The Moth - The Moth Radio Hour: All Dressed Up

Episode Date: December 20, 2022

Don your finest duds! This week, The Moth Radio Hour is all about clothes -- from DIY threads to silk blouses, from a prison visiting room to a runway in France. This episode is hosted by Moth producer and director Chloe Salmon. The Moth Radio Hour is produced by The Moth and Jay Allison of Atlantic Public Media. Hosted by: Chloe Salmon Tween Horace Sanders creates a homemade Halloween costume. Deepa Ambekar is caught off guard by a prison's dress code for visitors. Zakiya Minifee fails to heed her mother's fashion advice.  Adrienne Burris is certain that her new husband has ruined her favorite blouse.  Graham Shelby joins the football team as a gentle teenager.  Model Norma Jean Darden participates in a historic catwalk battle. 

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If you're tuning in for the first time, I'm pleased to meet you. If you've been here before, welcome back. In this hour, stories of clothes. To me, the perfect outfit is like the perfect song. Wedded to the moment and capable of expressing something that words alone sometimes can't quite match. My mom is a talented seamstress, and one of the many ways she showed her love

was by sewing me an endless supply of dresses when I was a kid. My favorite was a Swingy Spaghetti strap number made of the most divine holographic pink material. I loved it, but was self-conscious about wearing it outside of the house because it felt like an occasion kind of dress, and I didn't often have one of those as an eight-year-old. So, instead, I'd only wear it every once in a while, and soon I outcrew it. I was reminded of the dress on a recent trip home to Kansas when I made a point of raiding the family photo albums to take some pictures back with me, and one of my mom and her 20s

caught my eye. In it, she's wearing a black satin texito with a hot pink cumberbund and bow tie, and a black velvet bow sweeping back her hair. The event for this ensemble, a night out with her friends at their grungy neighborhood pub. She looked amazing and her smile was a mile wide. Turns out, there's no need to wait and dress for an occasion if you are the occasion. Looking back, I wish I had channeled my mom's energy and worn that divine pink dress every

day. Because when I put it on, I felt like a star. In this hour, stories of the clothes, you're the last, my every pain. Our first story involves a classic childhood dilemma, choosing the perfect Halloween costume. Horace H.B. Sanders told it at a Grand Slam in Detroit, where we partner with Public Radio Station WDET. Here's Horace, live at the Moth. Thank you.

I was 12 years old and I got invited to a party. This is a big deal because of an October and it was this young lady Tracy. Now, Tracy is a big deal because I was going to church in my neighborhood, and she was the niece of the organist, Sister Matthews, so she would bring Tracy with her maybe twice a week. And it was a big deal for me because she was about three years older than me. She was really pretty, fine to me at 12.

But I can impress her because by her only coming twice a week, only seeing me two times out the month, I could wear that one suit I had. Every other Sunday at church, and she figured I had a bunch of them. So Tracy is having this birthday party right around in the middle of October, so she's going to make it a costume party. So all of my cousins go to church too, and they're like, hey, we're all going to go, because I grew up on the east side, she's way on the west side, which is a big deal to me back then.

My parents didn't do a lot of traveling on the west side. So, hey, it seemed like out of town to me. We got on 94 and it said, Chicago west, I thought Chicago was over that side of the river. Like, when are we ever gonna go to Chicago? It's right over there. I always end in Detroit. So she's having this party, right?

So I find out it's a costume party. I'm talking to my cousins. I'm the youngest of them. I'm like, hey, y'all going, y'all going to get a costume? They're like, yeah, we're going to dress up. I'm like, y'all going for real? So I'm excited. I'm building this up in my head.

And I'm like, I'm not just going to buy a costume because every year before this, I was only Dracula. I'll be Dracula, get the little widow's peak which I already had, my mama will emphasize it. I get some of those fake teeth and a black tile as a cape. An address shirt, it was pretty raggedy but it was sweet when I was 19-11. But 12, I had my own eye set on one thing, I was gonna be a ninja. So I told my mama, I was like, look set on one thing. I was gonna be a ninja. So I told my mom, I was like, look, let's check out Ninja Costume.

She's like, boy, we ain't got no money for no Ninja Costume. It's like, what do you mean, we can, come on, mom, it's a big deal. It's a part of, I ain't got no money for no Ninja Costume. My mom, I had one of the things when she made you think it was different kinds of money. She's like, you got some Ninja Costume money? My wife is Ninja. Costume money. My what is Ninja? Costume money. It's funny to me.

Okay. So I'm like, I could do. My daddy, he had his own business. He started his own business. From the time I was born, he had his own business. I was like, well fine. You want batty one? I'll make one.

I was like, I'll make my own ninja costume. Now I couldn't order it online because it wasn't none of that back in the day. I was toy of. So I was like, I'll do the next best thing. I talked to my grandma who we all call Nanny who was like 30 years older than everybody we knew. No matter what your age was, she was 30 years older.

So I was like, Nanny, what can I do? She's like, baby, you can get this die and die whatever you got. So I had these white pajamas set, playing pajamas set, it was like school nanny, what can I do? She's like, baby, you can get this die and die whatever you got. So I had these white pajamas set. Playing pajamas set, it was like Scooby Doo or something. So white pajamas with brown, blue, Scooby Doo right here. The only thing black one, it was the wrist right here

to waist and the ankles. So I'm like, I'll die, black. It'll be black. So I die right and I'm like, I ain't got no black hood but I can make my own hood. So I got some black material. I didn't know I needed black three and I got white and I'm like, I ain't got no black hoo but I can make my own hoo. So I got some black material. I didn't know I needed black three and I got white three.

And so, the hoo. Got some black footies. So I died it, but the school we do was still, you could see it. And really, if we had better lighting in our house, I would have noticed it was a dark gray. It wasn't really black, so. I got my daddy's work markers, those marker lock,

you know, permanent markers. So I'm like, I'll just color this all out. I used about three of those permanent markers, right? So then I make the hood. It's looking like Ultraman. If we got in the old school, people were here. Big point of view, totally different material. This don't match this, this all nappy, this all smooth. And we only had one family car. My brother was going out that night. And he was like, okay, I'll drop you off at the party.

I was like, good, this is what you do. You got a date, status, ladies, you can. That way I can blame it on you that I'm coming home late. It was like perfect. So I was like, status, ladies, you can't. So he takes me over there. I call my cousins before I leave.

Like, y'all gonna be there? Yeah, we gonna be there. So I get dropped off, right? I got my costume on. I walk in the house, I tease and mothers and all upstairs cause the grown people upstairs. Like, hey, they're like, hey, baby, how are you?

And I was like, hey, is anybody else here? I go downstairs, I look and see, it's just Tracy and like three other people. Like, we're my cousins, so I call them on the phone. Like, we're here. Like, our mama said, we can't come. I'm like, what's your name, y'all can't come. All I know is Tracy here. And then people start coming in, right? But, we can't come. I'm like, what's your name? You all can't come. All I know is Tracy here.

And then people start coming in, right? But nobody else has dressed up. This October, I'm 12. We got guys coming in, running in and seeing as hot they got, leave ass crease, a deedist, leather jackets, bombers, silk shirts, all they best going to school first day clothes, right?

And I'm in this ninja outfit. So I'm in the basement, I'm like, well, I can't get home. You know what I'm saying? It's only one car in my brother. I got any cell phones back when I was 12. So I'm just stuck there. I was like, well at least I got this hood on. I'm like, I'll really be an engine tonight.

I'll be low key. I stay away from the food because everybody's coming up here. I'm kind of getting the corner by the washing machine. So then, as all the neighborhood people are coming to us and they're like, talking, they're like, well, Tracy, who was that guy? Who was that over there?

Is it a guy? Casey, not no part of the skin is showing just a little ankle right here. Who is that? I was like, oh, they're talking about me. This is under the hood. Oh, they're talking about me. She's like, I don't know. Tracy was always real aggressive.

She's like, I don't know. Let me see. She walks over. Just snatches the hood off. Oh, that's just horrors. My auntie made me invite him. Whoa! But you don't get the bad part. Then she was like, and what's that smell? It was the marker.

Oh, it stinks so bad. I spent the rest of the party upstairs in the kitchen with all the grown people. And three weeks later, I still have black mark on my chest. Thank you. That was Boris H.B. Sanders. Born and raised in Detroit, he's a stand-up comic, a husband, and a father. Sometimes the clothes we wear are less about style and more about what they mean to us. Deepa Embacar told this story in 2014 in New York City,

where WNYC is a media partner at the mall. Here's Deepa. So I'm walking back to the visitor center of federal prison. My hands are sweaty. My stomach's churning, and my heart's beating really fast. I wasn't nervous because it was the first time I was there. In fact, I've been to prisons before. I'm a public defender, so it's not uncommon for me to go to jail and visit my clients. But it was the first time I was going as a visitor, a friend, and a loved one.

Seven months prior to that day, my friend Michael who was going to visit was arrested for immigration violations. On a tip from a scorned ex-lover who had sent a letter to Homeland Security, he was picked up because 20 years earlier he was deported, re-entered the country to be back with his two children, his wife, or actually know, his girlfriend, his several siblings and parents. He was now awaiting sentence for re reentry charges, which held a maximum sentence of 20 years of incarceration before he would be deported back to Guyana. I knew that once he was transferred to a sentencing facility, it would be sent anywhere within

the U.S. so it was the last time I'd be able to see him. I had waited seven months to finally get on his visitors list, and I was going to have my last hour to say goodbye to him. I got to the front area. The officer turned her attention to me, and she shoved some papers at me. She asked for my ID. She takes two seconds. She looks at me.

She's like, ma'am, you can't wear that out of wear in there. And I was like, what? I mean, I was dressed in a cardigan with a long, maxi summer dress. But this isn't out of wear. It's in her wear. In fact, I'm wearing it inside here in case it's over air condition. I just want to make sure that I'll stay warm. She's like, I don't care if that's out of wear, in or wear or underwear.

You can't wear that in there. I was like, fine. So I took it off and I threw it in my locker. And I stood against the locker hoping to blend in. And then another woman who is another visitor, a little bit older, comes up to me and was like, man, you know, you can't wear that in there. And I was like, well, what do you mean? I mean, they just took my card again.

And she's like, they're not going to let you in there. You have bare shoulders. And I was like, I don't know what to do. I looked up at the clock and it was 2.30. And they stopped processing visitors by 3. And I couldn't possibly make the hour and 45-minute round trip that had made there to go home, change, and there certainly wasn't any bodegas around there.

And I was like, what was I going to do? The fact that I had bare shoulders was going to stand between me and saying goodbye to my friend. And I started crying. So the woman took my hand, and she's like, it's your first time, isn't it? Don't worry, it gets easier. And she turns to her grandson who is about 10 years old next to her and says, Johnny, go to the car and get this lady a shirt. And a few seconds later,

Johnny comes back and gets me a long-sleeved shirt. And the lady explained to me, I just keep a wardrobe in my car. I never know when the officers are going to let me in, so I always have extra clothing to let me in. Just then my number gets called to go in. And I turn to the woman and I say, well, how am I supposed to get this shirt back to you? And she's like, don't worry, sweetie. Just pay it forward. So I was like, all right, I put it on and I go back to see Michael. It was a short hour. We tried to talk about neutral subjects, talked about like we're going out to dinner. It was nothing, nothing major and at the end of our visit, I tried to choke back the tears so he

wouldn't see me cry and I just said, you know, see you later. So I couldn't grasp the finality of the situation. And I leave the visiting area. And I'm in the glassed enclosed area to be processed out with hand stamps and everything. And there's a small girl next to me, maybe about four years old, and she's crying. And she's crying not tears of, you know,

a temper tantrum or someone stole her toy, but tears of sorrow. And she goes to her mom who's standing next to her, it was like, Mommy, I miss daddy, I want to hang out with him some more. And the mom squats down and says to her and whispers in her ear, just yell really loudly that you love him. He'll hear you. And so she presses her sticky little hands in her wet face against the window,

and she screams, daddy, I love you! And I look down at this girl, and I'm disgusted. I'm a public defender, and there's a lot of people that are bothered with what I do, or disgusted by my clients because they're charged of really heinous things. But I have always been proud of what I did. I tried to keep people out of jail. But it wasn't until that moment when I saw that girl that I was disgusted with what I did. That I had any part of this system. That I had any part in this girl's sorrow.

I left the prison, I took off my shirt, and I came home. A couple weeks later, I took my shirt to work primarily because I didn't know what to do with the shirt, and it was just kind of sitting on my coffee table for a number of weeks. So I brought it into my office, and I put it into my bottom drawer. A few weeks after that, I get an email from a colleague that she had sent to a couple of the attorneys explaining that one of her clients, a 17-year-old girl, had just been released from jail and was going to a shelter and needed clothing. So I opened up the bottom drawer in my office And I looked down at that shirt. And that shirt was the only piece of goodness, kindness,

and humanity that I felt that day that I went to go visit Michael. So I took that shirt. I gave it to my colleague, which he gave to her client to pay a forward. Thank you. Thank you. APPLAUSE

That was Deepa Embacar. She lives in Brooklyn with her family. She still works in criminal justice and enjoys hustle dancing in her free time. After serving his sentence, Michael was deported to Guyana. Deepa says that these days, he's doing well and lives happily in Europe. Coming up next, a young girl pines over a pair of red plethora pants and a newlywed is almost undone by laundry day.

When the moth radio hour continues. The Moth Radio Hour is produced by Atlantic Public Media in Woods Hole, Massachusetts, and presented by PRX. You're listening to The Moth Radio Hour from PRX. I'm Chloe Sammon. In this episode, we're bringing you stories of the clothes we wear. Our next story comes to us from Zikia Menife. She told this at a slam in Detroit where we partner with Public Radio Station, WDET. Here's the key. Applause. At four years old, I was absolutely appalled by the uncomfortable sandals I had to wear with my flower girl outfit and my uncle's wedding. And at six, I, regardless of the weather, was moved to tears because of my anger at having to wear the itchy tights

with my birthday girl dress, because it did not go with the aesthetic of my outfit. And this may sound all kind of crazy and a little bit of a oddity around fashion, but I 110% blame my mother. It is not my fault. She is the type that when we are in a store, when we are at an event, when we are at an event,

when we are watching an awards show, loves to say, ooh, that dress lays perfectly, or that material looks cheap. Or the way those jeans are cut makes them look mass-produced. That's the kind of mom that I have when it comes to fashion. So there was a day when we were in a mall shopping for my sister's some event or another and she's in the dressing room trying on her outfit. Thankfully we were by the kids section so I got to go on a little adventure. As I'm looking through the racks,

I find the sickest pair of pants I have ever seen in my entire life. They are plethora. Ox, blood, red, bell bottoms, and they are in my size. So they're coming with me. I grabbed them right off the rack and I run them to the dressing room to show them on them. I'm like, look at these sick pants. She's like, yeah, you know, they're great, but they're plethora.

And they're cute. Like, that's all that matters to me. She's like, well, plethora doesn't breathe. When it's hot, it's really hot, and when it's cold, it's freezing. And I was like, well, I had to wear those uncomfortable sandals and those itchy tights, right? Sometimes beauty is pain.

You just gotta do it. And to wrap it all up in a bow, these pants were on sale. They were well within my nine-year-old budget coming in at a smooth $8. Wrap them up in a bow, they were meant for me. And then when I was a little girl and still to this day, I have zero patients.

When it comes to new clothes in my closet, I am wearing them at the next available event, which at nine years old happened to be my next day of school. You couldn't tell me anything in those red, leather, ox, blood, bell bottoms, and a nice cool off-white sweater, I was killing the game. And I still don't know if everybody else

thought they were as cute as I thought they were, but it doesn't really matter. I had the best day of school, and it wasn't until B&A or before an aftercare, when things started to go a little wrong, because I am an athlete. I'm a Cooper, I always love to play, and the boys were playing basketball in the gym.

It was one of the rare days to be inside, and they asked me if I wanted to play, and I was like, yes, absolutely, sign me up. After about 30 minutes of ripping and running up and down the gym, I realized that I was hot, like very hot, like sweat dripping down the bottom of my pants onto the floor and in my legs type of hot.

And I just could not wrap my head around this type of heat. So I decided to like, waddle run my way into the bathroom, which thankfully was single use. And I made the executive decision that I was like, they just got to come off. Like, I'm taking them all the way off. I'm going to do like a pat down dry, right? I'm going to let them air dry. We're just going to have a moment to collect ourselves and come back peacefully. So my mother had told me that plethora doesn't breathe when it's hot. It's hot. When it's cold, it's cold.

Well, what she did not mention is that when plethora is wet and hot, it can shrink. So these dope, oxblood, red, plethora, bill bottoms that had been fitting me like a glove all day would not make it up past my thighs when I was ready to leave the bathroom. And in all of these lessons that I had learned about fashion and style for my mother, none of them had prepared me for what you do when you are half undressed in a public bathroom and need to leave. So as the adults who are monitoring B&A as they should come by and knock on the door,

Z, you okay? You have fun? Everything's good. 10 minutes later, Z, are you sure you're okay? And I don't know if it was by fate or magic or my tears that made the pants expand just enough for me to get into them. And my, I'd add, they didn't never, never really dried. They were still quite damn, it was a terrible experience

putting them back on. But my mom showed up at the end of the day and I waddle ran my way out to the car and there were the most beautiful smooth butter comfortable cotton sweatpants waiting for me in the back seat of that car and let me tell you friends if you learned nothing else, check the weather, check the environment of your event, know how your fabrics breathe, and dress accordingly. Zakia Menofi grew up in Eastlansing, Michigan, and now lives in Chicago. She's a lover of live music and aims to create dance circles and hype up strangers at every

concert. Zakia says that after they betrayed her, her once loved red plethora pants never saw the light of day again. All of these years later, even the mention of plethora makes her sweat and makes her mom roll around with laughter. As an adult, Zikia still takes fashion risks. Though now, her runway is a corporate office instead of her elementary school hallways.

Her advice? You can get away with almost anything if you pair it with a pencil skirt or a blazer. Tassels and sparkles are her personal favorites. To see some photos of Zikia and her stylish family, head on over to themoth.org. Our next story comes from our StorySlam series in London. Here's Adrian Burris. Okay, so it's November 2011 and I just got married so everything's pretty much perfect in Adrian land.

I have a kitchen that's full of gadgets and gizmos. I don't even know how to use things like a bread tube. I don't know, but I'm a wife now, so I'm gonna figure out how to use it. I have a closet full of just gorgeous new clothes that I had to buy for all the bridal showers. My church threw for me and there were hersel dinner, including this sleeveless, real silk ivory

button-down blouse with pearl buttons that made me feel so sophisticated. And all of these things are in our first home, which is this three-bedroom house in the suburbs with a creek on the side and hydrangea bushes in the back and birds and trees, and it's the picture perfect start to a marriage. Which is something that was really important to me at the time because I didn't have that growing up. My parents got divorced when I was 11. Then my dad married his mistress and then divorced her. And when I was a teenager, my mom thought it was a great idea to date my high school principal.

Spoil alert, not a great idea, mom. Thanks. So a lot of my expectations for marriage and my values for what it should look like came from Jane Austin novels and romantic comedies, but I was really doing the best I could. So it's November. We've been back from our honeymoon for about a week. And my brother comes over to visit in our home and I'm playing Little Hostess.

And we're on the couch watching TV. And I've got snacks out. and I'm showing off all of our Gifts that we got for the wedding and pictures from the honeymoon and my husband Ben pops out of the bedroom to say He's going downstairs to do laundry and I think of course you are because you're the perfect husband You're going to do laundry and he goes downstairs and I keep talking to my brother and I just start to get this feeling that I think he probably he might have forgotten something you know because he's just a husband he probably just forgot like an item in the bedroom. So I leave my brother and I go into the bedroom and I realize that there's something missing

and he's taken my real silk white blouse with the pearl buttons for my rehearsal dinner and put it into the washing machine with the blue jeans and I flip my shit I'm like I'm screaming. What have you done? What have you done? And I run out and by this time he's back up from the laundry room and like a sane person he says What have I done and I start yelling the shirt the shirt and what shirt and this only incites me further So I push him out of the way I run down into the basement, throw open the lid

to the washing machine, and throw both arms into the running washing machine. The patterns like being gets my arm and the studs are like coming out, and I'm throwing wet blue jeans like into the air onto the floor of our basement, trying to save this shirt. And I'm throwing things, and I'm cursing, and I start thinking about how

this shirt was like the new shirt and it was beautiful. It's the nice piece of clothing I've ever owned. It was to start this marriage and I start crying and I'm throwing clothes and I cannot find it and I know it's in there and then I'm about to start screaming again when I hear the door slam upstairs and I just stop. I had forgotten that my brother was there at all. And it wasn't been who had left. It was him. I'm immediately taken back in my mind to Valentine's Day 1999 when I had my little heart-shaped box of chocolates in a bear. And my brother had like a little Valentine's race car or something. And we were waiting for my dad to

get home. And he never did and I woke up in the middle of the night at like 3 a.m. to hear them yelling at each other and it was almost immediately after that I found out they were splitting up and I know when my brother came to visit and heard me yelling at my husband like that just a week after we got married he was thinking this is obviously what marriage is going to be like in our family. And I had an epiphany with my arms shoulder deep and a running washing machine that my marriage was not going to be like that. Love isn't about having the marriage that's from a sitcom, from having the picture for perfect postcard because we're going to make mistakes. But it's about loving each other through those mistakes

and actively choosing to love each other and choosing to forgive each other. So I pull my arms out of the washing machine and I close the lid, I just leave all the clothes on the floor. I'm like, whatever, at this point, I sacrifice the shirt for the sake of the marriage. And I turn to walk upstairs to make my shame known and find my brother and apologize.

And I don't even make it to the top before I see Ben standing there looking tired and frustrated, rightfully so, holding in his hands the crumpled white silk shirt with the pearl buttons he had found behind the bathroom door. Thanks. That was Adrienne Burris. She now lives in Greenville, South Carolina, with her husband Ben, two kids and a very mischievous cat. She's a poet who teaches creative writing to elementary and middle school students at her local arts center. I asked her if she still has the shirt.

She said that sadly she doesn't, as she wore it so much that it was eventually too frayed and stained to keep going. She still remembers it fondly, but now strictly buys clothing that is machine washable. After more than a decade, Adrian and Ben are still married. To see photos of them on their wedding day, Adrian with her brother and a picture of the shirt head on over to themoth.org. After the break, a mild-mannered teenager joins his high school's football team and a young woman breaks into the modeling industry with a catwalk battle for the ages when the Moth Radio Hour is produced by Atlantic Public Media in Woods Hole, Massachusetts, and

presented by PRX. This is The Moth Radio Hour from PRX. I'm Chloe Salmon. Sometimes the clothes on our backs are more about fitting in than standing out. Grim Shelby told this story at a Grand Slam in Louisville Kentucky where we partner with Louisville Public Media. Here's Grim live at the mall. When I was 15 I had a growth spurt. And it left me 6'3 and 200 pounds.

So I decided to join the high school football team. I did this partly because people kept saying things to me like, you play football son? And I could tell that no was not a satisfying answer. I also did it to impress my dad. He'd been an all-conference wide receiver back in the day, and he'd taught me the game, and we didn't just go and throw football, no, we would run plays in the yard, you know, the post-pattern,

or flee flickers, button hooks. And I guess I did it because I wanted to kind of solidify our connection, because at this point, I was five inches taller and 50 pounds heavier than he was. And that was weird. On the first day of practice, the coaches let us down to this dark, dank, grimy, weight room for a strength test.

And I'm getting ready to do my first set of squat thrusts. And one of the coaches comes through and just announces to everyone, now, remember gentlemen, football doesn't build character. It reveals character. OK. And that inspired the guy next to me to get in my face and say, come on, man, don't quit.

Punish yourself. Punish yourself. And I really wanted him to shut up, because I really didn't want everybody to notice that I was struggling with a barbell that had weights on it the size of donuts. And I also was afraid that if they saw that, they would see right through me to the fact

that I didn't feel big. I felt like the same goofy, awkward kid who'd gotten picked on, who'd avoided confrontation any chance he could. I still lived mostly in the world in my head thinking about Superman and Captain Kirk and Woody Allen. And I wanted football to help change that. I wanted it to help me stand up for myself and feel as big on the inside as I looked on the outside. The next day, went to the trainer to get fitted for the pads and equipment and everything. And after a while, the trainer just said that there was not a helmet in the building

that would fit me because my head was too physically large. I said, coach, we're going to have to special order one for this guy. No, huge, really. I was assigned to work with the offensive line. These are big dudes who try to block the defense and protect the smaller guys who have the ball. And I was trying to get the moves down and the coach came over and gave me some tips and

he said, son, when you get in the game, which one to do is, you know, get your elbow in there and kind of bloody the guys lip a little bit. And I thought, that's so mean. I almost said, coach, I don't really want to hurt anybody. Is that going to be a problem? And then they gathered us all at the end of practice for an announcement. They said, gentlemen, we are holding a fundraiser to get some new way to equipment. We want each of you to take a pledge form, go around, talk to your friends, your neighbors,

your relatives, and get them to agree to give a little bit of money for each pound that you lift because we're going to have a public weightlifting display next Saturday at the mall. And this was just multiple layers of humiliation, just running through my head. I thought, what am I going to do? And I get home and I'm like hyperventilating. And I hear this voice in my head. And it sort of sounded a little like Woody Allen circa 1986.

And it just said, you know Graham, you don't have to play football. It's not required. And my dad comes in. And he says, how is practice? And without thinking too, I revealed my character. Dad, this isn't me. I'm quitting the team.

And I didn't know what he was going to say. He looked like he was thinking 100 things at once. And he left the room and he came back a little later, his eyes were kind of shiny. But he said, you do what's right for you. And I felt like a weight, the size of a grimy barbell. Just fell right off my shoulders. And I decided to start putting those daydreams on paper.

It became a writer. I founded my school's literary magazine. And dad and I still, every once in a while, would go out and run a few buttonhooks and flea flickers. It turned out that was the kind of football player I wanted to be. And that was good because I'd already made the team. Thank you. APPLAUSE Grinchelby is a writer, storyteller, and filmmaker. His documentary, City of Ali, about how the death of Muhammad Ali brought the people of Louisville together is streaming now.

He lives with his wife and three teenage sons, who are, by the way, triplets. Grim doesn't regret quitting the team. He sometimes imagines what it would have been like to have had the whole experience, the lights, high fives, and cheering crowds. But he's been more than happy to play for fun in the slightly lower stakes world of Flagfoot Ball Leaks.

To see some photos of Graham and his dad, head on over to themoth.org. Our final story comes to us from a participant in the 1973 Battle of Versailles fashion show, which pitted French and American designers against each other in a catwalk showdown for the ages. Norma Jean Darden told it at a moth main stage at Aaron Davis Hall in Harlem. Here's Norma G. Thank you. Thank you. I was a fashion model for many years, and I got this dream when I was very young. My father used to give fashion shows in our backyard

to raise money for the NAACP. And he was quite a character. He managed to get Sammy Davis Jr. to come be the MC. And I was a teenager, and I got to see these gorgeous creatures in our guest room on sheets and they had paint. They painted their bodies. They had false eyelashes. I'd never even seen these things.

And I got this idea that I would love to be a model. And I told my mother, but I was a bit of a ugly duckling. I was so tall. I was taller than everyone in the class. The boys included. And I wasn't exactly a raving beauty. So she said, no, you're going to college. That's what you're doing.

And I went to college, and I did finish. And my teachers noticed that I was as happy with my outfits as I was with my books. And so they decided to get me to represent art college, Sarah Lawrence, at MadWazell magazine. So this is in the 60s, so I had my little shoes to match my bag, my hat to match my gloves, a suit, and a red bouquet, coat with a cape and I was very dramatic. So I dashed into Conti Nash, went up in my little high heel pattern of the shoes and I got to the receptionist and she said to me, what are you doing here?

Why didn't you use the delivery entrance? And I said, well, I'm here to represent my college. And she said, there must be some mistake. We only use white models here. And I was so stunned and really flabbergasted. So I called my college. And our person who had sent me was a Southern white person. And he became outraged. And he carried on.

And he finally got them the next year to use a black model. But it wasn't me. So I came to New York after I graduated with the idea of being an actress, but there again I was looming over the leading men and I was always too something. Once I was too dark for a part, then I was too light for a part, too tall for a part, too thin for a part, not thin enough, so I was having a hard time getting cast. And they told me try modeling, come through the back door. So I was trying that. And then people were telling me in the 60s, well, we would love to use black models,

but the Southern people wouldn't buy our products, so we can't do it. I thought that was such a phony argument, but couldn't do anything about it, and then one of the models from my father's fashion show, Audrey Smalls, got this idea that we would pick it Harper's Bazaar. So we went down with our little placards and we marched in front of there and there were only six of us but we created quite a stir and they came

down and they told us that that wasn't necessary and that you you know, the magazine was changing, and sure enough, they hired a black model, but it wasn't us. So we felt like we were opening doors, but we weren't getting anywhere. And I guess that's the way we called ourselves the little pioneers. Then a long came an agency called Black Beauty. And Black Beauty made a big imprint.

They got Life Magazine to do a cover with Naomi Sims. We were inside, and suddenly we were the rage of the town. Along came the black designers like Stephen Burroughs and John Haggins and Scott Verry. And we were suddenly the end girls. We were everywhere. So long came Eleanor Lambert, who got this idea to take American fashion to Paris.

So she hired all the black models to represent some of the American designers, and the French people got everybody to represent them. And all of we went to Paris designers and the French people got everybody to represent them. And off we went to Paris and the French took two hours on their rehearsals and they had Nuri have leaping into the balcony and they had Grace Kelly as the MC and Josephine Baker, our favorite artist, as the singer. And we came in and it was freezing cold and they didn't

have any food for us. And we were there all day and this was the one day of rehearsals. And we had K Thompson who'd written Eloise as a choreographer and she gave up on us and quit. And no one was getting along. It was a terrible thing, and the show started. And the Paris went first, and they went on for about two hours with one show after another. And we had absolutely nothing but our wonderful music from Barry White and ourselves. And we had been working in churches, most of us, before we were able to work on

7th Avenue and make the magazines. So we had only our own exuberance. And when we hit the stage, they was astonished to see that kind of energy because the French models were very stiff. And they just sort of moved around slowly and we were just dancing and converting and at the end just posing everywhere and they got so excited they threw their programs in the air and they were stamping their feet and they were yelling and the Americans were successful. Well, I came back to America and not much was going on? No one seemed to have carried our wonderful success over here.

And I managed to get the cover of Essence Magazine. And for us, that was a very big deal. And the day before I was defeated, all of a sudden, I felt a terrible pain. And I took myself to the hospital and they said, oh my God, you're green. And this is an awful time for you to be ill because all of our surgeons are in a seminar in California. So lovely. And I don't remember another thing for three days.

And I lost my cover and because of the operation, I was no longer able to be a fashion model. And this for me was just devastating. My dream was going, but everyone knows that modeling is a rainbow career and you don't expect to do it forever. But the next thing was what to do. So I took a job as an assistant working backstage in fashion and I was asked to do a tangle with John Haggons, who was the designer who had hired me and he wanted us to tangle out and

then to do a show. So he didn't want to get the white runway dirty, so we couldn't practice. So when the day came and he was so excited, the Vogue editor had come, the harvest was our editor was there and we got out to do our tango and the stage collapsed. And we fell into the laps of the Vogue editor. Nipus says, the show was not quite a hit, but he had asked me to bring some goodies to serve people after the show.

And when I did, they liked what I brought. And channel 13 was there and they asked me to be a caterer. So my sister and I didn't know anything about catering at all. And they said, we're going to pay you $5,000, and you're going to bring the food for the grandmothers and the grandchildren of fair. And we said, said yes we will. So that turned out to be quite successful and at that point, and we were in our 30s by now, we had found out that our grand father was born a slave.

We decided that we would interview our relatives that were then in their 70s and 80s and find out about what it was like in their time. And we've managed to create a memoir, cookbook called Spoon Bread and Strawberry Wine. So in our journey to rediscover our family, we found the most precious thing to do is to collect photographs, to collect recipes, because that is all of our legacies. And that is what makes things so special, and it makes our contributions to society, and we feel they're small, but when we look back on it,

they're really grand, and we're part of the fabric that makes the society work. And in my travels, I managed to work with President Clinton, for President Bush, for President Trump, money is money. And when one door closes, another can open if we're open to our destinies. And thank you for listening. That was Norma Jean-Darden.

She's had a long career in the food and fashion worlds. As a Willamina model, her photos appeared in numerous publications, including Vogue, Harper's Bazaar and Essence magazine. She's also co-author, along with her sister Carol, of the award-winning, double-day book, Spoonbred and Strawberry Wine, recipes and reminiscences of a family. She owns and operates Spoonbred Catering, New York's largest African-American-owned catering company, and the acclaimed restaurant Miss Mamie's Spoonbred 2. Norma Jean graciously invited me up to her restaurant

in Harlem, where I asked her what style means to her. My father used to tell me when he came out of Alabama and moved to North New Jersey that people living in the most modest shacks on Sunday would come out with their clothes pressed, their shoes polished, even if they were walking on dirt roads, they were spectacularly stylish. When you went to church, you had your head, you had your Sunday best and you spent Saturday getting that together. So, style has always been important in our community. We might not have had our freedom in the old days, but how we presented ourselves and

what we wore was very important in saying who we were. So style was a precious part of a black community and I think that's why we've had so many wonderful designers and models coming out of our communities because we always had church fashion shows before we could be on 7th Avenue. We were still styling. That's like you think maybe the way you do. That was Norma Jean-Darden. That's it for this episode of The Moth Radio Hour. I hope that whatever you're wearing today,

you feel like a million bucks, because you sure look like it. I'm gonna go to Quick Call. Thank you to all of our storytellers in this episode for sharing with us. And to you for listening. We hope you'll join us next time. This episode of the Maw 3D Hour was produced by me, Jay Allison, Katherine Burns and Chloe Sam, and who also hosted this show.

Co-producer is Vicky Merrick, a social producer and Emily Couch. The stories were directed by Jennifer Hickson. The rest of the Maw's leadership team includes Sarah Haberman, Meg Bowles, Kate Teller's Jennifer Birmingham, or an include Chaseuche Suzanne Russ brand and grant, Inga Gladowski, Sarah Jane Johnson, and Aldi Kaza. The Moth would like to thank the Bill and Melinda Gates Foundation for their support of the Moth's global community program.

Moth stories are true, as remembered and affirmed by the storytellers. Our theme music is by the Drift, other music in this hour from Barry White, Vanilla Ice, Hermano Scoutieres, Blue Dot Sessions, Dickie Nolan, and Wolf Pek. We receive funding from the National Endowment for the Arts. The Moth Radio L is produced by Atlantic Public Media in Woods Hole, Massachusetts, and presented by PRX. For more about our podcast, for information on pitching this, your own story, and everything else, go to our website, TheMoth.org.