who I was next to us. It's next to somebody. And this old lady who was cleaning up the floor with a broom hit them with the broom when they came close to us to get them away from us. I don't remember this.

Yeah. That lady was there to clean cigarette butts off the ground and make sure that no locals interacted with us as foreigners. I mean, she hit them hard. It wasn't like, get away from those Americans. It was like whack. And they were like, ouch. Okay, you hit me in the shin with a broom.

What the hell? But it's interesting, you find that with older folks in North Korea who have more of an attachment to the war and they maybe even remember the war potentially or their parents do, and they have more bias against Westerners, Americans specifically. But once you meet younger people there, they don't care. They actually, I found that most of them were really cool and open. They're just very shy. Yeah.

But it was very fun to interact with them at the fun fair. And that's another place where they love to get you to spend money. All foreigners get to cut the line, right? But then they charge you an exorbitant rate. And that's a way that they just make more money. You get to cut the line, but it's also like you pay per ride. So of course they want you to cut the line so you can go on more rides. It was very bizarre.

And you see the abandoned fun fair and you're like, holy crap, how many people died on that thing before they showed it down. I love these North Korea questions. I love these travel adventure questions. But let's take the next letter. Gabe, you're up. So our next letter actually comes in two parts, so two different emails from a very special listener.

I got to say these emails really moved Jordan and me quite a bit. So we wanted to share them with you. And listen, before I dive in, I, I have. apologize in advance if I get a little bit emotional reading these letters, but you know, you've heard two grown-ass men cry on the show before, so it's nothing new, but I just feel self-conscious about it. Okay. So the first letter goes, hey Jordan and Gabe, I've been battling cancer for some time, and after some recent CT scans, the prognosis is not good. Depending on how the tumor responds to a new course of treatment, I either continue treatment in hopes that the tumor

shrinks, or I'll be moved to stage four, and given the whole quality of life option. Yes, this is really bad news, and yes, it's a lot to process. But the weird part is that over the last week, I almost saw this coming. Even with no external indicators, my body and brain saw that I was not responding, and that I was on borrowed time. Barbara and I sat down last Saturday and spoke about this exact scenario. Strange that we felt compelled to have this conversation when we did, but I guess I'm more in tune with my body than I ever knew. I want to thank you for all of the excellent content that you've created. You have no idea how great it is to have your back catalog available, especially when I have a five-hour chemo session to get through, or just sitting in all these waiting rooms with nothing but

time to kill. Your episodes help me get through it. So once again, my thanks to you, I would include Gabe in that, but God knows where he is right now, signed Pete. Well, Pete, I was sitting on the couch in the tiny, tiny house we were renting in Brazil, reading your email, low-key crying while my housemates made oatmeal in the background. That's where I was, my dude. It's such a nice email. Obviously, this one got me to. I've been corresponding with Pete a little bit here and there. Right. So that was the first email. And then a couple weeks ago, Pete sent us a follow-up. Gabe, you want to read that? Hey, guys, I've decided to give up on all treatments. Far too painful and worse than the disease. We now have in-house hospice.

They're here to keep me comfortable until I finally pass. I wanted to take this time to once again thank both of you and your team for getting me through this. You've brought a lot of pleasure to my shortened life, and I appreciate every minute of it. I look forward to meeting you all on the other side, but please do not rush. Take care, Pete. Oh, man. Let's see if we can get through this one without crying into the microphone, shall we? Let's try, man.

I'm like really trying to hold it together over here. I know. we wanted to share these letters, well, for a couple of reasons. First, to celebrate the life of a very cool, deeply kind show fan, Pete Donella. We only got to know Pete recently, and honestly, we don't know a ton about his biography, but it sounds like he led a very full life. Pete was a sergeant, I think, in the U.S. Army, might have also served in the Marines, not sure how that works, based on a story he shared with us once, and he served in Korea. In one of his emails, he shared a photo of himself sitting in the back of a helicopter in Seoul,

leaning on his helmet and what looked like his weapon. And his face, if I had to describe it, is boyish, focused, solid, brave, and gentle. And I can't even imagine what he must have been thinking at the time, what serving in combat at such a young age brought to his life. But it seems to have produced a man who faced his diagnosis, and I'm sure all the events in his life, with a ton of courage, a ton of humility,

a kind of noble acceptance that I imagine is making his transition very peaceful and very meaningful. He mentioned Barbara in his email. I believe Barbara is his wife, certainly his partner. Sounds like they have a very close and loving relationship. I've never spoken with her. I have no idea if she's listening to this. But sending you such a big hug, Barbara,

and I hope you're holding up okay. I wish I knew more about Pete so I could tell you everything about him. He's been keeping a blog during his treatment that is very vulnerable and very touching. We'll link to that in the show notes. It's actually quite an interesting document. You can get a feel for how this guy is approaching his own mortality, which is inspiring.

But the spirit of his emails really says the most important things about him. I hope to be half as courageous and clear-eyed and down-to-earth as Pete is. And I'm grateful to you, Pete, for embodying these virtues so beautifully, for showing us what an enlightened transition looks like. But the other reason we wanted to share Pete's letter was, man, how can I put this without sounding super emo or self-important? Look, the fact that Pete is spending some of his last days with us is just insanely meaningful. Like, this is indescribably touching.

The time you guys share with us, the role we get to play in your lives is everything to us. Everything. It's what makes this show so much more than a career. So when Pete said that we helped him get through chemo and doctor's appointments and all that, it just filled me with this deep gratitude for him, for all of you, for this life that somehow allows me to put something out into the world that I care about and that people like Pete care about too. I literally do not know how to express how that makes me feel.

I guess I feel honored and moved, and that's really all I can say. So as we wrap up here, so much love to Pete and Barbara. Godspeed Pete, I'm sorry about this, all of it, Pete, mostly because I cannot afford to lose listeners. The quarterly numbers are bleak. No, I'm playing. Sorry, you know me. I have to crack a joke here. I'm going to end up with a sincerity hangover tomorrow. But seriously, thank you for being part of our show family for your time and your attention and your words for teaching me some profound things in this brief time that we knew each other. Much love to you, Pete. Much love to all of you out there.

It's just one life, man. That's all we get. You got to make it count. And I'm going to take that into my weekend. I hope you do too, courtesy of our very special friend and listener, Pete Donella. Hope you all enjoyed the show. I want to thank everyone who wrote in this week and everybody who listened. Thank you so much.

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