The Reel Rejects - The One Where Roxy Striar Tells the Truth...

Episode Date: May 1, 2025

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More on them in just a bit. We're going to get to know Roxy Stryer better today, guys, in The Diary of a Real Reject Style, where we talk movies, shows, and possibly celebrities of how they help shape our identities. I've done no prep for you today, Roxy. Normally I do prep. I've done no prep.

And I'll start off with this, creating some type of clear boundary here in case. Oh. The last thing I want to do, is broadcast or put out anything personal that you would not feel comfortable doing. That said, the limit is all on you because you've had a hell of the last three weeks. Yeah, I have. No, we can talk about everything.

I find myself to actually be very public. I think you're saying that because I sent you a text that said, please do not repeat this to anybody because I'm being superstitious. But then it didn't matter. That's a hell of a way to put it. what I'm referring to is that my grandfather was sick so I told Greg don't tell anybody because I didn't want anybody to know because for some reason I was being supercision but that he died so I don't think you telling anybody is going to worsen the situation no I at the same time like on

my personal and I'm very I like I care about being honest and I care about you know showing how we feel like I said like that's part of our mission statement is expressing how we feel and encouraging other people at the same time I'm like oh but I have lines about what I am willing to divulge in details about like things I might be encountering with other people in my life so like what things with friends and family exactly yeah yeah I have my certain limitation so I wanted to what is your boundary is it things that people specifically have said don't repeat this or just things you feel like you don't think they want people to know. I think

if, I mean, I'll give a clear one. A little hint is sometimes there's stuff about my dad that I'm like, oh, I won't be super specific, even though I might be like, yeah, clearly I've been

diagnosed with some stuff. However, I will not be super specific out of consideration for other people who are alive currently. And I wouldn't want to put them in a position either. So there's certain things like that. And I also don't like my relationship. I would not put out if my wife and I are having a thing that is like we have to, we're working on right now, wouldn't put that out. I'll put out if we worked on something, maybe. Like, yeah, look at a solution. Here we go. But if it's helpful. Yeah. That's that's kind of my thing. But this isn't about me. What are you doing? Stop this. Stop this. Roxy. Let's get right to it. Let's get right to it. Oh my God. I do have one question. One question. One question. I have prepared all the time for this thing.

I know what it is. And as a heads up, guys, this segment will be moving to a different thing later, but these will all be going on real rejects, the ones with the rejects here. Roxy, let's kick it off with the fun thing going right back to your childhood. I got you. Oh my God. Who, that damn echo, who was your celebrity crush growing up and why was it this person? Ryder Strong.

I loved Boy Meets World. Yeah. Okay. I love Sean. I just thought he was so much. misunderstood. I have felt so misunderstood my entire life. And he was so cute. He had the shaggy hair. He was a little bit of a bad boy. He had a huge heart and was a very passionate person. He couldn't quite figure out his emotions sometimes. And I think that was the first time.

I remember being like, that boy is so cute. Oh my God. So cute. You said something that I've never heard when people ask answer that question which was this person so misunderstood I feel so misunderstood I rarely hear someone actually identify usually it's something about attainability or something being very opposite of who they are yeah but you actually identified with writer yeah I did you know that's interesting because it's like what do you have a crush on yourself I did feel very similar to him and I really liked him okay um and that does I I guess that sounds very strange. But yeah, I really liked him.

And I felt like I really saw him and just thought he was so cute. I had a picture of him and a picture of Idriselba on my wall. Very similar men. And in sync in Backstreet Boys. So those were my people that choose from. Would you say that with Ryder Strong, you've attracted people, you've talked about dating publicly a few times. Would you say there were men in your life that you attracted that were similar traits to writer strong or things that at least surface wise you thought might have been similar

to writer strong? It's so crazy as a fan of this podcast because I think this is what everybody does when they listen to podcasts. You guys will tell me if I'm wrong in the comments. But every question you ask anybody, I think about what my answer is. So of course, this is something I've been thinking about because I've heard you talk to people about this. And when you first asked this question, and I was just listening at home. I was like, that's not me at all. No, none of the guys that I've ever dated have ever been anything like him. And then I was like, except for the fact that maybe all of them are exact.

It's weird to be, I'm 33 and I'm single, and I've been single for a really long time, and I really don't date that often anymore. And so it's weird to think about, like, what is my dating history versus what is my type, What am I going for now? Because I'm so unattracted to anybody I've ever been attracted to in the past that it feels so distant for me. But I can't deny that several of my exes are very much like him. But I don't think any of my future will be because it's just so, the personality type, it just doesn't do it for me anymore. What was that personality type?

I think it's like a little bit too woe is me. I am different. I am nobody will ever understand me you know growing up I did feel so frustrated all the time about not feeling understood and I feel like that was the same as him and I do feel like what I've dated people they do feel very avant-garde and different and like the wrong side of the tracks or whatever you want to call it and I felt that way many times but I don't feel that way anymore I'm also not looking for that anymore I'm not looking for that anymore I'm not looking for for somebody who is so like no one will ever get me like okay it just it just annoys me at this point what celebrity then today would you say is one that you maybe see yourself the most in if they're see myself in or a character even um I often feel like I'm I feel similar to Lake Bell you know who that is I know I know she's she does a lot of voice work yeah that's what I know

Oprah. Why, why her? I don't know. Just when I watch her interviews and I hear her, she's like, she's a little quirky. She's pretty fun. I'd like to think on both of those things. Now I feel like being a little misunderstood is more of a superpower. I don't find myself to be a very negative person. And I don't find her to be very negative. Like your Conan, my Conan is Drew Barrymore. I'm like so obsessed with her. I feel like we have very similar styles. I'm still. devastated about what she did during the strike. I don't want to talk about it. It made me so sad because she's like, you're the only one bringing it out. I know because I get ahead of it because every person says to me, you love Drew Barrymore? What about what she did during the strike? And I'm like, okay, not everybody's perfect, including myself and including whoever's asking me that. But she's the one that I feel like career wise, I aspire to be most like and personality wise, I aspire to be like, so somewhere between Lake Bell and Drew Barrymore.

Tell me more about the Drew Barrymore stuff, actually. Did you know I was obsessed with her? Yeah, you've mentioned it to me. We've talked, there's a lot we have in common. What I want to dive in with you is like, chili peppers, Eminem, friends. Yeah, like, there's like specific topics that I'm like, we're going to get to that. Yeah, if you love something, I take it really seriously because I'm like, chances are I probably really will love this too.

That's cool. But tell me more about Drew Barrymore. What are these attributes that you feel like you've, are there anything specific? specific that she has said or done that you go that you've taken that with you like for me it has been will smith actually from i know like you he has she has strike i have slap her and uh anytime you say i love will smith somebody's going to be like well what about yeah exactly and and but will smith there's hours of listening to interviews podcast breakdowns from him before slap and yeah actually it's after slap you're not where i have absolutely absorbed

so much of his teachings or things he shared, I'll say. And does Drew Barrymore have that for you? Is there anything there? So many. So many. First of all, she's the first person I ever became kind of obsessed with. Like her birthday is February 22nd. She's a Pisces. These are things I don't know about any other celebrity because I was like, why is she the way she is? I think that her, the thing about her being an actress and then being a host, I really resonate with. me as well, having so many different passions and loves and being a producer, the way that she treats her girlfriends and, like, how she seems to stay very close with everybody she's worked with from an Adam Sandler to a Cameron Diaz and everywhere in between, like, you can see the

connection. But my favorite thing about her, which you see on the Drew Barrymore show, is how much people feel heard by her. Like, I love her eye contact. And I think that if there's one thing that I hope that people feel when they're with me is listen to. I really try to listen to people because it sucks when you feel like nobody gives a shit what you feel or have to say. And I like everybody that I'm ever sit with to feel like I agree or disagree, I absolutely heard what they were saying. And that's really important to me. And I feel like, you know, people make fun of her for getting really close to people. She, like, touches everybody. I'm not as much of a toucher but I do feel like very connected to people more so than I think you know

some people are like really connected to plants and animals I'm connected to people I'm such a people person doesn't mean I'm great with people it just means that I feel connection to them hopefully they feel it back to me but just making sure that everyone leaves a conversation with me if they're pissed sad happy whatever but they don't feel like she was not listening to me that would be a big bummer for me. Where did you learn this from? Probably feeling not listened to. From I think most things I've learned have been from personal experience. I don't know if that is a true view. The most things you learn from personal experience. Yeah. I would absolutely say from personal experience. Yeah. So of course from art to were big music, movie television fans. But

I think, yeah, there's been so many times that people have walked out, I've walked out a room and been like, That other person has no idea what I'm thinking or feeling. Treat people the way you wish you were treated. Yeah, for sure, golden rule. That's the golden rule. I think golden rule is treat others how you wish to be treated. I was saying you're treating people how you wish you had been treated. Oh, yeah.

And continue to wish to be treated. I don't mind confrontation. I don't mind feeling sad, mad, happy. Of course, I don't mind feeling happy. but I really hate feeling ignored and unheard. That's like, that sucks. You go home and you think about all the things you should have phrased differently so that you could have actually gotten through to somebody to hear you.

I don't think anybody on the planet likes feeling that way. No, being heard is a very, there's a lot of value in being a listener. There's a lot of value in being heard too. I think for sure. So for Drew Barrymore, we've talked about the celebrity Drew Barrymore. Is there a performance from her? that is your favorite. Let's start with the generality then.

What is your favorite? I actually don't know if I have a favorite performance of hers. I do think that she is somebody who is super charismatic and endearing. I'm a big Charlie's Angels fan. I really love her and that. Obviously, you can go all the way back to E.T. And just think, like, just so phenomenal. Things like 50 first dates, like, it really stands out to me, too,

because she's just, you just love her. It's just so quickly, so lovable. there's something about her that other than the strike situation have never heard anybody ever be like Drew Barrymore sucks and you know

she's kind of great in everything she's in the journey of Drew Barrymore is too of what was really fraught with a lot of addiction and having to overcome a lot It's a huge deal for me too I think you know she she's California sober so she's What does that mean? It means you smoke weed

but you don't drink or do other thing I think California sober might include weed and mushrooms and nothing else I'm not positive to her exact journey but she refers to herself as like not absolutely sober

she was just interviewing Chet Hanks actually who is sober sober and she's like are you sober sober or you like me sober because she I think she loves the pot same girl besties

but I do think that and I don't know if I've ever said this to you I've definitely said it in general, but I've struggled with addiction in my past. I don't know if you know that at all. And I think that... Can I ask what it was?

With pills when I was way younger. I've been pretty open about it with people because I was so young that I did not know what the hell I was doing. And then it became such a bummer because I was too young to understand what was happening. And I, so, different than Drew but I also experienced a lot when I was young like Drew that I was not in

the industry but I experienced a lot and really struggled in my teen years trying to be like functional which I was not for a really long time I dropped out of high school and was just not a like real human that's such a weird way to phrase it obviously I was a human but I was not functioning I was having panic attacks everywhere in the middle of the street if I couldn't put on my mascara I'd have a panic attack. I couldn't be held accountable for anything. I was not, like, functioning. And I was on drugs.

And then I wasn't anymore. And that was like a horrible period also because I was still, like, really struggling. And she's had very similar things, too. So I definitely think hearing her talk about her journey, I don't have an issue with alcohol. She did. So we have different issues. But hearing her talk about her journey. journey definitely can relate to feeling completely out of control, having to make massive life

changes, and then feeling like a really good version of yourself, which is where I'm at now. That's great. Yeah. When you were in that darkness, yeah, yeah. Was there a movie or show that you would often find where you felt like you could, sometimes the best way to do it for me personally is to give it an example? I remember when I saw the movie. You've seen the movie Drive with Ryan Gosling?

Yeah. I really clicked with that movie at the stage of my life. where I was at. And that's what would be fall in love with Ryan Gosson. A lot of people love that movie. Why'd you click with that movie? Because as much as he comes across as like an empty guy, you could feel immediately like, oh, there's like a rage underneath all that emptiness isn't there. And that rage slowly comes out to the point where he's smashing someone's got, someone's headed in the elevator. And it's usually coming out in the form of either via through music or via through love for someone else where you interpret love and protection and

rage all in one bubble for some reason and I really identified with that at the time of my life and so a lot of people love I could see that for you yeah still today yeah I mean I don't mean that in any kind of way other than like if if somebody asked me how do you think Greg feels about this movie I would have probably been spot on about it that makes sense yeah so I and I feel like there's probably millions of people who probably clicked with that maybe maybe not in a way where they couldn't articulate it but there's a reason why I think that movie really resonated beyond it being cool the music too the journey of the music in that movie is so great yeah it talks about it being like a werewolf story of of this guy slowly morphing and coming out and I'm like oh yeah no

I picked up on that the other one for me was like Dexter of being the guy who was I was I was called the funny guy I've heard you say this before Greg and I and I sit there and I can't believe nobody like dead asks you about it what are you talking about relating to Dexter so much he shows up this is a show about a serial killer yes and i watched every episode but you are nothing like dexter i would say i'm nothing like absolutely i'm nothing like that okay but that doesn't mean you can't identify still with a character is nothing like you right and that's part of the art of movies we'd explain that what do you mean i don't think i've ever identified with somebody who's nothing like me i think there's aspects it's not black and white like i'm not a mi i mean pd guy you know i'm not killer that first

episode though when he's going and i think there's a reason why a lot of people got invested in dexter in spite of the things he does because a lot of people could identify with him and when he's going around the office at the beginning and he's giving everyone donuts and he's the guy who everyone loves i was like that was kind of me in a work environment you know i would i would simultaneously absorb like the office michael scott friends and at school i was named funniest kid in class and underneath that i was empty like i said it up with ryan gosley empty. So you felt like there was something, a secret that you had and who you were sharing with the world versus who you were. It was very opposing. Yeah. So that aspect of Dexter. Yes. And that was

the first time I had heard a character say, oh, this box was empty like me. And I was like, I had never heard that until that show. When did you stop feeling empty? Have you stopped feeling empty? I would say I've, I don't know. I mean, it's more like empty is not. It's weird. It's kind of ironic right to call empty and emotion because it's empty uh what yeah it's like black is the absence of all color or white is the absence of all colors one of them is it's not a color anyway one of those two yeah i'm not sure when that when that stopped um it i slowly started unpacking my feelings somewhere in my early 20s when i first went to therapy and i got a tidal wave of i couldn't remember the first 20 years of my life and then eventually i did and it kind of hit me like a tidal wave like a

freight train like oh my god i'm remembering too much and then the emptiness stopped and it led to massive depression and more more anger so which was better the latter because um it allowed me to grow and allow me to change and i'd rather deal with reality and hindsight better yeah yeah because of where i'm at today yeah um because emptiness isn't that wild yeah well you when you're empty and you have the rage the rage is uncontrollable the rage comes out in ways where it's harmful you damage and even now if i do something that's like mean or bad or i have to be called out on it at i'm at least able to go I can evaluate it and I can learn from it now and I could do better where back then I was like I have zero control over when this happens and that's the importance of that so for you with when you're in that

darkness made did you have something a character that you felt like you could see yourself in or was it purely escapism from when you watch stuff I was a kid I used to say things like I'm holding Caulfield I catcher in the rye um um um um Oh, man, I was so annoying. Yeah, I guess it's crazy because I kind of answered the question with my crush, which was myself, which was writer. But no. Well, how old were you with writer? Young, young, young.

So we're talking like, what, teen college years? No, no, younger. No, no, when you were taking the pills and stuff. Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Yeah, I wasn't that young. I was taking them. But I started when I was 14, just pretty young. I have a character that I kind of related to.

I don't remember feeling like anybody in the world was like me. I remember feeling like no one would ever get me. No one was like me. No one had ever experienced anything I experienced. Nobody had the emotions that I had. Nobody, nobody, nobody, which is such a self-centered perspective, right? Like you think that you're the first to invent sadness. you're the first to experience the horrible things

or the positive things you've experienced. There's nothing any human being on planet Earth that they can experience that nobody else has experienced before. Literally nothing. So no, I don't feel like I really related to anybody. The only thing I can think of is that I felt like I could be distracted by things. This is when my love for TV grew so strong because I just didn't want to think about or deal with who I was

or how much pain I was in. I was really, really not well. And so I watched so much TV. Now I find myself to be well, not this week, but in general. And I still love watching so much TV. So I'm not saying that I only watched a ton of TV during my times of troubles. But that was the start of it. It was just like any life but mine, any world but mine, anything but mine.

anything but mine. And movies just didn't do it for me because you didn't stay with the same people. And I wanted to really be in somebody else's world for like ever since I was little. I mean, I would come home from school when I was eight and watch all my children in general hospital one night to live in Port Charles with my mom.

She would VHS tape them. We watched four hours back to back of soap operas. And like anybody who knocks soap operas, I'm like, you're an idiot. That got me through everything like that. Just because I needed something so out there. So, yeah, that's the only thing I can think of to answer your question. I didn't feel like I related to anybody as much as I just felt like I wanted to be part of their world, everybody, on TV.

Well, what I got from that is you wouldn't watch alone? Sometimes, a lot of the time. But my mom and I watched a lot of TV together. she was a big TV person too and my brother and my sister sometimes would join in for certain things they watched equally as much TV with her as I did but not always altogether so TV for you is actually like a connection experience with your family yeah for sure definitely we like loved Survivor I actually have not watched Survivor since my mom passed but my brother and sister still watch it together because for them it made them feel closer to her for me I felt like

I can't do this without her. We all had, have you ever seen Survivor? I've seen, I know, I'm familiar with it. Do you know what Survivor buff is? It's like the bandana that they kind of wear, but it's really a tube. We all had our different Survivor buffs and we put them on for the shows and we would watch it. Yeah, we were big, big survivor people. So what's the feeling that comes up if you were to watch Survivor now? What comes up? I don't know. There's a lot of shows actually that I watched with my mom that I didn't have a problem watching, but that was such a experience. Like we made such a big deal of every survivor. Now, now when it's, It's on. I just don't want to watch it without her. It's not like I'm like, oh, no, I don't get devastated. I just don't want to do it without her. It's a one show that we used to watch that I have just, I'm like, I just, there's, I cannot do this without her. It just feels like not the same. What was your favorite one to watch with her? Was it Survivor? We love two guys, a girl on a pizza place. Do you know what that is? The Ryan Reynolds show. I've only heard about it because Ryan Reynolds has been made fun of about it. We loved that.

We loved Darma and Greg. That was a really good one too. We were obsessed with Friends. Friends is my favorite show to watch, regardless of with or without her, but we did watch it together. Sopranos. She was from Jersey,

so the opening sequence of Sopranos were all the places she went, and so we would, like, she would always have so many stories about, like, fifth person, this person, this place, this place, which was really cool. Yeah, Survivor, definitely one of my favorites to watch with her, all the soap op. We watch so much TV together, like an insane amount.

Can you recall a specific reaction to something that she had that will always stick with you? I guess it's such a weird one, but when you said it, it's what I thought of. So I guess this is the one when Phoebe didn't want to end up giving, she wanted to keep one of the triplets. Okay, yeah. And I remember being a kid thinking that was so funny, and my mom said, that is so sad. Oh. And I was, like, laughing, and she was like, that is so sad. And I remember thinking to myself, maybe it is sad.

I don't know why that's the first thing that I just thought of, but that's what I thought of. Did you learn something from that? I mean, definitely sad. That's sad. We had a friend at the time who was doing that, who was the surrogate. for their sister and it hurt one of my mom's close friends and she had a really hard time with it and so I think it probably affected my mom a little differently because she had been talking to her friend and whatnot but no I just I guess different people have different feelings watching

the exact same thing which is wild she was an empathetic person oh my god she was so empathetic to the point where because I was so distraught all the time I mean I was like an absolute nightmare mess I feel so bad she was just she's like I couldn't function so she couldn't function like that was just that must have been so hard for her unfortunately she never got to see me as a functioning person like I relate with you yeah of course doesn't that suck it's like I'd so Badly, or I don't mean doesn't suck. Maybe it doesn't suck for you, but I would guess it does. I hate it.

It's not a great for you. No, it's kind of crap. Like, I say this to my siblings all the time. When my mom passed my siblings that were not speaking to me. You know how close I am with them now. Like, they were, it's not fair. They weren't not speaking to me, but we were, I was the absolute black sheep of my family. My brother and my sister were best friends.

My brother could not stand to me. And my sister had to watch me be, my sister was five years younger than me, which when your kid is a lot, a big gap. And she had to watch me be like strung out and messed up and stumbling and puking and couldn't function all over the house when she was so young. And my mom died when we were all so young. So my sister was like so confused by me. She was like, what is this girl? You know, she would have like friends in her room and I would call. I'm in belligerent, not making sense. I have so much guilt about that.

You know how people say like, no regrets? That's crazy to me. I have so many regrets. I would change so many things if I could go back. Even if they still made me a different person today, I don't even care. I would change like 20% of the things that they did in my life. Now my sister, my brother, my best friends, and I have gone above and beyond to be consistent and a good, family member and we talk about it all the time but my mom never got to see that that sucks she

had such a good job parenting me she was so supportive of me and all she saw was an absolute raging lunatic nightmare that sucks imagine being a parent who just like died before you know whether your kid is going to turn out halfway decent i cannot imagine that it's such a bummer and on that lovely note well i mean i i understand what you're saying and it's it's true though that if you're for your mom to be empathetic she obviously didn't only see that right she saw who was underneath all that that's what my family always says to me that like that's just not how they remember it and not how she would remember it but i don't know how you could possibly remember it differently like i think she saw someone struggling probably yeah yeah i'm sure i'm sure you feel the same about your dad

you feel different different i think our dynamics are very different what we definitely had though was the one thing I'd talk about my family, couldn't talk about real stuff, but we could talk about movies and shows, and we would watch movies and shows. And I saw most of friends, if not all, with my mom the first time I watched friends. Just to you? I think my brother was in there. Does he like friends? Oh, he loves friends, yeah. It's absolutely. I think it's his favorite too. Oh, really? Yeah, yeah. I think it's his favorite show. He's definitely around for moments. Chandler's his guy, too, or no? Yeah, yeah. Well, Chandler, again, I have a reoccurring theme of people who couldn't feel their emotions that they were to find other ways of masking it.

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Meg Ryan? Yeah she kind of her is just always reminded me and my mom physically or emotionally. I don't know the way she speaks and the way she looks just for some reason she's just always reminded me of my mom I don't know why even when my mom was alive I remember thinking out like oh my god just like you So there's no actual specific character that when you see them, you're like, that kind of reminds me of my mom. No, I guess in all of her, like, romance movies. My mom was, she was super New Jersey. She was really tough.

So small. She was very, very petite and blonde and, like, quick, really witty. And, yeah, she just reminded me of Meg Ryan. And to this day, I will, if Meg Ryan, which she doesn't do a lot of things, but if I see her on a show or if she's in a move, whatever, I, like on a talk show or if she has an interview or something, I will watch whatever it is just because it reminds me of my mom. I'm kind of not even listening to her. I'm just like, oh, so cute.

It's like my mom. Oh, we actually get lost in that. That's fun. Yeah, yeah. I don't know. I actually don't know if my siblings feel that way, if anybody else on the planet Earth feels that way. but they have such similar, like, mannerism, kind of. That's interesting.

Yeah, I don't know. What about with your grandpa? Was there stuff where you actually watched with him or anything that reminds you of him the most? I was talking my sister about this last night where I feel like he was, because I, if I, if you asked me about Grammy, what, if you asked me any of her favorites, I could tell you her favorite TV show, favorite movie, favorite color, favorite song, favorite artists. I've watched a thousand things with Poppo and Grammy picked every single one of them. I don't know what his preferences were because I feel like they were together for 78 years. It's a long time. And so I think like happy wife, happy life very much was his jam.

Not to the point where he didn't have a personality because he had a really strong personality, but just she wanted to watch the news. he watched the news if she wanted to watch game of thrones we watched game of thrones i don't ever remember him once saying can we put this on i want to watch this um but he liked everything that we seemed to like i know he dug frank sinatra a lot of the classics um and uh he met god what i'm gonna get so much heat for this because but from cinephiles i don't remember what is his name uh carry grant i think was the one who was in the war with Poppo. I think it was him. I think he was a photographer. John, back check me. Back check me. That's Humongue.

Was it Carrie Grant who was a photographer during World War II? There was somebody who was over there that Poppo used to tell me stories about. I actually did it like this, sit down with Poppo before he passed years before where he set it on there too. Is it Carrie Grant? Or somebody like him, if it's not him, who was in World War II. to whoever it is he loved movies like that like singing in the rain type movies or anything from the 40s and 50s um he loved musicals we would watch them all the time most recently uh maybe like a month ago we watched oliver together no and do you have you ever seen oliver no no i love oliver um but we hadn't seen it in a long time and he was for the last year and a half he's been bed bound

and he was in bed and Grammy was in one chair and out of another chair and we watched Oliver and he kind of started singing along which was kind of you know music musicals were really cool

because sometimes Papa wouldn't speak for weeks and we would put on a musical and he like could sing one of the songs it was really wild how did you feel when he did it oh my God like every time he did speak everybody shuts the fuck up and just listens and like

stares at him one of the last downstairs memories I have of him is we were sitting it was me, Grammy and Puppo were sitting in the chairs and I look over to him and I don't know why he just looks at me and said

take me out to the ball game take and just started sing the whole song and we all three started singing Grammy was like crying because he hadn't said a word in weeks and he just started sing the whole song and we sang it like four times yeah that was a crazy memory

but music for sure with people who have Alzheimer's music and especially musicals because there's visuals to go along with it is like so such a game changer so helpful and spark memories and words and different it's really cool to see

I don't know if you've ever experienced anybody with Alzheimer's but music is a big deal in the Alzheimer's community That's what the studios are plotting right now. Did you find it? Wait, did you find it? Did you find it? He's still looking.

Oh, it's not Carrie Grant. It's a big movie star who was a photographer during World War II. I know because Poppo hung with him. Is that why you're so into musicals? You've said that to me several times. I love musicals. Yeah, my grandparents love musicals. My mom love musicals.

My grandparents love musicals. I feel like I saw almost every. Everything growing up. I loved to go to see shows, too. So, yeah, probably. Grammy went to Juilliard. Do you know that? Oh, really?

Yeah. Grammy has the voice of an angel. She's like an operatic, unbelievable voice. And she used to sing, she performed for Frank Sinatra. She would perform. Wow, did she now? She had the greatest voice. She grew up at New York, both Grammy and Poppo, and she would, she was, like, insanely

talented and yesterday we had this conversation for the first time because she uh gets a little frustrated with my life choices now because she really really wants me to have a family and i really really want to be successful and those two things um are possible together but it hasn't happened for me together the way that she wants and she i said are you so hard of me about this because you left your career for marriage and kids which she did she made married Puppo and never worked, never worked as an actress or singer again and didn't want it. And she said, yeah. She said, I was so, I had no ambition at all to do that. I just was doing it until I found my person. It's just a different time, I think. But it's hard for her to

understand that I'm not doing that. I'm not like using this career waiting until I find somebody to be like, well, that's it. No interest anymore. Who the hell was it? I'm going to be stuck on this. If I called her, I bet she would know. It'll come to mind. What is your favorite story about resilience? Favorite, like, art story, movie?

Movie or show? About resilience. That's a tough one. Hmm. I don't know. I feel like I would need a list in front of me. My favorite movie or show about resilience. I feel like they're all about resilience.

Let me just think of what my favorite movies and shows are and see which ones of them are about resilience. like what to your big movies or shows that are about resilience I don't really know about shows it's more about like a character's journey right of one where it is about some type of endurance I haven't seen this movie

I saw it when I was like a kid it was a Willem Defoe one he's a prisoner I think it's a World War II prisoner oh god what was that one I don't know it's a World War II yeah yeah I mean like immediately what comes to mind is like Shawshank That's definitely about resilience. I do love Shawshank, but it's not a top 10 movie. Mine's probably a pursuit of happiness.

It's a really good one too. And you're a big Will Smith guy. Yeah, yeah, mine's probably... Even post-slash. Post-slash, I'm still bad. Yeah, when he's crying at the end of that movie, it gets me every single time, every single time. My favorite thing in movies is when somebody's on a solo journey

and then a team comes to back them up. Why? Oh, my God. That every time. gets to me like even in I forget which Star Wars movie it was maybe it was the um maybe it was the last Jedi maybe it was the one after that one of the newer Star Wars movies I I remember bawling my eyes out because there's like who is it maybe it's Po or somebody they're flying solo and then like a whole fleet comes behind them and I was like no my God it's like so not that big of a deal

Nobody else had the emotional reaction I do, but that happens to me all the time in movies. I find that's the one thing that always gets me. If somebody is alone and then they're not alone, oh, I like lose my shit. That's the best feeling. Why? Why is it that one? Well, I guess I've always wondered why it isn't that for everybody else. Like, I don't know.

I have been alone for so long, and I am alone. I live 3,000 miles away from my family. I live by myself. I've lived by myself for a really long time. I have been not in a relationship for a really long time. Even when I was in a relationship, though, probably because it wasn't a good relationship, I was so alone.

So I just think how cool I'll feel to ever one day not be alone. To feel that support, feel the love. Wouldn't that be amazing? I mean, I guess you know. Wouldn't that just be so amazing for me to feel like, anybody ever like I was not so on a solo journey that would be so ideal so does on your left at a bed your end game get you oh my god oh my god like but I know that gets a lot of people a lot of people understood that moment but I feel like there's that moment all the time in

different things that just is like who like when you when you're going to do the right thing no matter what and show up no matter what but you think you're doing it so and then you're not doing it solo? Hmm. Oh, what is better in life than that? And I've had moments like that throughout my life. It's not like I've never had moments like that. I have the best family on planet Earth, my brother, my sister.

Like, I remember going into my 30th birthday, I was so sad because I was like, I'm completely alone out here. My best friend was not responding to me. She was busy. And I was like, I'm going to spend my 30th birthday. by myself like nobody wants to be with me or can be with me and i just feel so bad about it like i feel like i've put so much into all my relationships friendships and just the fact that i'm going to spend 30 by myself was just really hard to stomach um and so my sister hopped on a plane

and got here for my 30th and i was like weeping um she was just like what you're not spending your 30th by yourself. And she was like, I want to be there. And we went to Santa Barbara and another friend of mine, my friend Sarah Stratton, came with us. And the three of us went to Santa Barbara for the weekend. It was like the greatest couple of days ever for me because I just felt like two people who, you only need one person who really loves you on the planet, especially at a time. And so to feel like not alone going into my 30s, that was, it's like a small example, but you know what I mean. Where when you feel completely solo and then anybody shows up for you when you don't think that they're going to, oh, and movies that do that, those are always my favorite, like,

favorite moments. And then I'll always look around in theater and nobody else feels affected by those. And I'm like, oh, you guys must have a lot of people. You guys must not feel the pain inside of being a solo artist. So much of what you've talked about in this entire time has linked back to what you started off with saying about your crush of being misunderstood. He was so, so low, which leads you to feeling lonely. So when you have the love and support, it gets to you emotionally. Oh, yeah. Yeah.

It's like there's the main common thread through everything we're talking about. Totally. I mean, do you feel like for any of your life, a lot of your life or none of your life, have you felt lonely? I think earlier today, I do this thing now where I used to do stream of consciousness. journaling, but I wasn't really cutting it for me. So the past month and a half, I do a weirder thing where I spend like roughly eight to ten minutes and I just speak out loud how I'm feeling really like really subconscious to try to get underneath the surface. I'm like I'm not thinking about it. I'm going to say and say and say and saying. And it usually start with I feel. I feel

okay. And I did today. I was like it was a weird feeling. I feel lonely. I feel very lonely. And it's strange when, you know, I have a great wife, I have great friends, I have great people I work with, I'm surrounded by it. Well, you're not alone. You feel lonely. Those are two different things. Yeah. Yeah. And I would, I actually, I don't think you're far off on what you're talking of.

Like the love and support. I mean, I'm known as a guy who cries at everything here. And I used to cry at the stupidest things of, I don't remember this movie at all. There's this movie called The Island. It's a Michael Bay movie. And I remember, it's even McGregor and Scarlett Johansson. And I remember this one moment. It's such a cliche action moment where Scarlett is fucking getting me right now.

And I don't know why is Scarlett Johansson is hanging off the side of a building. And she's just like, don't let go. Don't let go. She's about to die. And I don't know why. You just start crying. And I'm like, I don't know why this is like in every action movie. Did somebody save her?

Yeah, it's even McGregor. It's a girl. a brief moment. You know she's not going to die. Yeah. But that desperation of help. Yeah. You know, and like needing, that might be what it is actually now that I have spoken

it aloud is. When you need help and somebody actually shows up. Yeah. Even when it's like accidental, one of my favorite reactions I've ever done on the channel was with John. We did Society of the Snow, which I don't actually know if you ever saw. No, no. But it is the most incredible movie that's based on a true story.

of these people that get in a horrible plane crash and there actually ends up being survivors who are found months later after living through a brutal winter. It's a crazy story. But when this guy does end up finding them after they have been out there, so many of them have died, whatever was. That was the moment, and I'm sure for everybody watching,

I think for John and myself, that we completely lost it because it's like when somebody, when all hope is lost and you feel completely isolated and then somebody gives you any kind of a branch, it's like that's the greatest thing that happens on planet Earth when you don't think you can get through. Yeah, it's just like the absolute best moment.

I love those moments. And it happens in my favorite art all of the time. And it happens in life in my favorite moments. But I think that like you earlier today, I can't I feel lonely like so lonely sometimes I feel so lonely that I don't even like know how what it would feel like to not feel lonely and sometimes that's when I'm in a room full of people and sometimes it's so I'm completely by myself um but loneliness I think is like it's one of the most haunting frustrating feelings because there's not much you can do about it it's really more about like connections and other people as well it's really hard if you're feeling lonely to not feel lonely as opposed to like sadness there's a lot of things you can do to not feel sadness or to work on your sadness anger same thing but lonely is a really difficult one to kind of overcome and the only thing that really you can turn to if you don't have people is what we're talking about which is movies and TV so it's like the your friend when you don't have one yeah I think there's a vicarious connection that occurs like I think that's why people I think that's why so much of Friends is a phenomenon, I think, because of that. Yeah, so many people feel exactly.

It's actually kind of annoying. I wonder if you feel this way ever, where I am frustrated that my favorite show is so many people's favorite show. Because I know that sounds crazy. I was like, I watch 120 shows a year. So I am the TV girl, and I've always watched that many shows. There's very few major shows that I haven't seen. I love television. So the fact that I'm such a basic bitch with.

my favorite show. My favorite show is friends. I wish I could sit here and say, my favorite show is, and then, like, name a show you've never heard of, and I'd be like, you've never heard of. But my favorite show's friends, your favorite show is friends. And there's a reason that millions and millions of people's favorite show as friends definitely touches on, like, so many different things we've talked about today. I've watched the show. There's some episodes I've seen a hundred times. Yeah, absolutely. I mean, the theme song of I'll be there for you. speak so much to the values and everything we've been talking about this whole time talking about showing up for people like even episodes like when joey goes to Vegas to shoot his movie and the movie doesn't end up working out which is so unbelievably relatable and then the entire crew shows up for him goes to Vegas and then of course he doesn't want them to be there because he doesn't want them to know that he's been lying to them but like that gets me emotional like moments where you they where they really do show up for each other they're

like true friends that it's the greatest show ever it's the greatest show ever and like people always want to talk about either how it is the greatest show ever or how it's so overrated and the people who think it's overrated i like have a hard time genuinely connecting you because that's crazy that's crazy yes it has his flaws obviously but yeah i mean again there's that unspoken side of it or it's about the emotional connection to it beyond laugh track and outdated jokes and stuff like that or or whatever you know i know comedy especially in television has changed um but there's which character do you relate with the most which character or that ageal question which friend's character are you or are you a hybrid of them all i think i'm a little bit of hybrid

growing up i my favorite character this is so i don't want to say embarrassing like she's not great because she is but growing up my favorite character was rachel which is so weird because she's so not my favorite character now not that i don't love rachel i love all of them. I really do. But I don't remember growing up thinking that she was spoiled. I grew up like super spoiled. So I feel like maybe I didn't look at it that way. I don't remember thinking that she was obnoxious. She's so obnoxious at times. She was my favorite. And then I started loving Phoebe. I still love Phoebe. Loved her. And then ever since I've been an adult, it has been Chandler so that was that was kind of my friend's journey the one that my people would say that

I'm most similar to do you want to guess yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah like if you had to narrow it down to one people say I'm more similar to Monica um is it a positive thing I don't think so that's why I hesitated because I was like I feel like when people say that it's kind of because I well it is positive in some ways let me tell you Monica because of the glue of the show, and that's 100%. She's the one who is the reason that they're all together. First of all, it's her apartment. Second of all, she's the cook.

She brings people over for dinners. It's her brother. It's her friends. Like, she is the center of the show. And I'm not saying I'm the center of the show, but I do think I try to bring everybody together at every chance I can. Like, I'm not like a, you know, there's some people who are very gatekeeping about their friends.

I like to introduce people to one another, merge people. If you need a tech issue, I have a friend who can help you with that coming, you know, for my, my birthday. Some people are like, I like to do a small thing. I like everybody to come together. So I do feel that way in that way it's a compliment. But I think she's the most anal and uptight. And while I'm a stoner child, which I am, I'm also very particular. Like, you guys know I'm the only one on the channel.

Like I wiped down my headphones before putting them on. I knew that I couldn't do that when we were here today. so I took it and put it on my legs. I, whenever we get emails about people who have left their cups out from drinking, I know for a fact, it's not me, because I, like, I would never, ever go to a place of work or somebody's home and leave out a cup there because that, to me, is disrespectful. So, like, that's why I bring, I've brought this up 17 times since it happened. One time I left Greg's door open at his house, and I, like, want to throw myself off of a building about it.

And I'm, like, devastated that I did it because I'm just very anal about those types of things. That's very Monica. And I also cook, like, twice a day. You do. You bake. Yeah, and I bake. You bake a lot. And I think that that brings people together.

I like to share that. So I think Monica's a really good friend. She shows up for people positive. Brings people together, positive. Super anal. Wouldn't call that positive. Do relate to it. Pretty, like, cares about clean and things like that.

actually in that way that's so funny because I feel like if we were going to say which friend's character Tara was she would be Monica too I don't know if that's true do you think she who's Tara I would say

everyone's a little bit that's the beauty of friends everyone's a little bit of all of them yeah she's I would say she's more of a combination of like a Phoebe and Monica Phoebe and Monica yeah like like I would say like Monica is personally my favorite of the ladies

and she's my favorite the ladies I'm trying not to say the word female all the time. Yeah, people don't like that word, but I don't mind the word female. I don't really get the pushback on female recently, but if it bothers you, that's fine. Not you. I felt like it had, I don't know, I'm trying it out. Like, I feel more comfortable saying ladies.

So, yeah, I mean, like, even with Olivia and I, I'm constantly, I'm like, we're very much a Chandler Monica dynamic. You think she's, like, the most like Monica? I think out of the friend's characters, yeah, absolutely. And I know that you have thought you were the most like Chandler, but now today, currently. I think in a relationship, I'm most like Chandler. I think as an individual, I'm more like Ross. Like, I've definitely evolved into that. That's what I was going to say to you.

And in the early days of the channel, with the satirical humor approach that we took, I was definitely a Joey. People will constantly call me a Joey. Yeah, like I know that's the thing. Oh, the Ryan stuff was mostly like. Joey? Yeah, like the stupid guy, perverted guy. It's so crazy, Greg, because I've seen some of those videos because they come up on my algorithm and they, you are nothing like him. I know, right? Yeah. That's why it's like such a character to me. I enjoy the crap out of it when anything comes up because

I kind of miss it a little bit. Yeah. You do a great job. There's a bit of freedom. You do a great job. It's such a character because like I think, and everybody who knows me knows this, I think you are the greatest. And like, that is not and he's but he's funny as hell and there's some funny things about it but it's like nothing like nothing it's like a polar opposite character to who you are it's crazy i appreciate that yeah i used to value like chanler um my worth and still is in a lot of ways in solo conversations if i'm doing a live show if i'm with uh anyone i'm meeting for the first time i value sincerity and connection more but i don't really feel like they like me until they laugh at something i say me like I'm not really aiming these days on real rage X to be funny guy I'm not really aiming for

that but it is definitely like because I can't hear the audience but if I hear an audience I'm like I can make a million great points but if they don't laugh at one of my jokes this is going to drive me nuts like it drives me insane internally huh that's interesting yeah it's a it's a big even like I'm sure that like when we when we first like I've been around you forever and and it was until I think you did an interview on Collider at the time and you brought up the Star isborn bit when I peed my pants at the Shmowdown thing you brought it up and you were like it was hysterical and I was like we can be friends like I have that thing in me like if you laugh at my shit we can be friends you know what is so frustrating about me is that I don't laugh out loud a lot no you don't

like I could think something is the funniest oh my god how dare that person I could think something is the funniest thing of the world and I it will like it will look like this that's me thinking something's hysterical I don't know what I it's kind of like a writer in you yeah it's so so annoying and so I like I might somebody might say to me did you not think that was fun and I'm like no that was so funny but I'll say it just like that so like that so you probably had no idea that I'm out here thinking you're funny because I'm so annoyingly internal about it. I kind of I don't know what that's about, but I do

laugh and cry very similarly unless I lose it and then it's like for four hours. I can't stop laughing and crying. Yeah, you kind of got this like gasping for air laugh. Yeah. I don't know how to do it. Yeah.

100%. Exactly what it is. That's so annoying. There's a little strangle happen. Yeah. That's dead ass true about me. As opposed So, like, somebody like Aaron, you know if he thinks something's funny. Aaron has such a great, like, big laugh.

Yeah, he's so jolly. And, like, there's never a time where I make a joke where I don't feel like Aaron's going to laugh at it. I love that. Yeah. I wish I was that, but I'm not. Like, if I'm just, that is true. I have thought that before. I know.

One out of ten. I got her to laugh. There you go. Yeah. Yeah. And to the Monica thing, too, it's especially. Especially, there is that, there's sometimes where people do say, you're like, I'm like, I'm like, I think that's such a good thing to be like a Monica. Like, she's very loyal. She's very. She's very. She's very, she's very consider every one of the friends characters has flaws. And I think Monica's flaws stand out the most as like the qualities that if it's coming out in an aggressive way or interpreted to be aggressive, people are like off put by it. Yeah. Yeah. Which makes it like funny in the show. But in real life, I think some people will say that when they're like, oh, she's the one we're or something like that, but I'm like, you mean the strong woman.

You're scared. I want to know who you think is who from the rejects. Oh, interesting. John's Gunther. Is that true what you think? No. I think, oh, that's a, are there enough even numbers? No, no, you can double up on things.

There are eight of us, I think. Yeah, I would say Phoebe, Tara, Okay. Monica. Me. Um, okay. And then I would say, coy's a ross for sure undoubtedly huh oh my god he thinks he knows everything and he'll say that

so there's a coy and the aaron i guess aaron would be i don't mean this in this in the stupid way he's joey he's joey's got so much heart yeah he's got so much joey's the best yeah i mean they're all great but joey's amazing yeah joey's got so much what do you think andrew is andrew's Gunther Andrew Andrew would be Gunther

to me Oh my God well that's a wild this is okay and who is

John actually John would be I would put John more in the Chandler

category yeah for sure I would undoubtedly say John's character

and and you're really landing at Andrew's Gunther I mean I don't

think he's any of the friends Andrew's a very specific he is so specific

he's a very one of a kind type of individual I like can't say

enough good things about that And him and I have been having a lot of like, it's my surprise some people here. We've been on like deep-ass conversations lately. Why would that surprise anybody? Because he, a lot of times he, he said it himself, and he's talked to me about it, like, feeling like he can mainly just talk about movies and shows.

But I'm like, let's explore that. Why? And it's a whole thing with Andrew to unpack, but it's good things. All good things to unpack. And it's been great. So we've got limited time here. We talked about friends. M&M.

Why M&M? I have the same question for you. Do you have an answer to that? I do. Really? Okay, can you tell me so I can steal it? Well, mine's different. You don't know that?

It might be mine 20 seconds from now. Chili peppers, I used to do a lot of poetry. That's how I got to know, Aaron. I know why chili peppers. Why Eminem's harder? Chili peppers, eventually I found, because I always loved Eminem. When I was writing poetry, it used to be more like inspired by chili pepper's lyrics. And then when I found Eminem.

How unbelievable, once you like really start breaking down. down chili peppers lyrics did you ever read anthony keyes his book scar did you yeah that helped me so much with their music and like figuring out where certain things were coming from surprisingly straightforward book too yeah um and m and m his i heard it in a video they said public therapy is what he was doing so then it's instead of being more like ethereal and like what the hell oh is gregg talking about it turned into um i'm going to be very much about like direct my emotions and my state of being and all that stuff you can come in koi I'm going to be very direct about...

Oh, he's going to love this portion of the conversation. We're talking about Adam, man. Yeah, so it was about showing that, and I would sometimes put out poems. They got me in trouble. Like, we talked about boundaries and privacy. But what about, how do you respond to this? This is what I have the hardest time responding to, because he's my favorite rapper alive.

He's my favorite rapper of all time. I understand that that's not a popular answer, but it is my answer of who is my favorite. When people are like, but he's so angry and so abusive in his music, and he talks so much about hitting women and his relationship with Kim is horrible. And that's true. That is in his music.

And in some of his favorite, my favorite music of his. How do you respond to when people say that? I mean, in my point of view, it is thoughts and being put to pen. Like his darkest. It's not him killing Kim in a car. It's not him actually doing these things.

It's never come out. that he's done any of these things. It's actually never come out that he's done. Anything. Anything. That's my point. He's never, like, I'm sure he's been in scuffles and fights and whatever. Like, he's been seen with a weapon, but he's, but all the other things, it is. That's slim.

It's not him. That's Marshall got it. That's where Ryan, like Ryan, Ryan was very much an inspiration of that of, like, all the things that was a repression of me of growing up Catholic and then going into like network marketing and being told you have to be, everything about, here's how you have to be, everything about, here's how you have.

have to be. I'm like, I'm going to be the exact opposite of how everyone told me I have have to leave me a whole life. And I'm going to let out every weird thought that I have. And that's Eminem to me is a whole, it's, he's an expression. And I like later. Are you obsessive about him? Absolutely. Yeah. Like he was the first artist that I would sit when, um, do you remember a song Crazy in Love? Um, I was in Washington, D.C. And I decided every bus ride I was going to spend memorizing that song. I was so important to me by the time I came back to D.C. that I and to this day I still know every single word to that song but I listened to it on repeat 4,000 times like just would not stop back stop back because it was the first time I felt like

oh my God I want to know every word he says I want to know everything he's done this is it was probably before you could just like Google lyrics I'm like sitting there I don't even know if I had it maybe it was an an iPod because it wasn't an iPhone and you go back and back and back because I was truly obsessive about him. Do you relate with him? What is it that you relate with? Hmm. I think that you've talked a lot about anger. I don't have that much anger. I have major depression issues and I think those are cousins. Well, usually underneath anger is hurt in depression. Yeah. Yeah. So I'm on that side of him. That's my beautiful is my favorite of top three of his. What was the coolest thing about him, of course, are his lyrics, but not as much like what he's saying, but how he does it. How he can manipulate words. As a writer, you can't not be unbelievably impressed with his ability. Yeah. It's just, to me, it is unmatched by anybody ever. And so that I think I was always just so impressed by him. And the talent that he has,

is talent i'll never have um i i'm i work very hard i think anybody who's ever worked with me would say that that's one of my um qualities that i'm very hard worker but i i don't often here and don't often feel like i have a natural gift i feel like i've had to work so hard for anything that i'm decent at like nothing ever came like oh it's natural i'm naturally good at this um and so watching him have this gift and then like work and hone the craft has just, I think it's so cool. So it's putting the craft more than the actual, like, is there a particular song that, we were talking a lot about loneliness earlier.

Yeah, I mean, Haley's song growing up was the one that I was like. Oh, really? Why that one? From Eminem show? Yeah, yeah. But so many of his songs, though. I mean, so many of his songs. Like, I'll end up, like, bopping around town and just sometimes it'll start singing the

song of his out of the complete. blue depending on my mood or the day. A lot of his songs actually are about loneliness or about like feeling isolated or somebody else feeling lonely or isolated. So the father-daughter connection that actually, I never looked at it from that perspective actually of someone who's a fan of Eminem and how he talks so much about his daughter is the father side of him, something you really click with? For sure. I actually feel like he seems like a great dad. He does. That's a pretty cool thing. can you believe how old Haley is now? Have you followed anything up on?

I don't know who'd be crazy enough to marry her, whoever that guy is and lucky. I'd be so scared. But I don't think you would have to be. He seems like not a scary, like... Too big of a fan. I know, I know, I know, I know. Have you ever been to Detroit?

I've never been there. No, every movie makes it look like a nightmare. That's so true. I have such bad images of Detroit in my head, but then I have some friends who are from there who are like just... Proud. Proud. Proud of Detroit people, yeah. Yeah, I'd never been there.

there. But he's got his mom spaghetti there. And I really want to go. I honestly want to go to Detroit just to try it. Like he makes me want to follow everything he's done. I'm kind of an obsessive person this you probably know at this point. So when I love somebody, I know every song of that. I know every, I follow everything. It's like my Drew Barrymore obsession. Eminem was one of my first ever life obsessions where I was just like truly obsessed for me growing up. It was him and Kanye, him and Kanye. So unfortunate that I no longer have Kanye.

Fucking, he can't, yes. That's crazy. It's crazy. But also, my brother and I would listen to Eminem and Kanye on our way to school. When my brother could drive us every day, we wouldn't even speak. We'd just be listening to Eminem or

listening to Kanye. So it was really cool, and I felt really cool liking whatever my brother liked. To me, he was just like the coolest dude ever. And he loved Eminem also so we could definitely like it was one of the things we vived with I wanted it with this man my dad uh he hated rap you know really he did all of it all of it but there was one time where I was like can I show you because we show I experimented once and I showed a mockingbird

and he really enjoyed that and I never thought he'd enjoy it he enjoyed what the song the song mockingbird yeah yeah and uh how did you play it for him like we were in the car right and I had the CD and I popped it in and I I don't know why I thought it might do it that sounds great but that particular one yeah and then it's interesting to end it here we didn't talk about chili peppers but the it's my favorite band of all time it's your favorite band of all time just so the people know so people know one day there'll be follow-up podcast we have other things in mind that we want to do and this will come out but the the lynch the the link between everything that we've talked about with all

the arts has been misunderstood loneliness and the other part that i didn't expect is addiction yeah like even yeah chili peppers huge addiction problems m&m addiction problems for sure for sure very more addiction problems roxy strier yeah it's interesting to see like oh i never i never correlated well that all this stuff about like the obsessive and the like um art and lonely yeah yeah it's like all kind of goes like i can learn a good amount about you. Oh, cool, man. Yeah, I haven't been listening to you

for the past two years, but now I am. Because I said listening to people's important. They're fucking pay attention. No, you really listen to people. I don't think I would have said it to you if I felt like you didn't. Imagine if that's what this was about. I was like, my goal of the show is to come on.

Let's stop talking to listen. I can't hear you when you interrupt me. It's super duper not true. And actually, you do something where sometimes we'll be in the conversation and you're like, I'm going to stop talking for a little bit. just whatever you want to say you say and then i can respond to it you i could talk for an hour without i think you interrupting me i try yeah you're very good at it thank you for the time i know i've

had a hell of a week and i'm glad you can generate some time here with us today and i'm happy you're back and i'm happy you're safe and thanks for let's keep kicking ass man um i'm going to make a social post about this but i you are my the own this was the only job that allowed me to go shoot a movie. I haven't even talked about the movie. Oh, wow. I went to London. I shot a movie.

I'll keep you guys posted on it. But who you covered for me while I was gone. I have never, ever, ever had a boss do that ever in my 15 years of working. That was, I've told 100 people about it. Oh, thanks. Which you don't know. But like, that was the, I have. Did you tell Kate Beck?

second sale and louis tan hell yeah i told everybody at work um i i have a hundred screenshots from you well thank you about that so anyway um well we want to yeah i mean we're proud to you we want to support you it's like if anyone takes a trip uh especially if it's it's like like coy went to paris and we want to make sure like oh we have the show going well we'll find someone to fill it's not a big deal that looked like a sick trip yeah i got yeah stuff this show because i respect yeah yeah and uh Yeah, but that's somebody going on vacation. I've never had a boss support me do another work thing. I didn't look at it that way.

You owe us. Well, what I think that in your soul, I hope you feel, is that maybe I can be so big that actually I can even make the channel bigger. I think, I mean, yes, sure. I think you contribute so much to hear that it's not even a, I don't know, it's not even a question to me. I'm like, yeah, she's. That was really cool.

I don't feel like there's, yeah, I don't know. But then I got the flu, and you still covered for me, and then my grandfather died, and then you stayed covering for me. Yeah. It was three weeks, crying. You didn't think you're making stuff up, so that way I keep covering for me. I know. I was like, do I need to send him photographic evidence?

Oh, man. That was horrible timing. You've been covering for me for a long time. It's all good. Seriously, don't worry about it. You're amazing. I do worry about it, but thank you. I know you do.

It's out to you. all right guys we'll follow roxy on her socials thank you so much for being here friend thanks for having me and uh i'll keep seeing you throughout the next few days so see bye guys