Aware & Aggravated - 48. The Cost Of Context Just Got Higher

Episode Date: September 14, 2025

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I have no clue what's about to come out of my mouth, so let's just run with it. No? Hi, friends. I haven't seen you in a minute. I've been gone dealing with my own personal life. Things not being good at all. I moved to Miami. As you can tell, Boots is here.

For those of you that don't know, Boots is the zebra. I have no notes. I have no idea what I'm about to talk about. But for whatever reason, I feel like I want to talk about the Charlie Kirk situation. I don't talk about politics ever or anything surrounding it because you can't get a straight answer for shit. it seems like everybody's yelling in every direction and you can't figure out what the truth is and like you can't figure out anything to even make it like an opinion for yourself so i've just not concerned myself with it because people will attack you one way or the other and that's usually

my standpoint is like y'all are screaming too much shut the fuck up but this time it's different and i feel like i have a different take on this situation than most people because i'm someone who's been vocal about evil being taken out when there is someone who's actually evil who is met with violence and met with death, I am happy about it. Like when the health care CEO got taken out, I was happy. I giggled because that was someone who was actually destroying people's lives and harming people for money. The whole situation where Charlie Kirk, that's not an evil that needed to be taken out. That's an unfair game. And for me to be someone who doesn't fit in with anybody's typical views on death and murder. I don't think all murder is bad.

Sometimes you have to take out a certain evil because nothing's going to stop it. Example, health care CEO. But this whole thing with Charlie Kirk, I'm noticing people really thought he was an evil that needed to be taken out. And that's a problem for a lot of reasons. but if I seem a little weird in this episode, it's my own personal shit. I'm just kind of like numbed out emotionally to a lot. But the whole Charlie Kirk situation, he wasn't as bad of a person as everybody has been led to believe. And I've gone through this spiral with a lot of different people. There are certain influencers in the internet or certain people just in general.

Political figures and even non-political figures who the internet just hates. There's like an uproar against a certain type. type of person. You hear certain like slander of people. And I've just kind of written a lot of people off as like, oh, they're a wacko. Oh, they're an idiot. The internet hates them. There must be a valid reason. Every single person who I've taken my own time to go watch their full videos that are not clipped out of context. It's changed my entire opinion. And I'm like, why do people hate this certain person? There's a lot of people who I agree with and don't agree with. But there's a lot of people who make a lot of valid ass points. It's happened to me and I can't just sit back and

watch it happen to somebody else without saying something. I've been slandered and people have taken things that I've said out of context and run with it in a complete opposite direction. People have said everything about me there is to say at this point. And the people who actually see me and know my heart and actually watch the shit that I post and the things that I say coming out of my own mouth. People who watch it in context, in the full context, see the truth of who I am. Nobody that's happy about Charlie Kirk's death, in my opinion, is seeing the situation for what it is. They've been taught to hate him by social media. It's kind of what I'm picking up on, but I'm someone who's dealt with being swatted, having all of my financial opportunities and

situations be halted dead stop because people ran too far with bullshit so luckily enough people see me for who I am but not enough people saw Charlie Kirk for who he was and what he was trying to do that was in context a lot of people saw it out of context and the way people were like celebrating and cheering about him dying that's where I can say this one ain't the one to cheer for. This ain't one where this was actually an evil that needed to be taken out. I'm not the typical type, like I said, who goes, oh, all lives are worth protecting. No one should ever be murdered. I've been pushed to points and I got canceled for talking about an ex who was destroying my life personally that I got pushed to a point I wanted to do that. So it takes a specific kind of mind

to understand. But for my crazy ass, a lot of people look at me like I'm fucking nuts and I'm insane. For me to be able to call this for what it is, wake up. Like genuinely, as much as people painted me out to be a certain way. Okay, even the crazy one is telling you you're fucking wrong. So also I have a lot of resentment right now because everybody who turned on me and destroyed my entire life for talking about murdering someone who is truly evil, all these motherfuckers are now on the bandwagon pushing how this person being murdered was okay i hope every single one of you gets the last bit of what the fuck you have coming to you truthfully i have my own resentment and my own shit getting triggered about that but this whole click baiting click clip farming

whatever the fuck you want to call it people take it things out of context are running too far we've hit the brink of it's gone too far this was like i genuinely haven't seen one long clip of charlie kirk never have heard him say black people deserve to die i've never heard him say gay people deserve to die i've never heard him say trans people deserve to die i've never heard anything like that and every single time you see someone come up to his mic any size shape or color he agrees them with respect most of the time if it's given he gives it like if you walk up as a normal person he would talk to you so i don't understand the whole thing because like that's the other thing we're going to talk about is this the terms people use to fucking freely like they can do anything and will use anything to get

you to hate people that they hate. So the whole thing of the racist term. Everybody's a fucking racist nowadays. That term has been so watered down and diluted. But calling someone a racist is the fastest way to gain unwavering support no matter how fucking delusional you are against a certain person. So to go and say anybody is racist, that is the quickest way to get a fuck ton of people to hate this same person without looking into it. That's its own point. But Charlie Kirk platformed Candace Owens brought her in on all the shit that he was doing. These are two people fighting for the same political and religious views. Okay, someone who's truly racist is going to base their decision of who they care about

and who they work with solely on skin color. He would have never platformed someone who is black. Candace Owens is black. He would never platformed her if he was truly only against skin color. They don't give a fuck if you agree or don't. racists actually hate everybody no matter what who what wouldn't wear why just because of a skin color so that doesn't make fucking sense i really feel like i'm beating a dead horse with trying to like talk about improve things aren't what people are saying if you go watch anything fully in context

you'll see it totally different that's what i wish people would have done for me but they didn't um luckily i didn't lose my life over it about people just slandering me in the wrong fucking direction enough where it worked but the other thing how i'm talking about calling someone a racist is the quickest way to get people to gang up against them, calling somebody, a Republican is now the way to get everybody against a certain person quickly. That's become one of the new terms. Like if people don't even know what you think or believe or anything, like I'm someone who's truly in the middle of politics. I've never given a fuck, but I'm annoyed. Genuinely, I'm pissed the fuck off that I've been forced to care about politics and get involved because

it's fucking everywhere and I'm realizing politics is in every single thing. It runs everything at this point. Like there's some kind of correlation back to it or people have made it correlate to things politically that don't have shit

to do with politics. Like it just seems like everything's politics now so I have to start paying attention. And I don't like shit on either side. To let you know how much I knew about politics from just the way that I've observed things, I thought liberals, Democrats, Republicans, and conservatives were four different categories of fucking people. I didn't know liberals were Democrats, and I didn't know conservatives were Republican.

Now I know that. But you've got two groups of people with the most extreme shit, and all you hear is the liberals and the conservatives going at it. Most people fall in the fucking middle. Most people have a grip on reality and are fighting for the same things. But that doesn't matter. If you say one thing that is not in a line with the left, or being a Democrat.

If you question something or say, well, I see that, but I also see this, they immediately say you're a Republican and mark you for cancellation. That's what I don't understand. Like the whole thing with the racist term, they use that to garner people to hate you. Now just being labeled as a Republican,

they fucking hate you. How the fuck you're going to tell me what I am and what I'm not? These people who are doing this don't give a fuck about people. They're just trying to use the hatred and use canceling people. They're trying to binge you

and force you into not talking and into talking about other things that they want you to talk about. Like it's a weird space to be in and it's very uncomfortable and it's it pisses me off a lot because like every single thing I do and say is nitpicked and my actual life is on the line in so many aspects financially. But now my physical life, it's been confirmed. If you are too far one way or you think certain things or you just want to make your own opinion, if you get marked As Republican, you're fucked. You can be killed for it. So great, cool.

Glad this is the climate we're in now. But I hope more people see through the bullshit and the fear tactics. Also, nobody's in control of nothing. Genuinely, the people that you think are in control, they're not in control. They're puppets. And people are playing these fucking puppets and pissing you off at the puppets. So you don't actually see who's in control and who's in power. What the fuck is going on with the Epstein files?

I don't know. but I think there's a lot of information in that that will reveal who's the true evil in power here. There's somebody else in power calling the shots. Trump don't do fuck. You know it. He's not actually in control of shit. I don't think Biden was in control of shit either when things are happening.

Because if you look at the Democratic Party, when Biden was in, now that I'm kind of looking back at it, a lot of things didn't fucking make sense and a lot of decisions did not get to be made. Same with the Republican Party. It doesn't matter who the Senate, who the this, who the fuck is in office anywhere. None of these people are actually in control. Because why can certain things not be set in place by the people who were told are in control? Because there is no control there.

Like I thought more people saw this and understood it. But I don't know. It's like also everybody wants to play the empathy game. Everybody's empathy to the fuck out. Nobody gives a fuck no more. Like I really feel like everybody is so numb. And how I truly feel is the world is done, bitch. Like, it's done.

Like, everybody just better enjoyed our last few years, however much longer we got and just fucking enjoy it for what it is. It's too far gone. Like, the way that social media is, the way that life is, the way that social media controls everything, it's done. It's cooked. Like, anybody can be marked for destruction and have the entire public turn against them. And I think that's the biggest disconnect with this whole situation with Charlie Kirk is like,

people don't see how other people could be happy about him dying but they also didn't see what was being shoved in their face to make them hate Charlie Kirk like this all seems like it was organized and that's the disconnect like people are saying you're you don't have empathy because you're laughing at his death I think everybody on both sides has empathy but nobody understands who's being brainwashed about what and that's what's causing like such a big fucking issue i don't think i'm going to say much more about that situation i'm just pointing out what i wish people would point out more is like when you see the internet intentionally turning someone who's not that bad into a fucking scapegoat call it out like

vouch for people's character i feel like that's this is a time where like people's character needs to be thought for and i'm someone who would say this for both sides like if there was someone on the Democratic side who got painted out to be a piece of shit and got killed for it but they actually weren't that way I would say it like my 4 you page is actually like both sides that's why I can kind of see the disconnect like I don't get how people don't see it like social media like our parents were right it is these goddamn fucking phones it is these phones I think there's also a big state of powerlessness like just throughout everybody because you see kids getting shot at schools and it's become a thing where like everybody's numb to it now, which is disgusting.

I've been vocal before in the past about saying I think school shooters should be skinned alive publicly and I will never go back on that. Children being killed is not okay ever. Everybody's fighting Gaza and Israel. I don't know what's going on. All I see is innocent children being blown the fuck apart and I don't like that. And I feel like people think Because people aren't saying things, you don't care. You have no humanity. You have no empathy. No.

You motherfuckers have just made it on both sides where people can't speak about shit without losing their entire livelihood. Like, that's the place that we're in now. But also, nobody can do shit. Everybody sees children dying and nobody can do nothing. So everybody's like, oh, nobody cares. Everybody cares. Nobody knows what the fuck to do.

I genuinely don't see any hope for any of it. I'm checking to see if that's how I truly feel. Like I don't feel hope for any of it. Like I said, enjoy the hand you've been dealt as far as you can and to the rest of this life. It's done. Like, this shit's cooked. There's no fucking fix it, I don't think, ever.

And I'm not saying that as someone who's like, oh, there's a different way. no, I see the fucking disconnect. I see what's contributing to everything. And there's no fix it because nobody can fucking come to an agreement. Nobody can entertain shit from either side. Like, nobody can stop for a second to say, oh, this might be contributing. No one's trying to understand.

Everybody's trying to accuse and shoot. That's the fucking problem. Nobody's trying to understand. Everybody wants to pop shit. And that's the place we're headed. There's going to be a lot less talking and a lot more acting. So everybody who's been talking real big dick all these years, I hope you come with the same power because liberals look weak. I'm sorry, y'all look like disheveled most of a time, can't take care of yourself.

If this really goes to a shootout, who's going to win? Like, are you sure this is a fight you want to have? You know what I mean? Like, I feel like Republicans have just been waiting for a moment to like unload. And it's like, stop. Like, this is where it's going to cross that bounds of like it's a free for all. and everybody it's going to be the sides versus each other but nobody sees what the fucking government's doing the government's got everybody in shambles on purpose that's what i'm saying

it's cooked everybody's fucking caught down here fighting in the middle and it ain't even fucking about that but something else i want to talk about is imposter syndrome and it kind of fits with this topic a little bit because everybody who i've met who's a famous celebrity whether it's a fucking famous singer or like an NFL player nobody is convicted and convinced that their impact is that high. I don't even feel like my impact is what it is. Like, nobody can see themselves truly in what they've accomplished or done. And from my own personal experience, like, there's a lot of times where I feel like what I say doesn't matter. There's a lot of times where I forget that I've helped a lot of people.

Like, there's been thousands of people, like over 20,000 people who have shown up. up for me on tour one but two have written me comments written me messages sent me things saying thank you for saving their life i'm someone who's saved tens of thousands of lives just by posting the things that i do on my podcast and i don't even see it i don't feel it i don't look at it like oh i've made this impact and nobody does but i've felt my own imposter syndrome because there's not a mark of like okay you've done this giant thing You've you're an NFL player. You're an athlete. You're an artist. You're a singer. You're a fucking businessman who's like done a billion dollars and shit. Like I don't have any big like accolades where you're like, okay, this is why Leo Skeppy is who he is. Because when I go out in public, I get recognized all the time everywhere. It does not matter how much is reflected to me in my life that I'm important and that I've made an impact. I don't see it. I don't feel. I don't. feel it. And it's my own personal hell to fucking live in, but that's my own imposter syndrome

where I don't feel like I've done anything substantial enough. There's not been an achievement that's like big enough to stamp. Okay, Leo, this is why you get this much attention. This is why you are stopped everywhere you go in positive ways. And like people are always come up to you saying hi. Like I get treatment like I'm an A list celebrity, but nothing in my mind has justified me doing anything big enough to hit that. Yes, you could logically say all these different things. I don't fucking feel it and nothing will make me feel it. But this is a widespread issue and why I'm going to talk about it is because people who actually have those stamps feel the exact way that I do. Big actors, big stingers, big NFL stars, like sports people. I've talked to these people.

I'm friends with a lot of these people. I just keep my shit under wraps. I don't associate with people online no more because they'll turn on you and flip shit out of fucking context. But all these people feel this exact same way. They have the stamp of this is why you're important. You've done something good. You've done something great. And they still don't feel it. Everybody's running around feeling imposter syndrome.

And I guarantee you, Charlie Kirk felt the same way. Even though he had all of the attention that he did, I genuinely don't think Charlie Kirk thought he was big enough or making enough of an impact to be killed for it. That's just one thing I wanted to point out. But like everybody's got this imposter syndrome. and everybody sees other people as more powerful than they feel that they are. Like a lot of people look at me, like I have done so much more and achieved so much more

than I ever think I will feel like I would, you know? Like everybody overinflates other people's sense of power. And I think that's what happened with Charlie Kirk. Like everybody online was intimidated and saw he was making a really big impact. But I doubt he felt like that. I can guarantee you he didn't feel like that. yeah he made an impact and i'm sure he saw it but like the same way that i feel and all the people that i've talked to about this we all feel the same way so it's weird how you can be the one

but you don't feel it like you can make the biggest impact but you don't feel like you have that kind of power but other thing i want to kind of bring up is like these people who are online and anybody who shares an opinion online you think that opinion doesn't have power but it does. A lot of people just making TikToks and making little stupid shit, even if you don't have a lot of followers, like people are still impacted and hear your opinions, but nobody is going to like reflect it to you most of a time. Like I've changed people's lives from a fucking TikTok and I didn't know until they

messaged me three years later and we're like, hey, this one video you made changed my life. Even when I was like building on social media and I was doing life coaching and stuff, one TikTok would change somebody's life. And then they would book a call with me. They wouldn't follow me. They wouldn't comment publicly. But it's like, the impact is made. You just don't know that it was made.

So everybody's opinion and voice matters in like a weird way, but everybody's going to underestimate how much power it holds. So like everybody's running around feeling powerless, but you're not. You just can't feel it. And that is a hell that I live in. And I feel like everybody lives in it. But people just are convinced, oh, I have to get to so-and-so's level to make an impact. Do I have to this or have to that?

But it's not. No, you're never going to fucking feel like that. It doesn't matter how much money you have, how many followers you have. You're going to feel the same way. And I don't mean this to be like a disappointing or like a disheartening thing. But like it's a double-edged sword.

Your impact means more and you are more impactful than you can even imagine. But you will just never feel it. That's fucked up. because like all these people who were contributing to the what's the name with charlie kirk they're like republicans hate you people have been saying like if someone is a republican they are racist like you turn people against republicans and they've contributed to this hatred and a lot of these people who are left wingers and like posting about their beliefs but have been spreading this shit like they're seeing oh my god i'm a little bit responsible for contributing to this

narrative and a lot of people who are reacting to charlie kirk's death live who are like these big democrats who speak out publicly and are pitting everybody against republicans saying every republican is racist and all this stupid shit i feel like their gut reaction is like oh fuck like they're being faced with the power that their words had and they feel responsible i don't think that their reactions are empathy i think it's fear and guilt for the shit that they've perpetuated about a person they knew was never that much of a piece of shit you know because a lot of these people are also getting caught like they get online and fucking cry and then behind closed doors they're talking shit with their friends oh ho laughing about charlie kirk dying it's like they're fake as fuck

and i don't like that i feel like a lot of people this is a wake up call and this is a division from fucking hell i don't know what to say i don't know what to do this just wanted to come out for whatever reason so i'm letting it come out i'm over it like i I'll talk about what's going on in my personal life in the next episode probably. But yeah, I'm just like, I don't know. I feel like it's the point of like, enjoy the life you got. This is it. Like it's only getting worse.

It's only gotten worse for a really long time. Like since COVID, it's just been shit on shit. And things are escalating now to a point. Everybody just needs to see you cannot trust what you see on social media. You cannot trust it. You can't trust the fucking news. And that's another reason that I can't make a fucking political decision because everybody's full of shit.

The news companies are paid to promote certain shit. They're controlled by whoever the fuck is controlling everything else. Nobody can give you a just clear-cut, straight answer. Like when all the riots were happening with ICE, the two sides, like I was watching it. I like couldn't understand why it wasn't. simple from the one standpoint that was overrunning social media. Like everybody was making fun of people being like, why the fuck are you waving the flag

of the place you're trying to like stay in? But the whole left and right thing, the right was making fun of the left saying y'all are fucking stupid, get him out, get them the fuck out, whatever. Most of the people on the left weren't fighting that illegal immigrants and criminals should stay in the U.S. The left was more concerned about like the way that people are being treated. like snatched out of their jobs, snatched out of their homes, inhumanely, and being taken to what everybody was calling concentration camps.

Like, they were in fear for the people who were innocent, caught up with the guilty, and were being thrown out like animals, and treated like animals. There's validity in both sides, but nobody was seeming to come to that consensus and be like, okay, the right sees the criminals and wants everybody out at all costs just in case, because U.S. citizens are being raped and killed. the left was like okay we get it with the criminals but you're snatching up innocent fucking people and treating them like animals you know what i mean so it's like i see why everybody's fighting i see everybody's just making fun of each other like it took me a while sorting through

everything on social media to understand that was the point of each side that was fighting but it's like people don't got the time like i don't have the time to go to go through every political issue and figure out what each side's fighting because everybody's just screaming nonsense like it's hard to make an opinion on anything because like I understand the point on the left but I understand the point on the right when it came to the illegal immigrants like you do have to watch your own ass but like the innocent people that happening to them you can't just like let it go but at the same time it's like how do you get everybody out like that's another situation nobody knows what the fuck to do but then it's like you have to

air on the side of caution of like better safe than sorry but you're gonna have to hurt people but it's it's a hard moral dynamic it's a hard situation to kind of talk about and like figure out but like you don't have time to make a standpoint or talk about things like when you're in the public eye you're forced to talk on shit and a lot of people are paid to talk certain ways about political issues and a lot of people don't think that's true. Influencers are paid to lean one way or the fucking other. Or they're bullied by the companies who pay them the most. They can threaten their livelihood if they don't talk how they want. So that's another dynamic. But anyone with the platform, you're not allowed to take time to understand what's going on. You have to speak as

as soon as you see what's going on. You don't get to know what's going on. You don't get to know details. You just have to speak. What is your opinion now? Everybody's like this at you. What is your fucking opinion and you don't know and then you're written off and then if you don't speak fast enough you're ostracized you're thrown to the shit you're demonized and if you speak too quickly because you didn't know same thing one way or the other like everybody's just kind of in like a catch so I don't really give a fuck anymore the world's cooked bitch so live it out have fun because I don't see no I don't see nothing getting better either it's going to have to get really really bad before it gets good or the world's just going to have to go to war so both are

shit but life as we know it is not going to continue for much longer so that's why I'm saying enjoy it because either something bad is going to happen and it's going to fix it and it's going to get better we're going to have to rebuild or the world's going to go to war and everybody's going to fucking have to go so that's our two options that's why I'm hopeless I'm at this point of like enjoy what you got ride it out and hang in there so yeah also i'll update you guys on the merch and stuff everybody who ordered some orders got delayed some orders had issues it was a giant disappointment for me and no matter what i did i couldn't fix it i couldn't make it right i paid out of my own pocket like 56 000 fucking dollars to make sure everybody could

get their stuff on time and it still got delayed and people were still upset and doing the personal like personally doing the customer service emails there's 3,000 fucking emails of people doing nothing but fucking ripping me and talking shit and just like vinting out all their problems at me because things weren't shipping fast enough and then something happened where a couple orders got shipped the wrong thing and it it was too much for me to keep looking at it I felt like everybody was just fucking disappointed and no matter what I tried to do no matter how much money I threw at everything it didn't work everybody just was saying, oh, Leo's scamming. Leo's this.

If you fucking think that, choke on a dick and die at this point. I don't give a fuck. I'm never the type to scam you. I ran myself fucking stupid, trying to make sure everybody was taking care of. I was trying to show everybody that I care about you. For a lot of people, it worked. A lot of people it didn't. Okay, fuck you.

I tried. Okay? That's the type of reaction you get when you push somebody. The empathy flies out the door. If you love me, great. I love you. Everybody's orders from the first round are out. I'm going to drop more in the future, but I'm going to wait until I feel better about it because I'm not fucking going through this shit again.

So I'm going to go back to my little depression nap I've been in. But that just wanted to come out for whatever reason. So there you go. I'll probably talk to you guys next Sunday. We'll see.