We Can Do Hard Things with Glennon Doyle - 122. Why We Should Stop Doing Our Best

Episode Date: August 16, 2022

1. Abby’s new nightly ritual of 80’s parties and Amanda’s wild adventure at a crawfish boil. 2. Glennon’s transition out of depression, and how she’s moving off “The Landing.” 3. Why our parents are so triggering – and how we can see them differently. 4. Glennon, Abby, and Amanda answer pressing Pod Squad questions. 5. Amanda pays tribute to a particular Pod Squader, Lexi – and to all women of her generation.  

And I continue to believe less people are free. Hello, love bugs. Oh, my God. Welcome back to We Can Do Hard Things. Oh, this is what my kids do in the back of the car. No, sister, she does this to me. She follows me around and will not stop repeating things like she's five freaking years old. I know, but didn't you guys laugh a little bit just right now?

No, look at me. No. You did. You laugh. You laugh. You're smile. We laugh so we don't cry. Okay.

Yeah. Hi, everybody. Sissy, how is your summer going? Talk to us a little bit about your summer and how it's going. It was going great until this. Sorry. I just needed to bring some joy. So look how joyful I am about it.

She's so joyful. Look at that face. So we have a new member of the family I need to tell you about. Okay. Last weekend, we went to a crawfish boil. Okay. So this is a thing that is usually, it's sort of a southern thing, I think, because crawfish are from Louisiana. That's where the crawfish thing.

Yes, where the crawfish thing. Exactly. And so some folks up here had a crawfish boil. We got invited. So I was, John was out of town. And I took the kids up there. And I learned something about the. two types of kids there are in the world. And one type of kid goes to a crawfish boil and eats.

And then another type of kid goes to a crawfish boil and searches the entire yard for any lone survivor of the crawfish boil that doesn't make it into the pot and picks it up with their bare hands and demands that we rescue this crawfish and make it part of our family. family. So that is in fact what happened. Alice found this little baby with crawfish. God bless her. She has no fear. She just ran. You know, it's like a mini lobster. Yeah. It's little pictures. It looks like a tiny mini lobster. She found it in on the ground. She picked it up and was, and was carrying it around. And she was like, I'm not leaving without buddy. Not without my crawdad. Not without buddy, which she had immediately named. And so I had to go and borrow a pan, like a baking.

pan and put the crawfish in the pan. We wrote our bikes there. I had to abandon my bike and walk home with this like large baking pan with the water. But at first I tried to put it in like a little mason jar, but I only had filtered water that had been sitting in the cooler at the crawfish boil. So I poured the water on it at which time it like clinched up into a tiny ball because Louisiana water is not apparently like that. And it was little buddy was like in a frozen ball. We had to take Buddy off and put him on Alice's, like, skin on skin. Oh, my gosh. To warm Buddy up.

Skin on exoskeleton. Skin on exoskeleton. And until Buddy warmed up and then transfer him to the pan. Okay. And walked him home. And it was a whole situation. I had to watch five YouTube videos. She made me watch.

So we could determine the. sex. So Buddy turns out Buddy's a female. Buddy, Buddy, the Crawfem. But Buddy will reveal Buddy's gender when Buddy's damn ready. Right, right. Right. Right. But then turns out Buddy needs all kinds of various accouturement because Buddy cannot live in a pan. And so I went on Facebook Marketplace because all of the aquariums are like $700. Right. And I'm like, no. No. Over my. dead buddy. Am I going to spend $500 on this thing? So I go on Facebook marketplace and I buy this aquarium and filled up the tank and we just watched Buddy for like 10 hours, watched Buddy in there.

And then the next morning. Oh, no. What? Buddy went to the different lands. God, heaven. What did Alice do? How did she respond? She just kept saying, I don't understand. I don't understand. And it was very sad. And I tried to explain that Buddy had been through a lot of trauma. I mean, Buddy was sent in a cooler from Louisiana. All the Croddads are in there fighting each other in the cooler. Then they get there. Then 99% of Buddy's comrades boiled.

Jesus. Buddy then frozen with my filtered water. Then unfrozen. And then spent the last 24 hours. of Buddy's life in the bougiest aquarium of its wildest... She had a good send-off. Yeah, I feel like she really had the last little happiness. So we have a, this weekend, we have a memorial because Alice wanted to wait till Buddy's godmother,

which was her other little friend who was also at the crawfish boil with us. When the godmother returns to town, we can have a proper area. Does Alice eat meat? Is she mostly vegetarian? She does eat meat, but I remember recently she asked me, why do we eat animals? Oh, shit. And I was like, I don't understand. When you say it like that, I don't know.

It's really fucked up. It is fucked up. Yeah. Anyway, so that was the big events of our last couple days. I mean, buddy might be the only crawfish on earth who really experienced true love. You know, was truly loved at the end there. Well, we don't know. There's a lot of true loves down in, I mean, it's New Orleans.

A lot of love over there. That's true. Free crawfish love down there. I'm not sure. How are you, babe? How's your summer? Anything that exciting? My summer has been going really wonderfully.

Really? I just feel like our kids that are at a cool age where we're starting to like really get to know them. Their personalities are starting to like really. stabilize. You know, the young years are picking a lane. They're picking a freaking lane. But something that's been happening recently, the last two days, I've decided to play music loudly.

Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah. And our top floor, one hour before dinner, where I get to kind of center myself before I have to go into the cooking, cleaning whirlwind of, of, of, And we've been choosing to listen to the station called Born in the USA. True Springsteen. Yeah. Last night, we ended up with a white snake. Yeah.

It really, it's a little bit life changing that hour. And so we sit there. We play solitaire. We get the cards out and we sing and I take silly videos of Glennon because that's my favorite thing. Because, you know, we've been going back to my 80s glam rock headbanger. And before every song, sister, literally before every, like, top. pop 80's song comes on.

She goes, this might be my favorite. This is my favorite. This is my favorite. And then goes into. Here I go again on my own. And then she goes into my hair was this big. It was. God, Abby.

I'm just like, did you go to any of these concerts? And she's like, no. I wasn't allowed to do anything. But I had all their posters covering my walls. I'm doing good. It's been a good summer. I'm not excited for it to be over. How is your summer going?

Well, I feel like I have just kind of figured out over the last couple weeks that I'm in in like a different phase. So you know how the winter was kind of hard for me. I had the eating disorder relapse, all the things I think I was in a bit of a depression. When you're in that, I don't know why, but it's hard to recognize it. I just feel like, oh, my life is terrible and everything's awful and I hate everything. I've always hated everything and I've always been this way. I can't see it as like a season when I'm in it. But now I am starting to see it as a season.

So I think about the time that comes after that season for me. So I have a time where I am down. We call it down, depressed, melancholy, whatever you want to call it, sadness comes, sinks in like a haze over my life. and then I come out of it, then it lifts. And now I'm in the post lift time. Yay. And what happens in this time is that it's like the depressed time is a forgetting of everything.

And I always forget the beauty of the after season because I forget everything and then I come back to life. And the next season is very much like a springtime. Everything is brand new. I'm learning everything for the first time. Everything's beginner's mind. It's like I'm learning how to be human again for the first time. And it's silly. It's like, oh, water.

Oh, moving my body. Oh, the sun. Fresh air. It's like I'm an alien who's been dropped on the planet. and I'm learning everything for the first time. And it's quite wonderful, actually. And I've been thinking about it in terms of crabs. What?

Just stick with you for a minute. Like the animal since we've been on the crawfish? Which, by the way, I didn't think of until you said that. Okay. Sister and I spent a lot of time near the Chesapeake Bay, so everything was about crabs. So crabs, they have seasons where they start to hide. They go into very dark places of the bay and they hide. And then they're hiding because they're losing their shell.

And they have to hide because they're very vulnerable when they lose their shell. They're soft shell crabs. Soft shell crabs are crabs that are caught in between losing their old shell and growing a new shell. They're mid transformation. Right. They're mid transformation. They're on the landing and they got caught. They're on the fucking landing and they didn't make their boundaries.

Okay. They snuck out and they got paid. hit off. That's why when you are in a depression, you keep your boundaries. You don't, you don't go out where there's predators. Oh, okay? Because you are a soft shell crap. I do believe that there is something about going through a deeply sad, melancholy time that is about growth. That we can't understand, like, what the hell is happening and we think it's all bad. But what I do think is in this season, and by the way, I won't be able to see this next time it happens to me. I will not be able to see it until afterwards. I know. I'll remind you. But there is a time where it's like a

molting that this like depression thing for me is sort of terrible and I don't think I would choose it. But it also is a reset that happens every once in my life that is about getting bigger. What do you mean by bigger? Like growing into a new self. Oh. It's a new self. It's a beginning, but it's like leveling up. It's like a video game. And I'm on a new level. And it has nothing to do with, like, outer things. Like you wouldn't be able to see. But there's just a spiritual growth that's happening.

So I just want it in case anyone is in the, the molting part or the dark part or the whatever, I want to read this paragraph that has helped me through many a multing times. Many a multing. Many a multing times. So I'm going to read something by Rilke. It's called Letters to a Young Poet. He's writing to his friend. who is a young poet.

And the young poet is going through a melancholy time. He's a feely. Not a poet going through a melancholy time. Sister, yes. Okay? So he is an older writer, anxious sensitive bunny, who's trying to coach this young poet about making it through these times and being this kind of deeply feeling person.

And he says to him this, So you must not be frightened if a sadness rises up before you larger than any you have ever seen. If a restiveness like light and cloud shadows passes over your hands and over all you do, you must think that something is happening with you, that life has not forgotten you, that it holds you in its hand, it will not let you fall. Why do you want to shut out of your life, any agitation, any pain, any melancholy? since you really do not know what these states are working upon you. Oh.

Okay. So that's where I am. I don't know what the next thing is. I just am experiencing everything as brand new. When a crab molts. Yeah. Does it molt into a larger shell? Yeah.

Okay. I've got somebody intel on that. Okay. Oh, my God. Of course you do. You have done research on this. I had to watch all the YouTube videos. was with Alice. She pulled them all up. We had to watch them all. So when, at least a crawfish,

I assume they're related. Yeah. When a crawfish molds. That's when it's exoskeleton. It comes out. It's the soft thing. It actually consumed. They said, don't take that skeleton out. You've got to leave that in there because they eat it to have the strength to build their one around them. That is some shit. So they need the nutrients from the, what looks like a discarded, useless past identity to grow into their new, going to take them forward identity. Wow.

Nothing is wasted. Nothing is wasted. None of that old pain. I feel that in my endoskeleton bones. That is true that we are using every bit of every version of ourselves we have ever been to create the next version of ourselves that we will be. And that sometimes when we're feeling really, really tender, in our family we call it tender, when we're feeling really tender, really porous, really sensitive, we think that that's a weak state. but I think actually that could be a transformative state where we are becoming the next thing.

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and it's beautiful when you kind of wake up from the depressive state. How long does that last? Because my only analogy to that is when I'm feeling sick and I'm in my bed, I always, well, first of all, I always think I'm going to die whenever I get sick. And I'm like, this is over. I had such a good run. Yes. I wasn't ever as happy as I should have been.

And now I'm never, this is like I'm a fever. Okay. Now I'm never going to get better. And God, if I had only enjoyed my life. And then I always swear to God that once I feel healthful again, I'll never complain. I'll be so happy just to be able to not be sick. And then I start to feel better. And I feel like that, truly.

I feel so grateful for about seven and a half hours. And then I'm back to my just curmudgeon self. So how long does that last? Okay. I love this whole comparison because I, weird, here comes weird Glennon. Okay. So here we are. If there's a God and I've always, even when I was like, you know, just on cocaine and alcohol and would feel like God was hanging out with me and we were just like buddies always.

If there's a God, if God is like joy and love and peace for human beings are when they notice the little miracles of life. That's it. people who can soak in the sun and see their friendships and their loves as a miracle and breathe and feel like that's a miracle and walk around. If that's the joy. Carpe pyros. Great. Then when I get too far from that, because I've become so capable again, because I've become so efficient, because I've become so like steady and stable, then that's when the depression comes because that takes me back to beginner's mind and the beauty and the joy again.

So I don't necessarily feel like it's, I feel like I'm going to get in trouble for saying like depression is a blessing from God that takes us back to beginner's mind. I don't think it's exactly that. But I do think that for me, that's how I can frame it to make it instead of feeling cruel to feel like a blessing. That's what the episode with Dr. Loy Santos about, she's the professor who teaches the happiness class at Yale. And the science behind it really is that the irony is that the happiest people are deeply in touch with the precariousness of life. They are happy because they realize that anything could change at any time. And that it is not as steady as it feels. You think those would be the people that would be most sad about life, but they're actually

the happiest because they appreciate that this is all very unstable and therefore their gratitude for it is bigger. Yes, that's how it feels. Yeah. And it feels like back to the basics. Oh, that's so cute that you thought you were like an actual grownup and you were like chugging right along and like a, back to the beginning. And little things. If I described to you what that bigger self looks like, I can already feel it coming and it's silly, like really silly. Like when I And in my beginning, growing the new shell phase, I have to find little teeny spots where I feel safe. So as you all know, I've been going to this little yoga studio. I'm talking about it a lot because it's my little safe place right now and I freaking love it. And I'm laying there the other day

and there's these teachers that are all different, but they're all amazing. And they say the nicest things. They just are like, you all are beautiful and perfect and amazing. And you all are breathing. And that is amazing. I'm like, yes to this. I love you. I need somebody saying really nice things to me. I need somebody who tells me I'm perfect the way I am. I need this. You are. Okay? That's a basic thing. Yes to that. This is a new thing for my new self that I'm learning in the yoga studio. I, um, when I go there, there's all these like young people there who are doing very hard things for a very long time. Okay. They are doing hard yoga. And I think of myself as the permission to rest, maybe, in those classes. Yeah. PTA. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Hashtag PTR. Okay. I am like,

child's pose for 20 minutes or whatever it is. And I just do it. And it feels so good to give myself exactly what I needed. And here's the thing. I realize this. I am 46 years old. That's how old you are. Yeah. And I don't want to do my best anymore. Oh. I actually, and I'm sorry to tell you my pod business partners, I don't want to give 100% anymore. I don't believe in it.

I want to show up at things that make me feel good. And I want to give like 70%. And I want to keep a little bit for extra and for me. I don't want to work hard and play hard. I want to work medium and play low. Play low. Your play also just don't forget is reading and resting. That's play low.

No, it's it's balance, right? It's like work medium, play medium balance. Yeah, okay. But what I'm saying is I don't buy it anymore. I don't buy the like show up and give 100% anymore. I feel like show up and do exactly what feels right and good and tender and loving to you. Every time I'm there, I'm like, well, I already did it. I'm already here. Who cares what happens next? Yeah. You know? So this is a new way of this new self. And it feels like

if we just showed up and gave medium, we wouldn't have to be like always wanting to quit. Yeah. We wouldn't stress about it. That's been revolutionary for me and my working out right now. So I just show up and whatever happens happens. Yeah. It's awesome. So this is what I mean by a new self. It's not like a, you know, leveling up in any way that anyone else would be able to tell. It might. It looks like leveling down. You're saying Tony Robbins isn't co-siding on this. Oh, fuck sick. No, it's the opposite.

I'm like a demotivational multer. Okay? And I know that that sounds funny, but I actually think it's very true and real and deep because it's like unlearning all of the things that frantic, capitalistic culture teaches us about what we have to do to be relevant. And, oh, no, no, this is what I have to do to be peaceful and loved. One of my favorite things that I've recently read, a famous person was just asked, what is your most favorite thing you're doing right now?

And they said, divesting. And I thought, shit, that's so awesome. They're a little bit older. And I thought, you know, divesting. Because like, you're like, I need to get and invest and create and grow my family and whatever. And I thought, I think that we need to make the transition to the divesting sooner. And by that you mean just extra.

restricating yourself from things that aren't the core of what you care about. Yeah. Yeah. Looking at all the things that everyone told us we had to do and being like, do I? Yeah. Questioning everything. Anyway, that's how our summer schooling. This show is sponsored by Midi Health.

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today, and that question is from Catherine. Hi, my name is Catherine. My relationship with both of my parents has never been easy. They are both complicated people, but I know they love me, but there have been many times in my life where I have been extremely hurt by their words and their actions. I know these words and actions stem from the place of pain from their own experiences and challenges that each of them have faced. Despite knowing this, I find it so hard. to not hold on to how they have treated me in the past, which leads me to resentment. This has led to what now feels like a barrier between us. Do you have any advice on how to accept the people we love, knowing they are imperfect,

and cannot always recognize how they've affected us in the past? I love my parents, and I still need them in my life, but I can't help but wish they were better to me. Thank you so much in advance. I love all three of you. Bye-bye. Catherine, I feel like this, I don't know about you too, but it feels like this in some form is the question that every single one of my friends is dealing with right now.

Yeah. It's like a time of life thing or... I think our age, right? Our parents are getting a little older. Like we're having existential crisis because of the age of our parents. And because we are figuring more out and looking back on our childhoods. Some of us are parenting. We're figuring out how we're parenting and then wondering why they didn't parent us the way that we're parenting.

Anyway, it's... Lots of problems here. Yeah. I mean, I can tell you, Catherine, I had a really... really cool conversation with a couple of friends recently who were talking about this exact scenario that they want to be able to hang out with their parents and not be angry all the time and not be resentful and not wish things were different, but just accept what is, especially when you get to the point where you realize you're not going to change anybody

and you kind of give up on that, that idea that forgiveness is letting go of the idea that your past could have been any different. I know I have a friend who told us that one of the ways she made it through this was that she stopped. She was 50 years old before she stopped thinking of her parents as her parents. So let's say that her parents were Bob and Joe. Nope. Maybe there was a woman and a man. I'm so used to like.

I love that. I love that. You just like you went into a gay man. I did. That's so cool. Homosexual brain instead of a heteronorlidic brain. Okay. Let's just go to like Betty and Joe for this one.

Okay. So Betty and Joe are your parents. parents and you called them mom and dad your whole life. When you're 50 years old and you're trying to figure out, how do I have a relationship with these two people that is not so freaking loaded with resentment? One strategy is to stop thinking of Betty and Joe as your parents as my mom and dad and just start thinking of them and refer to them in your mind as Betty and Joe. Okay, now let me explain why. Because when we say, my mom, my mom, my mom, my mom. What we're also bringing to that is all of these expectations we have for what a mom should have been,

what we believe a mom should have been, and the gap is there between what we think should have happened and what actually did happen. Or even in the present, like what we think should happen when my mom should call me right now. If we call her mom, we're bringing all of these expectations and resentence and sadness to it right away. But at some point we figure out that our parents are just freaking people who have their own personalities and their own trauma and their own upbringing and their own experiences on the earth. And they've just always been themselves, right? So when we think about whether our mom called us or not, when we hoped she would and she didn't, we just think instead of my mom didn't call me, it's like, well, Betty's just beddying. There's Joe over there. Joe's just joeing.

It's like this depersonalization of roles. And when we take the roll out of it, there's something I've been trying it, and there's something kind of sweet that comes into it too, where you just start seeing your parents as human beings. We see it all now with our grown kids. They're already telling us stuff we did wrong or stuff that we would ever. And I think that for them to start seeing us as like Glennon and Abby, two people that are just trying to do their best and love them and have our own shit, it's just one little strategy. Is it possible to accept familial relationships as they are and also crave more?

I think that the acceptance of the way things are has allowed me. The chance at time spent with my family, with my mom, especially. She's recently gone through some help stuff, which she's come out perfectly on the other side. And I feel like I kind of left my resentments in the past. And I just want to experience the time I have left with her in a non-caotic, non-resentful. And I think that maybe there will be a part of me that always craves more. But that's just like me, you know? And I can't, Judy's just going to Judy.

Judy's Judying. She's going to Judy and Abby's going to Abby. Yeah, Abby's going to Abby. I still, I'm a person who craves more connection. And that's okay too. I think both things can be true at the same time. I think there's a distinction here. We hear this all the time.

And what we hear from Catherine is she says, I find it so hard to not hold on to how they have treated me in the past with resentment. So I think there's two buckets of people who are dealing with this. One is I'm looking back in my life and seeing freshly for the first time that I was not treated the way I should have been. And now it's hard for me to be in live relationship with you knowing that this unexcavated treatment that we have never talked about is always there. And then we have this whole second group of people where there's active mistreatment crossing of boundaries in the live right now. And that's a second bucket. We're going to have Nedra Twab on soon to talk about that whole phenomenon.

But I think with Catherine, I just want to say that I get it. It comes from a really real place. There's almost a sense of justice that our lives and our personhood demands to be, wait, I'm looking back on this and I see that this was candidly fucked up. But now I'm in a relationship with you that doesn't acknowledge, that doesn't on earth, that doesn't deal with that. And it's somehow I am complicit in my own mistreatment by not unearthing that or not testifying to it. So does it feel like you're abandoning your old self, your little self, if you let it go?

Yeah. I think that the reason a lot of us are getting to this point in our lives is we're just beginning to understand boundaries. We're just beginning to understand what we will accept and what we won't. And then we look back in our lives and say, the people that are closest to me are the people that I have accepted the most. shit from. So you want to set like retroactive boundaries. Exactly. But what I want to say to that is like you, we don't need to defend unless it's an active thing right now and that's a separate bucket. We don't need to defend ourselves and we don't need to in some ways punish ourselves for being unable to defend ourselves then because we were children. And the fact that somebody treated us

badly doesn't mean we did anything wrong. And it's almost like a self-flagellation that happens now when we are uncomfortable because of the way people treated us in the past, like we have to make it right for ourselves. But that's not on us. That's on the other person to make it right if they choose to and many of them will not. So it's the freedom to be like, yeah, Joe and Sally, they didn't do right. And also, that's not my problem. What's happening right now is deciding what relationship I want with the limitations of who these people are. And can it be a satisfying situation for me? And that I don't need to carry this book bag of burden just because it was handed to me when I was young. I can put

it down and try to have whatever a relationship feels warm to me now if it does. It's cognitive dissonance because we're like, I love you. This is lovely. But yet, I keep looking back and seeing how fucked up that was. That's not ours to carry. That's theirs to carry. And I bet they're thinking the same thing. Yeah.

But that's their bag to carry. You don't have to live in the cognitive dissonance. You can live right now because you don't have to get that retroactive justice for yourself. Yeah. It's good. I think there can be a letting. go and a forgiveness of the past when we remember. I was reading this article recently that brought up the

idea of presentism, which is presentism is the idea of applying what we know now and who we are now to past situations. So what that means is I look at like, I think of myself and what I know now about boundaries and what I know about like healthy relationships and even my parents know. now about boundaries and healthy relationships and mental health and all the things. And I take who everything I know now and I look back at my life when I was 10. And I'm like, why the hell didn't this happen and this happen and this happen and this happen? Because I'm taking my consciousness now and applying it back then. And there's like, sweet Jesus, I hope that my children in 30 years will not apply their consciousness then to me right now. Because I hope 30 years from now.

that I even have like, I know a lot more and I can understand more about interpersonal relationships and I know more about the world. But now I actually am doing the best I can with what I know. So sometimes people are doing the best they can with what they know and it's still not good enough for your future self because you know more. It's also sometimes not good enough for your present self. Right. Yeah, yeah. Yeah. That's a big quagmire that everybody has to figure out. But that little idea helps me of presentism of not applying the same consciousness retroactively. Yeah. And expecting that everything should have happened the way it would now.

Yeah. That's so hard to do. I bet a lot of parents are like, I did the best that I could. That's what they mean. You're just different now. Yeah, they just mean like, I think I was doing the best I could. And the thing under the thing that I think is the reason that this type of question and this type of feeling is so pernicious is that what she says is how they've affected me. So when we get to this stage in

our lives and we have them as much as self-awareness, it's not just that they did that thing back then. It's because what they did back then is so inside of us that we can see it in our own actions, in our own automatic responses to things in the way that we are parenting our kids. And that makes us pissed. Yes. That's why parents are so triggered. Because the thing in them is the thing in you that you are most allergic to. Yeah. I just always view it as like a football player carrying the ball. I'm like my parents were given a set of circumstances on the field.

And they really did carry the ball. They carried the ball as far as they could. And they carried what for them was a dramatic drive down the field. Yeah, that's right. Now, my job, I know that I have shit in me that is going to affect my kids and I wish it weren't. And all I'm going to do is carry the ball as far as I can down the field. And then I know that my kids will have the same. But when they finish their play, it is going to look wildly different than my parents.

Yes. Just because we're all just doing the best that we can. And what you've just said allows us to take the power in a situation where we didn't get or receive the kind of love and attention that we needed back then. Because if we are playing out these scripts in so many ways, like all of us do that we have our parents in us, that's something that we can proactively do to figure out, okay, where am I going to make sure that I don't pass this on to my kids? Yeah, that's where therapy is. But you don't. I don't know a ton about the sports. But I imagine that you don't spend your down going back to your parents down. And

and like rerunning their, their plays over and over. Like, you stay in your heart. Yeah. This show is brought to you by Alma. When I first tried to find a therapist, it felt like a scavenger hunt with no map, pages of names, long wait lists, voicemails that never got returned.

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And a couple of honest things here. I talk to the three of you all day long. I ask you questions and you answer me back. We are in conversation all the time because I listen to your podcast and you are in my head and thank you for that. Another thing, I just want you to tell me I'm doing a good job. I have four children, seven and under, and it's a lot. and if I could ever hear it from you guys that I'm doing a good job, it would mean the world to me. Oh, Lexi.

I am a person that words of affirmation is my jam. Glennon is not as much. Lexi, you're doing an incredible job for children under the age of seven. The fact that you even knew to remember numbers, to dial numbers. She knows how old they are. She knows how many of them they are. Well, the numbers to the pod squad. She knows phone numbers.

To the voicemail to dial in, to call and leave this voicemail. Jesus, crushing it. Get out of here. I get this. I mean, going back to the beginning of this episode, when I sit in that little room and those women tell me that I'm doing a good job just by breathing and that I am fine. And that, Lexi, sometimes when I think about those teachers, like, I get scared. they're going to leave. Like, I get terrified that they're going to leave because I need for them

to tell me that I'm okay. And I actually was thinking about that this morning. And I thought, I wonder if that's how the Pod Squad feels about us. That's like a bold thing to say and consider, but it made me feel really good and important because it made me feel like maybe that's all that they need is to just hear us say we are here and it's hard for us too and we love you and you are are crushing it. And if it's really hard for you, if like life and love and marriage and work and losing and all of it's really hard for you, that doesn't mean you're doing anything wrong. In fact, Lexi, that probably means you're doing it right because people who are doing what I would call life right, which means that you're just showing up again and again and trying and failing and

flailing and trying again are often the people for whom life is the hardest. Yeah. Lexi, we love you. We think that. actually there's nobody better on the entire freaking earth than Lexi. Right? I'll go ahead and say it. I'll go ahead and say it. Go ahead. You're the best in the whole earth.

You're the best in the world, Lexi. Lexi, you're doing a beautiful job. And it's like in school when they said if someone asks a question, it means the rest of the class of the same question. Yeah. I think we should go ahead and extrapolate from Lexi that everybody needs to know they're doing great. And I would just like to say, I was listening to a podcast this morning about historically our roles. And I firmly believe that 50 years, 100 years from now, they're going to look back on this generation of women and be like, what in the actual fuck? Like we are at this intersection of having it all, of having the careers, of having the education, of having the whatever.

And we are doing more than has ever been done before. Yeah. You know what? we all did 100 years ago, farmed. The kids farmed. We farmed. Husbands farmed. There weren't dance classes.

Nobody was taking anybody to school. Nobody was making sure they got tutored on Saturday. No one was making origami. Cutting summer camps were not a thing. Summer camps. This was everybody, they woke up, they farmed, they went to sleep. Nobody talked about what they felt. No.

There was an essay writing. class for college admissions and also your 50 hour a week job. And also, did you remember avocados? Because it's a super fucking food. Nobody was doing that shit. Okay. So this is what I want to say, Lexi. Historically, people will look back on you. There will be statues of Lexi. That's fucking right. Thank God we stopped that horrendous experiment we were doing that just eviscerated all the women. Yeah. That's right. That's it. And with that, with statue and honor to Lexi, we end. We will see you next time. If you come back on, we can do hard things. Pour one out for buddy. Bye.

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