Aware & Aggravated - 82. Your Dream Life Will Cost You Your Current One. Stay Strong

Episode Date: June 25, 2023

In this episode Leo talks about moving to LA & how the life you want requires you to let go of your current one. He also shares some things he's learned from his Houston era as well as recently bing hit by a car, how to see the good side of bad times, and his relationship to happiness not having to look a certain way. This is a relaxed episode, but very deep and filled with some hard hitting truths. 🚗  TikTok about getting hit by the car:https://www.tiktok.com/@leoskepi/video/7246217304462183722?is_from_webapp=1&sender_device=pc&web_id=7248630394270058030✅ FOLLOW ME HERE:https://www.instagram.com/theleoskepi https://www.tiktok.com/@leoskepi https://www.snapchat.com/add/leoskepi😁 WWLD Submissions: https://forms.gle/sNtQjjwvXUisfdgh9🗳️ Vote on the topic for my next podcast episode: https://forms.gle/zLYrqARubCaLTKzT7👕 MERCH https://shopleoskepi.com/collections/...📱 MY APP POSITIVE FOCUS Apple: https://apps.apple.com/us/app/positiv...Google: https://play.google.com/store/apps/de... 🔒 MY PRIVATE FACEBOOK SUPPORT COMMUNITY https://www.facebook.com/groups/85129... 💎 1-ON-1 COACHING AND MENTORSHIP*Taking on new clients again soon.📝 ACCOUNTABILITY TEMPLATES/WORKSHEETS https://leoskepitemplates.comBusiness Inquiries:[e-mail]

I know my neighbors are mad. It's 2 a.m. right now. And I'm recording this. Hi friends, I'm sad. And yeah, I'm sitting on the floor because this is my last night in my Houston apartment. I'm moving to LA and I'm in my billions. I'm over here just like being whiny. I told y'all I'm committed to making an episode every week and if that means recording an episode of 230 in the goddamn morning before I move So be it and I figured for this episode. Let's just talk Let's have like a little heart to heart like a little like last moment together in the apartment But I want to share some things that I've learned From throwing my life away and then building my life into kind of like my dream life

And like how I did it what I learned and how I feel about moving and leaving it I'm upset. So let's start with an update of me right now. I came down sick three days where I was supposed to move. I feel like dog shit. All right you probably hear it in my voice I'm stuffy like a little toddler. I feel like ass I'm exhausted And this is the absolute worst timing that's gonna happen like I have so much to do and no energy for it This really is the worst time in to get sick, but I'm making the best of it I'm doing what I gotta do So let's start with this whole process of moving and how I've stayed positive throughout it

Because it's always like things going wrong for no goddamn reason. Like every time I move it's just like headache. So let's dive into some things going on and how I've kind of like shifted my perspective to not be like pissed off in a set because I hit my car recently. How am I just gonna throw that in there like that? Like just so casual.

Yeah, I hit my car. If you want the full story time, I post a one on TikTok, I'll link in the description, you can go watch. But I want to talk real quick about taking things as a sign, because a lot of people in my position would look at everything I'm going through and experiencing as like a sign not to leave.

So with getting sick a few days before I leave, I already bought the damn flight, and I already paid for my car to get transported. Ain't no take it back. Ain't no change it around. Like I'm committed to moving. And that's the biggest thing that people mess up with when they want something.

You like half ass commit. I'm fully committed. So nothing is gonna sway me. And that's kinda like when the universe is gonna test you to see how committed you are. Cause when you recommit, things weirdly fall in line after they get chaotic. But I'm not looking at getting sick as a sign that I shouldn't move.

I had a friend recently told me that when you level up your life too fast and you shift the realities and you quantum leap too fast, your body is like a physical thing and it can't keep up with your spirit and like what you're achieving in the vibrations that you're like advancing into. and like what you're achieving in the vibrations that you're like advancing into. So your body kind of like gets sick and it's funny if I look back on my life. I mean it's time I made a big shift or quantum leaped. I literally get sick. Like my poor little body can't keep up. I'm like, oh, it's so cute. But it is annoying as hell. Like I'm sick of being sick. But I don't know how valid that is or how true it is. So it's just a cute little perspective. So I don't get mad when I get sick.

I'm more of like, okay, yay. Like I need to like be easy on my body. Give it a little sleep. Give it a little water. Give it some vegetables and shit. So it like feels better. Like it makes me shift the perspective on my body when I'm sick.

So I wanted to share that one. And my friends the other night through me a surprise going away party, which my friends have never done that. I've never had friends who have like put the effort into doing that. And they also bought me a Versace bag. My little heart. Like, it's so meaningful to me. Like, I'm so sentimental. I'm such like a little like tough stuff asshole, but I'm so sick today. I mean, like, I'd be carrying about little things. But for my friends to like put that much effort into me to like, don't be a surprise party.

Mint the world. But that's when I got hit by the car. It's when I was walking into the dinner. Oh my god. I'm okay. I'm fine. Like I handled it right. And I wanted to fight. I was ready to go. When I hopped off that hood, I told the guy, you know, get the fuck out. Because I was ready to go at it. But I handled that situation very differently than I used to or like the old me would have. So when I got hit by the car, I like wanted to fight. Like that's just my go to,

I wanna beat some of that ass. But the guy didn't get out of the car, and it gave me a chance to think. And I was like, okay, I'm outside in a public place, there's people all around me. I don't know who's watching, I don't know who's recording. I don't know what's going on outside of like me and what I'm outside in a public place, there's people all around me. I don't know who's watching, I don't know who's recording. I don't know what's going on outside of me and what I'm experiencing. So this isn't the first time where I've logically been able to think even

why my adrenaline is going. I'm good at being on the spot. But when I'm in attack mode, that's very different. I lose all sight of logic and reason. This is the first experience that I've had where I thought for a second. And I handled the situation so right. Like I was okay, I was fine. And I was gonna jump on the windshield and smash it.

But I did it. And when the guy didn't get out of the car, it made me like stop. And I thought about everything, I thought it through. And I was like, Leo, just walk away. Just walk away, just walk away. And I I was like part of me wanted to run so bad because I have so much to lose now I have so much that can be taken away and for me to just get arrested or Go through some stupid shit like this like it's not worth it at all

So I literally just like Thought about it and a lot of people would look at the situation and be like okay That's a sign you shouldn't leave. Or whatever, they'd assign some meaning to being hit by a car and having that whole little fiasco. But what that experience did was kind of like test me. And I showed myself how much I've changed. Like I showed myself that I contrast myself

even when I am in attack mode. And that's something I used to not be able to control. Is like when I get ready like that in fight or flight mode and I'm like, my sights are set on someone or something to like attack it. Like I got confidence that I'll handle it right and I'll think it through and I won't just risk everything that I care about and love and like the things I'm working on and the things that I have. I'm not willing to risk that anymore. And even when I'm in my attack mode that I used to not be able to control that whole situation made me realize I do have control over it. And it's not like a bad thing or a bad omit. I look

at that like a big gift to myself because go into LA and Moving now. I'm moving with more trust in myself. I'm moving with more security and safety with myself where These circumstances can happen and I'll just be ready to throw everything away because I can't control myself when I get angry Like there's never been getting a little pissed off. I'm very emotionally controlled But I'm talking when someone hurts me or there's like a threat or something like that, when I get into attack mode, that was something that was like, everything was out the window. No logic, no reason and give a shit about a consequence. But that whole situation just like repaired that with me and like, now I feel so much more confident. Like, I'm able to think, I'm able to think I'm able to control myself at any extent and I'm so like

relieved like holy shit so like I said I'm not looking at it like it's a bad thing or a bad omit or anything I looked at it like it was the universe kind of like preparing me for what I'm about to go through because I'm about to move to a whole new city. And just that emotional stability that I realize they actually do have now is so nice. I can't be fucked with. I'm truly unfucked with a ball. That's fun. So now I feel a lot more confident about my move to LA and handling things right no matter what. Like I have that ability. I knew I always had it, but I haven't had to like act on it yet. So I'm very very grateful Did I have a car but I'm still mad that the car was dirty. It was a nice as being w

But like we'll take your car to the car wash before you hit me with it That's fucking annoying I was covered in dirt and I had to go to my dinner The next thing I want to talk about with moving is I'm excited, but I'm extremely sad. And I want to kind of break that down. And a lot of people talk about things after they've gone through them. And that doesn't help me. So I want to talk about this as I'm going through it and how I'm keeping myself sane.

Because it's easy to just talk about things. Oh, like you've overcome it. Like, this is something I overcome every single day and things that I'm facing. So like, I want to talk about them. So logically, I understand going to LA and leaving my life here that I've just built for the last year is what's best for me. I can logically see how that's what's in line and what's going to help my career and help me achieve what I want to achieve. It logically makes sense, but emotions are not logical. So, me being sad about it is normal. And that's one thing people don't realize, and that's one thing I have to check myself on all the time is like, okay, Leo, you're sad, but why? Like, I'm having to give up my entire life and go

restart and make a whole new one for what I want. And that's something people don't really talk about a lot is the cost of the life you want to live is your current one. So all the things that make you feel comfortable and safe and all the things that are known, even if you have a life that you don't really like, it's still comforting in a way because it's known. Like you know it to go

into the unknown is scary like there's no comfort there's no stability there's no nothing you have to go create that and I do have it under my belt that I moved to Houston a year ago and I've done this but just because something logically you know it's right it's like leaving a toxic relationship you logically know it's what's best for you but it does not hurt less. Like for me, to give up my entire life here and go restart, I'm still allowed to be sad, even though it's a logical decision and I'm going through with it regardless and I'm sticking to my guns on that. I'm still sad and I'm still kind of like down and I'm going through the motions doing what I have to do,

getting everything packed and moved because it is the right decision and I'm gonna go through with it. I am still taking care of the part of me that's sad and it makes sense though. Like, I finally found true friends. Like, what I thought was friendship before, the people that I've met and the people I've become close to have like, I can confidently say now that true friendship exists. Like the dream friends have always wanted their real. You will meet them. You will find them. Like I found them and they found me and it's the best feeling. And it hurts even worse to have to kind of like leave them behind

and move. And I know I have friends already in LA, but I'm just like, fuck, because the people I have here it's like They've really changed a lot for me and they've healed my entire relationship with friendship And I believe in it now and I believe there's people like me out there because I've found them like I've become close with them And I've felt valued by them like beyond comprehension and I know it sucks to have to leave them and I'm very very fucking sad about it, but I'm doing what I need to do for myself anyways. So I want anyone watching this to relate that to their own life like with a relationship or anything that you're doing like logically it can make sense that this is the right decision, but that's gonna come with a lot of pain and are you gonna go through it in any way like me moving to a lay his

Painful as fuck, but that's what I need to do for my bigger picture what I want So I'm willing to do it Be pissed about it. I'm gonna be upset and I'm gonna cry not in front of nobody I don't let nobody see me cry, but I'm gonna just be that on my own Nobody see me cry, but I'm gonna just be sad on my own Now I want to talk about taking risks and how the first time you take a risk is Enjoy a bitch enjoy it when you don't know what's coming It makes it so much more enjoyable and it's so much more

Beautiful like there's so much more fun in it and when I first moved to Houston I didn't know what was coming. I didn't know what moving entailed I didn't know what it was like to completely reconstruct your life and not knowing what went into it made it seem easier and I was able to just jump because I didn't know what was off the cliff and All the things I was gonna face and what I was gonna have to go through. Had I known what was gonna be there? I don't think I would have jumped as fast as I did. I would have like, tried to over prepare and like overthink everything. But taking a risk when you don't know what the fuck is gonna happen is beautiful. Like there's so much beauty and not knowing what's coming.

And the reason I'm saying that is because all the things that I faced with building this life that I have in Houston, I was able to take it once that by the time as I became aware of things I needed to do. So I was just like living and going through it. And it was fun. And it was like, oh, this is just what happens. Now I understand what all goes into throwing away your life and then going to build a new one. And I'm kind of like,

damn, like, now that I know what goes into this to move to LA, I'm kind of like, god damn it. I know I'm going to hit that wall of sadness. I know how hard it is going to be to reestablish everything I want and building security and feeling like secure again and finding my little rhythm. It's gonna take a while. And I know that because I've been through it now. Like the first time you do something, please enjoy it. Please enjoy just not knowing because the second time you do it, now you know it goes into it and it's a lot harder. Like it's just, like I'm excited, like I said, but I'm also sad that I'm giving up my life,

but I'm also like, God damn, like I'm about to have to go through all of these things again that I just did. But like I said before, I didn't know that we're coming. So I was able to like handle them a lot easier. Now I'm like prepared when I go to LA, I'm like, I'm gonna have my week where I have to get situated, it's gonna be an absolute shit show.

I'm gonna have to meet all these people, do all these things, learn all the roads again, find the gym that I want to go to. Oh my god, like, oh, yeah. It's so much. So please, if you're going through something for the first time, or you're considering taking a risk, just do it. And enjoy the hell out of it the first time Because the second time you do it or when you want to flip again

You're just gonna be like Like And another example of not knowing what's coming. It's like Everybody wants to know what their life's gonna be like how it's gonna go how things are gonna be You don't want to know You do not wanna know, because when I was 19, had someone told me, Leo, the thing that you say that you want,

and the life that you wanna have, you're gonna get it, but this is what you're about to go through for the next six years. Are you still gonna go? Had I known the pain and the things I was gonna face before I went into it? Like if you lined me up and said these are all the things that are gonna happen,

this is all the ways you're gonna get fucked up in your life is gonna be ruined. Are you still gonna go through with it? I 100% would not have done it. I would not have done it. Because it kind of takes away from like the destination. It's like, yeah, I'm gonna get where want to go, but I have to go through all these shit first. Oh, no.

Like just not knowing and just going through life is so nice. And I no longer want to know things about the future. Like let me just build and go as I go. And that's another thing I want to talk about is as you go through things, you build. Like you, you, you are builds and get stronger And who I am now versus who I am when I first moved to Houston To completely different people. I've become like 12 different people since I moved here a year ago, but my tolerance

To everything is so much higher so like my tolerance to overwhelm to everything is so much higher. So like my tolerance to overwhelm by being so overwhelmed, I learned how to deal with it. And now my threshold for dealing with a lot going on in overwhelm and heartbreak and tragic things happening is so much higher. Like I've been able to function now and still be under immense pressure that I used to not be able to handle. I would have folded.

Like if you took me now and me a year ago and put us in the same situation, he would have folded. I will never fold because I've learned by going through the overwhelm and not escaping it, but going through it and looking for a way through, not a way out, it built me. And it raised my threshold, but with overwhelm and pain and sadness and all of that, my threshold for good things happening has also raised. I'm able to handle these good things. I'm able to create these good things and have all this happen.

So as you go through the periods where shit gets really bad, you're building the tolerance to it. You're building the tolerance and like your exercise and the muscle to be able to deal with it. So if shit's bad, look at everything you're learning and look at everything you're learning and look at everything you're

learning how to deal with. Cause like my last few months of my life have been so overwhelming. And me three months ago versus me now, me three months ago, when not even have been able to handle this move, like to work on everything that I'm working on and do everything that I'm doing and still uproot my entire life, old me couldn't do it. Me now is like having a rough fuck of time, my body shutting down and sick, but I'm able to handle it mentally, if that makes sense. Like I'm able to handle it mentally and emotionally, I'm able to like actually get these things done because I've gone through everything, but that's the thing is I didn't know what I was gonna have to go through and when I was going through it, I didn't realize I was being built, then being made

capable of handling what was coming that I asked for. So when shit gets bad, just remember we say in that, like you're being prepared for what it is that you want. Trust me as someone who seen the worst, so the worst of it, through the worst shit you can imagine. It's for a reason and it's building you. You're not being punished, you're being prepared and I will die on that hill. Now I wanna get a little vulnerable and share something that I haven't talked about online before. And it's something I didn't really realize until now

and the past couple weeks is, I've never felt like I've had a home. I've never felt at home anywhere. And I'm not talking about a sense of belonging. I've never felt like I belonged either, anywhere or fit in. But I've never felt like I have a home. I feel like I just stay places and I just kind of like, I'm there.

I don't ever, I've never felt like I have a home. And I'm talking like ever in my life because I was constantly like back and forth between so many different areas and places and people and things. And by value in myself and living my life where as soon as I don't feel a value and I leave, I've like bounced myself around so many places, but I've never been able to get stabilized. And that led me to never feeling like I have a home or like a consistent place. And even when I moved to my first apartment in Houston, I also had me level up into this one. But in my first one, I never felt like I was at home. And even in this one, I never felt like this was my home. I felt like I was just

staying here. And that's something I'm still like exploring on my own, but I've had a lot of realizations around that. I just wanted to express that to everybody. Like, if you feel the same way, I do too many. Like we're right here together. And I've realized, I talked to my sister about this because she feels the exact same way. I don't feel like I have a physical home.

I have my home in me. Like I am my home and I've had to learn that and adapt that from when I've been through and not ever how a consistent place that I live. Like my home is with myself. So no matter where I go, I am my home and that's kind of the realization that I have. But that's nice and it's comforting. But I am gonna make my new place in LA homey. I'm gonna try my best to decorate and make myself feel like I'm at home. Why am I fucking itching? Is there a bug bite in me? Or am I getting electrocuted? I don't know what's going on.

But yeah, that's my goal for my new place, is to make it feel like a home. And I'm going to have to decorate a little bit differently, because like the way that I decorated this apartment was like viby as fuck. Like I finally got some money, and I finally like got my own style, and like I can afford to buy like everything I want to buy. But this time when I move to LA, I really want to have my home feel like a home. Because when I'm going through chaos and everything going on, I need a comforting like tranquil place to come back to.

And my house has always been that, like my apartments have been that, but I want to set like intention of like creating a home for myself outside of my physical body. Like I want my place I live in, my environment, to feel like my home also. You know, like I want it to be just an extension of like, the way that I feel at home in myself. So I'm gonna try and do that. Cause honestly, just living in your mind

and having your home be inside you is only gonna be comforting for so long. Cause like, everyone tries to transcend and like get out of the human experience. Girl, we're stuck in it. We're all stuck in a human body. I don't care how spiritually you want to be. My head and my heart and like my emotions and my mind are all like a very comforting place. I've worked on that relationship with myself and made my home in myself. But I am still a human being. And I want to have the physical environment. Be a like that too. So like you're

not wrong for wanting to like tap into the physical like world and that's one thing a lot of these little spiritual people do. We're like, oh I'm only healing Juni and they try and like transcend the physical. No, you need to get grounded in the physical. You need to use the physical for what it can do. And if basically transmuting what I feel inside of me into my environment is gonna help me, I'm a zoo-weight, cause like dealing with the levels of stress that I'm under and the pressure that I'm under, it is a lot.

Yes, I'm able to deal with it, but I need to find new ways to comfort myself and kind of deregulate when I am stressed. Like I want my home to be a place of stability and comfort and like ease, not the way I've been doing it. This is kind of like a tangent for no reason but whatever. So the last thing I want to hit on this episode and just kind of like share with you. This is just like a stream of consciousness video. I don't know. Maybe I won't even release this if it's not good. I don't know. Y'all tell me.

Leave me a comment telling me if it's good or not. I know what I'm sharing is good but like it's not structured the way that I usually do it. It's just more just like, girl, I'm on the floor! Okay, I'm sick, I'm sad. Leave me alone. But I want to talk about happiness really quick. My whole relationship with happiness and the way I'm able to be so happy all the time

and regardless of like what my life looks like, it's because I don't have my happiness be dependent on life-looking or being a certain way. I can find happiness in anything. Like, yeah, I'm sad, I'm sick, and whatever, but I'm content sitting right here on the floor. Like, I'm having fun. And that's something that I've had to learn to do

is be able to find happiness with anything, and it's when you don't attach it to looking and feeling a certain way. Like your life doesn't have to be a certain way and you don't have to have certain things and be with certain people to find moments of happiness and things to be happy about. Like the whole having your home and yourself thing that helps it because it doesn't matter my external. I'm happy inside. I can find happiness anywhere and that's something I had to practice. So like people that are going through a lot of shit and that's when I learned how to do it is when I was going through a lot of bad

stuff. So the people that are going through really rough stuff right now, this is your time to practice looking for happiness anywhere you can. Don't attach it to looking a certain way or being a certain way or making it be dependent on hitting a certain goal. Like be happy now. Look for ways to be happy in the present. There's always something. I don't care how small or how stupid it is. There's happiness to be found anywhere. And a lot of people always ask me like because my life is constantly like in an upheaval and it's so chaotic and it's so like changing so fast. And I'm not saying that in a negative way like it's chaotic.

Like the people that are in my life see how much I deal with and see how much is changing and flipping. Like how do you do it? And I'm like, I just look for the happiness in it. Like I look for any little moment that I can and look at the piece of it. But like my biggest thing recently I've been telling myself is life is meant to be an adventure So that's one way I've disconnected my happiness from things being a certain way because a lot of people would not be able to go through a move like I'm going through and Remain happy or remain positive in a good mood like I'm not happy all the time

I'm an angry ashtal when I wake up tired, fuzzy, sick, like I'm not having a good time But just by telling myself life is meant to be an adventure makes me feel more able to handle what's going on in my life because when you are expecting your life to be stable and consistent and easy and smooth and like that's not going to make you feel good when things don't go that way. So when I say life is meant to be an adventure it's meant to be chaotic, it's meant to be chaotic. It's meant to be changing.

So when you're not looking at your life like something's going wrong, boom, you release the resistance to finding the happiness. So when I get really stressed out, literally just saying life is meant to be an adventure, it makes everything happening not wrong or bad anymore. Like this is expected. For the life that I want to live,

this shit's meant to be an adventure. It's meant to be chaotic, it's meant to be changing all the time and changing non-stop. There's meant to be heart breaks, there's meant to be happy times. But just granting yourself that kind of permission to allow yourself to not have to be a certain way releases so much tension and pressure and stress and it's like, I'm along for the ride. Like, when you make your life going wrong or being painful, not mean that anything is wrong about it, it just feels better. So that's a big way that I find happiness and absolutely anything. I don't tell myself that my life is wrong or things are going wrong

or that they're bad. This is part of life. Life is in it. Inch. See? And my other perspective that I hold with this is happiness is not a requirement for the things that I want to do. So a lot of people go through life and they force themselves to like only do things that make them happy or they think that if something doesn't make them happy It's the wrong thing. You're fucking yourself by putting that label on it. Happiness is not a requirement for anything that I do. If moving to LA if I forced myself like it has to be happy. It has to be good. Everything going on right now I would be 10 times more stressed because I'd be looking at it like it's not meant to be happening. This is all expected.

So even though there's not happiness right now and it doesn't seem like that great and positive and all of this and that like like I said logically it makes sense whether this is the best move for me, but emotionally it feels like hell. Sometimes that's going to make you think something's gone wrong and it's like people just can't do something if they aren't happy. It's like bitch you don't have to be happy. As soon as you take off the requirement of having to be happy, you're free to actually find the happiness in the process. It's not that hard. That's just something I really wanted to talk about, but does that make sense? Like when you force things to have to be happy or you have to feel good while you're doing

it, it just blinds you and it kind of like puts this expectation of like, if it's not going this way, it's going wrong. And when you think something's going wrong, it makes you feel worse. So you're not going to be able to be happy. Does that make sense? Am I wording it right? Oh my god, it makes sense of my brain. My sick brain. Those are all the points I really wanted to hit for this video. Just like I made a

little like guide of like, okay, talk about these things and then shut up. But I'm excited for a lay. And I'm excited for this next chapter of my life. But I am sad during this little process. But there are happy times and sad times, but like I said, life's an adventure. This is all part of it. And I know you're just as excited as I am to see what the hell we're about to do. Because you're in this journey with me.

We miss the governor. Just comfort yourself along the process. Just comfort yourself and go through it. Like I've related it to leaving a toxic relationship. It's gonna hurt, it's gonna suck. But just comfort go through it. Like I've related it to leaving a toxic relationship. It's gonna hurt, it's gonna suck. But just comfort yourself through it. Like you understand why you feel the way that you do, but you're gonna stick with your logical decision.

And when you commit to things being set, like committing to leave this place, that leaves no open space for questioning if anything is even going wrong or is a sign I shouldn't do it. I'm just committed to it and I'm committed to figuring it out. I'm committed to finding a way to really. So relate that to your life however you need to. But it's three o'clock in the morning girl. I'm tired. So I guess this is it. This is the end of the Houston era and I just want to thank you guys for

coming along like the road with me and this is just the beginning bitch. It's just gonna get better from here. We are just like we've been on a little steady and client. This shit's gonna go I'm gonna go pack up this podcast equipment and go my tired ass to bed. If you want to keep up with parts of my mood with me, I'll be posting it on my social media, but I also joined Snapchat. And I've been posting a lot of shit there because Snapchat finna run me a bad girl. People make a money on there. So I was like, okay, here I go. But I've been posting a lot on there, like more of my day to day and things like that.

And I'll be posting a lot about my move. So y'all know I post everything. So if I'm sad, I'm sad. And if I'm happy, I'm happy. And I'll post about it. But that's all I got for this episode. Everybody take care of yourself. Be safe. And I will talk to you guys next Sunday in LA.