We Can Do Hard Things with Glennon Doyle - Cameron Esposito: How to Save Your Damn Self

Episode Date: May 17, 2022

Glennon and Abby welcome their dear friend Cameron Esposito to discuss: 1. Cameron’s brutiful relationship with her body–and how it feels playing a sexy TV role. 2. The way Cameron grew up using h...umor as self-defense and to become socially “valuable”–and the moment she wondered if comedy was no longer working for her.  3. Why Cameron says she’s able to cry for the first time in 35 years.  4. How as a gender-nonconforming queer kid, Cameron felt “overnoticed”–and how being a comedian allows her to “hide in plain sight." 5. The rule Cameron and Glennon made to help them become better at friendship. CW: eating disorders About Cameron: Cameron Esposito is a queer, gender non-conforming standup comic, actor, writer and host. As a standup, Cameron has headlined tours and festivals nationwide and internationally. As an actor and host, Cameron has been seen across television and film, appearing in big budget films and beloved Sundance indies, and on Netflix, HBO, NBC, ABC, CBS, FOX, Starz, Comedy Central, Logo, TBS, IFC, E! and Cartoon Network. Cameron's podcast, Queery, features hour long conversations with some of the brightest luminaries in the LGBTQ+ community, including Emmy and Grammy winning performers, Olympians, politicians, even an astronaut. Cameron's writing has been published by The New York Times, Vulture/New York Magazine, Vanity Fair, Bon Appetit, Refinery29 and more. Cameron's first book, Save Yourself, was an instant bestseller and is available in paperback March of 2022. Next up, Cameron is set to recur on the ABC series A Million Little Things and appear in HBOMax's Moonshot. Cameron lives in Los Angeles and likes to swim. TW: @cameronesposito IG: @cameronesposito To learn more about listener data and our privacy practices visit: https://www.audacyinc.com/privacy-policy Learn more about your ad choices. Visit https://podcastchoices.com/adchoices

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Starting point is 00:00:47 We can do hard things podcast. Good job babe. That was really good. I should let you do it more. Go you don't. Okay, sister's not here today, but the person who is here is very, very exciting to Abby and me. Yes. Because the person who's here today is an IRL friend. Yes, in real life for those who don't know that. Yes, and in real life friend. So we've been talking a lot about Abby and I's new commitment to figuring out what friendship is and trying to have it. And the person who's here today is one of those people who is one of our guinea pigs,
Starting point is 00:01:28 our friendship guinea pigs. Oh, the one we're trying friendship out with. We are trying friendship out. That's correct, this person. Yes. So this person means a whole lot to us. But what I want to tell you is my first experience with our guest today who is Cameron Esposito
Starting point is 00:01:44 all stopped being so dramatically grouchic. It's so cute when you do that. I know, because I get so excited. You know, I'm like really nervous right now. My hands are setting as usual. And I just want to tell this story because it's a little bit gross,
Starting point is 00:01:56 but just it's important to me that I tell it. So, can't wait. We were on the together tour a long time ago. Someone said this comedian Cameron Esposito is coming and you all are gonna freak out because she's totally amazing and we were like, okay, that's great. Cameron comes on this stage and for these events, we were all sitting on the stage together.
Starting point is 00:02:18 Okay, so we were all lined up in couches behind Cameron who was on the front of the stage. Cameron started to do her set, which is a fancy word, comedians use, which I've learned since I've been friends with Cameron. Okay? Cameron started doing Cameron set.
Starting point is 00:02:32 And you'll remember this night, I actually peed in my pants on a stage. Oh, that's what we're talking about. Yes. So I could not, real pee on a couch in front of 3,000 people. I wonder how that must feel with Cameron. It was terrifying. And then I had to figure out, could not, real pee on a couch in front of 3,000 people. I wonder how that must feel for camera. It was terrifying. And then I had to figure out like,
Starting point is 00:02:49 what am I gonna do? I'm just gonna carry on which I did. And I know it sounds weird, but it doesn't sound weird to people who have had babies. It just happens. Yeah, I know judgments, when cameras around. I think that Cameron's the funniest person I've ever met in my life.
Starting point is 00:03:03 She's freaking hilarious. Yes, she's freaking hilarious. Yes, she's kind of like one of those profit comedians who says all the true things. She's like a priest comedian, which we'll find out. How about we talk to her since she's sitting here and we could just be saying these things to her? That's right. Cameron Esposito is a queer, gender non-conforming, stand-up comic, actor, writer, and host. As a stand-up, Cameron has headlined tours and festivals nationwide and internationally. As an actor and host, Cameron has been seen across television and film appearing in big budget
Starting point is 00:03:31 films and beloved Sundance Indies and on a million streamers. Cameron hosts a popular podcast, Query, with some of the brightest luminaries in the LGBTQ plus community. Her first book, Save Yourself, which I freaking love, was an instant bestseller and is available in paperback now. And very excitingly, Cameron is now on the ABC series, A Million Little Things. So exciting. Listen.
Starting point is 00:04:01 She's got tattoo. I think we should talk to her now. Let's start with this. So Cameron, as you say, right now, right now today, your true bio is that you are a big gay adult. Yes, okay. Okay. Well, sort of small. Yes, small big adult. Yeah.
Starting point is 00:04:21 Right. Yes. Okay. But I think I'm Abby's height, but that's not true. And we found this out in the green room once because I have my arm-run Abby and I turned, there was a mirror and I said, literally, I think I said, and we're the same size. I don't know why that was the summary of our hangout. We've been hanging out before the show.
Starting point is 00:04:42 I turned and I said, and we're the same size. I think I am nine inches shorter than Abby anyway, but just. Yeah, you are. You are. I just, I mean, I hate to break this to you, but you're actually my size. But I've got big dog energy. Yeah, you don't. Yeah, that's right. Anyway, you do. You have big dog energy, which is why you feel like you look like a big dog. But what you really look like, Cameron, is the big gay adult. That's what we're trying to do. Right, right. Big gay adult.
Starting point is 00:05:09 But you started your life not as a big gay adult, but as a little gay kid. Correct? Yeah, absolutely. Okay. I'm so glad we're starting by talking about this because for me, you know, a lot of stuff that I've been thinking about recently is also as a little gay kid, but also like a gender non-conforming kid. And even when I wrote, because some of this is from Savior's Self, that qualification
Starting point is 00:05:33 as a little gay kid, but I think a lot of what I was talking about was gender. When I wrote this book, which was just a few years ago, that was not something that was on my mind the same way. I feel like when I came out 20 years ago, I was like, okay, well, first the word that I used was gay, and then eventually I was like lesbian, and then eventually I was like queer, and I still use all of those words. But I think the other thing that was going on when I was a little kid is that there's something thing that was going on when I was a little kid is that there's something going on with me that I notice and that other people have always noticed that is not quite a woman and also a woman. I feel like gender fluid is a word that's making sense to me right
Starting point is 00:06:23 now, but a lot of what I was writing about when I was writing about being a little gay kid is that I was like Robin Hood for every Halloween and I collected kens and I was only ever Joseph when my sisters and I were doing the activity play and when I was in fourth grade I auditioned for the male lead of the school play grade I auditioned for the male lead of the school play and my school called home to ask my parents what they wanted to do about this big problem. And my parents said, was she good? They were like, yeah, I mean obviously, obviously you're talented. So they let me do it, but the school wouldn't let there be just me.
Starting point is 00:07:05 So I had to split the performances with a guy. There was like a guy that they, so they were like, we'll do this, but not totally. Fair real. That's so weird. But all of those were childhood experiences. And I think a lot of what I've been thinking about over the last, even just a couple of weeks or months as things have been coming out in Florida and Texas about children and preventing teachers from talking to children about the actual world. I've never been different than this and I don't even know what this is,
Starting point is 00:07:44 but I've never been different than this, and I don't even know what this is, but I've never been different than this. I think it's so, and if anybody wants to see some hilarious educational IG videos, go to Cameron Espazito's IG page, because thank you, because these last weeks have been really weird in our community, and it's almost like part of my consciousness has to forget that Florida exists
Starting point is 00:08:09 and that Texas exists in order to like live. I don't need to tell you to this because you've recently lived in Florida and I have not, but those are our people. I mean, I travel so much for work and I have traveled for, I've been doing this job for 20 years in some capacity. And I often think that there's this weird,
Starting point is 00:08:30 especially like in the last couple of election cycles, there's this like coastal elites versus like people that live everywhere else. And I will just tell you, queer people are everywhere. Yeah, I don't need to tell you, but for any of the listeners that might not know this because maybe your job doesn't put you in every situation. Creepy people are everywhere and like, can't leave.
Starting point is 00:08:50 Also, sometimes don't want to leave. That's where that person lives. And so I think when I think about these folks, it's like, yeah, we're there. Like that's us, you know? So it's interesting because you're talking about your childhood and knowing that there was something you were that was unique and Maybe not as common in everyone else You call it left of masculine
Starting point is 00:09:17 You you are often being mistaken for a boy, but it was also largely about your body being mistaken for a boy, but it was also largely about your body. Just your body, right? Like people commenting about your body because I think it's interesting that you're talking about like, I'm doing a lot of this right now. Stuff I wrote and untamed that doesn't exactly feel right anymore. And lots of it's about gender and sexuality. Wait, what am I talking about? Because when I read your book, it's all in there.
Starting point is 00:09:43 I'm like, wait, is she talking about sexuality right now? Wait, is she talking about gender? Wait, is she just talking about body dysmorphia that anybody can have because people who live in women's bodies are just open for debate? Everybody can just comment on your body. Yeah. That's what happened to you, right?
Starting point is 00:09:59 Yeah, and I mean, you know, because we've talked about this as human friends, I have a very complicated relationship with my bod. I mean, I think there's a couple different things going on. And some of this I'm actually experiencing in like such a hot way because I'm on a network TV drama right now. So I've done everything in comedy, but when you're doing something in comedy,
Starting point is 00:10:22 you can kind of be like, I'm joking. You know, even if you're like the love interest, you know what I mean? It's like, yeah, we're kissing, but when you're doing something in comedy, you can kind of be like, I'm joking. You know, even if you're like the love interest, you know what I mean? It's like, yeah, we're kissing, but like, you know, take it or leave it. Yeah, it's not as lovable. You can have like an armor, but you have to be earnest in acting. Exactly. And so on a drama, kind of a million little things is a drama. My character's supposed to be like hot enough that Grace Park's character.
Starting point is 00:10:51 Somebody I've been watching on TV since Battlesburg, Lactica, and I think is amazing. My character has to be hot enough that Grace Park's character would want to slam them up against a wall for one of those classic TV makeouts that we all know so much about. Oh my god. And my shirt has to come off and all this stuff.
Starting point is 00:11:09 And I had to believe that that is true, which has been like a really wild thing because I think even, I don't even think we're used to seeing somebody that looks like me on TV period. Yes. But then especially, that's not undercut by joking around. Yes. Yes. And then the thing I've got going on with my body, which is that like I have a, you know, kind of a angular and sharp face and giant sticking up hair. And then I also have like of like, um, de-cup breasts and, uh, some Italian-ness going on. What does that mean?
Starting point is 00:11:50 I think it's like, I'm actually supposed to live in like, my, because I'm, I think I, I think I'm actually supposed to live in like, Rome and be like, airing laundry out the window like, like, uh-huh, and all my children are supposed to be around it. Like body wise, I'm supposed to be soft. Oh, God. I want to be hard. Yes. I like to do a billion pushups to be like,
Starting point is 00:12:14 please. God damn it. I totally get this. Make my arms the way I want my arms to be. You know, I 100% get this. Yeah. And so this body stuff has been happening my whole life. I think maybe a reduction eventually could be something that happens,
Starting point is 00:12:31 but I'm not really looking to have top surgery. I'm not really looking to be on hormones or anything like that right now, which some people are an awesome red for them. It's not really with something I'm looking to pursue. So it's just kind of like, I feel like a confusing presence, but there's also no change or finish line that's going to unconfused people. Right. Nothing's coming down the pike. That's going to make people unconfused. I said this in like Instagram recently, but it's like, I feel like a centaur. You know, it's like, there's like half of this half of that. And it's just like, here you go, accept this.
Starting point is 00:13:06 Oh my gosh. Do you feel, and this is, I'm gonna drive people nuts with this question, but I just can't stop asking it. I'm so badly trying to understand what is gender. Is it even a thing? Like I can't find it in me. Okay, I can't find it in me anywhere.
Starting point is 00:13:23 I don't feel like a woman. I don't feel like a man. Like I don't know it in me. Okay, I can't find it in me anywhere. I don't feel like a woman. I don't feel like a man. Like, I don't know what it means. It just seems like something that was, like a role that was assigned to me and I was like, I can do this. I'm an A plus student. Like, I can be the feminist femme that ever femme.
Starting point is 00:13:39 But I have never, not once. And I just don't add to this. I have never looked at a picture of myself ever. And like, that, that looks like me. Oh, wow. Never. Oh, Glen, and all that makes my little, I want to, that's so into. Oh, I have actually. Tell me, tell me what that feels like. And like, what, what, what has gender to you? And is it in yours? Is it just on you? Are you performing it? Is it intrinsic? What is it? Such a great series of questions.
Starting point is 00:14:09 Definitely on, right? Definitely, definitely on because I have been cultured as a woman. So I have a woman's experience, but then also definitely in. And that's what I think. I will say there's something like, oh, I mean, I hope this is an othering, but like, you and I, Glenin, as I'm talking to you right now, we relate to each other in one way. And then Abby and I, we relate to each other in a different way.
Starting point is 00:14:32 Like totally across a room, Abby and I are going to clock each other and like do, there's two options you can do like a head tilt or you can do like a bro hug. We're going to like kind of tap each other on the. The bro hug. We're gonna like kind of tap each other on the bro hug. It's so interesting. It's so interesting. But I'm never gonna touch Abby's ribs, you know? But if I hug you, I'm gonna like hug you
Starting point is 00:14:51 in a totally different way. Yeah, oh my gosh. Because maybe Abby and I are like the same parts of a magnet. And you and I are on a spectrum, maybe not so similar. Also, I mean, we're so different. I don't think of it as like mask and femme.
Starting point is 00:15:09 I don't think of it. It's not like there's like two, right? But I do think that there is something going on because I can place people who are like me. So there's something going on. I don't, maybe it's limiting, but for me, it's like, I want there to be some stuff that feels like me. Otherwise, I feel too floaty in space.
Starting point is 00:15:32 Like when you were asking about pictures, when I see Harry Styles or David Bowie, that looks like me. Okay. Maybe the rest of the world doesn't think that looks like me. I do. I think you're right. I think that looks like me. So what. I think you're right. I think that looks like me.
Starting point is 00:15:46 So what is that? That's still something, right? Like that's who I want to dress like. And in terms of pictures that I've seen that look like me, I actually like to wear makeup. I don't really know how to put it on, but I like to wear makeup, but makeup that like I literally have a makeup artist
Starting point is 00:16:03 that I've worked with for a decade because makeup is a part of my job. And she and I really know each other well. but makeup that like I literally have a makeup artist that I've worked with for a decade because makeup is a part of my job and she and I really know each other well and I've asked her to refer to lipstick as men's lip tint because it just makes me feel more comfortable. Sure. Yeah. I like to have my cheekbones highlighted and well, we'll not highlight it, bronzed. Okay. And I like to have my nose bronzed and it's that stuff. It makes you more angular. And I like to have my eyebrows filled in, which again, is like a way of sort of rebalancing the face. Sure. It's odd to think that a that makeup might make me feel more myself because I do identify as masculine
Starting point is 00:16:45 center, but it does because it's like this sort of glam bowie version. And then I like to have my hair all big and sort of foppish. And I like to wear suits, but I like those suits to be sort of tailored. Yes. I am so, I love, I think it's so cool that you know all of those things that you have figured out how to match your insides with your outsides. You know, because I think when people ask me like, why is your hair always so different? Like when Sarah Paulson talks about playing me, she says one of the things she's excited about is changing like how can anyone change their hair so
Starting point is 00:17:21 much. I think I'm just always trying to figure out what do I look like. Yeah. You know, I think that's really common, really human. I think part of the reason I figured this out is because I've been in like the pressure cooker of having, it's just like part of my job to display. When I first started performing, I was just like in college and I was just doing improv kind of like to survive because I was
Starting point is 00:17:47 closeted and I was at a school where you couldn't come out, you could be kicked out of school for being gay. Catholic school, right? You're in Catholic school. Yeah, yeah. And that I never saw that happen to anybody, but it was literally you were not protected by the non-discrimination policy. There were 4,000 people in my class.
Starting point is 00:18:06 My first girlfriend and I, we eventually went to the commencement ball, the end of senior year sort of college prom together, really worried that we would not be able to graduate. And there were two other gay dude couples that made the same choice to do that. So there were six of us in my class of 4,000. And I also didn't know anybody else in other years at that time that were out. So there were like 12,000 undergrads and there were six of us. and there were six of us. So anyway, comedy was a place that I could be seen for something that felt true, even if all of me couldn't be true.
Starting point is 00:18:56 And I didn't really know that it would eventually lead to like a job being slammed up against the wall. Yeah, I didn't even't even notice like a profession. I'm Jonathan M. Hevar. I'm a podcast producer and someone who likes fancy things. But I grew up working class. My parents were immigrants with factory jobs. And because of that, I think about class a lot. And I want to talk about it. That's what we're doing on my new podcast
Starting point is 00:19:34 Classy. And what did you all eat? You know, trailer food. I was like, girl, we're not doing that anymore. You'll hear from people who told me awkward, embarrassing, and strangely intimate things about what class means to them. She said, you know, for the house cleaner, I hide the tag on the $6 bread. And I just thought, don't you think she knows that you're wealthy? You're hiding the tags from yourself. Classy. A new podcast from Pineapple Street Studios. Available now, wherever you get your podcasts. In Save Yourself, you said somewhere around the same time that my internal shame alarm started going off. I started leading a double life.
Starting point is 00:20:26 I joked instead of crying. I shoved my pain away down and put a joke on top, getting funnier and funnier by the minute. And then you say 11 was the age myself. Hate should became, how do I say that word? Sonsia. Right. I wrote down on my notes, Glen and became believe me.
Starting point is 00:20:42 Abby became a soccer star, Cameron became funny. It's that idea that from 8 to 12, cultural scientists tell us like that's the age where you start to really internalize your formal indoctrination and you start to like split and you become something to survive. Do you feel like that's what happened to you became funny to survive? 100%. Yes. I didn't realize this until just a few years ago, but I think it was pretty badly bullied as a child.
Starting point is 00:21:15 I thought that's how everybody was treated. I had glasses and braces and a bull cut and I was something weird was going on with my gender and I was gaved and I was and I had crossed eyes this child. There was a lot going on and so I think I just made the joke first. To sort of be like I know what you're going to say. Well here's an even funnier spin, right? And also to sort of have value to people. When I wasn't able to play the game of being sort of a girl that might be valuable for some other stuff that women are valued for, that's all garbage,
Starting point is 00:21:54 by the way. It is, but I think this should exist. It's true. But it was another way of making myself valuable as a friend or as a student, those types of things. So yeah, I got super funny. And actually, I have in the last couple of years, like really wondered about the long-term viability of that skill set, because I took it to like its end. You know, I was funny, funny, funny, and then I was funny for a living, and then I was having success in that area. and then I was funny for a living and then I was having success in that area
Starting point is 00:22:26 and then I was married and that marriage was ending and it was the first time in my life that I was not... well for a while it was like private so I wasn't able to talk about it on stage and then I... it was really sad. Like I was sadder than I was funny about it. That's actually a good thing because it changed how I make friends and how I use, like overdeveloped that skill. So I never really told anybody the truth about what was going on. I just told them like, here's the saddest thing you've ever heard, but we're all chuckling about it. You know, it broke. My sense of humor broke for a while,
Starting point is 00:23:08 which actually is one of the best things that ever happened to me. That's how we started trying to be friends with each other. I wanted to talk about this. I think it's so important. It was like you and I figured out that like, oh, we just take our trauma and pain and then we spin it up and then we serve it to lots of people. But we don't do the middle step which
Starting point is 00:23:34 other human beings do, which is talk about it with other human beings and have actual friends. Yes. You just perform it. And so we were trying to be like, you've recently reached out to me and said, I'm having feelings and I would like to talk to you about it instead of the internet. Yeah. Like, that was a text. Talk to us about that. This is a rule I have now. It's a rule I made for myself.
Starting point is 00:24:04 And who knows if rules are good, but I actually think this one is pretty good, which is that I don't bring something to the internet or to stage that I haven't told someone else interpersonally. That's good. And I think part of that is, you know, when you do stand up since public speaking,
Starting point is 00:24:19 and I'm sure you get this all the time, too, Glenn. And actually, I even feel like I know how hard this is for you, a little bit just from knowing you. People will talk about public speaking as being the most like, oh my God, I can't believe you do stand up. Like that's so hard. And I'm like, I don't know, different people
Starting point is 00:24:34 have different skills. Some people are a brain surgeon, you know? That's the first thing I'll say. The next thing I'll say is like, that's not hard for me. Like it's not that the skill of standup isn't hard. Any skill is something you can work on over time. But standing up in front of, you know, 20, 200, the largest audience I've ever performed for
Starting point is 00:24:57 is 40,000 people. That is like safe. Exactly. You know, it's much worse. Talk to one person that you have to ever see again. Oh my God. No. Nope.
Starting point is 00:25:12 That is impossible. About to thousands of people that are gonna leave. Great. Easy. Like, yeah, no problem. There's no intimacy there. There's some spiritual intimacy, but it's not something that you're going to have to grow. You know, I'm not going to have to show up and have these people know me. That's right. Oh,
Starting point is 00:25:30 it's correct. I just want to say this thing is I think it's Abby and I were laughing so hard on the street last night. We were walking home from dinner. So that text Cameron told me some of the feeling she was having. I wrote back and said, I don't want to be the annoying meditation person, but I feel like maybe this is how I feel when I'm not meditating at all what you're saying. So have you tried meditating? And then there was a pause in the text. And then Cameron said, well, the thing is I'm in Canada and they don't have that here.
Starting point is 00:26:02 Oh, yes. Did you, did you try the meditating and did it help? Yes, yes, I did. I really appreciated the reminder and yes, it did help. Again, you know, perform a stuff, people will ask what the experience is like and I will say you are on one is on drugs. The way that it affects my adrenaline and my chemicals inside my body
Starting point is 00:26:29 is that I am on an altered state. So like performing kind of makes you just wanna, if you're a certain type of person, perform more. If you're a certain type of person, like everyone on this podcast. Yeah. Just kind of makes you want to perform more. When I was talking about this, it's like,
Starting point is 00:26:45 I had been on this, I know, been working that day, and it's like, the up is so intense. And I think I was trying to stay up. Like, what else can I do? You know, I have a day off, I'm like writing think pieces, I'm like pitching TV show. It's literally like, no, sit down. Yes. Or walk and listen to something. And, you know,
Starting point is 00:27:12 yeah, come down a little bit. But I think once I'm in that state, the last thing I want to do is come down. How is it going for you? The creating more friendships, the reaching out to human beings? How do you feel more tethered to the earth? So when you do that, does it help? What are the challenges? It really does help. I just said this, I'm repeating myself, but it's very hard for me. It's very hard to be known. It's very hard to be open to suggestion if you're a certain type of person. I don't want people to know. I don't have it figured out that feels embarrassing for some reason. We don't know why that is. That's not a healthy reaction to not having it figured out.
Starting point is 00:27:49 And also like, I want to move, I want to move like fast and loose and have sparky flame out relationships and do a completely wild job and fling my body around the country in a plane. That's like what feels normal to me. Chaos feels... Ooh! ...culming. And... Oh, that really hit me. Yeah, did it?
Starting point is 00:28:21 Yeah, that's... Yeah. That's something. Chaos is so... In my experience, chill. Just like a what? Let's go. Yeah, I just feel like I can relax. I'm like, oh, thank God. Finally, the world feels like I feel. Finally, there's not like something I'm not doing or something I could do better. Everything's so impossible that it's like, oh, I can really chill out. Wow. Cool. So anyway, that is what I'm trying to instead have connection and friendship and have the ability to stay, the ability to like
Starting point is 00:29:05 to like not run toward or away, but just to like hang. I'm finding that a lot in my romantic relationship. I'm finding that a lot in having friends that I go back to again and again. I have hobbies. I'm finding that a lot in having hobbies. Give us a few of them because there's an acid at the end of that.
Starting point is 00:29:23 What are the hobbies? I love my hobbies. I run, there's a there's an acid. Oh, yeah. What are the love? I love, I love my hobbies. I run. I have a running partner. Wow. Like that is so bonkers to me. But I have a running partner. I have a running partner I run with.
Starting point is 00:29:35 I have I go swimming at the YMCA that is in my tiny mountain town that I live in outside of Los Angeles. I take dance classes. Wow. Which is really cool and new for me. Like ballet and bar classes, which is so and gender challenging. I was just going to say what outfit do you wear? Great question. I wore like a t-shirt and sort of like, I guess yoga pants. But you know,
Starting point is 00:30:01 when I was a little kid and I took a zillion belly classes, like the boys would wear, they were like black tight pants and a t-shirt. That's what I wear basically. That's what I wear basically. These are all body things. This is interesting. You choose things that get you back into your body. How is it going with like having to take your shirt off on a million little things and being this like confident in your body type person. Like how is that all going for someone who struggled with body dysmorphia and eating and your boobs and all the things?
Starting point is 00:30:36 Like how is the experience of it? Right now I can see you're moving around a lot, you're stretching. Yeah, you're right. These are all body hobbies. We could also talk about theology. That's something else we could talk about in a minute. We're going to other hobbies. But, yeah, I am trying to utilize my body as like a better vehicle for my spirit these days. Yes. For a long time, when I was using my body, it would be like a loan. Like I'm like, I hike in the woods.
Starting point is 00:31:08 No one's there. You know, like that's, oh, interesting. Other people have to be around. Huh, I don't know. Well, I'm experimenting with other people being around. I did play team sports for a lot of years, but then after that, I don't know, but then when Abby was continuing that trajectory, then that was no longer a part of my life. I think I felt like I just didn't want anybody to look at me.
Starting point is 00:31:33 Mm-hmm. Okay. And nobody is looking at you, but I really felt like even if they terminator scan past me, but don't register me, I don't even want that. I really like using my body and I'll really like moving around. I got a ton of energy. I have been challenging myself to be with other people. I don't know anything about bodies or food or whatever. Everyone knows that I'm not an expert on these things. I'm still working on it every minute. But it feels like it must be a move towards health
Starting point is 00:32:02 to be doing them with other people. Because like for eating, I don to be doing them with other people because like for eating I don't like to eat with other people. I don't like to any exercise with other people. Abby always trying to get me to go to these classes. It sounds like the most vulnerable, horrific thing ever. I walk by myself. That's right.
Starting point is 00:32:18 I do yoga by myself. If I'm at a dinner, I'll like not eat and then eat. When I get home, there's something about the isolation of it that feels... Commit, ordered. Yeah. So maybe it's moving in the right direction to be like vulnerably sharing those bodily experiences with other human beings.
Starting point is 00:32:38 That sounds right to me. I also will say to like be working on my strength a little bit more with these things as opposed to limiting food and take because I have had a massive history of disorder eating and that can still rear its head where I think that the solution is eating less, eating different types of foods that are super restrictive. It's just a different way of, for me, of like being in touch with my bod. Because again, it's also not like three hours on a treadmill alone. It's sort of like what the class says we're doing.
Starting point is 00:33:21 That's so good. I don't need to say what we're doing. That's for sure. That's right. I should don't need to say what we're doing. That's for sure. I should never be in charge of what we're doing when it comes to that stuff. I just think it's really interesting talking about the body and gender and how camp, both you and I are a little bit non-conforming, gender wise. But I think it's really interesting because when I think of myself, I think of myself as
Starting point is 00:33:44 an attention seeker, and by hearing you, you've just said that you're kind of like an attention avoider. And this gender thing is something that actually brings me maybe the most attention in my life. Right. So I don't know what the question is. I just wanted to make that point. maybe the most attention in my life. So I don't know what the question is, I just wanted to make that point that like, if you were to have like a lineup of like people, if you're terminator scanning, it's like,
Starting point is 00:34:17 people stop at the confusing one, which is me. Interesting. Yeah, exactly. And I love that. And I love that. And I love that. And I love that. And I love that. And I love that.
Starting point is 00:34:29 For some reason. You love it. You like it. Yeah, except in a women's bathroom, I hate it. I'm like, oh God, I mean, that's so interesting that you like. So this is a thing that I, when it was brought to my attention, I almost broke my brain. One thing that's true is I cry constantly. I cry all the time.
Starting point is 00:34:41 I have a lot of emotions. I only found this out a couple of years ago. Because prior to that, I was allowing zero of them to exit my body. It's in your book. It's in your book that you didn't cry. And so now you cry. I cry all the time. Oh, that's wonderful. Yeah, thank you, my friend. I love what you do. I was so full. Oh, yeah, I basically like never cried one time until I was 35. Wow. And then anyway, I cried constantly. My spouse, Katie, is very gentle, calming energy.
Starting point is 00:35:12 Correct. And well, one thing that will happen sometimes is that if she might hug me, if I don't even know, I'm gonna cry yet, this is true. Sometimes I'm laughing and I'm gonna do a laugh to cry, but I don't know that's gonna happen. But Katie knows that's gonna happen. Oh my God.
Starting point is 00:35:32 And she'll do a little hug on me and it's terrible because it's like, oh no, now this is gonna definitely happen. And I can't believe you noticed. And then something I would say to her when she would do this was don't notice me. She'd like hugged me. I would go, don't notice me. But I would say it frequently,
Starting point is 00:35:52 but I didn't even realize I was saying it. And then she's very noticing. Yes, she is. And so she mentioned this to me one time that I would say don't notice me. And I was like, yeah, I mean, that's it. That's it right there. That's cool.
Starting point is 00:36:10 I feel overnoticed in my life. I feel like for my whole life, I've been overnoticed about being a little kid, people telling me I'm fat. When I was also not fat, being a little kid and my clothes are the wrong thing or getting served, but that feels dangerous, because it feels scary. And I don't know, when's this person gonna find out they've made a mistake and have they made a mistake and all of this.
Starting point is 00:36:37 And so I just feel overnoticed. And I think that's, again, when you think about something like stand up, it's like, okay, fine, you want to see, like, are you to pay? Yeah. Yeah. And I get to be in charge.
Starting point is 00:36:52 And I can pick you out. That's right. Like, it's like, it's a, and it's not a conversation because you don't get to talk back. No, no, yeah, exactly. It's a monologue. Yes. Your part in this is laughing, which is like actually a submissive posture in primate
Starting point is 00:37:06 kingdoms. So, I will, if you want to notice me, come right in here, I will control and dominate you for an hour, and it will be like wizardry, and also kind of spiritual, and you can go home. I find it interesting that I can speak to thousands of people and feel fine about it. I feel like I did your service. I gave you good things, but if I'm sitting in a room with people,
Starting point is 00:37:34 I feel like a burden to them. I'm like, I feel like I'm so sorry that you have to listen to me talk. I'm always ending conversations quickly because I assume the other person just wants to leave. Like, I feel like, I don't, I'm on a stage because we've already decided what the transaction is and you can't say you got into this accidentally. But if I'm 100% okay. Okay. No, I love this. I'm just thinking about how I've never, never one time. Well, I've been experimenting with this recently,
Starting point is 00:38:08 but until about a month ago, never has a therapist ended a session with me. It's always like, I'm like looking at the clock and I'm like, all right, well, I think it's time to wrap. Like, I like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm I remember our first phone conversation ever.
Starting point is 00:38:27 Oh my God. We were on for five seconds. I was like, okay, so it's a good day, Bob, are you having a good day? She said, yeah, okay, well, this has been great. And I was like, wait, you're not going to do the thing where you're just like too nervous to keep talking. Like we're going to have a proper conversation here. Like you're not just going to get off and be like, oh, okay, that first call's over with.
Starting point is 00:38:46 Like, no, I wanna actually talk to you. But isn't that weird to say like, to believe that people want to talk to you like you're not a burden? Like in order to have a friend or be a friend, you kind of have to decide that you're not a burden. Huh. Yeah, and the best way that I have found that out
Starting point is 00:39:03 is that I now call people when I have something that I'd like to speak with them about or text them, that has created a situation where other people do that in my direction. Wow. Who would you like it? And so I know it's not terrible. And instead I realize that it is someone trusting me and it feels very, it's like an honor, you know? When you call me or text me, I feel it is an honor. Yes, and you have also called and texted me.
Starting point is 00:39:36 And so I don't, for me, when it's going out, vomit, I want to die. But because I've experimented with that and other people have done it back, I know how it actually feels to receive it. Which is like, oh, it's like amazing. Yeah. Oh, this person wants me in their life. Yeah. Yeah.
Starting point is 00:40:01 Yeah, and then he feel a little bit tethered to the earth. Yeah, it's friends. That's what friends. It's friendship. It's this friendship I do. It's just confusing to me as gender. OK. OK.
Starting point is 00:40:11 MUSIC I want to talk about you, when you were little, you wanted to become a priest, but of course, you couldn't become a priest because of the vagina, right? You almost said you couldn't become a cream. A cream. There was a little bit of a pretty and slip in there. You almost wanted to be a cream. You almost said you couldn't be a cream.
Starting point is 00:40:44 Anyway. And so you became a comic where you could hide in plain sight, right? They like to say the best place to hide is in plain sight. So you decided to get on a stage so you could hide there. That's right. Exactly. So no one would notice the real you. Okay. Yeah.
Starting point is 00:41:00 I just think it's so interesting and cool. And I think you're a priest. You are a priest. Yeah. The way you use stages and the way you use your Instagram. I mean, everyone has to follow Cameron Instagram. I think Cameron is probably my favorite follow. Seriously. I mean, I've watched your videos. Cover and over. It's aversive and it's everything comedy should be, it doesn't feel like I'm being educated, but I am. And then during COVID, Cameron signed up for a bunch of college divinity classes.
Starting point is 00:41:29 Is this the case? Can you talk about the situation with you and faith and learning and teaching and the fact that you just didn't get the hell out and get as far as the way as you could? I love this conversation so much. First, I want to say this because when you're saying hiding in plain sight, that is so thank you for giving me that language. That's so beautiful. And it's like, yes, I have recently been realizing it's like I created like a little avatar, like a little fighter. Like in the video game of life, I created like a little fighter who
Starting point is 00:41:57 wears motorcycle jacket and holds a microphone to kind of go out in front of me. Like there's the real me. And then there's like this little, there's this, it's a dissociative like protection of my little self. And it's actually very sweet. Totally. Thinking about like taking care of myself like that, especially at a young age, but then still now, like where there's somebody being like, I got you actually, like you hang out back there,
Starting point is 00:42:25 I got this one and then that high-haired stand-up comic goes out ahead into the world and takes care of my more tender self. Very sweet. I am hoping that other people know that I'm hoping you to know that that we didn't a little soft guy and I think you do. For a long time, I was hoping you wouldn't. Anyway. Don't notice me. But yeah, don't notice me. We did a little soft guy, and I think you do. For a long time, I was hoping you wouldn't. Anyway.
Starting point is 00:42:46 Don't notice me. Yeah, don't notice me. But anyway. Yeah, I was raised Catholic and I loved it. My sisters were raised Catholic couldn't give two shits. I loved it. I thought that Jesus Christ had some cool stuff to say. And I thought that philosophically, going in the temple, flipping tables, I thought that
Starting point is 00:43:09 was awesome. And I was really into a sort of leftist, socialist revolutionary Jesus who also is accepted by certain communities, like the Jesuit community, for instance. So I went to Jesuit College and that's what I thought I was getting into when I became a theology major was like, we're gonna like fuck some shit up. That's what I thought, can't be. I thought I was joining the people who were ready to fuck some shit up. I didn't know I was joining the people who wanted to keep building the shit.
Starting point is 00:43:44 Exactly. You go, oh, you're the shit factory? Oh, no. This was all colonial. I didn't realize. I thought this was something else. It's like you're going to join PETA and you end up at the cattle ranchers convinced. Exactly. Exactly. Yeah. I started reading with the church had to say about women first. I like even before I realized I was queer, I started reading with the church said about women, not the Bible, like the teaching, the stamped teaching that comes from the Pope and his friends. And I was like, oh, this is nothing that I agree with.
Starting point is 00:44:23 And then also the spotlight papers were happening at that same time. I lived in Boston. That's when the Catholic Church sex abuse scandal was really being talked about for the first time. And I was just like, none of this. And I left. Like I like left hard. I was truly like, I believe in all this.
Starting point is 00:44:39 And then the next day I was like, actually just as a correction to myself, none of it. I believe in none of it. And I'll leave it here. And then that's how I operated for a long time. However, stand up, as I've been saying, has always been spiritual for me. There's a feeling when I'm performing that I am actually connected to the audience, like, physically connected through breath. We're all like regulating our heartbeats together in a room like that. One time I was performing at a show and I felt like, this is in the book, but I was like, we're trees. We're all trees connected through a root system.
Starting point is 00:45:16 And then afterwards, after the show, I hadn't said this on stage, Reggie Watts, who's a the band leader for the James Corden show, was like, hey man, I liked that set, but what I love the best is how you were all trees connected through the earth. He said that and I hadn't spoken about it. So my point is something spiritual is happening. Yes, it is. It's just...
Starting point is 00:45:34 Yes, it is. But in the pandemic, when everybody was baking bread, what I was doing was reaching out to like eight different master's level theology programs, looking at their course descriptions, writing to specific professors and being like, can I take your classes? Because I'm thinking about a career change.
Starting point is 00:45:56 Maybe I'd like to be a non-catholic priest. Almost all of these professors said, yes, because when a standup comic says, I'd like to take, I think that they were just genuinely curious. Yes, of course. Like, what are you talking about, sure. So I took all these classes and one of the most impactful for me,
Starting point is 00:46:21 I took them at a bunch of different institutions on a bunch of different topics. And one of them was at my college, at Boston College, where when they called me, they used to call me and say, like, do you wanna give, do you wanna donate to the school? And very early, I said, I will donate to Boston College when you apologize for the way that you treated me and the other queer students that went there and continued to go there.
Starting point is 00:46:50 And they never called me against this. So they must have ticked off like, uh, non-complying over there. She'll never, she's never going to donate. She's the gay grievances. Exactly. Exactly. But I went back to BC because the head of the theology department, when I was a student there, who was somebody I really loved and was close to, was teaching a class called
Starting point is 00:47:16 literally just forgiveness. Whoa. And so I wrote to him and I was like, hey, I don't know if you remember me, you know, I was your student 20 years ago. Can I take this class? And he was like, I just was listening to you on NPR. I followed your career. I like think you're awesome.
Starting point is 00:47:32 And please come take the class. And I did take it. And we're still in touch and are no good friends. And I will say that like, it didn't bring me back into a place of being like the church rules. But what it did do is make, it's helped me realize that like, these are all just people. And as an adult with all of my faculties and like the ability to support myself financially, you know, I was a dependent child when that was happening to me in college. And even, I wouldn't have even gone and gotten like therapy on campus or anything like that because it was all not for me. And that is a terrible thing to do to a young
Starting point is 00:48:20 person. Yes, it is. But like as an adult going back, I think I just got to see that these are people who are doing the best and sometimes somebody's best is pretty bad. And it's a bummer for someone to not have the experience and exposure to be able to like really live the word that they say that they're living. That sucks for them. For them. What a huge bummer for that person. That's beautiful.
Starting point is 00:48:55 Oh, I mean, I got to get there somehow. I just don't have it yet in my heart to forgive them. For not just my experience, but like for your experience and for all the fucking millions of us, millions of us, probably billions of us in the history of humanity that has suffered at the hand of this just like we're here as a community to support you, to love you, and also you don't get to be a part of this community if you're this or that or this or that. It's just so hypocritical to me. So I love that that maybe one day I could find forgiveness in my heart.
Starting point is 00:49:38 Yeah, there's a freedom to it. We've just interviewed Ocean Walling and he was talking about how if you're carrying the weight of that constantly, then it's like, what do you get to do that's creative in your life? And so many people have marked from marginalized groups have talked about that. This, like the opportunity cost of the resistance of that constantly is that you're always directionally moving against something is that you're always directionally moving against something, because you're still just living your life in reaction to the man instead of choosing how you get to live your
Starting point is 00:50:12 one beautiful, impreaseless life. So I think that is probably what forgiveness is. It's not like I feel good about you anymore. I'm sick of holding you. You don't deserve it. I love that. Right? Definitely. I think that. Right? Definitely. I think that for me, I was consumed by hatred. So I mean, congrats to those people, places, and things that I hated because they got so much of my time and energy. Yes.
Starting point is 00:50:40 That's such a win for them. This is an evolving thing for me. I don't think I've hit some finish line here, but it is that thing of like, what is forgiveness? Is it like, I send you on your way sweetly, or is it just like, oh, you're wrong. Oh, well, you know, like is it, is like forgiveness maybe really lightness?
Starting point is 00:51:04 Yeah, lightness. It's putting something down It's directional to me and so I will no longer live that way towards you. Like I'm gonna move onward I bet you had to be very healing to also take the class from the place that Probably brought so many of these ceilings inside of you. I find that interesting too Yeah, because we all wish we could find healing separate from the thing and it's very annoying So many of these ceilings inside of you. I find that interesting too. Yeah. Because we all wish we could find healing separate from the thing and it's very annoying that sometimes it's like when somebody gets a snake bite and then the antidote to the bite has to have some of the poison from the bite in it to heal it.
Starting point is 00:51:41 That's how I feel about people who get hurt by the church. I think this is right. I can't even remember where I found this. I was really in this deep dive on forgiveness. This is like what I was spending a lot of my pandemic on. It's like what is, I was so angry at so many people places and things and I was like forgiveness. This is what I need to spend my energy on.
Starting point is 00:51:59 I came across this like Buddhist teaching that was like running away from something and running towards something is, but that's the same thing. So to need to leave and get the hell out of here, which is how I felt a lot of my life, or to need to find the solution and get ever so close to that, which is the other half of all I've felt in my life. It's like a panic.
Starting point is 00:52:19 It's just like an utter panic and just a lack of acceptance, right? It's like that things would need to be different. That's what I've been working on is less running towards and away. And more deciding for yourself, where you want to go. Yeah, and also more just like sitting, just like sitting still. Cause that's not even a decision. It's more like, maybe there is no decision.
Starting point is 00:52:41 It's kind of what I was talking about with gender. I guess this is what my body looks and like and it has this head. I guess that's true. I guess that's true. It's been true for 40 years, I guess it's true. That's so good. So we were talking to our other friends besides you and Katie are two other friends. Okay, and they are like OG guys. They're like what is old G stand for? Old Gays. Right.
Starting point is 00:53:22 No, these original Ginks. Yeah, that's a second. Oh, okay, so they're OG, OGs, they're original gays, they're old gays. And when I mean old, I mean like, originally, I don't mean old in age, okay, I mean like they've been gays for a long time in the public eye, like you, okay? So we were talking and they were talking about this sort of whiplash that they feel because the way that they feel because the way that they would describe it is like one day and for their whole lives they were like
Starting point is 00:53:49 being persecuted as lesbians and then like the next day old navy was like sewing pride flags and everyone was queer. And they just say like where is the support group for like this this whip lash that has happened to so many of us where it just happened overnight and now we're all supposed to be like happily assimilated without any processing and interestingly enough, they're talking about what if we didn't want the assimilation? Yeah. Like what if we, part of our identity was the fact that we created this community and now everybody wants to be friends with the
Starting point is 00:54:25 queers. What do you think about that? And then also, I want to know, do fresh queries like me ever annoy you. And I want to know the truth about this because I do feel like sometimes those of us who have come out in the pride flags of the Navy era can sort of have a different energy. It's almost like Karen queer energy. Like, like, queerans, I would call it. Oh no, is that from just now? Yeah, yeah, queer. I can't believe I was here when that happened.
Starting point is 00:55:03 Just now. Yeah, just kidding. Yeah, I believe I was here when that happened. Just now. Yeah, just kidding. Yeah, I mean, I love a smushed word together. Smushed word together are my, oh, a portmanteau. That's my gender. Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes. Well, see, so you know what I'm saying though.
Starting point is 00:55:17 Like Abby and I talk about that a lot. Like I will say something and she'll be like, listen, you just got here. You just got here. Like don't do we ever do queerence, do we ever experience queer and energy. I'm gonna tell you this, okay, here's the thing that I find the most annoying thing
Starting point is 00:55:32 on the planet. This is to me, well, annoying is the right word, because there are things that are like less just, angering, so I'll just say annoying is the right word. To me, the most annoying thing on the planet is the idea that we are somehow at a place that like being queer, being gay, being lesbian, being, that's like totally chill. Yeah. Show vibes.
Starting point is 00:55:56 I know you have so many different types of listeners. So I mean this with love. This is often coming from the straight world that seems very surprised that this is still a thing. But I'm going to tell you that it's still stressful to move into a new neighborhood. It's still stressful to be on a plane. It's still stressful to wear a wedding ring. I don't actually think we're done.
Starting point is 00:56:21 Now, less often, am I being arrested for holding hands with my wife on the street? That's the thing that you have to happen, and that is happening less often. So now that there is no change, but I do think that one thing that's very weird is like, I feel like when marriage equality happened, and it's not just that like, trans folks still are marginalized and murdered. It's not just that, it's not like, it's that like marriage equality, okay, so we have like basic, vague legal protections that like are not applied the same in every state,
Starting point is 00:56:59 every city, by every landlord. Like, we didn't really get anywhere. No, we got somewhere. But when we got to that place, that place was still full of tricks. Yes. So I think that's the thing that when you ask this question, I feel like the thing that keeps us all
Starting point is 00:57:18 I like being in the fight, because I do think it's part of what makes us special. Is like, is the being in the fight. But like the queering of all things, when my straight sister is in a world where people don't talk about her child's father babysitting their daughter. Like then maybe we'll be at a certain place, but I think we're like at a place yet. Yeah, and it's interesting. It's like homophobia and racism. They have in our country have the don't notice me thing too.
Starting point is 00:58:09 And the way they do the don't notice me thing because racism and homophobia are legislated. Yeah. They're like, don't notice me because I'm going to go on stage and create my avatar that looks like Pride month. Right. Right. That's right. So it's like the queering of everything is only capitalism deep.
Starting point is 00:58:26 It's not in any of our laws. So actually, Pride Month doesn't help us at all. It's like a red hairline. It's like, look at us, we're so gay friendly. But we need the laws to be gay friendly, not old maybe. And then here's one thing I just want to make sure to revisit to your question about clearance. Quarance, yeah. Glennon, I
Starting point is 00:58:59 didn't get to date the people that I wanted to date when I was in my, when I was like in adolescence and puberty. I like had a lot of boyfriends, which is like, I wasn't somebody who didn't get to date people, but everybody that I was dating there and the nicest people. I love my friends. I was in love with my best friends, just a series of best friends. And I wanted to be loved by them, not necessarily noticed, but love by them. And it was so heart-wrenching. And it has been a formative part of my whole life, is that like this feeling of wanting and not having a place for that to land that is receptive in the way that I would like for it to be.
Starting point is 00:59:53 And I don't feel like you just got here and I'm pissed. I feel like that sounds so hard for anybody who, like I live 20 years that way. It sounds so hard to live longer than that. And I just like, I mean, it is really hard to not be yourself. For any minute of time, that's so beautiful. For any minute of time. So beautiful. Cameron, you are one of my favorite people to talk to on this entire planet. I basically am tearing up. This is really happening. I really, I love you and respect both of you very much. James is. Same. And I just want to say, thank you for the work
Starting point is 01:00:39 that you've been doing the last couple of years, especially because you're always, both of you, always putting yourselves out there, but it is so intense, the amount of visibility that you've both been visible for a long time, but it does feel like an increased number of magnifying glasses. It does. And that does seem, seem again really challenging. And so just, I see it, and I love you.
Starting point is 01:01:11 I love you. We love you too. And we love you, Pod Squad. We'll see you at the next. We can do her things. Bye. I give you Tish Melton and Brandy Carlisle. I walked through a fire I came out the other side.
Starting point is 01:01:36 I chased as I er I made sure I got one's mind and I continue to believe that I'm the line Cause we're adventurous and heartbreak So man, a final destination You're glad, you stopped asking directions Some places they've never been And to be loved we need to be known We'll finally find our way back home And through the joy and pain That our lives bring
Starting point is 01:02:44 We can do a heartbreak I hit rock bottom, it felt like a brand new star I'm not the problem sometimes things fall hard and I continue to believe The best people are free And it took some time But I'm finally fine Cause we're adventurers and heartbreak So man, a final destination with that We stopped asking directions So places they've never been
Starting point is 01:03:56 And to be loved we need to be known We'll finally find a way back home And through the joy and pain That our lives bring We can do a heartache Yeah This world finished her rose and heart breaks on land We might get lost but we're only in that Stopped asking directions Some places they've never been
Starting point is 01:04:56 And to be loved we need to be known We'll finally find our way back home And through the joy and pain that our lives bring We can do hard things Yeah, we can do hard things. Yeah, we can do hard things. We can do hard things, is produced in partnership with Cadence 13 Studios. Be sure to rate, review, and follow the show on Apple Podcasts, Odyssey, or wherever you get your podcasts.
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