the zurkie show - you keep choosing the bad

Episode Date: September 25, 2025

don't let the negativity of your mind bog you down.sending you all lots of love and peaaaaaaaace!https://linktr.ee/thezurkieshow

Sometimes I just feel like giving up. I just don't want to do it anymore. Sometimes I really feel like I just let myself down all the time, and that's the only thing I'm good at. I know it's not true, but that's just how this feels. But it is a obsession that keeps me going, and it's an obsession to keep doing what I do and do it well enough. And it's an obsession to keep being a good human being that keeps me going. I'm obsessed. And I think that you should be too, but there's something that you should know about. obsession. Obsession comes with a lifelong contract. When you become obsessed with

something, when you give yourself the ability to be great, you have to make a contract with your critic. The voice inside of you that tells you that you aren't anything and you've probably been believing for most of your life. It's not like when you decide that you want to do something great or you decide that you want to go after your dreams that that voice goes away. No, it becomes louder. You become what your voice tells you if you allow it. And I just find myself stressing so much. And I find myself being paralyzed in this idea that I cannot make mistakes and that I am a loser if I do so. And it's just not true, but I just today I'm succumbing to it. And today I'm feeling like

nothing matters and that, you know, there's no point in being happy about anything. And, you know, it's this obsession with wanting to be great. It's this obsession with wanting to do something more with my life. And today I just don't want to do it. But I can't stop. It's the pain of wanting to go somewhere you've never gone before. You have to be able to listen to your body and your mind when it is telling you to stop. You're not good enough.

You're never going to be able to do it. You'll never make it. What are you talking about? Like, you would be foolish to even think that that's possible. You have to sit there, listen to that, and be like, all right, don't care. I'm going to do it anyways. Amazon presents Jeff versus Taco Truck Salsa, whether it's Verde, Roja, or the orange one. For Jeff, trying any salsa is like playing Russian roulette with a flamethrower.

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that when I talk down on myself and when I am being so critical, I am giving them. giving negative too much weight and I have to listen to what my mind and what my intuition is trying to tell me because oftentimes it's it's the noise that's getting in between me and the frequency that wants me to do something that is good for myself it's the storm my mind is like in this perpetual storm of just things going on my mind is in this perpetual like fight and I'm not letting it I'm not letting the negative.

I'm not letting the bad win. There's just no way. It's just a storm. They'll pass. But I'm still here. I still have to deal with everything. I have to still sit there, look at myself,

and realize where I'm wrong, and where I'm right. And I think when you live your life in a hypercritical way, it's very difficult to look at the things that you do right because you are obsessed with everything that is bad. You are obsessed with being a victim.

You are obsessed with the idea that you are never good enough and you'll never do anything great. And no matter how close you get to something that resembles greatness, you're always going to be a loser. How dare you even think that you have the ability to do anything good? You were born a loser.

I decided to stop listening to that voice when I turned 23. And I decided to re-harness all of that negative self-talk that, you know, I still deal with today, but at that time, that was the only thing that was, you know, talking in my mind into action into doing something. I feel like I'm fat. I feel like I'm ugly.

All right, let's go for a walk. I feel like I'm going to overeat and binge eat. Okay, let's cook something nice for myself. I feel like I'm not good enough and that nobody is going to ever find me attractive because of the way that I look. Okay. Let's write. Let's go out somewhere.

Let's meet people. Whatever my mind was telling me to do, I did the inverse. And as a result, my life became the inverse. My life became good instead of a struggle. My life became purposeful instead of just doom and no point to anything. My life felt like it mattered all because I recognized that the negative side of me did not want the best for me. It wanted to keep feeding the beast of negativity, and it wanted me to be obsessed with the idea that I will never. do anything good and that everything in my life is pointless.

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Or that. And enjoy. Via rail, love the way. But there's days like these where I still get those emotions and those thoughts. And there's days like these where I feel like quitting. And I feel like I just will never do anything great and that everything is cooked all the time. It's days like these where I'm the most critical of myself because I have allowed myself to delay greatness and to procrastinate. It's days like these that usually they're a result of a multitude of things. I'm hungry. I can be tired. I can feel like I'm not giving my time

enough gratitude and grace. I can feel like I don't know. Like I'm not. I'm not. satisfied with where I'm at or what I'm doing. But if it's so easy to become obsessed with the bad, why are we not equally as obsessed with the good? It almost feels like a cop out every time that you say that something's going good in your life and that, oh, you know, this isn't that bad. Oh, you have no room to say that things are good. Why not? Who are you to tell me that? If you're a part of me, if you're my inner dialogue and you want to be a critic in my mind, I think you can object acknowledge when something is good. And it's because the feeling of not being good enough is comfortable.

And I think that I am obsessed with the comfort of feeling bad. Voice crack. Voice crack, because it's true. I'm obsessed with the comfort of feeling bad, man. I like feeling bad. I like feeling like I mess up. I like feeling like I have no point to anything because all I'll ever do. do is just keep, keep messing up. It's an obsession. That's what it is. You're obsessed with feeling

bad. You're obsessed with this idea that you are going to, I don't know, soften the accountability if you feel bad about yourself. Like, it's still your problem. This is the thing I think I've learned the most in adulthood. Nobody is coming to save you. It's something else here now. Something new. From exclusively on Paramount Plus. It's the series Stephen King calls Scary as Hell Everything here is impossible But it's also real

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Nobody Nobody is coming to give you an answer to a problem that you already know the answer to. It's just the answer is always uncomfortable and it's always the same thing. You got to fix it. You got to take accountability for it.

And it sucks. It sucks because that's not what you're taught when you're a kid. You have to ask for permission. You have to be like, oh, how do I, well, who do I need to talk to in order to get this approved? Like, but there is no approval to fixing your own life. There is no approval to fixing the negative thoughts in your brain. You have to be the one that initiates that change. You have to be the one that actually

like wants to do something about it. And it's scary because it means that everything changes in your life. Like overnight everything changes. When you start to take accountability for the way that you feel, when you stop becoming obsessed with feeling bad all the time and you actually start putting more energy and like focusing on things that matter to you, you realize how much time you have lost in your entire life to just being obsessed with feeling bad. And that is grief. It's grief. You are grieving that time because I hated it. I hated when I like realized, wait, I had agency and I could like fix the fact that I felt bad by like moving my body, feeding myself well and like, I don't know, reading, learning new perspectives. And I could do all

of these things and I actively chose not to do that because the idea of feeling bad felt better to me and it's because like doing all those things objectively is harder than staying in the pit that you're in but I think I just hit a rock bottom man where I was just like I'm done I'm done waking up and like staring at the ceiling for 15 minutes every morning because I don't want to get out of bed because it means I start the day and I have so many things I can do to let myself down I was just done with it I'm like, if this is how I'm going to live the rest of my life, no thank you. Just straight up, no thank you. So I was given a choice in my mind.

I was like, I need to do anything but this. Even if it means that it will be worse, or it will feel worse for a certain period of time. I will do anything except sit here and just let myself be beat down and tackled by my mind over and over and over. It's like I've got like the Georgia D line just like pressing, blitzing me every play in my mind. There's no way out. I want to be the dog. I want to be on the O line of my mind. I want to be able to defend myself from all of the bad that's going on that's already inflicting my mind

so I can focus on the good things in this life. Zerky Show, there are a lot of beautiful things in this life to obsess over. There are a lot of things to put your energy and time into. And all I want you to understand is being obsessed with negativity, being obsessed with being your worst enemy. It's not the way to go. I have lived that life. I'm on the other side of it now,

and it's a constant battle every single day. And all I can tell you is that it is worth doing things that make you uncomfortable, being nice to yourself because it is uncomfortable. because there is more good in this world that you will see as a result. And I think that if it means a little bit of sacrifice, if it means a little bit of discomfort and actually giving yourself credit for things that you do right, if things are not going to change the way that you are acting right now

and you don't feel good, it's just worth giving a shot. What do you have to lose? Nothing. Today's episode of The Zerky Show was filmed in beautiful, Orlando, Florida during a thunderstorm and sunset. Insane collab recommend seeing it. Whoa! Did you know that the Zerky Show was everywhere you go?

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Learn about your history. Family name. Where you come from. Like these things are important. If your parents or your grandparents spoke another language, learn that language try to reconnect with these things they are so important to the human experience if you're trying something new just know that i believe in you and zirki show as always i'm sending you lots of love and peace