The Moth - The Moth Radio Hour: The Pursuit of Happiness

Episode Date: March 4, 2025

In this hour, stories of searching for fulfillment and finding one's bliss. Unconventional self-care, making ancestors proud, and a quest for the perfect gift. This episode is hosted by Moth Senior Director Jenifer Hixson. Storytellers: Ann Guo battles postpartum depression by soliciting dares from her family and friends.  Morgan Givens joins the police academy, following in the footsteps of his trailblazing grandmother.  Ruby Cooper strives to give her son everything, until he asks for an untraditional Christmas gift.  To learn more about listener data and our privacy practices visit: https://www.audacyinc.com/privacy-policy Learn more about your ad choices. Visit https://podcastchoices.com/adchoices

This is the Moth Radio Hour. I'm your host, Jennifer Hickson. In this hour, the pursuit of happiness. It's a deep concept from our Declaration of Independence, our inalienable right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. Scholars and lawmakers and regular citizens have debated the meaning of these words since they were first inked in 1776. In this hour, people pursuing their versions of liberty and happiness in ways unforeseen by the framers. For example, our first story is by a woman who turns

to crowd-sourcing to find her joy. Live from the Wilbur Theatre in Boston, where we partner with public radio station WGBH, here's Anne Guo. Back in January 2014, I'm driving toward a hotel in Cambridge with a sense of dread in my stomach because I can't believe that I, a 38-year-old professional Asian mother, I'm about to become a party-crasher. And not just any party, it's the Goldberg Bar Mizzva. This all started back in 2008 when my son was born, a time that should have been the happiest in my life. I was diagnosed with postpartum depression.

All of a sudden at work, around the water cooler, I no longer knew what to talk about. Instead, I find myself smiling a lot, partly to hide how I was truly feeling inside, and partly because I once read somewhere that the act of smiling will trigger happy chemicals to release in your brain. And I can tell you from personal experience

that it's a load of crap. The depression lasts around two years or so, but it's not like after two years of darkness, I wake up the next morning and win the lottery. And the happiness and joy from winning the lottery fills up that big emotional deficit from the last two years. Instead, I'm dragging around this deficit, this huge burden, everywhere I go. And anytime I have a bad day and I'm feeling a little down, I will worry, maybe it's coming back. Overall life just felt kind of flat and I couldn't help but wonder is this my new normal? Will I ever be as happy as I once was? Now by the time my son turned five I said all right enough is enough I'm gonna have to do something about this in fact I'm gonna print my own winning lottery ticket

It's gonna be something that bring me so much joy and happiness you'll fill up my emotional bank Now what could that thing be though? I Figured I'll look to my past for some clues so I sat down in my kitchen table and made a list of all the most joyful moments in my life. And I look at it and a lot of them involve going on silly adventures. So I said, all right, if that's what it takes to get back to tip-top shape, so be it. I declare the year 2014 to be the year of adventures, where once a month I will make time and go on an adventure.

And to help me come up with ideas, and also to help hold me accountable, I send a mass email to family and friends, making them a deal they can't resist. I said, look, you now have an opportunity to dare me to do whatever it is you want, provided that you donate money to my favorite charity. If I hit my donation target I will do your dare no matter what it is and I dubbed the project Care Dares. And boy did the dares start flowing in.

I'm to walk a hundred miles from Boston to Northampton, Massachusetts without bringing any money or food. I'm to make a boat and float in it on the Charles River. And I'm to speak only Shakespearean English for an entire week. My husband Dan, who is Jewish, challenged me to crash a bar mitzvah. A coming of age celebration for a 13 year old boy. So as I'm pulling onto Memorial Drive, just minutes away from the hotel, I'm starting to experience some serious anxiety.

Because if people ask me who should I say I am, I probably won't blend in with the GoBurgs. So I have to be related either through adoption or marriage. Alright, so if a family had adopted a baby girl from China 38 years ago, you think they know who I am by now. All right, so that's out. Marriage. Maybe I'm just uncle so-and-so's date,

or maybe one of the kids attending the party, I'm the stepmother, or maybe I'll just ask the person to guess and just nod to whatever it is they come up with. My plan is to go in there, chit chat with a few people, maybe get on the dance floor for a song or two. If there's a limbo contest, there's usually a limbo contest. I might even participate. What I want to do however is eat or drink anything because I don't want to be stealing. On

top of that I brought a birthday present. It's just a small card game, but it's sort of my way to proactively tongue for the transgression I'm about to commit. So with the plan all worked out, I step into the hotel. I figure I'll first do a walk-by of the room to assess the situation. So after a long winding hallway, I see a large set of double doors. As I walk past, time slows down. I see five round tables. The one at 10 o'clock is populated with teen boys. I figure that's where my target is sitting.

The room is brightly lit. Everyone is just sitting there quietly eating their dinners. Holy crap, there's no music, no dancing, no limbo contest. Totally unlike the bar mitzvahs I've been to in the past legally. There's no way I can pull this off because if I walk in the door all eyes will be on me, everyone will hear what I have to say, and I'll be instantly exposed. Abort mission, abort mission. I speed walked back toward the hotel entrance and it took everything in me not to run out of door in that moment. Instead I plop into a large couch in the not to run out of door in that moment.

Instead I plopped into a large couch in the lobby, whip out my cell phone and pretend to be texting. Why am I doing this? I have no idea. Why take some deep yoga breath? I want to back out but I can't because people donate their money to charity already. And then I remember Dan telling me, look, all you have to do to prove that you're crash of our MISRA is to take a picture with the birthday boy. I think I may have

an idea. I picked myself back up from the couch, go through that winding hallway, through the side of large double doors, straight toward the head table. Hi, how's everyone doing tonight? How's the food? I'm Anne from the catering department. A woman stands up, we shake hands and we chit-chat a little. By the way, I have a present here, so who's the birthday boy? My plan is to go over there to that table full of teen boys, handle their gift while one of his friends take a picture of two of us, and I'm out of here. Oh, the birthday girl, you mean.

She's right here. It's a bar mitzvah, the girl equivalent of a bar mitzvah. I got the gender wrong, what else did I mess up? I'm just standing here, after I hand over the gift, she opens it up, looks at it, thanks me politely and puts it away. And I miss my opportunity for the photo and I can't figure out what to do next. Well, normally during these celebrations there's music and dance. I have no idea why am I saying that, what I'm trying to do, I'm just trying to buy myself some time. Oh, this is just a dinner for all of our out-of-town guests, the actual party is tomorrow. What? Now you tell me I came on the wrong date and crashing the dinner before

the bar mitzvah? Alright, let's just get this over with. Think, think, Ann. Where I'm from, if you take a picture with someone who's about to celebrate their birthday, it brings you good luck. I can't believe I just said that. It doesn't even make any sense. I cringe so hard. I'm just going to go home now, pay everyone back for their charity donations out of my own pocket. I don't even care.

But that's when I hear her say, um, sure, of course. And I hand over my cell phone for the photo. On the car ride home, I'm flooded with a sense of euphoria. It's like I just escaped a near death experience. By December of 2014, I've walked across Massachusetts. I've spoken Shakespearean English for a week. And I've also built that boat out of two pieces of plywood.

And my maiden voyage only lasted 10 minutes because it started leaking. And after a whole year of monthly shenanigans, my emotional bank is magically full again. And I can't believe that I'm happier than I've ever been. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. That was Anne Guo. She's a career coach and creator of Passion Analytics, a coaching chatbot. When Anne is not geeking out on career design or storytelling, she continues to go on adventures. She invites you to hit her up

or maybe even join her if you have any great ideas. And I think she means it. To see a photo of Anne with her makeshift boat and smiling at the Goldberg Bat Mitzvah, visit themoth.org where you can also download the story. Regarding the pursuit of happiness, my family, friends, trees all bring me joy, but I do have a peculiar source. It's a little weird. I like to give my dog haircuts. He's a shih tzu rescue, and his hair grows insanely fast.

Professional cuts look great, but cost more than my haircuts. So I invested in a buzzer. And I found out that the way the hair falls away is so satisfying. He's my own furry little zen garden. And unlike my kids, who get all bent out of shape if their bangs come out a little short or crooked or whatever, there are no complaints from Roscoe. He mostly loves the attention. Sometimes he grows impatient so the second half of the haircut has to wait.

No problem. No complaints. Mohawks, fades, the Shag, I do it all. The lack of precision in my cuts sometimes makes strangers ask, what kind of dog is that? But the happiness circles back around because it's so fun to pet him when he's freshly buzzed, so he gets a lot of extra love. Find your joy, people. In a moment, a rookie cop with a secret, when the Moth Radio Hour continues. I'm going to go to the bathroom. The Moth Radio Hour is produced by Atlantic Public Media in Woods Hole, Massachusetts. This is The Moth Radio Hour. I'm Jennifer Hickson.

We're talking about the pursuit of happiness, and for many that would include freely being your whole self at home and at work. Our next story was told at the Tampa Theater in Florida, where we partner with WUSF Public Media. Here's Morgan Givens. Thank you. My grandmother pulled me to the side and waited until I met her eyes before she said, now Morgan, if you ever have an interaction with the police, you keep

your hands where they can see them. You telegraph your movements. Tell them everything you are going to do before you do it. Do you understand me? I nodded and said I did, because my grandma and I have been having that same conversation for years. But the fact that we talked about it so much didn't make it any less confusing. Because my grandma, she was the police. I'm serious.

The woman had a badge, a uniform, a cop car, everything. And her friends, the people who would show up at our house for backyard barbecues and cookouts, the ones who would help us move loading boxes into the backs of pickup trucks. Well, they were the police too. And as a kid, I didn't really understand because in my mind at the time cops were heroes and I was being taught to fear them. And my grandma is one of them black women they write inspirational novels and movies about

because she was one of the first black women through the Charlotte Police Academy and She was excellent She was exceptional She was perfection because she had no choice She knew they were gonna judge every black woman that came up behind her by the standards she set. And in the inspirational movie of my grandmother's life, some well-assuming white person shows up at the end and takes all the credit.

But if I'm keeping it completely 100 with y'all, white folks weren't checking for my grandma like that back then. She had to sue to get the job she had already earned when she graduated from the academy, as if she didn't have the highest academic marks in her class, as if she weren't running laps around her training instructors. But in the end, she prevailed, and her life turned out a bit like a fairy

tale. Although one with some baggage, particularly for me. Because it's already hard enough to live up to the expectations of our parents and our grandparents, but when your grandmother is literally superwoman, it gets just a little bit harder. And I ain't gonna stand up here in front like I don't appreciate everything she did on her path to success, as if I can't appreciate how I can trace it like a thread of hope from her to my mother

right down to me. She spent 30 years on that department. And when she retired, we had to rent a banquet hall because of how respected she was. The chief of police showed up himself. But I still didn't understand how some cops could turn out like my grandma and others could turn out like the ones we read about in history books, still read about today and still see on TV the ones who are so clearly on the wrong side of history. And I never thought I'd get an answer to that question.

But then I graduated into the middle of the worst recession in recent memory. And I needed a job. So I looked at grandma. You know what? If grandma can be a cop and be successful, maybe I can too. And could I have gone to the Charlotte Police Academy? I could have. But my grandma casts a long shadow. And the last thing I needed was for some snitching instructor to call her up and let her know

I could not do a single doggone push-up. I ain't proud of it, but it is the truth. So that's how I ended up at the Washington, D Academy. Along with 30 other recruits willing to do anything and everything we could to become officers in the nation's capital. But things were kind of weird when we got there. Everyone was always staring at us, watching us when we walked down the hallway, peering into the door way of our classroom. We could not figure out what was going on.

And one day, I'm sitting in the cafeteria next to one of my fellow recruits and he looks over at me. Hey man, I know why everybody's staring at us. Yeah, they think there's a trans recruit in our class. Wherever could they be? I almost choked on my lunch, then ran to the bathroom, barricaded myself inside reliving some of the worst memories from high school Because the trans person they were looking for Was me

The call was coming from inside the house After a few deep breaths I made my way back to the cafeteria. The same dude looks over at me. I know who it is. Mm-hmm. Talking with the hands and stuff. Putting them all on the hips. Very feminine qualities. It's Everett. My name is not Everett. But my secret was safe for just a little bit longer. And I'd always planned on telling my class about the entirety of who I am, but I wanted them to get the chance to know me first. But apparently somebody way high up in the police department thought it'd be a good idea to tell everybody and they mama that a trans recruit was gonna be in the next class and that if anybody messed with them

they were gonna get fired. To a certain, I get it. I was never going to be just another recruit, but I was now gonna have to out myself a lot sooner than I intended to. I was worried. I was afraid, particularly about this one cat named Winston. Winston? afraid, particularly about this one cat named Winston. Winston smoked cigarettes and chewed tobacco at the same time. Winston was the conservative oil to my liberal water. Winston was gonna be a problem.

But I was gonna have to speak anyway. So I stood in front of the class. All right y'all, look, look, listen. The trans person everybody's looking for, it's me. So why don't we just quit this weird game of gendered hide and seek and let it go and of course it wasn't going to be that easy because I was the first openly trans recruit through the Washington DC Police Academy and I knew they were going to judge every recruit that came after me by the standard I said.

Thank God my grandma had laid out the path all those decades before when she was a first. Because I was gonna have to walk the same tight rope to perfection that she had all those years ago. I would have to be excellent. I had to be exceptional and I worked my ass off. Stayed up late into the night so I got A's on my exams. Crushed myself in physical training just to prove I could do it. And over time I could see the way my classmates and training

instructors began seeing me as a person first. My class even surprised me. They selected me to give the graduation speech in front of our family and friends, the assistant chiefs, and the chief of police. And after graduation, I got another surprise. It was Winston. He walked up to me, held out his hand, waited for me to take it, and locked eyes with me the same way my grandmother had all those

years ago. He pulled me close and he said, hey man, you listen here. If anybody messes with you, you let me know and we're gonna handle it. I could not have been more shocked if I had been struck by a bolt of lightning. Because here was Winston, this man I had been seeing in nothing but hues of black and white, reminding me to see the gray in him

I so often demand that others see in me. And Winston showed me just a little piece of his heart and I got it. Because the heart of the officer matters. The badge don't do nothing but exacerbate the qualities of who we are at our core. That's part of the power of who we are at our core. That's part of the power of being a cop.

But it wasn't a power I really wanted. After a few years, I resigned from the police department. But not before making some changes. The chief of police tasked me and a handful of other officers with rewriting the entirety of the Washington DC Police Academy training program. And I rewrote the hell out of that thing. Learning about unconscious bias and intersectionality.

Oh, they got that. Learning how not to be a homophobe, a transphobe, or a misogynist, I wrote that down too. Because one of the things that happens when officers get in trouble is courts pull their training records. And one of the common refrains in defense was, I didn't know. Nobody told me. I wasn't trained.

At the very least, they can't say that no more. And if they try, most of the officers I know will put that lie to rest. Because the heart of the officer does matter. And I had seen their hearts, and they had also seen mine. Thank you. That was Morgan Givens. He's based in Washington, D.C., and is the creator, producer, That was Morgan Givens.

He's based in Washington, D.C., and is the creator, producer, and host of the critically acclaimed HopePunk podcast, Flyest Fables. Morgan has been featured in the Washington Post, BuzzFeed, and on NPR's Invisibilia. He began telling stories on stage in the summer of 2015 and is so glad he did. The woman who would eventually become his wife happened to be in the audience for his very first story on stage. Now that's the power of storytelling. Do you have a story to tell us?

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You're listening to The Moth Radio Hour. I'm Jennifer Hickson, and we're hearing stories about the pursuit of happiness. Our final story was told at the Vick Theatre, where we partner with public radio station WBEZ Chicago. I want to note that this story makes mention of sex a few times, just in case that doesn't feel appropriate for you or whomever you're listening with. Here's Ruby Cooper. After a year of him badgering me, I gave in. Parked on a dark country road in my mom's 1959 Dodge with a push button transmission

and a backseat as big as a double bed, I had sex with my boyfriend. He was happy. Me, not so much. I wasn't gonna do it again. What I didn't know is that I had gotten pregnant. Yeah. It was 1960 and I was 16. Six and a half months later, I gave birth to two little boys. Only one survived, but he spent the next three months in a preemie bin struggling to live alone while I watched him through a murky plate glass window because they never allowed me to touch him. When I finally got him out of there, I thought, I'm never going to let this kid get away from me again.

A few months later when he was 10 months old, through a routine visit with the pediatrician, he said, this kid has cerebral palsy. He'll never walk or probably won't talk, I don't know, you know, I'll give you, you're young, you can have more children. I'll give you the name of a place where you can take him, where he'll be with others of his kind. And I was stunned.

I said, his kind? I'm his mom. I'm his kind. He's going home with me. And. Kirk just grew, he was a beautiful, beautiful baby with these great big green blue, just hazel cut out almond shaped eyes and possibly long eyelashes and a big smile. And he grew into this gregarious, confident kid that just everybody was attracted to.

On his first day of school, I think he was seven years old, and he was in a little wheelchair, and I pushed him down the hallway, and he goes, hi, I Kirk, hi, I Kirk, like he was running for office. And he lost his first tooth. And I said, oh, what will happen is that the ferry will, we'll put the tooth under the pillow and the ferry will come at night and exchange it for money.

And he looked at me like I was crazy. And he said, no, mine bring pie. Pie? The tooth fairy doesn't have pie. The tooth fairy has money. He said, mine bring pie. And I said, what kind of pie? And he said, chocolate.

And I thought, on the following morning, the tooth fairy from the local bakery had delivered a chocolate pie. And Kirk loved to swim, loved the water. And so I would take, I would take the, put the little Mae West out thingy on him, the vest, and I would jam him into a tractor trailer inner tube and tie a rope on it. And I could, hey, I was a single mother, a teenage mother. Think about that. And I would drop him into any body of water, you know, and he could paddle around and I could pull him in with a rope.

Listen. Nothing happened to him for God's sake. And so one time we were on a little lake in my friend's ski boat, and he was watching us. There were just two women in him, and girls, teenagers. And finally he just had enough of it, and he said, I want to ski. And we looked at each other and said, why not? So we dropped him over the back of the boat. And Janey's driving, and she drove a long row slow, and he's having a really good time and laughing. And then she revved it up.

And he's just like, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom boom boom boom and just having a great time we got back to the beach and this I don't know big old punchy red-faced guy stomped over there to us and said I saw you out there with that baby just pulling it along. You endangered his life and I should have the authorities come and take him away from you. And I said, fuck you. We're just having fun. And Kirk said, yeah. And you're no fun at all. Well Kirk grew into a young man.

When he was 22 years old, I moved him into a group home close by where we lived in California and he met a bunch, five, six guys that had different varying disabilities and they would spend their time just talking and hanging out. And most of the conversation was about girls and how to meet them and about sex. And I would come and visit and they would have come up with these schemes for me to get involved in. And I said, no, no, not at all I am not no and I would leave and go home and forget about it and that year about a couple months before Christmas I

called Kirk and I said hey your sisters and I are wondering what Christmas is coming up and we're wondering if there's anything special that you would like to have for Christmas. And he said, I want to have sex. I said, sex? Sex is not a Christmas present. Sex is not a Christmas present! Video and stinky cologne and sweaters and shit you don't need, that's Christmas! Sex, I can't, it's illegal!

I can't buy, I could go to jail! You could get a disease. It's not a good idea, Kirk. No. And when I finished ranting, I said, you know what? I don't even know where I would look for it. I have no idea about this, Kirk. And he said, you could find it in my life. And he said, you could find it in the mall. So I talked to my friends. My friend Jamie, who was a bartender, put a big pickle jar on the bar that said, Get Kirk Sex Fund. I gotta tell you, that jar filled with paper money so fast you wouldn't believe it, because that is a cause that men believe in.

I looked everywhere. I started, you know, I could have gotten picked up because I looked at all of the women, everybody at any bus stop, any place, you know, trying and I thought, no, no. Nobody knew anybody. Nobody knew. I didn't know how to do this. And finally, I remembered that my friend, I had a friend named Bill, and he was a manager of the Onslow Hotel in Reno, Nevada.

Yeah. So I called him and told him what Kirk wanted for Christmas, and he said, hell yeah. Bring him up here. He said, I'll take him to the Mustang Ranch. The Mustang Ranch, by the way, is the oldest brothel in the United States of America.

In Sparks, Nevada, it is known for, you know, it's just a good run place from what I hear. And he said, and as a matter of fact, bring the whole family. I'll give you family rates at the hotel and we'll have Christmas dinner at my place." I said, okay. So I tell Kirk, he's excited, he can't stand it. I said, now we gotta call my mother. Because my mother lived in Pennsylvania and spent Christmas, you know, holiday with us. And she's a little old fashioned, kinda.

And I didn't know how this would go over. And so I said, Kirk, you tell her. And... So... So as soon as she answered the phone, he said, Grandma, you got gotta come to Reno for Christmas. And she said, oh, Reno, why honey, are we going to Reno? And he said, because I'm gonna have sex, Grandma.

And there was a silence and I thought, shit, she's fainted, No, but she didn't. She rallied. She said, isn't that nice? How much does it cost? And I said, I don't know, ma, they don't give quotes over the phone. So she said, well, put me down for 50.

To love my mother. So on Christmas Eve Day, FYI, the Mustang Ranch is closed on Christmas Day, in case you need to know, but on Christmas Eve Day we got, we were at the hotel, his sisters got him all bathed and primped and powdered up like he was like a bride. And we drove over to Bill's, my mother goes into the kitchen to start the turkey and stuff for, and Bill and Kirk go heading out to the Mustang Ranch in about an hour and a half. I don't know, I wasn't counting, but not too long. And I hear them outside coming up laughing.

And Kirk, when he left, his muscles were so tight and he was so nervous and full of anxiety and scared and and now when I open the door he's just like laying in his wheelchair looking like Gumby with this big. And so I and I just laughed and gave him this great big hug and I said, hey guys, you know everybody, I have a bottle of champagne. I think we should have a Christmas toast to the Christmas spirit, to family, to friends, to giving and receiving. Thank you. Applause That was Ruby Cooper. Ruby grew up in an Irish bar. She's a mother, grandmother, activist, teacher, writer, comic,

and has traveled to much of the world solo. Her book is titled Irish Mongrel Child. She's currently working on a solo show called I Died Laughing. I gave Ruby a call to get an update on this story and life in general. In talking with you about Kirk over all the years, I feel like I know him, you tried to make sure that he had all the experiences he possibly could. I tried to give him a regular life as much as close to just a typical male life as I could. I didn't baby him. That wasn't part of it. It was just he couldn't walk, but he could think and laugh and have friends and everything

else. You helped Kirk in his pursuit of happiness, and how did he help you in your pursuit of happiness, do you think? He was funny. He made me laugh. He was game for almost anything. As wacky as I was. And you have to understand I wasn't a shrinking violin by any stretch. I mean I like adventure and I like to do things and he was with me on it. It was like, all right, now let's go. You have told this story, I don't know, more than 20 times all over the country. I'm not sure the exact count.

And I always notice people coming up to you afterwards and talking to you and I wonder what they say. Oh They say I wish you were my mother. Oh Men say that to me would say that to me a lot Other I've had people come up and cry when we were the first time I ever told that was that the Cemetery Greenview. Yes, Greenwood, Greenwood, yeah. Greenwood. And this woman came up hugging me and I guess her first cousin had cerebral palsy.

And she said his mother kept him coistered in the house all the time. He never got to do anything. And she said, I just thought about him the whole time of what life could have been like for him. Wow. So what advice would you have for anyone who's supporting someone who may be disabled? The disability is not who they are. Who they are is inside. It doesn't...that's not...we take...we spend too much time worrying about what people look like and what they can do. My mother said to me when I was crying, when I was told he would be quadriplegic and they wanted to put him in the home, and I refused.

And I said, I don't know what I'm going to do I don't know what this will be like or anything and she said you don't need to know what it is it's just you you have a baby she said we don't love him for what he will do or won't do we love him because he is ours him because he is ours. Mike drop that's beautiful. Isn't it? Yeah your mom was cool gosh and what was your mother's relationship with Kirk like besides? Oh god they were like they were like I don't know the tongue in the shoe you know I mean he was they were just so close. I have a picture that makes me cry practically. I have it in a frame, but I don't have it where I see it all the time because it's too emotional. She's old. She's sitting at the edge of a pool. She has had a couple surgeries, so she's

a little on the crooked side. He's crooked, he's in his, but you know, she's got her arm around him and there they are. They've been swimming. And now they're sitting together at the edge of the pool. I have a picture of them. She, I guess he was on his beanbag or something and she leaned down and kissed him and I got a real close-up picture of her just kissing him. She loved him. He loved her. When he was dying I said, you know all you have to do when you want to go is and ask for a grandma. She'll come get you. And he did. He said, Mama,

I want my grandma. That was Ruby Cooper talking about her son, Kirk. Kirk died when he was 42 years old, surrounded by his mom and sisters and the many people who loved him. To see some pictures of Kirk and Ruby and Grandma, visit themoth.org where you can also download the story. I want to thank all the storytellers in this hour for their lessons on the noble pursuit of happiness. That's it for this episode of the Moth Radio Hour. I hope you're inspired to pursue

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