We Can Do Hard Things with Glennon Doyle - Cheryl Strayed Tells Us What the Hell to Do Next

Episode Date: April 11, 2023

How to end a relationship lovingly, how to love an addict, and how to keep surprising yourself in midlife (buy the tap dancing shoes). Plus, why Cheryl decided to cut down her drinking.  For our past episodes with Cheryl, listen to Episode 118 Cheryl Strayed: Don’t Let Your Dreams Ruin Your Life and Episode 119 It’s Okay to Want What You Want: Cheryl Strayed as Dear Sugar. For the Amanda episode Cheryl mentioned, listen to Episode 177 How to Face Your Biggest Fears with Amanda Doyle. About Cheryl: Cheryl Strayed is the author of the #1 New York Times bestseller Wild: From Lost to Found on the Pacific Crest Trail, which has sold more than 4 million copies worldwide and was made into an Oscar-nominated film. Her bestselling collection of Dear Sugar columns, Tiny Beautiful Things, was adapted for a Hulu television show that will be released in April. In 2016, the book was adapted as a play that continues to be staged in theaters around the world. Strayed is also the author of the critically acclaimed novel, Torch, and the bestselling collection Brave Enough. She lives in Portland, Oregon. TW: @CherylStrayed IG: @cherylstrayed To learn more about listener data and our privacy practices visit: https://www.audacyinc.com/privacy-policy Learn more about your ad choices. Visit https://podcastchoices.com/adchoices

Cause we're adventurous and heartbreak some man. Yaaaaay! Cheryl's Dread is back! Cheryl's Dread is the author of the number one New York Times bestseller Wild from Lost to Found on the Pacific Crest Trail, which has sold more than four million copies worldwide and was made into an Oscar-nominated film starring Leece Witherspoon. Her bestselling collection of dear sugar columns,

tiny beautiful things, one of my favorites, was adapted for a newly released television show starring Catherine Hahn and is available now for streaming on Hulu. Straight is also the author of the critically acclaimed novel Torch and the best selling collection Brave Enough. She lives in Portland, Oregon.

And if you have not listened to our first episodes with Cheryl, they were amazing. So go back and check out episodes 118 and 119. I love you so much. You know this. And I'm now even more obsessed. And I have to say Amanda, one of my favorite episodes is like the all about Amanda episode.

Did you relate to that one, Cheryl? I did. Well, namely because I have spent my life as a flirt, too. But though I have to say, I'm reformed. And I'm more like Abby now. Because you've only played with fire for so long, kids, without getting burned. Yeah. Yeah.

This is a follow up episode. I need to have. But Abby, you know, what Abby has said, I was like, oh, I so relate to that. That idea of like, you know, here we are launching into this flirtation thing. I'm sure that's not what you guys wanted to talk about right after that. That is. We love it. It's what I want to talk about Cheryl.

Yeah, but like what Abby was saying, it's like you realize like, okay, you've got to flirt responsibly, you know, the energy. People misinterpret it. Yeah. That's right. Flour responsibly. I feel like that's kind of like drink responsibly. Some of us get some of us never responsibly. Some of us can.

Some of us never can. That's true. That's right. So mad at everyone who can drink responsibly. If I were not an alcoholic, Cheryl, I would drink every damn day. You know, my joke used to be I'm so glad that I'm not an alcoholic because I love to drink. I've been on an alcohol journey of the last year, actually, because I am somebody who can drink responsibly

and loves to drink, but also I did start to realize, you know what, this isn't good for me, this isn't healthy there, you know, all of that stuff. So I've really like, just got on a personal journey of drinking less and hardly at all anymore. When you say not healthy for you in what ways was it impacting you that you're like, this is not good. I actually answered this letter in my most recent, um, dear sugar column. I do once a month on sub-stack letter.

And essentially what happened is I realized I was starting to get letters from people who were saying, listen, I don't have a drinking problem. I'm not an alcoholic. But this letter I'd write or I answered. She said, I tried to do dry January in support of my friend who does have a problem with drinking. And what I found is I couldn't stop drinking. I kept saying I wouldn't drink.

And then I would just pour myself a drink at the end of the day. And I answered her letter because I felt like this was reflective of the awakening I've had over this last year or so. And I know that there are so many people out there. I call it who have a problem without a problem. You know, there's this weird binary that we've fallen into in this culture where it's like the alcoholics are the people, we have a problem and everyone else just gets to drink their heads off every day. And I realized that that was false.

And last summer I got COVID. I was in Greece, I got COVID. I was sick, it was like a nightmare. But when I recovered, I had that experience that I often have after a time of struggle is I felt awake and aware. And I wrote a letter to myself. You know, it's very Liz Gilbert of me. And I sat there in Corfu and the searing heat. And I just wrote this letter, dear Cheryl, here's what you need to do to take better care of yourself. Here's what you've known for ages. And I wrote all kinds of things that I knew.

And surprisingly, one of the things I wrote is you need to drink less. Wow. Because what was happening is even though I never got drunk, even though I didn't all the bad consequences at alcohol, I was drinking pretty much every day. I was drinking pretty much two or three glasses every day of wine, which is like triple, what is

recommended by the CDC. You know, and I wanted to deny, I wanted to say, well, I'm a moderate drinker because I think by most people's assessment, I am and was. But by, you know, all the doctors and people who know about this stuff say, no, that's actually not moderating at all. So I started to just be mindful about that and to pay attention to how I was using alcohol and why. And I slowly but surely have pretty much stopped drinking. I'm so thankful you said that because I do feel like we have this polarization where

it's either if you don't have a DUI and you haven't been arrested and your family is still together, then surely you can't have a problem with alcohol like there's this, this bucket and you almost need a justification. If you go out in the world and you're not drinking, it's like, whoa, whoa, whoa. You can't just elect to not do that. You have to have a demonstrating history of a problem to do something that aggressive to the world. Absolutely.

Like a lot of stuff that a lot of us wake up to and realize, wait a minute, we've been fed this false binary that it's like, you're either this or that, you're good or bad, you're an alcoholic or you're fine. You know, whatever it is, almost always that binary is a false narrative. And if you can bring mindfulness, I feel like obviously there are lots of people out there who are like, no, I can't drink again

because it was a destructive force in my life. But I'm not one of those people. I don't have a list of things that I could say, this is what alcohol ruined for me. But what I do know is that it was slowly kind of silently, probably ruining my health, that it is better. I do enjoy having a clearer mind and waking up in the morning, not feeling that little tiny teeny, teeny, teeny hangover, all of that stuff, you know. And so I just think that there's so much conversation right now about mindful drinking and sober curious. And that whole category of drinkers who, you know,

would do well to think more mindfully about their drinking, even if they're not going to completely give it up. Holly Whitaker does a beautiful job in her book, quit like a woman talking about how, you know, big alcohol is the one that even put out the idea of drink responsibly, because actually, what does that mean? They created this idea that there's a group of people that alcohol is bad for, and you can find them in AA meetings.

And then the rest of the world alcohol is good for. But actually, instead of asking ourselves, do I have a problem, we could always ask, is this benefiting me in my life? Like, is it helpful for me to be drinking alcohol? And one of the things I always think about is most tragic about all of the things we do to kind of take the edge off. I get taking the edge off, it's probably why I get

a bed at 730, like, you know what I'm talking about? That's when the edge really emerges. Right, so she's like, good night you know what I'm talking about? That's when the edge really emerges. Right. So she's like, good night, Moon. I'm out. But I know I've said this before, but I think it's so important to me. It's like the edge, that discomfort,

or that little bit of suffering that we take off with the booze or the shopping or whatever, that discomfort is usually what propels us to change. Like what this suffering that makes us make changes in our life, like we're like, all this friendship sucks and I can't and then we just drink it away. All that I need to switch jobs, I can't see on my job and then we kind of drink the edge away. But the edge of discomfort is there so that we won't stay in discomfort. So, so that we will move so that we will change so that we will't stay in discomfort. So that we will move, so that we will change,

so that we will do that, make the hard decision. So I always think of it in terms of like, the edge is there for a reason. Like it's a gift to you, to point you in one direction or not. And when we dull that edge forever, we just stay in there. Yeah, absolutely. And I think too that there are healthy ways of dulling that edge. forever we just stay in there. Yeah, absolutely. And I think too that there are healthy ways of dwelling that edge.

You know, one of them is sleep. One of them was going to bed at 730 instead of having a drink or going for a walk or calling someone you'd care about. And I know Glenn and you're against phone calls, but you know, connecting texting. And you know, for me, what I realized, because that was the thing, when I decided in Kwarfoo, I had to drink glass, my feeling wasn't like, yes, I can do this.

My feeling was like, I can't, I can't, because that's what I do every night. When the day is over and I'm cooking dinner or whatever, that's my glass of wine, that's my treat for myself. I give so much to so many people. Can't I give myself anything? Yeah. And I was almost mad that I was going to have to surrender this.

But here's what happened. It ended up being much easier than I thought it would be. Because once I just decided, Cheryl, you can keep giving yourself something at day's end. It just isn't going to be alcohol. I replaced it with other stuff because there are really cool ways to take the edge off. Some of the things I listed, but I had a bad habit

and we can change our bad habits. And now, I don't know what my drinking life ahead is gonna be. I'm still sort of exploring, but one of the ideas I've sort of left onto is maybe I drink alcohol as often as maybe I eat birthday cake. But it's kind of like every once in a blue moon, I will have a glass or two of wine, kind of with the regularity, I might have a piece of birthday cake, right? I love that. And when I think about alcohol,

I've been sober almost seven years now. It's like the human body are processing vessels. So if we are poisoning it, because whether we want to admit this or not, alcohol is poisons. And if we do that, we are not giving ourselves the ability to be fully human. I think about this so often, in terms of creativity, in terms of planning podcasts, in terms of my business, in terms of my family, I need to be completely on all the time so that nothing falls through the cracks. And I am so grateful every morning to wake up

and to know that I have nothing that I have to worry about. Oh God, yeah. Apologize for. Oh gosh. Oh yeah. I used to wake up after parties being like, what did I say? Oh my God. And then I'm like, wait, I don't need to worry about that anymore. Yes. Well, at least most of the time, every once in a while, I'll say something really ridiculous, even though I'm stone cold so far too. That's the thing we're still ourselves.

We're still ourselves. But it can be applied to everything. Like, share what you just said is so important to anger about being like, I give to everyone else. And this is the one thing. And so you're saying, not only do I need to keep giving to everyone else, now I can't have my one thing. But that's so true in our relationships, it's true.

You can't just take away alcohol. You can't take away anything. You have to replace the thing that is meeting that need with something else that's working better for you. And so don't just take away, say, what am I going to add? What was missing that I was filling with this thing? And give yourself the time and the money and the invitation to do that. Yeah, absolutely. And the permission to, you know, for me, one of the things is I went on a

journey of the non-alcoholic wine replacement beverages. So then let me just tell you, they all taste like apple cider vinegar. So I would pour my glass of apple cider vinegar and say that my husband, I'm in the mood for a tasty glass of vinegar. Like, you know, but it helped me through and I tried all these different ones. And you know, you mentioned Holly Whitaker, Glennon and also Laura McCowan, people who've written really pretty amazing books that have been so illuminating and enlightening to me. And one of the things that honestly, I have to say, I'm 54, I didn't know really about alcohol. Abby, you said that it is a poison.

It really is. And that too shifted my thinking when I understood that no amount of alcohol is good for you. Now, of course, we all consume other things that aren't good for us too, but to really think about that and take that fact in, the fact that it took me this long to actually know that, and it's thanks to those books by those women and others.

It says something about our culture and the culture of alcohol. Yeah. Cheryl, will you tell us anything else that was in that letter of foolishness things that you knew about yourself that you wrote to yourself? Yeah, it's interesting because they were all actually about this kind of thing, which is to in some ways, you know, love myself. I think that I am really good at looking outward and seeing like, what do people need from me?

How can I support the people in my life, my kids, my partner, my friends, the frankly even you know readers and fans? Like how do I put my energy outward in a way that makes them happy? I know how to do that. I've nailed that. What I really struggle with is prioritizing myself. And I think this experience with COVID, what ended up happening is I was alone in an Airbnb for a week in Kourphoo, where I knew not one person. So I'm just in Greece sick as hell with COVID.

And I emerged from this this Airbnb and just sat, you know, like on the street, writing that letter to myself. And it was all about how the primacy of the body and how I need to care for me, me, and exercise, diet, drink less. And by diet, I don't mean eat less. I mean, be more mindful about nurturing myself, nurturing, consuming things that make me feel good. And then the spirit, making space in my life for the things that bring me joy, making space in my artistic life for the things that I actually am curious about pursuing. Again, I'm 54 all my life. I've wanted to learn how to this is going to sound insane. Okay, but I'm gonna say.

No, you will not. I know you're gonna say something. I know you guys are gonna laugh. And I know I would look ridiculous doing that, but I've always wanted to learn how to tap dance. Ah! And my husband, every year, he's like, I'm gonna give you tap dance lessons for Christmas,

and I'm like, don't, don't, it'll just be a burden, because I don't have time to learn how to tap dance. So, you know, maybe I need to learn how to tap dance. Yes. You do, Cheryl Strait. We are sending you tap shoes. Doesn't that sound like fun? Yes, it sounds in the air thing.

It sounds absurd, and that is why it's necessary. Yes. Because we don't have any absurdity. We just have these practical shit all day long. I know. And here's the thing too, what I know is I would laugh the whole time. Yes. Yes.

I would laugh the whole time. Me too. I would imagine myself tap dancing. It's so good. And have you ever had this experience? I've had this experience lately, because it has been not the easiest time in my life the last two years and that I actually when I laugh with a band and I actually feel

it in my body like a good thing. It's like a wave of something really positive. It's like in our asm when you're laughing. That's right. Yeah. Yes. My new theory is like actually seeking that out, seeking out laughter is one of the most healing acts of love we can give ourselves. It's so good. I've been doing that exercise with smiling. It's so weird, but even if you like put a fake smile on, I'll do it for like a few minutes a day.

And I feel ridiculous doing it. It looks ridiculous. But I actually feel better. There's something chemically happening. I know it for sure in my bones. So just go out there and laugh, fine laughter, and also just smile to yourself. Sure, we were just talking to Gloria Steinem,

and she said that one of the many reasons why laughter is so magical is because it's proof of freedom, because people can make us do anything. Like you can be compelled to do anything, except you cannot make someone laugh, which is so funny, because that's the way we use the language. We say, I made her laugh. I made him laugh, but it's the one thing that either has to be faked. If you're going to make somebody laugh, right? But a true laugh can't be compelled, it can only be given.

And it's one of the only ways you can surprise yourself. In this world where nothing's a surprise except, oh, we need a new transmission on the vehicle. Like there's no fun surprises left in life. Except like when something makes you laugh hard, it's very often a not expected, you weren't planning that in your day. And it's just like, we lose the surprise,

the unexpected, and laughing is like, I just surprised myself, you were damn joy. Yeah, you just made me laugh, I'm happy because, yeah, the transmission and like, oh, the cat vomited again on the floor. And the, I mean, do you guys have this life too? Yes. My life is all that. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yeah. We just had it this morning. Basically, all we talk about is when our dog took a shit and when she did. Yeah. That's what we talk about all day. Yeah. Yeah, yeah, I have two dogs and three cats.

Yes, a lot of that going on. Yeah, a lot of that for sure. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I'm Jonathan M. Hevar. I'm a podcast producer and someone who likes fancy things. But I grew up working class.

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Cheryl, I have to tell you a couple things. Abby and I just binge watched all of tiny beautiful things. Yes. I was scared because tiny beautiful things is one of the books that I give away the most in the world. Oh, thank you. I still, I will always. I just, it's a magical thing that book and I was nervous about them trying to translate it to TV. I felt very protective and oh my god it's so beautiful. Are you so happy with it? All the magic of the book is in it. Catherine Han. Get out of here with Catherine Han. Everybody in the production. How do you feel about it? Well, first of all, I feel so thrilled that you guys loved it. You're among the very first kind of people outside the project

who I've talked to about it. So thank you so much. And yes, I am really touched by it and proud of it. I was very involved in the making of it. I was in the writer's room, which was led by the amazing showrunner and creator, Liz Deglar, and this a team of just beautiful amazing writers. And then on the set last summer, watching these spectacular, all the cast and crew bringing their beauty to it and their lives to it.

cast and crew, bringing their beauty to it and their lives to it. So I'm thrilled. It's so touching to me to see the ways that that book is traveled, you know, and I couldn't be more excited for everyone to see the show. It's so beautiful. For anyone who doesn't know, can you talk to our audience about dear sugar and how that all started and what it has become to you. Yes, so back in early 2010, I had just finished the first draft of Wild and I sent it to my editor and I got this email in this sort of downtime that I was waiting for my editor to get back to me with Wild Notes from Steve Almond at the time.

He was just an acquaintance. He's now my friend and he said, Cheryl, I have been writing this to your sugar column for the Brumpus. It's an advice column anonym, I write anonymously. I know you read it because I've only received one fan letter and it was from you. And you're the only doctor, Cheryl Strait. That's right. That's right. And I later I was like, that's not true, right? And he said, no, literally, you're the only person whoever read it, wrote to me. And he said, listen, when I got your email, I realized you are the real sugar.

And he had read my essays on my first novel Torch at that time. And he said, I don't want to do it anymore. It pays nothing. Nobody reads it. Nobody writes to me asking for advice. Would you like to take it over? Sounds like an offer you couldn't refuse, yeah.

Really? I mean, it's like, no pay and no recognition, sign me up, you know? And which I know sounds insane, but I did. I said yes. And that did go on to become some of the really core pieces of advice I give to people over and over again. Is, you know, trust

your gut, trust yourself. Maybe that letter I wrote to myself in Kourfu. I mean, that's the place from which I was speaking then too. Same. Here's what you know is true. And it's the stuff that sparks you to life. So I said yes. And the great thing about writing for no pay is you can do whatever the hell you want to do. And I decided that I wasn't going to write a traditional advice column where I am like the person who knows everything and I tell you what to do. I was going to use story to help save others because stories have saved me. And I really went in there and essentially wrote essays about many aspects of life, telling stories from my own life, telling stories sometimes about my friends' lives with their permission. And I just really believed that that kind of storytelling would be something that would

help illuminate people's questions rather than just tell them like what I think they should do. And it grew up following online. And so over the years, a couple of years later, I revealed my identity as sugar and then published tiny beautiful things, which is a collection of these columns. And now there's a new addition of about the 10th anniversary addition with some new columns. It's why everyone listens to you because what you do is, again and again, in beautiful new ways every time,

say you already know the answer. That's right. And is that why the things we do to take the edge off are so dangerous? Because I think we do those things so we can stop knowing. Right. So that's right. That's it. That's it. You nailed it, Glenin.

You want to take over is your sugar? But no, that's it. And that's it. Over and over again, you see me in the letter saying, I have like absolute clarity about what you should do. Here it is. And not because I think you should do it, but because you think you should do it. And you know what you want. And you're afraid to know it. You're afraid to know it. Just like that drink less thing for me, I was afraid to know it because guess what happens when you know something. You have to ask on it. And that's no fun sometimes or that's scary sometimes or that breaks our heart sometimes at least in the short run But I promise you in the long run you will be better for it in the long run the broken heart

You will carry if you don't act on that knowing is a mighty burden to bear I will never forget your line from the book the worst thing for us is line from the book, the worst thing for us is believing that a lie will keep us safe and truth is where the danger lies. We hide from acknowledging what we know is true because we think if we stay on this side of acknowledging it, we're going to somehow be safe, but we're never safe there. Absolutely. I know all of us have lived that, right? And also lived on the other side to be like, okay, I'm not going to say this thing or do this thing or make this move because it feels risky. It feels like I'll be in danger myself. And then the journey we all went on as we learned that that was the lie, that

actually like when you bring things into the light, when you speak your truth, when you live out what you know is the right way, you know, that puts you in the safer zone because then you're aligned. You know, the most painful thing is to be misaligned, to have your life out here be different from your life in here. Oh, you know, I'm thinking about what you just said when you said, yeah, I didn't, Glenn, you don't, I know you don't do phone calls. And I was thinking about how that has become less true over the last eight, nine months of my life, when I started recovery and had to take away the thing I was doing

to not know a lot of anorexia restriction, I had to replace, you have to replace things. And so I started accepting phone calls and like actually even calling people every once in a while to say, help like whatever people do when they're hurting. And I think it's so interesting that we have to reach out to people so that they can act as mirrors for us because strangers are writing to you. And you're seeing in their letter one line or two lines that gives you the clue that they already know exactly what they need to do. And then you're saying to them, I see you, go forth.

You have permission to do the thing that you wanna do. And that's what all the phone calls are about for me. Like I call the people that I know are just gonna mirror me back to me. It's just so amazing how we all say, you already know what to do. And that is half of it. And then you need someone else to see that about you and say you have permission to do what you know to do.

Absolutely. I mean, I learned this over and over again that validating people's lives and experiences and perceptions about who they are. We all need that. And it's such a healing act and it can also be an incredibly motivating one. If somebody can just say to you, Yaglen and I see that this is your struggle. And that that somehow allows you to keep going, right? Yeah. Yes. It's a powerful thing. I mean, that's what connection is that we for a moment become one. Yeah. I hear very deeply what you're saying and you feel heard and then it goes the other way too. It's a beautiful thing.

And when we don't call people, Glenin, we deny ourselves. That's right. The ability to get that. And I relate to that, I have found myself, and especially when I am feeling sad or struggling or having a hard time with something, I slayed it. Even the, you know, I think we all do, right? Because you're like, oh, I don't want to drag everyone down because I don't have a happy story to tell today. And then if I can push through that and go out, meet my friends for a walk or tea or whatever, I always feel better. And it's because of that thing, that connection that's so important. I just texted Glenn in this yesterday because we're having some friends events happening over the coming days and she texted me, do you think I'll be okay? I'm gonna get through this.

and she texted me, do you think I'll be okay? I'm gonna get through this. And I said, you know, I don't think you're equating what it could positively bring to you. Like what we're doing is we're just like, oh, it's effort, it's time, but we're not also bringing into the equation how a community of people or reaching out to somebody else

could actually improve your life or improve your circumstance in some way. They might not have any advice or help, but the knowing that somebody is there might actually make you feel better about your circumstance. Yeah, for sure. And it might not even be this deep stuff we're talking about where they're like, you know, a firme, it might just be that you laugh. Yeah. That you go tap dancing together. That's important too, right? Just the joy that others can bring. I have this sort of theory about travel that like when we decide to go on a trip,

the thing we imagine about that trip is just all the like great stuff that we're going to do and see and it's just like happy. And then you get there and you know, your luggage didn't make it with you and you eat some bad food and you have diarrhea You get COVID-19. Yeah, I mean my greasetrip was a disaster. Okay. I always call this retrospective fun, right? Like that then you get home and like nobody wants to hear your stories about like how beautiful the sunset was over Maui, right? They want to hear your stories about when you almost, you know, cracked yourself to death in Guatemala. That is a better story. That's a longer lasting story. And this does actually have a point.

Trust me, I'm going to wind back to this, this Glenn and getting together with friends thing is, so the, maybe the opposite happens when we think about connecting with friends or making that call or getting together where you think like you're imagining all the negative stuff. Like I'm going to have to like get ready and I'm going to have to go somewhere and I'm going to have to, you know, be on for a bit. And then you get there and you have a blast and you think, what was, why was I having so

much anxiety about this? This was wonderful. I feel great. Maybe that there is something to remember about that, that you're going to feel better after you do it, but then keep that in your mind. I think that's right. I used to feel that way with family trips so much.

I think I still do. Like when kids are little and you go on a family trip, I used to just be looking at them and you know, I'd be carrying all this shit and they'd be crying and I would look at them and think one day I'm going to think this was fun. Like why would I get back?

I'm going to somehow look back on that, but I was never actually happy. Retrospective fun. Yes. Yeah, it's a real thing. It really is. It certainly wasn't very fun to hike the Pacific restaurant. Praise. I mean, you know, it was a lot of things and it was sometimes fun, but mostly it was It certainly wasn't very fun to hike the Pacific Cross trail. Right. I mean, you know, it was a lot of things,

and it was sometimes fun, but mostly it was like, toil and hardship and pain. And then, of course, it was the best thing I ever did. But it isn't life about building memories, right? And not every memory is going to be, like, you know, joyful, but still the memories of traveling with the kids are the things that

you take with you everywhere you go. Right. Yeah. And I think life is about activating all the parts of you. And if we are only staying in this lane all the time, we are not activating and accessing all of the multitude of what we contain. And so many of us are in this like Well my to-do list is 1400 things long and I know I owe the people all these things and so I

Wish I had time to be with friends, but I don't and I'm a little bitter that people keep telling me to do it because they're lucky enough to have time when I don't but It's the only place where like this funny math works, where that hour that you invest, it multiplies in your life. I don't know how it works, but it adds more life and margin to you than you put into it. And so, yes, you don't have time. You don't have time to do it, but you almost don't have time not to do it, because you need that multiplier in your life. It's too much. I've been kind of toying with this idea of what makes me feel most alive. And I have figured out that there's a before feeling most alive, the thinking about something, the doing of something when I feel most alive and the after

having done something, I feel most alive. All of those alive feelings, the feeling it before, the middle, and after having done something, they're all important. They all have the same amount of importance in my life and my well-being and my happiness. So I don't know if this makes any sense. I like the framing of aliveness instead of what makes me happy.

Because if I say what makes me happy, I'm like, I'll just still stay on the couch. Yeah. Because happiness has a kind of, a sort of lightweight aliveness is, it's all the levels and layers. Abby, so how many things are on your list of what makes you feel alive and how many of them do you do on a daily basis? I love the asses, because I'm a data person. So I've actually been trying to toy with creating a list of data points so that I can actually attribute point value to the things that I do

if I'm feeling down or low. Such an athlete. That I can put three things into my day and the value of my, my aliveness will go up. So in terms of the things that make me feel alive before I do them are like when I look forward to trips, I feel excited when I look forward to spending time with my family and my kids. Things that make me feel alive when I'm actually doing them golfing, surfing,

things that make me feel alive after I have done them, working out, going on a walk. I know that there are some people who like walking. I like having had walked because I would prefer running. I would like to get there as quickly as possible and walking feels like the slowest method. How can you not like walk? Well, wait a minute. How are we going to do the AT together, man?

I know. If you're going to run, try to run it. I know. It would be. It's going to be hard. That would be amazing. You know, the camera shot of Abby, like so far away running and hand back to Cheryl. It's like plot, plot, plot.

But like, what kind of person does this like, somebody who doesn't like puppies? Like, how do you not like walking? Because it's like plot plot plot. What kind of person does this like somebody who doesn't like puppies? Like how do you not like walking? Because it's boring, because it's boring. Okay. I love walking. You love walking. But I know what you do. But and you walk every day like me and twice a day.

This though I have to say is probably why Abby is different from us. And she's a champion world-class family. She is. Yes. and she's a champion world-class athlete. Really? Yes, but here's the thing. I still attribute the same amount of value to when I walk, to when I'm surfing, and to when I'm thinking about going on a trip. Like that aliveness is the exact same.

It's like I still feel the energy from having walked. So I know that about myself. I still feel the energy from having walked. So I know that about myself. I know that I have a predisposition to have like a little bit of lazy. I like being a little bit of lazy. And to counteract that, I have to remind myself, oh, I feel really alive when I'm done doing a hard thing that I, that whether it's working out or lifting

weights or going on a run, I think that it's important for people to, especially to try to build the sugar. Some questions about their lives. Can we hear from Bethany? Hi, my name is Bethany and I have a question for dear sugar for Cheryl Strait. My question is probably not a super unique one. I feel like basic mom asking this question, but I am in my mid 40s.

My kids are growing up and they don't need me as much. And even before I had kids, never really felt particularly in love with my career or what I was doing. And now I left that for a little while and I don't know. I kind of don't know where to go from here. And maybe that's midlife crisis, I don't know. But I'm wondering if Dear Sugar has any advice for those of us moms who are feeling a little

bit lost in the middle of things? Thanks. Oh, I love this question. in the middle of things. Thanks. Oh, I love this question. Bethany, congratulations. Welcome to your midlife crisis. Yes! Yes! That is the good news.

I really do believe that. Do you know what I mean? Yes. Yes. It is the best of times. It is not the worst of times. And it doesn't feel like the best of times always when we're in these transition periods. But I do think that this is this wonderful moment,

Bethany, in your life where your things are breaking open. And you say you feel lost, you say, you don't know where to go from here. And what an exciting time that is because the two things, what I want to say is that when we do feel lost, well, you know, then our main task is to go about the business of finding our way. And what that means is you get to go on a journey, you get to follow your curiosity, you get to follow that voice inside of you that we've been talking about so far that that voice of inner truth that says like, here's what I know about myself and and the beautiful thing at middle age, you know a lot, you know, you know you didn't dig your career so much, you know you love your children beyond words and

they are needing you less and less as they grow up and now you have more freedom. And I think so many of us experience that you know that kind of quarter life crisis in our 20s where the questions are all about the road ahead. And all about who, who am I? And where should I go and what direction should I take? And you took the direction you did, Bethany, and here you are now 20 years later in your mid 40s. And now the question you get to answer is not, who am I, but

who am I really? And who you are really is the woman who's going to get to live this next chapter of your life. And one that possibly, I think, I know, in fact, with great certainty, will be more aligned with that person you most truly are. You know, I think about when I think of the word lost as someone who gets lost a lot, because I'm not paid at directions for truly like literally. You know what, when you're lost, what you also are is very, very alive. Hmm. Yeah. When you are taking a route that you've known a million times, like sometimes life can be when our kids are in our, you know, routine, routine, routine, there's a, there's a sleepness. You can sleepwalk through it.

And then when you would have lost and you think about when you're in a new place and you don't recognize anywhere, you are alive to your cells, you're so aware. alive to your cells, you're so aware. And I think that is the magic of this time, right? And it's like, crisis is one of my favorite words in the whole world, actually. I always think of, everybody talks about crisis as a problem, but it's actually the root of it is to sift, sifting, where all the sand falls away, in one of those sifters and you just have the treasures left over

I think stay alive stay lost look for the treasures It's exciting time women were stepping into a time of life when People aren't needing us. Holy shit It's a lot of freedom in that. Yeah, and I'd say to about the need To really embrace this like actually go after those things that might help you think about what to do next. Go on a like an actual trip or a journey if you can. If you can't do that, try to do something outside your comfort zone right there where you live, you know, take the tap dancing. If you always wanted to be a tap dancer, sign up for something that surprises you and see what happens.

I love it. I love it. Okay. I think we have Kate next. Hi, my name is Kate. My question is when you have the clarity to understand that your relationship is not healthy, and you can't stay in it, but you love the person.

How do you walk away with grace and dignity and let go of the resentment and remorse that may have come from the relationship and just carry on into the light of yourself. Oh, Kate, you know, this is a question that I would say that it's really one of the very most common questions I get because it is hard to tell someone you love that you no longer want to be with them, that you don't want to stay, that you to go. And you want to go even though you love the person, you know, and that you don't want to have that goodbye be one that's one full of anger and wreckage and animosity. And the advice I give over and over again, it's such a simple piece of advice and so hard to do. But what I know for sure, Kate,

is you can do it, is that you tell the truth, and you tell the truth with all of your heart and all of your compassion and all of your intelligence and all of your courage and all of your strength. And you hold within you that little beautiful glowing gem of clarity that contains two truths that are not opposite each other that you love this person you've been in partnership with and you want to end the relationship as it exists now. And that you always return to that you say that you don't want to hold resentment and remorse and all of those things. And I think that that's about staying mindful about your intentions, your intentions are to lovingly end a relationship. And sometimes there's anger and resentment gets tangled up in that. But I promise you, if you can stay true to that, to that deepest court truth within yourself, those things won't be what dominate your, your mind or the tenor of this breakup.

Oh, you've just solved so many of the reasons why many of my breakups did not end well. Both of you are so beautiful. I just wasn't able to be completely honest. I just wasn't and I thought it was kindness, but in fact, my lack of ability to be completely truthful was probably in the long run, unkindness. It's so true. And Abby, I think that it goes back to this

terrible binary thing. I think a lot of people feel like, well, in order to leave, in order for me to say, this isn't working for me, and I wanna end this relationship or at least in the way that it exists right now, romantic, sexual, whatever. I want to transition into a friendship or I want to end it all together, whatever it is, is that we think like, okay, we have to have a reason that is outside of ourselves. It has to be, you're a bad person.

Yes. You don't meet my needs in this way. You can't just say like, you are amazing, and I love you, and I'm so grateful for everything we shared and everything I learned from you. And I will love you always in a different way, but I no longer want to be in this relationship. Like just to say, with simple clarity, that truth, I think so many people feel that and are terrified of saying.

And so, what they do is then they make it dirty. Yes. They make it dirty. They lie, they manipulate and gaslight, they create conflict where there really doesn't need to be any, all of those things then end up, you know, we make a dirty break instead of a clean one. We demonize the other person because we think we have to prove our assault, we have to make a case for leaving.

Because we don't think we deserve to just go because we want to. That's right. That's right. So beautiful. Can we please hear from Sweet Erica? Hi, my name is Erica. I would like to get Cheryl or Sugar Thoughts

on how to best love and exist with someone who is in the depth of addiction and depression. It's not just anyone, it's one of my most cherished humans on this planet who my love deeply. It's my adult friend. I do pretty good, but the ache is always there and the pain is sometimes unbearable. It's hard to meet even, say it out loud. It's a silent pain. I feel like I'm always carrying.

I would love to hear your insight on this. Thank you for all you do. Oh, Erica, I think that the experience that you are having with your son is way up there among the most painful, painful experiences any of us can have. I don't think that there's anything that I can say that would negate that suffering that you're experiencing, except to say that I think the way you love your son is I'm going to guess the way that you have been loving him all along, which is wildly deeply unconditionally, you have been loving him all along, which is wildly deeply unconditionally,

recognizing always that your son is not his addiction. Those two things are not the same. And I think the most positive way you can love him through, this experience is to also remember to love yourself. That sounds really like maybe trite sometimes to go, we can't forget the self-carotene because I know that that sounds like absolute bullshit and the face of the monumental suffering

that you're experiencing. And yet what I have found, and I wanna say, Erica, even though I haven't written about this publicly or talked about this a lot, I have had experiences that are like yours, not with a child, but with other family members. And there is this terrible, terrible, powerless one feels when you watch somebody you love so dearly, suffering, and you don't know how to help them. And what I've figured out,

this love yourself thing, it actually finds its way back to the question you're asking me, which is how to love your son. And what I mean by this is I think when we're paying, we can get very often caught up in this sense, this kind of powerless cycle of what do I do to change him, what do I do to help him, what do I do to support him. And all of those things are so much outside of our control, but what is inside of our control is to say, how do I make myself strong and brave and whole so that I can be that strong brave whole person that will be there for this person I love so much. And what that looks like are the little things literally, like the thing I said earlier about like seeking out opportunities to laugh, seeking out opportunities to connect, seeking out

opportunities, not just to do the deep work, obviously, with like a therapist or somebody who can really help you through the epic psychological tasks that you've been given because you're in this situation, but the things that actually nurture you and make you stronger braver, holer. Those are the things that will allow you to be the amazing mother to your son that you already are, because suffering has a way of depleting us. And you are not going to be able to love your son the way way, I know you want to love him if you're depleted.

So do that and know that actually what you're going to figure out, I think, by doing all that stuff as you can bear it, you can bear this pain. And that is love, the strength that you have when it comes to bearing this impossible situation is your love. Yeah. Oh, we. Do you think, Cheryl, when you're talking about finding ways to laugh,

finding ways to be whole, do you get a lot of messages like this that are the thing that she's not asking that I'm thinking is that old truism of your only as happy as your least happy child. Is there something to it that's like because of the way the universe is now where my dearest one is suffering. I can only do my best to suffer because I don't have the right, the right to ever even try to be happy because that would be breaking the rules of the universe. I think that's real.

And I also think, I mean, with my own kids, I have two teenagers. And I think I've mentioned maybe to you guys before that, it's been a hard couple of years. And there are times that I have suffered tremendously because one of my kids was suffering. And that thing you're describing Amanda, where it's almost like you think like the greatest act of love is to actually have their nervous system inside your body. And so, the first thing that I've learned in my life, is that I've been through, and I've been through,

and I've been through, and I've been through, and I've been through, and I've been through, and I've been through, and I've been through, and I've been through, and I've been through,

and I've been through, and I've been through, and I've been through, that actually that weakens me and then I can't actually be the mother, the strong brave whole mother That I need to be to help my kid who is struggling and again, you know, sometimes I think this is why Right away when I started writing district, I was like, you know, I'm not like a self-help person I do sometimes think that sometimes these messages we get like just remember gratitude or you know all these that can seem really Kind of glib and false and not really Validate the true suffering involved and the truth is Erica that like nobody is going to save you from this That this is one of the most painful things that a human can ever endure and you have to endure it things that a human can ever endure and you have to endure it. So then when you just simply accept that, but like no magic bunny is going to come along and hip-a-d hop

and then everything is going to be happy and you're going to feel good about this, you're never going to feel good if your son is an addict and struggling with depression. You're just not, okay? But you can feel better in your suffering. If you remember to learn how to be strong and learn how to be brave and to take care of yourself in those radically deep, simple, complicated, daily ways that keep you, you know, on your two feet. Yeah. That's why we listened to Dear Sugar. Oh my gosh. She tells the truth. Can we please hear from Miranda? Hi, my name is Miranda.

I started to think about what in my life is the most stressful and what controls me the both and its money. I know it's not always the most socially acceptable thing to talk about and it can be kind of taboo. But I don't even care about the money, like the figures. I just want to know how to not let it have so much control over my mood and my mental state. That might be too much to ask.

Bye. Bye. Oh, money Miranda, I love this question. And I first want to validate, you know, money is absolutely stressful, especially if you don't have enough or as much as you think you need. I know this, I grew up poor every year of my childhood. I lived under the poverty line

and I got Medicaid and bootstamps and free government cheese and powdered milk and on occasion my family visited bootchelves. I got to go to these places at Christmas and pick out a free Christmas gift. I know what it is like to live with that stress of money. And I also witnessed that very much with my mom, who was a single mom of three kids and saw the toilet took on her.

And I will say it's exhausting and it's all you say. It occupies your mind. But the advice I want to give to you, and I love that your question, Miranda, is not about money itself. It's not about like how to earn more money or how to get out of debt or what do I know, all of those things. It's actually about your mindset when it comes to stress. And it happens to be stress connected to money, but it could be stress about something else. But what I wanted to say is something that I really absorbed, in addition to absorbing the hardships I just described to you of my youth and into my adult life, I should say,

is that so much of our ability to handle this dress when it comes to money is to make mindful decisions about money's meaning in our lives. And the ways that money defines who we are and what we feel. The thing that my mother would always say when I was a kid and complaining about like wanting something that we couldn't have or being without is she would say, we aren't poor because we're rich in love. And what I thought at the time as a kid was,

you know, just that was ridiculous. And I rolled my, my, I said, my mom. But I, what I realized later is that she raised me and my siblings with a theory of abundance rather than scarcity. So at every turn, when I would say, I want this, like my whole life, for example, wanted brand name jeans. I wanted Levi's and Lee jeans. I'd never got them until I had my own job at 14

and bought them myself. I got jeans from like K-Mart, with the, had no brand, right? And she would say we aren't poor because we're rich in love. Abundance, overscarcity, abundance, overscarcity. When I became an adult, I started to really think about like,

what does that mean? And I think that part of what it means, and I think this thing applies to stress in every part of our life, is that we become conscious about like those received thoughts we have, it's like, okay, I need more money, and so therefore I feel stressed out and I feel controlled by it.

What if you take a brass Miranda and say, okay, I feel acutely right now the things I don't have because of money? What are the things that I do have? And here we are again, and that kind of, oh, you know, just be grateful for everything and you're gonna feel better. But you know what?

You actually will. Yeah. You actually will. You actually will feel better if you can say, I am rich in these things. You actually will feel better if you can say, I am rich in these things. And I think that that can be such a profound shift about so many aspects of our lives.

It can liberate us to make choices that actually lead to our thriving that is beyond money. An example of this, one of my favorite questions I get when people talk to me about wild. So in wild, I write about hiking on the Pacific Crest Trail. And I also write about how I had no money. Okay, I very often was hiking with like, you know, 35 cents in my pocket. When I finished my hike on the trail, I literally had 20 cents. I didn't have any credit cards. I had student loan debt that I paid off on my 44th birthday only 10 years ago. And I just was walking along for literally 1100 miles for like 94 days.

I'd have a $20 bill in each resupply box and then when I spend it, it was gone. That's how much money I had. And people will say to me, how could you have hiked the Pacific Crest Trail if you didn't have enough money? And I always say, but you see, I did. I did have enough money. I hike the Pacific Crest Trail. If I didn't have enough money, I couldn't have done it. Still be there. That's right. And what this is about is that shifting that thinking, what is enough? Yes. You know, am I going to let money be the thing that stops me from going on an epic journey? Am I going to let fear be the thing that stops me from going on this epic

journey? The answer was no. And no. And this is about the very thing you're asking about Miranda, which isn't about how much money do I have and how much do I need to be happy. It's how do I change the way I think of the power it has over me? The way you do it is you take the power back. You say, I am the captain of this ship. And these are the things I'm going to remember and think about and feel and allow to have a place in my mind on this day. And it doesn't mean you'll never feel stressed about money again. and feel and allow to have a place in my mind on this day.

And it doesn't mean you'll never feel stressed about money again, trust me. I mean, I have spent most of my life stressed about money, but I can say that to make that mental shift will make all the difference in the world in the way you feel about it. Cheryl Strait, I love that every time we talk, we always end up coming back in the end to something that your mom taught you.

Every day of time. Every time. It's true. It's true. Isn't that funny? Put yourself in the way of beauty that we aren't poor because we're rich and love. I think that that's really powerful stuff, right? The mom medicines that I received.

Yeah. Yeah, yeah. And it's all over the show. And the... Oh my gosh, the show, it's all over the show. It's all over the show. The show. The show. The show.

The show. The show. The show. It's all over the show. The show. The show. The show. The show.

The show. The show. The show. The show. The yeah. So thank you, Cheryl. Thank you. I can't express my gratitude enough because I really think the work that the three of you are doing with this podcast is tremendously healing and powerful. I listen to it.

I'm a huge fan. And as you know, I'm going to make you call me Glen and start talking to me on the moon. Oh, but also, you know, I hear from so many people all the time about this podcast. And I just hope you know what important work you're all doing by having these conversations. And so thank you so much for inviting me onto your show. And thank you for watching my show, Tiny Beautiful Things. Thank you.

I always love talking to you. Hey, and anytime you need dear sugar back on the show, I am here for you. Yes. You heard it here. I love this episode. So much I'm sitting here. I'm like taking notes.

I'm like, damn, that was really good. She's going to go back to all her exes and re-break up with them and tell them to damn truth this time. I'm just going to break up the right way this time. That's right. I think they've blocked her number. So probably. Yeah. Yeah, because she did it so badly. That's time. That's right. I think they blocked our number. So probably.

Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So badly. That's right. Thank you, Sheryl. Thank you. God. Bye. Bye. Keep walking or running. Yeah. That's the case. Bye. Bye. God.

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