We're Out of Time - AD: PURE Creativity And Not Getting Lost in Todays World

Episode Date: April 15, 2025

🎙️ In this unfiltered episode of We're Out of Time, host Richard Taite sits down with rapper, YouTuber, and social media powerhouse AD—a dynamic voice who's built his brand through hust...le, heart, and hard-earned wisdom.🔥 Together, they dive into what really drives AD, how growing up in Compton, California, shaped his path away from trouble, and why he believes raw, honest conversations are the most powerful form of therapy. 💬 This is more than just an interview—it's a deep, no-holds-barred look at identity, resilience, and the power of speaking your truth. 👇 Tap in for links, resources, and more:🔗 All things Richard Taite, We're Out of Time, and Carrara Treatment Wellness & Spa: https://linktr.ee/richardtaite🔗 Follow and explore more from AD: https://linktr.ee/iitsad 📌 Key moments and highlights from this unforgettable convo below ⬇️Intro 00:00 NEWS On AD's upcoming music drop 01:42 AD "try and freestyle everything" 03:38 AD on substance use 04:42 AD on the current Rap Scene 10:02 Maintaining your self-worth on social media 15:12AD on being a father 17:10 Feelings aren't always reality 20:02 Surround yourself with those you love 25:37Being of service to others 35:05

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Starting point is 00:00:00 Let's say you write a song. In your head is the way that you really want to come out. And once you just replicate it over and over again, it never comes out like that when you say it. So when it's the first thought that comes to your mind, you say it, there goes a grand scheme of things right there. Later on in life, it made me appreciate the music way more. Once I can understand the subject matter,
Starting point is 00:00:17 they ain't really right in the head. I've had home boys that have done stuff one time. And you know how they say you get stuck? They didn't got stuck there mentally. Even when I want to steer all the way left, Her voice tells me to go back in, so even when I want to trip sometimes, I still got to have that heart and compassion that she instilled in me. Like, once you talk every day, it's like therapy.
Starting point is 00:00:37 Thank you for listening to the We're Out of Time podcast with Richard Tate. If you haven't already, please follow the podcast, rate and review. And if you're getting value out of We're Out of Time, share it with someone else you know. A.D. Yes, sir. What up, bro? Thanks for coming, man. I appreciate it. I like me. I f*** with it, man.
Starting point is 00:00:52 The hospitality is great. So I'm shocked. First of all, you're the first rap. ever come on time. You were early. Yeah, I was early. You didn't come with a posse. Nah. Are you packing? I'm always packing. Oh, we're two for three. We're two for three.
Starting point is 00:01:08 I'm always great. Dude, that's awesome. I'm packing love, though, packing love. You know, I feel safer. I feel safer when you're packing. This is a tough neighborhood. Everybody in there Bentley is driving by. You never know anyone else me. You get pissed. Come on, man, OJ. O.J. He was out of here.
Starting point is 00:01:27 Look. Yeah, he was. Hey, OJ was innocent. Yes, he would. Yeah, I'm straight. I like that. I like that. Come on, man.
Starting point is 00:01:35 You know how I do it. So, you, I was listening to, what song was I listening to before? Oh, it was on the radar freestyle. Shodda gave him on the radar, too. And they haven't released that yet, right? No. And we can put this out. When are you going to release it?
Starting point is 00:01:54 Uh, when you drop it on the shit? Really. Yeah, we do it like that. You know, the SoundCloud era is cool and everything, but I didn't grow up in that. Nah, that ain't my thing. You're the first guy that came here where I was like this. I come from that era, though. I was born in 89.
Starting point is 00:02:12 You were born in 89? Yeah, for sure. Okay, so 96 was when, what, pocket in those guys, 96, yeah. All right, so you were seven, so you weren't really into it then? Uh-uh. You know, what's crazy is that later on in life, it made me appreciate the music way. more once I can understand the subject matter. I don't get it.
Starting point is 00:02:33 No, no, no. Tell me. I just didn't get it. So basically, you know, when you, like, when you're listening to music as a youth, you may like the melodies, you may like the beat, and you're not really knowing what they're talking about. That's right. So Pock having songs like Brenda's got a baby, you know what I mean?
Starting point is 00:02:49 Uh, short do you want to be a thug and stuff like that? You don't really understand that until you get older and you live, you know, that life. And once you see it, you be like, damn, he really well. a visionary. He really was, you know, being a spokesperson for the hood. Like, it was crazy, for sure, for sure. But I heard in that song that we listened to, you were, correct me if I'm wrong, but it felt to me like you were saying drugs are no good. Oh, I wasn't saying neck. What were you saying? How to hell you get that for a minute? Well, because there was a lyric, something about, and I don't remember, it's something like, this thing was whack or something. I don't know.
Starting point is 00:03:26 I remember. Am I not getting it? What was it about? It was it was it was basically kind of like see what I do when I do these freestyles it's like a reflection of what I got going on and stuff so. Do you write that that was all freestyle? That was freestyle. Do you write anything? I try not to really yeah so what I do is like I know like when you first get in the booth or like let's say you write a song in your head is the way that you really want to come out and once you just replicated it over and over again, it never comes out like that when you say it. So when it's the first thought that comes to your mind,
Starting point is 00:03:59 you say it, there goes a grand scheme of things right there. So you just do this shit like that. So when you got a, when you got a, it blows up, right? That song blows up. It goes up. Right. How do you sing it again? No, no, you remember it then.
Starting point is 00:04:14 Oh, you remember. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Like when you really like a song, especially me, if it's a song that I make and I really like it, I'm going to play it all day for the next like four to five days. So I have it like straight. Any song that I like I'll play for like four to five days, just that song, though. Yeah.
Starting point is 00:04:31 Just that song. Same thing. Yeah. So you learn it though. But I do have songs that I've forgotten this shit too. Yeah, for sure, for sure. That's great. So talk to me about you do drugs?
Starting point is 00:04:44 No, I don't do drugs. What do you mean by drugs, though? Okay. Well, I know you smoke pot. Yeah, I smoke pot. Okay. So I drink like a Sailor.
Starting point is 00:04:53 Okay. And yeah, mushrooms as well too. But I don't consider that a drug. All right. Do you perks? No. No press perks. Fuck no.
Starting point is 00:05:01 Powders? No. Any other pills? Nope. Lean? High blood pressure pills. Oh, yeah. No kidding.
Starting point is 00:05:12 Dude. If I've got high blood pressure, you've got high blood pressure. Sorry. I'm here. Hey, I'm just saying. That's it. You want for me. They're the only pills, man.
Starting point is 00:05:24 Hey, it is what it is. Some, but you're not doing any hard drugs. No, no. All right. You know what I come from? Tell me. You'll get beat up for that back in the days. Hell yeah.
Starting point is 00:05:37 I'm from Compton, bro. Like, my big homies, they really fuck you up. Like, are you on drugs, man? Get your ass out of here. Really? Yeah. You can smoke some weed. You could do some drink.
Starting point is 00:05:47 Yeah. But you don't never want to. do anything to be off deck. Like, you know what I mean? Right. Especially when you walking outside and you got to pay attention. You don't know somebody about to come blast the street, anything like that, too. So I was always taught to be on point. And I didn't smoke or drink until I was 21 years old.
Starting point is 00:06:04 I was just strictly like just paying attention to every share. You're just walking down the street with your head on a swer. Oh, you have to. Even when you're driving and stuff too. So, I mean, like a lot of Compton, right? Compton. Yeah. Hey, what is a hundred and third in Hoover?
Starting point is 00:06:17 1003rd, that's that's like close to like Watson. Okay. And so that's where I used to stay on 103rd and Hoover. And then what's 61st in Vermont? That's the 60s. Is that? That's LA. That's what we consider South Central.
Starting point is 00:06:32 Okay. Those are the two places that I used to hang out in 1984. Damn. Because my friends were there and I, it was a quarterback in high school. So this is where my guys were living, right? and that's where you got the best games going, the best asphalt games, I'd go down there every day
Starting point is 00:06:52 and I remember, man, walking down the street, right? And if anybody asked me where I was from, I was told nowhere. That was my nowhere, right? And I don't even know why, okay, to this day. You must have had an afro back then. Me? Yeah.
Starting point is 00:07:10 Oh, no, no, no. Well, yes, because I'm Jewish, right? And so I had that curly frizzy do. And then check this out. What I used to do is there was this Revlon product, right? And they had this African-American woman on it with straight hair. And this is called relaxer. And you did it.
Starting point is 00:07:29 I know relaxer. Straighten your hair, right? So I'd straighten my hair to look like Pat Riley. Wow. Because that was the guy back when I was a kid. Wow. Pat Riley was everything. And it would be thick back perfect.
Starting point is 00:07:41 But it would stink to high heaven. It smelled like eggs, right? I don't know. I'd have had a texturizer before. Do you know what it smelled like? It smelled like sulfur. Yeah. And I was just so bummed out about it.
Starting point is 00:07:52 So I looked gorgeous, but if a girl got close to me, she'd want to vomit, right? So then the second the smell went away, it was all frizzy and curly again. Is that how you lost her hair? No. The way I lost my hair is I'm 58 and I just got old. Okay, okay. And when you get old, when you're 58, what happens is you have this. thing, you lose your hair here first, and then you have this
Starting point is 00:08:16 on the sides. And it's like... Yeah, I'm going to Turkey before that. Turkey? Yeah, for sure. To get a hair transplant? Yeah, for sure. I'm not going out like that. You think you've got to go to Turkey to get a hair. I'm going... I mean, unless you got a plug for me, I can go down the street or something. I got a plug. I was a drug addict, Dylan. I mean, a drug dealer. No, no, we need hair transplant plugs. Oh, oh, this is a real plug. I did. Listen, I'm the plug guy. I like finding plugs. I like being able to say, hey, my homie over there, he hooked me up with the hair transplant guy. Boom, you can go over there.
Starting point is 00:08:47 We ain't got to fly to turkey. Bring the business to them. I'm pretty sure in the wealthiest country in the world, we can get a hair transplant and not run to turkey. See? How much is it, don't. Oh, it's going to be more. See, I don't want that. I want the plug.
Starting point is 00:09:01 I want the plug. I want you to say, hey, I want you to say, hey, bro, AD and Luca are coming over here. Put Lucas here on AD's head. You know what I'm saying? Shit like that. they don't know who Luca is they're about to find out Luca's the poodle
Starting point is 00:09:16 that sits on my lap every once in a while just because I think it's gangsta just so I can fit it I got one too but mine's black though I got two of them oh well that's well that's normal
Starting point is 00:09:27 you got a black one I got a white one hey it's what it is you want to switch dogs just so that we can be culturally cool we can look a cool with me my dogs don't fetch
Starting point is 00:09:36 that n' trained drizzling yeah well you know That's how I do it. We turn. In your, you're going to the studio after this. You can do your own podcast. I'm actually, you know what I'm saying? We have podcasts.
Starting point is 00:09:54 So we're doing that today. It's called community. So tell me about the, we're going to plug that for you in a minute by the end for sure, and you won't let me forget. But I want to know you're in this rap scene, man, and you're actually good at it. Yeah.
Starting point is 00:10:07 Like that was, that was like, you saw me loving it. I fuck with it, right? You yelled at him. He was like, This is music. That's right. I like that. That's right.
Starting point is 00:10:16 And so you're around these guys who are doing the pressed perks and how many guys you know that have died overdosed on fentanyl? Fendall, bro, a lot. And a lot of them, you know, it's crazy. It's not just rappers. It's just people that I know. It's young people. There's some older people and shit like that. But it's sad, man.
Starting point is 00:10:37 I tell people now, it's like, look, I'm the, like I said, I drink like a fucking sailor, right? I do my thing. It's not worth it to really take shit now because I've had friends who used to test all these and they still ended up, you know, flatline. So it's crazy. A couple people I know they got found in cars. Tell me about the person you were closest with who overdosed and died on fentanyl. Oh, you know, I had my homie, man.
Starting point is 00:11:07 His name was Money Mo, man. He was a money Moe? Money Mo. Yeah. That's the best name I've heard so far. Yeah, he was a cool guy, but, you know, him and his brother, it was, look, they're two. No, no, you want to know what, though? You know, they even be cooler than money, Moe, what?
Starting point is 00:11:20 Mo money. I like that. So I like that. Now you, now you're talking. Oh, money. Now you're talking. Money more problems. Yeah, that is like that.
Starting point is 00:11:30 No, but my home boy, him and his brother, bro, they were like, and I love him to death when I say this, they were the craziest, like, two brothers. So during the day, businessmen, they do their day. thing at night. They do they and they turn the straight maniacs and they fight each other and I loved it every single time. And yeah, we ended
Starting point is 00:11:52 up like, are you familiar with NBA 2K? The game? Yeah. I'm familiar with the NBA but I don't play video games, but go on. I can get it. So we ended up, I think I amassed almost 30,000 in bets with NBA
Starting point is 00:12:08 2K with them. Now, did they give me 30,000? No. We always talked it down whatever it was. But those was good times, man. I was, you know, a real bum when the homie passed away. Yeah, he would just get high playing B82K, and I would usually win. And, yeah, they'd cut me a little check. What about, did you have kids?
Starting point is 00:12:27 No. No. Yeah. Who have you known who's passed away that you were close with that had children? Hmm. The part that gets to me is when, The parent dies and the children are left suffering. The children die and the parents are completely destroyed.
Starting point is 00:12:55 Because that's not something you get over. That's not something you get through. No. Okay. That destroys. That is too much to bear. And that's why we do this, right? Because when I have somebody like you want and you say, hey, look, this is B.S.
Starting point is 00:13:21 I don't fuck with that at all. Because you die. Yeah. Yeah. You know it's crazy, too, like my brother. You know, I know like a lot of younger people, they really get into it. And I never forget my little brother his password. Like, it was like, I love LSD.
Starting point is 00:13:37 And I was like, bro, like, what the fuck is wrong with you? You know what I mean? Like, just stop this shit there because I never want, you know, for that to lead to other stuff. And I have family members. I don't know if they're technically on Phenando, but I know they've done some stuff. and they ain't really, you know, right in the head. I've had home boys that have done stuff one time. And you know how they say you get stuck?
Starting point is 00:13:58 They didn't got stuck there mentally. So, yeah, I have my fair share of that as well, too. But, you know, my community where I come from, we lose a lot of children of gang violence, senseless. Well, that's because, correct me if I'm wrong, but they're slinging drugs out there and they're going back and forth into other people's territories, right? Yes, a lot of that, too.
Starting point is 00:14:20 You're right. And that's why they're getting shot. Yeah. It's crazy. But do they still have those gang initiations where you got to go out and pop somebody just randomly? Nah, nah, I ain't like that no more. You know, like I said, it's a younger thing now where, I mean, Instagram and social media changed the whole climate with everything.
Starting point is 00:14:43 How so? Just in general, the information is out there for everybody. So there's guys online that can make documentaries. about things that are going on in the streets without ever meeting these people. They can get the whole breakdown, people posting people's paperwork online. It's all type of stuff now. It's not hard for the police to really know what's going on anymore. That situation or just be quiet and do that.
Starting point is 00:15:10 That's just over with it. Well, if they're on social media. Well, everyone's on social media. I wasn't on social media for five years until I came back to work. Yeah, yeah. only because I'm not. Look, see, I fuck with that. Yeah.
Starting point is 00:15:23 Come from a different, you know, class. I come from a different class, too. But even though now, like, I'm in this shit and I do it, I still, you know, I still have those same principles that I carry with me when I'm online and doing what I do. But that drug shit, that shit's trash. Fucking hate that shit. You know any kids that have died and their parents are just? They're never the same.
Starting point is 00:15:47 Do you know them? Yes. Personally. Tell me about one of those and what the parents went through and how they're doing today. I would honestly say you can see someone's parent growing up and you can see how lively they are. And once they lose a child, how, like I said, they're never the same anymore. You can visit them. It's like they're just hollow.
Starting point is 00:16:13 They're not there anymore. And I've seen that it so many times. And I can understand. You know what I mean? I have a, you know, somebody that I look at like family, he lost his daughter. You know what I mean? And was she? I want to say she was in the sixth grade.
Starting point is 00:16:26 But this is not to drugs or anything like that. Okay, good. Yeah, not to drugs or anything like her. I think I really don't even know. Like, he said that she woke up one day. She was having, like, some sort of pain. They kept her for like two days or something. And the next thing, you know, they said that her organs just started failing.
Starting point is 00:16:48 And it was just the fucking, the craziest shit. And I see, like, my family, like, how they struggle all the time and stuff like that. It never gets better. It never gets better. Even having random conversations, regular conversations with him, you know, he could just break down and I understand it. And then I have children, too.
Starting point is 00:17:07 And how old are your kids? My son is six and my daughter's about to be 16. Yeah, my daughter got the same birthday as me. My son, he has autism. So I stay with him, super, super, you know, stay on him. Autism, don't label this kid. autism's a gift. Oh yeah, 100%.
Starting point is 00:17:23 He can't do certain things that everybody else can do, but he can do great things. You just have to find out what he's great at because I'll tell you something, okay? I'm a lot like that. If everybody can do something, I have absolutely no clue how to do it. I zero clue.
Starting point is 00:17:41 I can barely take care of myself, right? Which is why I have, you know, the support I need. But if no one can, do it, it slows down and I can probably figure it out. I like that. Okay? And that's probably like your kid. Should we give him a name?
Starting point is 00:17:59 Astro. That's his name. Asher? Ashtro. Astro. Yeah. They call him Ash? No, we just call him Astro.
Starting point is 00:18:05 Or younger, Stroh. Stroh. Yeah, we just like, yeah, Strow. Yeah. Six years old. Six. Beautiful. Love them.
Starting point is 00:18:14 Well, for me, I don't know about for you, but for me, two and a half to six was the best ages for my children. Why is that, though? Because they haven't asserted their independence yet. And so they're all yours. I agree. I like that. You can tell that they say, I love you in front of their friends.
Starting point is 00:18:42 They sleep in your bed, you know, they hold your hand when you cross the street, you know, and it just, you lose that. And it's different. It's beautiful now. Don't get me wrong. I have a fantastic relationship. It's just it's different. And it's beautiful. You just,
Starting point is 00:19:01 you know, just enjoy where this is because you know from the 15-year-old, you've got a 15-year-old daughter, right? So I'll be 16. Same birthday as me. Is she you talking to you right now? Yeah, yeah. Yeah, but it's reluctant.
Starting point is 00:19:13 It's different. Yeah. It's real open. I've seen from, oh, this is my little girl to your dad. Like, you know what I mean? And my profession. it makes it cool because I get to give her certain perks that she really wouldn't have,
Starting point is 00:19:25 but she still is like, whatever. And it's crazy too because my son's mom, when I was on the way here, she was telling me like, hey, you need to instill some type of discipline in him, right? So my son's the six-year-old? Yeah. Discipline in the six-year-old? Well, just because of his development, he's still nonverbal right now. Really?
Starting point is 00:19:44 Yeah, still non-verbal. Wait, wait, timeout. Have you gotten him a speech therapist? Yep. Speech therapy, A, B, A, D, he does all of that. How long has been speech therapy? About two years now.
Starting point is 00:19:55 And he hasn't spoken yet? Mm-hmm. But a lot of people, they told me, like, I have friends who kid didn't speak to those 11, 10, 9. I know it's going to happen, but... Yeah, and remind me afterwards to find a top-notch speech therapist, please.
Starting point is 00:20:13 Oh, thank you. I appreciate that. Yeah. I'm used to it, though. Dude, it's... You're used to it. I'm never used to it. Yeah. Because I feel everybody.
Starting point is 00:20:22 Everybody's pain. Everybody's. I walk through life completely tortured. Completely. I feel everybody's pain. It just destroys me. It just never going away. Just the way it's always been.
Starting point is 00:20:34 There may be a gift, though. It doesn't feel like a gift. It feels like hell. How you do with it, though? I don't have a choice. I just move forward. I like that. You know, that's, you know, nobody cares how you feel.
Starting point is 00:20:51 No, they don't. And your feelings aren't facts. okay, it's just how you feel. And then like, look, right now, I'm out of it. So it was a moment. It was like, you know, the clouds are coming. Ah, ooh, ah, ha. And it's just everything passes.
Starting point is 00:21:06 Everything is temporary, though. Yeah. It's all temporary. And then like you say, except for death, except for when you do street drugs. Yes. Then that's a permanent thing. And but is death even the end if you believe in certain things?
Starting point is 00:21:22 Well, it's the end. here. Yeah, for sure, right? And I don't care how connected to God you are. Okay. You go ahead and you lose your kid. Okay. You may not be cursing God. Okay. But you're destroyed. I couldn't imagine. Well, that's not. I couldn't imagine. Yeah. If you want to know like how I grew up, right? So growing up in Compton, people just hear Compton, right? My grandmother, God rest her soul, she'd worked for a school district for about 30 to 40 years, the Compton Unified School District. So, man, she was a woman straight by the book, very loving, just very, very, she'd teach her family arts. Yeah, she was a teacher, but it was deep though, because I wasn't doing the right thing.
Starting point is 00:22:20 because I didn't, like, I kind of was like not wanting to believe that she was getting sicker. How old were you? Oh, when she passed. This was 10 years ago, it's 25? Yeah, 25 years old. Tell me, tell me, were she in the hospital? She would go back and forth to the hospital. Do you visit her in the hospital?
Starting point is 00:22:38 All this are. I lived at her almost my whole life. Me too. That was my best friend, like, for real, for real. Mm-hmm. But I got so used to her going back and forth to the hospital. So the one day before she passed away, I thought it was just regular routine.
Starting point is 00:22:53 I thought I could just be out with a girl somewhere. And yeah, my mom, my phone had died. I woke up the next morning. My mom was like, hey, rush to the hospital, rush to the hospital. And I'm like, huh, what's going on? And then I get there and they're like, yeah, she's not going to make it, she's not going to make it pass today.
Starting point is 00:23:11 And I was like, what the, like, just out of nowhere. And you were with her there? Yeah, 100%. Take her hand? Oh my God. When I say I cannot get upset because it probably had to be the most amazing death ever. I know that probably sound crazy. But literally, she was surrounded by all her children.
Starting point is 00:23:30 My auntie got to fly out. We was in a room. Almost all her grandchildren, all her children, surrounded by love. She got to say her last goodbyes. Everybody got to say stuff to her. And that was it. We stayed in that room until she passed away. It was beautiful.
Starting point is 00:23:47 So I can't get mad about it. about that. Yeah, for real for us. That is beautiful. I'll fuck with it. That sounds like my exact experience. She was my best friend too, and she was in the hospital for three days. And on the first day, she was suffering, and I knew she wasn't coming back.
Starting point is 00:24:08 And everybody knew she wasn't coming back. And at the end of the first day, her three kids were there and me. And it's my grandma. It's not my mother. So I brought all three kids together. I think I was 35. And I said, hey, we had a deal that we would not let this woman supper. One of her son said to me, she's not suffering.
Starting point is 00:24:42 And I said, yes, she is. So I waited these people out. And then, you know, they'd come in and they'd give her a drip, a couple drips, every five, 10 hours, whatever it was to increase her morphine drip. Because that's how they basically put you down. Yeah. When you're suffering like that. And after two days, my mother couldn't take it anymore and she left. and after three days her other two sons left
Starting point is 00:25:24 and I was there alone and I would sit there and hold her hand and rub her feet and I was like what am I going to do when this woman goes because my closest friend was my grandfather and when he passed and my parents got divorced I lost 25 years you know it was too much for me. I know that sounds weak, but that's where I was at that point. It wasn't that weak at all? It is weak, but it, for me. But it happened. And that's,
Starting point is 00:26:02 and that's the truth. And that's where I was. And so after he went, that's when we started getting close. And we stayed, and I lived with her because when my parents got divorced, we lost our home. My dad stopped paying for it. And he went with another family. And we were all stuck. And we had nowhere to go. So we moved in with my grandmother into her apartment. And I'm 17, 18, right? And so when she left, I was just, when she was in the hospital going and I saw the writing on the wall and I waited everybody out, I couldn't let her suffer one more second because she had emphysema as well as other things.
Starting point is 00:26:49 and emphysema, if you know anything about that, you struggle for every breath. It's like you're perpetually drowning. So I called the head nurse in and I said, hey, I don't want this anymore. Deal with this right now and I want to see you every hour. And I want you coming in here and doing this every hour. Okay?
Starting point is 00:27:15 And she said, okay. They knew every hour they gave her two more trips And this woman would not die With me in the room She would not do it So my brother, my little brother comes in And he says, uh What are you doing?
Starting point is 00:27:41 And I said, We're dealing with your grandmother, sit down, say goodbye And he runs out of the room and he calls my mother. I go to the, you know, there was no, I don't think there were cell phones or whatever, and I went to the front desk too. And she says, leave my mother alone.
Starting point is 00:28:11 Just as I'm talking to my mother, there's a light above the room. The blue one. And it went on. When my brother was holding her hand, and it was perfect, because she wouldn't have gone with me holding her hand in the room.
Starting point is 00:28:30 And she was mad at my little brother, because he was disrespectful to her. And this was his way of getting closure with her. And I know she forgave him at the end. Anyway. That's beautiful. Yeah, I don't know. I like that.
Starting point is 00:28:48 Not really. Yeah, I like that. You got to think about it, right? So many people, they be, you know, they were, oh, we found them. They had a heart attack. We found them laid over, stuff like that. Like that happens, you were like, oh, that's fucked up. But to be surrounded by people that you love.
Starting point is 00:29:04 in your final moments, you can't have a better way to go. If you're not suffering. Even if you are suffering, though. Wouldn't you want to be around your people? You're probably very, very scared. You're probably not telling people how you really feel and just having that family around.
Starting point is 00:29:20 That probably eases it a little bit. I think you're right. Yeah. I think you're ex. Because my grandma was definitely, and the crazy part about it was too, is that my mom told me afterwards, like, you know, she didn't want to let me,
Starting point is 00:29:34 see her suffering. But my mom always told me she knew the last time that she came, they would take fluid out of her stomach with like a big old needle. And she said, my grandmother didn't flinch. So she knew. And I remember I asked my granny one time, I said, you know, she wasn't eating because it was hurting her to eat, to eat any type of food. And I told her, I was like, do you want to die? And she kind of was like blank. Like, you know, like she was ready to go. And I didn't pick up on those cues. And until later on. But I was like, damn. I think I was being more selfish
Starting point is 00:30:08 because I didn't want her to go. You know what I mean? And part of the meaning I wanted her to go was, you know, I always told her I would move her out of Compton. You know, she'll get to see me be successful
Starting point is 00:30:17 and I would get her out of there. But I wasn't prepared for that. So I thought I had more time, which I did it. But I know she's looking down at me. You know what I'm being proud. So weird. And, you know,
Starting point is 00:30:31 even when I want to steer all the way left is like a little her voice tells me to go back in. So even when I want to trip sometimes, I still got to have that heart and compassion that she instilled in me. Or compass, we're living in a place where in a time where people don't know the difference between right and wrong
Starting point is 00:30:55 and there's no common sense. None. At all? At all. Okay, well, that was depressing. Okay. It's all good. Once you talk for, like, once you talk every day,
Starting point is 00:31:09 it's like therapy so it's great I like to get like that off and it's very seldom that I go places and people ask those type of deep questions so that's dope well that's why we're here we're not dude I don't do small talk
Starting point is 00:31:24 I don't know how to do small talk I'll quit it for real for reals and when I say there I ain't cabby so um what are you doing today man I hear you're a big shot rapping acting podcasting broadcast everything
Starting point is 00:31:38 like I said said, I let God just lead me to where I go. So I didn't like get into podcasting because I wanted to get into podcasting. I didn't get into a lot of the stuff I do because I wanted to do it. We have radio now. All these things I did not know was going to be, you know, in the cards for me. And yeah, I just know how one thing leads to another. And man, it's just, it's dope to see because I'm living kind of like in assimilation. I can't believe like some of the shit that I'm doing and what I'm known for. It's crazy. Can I tell you what I call that?
Starting point is 00:32:11 What was that? I feel the pull. So, right? So when I feel the pull, right? Feel the pull. Right? I go in that direction. Yeah.
Starting point is 00:32:24 Wherever, right? And people don't understand that. If you talk to like CEOs and business people and you say, no, no, I'm, I kind of do it differently. I just get quiet and I feel the pull and I go that way. Right? They look at me like I'm a psycho. Same thing. And these ain't CEOs. These are just people. Right. People in the hood. They were like, man, you're crazy. Don't do that shit. And it's, I mean, like, you just got to go. You got to go with your gut.
Starting point is 00:32:53 You have to always do. God does bank shots just to show off. I like that. You can use it. You got, you got bars, man. You show you ain't a rapper. Dude, you can use anything I sell as long as you give me credit the first three times and then it's your. I got you. I'm going to give it. See you five times. No, no. Reas the rule. Not five now.
Starting point is 00:33:13 Five. Five. That's crazy. Yeah. He's the generous of heart. The generosity of spirit is incredible. Thank you, brother. I appreciate that.
Starting point is 00:33:24 I appreciate you. Hey, I like the ice. What does it say? Thank you. This is a cannabis brand. I'm a part of. It's called Be Chief. Okay, so we probably shouldn't volume that shit up.
Starting point is 00:33:33 But whatever. Hey, you're doing it in dispensary, right? Yeah. Legally. Show that to the can. So we get us, uh, uh, uh, right? Yeah, legally. That's gorgeous.
Starting point is 00:33:44 Let me show you my eyes. Was it a foe? Yeah. See that? What's the four is there for? Four? Uh, the four most important people in my life. I like that.
Starting point is 00:33:53 Who are they? I can't tell you. The others get upset. Ah. That's smart. They know who they are. Right. I liked that.
Starting point is 00:34:01 I liked that. Yeah. Yeah. But, but, but, you know, this is kind of big, right? Same size. I could see like some little, it was a little diamonds on there? If you could see them, I don't know,
Starting point is 00:34:15 my eyes aren't good enough to see the diamond. As long as it's symbolic, because you know what, my grandma's chain, I don't take this off. Now, the Jesus piece had fell off. Jesus fell off to Jesus piece at first. And then the Jesus piece fell off.
Starting point is 00:34:28 And I didn't have got this lengthened and it was long before too, but I don't take this off. It's very seldom I take this off. So this is, you know, part of my grandma, I keep with me as well too. So that's symbolic to me.
Starting point is 00:34:40 Don't got no ice on there or anything like that. That's her goal change. So this is weird because we just started this thing six months ago, right? And we've got like, I don't know, what do we have? 26,000 subscribers. And we typically get, you know, in the 100 views, 100,000 views. We've got a couple people break 200,000. But it's like this has been going on for six.
Starting point is 00:35:08 months. And so I didn't think anything of it. I just wanted to do this thing and spread that in all awareness. But now we're getting all this love. So we're getting all the love. And I'm trying to sit there and respond to everybody. Dude, it's, well, you got to, dude. It's, you got to, if somebody calls and they ask you for help, you've got to, you got to give them direction and you got to refer them out to certain places. I mean, this is what I kind of do. Okay. So I'm getting overwhelmed. And don't think I'm not loving the fact that you guys love the show and you're saying nice things. And I want you to ask me, I just, I'm begging me, don't be upset.
Starting point is 00:35:54 Okay. I'm working as fast as I can. I didn't know it was going to be this big this fast. I didn't know, right? So anyway, yeah. Yeah. All right, where can people find you? Hey, man, you can find everything at I-I-I-T-S-A-D, watch community clips,
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