The Squeeze - Lele Pons: Motherhood, OCD & Life After Baby

Episode Date: July 29, 2026

In this week's episode, Tay sits down with actress, singer, content creator, and podcaster Lele Pons! Lele opens up about her pregnancy journey, including what it was like to come off her mental health medications during pregnancy and how she navigated that transition. She gets candid about pregnancy weight gain, the biggest adjustments motherhood has brought, and the parts of postpartum she wishes more people talked about. Lele also shares how becoming a mom has changed the way she approaches social media and where she landed on the decision of whether to show her baby online. She opens up about her mental health journey, including why she decided to speak publicly about it, when she was diagnosed with OCD and the signs she noticed, as well as her experiences with depression, anxiety, and ADHD. She shares why weekly therapy has become a non-negotiable and the other ways she prioritizes her mental health. Lele wraps up by talking about her new podcast, Suite 305 with Lele Pons, a weekly interview show from iHeartMedia's My Cultura and TikTok Podcast Networks, available on the iHeartRadio app, Netflix, and everywhere podcasts are heard!Be sure to follow Lele on https://instagram.com/lelepons/ and https://tiktok.com/@lelepons!Check out Suite 305 with Lele Pons: https://www.netflix.com/title/82980862!To email us your questions or share your story, you can reach out to [e-mail] sure to rate, review, and follow the podcast so you don't miss an episode! Plus, follow us on all of our socials:The SqueezeInstagram: https://instagram.com/thesqueeze/TikTok: https://tiktok.com/@thesqueezepodcastTay LautnerInstagram: https://instagram.com/taylautner/TikTok: https://tiktok.com/@mrstaylautnerAmazon Storefront https://urlgeni.us/amazon/FDXj7 Taylor LautnerInstagram: https://instagram.com/taylorlautner/TikTok: https://tiktok.com/@taylorlautnerTo learn more from The Lemons Foundation, follow https://instagram.com/lemonsbytay/ and visit https://lemonsbytay.comEpisode Sponsors:Go to http://shadyrays.com and use code SQUEEZE for 40% off 2+ pairs of polarized sunglasses.Get 15% off Branch Basics with the code SQUEEZE at https://branchbasics.com/SQUEEZE #branchbasicspodFind your nearest Ross at RossStores.com.Visit https://justingredients.com/SQUEEZE and use code SQUEEZE for 20% off your first order.Go to lululemon.com right now. New styles drop all the time and the colors go fast, so don't wait.Check out staples.com/TheSqueeze for the most wonderful deals of the season.Shop Honest on Amazon, Walmart and Target.See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

The following podcast is a dear media production. I didn't like being pregnant. I'm going to be honest. Because I had to stop my medication. How was your pregnancy? I was in Vegas, drunk. I told my mom, I was like, I went to Earth Cafe, which I love, and I peoped. She was like, take a pregnancy test.

And I was like, Mama, no, there's a pain here. Different type of pain. And that's how I knew it. I was four weeks pregnant. It was a very hard pregnancy. I had to immediately get rid of my medication. And I've never been without them since I was 10. I did have a therapist, like, the whole time.

But I was like, I'm sorry. It's not working. What we've done in therapy is not working. I didn't know what was going to happen. Did you go through a withdrawal period? It was horrible. It was a different person. I was not stable.

I have OCD, severe OCD with my mind stuff. It was out of control. And I've never been out of control like that. Well, Lelie, welcome to the squeeze. Thank you. So excited. Congratulations. Oh my gosh, thank you.

I know we were just talking before. I have a belly in here somewhere, but I'm trying to figure out how to like balance the mic and the laptop and all of the things. And I can't wait to get back. back to wearing what you're wearing. Right. Honestly. It took me like now.

But it happens, by the way. Yeah. People are like, oh, like my, my body, when is it going to come back to normal? It will. Yeah. It will. Exercise and eat healthy. Yeah.

It will. Yeah. Yeah. I'm, I'm excited for that. I think also because right now it's like so hot too. So I'm like, I don't, it's, the options are limited in what to wear. But I'm in a blink. It's going to be over.

Oh, yeah. And then I'll be, I won't be complaining anymore about it. Do you like being pregnant? It's a great question. I'm trying to sort that answer. Obviously, yes, especially now because like the movements are like so big. So it's like fun getting to like feel her move around in there and like the bonding. I feel like actually is like starting now.

But it's definitely not been like it's been a bit rough. I didn't like being pregnant. Yeah. I'm going to be honest. Because I had to stop my medication. When you're pregnant, you stop your medication. Yeah. And it was the first time.

It was so, like, we weren't planning. It was like, it was unexpected. Yeah. That was us too. Yeah. Exactly. Yeah. We all know how it happens.

Yeah. But I had to stop my pills. And that. And then, you know, what I showed you. Yeah. It was just a lot. Hormones. Yeah.

Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. The hormones. I feel like that's what I'm really feeling right now. And I normally have a lot of patience, but I feel like my patience is thin right now because I am like, I feel so large and uncomfortable. And this hurts and it's hot. And I'm like just like so it's just I feel like I wasn't.

I don't know how you felt about it. But I feel like I wasn't prepared for pregnancy. Oh, me neither. Like, well, yeah. Yeah, we both. I mean, obviously I was like, I had, so I had gone off my birth control for like maybe like six or eight months. And I told myself, because I'm 29, I told myself when I turned 30, then I would like actually start, like, we would start actually trying and tracking and doing all that stuff. But if we just got pregnant, not tracking or anything.

And I don't know if it was because I hadn't like done research on pregnancy before or what, but I, me neither. I just like was everything about it. Like I was just like, oh, morning sickness. Oh, like you. I just wasn't expecting a lot of the symptoms and to feel like a certain ways. I don't know why. Isn't that crazy? Yeah.

I don't know if it's like not. I was thinking that it's maybe because like obviously like first trimester stuff is like you don't share that you're pregnant in your first trimester. Then you're in your second. And then you kind of like just forget about your first trimester because you're moving on. So no one talks about it. So I was, I feel like a lot of the first trimester stuff. It was hard. The first trimester is a little hard because it's like you you want to get away from the danger zone.

Yeah. After I think how many weeks? I think after 14 weeks. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. How was your pregnancy? Um, okay.

So I actually got out of my birth controls. Mm-hmm. Two months before. Mm-hmm. Yeah, two months before. Yeah. And I didn't know. Like, you know, I didn't, I never really followed the, oh, this is the time of,

of the month. What is it when you're ovulating? Yeah. I didn't follow that. I didn't have an app for that. And I was in Vegas drunk. Like, you know, when I didn't know, I was in Vegas drunk. And then I told my mom, I was like, I went to Earth Cafe, which I love.

And I peoped. And she was like, take a pregnancy test. And I was like, Mama. No. So I didn't. Yeah. And then my, she called my friend. And he was like, please, just for me.

Yeah. And then I was like, oh, my God. I'm not going to take it. put it there. And then my friend was like, let's see the symptoms. And I was like, puking. And I was like, yeah. I mean, I puk. You know, maybe I ate something. And I know. And then he was like saying everything. And I was like, no, no, no. And then he said, there's a pain here. A different type of pain. And I was like, one second. And that's how I knew. And I got, I was pregnant. I was three weeks pregnant. Okay. Or four weeks pregnant.

Yeah. I was four weeks pregnant. Yeah. And it was a very hard pregnancy. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. because I had to immediately get rid of my mental health pills, my medication. Yeah. And I've never been without them. So how long have you been on them before? Since I was 10. Oh, wow. Yeah.

Yeah. So I was, I didn't know what was going to happen. And, you know, personal things happened. Many things happened. I even got food poisoning while I was pregnant. Yeah. And that was very hard for me. I, you know, personal self, my grandfather was sick, you know, what I showed, the video I showed you.

Yeah. It was just like everything. Everything was, I mean, I loved it because of, you know, I felt, I felt it was so beautiful, you know? Yeah. But I was just like, it depends on you. Yeah. And I just feel like I was ready to see her out because I felt like I can see, you know, like I can see her. You know, and I, I did love just like, I can give birth many times.

My birth, my birth was actually pretty good. Wow. Yeah. And I was really scared. Yeah. What was your, like, coming off your meds? Like, did it ever level out for you? Like, did you ever, like, did you go through kind of a withdrawal period with them?

Or how was that? I was, because that's a lot to just, like, have to. And I drink a lot of, like, I have a lot of medication. Yeah. You know. It was horrible. Yeah. It was like I did like everybody was like I've never like I can't recognize her.

You know, I was a different person. I was an unbalanced person. I was not stable. Yeah. I just like was like doing a lot of like OCD things. I have OCD like severe OCD with like my mind stuff. Yeah. But it was very hard because it was out of control.

Yeah. And I've never been out of control like that. And but I did have a therapist like the whole time. But I was like, I'm sorry, like, it's not working. What we've done in therapy is not working. Yeah. Yeah. No, that's hard.

When you look back at your pregnancy, was there ever a moment where you didn't recognize yourself or you weren't feeling like yourself? Because I feel like I've, I had that earlier on in my pregnancy, like, during my first trimester, because I had like severe, like, I was, the hunger was insane for me. And then when I was hungry and I wouldn't eat within five minutes, I would get nauseous. And I hate throwing up. So I would eat food. So I gained like 15 pounds in like three weeks. And it's like you're at that point where there's not a bump, but like you're a little fluffy. And like I had gained weight.

And I was just like I don't even know. I gained 50 pounds when I was pregnant. And I don't like when people say like the normal is this. No, no, no. The normal is whatever happens. You know, we're all different. We all have different bodies. I'm not kidding.

Like I gained 50 pounds and then I was like, okay, so I'm going to lose it later with the baby. No, no, no. Like you lose like 10 pounds. Yeah. When you get birth. But listen, it's how it is. It's because you have so much liquid after. Yes.

So it's the baby. It's the placenta. It's the liquid. It's, I mean, everything because you are making a baby. It's not easy. Yeah. Yeah. I know.

I think my like, I'm kind of at the point now where I'm like, I'm just like over it and I'm not even like thinking about the weight that I've gained or. Don't see it. Whatever. Because that was hard for me in the beginning. I think just because weight is something that I've never really struggled with before. So when I had put on that much weight that fast, I was like, what is going on? And it's uncontrollable.

Yes. Because that's something like you can do, don't ever do like eat healthy, but don't do a diet. Don't stop eating. Please don't. You can't do that. Yeah. So for me, it was like, I, I, I, I, wouldn't eat, I would eat normal, like how I always ate and I would gain.

Yeah. But you have to think about like, because your baby's growing. Yeah. And you know, it's, it's something that, something that I really loved about pregnancy is how the things that you craved. Mm. I never craved before. lentils.

I never craved lentils. Lentals. Isn't that weird? Yeah. I ate lentils every time, every day. But it's good because it has a fiber. Yeah, yeah. Iron.

Iron fiber. Is that how you say? Iron? Iron? It had the good things. It had good things inside. That's all that matters. That's so funny. Do you crave anything? I know. I'm trying to like, I really, my biggest thing was the food aversion. So like during when I had gained all that way, I wasn't, I couldn't eat like. Certain things. Yeah. Well, honestly, it was almost everything. Like, I can only have like toast and buttered noodles and watermelon. I literally like lived off of that for like any protein grossed me out. That was me for like three weeks. That's why I gained the weight so fast because I was just eating grilled cheese and noodles for three weeks.

But I was like, I'm over it now. But I'm just like, I still kind of struggle because I'm like, I think I'm probably gained four, I'm probably at like 40, 45 pounds now. So I'll probably hit like 60, which I'm just like. It doesn't matter. Yeah. It doesn't matter. And I'm, I've just accepted the stretch marks.

I'm like, I'm going to have this baby and I'm literally going to forget about it. So I'm like, I'm not even going to dwell on it right now because like I'm actually not going to care when she's out. It's crazy how when she's out, you don't care about your body, nothing. You just care about how healthy she is. Yeah. You're like, I did like, I'm so happy. You focus on her.

You're not the main character anymore on your story. I mean, still, you know, still take care of yourself. But yeah, it's such an amazing love. It's a shocking love. Yeah. Your world is like, oh my God, like this baby is now

forever going to change. you and be in your life. Yeah. Wherever. You don't even know, like, you don't know anything right now. It's, it's a weird, it's a weird feeling. Yeah.

It's beautiful. You're going to have a blast. That's so sweet. Did you, did you want kids? Yes. Okay. Yes, I wanted kids. Actually, it's pretty amazing how the day that I found out I was pregnant, I told my dad,

I told my dad, I told my husband. I was like, I want to have a baby like next year. And he was like, no, honestly, Lele, I want to have a baby in like three years, four years. Like I want to wait a long time. Like he was like, I want a baby in four and three years. And I was like, I wanted this year. And he was like, can we wait like three years and everything? And I was like, sure.

And then at night, I found out I was pregnant. And I didn't tell him then. But in my mind, I was like, psych. Yeah. We're having it now. Like, so, yeah, but he definitely wants a lot of it. He wants four kids, but like not now. Yeah.

But now, like, he's, I think better now. Honestly, when you're young. Yeah. I mean, you can have it at any time. But having it when God get like whenever like unplanned or it's just like I don't know. It's like there's a reason. Yeah. Yeah.

Is any part of you nervous to have your second in the sense of like because because we weren't trying? I'm like what if this was like a random fluke and because I was off my birth control for so long? Like is it going to take me a long time? I think that's just like an intrusive thought that I've been having recently is I'm like. anxious for like having our next kid because of that. Not because of that. I think I'm an only child.

Me too. Yeah. Oh, really? Yeah. Good, good. Love that. I think that siblings are very important. Yeah.

I do think. I've always thought about that. And I'm an only child. I had a blast being an only child. Yeah. But I do think that once you have a baby, the second one has to, you know, like, don't wait. I don't know.

You can wait whenever you can wait however you want. But I would, for me, I would have it like in three years after or two years after. Yeah. So it can be almost the same, you know. Yeah. The same age. Yeah. Yeah.

I do one another one. I think it's very important. I don't know. I love siblings. I've seen siblings all over the place and I'm like, I wish I had a sibling. I know. I know. Me too.

I feel that. What's been the biggest adjustment during motherhood and with motherhood for you? The biggest adjustment. Yeah. I think is the responsibilities. How much, you got to mature. Like, it's like you can't forget stuff. You have to be on top of many things you weren't before.

I think it's also my sleep. Like, you know, people think like I have a night nurse. I don't have a night nurse. I have my mom and me. My mom is a pediatrician and she actually used to work night shifts in the hospital. So she helps me With nighttime with the baby Yeah

So sometimes I do it Sometimes she does it Sometimes also my husband wants to do it But I Good thing is that she sleeps throughout But it's the It's the what changes like I wake up like

Is she okay kind of thing Like I wake up like almost like I need a check You know everything's okay And it's like you don't really sleep Like Peacefully you can But like

Yeah You know it's like I was like, you know, like it's, you hear the baby cry, you gotta wake up. Yeah. Yeah, I already know that's gonna be me because I do that like with her dogs. Really? I love that. I do that with our dogs.

So I'm like, yeah, I have a dog. I love dogs. Yeah. So I just, I already know that that's, that's also just my personality is like I have to, even when we have like friends staying with us, I like, I need to get up before them and like, you know, make sure the coffee's made or make sure, like, whatever it is. and I already know that I'm going to just be like very. Is there like something that, you know, I don't know if you like sushi.

Uh-huh. But you know you can't eat sushi even now. Like, or maybe you do. But is there like something that, I don't know, I love how I'm interviewing you. This is great. I'm sorry. Is there something that you're like, welcome to the squeeze. And welcome to the squeeze.

I am your husband. Yes. But is there something that you want to eat so much after when you, when you, when a. I am very excited. for sushi. I love sushi. So I'm excited for that. Recently, I think because I haven't craved, I don't, I don't really drink. So like I wasn't really craving alcohol at all during it. But now that it's like summer, like I just like an aporol spritz like. Exactly. Now like wine. Yeah. Like a glass of white like wine sounds so good. And I also feel like because of all my hormones.

I'm like, oh my gosh. Like I could just like really use a glass of wine right now. So actually last night I poured like a It's like a leachy sparkling, it's like a flavored thing. I'd poured it in a wine glass. And it had it out of a wine glass last night. And I was like, I just need. You just like need to emulate the feeling of it. Listen, listen, there's no rules. Yeah.

Like, I mean, there are rules, but they're like, you're good. You're good. Yeah. We always are, like, scared about stuff. But you're good. Yeah. The sunglasses situation used to stress me out. You find a pair.

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You know what I mean? Like, yeah, because, and I'm, I'm going to explain why, because sometimes, like,

your husband or your partner might think, like, my God, is she mad at me? Like, you're going to change a little bit because you're going to be, you know,

sometimes, you know, in a mood that is very not, like, not, you're not, they're not used to that mood. You know,

it's just like, it's important for the husband to know, like, you're just, you are going through something and you should be unapologetically,

you during postpartum. This is your journey. journey and everything remember everything is changing even your even your brain yeah when you're pregnancy when you're pregnant um your brain shrinks I don't know if you knew that um so you your body went after you give birth you're coming back to your like normality you know it takes you a while to go back to yourself like you know like yeah mentally and everything and postpartum is something very real people don't talk about it it is very real and people think like like, oh, like, you know, but like back in the day, my grandmother, like, didn't cry.

No, no, no. Maybe she actually did. She just didn't show it. But it's a very common thing. And I feel like it's good that the husband knows that it's because you're going through something. It's not about, like, you're not mad at them. You're not. It's not like, it's just like something temporary.

Yeah. I know. That's been, that's been my husband's hardest thing is he's like such a fixer. So like when I'm feeling emotional, even this morning, I was like, I was like, I, when I was getting ready for this, I was just like in a mood and he was like, well, like, what are you feeling? Like, I was just like, I'm so tired. And he was like, well, what's going on?

Like, what are you feeling? And I'm like, I don't know. But that I've also like, I don't want to talk about it because I'm going to start crying for no reason. If I start talking about it and there's actually nothing even going wrong. So it's like. You get frustrated by being frustrated. Yeah.

Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. With being frustrated. Yeah. No, truly. So I'm like trying to, he obviously knows that. And he's so sweet and just like wants to make me feel better.

but I'm like, I don't know. It's chemical. Yeah. And luckily I have two of my like close friends are also pregnant. They're like right behind me. Oh, that's amazing. And so we all just like text in our little group chat of like how we're feeling and what's going on. So I was texting them this morning.

My other girlfriend was like having a day yesterday. So we all like are able to talk about it with each other, which is great. Because I mean, my husband's amazing. But like he can't like relate to. That's why I think my husband too, he tried to understand. It's just hard to understand because they will get like, bro, like I'm doing everything right. Like, why are you mad at me? They have to understand. I said, it's not personal. Yeah. Yeah. It has nothing to do with them. I'm curious has because your, your kind of origin and something that is so part of your career is being online and being an influencer, being on social media, making videos. Has being a mom changed how you look at social media? Yes. How so?

100%. I'm very protective. I was always so public. And it's one thing that they criticize or they comment about me or they give me, you know, yeah. It's one thing that they comment about me and they criticize me or have opinions on, like, about me. But once you have a baby, you get very sentimental, you get very overprotective or what they say about your baby. or even them having opinions. It does affect me.

Yeah. Like one thing is me, one thing is like my baby. So I have been very, you know, it's like almost like when I post about me, I'm like, but when I post about my baby or with my baby, it's very uncomfortable sometimes, you know? But I mean, I do it because if it's her birthday or mom's day, you know? Yeah. But I don't know if you're going to, are you going to show your baby? I don't at this moment I don't think so so in I I was not going to show my baby yeah I was never going to show my baby

however when I there was a I baptized my daughter and somebody took a picture and I said before they use before they show it and and sell it to the world and then people make AI videos of my baby I'm going to show it I knew it was coming yeah because I had heard that it was coming like some people took pictures of their her face And I'm like, before they do it, I'm doing it. Yeah. This is, this is, it belongs to me. Was that hard?

Horrible. Yeah. So, yeah, I think. And it wasn't Puerto Rico, like, you know, like I did baptize my daughter where my husband was baptized, you know, and it was a public. Yeah. In San Juan, it's a public, um, uh, church. Okay.

And we tried to make it like, you know, private, private. Yeah. But it was impossible. I tried my best. I'll show you actually, there's a video that they, that there's me is me saying no to somebody who was taking pictures but it yeah. I'm sorry. That's hard.

It is hard. But, you know, after I showed her, I was, I actually, if you see my stuff, it's like, I've only showed her, like, I only taken, like, two pictures and posted, like, her face, like two times, three. And the rest, it's not her face. Yeah. But, you know, you have to understand something. The good thing is that if you show her now, like I showed her, my husband.

My husband said, listen, she will change. She will not be that baby. They change so much. Yeah. I think it's beautiful. If you don't want to show her, don't. Yeah. I mean, that's not crosses my mind all the time.

They'll have something like that situation. By the way. It's a balance. Yeah. Yeah. Because like that happened with our wedding and our like someone leaked photo, someone photographed like us having our first look. They were like on the other side of a mountain and they like had a camera.

shot that and I was so scared when I was pregnant that someone was going to see you know me and Taylor walking into my obie's office together or like I was I because I started show because I gained weight so fast and I was showing I was like I'm scared that someone's going to find out so like I when we posted I was like thank God yeah like I got to do this before anyone else said so that thought definitely crosses my mind because I'm like what if you know what if we're like at a premiere or what if, you know, so it's just like, it's something you can't control. When it happens, you know what to do. Yeah.

You know, I was just, I was just afraid that, you know, somebody, it's just, I don't know. It was like, that's so personal. You're not going to ruin that for me. Like, this belongs to me. Like, she's mine. You're not going to use her for honey. So I was like, hell no. Yeah.

So I ruined that. I ruined that guy's chance for anything. Right. Yeah. I'm proud of you for doing that. Thank you. Thank you. Okay, I want to dive a little bit into mental health.

You touched on your OCD a little bit before. And I know you did a whole YouTube series about this about your OCD. What made you want to, had you ever opened up before then, what made you want to do that series? I wanted to do that series because when I was, I go to NBI, I go to NBI Weston, which is a, you know, a neurological behavior institution. Okay. And I've been going there since my God, I was like 10, yeah, since I was 10. Is that here in the U.S.?

No, in Miami. Okay, okay. That is in Weston in Miami. Okay. And one time that I was there, my doctor, my therapist, her name is Katia Moritz. She came to me and she was like, there's a little girl who is a fan of you. I know that because, like, she's told me before. and she does not want to get treatment

because she thinks that, you know, she's going to be different and, like, laughed at it. She doesn't want to get treatment. So do you want to talk to her? And I was like, yes, I do. I want to talk to her so maybe I can push her. If somebody knows that you're idol or someone that you admire

is going through the same thing as you, it makes it easier, you know, to do stuff like that. So I went to her and I was like, look, I've done this, I've been in that chair. It's super cool to get, therapy. It's supernatural. And she did. After she talked to me, she actually wanted to go to Katta. And I've seen her. And she's so much so well. So I was like, if I do this documentary, maybe I can educate parents. And I can educate everybody who maybe by seeing me, they're like, maybe I have that.

Some people don't even know they have OCD or bipolar or anything. And then while they see another person talking about it, they might be like, I want to, I want to actually check if I have this. say, but maybe there's so many people that might need medication. Yeah. Yeah. Was that scary doing? Oh, my God. Yeah.

But, you know, I, we took off the comments. Yeah. Yeah. Oh, okay. Yeah. So they can say whatever they want. But like under that, I took away the comments because, you know, it's social media. And not everybody is going to like accept or maybe, you know, oh, it's fake.

It's this. That's so. At the end of the day, like, you know, you. And I did not read any comments those months. That's good. So I don't know anything. When were you first diagnosed with OCD and what led to that diagnosis? What was going on?

Yes. So I was nine years old, almost 10. And I couldn't stop touching the handle of the car. That's how it happened. I couldn't stop. Close and open. Close and open. And then my dad had to grab me.

Like literally for me to something, I was crying and crying and crying. Because you don't, like, you don't know. You don't know why. It's a feeling of like if you don't touch something, something bad's going to happen. You feel like, like, like, first of all, tingling, like almost like, you feel very uncomfortable if you don't do what OCD is telling you to do. Yeah. So I didn't understand why my body couldn't control itself almost. I had to touch it.

And then like, sorry. And then my dad was trying to figure out what that was even called. My dad was asking around like, like, what, what is this? Yeah. She did this, this is this. And then somebody like, actually like my divorce therapist, like, what is that divorce person that like is with your, with your parents? What is that?

Like therapy? Like, I don't know. Like a lawyer? No, no, no, no. Like I was going through therapy already for my parents' divorce. Oh, okay. So he asked her and she said, oh, I think she has OCD. Got it.

I've always had it, but this one was like more physical, you know? Before it was different. There's mental OCD and there's physical, the ones that you see. But there's also like the ones that you think. So my dad, we went to this place and I was diagnosed and it was like 100%. I have. Yeah. And then I had OCD and then, you know, as you're older, you get depression.

Yeah. As you're diagnosed with depression, anxiety, many other. things. But I have like, yeah, depression, anxiety, ADHD. Yeah. Okay. Sorry. Yeah.

That's how you say it in English. I say it Spanish. Yeah. And then OCD. And what's crazy, what's crazy about it is that you actually change, in my OCD, you change OCD. Like, I don't have that OCD of the opening doors. And then you do other ones.

The touching the floor, the picking up something and dropping it. Yeah. It changes. Yeah. Where are you at today with your OCD? It's more mental. It's not so much. I mean, it's not so much.

It is touching sometimes. Yeah. It is touching, but it doesn't stop me from doing stuff. Okay. You know, being late to things because I'm touching too much. Yeah. So it's very, it's very mild sometimes. Mm-hmm.

But other times it's not. Yeah. Yeah. Are you still in therapy today? Yes. How has therapy changed for you throughout the years? Therapy has changed. Well, throughout the years, actually, it hasn't. Like, I'm very, every week.

I'm very, very, I'm very strict with my OCD and my therapy. Yeah. If you miss a therapy session, can you, like, feel it? Like, do you feel anxious or? As long as you just take your medication, it's for me. It's very important. I actually, there was one time that I did not take my medication. And it was really bad.

It was just like you don't want to be out of, like, you don't want to be not in control of your brain. Yeah. Going into like getting pregnant again, are you nervous about that? Like having to go off your medication again? Is there different options of medication for you? you because you know now.

I'm just afraid. I'm just afraid of like taking medications. Like I don't know. I'm afraid. But what I do it again? The thing is I was not prepared. Yeah. But I would prepare myself.

You know what I mean? You have to like let your medit. Like you have to be a little bit of time without your medication, you know, and to see if you're used. I wasn't. So it was like a first for me not taking my medication. So for the second one, you know, I just like love feeling the baby inside me. Yeah.

Sweet. What is prioritizing your mental health look like for you? Prioritizing it? Like what do you do self-care-wise when you're feeling run down or when you need like... This is weird, but I do baths. That's a great answer. Baths make me so... I don't know, my whole body calms down. Baths is very important. I think like doing something that you love, for example, like Zumba. You know? I don't like to work out. I would love to love to work out.

Yeah. And I do it because I have to be like for health. Yeah. I don't love it though, you know, but I do love like dancing, you know. So I, yeah, Zumba. Yeah, that's so good. I had just started taking my girlfriend and I started taking like a hip hop dance workout class. Yeah.

But then we both got pregnant and then we're like, I guess we're going to have to wait to take this again. That's crazy. I know. So maybe it was something, maybe it was something in the hip hop class. But I'm the same with you Like I don't love Yeah it's not like you'll yeah let's go

It's like I have to do it Yeah You should like you like to dance You should be on dance with the stars I was on dancing with the stars I agree Yeah I think you should I was on dance with the stars

2020 Okay I know I actually think I watched it I was with Brandon Yeah I was Brandon I think you should do it Or your husband Yeah

100% I know. I don't think he ever would, but he would come and be the... Doesn't matter you do it. Yeah, he'd be the number one supporter there every week. But yeah, yeah, I'd love to do that one day.

It's a really good experience. Yeah, that seems so fun. You had fun doing it. It's the best experience I've ever had. Oh. So, everybody who says they love to dance, I go straight up.

Go to dance with stars. That's so sweet. Brandon seems great. I haven't met. I think I've briefly met him, but I know his wife. You know his wife, right? Yeah.

You have also interviewed. Uh-huh. I've had her on. Oh, I've had, yeah, I've kind of had, like,

I've had a lot of people from the show on the podcast, yeah. Are you friends with any, like, Ezra? Ezra. Yeah, Ezra, Riley, Jenna and Val were friendly with, too.

Val is insane and Jenna's insane. Yeah. They're so, they're so talented. They're awesome. Yeah. One day, maybe after this baby comes out,

um, I'll take it back in shape and then we'll, um. It actually will get you in shape. Yeah. Actually, I wish, like, I don't know, I wish I would do it now so I can get back to, you know what I mean? Like, because it actually, you get in shape without noticing. Yeah. Because you're having so much fun.

Yeah, that's, that's something I've been noticing with people too is like how you start to see them get like ripped from being on the show. Mm-hmm. It's crazy. Alice and Hannigan was one of them. She actually posted a before and after. Yeah, I saw, I saw that. That's so crazy. That's awesome. I have very specific options about what I will actually move in. Like, not everything earns. a regular spot and when something else does, I notice. The Little Lemon Shake It Out Short has fully earned it and I've been reaching for it constantly and I completely understand why people keep coming back for this one. I had these on but I figured holding them would be better to show you guys them so you can actually get the full picture of what these shorts actually look like.

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Amazon, Walmart, and Target. You don't have to have an answer to this question, but what's something that you had to unlearn to become a healthier version of yourself? I think I had to unlearn some mentalities of my family to become the person that I am. I mean, because remember, they have, they have different, like they grew up differently. Yeah. And some things that they believe don't go with today, you know? Yeah. So it's like, and I, and my family's from Venezuela and my family's also from, from Italy.

Okay. Ha-ha. And I was born in Venezuela. So though their beliefs are just different. different than mine. And I always had, but I always had like, I always believed what they would teach me. Yeah. But then all of a sudden, like, I changed, you know, well, one of, this is, I feel like this is controversial, but one of the beliefs that, you know, a long time ago, this has nothing to do with my family, but in like a school, I went to a Catholic school. You know, sometimes, they're more strict.

Yeah. And yeah, they're very strict. And they, you know, I don't know if you noticed, but like, they don't really are so open to, well, back then maybe now, yes, but when I was six, I don't think they were. They were not so open with gay. Yeah. With gays and lesbians. My dad was gay. No, my dad is gay. Not was.

My dad is gay. And they, like, he didn't go to my first communion. So that is something that I, even if they taught, even if they, like, they believed, I don't. Yeah. Unlearned that shit. Yeah. Yeah, that's hard, especially because I feel like, I think you're right. Just time, times are changing now.

Yeah. So you have to unlearn a couple things that it just doesn't work today. Yeah. Okay, I want to talk about something fun and exciting that you have going on in your life right now. Your new podcast. Thank you. Sweet 305. Can you tell us a little about it, a little bit about it, and what inspired it?

So I've been doing like Vine since I was like, 15 years old And I've met many people Throughout my life And I've collared with Many of my friends That are like people that are my friends now And it got to a point that because it was so long time

So such a long time ago The new fans or the new people that follow me They're very confused as to why I know certain people In my wedding I had the craziest invites It was like Steve Ioki was with Paris And Becky G And Steve I yo And Diplo

And then it was Winnie Harlow And then it was like It was just like You know, Anita and yeah So it was It was all over the place And people were like How is it that she knows this one

But this one doesn't go with So I was like That's funny I mean it's it I have a relationship with each person You know Yeah So I decided to do a podcast

To actually Invite all these friends that I know And show them They're like their They're They're their natural side. Yeah.

Like their friendship side, you know? And share how we met and share how, like, how they are, you know? And things that they don't know about them, you know? Because I've had this relationship with everybody and I want the world to also have a relationship with all my friends. Yeah. And it's been really nice. And I've never done anything personal. Like, because I do skits, I'm always a character.

I was just going to ask about that. Yeah. So this is like the first time I was like, you know, podcas is the future. Yeah. So I have to, you know, just like Vine died, you know, sadly, I had to move to Instagram, then YouTube, then TikTok, and I was like, podcast is a new thing. You have to adapt. Yeah.

Are you enjoying the longer form? Because, you know, the skits are like quicker things that you post on social media. Are you enjoying doing like longer form content? Yeah. I mean, going from six seconds to an hour, the sky's the limit, you know? you can do so much. It's like, I mean, your arms.

That's so funny. I love that. I like the concept of it too. Like, it's, I think it's really sweet when people can kind of pull back that layer of celebrities or people

in the spotlight that they know. Because I always remember one time when I first started talking about mental health, I had a girl come up to me. And this younger girl, she was probably like 16, 17. And she was like,

I did. didn't know that famous people struggled with their mental health. That's something that I wanted to do like in my in my podcast. I want people to to understand everybody that I that I know. Famous or not famous, to be honest. And it's good to be so like vulnerable in a very positive like this, a very positive way. You don't have to talk about like anything controversial. No, it's not about that.

It's like more about the human side, the fun, almost like you get to know them like your friend. Yeah. Yeah. No, it's special. And I think it's important to listen to those conversations, too. Because that's when you like, that's when you learn about yourself too in a way, just hearing those types of uplifting conversations. Well, I love that. I know you're a Swifty, right? I am. I gave birth listening to Taylor Swift. I actually have a video of it. What song? Style. Yeah. I mean, honestly, with your baby coming out in 36 minutes, I feel like that is a good song. Yeah. Like she's really just like making herself known. She's coming out in style.

I, exactly. Take me out. Like literally like that. Oh my gosh. Just take me out. What was your music playlist? Because that's what I'm struggling with right now. Oh, mine?

Yeah. Like did you have like, was it all like, because I know some people do, some people will do like the worship music or classical and then some people will do just like hardcore rap music or the girly pop music. Was it combination? Was it one genre? It's weird that it was like a lot of Justin Bieber?

No. Taylor Swift. Justin Bieber. Gasolina. Shakira. It was a mixture of everything. It wasn't really like, I didn't do rock. I did a lot of like, my God.

Yeah. Gasolina like reggaeton. Yeah. It was regettone. She loves to dance reggaeton. Oh. She just like, she does this. I'll show you a video. That's so cute.

I know. That's my. next, that's the next thing I'm I to do. Because I'm like, I don't think I can do like sweet music because that's just going to make me emotional. I'm like I like it's got to be like Britney Spears like. Exactly. Like it just needs to be that. Whatever makes you happy. Yeah. Whatever makes you like, oh, feel yourself. I don't know. Yeah. Well, thanks for coming and chatting and giving me such good mom in pregnancy and postpartum advice and we'll leave links down below. I love it. Awesome. Well, thanks for coming. Thank you so much. This is so fun. Thank you.

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