2819 Church - CROSS TO COMMISSION | I Did It Anyway | Matthew 26:69-75 | Lonnell Williams
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You can take their seat and live in the presence of the Almighty God.
Hallelujah.
Somebody came to give God praise on today.
Can I tell you something real quick?
God still has time.
You missed it.
The year is not over.
God still has time to make good on what he said.
And that's just something for somebody in this room
who has been patiently waiting,
fervently praying and digging deep in their word,
trusting God, and can I let you know,
today is December the 14th,
and there's still time that his word will come to pass.
And he does not lie.
And so I'm just excited about today.
My name is Lonnell Williams.
I'm the executive pastor here at 2819 Church.
And I'm just so grateful to be able to preach on this morning.
I know some of you all are wondering,
where in the world is Pastor Philip Anthony Mitchell?
You know, these the last 11 months have been so challenging and yet rewarding.
And, you know, when we moved here to Greenbrier, he did not take a sabbatical.
He came to me and said, Lannell, I think I'm going to take off the whole month of June.
I said, wait, wait, wait, no, don't do that.
Don't do that. We just moved here. Don't do that. But we said, let's talk about the end of the year.
And he's just been going so hard for the Lord. And so I said, man, just came to us and said, let's take a
break. He said, I just need a couple of weeks to just replenish, to refresh, to restore. And so
he and I talked yesterday. He said, encouraged the people to be consistent not only in their
presence in the gathering and online, but it doesn't matter who mounts the stage.
the Bible's very clear in Colossians 1.28. Him we proclaim. So it doesn't matter who's up here
because he used the donkey. All right. Here we go. He used the donkey. So he can use some
fallible person like me to be able to preach his words. So I'm just so excited. And to all of our
digital disciples online and those who are in the room, we are just so humble and grateful for your
presence. I got a lot of work to do in just a little bit of time as we close out this section of
Matthew 26 in our series, Cross to Commission. And I'm just really excited because I just feel like
God has something special for us today. I want you to lean in with me as we kind of dig into
this word and see what the Lord has to say. I'm going to actually read the entire section so that
you know where we are headed. And I just think it's important for those who have your Bibles
to just open them up to Matthew 26. We're going to go to verse 29, verse 69. 26, verse 69.
We're going to read from 69 to 75. I love who has a physical Bible in the room. Let me see it.
I love it. No judgment against the Bible app.
I'm not judging you. I'm not judging you. I'm not judging you. But it's such a beautiful thing to see
young people with Bibles, reading the word and turning the pages. There's something beautiful about
the sound of pages turning with his word. And so let's read Matthew 26, 69, 75. Every single word
matters. Every word that we read today matters. And this is what it says. Now Peter was sitting
outside in the courtyard. And a servant girl came up to him and said, you also were with Jesus,
the Galilean. But he denied it before them all, saying, I do not know what you mean. And when he went
out to the entrance, another servant girl saw him and said, to him with the bystanders, the man
was with Jesus. And again, he denied it with an oath. I do not know the man. After a little while,
the bystanders came up and said, Peter, certainly you two are one of them. For your accent
betrays you. Then he began to invoke a curse on himself and to swear, I do not know the man.
And immediately the rooster crowed. And Peter remembered the sayings of Jesus. For the rooster
crows, you will deny me three times. And he went out and wept.
bitterly. If I could pin a title on this
preachment, I would call it, I did it anyway. I did it
anyway. In my goodness, 2010, I met my current wife. We were both
at Princeton. She was actually getting her PhD in molecular biology, and I was getting
my master's in divinity. Yeah, y'all can, yeah, that's my baby mama. Y'all can say something to
that. Yeah. Yeah, she's fine and smart, all right? And got a little hood in her, which I love. Amen.
Amen. All right, so we were at Princeton. We met, fell in love, and in 2013, we had, my wife was pregnant
with our daughter, Ivy, Ivy Grace Williams. And it was so amazing because this was the first time that I was a father.
And as we were preparing, you know, for this process, anytime someone is a first-time parent
or specifically a first-time father, you want to do everything you can to help your pregnant
wife, everything you can to help your pregnant wife.
And I, as a first-time dad, I was trying my best.
Now, I can't say that I did a good job.
Can I say I did a good job?
But I was trying my best.
You bought me the books.
And unfortunately, I didn't read the books.
I didn't read the books.
I even swore I will never change a diaper because I just could not stand the smell.
I couldn't see the look, couldn't see the smell, but I tried my best to support her in the way that I could.
And one of the challenges that I have historically always had is that oftentimes I'm a little bit more wittier than I should be.
A little bit more wittier than I should be.
I'm very quick with my lips.
I can come up with really witty statements very fast, and sometimes my mouth moves faster than my brain does.
sometimes my mouth moves faster than my brain does.
She told me many years ago, and it's an addicts that I continue to say to our team,
everything that comes up does not need to come out.
Everything that comes up does not need to come out.
And unfortunately on this day, I didn't listen.
Unfortunately on this day, I didn't listen.
We were sitting, and oftentimes throughout the course of her pregnancy,
she would forget things.
She would lose things.
She would forget things.
And they call it pregnancy brain.
It's a terminology that's often coined when a woman is pregnant.
there's just a lot of hormones changing, body's changing, she's giving, she's creating a life in her
belly and in her womb. And so things sometimes are forgotten. And, you know, my wife had a propensity
to forget things, had a propensity to forget things. And I remember, it's Claire's day. It's
clear's day. One day, she had forgotten her keys. She had forgotten her keys. And we were looking
all over for her car keys because she had to go to class. She had to go to lab. And so we were
looking, we're looking, we're looking, and we could not find the keys. Now me, I am preoccupied
in my work. I'm working on something for the church at that time, and she's like, she's looking,
she's looking, she's looking, she's looking, she's looking, and she finally identifies where her
keys are. And she says, Linnell, I found the keys. Now, in that moment, my mouth spoke faster
than my brain did.
And in that moment, I thought about something, and I said,
Lanelle, you probably shouldn't say this.
But before my mind could catch up, my mouth had already said it.
So she said, Lanelle, I found my keys.
And I'm looking down, typing said, an elephant never forgets.
Yep.
Yep.
Yeah, exactly.
Now, mind you, I was trying to be funny and witty and laughing and joking.
And in my mind, and my mouth didn't quite catch up with one another.
You can imagine the look on my wife's face.
I mean, I can just envision.
I thought I felt the wind of the Holy Ghost come behind my head.
I just, it was, now she didn't hit me.
She didn't hit me, but she should have.
Now, she should have.
And in that moment, my mind, when I finally realized what I had said, I said, oh, snap, I probably
shouldn't have said that.
But in that moment, in my soul, I said I did it anyway.
And that, my brothers and sisters, is a challenge that we face here in the text because we
see Peter here in a very unique position.
We have just exited out of the Garden of Gissominy.
and the last time I spoke, we mentioned the story of him swiping the ear with his sword of
Malchus, the soldier. And then on last week, Elder Eric did an amazing job talking about the experience
where Jesus and Caiaphas is home and they're going through this trial. And here we are
picking up at that moment in time and we pick up at verse number 69. And the first thing in the text
that we learn is that compromise will always begin with distance.
Let's look at the text. This is what it says. It says, now, Peter was sitting. He was sitting.
He wasn't standing. He wasn't interceding. He wasn't fighting. Peter, he wasn't fighting.
Peter was sitting and where was he sitting outside the courtyard he was not inside where Jesus was
we have to immediately put the text in context we have to understand what Jesus in real time
was experiencing he was being humiliated on and he was being spat on and Peter came
to see it with his own eyes. And what is he doing? He is sitting outside in the courtroom,
courtyard, with guards and servants, really the opposition. Now, Matthew already told us in 26,
verse 58, that Peter followed Jesus at a distance and sat with the guards to see the outcome.
let me translate that for you peter wanted to see how it all played out with not being implicated
in the situation he wanted proximity without identification he wanted to be close enough to care
but far enough to be safe and peter wanted jesus close enough to claim him but far enough
to deny him and that is the posture of convenience christians
Christianity, we like to get close enough for comfort, but far enough so it doesn't cost us
anything. And oftentimes we use distance to protect us. As long as I'm close enough to see him,
I'll be okay. And we think that distance is protecting us, but distance is actually weakening us
because the posture of so many modern Christians is that we want to see what Jesus is doing
without being marked by what Jesus is doing.
Y'all, I know I'm preaching better than y'all talking.
We want to watch the move of God without being moved by God.
We want to observe the gospel without being obligated to follow the gospel.
We want to profess the truth without living by the truth.
You cannot follow Jesus from a distance
and expect him to stand with you when you're in pressure.
Okay. Okay, okay, okay, okay. Lean in. Proximity without commitment is just religious tourism.
Okay, Peter is sitting. And that's the first compromise. Because when you're sitting, you're comfortable.
And comfortable is the enemy of conviction. Watch this, watch this. Peter is sitting, and I'm certain it was cold.
Historically during that time in Israel, it was probably cold similar to today.
Now, I don't know about y'all, but it's hot up in here.
But he was sitting amongst the people who actually were the ones who were about to kill Jesus.
He was sitting by the fire.
And we just want to get warm just like Peter.
But he was sitting next to the wrong fire.
And here's the dangerous thing about the wrong fire.
It still keeps you warm.
Hear me.
Sin does not announce itself with cold.
It invites you with comfort.
He was not sitting by the fire because he hated Jesus.
He was sitting by the fire because it felt better than being uncomfortable.
But warmth is not the same as safety.
And comfort is not the same as calling.
And the fire that warms you tonight might be the fire that burns your testimony tomorrow.
All right.
Now let me ask you this question.
What fire are you sitting by instead of witnessing?
What environment are we in where we're warming ourselves instead of putting the fire on others?
What spaces are we occupying where we are blending in instead of standing out?
watch this
you can't warm yourself by the enemy's fire
and expect to stay on fire for God
the wrong fire
will always put out the right flame
Peter
stay with me is sitting
and sitting
led to silence
and silence
led to denial
silence is safety
faith that needs safety may not be faith at all it may just be convenience wearing church clothes
you're sitting in spaces right now that are slowly suffocating your spiritual sensitivity
and you don't even realize you're dying because you're too comfortable we want to know how we
deny Jesus in our lodge right now
because we are comfortably sitting
in wrong places. Let me ask you
something. Didn't Peter
know what Jesus told him
before the moment happened?
Matthew 26, verse 34.
Jesus told him, before the rooster crows,
you'll deny me three times. Matthew
26, verse 35, Peter swore,
even if I must die with you,
I will not deny you.
Peter knew what Jesus
predicted. He knew
what he promised. He knew what he
promised. He knew what was at stick, and yet when the moment came, he did it anyway.
Peter failed here, but Jesus has already made provisions for his failure, and this is so crazy.
Peter exemplified courage in the garden, but the same courage failed him when his personal
safety and comfort were questioned. Let me ask you this. How many of us knew what God said
and still did the opposite.
We knew we shouldn't be in that relationship,
but we did it anyway.
We knew we shouldn't compromise our integrity,
but you did it anyway.
We knew we shouldn't entertain that sin.
We did it anyway.
This isn't about ignorance.
This is about willful disobedience
in the face of clear conviction,
which is both willful and fear-driven.
Peter made a conscious choice.
That's the willful part.
But those choices were motivated by fear.
That's the fear-driven part.
We don't sin because we love wrong.
We sing because we are afraid of what right might cost us.
Fear doesn't force the choice, but it influences it.
Let me show you the second thing that I see in the world.
the text fear thrives in comfort verse 69 and 70 it says and a servant girl came up to him and said you also
were with jesus the galayan but he denied it before them all saying i do not know what you mean now now
let's talk about who exposes peter was not a soldier was not a pharisee or sadducee it was not pilot
it was not caiaphas it was a servant girl likely she was a teenager
She was at the bottom of the social hierarchy, and she had no power, no authority, no influence.
And yet, she was the one who broke Peter.
Now, why does Matthew emphasize this?
Because the threat was not a sword.
It was an association.
She did not accuse him of a crime.
She didn't even threaten him.
She simply said, you, you were with you.
Jesus, the Gullian. And that's it. You were with him. And Peter folded. This is the same Peter.
The same Peter, the one who walked on water. This is the same Peter who confessed you are the Christ.
This is the same Peter who cut off Malchus's ear. What does that tell me? All the shamma mamma in the world, all the oil, all the dancing, all the
Alleluias, but if Peter can fold, so can you and me.
Peter folded under pressure from somebody who didn't even matter.
And that's how you know fear is irrational.
It'll make you bow to people who have no authority over your destiny.
Peter did not deny Jesus to save his life.
He denied Jesus to avoid embarrassment.
Let me tell you what Peter will.
was really afraid of it wasn't death he had already proven that he'd swing a sword it wasn't pain
because he was willing to fight the soldiers peter was afraid of something worse than death he was
afraid that if he admitted he was with jesus these strangers might see him the way jesus saw him
he was afraid of being known and some of us aren't hiding from people finding out that we're
Christians. Some of us are hiding from people finding out that we're not very good Christians.
You're not afraid of association. You're afraid of exposure. You think you denied him to stay alive,
but you denied him to stay light. You won't post the scripture because your followers might
unfollow you. You won't pray before a meal in public because somebody might judge you.
You won't speak biblical truth because you don't want to be that Christian. We shout on Sunday,
but put emojis to the foolishness in the group chat on Monday. We are not afraid of the
cross. We are afraid of being canceled. And you think you're protecting your reputation,
but you're truly destroying your witness. Christianity has become an essential. Christianity has become an
aesthetic. It becomes like a Pinterest move board. And I can pick and choose what I like to fit the
lifestyle I want to create. And that is not faith. That is branding. And that's precisely what we do.
We know the whole gospel. We just choose to confess the parts that don't actually impact us.
but can I tell you something?
Christianity has to cost you something.
Let's look at Peter's response.
He says, I don't know what you mean.
That's called deflection.
Deflection, it's not denial, it's distraction.
This is Peter playing dumb.
He doesn't say, no, I'm not with him.
He says, I don't understand the question.
And the Greek, that's what it means.
It means I don't understand the question.
And family, that's how we deny Jesus in 2025.
We are not denying Jesus with our mouth.
We are denying him with our ambiguity.
You think being vague keeps you neutral.
But vagueness keeps you complicit.
And notice what the text says.
He denied it before them all.
It's right there in the text.
So it's not just the server.
it's not just the guards it's the other servants it's the whole courtyard peter made a public denial
to protect his private safety if your faith requires the right audience to be activated is it really
faith or is it just performance and here's the question i have to ask you how many times have we
denied jesus publicly to protect ourselves privately i'm going to read this here
And I want the team to put it on the screens because I want you to capture this whole statement.
As I thought about this this morning, last night, I want you to capture this whole statement.
Out of a desire to be liked and accepted, we have somewhere along the way decided being liked was more important than being faithful.
Being comfortable was more important than being called.
And being accepted was more critical than being his.
And now we're sitting by a fire that's slowly putting out our flame.
we can feel it dying but we won't move because at least we're warm
we love grace when it covers but we resent truth when it confronts us
when did you start caring more about what people think about your faith
than what God thinks about your faithfulness you know you know this is a lie but
but we say it anyway you know it's evading but you do it anyway
you know you're compromising but you do it anyway because in that moment comfort mattered more than
conviction and that's how it starts sitting leads to silence silence leads to evasion leads to deflection
leads to outright denial denial leads to oaths and oaths leads to curse and before you know it the man who
walked on water is drowning in a courtyard surrounded by people he doesn't even respect
denying a savior he genuinely loves, because somewhere between Gatsidemi and the fire,
he convinced himself that distance was the same as safety, proximity was the same as loyalty,
and silence was the same as neutrality.
And he was wrong on all three counts, and he knew it, and he did it anyway.
And by now, Peter has crossed lines that he swore he would never cross.
And then the story ended here that this would be a tragedy.
But this is where I did it anyway, meets God stopped me anyway.
That's the next thing I see in the text.
Point number three, that sin escalates when it goes unchecked.
Look at verse number 71 and 72.
It says, and when he went out to the entrance, another servant girl saw him, and she said to the bystanders.
Now she said it to the bystanders, not to him.
right? This man was Jesus of Nazareth. And again, he denied it with an oath. I do not know the man.
Now, let's pay attention to the geography here. Verse 71 says, when he went out to the entrance,
in the exegetical context, every word matters. Peter moved. He did not stay in the court.
He went to the entrance.
Why?
Because he was trying to escape the conversation.
He thought, if I moved to a different spot, maybe they'll leave me alone.
But family, you can't relocate your way out of conviction.
And you can't move your way out of accountability.
You can change churches and change denominations.
You can change political parties.
You can change cities.
You can block people.
people on social media. You can mute conversations. You can in relationships. You can change
routines. You can change fin groups. But you're running from truth and the truth will find
you. Distance does not delete conviction. It only delays it. Let me ask you this. How far are you
going to run before you realize the problem is not the location. The problem is you.
Amen, lights. Okay, okay. Peter moved and another servant girl finds him and now notice what she says,
this man was Jesus of Nazareth. She doesn't say to the Galilean, like the first girl, she says,
Jesus of Nazareth. She was being more specific. She was kind of narrowing it down. She was identifying
who it was. And she doesn't say it to Peter. She says it to the bystanders.
In the Greek, the word means to those who were there.
So now it's not just one person, it's the crowd.
It's the persons in the group.
And so the pressure is escalating.
And watch Peter's response.
He says, and again, he denied it with an oath.
So Peter is simply saying, in layman's terms, he's saying, I swear to God, I don't know the man.
That's basically what he's saying.
he's invoking God's name to lie about Jesus
now that's just not denial that's blasphemy
and here is the cruelest irony
Peter used the very gift of speech that God gave him
to deny the God who gave it to him
he's using he took the tongue
God created for worship and weaponized it for self-preservation
and I know that's not you.
I know that you would not do this, but I'll speak for myself that sometimes even I weaponized
worship language to protect worldly choices.
I prayed about it.
No, you didn't.
When you know God told me, no he didn't.
You know, I have a peace about this.
When you really only gave your permission to yourself.
the most dangerous lies are the ones wrapped in spiritual vocabulary and the moment you use god's name
to excuse sin you stop worshiping him and you start using him and when we create a version of
christianity in our own minds we force god to fit into our agenda and anything that challenges
our comfort we resist deny or we explain it away
It's not faith.
That's simply idolatry with Bible verses.
That's the second denial.
It's not just evasion.
It's religious manipulation.
And the notice, what Peter says, I do not know the man.
He doesn't say, I don't know Jesus.
He doesn't say, my Lord.
He says the man.
denial always creates distance and distance strips relationships you don't just walk away from
Jesus you talk about him like you never knew him once we change who Jesus is in our minds
our hearts can justify whatever we want you know Jesus wouldn't judge me for this you know
Jesus was all about love.
Not rules.
Jesus hung out with sinners, so can I.
And when we do this, we are not following Jesus.
We are creating a version of Jesus that follows you.
And Jesus, you can edit, is not a Jesus that can save you.
Can I go deeper?
The question we have to ask ourselves is, when did we start editing the gospel to fit our lifestyle,
instead of editing our lifestyle to fit the gospel.
Verse number seven three,
A little while by the bystanders came up and said to Peter,
certainly you two are one of them.
Your accent betrays you.
Shut up.
All right.
Look at the text.
The Bible says, after a while.
In other words, there was time between both conversations.
It was not back to back.
It was a pause where Peter in that moment could have clearly reconsidered his perspective.
He could have gone back and clarified.
He could have said, hey, I was tired.
I messed up.
I should have said that.
He could have confessed the truth.
He could have repented, but he chose to save himself.
That lets us know that compromising sin never happens instantaneously.
it's a series of small choices that you make that pause that he took was not silence it was mercy
dressed up as time i'm going to say that again the pause that he took was not silence the pause
was mercy dressed up as time god gave peter space to reconsider space
to remember, space to turn around. But Peter used the pause to catch his next breath and to
communicate his next lie. And some of us are in a little while season right now. How many
little wiles has God given you to turn it around? How many pauses? How many moments of conviction? How many
warnings from the Holy Spirit have you ignored? A little wild season is when God has
finally decided to slow down the momentum of your sinful actions. He has given you a gap
between the second and the third denial and what we do in the gap determines whether we end
up weeping in repentance or weep in regret. The Bible says it was by the bystanders.
That means that there were people who were already with him watching, and they weren't speaking, but they were paying attention.
Matthew doesn't distinctly name who they are. He doesn't even identify him. He just says, the ones standing by.
Can I tell you something? Sometimes we don't know who's watching us in that moment.
And arrogance assumes that we don't have eyes on us when we really do.
And people are watching whether our confession matches our conduct.
Yesterday, I went to Costco to go look for some Christmas gifts for my children.
And when I was in there, in my mind, I was in preaching mode.
So, you know, I'm thinking through my sermon.
I'm praying over it as I'm walking by.
And, you know, I go to the ninja, what was it?
It was like a ninja airfire.
And I was like, oh, that looked good.
Maybe I should, remember I should buy that.
And then I went to the TV section.
And I was like, oh, I like these TVs.
Let me see if I can convince my wife to let me get a TV for my office.
right i'm just shopping doing my thing and then all of a sudden i hear lonell who you're talking to
you know what i'm saying like who who in Costco knows my name i'm in the oldest pair of shoes i have
i got holes in my sweats and a hoodie over my head hoping that i would just go into Costco
pick up what i needed to pick up and go home and somebody called my name out i turned around and
it was a young lady who was there on tour with Costco selling sunglasses and she said i just
listen to your sermon.
And she was telling me about her sister who has Carter Cone is similar to me and the experience
that she said that she had.
And she said, your sermon from just a few months ago bless me.
And here I am.
Now what if I was listening to rap music and cussing?
What if I was on the phone talking about, talking gossip about somebody?
What if I was fussing?
out somebody because they cut me off with their cart.
Somebody is watching you.
Who's standing by watching you right now?
Your coworkers, your classmates, your neighbors, your children, and what are they seeing?
Are they seeing someone who's been with Jesus or someone who's trying to blend in?
Look at the text.
Certainly, we're one of them for your accent betrays you.
see peter was from galilee
and galileans had a very distinct pronunciation of the text
they were they were easily recognizable by the judeans
and so and so with that being the case
the judeans felt like that their accents were kind of unsophisticated
right they felt like it was almost like a hillbilly accent
if we were to americanize it in this context and so and so judeans
oftentimes looked down on the galileans
because they felt like they were not smart
and oftentimes people with strong accents
will code switch
what do I mean when I say code switch
when I was growing up
I was you know I know I know I'm from conference
so I would hang out in the hood and I would talk and we would
have certain lingo certain dialects certain conversations
but my mother always said that when you go into
certain rooms
with certain people
you can't take that slang with you
you have to speak what she would call
proper English
And she said, at that moment, you have to code switch.
You can't go in there acting like how you normally act.
And you can't go in there speaking how you normally speak.
You must code switch to fit the environment.
You see, Peter's origin exposed him.
He was, and he could not code switch his way out of his identity.
You see, his accent, the way he spoke, revealed where he'd been and who he had been with.
in other words
Peter tried to blend in
but his origin exposed him
and that's the point where you can't
co-switch your way out of your purpose
Peter is teaching you and I
that we cannot hide
who we really are
his accent
something he could not control
it exposed him
can I help you if you've ever been with Jesus
you should
have an accent
a distinct way of speaking
of thinking of talking of living that marks you as his your accent will betray you you cannot hide
where you have been and if there is no accent there is no evidence if someone followed you for a
week without you saying a word about your faith would they know that you're a christian you cannot
hide transformation. If you've been with Jesus, it'll show up. So here's my question to you.
How many accents do you have? You got one for church? One for work? One for social media?
One for friends? Let me push a little bit harder. Some of us don't have multiple accents.
Some of us have lost our accents entirely. You've been around the wrong voice. You've been around the wrong
for so long that you've adopted their dialect you've used to sound like you've been with jesus and now
you sound like everybody else and nobody is asking you anymore if you're one of them because they
cannot tell when was the last time somebody suspected you were a Christian without you telling them
and you know they can tell but you hide it anyway
some of us are not hiding our accents. The truth of the matter is some of us never had an
accent in the first place. You'll get that when you get home. The accent is evidence. First number
74. We've got a lot more work to do. And then he began to invoke a curse on himself and he swore,
I do not know the man. Peter hits his breaking point. He is not shaken by being recognized. He's
so terrified by the truth about him surfacing that he crosses the line.
that he never imagined he would cross.
The text says, he invoked a curse on himself.
That eventually he's saying,
may God strike me dead if I'm lying.
And here's the thing.
He curses himself, and then he swears an oath.
That is double reinforcement.
Peter uses every religious tool he knows,
cursing and outtaking, to distance himself from Jesus.
Why?
Because fear will always make you betray what you've got.
you to protect. In that moment, Peter feared people more than God, and it drove him into self
destruction. Let me ask you something. What if the person you became to survive the night
is someone you would have recognized in the morning? Okay, that's all right. And here's the question
that you should be terrified for. Can you still recognize yourself?
the peter who cut off an ear and getsemini could he even look at the peter who is cursing by the fire and when you look in the mirror
after you've compromised do you see who you are or who you used to be because denial rooted in fear
doesn't just change your reputation it changes your reflection when you are more afraid of people than
you'll destroy yourself to save your image.
But what if the cost of fitting in is losing who God called you to be?
You cannot hide who you are and try to hide it or eventually destroy you.
Look at verse number 74, the second portion of it, it says,
and immediately the rooster crowed.
The rooster didn't crow when Peter denied him the first time.
it didn't crow the second time. It crowed the moment Peter crossed the line. He swore he'd never
cross. In other words, we don't get to choose when God confronts us, but he always confronts us
at the right time. My grandfather used to say it like this. He used to say he's an on-time God.
Yes, he is. God will stop you even when you don't want to stop yourself. What if God brought you
into 335-Zo or Greenbrier Parkway on this cold morning for you to hear a message to serve as your rooster.
What if God is giving you a moment of brutal clarity right now?
And now you see it.
Jesus said before the rooster crows, you will deny me three times.
The moment it crowed.
Peter realized Jesus was right.
And I was wrong.
the rooster is a divinely timed alarm clock not to expose Peter but to rescue him and that wasn't timing
that was intervention that was God stepping in before Peter stepped off a cliff he could not climb
his way back from because here's the truth sin has momentum it rolls it compounds it accelerates
it it carries you further than you intended to go and keeps you longer than you plan to stay
And Peter didn't plan a third denial.
He didn't plan to curse.
He didn't even plan to swear an oath against Jesus.
But sin has a way of sweeping you into a current you cannot swim out of.
But right in the middle of his spiral, right in the middle of this situation, grace, help me, Holy Ghost, interrupted.
The rooster crow felt like judgment.
but it was mercy.
God stopped Peter before Peter could go any further.
Family, can I ask you, have you ever been in a moment where grace interrupted you?
Can I find 200 people in the room?
Have you ever been a click away and something said stop?
One conversation away and all of a sudden something said stop.
One step away and something in your spirit said, don't do that.
That wasn't maturity, that wasn't discipline.
That wasn't you being a good person.
That was the Holy Ghost.
The grace that stopped you from your next mistake.
It was the Holy Spirit grabbing you by the collar and saying, not this time, not this moment, not this direction.
I love you too much to lose you.
Because let's be honest, because if grace hadn't interrupted you, you would have gone further than you ever.
planned. Stayed longer than you ever meant to and lost more than you ever intended. Peter thought
the rooster crowed to expose him. It actually crowed to rescue him. And somebody in this room,
this message is your rooster. God is interrupting your sinful pattern. He's trying to break the
momentum because God would rather interrupt you than lose you because mercy will embarrass you just to save
you. Let me ask you, let me tell you why, because grace refuses to let you become whose sin
was trying to turn you into. Let me show you the last thing I see in the text, and then I'm
a wrap up. Grace interrupts you before destruction. Verse number 75. It says, Peter remember the
sayings of Jesus and he went away bitterly. Peter didn't move from denial to boldness overnight. He
He did this not in a moment, but he was weeping.
It was a turning point.
Because conviction doesn't end the story.
It redirects it.
The text says that Peter remember, and what did he remember?
He remembered the sayings of Jesus.
And Peter swore in verse 35, he said,
Even if I must die, I won't deny you.
Peter remember what Jesus said and what he said,
and now he sees himself in the gap between his promise and what he actually did.
He sees who he swore he would be and who he actually became.
And family, that is what conviction does.
It forces you to see yourself clearly.
Not who you think you are.
Not who you pretend to be.
Not who you post about being who you actually are when the pressure.
is on and the text says he went out weeping bitterly and the greek it implies a deep uncontrollable grief
this was not quiet tears this was a gut wrenching soul crushing tear jerking weepin peter was
broken and i asked you something when was the last time you wept over your compromise
And just like that baby, when was the last time you cried?
Because of the pain of your sins.
Don't worry, baby.
I understand.
That's all good.
It's hot.
Dry eyes and a dirty conscience don't go together.
If you can reflect on your compromise without grief,
you haven't seen it yet
you cannot weep
over what you won't own
and Peter owned it
he didn't make excuses
he didn't blame the servant girl
he didn't say I was tired
he just wept
and let me tell you the difference
between remorse and repentance
remorse says I got called
repentance says I was wrong
remorse says I'm tired about the consequences
repentance says
it's about conviction
remorse says it leads me to shame
repentance says it leads me to restoration. Peter didn't weep because he got caught. He wept
because he saw himself and he hated what he saw. Peter remembered what Jesus said and the memory
triggered conviction and conviction triggered tears and tears triggered conviction and transformation.
And here is the gospel. She Peter knew that he would fail. But Jesus chose him anyway.
Jesus told him you will deny me three times not you might not if you're not careful
he said you will Jesus knew he still called him he still loved him he still restored him
because grace doesn't wait for you to get it right great meets you when you get it wrong
What if the reason Jesus is confronting you is because he's not done with you?
You think you've gone too far?
You think you've denied him too many times.
But let me tell you about John 21.
Jesus finds Peter by the fire, the Sea of Tiberius.
He asks him three things.
He says, do you love me?
Peter said, yeah, I love you.
He said, feed my sheep.
he asked him again, do you love me?
He said, Lord, yes, I love you.
He said, then feed my sheep.
He said, do you love me?
He said, Lord, yes, I love you.
He said, feed my sheep.
Three denials, three restorations.
Jesus didn't disqualify Peter.
He restored him.
Can I help you?
And the same Jesus who restored Peter, it's the same Jesus who can restore you and me.
But let me tell you something important.
Peter didn't go from denying Jesus in the courtyard to instantly becoming the apostle
who took the gospel into Asia Minor.
The same Peter who denied Jesus with his mouth is the same Peter who declared Jesus later on in his life.
The same fear that made Peter run became the same fuel that made him preach.
God doesn't waste your failures. He recycles them into your testimonies.
I can prove it. I can prove it using the words of Peter. Peter, who swung a sword impulsively
and was willing to kill Jesus later on said, but you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy
nation. The same Peter who says, I do not know the man.
later on said for to this you have been called because christ has also suffered for you
leaving you an example so that you might follow in his steps the same peter who chose to protect
himself it's the same peter who said to cast all of your anxiety on him because he cares
for you the same lips that said i don't know him on the same lips that god and trust
to tell the world who Jesus was.
Watch this. Peter disowned Jesus in public, but Jesus never disowned Peter in private.
God still trust, redeemed voices.
Between his tears and his boldness, there was a process.
And restoration is a moment, but sanctification is the process.
And if you're in the process right now, if you've wept, but you're not yet bold,
If you've repented, but you're still struggling.
If you've come back to Jesus, but you don't feel Peter at Pentecost yet, you're not behind.
You're right on time.
God is not finished with you.
He's working on you.
He's shaping you.
He's preparing you.
And the same grace that meets you in your failure is the same grace is walking with you in this process.
your worst moments
does not get the final word
and what if the reason
you haven't been restored
is because you have not been real
you cannot get restored
until you get real
and Peter got real
he went out
and he wept bitterly
and that's where restoration begins
in tears
a broken man who finally saw himself.
He knows that we will deny him, but he chooses us anyway.
He knows that we're going to compromise, but he chooses us anyway.
He knows at moments that we will be silent, but he chooses us anyway.
Not because failure doesn't matter, because his grace is great.
than our worst moment and what if your failure isn't the end of your story but the beginning of
restoration do you believe God's grace is greater than your worst moment how long are you going to
punish yourself for something Jesus already forgave he saw every denial before you spoke it
every sin before you committed every time you choose yourself over him he still went to the cross
he still took the nails he still gave his last breath and he said i did it anyway
Some of us are at a place where you have been beating yourself up
for the choices of compromise that you have made and are currently making.
And I want this sermon, God sent me this message to be the rooster crow in your life.
To wake up.
Say it's time.
you've denied me enough you've you you you've spoken out against me way too many times you've
you've used religious language to to justify your sin and grace is here mercy is here in the gap
between this sin and the next sin i'm giving you a moment to cry to weep bitterly to turn from your
ways to repent from your sins the same Jesus who saw you deny him as the same Jesus who's waiting
to meet you and somebody in here you have been beating yourself up for so long for the mistakes
that you have made.
Listen, I am, I'm one of them.
This morning in my prayer room,
I started reflecting on all the things that I've done against God.
In adulthood,
I remember the conversations and the moments and the times
and the failures and the mistakes,
the religious language that I use and the choices that I've made
and how I would learn from something
and still make the same mistake
just a few hours or months or years later.
And I was so angry at myself and I'm like, how could I do that?
The moments where I said, I would never work in a church ever again.
That I'm not qualified.
That my mistakes don't allow me to even step on a platform and preach the gospel.
And in that moment of repentance,
God reminded me that my mistakes do not define me.
but that his grace is sufficient.
And the same God who sat with me in my tears in moments when I wanted to end my life
is the same God who stands next to me right now to preach the gospel.
So in this moment to seal this word, this moment, we're going to sing a worship song over this.
We're going to, we're going to bathe.
the word and worship.
And listen to me, listen to me.
I don't want you to move.
I don't want you to move.
I know it's cold.
I know we want to get out of here.
But we need to allow the word to permeate in our hearts.
We need to sit in the moment for just a second, just for 60 seconds.
So that God can refresh me.
our souls so god can do a new thing if the highest place i reaches at your feet then i've done it all if the best thing
that i've seen is your glory then i've seen it all your love has changed my life forever
God, you are my everything.
If one word is the only thing you'll speak,
then I've heard it all.
If I feel your heart and never see your hand.
I still have it all.
There's no treasure.
No treasure of this life.
Could ever satisfy God you are.
Say God, you are my everything.
Say God, you are.
You are my everything.
Say God, you are my everything.
You are my everything.
Is there anybody in the room
when a moment of conviction can say, God,
God, you are my everything.
You are the lifter of my heads.
But you took stripes on your back,
nails in your hands and a crown of thorns on your head.
And you bled for me.
And all because you are a good, good God.
salvation is for all but only if you choose he's not going to force you into relationship with him
he will give you an opportunity he will meet you with grace and if you choose to follow
to be an apprentice of him to to follow in his ways to to follow in his actions his footsteps his words
then and only then can he claim you as his.
He said, hearted not your heart.
When you hear these words, when I knock on your heart, will you open the door?
Salvation is the first step.
Sanctification is the process.
But there are people in this room today who are saying,
I have finally gotten to a place where I'm tired of compromising myself.
for my own self-gratification.
I am tired of chasing after the same thing and making the same mistakes over and over and over again.
And I'm ready to turn my life over to him.
I'm ready to confess with my mouth and believe in my heart.
And not just so I can say a prayer and that's just it.
No, no, no.
It is a relationship.
It's a relationship.
If you believe in this moment right now that God is calling you, that he's pulling you in,
the enemy wants to stop you from saying yes.
But God is giving you an opportunity with the rooster crow to say,
this is your moment to say yes.
If that is you, I just want you to just throw up your hands right now.
Throw up your hands right now.
I see you.
I see you.
I see you.
I see you, my brother.
I see you.
I see you.
my brother. I see you. Hallelujah. Hallelujah. The angels in heaven are rejoicing. If you can't rejoice for them,
I'm going to rejoice for them. Heaven has new angels. For when you close your eyes on earth,
you shall be in heaven. And this is the gospel.
In the highest place, in the highest place I reached and enjoy
then I done it all.
And if the best thing that I've seen it's all,
then I see it all.
Then I see it all.
Such a love.
No love has changed my life.
Forever.
Forever satisfied.
God, you are my everything.
God you want.
God you are my everything.
God, you are my everything.
God, you are my everything.
Oh, God, you are my everything.
God, you are my everything.
God, you are my everything.
