WAR MODE - BIG DADDY

Episode Date: June 15, 2025

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A man don't dress like a stud. He is the stud. I'm built different. I train different. I work different. I am different. Some superhuman skills stand the speed of a stride. I always wonder, why is this my body? I'm the number one, I'm the best little child. I don't have to hear, man. I am the one. I am the one. No one's going to poundound Town unless someone behaves.

She's like, you're just sitting there raw-dogging reality. Wow. Dude, you compounding current defense. My freaking limit has been exceeded. Ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo She needs time off. She's not going to a convent. Let's get real. She's not going to a convent. Women do a thing called monkey branching. Let's get real. They spend very little time for themselves. They don't become nuns like when they become monks. I've been trying to figure out how to talk to you about this. Talks about how it's taking rain. How many others? Saturday city dreams.

Sunday's wrecking world. Monday live in the night. Monday live in the night. They're all hitting you today. Do you feel the same? What are you talking about? That's insane. That's fucking insane.

That I don't understand like what you're like, oh, do you talk about this? And it's like, I'm literally, she made me back to life. Maybe I should have listened to more Manistier stuff or whatever. Yeah. I also hear a lot of people going 39 year old chicks can't get pregnant. So it's like, you're like, you're good, dude. You know what I mean? So I'm not questioning if some girls like I have an IUD. Yes, and then she's sneaky

Takes it out or whatever and it doesn't tell me and then goes I'm five months pregnant and then goes crazy This news that was that was you it's like and then she's like, I'm just in denial I haven't told anyone in my work or my family. I'm like, alright So I only have a couple months to get used to this. Yeah, you know, I was trying to make a documentary Yeah, did you even know that that I've I was trying to make a documentary? Yeah. Did you even know that, that I'd been learning how to make film? Get that news two weeks ago or whatever, and then just have the flight. And then I drove to Houston.

I drove. And then drove to Montana. I drove to Asheville, which was nuts, because I saw what happens when liberals are unchecked. I saw 100 white person drum circle. And then people waving flags. I'm assuming it's some kind of like indigenous thing, but I drove. So I went to Asheville. Then I went to North Carolina. Chill.

That shit. Do that guy saved my life with a flat tire. I hope you pumped them up on Dave's time. I'm going to pump it up on this Dave's tire. That dude was one of the coolest dudes I've ever met. I mean you meet people on the road. Dude, it's what it is. And then I went to from Nolens. I got hammered in New Orleans.

It was boring to work for you for a little while bearded beer stopped working real quick And now I understand why dudes drink cuz I'm just a fucking I'm a child I well this if I drink beer as soon as I feel it. I'm like, yeah, I got no I got no worries This is what I swear to God dude And it happens to like you have to that's the thing like when we were talking to Greg Reese and stuff about like a higher Self and stuff. No, I know I know I'm hey dude when I'm tripping out on the masculine You don't understand you weren't there like I was tripping out and the first time was like dude. This is very masculine Yeah, and the first thing I did because we're like wondering when it's gonna kick the fuck in

Do you can feel weird but you're like, you don't know that I don't know the limit of this I don't know if this is like double acids. Like I don't know what this is. Yeah, so I'm just sitting there like damn Do I wish I wish my dad could do this? but like my dad would probably he's got like a Freak bunch of new veins going into his heart. So he's probably freak out with the heart palatation Yeah, and then I started wondering like damn dude, like I Never met my real dad That was like I was like I bet he's cool and then Tom was like dude, he's definitely cool

It's part of you and he started yeah, and he's explained because I have a disconnect with this kind of stuff. Yeah, so like I Don't know it's unknown lore to a lore master which but I don't have siblings that are actually my siblings So like everyone's kind of an alien. Mm-hmm That's like it's it is weird as shit Like when you first told me you're like I was like yo what's up what time you want to meet up you're like I just gotta have a heart attack I got it I mean dude I wish you had like an apple watch or something because you must have been at 180. I was at like 120. I'm telling you it's like it felt like um the bikini bottom it felt like the

bikini its whole explosion and then it was like the bikini of toll. The explosion. And then it was like the wind from the Trinity Test. Where I just got like wiped, I couldn't think about, I don't, hey dude, you're sitting there going like, oh man, did you see fucking Israel? Nah, dude. Obviously not. You saw the open road ahead.

I saw an ultrasound picture. Yeah, that's even worse than whatever the hell's going on there to just get hit with. And I'm so paranoid, I'm like, this was done to me. Yeah. I mean, you know, and then Tom's like, look at the bright side of this. Yeah. So Tom's just like, dude, everybody gets here somehow. Yeah. You know, and I got here, I got here. I was not a wanted thing. Yeah. That's, you know what I mean? So it's like, I don't know, man, I'm just rambling at this point.

But what I'm saying is like, I thought when I was doing the mescaline, I was like, dude, what's it like to be a dad? This is what, we started tripping. What the fuck? Me and Tom started tripping out to this, where I was like, Tom was explaining to me like how it's like he can see himself, but he also sees his wife and his son.

So it's like, I'm half, I've only met my mom. Yeah, yeah. So I don't know, I was like, dude, I'm gonna, when I get back, I'm gonna start stalking this dude. So I found out where he lives, I'm like, slowly stalk this dude. I'm gonna be like, damn, I'm gonna try to meet my real dad. But then little did I know I was already fucking dead to rights. I'm already a dad didn't even know.

Yeah, that is the thing that I didn't even know we were doing this. The guy texted her I was like, I didn't know we're starting families around here. This was not like, it's not like on your bingo card as they say no man like we never talked about I just thought we were hanging out watching movies and stuff. That's what they they all have ways to fucking get you That's where like It's hard to not make it be like oh that was done the fair. Yeah, I need lawyers It could have been absolute happy accident, but like When you were on the mescaline stuff like that and you guys were like bullshitting

Yeah, like all I could fucking think about like even before that I just kept thinking about Prestige and cuz mean you were talking and I was like dude I need to like get all my guns at gold before I can even try to fuck with mescaline Yeah, I mean that's just in your head, but I you know for me It's like I do need to prestige because I can't sit around my house Making intros for you and looking up shit to talk about yeah, you have to do other shit So in my mind, I'm like I want to make like a film because it's like I want to do I want to do other stuff

Yeah, not like I'm not knocking the podcast, but I mean, yeah I love talking to you But if you're gonna give me like if I want wanna imagine that I can go places with and do stuff, it's like I wanna do it, but now I'm like, I don't know what's going on now. But then Tom's telling me like, this will be great for you. And like dude, in a way, I think maybe like, I got real into like ancestor type shit,

cause it's like, I really do feel like people are watching over me all the time. You know? And then I think like maybe they're in on some level, like this was supposed to have, because I never would have done this because of my mental problems. Like that's, you ever see like Gump

when he like sees little forest and he's like, I hope he's not retarded. Yeah, yeah. I'm like, dude, I hope this kid isn't fucked up like me. You know what I mean? Yeah, but that's what I'm saying. Like that's why I'm like, oh dude, but this you can't have this You know what I mean? I'm not supposed to be here. He could he could if you were just like yeah, dude peace

You're in an orphanage and getting circumcised. Yeah, if it's a dude, I for some reason I think it's a dude But that's I'm to go home to a gender reveal That's what like I have to go to an ultrasound. I cannot I'm a child Yeah, like people are Steve people that you have iron sights right now, dude, and you're not fucking yeah I live in a fort for people that are listening. It's not a house club. Yeah, it's a club house It's not really like a house out. Yeah, that's that's why I think this is like a house for girls. No, it's a man cave Yeah, it's there is what you would build if you didn't ever give a fuck. Yeah, if it was just the man's

gaze going in the house like, yeah, just make that possible. We don't need the bathroom completely done. But yeah, I mean, do the inside layer. When you explain this to me, like all this started to happen. I was like, dude, this is a real life Greek myth that's going on. And shit where it's like I don't want to be retarded I don't think Mental retardation isn't in the cards for like your now. It's not mental It's just the fucking the problems like the paranoia that I talked to you about and stuff like that

Yeah, but that's from like I know option. We think that is, but what if it's just me? You know what I mean? Nah. And what if I gave that to somebody? Hell no. I mean, you say this, I don't know. I mean, I think it's all like, cause you're top tier friend, top tier dad probably,

but it's just like, to learn how to do that shit, that is going to be fucking absolutely insane. Like it's going to Make you even better as a human to do that like that is gonna be Fuck obviously. I mean, I think she's kind of retarded You know obvious for going like because I thought she was devious at the start. Yeah, but then I was like no She's just retarded. She thought she would literally be able to hide this you can't it's five months in I mean the thing fucking retarded all I kept doing was like why are you getting dude we went on

that trip I was like oh yeah I'll do not something nice and take her to up for her birthday take her to the park yeah and then she's fucking giving me shit she's been giving me shit I'm like sitting here going like dude I'm imagining I could just go around the world. Yeah, I'm like dude This is fucking jokes giving me shit like fuck this shit lies to me. It doesn't tell me she has a hemorrhoid Fucking giving me all the shit that was not the lie, dude That was not the lie, dude. The funniest shit in the fucking world. She's like you didn't even notice I didn't want to drink. It's like, what am I fucking? I was drinking. Yeah. I've been drunk.

Yeah, like the thing that I had to double my beer now just to feel I had to double my mushrooms. prestige. Yeah. It's like, like, it fucking makes me cry that you didn't pick up that someone's five months pregnant. I know. I know. I know. I don't. I just watched you. I'm dumb. I don't see it. I don't see her a lot. So it's like I'll see her like once a month or twice a month. So I'm just sitting in my head. I'm going like this. This guy's got a shit. And it's just like and then like she'll be like munching a saddle. You know, what do you before you got here? It's like

shit. You know what I mean? Like and then just get the attitude. Like I'm out of here with this. Yeah, that's what it's my head I'm like, oh, yeah, she's like we needed to talk. I want to talk to you and I just go In my head. I'm going obviously we got in a fight for the first time ever. Yeah, this is over this rants course Yeah, I just go like you can literally dump me over text. I don't care Yeah, and she just goes you wish that was the prologue And now we start to fucking yeah that yeah, that's where like I think Just life in general like you were saying like I was like you have no idea what you did You can relistens the songs and watch movies because you said you just listen

No, I'm saying you just watch eastbound and down I want a whole different fucking way so I've done this with shows before and like Well, I have to I mean dude a Lot of people that I talked to you know people that are like kind of hipster art type people They like kind of laugh and scoff at like comedy stuff. Yeah, but they don't realize like if you get fucking nuked. I had to put on Your Highness with Danny McBride and Like he's walking through the woods and there's a naked chick and he's like I will give her my warm spray

Like that's the only thing like that I could like in my mind. I'm like, yeah, dude I could watch this and shut my brain off and then I watched and then she came over and was like talking me I was like you had a secret Hey, I think you're being bad, you know, and then like I got over that a little bit but then on the drive I went through like cycles of like Rage, I mean I went through like a bunch I'm not good with like the bigger feelings which makes me scared about this kind of stuff in general This is like why it's like the reason I live the way I live

yeah is because of like I can't do the bigger feelings cuz They have not worked out good. Yeah, I've had like the mega bad things and That's what I mean. I said there. Do you know what you did? Look, I don't think she knew it knows what she's doing like what like what she did. She did this, I don't, I mean not to fucking, but. I like to not tell me, like if she was like, I'm not on birth control anymore, I'd be like, see. Yeah, obviously. That was a lot.

Yeah, you're thinking right there. I mean, that's where like, can't put the toothpaste back in the tube. I hear you, that's what Tom's saying. They're like. Tom's like, dude, there's no sense in like fucking detectivating this. But that's. I hear you, that's what Tom's saying. Tom's like, dude, there's no sense in fucking detecting this. But that's where I think all the shit

that you've went through and stuff to now be able to reverse it and create a regular human, that would be very safe. That would almost heal everything. I know, yeah. That's where I look at that stuff where it's like fucking crazy. I have I figure out a way to like tell my mom but I can't because her husband motherfucked me So I can't be around him

Well, like I have to figure out a way to get her by herself and then my regular family like that I grew up with I'll just be like don't just think it's fucking funny that I just be like, you know It's not like what the fuck I'll be like shut up Jamie. I Think this compared to Buying a house and having no windows or anything. That's much harder, but that's like a no way You don't understand like you grew up This is what I was talking Tom about like you guys grew up like you take family and this kind of stuff for granted Yeah, like you don't understand how for people with not a lot of support like this isn't possible, bro

This is like the scariest thing Yeah, that's where I was like and like to my mental is a bill like my ability to wrap my head around it is like Put it on my back like Yoda and walk around I don't understand like There are no rules. Like I'm Luke Skywalker. Yeah, there are zero rules for it and that's where like, as far as bringing children into this world, I have zero XP's.

Obviously. I'm terrified of the cream pie. I understand that it feels good. Yeah. But I can't play it. Well, I mean, I used to say, dude, it's the coolest thing ever. Yeah, it's weird, thing ever Yeah, it's it's weird. It's weird like how that is. They're like

Yeah, it's fucked up. I think it's fucked up honest the honest I'm trying I'm trying not to freak out about all the time now That's gonna be until the baby's born. I know there's no way that that's what I was saying I was like, yo Do you just want money or, do you want me like, I don't know if this chick was on a mission to just be like, have a kid and live at her house with a kid. No, I don't think women think straight with that stuff.

I mean, I'm not trying to be like sexist or anything. This is why I don't think like any of that. At her house with two cats watching hands may stay on dude. Yeah, that like it was the way it happened. Like I've, it's Tale, dude. Yeah. That like, it was, the way it happened, like I've, it's not, it's very normal for this shit to go down, and I forget what it's called. Some people call it a trap, baby, whatever. Yeah.

But when you're like, I was in fucking Cape, whatever, wherever you're up in, like the northern part of America. The fuck you talking about? when you went on your trip Oh, it's a Canadian national work, Acadia. Yeah, I was like you're like, ah, dude just do dad's and CRV It was like you fuck that smoke it all into existence Well, I also fucking think I would fucking spoke to shit in it is just be going like, ah, yeah, dude I just wanted some workhorse sniz and it's like couldn't have been more prayed for literally

What was I talking about? Because that's what you do when you're fucking on the edge, dude, and you're ready to die. What? Like a workhorse that'll help you. And then now I'm like, you're blessing me with fucking a whip and all this other shit. It's just like, oh man, fucking hot chicks,

where are they at? Yeah, that's what I mean. What do you want me to do? Like they say. I was fuck this I was like there's got to be some like hot young Fucking 27 and all and she just goes yeah, where is she? Oh? Yeah, dude. Yeah, that's like just buds That's what I'm saying at least it's not like an ugly situation where like you guys are living together And it's like you can't learn you can't spend more than a day together you tried to spend a day together turned into a shitshell bro acquaintances that that's what that word would be you guys

are acquaintances who will now bring life into this world which personally no family stuff obviously I can see how that's scary but with us you guys I know it's like has been like yeah yeah that's why horrible that's scary but with us you guys I know it's like has been like yeah Yeah, that's why horrible I get paranoid about like literally everybody because I just go Like all the people that were supposed to stay in my life or protect me or anything growing up was like actually was like the opposite So like when I meet friends, I'm like trying to tell them like they're my friends. Yeah, but then in my head It's like kind of like golem, it's kind of like this weird joke

where it's like, yeah, Spade's still here. He'll kill himself eventually. And it's like, you'll all be looking around me like, dude, he's still here. What the fuck's he doing here? I'm not even supposed to be here. That's my baseline. That makes sense though,

from being adopted in an orphanage. That's just my baseline of existing. So it's like, I pray to God that no one has to feel that. Because it's like, you know what I mean? I don't think, that's what I'm't guy pray to God that no one has to feel that because it's like yeah I don't you know what I mean. I don't think that's what I'm saying. It's not great If you like I would feel weird if you like chucked up for adoption or like good luck brother And just went where's Kenny Powers dad live? Yeah, exactly. That's what I mean about like, uh, oh, yeah That's what i was gonna say. So I was watching your highness and then I watched um Oh, yeah, that's what I was gonna say. So I was watching Your Highness and then I watched I

Watched tires and watching Shane play with the turtle made me smile that made me feel good And I was like gotta keep watching stuff cuz can't have my own thoughts can't watch can't have like can't worry about geopolitics This week dude, like fuck that obviously demona is a problem And that's probably why ton of dudes are like fucking Trump's killing it. Obviously. I'm doing great I get talking about a sign or a yard. Maybe it makes like though see you lots like a chainsaw. Yeah He fucks liberals. Oh, yeah Yeah, but like everything I watched them Then I watched all the east founded downs and I've done this before shows like I watched Meet the parents so many times it stopped being a comedy and it was just like a real thing That's like kind of bizarre, you know and the same shit happened when I was watching he's bound down where it's like

Oh, yeah, Kenny wants to go see his real dad Yeah, and then at the end of it he comes back and April's like I'm fucking eight months pregnant or whatever I'm like, this is literally happening to me like season two of each found downs happening to me Yeah, if you stay like, oh that would be fucking cool but yeah, I mean That's what as far as like feelings and stuff go Aren't is there any like white pill where it's like, okay at least I can fucking maybe Bring someone in this life and it'll be cool. I mean, I don't know. It's just what I have to do now, I guess

Yeah, but that's just no I mean dude. Did you see the Adriana Smith girl? Who's like dead but they're keeping the baby alive as like an incubator cuz I like pro life stuff So there's a baby that's like growing in a dead woman right now Actually, Georgia. Yeah, so like they're you know, everyone's trying to turn it into like a race thing and yeah Feminism thing and all this other shit. I'm like, dude, that's a terrifying human that we're bringing into the world. Like a necromancer? Yeah, that's like.

You know what I mean? Like, I don't know, like a lot of the movies I watch, like the, you know, this is like some bad armor shit. I don't know why I was talking about that, but I'm just saying like, say she fucking doesn't make it, dude. She's older. We could raise the kid like a fucking tier one operator.

Just have him in the podcast room, dude. Like a Spartan. We need an AI. You were begging for an AI system, all this stuff, and you got one, but it's just a human, which personally- Might get half custody, maybe? I don't know.

I don't know what it is. Joint would be ideal. I don't know what any of this shit is, really. The thing that pumped me up the most was a- I don't know how you pumped about this. I'm looking at the break. The fact that I'm still going, to me- Every day is pumped me up the most was a... I don't know how you pumped about this. I'm looking at the break. The fact that I'm still going to me is... Every day is pumping me up.

Because I was driving and I'm like, there was some, I was driving and I was like, bro. Like when I was in New Orleans, I was like, I'm gonna show people what drunk is. It's like, what's his name? Who's the dude season two, True Detective? Roscoe. No, season two. Oh rascal not no season two Oh

Colin Kyle foul a bag and whiskey until it fucking doesn't hurt anymore. That's I mean, I think After it all happens and you get used to it. Can I imagine you changing a dippy? No, obviously not Can I imagine you baby talking? No, Obviously not. I can't even feed myself. This is what I mean. I was laughing at her. She's just like, you can't even take care of yourself. I was like, you did this. I know.

I was like, I know that. I wouldn't have said yes to this. Yeah, but I see people who have kids and in my head I'm like, Spade would be way better at that. At least you definitely have the skills and the compassion, but you couldn't put it towards anyone else because of the traumas, as Antonio Brando-

Oh, the traumas, yeah. All of that stuff, I think, and this is me just figuring shit out, will wipe the fuck away. Because you've been talking for a long time, but no purpose I got nothing to do. I'm just existing Literally like suicidal lol, dude. How about a humanoid? That's like that's what I think like that shit will level you up

insanely to Usher human from baby until adulthood that like now I just we got to step up the you know you're gonna have to take this a little bit more seriously step up the interviews daddy means we're trying to get a yes I mean the fact that you can call yourself daddy and it's a real time fucks me yeah I thought it's not sexy time dog yeah that's what I'm saying I think like overall I need for the child yeah you can guilt trip everyone but like I was saying with your house It's like you fucking went on a rogue one and bought a house. Nobody wanted to hear

yeah, that was another form of just like all of this shit like if you understand like When you look back on things you make There's shit that happens to you. But then there's shit that you do, cause shit happens to you. And like living in an abandoned house, like I used to think, like I taught, like, there's a lot of comfort if your mind is chaos, if you're in a chaotic crib. Yeah.

Where it matches it up. It's like people are homeless and shit. Right, it all matches up. Yeah. But then like as the house, if you notice, I never finished it obviously I mean I like my mind can't be in regular newell post at the bottom of the step My mind can't be in a regular spot like cuz I'm fucking gone, bro. Yeah, it's just been too. I've been too fucked up so

Now I'm like dude what the fuck Cuz like a kid can't be in that chaos. So like legally. Personally, I think a five months in heads up is fucked up. Oh yeah, I mean dude. Could I have one thing in my life be normal? That's what I'm saying. Like nothing's ever normal.

It makes complete sense how it happened because nothing that you ever done was just like Nothing makes fucking sense, dude. Yeah, but like that's what you've done since the dawn of time. I know but why the traumas You're fucked up all the traumas. I don't know. I was telling Tom. I was a Tom you have to fucking I was like dude I'm just me. I'm just this you have to do this stuff and I'm like to me I feel like dude. I'm just me. I'm just this you have to do this stuff And I'm like to me. I feel like more like I'm just a um The times like a whole dude. Yeah, like a complete guy You're like someone that you come across in the video game like the truth

Exactly where I might do like I'm just like a entity of like I'm like almost like an elemental Yeah, you know what I mean? Where it's like? I'm that's not a brag I'm just saying like it's not like a complete'm like almost like an elemental. Yeah. You know what I mean? Where it's like, I'm not, it's not a brag. I'm just saying like, it's not like a complete, like it's not an actual person. I'm just like your house. I'm just like an almost person where it's like, oh, that's cool.

Yeah. Look at that little light bulb. That's cool. That's not a whole, like that's, you can't have. I love that level of the game. That kid, you can't have a family. That thing can't be like signing papers for stuff. Yeah.

But not that this is any. Like when we try, I was like, oh dude, let me get an RV. They're like, nah, you've never had credit. But what's that even mean? You roll in there, that's what I'm saying. Why does nothing make sense? You have had no credit your entire life.

So like, obviously the credit thing is frustrating, but when you've lived the life of no credit I see you opened up a credit card for $400 two years ago try to get a hundred twenty five thousand dollar mini winnie And they were like yeah, do you have a credit line of four hundred dollars? Obviously? This isn't happen, but you roll in there Bouncing bro. Hold on scurrying a little bit How much you want is like yeah Give me like it gives you a little bit of a level up in the real world. And like I said, you have a young man's voice.

Some people hear you. A lot of people write me off. Going into that, I think, because I always fucking- You don't understand how- No shit. You don't understand how bad, how, it's not like hate,

but it's just like, I't want to be me do you know what I'm saying like there's nothing about me I like so there's nothing you know what I mean like yeah it's like the opposite of like vanity where it's like your homes alright it's alright but I mean I mean you know dudes have micro pieces if it was micro I'd be dead for sure but that's what I'm saying. I can't hate everything about I'm yeah, but I mean, there's just nothing these hog gets in trouble Where it's just like first of it that Like you can say every dad cliche at this point But it's like dude

Obviously, I'm like looking back on All of it can't yeah I know. I know you're saying you're just going to the fucking moon at this point, dude. All that's where like she's like, I want to meet my family. Yeah, it's crazy how good you are at picking up things. And then like I was watching a movie where it's like, you don't want to be fucking pregnant. I'm the one who has to deal with hemorrhoids like, damn, Spade missed that one.

But like it's I think I also never deal with hemorrhoids. Like, damn, Spade missed that one. What, like, it's, I think- I also never had a hemorrhoid, so I don't understand what's going on. Dude, I'm not even gonna talk about that or speak that way. That's like a fear of mine. I don't want, I literally don't want to have a hemorrhoid at all.

Like, that's, it's, it's happened to a million fucking dudes in worse situations. Definitely, I know, but it's just like not, you know, you don't like dream it up. It's not how you wanted your birthday party to go. I mean, I'm like dumb and dumb or do I thought I was going to get on the bus with the Hawaiian traffic girls? What do you want from me? Yeah, I don't know.

I think like eventually you might be the master of anti-manifesting. I swear to God, I was thinking about playing. I was like, dude, spade can anti-manifest the fuck out of shit. Oh, dude. Just give me this hot chick I'll be going wherever I was like, how about you get an anchor? 18 year long anger that you're just gonna have to be wherever you want, but I Swear to God and this is just me. I Mean like your your theories on Your theories on like people come here and it's like

create a player yes I mean dude who the fuck's playing this dude there's people who use hilarious skins in video games if I create a player in madden he's five foot six literally and this the fucking fat slider is all the way up. Yeah, that's what you're doing to me. But you put some of his attributes up to 99. Yeah, that's where like there's there's a lot of good. I think most of the bad stuff is the nurture aspect of it. Yeah, where it's like, honestly, God, you didn't get circumcised. So you're you're sitting around.

That's one you're a free man. Yeah. I am forever marked by Netanyahu. For the rest of my life, I have to sit there. You're committing a genocide. I have to bring someone else into this world to have a free person be on this earth and have their own way as God intended. I mean, I've been avoiding a lot of big stuff in my life. So I'm thinking, I mean, dude, it is kind of a fucking,

when I, so when I was younger and I was like dude I'm just gonna join the Marines Iraq looks sweet. I mean something me and Gregory's have in common, but uh And they were like dude, you might want to meet your mom So then I went and met my mom and then she's like thank God you're not in the military I was like, alright, let's see where this goes cuz it was like all my in my mind of going choose You're an adventure. I already deleted a normal existence in high school Yeah, like I already fucked my entire shit up to the point where it's like a literal legend for like 10 years Yeah, and then um

So then I didn't real my mom was like so brave that you met me and all this other stuff in my head I'm just going that's no big deal. I was like all my way to Iraq Yeah, like am I I never about to kill some fucking ready to put a gun in my head but um Yeah, but then like thinking now now that if I'm like damn I wonder if I could like actually just like say what's up to my real dad just be like what's up, dude I think just to see what it's like, but it's also a nervous thing where you're like This might be a fucking not something I can handle see See, when I was younger. Emotional, yeah.

When I was younger, I really didn't know, like I couldn't handle that. Yeah, so that was like taking three tabs acid in high school. But if I had never done that, I never would have met Charlie. Like shit would have got fucked up. Like shit would have been like. There are no mistakes.

I hear you, but I'm saying like, I don't know what this person. You would have been a streetwalker. I know, but like, you know, like you're saying saying I was fucking around playing the game. Oh cool, man You were avoiding story mode. Yeah, and now it's like I don't know if I have this I Don't know bad stuff can happen in story mode You could get shot in the head But that's not like I think all of those fucking feel like if I stay positive about it like yo, what's up, man?

And he'll be like, oh, here's your siblings. Yeah. Okay. What's up? I think I think like to meet your dad actually you're gonna be a grandfather Yeah, not that you give a fuck cuz you've never even met me But like that I think those are all like phrase once you do all that if you're not going up to a grown-ass man Like yo, can I get some money? It's just my let it's just my self-esteem Yeah, where it's like no one like even my own like I'm like to me. It's like no one would even want me around So that's what I mean. That's what's in my head. That's a lie. You tell yourself. I mean dude It's just a feeling good hang though. You're good. Hey, it's a feeling though

Yeah I know that but I'm saying like all of those feel like a lot of people I talked to that have kids All of that shit goes out the window and then your perspective just goes on the unit Oh, I hear you so like that I think all that stuff like I told it to you after you told me that and I was like, holy shit All of the things you worry about you don't there'll be such a fucking small thing to worry. They're not worries, dude They're feeling understand but all those feelings like when you're like understand. That's what I'm saying is like you don't get Like you know, you can't

Try to feel it. No, but I'm saying like I know dude, it's cool. It'll go away and like no dude It's a feeling I know but I'm saying this this might help That's it Like if you do that and it's fucking sweet You like like you're pretty good with kids. You can have fun with them and then you're around us Tom We're pretty I'm fucking unreal kids. Honestly, I'm not gonna brag or anything like that, but like Zeus was a W. Yeah, I think brought a good life to Zeus. That's right I think I literally think there are zero act like there's no mistakes

So you were if you were just chilling never met your mom. Yeah, who the fuck knows? Where you'd be buried? What graves they would be granted or just on the ground no mausoleum But I think this is the like it's a new era or whatever like a new hope right if you put it in Star Wars thing But that is what that's that shows about that's what I'm saying balance the force Yeah, so that's what I think this is gonna bring balance to some insane force And it's made you want to go six me Anakin which is Sarah bar Does it yeah? All right, could you be lb1? I thought I want to be that's what I'm saying. We read the story

you could do your thing, but like the the negative and stuff like that. I think obviously it is warranted but Once you bring kid in the world and you start going on that all of that stuff I think is just gonna be like make it like when me and you were chilling and you're like dude I'm want to make sure bills 100% Yeah, we're just friends. I didn't come out of your friend No, so like if you have someone they have to take care of hand feed you'd love that thought my ball I know is the guy my balls don't work famous last words after this long. Yeah, I mean you this is like a miracle There's people that I try to have kids. Oh, yeah, dude. You're on VEX. There's like IVF or whatever.

In vitro fertilization. Yeah, that's what I'm saying. Like the shit that pumps me up. And this is where I was fucking, I just let you tell me whatever the fuck you're gonna say on the phone. And you're like, oh yeah, she's pregnant. And I was like, okay, okay.

Not one word about the capital A. And I was like, that's what I'm talking about. A man who walks the walk. I mean, how the fuck are you gonna can do that? People fucking do it, don't you think they like celebrate it dude. I was there I know that's what I'm saying like crazy thing is like minus 30 years. I was this win This whole thing was happening. Yeah, that's where that's what this whole show is happening, dude You told me that and then I was like, all right

I was like, maybe this is just how we come into the world. This bloodline of freaks. Yeah. Yeah. It's like, this might just be that storyline. Yeah. She's five what? Not tall.

Okay. No chance. Freak accent, you gotta sit. I don't know, I mean, her dad's not with us anymore. Maybe he's tall. That's what I'm saying. There could be a chance. There's a chance. You bring a tall, uncut gentleman into this world. Oh mean, her dad's not with us anymore. Maybe he's tall. That's what I'm saying. There could be a chance. There's a chance.

You bring a tall, uncut gentleman into this world. Oh man, that'd be crazy. That's what I'm saying. It'd be like fucking, what's that thing? The crank? Yeah, crank. You could crank someone the fuck around. That is the best, like you can create it

into the best version of you. I don't think I would live that. Like I was kind of getting ready to die. I mean, in my own way. You said that. I know, yeah. I was trying to. I was like, I don't know. That's that that's where I don't think I'll live to see like a full-grown version of this anti-manifesting Dude, you might hit a hundred like for real the way you're talking literally now

I don't not feeling great in that yeah But as far as like all this you you have champed this hard, like very fucking hard. I mean, I also, I mean, you don't give me the credit, but I also drive pretty much cross country, but I have a blister on my hand, but. I mean, it's the same way as your house. For some reason, you just don't want to get low TR. You hit Philadelphia to Montana.

Montana, bro. I went to Houston to Montana. No one lives in Oklahoma. Almost no one lives in Colorado until you get to Denver and everyone's at Denver Yeah, Denver is a freak. Yes. Yeah when I was there was talking insane, but I'll that's what I'm saying right now No driver across this goddamn world. I'll go from what was it Alaska? Yeah, yeah in highway. Yeah, I'll do it dude stop it there and gap or let's your money for the child involved in it

That's I'm so like this personally to to me that's the fucking that's like a gear i don't have right because i can't like i can do it for steven redgie maybe i mean dude i want to talk to you about what happens to dogs i know you were there yeah i was there that that's what i'm saying like it's i think that you've completed a lot of stuff at a high level and now the prestige is like now you have to fucking do this and that is like That would be the biggest win of all time. What if you bring a kid in this world? Yeah, raise him as your own and he's not crazy not crazy Because like dude imagine if you had you when you know, I was crazy

I know you were crazy all that should happen to you. Imagine if you when you were I was crazy. I know you were crazy. All that should happen to you. Imagine if you had you this whole time, right? You would chill out a little bit. You could probably have some freak outs together, but he would chill out for the most part a little bit. And that's why it's the same thing as your uncle Charlie. Like if you didn't have your uncle Charlie in the world, yeah, the fuck knows.

That's where I think this shit pumps. I get excited for these things because I love life Right, obviously it's stressful for you. Don't wish it on anyone to happen this way, right? But Kind of pumps me the fuck up. There's a part two because I think like you come in this world You're experiencing it and then your Odintree just splinters off into someone else, right? And that's just that bloodline, that earth suit continuing on someone else. No, I hear you, man. I mean, I just kind of thought that I was kind of coming to. I was cool with it being the end of me because I was like, this makes sense.

Like, I'm fucked. Like all of this is fucked. I wasn't even supposed to be here. I'll just get a place in the woods. Like I was telling Tom a little while ago, I don't think I should I don't think I can live around people. And I don't think I should have like a regular crib. I want to live in the woods is just like a home base and just travel around the world and see if we can still make money doing that. Yeah, that was my plan. It's a good plan. But

you like dude, there's people who travel for business every fucking day. I know. But you know, there's OTR truckers that you aspire to be you'll never I mean you have blisters on your hands and driving Mercedes Sprinter Drive trash trucks for seven years. I've never got a blister on my head, but at the same time That's driving hard your eye with those Literally just said you were idling a lot and fucked your DF up You just had a lot as a truck driver because you're waiting on fucking I don't caters to I drive and I stare at the Highway, bro, that's I'm saying you're I take my mushrooms and I think and I go through full-on fucking I've had three bad trips from

Amarillo To here. Yeah full-on But it's what I have to sit there and go. Okay It's great. Like what you're doing to yourself mentally is like hitting a Murph every fucking day And like that's something like that is hard driving with those emotions. So obviously I'll give you that I'm not gonna give you an OTR badge, but that's a hard job I mean what we'll get eventually you'll eventually iron ass eventually you'll say you've driven more you'll say, you've driven more than me, babe. Have you felt, just out of curiosity,

you've been driving all over the place, you get me, Selter? Yeah. You've been driving all over the place, meeting different people. Do you feel at all any sort of shift? Any change shift in like the treatment or anything? Like people can kind of feel that like daddy's coming.

That, I mean, that shit has to fucking go down once you, cause you get that fucking essence about you where you're like, all right, small fry, you can talk down to me until the cows come home. Now start talking like you're a pimple on the left. As a father, like you will be able to do some sweet talking down to people and you have an excuse for and people talk to me like I'm five so but not anymore dude I can feel it on you already I look at God damn he drinks a dosek he's like a dad well I need 12 of them now it's

trying 12 of them and floating in a pool that's what I'm saying enjoy enjoy all this this this is just, you know, you're getting ready for the race. You just sit in the sand. I have to start training basically because I get out of breath. You know, it's crazy. I don't treat myself like I don't do normal stuff because I don't have a bedtime and I don't have. Yeah. You for real. I don't have any. Mom's not home this weekend. Yeah, all right, Vina, it's been. You ate a cookie last night. This thing's gonna went completely gone the whole time.

I walk out of that bedroom and you have a laptop on your chest with blue light all over you. Yeah, dude. I haven't done that since I was in eighth grade. You gotta grow up. And now you have no choice. You literally didn't have to. You were Neverland.

I know. But it's fucking sweet. Like you never land the fuck out until 42. Yeah. And now it's like, all right, daddy's got to do some fucking work. That's where I think. And then I was like, dude, this kid's gotta be retarded. Not because our fucking shits too retarded to have unvaxxed untested sperm dude. That is like liquid gold For real like these people having problems if you can go unvaxxed uncut That'll be such a fucking powerful human that I don't even know what like what that would become

Especially as you know, I mean I was me I was just pure love so I think that's what you're getting from me. Yes why I'm childlike Yes, because I was calling like two sophomores in high school did this. Yes Bunnies, bro, you're a young lover. Now you're about to bust out an old soul Guys five years old like Gregory's like dude. I don't think fucking yeah, but the the two-party system is fucking real That's what might fucking happen. Honestly, but yeah, I mean, I think it'll be up until when is it? Do it? October.

October, up until October. That's when you told me about it. My knees hurt the only other time. I'm just gonna work out because I have to get in shape for it. You've been doing this. I know, but I have to step it up. But I'm saying like,

I think this is because this was going to happen. Oh, I see what you're saying. I think magically. That's what I'm saying., I think this is because this was going to happen. Oh, I think magically. Like that's what I'm saying. I don't understand what I don't understand what the masculine side of psychedelics is. But I was telling Tom, I think it slows time down to the point where you can actually wrap your head around what your life is. Yeah. But I'm telling you, I felt like dweller on a threshold slash elemental. Yeah. Not as you were at the highest level of that dude. Not a real person. You know what I mean?

Yeah. It was unfair. And I was totally comfortable with it. Yeah. I was like, dude, I'm just me. You got to set it up so I could just be me. Yeah. You got 100% comfortable with yourself, do whatever the fuck you want.

It's like, nah, now we're going to a few questions just out of curiosity because I think about these things. Santa Claus. What? How long? What are you talking about? How long are you going about these things Santa Claus what how long? Do what are you talking? How long are you gonna bring the Santa Claus thing? I don't even know if I don't even know if I'm gonna be like I don't even know what this kid's living setups This kid doesn't have anywhere to go right now. Gotta make a home. Yeah, that's what I'm saying Like none of that shit evening like this is not this is no normal setup. None at all. That's how you talk about Santa Claus, bro.

It's like, what do you use things you got to think about? I hear you then. I mean, it'll definitely be hearing some Christmas music, but exactly. That's what I'm saying. You get to give someone fucking critical. Like your favorite thing in the world is Christmas. And you get to give it to someone for however long you want to keep it up. You might be like one of those freaks.

You're 22 and you're like, oh Santa left it under the tree for you. That's where like those highs I think are going to wash out a lot of that stuff that you dealt with early on. Given a fucking kid Christmas. I guess yeah. That's an that's these are the white pills. You got to think about the white pills. You have to I'm gearing up for war, Manusphere style.

And that's good. And that has to happen. And you need that loadout for certain maps too. Obviously fully get it. I go RPG and some shit. I'm talking flashbacks. Yeah, that's where like we'll deal with that. But we also have to, you know. I heard that there's a gun that's like an AR,

that's a pistol that has an attachment that I could have. And you can have it. I have to protect my child. No, it's not gonna be for me, you piece of shit. I'm a father. That's like the amount of fucking excuses that you get now that are, I can't use them. Like, oh, I can't, my kid.

Oh man. What are you talking about? Tired as shit, my kid let me, kept me up all night long. Sorry, I'm a bit of a crank. Kids be driving me fucking crazy. That like, I think you'll be able to enjoy Ted Lasso even harder now like there'll be stuff that I don't know I mean there's shit like There's my shit is way more like East Mountain down. I think is the best show that's ever been made

Yeah, the guy that that like made me I went through like something Watching all that again, and then I feel like I'm okay It is like it's just crazy to say it's retarded mate. I mean I mean like I was like dude I need something I had like I couldn't think and It's like my my regular thing is like I don't know how you're talking my regular things like art Do you mean both guys do the podcast? Okay? Yeah, Gregory. So I do like you send me some funny What do you clips on Instagram?

What do you got from Instagram? I'll try to whip something up. I'll read these books. I got all this shit. Got to get ready for work, basically. And then it's just like, then that hit, and I literally couldn't look at anything. I couldn't look at my phone. I couldn't look at my books.

I'm just like, that's cool. And then I just sat on the couch. But I mean, I don't look at my phone. I couldn't look at my books. Yeah. I'm just like, that's cool. And then I just sat on the couch. But I mean, I don't know. When I started watching Kenny Powers, I was like, damn, dude. This is sick. It's going to be all right. And then I finished it. And I was like, I'm good now.

Yeah, I mean, dude. But I also watched some other shit too. I watched Tires. I watched fucking At Your Highness movie. I watched a Rogan 16 trying to think of what else I want I don't know I watched some stuff and I had to drink like 12 beers and then I also had like a fucking fat attack in Texas where I Ordered tacos at 2 in the morning and I ate till I was like burping you earned it

No, I literally was having a nervous drug. I've been on the edge of like a nervous breakdown yeah I kind of like had a breakdown where I was in Texas I mean I was like could you die fucking I'm so stressed all the time yeah bad everything but then this is like yeah there's no fucking way you can handle this that's what I was saying right when it happened I was like dude there will be a time where you beg for your old thoughts. So you can just look back at them finally. But it's like, it's fucking everything I've ever done

where it's like, oh my God, that's so brittle. And then you look back at it from 10 years, like, yeah, not that bad. Yeah, I don't know. Especially when you got someone walking and talking. I mean, that's gonna pump me up. If he's five fucking four, even fun. Is what it is.

Even fucking fun. You're gonna have to get him pedals to drive. You might have an LP. If he's five fucking four, even fun is what it is. Even fucking fun. Going to have to get him pedals to drive. You might have an LP. If you have an LP, join the circus. Two smalls can't make a big tip. Yeah, it could happen. If it came out like worse, it's like moving to the Shire.

Yeah, that's where it's two fat hobbits. I have reoccurring dreams and thoughts. And it's always like dude It's gonna be the best time of your life coming up You have this all the time for yourself for everyone everyone I know like my squad This is your dream level ups coming. It's gonna be fucking sick. Yeah, right and dude It would be sick if you were like Gregory's and you could live in Moscow Russia by yourself Yeah, obviously the horny will get. That's what I would have been.

But the horny can come for you then. The horny comes for me every day. The horny came for me and now there's a kid. I know. That's a, like you have not learned up until now where like I must control the horny. Like you're gonna have to go on a fucking no fat. I'm done.

Yeah, I'm done now. You have not jerk since. No, not. Yeah, I'm done now you have not jerk sense No, not since but i'm saying I am now I can't remember when I thought of it, but you gotta think porn's gay at this point No, it's not even porn. It's just fapping where I was just like no I need this energy Yeah, that's all it is. It's like it's like eating where it's like. Oh, no, dude. Like I have to eat It's like, oh no, I can't fucking I can't calm cuz I need that. Yeah. Yeah, you're gonna have to retain all that's what it feels like That like that's what I personally think it's just gonna be a fucking for real level up rocky road to be getting

Obviously you're off road with two-wheel driving a Sprinter right now. I mean what I have is I have till I have till October if he's a Scorpio, and then I'll be I'm the godfather and then I'll be down Obviously and then I then I'll be down for a while Because Tom said I'm gonna have to help her. Yeah, and then but then I can bounce You can like peace out I mean not permanently but I then I can go do stuff again you can live for you No, I'm saying like I can go be like, okay, let's go interview this person or something. Yeah, yeah.

I can't do it for like during that time, that middle time. Yeah, I think what you want- I can't be like, yo, cool kid. Me and Billy are going to fucking Arkansas. We're driving, yeah. Yeah, that's what- You don't understand, I have to go to Dealey Plaza. Yeah.

But like you were talking about, like you wanted to do the like the document not a document or whatever The first thing was like I want to make I want to go do this and it was like Well, I mean, I think people like the intros and I'm like, dude, that's nothing like I fucking I could make a movie You know like in my head and I'm like, but it's hard because I don't know how to do cameras and edit so that's why I went to Houston because I want to learn how to do use my camera and Man, did I have that thing all wrong? But anyway, I'm gonna learn how to do it with the fire once I get in do not dude you get it like yes Yeah, the the fire is unreal right now the fire of what?

Inside you it's not unreal the fire inside me. But like what I'm saying is like I was trying to explain it to Tom when we were in the mountains. I'm like bro like I explained what I feel like I explained myself fully to him for the first time since we've known each other. Yeah. And my dude do you because he was like he wanted to know about like art and stuff and I was like dude like I have this so I'm this. But then also like the reason they do the monarch stuff to hurt people. Okay, and not and it's like part of him Okay, but like a kid you can be creative and you can have artistic skill like you'd be born with like talent Yeah, I say you're like born talented musician. Yeah, but dude if you get hurt From that wound is an endless. Well, it It's literally like an ocean of creativity.

Because you have this thing, it's like a Harry Potter scar, where you can work from, where you're like, oh yeah. Some people have bad ones from sexual abuse or whatever, but some people have ultimate ones where it's like, oh yeah dude, your fucking mom left you. It's like, you were nuked. But if you want to use that to make something It's like what do you want me to do draw your picture and then it's like I can do like I can use that

Yeah, so it's like the little bit that I can give you or whatever All I can do is just like hey bill I'll look up stuff and I'll do the intros or whatever, but that's nothing that's just like a fucking little that's one page It's just a little thing. I'm like dude if you want I'll fucking get do a whole thing It'll be if I do like a whole thing you'd be like, oh wow, that's one page of the book. It's just a little thing. I'm like, dude, if you want, I'll fucking do a whole thing. It'll be, if I do like a whole thing, you'd be like, oh wow, that's a lot. You know what I mean? It'll be, if you want, you can call it,

it'll have a different name. It's a thing, but when I described it to you, you're like, oh, this isn't a thing yet. It's not, yeah, what you want to do is beyond Adam Curtis. But I think- It's not beyond, it's different. Just different, but I'm saying like, it's like- This is a different thing, but it's not beyond it's different just different. I'm saying like it's like this is a different thing But I could do it, but it's just like I don't have the on tech Yeah, but the the fire there's no sense in like stone carving or anything like no one cares about jerking off on to you

Just jerking. Yeah, you're like I could paint you the coolest picture, but we're not it's like we're not painting right now You know what people are doing there watching stuff. It's like oh, okay. I can do that Yeah, I got you little images. I can say whatever the fuck I want exactly That's I mean, I think and I can contribute to the internet instead of just taking You have to make stock stock photos or whatever. I think stock videos I got crushed all the time for a while where it's like you can no longer consume you must create and you literally did it Yeah, yeah, so like that that's where like, it will, this will be a fucking level up that I won't even,

the old spade, I won't even be able to recognize it. Oh yeah, obviously, yeah. And then you'll just be sitting there at some like fifth birthday party with a wet stain on your shirt cause you're holding a beer there. Okay. Yeah, I'm just chilling. You see that new Kenny Powers?

It's pretty good. That's, I mean, I think just chillin you see that new Kenny powers pretty good. That's I mean, I think It'll be a it's insane emotionally deal with it. I Mean no, not really. I've dealt with way. I mean for now Yeah, like I'm afraid because I dealt with I've dealt with my feeling my feelings are like the Hulk Yeah, cause of this like Harry Potter type thing I was telling you about. Yeah, like so when I get hit it's crippling and it happens if um

If I get paranoid about my friends, it's all he's like this ultra thing or it's like it's preverbal shutdown Where I and then my fear is that like this will happen because of the kid and then I won't be able to Handle it. Yeah, I don't think so Yeah, I mean you say this but it's just like what I like If I really I haven't freaked out in a long time But like when I first met my mama was freaking out and I was like a toddler But I was like 22. Yeah, if I get those kind of feelings and there's like a kid crying and Needs me. Yeah, and it's like I'm fucking like a toddler too

Yeah, I Switch that toddler stuff. I'll see I'll see yeah I mean we'll find out but like right now my feelings are just kind of like fuck But it's not like the real feelings of like I avoid these things. Yeah. Yeah, that's why I think I don't have like I think It's like it's why I haven't had a girlfriend a long time because it's like no dude remember that time that hurts Yeah, we don't need any flurk recall or anything like that. Yeah, that's what like I think it Like that's like all those feelings stuff you have. Yeah, once it gets turned to this just from the dude that you were like Did like how I know you yeah

I don't think you could do it with a person because they have their own fucking backstory and all that stuff You can kind of fucking be like, oh, that's not me What are you talking about like freaking out and like getting paranoid and like like having bad emotions about people? Well, I don't understand what you're talking about. I'm saying like with a kid. I don't think it's gonna be like that No, they're just feelings like You know, it's not like it's hard to describe. Yeah, but it's like there's an arena of the world. There's like a level of life where there's like big feelings. Yeah.

And I don't fuck with it. I don't fuck with them that much either, honestly. I know you don't. That's what I've been trying to tell you. The way you're talking around about it, it's like no dude, these things are like mega feelings. Yeah. So you might not have really fucked with them or like a lot of them you take for granted probably take for granted

Yeah, so it's like pretty normal No, no like if I you know, I Don't know it's tough to explain Yeah, I mean this is just going to be fucking I'm just ruining your pot. No, I'm a guest that's ruining This is fucking absolutely fine. Like this is Mind-blowing shit to you. I guess yeah, I mean it's gonna be to you. This is gonna be the crew No, this is yeah, it's probably gonna break this can be in my life. I mean Could go out now

That's crazy and just be like what dude what else would I have done ultimate pussy, you know, that's just ultimate pussy That's where like I mean her dad checked out So happens to the best of us. Yeah, I mean, I think like maybe I think that's probably why she did this which is okay Looking from an ancestor point of view. Yeah, maybe They all were like this will work. Yeah. You know what I mean? That might be their storyline. Right. But yeah, I mean, to do that to a kid,

like you can't cause you have a kid. I mean, you say that, but like, I don't know. People do it. Once you see it. People do family in out of the nation. That's crazy. They make movies about it. I bet, yeah.

You don't have an, that's what I'm saying. Like you don't have that much dark in you. The light overshines the dark. No, I mean even being around Reese I was like watching to do where I like damn dude, you fuck with the dark side fucks with the dark I fucking felt weird. It's crazy after the podcast is how fucking deep that dude goes That's what I'm saying. Like he and your mom of him, but you're like the good Care Bear side and he's like no yeah, great Jedi like a full-blown great Jedi but it'll this is just going to have to unfold and literally it is what it is it is what it is but I just was you were like I was like dude I can't really keep doing the podcast because unless I like talk about

on the podcast because the whole time it's all you're gonna be fucking thinking about so I'm just gonna be retarded yeah I mean obviously about on the podcast because at the whole time it's all you're gonna be fucking thinking about so I'm just gonna be Retarded yeah, I mean obviously it's the end of the world and Israel being so bad right now and It's annoying yeah, that's what I'm saying I'd rather be worried about the other stuff because I and you're supposed to be like really guys There's so much like I'm driving through America, and there's so much a beautiful land. This is an amazing place I Like I'm driving through America and there's so much a beautiful land. This is an amazing place. I Drove through like Europe and I was like dudes beautiful and then I got here and I was like me go political bro

Yeah, go political to get there. I just fucking hate this shit because yeah And then they're gonna try to jab the fuck out of this thing Yeah, and they're gonna try I'm gonna have to stay awake all night holding it so they don't circuit Yes, and I'm also supposed to be like no Maybe it's just like super awesome Christians that are pushing this it wasn't you that told me to try your fit yeah I think it was I'm pretty sure unless somebody else was telling me that I mean fed yeah young Zachary I mean that's crazy that like I said somebody else had just had a kid but I don't talk to that many people yeah

that's the fucking Israel stuff at this point it's like that fatigue shit where it's like dude this is so, dude. This is so annoying I mean, I wish I didn't have to look at my tire like this, but it's come to that. That's what I'm saying like For you like that. I got a bolt in my tire, dude Yeah, like you know that you got a bolt your tire on the highway like fuck. I got a bolt in my tires Yeah, that happens all the time. It's really annoying. I'm other fucker came and he was like the coolest fucking dude and he used to Do a FedEx route and then started and started a franchise franchise

And he started his entire business and has it all set up I wish this dude just followed me around the road obviously a pit crew your tire XPs are low. I'm Tom Cruise I told you I know I'm just saying The track speeds are low. I'm Tom Cruise, I told you that. I know, I'm just saying, I was watching you struggle with the pump, I was like, damn dude, calm down. I'm Days of Thunder. I don't know how they work.

I've been getting made fun of since I was, see that show Tires, dude, I did that. My dad worked, my dad had this. You're pretty much every movie and every show. I took, I emptied out a Mercedes transmission fluid once when it was supposed to be an oil change. Did you fill it back up? But I mean this is a shatter around the world because they're like Jimmy your kids retard. Oh

Yeah, I didn't put a fucking um Tire back on right on an f-150 and it wobble it almost killed a guy on them Why would they have you doing that? I was a 17 year old. All right, you know, it's on you doing that? I was a 17 year old. All right. You know, it's on you. I thought you were like 13. No, I was 17. Yeah. Okay. Yeah. I mean, star pattern, make sure they're all going in there. Yeah, that's good. That's, that's insane. But yeah, I mean, the fucking like when you were gone, I was just like checking out shit that was happening because I really haven't been like, I don't know what the fuck Trump's up to. You told me he's dying. What the fuck? No, that's the blue the blue anons are like First of all, they he let last time he was president he let the immigrants in So that's what that's what you're seeing. I feel and I understand that crease in his pants is actually the shit pipe the Tube to his bag. He's dying. Yeah, I mean believe what you want Yeah, that's a fucking crazy thing to believe but like watch it like after kovat after everything I fucking ever look and now I mean

It's gonna suck. It's gonna suck like it sucks to have cuz I thought I was just gonna have to just deal with myself Yeah, and now I'm gonna have to like Connor wrangle a chick that I mean the only thing I've ever might be like explain Karen's Huh, this might explain Karen's what do you mean? Well, it's like they get inconvenience Then they're like what they just explode because I deal with the kid at home all this stuff that it's like you fuck with them In the CBS. I don't know. I just got to figure out a way to like be like yo, so You can't vaccinate this thing. That's it.

Or I don't get to say it. Like I don't know how this works. Cause I might not get it. Like I don't know like how much, how involved I'm going to be. If you're there, I mean if you're going to a gender reveal dude. I mean I have to get involved.

Yeah, I know. That's involved. If you're there day of birth, you can sit there arms crossed like no vaccines, huh? Yeah. All alone, huh? Just me and him, no one else, right like no vaccines, huh? Just me and him no one else right only me right? Yeah, I would not let that thing get vaccinated Especially after everything that we know like vitamin K all that shit vitamin K. They're just on their eyes. It's vitamin K Okay. Yeah vitamin K. They're like a dude. It's not a big deal, but they fucking have all these ingredients in them that free

It's fucking insane Then the hepatitis one they're lumping into like three other vaccines like a car wash We're like, this is a better wax dude it like that's what I've taught to like my buddies and shit like that work is my one boy just had a kid and it's like Dude, if you drop mercury in a lab hazmat comes. Yeah, why can you inject it into a baby? I mean, I hear you it makes no sense. They can sit there and do whatever the fuck I wonder if he's gonna be like deformed because my sperm was probably fucked up from all the shit from all the years of painting

And all that other shit It says that on the fucking paint cans. It says that but I mean you have unback sperm I know but this is a sperm from the gods and you got your lungs checked out the one time and they were that was a long time ago. But yeah, that made me cry. That was I thought I was ready to go then. That's what I mean. Like I don't understand how I'm still playing the game. So I don't understand how my earth is still doing this.