Who Trolled Amber? - Under one roof | Foundling Ep 2
Episode Date: March 31, 2026Jess does a DNA test. And she and Lucy travel to visit a house where Jess’s birth mother once lived, and try and work out how nobody noticed a thing.Foundling is a 6 part original series from Tortoi...se Investigates and The ObserverTo binge listen to all episodes today, ad-free, subscribe to The Observer and use the code AUDIO50 to get 50% off your annual subscription.You'll get access to:This series and all our podcasts before anyone elseAd-free listeningPremium newslettersPuzzles from the inventors of the cryptic crosswordExclusive offers from our partners including Mubi and iescapeTickets to join Observer events in our newsroom or onlineOr subscribe to Observer+ on Apple Podcasts or Spotify to listen to all our podcasts, including this one, without any ads.Reporter - Lucy GreenwellProducer - Katie GunningOriginal theme music - Tom KinsellaSound design and additional music - Rowan BishopPodcast artwork - Blythe Walker SibthorpNarrative editor - Gary Marshall Editor - Jasper Corbett Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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Tortus Investigates.
It's half past 10 on a December night in 2010.
Jess, who was found abandoned as a newborn baby 22 years earlier,
is sitting on her sofa,
having a conversation she's waited half a lifetime to have.
She's on Facebook, messaging the person who found her,
the woman who spotted a Sainsbury's plastic bag on a lonely verge and looked inside.
just to thank her because she'd obviously saved my life
and just to say hi, thanks for finding me.
Except that's not all that Jess wants from this conversation.
Six months earlier, an elderly lady called Jean,
who lived near that verge, had mentioned something.
Rumours, she said,
that some people in the village may have known more about the baby than they let on.
Well, there was a couple of nannies in the village
She said, and they work from around here.
She said, I'm sure one of them has something to do with it.
The woman Jess is messaging was a nanny
who worked nearby at the time.
So once Jess has thanked her, she takes the plunge.
She types.
A lot of people in the village still think you have something to do with it for some reason.
And that's when the message is turned from being quite pleasant, I suppose,
to a little bit more defensive and sour.
Not sure why anyone would think I had anything to do with it.
I'm a bit confused.
I lived within a large family who saw me every day.
It's a bit hurtful to think that people are so cruel.
I didn't really know anyone in the village.
I don't even know if the family I nannied for is still in the area.
I also mixed with other nannies in the area,
but God knows where they are now.
Sorry, I'm not much help.
But I can assure you, if I knew more, I would tell you.
I can assure you, if I knew more, I would tell you.
But Jess isn't convinced.
Yeah, I was kind of a bit taken back because it was just,
I was trying to put myself in her shoes and think,
well, if someone had said that about me,
I would just be like, oh no, I'm not sure.
I'm unsure about why they'd think that,
but I certainly wouldn't have been defensive.
I think she was perhaps hoping I would take that as gospel
and leave it there because she knew nothing.
else. There was nothing else to say. Nothing else we need to talk about. There's nothing else to
discover. No, did you stop digging then? No. Because I think because I just didn't believe her and I didn't,
I felt like there was more to it. And I thought, well, there has to be someone that knows something.
I'm Lucy Greenwell and from Tortus Investigates and the Observer, you're listening to Foundling.
Episode 2, Under 1 Ruth. Jess tells me she has a strong hunch that
Jennifer knows more.
But once the Facebook conversation is over, she's at a loss.
I classed it as an incredible story, like, of, wow, I was found by a lady,
who's a bit weird, who's a bit suspicious.
And I just kind of left it at that.
Jess tries to put it behind her, get on with her life.
But she's forgotten about something else that's still in play.
Weeks before that Facebook conversation, her sister Laura had posted
the message on a family reunion site asking if anyone remembers the nanny who found the Suffolk baby
in 1987. That post is still out there languishing in some quiet corner of the internet.
Three years pass and it's only when Jess is leaving hospital having just given birth to her first baby
in 2013 that a sense of being abandoned comes roaring back.
It was snowing and I had to take him home in the snow.
And I couldn't walk.
And I remember sitting there waiting for his dad to bring the car around
with no one around, just looking at him in his car seat,
this tiny, tiny little bundle, and thinking, could I leave him right now?
I can really imagine this,
that these anxieties could surface at this moment
in those very vulnerable hours after you've given birth.
I convinced myself I'm as bad as her,
even though I've got the baby there, I'm breastfeeding the baby.
Did she feel like this?
Did she have this disconnect right from word go?
Jess says she's worrying that she's inherited an instinct to abandon,
that she's a bad mother, a bad person.
And then postnatal depression sets in.
And when Jess gets home, midwives drop in on her every day,
for two straight months.
For anyone who's had a baby in the UK,
you know that that's a sign that they're seriously concerned about you.
So it dragged up these feelings that I was not expecting.
So that's when it started again for me
because I'd banked it and I really put it away.
I really thought I'd handled it, but it dragged it up.
We know that babies have always been abandoned.
Quite how many, well, that varies across time and place.
In 18th century London, around 1,000 babies a year were left outside churches or hospitals
placed on doorsteps or hidden in parks.
Since the 1970s, a register has been kept of the number of newborns abandoned each year in the UK.
For the 1980s, it shows an average of around 10 babies a year.
But it's far from definitive.
The figures don't include babies who are found dead
or those who are later reunited with a parent,
so the actual number is likely to be higher.
These days, the numbers are vanishingly small.
Over the last decade, the official figure has never been more than one per year.
But foundlings fascinate us.
Think of Moses in the bulrushes.
Mowgli, Thumbolina, Oliver Twist.
And Oliver Twist's locket, the token that in the novel finally connects him with his family,
it captivated readers for a reason, because in the real world, well, there was no locket.
For most of history, there's been no way to prove who the parents of a baby are.
A foundling was an absolute and unsolvable mystery.
Until DNA testing came along.
So a quick spot of history, because it's going to be.
be important. DNA testing in paternity cases has existed since the 1980s. Then, at the turn
of the millennium, a handful of tech start-ups began offering something new. In 2006, a company
called 23 and Me launched in California. They offered genetic testing with a consumer-friendly
design, spit in a tube, send it back, and get information about your ancestry, your inherited traits,
your health.
They made it seem fun.
That was pretty revolutionary.
But four years on, in 2010, they launched something else.
DNA relatives.
This was a feature that matched you with anyone else in the database
with whom you shared significant amounts of DNA.
That was the moment.
For foundlings, the world over, it was game on.
And for the mothers, who didn't want to be found,
Well, the clock was ticking.
By 2020, DNA testing is widespread
and Jess's sister Laura thinks Jess should give it a go
to see what she can find out.
So she was like, oh, we need to do your DNA.
And I was like, oh, I don't want to, I don't want to know.
Jess isn't at all sure.
Almost a decade has passed now
since she last went looking for answers about her birth mother
from that moment on her sofa and the Facebook conversation.
Now she has two children of her own.
Maybe she's better off not knowing.
But while she's thinking about it,
Laura gets a message out of the blue.
It's from someone we're calling Sam.
He says he's just come across Laura's post,
the one Laura had written on that family reunion site
nearly 10 years earlier in 2010,
asking if anyone remembered a nanny who had found a baby in the 1980s.
Laura had included the nanny's unusual surname,
and it was when Sam Googled himself,
hey, we've all done it,
that a link to the post popped up.
It popped up because they share a surname.
And they share a surname because the nanny is Sam's sister.
And he says something incredible.
He says he's always suspect.
that his sister didn't just find the baby.
All along, he's had a hunch that it was her baby.
One message can just explode everything.
It was too much.
It was so much to take on.
Like, just that message alone is sort of shattering.
Because I absolutely convinced myself all my life.
That is too extravagant.
It's too ridiculous to pretend to find a baby
when you've actually given birth.
After talking to Sam, Jess's sister Laura goes into overdrive.
I remember her going, you've got to do your DNA now, you have to do it.
Like, it's got to be her, it has to be her.
When Jess finally does the test, it feels quite mundane, really.
It was just spitting into a tube.
Standing in her kitchen, she spits into a tiny plastic pot,
twists the lid tight, drops it into an envelope.
At the end of her lane, she posts it.
She tells me she was excited to find out where her DNA was from.
Will she find something surprising, like Laura, who discovered that she was half American?
My mum was like, oh, she's just an English rose, like there's nothing to it.
Like, there won't be anything exciting.
I'm sure it's just Suffolk bumpkins and, yeah, that's the sort of route we was going.
DNA matches?
She's not thinking about those.
because if you've abandoned a baby
and then kept quiet about it for decades,
you're hardly going to go and share your DNA
with a commercial database, right?
No one's going to put their DNA out there.
No one will want to be found.
It's 35 years since Jess was discovered on that verge,
but it's at this moment.
Jess's saliva sealed in that plastic vial
that something unstoppable begins.
Six weeks go by
An email arrives
Your DNA has been processed
And it's ready to view
She logs in
And there's something she notices
Straight away
It's a surname
The surname with someone
Who's also sent their saliva
to the site
And who shares enough DNA with Jess
To make them distant cousins
Someone
With the same surname
As the nanny that had found me
Well there is the same
surname. So, come on, this can't just be a coincidence. It's not a massively common surname.
Can't just be a coincidence. This is a pretty strong indication that she's somehow related
to the nanny. DNA doesn't lie, after all. A serious genealogist would probably want to rule out
some other relatives with the same name before jumping to conclusions. But it seals it for Jess.
Three pieces of evidence now.
The nanny rumours from back in the 80s.
The brother from across the country with his suspicions.
And now this.
An identical surname in her DNA results.
She's sure now.
And after researching this story for a year
and getting a genealogist to talk me through Jess's DNA results,
I am too.
It was gurgling, smiling.
The nanny, who said she'd found
And Jess is in fact her birth mother.
Jess thinks back to that Facebook conversation years ago.
Not sure why anyone would think I had anything to do with it.
I'm a bit confused.
Sorry, I'm not much help.
I can assure you, if I knew more, I would tell you.
The one where the nanny denied knowing anything.
We all as a family then sat there and went, surely not.
Surely not.
She's bare face lied.
what was this nine years later
after I'd first spoken to her to Jennifer
and said that she had nothing to do of it.
It's an understatement to say that Jess feels hurt
by that lie over Facebook.
She sees it as a second rock-hard rejection,
an echo of the first.
For Jess, it's simple.
Her birth mother is the villain in this story.
She's a woman who abandoned a baby and then lied about it.
I've thought a lot about Jennifer,
and to me this lie was just the latest
in what must have been countless untruths woven together
in order to secure the secret over decades.
If you've spent a lifetime protecting that secret,
then dismantling that lie and everything you've done,
built around it just as soon as your secret daughter lands unexpectedly in your DMs,
it would take immense courage.
And yet, if you don't want to be found and you don't want to tell the truth,
why respond to Jess at all?
Why not stay silent?
Is anyone close in your life called Jenny?
Because if there is, let's not do that.
I've got an aunt Jenny, but I don't see her very much.
Okay.
Okay, well let's go with Jennifer.
It's quite a popular name in those of people born in 69 or whatever.
It's almost 40 years since Jess was found on that verge.
Her birth mother now lives hundreds of miles from the place in Suffolk where Jess was abandoned.
She has a husband and children and a career in the NHS.
So Jennifer isn't her real name.
We've changed that and any other details that
might identify her.
After receiving her DNA results, Jess thinks about contacting Jennifer again, about sending a message.
But she doesn't.
She isn't ready to speak to her.
Is that their house?
Yeah, that's her house.
It's a bright autumn morning, and I'm in the car with Jess, her husband, Jamie, and my producer, Katie.
We're heading to the Suffolk House where Jennifer lived and worked back in 1987.
For the first time, Jess's years of digging and my mind.
fresh investigation are coming together.
Before trying to answer questions about why Jess was left,
we both want to understand how any of it was possible.
How did she hide her pregnancy, hide the birth,
and apparently evade any suspicion at all?
So we want to get a sense of Jennifer's life back in 1980s Suffolk.
It's just absolutely sweet.
And on a day like today, it's, yeah.
I mean, yeah, look at that.
That sunny suffolk at his best.
Jess is convinced that someone must have known that Jennifer was pregnant,
maybe even helped her at the birth.
And for Jess, the most likely person is Selena,
the mother of the family Jennifer worked for.
After all, Jennifer lived right there, under her roof.
So I'm taking Jess to meet Selena and her daughter, Gussie.
It's a huge moment for Jess.
She's got such scant details about her origins.
So this family and this house are really important.
She's thought about them for years.
Oh, let's look at the fluff.
Who's the fluff?
Let's not run the Pekingese over.
No, let's not do that.
We pull up on the wide gravel drive.
The big front door is propped open
and a small Picanese runs out to greet us.
Should we go in?
Yeah.
Picture an archetypal
English setting. A red brick Georgian house set in lush green lawns. Step inside and it's very
lived in. There's a kitchen with an agar, sagging sofas. The walls are full of pictures. Every surface is
covered with ornaments. Think faded maximalism. It's beautiful and a bit shabby. Our visit is a big
deal for Selena and Gussie too, who have often wondered what happened to the baby who their nanny found.
I'm a hug, I'm sorry.
It's very lovely to see you.
Yeah, it's crazy.
Maybe where are you born?
Yeah, I know.
Selina is the five-foot-tall matriarch of this house,
and I really need to describe her for you.
So black hair, layers of ancient clothes to cope with a slightly chilly house,
and a lit cigarette on the go at all times.
Now, if you're picturing a 19th century fortune teller,
You're not far off.
It's a beautiful house you have, though.
It's stunning.
So you're born in a nice house, that's quite good.
Yeah, I know, that's it.
It's a good start.
But then, like, instantly we always thought.
We might have born in the garden or something.
Well, this is it.
We don't know, do we?
That's the only trouble.
With five children,
Selena oversaw a succession of nannies and opers in the 80s.
We sometimes advertised in the nursery world,
at magazine, and the lady.
We've got a few people from that.
What kind of thing might you have said?
Well, I would have said, mother's help, probably, living in mother's help.
Childcare in Suffolk in the late 80s was a far cry from the professionalised world of nannies you might find today.
Which does slightly help explain how an 18-year-old, with no experience of looking after children, might still have landed the job.
She was young. She was quite reserved. She came for an interview with her bounce.
They were absolutely charming
And then I started work about a month later
She was just a very nice, simple girl, she seemed to be
When I think back to my own job interviews, age 18
I'm struck by the fact that her parents drove her to Selena's house
For this interview
Selena says Jennifer was a good nanny
Reliable and loving towards the children
Gussie remembers Jennifer giving her a little fluffy rabbit as a present
There's definitely a picture somewhere.
She was definitely one of our favourite nannies as well.
Is she the only one that made it into the family album?
Oh no, I've just seen some loads of others.
We had quite a few.
How many nannies did he have?
We reckon about 50.
50.
She's joking, I think.
But there were a lot of nannies over the years.
Gussie's number four of the five children.
In the 1980s, our two families were good friends,
and we'd often come here after school or at weekends.
Gussie and her siblings were brilliantly badly behaved,
and the whole place crackled with mischief and fun.
I imagine it might have been quite challenging
for any nannies with a delicate disposition.
It's literally her standing in that bedroom,
in her dungarees, which her famous dungarees.
Well, that's Margaret.
She was the horrid one.
She must be the one before.
We can't find the photo of Jennifer,
but I see glimpses of other nannies
frozen in various scenes in this 1980s world,
school sports day,
kids' birthday parties,
a world that Jennifer would have stepped straight into
upon arrival that summer of 1987.
She must be quite responsible
that one left her on for the whole night.
If Selena and her husband went away,
18-year-old Jennifer
would be left in sole charge of the children overnight.
And that's what happened on the night of Monday the 5th of October, 1987.
So in this large house, there was just Jennifer
and the family's two youngest children.
At this point, Jennifer's been working as a nanny here for four months.
Selina arrives back late the next morning on the Tuesday.
And instantly, she notices that something unusual is going on.
When I got back, the policeman and police cars,
well, I thought there'd been a burglar or something immediately.
But it wasn't a burglary.
There was something far stranger unfolding inside.
She was on a sort of high, in a way.
But she'd just been interviewed,
and she was rather enjoying it as far as one could work out.
So the whole thing was most odd.
And we were all just rather elated by the whole thing.
All seemed most peculiar.
I mean, it didn't enter my head.
It could have been her baby.
We all took her to face value that she found this baby.
She was on the news, that was all very exciting,
and we all watched the news together with her,
and we were all laughing away at her on the news.
You remember her being excited?
That's the thing.
It was all excitement for her and us.
Oh, it's a steep set.
I know.
Yeah.
Not ideal when you're pregnant.
In Salina's house, the family nanny always used to sleep
in a room that's reached by a small door in the corner of the kitchen,
and up a narrow set of wooden stairs.
This is her bedroom?
Yeah.
Oh, so she would have had a really easy route out of the house.
We would have been a nan, that in I.
Oh, you were literally that close.
Wow.
I just see, I just...
There are three rooms off a small landing.
The nanny's bedroom, a bathroom,
and the children's bedroom
where Gussie and her little sister slept that night.
Nothing has changed.
This whole section has not changed at all.
So same armchair.
I would have thought so, yeah.
Same patterns because they match the armchair.
It's atmospheric, and for me it's nostalgic.
I haven't been up here since I was a child.
There's an earthy smell of damp books or boxes
and something else, soap maybe.
The carpet is light green, just like it always was.
So they're all seeing God, almighty God,
And on the wall there's a tapestry with a prayer.
There's not a sin that we commit nor wicked word we say,
but in thy dreadful book, tis right against the judgment day.
And I'm reading that after giving birth.
Should you have a look at the bathroom?
Yeah.
It's just here right next one.
Okay.
So this would have been just hers, or did you use...
No, I'm just hers, yeah.
Gosh.
Is it different to what you pictured?
Yeah, I just thought the kids would be a lot further away.
It's a decent-sized bathroom, isn't it, with your toilet, you sink and your bath?
But you have got room potentially to be on the floor, haven't you?
The bathroom has two entrances, a door from the landing and another door into Jennifer's bedroom.
There's no window, and there's a cupboard in the corner where towels are kept.
There's a lock on the door, too.
So this is the perfect place to do it then, isn't it?
I think it was in here.
I don't know why.
I just think it is.
Because she's got everything to hand that she needs, doesn't she?
Trying to piece it all together is important for Jess.
It's important for me too,
because there's a glaring, practical question here.
How on earth did Jennifer hide the birth from everyone around her?
So we tried to work out the timings.
No one was in the house, right?
There was a housekeeper.
Cleaning leave.
Yeah, no, no, but she wouldn't have necessarily been here.
She shouldn't live here.
So if she'd left you at 8 o'clock...
She's deaf.
She's deaf.
Anyone who's given birth or has attended one
knows that it's not a quiet affair.
The deaf housekeeper, she wouldn't have heard anything.
But the two girls Jennifer was looking after,
Gussie and her sister, they might have.
We know that Jennifer takes Gussie to school each morning,
her younger sister in tow, a 45-minute round trip.
She's usually out of the house between about 7.45 and 8.30.
So if Jess was born before the school run, where is she during that drive?
Left at home? Hidden in the car?
If she's born after, does Jennifer drive the girls to school whilst in late stage labour?
Childbirth doesn't keep to a schedule.
First babies, especially. Labor can last 12 hours,
24, sometimes longer.
To give birth while caring for two children,
one of whom's 10 and so old enough to ask questions,
and with a tight school drop-off to manage,
how did nobody see or hear anything?
Standing here in the bathroom, we tried to picture it,
how frightening and overwhelming it must have been for her,
a teenager, alone, and giving birth in secret.
I wonder, could Jennifer have been one of those rare cases you hear about?
a cryptic pregnancy where a woman doesn't know she's pregnant until labour kicks in.
It's possible, but for most cryptic pregnancies,
labour is so unexpected and so downright terrifying
that these women tend to end up in hospitals.
They don't stay hidden.
For Jennifer to have managed this,
so many things had to go right for her.
If just one person, a friend, Selena, her family.
her family had noticed her growing belly and spoken out.
If one of the children had come in and found her,
her cover would have been blown.
And I know what you're thinking,
that it's impossible that Selena wouldn't have noticed,
a nanny living under her roof,
heading towards full-term pregnancy.
I mean, here's a woman who's given birth to five children.
If anyone knows how to spot the signs of pregnancy, she does.
I asked Selena again, surely you noticed something.
Did she seem to be getting bigger?
Did you notice her getting bigger?
No.
Because I knew nothing about it, I didn't sort of even analyse it.
No, you weren't looking for anything.
No.
In the weeks afterwards, is there anything that you noticed
that was her mood changing or her size changing,
a sense of anything about her that's struck?
Nothing at all, partly because I made up my mind, it wasn't hers.
I think I had so much decided.
It couldn't have been possible that I didn't look for anything.
And you know what? I believe her.
I was there too, and I didn't notice.
While reporting this story, I learned something about my own mother,
who's no longer around, a memory I'd never heard before,
that my mum and Selena actually had a bit of a disagreement about it
with my mother insisting that it must have been Jennifer's baby.
Selena, adamant that it can't have been.
The fact is, back then, Selena had a sprawling.
family. She was at capacity.
I can see how she might have missed things.
And there's something else about Selena.
She's open-hearted, unsuspicious by nature.
So while the village was alive with rumours,
in the house, they were sure it wasn't hers,
even as the police began to ask questions.
If they've rung you up and said, we think it's hers,
you would have said it's not hers?
Yes, I would have.
Why were you so sure?
Well, for one thing, unless she had somebody with her,
how could she have cleared up all the mess before them,
been so controlled and together?
She was completely together.
Unless she had somebody with her,
how could she have cleared up all the mess and been so together?
Childbirth is a messy job,
and the person giving birth isn't normally in much of a state
to tidy up afterwards.
But I suppose we don't know for sure
that Jennifer gave birth in the house.
Perhaps it happened outside somewhere,
though it was oxytoccurring.
so not very warm.
Jess has always imagined that her mother had a helper,
but if she did, it wasn't Selena.
Did you ever talk to her about the rumours, to Jennifer?
No.
You never asked her.
No, I mean, she very much was adamant that she'd found this baby,
and I went along with it.
They still struggle to wrap their heads around it.
Well, she must have had somebody helping her.
Who might have helped her?
Did you ever wonder who it could have been?
Well, I assume it might have.
have been Catherine.
I know Catherine.
She arrived to help look after me in my siblings that same year in 1987,
just as my mother, a photographer, started showing symptoms of the MS that she had been
diagnosed with.
Catherine fitted in with the other local nannies, opairs and mothers' helps.
They were all young, unmarried, and they hung out together.
Catherine remembers Jennifer as someone who laughed easily, who was fun.
She was quite thoughtful.
In what way?
In that she would notice if I was sort of on my own and nobody was talking,
then she would come and talk and say, are you okay?
At the weekends, there were evening spent in village pubs,
the odd night out at a disco in town.
Nanu's Christmas dinner, there we are.
Catherine's showing me a photo from Christmas 1987,
two months after the baby appeared.
What do you remember of that Christmas?
Christmas dinner.
Not much, no, just that obviously everyone's very happy and we are having a good time.
Rosie cheat.
Yeah.
There's wine happening there.
There's wine.
Yeah.
And looking at her smile.
Not a care in the world.
See, I don't understand how someone can do that and then behave like nothing's happened.
Looking back, she finds it hard to square her friendship with Jennifer.
She was probably my closest friend at that time.
With the realisation that there was this whole other story going on,
one that she knew nothing about.
They talked, of course, about the morning Jennifer found the baby.
She said, yeah, I found a baby.
She said it was just on the side of the road.
I said, what made you stop if it was just a bag on the side of the road?
What made you stop?
She said, I don't know.
She said, I just stopped.
But Catherine never properly questioned Jennifer's version of events.
The police did, though.
While the investigation was underway,
we know officers continued to probe Jennifer for more details.
They were clearly unconvinced by her story.
And Catherine remembers this.
She recalls offering Jennifer advice.
I remember distinctly saying to her,
well, if they keep asking you whether it's your baby,
I said all you need to do is let them give you an examination,
then they can see that you haven't had a baby.
And she didn't reply.
Jennifer doesn't take up Catherine's suggestion to have a medical examination,
and she lets it go.
I feel sure that there must have been other signs, clues, things that didn't feel quite right.
I keep wondering if it was my best friend, how far would I push it?
No, I never asked her outright.
I didn't really feel that I could, because she would then think that I didn't believe her.
Did you believe her?
At the time, yes, I did.
But looking back,
Too many things were not quite right.
She had these dungarees that she wore almost all the time.
I remember those dungarees.
When I picture Jennifer, she's always wearing them.
It was gurgling, smiling.
And when I re-watched the clip of her on the TV news,
there they are, pale denim, big and baggy, with white buckles.
But it was perfectly happy.
It was her signature outfit.
Years afterwards, I remember talking to Gussie and my siblings
about how those dungarees would have been absolutely perfect
to conceal a changing body shape.
And Catherine thinks she spotted that change one night in Jennifer's bedroom.
Yeah, I just sort of gently poked her and I said, I said, what's that?
I said, as good eating is it?
Something, you know, something like that.
But yes, there was no response to that whatsoever.
Her face just didn't change at all.
She didn't laugh.
She just looked at me.
And then she looked away and changed the subject again.
And we started talking about something else.
Catherine thinks at the time that maybe she's overstepped the mark,
that she's offended Jennifer, but she thinks no more of it.
Catherine and Jennifer, they eventually fall out over a boy
and they lose touch.
And after I tell Catherine that Jess is Jennifer's baby,
that she'd been pregnant all along,
she spent a long time since then
trying to work out how it was possible.
I think she arrived in Suffolk pregnant
and came to Suffolk
so that nobody at home would know she'd had a baby.
This stacks up.
Jennifer grew up in a town hundreds of miles away.
She arrived in Suffolk to start her new job
in June 1987, four or five months pregnant.
And Catherine recalls something else.
Remember that boy I mentioned,
the one she and Jennifer fell out over?
Jennifer started going out with him in 1988,
so just a few months after baby Jess was abandoned in October 87.
Catherine dates him next,
and during their relationship,
he tells Catherine that Jennifer had confided in him.
and she had told him that she had had a baby and had it adopted.
At the time, Catherine assumes that Jennifer was heavily embellishing her role
as the saviour of an abandoned baby, and she forgets about it.
I'm really intrigued by this story.
Was this the first, and for decades the only time she acknowledges that she's had a baby,
one that was later adopted?
Jess is fixated on details like this.
There's shards of information that she collects,
trying to get her head around it.
There is one person who has all the answers.
Why doesn't Jess just ask?
It's just strange, isn't it?
I think it is frustrating because obviously there's no definite answer still.
And I know the answer to that is just to meet her
and talk to her, but I just can't.
When Jess talks about this, and we've discussed it a lot,
she says that it's about trust.
Ever since the Facebook conversation back in 2010,
when Jennifer denies knowing any more about her birth,
Jess doesn't believe that she'll get the straight answers she wants.
If you're a foundling,
you've suffered the ultimate rejection right at the start of your life.
Jess says that this just keeps on reverberating
this sense of being unwanted.
And when I look at it through this lens,
Jess keeping her distance looks more like self-preservation.
And if I met her, it would make it too real.
And I think that would break my heart.
So I put pen to paper and I write to her.
I say I knew her as an eight-year-old kid.
I explain that we're telling Jess's story
and I ask her if she wants to talk about the events of 1987.
I post it.
And then I wait.
I'll do a snap.
Yeah, Papa.
Right, everyone in?
Squeeze in.
I take a picture.
Jess wants one for her album.
She's heading home now to her children.
There's a comfort in sticking with the family she knows, she tells me.
It's small and cosy.
It's where she belongs.
So we've spoken to witnesses and started collecting fragments
to build a picture of Jennifer's life back.
in 1987. We know that somehow she managed to be full-term pregnant and give birth and then pretend
to find the baby without anyone really noticing. But there's so much we don't know. What brought her
to the verge that October morning? What was happening in Jennifer's life to make this feel like
the only way out? There's another thing too, a reason why it feels so important to understand Jess's
birth mother better. Because Jess's DNA results reveal something else. There's another match,
right there at the top, on the first page of results. But this match is harder to understand.
It's not clear who it is. This person who apparently shares some of Jess's DNA is labeled only as
close family. It had a code name, so it didn't have an actual name.
There's just this series of random letters in place of a name.
It was just frustrating because I couldn't see anything.
There was no profile picture. There was no details.
And Jess is sitting there, staring at it when her phone rings.
It's not a number she recognises.
When she picks up the call, it's from someone who says she's a DNA researcher.
They're calling from a long-running ITV show called Long Loss Family.
And she said, oh, we've...
put your DNA on the DNA ancestry site and we just wondered what your story was.
And I went, oh, God.
I was like, my story.
I said, what is this about?
It's because you've matched with one of our clients, she called her.
She explains that it's a bit complicated.
She's hoping that Jess can help fill in some of the gaps.
You say you're adopted.
She said, tell me a bit about that.
And I said, well, I was abandoned as a baby.
And then there was this instant gasp at the end of the phone of, what?
The researcher is silent for a moment.
She wasn't expecting this.
And she carefully shares a few fragments of what she knows with Jess.
And then I remember hanging up.
And although it was like a 20-minute conversation, it was just, I couldn't get my head
around it.
My head just exploded.
Next time on Foundling.
No words can express when you think that someone has dumped you on the side of a road,
that they'd then go and do it again.
Never, every scenario I came up with, never did that one scenario come up.
Like, that she'd done it again.
Foundling was reported by me, Lucy Greenwell.
It was written by me and by Katie Gunning, who was also the series producer.
The theme music was composed by Tom Kinsell.
sound design and additional music was by Rowan Bishop.
Podcast artwork was by Blythe Walker Sybthorpe.
The development producer was Jess Swinburne.
The narrative was Gary Marshall.
The editor is Jasper Corbett.
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