The Squeeze - Anna Sitar: Protecting Your Peace

Episode Date: April 1, 2026

In this week’s episode, Tay sits down with influencer Anna Sitar! Anna opens up about navigating burnout and how she’s been working through those feelings, sharing the shifts she’s made to better prioritize rest and protect her energy. She talks about the importance of dreaming big and going after things that feel impossible, while also getting real about dealing with haters on social media and the moments imposter syndrome still creeps in. Anna reflects on the power of celebrating the little wins, what she’s still figuring out as she enters her 29th year, and the exciting things she has coming up next. She also revisits the Lemon 7 and compares her answers to the last time she was on the podcast, and shares the one thing she would go back and tell her younger self. And to close out the episode, Tay shares an exciting life update of her own!Be sure to follow Anna https://instagram.com/annaxsitar/!To email us your questions or share your story, you can reach out to [e-mail] sure to rate, review, and follow the podcast so you don't miss an episode! Plus, follow us on all of our socials:The SqueezeInstagram: https://instagram.com/thesqueeze/TikTok: https://tiktok.com/@thesqueezepodcastTay LautnerInstagram: https://instagram.com/taylautner/TikTok: https://tiktok.com/@mrstaylautnerAmazon Storefront https://urlgeni.us/amazon/FDXj7 Taylor LautnerInstagram: https://instagram.com/taylorlautner/TikTok: https://tiktok.com/@taylorlautnerTo learn more from The Lemons Foundation, follow https://instagram.com/lemonsbytay/ and visit https://lemonsbytay.comEpisode Sponsors:Spark Energy + Focus is offering 30% off and free shipping. Go to drinkspark.com and use code SQUEEZE at checkout. Find your favorite flavor at PremierProtein.com. Instead of striving for perfect health, aim for supporting foundational health. Save 25% on your first month at Ritual.com/THESQUEEZE.Try Gatorade Lower Sugar Today! Available on Gatorade.com and in-store nationwideWarby Parker gives you quality & better-looking prescription eyewear at a fraction of the going price. Our listeners get 15% + Free Shipping when they buy 2 or more pairs of prescription glasses at WarbyParker.com/SQUEEZE.MB014GJJJKQV82RSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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shot and grabbed whoever's was right in front of me and took off running. They were recording. So the footage is me being like, help me. This is because it was fun. I took the only one I don't know the password too. I can do anything I put my mind too. No, I don't know if you feel like I'm like, you do too. Okay, love. Wait. That's like her pice series, watch girlies. And you know what? If I fail, watch me get back up and do it 10 times right the next time around. Sometimes I feel like the internet can be such a place of hot and cold. Being a creator and watching the algorithm, drama does so well. To me, I get so exhausted by it a little bit. I don't want to have to be doing something insane in order for it to

reach new audience versus being comfortable in my skin, comfortable where I am, loving the people who have already followed me, creating for the joy of it. It made me realize how cool people are that you don't know exist. There are people out there doing the coolest things you never see on the internet. You speak into existence the life that you want to create. Oh, I feel guilty and I'm not doing good enough and I'm not enough and no one thinks about this. Then like that is the world that you're going to create for yourself. I even think I'm still working on that now on like speaking good over myself and over like the life that I'm living. I know you have loud thoughts. If only you could hear them. You probably can if you get close enough to me. Is that? Yeah. No.

They're lying to her. I have some fun news to tell you. Okay. I'm ready. Okay. If you're weak is going anything like mine, let's just pause for a moment and take a deep breath in and out because I have been needing some breathing, grounding. techniques this week. But happy Wednesday. I'm so happy that you guys are here for another week. This episode I'm super excited about because Anna Satar is back on the podcast. She was one of our first guest almost three years ago, which is like so crazy that I've even known her that long. She's become such a dear friend of mine. If you don't know who Anna is, she is a content creator, podcast host, and influencer best known for her extremely positive storytelling driven content. And her brand really just stands out. I feel like from a lot of other influencers

because she's really rooted in intentional optimism, vulnerability, and making everyday life feel meaningful. Anna is such a light in my life. And I feel like every time I see her, I am so inspired to just live life and be creative and to take risk. She just has that energy about her that just draws you in and makes you want to be a better human. I can't wait for you guys to hear where she's at now. we compare in Lemon 7 her answers from three years ago to now. It's so special. And I also have a little surprise for her at the end of the episode. Guys, why am I already excited for Christmas?

That just like made me feel very like. No, what are you saying that? I was like, wait. And is it almost October? Please say yes. No, I know. I've been like, I've been like stressing a little bit because it's like almost April. I feel like.

Oh. Like normally I feel like the year goes by quick. But I don't know exactly what happened this year. Like I feel I'm, I feel like I'm behind. but I have nothing, I'm not behind. This is like the epitome of I feel like my mental health right now. Okay, great. Yeah.

I love it. Like, I feel like I'm like so stressed and I'm like, I don't know where the time went. Like I finally, this is the first year and I feel like Meg can attest this that I've like actually had downtime. Yeah. And like, but it's made me feel so stagnant. Like there was like the first week of it. I was like, oh my God, rest. And now I'm like, I am so behind and everyone else is prevailing and I haven't done anything this year and I'm falling apart and I'm turning 29 and like what is my life.

And like, I've always like the last. two years I've like, I'm like, I'm an incubator years. Like my last years have been like my ideation years. And so I felt like this year was like my year. But then I look at April and I'm like, have I missed the whole year? Yeah. Am I a failure? I know. That's so real. It's the worst. I mean, what better way to welcome you back to the spot? And you know what? And with that, welcome back. It's, we were just talking. It's been almost three years since you've been here. That's so, that's like sad, but also crazy. I know. And also I feel honored to get to be back. That's like so cool.

You're welcome anytime. I feel like a serious regular, you know? Now I'm like not a one timer. I'm a two timer. Oh my gosh. That's wild. So we still start our episodes the same. We have a jar.

I love the jar. It's called Sitters Got Real. If you want to pull a piece of paper out of there. A piece of paper anywhere from any of them? Yeah. Do you have like a preference? I feel like I had a really strong intuition to this one. Okay.

Let's see what she says. Oh, if you're, wow. Can I tell you some crazy? My therapist asked me this yesterday. If your 16 year old self met you to what would surprise them most? Isn't that really great? She asked me like a reversal.

She was like, I was talking about how much I'm like proud of a younger version of myself. And she's like, but do you think your younger version of yourself will be proud of you now? Like do you think and I'm kind of like in the moment I was like, I don't know. I feel like she would think she could have always done it. But me sitting here now, I'm like, how the hell did she do it? Yeah. You know? What would surprise them most?

Honestly, probably just like my job. Yeah. Like what I do for work. And maybe that like, I feel like I always like being creative, but maybe like that I actually have the chance like meet people every day around it. I think she'd be really excited about that. Yeah. So. Oh, I love that. What about your 16 year old self? Yeah, maybe the same. Um, I feel like, I feel like I've recently found over the past like, a few months, like such a contentment in life. Love. Um, which I think is like, like, part

Continent partial me like being stressed that I'm behind with stuff but like just like where I'm at like in life with my marriage with my friends like it's just like everything just like feels so like great like it's just like I'm so like happy and fulfilled and like content with where I'm at in life which I think my anger self would be like happy with like there's just like so much peace I feel in life it's hard to get there too I feel like you never like know when that switch flips where you're like okay everything is actually like doing better and I'm feeling okay yeah it's so true um we were talking about going into um our 29th years it's our 29th years birthday girls are you are you like Pisces then you're not Aries or are you Aries I'm a Pisces okay okay oh when's the cut when's the cut when's the cut off do you know I think the 21st okay was so it just like yeah I actually don't know because I don't really know that stuff so yeah all I know is that I'm a Pisces all I know is that I'm a fire sign that sometimes like they're shocked people or they're like yeah makes sense I get both I I I've actually never shocked someone I've they say Pisces and they say Pisces and go, yeah. Yeah. Yeah. All right. That's all. That's all I got. But how are you feeling going into

the 29th year when this comes out next Wednesday? Oh, wait. It will have just my birthday. Yes. Yeah, you'll be 29 when this comes out. Wait, it'll be April fools. Should we try to fool everybody with something? Oh. That will come at the end of the episode. Stay tuned. How will I be feeling? I feel funny enough, I like feel the same in terms of contentment. Like I feel like I'm, I'm looking forward to a lot of different things that are coming up in my life and just work related. But for the first time, I feel like I've started to find a balance this year with like work and my personal life. That's something I don't think I had whatsoever at the earlier stages of my 20s or especially when I first started growing online. Yeah. I feel like my brain was 100% work, work, work all the time.

That's the only way to stay relevant. The only way to stay in the know, in the mix, being able to like be on the top of everyone's for you page. And now in the last two years, I would say, I'm. And, I feel like as maybe in my world, it feels like the social media space is slowed down. I feel like I've like reached my community. I can almost like just continue to enjoy what it is to create and not feel like I'm in this hamster wheel of having to grow and reach new audience and how am I reinventing myself over and over and over again. It's more of just like looking for little things every day that bring me joy.

Yeah. I actually feel that in your content. Like I feel like you're one of like the only people that like I don't feel like you're ever like reaching. for something like with your content like I feel like it's all like just like all everything you're like living out but it's like organically you thanks yeah I feel like like like like I want to be like comfort like I want to be like people's safe place so they can like come and feel like themselves or be inspired to do something new or encourage to try something new but not I don't know sometimes I feel like the internet can be

such a place of hot and cold or like I truly like being a creator and watching the algorithm I just feel like drama does so well. And to me, I get so exhausted by it a little bit. That it's like I don't want to have to be doing something like insane in order for it to like reach new audience versus being comfortable in my skin, comfortable where I am. Loving the people who have already followed me. Creating things that bring them joy, creating things that bring me joy. Like just enjoying what I already have, I think. Like gratefulness I think is something that I'm like finally starting to like feel for it versus feeling this like sense where I have to be hustling all the time to be for sure.

at like the forefront or something. How do you feel like your experience with burnout is? Because we kind of touched on it when you were here three years ago. Yeah. I wonder what I said three years ago. I know. I should have like, I technically for the end of the episode, we have our same segment at the end.

Oh, cute. I have your old answers. Wait. Wait. Wait, I'm so excited to hear. Okay, that's so good to know. Transparently right now. My burnout is kind of at an all time high.

Okay. I feel like I'm like in my, as much something. like, oh my gosh, like not feeling like I'm in it. You have like, like I feel like that comes in such waves. Yeah. It's something that I remind myself of daily. But the act of actually, it's like when you can give really good advice, but you can't take your own. That's, that's why I am in a nutshell.

That's me. Um, and that's the advice I'm struggling to take. I think right now I just feel like, I don't know. I've like tried to talk about it in therapy honestly and been like I just feel like right now, I don't a hundred percent know what I'm doing. still. And I think three years ago, I would have been like, oh, my God, no, I know exactly what I'm doing. I know my goal. I know my pipeline and I'm sticking in it. And right now I'm kind of having this almost decision paralysis where I just, there's so many options. And I don't know how I've,

I mean, like the longevity of a lifestyle creator's career on average is nine months, which is kind of insane. Like a lifestyle creator normally has like the expectancy of being like online and having like a really successful time of it for nine months. I'm at, six years. And so like there comes a point where it's like how many more stories can I tell? Like what do I have to give really? And I think that I've been struggling with that a little bit that I have spent the last six years really giving like into creating versus getting to live things firsthand. And I think I'm still a little bit stuck in feeding an algorithm and trying to still create content consistently because you take a day off, your videos will do bad and then you feel like you're

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there's so many different things that I like want to do and I know you're the same. Yeah. That I like different things I want to try or like going to and like they don't even feel like. like they're in the same wavelength either, so it also makes complicated where I'm like, am I spreading myself thin or am I wasting my time by not focusing my energy on one thing? Yeah. No, and I don't know what, I don't really know what the answer. What's a dream of yours? Like, what's an extension dream of yours that you have right now? Oh. Um, um, um, recently, randomly. Um, I really have been wanting to get into the documentary film space. Oh, love. Yeah. Yeah. I was talking to Taylor about it because obviously I'm married to an actor. So like he gets it a little bit. Yeah, I'm like fully

in. Well, actually my one dream is to be on the pit. I do Taylor that I have to start acting because no, you need to like actually so obsessed with the show. I feel like that's like me with Grace Anatomy. Like if there I've gone to audition once for Grace Anatomy and I'm still like if somebody has a role, give it to me. I'll be the best dying girl you'll ever get. No, I'm like I'll be the I'll be the nurse that like says one thing that's just like. It exits. Yeah. That's just like in the yard floating around. Like a cameo. Yeah. I feel you could totally do that. And it's not it's just I know. I can do it. You could.

I could do it. I love that. And I know the, I know the lingo, so it'd be fine. That's definitely, like, a dream of mine,

but one that I have no clue how to, like, get into or start is, like the documentary space, because I love, I think it's kind of like the podcast. Like, I love, like,

storytelling and, like, hearing people's stories, and I love documentaries. Yeah. So I've been talking with Taylor about, like, how to do that. And he's like,

I don't know. I'm not in that space. And I was like, okay, great help. Well, That's what I think is kind of crazy is like I actually, we were in San Clement this past weekend because Bruce family comes when we're like on. They do like a snowboarding is what it's called. It's like you come from Michigan when it gets really cold there to like enjoy some warmer weather. And so they're in San Clementi right now for like a month to a month and a half. And brew and I went down to visit them. And this is so random. This is what makes you think of this. This is what makes you think of this. I don't know where to start. We went to this bar. We went to this bar. I don't know where we're like, oh, well, we're doing a school. We're like, okay, it's a $10 to come in. Like, oh, well, we're doing a school. screening tonight of like a surfing dock and we were like oh cool actually you know what like let's go then

like why not this guy literally took over the bar invited 40 of his friends and screened his own dock that he made himself of his surfing journey and like what it was like built like he built us like a fishing boat and then is also like a surfer and so he did this dock of just like what boating and fishing and like being connected to the ocean means to him literally like him and his two buddies got up there were like the three of us the ones that made the film it took us four months like we just like filmed and edited and colored and like here's all the people who helped us and then screened at a bar with his friends and i literally was watching it first off he was surfing like 20 foot waves casually he built a boat like it took them two months to build the boat and he like built this like literally was

like pouring the resin and like building like the actual chassis of the boat and one it made me realize how cool people are that you don't know exist like there are people out there doing the coolest things that like you never see on the internet like you don't even know that they're living their best life out there doing their thing but also like gave me such an awareness for like creating for the joy of it like he has no idea where that film is going to end up he just decided to make a 20 minute short with his buddies yeah and like it's screening in a bar and he still created something and that's so cool I feel like that's so inspiring to like see that it's like sometimes the first place to start is like get together your friends and like do it yeah and I feel like that like what

I was saying I was like this is the craziest thing to be watching And they did a beautiful job. They made jokes. They were like, none of us knew what we were doing. So if you think it's ugly, don't tell us. Like they made a joke about it.

It was like, partially shot on Super A. It was partially shot with like cinema camera. So. Wow. I feel like if you had like an idea for a doc, you literally could go do it. I'm like,

how do I build a boat? Oh gosh. But so sweet. Yeah, I just feel like that's like I always think the same thing. I'm like, oh my God, I don't know where to start.

Like I feel the same where a big dream is to be an actor. Yeah. for three years and that definitely takes a toll. I feel like on the burnout a little bit where I'm like, okay, I'm still getting like callbacks and I'm still getting moments of like people want to see me. But then there's moments of like you're too old or your voice is too mature or like now you're too young. Like I had an audition for like a 40 year old and I was like, okay. Come on 40. Maybe. Maybe. I hope I look like this at 40. But so like you never know what you're getting and that I feel it can be tiring where it's like you almost have to play into another system.

like the casting system but then my brain also goes like then why aren't I writing my own thing yeah you know that's so true I feel like with acting too with like just how with how much I mean so many of my friends are actors and with how much like you're auditioning like it has to be like not that I feel like it needs to be like a side thing but I think you can dream I think I think you have to have like two parallel dreams going on at the same time 100% because if you're like like just so that the let down of like having you know three years that that that is like everyone has that yeah literally everyone has that well i think like too this is a like a huge side conversation in my brain i don't know why i have the confidence i'm like i can do anything i put my mind too like i've like

no i don't know if you feel this i but like i have like no you do too okay love wait at her piceccaries march girlies i have like the delusion it's like i will achieve whatever i put my mind. Like I'm and you know what if I fail watch me get back up and do it 10 times right the next time around. Yeah. Um, but what's really interesting with this is I think I had that delusion going into acting with the assumption that like not that it would come quickly, but I think when I first started, I was like, I'm, I have had so many roles that I'm like, this is my dream role and like I'm getting it because it's meant for me. And then when it doesn't, you're like, oh, that's like a little like sad and uncomfortable. And like I'm not really crazy about that.

I think other people experience this on so many different levels of social media. I like saw as something where like I, my social media is inspired by the life that I'm living. And so in my brain, when I even started acting, I was like, this is going to be so cool to get to show behind the scenes of being on set and what it's like learning lines and meeting your co-stars the first time. And when that dream takes a little bit longer, that means that like my social media took is like has to it be reinvented in different ways to where I'm almost like trying to withstand the peacefulness of another dream. almost are weirdly connected to. Yeah. To where like, it's like if you wanted to be a creator and you were like, okay, I'm going to start making content. I'm going to quit my job in a year. But then you're not sustainable enough in content to be able to quit your job. Then that means you have to stay at your job to like keep up the social media dream. And like when that doesn't follow through, you're like,

it makes the initial thing and not saying like, I think maybe like doing my life around an app is getting a little bit tiresome. Like I'm definitely going to a point where I'm like, cool, this is, I'm a for a long time. And like it definitely, it plays with your brain a little bit versus like the act of creating I never get tired of. Yes. But like the act of feeding something that like you really have no control over, that's getting a little like that's where I feel like I kind of struggle. And I have those two dreams like you said, like going on at the same time where I would love to see one follow through so that way it can almost alleviate maybe a little bit of the pressure that's on the social media one. And I'm sure there's like a like you were saying there's like this.

Like, not that it would make your content better, but it's like content that you would be excited about to make because you haven't made that content before. Totally. Like it would like get me to think outside the box and think differently. I feel like I've had to like think about how to make content within the same ecosystem for a long time to where that's where even I get stressed out. Then I'm like, am I boring? Am I stale? I don't know. And then those thoughts are never fun and never easy. Yeah. I don't think you are. I think those are just your thoughts. Thank you. I appreciate I know. I know you have loud thoughts. No, if only you could hear them. You probably can if you get close enough to me.

I'm like, I'm like, is just like, is that? Yeah, no, man, they're lying to her. Yeah. Something we talked about when you had your podcast, I actually say this all the time. I've actually said it like so much on this podcast, but also like doing interviews and things. you talked about how haters or you view them as people just like wanting to be included yeah can we talk about that because I actually can't tell you how much I use that and how much I like now view it as that and I like my friends that are influencers I love that advice like when they are getting paid they just want to be included yeah yeah they're just like I really genuinely believe that it's like whenever it's going from someone it's like they kind of just like looking for a way to like put their input somewhere because like they don't feel hurt in other places and also this is kind of a crazy thing that I thought about recently. I'm like working on a project where I was just like unloading this idea that when I was a kid, sometimes I thought that like the best way to get attention was to do it negatively. Like sometimes like failing made everyone way more comforting

than when you succeeded because when you succeeded, everyone's like, oh yeah, I knew you had it in you. When you fail, everyone's like, oh my God, it's going to be okay and you're going to try again. And suddenly you get like a different level of empathy than when you succeed. Like when you have like, I don't know. So I feel like I agree. in a household where success was expectation. Like straight A's were the minimum. Like that was that was what you were supposed to get. And so I kind of think that way too whenever I see a mean comment is I'm like,

they think that this is the way to be like getting attention for it. If they're not getting in other places, then like either like bringing people to a level, but also just like wanting to be included in the dialogue. And maybe they think that like thinking outside the box is the right way to do it. And even if that's like from a negative way because everyone else is being really positive. Yeah. I don't know. We've talked about, have you done the N-Gigram? Yes. I mean, you're definitely an achiever. You're a three. Three W-two or three-w-four. I get both sometimes when I take them on different days, you know? I don't know which one's the right. Because four is the creative, two's the helper. Okay. I feel like the creative one comes like to my brain when I first think about it. But yeah, maybe I'm a little, I'm a help. I could see that too, honestly.

Yeah. No, I definitely think you could swing either on both days. But have you learned, because I think we talked about this three. years ago but having that achiever mindset some friends that are close to me have that same mindset and they are literally just like replicas of you with I think I think it's partially you know maybe the environment of like growing up with the expectation of that because everyone and that was just like what was expected but also I think it's you know it's like how we're born in you yeah exactly I think it's like part of our personality yeah how how have you been able to like combat that with even, I mean, with work in general, but even like acting for example, like, because you are such like a. Yeah. How do you not take it personally? I think like, wait, I love this question because I do.

I think about this all the time. I made this joke. We don't celebrate enough like in life. I feel that way about our achievements. I think I actually as an achievement, something I've realized in the last year was that I don't celebrate when I achieve something at all. Like there is not like, like last year I got, I had the honor of making the Forbes 30 under 30 list. I don't really know that I did anything to celebrate that. And that's a huge, I like have dreamed about that for years. And when it happened,

I was like, say moved on. And like my goal suddenly shifted the next thing. Versus like basking in the enjoyment of like the achievement that you just had. I think that's something that I've noticed in the last year that I'm like trying to be really cognitive of if that's the right word. Like I. And that's why I think as an achiever just seeing getting the.

addition to me is already the first achievement. And like enjoying that that's like the first step. Getting the chance to become another person and like enjoy understanding a new character, that's an achievement. When I feel really good about memorizing the lines, that's an achievement. Like taking the wins where you can get them. And I feel the same way in like social media. I've tried to shift my brain from saying I, it's not about my output, but the effort I put in that day. That's the achievement of the day. It's not that I made 45 videos. It's that I've, I've put in the effort to make something that. I've, I've put in the effort to make something that I enjoyed. It's that I thought I was funny. It's that I, you know, had a new idea that I brought to life. And not that I just let it sit and like fester and then never acted upon it. I think that seeing the little ones, it's just why I joke like, we don't celebrate birthdays enough. That's why I celebrate all month long because you only get 80 birthdays if you're lucky. Okay, maybe a few more if you're like super lucky. But like on average, I would say you get 80 birthdays that you remember. And so that's only 80 days. Like that's not like out of 365 in one year. Like you're not even celebrating yourself for a full. And

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I'm very curious to hear your answer here. How do you incorporate rest? And what does it look like to you? Okay, I will say I think like lately my rest has been, and I'm really loving this right now, especially this month, I think, because my boyfriend's parents are visiting and they're in a different part of the city. So it involves us driving down on the weekends to kind of go hang out with them is what I've been doing the last like two or three weeks. I've been loving just like sitting on the beach and reading a book. Ooh. Like that's like three hours of like and to be honest,

it's like way too bright outside that I can't even see my phone anyway. And then it kind of forces me to like not pick it up. And I'm with everyone who I would need, you know? Like if anybody needs me, they know where I am. Yeah. But I'm not going to like rest on the day to day. I like wish I could be someone in this thing that I'm hoping to do.

I'm home alone this week while Brew is traveling. And so in the mornings when I wake up, I like film the second I get out of bed, which I normally don't do. Like normally when he's home, he has his like work routine. So he's home till 9 a.m. And then he goes to work for the day. Yeah.

So I will save any working until he's gone. Cause like I don't want to waste my time that I have with him. For sure. But now that he's away, I actually feel like I work more because I'm like, I have no distractions. Yes. Versus it's funny because he was like, oh, I hope you like are resting a lot while I'm gone and like kind of like laying low and you have no responsibility right now like where I'm relaxing. Yeah. Yeah.

Yeah. I feel like way less like I'm on my phone later at night. I'm like writing till late at night. I'm editing till late at night. And then I wake up and the first thing I do is I'm like, okay, today's a good day to do a whole vlog. Yeah. Starting at 6 a.m.

Yeah. Like, it's so funny because I, I feel the same way. If Taylor recently, he's been, like, golfing with friends or, like, he just got into playing, like, a video game with his friends, which he, like, doesn't really do. And he, like, just started and they're, like, obsessed with it. Wait, we're going to circle back to video games after this and can, but tell me. Um, but it's nice because, like, I'm also, like, only child brain. so I like need alone time.

Yeah. But like he's out of the house for like four hours and I'm like, I'm like, oh, I can like do so much. But I'm like, he's not like, we're not really like hanging out because we're both home all day. So like it's not like I could couldn't do those things. But there's just something when like your partner's gone. Yeah. It's like not like exciting, but it's like, oh, I'm alone. I can like fill the space.

I don't know what it is. Yeah, I don't know either. Like that's the thing is I'm like, suddenly I'm like, do I take myself out on dates this whole week? I literally just did on Monday. I had some appointments down in the city and then I just like stayed and had lunch. And Taylor was like, I'll see you at 7 p.m. Yeah. I texted him.

I was like, it's so weird. Like I love being alone. Yeah. And he was like, I don't know what's wrong with you, but I love it for you. See, like the only thing is I am also someone though or after I do something alone, I immediately call my boyfriend. I'm like, oh my God, you'll never guess what I did today. And like I want to like, yeah, I'm like, he's one of the girls after it.

But like during the moment itself, I'm like, this is kind of relaxing. Like, this is nice. It's so great. I literally just like raw dog lunch and didn't. like on my phone like no headphones i just like literally sat sat and ate in silence yeah love it was good i just had a little breakfast burrito on a macha and i sat that's my dream outside i didn't eat inside there was two tables outside and i sat outside and just it's a cute little morning i feel like my morning has been walks like brew and i don't walk together right when we wake up but right now i'm like waking up early and i go on a walk

all like for an hour by myself that's good what do you listen to or okay sometimes beau i like switch between sometimes I'll just put headphones in but not play anything from them. You know? Like I'll put them in so it's like it looks like I'm listening to something but I'm not. I also feel like lately I've been like aware of being overstimulating myself like having I used to be someone who was like I had to have music on all the time. I like I like when I'm doing my makeup will leave like my TikTok open and I'll like swipe in between so like I'll listen the same video like three or four times like while I'm like doing my blush or something and I'll just like be swiping. So I have something going all the time. Um and so I'm like,

kind of practicing not having anything because random fun fact I'm doing an iron man this year and you can't listen to music during your like you can't put headphones in during the marathon so like you have to run and bike for like 10 hours and you hear nothing so I'm kind of slowly training my brain like I just ran the alley marathon and new york marathon with no music wow to like you know how was that really nice really like I could not recommend it more I actually think it's I prefer no music to listening to music what's like what's the main thought you're thinking is there a main thought like how are you like motivating yourself I don't run so that's that's also so valid that's why I'm asking I'm like what like what do you I guess I sense I actually sometimes feel like when I'm working out it's like the first time during the day that I have no thoughts I love that

like that movement is like really my brain is so present when I'm on a run like truly I'm thinking about like okay how does my body feel like I'm like check him like how's my body feel? Is this car going to hit me when I'm crossing the road? Okay. Am I thirsty right now? No, I'm doing okay. Do I have to pee? No, I'm doing okay. Okay, no ankle, no shin pain, no knee pain, no hip pain.

Okay, I'm a little tired. Okay, my heart rate's a little high. Like, you're so weirdly present because you're just, like, checking yourself a little bit while you're running. And, like, also, I think a big thing that I noticed during the marathons was I, I, like, my first, I've run four in the last year. And the first two, I listen to music. and I think like I hit really weird like tunnel vision pockets where everyone talks about this thing called the wall during a marathon or like where you bonged which means you run out of energy means you didn't take like your gels off enough or like you didn't suffer enough water and your body pretty much like gives out. But when you hit the wall it's kind of like this mental thing where you're like for a second like oh my God can I do this like am I capable of this and I did not hit the wall on either of my last marathons and I think it's literally because I like kept my eyes looking ahead of me and not looking at the ground in front of me. And that's such a just silly thing to say but like when I'm looking around I'm reading signs I'm giving high fives I'm talking to the other runners I'm like oh my god the weather is so nice like that's the first thing I go

to and I'm like on a run and everything sucks I'm like okay but I will also this is actually the one thought I will say that I'm always thinking when I'm on a run and I start to hate it I'm like you this is the only time you will ever experience this ever again period it will never be the same as what it is right now and I kept thinking about funny enough during New York I would just like there's a chance I never get a chance to run that marathon again because it's hard to get bibs to New York. And like for the first moment during the run, when like something to start hurting, I'm like, but I will only get to be here for four hours if I'm lucky, you know? Like I will get four hours on this course and then I'll never walk these streets the same way again.

Wow. So like, that's where my brain is. I love that. I was like literally so like walked in. I forgot we were like fully filming a podcast. I was like there. Like I was like, were you picturing being on the streets of LA during the. the marathon or the streets of New York during the marathon. I was like fully like I think it was more so I was like imagining it was you and you were running and I was like seeing you funny enough. I was too like while I was telling that I actually remember exactly when I had the moment sad enough it's when I lost my camera I was having that moment because I was I lost my camera during the New York City Marathon and I was slightly crap like during when I was like bro it's gone like what do I do I do I turn

run back up the course like a part of me considered that but like the the likelihood someone didn't already step on it was zero you know what I mean there's So many people. And so in that moment, I can either freak out and lose my phenomenal mental facing or I accept that like maybe this happened on purpose and I was meant to live in the moment and no content wasn't meant to exist from this day. And what's crazy is I've never been more present during like, I can see exactly the buildings of like that moment when I had that realization. I was like, I got one more hour left in this run and I'm not going to like let it slip away. I'm going to enjoy it. And then I went to the Bronx and then I came back down and then we entered

Central Park. And that was the biggest stupid hill I've ever seen in my life. And then I saw my family and I yelled at them asking for a cell phone. And that is one thing that I do regret on that marathon. The footage of it is not hilarious. It's so embarrassing because I had a lot. Okay, hang on. I am actually going to yap about this for one second. I lost my camera.

And as I've contributed, my first brain is, oh my God, I have no way to capture us crossing the finish line or getting our medals. And you kind of don't know what the end of a marathon looks like when it's over. You know, like, you don't know how long it is to see your family.

You don't know who's going to be there. So we're at Central Park. We are like one mile left, maybe in the run. And I see my family on the side and I've lost the camera. And my only thought is I need to get someone's cell phone. Like I need to, someone needs to give me my, someone has my phone too, but mind you,

because they're supposed to be filming on it for me during the day. I get there. I look at the lineup. It's my dad's iPhone 12, my so-and-so's iPhone this. And I literally like, can someone give me a phone? And I was still like racing. I'm putting that in quotes because I'm not a fast runner. But in my brain I was still trying to PR.

So I'm like, I'm not thinking I can stop for 30 seconds to yak about this. I'm also thinking my legs are tired and I want to get to the finish line and like survive this. I kid you not. I was like, someone give me a phone. And then I just reached out and grabbed whoever's was right in front of me and took it out of their hands and took off running. And it's hilarious because they were recording. Of course they were. Why weren't they?

So the footage is me being like, help me. grabs it runs. And like that's it. And I, of course, guess it was fun. I took the only one I don't know the password to the only phone I don't know that because it was Rachel's Brew's little sister. And so then also two of her cameras were broken. She was cracked into the cameras. So only the one X worked, which is actually totally fine.

But I was dying because then like I'm looking at the phone. I'm like, this is the, I pick the one phone I can't answer and like can't go in and like call my family out for the marathon because they don't have the password. And neither does brew. And I was like, this is going to be fine. And you know, my sister ended up calling the number. And I recognize the sister's phone number. So I answered the call and then that opened the phone and I got the password. And we got a video of us finishing, which was great and like pictures at the finish line.

Oh, my gosh. I don't know if any of this is really all that important, but it just feels like a very core memory for that day that I think is hilarious. No, I definitely think it is. I mean, I also think that was maybe like God being like, you really don't need the phone. No, it really could have been. Like it was such like a like a moment of just being like live presently. Yeah. Stop being so dramatic. Stop worrying about like did you get the video. Did you get the moment? And to be honest that like, yeah, I think it was like a moment of just realizing that it wasn't. It wasn't that deep. And it was like meant to be enjoyed in person. Yeah. It was cute. going into this 29th year what is something that you are still trying to figure out that you don't have the answer to you?

Oh, I still think I sit on this question of purpose a little bit. I just made a TikTok talking about that idea of like maybe the purpose is just to exist and like make a difference in the way that you can in your community or like the way that you're living or for the people around you. But I think I'm sure. trying to like still understand also maybe like what my calling is you know yeah like I really do like some people feel like for some people feel so called to like for example motherhood like some people

are like oh my god that's like what I'm supposed to be doing or like I have so many friends who are teachers who are like oh yeah my calling was like teaching or like being a doctor or like working in this way so as I feel like the things that bring me joy or the things that I feel like I'm good at are like connecting to are like in that same way just like so general that I like don't actually know how to take all of that and put it into something that matters yeah that's good I feel that so I feel that a lot I think that was like an unanswered question a bit is there any I know you can't share too many things but is there anything exciting coming up that you want to tease or I always wonder how like how I properly talk about all the thing okay for sure one thing is happening this year.

year, which I'm really excited about. I have a collaboration that I've had in the past, but in a higher level, which is exciting. So that will be happening this year. And that's been in the works for probably already six months already at least. And I'm really excited. Just like another way to be creative. And I feel like I get to be a creative director in a different way a little bit. And design and play with color and play with feeling and kind of just get something to my community that's going to hopefully make them feel really beautiful and empowered and excited and refreshed. So that's coming up within this year. And then a year from now, we have like a big, big project that I'm working on that I have

been working on for already probably the same amount of six months again, at least. But it's been kind of like in the incubator period for like two years. And so I finally just started working on it. Yeah. And I just, I feel like when I. I had talking about the idea of purpose. I had like this series for a while called Anna's Guide to Feeling Better After a Breakup that I think gave me a lot of lessons even in my own life that I didn't realize I needed to learn. And I almost feel like a year from now I'm going to be entering into my 30s.

And so I just wanted to like create something that was sort of like a love letter to my 20s and like a way to like not only like share the ways that what I've learned about life and what I've learned about myself but like also give people the chance to rediscover and like fall in love with their life again too. Yeah. That's sweet. Exciting. Well I guess we'll have to have you back. Yeah, I guess in a year from now or we have to check back. Once we can talk about those. Yeah, we can sit down together and have another like birthday episode of like us both talking about our 30s. We'll do the weekend in between us. So that way it's when you have just turned and you tell me everything you learned about turning 30 before I do.

Okay. Wait, I'm actually going to like put this in the calendar. One, two, three, break. Break. I'm putting it in the calendar. Okay. Lemon 7. This is our last little segment. This is the questions that we're going to compare to what I've answered before. Oh, I'm so excited about this part. I've been like, how do I get comfortable? Okay. In the jeans, I know. I'm like everywhere. Yes. So when you were here last, it was 11 questions. Now it's seven because Gal King said that 11 questions is too long. It needs to be less than 10. And I said, yes, ma'am. Oh. And you know what? Literally. And seven's a good number.

Yeah. Okay, so I'm going to read the question. You give me your answer and then I'll tell you what I said before. Oh gosh. Okay, okay, okay, okay. Okay, what movie or song title best describes your mental health today? My mental health today. Do you want to say horrible? The first song came to mind is The Visitor by Siena Spiro? Oh, I don't know. Okay. Sad ass song. Oh, well. Serrily sad. That's like the first song I thought of and it's like about like your love being one-sided. Why is it the first thing can mind. Okay. I was like, um, what did I say a year ago? No, it's going to be something so happy. It is so happy. Okay. I'm ready.

That one, but you can, you can pick. It doesn't need to do the first. Okay. If you don't feel it's applicable. Honestly, aperture. Oh, that's good. Like, I've got to like let the light in a little bit. Yeah.

Like that, that, that actually is a very accurate one. I like that. Okay, deal. Um, your answer is pocketful of sunshine. Oh. Oh. I don't know if I've listened to that song. since the last time we had this interview.

Not at being like, okay, period. Am I on a decline? Do we need to have a graph? Can I have a graph right here? This is my mental health right now. Over three years. Yeah, exactly. Okay.

How open are you with people in your life when struggling? Oh, I literally, I think the reason I got five phone calls during this is because on the way here I called all five members of my family. And they were all calling me back because no one picked up. Like who, why does no one care? Yeah. But they probably just thought I was calling TEP because I also do that daily. So yeah, I'm very open.

I feel like. Yeah. You said toxically open. Yeah. No, and that's exact. And you know what? Something's never changed. Something's never changed.

Song choices may be how we share things. Yeah. Okay. This next one wasn't a question then. Okay. So we're going to get a fresh answer. Oh, love. And then when we come back a year from now, we're going to check in.

Okay. If you could only follow three social media accounts, what would they be? Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh. Okay, this also might involve me pulling out my phone to chat. Hang on. I'll allow it. Okay, number one, bro on the radio. Number two, Taye Lautner.

And then number three. Okay, also, wait, another. I'm just going to like start yapped about people that I love. I love this creator. Her name's Jade's Wild Party. Okay. She does, like, skincare and beauty. But it's just like, first off, she's beautiful.

And then second off, I feel like her hair tutorials. are luxurious. And so if you haven't seen her, that's a great person look up. Who else do I love watching? I also love Monay McMichael. Yeah. I just always love her. I think she might be on like a little social hiatus and I was literally going to text this morning and be like, girl, where are you at? Because I love watching her videos. Yeah. So, okay, Tay, Jade and Monet. Period. Those are my three. Sounding good. And brew honorarily because he's, I mean, like, it doesn't really count because it's a boy, but whatever. It's fine. What is your favorite form of self-care? Oh. As of right now, reading.

Yeah. I love reading. Like, I'm, like, into my little fairy tale books, and I love them. Do you have a Kindle? I do. I do have a Kindle. I just got one, and I'm going to make myself a book girly. Yes.

My problem is I'm just, like, a self-help reading book girly. Okay. Like, I don't, I've never read fiction for fun. Okay. I'm reading, I'm also with Matthew McConaughey's book, and I'm obsessed with. I've heard it's really good. I'm obsessed with it. I'm obsessed with it.

It's so good. And then after I was like, okay, I'm going to actually like do like a fictional book. I feel like I was the same. I was like a self help girly from like through college into like beginning of social media like living in LA all of that. And then someone told me I had to read Akitar. And actually, you know, before that I know like hot take when Colleen Hoover was like what everyone was talking about for a minute. Yeah. It ends with us was like the book that I was talking about before the movie had come out.

Yeah. I did read that and that kind of like sparked my like interest in reading. romance again. But then everyone was like, oh my God, but Akatar is so good. And I was like, I'm not a fantasy person. I like, I've never read. The truly last book I read was Twilight. Like, so like I'm not. That was that. I read. No, same. I like, I did. I read that. I went and I was satisfied. I was thinking about rereading them though. I feel like they were. I haven't read them since I was young, but. They were like a pivotal moment that I remember of like eighth grade. Yeah. Maybe beginning of high school. I remember my mom didn't let me read the fourth

book because they because something else they like have sex or something right yeah okay yeah no i wasn't i'll read that one either they fornicate their love after their marriage they fornicate their okay because that's criminal yeah um but i remember my mom had let me i was allowed to read the first three and i remember when she let me read the fourth one oh but i was like pivotal growth moment yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah i think i would i would want to read them again yeah i like love i kind of went down the rabbit hole then where i did acutard throne of glass and on fourth wing and truly i don't know if I have like more of an appreciation for fourth wing because I read the other two first or if like the order matters you have to read fourth wing okay like I'm kind of addicted to that

one personally the first book was just so good I also don't know how my thing is no thank you I feel like they could be any direction and they're cut very nice thank you whoever does your hair Bradley he does a really good job love you bradley I've been admiring them um your answer was normally a piping hot shower also a yoga moment oh I do love a yoga moment too I haven't done yoga in a long time that I should probably bring that back. If my mental health was pocket of sunshine, I was doing yoga, I gotta switch it up. I will say also Pilates. Yeah.

The blood's got to flow. Yeah. Number six is who's had the most positive impact on your mental health? Mr. Brew on the radio. Yeah. You said your mom. My mom, her too. Yeah.

Last question. If you could go back to one moment in your life, what moment would that be? And what would you say to yourself? I think there was like a part of me, maybe. like three years ago. There's, yes, okay, like three years ago or so, I like, remember I was in like a really difficult place where I was fighting that like feeling probably like honestly within like six or eight months after the podcast kind of energy. Like last time I came on where I was just like fighting this feeling of relevancy and like just not knowing what I was doing. And I think like I

had had this moment where I felt like all my best days I had already lived and that like really scared me. Like I had like, I said like this really like sad, sad, truly sad moment with like, I remember going out to dinner with my sister and saying that to her where I was like, I just don't know like really what I have to look forward to. I feel like I've already lived my best days and like being on the internet gave me so many like perks. Sorry, I feel like I'm emotional. So many like perks and advantages and like things that I would have never expected that I would get to experience before. And then like suddenly it gets a little bit quiet and you're like, oh, it's like that's it. Like I've done it. And like, I've done it. And, like,

And like I did the thing that I was never thought I'd be able to do. I followed the dreams I never thought I'd be able to follow. I like had all these like I met the incredible boyfriend. Like everything was like almost too good that I feel like I wasn't like fighting a battle anymore that like the battle became like the one in my own head about like what I deserved or like feeling guilty about having success and not knowing what to do with it or like yeah just like this feeling of like also like a feeling of guilt that like if everything were to end tomorrow like that I let it slip to my fingers and it was suddenly my fault. And I think that like I would want to go truly just like hug her and like tell her that like that's not true. One, that like there are so like you can create not only is there so much more life for you to live. But like you speak into existence life that you want to create. Like if you're constantly sitting in this feeling of like, oh, I feel guilty and I'm not doing good enough and I'm not enough and no one thinks about this and I don't think about this and I'm not important, then like that is the world that you're going to create for yourself. And like I even think I'm still working on that now. on like speaking good over myself and over like the life that I'm living versus like allowing myself to fall into tangents of feeling comparative or jealous or stressed or what am I doing

or am I making enough and all of those things. I think I would just like want to go like hug her until everything's going to be okay. Yeah. I just love you. I adore you very much. Oh, I adore you. Your answer was that there was a huge fork in the road moment between your career and life. Yeah. You were deciding to go back to school. And you wanted to go hugger and tell her that it might feel a little selfish in the moment, but choosing to come out to L.A. And get your master's was such a changing point. Yeah. That's exactly what I thought I would say.

Because that's like, I still remember that moment of like, yeah, just like choosing to whether or not I was going to stay in engineering or become kind of like an artist, I guess, technically speaking. But yeah. Yeah. I love it. Well, I love you. and I have been waiting the past like hour and a half to tell you this. I have some fun news to tell you. Okay.

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