Was I In A Cult? - UFO-Tantric-Doomsday-Alien-Fairy-Angel-Sex Cult - Pt2: "Jump Ship"
Episode Date: August 3, 2026Everyone gathered on the deck the day Yo promised the mothership was finally coming. They waited… but alas, it never came. In PART 2, the magical fairy tale capsizes. Laurien becomes one of Yo's... chosen women, and soon finds out exactly what that costs. And when she finally tries to leave, they abandon her at a foreign train station with a stolen passport, no money, and 25 cents for a phone call. She got out. But getting out wasn't the end. Decades later, the experience still leaves her caught somewhere between grief and longing, showing us all just how powerful belief can be. Especially when it's backlit by yachts, beautiful people and the glistening sea. The group, by the way, is still going strong, but mostly on land now, in an apartment complex in Ibiza. Cult paella anyone?? ____________________________ FOLLOW LAURIEN Her book, The Golden Shawl → Brave New Books FOLLOW US Instagram → @wasiinacult TikTok → @wasiinacult SUPPORT THE SHOW Join our Patreon! Ad-free episodes, bonus content, behind-the-scenes conversations, and our forever gratitude. HAVE A CULTY STORY? Email us → info@wasiinacult.com
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Welcome.
Step aboard the pleasure boat.
We are just about to start the colored lights and beeches party.
Tyler is wearing his beautiful fairy wings as we speak.
You can't see him, but...
Fortunately, I didn't have to dye my hair nor my eyes because blonde, blue-eyed,
I am assured a window seat on the mothership,
which, folks, the mothership is coming this episode.
Sit tight.
Welcome back to our show.
I'm Liz Iikuzi.
And I'm Tyler Mism and occasionally we'll have our little voice from the sky. Rob, chime in. Rob, chime in. Hey, I'm chiming in. I don't have cyclospora anymore. Oh my gosh. Congratulations. I did a week of flageal, which is a pretty rough medication on my little tummy and I am on the other side.
Terrible name. It's one syllable away from flagellate, which I just don't think you should ever have a medication. It does kind of feel like self-flagellation. I'm like a ton of
honing for my sins of enjoying myself for a week in Mexico.
Well, we're glad your bowels are back intact.
All right, where are we? Who are we? We are.
Was I in a cult?
Question mark.
Yes, was I in a cult, the show that doesn't stop because by God there are so many cults out there.
Just thankfully, there are so many cults.
It's a weird thing to be thankful for, Tyler.
It is, but it does keep us making this show unless we just run out.
I mean, maybe one day we'll just run out.
We'll be season 72 of was I in a cult and we'll come on and say, welcome to was I in a cult.
That's it.
We've done it.
We've got nothing.
We've finished.
We've cured humanity, fade to black.
You know what, though, then we just relaunch as, that wasn't a cult.
That wasn't a cult.
Today we explore a yoga retreat where the guru let you leave.
let you leave whenever you wanted to.
Did it while he kept his hands all to himself.
What a thought.
Oh, that's not going to happen.
There are plenty of cults.
One can dream. Yes, fortunately for our show, but unfortunately for humanity,
we're nowhere close to running out of incredible wild cult stories.
Like, look at that segue, like today's episode.
Part two.
Yes, for today we pick up the second episode of Lorraine's journey into and out of the French UFO tantric doomsday, alien, fairy, angel, sex cult, traveling the rivers of Europe on pleasure.
What'd you do all week when you weren't saying that phrase?
I ran it through my head. At one point, I self-flagellated by writing it on a chalkboard 100 times.
Well, last week we did manage to totally butcher French apologies. But today, Tyler is.
with a very special person who is going to correct that for us.
Yeah, we brought in a ringer.
I'm in Maine on vacation.
In fact, Liz and I are both on vacation,
opposite ends of the country.
But we're still die-hard in doing this show.
But today, I'm in Maine with my family.
My mother-in-law taught French for decades.
And she is going to chime in and give us a few French lessons.
Bonjour, all my everyone.
I'm Phyllis Witton.
I'm content to participate.
Well, mercy buckets, Phyllis.
Thank you.
Was I in a cult?
Is that I was in a sect?
So last week we heard the first part of Lorene's story.
Because we all have fish memories, I think most of us do now.
Here's a quick recap.
Lorraine grew up in Holland with a violent father
and she spent part of her childhood inside the Baguon movement.
And then at 22, she met a boatload, literally,
of extraordinarily welcoming beautiful and mostly blonde people.
They dressed like fairies, they lived among white rabbits and colored lights,
and believed that they were purifying their energy while waiting for an extraterrestrial mothership to come and save that.
Their leader was a Frenchman named Jean-Paul-Apelle-Guerre, better known as Yo.
Yo is the leader he claimed to channel messages from higher dimensions,
and he also talked that sex depleted your spiritual energy.
Unless, of course, you were having sex with him.
which is a really nice loophole, well-played Yo.
Yo took an immediate interest in our guest today,
but when his first so-called, quote,
energetic treatment became sexual,
she went home, determined never to return.
And then came Mark, not his real name,
as you remember from the last episode,
a handsome French member of the group
who swept Noreen off her feet.
And then brought her directly back onto the book.
Lorraine then followed the group out of Holland while Yo began pressuring Mark to step aside so Lorraine could become one of his women.
So that is where we left off last week. Lorraine was living on a pleasure boat.
She was in love with Mark and she was slowly being pulled into Yo's creepy alien sex layer.
So when Yo did that actually, the group fingering, he did that to raise the vibration.
and often the girls would look me straight in my eyes when they would climax.
And they made a very high sound when they climaxed.
That was the sound they made.
So you could feel the energy going up because they were tantric.
So the energy would go up at that moment.
And it would make me feel very awkward.
But also the side effect of it would be that I felt very connected to the girls.
So I thought it was very special to be so connected to each other.
Because normally in society, if you would have a threesome with someone,
it would be a drunk or on drugs normally, I think, because you're a bit nervous.
But these girls were very in the moment and very spiritual, very here, now,
look you straight in the eye, they wanted to be there.
They thought Yo was really helping them elevate.
It felt very special, very, we're doing this.
in group. Everyone wanted to be with Yo because he was always saying that he was the only one on
earth who could raise their energetic vibration and level. I didn't believe in it, but strangely
when you've been with him sexually, afterwards you look a lot lighter, more beautiful.
They were looking like fairies from a fairy tale, absolutely magnetic, radiant eyes, radiant vibe.
And the women, I've seen before and after pictures,
they came in looking plain Jane,
and afterwards they looked like these angels completely transformed.
One woman had been a cashier,
a woman who worked behind a register at the supermarket,
and she had this grayish mouse grayish hair,
and she was a bit chubby.
She would walk past her and never even notice her.
but now in the group she was this beauty, absolute stunning woman long blonde hair, thin.
If she'd walk on a catwalk, you'd believe it.
Now, look, I'm not here to question the validity of this claim,
despite it being something I frequently do on this show.
There's a heavy burden you carry, Tyler.
It is.
But look, as I am saying, I'm not here to claim that the women didn't look different,
But I will say that charlatans, psychics, con men, flim flam artists, spoonbenders, and cult leaders have spent centuries convincing people that they've witnessed things that never actually...
Flim Flam artist is also the name of Tyler's anonymous substance.
Don't look for it, people. It's not there.
What's a Flim Flam artist?
What's a flimflam artist? It's someone who causes flimflam.
Flim flam is fakery, it's foolery, it's...
manipulation.
Let's actually make a substack called flim flam artist.
It's a great word to say flim flam.
Okay, so, look, science shows that intense fear, pain, and sexual arousal can temporarily flush the skin, dilate the pupils, and alter someone's expression.
We do not want to hear Tyler say sexual arousal ever again.
Please don't say it.
I did.
I did say it very.
Sexual arousal.
Flim Flam artists, we're the first episode we explore, the pupil dilation of sexual arousal.
Somewhere out there, there's a podcast for it.
I assure you, what that is, Liz, when your face is flush.
That is the nervous system responding.
It doesn't mean the experience was pleasurable or, in this case, even consensual.
Right.
So basically, they all give themselves a big makeover, which yes, can be transformative.
Just ask tan.
and Jonathan, obviously.
But the real power here, I think, was in the group think.
Everyone around Lorraine immediately told her,
she looked radiant, she looked different.
And when everyone tells you that you've been transformed,
well, eventually your mirror starts to say it as well.
All right, fellas, give it to us in French.
Group think.
The reflections of group.
It wasn't sex, you know, it was an energetic treatment.
It wasn't seen as sex.
When you've been with Yo, after you looked in the mirror, you were radiant.
Something happened and everybody believed it.
I can't explain it.
I could see it myself.
Everybody saw it.
And he said it was the lower energies that had been transmute and had left the body.
Yeah, so it was really weird.
Most women he would have sex with sometime, even the old, uglier ones.
And they would be very happy.
We were all very honored if he would have sex.
with us because it meant the makeover moment you would look better out.
That's very bizarre.
I laugh at it now because who doesn't want a makeover?
And an energetic makeover.
One time I questioned the fact that Yo would be having sex with sepaticia,
his little pussycat, and that the men were all abstinent and the, the who,
the women, well, most women he would have sex with sometime. But normally the men were not allowed
to ejaculate. They were supposed to be tantric and that meant that they let the energy go up instead
of go out. And my boyfriend was very good at it. Never once I've seen him ejaculate. All the men,
they were all the time masturbating. They didn't have girlfriends of their own. And when they
masturbated, they didn't ejaculate. Well, men climax.
but without the ejaculation.
Everything Yo was saying they did,
but he did not do any of that.
He had girlfriends, he ejaculated.
The one time I was really like that with Yo, he ejaculated.
I saw him coming and very quickly wiping it away,
and I was absolutely flabbergasted.
So I did tell my boyfriend about it,
and he was absolutely stunned and amazed,
and he laughed about it.
But that was really, how do you call it?
He was very hypocritical, to say the least.
I mean, but the men were not supposed to have girlfriends.
Or if they had girlfriends, you always always say,
you should be like me, have loads of girlfriends.
But he would just steal them away from them.
And the men were very soft and without ego, I would say,
because how can you survive in a place like that?
Otherwise, I just have to say that,
Lorraine is refreshingly incapable of euphemism throughout this show.
She never says, we became intimate.
She's like, I'm going to give you the exact noun, the verb, the anatomical location.
Of course, naturally, I did run the numbers for you, Liz.
Which numbers?
I was curious.
So across these two episodes, Lorraine uses some variation of the word sex 29 times.
She says ejaculate five times, which I believe is the record.
for was I in a cult, except for the episode on you.
I'm pretty sure you used it more often in your episode.
She said climax five times.
When I was talking about the weather, I just threw it in.
It's ejaculating cats and dogs out there.
She said finger four times, which I don't know if we've ever had the word finger in our cult show,
other than maybe in a different context.
She used the word underwear four times, masturbate twice,
And then she used UFO three times.
And there are eight references to mothership.
Yeah, their end goal was that the mothership was going to come and get them.
And I remember one day that Yo was saying,
it's soon now.
Soon the mothership will come and get us.
One time he said, now the mothership will come tomorrow.
And we will finally be retrieved.
And everyone was ecstatic.
And even Mark.
He was, oh, I'm so happy.
It's finally going to happen.
And I was thinking, I don't want to go with a mothership somewhere.
Where are we going?
And I didn't really believe it either.
But I was a bit petrified.
I thought, oh my God, what if the mothership comes?
I won't come with them.
I will stay here then alone.
And that will be it.
And everyone was so happy and it was finally going to happen.
So the next day everyone was waiting, ready to go on the mothership the whole day.
and nothing happened.
And then at the end of the day, I said to Mark,
well, nothing happened.
So now do you still believe in Yo?
And he said, no, you shouldn't take things so literally.
It was all meant energetically.
No, but Yo never made an excuse for it,
but you never spoke to Yo like that.
Whenever Yo was close to you,
I froze and I would have never dared
to say anything to,
disrespect him or he was really a very presence that I was afraid of him actually. It was like royalty.
When he was there, everyone was very respectful. No one would ever say no or anything to him.
So everyone spent the entire day waiting for a spaceship to come rescue them.
And when it didn't arrive, well, then the prophecy became metaphorical, obviously.
The old, when in doubt, gaslight everyone and rewrite the narrative cult leader tactic.
This is called Moving the Celestial Goal Posts.
Ah, Cedier, Deplacce Leszeste.
Yo was always carrying this home camera, how do you call it?
Recording camera.
And there were a lot of parties.
And when I was dressed up as a sexy bunny at a party,
and he took me to a different room where there was no one.
And he recorded me, wanted me to.
wanted me to do a naughty little show for him,
showing my boobies and giving him a little naughty show.
Or even when I was alone with him once,
when he wanted to energetically treat me,
he recorded me as well.
So, yeah, he has recordings like those.
For all the women, I think.
Yeah, I'm sure.
That's that.
With their consent, of course, right?
Right?
Right.
Hello?
We would watch movies together with Yo on his boat, and he would be very impatient.
He would zap forward all the way through the movie, and just a couple of scenes he would leave, just normal.
But he would be completely impatient, and so it took maybe half an hour to watch a movie, but then it was finished.
But when we went outside with Yo, in nature, he was so incredibly in awe of nature and of love.
flowers. You'd almost think he was an alien because every time he looked at flowers as if he'd seen
them for the first time, as if he was on earth for the first time. But also what he did, he made
these kind of weird maneuvers with his hand around me and everyone else indicating he was strangling
and warding of demons and lower astral beings off of me out of my aura. So he was always doing
this with everyone.
But I was happy about it
because if there were demons
and lower astral beings,
I wanted him to take them away from me, you know?
And Yo would have a normal meeting every day as well
where he would channel his messages.
So as I had been more and more included
in the Inner Circle meetings,
and I was often in the boat of Yo
and nobody noticed me there.
But I didn't know, but one day I found out because I heard one of the inner circle men talking with Yo and he told Yo exactly all the things that were happening with the people of the group.
And he was just saying everyday things that were going on, problems that people were having issues. I don't know. I can't think of anything now.
And then later in the meeting, Yo was channeling messages, but it was exactly.
what the person had told Yo.
So he was acting like it was something he had channeled,
but I knew he had just heard about it from the inner circle guy.
So he was cheating like that.
Okay, now not to be the one who is questioning claims again,
but Lorraine just caught Yo using an old psychic trick called Hot Reading.
Not to be confused with cold reading.
Cold reading is when a psychic actually fishes for information.
happens all the time. You sit across from the psychic, the psychic will make guesses, they'll watch reactions, they'll ask questions just enough for you to give the rest of the answer. Or they'll fish and say things like, I know someone in your life with a letter L, someone with a letter L or M or T. Is it a T? And then you'll say, oh, yes, Thomas, that old boyfriend of mine or whatever. Hot reading, this is very different from cold reading, but not very different. It means that they already have the information. This usually
comes from someone who is known as a Confederate.
Incomplice.
So during psychic gatherings, these large psychic gatherings
are also what happens often at these big churches.
A confederate will work the crowd prior to the show.
They'll mingle with the people, they'll learn names,
they'll learn about relationships, they'll ask them,
well, why are you here?
Oh, your mother's sick and you want to be healed,
or, oh, you have a liver problem and you want to be healed from it.
And they'll learn these things from the individuals,
and then they'll pass that on to the quote-unquote psychic or the preacher or the faith healer
who will then pretend it came from the spirit world.
So what you're suggesting here is that Yo wasn't channeling higher dimensional beings.
He was just getting gossiped from a French snitch.
Oh la la, that scandal.
I called my mother sometimes, but because we were told that everyone outside in the outside world
was so manipulated by negative energies.
I immediately felt that my mother was manipulated by negative energies.
So the communication was completely gone.
And it irritated me also that she was such an ignorant person all of a sudden.
I felt the group, everyone and me included,
you feel so superior to everyone else.
You're the only one who really gets it
and everyone else is just completely, yeah, ignorant.
You want them to understand, so you want them to join the group,
but as long as they don't, they're just ignorant and lost, you know.
When we would leave for longer periods of time,
Yo would have to put protection on us
because we were, of course, not safe in the outside world.
So I don't know what he did exactly.
It was some sort of meditation, I think,
because it felt like a womb in the group.
We were protected in the group.
I could feel it.
And when I went outside, I felt really very bad.
I had terrible nightmares, that especially, and I would feel very unsafe.
I had to get back as quickly as possible.
And then when you got back, you had taken on loads of negative energies.
And I had felt it.
I had these horrible nightmares.
To get rid of them, you had to listen to all these recordings of yo.
endless recordings of Yo.
When he had channeled messages of higher entities
to get back to your normal lighter state.
And when you wanted to leave,
Yo became a different person, a scary person.
Not before he would tell you how horrible things would become in your life.
And he would tell me I would die,
a terrible accident,
I would become fat, ugly,
have horrible relationships.
We warned everyone.
If you leave, you die.
The energies that I placed on you
are so subtle that the
darker energies are going to be attracted by it.
So this is something called phobia indoctrination.
We've heard it a lot on this show,
but essentially the group teaches you
that leaving won't just be hard,
it will be life-altering, catastrophic.
You'll die, or you'll get sick,
or you'll become ugly,
or you'll lose your relationships.
And because the group has already isolated you from any outside support,
the fear becomes, in a sense, self-fulfilling.
You leave terrified, and then, well, it's life,
so life keeps lifing and something inevitably does go wrong.
Yeah, and when it does go wrong, well, what happens?
Well, Yo's prediction, or insert cult leader's prediction,
or insert ex-boyfriend's prediction, it feels true.
My boyfriend was often in Paris and I sometimes went to Paris as well.
And then I saw Mark there often.
And one day, Yo said, I'm going to go on a trip to Valencia with some people.
Do you want to come with us, Lauren?
And I said, yeah, sure, fun.
The next day we went with their big SUV to Valencia.
We were then in the south of France.
So we had to take a trip because that's in Spain, of course.
But it was only the inner circle people.
And he had this strange look in his eyes.
Like, you're now mine.
You're one of the inner circle girls.
And I realized that without realizing it,
I had chosen to become one of his women now for real.
And I didn't want it.
I was still in a relationship.
And when we arrived to the hotel,
the women said let's get dressed for dinner tonight and yo said we're first going to go to the cinema and we went to the cinema and he said come sit next to me and he put his hand under my skirt in the cinema i felt really embarrassed and really exposed and so he fingered me there in the cinema and i felt horrible i just wanted to go back to my boyfriend in paris and i i sat all the way through the
dinner still and he was looking at me from the other side of the table like oh you're mine i'm so
happy about this and i wanted to cry i thought how am i going to get out of this horrible situation
and immediately after dinner i called my boyfriend in paris and i said my god i've made the most
horrible mistake i have to get out of here and he said well come join me in paris then so the next
morning I said, I want to leave, I'm sorry, and they were so angry with me. Yo never looked at me
again that day. And Loewik brought me to the train station of Valencia and I put my bag down. I looked
the other way and looked back. My bag was stolen. So I said to Loik, oh, my bag is stolen.
I can't. What do I do? I have no passport. I have no money. And he gave me. And he gave me.
25 cents to call someone and they left and they left me there at the train station with nothing.
I was very scared. So I went to the police station and I said I have no passport but I have to travel
to Paris. Then I said, please write the statement that my passport was stolen and she just sat there
for hours doing nothing until I cried and she did that eventually and I called my uncle who lived
in the south of France. He got me a plane ticket to go to Paris. And then I lived with Mark
for a while in Paris. When I was with Mark, everything was fine. But when we became too close in
Paris, one day, Yo decided that he thought it had to stop. And he said, can you guys come to the
group again? And so we went to the group. At that moment, I didn't really want to go back to the
inner group because I knew what Yo was doing and I thought it was disgusting. And when I was, uh, when
When we were there, Yo said, Mark, I have a very important task for you.
I need you to set up a community in Africa.
And he was over the moon happy to do that.
And so Mark just left me like that.
He said, I'm going to Africa to do this.
And that was the breakup for us.
And he left me in the group once again.
Yeah, yeah, I was very sad about it because that relationship was,
like Romeo and Juliet.
So it was never properly lived, finished.
It was a pain in my heart always.
Will thou be gone?
It is not yet near day.
I must be gone and live.
Or stay and die.
That's from Romeo and Juliet,
for those Philistines who don't know.
And Mark chooses Africa.
But we aren't going to Africa.
we'll be right back.
We'll rene in two minutes.
And in one boat, yeah, there was a fake UFO
that had been built with a bed inside, of course.
But it was three to four meters wide all over, and it was round.
The color was white silverys on the outside.
The inside hadn't been painted yet, I remember.
Okay, we have.
heard a lot of crazy things on this little show of ours,
but a handmade silver UFO made out of wood with a bed inside,
built in a houseboat?
I have numerous questions,
and none of them are about the architectural design.
And one time, Yo wanted me and another girl to go inside,
and he energetically treated the other girl and made me watch.
Well, made me watch.
I was part of it, but he just caressed me.
me, but he fingered the other group.
But me, not so much that time.
Yeah.
But one time that he wanted me in his bedroom,
and he touched me everywhere with his hands,
inside my vagina and my breast,
and he touched me very harshly,
grabbed me very, yeah, he hurt me.
I screamed from the pain,
and he started speaking in some kind of galactic length,
in my ear. And there was a song on the CD player.
Over and over going, who do you love? Who do you love? Who do you love? Over and over.
Over and over. It wasn't a real song. It was just that lyric over to brainwash me into loving him, I guess.
And after that I looked beautiful
So maybe it was because of the pain that I looked beautiful
I don't know
But everyone could see it
That I was much more beautiful afterwards
I was incredibly beautiful
I felt so great afterwards
Like I was on cloud nine
Not a care in the world
I thought my god I'm in a cold
And then
Always when he was groping
me and kissing me on the mouth, I thought you're a creep called leader.
But I didn't really care because I liked it so much there.
Somewhere in the back of my mind I was always thinking, get out when you still can, but enjoy
it while it lasts, something like that.
But I believed a lot of what Yo was saying that we did energetically level up and cleanse
ourselves.
And there were a lot of things that he said that did make a lot of sense to me.
I'm in a call.
It was confused.
I started to understand more and more the ideas of the cult leader that I did not believe in.
And I started more and more to think that if I would stay, I would become crazy and too dependent.
And I could never leave, even if I wanted to in the end.
And that scared me a lot because I always want to be independent and make my own choices.
And I had a dream.
In my dream, I saw myself and it was my higher self.
that came to warn me, and she took me away from the earth, and she said to me, it's time you go home.
Your time here is finished. You've lived the time here that was necessary, and now it's time to go home.
And then I saw myself waking up in Holland, crying a lot, being completely devastated that I was not with the group anymore.
And she looked at that scenario with me, and she said, everything happens exactly the way it should happen.
And I know this here from above, but you don't know it because you're living it.
And I said, but why do I have to suffer so much?
And she said, because you don't know that everything's happening exactly the way it has to happen.
And then I woke up and I knew I had to leave.
Yeah, a big part of me never wanted to leave.
Yeah, it was the best like a drug.
It was an easy life.
I was being adored by everyone.
I didn't have to do much.
I was living a millionaire lifestyle.
But it's mostly the people.
They were also sensitive and also damaged.
You just have such a bond with all these people.
It's difficult to leave them behind forever.
It was an adventure, but the price was having to be under the influence of this cult leader
that I did not find attractive.
then I stayed a little bit longer, but I saw everything differently.
Everything was weird and negative, and I thought, what are these crazy people?
Why am I here in these sexual rituals with this creep?
I don't believe that we're going to get taken by extraterrestrials.
I want to live my own life.
And my uncle lives in the south of France.
I said to some group members, I have to go visit my uncle.
because his daughter needs a babysitter for the summer.
And Yo was not pleased.
He said, why are you leaving?
And I said, no, I'll be back.
I'll be back, really, I promise.
I had to promise.
So then I left, but I knew I wouldn't come back.
And then I went back to Amsterdam.
Welcome back.
So when I first got to Amsterdam,
I just felt extremely happy and liberated
because I could make all these choices for myself again.
So at first I just felt great.
Well, actually, I did exactly what Yo was predicting I would do,
and that was going to parties, taking drugs,
the thing he hated most about society
and was the worst thing you could do
if you were energetically more subtle.
If you're sensitive, it's the worst thing you could do.
But I guess I was looking,
again for that high. Yeah, the group was a drug and now I went on another drug.
Approximately five years after I left the group, I met my husband. Oh, I'm very open person.
So I told my husband very quickly about the group. It doesn't bother me. I'm not secretive
about things normally. If people don't like me because of that, then they can just go away.
but later the depression came.
Yeah, I was very depressed for 20 years.
And a lot of ideas of the group are still in my head.
It's difficult for me to function in life, normal life,
because I do often feel unsafe in the outside world.
So the seeds of these comments are still in my head.
And I do sometimes think that when I'm having sex with my husband,
that he's just wanting to take away my light or something,
that it's not good for me, that I should live a celibate life.
I can't even say that it's not true.
This is what I believe.
I have regretted it for 20 years.
I've always wanted to be there,
but I knew I couldn't be there because the dream was so vivid
and so clear that I knew I had to stay away.
There was a depression when my children came,
because when you have children, you become very responsible.
And I realized that going back to the group wouldn't be a possibility for the next 20 years.
And that really depressed me because, yeah, now I was stuck in a life with responsibilities.
And of course, I had chosen it.
But even when I had children and was married, my husband hated it.
I could never mention the group because all I wanted was to go back.
And he said, you're crazy.
We have children.
You're not going back.
I fantasized often about going back.
And we went there once, even, to visit.
They live in Ibiza now.
So the group still has a hotel on Ibiza.
You can book it.
It's very fully booked.
They're very popular.
This hotel appears to be the C.L.
Azul Ibiza.
See how I list there in the Spanish?
Ibiza.
Ibiza.
This is an apartment complex with a pool meditation classes, seminar rooms,
and, well, because subtlety has never been their particular strong suit,
it actually has an on-site fairy shop.
So if you do show up there to get a fairy dress or a magical fairy figurine.
Or dragons, or they have fairy costume jewelry and they have really nice fairy wings.
Just know that you are purchasing from a sex abuser's manifestation of his,
idea of utopia. This hotel also advertises something called Fiesta Ferry Evenings, and it features
women performing on stage dance routines in fairy costumes. So Yo is still Yohin, but maybe he
realized boat real estate isn't as sustainable long term. Also, I would have also pivoted with all
of the cruise diseases that have upticked in recent years. I wouldn't want to draw attention to
My go ahead, Tyler, say it one more time for the kids in the back.
The French UFO Tantric Doomsday Alien Fairy Angel sex cult traveling the rivers of Europe on pleasure boats.
probably boring, but the STDs are free. That's the apartment's slogan. I looked it up. It's
on their little plaque outside. Is it? Is it really? It's STIs now, right? I don't think I'm allowed to
say STD anymore, 2026. Yeah, you're going to get emails. I don't have an STD. I have an
STI, okay? My clemenia deserves respect. Does the cold drink today, do you think they
I don't know this.
They also didn't eat meat, so I don't know if they served meat there.
I imagine you'd have to serve meat and serve drinks in a hotel in Abiza.
Paella with tofu is just not very tasty.
No, it's not.
And a sangria that is just juice, no one wants that.
Nobody wants that.
Oh, no.
I do think maybe we should have our wasayna called Fan Retreat at the Ciel Azul Abiza.
Ooh, great idea.
And we can find out.
If you book early, you get our wasiana called Fairy Wings.
Les Eles of Fe.
Now, here is where the story takes a fourth act that most of our stories do not,
because years later, Lorraine decided to go back to the group with her husband,
just to see what else had changed.
I'm really hoping Yo's facial hair also underwent a radical transformation.
The shows are a bit less now.
because Yo is getting older.
But if you look at the website, it looks kind of funny.
Well, my husband knew I was always missing them.
And I was just saying, you know, it's my friends.
I miss them.
I just want to see them.
And we visited it.
I loved it.
He hated it.
But he said, this is a cult.
What are we doing here?
And even Yo called me in his bedroom again.
Some people were talking to my husband.
Yo wanted to energetically treat me again.
I said, no, you can't do this.
My husband is right around the corner.
If he finds this out, he's going to kill you.
And he said, okay, okay, I won't do it.
Yeah.
This is too crazy.
I never thought I'm going to leave my life behind this day,
but my coping mechanism in life is to want to have a plan B,
to want to have an escape route.
Some people, it's alcohol or something like that.
For me, it's always in the back of my mind having some place else to escape to.
So the group is perfect for that.
And I like having that option somewhere.
I know it's a cold, but I still have pleasant feelings towards them
because it gave me so much, such a positive experience,
such a beautiful experience, beautiful memories.
Before I met the cold, I had difficulty being around women
as a result of my childhood
and they healed that for me
for example. A bit forcefully of course
because having these sexual rituals with women
is not normally a way to resolve that problem
but it did do it for me
I mean now I'm very comfortable being around women
I've gone to therapy for my childhood traumas
being beaten and sexually abused
and it helped a lot for that
but never for the cult. No, never, I should have.
At one point, a couple of years ago, I did start to think that maybe now they're doing work on me,
to curse me or to get me back or something like that. Of course, there are all these people in one group.
They could do things like that. They have a lot of power. So it wouldn't surprise me.
If they do energetic work to get people back, would they have to bring me back?
there was a person close to Yo that would come once a year to visit me, to ask me when I would be coming back.
So clearly they wanted me to come back.
I was contemplating it and I would maybe come back one day.
So I was always keeping it a bit warm because I was always fantasizing about it.
Maybe one day when the kids are grown, I might still.
No, but I'm not feeling it anymore.
It's changed lately.
That's why I wrote the book and that's why I'm doing this.
And I have a good time now.
I have family in the south of France where I love to visit once or twice a year.
I love speaking French.
And yeah, I love my children.
I love my life.
So it's good.
That is our show false.
If this story doesn't make you perhaps suspicious of a man with a bumper beard
whose mothership never arrives,
but whose sex treatments are always right on time.
Well, all I can say is get your fairy wings ready then,
because this might be the place for you.
Honestly, though, thank you, Lurine.
Thank you so much.
Your story is wonderful.
You are wonderful.
This is a fascinating group.
Yeah, it is.
Because there is so much beauty and joy.
You can feel it, but then there is this darker side to it, obviously.
so cults they are not black and white they live in the gray a part of me can kind of understand i mean
she really had it kind of nice of boats living the life of a millionaire essentially having parties
every night i can understand traveling the rivers of europe not so bad thank you lorraine uh thank you for
being honest about your journey into and out of and maybe back into but not into a color
The cult of, ready everyone?
A French UFO tantric, doomsday, alien, fairy, angels, sex cult, traveling the rivers of Europe on pleasure boats.
Pleasure boats.
Yes.
I don't know if you guys know this.
I was robbed in Ibiza at a train station nonetheless.
Really?
Honestly?
Yeah.
Honestly.
Come to think of it, I think the person who did it was a.
gypsy wearing fairy wings. Interesting. Did they leave a trail of clitter? Yeah, and a bumper
man beard and I was like, ooh. But I had to go with my friends, so I couldn't follow them.
Thank you everyone for being a part of the show. Wait, Tyler, you had a joke. I know you have a joke
that you wanted to say. Okay, Lorraine, you may still miss the boat, but fortunately you didn't miss
the boat on your life. I've been perfecting my dad.
jokes of late. It drives Diana crazy. I mean, we're here in Maine, and we went blueberry picking,
which is what you do in Maine. You go to these agro tourism places, and someone had a big bucket,
like a guy and a wife, and I was like, leave some for the rest of us. I just love the dad
jokiness of it, but she just hates it. She was like, my sexual arousal has just diminished.
Sexual arousal.
Lorraine's book, if we may, the golden shawl is available now.
It is a fictionalized version of this particular story.
You can purchase it.
The link is in the show notes.
And that's it, guys.
What a story.
I don't know what else to say.
Don't follow men with beards.
You can't trust.
You know what I mean?
What's the one with a little tuft right under the lip?
Yeah, it's a sole patch.
That's something the grunge scene kind of perfected.
It came and went.
In my day, they called it the flavor saver.
They did do that.
I can't say that I'm not guilty that I haven't had it for a moment or two.
No, you have not.
Of course, it was the grunge era.
Just right here is this little thing.
I did it just for a bit.
What do they call it in France?
Actually, I looked it up.
They just call it a fly.
Unmush.
Lorraine's book, The Golden Shal, is now available.
The link is in the show notes.
shoe noots, show nuts.
The truth is, you have probably way more fans on this show than I, like women who want to be sexually aroused by you than me.
They did until I said sexual arousal.
It is nice to hear from our fans.
I do like hearing from our fans.
It is nice.
And if they want me to stop saying sexual arousal, just write in.
Let us know.
Don't do that.
Okay, we'll be back next time with a story that just might actually drop your jaw because it's a very unique cult.
Okay?
It's a family cult.
It's like religious and then not religious at all.
The mother is at the helm, not the father.
And it's wild.
It is ongoing.
Our guest is the oldest of nine.
And she has left and she hasn't been able to be with her siblings since she left six years ago.
and is now using TikTok as a platform to try to get their attention.
It's pretty incredible.
I remember mostly later teenage years.
That was when they stopped taking us to church and just completely cut off everybody.
And we went into this isolation mode.
Because a lot of it was just like, we don't need anybody else.
You have all these siblings.
You don't need friends.
We don't need to go do this or that.
So you guys can just play in the backyard, be at home, read your books.
Now, everyone, listeners, we love you.
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Yeah, we've had a nice rush of badasses joining our cult on Patreon.
Well, they now have the first class seat on our mothership.
Yep, they can board first on the mothership.
Thank you, Dominic Ferris, Chef Tom, and Rhonda Winkle, who joined our Patreon.
Chef Tom, are you going to...
Send us food.
Thanks, chef, Tom.
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And thank you, Phyllis, Witten, for teaching us all French.
Merci, beaucoup.
It's a pleasure.
Thank you, Tyler and Elizabeth.
So, the lesson is finished.
O'clock, all right, all right, and a lot.
Bye-war.
Was I an occult is written, host, and produced by Fairy Dust Ayacuzzi.
I have no more first name.
I'm just Ferry Dust Ayacuzzi now.
You are now.
And also by time to finally paint the inside of the UFO Mism.
Yeah, it is time.
The UFO's great on the outside.
It's silver, but really you got to fix up the inside.
It's bruce it up.
And Rob, of course.
And Rob, I guess I'll go to Africa.
para for those who are interested here are my nephews who will say was i an occult in german and
polish this is eli was i an occult in german war i in a sector and this is kieran in polish
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