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Episode Date: March 10, 2026Divers Women by Pansy audiobook. Genre: religion In Divers Women, beloved Christian novelist Isabella 'Pansy' Alden, joined by Mrs. C. M. Livingston, gathers a rich set of late-19th-century stories t...hat follow women whose everyday choices become spiritual turning points. In 'Sunday Fractures,' a polished, prosperous congregation discovers how easily pride, gossip, and social ambition can wound a church and its weary pastor's family. At home, tensions flare in kitchens and parlors: spirited Margaret faces a sharp-tongued, overstrained mother in 'New Nerves,' while newly married Ruey Thorne learns that love can be tested by something as small as a plate of buckwheat cakes. Elsewhere, the young mother Faith Vincent refuses to accept a summer of separation and quietly attempts a daring plan to build a healthier home for her baby and husband. The fashionable Mrs. Williams, certain she has no time for 'foreign missions,' is confronted by unsettling questions about comfort, duty, and compassion. And when gentle Mrs. Kensett is left vulnerable after her husband's death, family loyalties reveal their true weight. By turns satirical, tender, and warmly instructive, these intertwined portraits explore faith lived out in family life, community expectations, and the hard work of becoming more charitable and courageous. For ad-free listening try our premium subscription Chapters (Approximate) (00:00:00) Chapter 01 (00:17:34) Chapter 02 (00:31:43) Chapter 03 (00:44:52) Chapter 04 (00:59:31) Chapter 05 (01:32:49) Chapter 06 (02:03:33) Chapter 07 (02:29:45) Chapter 08 (02:57:43) Chapter 09 (03:18:12) Chapter 10 (03:33:54) Chapter 11 (03:55:59) Chapter 12 (04:30:12) Chapter 13 (05:02:15) Chapter 14 Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
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Divers Women by Pansy and Mrs. C. M. Livingston. Section 1. Sunday Fractures
Chapter 1 Some People Who Went Up to the Temple
An elegant temple it was, this modern one of which I write, modern in all its appointments,
carpets, cushions, gas fixtures, organ, pulpit furnishings, everything everywhere
be token to the presence of wealth and taste. Even the vases that it
adorned the marble-topped flower stands on either side of the pulpit wore a foreign air,
and in design and workmanship were unique. The subdued light that stole softly in through the
stained glass windows produced the requisite number of tints and shades on the hair and whiskers
and noses of the worshippers. The choir was perched high above common humanity, and praised God
for the congregation, in wonderful voices, four in number, the soprano of which caused
more than a preacher's salary, and soared half an octave higher than any other voice in the city.
To be sure, she was often fatigued, for she frequently danced late of a Saturday night,
and occasionally the grand tenor was disabled from appearing at all for morning service
by reason of the remarkably late hour and unusual dissipation of the night before.
But then he was all right by evening, and, while these little episodes were unfortunate,
it, they had to be born with meekness and patience, for was he not the envy of three rival churches,
any one of which would have increased his salary if they could have gotten him?
The soft, pure tones of the organ were filling this beautiful church on a certain beautiful
morning, and the worshippers were treading the aisles, keeping step to its melody as they made
their way to their respective pews, the heavy carpeting giving back no sound of footfall,
and the carefully prepared inner doors, pushing softly back into place, making no jar on the
solemnities of the occasion. Everything was being done decently and in order, not only decently,
but exquisitely. A strange breaking in upon all this propriety and dignity was the sermon that morning.
Even the text had a harsh sound, almost startling to ears which had been lifted to the third heaven
of rapture by the wonderful music that floated down to them. Take heed what ye do, let the fear of the
Lord be upon you. What a harsh text. Wasn't it almost rough? Why speak of fear in the midst of such
melody of sight and sound? Why not hear of the beauties of heaven, the glories of the upper temple,
the music of the heavenly choir, something that should lift the thoughts away from earth and
doing and fear. This was the unspoken greeting that the text received. And the sermon that followed,
what had gotten possession of the preacher? He did not observe the proprieties in the least.
He dragged stores and warehouses and common workshops, even the meat markets and vegetable stalls,
into that sermon. Nay, he penetrated to the very inner sanctuary of home, the dressing room in the
kitchen, startling the ear with that strange-sounding sentence,
Take heed what ye do. According to him, religion was not a thing of music and flowers and
soft carpets and stained lights and sentiment. It had to do with other days than Sunday,
with other hours than those spent in softly cushioned pews. It meant doing, and it meant
taking heed to each little turn and word and even thought, remembering always that the fear of the
Lord was the thing to be dreaded. What a solemn matter that made of life! Who wanted to be so trampled?
It would be fearful. As for the minister, he presented every word of his sermon as though he felt it
thrilling to his very soul. And so he did. If you had chance to pass the parsonage on that Saturday
evening, which preceded its delivery, passed it as late as midnight, you would have seen a gleam of
light from his study window. Not that he was so late with his Sabbath preparation, at least the
written preparation. It was that he was on his knees pleading with an unutterable longing for
the souls committed to his charge, pleading that the sermon just laid aside might be used
to the quickening and converting of some soul, pleading that the Lord would come into his vineyard
and see if there were not growing some shoots of love and faith and trust that would bring harvest.
It was not that minister's custom to so infringe on the sleeping hours of Saturday night,
time which had been given to his body in order that it might be vigorous,
instead of clogging the soul with the dullness of its weight.
But there are special hours in the life of most men,
and this Saturday evening was a special time to him.
He felt like wrestling for the blessing, felt in a faint degree some of the persistency of the servant of
old who said, I will not let thee go except thou bless me. Hence the special unction of the morning.
Somewhat of the same spirit had possessed him during the week, hence the special fervor of the
sermon. With his soul glowing then in every sentence, he presented his thoughts to the people.
How did they receive them? Some listened with him. Some listened with him.
with the thoughtful look on their faces that betokened hearts and consciences stirred.
There were those who yawned and thought the sermon unusually long and prosy.
Now and then, a gentleman more thoughtless or less cultured than the rest
snapped his watch-case in the very face of the speaker, by accident let us hope.
A party of young men, who sat under the gallery, exchanged notes about the doings of the week,
and even passed a few slips of paper to the young ladies from the seminary who sat in front of them.
The paper contained nothing more formidable than a few refreshments in the shape of caramels,
with which to beguile the tediousness of the hour.
There was a less cultured party of young men and women who unceremoniously whispered at intervals
through the entire service, and some of the whispers were so funny
that occasionally a head went down and the seat shook,
as the amused party endeavored or professed to endeavor to subdue untimely laughter.
I presume we have all seen those persons who deem it a mark of vivacity or special brilliancy
to be unable to control their risibles in certain places.
It is curious how often the seeming attempt is, in a glaring way, nothing but seeming.
These parties perhaps did not break the Sabbath any more directly than the note-writers behind them,
but they certainly did it more noisily and with more marked evidence of lack of ordinary culture.
The leader of the choir found an absorbing volume in a book of anthems that had been recently introduced.
He turned the leaves without regard to their rustle, and surveyed piece after piece with a critical eye,
while the occasionally peculiar pucker of his lips showed that he was trying special ones,
and that just enough sense of decorum remained with him to prevent the whistle,
from being audible. Then there were, dotted all over the Great Church, heads that nodded
descent to the minister at regular intervals, but the owners of the heads had closed eyes and
open mouths, and the occasional breathing that suggested a coming snore was marked enough
to cause nervous nudges from convenient elbows, and make small boys who were looking on chuckle
with delight. And thus, surrounded by all these different specimens of humanity, the parents
strove to declare the whole counsel of God, mindful of the rest of the charge, whether men will
hear or whether they will forbear. He could not help a half-drawn breath of thanksgiving that
that part was not for him to manage. If he had had their duty as well as his own to answer for,
what would have become of him? Despite the looking at watches, the cases of which would make
an explosive noise, and the audible yawning that occasionally sounded near him,
the minister was enabled to carry his sermon through to the close,
helped immeasurably by those aforesaid earnest eyes
that never turned their gaze from his face,
nor let their owner's attention flag for an instant.
Then followed the solemn hymn,
then which there is surely no more solemn one in the English language.
Imagine that congregation, after listening or professing to listen,
to such a sermon as I have suggested,
from such a text as I have named,
Standing and hearing rolled forth from magnificent voices such words as these.
In all my vast concerns with thee, in vain my soul would try,
to shun thy presence, Lord, or flee, the notice of thine eye.
My thoughts lie open to the Lord, before they're formed within,
and ere my lips pronounce the word, he knows the sense I mean.
O wondrous knowledge deep and high, where can a creature hide?
Within thy circling arm I lie enclosed on every side.
Follow that with the wonderful benediction.
By the way, did you ever think of that benediction of its fullness?
The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, the love of God, the communion of the Holy Ghost,
be with you all, amen.
Following that earnest amen, nay, did it follow,
or was it blended with the last syllable of the word,
so nearly that word seemed swallowed in it, came the role of that $20,000 organ.
What did the organist select to follow that sermon, that hymn, that benediction?
Well, what was it? Is it possible that that familiar strain was the old song,
coming through the rye? No, it changes. That is the ring of money musk.
Anon there is a touch, just a dash rather, of home-sweet home,
and then a bewilderment of sounds, wonderfully reminding one of Dixie, and of wayed down upon the Swanee River,
and then suddenly it loses all connection with memory, and rolls and swells and thunders,
and goes off again into an exquisite tinkle of melody that makes an old farmer,
for there was here and there an old farmer even in that modern church,
murmur as he shook hands with a friend, kind of a dancing jig that is, ain't it?
To the sound of such music, the congregation trip out. Halfway down the aisle, Mrs. Denton
catches the fringe of Mrs. Ellison's shawl.
"'Excuse me,' she says.
"'But I was afraid you would escape me, and I have so much to do this week. I want you to come in socially on Tuesday evening, just a few friends, an informal gathering, tea at eight, because the girls want a little dance after it. Now come early.'
Just in front of these two ladies, a group have halted to make inquiries.
"'Where is Fanny today? Is she sick?'
"'Oh, no, but the truth is her hat didn't suit, and she sent it back and didn't get it again.
She waited till one o'clock, but it didn't come.
Milleners are growing so independent and untrustworthy.
I told Fanny to wear her old hat and never mind, but she wouldn't.
Estelle and Arthur have gone off to the cathedral this morning.
Absurd, isn't it?
I don't like to have them go so often.
It looks odd.
But Arthur runs wild over the music there.
I tell him our music is good enough, but he doesn't think so.
I don't know what the trouble is, but the young people do not seem to be attracted to our church.
The elder lady says, and she says it with a sigh.
She belongs to that class of people who always say things.
with a sigh. Further on, Mrs. Hammond has paused to say that if the weather continues so lovely,
she thinks they would better have that excursion during the week. The gardens will be in all their
glory. Tell the girls she thinks they better settle on Wednesday as the day least likely to
have engagements. The lady knows that she is mentioning the day for the regular church prayer
meeting, and she is sending word to members of the church. But what of that?
I'm tired almost to death, says Mrs. Edwards.
We have been house cleaning all the week, and it is such a trial with inefficient help.
I wouldn't have come to church at all today, but the weather was so lovely,
and we have so few days in this climate when one can wear anything decent.
It seemed a pity to lose one.
Have you finished house cleaning?
At the foot of the stairs, Miss Lily Harrison meets the soprano singer.
Oh, Lorena, she exclaims.
Your voice was just perfectly divine this morning.
Let me tell you what Jim said when you went up on the high notes of the anthem.
He leaned over and whispered to me,
The angels can't go ahead of that, I know.
Irreverent fellow.
Lorena, what a perfect match your silk is.
Where did you succeed so well?
I was dying to see that dress.
I told Mama if it were not for the first.
sight of that dress and of Laura's face when she saw it was so much more elegant than hers,
I should have been tempted to take a nap this morning instead of coming to church. However, I got a
delicious one as it was. Weren't you horribly sleepy? At this point, Mrs. Lily and Lorena were
joined by the said Jim, and be it noticed that he makes the first remark on the sermon that has
been heard as yet. We had a stunning sermon this morning,
didn't we? Oh, you shocking fellow, murmurs Lorena, how can you use such rough words?
What words? Stunning? Why, dear me, that's a jolly word, so expressive. I say,
you sheep in this fold took it pretty hard. A fellow might be almost glad of being a goat, I think.
Jim, don't be wicked, puts in Miss Lily, who has a cousinship in the said Jim, and therefore
can afford to be brusque. Jim shrugs his shoulders. Wicked, he says, if the preacher is to be credited,
it is you folks who are wicked. I don't pretend you know to be anything else. A change of subject
seems to the fair Lorena to be desirable, so she says, Why were you not at the hop last night,
Mr. Merchant? And Jim replies, I didn't get home in time, I was at the races. I hear you have.
a stunning, I beg your pardon, a perfectly splendid time. Those are the right words, I believe.
And then the two ladies gathered their silken trains into an aristocratic grasp of the left hand,
and sailed downtown on either side of Jim to continue the conversation. And those coral lips had but
just sung, my thoughts lie open to the Lord before they're formed within, and ere my lips pronounce the
word, he knows the sense I mean. What could he have thought of her? Is it not strange that she did not
think this of herself? How are you today? Mr. Jackson asked, shaking his old acquaintance, Mr. Dunlap
heartily by the hand. Beautiful day, isn't it? Now what will be the next sentence from the lips of those
gray-headed men, standing in the sanctuary, with the echo of solemn service still in their ears?
Listen.
Splendid weather for crops.
A man with such a farm as mine on his hands, and so backward with his work, rather grudges
such Sundays as these this time of year.
And the other?
Yes, he says laughing.
You could spare the time better if it rained, I dare say.
By the way, Dunlap, have you sold that horse yet?
If not, you'd better make up your mind to let me have it at the price I named.
You won't do better than that.
this fall. Whereupon ensued a discussion on the respective merits and demerits, and the
prospective rise and fall in horse flesh. Take heed what ye do, let the fear of the Lord be upon you.
Had those two gentlemen heard that text?
End of Chapter 1. Recording by Trisha G.
Chapter 2 of Divers Women by Pansy and Mrs. C. M. Livingston. This
This Libravox recording is in the public domain.
Sunday Fractures Chapter 2.
Some people who forgot the Fourth Commandment.
Let me introduce to you the Harrison dinner table, and the people gathered there on the afternoon of that Sabbath day.
Miss Lily had brought home with her her cousin Jim.
He was privileged on the score of relationship.
Miss Helen, another daughter of the house, had invited Mr. Harvey Latimer.
He was second cousin to Kate's husband, and Kate was a niece of Mrs. Harrison, relationship again.
Also, Miss Fanny and Miss Cecilia Lawrence were there because they were schoolgirls
and so lonely in boarding school on Sunday, and their mother was an old friend of Mrs. Harrison.
There are always reasons for things.
The dinner table was a marvel of culinary skill.
Clearly Mrs. Harrison's cook was not a churchgoer.
roast turkey and chicken pie and all the side dishes attended upon both, to say nothing of the rich and carefully prepared dessert, of the nature that indicated that its flakiness was not developed on Saturday and left to wait for Sunday.
Also, there was wine on Mrs. Harrison's table. Just a little homemade wine, the rare juice of the grape prepared by Mrs. Harrison's own cook. Not at all the sort of wine that others indulged in.
The Harrisons were temperance people.
I invited Dr. Selmser down to dinner, remarked Mrs. Harrison as she sipped her coffee.
I thought since his wife was gone, it would be only common courtesy to invite him in to get a warm dinner.
But he declined. He said his Sunday dinners were always very simple.
Be it known to you that Dr. Selmser was Mrs. Harrison's pastor and the preacher of the morning sermon.
Miss Lily arched her handsome eyebrows.
Oh, Mama, she said.
How could you be guilty of such a sin?
The idea of Dr. Selmser going out to dinner on Sunday.
I wonder he did not drop down in a faint.
Papa, did you ever hear such a sermon?
It slashed right and left, that is a fact,
said Mr. Harrison between the mouthfuls of chicken salad and oyster pickle.
A little too sweet, sweet.
in its scope to be wise for one in his position. Have another piece of the turkey, James?
He is running into that style a little too much. Some person whose opinion has weight ought to warn him.
A minister loses influence pretty rapidly, who meddles with everything."
"'Well, there was everything in that sermon,' said Miss Cecilia.
I just trembled in my shoes at one time. I expected our last escapade in the school
would be produced to point one of his morals.
You admit that it would have pointed it? said the cousin Jim with a meaning laugh.
Oh, yes, it was awfully wicked, I'll admit that, but one didn't care to hear it rehearsed in a church.
That is the trouble, Mama Harrison said.
Little nonsenses that do very well among schoolgirls or in the way of a frolic are not suited to illustrate a sermon with.
I think Dr. Selmser is rather apt to forget the dignity of the pulpit in his illustrations.
Lorena says he utterly spoiled the closing anthem by that doleful hymn he gave out, said Miss Lily.
They were going to give that exquisite bit from the last sacred opera,
but the organist positively refused to play it after such woe-begone music.
I wish we had a new hymn book, without any of those horrid old-fashioned hymns in it anyhow.
How? It was Mr. Harvey Latimer's turn to speak. Oh, well now, say what you please,
Selmsor can preach. He may not suit one's taste always, especially when you get hit,
but he has a tremendous way of putting things. Old Professor Marker says he has more power
over language than any preacher in the city. Yes, said Mr. Harrison, struggling with too large
a mouthful of turkey. He is a preacher, whatever else may be said about him, and yet, of course,
it is unfortunate for a minister to be always pitching into people. They get tired of it after a while.
Jim, did you know that Mrs. Jameson was going to give a reception to the bride next Wednesday evening?
This from Lily. No, is she? That will be a grand crush, I suppose.
I heard her giving informal invitations in church today, Helen said, and one of the schoolgirls said,
Oh, don't you think she said she was going to invite us? Cecilia told her to send the invitation to you,
Mrs. Harrison. We felt sure you would ask us to your house to spend the evening.
Madam Wilcox will always allow that, but there is no use trying to get her permission for a party.
You will ask us, won't you?
Whereupon Mrs. Harrison laughed and shook her head at them, and told them she was afraid they were naughty girls, and she would have to think about it, all of which seemed to be entirely satisfactory to them. The conversation suddenly changed.
Wasn't Mrs. Marsh dressed in horrid taste today? said Helen Harrison. Really, I don't see the use in being worth a million in her own right if she has no better taste than that to display.
Her camel's hair shawl is positively the ugliest thing I ever saw, and she had it folded horribly.
She is round-shouldered anyhow, ought never to wear a shawl.
I think her shawl was better than her hat, chimed in Miss Lily.
The idea of that hat costing fifty dollars.
It isn't as becoming as her old one, and to make it look worse than it would have done,
she had her hair arranged in that frightful new twist.
Why, Lily Harrison, I heard you tell her you thought that her hat was lovely,
this from Lily's youngest sister.
Oh, yes, of course, said Miss Lily.
One must say something to people.
It wouldn't do to tell her she looked horrid.
And the mother laughed.
It is a good thing for Mrs. Marsh that she holds her million in her own right,
observed cousin Jim. That husband of hers is getting a little too fast for comfort.
Is that so? Mr. Harrison asked, looking up from his turkey bone.
Yes, sir. His loss at cards was tremendously heavy last week, would have broken a less solid man.
He had been drinking when he played last and made horribly flat moves.
Disgraceful, murmured Mr. Harrison, and then he took another sip of his home-eastern.
wine. There were homes representing this same church that were not so stylish or fashionable or wealthy.
Mrs. Brower and her daughter Jenny had to lay aside their best dresses and all the array of
Sunday toilet, which represented their very best, and repaired to the kitchen to cook their own
Sunday dinners. Was it a thoughtful dwelling upon such verses of Scripture as had been
presented that morning, which made the Sunday dinner the most elaborate, the
the most carefully prepared, and more general in its variety, than any other dinner in the week?
Their breakfast hour was late, and, by putting the dinner hour at half-past three, it gave
them time to be elaborate, according to their definition of that word.
Not being cumbered with hired help, mother and daughter could have confidential
Sabbath conversations with each other as they worked.
So while Mrs. Brower carefully washed and stuffed the two plump chickens,
Jenny prepared squash and turnip and potatoes for cooking,
planning, meanwhile, for the hot apple sauce, and a side dish or two for dessert.
And the two talked.
Well, did you get an invitation?
The mother asked, and the tone of suppressed motherly anxiety
showed that the subject was one of importance.
Did she mean an invitation to the great feast which is to be held
when they sit down to celebrate the marriage supper of the lamb,
and which this Holy Sabbath day was given to help one prepare for?
No, on second thought, it could not have been that,
for, after listening to the morning sermon,
no thought of anxiety could have mingled with that question.
Assuredly, Jenny was invited, nay, urged, entreated.
The only point of anxiety could have been, would she accept?
But it was another place that filled the minds of both mother and daughter.
Indeed I did. There was glee in Miss Jenny's voice. I thought I wasn't going to. She went right by me and asked people right and left, never once looking at me. But she came away back after she had gone into the hall and came over to my seat and whispered that she had been looking for me all the way out, but had missed me. She said I must be sure to come, for she depended on us young people to help make the affair less ceremony.
Don't you think Emma wasn't invited at all? And I don't believe she will be. Almost everyone has been now.
Emma was so sure of her invitation because she was such a friend of Lou Jameson's.
She thought she would get cards to the wedding, you know, and when they didn't come, she felt sure of the reception.
She has been holding her head wonderfully high all the week about it, and now she is left out, and I am in.
"'Mother, isn't that rich?'
Mrs. Brower plumped her chickens into the oven
and wiped the flour from her cheek and sighed.
"'There will be no end of fuss in getting you ready and expense, too.
"'What are you going to wear anyway?'
"'Mother,' said Jenny impressively,
"'turning away from her squash to get a view of her mother's face,
"'I ought to have a new dress for this party.
"'I haven't anything fit to be seen.
It is months since I have had a new one, and everybody is sick of my old blue dress.
I'm sure I am.
It is entirely out of the question, Mrs. Brower said irritably.
And you know it is.
I wonder at you're even thinking of such a thing, and we so many bills to pay,
and there's that pew rent hasn't been paid in so long that I'm ashamed to go to church.
I wish the pew rent was in Jericho.
and the pew, too, was Miss Jenny's spirited answer.
I should think churches ought to be free if nothing else is.
It is a great religion, selling pews so high that poor people can't go to church.
If I had thought I couldn't have a new dress, I should have declined the invitation at once.
I did think it was time for me to have something decent, and I make my own clothes, too,
which is more than most any other girls do.
I saw a way to make it this morning. I studied Miss Harvey's dress all the while we were standing.
I could make trimming precisely like hers, and put it on in all. I could do everything to it,
but cut and fit it. I tell you you haven't anything to cut and fit, and can't have. What's the use in
talking? And in her annoyance and motherly bitterness at having to disappoint her daughter,
Mrs. Brower let fall the glass jar she had been trying to open, and it opened suddenly,
disgorging and mingling its contents with bits of glass on the kitchen floor.
Does anyone, having overheard thus much of the conversation, and having a fair knowledge of
human nature, need to be told that there were sharp words bitterly spoken in that kitchen
after that, and that presently the speech settled down into silence and gloom,
and preparations for the Sunday dinner went on with much slamming and banging and quick nervous movements
that but increased the ferment within and the outside difficulties.
And yet this mother and daughter had been to church and heard that wonderful text,
Take heed what ye do, let the fear of the Lord be upon you.
Had listened while it was explained and illustrated, going you will remember into the very kitchen for details.
They had heard that wonderful hymn,
In vain my soul would try to shun thy presence, Lord, or flee, the notice of thine eye.
Both mother and daughter had their names enrolled in the church record.
They were at times earnest and anxious to feel sure that their names were written in the book
kept before the throne.
Yet the invitation to Mrs. Jameson's reception,
informally whispered to the daughter as she moved down the church aisle,
had enveloped the rest of their Sabbath in gloom.
Friend, how earnest thou in hither not having on the wedding garment?
It was a wedding reception to which Jenny had been invited.
Did neither mother nor daughter think of that other wedding
and have a desire to be clothed in the right garment?
End of Chapter 2.
Chapter 3 of Divers Women by Pansy and Mrs. C. M. Livingston.
This Libravox recording is in the public domain.
Sunday Fractures Chapter 3.
Some people who forgot the ever-listening ear.
There were two other members of the Brower family who had attended church that Sabbath morning.
One was Mr. Brower Sr.
And at the season of dinner getting, he lay on the couch in the dining room, with the weekly paper in his hand,
himself engaged in running down the column of stock price,
He glanced up once when the words in the kitchen jarred roughly on his aesthetic ear and said,
"'Seems to me, if I were you, I would remember that today is Sunday and not be quite so sharp with my tongue.'
Then his solemn duty done, he returned to his mental comparison of prices. Also, there was Dwight Brower,
a young fellow of 19 or so, who acted unaccountably. Instead of lounging around,
according to his usual custom, hovering between piazza and dining room, whistling softly,
now and then turning over the pile of old magazines between wiles, in search of something
with which to pass away the time, he passed through the hall on his return from church,
and without exchanging a word with anyone, went directly to his room. Once there, he turned the key
in the lock, and then, as though that did not make him feel quite enough alone, he slipped the
little brass bolt under it, and then began pacing the somewhat long and somewhat narrow floor.
Up and down, up and down, with measured step and perplexed, anxious face, hands in his pockets,
and his whole air one of abandonment to more serious thought than boys of 19 usually indulge.
What has happened to Dwight? Something that is not easily settled, for as the chickens
sputter in the oven below, and the water boils off the potatoes, and the pudding is manufactured,
and the cloud deepens and glooms. He does not recover his free and easy air and manner. He ceases
his walk after a little, from sheer weariness, but he thrusts out his arm and seizes a chair
with the air of one who has not time to be leisurely, and flings himself into it, and clasps his arms
on the table, and bends his head on his hands, and thinks on. The holy hours of the Sabbath
afternoon waned. Mr. Brower exhausted the stock column, read the record of deaths by way of doing
a little religious reading, tried a line or two of a religious poem, and found it too much for
him, then rolled up a shawl for a sofa pillow, put the paper over his head to shield him
from the October flies, and went to sleep. Jenny went in and out, setting the table, went to the
cellar for bread and cake and cream, went to the closet upstairs for a glass of jelly, went the entire
round of weary steps necessary to the getting ready the Sunday feast, all the time with the flush
on her cheek and the fire in her eye, the told of a turbulent, eager, disappointed heart,
and not once during the time did she think of the solemn words of prayer,
or hymn or sermon, or even benediction of the morning. She had gotten her text in the church aisle.
It was, wherewithal shall I be clothed, in order to sit down at the marriage supper of Mrs. Jameson's
son and daughter, and vigorously was it tormenting her. What an infinitely compassionate God is
ours, who made it impossible for Dr. Selmser, as he sat alone in his study that afternoon,
to know what was transpiring in the hearts and homes of some of his people.
Those chickens sputtered themselves done at last,
and the hot and tired mother, with still the anxious look on her face,
stooped and took them from their fiery bed,
and the father awoke with a yawn to hear himself summoned to the feast.
It was later than usual.
Many things had detained them.
Four o'clock quite, and before the army of dishes could be
marshalled back into shape, the bell would certainly toll for evening service. Let the fear of the
Lord be upon you, and he said, remember the Sabbath day to keep it holy. Dwight Brower was summoned, too,
from his room, and his mother, who had just realized the strangeness of his absence, looked up as he
came in and said, Are you sick today, Dwight? No, ma'am, he answered. And something in his
voice made her look again, and something in his face made her keep looking with a perplexed,
half-odd air. What had happened to Dwight? What change had come to him amid the afternoon
hours of that Sabbath day? Very different experiences can be passing in the same house at the same
time. It was only across the street from the Browers that little Mrs. Matthews poured
coffee for herself and husband, while Molly, the cook, stood on the side piazza and sang in a loud,
shrill, and yet appreciative tone, there is rest for the weary. Little Mrs. Matthews had glowing
cheeks, though she had done nothing more serious than exchange her silken dress for a rapper,
and lie on the sofa and finish the closing chapters of George Eliot's last new novel,
since her return from church. I, it is true.
She had been a listener in the same sanctuary where the earnest charge had wrung,
Take heed what ye do, let the fear of the Lord be upon you.
At least Mrs. Matthews had taken her handsomely clothed little body to church.
I will not say that her mind was there, or that she had heard much of the sermon.
Some of it, however, she undoubtedly had heard, and she proved it at this point,
breaking in upon Dr. Matthews's musings as he stirred his second cup of coffee.
Dr. Matthews, how do you like being preached at?
Preached at? The doctor echoed with a sleepy air.
Yes, preached at. I'm sure if you were not asleep this morning,
you must have heard yourself all but called by name.
Who else could Dr. Selmser have been hinting at
when he burst forth with such a tirade on whist parties?
It isn't a week since we had ours, and he almost described what we had for supper.
Fudge, said Dr. Matthews.
He was occasionally more apt to be expressive than elegant in his expressions.
What do you suppose he knows about our party?
There were a dozen, I dare say, that very evening, and as many more the next evening.
They are common enough, I am sure, and he didn't say anything personal nor anything very,
bad, anyhow. They all take that position, have to, I suppose. It's a part of their business.
I don't like them any the less for it. I wouldn't listen to a preacher who played whist.
Mrs. Matthews set her pretty lips in a most determined way, and answered in an injured tone,
Oh, well, if you like to be singled out in that manner and held up as an example before the whole congregation, I'm sure you're welcome to
the enjoyment. But as for me, I think it is just an insult. Stuff and nonsense, echoed the doctor,
how you women can work yourselves into a riot over nothing. Now you know he didn't say any more than he
has a dozen times before. In fact, he was rather mild on that point I thought, and I concluded he
considered he had said about all there was to be said in that line, and might as well slip it over.
There wasn't a personal sentence in it anyhow.
The doctor is a gentleman.
More than that, I don't believe he knows we had a whist party.
If he set out to keep track of all the parties there are in his congregation, it would make a busy life for him.
Your conscience must have reproached you, Maria.
Well, some people are less sensitive than others, I suppose.
I know men who wouldn't like to have their wives talked about as freely as you.
yours was from the pulpit this morning. I tell you, Dr. Matthews, that he meant me,
and I know it, and I don't mean to stand it if you do. How will you help it? The doctor asked,
and he laughed outright. It did seem ridiculously funny to him. A tempest in a thimble, he called it.
His wife was given to having them. What will you do about it? Fight him or what? It's a free country,
and the man has a right to his opinions, even if you don't agree with them.
Better hush up, Maria. I don't believe in duels, and they are against the law in this country besides.
You are powerless, you see. It is a pity he said that. Mrs. Dr. Matthews, being a woman,
and being a member of that church, knew she was not powerless. And women of her stamp are sure to be dared by random, half-earnessed sentences,
to show the very utmost that their weak selves can do.
As surely as I tell you the story here today,
that is the way the ferment began.
A little leaven leaveneth the whole lump.
Aye, and a little acid, sours the whole lump.
Do you think Mrs. Dr. Matthews sallied out directly her meal was concluded,
and openly and bitterly denounced Dr. Selmser as a pulpit slanderer?
She did nothing of the sort.
She chose her time and place and persons with skill intact, and said,
Didn't they think just among themselves, not intending to breathe it outside for the world,
that Dr. Selmser was getting a little unpopular among the young people?
He was so grave, almost stern.
She felt distressed sometimes, lest they should cultivate a feeling of fear toward him.
She did think it was so important that the young people should be attracted.
watching her opportunity, and it is wonderful how many opportunities there are in the world,
if one only watches for them, she remarked at Mrs. Browers that Dr. Selmser was just a little inclined,
she thought, to pay rather too much attention to families like the Harrisons. It was natural,
she supposed. Ministers were but human, and of course with their wealth and influence they
could make their home very attractive to him. But she always always,
felt sorry when she saw a clergyman neglecting the poor. Dr. Selmsor certainly had called it Mr.
Harrison's twice during this very week. Of course, he might have had business, she did not pretend
to say. But there were some who were feeling as though their pastor didn't give time to see them
very often. He ought to be willing to divide his attentions. Now Mrs. Brower belonged by nature
to that type of woman who is disposed to keep an almanac account with her pastor.
She knew just how many calls Dr. Selmser made on her in a year and just how far apart they were.
It really needed but a suggestion to make her feel doubly alert, on the Kivivv indeed,
to have her feelings hurt. So, of course, they were hurt.
In point of fact, there is nothing easier to accomplish in this jarring world than to get your
feelings injured. If you are bent on being slighted, there is no manner of difficulty in finding
people who apparently live and move and breathe for no other purpose than to slight you. And as often
as you think about them and dwell on their doings, they increase in number. A new name is added to the
list every time you think it over. And the fair probability is that every single person you meet
on that day, when you have just gone over your troubles, will say or do, or leave unsaid or
undone, that which will cruelly hurt you. I tell you, dear friend, it becomes you to keep
those feelings of yours hidden under lock and key out of sight and memory of anyone but your
loving Lord, if you don't want them hurt every hour in the day. End of Chapter 3.
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Chapter 4 of Divers Women by Pansy and Mrs. C.
M. Livingston. This Libravox recording is in the public domain. Sunday Fractures Chapter 4 Some
People Who Were False Friends
Did a woman ever start out, I wonder, with the spirit of turmoil and unrest about her,
that she did not find helpers? Especially if she be one of a large congregation, she comes in
contact with some heedless ones, some malicious ones, some who are led into mischief by their
undisciplined tongues, some who have personal grievances. And there are always some people
in every community who stand already to be led by the last brain with which they come in contact.
Or, if not that, they are sure to think exactly as Dr. Jones and Judge Tinker and Professor
Bolus do, without reason as to why or where for. This class is very easily managed.
A little care, a little judicious repetition of a sentence which fell from the doctors or the judges or the professor's lips, and which might have meant anything or nothing, by the slightest possible changes of emphasis, can be made to mean a little or a great deal. It wasn't slow work either. Not half so slow as it would have been to attempt the building up of someone's reputation. By reason of the law of gravitation, the natural tendency
is downward, so prevalent in human nature, and by reason of the intense delight, which that
wise and wily helper Satan, has in a fuss of any sort. Do Mrs. Dr. Matthews the justice of
understanding that she didn't in the least comprehend what she was about? That is, not the magnitude
of it. She only knew that she had been stung, either by her conscience or else by Dr. Selmser.
She chose to think it was Dr. Selmser, and she felt like repaying him for it.
He should be made to understand that people wouldn't bear everything, that he must just learn
to be a little more careful about what he said and did. Take heed what ye do, let the fear of the
Lord be upon you. Yes, she heard the text, and was thinking of her party all the time.
Did she think that certain things which occurred in her parlors on that evening,
were not in accordance with the text?
Then did she think to blot out the text
by showing her ability to stir up a commotion?
What do such people think anyway?
There came a day when even Mrs. Dr. Matthews herself
stood aghast over what had been done
and didn't more than half recognize her hand in the matter,
so many helpers she had found.
Non-temperance men, men of antagonistic political views,
men who winced at the narrowness of the line drawn by their pastor,
a line that shut out the very breath of dishonesty from the true Church of Christ,
men and women who were honest and earnest and petty,
who were not called on enough or bowed to enough or consulted enough,
or ten thousand other pettinesses,
too small or too mean to be advanced as excuses,
and so were hidden behind the general and vague one that, on the whole,
Dr. Selmser didn't seem to draw. The young people thought him severe or solemn or something.
His sermons were not just the thing, did not quite come up to the standard, whatever that may mean.
So the ball grew, grew so large that one day it rolled toward the parsonage in the shape of a letter,
carefully phrased, conciliatory, soothing, meant to be, every confidence in his integrity and kindness of heart and good intentions,
and every other virtue under the sun. But, well, the fact was, the young people did not feel
quite satisfied, and they felt that, on the whole, by and by, towards spring perhaps, or when he had
had time to look around him and determine what to do, a change would be for the best, both for
himself and for the cause. Indeed, they were persuaded that he himself needed a change,
His nervous system imperatively demanded it.
Let me tell you what particular day that letter found its way to the parsonage,
a rainy, dreary day in the early winter,
when the ground had not deliberately frozen over
and things generally settled down to good solid winter weather,
but in that muddy, slushy transition state of weather,
when nothing anywhere seems settled, save clouds, done and dreary,
drooping low over a dreary earth.
Came when the minister was struggling hard with a nervous headache
and sleeplessness and anxiety over a sick child.
Came when every nerve was drawn to its highest tension
and the slightest touch might snap the main cord.
It didn't snap, however.
He read that long, wise, carefully written,
sympathetic letter threw twice,
without the outward movement of a muscle,
only a flush of red rising to his forehead, and then receding, leaving him very pale.
Then he called his wife.
Maddie, see here, have you time to read this? Wait, have you nerve for it?
It will not help you. It is not good news, nor encouraging news, and it comes at a hard time.
And yet, I don't know. We can bear any news, can't we, now that Johnny is really better?
With this introduction she read the letter, and the keen, clear, grey eye seemed to grow stronger as she read.
Well, she said, it is not such very bad news, nothing at least but what you ministers ought to be used to.
We can go. There is work in the world yet, I suppose.
Work in the Lord's Vineyard, Maddie, for us if he wants us. If not, why then there is rest.
Shall I tell you about that breaking up, about how the ties of love and friendship and sympathy were severed?
You do not think that the whole church spoke through that letter?
Bless you, no. Even Mrs. Dr. Matthews cried about it and said it was a perfect shame,
and she didn't know what the officers meant. For her part, she thought they would never have such
another pastor as Dr. Selmser, and I may as well tell you in passing that she would,
did what she could do to cripple the usefulness of the next one by comparing him day and night
in season and out of season with, Dear Dr. Selmser. There are worse people in the world than
Mrs. Dr. Matthews. Did he stay all winter and look about him and decide what to do? You know better
than that. He sent his resignation in the very next Sabbath, and some of those letter-writers
were hurt and thought he had more Christian principle than that, and thought that ministers of all
men should not be so hasty in their acts. It showed a bad spirit. They went home after that,
Dr. Selmser and his wife, to her mother's home. So many people have her mother's home to go to,
blessed mothers. He was so glad to get to her. He needed change and rest, and the letter-writers had
spoken truthfully. Did he take cold in packing and traveling? Was he overworked? Were the seeds of the
disease running riot in his system during that early fall? Were they helped along any by that letter?
Who shall tell? We know this much. He took to his bed, and he was no longer pale or quiet.
The flush of fever and the unrest of delirium were upon him. He rolled and tossed and muttered,
and it was always of his work, of his cares, of his responsibilities, never of rest,
and yet rest was coming to him on swift wing.
The Lord of the vineyard knoweth when his reapers have need of soft, cool days of glory
to follow weeks of service.
Rapidly they come to him, but the river must be crossed first,
and first there must be a severing of earth ties,
a breaking of cords stronger than life.
Never mind, the king knows about this, too, and it must be and is and shall be well.
The rest came, all that we on this side knew of it, a pulseless heart, a shrouded form,
lips of ice, forehead of snow, hush and silence. Just the other side of the filmy veil,
which we call time, what was the appearance of it there? He knows, and has known these many years.
and, thank God, the wife of his love knows now, but we do not.
I hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither hath entered into the heart the things that are prepared
for them.
What said the elegant modern church, that during the process of this change, was undergoing
a candidating siege?
Why, they met in decorous assemblage and passed resolutions, and had them printed, and draped
the pulpit in mourning, and sent a delegation.
of the church to the funeral, with knots of the finest crape streaming from their shoulders.
And on the Sabbath following, the quartet choir sang the funeral dirge in such a way as to melt
almost the entire audience to tears. And then they went home, some of them, and remarked that
the candidate who occupied their pulpit that morning had an exceedingly awkward way of managing
his handkerchief, and didn't give out notice as well. They didn't believe he,
he would draw the young people. Now, what of all this story of one Sabbath day? Is it overdrawn?
Do you say there are no such people as have been described? I beg your pardon, there are.
It is not a story. It is a truthful repetition of Sabbath conversations. Would that such Sabbath
desecrations were rare? They are not. You will remember that out of a congregation of 500, I have not
given you a description of a dozen people. The difficulty is that a dozen people can and do
set in commotion large bodies of humanity and bring about results of which they themselves do
not dream. About that minister, if he sunk under such a common matter as having certain ones
in a church disaffected with him, it shows a weak mind, do you say? He should have expected
trials and disappointments and coldness and disaffection.
the servant is not greater than his lord. All true. He had preached that doctrine to himself for
twenty years, and earnestly strove to live by it. I do not say that he sunk under the humiliation.
Only, don't you remember the fable of the last straw that broke the camel's back? What I do say is,
that he had borne hundreds and thousands of straws. Also, remember that it was the Lord who called him from work.
Assuredly he did not call himself.
I think the master said,
Let him come.
It is enough, and we need him here.
Then what about the unfinished work that he left?
What about the midnight prayer over that sermon,
the wrestling for a sign of fruit?
Was it in vain?
There is fruit that you and I do not see oftentimes.
Do you remember the young man, Dwight Brower,
and the Sabbath afternoon communion that he had,
with himself? Not with himself alone, the world, the flesh, and the devil were in full strength
before him, and not them only. The angel of the covenant was there beside him. There was a conflict.
The world and the devil were vanquished. Dwight Brower's name was on the church roll,
but his heart had been with the world. He came over that day, distinctly, firmly, strongly,
to the Lord's side. He waved.
the solemn words, take heed what ye do, let the fear of the Lord be upon you. They sounded to him
as they never had before. He resolved then and there that they should mean to him what they never had
before, that they should mean to him what they evidently did to his pastor. That was twenty years ago.
There were modern churches even then. Dwight Brower had been a power in the land since then.
Not one, but scores, I hundreds, I thousands of souls, has the Lord given him as seals to his ministry, and he is working now.
Once I visited where he preached, I heard a lady say to him,
That was a wonderful sermon that you gave us today. To begin with, it is a wonderful text.
I never before realized that the Lord was actually watching all our ways.
He turned toward her with a smile.
and said, It was Dr. Selmser who preached today. He has been gone twenty years, and he is preaching
yet. And I heard a voice saying unto me, right, Blessed are the dead who die in the Lord,
yea, sayeth the spirit, that they may rest from their labors, and their works do follow them.
Does it seem to you a pity that he could not have known, could not have had one glimpse of the
fruit of his work? How do you know what view of waving harvests being garnered in the Lord calls him to look
down upon from the heights of Pisgah? When I awake with thy likeness, I shall be satisfied.
Be sure the Lord has satisfied him. Meantime, that modern church is still very modern indeed,
and at this present time its pulpit is vacant. They are candidating.
Chapter 5 of Divers Women by Pansy and Mrs. C. M. Livingston. This Slibervox recording is in the public domain.
New Nerves
Margaret, do stop that horrid screeching! You make my head fairly snap! The music suddenly ceased. The sharp voice came from the pantry, and belonged to Margaret's mother, Mrs. Murray.
She stood before her molding board, weighing out chopped raisins, currants, flowers.
butter, and all the other ingredients that go to make a fruit cake. The deep-cut frown
between her eyes, the worried expression, and the tightly shut lips, told their own story.
The singer stood at the kitchen table washing the breakfast dishes, a pretty picture,
with her sixteen years just blossoming into pink cheeks and bright eyes, a trim
and dainty figure even in her simple dark print and white apron. She looked so happy
and caroled forth her song so gaily, while she wiped the delicate china cups on the soft towel.
If her mother could but have seen her, would she so rudely have jarred the bright spirit?
And this was Margaret. She, too, could frown. Now the straight black brows drew themselves
together in an ugly way on the white forehead. The cheeks took a deeper pink, and the bright eyes
had a snap in them. She flung the cups on the table in place of the almost loving touches she had
bestowed upon them. The clatter went on, and at last a luckless cup reeled and rolled to the very
edge of the table, and off it went, shivering into many fragments. This brought Mrs. Murray to the
pantry door. Well, I never saw anything like you for carelessness, she said in a high-keyed voice.
There goes another of that set. You were vexed or that wouldn't have happened. I heard how you slammed about after I spoke to you. Now pick up the pieces and go away. I will wash them myself. Every nerve in the girl's body fairly quivered. Her mother had touched her on a tender point. She had been drilled by her music teacher for a long time on the high notes of a difficult piece of music, and she had just succeeded in trilling it out to her.
her own satisfaction and delight when she was startled by her mother's voice.
Poor Margaret! She had a hot temper, and when the severe reprimand for her carelessness was
added, she felt so angry and disgraced that she would have said many a word to repent of,
but happily she could not control her voice to speak. Every time she attempted it,
a choking sob stood right in the doorway and would not let the wicked words out.
Mrs. Murray was a pattern housekeeper, a model of neatness. Everything in her house shone from
the parlor windows to the kitchen stove. Her cake was always light, her bread sweet. No table
could compare with hers for delicious variety. Her housekeeping was a fine art, before which
everything else was made to bow. Her parlor was made most attractive in all its appointments,
and everything that goes to make a pleasant home was lavishly supplied by her husband,
yet a more uncomfortable family it would be hard to find.
The parlor was kept closed and dark except on rare occasion.
Flies and dust and mud were Mrs. Murray's avowed enemies.
To overcome them was the chief end of her life.
To this end, she tortured her husband and son and daughters.
Summer and winter she diligently pursued,
them, and many a tempest was evolved in that house from a source no greater than a muddy footprint
or stray fly or two, for in summer the house was enclosed in wire screens, and heedless people
were forever leaving them open. Economy, too, another most desirable virtue, was in this home
made to appear almost a vice. She would not let the sunshine in lest it would fade the carpet.
She made her room dingy and unpleasant in the evening to save gas.
She would not make a fire in the parlor in the winter because it wasted coal.
She would not open it in summer because dust ruined the furniture.
To make matters worse, Mrs. Murray was a woman made principally of nerves.
She was a constitutional fredder.
It must be said in her justification that she came of a nervous race.
There are different kinds of nervous people. This family did not belong to that limp class
who start with a fright at every noise or faint at sight of a spider. Their nerves were too
tightly drawn, and like a delicate stringed instrument, when a rude touch came, Snap went a string,
making all life's music into discord as far as they were concerned. The discord usually
expressed itself in scolding. It is a real luxury for the time to the wicketts.
nerves to give somebody a sound beating. Mrs. Murray's mother and grandmother and great-grandmother
had made a practice of scolding their children, their servants, and their husbands when necessary,
and it never seemed to occur to her that there was any other way to manage affairs.
Another antic, those naughty nerves often indulged in, was nervous headache. When anything
especially annoying took place, they met in convention at the top of the poor head,
and held an indignation meeting. At such times, Mrs. Murray was obliged to retreat to her own room.
The increasing frequency of these attacks furnished her with an excellent reason for withdrawing
herself from society almost entirely. She was not strong enough to entertain company.
She was not strong enough even to attend church habitually. Her strength must all be given to
her house and her table, for she was one of those housekeepers who consider economic
out of place here. The cakes and pies and knick-knacks were counted in necessity, as well as more
substantial food. Don't say Mr. Murray should not have chosen such a wife. He did not.
This gloomy, fault-finding woman bore no resemblance to the sweet, bright girl he married.
It had all come about so gradually that neither realized the great change.
Ralph, the only son, a fine, tall young man just out of his teens, had lately been taken into his father's firm. He was noble and true, though in a little danger on account of his fondness for company, which, not being gratified at home, was taking him away from its safe boundaries to clubs and questionable company and amusements much more than pleased his father. But Ralph declared he must have some pleasure, didn't want to mope it.
his room alone after being hard at work all day. As for home, there was nothing there, not even a good
place to read, gas at the top of the wall in the dingy old dining-room, and the girls always out,
or out of humor. He could do no better. Mr. Murray was uneasy. Their home was sort of dismal,
what was the matter? The two daughters, just coming up to womanhood, also missed many of the pleasant
surroundings and sweet sympathy that other girls seemed to have in their homes. With all her toil
in doing, Mrs. Murray was letting her children slip, as it were, through her fingers. The house was
well furnished, but there was no room bright and warm, with music and books and papers, where they
gathered in the evening and strengthened the home ties. No servant could long please Mrs. Murray,
so the comers and goers to that kitchen for many years were new.
numerous. Now she had hit upon a new plan. She could carry out some good old-fashioned notions
she had about training girls in domestic matters. She would do her own work with such
assistance as her daughters could give her out-of-school hours, calling in such help as they needed.
But the project did not work well. The girls were always hurried. Their school duties left
very little time for anything else, so their household tasks were not always well or cheeriness.
performed, especially Margaret's. Her love for music amounted to a passion, and she grudged
the time for practice. Then her inexperience tried her mother's patience sadly, and brought the
inevitable scoldings, and made Margaret's irritable nerves flash up to meet her mother's.
But that Saturday morning that we began to tell about, it was such a very exasperating one
all around. One thing after another happened to make things
go wrong, till it fairly seemed as if some evil genius had affairs under control. The door opened,
and a sweet round face, framed by a sweeping cap, appeared. A graceful young girl, armed with broom
and dust-pan, stepped lightly across the kitchen, deposited her broom in the corner,
and proceeded to empty the contents of the pan in the fire.
"'Florence,' spoke her mother sharply, "'what do you mean by putting dust in the fire,
when you see this kettle of stewed cranberries on the stove.
Florence started guiltily,
spilling some of the dust on the stove in her agitation.
There, now you see what you've done.
You two make more work than you do,
and just see how you have stood the broom in the corner,
instead of hanging it up as I have told you a hundred times to do.
It is more trouble to teach you than it is to do things myself.
I wonder if you have just got through sweeping.
Such slow poking works I could have done it twice over by this time.
I don't see why I should be so tormented.
Other people have girls that amount to something.
Mrs. Murray, down in her heart, believed there were no girls in all the kingdom like hers.
Florence was accustomed to this sort of talk, and yet it hurt her sensitive, affectionate nature every time.
The blue eyes took on no indignant light.
Instead they filled with tears, which irritated her mother still more, and she said with increased sharpness,
"'There, go away! You are made of two fine stuff for common purposes, getting so touchy that not a word can be said to you.'
Counting time by her mother's calendar, Florence had been a long time doing a little, but her nature was different from her mother's.
All her movements were gentle. She had been reverently following her mother's,
directions. Her untiring patience ferreted dust out of every little corner where it had lodged in the
furniture. She had mounted the step-ladder and dusted the pictures, and cleaned and polished all the
little ornaments. True, she lingered a moment over a book of engravings, and to kiss a little
statuette of prayer, but she thought she had done it all so nicely, and a little word of praise
would have made her so happy. It was hard when she had done her best to have only fault findings.
At a very critical stage of affairs in the pastry making, Nettie Blinn knocked at the side door.
She only wanted to see Maggie just a minute about the Christmas entertainment.
Maggie set down a half-beaten dish of eggs and ran. The minute lengthened into many more,
and the girls talked and talked, as girls will, forgetting all about the time.
When Margaret returned to the kitchen, she found her mother in a perfect fever of haste,
and poor Florence trying to go two or three ways at once.
Now Margaret, her mother began,
I might just as well depend upon the wind as you.
Drop everything and run the minute you are called.
That is just as much sense as Nettie Blin has,
running to the neighbors Saturday morning and staying like that when I have so much to do.
You don't seem to care whether you help me or not.
Why, mother, how could I help it?
Margaret answered with spirit.
I didn't ask her to come, and I couldn't tell her to go away.
Saturday morning is as good as any other time to her.
She doesn't have to work all day Saturday,
and how should she know that I do?
Just here the front doorbell gave a malicious tingling.
Mrs. Allen, an old friend who lived several miles out of town,
had just a few minutes before train time. She was sure there was no one in the world she wanted to see
so much as Mrs. Murray, and Mrs. Murray was just as sure that she herself wanted to see nobody just then,
but there was no help for it. She washed the dough from her hands, and saying to Margaret, as she hurriedly
left the kitchen, finish that pie and watch the fire, don't let that cake burn nor the cranberries.
Alas for Margaret.
She became so absorbed in rolling the upper crust of the mince pie
and in trying to cut a beautiful pine tree on it
that she forgot all about the fire and the cake and the cranberries.
An odor, not savory, came from the stove.
Margaret rushed out, but it was too late.
The cranberries sent up a dense black smoke
and were burned fast to the new porcelain kettle.
And horrors!
On opening the oven door, the first of them,
fruitcake was a sight to behold, as black as a hat and an ominous-looking valley in the
center of it.
"'Flow! Go tell Mother to come here quick!' screamed Margaret.
"'Everything has gone to destruction!'
"'Any housekeeper can well imagine what a person, who did not hold firm rule over
nerve and tongue, would say under such aggravation's.
Although her mother's words stung like scorpions, Margaret did not attempt to excuse her
herself this time, for she felt keenly that she had been guilty of great neglect, and she would
have told her mother so if the bitter words had not made her heart and sullen. The longer her
mother talked, the less she felt that she cared for the consequences of her fault. This Saturday's
work was unusual, not only because Christmas was near at hand, but an old aunt of Mrs. Murray's
was coming from Philadelphia to make a visit. She had not visited her niece, she had not visited her niece,
in many years. She also used to be a model housekeeper, and Mrs. Murray was anxious that everything
should appear to the best advantage. At last, the toil and strife of that day was over,
the work was all done up, and the girls sought their own room.
"'Maggie,' said Florence, "'what do you suppose Aunt Deborah will bring us for Christmas presents?'
Florence braided her golden locks as she talked, her face cheerful as usual. The
trials of that day had left no mark on her sunny face. Not so with Maggie. The frown was still on her
forehead, and she flung herself on the lounge in a despairing sort of way as she answered,
I'm sure I don't know nor care either, whether I ever get another present in my life.
Why, Maggie, what's the matter? The matter is that I am tired of this awful life. I work, work,
and be scolded all the time. I wish Aunt Deborah was in Jericho or anybody else that is coming to make more
work for us. I could stand the work, though, but I can't stand scolding all the time. Mother hasn't said
a pleasant word to me today. "'Sh,' said Florence. Mother is sick and nervous. Don't you think if,
if you wouldn't provoke Mother so much it would be better? And then maybe,' Florence was almost afraid to
speak her next thought. Don't you think you answer back a good deal sometimes?
There, you just hush up, said Margaret. I guess you'd needn't set up for a lecturer, too.
Two years younger than I am, you are taking a good deal upon yourself, I should say.
I'm nervous, too. Young folks are called cross, but older ones always called nervous when they
are cross. I wish I could go off somewhere. I'd go anywhere to get away from home,
for it's just dreadful. Mother don't care for me one bit. She don't scold anybody else as she
does me. When I go over to Mrs. Blins, it just makes me sick. Nettie and her mother are just like
two sisters. They sit under the drop-light with their fancy work and talk, or Nettie plays her new
pieces over for her mother. I could play as well as Nettie if I had time to practice,
but mother don't seem to care anything at all about my music.
We might keep a girl like other people.
Father is able to.
I think it is too bad.
Oh, don't, Meg, don't say any more, said Florence.
It makes me shiver to hear you talk so.
You know what it says about honoring parents.
I'm sure something dreadful will happen to you.
You will drop right down dead, maybe,
or just think how you would feel if mother should die
after you've talked so.
Oh, Maggie, she said timidly,
if you are only a Christian now,
how it would help you?
Foe, said Margaret,
mother is a Christian and it don't help her one bit.
Then Margaret put her head down
on the arm of the lounge and cried.
She had wanted to cry all day,
but there was no time.
The door stood partly open
between Mrs. Murray's room
and that of her daughters,
that ruined fruitcake
had accomplished its work, the severe nervous headache had come, and obliged her to go up to her
room and lie down, while the girl supposed her to be still in the dining room. So the talk came
floating into her while she lay on her bed, pressing her aching temples. What a revelation was this.
Was it possible that she was the person meant? One daughter blaming her, and the other excusing her.
She almost forgot about her head in this new pain.
The first feeling was one of indignation and wounded pride,
but conscience told her it was all true,
that she was a cross fretful mother,
and that she had not made her home a happy one,
that she had been selfish and unsympathetic,
and her children were getting estranged from her.
But the last few words touched her most of all.
Her religion did not help her.
Sure enough it did not, any more than a pagans, and she had brought dishonor on Christ.
The veil had suddenly fallen from her eyes.
She excused herself from tea on plea of a headache, telling each one who came softly to the
door asking to minister to her that she wanted nothing but quiet.
She wanted to face this dreadful revelation all alone, and yet there came no high resolve
that hereafter everything should be different.
She lay there disconsolate, discouraged, a mere heap, it seemed to herself, weak, purposeless,
a soul who had made a failure of life with no power to alter it.
If she might but slip out of the world entirely, it was all turned to ashes.
How small and mean her ambitions all seemed now!
She had given years of drudgery, and this was the result, made her family miserable.
mary was one of those who keep the inner sanctuary of their hearts shut and barred, lest some
foolish tenderness should find expression. It was there, though, and those dreadful words
her dear eldest daughter had spoken were to her like a stab of a knife. Like most nervous
persons, her feelings were intense. Such condemnation, remorse, and utter despair as took hold
of her. It could not be called repentance, for that has, a purpose of heart, and
endeavor after new obedience. She was in the slew of despond. The twilight had deepened into darkness,
when sounds indicated an arrival. Aunt Deborah has come, Florence whispered at the door,
You lie still, Mother, and Meg and I can do everything just as nicely. But Mother hastily
arose and met her visitor as calmly as if she had not spent the last three hours in a tempest.
Aunt Deborah Hathaway was a dear old saint. Her name should have been peace, for that word was written all over her, from the unruffled brow and calm eyes to the soft folds of her dove-colored cashmere.
Tell me all about your life, my dear, she said to Mrs. Murray, when they were seated alone next morning, all the rest of the family in church.
My life has turned out to be a failure, said Mrs. Murray sadly.
and what is strange I have only just now found it out.
Then drawn on by the loving sympathy expressed,
she unburdened her heart to Aunt Deborah, keeping back nothing.
But then what am I telling all this to you for?
Nobody can help me.
I have at times realized that I was growing very irritable
and was ashamed of it.
Then I would resolve that I would not do so anymore,
but my resolves are like ropes of sand.
I get started and can't stop. I think if human beings were like sewing machines, and when they get out of order, could have some skillful hand just put a drop of oil here and there, and loosen the tension or something, it would be so good. But things do annoy me so, sometimes it seems as if Satan himself planned things out to vex me.
I make no doubt, said Aunt Deborah, but that Satan is busy enough, but sometimes I think he gets more set down to his account than rightfully belongs.
He couldn't accomplish half he does with us if we didn't help him.
We put ourselves in such a condition that it is easy for him to carry us captive.
But you said, nobody could help you.
Now I believe I can help you.
I came very near being shipwrecked once myself on these very rocks you have struck.
It will never do to give up and go to groaning when we get into trouble.
What you want is to get out of it.
To help you in the best way, you must give me an old woman's privilege
and let me speak my mind freely.
I think I know the secret of the trouble.
Your nerves are sick.
People used to think that meant hysterics, but they know better now.
You are overworking these sick nerves.
The first thing to be done is for you to get relief from everything that tries you as far as you can.
Treat yourself like an invalid as you are.
Then change your way of life entirely.
Go out a good deal in the air, read and talk and sing, and play on the piano.
You used to be a good player, I remember.
Let the housework and the sewing be done by somebody else,
except what you can do without a strain upon yourself.
Then I should be a little careful about my dress
to have it be coming in all that,
and I would invite in a little company once in a while
and go out in a sociable way a little,
and try to make my home just the brightest, cheeryest place in all the world.
Economy is good in its place,
but I believe Satan is even at the bottom of that sometimes
when we drive our boys and girls out from home
by saving coal and gas and shutting the sun out of our houses.
They like brightness as well as the birds do.
You see, you can't tell me anything new on this.
I made all these mistakes myself once.
But Aunt Deborah, said Mrs. Murray,
I am surprised.
I thought you used to be such a strict Christian.
Used to be such a strict Pharisee, you mean?
Aunt Deborah answered.
Used to imagine religion consisted in wearing the
ugliest garment I could put on, combing my hair straight back in a hard knot, being a keeper at home,
and making things generally uncomfortable for everybody. Now I think a Christian is one who loves and
obeys his Lord. I know I love him, and I am trying to obey him, but I believe if there is one
place on the earth he loves next to the gates of Zion, it is a happy home, and that he smiles upon us in all
our innocent efforts to make it so. You were surprised that I did not say right off, pray over your
troubles, weren't you? No, no, I believe we have got to take everything out of our way that hinders
us before we come and ask him to do some great thing for us. You must lay aside the weight and
the temptations to the sin that doth so easily beset us, then he will do his part. It isn't his way
to do for us what we can do. Now if you load yourself down with burdens that he did not ask you to
carry, I don't believe you will have the same grace given you to overcome that a poverty-stricken
mother of a large family has given to her. Grace is bestowed according to our need.
Yes, said Mrs. Murray, it is all true. But suppose I do all these things that you suggest.
I can't expect to be entirely free from all provocations to anger while I live in this world.
What is there in all this that will help me to control my temper?
I declare to you, Aunt Deborah, I cannot do it.
I have no hope that I can ever be different.
I know myself too well.
Praise the Lord that you know that, said the old lady.
He says, in me is thy help found.
Not a soul of us comes to him for help
till we have made this discovery.
I cannot do it.
When your watch is out of order,
you do not expect it to write itself.
You take it to the watchmaker.
Now lay your heart down before Jesus
and say,
Lord, won't you fix it for me?
As you trust the watchmaker, trust him.
I want to be made over new,
said Mrs. Murray sadly.
But, oh, have I faith enough
for such a great work. I am too unworthy, too far away from him to expect it. Well, he is worthy.
Don't you know, good old Faber says? Pining souls come nearer Jesus. Come, but come not doubting thus.
Come with faith that trusts more freely his great tenderness for us. And Mrs. Murray came.
The promise, askin it shall be given you, was verified to her. When the son of that Sabbath,
set, the dove of peace sang in the tired woman's heart. She had the secret of victory. Her
brow was almost as placid as Aunt Deborah's. Monday morning brought the usual work in bustle.
Mary, said Aunt Deborah, Satan is twice as active Monday morning as other days. Perhaps he thinks we
get the start of him on the Sabbath. Forewarned is forearmed. Here is my rule when provoked.
to shut my lips tight and lock them till a pleasant word feels like coming.
Yes, Aunt Deborah, Christ helping me, I shall make an entire revolution in this household.
And she looked bright and courageous as she had not in years.
To begin then, go out of this kitchen and come when you are called, said Aunt Deborah briskly.
There was much work accomplished that day. A valuable servant was soon secured and installed in the kitchen.
Then Mrs. Murray went in and out the stores.
No one in all the busy throng was more enthusiastic than she, as with joyful eagerness she
selected some little gift for each, adding to her purchases a little stock of evergreens and
flowers to brighten up with on the morrow, for this coming Christmas was to be no common one.
Aunt Deborah engaged in the business of tying and festooning evergreens with all the gusto of a girl.
The two made the parlor into a bower of beauty.
When the short winter day drew to its clothes, the hole was pronounced complete, and Mrs. Murray went to her room to dress.
She was strongly tempted to put on the same old gray dress she had worn all winter, and brush her hair straight back as usual.
But self and ease should not be consulted, so she shook out her still handsome locks and arranged them in the style her husband used to admire,
in loose waves about her forehead. Then she donned a neatly fitting black dress with lace cuffs and collar,
fastened with a bright ribbon. When she went down to the parlor, Aunt Deborah looked over and then
under her spectacles. "'Child,' she said as she surveyed her,
"'it does matter how you look.'
"'Father, son, and daughters all came in together to-night.'
"'Girls,' said Ralph, advancing first into the dining-room and giving
a peep into the back parlor.
Is this our house?
Everything is trimmed up, and there sits a lady by the fire.
Reiths festooned the archway between the parlors.
There were vases of flowers and hanging baskets of trailing vines, and a canary in a gilded
cage, a bright fire in the grate, lighting it up cheerily.
Aunt Deborah smiling and knitting on one side, mother on the other.
rushed up to her, showering kisses upon her, while her father looked on with shining eyes.
Who knew our mother was such a pretty woman? Where's her equal in this whole city? said Ralph.
That glad Christmas was the harbinger of many happy years to the Murray's. The back parlor was
that day, by the thankful mother, consecrated to the comfort of the family. Henceforth light,
warmth and beauty reigned in that room. There they gathered evenings under the drop-light about the
round table, with books and work and talk and music. Father, too, suddenly discovered that there was
a lull in business, and that cheerful chimney corners were more attractive than ledgers. Ralph and the
girls brought their young friends there. What was strangest of all, the nervous headaches
almost entirely disappeared. Even the high notes of a song or the jingling of piano keys
failed to bring them back. The crowning climax of the whole was this. There was positively no scolding
in that house. The evil spirit had been exercised, and that mother was given the victory day by day.
Peace was in her heart and on her brow. She was so changed in the eyes of her children that she seemed
almost an object of adoration. Not the last drop in her cup of joy were the many little ways in which they
showed their keen appreciation of the change in her. One night, after all had retired, conscience knocked
at Margaret's door. She tried to sleep, but her visitor persisted. Margaret was face to face with all
her hard, impertinent words and ways toward her mother. Flo, she said, a miracle has come to mother,
or she's getting to be an angel or something.
But Flo was fast asleep.
Then she tossed and turned again.
Then came a tap on Mother's door.
Mrs. Murray came quickly.
Mother, said Margaret, throwing her arms about her
and hiding her face in her mother's neck.
I have been a wicked girl.
Forgive me, dear precious mother.
Blessed words, Margaret was soon sleeping quietly,
but her mother's heart was so full, her joy so great,
that she lay thinking of the gift that he had sent her at that Christmas time.
Peace on earth had been literally fulfilled to her.
End of Chapter 5.
Chapter 6 of Diverse Women by Pansy and Mrs. C. M. Livingston.
This Liberbox recording is in the public domain.
Where he spent Christmas.
Oh, Mother, I will get back to you.
before it snows much, and I shall not mind if a few flakes of snow do light on me.
Please do not object to my going. A walk is just what I'm longing for.
And Edna Winters drew on her gloves, and stepped from the door of her home,
a low-roofed farmhouse on the hill, which in its gray old age seemed a part of the hill itself.
It was not the beauty of the afternoon that tempted Edna out,
for the leaden sky almost met the gray hills, and all work.
the same sober hue, sky, hills, house, and leafless trees. The wind howled fiercely through the
group of pine trees in the yard that seemed but deep shadows on the general grayness, and occasional
flakes of snow were already falling about. Father Winters looked through the front window after
his daughter and shook his head, saying, Mother, there's a great storm brewing if I'm not
mistaken. The child ought not to have gone. Then the mother came and anxiously inspected the
sky, although she only said, Oh well, she is young and don't mind the weather like us old folks.
I was twenty years old myself once, and I remember just how tired I used to get cooped up in the
house so much. Besides, she wanted to go to the post office. Tomorrow is Christmas, you know,
and the office will not be open but an hour or two.
Mr. Winters was growing old, and the rheumatism was keeping him a prisoner just now,
so he came back to the fire and his newspaper.
The little city wherein was the post-office lay a little over two miles away,
and Edna often walked in and out for the mere pleasure of it.
Even on this dismal day she tripped lightly along,
humming a glad measure, stopping a moment in the edge of the pine woods
to gather a few squabberries and a bit of moss,
then, casting a glance at the threatening sky, hurried on her way.
Before she reached the town, the snow was falling thick and fast,
and was blown by the wind into little mounds almost as soon as it came down.
She was fairly blown inside the door of the post-office, feathery flakes adorning her from head to foot.
Mr. Hugh Monteth had also come to the post-office.
He had merely stepped across the street from his banking house,
and stood waiting for the afternoon mail to be distributed.
He turned his head carelessly as the door opened to admit Edna.
She took off the veil that enveloped her head, shook and brushed herself,
and walked over to the stove.
Then Mr. Montete's inner consciousness told him
that there was the very face he had been in search of for years.
Then he did what was not found in his coat of etiquette.
He stared, although he did retreat behind a pillar while doing so.
He took in the whole picture, the face of that pure, clear tint that belongs only to a certain
type of brown eyes and hair, the hair gathered into a coil at the back of the head, except one or two
loose curls that strayed down from it, the eyes sweet and serious. Mr. Monteth dealt many hours
of the day with dollars and cents, notes and bills. Still, he knew poetry when he saw it,
and that golden-brown curl was to him a bit of a poem.
Then her dress was peculiar, his fastidious taste pronounced it perfect for the occasion,
walking dress of soft, dark brown, glinted by a lighter shade of the same color,
a jaunty brown jacket of substantial cloth, a little brown hat,
with a brown-and-white wing perked on one side of it.
No color except a soft pink that the cold air had laid on the cheeks with delicate skill.
His quick eye noted, too, the neat glove, the well-fitting little boot poised on the hearth of the stove.
She looked like a little brown thrush about to spread its wings, but she did not fly,
she walked over to the delivery and received a package of letters and papers,
asking in low, clear tones, is the eastern male in?
The voice was in keeping with eyes and hair and dress, pure, refined, cultured.
mr montith's resolution was quickly made he secured his mail and followed edna who could she be he supposed he knew all the young ladies in town but where did this revelation of loveliness drop from
he turned corner after corner as she did not caring where he went only so that he kept her in view to his astonishment he soon found himself in the open country it was not a day that he would have chosen for a pleasure walk in the country
the snow eddied and whirled and almost blinded him but if he lost his face his ideal realized should he ever find it again there was no choice so on he strode congratulating himself that he happened to have on an overcoat and heavy boots
the little brown-clad figure ahead of him sped briskly on and faster and faster came the snow things were beginning to look serious the wind roared and howled through the
pine woods, blowing the snow into drifts in the road. Mr. Monteth had a new motive for his journey now.
He must protect this young girl in her lonely way. It was out of the question to leave her in
such a desolate place and a storm raging. He quickened his steps. She might need assistance.
A feeling of despair was beginning to creep over Edna. What if she should sink down in this
lonely place unable to go on. She had left the main road a few minutes before, and this one by the
pine woods was not much traveled. It was probable that nobody would find her. In dismay she
turned and looked behind her, but no sooner did she see a man rapidly coming towards her,
than a mortal fear took possession of her, and she started forward with new impetus. On and on
she ran as fleetly as a deer. Mr. Monteth ran,
too, at the top of his speed, wondering Inley, if she really were of the earth, and if she had not
some means of locomotion that he did not possess. He must reach her at all events.
Edna at last paused in dismay before an immense drift that lay directly across the road.
She would have plunged in, but Mr. Monteth was at her side and said pleasantly,
If you will allow me to go on first, I think I can tread a path for you."
Edna looked up quickly, somewhat reassured by the manly tones, and the gray eyes that looked
into hers were true eyes.
A little child might have known that.
Before we go on, let me introduce myself, and Mr. Monteth drew out a card and handed it
to Edna.
When Edna read, Hugh Monteth and company, Bankers, all her fear left her.
The name of Montief had long been a familiar one to her.
She remembered hearing her father speak of having a little business with that bank.
Well, I am Edna Winters, said Edna simply.
My father is Samuel Winters, and we live a little more than half a mile from here.
Then we are acquainted, I am sure, for your father is one of our depositors.
Now let me break a road through this barricade, if possible.
and Mr. Montief dashed bravely into it, but as well as he could see through the blinding storm,
the drift reached a long distance ahead. It would be a work of time to tread it down, and the cold wind
cut like a knife. There was a shorter way. This was no time for ceremony or trifling. He came back
to Edna's side, saying, It will be almost impossible to do it. We must hasten on or perish in this storm.
trust me this is best. And the tall form stooped and lifted Edna from her feet as if she had been a feather,
before she had time to realize his purpose. Then, with long strides, he waited into the sea of snow.
Neither spoke, but the girl that was born along in the strong arms did a large amount of thinking.
Despite the danger and the gallantry of her protector, she could not but feel a little provoked at having been
snatched up in that style without her leave, as if she were a bale of cotton, provoked, too,
at herself for getting into such a predicament. If she had only stayed at home as mother advised,
mother had always told her she had feared something would happen to her going through those
woods by herself, and here it had come. Then the funny side presented itself. She wanted to laugh,
but was afraid to. She stole a glance at the face below her, a finely cut face it was, but there was
no smile in the grave eyes, instead an intense, earnest purpose. When they came again to the
ground where the snow lay on a level, Edna was put again on her feet, her hand drawn through Mr. Monteth's
arm, and the two plodded on. It was almost a silent journey, the snow coming directly in their
faces, and the wind fairly taking their breaths, made it no time for formal talk.
Wherever the drifts had thrown up a barrier, she was again lifted and borne through them,
but not set down again, for Edna's protector had discovered that she was almost overcome by
fatigue, try as she might to hide it. And when she said,
Let me walk now, if you please, he answered, Miss Winters, you are my prisoner
until I place you at your father's door.
She submitted with good grace
and began to feel some donnings of gratitude
towards her deliverer.
Old Mr. Winters had walked back and forth
from the fire to the window for the last half hour.
Why don't the child come, he said.
I'm sure something has happened to her,
if I could only go out and see,
but I should make poor headway hobbling about in the drifts.
He could do nothing himself,
so he fled to his unfailing refuge, asking the God who rules the storms to protect his darling.
Mrs. Winters had said for the tenth time,
Why, father, I think she wouldn't start back in this storm. Nevertheless, she placed her rocking
chair close by the window and looked down the road far more than she sowed. Their anxiety
reached its height when they saw a stranger toiling up the hill, bearing their daughter in his arms.
The door was opened long before they reached it, and Edna called out,
"'I'm all right, mother.'
"'Why, it's Mr. Monteth as sure as I live,' said Edna's father.
"'Yes, Mr. Winters,' said Mr. Monteth.
"'I found a stray lamb of yours on the highway and brought it home.'
"'May God reward you,' and Mr. Winters clasped his hand warmly.
"'I have been very anxious.
"'I did not see what was to become of her if she was on her
in this terrible storm. How providential that you happened to be going her way.
Mr. Monteth winced a little at this. You will stay with us tonight, of course, Mr. Winters said.
Oh, no, indeed, thank you. I must get back before dark. We'll rest a few minutes, though.
The storm king was out in full force that day, for during those few minutes,
huge banks piled themselves against windows and doors, and the wind shrieked in most,
like a demon, shaking the house to its foundations.
Now, said Mr. Winters, as his guest rose to go,
it is madness for you to think of going home tonight,
and I must insist that you stay.
I am disabled just now, or I would harness old prince and get you through.
Here Edna came in with her pleading eyes and said,
Do stay, I know it is not safe for you to go.
Motherly Mrs. Winters entreated also,
How could he resist such urgency, especially when it exactly fitted in with what he desired above all things to do?
He yielded, and was soon comfortably established in the large old rocker by the fire,
and now he enjoyed the pleasure of a new experience.
The stereotyped fashionable house he knew all about,
but this old house that looked small and yet stretched itself out into many cozy rooms,
it was quaint, it was unique, and so was the little.
little household. It was like stepping into a book, and that a book of poems. What was the charm of
that low-browed room he sat in? Could it be the broad fireplace, wherein blazed and
snapped a veritable backlog? Mr. Winters had stoves to warm the house, but he insisted on keeping
this fire to look at. When they all gathered about the tea-table, his critical eye noted
many little points that a less refined man would not have thought of.
the fine white table linen delicate old-fashioned china a piece or two of highly polished silver and the table not vulgarly loaded with too great variety yet everything delicious and abundant
mr and mrs winters too though unpretending were persons of refinement and intelligence he was puzzled to understand how a young girl reared in so much seclusion should possess such grace in culture as did edna after teaching
after tea when she played and sang his mystification increased for the bird-like voice and delicate touch were superior to much that he heard among his city friends
it came out in the course of conversation however that edna had spent the last six years in one of the finest schools in boston an inmate of her aunt's family and now she had come back to them to gladden the eyes of those two who almost set her up as an idol
come back not spoiled taking up her daily little homely duties again with real zest mr monteth found mr winter's most congenial company he had read extensively and was keen in argument throwing in a bit of poetry or a witty story as the case required
edna brought her crocheting and made herself into a picture in one corner of the fireplace her changing speaking face and piquant remarks lending interest to the dull
subject. It is my opinion, Mr. Monteth, said Mr. Winters, as a fierce blast dashed sheets of
snow against the windows, that in all probability you will be obliged to spend your Christmas with us.
If this storm continues at this rate, you will be a prisoner. For which I shall be most devoutly
thankful, he answered. Well, our turkey is all ready, and we shall thank kind Providence for
sending you to us, snow-bound as we are. Mr. Winters took down the old Bible and read a portion
with judicious care, then a hymn and prayer, and the good nights, and Mr. Monteth was in the
guest chamber, a little white room under the eaves, cold-looking in its purity, but for the fire-like
glow. The name of that chamber was peace, thought Mr. Monteth, as his delighted eyes surveyed it,
and with Bunyan's pilgrim he felt that he had reached already the next door to heaven.
It surely must be the chamber of peace, because the window opened towards the sun rising,
and in the morning a glorious panorama spread itself before him. Fences and all unsightly
objects had disappeared. Just one broad expanse of whiteness as far as the eye could reach.
The rough old hills, from foot to summit, were a robe of unsullied whiteness.
The soft white garment rested lightly on roof and tree.
Overall, the rising sun shed rays of rosy light.
It accorded well with Mr. Monteith's spirit
when he heard Mr. Winter's singing,
The new Jerusalem comes down, adorned with shining grace.
The host and his visitor launched into a tide of talk immediately after breakfast.
They had so many things in common to talk over that there seemed to be no end.
So occupied was Mr. Montief with the father that he seemed to bestow very little attention on the daughter.
On the contrary, no word or look of hers escaped him.
At one time the perilous walk of yesterday was the subject of conversation,
and Mr. Winters was again expressing his gratitude.
So strange, he remarked, that you should have been coming this way.
How did you happen to start out in such a storm?
Mr. Montief did not like to talk upon that subject.
He murmured something about business, while a slight flush tinged his cheeks, and at once
asked Mr. Winters what effect he supposed the resumption of specie payment would have upon
the state of the country, and the unsuspecting old gentleman was ready to enter with avidity
upon the discussion of that subject.
The Christmas dinner duly disposed of, Edna played the piano, and Mr. Monteth delighted the
old people by joining his exquisite tenor to Edna's voice in some old hymns. Mr. Winters called for
his favorites, St. Martin's Golden Hill, exhortation, and listened with tears in his eyes at their
faithful rendering, even a saying to put in a few notes of bass himself among the quavers of old
St. Martins. Not until the shadows began to steal into the room did Mr. Monteth take his departure,
much to his own regret as well as that of his entertainers, with many promises of future visits.
A few days after Christmas, the stage driver left at the door a small box marked Samuel Winters.
The old gentleman put on his glasses and opened it with much curiosity.
Behold, there lay a lovely bouquet of roses, carnations, and violets.
He lifted it with care, and a card marked Hugh Monteith fell from it.
that is odd he said with a roguish look at edna to send these things to me they are pretty though i declare and he buried his face in a fragrant rose then involuntarily hummed how sweet the breath beneath the hill of sharon's dewy rose
another prolonged inhalation and he called mother come here and smell this pink it's the very one that my mother used to border her flower-beds with when i was a boy then he gave the bowing
into Edna's care while he went off, in imagination, into his mother's garden, tied up the sweet
peas and trained the morning glories once again. How each flower, like a dear human face,
stood before him looking into his eyes. The damask roses, the Johnny Jump-Ups, Larkspur,
bachelor buttons, ragged ladies, marigolds, hollyhocks, and a host of others that are out of fashion
now. That bouquet furnished him a pleasant reverie for an hour. It brought no less pleasure to Edna.
Their new friend had not forgotten them, and her intuitions told her for whom the lovely blossoms were
intended. After that, it grew to be quite a thing, of course, for Mr. Samuel Winters to receive a box
of flowers. He always pretended to appropriate them to himself, much to Edna's glee, as he did the not-in-frequent
visits of Mr. Monteth to the Pines, often remarking, after a pleasant evening's discussion,
that is an uncommon young man coming so far to chat with me. He's one among a thousand,
the most of them haven't time nowadays to give a civil word to an old man. He had a deeper
purpose in this than might have been supposed. There were few things he did not think over
as he sat looking into the fire. What if this young man should,
unwittingly steal away his darling's heart, and then flit away to some other flower, and leave
this, his own treasure, with all the soul gone out of her life. He believed Mr. Monteth to be an
honorable man, but then he would hedge this blossom of his about and guard it carefully.
There should be no opportunity for tender speech that meant nothing.
One day Edna was in town, passing through one of the busy streets. Among the gay turnouts,
came one that caught her attention instantly, a prancing span of grays before a great sleigh.
Among the furs and gay robes sat Mr. Monteth and a young lady, beautiful to Edna as a dream.
Even in the hurried glance, she noted the pink and white complexion, the blue eyes peeping through
golden frizzes, set off by a dark blue velvet hat with a long white plume.
Mr. Monteth raised his hat and bowed low to Edna in pleased surprise.
Edna went on with a little pang at her heart.
It might have been less had she known that Miss Paulina Percival's invitation to ride came in this fashion.
Making it convenient to emerge from a store, just as Mr. Monteith came from the bank
and was about to step into his sleigh, she engaged him in conversation, then exclaimed,
Oh, Mr. Monteth, what a lovely span of grays! They match perfectly!
Then with a pretty pout, naughty man, you never asked me to.
to try them. Suppose I ask you now, he said, and even while he spoke, he said to himself,
Edna Winters would never have done that. Miss Percival needed no urging. She was soon seated in
triumph by Mr. Monteth's side, the envy of many another city bell. That night, Edna stood at the window
of her little chamber, looking out on the fair earth glittering like diamonds in the moonlight.
She was not often in the mood she found herself in tonight, restless, gloomy, with no heart for anything.
She began to take herself to task for it.
Why had the light suddenly gone out of everything and life to seem flat and dull?
She knew why.
It was simply because she had seen that bewitching-looking girl riding with Mr. Monteth.
And what of that?
Was she foolish enough to believe that he cared for her, a simple country girl?
just because he had given her a few flowers and called there. He probably considered these
common attentions that he offered to many others. Her cheeks burned at the remembrance of the
delight she had felt in his society. The last few weeks had been the happiest she had ever known.
No words of his would justify her either. She was vexed at herself. Here it had turned out
that she was just like any other silly girl holding her heart in her hand,
ready to bestow it unasked. In her self-accusing spirit, she forgot that looks and tones may
speak volumes in the absence of words. Now Edna Winters, she told herself, as she stared out on the
White Hills, you might as well look things in the face tonight and have it done with. I shall
probably spend a great part of my life on this very hill, living on just the way I did before I knew him.
Why not? That is the way Samantha Moore and Jane Williams have been doing these ever so many years.
They just keep right on and on and on. Nothing happens to them. There is no change in their lives.
Why should there be in mine? They clean house, spring and fall, can fruit, go to town, have the
sewing society and so on. And Edna shuddered a little at the picture she had sketched of her own future.
These were two neighbors whose peaceful dwellings nestled among the hills before her.
Then she felt condemned as she heard floating up from the sitting room,
the wild warbling strains of Dundee, her dear father's old voice,
with just a little tremble in the tones.
How thankful she ought to be for this blessed home of hers!
The stovepipe came up from below and warmed her room.
She came over to it and inclined her head to hear the words,
O God, our help in ages past, our strength in years to come, our refuge from the stormy blast, and our eternal home.
Sure enough, God are strength in years to come, even though they be wearisome years.
A little stormy blast had swept over her.
She would fly to her refuge, and then the eternal home.
What if this life was not just as we would have it, the next one will be?
and Edna laid her down in peace and slept.
"'Hi-ho!' said Mr. Winters one bright day.
"'Whom have we here?'
A merry jingle of bells suddenly stopped,
and two grey horses and a handsome sleigh stood in front of the gate.
"'Mr. Montithee, he has most likely come to take me out riding,' he said with a twinkle in his eye.
"'Miss Edna, will you ride?' Mr. Monteth asked, when the greetings were over.
over. Edna's eyes sought her mother's for reply. It was not every gentleman, be he ever so
great and rich, that this primitive, independent father and mother would entrust with their treasure,
their one you lamb. Yes, Edna might go, but would he be sure to bring her home before dark?
Trust me, did I not bring her home before dark once? He laughingly asked. The two were
soon tucked among the robes, skimming briskly over the smooth, hard sur.
which is just the next thing to flying. They flew about the streets of the town a little while,
met Miss Paulina, who stared at Edna and said to a young lady by her side,
Whoever can that be with Mr. Monteth? Then their route stretched many miles out into the quiet country.
The journey was long, but not tedious. It was beguiled by low-spoken words that kept time
to the slow, silvery chime of the bells. The old musical, mysterious,
words that established a covenant between those two, needing only the word from father and mother
and minister to make binding and never-ending. Mr. Monteth was said, by Bells of the Town, to be
destitute of a heart. At least all their arts had not succeeded in finding it. Even Miss
Percival, skillful as she was, had also failed much to her sorrow. To be sure, the heart was
of small account to her, only so that she might be mistress of the stately Monteth mansion,
might possess those grey ponies for her very own, and glitter in the silks and jewels and laces
that his money would buy. She had no heart herself, because in her very shallow nature
there was not room for one. Paulina had failed thus far, but she was not discouraged.
Mr. Monteth's mother was old and feeble. She would die some day, then of course,
he would need someone to preside over his home, and who so well fitted to adorn it as she,
the acknowledged beauty of the town. When the time of birds and blossoms had come again,
and picnics and excursions were revived, Paulina said to her dearest friend,
What do you think that delightful man has gotten up now? Mr. Monteth, I mean. He is to have a
little breakfast party in the country, just a few of us, you know. We are to go in carriages. I dare
say you'll be invited too. Isn't it a charming novelty? I presume it is to an old uncle and aunt of his,
you know. And the butterfly girl tripped on without waiting for replies. Accordingly, one balmy June
morning, a merry company alighted at the pines and were ushered into a fairy-like room. Green vines
crept entwined along the white walls, drooping over doors and windows, and trailing down the
muslin curtains as if they grew there. The flowers were not made into stiff bouquets,
but here and there was a handful of roses or sweet-scented violets. The old fireplace lost itself
in callas, ferns, and ivies, while the mantle blossomed out into tube roses and mosses.
One of the recesses formed by the large chimney was turned into a leafy bower, the bells of
white lilies fringing the green archway. Beautiful, exquisite.
it, murmured the guests. I verily believe we have come to a wedding, said one. In another moment,
Mr. Monteth and his bride stood in the niche under the lilies, and the minister spoke the mystic
words that declared them, no more twain but one. Edna was not glittering in satin and jewels.
Her dress was apparently a soft white cloud floating about her, looped here and there with a
cluster of lilies of the valley. A wreath of the same flowers fastened her veil, and the sweet
face and luminous eyes that gleamed through its folds seemed just another rare flower.
The formalities and congratulations all over, Mr. and Mrs. Monteth passed down the walk under the
spreading branches to their carriage. The apple blossoms showered fragrant blessings on them
as they went their way, and the bridegroom whispered,
Do you remember the first time you and I came up this hill together?
End of Chapter 6
Chapter 7 of Divers Women by Pansy and Mrs. C. M. Livingston.
This Libervox recording is in the public domain.
Chapter 7. Vida, Part 1
There was an audible Russell in the large congregation of St. Paul's Church,
well-bred people, though they were,
as their young minister came up the aisle with his
bride and seated her in the minister's pew. They not only turned their heads, giving one slight
glance, seeing all without seeming to, as cultured people know how to do, but they broke all
rules in their coat of good manners by a succession of twistings of the neck. It was not easy to settle
down content after one short look at the beautiful being who glided by the minister's side. Had
he seated a veritable fairy in that pew, the sensation could scare
have been greater. Her beauty was of that rare blonde type, hair of spung gold, eyes of sapphire,
and complexion fine and delicate as a rose-leaf. She was youthful and richly dressed, the dark
green velvet suit, white plumes, and fine laces, while setting off her marvellous beauty. Her
eyes fairly drooped before the undisguised admiration expressed in many faces. The minister himself
saw nothing of it at all. He was annoyed at finding himself actually late, and his thoughts were intent on
getting to his place in the pulpit with all possible speed. It was not one of his ambitions to be
conspicuous. He was accustomed to slip quietly into his place from the chapel door, and his
apparently triumphal march into his church on the first Sabbath of his return, after all the people
had assembled, as if to say, behold us now.
was not to his taste, nor of his planning. All this threw his thoughts into a tumult,
unfitting him in part for his sacred duties. At the close of service that day, the congregation
did not discuss the minister's sermon. They were absorbed in another subject, the minister's
wife. The opinions were various. Grave old deacons looked askance at her in her regal beauty
as they passed out, shook their hands, and repeated to each other the familiar
saying that wise men often make fools of themselves when they come to the business of selecting a wife.
One lady said that she was perfectly lovely, another that she had a great deal of style,
another that her dress must have cost a penny, and she did not see for her part how a Christian
could find it in her conscience to dress like that.
One would have thought, Mrs. Graves said, that a man like Mr. Eldred would have chosen a modest
sensible person for his wife, who would be useful in the church. But then that was the way. A minister was just like any other man. Money in a pretty face would cover up a good many failings. Mrs. Graves was the mother of three sensible, modest girls, who would have made capital ministers' wives. Why will ministers be so short-sighted?
But mother, Tom Graves asked, aren't you pretty fast? How do you know but she is?
sensible and modest you never heard her speak a word anybody with half an eye don't need to hear
her speak to know all about her the idea of a minister's wife said mrs meggs with her
hair frizzed and such a long trail for church she paints I know she does said
sallow miss pry there never was such a complexion as that borne unto a human being
Those who did not say anything, who made it a rule never to speak uncharitably of anyone,
seemed well satisfied to have others to do it for them,
and looked inside their holy horror that their minister should have shown so little discretion in choosing a wife.
Just to think of her leading the female prayer meeting and being president of the missionary society, Humph!
Ah, if there had been one dear mother in Israel with love enough enough,
to bear this young thing in the arms of her faith to the mercy seat and plead a blessing for her.
With courage enough to try to win her to see the blessedness of living a consecrated life,
it might all have been different.
When Thane Eldred first met Vita Irving, he was immediately taken captive.
So Farah Vision never crossed his path before.
Whatever of enchantment might have been wanting in golden curls and blue eyes
was completed by a voice such as few possess, rich, sweet, and fine compass. Had she been poor,
it might have brought her a fortune. When he heard her sing in such angelic strains the sweet hymns
he loved, he took it for granted that the words of fervent devotion but gave voice to the
feelings of her own heart. So fair a bit of clay he reasoned must contain a soul of
corresponding beauty, and he forthwith invested her with all the charms of an angel.
A slight misgiving, it is true, sometimes crossed his mind as to whether she could adapt
herself easily to the difficult position of a pastor's wife. She had the heir of an empress,
and the hauteur of her manner was often so great as to gain her positive enemies,
and yet the deluded man, with blind eyes, reasoned, I can mold her into what I will when she is
mine. It is the fault of a false education. I am quite sure her heart is all right. And why did the
spoiled beauty condescent a smile upon one who by his very profession, if closely following in the
footsteps of the lowly master, must needs abjure the vanities and enticements of this world,
and live a life of self-denying toil? Not a thought of that kind had ever entered her pretty
had. A minister in her estimation was an orator, the idol of a wealthy people, and a gentleman of
elegant ease. There was a fascination about this dark-eyed young minister. His graceful dignity
and impassioned eloquence pleased her fancy, so the sudden attachment was mutual.
Early left a widow, with a large fortune, Mrs. Irving devoted herself to her idol,
her only child, with unremitting devotion.
nothing that would add to her happiness or her attractions was neglected and now with her education completed the fond mother looked about her seeking a brilliant alliance for this rare daughter when lo she found the matter settled
Vita's own sweet will had been the ruling power ever since she came into the world, and the mother was obliged to submit to the inevitable with as good grace as she could command under the circumstances.
A poor minister! Who could have dreamed that the daughter would have made such a choice? With this mother's views of life and life eternal, it is not to be wondered at that she felt bitter disappointment. The prospect, though, was not wholly dark. He was not wholly dark. He was not,
handsome and talented, and that went far toward consolation. Then, too, he would probably be
called in time to a large, important church, and have D.D. at the end of his name, and it would
sound well to say, my son-in-law, Reverend Dr. Eldred, of Boston or New York City, and to
discourse of his brilliant preaching, his wealthy parishioners, the calls he had declined, etc.
St. Paul's Church was situated in a small city of large manufacturing interests, and while there were many families of wealth and position in the church, there were also many who were obliged to toil hard and practice the utmost economy in order to have any left to pay their subscription with.
Some of these looked with no kindly eyes on the magnificent changes of toilet that Mrs. Eldred brought about Sabbath after Sabbath.
now a sealskin sack, then an Indian shawl, and suits innumerable of rich silks in all possible tints,
suited to all possible occasions.
It makes a body feel as if they hadn't a fit thing to wear, the way Mrs. Eldred comes out in her silks in velvets.
Mrs. Jenks, a mechanic's wife, remarked to her neighbor,
I wonder what she'd say to wearing a black alpaca dress seven years running for her best dress,
I declared it made me feel as if there wasn't any sort of use,
skrimping and saving as we do, to pay $15 a year to support the minister.
I told John we better not pay but five next year,
and I'd put the other ten on my back.
He's got a rich wife, he don't need much salary now.
Just to think of her fur sack and great handsome shawl,
and here I haven't had a new cloak this ten years,
have to wear my blanket shawl to church.
Yes, I'd think as much, answered Mrs. Myers emphatically.
She's as proud as Lucifer, too.
Mr. Eldred shook hands with me real friendly like last Sunday,
and asked, How's the little one, as he always calls my Tommy?
Then he introduced me to her, and she turned her head toward me,
and looked at me from head to foot,
exactly as if she was saying to herself,
dress 25 cents a yard, shawl five dollars, hat two dollars. Then she gave me what she'd call a bow, maybe. She swept her eyelashes down and tilted her head back instead of forward, and I thought I saw the least might of a curl on her lip. She's got a dreadful proud mouth anyway. She didn't offer to put out her hand, not she. She was afraid I'd soil her white kids with something less than a dozen buttons on them.
"'Well, it's too bad,' Mrs. Jenks said.
"'And he's such a good Christian man as he is.
"'Wonder what he wanted to go and marry such a wife for, anyhow.
"'I don't believe he more than half approves of her himself,
"'now he sees how she goes on.
"'But poor man, he's got to make the best of it now.
"'I shall always think everything of him, though.
"'He was so kind to us when Peter was sick.'
"'Mrs. Eldred was not entirely ignorant of the duties
expected from a minister's wife, but she had resolved as far as she was concerned to ignore them.
Because she had married a minister was no sign that she was to be subject to the whims of a
whole parish. She could consider herself bound by no rules that did not apply equally as well
to every other member of the church. Her mother had forewarned her and advised her to this
course. A minister's wife, my dear, said the worldly wise mother, is you,
usually a slave. So just put your foot down in the beginning and don't wear yourself out.
Enjoy yourself all you can. Poor child, it is a dismal life at best that you have chosen for
yourself, I fear. Mrs. Eldred did not state her peculiar views to her husband by any means.
She should just quietly carry out her plans, and he would learn to submit in time.
Mother said that was the way to manage a husband.
It was Thursday night. The first bell for prayer meeting was ringing when Mr. Eldred came down
from his study. His young wife sat under the drop-light, cozily established in a large easy-chair,
absorbed in the last number of Scribner. She was robed in a white flannel wrapper,
and her long, fair hair was unbound, lying in bright waves about her shoulders.
Mr. Eldred contemplated the pretty picture a moment, then he said,
You look comfortable, my dear, but do you know that is the first bell for prayer meeting?
Oh, I'm not going to meeting. I am perfectly delighted to have an evening to myself once more
when that indefatigable people of yours are engaged. I am actually worn out receiving calls,
she said languidly. Mr. Eldred was disappointed. He had thought more than once that day
how he should enjoy it, to have his dream realized, Vita walking with him,
to his own meeting, and sitting near, singing as none but she could sing. A spice of vanity
mingled with it, too. How the people would listen and admire! He felt annoyed and was about
to protest, but she looked so like an angel in her soft white dress that he had not the heart
to find fault. So he kissed her goodbye and went his way alone. She accompanied him the next
week, to be a disappointment, however. Her voice joined not in the hymns of praise, she remarking at the
close of the meeting, "'Do you think I could sing in all that discord? It is horrible. It sets every
nerve in my body on edge. People always sing that way in prayer meeting, everyone trying to sing,
though not knowing one note from another. One old man by me sang five notes below the key. A woman on the other
side screamed out as many above. A girl before me had a strong nasal twang. I should think you'd go
distracted. And by the way, what a quantity of common people attend your church!'
Mr. Eldred looked into the fire and repeated half aloud. The common people heard him gladly.
As the weeks went on, it became evident to him that he must abandon the pleasant plans he had formed
of companionship in his work.
He attended meetings alone, made calls alone,
and grew weary of apologizing for Vita.
She was willing to attire herself royally
and make a round of fashionable calls with him
on the first families,
but concerning calls on the humbler of the flock
she gaily remarked that she did not propose
turning city missionary.
When ladies called upon her,
she would return their calls,
that is, if she wished to continue the acquaintance,
but as for running all about town, hunting out obscure people, that was out of the question.
There was a gay click in the church who eagerly welcomed the pastor's wife to their circle.
They organized a literary society and gave Shakespearean entertainments.
Mrs. Eldred's fine literary taste and musical abilities made her a valuable acquisition.
She soon became the center about which it revolved.
Was there a difficult part to be rendered or a queen,
of beauty to be represented, Mrs. Eldred was sure to be chosen, and she gave herself with enthusiasm
to the absorbing fascination. Mr. Eldred had united with them at the beginning, but when he
discovered that the members of the society were much more interested in getting up costumes
than they were in their own mental improvement, and that the whole thing was degenerating into
private theatricals, he withdrew and urged his wife to do the same, but no one
amount of persuasion could move her in the least. Her own will had been her law too long.
And this was the being he had thought to mold. It was all so different from the picture he had
sketched of these first months of their married life, the picture of sunny, happy days
flowing on with scarce a ripple. Instead, they held long-heeded discussions that only
served to widen the distance between them. I beg your pardon, Ville.
said in sarcastic tones during one of these skirmishes.
But I think it would be much more to your prophet to attend the meetings of our society
than to find fault with me.
If you would study Shakespeare more, it might freshen up your sermons somewhat, and lift
them from the commonplace.
I cannot but think you are degenerating.
The first discourse I heard you preach was filled with poetical fancies and literary allusions,
and the language was flowery and beautiful.
Your preaching seems to have changed of late. Last Sabbath, for example, it was mere talk
without rhetoric or eloquence. The most ignorant in the church could have understood them.
I thought you would receive a call soon to a wealthy church in a large city, but you never will
make a reputation if you preach in this style. Mrs. Eldred's angry passions were raised
to a high pitch, or she would not have spoken thus plainly.
The sorely tried spirit of the man who listened could not repress a groan at the conclusion of this long tirade.
He did not trust himself to say one word, but went with a slow, heavy step, like one who had received a mortal hurt, to his study.
The irritation he might otherwise have felt at such words was lost in sorrow at the utter lack of sympathy and apparent ignorance of the spirit and aims of the gospel.
He had been coming nearer to Christ the last few months, had received a new baptism, and with it a new view of preaching the gospel.
He had doubtless spoken in an unknown tongue to scores of his hearers.
Now he turned the key on his elegant essays, and, asking the Lord for a message, he was trying to tell it with no great swelling words,
but in humility and plainness of speech, holding up Christ, hiding himself, intent only on saving souls.
Satan had told him before that the world in some Christians would count his preaching, not deep.
Now his own wife had repeated the thought.
He had been so happy in his work, and he longed to throw himself into it with nothing to come between him and,
this one thing I do. But daily trials on account of one who should have been his greatest helper
saddened him so that much of his labor was mechanical, and he carried a heavy burden. The anxiety was
continuous, for he was well aware that many busy tongues were censuring her, while kindlier critics
were grieved at her course. At rare intervals she attended the ladies' meetings, but no persuasions
could induce her to take any part in them. She visited those whom she fancied and persistently refused
to visit others. Thus he labored under constant embarrassment and was in a chronic state of apology
for her. And yet Mrs. Eldred could make herself the most fascinating of beings. There were evenings
when she chose to shine at home. Then she would, with artistic skill, brighten the room
and beguile her husband from his books and the time would go.
on wings as they read and discussed a new book and sung together their old and new songs.
At such times the careworn minister forgot that any clouds obscured his sky.
One evening Mrs. Eldred entered her husband's study, resplendent in white satin and diamonds,
saying,
"'Thane, it is quite time you two were dressed.'
"'Dressed for what?' he said with an astonished air.
Why, is it possible that you have forgotten that we have an invitation to Mrs. Grantley's tonight?
I recall the invitation now, but I never gave it a second thought, nor did I suppose that you had.
Did you not notice from the wording that it was to be a dancing party?
I think there must be some mistake about it, as I never was invited before our marriage to these parties,
nor have we been since. I cannot understand why they should ask us now.
pray should we not be invited. It is not necessary for you to dance, of course. We shall be obliged to go,
for I have accepted the invitation, Mrs. Eldred replied, with a nothing further to be said,
air. I am sorry you accepted an invitation for me without consulting me, but I cannot go,
her husband answered gravely. Oh, fie, how old and straight-laced you are for a young man. Why,
Dr. Henry often went and looked on, and his daughter danced, and people liked him all the better
for it. You will be immensely unpopular if you pursue that course. Don't you think, she continued,
encouraged by his silence, that it savors a little of bigotry and egotism to set oneself up
to condemn an amusement that many other Christians approve? What is your ground of objection?
one would suppose that you had received a direct revelation on the subject.
I have, he said, and his clear eyes looked full into hers,
directly from the master himself.
Don't you know that a person who is absorbed in Christian work,
a consecrated Christian, is not absorbed in all these amusements,
and one who is has no room in his heart for Christ?
There is a law of natural philosophy, you know,
which says that,
bodies cannot occupy the same space at the same time. And there is a somewhat similar law in
regard to a soul stated by the Lord himself, ye cannot serve two masters. It is the world or
Christ with every soul, and I have chosen Christ. I know this much, she said coldly, that fanatics
are the most intolerable of all people. I have danced all my life, and since I became a church
member, and never had it hinted to me before that I was not a Christian because I loved it.
You need not go. John can take me and call for me, and I will make excuses for you.
My dear wife, would you do that? Surely you did not yourself intend to dance. The most liberal
would be shocked I fancy were a minister's wife to dance. And why? I am not the minister.
I recognize no restraints that do not apply as well to every Christian woman.
You told me yourself that Mrs. Graham is an excellent lady.
She is a member of your church and dances, I am told.
Why should not one professor of religion have the same privileges as another?
Vida, he said in a tone of mingled pain and tenderness.
It is only a short time since we were pronounced no more twain but one.
You said then the thought made you glad.
How can you separate your interests from mine now?
Will you do what would dishonor my calling were I to do it?
The world counts us one, your action is mine,
and just or unjust, they do not accord to you the right to wade quite so far
into the sea of worldly pleasures as they themselves feel privileged to do.
They would point the finger of ridicule at both of us and charge us with inconsistency.
We will not stop to argue the right and wrong of the subject now.
Supposing your conscience does not shut you out from the dance,
let worldly prudence and a desire to keep our names from common gossip influence you,
I pray you, if indeed my wishes and opinion are of no value.
But the young wife was in no frame for recollecting tender vows,
nor listening to reason.
She threw off his arm with an impatient gesture,
and glancing at her watch, said,
I have not only accepted an invitation to this party, but promised to dance.
It is getting late, and I must go.
Mr. Eldred controlled his agitation by a mighty effort, and in a low, calm tone said,
Then I must save you from disgracing us both.
I insist, I command you not to go.
Had he struck her, she would not have been more astonished.
She stood as if stunned for a moment.
Then, with a stately air, she swept by him and ascended the stairs to her room.
What was his consternation, as he stood gazing out into the moonlight,
presently to see her pass down the walk, step into the carriage, and drive away?
Turning from the window, he paced the floor with anguish keen as though she had gone from him
forever.
What obstinacy, what unreasoning willfulness, and what would come of it!
He spent the long night brooding over his great sorrow, the root of which was the fear that his
dear wife did not belong to Christ, for he loved her through all her unloveliness.
Husbands love your wives even as Christ loved the church. His love had something in it of the
divine pity and patience that our blessed Lord feels for his sinning, stumbling, and exasperating
children. Mrs. Eldred was not that type of woman kind who spent their rest,
in tears and reproaches. When she was angry, she was unapproachably so, as frigid as an iceberg.
The crisis had come. Her husband had dared to command. The next morning there was not the turn
of an eyelid that could be construed into penitence. A brawling woman is but little less
endurable than a perfectly silent one. You may almost as well flee to the housetop from one
as the other. What few words were spoken by Mr. Eldred at the breakfast table received no replies.
End of Chapter 7. Chapter 8 of Divers Women by Pansy and Mrs. C. M. Livingston. This
Slibervok's recording is in the public domain. Vita Part 2
In the course of the forenoon, he went to fulfill an engagement a few miles in the country,
where he was detained till late in the day. He sat in his study in the gathering twilight,
longing for but not expecting, a word from his wife of contrition and conciliation.
He was summoned to tea, but no wife appeared. After a little, he went in search of her.
She was not in the house. It was growing dark, he was perplexed and anxious.
Again he went to their room, hoping to find some explanation of the strange absence.
On the mantle lay a note addressed to him. As he read, he gazed about to assure himself
that it was not a horrible dream, half expecting his wife to gleefully spring into his arms
from some hiding place, but all was silent save his own moans of pain. Vida had gone,
had, fled to her mother for protection from a tyrant. So the letter ran. It was in her own
graceful hand. Her name was affixed.
It was no cruel joke. She said, moreover, that it was evident that their tastes were not congenial.
It was out of the question for her to be tied down to the sort of life he expected of her,
that she had borne reflections on her conduct that she had not tolerated from any other being.
Tyranny was of all things most hateful to her. The climax was now reached when he ventured to command.
She recognized no such right. She never would. She would not be called to account every time she
stepped over a forbidden imaginary line. It was plain that they had been mistaken in each other and
disappointed. They did not add to each other's happiness as appeared from the gloom enveloping him
day and night. The last months were months of discord. She felt neglected. He was pouring over
books or seeking other society in an interminable round of calls. Plainly what he needed in a wife was a sort
of co-paster. It was not too late to secure such a person, since the law granted divorce for willful
desertion. With this last sentence the letter closed. Not a word betrayed the faintest regret at
severing so solemn a bond. He searched it over and over to see if in some corner he could not find one
tender word for him, a word that would reveal down deep in her heart the light of her great love
for him, even such love as he had for her, a faint glimmer through the clouds of anger and
recrimination. It was not there, not one syllable to show that the heart of the writer had not
turned to ice. Yes, there was another sentence, more cruel and hopeless still. Do not try to change
my resolution as though it were made in a pet. It is fine,
unalterable. It could not be true. He looked wildly about as if to have the terrible truth
dispelled. He opened her closet door and her bureau drawers, but the pretty, festive robes were all
gone. The dainty garments were not in their places. A little pair of half-worn slippers
and the blue ribbon that had tied her hair were all he found. He seized them convulsively
as a part of Vita when she was sweet and simple, as she was.
could be. He sat for long hours with the letter in his hand as one who holds his death warrant.
Then, falling upon his face, he cried to his helper. And he who is of great pity and tender
mercies heard, and drew nigh in the darkness, and comforted him, even as one whom his mother
comforteth. And when the morning dawned, he arose and took up the burden of life again,
where he was, Ervita Irving stole into his heart.
no not that it could never be the same again when the lightning sends his lurid bolt down a noble tree it may not wave green and fair as once there will be dead branches and the gnarled seam to tell the story that fire hath scathed the forest oak
the grave man who went out into life again carried the marks of the conflict in sad eyes and pale cheeks not the least of this great trial was to meet and answer the looks
questions of the curious. For the present he could truthfully say, Mrs. Eldred has
unexpectedly gone to her mother. Meanwhile, he resigned his charge, much to the sorrow and
dismay of all. He disposed of all the elegant furnishings of the parsonage, and with haste left
the spot that had been the scene of an exquisite torture. No defined plans were before him,
save to get far away from any who could have had the least knowledge of him previously.
No fugitive from justice ever felt more nervous haste. He rushed on, never pausing till he reached
the very verge of civilization in the far southwest. Not that he would be a hermit or a misanthrope,
but perchance find a people destitute of the gospel. He would bring it to them. He must preach
Christ till death. This should be his joy and comfort,
henceforth no other love should come between his soul and his dear master and he found his work as if an unerring path had been marked out straight to the little log church in the woods
while vita sat in a lofty temple of arches and massive pillars the sunlight toned to the appropriate dimness as it stole through the stained windows the same hour her husband stood in the log church of the wilderness its arches and pillars outside the top of the time the husband stood in the log church of the wilderness its arches and pillars outside the top of the top of the time
old trees, locking arms overhead. Nature softened to the fierce rays in this temple as well,
for they filtered through thick green boughs, and flex of light fell here and there, a stray
one resting halo-like upon the minister's head, transfiguring him in the eyes of the hungry
souls whose upturned faces drank in the words of life. This unlearned, simple people, with whom
he had cast his lot, had their faults, but to the refreshment of his soul, but to the refreshment of his
they had no card or dancing parties, theater or opera to steal the soul from Christ after
the manner of more cultured Christians. The church was the apple of their eye. They made sacrifices
for it and traveled weary miles in the worst of weather rather than lose a meeting. The
young gifted pastor of St. Paul's Church was never more appreciated than now by these hardworking,
warm-hearted pioneers. It was their daily wonder and thanks.
thanksgiving that such a man should ever have been sent to them. Nothing that they could do for him was too
much, and their loving devotion was like a balm to his weary soul. His people were scattered for miles
away, but the pastoral calls were as faithfully made as when they were comprehended within the
limits of a few squares. The mild winter climate of that region was like one long autumn of the
eastern states. Mounted on his faithful pony, he,
He spent a large part of every day riding over the prairies.
The blue skies and the bright sunshine were tonics to the heart as well as to the body.
Sometimes his route lay for miles through the woods where perfect solitude rained but for
the chatter of birds that circled about him.
In these long rides, his heart went back over the past, reviving the memory of those first
precious days with Vida.
They seemed far away, and their recollection, like the perfect
of wilted flowers plucked from the grave of a dear one. If he could not have prayed for her then,
hourly, his heart would have broken. Mrs. Irving changed her residence, putting many hundred
miles between her new and the old home, so that Vita might begin life anew, as she phrased
it, without embarrassment. In a large hotel in the great city, with seaside and mountain trips,
parties and operas, was much more Teveda's taste than dull life in a quiet parsonage,
and she expected to play the role of a pastor's wife. With her mother a chaperone,
she led a gay life going, coming, reveling at will in her freedom. As before her marriage,
she attracted much attention. Admired and courted, suitors innumerable paid her homage.
But a positive nature and strong will asserted themselves here,
Only such attentions as befitted a wife to receive were tolerated.
She knew the law did not count her free,
and if she had analyzed her secret heart,
there was no true reason why she cared to be free.
No face she met had powered to quicken her pulses
or extract from her a second thought.
The inner heart had long ago been preempted,
but the blind willful creature knew it not.
The face most often seen in her dreams,
the voice that whispered in her ear, the sad, dark eyes that seemed to follow her reproachfully,
belonged to none of the gay gallants about her. Her previous history being unknown,
she was a problem in that circle. There came a change. Mrs. Irving's health began to fail.
The eminent physicians far and near were consulted in vain, and as the symptoms became more
dend and alarming, Vita could not shut her eyes to the fact that her mother was in a most critical
state. She was a devoted daughter, though the weeds of selfishness, fostered by her mother's
hand, at times almost overtopped filial affection. Now she shut herself in from society,
and devoted herself to her mother with unremitting care. Every whim of the invalid was
gratified. One day, after weary months of suffering, she said,
O Vita, dear, I would pray to die if I were not afraid.
Why afraid, mother? I'm sure you've been a member of a church these many years
and a faithful attendant on its services, and you have been kind to the poor and such a
dear mother, said Vita, caressing her. I don't think you need be afraid.
Oh, child, that will not be afraid. Oh, child, that will not be
not stand in the great day. Don't mention anything I've done or been, I beg you, moaned the poor
mother. I've been nothing but a miserable worldling. Now I'm almost through with it all,
and I've no peace or comfort. It's all dark, dark. Oh, what shall I do? Let me send for Dr. Haynes,
said Vida. Oh, I cannot talk to him. He's a stranger, and I'm so weak.
What must I do? Oh, what? Vita had been a member of the same church, but now she sat
wrapped in gloom, feeling powerless to help, yet longing to comfort her dying mother.
In the midst of her sad thoughts as she sat watching, while gentle slumber had stolen for a moment
over the mother, she remembered the words of a text she had heard her husband preach from,
what must I do to be saved? The sermon was all gone.
If it asks that question in the Bible, it must answer it, she thought.
So finding a Bible, she sat down to search for the old answer to the old question.
Reading the Bible, dear, said her mother, opening her eyes.
Oh, mother, mother, I found the answer.
The plain short direction was read. The mother repeated it over,
feebly. Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved. Read about him, oh, do,
and she seemed to summon soul and body to listen, as Vida, led doubtless by the spirit, read here
and there of him who died for us. Day after day the reading went on, and while the mother slept,
the daughter pondered the wonderful words she had read, preached to her for years apprehended
by her only just now. Her heart was filled with horror and fear at her treatment of such a
savior, at her daring to number herself among his people. Then that heart melted as she read of
his love and pity, and casting away her robe of self-righteousness for the first time in her life,
she knelt before him a heart-broken, contrite sinner. He took the burden from her heart and gave her
peace. While she still bowed at the bedside, praying her whispered prayer that her dear mother might
see Jesus, that mother put out her thin hand and laid it on the golden head, murmuring,
Dear daughter, I believe in the Lord Jesus Christ. He has forgiven me. It is all peace, peace. Thank him.
And Vita's clear, low tones of thanksgiving, came to her dying mother, sweet as the voice of angels,
whose song soon burst upon her ear.
How clear an evidence of Christianity is this?
A soul exchanging pride, haughtiness, and rebellion
for humility and submission.
Vita, meekly bowing to the storm that burst over her head,
and filled with joy and peace that had not been hers
in the brightest hour of worldly pleasure.
It was not so hard, with this newborn love and trust,
to see the grave close over that dear mother.
It was gilded with the light of that day when,
We shall rise again.
In these hours of bereavement, Vita's heart went out with a longing cry to her husband.
The love that she had stifled and called dead was there, deeper and purer.
Now that she had been brought by this divine mystery into full sympathy with him,
he was the one soul on earth whose love she craved.
Perverse human heart!
Here she was, no one to control her action.
possessed of wealth, youth, beauty, freedom to journey to other lands, and revel in the grand
and beautiful of nature and art. Yet the one only thing she desired, or that would satisfy,
was to creep back into the knee she had filled in that other heart, that large, pure soul that
she had thrust from her in her wicked folly and blindness. Now she would devote her life to
searching for him, if indeed he were still living, and the doubt brought a keenness.
pang. Or had he, too, thrust her out and barred the door so that she might never more enter? Or,
worse than death, had he given the place to another as she bade him do? It was a weary search,
with this terrible uncertainty shrouding it. She advertised in mystical language, so none but he
could comprehend it. She examined the church records of the denomination with which he was
connected, but found no clue there. She attended conventions where large companies of ministers
were in session, and eagerly looked them over, hoping and praying that her eyes might fall on
that one that her heart asked for. It was growing exciting and absorbing the strange search.
She frequently visited towns where a popular preacher or lecturer was announced, and made one of
the vast throng that passed about him. Then, taking a favorable
position, rapidly scanned the upturned faces, wondering, meanwhile, what that strange, subtle something
is by which we recognize each other, that unerring consciousness, so that among ten thousand faces
could we view them one by one, we know at a glance that the one we seek is not there.
We do not stop and doubt and compare, we know.
She humbled herself to the very dust, and wrote letters far and near, and,
to his ministerial friends that brought only sorrowful replies. And now there came a remembrance
that he had often spoken of the far west as a wide and promising field for labor, that some
time he should like to go there and build up a church. He might have gone there now. So, with this
forlorn hope, she started westward, spending the summer journeying, stopping over the Sabbath
at straggling villages and visiting different churches. Weiried out at length, she recalled the fact
that an uncle had removed with his family to the southwest several years before. She searched out
their whereabouts and hastened thither, intending to spend but a brief season. But yielding to their
entreaties, she remained through the autumn. It was now drawing near to Christmas, and still she lingered.
She was growing hopeless, and that pleasant home filled with boys and girls was a diversion from her grief.
"'Do, Cousin Vita, go with me today, won't you?' asked Harry, a bright boy of fourteen.
"'I know a splendid place about ten miles from here where we can get some evergreens.
I want to trim up the house for Christmas just as we used to do in New York State.
I'll take the spring wagon and the ponies, and we'll go, you and I, all alone, and bring up the house for Christmas, just as we used to do in New York State.
and the ponies and will go, you and I, all alone, and bring home lots of greens, all cut off in
short branches.
You forget, his mother said, that your cousin is not used to riding in spring wagons over
rough roads, and ten miles will be a long drive for her.
There are some red berries there, too, went on Harry, as if he had not heard the objections,
and moss and long vines that the frost hasn't found yet.
besides it's a grand day to ride.
You dear boy, said Vita, I'll go for half of the inducements you offer.
She was only too glad to fall in with any plan that diverted her sad thoughts.
The drive lay for a long distance through the lovely open country,
the grass in many parts still green as in mid-summer,
and over all the perpetual sunshine of that region,
A soft golden light that even in midwinter glorifies the commonest object,
bright skies, balmy air, and her lively companion cheered even Vita's drooping spirits.
Arrived in the woods, Harry ran here and there with joyful enthusiasm,
now climbing a tree like a squirrel, then darting into a thicket for mosses.
They loaded the wagon with green boughs and filled their basket with treasures of moss and lichens,
and the gay plumed birds flitted about with hospitable little chirps, welcoming their visitors to their bowers of green.
As each became more intent in adding to their store, they became separated.
Vita was a little distance behind a low, thick growth of trees, disentangling a long vine of bittersweet,
when she heard a voice that thrilled her very soul.
There was just one voice like that in all the world.
Trembling, she bent her head and peeped through the branches.
One swift glance, and she knew him, her husband.
A strong self-control prevented her from swooning or crying out in her great joy.
Shaking like a leaf, yet holding firmly to a tree trunk, she gazed into the dear face.
It was paler and thinner, there were dark rings under his eyes,
but the finely curved mouth had the same calm, sweet expression that told of peace within.
How like a king among men he looked as he stood there, his hands filled two with mosses and lichens,
looking kindly on the boy and talking interestedly.
She never realized her utter folly so keenly as at this moment.
How she longed to fly to him and followed his feet in sorrowful confession.
Two things kept her back.
No eyes must witness their first meeting, and another dreadful thought,
what if it were too late? What if he had taken her at her word and loved another?
She had not been a woman of the world so long for not. She was an adept in hiding her heart
far out of sight. When Harry returned, she could calmly ask him whom he had found in that
out-of-the-way place. Why don't you think, said Harry, among all the other precious things in
these woods, I found a minister. Wish we could put him right on top.
of our bows and things and carry him home too for Christmas. Wouldn't Mother be glad to see him,
though. He preaches every Sunday in Olog Church right down hereaways, and the people come from
all round the country to hear him. He looks as if he could preach, too, such eyes as he has,
that look you through and through. Say, lets you and me go to hear him next Sunday, will you?
Yes, I will, Vita said, with such fervor and emphasis,
that Harry gave her a keen look and wondered why she had a bright red spot in each cheek.
He wondered more before they reached home, for his cousin laughed and sung in childlike glee,
and was sad and silent by turns. Her restlessness could not wait until the Sabbath.
The excitement and suspense were unendurable. Confiding in her aunt,
it was arranged between them that Moses, the old colored man of all work,
should accompany her to cedar vale the next afternoon.
Just what she would do when she reached there was not clear to her,
but stay away she could not.
When the children were well off to school again after the nooning,
Vita, mounted on a fleet little pony, attended by her trusty guide,
rode quietly away.
Her heart beat wildly when they drew near the settlement.
They came at last upon the church, standing in a lovely grove of maple,
The door stood slightly ajar. At a little distance from it, Vita dismounted and directed Moses to wait there for her.
She had a consuming desire to look into the church where her husband preached, to stand a moment in the very spot where he stood Sabbath after Sabbath.
She stepped softly in, and there, kneeling by the little pulpit, his head bowed upon the desk was her husband.
timidly and slowly, as one who has no right, she noiselessly drew near and knelt beside him.
Stranger eyes may not look upon a scene so sacred, but the two souls bowed together before
that altar came nearer to heaven than mortals often get.
Had not the waning light warned them that they were still upon the earth, they might never
have tired of looking into one another's eyes, and telling each to each the experience
of that lifetime they had lived since their separation,
and striving to put into words the depths of joy that crowned this blessed hour.
Before they left the church, they knelt again in that sacred spot,
and each in low fervent words poured out thanksgivings,
craving a blessing on their reunited lives,
and by a mutual and irresistible impulse,
both spoke again their marriage vows before the Lord in his temple.
When they rode away that Christmas Eve on their second bridal tour, the setting sun, smiling
through the trees and slanting across their pathway, fell on them like a benediction. Slowly and
dreamily they went on their way, willing that this ride over crackling twigs and rustling leaves,
with the soft light of the dying day closing about them, should go on forever. The earnest,
admiring gaze of the husband brought girlish blushes to the face of the
the bride. He was drawing contrasts. The sweet, humble face and the simple adornings of her who
rode by his side made a fairer picture than the queenly lady of haughty airs in magnificent attire,
who seemed to have passed out of existence. Never was fairer Christmas-tide than this in that merry
household, those memorable evergreens festooning it as a bower and a romance, a poem, lived out, not
written. There were no costly gifts, and yet gifts the most precious, two souls given back to
each other. If the joy bells in their hearts but had voice, their silvery ringing would have
filled all the land. Vida, can you be happy here until spring? Mr. Eldred asked a few days
after Christmas. My work would suffer, I fear, if I were to leave it now. Why leave it in the spring,
dear Thane, let us stay here always in this beautiful quiet place where the people love you so,
and, I did not tell you yet, Vita said, half shyly, but my money is not mine anymore. I gave it all to
the dear Lord, I would like to build a pretty church with some of it, and here we will stay and work
you and I together. I can help you now, Thane, a little. Don't you like my plan? She said,
anxiously when he did not speak?
My darling, you have made me so happy that I could not speak, he said after a little.
I wish it above all things, to go on with my work here, and a new church is so much needed.
How strange that you should be willing to stay, and that we can work together.
Oh, Vida, I prayed with faith I thought, but I never dreamed of an hour like this.
Surely it has not entered into our hearts to conceive the things which God has prepared for them that love him in this life.
There was another sensation in an audience when the pastor of the Log Church brought in his wife,
for not so fair and sweet had ever gladdened their rustic eyes before.
The singing that day was mostly solo, or at least duets.
Her pure bird-like voice filled the church, and what could they be?
do but listen, wondering meanwhile whether it might not be a lark or an angel come down for a season.
When a teeming busy town covered the prairie and the heel of agriculture and commerce crushed
out the wild flowers, the log church was preserved as a memorial, while the spire of the
handsome new one was eagerly pointed out, its story treasured and handed down to children's children.
Those two spent their happy lives ministering to the simple people, their hearts and hands so
filled with work that they had no time to sigh for the privileges of more cultivated
surroundings.
The pastor's wife was the warm friend and sympathizer of the common people, and her name
was singularly appropriate.
Vida, well-beloved.
End of Chapter 8.
Chapter 9 of Divers Women by Pansy and Mrs. C. M.
This Libravox recording is in the public domain.
How a Woman was converted to Missions
The poor women and girls are so taken up with cleaning their houses and dishes
and preparing their daily meals that they will not give themselves up to thinking in the least.
So writes Miss Blunt concerning the women of India.
It was something of the same sort that prevented Mrs. John Williams
from giving herself up to thinking or for,
from thinking about anything but her own private affairs. Not that Mrs. Williams gave herself
up to scrubbing doors and windows and cleaning pots and pans with her own hands, but she was
taken up all the same. When Christ was a babe on earth, there was no room for him in the inn,
so today many a heart is so full that Christ and his cause are turned out. If a heart is full,
how can it hold more? Do not suppose that there are
was no thinking done by Mrs. Williams. She superintended all her work and did much of her own sewing.
As her family was not small and her income not large, and she kept but one servant,
it took a vast deal of thinking and worrying to keep the Williams family up to the standard,
which was one not of neatness and comfort simply, but that she should live in the same style
as those of her friends whose incomes were possibly twice as large as her own,
that her children's clothes should be just as fine and as fashionably made as theirs,
that she herself should be able to make as good an appearance as the best when she went into
society, that her parlor should be furnished as far as in her lay with all the elegance and
taste that the law of the fashionable world required. This was the grand aim to which she bent
all her energies. Mrs. Williams was a member in good and regular standing of an orthodox
Docks Church. She regularly occupied her pew in the sanctuary, and when she had no other engagement,
attended the weekly prayer meeting, but the most persistent and zealous member of the Lady's
Foreign Missionary Society had never succeeded in inducing her to attend their monthly meetings,
but just once. She took pains to explain it carefully to her conscience that she believed in
foreign missions, but that didn't prove that it was necessary for her to spend a whole afternoon
each month, hearing dry reports and papers about countries with outlandish names.
What good did that do anyway? It was mysterious how ladies could do justice to their families
and spend so much time out. As for herself, she could scarcely keep up with her calls.
But then, they neglected their families. Of course they did.
women that were always on a committee for something or other,
and running off here and there to all kinds of meetings.
Very likely, too, it just suited some women to get up on a platform before an audience
and read a paper or report.
It was just a little leaning to women's rights.
She believed in a woman keeping in her own sphere,
and for her part she craved no such notoriety.
She had always noticed, too, that the women
who gave themselves up to those things seemed to lose all regard for their appearance. Now it really
was a duty one owed to their friends to dress well, and some of those missionary women were wearing
their last year's bonnets, and dresses of the styles of three or four years back, perfect
frights. She did not see the need of women having a society by themselves either. Probably they
raised just as much money before the ladies got to making such a fuss about it, it all came
out of their husband's pockets anyway. Her husband always had contributed to foreign missions,
and always would probably. It's true he did, a dollar a year. And was not that just as well
as for her to be bothering her head about it? There, said Mrs. Williams, one bright afternoon
in April, as she glanced from her window. There comes that,
Mrs. Brown, I know what she's after. She wants me to go to that stupid missionary meeting. I suppose
this is the afternoon for it. I promised her I would go again some time. Sorry I did, too.
It's just as much sense as some persons have. Think that one can drop everything and go to a
missionary meeting, in the spring of the year, too, when there is so much sewing to be done.
and she hastily instructed Bridget to tell Mrs. Brown that she was engaged.
So Mrs. Brown went on her way to the meeting and sat in heavenly places
and had her heart stirred with new love and zeal,
while Mrs. Williams sat at home and worked diligently on a dress for her young daughter,
an elaborate dress of frills and lace and embroidery, and many weary stitches.
At the close of the day, she congratulated herself that she had,
had accomplished a fine afternoon's work. There were whole seas of sewing to be waited through,
Mrs. Williams said, before she could have any spare afternoons. There was the dressmaking,
all her own dresses to be remodeled after the present style, besides new ones. When Mrs. Williams
had a dressmaker in the house to use her own words, she almost worked herself to death.
Then there was all the other sewing. It really was a plighter.
appalling to think of the amount of ruffling and tucking and side-pleading and puffing that
must be gone through before the summer wardrobes of herself and her little daughters would be
completed. There was the house-cleaning, the smallest detail of which required her personal
supervision, for Mrs. Williams was elaborate throughout. All her housekeeping was squared up to
certain fine lines. If she ever had a morsel of time from these things, stern necessity
compelled her to spend it in fancy work, for tidies and soft pillows and bracket covers and
stand covers and mats were indispensable. When Mrs. Williams was asked to subscribe for
Woman's Work for Woman, she assured them that she knew already all about woman's work
that she desired to. It was done at last, the spring's sewing and the house cleaning
and the summer heats had come. The day was warm, and
Mrs. Williams, in a cool white wrapper, had established herself on the parlor sofa with a book.
She had neglected to tell Bridget that she was not at home, and just as she was in the most
absorbing part of one of George Eliot's absorbing novels, a collar was ushered in.
Mrs. Brown, that missionary woman again, was ever anyone so persecuted before?
Here she had just come to a breathing spell where she had hoped to take a
little rest in comfort, and now she must be annoyed. To go was out of the question, it was too
hot, and besides she did not in the least feel like going to a meeting of any sort. She wanted to
finish her book, so she told Mrs. Brown that she was very much worn out with over-exertion,
and the day was so warm that she would not venture out. She should probably fall asleep in the
meeting if she went. It seemed that even when there came a time that work did not fill Mrs. Williams's
heart, Satan was on the alert to preempt it, and to keep her from all Christian activity.
How he must rejoice at each new width he fastens over the heart he covets. Here was a large-hearted,
energetic, skillful woman thoroughly consecrated. She would be a power for Christ. Mrs. Williams was not a
hard-hearted woman, but she found no time to listen to the sorrowful story of those who knew not God.
She knew very little of it at all, and like her heathen sisters, was so taken up that she could not
give herself to thinking. When the rage for decorating and the mania for pottery seized the
female mind, it began to dawn across Mrs. Williams' perceptions that all her belongings were
exceedingly plain, that she positively needed and must have two large vases for the parlor at least.
She lay awake thinking about it a good part of the night. Something must be done. The expensive
imported wear was out of the question, beyond the limits of her purse at present. Mrs. Williams was a
woman of resources who seldom failed to rise to the necessity of the occasion, and from her inner
consciousness, she evolved a perfectly delightful plan. When a young girl at school, she had taken
lessons in oil colors, and possessed not a little artistic ability. Why not manufacture her own
pottery and decorate her own china? That was a most inspiring idea. She could hardly wait for
morning to appear, so eager was she to put her plans into execution. She would go into the city,
get a few instructions and some materials, then we shall see what we shall see.
The next day was a harbinger for a hot day, but what of that? What would not one undergo when
pottery was in question? So she spent the sultry summer days examining all the different
styles of vases with the same eager minuteness that an amateur milliner studies hats on opening
day. Her vases should be precisely like that elegant pair of Copenhagen wear that cost $50.
Then this ambitious, energetic, deluded woman went home and proceeded to shut herself in her room
and dabbled in paint from morning till night. Her enthusiasm arose to such a pitch that she
neglected her sewing and her calls, and after she had produced a really creditable pair of vases,
she was stimulated to go on.
She painted lovely little bouquets on her tea set
and decorated everything in the house
from China to coal scuttle.
About this time, Mrs. Williams received an invitation to a party,
not an unusual thing, but this was a very select affair,
the very highest stratum of society.
She was holding a council with herself
and doing some very close thinking
on the all-important subject of her work,
wardrobe, and she came to the usual feminine conclusion that positively she had nothing to wear
when she was interrupted by a call from the collectors of the missionary society, the faithful
punctual collectors whose visits were as sure as the sun and the dues. Mrs. Williams had
decided that self-defense required her to become a member of that society, afford it she must in
some way. Her bills for the pottery had amounted to a considerable sum, home industry notwithstanding,
and the fact stared her in the face that she must have a new silk for that party, but it was plain
she had dodged those collectors just as long as she could. What a relief it was to learn that only
ten cents a month constituted one a member of the society. She answered quite graciously that
she should be most happy to throw in her might.
If Mrs. Williams could have had a peep into the collector's books, and have seen that Mrs. A and Mrs. B subscribed fifty cents a month, and that Mrs. C and D subscribed one dollar a month, and others whom she copied and followed were even benevolent to the amount of two or three dollars a month, then Mrs. Williams would have compassed C and land to procure the money before she would have allowed her name to be among theirs, with that small amount set after.
after it. She suggested that she pay the whole sum at once. What was the use of troubling them
to call every month? And when they said they preferred to have it in monthly payments, she thought
within herself, now that is just like women. They have no business capacity, most of them,
traveling up and down, wasting their time, making twelve trips for what they might accomplish
in one. Which hasty censure upon her own sex was only another.
proof that she had not given herself up to thinking, certainly not on the philosophy of giving.
Having disposed of the collectors, Mrs. Williams sallied forth on a shopping expedition,
in high spirits at having come off so easily, and yet a placid feeling in her conscience
that now she had contributed to foreign missions. She spent the morning in weighing the merits
of this piece of silk and that, and finally purchased a dress, rich and costly, and some
soft, filmy laces of marvelous beauty at a marvelous price. If her poor weak conscience made a
protest, it was silenced by, I must have it. Who shall say that the heathen are all in Africa
or China, or the islands of the sea? And so the busy days went on, dressmaking, house cleaning,
calling, canning, pickling, parties, pottery, and fancy work, time for it all. How could one think
much about such far-away interests as heathen women when her hands and heart were so full?
Sometimes we call such Marthas, and make light of the fact that we have loaded ourselves down
with such heavy burdens, and take comfort in the thought that one of the women whom Jesus loved
was in the same condemnation. But we forget that her anxious housewifely cares were for Jesus.
Dare we say as much for ours?
One morning, Mrs. Williams was not bustling about with her usual activity.
She sat in her own room with a grave troubled face.
She was in deep thought, and it was not some scheme for adding to her wardrobe
or the furnishings of her house that formed the subject of her meditations.
Perhaps the days are not past when the Lord speaks to a soul, in a dream, in a vision of the night, when deep sleep falleth upon men.
Mrs. Williams was not a nervous woman full of strange fancies, and her dreams heretofore had been passed by as idle fantasies of the brain.
But the remarkable and solemn one of the previous night could not be so dismissed, and like one of old, her spirit was troubled.
In her dream, the day had come for her to die, and leave her busy work forever more.
She could recall it all most vividly, the flash of surprise, the anguish, the feeling that she was not ready,
the swift searching of her heart to find her hope, the feeble despairing cry,
Oh, Christ, forgive me! The weeping friends, not heated in the all-absorbing thoughts,
What is this? Where am I going?
Then the sinking away, the last gasp, and eternity opened.
In the distance there dawned upon her vision the glory of the city,
the golden gates, the crowns, the harps, the white-robed throng,
the beautiful music thrilling her soul.
As she tremblingly approached the gate, her heart gave abound,
for that kingly one could be no other than Christ the Lord,
the one she loved years ago before the world got hold of her.
Surely he would recognize her.
But when she timidly ventured near and spoke his name,
there was no smile of welcome.
No, come ye blessed.
The look was cold, the face averted.
In tears and agony she begged an angel to open the gates and let her in.
When he asked her whence she came,
and by what right she hoped to enter,
she murmured out that she belonged to Christ's church when she was on earth.
Then he bade her come with him.
He lifted a veil and said,
Look.
There were rooms filled with beauty
opening into each other
and stretching off into the distance.
There was rich furniture,
carpets of softest velvet
covered the floors,
mirrors and paintings filled the walls.
There were exquisite vases
of delicate tints and graceful forms,
finest statuary,
innumerable and endless,
articles of ornamentation, and, lying about in rich profusion, were costly silks and glittering
satins and rare laces. Jewelry flashed out here and there, diamonds and pearls, and all precious
gems in beautiful settings, novels in costly binding, food, delicate and tempting in abundance
and variety. It was for such as these, the sad voice of the angel said, that you bartered your soul,
These are the things you coveted and toiled for in your earth life.
How perfectly empty and unsatisfying it all looked to her now,
with that glorious city in full view, and the shining ones gathered about their king,
their hallelujahs rising in grand chorus, to him who loved them and washed them in his blood.
In deep distress, she begged to be allowed to go in where the Savior was.
Then the angel lifted another veil.
there were the dark places of the earth spread out before her millions upon millions of human beings bowing before idols little children cast into cruel flames and women sad wretched women a whole world full of them
besides those there were the poor degraded ignorant ones of her own city did you ever read in your bible said the angel inasmuch as ye did it not to one of the least of these ye did it not to me
deep horror seized upon her for memory brought before her as in letters of fire that other word in her own bible that awful word depart
mrs williams needed no daniel to interpret her dream unlike the one of the king of babylon it brought her in brokenness of spirit to the feet of her saviour and he who said a new heart will i give you and a new spirit will i put within you was faithful to his promise
The woman who left her room after hours of heart searching and confession before God
came out of that room with the new spirit, a consecrated soul
henceforth to be obedient to the master's slightest wish.
The whole aim of her life was changed, her pursuits, her style of living.
She found too ample time to do the Lord's work and to look well to the ways of her household,
and the Lord gave her much service for him, and the work was very sweet.
Does he not wait to give to any of us who have been half-hearted, laggard Christians,
this new spirit, this anointing whenever we shall give our whole hearts to him?
Then it shall be joy, not duty,
then we shall say, my tongue, dear Lord, to speak for thee,
my hands to minister to thee, my feet to run thine errands.
end of chapter nine chapter ten of divers women by pansy and m m livingston this librivox recording is in the public domain mrs lewis's book part one the book
the ladies of thorndell met one afternoon in early autumn in mrs lee's parlour for an important purpose there was a previous understanding that the meeting was for all who felt interested in discussing plans for their own
own mental improvement during the coming winter. The chairman said,
Now ladies, speak out your minds on this subject with freedom and promptness.
Mrs. Peterson spoke first, she always did. For my part, I wish we could study or read
something or other that would give us something to talk about when we meet in sewing
society in other places. I'm tired going to sewing society and sitting perfectly mum by the side of my
next neighbor, because I don't know what under the sun to say. After we have done up the weather and
house cleaning and pickling and canning, and said what a sight of work it is, and asked whether
the children took the measles and whooping cough, and so on, I'm clear run out, for I won't
talk about my neighbors, and I don't keep any help. I've noticed hired girls is a subject
that doesn't seem to run out very soon.
Let us form a literary society, said one, prepare essays and discuss some subject that will require considerable study in posting ourselves.
This lady was newly married and boarded, therefore time was one of the things that she possessed in the greatest abundance.
That will never do, said a busy little mother. Every lady who has to prepare an essay would be sure to have a sick baby or a house full of
of company. Then the most of us can only give little snatches of time to this, besides the afternoon or
evening that we meet. That would surely be a failure. We want something that will not end in smoke
after a few weeks. Mrs. Lewis spoke next. When Mrs. Lewis spoke, everybody always paid attention.
She was a large, fine-looking lady of seventy or thereabouts. Old age had crowned her with a halo of
soft snowy hair, while her dark eyes still glowed with almost the brightness of youth.
Her naturally fine mind, enriched by extensive reading, and her deep religious experience
combined to constitute her almost an oracle in the little town. In all their gatherings,
she was the centerpiece, a very queen for dignity and elegance in her invariable black silk
and soft white cap. Let us study the Bible, said Mrs. Luther.
I don't know of any book we are more ignorant of.
Oh, Mrs. Lewis, you wouldn't make us into a Sabbath school class, I hope, said feathery little
Mrs. Etheridge. I thought we did that up years ago. I am sure I can repeat quantities of it,
and she tossed back her pretty head and looked wise. The Bible is all well enough for the
Sabbath, but I should dearly love to read the poets. I am passionately fond of Byron, some of his
poems are just too sweet for anything. Some of the wise ones almost thought Mrs. Lewis's text
had a spice of sarcasm in it, as she quoted for answer, The testimonies of the Lord are sure,
making wise the simple. Mrs. McIntosh, learned and strong-mindedly inclined, said that she had heard
that the ladies in Millville had spent one afternoon a week in the study of political economy
with very much benefit. They felt that their minds had been enlarged and strengthened. Her preference
would be for something of that sort, some broad, deep subject that would require study.
She would suggest mental philosophy. The Bible just fits in there, said Mrs. Lewis,
thy word is a great deep, and Peter said that Paul wrote, things hard to be understood,
you remember. And that's queer, too, spoke of
Mrs. Peterson, such a deep book, and yet I feel more at home in it than in any other book you
have talked about, and I haven't much learning to speak of either. But I get so interested in
some of the folks in it, and the Lord's dealings with them. I've been thinking about Moses
ever since Mr. Parker preached about his not being allowed to go into the promised land.
It seems as if I was acquainted with him. It must have been a powerful disappointment to him,
after he had trudged along so many years, turned back too when he'd got a good piece on his way.
Then it was so aggravating to get up there and look over into the nice green meadows
and know that if he hadn't let out his temper so, he might have gone in with the rest of them.
I declare I got so exercised thinking it over when I was a-working-my-butter that I forgot to salt it.
I think I should like to study Shakespeare, said Mrs. Berkeley.
Where does one find such knowledge of human nature as there?
Where else are such rare gems to be had by digging?
In my book, said Mrs. Lewis, the psalmist says,
It is more to be desired than gold, yea, than much fine gold,
and another says it is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.
Is not that a knowledge of human nature that excels even,
and Shakespeare?
It strikes me a variety would suit all, said another.
George Eliot's writings are full of power, and deep enough for me, I assure you.
We might read some of her books, then some of Dickens and Thackeray,
then occasionally a book of poems, Longfellow and Whittier,
or if we want to study harder, there is Mrs. Browning, Tennyson, and Shakespeare.
It would be excellent discipline to try and get out the exact meaning of the authors,
and puzzle out all the obscurities. It would not be long before we should feel quite rich in a literary way.
In reading such works together and talking them over, of course we make them ours as we can in no other way.
The grass withereth, the flower fadeth, but the word of the Lord endureth forever, quoted Mrs. Lewis.
Do you know that all those writings, valuable and good in their place as they are, when compared with the Bible, seem to me,
just like the grass and flowers? Now if we have but a little time to give to study, why not
spend a good part of it in studying the Endureth Forever book, because, as nearly as I can
find out, that book and ourselves are the only things in this world that are going to endure
forever. Don't it strike you that in such a case we ought to be more familiar with it than
with all these others? Mrs. Lewis's solemn words put a silence on the lips for a few
minutes, but practical Mrs. Brown broke it by saying,
"'Perhaps it would be a good plan for us to study hygiene.
I have always thought if we gave more attention to ventilation
and to what we shall eat and where and so on, we should have better health.'
"'Yes,' said a still more practical sister,
"'that would be real nice.
Then I was noticing in the paper that there is a Presbyterian cookbook just out.
I should like to have some red out of that.
This caused a smile to go around the circle,
for Mrs. Boot was one of those inveterate pie and cake-makers,
whose life consisted in the abundance of pastry,
who was an unhappy woman until she had obtained the last new recipe for cake and made it up.
I have an idea, said a bright little lady.
Suppose we all agree to spend at least two evenings a week
in reading or study at home, then bring what we gather to the sewing society and talk it over,
each one gives some bit of news or scientific fact, or give a review of the last new book.
Oh, I have tried that a little in my own book, said Mrs. Peterson. I sat up one night after all the
rest had gone to bed and read all about that doctor somebody with a hard name. I can't pronounce it.
It begins with an S. Well, he and his wife.
were digging up buried cities hundreds and thousands of years old and finding the most wonderful
things money and jewelry and splendid vases and all sorts of nice things now says i to myself i've
got something to talk about at sewing society tomorrow it'll make them open their eyes too i guess so i
read it all over again to be sure and have it at my tongue's end well i went to sewing society and when there was a kind of a lull
in talk, I began to tell three or four that sat around me all about that wonderful story that
I'd been reading. Do you believe it? They just poked fun at my story and said,
Of course twain't true, and we couldn't believe half we read in the papers, and it would
turn out like the Cardiff giant, most likely. I was going on to tell how he brought out the
curiosities, and ever so many people saw them, and of course it was true. But, law, one wanted
the thread, another the scissors, and another called out,
Mrs. Peterson, do you overcast your seams or fellem?
Then Mrs. Baker said,
Why, Melia Parsons, you're making that little pair of pants upside down.
Then they all hollered and yelled at Melia,
and I never tried to tell anything more about Dr. Whiteyer-Callum in his cities,
might just as well try to talk in a hornet's nest.
This speech produced so much merriment that the chairman playfully
called Mrs. Peterson to order, and the talk went on. Some thought a course of history was just the thing.
In short, there were as many different plans and opinions as there were ladies. It began to look
very much as if no decision could ever be reached. I hope, said Mrs. Lewis, that I shall not be
thought persistent or officious if I say a few more words. You know I am fond of reading. There was a time
when I read everything, now I am turning away from it all to the Blessed Bible. While I would
not disparage liberal culture, nor the reading that conduces to it, I think the time has come
when we cannot remain ignorant of the Bible and be guiltless. Some people feel mortified if they
cannot tell just where every line of poetry that happens to be quoted can be found. But who
thinks of being ashamed because they cannot tell the author of the matchless poems in the Old Testament?
I do think there are no poems like Isaiah's and Jeremiah's and the Psalms. For imagery and pathos and sweetness, all other poems are tame in comparison. Do we want works of power? He says, my word is as the fire and the hammer. Is it tragedy that our souls delight in? There is the divine tragedy, but he was wounded for our transgressions. He was bruised for our iniquities. He is brought as a lamb to the sloth. He is brought as a lamb to the sloth.
slaughter, and as a sheep before her shearers is dumb, so he opened not his mouth.
And the closing scene, and behold the veil of the temple was rent in twain from the top to the
bottom, and the earth did quake, and the rocks rent and the graves were opened.
If we wish to strengthen and discipline our minds and grow in knowledge, let us study the
Bible by all means, for here we find difficulties enough to tax an angel's powers, and
at the same time, find rest and consolation, means of growth, too, for we are assured that
those who meditate on that word shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water.
Oh, you do not know if you have never tried it, how blessed it is to build up a pyramid
of texts, for instance, all about God's love to us and the names he calls us by.
It makes his love such a reality.
Then there are the promises, soft pillows for weary,
heads, and there are directions for all perplexities. I tell you there is nothing like the Bible.
I have tried all the rest. Like Solomon, I have found it all vanity. Oh, how I love thy law,
how sweet are thy words unto my taste. When this becomes our experience, life will be a different
thing to us. It will not be dull and empty. You know how we get absorbed in other reading,
perhaps a novel, and it leaves a gloomy, unsatisfied feeling when it is done. But the Bible is
never done, and the studying it grows and grows every day. When the Lord comes, I'm afraid we shall
not feel comfortable if he finds us studying hard on every other book, and his laid by covered with
dust. If I were to ask you what book you would advise me to spend the most of my time on,
the few years that I live, whether the Bible or the current literature,
of the day, you would probably say, the Bible by all means, because you have but a few years
left to you at most. But the truth is that many in this room may die before I do. Not one of
us knows what day the books will for us be forever closed, and did it never cross your
minds that the Bible is the only book we will want to take with us away down to the edge
of the river? When I lie down to die, I feel sure that I shall not
wish for a page of mental philosophy whispered in my ear, nor the finest passage of Shakespeare.
But, yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil,
thou art with me, and, I have loved thee with an everlasting love, thou art mine, I have
called thee by my name, I will never leave thee nor forsake thee.
Let us compromise this matter, suggested Mrs. Parker.
every other meeting be devoted to Bible study and a committee be appointed to select something
from the works mentioned here today as subjects for the intervening meetings. This seemed to
strike all favorably and was voted upon receiving an affirmative vote. It was further suggested
and decided that Mrs. Lewis should lead all the Bible meetings. Then I shall take you
in hand at once, said Mrs. Lewis, and announced that the next meeting will be at
my house next Thursday afternoon, and the subject will be how to use the book. I shall ask you
to look out texts on the subjects, and to bring pencils and Bibles that you will not be afraid
to mark. And do, dear sisters, let us give to the study of this book the same zeal and
painstaking that we do to our housekeeping or our gardening or fancy work. Then we shall receive
a blessing. I am sure of it.
of Chapter 10. Chapter 11 of Divers Women by Pansy and Mrs. C. M. Livingston. This Slibervox
recording is in the public domain. Mrs. Lewis's book Part 2. The Book Open. Mrs. Lewis's
parlor was not like anybody's else. Some of her neighbors said she was, queer, as much money
as she had, too. By queer, they meant that it was perfectly incomprehensible to them,
that Mrs. Lewis did not have her parlor hung in dark paper with gilt blommies,
have lace curtains with very long trails,
a dark, many-colored carpet, mirrors,
and handsome furniture wearing linen aprons.
The whole thing shut up stately and dark, except on high days.
This, instead of the cheery room where five-minute collars with cards and best toilets,
seldom came.
People always ran in here and stayed a while.
This room was large and light, both wall and carpet, a delicate tint of gray, brightened here and there by bits of color, in the shape of gaily covered easy chairs, rugged tidies and the like, yet nothing was too fine for daily use.
There were fine engravings on the walls, and plants and sunshine in the south windows.
In the center stood a large round table covered with books, newspapers, pen, and ink.
Altogether it looked much more like a gem of a study than a parlor, but was the best and
handsomest room in the house, whatever it might be called. And here Mrs. Lewis knit and
sewed and studied, here the fire was always bright, and the welcome warm, young and old
went in and out with freedom. Her table was supplied with the best and latest books and magazines,
so making a sort of reading room as free and open to young men as though it were public.
The room was well filled on the Thursday afternoon appointed for the meeting, which was opened by a few earnest words of prayer.
Then Mrs. Lewis remarked,
I want to say in the outset that I do not set myself up as a teacher in these gatherings.
We are all learners to gather.
Let us conceive ourselves to be miners digging for gold or precious stones in the Lord's Mine, the Scriptures,
and when he points out to one a precious gem that our eyes may not light on as we pass along,
let that one hasten to show it to us also with something of the same eagerness
that most of us would display if we found a jewel in our path.
In thinking of this subject, how to use our Bibles,
I am reminded of my first sewing machine.
Many years ago, when sewing machines were not as common as now,
my husband sent to New York and purchased one for me. I read the instructions and followed them as I thought,
but I did not succeed. The thread knotted up in heaps and it skipped stitches. After repeated failures,
I set it aside and plotted on in the old way, trying to do all the sewing of my large family by hand.
At last, a lady from a neighboring town came to visit me. It so happened that she owned a machine of the
same kind. She sat down before mine, turned the screws, oiled it, put the work in, and sewed a long
seam as by magic. Then she patiently explained every little thing I needed to know. It was a happy
day to me when I could sew on it, too, I assure you, and you all know from experience just what a
comfort and help that machine was to me for years afterwards. I am convinced that in like manner
I groped and stumbled along a long time in my Christian life, because I did not know how to use my Bible.
I am not sure, said Mrs. McIntosh, that I quite understand your illustration.
The sewing machine was, of course, no use to you until you had learned all its mysteries.
It was the same as locked up to you. You needed a key.
But here are our Bibles in plain English.
If we read them, I cannot see why we will not be benefited.
Yes, benefited in a certain way, just as any excellent book will lift one up, but I know people,
who are well-versed in the historical parts of the Bible, can repeat large portions of the
Gospels, and yet are blind. They have not apprehended Christ in it all. We need the Spirit's
teachings, or plain as it is, we may go from Genesis to Revelation, and never once look
into the eyes of our Savior with trusting faith. Yet there they are a man.
he is on every page. Food is nothing to us when hungry if we do not eat it, and truth will not save us
if it be not realized. Then opened he their understanding that they should understand the scriptures.
The things of God knoweth no man but by the spirit of God. Not until that light shines upon this
book, do our souls cry out in joyful recognition, Master, and, my Lord and my God. Not until
that divine touch opens our eyes can we say of his words, I love them exceedingly.
But do you not suppose, said Mrs. Berkeley, that everyone can have that wonderful insight into
scripture that some persons have, or that all are expected to really love to read it?
I never think that I ought to let a day pass by without reading my chapter, but I confess that
I do it because it is my duty. Everybody can't be like one woman that I use. I use, and I
used to know. She kept her Bible by her in her work basket, every few minutes she would take it up
and get a bit from it, then go on with her work. Everybody called her a fanatic, but she seemed to
enjoy herself, and was the best person I ever knew. I always supposed she possessed a sort of
gift that is only given to a very few. I believe that the promise, He shall teach you all things,
will be fulfilled to all who claim it.
said Mrs. Lewis. You recollect, said Mrs. Parker, how Luther loved the Bible after that wonderful
light shone into his soul. I have read somewhere that the 119th Psalm was his favorite, because in all its
176 verses, the Bible is mentioned in every one except two. I have also heard that it is a favorite with
Ruskin, because he has the same love for the word that David and Luther possessed. How sweet are
thy words unto my taste was the burden of David's song.
I have had just one thought following me the whole week, said Mrs. Mills.
It came to me with such power last Sabbath when I took my Bible to look out some texts
for the meeting today that I almost felt as if I had never known it before.
It is so wonderful that God and the Holy Spirit have written a book and we have it.
And, what is stranger still, that we dared to know it.
neglect it. One would suppose that a superstitious fear would make people read it, if nothing else.
I believe that the Lord himself sent that solemn realization to me. It has seemed a different
book to me ever since. If an angel should come down and bring me ever so short a letter from
the Lord, with some expressions of favor, I should be consumed with joy, and here I have not only
one, but so many, and never took it in before.
My heart standeth in awe of thy word, repeated Mrs. Lewis.
Then, turning to one who sat nearer, said,
We want a word from you, Mrs. Barnes.
Mrs. Barnes had slipped into the most obscure seat in the room,
almost behind Mrs. Lewis's chair.
She was one of Mrs. Lewis's most intimate friends,
and herein was another proof of queerness in the eyes of some of Mrs. Lewis's neighbors,
because she made so much of that Mrs. Barnes.
no one had ever thought of calling such a dignified intelligent-looking woman a washerwoman and yet she did take some of her neighbors clothes to her home and wash and iron them why not since she was strong and they were not and she wanted money and they wanted clean clothes
however it was these two women saw eye to eye it was no uncommon thing when mrs barn's snowy wash was flapping in the wind and she had slipped on her clean clean
gingham and stepped over to Mrs. Lewis's a minute, to have the minute lengthened to an hour
or more they had so much in common to talk about. Their absent lord, his work, and how to further
it were themes they did not weary of. So Mrs. Barnes put on her glasses and opened her old
Bible in red, As newborn babes desire the sincere milk of the word that ye may grow thereby.
I find here, she said, that the Bible is to be our food, and that it is intended to make us grow.
Now one can't grow without the right kind of food.
The verse makes me think of my dear little grandson, Nettie.
His mother was taken away, and he was left a wee baby for us to bring up.
We had such a hard time to find anything to agree with him.
We tried milk and water and arrowroot and cracker water, but he didn't throw.
He was nothing but skin and bone. Finally he got sick and we called in the doctor and he said,
Why, this child is starving to death, what do you feed him? Don't give him any more such stuff.
He said, try another cow and give him pure milk. So we got a new milk cow and fed him fresh milk,
and I can't begin to tell you what a wonderful change it made in that child in less than three weeks time.
The dear little fellow got just as plump, his hands were like cushions, and he was well and happy as a robin.
Maybe that's the reason there are so many weekly Christians.
I shouldn't wonder if souls need the right sort of food as well as bodies in order to be healthy.
I have some neighbors that my heart just aches for.
All their reading is yellow-covered books, such as the Pirates' Bride and The Fatal Secret.
it. Such food is worse than cracker water and arrowroot, for they are starving souls instead of bodies,
and the word can't find any place to take root, much less to grow when the mind is filled up with such
trash.
Joseph Cook thinks, said Mrs. Lewis, that even Bunyan, Jeremy Taylor, Pascal, and Thomas Acempus himself
work mischief if these books shut out the Bible from daily and almost hourly use.
"'Is it possible?' said Mrs. Etheridge,
"'that anybody can make out what Joseph Cook thinks.
"'I know everybody is running wild over him,
"'so I just took one of his lectures the other day after dinner
"'and sat down by the fire.
"'But, dear me, I couldn't make anything out of it.
"'Now I can take one of Mrs. Henry Wood's lovely books
"'and read from dinner to tea without being tired or sleepy.'
"'Mrs. Lewis smiled as she answered.
i admit that like paul joseph cook writes some things hard to be understood and it often takes considerable thought to get at his meaning but when you have studied it out it is something worth having
he speaks to boston people mostly you know and perhaps they would not understand very plain english here is a sentence from him though that makes it clear enough do you know a book that you are willing to put under your head for a pillow when you lie dying
Very well, that is the book you want to study while you are living.
But Mrs. Lewis, continued Mrs. Etheridge,
you know some physicians think we ought to eat the sort of food that relishes most.
Why does that not apply to our minds as well?
Now I am naturally melancholy and need something to raise my spirits.
Don't you think that the Bible is almost too sober, dreary reading for such persons,
at least until they begin to grow old?
Louis turned a loving, pitying look on the pretty young wife, and whispered a prayer for her as she
answered. Jeremiah and David did not find it a gloomy book, for they both said this,
Thy word was unto me the joy and rejoicing of my heart. My dear, I want to put my testimony with
theirs, that in a long lifetime, part of it spent in every variety of worldly pleasure,
that there is nothing, nothing that has or can give me the joy that the words of my dear Lord do.
I claim no credit that it is so.
I believe that the same sweet experience will be given to all who truly desire it.
I can't agree with that idea either, said Mrs. Brown,
that the best kind of food is what one relishes most.
My children relish pie and cake and candies wonderfully,
but I know that it is not good for them to eat much of them.
When they have no appetite for good bread and milk,
and such nourishing food,
I know there is something amiss with them.
They are sick.
And did you ever notice this?
Children who are allowed to live mostly on these knick-knacks
do not relish plain food and do not thrive.
The text that was last read
did not say that we were to read the Bible as a duty,
but to desire it.
If we have no appetite for the standard,
spiritual nourishment that is best for us to grow on, I do not know why we are not sick Christians.
It strikes me, said Mrs. Peterson, who had watched in vain for an opportunity to speak before,
that while you are talking about the Bible being food for us, making us grow, and all that,
my text about meditation comes in. David says, I have more understanding than all my teachers,
for thy testimonies are my meditation. I can speak from a meditation. I can speak from a
experience about that. I know it makes a sight of difference how you read. I had quite a sick spell
once, a sort of low fever, and when I began to get better I was so weak I couldn't eat hardly anything.
I heard the woman that took care of me tell the doctor that if I didn't eat more, I'd starve
as sure as the world. And the doctor said, no, I wouldn't, that the amount of body ate wasn't
the main thing, it was what was digested, and that it did mischief to eat more than one could
digest. So I kept on taking my little bit of beef tea a good many times a day, but I was very
weak for a long time. I couldn't even hold my Bible to read it, and I began to fret about it.
I was used to reading my two or three chapters a day, and I felt sort of lost without them.
One day my next neighbor brought in what she called a silent comforter, and hung it on the wall.
It had only three or four texts on a page in large letters, so that I could read it without
glasses.
Well, what a comfort that was, to be sure.
I had nothing to do all day but lie there and think of those verses.
It seemed like a new Bible.
Every morning they turned a leaf over, and I was more anxious to see what my new verses would be
than to eat my breakfast. When I got a little stronger, I wrote down everything I got out of them.
Well, I tell you, it was just wonderful how much there was in them. I had more good of the Bible,
it seemed to me, that three weeks than ever I did before. Then I remembered how I used to read my
chapters, my mind half the time on something else, most always in a hurry, thinking it was time
I was skimming my milk or at my baking, and wondering whether I should bake apple pies or pumpkin
that day. Think of it, how awful it was to mix up things like that. But then I thought I must read
my three chapters anyhow. Well, I didn't do like that anymore when I got around again. I
called to mind what the doctor said about eating, and says, I, that's exactly the way it is with
the Bible. It has got to be digested. So I took what time I could.
and put all my mind on a small portion, and tried to keep it with me all day.
Now I don't want to be boasting about myself, but I do say I love the Lord as I didn't
used to, and it all comes of his blessed book. There, I've talked too long, I always do.
Can we not now have a number of texts that will tell us from the word itself how it is to be
used, said Mrs. Lewis, and these were promptly given, such as, search the
scriptures, teach me thy statutes. Great peace have they that love the law. That we through patience
and comfort of the scriptures might have hope, and shall talk of them when thou sittest in thine
house, and when thou liest down, and when thou risest up. I hope in thy word. To the law
and the testimony, if they speak not according to this word, there is no light in them. Thou hast
known the Holy Scriptures, which are able to make thee wise unto salvation.
I trust in thy word. Wherefore comfort one another with these words. Thou hast commanded us to keep
thy precepts diligently. Thy word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path. All scripture is
given by inspiration of God and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction,
for instruction in righteousness. Here is another bit from Joseph Cook that I think will help us,
said Mrs. Parker.
If every five years you can mark a Bible thoroughly
and memorize what is marked,
it will be your best diary.
You can do a little better in reading
than to fill the margins of a copy of the scriptures
once every five years
full of the records of the deepest inmost of your souls,
to be intelligible to yourself and to no one else.
Shut the door on that record.
Enter into your closet and keep your secrets with Almighty God.
why i read the most delightful book lately called daniel quarm said mrs lee that brought out the same idea daniel marked his bible in that way marked texts that expressed his state of mind or heart at the time and put the date in the margin
it occurred to me that it would be an excellent plan one could judge in looking over a bible so marked whether they were advancing or going back in their christian experience
I heard Ralph Wells say in a Sabbath school convention last summer, said Miss Day,
that it is he that doeth his will that is to know concerning the doctrine,
and that no spectacles are so precious for right understanding of the word
as a conscience void of offense toward God and man.
He also said in reference to Bible study,
Wonderful is the light one gains by simply looking out the references.
Another good thing that I remember from him,
and that I have practiced ever since is, that we ought to learn a verse of Scripture each day.
There is one precious way in which the Scriptures are to be used that has not been mentioned yet,
said one who had been silent thus far, but whose face expressed a lively sympathy with all she heard.
We do not get the comfort from the promises that we might.
The Lord says, put me in remembrance, let us plead together. I think we ought to take advantage
of such a gracious permission, and bring a promise when we come before the Lord in prayer.
I had a neighbor once, who owned bank-stock to the amount of $50,000, and yet he got it into
his head that if he were not very saving, he should go to the poor house. This grew upon him
so that he shut up all the rooms in his house, which was large and pleasant, and he and his wife
lived in the kitchen, hovering in the coldest weather over a small fire, because he
thought he ought not to afford any more, when he had only to go to the bank and present his
check to get all he needed. So we have only to put our names in the promises and plead them,
and they are fulfilled to us. Instead of that, we go morning about in the kitchen and down-seller,
instead of sitting in the chamber of peace. I am sorry to say that our hour is more than up,
Mrs. Lewis said.
Let us glance over what we have learned in the study of the word.
We need the teaching of the Holy Spirit.
We are to pray for light on it.
We are to love it, obey it, meditate on it,
search it, desire it, talk of it,
try all things by it,
sound our experience by it,
plead its promises,
commit it to memory, trust in it.
It is to be our food.
No other food will feed an immortal soul.
It is to be our joy, to give to us comfort, peace, faith, hope, patience, wisdom,
and I will put the capstone on this beautiful arch by,
I commend you to God and to the word of His grace,
which is able to build you up,
and to give you an inheritance among all them which are sanctified.
End of Chapter 11
Chapter 12 of Divers Women by Pansy and Mrs. C. M. Livingston.
This slibrobox recording is in the public domain.
Buckwheat cakes
It was a little house and a little new family,
just two of them and just six months since they were made into a family
and set up housekeeping.
As a matter of course, everything in the house was new also.
One may prate of antiquities and the associations clinging about them
that rendered them beautiful,
but after all, every couple will always look to,
back with delight to the time all their surroundings were fresh and pretty. Yes, even though they were
not pretty. There is a charm in a new pine table or a bright new tin pan. This house was a little
gem, from the delicately appointed guest chamber to the cement-lined cellar. Mr. and Mrs. Philip
Thorne sat at their breakfast table sparkling with new china and silver in a dining room so cheery
with pretty carpet, plants, singing bird, warmth and sunshine, that the beggar girl who peeped
in at the window might well wonder if heaven were nicer than that. The coffee urn sent up a fragrant
little cloud as Mrs. Thorne turned it into delicate cups with just the right quantity of cream and
sugar, so that it was just the right color that coffee should be. The steak was tender and juicy,
the baked potatoes done to a turn, and yet there was a slight cloud hanging over that table
that did not come from the coffee urn.
Joanna does not understand making buckwheat cakes very well, I imagine, said Mr. Thorne,
eyeing the doubtful-looking pile she had just deposited on the table.
Joanna did not make these, I made them with my own hands, responded Mrs. Thorne,
said hands were very white and small, but,
truth to tell they were not much more skilled than were Joanna's.
Then it must be the baking that spoils them, Mr. Thorne said.
Why, Philip, how do you know that they are spoiled? I'm sure they look all right, said his wife.
That's just where you and I do not agree, my dear, they are white-looking, they ought to be a rich
brown.
Whoever heard of brown buckwheat cakes, they are always very light-colored. I beg you,
your pardon, but they are not as far as my observation goes," said her husband.
Then these are thick. They ought to be thin and delicate-looking.
You are thinking of something else, Philip, said Mrs. Thorne, patronizingly.
Buckwheat cakes never look differently from these. I have noticed them a great many places.
You never ate them at my mother's, or you could not say so, my dear.
Mrs. Thorne stirred her coffee vigorously, was for a very much of her.
Philip going to turn out to be one of those detestable men who always go about telling how their
mother used to do? My mother, as if there was no other mother in the world that amounted to anything.
I always have noticed, she said, that a person imagines, after being from home a few years,
that there is nothing quite so good as he used to get at home. Even the very same things
never tasted quite as they used to. The reason is plain. Taste changes as one
grows older. This very sage remark was just a little annoying to Mr. Thorne. He was ten years
the senior of his wife, and did not like allusions to growing older. No one need try to convince me,
he answered quite warmly, that I shall ever cease to enjoy the dishes my mother used to get up
if I lived to be as old as Methuselah. She is the best cook I ever knew, and she never made cakes
like these.
My mother is a pattern housekeeper, said Mrs. Thorne with a little flash of her blue eye,
and her cakes look precisely like these.
The proof of the pudding is in the eating, you will admit, I suppose.
Joanna need bring in no more cakes for me.
They have a sour, bitter taste, which is decidedly unpalatable.
And he arose from the table, passed into the hall, and out of the front door without his
usual leave-taking. Satan once worked immense mischief by means of an apple. Now he must needs
come into that pretty dining room and hide in a plate of buckwheat cakes. The first approach to a quarrel in
this household and the first buckwheat cakes of the season. The truth is, when Mr. Thorne had said the
day before, what if we have some buckwheat cakes? That Rui did not feel all the confidence in her
ability that her answer implied. But then there was her recipe book. They could not be difficult,
she reasoned. The recipe said, mix warm water, flour and yeast, and let rise until morning.
These instructions she had faithfully followed, and here was the result. Rui Thorne, unlike some
young wives, did not think it interesting to profess utter ignorance of domestic matters. On the contrary,
she had an ambition to excel as a housekeeper.
She had a general knowledge of many things,
but every housekeeper knows that practice only brings perfection.
It is one thing to watch Bridget making bread a few times,
and another thing entirely to make it oneself.
So much of Rui's knowledge was theory,
not yet reduced to practice,
that she imagined herself much more skillful than she really was.
Consequently, she did not come.
claim her husband's forbearance on account of inexperience.
Philip was not rich, and she had a desire to be an economical wife,
so she did not employ an experienced cook and chambermaid,
but tried to accomplish it all by the aid of a raw German girl.
"'Of course I shall want to direct all my work,' she had remarked with housewifely pride.
If Philip had only understood it all a little better,
he need not have brought out his mother's veteran cakes in such cruel comparison with these very young ones.
That day was not a very comfortable one for either of them.
The blue eyes flashed out a tear occasionally, and she told herself,
Who would have thought that Philip cared so much for eating?
His mother's cakes, indeed, as if anybody could equal my dear precious mother in anything.
While he told himself that he wouldn't have thought Rui would have
have flashed up in that way for so slight a cause, and to him too, humph. He would just like to have
her taste his mother's cakes. It would open her eyes a little. Later in the day they told the same
parties, I'm just ashamed of myself that I got spunky about such a little thing. I wish Philip would
come. I'll have muffins for tea just to please him. I know I can make muffins. And,
Poor little Rui, I went off like a bear this morning. I must hurry home. I'll just step in at
Bernards and get that little panel of lilies for her. So the muffins and lilies were laid,
peace offerings on the domestic altar, and the skies were clear again. The next morning,
Rui betook herself to her neat little kitchen to reconstruct those cakes. She would see if it
were not possible to suit her husband in this. Let me see. He said they were too thick.
I will thin them then. He said they were sour and bitter. Sugar is sweet and ought to remedy that.
So in went the water to thin them and the sugar to sweeten them. He said, she further mused,
that they ought to be brown, brown they shall be if fire will do it. So she proceeded to make a furious
fire in order to heat the griddle. Now, she said to Joanna, carry in the coffee and chops,
then come and bake the cakes.
The husband and wife were engaged in cheerful chat
when the first installment of cakes arrived,
a few crumpled, burnt scraps of something.
Why, what is this? said Mr. Thorne.
Cakes, said Joanna triumphantly.
She fixed them, pointing to Mrs. Thorne.
The two looked at the cakes, then at each other,
and broke into peals of laughter.
The griddle must be too hot, said Mrs.
thorn, and she vanished into the kitchen. She scraped the smoking griddle, and washed it and greased it,
then she stirred the gray liquid and placed two or three spoonfuls on the griddle. Then she assayed
to turn them, sticking plaster never stuck tighter than those cakes adhered to that griddle.
She worked carefully, she insinuated her knife under just the outer edge of the cake,
then gradually approached the center, but when the final flop came, they went into little sticky,
heaps. They are too thin, she ejaculated. Joanna, bring flower. Now we shall have it all right.
Then another set took their places on the griddle. These held together, they turned,
triumph at last, but they did not look inviting. Mrs. Thorne tasted one. She then made a wry face.
Joanna, she said with forced calmness, you can throw this batter away. Then she went back to the
room looking very hot and red, and said meekly to Philip,
The cakes are a failure this morning, we will try it again tomorrow.
Philip, who had lost himself in the morning paper, roused up to say,
Don't trouble about them any more, we have enough else that is nice.
The cakes will be all right another time, Philip.
There was a mistake made.
They were too thin this morning.
Mother never makes them thin.
Philip looked as if he would like to say,
I don't care what your mother does. My mother's cakes are nice and thin and can't be beaten,
but he didn't. Mrs. Thorne had no intention of abandoning buckwheat cakes as a failure,
not she. It was not her way to give up easily and yield to discouragement. Difficulties only
strengthened her determination to conquer. I'll see if I am to be vanquished by a buckwheat cake,
she said, studying her recipe book that same evening.
I shouldn't wonder if there was not yeast enough in those others, she said, as she mixed some
fresh batter, and added an extra quantity of yeast. Keep them warm while rising, the recipe read.
She placed them near the register near the dining-room, and retired with a complacent feeling
that now all the conditions had been surely met.
The total depravity of inanimate things. Mrs. Thorne had reason to believe in that doctrine next
morning, when she entered her dining-room and found a small sea of batter on her carpet,
surrounding the pail and widening in all directions, though this stuff could hardly be called
inanimate. It oozed from under the pail cover in a most animated manner.
"'It is light, at least, that is one consolation,' said Mrs. Thorne, trying to be philosophical
as she ruefully surveyed her carpet, then hastily calling Joanna to clean it up.
should not see that. When the cakes were brought in this morning, Rui cast a little triumphant look
at Philip. By dint of a hot griddle and much grease, they had a streak of brown here and there.
"'Horrible!' exclaimed Mrs. Thorne, after her first mouthful. These cakes are sourer than vinegar.
Philip should not be the first to speak of any lack, as if she were not supposed to know more
about such matters than he.
What does ail them?
I'm sure I made them exactly right this time.
I must tell Joanna to put some sugar in them.
My dear wife, if you will allow me,
I would suggest soda instead of sugar.
Really?
Responded Rui, her pride touched in an instant.
There it was.
He actually thought he knew more about cooking than she did.
And pray, how do you happen to be so wise?
you must have assisted your mother in the kitchen, she said, with a slight curl of her pretty
lip, up there in the country, boys do those things, I suppose. Philip was nettled,
Rui had cast little slurs on his country home before, when she got her spirit up. He controlled
himself, however, only saying, I don't profess to understand the science of cookery,
but I do know a little chemistry, and understand that an acid requires an alkaline,
to neutralize it. Mrs. Thorne went straight to the kitchen, shutting the door after her with the
least perceptible bang, and sprinkled the liberal allowance of soda into the batter, and then
returned to the dining room to await developments. These cakes were yellow and spotted,
and savored of hot lie. Mr. Thorne went bravely through a few mouthfuls until he encountered
a lump of soda. The wry face that followed was wholly involuntary.
I declare they are horrid, exclaimed Rui, bursting into tears. I knew soda would spoil them,
bitter stuff. Mr. Thorne did not then attempt to show why soda would not spoil them,
if properly used. Grieved at his wife's distress, and becoming hygienical, he said,
don't have anything more to do with these wretched things. They are unwholesome anyway,
and we are better off without them. Give them up. Never, said Rui, resolutely. When Rui
spoke in that way, Philip knew she meant it, and he sighed at the prospect of discordant
breakfasts through a series of experiments. A text about a dinner of herbs floated through his mind
as he walked abstractedly toward his store.
After Mrs. Thorne had dried her tears, she walked into the kitchen, and with her own hands
scraped that acid, alkaline mass into the drain.
Buckwheat cakes are very mysterious and trying things, she remarked to herself,
but I shall never give up till I can make them like Philip's mothers.
I find, said Mr. Thorne that evening, that I must start tomorrow morning for New York,
and will need a very early breakfast.
"'Let Joanna just make me a cup of coffee.
"'No cakes, remember,' he laughingly added.
"'You may have a whole week to experiment upon them in my absence.'
"'Ruey watched him down the street in the grey dawn of the next morning
"'as he hurried to the depot, and a bright idea came into her head.
"'Why not take a little trip on her own account?
"'She might run up to Father Thorns.
"'Why not be visiting as well as moping here alone?
"'She wished she had that.
thought of it and mentioned it to Philip, but it was better not. He would probably have thought
she could not go so far alone. But what was a day's journey when it could all be accomplished
before dark? Then it was going to be a bright day she could see that by the rosy flush in the
east, just the day for a journey. Besides, Philip could not go to visit them this winter,
and how delighted they would be to have her come and break up the monotony of their lives.
She glanced at the clock. Only six o'clock. She would have ample time to get ready for the eight o'clock train. The dress she had on would do to travel in. Just slip her black cashmere into her satchel, and she was ready. Yes, she would go. Artful, Rui. Down in her heart, she had a secret reason for this visit that did not come up to the surface with the others. She wanted to know exactly how Philip's mother made those cakes.
she could not be happy until she succeeded here appeared an old trait of the girl ruy almost a fault settled persistency in accomplishing her ends a determination to walk over all obstacles however large
it took much lively stirring about to accomplish it but the house was put in order and mrs thorne reached the depot in time for the eight o'clock train the happy joanna being dismissed to her home for a week after
carrying her mistress's satchel to the depot. Mrs. Thorne had visited the old homestead with her husband
at the time of their marriage, and looked forward with real pleasure at the prospect before her.
Won't they be surprised, though, to see me coming without Philip? And then she smiled to think
how she was whizzing along in one direction, and Philip in another, while he thought her snug at home.
There was a spice of adventure about this going off by herself that she enjoyed,
exceedingly. There is no more delightful place to step into than the home of two old people
who are young and who love you. They have their hearts at leisure, can take time to pet you,
and are interested in the smallest details of your lives. Philip's father and mother belonged to
this type. The juices of their natures were not dried up. They received Rui with open arms,
and followed her about with their eyes, apparently fearing she would vanish,
as unexpectedly as she had appeared.
Philip's wife, caring enough about them
to come so far to see them
in the middle of winter, all alone too.
Not many daughters-in-law like that.
They hung upon her words
and brought out the choicest of everything
and urged it upon her.
At bedtime Mother Thorne came up to tuck her up,
just as I did Philip twenty years ago,
she said,
then the sweet old face bent over Rui's for a moment,
and left a good-night kiss and,
"'The Lord bless and keep you, dear child!'
Rui's heart went out to her,
and from that hour Philip's mother was her mother.
Breakfast was already the next morning when she came down,
and she sat in Philip's old seat,
and the sun looked in at the east window,
and a stray ray fell upon her,
and burnished the gold of her hair,
so that she looked more like an angel than ever to those dear old eyes.
How happy they were, Philip's other self in that vacant chair.
Moreover, she ate those famous cakes.
It was all true. They were brown.
They were thin and delicate and light and sweet and tender,
the most delicious morsels with the amber maple syrup that she had ever tasted.
She must confess it to herself, they were better than her mother's.
City people could not concoct such amazing cakes as these.
then the fragrant golden butter, how she wished poor Philip were there to get some of all these good things.
She had not proposed that her mother-in-law should know that there was anything in the universe
that she was ignorant of in the housekeeping line, but now she resolved to lay down all her pride
and learn whatever she could, so she followed Mother Thorne as she trotted in and out from pantry to kitchen,
initiating herself into the mysteries of this and that dish, and storing up,
many a lesson of housewifely skill. It all came out after a little, the struggle she had been through
with those horrible cakes. Father Thorne laughed until the tears came to hear his pretty daughter-in-law
naively narrate her many grievous failures in that line, enlarging not a little on Philip's wry faces
when he tried to eat her cakes to save her feelings. She had confessed it all, now she felt free to
watch the process of setting the cakes and to ask all the questions she pleased.
What made mine so horribly bitter once? she asked. Why, you put too much yeast in, I suppose.
I only put in a teacupful, said Rui. Then Mother Thorne shook her sides with laughter as she said,
Why, child, that ought to make cakes enough for two dozen people. You only need about two
tablespoonfuls for the quantity you would make.
What made them run all over creation when I left them by the fire to rise?
Why, maybe you didn't have room enough for them to rise, and they must go somewhere,
you know.
What made them sour?
They stood too long after they got light before they were baked.
Very likely they would have raised in time if you had left them on the table, say.
What do you do when they are sour?
Rui. Put in a little soda. I did. I put soda in, and you never saw such looking things as they were,
yellow and spotted, and, oh, how they tasted. Philip nearly choked himself on one of the lumps of
soda in his cake. Don't you know, said Mother Thorn, indulging in another laugh, that you must not put in but a
little, and you must dissolve that in a spoonful of warm water and then stir it in?
Rui studied those cakes as thoroughly as she ever had a problem or a French verb.
She insisted on setting them at night and baking them every morning during her stay,
and she was finally pronounced an adept in the work.
This was not all she did.
She put new life in the silent old house, sung all her songs,
read the newspapers aloud, made a cap for Mother Thorn,
and a marvelous tidy for the best chair,
besides telling them all about Philip, as if she could tell them anything new.
But the pleasant visit must come to an end. It was almost time for Philip's return.
Daughter, I am really afraid to have you set out this morning, Mr. Thorne said, on the day that Rui had
fixed upon for her return. It has been snowing hard all night, and if it keeps on at this rate,
the railroads will be blocked up. Oh, father, I must start. Philip will be,
be home tonight and what will he think if he does not find me there?" Ruiz said eagerly.
"'Better,' said the wise old father, "'better stay and telegraph to Ralph.'
"'Oh, no, indeed, that would spoil all the fun. You know I will get home at four and
Philip at seven. I shall have tea already and sit there demurely waiting for him, and he never
will imagine that I have been off on a frolic until I tell him.' And so she started,
with many misgivings, however, on the part of the old people.
She's such a bright little thing,
Father Thorn said to his wife,
when they were toasting their feet at the fire that night before going to bed.
It's like seeing the crocuses and daffodils coming up,
or getting a sniff at a hyacinth,
to have her light down here like a pretty bird to sing and chatter to us.
Philip always did know just the right thing to do.
He couldn't have found a better wife if he had searched the whole.
whole land through. The train that carried Rui thundered on its way, as though it disdained
the thought that the snowflakes that filled the air could have ought to do with its progress.
When the first tiny white feather came and softly laid itself down on the iron rails,
did it secretly exult that it was one of a myriad that should rear a gigantic barrier
before which this puffing, fiery monster should stand powerless,
and acknowledge the soft bits of down master of the situation?
The storm raged through the day, increasing each hour in strength and fury.
The long train began to plod in a labored, tired way, after the manner of mortals,
stopping often while snowplows in advance cleared the track.
Darkness came down, and still the fearful mass of whiteness piled itself in huge billows about them.
The snowplows were unavailing.
As fast as they cleared a place, the wind surged down and filled it up in a trice.
The mighty engine struggled in vain to press forward, but only crept at a snail's pace,
and finally came to a dead halt.
They were fast shut out from the world.
They could do nothing but wait for morning.
Most of the passengers might not have resigned themselves to sleep so contentedly,
had they known that they were in the midst of the woods many miles from any town of
much size, not near even, to one of the straggling hamlets that dotted the country.
When the morning dawned, they found themselves literally enclosed in snow, snow above, beneath,
to right, to left, behind, before, a beleaguered host. Those who understood the situation
looked appalled. The world was well represented here in that restless company that stared from
their windows into snow. How strange that one particular class did not set out on this journey,
but each class had its type, as if someone had gone about, and gathering up handfuls of people,
stowed them on this train. They were all there, the woman with five children, and the one with a lap-dog,
and all acted out their individual natures more fully than they might have done under other
circumstances. Many lost that reticence that is supposed to belong to well-bred people on a journey,
and told out their private affairs. The man of business knit his brows and said that he,
must reach sea by a certain time, or the consequences would be most disastrous. The fashionable
lady wrapped herself in her furs and bestowed withering looks on the crying baby. The grumbler
grumbled and was sure somebody was to blame somewhere. The funny man bubbled and sparkled as usual,
and sent rays akin to sunshine over lugubrious faces. The profane man opened his mouth,
and out came toads and scorpions, and the tobacco-chewers made dark pools on the floor
to vex the souls of cleanly people. By the close of the day they were a very forlorn hungry
people. There was one among them, though, who seemed to rise above it all, a plain-looking woman
with an unfashionable bonnet and a face like a benediction. She drew a little worn Bible from her
satchel, and read it a while by the dim light. Rui wondered if she did not get something from that
book that made her patient when others were not, that sent her to relieve the tired mother
by caring for the fretful baby a long time, and when another a third,
sad mother, unable longer to control her grief, moaned out,
"'My child will die before I can get to her!'
This woman was the one who went to her with words of comfort.
Rui's poor perturbed heart envied that calm face.
She felt well-nigh distracted, not so much at the fact that she was cold and hungry,
but what would Philip think when he returned and found her gone?
No one knew where, not even a neighbor had the least intimation of her where about,
What a night of horrors he must have had. Oh, to be obliged to sit there and wait when she felt like flying. She heard the woman with the Bible whisper to the poor mother, Pray that will surely help you. Perhaps it would help me, thought Rui. She was not used to praying, but she needed help, so she put her tired head down and whispered a request for deliverance.
What did Philip do? He assayed to walk into his house. The door was locked, and there was no response to his repeated rings. He tried other doors with no better success. Then he visited his neighbors. They could give him no clue. He came back and stood in a dazed way on his own steps, looking up and down the street. He went down into the town and peered into the stores, but no Rui. He called upon her most intimate. He called upon her most intimate.
friends. They didn't know she was absent. He racked his brain. Was she out to tea? But she
expected him home that very day. As the evening advanced, he began to be thoroughly alarmed.
Perhaps she had met with some horrible fate in her own home. He forced the door and entered.
The pretty rooms were in exquisite order. He searched wildly about for some scrap of paper
that might explain the mystery. Wherever she was, she was, she was. She was,
he had evidently been gone some time. The fires were dead and cold. He rushed down into the town
again and consulted detectives, who suggested elopement as an explanation, whereupon his anger
rose to a white heat, and he left them. Another idea struck him. Joanna must know something
of the strange affair. She lived in the country. The polar wave had by this time reached that
region. In the face of a blinding storm, Mr. Thorne drove at a rapid pace to Joanna's home.
The sleepy girl, when roused, could at first give nothing but an exasperating nix to his eager
questions. Finally, from her broken English, he gathered that her mistress had gone away on the
cars, had directed her to come back to her duties that very afternoon. She did so only to find
the house closed. Here was a little light, but it did
not relieve his perplexity. Rui's father's home was in a distant state. She certainly would
not go so far away in the dead of winter. He could recall no acquaintances living near. Had she
become insane and wandered away? But she evidently meant to return that day. Why did she not come?
Where was she? The cold sweat stood upon his face when he remembered stories of abductions.
He went to the depot and remained the whole night, watching the train.
that came from anywhere. Morning dawned. She had not come. As a last resort, he would telegraph to his own
home. But why would she go there and without him? It seemed a useless thing, but he did it. After an
age of waiting, he received answer. Rui left here for home yesterday morning on the seven o'clock
train. He soon learned that said train was snowbound a hundred miles away. His anxiety now
assumed a new phase. Would she starve or freeze before he could reach her? There was no time to be
lost. Supplying himself with provisions, blankets, etc., he took the first northerly train,
traveled as far as he could by rail, then hired conveyances to carry him to where men and snowplows
were cutting a road to the imprisoned cars. Mr. Thorne joined them in their work. His strength
seemed superhuman. Muscular men were amazed at his swift, dexterous movements. All day they toiled.
The following night was a terrible one to the heart-sick passengers. The fires were out,
not a morsel of food to eat. Rui, chilled and weak, could not even find relief in sleep.
Her fortitude nearly deserted her. The tears had their way. She lay curled in her seat,
a wretched, disconsolate little heap, when a brown-bearded man, muffled in furs, entered,
flashing the light of his lantern here and there, eagerly scrutinizing the faces.
He paused at Rui's seat, an indefinable something attracting him, though the face was covered
by two hands. Suddenly she looked up, and there were Philip's dear eyes gazing into hers.
No questions were asked or answered just then. She was gathered in his arms for an instant,
then he wrapped her in blankets, brought food, and nursed the color back to the white cheeks.
Then there were long stories told on both sides, and Rui laughed and cried by turns,
and all the passengers were in lively sympathy with the little lady who had found her husband,
or rather whose husband had found her.
When Mr. and Mrs. Thorne next sat at their breakfast table, it was graced by a plate of cakes
that might have come straight from Mother Thorne's kitchen,
and some of the home butter was there sweet as roses,
some of the golden maple syrup, too,
from the trees Philip had played under,
and Rui sat triumphant with a little air that said,
Didn't I tell you I'd do it?
Rui, said Philip,
I do believe that elopement of yours paid,
notwithstanding the outlay of debts and fears,
money and tears,
to say nothing of the muscle I put into that huge,
drift. Rui knew why it paid, though she didn't tell her husband just then. She should never
forget that night, nor the plain woman with the old bonnet, who carried the untroubled face and
the worn book. Deep in her heart, a new purpose had taken root, an ambition not only to make
cakes like Philip's mother, but to attain to that blessed something which made this other woman
so different from those about her.
End of Chapter 12
Chapter 13 of Divers Women by Pansy and Mrs. C. M. Livingston
This Librevox recording is in the public domain.
Faith and Gasoline
Mrs. Faith Vincent was crying, there was no denying it,
veritable tears were in her eyes and on her cheeks,
all the time she was bathing the plump limbs of her baby,
and robbing her in dainty garments of flannel and embroidered,
Then she struggled through the notes of a sad lullaby, and now the long lashes lay quietly on the pretty cheek, and the fair young mama was free to lay her head on the side of the crib and indulge in a good cry.
The clue to all this trouble was condensed in a sentence that the young husband let fall just as he left for his business a few moments before.
I see no other way, my dear, you will be obliged to take baby and go to Uncle Joshua's for the son.
The extreme heat will come on now very soon, and then neither you nor Daisy will be able to endure it in this room.
Now that would not be a very appalling statement to make to most wives, that they must pack up and get out of the hot dusty city to a farmhouse in the country,
even though they did leave their husbands sweltering behind, but there were several points to be taken into consideration in this case.
In the first place, Mr. and Mrs. Vincent had not yet learned how to maintain a separate existence.
Life apart from each other was a tame, spiritless thing, simply to be endured, not enjoyed.
Then, too, Uncle Joshua's home was not a paradise, although he and Aunt Patty were kind and pleasant.
Faith had vivid memories of a few weeks spent there soon after her marriage.
They lived on their farm, two simple-minded old people,
spending the evening of their lives in quiet happiness.
But the place was dreary, remote from any town or neighbors.
She had found it pleasant when her husband was with her,
and the two took long rambles, or spent the day under the trees, reading and talking.
But how could she endure it alone,
rising with the birds to an early breakfast,
than an interminable day stretching before her,
the long afternoon of silence broken only by the click of Aunt Patty's knitting needles,
the ticking of the old clock, and the hum of the bees,
for these old people had lived too long and quiet in these silent hills
to make much conversation.
She could not see herself going through the same monotonous round
as each long day dragged its slow length,
while Miles stretched between her and her beloved,
toiling on in the distant city. The dreary separation. That was the hard part of it after all.
It was just two years since Frank Vincent brought home his bride. He had succeeded in securing rooms
in a pleasant boarding-house in one of the wide, airy streets of the city. He felt justified in going to the
utmost of his means in providing an attractive home, for his faith had been delicately reared by a wealthy uncle who had
frowned upon the love-making of the young bookkeeper, handsome, intelligent, and with unblemished
reputation though he was, and held a good position in one of the largest and oldest firms in the
city. The uncle had more ambitious plans for his favorite niece. He did not forbid the marriage,
but gave faith to understand that if she persisted in marrying a poor man, when a good half-million
awaited her acceptance, she did it at her own peril, not a penny of his should go to eke out
the scanty living of a poor clerk. The end of it all was a quiet wedding one morning in her
uncle's parlor, and a hasty flitting away of the young couple, away from ominous looks and cold
politeness, out into their own bright world where no dark shadows in the shape of grim mercenary
uncles should ever cross their path. It was not without many misgivings that the young husband
conducted his wife to her apartments, for neat and pretty though they were, they were in marked
contrast with the roomy, elegant mansion where she had spent her life, and so was the noisy dusty
city with the beautiful, quiet old town where trees and flowers and birds in pure air and
room to breathe in made existence doubly delightful. The anxiety was,
was needless. Never was child more pleased with Playhouse than the young bride with her new home.
Life glided peacefully on for many months, then the clouds began to gather in the sky of the financial
world. Businessmen were anxious, and retrenchment was the order of the day. Among others to draw
in sale was the well-established firm whom Mr. Vincent had served for many years. The salaries
of their employees were cut down, in some instances, to a mere pittance. Upon none did the blow
fall more heavily than these two inexperienced ones who had made no provision for any such
change in their affairs. They were dismayed. Mr. Vincent tried in vain to secure some more
lucrative position, but he soon began to feel that he was most fortunate in such times
to have any assured income. The outgo was greater than the income.
and it was plain that they must seek a less expensive home.
They made many trips to the suburbs,
in the hope of obtaining board at a price
that would be within their means
in some pleasant rural home,
but no such home opened its doors.
Evidently the dwellers in the suburbs,
when they did take boarders,
meant to make it pay.
Then they searched the papers
and read all the advertisements
under the head of boarding within the city.
They climbed long flights of stairs,
and interviewed landladys
and looked at rooms with the customary faded carpets
and shabby wallpaper and musty smell
in narrow streets withal
that seemed to faith-like prisons.
In vain they tried to make their tastes
and their purse agree.
They had to come to it,
a third-story room, faded carpet,
shabby paper, and hard bed.
It was a great change,
especially when they descended three dark stairways
into a comfortless basement dining room,
and were served with sour bread and strong butter,
muddy coffee, and tough steak.
It tried their fortitude sometimes severely,
but they were young and brave.
They had each other and dear little Daisy.
That was almost enough for this world.
One can't have everything,
so Faith stirred the fire and put a bright spread on the bare table,
and another bit of bright color on the wooden rocking chair,
so that if they had not been forced to live by eating,
things would not have been so bad after all. Spring, though, brought troubles. The sun shining
squarely upon them through the winter had served to brighten up things and save coal. But now
he became an enemy, pouring his fierce rays nearly all the long day into the two windows,
old paper shades filled with pinholes the only protection against him. Large companies of
flies, too, arrived daily, and evidently came to stay. The butter turned
to oil, eatables grew unpalatable, the whole house seemed stuffy and unendurable.
It was one of those warm spring mornings when vital energies flag that Mr. and Mrs. Vincent
toiled up the third flight of stairs, the halls filled with execrable orders of fried ham and cheap coffee,
each busy with their own thoughts, possibly of green fields, apple blossoms, spring violets,
tables with damask and silver, cool inviting,
rooms and other equally tantalizing suggestions. Faith at the top, panting and pale as any
lily, drew from her husband the exclamation, "'My dear, you cannot endure it any longer.
Something must be done.' That something seemed all the more imperative, since Daisy was beginning
to droop and have feverish days over the advent of each little white tooth. Many perplexed conferences
followed. You see, said Mr. Vincent, trying to speak cheerfully, one of us orphans ought to have
married someone who had a father and mother, and an old homestead to go to in an emergency like this.
As it is, I do not see any other way but for you to take baby and go to my uncle Joshua's
for the summer. You will be made welcome, at least, and have good food and good air.
What if we go to housekeeping in a small way, Faith suggested?
It would have to be in a very small way indeed, laughed Frank.
Why, the birds of the air have more to set up housekeeping with than we.
They have furnished rooms rent-free.
Think of rent, furniture, and all the pots and kettles and pans that housekeeping requires,
besides wages to a girl.
Never do wine my salary wouldn't cover.
I have often heard people say it was much cheaper to board than to keep house.
But we might take a small house in the suburbs and furnish it by degrees,
and I could do my own work, persisted faith.
My poor little Lily, said Frank, you know not where of you speak.
Think of a little hot house, you broiling over a cookstove,
and baby crying for your care.
Besides, my dear, you are not accustomed to work.
i shouldn't wonder now if i knew just about as much as you do about cooking i think i can see you with blistered fingers and aching head studying cook-books no faith we shall be obliged to live in two places this summer i fear
i know it will be lonely for you at uncle joshua's but for your own sake and the dear babies it must be done let us be of good cheer and perhaps by fall business will revive and my salary be increased or i'll be increased or i'll be
I can get a better position. Now, good-bye, my blossoms, I must be gone. And he sprang away down the
stairs hastily, lest faith should see that his courage was more than half assumed, for the
prospect before him was dismal in the extreme. What Mrs. Vincent did when her husband left her,
we already know, yet she was not one to sit down in weeping despair before a difficulty
until every energy had been put forth to remove it.
She sat long and pondered the question.
No light came, although she bent her white brows into a deep frown in perplexed thought.
If I could only keep house, she mused,
Frank imagines I know nothing of cooking.
I'd just like to have him eat some bread and puffy biscuits of my making.
I am so glad I never told him that I took lessons of Dinah all one winter before we
were married. I'll surprise that boy some day with my knowledge. If it were not for the horrid heat of
the cookstove, I know I could keep house nicely, and save money, too, I dare say. But my head never would
endure a hot kitchen, I suppose. Just here the clock chimed out ten, reminding Faith of an engagement
at the dressmakers. Leaving Daisy with her young nurse, she was soon upon her way, not to Madame Aubrey's,
but to plain Mrs. McPherson's, who lived up two flights of stairs, and was nevertheless a good fitter,
and kept her rooms and herself as neat as wax.
While Faith waited, and the busy shears slipped and snipped her wrapper, she had time to look about her.
The rooms wore such a pleasant home-like air. They were cool and comfortable-looking,
and not a fly to be seen. Faith reared to the finest and best of everything, now looked with a
almost covetous eyes on this poor, plain home.
"'What a cozy place you have here, Mrs. McPherson,' she said,
and she wearily leaned her head back in the comfortable old rocking-chair,
newly covered with chins.
"'It is so nice I would like to stay.'
Mrs. McPherson glanced up in surprise.
The tones were such tired, sad ones.
She noticed for the first time the dark rings under Faith's eyes,
and the eyes themselves looked suspiciously red.
Her motherly heart went out to the poor young thing straight away.
"'Something troubles you, child,' she said,
"'or you don't feel well. Can't I help you?'
The tender tones almost made the tears come anew,
and faith, contrary to her reticent nature,
found herself telling kind-hearted Mrs. McPherson
just what did trouble her.
"'Poor dear,' Mrs. McPherson said,
That is hard. If I can't help you, I know one who can. Why don't you go straight to the dear Lord and tell him all about it? You see everything is at his disposal. You know the way to him, don't you? Faith nodded assent, and then said despairingly,
It never occurred to me that God would condescend to think about the small affairs of our everyday life.
But, Mrs. Vincent, you surely read in the word how he numbers the hairs of our heads,
and he says himself, if he gives thought to such little things as lilies in grass, he'll surely look after us.
Doesn't the good shepherd care when the sheep are worried? Indeed he does. Would you stay upstairs
when you heard your dear baby crying? Oh, but you'd run fast to her. He says himself that he is
our father and we are his children. And is he going to stay away off up in heaven and not care about
our everyday troubles? No, just you tell him, and believe that he'll help you in some way,
and he surely will. You see, I can tell all about this because I've proved it. I know it is so,
and it's not every minister that knows that. We had a real young minister to preach for us
last Sunday. He preached about God's care for his people, and I just thought to myself,
If you had ever been in a real tight place, my lad, and the Lord had come and helped you out,
you wouldn't be standing there reading off pretty sounding words to us. You'd just tell it to us,
hearty-like, as if you meant it. But here I am, going on just like a clock. I beg your pardon,
Mrs. Vincent. Go on, Mrs. McPherson, said Faith, I love to hear you.
You hear you talk. Tell me how you came to feel so sure about things. I need to know. I am wrongly called faith, for I have scarcely any.
Oh, I couldn't but feel sure. He hears and helps me so quick when I call to him. He has been so kind to me.
When I was left alone in the world with no home and not a penny that I could call my own, I didn't know which way to turn. I had no trade, and I was not strong enough to do housework.
I fretted and worried over it a spell, then it came to me all of a sudden one day that the Lord could help me if he would.
I called to mind all the verses that tell how kind he is, and I just went and told him all about it,
feeling as sure that he'd help me in some way as if I'd heard him say it.
Sure enough he did.
The very next day a lady advertised for an apprentice to learn the dressmaker's trade.
I went and she took me, and I just got in my right place.
I learned fast, and in a year from that time I could fit as well as she could herself.
She offered me good wages to stay and sew with her,
but I was tired of shop life and wanted a bit of a home of my own,
so I rented these rooms, and I have all I can do and more, too.
It is a nice pleasant place, I think, to myself.
It is cool and comfortable, even if it is to be to.
two flights. You see, I have a north and south window, and if there isn't a good breeze from one way,
there is from the other. Here's my bedroom, opening the door into a good-sized room with a large
window. Blinds, too. I can make it as dark as a pocket. And here's my dining room and kitchen
all in one. Here the lake water comes in. Oh, I tell you, I lack for nothing. But don't your
rooms get all heated up when you cook? Faith asked. Not a bit of it, see here, calling face attention
to what appeared to be a small light table made of iron. This is a gasoline stove, and the man that
invented it ought to have every woman that owns one blessing him as long as he lives, for it's a jewel.
And Mrs. McPherson turned a screw, and the flame flickered and glowed in one of the burners like a
bright star. Here's my fire all made. Pretty soon I shall cook my dinner. Over this burner I'll put my
oven and bake a potato or two nice and brown in 20 minutes or so. Over the other burner I'll boil my
tea kettle and make my tea. Then I'll clap on the gridiron and cook a bit of steak. Nicest way in the
world to cook steak. It is so quick you know that it makes the steak juicy. The quicker you can
cook it the better it is. Will it make bread nicely? Faith asked, growing deeply interested.
To be sure, said Mrs. McPherson, and Mrs. McPherson produced a plump brown loaf. You can see it
is beautifully done. The least bit over half an hour bakes my loaves. Oh, there isn't a thing the creature
won't do. I can tuck a chicken in the oven, and it comes out done to a turn, or put in a joint of meat to boil,
go on with my sewing, it cooks itself, you know. I can roast a turkey. Last Christmas, I roasted one,
invited in a neighbor or two, you know, and you would have thought it came out of my mother's
old-fashioned brick oven it was done so beautifully. I can wash an iron on it, too,
heats the irons as fast as you can use them. It's my opinion that women wouldn't get so
used up at their work if they could have these stoves. It is the heat that takes all the life
and soul out of one. It is pleasant to work if you know how, and can keep cool. It is a real
saving of tempers this stove is, for if you ever noticed it, folks begin to get crossed just as
soon as they get well heated up over a cook stove. No, it doesn't give out any heat, and there
are no ashes, or smoke or soot, or dirt of any kind about it, and it is cheaper to burn than
coal. But have I not heard that gasoline is explosive? Faith asked. It isn't. It will take fire if you bring
it near a flame, just as alcohol will, but it can't explode. There might be a little danger of
its taking fire if you filled it when burning, but nobody would be foolish enough to do that.
I meant to tell you that this little stove is another proof to me that our father pities us in our
little troubles and helps us. I used to have an iron cook stove, and even with my little work,
it would heat up everything so. Just as I got all tuckered out with it, I heard of the gasoline
stove, but I couldn't afford to get one, for work was rather scarce just then. I expected,
though, he would send me one before long, and sure enough he did. It wasn't many days, don't you
believe, till a lady came and asked me if I wanted to sew for her and take a gasoline stove for pay.
Her husband was a dealer in them. You may be sure I said yes pretty quick, so I got it, and a great
comfort it's been to me these three years. No, we don't plot along here with nobody to care how we
get along. He cares. I believe he thought about me and sent me the stove, and I always shall.
"'Well, good-bye, Mrs. McPherson,' said Faith.
"'I am truly obliged to you. You have cheered and helped me.
I think I shall have more trust hereafter, and who knows but I shall set up housekeeping with a gasoline stove,' she added, laughingly,
"'Dear heart, I wish you might.' Mrs. Vincent walked home with an idea in her head and a light in her eye
that were not there when she started. Trust a woman for doing what she was.
wants to. It did not take faith long to lay a plan, and by the time she reached home, a plan lay fair
and clear before her. Once in her room, she sat down and mentally inventoried her possessions.
She went to her trunk and brought out her jewelry. They made a goodly array all the birthday and
holiday gifts of many years, several of them quite costly. She hesitated a little over a beautiful
watch and chain, but finally laid them with the
others, a fair offering at the shrine of love, retaining only a plain gold pin and the rings her
husband gave her. When Baby took her afternoon nap, Faith gathered up her rings and pins and earrings
and bracelets and chains, and the other tinkling ornaments, made them into a package, and went
with a resolute look in her eyes to Mr. Seymour's, one of the largest jewelry stores in the city.
Mr. Seymour was a member of the same church and took a fatherly interest in the young couple.
Faith, with much inward trepidation, unfolded her plans to him.
After careful examination, he named a price for each article that made her heart bound with joy.
As a matter of course, he explained, we never give full value for goods bought in this way,
but when a woman sacrifices her ornaments for such an object, I want to bid her
her godspeed, and I shall give you what I think I can dispose of them for.
He counted out the fresh bills to faith. She could have hugged him, but she only said in low
excited tones, Mr. Seymour, I can't tell you how much I thank you. She almost flew home,
and then dismissing the nurse, acted in a most extraordinary manner. She danced about the room
with baby, nearly squeezing the breath out of her, and laughed and cried by turn.
Then she did some tender, serious thinking. How had the clouds of the morning turned into sunshine.
She recognized the hand of the dear Lord in it all. These suggestions and plans were given by him.
His loving kindness was over her. She would never doubt it more.
When her husband returned at evening, she tried to banish from her tell-tale face all traces of exultation.
This was her secret. He could not know it yet. So poorly did she succeed that he was happily surprised by finding her cheerful instead of sad. And yet, inconsistent mortal, he began to feel slightly annoyed that she seemed to be taking the prospective separation so coolly.
How soon can you be ready to go? he asked in the course of the evening.
That roll of bills in Faith's pocket made her eyes dance with glee as she am.
"'Oh, in about a fortnight, but let us not talk about that tonight. Let me read you this
exquisite little bit I found today.' "'Women are queer,' soliloquized Frank.
"'I don't believe Faith is going to feel our first separation as much as I shall myself.'
Faith studied the daily newspapers diligently for a few days. To rent was always the subject.
I do believe I have found the right thing at last, she announced a baby one day, and she read aloud,
To rent at Maplewood, a cottage of four rooms convenient to street and steam cars, pleasantly located, rent low.
Another hurried consultation with the paper disclosed the fact that a train for Maplewood left in an hour.
Baby was put to sleep to a hurried tune, and Faith had just time enough to reach the train.
Maplewood proved to be a pretty little suburb four miles out. It was rather new, so that it seemed quite like being in the country. Green fields and hills stretched away on either side, and the one broad, quiet avenue was shaded with maples, grand old forest trees. It looked like paradise to faith. She soon found the cottage, a lovely nest of white and green, glimmering through the trees, the smooth lawn gay with daffodils and crocus.
vines clambered over the porch, and the sweet breath of lilies and violets distilled subtle perfume on the spring air.
She stood on the porch, almost afraid to ring, lest she should hear that the house was rented yesterday.
But no, it was to be had, and the nice old lady who owned it wanted to rent it and take up her abode with her daughter,
was just as much delighted as faith.
So eager and enthusiastic attendant was not found ever.
day. The four pretty rooms, parlors, bedroom, dining room, and kitchen, exactly suited. A bargain
was soon concluded, and faith on a homeward train, congratulating herself on the success of a part of her plan.
Many visits were made during the next few days to furniture, carpet, and China stores. One would
have supposed at the least that Mrs. Vincent was furnishing a hotel, but it is no easy matter to take fine tastes and
small purse and make both ends meet. The purchases were all made at last, first and foremost,
the gasoline stove, then the pretty light carpets, the matting, the neat furniture, some cheap
white muslin curtains for the windows, and a small store of China. The young housekeeper
bought carefully. There was nothing for mere show, but when it was all arranged in the little
house and face pictures hung on the white walls, there was nothing to be desired in the way of
beauty or comfort, that is, in the estimation of those most nearly concerned.
Meanwhile, Faith had kept her secret well, going to and fro to the cottage,
busy and happy as any other Robin in springtime preparing her nest.
The nest was all finished now, and Faith stood one afternoon in her kitchen door,
taking a critical and comprehensive view of the whole,
then turning with great satisfaction to survey the kitchen.
It was a mite of a room, but Faith was very proud of it.
This was to be her workshop.
Here, cooking was to be carried on as a fine art.
No ruthless biddy should soil the purity of her new pine table,
or tread out the gray matting on the floor.
She took a last peep into the china closet,
looked lovingly at a row of tin dishes, new and shining,
bestowed admiring glances at the gasoline stove,
the presiding genius of the whole. Then she opened the outside door into an old-fashioned garden,
filled with lilacs and roses and pinks and southern wood, and all spicy plants and fragrant herbs.
She sat down to rest a few minutes. She had accomplished such wonders today.
Daisy had been left for the day in the care of a kind old lady, and Faith, hiring a woman to help her a few hours,
had been hard at work. There was a stone jar,
filled with golden-brown loaves of delicious bread, another jar with cake light as down,
a tempting bit of roast lamb sat in the refrigerator. All was in readiness for tomorrow,
when the grand secret would be revealed. Faith felt so happy and satisfied. She had tried
and proved the stove, it was all that it was represented to be. There was assuredly nothing
now in the way of a home together in the country. Will you not come home early,
and let us take a little trip on the streetcar out into the country?
Faith asked her husband next morning.
Yes, indeed, he answered, sighing.
I must make the most of my family now,
only three days more left, I believe.
The unsuspecting man, little thought
that all his worldly possessions
were not long after on the way to Maplewood,
and that his wife waited impatiently to take him there, too.
Now you are out on my husband,
invitation, you and baby. Faith said, as they alighted from the car at Maplewood,
You are to ask no questions, but do as you are told. She led the way up the pleasant street,
her husband following in silent wonder as she passed up the walk, turned the key of the cottage
door, invited him to come in and be seated, while she passed on into the next room. A few
moments, and then a door swung open, revealing that cool, darkened dining-room, and Faith, with
ill-concealed triumph in the tones, said,
"'Please walk out to tea, my dear. I'm sure you must be hungry by this time.'
He saw as through a mist, the white table arranged with exquisite neatness and care,
decked with flowers, and spread with angels' fair. He almost thought, for he turned to faith a
bewildered look as he said,
Where are we? Is this heaven? Tell me quick.
What a merry tea table it was, how they talked and laughed and almost cried by turns,
and even babies seemed to realize that some great event had happened, and laughed and crowed
appropriately. After tea, when they talked it all over, Frank said,
Who but you would have thought of all this? How happy we shall be here, and I owe it all to you.
you. You forget Mrs. McPherson, Faith said. Yes, and the gasoline stove, but for that it seems
this could not have been accomplished, said her husband. We both forget the dear father in heaven,
Faith said in reverent tones, that we owe everything to him alone. By a mutual impulse they knelt down,
and the husband, in a few words of prayer, consecrated this new home to the Lord, and themselves
anew to his service, thereby feeling added dignity and joy in his manhood, now that he was a priest
in his own house indeed. So the months go on in peace and joy. Faith sings at her work,
and Baby plays in the garden, and Frank Vinson thinks there is but just one woman in the whole
world that knows how to cook. The plan failed in no particular. The magical stove has proved itself
a most efficient servant, and, moreover, Faith manages to lay aside a snug sum every week.
End of Chapter 13. Section 14 of Divers Women by Pansy and Mrs. C. M. Livingston. This slipper-box
recording is in the public domain. Benjamin's wife. A busy, toilsome life she had led, this mother.
She had reared a family, had laid some of them down to sleep in the old.
cemetery, had struggled through poverty, sickness, and sorrow, she and Ephraim together, always
together. He brought her to no stately home that day so long ago that she put her hand in his,
and he had no stocks or bonds or broad acres, yet Mrs. Kensett had for forty years counted herself
a rich woman. She possessed the true, tender, undivided heart of a good man, a love that nothing
dimmed, that trials only made stronger, that hedged her life about with thoughtful care. Even when
grey hairs crowned the heads of both, this husband and wife rejoiced in the love of their youth.
Nay, that love purified, tried, as gold is tried in the fire. In the last few years this good
old couple seemed to have reached a beulah land. They had enough laid by to support them comfortably
now that their children had all flown from the home nest,
and their quiet, happy life flowed on without a ripple.
Mother, Mr. Kensett had said,
I'm going to stop work now and lay by.
I'm getting old, and we've got enough to do us, I guess, as long as we stay.
You can tend your flower beds and darn my stockings,
and I'll make the garden and take care of the chickens.
We'll just take comfort a spell.
If anybody has earned the right to, we have.
as often as once a week he remarked there's one thing i must see to right away i must make my will so that if i go first you'll be sure to have the old place all to yourself i want you to have every scent of it to do as you please with and mother always answered now father don't it won't make much difference how it's fixed it isn't any ways likely that i'll stay long behind you we've been together so long
There came a morning when the hail, cheery old man did not rise with the sun and stepped briskly about his work.
The messenger came for him in the night, and when the first streak of light in the early dawn stole through his chamber window
and fell upon his face to waken him, he did not awake. He had gone, in the darkness, alone with the messenger.
Strange journey, mysterious messenger. His gray coat hung over the chair where he lived,
laid it off, the garden tools stood against the fence, the house had a strange silence, the
sunshine, a cold glare. He who passed in and out yesterday, and worked and smiled and talked and
read the news, today lay in the darkened parlor, white, cold, and still. No, not that,
today walked the golden streets, joined in the everlasting song, and looked upon the face of his
Lord. The old Bible lay open on the stand, the psalm book beside it, his glasses shut into the place
where he sung at family worship a few hours before, and the psalm he sung, his favorite, was in the
words of the quaint old version. I will both lay me down in peace, and quiet sleep will take,
because then only me to dwell in safety, Lord, dust make. Had he known how quiet the sleep was to be,
the calm triumphant faith of the singer would not have wavered,
nor would the peace with which he had laid down have been less.
The will had never been made,
so the old homestead must be sold and divided among them all.
They met at an early day to arrange affairs.
Mr. John Kensett, the eldest son,
and Mrs. Maria Sinclair, the eldest daughter,
were the self-appointed managers.
They were both wealthy, but were just as easy,
to secure the small sum that would fall to them, as was Hannah, another daughter, who married
a poor man and had many mouths to feed. Whatever of sentiment or tender feeling these two
might originally have possessed, had been well rubbed out by the world. In their catechism,
the answer to, what is the chief end of man, read, To make money, to be fashionable, to please
ourselves now and here, always and everywhere. In Benjamin, the youngest of the family,
were condensed all the noble qualities and tender poetical nature of both father and mother,
while the other children brought out the unlovely characters of some distant ancestors.
Why not give it all up to mother, said Benjamin, it will only be enough to keep her in comfort.
No doubt you think that would be a most excellent arrangement,
John answered, inasmuch as you being the youngest would naturally live with her and share the
benefits, and in the end hoped to fall air to the whole by skillful management. Pretty sharp,
Benny, I see you have an eye to business. I am willing to go to the end of the earth and never set
foot in the house again, nor get a cent, Ben exclaimed indignantly, if mother can have a place of her
own to live in comfort while she does live.
Hold on, my dear boy, who said she was not going to live in comfort?
I believe we all have comfortable homes, and it will be much more sensible for her to live
amongst us than try to keep house and take care of this place.
Women always let property run down.
It will only be a trouble.
After much talk and some bickering, it was arranged that mother had better not try to keep
house, but would spend a year or two at a time, around among them all.
A year or two in a place, burst out Benjamin again.
The idea of mother running about like that, begging to be taken in, no place that she can
call home, it's too bad.
This place is hers.
She helped to earn it, and father meant she should have it all.
I heard him say so.
Really, Benji, Mrs. Sinclair said.
You are getting excited.
Mother does not care for the property. It would only be a trouble to her. She will live much more easily with us. You ought to see that we propose to be quite generous with Mother. Of course, the interest of her share will not pay her board anywhere else, but we shall take turns in keeping her for that, besides making her presence of clothing.
Keep her, Ben groaned. Perhaps Benny proposes to set up housekeeping on his own account soon.
said john then mother will have a royal palace to go to and stay no doubt by the way my dear young brother do you think it quite the thing for you to come around finding fault with us who proposed to bear all the burdens ourselves knowing that you haven't assent to give toward it
the young man restrained the bitter answer that was rising to his lips for father's mild eye looked into his from the photograph on the wall he made a firm resolve though as he walked sadly as he walked sadly and he was rising to his lips for father's mild eye looked into his from the photograph on the wall he made a firm resolve though as he walked sadly as he walked sadly
away, that the one purpose of his life would be to make a home for mother, and he would never say
burden either. Dear old Mrs. Kensett was so smitten, so amazed to find that her other self
had gone, where she could not follow, that for days it seemed as if she sat waiting, expecting
the summons to go herself. Surely Ephreum would send for me, she thought, in her sorrow and
bewilderment. It mattered little to her then, how or where she lived. All places were alike,
since he was not in any of them, and she mechanically assented to any proposal that was made her,
though she did cry out as one hurt when John proposed an auction for the sale of household effects.
"'Oh, I can't!' she moaned. Your father made some of that furniture with his own hands.
But the worldly wise son, who had outgrown foolish sentiment,
mentality, overruled her. It all went, the cradle in which they rocked, the old clock, the table
they surrounded so many years. The rage for the antique had not yet shown itself, or John's
wife and Maria would have secured some of the old-fashioned furniture. As it was, they could not
think of having their homes lumbered by it. The other two daughters were not well to do,
and prized money more than mementos. Benjamin protested most earnest.
at this sacrilegious disposal of the dear home things. He could do but little himself, as he was
still pursuing his law studies, though he did bid on his father's armchair and a few other cherished
articles. John touched him on the shoulder and said, Ben, are you crazy? What in the world
will you do with a lot of old furniture? You'll see, said Ben quickly. If John could have seen his
brother's next proceeding, he would certainly have pronounced him a hopeless lunatic. He took the
sum that fell to him and placed it in the bank to his mother's credit. The interest money won't
amount to much, mother, he said, as he handed her the certificate of deposit, but I shall enjoy
thinking that if you want some little thing, you can get it without asking anybody.
Mrs. Sinclair was a woman who lived for society. She had long ago cast aside as puritan.
the wholesome restraints that had governed her girlhood. What with parties, operas, and
theatres, she was a very busy woman. Her young family was much neglected, and she was only
too glad to transfer to her mother what little care she did give them. The restful days were gone,
one would have supposed that Mrs. Sinclair had engaged in her mother a maid and seamstress.
"'It's so nice,' she told her friends.
mother takes the entire charge of them and relieves me. Children are such a responsibility.
It was news to her friends the fact that she was an anxious, burdened mother.
It was hard for Mrs. Kensit to take up her life at the beginning again,
to be confined day after day in a close room with noisy, fretful children,
to go through the round of storytelling, tying shoes, mending tops and dolls,
and minister to the thousand small wants and words,
of undisciplined childhood. She had gone through all that, those chapters of her life she had
considered finished and sealed up. There is no occupation in this world more soul and body trying
than the care of young children. What patience and wisdom, skill, and unlimited love it calls for.
God gave the work to mothers and has furnished them for it, and they cannot shirk it and be guiltless.
It was not unusual when there was a heavy press of work in the house, calling for all the forces,
for baby too to be bundled into Grandma's room and left for hours.
This worked very well while all were in good humor, for Grandma loved children,
but when baby writhed and fretted with aching teeth and would not be comforted,
and Master Freddy resented the least correction by vigorous kicks from his stout little boots,
and Miss Maude List,
I shan't, you ain't my mama!
What wonder that Grandma, absorbed as she was by sad memories,
should lose her patience, too,
and speak the sharp word that did not mend matters,
while she sighed in spirit for the days that would not come back again.
The daughter remembered, too, that mother was cunning with her needle,
how very convenient it became to send the mending basket to her room,
just for some work to pass the time away,
and in time numberless little garments were sent there too, aprons and dresses, and she sat and stitched from morning till night when she was not tending baby. Nobody suggested a ride or a walk for her, or invited her downstairs to while away an evening when there was company.
Mother isn't used to it, Maria said. Besides, she can't hear half that is said. She enjoys herself better alone. I suppose all old people do.
do. This course of reasoning seemed to soothe Mrs. Sinclair's conscience when it proved troublesome,
but in truth she would not have enjoyed introducing her plain-looking mother to her fashionable friends.
So old style! The old lady she was accustomed to meet wore trail and puffs and dress caps.
She might have searched long, though, to find another old face of such sweet, placid dignity as her mother's.
This life in the crowded city was so new and strange and dismal, how the mother longed amid its dust and smoke for the sweet air of Hawthorne, for a sprig of lilac or a June rose from the garden.
Once in a rare while she succeeded in getting to church.
It was a difficult thing to bring about, though.
When nothing happened to prevent, the carriage was driven there,
but apparently in that family there were more hindrances to church-going
than to any other sort of going.
Now that spring had come again, Mrs. Kensett looked forward to a change of her home with pleasure.
She wanted to get into the country once more,
and Martha, the second daughter, had married a farmer and lived in the country. It was a long distance
from Hawthorne, and she had not visited her daughter since her marriage. The pleasant home among trees
and flowers and greenness that she had pictured was not there. Instead, a bare-frame house on a
side hill without a tree or vine. There was no time to enjoy them had they been there. The long hot days
were filled up with work. Endless milking and baking and churning, and the unselfish mother put in
her waning strength early and late, did what she could to lighten the burden that was making her
daughter prematurely old. Then the dismal winter settled down upon them, monotonous days of sleet
and snow and darkness, when nothing happened from week to week to break the dreary routine,
when even the Sabbaths brought no relief.
Mrs. Kensit had ever been an untiring churchgoer,
rain or shine she was in her place.
Her son-in-law was not a Christian
and always had an excellent excuse for remaining at home.
In the summer, the horses were tired, or it was too hot.
In the winter it was too cold or too something.
Many a dreary Sabbath, the sad mother sat at her chamber window
and watched the rain come down and slow, straight drizzle,
repeating to herself rather than singing,
as she rocked to and fro,
How lovely is thy dwelling place, O Lord of hosts to me!
The tabernacles of thy grace, how pleasant Lord they be!
My thirsty soul longs vehemently,
Yea, feints thy courts to see!
My very heart and flesh cry out, O living God, for thee.
longing, meanwhile, with intense desire to sit once again in the old pew, and hear the familiar
tones of her pastor's voice in that far-away pleasant village that used to be her home. Now she had
no home, a wanderer from house to house, and yet she was not a murmurer, her faith and love did not
falter. In due course of time she went on her pilgrim way and tarried for a time at her daughter
Hannah's, a good-natured soul who loved her mother and gave her welcome to such as she had,
but she lived in a small house with a large flock of children, undisciplined, rough and noisy.
It seemed that in the full little house there was no quiet corner for a retreat,
and Grandma often moaned in the words of one of her dear Psalms,
"'Oh, that I like a dove had wings,' said I, then would I flee,
far hence that I might find a place where I in rest might be.
After all I need all this, the old saint would say to herself,
it's a part of my dear Lord's schooling.
I was having too nice a time, Ephraim and I all alone.
I dare say I got out of the way, and he had to bring me back.
He sent me all that peaceful, comfortable time.
I was very glad to have his will done when it was according to my notion.
This is his will all the same, and shall not I be willing to take what he sends?
He is only getting me ready.
Soon the delightful day will come, when my dear Lord will call me home, and I shall see his face.
Albeit the house was small, and the children noisy, this persecuted grandmother of many
homes found herself dreading to leave it, and find a new home with her eldest son.
John's wife had always been to her a most uncomfortable sort of person. She had dreaded her not-frequent visits to their home. Both were glad when they were over. Twenty years had passed since his marriage. She never seemed to get any nearer to his wife. Now the time had come, to go and live with them, she shrank from it and postponed it for weeks. But John was inflexible. He was an upright man and bound to do his part in sharing the burden of his
mother's maintenance. Mrs. John Kensett was one of those icy women with thin lips and
and cold gray eyes made up from the first without a heart, women who make a cool atmosphere about
them even in the heat of summer. She was tall and stylish and handsomely dressed, and when she
mounted her gold eyeglasses and through them severely looked one over, she was formidable
indeed to so make a woman as her mother-in-law. She must have married John Kenzsche. She must have married
John Kensit because an establishment is more complete with a man at the head of it, for that was
the chief end of her life, to keep things all in perfect running order in that elegantly appointed
home, and to keep abreast of the times in all new adornings and furnishings under the sun.
One scripture admonition at least, she gave heed to. She looked well to the ways of her household.
One might explore from Garrett to cellar in that house, and find nothing out of place,
Nothing soiled, nothing left undone that should have been done.
She was withal a rigid economist in small things.
Everything was kept under lock and key,
and doled out in very small quantities to the servants.
Her table could never merit the charge of being vulgarly loaded.
The furnace heat was never allowed to run above a certain mark on the thermometer,
no matter who shivered,
and she had doubtless walked miles in turning gas jets to just the right point.
In this most elegant, precise, immaculate house, where everything and everybody was controlled
by certain unvarying and inflexible rules, the old mother felt almost as straightened as she ever
had in the small topsy-turvy one. Her room was scarcely above shivering point, and the back
windows overlooked no cheerful prospect. Here day after day she sat alone. She had food and
shelter and clothes, what more could old people possibly want? At meal times, her son was silent and
abstracted or absorbed in his newspaper. If anybody had told him that his old mother's heart was
nearly breaking, for lack of loving sympathy, he would have been astonished. The faded eyes often
grew dim with tears as she looked at him, the frigid, unbending man, and remembered him as he was
in those first years of her married life,
darling little Johnny in white dresses and long curls,
running after butterflies and picking flowers.
If he only would kiss her once more,
or do something to make her sure that he was Johnny,
she was hungry for a tender word from him.
Ah, if mothers could see down the years that stretch ahead,
it would not always be so hard to lay the little lisping ones under the ground.
Was it decreed that most mothers shall be
and sympathy with that other one, of whom it is written, a sort shall pierce thine own heart also?
We shall never know about the wounds from those dear self-sacrificing mothers, but they are there,
even though they may strive to hide them, and find excuses for the cold neglect, indifference to
their comfort, impatience, and the putting them one side as if to say,
what is all this to you? It is time you were dead.
John is busy, she would say, as she mounted the stairs to her lonely room, and he buttoned his coat and hastened away to business without a good-bye or a good night. Then she would draw out her knitting and knit on, often through tear-blinded eyes. Sometimes she did not hear a remark the first time, and would ask to have it repeated, but the manifest impatience with which it was done always cast a pang well-likened to a sword-thrust,
but the dear mother would cover the wound and think within herself i know it is a great trouble to talk to deaf people i ought to keep still
strange that these stabs come not alone from the lost sheep of the family but from the son who is the honored citizen from the daughter who shines in her circle as a woman of many virtues from grandchildren trained up in the sabbath school
into each life some sunshine must fall as well as rain and mrs kensit had much of hers from benjie's letters they were regular as the dew and cheery as the sun i'll balsam for the wounds in the poor heart
they were not mere scribbles either i am well and i hope you are i haven't time to write more now but good long letters with accounts of all his comings and goings the people he met the books he read hear a dash of fun
and they're a poetical fancy, and through them all ran like a golden thread the dear boy's tender love and reverence for his mother.
Never did Maiden watch for lover's missive with more ardor. Sometimes he wrote one day, sometimes another,
but always once a week, and Mrs. Kensett kept a sharp lookout for the postman.
When the time drew near for him to come, she made many journeys down the stairs to see if she could get a glimpse of him.
When the expected letter was not forthcoming, she felt somehow as if the postman were to blame.
But when he did come, ah, that was the one bright day of the week.
How she read and re-read it, and put it in her pocket and thought it over, while she went on with her knitting,
then when some little point was not quite distinct in her mind, brought it out and read it again,
so that by the time another one came, this one was worn out.
John's wife thought to regulate this one small pleasant excitement of her mother-in-law's life
by remarking to her husband that,
"'Somebody ought to tell Benjamin to write on a particular day
"'Mother was so fidgety when it was time for the mail.
"'How small a thing is a letter to make one happy!
"'And yet some of us let the sword pierce the dear mother heart
"'by withholding that which costs us so little.
"'God pity us when our mothers are gone beyond the reach of
voice or pen. One day her letter contained news of great importance. It was read and pondered long.
Benji was going to be married. The mother did not like the news. Somehow in all her plans for Benji,
the wife had not come in. Now this would be the last of her comfort in him. He would marry and
settle down and probably be just like John, given up to business. He pictured out his future bride
is good and lovely. Of course he thought so, but poor Mrs. Kensit could get no vision of a daughter-in-law
except a tall woman with a severe expression. She is an heiress, Benji wrote. Well, what of that?
John's wife had property, too. She would likely be proud and ashamed of a plain old woman like her.
Benjamin was no fortune-hunter. He was hard at work in his profession, with no other ambition
directly before him, but to get together a humble home to which he might take his mother.
He intended to surprise her, as soon as his income would at all warrant it.
But as John Milton, when he met Mary Powell, fastened his eyes earnestly upon her,
knowing that he had found Mistress Milton, so Benjamin, the first Sabbath he took a class in the
Mission Sabbath School, and found himself near neighbor to a sweet-faced young teacher, knew that
no other face in all the world could so closely resemble the ideal picture he had sketched of that
dim, shadowy, far-off person, his wife. Marian Ledyard, too, would not willingly have confessed
with what a thrill of pleasure she noticed the young stranger was in his place again on the following
Sabbath, nor how for a time she searched diligently through every assembly for that one face that had
such strange power to attract her. In no place, though, did she happen to meet him except that one,
where there was no opportunity for acquaintance. Benjamin had fully resolved to seek her out,
but learning that she was an orphan who possessed a large fortune in her own right, he was
too proud to be counted one of the moths that flutter about a candle.
so he made another resolve to think no more about her which stoical purpose was not easy to carry out especially as the blue eyes were often meeting his much to the discomfiture of their owner
the coveted opportunity came at last the holidays brought the annual entertainment for the children and under the friendly boughs of the christmas tree the acquaintance began and progressed remarkably fast it was not strange either considering
considering that each had been in the other's thoughts constantly for the last six weeks.
They walked home in the moonlight, wondering at the singular beauty that crowned the earth.
The telltale eyes of each must have revealed the secret to the heart of the other,
for the usual preliminaries, formalities, windings and turnings of modern courtship seemed unnecessary.
The two drifted together as naturally as fleecy white clouds in the blue sky.
He forgot that she was worth half a half-fetched.
a million, and what did she care that he possessed not anything but his own precious self?
Had she not enough for both?
Not alone in stocks and bonds were Marion Ledyard's riches.
She had been a mere butterfly of fashion and frivolity, absorbed in worldly gaiety,
but the Lord met her, and she fell at his feet, saying,
What will thou have me do?
And as she had eagerly, unreservedly followed the world, so now she gave herself up,
body, soul, time, and wealth to the service of the Lord, and she was far more sweet and fascinating in
her joyful abandonment to her blessed master's service than ever she had been in the service of
that other master. She was that rare combination, a young, wealthy, consecrated Christian.
Now, Mother, wrote Benjamin, just as soon as we are married, which will be very soon,
you are to come to us. Marianne says she remembers her own dear,
mother and has been lonely without her these many years. This was no welcome news to the weary mother.
Had it been dear Benjamin alone that she was to live with, how she would have hailed her deliverance,
but another son's wife. How could she face her and be dependent on her? It would be her house
and her money that provided everything. She would feel like a beggar she was sure. She could by no
stretch of imagination conceive a son's wife to be other than a person to be dreaded she spent many sleepless nights over it and shed tears in secret her triumphant faith was never more tried than now
it may be that in some far-off day by means of some wonderful instrument yet uncreated our eyes shall look upon our friends separated from them by long distances shall know their comings and goings their thoughts and mode
Being not possessed of any such power, Mother Kensit vexed her soul in one city, while in another, two young people, happy as birds, held long consultations as to which should be mother's room, just how it should be furnished, and ran here and there with the eagerness of children gathering moss and bits of China, and all rare and pretty things for a playhouse under the trees.
Marion's ancestral home had been closed for a long time. It was a stately mansion of wide halls and towers and spacious apartments, surrounded by magnificent grounds. During the last few months it had been thoroughly remodeled and refurnished, and now the young couple, after a brief bridal tour, were fairly established in it. One might suppose that Mrs. Kensett would have felt some risings of pride, as, leaning
on the arm of her youngest son, she mounted the marble steps and walked through the spacious halls
and beautiful parlors of his home. But John's home was handsome, too. The carpets were soft and rich,
the chairs luxurious, and curtained windows spread their drapery about them in soft fine folds.
What of all that, when hearts were frozen? Wealth to this mother meant pride, selfishness,
and irreligion. She looked about her, feeling should
that a tall, elegant lady in a stiff silk train would sweep in, extend the tips of her fingers,
and call a servant to get her off to her room, with all possible dispatch. There was no one in the
parlors, and Benjamin led his mother on into the dining-room, a room full of warmth and light,
the tea-table already spread, and a delicate, home-like aroma of toast and tea pervading it.
A slight girlish figure in a simple dress of dark blue, her bright hair rippling away into a knot behind,
was bending over the grate toasting a piece of bread by the coals.
So noiselessly had they approached that she heard no sound until they stood before her.
Mrs. Kensit was still looking for Benjamin's wife to appear in the shape of a cold, grim person of imposing appearance,
wearing gold eye-glasses, when suddenly the toasting forked,
was dropped, and with a low cry of joy, Marion sprang into her husband's arms. Then, without
waiting for formal words of introduction, clasped loving arms about the tired mother, and nestled a
rosy face close to hers, and gave her warm-clinging kisses, such as are reserved only for our
best-beloved.
"'Dear mother!' she said. "'I am so glad you have come. You are cold. Sit right here.'
and she wheeled a large chair into the warmest corner and with her own hands removed the wrappings and carried them away i wanted to have the toast just the right brown so i was doing it myself she explained as she took up her toasting fork and went on with her work
and the old mother sat and feasted her eyes on the pretty picture,
the bright, happy face, the quick, graceful movements,
as she dexterously put last little touches to the table,
chatting pleasantly meanwhile, making tender inquiries about her health and her journey.
Mrs. Kensit began already to feel as if this was a dear daughter,
separated from her years ago and now restored.
It seemed just as if I had been away visiting and got home again,
she told someone afterward after tea and resting they both went with her in merry procession to her room carrying shawls and satchel and waiting with the eager joy of two children to see how she liked everything she would have been hard to suit if she had not liked it the room was a large pleasant one with a sunny bay window a stand of plants a case of books and every other thing that she could possibly need or desire
Mrs. Kensett started as her eye fell on familiar objects. There was the claw-footed
mahogany-centred table with antique carvings, her straight-backed old rocker, and father's
dear armchair, both newly cushioned and otherwise brightened up. The sofa, too, of ancient
pattern that had stood in her parlour at Hawthorne for forty years, looked like an old friend in a new
dress. Benjamin had ransacked all the carpet stores to find a carpet that would resemble as
nearly as possible, in color and design, his mother's parlor carpet when he was a boy. He succeeded
so well that his mother put on her glasses and bent nearer to make sure it was not that identical
one. In an out-of-the-way corner, she discovered her little three-legged stand, holding a tiny
brass candlestick, one of her wedding presents, and the snuffers on the Japan trays.
It was not alone that the old times were brought back so vividly that made the tears come,
but this one little thing showed such loving thoughtfulness for her comfort.
John's wife would never have allowed a candle in the house.
This was Benjamin's hour of triumph and gladness.
For this he had spent years of patient toil, and now it had come in such a strange,
way it and so much more than he had asked or looked for this princely home this precious wife and mother abiding with them all the rest of her days it was too much such loving kindness
marian understood she did not express surprise when he brought out a little worn psalm-book that she had never seen and said sing this for me dear to some old tune that fits it i wish i knew what my father's
sang it to when I was a boy. I have a book of old music here. Perhaps I can find every one,
she said, and then the pure voice soared out in the song of praise his father had loved.
Praise God for he is kind, His mercy lasts for a. Give thanks with heart and mind to God of God's
all way, for certainly His mercies doer, most firm and sure eternally.
the quaint rendering new to her pleased her and she sang others closing in low soft notes with the lord's my shepherd i'll not want he makes me down to lie in pastures green he leadeth me the quiet waters by
and the dear old mother dreamed as a strain or two of lennox and st martin's floated up to her room that she was in the old home and father was conducting family worship
little by little with her coaxing ways marian succeeded in effecting a change in her mother-in-law's dress and when one day everything was finished and she had her arrayed in a fine black cashmere made according to her own ideas of simplicity
the white hair crowned with a soft lace cap and the same soft folds about her neck her delight was complete you dear beautiful mother she said clasping the lace with a plain jet pin
it is just delightful to fix you up everything sets you out so it's better than dressing dolls won't benjie be delighted when maria and john and john's wife came to visit their new sister-in-law they were astounded
beyond measure to find that mother had been transformed into that handsome old lady who moved
about this elegant home with easy dignity as if it were her own. This rare son and daughter
never made their mother feel that she was that uncomfortable third person who spoiled the delightful
confidences for young people. They talked freely together and with her, and she renewed her
youth in their lively intercourse. When Company was announced, she was given to retiring in haste from
the room, just as she had at Maria's and Johns, but Marion stopped that with,
"'Please do stay, mother, and help us entertain them. Besides, I want you in that corner with your
bright knitting to make our rooms picturesque. You're the greatest ornament they contain.'
Then the old lady would say, "'Poo, you don't want an old body like me.'
albeit she was well pleased that she was wanted and would remain occasionally throwing in her quaint remark adding zest to the conversation
if an old lady could be easily spoiled mrs kensit was in danger these two fond children were continually bringing offerings to her shrine flowers choice fruit new books wherever they went they remembered her
it was an altogether new and delightful life that she had entered upon with marian she visited charitable institutions dispensed bounties read the bible to the sick and poor and ministered comfort to many a distressed soul
they attended wonderful meetings and sat in heavenly places and marian and she enjoyed each other quite as much as they did everything else the tie that united them was not benjamin alone each recognized in the
other, the lineaments of the Lord she loved. Their sympathies flowed together as if half a century did
not stretch between them. Is there any other influence known that levels all differences and brings
souls so near together as this strange personal love to Christ? They talked and read together,
they were dear confidential friends. Such intercourse is rarely found between mother and daughter.
The following summer, when they all took up their abode in Hawthorne, in the old home that Marion had purchased and refitted for a summer residence, and Mrs. Kensett trained again the vines in her garden, her cup was full, especially when in the old church she joined her voice to the great congregation, and sang her joy and thanks in the sweet psalm,
O thou my soul, bless God the Lord, and all that in me is, be stirred up His holy name to magnify and bless.
Bless, O my soul, the Lord thy God, and not forgetful be of all his gracious benefits.
End of Section 14.
End of Divers Women by Pansy and Mrs. C. M. Livingston, recorded by Trisha G.
