This Past Weekend - #614 - New York Circus

Episode Date: October 2, 2025

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I guess. My vision is B-plus, or, uh, some B-12, what is it? I don't know. They're pretty good, I guess. It helps me read. I didn't know I needed glasses, you know, and then I guess I don't know if I was in, like, a dark restaurant or whatever. Next thing you know, I'm at the eye shop, and, uh, and I got these bitches, baby.

And so I'm enjoying them, I think. I will say this. I don't know. I can't, some people I can't see anymore. it's kind of, I'm not saying these things are making racial choices for me, but they're definitely, uh, these things don't want to get a good look at everybody, you know? So I may have to mail them back. I'm not sure. But I'm running on about eight foot radius or whatever, 12 foot radius may be in these. So, uh, if you want, you know, get close if you need me, you know. Um,

but yeah, because I fucking, dude, I was, my short sight was getting kind of right. You know, I'd go in for a hug and I'd miss that bitch. I'd be like, damn, you'd go in to hug somebody and hug the wrong person. You're like, who's that, you know, that's somebody's damn husband or something. You know, you don't even, you know, you go in to hug a decent woman and you end up over there, you know, and you just up near some man's neck or something. It just, so I think getting your visual is important. And so that's kind of what I'm, I guess, doing.

I got to get, yeah, I think these bitches are B or B plus. I don't know what. I got a look at the, um, package or whatever. I got these bitches online. They came to just wrote the size of them on the back or something. I think it was like 38, 42 or, I don't know. I got to look and see. I got a fucking kind of a big head.

What else? Thank you guys for being here. The circus is coming to town. I just saw that. I don't know if there's any circus lovers, but the circus is back. You know, and, When I was a child, the circus was a big thing. You know, you had a couple times throughout the year you'd get this little ticket at school.

And it'd say on a circus at the top. And it'd say like Willie's circus, you know, a risky rick's circus, you know? And it would say like, admit one, just on this ticket, you could get it anywhere. So they were just giving out free tickets, you know? And it would be like, this petting zoo fuck. and rocks it would say or something like that on the back or where pet and zoos go to fuck it would say shit like you're like that's that's a lot um but it was a big deal back then when a circus came because you'd see them setting up in that big top that tent and they wheel all animals in there

and some of the animals they'd been through a lot they'd look like they'd maybe just got back from war or something war or two or something you know they'd some of them missing and ear or you know have a fake ear you know they'd have an elephant but then one of his ears they'd have just two you know they'd put a damn potted plant in the hole over there and you'd have a damn elephant ear plant growing out of the side you know and they'd paint that bitch gray over there you'd see a guy on a ladder just painting that elephant you know just painting a big plant ear gray just trying to line it all up and they put a big bow tie on him call him big ginger or whatever spray paint red hair on his back there you know it was just you know you'd see a giraffe

but that bitch had a short neck on him you're like god you'd see a damn giraffe he was four foot four and that bitch was just you know pissed too pissed it almost looked like if you tickled him the right way his neck would just just you know get to the right size you know he's just like that wide neck remember that fellow wide neck that was running around he was a um kind of an African-American like running back that only played drugs or whatever like you know what I'm saying he didn't have a sport and that was the circus and it meant something you were excited about it and you talk about it at school and you'd go over there and I just saw the flyer that a new one it's it's called the circus it's like a it kind of had looked like a like a cirque to soul circus kind of search so sort like a it just looked like a um like a rave for children kind of, you know, they had a couple damn drones out there, you know, Palantir just shooting popcorn into kids' mouths and stuff. Just, you know, it had a different sort of

etiquette to it. And I don't even know if they had any animals. They had a couple of kind of gender neutral dudes just kind of whistling in each other's mouths type of deal. You know, they had a blind fella just kind of just singing Fred again lyrics and stuff. It's just gotten very progressive. It feels like the circus. You know, they used to have real animals. You go out there, you'd see a couple monkeys out there, and you're over there and one of them be smalking for you. And, you know, you get you 50 cents over there, go visit that smock and monkee. See if you'll ash in your mama's back, you know, or something.

And they had long arms. They'd ash in a baby carriage or something like that. It was, you know, it was more involved. They let the animals live a little. You know, and they used to have real lions, too. They'd have, you know, they had back, back then they had real lions. Now you got a couple, you got a couple of hearty women over there wearing Aiden Hutchinson jerseys, you know, and just complaining that their breasts are too big. Now they got a gluten-free concession stand.

Just a, you know, the peanut allergies. They got that. So it's, you know, back in a day, they had a dude, you would find a dude at the circus with a peanut allergy. They would find that dude. they would give them a couple handfuls of peanuts and then send that bitch running through a ring of fire, baby. While people in the crowd sang for those about to rock. Now it's just, they find a dude with a peanut allergy, right? They put him in a hazmat suit.

They have him run and jump through a ring of peanuts into his two mother's arms. So it's, I'm just saying, yeah, it's just a different. time man it's just a different time and that's what time does it keeps making things different doesn't it man time does not like to wear the same outfit baby that's the truth time likes to uh time likes every minute just freshly ironed baby right out the package time is just you know it's just it likes to feel brand new baby but god that circus was fun you go over there and Sometimes some of the circus workers, they just set themselves on fire and just collect damn workman's comp right there, right in front of you. People would cheer and just damn just, you know, God and just pray.

So, yeah, it was just a different time, man. That's the circus. That's the circus. It's back. And we had a circus last week in New York in New York City. And I want to talk about that. I want to I want to just go through it

because there's like a lot of stuff out there speculation and all of that and I want to just get super clear on it right because I think a lot of people don't know like what went on and it wasn't that crazy what went on and I wish it was going to be

a more exciting story but I just want to yeah I just want to share with you kind of what happened I guess and I don't want to make it a big deal but I think but I do want to like

just kind of go into it right um you know so mental health is important to me right it's important to me we talk about that kind of stuff on here a lot and hold on and yeah it's like it's a i think it's been something that we talk about a great deal and just think about and kind of explore right so so i had a comedy special that we were taping we were taping it last week and about um and about a month before i started i quit taking uh some antidepressants i was taken you know i just kind of self-weened myself off and the reason why was because i wanted like during the comedy show i wanted to have a little bit more emotion during it i wanted to have this kind of like i just wanted to have some more

feelings you know if um if you ever take an antidepressants or if you haven't uh they it kind of takes away your feelings kind of you know uh so you just kind of stay in this space where you're okay and it's nice it's a safe space but you don't uh you're like the astronaut that kind of stays on the ship sometimes and you get to do the thumbs up and shit but other dudes are like, you know, other people are out there. Anyway, so I quit taking my medication because I wanted to have a little bit more feelings during the show. I wanted to be able to talk about stuff a little bit more that meant something to me

and put it into the comedy show. So that was all going fine, right? I was doing fine with that. We're headed into the comedy show. And then the Charlie Kirk thing happened, right? Charlie Kirk murder happened, which is really crazy. You know, it was just a crazy thing. I've talked about it before.

I'm not going to talk about it anymore right now. But a few days after that or maybe a week after that, the Department of Homeland Security put a video up online talking about, they started making like trap beat edits and like Bangor Edit. to evicting people from the country, right? Or eliminating illegal, illegals, maybe some criminals, some people just undocumented, all, you know, just across the spectrum, right? So they put a video of mine that I'd made for somebody in a parking lot, probably like maybe a year and a half ago, just jokingly, they put, I think it was a year and a half ago. They put it in at the front of this Department of Homeland Security, like trap beat, I think,

I think they had, like, I'm not sure if they had, like, young boy or whatever they had. But it was, uh, it was kind of, it was ridiculous. And the video was, a girl that walked up to me in a parking lot and she had said, hey, my friend just got deported. What do you have to say? Or do you have a message? I can't remember what it was. And I was just like, bye, you know?

And I didn't know if it was real or not. I had no idea. I was just joking around. It's a stranger came up between a parking lot. I think it was after a show and there were some people. gathered around and we were just kind of like BSing and taking pictures and just kind of associate right so anyway long story short that happens so this video goes mega viral 25 million 30 million views it's everywhere and the front of the deed of that Homeland Security video it's on

the White House thing it's on everything it's it's everywhere and the first 10 seconds of it or me, right? Like, I don't have anything to do with this shit. Nobody asked me about it. Um, you know, like, nobody said, hey, this is going to have, like, and I have a lot of different thoughts about immigration, right? They're like showing people getting arrested. Like, it's just an intense thing. Like, and why is the government even making these? I don't know. I, but that's where we're at in the world. And, and I have a lot of thoughts about immigration, right? I have a ton of them. And we don't need to go into them all right now. I've talked about them on other episodes. Um, I feel like they're doing a lot of bookkeeping in the country right now because we're going to get into a surveillance state

and everyone is going to have to be on the books, right? So that's where I believe that we're headed. Um, but this was just wild, you know, and people are like sending messages and like hateful stuff and, you know, you think all these illegal sheds and all this type of shit. And like, I could talk to you ad nauseum about that. But, but this wasn't the time for it just was something that they used and put out there and everybody saw right so i'm getting a ton of hateful stuff and and and and i'm trying to remember everything i'm trying to kind of remember everything right now and um but this video goes everywhere and i'm getting like a lot of like dude what the fuck just all kind of shit right like my phone just blowing like what the hell it's just like the last thing i needed right there's a week left to this special um and this happens you know this thing comes out and my father immigrated here from Nicaragua, right? Like, one of my prize possessions is I have his immigration papers when he came here. And I have him in a frame and him and his siblings when they came here. And so I have tons of thoughts about it. But this was just fucked up, right? It was fucked up.

And it was everywhere. It was like on all platforms and stuff. So that had me really kind of paranoid. You know, that had me start to get kind of paranoid and, you know, like closing, like, you know, I had the curtains in my house kind of closed. I was just like, you know, you're paranoid. I woke up the next morning, sorry, I need some water. I woke up the next morning to a text from a high government official saying, hey, if you need some extra security in your neighborhood or some extra police cars on patrol let me know and i'm like what what are you talking about extra security i don't have any like you know i don't even know the code to my ring camera like i don't even know how to log in so it's like and then and like what you're just gonna put

police cars in my neighborhood what are my neighbors going to think now they're fearful like it just like i don't know man that that like really kind of shook me it really kind of shook me um but you just you keep marching on you know and you start getting security and then now but now you have security right and the thing is you just don't know you just don't know right there was a moment on the like it was white house because the white house also put this out thank you white house um that and look i'm all for like the board i'm all for tighter boards i'm all for like accurate knowing who's on i'm all for knowing who is in a country. I'm all for knowing what's in the cupboard of a society. I think you should know every,

I think you should know every item on the log. I think it should be known, right? I do. Now, how do you get there? That's the bigger question. And we don't have to discuss that today, right? It's not about that. Um, and sorry, I'm going slow here. I'm trying to piece this together. So now I have this thing with security, but then you get a security person and they, now you're, if you're walking on a security guy, then that's kind of uncomfortable. because now you're like it kind of makes you spooked you're like what's going on so there's just like all of that's happening and then we get to just the job right like which is performing speaking in front of strangers like you had just seen this thing with charlie kirk right it's like

like we all watch somebody get lit up we all watch somebody get murdered casually on our phones right like and i don't mean to say it like that but that's That's how it all, it came across to us. There's no warning on a lot of video you see and like, so just a lot of, uh, I think unnecessary pressure, a lot of stress going on that I did. Some of it I was aware of and some of it, you just don't know you're aware of it, I think. You know, because I think like, um, like you just, sometimes you don't know what stress you're holding. you know one day there was a i got a uh a call from a friend of mine and they said they were going into uh rehab and i just started bawling right and i didn't realize that there was a part of me

that was waiting to hear that from them and that it uh it really made me feel some type of way you know so sometimes it's like you just don't know what stresses you're holding anyway uh so so anyway so we get to the the shows right we're there and it's a lot of lot you know it's a lot there's a lot of like last minute choices to be made um it seemed to go messier than the past specials that i'd taped right it seemed to be a lot more confusion and it all could have been just kind of my perception right because what started to happen was on this day i was starting to feel uh a little bit like i don't know if manic is the word i don't know what manic means I've said manic, but I don't manic meaning.

Let me see. What does it mean when someone is manic? Oh, it says trying to meet man's. That's the first one. Like, this is fucking, see, this is how bad shit's gotten. You're, you know, you're trying to figure out if you have some sort of an anxiety disorder. And next thing you know, you're getting damn emails from a local men's bar or whatever. It is defined as an extremely unstable, euphoric or irritable mood along with an excessive activity or energy level.

okay excessively rapid thought and speech I probably could have used a little more of that so I think I started to feel kind of mildly manic I think it was just being off the medication I think

and it wasn't insane it was just little things like the second I got on stage the first show I couldn't feel any moisture in my mouth and I started to feel like you ever remember that feeling

if you were in high school when you got high and then you were standing there talking to your friends and you were just too high and you were just literally standing there just trying to pretending to be yourself a little bit.

So I had a little bit of that going on. And it started off choppy. The first show, it started off kind of choppy. We were doing like a new intro with Joey Diaz at the last minute. And he was pretty goomed up. You know, he's Coco. And it was a blessing that he was there,

but we hadn't ran through it. And so it's just like a lot of, like, things at the last minute. But yeah, I'm on stage. And the second half of the first show went good. And there were some beats that I got that had like an emotional piece to them that I wanted. And that felt exciting. But the whole show, it was, it was, uh, there were parts where I just couldn't remember the next thing. I couldn't remember like my next sequence.

Like I was having trouble just keeping track of stuff. And that's when I really was like, oh, man, I'm, uh, I'm just off tonight. You know, I just. you know, it is just like, I'm just off tonight. And I even, I think I remember saying to the audience, like, thank you guys just for being here for me, you know, like, and the audience was cool, man. People were, were happy to be there. They were super stoked when I came out. I started to feel bad that I wasn't giving them the best show.

But the show ended up going a little bit long, blah, blah, blah. We get to halftime, or in between the two shows, and Chris Rock is bad. backstage he's there my favorite right like i mean i see chris rock smile and you just feel like it's gonna be good you know this is it's almost like when you know somebody that was good in class at making a good joke and then you see him and you're like oh the michael jordan has arrived you know like um so anyway seeing him and it kind of like i kind of like i kind of i was like almost way so excited about seeing him like i was very excited but then i realized i was kind of over excited um he enjoyed the show you know and and so i went into the second show feeling like okay

i got to figure some of this out i couldn't tell if people were like being like legit like okay was it good was it bad what was going on and then i took an ice bath between the shows i was doing my yoga the same usual stuff i do anyway sorry i know this is getting long but uh and then we did the second show and the second show was started out fire first 22 minutes we're cooking and then i just i couldn't remember stuff and we didn't put a teleprompter we like we've done it for other specials we didn't do it and that was a bad choice i don't know if i probably made the choice for sure I don't remember, but so I had to ask for, you know, I was like having to ask off stage because I wanted to get everything in sequence, you know, and I think I got stuck on this like

sequence thing and, um, and it was just hard, man, it just, you know, I just did it. I didn't feel like myself. I felt like I was trying to kind of pretend to be myself. And it wasn't insane or extreme. It just, that was it. And we got to the end of the show. and we were standing around afterwards with the producers and the director, my friend Kevin, and just like, did we get it? You know, did we get it? Excuse me, did we get it good enough?

You know, because I want this special to be, you know, you do the material for so long. And my buddy Neil Brennan said this the other day before it. He said, hair in my eyes today he said dude this is the last time you'll ever spend with this material you know it's really the last time you'll probably ever do it and and this material's been it's been a friend to me over the years has been you know it's taken me around the world you know it's gotten me to see a lot of people that uh love me and that i love um so that was just a neat

sentiment of a way to like embrace the material and stuff but i was just at the end of the night I was like, I don't know if we got it. And they're like, yeah, well, let's edit together something and see. And I was like, okay, but I just, I don't, I couldn't feel the magic, you know, I just was off. And that was it. We left the show, we left the theater. We took pictures. You know, I went up by the stage at the end of the, at the end of each show and we're like taking pictures of people that are sitting there.

And, and that's when some girl, there was a clip of me, which I think, you know, which I think, this is what really like this is what made things ridiculous uh where in passing i just was like or i don't i don't know if it was in passing i haven't seen the clip honestly and i haven't been online um i woke up the next day to like a bunch of things like bro what's up or things like that and i was like oh my god you know what's going like did you know did i you know did i steal somebody's horse did i hit somebody with a vehicle you know what i have no i you know is just kind of alarming and then a buddy of mine sent me a clip and I could just see the outside and it was like you could see me on stage and then people were asking me about suicide and I was like oh god

you know um and I don't even remember exactly what I said but I can certainly see me saying something like oh just try not to take my own life you know um which I I understand it's not a joke to some people, right? It's not a joke to me. But it is something that I'll say, you know, I'll say stuff sometimes. I say stuff, right? You know, you know that. If you've listened to this show before or seen anything, you know I say stuff. I would never take my own life. I would never take my own life. Okay. You hear that is real? I would never take my own life. I would never take my own life. I'm grateful to God for his grace in my life.

I love my siblings. I have so many friends and people that love me and people that I want to see their children grow up. I'm hopeful that I get to have a wife and meet my own children one day. Like there's a ton of things in my life that keep me alive and hopeful, right? I want to be able to have an impact in the world. those are just a few of them probably you know i mean so many just moments we've shared on this show that i'm like oh i live for those things you know i mean i want to see vandy win a uh a championship so i'm gonna have to be a lot for a long time you know what i'm saying type

shit uh so but anyway so anyway that was you know so i woke up to that and i was like oh man and I guess I had like a lot of different well in addition to that people wrote articles oh this is bad and look it wasn't great I didn't love it and I had a lot of people that said it was great though like I have people say do we loved it

it was great so but i didn't think it was i didn't think it was perfect you know for sure but i thought let's just look at the edit and see um and so we still haven't decided we might shoot again some point i don't know what's going to go on but there was just this energy now where it was like everybody started checking on me and uh i was like oh man this is tough and and there's people that would think like oh well he failed or who want to write up write up something that says he failed or make a meme i saw one thing it said uh uh bombs netflix or whatever taping or whatever awesome thank you dude um but homie i was fucking in that bitch cuz you should have seen me dog

you should have seen me you know you ever see that show dog and a lot of time you'll see that dog show and it's that uh weistaminst i think it's weistamista the wistamista dog show you see that bitch boy and they got some dogs in that bitch and then they got that other bro they got that other little uh that little I mean this bitch is just a little thought waller this bitch you know

they got that little male thought waller rolling up you're like damn that little bit you know he got a little maybe an ankle it on or something maybe he got a house arrest bracelet on his tail but that bitch is in there and they're like damn he ain't supposed to be here but he's over there he's listening to DMS We ride it.

And all the other dogs got all them crazy tricks, and he just fucking, he'll gamble on his phone real quick or do something like that. Or he'll fucking run a parlay or something on his phone. And that's his trick. And he'll smoke a Virginia Slim right there and hit that bitch. You know what I'm saying? So anyway, what I'm saying is, bitch, I'm out there.

I'm in the ring, bro. And I failed so many times you could write what I, bro, write what you want big dog write what you want it wasn't perfect man I'll agree to that and if you know and if I've gotten so used to times I have failed it's okay I eat failure for breakfast

but I'm fucking you fill me up with failure flakes over the years kids and it's okay man that's part of the job the first 10 years doing comedy is failure so much of my life the best things that have ever happened on my life had been on the other side of failure.

And, yeah, it would be great if one day we could all live in a space where we all, you know, we lived in a neighborhood where everybody, when they went out in the world, they was potentially going to fail, boy. We riding right on the edge, baby. You know? And that we admired that about each other.

Um, so anyway, I'm not looking to like downplaying or make it, you know, we might reshoot it again. We'll see what happens. And, um, and that's it, you know. Because you don't, if you, like, if you're not on that risk of failing, I don't know what I'm going to be. If I'm not on that risk of failing, I don't know what I'm going to be. It's like a bulb, you know, a plant bulb. If you saw, like a plant bulb is kind of brave, right? Like a, uh, a floral bulb, right? because if he just stays a bulb he's just that little green little monster right that little nugget but when he blasts open you don't he don't know what he's going to get out that bit brother he might be a rose he might be a defile brother he might be a um he might be a damn a succubes or

whatever he might be a gladioli he you don't know when you pop up that top but you're gonna get out of yourself imagine you walk through the woods and all the flowers are just just loked out they all just in hiding bro they're all in witness protection program bulbs

but nah they took that shot pow bitch so anyway I don't know if I'm rambling or just fluffing my own ego but um so that was it man and there was a video about you know and that that and so

that stuff happened and but then the thing that like made everything hectic was uh someone recorded a video of me making a passive comment joking around about um about suicide and i didn't even mean to i didn't know people were recording me at that time i don't think or i don't think that they are anymore and i think i got to evolve in my own head that that's how things are now so and i don't know i know Another thing had happened, I didn't even tell anybody this, but I went to the doctors like a couple weeks ago. This was like, I think two days after the Charlie Kirk shooting, I went to the doctors. And I'm in the doctor room, and it's just me and a nurse.

And she comes in and I'm talking about, you know, I got to get a checkup and everything where they do you nuts or whatever, you know. And so I'm talking, you know, we're talking about body and everything. and, uh, you know, um, you know, talking about genitals or whatever, right, and body. And so we have this conversation. And then the nurse, she says after, she says, uh, and she's like, hey, I brought, I brought something for you. And I'm like, huh? And she's like, I brought something for you.

And it really. spooked me, bro, because I'm in a doctor's office, right? This is a place where you think you can be safe. And, um, and man, that was a, that was a tough moment. My mom was in town. And after that, I remember sitting in my car, sitting in my car with her. And I kind of got a little teared up because I was like, oh, man, no place is kind of safe anymore, you know? And the, the girl just wanted to do something nice, right? I think she wanted to give me something. I don't know. But it was just that invasiveness of like, man, this is like supposed to be. a very private place.

And I mentioned it to the doctor. And then I even, you know, I made sure that the nurse didn't feel like bad. You know, she's just trying to be a nice person. You know, I believe that her motives were in a good place. I don't hold any ill will against her. But it was just like, I don't know, there was just a lot of little things that were adding up to stress. And so, yeah, that's what happened.

And it's just been like, I've had so many people reach. out so thank you so much i've had so many people say nice things i can't believe like to me it felt very kind of like in passing um and then i was just kind of burnt out uh but just know that i'm never at a place like that you know i'm far from a place like that you know there may have been times when i was a kid or something i had some negative you know some stuff was scary but yeah i'm going to be here i'm going to be here you're going to be here and we're going to be here and we're going to be here together like we always been and um and that was it there was nothing else to the evening we tried like to really keep things together um there was no drug issue

there was no like i mean when cocoa showed up there was smoking you know it's like but there was no uh there wasn't like it was just it was just like just the fuse was short going into it the fuse was short going into it i remember right when we got to the theater some guy was supposed to show me to my dressing room he took me on like a seven minute journey out into the fucking caverns of some building i don't even know where we were we were like there was like teenage meeting and turtles there and i was like oh fuck i'm already this is i could feel my fuse being pretty low uh so but i still tried i think they're looking back maybe i should have like pulled the core you know i don't know though i you know

you don't you don't kind of know until you know where you until where you are you know and so I don't think I would have done anything different I made all the choices I didn't realize how much stress I had and that's it um but I do want to I do want to say this about suicide right like you know a friend of mine a close friend of mine uh years ago his sister um was dealing with a lot of stuff she was dealing with a lot of stuff she was dealing with a lot of stuff and she couldn't say she she was having trouble talking about it like

you know she was having trouble talking about it she didn't want to bother people um and she finally told a member of their family and they didn't want to worry everybody in the family with it and so they kind of told the rest of the family

that she had mono and so she was suffering uh and then like within a year she had taken her own life right she just couldn't handle where she was at and i think it's and i just want to say her name christianne and just let uh her know that people think of her and that her brothers love her and that um and that she's an angel out in the universe keeping tabs on people and that's a beautiful thing but I think about that story

from my buddy sometimes and it's like I think people get stuck in a space with like yeah I'm gonna bother somebody if I've already told my friends so many times and I'm not doing good I don't none of that stuff matters it's like however you have to speak up about something if you have to

I think it's worth trying to try them more you know and I don't know if that means anything I'm just saying, yeah, I don't know what I'm saying. I think I just wanted to just have a moment and just let it be known that that young lady has missed. I think maybe that's something that I just wanted to think about out loud. And that however you have to say something, say it.

But I was just joking, man, and I know it's not something to joke about. And I get that. And I appreciate all like the beautiful concern and the things. thank yous and like just the outpouring i just started to feel like god i don't even know how to tell everybody that i was just joking um and i joke about some dark stuff sometimes and i joke about everything and uh i think that's what makes you able to do comedy sometimes i don't know i don't want to like look at myself too much like that because that gets kind of egoy but um but yeah i'll be here forever and we got to see how this fucking circus goes you know

This short giraffe balls out. So I love you. And thank you for loving me. It would take me forever to thank everybody for the nice messages. It really would. But gosh, I'm fine. Don't treat me weird. Don't be weird.

I'm not weird. I'm chill. You're good. We riding, bro. We riding, bro. Type shit, boy. Let's get to a few calls that came in here. And maybe we'll keep it in this space.

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called a number of times um what's up time brother thank you for calling man um well thank you for calling back uh onward um i just want to thank you again for everything that you do just from being real for not being too good for anybody and a hotline bro i'm sure it means a lot to a lot of people lost my son a year and a half to go to suicide and um It was tough, man. I still have nightmares and visions of just seeing that, finding that. And I don't know, man, it's hard to talk about. But I found your show about, I'd say four months after that happened.

And when I tell you that you gave me a reason to laugh for the first time since it ever since it happened, you did, bro. And I got to say that being an addict and being cleaned for the last five and a half years, it would have been really easy to use as an excuse to go back. But I didn't. And I truly believe that God, number one, and. just being able to laugh again kept me free and I feel like honestly saved my life brother and I appreciate it I love you I love what you do thank you for everything praise God man thank you Tom thank you brother I'm so sorry to hear about your son I bet he misses you and I bet he loves you and they may not even have feelings over there where you miss people I bet it's just

pure love but um but i'm sorry i'm sorry i can't even there's not a word i could give you you know except that i'm happy to hear your voice today you know and thanks uh thanks for letting me make thanks thank you for let me be a part of your laughter you know sometimes when i'm like in pain and stuff i won't even let people make me laugh kind of it's like you know that stuff when you're like young or something or something's rough and you want to laugh and it's like you won't let somebody make you laugh. It's like almost out of posterity and stuff. But man, thank you, bro. Thank you just for sharing that story today and for letting us have a moment to remember him. I don't even know what he looks like, you know, but I'm just going to

remember a sweet soul that loved his father and that was trying his best in the world. yeah that's cool that's cool he seems like a he feels like a neat kid so thank you so much time for sharing that with us today um let's hear another let's hear another call we'll take one more here What do we got here? Hey, what's up, Theo? My name is Lane. What's up, Lane, baby?

And you hear a lot about that lane, baby. The HOV Lane, brother, that threesome, huh? Let's hear more about it. And I just want to call on and give my son a shout out. His name is Mateo. He's three years old. And he's finishing chemo for the second time. And I just want to ask.

Let's go! Let me catch his name again. I just want to call on and give my son a shout out. His name is Mathetto. He's three years old. And he's finishing chemo for the second time. And I just want to ask for a prayer, brother. You know, a prayer that that shit don't come back.

Prayer from the community. And, yeah, shout out to my wife for holding us down for this hard time. And I want to speak into existence that, you know, fuck it. I'm going to do some stand-up comedy. You know, you've been a big inspiration, so shout out to you, too, Zio. Peace. Oh, well, thank you, thank you, thank you for the call, man. Yeah, I'm sorry.

I'm, I'm, I'm glad your son is being a warrior, you know? I'm glad you're here speaking prayer towards your son. I'm glad you're requesting prayer. I'm glad that you're reminding us. It's okay to call others and ask for prayer and ask for energy, you know. God, we forget that. I forget that all the time. I forget that all the time.

Yeah, I'll say a prayer right now. God, we lift up my tail to you and just keep his smile. hopeful and keep him cancer free God and let him have the joy that he wants in the world and we lift up his mother to you God and just all the all the energy you continue to give her and all the mothers out there who who have to deal with children who are suffering with illnesses man that can be a heavy a heavy heavy burden. And we give, thanks God, that in witnessing other people triumph and witnessing this man witnessing

his young son battle through chemotherapy, that it inspires him to go out and do things, that inspires him to take on things that, like if he wants to do comedy or he wants to sing or he wants to do a backflip online or whatever he wants to do, you know, that it inspires him, that it pushes him through any potential failure, you know? Because failure is just a little bit of bootleg fear.

That's all that shit is. That's all that shit. That's aftermarket fear, cut. But God, we lift him up, man. Man, that's inspiring. And it inspiring to see a little three-year-old fellow out there, waddling around ringing that chemo, that cancer-free bell out there. Him and Randy Moss out there ringing that bitch, that's beautiful, man. And I lift up my buddy M.K., man, there's a friend of mine named M.K.

And his wife and their family is dealing with a lot of tragedy right now. Their brother, her brother got shot. And I don't know even the situation right now. um but yeah i just want to lift him up god and just let his heart know that he's not alone and let her heart know and her brother's heart know that they're not alone that people are thinking of them and uh yeah so in your name we pray amen man um i think we did pretty good today this is as good as i can do today guys You know? I appreciate you. I appreciate to getting all the warm messages.

I'm sorry, I rambled a lot about what happened in New York City, but I wanted to take a few days to kind of digest it because it was all out of my, it was like, it wasn't all out of my control. There was a lot of stuff going on. I'm like, some of this is real. Some of this is not. And I don't like to take any action when I'm a little bit tired, you know. So I want to thank the people that did come out to the show. And it was what it was. It was what it was, boy, what it was, boy. At that we smith stuff, bro. No, but thank you.

Thank you to anybody that's come out to my show. Thank you to anybody that's just been supported that's been a part of this group. We're good. We're good here. We're good here. So I just want you to know that wholeheartedly. I'm not here.

we're good here and um and i'm looking forward to actually taking some time off i just want to do things that are fun for me i want to spend time around my friends and stuff like that and then at the same time i got to get a little bit of space sometimes i spend so much time like on my phone these things like just texting so many things that are just kind of like i just want to be able to have a little bit of peace for myself and i deserve it right And I deserve it. We all deserve it. And so, yeah, I want to thank everybody for their calls. I want to thank everybody for their care. I want to thank everybody for their calls sharing their own words and stories and on the hotline. And I did get back on my medication. I want people to know that. You know, I'm not worried about that kind of stuff. you know and maybe one day I'll be able to be off of it you know I'm going to make sure that I work with a doctor if I if I think about that again um but one day it would be nice to you know

be able to kind of have all your feelings you know in a manageable way and um to have all of your feelings you know so um all right Thank you guys so much, and, man, we've got a lot of life to look forward to. I believe that, and I know you do too. And, yeah, you guys be good to yourselves. I'm going to do the same thing, okay? I promise. All right, I'm upstairs.

Gang, baby. Now, I'm just floating on the breeze, and I feel I'm falling like these leaves. I must be cornerstone. Oh, but when. When I reach that ground, I'll share this piece of mind I found I can feel it in my bones. But it's gonna take it.