Aware & Aggravated - 100. My Biggest Failures & How I Overcame Them

Episode Date: October 29, 2023

In this episode Leo talks about his biggest failures and how he overcame them. He shares the truth about what it took for him to get to where he is today. His success has not come easy, and this episode reveals it all. Leo also breaks down manifestations not working and the next steps he found that always work. Get ready for the biggest boost of motivation you’ve ever felt.    ✅ FOLLOW ME HERE: https://www.instagram.com/theleoskepi https://www.tiktok.com/@leoskepi https://www.snapchat.com/add/leoskepi   😁 WWLD Submissions: https://forms.gle/sNtQjjwvXUisfdgh9   👕 MERCH https://shopleoskepi.com/collections/   📱 MY APP POSITIVE FOCUS Apple: https://apps.apple.com/us/app/positive-focus/id1559260311 Google: https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.positivefocusapp&hl=en_US&gl=US&pli=1    🔒 MY PRIVATE FACEBOOK SUPPORT COMMUNITY  https://m.facebook.com/groups/851294735925522/?ref=sharehttps://m.facebook.com/groups/851294735925522/?ref%3Dshare&exp=7ffb&mibextid=I6gGtw    📝 ACCOUNTABILITY TEMPLATES/WORKSHEETS  https://leoskepitemplates.com   Business Inquiries: [e-mail]

Hi friends, happy 100th episode. I cannot believe I have 100 podcasts episodes. I feel like we did it. I feel like we accomplished it. Not just me. You've been here the whole way. I wanted to do something really big for my 100th episode. I just had my first live event last week. And absolutely insane. I'll fill you in on that later. But I was low-key stressing about what I should do for for my 100th episode and I was thinking about having a guest on and doing like some crazy shit. No,

girl, it's been me and you since the beginning. It's gonna be us. Our 100th episode is gonna be us. I'll do guests in the future. I feel like something I'm kind of like brainstorming and like setting up. But something I love to watch is people talking about their failures. Don't get attacked me. I don't know why. Like I love watching people talk about how they fuck up and like, how things don't go right for them. So I figured let's talk about all of my failures to get me to the point that I'm at now because there's so much motivation that's gonna come out of it. Like when you hear the things that I've hurtled and hear the things that I've tried

and hear all the little things that have broken my heart and then you see me sitting here in front of you today knowing I've hurtled it all, like it's gonna be very motivating and inspiring and I feel like that's the best kind of thing I could do for a hundredth episode. So I'm gonna talk about things that I've failed at in life and things that didn't work because I've lived like 20 lives

and you're about to see what I mean. I'm gonna talk about things that didn't work because I've lived like 20 lives and you're about to see what I mean. I'm gonna talk about things that I've done that I haven't talked about before on the internet. And there's also a lot of things I need to address about all things I used to do on the internet. So let's do it. And I'm also gonna talk a little bit about manifestation and how when you ask for something and then it happens years later, like it's not that it's not manifesting, like it's gonna come, it's just later, we're gonna get into it, I'm so excited.

But the first thing I wanna talk about is my old YouTube channel. And for those of you that don't know, when I was 18 and 19, I was on YouTube posting videos about just random shit, like I would do unboxings of like random things that I would buy I would do like little vlogs get ready with me's like the typical YouTube vlogger type vibe and I had like 20,000 subscribers on YouTube all the videos are gone now has deleted them But I'm gonna get into why I deleted them But I fully was on YouTube for like two years just doing my shake before

this whole like rebrand not rebrand but like life got me, girl, and they got me good. But there are people who still follow me and have found me again for my old channel that I deleted. But I wanna give you background of like, why I deleted it, the whole manifestation, spiel and all that.

So when I was in nursing school, but those of you that don't know, I'm a nurse. I don't practice as a nurse anymore, but my license and everything is up to date. But when I was in nursing school, but those of you that don't know, I'm a nurse. I don't practice as a nurse anymore, but my license and everything is up to date. But when I was in nursing school, I joined college at 18 and was in nursing school 19, I think. So when I was in college is when I started doing YouTube, I was like, just kind of fucking around and like doing what I wanted. I let myself have fun with it. Like I genuinely just had fun with YouTube and it was like my little hobby,

like while I was going through nursing school, I would post once a week and it was just like fun, it was a distraction and I enjoyed it. But like I was trying to hit a certain amount of subscribers. The amount I got to was 20,000 before I deleted everything. But I was always trying to get like 50,000, 100,000, that was like my goal

and that's what I was like writing down, trying to like manifest all these years ago. And what's funny is now, I have 330,000 subscribers on this channel, which is totally different, separate, funny how things work, you know? But I'm getting a little ahead of myself. So I let myself post on YouTube and kind of have fun and be a kid in a way and just like shoot shit

and like have fun online, have a little hobby because I knew after nursing school, like as soon as I graduated, I already had decided in my head I'm gonna delete everything and wipe everything off the internet because I was concerned that when I graduated nursing school and I was applying for nursing jobs that I wasn't gonna get hired because they'd like find me on YouTube. And it's not that what I was posting on YouTube was bad. I just didn't want my bosses and potential employers and like hospitals to see me cut and shit online

and just like having fun and seeing that side of my personality. I wanted to be taken very serious and very business. So at 18, I decided to have fun and just do it. 21 is when I graduated nursing school and I was officially a news. And that's when I deleted everything. I didn't just hide it or private it.

I deleted everything and you can't find the videos. They're not like existent, but it was kind of like such like a heartbreaking thing and I looked at it like a failure because I wanted to hit 50,000 subscribers and then 100,000 eventually, but it it never got there and I knew I had a time constraint on it because I knew I was deleting everything but I let myself have fun never hit the subscribers I wanted to hit I was real sad

about it I was just like damn like my old videos on the internet. And I started working as a nurse. But something a lot of people don't know about me is I got my real estate license when I was in Florida. Right after I finished nursing school, I was like, why not get my real estate license and do both? Like I've always had an itch to like make a lot of money and be successful and I will do whatever it takes. And I was like, being a nurse will be fun, but I'm only gonna work three nights a week. So if I have four extra days, I'll do real estate on the side, sell some houses, do my thing and make extra money, and then get myself through my next years of school. Because my plan was never to stop at nursing. I was gonna go to school to be a nurse

anesthetist. So there was a lot more schooling to go through. But I was like, I need to be able to support myself through school and like live on my own. It's like, duh. So that was my original plan. Was to go be a nurse anesthetist and have my real estate license. And I was gonna sell houses and then eventually get to a point where I could flip houses and like buy them because I had the money from the job that I was gonna get because nurse and esthetists make good money. I make more than that now. But I don't want to just breeze past me going to real estate school and nursing school like they were very hard. It was a lot of effort, a lot of discipline, and a lot of struggles. But I did it.

Like, when I commit to something, it's like, I always tell myself, consider it done. Like, as soon as I say, I'm gonna do something, it's done. In my head, I'm gonna do it. I'm gonna do whatever I have to do to make it and like, accomplish what I set out to do. So I finished nursing school, and I was like, let's do real estate school. So taking the nursing boards was tough. And I was like, if any time is the best time to go take another state test, it's right after I just did the hardest one. So going to real estate school was kind of easy and passing that test was not anything near as bad as the nursing ones because in nursing I had like 20 something textbooks and real estate school, I had one textbook and

I read the whole thing three times. And that's how I passed my test. Do you think that was fun? No. You think I wanted to read it three times? No, but that's what I'm saying. You gotta just do what you gotta do to do the things you want to do. Like make sure you pass. You only gotta pass once. So I looked at it like I'm gonna study so much. It doesn't make sense for me not to pass. And I passed. But I didn't do anything with my real estate license. It actually didn't turn into anything in that front. I was nursing and I nursed for a few years. But right before I was about to go into real estate is when I met that ex that ruined my fucking life.

Bull. If you want to hear more about that situation, episode 67 of my podcast, I spill a lot more about everything that happened. I also talked about a lot more with the X in episode 60 of my podcast. So 60 and 67, go watch those if you want the background of like the X and like everything that happened there. But when I met him is when I was finished with real estate school and I was gonna start doing real estate, like I had my brokerage, I was gonna go to and everything,

it was all set up and I was about to do it. And then I started flying back and forth to Atlanta every week and I would fly in, work four days as a nurse, and then fly out for a week. And it was just too much. And I was like, I'm gonna enjoy this. Like I just busted my ass in school. So I was like, I'm gonna enjoy my little life.

Like I need to relax a bit. Like I was still full-time working as a nurse, but I was like, before I jump and like, double down on real estate and having a relationship, I was like,-time working as a nurse, but I was like before I jump and like double down on real estate and Have in a relationship. I was like, let me chill for a second and just see if anything comes over the relationship I ended up never using the real estate license and I just let it go because I had no interest It was just gonna be means of me to make money like that was really all it was was like I was just gonna do that to make money. Did I really give a shit? No?

Did I want to deal with people buying houses? No. And that really wasn't a failure to me because I still use a lot of the knowledge that I have about real estate and every time I go to get into a apartment or when I go to buy a house, I know things I ain't supposed to know. I know things most people don't know. Like all these things help me and I'm about to get into a lot more examples where things stack on themselves. So after I ended that relationship and shit got terrible, that's when I talk about my old episodes. A false investigation was launched on me

and my nursing career and my nursing license with the Florida Board of Nursing. So I had to basically pause nursing and that's when I got into dealing cards. That's what I always talk about. You know what the fuck I'm talking about when I say I'm dealing cards. I just can't talk about it online. And my little desire to have a YouTube channel did not die.

So I restarted my YouTube channel that I was doing, but I restarted it years and years later. Like I had the same channel and I had lost I think like 5,000 subscribers after not posting for a few years, but I was like you know what? Let's just do it like let's just restart it was fun I needed something that was like a little bit fun in my life at that point and a distraction again So I started posting on YouTube again And I tried to go back and to posting things that I used to post like Designer little unboxings and like stupid shit like that.

But I just kept feeling so uninterested by it. Like that's what would pull in views. But I felt so called to talk about the shit that I know and my insight and awareness and things like that. Like mental health related things is what I wanted to talk about. That's what made me happy. So I was trying to balance like posting like designer shit unboxings lifestyle shit Plus like the mental health stuff that I was learning and going through and the things that I was realizing as I was going through it

But I got very disheartened because that's like a period where YouTube was kind of dead the views were so low on my videos like views were like less than a thousand views every video and I used to pull like between 20 to 100,000 views a video back in the day when I was like doing good, but at this point when I tried to restart it and like regal back into that desire I was not getting shit, like it was like less than a thousand views and I got so this heartened by it, but I tried to keep posting.

But while I was doing that, I started a business a lot of people don't know about and I have so this heartened by it, but I tried to keep posting. But while I was doing that, I started a business that a lot of people don't know about and I have never talked about this online, but I had an online crystal business and it was called Leo's Geodes, cause Geodes are crystals. And I fully did everything myself. Like I invested the money into buying the inventory.

I taught myself how to build a website and Make an online store. I taught myself about shipping. I taught myself about opening an LLC to have that under. I literally taught myself Everything I researched it and I did it and I made everything happen and I fully started this business and It didn't do Good really at all. That's another situation where like I wasn't in it like I didn't love it like I loved certain aspects of it but it was just so much work for something I had no actual like internal drive for so anything basically was able to stop me so I saw I kind of

look at that as a failure. I closed the business after I had like, I think I got like six sales total after like three months. And I was like, this is not, this is not doing it. It's not going to work. And I was at a crossroads kind of like, don't more money into it. Learn about advertising, learn about all these new things, develop all these new skills and keep going into it. But I was like, if I'm going to put all of this time and effort and energy into

something, I want it to be into something that I give a fuck about. So that's when I came up with the idea for my app. And that was the next thing I tried. So I created the app, positive, focused. And that app is the biggest headache of anything I've ever dealt with in my life. But a lot of the skills I learned and taught myself from the crystal business, I learned a lot about business, legalities, contracts, and a lot of shit that helped me so much when I started my app. Like it was so much more of a breeze. Because like when I was starting the crystal business,

I was trying to figure things out as I went so it took 10 times longer if I just knew how to execute and make websites and do all these things. If I knew how to do that, I would have been way quicker. I was learning as I was going and it was slow as hell and it felt like so much more work. When I did my app, it's a different world and there was a people involved actually this time.

Not just like manufacturers and suppliers for like the crystals, but I had to have someone and hire someone to create the app and develop it. So I had to get a software engineer to make it and that was a shit show in itself. But my biggest thing was I just wanted to make $5,000 a month. With whatever I was doing, I wanted to make $5 grand a month. I was making a lot more than that when I was dealing cards at the fake casino. But that's not something I ever wanted to do long-term. I did it because I was like, fuck it. Like I was at a bad point in my life.

I tried to go the correct route, like the legal route. Taxable income route and do the nursing and that all got fucked up in the system. The investigation was dropped because they found nothing, but it put me in a financial bind, so I had to get myself out of it and turning to the system fucked me so I turned away from the system and I did what I had to do. But I knew the whole time in my head, kind of like the YouTube thing, like it's got a time limit on it, like when I got in the game of dealing cards, I knew I had to get out before shit got bad.

Or I got... I'm just like, how do I fucking talk about this? Like openly and freely, I can't. Oh, like YouTube is such a pain in the ass. But also the legal system. Like I can't really like admit to all these things. But dealing cards is what I was doing. For anyone watching this,

that wants to do a little badge at me. I was dealing cards at a casino. It was legal. So my goal was with the money that I was making from my side hustle. I was gonna do something and invest it in a way where I could do something and make at least five random up, because I was like,

I just want to be independent, move out on my own and do my own thing and be able to support myself and then I can figure out what I want to do with my life. So I was like, this app, this could save me, this could be it. I can get away from this life, I know I don't want to be in. I feel so off-path and so off-track. I tried to gear myself off and go into my app and it wasn't successful at the beginning for shit. Like it was costing me so much money to keep it running and a lot of people don't know that I still schedule

the quotes from my app every single week. So like all the quotes that you see, I'm sitting there typing them, I'm sitting there, I'm the one in your pocket that's making your phone go off. Like I schedule all of those still. I don't like to have anyone with their hands in it. Like I want that connection for people that have my app. It's like, you know, it's me. But with making that app came a lot of heartbreak because I didn't even make like $500 a month for the first like few months. I think I made like a hundred bucks like ish the first month.

And that's kind of when I was like starting on tiktok So I had a little bit of an audience like I had like 60 or 80,000 followers But the app was not doing as good as I thought it was not like bringing in money And I felt back at square one. I was like now. I'm like 30 I don't know even know how much it was like 35 40,000 dollars in the bucket for this damn app And I thought this investment would have made it where I could Go and do something else or be okay And I thought this investment was one where I could be okay for a minute and then figure out my next steps and go into something else But it know the urgency was still there of like you have to live you have to make money to live

So with my app not being successful. I was very much crushed very much upset I'm like 30 40,000 in the bucket and I started to like lose my mind because where I was living in Florida at the time, I wanted to get out so bad. Like I was not doing okay like mentally and emotionally and I was like if I don't get out of this town, I'm not gonna make it. And I was kind of like in that period of like fuck, like I cannot find a way to make money and I was kind of like in that period of like fuck like I cannot find a way to make money and I was so irritated like I was really so angry and the app like literally broke my heart and I was so upset because I was at a point where I was making like 500 bucks a month with it.

What you're gonna do with 500 bucks a month? You ain't living off that. You ain't getting that need even half rent at an apartment. So I knew I wanted to move and I didn't really see a way to make money. And this is when I deleted my YouTube for the second time that I was making. So like the videos I was doing, I wiped them all again from the internet, completely abandoned YouTube again and deleted it. Because I was like, I'm not gaining subscribers, I'm not getting views for shit, it's kind of a waste of time. And I was just so disheartened by it I was not in a good place to like deal with any more disappointment So I just wiped the whole thing and I deleted the YouTube again and then a few months later

I say a few but like a lot of months later is when I was like posting on TikTok and things started going good there And then I started this podcast and at this point I had been doing my podcast for around six months So I was about six months into it, posting every Sunday. My podcast started gaining a little bit of traction. I had like 5,000 downloads in episode, I think. Maybe it was 10,000. I don't know, I was getting like 5 to 10,000 downloads every episode on my podcast and people were liking it.

And it was like episode 25, I think. So I was like, why don't I try and monetize my podcasts? Like this is my one thing that's consistently like working. I didn't know how to monetize TikTok. I didn't understand brand deals and all that shit back then. All I knew was I wanted to move away, get the hell out of where I was, and be able to support myself without having to go back to nursing.

So I literally was like, okay, let's try and monetize this podcast because I was putting a lot into it. And I still put a lot into it. Now I make a shits on the money from it and everything's peachy. But back then when I was trying to make money it was like I couldn't crack like making money at first. So like I started my Patreon for my podcast. So I took my podcast from being a public podcast and I left episode one through 24 available to the public and I decided, okay, episode 25 and forward is gonna be Patreon only.

So like, I had 24 episodes out for free and I was like, if you like how this is going, if you like what you're learning, come over here and if you wanna keep listening, I made it $10 a month to subscribe to my Patreon. So I was like, four episodes a month and it's 10 bucks. I think that's very much reasonable. Like I give you more than most therapists give you and their hundreds of hours. So I feel like that was very fair. And I still remember the heartbreak

that I felt when I started my Patreon because not as many people signed up as I thought. And it took like a month for me to start making around like $2,000. I was making like $2,500 bucks a month, but Patreon takes 20% of that. So I don't know how much I was getting. I can't do the math right now, but I was at a point where like my Patreon was bringing in $2,500 a month. And I was like, okay, like, we got somewhere. Like we're halfway there. So at that point, I was like, okay,

I'm seeing like some kind of light at the end of a tunnel. Like I found a way to make a little bit of money. Let's make more. What else can I do? How can I make more? And it's kind of like when I talk about being guided to your purpose, you're gonna be steered around like a dick. Like the universe is going to jerk you around and

Plant you where it needs to plant you and like guide you where it needs to go. It's not gonna be fun It's not gonna feel good, but it felt like hell to go back to nursing and I knew that so I knew let's not go that way Like if you know that you hate something you know a direction not to go So turn away from it if you can but I was in a place financially in this point where I needed to make something work or my ass was going back to nursing. So I had a TikTok account called Life Coach Leo and I was posting on there and talking about different perspectives. People don't understand. I talked a lot about how I get through things and like random ideas, perspectives, advice, things that were coming up. It was like little versions of my podcasts,

but like more on the fly, and just like sitting down, talking, shooting shit. And that profile was doing good. But my bigger page was Leo Skeppy. So I had Leo Skeppy, which was, it used to be called not Leo for legal reasons, but now it's Leo Skeppy. And then I had Life Coach Leo.

And I still have Leo Skeppy. That's my main TikTok account. I'm about to hit 4 million followers. Yay. But Life Coach Leo on TikTok is still up. I'm about to hit 4 million followers. Yay. But life coach Leo on TikTok is still up. I just don't post on it. Like that account, I let it die, like it's I'm over it.

Because now my podcast is where I share all of this. And this is just a random little side note of one more thing I had to deal with. That X-I had paid hackers to hack into my Instagram account and my Snapchat account. I had my Instagram deleted that I had had since I'm like 16, lost everything, still can't get back into it, lost all the followers, lost all the people who followed me for all these years, lost all the photos, all the save shit gone. Started a new Instagram and it was like building

back up and I was like doing okay, I only had like six or seven thousand followers it got deleted again from the mother fucker so my snapchat also got deleted and it was my snapchat that I had had since I was like 16 or 17 also and All the memories I had saved in it were gone wiped out Everything was gone like I could not access these accounts, they were like hacked and deleted. So there was no way to get them back. I had tried contacting Instagram, I had tried contacting Snapchat, I wasn't big enough for them to give a fuck.

So I lost everything. And it's funny, the reason I'm back on Snapchat and I have my old account on Snapchat now is all these years later. This is like a few months ago when I got back on Snapchat. Snapchat reached out to my team at UTA and asked me to get on Snapchat because I've been doing good on all of my other socials. And I was like, okay, I have no desire to get on Snapchat. Y'all pissed me the fuck off and hurt my feelings a long time ago. But if you can get me my old account back so I can have all

my memories and get me back on Snapchat because I wanted the name Leo Skeppey on Snapchat, like I had, but I didn't want to make a new account with a different name. I was like if you can get me my old account back I'll start posting on Snapchat and they got me my account back so that's why I post on Snapchat now. If you haven't added me there go add me it's Leo Skeppy. I just wanted to throw this little tidbit in here. This is just one more headache I had to deal with. But with that life coach Leo takes out account a lot of people kept asking like how they could talk to me how they could talk to me,

how they could get advice from me one-on-one and have a conversation with me, like how could they pay? Basically to talk to me. And I was like, okay, maybe there's something in this. So I started looking up certifications and going back to college, I was like maybe I'll become a counselor or a therapist.

And there's so much legal bullshit with someone coming in and telling you they want to unalive themselves, or they are honest about what they're feeling or something that they did. When they confess to someone who is licensed by a state, they legally have to report to the state, the person talking to them.

Life coaches are not licensed by any state, so they don't have to legally report anything from my understanding. There is a lot of gray area and life coaching certifications were way quicker to get than going to school for four years to be a counselor or eight years to be a therapist. I'm not doing that any money now. But I wanted to make it in a way that felt good. Like I hated how much I hated having to do things to make money. So I was like, if I could genuinely just like sit here and talk to people all day and give them new perspectives

and help them through what they're going through and spot and point out what they're not seeing, that could help them. I was like, if I can make money doing that, I will lose my mind. Like that's like the best thing you could give me as a means of making money So I was like researching it looking it up

I ended up getting seven different life coaching certifications just to cover my ass to be safe and then I made a website Or people could go and schedule with me and I was like Leo are we finished start a coaching business? And I was like yeah, let's do it like I was making my twenty five hundred bucks from patreon I was like if I can let's do it. Like, I was making my $2,500 from Patreon, and I was like, if I can make the rest of the five grand with my coaching calls every month, I can move out and I'm free. So, all of the skills that I learned from making my other websites and doing my app,

I learned how to make LLCs and make businesses to protect myself legally. I also learned how to make websites from my crystal business. All these skills that I learned from things that I previously failed at all came into account and all worked for me and made this new path I was going down 10 times easier.

This is the path you're meant to be on. So when you're equipped and you feel it, it's very nice, it's just a breeze. So I made my full website for my coaching calls and I launched it on TikTok and I posted about it. But before I launched this site for my coaching calls, I was shit scared, I was terrified. I had just gone through the whole disheartening experience

of my Patreon not having that many people convert and really seemed to give a fuck and want to pay to like watch what I was doing so I was like in my head no one's gonna pay to want to talk to me like yeah they're saying it but like are they actually gonna do it I was so planning for it not to go good I literally was so stressed out you have no clue how much it took for me to launch my coaching website. But the main thing that made me post it and post that I was doing coaching calls is before I went back to nursing and like fell back to my plan B or like did something else. I wanted to make sure this was not an option because I so wanted this to

work. Like I wanted everything else to work but this is the one thing I was so heart in it about and I wanted it to work. So I was like I need confirmation and certainty for me to go forward in my life. This was never gonna work and I had to try it to see if it would work or not. So that's really why I did it. Like I always say I'd rather look back and say oh well then look back in my past and be like oh what if like what if I had tried this. I'd rather say oh well, then look back in my past and be like, oh, what if, like what if I had tried this? I'd rather say, oh well than what if, and I had to apply that here. So I launched the site and I had, I think,

20 people schedule in the first like three or four days, and I was like, whoa, because I made my starting price $90 a call for a 50 minute call. So basically like an hour, I would always go over, but I gave myself that 10 minutes Above or time between calls, but I would always stay longer with people like I just get into it And I love that I hate when you're out of therapists and you're like in the middle of something like oh well

He have to go give me your card like no, I don't like that So I always gave myself time but like I always made sure to like stay with people as long as I needed to to like make them Feel complete with the call so like I said 20 people scheduled in the first few days and I was like, Leo, this might be it. And I fully was at a point mentally and emotionally with living in Florida where I was like, I finally see a ticket out. I don't know if this is going to last. I don't know if it's going last. I don't know if it's gonna work, but let's jump.

And I fully, five days later, moved to Houston. I drove to Houston that night, stayed with my cousins, went and hunted for apartments, found one I like. Well, I found one that was good enough. My first apartment was like $1,250 a month, like $1,250, like $1,250 a month, like $1,250 a month. It was nothing crazy, it was nothing nice. I was so embarrassed of it and was trying to hide it and make it look decent because

I was so embarrassed to be online, but I didn't care. Because everybody online that's an influencer is making so much money, I didn't know how to do it. So I was just figuring shit out on my own like trying to hide the fact that I was struggling financially. So like I said, I drove up, found my apartment, drove back home, signed the lease, they sent it to me electronically, signed the lease,

got in the car, and drove to Houston and moved. So when I launched my coaching site, from my coaching calls, three days later I was in the car on the way to Houston. A week after I launched the site, so four days later I was living in Houston like I was pulling in living in Houston. I fully took a whole risk with my entire life but like I said I was at a point like mentally I didn't care like I just knew I needed to get out of where I was and go take a chance on life to see what I was made of but

I went in it in the back of my head like I have so many things I can do if I don't make enough money. I was like I'll go be a bartender. That'll be fine. I'll go be bartender, have fun, make a little money. I have the personality for it. I can make drinks, I can learn any skill very quickly. So I literally bought all of the cups and all of the bar wear and everything I would need to practice bartending. And I actually went and like applied to a couple of places to like make sure I had a job lined up if it didn't work out. Like I fully like taught myself how to bartend in five days, watch all these videos, memorize all these recipes, taught myself about a bartend,

taught myself some tricks, I can like do cool shit and went and applied to a couple of jobs, went to a couple of interviews and I I knew I had this safety of like, if things go wrong or go bad, I can at least pay my bills in Houston. I'll go bartend. If worst case scenario, I'm not leaving Houston, I'll go be a nurse. Because when I got my nursing license,

I got the state, like, what is it called? Multi-state recognition license or like, whatever it means, I don't know the terminology now, where you can practice in multiple states. It's recognized by other states. And Houston was one of them recognized by Florida. So I was like, if all else fails, I'm not gonna be homeless, I'm not gonna be on my ass,

I'm not gonna starve, I'll go back to nursing. But I did not wanna do it. Like, nursing killed my soul. But luckily, my coaching calls kept coming in and I was doing way better than I thought. So how I talked about 20 people scheduled in the three days, it turned into like 40 after that week. So I was like in Houston and I was like,

okay, I have these 40 calls, like I'm starting to take a few and have a few and they were going so good people were rescheduling and re-booking and I was like, holy shit. And then like more people were booking and it got to a point where I was getting like booked out and I was doing, holy shit. And then more people were booking. And it got to a point where I was getting booked out. And I was doing so much better financially, but I was doing 40 to 45 calls a week.

So I was working a lot, but I loved it. I loved every single call I had. And it brought me so much joy. I didn't feel like I was working and I was making money. And I was like, is this what the fuck being in your purpose is like, because what? And then I got to a point where I was getting so booked out I had to increase my prices. The first people that started with me I honored the pricing and I kept them at 90

like a hundred bucks whatever it was but I was at 150 and then I went to 200 and then I was at 250 a call and I was still getting booked out. But I do want to take a quick second to talk about the sponsor of today's podcast episode and it's Vesy again, I talked about them in the last episode, but there is shoe company. They have a lot of accessories and things, but they're mainly known for their shoes and their footwear, that is like weather proof

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But in this process of my coaching calls going so well, I was helping people very quickly. And people that I would see weekly would turn into every other week, and then monthly. So, I was like losing clients, but it's something I was losing them. Like, I was helping them, and they didn't need me anymore. And that's where having a good heart,

like, fucked me for my financial life and my situation because I prioritize people over me being okay financially. I was like, I wanted to make sure they were okay. I wasn't gonna withhold things and make them feel like they needed me and only tell them half of things and half helped them so they keep coming back

so I could pay my bills. I wanted to give everybody as much as I could and get them okay. And luckily more people just always kept finding me and scheduling and it went really good. So after like two months being in Houston, I had my Patreon and I had my coaching calls and I was doing really well. But I was kind of getting sad about my podcasts because like I said, I was working like 45 hours a week doing the coaching calls and I was also doing a podcast every week and also trying to post on social media

like I was working a lot and non-stop honestly. But with me also doing a podcast every week, I was like, okay, I'm all right financially now but I was at a point where I was like, for me to put out this podcast for these few hundred people that only got into the Patreon, I was like, I need this to be worth my time and feel like it's doing more. And I kind of had to check myself.

And I was like, Leo, why did you start your podcast? It's to share the awareness that I've gained. Locking it in a Patreon is not going to help it get out and be spread. People were still sharing it, but it wasn't able to spread and grow as fast as it could. Like I was limiting the potential of the information that I was giving out. But my whole point was to just share the information. So I chose this scared to shit out of me. And I was not in a cushy, comfortable situation. Yeah, this was still a big risk for me to do this, but I decided to take my Patreon down and make my podcast public again.

And I decided to get rid of the $2,500 a month that I knew was my only consistent thing and just work my ass off on the coaching calls and see if I can get it to like take off or like have anything happen. I also was having a little bit more success with my app. I was making like 800 bucks a month for my app at that time. But deciding to get rid of my Patreon scared living shit out of me.

It was like money was the thing I was trying to like get so I could feel calm and safe for a minute like getting my finances in check was like my main priority. So it was so contradictive for me to finally see success in this thing have one thing that is consistent stable income and then throw it away because of my mission and my purpose and my goal. Oh my god. But that's where I talk about character and you have to have character people cannot fuck with or ever question. I will always prioritize who I am and why I do what I do over making money. And it is paid off 10 fold, 20 fold. I don't even know how many folds it's folded, but it's folded. But I just want to talk about that with me closing on my Patreon and making my

podcast public again, because it was a very hard decision for me to make. I knew I was going to make it, I knew I was going to do it. I was just facing the risk of not making enough money being scared shitless and having to potentially go bartend while I'm doing my coaching calls, which I didn't have the time for. But luckily when I released my podcast back to the public for free, a lot more people started finding it and then started booking coaching calls. So like I was okay and it worked out and it took me a while to supplement that income back of the Patreon with the coaching.

But I was kind of at a period, like I said in my podcast episode about making money. I was making around eight grand a month and I was like, okay, I'm comfortable, I'm happy, I'm working a lot but I enjoy it but $8,000 a month, I wanted more than that. Like I've always just known I was gonna make a lot of money and I was just like, I just got figured out half. So this is when I had an idea for a separate business I was gonna start and you're gonna think I'm absolutely insane but there's a lot of money in this. So I had an idea for a separate business I was going to start and you're going to think I'm absolutely insane.

But there's a lot of money in this. So I had connections with a couple of people who have roofing companies. And basically you have to have certain amount of years of experience working on roofs or being in the roofing kind of like industry to have the experience to be able to take a test to become a contractor. And I had people who were willing to lie for me to like say that he has the experience. I was just going to read all the books and learn everything I could because I'm very good at taking tests. Not I'm very good. I study my a** so I always pass my test. But people can't pass this test.

It's very hard to pass. So I was like, if I can pass this test, I have people who will lie for me and say I work for over four years, they win I didn't. I don't know how deep I want to get into the terminology with it, but I basically could have contracted out jobs and collected a fuck ton of money. Like hundreds of thousands of dollars a year, passively, people just working under my license. So that was a route I was gonna go to make a passive income

and be making a shit ton of money while I was doing my coaching calls, cause I love that, like making my podcast, doing my coaching calls, I was like, if I can't make enough money, where I can have like a lot of extra and live the life I wanna live this way, I wanna continue doing this because I enjoy it, but I'm gonna go make my money somewhere else.

I want this money. So like, I want this lifestyle. You can't get rid of a desire. You have to get it. So, I literally started studying for this exam. I bought all the roofing books. And I know a lot about roofing for no fucking reason now. And I'm coming to talk about law of attraction, manifestations, type stuff because a lot of people talk about following your purpose, makes you money.

And I was like, not knowledgeable about how to scale my coaching business to where I could make them out of money that I wanted to make. That was lack of knowledge. I could have made a lot more money with what I was doing. I just didn't know. So when I was like, I'm gonna have to go do roofing. I know I don't want to do it. I know I don't want to read these books. It's not interesting to me. I would fall asleep reading the books all the time. But I was kind

of like resisting myself and resisting the whole concept of following your purpose and abundance will follow because I was like, I don't see a way to make it over here. So I'm just gonna suck it up, shut up, get this roofing shit done, and make my money. Like, I know it's in a way that I have no interest and I don't care and it's irritating and I don't like it, but that's what I see as a potential and it's kind of like relatively easy. I have all the connects for it,

so I was like, let's just do that. So I fully was committed and I was like, let's do it. And as I was studying and learning what to do for roofing and getting ready to take my exam, it released a lot of resistance in me. And just being willing to go into that and take all the pressure off of my purpose and what I was trying to do over here, my theory is when you talk about law of attraction and like resistance and all that, I took all the resistance off of here.

I was still doing it, still loved it, but my purpose and my intention was not to make a lot of money here. It's what I wanted, it was a desire, but I was like, let's just go make the money over here and I'll do all this because it just makes me happy. And that's when a lot of things started happening with social media. A lot of things started blowing up. A lot of brand deals started coming in. I started learning

a lot more about it. I started making a lot more off of social media. My podcast was growing like insanity. And the big reason I think my podcast was growing so much and so fast is because I did decide to start doing the video version and posting it on YouTube. So if you're watching it on YouTube, hi. So episode one through 39 of my podcast was audio only. Like I only recorded the audio and I wanted to help it grow and gain attention.

So that's why I decided to start posting it on YouTube. And I like bought all the equipment, bought all the camera lights set up so I could start recording it and also posting it on YouTube. And I like, bought all the equipment, bought all the camera lights set up so I could start recording it, and also posting it on YouTube to attract a different audience, help it grow, and make clips that I could post on TikTok that could help it grow also.

Because posting my podcast clips that were just my audio didn't ever do well. I needed the visuals to go with it to help it grow. But it's a weird way how I kind of like backwards, like met the desire that I had to have a YouTube channel because I restarted a whole new channel, this is a whole new channel that I'm on now. But it's nothing like I was trying to do before.

So how I said, things are not possible. Like they're happening. They might not be how you're currently doing it or it might just be later down the line when it's supposed to work out. Like I have met my desire of having a YouTube channel now. My channel's pretty fucking big. And especially in a time where YouTube's like,

mostly kind of like dead, it's coming back a little bit. But that desire I had to have a YouTube channel is now met. It's weird how that worked. But when I started this YouTube channel, I started posting my podcasts. I didn't have too much resistance around it because I wasn't trying to do it how I did before. My attention was not to have a YouTube channel started posting my podcasts. I didn't have too much resistance around it because I wasn't trying to do it how I did before.

My intention was not to have a YouTube channel and have it be about me. It was just like an extension of the podcast. So like getting back on YouTube was easy. But all of the skills that I had learned about YouTube and making YouTube videos all these years made it so much easier. Like knowing how to work a camera and all that,

knowing how to work a mic is a different story. But knowing how to work a camera and all that. No, not a work of Mike is a different story, but no, not a work of camera and also editing YouTube videos uploading and posting everything. This is all things that I already had the knowledge from from trying it so many times. Like, I kept recommitting to this desire, but like this last time when it worked was just for a different reason, but all these skills that I had built before that I looked at as such a failure are a reason that things have gone so well now. It's insane. Like when you keep recommitting is when shit unfolds. And I was making money from YouTube just posting it on YouTube was making me money. And I was like,

hey, all right, I did get demonetized on a lot of stuff, but like I'm back getting monetized now. But I was making pretty decent money with some things that were happening. It's like, while I was my nose was dug in over here on the roofing stuff, a lot of things with my social media and my coaching and everything was happening was building and getting better and I started making a lot of money over here.

And then I had the idea to make merch and I had had the idea for six months before I ever actually dropped my merch Before I actually did it because I was so scared worried Like didn't know what the fuck was like gonna come of it But I wanted to take the idea for the merch seriously at the time that I did Because everything was kind of blowing up at once and I was like if there's any chance it's ever gonna work It's now and this is another prime example of all the skills from all my failures of the past

came in handy. Like when I was reaching out for manufacturers and people to make my merch and fulfill it, it was easier because I had already had previous experience with my crystal business with finding manufacturers. I know how to talk to them, I know how to haggle, I know how to find things, I know how to talk and navigate these conversations and like save money, I know how to test samples

and find the best quality and get everything going, how it was going and what people don't know is my merch was all meet. Like I made everything, I'm the one fully responsible for everything about my merch. With the website, I had to create the website, I had to find the merch, make the merch, my designs for my merch, a lot of the just typing is just normal font, but

for my aware and aggravated logo, I didn't like any font that was out there, so I hand through it. Like my aware and aggravated logo on my merch was hand drawn. Like I literally spent hours, like on my iPad drawing this so I could transfer it onto my laptop to get the design that I wanted to have Like a lot of people don't know that but like a lot more effort and like Personal intention went into it than everybody realizes and the same thing with they were in aggravated like the hoodie It says trust no one almost leave because that's where I have my trust no one tattoo I hand you that font too because I want it to be perfect. I'm a perfectionist if you couldn't tell But I am in the process of switching to a new merch company, but it's not

really merch. It's a transition of like my merch into more of like a clothing line vibe. Like the people I'm working with now, it's all gonna switch around December with my next drop that I'm gonna do. But all my merch I have right now is limited. Like you're not gonna be able to get it once I switch to the new manufacturer in December. So like this first round of merch I have, all the designs are gonna go away. So if you want anything, links in the description,

go buy it if you wanna be like part of the first. But my new company that I'm working with, my new manufacturer, with everything I'm doing clothing-wise and merch-wise and everything that I wanna make and do, cause I wanna make like cigarette holders, ass trays, pocket knives, like clothing, all kind of stuff, bags, that's coming.

But this company's a lot more elevated and I'm gonna have a lot more control over quality, prints, designs, anything I wanna make, I can do it. And when I switch to that, I'm no longer gonna be doing customer service. Like there, it's gonna be a full like company of what I'm making. So that's been in the works for a while. I don't talk

about a lot of things that I work on. I move in silence, and I'm just like, oh, I did this thing. But that's something I'm very excited for. But I just wanted to throw this little tidbit of information in there. But the point is, I launched merch. I haven't told anybody this, but my merch changed the entire trajectory of this roofing business because I made $20,000 in the first two hours of my merch launch. And when I made that video talking about

how grateful I am, like you guys literally steered me off a path, I was not meant to go down and reaffirmed and reassured me this is where I'm supposed to go. I'm supposed to be spending my energy and my coaching and my podcasts and thinking I'm supposed to be doing. So the money that I thought I could only make on roofing, I started making on the other things I was doing. And my social media, like the brand deals that I get that I do now, it's like, I don't do anything out of alignment with what I

want. Like I make sure everything that I do is I do now. It's like, I don't do anything out of alignment with what I want. Like I make sure everything that I do is something I actually believe in and like, if you can't put money in my face, like I say the character you can't bend, you can't put money in my face and make me jump through a hoop. If I don't want to jump through the hoop, I ain't jump through the hoop.

If I don't like the hoop, I ain't jump through it. And I'm not gonna lie until people it's good if it's not. But with all that being said, there are a couple of other things I do business-wise that are not failures that I'm not going to tell you about. That's for me to know. Nothing illegal. It's all taxable. It's all fine. Don't stress that. But there are a couple of other business things that I do and I'm involved in that I make money from. But my whole point with all of this is like the roofing thing, I let that shit go immediately

because it's like, as soon as I was fully committed to it, like, all right, let's just do it. Like I accepted my fate of like, I'm not gonna make money this way. I started making money that way. Oh, that pisses me off. Like whoever designed this law of attraction can eat shit. Like that's the most ass backwards annoying thing

because like the mental turmoil of like, not knowing where you're going, what you're doing. It's like when you follow this like purpose thing, and you try and like be spiritual about life and make money, like girl, it will jerk you around. Like I said, you'll get jerked around into your purpose. But I really just wanted to be honest about this and share this all with you because I know how

disheartening it is when you're trying to accomplish things and achieve things like go a different route or try something and like deal with the confusion of law of attraction and like This whole spiritual shit. It's like this can take so many forms and this can go so many routes And I want you to take inspiration from what I've just said like you've only heard cut and dry facts of it You didn't see what my life was like while I was doing these things and how bad I was struggling and how much I hated shit And how much I didn't sleep and how much I was stressed and how many nights I cried myself to sleep literally. There's so much that's gone into it and I don't want you hearing me talk about any of

these things like oh it's just light easy breezy like flies by no this was all very very hard emotionally mentally and I lost my faith in people with sales and trying to sell things so many times. Like I lost faith that like anyone was smart enough to see value in front of their fucking face. So I'm talking about value that you can exchange for it. But a lot of these things like heard it, but then what I'm doing in my purpose healed all of that. Let me feel better about it. But I just for fun and like shits and giggles. I want to tell you about an experience that I have when I was very young that started my disappointment

with people. So I just got a job into it. There's no like preface thing. What is a preface preface? Whatever. There's no like background information. I was like eight years old. And there was this thing that I wanted to buy from this fucking dumb little

restaurant, me and my family used to go to. And I was eight years old and I literally like every time we'd go to this restaurant, I would see it. It was this wooden box. And on the lid, it was just like a wooden box and you would slide the lid and then a rat, like a fake rat, like a little rubber rat would like flip out on your hand It was like a joke it was like a prank box and I loved it I don't know why I wanted it so bad. I wanted the little rat box Now that I think about it. This is so funny But the little rat box was $16 and I begged my parents for it

Bagged bagged bags every time we went and They wouldn't get it for me like Like, you know how some restaurants have like gift shops and you're walking out? I would always run in there and try and like play with it and convince them to buy it for me, but it was $16. And my parents went buy it for me. I wasn't gonna steal it, but I wanted this damn mouse trap.

And so one day, it was a Saturday. I planned how I was gonna make money to go and buy my little rat trap. I fully looked around my bedroom and Found 16 of my favorite toys or like anything that I thought other people would like like things that I cared about and I got a Plastic Walmart bag like a little like grocery bag and I put all of my toys in it I put my 16 toys in it and I was like, okay, I'm gonna go sell these toys for a dollar each and I can have $16 so I can go buy my rat trap.

Little me didn't know anything about tax. Like I would have needed like 17-18 bucks. But anyway, that ain't the point. We're not bullying him for being dumb. So Little Leo grabs his bag of toys and he goes running around the neighborhood. I literally woke up at like 6 a.m. on a Saturday and I went to everybody's house because I was like, everybody's gonna be home from work, I'm not gonna bother them, they'll be like up drinking coffee. What the fuck was I doing at 6 a.m.? Eight-year-old me was nuts.

But I literally remember it, clear as day, walking to all of my neighbor's doors and I walked for like miles and I probably went to like a hundred different houses and I knocked on the door and I would stand there with my little bag and I was so excited. And every person that came to the door,

came to the door very confused. Like what is this kid doing? And I was like, hi, I was like, I'm selling my toys like for a dollar each. So I was like, if you have any kids of your own or you have like any friends with kids, like anyone that would want any of this, it's a dollar each. So I was like if you have any kids of your own or you have like any friends with kids Like anyone that would want any of this it's a dollar each and I was so excited to like Potentially like make money and I didn't lose hope every house

I went to I was like oh, they probably just don't have kids. I was hopefulist could be I was so like someone's gonna buy something Someone's gonna buy something. I went to like at least a hundred houses But I literally remember not one person but someone's gonna buy something, someone's gonna buy something. I went to like at least 100 houses, but I literally remember not one person bought anything. I went home with my bag full of toys, heartbroken, and so just like, what the fuck? Like I was so just like sad and like I was trying and I was so like upset about it. Like I was like just like sad and like I was trying and I was so like

upset about it like I was like so powerless and pissed and like heartbroken and like sad and I was just like damn like That really hurt me a lot when I was little like an eight-year-old kid like going through that and not like shaped how I am today That's why whenever I see And that like shaped how I am today. That's why whenever I see kids with a lemonade stand or I see kids selling chocolate bars, I'll buy the whole box. I'll give the kids a hundred bucks with a lemonade stand.

Whenever people are like selling things, kids are selling art, I will literally just go up to them, hand them a hundred bucks, tell them to keep the paintings. I just wanted to donate to them. And like whenever I see a child or anyone young trying to do something and make money like that, I never want them to experience the heartbreak that I felt. So I

always give them money. I've given thousands of dollars to people before. Like I'll just give them like a thousand bucks, like 500 bucks, because it makes their whole day. And I weirdly feel like I'm giving it back to myself when I was in that situation trying to make money when I was little that situation trying to make money when I was little and didn't know anything before the world like crushed my fucking dreams and all about my fucking toys. Oh, I'm still mad about it. But that experience really made me so compassionate to like other people like I don't care how

dumb it is. I don't care how much money I haven't had. I've been like this since that day. Like I literally have been at a point where I don't have how much money I haven't had I've been like this since that day like I literally Have been at a point where I don't have money so many times and I'm still like giving money to kids or like Anyone I see who's like a teenager like trying to do something like I've bought so many boxes of chocolate bars When he's fucking little girl scout bitches and all these people that like come up like oh you want to buy a chocolate bar for a dollar I'm like fuck now I have to go home and I'll box a chocolate.

But sometimes I would just buy the chocolates, give them the money for it, and tell them to keep it. Like, you go home and you go eat the chocolate. You have it. But that's something now that like brings me so much joy is because I know what that means to these people that I meet, like these kids and like teenagers. Like, I know when I give them money or I do something like that for them, I know how it feels.

Well, I imagine how it feels. Like it's what I wish someone would have done for me so I do it non-fucking stop now. But I just want to say, if you ever see a child trying to sell something, just give them money. I don't care how broke you are, I've been brokeer than you. Give them money, please. Like don't let a kid go through that. I make sure every time I see it, I've been broker than you. Give them money, please. Like, don't let a kid go through that. I make sure every time I see it, I don't let it happen.

Like I never want a kid to experience that heartbreak. Like please just, if you see a kid out, trying to make a little money, just buy his fucking toy, buy his chocolates, buy the little Girl Scouts cookies, just do something for the kids, please. That was a tangent and a half. I just talked about so much random shit, but I really wanted to give you a comment on this background for my 100. Please. That was a tangent in a half. I just talked about so much random shit, but I really wanted to give you a calmness background for my 100th episode. I feel like it's a very

personal thing. I feel like we could celebrate with a little motivation, a little inspiration, a little get to know me better. Where's my voice going? Oh my god. Did I just lose my fucking voice? Oh no. God's telling me shut up. Okay. Wait, okay, my voice is back. Yay. Was that a loogie or what? It didn't feel like one. I'm gonna shut up for this episode But I do want to say a big thank you to everyone who has stuck with me this far or people that are just joining Thank you. I love you to absolute death. You guys have done so much for me and You don't even know like you don't even know what you've done for me emotionally like mentally financially like y'all literally have like Steered my whole life in a different direction that was not gonna be a good one if I kept going down the paths that I was going down

So I do just want to say a big Thank you and cheers to a hundred goddamn episodes I'm gonna get ready for a Halloween party and I'm gonna go drink my ass episodes. I'm gonna go get ready for a Halloween party and I'm gonna go drink my ass off. I'm celebrating this us, we, I just wanna say thank you so much for watching. If you are watching this on YouTube, leave this video a thumbs up and hit subscribe.

And if you're listening to the audio version on Apple Podcasts and Spotify, leave me a five star rating for the 100th episode. I've been over here running my mouth for a long time. This has really given me the perspective to reflect on how far I've come and everything that I've shared and the impact I've made. I still don't understand the impact I've made. Like, I don't get it, fully.

But having my first live event and it going so well and getting to meet all of you in person and not all of you. But like, a few hundred people that bought tickets. It made it very real when I could hug all of you and see all of you And it's like exactly what I thought it would be but better like I can't really explain it all I can say is thank you So here's the hundredth episode and cheers to a hundred more because I'm not shutting up no time soon We have a lot more to talk about everybody be safe take care of yourself and I will talk to you guys next Sunday safe, take care of yourself and I will talk to you guys next Sunday.