The Squeeze - Spencer Barbosa: Confidently Flawed

Episode Date: July 16, 2025

In this week’s episode, Tay is joined by social media star Spencer Barbosa for another girl-talk conversation! Spencer opens up about her early start in acting and her latest project Flawed, a show she hosts that takes individuals on a “make-under” journey of self-exploration where they learn to embrace and love their perceived flaws. She shares how the show came to be, where to watch it, and what she hopes viewers take away from its message. Spencer also gets candid about being bullied from a young age, how it shaped her mindset, and how she’s learned to set boundaries and not let online negativity affect her. She reflects on her rise on social media, how her relationship with content creation has evolved, and offers heartfelt advice for anyone struggling with self-love and confidence. Spencer shares the tools that support her mental health, the goals she’s working toward, and wraps it all up by answering the Lemon 7!Be sure to follow Spencer on https://instagram.com/spencer.barbosa/!Check out Flawed here: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLWD_DLUX_2GPs8umij9494nmtim0Gv03a&si=4Rteg73sbR5j8goGTo email us your questions or share your story, you can reach out to [e-mail] sure to rate, review, and follow the podcast so you don't miss an episode! Plus, follow us on all of our socials:The SqueezeInstagram: https://instagram.com/thesqueeze/TikTok: https://tiktok.com/@thesqueezepodcastTay LautnerInstagram: https://instagram.com/taylautner/TikTok: https://tiktok.com/@mrstaylautnerAmazon Storefront https://urlgeni.us/amazon/FDXj7 Taylor LautnerInstagram: https://instagram.com/taylorlautner/TikTok: https://tiktok.com/@taylorlautnerTo learn more from The Lemons Foundation, follow https://instagram.com/lemonsbytay/ and visit lemonsbytay.comEpisode Sponsors:Dogs deserve the best, and that means fresh, healthy food. Head to Ollie.com/squeeze, tell them all about your dog, and use code SQUEEZE to get 60% off your Welcome Kit when you subscribe today!Find Simply Pop and any of its five juicy flavors by visiting us online at cokeurl.com/simplypopIt Pays to Discover. See terms at Discover.com/creditcardRight now LMNT is offering a free 8-count Sample Pack of their most popular drink mix flavors with any purchase. This is a great way to find your favorite LMNT flavor, or share with a friend. Get yours at DrinkLMNT.com/SqueezeGo to cozyearth.com and use code SQUEEZE for 40% off best-selling temperature-regulating sheets, apparel, and more.Produced by Dear MediaSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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Oh, great. You're going to, like, go to your high school reunion and just like, remember? Hell yeah. I'm like, all of you hated me. I had an ex-boyfriend that told me I had cancels. I literally, to this day, see my ankles as cancels. If you're dating a guy who tells you every single day that you're ugly, that you're worth nothing and you suck, you're going to think you're ugly and you're worth nothing and you suck. Don't have a little rat in your ear telling you.

of cancles. Literally. Ladies. Leave him. I always wanted to be confident so badly that I'm like, if I just post about it, maybe I'll believe it's true. Fake it till you make it. I was like working a part-time job at Dairy Queen and I was like, this is horrible.

I don't want to work in fast food. And I started posting on TikTok. One day I just randomly was like, you know what? I'm feeling so insecure. So I just opened up. And like, there's no, I'm the only girl in the world that has literally back hair right right now. Can someone just admit that you have it too?

And I post a video like that. And then when that went viral, I'm like, holy, this is a whole. like different world out there. I'm never going back. Spencer, welcome to the squeeze. Thank you. I am so excited because I just love watching you on the internet. Thank you. I love watching you. I'm like, I'm a fan. Oh my gosh. But I'm excited because I feel like a lot of you as a human and your message and everything align so much with the podcast and me and everything. So I'm just excited to finally get our little Canadian over here. Yay, in chat. I'm excited. Get her here. Okay, so we start each episode off with this jar. It's a game called Citrus Got Real. If you want to pull out a

little piece of paper from there, they basically just have a random question in there. I feel like this one is speaking to me. Okay. What's your most used app in your phone? Obviously TikTok. I live on TikTok. I literally say I have brain rot because I'm always on TikTok. Do you, like you're also on it when you're not like posting? Yeah, like I post on it, but I'm always like watching it yeah like I'm a lover of TikTok do you feel like you pull inspiration from watching it for sure like if I don't watch videos like I find when I'm watching videos I can be way more creative yeah because it's always like sparking an idea yeah but yeah I'm always on TikTok sometimes I'll like if I'm in the mood to I don't I don't really post I'm trying to post more

yeah because I'm like I need to like actually like be alive on the internet if you post it I'll be all over it oh gosh thank you but I've been trying to like I'll I'll be like laying down And I'll like save a couple. And I'm like, okay, I'm going to film this. Like I'll like just like, but it's the same thing. It gets me like inspired to start filming and doing stuff, seeing other people's like good ideas. I also feel like TikTok is like even though there's like negatives from it. Like I feel like it's such a cool place because like I can't tell you how many times.

Like Instagram is way more like this is my aesthetic and this is this. But I'll literally like pick up and record a TikTok of me like nothing on my face. like Zit cream like just like no everything feels so like serious yeah on Instagram and then on TikTok I'm like oh my gosh yeah why am I talking about that out loud so unfiltered like I just I feel like it brings people together in a sense of like Instagram I feel like the Instagram model and the aesthetic and everything just like made it so like needing to be perfect yeah and TikTok is just so laid back honestly I feel like I follow the perfect people on TikTok that I'm just like it's just a positive experience always yeah yeah like every time I go

in the app. I never leave being like, oh my god, okay, I hate myself today. Yeah, no, that's good. Like, TikTok's just more fun. That's more like personality. That's what you need to do. I have a girlfriend that she has struggled with body image stuff in the past and she will just go and either like mute or block people that like are fit models and post stuff because she's just like that I can't. Yeah, I'm like, I don't mean to like offend you and it's supposed to be rude, but I have to block. Yeah, but I just can't. It's but I don't have no offense to them. Yeah. They're not doing it. Then you're protecting your own mental health with that. Okay, I learned something about you in research, which I didn't know, I guess.

I'm like, oh God, what did you learn? Watching you act. Yeah. I literally had no clue. I was like, you're just this cute little angel on the internet. But where did that start for you? I started acting when I was younger. So I always loved like doing theater.

Okay. And then my grandpa used to do just like background acting and movies and stuff. Oh, cool. And I would go to my mom all the time. I'm like, Mom, I want to be an actor. I want to be an actor. And then when I was like 10 or 11, I got an agent and just started doing like commercials and stuff. And then I ended up having my own family channeled like TV show. And I was one of the

characters on it. And then I kind of like stopped when I went to high school. And then just recently I'm like, maybe I need to do a little bit more than TikTok. Maybe I want to get back to it. So I had a show just come out that I'm like the host of it. Oh my gosh. So yeah. It's called flawed. Tell me about it. It's called flawed and it's all about like I grew up in the era of makeover shows where people like put makeup on, change their outfit. And they're like, oh my God, you're so hot now. So I wanted to make a show that was the complete opposite in that and it had like nothing to do with what they look like or what they were wearing and it was more about like how they feel about themselves. Yeah. So we did a make under show and I just like the host, I get to talk to them about their

insecurity, what they think their flaw is and we just own the flaw. It's really cute. Wait, I'm obsessed with this. Thank you. That's so cool. I've never even actually thought about like makeover shows. Yeah. I even think I'm like this is just the perfect example as Princess Diaries. when they literally like wax her unibrow and take off her glasses and then they're like, oh my gosh, she's a princess now. So I just tried to like make it completely different, like for sure. Just want to be opposite. I know you kind of mentioned before that you really are no stranger to bullying and it's has been

something that you've dealt with, not just on social media now, but growing up, when did bullying start for you? I literally, this is so depressing. Like, I can't remember a time where I wasn't. being bullied ever. Like from the youngest memory that I have, I just feel like I always got bullied in school for just like the stupidest things. I would get bullied for doing acting because I loved acting. And then I started posting on YouTube and then I would get bullied for making YouTube videos or when I was, I want to see like grade four. There was this girl that I thought was my best friend.

And then she started an I hate Spencer club. And I'm like, oh, it's great. And she made everyone in our class sign up. So that's when bullying started like grade four. I feel like I laugh about it. because I'm just like, I need to laugh. I mean, when you say it, it's like, it's comical. It's comical. Yeah, but like when you're in grade four, that affected me so much. Absolutely. And then I'm like, oh my gosh, nobody likes me.

Who am I going to be? It's like a do I even like me now because nobody likes me? Yeah. And then high school, I had a really hard time in grade 10, so I ended up actually switching schools because I'm like, this is, it's like just not fun to go to school every day and be like one kind of like scared. Yeah. And like you feel like you can not be yourself.

Yeah. So when I was in grade 11, I switched schools. and then it kind of went to just bullying online. So I'm like, it's just, it's been forever. But I do have to say I'm so, it sounds kind of messed up to say like I'm happy. It happened. But I feel like I'm me because it happened. Yeah.

And now I'm more like empathetic to other people's feelings or not that I would ever say something mean about somebody, but now I'm definitely like, okay, I would never say that because I've had that for me and I don't want to be like the negative to anyone. Yeah. Well, I also feel like it probably like helped give you some thick skin in order to, have the job that you have because being vulnerable and posting yourself on the internet, you're just like fully opening yourself up. Yeah, like if I didn't grow up hearing those things or being bullied, I feel like reading comments now would affect me so much more than they do. Yeah.

And I would just feel so like sensitive to it, but I feel like I have such thick skin now. Yeah. I was recently thinking about a time when I was bullied in like junior high. And I remember I liked this boy who was like my like best guy from but I had a crush on him and this one girl got all of the other girls to stand around me and sing the song like why he's so obsessed with me like sing that song and like tease me that I liked him like it's kind of like the same thing looking back I'm like that's actually like insane yeah like I would watch it on in like on a TV show or something and be like that would never happen I'm like that's not real yeah like that's so weird yeah it's it's it's it's It's such a weird thing, but I guess maybe it helps now having this job. And like when you're younger, everything feels so much more intense. Oh my gosh. But like now if somebody said to me like, oh, I started an I hate Spencer Club, I'd be like, why do you have so much time on your hands?

Yeah. You're like, sign me up. Honestly. I'm like, you'll get a hobby, please. Yeah. No, truly. Do something. How do you deal with bullying and hate comments online?

Do you feel like you've had to set a boundary with looking or are you just, Like sometimes I feel like if I'm at like a vulnerable state like if I'm in my Lydiaal phase or something and I'm hating myself yeah and I'm reading that like it affects me but any other time I just try and think like someone who's genuinely happy wouldn't say something like mean you know what I mean I've never had someone say hate comment to me with a person that I'd actually like want to trade places with yeah do you know what I mean like I I wouldn't want to be a hater online yeah I have never in my entire life commented something mean on someone's post yeah like that's never even crossed my mind and even if you like

See, not that I would even see something and like be mean towards it, but even if you saw a post you didn't like, like it is so crazy to me that you actually commented on it. Yeah. Like that's insane. So I feel like it doesn't really affect me anymore. Yeah. And like same thing. Could say thank you to getting bullied when I was younger because now it doesn't affect me. If your dog can talk, they would be begging you for Ollie. The full body tail wag, the excited little hops, the big goofy grin. That's the Ollie effect. Ollie delivers clean fresh nutrition and five. rule worthy flavors. Even the pickiest of eaters love them. Ollie is made in US kitchens with the highest quality human grade ingredients. Ollie's food contains no fillers, no preservatives, just real food. If you've been listening to this podcast for a while, you know how much Lily and Remy are absolutely obsessed with Ollie. It's been so cool to just see so many changes that you hear people talk about all the time when you actually feed your dog healthy food. It's really true. Their coats are shinier. Lily has more energy. We all know Remia's energy, but Lily just has more energy. She seems happier. She's more playful. Lily would not pick up a toy. Like she's just not. She doesn't really like

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And now when I watch them, like, girl, you're so, I was so insecure. I don't know how I was like giving advice on how to be confident. But I always wanted to be confident so badly that I'm like, if I just post about it, maybe I'll believe it's true. Do you what I mean? Fake it till you make it. Yeah. And then when COVID started, I was like working a part-time job at Dairy Queen and I was like, this is horrible.

I don't want to work in fast food. And I started posting on TikTok and I was actually posting like finance videos because that was what I cared about at the time. I was like 18 years old. I'm like, I want to save money. I want to learn all this. And I always cared about like making money and saving money and budgeting and things like that. So I was posting that. And then one day I just randomly was like, you know what, I'm feeling so insecure.

I wasn't really going back to school because it was COVID times. And I'm like, maybe I'll never see these people again. So I just opened up. And like, there's no way I'm the only girl in the world that has literally back hair right now. Can someone just admit that you have it too? And I post a video like that. And then when that went viral, I'm like, holy, this is a whole like different world out there, honestly. And I truly feel like I learned how to love myself through trying to teach other people how to love themselves.

And like being vulnerable. You know what I mean? Like just being open. It was so nice to have the feedback from other people that they felt the same way. about themselves or they had the same insecurities. And since I started posting like that, I'm like, I'm never going back. It was just my favorite to just get to be me online and not have to like put up persona or anything like that. Yeah, I love what you said about confidence too, because I feel like confidence isn't, you can't have confidence, but it's not a trait. It's like it is a facade. And like,

you can be confident if you tell yourself you're confident. You just really like have to love yourself. And I think the fake it to you make it is so. I always say being hot is a mindset. Yes. Like if you have the mindset, you're just hot. Yeah. You know? Period. Nothing has to change. Honestly. Because you can feel when someone walks in the room and they're confident, they love themselves. Like, you can just feel it. Yeah. You know, they don't have to go around and tell everyone like, oh, I'm so confident. They don't have to act like they're the hottest person in the room or the best person in the room. Like, that's not what they want. Yeah. They just want to feel like their best. Yeah. You know, it's not a competition. It's so true. How do you, how do you set boundaries with social media? Because I know, like, we know you're boyfriend, we don't know his name. How did you set those boundaries of what you want to share and what you don't want to? I feel like I still struggle with that all the time because I'm just such a natural overshare. Like if you asked me anything, I would just tell you. You know what I mean? That sometimes I'm like, okay, it's so hard to have a boundaries because what do I post? What do I not post? What do I say? I don't know. I feel like I'm still learning. And even though I've been doing this, it feels like I've been doing this for a month, honestly, but it's been like four years now that I'm still trying to figure it out. And I'm like looking around asking the people, around me. Like, what am I supposed to do? Um, the only boundary that I feel like I don't post is my

boyfriend's name just because I'm like, I don't need anyone to like try and Google him and go to his job or something like that. Like that's just weird to me. Yeah. And also like, you can see my boyfriend, you can like my boyfriend, but you don't need to know his name. Yeah. Like, that's the only thing I feel like I don't post about. Yeah. But it's so hard to have boundaries. Because I want to like share everything. Yeah. But then I'm like, okay. Spencer, I'm allowed to have a life outside of just online. For sure. How do you set the boundary with turning off your phone and not getting stuck in the brain rot? You're like, I have no clue. I'm like, can you tell me how? Teach me? I'm pretty bad at it, honestly. I live alone. So I feel like it's so easy to just be on my phone all the time because I don't have like human connection around me. So it's easy to just like even FaceTime my friends or face to my boyfriend and then I'm on my phone still. But I definitely like when I'm reading my comments and it's starting to kind of. hit me a little bit or like I'm reading it and actually like double thinking about the comment I'm like throw your phone out of wall like get rid of it right now yeah because I don't need

this thing that's sort of in my hand controlling how I feel about myself or how my day is going to be you know what I mean yeah yeah but I'm pretty I'm pretty bad at boundaries for that I have to admit that I feel like I swung like I used to be pretty involved and I would like look at comments and respond to people and then I like swung completely the other way I don't know why I think I just like maybe started seeing some mean comments. And I was like, I'm not looking. And so when we started the podcast, people would comment on stuff and be like, Hey, Tay, I know you're never going to see this, but I really love this episode because

blah, blah. I was like, okay, I actually like, you're never going to see it. I need to put, like, people know that this is a really big boundary. Like, I need to just like comment down a little bit. But it's cool because I feel like I've gone to a point where, again, post, like, I don't, I wouldn't say I'm of content creator. Like, I do post, but that's not my job. like what you and other content creators do.

Like I'm not taking that title because I could never do that. But girl, you post. You do it. Sometimes, yes. I post on, that's what I say. I post on social media. But I've gotten to the point where, don't get me wrong, I still sometimes do it. But I'll post because I'll just like save a bunch of stuff in my drafts.

And then I'll just like post. So I'm like, oh, I haven't posted in a couple days. Let me just post this. And then I forget I post it. And then like a couple hours later, I'll be like, oh, wait. You like, did that happen? How's that TikTok doing? I've posted that.

Like, let me go see what the comments are. So it's cool because I've kind of set, I feel like I've set this boundary of I'm just posting this content for me because I had fun filming this video. Because you like it. Or I did this cute little trend with my friends. Well, that's way better than like posting something and just being like, oh, how many views does I have already?

How many comments? Like when you get in that of being like, oh, I hope it's doing good. It's just you have to post it because you like it. Yeah. Not because you want it to do good and like not put pressure on it. Yeah. That's definitely like a big thing I've learned. Or if it gets stuck.

If it gets shadow banned. deleting it and do you does that ever happen to you and you have to like it like gets like 20 views yeah sometimes I'm like what's going on I never know what to do I have friends that are like delete it and repost it like I honestly just just keep going because like you post things that you like every single thing that I post like I had fun doing it yeah if it got 20 views still even 20 I sometimes think about like if I filmed a TikTok and 20 people watch me film it I like shaking it be so nervous I'm like a shy person So I'm like in front of 20 people, I'd be scared. But then if I had 20 views or 20,000 views or 20 million views, it's still like people saw it.

You know what I mean? If it impacted one person, then I'm just happy I even posted it. Yeah. What's your favorite kind of content to film? Because I know you're kind of like all over all of the social platforms. Or if they're, I mean, I don't know if it is TikTok, then like what specific, like if there's certain videos that you like. I honestly just love everything. Yeah.

Like if you spent a day with me, everything I do. I'm like, oh my God, this is so much fun. Let's make a TikTok. I'm like, I'm going shopping. Let's make a TikTok. I just genuinely love it so much. I love Get Ready with me because it's like, like I said, I live alone. It feels like I'm sitting there like talking to somebody.

Yeah. Even if that sounds depressing, I'm like, I'm talking to my phone, but I'm talking to somebody. I just, I love that connection, honestly. My girlfriend, Anna, Satar, you know who she is from? She's so cute. You and her are very similar in that. Yeah, I've never met her. I've always wanted to meet her.

She's just sunshine. She literally is sunshine. She's so cute. She's the best. I had her on the podcast. I think she was our first season and she left and I was like, I want to like do content like forever. Like she was just like the way she talked about it and her love for and like we feel some TikToks after and she was like she's so good at all the transitions and stuff. So she's like doing all the things that she leaves and I'm like I'm so inspired.

Like I feel so happy and so inspired to do content. And I feel like you guys are very similar. Like when you post your stuff, I'm like I'm actually like inspired to do stuff because I'm like I really, really like her. Anna also, she has this cool outlook on trolls and hate comments. She's like, people are just, like, looking to be involved. Like, they're looking for a place to, you know, give an opinion or to be. But, you know, it's just not a nice opinion. But she's like, people are just, like, trying to, like, be involved and they want to, like, be in a group.

Why is she so kind? Even a hate comment. I know. They're just involved. I know. I was like, that may be. I feel like they're just rude. Yeah.

It might be a little too, like, toxic positivity going on there. But she's, no, she's truly the best. I'm curious what advice you would give to someone that is struggling with self-love and body image. I would say to just be really kind to yourself and like take it day by day, especially at the beginning because like loving yourself is day by day and it's such a journey. I feel like everyone knows that. One day you could wake up being like, oh my God, I'm the most confident I feel so good about myself. I could go talk to anybody in the world. Like I'm just so happy.

the next day I wake up and I'm like, oh, I'm not feeling it today. You know what I mean? You just have to be kind to yourself day by day and not be your biggest bully because the things that we say to ourselves who would never say to anybody else. I would say unfollow people that make you feel like shit about yourself. Yeah. Like you don't need to go on Instagram and even if this girl is seems like a nice girl and you follow her, but when you look at her it just bothers you, you're allowed to just unfollow her. You don't have to be mean to her. You don't have to compare yourself to her, but you're allowed to unfollow people. What you listen to matters, the way that the people around you speak about you matters.

Like, do you want to be like the people around you? That's what I always think about. And like, if you're dating a guy who tells you every single day that you're ugly and that you're worth nothing and you suck, like, you're going to think you're ugly and you're worth nothing and you suck. So who's around you? Like, that really, really matters. The people around you impact your confidence more than you know.

Because if you have a friend that's like, oh, like, she doesn't want to take a photo with you because you look bad today or something. You can't be friends with someone like that. Or a girl who's like Face Tuning you in the photo. Like you can't be friends with a girl like that. Do you know what I mean? Like you can't,

you have to have supportive kind friends around you that love you the way that you are. And that will just immediately change your confidence in my opinion. Yeah. What you said about like dating someone is so true. And it's crazy how things that like stupid boyfriends, how they just like are ingrained in you. Yeah.

I had an ex-boyfriend that told me I had cancles. I literally like I don't actually don't even know the context I'm like how does this even come up in conversation literally I actually don't know the context of it and I to this day see my ankles and you think of that and I like I had a fitting the other day and I was wearing heels that had like the strap on ankle and I was like no these like show off my cancles like I was trying it on I'm like this is crazy and that's not even an insecurity that you have it's an insecurity that he gave to you That it literally, I never thought I had canckel. I never was insecure about my ankles.

Like literally. And it's so funny because I've been with my husband. I mean, we've been married for two and a half, but we've been together for seven and a half. Yeah. And I'm like, why is this still, this is still in my brain? He's like, you don't have cancles. Also, if you did have cancles, who cares?

Who cares? I'm like, you're right. But it's just, it's literally something that I like can't let go of. So I really need to find partners that. For sure. Lift us up. Oh my gosh. Your life changes when you have a good partner. Truly.

Completely. Like I remember when Taylor and I first started dating, I went to go get Botox for the first time, maybe like four years ago. And I'm like, it was something that I like just wanted for myself. I don't, I wanted a little bit in my forehead. And I was like, I just want to do this. And let me make me feel better. I want to still be able to move my face. I'm just going to try it out and see.

And he was like, why are you doing that? And I was like, well, I just want a little. little bit. He's like, why? A couple months ago, I was like, I think I might want to get lip filler, which I do, I also just say things that I have no filter with him. So I just like share my thoughts. She's like, I think I want to get lip filler. He's like, what are you talking about? You don't need lip filler. I'm like, no, you're right. But like having someone that like, he doesn't care if I don't shave my legs for two weeks. Like he's just so like he actually like just loves you the exact way that you are. Yeah. And it's yeah. It's so cool. And I feel like it's given me a lot of confidence

I always say like I've had the most individual confidence since we've been together, which is so like I feel like it's weird to say because we're like the most, I feel so confident in our relationship, but it's weird that having a partner that really just lifts you up and makes you like feel like the most beautiful person. Well, you don't have a little rat in your ear to like have cancles. Literally. I'm like it will literally just be so much better. Yeah. No, truly. And having having someone like that just completely changes it. So ladies. If you're listening, and do you have a partner? I'm like, please just have a good boyfriend. Please have a good boyfriend. He's not worth your time and energy, and we need to just get rid of them.

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going on this trip. But this girl's doing this. This influencer is posting with this brand. How does she get to work with them? But I didn't get to. I would always like compare myself and like people even in my comments will compare me to other influencers. You know what I mean? There's constant like this competition that I didn't even want to be involved in. Yeah. But honestly I feel like now I just love posting so much that I'm not really, I don't try and put so much like stress on myself. That's great. Like I just have fun. Yeah. I feel like that could be, I feel like with content, it's hard to know, like to feel if you're doing it off. Honestly, I feel like that's anything. That's something that I've learned about this whole like content entertainment industry is like you can reach a goal that

you set for yourself, but then it's not enough. And then like there's just, there's always more. there will always be more. When I hit one million followers, it's like, holy shit, a million. This is crazy. Oh my gosh. But then it's like, oh,

but I could get two million. Yeah. You know what I mean? It's this constant like comparison and competition. But I also feel like I really remind myself I just need to touch grass. And like, yes, I love my job and it is a job and I do see it like that.

But it's like it's not rocket science. Like I'm posting videos online. You know what I mean? I do really recognize that. And like my brother goes to work every day and like works in construction. And like that's crazy. crazy that he has to get up at like four o'clock in the morning to go do that. So anytime I get so stressed about my job, I'm like, okay, Spencer, chill out. Like, it's a video. Like, the world will

move and go on if you don't post your TikTok today. Yeah. It's really not that serious. Yeah. And if you start treating it too serious, like, I can watch someone's TikTok and tell if they're having fun or if they're doing it to like try and make money or get brand deals. Like, you know what I mean? Like, if you're doing it to have fun, I love watching their videos because I can feel that it's so carefree and it's real and authentic. Yeah. Then, like, if someone's taking it so serious. Yeah. Like it's really not that serious. It's a TikTok is what I tell myself. It's so true. Like it's not the end of the world. Yeah. But also like validating that even like, you know, your brother may be stress going to work. But like your, it's different kinds of stress for sure. Your stress is also. Yeah. And it still is like a job. And I feel like I hate that I'm constantly defending that to people when they're like in my comments. Oh, get a real job. I'm like I work every day. You just don't see it as a real job. Doesn't mean it's not a real job. Yeah. You know, it's hard. That's something I always say like I worked as a nurse. like during COVID. I literally worked in the hospital.

And that is like, it's just a different kind of job. Like when I would leave the hospital, like I would work three days in a row and like I would be able to completely check out and like I would be fine. Yeah. Like I'm not thinking about work.

I'm completely removed moving on with my life. And then I would go back and then it would be work. But with content and with internet and all of this stuff, you literally like it doesn't stop. It doesn't stop. Like it's even so crazy. my boyfriend will work. He works in finance. As soon as he gets home, it's like, he's off the clock. He's not working at all. But I'm like, no, it's 11 o'clock at night, but there's an email. And I need to do this or I need to edit this or I have this brand deal do. Like, it's always on. Or even when I go to a grocery store is like, I could think I'm just honestly just trying to look like shit. And I just don't really care. And I'm going to go to a grocery store. And then I bump into someone who's like, oh my God, I follow you. And then it's like immediately, it's not that you're on, but it's like you're always you. Like I can't stop being Spencer. Yeah.

Like, you know what I mean? No matter where I go, I'm always going to be Spencer. Yeah. It feels like you're always on. Yeah. You know? No, it definitely is like an on thing. And when people are like, well, it shouldn't like be an on if that's like who you are.

Yeah. But it is. Like when I'm out running errands, I'm like, I'm deep in my brain thoughts. I'm like, you know, maybe I had a rough morning. Maybe I'm just doing this. And like, if someone comes up to me, I don't want to be bitch and I don't want to like, you know, they, what do people always say? like don't, what is it, don't meet your idols or don't meet your, like, whatever it is. Not saying out people's idols.

But still, like, you see this person on the internet, you look up to them. And then they're like, hey, I love your podcast. And, like, I want to be able to, like, fully give them my everything. So sometimes, like, that's why, like, I never really go to events because I'm like, I want to be able to, like, have the mental capacity to fully have a conversation with someone. And, like, actually, like, if someone says they love the podcast, I want to, like, give them that love and appreciation back. not like it's it's such an interesting thing and I think I've learned that a lot too like from my husband

and like watching him obviously he's like another level but like watching him like out it's just it's so I feel like my craziest example of like you have to be on is I was literally at the hospital and I was leaving because my grandpa just passed away and I was going to get food and I'm like okay I don't want to talk to anybody right now like my grandpa literally just passed away and then there's like 10 girls that came up to me they're like oh my god can we take a photo with you. I'm like, this could not be worse time ever. But I can't be a bitch. Yeah. And I can't say no. And I don't want to say no. But like, emotionally, I'm saying no. Yeah. Do you know what I mean? But then it gets so in my head like, okay, is it a super valid? It's not even an excuse, but is it a valid

excuse that you don't want to take a photo with someone because your grandpa just died? Yeah. 100%. But I can't like explain that to somebody. And then what if I say no to taking a photo with them? And then they go to their friend and they're like, oh, well, Spencer was so rude. Yeah. Like I met Spencer and she was such a bitch. Like you just never really know what someone's going through. Yeah. Or what happened in their day. Like I even think when I meet other influencers, if I meet somebody and I'm like kind of disappointed, like I was really excited to meet them and it just didn't feel the same offline as it was online.

I just remind myself like, I don't know what they're going through. Yeah. Did they just get off a flight that was like 17 hours and they had like the worst news ever happened or something or they had the worst morning or maybe they're just feeling really insecure and I just caught them on a bad day? Like you can't just judge someone off of one second of meeting them. Yeah. You know? It's so true. And I always wonder like, because I'll tell Taylor, I'm like, hon, like, you can say no.

Like, he, I don't think he's ever said no to taking a photo with someone, like, ever. How do you say no? And I'm like, you can say no sometimes. We actually, we didn't get an argument. But we got like a little, like, I got, was sassy with him. The night we got engaged, we went to dinner. And we had three people come up to our table and ask for photos. And, um, like this is your moment.

And I was like, honey, like, honey, we can say like, no, it's okay. But then he, he, there's, there's a way to do it and I don't know how to do it yet, but so many celebrities do it where they're just like, we're not taking photos right now. But I'm like, I feel guilty. But I also don't want to sound like I think I'm like above that. Exactly. Do you know what I mean? Because like, like, we're all in the same level.

I'm just like, girl, I feel really ugly today and I don't want to take a photo. Yeah. Or you don't know what just happened in my life. I don't want to take a photo. Or even like I think I'm on a date with my boyfriend. And people instead of like ask and take a photo, they're just like staring. Yeah. Do you know what I mean?

Yeah. And how do I just feel like, can we leave? Because I feel really uncomfortable because I feels like everyone's watching us on a date right now. Yeah. You know what I mean? It's just so weird. It's an interesting adjustment. Yeah.

I don't know if like fully ever adjust. Like never. It's so weird. Even when I go with my dad sometimes, like people will say like, oh, can I take a photo with you? And my dad's like, do you guys go to high school together? Like, how do you know her? Like, do you know her? You go way back.

You go way back. That's so funny. I'm curious, is there something that you've learned about yourself recently? Like something new or like maybe you're like, oh, this is a reason why I do this or something like that. Something I learned about myself recently? I don't really know. Like, I don't know. I feel like I've honestly lived alone for so long that I know.

every single thing about myself. You've really been stuck with your thoughts. I've been stuck with my thoughts. Like, I know myself so well. That's one thing about me. Like, I really, I really know what I like and what I don't like. And when I don't want to do something and I really don't want to do it, I'm pretty stubborn about it. Like, I just know myself exactly how I am, honestly.

So does, like, living with someone, maybe your boyfriend excite you? Oh my gosh. Yeah. Okay. Yeah. You're like, please move in now. Yeah. With any of my ex-boyfriends, I'm like, get out of my house.

don't come over. Yeah. Like, please no. But that's how I know my boyfriend is like the one. I'm like, oh, you could move in like yesterday and I'd be so happy about it, you know? Like immediately.

That's so sweet. Yeah. I know. I have a couple girlfriends that they don't live with their partners yet. And they've protected their peace so well that they're like this is. Yeah. And they're like nervous about moving in. I didn't really like have,

because I still lived with my parents when Taylor and I first started dating. And then I just slowly just lived with him. Yeah. Like slowly everything just moved in. And so, I mean, we've, I never, like, had my own space and my own, like, routine. So it was fairly easy. But now I feel like I'm starting to learn my routine and it's different. Yeah.

Than his. Like, I need alone time. Yeah. And he does not need a long time at all whatsoever. Like, he gets sad when I'm like, I'm going to go, like, lay in bed for, like, 30 minutes. He's like, but why? Like, can you do it later? Like, I'll go nap with you later.

I'm like, no. Yeah, literally. You're like, no, I love you so much. But I just need a second. A little bit. I know. No, very valid for sure. He's so sweet.

I love him. What are your biggest go-to tools when it comes to your mental health? I love a hawk girl walk. Yes. Like, I love it. Pilates and a hawk-row walk are like my two things. If I'm in like the worst mood ever or something happened and like go on a walk, put a podcast on or listen to music and Pilates. Like that just changes everything.

hanging out with my friends. I have the best girlfriends ever and hanging out with them just as like my recharge, honestly. And being at home, I travel so much that I'm never ever at home that any time I'm at home, I'm like, this is amazing. I feel like that's another reason I could totally live with someone is like I'm honestly never at home.

Yeah. Like I don't know if I'm coming or going. So when I'm at home, it would just be so nice for someone to be there because I feel like my life is so much going on and there's all these crazy things. Like even being on this podcast right now, I'm like, this is crazy.

This is surreal. Like, I follow you. It's insane to be here. And then I'm going to fly home and just be at home by myself. I'm like, what's going on? It feels like I'm literally like adrenaline rush. And then it's just so chill. Yeah.

That being at home is like my recharge. Yeah. Honestly, I don't do it often. But when I'm at home, it's the best. Yeah. No, that's, I get that a lot. You posted this recently, but you said this little quote and it was being a self-love influencer doesn't mean that you love everything about yourself.

It means choosing. to love yourself, I think that is so, so good because I think we get stuck, even with my freaking cancals, like, I get stuck on like, I need to love this part, like, about me, but it's actually just like, no, I'm actually like choosing to. When did that realization, like, become a thing for you? Because I feel like I just, like we're all human. I don't know. There's so much, like, I can't love every single thing about myself and it's going to be this journey. And the most important thing to me is just that I don't hate myself. Yeah.

Like I don't have to love every single thing about myself, but I just don't have to hate myself. Yeah. You know, and even if people say bad things about me, I'm not allowed to say it about myself. Yeah. Like that is the boundary. Yeah. You know, like I don't have to be obsessed with myself.

Like, loving yourself isn't walking in the room and thinking you're the hottest person there. Like, it's that you think that you look hot. Yeah. You know? Like, I just, sometimes I feel guilty because I post about self-love all the time that when I have a bad day and I'm like, oh my God, I can't post this photo. My arms looks like.

so fat in it, then I feel so bad of myself because I'm like, I feel like I have to be the superhuman and love everything about myself because I tell people to love everything about themselves. But I'm still a human. Like, I'm still a girl. I'm like, I still cry sometimes because I feel like shit about myself. But that's the human experience. And like I have to really appreciate the lows to like love the highs. That's so true. Yeah. I love that. Um, I'm curious, what are, what are some like goals or dreams of yours that you want for yourself in the future. Ooh. I want to be on a billboard.

I feel like that's not far away. Wait, haven't you already? My manager's like, yeah. Okay, well, my really big goal was like, I want to be on a billboard in Toronto. Okay, because I want to go there and I want to see it and I want everyone I know to see it. Okay, is that horrible? Are you going to like go to your high school reunion and just like do this to everyone? Hell yeah.

I'm like, all of you hated me. The way I tell my husband that, because actually this year is my 10-year. Yeah. It's crazy that I'm like old. Are you going to go? I want to go. And I've always told him, like, you're coming with me. Like, this is going to be my.

Yeah, like, you're coming. Yeah. Well, that's like, I went to high school with my boyfriend. And he was like the really hot guy at our high school that everyone liked. That I'm like, oh my God, high school reunion, me and him pull up together. Like, is that not the most iconic thing ever? Wait, that's crazy. Did you guys, like, know each other?

I've known him since grade five. So I've known him like my whole life, basically. But I'm like that going back to high school reunion isn't iconic. I know. I know. I will see if it ends up. Our ASP president is like a dad and in like med school or something. And so I need him.

He was like a president when. Yeah. And 12th grade. But I need to tell him to like actually do something because I want to. I want to go. I'm going. Ophid is already picked out. Wait, how did you and your boyfriend start dating then?

That's crazy you've known each other for that long. Yeah. he was like my high school crush and then I was friends with his younger brother. So we've only been dating for like nine months now. But before we started dating, I had just bought like my house that I live in. And I had a hot tub and I remember that he used to like clean pools. So I text him like, oh my God, we haven't talked in so long. Like my hot tub is broken.

Like you're going to have to come fix it. It was not broken at all. It was perfectly working and fine. But I messaged him this. And I remember before I messaged him, like, I said to my friends, I'm like, oh, my gosh, like, there's this really hot guy. Like, I'm single. There's this really hot guy that I knew from high school. And he's always been the nicest person ever.

I'm like, I should just reach out. And then I text him saying my hot tub is broken. And then our first date was actually going to a music festival with me and all my friends. So he just came, like, with literally me and the four girls. Oh, wow. Like all four of us girls and then him. And I'm like, okay, if he can go on a date with my friends and they all like him, that like, this is my husband.

Oh my gosh. So you were just like, look at, you were just like, let me. I was just shooting my shot, honestly. I'm like, I'm single. Yeah. I'm young. This is flirty and fun. Who cares?

I love this for you. Like, whatever. Yeah. And I always knew he was so nice that it was just like immediately in love. Oh my gosh. Wait. Yeah. I love that for you guys.

I always kind of felt like we would have dated. Yeah. And then we just didn't. So I'm like maybe now is the time. And it definitely was. Yeah. That's so cool. I love that so much.

Thank you. Oh, wait, I was going to ask. You did the thing with Bloom. They are actually my favorite company. So good. Right? Amazing. I swear by their products.

Their moisturizer has, their gel cream, I guess you would call it. But has actually like saved my life. They are so good. Like their products are amazing. When you post about them, I was like, oh my gosh, this is so funny. Because I feel like a lot of people, because I know they're Canadian. Yeah. But a lot of my friends here haven't heard of the company.

Yeah. niche. Very. Very niche that I'm like, I need to scream it from the rooftop and tell every single person in the world. My mom actually introduced me to them because she used their oil, the acne oil. Like after she was like dermapplain me or something, she would use their acne oil. Honestly, like a long time ago before like their old branding of like a white bottle and an orange top like a long time ago. And that's how I got introduced to their products. And it is something that I swear by. I will, I love a good like skincare routine. But. their moisturizers. Like when I'm having like a skin flower up, I'll literally only ever wear that. And it is the absolute best thing. Have you used their lips? Yes. Oh my God. It's so good. I just put yours in my purse. I haven't used it yet. It's in my purse. I haven't used it. It's so good. They literally sent me

PR and it was in like a package. It was them sending it to me to just test it for them. Yeah. Not like as a PR package or anything. Just test it and tell them what I thought about it. Yeah. And my mom opens all my PR packages for me because it goes to her house. So she opened the package and like threw it out. So I only had this like white tube and I didn't know what was in it. Wait, did you post this? Yeah. And I was like, oh my God, I posted online because I'm like, can somebody tell me what this is? If the brand sees this like, please, I know this is such a far fetch, but somebody.

And they reached out and they were like, oh, this is actually from us. And I was so scared that I was going to run out of it. So I was so thankful they messaged me. And then I was like, we need to do more. So I actually became an investor in the brand, which is crazy. That's like the first time I've ever done that for a brand. and that felt like such a big step in my career because that's outside of just being like a TikToker.

You know what I mean? And it's so crazy to be an investor and a brand that I love so much that even you're talking about and loving so much and just really, really good products and they're Canadians. Yeah. No, they're the best. When I said you post that, I was like, oh my gosh.

Yay. Thank God because they're really the best. I'm curious. What are you most proud of yourself for? For always staying true to who I am and like being me, I feel like it's so hard. with posting online to not alter your personality or your looks or like if someone's constantly

telling you like to get not the people are just saying go get plastic surgery but just as an example like yeah i'm so happy that i have not changed what i look like at all i have not changed my personality at all i have not changed the people that i hang out with at all like as much as i post online i always say like i'm an influencer but i'm not really an influencer because i'm not into all of this like I still live in a really small town in Ontario and I haven't moved to be an influencer more, be more in like the game. You know what I mean? I'm very, very proud of myself that I've always been like true to who I am.

And like if somebody doesn't like me, that's too bad for them. Like I don't have to change who I am. And I think it's really hard in social media to not change yourself at all. And like I don't think that I've changed at all. And that makes me proud. Yeah. I love that. That's so special.

I feel like younger you is like so proud. Thank you. Who you are. Thank you. I feel like you became who like your younger self maybe like needed to follow. You don't make me cry. Yeah. Honestly though, it's crazy.

Like it's crazy. I became everything that I, when I was younger, I wish I could have watched online, honestly. And that was always the goal. And it's so cool like how many people I feel like you're able to impact and the age of people. Like I feel like anyone could watch your content and like feel loved and feel better about themselves. I always feel like I have just like 13-year-olds that are watching my content, but then I'll meet someone on the street that's like 40. And she's like, oh my gosh, I'm a mom and my younger daughters watch your videos, but I watch them too because I love them. It's just crazy.

Just the range is insane. And I'm so grateful. I love that. Like, so grateful. I love it for you. You deserve it all. You're very kind. And you're just like this little ray of sunshine.

Thank you. I love it. Okay. My last little segment I have for you. It's called Lemon 7. Seven questions. You can rapid fire them. If one of them like pulls a string, you can go into a monologue, whatever your heart desires.

Okay, first question is what movie or song title best describes your mental health today? Oh, why am I like, it's a most annoying song, but you know, like, because I'm happy. Why is that me? I'm just happy. That's great. Like, I'm just thriving. I'm living life. Yeah, you are.

Happy. Yeah. Great. I love that for you. Not annoying at all. I actually haven't heard that song in a long time. I know. It's going to be stuck in my head and despicable.

is like my favorite movie. So I'm like it's perfect. That's so good. Okay, number two is how open are you with people in your life when struggling? Oh, I'm so open. Like, I feel like that's how it just gets so much easier as if you're open. Yeah. I'm so open.

I will tell anybody everything that I'm going through because that's the only way I'll get through it. Yeah. Number three is if you could only follow three social media accounts, what would they be? Oh. I, like, if I could actually only follow three, it would probably be my three besties. I'm going to be honest. I was going to pick influencers,

but I'm like, they are my influencers. Yeah. Honestly. I love that. Do they do influencing or do they have like normal? They would say no. I would say yes. I watch them like they're my favorite influencer.

Yeah. But they all have like other jobs. Yeah. Like they don't do it as their job or anything like that. Yeah. I love that. That's like my, a lot of my close friends like don't have.

I mean, they're not influencers and sharing their life. And then I'll, like, post with other content creators. And I feel like I'll get these trolls being like, you've just thrown away your old friends. And now you're with these content creators. I'm like, little do you know, I actually hang out with these. Like, we're sitting together right now. Yeah.

As I'm reading this comment, I'm sitting next to like post every time you hang out with someone. Yeah. I'm like, God, I get so many comments of people saying, are you not friends with this girl anymore? You don't post with her. I'm like, we hang out. I just don't feel the need to post every single time. I sit down with somebody and have a coffee.

Yeah. You know? That's so good. I love that you have that boundary because it's important because I've definitely met people at events before that are like, oh my gosh, let's do this. Let's do this. And I'm like, fun, but like I'm like surging a little bit. Calm down. It's okay. It's okay. We don't need to do it. Number four is what is your favorite form of self-care? Pilates. Yeah, reformer Pilates. I was going to say reformer. Reformer, yeah. I need to go back to. I actually have like a floor one in my garage. But it was too cold for me to get in there and do that. I love a good. I love a good reformer. Number five is what is the most misunderstood thing about you? Hmm.

I don't know. You're like, I'm pretty just, pretty much just myself. I'm so myself. I don't know. I feel like people would expect me to be more outgoing than I am. I'm a little bit more shy than I am. Like, if I'm in a group like one-on-one, I could talk to you for hours and literally yop your ear off that you'd be like, okay, I heard enough.

But if I'm in a group of like 30 people, I'm not going to be. going to be like the life of the party. Like online you might think because I post videos like dancing and being crazy, that would be like the life of the party. Yeah. But I am shy for sure. Yeah. Like in a big group of people.

Like I thrive in small, tiny groups. Yep. But if we're at like a party, I'm not going to like do anything crazy. Yeah. No, that is literally me. I like, I almost like shut down. I feel like in big groups. Yeah.

Of people. It's so hard to be like myself, I feel. Yeah. In big groups of people. I don't know why that is. Yeah. And not that I'm like scared of getting judge. It's not that.

It's just. I don't know how to be myself. Because also, like, I don't want all the attention. So I'm like, that's okay. I know. Sometimes I'll, like, leave the event. Like, we were recently at a friend's birthday party. And there was probably like 30 people there.

And I was just like a little oversimulated and was not like, there was just a lot going on. And I just wasn't feeling that social. And I was like, hon, I'm going to leave. Yeah. And he was like, what? I think I'm going to go home. And he's like, okay. And we had two of my girlfriends were sleeping over.

So he ended up leaving with them like four hours. later, but I, like, don't have any FOMO. Yeah. Honestly. It's gotten. It is the best thing most of the time, but sometimes I do wish I had it because I miss out on things sometimes. And then looking back, I'm like, crap, I should have like actually gone to that.

Yeah. But I have no phone. I made my resolution that if I don't want to do something, I'm just not doing it. Yeah. Because I feel like sometimes if I was on the fence about doing it, I would just do it to like be easier, I guess. You know what I mean? But now, like, if I'm somewhere and I'm just not feeling it over-simulated, everything

is just like too much going on. Yeah. I'll just leave. Yeah. Like life is too short. Yeah. And you really have to set that boundary with like when your schedule is like so busy. Yeah.

When it's so chaotic, I'm like my bed is calling me. Yeah. Like I'd love to hang out when my bed is calling me. I know. That's my friends that understand that are like so important. Thank God. Oh my gosh. If I cancel plans and my friends like got mad at me.

Yeah. But come on. Yeah. No. Sometimes I'm like, can someone cancel them? Yeah. You don't need to hang out today. We can, we can.

reschedule. Okay, number six is who has had the most positive impact on your mental health? My friends. Yeah. For sure. Have you gone to therapy? I haven't, no. Okay. I'm just wondering. No. Because we didn't talk about it. I was like, normally I asked, but yeah. Great. My friends. Love that for you. Friends are good therapy. Number seven is if you can go back to one moment in your life, what moment would that be and what would you say to yourself? probably when I was getting bullied when I was younger more so in high school I would just be like girl you don't even know what is coming

I'd be like you need to rest right now you don't even know what's about to change in your life or even like right at COVID when I was literally working in fast food and being like this is so bad like do I go to school like I didn't know what to do with my life I didn't know who I was I just felt so lost I would literally just grab myself and be like

go sleep because you're going to be so tired because so much is coming like your life is about to change so much. Honestly, it is insane how much my life has changed. I'm so happy. I honestly just feel like you're thriving in the best way. Like, you're living your best life and I'm so happy to know you. And so happy we got to like sit and chat. Thank you. Please note that this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct or indirect financial interest in products or services referred to in this episode.