We Can Do Hard Things with Glennon Doyle - How Glennon & Abby Learned to Talk Dirty with Vanessa Marin

Episode Date: April 6, 2023

1. How to finally discover what turns us on, how to discuss turn-offs – and how to create “sex menus” with our partners. 2. The real reason so many of us don’t feel like having sex.  3. How to ask for more sex – and how to turn it down without hurting your partner.  4. Orgasm – why it’s not the whole shebang – and what to do if we’ve been faking it.  5. Glennon and Abby engage in an exercise to practice talking dirty. (Glennon has not recovered.) For the first part of our conversation with Vanessa, check out Episode 195: Sex Talk & That Night in Miami: Sex Therapy with Vanessa Marin. And to hear our original “Silent Sex Queen” episode, go way back and check out: Episode 14: SILENT SEX QUEEN: Why aren’t we talking about sex more? About Vanessa:  Vanessa Marin is a sex therapist and instant New York Times Best Selling author of Sex Talks: The Five Conversations That Will Transform Your Love Life, co-written with her husband and partner-in-crime, Xander Marin. Vanessa is here to help you kick shame out of the bedroom so you can start feeling the connection, pleasure, and joy you deserve! Vanessa has been featured in various major publications and has written for The New York Times, Allure, and Lifehacker. TW: @VMTherapy IG: @vanessaandxander To learn more about listener data and our privacy practices visit: https://www.audacyinc.com/privacy-policy Learn more about your ad choices. Visit https://podcastchoices.com/adchoices

Welcome back to We Can Do Hard Things. Today, we are back with a woman who is really helping us get our shit together when it comes to sex. She's, she's inviting us into some amazing conversations with each other. She's getting some fire started over in our home here. Vanessa Morin is a sex therapist, an instant New York Times bestselling author of sex talks, the five conversations that will transform your love life. It was co-written with her husband

and partner in crime, Xander Morin. Vanessa is here to help you kick shame out of the bedroom. So you can start feeling the connection pleasure, enjoy, you deserve. If you have not listened to Episode 1, please go back and do that because the first two sex conversations that she suggests we have are over there. I'm not reviewing them because I'm really wanting to get into conversation three, which is about desire. Vanessa, you say that your goal with people when it comes to desire is just to help them unlock their particular desire potential. What the hell does that mean? particular desire potential. What the hell does that mean? Well, we were talking in the last episode about how most of us feel this internal pressure that we should be having more sex. We're shooting all over ourselves.

And we talked about getting in touch with what are your actual desires? There is no one perfect number that couples should be having sex every week. There's not the magic number that's going to make your relationship healthy and whole. We need to figure out what is it that feels genuine and good to us. So with desire, there are so many things that can get in the way of desire, that can block it, that can eliminate it altogether. So I want to help people understand what those blockages are and create the space for their desire to be in their lives with the understanding

that their desire is going to look very different from somebody else's desire. There is no perfect amount of desire. And you say there are me aspects of desire. And we aspects of desire. What do you mean by me aspects of desire? I think sex drive is something that happens within us. The libido is something that we feel like within our own bodies. And there are a lot of dynamics that just us on our own, no matter what partner we have, there are going to be different dynamics that come up. So maybe

I grew up in a purity culture. Maybe I have a difficult relationship with my body. Maybe I've never explored my own pleasure and figured out how to bring myself to orgasm. So those are the me dynamics. The we dynamics are things that happen between us and our partner. That sex drive desire, it's something that we foster between the two of us. So sex drive desire, it's something that we foster between the two of us. So it might be things like, we don't feel connected to each other. We're arguing, we haven't had any quality time,

we haven't had a date night, why would I want to be intimate with this person? It may also be the kind of sex we're having. Maybe it feels like sex is all about my partner, and there's not really much in it for me. I'm not experiencing a lot of pleasure. So I think it's useful to break down these dynamics. So we have a little bit of homework in either area, ways to get to know ourselves better, and then ways that we can get to know ourselves and our partner, the connection that we create together.

Yeah, because sometimes we wonder why we don't desire sex. Wonder why our desire isn't higher. I think it's a fear that it's like embedded in us from the time we're made on this earth. And I think that we put so much more priority in your sex life than maybe looking at the whole of your relationship as a full ecosystem and sex is a portion of it.

And however big that slice might be is going to be dependent on you personally and you and your partner. And so I just, I get frustrated because I think that we are all conditioned to believe that sex is the most important and biggest indicator of how good your relationship can be. And desire is one of those things that is ebbing and flowing all the time. Well, one of the points that Vanessa makes about that is sometimes we can wonder why we don't desire more sex in our relationship. Without thinking that maybe we're having shitty sex and that's why we're not desiring it.

For example, I'm recovering from inter-ex here right now, Vanessa, and I would have told you a year ago, I don't need food. I'm good with my five safe foods. They're fine, I'm fine. It's good, I don't need all that shit that everyone else needs. I would have told you that and I would have believed it 100%. Now I'm eating all the foods. They are so good. Okay. I am like happy to, I'm at restaurant. I'm like, oh my God, this is what everybody has been talking about.

This is why everyone wishes I would order something else. I now understand that it wasn't that I didn't need food, it was that I was eating shitty food. So if your desire is low, it could be that you're not exploring all the possibilities of food slash sex. Do you understand what I'm saying Vanessa? Absolutely. It's funny how many comparisons there are between food and sex.

It is so funny. This is a really important connection that so few people make the enjoyment of sex and the desire for sex. Once you hear it laid out, then it's like, it clicks. Like, oh my gosh, of course, how have I never thought about it this way? But so few people make that connection. If you're not enjoying the sex that you're having,

why would you crave that sex? It doesn't make any sense to you. I never crave eating a bowl of overly-steamed mushy broccoli. No, I never crave that. Do I judge myself? Feel like something's wrong with me, something's broken with me. Why do I never crave overly steamed mushy broccoli? No.

Of course. And sex is the same way. If I'm not getting anything out of it, if I'm not enjoying it, which way more people than you would think are having mushy broccoli type sex. Yeah. But why would we have this raging wild uncontrollable desire for it? It doesn't make any sense. In fact, you point out that one third of women experience pain during sex are in pain.

So it's like, why don't you crave stubbing your toe? Because it fucking hurts. That's why, and I don't think there's anything wrong with me because of that. So if you think one in three women are feeling that way, and then we're berating ourselves for not like wake it up in the morning being like, damn, can't wait to get that paper cut. Isn't that statistic wild? Like, why is it? Even I've heard it so many times, I've said it so many times and it still blows my mind, like one in every three women. And the statistic was the last time she had sex.

This is not like one time in my life years ago, I experienced being in the last time. And don't you think that equates to a much bigger part of this ecosystem, which is that if we thought sex was made for our own pleasure and part of our inherent birthright to experience the joy of sexual encounters. is a problem. This is getting in the way of my birthright. I'm going to go figure this out. And we would have the kind of medical care that would take that problem seriously. But I think it's part in parcel of this whole system, which is like sex is a thing that I give to my partner. Sex is a thing that is an obligation and an important part of my relationship. Sex isn't this inherent part of me that I have a right to explore myself and get what I want out of it.

Can you imagine what the world would look like if it was men who were experiencing that much pain? It's almost like they'd be having drugs delivered to them on a weekly basis to solve that problem. Oh, wait, they already do. So interesting. One of the things that Abby and I have talked a lot about from this chapter is we desire is not only what turns us on, but when having this conversation, we often have to talk about turn-offs. We have to talk about this for a few minutes. I mean, let me read from the book some of the turnoffs you've heard from people. Here are some turnoffs.

Try and kiss me with coffee breath, getting drunk, just getting naked. No, I need a little romance first. Burping and farting. Oh, there it is. There's the one that I have very much listened to and input into our relationship. When I bend over to pick something up, he comes behind me and grinds himself against my ass, deep throat and flim clearing. Oh, that's one of mine.

Oh, it makes me shudder. Oh, yeah, that's one of Glennens. When he eats yogurt and it's so loud like how yogurt is such a quiet food favorite Initiating by pulling out the lube and tossing it at me. Oh, that's wow Can we talk about turn-offs for a while and and I and I I want you to just talk to Abby because We have this no because we have this, no, because we have this impenetrable force and immovable whatever argument which is

in your relationship you should get to be your fully human self. But what if your fully human self wants to fart and burp and like do things that make the other fully human self in the relationship just wish for a little more mystery. So the solution that Xander and I could have for this is I gave him a safe space, a safe zone in our health. I said in any bathroom you can fart to your heart's delight in any bathroom that you want. And it doesn't matter even if I am in the bathroom with you. That's your safe zone to fart.

Okay. And that has been working well for us. And it gives me a little bit more patience for, you know, farting. It's a bodily function. We don't have to put control over it. So the times that it just, you know, happens, I have a little bit more grace for him, but when I see him making that effort

to go to his safe zone, that's a little bit more patient. Yeah. So it is a really fascinating question of, you know, how do we navigate different preferences here? And I think the thing is neither partner is wrong. If for one partner farting and burping and being in your sweats all the time, if that feels like intimacy for you, that's intimacy for you. And if you share that with your partner,

though, that can help them realize, you know, it's not just me being inconsiderate and not caring about you and purposefully trying to turn you off and annoy you. But like, that's the way that I experience intimacy with you. And if you're a person who gets turned off by farting, doesn't like it, doesn't feel like intimacy to you, you're right too, because that's your experience. I can appreciate the turn-off value. And I think that I have taken that very much to heart. But we work together, we sleep in the same bed, we live in the same house, there's going to be stuff. I'm never on purpose trying to do something.

I agree with you, and I think it's my body problems. I think it has to do with sex. I think this is all connected. If I am a person who cannot handle body things and being human, and that's why sex is a struggle for me, this is leaking out onto you. Every time you are out there, bodying, I'm like, grow, stop bodying. It's all connected. I want you to be able to body. I know. I know. Guess you don't change for farting. Who the kids are children. I know. Because they're angels. I think you're right. I think it has to do with body, but I think it has to do with another one of Vanessa's huge points, which is the power of anticipation,

which is when our people are up in our faces around all the time, you know what's going to happen. Guess what you have zero anticipation of mystery, because it's right in front of you. And so what I found totally fascinating is the data that anticipation of pleasure is equally impactful to us, chemically, as the actual pleasure. Mm-hmm. What? So that means that the anticipation of the extraordinary sexual encounter

is as good for you and as happy for you as the actual sexual encounter. But we don't have the power of anticipation in our lives when we're in each other's business all day long. And we know what's going to happen. First, I wanted to do something practical for these moments when the farting or the burping and the humaning happens. So one thing that we could do is Glen and this is going to be your homework is to think about what is something that Abby could say in those moments to remind you that she's not doing it on purpose. It's just her body doing body things. And is there something small

that she could do in that moment that is a turn on to you? Very small. Maybe it's just a little wink. Maybe it's giving you a hug and a kiss. She's gonna wink part. She's gonna fart. She's gonna fart. She's gonna say, hey, sorry about that. Just a reminder, that's my body doing body things. I wasn't doing it to you on purpose. A little wink. Whoopsie daisies. A wink face.

Some lightness to the moment. And then Glennon, for you in the moment, your task is to remind yourself, hey, maybe this is my issue with bodies doing body things. So it's just a little tiny reminder for each of you in that moment, I think, could bring some levity and some lightness to those situations. I like it. Okay, so let's go to anticipation, though. Yeah, this is incredibly fascinating research. How it was done was looking at people using slot machines. And so you would think, if somebody's using a slot machine, you would think the most pleasurable experience would be winning money.

What is more pleasurable than winning free money? But actually dopamine levels, which is what gives us that like feel good feeling, dopamine levels were highest when the person was pulling the lever of the slot machine. So it was actually that anticipation of maybe this is going to be the time that I won the free money that was actually more pleasurable than the winning of the money itself. So I saw this research and I thought, God, I think there's a really interesting connection with sex here. So I started thinking about, what is it like for us to anticipate having a pleasurable experience when it comes to sex? And this loops right back around

to the questions that we started episode one with, and then that makes you think about what is great sex to me. I have to take that time to identify what is this vision that I wanna have in my head that I can use to kick in that anticipatory dopamine that's going to get me excited. So this is just a really simple little hack that you can use to increase desire in the moment. And it's also a sneaky way of helping you get more familiar with your own desires and turn on. And I would say as the token non-expert had really, is that up until my marriage,

I can look back now and be like, ooh, bad sex all the way through. Like I can go, really. I have, in fact, I said to my husband once, this is a side part, but I said, just wanna let you know that sex with you is the best sex I've ever had, to which he responded. Thank you. So jury's

still out, but I just want to say that like I think the average heteror relationship, the woman in that relationship, I'm possibly the men, but I don't talk to men and men. They're having the exact opposite of anticipation. So it's not only neutral, it's dread. It is I am doing, I am getting the kids through thing, I were getting dinner on the table, we're getting them to bed and holy shit. Now I know he's gonna wanna have sex. So it's the opposite of that,

which is why the bristle effect, if you come hug me in the kitchen during dinner, I know where this is going, so I've gotta shut this off right now. We're not only not utilizing the power of that, which is why the personal effect, if you come hug me in the kitchen during dinner, I know where this is going, so I've got to shut this off right now. We're not only not utilizing the power of it, it's the opposite. That's coming in. I have one thing I just want to ask you before we go into the next conversation. To me, desire is a very personal experience. It's happening in me. I'm going to do things to try to express my desire for Gleinen. So in terms of creating this anticipation, would you say I should be thinking about maybe our next sexual experience that we have together in like not just the things that we can do,

but the experience both of us can have that could maybe cultivate desire because I do think, you know, for a lot of women, our age, we're busy people, we've got kids, we're running around, sometimes it's hard to cultivate desire because you're tired and you're busy. So is a good solution to that for me to think about, oh, what do I want? And also not having a goal, but like having like a high achievable possibility.

Do you know what I'm trying to say here? Yeah, so there's a great exercise that actually didn't make it into the book that I think could be really beneficial to talk about here. So a lot of us have this idea when it comes to desire that in order to have sex, we should feel this intense, passionate need for it. I have to have it right now. And a lot of us have experienced that in other points of our relationship. So it can reinforce that belief of that's what it's supposed to feel like.

But if that's the bar, that's a really high freaking bar, especially when you've had a long day, you've been doing a lot of stuff, you don't have a lot of time to get yourself up to that level of enthusiasm can feel like a lot. So one thing that I like to suggest to people is, can you think of other reasons why you might want to have sex? So it's not just that I'm feeling this passion in my body, I have to have a release, but what are other reasons? So maybe it's, I love the way it feels after we have sex, when we're just lying there together and we feel so close. Maybe sometimes it's, I like to have an experience just being in my body and not doing, doing, doing all day long.

So if we can come up with different reasons and and brought in that question, so it's not just, do I feel that wild passionate burning desire, but do I feel one of these other reasons that can make it feel much more doable in the moment? I'm Jonathan M. Hevar. I'm a podcast producer and someone who likes fancy things. But I grew up working class. My parents were immigrants with factory jobs. And because of that, I think about class a lot. And I want to talk about it.

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Classy. A new podcast from Pineapple Street Studios. Available now. Wherever you get your podcasts. I want to talk about initiation and then sex menus, which might be my favorite thing in the whole book. I was just watching this movie called The Last Waltz, which is so beautiful just a couple nights ago, and the woman, the character Michelle Williams, keeps approaching her husband. And he's like always cooking or always has his back. And she keeps trying to invite him to sex. And he keeps in a million teeny tiny movements and ways rejecting her.

And then she steps away finally after she's tried so many times, not in any words, but just with her body. And he says something like, you act like it's the most courageous thing you could do to like ask, initiate, initiate. And she says something like, it is. It's the most courageous thing that someone could possibly do. And in relationships, the approach happens in a million tiny, tiny, different ways. And then the rejection happens in a million tiny tiny different ways. And then the rejection happens in a million tiny different ways. And then so often the initiator gets gaslit by that other person. What do you mean?

I didn't reject you. And both of you know that they did just with the turn of a shoulder. And so then there's this, you know, this galaxy between them. Talk to us about initiating and the courageousness of that. It is. It's one of the most vulnerable and intimate things that we can do initiates sex with our partner. And this is another area where it feels easier in the beginning of a relationship and that makes us get scared

and worried about why is it so much harder as we go on. But the main reason that it can feel so hard is because you're asking for something that you want. You know, going back to what Amanda was saying, that struggle, especially a lot of us women, struggle to really express what it is that we want. And you're putting yourself in the position of being turned down. And hearing a no in any area of your life feels shitty, but hearing a no about sex when you put yourself out there feels really, really hard. And so a lot of us wind up initiating in these very subtle ways. We're trying to just tiptoe around it, or just do the bare minimum that might give my partner the sense that we're trying to just tip toe around it or just do the bare minimum that might give my partner the sense that I'm trying to initiate because we're trying

to avoid that vulnerability. But that just turns initiation into exactly that very complicated dance of we both know what's going on, but nobody's wanting to acknowledge it. And it's just, it's a million tiny little paper cuts. So instead, I think it's important for us to all be brave and be courageous and embrace that vulnerability and be a lot more direct with our initiation. And this is where I think the piece around emotional connection comes back into it, too, is to recognize

for both the initiator and the person who's receiving the initiation, what you're really asking for in that moment is, I want to feel close to you. So when we hear our partner say, want to do it, it's really easy, like, oh, God, no, I don't want to feel like, why are you initiating like that? But if we can imagine that what our partner is saying is,

I want to feel close to you right now. That just instantly softens up how we might respond to them. Because when somebody, and this is, I'm stereotyping, but when a man says, want to do it, or you talk a lot about how sometimes people use humor to, like, you call you the boob honk. The boob honk. Yeah. You know, someone will, will grab your boob. Andunk. The boob-hunk. Yeah. Someone will grab your boob and that is like so annoying, but it's also the other person's way of not being vulnerable. Because if I'm just half using humor, then you reject me. I can pretend it was a joke.

Just kidding. It's like the baby talk voice too. Yeah. Oh, I'm not actually talking dirty or talking about sex. I'm just doing the silly baby talk voice. We go to humor when we feel uncomfortable and nervous. Okay, this is a great hot tip pod squad. I love this so much.

You say that we only have one thing on the menu. So when our partner initiates or says do you want to have sex, it's very confusing because you say it's sort of like asking someone to go on a trip with you. I mean, maybe, but I need more details first. How long is the trip? Where are we going? What do I need to pack? When do we leave? When are we coming back? I need more information. This is brilliant because you suggest making a sex menu, which is like, do you want Taco Tuesday, which is just like quick and dirty six minutes, we're in and out, the kids won't even notice we're gone. Or are you asking for like an hour long

whatever that is? Sex menus. Do people really use this? This is some of my favorite feedback that we've gotten from the book. So far, people are going all in on this exercise. I have received multiple pictures of actual printed out menus, collages, laminated, like I am dying, seeing how excited can you send us this? Yes, I just need some help. Some inspiration. Yeah. Yeah.

So there is that the Yes, No, maybe list in the book can be a starting point. We were talking before about like, I don't even know what the options are. That's why we put that exercise in the book. Here are some of the options that you could do. So you can start there, but I love the idea of being very playful with each other and creating a handful of different menus. So that instead of just initiating this, do you want to go on a trip? Well, I don't know. A weekend getaway somewhere that's within driving distance is very different from a two-week-long European

cruise. So having these menus of different options of what sex looks like can make sex feel more fun, more playful, it can be very exciting to make these menus together and to talk to each other about what kind of experience feels fun and exciting to you. What are the different types of experiences that we can come up with? And then the question when you're initiating is not just yes or no, do you wanna have sex? I don't even know what I'm saying yes or no to. It's, here's a menu of options, would you like to select from the menu?

That's so good. And it doesn't always just have to be about physical intimacy. I mean, the whole sex menu thing reminds me of when we'll be upstairs and there's lots of craziest going on before dinner and you'll be like, dance with me. I'm always like, what? And then, but then it's usually like three minutes of dancing in the kitchen. That is a menu item. It's always horrified. You're like, what every time and kind of like scared. Yeah, scared. It's so intimate. Let's just do it.

Okay. Here we go. Now we've moved from desire. Now we're having a conversation about pleasure. Okay, I even the word pleasure. This is a big deal for me to be saying the word pleasure. Pleasure you say this is conversation about what do we each need to feel good. I appreciated so much you're honesty about this in the book. Can you tell us your orgasm story about when you and Zander were first together? Yeah, so I am somebody who I figured out how to orgasm on my own in my teenage years. It felt pretty... Good job. ...and pretty exciting to me.

Very good job. But I've really struggled to have an orgasm with a partner. And I actually never did up until I met Sandra. I faked every single orgasm. I felt like something was horribly wrong with me. So it was my duty to fake it, to make sure that my partner, their ego didn't get bruised. Sometimes it was to make them feel like,

oh, the chemistry is so good between the two of us. I have an orgasm in two minutes of penetration. And so I hit this breaking point before I met Sandra. chemistry is so good between the two of us, I have an orgasm in two minutes of penetration. And so I hit this breaking point before I met Xander. I had this awful experience having sex with somebody who bragged about how easily he was able to make me orgasm. And that was just the line in the sand for me. I'm not doing this anymore. And so when Xander and I started being intimate, then I had this whole other experience. Of now I'm trying to allow myself to receive, but I still don't know exactly what I want. I don't know how to describe what I need because I don't know what it is that I need. And I noticed that

here's this guy who seemed very kind, really funny, really sweet. We were connecting and clicking in so many ways, but when it was us having sex, he would touch me for a couple of seconds and then we'd scoot right on to having intercourse. And I kept thinking to myself, God, like this guy is really kind of all about himself. He's not making any effort to pleasure me. He's not even asking me, did you come?

And I eventually got really, really frustrated. And I finally blurted out something at him. A lot of a lot of lessons in the book were learned the hard way. I like to be exact. I like to learn better. But I said something up to him about, you know, it just feels like you don't care at all about my experience. And I said it in a very aggressive, mean way. I was upset. I blurted it out. And to his credit, he managed to stay really calm. And we had this conversation about orgasm. And he told me that he had had a past partner who told him,

oh, you know, the best thing for you to do is not really pay attention to it. Like women, sometimes we orgasm, sometimes we don't, but just don't ask about it, don't put any pressure on it, just ignore it. And so he really thought that he was being the nice guy. Like, oh, this is what women want. They don't want me to ask about it.

They don't want me to put any pressure. They don't want me to put any pressure. And it was such a fascinating experience for us. And this was really one of the first moments that I realized how important talking about sex is. Here we are having this wildly different experience. He's thinking he's being such a good partner. He has the cheat code to what women really want. And I'm thinking,

to be a no-selfish jerk, should I break up with this guy? Right. And I very well might have had we not ended up having that conversation and realizing, like, oh, the thing that you think I need, it's very different from what I actually do need. Wow. And there's so many morals from that.

Like, a, any experience with a prior partner does not necessarily apply to another partner. But there's a little bit of truth in that, like, the whole, like, I need you to come. I need you to, like, that, that pressure, not good, because we don't want that. We don't want that. I think it's also probably really hard because I've been in relationships with women who I know were faking it. And I like, I would stop and be like, I know that you were fake.

I know that that wasn't real. If I'm with somebody I Want you to have an orgasm every time if that's what you want. I'm not here. I've gone dead inside What do you mean? Just I'm just envisioning you okay This is where we get into it. Yeah, the silent sex clean Um, just I'm just envisioning you. Okay. This is where we get into it. Yeah. The silent sex queens.

Okay. I'll ask you question. Have you ever faked an orgasm with me? No. Okay. Cause that is, but that is because you told me early on that if I faked an orgasm with you, it would be absolutely devastating. Yeah.

So this is a thing that I have done with you many times with us. I'll be like, this just isn't gonna happen. Like, I cannot, it's not gonna happen. And you are fine with it. Like, you, I always felt like with men, it was like some fucking ego thing or it was my duty. Like, it was my duty to have an orgasm with a man. In the same way, it's my duty to laugh an orgasm with a man in the same way it's my duty to laugh every

time they tell a fucking joke that there's some imbalance of the universe that will happen if I don't perform, because this is experience for them. Yeah. Orgasm can feel very performative for us. So I do want to validate it's totally fine to not want to have an orgasm in any particular interaction. orgasm doesn't need to be the one and only way that we define a successful interaction. But I think the language here is really important. So it's not going to happen. To me, I get curious about, is there self-consciousness coming up for you? I'm taking too long, I'm seeing too much. Maybe my partner is getting tired

and just wants us to move on versus, if you were to say something to Abby, like, I feel satisfied now. Mm. Mm. You know, or that's a genuine. Like, I've had a good experience.

I felt connected. I feel filled up. I'm satisfied. I don't need it to have an orgasm. I feel satisfied without that. But that's a very different statement from the film. What a refraint as opposed to it's not going to, I just said, it's not going to happen. Like, that's hustle culture.

It's like a disclaimer. Yeah. It's also a disconnection. It's's not gonna happen. Like that's hustle culture. It's like a disclaimer. Yeah. It's also a disconnection. It's not gonna happen. That's something like outside of yourself versus and I feel satisfied. Well, because all I want is to make sure that you feel pleasure, right?

Like it's my highest priority, more than even having an orgasm myself. I'm always thinking I would prefer. If we were to choose here, I prefer her to have pleasure and an orgasm myself, I'm always thinking I would prefer. If we were to choose here, I prefer her to have pleasure and orgasm, but you know, sometimes it might not necessarily happen. Yeah. And that's also okay. By the way, when you say it's not gonna happen,

it doesn't offend me. You can still use that language. But I think Vanessa is right. And you know this, you say this to me all the time. It's almost always because I feel like it's taking too long. I always am like it's taking too long. It's taking too long. It's never not one time. It actually is sad to me because it's over. I know, but Vanessa, I still don't believe her when she said, I know. But I know that that's crazy to me. Crazy. But what I'm saying to you right now is that I still, when she says that's crazy, but what I'm saying to you right now is that I still, when she says that's crazy,

like, it's not taking too long. I do not believe. So do you? Okay, wait. Tell me try something. Yes. Yes. Okay. I would love for Abby. I would love for you to describe to Glenan. What does it feel like for you to give pleasure to her? And what does it feel like? Like as time is continuing on,

your time is ticking down. What does that feel like for you? And so I want Glenan just to listen to it and see what gets stirred up for you as you hear her talk about what her experience is of giving you pleasure. Okay, this is super personal. So I'm not sure this is gonna actually make the cut,

but okay. That's fine. Yeah, here I go. I think that what I am experiencing in terms of our sex and the and me pleasureing you and you going through the experience is I am actually trying to, is I am actually trying to, and this might sound fucking crazy, but I am trying to experience your feeling, like how you're feeling it, because a lot of times, especially with lesbian sex, there's one person who's getting stimulated and one person who's doing the stimulation. Obviously, there's lots of ways to have sex, but when I am stimulating you, I'm trying to experience it as if I am experiencing. I'm trying to feel how you're feeling, and that's truly what I'm experiencing. So when you're saying it's taking too long, you're cutting me off. That's taking that, the experience I'm trying to transmit.

I'm trying to literally experience what you're experiencing through energetic forces. I have never not once thought, never not once thought, holy fuck, hurry up here. And so I think that that's kind of my experience of it. And I think when your experience of sex might be, this is taking too long because of the history you've had with sex, that is not what I'm feeling. Does that make sense? So Abby is saying, it's not even that she's saying, like, it's okay, babe, I'm happy to hang in there with you.

Like, she's saying, you're cutting me off from having an experience. That's how much I want to give to you. So what does that feel like for you to hear, Glenin? I feel like, first of all, I just cannot believe we're talking about that. Ah! Ah! Second of all, I just cannot believe we're talking about that.

Second of all, I feel like everything that she said is true to her, which feels like new relovatory information. Do you actually think it's bullshit, though? No. Do you think I'm telling the truth? Yes. That's cool. I don't know if you understand what a big deal that it's bullshit though? No. Do you think I'm telling the truth? Yes. That's cool. I don't know if you understand like what a big deal that is for me, but for me to believe that is a very big deal.

Like I understand what she's saying and it made me think, oh, if I'm saying it's taking too long or it's not going to work, it's almost, I'm trying to not be too much, but actually it's kind of could be insulting to her because I'm like, you're not doing it fast enough. I never take it that way. I know, but it could be. Yeah. Yeah. So, this would be so great for you guys to repeat this a few times.

And maybe even before you have sex with each other, for Abby just to take a moment to say like, I just a reminder, like, I want to give to you. It feels good to me. Every moment that I am giving to you is a moment of pleasure for me. So, remind that, like, you need that repetition for it to really sink into you, Glenin, and to really internalize it.

Another thing that can be helpful is, especially in the times where you're feeling a little bit of doubt creep up, is like, imagine that she is literally handing you a gift. It's a beautiful gift. I'll gift-rapped. There's bow on it. She's handing it over to you.

And imagine yourself, like, do I want to just push that gift back at her? Do I want to ignore the gift or can I allow myself to take in the gift? And then for you in the moment, you're still going to have the voice, there might be a little voice back in your head saying like, I don't know, it still might be too long. I don't know, I'm feeling uncomfortable. But if you can find a way to distill what she said down to one phrase that you could remind yourself of in the moment. So like, okay, there's that voice telling me it's still taking too long, but let me

remember her saying, giving you pleasure brings me pleasure or whatever it is. Like something super short that you can remind yourself in the moment. I mean, I like that in terms of even when you talked about like, I'm satisfied. I'm trying to learn how to eat that way. It's not like there's an amount that is right or too much or too little. It's like intuitively feeling like, is that enough for me am I satisfied? So bringing that into sex is just, I wonder too because it's like thinking about it, Vanessa, you just said something like, am I too much? You're too much-ness is pleasurable to me.

So you're almost withholding in some way more of my pleasure. When you're thinking, oh, God, like I'm taking too long, this is more difficult than it should be or whatever the story you're telling, you're actually cutting me off from having the pleasure that I'm seeking in our connection. Your too muchness in your mind is what I'm in for. Like that's what I'm here for.

Can you feel my hands? Oh my god. And I said, I'm going to have to change. I'm drenched. That was so beautiful. And I'm very proud of you guys. I feel like I do want to talk about all the people right now who are listening that are like fuck you, Svians. Yeah, yeah, I got a little bit of that going on. Because truly, I mean, I, in the book, you talk a lot about, you know, orgasm and couples

and all of the things about how we've been taught that we should all be having orgasms through vaginal penetration and how that's not a thing. But the really tough part of the chapter for me when thinking about all of the hetero friends that I have, were the part where you talked about the women who the problem is not that their husbands don't know how to give them an orgasm, or that they're faking, or that whatever, is that their partners don't care if they have an orgasm. The quotes that you have about, you know, my husband says he doesn't feel like taking the time to make sure I orgasm.

My boyfriend won't go down on me, even though that's the only way I orgasm because he says he doesn't enjoy doing it. When my husband and I have sex, it feels very one-sided. He reaches climax and then he stops and leaves me hanging. I mean, what the hell? What do you do then? So first I do wanna say that these men really are in the minority.

I really want that's great. That's awesome. So one thing that I really want women to be able to internalize is the odds are that your partner wants to give to you the same way that Abby was just describing wanting to give to Glenin. I think that's really hard for a lot of us to believe, but whenever I talk to men, 99% of them are like, no, I genuinely enjoy giving.

It's not a, okay, fine, sure, you can have your 10 minutes. It's a, I am getting enjoyment in every single one of these minutes, no matter how long it is. That being said, of course, there are people who are selfish in the bedroom, who are really big jerks, like some of those stories that I got just absolutely shattered my heart. But for me, one of the most interesting experiences writing this book, writing it with Xander, was that we had a lot of these conversations for the first time or in a new way. And one of the things that he was sharing with me is all the pressure that he felt growing up as a man

around being good in bed. And he would tell me, I feel like I'm always supposed to be the initiator. I'm always supposed to want it more. I'm always supposed to know exactly what to do at every step of the way I'm supposed to pull the interaction along, be in control of it. And I'm supposed to, you know, pull the interaction along, be in control of it,

and I'm supposed to give you this incredible jaw-dropping orgasm that no man has ever given you before. And when he first shared that, I kind of laughed like, okay, yeah, whatever. And he kept saying like, no, like you don't understand. Like it's very painful for me. And he's a very, like very progressive feminist man. You know, I didn't expect that level of pain that he had just growing up, you know,

internalizing all of that pressure. And what I came to realize is I think a lot of these stories where, of course, on the surface, these men are being raging assholes, and it's completely unacceptable to treat your partner that way. And I think it's a reaction that's coming from a place of really deep pain and wounding. And there's an opportunity there for both partners to realize the ways that they are in pain and the ways that they're causing each other pain and to have a really beautiful healing. So that was actually the story that I tell at the very end of the book, one of those women

who I admitted, like I felt very cynical about this. I was like, kick this guy to the curb but get rid of the whole man. And she reached back out to me to share an update story of very similar dynamics coming up for him of all this pressure that he felt as a man and all these things that he had seen and porn and stuff he was taught by purity culture and he learned to totally change his approach and he understood the pain that he was causing her. So I do think there's

an opportunity here for couples. But only if you talk. And is talk about it and this is the magic of What you're you're getting people to do here. I like how you talked about How so often one partner will will fake it or In order to protect to save an ego right or to save a fake piece or whatever it is But we're doing that at the sacrifice of our real connection. Like, are you actually trying to save an ego or save your relationship? Because it's only an opportunity if we tell the truth. Vanessa, dang, sister, did you wanna say something?

Cause I was gonna already try to get Vanessa to commit to coming back to talk to us. I've written notes on my hand. You have. She's never done that before in a podcast. I really do want to ask you if you'll come back to talk to us about fantasies and I have so many questions. And talking dirty because, oh my God, I feel like you have been tired.

I really want to make you guys talk dirty a little bit. Yes. Can we do it in this episode? Yes. Okay. I still got to work on talking clean. We can start with, that's what we can start. Let's start with talking clean. Okay. But this was the thing that really, that really got me listening to those past episodes. I was like, we've got some work to do here.

So I think a lot of us, we think of talking dirty as it has to be dirty. It has to be like what you see in porn, very over the top and super explicit and corny. Yes. That's not the only way to talk dirty. It can be talking clean. But the whole point of it is being able to talk to each other during sex. Like, that is one of the most intimate experiences to share with each other. Because you have to be, you have to be present in the moment with yourself, your own body,

your own experience, and you have to be willing to share that with your partner. So I know it sounds big and scary, but I have a very practical exercise that we can do to ease our way into it if you guys feel comfortable with it. I'm super comfortable Vanessa. Okay. I want us to pick a phrase that feels straightforward. So, and it doesn't need to be explicit at all.

Something like that feels good. I like that. Keep going. Anything like that. Keep going. Anything like that. So do you guys have a phrase that comes down? Yeah. Should we say it out loud? Yes.

Oh, we have to say it. I mean, yes. I'm going to help you. This is going to help you. I'm going to say it. I'm going to say it. Go to. Go.

Wait, wait, no, no. That feels good. Let's do a different one. Oh my god. Let's do a different one. A different one. Let's do a different one a different one. Oh Touch me there. Oh Touch me there Does it feel like something that you want to get comfortable saying what do you want to say? I mean I

Truthfully what I oh my God would I usually want to say is like slow it down a little bit. Thank you Okay, so what we're gonna change that around too. I love it. I've so appreciative of you guys going there. So I talk a lot about feedback in the book. We're gonna turn it around into, I want you to slow down, turn it into, it feels so good when you go slow.

Okay, it feels so good when you go slow. Okay, so this is what we're going to do. Is first, I just want you to say that a few times out loud and you can look away from Abby, you can close your eyes, whatever you want to do to make yourself more comfortable. But just repeat that phrase and let yourself laugh, be awkward, get the giggles out. But just repeat it until you're going to feel this moment where it kind of sinks in a little bit like Okay, that wasn't so bad. Okay, so like I you want me to say that out. Yeah, yeah Yeah, and so for most people are they saying it to a million and a half people who are listening? Okay, it's fine

Vanessa. It feels so good when you go slow. It feels so good when you go slow It feels so good when you don slow. It feels so good when you go slow. Don't look at her yet. Nope, nope. It feels so good. You can close your eyes, you can look away, but just keep repeating it. It feels so good when you go slow. Okay, I've got it.

I've got it. Do it one more time. It feels so good when you go slow. Okay, and say it even slower. Okay, it feels so good when you go slow. Okay, and say it even slower. Okay, it feels so good when you go slow. Okay. Does that feel more comfortable? You want a few more repetitions? I just think since I'm on a podcast, I'm not going to feel fully comfortable, but I think you've gotten to the threshold of comfortability that I'm going to reach. Okay. So now, can you and Abby look at each other?

And I want you guys to go back and forth, saying the phrase, so Abby, you're gonna say it too. Okay. And again, when you say it at first, giggle, it's okay, be silly, laugh about it, look away, close your eyes, whatever you need to do, but just keep repeating it, and you're just gonna go one person at a time,

going back and forth. Just keep repeating it until it starts, you get that sinking in feeling of like, okay, that felt a little bit easier. Okay. It feels so good when you go slow. It feels so good when you go slow. Keep going. It feels so good when you go slow.

It feels so good when you go slow. I feel like you're so much better at this than me. It's just like being in bed. No, it's okay. Do the baby talk voice a few times. Get all the energy out on her. It's okay. This is exactly what the exercise is.

It feels so good when you go slow. It feels so good when you go slow. It feels so good when you go slow. It feels really good when you go slow. Ooh, so mad living. It feels so good when you go slow. It feels really good when you go slow. So mad living. It feels so good when you go slow. It feels really good when you go slow. I'm good.

Oh my gosh. I want you guys to do it when we're off camera and we're not. Okay. It's just like I repeated a few more times. Okay. But just it's we just need the repetition. Yeah. We need that repetition for it to settle in,

for us to get a little bit more comfortable. And so you can break it down into steps like this. So for some people, you might even want to start by yourself. I'm just going to do it in my room. You can door close, nobody's around. I'm just saying that phrase. And then you're in the same room, but maybe you're looking away, you're closing your eyes.

And then eventually, the two of you looking each other in the eye and saying it back and forth. And the next step from there would even be, can you play around with the tone, with the inflection, and see what feels the sexiest for you? So is it when you put the emphasis on, it feels really good? Is it, you know, the emphasis is on the slow. So play around with the tone, the delivery of it, until you find that way of saying it, that just like, oh yeah, that feels good and that feels like me too. So it's like in the most, it's finding the words

and the delivery that feel like us, rather than, oh, that's what I saw in this cheesy porn. Yes. Vanessa, you're really good at this. Yeah, this is really personal podcast. I feel, I mean, I'm sorry we couldn't do it with you. Oh, I know she's not enough time for me, Vanessa. Vanessa, thank you for your work.

Everybody go get sex talks. I'm telling you, thank you Vanessa. I love you, pod squad. I did really, really freaking hard things for the pod squad today. Yes, you did. Okay, later, I'm hard things for this pod squad today. Yes, okay. You're later proud of all of them. Leave it at all in the field.

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