We Can Do Hard Things with Glennon Doyle - 278. The Power of Child-Free Women with Ruby Warrington

Episode Date: February 6, 2024

Ruby Warrington joins us to discuss the often overlooked experiences of women who do not have children - by choice or circumstance. How the deeply ingrained belief that womanhood is synonymous with motherhood can be a tool to suppress women's sexuality and autonomy.  The reasons women may choose to be child-free – and the myriad ways women can define their lives and identities outside of motherhood; and  Why we need community and conversation for everyone on the motherhood spectrum. For the episode referenced by our Pod Squader, check out: 44. Gabrielle Union: Infertility, Bonus Parents & Free Families. About Ruby:  Ruby Warrington is a British-born author, editor, podcaster, and the founder of Numinous Books. She is the author of Women Without Kids: The Revolutionary Rise of an Unsung Sisterhood. Recognized as a true thought leader, Ruby has the unique ability to identify issues that are destined to become part of the cultural narrative. Her previous books include Material Girl, Mystical World; Sober Curious; and The Sober Curious Reset, and her work has been featured in global outlets, including the New York Times, The Guardian, and Good Morning America. She lives in Miami. IG: @rubywarrington To learn more about listener data and our privacy practices visit: https://www.audacyinc.com/privacy-policy Learn more about your ad choices. Visit https://podcastchoices.com/adchoices

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That I'm gonna read right now because I think it's so beautiful It's a little bit long But it's important. I believe you. Thank you. Hi, Glenn and Abby and Amanda. I've been thinking about writing this message for a while, but listening to your episode with Gabrielle Union served as the great old kick in the butt I needed to speak my own heart and vulnerable truth. I'm always terrified of speaking out in female-centered spaces about how isolating it can

feel to be a woman who has chosen not to have children. I'm worried that I'll offend someone or that I'll hurt someone because they may be on their own journey towards parenthood that's filled with devastating obstacles that are really fucking hard, but realizing that I don't want that path has also been really fucking hard. Listening to Gabrielle talk about the shame that came with knowing she wasn't doing this thing that everyone expected her to do. Damn, I felt that. But I felt it in a distinctly different way

that ultimately convinced me that speaking this truth has value too. Being child-free by choice has meant that I don't feel shame because my body is broken or failing at this thing it's supposed to do. Instead, I feel shame because I must be broken since I don't even want it in the first place. Society has tangled the ideals of womanhood and motherhood so close together that I can't find professional development spaces that talk about work-life balance when life doesn't include children. I watch TV in movies that show a woman start the story

saying she doesn't want children, and then she's changed her mind by the end. Dr. Christina Yang being the one badass exception that I know of. Grace Anatomy! God, you love a great shout out. Strangers have told me that I'll never know real love. My in-laws think I hate children,

and my mother tells me that I shouldn't talk about not wanting children, because that might make people who do have children feel bad about their choice. When I approached my doctor to tell her I wanted to get my tubes tied, I had to spend over 30 minutes defending this choice before she was willing to do it.

And I'm confident that she only relented because I assured her that if I changed my mind, I won't. I would always have adopting anyway. The world doesn't trust that I know my truth about not wanting kids. I guess the main reason I'm writing is on the off chance that there's someone else out there like me who feels like you aren't allowed to speak up about what it means to be a woman who doesn't want children and what it means to connect with your femininity without the part that most everyone else talks about. It wasn't until after getting my tubes tied that I felt like my body fit me.

That I felt like I could be proud of this body. And it wasn't until after I felt like this female body fit me that I was able to face my binge eating disorder head on. It wasn't until after my surgery that I could begin to take the steps to better manage my depression. This choice isn't right for everyone, but I think sometimes it's nice to hear this choice

validated by others. In this week's episode, I noticed that a few times, Abby mentioned that some women don't have children by choice. It meant the world to me because it's rare that you hear anyone say that. So thank you for validating my space in this world. And if there's ever the right time or the right topic, it would be lovely to hear from others who have journeyed through life as a woman electing not to have children.

With love and apologies for the long message. Liz. This episode is for Liz. Yeah. Today we have Ruby Warrington, of course we do. After that email, Ruby Warrington is a British-born author, editor, podcaster, and the founder of Numinous Books. She is the author of Women Without Kids,

the revolutionary rise of an unsung sisterhood. Ruby has the unique ability to identify issues that are destined to become part of the cultural narrative. That is true. Her previous books include Material Girl, Mystical World, Sober Curious, y'all. Ruby Warrington coined the phrase sober curious. Yes, she did. That's so freaking crazy. Yep.

I felt like we were born with that word. We were not. And the sober curious reset and her work has been featured in global outlets, including The New York Times, The Guardian, and Good Morning America. She lives in Miami. Ruby, thank you for waiting through that long introduction, and thank you for all of your work in the world. We're so grateful that you're here. I am so grateful to be here and to have this space to speak on behalf of all of the women out there like Liz.

I think you read it, the subtitle for my book, Women Without Kids, is the revolutionary rise of an unsung sisterhood. And that feeling, that sensation of there being an unsung sisterhood of women who don't have children, whether it's by choice or by circumstance was one of the motivating factors behind me wanting to write this book. As somebody like Liz who always knew that motherhood was not the path for me, I had always felt like I'm the only one. I am an anomaly, there must be something wrong with me. Women are biologically wired to not only procreate,

but to desire to procreate. This is what I was raised to believe as all girl children are. And so it was only really when I sort of reached my early 40s and honestly began looking ahead to menopause and contemplating what the end of my reproductive years might look like for me. And realizing in that moment, I have no regrets. There is no panic button being pressed in my uterus going, it's now or never you've

got to do this thing. That this peace around, this has always been the right path for me, descended. And I realized, again, looking around at the other women in my life, wait a minute, I know so many women without kids. Where have you been? Where have the spaces for us to talk about this path be? Where have the spaces for us to valorize each other to discuss what it means to live without children? What it might mean for us in our elder years? Where are those spaces? Those spaces do not exist.

This episode is decidedly for the Liz's and the Ruby's of the world, for sure. And I also think it would be a mistake to not mention that it feels, you talk about the motherhood spectrum in your book. And I would love to talk about that because it feels very similar to the gender spectrum or the sexuality spectrum where we understand that not just we understand that not just for the benefit of those that are far left and far right on that spectrum, understanding that spectrum liberates every single person on it, I have two biological children. And reading your book felt liberating and validating to me to find myself on that spectrum also because

it's like if you don't have biological children, you're on one side of the binary. If you do, you're on the other. And if you do, all of these things are expected of you. And if you're not a woman who wants to play with your kid for 1900 hours with Legos on the floor, then you're not a real mother either. So I just want to introduce this whole thing as liberating and validating to everyone wherever you are, that this framework is also for you. Yeah.

Talk to us about that, about the difference between what we have now as a mommy binary. Yeah. And you are suggesting that motherhood is more of a spectrum than a binary. Just speak to us in that language because we as queer women feel strongly about that framing. Well, it's really interesting. The last episode of the show that I listened to was with Angela Chen, who was speaking about asexuality and so much of what she was talking about

in terms of this spectrum around even something as seemingly kind of niche as asexuality really dovetails with how I talk about the motherhood spectrum. And again, Amanda, I'm so happy that you shared that the book resonated with you. I really wanted to include mothers who, and I'm just going to say it, sometimes maybe wish they didn't have kids in this conversation too, because that I think is almost one of the biggest taboos of all. The idea that somebody who is a mother could express on any level. And you know, sometimes this kind of sucks, and sometimes I wonder what my life would have been like if I didn't pursue this.

I mean, talk about verbatim. The book is for anyone who identifies as a woman without kids, including women who are mothers who want to stay connected to the woman that they are without their kids. And so the motherhood spectrum actually came out of my work with my last book, Sober Curious, which is about presenting a much less black and white approach to problem drinking. I present in so be curious that all drinking can be problem drinking. Drinking comes with some very problematic side effects, regardless of the level at which you're drinking.

It was giving people permission who didn't identify as alcoholics. The permission to question, is this really serving me? That was where I had done a lot of this work before, and I kind of then started just applying that mindset to this idea of mothering. People of all genders are indoctrinated with the idea that womanhood is synonymous with motherhood.

This is our biological imperative. Whereas through the lens of the motherhood spectrum, I say or suggest, because it's an idea, right? It's an idea that anyone individual, regardless of their gender, their desire and aptitude and experience of parenthood will exist on a spectrum that is dependent on multiple external and internal factors, everything from a person's basic personality to the family and the culture that they were raised into, the religious beliefs that they were brought up onto, their

financial status, to their relationship status, to their ambitions and career goals, to their creative aptitude, etc. etc. All of these factors are, of course, going to influence how a person feels about taking on the indelible lifelong role of parenting and the responsibility of bringing a whole new human being into the world who you will be responsible for on some level for the rest of your life. A role by the way, which given the level of gender disparity that still exists in the role of in the realm of child rearing is going to impact every single aspect of a woman's life and still women are told but this is just what you do. Oh and also they're told you nobody ever feels ready for it and also they're told you regret it if you

don't do it and also we're told you'll just it'll just come naturally to you. I mean to me when I stood back and looked at it through this spectrum lens, all of that just seemed very, well, minimizing of women's true experiences, desires, capacities, et cetera, at the very least. So I give people permission to really investigate where am I orienting on this spectrum at this stage in my life. Because within that comes the permission to, well, I might, if I met someone I really wanted,

I could really see that happening with, then I might change and might change my mind. And that's okay. Yeah, presenting the spectrum right upfront, I wanted it to just be really permission giving for people to really pursue whatever path is right for them by first and foremost, gathering whatever information they might need to really assess what is the right thing,

what is right for me in this life, at this time, in this life. Can we talk about, just to make all the lizzes, I just want to give them a moment of just to make all the Liz's, just I just wanna give them a moment of recognition. Can we just talk about all of the shit? I overindexed in women out of my closest seven women. Four of them are women without children. So I hear all the things that people say to them or what culture suggests to them that are hilarious.

For example, one of my best friends, Liz Gilbert, is always being told that she'll never have a fulfilled life. She'll never know love. If you saw this woman's life, like I cannot, she'll send me texts that are like, oh, I'm still, you know, waiting for joy. And she's like on a boat in the career. Like it's just-

The way to find my purpose over here. I'm still, I just, Liz Gilbert, she can't find a fucking purpose, not a toddler. It's like, so can you talk to us about all of the bullshit that people say, you know, starting with you'll die alone as if any of us really just die collectively. Like it's just nobody, we're all gonna fucking die alone. Right? So can you talk to us about all of the things?

I mean, remember with Chelsea Handler's show the other night, she goes, for fuck's sake, I hope I die alone. I don't want to trove of the people around me. Or like, it's selfish, it's unnatural. Nobody wanted you. What are all of these things that people assume about women without children? Yeah, you've touched on lots of them there, but yes, this idea that women without kids, especially women who have chosen not to have children, and I think we could probably get

a bit into the difference between choice and circumstances. Yes, please. But where does a choice end and where do sort of circumstances begin? Statistically, the largest cohort of women who do not have children are defined as childless by circumstance, meaning had they met a different life partner, had they been in a different place in their career, in time had various different circumstances aligned,

they may well have had children. It wasn't as cut and dried as the choice that people like Liz and I have made, which is just an affirmative no, kind of pretty much out the gate. Particularly women who, for whom it is, an affirmative no, this is not for me. We are seen as selfish, career obsessed, narcissistic, uncaring, unfeeling, unloving, potentially defective in some way, damaged, whether it be emotionally or otherwise. I touched on this and Liz touched on it in her letter as well, this idea of just this underlying feeling of if this is my truth, there must be something wrong with

me. And all of those projections, I mean, really truly led me to believe that perhaps there's something biologically wrong with me hormonally. I'm not wired right, you know, which is a kind of a heavy truth or heavy belief to carry around about oneself. And it's actually given me a huge amount of empathy for queer people who have been told there is something wrong with you for feeling the way you do or for living in the body that you do or experiencing your body in the way that you do. And so, yeah, then some of the very unfeeling, sometimes well-meaning, but very thoughtless comments are things like, have you really thought about this? I mean, honestly, when I speak to most women with our kids, it's one of the things that we have thought about incessantly since we started getting our period.

Oh my God. Yes, you can rest assured we've thought about this deeply. Have you really thought about this, the implication being you're ignorant or deluded or you don't know yourself or something, who will look after you when you're old? That's one of the biggest ones and one that still holds a lot of fear for me actually,

that question, who will of fear for me, actually, that question, who will be there for me? Maybe not while I'm actually leaving this mortal coil, but who will be there in those LD years? Which I think is a question that we need to look at on a societal level, because actually, Kimless Elders is one of the fastest growing demographics in the United States. And for as long as the birth rate continues to decline, there will continue to be more and more elders who do not have the conveniently placed biological kin to just kind of, you know, pick up the sort of caregiving

needs as needed. But one of the biggest ones as well is, you will regret this. Maybe not now, but at some point in your life, you will regret not. Maybe not now, but at some point in your life, you will regret not doing this thing. And there's an incredible sociologist called, Orna Donut. She has a really, truly revolutionary book

called, Regretting Motherhood, which reports on the findings of a study that she conducted among women who actively wanted to talk about the fact that they did regret having had children. And she describes that comment, you will regret this as a politicised use of emotion. In that it is incredibly manipulative and coercive and ultimately whether it is meant and intentioned in a well-meaning way, ultimately it is designed to get whoever is the recipient

of that message back with the Pro Creative program. Yes. And this is not to even, you know, to speak to the, again, sort of the cohort who are childless, not by choice, who have experienced fertility issues and who are still walking this path. I think just there's a lot of sympathy, but not so much empathy. Yes. And that sympathy can be, I think, quite pitying as well.

And so even interwoven with that is just this sense of, I have failed. Again, there is something wrong with me. My body failed me. I'm not going to be able to fulfill this role or live up to people's expectations. So again, a different shade of shame, but still very much there. Yeah, I bet there's some like, don't cry for me, Argentina energy and that. I just feel like for me, I suddenly when I'm listening to you and I've read your whole book and I've listened to all the things I get, what you're doing.

I think I was thinking of you as a thought leader and like that is the truth. But I'm also feeling deeply in this was thinking of you as a thought leader and like that is the truth, but I'm also feeling deeply in this moment grateful for you as a community leader because when I think about the parallels between what you're doing with motherhood and what we have experienced with sexuality, being queer is also a bunch of people telling you that you're unnatural and that you're broken

and that you're doing it wrong. And it's secretly believing, no, no, no, you don't cry for me, Argentina. Like, my life's better than you're secretly believing that. I'm like, I'm nailing it. Like, you just don't get it because you're only reading the menu that somebody gave you. But when you go off menu is where all the good stuff is. So what I'm saying is I don't know that I would have found the peace and power that I have if there wasn't a queer community saying, oh no, no, we know what you're hearing. We've got you. We know you've thought it through. We know you're not unnatural. We know that you're living your best life. And that's what mothers who are child-free by choice or not need is like a place to fall.

And that is like, oh no, no, we've got you, we know they don't get it. And it comes from a bigger place because like you write about the same people who say, are you gonna regret that? It's obnoxious and they shouldn't. And it is very possible that it is coming from a very real place of concern because we are all swimming in the same sea that you point

out we have tethered our search for meaning and fulfillment to our capacity to have children. And so that area has been monopolized, you know, as you say, purpose, family, love, legacy has been monopolized by you know, as you say purpose, family, love, legacy, has been monopolized by this role of mother. And so when we are saying, are you sure, we are revealing ourselves as saying, are you sure that you don't wanna have purpose and family and love and legacy? And so the work that you're doing to decouple those and say, no, all of these things

are possible, look wider, that is liberating to all of us to do that. So what is the liberatory work that you see in helping to like unshackle those things together for people who choose to not be mothers, people who involuntarily are not mothers, and people who choose to not be mothers, people who involuntarily are not mothers, and people who are mothers who really need to be untrackled from that as well. Right. True.

There's one thing I just wanna say that pinged for me while you were speaking before, Glennon. I actually think that, and it's something that's kind of come up for me more and more since the book came out and I've been having conversations about it. I actually think that this idea that womanhood is synonymous with motherhood is on some levels homophobic because it is saying that only engaging with our sexuality

as women for the purpose of procreation is valid. All non-procreative sex is invalid, right? Which immediately wipes out all same sex kind of relationships, etc. etc. So that's something that's really kind of landed for me as well. So a little aside there, but I think quite interesting. In terms of the liberation work, I mean, goodness, I actually think that it sort of seems obvious, but actually it's not because we haven't spoken about it in this way. It sort of seems obvious, but actually it's not because we haven't spoken about it in this way. The work of decoupling womanhood from motherhood specifically has really been at the heart of the women's liberation movement. It is at the center of empowering or enabling or creating

societies that make space for women to at the very least get an education and be financially independent. That's kind of what it comes down to. But very least, get an education and be financially independent. That's kind of what it comes down to. But guess what? Getting an education and being financially independent is going to take a huge amount of time, energy and resource that might otherwise have been put into having children. It's not like people haven't been picking apart the myth of having it all and who having it all is actually available to and who not and what tends to fall through the cracks when we try and do it all.

So I think liberating women from the idea that you have to. Well yes you can get an education and you can have a career and you can be financially independent but you must also be a mother. Is a huge piece of it because so many women find themselves completely burnt out and also are unable to enjoy their mothering when they're also feeling the pressure to, well, I must also have a career and I must also be earning the same as my partner. I have a partner, et cetera, et cetera. So that I think is a hugely liberatory piece

of this conversation, you know? Yeah, I think, I'm just sitting here listening to you all and everything you're saying. And I just keep asking myself why why are we like this? You know and I I'm like really very smart way for the religious institutions and the nations of our world

To have as many people as they possibly can for taxpayer dollars and for money at, you know, in the churches and mosques and temples of the world. And not to mention consumers. Exactly. More people than more consumers. I mean, yeah. But it's also such a patriarchal tool to convince women that sex is only for procreation. For a million reasons. Because inherent in that is the shaming of women

for sex being about just fucking feeling good. Like that's shaming. Pleasure, right? I mean, Ruby, when you were citing somebody and you said that the idea that human sex drive is not just about procreation is so easy to debunk because you said if you were born on a desert island, you would eat and drink and masturbate, but you would not obsess

about wanting children, right? You wouldn't. It's not inherent. You'd want to climax. You'd figure that out pretty early, but like, you wouldn't be registering at Baby's R Us. That's something else. That's programmed into us. It's patriarchal. Yeah, I was speaking to an evolutionary biologist named Jillian Ragsdale, who was debunking the idea that there is a maternal urge.

This is one of the things that always made me question, there's got to be something wrong with me. This concept of baby fever, of just a certain age, something kicks in and people would describe it as a feeling, a yearning, a hunger, something that, I don't know, sounded physical the way they were describing it. And it was just this desire to, I've got to have a child.

When I walk past strollers, my ovaries start pulsing. I've never felt that. I've never felt that, what's going on. Jillian Ragsdale was essentially saying that this is socially programmed conditioning that is very much tied to what you were just touching on, Amanda, which is around in order for me to be accepted, to belong, to be a valid, upstanding member of society, then I must become a mother. So Gilliam was kind of saying that actually from a biological perspective, all human beings need is a sex drive. They just need to be having enough sex, enough procreative sex,

and eventually more babies will come along. And at that point, when there are infants in the mix, then there is a biological instinct to care for and protect those small, defenseless human beings. But the desire to actually engage with sex in order to have a child to procreate, it's not essential for our survival and evolution as a species, is what she was saying, which to me felt incredibly revolutionary. I mean, I'd never heard someone express that before, but it makes so much sense. It sure does.

And yes, Abby, you were talking about where does patriarchy originate? Well, in the, you know, these, the religious organized religions, which diify one male God figure who doles out the rules about how we live and what is morally right and wrong. And these religions took over from earth-based religions that were much more feminine, much more cyclical, much more humane in many ways. And so, yes, I mean, written into so many religious doctrines is be fruitful and multiply, which viewed from the perspective of, well, so many things that we're seeing unfolding in the world, it's tribalism. It's saying we need more of us so that we can dominate them. That's exactly right.

That's exactly right. We need more of us so we can dominate them. Go forth and multiply. It just means make more soldiers. Be fruitful and multiply. Make more soldiers for us. Make more people like us. Yes, let's all be quiverful so we can beat the other people. Yeah. And it's not to say that these decisions,

because it is possible to both very much want children or very much not want children and be able to look at the structures and the society we live in in an intellectually honest way. So if you're sitting there and you love your kid and you don't think it's because God or the president told you to have it, great. That's awesome.

We believe you. But it does seem to follow like if A, then B, if B, then C that we have followed into this trap. If women's biological imperative is to have children, we let that immediately go, okay, woman to biological imperative to have children. Then we immediately go from B to C, which is having the children means C, taking on this whole host of roles. So whereas like having a baby is not a political decision, much like wanting to fall in love and have a long-term

monogamous relationship is not a political decision. And yet, when you enter the institution of motherhood or the institution of marriage, you are undoubtedly entering into a very real social political structure that is defined by these written unwritten rules, which we saw just this time, like 40 years of mothers in the workplace advances,

erased in nine months by the pandemic. Why? Because if A, then B, then C. If you are a mother, you're having the baby. If you are having the baby, your ass is home, homeschooling them for this year because we have jumped that math so easily that that is the structure that we're in.

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I will tell you, I am on one side of the spectrum, the motherhood spectrum. I am for sure in me on the mommy side. It is clear. What I wanted, it's even in the days that I'm ripping out my hair. I also, what I find so interesting is, when somebody is on another side of the spectrum, being angry at that person or having to defend, like, I can be on one side of the mom spectrum

and respect the hell and love the person at the other side of the spectrum. I don't feel like I need to defend my straight people don't threaten you. No, I don't feel threatened by straight people. I mean, I feel like maybe they want some more information, but like, but you know what I mean, Ruby? It is amazing to me, you know, if a friend talks about her reasons not to have a child, people get upset who have children.

Some. Yeah, some people, a lot of them. Yeah. So like what do you... A lot of them. Why? Do you think that too? Why does it feel so threatening? Is it because we've built our entire worldview on this one thing and it feels like people

are taking a Jenga piece out if they question it? I also just want to iterate, having a strong desire to have children, craving to be a parent, wanting to have children, even if that's a social construct, doesn't mean that it's not very, very real for you, the person who's experiencing that. Yeah. So it's not like anybody's been duped into thinking they want children. No, to have that desire, depending where you are on the motherhood spectrum, is very

real for the people who feel that. So I'm not trying to say that everyone's been hoodwinked into having kids, right? Because obviously, huge swathes of the population find deep purpose and fulfillment in parenthood and could not imagine life without that dimension. But the piece about, you know, people who are very critical, I mean, I think first and foremost, we just, and this isn't one of our human traits in a way, we do have a deep fear of the other or anything that has been fear of the other or anything that has been presented as the other. And so fear can come out as attacks, obviously, and defensiveness of choices that are in alignment with what the in-group is telling us we should do

in the sense of like we don't want to be seen as one of the others. So the more strongly we align with the in-group, then the safer we are. And I also do think that sometimes, and this is me, I do think that sometimes when those attacks are very vicious or shaming, they could potentially reflect resentment, a feeling of being disenfranchised in the role of mother, a feeling of maybe even regretting having had children, feelings of envy about the freedom that the childless person is. But those feelings being so disallowed that even the person who's experiencing those feelings

is probably not fully conscious of them. And so it comes out as well, look at you selfish bitch, look at you, you irresponsible, immature human being. It's like they're protecting their own sense of motherhood. They're like, how dare you like offend me in my choice. God forbid that I have any desire to live my life more like that, God forbid, because that would make me a terrible mother and a terrible human.

Yeah, and if you're suffering and you feel like all you've got is that you did the right thing, then all you can do when someone shows up not suffering, all you can do to justify your own suffering is say, yeah, but I'm gonna win at the end. Because you look like you're winning right now. But like, in the end, I won't be alone. Time will come.

Time will come. I will get my internal reward. You will meet your maker one day. I wanna say just one something really quick, cause I do think that there are a lot of queer women who listen to this podcast, a lot of older queer women who back in the day when they were in quotes, child bearing years, there wasn't as much access

to medical gestational surrogacy, IVF for queer women, older women now, who may have wanted to have children. And I fall in a category of, I don't have biological children of my own, and we have three children together. And I just wanna shout out to all the queer folks who have organized their family structures

in different ways. And some of those women who may have wanted children and chose not to because the world wasn't set up for them in a way that they can feel confident going into getting IVF or whatnot. There's just so many people on this motherhood spectrum that I just, I want to specifically shout out to those women. I see you and I know in some ways how that might have felt and we're here.

Yeah, thank you. Because in the introduction, I specifically shout out also this book is also, for anybody who's sexuality or gender expression has written them out of the heteronormative idea about what it means to start a family. Beautiful. Yeah.

It feels like when I go to out to eat with Abby sometimes and I get the menu and I look at the menu and I'm like, here are my options. So I order something from the menu. And then Abby does some shit where she's like, actually, can you do that but add that? And then can you take away that? And it's like, not there, it wasn't there. But then she gets her shit and it's so much better. And it annoys me,

because I thought we were just supposed to stay on the menu. I feel like that's how women feel, which I understand. Like that's how women feel when somebody else goes off the menu and they have this delicious life slash meal in front of them. And now it's too late for me, because I already ordered. So all I can think of to do is say, you didn't follow the rules. What she says is, can I have yours? Can I?

Right. But Ruby, that's what I love about your work. It's like, no, no, no, it's this idea that the world does give us a menu, whether it's about sexuality, gender, motherhood, whatever. But there's specific reasons why the choices are there. And they're not because they serve the orderer. They're because they serve the order of things. It's most convenient for the kitchen.

The kitchen can maximize profits a lot of the time by offering these set dishes. Yes, exactly. Exactly. But I think that these off-menu options have only been available to women. And I'm speaking very, very broadly here because there are so many women

for whom this is not still available. And there are so many people for whom this was not available. Speaking very generally, these off-menu options have only been available to women in a kind of mainstream sense in the West at least, only like 50 years realistically since the advent of like, you know, reliable, effective birth control, legal abortion, changing attitudes about women's roles in society,

it's still incredibly new if we're thinking about the original many having been written, you know, really at the sort of beginning of our modern civilization. So I think this is why another reason there's still so much tension around this. It's really only gen X women, like our generation of women, with a very first generation to have been raised from birth, from babyhood, from girlhood, with the message, you can do, be, have whatever you want in your life. And here I am. I've lived that.

I have lived that thank you, thank you, for mothers, for enabling me to have these choices. And yet when I make those choices, I am demonized. You know? And that just felt like, no, no, no, we need to stop doing that. We need to recognize that we have fought very hard for women to have these choices and make it okay for us to make those choices. Let's talk about all the reasons, because first of all, there shouldn't be a need to suggest reasons at all. But it's cool and fun to like think about all the different reasons that people might not want to have kids,

which is helpful when you think about the reasons we're given as you hate children, your witches, you are broken. Other than those reasons we're given. Other than those. Right. Well, you did write that this is all tied with witches, like not witches, actual Wiccan witches. I mean, I'm talking about witch hunts. Yeah. Like the witch being a woman in total control of herself. Right. Right. So can talk to us about reasons. One being Ruby, you say in your book, it just isn't, it's like me being queer or like you being a mother feels as fundamentally

part of yourself as your skin does. There's a chapter called Sexual Evolution where I really get into the whole piece about female sexuality and how tied female sexuality especially has been to procreation. And it was the hardest chapter to write and I was editing it right up until I literally had to press code like, yes, okay, you can take it now, put the book out, fine, done, but also not quite done. And there's a term I found myself using in interviews after the book came out, which is a reproductive, which is why I was so fascinated by your interview on

asexuality, because to me, it just sort of came out. I was like, I would say I'm just a reproductive, like asexual, I just have no, there's just no desire to reproduce. Like there's no desire for me to engage with my sexuality in a reproductive capacity. And that, I like that language because it just to me, and I'm not saying that anybody else has to relate to that by the way. For me, it works because it just takes away

the emotional charge of like childless or child free. It's more like, no, this is just how I'm made. This is how I'm made. So there's that, which is fundamentally, it's just a part of who I am. And I think that honestly probably does apply to a fairly small percentage of society. Although I don't know, again, time will tell, I think,

as the decades roll by and we see what attitudes are like among younger generations who continue to have fewer and fewer children. And then there are, yes, wanting to prioritize my career and to pursue a creative career, I can take a risk on not having a day job. I didn't start a 401k until last year and I'm 47. And I've been able to take that risk because I haven't had any other dependence. I've only really had to worry about me, you know? Selfish, bitch. Amazing. So wanting to pursue a creative career. Also, another thing that's personal to me that

a lot of other people have reflected back, yeah, that's me too. I'm very introverted as in like, I need a lot of time on my own. I'm a very sensitive person and I absorb a lot from my environment and my surroundings. And for me, having a lot of total solitude alone time, quiet time is incredibly important to my mental and emotional well-being. I mean, yeah, having kids reduces one's capacity for solitude and alone time. I just think I've always known that about myself.

These are very personal reasons to me, but I'm sort of saying giving everyone an invitation to sort of, well, what would your reasons be? Then there are some potentially more painful reasons. My parents separated when I was one. My dad never lived with us. And I think I had an intuition that having a child puts a credible strain on a relationship. When I met my husband, who I've been with for 25 years, I was 22. He was such a stabilizing force in my life at that time. And I knew I wanted to be with him forever. And I think I've just always not trusted that bringing a child into our relationship

wouldn't fundamentally alter the dynamic between us and put our relationship at risk. So I've chosen to prioritize my relationship with my connection with him. That's another reason there's personal to me. Something I had never, honestly, never seen discussed was how a person's experience of being mothered impacts their feelings about becoming a mother. This was so beautiful. And so I do talk at length in the book about my relationship with my mum and the dynamic between us. But I also did a research interview question now. And I had about 200 people reply to that. And so many, like a large percentage of women who replied to that expressed that a challenging relationship in some way with their

mother had made them question, do I want to recreate that relationship with another human being in my life? So these are more painful reasons which again are just never completely brushed under the carpet, never even considered actually, and then of course there are bigger sort of like societal issues well especially in the United States, no free health care, no free childcare, no paper turn to leave. These sorts of issues, of course,

are going to impact people's very practical decision-making around, do I have the capacity to take on this role? I loved that. It was so brave and beautiful the way you talk about that some people just decide to stop the family emotional inheritance. I think you described it as sometimes the family has suffered too much

to carry on another generation. And that there is a way of like to engage in the work of healing trauma without getting another generation involved is so valorous. I just thought that was so brave and beautiful to talk about. So a decision can be to stop the family

emotional inheritance, but then also to consider stopping the collective emotional inheritance. We don't take care of mothers and families, right? We patriarchal parenting and families are horseshit. And women and children have suffered. So in one way, there is a decision making that is about stopping suffering. Right. And I think I'd always been very aware of this, you know, not having children means

something is ending with me. And that kind of sounds sort of sad and lonely and very final. But I was like, what about if we flip back? And we can consider what might be ending with me, what I might have the opportunity by not bringing another generation of my family lineage into the world, what might I have an opportunity to focus instead of focusing my nurturing energies on that human being, what if I refocus those energies on myself and decided that I was going to dedicate my life to healing whatever emotional traumas I might have inherited, healing whatever dysfunctional patterning might have been handed down to me and my family, and in some way, using that healing to benefit the lives of others, which

sounds a little bit kind of high-minded and worthy. But why the hell not? Why the hell not? No, it doesn't. And then I think, yes, when we see, so the other piece, when I first started thinking about this subject, my background is in journalism, so the other piece, when I first started thinking about this subject, you know, my background is in journalism. And so I immediately have this tendency to kind of zoom out and just look at the lay

of the land. And I noticed very quickly that the birth rate, meaning the number of children that individual women are having is decreasing rapidly in every single country around the world. Even countries where the population is still growing, women are having far fewer children individually. And I was like, something very interesting is happening here in terms of the evolution of womankind.

What are we seeing here? And I sort of posit just as a more sort of like an idea, like an intellectual idea. What if we are on some level enacting a no, no more, unless working conditions from others are improved. We are saying no to this, which yeah, there is a fantastic book by a feminist organizer called Jenny Brown, specifically called Birth Strike, where she kind of gets into that idea of like,

this is what we're witnessing is a birth strike. And that, again, we haven't really touched on the climate piece, but there is a cohort, particularly among sort of Gen Zs and younger millennials, who I describe as childless by climate change, people who are just incredibly who I describe as childless by climate change, people who are just incredibly worried, torn up about what it means to bring a child onto a planet that is dying, that we're being told is dying. And that politicians and corporations

seem to have very, very little interest in really addressing in a meaningful way. It makes you really wonder that if the question is even wrong. Okay, so why don't you want kids? You suggest the question should be, what are the potential life paths I could pursue? So like the question for men, and I think we should go beyond even what they're for men, like I'm not trying to create a binary there,

but for boys and men, it is not, do you want kids or not? That's not the main defining question post to you in your life. It's more like, what are the potential life paths I could pursue? And even when you say that you've always had an affirmative no, which I love that concept of an affirmative no. It's not just like, I'm like, oh,

depressedly opting out. It's like, yay to my no, yay. Yay, no. It's a hell yes to the no. Hell no. Exactly. Hell no. Yes, though. Hell yes to hell no. Exactly, hell no.

But I also even feel like that on some level is unfair. It's like, let's get to the point where some people are opting in and they can explain to us why. But with the climate, the actual climate and then the climate for women and families in this country, maybe we should all be explaining ourselves for why we're opting in, not why we're opting out.

I interviewed a guy called Carter Dillard. He has an organization called the Fair Start Foundation, and he's all about getting people to ask that question. What needs to be in place in order for me to ensure the fair start in life? As things currently stand, deep, there's such a deep inequity, obviously globally, that mean still probably the vast majority of children being born are not being given a fair start. Yes.

He's a human rights lawyer, but one of his core tenets is encouraging people to have smaller families and to really consider investing more in the children that exist before we pressure or think about bringing more people, as many people as possible, into the mix. And this work goes directly against demographers and captains of industry on the other side who are talking very sort of scaremongering rhetoric about the dangers of population collapse and the dangers of aging societies, et cetera, et cetera.

Of course. On a personal level, one of my favorite conversations as research for this book was with one of my best friends who underwent, I think, three or four pretty traumatic rounds of IVF to have her twins. And because we don't ask that question, I had never thought to ask it. But we are close enough that I could say to her,

why did you do that? Why? Please explain to me why that was like, why you put yourself through that, you know? Because watching as her friend, I was obviously incredibly supportive of her and incredibly thrilled for her when she was able to have her babies, but still I couldn't understand why, how she could go through that. And hearing her talk about her reasons for so desperately wanting to have a family helped me get even more clarity about my reasons for not wanting a family.

And just kind of, I don't know, it created space for both of us to have our reasons, to have pursued the past that we have and to respect each other's choices. And there is so much misunderstanding, actually on both sides, I think, if we're talking about sides, if we're talking about a binary, across the spectrum, let's say. And I think these are actually questions

that are really about at the heart of what it means to be a woman, what it means to be a human. Human, yeah. At one of the launch events for the book, a woman raised her hand at the very end and she said, you know, I'm so happy to be here. She's like, I realize this is something I think about every day of my life. I never talk about it.

And she's like, because I didn't realize I needed to or I could. And yet, these conversations, this question, should I have a child or not, is really at the heart of a human's life and will determine the trajectory of that life going forward. So not to be entered into lightly. And in fact, at this juncture in our human story, I think more important than ever to be really conscious about the humans we're bringing through and why and what resources they're gonna have and how we're gonna really ensure

that they have the best start and the best life possible. Beautiful. That conversation with your dear friend who had her twins by IVF was so beautiful to me because what I recall about that is one of the things she said is that I have so much overflowing love that I have always known that I wanted to pour that into a child. And your reflection after that was so beautiful because you talked about, you talked about, oh, that overflowing love that she has, that she has decided and always knew was to be directed for a child. I have that for my ideas, this overflowing love that I have for that. And I just wonder what kind of world we would live in. If the question to every child that we see is not,

how many kids do you want to have? Or what are you going to be when you grow up? Or what's your job going to be? But what are you going to pour your love into in this life? And if it was wide, your love into in this life. And if it was wide, like lots of people would have babies and lots of people would pour their love into books and service and making art. But like that would assume that all choices are valid and noble and natural to pour your love into. And also that we need as humans, multiple expressions of creativity and our love and our generativity. And it's like reflecting on that conversation with her.

I've always felt like, oh God, I'm one of those lucky weirdos who just feels completely fulfilled by my career and by my work. And I do consider myself incredibly fortunate to have been able to pursue a career and to actually make a living from it, doing something that I feel so passionate about. And as I already touched on, the reason I've been able to pursue this is partly because I don't have a child. And I do think that more women leaders in business, in politics, in the arts,

will begin to shift the power balance in the world. It just will. The more women who are able to pour, not just their love, but their time, their energy, their other resources, their intelligence, into pursuits that might impact public life, the better, actually. And that helps you understand why the backlash

against that happening is so strong. Because the shaming and the cultural ideas of you feeling less than if you're not a mother are what are keeping more women who would choose not to do that and enter the public sphere from doing it, which makes it a worthwhile effort for the patriarchy to continue poisoning us with those ideas. One of the things I'm so interested about in you as a person, besides this particular issue, is a connection to me from your work with sober curious to this work. It's interesting to me

how drinking is the one thing you have to explain that you're this work. It's interesting to me how drinking is like the one thing you have to explain that you're not doing. It's like, I don't have to be at a party, explain why I'm not on cocaine. I don't have to explain like, why aren't you using heroin? Like, but I constantly have to explain why I'm not drinking in the same way, which proves what a cultural imperative it is.

In the same way why my friends who don't have kids have to constantly explain why they don't have kids, which illuminates why it's how it's such a cultural imperative. Ruby? Yes. What else are there? What are you going to, what are you, is there anything else that you're thinking of? Because what's interesting about your work is there's this thread in it that is not even

about the subject necessarily. It's about something that you've figured out. Oh, that's so weird how we all do that thing. And it's more interesting that we're expected to. Are there any other things that you're looking at down the road that you're like, huh, that's interesting that that's expected of us. And it's more interesting to think about why.

I love this question. Well, first of all, thank you for picking up on that. Because when I pitched this book, nobody wanted to buy it because all the publishers we spoke to said, but Ruby's audience is so peculiar. They won't be interested in a book on this subject from her. But for me, they're talking about a very similar life path. This is about choosing or having chosen for you a life path that will mean you're existing in the outgroup

that you're going against the cultural imperative. And that is a lonely path. It is an alienating path and we need community on that path. And so that for me is the similarity between these two books without giving too much away. I knew it. I knew it. The subject I am interested in as a 47-year-old woman is when does a person become an old person and become irrelevant? I just, I don't know, there's something around ageism. This is it. It's ageism. Ageism is the only ism that will impact every single human being.

And yet it flies consistently under the radar and is completely accepted and normalized in so many invisible and visible ways. And so I'm very interested in getting into that whole. Could you do it very quickly? Because we're right there. And I really just need you to like wrap that up in the next three to four years.

Wrap it up. I just want to be a charge. I just want to be involved in whatever group that Ruby is creating. A bunch of sober, old, child-free women. Like, yes, please sign me up for that commune. Ruby. Okay. I do think to that piece about like, who will look after you when you're old?

I also, I really do believe that we're going to come up with so many interesting creative solutions for supporting each other, living together, living alongside each other, pooling our resources. My faith in humanity is, takes a beating most days, but I do have faith in our ingenuity. And yeah, I believe that we'll figure it out. All right, here's page 77 of Ruby's book, Women Without Kids, it says, and if our unconventional path draws criticism,

this in turn means committing to radical self-love and establishing one's own code of ethics while seeking fulfillment and a sense of purpose outside of the tidy parameters of what is deemed socially acceptable. This process will be familiar to anybody who has ever experienced being othered or even persecuted, whether due to race, religion, sexuality, gender expression, disability, or class, or for being single, for getting a divorce, for having an abortion, or for being

a less than perfectly selfless mom. All experiences that require a person, first and foremost, to uncover and advocate for who we are and what we need, no matter what our family, our culture, or society at large has to say about it. Ruby. Ruby, keep going Ruby. Thank you.

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