The Magnus Archives - MAG 150 - Cul-de-Sac

Episode Date: August 22, 2019

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Life is hard. I don't want to bum you out or anything, but yeah. You're all alone, trying to connect with people, trying to find your place in the world, but in the end the only person you really know is yourself. And even then, not all that well. There's plenty of things I've done I couldn't explain to you. I mean, I'm constantly, constantly looking back at my past self and thinking, what an idiot.

How the hell could he have done such an obviously stupid thing? How was I surprised it went so badly? What a relief. I'm now so much older and wiser. Except that last part never really turns out to be true, does it? The line of when you were your dumb younger self seems to keep moving forward with you until each more mature and reasonable version of you eventually falls foul of it and becomes a young idiot.

And when you add in another person, you reach a whole other level. You can love them, marry them, dedicate your life to them but that's not the same as actually understanding them I was with Alberto for 15 years and I tell you what I could always anticipate him, he always used to get annoyed at how predictable I found his mood sometimes but damn if I ever really knew why of course it doesn't help that when you're that close to someone,

everything starts to reflect on each other, one bad mood feeds into another, and stress just bounces back and forth between you. You can get real bad if you're not careful. And we weren't careful. The thing is, when we both found ourselves in positions to be working from home, we actually thought it was going to be really good for our relationship. The two of us spending all our time together, we reckoned it was going to be real romantic.

We were real stupid back then. And when Alberto's parents offered to sell us their second home in Cheadle, we thought it was a great investment. Nice and quiet, good neighbourhood, just a real nice home for the two of us. And so much bigger than anything we could afford in the city. And before you think Cheedle, the suburb of Manchester, that's not the one I'm talking about. I'm talking about Cheedle, the suburb of Stoke-on-Trent. Hell, technically it's not even a suburb.

It's just a village that looks so much like a suburb that you could pull it up and drop it on the edge of any dull town in England and it would look the same just street after street of identical blandly pleasant houses all winding around each other in dead ends and cul-de-sacs and one-way systems making sure every house has plenty of inoffensive garden. I've never seen people happily living in a place so obviously dead.

Two years we lived there. Two years imprisoned in that beige, comfortable house with the man I loved, watching our relationship turn to sniping and snapping and bitter passive aggression. I'd say that cheating on him was a foolish act of past me, but honestly it's one of the few decisions I've ever made that I completely understand. I didn't even try to hide it, not really. And when he found out and it all ended, I kind of hated myself for just how relieved I was

that I'd finally be able to leave that place, to get in my car and drive away from that gentle suburban nightmare. I mean, I'd lived there for two years and I still got lost trying to leave. I thought that was the worst that place would ever make me feel. Wish I'd been right. I got a cheap apartment in Liverpool and tried to tell myself I was happier. The single life, footloose and sitting at home, binging bad TV. I tried to get back into the club scene, but honestly, I think I'm just too old now. The music was too loud, the drinks were too expensive, and the sort of thing I tried to get back into the club scene, but honestly I think I'm just too old now. The music was too loud, the drinks were too expensive, and the sort of thing I used to take

to be dancing all night now hit me with a come down so hard that I had to write off almost the entire week. It didn't help that over the course of a ten-year relationship, my friends had become our friends, and there weren't any of them siding with me in this situation. Some would drop platitudes about maybe reconnecting after the fallout was done with, but I know when I'm being handled by people who don't want to create any more drama. It was miserable, but every time I thought about going back I felt nauseous. The idea of returning to those eggshell walls that we never got around to repainting and the living room that expected me to sit there and watch Midsummer Murders

until I passed away peacefully in my sleep it made me want to throw up I'd probably have stayed away forever if it hadn't been for the moose there was a carved wooden moose, you see something Alberto's grandfather had carved apparently and a real family heirloom it was an ugly old thing with this weird angular face that always made my skin crawl a bit

I'd never let him display it in our house so it had lived in one of the suitcases under the stairs the suitcases I pulled out and filled in a tearful rage when I was leaving. So, yeah, I'd kind of accidentally stolen the moose. When he finally realised and texted me, demanding it back, I should probably just have sent it by post. But no, for some reason I decided I was going to drive all the way down there and give it back in person. Maybe I was hoping for a fight, or just to see him again. I don't know. I was younger then. Foolish. It was late when I got to what I thought was his street,

driving through the one-way signs and well-maintained gardens that bordered that snaking road. The sun had disappeared, but the sky was still fairly light, that late summer twilight that seems to just drag on forever. There weren't any other cars on the road, and I was already getting frustrated. My sat-nav had decided to start sending me around in a circle, and I was apparently no closer to finding our... Alberto's house. The roads weren't like I remembered them. Or rather, they were exactly like I remembered them. Bland, interchangeable, impossible to navigate. I must have driven around for almost a half hour before I finally decided that, if the internet and GPS couldn't help me,

I'd have a proper look at the actual paper map that I kept in the boot. I spent a few minutes scanning the Cheadle area until I found the road I was looking for, Ash Tree Hill. Then I drove on until I found a street sign at the next turning, hoping to compare it to what was on the map. And then I stopped. Because the sign said... Road. No name. Just... Road.

And it wasn't as though the actual name of the street had been defaced or removed. The sign was complete. It just... didn't say anything else. So I drove on until I found the next one. Street. I tried to compare it to the map. Maybe this place just had some really bland road names, and somehow I'd never noticed in the two years I'd lived there. But no, the places on the map all had the names I remembered. Chapel Street, Meadow Drive, Station Road, Bland, sure, generic, but not literally placeholder.

I pressed on, looking for more. Avenue. Close. Way. Lane. Only over the suffix. Never with a name attached. By this point I was starting to feel a little bit freaked out

and I decided to just get out of there I could come back later when my sat-nav was working properly in proper daylight the sky was getting darker by this point and I had to put my headlights on I still hadn't seen any other cars on the road or as I thought more about it people on the streets. But, as you might imagine, getting out of there proved even more difficult than finding the house

I was looking for. Every time I thought I'd found a main road that led out of this weird looping suburbia, a one-way sign seemed to spring up, directing me back into the sprawl. I did U-turn after U-turn as I was channelled into one dead-end cul-de-sac after another, until eventually I decided to simply disregard the one-way signs completely. I cruised past the one that seemed to be blocking my most likely exit, and almost breathed a sigh of relief as I found myself leaving the suburban maze I'd been trapped in, until it led me to an entirely different maze of unremarkable residential neighbourhoods. Even then, I still didn't accept that I was trapped. It didn't make any sense, and it wasn't like I'd seen anything blatantly supernatural. It wasn't

that there was anything abnormal about the whole situation. It was just that the normal seemed to go on forever. At some point, I got out of the car and started hammering on random doors. I mean, I tried the doorbells at first, but they were silent, so I started knocking and knocking until my hand hurt. There was no answer at any of them. There were no lights on behind the drawn curtains. And all the house numbers were zero.

I got back into my car and started driving again, going on and on until finally I ran out of petrol. It rolled to a sputtering stop at the end of one of the indistinguishable dead ends. It had been full dark for hours by this point, and my dashboard claimed it was 3am. My phone had died about an hour ago, and once the last of the power went in the car, I was left with no way to tell the time at all.

I wished I hadn't thrown away the wristwatch Alberto had given me, but it was too late for those regrets. I stepped outside, looking down the street. There were no lights on in any of the houses, but the identical lampposts bathed the place in a sickly orange as far as I could see. I decided that the roads must be the problem. They were what was keeping me trapped in this place, constantly turning and bending and confusing me. If I just picked a direction and kept to it, eventually I had to get to the edge of what by now I had decided was a

newly built neighbourhood that apparently no one had moved into yet. As an explanation, it didn't make any sense, but it didn't need to, not at that moment. So I started walking, going around houses and through gardens, trying at all times to keep my direction straight and consistent. I may be too old for clubbing, but I still keep pretty active, so getting over the fences wasn't much of a problem for me as I passed from identical road to identical garden over and over again. I don't know how long I went on like this, but it felt like hours. At the start I was counting how many houses I passed, but when I got to a hundred, I stopped. It was beginning to eat away at my careful rationalisations, and I couldn't allow that. Eventually my legs started to go, and I decided I needed some rest. I was about to sit on the street

when a thought occurred. I marched up to a nearby front door, prepared to kick in the flimsy-looking wood, but trying the handle revealed it was unlocked. I don't know why I picked that house. It was exactly identical to all the others, and I've often wondered if there was anything that drew me to it. Perhaps I was just unlucky. that drew me to it. Perhaps I was just unlucky. Or perhaps there only ever was one house. The lights worked, which was a relief, and the inside looked exactly how I expected it to. And I mean exactly how I expected it to. From the blank Ikea furniture to the subtly patterned cream wallpaper to the picture frames lining the wall containing what were clearly stock photos, each of a different family pantomiming a scene of domestic bliss.

I headed into the living room and sat down on one of the almost comfortable armchairs. living room and sat down on one of the almost comfortable armchairs. My body was aching, and my eyes were heavy, and I had the thought that maybe I should head up to the bedroom. In the back of my mind, though, I knew that was a trap. I had somehow become convinced that if I went to sleep here, then I would never leave. My hand drifted down and brushed a plastic remote control. Almost on instinct, I picked it up and turned the TV on. A cooking show. A woman I almost recognised fussing over a turkey. She was talking, or at least it sounded like she was. The cadence and the sounds

was so much like English that it took me almost a full minute to realise that she wasn't actually saying words she never looked at the camera there seemed to be something wrong with her eyes though I couldn't say what her hands moved over the pale skin of the turkey poking it and prodding it as though preparing it,

though she wasn't actually doing anything to it. Eventually she gripped a part of it between finger and thumb and tore off a long strip of dry-looking meat, before tossing it over her shoulder and returning to her strange mimicry of cooking. I hit the remote again. A shopping channel. The host was a tall, clean-shaven man with close-cropped hair. He was holding a brick and talking about it in that same flow of non-words

that still had a familiar salesman's patter. The screen scrolled the message, buy now, though there was neither price nor contact details, as this man who wouldn't look at the camera earnestly pretended to sell me a brick. It was almost hypnotic. I leaned back in the chair, trying to think clearly about what was happening, and my eyes found themselves focusing on the ceiling, on a small spot of red that seemed to have seeped through from above. As I climbed those stairs, I desperately tried to tell myself I didn't know what was going to be up there,

and to be fair, I was surprised by some of the details. But as soon as I saw the spot, I just knew that someone else was up there, and that they were dead. The only questions were how, and who. I think I'd given up on why. I didn't know them, as it turned out. A young woman, conservatively dressed. Her face was bloody, but I was sure I didn't recognise her. She had a bag with her, and her ID read Yotunde Uthman. Not a name I'd ever encountered before.

Just another victim of this place. It looked as though she had forced her head through the mirror on the dressing table, the shards cutting her face and neck to ribbons, a particularly large piece piercing her jugular, spilling blood all down the unremarkable white table and onto the light brown carpet below. I don't think she'd been dead that long, but I'm not a doctor, and I didn't really try to check. Instead, I turned and ran, all my tiredness gone in a sudden rush of adrenaline, down the stairs, out the door, and into the night and the rows upon rows of bland, empty houses. And then all at once I wasn't running anymore.

I was lying on the ground, collapsed, the tarmac rough and cool against my cheek, wet from my tears. I was going to die. I knew that now. Just as she had. Just as anyone else who came here had. How many corpses lay waiting behind the placid facade of this endless false suburbia? And that was when I heard it. It was quiet, and my mind took a few moments to accept it could be real, but sure enough, there it was. The sound of my phone's ringtone. I looked up, and not

three doors down was my car, the door still open where I had left it. I stumbled over, my legs still weak, and grabbed the handset, which should have been long out of battery. And I stared at the glowing screen. It was Alberto. He was calling me. I don't know how, but the tears came even faster now as I answered, sobbing with relief to hear him yelling at me for taking so long. Had I forgotten? Was I even planning to bother? I tried to reply, to explain, but all I could manage to say, to get through the shaking sobs,

was I love you. He went very quiet, and then he hung up. It didn't matter though, because when I looked around the windows of the houses were lit, and a woman was coming down from her front door to ask if I needed help with my car. We're working on it, the two of us. We're not exactly back together yet, but I think it's going well. He's reluctant to sell the house, but I've made it quite clear that I'm never going back to the suburbs, even if I can't really tell him why. I checked to see if I could find anything about Yotunde Uthman, and I did find a few old social media profiles, but I wasn't able to get through to any family or friends.

As far as I can tell, she disappeared a year ago, and nobody noticed. Statement ends. The lonely is possibly the most insidious of the powers, I believe. Certainly it is the one that most delights in having you do its work for it. Even the spiders seem to have a hard time matching it for sheer seductiveness. Time to yourself. Self-care. Putting yourself forward. Not being a burden on those you care about.

It doesn't even need to tell you any lies. It just waits for the lies you tell yourself. We're all well aware that with Peter Lucas in charge of the Institute, it's a very real danger to all of us. We are trying. Daisy, Basira and I we don't leave the institute much anymore so we do spend a lot of time together

it's not that easy though when everyone has so many walls so many defences sometimes you can feel lonely even when you're all in the same room but it's better than the alternative and at least none of us are suffering alone.

Martin's got it the worst, of course. But it still seems to be his choice. And I have to trust that he knows what he's doing. Still feeling weak. Restless. I want to be proactive, but there hasn't still feeling weak, restless.

I want to be proactive, but there hasn't... there hasn't been going quite so well for us lately. Oh, er... Come in, Melanie. John, have you got a moment? Er, of course, I was just, erm... having a statement. Oh, an old one? Yes, an old one. Of course, I was just having a statement.

An old one? Yes, an old one. I'm not... I'm doing my best. Sure. What do you want? I just wanted to talk to you about, well, my career, I guess. My position in the archives. I guess. My position in the archives. I see. Look, I'm not going to do my job anymore. I am not sure I follow. You know we can't quit. We've all tried. I didn't say I was going to quit. I said I'm not going to do my job.

No researching, no filing, no field trips, nothing that is going to help the Institute in any way. I'll still be around, I just... I can't be a part of this anymore. If I get sick, I get sick, and if I die... Why? Because this place is evil, John. And so doing this job, helping it out, even in small ways, is in some way evil too. Every time we try to use it to do good, it just seems to make everything worse. And I will not be a part of that anymore. What about the unknowing? We saved the world. Did we?

I mean, I think it was the right thing to do, but how many people were killed to do it? We weren't even a neutral party. We did it as agents of the eye because Elias told us to. And then you put him in jail? Martin put him there. And he's still doing harm. You ever think that maybe this whole ritual business is just an excuse and that we're all part of some huge, miserable fear machine? I've considered the possibility. Right. Well, if I'm just another cog,

Well, if I'm just another cog, maybe I can't leave the machine, but from this moment, I'm not turning. I'm jammed. Did your therapist suggest this? Not exactly. She's just helped me work through some things I've been thinking for a while. She doesn't know the details. Just that I'm in a bad contract situation working somewhere pretty awful. She thinks I work for the Tories. God.

Melanie, could you... Could you describe your therapist for me? What? You think I wouldn't notice if she had cobwebs down her face? No. That's it, isn't it? You... You really think I'm so stupid I wouldn't have noticed if my therapist was some kind of monster?

I just... It was a worry. Right, right. Okay, I know that is why I ruined my first four sessions and almost torpedoed the chance at a genuinely really good therapist, because I was so paranoid that she was going to turn out to be some thing trying to manipulate me. But no, she's not full of spiders, or made of wax, or wearing the therapist's skin, or whatever. She's just a well-trained professional who I am paying to help me. Okay. It's just, the web can be subtle, you understand? And? For all you know, its plan is to paralyse you with indecision, leaving you sitting here, terrified that everything

you do is somehow all part of its grand plan. And who do you think that fear's going to feed? Yes, well, you are not the first to make that point. Look, I didn't come here for a fight. I just wanted to let you know what was going on. If you need me, I'll be trying to get Daisy drunk. Good luck. It only ever happened once in 2006. She drank it... Sorry. Didn't mean to. Sure. See you around.

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