Uncle Joey's Joint with Joey Diaz - #110 | UNCLE JOEY'S JOINT with JOEY DIAZ

Episode Date: October 27, 2021

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CBD Lion code word JOY or JOINT let's get this motherfucking party started welcome to Uncle Joey's JOINT what's happening you bad motherfuckers it's Wednesday the 27th

of the month Halloween week I love this fucking week I've always loved this week I mean listen it's not like I'm gonna go fucking trick-or-treating or whatever

I eat like a bag I'm an ass I eat like a bag I'm an ass I eat like a bag I'm an ass or whatever I eat like a bag I'm an ass that's it you know lately that's how I fall asleep because at night when I go upstairs I go I stop in the spare bedroom

and I get the cat she's out cold and they're laying down I need my little service cat so I go in there and get gray and when I'm going to get it what I do is I turn the light on but there's a ceiling fan if you turn the ceiling fan on she don't like it she's scared of that fucking ceiling fan

she just keeps looking at the ceiling fan when you turn it on so I'll stop by the office and my wife had all my wife's doing trunk or treat you know where you get your cars and you put them in a parking lot and the kids come from trunk to trunk so they're fucking her and my daughter upstairs

fucking filling bags up of candy so for the I swear to God like maybe not last week maybe the week before for like three nights in a row I would go upstairs and get the cat and I would look on the bed and there'd be a bag of M&M's little little tiny bags

those little snack bags like eight M&M's in them I'd fucking open those things up right as I'm going to bed and I put them in my mouth as I'm walking to piss before I go to bed and I lay in bed for ten minutes I get a little sugar buzz but what comes up must go down

that's the best sleeping pill there is fucking nine or ten M&M's I was sleeping like a fucking baby dog just grabbing some M&M's and hitting the fucking crib baboon that's how you sleep soft nah it's true you get that little sugar buzz

and next thing I'm waking up at five in the morning going fuck I passed out I ate those nine fucking M&M's I'm fucking out of it Jack great week so far shitty day yesterday fucking world series last night tremendous I love listen I love this time of the year

I love the weather is nice I tell you when it comes to Jersey, New York, the east coast listen to me I don't know Boston gets a little colder I gotta be honest with you the best months to be here April and May and fucking September and October

the summer sucked the summer we got rain every weekend we got rain during the week fucking September 1st came and it was beautiful it was 60 to 80 every fucking day sun shining hotter than fucking you could look I walked around

with a fucking tan I just sit out there 15 minutes a fucking day it's been a gorgeous fucking month the leaves are starting to change this time of the year is fucking great there's only one thing that gets to me around now once I see the Halloween commercial

once October 15 comes I start getting a little sad man it's weird because I keep my composure pretty much I think I broke down on here one time in February when it was Ralphie May I was taking those pain pills

and I was all fucked up but it's weird I don't really get down about things like I get down a couple weeks ago when it was Ralphie's anniversary on October 6 when I say get down I mean I just get quiet for a few hours

you know it's not like I'm crying or I get fucking depressed or you know none of that shit I'm not gonna tell you it's the end of the world none of that shit you know these people are having a rough day now this shit this makes me think

it just makes me think like this time of the year makes me think because November 8 not this Monday coming this Monday coming is November 1 but the following Monday is November 8 and that's my mother's 42nd

death anniversary 42 fucking years now I sit here sometimes and I sit in myself what the fuck happened like how the fuck did I live 58 years already 58 I'm 50 fucking 8 I was just 21

I was just 27 I was just 33 I was just 44 I was 50 and then one day you fucking 58 that's the those are the denominations I remember I'm not gonna lie to you guys I remember when I'm 21 when I'm 25

I went to jail when I was 33 I got into comedy I remember that when I was 37 I was in Seattle fucking around when I was 40 I was in LA when I was 37 what am I talking about and then I was 4 I remember being 44

and going I gotta quit doing coke I gotta get my life together and here we are 14 fucking years later but time fucking flew I mean you know when you're in high school time is like fucking even the summers are slow when high school ends it seems like

it just moves it just moves I just remember being August 28th and me going to fucking Pittsburgh it's already October fucking 27th I was just in Pittsburgh 2 fucking months ago those 2 months just flew fucking by

I still remember going wow in 3 months the many saints are coming out it's out it's been out for a fucking month it's just time is flying but not to lose track of what we're talking about here when it comes to my mom like everybody knows I experienced death at a young age

so it's kinda crazy whenever somebody loses somebody I'm their first fucking email I'm their first message and I'm not talking about friends of mine I'm talking about people who follow the podcast people who follow me on Patreon people who follow me on Twitter, Instagram

I swear to God when they lose a family member 9 out of 10 I'm the first god to send a message to and it's a sad message I got a couple on Patreon this summer from guys that lost their mom and they were fucking miserable

and they always ask me the same question they go Joey how long am I going to feel shitty for and I lied to them I lied to them I lied to you and I'm sorry I do I have to lie to you because I cannot tell you the truth at that time

I lie to people when they email me I tell them listen man I'm sorry for your loss I know how close you were with moms I mean everybody's close with moms we have disagreements from time to time we don't agree with them but it's your mom you know

so I understand where you're coming from and to answer your question about how long do you feel shitty for I go just uh I feel shitty for a while a bit you know that's a big fucking lie

and then I tell them the simplest answer I know because it's what I did grow up to be the man your mother wanted you to be you've been in the kitchen and your mom just says stupid shit to you like I really want you to join the marines

and you're like oh boy you know I really want you to be a doctor and you're like fuck I really want you to do this my mom used to talk to me about that shit the way all moms do I don't know if your mom talked to you about that stuff but she would talk to me about uh you know when you get older

when you get married I don't think you should fucking drink my mom would say little fucking things to me and I would like to say I'm fucking eight who's thinking about getting married who's talking about getting married here the fuck who brought that up you know my mom would just say

little things like that what people usually is listen man you want to make this easier it's going to take a while but to answer your question grow up to be the man your mother wanted you to be

and then they write me back that sounds great thank you for getting back to me I don't think they really understand what I'm saying nobody does nobody can understand what I mean the man my mother wanted me to be if they say their father died I also tell them that

grow up to be the woman or the man your father wanted you to be that's really fucking important right there that's really important when my mother died I'm going to tell you guys the evolution of it and some of these are going to be like

what the fuck Joey when I found my mother on the floor November 8th that night at three in the fucking morning I was tripping on acid I didn't know what to expect even today it still feels like a fucking dream

it was all a dream I used to read word up magazine you know I thought it was a fucking dream finding your mother on the floor it's something that you never imagine you know growing up or whatever

even now not really growing up because you don't imagine those things but now like I look at people and go man he's getting old I don't know how much time he's got left you know and uh you know with my mother

I never even looked at her like I couldn't even imagine my mother dying I could not even process that through my brain the test of that was in the eighth grade I dated a girl I was going to go down there and fool around with it a little bit

I mean we weren't having sex by hump and suck and tits that type of shit I was going to go down there and hang out with it one afternoon on fucking uh it was in February one of those washington birthdays in the old days

for you people who don't remember they celebrated Lincoln's birthday on the 12th and uh George Washington's birthday on the 19th so you got two Mondays off back to back in February now they're fucking chintzy about it they give us one fucking day we're fucking dudes that sucks dick

but uh I went down there on a Monday we had off and I was all hot and sticky ready to fucking go and I said uh what time's your dad getting home she goes about five I go what time's your mom getting home she goes my mom is dead hard on died

listen to me I was in the eighth grade you know in the eighth grade you're eternally fucking horny like that's all you fucking think about is fucking sucking but nobody's fucking you nobody's sucking you dick you're not even in the fucking ballpark you know what I'm saying but I was hoping that you know I would have sex

I hope I think you know and I go down there and she tells me that she's got no mother holy fuck my dick just died I looked at this chick and I was like what do you mean you got no fucking mother and she's like my mother died when I was a little girl in the back of my mind I'm like

what could you have done in your previous life to lose your fucking mother that was like fucking I didn't even heard of to me that your mother died I didn't think moms died I thought moms died when you turned 50 or something when you could handle it

but for your mom just I swear to God for your mom just to die like that just die I never even thought of that was possible I never thought that was possible I dumped that girl when I walked out of that fucking apartment that February 12th that Monday at two in the afternoon

I never fucking saw her again for a week to say listen I can't see you no more because I'm going away for basketball camp and I'll be training for freshman summer ball and all this shit and she's like what are you talking about you live three miles away and I'm like yeah but I did not want

she called me crying she was upset I did not give a fuck I was not hanging around with somebody who didn't have a mom that is not gonna happen in my realm so what happens two years later I lose my fucking mom so the first person that came to mind when I saw my mom on the floor

with that purple fucking arm was Colleen that was her name Colleen I'll never forget it in fact I've even you know how many times I've gone on Facebook found her and I want to send her a message to apologize for my behavior in 1978 and I can't

I can't I was I was a fucking jerk off to her you know at least I and I wasn't mean to her anything I just stopped talking to her I just couldn't even deal with the person that didn't have a mother I was like this is terrible you know this is like Satan's cousin or some shit

she don't have a fucking mother I can't deal with her so I thought I even go on Facebook now she lives in Ramsey New Jersey or something like that I found that she's still a fucking knockout but I mean for the five years for like ten years I've been trying to apologize to her

and I just can't so when I found my mom I mean I was numb when somebody dies you're in shock your body goes into shock you don't know it you don't feel it you don't feel it coming over you but your body's in fucking shock

your mental's in shock I remember the next day I went to fucking school in fact that's what really made me think about my mom because it was I took Mercy last Monday to the baking class and as I was going in they said remember the state fucking whatever

the teachers convention school November 5th, 4th and 5th and I'm like fuck and that was the week my mother died my mother's anniversary is really the 8th but she really she died on a Tuesday night and that's the week that you have school

on Monday and Wednesday but you're off Tuesday Thursday and Friday so when I found my mom on Tuesday night dog I went to school I didn't know what to do I couldn't sit along with my fucking thoughts in a house that I was fucking scared of

as it was a haunted fucking house so I just got up and went to fucking school I didn't know what to do and then one of the teachers saw me and he goes didn't your mom die last night and I'm like yeah and he goes what the fuck are you doing here I go what are my options what are you gonna do sit at home and wait

and they go no we gotta take you home you can't be it so they drove me to fuck home and I went home and I had a deal with it but what really bothered me about my mother's death was after I buried her I'm ashamed to tell you guys this but

I'll clear it up for 45 days I didn't feel nothing we buried my mom like on the 12th or the 13th my aunt Zorida the lady I did the comedy Central this is not happening about

stayed with me till Thanksgiving day until I moved in with the benders and I gotta be honest with you guys I didn't feel anything I didn't feel numb as a matter of fact like by mid December I was questioning myself like

did I not love this woman what the fuck is the matter with me man I'm not struggling I was out partying at night I was having a good fucking time but that album by Pink Floyd came out the war and the war had a song mother on it

that album came out November 28th 1979 my mom died November 8th 1979 so that album was the most popular fucking album of all time so the whole month of December any way you went that album was on and there's a song in that album called mother

mother do you think she'll drop the bomb all that shit and I would go to these places and I would be in there and this song would come on and I would fucking shun it like I would just shut it down in my my mind and in my ears

I would just try to shut it down as much as I could and this went on for a few weeks every time that song came on and I could see even my friends whenever we were playing that song in the shed my friends would always like you know try to lower it or let's put on a different album

and I would go no no no leave the wall on don't fucking change because of me you know but one night it was like and little after Christmas couple nights after Christmas and I went to one of those fucking parties and I was sitting there with my friends having a great fucking time

and that song came on and I was high and it just took me somewhere I don't know it's just my emotion my whole state of mind changed like a sadness just came on my fucking body it was rough people told me that once somebody dies

the hardest is the first holiday you know Thanksgiving was a little rough but again that's why I was like fuck I'm not really going through this I thought I would be breaking down and crying all the time that wasn't the case at all December came

as the holidays approached I got a little sad but again I wasn't sad enough to stay in or anything like that so I just played the fucking hand but that night after Christmas like two or three nights after Christmas whenever I think of that man

I fucking was at a party we were all having a good time talking to chicks you know the whole fucking deal and all of a sudden that album came on and mother came on and I was like fuck I'm getting anxiety something wasn't right I didn't feel right and I went outside and I stood by a car

for a little while and all of a sudden I started feeling dizzy it wasn't the alcohol it wasn't the weed it wasn't the acid it wasn't none of that shit I know you're like Joey you were probably onto its acid and drinking none none I was I'll tell you one something like that

just something it was like my whole body was sad and I went outside and it was December 28 27th guys it's fucking freezing out and I couldn't go back into that party this thing had taken over me and I don't know where I started barfing

I don't know where I just started barfing barfing barfing it was like my stomach had had it everything had had it and all I could think about was my mother in that cemetery freezing because it was so fucking cold out that's all I could think about

I go she's out there with a fucking dress on in a casket freezing her ass off and in my fucking assity mind I'm like I'm gonna go down there and get her out of that fucking casket that was horrible I fucking went down you know there was a fence

you know outside the cemetery and I knew the post that lined up with her grave you know with her gravestone I already knew the post because when I would walk to school I would stop and just look at the grave for a few minutes just to make sure she was dead

at this point 45 days later my mind was telling me she wasn't dead it was fucking horrible so I'll never forget that I fucking jumped the fence and I had gloves on and I go you know what I don't have a fucking shovel I have nothing I found like a fucking twig

and I started digging up the fucking body like not digging it up I was like scraping the dirt the ground was frozen I wasn't gonna get nowhere after about 20-30 fucking minutes I started scraping that fucking ground scraping it scraping it

and I'm like you know what this is fucking crazy and there was something else going on that I need to tell you this is how fucking crazy the mind is at her wake everybody kept putting little bundles of cocaine in her casket I stopped counting like a 20

there must have been an ounce of coke and little aluminum foils in that casket I was also gonna break into the casket and try to steal the fucking coke too don't get me wrong I don't think that I'm a fucking angel oh Joe he's gonna dig up his mother cause he missed her now

there was cocaine in that casket that's what else I was fucking thinking about you know I'm a dirty bastard but the beautiful thing was that while I was digging the fucking while I was trying to dig the grave I caught myself

and I was like what the fuck is going on here and I remember that like it was yesterday me just like straightening out and God just fucking take me you know I don't think I could do this anymore and I lay there for a couple minutes it was fucking freezing out

and I go you know what she's not even in this fucking grave that's how demented I was I was like she's home and I got out of the fucking cemetery and I walked straight to my fucking giving that terrace and I'll never forget making that left

turn on the corner and looking at my house and the lights were all turned off I was like fuck so I walked up to the house I had the keys to the house but I was too scared to open the door so I just rang the doorbell I must have rang the doorbell

50 fucking times and I kept telling the mother open up the door she was fucking dead I saw her at the funeral parlor I saw her in a fucking casket I saw them close the casket I saw them do the math the math the math

I saw them do the math and I saw them put her on the fucking ground I actually personally picked up a shovel and threw dirt on her and threw a rose on top and my mind still couldn't believe that she was fucking dead that's

insane to me when I think of that it just makes me fucking sad as fuck you know the last year I struggled a lot with my mental health with the withdrawals I was just fucking going nuts and I thought about

when was the last time I struggled like this and it was then I couldn't get it together you know the reason why I write a journal for my daughter and I give to my wife and I tell my wife listen I'm gonna probably have 10 journals

I don't know what I'm gonna die that's a thousand dollar question I don't know when the fuck I'm gonna die but I don't know how many journals I'm gonna have for her but as soon as I die and as soon as you bury me you have to give her these journals because I don't want her

to lose it the way I lost it as children we all have questions when you lose a parent we forgot to ask them certain questions I was 16 when my mother died when I was a kid I asked questions but once I turned

once I became a teenager I never asked any fucking questions what do I give a fuck? I'm trying to get my dick sucked I'm trying to fucking figure out how to get my dick sucked I don't give a fuck about where my grandmother was born or where my father went to school or that shit I didn't give a fuck about that

but that was part of my torment that's what drove me to snorkel that's what drove me to fuck when I got back to New Jersey last year I I was scared of COVID

we all were cautious of COVID but I also had a little fear in my heart of coming back here for all the things I had done I really let my friends down I let myself down I let a lot of people down I did some fucking bad shit

before I left here in 83 85 and when I got back here I remembered a lot of those things like it came up to my mind and it affected me a little bit it affected who I talked to

I just wanted to make sure that there was no bad blood I didn't want any beefs or anything but I was coming back here for 20 years just a weekend or two weekends a year I knew it was going to be different when I moved back here so I thought about all the bad things I had done and I couldn't believe

it was me and I'm going to tell you something I would love to be able to blame it on cocaine everybody blames shit on cocaine and there's a lot of things I blame on cocaine because now I realize that it was the cocaine that made me do it I didn't have those things in my heart

it wasn't in my heart to kidnap somebody that's never been in my heart to throw somebody in a trunk of a car it's never been in my heart to steal something I always hated stealing something don't get me wrong I never dreamt of robbing a jewelry store or robbing the amount of houses

or robbing the businesses and the drug dealers I did I'm very ashamed of what I did but I got to be honest with you I was out of my head at the time I was a 17 year old kid who had just lost his fucking mother I didn't know that I was coming

or going you guys know that you guys know that you guys know that I was coming or going you guys know me for years I'm not a big guy for making fucking excuses but this is an excuse I have to make

because it's the truth and I just realized that recently I realized that maybe six months ago when I was journaling that the things I had done weren't from the heart of Joey Diaz it was from the heart of the cocaine

the cocaine just had me fucking crazy I didn't know that I would never blame anything on cocaine you guys know that when I kidnapped Ken Vella the attorney even said to me hey, you went to the dentist this morning they put you on the nitrous oxide I can maybe get you a fucking different case

maybe get the charges dropped you didn't know what you were doing and I said no, I knew what I was doing I knew what I was doing it was the torment of the coke that made me rob that guy don't ever get it wrong, yeah I got my teeth fixed that morning

and the whole thing but that's bullshit it was me who did it and it's the same thing when I talk about these things that I did listen guys when I was a young kid I was confused I had lost my hero

I was trying to figure out the world without my fucking hero and I did some things that were fucking you know if I would have been a woman I would have been promiscuous you know, I didn't think any

I had no value in my life I had nothing I had fucking nothing I had nothing to rest back on I hadn't done anything nothing, I was just a fucking kid so I didn't know one thing or another now I know

if my mother was to die today and I went out and started robbing houses at 58 years old we got a fucking problem at the fucking house I'm too fat to be a burglar I don't think I could fit in a fucking window now I remember when I tried to break into my own house

I had a hard time I climbed in the window and I landed my stomach landed on the window sill and I got stuck there for like fucking 8 minutes and all I could do is feel this shit out coming out of my asshole and I had a shit in the back yard and the landlord thought it was a fucking bear I can't break in the houses no more

my fucking burglary days are over it's gotta be a quick one take the fucking box of cookies and get the fuck out of here I don't have time to be looking around and I have cardio endurance when you fucking rob shit your heart beats up a storm and you hear like a little fucking whistle

while you're robbing you hear like a little beep because you're nervous, your adrenaline is up your fucking heart is pumping I would have a heart attack now my fat little heart couldn't fucking handle that but to get back to the fucking story I would have lost my mind

I would have said if I was a woman I would have probably became promiscuous I would have done shit like that because you do things to yourself I would have probably become a slicer years later I mean the thievery once the thievery disappeared the cocaine took over

it wasn't even the pain of my mother anymore it was the fucking cocaine and I fucking was picking my face with a tweezer and getting holes in my face which is another fucking gesture for fucking slicing it's slicing in a different fucking way

I wouldn't look at myself in the mirror when I was coked up all these things were from coke that's a complete different fucking story when I kidnapped Bella that was from coke but all those things I did early on before 1985 like when I fucking beat my godfather

do you have any idea how much I love my godfather I think about my godfather every time I see Charles Bronson every time I see Steve McQueen every time I see one of these old movies that I saw as a child

I think about my fucking godfather and how good he was to me what the fuck possessed me to beat him not beat him in a fight I didn't beat him like that I beat him out of money for cocaine what possessed me to do something like this I hunt him down

I don't know if he's dead I know he was alive the last thing I heard he was down in the Florida Keys when I hired the investigator from my daughter I had him fucking look for him my daughter he could find this guy he could not fucking find

he could not find a death certificate for him so we're trying to figure out what yeah I don't know what happened to my god yeah still I don't know where my godfather I mean he's 80 something years old he's not mad at me no more but I would love to get the chance to apologize for what I did to him

you know my uncle I fucked with him up too thank god we have a great relationship today I was mad enough to fucking go down there shake his hand apologize to him I have no problems with apologizing right now what I'm trying to get to the root of the matter is why I did it

and that's why I did it my mother's death took me down hard man it just wasn't a death I see people listen there's always a reaction to death you're always going to react a certain way you're going to notice that you're drinking a lot more

maybe you're doing more drugs maybe you're doing more anxiety medication there's something but there's always always a reaction to a death sometimes it's minimal sometimes people I have a friend who lost his daughter

lost his fucking daughter in a car accident I talked to him monthly we've been friends for fuck since I started comedy maybe 92 you know and he lost a daughter

I call him a lot I talk to him a lot didn't affect him at all he's got another child and he moved on from me you know I was thinking about Sylvester Stallone the other day he's re-releasing Rocky 4 and I was thinking oh he lost a son

maybe 8 years ago 7 years ago 6 years ago and he's doing great he didn't end up robbing anybody or fucking jumping out windows or lighting anybody on fire I mean the way I reacted to my mom's death

is the way a child would react to something like that I didn't fucking know any better but today in 2021 42 years after a death November 8 this weekend is Halloween weekend

and what happened basically was this Halloween 1979 I went to a party I told my mother it was an adult party it was an older kids party I told my mother a few days before that

I'm going to this party blah blah blah she's like listen I don't care if you go to a party just remember the fucking rule let me know what time you gotta come home call blah blah blah blah you gotta call every so what it meant was as I was leaving the house

if I looked at her and I go I'll be home early she would say what time I would say let's say midnight so during the week I would tell her my curfew was 12 and I would be home at 10.45 11 I just would say 12

but on the weekend I would say 12 and if I wasn't home at 12 I had to call her I had to stop what I was doing call her and then she would say what time are you going to be home 2 I would just throw out there 2 and she would go fine I'll see you at 2

if you're not going to be home at 2 make sure you call me that was the rule in the house and I stuck to it I stuck to it because I didn't want any problems I didn't want to get punished I had a great life I was allowed to stay out my friends could only be out till fucking 10 o'clock I could stay out till 2

there was only 2 kids in the neighborhood that could stay out till 2 me and this other fucking guy Brett Ernst has a great joke about that he grew up in Jersey and growing up in Jersey there's always one kid that's always out you go out at 3 in the morning he's always out what are you doing that was me growing up

I was always fucking out I didn't want to go home early in case I missed something you don't want to be Joe Jerkoff after you leave some chick shows up and sucks everybody's dick but you were at home watching Benny Hill like a faggot that you are you know what I'm saying so you never want to go home when you're having fun

when you're in this neighborhood so I uh I just didn't I didn't have a fucking curfew so the night of the Halloween party it wasn't really on the 31st

it was like on the weekend I stayed out till 5 in the morning I called but the last time I had called she sounded tired so I said I'm not going to call anymore I've already called 8 times and when I got home that night we got into a fucking argument

she's like what the fuck have you been you're supposed to call and I was just sick of this shit you know I was 16 in my mind I was a man so I gave her some fucking bullshit answer and she smacked me smacked me like once or twice I went to my room

I could tell that she had a lot in her out of mind my mom at that time she was broke she lost her business I on the other hand I was making money I was selling drugs I was helping her out with dope and she came up the next morning

and she woke me up and apologized and she said something to me that stayed with me the whole fucking time and I heard it right after I thought about Colleen's mother my mother said listen I really don't give a fuck what you do

I just you know what's not important to me is that you grew up to be a man and now she had said this to me a couple times over the year over the years but but this time it sounded this time it sounded real and it sounded different

like after it was all over and when I was out that day I thought about it I can't believe my mother told me to grow up to be a fucking man and by man she doesn't mean a guy that's getting his dicks ucked and fucking on she just to understand

my mother was a big woman lady like she wasn't a feminist or whatever these fucking crazy women are today she just backed women you know like my mother raised me to be fucking tight with women so she would mention to me little things that I had to do

as you know she would just say to me when you get older and you're married you gotta do this for your wife and I would look at her like who the fuck is getting married you know like I would always say those things to her but she was preparing me she was telling me little things and after she died

like that day that night when I found her on the floor and I looked at her and I'm like yeah fuck I can't believe I was not friends with Colleen anymore because she didn't have a mother now I'm the same person I also said fuck she wanted me to grow up

to be a man now I understand what it is and after the fucking ambulance took her that night I sat on my steps for maybe an hour and a half thinking of those words and part of the reason I was cut myself all those years

part of the reason I was doing the drugs part of the reason I wasn't happy was because I wasn't a man November 15th 2007 that's the day I stopped

snorting cocaine and that was the day I was officially on my way to becoming a man and after I got my head clear like after 60 days and stuff I didn't go to AA

I didn't use AA to stay clean or NA to stay clean they would have been a great option I didn't use them not because I didn't want them because I used my mother's words as my therapy those things she had said to me over the years whether it was

grow up to be a man when you take the garbage out for your wife no woman wants to come home and see her husband sitting on a couch watching TV my wife my mom would just say little things to me

like little things like listen your wife doesn't want you to clean the house but she appreciates if you clean your toilet my mother taught me to clean the bathroom so I would clean the toilets and today from time to time I clean the toilets I take the garbage out from my wife

I support my wife I'm a father to my daughter when I make a mistake I cop up to it hey I made a mistake what do you want from me these are all the traits of a man this is what a man is supposed to do the bigger the man

the bigger the mistake apologize fucking stick to your word when you write your goals stick to your fucking goals I was telling somebody that I've been tapering for the last 6 months nobody's watching me

I'm not part of a program I'm not involved with a rehab or anything I could do whatever the fuck I want I have not missed it one time you know why because I finally became a man and I became a man fucking late guys

I was 29 at the age of 50 was when everything came to my mind that I was prepared to be a man I was not a man before I was just a fucking big kid and I'm a big kid now I laugh and farts I scratch my nuts and sniff my fingers

and all that dumb shit but in the big picture I'm a man and that's what I'm very thankful for like for me to bust through this fucking thing I was going through you know even like the other day I was talking on a podcast

about better help with therapy all this has helped me but my therapy was made easier because I knew that I had accomplished my mom's dreams for me sometimes we achieve

our goals and I achieved my goals I hit the spot I did more than when I anticipated I was gonna fucking do it okay but there was one other thing I had to do for me to be happy and that was

become a man under my mom's standards were for being a man and I reached it and for that today I'm proud so I want to dedicate today's Uncle Joey's joint to DeNora Valdez my mother

because for the first time in my life I could look at the pictures and be happy I'm gonna tell you something else but I don't care if you people think I'm crazy I don't care if you people think I'm out of my fucking mind the last year every night

I don't do it every night I do it maybe four or five nights a week I turn the TV off before I go upstairs I got a picture of my mother in the basement I got a picture of my father I sit on my chair and I just have a conversation with them

as crazy as it sounds I thank her for giving me those words for me to become a man and I thank my father I tell him to look after my child I tell him to look after my wife I tell him to look after me and I tell him I love him

I do that four or five nights a week to myself sometimes out loud sometimes to myself I like to do it out loud so I hear the words so it makes me feel better and brings me comfort so today's podcast is dedicated to Donora Valdez she's gonna be dead

42 fucking years and I still miss her like she died fucking yesterday I still love her as much as I do so when you reach out to me with a message about somebody in your family died your mom or your dad

I'm gonna lie to you but I want you to understand that it never goes away the pain never goes away the the thinking about them never goes away missing their food never goes away

missing their smell the way they have smells and never goes away and guess what that's good because they're not dead do you follow me dead dead when you don't stop thinking about them but every time you think about them

and go mom thank you for today dad thank you for today you know all those things you're keeping them alive they're not dead they're still alive in your heart so I don't know what you do to

make yourself feel better when you think about a grandmother grandfather I know there was a lot of loss with the pandemic the last two years I know a lot of people suffered so I hope these words help you these words come for you

and one of these podcasts in a while I'm sorry I didn't have a guest today but I wanted to do this podcast from my mom I'd been thinking about it for a week and I was starting to go into it on Monday's podcast and I was like no I'm not ready yet and today I was ready

so we'll have a guest next Wednesday for November I'll lie the candle for on November 8th two Mondays from yesterday and that's it guys the pain never goes away all you could do

is be a better person to make them happy so you could be happy about the transition I don't feel bad about my mother no more like there was a time I felt shitty because I wasn't living the life she wanted me to live today

October 27th 2021 42 years today I'm living the life she wanted me to live and for that I'm fucking happy as fuck and that's today's Uncle Joey's joint

I hope your mother fuckers enjoyed it I hope your mother fuckers got something out of it I know a lot of years like I said lost somebody I hope this podcast helps you today and that's it I just want you to know I'm in your mother fucking corner you got this

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