We Can Do Hard Things with Glennon Doyle - SELF CARE: How do we identify our real needs and finally get them met?

Episode Date: June 29, 2021

1. How to create lives that we don’t need to escape from. 2. Why our resentment toward others is our Secret Self-Care Signal. 3. Why refusing to be selfless is the best way to care for others and the world. 4. How to stop passing down the brutal legacy of martyrdom to our children. 5. Glennon’s life-changing spiritual practice: Habitual Quitting. To learn more about listener data and our privacy practices visit: https://www.audacyinc.com/privacy-policy Learn more about your ad choices. Visit https://podcastchoices.com/adchoices

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Welcome to We Can Do Hard Things. Thank you so much for coming back. Today we're talking about self-care. But we're going to talk about deep self-care, inner self-care. So much of the self-care we see sold to us everywhere is just about the care of our outer shell, right? It's self-care as manicures and skin cream and massage and all of that and I happen to love all that stuff. But that's not the self-care we're talking about today because that kind of self-care it's like if

if the only way we ever cared for our car was to like if the only way we ever cared for our car was to shine the hood. Right? There's a whole other self we have that is on the inside that we ignore so often. And often the kind of self-care we're sold, which is just about the outer shell, is really more about other people's experience of us instead of our own experience in our own body, right? A lot of that kind of outer shell self-care feels more like meeting the world's needs for us than meeting our own needs.

Okay, so today we're not talking about grooming or appearance maintenance. we're talking about getting beneath the hood because there isn't inside of us that needs care. For many of us that desperately needs care. Today we're going to talk about how to return to and care for that true tender inner self that we've likely been abandoning forever. Let's wake up that inner self, let's invite them back to life with the promise that from here on out, we're gonna take good care of them. Let's get started.

Okay, sister, we are talking about self-care today and everybody has a different definition of what self-care is. So tell me what self-care means to you. For me, self-care is meeting your needs. And the problem is that many of us don't really know what our needs are, much less how to meet them. So we're just throwing darts at the wall based on what the marketplace offers as self-care and performing triage when things get really bad.

And there is plenty of on offer since the self-care industry is currently like a $450 billion industry. And so we do this instead of taking the time to know ourselves enough, to know our needs, and making the incremental life adjustments that actually meet them. Or maybe that's just me.

No, it's not just you. So if we're constantly looking outside of ourselves, for what self-care is, first of all, that's so ironic, right? World, tell me what I need. But if we ask the world what we need, the world will always offer us commodified versions of that kind of help, right?

Right, and when you think about it, in any need that you have, if you look to the, ideally, you should be able to look to the proposed solution and be able to draw direct line back to the need. But I don't think that many of us are doing that. I think we're just kind of looking at what the world offers is self-care, thinking if we add enough of that, we should feel taken care of,

but we're not taking the time to identify the need and then actually to figure out what exactly that would be and see if it's working. Correct. So it's like, I must still feel alone and angry and lost because I just don't have enough candles and manicures. Right, right. And then you feel doubly worse because this, I already had all the solutions

and I still have a problem so there must be something super wrong with me. Yeah. And it's so interesting how all the solutions that the world offers us that have to do with self-care are some kind of break from your life, some kind of escape from your life, right? Something that you do to get away from your life as opposed to what you and I have found true self-care is, which is always like dealing with the hard thing in your life. Like the piece of life, right? Yeah, the piece is like the reward for going through dealing with the hard thing. The piece is not a fake thing that you use to take a break from your life.

Right. Right. The piece, the real self-care is making a life that you don't have to escape from on an emergency basis all of the time. I think that, I mean, I'm so interested in this episode because I feel like on a scale of one to ten historically I have been a solid one at self-care and you to my view are right about a ten in terms of how you take care of yourself. So how do you how do you explain how you arrived there?

Mm-hmm. Well, I would say that that is an accurate description of the second half of my life, right? I mean, the first half of my life, I was a zero itself care. I was an addict, which is the ultimate escape from life as opposed to dealing with life, right? So you think a candle is a escape from life. Imagine 79,000 drinks a day, right? That's what I was trying to do is just

escape my life instead of deal with it. But this thing happens with people who allow themselves to break, right? So years and years of addiction led me to several rock bottom moments, which anybody, most people who have been to those places, see them as this humongous blessing for many reasons. But the reason for me is that when you hit rock bottom, it's like in surrender and you're very lucky because you have resources around you who will help you at that moment. You enter these spaces, which might be, you know, AA or it might be therapy or it might be whatever it is you use in that moment to grasp onto, which teach you how to be human.

Okay, this is a blessing of rock bottom that only people who have a break and meant their mental health receive. Because tragically, we don't teach people how to be human. You know, we don't teach how, what yourself is and how you meet your needs so that you can live a good, solid life. I mean, I used to teach third grade, and I used to think, why I would sneak in these life lessons right into my

morning meetings. But these recovery groups taught me how to human, right? taught me how to that I had these different selves that I'd been ignoring for decades. And they were my emotional self and they were my intuitive self and they were my mind and they, and how to slowly build a life that you don't have to constantly escape from because that's what recovery is. Right. So the, the beauty of allowing yourself to break and ask for help is that you learn how to be human.

So there's that. And then there was this moment when I fell in love with Abby, when I really had to put all of that to the test, right? So I had this moment where I right? So I had this moment where I, you know, anybody who's read Untamed or listened to me do the 49,000 interviews about that knows that I had a real moment where I had to decide whether I was going to return to my broken marriage or whether I was really gonna honor this self, it kind of rose up and made itself known when I fell in love with Abby. And it didn't feel like a love decision. Oh, should I go back to Kragher?

Should I love Abby? Like that was not it. It was like should I go back to my broken life where I'm slowly dying so that I don't rock the boat, so that I keep everyone else comfortable, so that I continue to honor everyone's expectations of me. Or do I break everybody's hearts, hurt my kids, blow up my little on the outside perfect family,

so that I don't have to abandon myself again. Do I abandon everyone's expectations of me and honor myself or do I continue to honor everyone's expectations of me and abandon myself? It felt like a life or death situation for me. As you know, I almost decided to go back to my broken life so that I didn't have to rock the boat, but I had this moment with Tish where I looked at her and I thought, oh, my God, I'm staying in this marriage for her. But what I want this marriage for her.

And if I would not want this marriage for my little girl, then why am I modeling bad love in an unbraved life and abandoning self. And calling that good parenting, calling that good parenting. And the reason for that was very clear. The reason for that is that I was taught trained conditioned to believe that a good mother, that good parenting, is abandoning yourself, right? It's just burying your needs, your dreams, your ambition, your true feelings, all of it, and calling that love. Yeah, being a martyr, being a martyr, being selfless. It's the epitome of what, I mean, look

at all the mother's day cards and all of the compliments to women. She's so selfless. She's so selfless. And then we wonder why we don't know how to get our needs met, why we don't know who ourselves are. It's because it's not our fault. I mean, it's our responsibility to figure out, but it's not our fault. It's been held up to us as the epitome of womanhood is selflessness.

Imagine that. Think about that. The way you succeed as a woman is to not have a self. Right? That is just, you know, what I feel so strongly that, you know, in listening to women for so long, that the way to speak to a woman is to appeal to her need to love well. Women want to love well. They want to love their people well. And I just have come to the idea that we cannot love our people well if we do not have a self. If you cannot say, I love you, if you don't even

know who that I is. Right? And when we when we pass down this idea to our children or to our partners or to the world by how we live, that love is martyrdom, then it's just a brutal legacy to pass on. So that's when I really started realizing, oh, I see, when I abandoned myself, I am also abandoning my children. When I abandoned myself, I am also abandoning the world. When women abandon ourselves, we do not offer the gift of ourselves

to our children, to our partners, to our world. And that is a bandiment of everything else. We're perpetuating what always has been if we're not bringing ourselves to the table. Right. And when we bring our true ourselves to the table, then we grant permission for everyone else in our lives to bring themselves to the table, which is all that we freaking need to do in life, right? Is to live who we are free and true. And so to me, to get back to your question, this moment was when I realized, oh, self-care is actually the best kind of others care. Right?

We cannot accept any life or work or relationship or that is less true and beautiful than the one we want for our children or our people. And when you put it that way, it's actually selflessness is selfishness. That's correct because it's you don't want to... you're actually not paying the small price of what it costs to release yourself into the world and to make the world around you better through that or true or at least at least are we true or if it's not better. And instead of just like quietly going around serving the needs of others, it's a very

interesting. It's peacekeeping instead of peacemaking. Women are trained to be peacemakers. I will not rock the boat. I will not challenge this idea that I should stay quiet and just serve my whole life. So that keeps the peace, but it never makes real peace, right? Which peacemaking is challenging the status quo that keeps people quiet and hiding, right? I'm Jonathan M. Hevar. I'm a podcast producer and someone who likes fancy things.

But I grew up working class. My parents were immigrants with factory jobs. And because of that, I think about class a lot. And I want to talk about it. That's what we're doing on my new podcast, Classy. And what did you all eat? You know, trailer food. I was like, girl, we're not doing that anymore.

You'll hear from people who told me awkward, embarrassing, and strangely intimate things about what class means to them. She said, you know, for the house cleaner, I hide the tag on the $6 bread. And I just thought, don't you think she knows that you're wealthy? You're hiding the tags from yourself. Classy. A new podcast from Pineapple Street Studios. Available now. Wherever you get your podcasts. I feel like that I want you to tell a story from an entamed about the kids on the couch because I feel like when we, since the ultimate compliment for a woman

is that she's selfless, I feel like girls are conditioned, they see that and their condition very early to start looking everywhere else other than inside of them or what their needs are. So can you just quickly tell that story because I feel like it's kind of a micro-pacosum of everything. Yeah, so this is a moment when I was really searching for how I lost myself, right? And I, as always, was looking out into the world for examples, right, of this phenomenon. And Chase was having a bunch of friends over to watch a movie and I stuck my head into the room and I said, is anybody hungry? Okay. And I will never forget what happened next. So all of the boys

that were in the room without taking their eyes off the television, they all said, yes. Okay. So you see what happened there, sister. They heard a question. They went inside their bodies. They got an answer. They set it on the outside. So they completely nailed this Q&A. All the girls did something completely different. Okay. So picture this. They're all silent at first. No one says a word, none of the girls. And then every single girl in that room, I think there was about five. Each took her eyes off the television and started looking where you'll never guess at each other. At each other's faces. Okay, so just pause right there pretend this is happening in slow motion because that's what it felt like. Every single girl to find out

if she inside herself is hungry starts looking at her friend's faces. Okay. And then in some kind of wild, silent, mental telepathy, all the girls, select a spokesperson girl silently somehow because this braided girl in the corner looks over at me and she says, no, thank you, we're fine. You know that, right? You know that. We're fine.

We will find ourselves to death, right? We will starve to death, physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually. We will starve to death and say we're fine. Because that's what the world tells us to say, to smile and say we're fine. So in that moment, I thought, oh, okay, that's right. That's how I forgot how to know what I need and want. When I learned how to please, right? Because in our culture, boys are often taught to look inside themselves

in every moment of uncertainty and speak their need. And little girls are taught in every moment of uncertainty, which what is life, if not just one endless moment of uncertainty, right? To look outside themselves. Not for desire, not for need, but for permission. For consensus. For consensus.

Yes. Yes. So that's, it feels so frustrating, but it's like, oh, it starts so early, but what's helpful to me is that since you can see that conditioning happening as a process of looking outside of ourselves, that has to mean that there's a way to deprogram ourselves from that. If it can be done to us, we can undo it.

It's so wild. It reminds me of this article I was reading recently where they said how many women die every year from choking on food, because when they're choking in a restaurant, their first instinct is to not make a scene. Just to run to the bathroom or outside, and then they can't get help, and then they die. So we literally die of politeness by the not wanting to stay in the room to get help. And I think that happens a thousand times

in emotional ways. And you know, we excuse our needs from the scene, don't get the help. And then it just for me, I was like, that's a life analogy right there. It's so perfect. Think, wait, wait, just for a second, I know we need to move on, but like, think about that.

Like put that scene in slow motion. Why does she get up from the table? She doesn't want to disturb her family with her choking to death, right? She doesn't want to disturb her family. She doesn't want to be embarrassed. Be embarrassed, right? She doesn't want to cause a scene.

She doesn't want, she's looking weird. When you're choking, I imagine you don't look pretty, right? She doesn't want to cause a scene. She doesn't want, she's looking weird. When you're choking, I imagine you don't look pretty, right? So she excuses herself to have her needs, whatever needs she has met in the bathroom alone. And then she dies there and doesn't cause a scene. Right. And then she abandons her family completely. Mm-hmm. Right. That that that that that that didn't work out so well. No. That selflessness ended up not being a good look for everyone involved. That's right. Here's something else I've realized that just in the past few months that I'm trying to work on it. I believe that we think if we don't take that time to

identify our needs and to meet them that we can just opt out of that part of life. We're being selfless, but we're just, we've decided that's not a big priority for us. We're just going to do without that for the season of life, this whole life, whatever it is. But the thing about needs is that they demand to get met. So they will get themselves met, whether you're doing the work or not. And so it will either be through a way that benefits your life or destroys your life to some extent. So I think that if we come to the place where we really realize there's no opting out of this process. So give us an example of that.

What was an example of not getting your needs met in a proactive way? So you destroy yourself in a of not getting your needs met in a proactive way? So you destroy yourself in a way of getting that need met. So I think, I mean, in the sobriety episode, we just did that you'll either get your higher need met to, you know, set a boundary in your life that you need to meet, or you will just compulsively numb and accept that as your life or you will, you know, really work to identify what you need from your worthiness or belonging need or you will overspend your life into chaos and you'll actually end up with much many more problems.

And actually that, this, this, I read recently that psychologists are starting to identify this relatively new epidemic that is happening that is called revenge bedtime procrastination, which to me, I'm completely one of the people who are involved in this. But it describes the way that people who are starved for any free time or leisure time in their life. They make up for it at night time by scrolling, scrolling, scrolling, looking at their phones just for hours on some kind of activity online when they should be sleeping. So they're sacrificing sleeping. And we're doing this

in mass because a deep part of us knows that we deserve and need some time just for ourselves. But we're accepting the shitty consolation prize of the scrolling for our tonight when we should be sleeping. And instead, we are actually getting less of what we actually need. It's so interesting. It's like, if you find yourself like a toddler defiantly getting what you need, like if you are a 45 year old woman and you find yourself, well, I need the like behaving like a toddler trying to get a need met, that's a sign that you're not getting that need met in a grown-up way

that you actually have the right to do. Right? Because you are grown-up. Okay. Let's talk about the ways, because when you think about self-care, this is one of the ways that I think about it. If I don't know what something means, I try to think of the opposite of it. Right?

So if you're going to care for yourself, none of us know what that means. So what's the opposite of that? What's the opposite of caring for something? Abuse neglect, abandonment. Right? Abuse neglect, abandonment. If we are abusing ourselves, neglecting ourselves or abandoning ourselves, we know we're doing the opposite of self care. Right? And the tragedy of that is that it's, women are, little girls are trained to abandon their emotions, right? I mean, one way we definitely do not take care of ourselves is that we don't take care of our emotional lives, our emotional selves. We don't tend to our emotional selves. And that is because we are trained not to.

I mean, I was a third grade teacher. I was also a small child that was a girl. So I know that I was constantly taught. Smile, be accommodating, be pleasant, be pretty, don't be angry. If you're mad at somebody, just be nice about it. Right? Other people's comfort. Don't make her sad. Other people's comfort, don't make her sad.

Other people's comfort is more important than yours, right? So don't hurt someone else's feelings, even if it means abandoning your own feelings. You're self, right? You have this, when you're a little girl, you have a certain amount of emotions you're allowed to feel, and they usually include pleasantness and gratefulness. Those ideas are feminine, right? But the ideas of anger, and jealousy, and sadness, and envy, and heartbreak,

these are not, those are not for feeling. Those are unfeminine, those are uncomfortable for the world, for a little girl to show, right? And so we learn to, we learn that if we feel angry or jealous or whatever, that those are not... That doesn't mean there's something wrong out there, that's not information for us to use. That means that there's something wrong with us. Right? Just have to bury it, just bury it, and show something more palatable to the world.

That's right. And then we wonder why later, we don't know how to tend to or care for those feelings inside of ourselves. In fact, we know anger, envy, jealousy, heartbreak. All of these emotions are so important. They give us such good information about who we are and what our boundaries should be and what we're meant to do in life. And all, I mean, I've learned to think

of the comfortable emotions as just recess. Those are just the breaks, like the uncomfortable emotions that hit us, that hit me. They might be uncomfortable, but those are the lessons. That's where I learned the most about who I am and what I meant to do. And for the first half of my life, I numbed, well, let's talk about like what,

what do we do? Right? When we don't deal with these uncomfortable notions, like what does that look like for me? It looked like allowing myself to be ghastly for my whole life, right? Like, no, you shouldn't be angry. That's weird. Like, you're too emotional, you're too much, you're too whatever. Like, that's a you problem. Right? That's not a sign that something's wrong out here. That's a sign that something's wrong with you. I just over time felt like, oh, I'm crazy. It's not them, it's me.

It's not the world. It's not the family. It's not, it's me. Like, I have a problem. I need to go to therapy. You know, God, I'm so desperate for women. I'm all for therapy, but also sometimes you don't need to go to therapy. You need to go to the polls. You need to go to the voting booth. You need to go to your dad and say the stuff. You need to like, so that's why the refrain of untamed is you're not crazy you're a goddamn cheetah that's a very important thing for me is it's the it's the resistance of the the the

gaslighting of women constantly in their families in the world that says your anger means you're crazy or your anger means there's something wrong with you and often it just means there's something wrong and it's just data I mean for for I think it's just a missed opportunity if the if the effort is to know yourself and lead a peaceful, productive life full of joy. If you if you understood early that resentment and jealousy were in fact just very helpful for you to data points to say, oh, when I'm feeling resentful and jealous, even though it comes out as, I don't like that person. Actually, I'm just super annoyed that they're always posting their friai, you know, pictures of date night.

I think I don't like them, but actually I just know that I need, I would like to have a, a Freya for my year. Just what? Just a Freya. Just a Freya. But that helpful, helpful, it's just helpful, instead of just being like,

I'm thankful. Helpful instead of just being like shameful. Helpful instead of shameful. Not shameful. Envy, not shameful. Helpful. Pointing us towards something that we need to meet in our own lives. Right.

And that's a self-care thing. If we're able to see why is this emotion rising up in me, what is it telling me about me as opposed to what is it telling me about that person that happens to be on the other end of it? And PS, that's just something we can teach people. That's just something we can teach children, that we can teach little girls, that we can actually, okay. So we're going to wrap up this conversation with this. What I really feel like this constant abandonment of our emotions, the result of it, the consequence of it is that we lose self-trust.

Okay? Because if we had a friend that came to us, and every time she said, I'm in pain, we ran away. We grabbed the booze, we left. We said, I can't deal with this and we ran. Or we buried it. We told her to bury it. We told her to numb it. We would not have any trust with that friend anymore, right? Because in her most vulnerable moment, we were constantly leaving.

And yet, in our own most vulnerable moments, we are always leaving ourselves. Every time the vulnerable emotions, like fear and envy and anger and heartbreak come to us. We bury it, we pretend it's not there, we deny it, we deflect it, we numb it out. Those are all forms of abandoning ourselves. And we learn over time that we are not people who will stay with us, that we are alone when things are hard, right?

And when we stay with ourselves, we are in our own trust. And we become women who know that we will stay with ourselves. We don't even need to keep panicking about whether other people will abandon us because we know we will never abandon ourselves. I want to know this. How do you, if you're starting from zero because again, see aforementioned level one,

how do you start building your tool chest of go to self-care. Okay, how do you do that? Okay, so you mean if we're not gonna just go the mental health crisis, well for people who are like, I do think that this higher level stuff is very important because I don't think you're ever gonna meet a need

if you don't identify what your need is. That's huge. But I think for, you know, my self-care is occasionally, I'm going to need to run away from home because I don't have this arsenal, it's a terrible word to use, but I don't have this tool chest of self-care tools that I can turn to in the interstitial moments where things are not good. Yes, okay. So, all right.

One of the things I think we can do to get even to the need is to learn to stop abandoning ourselves constantly, right? We have to figure out how do we stop abandoning ourselves constantly? Here's an idea to figure out how do we stop abandoning ourselves constantly. Here's an idea, you know, sister very well, my chart, my poster that I keep on my office wall, that on one side has a list of what I call easy buttons, and on the other half is a list of what I call reset buttons. Okay, so the easy buttons are things that I have historically done in my life to abandon

myself. Okay. These are, you know, you remember those easy buttons from the Staples commercials where somebody would just hit this red button and you would just be transported out of our your painful situation and be in this pain-free existence. So what I have learned over my life is that when I transport myself out of the pain, out of what Pemissha Jordan calls the hot loneliness of being human, that I miss all my transformation. Right?

That everything that I need to learn about my own needs, about myself, to become the next version of myself is inside the hot loneliness. How do I stay inside the hot loneliness? Well, first of all, I don't abandon myself. Things on that side of the list are booze, binging. Online shopping. I'm like thinking out honest, I want to be on this list. I mean, I also, you know, just crazy online shopping. I mean, I don't even have to buy the thing. I could just pour stuff into my cart.

It's so weird. It's so weird. One time Abby actually, she thought I wanted all this stuff in our cart and it was a terrible day. I was like, no, no, that's not stuff I want. That's just what is it? I don't know. I'm not going to use my shitty percent. That's my shitty consolation pass. I don't know. Also, I have this thing that's on the Easy Button, which is I have this weird, if I really want to abandon myself, but I can't, I have this thing where I just eat a ton of carbs and sugar and then go to sleep. It's like cereal or, I don't know what it is,

but it's like, I know that if I don't want to feel, I can just eat a ton of sugar, it'll make me so tired I can go to sleep. Anyway, those are the Easy Butt buttons. They help me abandon myself. They also are things that I always feel worse after doing. I feel kind of better in the short term because I'm numb and then worse afterwards. That's how you know that it's an easy button. On the other side of the chart, I have my reset buttons. These are the things that help me stay with myself, right? Not abandon myself. And it's so wild because they're all the most simple things on earth, like drink a glass of water. Take the dogs for a walk.

Take a break, read a chapter of a book. They're all the most simple, basic things, but they're little ways that help me believe that I can process things, that I can stay with things, that I don't have to run away. They're self-care. They're real self-care. Right. And I think things too, that we don't think about as self-care are having the hard discussions, setting a boundary, RSVPing, no. We don't think of those things as self-care, but I think that they are. And I think that those are a lot of the self-care because that goes back to the, what kind of life do we not need to escape from?

It goes back to what kind of weak will I not need to escape from? What kind of day will I not need to escape from? And what kind of relationship will I not need to escape from? And by making those boundaries, making those decisions in advance, you actually will have less to escape from and that's setting yourself up for. Yeah, the real, the hard thing about this

is that real self-care is the hard things. Real self-care is being the Joan of Arc of your life. It's like looking at the battle that you need to fight and this and this and this and like going straight towards it. And then peace is the result of doing that hard thing, right? It's, it's, it's, listing all the ways that your needs are not getting met and one at a time dealing with

it. Right. Right. Okay. And just before we go, I just want to, on the other part that you talked about with the girls in the couch, and here's the feelings you're allowed to feel, we do the exact same thing to boys. Oh, I mean, we do all, we, we give them a range of emotion. That's about an inch wide and say Here's all the emotions you're allowed to have anything else is deeply uncomfortable to the world

deeply inconvenient to the world now good luck with your self-care So I just want to say that that is actually if you think about it in the reverse how that kind of selfishness I mean that kind of selflessness is selfish in us. Think about the trauma and pain in the world that has resulted from the toxic masculinity that has resulted from men being selfless in only being allowed an inch worth range of emotions. We should dedicate an entire episode to boys and how they're conditioned, but something really interesting happened when I told this story on a male podcast to a male podcast host and he said, no, no,

no, the boys aren't going inside themselves either. And I said, what do you mean? And he said, boys are trained to be certain and to be hungry. None of those boys was going inside themselves. The reason why you heard from them immediately is because their conditioning is every bit as strong as the girls, and that they immediately knew they had to be hungry, they had to be loud, they had to be certain. In fact, some, I think in Liz Planks' book, she says

that in any given circumstance, little girls will eat less in front of their male peers, than they need, and little boys will eat more than what, because they're trying to meet a conception, right? So, boys are trained just as severely as girls to abandon themselves. And I feel like so much of what people, for people to truly believe that, it's a leap for a lot of people.

My selflessness is what makes my world go around. My selflessness is what makes my family function, my community function. But, and they may have a hard time stepping in to, to your truth that it's actually, um, better for those around us. But just for a second, think about, I think there are people universally accept that toxic masculinity, which is men only being able to express this very narrow range of emotion, has resulted in very terrible things for the world. Yes.

If that is true for men, then isn't it quite possible that it is also true for women that allowing us this toxic femininity, which is this one inch range of emotion actually has had and is having very negative effects on our world? Yes. Amen. It's almost as if so many of the world's problems come from people so desperately trying to adhere to these ideas of toxic masculinity or toxic femininity that the solution could be to let go of any ideas of gender and what it means to be a woman or a man at all and that what we should really be doing

is looking at the whole realm of human possibility and instead of saying how do we make this a girl or this a boy just saying how do we allow each human being the full experience of being human? Let's come back with some hard questions. Alright, we're back with some hard questions. Our first question is a voice mail from Sarah. Hi, Glennon. I'm in to start, my name is Sarah. And I cannot tell you how much I enjoyed and was moved by and inspired by untamed. I tell all of my friends. My question is, I'm in a season of life where I have two young-ish kids. I have a nine-year-old and an almost five-year-old. And I am blessed after teaching high school for so long

to be able to stay homeless in. My question is this, Gordon. I cannot figure out how to take care of myself. I know how important I keep hearing, how important, especially during COVID, everyone's that self-care, self-care. You've got to take care of yourself. You've got to make time for yourself. I can't figure it out.

I am bouncing from one kid to the other. I am bouncing from one activity to the other. I am bouncing from one thing that I need to do for my husband to a child. I just can't figure it out. Can you please help me? Thank you. Love you, Grinning. I mean, I think about when I was just dripping with babies, it's just so freaking hard

when they're little. Like I just part of me once desperately to demand that people who have young children are more militant about their self-care. And the other part of me just wants to say, you know what, forget it, like you can't, you just, it's survival mode, just make it. Because part of me thinks I didn't even figure out really how to care for myself until the kids were older, but that's not actually true. So here's how I survived.

When you have small children, you are in the role of your life. Like everything's a role. I'm a mom, mom, mom, mom, mom, mom, mom, mom, mom, mom, mom, mom, mom, mom, mom, mom, mom, mom, mom, mom, like everything you're just a machine of caring for other people's needs. And I think the way I survived was that I made sure that I had a moment or two or longer every single day where I was in my soul and not my roles. That's when I started writing.

And sometimes I could find eight minutes a day, seriously. But it was just a flash during the day where I remembered my soul, right? And everybody has different ways of doing this. I mean, for me, it's writing. For sure. Reading and writing. But some people, it's, no, this one friend. When I talk to this one friend, that's my soul speaking, not my roles, right?

For some people, it's a quick dance in the kitchen. For some people it's, I don't know, I don't know what it is for you, but you have to, it's the there she is moment, right? That people talk about from untaimed. That was never about Abby. That was about a flash when I saw myself again. Right? So I just think that, you know, the fact that women keep the world running is beautiful and wonderful. And it's also tenuous and scary, you know, because if we get lost in our roles constantly then we have nothing to hold on to when those roles change. So I would say to Sarah, find something throughout your day that you commit to every day that

you remember your soul. That's so good because if the steps in the last section were reconnect with your soul, that's how you're going to figure out your needs. Then that's going to help you figure out what meets your needs. Is that if you have really young kids, it's just a don't lose touch with that first step. Like remind yourself you have a soul. You have a soul. You have a soul. Yes. And maybe you don't think you're at your soul's needs while they're little. But you just remember that you have one. And if you just remember you have one, you'll be light years ahead of most people by the time you're kids turn 10. Amen.

Amen. Oh gosh. Okay, our next question is from Nick. My name is Nick and my question is about burnout. As a teacher in this current pandemic, I know myself and all of my other colleagues are wicked, wicked burnout. could we could burn out? And my question is how can we best handle the situation when we aren't able to stop the thing that's burning us out? It's been a big focus on self care and we need to handle the stress. So when the stress keeps coming every day and we can't stop it, how can we deal with that situation? Thanks. That's so good because it feels like Nick is in this situation where he's saying,

I know what my need is, but, and I know what could meet that need, but that's not an option. And instead, they're throwing all this extraneous, how about this thing instead? How about you have this other self-care that's more palatable to us than the actual meeting of your need, which I feel like happens all the time. But don't you think just Nick admitting it's not working

is part of it? And if you could get with his other teacher colleagues which God bless and keep all of you during this incredibly, I can't just as an aside, the teachers have been such heroes. They have re-imagined the entire educational ecosystem in about two weeks time, figured it all out, are holding up the whole sky for all of us.

God bless them. But do you think just getting together with your colleagues who are doing the same thing and just if you could at least have an agreement and an acknowledgement of each other and how that what is happening is horseshit and isn't compatible with your needs that that would be a step. Yeah, I mean, listen, I was a teacher for a very long time and I know teacher meetings. I know the meetings. Okay. I know all of the things we discuss at that meetings, at those meetings, and how many of them could be pushed to another time. I would love to see Nick lead something with his fellow teachers, just saying, what's not working? I think like we all think we have to have a plan

for what will work better if we're going to even bring up what's not working and I don't think that's true at all. Like I think there's Liz talks about this idea that the not this phase is very important. Okay. So like in a relationship or in a job or in the world, the time where we just come together and say, this isn't working in here's why. Like we look at our life and we say, I don't know what, but not this. I think it would be very cool for Nick to just ask for a not this moment. And like all of the teachers start brainstorming about what is not working for them in this moment. And I don't know if the result of that is just more connection and less aloneness, none of which can hurt.

But I do think that we have to allow space for the dec- you know, before we deconstruct or reconstruct, there is a moment of just not even creative, but just a pouring out of what's not working. I would love to see teachers be able to do that. And that's true because when you're saying not this, it becomes an evaluation of your individual need. You're not saying, I'm not a strong enough person, so I can't handle this. It validates you individually. And then it also collectively helps you, whether it's in a relationship or in a work situation like next, it helps you to clarify your core values. Because you're all agreeing not this, that core value that you're deciding on will help drive eventually what is.

Yes. And it's, and it's also what you talk about so beautifully in the caretaker episode. It's also making the invisible visible, right? It's, you know, I as a teacher got really annoyed actually with everyone constantly talking about how we were heroes and never doing crap to help us, right? Never paying us more, never giving us more time, never taking care of our actual needs, just padding us on the head with all the hero talk. Right? So, a resistance of no, here's what we do. Get together.

Here's what we do. Here's how many hours in the day. Here's how we're holding up all the sky. And just doing that step, to me it's the Naomi Osaka model. It's like, not this. I don't know what, and it's actually not my entire responsibility to figure out how to make this work, but it is my right to say not this. But the world figured out.

Yes, that's good. Thank you, Nick. Thank you, Nick. We have another question. And this is from Serena. I want to stay with myself, but I get so tired of me. Oh, yes. Is it ever okay to quit?

Oh, I love this question. Can I take this one? Please do. Please do. Quitting is my spiritual practice. First of all, I love that her name is Serena, and this is her question. I don't know, something about Serena needing some serenity from Serena's own self. Oh, I love it. Okay, yes. Okay, I love this. I get so unbelievably tired of myself.

Okay. And there are many reasons for that. One is because my job is to constantly talk. I'm so sick of hearing myself process and talk. Number two, I am exhausting. Just being living in my head is a lot. It's a lot. As Abby says, you're exhaustive. Oh, I am exhaustive. That's so sweet. And also, I have no escape because I have no booze,

but whatever. I have no, whatever it is that people take the edge off, which by the way, that saying is even so problematic, right? Like I just feel like we need our edge. Our edge is what gets shit done. Okay. But yes, I get tired of myself. And over and over again, people will ask me,

how do you not quit, especially with together rising, because that's intense work, right? Like, how do you constantly look at the world and keep doing this and never quit? And the answer to that is, I quit all the time. Quitting is my favorite. Like quitting is my spiritual practice. I am so committed to quitting every single day I quit. So I wake up in the morning and I care the most amount about everything.

Okay, I drink all the coffee, I get so fired up, I care about people, I care about the world, I work my butt off to do all of the things. And then right around, I don't know, five o'clock, sometimes, six o'clock, sometimes. Serena, what I need you to know is I stop caring. Completely. I do not care.

I do not care about the world anymore. I do not care about the people. I do not care about the pain. I do not care. I do not care. I stop caring. I drop out of whatever's happening. I eat the food.

I sit on the couch. I do my trash TV, I care the least amount. During the day I care the most amount, during the night I care the least amount. And that is how I survive life. Right, I consider quitting not as a break from creation, not as a break from creating, but as an essential part of creating. Right? As just as important as showing up is not showing up. Okay, so to answer your question, Serena, yes, quit. Embrace quitting. More quitting, not less. Quit every day. Quit every damn day, Serena. Never stop quitting, Serena. Never stop quitting Serena. Never stop quitting. All right, what's the next right thing? What's our next right thing? I would like to suggest

that we keep our next right thing simple here. We're going to think of some way during the day that we recognize our soul outside of our roles. What's something we can do each day? What we'll say there she is. I would love to hear those from Pod Squad, by the way. What are those things? I also think for people who want extra credit, make your reset button and easy button list. Start thinking about what ways you abandoned yourself and what little things that you can

do to stay with yourself. That sound good? Sounds so good. Sounds so good. And if people need help with the first one, reconnecting with your soul, we have gotten a lot of incredible feedback that people have been able to reconnect with the playlist for our fun episode. So go back and listen to that. People are having all kinds of people have been unable to connect with their fun cell for their self at all, are finding a lot there that they're remembering, they're reconnecting.

So that might be a place to start if you don't know where to begin. Awesome. And this week, this week, when it feels really hard to care for yourself, you just keep telling yourself, we can do hard things. See you next week.

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