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Episode Date: June 3, 2023

Abandoned by William Clark Russell audiobook. Genre: adventure On the morning she is meant to become Mrs. Reynolds, Miss Lucretia Lane walks down the aisle with a secret dread she cannot explain, and... the ceremony ends in scandalous silence. Captain Francis Reynolds, a hard-tested officer of the British Merchant Service, is certain his new wife loves him - yet she refuses to speak to him or live with him, leaving both families stunned and humiliated. When word arrives that Reynolds has been grievously injured and wishes to see Lucretia one last time before sailing, she rushes to the ship in a storm of duty, anger, and confusion - only to be caught in a decision that cannot be undone. What begins as a desperate attempt to hold a marriage together turns into an extended, globe-spanning ordeal: long passages at sea, harsh shipboard discipline, perilous weather, and the relentless pressure of isolation. As years pass and reputations, identities, and loyalties strain under the weight of the ocean, Lucretia and Reynolds are forced to confront what they truly fear in each other - and what, if anything, can be rebuilt after betrayal and captivity. For ad-free listening try our premium subscription Chapters (Approximate) (00:00:00) Chapter 01 (00:28:33) Chapter 02 (00:56:31) Chapter 03 (01:32:12) Chapter 04 (02:06:23) Chapter 05 (02:47:57) Chapter 06 (03:25:20) Chapter 07 (03:58:40) Chapter 08 (04:31:01) Chapter 09 (05:05:56) Chapter 10 (05:37:57) Chapter 11 (06:17:52) Chapter 12 (06:50:56) Chapter 13 (07:25:39) Chapter 14 (08:03:46) Chapter 15 (08:52:37) Chapter 16 Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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Starting point is 00:00:00 abandoned by william clark russell chapter one the wedding miss lucretia lane stood at the toilet-glass in her bedroom in cheapstow place bayswater dressing herself for her marriage she was watched from the embrace of an arm-chair by a young lady who was to accompany her to the church and who was dressed for the solemnity how in a hat and jacket and skirt for this was to be a very simple ceremony and miss lucretia was putting on her hat and her hat and her hat and her shirt for this was to be a very simple ceremony and miss lucretia was putting on her hat and and thrusting pins into it, and toying with it as ladies do with their headgear when they adjust it, whilst her friends sat and watched her. Miss Lane was a handsome, tall, well-proportioned, finely-molded young woman, aged 24, with dark red hair, large, shining brown eyes, a little Roman nose, a firm mouth with red lips, a throat of a rich whiteness, close-seated ears delicately tinted like certain beautiful shells, a low, square, tranquil brow, dark and clearly,
Starting point is 00:01:00 penciled eyebrows, white, ivory-bright, even teeth, rather small hands, the fingers long and nervous, and the nails so shaped, that taking them with the ears, and a certain delicacy in the carving of the liniments of her face, you would have guessed she had a strain of good old blood in her. The other girl, Miss Constance Ford, takes so small a part in this story that there is no occasion to say more about her than name her. You had better make haste, said Miss Ford. Do you know what the time is? I am certain that it was Major Stroud, who knocked some minutes ago. What makes you linger and pause so? Don't you feel well, La Cretia? La Cretia turned her head slowly, brought her fine eyes to bear up on her friend and said,
Starting point is 00:01:42 with a slight frown and a note of temper, don't tease me. Miss Ford stepped to the window and looked out. It was Wednesday in September 1890. Villas over the way, dull sky, with shadows of fog looking like rain clouds, hanging over the pointing fingers on the chimney-stacks. A piano organ under the window began to play Old Robin Grey. Miss Ford started to sing. She sang audibly, with her face averted, and her eyes screwed into their corners upon Lucretia. My father argued, sir, my mother did not speak, but she looked me in the face till my heart was like to break.
Starting point is 00:02:18 They gied him my hand, but my heart was in the sea, and so old Robin Gray, he was good man to me. lucretia went on fiddling with her hat what ailed the girl was she going to be married to old robin gray was her heart in the sea how should a young woman look while she is dressing or being helped to dress for her wedding she is taking a momentous step the event is the most significant that can happen to her in all her days it is more heavily freighted with consequences than the circumstance of her birth it is a harbor out of which she will sail into an ocean wider and more awful in its appeals to its demands upon her five mortal senses than the imagined life into which the grave cradles as the launch ship is cradled the disembodied and therefore the functionless spirit how should a young woman look then on the eve of her marriage not surely in the main as lucretia lane looked she was extremely fidget the rovings of her fingers were often aimless. She sometimes trembled. Several times Miss Ford had observed Lucretia's reflection in the glass talking to herself. It might have been suspected by a medical observer
Starting point is 00:03:27 that had a strong man been rent with the mental conflict which was obviously raging in the heart and in the soul of Lucretia Lane, he would have sweated. Lucretia, not being a strong man, was suffering from the war within her after the manner of her sex, at least of those of them who cannot put down their foot and mean, though their heartbreak as they resolve, that their yea shall be yes, and that their nay shall mean no. I think I had better go downstairs and tell them that you are coming in a minute,
Starting point is 00:03:54 said Miss Ford. As she spoke, Mrs. Lane entered the room, a comely, clean little gentlewoman, aged about sixty, with the word neatness writ large on every turn of her. A trifle bustling with nerve as she entered in black silk, black lace, and jet cape, black bonnet with white feathers rather rakishly perched on a black comb, a woman of whom you might safely affirm that her bedroom would be a model of folded-up things, a woman to touch and adjust objects into symmetrical bearings, on whose bedroom mantelpiece, for example, the shepherd and the shepherdess would be exactly equidistant from the marble clock and the painted china candsticks. She did not seem to observe her daughter's manner, mood, or bearing. Her mind was capable of dealing with one idea only
Starting point is 00:04:41 at a time, and the idea that now possessed her was not the face of her daughter as the girl stood before the looking-glass putting on her hat. Not ready yet, Lucretia, cried Mrs. Lane, who always gave her daughter the full pomp of her baptismal title. The major is downstairs walking about with his watch in his hand. He thought he would be late, and actually ran a part of the way, and as scarcely got his breath yet, you know how impatient he is? All these little retired India men are, and irritable. I think we are most fortunate to have got him to give you away. He is afraid the clergyman won't wait if he's kept. How long are you likely to be, dear? Two minutes, answered Lucretia, without turning her eyes from the mirror into which she was directing their beauty and brilliance, and which was reflecting
Starting point is 00:05:25 a countenance, clasial in expression. Under that sort of ice of reserve, what a vast number of disagreeable and dangerous properties may be floating. I'll go downstairs and keep the major company, said Miss Ford. And as she passed Mrs. Lane, she whispered, lucretia seems very uncomfortable you are quite happy at heart my darling i hope said the mother getting hold of that idea and none other and approaching her daughter to look at her reflection in the toilet-glass i cannot make haste if you talk to me mother answered the girl there this hat must do she put on her gloves and went downstairs followed by her mother whose face wore an expression of uneasiness and surprise as well it might about the little parlour flitted with agitation the figure of major straw a shape of bristling whisker and wiry moustache, buttoned up in the form of a cask of ale in a frock-coat, and there was temper in the Indian duskiness of his eye.
Starting point is 00:06:20 Miss Ford stood in the window. On the sideboard were displayed the wedding gifts. From Major and Mrs. Stroud, a silver tea service. From Mr. Featherbridge, a full-rigged ship under a glass shade. From Miss Giddens, a silver-mounted paper knife. From Miss Ford, a set of silver salt cellars. From Dr. Phillips, who could not come, the works of Shakespeare. From an old servant who was married, a biscuit tin. From Mrs. Lane,
Starting point is 00:06:46 a watch and chain, a diamond brooch, and gold bracelet, the gifts of her husband, deceased. I am sorry to have kept you waiting, Major Stroud, said Lucretia. I'm afraid we shall be late as it is. Are we quite ready? answered the major. But the irritability went out of his eyes as he looked at the handsome girl, bowing to her and then smiling. The marriage was to take place at St. Stephen's church, which is within a convenient walk of cheapstow place they might have driven but they chose to walk lucretia walked with her mother the major and miss ford behind them mrs lane endeavoured to get her daughter to talk but the girl was extraordinarily silent she would answer yes or no or i don't know languidly abstractedly with a visible and indeed pronounced inattention as though she was under a spell or as if she was in that sort of sleep in which the slumberer responds to questions without recollecting anything that was said when she awakens.
Starting point is 00:07:44 Mrs. Lane was without much talent, and therefore unequal to the establishment of any sort of satisfactory hypothesis. Even the intuition of the mother failed her, that marvelous penetration which is nature's gift of the interpretation without mental effort. In a foggy sort of way, she desired to believe that her daughter was too high-spirited to appear to be fretting over what was not indeed to prove an immediate farewell to her mother in home,
Starting point is 00:08:09 but which was nevertheless the most absolute of all solutions of continuity, a complete severance in effect, though she might continue to dwell for a long time with Mama. Mrs. Lane remembered that she had felt this way herself when she was married, when she wanted to cry whilst walking up the aisle on her father's arm, and made strange faces under her veil to hide her emotion. Little did she foresee, good woman, the bolt that was to drop with a meteoric blast at her feet. At the church door Major Stroud gave his arm to Lucretia, who took it with an exterior of frigid impassivity, and together they approached the altar preceded by Mrs. Lane and Miss Ford.
Starting point is 00:08:49 A few spectators spotted the sittings. Though all ends and parts of London swarm with business and hurry, there are always plenty of people with leisure enough to make a crowd at a wedding. Even a walking and hated and jacketed wedding is sufficiently extraordinary, in an age when, of course, people are very seldom married, very rarely born, almost never buried, to delay the yelp of the milkman, to arrest the motion of the perambulator, to retard the delivery of Sir Thomas's piece of salmon, and to bewilder the blind man following his dog upon the pavement. Some figures were near the altar, awaiting the arrival
Starting point is 00:09:26 of the bride. There was nobody answering to the appearance of old Robin Gray amongst them. One was a tall, deep-chested, clean-shaven man, with a strayed nose, standing out a little in a sort of seeking way. Greenish-gray eyes, like saltwater in soundings, hair parted down the middle, close-cropped like a soldier's, a rather military-looking man on the whole, with something marine in the motions of his body, as though he was on board ship in a small seaway, under thirty years of age. His smile was slow in formation, like that of an actor whose business it is to keep his face. He had very good teeth, which made his slow smile
Starting point is 00:10:04 like the gliding of sunshine upon his countenance. He was Captain Francis Reynolds of the British Merchant Service, and he was waiting near the altar in St. Stephen's Church to be married to Lucretia Lane. His best man stood near him, Mr. William Featherbridge, a brown-eyed, bearded person of 28, sheep-like in steadfastness of gaze, but with hence in his shape of considerable alertness at the call.
Starting point is 00:10:29 of duty. Captain Reynolds, as Lucretia approached, viewed her with a face moving with love, and a smile eloquent of devotion and of manly affection. She did not meet his eye. Her face was uninterpretable. You could not have detected the least quiver of lip, the faintest hand of agitation, and any of the smallest working of the liniments of her countenance. The deuce alone knows how it was with her, what she was about, why she was there, why, being there, she did not look the radiant maiden. She did not bear the label of the rosy and modest virgin who was to find a blissful haven for life in the manly bosom alongside of her. Some who watched her put it down to nervousness. Some to that sort of conceit which makes people superior to any kind of situation
Starting point is 00:11:15 they may happen to find themselves in. Some to acting. None, not even the mother, not even the bridegroom, who, standing next to her looked at her marble hard face a minute before the clergyman began to read, attributed the girl's behavior to the right cause, which was an impassioned sense of chastity dominating all other emotion with the vigor of hysteria, yet without force of spirit in it to subdue her to the nun-like path she scarcely knew whether she wished to tread or not. She was in a state of mind that froze the sources of feeling,
Starting point is 00:11:47 that closed the portals of every corridor of the heart and soul, that numbed the brain till volition was mere mechanism, till the will might have been compared to a dumb and sterless raven perched upon a bust, like that of palace in the poem. The clergyman began to read the service. The responses were scarcely whispered by Lucretia. The officiating minister, a curate, looked at her over his spectacles somewhat pointedly,
Starting point is 00:12:12 then at the man whom he was transmuting into the golden state of husband. God what! In the vestry, Captain Reynolds took his wife's hand, and, with a face full of love, sought to kiss her. But she shrank from his lips, almost shrank indeed from her mother's, and the name which she inscribed under that of her husband was scarcely legible for the tremors that ran through her hand. Captain Reynolds' face was clouded. His eyebrows were arched into a fixed expression of astonishment. He was profoundly confused,
Starting point is 00:12:42 and looked about him with perplexity. In the vestry he received an inquiring stare from his best man, Mr. Featherbridge, and his answering glance was as blank as that of the gaze of a man in a black room. He offered his wife his arm, and she took it, and together they walked down the church to the door followed by Mrs. Lane. The others lingered to join them a little later on. The moment they gained the pavement, Lucretia withdrew her hand. Mrs. Lane, said Captain Reynolds, Creche will not speak to me. What is the matter? What have I done? La Cretia, exclaimed Mrs. Lane, who walked on her daughter's right, and who spoke in a voice that showed that tears were not far off. I cannot understand your conduct. Do you feel ill,
Starting point is 00:13:22 my darling? No. Does your marriage make you unhappy? said Captain Reynolds. She returned no answer, keeping her eyes obstinately bent upon the ground. It is such a wretched beginning, said Mrs. Lane. I gave my sanction. I thought you both wanted this. Whatever is the cause of this change in you, Lucretia? I can scarcely hear what you say with these omnibuses and cabs and boys whistling, answered said Lucretia. I do not think it very kind of you, I am sure, said Mrs. Lane, in a whimpering way. It is very hard upon Frank. I could not have treated your father like this, certainly not at the very outset.
Starting point is 00:13:59 It is incredible, she said, projecting her head past her daughter to peer at Reynolds. What will our friends think if you carry on like this? The husband of a few minutes was dredging his wife's face with his eyes, but could find no meaning in it outside its beauty pleading to him. no hint to convey a physical or spiritual explanation of the mystery of this sudden metamorphosis. He was bitterly concerned. Could it be possible that she was mad, that she had suddenly given light to a latent but pregnant seed of hereditary distemper, a strain in the family that had been concealed from him,
Starting point is 00:14:32 a quality of intellectual structure of which the girl and the mother herself might have been ignorant as a part of the paternal or maternal legacy? He had kissed her often. She had never repulsed him. they had often sat together alone in the twilight hand in hand a couple are seldom married without certain happenings having gone before memories of the tender green of the may of love were sweet and scented between them it was not to be supposed that she could forget all of a sudden she must remember everything though she gave no visible expression to recollection by dramatization of her mood he felt that she should know better than to act like this she was now his wife she could not get away from that she had always been very willing to marry him what in the devil's name had gone wrong with the fine creature yet never was his love more consuming than whilst he walked to chiepestowe place with the beautiful chaste animated statue he had wedded the moment the house door was opened lucretia passed in ran upstairs to her bedroom and locked the door captain reynolds and mrs lane walked into the parlor where a hired waiter was trimming the refreshments cakes ices chicken sandwiches fruit jellies and so on with champagne
Starting point is 00:15:48 doesn't she mean to return do you think said reynolds oh dear her conduct is most extravagant and unintelligible she ought to be in the drawing-room to receive our guests i haven't the least idea what to do and the eyes of the neat comely little gentlewoman fairly streamed It must be a passing fit, said Reynolds in a low voice, frowning and tapping the floor from the heel with the toe of one boot. It may be a matter for a doctor. I'll go upstairs and see what she means to do, said Mrs. Lane. Stay in the drying-room, Frank. If she keeps on like this, some excuse must be made. We must say that she's ill. But, oh, how silly of her, and what an awful position to place us in!
Starting point is 00:16:29 And she trudged upstairs to her daughter's bedroom, whilst Frank went to the floor above where the drawing-room was. Who's there? exclaimed the voice of Lucretia. It's I, your mother, answered Mrs. Lane, talking at the door handle which she had turned without producing further consequences. For goodness sake, unlock the door and let me in that we may talk rationally. There is yet time. The people haven't arrived, though they are coming. I don't mean to live with Captain Reynolds, said the voice of Lucretia. A pause followed this terrific remark. The mother scarcely seemed to hear, or hearing, to understand. The black bonnet with the white feathers swayed from side to side like the head of a listening hen.
Starting point is 00:17:10 What? Then gasped Mrs. Lane, and seizing the handle of the door with both hands, she shook it as though she had got hold of her daughter crying, let me in! How dare you behave like this, miss? Forgetting that the miss was now Mrs. Do you want to break my heart? Open this door, Lucretia. I don't intend to live with Captain Reynolds, said the lady in sides.
Starting point is 00:17:35 speaking with such deliberation that there was the interval of a pulse at least between the dropping of every syllable. Now, this girl had sanctioned and expressed a light in Reynolds' arrangements for them after marriage. They were to take a run to Edinburgh and the North for a week or so, and then the bride would return to her mother and live with her until her husband's return. Why don't you come out and join Frank and me and behave yourself properly, cried Mrs. Lane. No answer was returned. Captain Reynolds, on the lower platform, came on to the landing to listen. When, as he swiftly did, he discovered that Lucretia did not answer her mother,
Starting point is 00:18:12 he called out in a loud, stern, sea voice. She's my wife, Mrs. Lane. She has no right to withdraw herself from me. If she will not open the door, I can easily put my shoulder against it. The house was small, and the captain's voice very filling, and the hired waiter stood half in and half out of the parlor door with his left ear cocked upwards, and a grin of astonishment on his face, while the housemaid, with a nosegay in her bosom, listened at the front of the staircase.
Starting point is 00:18:40 Lucretia could not fail to hear Frank's voice. She exclaimed from her bed on which she had seated herself, You may tell him that if he attempts to force, I will swallow this bottle of poison I am holding. Mrs. Lane shrieked. At that moment the hall bell rang, and the house door was hammered upon. With the echo of her shriek, as it might seem, on the expression of her, of her face, poor Mrs. Lane went downstairs, and with a toss of both hands, cried, I can do nothing with her. She threatens to poison herself if you approach her.
Starting point is 00:19:11 Is it not a case for a doctor, said Captain Reynolds? Shall I go for Dr. Phillips, and explain matters and bring him round? Dr. Phillips can't help us, moaned Mrs. Lane. If I can't influence her, how should Dr. Phillips? Major and Mrs. Stroud, said the housemaid, and they entered, and were quickly followed by others of the invited, the curate who had officiated, Miss Giddens, Miss Ford, Mr. Featherbridge, and one or two more. The major was a little man who asked questions. Conversation with him consisted of a series of interrogatories. He was a Paul Pry, always hoping, without saying so, that he didn't
Starting point is 00:19:50 intrude, and intruding to a degree that he was often offensive. He rather relished the misfortunes of others. He was one of those people who, according to the French cynic, find some something that does not displease them in le maud d'auteur this major with all the rest must instantly have seemed there was trouble in the little house and so consistently with his nature he went to work to ask questions whereas mrs reynolds he inquired rolling his eyes over the room as though he expected to see her shape herself out of a cabinet or an arm-chair she's not very well major responded mrs lane discovering the greatest disorder of spirits sincere uneasiness and much misery by her manner not well cried the major why she was quite well ten minutes ago people sometimes fall ill in one minute said mr featherbridge what can be the matter whispered miss giddens to miss ford she was very singular before she went to church and very remarkable during the service was the reply faintly delivered i am afraid we intrude said mrs stroud can i be of any service asked the curate who stepping close to mrs lane added in her ear i did observe a strange constraint in your daughter's manner at the altar which made me fear she was not quite happy at heart she refuses to live with her husband said mrs lane in a ghastly whisper the curate who was blue about the upper lip and cheeks and had a face like a beardless saint without a halo in a church window composed his face into the exaselessly exact posture of a whistle. The expression arrested the eye of the major, who fearlessly took a step
Starting point is 00:21:26 towards the pair. "'Now what is all this about?' said he. "'Mrs. Lane, I plead the privilege of a friend. "'At your request I gave your daughter away. Why is she not here?' The poor woman, looking at him under her white feathers, seemed to crack nuts, and rather spelt than pronounce the words. She declines to live with Frank. "'Oh, that's all damned nonsense,' burst out the major. she is legally compelled to live with him what's made her change your mind they seemed so very much in love i thought she was deuced cold during the service where is she shall i go and talk to her i'm not a man to stand any tomfoolery if she were my daughter she'd either favour me with a very complete explanation or shall i go and see her all this he exclaimed in so loud a voice that the whole room was in the secret and many looks were exchanged i am truly sorry dear mrs lane said mrs stroud very kindly our presence can only be an intrusion under the circumstances i am awfully sorry said mrs ford going up to the widow with her hand extended but you'll find she'll come round it's mere petulance too ridiculous in a girl that's just gone through the ceremony to be regarded serious
Starting point is 00:22:39 do please take some refreshments before you go sobbed mrs lane and ten minutes everybody had cleared out save captain reynolds and his best man mr featherbridge mrs lane and these two gentlemen sat staring into vacancy said featherbridge breaking the silence i have often thought that marriage is like the great sea serpent when it's not seen it's believed in and when it is seen it's not believed in i'll go up and see her cried captain reynolds starting from his chair. No, exclaimed Mrs. Lane, also starting from her chair. She has a bottle of poison. She will drink it. I know she will if you attempt to force by thrusting against the door, or even talk threateningly to her. I beg pardon, Captain, said Mr. Featherbridge, with something of the deference of an officer to his skipper. But may I make a suggestion? Suppose you leave Mrs. Reynolds for the day, and call tomorrow and see how things are going. It's just what I could wish, exclaimed Mrs. Lane. It's the advice I would give you, Frank. the mood she is in nothing can be done i am sure well you may be right said the unfortunate husband slowly and gazing with a little bewilderment round the walls much as he had looked in the vestry it's a violent strange change something quite outside any bearings i can take could any girl have been more loving i suppose people can have fits of mind just as they have fits of the body this seems a fit of the mind as if it was epilepsy and she had fallen on the floor with a shriek or two insensible so much the more reason for her for her own reason for her for her own sort of her own sympathy so much the more reason for her
Starting point is 00:24:09 for giving her time then, sir, said Featherbridge. Just so, said Mrs. Lane. A night's rest and reflection may work wonders, and I am here to reason with her. Is there a hotel in the neighborhood? asked the captain. Yes, quite close in Princess Square, replied Mrs. Lane. They've let my diggings, or I should return, said Captain Reynolds. Why, he continued pulling out his watch. We ought to be in a cab going to the station for Scotland. Well, till to-morrow, till to-morrow. He sighed and frown. He sighed and frown. and abruptly left the room, unwilling that his face should be seen. Mr. Featherbridge shook hands with sympathetic ardency with poor Mrs. Lane and followed Captain Reynolds out of the house.
Starting point is 00:24:50 Mrs. Lane went to her bedroom to remove her bonnet and cape and put on her cap, and then went upstairs to her daughter. Who's there? Your mother. What do you want, mother? Frank and Mr. Featherbridge have left the house. You can open the door, said Mrs. Lane. On this the door was unlocked, and the mother entered. scarcely, however, could she command her faculties to address her daughter when the housemaid arrived. The waiter wants to know, please, if he's to remain. Give him this half-sovereign, and send him away, said Mrs. Lane, pulling out her purse. Lucretia had removed her hat and jacket, and stood with her hand upon the toilet table looking at her mother. Her hair seemed to glow as though there was sunshine in the room.
Starting point is 00:25:29 It would be absurd to say that her dark eyes shone with the fire of resolution that was like wrath, because the eyes do not change. It is the eyelids and eyebrows which dramatize those motions of spirit which the eyes themselves are believed to express. If this were not so, the actress's face would be a very imperfect representation of the part she takes. There was certain nobleness and dignity in Lucretia's bearing, which was owing to a sense of supernatural triumph of chastity, of a conquest of virtue by something even higher than virtue, as the cold star is more exalted than the lonely peak, moon-like with virgin snow, that points to it at some prodigious mountain altitude.
Starting point is 00:26:09 Frank has left, began Mrs. Lane. I don't want to hear his name mentioned, interrupted Lucretia. The mother strained her eyes at her daughter's face. She could find nothing to hint an insanity, not the dimmest monition of aberration. She was, as she had always been, saving that now she had taken to herself a stateliness of demeanor, an importance, and even pomp of bearing.
Starting point is 00:26:31 Lofty and victorious as though her soul was swelled with exultation, over the issue of her extraordinary battle. Why did you go through the service, Lucretia? Ask her mother seating herself. I felt the change coming over me whilst I was dressing, answered the young wife. Mother, it was agony. I had not the courage to declare to myself I would not marry him.
Starting point is 00:26:52 I ought to have had the courage. I can never live with him. But you'll wear his ring? Oh, yes. I don't mean to be faithless to myself. I know what I am and how I intend to remain. how we shall be talked about what is the value of the opinion of a few handfuls of dust in skirts or frock-coats i know that i have acted with sickening stupidity but that is my concern i am still queen of myself and slowly and deliberately i do not mean to live with captain reynolds a gleam of good sense at this moment irradiated the darksome cells of mrs lane's brain what could be more transparent than that her daughter was in no mood to be reasoned with
Starting point is 00:27:35 that the application of the remedial drug in her condition of mental sickness was certain to injure her and not benefit her she might be managed with patience she must be allowed time for reflection you may soften a tough steak by beating it but you shall not mend a broken leg with a mustard leaf mrs lane influenced by good sense quitted her daughter and went downstairs to find that five pounds worth of refreshments had been left on her hands untasted by god-helper the wedding guests end of chapter one recording by patty cunningham chapter two of abandoned by william clark russell this is a libberbox recording all liverbox recordings are in the public domain for more information or to volunteer please visit liverbox.org recording by Patty Cunningham Abandoned by William Clark Russell Chapter 2 The Medical Certificate Next day, shortly after 12
Starting point is 00:28:35 Captain Reynolds called at Cheapstow Place He was shown into the parlor And Mrs. Lane speedily arrived She was pale and agitated When this poor woman's spirits were fluttered She could not keep her seat But flitted about the table lifting a pinch of her dress and pinning it to the table's side, so to speak,
Starting point is 00:28:54 as though she would fasten herself securely. Well, said Captain Reynolds, with profound anxiety, what does Creece say? I am sorry to answer that she is as obstinate this morning as she was yesterday. Indeed, she is firmer and harder. She will not listen to me. She declares, in the most imperious way, that she will not live with you.
Starting point is 00:29:14 Reynolds' face darkened as though to a sudden scowl of the sky. He held a stick in his right hand. He raised it to his left hand and broke it with an unconscious and obviously involuntary effort, looked at the pieces, and threw them into the grate. The strength of the stick, the ease with which it had been broken, the mood the action expressed, frightened Mrs. Lane, who pinned her pinch of gown to the edge of the table half a dozen times in as many seconds. Can you, as her mother, give me any idea why she will not live with me, said Captain Reynolds.
Starting point is 00:29:47 None. None whatever, answered Mrs. Lane, shaking a little. her head. Has she explained her reasons for refusing? No. She told me that the change came over her whilst she was dressing for the marriage. It worked in agony in her, but failed to give her resolution enough to decide not to go to church. All the rest of her words may be summed up in her one determined remark. I do not mean to live with him. He put his hand in his pocket and pulled out an envelope containing perhaps half a dozen letters. He replaced the envelope without looking at its contents.
Starting point is 00:30:19 I was reading them, he said. Last night, they are a few that I like to carry about with me. She calls me her darling, and tells me that she is mine. One letter, not a fortnight old, he pressed his hand upon the pocket containing the envelope as though his heart that beat close under was painting him. It is full of love of everything that a man could wish to read in a letter from a woman he is shortly to marry.
Starting point is 00:30:43 What have I done to deserve this treatment? What have I been guilty of, that she should take her love and her marriage vows away from me? Is she at home? Oh, yes. But do not attempt to see her, cried the mother. But why not? Why mightn't the very sight of me induce a change in her, and bring about what you must wish, surely?
Starting point is 00:31:02 Again, his brow was dark, as though his face was shadowed by a thunder-squall in the sweep of the wind over a heaving deck at sea. She knows you were coming. Had she wished to see you, she would have said so. Her threat to poison herself haunts me like a nightmare. I know she is in that state of mind when she could commit some frightful, heartbreaking act if you attempted by roughness or command, or any other manner you might adopt, to bend her mind, which is now as rigid as that poker.
Starting point is 00:31:29 The little woman spoke with unusual energy. Conviction of the truth of her views compacted her reasoning faculties and supplied ideas and words to her tongue. Will you go and tell her that I am here, that I wish to see her, if only for five minutes, said Captain Reynolds. Oh, yes, but I know what her answer will be, answered Mrs. Lane, moving to the door as though she was weary, and she went upstairs, whilst Captain Reynolds stood at the window with his arms folded and his lips set, as though his teeth were clenched behind them. Mrs. Lane was at least a quarter of an hour absent, and at every sound Captain Reynolds started
Starting point is 00:32:05 and looked and listened. When at last the old lady returned, he stared beyond her, but she was alone. She began to pin her dress to the table as rapidly as her fingers could work whilst she exclaimed. I knew how it would be. She went to her bedroom and locked me up with her, and then turned me out and locked herself in again, and she swears that the thought of living with you is dreadful to her. She would rather die, and as I am sure she has poison hidden in her bedroom, she will kill herself if you persist. She burst into tears. Goodbye, Mrs. Lane. I don't know when we shall meet again, said Captain Reynolds,
Starting point is 00:32:39 and taking his hat from a chair he walked out of the house. He repaired to the hotel at which he had slept and wrote a letter of six pages to his wife. The letter was lighted with flashes of sentiment. It was moving with impassioned appeal. It teemed with memories of kisses and endearments, of promises, vows, and hopes. He described his life of loneliness on board ship
Starting point is 00:33:02 and asked her why she had abandoned him, why she refused to know him as her husband, when in a few weeks his ship would be sailing, when in a few weeks the solitude and the desolation of the ocean would be his without the light and love of her spirit to brighten the hours of the solitary watch on deck to set up a beacon of home upon which he could keep his eyes fixed which should be as a star to him to bring him round the world of waters to his love he posted this letter though it was written within a few minutes walk of cheapstow place and making his way to a cab-stand got into a handsome and told the man to drive to mr turnover solicitor in a street out of whole place and making his way to a cab-stand got into a hansom and told the man to drive to mr turnover solicitor in a street out of whole mr turniver had acted for captain reynolds in a lawsuit which arose through a collision at sea he was a bald bland little old man with streaks of faded yellow whisker gold-frame spectacles dressed in the rusty black that charles lamb loved and had he worn shoes with bows he would have thought him shod in keeping they shook hands and captain reynolds sitting down told his story it is certainly a very singular case said mr turnover there is one celebrated case of the sort, but it differs from yours because the parties had apparently agreed to separate
Starting point is 00:34:13 at the church door. The husband, if I remember a right, left the country, and on his return after some years, claimed his wife who refused to live with him, on which he kidnapped her and locked her up. Reynolds frowned and looked at Mr. Turnover steadfastly. Her friends obtained access to her. Her case was brought before the courts who decided that by the law of England, a man has no right to detain his wife against her will. Is that so? said Captain Reynolds. Quite so, responded Mr. Turnover. The husband must not use force.
Starting point is 00:34:47 If he does, the law will punish him. But is not there such a thing as restitution of conjugal rights? inquired Captain Reynolds. Yes, but in your case, as in the other, no rights were ever established by cohabitation. There is, therefore, no infraction upon which to base an appeal for restitution. Good God, what extraordinary laws we have in this country. "'Claimed Captain Reynolds.
Starting point is 00:35:09 "'But I am quite sure, rights or no rights,' said Mr. Turnover, "'that you would never get a judge to sanction the detention of your wife by force and against her will. What would you call force?' "'Imprisning her in her home and setting a guard over her.' "'What do you advise me to do, Mr. Turnover? I am in love with my wife. I was, as I have told you, yesterday married to her in the presence of her mother and others. I am legally entitled to possess her.
Starting point is 00:35:36 Yes, but even in post-nuptial arrangements, there must be two to a contract, said Mr. Turnover Blanley. It seems to be a case of perversity. A mood let us hope that will pass. I once said to Mrs. Turnover, I compare a man and wife to a mill in stream. The mill turns one way, and the stream runs the other, but betwixt them both, the grain is ground. Not in my case, said Captain Reynolds grimly. Are you leaving the country? Yes. Shortly, Mr. Turnover? I sail in command of a ship on October 8 next. Your wife may come round between this and then, said Mr. Turnover. Her mother, I presume, is well disposed to you. Oh, yes, she is bitterly cut up by her daughter's conduct. I am pleased to hear that, said Mr.
Starting point is 00:36:22 Turnover. Often in these matrimonial troubles, the mother-in-law is as the snake that lies coiled round the stem of the flower that hides it. Some mothers do not like to part with their daughters. They are unwholesomely and unnaturally jealous of the husbands, especially if the marriage was in opposition to their wishes or ambitions, or, I regret to say, interests. If I were you, I would trust your mother-in-law to help you with her influence, and leave the rest to the good sense of your wife. Captain Reynolds paid the lawyer his fee and left the office, having got as much value for his money out of the law as most men commonly receive who deal with it. Who was Captain Reynolds? And who was Mr. Featherer?
Starting point is 00:37:01 bridge. One of these men fills an important part of this sea drama, and whilst the captain sits over a chop and a half a pint of sherry in an old inn in Holburn, thinking of how by rights he should be enjoying life with a handsome young wife in Scotland, and what he must do to get hold of her, we will expend a few minutes in some account of him and the other. Reynolds was the son of a gentleman farmer who fared ill on the goodly fruits of the earth in Essex. He received a middling education to the age of 14 when he was sent to sea as an apprentice in a sailing ship in the English merchant service, vulgarly called the mercantile marine. He rose to command several tramps in sail and steam, and two mail steamers, but having run into a ship in a fog, he lost his birth in the company he served, though he saved his certificate and was glad to accept the command of a sailing vessel called the flying spur of 1,000 tons, owned by Mr. George Blaney of Ledenhall Street. She was bound to Poposa, a port in Chile, some distance north of Valparaiso, and her very commonplace cargo would consist of bricks, coke, and coal, and of nitrate of soda on her return voyage.
Starting point is 00:38:12 Reynolds had saved a few hundred pounds, but he would have found, if questioned, no justification in his occupation. or prospects for marrying, which was doubtless his reason as a sailor for getting married. He had hoped on his return from this next trip to take his wife to see with him on a voyage, then establish her in a little home in some district where rent was cheap and where her mother might live with her during his absence. But what are the expectations of man? He certainly never, amidst his most gilded and expanded dreams of the future, could have conceived himself sitting on the day following his marriage,
Starting point is 00:38:48 over a chop and a half a pint of sherry and halburn, a more lonesome man than Daniel at his pulse, or crusoe over a kid's stake. Mr. Featherbridge was the son of a schoolmaster, and learning had been applied to him when a boy at more ends of his person than one. He had been caned by the paternal hand into a considerable knowledge of Latin, which was irremediately lost on his first voyage when beating down the English Channel, and a liberal equipment of mathematics, which he preserved, and which helped him in after years in passing his sundry examinations. He, too, like Reynolds, had been sent to sea as an apprentice, and they had been shipmates on several occasions. Indeed Reynolds had a warm liking for Mr. Featherbridge, and when his friend served under him a second mate, he dropped the dignity and importance of command, though he was extremely reserved to the mate, and walked the deck with Featherbridge in his watch, and talked to him. to him with the pleasantness and candor of a brother. Thus it happened, when he obtained command of the flying spur, he sent a line to Featherbridge offering the birth of maid of the ship,
Starting point is 00:39:55 and we now understand why it should have been that Mr. Featherbridge was Captain Reynolds' best man at his marriage. It will be supposed that Captain Reynolds was careful that his wife should know his address. He received no answer to his letter dated at the hotel in Bayswater. He took a lodging near the Millwall Docks where his ship was loading, and made a second impassioned appeal to his wife. And he also wrote to Mrs. Lane, entreating her to help him by using her influence with her daughter, and telling her that his heart was aching for Lucretia, and that it must break with grief at sea if she made no sign before he departed, as he would be able to think of nothing but his wife. Mrs. Lane answered in a letter expressed in affectionate language, but could give him no hope.
Starting point is 00:40:37 lucretia was as chilling and determined as ever she had been and reddened with impatience and temper if her mother hazarded the subject of her husband mrs lane thought that the extraordinary mood which possessed lucretia had not had time to be modified by thought by recurrence of emotion which could not have perished by the sense of dutifulness and loyalty which might visit her when she reflected upon her marriage vows she strongly advised frank not to dream of calling as another visit could only end in a deep degree of obduracy, and personally, such a visit as he had last paid, was so trying that she felt she had neither the strength nor the nerve to confront such another experience. So Captain Frank Reynolds found himself completely blocked out from the avenue at the extremity of which, on the pedestal of sentiment, irradiated by the rosy light of his passion, stood the cold, chased statue upon whose finger he had passed the ring which made her his, though there was no piece of sculpture in England at that time,
Starting point is 00:41:38 though there was no picture of a beautiful woman hanging up on any wall in the country, more distant and hopeless to the yearning of love, to fruition of desire, than the wife, whose parrot cry was, I will not live with Captain Reynolds. On Tuesday, October 7th, Mrs. Lane and Lucretia were at table in Cheapestow Place, finishing lunch. It was about half-past one, the day very bright and the air fresh, but the hearth trappings of the summer still decorated the grate in that little parlor. Lucretia was dressed in gray cloth that closely fitted her figure and expressed its ripeness and beauties.
Starting point is 00:42:15 Her hair was dressed high in the Greek style, and it shone upon her brow in a neglect of red-gold threads, the effect of which no artist in hairdressing could have produced. She was somewhat pale and her looks were cold, but her fine eyes were alight with a strong spirit that was her husband's despair, and you witness the nerve character of the woman in the long white fingers with which she dismounted a beautiful Persian cat from her right shoulder onto which it had sprung without eliciting a scream or causing a start the house bell rang and the knocker clattered it was natural that mrs lane should exclaim who can that be i wonder and turn her head to look out of the window though of course the person at the hall door would be invisible to her the servant came in and said to mrs lane mr featherby Bridge would like to see you, ma'am. Where is he? Hissed Lucretia. The servant slung her head sideways to intimate that he was in the passage. In the drawing-room, hissed Lucretia, screwing her thumb up at the
Starting point is 00:43:14 ceiling. What can he want? inquired Mrs. Lane, as though she addressed a ghost. Go to him, mother, said Lucretia. I shall be in my bedroom. She paused to add, but make him clearly understand that my mind as regards to living with Frank is absolutely made up. It is impossible. and with something that resembled a shudder of disgust in an instant's convulsion of her form she went from the room of very hermione of a figure mrs lane with an expression on her face that reflected the prophetic promise of her soul to her of trouble mounted the staircase and entered the drawing-room mr featherbridge stood at the round table in the middle of the apartment bearded slow-eyed yet with alertness in the suggestion of his legs he bowed to the old lady with the funeral solemnity of his own lady with the funeral solemnity of the apartment of an undertaker. And indeed, had he been receiving pounds a week for the talent of his face, he could not have looked more solemn and afflicted. I am sorry to be the bearer of ill news, he said, on which Mrs. Lane laid her hand upon her heart. Indeed, I wish I could call it
Starting point is 00:44:19 ill news. He gazed at her wistfully. Your son-in-law, Captain Reynolds, has met with a terrible, a frightful accident. Yesterday he fell through the main hatch into the hold of his ship, and is so injured that he is dying and may be dead before I can return to him. Oh, goodness me, how shocking, cried Mrs. Lane, breathing quickly. Dying, do you say? He may be dead as I talk to you, answered Mr. Featherbridge. Look at this, he added, and he drew out a letter which he gave to Mrs. Lane, who immediately groped behind her for her spectacle case,
Starting point is 00:44:52 and put on her glasses with hands which shook as though she had been running down a hill. The letter went thus. Hours of consultation, 10 a.m. to 1 p.m. 20, Gloucester Road Gravesend, October 7, 1890. I have examined Captain Francis Reynolds and find him suffering from a compound fracture of the left leg, from fracture of the skull, and also from fracture of three or four ribs on the left side. He is severely collapsed, and this points to some internal hemorrhage, probably from rupture of the liver or kidney, but he is too ill to stand more minute examination, so I cannot state definitely, which is the injured organ.
Starting point is 00:45:34 It is quite impossible to remove him to hospital, and I fear that he will not live for more than about ten or twelve hours. H. Padgett Symes, F-R-C-S. Poor fellow, oh, poor fellow, whined Mrs. Lane, who was seeing to him! I got a professional nurse last night from Gravesend, answered Mr. Featherbridge, receiving the letter, and viewing Mrs. Lane with his slow, melancholy stare. He is sensible, and his dying request is that he must see his wife, and I have come to ask her to accompany me to the ship to say goodbye forever, and to give him that one kiss which will send the poor fellow to his rest with a smile upon his face.
Starting point is 00:46:14 Oh, she ought to go. She will go, I am sure, cried the widow. It must be her atonement. Oh, how shocked she will be! Give me that letter. And with a respiration full of sobs, do rather, to nerves than to the mind, for consciousness had scarcely lit time to absorb the full horror of the report. She went to her daughter's bedroom. She broke into it rather than walked in. What has he come to say? asked Lucretia. Read that, answered Mrs. Lane, handing the certificate to her daughter. Lucretia's cheeks paled to the aspect of white wax as she read. How horrible, how awful, she exclaimed as the surgeon's certificate sank in her hand to her side. Where is he? Why, at grave's end, sobbed Mrs. Lane. No, on board his ship, I suppose. You see, the man says he couldn't
Starting point is 00:47:01 be moved. He may be dead whilst I am talking to you. Was he conscious when Mr. Featherbridge left him? asked Lucretia, with an incomparable expression of horror and fear in her face. I suppose he was, blubbered Mrs. Lane, because he sent Mr. Featherbridge to ask you to come and see him to say goodbye, forever, goodbye. It is most awful. The sentiment that had induced Lucretia to accept Frank hand, to sweeten into a smile under the pressure of his lips, nay, to impel her to the altar with him, faithless infidelity, an egoistic loyalty that was ignobly treacherous to her lover and husband, this sentiment was stirring in her as she held the letter listening to her mother. "'Come down and see Mr. Featherbridge,' said Mrs. Lane. She left the room, and Lucretia followed.
Starting point is 00:47:49 Mr. Featherbridge slightly bowed. "'Do you think there is no hope?' exclaimed Lucretia. "'Absolutely none,' said Mr. Featherbridge. "'You have read that letter?' he added, sending a glance at the certificate in her hand. "'Is he sensible?' asked the wife. "'At intervals,' was the answer. "'He sent the nurse to me this morning, and asked me to go to you and bring you to him to say farewell. "'I hope you will come.
Starting point is 00:48:13 "'It is a sudden and shocking end, and I trust Mrs. Reynolds, "'that you will not make this event more heartbreaking than it is by refusing his dying request.' "'You must go. "'You must indeed, Lucretia,' cried. Mrs. Lane. I'll go with you. If people should get to hear that your husband was dying and you refused to go and see him, what would they think? What would be said? I should not be able to show my face. I should be ashamed to meet my friends. And oh, what an awful memory for life for you. I'll go and put on my bonnet. I do not think your presence would be advisable, Mrs. Lane,
Starting point is 00:48:46 said Mr. Featherbridge in his slow way. The meeting would be sacred. He loves you, I know, but it is not you that he wants. Such a meeting. might be overwhelming if you made one. And how, and how, he looked in a formative sort of way at Lucretia. I mean, he went on, that something might be said which could not, and therefore would not, be said if witnesses, even if you, Mrs. Lane, were present. Well, will you go and get ready, La Cretia, said Mrs. Lane. How long is it to Gravesend, inquired Lucretia, glancing at the clock, but always preserving her marble-white face of horror and fear, in which there was now suddenly mingled an expression which told of the woman's heart beating a little in love and much in pain.
Starting point is 00:49:29 Mr. Featherbridge drew out a railway guide from his pocket. A train leaves Charing Cross at a quarter to three, he said. We can catch that if you'll kindly not delay. The train leaves Gravesend at 6.40. You can easily be home again by nine or half-past, and I will do myself the honor to see you to this house. I shall be ready in five minutes, said Lucretia, and quitted the drawing-room. The poor fellow has felt Mrs. Redmond.
Starting point is 00:49:53 reynolds abandonment dreadfully said mr featherbridge god forbid that i should do him an injustice but this fall in the hold seems strange the ship lies motionless at boy nothing struck him to throw him forward you don't say so whispered mrs lane in a voice of awe i only hope that he may be alive when we reach the ship said mr featherbridge i shall have done my duty by a man who has always treated me as a brother whose character is as beautiful loyal and true as any i have ever heard of in a sailor why would not she live with him she loved him she must have loved him to consent to be his wife it was not as though he could give her a title in a great estate as though there was something outside the mere poor man himself which she was willing to wed oh mr featherbridge you wring my heart sobbed the widow and she began to pin her gown to the edge of the drawing-room table in five minutes lucratia appeared in a hat and jacket and with an umbrella have you got any change mother she asked mrs lane gave her two sovereigns i am ready mr featherbridge said lucretia give him a fond kiss and my dearest love said mrs lane and tell him oh lucretia tell him all that you feel and know i would say if i were at his side lucretia went downstairs mr featherbridge opened the hall door for her they passed on to the pavement and mr featherbridge hailed a handsome cab that was passing they got in and were driven to charing cross which mr featherbridge considered a safer and sure way of reaching their destiny and time, and if they took the underground railway. Whilst they drove to the station,
Starting point is 00:51:29 Lucretia asks a few questions about her husband, about his accident, if he suffered much pain, if he had the comforts he required, if there was the least hope of his living. She was very pale. Her quivering lip denoted much turbulence of her heart. Her eyes were tearless,
Starting point is 00:51:45 but they were dull with saddening emotions. On their arrival at Gravesend, they immediately made for the waterside, and Featherbridge hailed a boat. the afternoon was fine a dead calm a light sorrelian mist floated in the atmosphere and through it the sun darted his beams in tarnished silver sparkles upon the glass-smooth waters it was the stream of ebb and the ships at anchor pointed their bowsprit up river a large and brilliant mail steamer lay in mid-stream waiting for something and a black man holding a flag perched on the awning astern the tremors of the stream thrilled in harp-like lines through the shadow she floated on and a and defaced the beauty of that piece of mirroring the breast of the river bore its familiar burden of ships coming of ships going all sorts of ships lofty steamers lofty square rigs in tow and the water was a mosaic of tints with a reflection of diverse coloured canvas hanging at yard or gaff from one shape or another straining at anchor or boy and all looking one way that's the ship said mr featherbridge as the waterman dipped his oars he pointed to the flying spur
Starting point is 00:52:53 the marine eye easily perceived that she was something old-fashioned a composite ship metal ribs and timber frame with a handsome cut water and old-fashioned figurehead and elliptical stern and a white band running round her broken by painted ports her masks were lofty and well stayed that is her long topgallant mass had that faint curve forwards from the slight slant aft of the lower mass and top mass which was admired as a beauty in the old frigates she was ready for her long topgots she was ready for for sea sails furled on the yards all running-rigging rove a stout comely ship on the hole one that had done good service to other owners in her time and was then bought cheap as she lay capable of shifting without ballast in the west india docks by one george blanny of ladenhall street the boat arrived alongside the steps dangled from the gangway i can mount by myself thanks if you will hold my umbrella said lucretia and mr featherbridge remaining in the boat could not but it admire Mrs. Reynolds' fine figure as she lay hold of the ladder and ascended. She put her foot on the gangway and stepped on to the deck, and Mr. Featherbridge, bidding the waterman wait, was immediately at her side. He had grown pale on a sudden, and an expression of nervousness was visible in his face. No doubt he was dreading the effect upon the wife's mind of the dreadful wreck her husband presented, bandaged, stained, broken, dying, or dead. He gave her the umbrella.
Starting point is 00:54:23 and led the road to the companionway for this was a ship with under-deck accommodation some of the crew were at work about the deck some looked to be loafing on the forecastle-head gazing gregariously at the shore there is nothing more loafing or lounging than a sailor's posture when he leans over the head rail sucking a pipe the mate mr featherbridge conducted lucretia down the companion steps into a tolerably well-lighted interior a sufficiently roomy cabin containing five berths of which one on the starboard side was the pantry a table and chairs a swing-tray or two and that was about all a young man evidently the cabin servant was polishing some glasses the mate preemptorily ordered him to drop the job and go on deck lucretia was trembling this was a new world to her a sink gillar unimaginable scene a strange atmosphere with its old marine smells and the giant shaft of mizzen-mast piercing the upper and then piercing the lower deck the coffee-coloured bulkheads the light troubled in the skylight by the glass's protection of brass wire the tell-tale compass in the ceiling over the head of the table all this was penetrated by the presence or knowledge of anguish if dying of horror and misery if dead mr featherbridge went to the door of a cabin which was clearly the largest, and filled nearly the whole of the space aft, and opening it just a little way, enough to admit the passage of a human figure, he asked Lucretia to step in, then instantly closed the door, softening to his own ear the shriek which followed the wife's entrance.
Starting point is 00:56:00 End of Chapter 2. Recording by Patty Cunningham. Chapter 3 of Abandoned by William Clark Russell. This is a Librevox recording. All Libravox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit Libravox.org. Abandoned by William Clark Russell, Chapter 3. Trapped Lucretia was trapped.
Starting point is 00:56:34 Instead of seeing her husband lying in a bunk, broken, hollow, bandaged, stained, dying, or dead, watched by a nurse, what did she behold? her husband indeed, and only her husband, erect at a little square table, as healthy in aspect as ever he had shown, a fine figure of a man, amongst the last one should say, to excite repulsion in a woman who had once owned she loved him, and who had been made one with him in the most sacred of human bonds. She shrieked, she swallowed, almost choking, a sob of terror and dire astonishment. the unexpectedness of this apparition as she viewed it the abrupt astounding transmutation of the illusion that had filled her mind as a fact into the fact that confronted her
Starting point is 00:57:26 seemed after she had screamed to shock the life out of her limbs to root her to the deck to paralyse every function then with the instinct of escape she turned her head and her husband sprang to the door no dear said he not without a note of sternness in his voice not without a shadow of austerity in his gravity you belong to me the law has given you to me you gave your hand to me before god who is my witness you are mine and shall remain mine and why not what has happened to me that this change should have happened to you why have you refused to see me have i grown loathsome in appearance and manner since we met at the church? Have I by any single deed warranted your contempt and aversion? I love you as I have ever loved you. I am adoring you, my darling, even as I seem to address you in heat. Come to your own, and you will find him true. He extended his arms to her, and smiled with such a commingling of pathos in the expression, as softened the look almost into the tenderness of tears. Open the door and let me pass, she answered. You are a coward and a villain to have
Starting point is 00:58:46 betrayed me as you have, sending a lying rascal to me to represent you as dying, and making me, her voice broke. She swelled her breast and cried, Let me pass, I want to go home. You shall return home with me, said he, but in my own good time. You dare not imprison me, she almost screamed you are here and here you remain he replied we will not call it imprisonment when a wife lives with her husband whether at sea or ashore she is not his prisoner she is his companion and in my case his love are you really in earnest in keeping me here and taking me away to sea she asked with the very spirit of tragedy firing her fine eyes and making extraordinarily dramatic the forward-leaning imperiously inquisitorial posture of her figure i certainly am he answered bluntly she looked at him for a few seconds and speculation passed from her glowing balls of vision her eyes swooned in their upward rolling under the descending lids and the scarlet of wrath died out of her cheeks into their first pallor of virgin wax she reeled and would have fallen but he caught her and laid her tenderly in the one bunk of that cabin supporting her head to remove her hat that he might pillow her liberating her throat now kissing now fanning her
Starting point is 01:00:23 and brooding over her with the passion of a man whose love has been consecrated meanwhile mr featherbridge who had received his instructions was executing them he hailed the waterman to bring his boat alongside got in and was rowed ashore and making his way to the telegraph office he stamped two forms already filled up and handed them to the clerk the first ran thus to mrs lane chepstow place bayswater london shall remain to nurse frank please send my clothes at once to care of station-master falmouth lucretia flying spur of off gravesend. The other telegram was thus. To station master Falmouth, please receive and hold boxes addressed to my wife to your care, Francis Reynolds, Master Flying Spur, Gravesend. This was a plot artfully planned and diligently prosecuted. It is not for the chronicler to pronounce upon its morality. His business is to relate and to leave the reader to judge. But, that certificate? Was a third party in this scheme in the form of a medical man? No. Mr. Featherbridge, instructed by Captain Reynolds, had called upon a medical practitioner in Gloucester Road and complained of pains in the bowels and general malaise. He protruded a tongue as red as a powder flag. The doctor felt his pulse, which yielded the rhythm of the hammered anvil. The doctor took pen in hand
Starting point is 01:02:01 to prescribe, and whilst he cast his eyes upon the ceiling in search of drugs, Featherbridge asked him for a sheet of headed paper, on which he feigned to scribble a note with a pencil. This blank sheet he folded once, ready for its square envelope, and pocketed it, and on this sheet in the cabin of the flying spur, he wrote to the dictation of Captain Reynolds the remarkable and telling certificate which had lured Lucretia to gravestend and into captivity. He was rode aboard, having been absent a little over an hour. It was about five o'clock. At six, the tugged deer-stalker would be alongside to take the flying spur in tow for the channel.
Starting point is 01:02:46 The air was amazingly tranquil. The delicate color of the October sun, sinking low, gave the picture of smooth river and restful ships and houses ashore, and the melancholy flatness of the Tilbury plains, a hue of warmth that made a summer scene of it. Every flag hung up and down like a streak of paint from the gaff or masthead of vessels rooted to their buoy or anchor. But the colors fluttered at the staff or gaff of the steamer, mail, or tramp,
Starting point is 01:03:18 noble in bulk, or humped in bow, or hogged amid ships, or sagged aft where the leaning funnel threatened the demolition of that extremity of the ship. and these filled the horizon of the eye with the motions of life and the colors of commerce. Mr. Featherbridge climbed the side, and at the gangway found Mr. Vincent Ralland, the second mate, a rather fat, warm-colored, yellow-haired man, in a round coat that made his figure resemble a cup and ball, with a smile of natal origin which might have passed as satirical or cynical, had his utterances justified such an assumption. the captain's been waiting for you sir said this man where is he inquired mr featherbridge in the cabin i think sir see all ready for the tug i shall be on deck shortly and mr featherbridge went below
Starting point is 01:04:13 as he entered the cabin captain reynolds came out of a berth on the port side it was not the compartment into which featherbridge had introduced lucretia the door of that berth was closed and locked and Reynolds had the key of it in his pocket, and it would remain locked until the ship was fairly underway in tow of the tug. Did you send the wires? Yes, sir. Featherbridge, said the captain, extending his hand, I am extremely obliged to you for your part in this unhappy business. I am the more obliged because I know that much that you have undertaken on my behalf
Starting point is 01:04:52 is in conflict with your views. I am glad to have served such a friend as you have been to me, Captain Reynolds, said Mr. Featherbridge, but Mrs. Reynolds will hate me like poison, and I shall be ashamed to meet her. And yet, what more proper than that a wife should live with her husband? She fainted, said Captain Reynolds, and was so long in coming, too, that I was alarmed. She cries silently, which goes to my heart, for God knows it is not in me to give her cause for a single tear. She shall not have reason to complain of my honor, though I have proved treacherous in my effort to possess that which I lawfully own and loyally love. She shall be as a virgin to her husband, but under his protection and within the embrace of
Starting point is 01:05:44 his eyes, which must suffice until the woman's heart breaks through the woman's perversity, and the higher form of chastity asserts itself in union. seem flowery thoughts and shining words in the mouth of a captain in the merchant's service, but we shall see as we progress that Reynolds was a man of reflection in reading, one who had spent a great portion of his leisure in studies outside those to which he was courted by his profession. He had read well into the poets, and had followed science in some of the most eloquent of its exponents, such as Faraday, Tyndall, and Kelvin, was not without some knowledge for conversation of sculpture, painting, and music. He was mainly self-educated and therefore
Starting point is 01:06:31 well-grounded, and indeed he had made but a small impression on Lucretia if his fascinations had been limited to his person. Meanwhile, in the captain's cabin sat or stood the captive Lucretia. Her husband's hand was visible in the furniture of this sea apartment. The bunk, the one bunk, was cozy with eiderdown quilt, soft pillow, new hair mattress. A row of pegs supplied the absence of a wardrobe for the storage of skirts, jackets, and the like. A toilet table under the round scuttle with which this bedroom was illuminated,
Starting point is 01:07:09 bore fiddles for the preservation of a powder box, bottles of rosewater, Oday Cologne, and other dressing delicates. On the table were ivory hairbrushes and knick-knacks too commonplace to catalog. Several pots of plants in flour sweetened the atmosphere. Lucretia had ceased to weep. Her face had taken a hard look of rage and alarm.
Starting point is 01:07:35 She gazed about her, but entirely missed the symptoms of marital affection through the resentment and indignation she was consumed with. Had the cabin been lighted by a porthole big enough to run a gun through, Lucretia would not have thrown herself into the Thames. She had threatened poison to her trembling mother outside, but she had not had a drop in the room, and she was a conspicuous figure amongst those people of this world who are the very last to lay violent hands upon themselves.
Starting point is 01:08:06 No doubt she would have made a brave dash for liberty, could she have found an exit, descended a rope ladder, say, or jumped a fall of fifteen feet into a boat. but she had no idea of destroying herself, and perhaps her husband knew enough of her character to form an opinion under this head. For would he otherwise have allowed a brand-new pair of scissors
Starting point is 01:08:29 to repose in a fiddle on the toilet table? Since even a bare bodkin suffices in the hands of those who will not fartles bear, not to mention husbands. What a honeymoon was this for Lucretia? Her nostrils quivered, her lips worked, as she vowed that if ever she was permitted to return, she would pursue her treacherous husband and the scoundrel feather bridge to the utmost recesses of the law. And still she gathered from the character of her sea bedroom, from the absence of all instruments for purposes of
Starting point is 01:09:02 navigation, and of all hints of a masculine presence, that she was to dwell alone, and from this perception, her cold, chaste, passionless spirit sucked in a little comfort. What would her mother think when she came to learn the truth? Unfortunately, Lucretia felt secretly convinced that Mrs. Lane would approve on the whole of Frank's stratagem as rescuing both herself and her daughter from a most anomalous and gossip-breeding position. It was not as though Captain Francis Reynolds had kidnapped Lucretia Lane, a disdainful handsome young woman, a prize not only for beauty but for money. He had beguiled his own wife into his arms, the fittest of all harbors for her to bring up in, the safest and surest
Starting point is 01:09:51 casket in which to deposit the jewel of her life. This sort of reasoning would occur to Lucretia no doubt, but not in a convincing way. She might have been agitated by such reflections, but not persuaded, as a sea-fowl, when the waves pass under it, is not carried forward, but moves up and down. She had no fear of violence. She very well knew she was deeply and devotedly loved, but she burnt with wrath when she considered how she had been tricked and trapped. And again she wept, and sometimes wildly stepped the narrow-carpeted space of deck, and sometimes paused to listen, with vulgar surmises occasionally breaking in, such as, would Frank keep her locked up until she consented? Did he mean to keep her throughout the voyage,
Starting point is 01:10:44 or did he merely intend to terrify her into the submission of a wife? If so, then persistent obstinacy must result in his sending her ashore before the ship was fairly away from England. Where would she be allowed to take her meals? Would she be permitted to go on deck? Hark, what noise was that? Merely the sounds of the helm, the scraping of the wheel chain, the jar of an old-fashioned system of steering.
Starting point is 01:11:12 She looked through the scuttle and perceived that the ship was in motion. The pilot was in charge, and the captain was at large. Lucretia heard the key turned in her cabin door, and Reynolds entered. he looked at her wistfully and said we have started the voyage has begun creche though you may not forgive me for a little i am happy it is as it should be as your mother could wish it to be as you dearest will soon admit it ought to be
Starting point is 01:11:44 do you mean to land me she exclaimed with fire in her eyes no do you intend to carry me all the way to the south american port you are sailing to yes and back again you are a black-hearted wretch she exclaimed working her hands hysterically if i live i'll punish you the voyage will do you good he said in an easy voice of good nature almost cheerful this is a stout little ship and in her day she was a proud one you have the figure for a rolling deck and the eyes for a tropic calm you are no gentleman she exclaimed frowning at him would any gentleman treat a woman as you are treating me talk to me as a wife and i will listen to you he responded what good will scolding do i am not changed i am as i was when we first met and as i was when you said yes to me and we kissed and you gave me a rose from your breast you cannot forget such things i have you and i will keep you and you shall thank me yet i demand to be sent on shore she exclaimed lifting her foot and bringing it down with an angry slap on the deck those whom god hath joined together let no man put a said Captain Reynolds. Why should I divorce you? We love and we lose, and the poet tells us that it is better to love and lose than never to love at all. I love you, and I don't mean to lose you. No, Kreech, that ring has a meaning as deep as your life and mine, which are one. She passionately seized the wedding ring on her finger as though she would tear it off, but she did no more than that. In the minute of silence, that followed he grew stern and looked at her gloomily and even forbiddingly as though he would have her know that he was her lord and that one of her vows was obedience which formed the third of the trinity which included love and honor
Starting point is 01:13:58 but if temper had not blinded her she would have seen that this look was but a mask indeed the glow of his love colored the whole man and rendered her conduct inexplicable for we recognize the passion of chastity in the vows of the nun, but it is impossible to interpret precisely that quality in the vows of the bride. You will understand, said he, now that the ship is underway, that you can come and go and do what you please. This cabin has been prepared for you and for you only. You can take your meals alone, or with me at the cabin table, as you choose. In all this he was unconsciously answering the questions which had run in, her head before he arrived. He proceeded. You have but to name a desire, and if it's in the power of the sea life to gratify it, you shall not be disappointed. You have nothing to fear. If you can find the elements of happiness in you, you shall not miss in me a solid foundation for the
Starting point is 01:15:02 erection of your temple. He viewed her steadfastly whilst her eyes gloated him with indignation and scorn, and, rounding on his heel, he walked out. Her mind fell into a hurry of desperate thought. The idea possessed her to write a letter. She gazed about her for writing materials. Nothing of that sort was visible. She was very ignorant of the sea, had some vague fancy of a passing boat, of throwing a letter into it, and begging the people to post it. But to whom should she write? There was but one her mother. And what could her mother do, even if she proved willing to separate them now that they were together? Her reflections grew pale with something like despair. What a base trick to play her! Helplessness added fuel to wrath. To bring her away, too, without clothes. How on earth was she to manage with only the things she had on when she had understood from Frank? Yes, she called him Frank to her self. that the outward passage might run into three or even four months for the ship was bound round the horn and from the thames to poposa is a long navigation for an old-fashioned composite sailing ship hedged about by those conditions of calms and headwinds and long heaving twos with the arrest of ice and other familiar causes of delay which take no part in the voyage of the steamer
Starting point is 01:16:33 she determined to go on deck her cabin had been a prison and was an exasperation to her and now she resolved even before she quitted her sleeping-room to adopt and express a posture of mind that should prove a death-blow to her husband's expectations we shall presently see what she meant to do the cabin was lighted a broad flame of oil in a glass globe swung pulses of radiance through the atmosphere to the bulkheads and the sheen rippled in bright wood in cutlery and crockery and glass stars of the evening trembled in the skylight it was hard upon seven o'clock the cloth was spread for a meal in the cabin the servant who no doubt had received instructions from the captain stepped up to lucretia with a mighty fine air of respect and asked if he should serve tea to her yes her throat was a little dry with tears and constriction and angry words, and she waited, not seated, standing beside the table, whilst the cabin servant went forward to the galley. Occasionally sounds broke from the interior, noises of straining like to the groans delivered by old furniture at midnight. This was a very new scene of life to the lady, and she looked about her with petulant disgust, with a ceaseless complaining of heart
Starting point is 01:17:59 that she should have been betrayed by a most ignoble trick into a captivity that was really worse than jail, as the sage pointed out, for in a ship you are not only locked up, but you stand to be drowned. Whilst she waited for a cup of tea, Mr. Featherbridge came down the companion steps on his way to the berth. He started at sight of her and averted his face as he passed. She followed him with a gaze of withering intensity and disloat. like. She looked a handsome figure in her hat and jacket. The oil flame glorified her hair. It gave a delicacy to her extreme pallor. It accentuated the dark depth of her eyes and lighted a little star of beauty in each. Why on earth could not this woman be commonly human and take her husband
Starting point is 01:18:49 for better or for worse? It was Fontenelle who proposed the erection of statues to beautiful women. He would have gone further, built an immense hall, in which figures and wax of the beautiful women of the country, apparelled in the fashion, could be collected. In such a vast and engaging museum, Lucretia would have made no inconsiderable show. The servant arrived with the teapot and milk, and placed some thin bread and butter and cake on the table. She filled a cup and sipped it standing as she sipped her husband came out of his cabin i am glad to see you are taking some refreshment said he looking at her with an appearance of moving affection she held her eyes off him and curled her lip and kept silence oh i forgot to tell you he continued briskly as though he would have his good humor sheer as the cut water of a ship the wrathful billow threw her rage and resentment that i sent a wire to your mother to forward your clothes to falmouth where we shall call for them her answer without looking at him was a sneer and she turned her back upon him and drank her tea
Starting point is 01:20:05 it was pretty clear now that she had made up her mind not to speak to him to be to him a shape without a spirit a statue without a soul a lighthouse without a lantern a moon without glory a something of which the absence would be a blessing for in comparison with the discomfort of its presence he told the servant to light the lamp in mrs reynolds cabin and passed on deck in a few minutes she put down the cup and went up the steps land and river were closed in the early october night the ship was floating restfully in the wake of the tug whose shape was a shadow and whose line of smoke as it rose almost perpendicular from the funnel was often full of the spangles of the furnace There was majesty in the figure of the ship, in the solemn lifting of her masts crossed with yards symmetrically braced, each glimmering with its length of pale canvas. There was poetry in the lonely figure of the helmsman at the wheel, the incarnation of that spirit of sentience which to the meditative eye is visible in the motions of the compass. Gleams of light, falling one new not whence, swarmed capriciously on the water. Yellow sparks dotted the dark shores, and here and there a lighted house touched the gloom with a misty dash of radiance, like phosphor in brine. Visionary forms of ships passed. The colored signals of the sea in red
Starting point is 01:21:37 and green and white shone in the gloom, or hovered over the dark breast of river like lights about a swamp, or the tremulous meteors of the highway, which affright the clown and hurry him along in sweat to report a lie, namely a ghost. Lucretia moved warily about the deck, giving her husband a wide berth. He stood in conversation with the pilot, but whilst she continued above,
Starting point is 01:22:04 he held her in the tail of his eye. There was a sheen of lamplight and starlight in the atmosphere, and if the expression of the face could not be read, the behavior of the eyes could be followed. Captain Reynolds observed the pilot watching Lucretia. She is my wife, he said. Oh, yes, I thought as much, answered the Trinity House man, whose square trunk, compact of coat and shawl, lightly swayed on round legs under skirts that half concealed them. And to himself he added, She may be his wife, but she don't seem much of a companion. The evening was,
Starting point is 01:22:43 perfectly tranquil, the river glass smooth. A large star or two that went in the water with the ship hung like a prism of white light, but the movement of the vessel made a little wind, and the threads of hair on Lucretia's brow danced to it as though they were coleridge's summer leaf in an entranced night on a topmost bough, and she felt a bit chilly. She stepped from the side at which she had been looking at the shore, and occasionally glancing at the man who conversed with her husband and going to the sailor at the wheel asked who that person was who was with the captain the pilot mom answered the fellow does he remain in the ship inquired Lucretia no mom I expect he'll go ashore at deal she said thanks and walked to
Starting point is 01:23:35 the ship's side again where she debated whether she should appeal to the pilot to help her to return home but the sense of the absurd flavor her anger. She was not without a good and even a strong understanding, and the ridiculous was inevitably the inherent condition of every emotion. For mind, like matter, has the power of selecting its color, and not the most tempestuous mood could be hers without its taking the hue of the imbecility of the position in which she had partly placed herself and partly been placed. It was not conceivable that the pilot would meddle with what he might regard as a two-penny quarrel betwixt husband and wife, some jibbing perhaps on her part in jealousy. At all events, she reflected that it would be impossible for her to explain to a rough sea-man, such as a pilot,
Starting point is 01:24:28 for reasons for declining to live with Captain Reynolds, whom she would be bound to admit was her husband. nor was Lucretia a person to court discomfiture. So, with a shutter, contrived partly by the temperature, partly by disgust, and a sense of helplessness, she returned to her cabin and closed the door. Reynolds's appeal to her through the medium of the cabin furniture lay in other directions than that of the toilet table. Against a bulkhead were ranged some hanging bookshelves, and had she condescended to examine their burden, she would have found the
Starting point is 01:25:04 volumes by her favorite authors, and those which were new to her, were such as she would have chosen. This alone proved that Reynolds' scheme to kidnap her had been long preconcerted, and that he regarded the sequel as a certain triumph to him. She sat in an armchair as comfortable as the one in which Miss Ford had been seated, whilst Lucretia dressed for her marriage, but remained clothed as for the deck or shore. In about half an hour, someone knocked at the door. She cried quickly, Who's that? I'm John, Mum. What do you want, I say? On this, he opened the door and told her that the captain had sent him to inquire what she would like for supper. She was again thirsty, but answered, I want nothing. He stared at her with a mind that lagged heavily in the
Starting point is 01:25:59 rear of his eyes and said, There's chicken and cold lamb and cold boiled beef, and claret and sherry. What will it please you to take? Have you got any soda water? Yes, Mom. Bring me some claret and soda water. Yes, Mom, and what to eat?
Starting point is 01:26:18 Cut a couple of thin ham sandwiches. He went out, and the moment he was gone, she fell into a rage and began to cry. It was evident that she was the only woman on the ship. There was no stewardess. To think of being waited on and perhaps nursed if she should be seasick, by a tarry young Jack in a sleeved waistcoat, who breathed Spanish onions, and who was so odd at the sight of her,
Starting point is 01:26:46 that, like people who cannot work and talk at the same time, he neglected his business in viewing her. The position was to be summed up in the old Frenchman's saying, concerning a religious drama. Se tune shows as a risible, but the monk deria. When the sandwiches had been brought to her, she locked the door.
Starting point is 01:27:09 Her husband, however, did not trouble her. There was no motion as yet in the ship. The cabin deck seemed as fixed a platform as the land. Sometimes she heard the voices of men talking as they ate at table. The tiller chains overhead, occasionally strained, and a voice of lamentation sometimes proceeded from some timber weary of its obligation of cohesion or from the cargo underfoot. Presently she looked at the time and found the hour half-past nine.
Starting point is 01:27:41 She wound up her watch and feeling extravagantly exhausted, what with her journey, what with the amazing passions her betrayal had lighted in her, and what with the tears she had shed, idle and most unworthy tears, she resolved upon taking some rest, so she removed her hat and jacket and got into the bunk, otherwise fully apparelled, and covered herself with the light eider-down quilt. It was a coffin of a bedstead, something very removed from all her experiences of going to rest at night. But novelty was not to negative the commands of nature, and in ten minutes she was sleeping peacefully. All through the night the ship was towed down the river into the opening breast of ocean,
Starting point is 01:28:27 where the land to starboard rounds into the channel. But when, next day, a little forest of masts was shadowed the horizon a breast of deal in delicate pencils, was hove into view, a southwest breeze sprang up, and a small swell came rolling along under it, and the flying spur began to drop curtsies to the mother whose child she was. A southwest wind tarnishes the brightness of the sky and is often a wet breeze. It may lock a sailing ship up in the downs when she is outward bound, and the tug that was pulling the flying spur was hailed, and her master informed by Mr. Featherbridge,
Starting point is 01:29:06 who shouted to him from the starboard cat-head that the ship would bring up, which she did in due course a breast of Deal Castle, and the pilot went to shore. Now, at the hour of breakfast, John had knocked on Lucretia's door and found her up. He had received her orders and taken a tray to her. She was indeed pale, but looked the fresher and the better for many hours of profound oblivion. The sea was then smooth, and the ship floated steadily after the tug. The anchor had been let go shortly before one o'clock, and the tide had canted the vessel somewhat athwart the swell. She rolled as well as pitched, nodded as true heavily,
Starting point is 01:29:50 but with a behavior that could have been hardly deemed nursing by a sensitive stomach. It was breezing pleasantly for homeward bounders, and tax and sheetsmen of all rigs blew with the old moaning of the sea in their lifting white breasts through the gulls, past anchored ships looking withered as winter pines, with here and there a gaunt steam-tramp, yearning through the wide nostrils at the swell now breaking into a wet flash of red light as she rolled now soaring with balloon round boughs now immodestly kicking up her heels in her can-can of the water to the shameless revelation of the blades of her propeller dirty clouds like smoke were scattering up from france and at times slapped a shower into the eye if it was in the east said captain reynolds to the mate i should consider this berth good for six weeks if mrs reynolds comes on deck and sees that town close aboard they'll be trouble his reference was to deal which lay abreast with the foam of the breaker snaked along the base of the slope of gray shingle like a mighty host of silver wire. The church spire stretched its vein to the flash of the noon, windows sparkled
Starting point is 01:31:06 in terraces, in the foreground were shapes of boats on the pebbly acclivity, and the green land soared to the giant foreland, with its tower of splendor by night and its majesty of austere white rampart by day. It was the dinner hour, and the meal was served below, and the captain and Mr. Featherbridge repaired to the table, leaving the second mate to watch the ship, and John went to Lucretia's door to knock and inquire what she would be pleased to have for dinner. End of Chapter 3 Chapter 4 of Abandoned by William Clark Russell. This is a Librevox recording.
Starting point is 01:31:48 All Librevox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit Librevox.org. According by Anna Starzic. Abandoned by William Clark Russell. Chapter 4. A Change of Mind The cabin servant, as we have seen, knocked upon the door of Lucretia's birth but obtained no reply. He applied his knuckles more boisterously, and Captain Reynolds turned in his chair at the head of the table to look and listen. "'Doesn't she answer?' he exclaimed, springing up. He tried the handle and strained the door with his shoulder. The key was turned in the lock. Reynolds smote the door four or five times with his fist, crying, we must force this door if you will not unlock it. And this he shouted any strong,
Starting point is 01:32:37 stern note of command. His face changed when the silence continued beyond a few seconds. He cried with a swiftness of alarm. Go forward and tell the boats until they aft out once with tools to force this door. John sprang up the companion steps as though driven by a bit of a bit of a bit of a bit of a bayonet. The ship's pitching and tossing filled the interior with all sorts of noises, and though Reynolds bent his ear in such passion of attention as rose to pain, no sounds that he could attribute to the lips of Lucretia reached him. I hope to God nothing has come to her, said he, to Mr. Featherbridge, who had risen from his meal and was standing beside his captain and friend. She has not been seen all the morning, sir. She has not come on deck, said the captain. She
Starting point is 01:33:24 breakfasted and John reported her to me as all right. But whilst he spoke, Lucretia's threat to her mother to poison herself if her husband attempted force or broke through the door recurred to him. And before the boatswain arrived, the man's heart was wild with anxiety and apprehension. The daylight in the companionway was eclipsed by the intervention of a figure, and down came the boatswain, who was also the ship's carpenter, a sturdy seaman named Martin Webb, whose eagle-nose-nose-stead it out like a flying jib, betwixt a pair of whiskers, standing from his cheeks like the frill of an enraged hen going open-beaked at another. As quick as you can, Webb, said the captain.
Starting point is 01:34:04 And after a few sounds resembling the hammering of the old-fashioned carpenter before the old-fashioned anchor falls from the old-fashioned cat-head and fills the hollow forecastle with the roaring of iron links in an iron eye, the door flew open, and Reynolds rushed in. What did he? What did the others who stood in the doorway, behold? Merely a woman with dark red hair and a face of the pallor of virgin wax, lying in a bunk under an eider-down quilt with half-closed eyes, motionless in the prostration of that dire distemper, sea-sickness. The wash-basin was on the deck beside her bunk.
Starting point is 01:34:42 One arm overhung the bunk-board, and the hand with its long nervous fingers was suspended just above the deck, and looked as though shaped from the petals of the moon lily. Reynolds knelt by her side. She was not dead, but she was scarcely conscious, and the whites of her eyes visible past the lashes of the half-sealed lids, made of her face such a counterfeit presentment of death as might have misled a skilled medical inspection.
Starting point is 01:35:09 The husband felt the pale, cold, hanging wrist, and found a thin pulse in it. Then, lifting the hand and placing it upon the eider down, he turned his head and asked Featherbridge for a wine-glass of brandy and water, which was immediately procured and given to him. Notting at the fiddles on the toilet table, he told Featherbridge to bring him that bottle of Oda Cologne. He put his arm with a wonderful tenderness of love and sympathy under his wife's head,
Starting point is 01:35:36 and succeeded in draining some brandy and water through her lips, and extending his handkerchief to Featherbridge, he bade him soak it with Oda Cologne, and this he put to his wife's forehead, kneeling beside her watching and now waiting my poor sweet he thought alone and so ill almost dying oh why dearest you wish to abandon me he told featherbridge to finish his meal and close the door upon him to relieve the second mate and to instantly report if a shift of wind happened as he would get under way forthwith and he was left alone with his wife whose lips he kissed whose hair he smoothed whose hand he caressed until in about half an hour she exhibited some signs of returning animation. The white lids lifted, and the rich brown irises rolled down, but fireless,
Starting point is 01:36:28 though with a little life of wonder in them when the shape of her husband filled their horizon. Throughout that afternoon he hung over his wife, never suffering the tenderness of his ministering to be affected by her silence. That silence which is more irritating than a sneer, as an expression of the aversion she sought to render as manifest as nausea would permit of the wounding and inflaming nature of her resolution to release herself from him and preserve this severe chastity of the beautiful, passionless, faithless, and cruel ego which she doted on, and whose deliciousness was not likely to cloy her. No, the sweet idea of her purity was not to sicken her soon, if ever, and there was his deception to resent, and his outrage on her liberty to punish. Never once would she answer him, though his few appeals to her to be his wife were most affecting with his pity for her sufferings, and eloquent with his love for her, and sweet with his contrition for the trick which had betrayed her to her honorable place by
Starting point is 01:37:31 his side. She did not know where the ship was. She would naturally bring the ignorance of a schoolgirl to the sea. What could she have told you about the English Channel? Had she been informed that the town of Deal, which she had visited when spending a fortnight at Ramsgate, was within a 20-minute's pull. She would not have been too seasick to have demanded her release, to have raged in her request to be put ashore. But the vessel was rolling and pitching, and Lucretia was convinced that the flying spur was miles out of sight of land upon the ocean, sailing on a voyage of which the contemplation was like that of eternity. Towards sundown, Captain Reynolds sent for some tea, cake, and thin bread and butter, and place the tray by her side. She would not look at him. She would not speak
Starting point is 01:38:18 to him. No corpse could have been more mute under the grief-stricken gaze of the mourner. He went to the door with a dark face, and removing the key from the lock, turned to her and said, I would not advise you to bolt yourself in. At sea, tragic surprises come in a moment. If we should be run into, so that the ship might easily found her in five minutes, how are you to be rescued if you shoot this bolt or turn this key and are too ill to leave your bunk or lie in ignorance of what is happening. He paused to hear if she would answer. Her response was a sneer and a diligently averted gaze. With a heavy sigh and a hot heart, he walked out and went on deck. This man had dreamt of a long honeymoon on the ocean. He and Lucretia would have watched the sunset together.
Starting point is 01:39:06 He would have explained to her the heraldry of the sky, talked of eyeless fish and walking. water three miles deep. She would have viewed with him the moon-like bleakness and desolation and lifelessness of the iceberg. He would have instructed her in the causes of the colors of the ocean, wide as green, or gray, or blue, or black. In his handsome young wife he knew that he could, and she had been willing, have found a companion whose intellect was capable of translating the pictures she viewed into a wide poetic and romantic meaning. Such behavior as hers, such a disappointment as his, might well-cloth the manliest and most cheerful spirit in crape, and deeply black-edged the remaining pages in the story of his life. He paced the deck alone, lost in thought.
Starting point is 01:39:57 The beacons of the sea were here and there leaping into the dust from the light ships off that yellow serpent of shoal called Goodwins, a shore from the windy headland whence streamed a far-reaching splendor, from the forest days of moored ships, and the familiar red eye of the port-lantern when sliding up channel, dimming yet the shadow that conveyed it, and the familiar green eye stole glimmering down, wan and elusive as a glow-worm on a summer evening misty with dew. It was still blowing a fresh moist breeze from the westward of southwest,
Starting point is 01:40:32 and a starless night was at hand. The waters ran and flickers of froth and broke into sounds of sobbing along the bends, and the tall masts waved in stately measures, growing spectral under the translating wand of the dusk. Featherbridge stood in the waist, leaning upon the rail, gazing shorewards. A riding light shone on the stay forward, and shapes of men were on the forecastle, but you heard nothing but the noise of the wind aloft and of streaming waters, and a dreary clattering of booms ill secured. After many turns, Reynolds went to the side of the mate and said,
Starting point is 01:41:10 Featherbridge, she is making me the unhappiest man under God. Shall I persevere? Shall I send her ashore? I have her, and I tell you that the idea of parting with her is hell to me. Well, sir, answered Featherbridge after a little thinking, as I ventured to tell you when this scheme came into your head, it seemed to me, and I still think, that had you taken this voyage and left her to her mother, you would have found her all you could wish on your return. It is a state of mind that wants time, and I fancy that violence will harden it. Captain Reynolds looked during a considerable interval at the lights of she.
Starting point is 01:41:48 shore. And then, with a stamp of the foot and a slap of his thigh, he burst out vehemently. No, by God, it has given me great trouble to get her. She is with me, and so far as that goes, things are as they ought to be. I'll not part with her. If time is to operate ashore, why not here? Here there is at least the constant appeal of the sight of me, of the knowledge of my presence in the ship. But she is shore, and I away? Why, this craze my, might induce her to take some extraordinary step. Her mother has no control over her. She might enter a convent. Not as a married woman, sir, I think, said the mate with a slow shake of his head. A married woman, exclaimed the captain with bitter scorn. Is it the wedding ring? Is it the words
Starting point is 01:42:37 uttered by the priests that make a woman married to a man? No, I've got her, and I'll keep her. The wind shifted at daybreak. It had slipped well into the eastward of the eastward of south and was a clear, steady breeze. The boatswens summoned the crew of the flying spur to get the ship underway. The windlass was manned, and the castanets of the Pals timed the chorus which accompanied the entrance link by link of the cable through the haze pipe. The date was the 10th of October. The morning broke fair, with a fine high sky of feather-shaped clouds. The sea was a magazine of colors and floating life in motion, for all the out of the outside. bound vessels were getting their anchors, and the sun poured a delicate pink light upon
Starting point is 01:43:23 mounting canvas and leaning shafts of cloths, the dark red sail of the coaster, and the white wings of the yacht. Old Deal stretched salt and sweet as a fresh mackerel with its wool-white line of surf and its greenish sparkle of window to the risen day beam. On the flying spur, sail by sail was set until the ship was clothed in breasts of cloth, narrowing. at each summit, three pyramids with curves of canvas like the seagull's wings between, and glowing with the soft purity of untrodden snow in that autumn morning sunshine. When breakfast was on the table, John knocked on Lucretia's door. He was told to enter. Once it appears that the door was not bolted, whilst it could not have been locked,
Starting point is 01:44:10 as Reynolds had withdrawn the key. The captain was eating some breakfast, and the mate had charge of the ship. The cabin was eating some breakfast, and the mate had charge of the ship. The cabin servant, coming out of Lucretia's birth, stepped to Reynolds' side and said, "'The lady asks for some tea and dry toast, sir.' "'Is she dressed?' "'Yes, sir, the same as yesterday. She is lying in her bunk. "'How does she seem?' "'She looks nicely,' answered John.
Starting point is 01:44:37 "'Get her whatever she wants,' said Reynolds. His brow was heavy with thought as he sat alone eating. It was not difficult to see that some consideration which had suddenly visited him, had sunk deep and was perplexing him. There was in his glances from his plate to the bulkheads about him, and up through the skylight, that imperious vivacity of eye which tells of his soul in storm and conflict. The lightning of the mind was in his regard. He closed his knife and fork, left his seat, and tapped on his wife's door. "'Who's that?' she asked. "'I, your husband, Frank.' She did not answer.
Starting point is 01:45:18 He turned the handle and walked in. She was seated in the armchair very pale, but sleep and time had discharged the sunken hollow look of nausea, and the very neglect that her hair discovered rendered her the more admirable and pleasing to his sight. When he entered, she looked down and stared with riveted eyes upon her lap as though she was in some hypnotic sleep, and the lashes of the lids were impenetrable veils of dark red golden hair. But he observed that she had formed her mouth into a sneer,
Starting point is 01:45:48 and there was scorn and wrath in the dishonoring facial expression. It was as though he was a spider or a frog. Won't you speak to me, Lucretia? he said. She held her eyes steadily fixed upon her lap, nor did her sneer change by so much as an effect produced by a single touch of the pencil. Won't you even look at me? he said again. Mary come up, not she. He stood viewing her for a little with a frown.
Starting point is 01:46:18 But as she would not look at him, nor speak to him, he left the cabin, feeling mortally humiliated. Here was conduct that was darting lances into his amour proper, and his spirit writhed with the pain of the wounds. The old poet says, Sweet are the kisses, the endearment sweet, when like desires and like affections meet. Where was he to find sweetness in this union if she held on as she was? Was he not her husband? Was he not a gentleman? It is true he had brought her into the ship by a stratagem,
Starting point is 01:46:53 but surely the love that lay at the root of his action should woo and win forgiveness for a greater offence than that. On pardon, ton caloméme, says the French cynic, and Lucretia's inexorable resentment, vital even in the prostration of nausea, was an augury he could not misinterpret. He had used her with a chivalry which the majority of husbands would have held her unworthy of,
Starting point is 01:47:18 Moreover, her behavior was belittling him in the eyes of his officers, and the gossip of the strange affair would reach the forecastle, and he understood the character of sailors well enough to imagine that what might be said in that hollow humming sea-parlour with much expectoration and a vast variety of oaths would not contribute greatly to the dignity of command and the requirements of discipline. Once the swelling bosoms of the sails had taken impulse and life from the wind, the flying spur proved herself nimble of heel. She sloped her masts and slanted her cut water, and bit with a keen foretooth into the gleaming curves, filling the air round about her bows with beauties and miracles,
Starting point is 01:48:01 the lightning of foam, the rainbow of the prism, the emerald green and diamond-white of gems. At noon the wind headed the ship, and she broke off three points with her yards braced well forwards. Dinner was served to Lucretia in her cabin, but in the afternoon about half a half a few, past three, when her husband was on deck, she made her appearance and stood in the companion way, holding by the hand that wore her wedding-ring, and stared about her. A very fine form, as Jack at the wheel thought, her eyes dark and glowing like the heavens at night, her lips slightly parted as though in relish of the sweetness of the wind that swept betwixt them. She stepped out and crossed over to Mr. Rowland, the fat, warm-colored,
Starting point is 01:48:44 yellow-haired second mate, and addressed him as though her husband had been left. to shore, or was dead. In what part of the sea is the ship? she asked. In the English Channel, madam. Are we far from England? There is England yonder, madam, answered Mr. Rowland, with a smile that seemed satirical but was not, pointing to some blue films hovering over the sea-line on the starboard quarter.
Starting point is 01:49:08 Have we left Falmouth? No, madam, we are making for Falmouth. When are we likely to get there? Why? answered Mr. Mr. Rolland, looking aloft, the winds drawn ahead and were off our course, and shall have to go about unless the breeze shifts again. So that, said he, with a rather nervous look in the direction of the captain, whose interpretation of this conversation with his wife he did not like to think of, I don't expect we shall reach Falmouth much before late on the 13th, or it may be
Starting point is 01:49:41 the fourteenth. She looked at the films of land with a hard, pale face of resolution, and it was impossible even for Mr. Rolland to mis-observing that she had arrived at a determination to take a step, and at this time she meant to score. Captain Reynolds was pacing the weather side of the quarter-deck when she arrived. She went to leeward to the gangway so as to remove herself as far from him as possible without invading the precincts of the sailor's quarters, and she stood with her arms resting upon the bulwark rail, looking at the horizon, or at the forming or dissolving mounds of water, two or three colliers and a screw tramp with raised bows in the outline of a cow lying down. Two sailors were working side by side forward. That they were British and not foreign seamen
Starting point is 01:50:28 may be judged by the following sentences that passed between them. Fine young party that. What's called a piece of all right? She's the old man's wife, answered Bill, meaning by old man, Captain Reynolds. Howdy or no, says Jim. Ain't she a treatin of him as if she was? "'If she warn his wife—' "'And Bill, with a wink, "'nudges Jim in the ribs. "'What's she doing here if they don't get on?' said Jim. "'Think he's going to leave the likes of her ashore?' answered Bill.
Starting point is 01:50:59 "'He'll wait upon her. "'Where'd she be when he tarned up? "'A wife may be like you bad thick'n. "'Sights better than the real thing to look at, "'but you're darsen spend'n. "'You've got to keep carrying of it about. "'Yon's a thicken without much ringing her, you lay.' "'Not even the wedding-ringing.
Starting point is 01:51:16 perhaps, said Jim. Oh, I allow you'll find that all right. He'd live in fear of us, men. How is a man going to command a ship that can't command a woman? asked Jim. If a woman won't answer her Ellum, replied Bill, what are you going to do? You bet the old man's tried it hard of port and hard to starboard, and what Luffin'a do, and if Ellum's alley would mix nicely in the byling? I think myself, said he very gravely, that some women is best left alone. If they prove unmanageable, then turn to and secure the yellum, and you'll find the party
Starting point is 01:51:52 will take up her own position, and ride comfortable. It will be judged from this fragment of conversation that Captain Reynolds had not aired in the anticipation of his four castle's comments. As eight bells four o'clock were being struck, Lucretia left the rail at which
Starting point is 01:52:08 she had been standing, and walked up to Mr. Rolland, who was in the gangway abreast of her. Captain Reynolds continued to stump his lonely principality of quarter-deck betwixt the wheel and the skylight. Of course, exclaimed Lucretia haughtily, you know that I am the captain's wife. Mr. Rolland, staring at her, stuttered, yes, and instantly looked ill at ease. He was waiting for Mr. Featherbridge to relieve him, and disliked this being talked to by
Starting point is 01:52:37 Mrs. Reynolds on the presence of the commander of the ship, whose despotic importance was great enough to ruin him, and the whole estate of this fat involuntary cynic lay in his calling. "'I was brought to the ship by a base stratagem,' said Lucretia, "'and I am imprisoning her, as you are easily able to see. I desire to return home to my mother. "'Will you tell your captain that if he does not allow me to leave the ship at Falmouth, I will ask the sailors to help me to free myself? I will appeal to those men who will not allow a woman to be ill-treated. I have always heard that sailors' are warm-hearted, and I beg you to tell Captain Reynolds that unless he liberates me, I will
Starting point is 01:53:17 go right amongst his crew there and tell them my story. So saying she slightly inclined her head, and went towards the companion hatch as Mr. Featherbridge stepped out of it. She darted at him the lightning of her eyes under the shadow of her frown and sank down the hatchway out of sight. Mr. Rowland, with a mind slightly muddled, was about to go below to compose himself over a pipe any book in his bunk throughout the first dog watch, should there not come a call for all hands. Captain Reynolds called him. Mrs. Reynolds has been asking you questions, I think. This second mate colored up, an answer that she had. What does she want to know? Where we are, sir? Yes. And how long it will take us to fetch Falmouth? Yes. The fat and purple young man hung in the wind,
Starting point is 01:54:08 and after a cough or two, said, She asked me to tell you, and he quoted Lucretia's threat, word for word. Is that all? inquired Reynolds, whose expression of face was stern but calm and rigidity. That's all, sir. Thanks. Mr. Rollins slunk to his quarters. The captain took a few turns, then catching Featherbridge's eye, he invited him to his side by a toss of the head.
Starting point is 01:54:36 She'll do at this for another hour. said he. He looked aloft and to windward. Featherbridge, I have formed my resolution. I have made it my mind to send Mrs. Reynolds home when we arrive at Falmouth. I am sure I think you will be acting wisely if you do, sir, answered Featherbridge. She is not to be conquered. She is not to be got at. I could not have believed that her heart was so hard. I make every allowance for her indignation at being trapped, but is there no love in her to help me? Nothing left of the old feeling which induced her to take me? The captain's voice trembled slightly, but his face continued stern and tranquil, with the tranquillity of the marble face whose expression is that of deep
Starting point is 01:55:18 resentment and a heart on fire. And in truth, it was quite possible for the slow-souled Mr. Featherbridge to suspect in Captain Reynolds a languid motion of mind that must presently harden into aversion, for the elasticity of even such a love as this man bore this woman has its limitations. the tissues crack, the passion sinks, shapeless. It takes another name, and a feeling that may threaten the wreck of two lives replaces the ruined sentiment. I did what I thought it was right I should do, continued Captain Reynolds, and I find that I was mistaken. My blunder arose from an imperfect knowledge of the nature I was dealing with. Could I foresee that the change that has come to her would prove as fixed as though it had been inherent, which it never was, for so help me God, no woman could
Starting point is 01:56:08 have been more tender, more sweet, and docile in the privileges she permitted. Many will tell me that I have not acted the part of a gentleman, but I am a man, and I feel as a man, and she has not treated me as I deserve to be treated by her. Featherbridge, you will continue your kindness to the end. I will ask you to see her ashore. No doubt her luggage will have been received at the station before our arrival. He broke off. He could not bring himself to say more. He was unmanned and went to his cabin to collect himself. Throughout that night the ship was a frequent scene of disturbance. The wind headed her off her course than to prevent her from running now into the coast of France or now into the coast of England.
Starting point is 01:56:52 The captain put her about, an evolution in a merchantman that is commonly attended with great uproar. Men howl upon ropes as they drag at them. The captain shouts, the mate's ball, the ship plunges, staggers, stops, and reels. The wind roars in the shrouds. The fingers of the gale sweep the canvas into a slatting, like a volleying of stones from a K-side into a hold, and there is much confusion below of nimble crockery and sliding commodities.
Starting point is 01:57:23 When it comes to, let go and haul, the four top sail-yard swings, the jib sheets leap the stays, the ship leans, and after a pause of thought, let's drive her keen tooth into the surge, which parts in slinging and singing masses of giddy splendor, and she is again often away, with her sailors coiling the ropes over the pins, and the captain-in-mates staring aloft to observe the lay of the yards and the set of the canvas. The scene is one of inextricable complexity to a landsman's eye on a fine day and, in summer waters. But in the darkness of an autumn channel moonless night, when a strong head sea is running, and the work is to be discharged by two only of the five fallible mortal senses,
Starting point is 01:58:08 namely touch and hearing. The scene, or at least as much of it as is visible, takes for the landsmen an element of fear, and passengers have been known to go to prayers on their own account when the ship was in the agonies of mainsail hall on a dark night blowing hard. The captain's suspecting that the whitewater on the horizon was breakers, and that he was several leagues out of his reckoning, and the mate convinced that if she hung another minute she would be in irons, and they would have to wear ship, shoal or no shoal. When the flying spur was put about a little before nine on the night of this day we are dealing with, the noise on the deck was so great that Lucretia and her cabin believed the vessel was sinking. The ship, as the helm was put down,
Starting point is 01:58:53 met the seas and pitched heavily. The rudder jarred. The tramp of feet overhead was as though all hands were fighting for their lives to get into the boats. Lucretia heard shouts and loud horse ballings, and white with fear, with a heart beating quickly, for she could not but remember what her husband had told her about the ship being run into and sunk in five minutes. She opened the door of her birth, but nobody was in the cabin. It was all hands on deck, and John was amongst them. stood waiting and hearkening in the doorway until she grew reassured by the comparative silence on deck and the steady floating motions of the ship, and then John's legs appeared on the ladder, and the man descended.
Starting point is 01:59:35 "'What is the matter?' cried Lucretia. "'We've been putting the ship about, Mum,' answered John. "'What do you mean by that?' "'Laying her on the port tack for another board, Mum. Had he answered her in Chinese, he would have been equally intelligible. Is there any danger? she asked. Lord love me, no, mum. On which she closed the cabin door upon herself,
Starting point is 02:00:00 not choosing that her husband should descend and behold her. And then she sat down and cried with rage and other emotions and detested Frank for bringing her into such a situation and vowing whilst she mopped her fine eyes with her pocket-handkerchief that if he did not release her at Falmouth, she would go amongst the crew, plead to them to help her to free herself and gain her end, or render her husband's situation as captain of the ship impossible. The night passed, a night, as has been said, of commotion and going about.
Starting point is 02:00:33 At the breakfast table, Captain Reynolds asked Mr. Featherbridge to visit his wife and acquaint her with her husband's intention to send her ashore at Falmouth. There had come a shift of wind in the morning watch, and the breeze was so blowing as to allow the ship to look up for her port. the morning sunshine clothed the glass of the skylight with silver brightness the sea ran with a cradling motion through the scuttles you caught a glimpse of the sparkling azure of it mr featherbridge did not relish his mission but he faced it like a man and ascertaining from john after reynolds had left the table that mrs reynolds had finished her breakfast he walked to the cabin door of the lady and knocked who was that she wanted to know "'Mr. Featherbridge, I have come with a message from the captain. May I enter?' She immediately concluded that his errand was in the interests of peace and conjugal felicity. "'I decline to meet you and beg that you will not come in,' she cried.
Starting point is 02:01:33 "'I believe the news I bring is what you will be glad to hear,' said Mr. Featherbridge. After a pause during which she thought of the doctor's certificate and the livery of trouble Featherbridge had cunningly worn during his interview with her mother at Chepstow Place, she said, You can come in. He entered, bowed, and said, I have been asked by Captain Reynolds to inform you that you will be put ashore at Falmouth, according to your request.
Starting point is 02:02:01 She stood holding by the table, swaying her fine figure with the motions of the deck. Her face slightly lightened as though to a sudden brightness of heart, but the expression soon faded. It is about time that Captain Reynolds acted like a man, she said coldly and haughtily. Mr. Featherbridge secretly wondered what a clock it would be when Mrs. Reynolds should think at time to act like a woman. The captain expects, says the mate, that your luggage will be at the station,
Starting point is 02:02:32 and I shall do myself the pleasure to attend to that and see you off. She curled her lips at him before answering and said, I shall not want to be seen off, thanks. I am quite capable of looking after myself. I shall require some money to pay my fare. I had but two sovereigns which you saw me borrow from my mother. Captain Reynolds will see to that, said Mr. Featherbridge, who thought to himself, If you were the only young woman in England, damn if I'd have you! She turned to the scuttle or little window, in token that the interview was ended, and after a slow
Starting point is 02:03:06 look at her, Featherbridge walked out. He went to the captain, who was on deck. "'She is very willing to go, sir, but she won't allow me to escort her. She wishes to go alone.' "'She shall have her way,' answered Captain Reynolds in a hard voice. "'How does she seem?' "'Quite well, I think, sir.' "'A stubborn soul. A very stubborn soul to bend,' said Captain Reynolds, "'as though thinking aloud. Such spirits need but a very little bending to break. I never could have believed it of her or in her. How does she look to? you say? Why, very well, sir. What a fine creature to love and lose, to have and not to be able to to hold, continued Reynolds, still talking as though he was thinking aloud. I suppose she and I will
Starting point is 02:03:54 never meet again. I wouldn't think such a thing, sir. Oh my God, look at the chances against our meeting, cried the captain, with a little storm of passion coming to his voice out of his heart. It's not the risks only of our lives at sea. There's her nature which will hold her aloof, and the longer she remains divorced from me, the severer will grow the quality that keeps her divorced. A child, oh, a little child, something to humanize her, something to look with my eyes and to hers. He stepped to the rail and stared away to sea. Featherbridge stood still. The captain returned. "'I suppose her reception of you was cold, perhaps insulting,' said he.
Starting point is 02:04:40 The mate answered, "'No, sir. She says she wants some money. I saw her borrow two pounds from her mother, and she changed one when she insisted on paying for her ticket at Graves' End. I'll see to it,' said Reynolds. Half an hour later he went below. He had lingered on deck trusting his wife would appear,
Starting point is 02:05:00 for he loved to look at her. He entered his cabin, and opening a lot of her. locker took out a desk, which he unlocked, and from a corner of it picked up a small roll of Bank of England notes. He took two five-pound notes and placed them in a blank envelope, then stood hanging over the desk for a little while, musing. For a small parcel of his wife's letters lay there, and they set him thinking. He replaced the desk in the locker, and putting his head out, called to John, and told him to give that envelope to Mrs. Reynolds. He then got into his bunk to take some rest, for the night had been full of business for him, and his whole being felt strained.
Starting point is 02:05:40 End of Chapter 4. Chapter 5 of Abandoned by William Clark Russell. This is the Librevox recording. All Libravox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit Libravox.org. Recording by Terence State. Abandoned by William Clark Russell Chapter 5 The Wreck
Starting point is 02:06:15 The Flying Spur anchored at Formuth Bay on the noon of October 13, 1890. She had no business at that port. When Mr Blaney of Leighton Hall Street, her owner, read the report in the shipping news of her having touched at Formas, He would probably assume that the crew had given trouble, a Dutchman perhaps, had stabbed an Englishman, and the captain had been forced to put into Formas to supply the deficiencies caused by the knife, and to hand over the prisoner.
Starting point is 02:06:55 As a matter of fact, Reynolds was here to fetch his wife's clothes, and the owner's demands on him as a skipper must yield to that sort. skipper's claims upon himself as a newly married man. And now his wife was going ashore to fetch her clothes herself and take them home with her and leave him. The ship brought up with only her lightest canvas furled, for she was to sail again as soon as she might. It was noon, sweet and calm were the waters of this lovely harbour,
Starting point is 02:07:36 glorious the land in the mantle of October, pleasant and fair to see the ships floating upon the mirror, whose margin reflected the burning leaf of autumn. Lucretia was in her cabin when the anchor was let go. She felt the thrill of the chain cable as it thundered through the hughes pipe, but did not know what it meant. came a knock upon her door, the inevitable. Who is there? Followed. Mr. Roland. Oh, walk in. The second night entered.
Starting point is 02:08:17 Purple and shiny, cup-like in form, very nervous in demeanour. If you're ready to go ashore, madam, he said. The boat is ready alongside, and I will steer you to the landing place. she started not until then realising the arrival of the ship into the pallor of her face passed a subtler shade of whiteness if one may so speak indicating the presence of the heart I shall be on deck in five minutes, she answered, and Mr. Rollins left her. In five minutes she was attired in hat and jacket, and with her went the umbrella, which she had bought from Chepway Place. She passed through the companionway into the atmosphere quivering with brilliance,
Starting point is 02:09:14 and without intention met the eyes of her husband, who was seated upon the grating, bathed the wheel, in a place to command a view of the deck and the departure of the boat. She instantly looked away. No flush of cheek indicated a motion, no dullness of eye, the sudden gush of sadness from the springs of the soul. She saw Mr. Roland waiting at the open gangway and went to him. Mr. Featherbridge was doing some business of the ship, on the forecastle, but all the sailors on the deck, idling or working, took a look at that fine figure as it passed to the side, and, could their secret thoughts have been interpreted, literature would have been the richer by several pages of original ideas. The port quarter-boat had been lowered and manned and lay under the gangway ladder, without looking to be.
Starting point is 02:10:21 after where her husband was, without a glance around her at the ship, she was deserting. Lucretia put her foot upon the steps and descended, and took her place in the stem sheets, where she was joined by Mr. Rowland, who, catching hold of the oak line, sang out, shove off. The oars dipped and Lucretia was going home. Reynolds, with his arms folded, watched the shape of the receding boat, watched the diminishing form of his wife, and his manhood broke him in a great sigh and a little hysterical shake of the head, as though he was wretched by an inward agony. But for his being in full view of the sailors he would have covered his face and vented himself
Starting point is 02:11:19 in the convulsed dry sob of his sex, to whom the tears of a woman who make men weep in their way are denied. She was gone. He rose and slowly went below, not unmarked by some of the men, who, rough seamen as they were, could in their crude and instructed fashion,
Starting point is 02:11:44 entering to his thoughts. He walked into the cabin, which had been occupied by his wife and gazed around him. He looked at the trifling comforts, at the toilet fellows, which he had provided. He looked at the pots of flowers. It is true, as Tennyson sings after Dante, that a sorrow's crown of sorrow is remembering happier things.
Starting point is 02:12:16 But the ship must start afresh, at sea, says Dana, there is no time for sentiment. The lily white hand must be waved ashore and the dark eyes of sweet Susan reclining on a rock may be full of tears, but jack on board ship must heave and paw, must even raise the dead,
Starting point is 02:12:40 must sheet home with a horse yo-ho, which slants tremulous to the mate's ear, unfaltering, though the heart-strings be crackling, gay as the leap of the sea at the bow, though the sailor's sweetheart is transformed into the pickled horse of the harness cask at the pressure of her ruby lips into the benescence of the quarter-deck. Within three hours of the arrival of the flying spur in Formas
Starting point is 02:13:13 Bay, the quarter-boat, in which Lucrezia had been rowed ashore, was again hanging in its place at the ship's davits, and the crew were, for the second time since leaving London, breaking out the anchor to the melody of their voices and the cranking of the revolving windlass. The upper top sail yards were mast-headed, the top galleon sails and royals loosed and set, and the sinking sun shone upon that fair and still visible picture of the sea. of the sea. A full-rigged ship under all sail standing out from the land. Her bow sprit pointing to the violet line of the water in the south. Every rope gleaming as though threaded by a hair of gold. Every cloth coloured as though touched with a brush dipped in gilt varnish.
Starting point is 02:14:13 Every piece of brasswork burning with an eye that was like a little scarlet sun. A thin raising of beaded bubbles marked the progress of the keel, and the song of the sea, when the heavens are bright and the waters restful, and the breeze was a pleasant impulse for the canvas, was chanted under the bows as the vessels slowly sailed out into the English Channel, out into the enfolding pinions of the evening. out into the star-studded raven darkness of the night on her long voyage to a port on the west coast of South America. The reader is to be spared on account of this voyage of a sailing ship whose laden was bricks, coke and coal, not but that the true romance of the deep is to be found in such vessels,
Starting point is 02:15:12 for if it will not in them, you shall seek it in vain in those steamers which, of all floating structures, are most familiar to readers of novels. The marine muse shrinks from the giant edifice, whose walls might have been designed for the storage of gas, whose saloon is the coffee room of the huge hotel, whose engine room is indeed a noble submission of human genius. But on whose sliding rods and rotating cranks, the fairy foot of Posey finds no platform. We passed as a month of February in the year 1891 and the date was the second. The flying spur was off the coast of Chile, who voyage down to this period had been absolutely uneventful.
Starting point is 02:16:11 Three days earlier, that is, on the morning of January 31, a man had come running aft to Mr. Fotherbridge to report that smoke was rising from the fore-hatch. The covers were lifted and the cargo of coal in the fore and main-holes was found to be on fire. volumes of water by the tonne were poured in by hose, by bucket, through holes cut in the deck, in vain. The stench of sulphurous gases drove the men out of the forecastle, and the captain and mates from their quarters in the cabin. The island of Santa Cristo then bore a few leagues distance about west-northwest. On the 1st of February, the day following the discovery of the fire, which continued to burn with fury, rendering the decks too hot for the naked
Starting point is 02:17:09 foot to endure, though no flames had yet been leapt up. It came on to blow from the south-west. It was first a fresh breeze in the tail of a heavy running swell, which it wrinkled with snappish little seas. But in the afternoon the wind had stormed up into half-and-and-and-watering half a gale and the burning ship with coils of black smoke streaming from her hatchways flying low over the lee ball-warks was hoved to under her lower main-top sail. A gale of wind and a ship on fire. It is difficult to conceive a more horrible combination of peril, a ship hoved too on fire and an iron beach of an island close aboard.
Starting point is 02:18:01 board. Out there, throughout the blackness of the night, throughout the leaden mum that hoved in fury as it came and stayed without brightening. The high seas were a sallow green and poured cataracts of foam into the valleys at their feet. The foretop galleon mast had carried away. Some sails had been blown out of their gaskets and were streaming in rags from the yards. The ship, laboring furiously, swung her spars in maddening shearings under the rushing soot of the storm, and the picture was ghastly and wild, not by reason only of the flashing of torn canvas, flogging as it swept, shrieking as it was carried like a pennant at a rolling masthead, nor by the shattering
Starting point is 02:18:57 of water, falling like the avalanche, self-hurled from the mountain brow, but by the leaping of flames through the forehatch, tongues of scarlet fire which soared like the furnace wings of the smoke, shrivelling shroud and stay, blackening and cracking and cinder-coloured every mast and spar. In the morning, Featherbridge had been talking with Captain Reynolds, in a consultation as to what should be done if the weather moderated the boats might live if the weather held and the fire grew as it was growing what must follow it is well said reynolds that my wife is not here these were the last words that he ever addressed to his friend for when the captain had spoken featherbridge went forward the vessel at that moment plunged as though she was going over the edge of the falls of Niagara. Before she could lift her bow, a huge green sea came with a roaring of a hundred thunderbolts aboard,
Starting point is 02:20:10 and Featherbridge was seen no more. No one knew how he had perished, nor was he immediately missed. The mountain leapt of the sea, and then the sudden volcanic uprush of flame paralyzed the mountain, with consternation. The three tremendous forces of nature were let loose upon and in, that frail and laboring and lamenting and brutally used example of human handiwork. The wind and the sea had united with fire and were a trinity of raging giant demon, to whom the sailors they were straggling and canceling, who opposed nothing but the beating hearts. of men. The hour of panic must come. It came when the decks blew up between the fore and
Starting point is 02:21:05 mainmasts and liberating a belching hell of white fire, blinding as the sunbeam and roasting as the furnace. The seaman rushed to the boats. The second mate and a little crowd were lowered, but it was the act of men driven mad by fire and fright. In a moment the boat went to pieces under them and they were battling in the water. The senses of a sailor suddenly left him and he jumped overboard, flinging into the wind as he hurled himself from the rail, a wilder cry than any made by the gale. Reynolds had no orders to give, no counsels to deliver. To stay was to be broiled, to go was to be drowned. What instructions then could he convey at a moment in which the alternative that nearly every crisis supplies and that enables
Starting point is 02:22:04 the vigorous will to form its resolution had been slaughtered by the wrath of the sea on the one hand and the rage of the fire on the other. But faithful to the traditions of the British captain, he was the last to leave the ship. He pulled the life belt over his head and got it under his arms and standing in the on the lee side of the taffrail watched for the lift of the sea that his fall might not be far and plunged. The ship roared herself out in flames and explosions, and much mighty hissing. The evening came, the night came. The dawn glimmed one and sad along the eastern sea line. The sun soared into a blue sky, along which sailed a thousand little clouds, like old men of war,
Starting point is 02:23:02 and poured his glory upon an island, glittering with dew, sparkling with cascades, radiant with foreshore of coral, strand, green with tall grass and little trees and bushes. Standing in the heart of a shoreless sea like a many-faceted gem, that flashes the green and yellow and red of the spectrum. It was the island of Santa Cristo in latitude 40 degrees 16 minutes south and longitude 80 degrees 39 minutes west. It is about one mile long and three quarters of a mile wide. Two small cascades fall from a hill
Starting point is 02:23:47 and unite in a little horseshoe river on the southern side prettily fringed with trees. Around the island, to the mouth of the Horseshoe River, at the eastmost extremity of this little sea garden, runs a beach of brilliant sand. In parts the ground is covered with brushwood, and some of the growths resemble, or perhaps, are, Kasserina trees.
Starting point is 02:24:13 The grass is long and coarse, and amongst it may be found ferns and mosses and mushrooms, and mushrooms. Even in gentle weather the seas break in thunder on the coast betwixt the east and south of the island. The huge blue swell, even though increased by the cats bore, slides with the weight of countless tons and bursts into the magnificence of foam as it re-goils from the blow it delivers. There is a ceaseless play of white water on the north side, where a ledge of rock or coral comes within a foot or two of the surface and troubles the peace of the deep even its most tranquil mood. The sun had been risen an hour when the figure of a man,
Starting point is 02:25:07 lying on the white sand on the southwest side, stirred and presently sat up. He was in a life belt. He was Captain Francis Reynolds. Apparently soul-survivor. of the ship flying spur. No bodies of men were to be seen upon the white sand, no sparkle of wet spur, no blot of blackened beam, invited the eye to the sea. The ship was absolutely vanished,
Starting point is 02:25:38 and with her her people and nothing remained to denote that such a creation had ever been. And that a few hours earlier a ship of a thousand ship of a thousand tons was on fire and struggling with half a hurricane, save that lonely figure in a life belt sitting on the coral sand. Trying to move his arms, he found them encumbered by the life belt. He languidly passed a thing over his head, but seemed to get no ideas from the ship's name that was painted upon it. He was sensible of a smarting pain, about his left eye, and at the right-hand junction of his lips in the cheek, and, touching
Starting point is 02:26:26 those parts, he found that he had been badly hurt and was bleeding. Had he viewed himself in a mirror, he would surely not have known who he was. He had been flung by the breach of the sea against a rock which had cut deep into the flesh and bone about the eye and ripped the end of the mouth. as likely as not would lose the sight of that eye, and perhaps the other would perish in sympathy. His senses began to come to him, and he felt his legs,
Starting point is 02:27:03 and moved himself to try his ribs, and then got up and stood, and found that his bones were unbroken. He gazed somewhat vacantly about him, first staring at the sea, and then round upon the land. And again he cast his eyes upon his legs and looked at his arms
Starting point is 02:27:26 and pressed his hand against his head from which his cap had been washed. His catching a sight of one of the sweet and sparkling cascades made him feel as though his throat was of hot brass whilst his tongue stung behind his teeth. He walked very slowly. slowly towards the foot of the falls, where they sung in a glory of froth and went away in a
Starting point is 02:27:54 horseshoe-shaped river. He knelt, fashioning his hands into a cup, drank, and then he bathed his face, by which time his five wits were once more vigorous, and he clearly understood that he was Frank Reynolds, and that he had been cast ashore on the little empty island of Santa Christo and that so far as he could judge for the view of parts of the island were interceded by rising in little downs he was the sole survivor of the crew of the ship when his thirst was assurged he felt hungry and sent a look at certain birds which were wheeling about the island petrels gulls whale-birds and penguins they were not many, but they gave a vitality to the air and enriched its brilliance with the grace of their flight and the soft hues of their plumage, but they were not to be come at for a meal. Reynolds' eye fell upon a creek, about one hundred fathoms long, in the bite of which was a flat rock.
Starting point is 02:29:10 The water had sunk, and this rock was covered with coloured oysters, limpets and muscles. He was an old hand. He had sought oysters at Sydney and elsewhere and knew what to do. He looked about him for a hammer and found what he wanted in a heavy cucumber-shaped stone, which was undoubtedly a meteorite. Armed with this stone, he slowly made his way to the creek and stepping onto the rock which was black and gleaming, salt-smelling and hairy with weed, he knocked off a meal of oysters,
Starting point is 02:29:51 which he opened with a strong, clasped knife he had carried about with him at sea for years past. He was a very good repast. When he had eaten as much as he needed, and whilst he ate he took notice of certain large fish, of a rock cod sort, floating deep in the crystal water betwixt the rock and the shore.
Starting point is 02:30:18 He stepped from the rock onto the land which was scarcely at the distance of a jump and going to where the grass was growing he seated himself under a tree with his back against the trunk and as quickly as a man dies whose heart fails him he fell asleep.
Starting point is 02:30:39 He slept for three hours and if his good angel stood beside him and watched him as he slumbered, her heart would have been melted by pity, for never did Ocean reject the life of a more forlorn figure than this broken and wounded man. Scarce recognisable as the comely, somewhat military-looking, Captain Reynolds, who had commanded the flying spur. The whole spirit of the mighty desolation roundabout was,
Starting point is 02:31:11 incarnate in him. When he awoke he stared about as before with a wondering eye, but was soon as sensible as ever he had been. He knew where he was, and that the coast of Chile lay at a distance of about 250 miles. What were his chances of escape? He must keep through out the day a sharp look out for ships. and prepare and hold in readiness a big heap of rubbish to make a thick black tall smoke with when a sail should shine upon the horizon how was he to make fire he might rub two sticks together for years and scarcely warm them this getting fire by friction is a trick which one must be a savage to have the art of fortunately for reynolds he carried in his waistcoat pocket, a burning glass, a piece of crystal with which at sea he used under a high sun to light his pipe or cigar for love of the purity of the flame. So whilst the sun shone,
Starting point is 02:32:27 he could never lack fire, and whilst those oysters clung to the rock, he could not starve. And the cascades of fresh water were as sweet to the palate as they were lovely, in their glancings and flashings to the eye. Still sitting at the foot of the tree under which he had slept, he thought of his wife. Had he forced her to accompany him, she must have perished in the shipwreck.
Starting point is 02:32:58 He knew, when he recalled with shudders those days of horror, of tempest, of fire, that when the crisis came, he could not have saved her life, unless God's hand had brought her ashore as he had been, but his salvation of her would not have been of his working. What had he lost by the shipwreck? He had brought with him 150 pounds,
Starting point is 02:33:27 of which he had given ten to his wife, and this money had gone down, likewise all his clothes, charts, chronometers, and nautical instruments. should ever he be rescued who would have to begin life afresh would life any form of life be worth the effort of its maintenance deserted as he was by his wife ruined as he was by the sea never was any man more bankrupt in heart and estate than this poor lonely fellow who had been guilty of the great blunder of loving not wisely but to one who had been guilty of the great blunder of loving not wisely but to one who was but to one. well. After looking at the brilliant beach, or as much of it as his vision compassed, as it swept from rock and soil into the tall feathering wash of the sea, for in every breaker that rolled upon that little island dwelt the power of the mighty Pacific. An idea visited him, and he walked down the coral stretch. He looked along it to the north, where it terminated at the margin of a little whose low face of cliff was abrupt. Here and there were rocks, lumps of large grey stone,
Starting point is 02:34:49 but no corpse, and no signs of a living man. He sighed and a sense of solitude oppressed him. He clenched his hands, thinking, as he turned around to look along the beach towards the west, I am alone. The thought of the extinction of the sailors, had commanded, for he had been the last to leave the ship, and since no man had saved his life by this island, he knew that it was inevitable, that all had perished. This thought and the memory
Starting point is 02:35:24 of Featherbridge, a shipmate he had loved, and the comrade of many a quiet watch, overwhelmed him, and he wept. He continued to walk slowly, and a speculation which seemed to be. He was somewhat out of place in a maimed and hopeless castaway troubled his poor brains. He said to himself, as life is a property of vital matter, and as we are taught that nothing is destructible, what becomes of life at death? What has become of the life that enabled Featherbridge to talk to me? I can conceive, perhaps explain, the passage of heat and all forms of energy from the human body at death into other states. But what becomes of that property called life, which is in me now whilst I reflect,
Starting point is 02:36:21 and which, as like heat and all other things, it is indestructible, cannot cease to exist, because it has quitted my body? Perhaps, he mused, still thinking of Featherbridge and his drowned sailors, the belief in the human soul may be based upon our knowledge of the indestructibility of all created things. No, he argued to himself. Belief in the soul existed long before it was known that matter and all the conditions of matter cannot be destroyed, can only be changed. The hope of the soul is based upon the innate
Starting point is 02:37:06 and inborn desire of every man to project his life beyond the grave. These were strange speculations to trouble him in such a place and under such circumstances. But the mind is not responsible for the ideas which spring in it. There is a frequent impertinence in thought
Starting point is 02:37:29 as, for instance, when you find yourself humming some tune of which you are heartily sick, but which teases you with irritating iteration. Be your mood what it will, for a man will hum such an air within himself at the graveside, or when occupied, in business, which should utterly remove him from the vexing ghost of melody. He walked along by the beach around the western extremity of the island, until he was within sight of the mouth of the little horseshoe-shaped river. And constantly, as he walked, he looked up at the slope or frown of land with a dumb and throbbing yearning, like a pain in his heart for the sight of a human figure.
Starting point is 02:38:21 The sun was rolling low down the sky, and the west was gorgeous with colours and in this beautiful light the two waterfalls or cascades leaping midway from an altitude of about three hundred feet shone like ropes of fine pale amber and the picture was made exquisite by the fern-like delicacy of the boughs of trees defining their foliage and their branches upon the tender depths of the eastern blue He climbed a green slope and gained the higher parts of the island and looked about him for a spot in which he might shelter himself for the night. Hard by was a little dell, covered with mosses and other growths, and he observed on one side of it a horizontal fissure, about six feet deep, whilst the gap was about five feet.
Starting point is 02:39:22 He gazed carefully about him in search of snakes or other dangerous rome. reptiles, but saw nothing of the kind. That fissure, he judged, would provide him with a bed-place, so he walked towards a tract of tall grass, like guinea grass, and, pulling out his knife, cut down a quantity, enough to make a little bundle to serve as a pillow. This bundle he compacted by binding it with grass, which he knitted into witches, for this man was a sailor he could lay up a senate or weave grass into a hat he put his pillow into the crevice and went across the island to the beach again to get his supper off the rock
Starting point is 02:40:11 how sad were the splendid colours of the west how heart subduing the vastness of the solitude the voice of the spirit of desolation was heard in the sound of the wind in the trees in the organ roll of crushed and seething swell, in the troubled rustling on the shoal, in whispers of running waters coming from afar. He got upon the rock, armed with his meteorite, it was but a long stride from the edge of the land to the rock. The oysters were large and sweet,
Starting point is 02:40:51 and provided him with an excellent meal. It was a calm evening, the swell came rolling from the sun in liquid gold. The sea-fowl were fishing diligently, and some of them, whose plumage gave resilience to the western light, wheeled in shapes of brass and ivory through the air. Reynolds regained the shore, and ascending the slope behind which was the dell
Starting point is 02:41:22 that was to shelter him from the night, sat down and watched the sunset and the sumptuous pageantry fade, watched the sea-line that perished in the evening shadow, which was trembling with stars. He wondered how long he would be forced to remain on this island, and if it was his destiny to die upon it. And his imagination grew morbid, and he pictured his dead body supine,
Starting point is 02:41:55 and the decay of it. Tilla shudder compacted his mind and the tone of it grew more manly. Oh, for a companion, he thought, but one, but one to speak to. He tried to recollect the people who had been in his situation and could recall but two. Peter Serenau and Alexander Selkirk. It brightened him for the moment to recollect that both were delivered from the horrors of an island's loneliness. Peter, he remembered, was covered with hair when he was secured and looked like a furry imagination of pagan mythology
Starting point is 02:42:39 and was frightful to see. A shooting star caught his eye. He followed the brilliant track of it, and then his chin sank, and he put up a short prayer to God for mercy. Though never religious, Reynolds was always a devout man. He had read and reasoned himself into a full conviction as to the being of a creator. It is ridiculous, he would argue, to talk of chance, when you witness design everywhere.
Starting point is 02:43:13 If the theory of chance is right, then creation is nothing but a dice box, the issue of every throw unforeseen. He held that in nothing is designed more visible than in evolution, with its enduring elements of pre-vision and provision. If evolution were merely chance, creation would be chaos. And he once said to Lucretia, what the learned call chance, I, who am not learned, call intention. Look at this little daisy.
Starting point is 02:43:51 its colour, its form, the hand that grasps the petals, the airy beauty of the orange throne in the heart of it, on which the viewless shape of the queen of the fairies sits on moonlighted nights, and let the darwins of the age call this miracle of the meadow chance, if they can or dare. In taking a ramble in some fine scenery in New Zealand, he watched two birds. called Hueyer birds and was struck by the intention in form which their procure explained. The male had a short, stout beak, the female a long curved bill. He observed that they earned their living in company thus.
Starting point is 02:44:40 The male, hopping or flying to a tree with his strong bill, knocked off the bark and exposed the grub. and the female with her long curved bill took the grub out and between them they made a meal. Thus it will be seen that when this man prayed to God, his heart spoke with conviction that he was addressing a spirit who would give him heed, though he made no sign. It was lonesome sitting there with nothing but the voice of the sea to hear and nothing but the sparkling suns of the sky to behold, for the island sank into ink on a moonless night.
Starting point is 02:45:25 He rose and made his way to the dell, and got into the cleft, and laid his broken face and weary head upon his grass pillow. He fell asleep and dreamed that his wife stood by his side. A cold star glittered on her forehead, and its radiation struck lances, of ice into his heart, he awoke. He looked for his wife and saw nothing but the stars shining at the edge of the fissure above the dell. But she had been with him, and with him in that same
Starting point is 02:46:00 repellent spirit of chastity that had sundered them. Why should we deal lightly with, or speak in scorn of our dreams? Half our lives are formed of dreams, whether the visions shape themselves, to the slumber or dwell in the stare of the waking abstract eye. The boy dreams of the sea and of fairy lands forlorn, the maiden of that ideal man, whom she shall not meet the side of the grave, the politician of power, and the philosopher of the undiscovered born,
Starting point is 02:46:38 the king of a people's love, and the beggar of a copper urnune. Rob the mind of dreams, sleeping or waking, and you extinguish one third of the solid joys of life and two-thirds of its solid troubles. Reynolds fell asleep again, but his wife did not return. End of Chapter 5. Recording by Terence Taylor Chapter 6 of Abandoned by William Clark Russell. Libravox recording. All Libravox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit Libravox.org. Recording by Barbara Dirksen. Abandoned by William Clark
Starting point is 02:47:28 Russell, Chapter 6, The Fisherman. When Reynolds again opened his eyes, the day was broad, brilliant, and noisy. He got out of the fissure which had supplied him with a sheltered, moss-coated couch, and a immediately made his way to a rise of ground to obtain a view of the sea. He swept the horizon with the practiced gaze of a sailor, observing in his wounded eye a little dimness of vision. Nothing that could be named a ship was in sight. Large dark clouds were sailing with the wind, but above them was a ceiling of mother of pearl that was settling slowly westwards. A fresh breeze was blowing. The sea was alive. The sea was alive. and leaping. On the shoal the water was the glaring whiteness of wrestling waves. The blow of the surge on
Starting point is 02:48:21 the southeast side boomed with the deep note of heavy guns through the wind. The trees sang and the surf bellowed and the full and spacious scene from dome to liquid floor, throbbed and shouted and danced and roared with the spirit of ocean liberty. Reynolds walked towards the foam heap at the foot of the cataract and drank. Then, stripping himself, plunged into the bright water of the little river, which was as sweet as honey for the distance of a half a cable, with the force of the current that was rushed through the foam mound by those waterfalls, when it grew brackish and rapidly passed into salt water. He was much refreshed by his bath and ran to and fro to dry himself, and when he had put on his clothes he walked to the sand and got upon the rocked breakfast.
Starting point is 02:49:14 He ate heartily, for these were very fat and choice oysters, though big. And for condiment they needed neither vinegar nor pepper, but the contents of the best of all cruet stands, which he had, that is, appetite. Wilsdie was thus occupied, he saw swimming deep in the green crystal space of water betwixt the rock and the shore, where the creek began to widen, a number of big fish, of which he had before taken notice. He judged by their bulk that they would weigh from eight to thirty pounds. If they were not rock cod, they resembled that fish, but some were of a different species, and they were gay with colors and shaped like perch. Reynolds saw abundance of food beneath him,
Starting point is 02:50:03 but how was he to get it? He was without hook. He was without hook. He was. or line, though there was plenty of bait in the thousands of limpetes which adhered to this and other rocks. He recollected that a naval officer who was in a surveying ship off Patagonia had told him that the longshore natives of that country took fish in this way. They fashioned lines out of tendrils of shrubbery. To the end of a line they attached a limpet. This they dropped over the edge of their canoe. gorged the limpet and was warily drawn to the surface by the fisherman, who then dexterously passed his hand under the fish and tossed it out of the water into the boat. This memory determined Reynolds to try his hand. He was a sailor and the possessor of a knife
Starting point is 02:50:55 and burning glass, and thus he quipped he could not be at a loss. But as he never could be in want of food whilst oysters and other shellfish abounded, he resolved first to explore the island and to climb its highest point, which was a hill several hundred feet high, that hill from whose steeps the cataracts blew their trumpets. It must be his business to prepare the means of making a smoke should a sail heave into view. He wished to catch a sight of himself to judge of the extent of the injuries to his face. but there was no pool of water that was not blurred by the hurrying fingers of the wind. He got upon the shore and set out upon his adventures. This little principality was but a mile long, as you have heard, and three-quarters of a mile
Starting point is 02:51:48 wide, and it was to be compassed and examined without much fatigue of walking. He climbed the hill and gained the summit, and the island lay below him in green and brown and gray, tender with verdure, and splendid with its mighty dazzle of foam on the southeast side, and the brilliant cream of the surf that roared upon its coral strand from north to right, around by west to south. It blew fresh up there where he was, and the salt song shrilled past his ears as though he was aloft in a squall on a top gallant yard. There was a hollow, a short distance down, and in that hollow he determined to collect the materials for a fire. But he was compelled to make many journeys before his heap for burning was collected and sufficient.
Starting point is 02:52:44 There was no wood fit for his purpose on the hill. He cut and hacked with his knife, and painfully ascended with his arms full, but he did not cease in his toil until his work was ended, and then he sat down on the top of the hill to rest and muse and survey the sea line. He asked himself, What is my chance of escape? The island was far out of the track of steamers bound north or south. Nothing was likely to come that way but a ship blown out of her course, or a whaler, to whom this island might be known for the purity and value of its fresh water. He had again and again looked at his chart before the shipwreck, and memory submitted a clear map of his situation to him. He understood with a sense of dismay that grew into consternation
Starting point is 02:53:38 as he realized the magnitude of his ocean loneliness, that weeks, that months, nay, that even years might pass and find him, if alive, a captive on this shore. The weight of a reflection so enormous was crushing, and he said to himself, Oh, my great God, it may happen as I fear. And again, his heart was rent by an insupportable pang of yearning for one, but for one companion only to speak to. This passionate desire caused him to scrutinize the coast and foreshore of which he commanded the whole extent from where he sat. But he could not perceive the least signs of wreckage, or anything resembling a stranded human body.
Starting point is 02:54:26 His spirits were so sunk that he found no heart to make grass lines for fishing that day. And until he laid himself down in the cleft in the side of the dell, he rambled aimlessly here and there, often sending a forlorn gaze seawords, sometimes sitting with his head bowed upon his folded arms, sometimes going to the river for a drink of water, twice to his rock for oysters. He looked at the trees for fruit, but saw none. Here on this island was vegetation that he had met with in other parts of the world. Some flowers, one of which he plucked,
Starting point is 02:55:07 but it was without smell, though he afterwards discovered that this flower blew a very sweet perfume at nightfall and through the darkness, and likewise when the moon whitened to the scene. The several gross were more or less familiar to him, for in his time Reynolds had visited many different parts of the globe, but in respect of knowledge, he was like the boy who, in speaking of the letters of the alphabet, told the schoolmaster that he knew them by their faces but not by their names. Next morning, which was another windy, sparkling singing day, much like that which was gone, he fell to his task of making fishing lines after he had bathed and breakfasted. He cut some long grass and plated it, but found that when it was in six or eight strands,
Starting point is 02:56:00 it broke easily. He strolled to some of the trees, conceiving he might meet with some wild-like tendrils, and sure enough, he discovered, coiled round the trunks of several dwarf trees in a little bit of wood near the dell, a parasitic growth of the thickness of the thong of a coach-whip and a strong. He cut away one and uncoiled its embrace and found himself equipped with a supple fishing line between eight and ten feet long, strong enough to have hanged him with. He was pondering how he should attach a limpet to the end of this creeper when his eye was taken by a little collection of bush, in the midst of which he seemed to see a sort of darkness. He approached the bushes and found himself looking into the mouth of a cave.
Starting point is 02:56:52 The aperture was scarcely obstructed by the growth which stood thick on either hand, leaving the mouth a sort of blackness when viewed from a distance. The entrance was a little more than the height of a man. Though a natural formation, the roof of the opening stood out from the slope of the land as though the invention of human labor. Reynolds went close and peered in, and as he stared, a large seabird came sailing out. It looked like a ghost as it grew out of its own glimmering, and it hit Reynolds over the face with its wing. It would have knocked his cap off had he been covered. He started back in terror.
Starting point is 02:57:34 The apparition was sudden and unexpected, and at the instant frightful to the man whose nerves were very low. But when following the thing with his eye, he perceived that it was a very large kind of seagull, white and gray and feathers, seemingly sick, for its flight was languid, and it sank upon the ground after a short excursion. His spirits rallied, and again he peered into the cave. He entered by several paces, and then stood stock still, awaiting the passage of another seabird, for this might be a kind of hospital for decayed ocean foul. And then his eyes growing used to the shadow, he found himself in a natural cavern running back from its mouth about 20 feet,
Starting point is 02:58:23 sloping low at the extremity so as to oblige one who went there to crouch, but in the middle part, tall enough to stand under, the walls about eight feet apart. As his vision grew educated to the gloom, objects shaped themselves, within its horizon, and he judged that this in its day had been the haunt of one man or more. The floor was hard and sandy with a little dim sheen on it, as though it was bestroon with grit which possessed a property of shining. On the left-hand side stood an old-fashioned sea-chest. Close against it, resting against the wall was a shovel of a very elderly pattern, upon the ground
Starting point is 02:59:08 were a musket and a carpenter's axe. Reynolds went to the chest and found it locked. He picked up the axe, and, forcing the sharp corner of the cutting part betwixt the lid and the side, he prized the lid open. Indeed, it was something rotten, and not only did the wood split and yield very easily,
Starting point is 02:59:30 but the metal of the lock and the screws and nails about it showed like old teeth, grinning and rusty. The chest was furnished with a shelf in which he found a brass tobacco box, some clay pipes, three spade guineas, and a few five-shilling pieces, and some shillings, about three pounds of leaf tobacco bound in canvas and twine, a coil of copper wire, a roll of yellowing paper, and a flat pencil. In the chest were two pairs of cloth knee breeches, several pairs of coarse gray stockings, two pairs of buckle shoes, two waistcoats, one coat, and a cloak with a chain to connect it at the throat. He judged the date of this apparel to be about 1800. On the lid of the chest were chiseled deep two letters, L.B.
Starting point is 03:00:25 He looked about him for the remains of a man in the shape of human bones. Nothing in that way was to be seen. It was clear from the state of the chest that the cave had, not been entered since the departure of the man or men who had used it. He conjectured that the furniture illustrated a story of shipwreck. Some men had come ashore from a foundered craft, bringing with them the sea-chest, the shovel, axe, and musket. Whether they had been taken off, or whether they had perished or rotted out of being on this island was not to be gathered from their dumb memorials. and yet it warmed Reynolds with a little heat of cheerfulness to reflect that others had been here before him. The sense of previous life, though charged as that life might have been with dire suffering and a miserable ending, humanized the island.
Starting point is 03:01:24 He again scrutinized this interior for signs of human remains, and then stepped out into the daylight, bearing with him the creeper he had cut from the tree. It is difficult to imagine any scene of human life more interesting than the spectacle of a man suddenly flung by some such stress of destiny as shipwreck, from all the resources of civilization, into the obligation of living as though he was something primordial, dwelling in a time that he knew not the plow nor the blacksmith, nor the shop which calls itself, stores. A man is cast almost naked upon an island coast. He is alone, a Caruso, a Selkirk. How shall he feed and clothe and shelter himself? His needs must fire his ingenuity. The mongrel dog knows as well as the two-legged customer the butcher's of the town, and lives by snatching. A hungry, half-stripped man deals with nature as the mongrel with the butcher. He scrutinizes her, not an admiration of her divine skill, but for what he can steal from her to eat.
Starting point is 03:02:41 Whether a princely nobleman would, as a castaway, suffer equally with a sweep in a like situation, might depend upon the state of his health. It would be true, perhaps, if it be said that we should take more interest in the struggles of his grace to find a breakfast on a rock, or a supper in a tree, than in the labors of a man whom a bloater and a potato are a banquet. Outside the cave, Reynolds felt considering his fishing line and how he was debated with a limpid. And whilst he reflected, he constantly sent looks at the horizon, for at any moment the white star of a sail or the stain of a steamer's smoke might break the continuity of that everlasting girdle. Suddenly, it entered his head to use the copper wire, in the sea chest. He re-entered the cave and took the wire from its shelf, brought a guinea to the
Starting point is 03:03:38 cavern's mouth to examine it, went back and picked up some of the clothes and carried them out into the light. They were perhaps a hundred years old, and almost rotten save the cloak, which, being made of some strong-ribbed material like corduroy, seemed as stout and promised to be as useful as though it was fresh from the sign of the board and shears. He left the clothes on the ground as worthless to him, and by the help of the axe he struck a nail from the ripped lock of the sea chest and hammered it into the side of the cave and hung up the cloak. He brought the little parcel of tobacco to the light and cut it open, but the leaves within crumbled to powder when he touched them and he threw the stuff away. Now, drawing forth the copper wire, he cut off a piece and passed it through the end of the creeper,
Starting point is 03:04:31 turning it up into the shape of a hook and thus armed, he made his way to the rock. This business occupied his mind and kept him a little away from melancholy. He took his meteorite, which lay on the shore near the rock, and struck at some limpets. These creatures adhere with so much tenacity that to detach one you must strike with a force of 62-ponement. pounds, that is to say, close upon two thousand times its own weight. He baited his strange fishing line and dropped it into the water. In a few moments a fish of about ten pounds floated up and swallowed the bait, and then Reynolds perceived that he had calculated a miss. He brought the fish to the surface, but when he tried to land it he drew the bait out of the creature's throat and perceived unless
Starting point is 03:05:22 Patagonian-wise, he could pass his hand or something else under the fish, his angling would be little more than a tickling. He must make a net stout enough to lift the fish onto the rock. He regained the island, leaving his line and the cucumber-shaped stone on the shore opposite the rock, and walked inland with many a glance at the horizon. He easily understood what to do. He selected two bows and curved them into a hoop binding them with strong fibers of creepers. He then cut another bow for a handle, and this he skillfully secured to the hoop by cleaving one end of the stick and fitting the hoop into it and securely binding it. He chose fibers of creepers for a mesh and, cutting as much as he needed, sat down in the shadow of a tree and began to weave. It was now past noon. The sun was high and shone with great splendor upon the sea, which was full of the life of the fresh breeze. The booming of the surf was like the roaring of a city heard from a church top. The seabirds slanted and curved in lovely flight, and the waterfalls sparkled like quicksilver into the glory of foam at their foot. From time to time he would remit the diligent plying of his fingers to look seawards, and the waterfalls sparkled like quicksilver into the glory of foam at their foot. From time to time he would remit the diligent, plying of his fingers to look seawards, and the
Starting point is 03:06:47 than around him. It was a kind of toil that suffered plenty of room for thought. His fancies flowed to his wife and he said to himself, supposing she had consented to stay with me, and she had been saved with me only, and we two had found ourselves alone upon this island, how strange it would have been! How would I have cherished her! What delight should I have found in this imprisonment in providing for her once? that hereafter, should it have ever come to our being rescued, we should both recall this island as a happy garden, an ocean's gift of a dwelling for us whilst our honeymoon ran. He sighed, and his hands sank, and for some minutes he sat motionless with his eyes fixed upon the grass. The tree overhead sang and shivered and scintillated with little sons, and the taller
Starting point is 03:07:43 shrubs and bushes were gay, with nods and becks and wreathed smiles, as though there were a minstrelsy in the breeze which made them dance. A great quantity of mushrooms flourished in this island. Reynolds had peered at the trees for fruit, but it had not occurred to him to look upon the earth for food. His eye, lighting on some mushrooms, it struck him that they would be good to eat and supply the absence of bread, and going to them he picked one, and knew enough of the vegetable world to distinguish at once the eatable fungus from the toadstool. He skinned some and eat them with relish. His work of weaving was not half-ended when the dusk came. He had often dropped the job to climb a height and scan the sea, to walk to the river to drink, and twice to the
Starting point is 03:08:37 rock for oysters. In that part of the world, it was the season that corresponds with our July, and extremely warm. Indeed, the sun bit with a fang of fire, but the shadows cast by the trees were deliciously fanned by the fresh wind. Another night had come. He had no mind to occupy the cave. He was a sailor, accustomed to the wide freedom of the sea, and the idea of the natural bed in the dell, over which sparkled the firmament, pleased him better than the thought of the cave, which was a sort of sepulcher to his imagination, with its mute memorials of human life which had passed. He, however, entered it to fetch the cloak which he spread on the floor of the fissure, and it made him, with the moss beneath, a softer couch than many he had dreamed deeply on
Starting point is 03:09:34 at sea. Next morning, after bathing and breakfasting as before, he went to work again upon his landing net, which he completed in the early afternoon. Already the spirit of solitude was doing its work in him. His beard and mustache had sprouted and accented a melancholy shadow in the hollows under his cheekbones. He was bareheaded and his hair lay wild. The wounds at the corner of his mouth and eye had healed. He was sensible that the sight of his left eye was affected,
Starting point is 03:10:10 but he could not have imagined how great was the structural change in his face in consequence of the injuries. To be sure, when his mustache grew, the disfigurement at the corner of the mouth would be concealed, but the real transformation lay in the left side of his face, owing to distortion of the eyebrow and to a new expression of the eye drawn by the pencils of the healed flesh. He had looked into some pools of water here and there, but in no silent surface even could he find an adequate portrait. The misery of his situation had already wrought in him, and was strangely
Starting point is 03:10:52 visible in the infixed sadness of his looks. But it was not only his shipwreck, his being a lamentable castaway, his being so alone that if he had been that last man described by the poet Campbell, he could not have been lonelier. There was memory to yellow and skeleton eyes what had otherwise been the green leaves of his mind. Even as he sat making his landing net, he would think of his wife and wonder why she had forsaken him, whether through some perversion of brain she had, when standing before the altar, conceived something in him, a quality of mind, a characteristic of person that had suddenly excited in her a deep and abiding loathing. Then, too, he mourned the death of his friend Featherbridge, and the shocking, tragical extinction of the whole of the ship's
Starting point is 03:11:48 company. For men who are cooped up for many long weeks together in a ship will take that coloring of sentiment which the sailor feels when he speaks of a messmate and a shipmate. All those men whom he had commanded, who had sprang readily to his order, who had proved dutiful and an excellent crew, for he was a sailor who knew how to treat sailors, were as clean gone out of life as the cloud that sailed two hours before across the sky. Here were thoughts to put a pang into every heartbeat, a sigh into every respiration. His fish lifter was a basket rather than a net. He carried it to the rock and baited his line. The fish, unused to the sight of the human figure and ignorant of the human character,
Starting point is 03:12:40 exhibited a tameness that would have been as shocking to Reynolds, as Cowper thought a like sort of indifference must have proved to Selkirk had he heated it. They floated in various sized green and silver shapes beneath him, and scarce was the limpet under the water when a fine fish gorged it. Reynolds softly brought his prey to the surface and then, quickly putting his basket under it, whipped the noble fish onto the rock, a prize of 15 pounds weight where it sprang and gasped. This was a clever achievement and Reynolds was sensible of a little heat of triumph. Whilst he watched his victim, he considered how he should cook him. His first idea had been to dig a pit for a furnace, which was now quite easy, as there was a shovel in the cave. Over this pit, he proposed to arch a stout
Starting point is 03:13:37 bow and hang by grass a stake of fish over the fire. He foresaw trouble, first because only the lower part of the fish would be baked, and next, because the fire was certain to burn the grass land yard and let the fish fall into the flames. But it now occurred to him to use the shovel for a frying pan. So, full of this business, he took up the fish and carried it to the mainland, and walked with it to the cave where he placed it for safety, as he had no mind after his labors to be robbed by those insatiate gentry of the air who were wheeling and curving over the sea by the shore and sometimes over the land. He laid hold of the shovel and saw that it would serve very well indeed as a frying pan after it had dug him an oven. He pulled off his coat and waistcoat and placed them in the cave and began to dig outside
Starting point is 03:14:37 and dug with such diligence as though he were a trappist intent on his own grave, that in a very short time he had made a considerable square hole. He took care that it should be well in the sun, as he needed the fire of that luminary for his burning glass. He then collected a quantity of fuel and set fire with his burning glass to some grass as dry as hay, and the fire burnt merrily. With the axe which was in the cave he cut wood into little logs, and presently the hole was glowing, and a delicate blue smoke was soaring and arching over when the wind took it like a feather.
Starting point is 03:15:19 He thoroughly cleaned the inside of the shovel, then stepped into the cave and gutted his fish and cut it into stakes, two or three of which he lay in the shovel along with the creature's liver and some slices of mushroom. Next, going to the fire with his shovel thus furnished, he placed his queer frying-pan upon the furnace, contriving that it should rest without his support, and with his knife he turned the slices of fish about, until one of the goodliest smells he had smelt for a long time past arose. For here was a fish wonderfully fresh and sweet from its native brine, resembling a cod, though the flesh looked like turbot. It was a real treat to the poor fellow, whose nature loneliness was coloring with a childlike simplicity, insomuch that presently he would be finding a joy in very little things,
Starting point is 03:16:18 and a keen distress in trifles, as a prisoner long confined, gets to love a spider, and tears his hair when it dies, or as a sailor after a long voyage takes delight or finds trouble in things whose Triviality excites the wonder of the people he steps ashore amongst. A number of seabirds flew in circles over his head whilst he cooked. When the meal was prepared, he plucked a large leaf for a tablecloth and set a fried steak and mushrooms upon it and fell to scarcely missing salt. Maybe the sweat of his toil supplied that seasoning for his appetite. Never had he banqueted more sumptuous.
Starting point is 03:17:03 and when he had drank from the river he felt strongly the force and truth of the line man wants but little here below even if he should want that little long this day passed and the next and the hours moving into weeks swelled into a month which was like to prove a twelve month and perhaps a lifetime for all this man could tell for never once though he was ever on the watch did he catch sight of a sail or the shadow of smoke. Constantly he would ascend the hill from the hollow where he had assembled the materials for a fire, and strain his sight until the balls of vision ached. He was now bearded and his mouth concealed by hair. Although no more than a month had passed, he looked as wild, pale, and ragged as any wretched pauper that one meets on a highway, with his skirts and ribbons and limping in old boots, of which you shall presently meet one left in the middle of the road, discarded forever, an object very fit to muse upon. This brought him into the month
Starting point is 03:18:15 of March. One night he had put himself away in his cleft, which he continued to occupy, as his first aversion to sleeping in the cave had by now, by the strain of melancholy that was in his mind, being changed into a sort of superstition, and as a lonesome man he was afraid to rest in that place. The moon was up, and her light shone in a fine silver haze in the dell. The night was still, the trees slumbered. The little white cloud on high lingered as though for the love of the glorious, glowing star that gemmed its skirt. But old ocean, perturbed by memories of wreck and ruin, tossed in her dreams and shouted as she drove her liquid shoulders at the island's step, and muttered moodily and hissed her own thoughts on the coral strand. The whiteness and coolness and
Starting point is 03:19:12 calmness of the night brought Lucretia into Reynolds' mind, and he remembered his dream as she appeared to him with a light on her brow that froze his heart with lances of ice. He thought of her. Her eyes were a clear, liquid dusk, within whose tender horizons' admiration witnessed the passions, the sensibilities, the tastes it desired for so fine a figure of a woman. What was the truth? Her eyes were altars on which her spirit had placed the cold white lamps of chastity, lights which like the remote stars revealed themselves only and warmed and illuminated nothing. He lay thinking of his wife with his eyes upon the moon, which, with a considerable circle of sky over the dell, was visible to him in the position he occupied on that natural shelf.
Starting point is 03:20:09 The moon stands as a symbol of purity. Such beautiful women as Lucretia should be viewed by the moonlight only. The moon stands as a symbol of desolation, and the words which Tennyson makes Lucretius use in his reference to the seat of the gods are strangely applicable to our satellite. Where never creeps a cloud or moves a wind, nor ever falls the least white star of snow, nor ever lowest roll of thunder mourns, nor sound of human sorrow mounts to mourns, nor sound of human sorrow mounts to It's sacred, everlasting calm. He fell asleep for about two hours, then opened his eyes, waking suddenly. The dell was still bathed in the moonshine, and he saw the figure of a man who was walking very slowly. Every bush cast its ebony shadow, but the figure of this man was shadowless. He was dressed in a long coat with side skirts of the old-fashioned sort, knee breeches and shoes and held his hat in his hand.
Starting point is 03:21:21 His face in the moonlight was pale and full and it was without hair. He was bald with flowing hair falling from the semicircle it made at the back of his head between his ears. Reynolds' heartbeat hard. He stared, and if that which was perceptible to him had been visible to an onlooker, it would have been difficult for him to decide which was the stranger's sight.
Starting point is 03:21:46 the face of the living man in that cleft or the apparition he watched. He took notice again that it was shadowless whilst at the foot of every bush slept its ebb and ghost. He threw his legs over and got out and stood looking at the shape as it walked, approached a step with his heart thundering, like the swell against the cliff in his ear, stood still and looked, and found he was alone. Slowly he turned his eyes round the dell. The vision of the brain had vanished. He was odd and terrified. He perfectly understood that what he had beheld was an illusion, and he conceived that it was a sign he was losing his reason.
Starting point is 03:22:31 Or could it be that he had dreamt vividly that he had seen a ghost and had left the ledge to watch it, and it had disappeared because he awoke, having quitted his bed, in his sleep, with the dream working in his head? He was without superstition. He had never believed in ghosts. He knew that what had stalked in the dell was an imagination, a deceit, a coinage of some brain-cell that had mutinied and irresponsibly acted, but for the rest of the night he could not sleep, nor for many days afterwards could he shake off the horror that that vision of the dell was a premonition of madness. Wherein he proved that not then at all events was he mad, for he was unwittingly following the logic of Coleridge who said, if I see a figure enter a room and know that it is unreal, I am not
Starting point is 03:23:28 mad, but if I start and believe it real and behave, whether by a cost or by other conduct, as though it were an actual entity, I am mad. The poet's reasoning ran to this effect, not quite in these words. It was certainly very strange that the shape should have been attired in the costume in the sea-chest in the cave. Yet, it might easily have been that the irresponsible brain cell in indulging in this freak would select the garb and figure a presentiment of one who was perhaps the last man who had lived on this island. The months rolled on, and Reynolds remained. alone. End of Chapter 6. Chapter 7 of Abandoned by William Clark Russell.
Starting point is 03:24:20 This is a Libervox recording. All LiverVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit Libervox.org. Recording by Gary Olman. Abandoned by William Clark Russell. Chapter 7 The Boats Crew came September 14, 1891, a bright, cool morning, making it seven months and rather more since Captain Francis Reynolds was flung ashore, bruised, bleeding, and insensible on the uninhabited island
Starting point is 03:24:57 of Santos Christos, there to languish, during which time he had never once set eyes on a sail of a ship or the smoke of a steamer by day, whatever may have passed in the night. He knew not the day nor the month. In seven months he had not spoken. No, there was not even a dog nor a parrot for him to address. Sometimes in the beginning he would speak aloud to himself, fearful lest his voice should perish by disuse. But he neglected this custom later on and never broke the silence, not even when he put up a prayer for mercy and deliverance. He was now presenting the most grotesque and uncouth appearance that could be imagined. His hair is. turn gray and streamed far down his back, like that of the Welsh bards of yore. A considerable
Starting point is 03:25:47 beard had grown, and his cheeks and his mouth, and half of his breasts were concealed by hair. His left eye was dim and stained, and his vision was so weak that when he looked through it alone, closing the other eye, he could barely distinguish the outline of a tree, 50 feet distance. And all about that side of his head was the puckered flesh and distorted bone and defacing wound. He was much burnt by exposure to the sun, but the mahogany was not the healthy brand of the sky and sea, blistered sailor. There was mixed with it a sort of ashyness, which produced a complexion impossible to convey in words. His clothes and boots were sadly broken. the shoes in the sea-chest were too small for him. He presented, indeed, a most melancholy,
Starting point is 03:26:41 shocking finger, stooped, suggesting by attitude and motion of perpetual hopelessness and heart that would have moved the most soulless to witness. On the morning named, he left the fissure, which he had continued to occupy, having outlived the trouble of the ghost who had never again appeared and made his way slowly to the horseshoe river where he drank and washed and then came back to the cave where lying in the shovel with some cutlets of cooked fish. He took one and sat down outside the cave and began to eat. Whilst he was eating, he chanced to cast his eye up at the slope above the dell and beheld the man. The man stood looking at him. He wore a fur cap and sleeved waistcoat and piled cloth breeches. The arm with which Reynolds was feeding himself was
Starting point is 03:27:34 blasted as though struck by lightning. The whole man was turned into an inhibitable effigy of stone. The morning, as had been said, was bright and cool. The splendor of the sun was far-reaching. The life of the earth, of the ocean, of the heavens was in the bending and swaying of plants. in the movement of the bows of the trees, in the sparkling fall of cataracts, in the resounding organ notes of the sea, in the speeding of clouds. Yonder then surely was no ghost. Hello, shouted the man. Who are you down there?
Starting point is 03:28:11 Then turning, he bawled with the sharp of his hand at his mouth. I say, Mace, there's a man down there, eating his breakfast, looking as though he belonged to the island. Then again addressing himself to Reynolds, he cried, Are you English? How long have you been here? And with that he stepped out to approach him. Even as he walked, the forms of several other men appeared on the rise which he had quitted. Reynolds rose. The piece of fish he was eating fell. He was trembling violently. His features worked as though he had in convulsion. As the man approached him, a wild smile irradiated his face as though a beam of electric light had been passed over it,
Starting point is 03:28:53 and he dropped upon the ground in a fit. The men were collected about him were seven in number. Six were manifestly sailors. The seventh was a strange and striking-looking personage, about six feet tall, broad, and so stout about the chest that he seemed to be patted. He was bearded and looked about 50 years of age. He had a large, full, wild face,
Starting point is 03:29:17 rather protruding eyes, bland, like cows with intellect and thought in their resists. residual expression. Has he dropped dead for the joy at the side of us, said one of the sailors? I've heard of such things. How long has he been here, I wonder, said another. Turn him over,
Starting point is 03:29:35 exclaimed the tall man, pronouncing these few words with great deliberation and slight Irish accent. Poor fellow, he claimed, looking at Reynolds, whose face, though calm in the oblivion of the brain, was pregnant with pathos and the appealing
Starting point is 03:29:51 expression, the spirit of solitude had chiseled upon it. Is he dead, sir, do you think? Said a man. The tall person had stooped and felt Reynolds' wrist and said, no. I guess by his appearance that he's been here many weeks. Why, ain't that a cave? said a man. That's the pit he uses for cooking, exclaimed another. Three or four of the sailors left Reynolds to the tall men and two who stayed and entered the cave. They peered in wearily, then entered. They blinked a bit before they could fairly see, and then one said,
Starting point is 03:30:25 See, that's their shovel. God's life, that's how he cooked his food. See the bits of fish in it? Bullies. A regular castaway, and no blooming mistake, said another. Here's his old chest, cried one, with his letters cut on it. Why, whoever sees a chest like this nowadays. How old is he?
Starting point is 03:30:45 Why, this old chest, all of a hundred years old, you'llay. He opened the lid. we know Reynolds had removed the clothes. Why, see, here, continued the man taking up one of the buckle shoes. This is what they wear when they dress up for old men in stage plays. Shoes of this pattern hadn't been worn for a century. And look at this old gun lying down there, exclaimed another. My grandfather had a piece like that, and it belonged to his grandfather.
Starting point is 03:31:14 So how old is that gun, I should like to know. Ain't there on a yawn, said a man about a Dutchman, fell asleep upon the top of a mountain when he was young and came down bald with a long beard and found everybody he had known dead and gone years and years. There wasn't even anybody as he might have owed money to alive to ask him for it. A man lifted the lid of the shelf. What's this? said he, picking up a guinea. It was examined by the others whilst the first man scrutinized the silver. It's good money, said a man. More here than a month's bay by a long chalk. the dating of it'll tell you how old it is what's the latest number here's a bit marked in eighteen one explained at sailor talking in the bed of light at the mouth in a cave
Starting point is 03:32:03 poor old man said the others they replaced the money and went out reynolds was just then coming to he was fetching his breath with difficulty and opening and shutting his eyes there's evidence in that cave mr goodhart said the sailor in the sleeve waistcoat and fur cap that this man can't be less than a hundred and thirty years old what do you mean asked one of the men who had stayed go and look for yourself was the answer there's a musket that's over a hundred years old his sea-chest just as ancient the youngest of his money is marked eighteen hundred and one reynolds opened his eyes gave two or three gaffes made an effort to sit up was helped by the man who had been called mr goodhart into a sitting posture rolled his eyes with tokens of a astonishment and of a spirit kindling into transport. Tried to speak, mudded water, and then continued to steer around upon the men. Where's fresh water to be got? asked the man in a waistcoat. Reynolds pointed to the cascades. What's it to be brought in? It continued a man. It did not seem that Reynolds could speak until he had drank. One went to the cave and came back saying there was nothing that could hold water in it. Run down to the boat for the soup and bully can,
Starting point is 03:33:24 one of you said Mr. Goodhart. A man procured this can, went into the river, and returned. During his absence, the sailors who thought Reynolds was 130 years old, gazed at him with the emotions of a boy who views a mummy. The man who brought the water exclaimed, Oyster shells had been used for drinking with down at that river, a blamed sweet river. It "'Begins up there,' said he, pointing at the cascades, "'and it's like watching fire-engines are playing. "'Go and taste it. "'Nicest drop of water I ever swallowed.'
Starting point is 03:33:57 "' Whilst this was being said, "'Rannels drank, and the drought liberated his voice. "'He strained his sighted at the only piece of sea "'that was visible from the place they occupied and said, "'Where's your ship?' "'At the bottom of the sea,' answered Goodard, "'and then with a singularly cordial manner, "'very gentle and charming, with kindness,
Starting point is 03:34:16 he said, pray, what might be your name? Francis Reynolds. How long have you been here? Reynolds struggled with his memory and replied, I have lost all tally of weeks. Today, said Goodhart, is September 14, 1891. My ship answered Reynolds was lost and I was cast ashore here on February 2, 1891. Silently and secretly computing, he was overwhelmed by the magnitude of his time of loneliness. What was your ship? The flying spur. A steamer? No. Were you a passenger? I was a master. At this, the sailors stared at him with a attention which was tinctured with visible color of respect. A master, explained Goodhart. Are you the only survivor? The only survivor. Life was brisker in him now, and memory quickened and he began to talk. There had been times when he believed he should, by long and forced silence,
Starting point is 03:35:15 the power of articulation. He spoke well with fluency, for this man, through reading and reflection, was a master of an ample vocabulary. The sailors knew that they were in the presence of a gentleman and an educated man, and they ceased to think him 130 years old. Goodard followed the narrative with sympathy and earnest attention. The life belt, I came ashore him, is somewhere about, said Reynolds. My ship's name is on it. What's your story? I'm going for a drink. of fresh water, said a sailor. What's there good to eat on this island? asked the man in the sleeved waistcoat. Plenty of fish and oysters, no fruit nor vegetables, saving mushrooms. Answered Reynolds. What's your story, sir? The man went roaming off in ones and twos, and
Starting point is 03:36:02 Kudad sat down beside Reynolds. We have not been arrived above an hour, said he. I was a passenger in the ship and the only passenger. She was the bark, Esmond, of nine hundred, tons bound from Sydney to Valparaiso and thence to San Francisco. A captain was a man named Mordaunt and his wife and child were on board, but I was the only passenger in the sense of paying for the cabin. I was at sea when a boy. My health needed a successive change of climates, so knowing Mordaunt, who was a very good fellow, I hired a cabin in the Esmond intending to make my way from San Francisco to New York and so to England. Three days ago, we were in a collision with a large steel sailing ship, which cut us down on the starboard bow
Starting point is 03:36:52 and made off in the gloom of the evening and vanished. The water gained upon us, but we held on till yesterday evening when the ship was within half an hour of floundering. This gave us time to lower the boats and stocked them. The captain went with his wife and child and a little crowd. There was another boat and ours. The man who fetched the water for you was the boatswain. We lost sight of the other boats in the night, and this island shone out upon us this morning when the sun rose. You have been seven months here, he added, looking slowly around him. Am I to believe that no ship has ever come within sight of this island in all that time? I vowed to God, answered Reynolds, that I have not once caught sight of a sail or smoke.
Starting point is 03:37:38 But surely, he said Goodhart, an island almost directly in the way of the course shaped by vessels bound from Australia to South Chilean ports must often be passed by ships. Never have I seen one, cried Reynolds, though conceived the sort of lookout a man of my situation would keep. Good Art looked very pensive. Reynolds cried rapturously in a sudden hurry of joy. How often have I exclaimed to myself if I had but one, but one to speak to, and laying hold of Goddard's hand, he bowed his head. viewed the poor fellow with a most noble and touching expression of pity that seemed to lie upon his face like a sort of holy light, as though there was something divine in the spirit within him, and that shone in his face as one could conceive of a saint or of the redeemer.
Starting point is 03:38:31 Goodhart viewed the poor fellow with a most noble and touching expression of pity that seemed to lie upon his face like a sort of holy light, as though there was something divine in the spirit within him. And that shone in his face as one could conceive of a saint or of the redeemer, not to speak profanely when he addressed soothing words. Reynolds released his hand and Goodhart looked towards the cave ass. Do you sleep here? No. My bed is yonder in a crack in the embankment of that dell. This island has been occupied.
Starting point is 03:39:07 I found some old relics of human habit. in that cave. How have you lived? I have taken fish and drank that water, answered Reynolds, directing his eye at the Cascades. When do you mean to start? I shall not trust my life to an open boat, answered good art. This is solid land, and I intend to remain to be taken off. Reynolds looks startled. You will not surely remain alone here. A thousand times over, sooner, then take the risk of an open boat. Consider, said Goodhart, speaking with great deliberation with a slight Irish accent. When we were in the boat, we found that she was without master sail.
Starting point is 03:39:48 Ho! explained, Reynolds. We hailed the nearest boat to be taken in tow, but I don't think she heard us. The night came along so fast that until the moon shone the sea absorbed the boats like bits of ebony afloat on ink. Next, our breaker held six gallons only. you are one of us, and think of what a breaker containing six gallons for eight men in a rowing boat and a great ocean to measure, think what such a thing signifies. But I beg your pardon, sir, you are a sailor. I quite agree with you. The risk is enormous, said Randall, but surely it is preferable to this imprisonment. No, because I am quite certain that ships do, at times, come with inside of this silence and good heart, mildly but firmly. It is a coincidence, that nothing should have appeared during you stay here. Probably within the next few days, something may come along and take us off. My heart is weak. I have suffered for years
Starting point is 03:40:46 from that organ and shall die of it. If nothing else kills me. Exposure, the horrible suffering of thirst would make haste to do their work with me, and I shrink from the idea of my body being thrown over the gunwool of the boat by those sailors. And I have my reasons for choosing a possible sentence of imprisonment here that may run into months, rather than take my chance in an open sailor's boat with seven comrades and a beaker of six gallons. And what to eat to last us if we are not soon picked up or make the land? We must rig up a mass, said Reynolds. Where's the sail to come from? exclaimed Goodhart. The sailors must stitch their shirts together, answered Reynolds. Have you got needles and thread here? None. Nothing in what,
Starting point is 03:41:34 which fresh water could may be stored? Reynolds considered and answered, nothing. The sight of these water fields makes me thirsty, said Goodhart, who rose and walked with Reynolds to the bank of the river where the bright water foamed. Here Reynolds had placed several large oyster shells for his own conveniences,
Starting point is 03:41:53 and these made good sauces for dipping and drinking. The men had drank and had lounged down to the beach for oysters and shelfers. This is delicious water, exclaimed Goodhart. and it sinks sweet and cold to one's very marrow, like the flavor of a banana after a long voyage. Ah, I have found it sweet and a good medicine, exclaimed Reynolds. A few weeks ago I received an ugly visit from an old friend of mine, Mediterranean fever.
Starting point is 03:42:22 I might guess my own temperature about 104, and a slow pulse, not the pulse of fever, and a weary throbbing headache, and a thirst which scarcely those waterfalls that he looking up were able to quench. And with the chance of that fever recovering at any moment, as its habit is, said Goddard, you would trust yourself in a boat without sails containing eight men and a beaker of six gallons. Reynolds looked down upon the ground thoughtfully. There could be no doubt that his mind had been weakened by solitude and suffering, mental and physical, and he was in a state when he was to be swayed, and not with difficulty.
Starting point is 03:43:06 There had been a time. It would have been the same with him now had he been alone. When could it have been said to him, there is an open boat in the fishing creek of yours. She is without mast or sail, and in her bow is a little casket holds six gallons of fresh water. He would have fried fish in his shovel with incomparable dispatch, hove into the boat, afraid of oysters and mushrooms, if the season yielded them and had gone away with a hemmening heart, taking its chance by sculling her out to drift into a deliverance, taking its chance of the most lonely, the most god-forsaken death a man can die, sooner than remain locked up, a broken, solitary, speechless, and hopeless prisoner in this island's solitude.
Starting point is 03:43:55 I should like to look into that cave, said Goodhart, and together they went in. Goodhart entered and gazed about him as a man, might, who inspects a room, he has a mine to rent. When the sight was used to, the gloom, goodhart examined the contents of the shelf in the chest, peered at the little bundle of clay pipes, looked at the old musket and buckled shoes. It makes one think of the old buccaneers, said he, I should say, with you. The date is about 1800. They did not maroon rend then, though it is true that the captain of a man of war sent a seaman named Jeffries ashore to perish as fast as he could. He was rescued and did well on the merits of his sufferings. Who was the owner of this chest, said he, viewing the letters on the lid?
Starting point is 03:44:47 I remember at Bath Abbey, looking down upon the pavement and seeing a memorial stone for which the lettering had been totally effaced, saving the single word Esquire, ESQ. Of such is the pomp and importance of a man. I once saw the owner of this chest walking in the dell by the moonlight, said Reynolds. The bushes made a shadow, but no shadow walk with the man. He never again returned, and I was glad. Oh, what can equal loneliness as a vision breather? exclaimed Goodhart, and yet he continued gravely regarding the old sea chest? I don't know, Captain Reynolds, why the illusions of the brain should be more unreal
Starting point is 03:45:32 than the ideas were received from our sensations. We are beset with mysteries, vaster, and more profound than ghosts. They are so familiar that few give them thought. Yet though we walk in the sunshine, no man knows what brightness is, no man what heat is. We slumber, but no man knows what sleep is. We don't know why the invented image upon the retina should be accepted right side up by the brain. We believe that time is a thing measurable by the flight of the heavenly bodies
Starting point is 03:46:05 and that it would cease if the sun stood still. But we do not know what fills the interval, sun or no sun, between our leaving a chair and reaching a door or quitting Liverpool and arriving at Boston. This was a form of speculation very much in Reynolds' way, and he watched the speaker with interest. Where do you catch fish, said Goodhart? Reynolds replied, and they walked together to the creek. A boat of a whaling pattern laid snug in the little harbor betwixt the fishing rock and the shore. Reynolds started at the side of a, oh my God, he explained softly. How often I have dreamt of such a thing.
Starting point is 03:46:49 open boat stands next to the raft in my catalog of direst horrors of the deep, exclaimed Goodhart. A man in the boat handling provisions to the rest of the fellows ashore, one or two of whom were already seated and eating. Those stood up when Goodhart and Reynolds approach. Presently, the whole company was seated and eating. They had drunk plentiful and did not want water. To Reynolds, after months of oysters and fried fish, the tin. tin meat and ships biscuits were delicious. I beg pardon, said the waist-coated man, whom we shall call boatswain. Do you catch your fish with oaks and lines? Reynolds explained how he caught fish, and added that he would catch some for them presently. Please, Captain, how far off's chilly?
Starting point is 03:47:40 Inquired a sober-looking young sailor. All three hundred miles, answered Reynolds. What other ports, sir, asked another. For Reynolds had been a master of ship, and these seamen naturally looked up to him as a navigator. San Diego, Valdevia, Valparizer, and some smaller ports was the reply. Ain't Joan Ferdin'an's knocking about close by somewhere inquired the boats in? It's as distant as the coast of Chile from this island, responded Mentals. How are you going to make a port without a sail, said Goodhart? my answer to mr goodhart was let the men take their shirt said reynolds and connect them into a sail with fibres of creepers i'm afraid said the boatswain with a slow shake of his head that such a sail ud blow away from its yard in the first bit of wind like smoke from a backy pipe have you got a compass asked reynolds no answered goodhart how are you going to find your way along inquired reynolds goodhart shrugged the shoulders by the sun and bowed by other bodies in the Evans, as others had done in their day, said the boatswain.
Starting point is 03:48:51 I'm for keeping all fast and giving ourselves a chance of a ship passing and making for her in the boat, said a sailor. Yes, exclaimed Goodhart with a warm nod of approval, but said the boatswain, here's Captain Reynolds been seven months and ever sighted a vessel. Though I reckon you kept a sharp Lookout, sir. I climb that hill two or three times a day. A lookout, but my sight is not as it was. You see, Cedar Sala, that we are shipwrecked men. I've lost all but what I'm sitting in, and I want to go ashore and begin again. I don't take on to the notion of taunting crab or cockle, and that's what a man becomes who lives without wages of clothes or a house in the islands of this shore. murmurs of approval attended this delivery i'll show you how to catch fish said reynolds he fetched his fishing line and landing basket which he kept snug in a little hole on the mainland and showed the men what they were made of
Starting point is 03:49:56 he took his meteor right and hammered off the requisite bait goodhart the sailors watched him with profound interest this was the product of bitter experience the reality of human need and suffering on nature's own stage. No delusive coinage of imagination such as a dramatist might introduce in a sea play. A fish took the bait readily, and Reynolds landed a 20-pounder of the cod species in his basket, to the admiration of the seabin. It bloomed clever, said one of them, durned if I should have thought of it. Is it your own idea, Captain, inquired Goodhart. The Patagonians fished like this was the answer. A couple of you have better turned two. said the boats and cut lines after that pattern, and I'll make another landing bank, which will be enough. Nothing more was said about stopping or going. The boats asked Reynolds if there
Starting point is 03:50:51 was a piece of sailcloth in the cave or any other stuff in the island fit to make a sail up. Reynolds told him there was not a rag except the old cloak that wrapped him at night and the clothes they wore. Some now went to work to make lines. One or two searched the island for anything that might prove useful to them, particularly for anything of which water might be stored for a boat voyage. But Reynolds could have easily told them that this quest must prove worthless. He and Good Art went to a green slope under a tree and sat down. The autumn vegetation clothed the island with many beautiful and some glowing tints. The season's growth of bathrooms was plentiful, wildflowers with petals blue and crimson and orange,
Starting point is 03:51:37 blew a small fragrance into the air. Reynolds again took notice of the peculiar bulkiness of good odds figure. It was as though he wore stays or was patted. His attire consisted of a yachting cap, a double-breasted round cloth cloak, and dark cloth trousers. He wore a wedding ring on his little finger and a large signet ring on his right forefinger.
Starting point is 03:52:02 When he seated himself now, he unbuttoned his coat. and discovered a dark red waistcoat with guilt buttons. A heavy gold chain lay upon it, and when he drew out his watch, Reynolds saw that it was fine and very valuable gold timepiece. I never thought, said Goodhart, that I should be wrecked on a desolate island. I believe I hank it after something of the sort when I was a boy. You have been sharing the experiences of Robinson Crusoe. To what degree does your practice correspondent,
Starting point is 03:52:36 with defoe's imagination. I should have been glad, answered Reynolds, had a ship been stranded within rafting distance full of everything that I wanted. It is easy for writers of romances to oblige their castaways by wrecking ships not only to feed and clothe, but to put plenty of money in their pockets.
Starting point is 03:52:56 Your reckoning makes out that I have been here seven months, and I have never caught sight of even the royals of a ship, and no more smoke than you can now see. "'You missed man Friday?' said Goodhart. "'Yes,' said Reynolds. "'What a faint smile. "'I could have put up with somebody to fish with, "'to have made signs to him, even if he knows speaking.'
Starting point is 03:53:17 "'Are you married, sir?' "'Reynolds slightly bowed. "'Any children, may I ask?' "'Rennels gravely shook his head. "'A wife in England, waiting and hoping.' "'Ah,' said Goodhart, "'with a face of abstraction as though he thought aloud. "'None but the sufferer know the pathos.
Starting point is 03:53:34 "'The pang of the heartache. the depth of human sigh, the bitterness of human tear contained in that one awful word, missing. But Captain Reynolds, I have faith in the direction of the drift and in the issues of life. It does so happen at the end that things have shaped themselves for our good. If you are spared to look back upon this incident of your career, you will find a circumstance of good in it, a gem set in a crown of thorns and nettles. which you could have done without, and would not have forfeited for twentyfold more of suffering than you have endured. Are you married, Mr. Goodhart?
Starting point is 03:54:17 This was her ring, Goodhart answered, taking between his thumb and forefinger, the wedding ring on his little finger. It was enlarged to fit me. It was her wish that I should wear it and be buried in it. She dialed in childbed. I am as absolutely alone, Captain, in this wide universe of correlations as you were yesterday. It's the happiest state of life, I exclaimed Reynolds. Nobody to work for. Nobody whose future must be your bitter business. Nobody who, by misconduct, could disgrace your honorable name. Nobody to...
Starting point is 03:54:54 He looked away to the vials of ocean recess into the miles of hollow blue there. and the figure of Lucretius shaped itself before his mental vision. He started and found good Hobbs, observing him intently. Is that an old scar, Captain, at your eye? No. When I came to after being flung ashore here, I found my brow cut and bleeding and my mouth injured. The blow has affected the sight of the damaged eye, and it may be, I hope, it may be that ships hulled down have passed and I have not seen them. I have tried to catch a sight of myself in a pool of water, but never could distinguish such an image as could give me the view I want. Am I much distorted? That could only be answered by one who knew you before you were injured. You have grown a fine
Starting point is 03:55:45 length of hair, said Goodhart, with his placid kindly smile. I ventured to say, you did not give that fathom of locks to the breeze on your quarter-deck, nor this, said Rano's grass his beard. If you stay here, time will adorn you too. I am not to be disturbed by the idea of hair, said Goodhart. Nothing shall induce me to venture my life in that boat we arrived in. Good heavens, look what a mighty surface the ocean is. What a contemptible atom, a microscopic monad, is an open boat, a vibrio of the deep which the passing telescope shall easily miss. Now it is a fact, whether credible or not, that when these two men's conversation had reached this point, it was interrupted by a fellow who was halfway up the hill of Cascades,
Starting point is 03:56:39 bellowing as though for his life, while he's flourished his hand in ecstasy of gesture in the direction of the southeast horizon. Sail hole, he bawled in a note that fell as clear upon the year as the song of a lark in the sky. Reynolds sprang to his feet. What's that, he says? He shouted, rounding to look up at the man. Sail ho! Sail ho, yelled the fellow. And some figures of a ship aides went scrambling up to him. Go and judge for yourself, Captain Reynolds, said Goodhart. My weak heart will not allow me to attempt that hill. End of Chapter 7. Recording by Gary Olman, Middletown, New York. Chapter 8 of Abandoned by William Clark Russell
Starting point is 03:57:34 This is a Libravox recording All LibraVox recordings are in the public domain For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibraVox.org. Recording by Gary Oman Abandoned by William Clark Russell Chapter 8 Conversations and Confidences Reynolds started to climb the hill,
Starting point is 03:57:59 stepping fast. He gained a group of sailors who all pointed at the sea together as he came and explained nearly in one voice. There she is, sir. Far out upon the sea hung what might have seen to a landsman, a rising star, pale as the pearl of the moon when she floats in the blue of the day. But the sailors knew that speck of light to be a ship which way standing they could not tell. Reynolds looked but could not see her. there she is sir ah they might point but reynolds failed to perceive her you have no doubt she is a ship said he with the look of a blind man as he turned his face upon the seaman oh yes sir that's the sail of a ship right enough answered the boatswain who had dropped his task of plaiting a mesh to view the ship from the hillside can you see our boat down there sir why of course clear enough and i dare say i shall be able to see that ship if she lifted her hull answered reynolds again he strove with his eyes at the sea-line and he saw nothing but the junction of heaven and water it may be that vessel have passed within sight but at a great distance and i have not seen them city she is too far off to be of any good to us said one of the men with a nod at the sail
Starting point is 03:59:22 but it's clear that this island is sighted and as i was a sand down below there i'm for keeping all fast and giving ourselves a chance before we agree to take what is to come by putting to sea without a sail and with a beaker holding six gallons of only, said Reynolds. I, said the Bootson, it ought to be a vat. You'll find plenty of fuel laid ready for a smoke up in the hollow there, said Reynolds, pointing to the place he meant. Day to day, today I have seen to that, but never a chance was given me to fire it. What do you get fired from, sir? asked Reynolds pulled out his burning glass. Can you still see her, he asked? Oh yes, answered one of the men, but she's passing away. She's dying out. One remained to watch and report. Reynolds rejoined Goodhart. I'm not surprised that you shouldn't see her, said Goodhart. You generally find that the vision of one eye sympathizes with that of the other and how far distance is she do you think? Why, we should command a view of
Starting point is 04:00:29 25 miles up there and she's just in sight. The men say and fading, said Reynolds. Well, answered Goodhart. Her appearance determines me to stop. I'm convinced that an island situated as this is must be frequently cited and occasionally visited. What do you say now to the chance supplied you by a passing ship and a fast boat to get at her, and nothing but the same boat without mast or sail and a six-gallon
Starting point is 04:00:59 keg? Oh, Mr. Goodhart, you have not yet had seven months of it, answered Reynolds, with a sort of sick shutter. But you're alive, sir, and well. And you need but a barber and a tailor to return to the aspect you have duffed. But an open boat? Figure three weeks, and all the fresh water gone,
Starting point is 04:01:18 and the fevers come upon you again. Mr. Goodhart added blandly, but with a deliberation that made you understand that the teeth of his mind was set. I stay here, and I hope these men won't be foolhardy enough to quit the island unless two percent. sewer ship. They look at the hill, and I saw the man who had been left to watch coming down, whereby they knew that the distant vision of light had vanished. The men passed the day in fishing,
Starting point is 04:01:48 cooking, preparing the cave with conches and bolsters of grass for the night. The river was just a walk for this was, as we know, but a little island one mile long and three quarters wide, and if a man felt thirsty, he could slake his thirst in a few minutes. And if a few minutes, he could slay his thirst in a few minutes in the sweet cold water that came down the hill in silver horses and foamed in glory where the little river began. A fine night came along this, the first night of Goodhart and the men of the Asvans visit. They had some plugged tobacco amongst them and there were pipes of the year 1800 of thereabouts in the old sea chest. A coat that had been taken from the chest by Reynolds and cast and left upon the floor to carry proved as good as tinder.
Starting point is 04:02:35 They cut off a piece, and Goodhart gave them a wax match out of a silver box, with which they set fire to the piece of old coat. This glowed long enough to enable them to smoke and relight and smoke again. Goodhart and Reynolds walked together upon the white beach that streamed before and behind them, like ivory in the clear light of the moon. Their shadows march black at their sides. The sea under the moon quivered with her light. The air was filled with the solemn roar of the bursting surge southeast,
Starting point is 04:03:10 and with the symbols of the cataracts threading with metallic music, the delicate orchestra of the wind in the dark vegetation, and with the weary voice of the wheeling breakers rolling into foam upon the sand. As they paced, Goodhart talked of himself. My father, he said, was a clergyman who had made a living in Ireland. Do I call it a living? God help him. We were so poor that unless he caught a hair for dinner, we went without a midday meal. Of all forms of poverty, the poverty of the poor clergyman is the most distressful, for he cannot lie in hiding as a retired serviceman might. He must go about.
Starting point is 04:03:53 His linen must be clean, his apparel decent. He must have words of sin. He must have words of sympathy and even a trifle in the muddy when, as God knows he grievously wants these things himself. He had but two children, myself and my sister. She was a girl sweet to the sight as a plum tree in May. But the good die first, said Wadsworth, and she was carried off by a galloping consumption. I did not choose to starve at home, so I made my way to Waterford and got a birth as a cabin boy and cook's mate in a crazy old brick, the Emerald Isle. She was a coaster, and the soft tack we got was not half so soft as the hard weather was hard. I afterwards shipped as an ordinary seaman in a bark commanded by a Yankee, who was without doubt the greatest outrage upon the image of God that was ever perpetuated
Starting point is 04:04:47 by those dangerous confederates against the peace of the world. I mean man and woman. I fled from this scoundrel at Boston and shipped for Australia, where in company with nearly the whole crew I ran. I found work and made a little money and married. Old Captain Reynolds, it is hard to love and lose. To love well and lose immediately. I have loved and lost and know what you mean, answered Reynolds. But your wife lives. Tell me your story, Mr. Goodhart.
Starting point is 04:05:19 It is told. I lingered in Australia, then made up my mind to re-innell. turned to England and die there. I think I explained why I chose the Esmond. Did nothing belong to your ship, a body, or what the law holds more precious, goods come ashore? Nothing. I look for a corpse. My ship's sole relic is the person who speaks to you. Do you lose much by this disaster? More than I can afford. I am a poor man. Goodhart halted and looked at the sea. It is a mighty cemetery, he said. There is no foaming head of billow that should prove one too many as a gravestone for the dead in the deep. I can't but
Starting point is 04:05:59 think drowning one of the most painful forms of death. The agony may be brief, but whilst it is with you, I have some time during my loneliness, said Reynolds, as they resume their walk, tried to disturb my mind by conjecturing whether we suffer pain after death. Goodhart's head slowly shook in the moonshine. A man dies, continued Reynolds, and a new form of vital activity begins. His body changes into chemicals, gases and the like. Are these changes accompanied by sensation? Sensations can exist without the consciousness of sensation, as we know from the circumstances that sensation occupies an appreciable time to travel from any given part of the body to the brain. If there is no consciousness to receive sensation, said Goodhart. It is not present. So far as we are concerned, and therefore, when we die,
Starting point is 04:06:59 pain ends. I forget the speed of sensation, said Reynolds. Helmholtz, answered Goodhart, computed at about 70 feet a second. Yes, I remember, exclaimed Reynolds, so that if you should let fall a paving stone on the bunion of a giant 70 feet tall, a second would elapse before his brain received the news. Another appreciable interval must be allowed to enable the molecules of the brain to adjust themselves for the reception of the report and another second must pass whilst the brain is telegraphing to the foot to kick or stamp. Sensation, therefore, in this case, is present without consciousness. Why not in a human corpse? That is undergoing all sorts of transmutations. The times have been that when the brains were out, the man would die, and there an end, answered Goodhart, I do not care whether I am to have sensation or not after I am dead. I only desire to understand that I shall not feel. You remarked this morning, Mr. Goodhart, that we are beset with mysteries, said Reynolds. What is more absolutely impenetrable than the mystery of sensation? We are told that it is merely,
Starting point is 04:08:15 the translation of the vibration of an object into consciousness in us, but why that consciousness should be clothed. The vibration would form, color, music, flavor, fragrance, softness, or hardness, heat or cold, and the countless conditions of life, spiritual and physical, is God's secret and apparently must forever be so. I answer you thus, said Goodhart. We have five senses, and all the qualities and inherent conditions of the objects we hear, see, and feel, and so on, make individual appeals to us to release senses. The objects are there, and they report themselves as there. For if they were not there, what news could vibration vehicle? I have no shadow of a doubt that, outside what we know of objects such as their perfume, brightness, shape, color,
Starting point is 04:09:13 and so on, our attributes and qualities of which we know nothing and we can know nothing, owing to the limitation of our senses. Could a man err in plucking a flower and saying there is more in this than meets the eye or the touch or the smell? This is a strange platform for the discussion of such things, said Reynolds. I judge as a sailor you have been a student, Captain Reynolds. Well, yes, I have read and I have thought. The night watch at sea finds you leisure for the latter.
Starting point is 04:09:47 Does it not occur to you, said Goodhart, that the mere circumstance of the Esmond, having gone down within a night's pull of this island, should convince us that ships must pass within sight. Yes, and that sale today is hopeful, Hanson Reynolds. But I do assure you, keyed as my lookout has been, that in seven months I have seen nothing. after a little more talk of this kind they went to rest for the night reynolds to his bed in the dell and goodhart to the cave the men had prepared grass beds for all hands the moon shone bright and goodhart easily found the mouth and entered it was very black within he struck a wax match not knowing where his couch of grass was dim outlines of sleeping men were thrown up by his little taper goodhart perceived received a vacant couch close at hand he blew out his light and lay down sailor called out and asleep ow's a man to oak on if you don't luff and shake it out of her luff damn you luff i say what buddy old owl is that a hooty exclaimed the boatswain in a deep voice a wave of snores followed and good heart slumbered with the rest reynolds and his fisher lay watching the moonshine that bathed the sky over the dell. The glowing stars of those temperate heights trembled the silver mist. The historic
Starting point is 04:11:18 hurry of mind which had been his in the morning ion, his discovery of men in the island and a boat, and which had remained his for some hours, was gone. A somber tranquility and abiding emotion of gratitude and of peace had replaced it. He lay thinking of good heart. There was something in the matter, the voice, the looks, the gentle smiles and tender pensiveness of the man that fascinated Reynolds and won his heart with the beautiful and irresistible power with which truth, no matter in what it dwells, wins human affection. He impressed him as a man whose character was a harp from whose strings the spirit fingers of the soul's swept music that was always sweet and good. When it passed between them in conversation had expressed them as intimate and sympathy, for it had not needed a
Starting point is 04:12:15 day for Reynolds to discover that Goodhart had in his time been a student and a thinker, more particularly in those metaphysical walks which Reynolds loved to tread. One point Goodhart had made clear. He was determined not to risk his life by a voyage at a little open craft, which was without master's sail, and in which it would be impossible, so barren was the island in this respect to store water enough for eight men to last even on the leanest allowance for more than two or three days. This was a resolution to give Vrentel's pause to. His desire to leave the island which was consuming when he was alone was moderated by companionship, moderated to the extent that he was too old a hand as a sailor to take his chance.
Starting point is 04:13:06 in an open sail boat when by waiting, as the sail that Hoven to site that morning promised, his deliverance might be procured with comfort and safety. If a sail could be obtained, the hazard of the warriors would be diminished, because even though they should be unable to shape a course for a port, yet by heading due east, they were bound to blow into the track of a ship steering north or south. but the start in a rowing boat he usually understand would be suicidal. And think as he might, and think as he did, as he lay straining his mind in the fissure. He could not conceive what the island might yield in the shape of a sail
Starting point is 04:13:50 unless the men put his idea about their shirts into practice, and it did not seem to him as he reflected that the manufacture of such a sail would be worth the effort. For some days the men were patient and watchful. They dried and smoked a quantity of fish, which they stocked in the locker of the stern sheets of the boat. They were also careful to keep the beaker filled with fresh water in preparation for the instant emergency. They seemed to enjoy this lounging life of the island. They culled nosegays and decorated themselves. They ate oysters and mussels.
Starting point is 04:14:27 They fished diligently and cooked their takes. and it will be judged that, after the salt-horse and worm-bored sea bread of the forecastle, the mushrooms and cod steaks and steaks of other fish, and the fish they dried and smoked, provided them with a heavenly banquet. But they had bought with them but a lentil store of plug tobacco. The pieces soon gave out, and the want started a spirit of discontent and restlessness. They hunted for a substitute but could find nothing. of any sort to replace the black cabin dish of their love. They were without rum and without
Starting point is 04:15:08 wanted tea, cocoa or coffee for a hot drink. They were sailors and a sailor without a grievance as a tool without a handle. After a few days, they began to feel thoroughly shipwrecked, and the gaze they leveled at the sea line grew more and more ardent and more and more rebellious. It was easily gatherable from their general bearing that they did not mean to stay long for a ship to appear. Goodhart and Reynolds were inseparable. They had contracted such a liking for each other as promised to become a bond of affectionate friendship. For some time, Reynolds was reserved about his past. One afternoon they were seated on a knoll in the shade where they commanded a fine view of the dazzle of thunder-sounding foam on the southeast side, and of the two lovely cataracts which
Starting point is 04:16:02 arched in apparently polished motionless glass from the rocks, then quivered into prisms tinting the immediate air with pallid lights of spectrum. Good heart for a few moments, watch the bird in silence. How wonderful that fellow's wings and body are dyed. He exclaimed, look at his white breast and the blue edgings to the indian. ago that stains the feathers of his wings. God works with a purpose in lights and colors. Oh yes, undoubtedly, said Reynolds, I've heard of a little fish whose dorsal spine consists of a long filament arching over the head and mouth, the mouth filled with frightful teeth. At the extremity of the filament, there is a brilliant phosphorescent spot. The hideous little monster hangs out,
Starting point is 04:16:50 this lovely star and everything small that comes to admire it is devourable. "'Yes,' said Goodhart. "'I have heard of a fish found three miles deep with a phosphorescent eye, "'which it kindles at pleasure, "'either to scare its enemies or allure its victims. "'Take the ponderment,' said Reynolds, "'with a glance at the wheeling sea bird that had attracted Goodhart. "'This bird is almost black in summer.
Starting point is 04:17:17 "'Nature protects it by providing changes of color with the seasons. "'If it remained black, it would be at the mercy of the hawk or the owl of winter, where the country is white with snow. In summer, the country is dark. Taunaman is black. In autumn, the country is gray, and the tonnegan turns gray. In winter, the plumage of this bird is white. This is also true of the falcon and the snowy owl.
Starting point is 04:17:44 If they were black in a country covered with snow, they would be eluded and starved. Some queer stories are told of the cuckoo. said Goodhart. It is declared that it lays eggs colored so as to deceive the birds in whose nests they are deposited. The hedge sparrow is the greatest sufferer at the hands of the cuckoo. I remember reading that a German writer had declared that the cuckoo will sometimes lay perfectly blue eggs. The hoopos are another illustration of purpose in color. The u is sandy, and by virtue of that they may be known almost certainly to be an inhabitants of sandy region. When this bird sees a hawk, it throws herself flat on the sandy ground, turns its wings up and erics its bill so as to resemble as
Starting point is 04:18:36 closely as possible a bit of old rag. He looked seawards and exclaimed, I would swear that yonder is a ship. If I were not sure that it was a cloud, he pointed. Reynolds determined they bent his vision, but what Goodark saw was invisible to him. His companion viewed him with a gaze, tender and touching with commiseration, the sympathy that does not depress like pity, but that exalts by unaffected fellowship of feeling, working like nature from the inside and not like art from the outside. I devoutly hope, said he, that we shall soon be released if only for your sake. It is sad to think of your poor wife. Reynolds fixed his eyes upon the ground. Have you been long married? Long married, exclaimed Reynolds. How long have those waterfalls been married? They leap
Starting point is 04:19:31 together and united the foot in a common grave of foam. But if they coexist, they also possess a most consuming divisibility. I tell you a queer story of a wedding, Mr. Goodhart. You are a man of deep thought and great humanity. Perhaps you will be able to suggest a key for the lock of a safe in which lies a jewel so absolutely embowled that no pearl in its oyster at the bottom of the sea is more secret in distance. Goodard's face wore an expression of benevolent attention. Conceive a man loving a woman as purely, loftily, loyally as it is into the power of male flesh and blood to love, that which God wills it to yoke. They were married. The mother of the bride was present. She was the bridegroom's very good friend and well-wisher. The bride on her return home from
Starting point is 04:20:25 the church locked herself up in her bedroom and refused to see or to speak to or to have anything to do with her husband. No, by old Harry, Mr. Goodhart, she threatened to poison herself if the man ventured so much as to approach her bedroom door. Had the married, service converted a husband into a hedgehog or a bat or a toad or something which makes women scream and shrink and faint, this wife's loathing could not have been more phenomenally profound. He had his memories of endearments and was paralyzed by astonishment and dismay and indeed despair. What had come to her? But his letters, his entreaties, her mother's influence availed nothing. He sailed from four months. He sailed from four months, leaving her behind him. His ship was burnt, and he was cast ashore on an island that was seven
Starting point is 04:21:18 months alone. After he had pronounced these words, his voice failed him. It's a strange story, Mr. Goodhart, regarding the poor fellow with an expression of touching kindness. When you sailed, you were separated? We have never lived together. When were you married? Reynolds gave him the date. Goodhart mused, and his face took on a look of judicial gravity. It is impossible to consider it as an aversion in her, he said. Human nature does not change in an hour. If we are to call it an aberration, then we shall know what to think. I shall regard it as a sudden, violent distemper of morality.
Starting point is 04:21:59 It is not dislike of you, but love of ego, a disease of self, which the psychologists would view as an antithesis of a mania not rare amongst women. If I were you, I should hail this state of shipwreck as an avenue that is to conduct you to her heart. How? Already your ship is overdue. You will soon be posted. To the imagination of your wife, you are a drowned man. Your appeal of abandonment and of death will prove an eloquence that must find her a heart.
Starting point is 04:22:35 Give her that. And when you again meet, as surely as she is human and as surely as you love her, you will find her yours by virtue of an ordeal that should make her more triumphantly your own than any other form of conquest could render her. The marriage service changed her into a statue. Nothing chiseled in marble can be more insensible. Depend upon it, Captain Reynolds, that a woman's heartbeat under the hard surface and her conviction of your death and her memory of what preceded your departure will work in her. if i return explained ronaldes with a little wildness and a look he sent to it to sea i shall not seek her to be repulsed again spat upon time mr goodhart time i have been alone for months and my thoughts have run as a lonely man's wood but despite the carb figure that weeps over the urn despite the sumptuous memorial window i must believe i must hope that the inscription wears out that the slate is cleansed by something else than tears, that the flame is often
Starting point is 04:23:47 extinguished before the candle is expended. I trust it will happen, as shall make best for your happiness, said Goodard with emotion. What is your age? Reynolds replied, and your wife's, Reynolds told him. Goodard smiled gravy. You must meet again as sweethearts, he said. You are proud of her and fond of her. Indeed, you are rapturously fond of her. Indeed, you are rapturously fond of The charm that won you is still hurts. She is your wife. Nothing but God's hand can keep you apart. Not indeed, but that chastity so rigid is extremely unamitable and very undesirable. A sister of mercy who nursed me said, To prove how bad an opinion God has of us, observe that he is perpetually replacing us and trying others. Generation succeeds generation. And what opinion I answered? Can't be?
Starting point is 04:24:40 and he have of those who think it improper to help him. It is an oversight on the part of a person to marry one with whom personal association is when rather late in the day considered objectionable. For example, how much trouble would be saved if men made it a rule to choose the right sister to begin with? The hearts of the bishops would be lighter. There would be a little less talk in the House of the Lords. you will find no difficulty in getting another birth. I can say, answered Reynolds,
Starting point is 04:25:15 captains are very plentiful, and I have not been very fortunate. I have a friend in Sydney, said Goodhart, who is a managing director of a coastwise line of steamers. The pay is good, and the people employed are loyally used. I shall be most happy to give you a letter to him. You are extremely kind, Mr. Goodhart, but you will nationally wish to return to England to follow your profession in that country. Why? Your wife is in England. Reynolds shook his head. Good heart smiled.
Starting point is 04:25:48 We were just now talking of purpose in color, said a breaking from a subject that might have easily been made painful by even a nuance of insistence. I have often asked myself, to what degree is color necessary as a fiber or thread in the whiff of a matter? The soul the light is formed of colored rays, visible and invisible, and by and in that light does creation move and have its being. But it is color essential as a constitute of matter. For instance, is color a part of the flower's life so that in the absence of color the flower would need something as necessary to as being as any formative condition of existence? Or restricting myself to the flower, is it painted merely to delight? If so, whose delight is it colored? Is it to be supposed that the sole
Starting point is 04:26:46 purpose of color is to gratify the aesthetic sense in man? The color is a created thing whose existence is independent of human sensation is too clear to need talking about. If visually we know that the color is a concomitant of state or change, we have a right to infer that color is an abiding quality in colored matter, and that the conditions under which it accompanies all mutations render, it is inseparable for matter, a property, therefore, in dwelling in objects, both in darkness and light. You mean, said Reynolds, that if, for example, you carried a red rose into a bright room, it would retain its color. I mean, answer Goodhart, that the cause of the redness remains in the rose in the black room, and what is that cause but color? It seems to me,
Starting point is 04:27:44 now what should seem stranger than the two shipwrecked men, one of whom slept in a cave, whilst the other took his rest in a fissure in a dell, should be found upon a little island, seated on a grassy rise in the shade discussing abstract problems of science with as much sincerity as if they were going up for an examination with their chance of deliverance from their awful position so fable as to entail them to a habit of mental prostration. But in the human mind there is latent a power of philosophy which almost unconsciously helps it to adapt itself to any state it might chance to be in without violent departure from the old habits or forms of thought.
Starting point is 04:28:32 Suppose two maids of honors flung ashore from the sea, why should not they, at intervals, talk of drawing-room presentation, the Duchess's red face, the blazing fat throat of Lady Throgmorton Street? Things it is true of a past, more or less recent, but topics of habitual inspiration never lost. Two stock choppers similarly cast upon the deep might be expected in the pauses between the meals of muscles and the search for something more digestible
Starting point is 04:29:06 to talk of loans and minds of Goshenjia and the prospects of Japan. Our two companions love science and from time to time as we see there was nothing in shipwreck to stop them from talking about. it, but their story after a beef passage was to change suddenly into the eventful. End of Chapter 8, recording by Gary Oman, Middletown, New York. Chapter 9 of Abandoned by William Clark Russell.
Starting point is 04:29:45 This is a Libravox recording. All Libravox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit Libravox.orgs. Org. Abandoned by William Clark Russell. Chapter 9. The Chase On the 2nd October, making it rather more than a fortnight since the arrival of the
Starting point is 04:30:09 boat's crew, a man named Lyddiart, being the first to awaken, quitted the cave and came into the open, where he yawned and stretched his arms and then slowly looked around him. It was blowing what sailors would call a royal breeze, wings of dusky clouds sailed under the sky the east was a moist purple and the clouds came out of it stained with that tint but before they gained the central heaven they changed into grays and browns with their skirts gilt by the sun the stretch of coral sand was noisy with breakers which charged in cannon shocks and receded sweating cruelly fingering long black lines of weed as though they were tresses of the land they were seeking to tear off. And the ocean was filled with lighted lines of seas, whose edgings of foam ran athwart in parallel archings, till the whole surge sank in its own splendor of whiteness.
Starting point is 04:31:11 Loud was the organ thunder rolling from the stern abrupt which the island opposed to the sea southeast. The little piece of land was full of the music of the morning, and the seabirds glanced as they wheeled and slanted from dark shapes into bright. A second man came out of the cave. He was grim with a fortnight's growth of hair on face and head. Anything in sight, he asked. Ain't add time to have a look round. I'm growing buddy sick of this, said number two.
Starting point is 04:31:45 I'm for making a start and chancing it. That their Captain Reynolds ain't fur out, you lay. Seven months, he says, and nothing showing. and ere we've been getting on more in a buddy fortnight and what's hove into view good for anybody but a blind man here a third sailor came out he was followed by goodhart and the other people whilst reynolds was to be seen approaching from his crack in the dell just on that part of the island where the men stood only a little piece of the ocean was to be seen jim said the boat swain run aloft up that ill and see if there's anything to report "'Good morning, Mr. Goodhart,' said Reynolds. "'Good morning, men.' "'Blamed slow work this, sir,' exclaimed the boat swain.
Starting point is 04:32:31 "'I feel sometimes as if I could have swum the distance. "'Three hundred miles, ain't it? "'The English Channel's been swum.' "'Strike me silly,' said a sailor. "'If I wouldn't rather turn jellyfish, then keep all on here.' "'Wait till you've had over seven months of it,' said Reynolds. "'That's just what we don't mean to wait for, then,' answered the boat's who, though he recognized Captain Reynolds' position as a master and gentleman, was heedful to
Starting point is 04:33:00 assert himself as commander of his own little company who would take their opinions from him, or at least submit to be advised by him, without allowing that Captain Reynolds, though a shipmaster, had the least authority amongst them. The man who had gone up the hill to report, having climbed about a hundred feet, stopped to take a look, and no sooner were his eyes, upon the sea, then he pointed and yelled, There she is, all a groan and a blowin. Sail ho, there she spouts! On which everybody rushed up to him,
Starting point is 04:33:35 saving Goodhart, who followed very slowly and with pause. This time the whole of a ship's sails were in view, a square of white like a butterfly on the margin of a meadow. She was down away westwards, too far off for the trim of her yards to be discernible, and the hull of her was out of sight behind the sea-line. Everybody but Reynolds saw her. At times he thought he caught sight of her, but his injured vision was betrayed by the white leap of the seas,
Starting point is 04:34:05 and had he been alone, she would have passed unnoticed. Which way as she stand and exclaimed the boatswain, panting with his hurry of limbs and excitement of spirits. She's on the port-tax, said the man who had reported her. "'This man had the best sight of any amongst them. "'In fact, it was as good as a little pocket telescope. "'How's the wind?' cried the boat-swain. "'East,' answered Reynolds.
Starting point is 04:34:33 "'If she's on the port-tack, cried the boat-swain, "'almost shouting with sensation, and the wind's east, "'she'll be heading so as to be lift in her hull "'by the time that she's abreast of this island, "'and I'm for making for her and shoving right athwart her "'as she comes heading up, so as to bring the northeast point of this rock on her starboard quarter. This was closely followed and immediately understood by the men.
Starting point is 04:34:59 I'm ready. So am I. So am I. So were the whole six. Will you come, Mr. Goodard, and take your chance, shouted the boatswain to that gentleman who was painfully and slowly ascending the slope? I don't understand you, was the bald reply. The boat Swain ran down to him. There he cried in his eagerness, catching hold of Goodhart's arm. There's the ship. Do you see her, sir? Yes, about ten miles off, answered Goodhart, staring at the vision on the sea.
Starting point is 04:35:34 We're all for making a dead pull to Windward so as to bring us within sight of her by the hour she's got the northeast point of this island on her starboard quarter. Will you come? There's no time to lose, sir. You mean to pull windward against this sea and breeze exclaimed Goodhart with a lift of eyebrows and a blank stare of wonder? Yes. By this time the others had come down and were gathered round these two. What do ye mean to do? said Reynolds. We're a going to row within sight of that ship, shouted the boat Swain hoarsely and with a danger signal in the tone of his voice. I advise you not to try it, not against that.
Starting point is 04:36:16 that weight of sea and wind, said Reynolds, driving to see the ship. We shall lose her if we stand here, jawing, cried a man. You'll need to pull eight or ten miles to put yourselves within reach of her sight, said Reynolds. What's her speed? You say she's on a taut loft? Call it seven. Come on, all as means to come, roared the boat, Swain, smiting down Reynolds' reasoning as you might hit a man on the head with an iron pin, and away he ran in the direction of the creek where the boat lay, bawling as he sprang along, if we stop, argifying, we lose her.
Starting point is 04:36:54 Instantly the sailors followed, racing and leaping like schoolboys, just let loose. You'll report that we are left if you come up with her, shouted Reynolds. A fellow flung his arm up in token that the request had been heard. Reynolds' heart was in that distant sail, which was now when he, he looked, a very dim, delicate vision in the horizon of his eye. His soul raved for release from the withering imprisonment of this island. The mere figures of the running men fired him with a passion to run with them. For a minute the inward conflict was a very madness of mental convulsion, a tempestuous lunatic dance of contending feelings. He was a man, however, habituated by his profession
Starting point is 04:37:43 to the forming of the instant resolution. This is the inevitable education of the sailor who is worth his salt. Fog, collision, fire, the sudden tempest, the mighty ice-island looming in thunder of bursting surge out of the snowstorm, do not admit of leisurely deliberation. Now he was understanding that vessels might have passed and he had not seen them, and good heart's hope and expectation of a comfortable deliverance, therefore might be shared. Next he witnessed rashness, danger, and disappointment in that long
Starting point is 04:38:20 pull against a head sea in a fresh wind. Likewise he perceived that the men's chances of salvation would be good hearts and his without their peril, for it could not be doubted that when the captain of the vessel had been informed that two men were left, he would heave his ship to and send for them. And finally he was impelled by the affectionate regard to, and he was in which he had already come to hold Goodhart to stop with him and share with him in such fortune as was to befall, be it what it might. The men gained the boat and jumped in. She was of the whaler pattern, sharp at both ends, a good boat pulling five oars with inboard airtight boxes under her gunwales. They had taken care to keep her stocked with food and fresh water.
Starting point is 04:39:10 It's a pity, said Goodhart, who with his companion, companion had walked a little distance to obtain a better view of the boat's departure, that they did not think of cutting down a long bow to attach a shirt to for waving. I can see the ship now, said Reynolds. She can't be less than ten miles distant. If the boat heads due east then at three miles an hour, and they'll not sweep more out of her, it will be noon before she arrives at the point where she is to come in contact with the ship. And the ship, he continued, making his calculations as he spoke, will, if she holds on all, have to sail a distance of thirty miles to arrive at the spot aimed at by the boat. She will accomplish this in four hours, and the boat will be one hour away from her, three miles short. What headstrong fools! exclaimed Goodhart. But the men were already rowing. The boat swain steered. The oars flashed and sank, flashed and sank as the little fabric was urged over the still waters of the creek.
Starting point is 04:40:17 Then she was in the open and leaping, and Goodhart and his companion saw the figures of the men bending and backing with those motions of energy and determination, which signify that the impulse which governs the toiler is the heart's cry of life or death. The boat sprang bravely, showering crystals, heading right into the glittering lines of light which were rolled by the breeze under the soaring sun, until she faded out, even to the straining gaze of Goodhart, whilst the ship had floated up the horizon to the line of her bulwark rails,
Starting point is 04:40:54 lifting jibs and spanker-boom, and passing on with the beauty, grace, and dignity, which are the gifts of sunshine and the blue breeze and flashing waters to a ship when she is under full sail, leaning the stirless bosoms of her candour, us to the spectator, and beheld from afar. "'I shall make a smoke for that ship, but not yet,' said Reynolds, who was now seeing her
Starting point is 04:41:20 clearly. "'All's ready up there!' exclaimed Goodhart. "'I saw to it yesterday afternoon,' Reynolds rejoined. "'It will take her two hours to give us a sight of her hull.' "'I am going for a drink and a dip,' said Goodhart, and he walked leisurely in the direction of the river. There was not much room for the exhibition of the mysterious in this little island, though an illustration came when the lonely captive had awakened
Starting point is 04:41:48 and seen the figure of the owner of the chest, walking shadowless in the moonshine, hat in hand. But two points Reynolds had observed in Goodhart. He was never seen to take off his coat night or day, and though he bathed three or four times a week, he always contrived to take to the water with the strict privacy, never before saying, as he had just now said, that he was going to the river for a plunge, but mentioning the circumstance to Reynolds afterwards, as the minutest incident came weighted
Starting point is 04:42:22 with deepest interest in this dull and dismal routine of watching the sea and catching and cooking fish. From these trifles, Reynolds inferred that Goodhart's disproportioned bulkiness of trunk was due to some painless but morbid growth, or that it was a deformity which he desired with a feminine passion to conceal from the sight of others. Reynolds stood for a little while with his eyes fixed on the ship. His gaze was yearning, his heart ached. She was scarcely wanted to bring before him the image of his wife, for not an hour of the day rolled past, but he thought of her. But that floating cloud out yonder recalled the flying spur, how she might have been out there just where that ship was. How, if Lucretia had given him her heart again after he had decoyed her on board,
Starting point is 04:43:17 she might have been with him as though they were together in that vessel, leaning side by side over the bulwark rail and viewing the same little island, with its silver lightning of cascades and its lace-like trimming of brilliant breakers. The theatre, to him of a most sad and pitiful drama of shipwreck. He sighed and cast his eyes up at the hill where the fuel lay ready for kindling, and after weighing the chance afresh of such a smoke as he could make being seen by that ship, which was still very nearly hulled down from the altitude from which he regarded her, he went to work to build up a little fire in the cook-pit,
Starting point is 04:43:57 then entered the cave, where were some fish taken yesterday, cut off a couple of steaks and put them into the shovel which remained the only frying-pan in that island all the while strenuously thinking of the probability of the boat being seen by the ship heartily praying for it and gravely doubting her chance there was nothing to eat but the mushrooms and the fish when the little meal was dressed he sat down to wait for his companion and his friend he presented a most ragged figure and one who had previously known him might have judged by his face that his nature had undergone a change. His look was pensive. He wore an habitual air of melancholy. There was no fire or spirit in his speech. He suggested a man whose heart is cowed by thought that is ebbin tinged with memory and forlorn almost to hopelessness in anticipation. The mother of this man would not have known her son. He had that shaggy look, which is often the impress of toil, and nearly always accompanies
Starting point is 04:45:05 privation at sea. Seven months of solitude and the dismal eternity of the encircling ocean had so wrought in him that if you had met him in a crowded street, he would have been the one to seize your gaze and compel you to look after him, and to proceed in thought about him. Goodhart came from the river and sat down beside him. we should be thought vulgar for eating this fish with our knives said he with an easy smile and gentle voice that might have made you suppose they were breakfasting comfortably at home one does not learn good manners at sea answered reynolds the best of manners surely replied goodhart when a sailor is a gentleman a more perfect gentleman you shall not find i am fond of observing the contrasts of life take our situation Compare a nobleman in Grovenor Square at breakfast.
Starting point is 04:46:02 Take the tramp who has dusted under a hedge through the night, breaking his fast on a turnipy as sneaked from a field after a wary look round. I remember passing a church where a wedding had just taken place, and the bells were peeling joyously in the tower, and in the graveyard stood the marble figure of an angel, pointing with one hand to heaven, with the other to the grave at its feet of a girl of twenty, but whilst they talked they kept their eyes upon the ship for it was impossible to foresee but that at any moment she might shift her helm to obtain a closer view of the island and reynolds must be ready to rush up the hill to light the fire
Starting point is 04:46:43 i sometimes wondered said goodhart what form madness would take in a man who should lose his mind in shipwreck on such an island as this i have sometimes thought exclaimed reynolds that madness would take in a man who should lose his mind in shipwreck on such an island as this i have sometimes thought exclaimed reynolds that madness is the delirium of a disposition that has lain latent and even unsuspected for example i am an ambitious man but do not know the absurd heights to which my soul secretly aspires until i lose my reason and then i believe i am a king or god in my case i believe had i gone mad here i should have imagined i was brigham young goodhart was amused and laughed with gentle enjoyment i have heard of a man said he who believed he was his own father he had made a will leaving all his property to himself as his only son but his worry was to know what he should do if he was to happen to die before his father i have also heard of a lady who believed she was the author of the novels of george elliot and was afraid of looking into a mirror for fear of seeing the ghost of george henry the only instance of sanity i have heard in madness said reynolds was the case of a journalist who whenever he felt the drink fiend taking possession of him compelled his wife to put him away he stood up to look at the ship goodhart also rose and they viewed the distant sail for a while in silence she was holding stubbornly on so far it was certain she had not brought the boat within sight unless she was to give the spectators an illustration of behavior, which most happily is very rare at sea, by seeing the boat,
Starting point is 04:48:27 yet standing on and leaving the tossed men to their fate. The breeze was steady and gushed in large liberal folds. The island sent up its patient moan of shaken trees and shrubbery, and the beach its sullen roar of surf, and the southeast cliff its sulky thunder of foaming surge. They continued to watch and wait. Then Reynolds went up the hill to kindle the prepared fuel in the hollow. The stuff made a thick white smoke, but it was blown low at a sharp angle from the hollow in which the wood flamed, and as the ship drew further eastwards,
Starting point is 04:49:06 and as the smoke was blowing due west, it was less and less likely that the foreshortened beacon trail would catch the eye of anyone on board. Or if it did, the white smoke like one of those country fires which discharge shafts of vapor from dead leaves and rubbish into the autumn atmosphere might be thought to proceed from a little volcano but reynolds was bound to give himself and goodhart a chance and for a whole hour he plied his fire laboriously fetching big armfuls of stuff and raising a thick smother whilst the ship grew smaller and smaller As with something of the slant of a seagull's wing when it wheels in its flight, she vanished in a shadow of Mother of Pearl into the east.
Starting point is 04:49:54 Reynolds rejoined Goodhart. What time is it? Goodhart pulled out his watch and said, 11. Reynolds glanced at the sun and judged Goodhart's report to be fairly accurate. That ship is not to prove our salvation, said he, if she is to catch a sight of the boat. she should have seen her before this, with a long enough pause to enable us to know that she
Starting point is 04:50:19 had hove to to receive the people, or by a shift of helm which would have changed her shape. I shall keep a lookout for the boat, said Goodhart. If the men are disappointed, they must return. What else remains? I don't know, exclaimed Reynolds, with a gloomy shake of his head. There are some mules amongst them, and the boson is a good leader for people of that sort. they may reason having left the island and come so far what will be the good of returning we know what we've got to expect much more chance of our being picked up the further we go than keeping all fast aboard that piece of rock there without a compass said goodhart suppose they get some thirty miles distant and resolved to come back this island is small and without its bearings being known or a compass to help the helmsman it may be easily missed thus they conversed whilst the hours wore on reynolds as a lookout was of no use goodhart did the staring part but never could see anything to report he was calm resigned grateful he said at all events captain reynolds we know where we are but we don't know where the boat is i'm thankful to god i was not tempted to trust myself in her figure the weariness of that little skipping structure the hopeless grinding
Starting point is 04:51:42 of the oars compared to which the toil of the galley slave is a joke for the felon is not threatened every instant with death the miserable and pitiful look-out for what why to see only the curling heads of seas clouds of spray which must keep you bailing the breeze freshening the night coming on and a little stock of dried fish a few tins of meat and six gallons of water for eight souls for that's how it would have been with us us had we gone. I believe you are right. I believe you are right, said Reynolds, in a voice that was colored with the spirit of consolation that he drew from the happy resignation and comfortable philosophy of his companion. If the boat does not show itself before dark, I shall give her up, not necessarily as lost so far as the men are concerned, but as lost for us. He snapped his fingers to a sudden uncontrollable impulse of vexation. At one o'clock by Goodhart's watch, the ship was out of sight. At six the dusk was gathering, but the watchers saw no signs of the boat.
Starting point is 04:52:53 The long-runners of the ocean streamed in steady procession out of the east. The clouds, opening as they rose, flew in many windy spectral shapes, a very Chinaman riot of shadowy monsters. The moon floated up and tinged with a delicate silver green, the foliage and the waters which she shone upon. It is strange, said Goodhart, viewing the satellite as she swept through the phantom rush of wings on high. It is strange, he said, his habit of moralizing and philosophizing constantly taking form, that God should have thought it fit to hang up in the heavens two wonderful symbols of creation, its life and its death. In the glorious sun, nature lives and moves and has her being. The moon is death, white, silent, cold, awful. In the morning you awaken with life.
Starting point is 04:53:51 In the night you go to rest with death. I wish to God, cried Reynolds, with a little glow of passion, that the moon would reveal the boat. There was good hope whilst that boat remained in the creek. beggars in going away in her stole her from us, and in my opinion they are lost men, and we shall be prisoners for months, and perhaps years. He wrung his hands, unseen in the gloom by his friend, for just then the weight of his months of solitude came down upon his heart in a sensation of almost physical oppression, and in imagination he was alone, with nothing to look at but a desolate breast of ocean, with nothing to hope for but the sight of a ship, with nothing to live for but
Starting point is 04:54:38 a burden of being that love had abandoned, and shipwreck rendered crushing. Goodhart took his hand and pressed it. Keep up your heart, Reynolds, he cried cheerfully. A ship will come and we shall be rescued. All will be well. Not very much is needed to make rich the man who has nothing. The coming of a ship is no very mighty affair, no prodigy. nothing that shall have anything of the miraculous in it and i look forward to being rescued with profound confidence did you ever hear of the sweet little cherub that sits up aloft forsaking poor jack it was a passing mood answered reynolds softly but remember that for many months i have heard this noise of the trees i have watched that moon i have listened to the sea i have thought through many bitter waking thoughts i have prayed to God, alone, always alone. That night they occupied the cave together. There was plenty of grass in it,
Starting point is 04:55:41 and Reynolds easily felt and found a couch near Good Hearts. It was totally black inside, but the silver dimness in the atmosphere lay like tissue paper stretched over the mouth of the cave. Twice before one o'clock in the morning, Reynolds went out and gained a height and looked about him, but the boat had not returned. Nothing moved upon the surface of the island, but a quick, though stormy, dance of shadows. It was blowing fresh, the dwarf trees roared with the surf, and the moon shot through the swift drift. He fell asleep, but was awakened by a loud report. Goodhart cried out, What was that? Was it a cannon shot, said Reynolds, standing up? Another sharp rattle, and the lightning glanced in blue splendor at the mouth of the cave.
Starting point is 04:56:32 My God, cried Reynolds, what chance will this sort of thing give the boat? But think, said Goodhart, that we might be in her. The sheen of the lightning sank in instant pulses into the cavern's blackness, and the two men in the flashes were revealed to each other. Again, Reynolds stepped out. It was not raining on the island. a heavy thunderstorm was playing over the sea about two miles distant, and the moon was sunk into a mere jelly of moist light
Starting point is 04:57:02 in the shrouding of the weather that was stretched out over the heavens from the electric vapor. Goodheart cried Reynolds, running to the mouth of the cave to shout, Come and see a wonderful sight. What was it? The lightning was frequent and fierce, and every white or crimson spark that flashed upon the eye its wire-like rill of fire, illuminated two gigantic water spouts about a half-mile distant on the west side, touching them into stately columns of the aspect of white-hot metal, their foot and foam, their head lifted with inky vapor into the aspect of the coconut tree.
Starting point is 04:57:42 If they are coming this way, we shall be deluged, said Goodhart. But their waltz was to the southward. The two men watched this wonderful lightning-revealed picture, sublime and awful with its accompaniments of the midnight, of the lightning dart, of the thunder-shock, and the universal roaring of an angry ocean. They returned to the cave and lay down, but for some time neither could sleep, though one was a sailor and the other had been well salted, owing to the rushing noise made by the rain, which descended in a living sheet, as though it was a great lake coming down from the edge of a mountain. And but for the cave being on a slope, they would have been floated out.
Starting point is 04:58:27 The morning was cool, calm, and bright. Their first act was to scan the sea for the boat, but the ocean was a plain as naked as a looking-glass. The water swam to the shore softly and melted in caresses of froth. Do you see anything like a sail, said Reynolds? Nothing answered Goodhart after a long and careful scrutiny of the whole circle of horizon, but I am not to be depressed. I am perfectly satisfied to think that I am not afloat in that boat. It is inconceivable that she was picked up by the vessel, said Reynolds,
Starting point is 04:59:04 as likely as not they were swamped in the night. Goodhart went to the river and Reynolds to the rock to catch a fish for breakfast. This morning he secured a fish shaped like a salmon, gorgeously dyed and weighing about eight pounds. He had caught this sort of fish. He had caught this sort of fish about twice or thrice before and found it delicious eating. He made his fire and began to cook. Goodhart kept him waiting. Indeed, he grew anxious and was going to seek him when he saw him coming slowly from the direction of the river, holding what resembled a satchel in his hand. He stepped with this satchel-like thing into the cave and emerged with nothing in his hands. Reynolds looked at him and instantly observed a diminution of his bulk, that bulk of trunk whose
Starting point is 04:59:54 extravagance had often puzzled him. He said nothing, and good heart, coming near the cook-hole with his kind and gracious smile, seated himself. Undoubtedly his figure had undergone a change since he had visited the river. He was now a well-proportioned man without that stuffed look which had excited conjectures in Reynolds. His coat lay open, the massive watch chain rested upon his waistcoat. His attire was indeed in a state of princely freshness compared with that of his companion, but then he had not been seven months on the island, nor had he been thrown ashore on toothed rocks by the breakers of a gale wind. Goodhart's smile vanished as he viewed his friend thoughtfully, with an impressive and inspiriting air of kindness.
Starting point is 05:00:44 They had ceased to captain and mister each other. How long will you be able to support this sort of existence, said Reynolds? I keep my mind tranquil with the fixed assurance of release, answered Goodhart, taking up a slice of fish with a leaf and beginning to eat. It may be delayed, but it will come. I do not think of myself as a prisoner. I could be worse off. I have been worse off. This fish is excellently tasted. I do not miss liquor. Those cascades are a noble drinking fountain. I should be glad of a substitute for bread,
Starting point is 05:01:22 but whilst our mushrooms flourish I shall not grumble. I am sick of it, Goodhart, said Reynolds, so will you be soon. I assure you, Reynolds, replied Goodhart with a note of cordial cheerfulness, that your companionship and my own state, tastes, and habits of life, render this imprisonment, as you term it, so little disagreeable to me that if a few comforts could be contrived, I should be very well pleased to accept this brief sentence of exile as a pleasant holiday in a delicious climate, under circumstances delightfully romantic. Reynolds smiled and bowed and said, You are a true philosopher.
Starting point is 05:02:07 What are our wants for this holiday until we are taken off? A little cottage, a loaf of bread a day, a joint of fresh meat to vary the eternity of the produce of the creek, tobacco for the pipe, and a few boxes of cigars. We enjoy a royal state, for we do not need money, and the greatest monarch might envy us for that. But weigh against our humble requirements, the blessings of our escape from shipwreck, yonder glorious privilege of bright-falling waters,
Starting point is 05:02:40 the agreeable dishes swimming in that creek or sticking to the rocks or growing in the ground. We might go further, he added, looking significantly seaward, evidently thinking of the boat, and fair worse. When you get home, I will not say if you get home in the face of your magnificent spirit of hope, Where shall you settle? Not in Ireland. You are the sort of man they want there. Well, it may come to Great Britain dealing with Ireland as a colony
Starting point is 05:03:13 and extirpating the few lingering natives by swamping the country with British emigrants and settlers. That would solve the Irish question, said Reynolds. I shall settle in London, said Goodhart. There you can get everything you want, the best and the worst of everything, and with judgment you can make ten. shillings do what a sovereign scarcely does in a provincial town.
Starting point is 05:03:38 I hate London burst out Reynolds, particularly Bayswater. But why Bayswater laughed Goodhart, why not Hackney or Clapham? I was married in Bayswater, answered Reynolds, and jumping to his feet he hove a stone at a penguin that was sitting like a robed bishop on a rock. Goodhart viewed him for a moment or two in thought. Do you observe, said he, putting his hands to his sides, that I have lost weight since bathing? You are certainly thinner. Goodhart again viewed him as though he had fallen into a fit of profound musing, then rising, he said.
Starting point is 05:04:19 Reynolds, come into the cave with me. End of Chapter 9 Chapter 10 of Abandoned by William Clark Russell. This is a Librevox recording. All Libravox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit Libravox.org. Abandoned by William Clark Russell. Chapter 10, Two Graves Reynolds, greatly marveling, followed his companion into the cave. After the necessary pause to accustom the sight to the interior gloom, Goodhart stepped to the old,
Starting point is 05:05:02 sea chest and opening the lid took from the bottom two thin bags united by a pair of shoulder straps he carried these bags or satchels to the mouth of the cave each bag was formed of a waterproof tissue with a rope handle of silk connected with straps like a man's braces it was easy to see that these satchels or bags had been made to wear on the back or chest they were filled with folded documents these said goodhart holding up the satchels represent all that i possess in the world outside of what i carry in my pockets they contain the product of thirty-five years of hard labor he hung the satchels by their straps over his arm and extracted one of the documents and opening it handed it with his delightful smile to reynolds saying there are eleven of them and they all carry the same face
Starting point is 05:06:02 the document in reynolds hand was a one thousand pound victoria four per cent bond the date of whose issue was eighteen eighty five it was shorn of the coupons which had matured these bags continued goodhart receiving and returning the bond to its sack contain colonial government securities amounting to the value of eleven thousand pounds and you will easily understand why i chose to remain a bloated body whilst the sailors stayed on the island. But why do you carry such things about with you, said Reynolds, who was not very much affected by the sight of the sacks, rather disappointed indeed, for he had looked for something solemn and deep, and not a commonplace exhibition of stock exchange securities,
Starting point is 05:06:52 in his friend's invitation to follow him into the cave. All that money might have gone down in the Esmond. When it was suggested to me to convert the bonds into inscribed stock, I found the difference in price sufficiently great to determine me to keep what I had got. Besides, said Goodhart, with his mild look and gentle smile, had these bonds foundered with me, I should have been disproving the general belief that a man cannot take his money with him to the grave. He was going to the chest to replace the sacks. Do you mean to keep them there, said Reynolds? Why not? Suppose such another crew
Starting point is 05:07:32 as yours comes ashore, would to God they would, and we are on the other side of the island, or they catch us napping, and they come to this cave, and forthwith open the chest. Where shall I put them, said Goodhart, looking round the gloomy interior? bury them, this is good dry soil. Reynolds went outside to fetch the shovel and began to dig a hole in the corner of the cave. You are right, said Goodheart, and we never could forget where we had placed them. and whilst reynolds dug his friend proceeded plenty of time was allowed us aboard the esmond i went below and took off my coat and waistcoat and put these bags on they bulked me out but not in such a way as to excite attention unless in a customs man whom i was not afraid of meeting you noticed probably that i have always bathed in a furtive sort of way naturally i did not desire my satchels to be seen by the sailors marine tradition has been enriched by some dark stories founded on sums of money much smaller than the amount you're digging a grave for
Starting point is 05:08:42 oh yes said reynolds manfully plying his shovel and scraping rather than digging into the hard dry cavern floor i should have felt very uncomfortable of a night or even of a day to reflect that you were sleeping or going about bulged out with those bonds if their existence and the value of them had been known to the men lead us not into temptation but deliver us from evil i am glad that you did not tell me that you had them upon you I should have trembled for your safety if by the merest accidents the secret had been betrayed to the sailors. When the hole was made, Reynolds went out and cut a quantity of dry grass, with which he lined the grave. Then, putting in the bags, he covered them up with the stuff he had thrown out. There, said he, with a final appreciative pat with the shovel, no gem could lie more secret, fathoms deep in rock. They walked into the sunshine and down upon the lovely length of coral foreshore, which they paced. The breaker was curling to them out of the blue water.
Starting point is 05:09:52 The seabird hovered and glanced, glistened and darkened as it winged about. The morning light lay in glory upon the ocean and the offshore breeze was scented with the land. "'11,000 pounds is a small sum to represent the savings and labors of 35 years,' said Goodhart. "'It's more than you would have made as a philosopher,' exclaimed Reynolds. "'I don't know,' answered Goodhart. "'There are some professors who are deucedly well-paid. "'I know a man who received two thousand a year, "'and a more bigoted coxcomb, insolent in cocksureness,
Starting point is 05:10:30 "'contemptively venomous in hostility, never led others astray. What are these professors paid for? To lecture, for the most part, answered Goodhart, with his lip taking a slight curl of contempt. Well, of all vocations, said Reynolds, I do hold the sea life to be the most beggarly, I mean the merchant's sea life.
Starting point is 05:10:52 In the Navy you get a pension. You invest your labors for which the state pays you, and when it is done with you, it sends you a sum annually that may make you easy for life. You shall serve a shipowner for years, honestly, anxiously, most dutifully, and when he is done with you, you go about your business, to the workhouse for all the employer cares. How are you off? Badly. No savings? A few pounds? Has your wife money? A little, but if she had a million, what good would it be to me? It is difficult to meet a men.
Starting point is 05:11:32 without a relation of some sort, said Goodhart, but that, as I told you, happens to be my case. Both my parents were only children. I am the sole survivor of my family. I have many acquaintances, but no friends, but I believe I have found a friend. He looked with a smile at Reynolds. Our association, he continued, has not been long, but it has given me very great pleasure, and I trust it may not end with our release. there is enough for two up there he continued inclining his head in the direction of the cave and if i am called first to whom but to a sufferer who has taught me to respect and admire and like him should i wish it to go the pale worn and scarred face of reynolds flushed with emotion his eyes moistened the passion of gratitude and of that sort of love which is born of beautiful feeling cordial kindness and sincere sympathy between man and man ran a trembling through him it is not your money good heart he exclaimed in a low voice catching his breath with a sharp hysterical shake of the head
Starting point is 05:12:48 it is your goodness he was right in that for surely it is the smile that sweetens the gift it is the impulse of which the deed is the fruit that endears and is best valued by the heart whose purest and most exalted emotions it excites and it is quite conceivable that two men thrown into each other's company by the adversity of shipwreck should grow so attached that when their deliverance has come about they have chosen to dwell together as brothers let us not doubt that such things have happened for the story of marine peril runs back deep into time but do not suppose said goodhart with a little pensiveness in the arch look he put on that i flatter myself on being sure of you your first act on reaching england will be to inquire after your wife to inquire perhaps and there an end no you will learn that she is living somewhere and you'll write to her and entreat her to grant you an interview i don't think so my dear fellow the fascination that one you must still be hers and when you see her the old spell will exert its magic. Spells are often broken, said Reynolds, moodily. Enough had been said on this subject.
Starting point is 05:14:10 Goodhart stopped to view the breakers as they curved in caves of liquid blue glass and broke with summer softness and tropic glory. It seems to me, said he, that science is a little too willing to overlook the precedent idea in nature the ultimate link in the chain of causation is neglected because philosophy is indisposed to discuss the only hook by which it can be hung up. All that we produce in art is the result of antecedent idea, the house, the picture, the statue, the fountain. Without the idea of these things, the things could not be engendered. Now why are we forbidden to witness idea, the divine idea, in what? we behold in nature, the tree, the flower, the man.
Starting point is 05:15:02 Molecules form themselves into shapes of beauty. I don't claim sentience for these particles of matter, which may be a snowflake, a fiber of color in liquor, a red rose. He smiled as he spoke, but I claim these formations as the effect of a law which has been preceded by idea. Mind cannot create, it can only persist. receive, once wrote Charles Lloyd, a remark which deeply impressed the poet Shelley. We perceive the idea in nature, and in our way we produce it as art. As we cannot create,
Starting point is 05:15:41 how should we be able to perceive the idea if it were not the antecedent of what we know and study? I think it is Dr. Alcock who expresses surprise that those whose business it is to create should have generally neglected the wonderful examples and perfect models which abound in nature. He tells us that all animated nature is full of hints for perfecting existing mechanical contrivances and of suggestions for inventions not even thought of. The Torado or shipworm inspired Brunei with the plan of tunneling which was employed by him in the Thames Tunnel, and yet science denies idea and, commits itself to a fatuous theory of chance.
Starting point is 05:16:28 I have always held the opinion you express, said Reynolds, and upon it I have based, as rootedly as a lighthouse upon a rock, my faith in the existence of God. It is Tyndall that speaks of matter, continued Goodhart after a pause, whilst he gazed at the arching breakers, as possessed of a power of shaping itself into forms of beauty. It is a gift. Who or what is the giver? Mark the beauty in those arching waters, in the confirmation of that rock, in the spout and fall of those cascades, in all that meets the eye. When alum crystallizes perfect octahedrons are formed. The crystallization of carbonate of lime results in beautiful rhomboids. By crystallizing silica you get hexagonal prisms, capped at the ends by pyramids. and of course you know that when carbon crystallizes you get the diamond surely all this loveliness must be the effect of the precedent idea reaching its end by laws which proceed from the creative mind
Starting point is 05:17:36 during my stay here said reynolds i have discovered a flower that smells only by night it is absolutely scentless when the sun is up it will not be found at this season i have wondered what virtue there is in darkness that puts most things to sleep, to waken life in a flower in the shape of perfume. You will probably find the phenomenon explained by the law of vibration, answered Goodhart. Take, for example, the sensation of hearing. If the sound vibrations number less than 16 a second, we are conscious only of the separate shocks. If they exceed 38,000 a second, the ear does not receive the sound. The range of the best ear is said to be about eleven octaves. I suppose the sensation of smell may also be computed in octaves. What the range is, I can't imagine, but undoubtedly the vibrations of the flower that is scented by night only are so rapid in sunlight
Starting point is 05:18:39 as to exceed the power of consciousness in the sense of smell. Now that I come to think of it, he added, Humboldt, I believe it is, tells us that, from a certain position on the plains of antures the sound of the great falls of orinico resemble the beating of a surf upon a rocky shore and is much louder by night than by day he held this to be due to the sound passing through an atmosphere which frequently changed its density at night differences of temperature ceased and sound waves travelling through homogeneous atmosphere reached the ear undiminished by reflection as as operations of nature are uniform in their infinite variety the law that applies to the sound of the great falls may be the law under which comes the flower that is fragrant only at night i am a little tired i wish my heart was stronger they walked slowly in the direction of the dell and sat down and now on this day immediately following the boat's attempt to intercept the ship it was the destiny of these two men to enter into a spell of waiting and hoping until may twentieth eighteen ninety two when came a change for though it is true that matter is indestructible it is equally true that things as they are do not last for ever in this time of expectation and during the course of their constant conversations it came to be clearly understood between them that if it should please god to call goodhart away whilst he was on the island
Starting point is 05:20:20 reynolds must consider himself his heir and would take possession of the bonds and the property he would find upon the person of his friend this indeed was obvious and inevitable because it was not to be supposed that if reynolds survived good-heart and was rescued, he would leave eleven thousand pounds of securities to rot in a grave in a cave. Though had Goodhart owned connections and expressed his wishes, Reynolds was the man to have fulfilled his desires as completely as though Goodhart himself had acted. A true and honest love for each other had penetrated these men's hearts. There was a kinship of nature between them. They were congenial souls. Goodhart the loftier and the more simple, but Reynolds was liberally endowed with those gifts of character,
Starting point is 05:21:11 which enable a man to adorn life when his means suffer him to occupy a position for their proper display. He would have done well in the Royal Navy. He would have been a popular officer as president of a gun-room mess or as talker or listener at the wardroom table. He was too good for the merchant service, as unhappily it is in these days. days in the main represented. Goodhart loved Reynolds for the simplicity of his nature, for his habit of thought, for a bouquet or aroma of character which cannot be conveyed by words. He sympathized with the deep, the apparently irreparable sorrow his wife had caused him, and affection is often in close alliance with sympathy. He liked him as a sailor, himself having used the sea for a living. He
Starting point is 05:22:03 compassionated his distress as a castaway whose fortune was broken, whose hearth was cold. Indeed, Goodhart was a man in whose soul dwelt a quality of greatness, and his character was exalted by the nobility of his manhood and the possession of those virtues which make men blessed in the eyes of God, and Reynolds would have died for him. In all these dreary, weary, and spirit-quenching weeks, they kept a close lookout for ship's sails and the smoke of funnels and held in readiness a stock of fuel in the hollow on the hill ready for the burning glass but never once did reynolds catch sight of a ship and goodhart in all that while four times only three sail and one trail of smoke all far in the north two happening in a week and the others in three months but all at such a distance as to make them of no more good to the poor disconsolate watchers, than the sea-fowl that wheeled between. It seemed incredible to Goodhart
Starting point is 05:23:11 that no ship should ever approach the island, but for all that he declared again and again that he would sooner take his chance of three, I, or even of five years' captivity, than have trusted himself in that open boat to intercept a distant ship, with oars only, and a slender store of food and fresh water, and eight men as there would have been. and again and again he would say in varying words when sunset flushed a desolate bare plain of ocean and they had stood together looking into the liquid distance till they saw a star no matter it may be but one more night for us to wait to-morrow may find us on board ship and how long will it take us to forget this brief detention how easily we forget the operation we feared we should die under the quarrel which we thought we should never be able to make up. I am fond of Swift's remark. It is always too hot or it is always too cold, but somehow or other God Almighty so contrives it that at the end of the year it is all
Starting point is 05:24:17 the same. It was fortunate for them that they occupied an island which lies in the temperate latitudes, where there is almost constantly a summer softness in the air, and where even June, which is our December, has no fierceness. the cave was dry and sheltered them well and the tangle of bushes on either side of the entrance was a good screen when the wind blew into the mouth from the south-west as the time wore on goodhart would often fall into long fits of abstraction moods of pensive withdrawal from the visible a deep sinking into himself with that inward turned expression of face which betrays the mind that is wandering through the long course long corridors of memory, lighted by the mystical irradiation, which is also memories. Occasionally he complained of the weakness of his heart, and there was no doubt that the privations he was enduring could not help him to fight this organic trouble. If he mounted a rise
Starting point is 05:25:22 for even twenty feet, he would pause to breathe with evident distress, and Reynolds often watched him with deep solicitude. came the twentieth of May, 1892, which is our November. Reynolds awoke and went out of the cave, leaving Goodhart sleeping. The figure of his companion was easily visible to Reynolds, whose sight, fresh from the seals of sleep, found a good light reflected from the radiance outside the cave's mouth. He went about as usual to prepare the cook-pit,
Starting point is 05:25:57 taking a look at the sea, but in a sort of hopeless way, which was a habit and would have been most moving to a spectator. And the look he directed was also influenced by the knowledge that unless a ship was hull up and within two or three miles she would be invisible to him. He walked down to the creek to fish. This was an inexhaustible source of supply. The fish never seemed to go away. No sooner was the bait sunk than a cod or a salmon-shaped fish or a fish-shaped fish,
Starting point is 05:26:29 or a fish shaped like a turbot but gloriously adorned would come up, and Reynolds, as you may suppose, was now an adroit artist in the use of his landing basket. When he returned he found that Goodhart still remained inside. He cleaned and cut up his fish and lighted his fire every minute expecting Goodhart to appear. He prepared his shovel with a couple of slices, but before he set his strange pan upon the fire, he thought he would look into the cave. After the necessary pause, he stooped and peered at the sleeper. Goodhart's eyes were partially closed.
Starting point is 05:27:10 He was fat in the throat, and when lying, his chin reposed upon its own layers and prevented the jaw from dropping. Reynolds said softly, Good heart, then. Good heart, more loudly, then cried his name strongly, taking him by the shoulder and shaking him. him the corpse though often entreated has never yet responded to the human cry not one of the millions since the beginning of things has spoken to tell us what it means and what it has found out reynolds took up the dead man's hand it was as cold as putty and fell like putty when released a wild and frightful heart-cracking sensation of horror and consternation seized the
Starting point is 05:27:59 unhappy, lonely, forsaken man. Again alone, how much lonelier now than when he was alone before, he but too surely knew. He reared his figure and gazed at the dead motionless as a statue. A flood of sorrow overwhelmed his soul. He fell upon his grass couch and hid his face and sobbed and sobbed and sobbed. He rose again and looked at Goodhart. then ran out into the sunshine and fell to pacing the ground as though he was mad nobody to speak to now nobody to soothe him with precious and beautiful words of hope he thinks his heart must break he will die and again before his mental vision the picture of his body supine a ragged bearded rotten shameless corpse shaped itself and his long finger-nails dug themselves into the palms of his hands in the agony of his thoughts the morning had advanced before the tempest of distress that flashed and groaned in the poor fellow was spent and then he entered the cave and again looked at goodhart oh yes he was dead death never made a plainer report that it was in possession he went to the river to drink and feeling faint with fast
Starting point is 05:29:24 re-made his fire and cooked a piece of fish what his reflections were you shall readily conceive never was the enormous solitude of the island so oppressive never did the horizon of the sea seem more remote never the prospect of release more hopeless he would go mad those birds uttering cries like the creaking of strained timber in a sea-way the melancholy monotonous roar of surf the eternity of the dwarf trees of the falling cascades of those circling winged shapes of that sliding burning eye of sun these things must by endless iteration drive the reason out of his skull in the afternoon he went about to dig a grave he was slow because he could not ply the shovel as though it were a spade he chose the centre of the dell for a resting place for his friend as the soil was more easily dug up in this part than elsewhere it is hard to imagine a more pathetic figure than this poor man made bearded pale and ragged alone surveyed now and again by a circling sea-bird digging a hole in which to secrete the remains of a man he had learnt to love he had finished his sad task by sunset but not before he made his way by the twilight to the river to drink and came back to eat the remains of his cooked fish, and that night he slept in the old fisher, his bed-place of seven months. He was very low and nervous, distracted by the grief
Starting point is 05:31:07 occasioned by his loss, subdued into a sense of dumb, aching suspense, which was a sort of hysteria proper to raise a ghost again to pace the dell, and he could not bring himself to lie in the cave with the dead body. He obtained some sort of hysteria proper to raise a ghost again to pace the dell, and he could not bring himself to lie in the cave with the dead body. He obtained some rest in the night, and after attending his needs in the morning, he proceeded with the task of burying Goodhart. Nothing could be more painful to him than the idea of despoiling the body of its property, removing the clothes, and dragging the dead to its burial place. But all this had to be done. Reynolds possessed the strictest title to all that Goodhart had left.
Starting point is 05:31:50 The man who was dead had never named. a relative, he had indeed stated again and again that he was as much alone in the world as Reynolds on his island. So that his being dead, his bonds and belongings were as much Reynolds as if they had been willed to him, or as if he had preceded Reynolds in his lonely occupation of the island, and left his bonds and property to be taken by the first who was lucky enough to find them. Reynolds found these things in the dead man's pockets, a very handsome gold watch and chain, to which was attached a spade guinea and a small revolving seal, bearing his wife's initials on one side and his own on the other. A handsome Russia leather pocket-book, the contents of which he did not
Starting point is 05:32:41 then examine, but which he afterwards found to hold four Bank of England notes of 50 pounds each, eight of ten pounds each and five of five pounds also four letters from his wife one containing a lock of her hair these he would have buried with the body if he had thought of inspecting the contents of the pocket-book before the interment but he was too much worried affected he was grieving too much over his loss and the sorrowful task imposed upon him to think of examining the value of his poor friend's pocket possessions he also found an elaborate knife full of useful blades and tools a gold pencil-case a purse containing some sovereigns and silver a gold toothpick and a silver match-box he put these things in the chest for the present as his clothes were little more than rags which hung upon him like wet weed on a rock and his pockets broken and useless and then removed the coat waistcoat and trousers this done with trembling hands and a sobbing heart he gently and reverentially dragged the body down the slope to the grave he had dug and after lining the trench with grass with most pious hands he contrived to let the corpse slide into the grave where it rested on its back looking with sweet expression in death up to that god whom in life he had adored with him was buried his wife's wedding-ring and the ring he wore on his forefinger reynolds next covered the body with grass and leaves and when this was done he knelt and pronounced aloud these simple words father receive him and do not forsake me
Starting point is 05:34:35 he arose and began to shovel in the earth haunted by this reflection if i die here who will bury me and he shuddered again and again to the loathsome image that held aghast the vision of his mind the hours passed in this melancholy work and in the afternoon he had heaped up a sight-catching grave which he resolved to memorialize so next day with the axe he had hewed down a stout bow and made a cross out of it and in the next two or three days during the intervals of providing for his own necessities he cut these words john goodhart died may twenty eighteen ninety two buried by his loving friend and mourner francis reynolds lord have mercy upon us the letters were small for the split surface on which they were traced was narrow but they were cut deep and well he was something of an artist with a knife and in good hearts he had a good tool he could carve model sailing ships make toy chests of drawers and dollhouses and had been chased and caned more than once in his youth for cutting his name in church sittings school desks park seats and the like he was once again alone lonelier than when he was formerly alone lonelier by virtue of the knowledge he had gained that ships might pass and he would not see them unless they came close in End of Chapter 10.
Starting point is 05:36:20 Chapter 11 of Abandoned by William Clark Russell. This is a Libravox recording. All Libravox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit Libravox.org. Recording by Thelma Meyer. Abandoned by William Clark Russell. Chapter 11, The Shanticleer. captain francis reynolds bankrupt by shipwreck was now a rich man that is to say he was rich beyond any dreams of avarice which had ever entered his head for how long does a master in the merchant service take as a rule to save out of perhaps the poorest paid calling in the world the handsome sum of eleven thousand
Starting point is 05:37:17 pounds with a few hundred pounds on top in notes and gold just enough to open a pretty little banking account with but reynolds did not happen to take an inspiriting view of the noble turn which fortune had done him he was never once visited by a single heartbeat of exultation the solemn and sturdy sense of satisfaction and repose of spirit which attend competence did not come to swell his heart. On the contrary, he regarded himself as a miserable, hopeless castaway, as a wretch, whose hideous doom prayer was not likely to avert, and the bonds in the cave and the notes and property in the chest were as worthless in his sight as the leaf on the tree or the empty seashell on the sand. At the same time, he was sensible that he had most honorably come by this little estate, and he would sit and lament that he could make no use of it. The desire of his soul was that Lucretia should get it, and learn from whom it came, and in what state
Starting point is 05:38:29 the husband she had forsaken had been when he contrived that she should receive it. Mrs. Lane was by no means well off. Dr. Lane in his day had been tempted to, and she had been tempted to gamble on the stock exchange, the old fool went into mines, his friend said. He could not ask for a simpler and surer grave for the everlasting entombment of his capital, which he had gotten by painful toil, by tedious anxious vigils in sick rooms, by exposure to weather and to the many morbific diseases to which flesh his air. Panic seized him to re. Panic seized him, to re. To read him, to him, to read him, heirs. He said, to him, to rescue himself, his wife and daughter from the workhouse, he purchased an annuity on his own
Starting point is 05:39:21 and Mrs. Lane's life. On which, and about 100 a year, which Lucretia would come into on her mother's death, and which represented money that had not gone to the jobbers, Mrs. Lane and Lucretia lived. All this was known to Reynolds. And whenever he thought of the bonds in the cave, he longed to give them to his wife, though convinced he would never meet her again. But how was this to be done? He pondered in vain. It was an end impossible to arrive at. Ideas occurred to him, which he considered absurd. He had Goodhart's gold pencil, and there was a flat pencil in the chest. A roll of paper was there, and in that chest were blank leaves of letters. Mrs. Goodhart's, and a few of lucretius to him whose wife's letters had been in his pocket when he was washed ashore the ink had run the writing was indesiverable but he had kept the letters nevertheless and they had dried long ago and were fit where they were blank to receive pen or pencil he said to himself if i write my wishes how am i to dispatch them i have not even an empty bottle to cork the missive up in and send it afloat
Starting point is 05:40:41 but suppose this could be managed the man who picked up the bottle if it did not go washing about till the crack of doom might value the secret too highly to betray it come to the island and carry off the bonds it will be seen that in these speculations he conceived himself dead but one day being vastly exercised by thoughts of his wife and the bonds he formed a resolution he said to himself i will write a sort of will and take my chance of its being found by one who will prove honest enough to carry out the instructions it contains for he clearly understood that if he was to die on the island the buried bonds must remain a secret for ever and eleven thousand pounds would be left to rot in a cave of no good to mortal man when by leaving a declaration of the existence of the treasure which it truly was it might peradventure come safely into his wife's has and benefit the honest fellow who delivered it to her he took the roll of old paper from the shelf in the chest and using goodhart's pencil-case he sat down on the grass employing the back of the shovel as a table a useful shovel is it served as a frying-pan as a mattock for the burial of a man's bonds and then the man himself and now it was to supply the place of a desk, he wrote thus. June 15, 1892, I who write this am Captain Francis Reynolds.
Starting point is 05:42:38 I commanded the ship, Flying Spur, which sailed from Falmouth, October 13, 1890, and was lost off this island to fire and in half a gale of wind, February 2, 1891. i am the sole survivor of the whole ship's company this at least is my conviction i remained alone till september fourteen seven months of solitude when a boat arrived with six seamen of the crew of the esmond that had gone down through a collision and mr john goodhart of sydney new south wales the sailor stayed on the island until october second on which day they chased to ship but the boat was without mast or sail and i am certain that she never came up with that ship and i am also persuaded that the boat was without mast or sail and i am certain that she never came up with that ship and i am also persuaded that she will not again be heard of had her people been rescued they would have reported mr goodhart and me as being left and we would have been fetched not necessarily by the ship that received the men but through the report of her master plenty of time having elapsed to allow for that report to reach the ears of a british consul who would consider it his duty to communicate with the commander in chief on the Pacific Station. When the boat had left the island,
Starting point is 05:44:16 Mr. Goodhart showed me in a couple of waterproof saps, 11 Victoria 4% bonds, each of the value of 1,000 pounds. He informed me that his wife had died in childbed at Sydney and that he was absolutely without kith or kin. We conceived a great liking for each other.
Starting point is 05:44:42 We were one in sympathy and tastes, but his was a very great and noble mind. Our comradeship in privation, and the sufferings which attend shipwreck, heightened our affection, and endeared us to each other. He told me that if he died on the island, I was to consider myself his heir
Starting point is 05:45:07 and take possession not only of his bonds, but also of the property which was upon his person. As I shall continue to carry that property about with me in his clothes, which I am wearing, it will be found upon my remains, which cannot lie far away from the spot, if indeed I do not die in the cave. And the discoverer of this letter must seek my body and take what is on it, and I implore him in God's name to bury me.
Starting point is 05:45:41 To provide against the risk of a landing being affected, unseen by us, in which case the cave might be entered, the chest explored, and the bonds removed. I buried them with the approval of Mr. Goodhart, and the place where they lie will be found marked by a short, spade-shaped stake, which I drove into the ground to help me should my memory come to be weakened. My wife, Lucretia, when I left England, was living with her mother, Mrs. Lane, in Chepstow Place, Bayswater, London W. And it is my earnest wish that she should be the recipient of these bonds
Starting point is 05:46:29 and the property that may be found upon me. To which end I, a broken, hearted, desolate, dying man. Humbly and affectionately, greet the reader of this letter, and do entreat him as he loves God and the truth and honor to convey these words and the property to my wife, Lucretia Reynolds, who, for the trouble he is at in finding her if she has removed, and in acting as my emissary, will receive 1,500 pounds.
Starting point is 05:47:05 which he will more greatly enjoy as money honorably and virtuously gained than if he kept the whole sum, thereby robbing the widow and blasting the only hope which keeps warm and alive, the heart that dictates these words. Again, I greet and bless you, and thank you for the noble service you will be doing me, Francis Reynolds. The mere writing this letter was almost as good as a talk, almost as comforting to the poor fellow as the sound of a voice. He was even warmed when he had ended it and read it over by a little glow of hope.
Starting point is 05:47:51 It was a something done, an act with a possibility attached to it. He went into the cave and opening the chest, took out an envelope that had been addressed to him by Lucretia, but the ink had been dissolved by immersion into mere stains the envelope was dry and he wrote upon it to the honorable stranger he put his letter into the envelope and by working it with his knife drew a nail out of the ruptured lock and nailed the missive to the lid of the chest this was a great day's work and he had not felt easier in spirits for many a long hour he diverted or rather distracted his mind by conceiving the sort of person who would find the letter but his face lengthened the faint tinge of color deserted his hollow cheek when fancy exerting her brush painted the image of a man cautiously entering the cave then staring at the old sea-chest then bringing the letter away from the nail to the mouth of the cave to read it, then picking up the shovel and digging out the buns, then proceeding to search for
Starting point is 05:49:10 Reynolds' dead body. He did not fear the passage from life into negation. He could not suppose it difficult to die. He was certain that in nearly all cases nature gently slopes the way and puts her child to rest as a mother her baby. And he was fond of these lines. To die is landing on some silent shore, where billows never beat nor tempest roar. Ere well we feel the friendly stroke, tis oar. Doubtless, it was the human instinct of decency,
Starting point is 05:49:52 or maybe it was the secret passion in most of us that our ashes shall be honorably used that stirred in him. Somehow his very soul recoiled from the idea of his body lying unburied, submitting a pitiful, shocking spectacle to him who met with it. It is the pride of the spirit which demands that its earthly tabernacle shall not be dishonored when life is fled. there is nothing of human weakness in this quality it is in true keeping with our most exalted thoughts that the spirit of man should desire that the shape of flesh which it warmed which it informed which expressed in brilliance of eye in coloration of cheek in play of mouth in motion of limbs the animation of its soul should when that soul has departed be reverent composed and decently draped for death and piously memorialized. This same day, being full of his will, as he chose to think of his letter, he took the guineas
Starting point is 05:51:07 and silver out of the shelf in the chest and dropped them into Goodhart's purse, which he returned to his pocket. Goodhart's clothes had been fairly new and of excellent quality, and they fitted Reynolds. But who would have read it? recognized in that pale, hollow, bearded, scarred face, the lustreless left eye, the ruined cheek at the corner of the mouth, in the long hair streaked with grey, in that sad, wistful, hearkening expression, which attends long watching, and hope deferred. The good-looking, erect, close-shaven man, who had stood before the altar in St. Stephen's Church with Lucretia Lane, on Wednesday of
Starting point is 05:51:53 afternoon, September 16, 1890. But not yet was Goodhart's prediction to be verified, and Reynolds released from his long captivity and bitter solitude, from his sad and solemn contemplations of the awful and stupendous chasms of silence in interstellar space, from the voice of the sea sobbing on the calm or bellowing in gale from the whispers as of spirit tongues in the trees often to his visionary ear syllabling his name as though he were summoned from the weariness of his lonely strolls his solitary labor in the creek and over the fire-pit the waking to the cold and desolate gray of the dawn the going to rest with the sea-bird at the mandate of the dusk and the first of the stars. Came September 4th, 1892. A cool, fair morning, light clouds moving lazily, a note of languor in the blow of the surge.
Starting point is 05:53:07 Reynolds went for his bath and a drink of cold water. In returning, he stepped from the shorter way to the cave to ascend an elevation. The first thing he saw, I'm looking at the, the sea was a small brig heading in. She bore about north-northwest. The wind was about west, and she flapped and curtseyed as she floated softly onwards. At the sight of her Reynolds was transfixed for the space of a minute. Then the powerful instinct of self-preservation broke the his sterrit spill. With the speed of a madman, he rushed to the cave, picking up his shovel near
Starting point is 05:53:53 the cook pit as he went, drove with weight of foot and rage of muscle into the earth, exposed the bonds, tore off his coat and waistcoat, slung the sacks upon his chest and back, and struggling into his waistcoat, ran headlong to the beach, wrestling into his coat as he dashed down the slope. on the brilliant whiteness of that foreshore of coral nothing could have been more visible not even the hill behind a three hundred feet and reynolds figure motioning like a firework in frenzied dumb show had a sight been good he would have known he was seen invisible to him but easily within reach of a good eye a man stood near the wheel of the brig waving a white grass hat above the bulwark rail. She was a little vessel of about 250 tons. Her white breasts panted as she sank and rose upon the tireless swell of the sea. A band of white ran round her, broken by painted ports. The sun flashed a lightning glance from the metal dog vein at the
Starting point is 05:55:08 royal masthead. In about half an hour, she shifted her helm and came slowly round into the wind, bracing her four yards forward and her after yards aback. And there she lay, swaying her toy-like, milky softness of cloths against the morning sky,
Starting point is 05:55:31 with the firm sea-line ruling in indigo from either hand. Whilst a boat sang from her port Davitz, and two men and a man steering with an oar came along. long. Head for the creek, shouted Reynolds when they were with an earshot, and he motioned in the direction of that familiar spot, walking rapidly towards it whilst the boat swerved and went that way in obedience to his diverting gestures. She entered the creek, and Reynolds stood waiting
Starting point is 05:56:04 for her, ready to jump in from the low shore. And even before she had lost way, when three or four feet separated her from the bank side. Even before the two men had thrown in their oars, Reynolds, with a wild convulsive shout of joy, sprang and was in the boat with arms out to shake hands with them all. The fellow who had steered with an oar had a cast in his eye, and the red beard on his chin was as stiff as a toothbrush. You don't mean to lose no said he gazing with the others with great curiosity at the figure of the man who might you be a shipwrecked sailor answered reynolds a man who was in command of a ship that founded off here twenty months ago thank god you are englishmen i can talk to you one of them who was a swede grinned but his face sank instantly into its former stare of astonish at the long hair and wild and rugged appearance of this newcomer. Twenty months, said the man of the toothbrush beard.
Starting point is 05:57:24 Are you alone, sir? All alone. This is a non-inhabited island then? Oh, my God, yes. Is there any fruit or vegetables to be got? That's what we've been sent ashore to find out and to bring off. You'll find nothing to eat ashore, said Reynolds. What have you kept yourself alive on then, sir?
Starting point is 05:57:50 Fish, look over the side. That's how I have fared. Any fresh water? Abundant. Two cataracts of delicious cold, bright water. Johnny, said the man, addressing one of his companions, I'll just step ashore and have a look round. and then we'll put you aboard, sir.
Starting point is 05:58:13 God bless me, twenty months. His face, hard as leather, with weather and seafaring, softened its expression as he looked at Reynolds, and he said, What might have been the name of your ship, sir? The Flying Spur. Elling from where? From London. We are the brig Shanticleer, from Hobart to San Diego.
Starting point is 05:58:38 Muddle, Master. And I'm her main. and my name's frost you keep all on down here sir whilst i takes a look around the old man will expect to report he got upon the shore and walked up the slope reynolds sank into the stern sheet he was trembling now as he had trembled when he first beheld the apparition of the boat swain of the esmond looking down upon him as he sat with a slice of fish breaking his fast in the dell his eyes were moist his respiration short and distressing the two men who remained observed his state and humanely let him be for a little with the taste which would have done honor to well-bred gentlemen directing their gaze at the island or at the way water over the side, in whose glass-clear depths shapes of fish could be seen, moving slowly. The sailors viewed anything rather than this rescued man, who was broken down with the joy of
Starting point is 05:59:54 release, the transports of deliverance. For extremes of human passions are in close touch, and great griefs and great delights often affect us in the same way. I hope. exclaimed Reynolds that mr frost won't be long you can't guess how mad i am to feel your brig's decks under my feet he'll not be long said the swede soothingly he was about to give a look round or the old man would haze him he can haze can that old man hey johnny his shipmate grinned i tink continued the swede i did n'nard der flying spur she fa'as a bark no she was his ship then she vas another i don't reckon you've done much smoking ears sir said johnny it's always backey that men miss most when they're locked up i've got a pipe and backey on me ear would you like a draw he added with a sailor's politeness i have not smoked for many months answered reynolds and thanking you much will not start just now he sent an impatient look at the island for frost i have had no news for nearly two years said he after a pause have you any to give me what's happened in all these months oh there was a strike on amongst the sailors at hobart when we sail to jr.
Starting point is 06:01:33 i don't believe in unions myself it fas the same here said the swede they make you pay to become member said johnny and then keeps you out of work no european no english news asked reynolds i read a piece in a paper before i leave how dat they have opened a new doc at cartiff on that the french trump ruins into de gudvin blight ship and sinker reynolds could not forbear a smile after twenty months of ocean solitude this was to be his news of the world one thing you'll find ain't much change since you was wrecked said johnny and that's sailor's wages on sailor's grub said the swede them's a nice show of oysters exclaimed johnny looking at a richly dyed cluster on some rocks projecting from the shore of the creek jump on that rocks at the rock's at the shore of the creek jump on that rock said reynolds and you'll find a stone shape like a cucumber knock them off with it they are good eating he did not need to ask if they had knives each man carried a blade in a sheath belted to his hip they sprang ashore and was soon busy in hammering oysters and swallowing morsels truly delicious after peas soup and salt pork it would be impossible to describe though not hard to imagine the dead dance of sensations, passions, and emotions in the mind of Reynolds whilst he sat waiting for the others in that boat. The island uprose before him. Goodhart was there in memory, and himself in his solitude, and again he beheld.
Starting point is 06:03:23 With the vision of the spirit, the shadowless form that had walked bareheaded in the dell. How often had he watched those cascades, those birds out yonder, the ponderous coil of the surf, rushing its load of splendor up the beach? He thought of the gloomy cave, his bed in the fissure, the stars, beyond which his thoughts had winked to God. The grave he had dug, the cross he had made, the words he had cut upon it, and now he was to be rewritten. rescued. He was seated in the boat. Men were hammering and swallowing and talking hard by. Yonder was a brig to bear him back, to civilization and liberty, and the life of man in town or country. It was so much like a dream that he sweated with fear that it was, and got up and stepped into the boughs of the boat, returned, picked up an oar, opened a little lacca under the stern sheets, all to make sure that he was awake.
Starting point is 06:04:33 Mr. Frost came leisurely along to the creek with a deep sea roll, and his arms curved like spouting water. And seeing that his men were eating oysters, join them, calling to Reynolds, won't you partake of some before we go on board? Reynolds called back, i've eaten enough and want no more indeed he stuck to that boat as a barnacle to a ship and grappling the thwarts he might have defied the united efforts of the three men to heave him out for this man had been shipwrecked and the shanticleer was the first vessel that had come to look at the island in twenty months and god knows how much longer and he sat in that boat with the intention to stop impatience was working up into agony in him whilst the three feasted the shanticleer was a little brig the discipline was not severe if mr frost was mate he was man too and was jimmy ashore though mr on board when this mate and his men had banqueted they must need linger to knock off a little freight of oysters for the old man but whilst they were thus employed the old man appeared to be visited by some of reynolds impatience for sending for his gun he loaded and discharged it at the old man island over the lifting and sinking rail.
Starting point is 06:06:12 All right, said Mr. Frost. Where are coming? They entered the boat and shoved out of the creek with about four dozen oysters at Reynolds' feet. You must have found it pretty dull, said Mr. Frost, deadly dull. Worse in a lighthouse, I guess. I came across a grave. Was that of your erecting? Yes.
Starting point is 06:06:37 Ain't been alone all along then. No. I likewise looked into a cave. It had a broken chest in it with a few old pipes in the shelf, and there was a hole in the corner of the ground as if something had been buried and then dug up. Did you sleep in that there cave? Sometimes. Did you observe a letter nailed to the lid of?
Starting point is 06:07:07 the box. I can't say that I did. Oh, why, yes, now that I come to think of it, I did take notice of what I thought was a label, sort of a dress card. You left it there? Why, certainly. Thanks. His answers were short. He scarcely listened. The man's heart was burning for the brig to get aboard her, to sit safe and deep in her, bound for a port and human life. Six months, said the mate, gazing grimly behind him at the receding island. If I was cast away alone upon a bit of a watertight backyard like that, Blode, if I know how I should be able to pass the time, nobody to play cards with,
Starting point is 06:08:08 even if a pack was to be ad, or invented, near a parrot in sight to tame and learn to talk, there's no signs of life anywhere. Not even that durned old goat, which every man expects to fall in with when he's cast away. If a man was cast away mid a fine young funeral, I don't know, but that ship feck fast good, said the swede. You might stow that swash, said the mate,
Starting point is 06:08:38 with a very bristling, rugged nod. Several figures leaned over the side of the brig, watching the approaching boat. What product of the island, dressed as a man, was Jimmy Frost bringing aboard? The boat's boughs struck the vessel, and in a breath or two, Reynolds had leapt the rail and was standing on the deck.
Starting point is 06:09:04 Captain Muddle was a very short man, clad in a long coat, whose swelling skirts descended to midway the calves of his legs. When you took a back view of him and did not observe the projection of his long feet, whose toes curved upwards, you beheld the travesty of some provincial academic figure, say a village schoolmaster. It was a coat, a head, and a wide straw hat fixed securely on two stout wooden pegs. Nothing more at variance with the traditions of the beef face of the sea could be imagined. Then this singular little creature, who wore a beard,
Starting point is 06:09:49 who curled into a coil with soap the extremities of his mustachios, and gazed at you through a pair of heavily-rimmed spectacles he was stepping his piece of quarter-deck with a sort of skating or sliding motion with the dignity of an admiral taking the air in his stern walk but stopped when reynolds jumping from the rail sprang almost on top of him the recoil of the short left leg in its trouser was an involuntary melodramatic stroke, an example to the Trididian who starts at a ghost, and the little man's magnified eyes glared at the wild and hairy figure that confronted him. "'Are you, Captain Muddle!' exclaimed Reynolds, who was so profoundly affected by the sense of salvation and the knowledge of absolute safety that he was without control of his voice. he spoke in gasps.
Starting point is 06:10:56 The whole fabric of his nerves appeared to have fallen to pieces. Yes, sir, my name is muddle, answered the little skipper, viewing the nearly two years' growth of hair, the long beard, the bloodless haggard injured face, the worn-out raiment of his visitor,
Starting point is 06:11:16 with a most risible expression of astonishment, not wholly uncoloured by awe. Reynolds grasped his hand. May the merciful God bless you, he said, as the only man whose ship has touched at this island in 20 long months, during most of which time I have been alone. Here, about here, 20 months ago, my ship inflames, the flying spur foundered. I commanded her. Where are you bound to?
Starting point is 06:11:53 Oh, yes, I remember. Santiago. Am I awake? My God, am I awake? He looked around him and up at the Briggs canvas. The sailors forward, who were viewing him, spoke not, did not smile, nor nudge, or give expression to any other emotion than that of the sensations with which their little skipper was filled by the pathetic pallor,
Starting point is 06:12:21 and worn and sorrowful countenance of this long-bearded man who pleaded as a castaway, who was imperiously significant, even to the most ignoble instinct by the magnitude of his twenty months of almost lonely confinement to yonder little island with its silver threads of cascades. Its lifeless slopes It's dazzle of foreshore. I am very glad to receive you, said Captain Muddle. I was a bit out of my reckoning, and seeing this island close aboard at daylight, I thought I'd look in to find something that would give us a fresh mess.
Starting point is 06:13:12 What's to be had? he asked addressing the mate. I brought a few oysters, answered Mr. Frost. There's nothing else worth mentioning. There's fish, but fishes want catching, and catching means waiting. Is that water good that's spouting down that hill? Said Captain Muddle. Deliciously pure and cold and bright, answered Reynolds. Muddle sent a look at the oysters which the men had handed up.
Starting point is 06:13:46 We might do with some more of them, said he, and suppose you turn two James and lower a couple of casks into the boat. We can do with a little pure, cold, bright fresh water. It may be all a week's sail yet, and fresh water at sea is fresh water. If it's fresh water anywhere. There are no place in this globe, though you shall call it Sahara. Have you eaten any breakfast, Captain? he continued, expressing much kindness in tone and manner and some culture and enunciation.
Starting point is 06:14:25 No, I've eaten nothing since yesterday, answered Reynolds. Then step below, sir, Joe, he shouted. A young sailor started from the rail over which he had been hanging in the lazy lounging posture of the merchant seaman when he is idle on board ship. Bring some hot tea after the cabin, get some coffee, made, tell the cook to fry some bacon, and put some salt, beef, and marmalade and chip's bread on the table. And he led the way, down into the cabin, through the little companion hatch,
Starting point is 06:15:00 a brown, dusky interior, with lockers for seats, and a chair for the skipper at the head of the table, a dingy skylight, a stove, and two little cabins aft, and two little holes of berths in the forepart. Reynolds, cap in hand, stood gazing around him, done with the transport with which the sight of the cabin fired him. This interior, gloomy as it was, was raised by the spirit of this rescued man to the magnificence of a palace, by the royal quality of liberty with which its darkling atmosphere was instinct. I thank thee, O God, his heart said mutely, and he turned up his eyes with a beautiful and touching look of adoration and gratitude.
Starting point is 06:15:58 End of Chapter 11, recording by Thelma Meyer. Chapter 12 of Abandoned by William Clark Russell. This is a Libervox recording. All Libervox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit liverbox.org. Recording by Gary Ellman. Abandoned by William Clark Russell, Chapter 12. After eight years, one morning in May, 1898, a gentleman was driven to the Tavistock Hotel, Convent Garden. He alighted and entered, the house and having viewed his bedroom proceeded to the coffee room and opened the London directory. His beard and mustache were scissors trimmed. He wore his hair short, but this was white,
Starting point is 06:16:57 whilst his beard was iron gray, dappled with white. The change which the Earl of the breaker had wrought his face had been confirmed by time and no two men could have been more December than Frank Reynolds, who had married Lucretia Lane in 1890, and the Francis Reynolds, who had driven to the Tavistock Hotel on the morning of May 14, 1898. He turned to the addresses under the heading Chepstow Place. The house in which Mrs. Lane had lived was now occupied by one William Johnson. He looked down the list of court addresses and found so many Mrs. Lanes that he easily saw he might spend a fortnight in driving about all over London only to fail to verify the individual he had in his mind. He shut the immense volume and went to eat the breakfast he had ordered. There was no need for him to report his safe arrival to the owner of the flying spur, Mr. George Blaney.
Starting point is 06:18:02 long before whilst in Australia he had learned that this gentleman like his ship had gone under and that Mr. Blaney as a man and owner was as extinct as the crew who had never returned to take up their wages. Whilst he breakfasted, he thoughts were with his wife. He did not intend to justify Goodhart's prophecy that he would seek her out if living and endeavour to woo her back to him, but he most passionately, desired to know if she were alive, where she was, if she was married, and if she was well or badly off. The mold of his character was very visible on his face. You witnessed habitual melancholy, a habit of thought that was often carried into the recondite, deep sensibility, that look that practice of patient paints upon the human continents, with a firm cohesion of the whole in a spiritual titial of resolution. This, in a brief survey, the gifted eye could easily construe. No, it was not his intention to woo his wife afresh if she was still in a state of life to be won. But he could not be in London, he could not see and hear and smell and taste London,
Starting point is 06:19:21 without the sensations thus excited attacking memory and troubling it into the presentment of hot and oppressive images. the marriage the delirious refusal to see or have anything to do with him his visit to a solicitor the stratagem that had decoyed her to the ship her incensate unwomily unwifely aversion whilst on board and the inglorious victory of her departure at falmouth after breakfast he called a cab and drove to the office of a shipping paper off grace church street he said to her clerk Do you know if there is any reference to the loss of a full-rigged ship called the flying spur in one of your back numbers? What date, sir? She was lost February 2, 1891, but I could not tell you the date when the news was published. They'll know all about it, at Lloyd's, said the clerk. I want to know if the news was published in the papers.
Starting point is 06:20:25 You're welcome to turn over those back numbers, sir, said the clerk, eyeing him with some curiosity. and indicating a table on which reposed a number of bound copies of the journal going back some years. Now Reynolds never had doubt in his mind that all hands of the ship's company, saving himself, had perished, in which case, having regard to his own situation on the island, the ship's loss could only have been assumed. She would have been posted at Lloyd's ranked amongst the missing and then dismissed from the commercial memory as something extinct. but the boat of the Esmond, it will be remembered, had gone away to intercept a distant ship on October 2, 1891, and it was possible that her people had been taken out of her, in which case they would report that the flying spur had been lost off the island of Santo Cristo
Starting point is 06:21:22 and that out of her, hold crew, the captain alone has survived by being cast in a life belt upon the island. so reynolds turned to the volumes containing the issues of november and december eighteen ninety one and to the succeeding volumes of eighteen ninety two and eighteen ninety three these he painfully and laboriously examined through a pair of spectacles and spent nearly two hours in this study but found not the smallest reference to a ship or her loss nor to the escape of the esmond's crew that had left the it was clear that this that Captain Modell had admitted to report the circumstances of Reynolds' escape, and Reynolds himself had been silent. The clerk said there was no fee. The volumes were for convenience of the public, particularly subscribers and Reynolds departed. It was quite certain that if the Shipping Gazette, which records everything about the merchant service, had made no reference to the loss of the flying spur, all papers in any way likely to meet the eye of Lucretia would be and had been silent also. Next morning, Reynolds traveled by railway to Bayswater, and he walked from the station
Starting point is 06:22:41 to Chipsdale Place. His breath grew somewhat difficult as he approached the house. All that had happened between pressed heavily upon his heart and a sensible weight of intellectual atmosphere. This was the pavement they had walked on when they returned. from church. She with arms hanging by her side as inflexible mute as the corpse in a grave. What had provoked this cruelty in her? Why had she married him? Everything was present as though they all were of today. But the chasm demanded for its passage a bridge of size that had taken eight years to make. And was it for him? A husband scorned, humiliated, forsaken on one side to measure that land, or for her on the other side to cross it if alive.
Starting point is 06:23:33 He summoned the servant and was admitted. The card he gave her, was plain and honored he had written Mr. John Goodhart, Tavistock Hotel, Convent Garden. He was shown into the parlor. This was the little room in which Mrs. Lane had displayed those refreshments of which the wedding guests had not partaken. The image of Lucretia shaped itself with the velocity of memory upon the eyes of his spirit he was alone and there she stood in the doorway at the doorway at the table as she had again and again stood tall nobly moulded with a light that should have been loved in the luminous gloom of her eyes with glowing hair and firm lips and a demeanour of tranquillity which he had long ago translated into passionless nature ice-cold and chastity
Starting point is 06:24:26 bleak and sterile by refrigeration of virginal impulse a beautiful flower without odour a lovely star without heat a woman into whose creation entered many of the perfections of her sex but from whom he had been withheld the sanctifying touch that creates womanliness mr wadjohnson walked in a white whisket band and bald who apologized for presenting himself in a dressing-day and a This house, said Reynolds, after a few sentences, had been exchanged, was occupied a few years ago by a widow named Lane, Mrs. Lane. Yes, I took it after her death. Oh, she is dead then? exclaimed Reynolds, with the calmness that betrayed the preconcerted arrangements between the nerves and the understanding. Yes, I happen to know something about her. As a matter of fact, I am the late manager of the insurance office in which Dr. Lane, purchased an annuity on the joint lives of self and wife. There was a Miss Lane, I believe there was. Do you know if she's alive? I'm afraid I can't tell you nothing. I merely happen to remember the name of Lane is a client of the office. I know a friend of her, said Reynolds, who wants to hear about her.
Starting point is 06:25:54 How shall I go to work to obtain the information? Mr. Johnson studied Reynolds' face with some attention, with the attention of a man who has passed his life in taking lives. It was an interesting, a striking, in all respects, very remarkable face. A rather fancy, said he, after a little reflection, that if you were to call it by old office, they will be able to give you the name of Mrs. Lane's solicitor, who had something to do with her will. For I remember that he wrote to us about the annuity. i am greatly obliged how long has mrs lane been dead do you suppose i took possession here in february eighteen ninety five i was her immediate successor and as these houses do not long remain empty we may assume that her death was then comparatively recent reynolds bowed and left the house after transacting certain business at the london and westminster bank he walked into the insurance office which was within a couple of streets the letter-book was examined and the address of the late mrs lane solicitor found
Starting point is 06:27:07 he was mr j wembley jones lincoln's inn fields it was too late to call that day reynolds returned to the hotel a man alone in love-and-lawed London without friends or acquaintances seldom feels lonelier than when in a London hotel. The bigger the hotel, the vast of the desert, the wide of the amplitude of the swing of the pendulum of dullness, and perhaps what is least agreeable of London in flavor, sound and sight, you will discover by putting up at a hotel in Covent Garden. The prevalent property of the district is cabbage. The residual music is the east, brew throat of the salesman and the bray of the coasters donkey. The climate is fog and the prospect strictly limited. Reynolds had felt with crushing severity the burden of solitude imposed by his island. But the feeling of loneliness
Starting point is 06:28:10 which depressed him that evening as he sat now in a coffee room, now in the smoking room of the hotel through differing in kind was not in degree very remote from the feeling that he had weighed him down in Santo Cristo. Was his wife alive? He could form no reason to suppose her dead. He assumed her living and logically thought, therefore, of her as alive, and it must be added alone, for to presume her married in the belief that he was dead was to mangle and ruin his theory of her, that banered keen principle of chastity that had kept him at bay, that had dispatched him to a remote part of the globe, as much a bachelor as if there was not a woman in the world, must surely have kept another off, all others off, unless, indeed, the cold and pitless weapon had sunk at the cat-call of poverty,
Starting point is 06:29:08 or to the rainbow of elegance of title and estate. But it was his habit to think of Lucretia as alive, alone, and this conception working in him as a truth troubled him by the creation of a subtle earning, a straining of mind which his consciousness refused to heed, because he had resolved not to seek her, nor to have relations with her, but desire was in him, nevertheless, as pain is in sleep, causing the suffering to moan and toss. He sent in the same sort of card he had delivered at Chepstow place. Next day to Mr. Wembley Jones in Lincoln's Innsville and entered an office where he was received by a tall, thin, whiskered man
Starting point is 06:30:00 with a big hooked nose and a Caspian sea of shirt front on the top of which under stiff stand-up collars sat a black bow. He took a chair, and Mr. Wembley Jones examined him with keen attention. I have a certain, Mr. Reynolds, that you were the late doctor, Lane solicitor. That is so. Dr. Lane apparently had a daughter, continued Reynolds, who became Mrs. Reynolds, and, as I have a communication to make to her, I should feel obliged if you would give me her address. Mr. Wembley Jones summoned a clerk from the adjacent office. Find out if you can in the letterbook, Mrs. Reynolds' last address, the Mrs. Reynolds, who is the daughter of Dr. Lane.
Starting point is 06:30:49 explain to you as brief as I can the object of this visit, said Reynolds. I happen to be off the island of Santa Croisto, be calmed, and sent the maid ashore to examine and report with respect to fresh water and provisions. When was that, sir? Last year. Mr. Rembley Jones bowed. The mate returned and bought a letter which he said he had found nailed to the lid of a chest and a cave. It was addressed to the Honorable Stranger. Contained 100. and fifty pounds in banknotes and a letter signed by one francis reynolds begging the finder to send the money to his wife mrs reynolds here reynolds pulled out a pocket book and seemed to refer care of mrs lane tepstow place bayswater these are the notes said he taking them from his pocket book have you the letter i put it into a locker for safe keeping and when i wanted it i could not find it these notes were nailed to the lid of the chest but you'll observe that they are not perforated said mr wimbley jones blandly but with professional suspicion colouring a smile the notes were folded thus said reynolds with dramatic emphasis and a warm cheek the envelope was large the nail obviously missed the notes how else should it have been pray do you know what has become of frances reynolds including
Starting point is 06:32:22 the solicitor, Reynolds shrugged his shoulders. Do you think that he died on the island? A man who writes such a letter as I read is not far from his end was the answer. But all the same he might have been rescued. Certainly, in the face of this evidence, he would not in the eyes of the law be considered dead. How about the disposal of the money, sir, said Reynolds, with an air of callousness, as though he wished to complete his mission without further trouble. At that moment, the clerk entered with the letterbook. Yes, said Mr. Wembley Jones, after humming through the impression of a letter which the clerk had placed before him. Mrs. Reynolds had occasion to write to me about an investment under her father's will.
Starting point is 06:33:11 The date I see is June 1896. Her address then was Mrs. Reynolds' ladies' school. Cathedral Place, Canterbury. I have not heard of or from her since. Will you take charge of this money on her account, said Reynolds, with the tranquility of a man with many months of ocean solitude, had converted into an admirable artist in self-control and facial tokens. I'll first assert if she's in Canterbury, answered the solicitor, and then communicate with you. He added, picking up the card, you will then instruct me or act for yourself as you think proper. Did the officer you sent on the shore observed no signs, whatever, of human life on the island?
Starting point is 06:33:57 The place was empty of life as that of a hat, said Reynolds. It is important that Mr. Reynolds should be made acquainted with what you have told me. It might rescue her from a very disagreeable position. We cannot be convinced by your statement that France's Reynolds is dead, and his wife should be advised not to entertain the idea of a second marriage for some time to come. Reynolds inclined his head as though he should say, this is no business of mine. Are you making any stay in town? inquired the solicitor? I shall stop at the hotel for a few days. I think, Mr. Goodhart, you shall hear from me when I have news to send you about Mrs. Reynolds.
Starting point is 06:34:41 Reynolds rose, bowed, walked out. Mr. Simpson, said Wimbly, Jones to the clerk, who had been a silent auditor since his arrival with the letterbook. Did you ever see a more remarkable-looking man? Never so. I was thinking so. That man, said the solicitor, has known trouble. He has suffered hardship. What's his calling, sir? Why, the sea, I suppose. He talked to being off an island and sending his mate on shore, an interesting face almost fascinating. A very honorable man, too. A very honorable man, to bring the handsome sum of 150 pounds in notes for remittance to a stranger. He drummed on a table for a moment, lost in thought,
Starting point is 06:35:26 with his eyes planted on the window like a doctor thinking of a prescription whilst the patient waits. Send Mr. Wilkins here, please. Five days after his visit to Mr. Wembley Jones, Reynolds received a letter from the gentleman, informing him that Mrs. Reynolds had left Canterbury, in October 1896 and taken a situation as governess at Margate. She was there in August 1897. He had written to her at Margate, but down to the present had received no reply. Reynolds, in answer said he would place the amount in his bank that letters addressed to him at the hotel in Covent Garden would be forwarded
Starting point is 06:36:16 and that on his hearing that Mrs. Reynolds' address was known, he would send Mr. Webley Jones a check. All this seemed little better than Vidal Talk, but it is necessary as containing particulars which are links that must be made visible to this chain of sequences. Two facts Reynolds had come to discover. First, that his wife was alive, next that she was poor. Poor she certainly must be,
Starting point is 06:36:45 Because had her income been sufficient to enable her to live without work, she, though a clever, well-read, even accomplished woman, by which is meant that she sang well, played the piano well, dance with splendid grace, could speak French and read in German, a language she had taught herself, and had covered a range of English literature, which very few young ladies had ever heard about, was one of the last of her sex
Starting point is 06:37:11 to have dreamt of offering her services in a wall, of life whose thankless and underpaid toil she would speak of with pity and aversion. Evidently, she had started a school and failed. He was moved to think of her as alone and struggling, as alone and poor in a world where to be poor is to entitle man or woman to the sympathy of the mongrel dog, that the slight fleas and the mange is taught by nature how to earn a living. rejoice in the sunshine and exalt with complacency its stumpy, vibrio of tail. And the emotion thus induced, quickened yet that subtle and finally burning desire,
Starting point is 06:38:02 which is reasoned decline to recognize. But then he would argue in varying terms over and over again, if suddenly she found me loathen enough to abandon eight years ago, when I was comely and younger, how shall it be now if she meets me and sees me with this broken face, this changed and charged expression, if she should see the man she had shrunk from and hissed at and forsaken clothed in a trunk of flesh, molded by the finger of the breaker and painted by the viewless brush of the island spirit of solitude? In short, he feared to me. meter, dreading the horror and wrath which would flame in him and consume him and make a pitful wrench of him.
Starting point is 06:38:52 If, forgiving the past, she spurned him and turned from him as at Chepstow place, as on board the flying spur, as at Falmouth, when she departed without giving him a single look. When he was on the island, his heart clamored for the civilization of great cities. His dreams were of crowded streets and bustling shops. Now that he was in the middle of the greatest city the world has ever probably known, he began to pine for the repose of the country, or the hundred pictures of the coast. He was consistent, however, in his dislike of London. He might have been likened to the case of a man who, having received a blow on the head, loses a sense.
Starting point is 06:39:37 It may be taste or smell or both. Reynolds associated London with his marriage. His marriage was intellectually a knock on the head and an extinguished all capacity of relishing London. It was not because he believed his wife to be in Margate that he resolved to spend a month or two in Ramsgate. As you have just heard, he trembled at the idea of meeting her. Not because he did not most passionately desire to behold her, but because he feared the moral, the ruining consequences to himself of an encounter. But even supposing Lucretia to be at Margate, the town was as far from Ramsgate as Ramsgate from Diehl, or Deal from Dover, and there was no more reason why he should come across her in Ramsgate than if he remained in London or
Starting point is 06:40:29 vindicated his prenuptial aspirations by making the tour he had planned for his honeymoon. He liked the old town of Ramsgate. He had spent many a holiday there in his boyhood. His recollection of an embracing pier, the bright and folded water of the harbor reflected the red or brown of the drooping sail of the smack or caia, the sparkle of windows looking eastward over the edge of the low white ramparts. The placid hours he had passed in fishing over the side of a boat went to the thrilling tug at the baited hook he would strike and haul up hand over hand.
Starting point is 06:41:08 a place as big as a turbot, who made sport choice and delicious by the resistance of its heavy, curved shape in the water. His recollection of these and more, when life was young and blood romped through his heart, and the horizon of the passing year was gay with the penions hoisted by the hope, or remembered as pleasures freshened him to the very spirit, as the salt, sweet breath of sea vivifies and enriches to the inmost depth of existence. And one morning about three weeks after his arrival in London, he packed his portmanteau and drove to Charing Cross Station. It was the month of June, a pleasant month in Old England, nowhere pleasanter than by the sea when the ocean blends her gifts of weed and shell and sand with the color of odorous produce of the land. In Australia,
Starting point is 06:42:08 he had added 4,000 pounds to the value of Goodhart's bonds by prudent speculation or wise investment, and his income was about 600 a year. On this amount, a single man may, if he is discreet, make a figure. He cannot indeed run a theater or start a London Daily paper or race or keep a yacht, but he can, for instance, when he arrives at such a place as Ramsgate treat himself to the best hotel, and this Reynolds did, putting his name down as John Goodhart. This hotel is situated on the east cliff and bears the name of a bland old politician who was long a lord warden and remembered for his affirmation that on the advice of his doctor he dropped port for a year, at the end of which the gout had not only returned in full force, but had made room for seven even worse fiends so that he not only had to
Starting point is 06:43:08 writhe under his disease, but also under the memory of having lost 12 months of portwined to no purpose. Reynolds arrived in town for the table de Hote and then strolled out to view the place. Ramsgate, it is said, has been greatly improved by its new road and the disappearance of parts of the old town. The approval is much the same as that made by the section of a red brick cherry-built-built, in the midst of houses where architecture is Tudor or older yet, where everything but this flaunting place of worst incogny and pertinence, with his farthing affections of porch and pillar, its carrot-haired roof and impolent assertion of bay window,
Starting point is 06:43:55 where everything else breeds in a poetry of soft and happy-keeping, style blending with style, shadow with shadow, decay with decay, until the soft and pure rhythm, the adjustment of harmonies, the gradual but beautiful revelation of meaning, both in man's work and time's relation with his work, makes an idle or sonnet of the spot. This was much about Reynolds' judgment of the improved rancate he viewed as he strolled with memory eagerly and fondly painting.
Starting point is 06:44:29 The old sea town with his gap of Harbor Street betwixt two clips, like Dumpton Gap, a little way behind, its terraces of chalk in those days undisfigured by the railroad station and the black hole of tunnel that belches of furious vapor at the glaring advertisements hung up just outside its spacious stage of sands on which were enacted a hundred agreeable buffooneries. The fat women screaming with laughter on the galloping donkey, the milkman, limping under cans and yelping goat milk fresh from the cow, the sweet song of the brandy-ball man, the organs in the surf, where shrieked the timid and stood still the brave, where elderly men fell out of the machines like little colleges, and disappeared in foam,
Starting point is 06:45:23 where figures of blubber barbed and vanished, where girls who, when apparelled for the esplanade, looked a dream of fair women, emerged in shrunk and clinging shapes, pallid, hair-wrenched, and sexless to the male eye. It was the hour of sunset, over the levels between minister and sandwich. The red light was streaming in penions of glory with certain large clouds over the town, reverberated and dispatched in a delicate orange into the liquid velvet soffered over France. under opposite deal in walmer were the downs with a sea line covered with small dim sketches of ships motionless and distance reynolds leaned upon the rail that stopped people from falling over the cliff and gazed at the remote prospect of water a headwind had forced him to bring up there eight years ago in the flying spur with lucretia on board disdaining him acting indeed as though she loathed them eight years ago, right opposite of Cadill was slowly flapping along for Ramsgate Harbor. Her sails were colored by the
Starting point is 06:46:37 sunglow, and they panted like the human breast as she strove with the stream of tide. Eight years ago, where was Lucretia now? Tomorrow he would go to work to find out if she was at Margate, and if she was in that town, he would instruct Mr. Wembley Jones to send her the money for which he would remit his check. He could not endure to think of her as alone and poor and struggling. How could he tell but that she might be in actual want? The dusk drew down, found him watching the sea. A few people paced the esplanade to and fro. The light of the good winds sparkled and the Calais lantern glanced its lighting into the distant gloom. Yonder lurid spark is the brilliant star which the Frenchman's kindly hand had set upon the forehead of his rock, of greedness. A band was playing somewhere, but not too near to trouble a weaving mind. Lights like
Starting point is 06:47:37 the glowing tips of cigars burnt at the ends of the piers, whose dark curves framed a gleaming shadow, restful with slumbering shapes of moored craft, a rest not broken by the vision of white wing creeping from sea would be twigs to pearheads like a wreath of mist in the sad color of the dawn. What was the light making the dark atmosphere? Look sultry with tincture as of volcanic vomit beyond the good ones. It was the rising moon. She lifted a swollen, distorted bulk, freed herself from the clinging draperies of the atmosphere, and zawed into an orb of brilliance,
Starting point is 06:48:24 rolling down the water under her fan-shaped river of brightness. Someone stopped just behind me. Reynolds. He turned to see who it was who stood so close and behold his wife in the clear glow, watching the moon. End of Chapter 12. Recording by Gary Elman, Middletown, New York. Chapter 13 of Abandoned by William Clark Russell. This is a Libervox recording. All Libervox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please Visit Librevox.org. Recording by Joshua Francis.
Starting point is 06:49:12 Abandoned by William Clark Russell, Chapter 13, at Ramsgate. She stood so close that he could see the stars of the moonlight in her eyes. Her face was pale as marble in that sheen. She was dressed in dark clothes that expressed her figure, and her sailor hat was of colored straw. She gave him no more heed than she bestowed on the people who passed, the lovely picture of the rising moon and its rippling reflection, and the black brig, sulkily stemming and panting to the right of the flowing radiance in the sea,
Starting point is 06:49:47 appeared to have fascinated her. A sensation of tightness was about his heart, and its pulse throbbed, half strangled. His throat grew dry, as in fever, and the sudden passion of his spirit ran a momentary paralysis through him, and he stood as one seized with tetanus after taking poison. She was before him, even as he had viewed her spiritually from his fissure in the dell, pallid and a star-white light that closed her. Who is the artist that can throw such a passage of life upon the mental gaze of his reader, without shrinking from the dread of the derision that attends exaggeration?
Starting point is 06:50:24 She passed on without noticing him, for this was a figure to court the male eye, and she was used to being stared at. He watched, and then followed her. That old mole in the earth, Goodhart, was his prophecy to be fulfilled, was the old magic to exert the old spell now that she was there, stately in form, unchanged, unless the moon lied, by so much as a single stroke of the pencil of time? She stopped again to look at the sea, and he halted and turned his back, again followed when she moved, and so kept her in sight, down Augusta Road into the Bellevue Road, where she vanished. but he had marked the house she entered and presently passed it and read the number. It was a road mainly of poor lodging houses. He returned to the esplanade and sat down to think. His heart had cooled.
Starting point is 06:51:17 Memory had flooded and chilled him as the night with its cold moisture descends upon the sea. Moonlight makes all things beautiful. Says Wordsworth, The moon doth with delight look round her when the heavens are bare. But it had not adorned the beautiful. of Lucretia by throwing over her its conceiving ethereal veil of silver? In eight years, she had not physically changed. He was sure of that. If materially she had not altered, why should he expect or hope that she had morally altered? What right had he to believe
Starting point is 06:51:50 that her passionless nature was not still as frosty as it was eight years ago, with its ice-bleak presence of a form of chastity that was a distemper of mind? And if this was true, would it not be equally true to predict that the revelation of his identity, the confession of his individuality as Francis Reynolds, would provoke precisely the same disgust, induce exactly the same horror and revulsion which had attended her marriage and made of her a moral phenomenon. This was a consideration that brought his brows together, and his hand tightened upon his stick. For he knew himself well enough to understand that his self-respect as a man, that the honor in which it is the duty of every man to hold his own character, seeing that to the degree of honour a man does himself is the
Starting point is 06:52:38 dignity of his manhood lifted, must fall irretrievably into ruin if he again courted and gained the aversion which had dispatched her to her bedroom from the church, and filled his arms with the killing mockery of a phantom. He resolved to pursue a course, and walked to the hotel. He entered the reading room and seated himself at a desk at a table, and wrote to Mr. Wembley Jones. I am here, and by accident have discovered that the Mrs. Reynolds, whom you were good enough to inquire about, is lodging at 28 Bellevue Road, in this town. Will you kindly send her the enclosed draft for 150 pounds, stating the facts as I related them to you, and oblige, etc.? He signed the name of John Goodhart. He mused a bit after writing and stamping his letter.
Starting point is 06:53:27 suppose, he thought, on receipt of this money, Lucretia leaves Ramsgate? I may be unable to trace her again, and he plausibly represented to himself that his desire to hold her in view was because she was obviously poor and apparently alone and might want a friend. The judgment is always willing to be betrayed by one's tastes rather than be controlled by one's interests. He entered the hall and posted the letter. The morning, said a gentleman, who next day was seated at breakfast at the same table with Reynolds, is always the pleasantest part of the seaside in June, when fine. The dip, then the breakfast, then the pipe.
Starting point is 06:54:10 Where does tobacco discharge so delicate a richness, so nutty an aroma as by the sea? The fresh-fried soul for breakfast yields a sweetness and flavor it never delivers inland. There is a savouriness by the sea, in the incense sent up by the dish of eggs and bacon which must often make the gods lament their divinity as a form of being which requires neither palate nor stomach. This rhapsodist, who was rather deaf, and who had told Reynolds that he was a stockbroker with a great taste for literature, in which he had sought eminence without achieving it, this man who had informed Reynolds in the smoking room that he had read Burton's anatomy 14 times, that he possessed the first folio edition of Beaumont and Fletcher, and that he had refused 600 pounds for a collection of autographs from Wycliffe to the Prince Consort, might have added to his list of the engaging pleasures of the seaside on a fine June morning, the breakfasting at an open window which frames a broad plain of water sparkling with sun-stars,
Starting point is 06:55:13 over whose surface firm ruled against the sky, glide shapes of steamer and sailing ships, the solemn mail-boat, stately and sentiency of human life, of precious freight, of beautiful engineering, of elegance in mold of whole, The cargo tramp, that perceptive of the under-manned lookout aboard her, strains the eyes of her haze pipes of the sea from her rearing boughs. That coaster of the coast, the barge, discoloring the water under her with dyes of red mainsail and white topsail. Pleasant also is it to breakfast in the fanning of the fresh salt air,
Starting point is 06:55:50 to the stealthy seething of waters upon the sands and rocks, to the thin, undistracting orchestra composed of the town band afar, Piano organs muffled around the corner, blackened minstrels upon the beach, human voices calling or singing, the vibration of bells, the cries of the hawker, faint as though in partial vacuole, blending and contained within that frame of open window, with the hollow dome on high, full of blue air and moving clouds. Before and during breakfast, Reynolds had kept a lookout for his wife. He was consumed with the desire to behold her by daylight. One road to the town, from the place where she lived, would carry her past the north and east windows of the hotel. How did she occupy the day? Did she teach? And if so, at a school, or did she receive pupils? After breakfast he went for a walk. His heart prompted his legs, and he made for the arbor by way of Augusta Road, and the road in which Lucretia lodged. He looked at the house as he slowly passed. A somewhat dingy, poorly draped fifth-rate lodging house.
Starting point is 06:56:58 whose character was not improved by the yells of a man gutting fish at a barrel opposite the door, with a couple of cats rubbing themselves against his fear-not trousers, and by another fellow with a basket on his arm, trying to burst through the first man's shouts of, beautiful fresh souls, by bawling and ear-splitting notes, Oh, the beautiful fresh Pegwell Bay shrimps! Lucretia was not to be seen. He walked on, lost in thought about her,
Starting point is 06:57:26 and passed through the pier gates, to a scene that was as familiar to him then as it had been a quarter of a century before. It was a richly colored picture of English longshore life. The breeze filled it with motion. In places it was a dance of prisms. Every flag rippled and waved seawards. The wearies swayed upon the pulsation of the waters. Shadows like that of gigantic fingers ran through the white heights of hoisted canvas. Marble-like forms of seagulls hovered on tremorless wings between the pierheads, where the surface of the brine glanced and froliced with the splendor of a herring shoal. Reynolds, pensive with memories of boyhood, watched a tug head slowly out, slapping her wake of foam at the mud barge she towed.
Starting point is 06:58:13 A cluster of large pleasure boats called yachts lay at the pier steps, and their captains were competing for fares and voices which could be heard half a mile off. Some way this side lay the lifeboat reposing peacefully at her buoy, a noble, a significant symbol of the life of the sea to the sailor. One of those yacht masters on the pier was exhorting the public to step on board his swift and lovely ship and sail to the Goodwin Sands, where they would land to play at cricket, an incident of travel to boast of on their return home. And hard by was the lifeboat, so fraught with memories of those same deadly good ones, that you might almost fancy, if you pressed your ear against one of her thwarts, whispers of tragedies, breathings, such as fabrics made sentient by their burden and business of humanity converse with, would penetrate to your consciousness and group upon your spiritual retina many shocking, many wild, many ghastly visions.
Starting point is 06:59:11 What sailor but knows them! The dead bodies lashed in the lee-misen-rigging, men who had drowned in the freezing foam when the mast went, watched by a shivering crowd of wretches in the foretap, the saloon of the stranded liner with the dead bodies of nuns and others floating about, the streaming, reddening flare that lights up the sea for miles, and flings upon the flying raven wings of the storm a low, sullen radiance, in which the rocket of the lightship flashes and fades.
Starting point is 06:59:41 Would you like to go for an hour's row, sir? "'Beautiful day for a sail. "'It's a nice fission to be at. "'Very fine, pouten. "'Cauden's long as my arm,' said an elderly man, "'coming up to Reynolds. "'His face was like the inside of a crumpet, "'with its recollections of smallpox,
Starting point is 06:59:58 "'and though the dog days were not far off, "'he wore a yellow saw-wester, "'and lounged in breeches as heavy as winter blankets. "'Aren't you Joe Cooper,' said Reynolds. "'Yes.' "'I remember you twenty-five years ago. Have you been here ever since? Aye, ever since I was born.
Starting point is 07:00:17 Sowed father. Sowed his father. Shall I get the Bort ready, sir? How's old John Goldsmith? Old John? Amos ad the pilot? But he comes down here three years ago, just where we're astounding. And Arter looking at his pilot, he says,
Starting point is 07:00:35 Joe, he says he, the old Bart lies safe. I, safe enough, says I. I feel's a bit tired, says. is he in a soft way, I think I'll go and loy down. Loy down he did, and he's still a loy in. William, he bawled, got any bait in that there can? Reynolds gave him two shillings and walked away. He had fished so much in his day that he wanted no more of that sport.
Starting point is 07:01:01 He went on the pier, but all the time that he walked, his eyes hunted for a sight of Lucretia. But throughout that day he saw nothing of her, though he was studiously much about, on the sands, on the West Pier and Westcliff, at at ten o'clock that night, when he sat in a smoking room conversing with a stockbroker and one or two others, he had not seen her. Next morning he received a letter from Mr. Wembley Jones, acknowledging the receipt of his check for 150 pounds, and informing him that he had sent the money to Mrs. Reynolds at the address given,
Starting point is 07:01:32 by Mr. Goodhart, together with the particulars which he had been asked to communicate. He added that he did not doubt that Mrs. Reynolds would do herself the pleasure to call upon Mr. Goodhart, to personally thank him for his kindness. This was naturally Reynolds' expectation, but he did not suppose that she would call on the morning. On his return, however, to the hotel to lunch, a card was given to him, and the porter said that a lady had called to see him, and that she would come again at half-past four. The card bore the engraved name of Mrs. Reynolds, and she had written her address in the corner. He had flattered himself that he had schooled his face, and drilled his spirit into qualifying him for such a meeting as to betray on his side no more than if indeed
Starting point is 07:02:14 he was veritably the man he personated. But as he walked to the luncheon table with his wife's card in his hand, he was conscious of a perturbation, a hurry and tumult of mind, a collision and recoil of sensations which occurred him. It was vastly well, truly, that he had not met his wife without this advice of her coming. Indeed, he could scarcely swallow the meal he ordered, and when his acquaintance, the literary stockbroker, asked from an adjacent table if he would join him in a shilling trip in one of the pleasure boats that afternoon, the answer he received was so abrupt in a person whose demeanor was uniformly mild, somewhat melancholy, but pleasantly flavored with geniality, that the stockbroker thought that Mr. Goodhart must be feeling ill,
Starting point is 07:02:58 and looked at him for a little while in friendly inquiry. Reynolds, conceiving that the ordeal of the first meeting with his wife would lose intention if it were unwitnessed, asked for a private room in which to receive his visitor, and at half-past four, he was pacing its carpet. Precisely at the time named in the message the knuckles of a waiter drummed on the door, which was flung wide open and, Mrs. Reynolds, sir, was announced in a strong German accent. Reynolds stood with his back to the light and bowed low with a tranquility that would have reassured any secret spectator who had been his well-wisher. Had the moon the night before last, told a flattering tale, had she deceived him with her cold pencils of white brightness? It is a fact that eight years had robbed Lucretia of nothing and had added something. As the red rose of June is to the same red rose of July was Lucretia of the altar in St. Stephen's church to the Mrs. Reynolds, who sank her head in a queenly movement to Mr. Goodhart.
Starting point is 07:04:02 Hers, indeed, had been some trial of poverty, not severe, but no discipline of maternity, no death of babe, nor anxiety of always ailing child, no kitchen murmurous with grievances, and the poor pay of a shipmaster as a thread for the pearls of the faith of Hyman. She was richer in color, fuller and rounder and figure than when they had parted. But one characteristic time had wrought no change in, and this was the inherent quality of coldness in the residual expression of her face, which, has she been ugly, would have ascended to the degree of a viral austerity. But though her beauty held this element in solution,
Starting point is 07:04:43 it was present and visible as the label of her nature. And Reynolds, at a glance, saw that if Lucretia had not lost an external charm as a woman, neither had anything come on the spiritual side to help her as a woman. her sailor's hat suited her and her dress fitted her her left hand was gloved he could not know at once if she wore his ring she put her right hand behind her in search of her pocket and said with calmness a little coloured with the glow of gratitude i have the pleasure of addressing mr goodhart again he bowed and begged her to sit there was clearly nothing in the sound of his voice that struck her her demeanour proved this it was a self-possession of a lady in the presence of a stranger I received this morning this letter, she said, producing it, from my father's solicitor, Mr. Wembley Jones. He enclosed your check for 150 pounds, for which I do not know how to express my gratitude to you. The story you told him is naturally of the deepest interest to me, and I shall
Starting point is 07:05:44 feel greatly obliged if you can add anything to what Mr. Wembley Jones writes. I fear I can add nothing, said Reynolds, in a low but steady voice. It was my duty as a man and a sailor to carry out this poor, shipwrecked fellow's wishes. It has given me no trouble. It has been a pleasure. I could enter into the feelings that governed him as he wrote. I wish I had preserved his letter. So far absolutely nothing in his voice, nor in his aspect to invite her regard outside the interest of the subject she had called about.
Starting point is 07:06:17 You may have been told, she said, that Captain Reynolds was my husband? Oh, yes. Do you believe he is dead? Mr. Wembley Jones does not seem to consider your discovery of his letter, a proof of his death. He wrote in words such as only a man who is convinced that his death is at hand would use. And yet that is no proof. He might have been taken off the island. Would not you have heard from him?
Starting point is 07:06:44 She was silent whilst she looked at the letter she held, and he watched her. Can you tell me when his letter was dated? she asked. "'To the best of my recollection,' he answered, "'it was dated January 1892. "'Six years ago!' she exclaimed, "'and the shadow of thought was on her face "'as her large, dark eyes fastened themselves in the carpet. "'She looked up and exclaimed,
Starting point is 07:07:10 "'There has not been a line of reference "'to the loss of his ship in the papers. "'The uncertainty has been very hard to bear, "'but time reconciles us to much.' "'The waiter entered with a tea-tray. "'Lucrecia took off her gloves and Reynolds saw his wedding ring. May I give you a cup, Mr. Goodhart? said she.
Starting point is 07:07:29 The same graceful posture at table, the same fine motions of arm, like the swaying of stately branches in summer winds, the same flower-like curve of neck, the same glow of hair and brilliancy of teeth. The magic was there, and the spell was working, but in a way. Shall I call you Captain Goodhart?
Starting point is 07:07:50 No, madam. I have given up the sea. You retired as captain? I am Mr. John Goodhart. In the merchant service, we are not entitled to be called captains. We are master mariners. Will you tell me about that island? I will tell you what I saw and what my chief officer reported. When he used the words, Chief Officer, she looked at him intently,
Starting point is 07:08:15 under slightly knitted brows, as though something in the tone in which he pronounced the words affected her. But the expression vanished like the shadow of a cloud, crossing a brook, and she listened with single-hearted attention. The island is called Santo Cristo. It is about a mile long, and not a mile broad. It rears a green hill in the middle, out of which, halfway down, spout two cascades. Its foreshore is of white coral sand. It's an island of which something could be made where it's situated on a lake on an estate. Did the office you see no signs of Captain
Starting point is 07:08:49 Reynolds? None. If he died on the island, she did not like to continue. Nature is kind, said Reynolds, calmly and gravely, and in six years she would not only have found him a tomb, but ornamented his resting place with a memorial, a bush, a little growth of flowers. It is shocking to me to think of his dying on that island. Was he alone, do you think? I should say so. Few ships cite that bit of land. Had we not been meant, blown out of our course, we should not have come within 50 miles of it. Then again, the mere circumstance of his letter about you, lying nailed on top of a chest in a cave for nearly six
Starting point is 07:09:31 years, proves that the island was unvisited. Anybody who landed and explored the island would find the cave and take the letter. He paused and added, have you any children? No, she answered, with an expression of face which he readily translated into an emotion of tingling self-consciousness, but it never could have been so construed by a stranger. How did you find out where I lived, Mr. Goodhart? It was necessary to Fibb. He was acting apart. The actor must tell lies off the stage as well as on. He was goodhart to this spectator, and he must play up to the part, just as though he was King Lear or Joseph's surface, watched by rose and tears.
Starting point is 07:10:14 I saw you on the esplanade the other evening, and ascertained your name, which induced me to inquire after your address, in the conviction that, if I was mistaken, a plain explanation of the facts would be accepted by you as my apology. Never was falsehood nearer the truth, nor more satisfying. He saw that she was not displeased by the initial curiosity the incident implied. He had manifestly been attracted by her appearance, had asked who she was, had been surprised on hearing her name, sought her address, and taken his chance of her proving the woman he wanted. she began to put on her gloves. How do you think, she asked,
Starting point is 07:10:54 did my poor, unfortunate husband contrive to clothe and feed himself on that wretched, lonely island? Reynolds gravely shook his head and slightly shrugged his shoulders, as though he should say, how can I tell? She rose. Is Mrs. Goodhart with you? she asked, with a smile that was easily interpreted into meaning that, if Mrs. Goodhart is here, I will formally call upon her. "'Mrs. Goodhart has been lying in her grave in Sydney since 1878,' answered Reynolds.
Starting point is 07:11:25 She bowed her head an apology for asking the question. "'I wish you to believe, Mr. Goodhart, that I am deeply obliged to you for your kindness. "'Nothing could have given me more pleasure. I trust this may not be our only meeting.' "'Are you making any stay here?' "'I like the place, and shall linger until I weary of it. And you, Mrs. Reynolds?' "'Oh, I'm a fixture, I'm afraid. My mornings and afternoons are occupied. One must live, Mr. Goodhart.
Starting point is 07:11:56 Women's opportunities are fearfully limited. If I had been born a man, I should not teach for a living. This money is a great godsend. She looked away to the window, and her fine eyes wore the softened glow, which tells of abstraction. But she was back again in a second. So many, many thanks for your kindness. She extended her hand. clasped, but released it swiftly, then opened the door and attended her as far as a corridor that
Starting point is 07:12:23 led to the hall, bowed, and returned to sit down and think. It will seem incredible that Lucretia should not have recognized her husband. Put it thus, for six or seven years, you have thought of a man as dead. The conviction of his death is a custom, and custom lies upon us, like a weight, heavy as frost and deep almost as life. Suppose this man to reappear absolutely transformed an aspect. Would you, without information, accept him as the person you know is dead? You might witness features physiological and moral to suggest resemblance, but this resemblance would be accident and not revelation. And short of revelation, you were bound by the custom of your thought to believe the person you knew dead, and the same man, when he presents himself, another.
Starting point is 07:13:15 How stood the thing with this couple? In the first place, it had been a sailor's courtship. She had not seen half as much of him in the wooing time as she would have seen had he filled a short appointment. Next, she had not been a wife to him. She could not found herself on such knowledge as would have been hers had they lived together. She had abandoned him on her wedding day, and believed him dead after eight years, during which time she had not heard of him or set eyes on him, and memory now was holding only the image of him as he figured whilst he courted her, a fugitive figure, thanks to his calling. Here he was now as Goodhart, not as Reynolds.
Starting point is 07:13:55 So changed in face he had started and not known himself, when for the first time after twenty months he had looked at himself in a looking-glass, in a cabin in the Tanticleer. The sight of his left eye was so impaired that he could barely see with it. The orb was lustreless and charged the face with a new expression. He used spectacles for reading and pinceness for surveying distant objects. His left eyebrow and side of the head were warped by the healing of the wound, and this, combined with the blow which had wrecked one side of the mouth,
Starting point is 07:14:29 completed a metamorphosis, of which other features were the white hair and gray beard and mustache, A singular modification in his normal enunciation, owing to the damage done to the mouth, a shadow of melancholy that had never before been visible, that is, in Nukrecia's time. It was inconceivable that the wife, believing the man dead, should translate this unfamiliar figure of Mr. John Goodhart into her husband, Frank Reynolds. She had not done so, and when Reynolds returned to the private sitting room, whose atmosphere still cherished the memory in fragrance of her presence, he felt that he was as dead to her as though he occupied the grave he had dug for his friend. This had been a meeting that had imposed a desperate restraint on him,
Starting point is 07:15:15 and now that the pressure was removed, his spirits and feelings swelled into turbulence, and he paced the room deeply agitated. As his passions cooled, he asked himself, What should he do? Nothing was more certain than that his wife, unchanged by time, unsoftened by experiences, was still that same Lucretia of the altar, who had repulsed him after she had vowed before God to love, honor, and obey him. But he loved her, he desired her.
Starting point is 07:15:46 The secret of his heart was not to be concealed from his understanding. He thought her a nobler looking, a more beautiful woman now than when he had first met and fallen in love with her. What depth of spirituality in those dark eyes. How sudden like the play of light was the sweetness of her smile. How tranquil her brow, as virginal to his, her husband's eyes, as an angel's who in this world was a little child. How resolved the expression of her bright lips. How excellent in this ignoble world of carnal sensation, whether a finger or nose or eye, that spirit of chastity which had held her from him, he must woo and try to win her as good heart. But though in his wife's unchanged nature he thought he saw the necessity for this, it was a prospect his vanity by no means relished. Good God, what would be his feelings to find himself accepted as Goodhart when he had been spurned as Reynolds? To find himself accepted as another man by the wife who would have none of the real man?
Starting point is 07:16:49 It was enough to make him feel jealous of himself as Goodhart. Next afternoon at about five o'clock, Reynolds was seated with his acquaintance, the stockbroker, on a bench on the east cliff. A very flowery young lady of about 38 passed. She was powdered and vermilioned under a white veil to the aspect of about 20. Eyes doctored by pigments into an expression of licorish languor, dangerous to old and middle-aged men, round in hip, plump and clean in waist, ripe in bust.
Starting point is 07:17:21 Ha! exclaimed the stockbroker, fetching a sigh and following the gaudy nymph with his eyes. and the rhapsodist burst out. How beautiful and mysterious is that creature, woman? Think of the loveliness of her shape, its marvelous adaptability, to the purposes for which it is intended, her power of germinating, the rapture she can excite,
Starting point is 07:17:43 the inspiration she can fire the imagination with, the mighty or the mean actions she can induce the performance of. Think of her too as incarnating that holy mundane Trinity, life, mother, sister. Mr. Goodhart, of all God's miracles, woman is the greatest. And what is your opinion of man? asked Reynolds, a little dryly. I have the highest opinion of man in the aggregate, but the individual man does not always recommend himself to me. He does not always pay his bills. He tells lies. He runs away with your wife.
Starting point is 07:18:20 With the greatest of all miracles? Yes, he'll even go so far as that. But the aggregate man, look at that noble steamer yonder. Look at that pier down there. Feel the rumble of the train passing through the tunnel cut in the solid chalk on which we are seated. It's not man's failures that should dismay us. It is his achievements that should astonish and stimulate us. He comes into the world with five senses only. In most cases, these senses are defective. His knowledge is limited to his capacity of perceiving by these senses, and their doubtful reports are to be construed by that fallible organ, the brain. Thus slenderly, and indeed almost impotently equipped, the man you ask me my opinion of points to the noble bridge that spans the
Starting point is 07:19:05 river, to the locomotive shrieking into the tunnel, to the steamship tearing with iron tooth through the mad heart of the living gale, to the message that passes to the antipodes and the twinkling of a star. Think of these products of five senses only, two or three of them abortive, depending in their poor efforts to report a right on the interpretation of that misleading condition of life the human reason. I say that on the terms of his existence, man's achievements are godlike. Not bad for a stockbroker, thought Reynolds, who sincerely agreed with the rhapsodist. Just then, Lucretia turned the corner of the esplanade. As she approached, Reynolds stood up and raised his cap.
Starting point is 07:19:50 The stockbroker, after a glance at this further illicit, of the greatest miracle, walked off. They saluted each other. They agreed that it was a fine evening. I should like to hear more of, what's the name of the island? she said. Santo Cristo, won't you sit? She took the place vacated by the rhapsodist. She was slightly flushed. It was not the heat.
Starting point is 07:20:16 She was fresh from teaching, and all the while she had walked from the house, she was secretly resenting the manner in which her two pupils' mama had expressed her regret that Lillian's handwriting should show no signs of improvement, and that Violet's spelling should continue wretched. As if I had had any share in giving those creatures their brains, thought the proud and passionless Lucretia, as she left the house, which was in Wellington Crescent. I don't think that I could add a sentence to the description I gave you yesterday, said Reynolds. It's just a poor little uninhabited island. nothing, I should suppose, could live upon it but a man or a seabird. If my husband had been taken off by a ship, should not I have heard? Undoubtedly, either through the owners of his ship or from himself.
Starting point is 07:21:03 What do you really think, she asked, fastening her full dark eyes upon him? You are reconciled to the idea of his death? His ship was never accounted for after she sailed, and I am forced to believe that he is dead. since you are reconciled, I should hold to that view if I were you. Had you been married long before he sailed? No, she answered, slightly contracting her brow as she looked at the French coast, which was lifted in a delicate orange mirage, and hovered like a cloud over the sea-line. Do you like Ramsgate? he asked.
Starting point is 07:21:39 Yes, but not the reason that keeps me in it. There is nothing that worries the nerves so much as teaching stupid children, whose mothers think them clever and capable of rapid progress. He looked at her with a quiet face. When again she gave him a steady view of her profile, which was the aspect of her beauty he most admired, whilst she gazed at the French coast. You have friends here, of course?
Starting point is 07:22:03 None. I have not been here long enough to form acquaintances. Besides, teaching makes one unsociable. I used to think schoolmaster's disagreeable company, because they bring with them the peremptory domineering, correcting ways they employ in a schoolroom. I am afraid, if I went into society, people would find me objectionable for the same reason, which, indeed, I can't help, for one contracts bad habits insensibly in this world of all sorts of misdemeanors. She rose. Good afternoon, Mr. Goodhart. I'm sorry you should be in a hurry. I'm not in a hurry. I am going to my lodgings to drink a cup of
Starting point is 07:22:41 tea, said she with a smile. Will you do me the pleasure to drink tea with me at the hotel? I am a stranger here, and I assure you your society is a singular privilege, which you will not allow me to lose for a cup of tea. I shall be very pleased, she answered without hesitation. I'm sure your thoughtful kindness, the trouble you have taken in carrying out my husband's wishes, make me very glad indeed to meet you. Naturally, as a lady whose income was very limited indeed, and who is obliged to
Starting point is 07:23:11 to teach in order to live, she was greatly touched by the kindness of the man who had taken the trouble to find her out, that he might hand her the handsome and welcome sum of 150 pounds, her husband's farewell gift. They walked slowly to the hotel. End Chapter 13. Chapter 14 of Abandoned by William Clark Russell. This is a Librevox recording. All Libravox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit Libravox.org. Abandoned by William Clark Russell. Chapter 14, A Rescue As they walked, Reynolds said to Lucretia, it is said that you should be obliged to follow an uncongenial calling for a living. Mr. Wembley Jones told me that your income was small. I think he said 70 pounds a year. Mr. Wembley Jones had said nothing of the sort, but then Reynolds' thought that he knew what he was talking about. "'It is less than that,' answered Lucretia,
Starting point is 07:24:19 with her cheek warmed by a little color, discharged into it by half a dozen different feelings. Indeed, it is barely sixty. Their eyes met as she spoke, and she witnessed a sympathy that was deeper than any that could give life to pity in a stranger in his look. He saw a sudden trouble of mind, as of perplexity in the shadow her brow took,
Starting point is 07:24:42 and in the compression of her lips. Had I thought of it, said he, I might, on learning the name of your father, have found out where you lived by looking at his will. Your trustee would have given me your address. There were two, and both are dead. Who sends you your money? It is received by the bank and forwarded to me.
Starting point is 07:25:06 Mr. Wembley Jones told me that you were an Australian. Reynolds did not speak. The income I receive, she said, is derived from Australian bonds. I should know what they were called if I heard the name. New South Wales? No. Victoria? Yes. I also hold in Victoria. They are very safe. She asked him some questions about Australia, and this brought them to the hotel. As they entered, one of two men who were conversing in the hall shrieked like, a locomotive whistle and fell in a fit. From all parts, from offices and rooms, people rushed.
Starting point is 07:25:49 Who was it? Only his grace, the Duke of Blank. When a Duke has a fit, the flap is usually great in the barnyard that is the theatre of his exploit. A Duke's a Duke. Reynolds and Lucretia blended their gaze in an expression of awe at the noble figure, five feet eight, as it was lifted and carried away. Who is it? asked Reynolds of a waiter. The fellow told him. What was the matter? A fit, sir, but it's well known his viscera's wore out. After an uncontrollable fit of laughter, Reynolds ordered tea for two and passed with Lucretia into a great room and sat down with her at a table at an open window which framed the sea. When events come to pass, they lose the weight of
Starting point is 07:26:38 meaning they held whilst in contemplation. Had Reynolds been told, whilst on the island of Santo Cristo, that a day might come when he would be sitting at tea opposite his wife in a hotel at Ramsgate, he personating the part of Goodhart, and she accepting it to the very root of the credulity in her, he might, with a shrug and a smile, have held such a circumstance faintly possible, but in the uttermost degree improbable. Now that they were to he found the situation reasonable, logical, easy, though to be sure, curious. Very soon after they had seated themselves, she said to him, Do you know, Mr. Goodhart, that in some way I'm not able to explain, you recall my husband? And do you know, Mrs. Reynolds, he replied, that in some way
Starting point is 07:27:30 I can't explain, you recall my wife. Not that you are a bit like Captain Reynolds, she went on, and yet you have that sort of resemblance which, if you were his brother, would be called a family-likeness. You are like my wife in eyes, hair, color, and figure, said he, but she was slimmer and had not your voice nor the power of expression I find in your eyes. Lucretia believed that she concealed her pleasure, the pleasure of tickled vanity, but it is seldom that gratification can be so obscured that its light shall not. appear in the face. Reynolds's instructions for tea had been liberal, strawberries and cream, prawns, brown and white bread, butter, cakes, and such things. He easily guessed that Lucretia dined in the middle of the day, and that her lonely repast would be very homely indeed, a mutton chop say cooked in a frying pan, ill-dressed and ill-served, a lone-lorn Mrs.
Starting point is 07:28:33 Gummage of a potato, and perhaps a sponge-cake for pudding. He used to be a muttoned chopse, had fed for twenty months upon fish fried in a shovel, and he was naturally in sympathy with Lucretia, who lived in a fifth-rate lodging house. If he had been pleased with his breakfast at an open window with a London stockbroker, we may conceive him immeasurably happier at tea at an open window with Lucretia. It was the singular case of a man who had resolved to woo and win in another name, and in an unrecognized aspect, the handsome and indecorously chased woman who had married him, and then cast him out as though he had been one of those abominable fiends whose misdeeds are recounted in holy writ. They had been married eight years. Commonly after eight years, the most
Starting point is 07:29:22 impassioned couple grow a little used to, if not a little tired of, each other. But here was a man who had got married, and had been immediately prohibited to find a little bit of a little bit of each other. out what a wife meant or what marriage was like. The painted dust still glorified this butterfly. The first love of his life still preserved the freshness and the glory of the dream. The virgin still slept in the shape of the married woman, and the wooing of her was to be made as sweetly and deliciously ardent as though she had never been won. An utter contradiction in human affairs could not confound the understanding. Nevertheless, there they sat at tea, at an open window in a hotel in Ramsgate. He opened his purse and took out two guineas. The mate I sent ashore, said he,
Starting point is 07:30:14 found these coins in the old chest to which your husband's letter and enclosures to you had been nailed. As they may have belonged to him, will you allow me to present them to you as mementos of his shipwreck? She slightly, flushed, bowed with the stately stateliness her fine figure and shape enabled her to command, and, taking the guineas in her hand and examining them, said, I shall value them very much indeed. I have no doubt they belonged to him, said Reynolds, and that he put them into that mysterious old chest in preference to making a hole in the earth as the mariner's
Starting point is 07:30:52 custom is when he meets with booty or disburdens himself of treasure. If he was long on the island, his clothes would fall into rags, and he would be as badly off for pockets as young Colonel Jack. She looked pensively out the window, then her eyes came back to the money in her hand. She examined the coins afresh, and put them in her purse. How long were you at sea, Mr. Goodhart? Many years. It is a hard calling and badly paid. Very, very.
Starting point is 07:31:26 The only charm of the ocean as a life lies in it making you see the world. How mean I used to feel sometimes when Captain Reynolds was talking about the places he had visited. He'd tell me about Hong Kong and Calcutta and Sydney and Cape Town and dozens of other places, and all I could answer was, do you know Ramsgate, for I've been there? Reynolds was holding himself under wonderful control, such control as he never could have exercised, but for two reasons. First, he was a man of great intelligence, of instant sympathy, and at this particular juncture, you will suppose that every instinct bristled in him with the spirit of alertness. Second, he was used as a sailor to sudden confusing and amazing
Starting point is 07:32:14 confrontments, and had taught himself never to be at a loss, and this professional habit had been matured by his island isolation, by months of enforced introspection, by free, frequent contemplation of contingencies, such, for example, as suddenly meeting his wife, and how he should act and the like. He listened to Lucretia with an unchanged face whilst she talked. "'Those sailors travel far, they see little,' said he. "'I want to ask you this question whilst I think of it. Do you suppose the sea-chest in the cave belonged to Captain Reynolds?' To judge from the chief officer's description of it, I should say certainly not.
Starting point is 07:32:58 He considered it about a hundred years old. I don't think I ever saw his sea-chest, said she musingly. And now another question, Mr. Goodhart, what chance do you think would a person, placed as I am, find in Australia? A very poor chance. Surely a better chance than England offers? No, you are not a cook or a housemaid. governesses are not in demand in Australia.
Starting point is 07:33:28 Where are they wanted? she exclaimed, with a glow of eye, a color of temper he remembered well, and remembered only to admire as he again admired. Where is the governess paid as a person who must look like a lady if she is unable to live as one? I started a young lady's school at Canterbury. Two pupils could not maintain me, and I lost money, which reduced my income and drove me to Margate, where I was most unhappy. I cannot see why governesses should not be wanted in Australia. He laughed softly and answered that she would be deceiving herself if she acted under that impression. "'Forgive my apparent curiosity,' he said. "'My desire is to be of use to you. Did not Captain
Starting point is 07:34:17 Reynolds leave anything, any property, cash, a house?' I believe he had two or three hundred pounds lying in savings at the London and Westminster Bank, she said, viewing him steadfastly as though struck by the idea he had put into her head. Have you claimed the money as his widow? No. Why? Because I never thought of doing so. Have you had no advisor in your time?
Starting point is 07:34:48 I have consulted one or two solicitors, but on business that never could have suggested the thought you have given me. If you will authorize me to make a claim for this money as Captain Reynolds's widow, I will go to work. How much is it? Frank told me it was between two and three hundred pounds, but I know that he drew a part of it before he sailed on his last voyage, and perhaps that was the one hundred and fifty pounds he wished me to get, and which, thanks, so many, many thanks to you, I have got. Will you address a letter to you? Will you address a letter to you? to me here authorizing me to act for you?" "'I will most gladly. Indeed, Mr. Goodhart, you are very, very kind,' she exclaimed,
Starting point is 07:35:33 and her voice trembled, and the extremities of her mouth twitched, and her eyes softened with the shadow of an emotion as the sunbeam on the river gathers tenderness from the shadow of the delicate film of cloud. But,' she continued, after a few moments' consideration, "'if my husband is alive, "'Aught I, have I a right to take the money?' "'My dear madame,' he answered, steadily returning her gaze, "'I understand that it is eight years since you parted from your husband. "'His ship has been overdue seven years.
Starting point is 07:36:09 "'In those seven years you have not heard of or from him. "'If he were alive, would not he on his rescue have made haste to communicate with you? "'You must either take it that he is dead or that he has abandoned you. You knew your husband. Was he the man to abandon you? Her face expressed the complexity of her mood. She faintly responded, I do not know, I should hope not. Then, as he was not the man to desert his wife, continued Reynolds, repressing with a violent effort, the animation his voice and manner were beginning to betray. It must be that he is dead.
Starting point is 07:36:48 For how is it to stand with you, if you are to go on thinking of him as a lot, yet never hearing from or knowing where he is. You told me you were newly married when he sailed. You were, so to speak, his bride. Do men desert their brides, and such brides as you? I do not think I could have deserted my wife whom I loved, and I am sure she would not have thought I deserted her if I had sailed and had not been heard of for eight years. She listened to him with an attention that made her beauty severe and color. with the pain of that attention. She sighed suddenly, and gave her body a little shake, as though by the physical effort she could dislodge the gnats of thought which stung her.
Starting point is 07:37:36 You are extremely kind to take so much interest, she said, feeling in her pocket for her gloves. I will gladly take your advice. You will write authorizing me to apply for the money? Yes, this evening. It will say, save a post if I send for it. I will leave it here. She looked about her for a clock. Reynolds pulled out Goodhart's splendid gold watch, somewhat ostentatiously surveyed it and said,
Starting point is 07:38:07 It is half-past six. I will leave the letter at about eight o'clock. He sprang the lid of the watch as if to inspect the face, so held it that she could not fail to see the monogram, J.G., on the back, then closed and pocketed it. She stood up. When shall I have the pleasure of seeing you again?
Starting point is 07:38:28 He said, rising. I am engaged morning and afternoon. And after? I usually take a walk on the pier after tea. Shall we say this hour on the pier tomorrow evening? She bowed. As they walked to the hall of the hotel, they met the London stockbroker,
Starting point is 07:38:48 who, after staring at Lucretia, thought to himself, well this is coming at a bit thick a pale melancholy white-haired man well on for sixty professing to love science and philosophy and he has not been in ramsgate a couple days before he has managed to pick up the handsomest woman in the place so accurate are men's judgments one of another that evening reynolds received the following 28 Bellevue Road Ramsgate Dear Mr. Goodhart My husband, the late Captain Francis Reynolds, told me before we were married
Starting point is 07:39:25 that he had saved up two or three hundred pounds, with which he intended to furnish a little house for me on his return. This money he said he had placed in the hands of the London and Westminster Bank. I am quite sure this was the name of the bank in London. He sailed in the ship he commanded, the flying sea. spur from Falmouth in October 1890, and I have never heard of or from him since. As you inform me that I am entitled to this money as his widow, I should feel deeply grateful to you if you would help me to receive it, as I am poor and working as a governess, and this sum,
Starting point is 07:40:05 whatever it may be, would be greatly helpful. I believe he drew a portion of it before he sailed, thanking you again and again, believe me, sincerely and gratefully yours, Lucretia Reynolds. He slightly smiled, but his face swiftly resumed its habitual grave and melancholy expression, and he put the letter into his pocket with the slow motion of hand, which is one of the body's visible tokens, that the spirit within it is in labor. Reynolds was a sailor, but he was also a good man of business. He easily understood that, as a stranger to Lucretia, he could not help her to get the money her husband had left on deposit. The procedure would have involved the starting of a gigantic mill of the law.
Starting point is 07:40:53 First, Mrs. Reynolds must apply to the courts for leave to presume her husband's death. And this leave being granted, she must take out letters of administration or obtain probate of her husband's will, and in this case there was no will. The letters of administration, or the proverbs, would then have to be lodged with the London and Westminster Bank for registration, after which the money standing to the credit of the husband could be withdrawn. Reynolds had no intention to disclose his identity, and his secret must be imminently jeopardized if, feigning to be good heart, he placed himself within the radius of the light of that searching bullseye, the law. He quite knew what to do and how to continue his appeals to the gratitude and to the deeper emotions of his wife
Starting point is 07:41:42 by holding her as a lady who would be very willing to accept Mr. Goodhart's word, providing Mr. Goodheart's or another's check confirmed it. That was a fine month of June, and the following day was as brilliant as any of the vanished flock of sunlit hours. At half-past six, Reynolds was on the East Pier. The sun was reddening westwards, and clouds as soft and white as foam, came out of the east from the lips of the wind and floated across the sky to make more glorious the pavilions and the couch of the sinking god of day. Many people walked upon the pier. Here and there, within a mile or two, gampled a boat with men in her fishing, and here and there the canvas of a sailing boat resembled the breaking
Starting point is 07:42:31 head of a little sea. The sandwich shore swept along. in purple shadow, until it soared in dimming brightness where the foreland exulted her star. Whatever took the eye was rich with the colors of the dying day. The blue of the sea, a deeper blue, the commonplace sail of the smack, a symmetric space of cloth of gold, the granite of the key mellow as ancient marble, the steering chalk of the cliff, as bland as the softness of cream, and every glass sparkle was a little golden sun, and every reflection in the water the poetry of what was mirrored. Reynolds stood at the end of the pier and looked down upon the water, which raced with the tide
Starting point is 07:43:15 of flood, and spat and snarled about the solid masonry, leaping in bayonets of blue brine, foaming in eddies, waltzing and mimic whirlpools away eastwards with an inward swirl that made somewhat heavy weather of it close in against the seaward-facing pier wall, and by looking a pace steadfastly down, you would have thought that the pier itself was shouldering through it at the rate of knots. Good evening, Mr. Goodheart. Lucretia stood behind him. He could never weary of admiring her.
Starting point is 07:43:49 Every time they met, she grew in charm. Her presence was fairer with beauty. Though English to the root she had, he always thought, a something French, Parisian, in her several. graces of demeanor and attire. Could she, even at this early date, failed to see that Mr. Goodhart was very seriously attracted by her, found her gravely engaging? Though his face was half buried in hair, and one eye lustreless, and the sight of his face wrinkled like the shell of a walnut, there was window of countenance enough left for the man inside to peep out of and be detected,
Starting point is 07:44:28 and she would not have been Lucretia Reynolds, in short she would not have been a woman, had she missed the import of Reynolds' spirit that came and went in that facial showbox as an actor struts and withdraws. Was the spirit of chastity, adorable and thrice blessed in the maid, but bitter and false in its animation of Lucretia as a wife, was the spirit that had expelled her lover and her husband from her life to influence her afresh with like results on the wife, the cognition by her heart of good heart's meaning? This was the problem Reynolds intended to solve
Starting point is 07:45:04 when way or the other, in his own fashion, and by the light shed by his past. How do you do, Mrs. Reynolds? I received your letter last evening, and the matter is in hand. You shall not be kept waiting if I can help it. She thanked him smiling, and no smile of royalty, taking its value from homage, could be more gracious than her. hers. Have you been at work? he asked, whilst they seated themselves on the low coping that protects the extremity of the pier. Yes, from half-past two to half-past four, but I have done with that family. Mrs. Kendall is difficult to please. She has thin lips and pale eyes, and is one of those economical women who at table asks you to help the children plentifully to vegetables. She is a second wife,
Starting point is 07:45:57 and calls herself number two. Whose wife is she? An infatuated old man's, whose only son by his first wife was sent to see as an apprentice. She is naturally proud of her own children and spends all the money she can afford on them, said Reynolds. Yes, her baby is the most handsomely dressed infant in Ramsgate, and although the old man is always appealing for funds,
Starting point is 07:46:25 Mrs. Kendall manages to keep two nurses. Lucretia spoke with a fine sultry glow of resentment and contempt in voice and eye. I am glad you've done with them. You'll enjoy more liberty, said Reynolds. I wish you would encourage me to try my fortune in Australia, Mr. Goodhart, if I come in for any money from my husband, a thing I never should have thought of but for you, that, with the money you kindly sent me, would help me to start a school. I cannot encourage you, answered Reynolds. This visiting governess work is a pitiful outlook, a hand-to-mouth struggle,
Starting point is 07:47:06 which subjects one to endless mortifications. Meanwhile, we will see what money Captain Reynolds left in the bank, said Reynolds. When I was at Canterbury, I had some idea of starting a milliner's shop, but I am a miserable hand at business, and I am sure I should lose every penny I embarked. There is no particular hurry, I hope. I mean this, Mr. Goodheart, she exclaimed with energy. The money your goodness has been instrumental in getting for me, and the money you may succeed in obtaining on my behalf,
Starting point is 07:47:43 must soon be spent if I do not apply it to some practical purpose, and then I shall be reduced to my former position. I shall have to teach to eke out an income that does not support me, and I hate teaching. You don't mean to leave Ramsgate yet? I don't see why I should. What can I do elsewhere? I intend to remain here for some time.
Starting point is 07:48:09 The place pleases and agrees with me. Between us we may yet devise some scheme that shall result in your establishment. The wistful expression vanished from her eyes. Her look indicated a faint inward recoil, an appearance of surprise which needed but a touch or two with the pencil of the emotions to deepen into dismay. He gazed at her calmly. His heart was well pleased. Certainly he was not very eager that Goodhart, on the merits of her needs, should lightly win the woman out of the little horizon of whose life
Starting point is 07:48:44 Reynolds had been spurned. But she was bound to be grateful, so, inclining her head, she said, Your honorable conduct, Mr. Goodhart, and your kindness and sympathy, assure me that I could not do wrong by accepting your advice. He smiled at her, and in a breath her face changed. It is very curious, she said, viewing him intently, but there are moments when you strikingly recall my husband to me. It is not the voice, nor the appearance in the least. She paused and again searched him with her gaze. resemblances are often startling though there may be no affinity between the people said reynolds have you a portrait of your husband yes i should like to see it his story and yours make him an interesting character she pulled a locket out of her breast and he recognized one of his gifts a locket containing a portrait of him cut from a photograph it was suspended round the neck by a thin gold chain She unclasped the chain and gave him the locket open. He inspected it with a tranquil face. He was indeed acting his part phenomenally well, but then he was acting that he might conquer, and he flung his whole genius into the effort as one who must either win a life or break a heart. This is a fine face, said he, dwelling with affected attention upon the photograph.
Starting point is 07:50:20 I like it. It is a fine face. It is a fine face, said he, dwelling with affected attention upon the photograph. I like it. honest, open, handsome, I think. You flatter me by finding a resemblance. Take it, Mrs. Reynolds, and compare it. Why, this is a fine young man of thirty. She took the locket, glanced at it, and then looked at Reynolds. Their eyes met. It is not the face, she said. The likeness is in the characteristics of speech and manner, and sometimes you wear an expression which might certainly easily make you pass as my husband's brother. It is a family resemblance. He asked for the locket and again fastened his eyes upon it. There is thought in his face. There is much character in the mouth, and the eyes are those of a thinker. I should say this man was of a poetical cast of mind.
Starting point is 07:51:11 Distinctly. A bit of a dreamer, some sailors are. I incline that way a little. The middle watch makes one so. I mean if you are gifted with the poetic impulse. To most the middle watch is a prolonged yawn and a dreary stump of a dreary deck. I cannot believe that the owner of this face deserted you. I never said he did, she cried with some vehemence. If you have not heard from him, it is because he is dead. So, this is that shipwrecked mariner whose legacy to his wife I was instrumental in discovering. Poor fellow! There is honor, there is loyalty in this man's face. I am certain that the character this face proclaims was too good, too honest, too faithful to desert such a bride as you made him. Oh, Mr. Goodhart, do not persist in telling me what I have never believed and
Starting point is 07:52:09 never wished to believe. Could he have written he would? She said, with her eyes womanly with that softness of shadow which betokens the possession of the mood of tears. His thinking of you and leaving you what he had is a proof of loyalty to the last, said Reynolds gently, returning the locket to Lucretia. And surely it must make you happier to know that, though dead, he was yours to the end than to suppose that he lives and has abandoned you, at a time two of your life, when you need the support, counsel, and home, which only a husband can give you. She was looking away from him across the harbor, crying silently.
Starting point is 07:52:54 An expression of deep love, the light of a heart glowing with the purest and most exalted emotion, was upon his face as he watched her. He rose, walked away a few paces, and seemed to be interested in the maneuvering of a boat that was making for the harbor, steered by a cockney in a cricket suit, apparently drunk. A short way down the pier, standing against the side that fronts the sea, was a young woman who held her little boy of some two or three years on top of the coping. This was one of those persons who should not visit the seaside unless attended by a sentry. It is this sort of person
Starting point is 07:53:33 who, with a baby in her arms, enters a boat loaded down to her gunwales by tipsy excursionists and screams with laughter when a young, red-faced man with a hard round hat at the back of his head gets upon a thwart or a seat on straddled legs, and dangerously sways the boat from side to side to some roaring vulgar song of, send me a letter from Ome. This is the sort of person who, with a child, a spade, and a bucket, is always caught by the tide, and stands in a swiftly diminishing island of sand. This is the person who sits perched on a rock reading a cheap magazine whilst the flood is making, and who must be washed off and drowned if a coast guardsman is not lowered and hauled up again with the party in his arms. This is the party who, always with the baby, is pulled out to sea
Starting point is 07:54:27 by her husband or a friend, without regard to the aspect of the weather or the set of the tide, and who as as charmed as the man is who rose her by the velocity of the boat through the water, overlooking the trifling circumstance that two-thirds of the speed must be attributed to the tide, which is dispatching the boat into dangerous distance and ugly waters, from which her inmates must be rescued by three or four longshoremen who put off, and who, when they have towed the boat into harbor and safety, are rewarded by the man with an offer, after much-heeded talk about, payment, to fight them all one after another. Suddenly Reynolds, but not only Reynolds, everybody
Starting point is 07:55:10 within the area of the vibration, was startled by a fearful scream. What had happened? The young woman, holding the boy on top of the coping, had relaxed her grasp whilst turning her head to critically inspect the costumes of a couple of young ladies who were passing. The straining child broke from the weakened grip and fell like a stone, into the troubled waters beneath. This end of the pier was well covered by people moving in procession, or lounging or sitting. The shriek of the mother appeared to paralyze every limb. The walking figures stopped dead. Next followed a rush of men and women, and the coping was clothed with a mass of variegated projected shapes, in the midst of which stood the mother, yelling as the vulgar exactly know how to yell
Starting point is 07:56:00 in affliction, tossing her hands. and crying, Oh, somebody save him! He is my only child! Oh, somebody save him! Reynolds ran and looked over, and saw in the trouble of water below a little mound of foam due to the windmill pantomime of the drowning child, shouting to a man next him, heave me that rope there and send a boat. He pulled off his coat and cap, flung them down, sprang with a sailor's grace onto the coping, and with the swimmer's art, with outstretched hands meeting cut-water fashion, went a header. He rose buoyant. He swam well. No man ever carried a cooler heart or swifter prompting brain
Starting point is 07:56:44 in moments of extremity. He caught a glimpse of the vanishing child, and in a few powerful strokes of arm was beside him, had gripped him, had hoisted him breast high out of the snappish wobble, and was making for the line which had been flung, in which he speedily got a clutch of, and there he hung, holding the child on his shoulder, lifting and falling with the tumble of sea, a white-haired man, a most noble and heroic figure truly, and amongst those who looked down was Lucretia. The harbour boat lay at the foot of a fall of pier steps, almost abreast of the watch-house. Men are always on the lookout on Ramsgate Pier. The moment those on watch, these watchmen are gallant fellows, their ranks have supplied the
Starting point is 07:57:32 lifeboat with magnificent examples of British pluck and endurance in coxins and men, knew what had happened, three of them sank down the pier ladder into the boat and pulled round the pier-head with the steady-controlled rage of seamen who perfectly understood the significance of time, yea of one moment too late in all sea peril. The boat's coming, they roared from the coping to Reynolds, who smiled and spoke to the child on his shoulder, who answered him. The boat came hopping over the foam she made. Catch hold of the child, cried Reynolds, and the baby was seized and lifted in,
Starting point is 07:58:12 and Reynolds, putting his hands upon the gunwisted himself in his sailor's way and with his sailor's knack to the height of his waist, and then flung a leg over and rolled in boards. Thanks, my lads, said he. Now bear a hand. This youngster wants his mother. Hand him to me, and then give way with a will. No need for the piermen to ask this white-haired,
Starting point is 07:58:39 gray-bearded old gentleman. Was you ever at sea, sir? There is what scientific men call a natural affinity among sailors. They mutually attract one another, and are drawn together by Allah which is as much ocean's secret as that of gravitation is the earths. The men pulled the boat round to the harbor landing steps. A great crowd was there to witness what was to happen. Lucretia made one of that crowd, and stood very near to the mother of the child,
Starting point is 07:59:09 who was crying and trembling at the head of the flight of stone stairs. When Reynolds stepped out of the boat, sopping, a soaked parcel of the child, of manhood, clasping another but a smaller parcel equally soaked, up went a cheer that was louder than the roar of the surf upon the sands. Oh, my ducky! Oh, my darling! sobbed the young mother, taking the streaming child from Reynolds. How did I come to do it? Oh, I have nearly drowned you. Oh, my sweet pet lamb! And she kissed the child and mouthed, and then burst out weeping hysterically.
Starting point is 07:59:48 Oh, sir, how am I to thank you? How noble you are! How good you are! I shall always, always ask God to bless you. Now, my dear lady, said Reynolds, your child needs attention. Walk away home with him as fast as you can. You'll know what to do, if not, send for a doctor. He offered to make his way through the crowd, who formed a lane for him, and groaned at him in exclamations of respect and admiring. but Lucretia, who stood near, advanced with outstretched hand. Mr. Goodheart, she said, speaking with a vibratory note, so impassioned was the emotion that possessed her. I cannot express how much I honor and respect you for this act. It is beautiful. She wished to say more, but she had been crying just a little time before he jumped into the sea.
Starting point is 08:00:44 The weakness of tears was still hers, and she turned away. her head. We shall be meeting soon, said he, and walked down the pier as fast as he could, leaving a wake of wet behind him, for his pockets and boots were full, and he was buttoned up in a waistcoat that held water. A watchman ran after him with his cap and coat. He overtook the mother hurrying home with her damp but apparently cheerful burden, and begged her to be quick and dry the child and get it into blankets. He then walked to a cab stand, jumped into a cab, and was driven to the hotel. End of Chapter 14. Chapter 15 of Abandoned by William Clark Russell. This is a Librevox recording. All Librevox recordings are in the public domain. For more
Starting point is 08:01:39 information or to volunteer, please visit Librivox.org. by Ruth Golding. Abandoned by William Clark Russell. Chapter 15. Mr. Goodhart offers marriage. On the morning following the life-saving incident, Reynolds awoke and found himself heavy, depressed, low with malaise. He felt his pulse, 70. He got out of bed, opened the dressing case, and took out of the clinical thursday.
Starting point is 08:02:15 thermometer, his temperature was 103 and a half degrees. He quite understood that this signified a return of Malta fever, whether due to his plunge last evening or to the perception of certain secreted microscopic bacilli that a time had come when they should make their presence felt was not of the smallest consequence. The remedy was bed, patience and abstinence. he kept his room all day but his yearning after lucretia was so great that he must needs write this note to her dear mrs reynolds i am confined to my room by a slight attack of mediterranean fever but hope to be well to-morrow and in any case to be able to meet you on the day following possibly i shall find you on the east cliff esplanade at five o'clock let me definitely name the day after to-morrow when I hope you will return with me to drink tea. I am afraid I shall not be able to tell you anything about Captain Reynolds' money by then,
Starting point is 08:03:26 because before the bank remits they will require proof of Captain Reynolds' death. But I have referred them to Lloyd's and to other authorities, and have little doubt that before a week has passed, I shall have the pleasure to hand you a cheque. with kind regards yours very truly John Goodhart. He used pencil and took great care to disguise his hand, which he readily contrived as he wrote in bed and his writing was a ragged scrawl. He sent this note to be delivered by hand.
Starting point is 08:04:05 Next to talking to her it pleased him to write to her. Goodhart's prophecy had come to part. The old magic had done its work. The spell was on him. How passionately was he loving her, never more so than now, never even in days when his heart was younger by eight years, when it had not been chilled and sickened by unnatural and unwomanly revolt, when love was sweet and fresh with the glory of the rose on the bush, not the rose in the hand, nor the petal of the rose of the rose of the rose, memory betwixt the leaves in the shut volume of years. And it was his passion to possess her that determined him to go on wooing her as he now was, as Goodhart, a stranger, an acquaintance, a fast ripening friend of deep sympathy, a man to be trusted and honoured, to whose custody absolutely convinced that her husband Frank was dead, she might in time be coaxed and courted into committing the delicate precious charge of her virginal being.
Starting point is 08:05:22 And you will suppose that to the degree of his desire for her was his fear of detection, lest the old loathing should return like the entry of a hideous fiend, to tear and rend to pieces, the machinery of a mind that was to be likened to some hall of her. ice far north, a moonlit vision of white pillars and roof gleaming with cold stars, and a floor upon which no fairy that ever sang with the grasshoppers in the land of romance would choose to dance. He lay in a bedroom from which he could view the sea shining in a blue lake-like surface, and, lying alone, he thought much of his term of solitude on the sea. He thought much of his term of solitude on the island. How different his condition when he had the fever there from what it was
Starting point is 08:06:16 now, how he had dragged his legs of lead and poised his head like a hot cannonball between his shoulders to the foam of the cataracts stroke. How he had lain in his cheerless crack of earth, gazing with fevered eyes at the stars and wondering how long he should live, and thinking of Lucretia as he now thought of her. His mind rambled to the old sea-chest and to the letter he had nailed to the lid, and this memory caused him to consider that he had not made a will, and if he died and nobody could prove his identity, his money would be lost to Lucretia. He deliberated how he should go to work. He would not trust a local lawyer with the secret. the gentleman might be a member of the club at Ramsgate,
Starting point is 08:07:14 and some provincial lawyers talk about their clients, as some provincial doctors talk about their patients, so that if he went to a lawyer in Ramsgate to make his will, his secret business might, God knows how, leak out and trickle to that one ear in the world whose reception of it might desolate his heart and bring his fabric of self-respect down upon his head in dusty ruin.
Starting point is 08:07:43 He rose early next day, being perfectly recovered from his attack, and took the train to deal. This little town is seated opposite the downs. It is remarkable for the number of its public houses. Its beach is a shelving shore of shingle, up which the surf rushes with a noise like the escape of steam, and down which it shales in a conflict of foaming water and dark gleaming pebbles, which rattle as they are torn along. Boats called gallipunts repose on this shingle, with their noses pointed at the sea,
Starting point is 08:08:23 and their sterns at tall skeleton capstan's to which they are connected by ropes. And when one of these boats comes ashore from a cruise, A number of aged men Who shape themselves out of You Don't Know What or Where Gather about the caps and the boat belongs to Ship bars And begin to wind round and round
Starting point is 08:08:48 A slow, tuneless and melancholy circus Of very old men in broken boots, patched breeches, Tall hats discoloured by age and weather Into the aspect of bronze And faces often and so ancient that to explore them is like opening old coffins, or like watching a mask of almost eyeless wrinkles, vital in nothing save a movement of jaw which betokens that
Starting point is 08:09:19 the withered curve of gum with its one stump of ninety-three years is still busy with the little cube of tobacco. The beach and esplanade are noticeable for a class of persons called boat. men who wear yellow trousers and blue jerseys, from the breasts of which they will pull down a newspaper or a parcel of letters sent ashore by a skipper for the post. And these men, who are nearly always starving and therefore ask most fraudulent and monstrous sums of money to take you off or put you ashore, devote the greater part of their lives to the study of that fine art of the British longshore, the art of lounging.
Starting point is 08:10:04 no boatman in great britain can loaf lounge and lean with such superiority of lazy drunken idols sulking dumbly cursing postures as the deal man he is born for something to lean against to lean upon with folded arms to lean over to loll at the whole indolence of the man blends with the object he polishes with breech elbow or hip, and he and the capstan he sprawls upon, or he and the pillar or post he leans against, are so much one that a dog and his tail are not more united. Reynolds walked from the station to the esplanade. The hour was a little after ten, early, but Reynolds desired to do his business and return to entertain Lucretia at his hotel. Ramsgate was lost to sight in the milky softness of cliff that contained it, and that faded in a glimmering white film in the blue air. The sea was brushed by a soft southwest wind, and glanced and danced in little frolicing curls, every one of which ran with a white feather in its head, and the broad, liquid table up bearing its burden of curtseying ships.
Starting point is 08:11:31 in the downs was a wide and lovely tremble of sparkles, like the shivering of the tiny suns in summer trees when the green leaves are fretted by the kisses of the breeze. Just there where that brig with grey hull raking masts, the flag of Brazil at her trisle gaff, her chocolate-coloured girl of figurehead sinking in endless boughs to the gaunt steamer ahead, sitting hollow upon the water with the bewildered look of a balloon that comes down from the cloud suddenly to sea and strains and floats for a little while aimless and imbecile. Just there lay the flying spur in October 1890, and this was June 1898. Lucretia was on board loathing him.
Starting point is 08:12:28 Lucretia was now yonelopea was now yon. where the lowland lifted into a rampart of chalk. He was good heart, and she did not loathe him. What would be the mood that fired her, that should sweep her into his arms, or drag her back in renewed access of the passion of chastity, when she discovered that he was her husband, which must certainly happen before they came together, and therefore would happen, for he meant to possess her.
Starting point is 08:13:05 A boatman who was leaning over the back of a seat called out, Put your board on his ship out there, sir? No, do you belong to deal? Why, I should rather think I do, answered the man, grinning over the folded arms, he leaned upon. Who's a good lawyer in this town? A good lawyer? "'Echowed the fellow with a large and silly stare at another man
Starting point is 08:13:32 "'who had indolently strolled up, scenting half a pint. "'If you want a good lawyer, you'll find him in one of them's ships' folks'ls,' "'with a nod at the ships in the downs. "'They knows what's what, and mourns what's what, if they're a foreigner's. "'You'll get no advice worth listening to it, deal, unless it's a magistrate. "'It'll lock you up for a month, if it's the Bobby's wish, "'and him in with your wife.' wife and both wanting you're out of it.
Starting point is 08:14:01 He scowled at his mate. The question appeared to have touched a sore in the man's mind. Indeed, his feelings were so strong that he even stood upright to deliver his views. Reynolds walked into the high street, obtained the address of a solicitor from a stationer who produced a directory and called at once at the office. He was kept waiting and sat listening to a bald-headed clerk on a three-legged stool,
Starting point is 08:14:34 scratching time with his pen to the ticking of a large, leering clock over his head. A man entered. He was dressed in blue cloth and kept his cap on. His face was like a piece of underdone beef, blue and red, cobwebbed with scarlet filaments, and his eyes glowed damply like the reflection of the sun in the Thames on a foggy day. Mr. Grundy-in? he asked. Engaged, sir, answered the clerk. How long'll he be? A few minutes this gentleman's waiting. Good morning, said the man, bestowing a purple nod on Reynolds and sitting down.
Starting point is 08:15:20 Reynolds slightly started. He knew the man as one Captain Carson had met him at several ports and had dined with him at Singapore. His nod alarmed him, was he recognised? His mind speedily cleared. Captain Carson did not know him. "'Ashaw on business, sir,' said Captain Carson, pulling out a case of cigarettes and extending it, to Reynolds who declined, then to the clerk, who with obvious regret, also declined. All my business is done ashore, answered Reynolds. Oh, I thought you belonged to my cloth. You're lucky not to be master of a ship. And he began a story about his crew, how they all came aboard
Starting point is 08:16:14 drunk, how the ship was brought to Gravesend by lumpers and runners, where she was left to swing till her men were sober enough to stand upright. How, after letting go the anchor in the downs, they all lay aft, and said they didn't mean to proceed in the ship, as she leaked, which was a lie, as most of her principal mast were sprung, which was another lie, as she was down by the head and all her running gear rotten and not a ratlin strong enough for a rat to sling by.
Starting point is 08:16:47 All lies. They were assured. and so was he. All the time this captain talked, Reynolds marvelled at the change that had been wrought in his own personal appearance, so that this man should not have the least idea who he was, which somehow impressed him even more than his wife's failure to detect him. He was liberated from the obligation of following a violent attack on the character of the merchant sailor by somebody stepping out of the inner office and the solicitor in the doorway asking him to walk in. His business was simple and was to be easily disposed of. He wished to
Starting point is 08:17:31 leave all that he owned to his wife, in language unclouded by legal verbiage, so that his intention could not be misunderstood. He named the manager of the bank he did business with in London and a gentleman who resided in Sydney, New South Wales, as executors. When can you let me have this, Will? The day after tomorrow. Tomorrow is county court, and I have a number of cases to attend to. A good deal of quarrelling goes on here, I believe. The boatmen love the law,
Starting point is 08:18:07 and numbers of petty tradesmen in the district, village grocers and the like, who sell everything from a joint of beef to a bird-cage, a constantly failing or stuing or being sued. Kindly addressed the document to Mr John Goodhart, said Reynolds, naming the hotel and town, and paying the fee he walked out, exchanging a nod with Carson as he passed.
Starting point is 08:18:34 He returned to Ramsgate with a heart as light as the June day about him that rejoiced in the blue sky in the song of the lark. He was acting his part well, and who or what sings more sweetly and gratefully to a man than his own conscience when it is happy and at rest. His heart was putting in some special pleading for Lucretia. His concessions were liberal. If her faith had been unfaithful, she had not been falsely true. She wore his ring, and his likeness rose and fell with the breathing of her breast and the beating of her heart. She had remained his wife, though she believed herself a widow.
Starting point is 08:19:26 In this was she true to herself or to him. The solution of such a problem could signify nothing. Few know themselves. Perhaps no man, however, searching in lifelong introspection, knows himself. The mood of the hour before dinner is not the mood of the hour after dinner. Lucretia before her marriage was surely not the Lucretia she was changed into by her marriage, or would she have married? At half-past five he was on the esplanade waiting. A pale young woman of London, holding a small boy by the hand, came along. When she saw Reynolds, she cried out,
Starting point is 08:20:11 "'Oh, Georgie, there's the gentleman that saved your life!' And with an emotion of gratitude that gave a moment's refinement of beauty to the coarseness of her prettiness, she added, "'I do thank you so much, sir. I couldn't have born to lose him. What would my husband have thought? He'd right and gladly to thank you, if not too great a liberty, but your name and address are unknown.'
Starting point is 08:20:37 alone. Reynolds smiled and called the little boy to him, and taking a crown piece from his pocket, said, Georgie, you can be a sailor and feel easy. You are not born to be drowned. Which would you like best, a horse and cart, or a ship to swim in a pool in the sands? A ship to swim in a pool in the sands, echoed the boy in a level voice. Then go and buy her.
Starting point is 08:21:07 said Reynolds. The boy's small fingers hooked themselves upon the big coin with the avariciousness of tender youth. I thank you kindly, sir, said the London mother. Thank the gentleman, Georgie. Every night you kneel down, you will ask God to bless him, won't you? I'd like him to thank you, sir, by singing a little song his father learnt him.
Starting point is 08:21:34 But just then Lucretia, the corner. The London mother's eyes followed Reynolds' gaze, and he saw it was time to go. "'I hope you are very much better, Mr. Goodhart,' said Lucretia. "'Molter fever is like a brother who has gone wrong. He makes you hear of him from time to time,' answered Reynolds. She was dressed in white, and was in truth a very handsome, indeed beautiful presence, princess-like, if by that term, dignity, stature, carriage, and command of person be meant. Never a man passed by who did not favour her with a glance or stare, nor were her own sex unobservant of her.
Starting point is 08:22:26 "'I hope I made my meaning clear in the scrawl I sent from my bed,' he said. "'Perfectly. I thought it's so very kind of you to think of me when you were ill. It gives me pleasure to serve you, he exclaimed with cautious warmth, feeling his way. It seems strange, said she, that one who reminds me indefinitely of my husband should have found his letter, brought his gift, and continue to act towards me as though you had been friends. I showed you his likeness. I suppose you never made. I suppose you never met him. What commands did he hold? Oh, he went as captain of two or three male steamers. I think the line was the elder Dempster. There is such a firm? Certainly. And he also commanded
Starting point is 08:23:25 several sailing ships. One was a celebrated clipper, and he would speak with enthusiasm of her beauty under sail or lying at anchor. She was called the line. Lancash, alas. I know the ship, said Reynolds gravely. My husband, when he sailed on his last voyage in 1890, had been about 18 years at sea. He must have been young when he held command. He was, but in these days of steam, voyages are so rapid that, as Captain Reynolds used to say, you can pack three or four voyages into a year, and if you obtain fresh appointments, whether in the same company or others, a comparatively young sailor may claim to have seen a great deal in a short time.
Starting point is 08:24:17 True. It would be strange, she exclaimed, looking thoughtfully upon the ground as they walked. If you had met him unconsciously, I mean, on a pier or in a street in a foreign port, and in ignorance that you had once looked at you. him or he at you, you had brought home his letter. It may be that Reynolds and I have met in the way you suggest. Englishmen are plentiful. They are repeatedly coming across one another, said he, speaking behind his beard, moustache and pounce, nay, with a face that was purely good-heart to her. They entered the hotel and were presently seated at a tea-table at an
Starting point is 08:25:05 open window. He told her that he had run across to deal in the morning, and they chatted on several no-matters, till Reynolds brought the conversation back again to them both. I think you told me that Captain Reynolds meant to take you to see with him when he went on his last voyage. She raised her eyebrows and exclaimed, Did I? I don't remember. Had you gone? he continued you would have been shipwrecked it's true your life might have been preserved as his was but if he was the only survivor no sailor would give the value of that strawberry in your hand for your chances for your husband's first care would be for you it must have been the lowered boat and since none lived but he you would have gone with the rest yet my place as his wife was with him she said looking through the window at the sea it was fortunate for the concealment he sought that their eyes did not meet whilst the sudden look that almost transformed his face stayed for a few breaths only he took up a prawn and seemed lost in contemplation of its workmanship but after no very long he took up a prawn and seemed lost in contemplation of its workmanship but after no very long
Starting point is 08:26:33 long, pause, said, no doubt a wife's right and only place is at her husband's side. I have felt the truth of this since you brought me Captain Reynolds' letter, she said quietly. I understand. You feel as almost see that your husband's last thoughts were with you. The subject is a sad one, Mr. Goodhart. he was very willing indeed to change the conversation but though his heart was on fire with her words he perfectly understood that if ever a moment for the revelation of his identity was to come it had not come yet memory rising between them shaped herself spiritwise forefinger on lip hand lifted in command of silence she spoke in the in intuition, exhorting him not to hasten, but to consider that his avowal of imposition as Goodhart might flood his wife with the disgust that had been excited by the Gravesend
Starting point is 08:27:46 stratagem which had kidnapped her to no purpose. I find this hotel expensive, at least for my purse, said he, but I am so well pleased with Ramsgate that I mean to stay on. He looked at her significantly. She did not seem to heed him, but if any thought present in him was interpreted by her, its construction produced not the slightest change in her face. I shall go into lodgings. I have no home, indeed I have had no home since my wife left me. The colonial is more cosmopolitan than other peoples who have countries.
Starting point is 08:28:29 He loves the land of his birth and would die for her with as much in theory, and loyalty as any Britain for the old home, but he does not suffer as others do from contraction of mind in respect of his thoughts of his country. The roving spirit that made his sire's colonists is still unquenched, though in a few generations it will be extinct. The Australian can make himself a home anywhere and be happy in it. The Britain is always yearning to return. I could make myself very happy in Ramsgate. He was again addressing her with significance of look and tone. Where shall I find a comfortable lodging?
Starting point is 08:29:16 I doubt if I know as much of the place as you do. Shall you seek another afternoon engagement? He asked, smiling at her, Yes, and I shall be thankful to find one. Meanwhile, as you are at liberty, it would be delightful to me to enjoy a larger share of your company than your time has permitted. If, instead of being Reynolds, he had in goodsooth been good heart, it might be held that he was pressing her a little unhandsomely, for she was under a great obligation to him, and he was still in course of obliging her, and his advance would appear as though he was taking advantage of his singular relations with her.
Starting point is 08:30:03 Her colourless cheeks slightly flushed, but she smiled whilst she said, I must hope not to have too much time on my hands. Are you disengaged tomorrow afternoon? Yes. Will you come for a drive and dine with me here? I will go for a drive, with pleasure, but you must excuse me for declining your kind invitation to dine. Now why? he asked, with a broad, blunt candour, that caused her to bring her brows a little
Starting point is 08:30:40 together in the seeking, the penetrating look she fastened upon him. What time shall I be here, Mr. Goodhart? She inquired, with a release of gaze that left her face charged and troubled with thought. he named three o'clock perceiving it was not her wish he should call for her they lingered a while in odds and ends of talk she then put on her gloves and he conducted her to the entrance of the hotel where they parted at three next afternoon a carriage stood at the door of the hotel lucretia arrived with the punctuality of royalty she got into the carriage reynolds followed and they were were driven away for a summer jaunt through broadstairs to the North Forland. There is no pleasant a drive in this smiling country of green lanes and spreading orchards and gleaming coil of river and green slope of down and large moist eye of violet sea betwixt the breaks of coast
Starting point is 08:31:49 than this that Reynolds and Lucretia were taking. She was dressed as on the previous day, and her enjoyment of the drive was soon expressed in a clearer brilliance of eye, and in that illumination of face which is not a smile, though it produces the effect of one. Their talk was for a long while on very little matters. She was particular in her inquiries about Sydney. She avowed a very strong leaning towards making use of the money Mr. Goodhart had kindly sent her through mr wembley jones by trying her fortune in australia if more was to come then if the sum amounted to even a hundred pounds she believed she would make up her mind to go out and start a school
Starting point is 08:32:45 reynolds smiled but offered no further opinion here said he as they drove through broadsters lived a man who knew a human nature as well as Shakespeare. You might give offence if you said that he knew human nature better. But if you find no Lear, nor Hamlet, nor Macbeth in the works of Dickens, neither in the works of Shakespeare do you find Mrs. Gamp, nor Mr. Bumble and Mr. Squeers and Mantellini, and how many more immortals. They say he wrote Bleak House. in that building perched up yonder. Of course you love Dickens. I remember that my husband was always quoting from him.
Starting point is 08:33:38 The more you tell me about Captain Reynolds, the higher you raise him in my esteem. I wish it had been my good fortune to have found him on the island and brought him back to you. Coachman, sir, you can stop at the lighthouse. We'll get out and take a turn. this fallen cliff is not tall but it is bold and its face of rugged chalks stares upon the most wonderful maritime highway in the world ships pass comparatively close in and the picture is vivid with dimension grand and romantic in colour and shape and profoundly interesting one should imagine to even a thin thinker by virtue of its infinite
Starting point is 08:34:27 variety and the ideas with which contemplation of it swells and elevates the mind. As they alighted from the carriage, a bright sketch was in full view large upon the water. It was a steel sailing ship, close-hauled, luffing up for the downs under all plain sail, three pyramids of ascending clouds of snowy whiteness, with many silent, delicately shadowed wings between. The foam was rolling forwards from her sharp metal forefoot, but a steady stream of it ran along her sides to united her rudder in a wake of prisms and bells of froth,
Starting point is 08:35:13 and leapings and lights which struck into the blue air, closing down with the sudden transcendent splendour of the diamond. She was not so far off, but that you saw, a figure or two moving upon her quarter-deck. Reynolds stood still and looked at her. Lucretia was by his side. Within a short distance rose the sturdy, storm-defiant figure of the lighthouse, with its building and its lantern that at nightfall should change into a roaring star,
Starting point is 08:35:51 reverberating in flashes the light of a sun. "'What a very pretty sight!' exclaimed Lucretia. "'I always think a sailing ship makes a daintier picture than a steamer. "'It may be because sails give a blandness and fullness and dignity "'which a chimney-stack can never supply.' "'She should remind you of a ship your husband commanded,' "'said Reynolds, bringing his thoughts away from a sudden vision of a ship on fire in the thick of a living gale and a little island close aboard.
Starting point is 08:36:31 The flying spur? No, that clipper you spoke of, ah, the Lancash, alas. I wonder what will be the fate of yonder craft. Every ship has her destiny, as man has. If I were a ship, I should say, let me perish by fire or foundering, or in any fashion that touches not the honour of the ship, but do not make me a coal hulk. Were you ever at sea in a sailing ship? I accompanied Captain Reynolds to Falmouth in the flying spur. How did you enjoy the trip? I was very sick, and she turned her eyes a little round about her and added, I could not enjoy myself for I was angry at being taken, and you cannot enjoy yourself when you were in a bad temper.
Starting point is 08:37:29 Why should you have gone if you didn't like the idea of the trip? But, of course, Mrs. Reynolds, you went to gratify your husband. Had you persevered, your sickness would have passed, and with it naturally your bad humour. It would tease the reader to be informed of every one, turn of eye, every tone of speech, every shade of gravity, which was indeed, in his case, irony and satire, the several manners he put on when he conversed with her. Sometimes he would observe her silently and intently regarding him, but his performance
Starting point is 08:38:10 was so adroit, he was so deceptive in his language about his wife having left him, by which he understood him to mean Mrs. Goodhart's death, to his references to himself as if he were an Australian and the like, that believing her husband dead in his island and perceiving nothing but certain traits or opinions in this Mr. Goodhart that in any way brought up her Frank Reynolds of St. Stephen's Church before her, She lay under as complete a deception during this drive As she had in all their previous meetings and conversations
Starting point is 08:38:50 They were now addressing each other with that easiness It need not be called familiarity or freedom Which results from association They roamed about for a short while inspecting the interior of the lighthouse chatting with the keeper who told them of beautiful and strange birds swept by the storm of the night against the radiant glass and found dead, and of the dullness of his life when he was lightsman aboard the gull, and afterwards the east Goodwin, and then the South Sandhead lightships. How in his day the old Triton did the
Starting point is 08:39:33 relieving work, a vessel that rolled heavily in still waters at her birth at the West Pier, that could not steam above four and a half knots, that could not do six with a gale of wind a stern of her, so that in heavy weather the lightsman who kept watch in the lonely hulks round about the sands, and from the north forland to Dungeoness, were sometimes obliged to wait a fortnight in three weeks for the relief. Hard upon men, sir, who in winter consider a month's old newspaper fresh,
Starting point is 08:40:08 and have nothing to do but tend the lights and watch for ships flares to send up rockets for the lifeboat. Lucretia declined to ascend to the summit of the lighthouse. She said she was afraid, so they returned to the carriage and drove away towards Ramsgate. Won't you reconsider your decision as to dining with me, Mrs. Reynolds, said he. I am sure you'll excuse me. will you drink tea at broadstairs it is disagreeable to me to think that you should bear the fatigue of this long drive and the heat without refreshment i shall enjoy a cup of tea very much indeed but there is no fatigue the drive is charming and the heat with this breeze is delightful reynolds told the coachman to stop at the best hotel in broadstairs there they stayed for half an hour drinking tea and eating brown bread and shrimps
Starting point is 08:41:14 though their talk was of anything she could not fail to notice that mr goodhart's eyes were very constant in their observation of her she was perfectly sensible that she was in the presence of a man who admired her and was even in love with her and her manner grew very thinly glazed as they sat at the tea-table in the bay window this cold surface though transparent enough to suffer the visual expression of any play of feeling tranquillized her exterior to a calmness that was not remote from austerity he recollected that much such an expression of face was hers when they had stood side by side at the the altar and walked side by side back to Mrs. Lane's modest little house. There was a tone of constraint in her voice. If she attended to his speech with a look, it was soon averted. Indeed, in her eyes he saw that her spirit had hoisted its glittering storm signals, and it was with the transport of a husband about to attempt an experiment who's success would be a death-blow to his vanity and his love, that he saw that any claims which
Starting point is 08:42:40 Mr. Goodhart might have upon her gratitude would not entitle him, even to a peep, into that sanctuary of her heart, in which the flame of the one love of her life, though burning dimly, was to be found, and perhaps he could but hope it to be fanned and fed into the sweet clear light it was when she consented to be his wife. They left the hotel and again entered the carriage. The way before them was a short drive. Scarcely were they in the carriage and in motion. Then, planting his eyes upon her through his pince-nez, he exclaimed,
Starting point is 08:43:24 It has given me a great, a singular pleasure to make your acquaintance. She bowed and smiled, but her smile was no encouragement to him to proceed. I am alone in the world, he continued. I have often regretted that since it was the will of God Mrs. Goodhart should die. Her little one had not been preserved to yield the sunshine and warmth of a child's love to its parent. You too are alone, Mrs. Reynolds. I do not know what you would wish to say to me, Mr. Goodhart, she answered with a visible hardening of her whole demeanour
Starting point is 08:44:11 and an undissembled shrinking of her fine figure into the corner of the seat she occupied. I have never felt less lonely since the term of my loneliness began, said Reynolds, with a melancholy and solemnity of tone and look that was markedly effective in its impression on her as he easily saw in the shining inquisitorial stare of her enlarged eyes than during the time i have spent in ramsgate and in your society i am a man of independent means nothing could render me so happy as to feel that i was the instrument of providing you with a settlement that should make you independent of a vocation you abhor, that should indeed keep you easy and comfortable in your circumstances for the rest of your life.
Starting point is 08:45:09 It is true I am not a young man. I have no special favours of face or person to grace my suit, or enrich it by that silent eloquence which women much indeed chiefly admire in men. I have led a hard life. The sea is an exacting calling. It has left me rugged, but it has left me an honourable man, with a heart capable of dedicating itself in lifelong affection
Starting point is 08:45:44 to such a woman as you, Mrs. Reynolds. Will you be my wife? She looked steadily away from him for some moments. her face was as rigid and in truth as colourless as marble i am sorry mr goodhart she said turning slowly in her stately way upon him that you should have asked me that question you have been so kind to me that the pain you cause me by obliging me to absolutely refuse you must be keener than any i can inflict. No, no. I should be grieved indeed to lose your friendship, but our relations could never go beyond that. Am I to think that you still believe your husband to be alive? He asked, always preserving his gravity and his melancholy. I was not the wife I should have been to my husband.
Starting point is 08:46:54 I remember all, and before God I vow that whilst life remains, I shall be his wife and true to him. She spoke with a vehemence that was dangerous in one so passionless, so collected, so resolved, of a deportment and exterior so admirably under control. Why did he not then and there confess himself? His making love to her as Goodhart had touched the mute chords of her memory of Reynolds and woke them into music and feeling. The hand seemed upon the second, the mood seemed to exactly fit the wish.
Starting point is 08:47:44 The ripened fruit to fall seemed to need no more than the breath that is between, lips meeting in a kiss. Thoughts flew through his brains with the velocity of the clouds, of the mind driven by the gales of the passions. He reasoned, If I say I am Frank Reynolds, she, after the first convulsion and riot of feeling, might find herself possessed again by the spirit that banished me and widowed her, and chagrined mortification might accompany the discovery that for the second time I had duped her. Memory exhorted him to hold his peace in the name of his love, his honour and his dignity.
Starting point is 08:48:34 After a silence that ran into many moments, he said without looking at her, You are infinitely raised in my admiration. You do well to be loyal to a man who was manifestly loyal to you, even in his lonely dying hours. You make me feel ignoble as an intruder. No, no, Mr. Goodhart, she cried in a sobbing voice. I thank you for the gracious way in which you have taken me. We shall remain friends. Oh, I hope so, she exclaimed.
Starting point is 08:49:15 exclaimed cordially, with emotion colouring her smile with a tender sweetness, her lips did not always wear in approval or mirth. The hotel was in sight. She asked that the carriage might be stopped. I have thoroughly enjoyed the afternoon, she said, as they stood together at the side of the carriage. But the pleasantest part has been the last part. because now you allow me to think of you as a friend and above all we understand each other they shook hands and she walked towards her lodging whilst re-entered the carriage to be driven to the hotel end of chapter fifteen chapter sixteen of abandoned by william clark russell this is a librivox recording or All Libervox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit Libravox.org.
Starting point is 08:50:28 Recording by Gary Oman. Abandoned by William Clark Russell. Chapter 16. Husband and wife. The deal solicitor was punctual in sending Captain Reynolds his will. It was witnessed by the manager of the hotel and a bookkeeper. To both of whom, of course, Reynolds remained. John Goodhart, Esquire, because, as a rule, testators do not read aloud the contents of
Starting point is 08:50:58 their wills to the people who attest them. The possession of this will make Reynolds very happy. Happened what might to him Lucretia would be provided for, and though they should never come together his husband and wife, he was still, though masquerading as Mr. Goodhart, the Frank Reynolds of a choice and denial, who would watch over her and provide for her by such expedience as love, such honorable and such noble love as his, is very cunning. Two days after he had taken the drive with Lucretia, he went to London and called at his bank, where he had a short interview with the manager who wrote and signed a check upon the bank that was countersigned by the accountant. He returned from London by a late train, and next
Starting point is 08:51:47 morning took lodgings in the Augusta Road so that by looking out of the window he could see the house in which Lucretia lived. After lunch, he strolled out with the hope of meeting her. He returned to his rooms and wrote this note. I was in London yesterday and had a good news for you. As you seem to have an aversion to invitations to dinner, would you drink tea with me this evening at 5.30? Your sincerely, John Goodhart. As before, when he scrawled a letter to her in his bed, he wrote with studious ambition of concealment and handwriting, and was as successful in this art as in nature, he was a triumph in his representation of Goodhart. Within half an hour, note was left at his lodgings. Mrs. Reynolds
Starting point is 08:52:36 would do herself the pleasure to drink tea with Mr. Goodhart. She came with the punctuality that was one of the graces of her characteristics. Is it necessary to describe her dress? close-fitting navy blue serge and a sailor hat. The weather was sultry, and she was pale, and carried a fan. A lovely bouquet of flowers stood upon the table and refreshed the atmosphere with the incense of half a score of different growths of beauty. The window was still open, but the road was a quiet one, and the lace curtains eventually screened the occupants of the room
Starting point is 08:53:15 from the inspection of the profane and vulgar pass by who with a packet of shrimps in his pocket which he picks at and eats as he rolls along his hard hat on the back of his head and his legs traveling somewhat tipsily in a pair of checked trousers of a patent so enormous that a giant of fifteen feet high could not reduce the eyesore to the proportion holds ramgate to be after margate the only place in all of England to do himself proud in with what he calls a howding. They had not met since the day of the carriage drive, but neither exhibited embarrassment. She was too self-possessed to be disturbed by a feeling that, like, naivety, may be defined in the Frenchman's expression as unnuance de bas, Prisque de lausation,
Starting point is 08:54:10 whilst he found all the fortitude he needed in the circumstance of his being her husband you have not gone very far said she sitting and fanning herself and looking at the flowers on the table no i can easily see where you live what glorious flowers i was sure you would think them worth the trouble of carrying home thanks so much they will grace my poor room it needs it no one will say that whilst you are its occupant he rang the bell for tea have you Have you found any afternoon pupils? Not yet. I have put an advertisement this week in a Ramsgate paper. I have some news for you, but I'll wait till the servant has come and gone. She looked about the room and said, won't you find a very dull hair after life in a hotel? I dislike life in a hotel, as Dickens the writer your husband admired so greatly. Truly says, in a hotel nobody is glad to see you, nor cares how long you stop or where you go. become a number. You lose individuality and are changed into a particle in a stream of figures in a ledger.
Starting point is 08:55:18 You can't enjoy seclusion unless you invoke the genius of insolvency and establish yourself in a set of private apartments from a price which yield a comfortable income apiece to four or five vickers and beyond the most strenuously exerted earning power of even a popular country medical practitioner. to a price which, if an American girl had it in the shape of a weekly revenue, would buy her a British lord or an Italian prince. Now in lodgings, you can dine off a chop, smoker pipe, drinks doubt from the public house, humor the landlady's cat, and lived through the life of the day without that critical inspection from which all human beings suffer in the public rooms of hotels and boarding houses. and then Mrs. Reynolds' lodgings may be cheap. It was manifest to him even whilst he spoke that the attention with which she accompanied the movements of his lips was due,
Starting point is 08:56:20 not to the amenable desire to be amused, but to something lying very much deeper. When he ceased, she exclaimed, If my husband had been pleading on behalf of lodgings against hotels, he would have put his views just as you have in the same spirit. might declare in the very same words very lightly said reynolds quietly looking at the tea-tray which the servant was then placing on the table but his answer would not do she was troubled she directed at him a scrutiny that made her frown her toe tapped the carpet and she looked down will you give me a cup of tea she drew to the table and filled two cups in silence but three or four times whilst she did this she darted her brittan gaze at him his breathing grew a trifle labored the motions of his heart a little swifter he believed that her mind was at the very touch-hole of detection and he waited for the flash and what was to follow what was to follow the flash but the suspicion that discolored and even in its way distorted her beauty soon dissolved but the suspicion that discolored and even in its way distorted her beauty soon dissolved but the suspicion that discolored and even in its way distorted
Starting point is 08:57:44 her beauty soon dissolved under the warm breath of conviction. Indeed, she never had supposed. She never could suppose, the man who confronted her to be her husband. He was an Australian. His wife lay buried in Sydney. He had come to hear of Captain Reynolds by one of the hundred accidents of the sea. He had not her husband's face, nor his voice, nor his enunciation. And if Frank had been alive, though eight years, why did he return now? Why not earth? She drew a breath that had the depth of a suspicion and said, It is very strange. Coincidences are strange, he answered, breathing easily again.
Starting point is 08:58:26 I never allow them to weigh. They resemble dreams. We remember the two or three that came to pass and forget the thousands that vanished unverified. She seems to acquiesce in this opinion by an inclination of her head. He looked at her and thought to himself, It is wonderful that loving her as I find I do as deeply as I loved her when I married her. I should have waited eight years to return and seek her. But Goodhart was right.
Starting point is 08:58:56 I did not know myself. He pulled out a pocketbook. I was in London yesterday, he said. And what about your business? The bank is satisfied with my representations and the information I obtained from Lloyd's and other sources as to Captain Reynolds and I have much. pleasure in handing to you this check the balance of the money your husband left at the bank before he sailed he extended an envelope with a large official red-wax seal it was addressed to mrs reynolds care of john goodhart esq she broke open the envelope and withdrew the check that was folded in a sheet of paper on which was lithographed with the manager's compliments the check was for two hundred and eighteen
Starting point is 08:59:44 pounds. She colored, her eyes brightened, gratitude sweetened her beauty with the tender, smiling light, with which that gentle and lovely quality cast upon the face. How am I to thank you, Mr. Goodhart? I should never have heard of this, or thought of it, but for you. He raised his hand in a causal gesture of remonstrance. 218 pounds, she explained, why this, and the money you brought to me from the islands are a fortune. I feel rich. How good of you? She paused, and looking at the check said, with a sudden sorrow in a tone, a sudden sorrow in look. Poor Frank. He fastens his gaze upon the ground, for he do just then that there was a dangerous moisture in his eyes, and not for the life of him durst he have
Starting point is 09:00:33 spoken. Her, poor Frank, had struck to his heart, and for a moment or two the man wept inwardly. To whom shall I send a receipt for this check? She inquired, after her. a welcome interval of thought. Acknowledge it to me, and I will forward your letter to the bank, he answered, managing his voice by speaking low. She asked no more questions. It did not occur to her to inquire how it happened that the bank should pay over her husband's money to a stranger without her authority. How Mr. Goodhart had succeeded in satisfying the law and sequentially the bank that Captain Francis Reynolds was dead. Mr. Goodhart had behaved most nobly and honorably,
Starting point is 09:01:18 and the money was a godsend. Will you give me another cup of tea, Mrs. Reynolds? She put the check in her pocket. He took the cup from her. A smile was gracious as she handed it to him. The distressed poet, scratching verses under a map of the gold mines of El Dorado, done by his wife and the milkman, may, and as a matter of fact, does, call money dross, filthy lucre, and the like. But there seems to exist in this dross an inherent property of such electrical vitality that, when applied, it will force laughter from anguish, loom the sickliest, countenous, in form with a passion of dance, the gout itself, and liberate the virtues from the webs into which the spider, poverty,
Starting point is 09:02:08 them to roll them up by the way said reynolds looking up from some notes he had made on a piece of paper did you ever meet a man named featherbridge the man i mean continued reynolds sailed with your husband as chief mate of the flying spur yes i knew him indeed he acted as my husband's best man at our marriage she spoke in a wary way as though she distrusted this subject suddenly her mood burst into impassioned life and she was and she cried, why do you ask if I know Mr. Featherbridge? Is he alive? Have you met him? Have you news my husband? He had, by this time, Holy Master himself. I was in a city yesterday, he said, and turned into some dining rooms near the mansion house for lunch. I took a seat opposite a man who, after viewing me a while, pronounced my name. I immediately recollected him. He was Mr. Charles Hall, member of a firm of London shipbrokers. He had sailed with me as a passenger in a vessel I commanded. We fell into a conversation and it was natural, perhaps, that our talk should have large reference to the sea. He told me that in all his experience, he never remembered so many ships posted as missing. I can scarcely tell you how it came about, but in speaking of missing ships, he mentioned the flying spur, in whose fate he was interested as his first.
Starting point is 09:03:42 firm had negotiated the sale of her to the person who owned her when your husband obtained command i told him that i had the pleasure of knowing the widow of captain reynolds indeed said he that's strange reynolds chief mate was a mr featherbridge whose mother lives where i do a pleasant old lady whom my wife and i have been acquainted with for many years the last letter mrs featherbridge ever received from a son was dated at madeira where the ship had called did you hear from your husband at madeira no she answered it was a long letter mr hall said and it was nearly all about captain reynolds and you lucretia slightly coloured but remained silent shall i proceed mrs reynolds i don't want to pain you but i believe that whatever concerned your husband after his departure would interest you and so i took down some notes i took down some notes of mr hall's conversation to help my memory if it is your wish that i should tell you what mr featherbridge wrote to his mother i should be glad to hear she said distantly he returned to his notes you were living with your mother in bayswater when you were married after your marriage you locked yourself up in your bedroom and refused to see to speak to or to have anything whatever to do with captain reynolds it is very wonderful that mr hall should remember the contents of a letter all about a stranger so very very accurately. A exclaimed Lucretia,
Starting point is 09:05:18 darkly, nervously, suspiciously, as though she thought that Mr. Goodhart had something of the devil in him. He removed his glasses to polish them. Whenever he was without spectacles or a pince knees, the dull ball of a left eye, lustreless, stained and vain
Starting point is 09:05:37 like those marbles boys call alleys, hallowed by a sort of Archaeus senilus these and the rinkies where he had wounded himself, the scar, the deflected arch of an eyebrow, utterly changing the character of the face, were very visible and instantly took the eye. I certainly shall not go on if I annoy you, but I thought that knowing what your feelings are for your husband, the latest news of him down to vanishing point, for he disappears afterward as a soap bubble explodes would interest you. It does, but you can't say he disappears. You brought news
Starting point is 09:06:18 of him from the island, news that is later than this featherbridge letter that was posted, you say, at Madeira. Oh, that island news is very negative news. Its report is merely that Captain Reynolds was on the island, conceived himself dying, nailed all he was worth to the lid of a sea chest, with an appeal to the honor of the stranger who found it to hand it to you. And then we must suppose that one day or night, he stiffened his spine and, looking up to God, passed out. That's not the news I got from Mr. Hall. There is no reason to believe that my husband is dead, because he was not seen on the island by the officer you sent on shore, she exclaimed, with temper and her eyes and voice.
Starting point is 09:07:04 Shall I go on? he asked. Oh, certainly, she replied, in a large sarcasticity. bland matter. He resumed the spectacles and seemed to consider his notes. Featherbridge told his mother that he had helped Captain Reynolds to decoy his wife to the ship. So I gathered from Hall. But his aversion was so violent, so menacing to Reynolds' character among the crew that in despair he sent her ashore at Foremont and proceeded on his voyage alone. Hall told me that Featherbridge, who appeared to have been a gentleman and a man of education described your husband's grief as a form of sorrow that affected him more than any sort of human misery he had witnessed. He forsook his food. His cheeks fell in, he would often in pacing halt and stand rooted and gaze at the sea and an agony of mind,
Starting point is 09:07:56 and once he clutched Featherbridge by the arm and looked him in the face with his swimming eyes and after such had grown as a man gives who heart-beye breaks, whose spirit flies, whose whole moral being falls into room. He cried, oh, my God, what have I done that she, the yon, the only love of my life, my own, my beautiful, my dearest wife, what have I done that she should abandon me? Lucretia shrieked and sprang to her feet. I can endure no more. I cannot indeed. You will drive me madder than I then was. No more, I beg. She brought a full. She brought a foot to the ground with a stamp that shook the ornaments on the metal piece and fanned herself on an extravagant motions. He pocketed his glasses and his notes and put on his pince-niz and as she was standing he stood. It is too much, he exclaimed, with mounting color and a large nostril, an eye dramatized into a fine expression of wrath and beauty by her spirit's adjustment of the mobile lid, lash, and brow, that a matter so sacred,
Starting point is 09:09:06 and personal to myself, as the relations between my husband and me should be talked about in a London eating-house. Nothing of the sort, Mrs. Reynolds. Mr. Hall and I sat apart. He spoke of you and your husband in terms of sympathy. I'm sure you would appreciate Mr. Featherbridge. I hated that man, burst out Lucretia. He could look you in a face and tell you a lie. Mr. Featherbridge, continued Reynolds, approaching her by a step or two and keeping his eyes steady. deadly bent upon hers, referred to you in his letter as one of the most beautiful women he'd ever seen, and he declared himself utterly at a loss to understand why you, who did undoubtedly love your husband, well enough to marry him, should immediately, after the marriage, find something in the man of your choice,
Starting point is 09:09:56 this comely, honorable sailor who adored you to excite the loathing that broke his heart and widowed you. She fanned herself furiously. when he ceased to speak, a deep blush burned her face. The sting of the blood was insupportable. She went to the open window and turned her back upon him. But after a brief interval, without moving her figure, she looked sideways and said, How dared that man, Featherbridge, said he that. I loathed my husband. Well, Mrs. Reynolds, I trusted that the very last news of your husband that could be given would interest you. I hope, despite, my clumsy method of communicating it, we still remain friends. He saw her swaying as she stood in an instant. She was in his arms and a swoon. He carried her to the sofa, laid her upon it,
Starting point is 09:10:48 removed her hat, eased her neck, fander. If ever human love spoke in gesture and face, it was to be interpreted in the richest eloquence of exalted emotion in that man as he stood over his unconscious wife ministering to her, wild at heart to kiss her even once, but not denying himself, no, restrained by noble recognition of her rights as a woman whose heavenly offense was chastity and of her command as his wife who was a virgin. After some little time, she sighed, opened her eyes, looked in him with bewilderment, shivered like one suddenly awakened from sleep and sitting up said, What has happened to me?
Starting point is 09:11:34 You are all right now. The heat overcame you. It is certainly very oppressive. He stepped to a sideboard and mingled a little brandy with some soda water. She drank, seated upturning to her rich eyes to him and thanking him with a smile, which was lovely, with his mingled colors of emotion, and as the nosegay is sweet and delight, by a variety of you. Do you feel better? He asked, straightjacketing, the deep solicitude of his soul with the demeanor of a commonplace courtesy? Much, it was the heat. You will send me an
Starting point is 09:12:09 acknowledgement of the money? Oh yes, this evening. Do you keep a banking account in Ramsgate? I have banked the money you sent me. Then you will be able to deal with the check I gave you this afternoon. I can ever be of service to you in any business or other direction you may indicate. I do beg that you will command my services. She thanked him and rose to go, stepping to the mantelpiece to adjust her hat and color. May I see you to the door? It is but a step. Goodbye, Mr. Goodhart. Believe me sincerely grateful for all of your kindness. Do not forget your flowers, Mrs. Reynolds. He watched her from the doorstep with anxiety until she entered her lodging house. He paced his room, much harassed by thought.
Starting point is 09:12:56 He could not bring himself into a resolution to confess the truth to her. Exhibitions of loyalty of love that in her, as a wife, wanted the consecrating element of a mourness, of gratitude, of contrition. These had been in sufficient abundance to furnish a basis for hope, or even an incentive to action. yet could not he persuade himself that if he pulled the mask off him she would not shrink from the intimacy of wedded association as she had shrunk eight years before she might elude him by silently leaving the town and he could not find will enough to determine him to take his chance and challenge a new repulse a new insult a new degradation to his feelings as a man and his rights as a husband he smiled when he opened her acknowledgment of the check and kissed the signature they met only once in the six days it followed she had found work for an hour and a half in the afternoon but he was careful not to lose his hold of her almost every day he reminded her of his existence by a gift a box of peaches a basket of strawberries a bouquet of flowers when he met her on the days preceding the last which was to dawn fraught with the issue of the lifetime to this couple, she thanked him for his constant kindness. Indeed, she felt overwhelmed.
Starting point is 09:14:22 His persistent goodness embarrassed her. She really had no claim upon him. Her manner was gracious, yet there was a constraint in it that was perceptible. It was indeed as though she had said to him, I do not know if it is your intention to take advantage of my situation and the obligation you have placed me under to push kindness into persecution. But you have, you have, you've done so much that more must cease to be agreeable. Her meaning was as clearly intimated by her behavior and speech as though she had pronounced it in the above words. There was a little coolness in the way she said goodnight to him. He exactly understood and took delight in what was poising in her mind,
Starting point is 09:15:06 and he also judged and rightly judged that she was not drawn closer to Mr. Goodhart by his knowledge of her treatment of her husband. came the sixth day following the afternoon of which Lucretia had drunk tea with Mr. Goodhart and received a check for 218 pounds. She had risen somewhat late. A slight headache had detained her in bed. She did not feel well enough to walk through the glaring heat of that July morning. It was about 10 o'clock when she left her room to tea. Three young girls whose parents lived at the westernmost extremity of the West Clift. at breakfast and a shabby parlor. Mr. Goodhart's yesterday's gift of flowers glowed on the little dingy
Starting point is 09:15:53 chiffonier in which she kept her tea and sugar. A man was bawling fresh souls in the street and his outcry through the open window was as distracting as though he was in the room. The guilt of the cheap mandel blast was carefully estranged by red muslim from the blow of the housefly. Lucretius's appetite was not invited by the plain boiled egg, which she neglected for a piece of toast and butter and a cup of tea. The postman knocked. The landlady, very weedy in widow's weeds,
Starting point is 09:16:28 entered with a letter. It was addressed to her, and the first address had been to Cheppstow Place. This had been erased, and the address of the office in which Dr. Lane had purchased an annuity substituted. This had been erased and replaced by the name and address of Wembley Jones, which in their term had suffered eviction and yielded to 28 Bellevue Road, Ramsgate. The envelope bore the Valparaiso postmark and the Chilean stamp. A sudden sensation of tightness that made difficult the systole and diastole of the post came upon Lucretia's heart. She's very well remembered that the South Pacific port to which the flying spur had sailed, was not far distance from Valparaisal.
Starting point is 09:17:18 And this, though as a matter of fact, it was perfectly irrelevant as a stimulus to thought, quickened in her an hysterical and that she seemed to feel it and a frightening imagination that this letter was from her husband. Was the address in his handwriting? But in eight years, the handwriting of some of many will change, more or less. She opened the envelope.
Starting point is 09:17:42 It enclosed the letter and an envelope. containing a letter, the envelope addressed in pencil to the honorable stranger. This envelope was pierced as though a nail had been passed through it. A dark eyes took on a light and largeness of wonder with presence of alarm. The shadow, in expression of the dread of calamity, the look of fear that is in the gaze of one to whom the shape had come to depart no more. the letter ran thus. Ship Wildfire, Valparaiso, April 4, 1898. Dear Madam, I am the third mate of this ship,
Starting point is 09:18:24 which sailed from Liverpool for this port in December last year. We found ourselves, becalmed off the island of Santa Cristo three weeks ago, and the captain sent me a sure to look for turtle and fruit. I found neither, but in overhauling the island, I came across a cave in which was an old sea chest with the letter I enclosed, nailed to its lid. I pulled out the nail and read the letter,
Starting point is 09:18:50 but found that the bonds had been dug up. For a shovel lay close alongside the hole in which they had been buried. It was the hole right enough, for it was marked as Captain Reynolds describes. I guess he was rescued and took away the bonds himself, for I hunted right and left for anything like human remains,
Starting point is 09:19:10 and if he had died upon the island, he was bound in due course to become a skeleton, and there is no skeleton, nor anything answering to a man's bones, in that island. In a hollow, not far from the cave is Mr. John Goodhart's grave, with a cross raised by your husband as the inscription cut upon it proves. I thought it my duty to forward the enclosed, as you will naturally wish to hear about your husband, and trusting this letter may safely come in your hands. i am yours truly samuel murdock with no more prophetic insight with no more apprehension by intuition of the truth whose blaze of light was suddenly to flood her than had the letter she had held been a tradesman's bill she took the enclosure from the envelope curiously labelled to the honourable stranger the paper was very old over a hundred years old yellow stained of coarse texture a most singular piece of paper, which, with its scrawl of pencil might, and could the dead right, be just such a letter as one might expect to receive from a dead man. You remember what Reynolds wrote,
Starting point is 09:20:26 how conceiving that he must be left to perish on the island, and his love for ever holding his wife in view, he, with Goodhart's gold pencil and an old roll of paper taken from the chest in the cave, framed the appeal to the honorable stranger. which lucretia was now holding and was now reading though it was but a scrawled she knew the handwriting and indeed it was contained in an envelope that she herself had addressed to him but from which the ink had been washed by immersion when he was in the life belt she read her face blanched into marble whiteness she read the blood stormed in a red-hot tarrant to the roots of her hair she read and looked upwards and thought he is my husband had not i guessed it had not i suspected it in twenty shapes of look and speech and smile again she read and when she came to this part she sobbed as if her heart must break my wife lucretia when i left england was living with her mother mrs lane in chepstow place bayswater london w and it is my earnest wish that she should be the recipient of these bonds and the property that may be found upon me to which end i a broken-hearted desolate dying man humbly and affectionately greet the reader of this letter and do entreat him as he loves god and the truth and honour to convey these words and the property to my wife lucreacher reynolds who for the trouble he is at in finding her if she has removed and enacting as my emissary will receive fifteen
Starting point is 09:22:12 pound, which he will more greatly enjoy his money honorably and virtuously gained than if he kept the whole son, thereby robbing the widow and blasting the only hope which keeps warm and alive, the heart that dictates these words. Again, I greet and bless you and thank you for the noble services you will be doing me. Francis Rennel. The truth was very clear to her now. Mr. Goodhart was her husband. It was her husband who had brought her the 150 pounds, not from the island, but as a gift from his love and loyalty. But oh, why had he waited all these years? Why had he not come sooner? It was her husband who had caused the bank to send a check for 218 pounds. He had dwelt near her and brooded over her and courted her as good heart, and her heart smiled in remembrance of a
Starting point is 09:23:07 triumph and that. Why had he not come sooner? Why had he not revealed himself? Our instincts as a woman pierced to the very sanctuary where the truth was enshrined, and his motives were as intelligible to her as though he had explained them. She stood rooted in thought, with her eyes on the papers in her hands, then took pen and ink, sat down at the table, and wrote, my Frank, you are revealed to me by the closed. Come to me. Come quickly and forgive me, Lucretia. She put this note in a letter she had received into an envelope which she addressed to John Goodhart, Esquire, and rang the bell. The landlady's daughter appeared. Miss Simpkins, will you please run with this at once to Mr. Goodhart's lodgings? The girl of 14 took the letter and vanished, and Lucretia from her window saw her rapidly walk to the
Starting point is 09:24:01 house in Augusta Road hand in the letter, and leisurely returned, for there were dishes to wash and beds to make, and the Little Miss Simpkins was in no hurry. Reynolds was reading a London Daily paper when the servant gave him Lucretia's letter. He read it and sprang to his feet, pausing for a moment in a swift distraction or delirium of reverie upon his letter which he had written in the island, for into it swept with the velocity of sunshine the whole of that heavy term of ocean solitude, and for an instant the full picture was before him with Kudhard's grave and the cave and the shovel and the cookput. Just as at midnight the broad circle of the sea or the hills and the plains of a face of country are flashed into brilliance by a dart of lightning. He put on
Starting point is 09:24:58 cap and in a minute or two had measured the distance that divided his own from Lucretia's lodgings. He knocked, was admitted, passed into the parlor, the door of which he closed and stood cap in hand, looking at his wife. Manifestly, since sending to him, she had been struggling to school herself for this meeting. You saw that in her posture and demeanor as she stood at the table which remained covered with the breakfast things. But the fragile foundations and props of a woman's resolution must sink under the weight of a woman's passion and emotion. She said, Oh, Frank, I know you now. I see you in your changed face and, and, but then the constricted cords in her throat refused to deliver the message of her mind. All on a sudden, she sank down
Starting point is 09:25:49 on her knees by the table and hiding her face in her arm wept and wept. He rushed to a side, fell upon his knees and put his arm about her. He pressed his cheek to hers and murmured endearments, calling her. His only love, his dear wife, his noble Lucretia. But it seemed that she would not have any of this just yet. For rising in a blind way, she got round to the other side of the table, and he stood up with such a deadly chill of fear of her reception that for a space he remained and looked like a figure in stone.
Starting point is 09:26:25 not yet frank not yet she exclaimed extending her hands towards him but in the posture of repulsion mr featheridge told a lie when he wrote that i loathed you loathed oh no i loved you i loathed myself but something worked in me with a power that was stronger than love of loathing and i could not i could not you violated that mad spirit in me that would have wasted itself had you given me time had you given me time had you gone your voyage when you brought me by a falsehood to your ship. But I afterwards knew that, even when I silently left you at Foreman, I was loving you as I had loved you when I accepted you, and I also knew that a power had worked in me, which had made me false. But O Frank, more faithless to myself than to you. He moved as though to go to her, but her outstretched arms held them off. But what was your love? She continued. You went away and
Starting point is 09:27:25 have never written, never made a sign, never came home to see if I were alive and true to you. Eight years. And I have thought you dead. Otherwise, I should have known you. Changed as you are. You are the frank I loved and married. I should have known you, and you have left me alone. When had you returned and sought me and claimed me? You would have found me your loyal wife, loving you, deploring you, accusing myself of a wickedness whose memory works in me in torment and again and again. In thinking of you and recalling my conduct at our marriage, I could have destroyed myself. Her arm slowly fell to her sides. Her head sank. Lucretia, he said in a low voice, whose tone thrilled with his love, and the thoughts are words
Starting point is 09:28:12 are excited. I do not dare seek you because I dreaded your reception. I am a man, and you have the feelings of a man, and I feared you. You might have spurned me again. You might have spurn me again you might even yet spurn me no she cried ran to him and he folded her in his arms and pressed his lips upon hers and thus they stood husband and wife end of chapter sixteen

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