We're Out of Time - Dayna Marie: From No College to Internet Star!

Episode Date: June 24, 2025

Social media personality Dayna Marie shares her inspirational journey on the latest We're Out of Time podcast with Richard Taite. Dayna shares how TikTok and influencing became her version of college. Dana discusses her most challenging times that took her down a path of personal growth and prosperity. She opens up about things you've never heard before, as well as faith.👉 Subscribe for more real conversations every week.🔗 All things Richard Taite, We're Out of Time, and Carrara Treatment Wellness & Spa: https://linktr.ee/richardtaite For more on Dayna Marie: https://www.instagram.com/dayna

Social media personality, Dana Marie joins the We're Out of Time podcast. Pretty much I always thought of, like, influencing and, like, TikTok as, like, my college. Because I never went to college. It was something that I could use to get me to where I wanted to be. I think definitely a way to, like, feel pain, like, what I was, like, active feeling pain. I would get tattoos. You don't have me. I have a full leg sleeve tattoo.

Let me see it. The girl that he was, that he dated the whole time he dated me, like, our relationship was, like, a year long and theirs was like eight months long and I brought her on my podcast to tell the whole story. Really? Do you think social media is slowly killing the mental health? Yes. What's the secret about your mental health journey that you've never said online?

Oh. Feel ready to say now. Okay. I hope I don't cry. Thank you for listening to the We're Out of Time podcast with Richard Tate. If you haven't already, please follow the podcast, rate and review. And if you're getting value out of We're Out of Time, share it with someone else you know. Dana, how are you? Good.

So good. You've got the best energy. Thank you. Thank you so much. Seriously. I just, and you're so impressive. Like most people walk in and their influencers and everything's cool and that's their lane. Right.

You're doing other things. Oh, yeah. You're actually a creator and you manage. Right. 100%. Tell me how you started that. The company? Yeah.

Like, like, you know, most people do the influencer thing. 100% and then you went ahead and was like, you know, you started that way. And then what clicked? When did you say to yourself, oh, right. I can have all these people and manage them. Right. So actually there's so many things I do. That's like one other thing that I do.

But pretty much I always thought of like influencing and like TikTok as like my college because I never went to college. It was something that I could use to get me to where I wanted to be. be. You know what I mean? And so the whole managing... Wait, I need you to stop there. Yeah. That in itself is a genius idea. Really? Of course it is. That's what I've always thought of it. No, no, but that's, but because you thought of it that way, you had clarity. Right. And clarity is power. All right. Let's jump right on into this. Yeah. Oh, you didn't answer me. Oh, yeah. No. I'm like, I'm like a wreck. I know you're about like the management and stuff. Yeah. How did you get, listen, I want to know,

entrepreneurial, you're entrepreneur. Right. Okay, we're going to get into all your things. Yeah, yeah, yeah. You're entrepreneurial. And how old do you? I'm almost 25. Okay, I was on the corner of crack and pipe street at 32. No way. Yeah, I was homeless. So you're 25 and you're doing really well. Thank you. Okay. When did you have that idea? How did it formulate? What was going on with that? Right. So basically my best friend, he's like my longest friend I ever had, he was like trying to figure out how to Because I always was in the industry and he was always behind the scenes. He's like, oh, this is going viral. Like, you can maximize this?

You can do that? And then I was just like, okay, well, can I like pay you? Because he's like my close friend. He's a genius. I was like, can I pay you to like help scale like my all of my social media? Like he just does posting. He does this time. Brainstorms ideas with me.

He grew my YouTube channel because I just allowed him just do my YouTube first. He grew my YouTube channel from like 100K to 1 million subscribers in like four months. Like, it was something so insane. Yeah. Hold on a second. I just want to beat the shit out of Dylan for a minute. Dude. Hey, I'm not the YouTube guy.

That's Jason. You ought to beat Jason up for that way. Fucking Jason. All right. But, yeah. And then so after. Your boy's name? His name is Edge.

We should give him a name. Yeah, Edge. Yes. Yeah, that's his name. That's a cool name. And so then me and my best friend started a podcast. And then he came on as the maid editor. editor podcast clipping and started working with the podcast brand behind the scenes and then I started funneled

and then all of a sudden all these people were like oh how are you doing this how are you posting so much how are you growing how do you come up with the ideas and I'm like like yes it's like a lot of me but at the same time I have to give a lot of my credit to my best friend edge because he's all in behind the scenes doing so much for me then they're just like can I talk to him can I do this and all of a sudden I'm just organically funneling influencers to him and now he's they're paying him to do their content their stuff is blowing up insanely. And then he's like, what's going on? Like, this is cool.

And then I was like, okay, maybe we should start something like together. Hold on one second. Yeah. Does he have people now working for him? Yes. Yeah, yeah, yeah. So now I can't use them. Right?

Because he's just going to funnel it to something. No, he's still the main source. He has just two interns. Like nothing like so crazy. Like just two interns that are like funneling brands. But he's mainly all hands on himself and it's just me and him. And I pretty much am the face of it. And then he's like the closer of everything and like the behind the scenes.

And yeah, so then we started expanding to like working with brands. And like he works now full time with an AI app that he just like scales their company now. It's just him. And then we started working with atmosphere, atmosphere, but then they kind of just wanted a month trial thing. But yeah, now we're expanding into brands. And that's kind of like where that is now. It's brand new. It's kind of we just started just very organically, accidentally.

Yeah. you should do. What? You should hire a CEO that does this and let him run your show and not think about it. Right, exactly. Because are you monetizing it? The brand itself? The, or just everything.

The whole management thing. Oh, like, no, we just split, like, revenue that we just do with the creators and the brands, but... You know, it's funny. What's funny is if you had, if I had what you have... Right. in your head and put it into mine or my head and put it into yours. Yeah. We'd be really better off.

Really? Oh, my God. We'd be so good off. No way. Yeah. Well, it's just living. No, 100%. But you're beyond impressive.

This is like ridiculous. God, I was such a horrible kid. God. I mean, seriously, this girl's got it all together. She's got a God in her life. Thank you. She's got a beautiful man, right? It's like an embarrassment of riches.

All right. I'm going to ask you a couple questions. Yeah. Okay. What's the secret about your mental health journey that you've never said online? Oh. Feel ready to say now. Okay.

I hope I don't cry. So I'm not going to go through the whole thing, but it's crazy because soon I'm about to tell this on social media because this is like, I know, I'm going to cry, so I'm sorry, but this is like a whole thing. And it's definitely like my testimony with God for sure. But I'll give like the main thing. So I'm very against drugs. Like I've had six of my closest friends overdose on drugs. And one, one, I was in the house for it and had to find his body. So, and for me, I've never done a drug in my life. And so that's something that I'm very huge on whenever I meet anybody about just like the stories that I have to tell about drugs and what I've witnessed through my closest friends, my roommates, like everything to like help people now.

But the biggest kicker is, like I said, I've never done a drug. I was dating this guy. And I didn't know at the time that. he was a drug dealer and he was very secretive about it. There'd be multiple people that would like come to his house with like guns and like all these things. And I kind of just thought like he was a hot head. So I thought he was just getting in fights and stuff like that and was just dealing with this and the world. But I never thought it ended up in drugs. And like I said, I'm the type person that really just cherishes like intimacy. And with that, I wasn't really doing it

with him that much because it was not out of love. It was more out of like his pleasure and like there was a lot of cheating going on and I didn't I didn't want that. And so we went to this event, this party and he actually drugged me at this party. I last I remember was I was like taking a drink with my friend. And next thing I know, I'm in our hotel room with I'm bleeding everywhere, blood all over the floor. I'm completely naked. There's cops standing over me. The whole hotel room is completely smashed and, like, demolished. And all that the cops were saying to me was, you're, you said that he hit you, he hurt you, he did all these things. I'm literally bleeding. I literally couldn't tell you what happened to this day. Nobody happened. My best friend was

luckily down the hall in, like, a separate hotel room. She heard the whole thing. She was when that ran in, put clothes on me, like, helped me get up. And like, I remember just being so, like, out of it. I'm looking around, like, everything in this room is smashed. Like, it was, like, a sweet hotel and everything is smashed in this room. And he's just silent. He's not saying anything. And like I said to this day, I don't know what happened. The next day we're, and this was in Vegas. The next day we're driving back. And I always thought that, like, depression was, like, fake in my head. Like, I always thought, like, oh, you can like, oh, it's just like, you're just dealing with something. That's why you're depressed. Like, you can. Like, you can. Like, you can. Like, you can. You can. Like, like, you can. Like, you get over it, there's ways to fix it. But in that moment, like, that drug, like, chemically, like, wired my brain into, like, a full, like, depressive state where that, that ride back was the most heavy I've ever felt. And I've been sad from multiple things. Like I said, I saw my friend literally get carried out in a body bag. Like, and so, like, I was sad, but I wasn't, like, depressed, if that makes sense. So there are two completely different things, like,

being so, so sad where you feel depressed and being depressed are completely different things. And in that moment, like, that was the heaviest I ever felt. And for the next eight months straight, I was going through these waves of depression where it would just fall on top of me. And I would feel like I was like so good and so happy. And I would just fall on top of me. And I would like tell my roommate, I'm like, please don't talk to me because this is like, I'm going through it really badly right now. And for those eight months straight, I remember just being on like my hands and knees, like scream crying, like praying to God, like, please get me out of this. Like, this is so hard. And then I was like journaling really hardcore

and like just writing everything out. Like I have like two huge journals just filled with like where my mind was every single night because I didn't really know how to talk anybody about it. I didn't want to burden anybody else with it because it was just like I can even understand it so I'll get someone else, you know. It's like, why am I sad, you know? And finally, like, around that eight-month mark, like, I woke up just one day, like, I was like, I'm done with this. I used to hit nicotine really badly. I was like, I'm done with nicotine. And when I quit that and that morning, like, it was definitely like, God answered my prayers all at one time. That morning, like, the depression was gone like from that day, like completely wiped out. Nicotine was out of my life. And, and it was definitely,

my life and there was so much that even through those eight months that I've helped with was like like that I helped now with people like with that depression I would write down all these journal prompts do all this stuff it's like there's so many things that's like music really like mentally does so much for you like I changed all my music that day I changed all my friends during that time I changed I was journaling just so much and there's so much and just doing all of those things I can help like with depression but like I definitely have to give my main credits to God, obviously, because... All right.

But yeah. So let me tell you what I heard there. Yeah. First of all, did anybody tell you to journal or did you just do it? I just started it. So intuitively, you are correct. Mm-hmm. Like, that was genius.

Mm-hmm. That was the ultimate in self-care without knowing it. 100%. Okay. Um, but what I really wanted... Oh, and I love the fact that, uh, but you got rid of everyone in your life that did not serve you. Right, 100%.

Anybody tell you to do that? No. Excellent. Then, again, that was the healthiest part of you speaking out and saying enough's enough. Right. Okay. The music I never heard of. Yeah, that's a big one that I tell so many people is music influences the way that you think.

So if you're listening to a sad song, you're on my mind. going to be sad. So now to this day, every single song in my playlist is very upbeat and happy because it just, like, if you feel some type of what? Do you have happy? What? Do you have happy in your playlist? Dude, like, what do you mean happy? Like the song happy? Yeah. No, I don't. But that's funny. But it's like, like, whenever I'm feeling just like a little bit sad, I'll turn on just my playlist and all of a sudden, like, my whole move just like kind of shifts up. And so I was doing, I did that with music, like really changed my whole playlist and everything. Did she what she just did with the mental health guy doing?

I don't know. What did she do? What'd she do? Okay. She just told me why I'm always sad. Said the guy with the third rated mental health podcast in the United States. Right? I listen to this saddish.

Literally? Oh, my God. That's a sadder. What's that one that John Mears sings? Oh, I, I'm pretty sure I know your- daughters. Be good to your daughters. Yes.

Yes, yes. Oh, God. I got to pull over. I mean, even just like, just this generation too with people, like music is like such easily influenced. Like if there's certain guys that are listening to like, you know, crazy rap music, they tend to like. Be crazier. Yeah, you know what I'm saying? So influence or music is so heavy and like mental and the way that you think and how you act. It's like crazy because no one ever like really sits on that and thinks about that. That was a fantastic. That was real practical things that you can do to change your state. And that was magnificent on your part. Now I'm going to ask you the important question. Yeah. You are asking God for help to leave him. Leave him. Why couldn't you leave him?

The boyfriend at the time? Yeah. Honestly. Were you afraid? Honestly, during that time, I wasn't God heavy until after. No, I get it. Okay. I get that you weren't God heavy. Yeah. Forget, forget God for a minute. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Forgive me. Yeah, yeah. All right? For a minute. Why did you believe you couldn't leave him? Why was it so hard to leave someone who, when you wake up with him, you're covered in blood? Right. I mean, you know what happened there, right? Yeah. Yeah. Tell me what happened. Oh, I don't even. I can't. No, no, no, no, we process that.

You're a big girl. You're a big girl. This is important because what you're doing right now is you're helping every single person. Right. Okay. Not stick with a guy. 100%. That is harming them. No, fully. What did he, how did you get bloody? What did you finally figure out?

Like, daddy definitely, like, abused me for sure. He hit you. Yeah, 1,000 percent. And you were bleeding all over the room. Yeah. Do you know what that means? What? He didn't hit you.

He beat the shit out of you. No, 100%. And then on the way home, you were with him on the way home. Yeah. Yeah. 1,000%. How long were you with this guy after this incident? Like six months.

Jesus. I know. No, no, no. Why? Yeah. I figured out why yet. So I always talk to my friends now to this day. I'm just like, that whole, our whole relationship, like, I almost,

I almost can't even remember it. It's almost like trauma blocked that out. Well, wait a minute. You weren't high. No. Were you drunk? No. Like, not like a crazy amount, but that was the most I've ever drank for sure.

For sure. Yeah. Okay. That I know. So, but why can you not remember what was so bad? Literally. Okay. To where you couldn't say to yourself.

You know what? this doesn't feel like love to me. Yeah, because it's, I don't know, because even during that time, like, I just even think back to that mindset. And I'll even watch videos back now in the mindset that I'm in and notice that he was so visibly on drugs every single day. But when I was with him during that time, I never noticed that. And I even, can I, don't get yourself up for that?

Yeah, yeah, yeah. You're completely normal. Yeah, yeah. Okay. You should have no reason to. know that. Right. Okay. And drug addicts and alcoholics, okay, like me, okay, we hide that right. Okay. So don't ever think that that's a problem. What I want to know, though, simply, okay? Do you know why it took you so long to leave? I almost don't know why because

how old were you? This was when I was 21, 22. How is your relationship with your father? Really good. Okay. So good. So this is, and he loves you, right? Yes. Do you feel the love? Yes.

Okay. This is the rule. You should know what love feels like because you have love of a father. Okay. So you know what love feels. So when that other guy was with you, did it feel like that? Did it feel like love to you? This one is so, like, a blur to me.

It's like I can barely even remember our time together or, like, kissing him or, like, anything at all. It's odd protecting you. Yeah, literally. So it's so hard to like, but in that moment, like, I knew that he was like a weirdo, a bum. We talk about it all the time. I just think it was more so, like, just, like, being comfortable in that sense. because at the time, me and my best friend were living in his house because we were in between houses and like, do you know what I'm saying?

So the truth of the matter is you don't know. Yeah, I really don't. And so I'm flummoxed. I don't have an answer for how you ended up with such a good man after that nightmare. Right. Because this man is probably loving you the way your father. Oh, yeah, 100%. Okay.

So what I'm trying to convey to everybody is, okay, like, I love my daughter. Yeah. Okay. She ain't going to be with somebody like that. Oh, 100%. Okay. Because she's going to say to herself, well, I know what love feels like and this ain't it, so I'm gone. Right.

You got there without referencing your dad. And if you did reference it. it was subconscious, that's why you left. And then, or one of the reasons you left, but it's also one of the reasons why the healthiest part of you found this man. Right. It's magnificent man. Should we give him a name?

Matt. Matt. Yeah, my boyfriend now, right? Yeah. Yeah, Matt. Oh, he's fantastic. Yeah, he's awesome. Yeah, he is.

What does he do? He does gym content. So he's very, he's like has his own gym app that he like has people sign up and he post workouts, nutrition for everybody. And then he does one-on-one's like personal training. It's not that one where they've got those pictures of the guys, right? And it's like the 20-year-old and he's all thin and muscular, but then the 30-year-old's a little heavier and just...

No. And then they get to the guy who's 58 like me and he's just a fat pig. No, I don't think, no. No. No. All right. Yeah, I don't see it. I think it's just pictures of him, you know?

All right. That's great news because you've got this internal moral compass that protects you and you end up doing these right, taking these right actions without chucking in with anybody. Right. Which is, you know. 100%. Right? Oh. 1,000%.

Let's get into the next thing. Okay. Thank you for sharing that. Yeah. That was really tough. Yeah, yeah. And I loved it. Thank you.

And you're going to help a lot of people with it too. Mm-hmm. All right. What's something you wish your followers knew about you, but you're scared they would judge you for? Oh. Like, it's literally telling my testimony for sure. Do it. I know.

I'm literally scrambling at that right now. I've been talking to so many people this week about it because I'm like feeling God so heavy telling me, like post your testimony. Like talk about your relationship with God because I don't on social media yet. And that's like my whole life off social media, that's all that it is. But on social media, it's more just like lifestyle, what I'm doing throughout the day, like, what me and my boyfriend are doing. You know what I'm saying? But like, I just get so scared that people are going to be like, oh, this girl, like is a Christian girl now.

You know how the internet is with stuff. Yeah. Can I tell you something? Yeah. Don't ever worry about that. True. On my life. Yeah.

God does bank shots to show off. Right. Okay. You do whatever you feel moves you. I promise. If you stay true to yourself, it'll all work out. Right. Fully. I know. See how. See, if you love God, it's impossible not to do this. I know. Right? It's like crying in his presence, right? No, fully. All day. Yeah, seriously. What was the one thing you've done in a mental health spiral that even shocked you? I think definitely a way to like, which is chaotic to say, but a way to like feel pain, like what I was like actually feeling pain. I know a lot of people cut themselves, but I would get tattoos.

And so I have a full leg slave tattoo. Let me see it. Okay. Oh, and it keeps going. Put it on the table. Yeah. It keeps going. Yeah, your man's never leaving you.

Not ever. Not ever. And so, yeah, if there's any, not 20-somethings, but late 30s, early 40s, all inked up, DM me. Right? Literally. Just got rid of my old lady. No way. Yeah.

But yeah, that's something that I definitely did. and I look back at it now and I'm kind of like, oh, like, why is there a Louvitan tattoo? Why are there some chaotic tattoos? But that was like my mindset, like very like, like, just get whatever and just to like feel that. But now I can't get a tattoo because I think they are so painful. Well, you could just get a Jesus. I got it right on your boob.

Well, I got a Jesus tattoo right here three days ago. Did you really? A whole face. Show it to me. Okay, let me see if I could get it. It's. She's got a Jesus tattoo. Literally three days ago, which is crazy.

it's still healing. So I don't know. Can you see it? Let me say. Oh, yeah. Show the camera. This is this one? It's this one right.

Oh, okay. Okay. Can you see it? We can. We can see it. Oh, yeah, that's awesome. That's a gorgeous Jesus, too. Right?

Yeah. I know. So good. He's got the thorns on the head, too. Oh, yeah. No, and that was like, I was- You didn't fool around. Yeah.

You got the whole torture Jesus that. No, for real. And after that, I was. was like, I'm not getting a tattoo again because it hurts so bad. But all my other tattoos never hurt. I never felt anything from them at all. But that one hurts so bad. Isn't that funny? God's a little painful sometimes, isn't it? Right. Yeah. Right. None of the other tattoos, but you have a Jesus tattoo and that hurts. That hurt. Yeah. What's that about? I know. Seriously. I was actually thinking about that. Yeah. We don't judge. Yeah.

I got a lot of questions, but I want to get back to the other part because this is called We're Out of Time. And the reason it's called that is because we actually are. Okay. Okay. You know, kids, when I was a kid, we could experiment with drugs. Kids can't do that today because you take half a pill. I just heard a story the other day where someone's daughter took half a pill.

straight-A student slumped over her car and dead in two minutes half a pill now you saw you've had a bunch of trauma around people who have passed away I want to know about your friend that you saw brought out in a body back so my other first name only what's his first name only what's his first Austin. Because you have parents. I'm not a good relationship. Because basically this was my... They didn't have a good relationship. He didn't have a good relationship with his parents? Yeah, uh-uh.

How old was he? I'm actually not too sure, like probably 25. Okay. Yeah. And because it was my boyfriend at the time's best friend and roommate. And I got close with him because obviously going over to my boyfriend at the time's house. He was just always living there, there and everything. Really nice guy. Really smart guy. Very successful guy. It was extremely successful. He could have everything that he wanted. He could buy anything that he wanted. But he just didn't have happiness, you know? And living there, I always thought he was like

really funny, outgoing, super awesome. And me and my boyfriend at the time, we were all sitting in the living room. It was about like 1 a.m. And we, we, knew that he was it's always Xanax I don't know why it's always Xanax with all the people that I've lost and we knew that he was doing that and my anytime my boyfriend at the time was like

oh like you should stop that he would kind of get like really upset and stuff so we started like planning out a way of like oh like let's pretend like that we want it to like get less pills away from him so he would always like be like oh like let me get some and like move it or whatever

try to get him into treatment? Yeah, they tried multiple times, but he just didn't, he didn't want it at all. And it was, like, very hard. And he did he do for a living. He did trading, like trading, like, you know, yeah, yeah. And that's how he was, like, super successful and everything. And my boyfriend at that time, he tried, like, everything with him, like, tried to, like, take him, like, away from the house, like, just be, like, in his room all the time.

but then one night when we were over there, we were having the best conversation. And he was like, he said that he was like sober for a while. He was drinking coffee, like late at night. Like it was just like kind of like what he liked. And we were just talking. We had the best conversation. We were planning plans for the next day. And me and my boyfriend went to go sleep in his room.

He went to his room. And then my boyfriend found him like out. out, like after so many hours, like we thought he was sleeping in, but then my boyfriend found him just like, like just out cold. And then what we found was just all of the Xanax, like half of the thing, dumped in the toilet. So I don't know if he relapsed and then. Of course he relapsed. Yeah. And then, but dumped half in the toilet. Sure, because he started getting scared. Yeah. Okay. Or maybe the healthiest part of him came out and said, you know what? I don't want this.

Yeah. Okay. But he was gone right after that, wasn't it? Yeah. That was the, you don't know what the cause of death was by the coroner. Do you? It was Xanax. Right.

Yeah. It was fentanyl poisoning is what it was. Got it. Xanax. Mm-hmm. It was fentanyl poisoning in the Xanax. Mm-hmm. Yeah.

His parents must be destroyed. Yeah. I didn't get too in detail. tailed with everything afterwards just because it was like my boyfriend's the time best friend. And so I just remember him saying that like he didn't have a good relationship with parents because the parents always wanted his money and not him as a human. So I know that there was a lot of issues with the financial aspects. Okay, then they're upset for the wrong reason.

Yeah. Tell me about somebody else who passed from fentanyl. Yeah, so one of my other friends has happened recently. He was somebody that I basically, like, grew up with. One of my most viral TikToks, like, my first viral TikToks ever, a million likes was with him in it. Like, he was, like, always there. And then he had a drinking issue when he was friends with me. And I would always help him.

I would let him stay at my house all the time. and just watch over him. I remember one time he had an issue with drinking and running away. And I remember he drank and ran away, like, when we were all, like, sleeping. And then one of my other friends found him on the side of the road, brought him back to my house. And then he was sober and fine. And every time he was sober, he was fine. But there was, like, always this constant drinking pattern.

And then finally when I moved to L.A., he kind of came and stayed at my first continent house with me. And, like, he kind of chilled out with the drinking. Everything seemed kind of normal because he started, like, focusing on social media more and not just like the chaos. And because he just got out of high school, like that was both us just got at high school. Which is exactly what social media is. It's exactly like high school. Exactly the same thing.

I've never seen anything like it. Right. No, it's crazy. But then basically he was just like, oh, I think I'm going to go hang out with these guys. Because can you mind, this whole house was a group of girls. And he was like the only guy and like like, like, I'm sorry, tell me that again. Where do I get some of that? Content houses, TikTok era, just only.

Can you work that out? You just work that out. I just don't know what to say. I mean, I hear of all this good shit. I get none of it. Seriously, I sit in my office all day long. Okay, I do, I work. And I come in here like three times a week.

Yeah. I shoot a podcast. And I hang out, you know, with my. kids. Other than that, I got nothing. Right? Somebody. Oh, there's nobody. What? I swear to God. I swear to God, I only look good on paper.

What? No, no, trust me. Okay, I look, I'm the, I'm a huge catch, okay, on paper. No way. In reality, it's a completely different story. What? Oh, my God. I get a bad idea in the middle of a bad idea. Okay. I'm like, first. First thought wrong. In fact, my buddy Sarge calls me first thought wrong. Well, if you're like aware, can you fix that in like the next relationship potentially? I don't think so. Okay.

I don't think so. I think there's probably two women that I know of. Okay. And they're both taken. Oh. Like I could like I could make it work with these two. I was like, oh, permission. I know. No. No. No. No, no.

Well. He's like, dude, that ain't your lot right now. You're working for me. Yeah, 100%. Like a break, though. You're going to get to break, especially in California. Yeah, true. Right?

Oh, my gosh. All right. Let's move on. Do you think social media is slowly killing the mental health? Yes. I think it's an attention span issue. Right. Yeah.

Well, because there's also. It's crazy, but there's also some videos that'll be like 10 minutes long and they'll go viral. So it's really? Yeah, it's just like, like, random. Yeah, I post a lot of rants that are like over five minutes and a lot of them do like way better than that one. But. You do a lot of rants? Yeah, yeah.

Do you know I'm going to be, I seriously, I love the rants. Really? I'm like, seriously, I like don't have the time. Yeah. To stock your Instagram. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Watch all the rants. Yeah, yeah.

But I'm going to do it. Okay, but yeah. whether I need to or not. Yeah. No, I post like a lot of like story times. Like that's like a lot of like stuff that I do is like just story time. What's the darkest DMs you've ever received and how did it affect you mentally? Darkest DM was definitely somebody saying that they were going to like kill me and kill my friends.

And yeah. Would you do with that? Not really anything. But because I had a stalker before and I. I did something with the stalker, but not with just the DM. It's like I get those all the time. So it's kind of like. When you get DMs where people threaten you, threatened to kill you.

Yeah. You have to give that to the police. All of them. What? I said all of them. How many you got? It's like, it's usually like a once every six months kind of thing. Yes, all of them.

Okay. Yeah. All of them. Because you want to have that as a record. And if I were you, I would send it. both to the local authorities and to the local FBI. True. Yeah.

Okay. Yeah. You don't have to tolerate that shit people. Right. Okay. Come on now. I have the same shit. They want to kill me too.

Really? Yeah. Dylan won't let me give them my address. He's like, pull up. Yeah. I'm like, please God, please. God. I get no fun at all.

None. Zero. Okay. I want to go back. Did that guy when you, when you, the guy where you woke up with blood all of you, okay? Did that guy ever hit you? Like prior to that? Yeah. Yes. No. After that? No. So we only. But we were also like, like, dis, like we, I wouldn't even say we were like dating for all that time because he had two other girlfriends during that time that he was like, he was like, he. know that? No, 100%. But it was like, we didn't see each other as much after those six months because he moved back to Michigan for those six months. Do you know how exhausting it is to have three girls in a road trip? Yeah, I don't know. It's crazy. That's so hard. Yeah. I don't. And how I found out was like I was on his laptop one day, like, when he, because he moved to Michigan for six like months and we were like in his house pretty much. And I was like, can I use your laptop for a Zoom meeting? And on the Zoom meeting, there was a text being all. like, you know, I would do last night. And then I click into it.

And it's like him and I'm like, bro, here we go. That's horrible. Do you have to have that girl's phone number? No, but I had the girl that he was, that he dated the whole time he dated me. Like our relationship was like a year long and theirs was like eight months long. And I brought her on my podcast to tell the whole story. You really? That is so dope.

I did. Yeah. That's gangster. Literally because I was like, don't tell me the whole story. Just call my podcast and we'll talk it out. Like, yeah. My God. And I found out through a TikTok comment because how I found out that they were even dating was we already broke up because he had the other girlfriend.

And I found out. And I was like, face him her right now and say, oh, like, you're not going to tell anybody we hooked up right. And he's like, no, no. And I'm like, well, why wouldn't you? If you said that, then the girl would be like, what do you mean? Like, we definitely didn't. And then so he phased him her. And she answers.

And he's like, you're not going to tell him you hooked up right. And then she's like, I wouldn't. And then he hangs up the phone. I'm like, get out of my house. That's how he like originally like ended. but then when I posted a video or when he posts video being like, yeah, we broke up. And then I posted, I made a comment basically being like, yeah, because another girlfriend. And then she was just like, she was like so proud of you, yada, yada, yada.

And I was like, thank you. And she's just like, I'm just proud that you knew that me and her were like dating him. I go, you and her. Like, what do you mean you and her? I thought you were just hyping me up. Like, you know what I'm saying? because she was like an old friend too so I'm like like I knew her and so I was like huh and then so that was another bandaid because how I like even found out that this is like beyond me but he would

do like only fans shut up yeah what is he do on only fans so no no I got it okay no you're gonna break this thing no you're gonna die so how I found out about the girl when I was like we've never hooked up right I couldn't tell him how I found out Why? Because I made a fake only, because I don't have an only fan's account and had a feeling that he was having sex with a girl on his only fans because why would I check his only fans account? Like, I don't care. Like, he's my boyfriend.

I just assumed that he's, I don't know what's going on there. But he was like, oh, I'm just doing box or stuff. This was a whole long time. Yeah. This was before you became born again. Yeah. For sure. For sure.

Okay. Yeah. The only fans thing gave it away. Yeah. Right. Yeah. Yeah, his only fans. I had to make an only fans count.

Me and my best friend were like, I said, I have a huge gut feeling to buy his only fans. And she's like, bro, he's probably doing shirtless stuff. Key mine, I don't know how only fans works. I had to make an account. I put it under fake names, because I don't want him to see buying like under my name. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

And so, but I just had a gut feeling. I swear it's God being like, this is weird, but you got to do this. You know what I'm saying? And so I legit bought, because the videos were like $200. and there was two videos in a photo. So it was like $500. I'm like, bro, I'm going to have to spend $500 on this right now to just check on. Yeah, so I did.

Sure enough, it's literally like a porno. I legit, yeah, my friend got her phone and like took pictures and videos just in case he ever like brought it up. But I can't be like, hey, I bought your only fans. Yeah, I know you cheated. Like, you know what I'm saying? So that's why I did that whole video thing to make sure before I had to get into like the nifes. gritty stuff, because it's kind of embarrassing to say. You should have put that shit within the podcast.

Like, are you on YouTube? Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Okay. So what you're doing, it's okay, like Apple and Spotify too. Don't be upset. Okay. What would have been really great when you had that woman on that he was cheating on you with?

It would have been great had you played that video. I would have taken down on YouTube. Oh, it would have? Yeah. Like, I just feel like that to the viewers, like, they, like, I think they can take my word for it, you know? I have the screenshots on my phone, literally, but like, yeah. Well, you do have a different crowd. Yeah, yeah.

On this one, we would definitely put it out. We would have definitely put it up. I mean, look at this scumbag. Yeah, literally. This cheating piece of shit. For real. And it was. Sure.

And it was a different girl than the one that was on the podcast. You're kidding. No, it was a complete. Oh, but you got the. Yeah, but it was the third girl. got to have the third girl on the podcast. No, she's insane. All the more reason.

No, but like that girl felt like, okay, yeah, he heard both of us. Like, that's insane because she knew about me. But the other girl was all like, yeah, I'm better than you type energy. Like, she was sending me videos being all like, yeah, I got him, man. And I'll be like, you're insane, you're mental. Like, I didn't know about you, but you know about me and you think he likes you? Okay, go off like, no, crazy. So that one would never work.

out. That's so good. So good. Okay, so I dated a guy, right? He, um, we, we had an amazing relationship, met on the beach in Hawaii. Then we, then he ended up living in, because I was living in Hawaii at the time. We, and I ended up moving back to San Diego with my parents and he actually ended up living there. So then we had this whole thing. He followed your ass to San Diego. Like, well, he actually ended up already living there because he was just a tourist in Hawaii and I was living there. So I saw, like, he saw me on the beach and I was like, I actually live here. And he's like, oh, well, can you show me around? I was like, sure. Um, but then, yeah, so then we started dating and we had a long relationship. It was like my, it was my relationship now is my longest relationship.

This is my second longest relationship. He, we had a perfect relationship and then he pretty much proposed. And when I went to go kind of like mention that on like social media, anywhere to anybody. He was like, don't say anything. Why are you saying stuff? Don't post anything like that. And I'm like, I feel like that's normal thing. Ports anything like what? Like that we were like engaged pretty much. Yeah. And so then I was just like, that's shady. Yes. And I was like, now I'm a little questioning my entire relationship because that was just like, why wouldn't? And he's like, I just haven't told my parents yet. I don't want your parents to find out. And I was just like, okay, keep on. Perfect relationship. All relationship. How long?

Like a year, a year. And at this point. But we knew each other a whole year before that and was like, like dating, not official on and like just because we were long distance, you know? Right. So, yeah. Then once that happened, I then, like, posted something a little like mad. And then somebody thought that we broke up. And because they thought we broke up, this girl reached out to me and was like, I think.

your man is going on a date with my best friend. And I go, no, he's not. No, he's not. I remember I was in the car. I was like freaking out. I was like, no, he's not. And she sends a screenshot, and it's literally her spam, like, Instagram saying, like, going on a date with this famous TikToker.

And I was like, this is not real. And then so I asked him about it because I was freaking out because I already, like, I had a feeling. I got a gut feeling because he already did that whole shenanigan. And he was just like, oh, she's just a crazy fan. Like, you know how they are? And I was like, okay, because you, like, even now,

you get DMs basically people trying to ruin your relationship. Like, anybody that I know, there's been crazy people that are like, oh, your man's cheating on you. Here's some weird proof. And then it's, like, not true at all. It just always is. So I didn't know what to believe. And so I just decided to believe him.

And then to find out that that girl still on that date, took screenshots of it, took videos of it, and then posted it. and I was like, oh, heck, no. Like, it turned out to be, and he actually followed through with it, so I was pissed. And I was, like, obviously upset. We broke up. Everything was done, as I thought.

And then those two girls became my best friends, like, during that time, because I was, like, thank you for telling me, oh, my gosh. And then we became, like, three best friends. And I was, like, crying on my Snapchat, basically saying, like, this happened. And then I mentioned on my Instagram story, like, we're not together. anymore. Not even the next day I get a group chat that was made with like 13 people in it, all random numbers. And it was every single girl that he cheat on me with during our relationship. And it was like screenshots after screenshots sex tapes, three sums. And it like, and I was

blown, I was jaw dropped that. Hold on. They sent you sex tapes of your man's. Yes. Another woman. Yes. How did that feel? Awful. Like I was, no, I, just wait, you're gonna die. I'm gonna die. I'm already dying. I got a screenshot in this batch that was. You can't say batch when we're talking about this. Oh, okay, sure. I got a screenshot in this selection of screenshots. That it was a, it was a screenshot of, like, their DMs. And it was a girl being all like, it was him sliding up with like, you're hot on like her. story. And then she's like, thank you, but I'm 13. And he goes, oh, God. And he goes, you're the hottest 13 year old. Oh, that is disgusting. And then I found out that two of those sex tapes, the girls were 15. He mind, he's 19 at this time. They were girls were 15. Yes. And then

this whole thing happened where I, wait, stop. This 19 year old was sleeping with a 15 year old. Right. Is he in jail? He should be. But, no. It keeps going. And then I went on social media. Oh long ago is this? This was in 2019. I hate parents. No.

I hate parents. There's no way the parents don't know about this. You're going to die, though. The social media, like, I went on social media and was like, he did this, he did that, like, told everything in the world because I'm like, bye. Like, y'all should, you, y'all should know who you're like, your fan, the fans should know who he is. because at the time he was like one of the most pop-in TikTokers at that in that time period. Basically, I said all this stuff. His parents came after me for like defamation.

And then, right. So, stuff, uh, yeah. Whose parents came after you? He is. And then the guy who's banging the, the 19 year old who's banging the 15 year old. Yes. His parents came after you for what?

For defamation. Oh, you got to. No, and then we. Is it still going on? No, no, no. But we sent his parents all of the screenshots in that moment, silence. silence from that point on. So they know. They know. They've seen all of this stuff like fully sent over. So they know. I don't know what happened then, but then I find out that he, after a relationship ended and after all this, he started doing gay porn. He started doing gay porn like full leaks. Like it was leaked out. Like it was, it was like it wasn't people just starting a rumor. Like there was proof like full bone proof to back it like. And it was in it was and it was. And it was. And it was. It was. And it was. at the time my guy best friend that I introduced him, it was them too. Both very straight.

I'm sorry, I hate to break the news. Yeah. But that's the definition of not straight. Exactly. Right. And then after I find out that, two months go by. Can we get back on the two straight guys, each other first? I want to get my head around that. Right. Okay. So you, your boyfriend and one of your best guy friends, Yes. Are each other? Yes. Did you get a video of that?

It's on my phone. On that phone? Yes. You have a picture. Do you want to see? Yeah, I want to see. Okay, so you're... Oh my God, hold on.

Hold on. Hold on. Hold on. Here's one screenshot. Hold on. Let me see this. This is just a screenshot of, but you're going to die. It gets worse every swipe.

Okay, but these guys are in... This guy's got hair on his... You're going to tell. That's gross. Did you see that? That's disgusting. It gets worse. Oh, my God, they're so touching.

Oh, this is nuts. Hold on. Well, the guy on the left is feeling less than. Was that your boyfriend? Which one? Yeah. That was him? Yeah.

Ew. God is that tiny. Is this one of them shoving his... Oh, my gosh. bro. I just, this is the most. Did you, do you ever find out why two straight guys were doing that? Were they doing it on only fans to make money? Yes. And I found this out. How I found this was way later down the line.

And it was like from one of my gay best friends who bought his stuff. So now he has a kid, does gay porn with his best friend. But then I guess they got into a huge argument because he started dating a girl and he thought it was just for content, apparently. And then my guy best friend who my ex was getting with, he, um, like left. And now he just got engaged to a girl. And then my ex is now dating this other TikTok person. And now they started this whole TikTok house. And now, like we're like you get a house like this and move in like six creators and you all make content creator or content together. And then Hey, I want to tell you how much fun this was for me.

Yes, so good. I kept you hostage for longer. No, it's so good. It was, right? Because when I saw that email come through about like mental health podcast, immediately I was like, yes. Well, it's also, it's, you know, it's, it's, it's for, it's for what you talked about earlier with, no.

Mm-hmm. 100%. I just, there's nothing worse than a parent bearing their child. you'll know you'll be a mother right five seven years whatever it is you'll know you're talking about

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