The Ryan Hanley Show - Anne Marie Anderson Reveals the SECRET to Career Success
Episode Date: March 17, 2025Tired of playing it safe? Sick of waiting for the 'perfect moment' that never comes? We're throwing out the rulebook with Anne Marie Anderson, a three-time Emmy Award-winning broadcaster and author of... "Cultivating Audacity: Dismantle Doubt and Let Yourself Win" (January 2025). Anne Marie, who's about to drop truth bombs on GMA, isn't here for your excuses. She's exposing the "sticky floor"—that invisible trap that keeps you stuck in place, waiting for permission or perfect credentials. Anne Marie will show you why that's a load of BS. In this raw and real conversation, Anne Marie reveals: How to weaponize rejection and failure for massive growth. Why fear is your secret weapon, not your enemy. The micro-steps that actually move the needle in your career. How to ditch the "perfect plan" and just start winning. She's not just talking theory; she's lived it. Anne Marie Anderson's personal stories prove that audacity beats perfection every single time. Here's the cold, hard truth: Research proves that a growth mindset boosts career success by 34%. Calculated risks can skyrocket your career by 22%. Those who see failure as a lesson bounce back 27% stronger. Forget the fluff. This episode is your wake-up call to stop waiting and start winning. Anne Marie Anderson is here to show you how to cultivate your audacity and dismantle the doubt that's holding you back. 🎯 Takeaways: • Embrace competition and use rejection as data to grow. • Overcome the sticky floor by daring to take bold, audacious actions. • Reframe fear as an invitation to expand and improve. 💬 Sound Bites: • "Even when you've been knocked down, you get up and show up the second time and take another big swing." • "I don't understand how you can let somebody you've never even met shake your confidence.” • "Somehow, I always say I have I don't have FOMO. I have FOSS. Like, the fear of staying the same. Because the only thing that staying the same ensures is that no growth is possible." 🔗 Connect and Discover: Cultivating Audacity: Dismantle Doubt and Let Yourself Win - https://amzn.to/3QJl1id Website: www.annemarieanderson.com 📌 𝗙𝗢𝗟𝗟𝗢𝗪 𝗠𝗘 𝗢𝗡: Website: https://www.go.ryanhanley.com/ Course Page: https://www.masteroftheclose.com/ Apple: https://www.podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-ryan-hanley-show/id1480262657 Spotify: https://www.open.spotify.com/show/5AZFuTiQsgS9hMQDDdtlOr?si=98432b7806534486 Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ryan_hanley
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Hello everyone and welcome back to the show. We have a tremendous conversation for you today with Anne-Marie Anderson,
35-year veteran of ESPN, on-air personality, now has a best-selling book, Captivating Audacity.
And what I love about Anne-Marie is her approach to breaking through the barriers that keep us from getting to where we wanna go. So many people talk about the glass ceiling
or kind of outsourcing the reasons
that we are not able to get where we wanna go.
Amory repositions it as the sticky floor,
allowing ourselves to remain attached
to the base nature of what we do.
This is an incredible conversation.
She has amazing stories, sports personality,
just dynamic, been all over the world.
You are gonna love this conversation.
And I promise you, if you are struggling to break through
to the success that you have on your brain,
that you dream about, this is gonna be a conversation
that will give you the tools that you need to get there.
Before we talk to Amory, I just want to say as always, thank you for being here guys.
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Let's get on to Anne Marie Anderson.
In a crude laboratory in the basement of his home. It's great to have you on the show. Thanks so much for taking the time to come on today.
Yeah, I've been looking forward to this, Brian.
Yeah, I love shows where I completely fumble the ball and we start as a complete mess because I feel like it
adds a whole dynamic and energy to getting into it.
But it's just, I'm reading the book, Cultivating Audacity, and I look at the way that you approach
topics and the way that you look through the filter that you're putting your thoughts through.
And I'm very interested how did coming into an organization like ESPN, being on camera
and starting that career at such a young age, how much have you changed or your mental change
or your mindset matured from say, those early days when you first get in the door and it's
probably bright lights and so much
So everything's so exciting. I mean it is fans a very exciting organization
and then having a
35 year career that that's continuing the ESPN and coming through all that like like what is that evolution?
Ben for you and when you look back maybe what's the what's one of the big things that you see different about you today?
As it was when you first started out?
I mean this fits right in I'm far more audacious, right? I'm far more willing to take bold risks now
Than I was then you mentioned I started ESPN at 21 years old now
I'm a former collegiate athlete and a lot of people who work at ESPN are either
You know were athletes or involved in athletics in some way.
And I think the thing that I remember the most
from hitting the floor at 21 was how competitive
everything was, like every day was competitive
because it's hard to stand out at a company like ESPN.
So forcing yourself to come up with story ideas
in different angles, I was shy, Ryan, by nature.
I wouldn't call myself shy now,
but that's kind of being a new revelation.
I've just been shy or introverted my entire life.
So I think what I see now compared to then
is just a real comfort with competition
and a completely different perspective
on like rejection and fear and all those emotions
I felt at the beginning.
Now for me, it's like everything's settled into data.
It's all data, whether I get the outcome I want
or I don't, it's just all information.
How do you become comfortable with competition?
Certainly being in athletics helps, I think.
A big part of audacity is understanding
you're gonna take the risk and it's not about the outcome.
And it seems so silly, but like the win in being audacious
isn't like in getting what you want.
The win is in taking action.
And I think with competition,
you'll see a lot of people that are afraid to take action.
And so your first level of competition is with yourself saying, I don't want to do this.
This doesn't feel good.
I'm pretty sure I'm going to get smacked in the face with rejection here, but I'm going
to jump and I'm going to do it.
And I think just repeated practice of that.
So I have two young kids, 11 and nine.
They play sports, a very competitive guy.
I played sports in college as well.
And I look at, you know, I, I pass everything through and it's probably,
I don't know, maybe it's boring to some people, but I think through my coaching
experience, I coach them both now.
And I think through those coaching experiences and apply that to a lot of
what I see in the business environment and what's going on.
And it feels very much like, and maybe this moment in time, things are starting to switch back, but it feels like for a very long time, competition was almost seen as a negative, right?
Like, it's not whether you win or lose, it's how you play the game and, you know, all the trophy stuff, which I know is like a cliche that has been overused so much,
but there's also a reality to it, right? Like, it wasn't about winning.
It wasn't about applying yourself at 100%. It was like, well, you showed up, and that's the win.
And I just struggle with those type of platitudes because when I look at reality,
like what it actually means to be out in the business environment,
having started my own businesses and had big wins, at reality, like what it actually means to be out in the business environment,
having started my own businesses
and had big wins, big fails,
like it's not whether you show up or not.
Like that's, there's no victory in showing up.
Maybe like psychologically there's a victory,
but there's certainly not in the real world.
It's you actually have to get in,
like you said, be audacious, compete, try things,
like get numbers on the board.
One, do you agree that maybe it's certainly in our society to a certain extent, competition has been frowned upon?
And do you think the idea of being competitive and trying to win in a healthy way, right?
Obviously, we see the clips on social media, people were maybe unhealthy in competition.
Do you think that is an important skillset
and mentality to cultivate, especially in say,
maybe people that are in their early 20s
that are starting out in their career?
Absolutely.
Look, competition is throughout your life.
And I think one of the things I've observed,
I also have a 12 year old who I coach,
is getting people
comfortable with the idea of battle, really, and competition. But I do think it starts
with yourself. As far as the negative connotations, you're right, it has been there, and I don't
care. I don't care because the word audacity had negative connotations. And I don't care. You know, I don't care because like the word audacity had negative connotations.
And I've made an attempt here to change that because who's braver than somebody who will
take bold risks not knowing what's going to happen?
Same idea in competition and part of the mentality, right, of being audacious and having this
willingness to take bold risks is about competition.
And I use the example of like, if you're losing by 12 at the half,
why do you come out to play the second half, right?
Because maybe if you get your act together,
you have some defense,
you start to work your offense a little bit, you'll win.
But even if you don't win that game,
you'll have data and information to work for
so you can compete again, hopefully better for the next time.
Same thing happens in business.
You're not gonna win every contract.
You're not gonna win every opportunity, every promotion.
So to your point about showing up,
I think there is something to that
because even when you've been knocked down,
you get up and show up the second time
and take another big swing.
Yeah, I think that's a really good point.
I think that it's probably like all things,
there's a scale, right?
They're showing up and just being there physically
and not applying yourself.
And I think that's the version of showing up
that maybe I like to dispel or like to play against,
but then, but I completely agree with you.
And I've seen it in my own career,
just you just have to keep coming back. Like, you the next thing try the next thing it's funny we our basketball season just
ended and we lost a really we lost we played very poorly and lost by a lot in
our last game of the season it was a tough way to go out right well not
any time now my son after the game it's very disappointed he's kind of
frustrated and you know he you know said a couple things to me and I just like I I go out right now. But he's now my son after the game. He's very disappointed. He's kind of frustrated.
And you know, he, he, you know, said a couple things to me.
And I just like, I was like, look, man, you're 11 years old.
Do you know how much better you will be next year?
Because you just got your ass kicked than it was if you were the on the other side and
just dominated the other team.
Like because you just were dribbling in the parking lot while you're waiting me to get
for me to get all the gear in the thing, you know what I mean?
Like, you're more motivated to come back and try again because you competed and
had that loss and you learned from it.
And I think, you know, we've, I think a lot of people look at the loss as the
end when really it's just, as you said, I love that you put this way, cause I
think of it the same same it's a data point
It's right. It's one data point and a series of where you're trying to go
I love that idea when we were I want to jump to something that that I didn't necessarily have on the docket
But you mentioned it before when we were talking before we went live and I just I want you to dig into this concept
I think and it's where we are in the conversation this idea of a sticky floor
Can you break this down for us and let's dive into this idea?
Yeah, so first of all, as women,
we talk a lot about the glass ceiling, right?
So I don't believe the glass ceiling is our real issue.
And I think that the sticky floor
is a real issue for men and women.
And what I mean by the sticky floor
is we are stuck waiting for the right moment
when everything is aligned, when we have all the qualifications, when we are stuck waiting for the right moment when everything is aligned,
when we have all the qualifications, when we have every bit of material, when we have
time as if time is somehow going to open up for us and welcome us into life.
That right time never arrives.
And here's an example that I give Brian when I'm talking to groups.
Let's say you and I both go in to,, you and I both want the same job, okay?
You go in and apply with 50% of the credentials, right?
And I'm like, are you kidding me?
They're gonna hire Ryan?
He's got 50% of the credentials.
You don't get the job, that's fine.
You go back again, maybe at 65% of the credentials.
And I'm still working behind the scenes to add to my stuff.
You don't get that job again, right?
You still don't have everything you need. At 85% of the credentials you and I both go in to apply.
Maybe I've even got 90% and you've got 80, whatever it is.
Who's gonna get that job?
You are. Because you have now gone three times. You know the decision makers,
you know what they're looking for and most importantly, they have watched you add skills.
They have said, yeah, Ryan didn't have that much, but look what he's added, look what
he's added.
So by me waiting until I felt like I was ready, I lost.
I mean, you want to talk about competition, getting stuck there waiting.
It doesn't make me any better to go in and be like voila. I have everything you need, right?
It's about the grit of coming back getting the information and the data. The sticky floor is a killer
Because then there's this resentment that happens sometimes
I can't believe they hired Ryan like I have more credentials than him the boat. No sis you lost
Because you weren't brave enough to take the swings early.
Yeah.
You know, it's funny, you, you, you throw out these concepts and then you start,
you start thinking about your own career.
And I think about my own hiring process, right?
And what I look for when I'm hiring people for my companies.
And I think I look for the person, like I used to say this, I wanna work with people with a limp.
I'm always looking for people with a limp, right?
Like I want that person who's battered and bruised
and scarred up and maybe he's a little rough
around the edges, but I know that when shit gets hectic,
they're the ones that are gonna find the solution,
that are gonna work the extra hour,
that aren't gonna say, well, my day ends at 4.30, so I'm going home, right?
Like, and again, it's not always about putting more hours in or whatever,
but you want, like, that perfectly polished, like, there's this, this image, I think,
in a lot of people's heads, and I just love the way, this idea of sticky floor just completely resonates.
I just love it. It, it's like, there's so many people that wait until they're this perfectly polished version of themselves and
I think any company that you actually want to work for that leader is looking at you going
I know that's not who you really are because that's who no one is right like I want to see the dirty
Grimy version of you that's gonna come in on a Tuesday after you just you know you had you went home
And you had 15 things going on at home
And you didn't get any sleep because you got a baby and you know and you and you show up on to what's that version?
Are you gonna give me and if I believe that that version is gonna push through and be good for us even despite?
You're not at a hundred percent. I want you so you know what you want you want a teammate, right?
You want a teammate who's not gonna walk off the floor and be like we're losing I'm out of here
That's what we want in business somebody who want a teammate who's not gonna walk off the floor and be like, we're losing, I'm out of here. That's what we want in business.
Somebody who's a teammate, you know,
you can say somebody who's in the foxhole with you,
but that was, that's something in ESPN
that I really embraced because stuff goes wrong
on live television all the time.
And I always wanted to be, and I was,
the teammate who was like, okay, you do that, I will distract them over here while we get this in on time so it can make air.
And that's what you want. You want somebody who's gonna be like,
let's figure this out. Maybe let's even think outside the box.
Yeah. So if someone's listening to this and they're doing maybe a little self-awareness,
and they're like, man, how do you break free of the sticky floor?
If that's a problem that you have, how do you start to break free of that mentality?
Okay, you ready?
Yes.
You go fail.
Ah.
You go fail as often as you can.
I was so worried all the time about being rejected and failing that I had to seek out opportunities
to fail. I literally sought them out, Ryan. There was a network that I wanted to do some
work for freelance, and I knew that the person who hired was a bully. I'd heard it from everybody.
He was just a bully and demeaned people. So I went in, interviewed with him as expected.
He was dismissive, whatever, whatever, didn't want me.
Fine.
That was the safest place for me to go back time and time and time again to get rejected.
So I remember every time I saw him at a press conference or whatever, I would reach out
like a crazy person and be like, hey, how are you?
Annemarie Anderson, we talked before, is today the day you're going to hire me?
And he was like, no, what?
And then I'd see him three months later, hey, Anne Marie Anderson, today the day, today
the day.
I kept doing that because every time, right, he says, no, I don't want to hire you.
That rejection got less, less of a sting.
Sure enough, a year and a half later, he came up to me and said, hey, today's the day. I'm going to hire you. I worked for him. He was dismissive and a bully
and everything I thought, you know, that we were going to be there did the work. And then he came
back later and said, hey, I want to use you again for something. And then I could pass and say,
no, it's not the environment I want to work in. But it's about setting yourself up time and time again to desensitize yourself
to those fears and failures and rejections.
It's practice, right? It's just crazy, but it's practice. Go swing for the highest thing
first. If you have a bunch of things you want to accomplish and then there's the big thing,
do that one first so you can fail at that and then come back around. Do you think that it's
insecurity ego like what are the
characteristics that you know that we that we all deal with that
Maybe stop us from doing what you did because because I think a lot of people listening I think a lot of people are listening nodding going what she said and what she did makes a complete sense yet
I think less than 1% of the people listening would probably do what you did to get that opportunity.
So, what are some of the things that maybe, again, we're thinking, we're self-evaluating here as you're talking through this idea of audacity and sticky floor,
like, what are some of the things that could be holding us back?
Is it, if I do that, people are going to judge me?
Is it, I don't want my ego to get hurt?
Is it that I just doubt I'm good enough to get that job?
Like, what are those limiting beliefs?
It's all of those things, but more than anything,
the overriding is that you're putting somebody else's evaluation of you as law, right?
They say no, and therefore I must not be good enough.
Like I'm not gonna buy that from somebody.
I may not be ready right now, whatever,
but it's, you know, who are you listening to?
Is it your inner critic who says,
now that's the third time you got rejected,
so I'd give this up if I were you.
Just go in the closet, sit down, and you know, it's just, you have to think about who's evaluation. Yes, you're afraid, right?
You're afraid of being exposed, being judged, being embarrassed, you know, whatever, whatever
it is. So go be exposed, judged and embarrassed. I mean, that's the quickest way to desensitize
yourself. And then you have to think about like am I saying this is a something on my This is an evaluation my failure means I'm not worthy of something
Like that's silly. You're trying to do something new. I tend to give these little monologues to my children when we're in the car
They love that don't they? Yeah
I mean I did have this mo this like parenting moment of bliss where my younger son said something about a game
Negative about himself and my older son turned around and like bop bop bop like like in a non accusatory way and like
But it was like something I had said to him. You know what I mean?
He's like he's like you're better than that like never let your coach tell you you can't do you know, whatever and then he turned
Around I like sat there for a second. I was like, Oh my God, they're listening. Like they are listening. Um,
I know. And Ryan, you, I had the craziest thing happen this summer is while I have
three kids, right? 2017 and 12. So I had, uh,
a network this year, which is super bizarre this far in my career.
And the head of the network said, no, I don't like your voice. And I was like,
okay, like what do you, what do you want me to do? Like, you don't like my voice, there's nothing I can do.
So I was annoyed, right, that this opportunity
got taken away because one person didn't like my voice.
Like I've never had that in my career.
So, and watch this, now a bunch of people will be like,
actually I don't like your voice either.
But, and I was having dinner with my 20 year old that night
and he and I got together and I got frustrated. I got teary and I was having dinner with my 20 year old that night and he and I got together and
I got frustrated.
I got teary and I was like, this is ridiculous.
Like seriously this far in?
That's the thing.
My son listened about a week later.
He said, mom, can we go have lunch?
I'm like, sure.
Teenager asked you to have lunch.
You're like, for sure.
I'm going to have lunch.
And I had been telling him like, it kind of shook my confidence that thing.
Like, is there something wrong?
So here's what's so wild.
When the kids get older, we sat down at lunch and he goes, look, I wanted to have lunch
with you because I needed to talk to you about something.
And I thought, did you just call a meeting with your mother?
Like, are we having a meeting now?
And he looks at me and he goes, I don't understand how you can let somebody you've never even
met shake your confidence.
He's like, Mom, I'm a confident guy.
I haven't done anything yet.
You're confident.
You got awards and other things.
Like, are you kidding me?
And he goes, Mom, you're a killer.
Okay, you're a killer.
And I'm thinking, am I being coached up by my own child right now?
Like, Ryan, that's your future.
It was the wildest thing.
Cause I'm listening to him and then I'm like,
yeah, you're right.
I am a killer.
I am a killer.
Rejection means nothing.
But when they start flipping around,
like that's your satisfying moment.
It was wild.
Oh, what amazing.
That's like a life.
That's like something you'll remember the rest of your life.
What a tremendous moment.
Yeah.
It's, you know, I grew up in a very kind of poor environment. I had good parents, but they kind of were just getting by.
You know, we just, I wasn't getting life lessons in the car, right? It was like, you know, I was, it was kind of latchkey style.
When I explained the way I was raised to my children, they look at me and they're like, what?
I'm like, yeah, like practice would end and I would just sit there until either grandpa
or grandma came to pick me up.
I had no idea when they were showing up.
You know what I mean?
Like I would just sit there and they're like, cause my kids, if you're not there five minutes
early, they're having a, you know, they're like, oh my God, you know?
I totally know.
So, you know, I didn't get these lessons.
So I feel this obligation to kind of give them some of these life lessons. And one of the things I say to them all the time is like, never let someone else dictate your future.
Like, never let them. It doesn't mean they can't or won't push you in certain directions, but
it's all that only applies if you then stop, right? If you if because of that you stop,
but if you keep going and keep pushing,
eventually you're gonna move past that person.
And you know, that, that is such a hard lesson
to get into people because I think, you know,
it feels like everything is caught on camera today.
And if you do see, you know, we see, you know,
you see someone who maybe you respect has a bad moment
and now all of a sudden that bad moment
is plastered everywhere,
and it's all anyone's talking about,
and it feels like everything is on display.
And, you know, I sit to them, I go,
if you knew, because they really like Kobe Bryant,
they love Kobe Bryant, which, thank goodness.
If they take on his work ethic and whatever it is they choose to do in their life,
they're gonna be fine.
But I'm like, if you actually dig into Kobe's life,
there's a lot of moments in there that, you know, are not bright shining moments.
Like, we see some of them on Instagram or whatever, but like, there's a lot of stuff that isn't good.
But what I said, the lesson from Kobe is not his jump shot or how he prepared.
It was that the guy literally never stopped.
Like, he just didn't stop.
Like, there was no one until his body physically
wouldn't allow him to play the game anymore. He did not stop moving forward, which is what made
him so great, you know, maybe in addition to a couple of things. And, you know, in this idea of
audacity and, you know, kind of removing ourselves from the sticky floor, you know, if you're in
front of a group or you're doing one of your workshops,
you know, how do you coach people to keep going through these moments and see past these no's
so that they do try again? They do try again. Like, you know, are there any like mantras or
mindsets or advice that you have for them so that that next no they get doesn't stop them from
continuing to pursue that thing? Absolutely. Can I tell you a little bit about Kobe first before I go there?
So my time with ESPN when I was full staff, I was Los Angeles bureau producer.
So which means I was at the forum Kobe's first day coming in, right? A teenager
drafted 17 years old and I remember because my point in telling you this is like, Kobe's
mentality was authentic and he just owned it. Being there and watching him walk in and
we're all like, I don't know, I think you're thinking at 17, he's going to kiss the ring
a little bit, he's going to hang back, which Kobe didn't do. Media ate it up, of course, but it rubbed some people wrong
on the Lakers. And watching him and his belief that he belonged there at a very
young age was really inspiring. And then watching how hard he worked when you've
got somebody that talented to work so hard to your point with all those failures and all those messy moments and
He cared that his teammates didn't like him. I mean it wasn't like he didn't care
I think he just couldn't control what they felt about him. Of course Phil Jackson came in made some changes
You know and was able to really massage that effort
But one of the things I admired about Kobe was,
to your point, you say he was never done,
even when he retired from basketball,
he was still not done.
He was gonna have the greatest sports academy.
He was going to be the greatest coach for young women.
He was gonna champion.
Like there's always that next,
that next way to be great and challenge yourself.
So when somebody is getting no's, how do you get them up to do that next no?
You have to convince them that no means not yet or next, and that it's a comma, and it's
just going to redirect you.
There is no no that is final in my mind in any way.
If you don't think I can do it, okay, well, you don't think I can do it. Maybe I still
think I can do it until the data proves me wrong, in which case I'll go in a different direction.
Yeah, it's funny when you talk to athletes, entrepreneurs, anyone who's had a successful
career, when you dig in and you have that casual, off-the-cuff conversation,
you never hear the stories where they won.
Those are never the stories that they tell.
I had this idea for a company and I raised this money,
and then I blew it here, and this didn't work, and the market changed,
and I made this mistake, and this fell apart.
But in my next company,
I fixed that problem, and it's funny,
so many people avoid loss, avoid loss,
play it safe, sit back, the sticky floor,
I'm not ready, yet, when you,
and I'm blessed to be able to have this platform
and bring on incredible people like yourself, right,
and they tell these stories,
they always only wanna talk about the mistakes they made.
Because it's like they wear those as the badges of honor, not the accolades and the awards
and the exits.
They want to talk about the places where they messed up and those are the badges of honor.
And I think that message is just, it's like, if the most successful people and whatever
it is you do wear their losses as their badges of honor, Why is it that you avoid loss at all costs, right? Like it just doesn't it doesn't line up
No people think that staying the same is safe
Somehow I always say I have I don't have FOMO
I have FOSS like the fear of staying the same
Because the only thing that staying the same insurers is that no growth is possible, right?
If you're the same you're is that no growth is possible. Right? If you're the same, you're like, you're
definitely not going to grow. And it's interesting hearing you talk about that because yeah,
the story that I always tell when people are like, oh, you've been on television and doing
this for, you know, decades and decades. And I'm like, yeah, my first time ever on live
television, I was supposed to be like regional football sidelines in the Mountain West. Someone got sick, things got changed around. And so my very first time
on live television was on ESPN2, which was opening weekend of college football. At that
time, ESPN2 was in 70 million homes. I was losing my mind outside the stadium, crying
to my husband at the time, like just what
you want in your reporter, like tears coming down.
And it was like, what's the worst that could happen?
And I was like, oh my God, you want to know the worst?
I could be so bad that not only will I never be allowed on air again, but I will lose my
producing job and I could lose my entire career in television over this.
And if I lose my career, I'm going to be a miserable person.
And if I'm a miserable person, you'll have to leave me because I won't be able to be
a good mother to our children who aren't even born yet.
And I could die destitute and alone, Matt.
That's what could happen.
And he was like, come on, like really?
But when you catastrophize the whole thing, sometimes that will be enough to snap you
out of like, okay, I'm probably not going to die. I'm just afraid that I'm going to be bad, exposed, judged and embarrassed.
And then I went on and I was bad, exposed, judged and embarrassed. And I survived. And
I got up the next week and did it again. And yeah, I had friends who were like, oh, that's
yeah, not good. Are you sure you want to do this? And I was like, yeah, I do So I just did a TEDx talk two weeks ago
Congratulations. Thank you. It was a
It was a really cool experience, but I've probably done
North of 350 keynotes in my life. I've been doing it for 15 years
Rarely do I get I get that energy that you get when you're going to be in front of an audience,
but I don't get the anxiety anymore.
Right.
But for this talk, all of a sudden, it was like the first time all over again,
where my like, muscles are tense, my, I can't, you know, I can't remember sections,
like, like I just was, you know, all of a sudden I became, I reverted all the way back to that first time.
And I'm pacing in the lobby outside, I'm reading my notes as if reading them again for the thousandth time is gonna get them into my brain.
And I'm doing exactly what you just said, right? I mean, here I am, this deep into my career, and I'm all the way back to like, I'm gonna skip this section, and then I'm not gonna hit this point, and then I'm gonna mess up this experience that I've been working on for a year,
that I've been, you know, blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah, and then I'm like going through this whole thing,
and finally I like sat down, and thank God I had a very good friend who came to the event and was just sitting in the audience,
and he looked at me and he's like, dude, you gonna do great. And like I had this moment of like,
the only reason I feel this way is cause just like you said,
I have catastrophized this experience and created this entire scenario
that has not happened in the future of all these things.
And as soon as I like, chopped that and you know,
and thank God that he was there and he said what he said
because it was just like this awakening.
And all of a sudden I just go, well whatever's gonna happen is gonna happen here we go and you
know then went out and actually there was a slide snafu you know two slides in whoever was running
the because because like uh TEDx events are very produced so like someone's running the slides
and they after my second slide someone back on the panel must have hit a button and it went to like the main,
like went off of my slides to the backdrop that sits in between speakers, right?
So now I'm in the little red dot and my confidence monitor is now showing something that's not supposed to be there.
And I just, you know, I kind of took a pause as if I meant to, right?
I just you know I kind of took a pause as if I meant to right and it was probably
Five seconds at most maybe three seconds felt like a lifetime
But and then it went back to my slide And then I came back in and finished and it ended up being you know I was very happy with what I did
but like
It's so like literally the catastrophe happened, but if I was still in that, I love this term that you use, catastrophizing.
That's you should trademark that.
If that's not already true, you should, uh, this catastrophizing mindset.
Then I completely fall apart in that moment, right?
Cause I'm, I'm this, oh, well, this is what I expected to happen.
And it happened and blah, blah, blah.
And instead I just like took a long pause.
Like I would, if I were doing a normal keynote for a second, as if I was
gathering myself or going gonna deliver some powerful line
The big moment, yeah
Right back to it
And so it literally was the difference between what you said like instead of projecting out all these terrible things
which is which I think comes back to when we're talking about the reason why people are so afraid of no is because
They take that one no and then they create this entire timeline of
They take that one no, and then they create this entire timeline of horrible things that are going to happen from it. And it's just like, what if you did the same exercise except everything that happens after that no is amazing?
How much less do you care, right? It's such a wonderful thought.
It's hard though. I will say for people listening, they're like, yeah, this all sounds really easy.
It's hard to get that momentum, but there is a certain pride that you feel in
yourself once you have put yourself out there that really isn't attached to the
outcome.
You're like, God, I did it.
Whatever.
I bungee jumped off that bridge.
I stood in front of a crowd and delivered a speech.
Like there's this pride of like, yeah, I did that.
Yeah.
There's this pride of like, yeah, I did that. Yeah.
And oftentimes, those around us,
they respect the effort as much as they respect the win, right?
The win comes with more accolades,
but from a respect of peers and people around you,
you know, they may say like,
ooh, I wouldn't want to fail like that on TV or whatever.
Yeah. But at the same time, in the back of their head to like
But shit she did it right she put herself out there like I wouldn't have done that like that's pretty impressive
So it's almost like there's gonna be positives that come out of it
Even if you can't imagine them and there's gonna be someone you know again just to the voice point if people like your voice
They've been miserable listening to my podcast because my voice What do you want?
Yeah, but um, you know, but like there's always gonna be someone who watches that and goes yeah
She kind of messed that up
But jeez, I really like the way she did this one thing at the end like I could see that in my program
Like I really like her to me become so there's but no one would see that if you didn't do it
And I just love that right and how much do you that? Like I had a friend of mine who would always criticize people on TV, right?
And so we'd be watching something, she'd be like, oh, that was terrible and this and
that.
But did she ever do it?
No.
And I actually let that hold me back from trying because I thought she's going to judge
me.
And sure enough, like after my first time on air, she didn't call.
Like she was a good friend.
She didn't call or talk to me or anything.
And the deal is this, like 35 years later,
she still criticizes people on TV.
You know, she doesn't have her own career.
And I'm like one of those people on TV
who gets criticized and doesn't care.
And so like now I realize, oh right,
sometimes people just want to observe because they're
letting their own fears get in the way of really admiring what's going on.
Well, you don't have the three Emmy Awards that are sitting off your shoulder if you're
not willing to be out in front of people and get criticized.
Like it's just, you can't have the one without the other, right?
You didn't win those awards because every moment
from moment one to the moment that you're getting
the award was perfect.
That doesn't happen, right?
Like there's just absolutely no way.
There's no way to learn the lessons that you need to learn
if you do not have the failures.
So it's almost like we need to start,
we need to reframe our mindset from accumulating victories to accumulating failures
because to your, like one of the first things you said,
we have to detach from the outcome.
The outcome literally can't matter.
It's really wild when you make friends with fear.
And I really do mean that,
cause we've been told what, Ryan,
like push away, conquer your fears, overcome your fears.
None of that's gonna happen.
None of that, fears are always gonna be with us.
It's a natural part of the process.
So when you make friends with it,
when you bring it in and you get curious about it,
you can have a conversation with it saying,
I hear you, I get it and everything,
but you're not gonna get to make decisions for me.
You can be in the passenger seat,
but you do not get to drive.
And it changes everything. when you acknowledge the fear.
Instead of like trying to shove it down, no, no, no, I'll be great.
I'll be great.
You know what?
Maybe I may not be great, but let's give it a go.
Changes everything, recalibrating that relationship with rejection.
I had John Azeroth on the podcast a few weeks ago, brilliant neuroscience guy.
And he was talking about a slightly different topic,
but he brought up this idea that fear and excitement
light up the same neural pathways in our brain.
So he's like, if that's the case,
then literally all you have to tell your brain
is it's excitement, not fear.
Now again, easier said than done,
but he's like, your brain is acting the exact same way
as if you were completely excited and energized
with zero fear as it would, as if you have the fear,
like the same pathways are lighting up.
So just reframe that fear as excitement
and it will help take down your anxiety and your stress
because now you're energized to do the thing,
not feeling anxious to do the thing.
Sometimes I think these little mind hacks are, you know, stack enough of them on top of each other and eventually you find one that works, right? Yeah, I like that. Again, it's about like when I
feel that now, that nervousness or anxiety, I do get fired up. And that sounds crazy, just knowing how shy I was
and everything, but I'm like, oh boy, here it comes.
Do you feel that?
Like I literally would talk to myself, do you feel that?
Okay, here we go.
Like fear is an invitation to grow.
And that is, it took a lot of convincing of myself
and that's something I try to go through in the book
and explain to people, here's your four barriers
that stand between you and the thing you wanna do.
It's usually fear, time, money, or your inner critic.
So dig into each one, and I don't just tell people,
you should, did a game, I show you how to dig in,
step by step through, and then how to reevaluate
going forward so that you keep yourself with that,
right on that level of like, anxiety, energy, excitement,
fear.
Yeah.
And I think a little bit of fear is a good thing.
Right?
Like, it keeps you leveled.
Like, if you were taking on a big task,
like if I had approached that TEDx talker,
you had approached, you know, your first time on live TV was zero fear.
Well, now you might approach it cavalier, you might miss something, like
there's a reason fear is in our body and it's not always a negative, right?
It heightens our senses, it makes us more aware, it dials us in and focuses us.
I mean, you know, when you're truly scared, you're as focused as focus gets.
So these are all really positive things, especially when you're engaging in a really strong moment. Like, you know, to believe that you should be void of fear, I think, is completely misunderstanding
the way your body works and the way your brain works.
Absolutely.
And I think, too, like, people get so worried, right, about what others will think.
And what I tell people when they're trying to figure it out
is to swing for the fences, sell things.
And I say, look, we all remember the guy at the bar,
the guy at the bar who would ask one woman
after another woman after another woman out
until somebody said yes.
Like he didn't dwell on any of those rejections.
He just went on to the next and on to the next
until somebody said yes.
I'm like, sorry, you gotta be the guy at the bar sometimes
and be like, this is a no. I think I sent out, I always show my oldest son because he
only sees the victories. Mom, you're killing it. You got that and you got this and you
got a number one new release. And so I'll show him, I'll send him the rejections and
I will also send him, hey, it's Monday morning and I got 50 emails I can pose that are going
out to various conferences and this and that.
I might get three responses and one booking out of it.
You know?
It definitely is.
The people who achieve things.
They, they, this, this mindset that you have addressed in your book and this idea of audacity, like there are so many stories of some of the most, most widely read, most, most, most award-winning books.
And they'll be like, 17 rejections, 59 rejections, 37 rejections, right? And it's like, and people don't ever, they just think,
well, the first, you know, he must have had publishers banging down his door, or she must have had, you know, the first publisher she sent it to picked it up and it's like one that's almost never the case and two
It's it's just this
there's also something to and and and you know,
tell me how you feel about this like
Sometimes that that gatekeeper to the thing that you want to do
Part of their process is to see if you'll come back like they may even think you're a good fit
is to see if you'll come back. Like they may even think you're a good fit,
but tell you no to see if you'll try again,
because it's that resilience and commitment
that goes, okay, she's a primetime player.
Like I told her no, even though she knows
she probably was qualified for this,
she came back again despite the no,
I got a winner.
Like it's a gatekeeping tactic for some people,
to see if you're willing to do it.
And if you give in, well now you've just played right
into what they were trying to filter out.
Even if you were the perfect fit for that job.
Yep.
I mean, when I applied to ESPN when I was 21,
I was rejected.
I went in, had the interview with them.
They asked me to analyze the Mariners bullpen.
This is before Randy Johnson was in the bullpen. And I froze. I didn't know how to do that, how
to overcome it. Twenty-one, they were very polite. They saw, you're not what we're looking
for. And I was like, okay. And I drove back to New York and I was steaming mad at myself,
not at them, because I choked. And I was like, how do you choke? And so I wrote a letter
back to them. And it was a pretty audacious letter in hindsight, where I said, I don't
think I did a very good job showing what I could add. You have a million guys who could
do stats, spit out stats and numbers and this and that. Here's what I can add. And I had
already worked in television. And they ended up hiring me for a six-month temporary job, working six at
night to three in the morning, six days a week, Mondays off for $15,000 a year. And
I thought, wait a second, what if I had never gone back? What if I had accepted that first
no? I've got my entire life, my entire career has been in sports television, most of it
with ESPN. So like, what if I had accepted that first no?
Like what would my life look like?
Something that I've pulled from our conversation today
is a general sense of self-awareness.
Like you seem to evaluate yourself,
your performance in both the moment and maybe who you are.
Like where do you think, like is that a learned trait?
Do you think it's innate to you that you're self-aware?
Do you think this is something you have developed this ability to say because I don't think a lot of people would drive back
And be mad at themselves
Maybe a little but I think a lot of people would then spin into well
They just didn't see what I could do and I got all this potential and blah blah blah right like I was a college athlete
like of course like I think it instead instead you're driving back mad at yourself
and willing to write them a letter and say,
you know, this wasn't my best performance,
I know I can do better and here's the take that,
given another opportunity, I could give you this,
like there's an incredible amount of self-awareness
that goes into that.
So is it learned, is it not?
And if it is learned, how does someone who maybe struggles with self-awareness that goes into that. So is it learned, is it not? And if it is learned, how does someone
who maybe struggles with self-awareness today,
if they struggle with self-awareness,
maybe they don't know that they struggle with self-awareness,
but if they did, let's say,
how could someone maybe possibly work being more self-aware
into their lives?
What I always thought was they can't fire me
because they haven't hired me yet.
So whenever I'm in that situation throughout the last 35 years, then it's like, let's go.
Like I get excited when somebody hasn't hired me.
Then I'm like full swing.
I get more tentative when I'm already working for them and I'm thinking, Oh, is this a,
is this a good idea?
So for me, I did teach myself to get excited at the word no. No meaning not
yet or next. Like I had to tell myself, here's an opportunity. I like being the underdog
anyway. And so, you know, being a woman in sports television back in the late 80s and
early 90s, like, yeah, you're definitely an underdog. But I think it's about looking at
what's the worst that could happen?
I mean, I do, I believe in catastrophizing it
and teaching yourself that there's opportunity
and all these no's and all these rejections.
I did teach myself that.
And part of it is the ability to compete.
I mean, people who shy away from competition
really have a hard time in business and in life and in getting hired. I mean, I want to hire somebody
who's willing to take a risk, fail, take direction. That's a big one, right? Not that you just
know everything and move forward. That's what excites me. And, Marie Anderson, the book is cultivating audacity.
This has been a tremendous conversation. I have absolutely adored it.
And I think, you know, this is, your book is a playbook for what we've talked about today.
For stepping outside of yourself, for moving forward, for making those big moves.
We'll absolutely, guys, have a link to the book in the show notes or YouTube description wherever
you're watching or listening.
But where else can people get more of you and get deeper into your world?
Do you have a newsletter or whatever?
Where can people kind of connect with you and go deeper?
Yes, thanks.
My website's the best place to start.
AnneMarieAnderson.com.
There's an E on the end of Anne.
You can get the first chapter of Cultivating Audacity
there for free so that you can kind of see
how it works a little bit.
And then I'm not just telling you to go for it,
but I'm gonna help you show you how.
And then you'll find me on Instagram.
Certainly there's a newsletter you can sign up
on apologetically audacious.
You can find that on the website as well.
I love it.
Thank you so much.
We appreciate your time and wish you nothing but the best going forward.
Thank you for having me, Ryan.
Great conversation.
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