The Squeeze - Daisy Kent: Piecing Me Back Together

Episode Date: April 17, 2024

America’s new favorite Bachelor alum Daisy Kent joins the Lautners to discuss her journey on the reality show, a time during which she was adjusting to life with a cochlear implant. Daisy offers an in-depth recounting of her hearing loss journey and her special outlook on life as she gets to fall in love with something that was once taken from her. She discusses her Lyme disease diagnosis and the deep depression that accompanied these physical battles. She also opens up about moments we saw on the show, from that iconic car ride to the tender moment she got to hear her brother’s voice again.  Be sure to follow Daisy @daisyykent Thanks to our awesome sponsors for supporting this episode!   Astepro — Get fast-acting nasal allergy symptom relief with Astepro. Go to Asteproallergy.com for a discount so you can Astepro and Go! Today. Use as directed for relief of nasal congestion, runny nose, sneezing and itchy nose due to allergies.  Cerave — To learn more about nominating a nurse who has had a profound impact on your life visit CeraVe.com/Nurses or DAISYfoundation.org Nutrafol — For a limited time, Nutrafol is offering our listeners $10 off your first month’s subscription and free shipping when you go to nutrafol.com and enter the promo code THESQUEEZE  Daily Harvest — For a limited time only go to DAILYHARVEST.com/thesqueeze to get $30 off your first box plus free shipping.   Clarins — Go to https://www.clarins.com/thesqueeze with promo code THESQUEEZE and get Multi-Active Day & Night Cream for 10% OFF, A FREE WELCOME GIFT, PLUS FREE SHIPPING on your first order  To email us your questions or share your story, you can reach out to [e-mail]. Be sure to rate, review, and follow the podcast so you don't miss an episode! Plus, follow us on Instagram, @thesqueeze and personally @taylautner and @taylorlautner + on TikTok @thesqueezepodcast    To learn more from The Lemons Foundation, follow @lemonsbytay on Instagram and visit lemonsbytay.com  Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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Over here at The Squeeze, we talk about it. What's up and welcome back to the Squeeze? I am your host. Boy. Taylor Lautner, joined by my lovely co-host and wife, girl, Taylor Lautner. That would be me. We also have a very special guest in the studio today.

We have too. Well, Remy's always here. But Sweet Lily has decided to join us today. If you're watching, she's curled up. You can barely even see her in there. You can probably just see her little butt. Aw. She is curled up in a chair.

Well, we have two puppies. You can see Remy's ears. Thank you so much for. joining us. Yes. You know, as excited as I am to have you, Remington, and you, Lillian, I am more excited about our guest on today's episode. Yeah, and it kind of is a playoff of Lily. Oh, yes. It's in the same family of names. Another flower. Another flower. Beautiful flower. Beautiful flower. Beautiful human. Do you prefer speaking flowers? Do you prefer lilies or daisies? On today's episode.

And we have Daisy Kent on. I was asking you that question. Oh. Do you prefer lilies or daisies? I don't know. Daisies are more like spring, summer to me, and lilies are more like fall, like winter. Like, yeah, more fall vibe.

I feel like Daisy the flower represents Daisy Kent, the person perfectly. Yeah. Right? Yeah. Like spring bright, like, fun, like. Yeah. It's Daisy Kent for you.

Daisy Kent. We had the. absolute best time with her. We actually ended up just kind of spending the day together. Like literally the whole day. Yeah. Actually the whole day. That's the fun thing about doing a podcast out of your house. Yeah. But she was probably like, please let me leave. Yes. She's like, can I go now? She's like, it's been seven hours. Locked her in. But no, we had the best time with Daisy. I mean, as you all know from watching her on this most recent season of The Bachelor, she is just a ball of sunshine, just the kindest soul, sweetest human.

But it was so fun to get to like know her and truly get to learn more about her story. And, you know, about who she is beyond, you know, Daisy on The Bachelor. Like what makes her unique and what makes her her. Yeah. Yeah. She's got to be one of the most likable people to come from the Bachelor franchise. Easley. But, you know, I think we both can say that she was everything and more that you could imagine. Yeah. If you did watch the show.

Yeah. She's just, yeah, she's very, very special. So it was fun to dive deeper into what makes Daisy Daisy. Yeah. And she was really vulnerable and kind of talked about a couple of things openly for the first time, which was, you know, really awesome to learn about her. And I think she's such an inspiration, one, to the hearing loss community, but also. Also, if you're not in that community, then, you know, she's an inspiration of me. She's just her story is inspiring and her outlook she now has on life is really special.

Yeah. Well, I hope you guys enjoy it. Let's shut up and let's bring Daisy in. Yeah, let's do it. Okay. We'll see you on the other side. Daisy, welcome to the squeeze. Hi, thanks for having me.

You're welcome. Thank you. I love that. That's really funny saying it after we literally literally. just have spent the past like three hours together but it's fine we've been a great day oh the lemon drops we just had a lovely lunch together we were so excited to have daisy on we were like can you come three hours earlier and can we become best friends before we filmed the episode yeah and that's what we've done yeah that is what we've done so this should be great yeah we have kept some topics we kept some topics off of the lunch table so that we can

discuss it with you all listening there was a couple times we started talking i was like okay i'm not gonna ask I'm going to ask that question. We'll wait. Yeah. But we start each episode with a game called Citrus Got Real. And this jar has a bunch of questions in it, which does look like it's running low. But I think the papers are just in there. If you would like to pull one.

Okay. As Taylor does his ASMR drum roll. Let's reach in here. What would your rapper name be? Wow. Okay. You're definitely going, they planted this. I swear.

I didn't even know that was in there. We literally just copy money. Questions from our listeners and then we put them in there. I swear on Remy's life, we did not plant that. I feel like it's so funny because I was going to go for that one and I saw one in the words and I was like, you know, I'll just go for one that I have. Okay, this is funny. I feel like if I was a rapper, it'd be like day and then hyphen Z. Oh.

Yeah. Like J.Z. but daisy. Yeah, Daisy. What would you do like D-A-Y or D-A-I? Oh, maybe the D-A-I. Yeah. D-A-I-D-S-Z.

Yeah. It would be pretty cool. Yeah. Also, you being like the female J-Z could be pretty cool. That's monumental. Could be. I could see it. I believe in it.

Yeah. Okay. Maybe that's your next venture. We'll get into that at the end. Maybe. I bet she says that. I'm actually going to take up a wrapping career. I remember hearing, like, I don't know why,

This is a memory in my mind from like my cousins. It was always your first, the first pet name you had and your first street name. Yeah. Was that for, that was for rapper name or what was that for? I thought that was for, um. I remember hearing that when I was a little for my cousins. I thought that was for porn star name. Oh, okay.

Well, I guess it could go either way. Mine is incredible if it was for porn star name. What is it? Roxy Sunny Slope. Wow. That is good. The only childhood dog I had was Roxy and grew up on Sunny Slope Drive. So Roxy Sunny Slope.

Mine would be Georgie 47. Georgie 47. That sounds like a good rapper name. That's a better rapper name. Maybe I should switch it. I got the porn star handled. You got the rapper. Twiggy in there somewhere?

Was it twiggy? Yeah. RAPE. What would mine be? Grint. Was Grinned my first dog? Wait, is it street name or is it a pet first? Pet then street name.

Grin de wolf. Grin de wolf. Wow. I don't think that fits either. No. That sounds like my librarian. Grende wolf. Or like your history teacher.

Yeah. I don't. That's all I got. Wait, no. Tasha. That was my first dog. Tasha was my first. But I don't really remember her because she,

Passed when I was like Tasha do wolf. Tasha do wolf. Tasha D'Wolf. It's not. Yeah. DeWolf. Oh, wow. Very clever.

Very clever. Where's your TV remote? Yeah. Coming from Roxy Sunny Slope. Tasha D'Wolf. Oh, my Lanta. How are we going to get through this? That's a good question.

You gave us wine. I don't know why you did. It was a mistake. It was your fault. Yeah, big mistake. But it's going to create for some, you know, a fun interview. A juicy episode. But before we get to fun and juice, I do want to start this by saying that one, we're very excited to have you.

Specifically me because I am a diehard bachelor fan, as you know. And Daisy knows this, obviously. But I reached out to her after like the first or second episode. I was so excited. And, but I, you know, thankfully she just had a chance of reading my DM. I'm sure she was getting millions of DMs because America fell in love with Daisy. And I just want to like point out that, you know, us and America fell in love with Daisy long before the finale. Like when, you know, the conversation has.

happens, the car ride happens. America fell in love with Daisy before, you know, your hearing journey or anything like that was a part, like, even in the universe. America and us fell in love with Daisy because of the person that you are. Like, thank you. That means a lot. It's true. Like, there's been so much to happen since then. But like when I reached out, it was because it was just so evident that You are such a light. And it just screams. And, yeah, I was like, I want to reach out to this person because she's special. And it has nothing to do with any of all of the things that we've learned about you since,

which just makes you that much more special. But, yeah, I just wanted to point out that. That means so much. It's true. So, very honored that you are. are here. I'm honored too. I think, you know, we should maybe start with The Bachelor since, you know, I am fanboy. Roxy, Sunny Slope. Going back to like the beginning, what was, I'm going to be wanting all the juice. Like what? Did you submit yourself? Did a friend submit you? How did that

process happen? And you watched it too before, right? Did you watch it growing up? Yeah. Yeah, I watched it growing up with my mom, basically. And then I started making TikToks a year ago about my cochlear implant. And I was like, I'm just going to post, I'm going to post three a day and just keep doing it and keep doing it. Because I didn't see anything online really about someone who had lost their hearing and was going through the process of deciding to need a cochlear implant and doing it. So I was like, this is kind of an interesting thing for me to document and maybe help other people. So I started doing that and then a producer from casting saw one of my TikToks that had gone viral and asked me if I would be interested in going on the show. And I was like, is this real?

Is it not real? Wow. What were your initial thoughts when you got that? Like when you realized it was real? Yeah. I was excited but also really unsure because I had my like implant was pretty new. so I didn't know how it was going to go for me. And I was really open with them about that too.

So it was kind of a big decision. And I have a lot of conversations with my family also. And like the last, I would say three years before that were a little bit like rough for me. And so after I got my implant and I was learning all these new things, I was finally in a spot where I was like happy again. And so me doing this show, we just always. wanted to make sure that I was in the best spot possible and regardless what happened on the show that I would be okay after.

So it was a lot of conversations about will like no matter what happens like will I be able to be okay. And then I was kind of decided that it was just meant to happen for me to go on it. So then I decided to do it. Then you decide you're you decide you're going to do it. Are you nervous? excited, everything. Yeah. I was feeling everything.

I was really excited, but then going out, I was super nervous. And I was really nervous about my story and talking about my story and how it was going to come across just because in like the hearing loss, deaf community, sometimes I just didn't want to offend anyone. And it was, I've had hearing loss since I was like 15, I think it started. So it's been a part of my life for a really long time, but I just got a cochlear implant and I just, I didn't want to offend anyone.

So that was probably the part I was most nervous about. But everyone was really kind and uplifting in the way that they told me, like they didn't want to offend anyone. They wanted it to be told from my perspective and how it affected me. Like so it really like focused on me speaking about my experience. Yeah. Which I think made it special too. What was the timeline with the implant before you.

started this journey. Yeah, so I got the implant. I think it was March 24th of last year. Okay. That's when I had my surgery. And then I got activated like two or three weeks later. So mid-April. Whoa.

Yeah. So it was really recent. But I did really well with it right? When they activated it, I could hear speech. Everyone just sounded like a chipmunk. Oh, wow. But it was hard for me if I wasn't looking at somebody. Yeah.

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I want to know more, like, kind of in-depth about your hearing loss journey because I think your story is, like, so special. And actually something I was talking with DG about is, like, how much light you're shedding for, like, the hearing loss community because it's like, I feel like it's something that kind of gets glossed over sometimes. And it's something that definitely needs, like, more attention and more advocacy. for it because, you know, a lot of people like do have hearing issues and yeah. Yeah, I just feel like it's, it's important to talk about. Yeah.

And you've been massive for that, which is just like so cool to see. Yeah. Thank you. Yeah, it's been cool to see for me too, especially people my age too, reaching out and younger kids too. Just because I feel like it isn't as common, but it's also more common than I realized. And I feel like that's why people don't often talk about it is because it's not as common, so they feel kind of weird about it. Yeah. And we always learn that when we start talking about anything.

You know, we can take any topic that we've discussed on this podcast or in life. And that's how everyone feels about everything is whatever you're going through. And it can be the, yeah, like the most, you know, it can be like the, how is the. adjective. It can be a very minuscule like thing. Yeah. But there are more people than you realize that are going through the same thing. Yeah, definitely. And relate to it. But for you, I just can't like imagine it's, you know, a life changing and difficult thing to go through no matter what that change for you. Yeah. But then going, I'm, going to go through that and learn about it and myself on national television.

Yeah. That seems like it would be terrifying. It was terrifying and I don't think I actually realized how terrifying it was going to be until I was in the mansion. And I didn't have any of my friends around me or my family and I didn't realize the last few years especially how much I relied on them. Right. And I was there and I was like,

I'm doing this and I'm doing it by myself for the first time. Yeah. Probably in my life, honestly. Yeah. So when I got there, that was terrified. Yeah. But it was the best thing for me, like now looking back. And it's interesting too because I've seen my surgeon since.

And she said, because I'm doing so well with it, like way better than people usually do. Like I'm way ahead of schedule. And it was so interesting because she said, I bet you having conversation and all you were doing like 24-7 all the time is having conversations with people. She was like that was probably the best rehab you could have done for yourself. Oh, wow. And people that you don't know super well.

And people that I don't know. Oh, wow. And it was interesting because I remember I would have to focus so, so hard, especially the first month I was there on every little thing people were saying. And if I was in a group of girls, so many. I remember I would just be like frantic and wouldn't know what was going on. And I would always be once I got like closer to the girls and they all knew about it, then it was easier too. Yeah.

But then going from that compared to now when I'm in groups of people, I do so much better. Oh, yeah. So it was interesting. My surgeon being like that definitely helped you. Yeah. So I think about that too. And I'm like, you know, it was just I think it was a time period of my life and it was meant to happen for multiple reasons. Yeah.

Yeah. Absolutely. So when you were 15 when you first started having some hearing stuff going on. Yeah. 15 to 17. What, like, what was the first, like, symptom or, like, seeing that you had noticed? So I started having, I remember my freshman year of high school was the first time I'd ever got vertigo. And I was sitting at a lunch table.

And I had, like, looked to my friend and all of a sudden everything, like, spun. And I was like, like, well. And I walked to my drama teacher's classroom, I think. And I had my hand, like, on the wall because I, like, couldn't tell because the whole world was just tilting and spinning. And then I lay down in her room for a while. So I think that's when it first started impacting my ears because sometimes it can mess with your equilibrium. Yeah. And that's what it did for me.

And then I remember my dad waking me up one morning and I was on my right side. And he was, like, shaking me. He was like, Daisy. And I was like, whoa. Couldn't hear what he was saying, sat up, and then could hear him in my right ear at the time. And then I went to school and I remember sitting in my history class and I was like, plugging my ear and thinking in my head, something's wrong. So then we started seeing E&Ts.

And then from there, no one could really figure out what was going on. But then it just kept getting progressively worse. Really? Yeah, no treatments or anything would work for me. So. So then is that what the meneers caused that or is that something else? They're not entirely sure because I don't respond to like treatments that Meniere's typically does, but that's what it looks like. But they think that from me having Lyme disease and just other things that have been wrong with me growing up, which probably stemmed from Lyme disease, causing Mener's disease, which caused my hearing loss. So when did you get diagnosed with Lyme's disease?

Lyme wasn't until I was 21. But in the testing, when they do the testing, there's like a marker in your blood that only shows up. I might not be describing this exactly right. But there's some marker in your blood that only shows up if you had it for like a couple weeks or in the last month. Oh, God. Or if you've had it for over 10 years or something like that. And so when they saw that and I saw my levels, they were like, you've had it for a really long time. And it makes sense because then when I was like 12, I started having seizures.

and all these weird things happening to me, I would pass out. And nobody could figure out why it was happening to me. Oh, wow. Yeah. Oh, so you've, like, had, like, health stuff for... Yeah. For a while. Yeah, and it was always, like, it was always a missing piece that people couldn't figure out.

Yeah. And then, finally, when I got diagnosed with Lyme and did those treatments, then now I've been pretty good sense. The only thing is my hearing. Wow. So, I guess how long of the span? And I'm curious, did, like, you slowly start losing your hearing and it was only in one side? Yeah.

Okay. When I was 17, I think I got diagnosed with Lyme when I was 22 because I think it was 17 to 21. It was just on my left side. And then I kind of knew it was on my right side starting to happen, but I think I was in denial about it and didn't want to admit it. But then I remember going to the doctor I was seen at the time. and I don't see him anymore, but I remember going to see him and he did a hearing test and they had thought it would only affect my left side. And I did the hearing test and it had showed that my right side was dropping and it was

following the same path as my left side. And so I remember sitting with him and he was like, you know, there's the possibility because of how your left ear went and your right ears following that. same way that you're going to go death. Oh, my God. And I remember just, like, my heart just, like, breaking. I remember calling my parents, and I called my older brother after. And I was, because I wasn't expecting that appointment to go that way, even though I think

I kind of knew. Yeah. But it's, yeah. And just the realization of something that I thought would never happen. Yeah. That was really hard. And he told me that there was nothing else that he could do for me. So it was kind of like, I'm going deaf.

and that's it. And you were just left with that. So that was when I was 20 and then everything kind of flipped upside down for me for a while. So, yeah, that part was really sad. But that was when I realized that, yeah, it's probably going to happen. When you say it flipped upside down, what was going on during that time? Was it you? like being sick?

Was it just like your mental health or what? I think it was a mixture of all of it because I found that out. And then it was a period of my life where I think I was still like learning a lot about myself and like discovering things. And then I got diagnosed with Lyme disease and I was doing all these treatments. It was our senior year of college. So everyone was like having fun and all this stuff. And I was like trying to have fun.

But I was super sick. I would like go hang out with my friends. And then I'd come back home. and I'd be dry heaving in the toilet because I would feel so sick of that. I also found out that I was going deaf probably. And like I had like those moments of happiness, but it was also really, really dark. Yeah.

And the only people that knew that were my like closest, closest friends and my family. Mm-hmm. And it was just, yeah, it was a time where if honestly, if I didn't have the people in my life who, if I didn't have the family I do and the friends I do who were pouring love into me, Like, I don't know how I would have gotten through it. And it was just kind of like they were pouring love into me. And at that point in my life, like, now I'm so happy.

But when I think back to it, it still makes me really sad because, like, I wasn't living for myself. I was, like, living for the people who loved me because they were pouring so much love to me. And I was like, I have to figure out a way to, like, want to live for these people because they love me so much. And I remember like instances where my little sister, where I'd be home for college and she'd wake me up. Be like, you have to get out of bed. Just like, come on, let's. And I was like, I don't want to get out of bed.

And just like moments like that. Yeah. So I think everything just flipped upside down when that happened. It was just a time of my life where nothing made sense to me. Looking back at it. Do you think you were depressed? Yeah, for sure. And when my surgeon two years ago, about two years ago when I met her, when I first walked in and had like had a conversation with her, she knew that I was depressed.

And it was, I was with her. We have a really close relationship. And after the show, I remember talking to her. I was like, you know, I'm happy. And I haven't been happy in a really long time. And she was like, when I first met you, I was worried because you were depressed. Yeah. And I remember it's so interesting because I remember that time period of my life.

Have you ever been to the doctor and they like, they give you a sheet? And it's like yes or no questions. And it's like and then like a scale one to 10. How are you feeling today? Are you sad? Like is it hard to get out of bed? And I remember looking at that and like every question I answered no. Yeah.

But in reality, like I remember thinking, yes, yes, yes. Yes, like in my head. You're like, I'm not going to open that can of worms. Yeah. And I don't think I wanted to admit it to because I, like, have so many amazing people in my life and so many people that I love. And I was in my head and I'm like, how do you tell the people who have, like, poured so much love and support into you and, like, giving you everything? And, like, my parents, like, my very first breath. Like, how do you look at them and say, I'm not happy.

And there's some days, like, I don't even want to be here. Yeah. So I think that It became emotional. But I think that was like It was really hard for me to talk about them because they're like all the most supportive people But I didn't want them to be sad about it.

You don't want to let them down. Yeah. You don't want them to think that what, you know, they're not enough. Yeah, exactly. Yeah. And I think what I realized is when I started talking about it. it more, even though I know they all love me so much. And it did hurt them. I realize if you're

building up these walls, like eventually it's just all going to crumble at once. And so it was kind of me like taking that down and having those conversations. And I remember one night I was with my older brother and one of our like best friends, Taylor, his name is actually Taylor too. He sounds like a great guy. Yeah, he is. Wow, I love him. Yeah, but I remember I just like I hit rock. bottom and I'm so thankful they were there for me in that moment and this was like when I was I think I was 22 and they just like held me and I was just like crying they just said we're not like giving you a choice but to keep going and we're going to be here for you every step of the way and it's okay if you're feeling this way but we want to help you and then my brother had called my dad and my dad

called me and he's like you know why don't you come home and we're all going to figure this out together and then went back home and we just kind of got me in a routine i started going to therapy and it was just them helping put the pieces of me back together when i couldn't yeah so it was really special because I know how love can heal and love can help. Yeah. So it's something that's really hard for me to look back on, but also really amazing. And I don't think I realized until the last year in my life, when I've seen that, like, happiness change, how sad I was.

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tired. He was like, no, but are you like actually okay? Yeah. And I was like the first time I had ever like thought to like look like at myself in that regard because I never like really struggled with my mental health. And yeah, I'm a strong person. So I was just like I'm just going like, this is what I'm supposed to be doing. Like I'm not. And you want to think of everything else it can be. Yeah. I'm exhausted. I'm working. Yeah. And it took. It took me like actually leaving the hospital. And it. And it took me like actually leaving the hospital. And like removing myself from the situation and like being in like a quiet place like at our home for like everything to actually like sink in of what was like going on in the weight of everything. And like like there would be times like even now I'll look back and like, oh, our first New York trip we were talking about.

I think I was like one of the deepest points in my depression when we were on that trip. Our first New York trip. Mm-hmm. Do you remember me saying this to you? I remember we were at dinner with our friends and we were like talking laughing and I was like, I'm laughing but I don't feel happy. Yeah. I don't like I don't feel anything.

Like I just kind of like felt numb. And I think that was like me kind of finally like figuring out like what what was like going on. But I think being at home in like a safe space and I bet that's like kind of what you being back home with your family did for you too. Like having that like support around you and like kind of being. being able to like process and you know I think that's maybe like how how you were able to hit rock bottom or I guess that was before but like how you were able to like come up from there or how you're able to like let the walls down yeah sometimes you need that to yeah to like to heal yeah yeah I feel like for me I definitely like needed that just like safe space and like with the people who love you more than anything Just to be able to feel that. Yeah. But yeah, I can relate to that.

Like, I remember even being with, like, my friends my senior year, and we'd be doing something really fun and, like, having fun and I'd be laughing and having a good time. But I was like, I don't, I'm not feeling it. Like, I'm not happy. I'm not actually happy. Yeah. And I remember in, like, one moment, I was on vacation with all my cousins. And my family, we were doing all these fun, like, activities.

on the beach and we were like playing survivor and yeah on paper sounds amazing yeah and i remember talking to my parents and i'm like everyone's so happy and having so much fun but i'm not yeah and it it is just like that numb yeah feeling and it's like a weird like i mean i think that's probably why like why you maybe don't like remember that moment is i don't know if you do but uh something that we've like had to learn is like taylor is such a feeler So like when I was first struggling with my mental health, he thought it was like his fault or not his fault, but you like, you were like, how can I like it felt like something he wasn't doing. So he was like took it personally, which is why I think I hit it from him. But it's something that like we've had to work through. And like now he knows like, you know, some days I'll like wake up and I'll literally like I can't like move. Like my chest is so heavy. I'm like just having like a day. And he's like. Like. And he's like. Like. And he's like. Like. And he's like. Like. And he's like. Like. Like. Like. And he's like. Like. Like. Like. Like. go get in bed like bring your laptop up there like he like knows that you know I'm not like trying to avoid him or I'm not like mad at him he's like just not your day yeah yeah yeah but yeah that was

definitely kind of like scary like telling him that for the first time mm-hmm or like trying to express it because like like how do I tell you like I remember telling you I was like I don't I'm not happy and you were like what do you mean you're not happy yeah like at dinner he was like what what do you like what are you like what are you're like what we're like what we're New York. We're at these amazing restaurants. We're with people we love. You know,

we're doing something super exciting. We were, I mean, for that trip, like, we're there, like, promoting a movie that,

you know, I just did. Yeah, got to see him do, like, talk shows for the first time. You got to go to, like, Jimmy Fallon and, like, oh, it's like, what, on paper,

this is a great trip. Yeah. So you're not happy. What? How? And, like, and you just, the fixer and me goes,

like, how do you die? Yeah. If you're not happy, like, what, I have to do? What am I doing wrong? Yeah. What can, what can we do, you know, immediately to fix this? Yeah. And it's, you know, it's not always that simple. Yeah. No. For people like myself that don't bully

understand it. Yeah. What exactly does it like breaking it down to the nitty gritty. Yeah. Like what does it do for you? And like what did that? process look like. Yeah. The like internal part of my ear doesn't work. So in your ear you have kind of hair follicles that are in your cochlea that send the signals to your auditory nerve. So mine are really damaged. And once those are damaged, they say they don't grow back. And so I got a cochlear implant. So it's a surgery where they, it's a two part. So I have the outside part and then the internal part. So they put that in. And then you get the outside. processor, which takes in the sound, and then through the magnet going into the internal part, it electrically stimulates your auditory nerve that sends a signals to your brain.

So it essentially kind of works as that damaged part of the ear. Okay. Not everybody can get it. It's depending on what kind of hearing loss you have. So sometimes it wouldn't help. Yeah, sometimes depending, I think it's if your cochlea is damaged or something. like that. But for me, I was able to get it. But when you get it, you don't know how you're going to kind of take it in. So some people when they get it, they might just hear like this or they might just

hear like or beeps. A lot of people will hear beeps. So I think that's the scary part about getting it. Or for me it was, you don't know exactly what it's going to sound like when you get it. Yeah. And so I was kind of, I was expecting the worst. Were you scared? Yeah. It was terrifying. Yeah.

But it was at the point where it was either I get it or I lose my form of communication. So I knew it was probably going to be difficult. And my surgeon, she's amazing. And I was talking to her and she said it might be really hard for a period. For even a couple of years it might be really hard. hard, but long term, it's going to be the best thing for you. Wow. And so I just decided to do it.

And I remember when they activated me because I was expecting, I was just expecting beeps. That's what I told myself because I was like, don't be super hopeful or you'll be disappointed. And I remember hearing my mom talk and I was like, I can hear a boy. Wow. And it was the first time in a while where I heard. words that weren't broken because my right ear at the time was still working a little bit. Yeah, so what were you hearing before?

Before it sounded, there were some days that I couldn't hear anything. I'd be even talking to my roommate and I wouldn't hear anything she was saying. And then there were some days where I could hear a little bit, but it was almost like a broken microphone. So if someone's talking and it's cutting in and out, that's what it sounded like because I can't hear or I couldn't hear like certain pitches and frequencies. Okay. And so that was like the first time I had heard like a full

sentence without it being like. Yeah. Wow. So there was an instant immediate difference. Yeah. That was just like, wow. Mm-hmm. But also that side or that part of my brain hadn't been activated in that way

for a while fully. So it was an adjustment for sure. Yeah. And then it did sound like chipmunks. for a while. But I remember FaceTiming my grandma. They had me FaceTime. My dad and my grandma when I was in there,

and my grandma started laughing. And her laugh sounded like what I remembered her laugh to sound like before I started losing my hearing. Oh, wow. And I was like, it's all going to be okay. Oh, wow. Wow. And that's a moment.

I knew it was just going to keep getting better and better. Yeah. And so I looked at it as like a game. So every time I heard something new, or like a new moment would happen or I could recognize a song. It was like I was winning the game and getting one step closer.

So and I think I was just like, I was so thankful because I think in life sometimes when you lose things, like you lose someone you love or you get an accident or you're paralyzed or people will just go deaf or blind. Like you hear of all these crazy stories and you don't have the opportunity to love it again.

And I thought I have this opportunity to love something again and fall back in love with something that was taken away from me. So it turned into a really beautiful thing. And so I've looked at it in that way that I've had the opportunity to love something again. And not many people get a chance to do that again. Yeah. Wow. That's such an amazing outlook. Something I thought about you were just talking, how would you communicate?

Like what what did your communicating look like when you were saying like some days you wouldn't be able to like hear? How would that work? Or even in the broken, even when it was like you're, yeah. Yeah. So the people like my family, my friends will tell you on the days that I could not hear anything. I would be like, what? But sometimes, but I would be able to like carry a conversation kind of. And one day when I went to see my surgeon and I got my hearing test.

She came in. She was said, you're not hearing much. I was like, no. And I remember her putting her mask up and talking. And I had no idea what she was saying. Yeah. And she said, subconsciously, you've probably picked up on so much like lip reading and facial expressions. You don't even know.

Right. And then I started noticing it. And I noticed it right when I got my implant, because if I wasn't looking directly at somebody when I was still learning with it. I still had no clue what they're saying. It's still hard for me at times, and I do have to focus on communication, probably harder than someone with their full hearing. Yeah.

But it's so much better. Yeah. But it was, especially the last year in my life. It was very difficult, and if I had more days where I probably couldn't hear barely than once I could hear good. Wow. And I like spent a lot of time in my room just to kind of being alone because being around people was almost more frustrating because they didn't know what they were saying half the time. Yeah.

What have your emotions been like over this journey? Like I feel like I would have been like really mad. Yeah. If I was in your position, like I don't even like I don't even know what I would be thinking. But like to try to process that as like a 20, 21 year old. like yeah I guess just like what like what were those emotions like yeah I was I was very mad for a while I think I was super sad and then I was very very mad and I also think I took it out on a lot of the people I loved because I was so mad and I didn't know how to deal with it and then I was really really sad and I remember was I talking to I think it was my my pastor I was talking to him and he said, you know, what if you stops praying for this all to go away? And what if you, like, prayed for acceptance and understanding? And so that's what I started doing. And I just tried to, like,

start thinking in a way where, okay, I need to try to understand this. Like, I need to accept it. And when I started doing that, it kind of changed a lot for me. But I was very, very, very mad. But I think me being angry was also destroying me. So I just started like praying for understanding and praying for a way that it would all be okay and thinking if this is what has to happen to me, help me make light of it and help me find a better way to get through it. Yeah. And my family was really good and my friends too about doing that about helping me kind of see a way that I could turn it into something positive, whether that was just talking about it or speaking at church or making my TikToks.

And so, but yeah, it was an emotional roller coaster and I was, I would say more than anything, it was probably sadness and anger. Yeah. Yeah. Do you feel like you've accepted your hearing loss or where you like at with that? If you were to ask me like a year ago, I would say no, I'll never accept it. But now I would say I have. I think part of me still is not angry, but a little part of me does think why me.

But then I think about everything, especially that has happened in my last year and even me going on The Bachelor and doing things like this. and doing things like this, I'm like, that's why it's me because I've been somebody who has been able to turn it into light and turn it into a positive thing. Yeah. And it's probably going to help other people that I was able to do that.

But so I would say in ways I have accepted it, but in ways I also haven't. Because there are moments that I still get frustrated or there are moments where I'm listening to music or I'm with friends. and I can't understand what people are saying. And it's just like my heart still drops a little bit. Yeah.

Because I remember what it was like when I was fully in all the conversation. Yeah. But I'm so thankful for it and I'm doing so much better than I was. So it's hard for me to, like, say that I haven't accepted it. But if I'm being completely honest, I think part of me still does struggle with it. Yeah. Yeah. I mean, rightfully so.

I think it's hard. I mean, I don't know. But I would imagine, you know, losing a sense, like one of your senses like that after living life with it. It like, I feel like that only like, you know, I feel like I've heard a story of like someone like losing their sight like in like their 30s. And like you like, you know what it. was like it wasn't like you don't know what you're missing out on yeah yeah in a sense so like the coping of it I can only imagine like how hard it is but I think it's just like so cool like what you've been able to do with it and like the fact that you literally like read a children's book

and like the fact that you're like doing all these things is just like I think I think maybe you've come to terms with it more than you think I think yeah and I think it's now it's like way easier for me to be like it happened. Yeah. For a reason. Yeah. But then part of me still remembers like how difficult it was too. But I know I do know that it happened for a reason.

Yeah. And I think going from where I was to now and how much progress I've made, I know I will completely 100% accept it one day. And I know I'm getting like closer and closer. everything I do and all of that. But, but yeah. What's so unbelievable for me to think about is, and exciting to think about, is not to take away from those thoughts that you're talking about that.

Like, yeah, you do remember what it used to be like. But it's like it still is, you know, a somewhat new thing for you, that you're still, you know, you're still like learning from and growing with, right? Yeah. It still is kind of fresh for you. And what you've done already in, you know, for yourself. Yeah.

And what you being yourself and what you've done is doing for others and is just like crazy. because it's, I just can't imagine what is to come for you. And it makes me so excited what is to come for you personally and your journey for you. Thank you. And also what you are going to continue to do for the world. Because it's just like, yeah, it's just so much untapped potential of bettering this world that you have just scratched the surface of. But that like little scratch is, I don't know.

It's made a difference. It's made such a huge impact. So if that's your little, if that's your little scratch, I can't wait until you get your full claws into your full potential. Thank you. It's true. That means a lot. I'm excited to see what's going to come.

Yeah. That means a lot, though. Thank you. Of course. What? Should I, should I get my fan boy batch questions? Then we can do Lemon 7?

Yeah, probably. Let's do it. Okay. Because I am a fan boy. Yes. I know that you've, I know that you've answered some of these questions, but I haven't.

Truthfully, I haven't heard the answers. I'm ready for any. So this section is selfishly for me. Okay. Okay, okay. I promise you. And I don't know the answers because I didn't want to know. Okay.

You wanted to hear it? Yes. From the horse's mouth. Like, we get her in our living room? Yes, I'm going to wait for this moment. Okay. Where do I want to start? Wherever, you got a list.

Okay. My first question is, one, are you, like, sitting here today? Are you happy you went on? the show and do you regret anything? I'm so happy I went on the show and no, I don't regret a thing. Great answer. And I think that's why I walked away from it so positively too is because I didn't regret anything I did or how I handled myself. Yeah.

And I think I went on it for, I think me being on it, like looking back, it happened for a reason to teach me a lot, I think to help other people. and so I'm I said it at after the final rose I said like I'm leaving this process happier than when I came into it and say I'm happy I don't think that happens often yeah I feel like you can go either way but I'm so thankful I did it and like I said going into it I remember calling my little sister I face time time trying I'm being like so it's official I'm going on The Bachelor my little sister goes, okay. And I feel like most little sisters would be like screaming. And my little sister goes, okay, you need to be in the best mental spot you've ever been in your life if you're going to do this. And I was like, I'm good. I'm happy.

And I was like, I know regardless of what happened, but I'm so going to be happy. But it was just so cute that she was like, that was like her first thought, you know. She wasn't like screaming freaking out. She was like, you know. And I think I had such like a life changing thing. happened going into the show and on the show too. And then everything that happened on the show, too, it was, yeah, I'm happy. Yeah. Yeah, what was that moment? Like, what was it? During Homechowns, you'd, like, heard your brother's, like, voice for the first time or something like that? What was it? Was it you heard, like, his actual voice? Mm-hmm. So I remember what it sounded like, like a few years ago, but my little brother is very, has a very soft voice, very soft tone, lower.

and the last like couple years of my life was really hard for me to have conversations with him. And when I was sitting, after I got my implant, I still couldn't really understand him. That was the first time I was sitting there and it sounded like him, like how I remembered it being. And so it's so cool that the shell captured those moments too and that they showed those moments because it's something that I can always look back on. And I think it was really cool for other people to see also. Yeah. I was going to ask, like, after like that happened, like, that's, I mean, that's still, like, kind of like, such a vulnerable, like, thing to happen. Like, on the show where you, like, what were you, like, excited or, like, what were you feeling, like, knowing that that, like, could be in it?

Like, were you nervous or were you just, like, excited? I don't think I really expected those moments, like, that to be captured, which is what I honestly love about. the production and the producers too is that they I remember those moments happening but I didn't know that they'd be in the show I honestly didn't think they would be in the show and the fact that they kept those moments in yeah it was so special to me and I think really special for a lot of other people to see yeah and even my family everyone watching it was calling me and texting me telling me they were crying I had like some moms that I talked to that of kids with cochlear implants and they were texting me like I'm crying. Oh, wow. So it was a really special thing. Yeah. I remember like,

like watching it and like hearing that. I was like, oh my God. Like, wait, what? Like she, like this is such like a intimate moment that just happened. Intimate and massive. Yeah.

Yeah. No, that was sharing it. Yeah. Obviously another sweet moment that I have to ask. Also, I don't, you can answer this however you want. The whole finale,

Kelsey's situation. Were you just like I need to talk to her? Or like what was that? Yeah, I think I just cared about her a lot and I cared about him a lot too. And I wanted to go in a way where I could show them that like I both supported them and I wanted them to both be happy even though in the moment I was hurting but I also knew that he wasn't my person. Yeah. And so I knew if I was feeling that way,

he was feeling that way too. And I wanted her to know that I was happy for her too. And I wanted her to be happy and that I was going to be okay. And so, yeah, me doing that, it just came from a, I remember when I sat down, I was like, I'm here from like a place of love, like talking to you. Yeah. I think that was like the first thing I said. And it was your decision to go.

Yeah. You were like, I need to go talk to her. Yeah. Mm-hmm. Were you surprised that the producers were like? okay no because i had been i was like so adamant that it wasn't me and they knew that they knew they knew that you felt that way yeah right and they also knew me and kelsey were really good friends on the show too so i think it was a way where we all kind of i don't know it was like i feel like it was

like a beautiful moment for everyone yeah yeah so well there was a lot of beautiful moments for everyone for sure yeah yeah and i mean from that like how did the whole one how did the car situation happen and then like two like were you guys talking or like what like what was were you actually in the car i don't know if you can answer that but like what what was that yeah we were in the car we decided to go together and yeah we were talking they obviously i don't think it showed us talking at all yeah we were talking and it was we were both just really happy for each other, even though, like, I was about to go by myself. And she knows she's going to get engaged.

Yeah. I mean, yeah. I mean, she didn't know until he was, like, getting down on the knee. Yeah. But I think we both just knew in our hearts it was so right. And so we were both able to support each other in that moment. And I think it's something really special that me and her will always have. Obviously, they couldn't show that, like, whole thing between.

me and Kelsey, but it's something special that I think me and her will always have. And that's what matters. So, yeah. I mean, I remember like who we were watching it. Like hand out. We were like, what? Because I think it was like her head and then my head. It was both of us holding hands.

Pretty genius. Yeah. Pretty genius. Yeah. Whoever thought of that needs a raise. Yeah. I think I think what was so special, like, obviously, you know, about you guys talking, the car. Like you just like taking like your moment and like telling Joey like I know it's not me and like walking yourself like all of that yes is like women empowerment and it's great.

But I think the most like empowering part of all of it was you telling Kelsey after you literally have been like, you know, your relationship had ended. And you were like getting in the car to go home and you were like your mom is like looking down on you and she's like so happy for you. Yeah. Like the fact that you were able to like have like to say those words after like the previous like 24 48 hours of like turmoil that you probably had of like, you know, knowing it's not you and like, you know, I can't imagine like all these emotions. And the fact that you were able to do that, I think is the most like women supporting women thing like. Yeah. Of of it all. Like I remember I started bawling when you said that.

I was like. a freaking disaster. Yeah, it was, it was really special. And I think back to I remember after my first one-on-one and I came back to the house, Kelsey had been on that group date before, so she wasn't there when I got my one-on-one. And so the girls that were on that first day didn't know about my hearing issues and stuff like that. And then when I came back from my one-on-one, she was at home the next day because it was the group, the next group day. Does that make sense?

Yeah, I don't know. Yeah. And I remember I was sitting outside or she was. And somehow it was like, I think it was just me and her sitting there. She was like, hey, the girls like told me. And she was just like, I'm so happy that you got the one-on-one and you got to talk to him about that. And then we just started talking.

And we talked about my family. We talked about her family, her mom. And we just had such a good conversation. And from then we always had really good conversations. I think me and her, we just grew a respect. towards each other. I think we both knew that we both had, like, so much love in our hearts. Yeah.

Just for people in general. Yeah. And so I think that's what ultimately, like, made that moment so special, too. Yeah. Something you'd mention was you feel like you kind of have, like, a different outlook on the show than most other people, or other contestants, I should say. What did you mean by that? I think it was me coming on to the show. I was like nothing that happens in this thing can destroy me.

Oh. I was like, I will be okay because I'm finally happy and I've been through so much. And I think in ways it did hurt me because I was like kind of I would distance myself at times from the whole everything going on and my feelings because I was so happy. I wasn't going to let anything mess with that. Yeah. And so I think I kind of went into it with an outlook like this can't hurt. hurt me. Yeah.

I think that's how I looked at it different. I was going to ask. That makes sense. Yeah. I was going to ask too. I forgot about this. Did you know you like wore your heart on your sleeve and your facial expressions as much as you did before going on the show?

I love this question. I did a little bit because my siblings and my friends are always like we know when you're uninterested. We know what you're feeling. And it was funny watching it back with, because I watched most of the episodes either with my friends or I was back in Minnesota with my family. And they'd be watching their like, Daisy. And like a couple times someone would say something and be like, and I'm like, I don't know. Like in the moment.

I never noticed like any like, like, never like any like judgey ones. It's just like when, you know, when you towards the end. Yeah, when Joey's giving you the let you down. Your face. I hope you find love. Like, even if it's not being, your face immediately around the fire. I'm like. There was a lot, though.

There were so many times. It was like so many. That one specific like scene, scene. It was like so many emotions on my face. I was like, what the fuck did he just say? And then I was like, oh, this is depressing. And then it's like, well. They're like, why am I here?

I loved that about you. There were so many moments where you just like, it was just so evident what was going on inside your mind written all over your face. It was so nice as like the viewer of like getting to know like what you were thinking because you just like were on your face. But then when we were watching, I was like, I wonder if she like you and I mean all other contestants that have similar mannerisms.

Like I wonder if they knew they were. were that expressive about their emotions like prior to going on the show because you don't like. Because there's just people. There's just people like that. Yeah. Well, I always say that's the whole different. But when I started when I started vlogging and doing YouTube, yeah, I realized how expressive my face was like after watching myself on camera. And I was like, oh my gosh, I need Botox. Like I need help here. So that was literally why I got Botox. You're like, I need some to calm the face. Was after seeing myself on camera, obviously very different. I was recording anything anything that you would be like disagree with or question.

Yeah. Just this eyebrow I would just go. I would get in trouble so much to dance. My teachers would be like, excuse me. I'm like, it just like goes up on its own. Just like ignore it. It just happens by itself. But no, that's so funny.

I wondered. Also, you probably, I don't know if you know this answer. I was wondering while watching it too. If Joey like telling you those things of like, I hope you find. love, do you think he was trying to tell you, it wasn't you, to, like, let you off, like, to help ease ease the breakup? Yeah. Okay.

Yeah. For sure. Because if you're not doing that, then what are you doing? Like, it's like, you're saying, there were so many questionable things said that it's like, I hope he's doing that to, like, give you a wink quick. He's like, I know I got to get through the show and so do you. But here you go. I know. I remember watching it. At first I was like, why is he doing that? And then I was like, okay, maybe he's actually... Whether we end up or whether we don't.

I was like, maybe he's actually being really smart. Yeah, I hope you're happy and I'm happy and we're all happy. Smart guy. No, I think if he actually did do that, that speaks volumes to his character for like trying to like figure out a way to tell you. It wasn't you. Yeah. Yeah. No, that's so true. So like sitting here like a month out, you know, season ending you like publicly turning down The Bachelorette, which I know a lot of people were sad about. But are you happy? Yeah, Taylor. Are you still happy with that decision? I'm very happy with that decision.

I think it was the best thing for me. And there's so many things I'm looking forward to doing. And even stuff like this, I think it was it was just met. to happen the way it was for me, I think, for a reason. And yeah, I'm happy. I love that. That's a perfect answer. And I did wonder, though.

I did question when it was, I think I said this on something else too, but I did wonder when it was announced how I was going to feel. Right. Yeah. And I just felt relieved. You had peace. Mm-hmm. And I think I felt relieved, too, because the show was over.

Everyone knew what had completely actually. happened. Yeah. And then everyone was like saying that I was probably going to be the Bachelorette maybe. And then that was done. I just felt like a weight lifted off of me. And I was like, yeah, can breathe again.

Yeah. Yeah. I mean, luckily for you, if you ever feel like you need to be the Bachelorette, I think they would take you in a millisecond. So I've never seen them whip out a daisy faster. about 5,000 daisies quicker than that. Yeah. I didn't really even notice it.

I remember me sitting there. And like out of the corner of my eye, I remember faintly like seeing a daisy, but I didn't think anything of it. And then afterwards I saw a bunch of TikToks of me sitting there with daisies. I was like, that's so cute. I was like, I'm convinced that they were still, they were pulling on every string they could try to get you to do it. They were like, still? Yeah. We can put daisies out.

Are you sure? Oh my gosh. Well, before we had an 11-7, what's next for you? Like, what are you, like, most excited about, like, do you have plans for anything? Yeah. I would like to get into public speaking and speaking to kids, especially just about, like, how turning what, like,

makes you unique, can be empowering and making it into something special. I'm in the process of writing another children's book. Let's go. And I have, like, a memoir of my life that doesn't have anything to do with Bachelor. was actually, I finished it before Bachelor, but just about all my health stuff and everything that I kind of went through. I feel like I want to get that published. Oh, wow.

Yeah. Dang. I just want to do things that will make a difference and help other people. Yeah. And have fun along the time. And maybe dancing with the stars. That would be cool. I would be down to do that.

We guys can do it together. Yeah, you too. We can do it together. We'll just be partners. Yeah, we'll be partners. Daisy's the star and I'm I'm the dancer. No, you're the star. Although you can dance.

I would have faith you could lead me. Okay. Yeah, perfect. I have faith. Okay, Lemon 7. Okay, Lemon 7. You want to start us off? All right.

Why? My brain. Wait. Uh-oh, the wine's hitting. Realianity. No, my brain. I literally have never said this sentence ever in my life. but I don't know why it almost came out of my mouth.

Are you okay? What is happening? I literally was about to go, you want to start Big Boy? Why? That's you and Big Boy? I will take that positively. I don't know that. She's never called me Big Boy ever.

Nope. Yeah, but I will. It's the first time for everything. You know, I will take that as my mind. That's why I started laughing because I was like, Where the fruct did that come from? All right, big boys ready. You're ready, big girl?

Maybe that's why. You call me big girl. In an endearing way. See, when you just say it like that with no context, that doesn't sound great. Okay, we're in a very healthy relationship, everyone. Calm down. Call you big girl. That's typically that's maybe not what somebody wants to hear in a romantic setting.

I love it. You go. Okay, we're moving on. All right, snip, snip, snip. Okay. That's literally going to be the hook for the episode. You're ready, big boy? Big girl.

Big girl. Jeez. Okay, okay. Number one. What movie or song title best describes your mental health today? I'm on top of the world. Oh. I imagine, yeah, imagine dragon.

I'm on top of the world. Dan, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da. Wow. Great answer. I think, yeah. Like, just took a really good change. Yeah. Dang.

Yeah. That's such a good answer. I'm on top of the world. Love that. Thank you, dragons. Big girl. That's the title of the episode. Daisy Cat, Big Girl.

People are going to be like, huh? Isie Cat? One big girl. Brave girl. Oh, no. Oh, no. We literally haven't even had wine.

Number two, how open are you with people in your life when struggling? I'm very open now. I'd say with my family and my close friends, especially. Yeah. But also kind of now with other people, too, because I've realized even me being on the show, how much it helped a lot of other people from people reaching out to me. So I think overall I'm way more open now. Yeah.

I love that. Yeah, that makes sense. I've had that same. Yeah. Same little journey. Boy. Anyway, I can't get it out of my mind now. I can't get it out.

Oh, man, I'm going to have to push through these final. Okay. Number three, this is an easy one. Or maybe not. If you could only follow three social media accounts across any platforms but only three accounts, which would they be? My mom. Okay. Because she posts all my siblings and my nieces.

Okay. Jay Shetty. Okay. Yeah. Shout out Jay. Uh-huh. I've always loved him. Yeah.

That's great. And then Jake Shane. That's a great. hilarious. Have you guys met yet? No. Okay. Well, that needs to happen.

Yeah, that does need to happen. I think he's so funny. But he's also so real. Yeah. Yeah. Oh, no. He's amazing. We're going to have to get the pussy on the show.

I know. Sometimes I see something I'm like, it's so funny But it's so dark And I'm like, but I completely get it Yeah Yeah, no, he's good He's very honest

So right now I would say those three Those are some great answers Those are good Those are good Those may be my answers too Your mom included Her mom included She's gonna be hype

She's probably got some cute nieces on there Keep up with the kents Yep Oh my gosh. Keeping up with the kids. Bro, you better get the rights to that. Number four. What is your favorite form of self-care?

Going on walks. Yeah. It's always been. It's just like stress relieving. Or if I'm like super excited that I get anxious about something. Yeah. Going on a walk will always help bring me back down too. Or if I'm upset too.

It's just good for clearing that, I think. Walk it off. Yeah. And bubble back. Oh, yeah. Strictly bubbles. Are you like bath bomb or? Salts.

I would say bubbles, but I do love a bath bomb. Okay. I haven't had one in a while, though. Both are acceptable. I'll give you some. I got quite the collection. Amazing. You're going home with some bombs.

What's that? What's that store that you make them at? Did you ever do that? Yes. That's where I have somewhere. Actually, one of them is kind of disintegrated because I've had it for too long. I need to use it. But for Christmas.

And my birthday, his mom always gets me bath bombs. I haven't used my last one from Christmas. I had to get back into my bath. Bath game. You were, you were, why were you? I was, because I had a back injury. Oh. And the only thing that could make it feel better was like a hot bath.

I would come out of the bath just feeling so much better. He was like, I understand why you do these now. And I would always be like, want to take your bath? He's like, no. I know. And now that my back is better, I haven't been doing them. But, you know, I kind of miss an aspect of them. I'll run you one later

Okay, thank you. Number five. I've lived there. Big girl. No, I was going to. I'll run you one later, big boy. Oh, thank you. Thank you.

All right, keep a PG. Yeah, my dad's like, please stop. Yeah, right. Number five. What would you say is the most misunderstood thing about you? I would say that people meet me or like, see me. I feel like I'm genuinely like this bubbly, happy person, but I don't think people always realize exactly what I went through and what, like, got me here. Yeah.

Yeah. Yeah. So I think that might be. Yeah. A little bit. Yeah. Misunderstood. Yeah.

Yeah. Mm-hmm. Which I am happy. Yeah. But there's a lot, like, beneath that and a lot of work I put into it to get where I'm at. Yeah. Yeah. Um, number six.

Who's had the most positive impact on your mental health? My parents, for sure. And then my siblings and my closest friends, too. But my parents, just because they always help me find the, like, positive things. And let me know that it's okay if I'm not okay. Yeah. So that's so awesome. Yeah.

I love that. That's special. Yeah. All right. Last but not least, number seven. if you could go back to one moment in your life, what moment would it be and what would you say to yourself? I would go back to when I was really sick with Lyme disease and I went into my best friend's room, Jacqueline. But I went into my best friend Jacqueline's room and I was like, I think I need to go to.

to Germany and do this treatment. And she said, okay, let's do it. But at that moment, it was so scary because we didn't know what was going to happen or if I was going to lose all my hearing. But I think just going back to that moment and being like doing this treatment and losing your hearing as hard as it's going to be, it's going to be one of the most beautiful things, if not the most beautiful thing to ever happen to you. Yeah.

So I think I would go back and just be like, you're going to be okay. Yeah. Yeah. I love that. It sounds like you really have such an amazing foundation of people around you, family and friends. I really do. I was very blessed. Even with, I'm still so close with all my high school friends and my college friends.

My parents are always like, it's so unique to have such a good friend group like you have. Yeah. And I've had them all for such a long time. Yeah. It's so special. Well, I think that's all, folks. unfortunately. No, not unfortunately.

We're going to go make some TikToks now. Okay. But thank you so much for coming and I think our lemon drops and I mean myself included and I know you too. I feel like we just like learned so much about you and I feel like there is so much to learn from you whether you feel like you're like making a difference in that way or not. And even people that don't struggle with hearing loss can take step away from your story and just like the. outlook you've been able to have. It's really special. So thank you for coming and sharing with us. Thank you both for having me. I'm like I'm so happy to be here. This is like only the beginning for you. And like I mean it in like strip everything that's awesome and exciting happening to you. That's like not normal.

Strip that away. Just you again. Back to honestly what I opened with. Back to just you as a person. I'm so excited for what is in store for you, just as Daisy. And it just, I don't know. I just, I'm so excited for you. And I'm very thankful that we have you in our lives. Thank you. I'm very thankful for you guys too. Thank you.

Thank you, thank you, Daisy for being here and joining us today. It was as you could tell, an honor and joy to get to know you more. And we can't wait for game night. Yeah, game night. If you guys want to go check out our TikToks, we made some fun. Good ones. We made some fun TikToks. There is one that has a remote in it.

And funny enough, the remote was left in our studio. And that will be... And it was her actual TV remote. It was her actual TV remote. She ended up ordering another one. I called her after she left. I was like, you left your remote. She's like, it's okay.

It's got a broken anyways. I'm why I knew one. I was like, okay. So that is now, we have a... a piece of Daisy forever and always in our studio. Yeah, we should frame it. Yeah. We should get it in a shadow box.

Yeah. That's beautiful. Daisy's remote. Maybe just like... Daisy's remote. Yeah. Just like right here behind us. We could sell that. Oh, we probably could.

Yeah. Okay, we'll let you guys know if we put it online. Send you the Craigslist, the Craigslist listing. But I hope you guys have an amazing rest of your day. Thank you so much for spending a little bit of time to better your mental health and to hang out with us. love you and see you next week. This podcast has been brought to you by Podcast Nation.