WTF with Marc Maron Podcast - Episode 1600 - Bobbi Althoff

Episode Date: December 16, 2024

Bobbi Althoff’s podcast success story is much different than Marc’s podcast success story. In fact, the concept of a podcast is very different than when WTF got started. Bobbi explains how she gre...w up in a chaotic environment where money was hard to come by and, after becoming a mom in her early 20s, she found viral fame by sheer force of will, as well as a guest appearance by Drake. They also talk about the grind of the content creation machine, the mental health drain of social media, and fame being an economic engine. Sign up here for WTF+ to get the full show archives and weekly bonus material! https://plus.acast.com/s/wtf-with-marc-maron-podcast. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

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Starting point is 00:02:12 How are you what the fuckers? What the fuck buddies? What the fuck, Nicks? What's happening? I'm Mark Maron. This is my podcast. How's it going? What's going on there?
Starting point is 00:02:21 Everything alright with the thing? How's that, that spot? Everything all right with the thing? How's that? That spot did you get it checked out? What's going on with that? With that that issue with the kid how's everything going with your foot? What's going on with what are you gonna cook for the thing is the car running better now? When can you go back to the gym that seems crazy? Oh? now? When can you go back to the gym? That seems crazy. Oh, really? You had it for what? Two weeks. Yeah, yeah, it's going around. How's everybody doing? Okay. Did I mention I'm Mark Maron. This is my podcast. Did I mention that? It's called WTF. What's happening? Going strong
Starting point is 00:03:01 since 2009. A new show every Monday and and Thursday and now new bonus material every Tuesday and Friday Geez, that's a lot of yapping today on the show. I talked to Bobby Althoff Yeah, I'd like to talk to you about her if I could cuz it's an interesting thing I look I'm a bit out of the game in terms of keeping up with whatever youth culture is or whatever the cultural momentum is to make us all part of youth culture if there is even a culture that we can kind of frame as that. But Bobby Althoff is somebody who, you know, I scroll, I have a problem, I have a scrolling problem, and she pops up occasionally.
Starting point is 00:03:50 She, maybe you've seen her, she does these, she kind of does these, I don't even know if they're snarky, but she does these very intentionally awkward interviews with a lot of black entertainers, but I don't, maybe you've seen the one of her in Drake, where she has this disposition that's very kind of subdued and a bit pointed, and maybe you've seen her. She got long hair.
Starting point is 00:04:19 But I saw her do a bit with my friend Andrew Santino and my friend Bobby Lee. And I was kind of curious about her. I didn't know if she was a comedian or where she fell in the world. And I don't know a lot of that. I don't know most of the people that are stars on TikTok or YouTube or Instagram.
Starting point is 00:04:38 I don't know who these people are. I always assume, I'm always surprised when people are like, oh yeah, I sold out an arena Yeah, what are you? What do you do? I do conversations with my dog I'm like, I have no idea who you are. But congratulations, I guess But Bobby I was curious about her. I think it was driven initially by the fact like well, I mean if Bobby and and Santino talked to her. I mean, why am I not? Part of this party. Why am I not part of what the kids are doing?
Starting point is 00:05:09 Where's my time? But I did find her kind of curious. And I don't know a lot about this new landscape of show business. I do know that it shifted. I do know that there's a new kind of tribalized show business that revolves around YouTube podcasts and comedians and right-wing garbage. I know that somehow or another we live in a time where old-school mainstream show
Starting point is 00:05:37 business has contracted into something that seems confused and without relevance in a lot of ways through streamers and whatnot. But then there's this whole other very exciting, it seems, area of show business that occurs on TikTok and Instagram. And it's not nothing. I mean, some of these people are getting ratings or at least views of short content driven stuff that parallels what TV shows used to get when there were three networks on the air. So there are big stars in this world and I think it's a tenuous world
Starting point is 00:06:18 and it's primarily self-driven by the people that are doing it. And it can all go away rather quickly, I believe. And that seems to happen. All of a sudden someone is celebrating for having a candid moment out in public on camera about spitting on a dick. And next thing you know, she might be in trouble
Starting point is 00:06:37 for some sort of crypto scam. And then they kind of fade into the woodwork. But fading into the woodwork is more like fading into the digital atmosphere where you're still kind of there, kind of doing what you always did. It's just no one really gives a fuck. All that said, I wanted to talk to Bobby. I did her show recently, but I wanted to talk to her about this new show business and you know her journey into
Starting point is 00:07:07 it and how she became a kind of viral star. I mean she started doing TikTok videos and developed a following around those with that character she does and she's now the host of the really good podcast which is what I was on and we shot it at Sante D'or, the cat shelter, which is what I was on. And we shot it at Santador, the cat shelter, which was funny and it was fun. But I knew I had to be kind of, you know, standoffish and bust her balls a little bit. And it's not really my nature, especially now with somebody I don't know that well,
Starting point is 00:07:36 but I did it after I talked to her. But anyway, I found the interview to be enlightening and I liked her a great deal, and it is a good story about what it takes to be, whether it's an influencer or a viral phenomenon, which is really sadly in some ways where most of show business lies now, to the point where you've got
Starting point is 00:08:06 Old-school show business just glomming on to whoever can generate Some money one way or the other any way or the other and so they're shifting as well So that's that's who's on the show today My 2025 tour kicks off in Sacramento, California at the Crest Theater on Friday, January 10th. I'm in Napa at the Uptown Theater on Saturday, January 11th. Fort Collins, Colorado at Lincoln Center Performance Hall January 17th, that's a Friday. Boulder, Colorado at the Boulder Theater
Starting point is 00:08:37 on Saturday, January 18th. Those Colorado shows might be sold out. I'll be in Santa Barbara, California at the Lobero Theater on Thursday, January 30th, then San Luis Obispo, California at the Fremont Center on Friday, January 31st, Monterey, California at the Golden State Theater on Saturday, February 1. A lot of other dates coming up in a lot of red states. It almost looks like a red state tour, which I don't, you know, I didn't anticipate and I think a few months ago I was nervous about and I'll probably be nervous about
Starting point is 00:09:06 It as well as I head into them, but I know you're out there I know you're out there in Kansas and Oklahoma and the Carolinas. I know that What's gonna happen? After January 20th is you know somehow or another these shows will become kind of a safe space to speak our minds or hear me speak mine I'll do what I can I'm right there with you but you can go to WTF pod comm slash tour for all my dates and links to tickets but I am right there with you I you know I think we have a weird kind of menacing lull going on right now. Did you all do your gift shopping yet?
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Starting point is 00:11:12 what do you even do with that level of success? And they've got everything they want and they go out and they do things. They do stuff. They buy fancy cars. They'll stay at a fancy hotel. Look, I'll fly business and I, you know, I'll eat, you know, wherever I want to eat. But I don't, I don't know what it is with me. What are the good things? I guess that's something everyone has to decide on their own. And I
Starting point is 00:11:36 think about stuff. I'm like, Oh, why don't you buy a nicer car? I'm like, why? You know, why don't you, you know, go on a nice trip? I'm like I don't have to after a couple of days I'm just me in another place, and it's not Amazing I've got to figure it out Time is running short I've got to figure out what the good things I all I know is that I was with the terminix Exterminator guy in my crawlspace under the house Exterminator guy in my crawlspace under the house yesterday trying to figure out where these fucking rats are coming in And I thought I'd plugged all the holes, but he said no look at these holes around these pipes
Starting point is 00:12:12 I'm like they can get in those and he's like, yep, and I'm like, that's crazy. How do they even do that? He's like, well, I don't know. It's all cartilage and they just kind of make themselves they can kind of Worm their way in there like a rat. And I'm like, oh my God. And I had some of that foam, you know, that foam stuff that you fill holes with. And I was just like squirting that around the pipe holes and it's like,
Starting point is 00:12:34 and it makes this big foamy thing that gets hard. And I thought that was great. And I'm like, this is the good stuff. This is what, this is one of the good things. I guess it's the little things I don't know but you know I could Man, I would I could spend a morning or at least a couple hours just foaming holes You know, I maybe I'm in the wrong line of work, you know when you find that kind of stuff
Starting point is 00:12:58 You know totally rewarding and think like, you know, this is this is what I worked for I don't know most people would just have some guy do that, but I'm like, I got the phone stuff. He's like, you should put it in there. I'm like, oh my God, this is amazing. I'll do it. I'll do it. Okay, so Bobby Althoff, I will tell you again
Starting point is 00:13:19 that I thoroughly enjoyed this conversation to the point where I told Brendan, I'm like, you're gonna like this one. This is a good episode As I mentioned before Bobby Althoff is the host of the really good podcast Which you can listen to where you get podcasts or watch on YouTube. I think I'm gonna be on there mid January at some point and this is me meeting and talking to Bobby Althoff.
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Starting point is 00:14:59 Yeah. It's audio. I never do. It's old school. I never have the headphones. Really? Yeah, I like it though. Well, I school. I never have the headphones. Really? Yeah, I like it though. Well, I mean, I think when you do video,
Starting point is 00:15:08 you don't really need it. No. Yeah, it helps when you do audio to hear yourself. Yeah. So like, why were you late? Let me tell you. You better have a good one, because I was about to get mad.
Starting point is 00:15:19 No, okay, you know what? So many parts of this. I fucked up. I really thought that it was at three. So I planned my whole day around it being at three. And I was like, so my kid goes to her dad, both of my kids go to their dad on Wednesdays. So I like to see them for a little while. So my kid gets out of school at two.
Starting point is 00:15:39 So I said, okay, I'm gonna go pick her up at one, early out of school, so I can spend time with her. Then I'm gonna leave the house at two o'clock and then be on time. Yeah. So I picked her up at one, we went to Baskin Robbins. Yeah. And then we get back to the house. My assistant sends a text to my sister and is like, are you guys on your way? She's like, on our way. And she's like, Bobby, it starts at two.
Starting point is 00:16:03 We don't leave the house at two. I was like, no, no, no, no, no, no. So I was like, bye kids, gotta go. Ran out of the house. I was able to shave off 11 minutes. So I was like, okay, we're not gonna be that late. I regained the whole 11 minutes by missing the turn onto the, is it the two you're off of? Kind of, yeah.
Starting point is 00:16:20 Okay, I went that way. And then I was supposed to go that way. And I was like, no, I got all the time I saved, came right back off. So, well, you know, if there weren't kids involved, I'd be more angry. It was truly me trying to plan my day around seeing my kids for a little bit.
Starting point is 00:16:38 How old's that kid? She's four, so she's in preschool. Oh, wow. Yeah, my youngest is two. Oh, wow, that's a lot of, it takes a lot. in preschool. Oh, wow. Yeah, my youngest is two. Oh, wow. That's a lot of, it takes a lot. It does. High maintenance.
Starting point is 00:16:49 It does, they're so high maintenance. And they get very sad if the days that they go to their dad's because they go at five, they don't get to see me between school and then their dad. So I try to sneak in. So I got her out of school early to make it and I still messed up. It's so hard.
Starting point is 00:17:03 Yeah, do you have kids? No. No? I do, and I still messed up. It's so hard. Yeah, do you have kids? No. No? I do, I didn't do it. It's the hardest thing in the entire world, but it hurts how much I love my kids. That's how I would describe it.
Starting point is 00:17:16 Well, I think that's the way it's supposed to be. I mean, I think if it was any other way, it would be bad. That would be. But you had them so young. I did, I was 22 when I had my oldest, 24 when I had the second. Well, was that always the plan?
Starting point is 00:17:29 Honestly, yes, but I was a nanny before, and I love, I've loved kids my whole life. But then, you can leave. You can, I didn't, you know what though, I would dream about the parents letting me have overnights with them. I'd be like, if you guys wanna go on a vacation, just let me take care of them.
Starting point is 00:17:51 You can leave. I don't even charge me. That never happened. And I started dating my kid's dad when I was 21. And by 22, I got pregnant. And you just had kids. Yeah. And I was, I got pregnant. You had kids. Yeah. It was all on purpose.
Starting point is 00:18:07 They were both on purpose, yeah. And you're thrilled about it. I love being a mom. It's like the most exhausting. I think my life would be a little bit easier without them, but I just, I love it. I want 20 more kids if I could have them. Well, how many kids in your family?
Starting point is 00:18:23 I am one of six, but we have different dads, different moms run through there, you know? No, I don't know. Lots of different... No? Never heard of that. I've heard of it, but... So, okay, so... Lots of half siblings.
Starting point is 00:18:36 Oh, okay. Yeah. But you were all in the same house growing up? No, no, no. But my mom had a daycare in my house growing up for my first seven years of my life, and I think that really made me love babies. Yeah, I think that would do it. But some of my siblings ended up hating kids,
Starting point is 00:18:51 but some of us, it went one or two ways. Either loved it or you hated it. Yeah, so wait, so how did it work? So your dad had? So my mom had three kids before she met my dad. Okay. And then my dad, recently as in within the last 10 years, found out that he actually had.
Starting point is 00:19:08 So he thought, when he met my mom, she thought he had no more kids. What do you mean, but he did have kids? We found out in the last 10 years through ancestry that he had a son 40 years, at the time it was 40 years ago. Wait, so when he married your mom, he had no kids? Yeah, no kids. That he knew about. Yeah. But now there's one. Yeah, it was the pastor's, so I he married your mom, he had no kids that he knew about.
Starting point is 00:19:25 Yeah. But now there's one. Yeah, it was the pastor's, so I'll tell you, my aunt one day calls my dad and says, hey, does the last name blank ring a bell? My dad goes, yeah, that was the daughter of the pastor that I used, I mean, like it was the pastor's family of the church that I used to go to. And she said, okay, well, through ancestry, it's saying that he has,
Starting point is 00:19:51 like he's been looking for his dad his whole life and it's saying he has a close relative in our family. And my dad goes, oh, because he knew he slept with his mom. Oh my God. She never told him or anything though. So once he turned in his adulthood, tried to look for his father and used AntraStreet,
Starting point is 00:20:09 connected to my aunt and found my dad. And now I'm gonna take my kids in December to go spend two weeks near his house. So you just met him when? How many years ago? Five years ago. Was it totally weird? It was so weird at first.
Starting point is 00:20:22 At first I was like, who is this guy? Yeah, yeah. Now my brother. I was pretty mad at first. At first I was like, who is this guy? Now my brother, I was pretty mad at first cause I was like my dad. So your dad had an affair with somebody and had this kid. No, it was before my mom. No, but I mean, right, but was she married when he-
Starting point is 00:20:35 No, no, no, cause it was the daughter of the pastor. Oh, the daughter of the pastor. So they were both young. Oh my God. Yeah. So my dad lived his whole life thinking he waited to have kids late, but really he had a kid when he was younger
Starting point is 00:20:45 Oh my so how did he react to that? He is so nonchalant that he truly was just like yeah have a son now and then started spending all of his money buying Disneyland tickets and everything for that family and I was like dad You don't have money to be doing this. What are you doing? But then he was just trying to make up for lost time. How old was the kid? 40 years old when he met my dad. But he has kids. So my dad was taking all of the kids to Disneyland. Oh, so your brother's 45.
Starting point is 00:21:13 Yeah, now he is. My dad is 70, like six, yeah. So your dad's got these grandkids too? Yeah, yeah, yeah. He got the whole thing. He loves it too, cause he became like, it was right before I had my first kid, so he became a grandpa to three kids, I mean, two kids really quickly.
Starting point is 00:21:30 And I was like, so he took that title from my dad before I got to. And he has a relationship with them? Oh, yeah, my dad is so close with these, this whole thing. Over the last five years. We're so close. Yeah, we go there, I went this last year,
Starting point is 00:21:40 I took my kids to Hawaii, and we all were in Hawaii for their birthdays. Are the grandkids your kids age? No, they're like 10 years older. Oh my God, it's like this whole other family tree. It's amazing though. So you grew up with three half siblings. Yeah, and then I got one more.
Starting point is 00:22:00 So you're the only kid of your parents? Me and my little sister, the one that was sitting on the porch. Oh, that was just out here? And you grew up here? Yeah, we lived in Claremont, which is pretty close to here. So you grew up in LA-ish? Kinda, yeah.
Starting point is 00:22:12 My grandma lived in Pasadena her whole life, and after high school, I spent a lot of time at her house. In Pasadena? Yeah. So like, I know you deal with a lot of friends of mine. Yeah, I do. But you never asked me to be on your show.
Starting point is 00:22:25 Now I am. No, it's too late. It's not too late. It's never too late. But I think you're different now. I'm the same person. No, it seems like you're doing something other than that character.
Starting point is 00:22:39 No, you know what? You're right. I kind of stopped for a second. I think the thing is about comedy, is I started more trying to be in comedy, and then I started to read way too many comments, read way too much about how much people hated this character of mine, and I tried to become too likable, I think,
Starting point is 00:22:57 but that doesn't do as well as the character. So I've recently gone back to the same character. So like in the next season that's coming out the next year, like we need to completely bring back the character and just have it be the old days. Cause that's how it does best. That's how it, it's more fun doing it like that. It's just, so yeah, I'm going back to it.
Starting point is 00:23:18 And okay, so cause like I started in podcasting 2009. That's crazy. Yeah, and I do it the same way I always have. So, like, when I started doing it, it was sort of similar to, like, a whole different system. Like, there were no podcasts when I started. Yeah. And then it just became this thing that kind of grew up around me and the other guys that
Starting point is 00:23:41 were doing it. But a lot of them have gone to video. So you started in a whole different sort of world, but it was equally as unknown in terms of how you were going to make a living or do whatever you were gonna do. So when you, growing up, what was your plan? My plan, I don't know. I think I had a crazy childhood
Starting point is 00:24:03 as in I wanted to grow up so bad. I wanted to be- Crazy how? Just chaotic, never at peace. But your parents were to stay married. They were divorced when I was 10, but they lived in the same house till I was 16. And they just fought all the time.
Starting point is 00:24:21 And it was just, it was really- There were five kids there? There was only me and my little sister at that time. My older siblings were older than me. So when we moved to, are you familiar with Paris, California? No. It's like, do you know where Riverside County is?
Starting point is 00:24:34 Yeah. It's out there. So we moved to Riverside County, and it was just me and my little sister. My older sister ended up moving in with her dad, and my older brothers were in college. So it was just me and my sister. And we grew up, we just wanted to be,
Starting point is 00:24:51 grow up really, really bad. So all- Because it was crazy in the house? Yeah, it was just not a peaceful environment. It was an environment that I very much wanted to have kids and give them something completely different. Cause I was like, I don't want them to- So you wanted to be a good parent with a vengeance.
Starting point is 00:25:07 Yeah, like, look, this is what I would have turned out like if you guys were good parents. How's that going? Are you doing it? I think so. I would say I think that I'm a pretty good mom. I am very much, that's all I do. I think that's, I'm mainly a mom and sometimes I work. But.
Starting point is 00:25:23 So, okay, so you grew up in this chaos, but you like your parents. I love them. They're different now than they were then. They didn't want to raise kids. They, my dad lacks patience. Yeah. Very much.
Starting point is 00:25:38 So he, like if we were bad and stuff, he didn't know how to handle things. So he wasn't gonna, I would beg my dad to ground me because I was like, can you have some just regular parenting rules? I want you to ground me. I want you to like treat me like my friends get treated. But instead he resorted to unhealthy ways of disciplining
Starting point is 00:25:59 and my mom too. So it's like, I've never had hitting and screaming and cussing and just saying the meanest things that I think of. But how were their lives? Were they miserable? Yeah, they were broke and they fought a lot about money, like a lot.
Starting point is 00:26:14 When the recession happened, I remember my dad was at home way too much and really like my mom and him just fought. And we were always, my dad would often break the law doing stupid things like trying to save money. Yeah. He would, I remember having such anxiety driving because I knew that our car had the, you know the little registration tag, the number?
Starting point is 00:26:39 Yeah. It was always printed off of his printer. Like he would get one for one of the cars, pay for one or get a friend to pay for one. And then he would photocopy it and just glue it onto the cars. Oh, through the little number over the year? Yeah, yeah. Cause he couldn't, we couldn't pay for it.
Starting point is 00:26:54 So he didn't want to get pulled over. So he would just do that. And I remember driving all the time, like my, this is illegal. I'm gonna get in trouble. Full of anxiety? Oh, such, I've had such a bad anxiety my whole, I can't remember not having anxiety.
Starting point is 00:27:06 But, well that's what happens when you grow up in chaos. Yeah, you just get. And then you either become like a completely out of control weirdo or a control freak. Yeah, and I'm a control freak. And a weirdo, but I'm a very much control freak. I think that's the one benefit of growing up in chaos is that if you go that way, you're a little tightly wrapped, but at least you know you have your shit together
Starting point is 00:27:29 Vigilantly yeah, I look around and I'm like I want to be just in control of every little thing around me And why would you not right so it was all this little like little breaking the law that just caused yeah I always knew that he was my mom would always tell us, like, your dad just does this and this and this. And I would always be like, oh my gosh, he's gonna, she'd be like, your dad could go to jail. And I'd be like, my dad's gonna go to jail. Oh my God. How do I like, I lived in fear my dad would go to jail.
Starting point is 00:27:55 We lived in our house, but didn't pay a mortgage for so long. So the bank would come and take photos of our house, put them on the foreclosure sites. And then we'd have to like, I remember having to put, we'd put like blankets on our windows and like try to cover it up. We'd park our cars always in the garage
Starting point is 00:28:11 or like just make it hard to tow away. And our cars would be repossessed or we'd go to grocery stores and it was a hit or miss whether or not the card would swipe and it would work or they would be like, sorry, you're not, this isn't gonna work. Or at school, my dad's favorite thing to do was to write checks that would get bounced and it was a hit or miss whether or not the card would swipe and it would work or they would be like, sorry, you're not, this isn't gonna work. Or at school, my dad's favorite thing to do
Starting point is 00:28:28 was to write checks that would get bounced. So it was like constant worrying. And you're older than your sister? I am three years older than her, yeah. And so you- She actually is a little better than me. Well yeah, because you took all the weight of it. Yeah, she grew up in a little bit more peaceful times.
Starting point is 00:28:44 So when I was 16, I tried to kill myself. Um, no, not 16, 14. 14? Yeah. Do you remember the moment? Yeah, I remember it. I had kind of like toyed with the idea for a little while before, but as in I would sit there
Starting point is 00:29:00 and cry in my bathtub and be like, I'm gonna do it. But I would never actually take steps to do it. I would just kind of think about it until I remember one day coming home from school and everything was just chaos. My parents were fighting. Kids at school were just, they were high school students. I didn't fit in at my school at all.
Starting point is 00:29:18 Why? Because I was, my mom didn't want us to go to the schools by our house. So she put me in like the, we used a guy's address that was in the nicer neighborhood. I did that with my dad's office address, because my friends went to another school. Oh yeah.
Starting point is 00:29:32 But it wasn't because it was a better school, I just had more friends there. See, you had a good reason. Mine was like, I actually, sometimes I wish I went to the other school, because maybe I would have fit in more, but then also I probably would have turned out not very good, because I would have probably done, I don't know. In a criminal? Yeah, I probably would have turned out not very good, because I would have probably done,
Starting point is 00:29:45 I don't know. In a criminal? Yeah, I probably would have. So I'm like, thankfully, I guess my parents did put me into, but I, because of all the kids were middle class, and I wasn't middle class, and I struggled. They bullied you for that?
Starting point is 00:29:56 I just, I think it was mostly in my head. I did not want people to come over to my house, because it was embarrassing. I didn't,. It was embarrassing. Yeah, I didn't It was just embarrassing like my house was Falling apart and it was a really nice my dad built our house. It was a very beautiful house that it's prime What did he do your dad built houses? So he built our house. So he did a good job with that he no
Starting point is 00:30:22 Because it was falling apart and he couldn't fix it No, cuz we with having money, but he was so bad with it that like it would go away. And we would, we sometimes we'd have Disney passes and then sometimes we wouldn't because it was like, he wouldn't pay that month and then we couldn't go. He's like, he had this idea of us being this perfect middle-class family, but it just never, yeah. He wanted it. And it didn't work out.
Starting point is 00:30:39 And he was like, I'm gonna go with that. And he was like, I'm gonna go with that. And he was like, I'm gonna go with that. And he was like, I'm gonna go with that. And he was like, I'm gonna go with that. And he was like, I'm gonna go with that. And he was like, I'm gonna go with that. And he was like, he wouldn't pay that month and then we couldn't go. He's like, he had this idea of us being this perfect middle-class family, but it just never, yeah. He wanted it. And he couldn't. Didn't work out. He was always struggling to make it happen.
Starting point is 00:30:52 So when you tried to suicide yourself, was it anxiety? No, it was depression. I was so sure that my life would never get better, that things would never ever work out for me. I was like, you're always gonna be this like misfit. Nobody's ever gonna like you. You'll never fit in. You'll never be good enough. So I went to my room that night and I was like, you're done. Like, this is it.
Starting point is 00:31:13 Like, I don't wanna do this anymore. I could have done better planning. It wasn't like the smartest way to do it because it didn't work, clearly, I'm here. I... Well, it's by better you didn't do better planning. Yeah, I mean, it is, I ended up just like, I remember like taking a lot of Tylenol. I took like one of the Costco ones and just kept taking them and taking them Well, it's by better you didn't do better planning. Yeah, I mean, I ended up just like,
Starting point is 00:31:25 I remember taking a lot of Tylenol. I took like one of the Costco ones and just kept taking them and taking them and taking them. Oh my God. So I just ended up in the fricking ER for two weeks. My mom woke me up, like came in and was like, she saw the note, obviously. I had locked the door, she like broke into the room
Starting point is 00:31:40 or something. Yeah. And then was like, what did you do? What did you do? And then dragged me to the hospital where they, like I was in ICU for a week. I was- Were you in a coma or something?
Starting point is 00:31:50 No, my liver was pretty fucked from like all of the, but they ended up being able to, whatever they did in there, I was fine. So didn't need- Your liver bounced back? Yeah, which was always a big fear of going forward was it's like I had to limit like, okay, don't drink too much, but ended up bouncing back,
Starting point is 00:32:06 so I was fine. So your numbers are good? Yeah, I'm good now. But like when you didn't succeed, what was the feeling? I was so angry, and they made you feel so stupid in the hospital, like, see, with what you tried, people don't end up dying, they just end up like quadriplegic, and I was like, you dumb bitches, I wanted to go.
Starting point is 00:32:26 And now you're making me feel like more bad that I didn't succeed. Like you're just making me come back with a vengeance. I'm gonna do it right next time. But- What do you got around here that I can do? I know, I was like, that sucks. But then because of that, my parents separated.
Starting point is 00:32:39 Like they forced my parents to go not live together anymore. So- Oh, who did, the state? Yeah, yeah. No shit. I had to go to like therapy and stuff. Like I had to live with my brother until my parents would separate houses. So they actually stepped in,
Starting point is 00:32:56 like the domestic courts or something and said- Someone stepped in and I couldn't go- That it was an unhealthy environment. Yeah, and I would have to go have meetings with CPS where my mom would be over my shoulder like, you tell them anything, they'll take them away. That it was an unhealthy environment. Yeah, and I would have to go have meetings with CPS where my mom would be over my shoulder like, you tell them anything, they'll take them away. And I was like, okay. Take who away, you away.
Starting point is 00:33:10 They kept saying, my parents were like, my mom was trying to like scare me into thinking CPS would just take me if I said too much. So I was trying to be very careful of like, why. When they decided, it sounded like they were ready to break up anyways. Yeah, they didn't live, they were on separate sides, they were divorced,
Starting point is 00:33:28 they were on completely separate sides of my dad's house. So he had to get out? No, she left. So she got an apartment and- And you went with her? No, I went with her like here and there. My mom only had a one bedroom apartment. How'd they decide that she was the one to go?
Starting point is 00:33:42 My mom hated that house. She hated it from day one. So she was ready. She was like, all right, fine. That was what she needed. But she stayed in the house with him? Yeah. And then, but that was when I was 14.
Starting point is 00:33:55 And then when I was 18, I moved out. So it was four years. It wasn't too long. But the suicidal stuff left because of therapy and because of, you know. No, it always was there. It's always been there. Really? It always was there. It's always been there. Really? It's always there.
Starting point is 00:34:07 It's not anymore. It's a chaos. I would say. Because you're ungrounded. I'm not grounded at all. Right. And the feelings that caused it never left. It just changed.
Starting point is 00:34:16 Like to this day, the feelings are still there. I just get therapy to work through them more. But the feelings of you're never gonna be what you wanna be, or you're never gonna be the best at what you do, or you're never, like, you don't fit in here. Isn't that interesting? Because, like, I, you know, I've thought about that a lot myself, is that when you have parents that are, like, emotionally irresponsible, and I talk about this a lot, but I read this
Starting point is 00:34:38 book, and he said that if your parents are emotionally abusive one way or the other, that you have a hard time as a child blaming them. So you blame yourself. And you put this thing in your head that you're the shitty thing. And then you do that at such a young age, it doesn't go away. I've never really even looked into it.
Starting point is 00:34:57 I just kind of lived this way. But you know what I mean? It makes sense, right? It does. And then you just have this voice in your head that's sort of like, you're not as good as that. Yeah, like you'll never be as good as anybody else that does what you, yeah.
Starting point is 00:35:09 So when you turn 18, where do you go? I got a job as a nanny, and then I first, I used care.com to get a job as a nanny, and then I got, well first I was working at, I worked a bunch of jobs. I started working when I was 16, so, but when I was working at, I worked a bunch of jobs. I started working when I was 16, so. But when I was around 18, I knew I wanted to leave. And my dad was like, at one point,
Starting point is 00:35:31 he got really mad at me one day, and was like, get out of my house. And I said, okay. Bye. And that was it. And that was it. And I left, and I never looked back. I never moved back. I was gone.
Starting point is 00:35:39 But you never got fucked up on drugs or anything? No, I've always just been aspiring to get rich. Instead I got fucked up on this or anything? No, I've always just been aspiring to get rich. Instead I got fucked up on this need for success in life. That's my advice, is trying to succeed. So that's how you fought the voice? You're like, I'll show you. I try to, that's what I'm trying to do still.
Starting point is 00:35:58 I'm still just trying to make it so that I can be proud of myself one day. So, all right, so you do a bunch of jobs and you end up as a nanny. Yeah. And that must've been interesting to come from, you come from and then being these nice families. Oh yeah, it made me, I was never jealous.
Starting point is 00:36:14 I was just looking at them like, this is what I know it's out there now. Like I know you can be a happy family and have a nanny one day and do all of these things. And I wanted it so bad. Were any of them like, you know, impactful in your life, the families? I keep in touch with all of them.
Starting point is 00:36:29 I worked for three families and I still keep in touch with them. I check in on their kids randomly because it was so nice going into somebody's house and seeing things that were functional and peaceful. And you grew attachments with the kids and the family. Yeah, and I loved my first job as a nanny and I was so grateful that they gave me that job.
Starting point is 00:36:50 I was like, cause I was 18, it was my first time as a nanny. So it's the person who first takes the risk on hiring you is amazing. Cause then it helps, it sets it up to all the future. If you do it right. Yeah, yeah. And I loved it. I had, they had three kids.
Starting point is 00:37:04 They were, one was a baby. I think I started when he was three months old and then one was two and one was four. And I did everything with those kids. I worked 70 hours a week at points because the parents were both working. It was amazing. And then one day they looked at me
Starting point is 00:37:19 and they were like, we're moving to LA. And I said, they were like, so I'm so sorry. And I was like, I'll move with you. So I, they were like, really?'m so sorry. And I was like, I'll move with you. So I, they were like, really? No, I never lived in their house. I went and found an apartment by them because I was like, I'm not losing this job. So that's how you got here?
Starting point is 00:37:32 That's how I got back to LA. And so these kids, they knew you from when they're very young and you still have a relationship with them? I haven't talked, I haven't seen the kids. I'll talk to their parents. The kids were so young, they don't remember me. But I worked that job for a bit, then I worked for another job in South Pasadena for a while.
Starting point is 00:37:49 I would live with my grandma kind of like between apartments. My grandma had a house in Pasadena. How was that place? I loved my grandma's. Whose mom was it? My mom's. She's my, like, she was the best. I like wear her cross that she had every day of her life. To give any picture of my grandma, she was the best. I like wear her cross that she had every day of her
Starting point is 00:38:05 life. Any picture of my grandma, she was wearing this. Yeah. She was the piece in my life that I would go to. And she always had her doors open for me when I, whenever I wanted to. So when I was 18, I would kind of stay with her here and there.
Starting point is 00:38:19 And for months, I would always have my own place, but I would come back to her. Yeah. And my last job before I got married, I lived with my grandma and we would, so the job was in Marina Del Rey, but her house is in Pasadena. So she would wake up with me every morning at 6 a.m.,
Starting point is 00:38:34 make breakfast with me, I'd make her eggs on toast, she'd make me coffee, and we'd sit there at 6 a.m. every morning, have that, then I would go, and then I got married. So I guess that coming out of your childhood, this nanny thing gave you some stability. Yes. And then your grandma, thank God for grandmas,
Starting point is 00:38:54 she was stable. Yeah, and she was just, she always believed in me and I was going to community college and I thought that I would, I've always known and my siblings all say this, that if anybody was gonna be really successful, it would have been me, because I was the only one who had the ambition for it. But I didn't know that I would be successful,
Starting point is 00:39:15 I didn't know what I would be successful in. Did you have other plans? I mean, did you have plans? I had this really weird dream of becoming a lawyer. But I was not, so I got an AA in political science and I got accepted to UC Davis to go finish that degree. But I was pregnant and COVID happened and I was scared that going to class,
Starting point is 00:39:33 I'd get COVID and give it to my baby or something. But you went to UC Davis? I was supposed to start and then I didn't. So you just went to the community college for two years? Yeah. And you finished it? Yeah. Yeah, UC Davis, that would have been a trip. It would have been. I've been there. I wish I finished it. So you just went to the community college for two years? Yeah. And you finished it? Yeah. Yeah, UC Davis, that would have been a trip.
Starting point is 00:39:46 It would have been. I've been there. I wish I finished it. Yeah, I did comedy at UC Davis. Did you? It's in between here and San Francisco, right? It's a little, yeah, it's out there. It's up north.
Starting point is 00:39:57 It's closer to San Francisco, I think. Yeah, yeah, yeah. But it's like, it's the only thing in Davis. Yeah. Is that college. Did you go look at it or anything? Nope. I applied to several UCs.
Starting point is 00:40:06 That was the one that I got into. And I was like, all right, I'm gonna go there. So when you got married, was it, was that, do you feel like in retrospect, cause you're not married anymore? No. Do you feel like that was another sort of attempt at stability?
Starting point is 00:40:18 Yeah. I was so, having a kid was an attempt at stability. I thought- After you got married? No, before. Oh, you had it before? Yeah, well, we got pregnant before, but I wanted a baby.
Starting point is 00:40:28 How was that guy? A nice guy? Yeah, he's an incredible dad. My kids are on their way there right now. And he, to this day, is just, he's always, he didn't necessarily want to have kids when we got pregnant. Like he was more of like, let's just,
Starting point is 00:40:43 I was like, let's just try one time. He's like, okay. And then I got pregnant. And he was like, oh, fuck, like he was more of like, let's just, I was like, let's just try one time. He's like, okay, and then I got pregnant. And he was like, oh fuck, like that was too fast. But you knew he was. Oh, I was like, I'm happy. He was like, oh my God. And I was like, thank God, I'm having a baby. And you were what, 22?
Starting point is 00:40:58 I was 20, yeah, yeah, 22 when I got pregnant. And COVID had just started? No, COVID started during my pregnancy. During the pregnancy. So then that's when you started recording? No, I started my podcast. Yeah, or whatever you were doing. I started that right after I had my baby.
Starting point is 00:41:17 Oh, so no. Yeah. And you did it through the second pregnancy? Yeah, yeah. Okay, so does COVID COVID that played into you? Being home and starting that? Starting to do that? Definitely, I think also, like I said,
Starting point is 00:41:31 I've always been searching for what I would, I was never gonna be just a stay at home mom. I think as much as I wanted to want that because it was like, I needed, you know what? It also comes back to being insecure because I was insecure about my, a lot of the moms I would meet were working moms. And I was like, I can't just be the only one
Starting point is 00:41:51 that has no college degree, no anything. I felt so inferior to, even if, even the moms who are stay at home moms, they had college degrees. They were all just do, like they had something. Would they have husbands that worked or something? Yeah, yeah. And I was so embarrassed meeting moms
Starting point is 00:42:07 that were college educated and I just felt inferior. Were they older than you usually? Yeah, they were always at least 10 years older than me. And I just. Did they treat you like a kid? Yeah, well they just, yeah. I never felt like I fit in with them. And that just goes back to how I've kind of felt
Starting point is 00:42:21 my whole life. Right. But I felt like I was just not gonna be, I didn't feel, so I tried to be a stay at home mom, but I never felt like I fit in with the other moms, because especially we lived, at the time we moved up north, so we lived right outside of Silicon Valley. Did you have plans for making this money
Starting point is 00:42:41 that you wanted to make before TikTok? Yeah, I've always had like a plan. Outside of the lawyer? Yeah, so I first, before TikTok, when COVID started, I was like, they made a mask mandate, and my mom had just gifted me a sewing machine, and I was so pregnant, like I was eight months pregnant, I believe, somewhere around that,
Starting point is 00:43:02 like I remember being pregnant. Waddling around? Yes, and I was like, people are gonna need masks, I'm gonna make them. So I was like, I'm gonna start a mask making company. So I started selling on Etsy masks, I learned how to make them and would go to Target and buy bed sheets.
Starting point is 00:43:17 You'd get Sower? No, I learned for this. And I got pretty good, like I would, my mom, the sewing machine she got me, like would embroider, pretty shitty embroidery because they're so it embroider people's names and so I've sold them for like $22. I made $3,000 on masks though.
Starting point is 00:43:33 And pretty, that's pretty good. It was so good. But I was gonna turn that into something in my TikTok. An empire? But I was always doing little things. Were you watching TikTok? Yeah, oh yeah, yeah. That was where I went.
Starting point is 00:43:44 Because of COVID, I feel like everybody got very, they were just drowning in it, and I had always been so angry that I didn't catch the YouTube wave of success, so I was like- But did you have an idea for YouTube, or like- Yeah, I would, I bought, so I was, I bought the, I don't know if you know, but every,
Starting point is 00:44:02 right now it's sold out everywhere, but the G7X, the Canon G7X. Camera? Yeah. Yeah. So back when I was 16, I bought the, I don't know if you know, but every right now it's sold out everywhere, but the G7X, the Canon G7X. Camera? Yeah. Yeah. So back when I was 16, I bought that camera and I was like, I'm gonna be a vlogger. And I would try to record videos, but I would never,
Starting point is 00:44:14 like I never had, I would always be too scared to post videos, cause I thought like, oh, my kids at school are gonna see this and stuff. What were you gonna talk about? The same thing everybody else does, just little like vlogs. Yeah, yeah, yeah. But also my, I just didn't, I don't know, it didn't work. So when TikTok started and I started seeing people blow up,
Starting point is 00:44:30 I was like, you will not miss this wave, you will not. Like I had told myself, you can't miss this. So I was posting like a crazy person, like so much. Like after the masks, you just started. Yeah, yeah, yeah. And it was during COVID. Yeah, because after the mask, I stopped the masks as you just started. Yeah, yeah, yeah. And it was during COVID. Yeah, because after the mask,
Starting point is 00:44:45 I stopped the masks as soon as I gave birth because I was like, this is insane. Like it hurts to fricking sew. Like it doesn't, it's not- And you're pregnant as well. Yeah, and I'm pregnant and I'm like, I was pulling all-nighters because these people were crazy about
Starting point is 00:44:58 when they wanted their masks. They were like, I want, but I was also, I'm such a, like I have the mentality of like, say you'll do it and then just make it happen. So I'd be like, I can send it, I mean, I gave an option for overnight shipping. Even though I didn't have like the mass produced or something, but I was like, it was an extra $10.
Starting point is 00:45:17 So if people would click that, then I'd be like, I'd go wake up and go sew the mask real quick and then be like, all right, here you go. So I was like, I would always charge a little extra and there'd be things that I'd have to then go do to make it happen. And you probably lost a little money doing that. No, just sleep.
Starting point is 00:45:33 I was just going fast. Yeah, cause they paid for their own shipping. Oh, okay, oh, I see. So I was just losing sleep. Did you have a brand name for your masks? No, no, I think it was just under my name at the time. I don't know, it was just. So when you get, so when you decide to do TikTok,
Starting point is 00:45:48 was there a model, were you watching certain people that you thought like, well, this is the way to do this? I would look at viral videos and be like, how do I get on a trend? What do I do? I watched a lot of, I had a kid, so I watched a lot of mommy vloggers. At the first thing I tried was to get my sister
Starting point is 00:46:05 to help do something. I said, Lexi, let's make a sister page. So we both logged in. If you like, if there's somewhere in the world where you can see the name history, I wish they would do that on TikTok. You could see how many times my name has changed because it started off as Lex and Bob.
Starting point is 00:46:21 And it was gonna be just a sister page. So I was like, but she wasn't doing her end of it. She's never had that. Like I need to be super successful. She was just in the military. She was like, I'm doing what I- Your older sister? My little sister. That one, she's in the military?
Starting point is 00:46:33 She was, yeah. She just got out. Now she helps me with my life. Oh, she's part of your team? Yes. So you were, it wasn't really about celebrity. It was really economics. I just wanted to-
Starting point is 00:46:44 Make enough money. Be self-supporting and not live the life you grew up with. Yeah. But did you have a sense of how one made money by making a viral video? Yeah, just people would post how much money they would make on social media. But was that from brand?
Starting point is 00:47:01 Yeah, yeah, yeah, so I knew that I needed to get followers to get brand deals. So I was like, how do I, I knew what I needed to do was get, become one of the people who's known on there. Not just have viral videos, but have people who follow you and who want more from you. So it's funny though, because you grew up in this age where,
Starting point is 00:47:18 like I come from, you know, basically over a lot of years, you know, not really making it in regular show business. So you, that wasn't even on your radar really. No, not yet. Right, to be an actor, to be a comedy person. No, it came pretty early in it when I remember a few directors had reached out to me when they noticed I was acting in them
Starting point is 00:47:42 and would be like, oh, do you wanna do this? And I was like, actually, yeah, that'd be great. And as a kid, I would like, of course everyone has that dream of love to act, but I never did any like steps towards acting or anything. So, right, so when you first start doing the videos, just you and your sister and that didn't pan out and then you switched to- Yeah, that didn't work.
Starting point is 00:47:57 Then I, I don't know, I try to think back. I don't know if I was always sarcastic or if that, like I had to have been, because my first video that I made that was, sarcastic or if that, like I had to have been, because my first video that I made that was, I had seen this viral trend where you pretend your kid's name is like your name spelled backwards. And then I was like, look at my daughter, it's I, Bob.
Starting point is 00:48:16 And I was like, but then I really leaned into, because I've always been very aware of, I guess, how dumb people look sometimes. So when people would believe things like that, I was like, they believe anything. So I was like, let me just make- Believe things like what? Like my kid's name is Eyeball.
Starting point is 00:48:32 I was like, there's no way people could see this and think that it's real, but they did. So I was like, oh, then I said her name was Richard. And people were like, you would name your daughter Richard? And I was like, I doubled down. And that's when the character was born. I was now a parody of like a shitty mom. And I was like, yeah, I named her Richard.
Starting point is 00:48:51 And somewhere out there that video is there where I'm like, I named her Richard. I wanted a boy, I had a girl, so I named her Richard anyway. And then I went down and then I kept doing it. I went and thought of the most insane things that I could think of and people would believe anything. With these kids.
Starting point is 00:49:04 Yeah, so I was like, I'm taking Richard to get braces today because their two front teeth grew in and they're not straight, and that pisses me off. So, and people believed anything I put out there, and it would go so viral, but what I was really gaining was the people who knew that I was kidding
Starting point is 00:49:17 and were like in on it. Those were the people that followed me and have supported me through then. So like, just thousands of comments, like your shitty mom. Yeah, just thousands of comments, like you're a shitty mom. Yeah, yeah, of like, fuck her. I was going viral on like, on the random little, you know, the little news things
Starting point is 00:49:31 that were picking up stupid stories. It'd be like, mom names her daughter Richard. Clickbait stuff. Yeah, yeah, yeah. And then I started doing parodies of like, I became not only a shitty mother, I was a shitty wife too. So I would have my like ex-husband,
Starting point is 00:49:46 husband at the time. He would play a part of like this cheater. And then I would be, I would, I would pretend that like I'm an oblivious housewife who has no idea. People would definitely make, I was getting a lot of attention on TikTok cause I was getting like 40 million views on some videos.
Starting point is 00:50:02 And TikTok was pretty new at the time. Yeah, it was, it was right when people started to grow on there, when it became really popular, because it was right when COVID started. So, okay, so you got 40 million views. How'd you make that money at the beginning? In the beginning, I wasn't making crazy. I signed to an agency probably pretty quickly into it,
Starting point is 00:50:19 and then I started to get brand deals. So I would make like 10. Was an agent specifically for TikTokers to get brand deals? Yeah, yeah, yeah. It was like a management team. No, yeah, it was just around TikTok and all of that. So there's a whole world of show business just around influencers, obviously.
Starting point is 00:50:34 Yeah, just around TikTokers even. Oh, yeah, why didn't I assume that? Of course there is. Yeah, I was so blown away when I saw just how much money you could make from just TikTok. But then I was able to transfer my, I was like strategic in transferring followers over to Instagram. So what was the first brand? The first brand I worked for, I want to say it was so long ago,
Starting point is 00:50:59 and it was probably before I signed to a management team. It was FabFitFun. What is that? It's like a subscription service for this box they send you full of things. I signed to a management team. It was FabFitFun. What is that? It's like a subscription service for this box they send you full of things. Oh, right, no, we did some of those. Like when we started the podcast,
Starting point is 00:51:13 we had like Adam and Eve sex toys and stuff. Was it a subscription? Well, no, you get a package and you get, you know, of stuff and then it wasn't a subscription, but we did those boxes. Okay, yeah, where they give you boxes of, yeah. Well, yeah, and we did the like food boxes and stuff like that.
Starting point is 00:51:28 Yeah, yeah, yeah. Yeah. Yep, that's it. And that was like just somebody aggregating other products. Yeah, yes, yes, yeah. Usually it'd be a box of, so it was like branding on branding. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Starting point is 00:51:40 Oh, so then, all right, so when, so then you start to move people over to Instagram? So also you're making money on the TikTok creator fund and I've always made a lot of money on that because I've always had viral videos. How does that work? Per view, you get paid. After a certain amount?
Starting point is 00:51:56 No, it's once you get, I think 10,000 followers, you can apply to be in it and then it's like, as long as back then it used to be any video, now it's over a minute. So if you notice all of my videos are over a minute. Yeah, it's because you wanna stay in the fund? No, it's cause you don't get paid unless the video's over a minute.
Starting point is 00:52:11 Right, right. Yeah, so if I wanna get paid, I have to make it over a minute. So all of my clips are always over a minute. So you're making money, right? You know, pretty close to when you started. Yeah. Just from that.
Starting point is 00:52:23 Just from that, yeah, yeah, yeah. That was, I remember, and my dad too, so funny, I remember him saying early on, he would track my followers. I remember he'd be like, you're gonna hit a million by the end of this month. And I was like, no dad, that's not how it works. I'm not gonna get there that fast. And I did.
Starting point is 00:52:38 And he was like, see, I told you. And he would send me, every time I'd go up like 0.1, 0.2, 1.3, he would send me a screenshot. I'm like, you did1,.2, 1.3, he would send me a screenshot and be like, you did it, you did it. He's finally given up on sending me my stats. Yeah, but he's proud of you. He was so proud of everything, he still is. He's so proud of everything I do online.
Starting point is 00:52:54 He's like, he loves to tell literally everyone that I'm his kid. He gets a kick out of it. Yes. And your mom? Yeah, she's equally, I think no one's as proud of me as my sister. The one out in the porch? The one out in the porch.
Starting point is 00:53:09 She has inside, so she lives in, I have an ADU, and she lives in it. And in her house, she has like a shrine of all of my achievements. And every time I go somewhere or get invited to something, she keeps something from it and puts it to it. Oh, that's sweet. And she's such a proud little sister. She's never cared to be in the spotlight.
Starting point is 00:53:28 She just likes to see me. So what do you consider your big break in terms of when everything changed? So you got a manager who's like brand representation, but then you shift from, you take the sarcastic, snarky character, and you decide to engage with people. So, it's really hard to come up with content every day
Starting point is 00:53:52 when you don't have someone else to do it with, you know? Like, if it's just me every day. Yeah, you lose relevance fast. My goal was that every day I needed to post a video that hit a million views. And if I didn't, I'd fall so shitty. So I would try to, I'd work. What, you'd just beat yourself up? Oh, no, I'd just keep posting.
Starting point is 00:54:09 I would be like, I can't sleep until like, yeah, I'd need to get a video with a million. And I almost always hit that goal. I just had to like, okay, that video was a flop, delete, try again, delete, try again. Like I was so determined every single day for almost three years that I had to get a video that hit a million every day.
Starting point is 00:54:23 I needed to stay relevant. So I was like, how do I? On the TikTok. Yeah. So you did it. Yeah, yeah, I did. And then. Was there a science to it ultimately? I mean, it was just figuring out.
Starting point is 00:54:38 You really don't know. It's like even to this day, I don't know what's gonna actually take off and get really like, get a lot. Sometimes you can have an idea, but for the most part, you really never know. Some things can just, some things you can think are gonna hit and it just doesn't.
Starting point is 00:54:52 But... Yeah, I got a guy doing mine and like this weird thing hit. Like it was crazy. It could be so random. It's like, what is that? Oh, it's not 40 million, but it was sort of like, what, why would that one? Yeah, why would that, yeah.
Starting point is 00:55:02 That'll happen to me too where I'm like, okay, that's interesting. but then I'll post something that I'm like, this is definitely going to and it doesn't. And I'm like, okay, that's what, but there's like some science to it. Like there is some, like I know click-baity things to do or ragey things to do to get people to. Pay attention.
Starting point is 00:55:21 Yeah, yeah. Like what? Like if you say something in the first three seconds that is, makes them watch it till the end, the video is going to do better. So it's just, if I say like, I can't believe my sister did that at the end, or if you show like a little preview in the beginning, that's something crazy that happens, they'll sit through and watch the whole thing. For a minute?
Starting point is 00:55:40 Yeah. So you're basically producing shows that are a minute long. That are a minute long, yeah. And I kind of do that, I have to do it every time. So that's the nature of the business that you had to kind of figure out for yourself. Yeah, and just get really. So the focus was like, this is working,
Starting point is 00:55:59 now I've got to nail it every time. It was just, I need to get bigger. And I always, so there's like different tiers to online fame, I would say, right? There's like, oh, she's a TikToker. Then there's a few people that break through that and then get known everywhere and then get, are now like, I would say kind of go into celebrity.
Starting point is 00:56:19 Like who? So right before I ever took off was there's Alex Earl. I don't know if you've heard of her. I remember watching her and being like, oh my God, she's like, she did it. She broke that threshold of like, now she's invited to like fashion shows. And she's like, right, she gets into like,
Starting point is 00:56:35 now you get into the next level of like- Top tier influencer. Yeah, yeah, now you're really up there. And you're now- But you're still an influencer. Yeah. That's the title. If that's what you're doing, right?
Starting point is 00:56:44 Cause it's like, she could have also, if she was like into acting and stuff, she could have broken out or like, you know, like Addison Rae, She's still an influencer. Yeah. That's the title. If that's what you're doing, right? Right. Because it's like she could have also, if she was like into acting and stuff, she could have broken out or like, you know, like Addison Rae, she broke out into acting or Charlie D'Amelio, I think she was on Broadway recently. Really? Yeah.
Starting point is 00:56:56 So it's like, there's different levels of like breaking out and then doing- Another thing. Becoming bigger than just your TikTok platform. That's the model now. If you want to make it to one of those places, this is the way you do it. No one's going to help you.
Starting point is 00:57:13 Yeah, you're gonna just have to. You figure it out. You need to start trending. And I knew I was always getting views, but I wasn't the most popular thing. And I knew I wanted so badly. I remember being like, I need to have my moment but I wasn't the most popular thing. And I knew I needed, I wanted so badly. I remember being like, I need to have my moment where I become so popular that I transform that.
Starting point is 00:57:30 Yeah, I knew in the back of it. But you didn't know really how you were gonna do it. No, I had no idea. I had no idea. And I knew it would happen because I know that anytime I set my mind on something, I will make it happen. But I had no idea what would be the thing
Starting point is 00:57:43 that would push me into that. I just knew that I needed it to happen. I wouldn't be someone that would just be a mommy vlogger on online all day, because that's not what I wanted and that's not what I was gonna settle for. And so what was the turn? So I was getting very burnt out by just making videos every day that were kind of the same.
Starting point is 00:58:03 So I was like, I get away. Sometimes like you would do, what was like the most amount of times you had to of the same. So I was like, I hate to wait. Sometimes like, you would do, what was like the most amount of times you had to redo a video? I would post like 20 times in a day. And just delete them into one hit? Yeah, yeah. So I was just, it was exhausting.
Starting point is 00:58:13 I wanted a way to collaborate with people because anytime I would collaborate with other influencers, it would do well. So the thing was, is that everyone and their mothers, and you know this, I'm sure, start podcasts. It's like, that's the thing. That's everyone starts a podcast. and you know this, I'm sure, start podcasts. That's the thing, everyone starts a podcast. And I thought that was the stupidest thing.
Starting point is 00:58:28 I was like, podcasting, I think there's a joke right now where it's like they need to make podcasting equipment more expensive, because everyone starts one. And I was like, I would make fun of- But this is the time, not a video podcast. There's a difference. Like when we did it, I think at the beginning it was mostly audio. There were a couple of people doing video, but it was still that streaming capacity
Starting point is 00:58:51 and it wasn't really quite there yet. We're audio guys, so we stay in this. At that time, because what I would call a podcast is it's like an hour, it's like a long audio thing, but by the time you're coming around, what is the definition of a podcast? Just because it seems like there's a lot of people sitting on TikTok with mics and they don't have the podcast. Yeah, for sure. So that's why mine was born.
Starting point is 00:59:15 It was a parody of a podcast and that's how it started. It was, I was making fun of people who had a podcast because I was like, this is the dumbest thing. But so my- For a minute. Mine truly was a parody. It wasn't even on, I tried not to have it on. I wanted it just to be video.
Starting point is 00:59:30 I wanted it to be a full parody, which is why it was called The Really Good Podcast. It was just a fucking stupid name I could think of. And like, it was just, it was a parody of a podcast. I was like, everyone has a podcast. So I had listened a lot. So you didn't have a podcast. No, I didn't.
Starting point is 00:59:45 I didn't want it to be. It became one. And it became like, I became, and I would say too, I've recently said, I feel like when my podcast started to get less views, it was when it became into, it started to turn into a real podcast. And it became so,
Starting point is 00:59:58 I was starting to do so many ads, so I was like, I remember having a talk with my team maybe a week ago where I was like, I don't want this to be a real podcast anymore, I wanna go back to when it's not a real podcast because that's when I do best and I don't do well as just a regular podcast host because that's not, I'm not good at it.
Starting point is 01:00:13 I don't have the- You're a minute person. I am, well I can do a conversation but I need to be in a character. I also just don't, I don't know, it's like you have to be, if you want your podcast to be what sustains you, you gotta be like in that. You gotta be doing all those ad reads.
Starting point is 01:00:29 You gotta be like, I don't, I'm not, I don't have the, I wouldn't say work ethic, I guess I'm just not focused enough on it, or I don't have enough, I wasn't thinking of it. Well, you're not necessarily a broadcaster. Yeah. You do bits. How often do you put out an episode?
Starting point is 01:00:44 Is it- Monday and Thursday. See, I couldn't do that, and that's where I was losing them, as I was like, guys, I'm not doing this once a week. I'm doing it when it feels right to me. I want to do it when it's like, that's how it started, was like, I do one whenever I found someone I wanted to do one with. Yeah, no, you've got to have the same consistency. It's just a longer arc, and it's a different audience, I guess.
Starting point is 01:01:01 Yeah, and I don't have that in me. Really? Because it seems like you had the motivation,. Yeah, and I don't have that in me. Really? Because it seems like you had the motivation, but you just- I think because I have, I've, what I've learned from my podcast
Starting point is 01:01:14 is that like really where my goal is is in, I like comedy, I like, and I think that when you start to become too, I don't know if it's like palatable, but I was becoming too- Real. Yeah, it was just becoming me talking like this in the episodes. And it was just, that's not what I.
Starting point is 01:01:28 That's not what you're known for. Yeah. So when you start to do the parody, that's when you get the big guests? Yeah, that's when I, yeah. So to take it back a little bit, I, throughout my whole pregnancy, throughout however long the podcast is now,
Starting point is 01:01:45 I listen to, you know, Guy Ross's How I Built This. I listened to that religiously that was my, I listened to that because I was like, you know, I've said it, I want money, I want success. So I would listen to this and I've always wanted to start a company, I've always wanted to start something. But so when I started my podcast, I was like, I'm gonna make it a parody of how I built this.
Starting point is 01:02:04 Because Guy Ross is a great was like, I'm gonna make it a parody of how I built this. Yeah. Because Guy Ross is a great interviewer, I'm not. So I looked up how he interviewed people and I was like, he does a lot of research. I'm gonna go into this with no research. I'm gonna go into this with nothing. And originally it was actually called So You're Rich. And I was just gonna interview rich people
Starting point is 01:02:19 and figure out how they got there. But I was like, this is kind of hard to be Guy Ross. So let me just, like the first agency I was like, this is kind of hard to be Guy Raz, so let me just, like, the first agency I was with at the time, or that was the second agency, but they were like, they accidentally sent me an email thread of internal emails about my pilot episode that I had sent them, where they were like, she thinks this is gonna do well.
Starting point is 01:02:38 I thought so, it was so mean. And I was like, I'm not gonna post this, this podcast is stupid. It was like, I was like, this is not gonna work out. This sucks. And I wasn't gonna, I sat, I think I sat on it for like a minute. I sat on my first episode for a minute. Then I was like, everyone in my life was like, post this.
Starting point is 01:02:53 My ex-husband was like, I believe in this. It's gonna do well. It started off as me genuinely thinking I could be a well-researched, but like it was still gonna be like a spin. It was still gonna be just video. It was gonna be acting. Like I was gonna go in there.
Starting point is 01:03:04 And my first episode, I was ruthless. Like I was like a spin, it was still gonna be just video, it was gonna be acting. Like I was gonna go in there, and my first episode I was ruthless. Like I was like a cold-hearted, like I don't actually care about you at all. I would like be very mean to the guest, I would be very just like, I was in such a character. And did they know that? Yeah, yeah, yeah. Oh yeah.
Starting point is 01:03:17 Yeah, they knew, we would like, and we would break and I'd start laughing and I'd be like, okay, okay, let me just like compose myself again. Who were those guests? Rick Glassman was one of my first ones. On the real one, the hour long one? Yeah, yeah, yeah. Yeah.
Starting point is 01:03:29 Yeah, he was one of my first ones. It was always an hour long. It was always long. And it was on Instagram or where? YouTube. YouTube. Yeah. But I wasn't really even, I was mostly posting clips of the long one.
Starting point is 01:03:38 How'd you get Rick Glassman? Why Rick Glassman? So random. But well, my very first guest was someone named, was Colleen Ballinger. She was like big on social media. So I did, and she had a Netflix special and stuff, but I had just DM'd her cause I was friends with her. Then I wanna say Rick was my second guest,
Starting point is 01:04:00 and I had posted basically a thing where I was like, hey, well I figured out that I could not pay for, I couldn't pay for celebrities to come on, but I could guilt trip them in with money. And at the time all I had to spare was $300. So I was like, if you comment on this video and you tag a celebrity and it leads to me successfully interviewing them, I'll pay you 300.
Starting point is 01:04:24 So I think someone tagged Rick or something. He was like, all right, I'll do it. And I paid that person 300 bucks. Rick came in and did it with me. That one was only a 20 minute episode, but the clips did great. Yeah. I think.
Starting point is 01:04:35 And then I kept doing that strategy until I learned. $300 strategy? Yeah. And then I landed Funny Marco using the same strategy. Who's that guy? He's a comedian. He does social media. He blew up with pranks online and stuff. Yeah, so I did his, I interviewed him
Starting point is 01:04:53 and that was the one right before I blew up. And that one definitely set me over. That one got so many views, our interview together. And then from that interview, I interviewed Drake. It was like him, Drake was mutuals with Marco. Oh, okay. And saw our interview. He got a kick out of it and he thought I'll do it? Yeah, cause he saw like it's a fun way for people
Starting point is 01:05:17 to figure out like how they would react in that situation, I guess. And so Drake put you over the top? Yeah, then that one, obviously, like that was, my life yeah. And so Drake put you over the top? Yeah, then that one, obviously, that was my life changed. Yeah? How so immediately? Well, as soon as it filmed nothing,
Starting point is 01:05:33 but it took a month probably to actually get it out from when we filmed it to when it actually saw. Why you cut it? No, because it was the problem. I was working with, you know, Drake is Drake. I was working with his team to make his team film it and everything, so between waiting for it to actually be ready to go and our first clip going live,
Starting point is 01:05:55 I remember just, you know you're sitting on something that's gonna be seen by everyone and you're like, oh my god, I remember just being like, this is crazy. I have this video. So you would clip it and you'd put it out in clips? Yeah, yeah, yeah. Okay. Yeah. How long were the clips?
Starting point is 01:06:08 60 seconds, two minutes sometimes. So you do an hour, but that, but the model was still a TikTok model or an Instagram model. Yeah, because to this day, I don't, I mean like- You never show the whole hour? No, I do, I always do, but like my team, my like my podcasting-
Starting point is 01:06:24 Who's the team? Studio 71. I don't so much focus on the whole hour though. but like my team, my podcasting studio and stuff, Studio 71, I don't so much focus on the whole hour though. I still focus on my clips. It's still about clips. That's where I care about is my social media clip. So Drake goes crazy and then like, what changes for you immediately? Yeah.
Starting point is 01:06:40 Outside of visibility, money? Yeah, as soon as the Drake episode, I signed with WME. As soon as the first clip went out, WME, I got a DM from someone there, so I signed to that agency. They helped me put it out. I was actually like, yeah, it's just a YouTube video. I don't really put it out as a podcast. And they were like, no, you have to put it out as a podcast.
Starting point is 01:07:01 This is huge. This is your old chart if you do this. This is a podcast. Chart? Yeah, like you'll be up there and it did for a second. I just, I was like, okay, so I, they kind of helped me with everything and they were really amazing with how they came and all, they all rallied together to quickly get this ready,
Starting point is 01:07:18 cause it wasn't really a. So they've just totally adapted to the new model of show business, which is what you are. Yeah. And since then, so how long ago was that? That was last July, so it's been over a year now. And so now you're self-sufficient, solvent, you bought a house.
Starting point is 01:07:39 I haven't bought a house yet. I rent a house. Okay, but so what happens? So now you say you're returning rent a house. Okay. But, so what happens? So now you say you're returning to the character. Yeah. What was the decision making and influence on you to do what? After Drake, what did they tell you to do that now
Starting point is 01:07:57 you have to pull back from? Because you thought it was more successful before. Yeah, I think, I kept on it for a while. I kept doing the character for a long time. I didn't- I've seen a few of them, like, you know, I've seen ones with you and Santino on the golf course and you and Bobby playing-
Starting point is 01:08:13 Yeah, I still lose a lot. It was probably recent that I stopped. But the golf one and the tennis one with the guys I know, those were ours, but you clipped them up. But yeah, they were posted on YouTube and the YouTube videos do really well, too. They get, I think I have. With those guys.
Starting point is 01:08:27 Yeah, I think I have like 1.7 or something million followers on YouTube, and they do well. They'll still get around 300,000 to a million views per episode. And how do you make money from that, through YouTube? Yeah, it was well. Yeah. It's pretty great.
Starting point is 01:08:44 So now you're at this point where you've decided that you're going back to the character because you tried to not do it for a while? I would say that I didn't so much try not to, I just started to care too much about, you know, because I told you that I built my career off of needing those comments that are believing this, like oh my gosh, you go viral when people think
Starting point is 01:09:04 you're just actually like this. And it's more fun, like it was funny, I think that I started to get- It's fun to fuck with people. Yeah, it's fun to roast people. It's fun to have them roast you back and stuff, but then people sometimes would be like, oh look, so and so's coming on her episode
Starting point is 01:09:17 and roasting her, as if, like I know, when I did an episode with Offset, he roasted me the whole time and I loved it and it was so great and we were friends after and everything was great. The internet was like, see, he's like putting her in her, like they took it so seriously and they were like, see, like these people are saying,
Starting point is 01:09:35 and it's like as if I didn't post this episode myself and I didn't choose to have this guest and I didn't sit there and then, and then like I said, take this and then post it. Why would I post it if you genuinely was being mean to me or if I genuinely, but people believe, they're just online, they're so dumb. So yeah, and they believe things
Starting point is 01:09:54 without even doing one second of thinking. That's sort of like what's wrong with the world. It really is. They can't think about things for more than two seconds. They have no, it's just like they see something, they react, they don't have any sort of deep thought process. But that's interesting because that's why, you know, politics is so fucked up.
Starting point is 01:10:11 It's why everything's fucked up. Because nobody listens to. It's because people engage with the phone as if it's like FaceTime or something. For sure. Like as if, it's just so stupid. And it ruins, it's like like my mental health has always been bad because of social media.
Starting point is 01:10:26 So it's funny that I came into a career with where it's all on social media and where I live off of it. But you realize it, like I guess that's the double-edged sort of it is that, you know, it's good that you're not putting anything toxic into the world. You're just fucking with people's heads a little bit. But the number of people that can't see the joke or don't process it
Starting point is 01:10:45 in any other way other than this is real, there's more of them than anything else. So many. They believe. I saw Andrew Tate did a video recently saying that I said I was going to leave the country. Like he said, list of celebrities that said they're going to leave the country if Trump won. And he said, me too, he's like, Bobby Altaf, fuck you. And I was like, first of all, that's just so, what the fuck, I was like, where did I even know what? So I get a lot of comments now being like, leave the fucking country, bitch,
Starting point is 01:11:13 like you said you were gonna leave the country. And I was like. Why do you pick up, well, obviously. I actually don't know where he got that information from. I was like, yeah, I was like, I've never said I was gonna leave the country. I was like, I posted a Kamala thing, never, I've never said I was gonna leave the country. I was like, I posted a Kamala thing and I guess he decided that I was gonna leave the country
Starting point is 01:11:28 because of that. But I was like, now I get people saying I'm gonna, cause he has the most lovely, die hard people online that will come for you. And they like, they come with a vengeance. I was like, guys, chill, it's okay. Like I didn't, why do you care if I said that even? Well, he's working, he's got a grift going too. I mean, he's okay. Like I didn't, why do you care if I said that even?
Starting point is 01:11:45 Well, he's working, he's got a grift going too. I mean, he's just trying to hold on to followers too. And they don't really take into mind necessarily the destruction that they're unleashing. Not at all. I don't understand how you can, I'm so careful about what I put online and what it'll result in.
Starting point is 01:12:03 And I feel like a lot of people kind of just- Well, I think they want that result. They're trolls. Oh, they do. Yeah. And they know they've got the attention of a very specific type of emotionally immature and angry bunch.
Starting point is 01:12:17 Yes. They're like tribal warlords. They're waiting for something to piss them off. Yeah, go attack that girl. Yeah. So how are you handling that? I don't know, I'm handling it. I mean, I think that, I don't really care
Starting point is 01:12:30 about that stuff too much. I think what I start to do, so after the offset interview, I had a hard time staying in the character because I felt like I want people to know I'm nice. I want people to know I'm this real person. I want people to like me. Yeah. For who you are. Yeah, I'm like, just like me know I'm nice. I want people to know I'm this real person. I want people to like, like me. Yeah. For who you are.
Starting point is 01:12:46 Yeah, I'm like, just like me because I'm not, like this is a character, I understand. So I think that I started to lose the character because I was like, trying to become likable again. Like I wanted to show people like, oh, I'm a real person, I have feelings. Yeah, yeah. So, but then.
Starting point is 01:13:01 And that didn't work. And it's like, and it does well, but it's not doing what I need it's not, it's not doing what I need it to do. It's not doing the crazy numbers it was doing because it's like, I've lost that uniqueness. Now I've become like every other podcast that just has blabbering people. Yeah.
Starting point is 01:13:16 I'm not, I have no, I'm not, I'm still not doing research. So it's not a good podcast. It's still a shitty podcast, but like, it's like, now I'm, I'm trying so hard. Yeah. Now it's, it's, now it's too much. It's become too real that it's just, now I'm trying so hard. Yeah, now it's too much. It's become too real that it's just. So I'm like, I wanna go back to what was fun about it, which is just roasting people and being roasted.
Starting point is 01:13:32 I wanna be roasted, I want you to, I want, it's just fun like that. So I am. So how long were you experimenting with being yourself? I experimented with being myself for probably, I don't know, like maybe two seasons. Okay, what's a season in this world? Whenever I decide, I don't even know.
Starting point is 01:13:51 Just whenever I get bored of filming and I say that's enough. That's season two, things like three? Yeah, I don't know. But now I'm, and this one I kind of have done a little bit more, and now this next one I'm being very like mindful to keep into that, even though it's sometimes hard because I don't know.
Starting point is 01:14:06 So you're back, the sort of snotty girl is back? Yeah, yeah, yeah. There's the very hate, like the hated girl who just sits there and is not. Is it working again? Is it? What do you mean? I haven't started it yet. Oh, you haven't gone back?
Starting point is 01:14:20 I've done one episode and it did really well and I was worried that people would think I was mean. And again, I need to stop reading comments. Everybody tells me this. Everyone who has a platform is like, stop reading comments. It's so bad for you. Yeah, but you know that that's just part and parcel to doing the character.
Starting point is 01:14:36 Yeah. I need to separate myself and know like, if they hate her, then it's not me, so it's fine. And it is what it is. So now that you're kind of a, it doesn't sound like the pressure is ever off you. The pressure, no, I don't think- Either from you or from your handlers
Starting point is 01:14:54 or whoever you call them? I think there's always gonna be pressure unless I somehow magically cure all of my mental problems. But the pressure to work. Yeah, no, it's never, I think a lot of people would look at me and be like, oh, you're doing well. And I don't look at myself like that at all. Like I see myself as the same, like slightly,
Starting point is 01:15:15 slightly better than I was. Not, not, not at all where I need to be. And I see myself still, I think what's funny is people will, a lot of the things people will say, and I think that's why it'll hit me hard, and that is stuff that I believe about myself, where they're just like, you're- Sure, that's why, and the trolls are good at that.
Starting point is 01:15:32 Yeah, because it's like, I believe this, it's like, you're, they're like, she's whatever, her 15 minutes are up, and it's like, I, I'm like, they're gonna come back though, right? Just know me, because I'm not letting it, it's like, I've successfully, back though, guys. Just know me, because I'm not letting it. It's like, I've successfully, I successfully employ a lot of people now. I know that I'm, I know what I'm doing is doing well,
Starting point is 01:15:51 and I- And you know what, and you know how to do it. And I do, yeah, and I've become, go to my job. A good boss, yeah. And it's, but there's so many bigger goals that I have. Like, I really wanna get into acting, and I know that when I set my mind onto that, it's like something that I'm going to succeed at.
Starting point is 01:16:08 It's just a matter of- So the part of the goal is now to, like you said, to get into that next tier. Yeah, yeah. And how's that going? It's going well. I got to be the very tiny, tiny role in a movie and it was really, that experience was so cool.
Starting point is 01:16:23 It was such a small role and it was literally over, like I was a Zoom character. But it was so much fun working with the director and having them tell me what to do and just that experience of acting, I was like, I love this so much. But it's funny, like, it seems like financially, you're probably making less doing that.
Starting point is 01:16:40 Oh, for sure. That was like my lowest paid day in all of my, so much less. That's, my lowest paid day in all of my, so much less. That I would, I love, I mean, I've really like come to love acting and I really, I would love to make that my next thing. Yeah. So the podcast, and then on the same note of the podcast,
Starting point is 01:16:56 I would love to have like a talk show, like a, some sort of like- Are someone trying to put that together for you? Do you have me or anybody? Well, I'm now with UTA. Okay. But yeah, they're definitely working on a lot of different things.
Starting point is 01:17:08 They know my goals and they know what I wanna do on there. So would you sacrifice some of your control to be part of a bigger project? I would love to. I hate being, I want someone to be my boss. Yeah. Like I don't- Yeah.
Starting point is 01:17:24 I loved having, like working in a house for parents. I like that. I don't really, I don't have to, as much of a control freak I am, I like having a boss. Like I like having- Someone who goes like, well, maybe we should do it this way. Oh, I would love that.
Starting point is 01:17:36 I would love someone. I hate it for the last year and a half or two years. It's like, it's been all on me and it's so much pressure to have it on you. And it's easy to doubt yourself, but it's harder to doubt years, it's like, it's been all on me and it's so much pressure to have it on you and it's easy to doubt yourself, but it's harder to doubt someone else that's like, no, this is what's gonna happen,
Starting point is 01:17:50 this is what we're gonna do. How we're gonna, yeah. But you do like in relinquishing a little bit of control, then when it doesn't go the way you want it to go, then you probably retract back to like, well, fuck if I should have. Yeah, if I could just, I could have, yeah, I'm sure that, but you know, I thought of it like, even,
Starting point is 01:18:07 and I'm sure this is what happens is you kind of start, in acting even, right? I'm obviously starting on the lowest. Like I'm, you have people like, I mean, I guess at no point do not, but like having the director be like, do this, do that, do this, do that. It's like, like I love that feeling
Starting point is 01:18:23 of being told what to do and like being told how to better myself. Yeah, and also just to take chances that you wouldn't necessarily do or you wouldn't think of or challenge yourself in a new way. Yeah, right now I'm trying to, we're in the process of hiring a producer for myself. And I'm so- For what?
Starting point is 01:18:39 For my podcast. Oh, okay. And I'm so excited to get one. I'm like, please somebody. Yeah, yeah. Help me. Help me do this. My brain's about to break. Yeah. Like even hiring a Booker, we're gonna hire like a. You're gonna do live shows? Um. Oh, you'll be booking guests. No, but yeah, for booking guests, I really want, it's so hard to come up with that all on my own. Oh no, yeah, we've had a Booker for years and we just get a
Starting point is 01:19:02 list of people that are around or available. That's amazing. Yeah. Yeah. So much easier. Because even Andrew Santino and Rick last night, I would have never known them if I hadn't like comments hadn't connected me to them. Even with my, like I have a booker who's just, it's just him working on his own. But I want a team that's actually going to be able to know like what's trending or what's you know. So this is the next stage. Yeah, there's a lot gonna change in this next year and I'm very ready for it to change. Well, it was great talking to you.
Starting point is 01:19:33 It was great talking to you. Are you gonna come on my podcast? Yeah, of course. Oh, you changed your mind. Are you sponsored by Liquid Death or do you buy it? No, they literally sent me, I don't think we did one ad for them, maybe one years ago, and over a period of months,
Starting point is 01:19:50 they sent me like 100 cases. So I had like in the kitchen of the ADU here, I had like just stacks and stacks of Liquid Death. Now you're just drinking them all. Yeah, now I'm literally starting to get low on them and I'm like, I don't know what happened, but I could use some more of the sparkling. Yeah, they're there, but I'll tell Morgan to-
Starting point is 01:20:09 What, did I turn down your podcast at some point? No, I just, they asked me today, they were like, we should, thought they were like, we're gonna talk to him about it. I was like, oh, that'd be great. I would love to have him on. When we do it, are you gonna do the snarky girl? If you roast me, I'm gonna do it, if you gonna do the snarky girl? If you roast me, I'm gonna do it if you promise to roast me. Like roast means just kind of try to take you down a notch?
Starting point is 01:20:30 Yeah, just do the... Andrew Santino and Bobby Lee were amazing. Andrew's really good at that. He's like a... Andrew roasted... He's a born dick, that guy. He is. He really is. I was like, oh my God, that was my... Was that my first time meeting him? Was on that, I was like, oh my God. He's really good at it. He's so good. He's is. I was like, oh my God, that was my, was that my first time meeting him? The golf one.
Starting point is 01:20:45 Was on that, I was like, oh my God. He's really good at it. He's so good, he's quick, he's quick with it. Oh, he's so quick and he's just like, well this whole show is just beating up on Bobby. Yeah, it's amazing, I love that for them. And Bobby is a sweetheart. He really is, I felt bad,
Starting point is 01:21:00 because I was beating up on Bobby during my episode. Everyone beats up on Bobby. I was like, that's what sometimes happens to me too, is if I get a, like, sometimes I feel bad because I have a guest that's so nice that I'm like, oh my God. And with Bobby, I was like, I had a hard time at points like being mean to him.
Starting point is 01:21:13 Because I was like, he's not, he's so nice. Yeah, I have a hard time roasting because like, innately, I'm trying to hurt somebody. Yeah. Yeah. So you gotta be pretty, and I don't, you know, I'm not great at it, but I think I'm up for the challenge. Bound to back, yeah. I know some people are, I think with,
Starting point is 01:21:36 I have a lot of guests that are so excited to come in and get to roast me, because they're like, we've done, we've watched all your episodes, we were like, we're gonna do such a good job. And it's just like funny, but yeah. It's also just like whatever happens kind of happens. Okay, I'm game.
Starting point is 01:21:50 All right, that'll be great. All right, good talking to you. Thank you very much. That was great. I guess maybe because I'm like, I'm learning what the kids are doing. I don't know. I liked her, I liked her story and her moxie and her ambition and just, you know, learning about how the new show business works.
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Starting point is 01:23:10 I got the tour dates next year. Once I'm on the plane or in the car, I'm good. Leading up to that moment, a little stressed out. And look, if you've got a lot of travel coming up or maybe one big trip that requires a lot of planning, it probably feels like you have a lot on your plate. You might think that hosting your place on Airbnb while you're away is too much of a hassle, but what if someone else took care of everything for you? That's what can happen
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Starting point is 01:24:18 in whatever podcast app you're using. And then he was like, well, I think you'd be a great addition to the show and we're gonna get you an office. And I was like like, well, I think you'd be a great addition to the show and we're going to get you an office. And I was like, so I wanted him to say it. So I was like, so I'm going to be on Saturday Night Live. And he was like, yeah.
Starting point is 01:24:33 And I was like, that's so great. And I was like, I know you've probably you've seen this like happen a million times before where people are like, I can't believe it. But this is my childhood dream. And I'm so excited. And he was like, okay, well, don't tell anybody because, you know, we haven't announced it yet. And I was like, can I tell my nannas?
Starting point is 01:24:47 And then he laughed and he was like, how old are your nannas? And I was like, they're this, you know, age. And he laughed and I was like, can I give you a hug? And he was like, sure. And then we hugged and I went outside and Seth was waiting there and he was like, well, what did he say? And I said, he said, I'm going to be on the show. And Seth was like, whoa, that doesn't really happen. And I said, he said I could have an
Starting point is 01:25:08 office and stuff. And then Seth was like, let's try and go find John Mulaney. So we went into the offices and because I knew John and we couldn't find him. And then I was like, well, I'm going to go. And then I went outside and I went into the courtyard of Rockefeller Center and, whoops, I'm getting emotional. Okay. I called my parents and I said, I'm gonna be on Saturday Night Live and it was really exciting. Yeah.
Starting point is 01:25:37 That's great. Yeah. Where are my Kleenexes? I don't need any. Okay. I never cry when I just, you know what? It is a beautiful story and sometimes I forget that. Yeah, we now have crying.
Starting point is 01:25:50 Oh. I had Kleenex, oh! Because it is like cool to achieve something that you've always wanted and to do it kind of on your terms. Yeah. To call my parents like, they were just so stunned. Like, we were all so stunned. Just, I came from, like, this fucking haunted house
Starting point is 01:26:14 with these two artists with the woods on fire. And just, like, had this one dream and went to college and didn't become an asshole and, you know, did that. And it didn't, I was there for just the right amount of time, but to just call them and make that phone call, honestly, I forget about that. And it was really, really meaningful. That's episode 558 with Jenny Slate.
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