The Squeeze - Tay Lautner: My Pregnancy Journey

Episode Date: April 8, 2026

In this week’s episode, Tay is back for a solo episode, opening up about her pregnancy and everything that’s come with this new life chapter! After recently announcing the news on social media, she shares why she ultimately decided to be open about her pregnancy journey and how much the outpouring of love and support has meant to both her and Taylor. Tay gets honest about the importance of speaking up about what you need during pregnancy, and how friends and loved ones can show up in a more meaningful way by simply asking. She also opens up about the more vulnerable side of pregnancy, including moments of struggling with body image and navigating weight gain, while learning to embrace body positivity in a completely new way. Tay reflects on what it looks like to give yourself grace, shift your mindset, and learn to love your body through every stage.To email us your questions or share your story, you can reach out to [e-mail] sure to rate, review, and follow the podcast so you don't miss an episode! Plus, follow us on all of our socials:The SqueezeInstagram: https://instagram.com/thesqueeze/TikTok: https://tiktok.com/@thesqueezepodcastTay LautnerInstagram: https://instagram.com/taylautner/TikTok: https://tiktok.com/@mrstaylautnerAmazon Storefront https://urlgeni.us/amazon/FDXj7 Taylor LautnerInstagram: https://instagram.com/taylorlautner/TikTok: https://tiktok.com/@taylorlautnerTo learn more from The Lemons Foundation, follow https://instagram.com/lemonsbytay/ and visit https://lemonsbytay.comEpisode Sponsors:Go to TempoMeals.com/SQUEEZE for 60% off your first box!Head to Ollie.com/SQUEEZE. Use code SQUEEZE to get 60% off. Head to Tonal.com/SQUEEZE for $200 off. Head to Wayfair.com for up to 80% off! Text SQUEEZE to 64000 to get 20% off all QBAR products, plus FREE shipping. MB014GJJJKQV82RSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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that Taylor and I got to do that on our own terms. It's just crazy how my perspective on life has changed. Just how much I really did not know. Oh, you'll understand when you're this. It's true, unfortunately. Whatever I went through, I was not expecting that at all. The hunger? I'm normally a hungry girl.

Now, who was going to tell me about this hunger? I literally wake up multiple times a night and have to eat food. Like, literally eat food. I live in these sweatsuits anyways. pretty much always looking like Adam Sandler. But when the Adam Sandler doesn't become a choice anymore, that's when it's like, oh, okay, this actually isn't as fun as it used to be. This is just a beautiful thing.

And it comes with a lot of low lows and a lot of high highs. For the first time in my 29 years of life, I have... Which I hate saying. Hello, you cutie lemon drops. Welcome back to another episode of The Squeeze. I know that we have quite a few new... viewers, listeners, however, you listen to your podcast. Hello, I am Tay and this is the squeeze that you are watching or listening. Be sure to subscribe or follow along. But I am super excited for this episode

because I'm sitting down with you guys, just me and you and no one else. This is only my second time doing this, but I wanted to kind of have a little one-on-one chat with you because I've been gatekeeping a lot of things from you about my pregnancy. And I'm just so excited to finally be sitting down and talking to you about it. I have been, it's kind of crazy because during your first trimester, I never realized how like isolating it could feel because, you know, you're not supposed to tell anyone. And it's just, you don't really have anyone to talk to besides. your spouse was just great, but you know, you're not supposed to tell anyone. You're supposed to

keep it a secret. And I decided to kind of share with some close family and friends earlier than you're supposed to just because I needed some support. But I've never, I've never shared anything this personal with the internet before. And I would be lying if I said I wasn't nervous about it. There's definitely a part of me that is nervous about this. I knew I wanted to share about my pregnancy. One, I kind of had to because of the nature of this podcast. I can only hide my belly under a sweatsuit for so long. You guys would definitely catch on. But I really wanted to share because with our wedding, which is definitely not as person. of a journey, but, you know, it's still a very special intimate thing. With our wedding, I didn't

really share much about it. I didn't really share anything leading up. It was kind of just we were engaged. I think I maybe shared a little bit, maybe about like a save the date, like something I had designed. But aside from that, I really didn't share anything else. And part of me is obviously very thankful that I did that because being married to someone that is in the spotlight, your privacy I've had to learn is something that is almost sacred. There's a reason why a lot of, you know, movie stars, actors, whatever they may be, why they're so private with their life and why we're always like, you know, like Zendaya and Tom that they didn't share their wedding. Like, I now being married to someone who's had their whole life like that,

I understand it. And so I'm thankful that we did that for our wedding because it was so intimate and special. But with this pregnancy, I really wanted to share about it because I didn't know if I really wanted to at first. And then I think going through my first trimester now, I'm in my second. I didn't realize how much of, it sounds silly. I didn't realize how much of a mental toll. It really was going to be and I know so many women who are moms who have been pregnant who are pregnant and I thought I wouldn't be doing my platform justice not sharing about it because I talk about mental health all the time so I wanted to do that now I don't know I don't know exactly everything I'm going to share and I just ask that you guys respect that please but

But I will be sharing stuff a lot, a lot of stuff just personally what I'm going through. But yeah, I kind of just wanted to take this time for us to sit and chat and for me to update you about what has been going through my mind over the past couple months because I've kind of been stuck in there for quite some time. And now that you all know that I'm pregnant, it honestly kind of feels like, a weight lifted off my shoulders because every time I would go into my OB's office or go to a doctor's apartment or go really out anywhere in public. I was scared that someone was going to find out I was pregnant and leak it. So it was really exciting that Taylor and I got to do that on our own terms.

And I can't explain the response from us posting. I don't know what I was expecting, it wasn't that at all. I think because, you know, we've shared our engagement and our wedding. And so I was just expecting it to be similar to that. But I was wrong. My phone that day was blowing up like crazy. And I've just never experienced anything like that before. And it was definitely overwhelming, but the love and support and the amount of messages I got, like I didn't get a single, I mean, me, message, but like out of hundreds and hundreds of messages, so kind, so supportive, so many women just reaching out. I love all the messages of other moms that are pregnant right now and sharing that, you know, it's going to be so fun that we get to be pregnant together and go through

this journey together. So the amount of love. I just, I was not expecting that kind of love. And it really just, it was so, it was overwhelming in a good way, but it also put into perspective like how precious this pregnancy and this baby is. But at the end of the day, I still want to share it with you guys. This is a part of my life. You have been with me through so much, so many of my struggles, so much of my growth. And I think we should I think we should just kind of dive into some of it. So as I mentioned, I was definitely a little apprehensive with sharing. I think because of two things.

One, there obviously is a part of me that feels guilty sharing this, which, you know, I think that's just me being an empath in my head and wanting everyone to know, feel loved and supportive. but I know so many women that have struggled with fertility, and I know how lucky I am to have this baby in me. And I was definitely apprehensive to share just because there is that aspect of guilt that I feel, but I know my friends that are struggling with fertility and have and have had miscarriages, they want me sharing this. They want something to be able to somewhat relate to and look forward to and I know that they wouldn't want me to share, they wouldn't want me to hold back

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both, kind of on both ends. I've experienced finding out about a miscarriage, not knowing that my friend was pregnant and her having to tell me she was pregnant and she miscarried and the other end of knowing that my friend is pregnant and then her having to come and tell me that she miscarried. So I've kind of walked through knowing, seeing what both can kind of feel like from the friend angle, obviously. And after walking through that with a few people, I decided that I needed to tell some close people in my life that I was pregnant because you just never know what could happen. And even, I mean, even still sitting right now, there's still so many things that can happen.

that was something I decided early on I needed to tell a couple close friends that I was pregnant because I needed that support and God forbid, you know, anything did happen. I didn't want to have to make the call and tell them that I was pregnant and I miscarried. I wanted them to know of the pregnancy already so that I wasn't having to deliver two types of news is to them. And that was something, obviously, everything has turned out okay, so I didn't have to walk through that. But that was something I never thought about until I was actually pregnant.

It's just crazy how much my perspective on life has changed. And I feel like just how much, just how much I really did not know. And they always say like, oh, you'll understand when you're this or you'll understand when you're that. It's true. Unfortunately, no, but in all seriousness, I did not realize that pregnancy was like this. I'm kind of like, were we not, I guess I just was never on like a pregnancy talk or like any form of pregnancy social media. And so when I did get pregnant, then my like, as I'm now, my entire. TikTok feed is just a bunch of pregnant women sharing their symptoms and whatnot. So then I was like,

oh, okay, this is normal. But going into it, I just had no clue. Like you hear people are like, oh, I have morning sickness and I'm this or whatever it is. But I just don't, I don't know what I was expecting, but it wasn't that. Whatever I went through, I was not expecting that at all. Taylor and I both we're not expecting that at all. So that was really, it was interesting to learn, but it also gave me such perspective of me not knowing what my friends that are moms have gone through. And I think that if you take anything away from this episode, it is that if you have, if you are pregnant and your friends have not been pregnant, you have to voice to them your needs because I had no clue what my pregnant friends needed until I now have gone through this.

And luckily, I have such amazing friends in my life. And one of my best friends, she has not been pregnant, doesn't have any kids. And she sat me down and she was like, you need to tell me like what you need because I have no clue. And it was in that moment I was like, oh my gosh, you're right. Like I actually had no clue what happens to your body, even just like your brain alone. Like my thoughts and my mental capacity, just how everything has changed. So if you are the first one in your friend group that's pregnant, you need to tell your friends what you need.

You cannot expect them to know what you need. And vice versa. if you are pregnant, don't expect your friends to know. Don't put that kind of pressure on them because they will fail. They will. I failed as a friend to some of my pregnant friends because I truthfully had no idea. And I should have been a better friend and asked. So if you're the friend of a pregnant woman, you need to ask.

And if you're pregnant, you need to tell your friends what you need. Because that communication, like you just need that. And you need to obviously have that with your partner too. Taylor has, as you all could guess, has just been a dream. He has been my saving grace during this pregnancy, especially my first trimester. He was my chef, my waiter, the runner, the cleaner, he was the everything. But I think having that close relationship with your girlfriends is so important, like even having a girlfriend just come over and sit on the couch with me when I'm not feeling good. It's still mentally, I don't know,

know what it does and I think that maybe is in part my personality because I definitely am being around friends that don't require energy is very life-giving to me like people that I can be myself around and love and feel loved by them. It's very life-giving to me. So even when I was in the trenches of my first trimester, I was really able to lean on my friends and have them over for dinner and I like wouldn't even eat, but just like having them. in the house. Like I would be laying on the couch just like feeling horrible, like having an ice pack trying to like have a popsicle and just like hearing them in the house even like having them in the kitchen while I'm in the living room. It just did something to me. And if you're the type

of person that needs community, I would definitely consider telling obviously if you're comfortable, but this is what I did. Telling your close friends, those people that are your rock. Maybe it's your family. I obviously don't have any siblings and my sister-in-law and brother-in-law live in Nashville. Um, so I don't have any like close people like that. So my best friends are like my siblings. So having those tight-knit people that you can have around and share the news with and can just be your support with your spouse has was honestly the best thing for me during that first trimester and I really think that it got me through it. And like I said, I am so excited to share this journey with you guys. I have filmed so much content. And I have been just saving it in my phone.

So I'm excited to finally share that. In the beginning, I started doing little weekly updates of how I felt after six weeks and my seven week symptoms, my eight week symptoms. And I'm excited to just like share that with you guys. My experience having the pregnancy sub from Jersey mics. I have that all the time now. It's so good. So just like fun, fun things like that. I'm excited to share. And I wanted to make it clear that this podcast will not turn into a pregnancy podcast. Obviously, this podcast, is an extension of me. So I will be talking about my pregnancy. I will probably have some other pregnant women on.

And we're going to talk about our pregnancies, but I know that pregnancy talk is not for everyone. So don't worry. I still have some amazing guests lined up next week's episode is actually one. I'm so excited about you guys. Well, understand why when we start doing the promo for it, because I've been trying to schedule this episode. for honestly, like six months, maybe even more.

And my guest is finally coming out to California. She doesn't live here. She's finally coming out. And I'm very excited to share her with you guys because I've been so excited for this interview. But I wanted to just kind of make that clear that this will still be mental health base. We're still going to be sharing everyday stories.

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internet and the haters on the internet. not even to like people personally. But I was talking with my girlfriend about this and I was telling her about a little bit of a meltdown that I had about my body. And she was like you, obviously if you're comfortable, she was like you need to share this because I've actually not heard a single pregnant woman talk about this before, which I know is something that we have all gone through as pregnant women. I know if you're listening to this, you're going to maybe relate to this in some regard. But during my first trimester, I was convinced that body positivity of pregnant women and loving your body was propaganda. I literally got mad. I was like, I do not love my body. I don't know

how people love their bodies. Like this, I am so uncomfortable. comfortable in my own skin. I have never, I've never been one that has like disliked how I looked. I've always been very comfortable in who I am and, you know, having muscular legs and have like just, I've always been comfortable in myself. But for the first time in my 29 years of life, I have hated my body, which I hate saying. But it's the truth. I literally have not liked how I looked one bit. And I found myself thinking about that. I had a good cry to Taylor about it because I looked at myself naked in a mirror and I was like, I'm so just fluffy and round and I don't like how I was just negative and being like, this is just propaganda and how like how do women love their

bodies? And I had to kind of take a step back and be like, wait, how this is how I'm doing myself, but when I look at pregnant women, I have actually never thought a negative thought about a pregnant woman before. When people show their bellies on the internet, I'm like, yes, Queen, pop off, look at that belly. When they show their stretch marks, when they show skin on their arm, I'm like, yes. Like I, every pregnant woman glows to me. Like I've never been like, oh my gosh, look at her arms. I've, I've never thought that before. But now my body, I'm going through it. And I'm like, ugh, like I don't like this. I don't have a bump right now.

Like, it just, nothing fits. And that was, that was another thing for me was my clothes didn't fit me earlier than I was expecting them not to fit me. And I think that that was really hard for me because I was just like determined to fit in my jeans, which is absolutely. insane and I did gain a lot of weight fast. My first trimester, I had the worst food diversions and I was eating straight carbs, toast, grilled cheese, butter noodles for probably two and half weeks. And not only was I eating that, I was consuming it on an absurd rate. Pregnant women,

you obviously know this. And if you haven't experienced pregnancy or someone being pregnant or maybe you just don't know this. The hunger? I'm normally a hungry girl. I love snacks. I normally wake up hungry. Like in the morning I wake up now being pregnant. The hunger?

Who was going to tell me about this hunger? I literally wake up. Now it's a little better. But in my first trimester, I would wake up multiple times a night and have to eat food. Like literally eat food. So obviously if I'm just eating carbs for two and a half,

three weeks straight because I can't get anything else to stay down and nothing else even remotely sounds good and I know I need something in my body. Obviously, your body's going to change if you're just eating carbs. And I was just eating carbs. And when things weren't fitting me at 10 weeks, I was not happy about it. I think also because I see pregnant women online that literally barely even have a belly and they're like over halfway through their pregnancy and I'm like I'm at 10 weeks and I've put on more weight than I they've put on in their entire pregnancy. I'm like how like why is this happening to me? And I really just wanted to talk about it because I that was something for me I really was not expecting at all to take such a mental toll on me. And it sounds so silly. Like I'm growing a baby.

Of course my body is going to change. Like it's fine. I'm eating all of this. It's good I was eating food. And yes, all of that is true. But it's hard, man. Like, I just was not. I didn't think it would be like that. And I think I'm getting to a better place now with it.

Obviously, I mean, I live in these sweatsuits anyway. So you guys see me every week and I'm in these clothes. If you follow me on social media, I'm pretty much always looking like Adam Sandler. but when the Adam Sandler look doesn't become a choice anymore and it's actually you can only fit in your husband's clothes, that's when it's like, oh, okay, this actually isn't as fun as it used to be. And I was laying in bed a week at like three in the morning because that's what I do know. And I was just thinking about how this phrase came to my mind and I know I'm not inventing it, but whoever said it, it popped in my mind that we're not meant to fit in our clothes.

Our clothes are meant to fit us. We are not meant to fit into our clothing. Our clothes are meant to fit us. Hopefully the people in the back heard. I was thinking about this and I was like, you're right. I need to just, I need to just buy some new clothes. Of course, I'm not going to fit in my size 24 gene anymore. I just put on 20 pounds. Like, duh, I'm growing a baby. Like common sense, Taylor, come on. And I bought new jeans. I bought new active wear.

And when I put these clothes on that fit me like they're supposed to, they're supposed to fit us. We're not supposed to fit in them. I was like, oh, I actually feel a little better. Like, no, duh, Sherlock. And that really, like for me, helped kind of reset my brain a little bit. once my hormones leveled out and I just accepted it, my husband does a very good job at affirming my emotions, but also loving me and making me feel like the most beautiful woman. So he has been such a tremendous help in that.

But I also decided that I am no longer looking at the scale when I go to my OB appointments. I made that decision very early on to not look at the scale anymore because I just know that where my head was at, I luckily had the foresight to not just continue self-sabotaging myself during one of the roughest things that a woman's body goes through in pregnancy and in being the first trimester, but I've just made that decision that I'm not going to look. And I have Taylor and I bring him to all of my OB appointments because I love having him with me. But when I step on the scale, we just like lock eyes and make eye contact. And he's like my accountability. But I'm like, nope, it doesn't matter. This is the one time in life. It really like doesn't matter.

So I need to just accept it, honestly. And sitting here now today, you know, that was a bit ago, my meltdown and those, me thinking just those nasty things about myself. Now sitting here today, I do feel better. Do I still have parts of my body aside from my stomach that I don't love? Yes. Do I think I will get over that? Maybe. I don't know. But I do think that hopefully as time goes on, and ironically as my belly gets bigger, I think that might help because I'm actually will feel pregnant. And I wanted to, I wanted to share that. So thank you for letting me be vulnerable with you guys. And I just, I hate even like admitting it out loud. But when I was talking to my girlfriend, she was just like, I've never heard anyone share that before. And I think it's something

that women go through in their first trimester, and we are just so, like, my mental capacity, like, I'm just kind of, like, surviving at this point. And now that I'm in my second, I have a little bit more headspace, but there's not really room to think and think logically when you are having those meltdowns because of your hormones and just how, like, at the end of every day, I was just exhausted of just literally living the day. And, I think that's something that maybe a lot of women hopefully can relate to. Sorry if that was a bit of a downer for my first solo episode as a pregnant woman. It's beautiful.

Let me tell you. But I think that's something that a lot of us can relate to being pregnant. And I hope that maybe if you are feeling that way, if you're going through that right now, there is light at the end of the tunnel hitting that turn into the same. second trimester, I've been able to be like, no, like, I'm growing a baby. Like, how insane is that? I'm literally growing like a little human inside of me. Like, of course my body is going to change, but it is just that part of accepting it. It definitely can be a little hard. But I'm just so excited to get to share this journey with you guys. And I know I've just kind of touched the surface of what

my first trimester, what my first little bit of pregnancy have been like. But I'm just so thankful that I feel honestly safe enough to do this. I have friends that are creators that don't want to share things like this and hold back a lot of stuff that I maybe would want them to share and be vulnerable on the internet because it makes them who they are. But they don't have the kind of support that I have with you listeners, with people that follow me on social media, I actually can't like, I'm like emotional. I can't actually explain to you how much that support like really, truly deeply means to me because I see so much negativity on the internet and my friends that are creators, the negativity that they get. And I truly just, I just feel, I just feel so lucky to get to

get to do this and to get to share it with you guys and to get to have a little baby one day, like hearing our baby's heartbeat the first time. Like I, that's, I don't even like really don't think. I don't have words for that moment yet, um, as I'm crying again. I don't have words at all for that experience in that moment. Um, so this is just, this is just a beautiful thing. and it comes with a lot of low lows and a lot of high highs. And I can't wait to walk through it with you guys together. It's going to be so fun. Sorry if I cry more and if I'm negative more, but that's just the truth. And that's why we're here. And I'm going to keep it real like I always do. But truly, I love you guys so, so much. If there's any pregnancy topics that you're interested

about that you want me to talk about, maybe there's a guest I could have on, please leave a comment down below if you're watching this on YouTube. If you're listening, I think you could still comment potentially on Spotify. I might be wrong. I need to look. But leave a comment down below, message us. Go comment on our squeeze stuff. Comment on my stuff. Let us know who, what, when, where, why you want to see on the podcast. Because this whole pregnancy journey, I have learned so much and I'm still learning so much every day. So I would love to get to share more with you guys. but I will see you right back here next week. Make sure you have your notifications on

because I actually promise you guys next week's episode is going to be so amazing. Like we've had one guest from her show on before. You said the last year, I think it was last year. It was the most fun episode I've ever done. And it was probably the one I was most excited about. So I'm curious to see if you guys can guess who it's going to be. But if not, I'll see you.

you're right back here next week. Bye. Please note that this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct or indirect financial interest in products or services referred to in this episode.