The Medical Detectives - Kara's Story Part 1: Burning From the Inside Out
Episode Date: June 25, 2025In this intense two-part episode of The Medical Detectives, what began as a routine backpacking trip among Arkansas oaks quickly spiraled into a baffling medical mystery. A misdiagnoses of UTI, strep ...and “pink eye,” a terrifying drop into sudden blindness, and delirium, and a desperate race against time in under-equipped rural hospitals. Kara’s raw, first-person account of shock, ICU delirium and the gut-wrenching fear of not being believed by doctors exposes the darkest extremes of the patient experience, and, miraculously, the resilience that brought her back from the edge of death.Have a medical journey to share? Email us at stories@themedicaldetectivespodcast.com. ***The information provided on the medical detectives is for informational and entertainment purposes only and should not be considered medical advice. While we may feature licensed medical professionals, including doctors, we are not your personal doctors and no doctor patient relationship is established by listening to this podcast or interacting with our content. All discussions are general in nature and may not apply to your specific health situation. Always seek the advice of a qualified healthcare professional before making any medical decisions or taking any action based on the content of this podcast. Never disregard professional medical advice or delay seeking treatment because of something you have heard on this show If you are experiencing a medical emergency, please contact emergency services immediately or consult a qualified healthcare pro***
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Erin, how are you doing?
I'm hanging in there.
You guys know I'm kind of in a little whirlwind book tour right now.
She's everywhere.
I am.
It's like, where in the country is Dr. Nance?
But as of right now, I'm in LA.
It's been amazing.
I love running into podcast listeners at all of the events.
I met three of the listeners in Charleston,
where I was last week. It's been really fun. I feel like we're on opposite sides of the world
because I am currently in a cabin in the woods and the only thing I'm running into are bunnies
in the back behind the cabin. Better than coyotes.
Well, it's funny because every time I look at them, I'm like, if I get ill, I can use
your blood to heal me.
But that's all from from another episode.
Anyway, but this week's episode is really kind of intense.
It's actually two parts again, guys, because this is a wild, wild story.
But I think what's fascinating about this one is this,
this is what you think about when you think about the most raw versions of a medical mystery,
you know, being on the edge of death, holding on and trying to find an answer before you don't
have any more time. Yeah, I mean, this is something that literally no doctor knew what was going on, which is
a terrifying feeling to be in as a patient.
Yeah.
And I think that one thing that's so spectacular about this story is that luckily she is alive
to tell the end of this tale because a lot of people don't survive in these situations. So with that bold intro, before we jump into the actual podcast, I want to make a little
request of y'all.
If you have a story that you think is worth telling or you're not sure if it's worth
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You can send us an email at, and I always have Erin say it because I always mess it
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It's stories at themedicaldetectivespodcast.com.
You can tell which one of us is the more organized of the two.
I'm the more creative individual.
We're not going to speak negative on it because they are both positive strengths, but I am
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And let's get into this week's show.
Let's do it.
Hey, Kara. Welcome to The Medical Detectives. Thank you. So happy to be here.
We're happy to have you. Now, I think you have something in common with Anna and if anyone
follows Anna on social media, she is on a big outdoorsy kick going to all the national parks.
And can you talk about your relationship with the outdoors and how you grew up?
Yeah, I grew up in kind of an REI family where when you reach certain milestones in life,
you I think at eighth grade, you got a North Face backpack.
Like you got your first North Face jacket when you were in high school.
I grew up hiking a lot, definitely loved the wilderness.
My biggest backpacking adventure was I went to Big Bend with my brother and we did the
Outer Mountain Loop,
which is three full days.
It is like 30-
That is hard.
It is 30 freaking miles
and we did it without the use of a GPS.
So basically if something went wrong,
like we would just be sitting ducks.
I mean, you have no cell signal.
You are in deep back country.
You have to have permits to even access this kind of land. And my brother used to not want
to bring a GPS because that was part of the fun of it.
Not hardcore enough.
Yeah. No, I was uncomfortable with that. But.
So now in order to do all these crazy three-day hiking trips and everything, would you consider
yourself a pretty healthy person growing up?
Yes, I was pretty healthy growing up.
I never had a serious hospitalization.
I never had a single operation, never had any sort of major serious health scare.
And can you describe to us the journey of when things turned for you?
Yes, I can.
So I'm 34 years old and I live in Austin, Texas.
I was born and raised in Houston, Texas, and I have a lot of family roots in Austin.
And I found myself traveling to Austin all the time
on the weekends to go hiking.
And it just made sense at a certain point to move here.
So I had been living in Austin about a year, loving it.
You're down the street from me, girl.
I've been to Austin too.
We're gonna have to get coffee after this.
I love it, yeah.
And actually I saw Anna that you're on a trip right now.
And a few months before my story went down, I took a very similar trip where I did the
van life thing for a few weeks.
And I went to white sands and I went to Guadalupe Mountain National Park and I was definitely deep in my granola
girl phase when I was living in Austin and then life started to get a little bit bumpy.
I had an amazing, amazing job, but it was remote and so I think I was feeling a little bit lonely and isolated. I get that. It's fine. Yeah. I started to have some
troubles in the romantic department. And then I was driving home one night and I got in the hit and run.
And it made me feel really vulnerable and exposed to be like, okay, here's this moment where I've experienced
pain and trauma and you're not checking on me.
You're speeding away, right?
It was a really, really sad and hard moment and it messed up my neck a tiny bit.
So I did five or six weeks of physical therapy,
but the culmination of all of those things, right?
Me being a little bit lonely, working from home,
romantic problems, the hit and run, the physical therapy,
it was kind of pushing me to get out of dodge again.
You know what I mean?
It was pushing me to get out of dodge, but it was also like,
should I be getting out of dodge? All this is happening, right? But historically I needed those
defying moments where I push myself or I get in a different environment to kind of heal and return and returned to myself. And so my brother and I had made plans to do Eagle Rock Loop, which is
kind of similar to Outer Mountain Loop in Big Bend. This is part of the Ouachita Mountains near
the Ozarks in Arkansas. We were going to do it over Thanksgiving break. It had like 30 river crossings and you get to see all the fall foliage
and it's supposed to be this amazing beautiful experience that also pushes you. But I knew that
I had all of these tumultuous stuff happening in my life. So we scaled it back and instead of doing
overnights where I'm hauling everything on my pack, we decided
to just still take the trip, scale it back a little bit, set up shop, set up camp and
hang out near the campfire and do some day hikes. So it was like perfect. I'm not going
to overdo it, but I still get to get out of Dodge for a little bit. So we went on this trip and the fall foliage was amazing
and I took some selfies during this time
and you would never have guessed that anything was wrong.
I am glowing, I look really happy, I look like myself,
but I start to feel a little bit off.
The weather's dropping down to, I don't know,
30 degrees or so at night,
because it's near Thanksgiving of 2021.
And-
You're up, right?
You're in the mountains, correct?
Yeah, I'm in the Washington mountains.
So I guess that-
So it's cold.
It's even cooler, right?
And I had just gotten new sleeping bags
that were supposed to be really warm
and a bunch of new gear.
And I couldn't get warm.
I kept just shivering and shaking all night long.
So my brother was camping out and I spent the night in my forerunner thinking, okay,
this will be a little bit more sheltered.
I'll be able to stay warm.
And I just couldn't stay warm.
I was shaking all night long.
And then I started having a really bad cough
to the point where I was throwing up a little bit.
And sometimes in different weather environments,
my lungs can get a little bit irritated around allergens.
So we were like, okay, you know, let's just ride this out. And ironically, right, that's
what you do when you go camping and you're in the outdoors. You're riding it out. You're
being tested physically, mentally, emotionally. You're in a state of trying to push yourself. So we just kept chalking it up to the environment and thinking, okay, maybe I'd
been exposed to poison ivy around the campfire or who knew like something
weird in the elements.
I mean, maybe you're just getting a cold, right?
Right.
Like, what if you're, I mean, it's cold out there,
barometric pressure changes, altitude changes,
like you could just be sick.
Exactly.
Exactly.
And then I wasn't getting better.
And him and I, obviously, my brother and I
are adventure buddies and best friends, right?
We've done so many adventures together that it's really hard for us to call it.
That's not our go-to.
And I said, let's just spend the night in a hotel.
Because logically, that made sense as a good next step. If I'm not able to warm up in the car,
let's get out of the elements. Let's warm up. Let's get dry. Let's get a good shower,
good night's sleep, and everything will be good, right? Maybe like a cup of soup.
A cup of soup. Yeah, just all the standard healing things, right?
I mean, you wouldn't have found me not in the hotel to begin with, but that's-
I will say my version of hiking has a nice little dude to her each evening to a hotel.
Exactly, exactly.
I'm a glamping girl only now.
Welcome to the dark side.
It is lovely here.
We have soap and room service.
Exactly. Yeah. But you had enough spidey sense to realize, okay, I got to make some type of change.
And this in your mind was the safest thing to do.
Exactly.
And just to set the scene a little bit, it is nine or 10 PM at night. We had already attempted to camp for a night or two.
And we're in the deep back country in Arkansas. And I don't know how to really articulate what
that can be like. But if you know what deep Arkansas back country can be like, then you know, I mean, there's signs, barbed wire, bumpy dirt roads.
It is a mess.
And it's nine or 10 PM at night.
And we're in my old forerunner with 200,000 miles on it.
And it's a small dirt road.
I mean, you're wondering if just the car can make it even without all these other
circumstances. And we're having to pull over every 15 minutes or so, so that I can
yak. And we're surrounded by kind of signs that say no trespassing and barbed wire and we're so deep in the mountains
that just the journey to get into the nearest town
probably took an hour, an hour and a half.
So we make it into town,
but we don't know what this town is.
We don't know what this motel situation is.
I mean, we're in an old school motel.
It looks like the carpet hasn't been replaced since the 80s.
Old school, but it's better than being around the campfire when you're cold and
sick. So it's home for the night. We crash out, we wake up.
I'm not better.
That's when I knew things were turning.
I said, I need to go to a hospital.
And we looked up just the nearest one to us.
It was technically a hospital, but it was one of those freestanding buildings.
So I don't know that it had all the same capabilities as a hospital
that's associated with a major hospital network or anything like that.
Quick question for you, just because I'm curious. Did you feel like way sicker than you normally
would if you were just get sick?
I was having trouble breathing.
Oh God. Yeah, that you should go to the hospital for that.
And yeah, I write, I think you have to be feeling pretty sick if you're already,
you know, I'm like four layers outside of my comfort zone. I'm in another state.
I'm camping. All of these things are going down. People tend to underplay how bad they feel because I think, you know, we all get taught that some type of weakness to feel bad.
And so I wanted to help the listeners understand
that this wasn't like you were just kind of feeling sick.
You were, you were going down and you could feel it.
The ship was sinking.
No, I so appreciate that, Anna,
because obviously I have some PTSD.
Well, I guess we haven't gotten to that point in the story,
but things are going to get increasingly traumatic
as I tell this story.
And I think when we have PTSD,
we think that we don't still have those memories.
So it can be hard to kind of tap in.
How sick was I?
I mean, I don't know.
This is the first time that I've ever recanted my full story start to finish, and it's just
for you guys.
And I wanted to be able to do it kind of on the fly too, to give it that authentic experience.
So I appreciate you helping me lock in.
Also something that we really from talking to many of our guests,
and I introduced this term of this feeling of dread.
And it's just a gut feeling that something is not right.
And you can't deny it anymore.
And we talk about these stages of misdiagnosis in the beginning.
You're like, I'll just sleep in the car.
It's just, I'm not warm enough, right?
Maybe it's my childhood asthma acting up.
And that's part of the first stage is trying to, again,
whether it's pushing through or trying to deny
or tamp down those feelings,
but it seems like at this point,
it is undeniable that something is wrong.
Right. Just the bits and pieces weren't adding up. I'm not feeling well. I'm throwing up as my asthma
is acting up. I mean, this is not a stereotypical flu or anything that I've experienced in the past
in terms of how I'm presenting. And I think that's exactly what I wish
more medical professionals talked about,
is that patients don't wanna go to the hospital.
And if they're at the hospital,
they've already vetted and tried to understand
what's happening to them to their best of the ability.
They're coming to you in a vulnerable helpless state
thinking I've tried, I can't figure this out, this is serious, help me, right? So I'm at the hospital
They run a urine analysis. They test me for COVID.
They test me for strep and they take some blood work.
I was negative for COVID.
I was negative for strep, they landed on that I had some sort of unspecified strep-like virus.
And then they also diagnosed me with pink eye. They also diagnosed me with a UTI, urinary
tract infection.
Even though your urinalysis was negative?
Well, I don't know what all they tested in the urine analysis, but I guess the urinalysis did come back positive for UTI. Okay. I mean, just for everyone listening, when most people get tested
for a UTI, the first thing that comes back immediately are the numbers of cells and the
types of cells that are in your urine.
So if there's a high level of white blood cells in the urine or something called leukasterase,
these are just markers that we can assume there's an infection, but they don't know
exactly what type of bacteria it is.
But most people when they have a positive UTI, it means that they have
had those markers high enough to suspect that you have an infection, but then they will
additionally do something called a culture insensitivity where they will capture the
actual bacteria to grow it out and then test it against certain antibiotics to see, okay,
you had E. coli and it's susceptible to, you know, Bactrim
or whatever antibiotic. And that's how the actual testing takes place. And I don't think
a lot of people know that. It's something that-
I didn't know that clearly.
It just blew my mind. Yeah. So when you go to the regular like urgent care or whatnot,
they will do kind of like a spot test to test those markers first.
And then based on those markers, they will presume you have a positive UTI, but it isn't
until they actually get the growth of the bacteria, which takes a couple of days, and
then another couple of days to get the antibiotic sensitivity that they know, okay, you do have
a positive Klebsiella, E. Coli, you know, whatnot.
And I think that's where we left that. And this facility, it's kind of a facility where they don't have a whole lot of capabilities in-house.
And I don't know where I was in Arkansas, somewhere near Little Rock or Hot Springs, Arkansas. So I think there was a lot of college campuses
in that state.
So I think it was easy for them to say,
pink eye, UTI or something, you know,
it's in the middle of the pandemic,
but I don't know why they didn't realize
something's not quite acting up.
One of my chief complaints was that I had the worst sore throat of my life.
And I don't know why you wouldn't think, okay, we're telling her she has a UTI.
She has no history of UTIs.
We're telling her she's not positive for strep, but it's presenting like strep.
And we're telling her that she is pink eye,
but this is an adult woman.
Like who did she get pink eye from the dog?
I mean, give me a break.
What were your eye symptoms?
At this point, they were mildly swollen and burning
and maybe had a tiny bit of discharge.
And there is a difference between viral conjunctivitis
and bacterial conjunctivitis.
So a viral conjunctivitis, I would say, probably is presenting more like how you described
where it's not totally thick, goopy green things that we consider.
I mean, it can have that, but that's the difference between bacterial and viral pink eye.
But listen, adults can get pink eye. That's totally normal. But right
now it's unusual, I would say, to be having UTI strep throat and pink eye all at once.
Right. All I'm going to say is like, what does one do to get those combination of things together?
That is a- Roll around in the leaves, apparently, in Arkansas.
I don't know.
So they discharged me.
I'm only there during the day, right?
So I'm just there for a handful of hours.
I think that they prescribed me antibiotics.
So it sounds like you are leaving this a point where they're discharging you,
but it sounds like you're maybe not exactly sure that they've got it right.
Right. I was so in my infancy in terms of learning how to advocate for myself
medically, even though I have historically always been someone that
does a decent job standing up for themselves.
But what are you going to do?
You tell them you're in pain, you tell them your throat hurts and they say, we're discharging
you.
You don't have really any choice.
At the time, I didn't think I any choice, but to go along with it.
And at that point you're thinking, okay, this is all in your head to a certain
extent, you've been checked out, you've been checked out by medical professionals
in an emergent facilities.
And so they give you a little folder typically when you're discharged from a hospital or
ER setting that says, this was your diagnosis.
This is your aftercare plan or whatever.
And so we really just leaned into that.
We upgraded from our nineties or eighties motel and spent $20 more and moved to a red roof in, found something that
was just a tiny bit nicer, but still definitely a budget hotel in a small town.
And I think I sent my brother to the store two times in the middle of the night because
I was getting sicker and sicker.
It was a very, very long night. I was basically
just living in the shower because I had this sensation, like I was swallowing knives and
our pain scale and how we refer to pain is very much a work of progress in the medical world. And so we don't have great descriptors as patients to explain when something is like,
no, it feels like I'm swallowing knives, but not in a normal strep throat kind of way.
This is unlike anything I've ever experienced in my life.
And I knew that I knew I had never experienced such bad throat pain in my life, but I had no idea
how to get from point A to point B in terms of explaining that to a medical professional.
So I'm sending my brother to the store and he's got a humidifier. He's got chlorosceptic spray.
He's got throat lozenges. We're throwing Advil and I'm calling the ER back multiple times throughout the
night, just living in the humidity of the shower thinking something's going to help me open up my
throat a little bit. And they're saying, just write it out, honey. There's nothing you can do.
It's going to take a few days for you to get better. It's going to take a few days for the
antibiotics to kick in. There's nothing left for you to do for now.
days for the antibiotics to kick in, there's nothing left for you to do for now. Which is, again, terrible position to be in for you because you know something is wrong.
Not only is it wrong, but it's escalating.
And yes, I think there are, what you were alluding to was kind of like you didn't have the proper terminology where as doctors, we
have our own language. If the woman goes to the ER, it's like, I feel off. They're going
to tell you, you have anxiety. You're having a panic attack. If you say, I am having chest
pain, that is a buzzword. If you say, my airway feels threatened, that is different than...
I'm having a little difficulty breathing because what you're describing is not only severe pain,
but pain to the point where it's affecting your ability to breathe.
That is a vital function.
And it's hard when you get discharged from the ER. You don't wanna just go back and seem like,
you know, an annoyance or a nag.
And when they're telling you, you're fine, you're fine,
write it out, I totally get why
you're super frustrated at this point.
Right, so it's on patients too, right?
I didn't have the language and the buzzwords
and speak the doctor speak to be able to get taken more
seriously. And so the next morning, I'm so sick and my brother's running back and forth to the
store for me to think of what else he can grab. So I'm texting him a lot. And I went back and I
looked at our text message history last week and I had said, I need to go to the hospital.
I think I'm having an allergic reaction because I think I knew deep down in my gut that this
was some sort of allergic reaction.
And I said, I can't talk at this point.
I'm losing the ability to talk.
I said, you're going to have to drive me there.
You're going to have to do the talking.
This is another example. If you do not have the
ability to talk, that is a sign that you have an imminent emergency airway situation. So that
for anyone who might ever be in that type of position, if you are not able to talk, that is an emergency.
I didn't know that.
I had no idea I was having an airway emergency.
I didn't know.
All I knew was that I was getting worse rapidly,
which correct me if I'm wrong, Dr. Nance,
but I believe that if someone is ever deciding,
should I schedule a doctor's appointment
or should I go to the ER,
if you are rapidly deteriorating, that's a key sign
that it should be handled maybe in an ER over.
Oh, definitely. I mean, even if someone comes to me with symptoms, one of the key things
that I ask is what changes have you seen in your symptoms? And if it's, you know, well,
I've had this mass, but I've had it for three years, or this mask has grown
over the past five days.
So the timeframe is very important.
Exactly.
So at this point, we decide that we need to get to a facility that's better because clearly
we weren't totally taken seriously.
So we decided to not go back there.
And we're going to drive, even back there and we're gonna drive,
even if it means we're gonna be on the road a while,
we gotta get to somewhere bigger and better.
So I think at this point we went to,
I think we were in Little Rock
and then we drove to Hot Springs, Arkansas.
So I can't remember how long we were on the highway,
but my brother was driving and we
were pulling over every 15, 20 minutes so that I could stop and grow up.
So it was getting really, really bad.
At this point, the interior of my mouth was covered in blisters.
Like it looks like blood blisters, but they're sizable everywhere.
I'm just sitting there like taking pictures on my iPhone, pulling my lip down. Like, why am I,
right? At this point, it has gone far beyond, okay, her childhood mild asthma is acting up
a little bit. She needs to hit her inhaler. Okay, she's never had blisters like that in her life.
She's never, and I don't think I'd even ever had a UTI
or maybe had one, but I wasn't one of those women
that chronically have UTIs.
I hadn't had pink eyes since kindergarten.
My eyes start to just feel like someone
is holding a frying pan on them. I mean,
it is extreme, extreme pain. I start to resemble a lobster. So my face is really, really, really
puffy, like almost look kind of like moon face when someone chronically takes steroids in their
face just gets very, very round.
I mean, I am just puffing up.
So right now you are experiencing severe issues with your eyes, with your mouth.
It's all happening at once, right?
So obviously at this point, I'm a tiny bit out of sorts because that's a lot.
You're in another state.
I'm trying to keep up with multiple of my systems starting to crash out.
And I was in shock.
It was one of those moments where your life starts to feel like a movie, a movie that
you're watching from the outside.
All of the background noise, all of the clutter, all of the circumstances that distract you and busy your mind go away.
It is just you and the one thing.
It's no different than someone that's stranded on a desert island trying to get off, right? There is one primary objective and the primary objective is get help and stay alive.
I'm sure I was terrified and scared and all of those things but everything was happening so
was happening so fast. That's the one thing I wish I could help people understand is how quickly you deteriorate. I could show you pictures from like noon on the Thursday of
Thanksgiving and 1pm and 2pm and it's like at noon there's mouth blisters.
At 1 p.m. there's a rash on my chest and trunk.
At 2 p.m. my eyes are swelling up.
So there was so much happening so quickly
that I didn't have the bandwidth
to do emotional processing beyond a very primal level of like, I am scared,
I am terrified, I am alone,
but I'm not cognitively processing
the enormity of the situation that I'm in.
And yet I'm driving the ship, you know?
And yet I'm like, we gotta go to this go to this hospital. You got to look this up.
We got to pick up my meds from the script.
You got to pull over here.
You got to find a bigger facility.
I am like large and in charge.
I want to be on your ship.
Cause if you can keep that going with all of that, that's the ship I want to be on.
Exactly.
Thank you for saying that.
So some credit. That's the ship I want to be on. Exactly. Thank you for saying that.
So give yourself some credit.
Give yourself some credit.
So we show up to the hospital in Hot Springs. So it's a bigger, better facility.
And I felt spoiled because I did not have to sit.
I did not have to go in the waiting room for a single minute.
You know how people complain about being in the hospital waiting room for hours and hours
before they get seen?
I did not have to give my insurance card, nothing.
I walked in the hospital and five seconds later I'm in triage.
And I didn't know it at the time that like, clearly I must've looked so
messed up, you know, at the end, even though I looked messed up, I was still me, right?
So I was thinking, oh, wow, look at this star treatment.
Who is this diva?
Look at this girl that gets to go straight back.
Like they must've heard who I am.
I'm very important.
They knew I was coming.
Look, five star review on Google, you know?
And in retrospect, I'm like,
oh, I looked like a lobster.
My eyes were swollen shut and I couldn't speak.
They were like, we gotta get code red.
We gotta get her back there.
But I did not realize any of that at the time.
I love that your adrenaline lied to you so much.
Yes, adrenaline.
Adrenaline.
I'm doing great.
They're just a great hospital.
It's not that I'm falling apart.
Adrenaline lies to you.
I love that.
I forget about what a component adrenaline is because I was pretty calm at this point in time.
Like I can do that to this day
where I go really calm during crisis.
There's a medical emergency.
You're gonna tell me I need surgery tomorrow.
I'm about to lock in.
I'm about to open my little meditation app.
You know what I mean?
I'm about to do all, namaste, about to do, right? I'm about to open my little meditation app. You know what I'm about to do? Namaste, about to do, right?
I'm about to put on some Inya and we're going to get this party started.
So this experience definitely gave me the ability to walk in.
Because you, in essence, have to conserve your energy.
You have to conserve every shred of energy to keep your basic systems alive, which is
breathing, staying conscious.
And you probably didn't even realize that, but that's what's going on.
This is a defense mechanism.
Right.
I didn't even think about that being a defense mechanism.
Our bodies are so wise.
Our gut is so wise.
But again, we've never been taught in a Western society how to listen to our gut,
how to listen to our intuition, how to really advocate, speak our mind, all of these things
that can help go alongside that. I mean, it's because you don't have the luxury to be crying
out in pain and screaming. Your body is doing everything it can to just keep you alive.
And that's part of shock.
Right.
But I mean, I guess it's OK in a situation
where it's apparent that someone's in distress
or has lost a limb or is bleeding out
to a medical professional if that person is in shock.
But what do you do when it's not that severe? There's not,
you know, massive trauma or massive immediate blood loss and trauma and crisis can often
present as stoicism. So like, what do you do to manage that disconnect?
But I would tell you that would scare me even more if you presented looking so severe, but were so calm.
That makes me question like, okay,
like you are an even more severe case than I thought.
So I'd walked into the hospital, right?
And they rushed me back into triage.
And at this point, I have a fever.
I think my heart rate is maybe 101.
My heart rate's a tiny bit elevated.
And I can't remember what level fever I had, but it was anywhere from 101 to 104 throughout
this experience.
So it was definitely around 101 at the beginning, I would say.
So it's lightning quick that I'm in triage.
They're taking all my vitals.
They're assessing me.
They know that something is really wrong.
I don't have to work so hard to advocate or convince someone
that there's something wrong with me, they get me into
a bed right away. And I will just say that this is actually one of the good parts about the systems
that we use in medicine. So there's a criteria now called the SIRS criteria, S-I-R-S, and this is a criteria to help us identify sepsis patients before they necessarily go into
sepsis. So if you have an elevated temperature, you have an elevated heart rate, you have a blood
pressure that is below a certain level, that's like ding, ding, ding, ding, ding, you are now put into
this potential SERS criteria, which automatically makes them give you a level of support that
is, like, they're preparing for something really serious.
Whereas before, all of those metrics might have just been like, oh, yeah, she got a fever.
Oh, yeah, her heart rate's a little elevated.
Oh, yeah, her blood pressure's a little low.
But when you combine them all, and this is a nationwide system that we are on the lookout for potential serious
problems.
That's amazing.
Yeah. So you, I'm, I'm assuming you probably checked all those boxes to meet the surge
criteria.
Oh yeah. But at this point, it's my vision that's really bothering me the most. So I think I was visited by six or seven physicians within a 15 minute period, which I don't know
that that's standard to be seen by that many physicians in that short amount of time unless
you're in like a Trump Bay, right?
Where you have a lot of people working on you.
One physician would come in, ask me some questions.
And then they would leave.
And then another one would come in and then they would leave.
And it was one of those moments.
Like I talked about earlier where I thought that I was being really well taken
care of, I didn't recognize, oh crap, I'm really sick.
I didn't recognize. Oh crap I'm really sick. So at this point I have no idea what's happening
but I am continuing to deteriorate by the hour. I mean you can look back and see I have photos where I'm a little bit bloodshot and a little bit swollen. And then one or two hours later, like I've been possessed.
I mean, you know, like kind of when someone has a, what's it called Dr.
Nance, a sub subcontractival.
Hematoma?
Like, yeah, Hematoma when they, when they pop a blood vessel or something in their
eyes and it gets, yeah, it looks like that. It's, it's crazy town, right? They're like hematoma when they pop a blood vessel or something in their eyes. Oh yeah.
Yeah.
It looks like that.
It's crazy town, right?
And now I realize I was being checked on by so many doctors because they knew that I was
really, really sick.
And they also knew that they had no idea what was wrong with me.
So I think they were all checking on me because they wanted to evaluate me one-on-one and be like, oh, does this physician know what's wrong with me. So I think they were all checking on me because they wanted to evaluate me one-on-one
and be like, oh, does this physician know
what's wrong with me?
Nope, does this physician?
And then I'm sure they were in the hallway
talking amongst themselves being like, we have no idea.
And it's at this point when I lose my eyesight
and I go temporary, totally blind.
So everything goes dark. And I was raised in like a pretty,
uh, just lose my eyesight guys. That's no big deal. Sorry. Pause for pause for terrifying,
terrifying. Yes. And my mom was like a Southern Baptist lady.
I'm like a seventh generation Texan.
So I was raised to not make a fuss
and kind of be a good girl, but everything was dark.
Everything was black.
And so I already consciously knew
it was just me and survival, but that just dimmed out all
of the outside noise even further and just kind of lit this inner animal instinct in
me of like, ah, you have to fight, you know? I am up in the hallway.
I'm up in the hallway.
I'm not in my bed shouting at the doctors.
Help me, help me.
My eyes feel like they're falling out of their skull.
My eyes are on fire.
Like it feels like someone's gouging my eyes out.
I am just shouting down the hallway at them to help me,
which like I said, if you know me
and you knew I had that kind of be a good girl, right?
Like don't make too big of a stink upbringing.
That was a lot for me because a hospital setting
is really gonna trigger my good girl tendencies
where I'm like, okay, I've got to behave.
I've got to follow the rules.
I'm in this professional building
with a bunch of medical professionals,
but I am not staying in my room
and I'm shouting at them down the hall.
And they're like, we'll be right there.
We'll be right back with you.
We'll be right back.
And they're bringing me refreshed tears
and they're bringing me different kinds of eye drops
and rewetting solutions.
But I was in such a dire state
that that's not gonna do anything.
I mean, that was like a whole house is on fire
and you're trying to put a drop of water
or a drop of saline to quench this person's fire.
It was doing nothing.
I didn't understand why people couldn't help me. It felt like I was
saying, help, help, my eyes are on fire. It feels like someone's holding a frying pan and you just
want to shake somebody because it feels like they're not getting it. I couldn't comprehend I could be in such a large hospital, having such an emergent situation, and there still
be a disconnect between myself, the patient, and my care team in terms of understanding
how much I was suffering and how far away we were from answers.
Great analogy first, but second,
you were blind and stumbling down the hallway.
Girl, you were brave.
You were brave.
Because I, I, I can't even imagine
just one of my senses going and then having to advocate
for myself while I'm losing myself.
Wow.
Well, that's why I'm so shocked.
It's like you're getting up a lot.
I would have been terrified, I feel.
So at this point, it did become too much for my body.
I think I finally went into a bit of shock when I lost the eyesight and I wasn't able
to really understand my whereabouts
so much anymore.
I wasn't able to understand what was happening.
At this point, I start hallucinating
and eventually it becomes nighttime
and we couldn't just leave my brother's dog
in the car all night.
Oh my gosh, I forgot about the dog. I forgot about the dog.
I know. And so I talked my brother into going back to the hotel so that he can get the dog
out of the car and get the dog into a bed for the night. And meanwhile, at this point, I'm alone in
the hospital in a state that's not my home state. I have no idea what's happening.
I've lost my eyesight and I would continue
to kind of stumble out of my bed
and a nurse would have to try and find me
and like steer me back towards my bed.
And I had no idea that I was in a hospital.
At this point, I think that I am camping.
And I say, can you return me to my campsite?
And I would feel the bed and I would be like, no, this is not my campsite.
You know, another one, right?
Like I'm just the classic ICU delirium, hallucinations.
And I'm like, why did that happen?
Why did I think I was camping?
And now that I've had a couple of years to process that event, I think my brain was
trying to take me back to the last known place where I was safe, which my brain, the
last coherent memory where everything was okay, was when I was with my brother and
dog and I was around the campfire.
dog and I was around the campfire. And the longer you're in a hospital setting, the closer your connection grows to various hospital staff and the rhythm of the hospital. The
soundtrack of your mind becomes all of the beeps and noises and cadence, especially when you don't have eyesight, you're kind
of one with the rhythm of the hospital. But this was my first
night in the hospital. So there was no rhythm for me to adjust
to. And I distinctly remember really, really clashing with the nurses and trying to formulate plans
for how I was going to get out.
It was almost like I felt like I needed to escape Alcatraz. So I had, this is going to sound crazy, but I had formed these elaborate plans for how
I was going to get the heck out of there.
I had told the nurses that I needed to take a shower and I said that I needed to have
all my belongings nearby.
And my plan was I was gonna go take a shower
and I was gonna regain my vision in the shower
and I was gonna call an Uber
and I was gonna get the heck out of Dodge.
I can't tell you how terrifying and vulnerable it feels to admit on air on a podcast that
I was making escape plans, right?
Because it almost sounds insane to say out loud, but all I can do is look back at that poor girl that was suffering
and was going through a near-death experience and feel nothing but overwhelming
compassion and love for her and know that she was just doing her absolute best to survive in completely foreign and unknown
circumstances because they could not manage my pain. I don't know if I was not being
prescribed adequate painkillers at the time, but I think that I was in so much pain. That was also a reason why I was experiencing the ICU delirium.
And to my knowledge, I could not physically open my eyes. completely swollen shut. And so I was thinking if I could
just take a hot steamy shower, I could get my eyes depuffed and get the mucus and whatnot cleared up enough that I was going to be able to open
my eyes just for a minute or two.
And then I was going to call an Uber and then I was going to get to safety.
For some reason, I was thinking if I could just get back to my brother, if I could just
get out of this hellish place, if I could just get in an Uber, this nightmare
would be over.
And the nurses did let me go into the shower stall with my phone and all my things.
But I took the shower and I was not able to open my eyes enough to call the Uber like
I had hoped. So at that point,
I just became a little bit more resigned
and accepted my fate and was like, this isn't good.
I'm essentially stuck here being tortured,
which I know it wasn't the hospital staff's intent
to torture me, but I didn't know what was happening.
So I just assumed that bad guys were torturing.
And I'm going to pause there and ask Dr. Nance to interject about ICU delirium so it can be
on the record that like, I'm not crazy. This is a thing that can occur.
So what I would actually reframe it as your body, the systems are shutting down.
Your lungs were shutting down.
Your throat was shutting down.
Your eyes are shutting down.
Now, and we talk about language, you now have altered mental state.
And now your brain is shutting down.
And so that is, again, another on the doctor's checklist
of how severe you are,
you have now just crossed the threshold
where you are now in altered mental state.
And so you are now eminently,
like you might've come in and be like,
wow, we're worried she's really swollen.
Okay, now you have altered mental status.
Now we're in a totally different ballpark.
So ICU delirium is 100% a thing and a condition, and that's what happens when, again, you
have a lot of different systems that are affected and you're in.
A lot of times we talk about it more in the elderly, and so they get very confused when
they're in a different setting.
But for you, I would really more describe this in terms of you are having altered mental status.
That's how I would think of it.
Yeah, so thankfully my brother comes back the next day and is there to talk to doctors, talk to nurses,
help advocate for me because I have no idea what's going on at this point.
And frankly, the hospital hasn't figured it out either.
And so I'm on what day four, day five of being sick.
I'm at my second medical facility,
my second day at this second medical facility
and we still don't have answers.
It's really terrifying.
They're grasping at straws.
They put in my chart,
I do not believe this is an allergic reaction.
Can be really triggering to read my chart sometimes.
And they did a full 10 test panel,
like an SDD panel on me.
And yeah, no, I wasn't even sexually active or anything like that.
But, um...
Well, because there's, you can have psych conditions from like gonorrhea.
So again, the doctors are trying to just connect the dots, right?
So like, what could be causing issues where you're having UTI-like symptoms plus you're delirious, plus your eyesight is going, so
they're trying to think out of the box. When I talked about that like Sears
criteria, right, that's an automatic, okay, they're drawing your blood to take blood
cultures to see if there's bacteria, to see if you're in sepsis. They're doing a
chest x-ray to see if you have pneumonia. They're doing a urine sample to see if you're in sepsis. They're doing a chest x-ray to see if you have pneumonia.
They're doing a urine sample to see if you have UTI. And if they're not getting any answers,
now they're trying to figure out, okay, we have to go to our next level. Like, okay,
the most obvious things aren't it. Right, right. So they were crossing things out. They
had brought in an infectious disease doctor.
So at this point,
they're bringing in different kinds of specialties.
The infectious disease, I think,
was thinking it was like hand foot and mouth disease.
Some of the nurses were like,
maybe she burnt some twigs with poison ivy around the fire
and it's poison ivy inhalation. So they have all of these
theories, but frankly, none of their theories are right. But my brother and I knew that
they were missing the mark. So there was definitely a turning point where it went from, wow, everyone is paying attention to us.
Everyone understands the severity of the issue to, they're shooting arrows in the dark.
They have no freaking idea.
We were thinking like, okay, they're bringing in outside specialists.
They're bringing in outside specialists, they're bringing in infectious
disease. We knew at a certain point, people are guessing, people are guessing and they don't know.
My vitals are pretty unstable. I don't know if I officially received an epi pen or officially
coated, but I remember trying to make it to the bathroom and collapsing on the floor at one point
and then coming in with an EpiPen and kind of almost stabbing me with it. I remember hearing a
code called out on the speaker system and it was a code about me. I was like, who's that for? And
then everyone comes rushing in, right? So I say all that just to illustrate
how flippin' sick I was.
It was really, really dire.
I'm so thankful I had my brother there with me.
But unfortunately, this hospital is just grasping at straws.
And I knew the situation was serious.
I didn't know how close to death I came.
And I am realizing right now as I'm speaking to you
that the sudden onset temporary blindness
seemed like the worst thing that could ever happen to me.
But I'm realizing that's actually one of the reasons
why I'm alive.
I feel bad because we've left you with a ringer. We do not have a diagnosis in this episode.
I mean, does anyone have any ideas?
I mean, does anyone have any ideas? Ooh, what's your best guest?
Anyone?
I thought I knew because secretly I already know what happens in part two, but I did not
know as always goes.
Yeah, I mean, I am struck by just how, again, terrifying it is to be...
Nobody wants to be the medical mystery, right?
No, absolutely not.
Nobody wants to be the person like,
I've never heard of that or that only happens in textbooks, right?
So you'll have to wait one more week to find the answer,
but stay tuned and we can't wait to finish this ride with you.
Yeah, and I will say the most surprising thing of this continued journey is that talking to her,
she is so calm. And so I don't want to say Zen because I'm sure there's still anxiety around
it, but like, man, when you hear where this story goes, you're gonna have a new appreciation
for whatever breathing techniques and yoga she's doing because she's somehow found
peace in a really challenging situation.
All right.
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