The Rich Roll Podcast - Jason Caldwell On Rowing Oceans, High-Performance Team Building, Experiential Leadership & Chasing The Impossible
Episode Date: November 15, 2021Adventure begins when things start to go wrong. So stop looking for the shortcut. Embrace the difficult journey ahead. Few embody this ethos better than today’s guest Jason Caldwell. An extraordina...ry adventure athlete and beautiful beast of a human, Jason holds 11 world records set across 5 continents and 3 oceans, including a 320-mile unassisted traverse of the Namib desert (the longest desert trek across Namibia), captaining the fastest team to row across the Atlantic Ocean unsupported, and most recently, victory in the Great Pacific Race as captain of the fastest team to ever row from San Francisco to Hawaii, a feat Jason and his 3 teammates accomplished in just 30 days 7 hours, smashing the previous world record by an astonishing 9 days. In addition, Jason is the CEO of Latitude 35, an experiential leadership and high-performance team building consulting company. He’s a widely sought-after public speaker on the Fortune 500 circuit and has taught at some of the country’s leading business schools, including Wharton, Columbia, Berkeley & West Point. This is a conversation about what is required to tackle and accomplish audacious goals. It’s about cultivating resilience, perseverance, and risk-taking. It’s about honing the willingness to fail, leveraging drive, and celebrating humility. It’s also about ‘healthy quits’—the importance of knowing how, when and why sometimes it’s crucial to just call it a day. But more than anything, this conversation is about the critical nature of team building. It’s about leadership through experience. Why success is never a solo affair. And how to get the best out those in your orbit. If you’re into wild stories of adventure this one’s for you. But you don’t have to be the slightest bit athletic to gain significant value out of what Jason shares today. To read more click here. You can also watch listen to our exchange on YouTube. My hope is that this conversation inspires you to reevaluate your limits, find power in your community and invest more in adventure. Needless to say, Jason has lived a wild life. This conversation nearly passed 2.5 hours—and I feel like we only scratched the surface. Peace + Plants, Rich
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We hear this cliche all the time that life is short, right?
We always say life is short.
I don't actually believe that life is short, or at least I don't think we actually believe it.
I mean, whether life is long or short, I guess, just depends on what you compare it to.
You know, if you compare it to a giant redwood, it's short.
But if you compare it to like a fly, it's long, whatever it is.
But what do we believe?
And I think most people, to include myself at times, we believe life is long.
It's actually so long, in fact, that we put off these things, right? We always want to take piano
lessons, but we'll do it next year when my life isn't as busy. We do all these different things.
I'm going to patch things up with my mom or my dad. I haven't talked in a while. I'll do it next
week. I'll make the call next week, next month, whatever it is. And we put things off because we honestly believe we have more time.
And the reality is, is that that is exactly what keeps us from doing these things,
is that we always think we've got more time.
So if I'm talking about at the most basic level,
when we start to attempt these things,
we should honestly have a deep-seated belief that life is finite,
it's short and it's fleeting, in which case we
will start to act now. We need to start by how we think about time and how we think about how we
spend our time, because as we all know, weeks become months, become years, and all of a sudden
that's how we spend our lives. And I'm fearful that I'm not going to be able to get these things
done because I'm running out of time. And that helps me, you know,
and I hope that helps other people as well.
The Rich Roll Podcast.
What is happening, population of Podcastlandia?
Today's guest is a beautiful beast of a human,
an extraordinary adventure athlete
who goes by the name Jason Caldwell
and also happens to hold about a dozen world records
set across five continents,
including a 320-mile unassisted traverse
of the Namib Desert,
the longest desert trek across Namibia.
He's also captained the fastest team
to row across the Atlantic unsupported.
And most recently he achieved victory
in the Great Pacific Race,
which was an event in which he captained
the fastest team to ever row the Pacific
from San Francisco to
Hawaii. A feat Jason and his three teammates accomplished in just 30 days and seven hours,
absolutely smashing the previous world record by an astonishing nine days. In addition, Jason is
the CEO of Latitude 35, which is an experiential leadership and high-performance team-building consulting company.
He's also a widely sought-after public speaker on the Fortune 500 circuit and has taught at some of the country's leading business schools like Wharton, Columbia, Berkeley, and West Point.
A couple of things to toss in before we plumb the ocean depths, but first.
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Okay, Jason Caldwell.
So, I don't know what to tell you.
I mean, this guy's done a ton of cool shit.
We went for like two and a half hours
and I feel like we only scratched the surface.
But what we did do was talk adventure, of course,
and what is required to tackle
and accomplish audacious goals.
Things like resilience, perseverance, risk,
the willingness to fail, the importance of drive, humility,
all with a very intentional and particular focus
on something that I think is too often overlooked
in the equation around success,
which is the critical nature of team building, of cultivating community,
and the why behind the emotional drive to express human potential and ultimately bring out the best
in others. If you're into wild stories of adventure, then this one is definitely your jam,
but you don't have to be the slightest bit athletic to get a ton of value of what Jason shares today.
So waste another moment, we will not.
This is me and Jason Caldwell doing the thing.
Nice to meet you, man.
Thanks for doing this.
Oh, yeah, it's a pleasure.
This is an honor for me, so thank you.
Lots to unpack here. Before we get into anything though, man, I gotta know how the it's a pleasure. This is an honor for me, so thank you. Lots to unpack here.
Before we get into anything though, man,
I gotta know how the body's healing up.
How are you feeling?
You look like you put some weight back on,
so I trust that it's all going well.
Yeah, I'll take that as a compliment, but yeah.
What are we like five weeks since I,
six weeks since I did it, so I'm largely better.
First week is nasty,
because you're learning to walk again.
You've lost 20 plus pounds.
And then you put the weight back on,
then the hands hurt, tons of tendonitis.
So that was probably the last thing to like come back.
But other than that, I started training,
working out last two weeks, that's been good.
I still have a little bit of numbness in some of my fingers.
Like if I do that, I can still feel that go down
just from just constant pulling.
But you have that every time, right?
It comes back.
Yeah, well, for the most part,
the couple of these fingers are taking a little while.
So 20 pounds you lost.
I think you lost 40 pounds on the Atlantic row, right?
Yeah, I think I lost more than that on this one.
They had me stepping on a scale at the beginning
that was in kilos and another one in Hawaii
that was in pounds, so I'm not really sure.
But I would say like probably it was probably closer to 30, but definitely not as much as the Atlantic.
Do you do like blood work and stuff to figure out where you're at specifically before and after?
Yeah, I have. And we did on this one. In fact, we were working with a company that was
want us to do blood work and take blood samples the whole way, the whole way through. So they
could analyze it afterwards because when are they gonna get a chance to kind of analyze the blood composition
of this type of endurance adventure.
But the thing is we couldn't get blood
out of our fingers out there.
And I'm not even sure what this is,
is either like massive dehydration,
but I'd prick my finger.
I'm sitting in a little tiny cabin,
like rocking back and forth.
I'm like squeak, I can't get a-
No bloods coming out.
One little drop, which wasn't enough.
And so I don't think I'm too happy.
Yeah, I mean, just trying to wrap my head around
what goes into an endeavor like this is mind blowing.
As I mentioned to you before the podcast started,
I watched a documentary this morning
and I thought I had a sense for the kind of challenges that you would face and have to endure.
Just being wet all the time and the sleep deprivation
and just what it's like to be on that boat.
But to see all the footage that you had,
and this was chronicling your Atlantic adventures,
but just all the sores on your hands
and the sores on the feet and what happens to the seat
and how much your ass is hurt.
Like, it just sounds so awful.
You're describing it well.
It's unbelievable, you know?
And I can't remember which teammate of yours,
like you showing how his hands turned into claws
and you would pry your fingers open
and then they would just close again,
no matter what you would do.
And the numbness that you get in your fingers
and the fact that like, after this, you truly can't walk.
Like there's a lot of, I think it's you
where your calves look like, your legs look like sticks.
Yeah.
So your lats are huge, your shoulders are huge,
your chest muscles kind of atrophy, it all goes away.
Yeah, I mean, yeah, you've nailed it.
It's just, you've become so singular.
So you train for a year or two for this thing
and you train all parts of your body
and you're doing cross-dressing, swimming and trail running
on top of all the rowing.
But then in the end, it's pushing with your legs
and pulling with your back.
So the chest goes, the calves go,
you take three steps to your rowing seat every two hours
and then three steps back to the cabin after that.
And that's it.
So then you just lose the ability to walk.
So, I mean, like most endurance sports,
they ruin your body.
I mean, it's not a healthy thing to do.
You get healthy so that you can go ahead
and let yourself get broken down
and rebuild yourself back up.
What are the biggest differences
between rowing the Atlantic versus rowing the Pacific?
Yeah, this has been something I've been thinking a lot about.
I mean, right off the bat, the Pacific seemed more violent.
The water's colder, the highs were higher,
the lows were lower.
So that first week in the Pacific was just coming off of the continental shelf
was just brutal.
Yeah, we should just say you started in San Francisco
and you end up in Waikiki basically.
Exactly.
And it's like 2100 nautical miles, something like that.
24.
24, okay.
Give me those extra 300.
Yeah, all right, man.
Yeah, so it just seems a lot more violent,
like the sea was moodier.
And then the second thing that was obvious,
and I'm rowing with two of my teammates
that row in the Atlantic as well.
So we all had a good comparison
and it was just constantly changes.
The Atlantic is consistent.
I mean, as consistent as an ocean can be.
Sometimes you'd get good weather in the Atlantic
for three, four days at a time,
where it's just that same consistency.
You've got nice little swells that you're surfing down.
You've got good winds, you know,
and you've got kind of the same sea state.
And the Pacific was like every two hours,
it seemed to change.
It was like, in some ways it was nice
because if you had bad weather, it's like, well,
hey, wait two hours, it'll change.
It might get worse, might get better,
but at least it'll be different.
So that was the Pacific.
It was just, it was r worse, might get better, but at least it'll be different. So that was the Pacific, it was just,
it was rougher, more violent, less consistent.
So I think that that was what was apparent to all of us
kind of as we started rowing.
It's interesting to hear you say that
because in watching the documentary,
which chronicles your two Atlantic crossings,
it doesn't look like the Atlantic is consistent.
Looks like it's throwing everything at you
all at the same time where it's constantly shifting.
Yeah, and it's all relative.
There's not really anything,
such thing as consistency in the ocean.
I mean, you're in this huge body of water
and you're pretty sure that at that point,
you're personifying the ocean.
I mean, you're giving it human characteristics
because it seems like it's out to get you.
So whenever you get too comfortable,
it changes it up on you.
And we certainly had our fair share of that
in both the Atlantic crossings you saw on the dock,
but the Pacific was just,
it was just this idea of,
we have this world record that we're trying to break.
We've got a teammate that's never done an ocean before,
but even with that, we've got seven ocean crossings
between three of us in there.
And that's by far the most experienced team.
So you've got this idea where
there's nothing that we haven't seen.
And so the Pacific will be different,
but it won't be dramatically different.
We won't be shocked by anything.
And that was wrong.
We were absolutely shocked by stuff out there.
Well, there's so many threads to pull here.
There's the endurance piece, there's the training piece.
Like there's the mindset piece.
How do you get your head around doing something like this?
There's all the experience that you bring to bear
to put yourself in good stead to accomplish your goals.
And there's the leadership piece and the teamwork piece,
which I think is really interesting here
as somebody who's really an individual athlete.
I mean, there is no such thing as individual sports.
Like anybody who's performing at a high level,
even in an individual sport has a team that supports them.
But there's something very unique and specific
to the sport of rowing that I have
really learned to appreciate just in diving into your story and how crucial that combination of
skill experience and camaraderie comes to play in terms of dictating whether you're going to
be successful or not. 100%. Yeah. I mean, I'm looking forward to talking about the team aspect
of this and, you know, we'll go off your lead, but, you know, the interdependency of rowing,
I don't think there's anything quite like it, at least that I've experienced is this idea that
there's no all-star, you know, there's no LeBron James on the team. When you cross the finish line,
whether you're doing, you know, collegiate elite level sprint rowing, which is 2000 meters,
or you're rowing across an ocean, thousands of miles.
You don't cross that finish line.
People aren't saying like, oh, it was that guy that did it.
You know, I mean, you're giving up that individualism
and that's what rowing does
is you're choosing to give up that.
And that's not an easy thing to do for type A personalities
and highly competitive people.
I feel like you perhaps understood that intellectually
before your first Atlantic crossing,
but there was a lot of pride and hubris
in how you put that team together
and where your head was at in terms of
what you thought would happen and unfold.
So talk a little bit about what went into
that first Atlantic.
We're gonna go back and tell your whole backstory,
but that idea of like waltzing into this crazy race,
but putting together essentially what was an all-star team
of like the best rowers that you could find
and just thinking, well, these guys are the best.
Like we're gonna crush this thing,
even though we might be missing an experience piece.
Yeah, I mean, I think the biggest thing
when I'm hearing you kind of frame it like that,
my mind automatically goes to this idea that half the race, you're not rowing.
So you're rowing two hours on, two hours off, 24 hours a day throughout the entire crossing.
And let me just stop you right there.
Sorry to interrupt.
No, that's all right.
Why do you arrive at this two hours on, two hours off?
How did you figure out that that's the best recipe?
Yeah, this is the golden rule
that people are trying to upend all the time.
Every new team that wants to be competitive
and thinks they've got it figured out
tries to change it, including myself, a number of times.
And you just go back to two hours on.
Because, so let's take going longer.
Let's say you do three hours on, three hours off.
You gotta make it consistent.
You're gonna have to spend the same amount of time off is on so yeah that's extra time off but that third
hour is just so unproductive as a rower i mean even as a an elite rower you know and highly
trained after two hours you're just not putting a lot behind the oars there's just there's just
not a lot of purchase there and yeah you're getting more more time resting but it's just not a lot of purchase there. And yeah, you're getting more time resting,
but it's just, it's such an unproductive third hour.
So what you make up for in the extra sleep
doesn't pay off in terms of forward momentum
behind the oars.
No, I think there's also a lot of diminishing returns
even for the rest piece.
People think three hours is not a lot
and two hours is just ridiculous,
but two hours is enough if you do it right.
So- Doesn't sound like enough.
I know it does not, we'll get into that.
But the third hour is not good.
So then if you went the other direction, you said,
let's do like an hour on an hour off.
Okay, well, there's the obvious thing
that you're only getting an hour of rest,
which that's just not enough to even get some kind of sleep.
Cause there's other things,
you're not just getting off the oars
and then falling right to sleep.
You've gotta cook food, you've gotta drink water You got to take care of your body. You've
got to take care of the boat. But also that's just more shifting. That's more rotation. So you're
doing on a two hours on, two hours off, you're doing essentially six shifts changes over throughout
day yourself. And if you double that, it's just more time where people aren't rowing. And yeah,
over one day, that's not a lot of time.
But if you're adding an extra like three minutes of shift
times six shifts times 30 days, it adds up.
Yeah.
So you're talking about trying to find that happy medium
and two hours, I mean, yeah,
you can play around with different things.
You can go, maybe you can go an hour and a half,
maybe you can go two and a half hours,
but there's something to be said
for consistency out there too. And your body gets into this, your body can go two and a half hours, but there's something to be said for consistency out there too.
And your body gets into this,
your body gets almost crate trained a little bit.
Like a puppy is like, puppy hates its crate.
Just like you'll hate to go inside that small little cabin
when you're seasick, but by day seven,
you're looking forward to it.
Right.
It's a place of safety, you fall asleep quickly.
Yeah, the body and the mind kind of figure out,
okay, this is the program.
Exactly. Now I'm locked in, let's just keep doing this one thing. Exactly, so you kind of figure out, okay, this is the program. Exactly.
Now I'm locked in.
Let's just keep doing this one thing.
Exactly, so you start to find out that like
two hours of sleep is, or call it an hour and 40 minutes
by the time you get down,
you feel like you can actually get some rest there.
And that's what you come to expect.
So we'll get back to the team building piece,
but just so people understand,
these transoceanic rows are four man crews.
So it's you and three dudes.
You're on a boat where essentially at each end,
there are cabins, two people row at a time,
two people are off.
And I've heard you talk about how actually the time off
is more challenging than when you're rowing.
And I suspect that's because when you're rowing,
that's all you're doing.
You're just doing this one thing.
It's almost a relief.
All I have to do is row back and forth.
But when you're not rowing,
you gotta take care of yourself.
You gotta mend all your wounds.
You gotta feed yourself.
You gotta repair the boat
or take care of whatever mechanical situations
you're dealing with.
You gotta get the rest.
There's a lot of stuff to keep track of.
So there's a mental toll to all of that.
Yeah, exactly.
I think that's when you're rowing,
that's what you train for to row.
And so there's something, like you said,
it's kind of a relief to know, okay,
I'm on the oars for the next two hours.
This is something I know.
There's a lot of unknown when you're off the oars
and you're having to do things like feed yourself
and take care of your body
and anything that responsibility is on the boat.
But then things come up, you know, you get off course,
something breaks, something's not working.
And then all of a sudden,
the time that you were supposed to be sleeping
is now being used to fix something.
And that's the other thing is that you might,
that might be a rest,
but that's only if everything's going right.
The guys that are on the oars are on the oars.
They row, they're propelling the boat.
So their only job is to move the boat
in the right direction.
So anything that comes up on the boat
during your off shift is your responsibility.
And, you know, going back to that idea of this first row
where maybe I thought it was gonna be a little easier than it was. And I think that was what I neglected. And I see a lot of teams going into the first time, they don't think about the off shifts. And I encourage people to spend a lot of time thinking about the off shifts because it's not just those responsibilities that I was just talking about, but mentally, you're looking at that clock.
mentally, you're looking at that clock. Okay, I've got an hour and 15 minutes.
Now I've got an hour and 30 minutes.
Now I've got 47 minutes left.
And oh my gosh, I'm not falling asleep right now.
And then you're thinking about that.
So then you're not falling asleep even longer.
And all of a sudden you're looking out
that little cabin window and it's pouring down rain
and they look miserable.
And you're 20 minutes away
from being out there yourself doing it.
And all of a sudden it seems like you can't even finish
the next two hour shift, let alone the next 20 days.
And that kind of emotional toll
and mental anguish associated with it is,
that's a pretty powerful demotivator
if you haven't like spent time
kind of thinking about that in preparation.
How religious are you about the two hours on,
two hours off?
There's gotta be moments where somebody's sick
or somebody's not feeling it,
or you just know, you know,
so-and-so is a little bit weaker today than yesterday.
Do you make adjustments
and kind of read off everybody's energy
so that it's a little bit more fluid than rigid?
Or do you just, nope, two hours, you're up?
It's very rigid on our team.
I mean, not every team is like this.
Some teams are just trying to get across,
and that's an admirable goal just to do that.
But if you're trying to win a race, set a national record,
maybe even set a world record, you have to be that strict.
Now, that being said, we have, in all of our rows,
have had sick teammates that can't quite get over the seasickness right away or injury, in which case we decided as a team that we're going to take some shifts.
And that happened in this last row. And it's absolutely the right thing to do. So then you
are making changes and I'm going to row an extra hour. So I'm going to do a three-hour shift and
then someone else is going to come on. But outside of those things, it is a strict two on, two off.
And it really is strict. So if I'm rowing and i've got like three minutes
left until my shift i better see that light in that cabin go on if not i'm gonna give a little
knock on it real quick because he's got to get ready to go and if you think about this way this
is an interesting stat my last row was third took us 30 days to cross san francisco to hawaii
if your teammate was late just two hours or or sorry, two minutes to your shift,
if you had to row just two minutes of his shift,
every shift, which doesn't seem like a lot,
by the end of 30 days,
you'll have rowed an extra six hours.
That's a half a day of rowing
that you would have taken from your teammate
just because he's just taking a little more time
to put his shoes on.
So that's fortunately for our team,
we treat it with respect that it deserves.
And when that time comes up, that person's ready to go.
Right, right, right, right.
All right, so the first time you attempt to do one of these,
I never know what year it is
cause the Atlantic road takes place over the year.
So is it 2015, 16?
They call it 2015 cause we start that time.
But yeah, it was 2015, 16.
Right, so-
Or as my wife likes to say, by the way,
three weeks after we got married.
Yeah, I know, right?
In the documentary, you get married
and then you just fly to the Canary Islands
to like go do this thing.
We did go on a honeymoon.
She has no idea what is,
you know, she's in store for with this.
No, she's got her own story.
That's for sure.
Good God.
But you spend two years getting ready for this thing, right?
Like studying the maps
and trying to figure out what the strategy is
and most importantly, recruiting a team.
Yeah.
So talk a little bit about that process
and how that's evolved
based on what you've learned doing this.
Yeah, so the first part is the recruitment.
I mean, you can imagine it's a pretty shallow pool
to try to find people that,
A, are willing to do this crazy endeavor
and spend a month plus out and away
from everything they know.
But then B, the two years of training
and prepping for this thing.
So I wrote for a boat club,
Vesper Boat Club in Philadelphia after college,
an elite team training for Olympics.
Legendary club.
Yeah, I mean, it was an honor to be there.
And I spent three plus years there,
being at six foot four, 200 plus pounds,
the shortest and lightest guy on the team.
And so I was a little guy for three years.
I had that complex for a while.
When I got home, guys didn't like that
I was jumping on their backs.
I thought that my smaller friends could hold me up.
But so when I was recruiting,
I wanted to be at once again,
kind of the smaller guy on the team.
I wanted to get some of these big, strong guys,
but I really couldn't find.
Those guys just, they graduated and gone on,
started careers, started families.
So the opportunity-
Like Goldman Sachs and stuff.
Yeah, exactly.
Yeah, all the Ivy Leaguers.
I was like the little state schooler there.
But yeah, they're all,
the opportunity cost had just risen too much
since we left Vesper.
So I was desperate to find those types of individuals.
And I got one of them,
a guy that wrote at a different club,
but a very good club, Nick.
He was a big, strong athlete,
but the rest, Tom and Greg, who I recruited as well,
on paper weren't those athletes.
But I think one of the things I learned
about what these other rows after that
is there's just a difference
between the best guys and the right guys.
And I was so obsessed with always getting the best guys.
On paper, it had to be big, tall, strong, good 2K scores.
How fast you can roll 2,000 meters on a rowing machine.
Shit doesn't matter out there.
What you need is somebody who's selfless,
who's thinking about everybody else a little bit more
than they're thinking about themselves.
And those types of process-oriented people,
this is stuff I just didn't know in the first race.
Right, and there wasn't a lot of ocean experience
with these guys.
Like on paper, they had amazing CVs
and were super accomplished rowers
on the collegiate circuit or what have you,
but really didn't have any experience at a race like this.
And it's in the documentary, it's Angus.
He's kind of like, yeah, we'll see how this goes, right?
He's on the British team.
He's kind of like, yeah, we'll see how this goes. He's on the British team. He's kind of casting a glance over at your team gone.
Yeah, they're talking a big game,
but we'll see what happens when we're out there.
Him being this like sort of master rower
who has all of this ocean experience at the time.
Yeah, exactly.
We had zero ocean rowing experience.
Now that's not unheard of for any of these teams.
I mean, most people have never had done an ocean row, but people like Angus not unheard of for any of these teams. I mean, most people
have never had done an ocean row, but people like Angus who have grown up at the sea, he had actually
done a row. He rode the Indian before that. So we were rowing against a guy who's put the team
together and has ocean rowing experience. But yeah, I mean, he was looking at our team and saying,
yep, they can row in flat water, great conditions for short distances really, really well. But this is the antithesis of that.
And so, yeah, just this kind of naivete that we went in
and just thinking like, well, it's just like a flat water row.
We just have to do it for a longer period of time
was detrimental.
Yeah, you soon found out.
I mean, in pretty short shrift, things went sideways.
Yeah, so the first thing that happened was,
not even a day out from the Canary Islands
where the race starts,
we've got 3000 miles of open ocean to go
and we've got a teammate, Nick,
my biggest, strongest teammate that's getting sick
and seasick and we're all feeling it for sure.
And it just genetically,
everyone deals with it differently,
but he was just getting absolutely rattled by it.
And he was not just getting ill,
but as he described it,
it was like someone was squeezing every angle of his head
and then shaking his head.
So he was disoriented and it just kept getting worse
and worse and worse.
And we had by day five or so,
we had this teammate that not only wasn't rowing, but was very, very ill.
So we had that issue.
And then we had another issue with Greg, who just didn't want to be there anymore.
And, you know, that was kind of the mental prep that I was talking about.
Just he was not willing to make the crossing.
And, you know, to his credit, he was rowing his make the crossing. And to his credit,
he was rowing his shifts all the way through.
So when we had to get an evacuation
where Nick is being evacuated a week into this row,
Greg saw the opportunity to also leave and took it.
So even though he was healthy, he's like, I'm outta here.
Yeah, exactly.
This is not going good.
Yep, so he was scared and it's scary out there and and he was he he saw this opportunity
because we're at this point we're anchoring so so we're not we're not even moving we're anchoring
for two days waiting for the sailboat to basically cover the distance that we had covered over the
last week to come up to us it It's gonna take them two days.
So we're anchoring 600 miles off the coast of Africa,
watching the last two days.
We know the boats are just getting further and further away from us,
knowing that I know I'm staying.
So, you know.
Right, but this idea going into it
that you're aiming to win,
you're aiming to break the world record
and suddenly you're in close to last place,
anchored, you know, two guys getting carried off your boat
onto a safety sailboat.
I mean, the scene in the documentary
of getting those guys off the boat
and onto the sailboat was unbelievable.
It was much more harrowing
than I would have thought like that would be.
Yeah, it was dramatic.
I mean, we've got two guys that are leaving,
but you've got a sailboat that's, you know,
five times the size of our little rowboat
trying to, you know, collect two people,
one of which can barely even move his arms.
He's so sick from the sea, the open sea.
So, you know, we're having to drop them in
with their life jackets on, but like,
and they have to pull them in with a rope.
And at one point we lost the guy who was sick.
He couldn't hold on Nick.
And he was just drifting out there.
And as you probably saw on the doc,
he was interviewed afterwards and said,
that was the only time in his life he's ever been scared.
And you saw him fighting back those tears
as he's watching the film for the first time.
So he's just bringing them right back to where it was.
And this is, as I've said many times before,
it's one of the most tenacious athletes I've ever met.
I mean, this guy was nails.
And just broke him.
Just broke him.
I mean, that's what the ocean does.
So suddenly your four man boat turns into a two man boat.
And then you and Tom decide like, all right,
well, we're gonna just keep going.
Just the two of us.
Yeah, it was not as easy as we're just gonna keep going.
Tom took some convincing.
I knew I wasn't gonna leave
and Tom's one of my closest friends.
He was in our wedding.
This is a guy I've worked with for years.
And my last pick on the team, by the way,
because you saw from the dog, he's not a big guy
and he's tall, but he's skinny,
has trouble putting on weight and muscle.
And by the end of the thing,
he looks like a marathon runner.
Yeah, he does.
And he's just, I mean, he couldn't lose any more weight
than he had already lost.
I mean, it was starting to get really like kind of,
that's why he's having back problems
by the end of it and stuff.
I think it was just, I mean,
I think that that row was eating into like
his muscle and tendons and stuff.
But he wasn't sure he wanted to stay right away,
but he finally got convinced.
And so, he stayed on and once the evacuation,
I just have this vivid memory of just seeing that boat
sailing off literally into the horizon,
heading to the Verde Islands.
And we're just, and they're getting smaller
and we're just bobbing, we haven't started running.
We're just, the boat's just bobbing up and down.
And we're seriously trying to figure out like,
what is our, like, what is our strategy here?
We're 2,400 miles away from the finish.
We're in a boat made for four or five people.
Now gonna be rowed by two.
Yeah, and your goals are out the window.
So you need something else to kind of anchor your focus.
Yeah, yeah, what was that motivator? And I think we had a conversation about it. So you need something else to kind of anchor your focus.
Yeah, what was that motivator?
And I think we had a conversation about it.
And I think what we decided was to prove everyone wrong
because there were people that said like,
we have a responsibility to get off the boat as well,
because this can't be done with just two people.
Like they said, this boat's meant for four or five people.
This is irresponsible.
And you're putting other competitors at risk because if you do need a second rescue,
that means resources diverted away
from somebody else's boat.
Exactly.
If they needed help.
Yep, if one of the safety boats is closest,
they're gonna have to divert their route to get to us,
which could strand other boats.
Also maritime law requires that any other vessel out there,
even if it's a big shipping freighter
that has the ability to rescue us and is close,
must divert their route to come.
And so there were people saying,
it's inevitable that that's gonna happen.
So you're gonna waste time and resources
and money from somebody. So it was going to just, you're going to waste time and resources and money from somebody.
So it was irresponsible for us to stay on. I never once saw it that way. And I mean,
when you choose a life of adventure and endurance rowing, you're constantly going to have to
convince people that what you do is not irresponsible and selfish, even though to a
certain extent it is. But that's my big, that's my big argument. So it was what is
going to get us through because one of the things that, and this is, we're talking about lessons
learned from this first crossing is one of the ones I learned is that glory kind of takes you
to that start line. The thought of doing something that no one else has done and you get these pats
on the back when people hear that you're going gonna do this and you've got sponsorship that's behind you
and a charity that's behind you
and all of a sudden you're feeling pretty good
about yourself, but that glory
will not get you to the finish.
When you were bobbing up and down in a boat
with just you and one other guy,
600 miles off the coast of Africa with 2,400 miles to go,
those pats on the back and all that stuff,
that is not what's gonna get you across.
And we spent too much time kind of soaking that in and not enough time trying to understand
what gets somebody across an extremely difficult distance, such as an ocean.
And what I found out is it's shame. It is being more afraid of letting down your teammate
who's in the boat, your family, who's rooting for you,
your charity, your sponsors, your friends,
your family, your community,
being more afraid of letting them down
than you are of the elements,
than you are of dying,
than you are of being scared of getting drenched that night.
And that shame is what gets, what got us through.
It was, and what I call later,
it's because shame is not a great word to be using
because it's that kind of leveraging of human emotion.
And that's what we did.
We leveraged each other's human emotion
in a way that we were more afraid of letting each other down
than we were of the elements.
Yeah.
At the same time, you also had to find a way
to be of mutual support to each other, right?
So you have this experience where you're rowing
and Tom's like, what do you want for breakfast, right?
Like that was, that feels like it was sort of
an inflection point in terms of how you guys
were gonna interrelate to each other and support each other,
but even more broadly,
a lesson in regards to kind of teamwork
and leadership generally.
Yeah, it was a huge point that we didn't notice then.
It wasn't until afterwards that we realized
how pivotal that moment was because we're,
we had been rowing with for about five or six days
by ourselves and we're still doing two hours on,
two hours off by the way, but instead of being with somebody on deck,
you're by yourself.
So you're rowing two hours while the other guy's
getting some sleep in one of the cabins
and then you're rotating.
So there's all this kind of solitude.
I mean, just think about five days of,
we're chatting with each other every two hours,
just in passing, you know?
And so we get pounded by this storm. It's just, it's just relentless.
And this is where you start to think that the ocean's out to get you. And so for three days,
we just get pounded by this storm. And I'm going to be honest with you, like at the end of the
third day, I just, I want to quit. I do. I want to quit. And I'm mad that I allowed us to stay
out there. And I feel guilty for convincing Tom to stay out there
because he's not doing well.
And that's where we have this kind of,
without hope or agenda, this breakfast moment
where he's about to come on his shift.
It's like, I have like the 6 a.m. to 8 a.m. shift
and he's about to come on that shift and get ready at eight.
And instead of like coming on,
he just asked me like what I'd want for breakfast.
And I remember like at that moment,
being upset with them for asking such an insensitive
question because up to this point,
kind of the guy that was coming on shift
would kind of offer the words of encouragement, empathy.
And you know, that's what I was living for.
I'm at my lowest moment,
probably my whole life at this moment is my lowest.
I'm thinking the dark thoughts of wishing I could quit.
And I wonder if there's a boat close enough.
And that's what I'm thinking.
I can't get those thoughts out of my head.
And he asked what I want for breakfast.
And I kind of just play along with it a little bit
and just tell him what my favorite freeze dried meal,
which is the chicken risotto.
And he says, well, I like the spaghetti bolognese.
And we're having this conversation.
He says, you want me to make you some coffee?
And I'm like, yeah, sure.
He's like, do you want me to put that powdered hazelnut creamer?
And I love that stuff.
So I said, yeah, sure.
And he makes a deal.
This is the deal he makes me.
He says, if you row an extra 10 minutes,
like I'll make some food for you.
And I'm aware at this point,
this is 10 minutes of his shift.
Yeah. Very aware. You're vulnerable. Yeah, and I'm like a little bit like. And I'm aware at this point, this is 10 minutes of his shift.
Very aware. You're vulnerable.
Yeah, and I'm like a little bit like,
where's he going with this?
But I hate making the food and he knows that.
I don't like to do the jet boil.
I'd rather put the muscle into the oars
and he'd rather cook than row.
So I make the deal and sure enough,
after some time,
he says, I got some food for you.
And we turn around and I stop rowing.
And again, we don't even, we're not trying to,
this isn't planned, but I pull the oars in
and we just have that breakfast together.
And something really dramatic takes place.
It's kind of like a subtle, but dramatic shift
in kind of the mentality of the boat.
We just hang out.
We're just two buddies at that point,
sharing stories of what's happened to us
the last three nights,
because we've been by ourselves
and we're kind of desperate to share with somebody.
So we just kind of talk and all of a sudden,
we could be at home, talking in one of our,
on our living rooms or something like that.
It's just, there was this comfort that washed over us.
And from that, it was 30 minutes or whatever.
And then we went back onto our shifts.
But from that moment on for the next 41 days,
we always did breakfast.
It was just something that we could look forward to.
And again, didn't know it at the time,
but looking back, it was just a way for us
to kind of re-answer the question why we were doing this.
It's like, had that glory idea at the beginning,
that is not gonna get you through.
You don't care anymore that people are excited for you to finish just not pulling you through but i sure as shit care
that the guy that's sitting 20 feet away from me is going through a tough time and if i could just
row a little harder for him on this shift and he comes out and he sees that i put four miles in
instead of three that'll make him happy and he'll want to do the same because he won't want to let
me down so it was just this back and forth
for the next 41 days
of just trying to live up to the other person.
And it was just,
the ante just kept getting higher and higher.
And breakfast was a way to kind of
realign ourselves every 24 hours.
I mean, if you're just ships passing in the night
and the only exchange that you have
is when one's getting off the chair
and the other one's getting in,
you're not gonna be in sync.
Like you've gotta be aligned emotionally
and check in with each other
when you're working towards this goal,
otherwise there's no way.
I mean, the ship would quite literally capsize.
Yeah, it's exactly what it was.
And that kind of realignment was,
and that breakfast was our way of just kind of
realigning ourselves and kind of reminding ourselves of why we're doing this by looking someone else in the face that
you can see man the last 24 hours beat you to shit you can see it in his face you know he could
see it in mine and i was so proud of him you know because tom is you know to this day he's my close
friend we work together but i i just he had no business being out there.
We worked together in an old company.
One of the guys that worked there actually,
our boss said, you should cut Tom from the team.
He's not built for this.
And I remember considering it
because the guy that was saying this,
our boss was a former Olympian.
He knew rowing.
And I'm so glad I didn't, you know,
because he on paper was not the right guy,
but absolutely the right guy for this boat.
And I just was so afraid to let him down.
And I knew that he needed me to put the muscle in.
I did.
And he was so afraid to let me down.
He'd cook for me and he'd get bandages out for me
when I had infection.
He's like, cause I know you're not gonna take care
of yourself, Jay, so let me help you do it.
It's just this brotherhood.
And it was quite frankly,
kind of one of the most amazing things
that's ever happened to me.
You end up passing a bunch of boats,
you end up finishing, you go from almost last to 11th,
right, you get 11th in that race, took you 51 days.
But I feel like that was you getting a master's
in what you needed to know to go back
and have a more perfect attempt.
And it had nothing to do with how you trained for it.
Like all the stuff that you would think like,
okay, back to the drawing board.
Like we need to change this.
We need to change that.
It was all about the emotional piece, right?
Like extrapolating on that breakfast experience
and the guy who was healthy, but got decided to leave.
Like you go back to the drawing board and you're like,
I gotta solve this through a different lens.
Yeah, and just even to take it once,
take it a step back is that I didn't have no plans
on doing the second time, even if I didn't win,
I was, I thought this is a one and done type of thing.
I mean, so few people have ever even attempted a second one.
Most of those people are because they didn't finish
the first time, you know, they made it so many days, they had those people are because they didn't finish the first time.
They made it so many days.
They had to call out.
They want to try to do it again.
For us to finish was still a great thing,
but I couldn't shake the sense of failure.
I say this in the doc, but it's so true.
I remember the juxtaposition between my emotional state
and Tom's emotional state as we were coming into the finish line,
seeing everybody on the cliffs,
seeing our families as we come in,
as he was just, he was giddy.
He was beside himself.
He was so excited.
And I did, I felt like I was acting to be as giddy as him.
I did feel that way because I think I knew-
Meaning you didn't really feel that way.
You felt like you had failed.
Yeah.
What was your interior experience?
Yeah, I don't know if I had to define it as failure yet,
although I did later and I still do today.
As a captain, as a leader, I had failed that team.
But at that moment, I just felt this idea,
like I felt like maybe I was only halfway done.
I felt like that I was gonna have to do another one.
And Tom, I knew was never going
to do another one. And that was it for him. Yeah. He had nothing left to prove. I mean,
you see the pictures of him, you know, that, um, but there, we both, we both entered for different
reasons, you know, and he had proven everything he needed to prove to himself and to anybody else
that doubted him, but I had something left to do. So, you know, that was what happened is stepping off
as I didn't feel the closure.
Coming back for more, but first.
Okay, back to the show.
Well, let's spend a few minutes there
and maybe this is a good time
to like take it back a little bit
because I'm interested in that internal drive that you had
as somebody who had been successful as an athlete,
but had never really had the victories that you sought.
Right, like it was always like you were the guy
who came in second or had an opportunity to do something great,
but something would happen
and you wouldn't quite connect with it.
So there's this kind of cauldron inside of you,
the sense that you have something to express
and yet kind of repeated frustrations
with your ability to execute on that.
Yeah, as wall full of silver medals as I like to call it,
that's really what I felt like I was
to include where we are here in this story
of finishing this first row.
It's, you know, played baseball in high school,
played in college, got injured.
I was a left-handed pitcher and needed-
But even before that, sorry to interrupt,
but like, let's take it back to your dad
because I feel like your dad,
your dad put some heat on you, right?
Like this guy was expecting, you know,
some exceptionalism out of you.
Yeah, you know, my dad was,
him and I were close and still are very, very close.
And, but he was a guy that took you by your word
if you said you wanted to do something.
If like, if you said you wanted to be
a professional baseball player, he's like, even if you said you wanted to do something. If like, if you said you wanted to be a professional baseball player, he's like,
even if you said it at seven years old,
he wasn't placating you.
He's like, okay, you said it now.
Now we're gonna see what you're really made of.
Thank goodness I didn't say I wanna be an astronaut
because I think he would have been putting me through it,
that kind of training.
But being a ball player himself growing up,
this was his wheelhouse.
And so it was, I felt as a child,
constantly proving that I was doing what was necessary to be the best.
And if I wasn't showing it on the ball field,
then I wasn't doing it off the field to make it happen.
There's no such thing as a bad game.
It was just ill-prepared.
And so, yeah, there was a lot of pressure.
And even going into college and playing,
there was an expectation there.
And I wasn't meeting those expectations.
And even the injury, to be fair, to be very honest,
and we're being honest here, is that it was probably,
there was a little relief you know there was a there was a relief when that injury happened and i could have gotten the surgery and believe me my dad wanted me to he says you get the surgery you
take a year off you rehab and then you go back in yeah you have the tommy john elbow thing right
just the torn tendon and it was like i remember him being so surprised when i said i need time
to think about
whether I'm gonna get this surgery. And, you know, cause we got the MRI results that day.
And he says, no, there's nothing to think about. You get it and you pursue your dreams at all costs.
And I, while I agree with that mentality, I just don't think I was in the right sport. I didn't
know it at the time. And I was told I loved baseball and I was passionate about the sport, but I realized now
that I liked baseball, but I, when I got into rowing, I realized what love was. So you needed
that, that backdoor exit. I did. And I took it, you know, and it, it, it, again, these are all
things that you, you process later in life, you know, because when I hurt myself in baseball,
I was in my mid twenties and I didn't know anything. But so how was dad when you said,
I'm not getting the surgery?
Yeah, he was not happy.
And you know, we didn't talk for a little while too.
Cause I remember specifically, you know,
it wasn't like a FU, FU and having a blowout.
And I slammed the door and go back to college
and never talked to him again.
But it was just like, all of a sudden, you know,
we just didn't pick up the phone to call each other.
It wasn't as dramatic.
It's just, because I remember,
because I got a younger brother
and his birthday's in September.
And I remember going home for that.
This is the first year back,
not playing baseball at Sonoma State.
And I'd gotten into rowing since then
because school started in August.
I got recruited by the rowing coach.
I'm loving it.
I'm finding I'm pretty good at it.
And I remember going to that family birthday
little pool party and telling my dad, like I got into rowing. And like, this is the first time I'm
telling him this. So I knew we hadn't talked for a while and it took him a long time to get on board.
But to his credit, he did. But I'll tell you what, he didn't know what was going on the first,
little side note. He didn't know what was going on the first, a little side note, he didn't know what was going on the first regatta
because first of all,
my mom is always championing me
because I'm her only kid
and she's annoyingly optimistic about everything.
First of all, she's always late to everything.
So she went from a sport that takes three hours to play
to a sport that takes six minutes to complete.
So she like missed my first three regattas,
showed up too late, missed them.
My dad, meanwhile, gets to a regatta
with my two little brothers.
First time, this is that year, the first year.
He's like, okay, Jason's in a new sport.
We're gonna support him.
This is his new thing.
I appreciate that.
And he gets there and he sees tents lining the river
and free food on all of them.
So he's just sending my brothers to the ring
or getting bagels.
And he doesn't realize it until like some nice parents,
like, oh, these are actually for all,
this is actually for Cal Berkeley. What school does your kid go to? So no one said, oh, these are actually for all, these are, this is actually for like, this is for Cal Berkeley.
What school does your kid go to?
Sonoma State, oh, it's that one that's leaning
against the rock over there.
Every tent's for a different.
Yeah, he's just like, oh, great, free food.
These are awesome.
So, you know, I'm bringing my family into a new world.
That's pretty funny, man.
I just watched, I was on an airplane the other day
and I watched Molly's game on the flight.
Have you seen that?
Oh yeah, it's a great one. So I'm seeing a lot of parallels here a little bit.
Yeah, yeah, of course.
As she jumps into a new arena.
Right, exactly.
It takes all that fire and just applies it elsewhere.
But you didn't, I mean,
this happens your senior year in college, right?
Yeah.
So you actually only row collegiately one year then.
Well, I did.
And then I got accepted to Vesper's summer program
right after my first year of rowing.
So how did that happen?
Because only one year in a boat?
Yeah, it was-
When you're going up against dudes
that have been doing this for-
Since I've been playing baseball
as long as I've been playing ball.
Yeah, so I mean, that's an interesting story
because I've got a collegiate coach
who's trying to build a program
at a no name rowing school, Sonoma State.
I mean, they hadn't even won a race when I come onto the team. This is hardly head of the Charles.
Yeah. This isn't Harvard versus Princeton. Sonoma State's a no-name rowing program,
club sports, so it doesn't get hardly any funding. But this coach understands how to build
teams. He's my first true mentor on how to build teams. And he went to every sport at Sonoma State and said,
give me a list of the guys you cut,
the guys that got injured,
and I'm gonna go off those lists, talk to me about them,
cause I'm looking for a specific thing.
My name was on the baseball list, someone who got injured.
And he was looking for people that no longer
were part of something greater than themselves,
so to speak, and he was gonna go and offer them.
He was saying, I'm not offering you.
But also the people who are looking
for what the next thing might be and had a bit of hunger.
Exactly, and I made that list
and he approached me in a weight room
and I was a little like concerned
by how much he knew about me.
But he convinced me to go to this, to rowing.
And shortly thereafter,
I started falling in love with the sport,
but that was, he knew that he he just needed to put a bunch of special people
together and let create an environment that they could win and all of a sudden guess what we started
winning we didn't just give sonoma state their first win we gave them their first six and we
have a little special team just enough to gain some interest from some um you know boathouses
back east vesper being one of the best
if not the best elite rowing team in the country they just gotten a new coach mikhail bartman
three-time olympic medal winner in three different olympics for the netherlands just retires at 40
after after winning his last medal in athens gets the job as the head coach moves from the
netherlands to philadelphia now he's responsible for putting you know the next great team together in Athens, gets the job as the head coach, moves from the Netherlands to Philadelphia.
Now he's responsible for putting the next great team together at Vesper. And they offer 12 to 16
spots max for that team. And my coach at Sonoma State, Mark, gotta give him credit. He's calling
every boathouse there. I mean, he's not even getting any calls back. I mean, Sonoma State's a no-name school.
He's telling me, I got this one guy.
You're gonna want him.
You're gonna want him, but no one's biting.
But McKeel calls back.
And McKeel's interested in my baseball history.
He thinks that, you know,
if a guy that can play at this level,
maybe I can turn him into a rower.
And what we didn't know, I found out later
because McKeel becomes another mentor of mine
and one of the greatest coaches I'll ever know, is he loves baseball.
In the Netherlands, one time when he was in high school, some ex-US pro came and took batting practice on his field and he just fell in love with the sport.
And so he said, let's give him a try.
So I show up to this boathouse knocking on the door.
First guy that answered the door, 6'7". I'm like, oh man, I am out of my league. And there was a moment I thought
about, maybe I should just duck and run. Like just not even go to this first practice. And
Mikhail says, basically don't get too comfortable. Like, well, let's see what you can do. Basically,
I spent that entire summer just getting my ass kicked up and down the Schuylkill river.
He enters me in the toughest races in the single. So I'm in a single, just getting my ass kicked up and down the Schuylkill River. He enters me in the toughest races in the single.
So I'm in a single, just getting my ass kicked,
but I got better real fast.
And so at the end of that summer,
McKill said, look, you're not good enough
to make the year round team here,
but let me go ahead and get you into Penn,
which was two doors down, the Ivy League school.
Let me just get you in there
and then you can row at Penn next year
and I can keep an eye on you.
And then, let's try to get next year. Cause I think there's something
here, but I told him like, if it's all the same to you, I'd like to go back to Sonoma and row with
my boys over there, which he thought was crazy, but he let me do it. And, uh, I went back to Sonoma
enrolled as a geology master's program. So just to let you know, rich, I've got one year under my
belt as a master's in geology, You know a little thing about rocks.
Yeah, little rocks for jocks, you know?
And so I was able to row another year of college there.
So you did a year there and then you went back?
Yeah, so I got a second year rowing at Sonoma,
just staying eligible there just because I knew I needed,
I needed to get more,
basically more strokes under my belt.
So then I went back to Vesper the next year
and made the year round team.
Yeah.
So what did you do during that year in Sonoma
that allowed you to make that leap?
Was it just more time in the boat
and experience and just the grind?
It was that, but I was also,
this is my journey into becoming a better leader.
That first year at Sonoma,
I had a chip on my shoulder.
I was too good for this sport,
kind of sometimes too good for these
guys. I played baseball and I was an elite athlete and I'm getting to this sport and this is a
ragtag team of hand-me-down equipment and all this kind of stuff. And I made good friends with a
couple of the guys, but for everybody else, it was just kind of like the mentality that my dad has
was like, prove to me that you're worthy of being
in this boat with me. When I get to Vesper for that one summer in between those two years at
Sonoma, I realized that that is not the type, the type of leaders on Vesper were different guys.
They were selfless guys. They weren't necessarily even the biggest and fastest guys that were well
respected on that team. They were just these guys that everyone can count on. No matter what happened, when they were in the boat,
the boat went faster.
It had nothing to do with how fast they could pull 2,000 meters
on the rowing machine or how much they could bench press
or leg press.
It was just when Jaime went in the boat, the boat was faster.
When you took him out of the boat, whoever you put in, it went slower.
And I started to realize that there was this sense
of when someone was in the boat that you respected,
you wanted to pull harder for them.
They didn't have to pull harder.
It's just the seven other guys in the boat that said,
hey, Jaime's in this boat, we love this guy,
and let's pull hard for him.
And everybody, and that's the force multiplier of rowing
is that you don't need to pull harder.
You just need to leverage the human emotion
of everyone else so that they pull harder.
But you also have to work like a single organism, right?
There's like this heavy symbiosis that has to occur.
So if somebody is way stronger than everyone else,
that's great, but if the energy's off
and you're not kind of congealed into this unit, it's not gonna work, right?
I mean, I say that as somebody who knows very little
about rowing, but it seems like that would be the case.
Yeah, I mean, complete interdependency
and swinging together and this idea that when the boat,
and that's what's great about rowing
and is when you are rowing well together,
the boat gets lighter, it gets easier.
You can actually feel like you could row that way forever.
And so that's what you're aiming for.
Every rower is trying to feel that swing, that flow,
that means that everybody is rowing together.
And so that was the second piece of it
is that great rowers could assimilate
to the rest of the team.
They didn't force people to row like them.
They gave up that individual ego for the collective ego
and they rode like everybody else.
Right.
And so you don't hear of these great individual champions.
I think it harms the sport in terms of like mainstream visibility
because we don't have big names that we can rally behind
because it's such a team thing.
But I think in the conversation around
like great endurance athletes,
like nobody's harder than rowers.
Like these guys, you know,
basically just destroy themselves.
Like you hear about cyclists and marathon runners, et cetera,
and all of that, but like rowers are like the anonymous heroes
in the endurance world who grind
like no other athletes I've ever met.
That's well said.
I've been a rowing a lot longer than you have.
And I haven't ever said it that well.
I just feel like they don't get enough deserved
kind of attention and accolades
for what goes into being great at that sport.
But I also, I agree.
And I also think that's what makes the sport so great.
And there's a certain allure to that.
And I think when you hear about great rowing teams,
that's exactly how they're called.
They're called the crew of 87 or, you know,
Vespers crew of 06 or whatever it is.
It's not LeBron and Michael Jordan.
Exactly, it's the crew.
And that's the word is the crew, that's the noun.
Rowing is the verb and crew is the noun.
But there is something,
if you can get over that individual kind of ego of it all,
which by the way is very difficult to do.
If you can.
Because you need ego, but it's the humility piece
that like is the distinguishing factor to make a champion crew.
And by the way, the people that will know who did it
is the rest of the team, you know,
because you're spending hours and hours
and you know, thousands of meters rowing together,
but you're also spending time on the docks, you know,
you're spending time together.
I mean, Vesper was a work hard, play hard place.
You know, we rode twice a day together.
We had two practices a day,
usually a weightlifting session in the middle.
And Saturday night, because there's no practice on Sunday,
that's the night you go out.
Yeah, sure.
So you're going out, you know, with 10 other guys
and you're taking care of each other.
Philly's not an easy place.
And when, you know, 12 big guys go into a bar
or something like that that trouble ensues
but it's it's the guys that take care of each other it's like a seal team six kind of vibe
right yeah except for we're not as tough as those guys um but it is it is definitely that way it's
this it's this idea you know there's this guy there's this guy at Vesper I know we're getting
a little on a little bit of a tangent but I think it's important there was this guy the first summer Vesper it's really what brought me to go to Sonoma
the second year Don Wiper never forget him went to Dartmouth you know I'm there I'm a wide-eyed
novice rower you know I'm pretty sure that these guys think why am I even on this team you know
I'm you know they're not being nice to me but they're not you know they're not including me
in a lot of stuff and I probably would have done same. But you weren't getting beat up by some wankle vi.
No, no.
In fact, I was usually the enforcer down the road.
I was the guy doing all the rough housing if we got into trouble out there, as I'm sure we can, those stories are for another time.
But, you know, this guy, Don, he was the stroke seat of the top boat at Vesper.
And he's not the biggest guy.
He doesn't have the fastest 2K and no one can beat him. No one can beat him out of that spot.
And the stroke seat, which is eight seat, that's like the quarterback of the team. That's the guy.
You're largely considered to be the best rower on the boat. He's not the biggest guy,
not the strongest guy. Doesn't come from the best school. Dartmouth's a good school,
but in the Ivies, they get beat up
by the Princeton, Harvard's and Yale's
and no one can beat them.
And one day I just asked him like, how do you do it?
I'm pretty certain this is my last summer,
first and last summer at Vesper.
Might as well get as much as I can out of this.
I asked him one day and the wait room was like,
how do you do it?
Like, what are you doing to keep you there?
Now, one of the things is to find out
who as an individual is faster in a rowing boat,
you row two boats for a length of time
called two minutes side by side.
You measure the distance that they got from each other.
You record that distance, the coaches will.
Then you take one person from each boat,
you swap them and you row them again the same distance.
And you see what the change was.
That's how you find out how the individual
is adding to the speed of the boat.
And Don, and that's called seat racing.
And Don would never lose a seat race, never.
This guy, no matter who he was going against,
he would always beat them.
And I said like, how do you always win the seat races?
He says, oh, I just set the boat up.
I barely row, let everyone else win for me.
And that was when I started to understand this idea
that if everybody that you're,
of the boat you're going into loves, respects you,
feels they owe you something,
they will win the race for you.
And that's what he was doing.
He was the guy that would row extra mileage
at the end of practice
because someone needed some extra work.
Always be the guy spotting you at the gym,
picking you up from the bars.
If you were, you know, you're out a little late,
not letting the coach know, all these kinds of stuff.
He was a player's player, you know.
He earned that trust and that loyalty over time.
And it was amazing.
And that was measurable out on the water.
That's an interesting thing.
You can measure his loyalty by the distance he would put between his boat
and the boat that was behind him that he just got out of.
And that was my first little like insight
into what it meant to be a real leader.
Yeah.
So you're getting this master's in geology,
but really what you're doing is you're getting this master's in geology, but really what you're doing is you're getting,
it's sort of like I got a master's degree
and everything I needed to know about team building
and leadership while sitting on a rowboat.
Exactly.
That's exactly what I'm getting.
That's the title of your next book.
Yeah.
Right?
So you go back to Vesper and what's the goal?
Like the Olympics?
Like what's the, you know?
Yeah, I think everyone's goal
going to a place like Vesper as an elite
is to make the national team or the Olympics or both.
And so that's why you're there.
I mean, if you're not there for that reason,
you probably not gonna last very long.
But you know, again, my second-
Other than that, what is there?
Because it's not like you're making any money doing this.
You're out of college and this is your life.
Yeah, I mean, that is what it is.
I think there's sometimes you'll see a guy
who come from a pretty prestigious school
and you'll think, well, this guy's serious.
He's gonna be a force.
And then he's just not that good.
And you can realize that his heart's not in it.
Maybe he just wants to continue to live in out the glory days of his collegiate rowing. And he he's just not that good. And you can realize that his heart's not in it. You know, maybe he's just wants to continue to live
in out the glory days of his collegiate rowing.
And he doesn't make it that long.
Coach will cut him fast because he just,
it's the demand on your time and on your body
is just too much to not have something like the Olympics
or the national team in your sights.
So yeah, we're all there.
The guys that are on the year round team
are there for that reason.
And it's a brotherhood. It's a fraternity at that point.
And we're living in these,
this old historic boathouse anyway,
and that's where we're practicing every day.
And so it's a fraternity.
And so what the end game is,
is that some of us will make it and some of us will not.
That's what's kind of interesting.
So how does this play out for you?
Well, I spent about three years there,
you know, go from this obscure baseball player slash rower
who probably shouldn't even be there,
move my way up into the second boat
and finally make my way into the first boat.
And for me to do that.
I mean, that's some pretty incredible progression
for somebody who's still pretty new to the sport.
Yeah, thank you.
A couple of years to go, you know, from a guy who,
it's almost like they were doing a favor
to let you kind of tag along
to being in the number one boat.
Yeah, no, that's, you know,
one of my prouder moments is making that team.
And, you know, I worked hard to get there.
And I think, you know, McKeel took a chance on me because by accepting me on that team and I worked hard to get there. And I think, Mikheil took a chance on me
because by accepting me on that team,
somebody else didn't get accepted.
And that person had probably been rowing a lot longer
than me, it's probably a lot faster than me on the water,
but Mikheil saw something.
And I mean, I'm not gonna argue with that
because I felt that first summer,
I did not feel I deserved to be there,
but the second summer I did, because I learned so much. And so I worked my way up over the next two and a half
years to getting in that top boat. And I remember the frustration of my last summer there trying to
get into that first boat. And McKeel was the coach of the women's team there too. And that year they
had a women's lightweight double
that was going to world championships.
So he was focusing on them a lot.
And so he had another one of the coaches,
collegiate coach running our day-to-day practices.
He'd pop in a few times a week and run the practices.
But for the most part, we had to answer to this guy.
And I would be seat raced.
I'd be switched.
I'd win every one of my seat races.
And I'd still, when the lineups came up the next morning, I would not be in that top boat. And I was just getting pissed. And now I'm friends with these guys. I'm close with everybody.
And at this particular summer, that's when they infuse it with the summer kids. These are kids
that are still at universities, Princeton's, Harvard jails. And I'm beating this Princeton guy
every time for this
seat. And every time when the lineup comes in the next day, I'm not in the boat and he is.
And I'd gotten close to McHugh over the last couple of years, but I was afraid to ask him,
but I called on a favor. I went into his office. I said, I'm frustrated. I deserve to be in that
top boat. I'm faster. The team knows I'm faster. The yearround guys all think you know they say you should be in that boat Jay and but I'm not in it I'm winning and I said I just like to see if I'm not asking for you to
put me in I'm asking for you to watch a seat race and I remember and saying he says I'm busy we'll
see and it wasn't wasn't really the response I was looking for so I was like okay that made me and I
then I felt bad but the next morning he's there
and he comes to the morning workout.
He says, all right, I'm gonna be running seat racing.
And he says, so let's get out the boats.
Here's the lineups we're going.
So he's in the launch with the coach
that was coaching us that summer.
And we go out there and you never know
who's gonna get picked, but my name gets called.
We row, we get switched.
I win and he just pulls his little bull horn out
and says, from now on, Jason's in the top boat, he won it.
And I was probably one of the best days of my rowing career.
And I went back to him and I just said, I appreciate that,
that you took the time.
He said, I knew I was gonna do it, but I couldn't tell you
cause I didn't wanna give you an advantage over your teammate
to when you knew you were going to seat race that day.
And he said, you deserved it.
And I was able to make it there.
But that was largely because the team that I'd spent the last two years with day in and day out
had, I'd grown to love, they'd grown to love me.
And there was a palpable feeling
when I got moved into the boat
and those guys would look behind me at,
let's go Jay right now.
So then how far do you end up taking this? I take it, you know, when, when a
couple of gold medals and nationals, a silver and a bronze, these kinds of things doing well, but
didn't qualify for Beijing Olympic trials for 2008. I mean, some guys did on our team and I just
wasn't one of those guys. How does the, how does the selection process work for the Olympics and
rowing? There's two ways to get selected in rowing.
One is to make the national team.
There's certain boats in the Olympics
where the national team coach simply selects
the crew that's gonna be in that boat.
So it's called the selection boat.
So you have to be on the national team.
And like the men's eight, for instance,
is a selection boat.
At least it was when I was there.
I still think it is. In which case the national team coach will say, all instance, is a selection boat. At least it was when I was there. I still think it is.
In which case the national team coach will say,
all right, these are the eight guys that are going to the Olympics.
Yeah, that's gotta be controversial
because that's highly subjective, right?
I think a lot of people wish that it was all the other way,
which is what's called the trials boat.
So the rest of the other boats
that aren't selection boats are trials.
It's like the US Open, anybody can enter.
You go to the open trials and you race.
And if your team wins, your crew wins, you go.
And at that point I was in,
my best chance was in a men's double.
So I had myself and my teammate, Mike Ross,
and we rode pretty much all summer together
to try to be able to qualify, but we didn't qualify.
We were, you know,
it was gonna be a long shot at best anyway for us.
Mike's a very good rower,
came from Marietta, very good rowing school,
incredibly gifted rower.
But, and we were so hot and cold all the time.
Sometimes we'd win a race, you know, by a landslide.
And other times we wouldn't even get out of the heat.
So, you know, we just weren't able to qualify.
And it's still like, to this day, I just,
I think I just didn't have enough time.
I'm still, you know, this is,
this is my third year of rowing at this point.
You know, I mean, some people, I had the last Olympics.
I wasn't, didn't even know what rowing was
when people were in the last Olympics.
So, right.
So you get that far, but are you thinking,
all right, I'm in it for the next four years for 2012 or are you gonna stick it out for that
or how does that play out?
Yeah, that was the crossroads
and I'm trying to make that decision
and I put so much into it and not that I expected to go, I didn't.
I was a long shot the entire time.
Like it just, you know, I was small,
I was inexperienced compared to these guys,
but the thought of being another four years,
you know, training in Philly, putting off my career,
you know, it was just, it seemed too much.
And so I'm not sure if like 100%, I made the right decision,
but my decision was to be done. So I retired. Right. So with that, it kind of goes back to
how I opened this, which is you're this guy who has a lot of athletic talent. You've got a lot
of drive. You've demonstrated, you know, extreme potential. You've had some success, but there's
this sense of unfinished business, right?
Like, so you can go become a civilian,
but you're walking around sort of like a ticking time bomb
because there's this thing inside of you
that is yearning to come out.
Yeah, and it's just, you know, I moved back to California,
you know, and that's what it is,
is the restlessness begins to kind of set in
and this permanent restlessness is just a hard thing
to cope with.
And I remember I'm not home for more than, I don't know,
four or five months, then I decided to go travel.
So I leave, I'm pretty much traveling off and on
for another year, going to Europe and all these other places
and, you know, I just, I'm trying to find that thing.
And in the end, I was trying to just settle down permanently,
but I think it was just an intermission.
Was there an awareness, like what is the relationship
between like the hardcore national team,
Olympic caliber rowers and this whole other culture
of ocean rowing?
Cause those, yes, one's gonna feed the other,
but they don't really intersect.
I mean, they're very different disciplines, right?
So is it looked down upon?
Is it revered?
Like, how does that interplay
between those two cultures work?
I think they're actually just now starting
to blend in more with open ocean rowing
coming into the Olympics
and becoming more of an international sport.
So before-
Is open ocean rowing in the Olympics?
It's going to become an Olympic sport.
Not trans ocean rowing, but open ocean rowing
where you're going distances in open ocean.
And that's exciting for the sport.
And that is now starting, you're starting to see a blend.
So now you're starting to see flat water rowers
or sprint rowers, collegiate and elite level rowers
start to think about transitioning in to open ocean.
When I started open ocean rowing,
there was really no, we were the overlap.
But that was the big idea, right?
Like here, I'm gonna take everything I know
about athleticism and apply it to this world
that needs an upgrade.
Like we're gonna approach this
from an elite athlete perspective
versus like a salty seaworthy,
rogue kind of veteran ocean row guy perspective.
Exactly.
And so I would say at the time
that I was starting to do ocean rowing
and doing exactly what you said,
I would say that each of the different practices
look down on the other one. So I think flat water rowers, the world that I was coming from said, I would say that each of the different practices look down on the other one.
So I think flat water rowers,
the world that I was coming from said,
no, that's where you go when you don't make it.
Or like, you're not, you're just gonna use the one skill
that you have, which is endurance to try to win,
but you're not gonna be able to put the skill into it.
Well, the open ocean rower said the opposite.
They said, where did rowing come from?
Well, it came from open ocean.
I mean, the first rowers were the Vikings.
Everyone thinks of traditional rowing
as flat water rowing that we see in the Olympics.
That's not what it was.
What it was was big boats,
rowing just great distances in the ocean.
And then it was people faring.
It's Viking ship.
Yeah, exactly.
So the open ocean.
And that's cute that you go to the Henley
and like row on that flat water for like a couple minutes.
Yeah, exactly.
But when you really wanna understand what rowing is,
like come on over here.
That's exactly what it was.
And we'll see what you really are made of.
So I'm all of a sudden, I've got my foot in both camps
and I'm not being.
But you had to sort of learn the hard way.
Yeah, I mean.
The ultimate truth where these salty dogs
were coming from.
Exactly, and so where they were spending
a majority of their time saying,
look, these salty sailors, they knew how to read the ocean
and weather patterns and they understood tides and they understood weather.
They understood that world.
They spent those two years of training,
teaching themselves to be better rowers.
Whereas this first row for us,
we were these kind of elite level rowers
that had to teach themselves
what it was like to be on an open ocean.
How do you navigate?
How do you do that in the middle of the night?
Exactly, so you're dealing with-
And under appreciating how crucial that was to the middle of the night? Exactly, so you're dealing with. And under appreciating how crucial that was
to the success of the entire affair.
Exactly, so when you've never done open ocean
before you're thinking, okay, I row for two hours,
which I can do that.
I've done that on the rowing machine plenty of times.
And then I rest for two hours and that's nice.
I remember, I'll tell you how naive I was.
I'm a pretty avid reader.
And I brought like seven books with me.
I thought I was gonna be able to read on my off time.
I was like, this will be great.
I'll row hard and then I'll just be in the cabin reading.
Well, I didn't get one sentence in
because first of all, the first week,
you can't look at a book.
You're so seasick, you're gonna throw up.
I was like, this is the last thing you have time for
is to read.
This is how naive I was.
And I still have those books on my shelf
and I love looking at them.
They make me laugh
because you got these nice books
with these great bindings. And then you can see these ones that
have just been introduced. Yeah, exactly. So they're all wrinkled up and stuff like that.
But I didn't read them there. I read them when I got home. That's hilarious, man.
Yeah. And also on top of that, on top of the navigation, it's like picking your route. Like
what's your line? Yeah. You're not going to go straight line, first of all. So there's two things
with routing that you're going to have to deal with. One is the overall route,
the 3000 mile crossing
that you're gonna have to deal with.
You can't go by way of the crow flies
because you're gonna have to follow,
you wanna follow the currents and the tides
and when you get out and then the wind,
the prevailing winds.
So that doesn't often mean straight line.
It usually means some kind of a J shape.
And then the other thing is when you're out there, you're constantly making changes to your route because you're avoiding storms.
You have to go through storms.
You have to go north of them, south of them.
And you're not a sailboat or a motorboat that's going 15, 20 knots.
If you're lucky, you're going three to four knots.
So you're not going to be able to avoid storms.
You're just going to try to get yourself in a position and not be in them for very long.
you're not gonna be able to avoid storms. You're just gonna try to get yourself in a position
and not be in them for very long.
So you're having to make all these routing decisions
and they don't have, we took classes on routing,
basic routing, like how to read your GPS
and how to like use the tools and instruments on your boat
to your advantage.
But the only real way to learn
is to be out there doing it.
Yeah, there's no substitute for experience with that, right?
Like being in the ocean
and just having that tactile feel
for like what's the right thing to do.
Exactly.
And that's kind of like where,
I feel like Angus is like the dude when it comes to this.
Yeah.
I mean, to this day, I would say,
some people get mad at me this,
I say he is the greatest ocean rower out there today
in the world.
I mean, he's proven it.
Right, so in your first Atlantic crossing,
you saw what he was capable of
and you're like, I need that guy on my team now.
Well, his team, his boat, British boat wins that year, right?
Do they set the record?
No, they win the year, They won the race that year.
So this is 2015-16,
the same time Tom and I are out there.
They win the race.
They set the course record
but fall short of the world record
by a day or something like that.
How is there a difference
between the course record
and the world record?
Because you don't have to enter this particular...
Atlantic Campaigns is the race
and it's a fantastic race,
well-organized.
They do a fantastic job,
but there's a lot of teams that don't wanna do the race.
They don't wanna pay the entry fee.
They push off.
In fact, before Atlantic campaigns
became the organized event that it is today,
that's how people were doing it.
They were just going on their own.
How long has that event been around?
It's been around for a while.
It's been around for a while.
I think it was taken over by its current ownership.
I wanna say like 10 years ago,
my gentleman named Carsten, great guy did such a fantastic,
he's done so much for the sport and organizing at this.
But I think this race has been going on since like 96.
So, you know, you've got the course record,
but then you've got the world record
and the world record was at that point set by a team
that went independent.
Cause what they're doing is they're gonna wait
for that perfect set to come in.
Right.
And then they're gonna push off.
They're not, they're not.
They go when the weather is right,
not when the gun goes off and race.
Exactly.
And the race for safety sake requires certain things,
which adds weight to the boat, you know,
a life raft,
which is essentially the weight of another human being.
60 days worth of food for five people.
That's a lot of food.
If you're not expecting to be,
if you wanna try to break the world record,
you don't think you're gonna be out there for 60 days.
So, but you have to carry that weight.
You wanna be out there for half that.
Exactly.
You're carrying double the food
that you're probably gonna need.
Yeah, or even more because that's representing
5,000 calories per person per day.
And for the first week, you're not consuming that much
cause you're seasick.
You're sick.
And no matter what you're getting seasick,
everyone's getting seasick.
Is there something that comes with experience
where you get less seasick or you're able to dodge that?
I think, yeah, I think with experience,
you'll know how to handle it better and you'll know what your body needs to do to kind of, to kind of eliminate some of the
symptoms. The worst is going to be the first time you do it and you're just going to get,
you're going to take it on the chin. You know, for me, I fortunately for me, I don't, I don't
actually physically get ill. I'm very lucky, but I mean, the first five days I'm disoriented,
I'm dizzy and I have no appetite. But one of the the first five days I'm disoriented, I'm dizzy,
and I have no appetite.
But one of the things I do is I like to starve it out.
So it sounds weird, but like,
I will try to eat as little as possible.
I'll have a lot of calories going into the thing,
but like then I'll just eating dry food,
a lot of dry stuff that just to keep the stomach
feeling all right until it just clears
and then I'll be starving.
That seems dangerous though.
You could get yourself into a crazy deficit.
And my teammates have talked to me about that
and that's why I lose so much more weight than most of them.
But I can play in that space pretty well.
I know myself and I know I'm still,
my energy levels there and I can,
I've trained my body to burn that kind of slow burning,
lean muscle mass for a long time instead of just that.
So that fat goes quick, but then it's the lean muscle mass.
So you go back to this race
and you put together a whole different team.
We talked about Angus, but learning what you learned
from the experience the year prior,
walk me through kind of the process
of wrapping your head around who are gonna be
not necessarily the best people, but the right people.
So you have that perfect recipe of experience
and athleticism, but also this, you know,
kind of unified organism that we were talking about.
Yeah, so, you know, I know I'm doing it again.
Talk to my sponsors, they're in, they're excited.
But I'm kind of left with like this blank canvas.
I'm like sitting at my desk literally one day
just being like, okay, where do I start?
I want people like Tom.
Tom's not in.
He's gonna be the land manager for it,
but he'd done everything he needed to do.
So, I want the people like Tom,
but where am I gonna get those guys?
And how am I gonna know? Because I thought I had more people like Tom, but where am I gonna get those guys? And how am I gonna know?
Because I thought I had more people like that
on the first boat.
And to bring Angus up again,
Angus and I had become relatively close
over the course of the last year
because although we were competitors,
he worked for the boat manufacturer
that we bought our boat from.
And just as two captains of two teams,
we talked and got to know each other at the start line because you're there for two weeks. And just as two captains of two teams, we talked and
got to know each other at the start line because you're there for two weeks. And
he calls me one day, you know, this is kind of as I'm kind of just sitting at my desk, you know,
and he calls me one day and says, I hear you're putting together a new team. I said, yeah,
I am. I'm going to do it again. And I had heard that he was going to do it. And he said, yeah,
because some team was going to pay him like 30,000 pounds
to like just literally skipper them across,
just have that experience so they didn't have to learn it.
I said, congrats.
I told him, I said, congrats because you know,
that's, you don't make money in ocean rowing.
So for you to be able to make that is like fantastic.
And he says, well, if you haven't built your team,
I'd be interested in rowing with you, which shocked me.
I mean, I would love to have him on the team for all the reasons we've already talked about,
but I don't have that kind of cash.
I don't have that money to pay him.
So I said, I don't have any money to pay you.
And he said, well, I'd be interested
in just doing it for nothing.
And I'm kind of balking ass as well.
She is, if you've got somebody willing to do 30,000,
like maybe you should take that.
And he says this, he's lying.
I'll never forget.
He says, I'm more interested in making history
than I am in making money.
To which I even say to this day, I said,
and you must add that on a post-it note
on your computer somewhere.
So I'm like that, people don't come up with cool lines
like that on the phone.
Like this is like, but I knew at that moment, I think when he said that line, that this was
the start of another Tom, a right guy. It was a bonus that he had the experience and that he
was the athlete that he was. But here we're talking about, we're at 50% of the right team right now.
So we committed and started building from there.
From there, he said,
if I was putting this team together,
I'd call a guy named Alex Simpson.
And I kind of heard that name before.
And he said, yeah, we rode together in the Indian Ocean
because they had done the Indian Ocean before the Atlantic.
I said, why is he so special? I said, he's like, oh, he just shuts up in rows. I think I said,
well, you might want to give a little more credit than that if you want to be on this team. But
what he basically is saying is like, this is a guy that you've got a lot of type A personalities.
You and I are going to be splitting this kind of skipper burden, so to speak, you know, this leadership burden. This is a guy who really is process oriented. He takes the strategy, the idea, the leadership that is not his own,
but it kind of absorbs it as if it was and passes it down to the rest of the team.
So I gave him a call. This guy's 10 years younger than me. And so I'm a little worried about his,
you know, his young maturity kind of thing. But from that first phone call just wants to know,
how are we gonna do in eight months
that the rest of the teams that we're going against
are taking two years to prepare for?
It was just process, process, process.
And I understood what Angus was saying at that moment.
Meanwhile, you're in California
and they're both in Great Britain.
This is something that we're having to discuss.
How much time are we really gonna to be able to spend together?
Yeah.
So I'm wanting to get another American.
If we've got three guys here now,
we've got two of them are in the UK and then I've got myself here in the US.
And so I'm really trying to,
having the same problems as the year before
and trying to round out this team
and being very, very careful.
And guy I wrote a Vesper with, Matt Brown,
very intelligent guy on top of being a great row,
rode at Yale, then rode at Oxford.
So an intelligent guy.
And by the way-
But also like a beast.
Yeah, also, yeah.
Forgot to mention also like a ginormous human being
who can like bend an oar when he's putting it in the water.
But I think the thing that really attracted me to him was
that, and it sounds weird, he just lost at Olympic trials.
So here we are, in the summer he didn't qualify,
he went for the men's single.
That's the toughest one, you're by yourself.
And that's by the way, that's a trials boat.
Anyone can enter that.
Rich, you could enter it next year
and go and try to do the open mic
and you'll have to get out of the heats.
But he got all the way to finals, but didn't qualify.
And I'm thinking to myself, this is it.
He's lost right now.
He's rudderless, no pun intended.
He's trying to figure out like, what am I gonna do?
This has been my dream and now it's over.
And he's probably at the same crossroads.
Do I go another four years?
But he's got a two-year-old at home.
He's married with a two-year-old.
I mean, so I was like, this is what I'm gonna do. I'm gonna offer him this something else and that's what i did i called him and as he said to me he's like yeah you didn't have to finish the sentence i'm in
and it wasn't that i'm in because i'm naive and i don't understand this stuff he had been following
me and my race the year before and this guy was no stranger to hard work and no stranger to being
an underdog i mean mean, he came from nothing
and built himself up to having a first rate education
through working hard.
So that was our team.
And all of a sudden now we've got a team.
Yeah, and taking everything
that you had learned the year prior
and these kind of lessons about teamwork and leadership
and what went wrong before and how to course correct that.
Like how do you then approach this group of guys
as a leader to get their heads around
what you guys are gonna try to tackle
also while you're all dispersed all over the place?
Yeah, that was the big problem to solve for.
And we've got very little time.
And I just, I'm always harking back to this idea that Tom and I had.
I'm like, how do I recreate that like feeling
that we had during those moments of breakfast
without actually saying, okay, guys,
we're gonna do this breakfast thing.
Cause you can't, you can't, it has to be organic.
And I'm just realizing that, you know,
as nice as it was to have one other guy
that you were kind of leveraging his human emotion, he in turn was doing that to you.
Wouldn't it be nice if it was for the whole boat?
And then I really didn't stop there.
I was thinking like, well, we should include our family members, like our wives and girlfriends and our extended family and our friends and our neighbors. I was like, if we created a community of people that once we got to the boat and we started rowing,
we felt were relying on us,
then that would be a strong motivator in there.
And so that's what I did.
I just basically started to create a community.
So we rowed and we got bigger and stronger
and we rowed together, but we went out there,
they came out our way
and we just spent a lot of time together as a team. And it was rowing, but I, we went out there, they came out our way and we just spent a
lot of time together as a team. And it was, it was rowing, but it was also dinners. It was drinks.
It was meeting each other's wives and girlfriends and spending time with them. Um, you know, it was,
it was brotherhood. It was fraternity at that point, building this community, this sense of
community. And then it was, if anybody in our family group, our friend group, our neighbors
wanted a job on this team, they wanted to be part of this team, we'd find something for them to do,
something that we needed done so that when they did it, they felt they were part of the narrative.
So you go fast forward to, we're at the start line with, we're back at La Gomera,
the start line a year later, and it feels different. It feels like there is a lot more riding on this.
And I go back to that thing where glory gets you to the start line, but shame gets you through the
finish. There was this idea of feeling that we had a lot of people that were looking up to us
to do this, to finish the narrative that they were a part of. And that was a strong motivator
and something again, that I was kind of learning
in its entirety for the first time
that you've got people that are not saying,
do this or else, but are saying that I'm part of this story.
I'm passing the baton to you now, now it's up to you guys,
finish this story, finish the unfinished business.
The stakes were a lot higher.
Yeah, yeah.
It's not just about you and some kind of vainglorious thing.
You've got a lot of people invested in this,
but for the right reasons.
I'm sure everybody has their distinct respective why
your job as a leader is to figure out
how to take all of those whys
and have them cohere to one kind of singular why that will unite yourself as a leader is to figure out how to take all of those whys and have them cohere to one kind of
singular why that will unite yourself as a team so that when you meet those obstacles, which are
a certainty and are going to come in many unpredictable ways, that you'll be able to
tap into a different gear to support each other through it. Yeah, I think that one of the many leadership burdens
that you have as a captain is that you need to take
everyone's individual wise and somehow convince them
that by going through with the team,
why that they will still be able to achieve
their individual wise.
And that's a tough thing to do.
Look, Matt was doing it for a certain reason.
Alex was doing it for another reason, Angus and myself, we all had different reasons
why we were there.
But what I try to convince them all is that
to go as fast as we can, for as long as we can,
to go as hard, to give everything that we have
out on that water, we'll simultaneously take care
of all of our other singular objectives.
And I think that's where that trust piece comes in
as a leader is that people have to trust
that their individual objectives are gonna be taken care of
if they buy into the team objective.
That is a difficult thing to convince people of.
Yeah, I would think so.
And even probably more difficult in a corporate context.
I mean, the principles are the same, right?
Whether you're rowing a boat
or you're leading a team at some corporation,
as the leader, you have to get everybody
to buy into some kind of singular vision.
And you're asking these people to give of themselves.
So what is their why for doing that?
And why should they trust you?
And when things get difficult,
how are they gonna kind of stick with you
and not just bail and go get a job somewhere else?
Yeah, absolutely.
And I think a lot of times,
and as part of my job,
I work with these corporations and teach this leadership.
And one of the things that they say
is that your stories are great
and your examples are great,
but I'm not rowing across an ocean.
I'm just doing this one single thing.
I think when you're in a corporation, these corporate leaders, their burden is to make noble the effort that they are putting forth.
And when you're asking, and this is something that I'm quite passionate about
is that if you're asking someone
to give all of themselves to something,
then you are also asking them to be changed
by that something.
I mean, that's what happens.
That's what happened with Tom and I.
And this is what I'm understanding
is we're in that second row is,
Tom and I are different people.
We're not the same people that left the shores of La Gomera
at the start line.
We're just different because we gave all of ourselves
to this endeavor and to each other.
We're just different and we talk about it all the time.
And I'm also different than I was before I left
for that second row because I gave all myself
and so did the team.
We're all just different people now,
but that's not a casual thing to be asking someone to do
because there's a lot of people out there that say,
look, I just wanna come into work every day
and do a really good job and then leave
and then forget about it
and then come back and do the same thing the next day.
And that's fine, by the way, like that's absolutely fine.
Like if you're a part of,
if you're trying to like create, like you said,
like this idea of high performance
and yeah, there's a lot of parallels between it.
Then that's what you're asking people to do.
You're asking people to actually be changed by me.
That's why love changes us, right?
We give ourselves, all of ourselves to somebody
and now we're different people because of it.
We're in love.
And you must first be able to answer that for yourself,
you know, and be okay with that with yourself.
Am I okay with being changed
by the thing we're about to do?
Am I okay with being a different person when I come home?
And then once you've done that, you need to be able to do that with yourself. Am I okay with being changed by the thing we're about to do? Am I okay with being a different person when I come home? And then once you've done that, you need to be able to do that with everybody else. People are going to resist that. Yeah.
People are messy. People are messy. And that differentiator between just showing up
and going through a certain routine
versus the high performance version of that
really boils down to that emotional piece,
understanding what motivates people, how they tick,
finding a way to tap into that
and engender that level of trust.
And then doing the kind of unromantic community building, right?
Like that's, and that's what you did that second time
building that team.
Like, how do we, you know, how do we create a community
that is gonna be self-supporting in all the best ways?
Well, you have to put in the time,
you have to invest the energy into doing that.
Yeah, and that's the, like you said,
that's the non-sexy stuff that the day to day, you know,
99% of all this stuff is not great.
I mean, think about the row.
Like the start is great
because everyone's taking pictures
and pushing off.
Why can't everyone just be wherever they live,
train really hard, show up
and we'll just crush this.
Yeah, exactly.
That would make my life a lot easier.
Yeah, right.
Still trying to figure out what that is,
but that's what you've got.
I mean, you know, the start is great
and the finish is great.
And the middle is brutal and ruthless and uncomfortable
and you wanna quit
and you're getting into arguments with your teammates
and stress levels high and the danger is high.
But you're rowing a million and a half strokes, give or take.
I mean, there's a lot of mundaneness in that.
Not unlike the corporate world where you're saying,
oh, this is all great, but every day I just do this stuff.
Like, you know, like what if I'm in procurement?
Why does my job matter to the larger organization,
the larger picture?
The leader needs to prove that it does.
That consistency piece.
My favorite part of the documentary
is when you guys are pushing off
for this second Atlantic row and it's Matt, right?
He just, he just hits it hard.
Like he's just going for it.
Like in the first couple hours, you're like, bro,
we're gonna be out here for like, you know, a month.
Oh man.
Chill out, but it's that competitive.
Like that's what he knows.
He's yeah.
And he was the guy who didn't have the ocean experience
to realize like, hey man, you gotta like take it breezy.
Yeah, he was taking it like a 2000 meter.
And then he just face planted for like a week, right?
And I'm having deja vu with Nick the year before.
I mean, he goes in so hard.
And as he says, I was highly motivated.
I'm like, I know you were, yeah,
but you can't sustain that.
In the most unsustainable way.
Yeah, exactly.
I mean, we're out here for over a month
and he's going out.
I mean, he's drenched in sweat in the first three hours.
I mean, he's eating this like pasta dish
that just, I'm sitting here going,
I'm eating a dry granola bar.
I'm just, I'm waiting for it to hit me
because the seasickness is gonna hit
and it hits him and man, it knocks him flat on the ground
and he is out five or six days and i'm i'm in i'm having deja vu from nick because he's doing the
exact same thing he's in the cabin yeah and i'll never forget you know we're taking shifts off of
them and this is where you know i've got a chance to change the narrative here and i just i just
remember we took shifts from him and uh you know we kept going in there and you know he
was just lying face down and and I remember we had taken shifts I was like I gotta at least see
if you can row and I'll just never forget he just looks up and I said can you do it and he just
looks up and says we'll see and it was just like I mean this is this is a guy who gets into UCLA
on academic merit finds out he can row,
gets recruited by Yale after his first year,
then goes to Oxford as if it's not good enough for him.
I mean, this guy just is a winner.
And it sounds like he came from
kind of a messed up childhood, right?
Like it was a pretty rough situation.
He had a rough situation.
That's his story, not mine, but he had a bad.
And he is, as he says,
I looked at teammates as obstacles that I had to crush.
And I always just thought
that was such an interesting way of looking at.
That's his whole life was that the people that I was with
were really just in my way
and even teammates were obstacles.
So no wonder he ends up as a single skull rower, right?
But that doesn't work when you got four guys
who have to live with each other
for a month plus in the open sea.
But I think, to this day, I think maybe him getting sick
was the best thing that could have happened for him
and the team because he saw-
He got humbled.
Yep, exactly.
And he saw what the team did.
We picked them up seamlessly.
Myself, Angus, Alex.
It wasn't a, just so you know,
we're rolling your hours right now.
None of that.
I mean, he felt he was delirious.
I mean, he woke up and he didn't realize
how long he'd been out.
We got it.
And by the way, stay in there.
We got you still.
And I think this was a game changer for him.
I mean, when he got better and he did
and he got stronger, but it took him a week plus.
He felt he had to live up to a makeup for it.
And he didn't, of course,
because that's not what teams are about,
but he was so humbled and so appreciative
that he became an animal out there.
I mean, it was insane.
And when we were chasing the world record
and it was coming down to the hour,
he was that differentiator.
I mean, he was rowing four, six hours straight
without stopping.
It was insane.
Yeah, so you guys didn't have the most auspicious start,
but you kind of find your groove, you get some good weather,
you're throwing it down pretty hard, you got some storm.
I mean, there's all kinds of shit that happened.
Day 50, there's some crazy storm or a day,
what day was that?
Day 30.
It was right around day 30, yeah.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
But then you just throw the hammer down in these final days
and you're just busting out like 80, 90 mile days
to come in and eclipse the world record
by a pretty good margin.
Yeah, I mean, without giving too much away
with the dock and stuff,
but I think the pinnacle of my athletic career
came at that moment on day 30.
We get knocked by this storm that shouldn't be there,
pushes us backwards.
We have to anchor for just a few hours.
But when you're talking about, you know,
barely being ahead of the world record, this matters.
And finally, the storm's kind of starting to pass.
We're able to pull up the pair anchor, start rowing again. know at one point we were going 0.8 knots 0.8 knots that is you can
crawl on your hands and knees at about that how many days did that go on for it was only ended up
dropping anchor yeah it basically it started the day before on uh january 12th and it slowed us down, slowed us down until finally January 13th,
which was Friday the 13th. I'm not superstitious until now. Now I am, but it hit us hard and that's
when it just slows down. We couldn't make any forward progress. So we had to drop the anchor.
So we went and get pushed back. We're only an anchor for a handful of hours, but it's enough
because not only are we not going anywhere, but like we've been not going anywhere for about a day and a half now. So we start rowing,
I'm in the cabin and I'm having to do the math. You know, what has this storm, like what are the
repercussions of this storm? What's it done to us? It ends up being really, really simple math.
You know, I'm checking it over and over because I got, you get this kind of mental fog when you're
out there because you just have such little stimulation, plus you're sleep deprived and malnourished and dehydrated.
But it's really simple math.
We've got basically almost exactly to the mile,
400 miles left to go
and almost exactly to the hour, five days to do it.
So it becomes 80 mile days.
We have to basically achieve 80 miles a day
for the next five days.
And then like, it'll be close if we do that.
And just to put in perspective, 70 mile days is world record pace at that point.
Like that was what would have done it.
So like I'm in the cabin, I'm just, I'm upset.
I'm starting to cry a little bit.
You know, I'm just, this isn't fair.
We've worked too hard.
These guys have worked too hard.
And, you know, I kind of composed myself a little bit because I know they're waiting
for me to come out there with the number. And I come out and, you know, I've got composed myself a little bit because I know they're waiting for me to come out there with the number.
And I come out and, you know,
I've got these three expectant faces looking at me
and, you know, I tell them what I tell them.
And the responses were just so interesting.
I'll never forget them.
First of all, Matt, who, you know, seasick
and kind of comes back roaring back.
So to speak, he goes, oh my God, thank God.
I thought you were gonna say a hundred.
Like this guy was genuinely relieved
that we only had to do 80 miles a day,
which is 10 miles above world record pace.
Like he believed so much that this team was capable of it,
that he was relieved that it was only 80.
And then Alex, the young kid process oriented guy,
he was just like, I'll do whatever it takes, skip.
He called me skip all the time and said,
I'll row every
hour of the night if I have to meaning those were his worst nights he'd literally pass out in the
middle of his rowing shift because you'd be so tired just like black out sometimes and all of a
sudden I'd feel heavy and I look back and he's like have to elbow him like you've got to get up
he was just letting you know us know that he would row his worst hours if that's what it was taking
like he was all in and then Angus you know he was he was just saying that this is what we did this is why we combined forces you know we wanted a
chance at at history it's not like a great one but we've got one and it's ours and i thought
damn if that isn't the best response of any three teammates you could ever have i mean
that was when i knew that like i had done what we needed to do you know I came back because I failed
as a leader with the first team and it's more more specifically with Greg you know the guy who left
who was healthy you know it's I always say it's easy to get down on Greg he left he abandoned us
and believe me you don't want to say his name in front of my dad because my dad can't stand him but
um in the end it it was my fault.
I failed to get him to a place
that he wanted to be like Tom.
And I never could shake that.
And so that's why I came back.
And all of a sudden I've got three guys
that are willing to do whatever it takes
in the next five days when we're already beat up.
I mean, we're so beat up.
And so I said, all right.
So we row the first of that five days
because we're not quite out of the storm. We row three people at a time instead of two, it's three,
which means instead of two hours on two hours off, you've got two hours on 40 minutes of rest.
And I'm thinking to myself, this is going to be a rough first day. And we do it for 24 straight
hours and we row 79 miles, which is good.
Good, but you're behind.
But yeah, for putting all that much effort into it,
we're still one mile off of our pace.
And I just think that I'm thinking to myself,
I remember just as kind of like,
we're starting the next official day,
which I think we marked at 6 a.m.
was the next official day for us.
I just remember thinking like, I don't know. I could see people taking
their foot off the gas a little bit right now. Cause we're going to go back to two on two off,
you know, we're going to go back to our normal shift patterns. I'm thinking to myself, you know,
you couldn't get 80 with three dudes. How are you going to do it? Yeah. Maybe you'll just,
yeah. A little bit off their foot off the gas gas. I mean, I'm thinking to myself, you know,
I got to make sure I don't do that, you know, because now you're, now we're getting feeling
a little defeated. Like, I don't think we've got it, you know, sure I don't do that. Because now we're feeling a little defeated.
Like I don't think we've got it.
But I can tell you what I know for a fact that nobody did
because on that second day we did 94 miles,
which just, that's all that you needed to know
is that we did 94 miles and the third was 92.
So like five knots, what is that?
It wasn't quite five, but it was like, yeah, it was. So four knots will get you a hundred roughly.
And so we were like in the high threes all day long,
making quick shift changes.
Like everything was,
and the thing is nobody was talking about the world record.
That's the thing is like, no one was saying like, all right right where are we on the world record pace like it just became about like each
other you know it just became about cooking extra food for everybody hey what does everybody want
i'm gonna cook five meals right now so that you've got some i'm gonna put it right next to your seat
boom eat it i had this infected heel thing hurt so bad because it was it was so infected like even
just barely touching it like really really like kind of sent like a pain up my leg. And I'm notorious for not taking care of my body
very well out there when I should. And Angus always yells at me for that. And he would do
little subtle things like, hey, J, just when you get back in the cabin, I laid it out. You don't
have to do anything. The gauze is there. The wrap is there, all you need to do is just simply take off the thing,
clean it, wrap it and done.
Like, you know, he would just,
he was encouraging me to do what I needed to do
to take care of my body.
And that was what everybody was doing.
Nobody was talking about themselves.
Oh, I'm so tired guys, I'm so beat up.
I was all about how are you doing?
And that was to this day,
it's a pinnacle of my athletic career,
that those five days.
And I was, I honestly, no one's gonna believe this this but I didn't care anymore if we broke the world record I didn't we did we end
up doing it but in that moment I'm thinking to myself this is it this is what this is what I was
trying so hard for you know I chased this like idea of the only time I'm gonna be accepted I'm
gonna accept myself or I'm gonna be accepted as an elite athlete, a winner is if it's a gold medal, if it's a world record, you start to realize like,
no one gives a shit. Like, it doesn't matter about that. What it matters is about is that when you
step off that boat or when you cross that finish line, that you know that you led the team in the
right way and that you gave everything that you had and they did as well because of all this stuff
that we've been talking about.
Yeah, yeah, that's beautifully put.
So then with that experience and breaking the world record
and having this extraordinary kind of camaraderie
with your teammates, like what do you make of that?
Like how do you extrapolate upon that to communicate
to the average person
or somebody who's striving to achieve a goal
or somebody who is a leader
in their respective, you know, employment.
I have a lot of thoughts around that,
but I'll take it to its most basic level.
And I'll say by this, like,
we hear this cliche all the time that life is short, right?
We always say life is short, life is short. I don't the time that life is short, right? We always say life is short, life is short.
I don't actually believe that life is short,
or at least I don't think we actually believe it.
I mean, whether life is long or short,
I guess just depends on what you compare it to.
If you compare it to a giant redwood, it's short.
But if you compare it to like a fly, it's long, whatever it is.
But what do we believe?
And I think most people, to include myself at times,
we believe life is long.
It's actually so long, in fact,
that we put off these things, right?
We always want to take piano lessons,
but we'll do it next year when my life isn't as busy.
We do all these different things.
I'm gonna patch things up with my mom or my dad.
I haven't talked to in a while.
I'll do it next week.
I'll make the call next week, next month, whatever it is.
And we put things off
because we honestly believe we have more time. And the reality is,
is that that is exactly what keeps us from doing these things is, is that we always think we've got
more time. And so if I'm talking about at the most basic level, when we start to attempt these things,
we should honestly have a deep seated belief
that life is finite, it's short and it's fleeting.
And in which case we will start to act now.
I think if we're talking about,
we're starting to talk to the individual out there
that's listening right now,
I'd say that we need to start by how we think about time
and how we think about how we spend our time.
Because as we all know, weeks become months become years. And all of a sudden that's how we spend our time. Because as we all know, weeks become months become years
and all of a sudden that's how we spend our lives.
And I think I'm afraid, I'm fearful
that I'm not gonna be able to get these things done
because I'm running out of time and that helps me.
And I think, I hope that helps other people as well.
Yeah, that's amazing.
Dude, we haven't even talked about Rowan the Pacific yet.
What time is it?
You're just a month out basically
of doing the craziest thing you've done to date.
So walk me through the process of getting enthusiastic
about this challenge, this idea that perhaps
even after setting this world record that you weren't done,
that there was this other challenge out there
that you wanted to tackle and putting the team together,
like the audience is gonna kill me if I don't ask you
like how you train for all this stuff.
So yeah, walk me up to this latest adventure
and everything that went into it.
Yeah, I mean, I feel like I've gotten all these new tools
and lessons that you keep using the metaphor
that I'm basically getting a master's in leadership here.
And so that's why I feel like,
I feel like I just graduated after this Atlantic row
with a master's and now I wanna go apply it.
And that's really where the motivation
from the Pacific came is I've seen this idea
of leveraging each other's human emotions
to build this community, to build all this trust,
all things we've been talking about it.
I've seen how it works.
And now I wanna just go ahead
and leverage the hell out of it
because I think that this is going to be-
Like you find the lights have gone on.
You finally got it.
And now you could actually return and execute
at the highest level because you've got the skills,
the experience, the endurance,
you've met the obstacles, all of it.
Yeah, and that's where we're at.
So, I live in the San Francisco Bay area,
the Pacific is my backyard.
And so what better thing to have,
to enter the race that leaves from your backyard
and goes to Hawaii.
So, that's where the motivation comes from.
I'm excited to build a new team. Why a new team though? Why not just get all these guys?
Yeah. You got your guys. And, but those guys are, their, their whys are changing.
Yeah. People are living their lives. How dare they? Yeah. I thought that was selfish too. I'm
glad you think the same. Well, Matt, you know, I've never seen anyone have more closure than Matt.
Matt after this row,
and you know, the doc does a great job
of kind of showing this,
but Matt has so much closure after this row,
both athletically, his athletic career,
but also his personal life.
This idea of being able to really
kind of close the loop
on a lot of the things.
He has no interest.
And believe me, I tried, but he's done.
He's like, Jay, I'm done.
I am done.
He learned what he needed to learn.
He's out.
He got that closure.
He had that experience.
And now he can cut the ties and build a new life.
Yeah, exactly.
On top of that.
And that's exactly what he did. You know, they had another kid and they're living a new life. Yeah, exactly. On top of that. And that's exactly what he did.
You know, they had another kid
and they're living a happy life in Texas right now.
So-
But Angus.
Well, Angus isn't going anywhere.
Holler at my boy.
Yeah.
He's my dude.
Yeah, he's the best.
He's, you know, this is his life.
And for him, you know, his motivation is different.
Again, this is for another time, but, you know, he is his life. And for him, you know, his motivation is different. Again, this is for another time,
but, you know, he's more comfortable.
He's a guy who's always been more comfortable
out at sea than he was indoors.
You know, I mean, I like to come home.
I love these things, but I also like to come home.
You know, for me, it's, I wanna see my wife.
I wanna see my son.
You know, I wanna spend time with friends and family
and go golfing and run my business. I wanna to see my son. I want to spend time with friends and family and go golfing and run my
business. I want to do these things. But Angus always seems tough to reenter. He always has a
hard time coming back. And I think he's chasing something and that's for him to answer, not me,
but he was ready. So he was in. So it was was me and him and now we're looking for two other guys
and um you know one of his first teammates from the first time in the atlantic gus barton uh was
in and uh he's a he's a personal trainer in london and a great athlete and has experience and then
duncan roy was our our next guy who had rode the atlantic twice already as well and his big
motivation was that he didn't really feel like he had the experience that he wanted to have in both those rows for different
reasons. He was looking for an ultimate team experience. And so we had this team, but COVID,
you know, we're all sick of talking about COVID, but it precluded us from doing it in 2020, which
was when we were supposed to do it. And so that comes and goes. And we now, you sit here, we built
ourselves up. Gus has to has to bow out
because him and his wife are planning on growing their growing their family and having a child
which i totally understand so he can't be in for 2021 so we're looking for this fourth guy
um and duncan we all put together a list of people that we'd be interested in and
duncan had a couple guys um on his list and one of those guys we ended up
taking which was which was Jordan Shuttleworth and um again no experience on the ocean so we're
talking about you always need one guy who has no ocean experience we just want to make sure that
we make it just a little bit harder for ourselves you know so yeah he's a former royal marine big
strong athletic individual um but no ocean rowing experience.
And so, you know, here we are,
here's our team coming into this year.
Myself, Angus, who are, you know,
who's at this point, my brother in adventure at this,
you know, we've done so much together.
And then Duncan, who I've never rowed with in a boat before
in terms of a race,
but have now spent a lot of time with
and just absolutely loved.
And then Jordan.
Right, so I'm less familiar with Duncan and Jordan
because they're not in the documentary
because the documentary ends before the Pacific row,
but both military guys, which is interesting.
Yeah.
But also I trust come from some kind
of competitive rowing background or just like ocean dudes.
Duncan was ocean rowing.
He'd done two ocean crossings already
and really has fallen in love with it.
And Jordan, no, no, no, no,
like really no nautical background.
Right, he's just a bad-ass Marine commando
who's tough as nails.
Yeah.
And it never rode in the ocean
and you're like, that's our guy.
Exactly, like I haven't learned my lesson.
Well, it's just, it was,
we interviewed quite a few people
to include people that had ocean rowing experience,
but he just seemed, he just, he had that.
I'll tell you what I loved about Jordan.
I mean, there's a lot of things I love about Jordan,
of course, especially now that we finished one together,
we're like brothers.
But the first thing he said when we got on our first
interview with him, you know, Zoom, of course,
and he says, I'm nervous.
Why are you nervous?
What are you nervous about?
He's like, I just want this so bad.
I just thought that is a great, I like that, you know,
that he there's already so much on it for him.
And I asked him, I said,
do you remember the first thing you said?
And he couldn't remember. And I just remember it came from the do you remember the first thing you said? And he couldn't remember.
And I just remember it came from the heart.
He was just, he looked nervous and I just loved that.
It meant something to him.
So interesting thing about Angus is,
I looked into his background a little bit,
in addition to being the youngest ever to row
the Indian Atlantic and Pacific,
the guy has dealt with depression and ADHD
and some, you know, he's got some dark chapters
in his past that he had to kind of face and overcome.
Yeah, and this has been, you know,
something that we've constantly talked about.
I mean, we, you know, we rode the Atlantic together,
broke the world record.
Then a year later, we trekked across Namibia together.
Something that we don't talk a lot about,
but that was an incredible vacation, adventure.
Certainly wasn't, yeah, it was anything but.
He didn't actually complete that one
because he got heat stroke and passed out and hit his head.
And then after that, he went into a tough time
and there was actually about a six month stint
where I couldn't get ahold of him.
Most of his friends couldn't get ahold of him.
And I'm in the US and he's in the UK. So I'd be calling
him. I had Alex, our teammate from the Atlantic actually was trying so hard to get ahold of him
and he wouldn't respond to any of us. So Alex somehow had one of his old credit cards started
using it at the bars. He's like, well, if he's not going to answer my phone calls, I'm just going to
start charging the hell out of this thing until he calls me pissed off.
But as it turned out, which we learned is that
he was just, he was wrestling with a lot of tough thoughts
and he struggled with depression.
He's now in a much better situation.
He's in a very healthy relationship with a wonderful woman.
And, but it's not gone, you know,
he still has to deal with it.
And so it's, again, but it's not gone, you know, he still has to deal with it. And so, um, it's again,
that's his story, but it's something that, you know, we've, we have to constantly talk about
because that's, that's going to affect the, that's going to affect us being out there.
Yeah. I saw, uh, a piece, I think it was vice that you did, um, where it was kind of like a
mini doc and it was you guys like getting ready for this race. And it feels like in this case,
you guys were together more
or were those just training partners
that live out near you?
Those were my training partners.
I wish those were my teammates.
I mean, glad that my buddies helped out,
but I mean, that's what happens is that,
especially with COVID, we got together.
I met Jordan face to face for the first time
when he got to San Francisco.
Oh, wow. Those I got to San Francisco. Wow.
Those I've got San Francisco bear.
I've got training buddies, Mike books at you.
I rode with in college.
He goes out in the water with me
and I got Kevin Grant who's collegiate football player.
So I do the weights with him
and I got swimming partners, trail running partners.
So those guys helped me get in shape.
I've got by committee, that's swimming partners, trail running partners. So those guys helped me get in shape. I've got by committee, that's great.
But we didn't have any time to train together.
So we get to San Francisco,
we got two weeks until this row starts here.
This is this past May.
Boat's not ready and not nearly as ready
as we'd like it to be.
We haven't even all really spent any time together.
COVID's slowing everything down because even at this point,
we're still struggling with stuff
and we're way, way over budget and underfunded.
So, I mean, this is the team that should just be-
So you as a guy who's taught at business schools
and has all this wisdom about team building and leadership,
you're breaking all your rules.
Yeah, and again, we gotta say,
I could sit here and give you a litany of excuses excuses hey well it's covid this and covid that and in the end it comes
down to me in the end it is my fault so we're not ready we're not prepared we didn't raise enough
money for this thing we didn't get enough sponsorship well whatever this is my i i have
this team and this boat and this race ahead of us. And those two weeks were not ideal to be fair.
And as we led up to this row,
and so May, instead of,
I was gonna take them to a Giants game
and we were gonna go and do all these fun things,
take them to the city.
They wanted to see a cable car and all these.
They didn't believe that it gets pulled by a cable.
So I was gonna do all this stuff.
We spent every single day, all day at the boat,
getting it ready until literally the night before.
And so here we are, just like you said,
I've broken all the rules,
but in that time was spent with each other
and it was stressful, but it was together.
And there was a ton of trust
and community building happening.
And I remember like the night before my wife asking me
how I was feeling,
because it was a very stressful two weeks leading up.
And I said, I can't wait till tomorrow morning.
All I have to do is push off
and all that's left is the suffering.
And that's how I felt.
Like I truly felt that we were still where we needed to be.
And all that was left is just do it.
McKeel, just to bring it back to my Vesper coach there,
three time, he used to always say say medals are earned in the off season.
You simply just row the race to go pick them up.
And I love the simplicity of that.
Like simply just row the 2000 meters
because the medals are at the finish line.
You just got to go pick them up.
Whatever color you get is a result of what you did in the off season.
And that's how I felt with this team.
Like we had done the work.
It was stressful, but we were ready. The boat was where it needs to
be the team together where they need to be all we need to push off. Yeah, we did. Talk to me about
the training. So you would think, I thought, I guess I should say that your training would be
you on a boat in the bay as much as possible, then you on a compu trainer, and then you in the weight
room. But in that little mini doc that I watched,
you were doing all kinds of interesting different stuff.
A lot of kettle ball work,
a lot of like calisthenic type,
you know, hit type training
where you're changing gears a lot,
trying to confuse the body.
So walk me through, you know,
the kind of philosophy and perspective
and routine that you were doing to get ready?
Yeah. So ideally the number one thing you could do to get yourself ready is to be in your boat
with your team on the ocean rowing every day. As much as possible.
Yeah. That's number one. Whenever you can do that, you do it. Multi-day rows, getting out there,
sleeping on the boat, rowing in different conditions, that's the best, but that just
doesn't happen. I mean, even on a non-COVID
year, it's hard to get the team together, but when we can, we do. Then you get down to
rowing machine. So the erg, I mean, I'll sit on there and I do a lot of different training.
Sometimes it'll be long, long, steady state pieces on that, where I'm just trying to keep my heart
rate. And I do all heart rate training. So it's really based on where the heart rate is, not where
the split is. Then we'll do interval work and strength work on the rowing machine.
And then from there, lifting is a big deal.
Rowing is a leg sport mostly.
Most people think it's an upper body.
It's not.
It's that you push off of a sliding seat.
You don't pull.
Pushing is most of it.
So you're building that legs.
You're building the core.
And of course, the back and shoulders as well.
So a lot of that.
But then you can't be too singular and just row. It's a lot of pressure on the back. So I do a lot of that, but then, you know, you can't be too singular and just row.
It's a lot of pressure on the back.
So I do a lot of cross training.
And for me, cross training is,
I like to do trail running because I enjoy it
and I'm not, and it's hard for me.
So I'm a big guy and swimming.
Swimming has become a huge part of my training now
because it's that nice fluid motion
and it's a lengthening thing for me.
So it makes my back feel good.
So I'm doing a combination of all that,
but in a day-to-day, I'm getting up at 4.30.
If this is what people wanna know,
I'm getting up at 4.30 before my son and my wife are up.
I'm doing a big row there.
That's an erg row, that's a rowing machine workout.
That'll be a two-hour session
depending on what the day looks like.
And then I'm usually doing some kind of a midday,
afternoon thing that'll be either in the weight room
or be some kind of like park workout
that we'll just bring all our medicine balls and stuff
and we'll start to do stuff in the park.
And that'll be kind of more of a muscular endurance type of workout.
And then usually on certain days, usually three days a week
after I put my son to bed, he's down at 7.30,
then I'll go for a night run,
just something light, not pushing it,
nothing like you do, Rich,
but just getting out there,
just trying to like break a sweat
and make it feel good.
And then that's, so I'm doing two days,
Monday through Saturday,
and then two or three of those days,
I'll put in a light run as well in the evenings
and then Sunday I'll usually take off.
Right, so what I didn't hear
is you getting out on the water.
Well, usually we get to, but this time in the Pacific,
there was almost no water time.
First of all, our boat wasn't ready.
And even getting out in a skull.
Yeah, and I did a lot of that as well,
but it's tough with a family.
Yeah, it's time consuming.
It's time consuming.
You gotta get to the water.
And unload it.
Exactly, so it's like, do I do that?
Or do I get on the rowing machine, which is in my garage?
And I got a little setup there
and I can just get there and pound out.
And you have the background and the experience like.
Yeah, I wasn't as worried about the,
for me as the rowing portion of it
in terms of the feel of the oars,
that I've spent a lot of my adulthood dealing with
and training for.
So it was for me, it's just about sitting
and getting bigger and stronger and fitter.
Packing on the weight, putting on the muscle mass
because that's gonna get eroded over time
and kind of becomes a fuel.
Yeah, I mean, what happens is you start high
that adrenaline, then you crash with the seasickness.
And then after you get out of the seasickness,
cause you come back up and you're probably
at your highest point at that point, you feel the best,
maybe five days into the row.
And then it's a slow descent, slow and steady descent
as you lose the fat, which goes away quick,
then you start burning into that muscle mass.
And you start feeling those injuries,
you get the stress fractured ribs,
you got sores on your ass,
you've got your hands, you've got-
How do you get on top of those sores?
Cause that's just nuts.
And all they're just being exposed to,
they're just wet all the time, salt, everything.
It's awful.
I'm gonna be honest, it is the worst.
So for that, you know, you hear that,
that old proverb says,
it's not the mountain in front of you,
but the pebble in your shoe.
That's what ocean rowing is.
It's not the distance that you're rowing that's so hard.
It's the little things.
And that's getting ahead of it real quick.
So, you know, yeah, the minute you get started getting wet
and you get hit by a wave, I mean,
you might not be dry for another two days
from that one single wave that hits you.
You're soaking wet and then it gets down to your butt
and the salt is just grinding into your
butt and then you get these sores and it's a combination of trying to dry them out but also
keeping them so that they you know keeping them also like with some some lubricant basically so
that they don't get worse so it's this fine balance between drying them out and you're on a 30 foot
boat where are you drying you know there's no we don't have a bathroom on our boat. I mean, do you just have vats of anti-microbial
like Neosporin type shit that you rub on your ass
and on your feet and your hands all the time?
Yep, just like trying, you got your phone,
trying to take a selfie to see where it is
or just asking one of your buddies,
dude, I need you to look at my ass.
Yeah. I was like, oh God.
And I saw on the Instagram, like sleeping naked
cause you gotta- You're trying to air out.
You gotta dry it out.
Yeah, yeah, you just, see, just, I mean,
there's no shame on this boat.
I mean, you can use your imagination,
but I mean, you're asking guys to look at things
that you can't see on your body.
I need you to check this thing out, you know?
And then, or a guy will see you like, you know,
take down, drop down your shorts,
but like, dude, your ass looks awful, dude.
You gotta fix that.
I mean, just as a cyclist,
like I can't imagine the saddle sore situation.
Yeah, it's for me, it's one of the worst things.
So I had that and like I had a bad ankle issue on this one
that just, and it's just those little things
that you're just trying to figure out.
You've got two hours to somehow make it better
before you go out for another two hours and make it worse.
So it's just this idea of like trying to figure that out.
And then of course you're tired.
All you really wanna do is just lie down and go to sleep,
but you've got to stay up and fix those things.
And that can be,
that's one of those two hours of not rowing is tough.
So yeah, you've got stress fractured ribs.
You've got salt sores on your ass.
You've got tendinitis where your hands
don't even straighten out.
And you've got numbness in your hands.
You've got blisters obviously
that hopefully will callous up.
And then you're just getting, you get headaches, you know, blisters, obviously that hopefully will callous up. And then, you know, you're just getting, you know, you get headaches, you get dizziness. It's just,
it's just, it's brutal out there. And how much clean water can the desalinator produce daily?
It really depends on how much sunlight you're getting because you're, you know, everything's
being powered by solar panels and how much you've had to use for other things but we keep those phones charged
get those videos yeah exactly um yeah you got an auto an auto helm that's helping you keep your
your your point and stuff like that you're but so is solar creating the energy for your navigation
for everything right yeah it's all it's all, we got lithium ion batteries on this race, which is the first time we did, which ended up being great.
But I would like having five liters of water per 24 hours
for each individual is good, that's nice.
And think about it, it's not that much water.
That's not that much.
Plus you're using it also to make your food.
You can't like use that for taking a shower.
Yeah, it's not like we're just,
we're not having water balloon fights,
I don't know what they're throwing in. Yeah, it's not like we're just, we're not having water balloon fights. I don't know.
Yeah, it's, that's the precious resource.
And a couple of times,
I think we did three times on this last race,
you need to wash the bottom of the boat.
Actually, if you can believe it,
barnacles build up on the bottom of the boat.
You get a slime that gets there and then the barnacles stick to the slime.
There's another interesting thing.
You're in the middle of the ocean,
you jump in and you're just, you're swimming in the middle of the ocean. There's another interesting thing. You're in the middle of the ocean, you jump in and you're just,
you're swimming in the middle of the ocean.
It's an incredible experience
that I always encourage all my teammates
if they haven't done it before.
Some don't want it like,
hell no, I'm not going in there.
But I always encourage if you're not too scared to do it.
And most people take you up on it.
It's just an incredible feeling like,
you know, tethered to the boat,
but like you're just away from the boat.
You're, you know, it's obviously gonna be in calm weather.
I can do it during a storm and just to go underwater naked.
And it feels so good.
Yeah, so you're getting that kind of,
that's your closest thing to a shower.
Just to-
I mean, that's a religious experience.
It is an unbelievably religious.
It is so true.
I mean, it is one of the most amazing things to know.
You have 30,000 feet below you.
I love to just, I do it every time.
I just like push off and just swim down
and then just like do a 360 underwater.
And just as far as the eye can see
and the lights being funneled because it's so deep
and you can just see it being squished in.
It's amazing.
I mean, as an adventure athlete, as an explorer,
there's this, I mean, perhaps you're the only human being
that's ever been in that spot ever
in the history of humanity.
Yeah, I think that all the time.
It's crazy.
That's what we're all,
that's what adventurers are trying to do.
Has anyone other human's foot ever been
where I'm standing on this terra firma?
And that's what we think about out there
is you just, for a second,
just have your own experience.
Just the guys are joking around, you know,
and everyone's, some guys are working
and scrubbing the boat and stuff like that. And you can just have this one moment to yourself where like,
and I always think like, I'm exactly where I need to be right now. And that is, again,
if we're going to wrap this whole thing up, this is why we're doing it. I mean, we're doing things
like this to satiate this very human need to push further, to be somewhere that no one else has been, to get away and to be present.
And there is nothing more to feel,
to make you feel present than something like that experience.
Yeah.
So you get it done.
You not only break the world record,
you like demolish it by nine days, basically.
Yeah.
From 39 days to 30 days.
Yeah. It's insane.
So the thing that you always were waiting for,
this guy who is kind of in the shadows,
always second place, never could quite execute on the dream.
I mean, that's gotta be pretty gratifying.
Yeah.
I'm on the path to where I wanna be doing doing it the way that I want to do it,
but I'm not done. And I think right now it's about, as I said before, taking this relatively
new knowledge, this master's degree, which I'm going to use by the way, because this is amazing.
This is a great metaphor. Yeah. But now you're teetering into PhD territory, but there's a
dissertation involved.
So maybe that's what you're thinking about in terms of what's next.
Yeah, and I think,
I just love to see these tools going into action
and them actually working.
It's just an amazing thing to see
all this work that we've done.
And you just see,
you create an environment for these human beings
to be amazing.
And then they are,
and you just, you sit there and you marvel at it
because in the end, what I'm doing is I'm not proving to the world
that I'm just some great athlete.
I'm as great as I can be,
but I'm proving to the world that I'm a builder of teams.
And that is why no matter what you see me do next,
it'll be in a team atmosphere.
Do you have a sense of what might be coming next?
I definitely have a short list.
Yeah, you're gonna get all caging on me now.
Well, come on.
You know, what if someone does it for me?
Yeah, that's right.
No one listens to your podcast.
I forgot about that.
Also, I'll just say this.
I'll say this.
I think I'm largely done with oceans.
I think I've,
I don't think there's anything left for me out there.
I mean, I would do some more interesting,
maybe shorter crossings,
but I think transatlantic,
trans-Pacific ocean crossing is,
I'm done with that.
But I've been looking to other bodies of water,
big rivers, the world's biggest rivers
and doing some of those
and being able to do some more exploring,
some more adventuring where, yeah,
there's still a record to be had,
a source to see type of crop,
going down rivers and stuff,
but also being able to explore terra firma at times,
being able to come onto land,
just seeing a little bit more of the world through rivers.
I'm not saying more than that for now.
Yeah, no, I get it.
I mean, I'm interested in kind of how your recent experience
has or has not maybe impacted how you think about your why
for yourself as an adventure athlete who now has,
you know, made this stamp,
established yourself as somebody who can do amazing things,
who is in a position to garner additional support
and, you know, attention, et cetera.
And I think of people in the tradition of this,
like Lewis Pugh, who's like about to jump
in freezing cold water and swim across these frigid,
Icelandic or where is he?
He's in Greenland, I'm sorry.
Which is even worse.
Swimming in the coldest water there is,
but his why is tied to a cause greater than himself.
I mean, you're about team building and leadership
and community building, et cetera.
Not that that's not completely laudable,
but his thing being like the environment and all of that.
So I'm interested in kind of has your perspective
on what you like the sort of larger why
behind what you're doing.
Is that in flux?
Are you locked in on that?
Or how do you think about that?
I think it's very inelegantly.
No, I think about this stuff so much
on why you were talking so elegantly, by the way,
I was also trying to think about
how I kind of wrestle with that idea.
And I'd say the first thing is,
is that some of this is set in stone
and it's becoming more and more stronger with me, my why.
And that's a lot of the personal why.
Things like doing this for my son,
he'll be two in a week.
And he doesn't know what I do yet.
He's only two,
but he will start to in the next few years,
start to slowly realize that his dad has done some incredible things.
And it might sound a little cheesy,
but for those parents out there,
you know that your why becomes pretty strong
for your kids.
And it's for him to be able to see that his dad does these things um so whatever he gets into
that he's gonna know that you know he's got a chance he's got a shot that's just i'm so excited
to be able to use that um as kind of a leverage for him as well and and uh i'm excited i'm that
that this was my first row
I've ever done my first adventure with him alive.
That was tough, but also a motivator.
I put him to bed the night before I left
and he woke up the next day and I wasn't there.
And then I wasn't there for the next 30 days.
Does that change your kind of risk analysis approach?
I thought it would, but it it didn't and to be very honest
and that sounds selfish and it is but i didn't i didn't feel myself feeling any more mortal
out there than i than i have in the past just because i have a a boy um i thought it would
i thought maybe i'd lose a little edge but i didn't in fact one of my teammates on this was
he said he was worried
and it was very honest of him to say that.
It was actually Jordan.
Very, very awesome to say that, you know,
he's a little worried that maybe I would bring that
missing him out onto the water.
And I had spent, you know,
the year leading up to this road
to make sure that I was emotionally ready to leave him.
And I think it did me well, you know,
I didn't bring it in a sense that I was emotionally ready to leave him. And I think it did me well, you know, I didn't bring it in a sense that I made decisions
or I had bad days because of that.
I also was surprised that I, you know,
I still felt as ready to take risks and take chances.
Yeah, that's interesting.
Maybe that will change.
I don't know, maybe it will.
Yeah, I mean, you know,
as somebody who's got kids that are older now, I'm aware of how that impacts
like how I make decisions about where I invest my time.
That's true.
Risk analysis aside,
I think as they get older and they become like,
at some point they're like,
oh, you're a real person.
Yeah, yeah.
Because they develop enough,
their brains mature a little bit
and their personality comes out a little bit more robustly.
And for me, like when they're really young,
it's harder to have that kind of, not connection,
but like understanding of them as like
sentient human beings.
And then when they get to a certain point, you're like,
oh wow, and I just remember a shift
in how I thought about things.
When was that?
I can't remember.
I mean, I'm old, so it was a long time ago,
but I think maybe around,
I think you got maybe another year and a half or so
before that starts to percolate up.
That'll be interesting.
Yeah, I mean, it's already there,
but then it really kind of like gets to a different level.
Yeah.
And it changes the way that you kind of interrelate.
Yeah, I mean, I fully expect for it to change
and I'm surprised, I'm being very honest.
Like it would have been easy for me to just sit here
and say, oh yeah, you know, family first.
And it is family first, but when I was out there,
I mean, we took some risks.
We went through storms when we could have gone around
and that's by the way, why we broke that nine days.
We went through every single storm.
We did not go around it.
That was dangerous.
It was harder and beat us up more.
And I never once thought like we shouldn't be doing this
because our team goal was to go as fast as possible.
And that was how you did it.
But I can see what you're saying is that
he's gonna start asking me questions.
Like if my aunt twice removed says,
why do you keep doing these things or something?
I'm pulling this as a fictional person at this point,
but I get those questions.
Like, why do you have to do another one?
I don't hear that.
But if my son asked me that,
that would hit a lot harder, I think.
But meanwhile, you've got this consultancy,
this other business that you're running, Latitude 35.
So maybe a way that we can kind of round this out
and conclude the conversation is with some thoughts
about leadership and team building that you've learned
as a result of working with corporations
and teaching what you've learned to business schools.
A big piece in this that I think distinguishes your approach
from other people who do similar type stuff
is that my sense is that it's extremely experience-based
and it's really all about kind of the emotional piece
that we were talking about earlier.
It's one thing to come in, stand on a stage and go,
here are the 10 things you need to do
to reorganize your team and motivate them.
But truly all of that remains academic
until you get a group of people out,
you make them do something hard together
and have a sort of transformative experience
that congeals them and weds them to each other
in a way that information on its own
just isn't going to accomplish.
Yep, that's what our company's essentially been all about
is that, you know, you hear, you know,
the other competing companies that study show this
about leadership and building teams and surveys show that,
but largely the people that are teaching this stuff
from my experience have stood on the sidelines
of building teams or even been part of teams
their whole life.
They've studied them, they've read the books and they've maybe even written some books on it,
but they have not been out there and tested that.
And when I started to,
I've been doing this for over 15 years now,
started teaching leadership
and how to build high performance teams.
Yeah, I have my own process.
We have our steps and whatever you want to call it,
but it constantly changes.
So every time that we add another row or another adventure,
I'm constantly tweaking it because in the end, it's just a living document.
There's no right way to build teams.
It's not the process, it's a process.
But the most important element is that we're,
I'm going out there,
I'm building teams for different adventures. I'm using my process best I can, but I'm making mistakes, I'm making concessions that I'm telling people you shouldn't make, I'm making mistakes out there constantly, learning from them, and I'm bringing all that experience to our clients.
They come with me with their business challenges and I'm gonna help consult them.
But we also do, our most popular programs
are our experiential programs
where we take people rowing on a river
or sailing the British Virgin Islands.
And we say, all right, we are gonna teach this
by essentially putting together a team,
just like I had to do
and putting you out in a chaotic,
a controlled chaotic environment.
Debbie from marketing and like Joe from sales.
Yeah.
You know, we, when we work with a lot of, you know, upper management and above it's,
it's, you know, but these are people that are either maybe at the lowest level coming
into for the first time leadership responsibilities.
Maybe they've never really managed people all the way up to people that have been managing
people for a long time, but are doing it a certain way their way, and maybe just need access to different perspectives.
And all we're doing is creating an environment for those ideas and those experiences to happen.
And we don't sit there and placate them and say, look how you rode well together and worked as a
team. We actually dig, we're very academic. So half that experiences or that time with them
is spent in that experience.
But the other half is a very academic deconstruction
of that experience
because that's essentially what I'm doing
when I debrief my own adventures is,
how can I, what mistakes did I make?
How can I learn from those mistakes and move forward?
And that's essentially what we're doing.
We're constantly being students.
I mean, you're saying I'm almost at my PhD,
which I appreciate, but I'm gonna try to go for another one.
Yeah, and okay, since you're gonna go for another one,
how do you think about communicating principles
around things like discipline, consistency, motivation,
inspiration,
living your life purposeful and seeking your passion and terms that get thrown around a lot
kind of in the space of what you do.
And I'm sure in the kind of keynote circuit speaker world,
I think it's very confusing for a lot of people
because those words are used cavalierly.
So what do they mean to you?
And where do you think people should focus their energies
who are trying to kind of unlock something greater
within themselves, but feel stymied or stuck
or just unsure about how to bring expression to that?
I think, yeah, and I do a fair amount of keynote speeches
and it's hard to connect with people on keynotes.
You're on a stage and you're either telling a story
or you're giving some examples and some anecdotes,
but largely the best work that I have with people
on those is afterwards when you're having dinner with them
or you're talking off stage with them.
And then of our programs where we get to spend
a little bit more time making some connections.
And I think the first thing is like,
is there a willingness to change? And I think the first thing is like, is there a willingness to change?
And I think for a lot of people,
a willingness to be a better leader
or a better builder of teams
comes from the idea that you're okay
with kind of exposing yourself
and opening up your books to everybody else.
Because I used to play
with all these different definitions of leadership.
And I thought, well, I'm in leadership,
so I have to have this really complex definition.
And now it's just one word, it's just trust.
That's my definition.
So what's the definition of leadership?
I say it's trust.
In order to build trust with the people that you're leading
and for them to build trust within themselves,
like you have to open up your books
and be vulnerable.
Honesty, vulnerability.
Exactly.
And I think, you know, I think one of the hardest things for us to do,
even though we talk about a lot
and talk about a cliche is talking about our failures.
And so I spent a lot of time
showing how much we can learn from our failures.
And I think we just spent a lot of time
doing that just now on this talk.
And here's another cliche that drives me nuts
is that one where you hear,
it's not how many times you get knocked down, it's how many times you get back up. And I find that to be a in this world. There's so much competition. People
are smart. People are getting smarter, faster. They want to learn more. And I think we need to
spend more time understanding how we got knocked down, talking about it, being vulnerable, being
authentic with ourselves and with each other. So that when we do get back up,
we're a tougher, harder, stronger,
smarter target to knock down again because we need to be resilient.
This resiliency piece is so important.
But if all we're doing is proving to people
that we'll get back up,
I mean, we're really not getting anywhere with that.
So if people are looking how to like really
be authentic leaders and how to kind of take on some
of these challenges, I think it starts
with this building the trust piece.
And I think you can spend a lot of time working on that.
So how would you begin that?
I think a lot of people, and the reason I asked that is,
I think that I agree with you completely
on the vulnerability piece.
Like you cannot expect to engender trust
if you're not willing to open up your books,
to use your phraseology, to be honest,
to admit where you went wrong.
I think a lot of people are intimidated to do that
or scared to do that.
It feels not safe,
or it feels the kind of conventional wisdom around that would be if I do,
if I do that, I'll appear weak. And that will be a cross purposes with the trust that I'm trying to
engender. The truth is actually the opposite, but for somebody who's never engaged in that process,
like, I guess you would have to say like, start small, but getting somebody off that ledge
and into a mindset where they're comfortable sharing
on that level with people who are underneath them
or their colleagues at work,
or even at home in their relationships,
I think is a tough road to hoe for many, many people.
And it keeps us stuck.
And it also imprisons us in our emotional states.
It paralyzes us from the growth
that we actually seek and aspire to.
Yeah, well, I think one of the things I've noticed
about myself is the more I've accomplished
and the more of these rows, the less macho I become.
I feel that at first you feel the need,
like you're saying to kind of beat your chest
and to say, look at me, I'm on this pedestal.
And the reason why you're down there and I'm up here
is because I manage you, I lead you, I'm your boss.
And then it starts to become
such a flat hierarchical structure.
By the time you start to accomplish these things,
you all start to become on the same level.
And I think I've learned that a lot.
I felt so much the need like at Sonoma
State to show that I am bigger and stronger and you should be scared of me. And one time,
one of my teammates says, the only reason people row hard for you is because they're scared of you,
not because they respect you. And that really hit me hard. And so I've been thinking about that.
Which works in the short term, but not in the long term.
Exactly. Yeah. It's the stick versus the carrot thing. So if people are looking for a way to start,
as you said, a jumping off point,
I'd start with storytelling.
Start figuring out what kind of stories you can be telling.
Don't forget about showing your failings for a second
or deciding to say, oh, I'm gonna tell them
this is where I failed.
This is gonna be a big thing.
Forget about that.
Just start storytelling, start a narrative.
Every time I'm telling a story,
giving a keynote speech,
even if it's just with friends at a dinner
or if it's on a stage in front of thousands of people,
I make sure that every sentence I'm saying
is for the benefit of the person listening.
Otherwise you're just bloviating
and talking about something about yourself.
But if you can have other people see themselves
in the stories that you tell,
you're on the road to starting those conversations
that are gonna talk about the shortcomings.
And that's a way to wade in shallow
because I'm not saying you to say,
this is where I made a mistake.
You're just telling a story.
And that encourages people to be like,
I think of this one time,
you've given a fair amount of keynotes as well,
but you talk to people off stage
and they wanna come in and shake your hand
and share stuff with you. And I've never really identified or connected with the
macho guys that come up to me and say, oh, I'm just like you. I hate losing. I never lose,
which first of all, I lose all the time. So I don't identify with that, but I just feel like
they missed the whole point. But one that happened a few years ago that always stuck with me and
I'll never remember what her name was.
And I can picture her though.
And she wanted to share a story of her and her twin sister.
And they had stopped talking for years and years
and moved away from each other.
And they finally got reconnected and put their past away.
And they decided they're gonna do
a century bike ride together.
And she told
me the story she goes it's nothing she starts it's nothing like what you did but i had the whole time
that you were talking i just kept thinking about what my sister and i did and we did it and it
started raining and we had to get off our bikes and walk and it took us forever but we finished it
and she and at the end she said like i don't even know why i'm telling you this right now i just
felt like i wanted to say that i said that, somewhere she's out there and she doesn't realize that this is affecting me this much
because that's successful.
I told the story that encouraged someone
to think about their stories and then share their stories.
And all of a sudden we're a bunch of people sharing stories
and that then the vulnerabilities will come out.
But let's start with storytelling.
Well, thanks for sharing your story with me today, man.
My pleasure. Yeah, it was great. Thank you so much. How's your for sharing your story with me today, man. Oh, my pleasure.
Yeah, it was great.
Thank you so much.
How's your dad?
Is he good?
He's good.
He's good with you now?
Oh yeah.
In fact, we're closer than ever.
I only feel comfortable saying this
in front of the couple of people
that listen to your podcast
because we are so close.
In fact, we have a standing appointment to golf
on Mondays together.
And also, he's even doing a little work with me now
because he's kind of semi-retired. So he's even starting to work at lot 35 doing some stuff for
me. So we're good. I appreciate you asking. Glad to hear it. That's awesome, man. Very cool. That's
super inspiring what you shared today. Everything that you're about, I'm super into.
There's so much to be learned from these experiences. And I think the more that you're about, I'm super into. There's so much to be learned from these experiences.
And I think the more that you're able to share them
and do it from that place of humility and vulnerability,
you become this transformative spark for so many people.
So, win in your sales.
And if there's anything I can do to support you,
I'm here to do that.
And I can't wait to see what you're gonna do next, man.
Thanks, Rachel. I appreciate it.
So, last thing, the documentary, Chasing,
I got to see a final cut of it,
but what's the plan in terms of like it getting released?
Like, where are we in terms,
cause we talked a lot about it today.
People are gonna be like, where do I see it?
Well, the thing is, is it's so,
Evan Hayes and Ace Productions over there,
they have it out to market.
They've had it out to market for a few months now.
They've gotten some good interest on it
from a couple of big platforms
as well as distribution distributors.
I mean, like I'm waiting any day for them to say
like they're gone.
And in fact, some of the meetings I'm going to tomorrow
are way to help nudge some of these platforms over.
So I'm hoping that'll work, but he swears it'll get,
it's gonna get sold.
He's never not sold this thing,
but it should end up on one of the majors,
but I've been waiting forever.
Yeah, so basically just for those of you
who are watching or listening, it's not out yet.
As soon as it's out, I'll let everybody know.
If you do strike a deal in the interim
between us recording this and when it goes up,
I'll amend it and let everybody know
in the show notes where they can find it.
But in the meantime, it's a TBD situation.
Yeah.
And if people wanna connect with you
and follow your journey and all of that,
where's the best place to direct them?
Instagram's a great place for you to go.
I handle it, Jason underscore T underscore Caldwell.
Follow me there.
Try to post pretty regularly.
And then, you know,
also on LinkedIn
for any of the people
that want to connect
on a professional level
is a great way to find me.
And I'm always kind of posting
my thoughts and articles
on there as well.
Cool.
And there's a Lat35 Instagram as well, right?
There is, yeah.
And yeah.
Lat35?
Yeah, at Lat35. And well, right? There is, yeah. At Lat35? Yeah, at Lat35.
And especially when we're about to do our next adventure,
we have someone that does a great job keeping up with that.
Yeah, cool.
All right, man.
Thanks for talking to me again.
Thanks, Rich.
See you again soon.
All right.
All right.
Peace.
Bye.
Bye.
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