Wild2Mild Podcast - Ep 9. From Festival Scams to Peeing in the Club: Chaos & Healing

Episode Date: August 24, 2025

Send us a textThis week’s episode is CHAOS. Nicole & Bethan dive into the Miss Laois festival scam scandal (yes, allegedly scamming tickets AND pretending to talk to dead relatives 😳), get real about ADHD struggles and feeling apathetic and swap their most unhinged chaotic girl stories, from peeing in clubs to swinging trolleys in the street. They also unpack wellness culture traps (hello 5am club 👀), why women only get two good weeks a month, weird body sensations like “feeling pores open,” and how they use dark humour to process trauma (car crashes, nervous system freak-outs and all).It’s raw, funny, a little wild and a little mild, basically them in a nutshell.✨ If you’ve ever been scammed, laughed through trauma or compared yourself to a past version of you… this one’s for you.

girl hey girl hey girl welcome back welcome to the wild tomorrow podcast girl it's been a while it's not it's been a week it's been a week a lot has gone on this week what a hell of a week i know what the hell it's been a what the hell i was scrolling on ticot earlier and i feel like before this goes out of my brain i need to discuss it okay so if any of my irish crowd are watching there's a big festival called electric picnic happening this weekend so when this episode goes out it'll be the Sunday so it'll be the last day of the festival but basically it's the biggest festival in all of Ireland right and it's on like every year amazing vibes amazing scenes but there is this thing that I've seen so basically do you know the way like Cork and Dublin they're counties right so similar to how Essex would be here in the

UK um but leash is one of the counties okay and there's a Miss Leach so it's like if there was like miss universe miss yeah exactly so miss leash miss cork miss dublin all go into this thing called miss ireland which is gas because i did that like not last year fucking hell i did it when i was uh 20 or 19 or something which is hilarious to think oh my god miss is mrs irish over there no like it's like embarrassing like if there's any clips online i'll be more to find oh my god don't let's find the clips guys please find pageant like yeah oh my god we need to find No, it's so embarrassing. I have a photo on my phone.

But anyway, so Miss Leish, apparently, so when you do this, like, if you're nominated to be like Miss Court, Miss Dublin, Miss Leach, you do charity work and like all this, do you know what I mean, like humanitarian vibes? Yeah. She's been scamming thousands of people apparently, allegedly, I don't quote me, on tickets for electric picnic. So for this festival.

So it's been all over my ticket. all these people who've been scammed and they're like yeah so she's saying that she's like got a ticket to this festival and then they've given her the money and then they've just been scammed like aired miss leash now what the hell's going on there but also like how do you think you're going to get away with that because like at the end of the day they're going to find out they've been scammed yeah of course so i don't really understand the thought process behind that charlie that must be that can't be right no but like why are people why are people going online saying had they been scammed and also I seen this clip of this girl on TikTok and she was saying how

Miss Miss Leish had scammed her for the tickets and whatnot but she had scammed her um years ago or something basically this girl's mom had passed away and miss Leish had DM'd her being like oh like I can talk to spirits like just to let you know I know your mom has passed oh my is this actually a real thing is real yeah and then the girl was like her mom had just died like a mom month or so or a few weeks previous and obviously you're going to like you're desperate like you're literally praying on like grieving people which are already in like a state of like really despair yeah so then um anyway she reached out to this girl and she was like oh like i can connect with the dead like and your mom's come through and she's telling her all these things like

oh your mom went to this school and she's telling me about this childhood friend and she's telling me about this thing in your primary school that happened and blah-de-blah lo and behold anyway between the jigs and the reels of it all this girl had gone on to this website called rip.i which is like a lot of like Irish parents now

and grandmothers and granddad would go on to a daily to see who's died in the area like it's like this thing in Ireland which is like a thing that people check up on all the time it's a wild yeah yeah I know like Facebook for dead people it's a website right um but sorry my nose ring is going crazy um but yeah anyway so miss leish i gone to rip dot ae

and read through the comments because you leave group well how do you know that she done that i i honestly i don't know this is all alleged alleged right so this is ticto it's all alleged i'm just the messenger the messenger you're the middleman i'm the middleman don't come for me all right so basically um yeah apparently she got on to RIP.e and found like people leave notes with like grievance messages and stuff to be like so sorry I couldn't make the funeral or so sorry that like you passed

like we had a great time in this school and from your friend dumb let's say she'd gone on and gotten these names and put all this together and send her a voice note about it all yeah right that's like some like that's some like really major like psychosis

shit that isn't it it's either manipulation or genuine psychosis because surely someone in the right mind would not go out of the way to do that oh isn't that awful it's awful and I was like what the hell and now she scammed loads people so my sister called me and she's like oh I need a ticket to EP and I was like oh like I'll try I'll try a suss one and see if I can get one for you because they're like gold dust and I was like please tell me you did not get scammed by that woman she was like no I didn't but everyone is getting a scammed by her Isn't that wild? That is so wild.

I honestly don't know what goes through people's minds to be able to do that. I really don't. Like that's like genuine. That's like kind of on the same lines of like you've sold your soul to the devil shit. But I don't understand again like how like let's say if you're scamming people for whatever. But in all fairness like you're going to get caught this Friday when everyone's going to the festival. They literally can't get in. Yeah.

Like one of the girls, not one of the girls, sorry, so dramatic. Joanne McNally, who I idolise. We actually follow each other on Instagram. Go on, Joanne. She's, my therapist goes to me, you know that podcast, that I religiously listen to all the time. She religiously does listen to you, Joanne. She talks about you all the fucking time. Yeah, I was just listened to her there.

I actually seen her in Clapham. Oh, God. Yeah, I seen him, but. Yeah, I seen him, but, no, because I was rushing to go to rehearsals, so I didn't wave. Right. But anyway, that was like two months ago. But do you think if you waived, she would know who you are, I don't know.

Potent. Potent. Joanne, do you know who she is or not? Like, Joanne, like I love you. Please listen to us, Joanne. Come on, Joanne. We can be friends. Like, you're only down the road for me.

Come on now. I got tickets to see your show there in September. Yeah, two Irish babes. Come on. But anyway, sorry. What was I saying? Oh, yeah. So Joanne was saying that she went to Glastonbury, right?

And the similar thing happened to her. That she got scanned. Why is everyone scammet? Like, what's with all the scammed? I mean, I get it. Listen, I get the economy. I get it. I understand.

I fucking genuinely understand why people probably do it. At the same time, pack that in. What are you doing? It's already, the UK's already literally, what? I'm scared you're holding the mic too close to your,

I am to your thing. And you know I'm not, it'll be loud. Oh yeah, well, it'll be so I'm, um, um,

oh, did you? Yeah, tough, right, yeah, sorry guys, being screaming. Um,

but yeah, so basically she, her friend had gotten the tickets and then on the day of still no tickets still nothing and the friend went to the registered address

found the address of this person rocked up and this is so sad the mom answered it bawling crying and being like you're like

the fourth person to come here today my son has done this I'm so sorry and it was her birthday wait sorry let's rewind a bit what we're talking about

the Glastonbury scamming tickets scald right Claston So Joanne's friend went to the house found the house

of the person who sold them the scam ticket the day of the festival being like hello where are the tickets and his mom answered the door

crying being like you're like the fourth person who's come here today isn't that so sad that's apparently it was her birthday and everything

but like sorry what you do in scamming with the tickets like you're going to get caught if you're going to scam you would be fucking smart about it

exactly even if you weren't going to get caught like get a fucking moral you absolute wet wipe you absolute weapon get a moral please pick up one moral

and you go and have a look Google morals and choose one please please like stop it please the UK is genuinely like in the bottom ranking of like the most miserable countries and you are out yeah oh no it's actually island isn't it

in fact no this actually, oh well, one of them was Ireland, the other, the Lassenbury was UK. Right, well, exactly. You're scamming people in one of the worst countries that's already everyone's miserable, and you're trying to, you're trying to send people under, why? Why? Like, we don't need it. I know.

In all fairness, like, talking about being sent under, I'm fucking sent under. Oh, you're going through it. I'm going through it at the minute. I don't know what, I honestly don't know what's going on. Well, listen, we're all girls, we're not all girls. There might be a few men on here, but, you know, most of the, girls like we'll go through it don't we with my little emotions up and down like a fucking yo yo um but yeah i feel really apathetic right what does that mean not too sure but i feel like

it means like kind of um not like not a lot of like emotion i feel like a little bit like joyless but not like fully joyless i won't say i'm fully joyless but i just feel at the moment over the past couple of days I've just really been feeling it hard yeah just like plateaued yes yes that is basically how I feel and I just don't know where I don't know where it came from I feel like I've been dipping out of it a little bit more the last few weeks though yeah um since spending time with me not at all but I do feel like the past few weeks is definitely I've noticed it like when I've been like thinking about it a bit more I don't know what that is and I'm just I'm actually sick of like drained for yeah I'm I feel like I'm more drained from like always like

researching kind of like what's going on with us like I'm always looking at like you know ADHD like what they call like what they call them she articles and stuff like that and I'm reading articles on it and I'm like is this what's wrong with it is because of this part of the ADHD like because I've got combination ADHD, which is a mix of like hyperactivity and inattentive. And when I go through my phases when I'm like inattentive, it's really hard to explain that to someone because inattentive like ADHD looks like you're lazy,

it looks like you've got no goals, it looks like you've got no ambitions, but like inside your brain, all you can think about is everything that's going on. Yeah. But you can't like use what's going on inside. It's like inside. It's like, it's internal what's going on when you're in a tent of ADHD.

So, like, even though my brain's 100 miles an hour, but then at the same time, I can't organise my thoughts. Like, on the outside, it looks like, oh, like, you know, she's not really working on herself or she's not really pursuing her goals. But really, I'm like, my brain's a million miles an hour. And I can't verbalise it. That's so funny that you say that because to me, you are pursuing your goals

and you are driven like you're always doing amazing creative things yeah like do you think that people think that you're not because like I it's more about how I think

like I it's more about like me so like how I think of myself rather than I think I'm kind of over how other people see is now I think that's just genuinely off being in the limelight I think like when you become in the limelight at first it is a hard pill to swallow

when you're having all these opinions but then I'm just like all these opinions are outside noise and they don't know who I truly am and even like to a certain extent like you're never truly going to be understood by anyone because you it's just a fact that's not you know what I mean

it's not achievable it's not attainable it's not I don't even understand myself exactly well for sure I exactly so I feel like it's more about how I feel about myself and like I think I was actually having a conversation with my friend jade this morning and i was saying well that like i so when you compare yourself to other people which is very natural it's human nature like it's genuine like you're built to kind of

think like that because it's like a survival mechanism so like you compare like oh like who's rich who's more this who's that and that's like a kind of subconscious thing that you don't really know that you're doing and you've got to kind of fight that like human behavior i think i don't know if that's true but that's just what I've yeah like it makes sense so anyways um that's all well and good I don't necessarily compare myself to other people I compare myself to previous versions of myself when I've kind of seen myself as like being really successful like really fucking shit hot on it on the grind working every single day fucking 12 hour days like when I used to work at like a beauty salon or like a oh what was that noise oh what is that I don't know

girl girl's the door um oh yeah go on yeah so like when I was working like for example if I was working at the spa and I would do like 12 hour shifts and then like so I compare myself to the

output now and I'm like I literally work for about six hours and I'm keeping my brain is fried yeah but I think you have to give yourself grace like and I that it's weird that you say this because I was thinking about this like an hour and a half ago no way I swear to God I was

thinking about this and I was like because again I was listening to my therapist goes to me fucking how this is like an ad for the podcast like a different podcast as well like and they were just on about how they so they're like in their late 30s and early 40s and how they feel

like 29 some days but then other days they feel like their age right but you have to give yourself grace like I wait what was I you were talking about it I was talking about the cat's going in the background

I know the cat I'm overstimulated now no oh yeah sorry yeah yeah but when you're younger like you've got so much more energy as well and like your prefrontal cortex hasn't like developed my god my cat's going

crazy girl come here the cat I know no we've got mufflers on probably not but yeah give yourself grace like people change obviously you change their life like you're not the same person you were like five years ago like neither of us are and thank for that

thank God because what we're doing rolling around rolling around the streets literally like hiding in bins like not so well maybe not five years ago maybe that was about seven years ago

but I remember like I was just so chaotic I remember when I first moved to London like one of my friends we were on a night out and I really had to pee but I just couldn't be ours to use the toilet so I just went on the street and she was like what the hell and like that was like the done thing for me I would just pee on the street all the time I feel like

that's actually quite the euse I feel like that's yeah well it is a new castle well it used to be in Newcastle I mean I don't know what like she was so shocked and I was like come here I feel like this is quite normal though yeah yeah I mean I think that that was quite normal I feel like everyone used to just have a little pee in the street yeah like if you need to go you need to especially at the end of the night at 3am behind a bin behind the bin like or behind the taxi yeah well don't know about the taxi no behind the cars listen I've done a lot in my time

honestly I really have so I did pee in a club once before as well in a club in a club on the seat yeah sorry that is mank I'm really out myself I was I was 19 I mean it was actually in Newcastle oh well that'll make sense then you enjoy territory sorry I'm really outing myself here

Mank sorry don't judge me that was 10 years ago 11 years ago but thank we're different going back to that I don't know how we went down about your feeling shit to me peeing in the club like Christ almighty

ADHD law there we go now but I just I feel like yeah you know like sometimes I like look back and I think definitely because like my energy levels

are different now and obviously I'm going to the doctors and stuff next week and you know just trying to figure some things out health-wise but like I don't know

it's just like really frustrating to kind of like compare yourself to like a previous version of you because like especially when you like say if you compare say for instance if your friend compares themselves to someone else it's easy to say they're on a different path you need to stop comparing yourself to somebody else's path yeah like it's very that's a very quick easy thing to be like you're on a different timeline you're on your own timeline that that's you know what I mean but then to compare yourself to a previous version of yourself yeah it's hard to go and then it's like oh well that's when you were like younger and funer and fit are and cool

and like in your head you're like all the worst things about yourself um no i get that i think it's natural to go there and like i look back on my content and i'm like oh my god that was so cool why can i not recreate that and like oh my god that was unreal that i did that and i had so much energy to do that it's natural and look we're getting lads we're in a new routine to be tell them about the routine last week yeah we're getting up at 6 a.m. Now we did fuck me off this morning like I feel like I'm still

I was shaky I'm a shaky this morning I'm still getting used to it it's just I'm usually a night out I feel like yeah I feel like what it is is like obviously with routines especially with like the wellness industry and everything and I've

fallen victim to it as well of like I feel like you have to you know because like these people that promote like routine and like doing waking up at 5am and you're doing your 5pm routine 5am yeah all of this stuff and then when you don't do that you feel bad and you feel guilty but that is the trap by the way that is the trap of like they're making you feel like you not do not them as in like a specific person but like a specific structure of making you feel like you're not doing enough as a woman your hormone cycle is 28 days yeah a man could wake up every day at 5am if you wanted to he

hormone cycles 24 hours for women it's different and I feel like there's I feel like to take a like a pin take men's like advice when it comes to fitness and health and all of that with a pinch of salt if that's not what that if that's not what that how do I explain this so basically like when men are giving you like health advice and things like that they're kind of focusing only on their own hormone cycle and how they feel but if you're saying that you're exhausted like for fucking women get like two good weeks a month yeah yeah isn't that mental I know we've touched on it but it is actually just insane yeah it's just so unfortunate like like I feel like and like us women sorry we do conquer the world and we only have two

good weeks a month but yeah yeah yeah equally I feel like if there's like loads of kind of female health um like PTs all of that stuff I feel like that's probably the best way to kind of go about it because then they would know firsthand from experience of how it feels but even then each each individual like woman is different like so it's like really difficult like some women have like you know like some people get really depressed during the ovulation phase some women get like PMDDD PMS some people don't get any symptoms whatsoever like so it genuinely is so like complex as well yeah it's hard i feel like obviously everyone's different and it's like you just

need to it's all trial and error hmm do you know what i mean but this 5 a m club thing i'm not i'm not into the 5m 6am is pushing it i do feel unreal in the mornings though when we're actually on the walk i think it's nice but it's when we walk back through the door and we're like exhausted but again we're going on like an hour and 10 20 minute walk like it's not a short like 20 minute sprits are like little cutesy it's literally takes for 20 minutes to get to the book I know but I love like being with the squirrels

and the little dogies on the walk like the endorphins are flowing in the morning yeah because how many dogs you meet on the walk especially when the owner's really nice as well and you get to like stroke that dog yeah so cute now this morning the smell of shit there in the pond honestly just sent me well it was sewage

it honestly it sends my eyelashes off I'm feeling my eyelashes like well they're gone I know eyelashes No you've got such long eyelashes Oh my god I never even noticed that

Oh What the hell My god slaker You're making this blush And come here to me What's your story now Over the weekend Do you have any fun plans

Oh so do you know what I've actually got really fun plans So Tomorrow I'm going to be meeting up with Like one of the girls From the industry Which is going to be so fun

And then we're going to go to a brand meal Slay Which is going to be like A little meet and greet as well Because it's actually Before a brand trip so this is for fake bake. Oh, thanks girls, thanks girls.

I'm so sad that I can't go. I'm so upset. I'm going to see call play. I know timelines just clashed so fucking sad. But yeah, I'm really excited because I just love the fake bake team. They're so nice. You can take my kidney. So, yeah, love them.

And yeah, so we're going to be doing that. So I'm going to get all dressed up tomorrow. I've got a few bits of like content that I need to edit, which I'm really struggling. oh my god i literally filmed this content and i want to do a transition where it like has me and i've done this transition before but it's a like so when i'm like walking along another version of me pops on the screen at the same time so love that try and edit it took this whole day and i haven't got any further forward because i'm struggling okay well you'll get there yeah for sure you've done it

before you can do it again yeah for sure and then apart from that i just i want to have a chilled weekend um i don't know if we're doing anything like if there's anything that we're doing i know that you're going at a festival i'm two stepping my little socks off tomorrow yeah that's my plan i haven't usually i'm not really a festival lover because it's either too hot and then too busy and whatnot but tomorrow weather's fine and i'm going to go see barry can't swim yeah who honestly lads i actually didn't even know really who he was until last week or two weeks ago but i listened to one or two of songs and I was like actually I do know him yeah so it'll be like such a cool vibe I feel like like he just like like groovy like groovy songs like what you'd probably find in like like a box

toilets or something I love that because I can't deal with the music where there's no words right like that is honestly it's fucking painful for me like you need I need to have words that I don't mind that no it just makes sure the beats on for me no no no it needs to have words otherwise I'm really hating my life so there's so many people that feel like that as well and I'm like think yeah there's so many people that have said the same thing where they just can't listen to kind of like either like techno or like house or afro like sounds or whatever with no words but then I'm like I kind of love like um like songs with no words like I love like jazz music classical music no words but that's different this it's I feel

techno's the same heavy but I feel like it's like depends on like what kind of emotion you want to invoke like if if it's like a heavy dancing beat and you want to move your body like I like to feel the music through my body sometimes but I don't know I'm very in tune with how my body sensations are on you are so in tune with your body

like she said this morning today that she could feel her pore is opening to let the sweat out to let the sweat out and I was thinking I can't even feel if someone smacks me in the head so like I really need to get in tune

and feel my body psychics have told me that they said you're not in tune like your mind and body are completely separate entities like oh yeah and even I went to the chiropractor there because my back is honestly it's in bits and I went to the chiropractor and he was like how like is that sore and I was like yeah like it's a bit uncomfortable but I've lived with it for about 10 years and he was like growing men would be screaming with me pushing down on that and I was like honestly like I just I feel like I just don't feel

stuff in my body really terrifying yeah terrifying so I don't know how to suck that I don't know how said that yeah figure that out but it is a bit yeah it is a bit wild but then I feel like being able to feel like your pose opening and like that's insane I know I feel like that's normal no really okay I don't know let's let's let's clarify in the comments like if that's a thing that you's experience like do you experience feeling the pose opening is in the sweat coming out I do it like I can feel it it's it's almost like it rushes through my body in it and just feel them opening i don't know that's wild to me i mean i can feel when i'm sweating because i'm hot but i don't feel the pore is opening up i feel like i feel like i feel like my hair stand on end i feel

like some like the way that you would feel like when your hair stand on end it's that feeling that's so weird i need to do lots of yoga or something i need to go back and do my rakey guys i don't know what you do somatic movement that's how you get i need an exorcism really i think it's something like that. I just need an exorcism. Christ. I mean, to be honest, I feel like somatic movement, which is basically like,

so semantic movement, because I know that not many people know what it is, is basically like movement that naturally occurs to your body. So, for instance, yawning, stretching your muscles in the morning. That's like a natural semantic movement. I feel like semantic movements

where you feel your body and you listen to your body, other than saying, right, let's go and do yoga and let's go and do like cat-cow pose or warrior too, your force and your body into movement. Right. Whereas like somatic movements where you actually let the body do in the talk

and it's, I feel like somatic movement can be like within like dance and like art dance and stuff like that as well. So I'll be somatic moving tomorrow then, will I? Potentially. Look at me, I'll be a somatic movement to Barry can swim. Yeah. No, but you know what? I'm really want to wear it tomorrow is um now this is probably be already on my

Instagram if I do end up wearing it is like the cap with the scarf over it tied and then the little glasses like healy beeper vibes it's like street street wear is now street wear so I kind of want to go for that look tomorrow now I don't know if that's the vibe for the festival so I'll bring it in my bag but also at the same time if I like it who who cares I'm just going to wear it yeah I feel like that would be really cool yeah and then what with like I'm sure I don't know, maybe... Well, it's meant to be called, so maybe jeans and like a white tank or something. Go on, very cool and very healy bebes that.

Yeah, kind of low-key, but like cool. Yeah, he-lebees and Kylie, Jenna. Perfect. Perfect. Kendall. Kendall. Yeah. Nothing low-key by Kylie, really.

What do you mean? She's not like very low-key. Oh, no, sorry, yeah, yeah. I thought I said nothing okay by Kylie. I was like, what's saying me? Oh, no, sorry, Loki. Yeah, that's true. She's not very low-key.

Yeah. So, yeah, that's no plans that we get. Nice, cutesy, cutesy. Yeah. Sounds very good, sounds very cutesy. Yeah, I think we should go make a healthy dinner now. I do. I think we should be in bed for half nine.

Right, so we need to do a little, honestly, you know what? We have a whole ritual, right? And you know what's mad, right? Sorry, I do apologise. I bet that's awful to hear on the, on the, yeah phones that you saw listening on. Oh, rank, sorry. and I know lick off and like an old man

sorry who smoked 46 and is the 46 in the room with us clearly they are so basically I feel like I feel like an old old girl now you know I do

I don't know why I just really do I feel like with the whole like being in bed by nine o'clock and don't get it's wrong it's weird and I don't know where there is because I'm 30

but I literally did try and do this back when I was like 25 as well. Like I would have me moments where I'd be doing the 5am club and I'd be like, right, I'm in bed by 9. This feels amazing. But I don't know. I feel like I've lost me rogue.

I've lost rogue Bethan, you know. You know, the rogue version of myself who was a little bit chaotic and crazy and fucking didn't give a shit about what anyone said. She's gone a little bit. I don't know where she's just, well, she might be just hiding. I think she's hiding because I think she kind of peers out

a little bit when you've had a few spicy marks So I think she is Yeah yeah Yeah she does You know peer out a little bit When you got like we had I uploaded a TikTok

Months go This is after night out We had a few spicy marks And then like there was like a trolley On the street And you were whacking the trolley around the street Oh my God I was I was actually like a devil

You were like a demon No I was it No you're full on demon I was it No actually so what I done is The trolley was right in the middle of the trams Yeah And I was like, come on, trolley, get off the fucking tram road.

Yeah, with no shoes on. With no shoes on with the floor length dress on. Yeah. It was a mesh, let bad print dress. Oh, yeah. And I was swinging this trolley around. I was swinging this trolley around. That was like last year.

That was probably this time last year. Yeah. Home hand. Go on. She's still in there. She is. She is. She is still in there.

Do you know what? I'm on a mission. that I really want to like I feel like my nervous system's shot right so I'm not going to go too deep into it but like last year I basically was told from the doctor that I had an auto

immune like a disease condition whatever like thing not going to go into it but I feel like me my nervous system's so shot like even when I go on like walks and stuff sometimes I can come off a walk and I don't feel energized I feel

fucking drained that climb back into bed and sleep all day yeah um so i feel like i want to be on a mission to like basically heal but like in a sense like where i'm not like healing as in like because i feel like you can also get caught in a loop yeah of like they need to be something worked on you need to be better you need to heal there's like trauma like undo there's trauma like oh oh and it's just like you can get caught in like a little bit of a paralysis and like a bit of a loop i want to heal as in like i just want like fun experiences and like heal in that sense and create more memories that can kind of like basically once we remember yeah we need to do go ape I want to do go ape that was

a thing that I'd say to Nicole yeah it's traumatizing though I cried I don't have I've been to go ape before I have yeah yeah but it was one up north somewhere I have been to a go ape before and I really enjoyed it I kind of remember a lot of it um but But I've only been drunk. Doing it? No, I've got so much trauma that my brain shuts down memories. It's not funny.

I think that that's true. Genuinely, like, I've got really bad memory, yeah. Like, genuinely, I've got, like, decision paralysis, I've got bad memory, and I've got bad memory recall. I've got, like, I just...

Yeah, fucking hell. To be fair, I have bad memory too, probably from trauma. Yeah, all the things that I've told Nicole, Nicole like all the things that I've had a conversation with you about you're like fuck me how have you experienced there's any psychologists on here or any doctors come to Battersea

alright nah I think I'm sound though I think for no I'm joking I know oh yeah Christ's half the shit you tell me I'd be like I'd be six six feet under yeah so yeah which I feel like is that's a fucking achievement that shows like resilience and strength really I feel like you're probably one of the most resilient people like know like genuinely i don't feel it as well as like sometimes i feel like i don't really feel it but maybe that's because i'm forced to be strong because what's the other option you know what i mean yeah literally there is no option is there um like do you know what i mean sorry that was such

that was so morbid that was dark humor that was real dark yeah um but yeah you got to do that I feel like sometimes you have to put a hummus spin on it though, don't you? A lot of it, I think, I mean, Grace had this conversation when I went on her podcast, Stephen Grace. And we were talking about, and she was saying how a lot of comedians have got very, very, like, traumatic life experiences. Yeah. Which is... They turn it into comedy. And the way that they kind of, like, escape it, and the way that they kind of deal with it, manage it is through dark humor.

and humor in general, you know what I mean? Makes sense. Oh, do it does make sense? If you don't laugh, you'd be spiral out with control. Yeah. Yeah. Okay, so maybe we should laugh at all of our traumatic experiences. Yeah. I feel like maybe that's the route now.

I think instead of trying to figure it out, why don't we just laugh? Yeah. Maybe when we do a live show in the future, we'll just have a whole section on comedic, traumatic experiences. Yeah. Yeah, we would. Yeah.

oh fucking hell it'd be by three hours long when this happened and then yeah yeah lol but it's absolutely stepped in front of a car lol but still yeah basically was in a car crash

and blew to the other side of the road I am still here yeah yeah that's crazy just want to clarify I didn't step in front of a car intentionally by the way it wasn't like

scooskeyes but shit what the fucky it was an accident yeah but still what the hell your fucking hat

was under the wheel I know not the new hat so basically for context a little story little trauma inside I was

I was um I was um but if wait I feel like the universe is stopping this I'm talking about it. Yes, the universe telling you to shut the fuck up.

The universe is, isn't it? Nah, no, tell the story. So basically, working like, working like a dog. I was fucking working like a dog, right? And I was so exhausted, and it was about 9 o'clock at night. And normally, when you're walking across the road in the UK, you go, look right, left, right. That's like, when you're crossing the road, you always look right, then look left, and then look right, standard.

Not me. I looked left. Left. Right left. Steped out. Smack. Smacked off the fucking car. Smacked off the fucking road.

Had a brand new hug hat on as well. This is back when I was about fucking. However. And you know what's mad as well? I was convinced. So obviously the guy or the girl I can't even remember now, but like they got out the car. They're like, are you all right? And I was just like, where's my heart?

I was literally like. I was looking for me at that's all I was concerned about not the fact that I'd just been fucking walloped at 30 miles an hour by the fucking car and I was just like no I'm fine

wandered back home walked home like what? No you didn't did you get your hat yeah I got me half it was on the wheel it was literally on the wheel

that's mad it's not good like it's actually not good like that's a mad story but so basically another thing as well is when the car hit is in my head I was convinced that the car hit is

and then hit us again but it was the fact that I'd hit the car and then smacked off the crowd like now that I think about it because I'm like shoddy the car wouldn't hit you twice like and wait now one question did your life flash before your eyes

like they all say in movies and shit where all the memories come and blah-de-blah nah nothing none of that all that it was in a couple of it was literally within a split second but actually the split second did feel long which is a bit bizarre that is weird it felt like a long experience god that's terrifying which is so

bad I don't know but it didn't hurt I didn't feel anything the next day my head oh my head you should have gone to the hospital you could have had a concussion oh yeah for sure for sure I don't even know I think I might have went the hospital I can't remember it was like that long ago oh my god that is terrifying well I'm so happy you're alive you're here oh honey yeah there's been many Many of times of things like that, I'm surprised on me, I don't be honest. I know. Like, honestly. All these experiences are crazy.

Anna? What on earth? Have you had any experiences like that? Yeah, I was in a car crash. Really? Yeah, me and my friend were coming out of a driveway. And then didn't see the car rounding the bend. And then I was in the passenger seat.

And but the impact came onto her. And they crashed in and blew us to the other side of the road. Oh, how fucking fast were they coming around that corner like? quite fast newborn baby in the other car but everyone was fine thank God

I was traumatised I was like oh my god can I just ask you a question how did you so for instance how did you experience so with that car crash right

do you did you experience any kind of like anxiety getting back in the car yeah oh my god severe I don't drive I haven't learned how to drive yeah because I'm terrified it's terrifying isn't it

like lads is so embarrassing when like when guys ask me if I drive when I say no, sometimes I get aired. Like, I'm not even joking. Like, guys just don't like... That is fucking pathetic. You need to get a good, you little weirdo.

Little weirdos. I get it though. Because I do think... I need to learn. I do. I'm just... I should have been like, get back on the horse. I do this, do you know what I mean?

No, I don't believe him get back on the horse at all. I think if you fucking traumatise, you're traumatised. You need to learn, teach your body how to be safe again in the car. Which if you've experienced trauma, that's not as easy as get back on the horse. That's literally like saying to someone who's depressed. Just be happy. happy. Yeah. Just smile. In saying that though I did horse writing and I had an accident and they made me get back in the horse and then that was fine. So maybe the horse is like different

to care crashes. Oh right. I'll just shut up then. Yeah fair. So the horse like thing is actually true for me and for people I know but car accidents is different. Yeah fair. So yeah still don't know how to drive. Yeah but same. It's been my New Year's resolution there for the past 10 years. same maybe next year 2026 equally though when I went and done my driving like tests and lessons and stuff I was really so I get did you do your test

not test sorry lessons I didn't know that I've done lessons yeah can you drive no but I've done lessons oh my god so you can drive I've drove before yeah but not well so basically the fucking driving instructor I was like Beth in like because I was panicking

like frantic panic in and they were like until you can manage your anxiety around driving and you shouldn't really be getting in the car, it's not safe. Oh, God. And another thing as well. So, like, say, for instance, it, you know what I was just thinking. What?

I think about it, Leah. Okay. So, when I'm in the car, and, like, say, if someone breaks really quickly, I've mentioned this so many times on social media, you probably heard it, you might not have heard it, but hear it again. So when someone breaks off, someone, like, stops really quickly off, someone swerves, like, you know, something's happening in the road. Yeah.

I get the most uncomfortable pins and needles from the tips of my fingers up to my elbows in both arms. That's so weird. And I'm sat there and I feel paralyzed. And I feel, and it only lasts for, like, a minute or something like that. But I'm sat there and it's like pins and needles in the arms and I'm thinking to myself, is that my body,

like, my nervous system reacting to, like, a trauma that I haven't really deeped as like a trauma. Because obviously I've been in Colorado, accidents as well not my major car accidents yeah but car accidents where i've had to go to hospital after i'd like to get stitches and stuff like that so oh fucking i know that is major and we didn't know no it was just it was just a cut on me foot i've got score do you on me foot yeah because i don't even know how it like chopped open but so it was so weird it must have been something in the call yeah i can't even talk with that please because i actually will faint right so anyways but then again

maybe that's my thought process of like saying that and that's not a traumatic experience but maybe it was a traumatic experience but I'm trying to make it not but you're comparing it to like someone getting their arm chopped off like that is still trauma for you everyone's different like everyone has different

experiences and what trauma is yeah yeah everyone's got different threshold haven't they've got exactly well yeah so anyway so yeah that's a thing that I experience I get really bad so I get really bad pins in you that's hit me off so yeah that is me anyways i love sharing all my traumas with you i know we've got so many more to come you guys and what the hell i'm actually really worried for how

open and like how i can be because of the ADHD same i just told people i pissed in a club like like that oh my god i need to stop everyone knows the ins and outs of us don't they fucking hell Anna Listen Lads We'll leave it there And I think we're shown

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