Classic Audiobook Collection - Emily of New Moon by Lucy Maud Montgomery ~ Full Audiobook [family]

Episode Date: November 4, 2023

Emily of New Moon by Lucy Maud Montgomery audiobook. Genre: family Emily Starr never knew what it was to be lonely -- until her beloved father died. Now Emily's an orphan, and her mother's snobbish r...elatives are taking her to live with them at New Moon Farm. She's sure she won't be happy Emily deals with stiff, stern Aunt Elizabeth and her malicious classmates by holding her head high and using her quick wit. Things begin to change when she makes friends: with Teddy, who does marvelous drawings; with Perry, who's sailed all over the world with his father yet has never been to school; and above all, with Use, a tomboy with a blazing temper. Amazingly, Emily finds New Moon beautiful and fascinating. With new friends and adventures, Emily might someday think of herself as Emily of New Moon. For ad-free listening try our premium subscription Chapters (Approximate) (00:00:00) Chapter 01 (00:15:03) Chapter 02 (00:38:29) Chapter 03 (01:06:49) Chapter 04 (01:28:51) Chapter 05 (01:45:02) Chapter 06 (02:08:53) Chapter 07 (02:41:34) Chapter 08 (03:06:51) Chapter 09 (03:19:56) Chapter 10 (03:38:49) Chapter 11 (03:56:26) Chapter 12 (04:15:14) Chapter 13 (04:34:31) Chapter 14 (04:50:32) Chapter 15 (05:11:03) Chapter 16 (05:26:29) Chapter 17 (05:52:54) Chapter 18 (06:23:04) Chapter 19 (06:53:35) Chapter 20 (07:32:22) Chapter 21 (07:42:13) Chapter 22 (08:06:49) Chapter 23 (08:32:28) Chapter 24 (08:51:04) Chapter 25 (09:15:02) Chapter 26 (09:32:10) Chapter 27 (09:47:09) Chapter 28 (10:15:20) Chapter 29 (10:41:19) Chapter 30 (11:00:27) Chapter 31 (11:29:53) Chapter 32 (11:57:44) Chapter 33 (12:29:17) Chapter 34 Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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Starting point is 00:00:00 Emily of New Moon by Lucy M. Montgomery, Section 1 The house in the hollow was, a mile from anywhere, so Maywood people said. It was situated in a grassy little dale, looking as if it had never been built like other houses, but had grown up there like a big brown mushroom. It was reached by a long green lane and almost hidden from view by an encircling growth of young birches. No other house could be seen from it, although the village was just over the hill. Ellen Green said it was the lonesomest place in the world, and vowed that she wouldn't stay there a day if it wasn't that she pitied the child.
Starting point is 00:00:42 Emily didn't know she was being pitied, and didn't know what lonesomeness meant. She had plenty of company. There was father and Mike and saucy cell. The wind woman was always around, and there were the tree. Adam and Eve and the rooster pine and all the friendly lady birches. And there was the flash, too. She never knew when it might come, and the possibility of it kept her a thrill and expectant.
Starting point is 00:01:12 Emily had slipped away in the chilly twilight for a walk. She remembered that walk very vividly all her life, perhaps because of a certain eerie beauty that was in it. Perhaps because the flash came for the first time in weeks, more likely because of what happened after she came back from it. It had been a dull, cold day in early May, threatening to rain, but never raining. Father had lain on the sitting-room lounge all day. He had coughed a good deal, and he had not talked much to Emily,
Starting point is 00:01:44 which was a very unusual thing for him. Most of the time he lay with his hands clasped under his head, and his large sunken dark blue eyes fixed dreamily and unseeingly on the cloudy sky, that was visible between the boughs of the two big spruces in the front yard. Adam and Eve, they always called those spruces because of a whimsical resemblance Emily had traced between their position, with reference to a small apple tree between them, and that of Adam and Eve in the Tree of Knowledge in an old-fashioned picture in one of Ellen Green's books. The tree of knowledge looked exactly like the squat little apple tree, and Adam and Eve stood up on
Starting point is 00:02:23 either side as stiffly and rigidly as did the spruces. Emily wondered what bother was thinking of, but she never bothered him with questions when his cough was bad. She only wished she had somebody to talk to. Ellen Green wouldn't talk that day either. She did nothing but grunt, and Grunt meant that Ellen was disturbed about something. She had grunted last night after the doctor had whispered to her in the kitchen, and she had granted when she gave Emily a bedtime snack of bread and molasses. Emily did not like bread and molasses, but she ate it because she did not want to hurt Ellen's feelings. It was not often that Ellen allowed her anything to eat before going to bed,
Starting point is 00:03:05 and when she did it meant that for some reason or other she wanted to confer special favor. Emily expected the grunting attack would wear off overnight, as it generally did, but it had not, so no company was to be found in Ellen. Not that there was a great deal to be found at any time. Douglas Starr had once, in a fit of exasperation, told Emily that, Ellen Green was a fat, lazy old thing of no importance. And Emily, whenever she looked at Ellen after that, thought the description fitted her to her hair.
Starting point is 00:03:38 So Emily had curled herself up in the ragged, comfortable old wing chair and read the pilgrim's progress all the afternoon. Emily loved the pilgrim's progress. Many a time had she walked the straight and narrow path with Christian and Christiana, although she never liked Christianna's adventures half as well as Christians. For one thing, there was always such a crowd with Christiana.
Starting point is 00:04:01 She had not half the fascination of that solitary, intrepid figure who faced all alone the shadows of the dark valley and the encounter with Apollion. Darkness and hobgoblins were nothing when you had plenty of company, but to be alone, ah! Emily shivered with the delicious horror of it.
Starting point is 00:04:19 When Ellen announced that supper was ready, Douglas Dar told Emily to go out to it. I don't want anything tonight. I'll just lie here and rest. And when you come in again, we'll have a real talk, Elfkin. He smiled up at her, his old beautiful smile with the love behind it, that Emily always found so sweet. She ate her supper quite happily, though it wasn't a good supper. The bread was soggy and her egg was underdone. But for a wonder, she was. was allowed to have both saucy cell and Mike sitting, one on each side of her, and Ellen only grunted when Emily fed them wee bits of bread and butter. Mike had such a cute way of sitting up on his haunches and catching the bits in his paws, and saucy's cell had her trick of touching Emily's ankle with an almost human touch when her turn was too long in coming. Emily loved them both, but Mike was her favorite. He was a handsome dark grey cat with huge owl-like eye.
Starting point is 00:05:19 eyes, and he was so soft and fat and fluffy. Cell was always thin, no amount of feeding put any flesh on her bones. Emily liked her but never cared to cuddle or stroke her because of her thinness. Yet there was a sort of weird beauty about her that appealed to Emily. She was grey and white, very white, and very sleek, with a long pointed face, very long ears and very green eyes. She was a redoubtable fighter, and strange cats were vanquished in one round. the fearless little Spitfire would even attack dogs and rout them utterly.
Starting point is 00:05:54 Emily loved her pussies. She had brought them up herself, as she proudly said. They had been given to her when there were kittens by her Sunday school teacher. A living present is so nice, she told Ellen, because it keeps on getting nicer all the time. But she worried considerably because saucy's cell didn't have kittens. I don't know why she doesn't, she complained to Ellen Green. most cats seem to have more kittens than they know what to do with.
Starting point is 00:06:21 After supper, Emily went in and found that her father had fallen asleep. She was very glad of this. She knew he had not slept much for two nights, but she was a little disappointed that they were not going to have that real talk. Real talks with father were always such delightful things. But next best would be a walk, a lovely, or by your lonesome walk, through the grey evening of the young spring. It was so long since she had had a walk.
Starting point is 00:06:48 You put on your hood and mind you scoot back if it starts to rain, warned Ellen. You can't monkey with colds the way some kids can. Why can't I? Emily asked rather indignantly. Why must she be debarred from monkeying with colds if other children could? It wasn't fair. But Ellen only grunted. Emily muttered under her breath for her own satisfaction. You are a fat old thing of no importance.
Starting point is 00:07:14 and slipped upstairs to get her hood, rather reluctantly, for she loved to run bare-headed. She put the faded blue hood on over her long, heavy braid of glossy jet-black hair, and smiled chummily at her reflection in the little greenish glass. The smile began at the corners of her lips and spread over her face, in a slow, subtle, very wonderful way, as Douglas Starr often thought. It was her dead mother's smile, the thing that had caught and held him long ago when he had first, seen Juliet Murray. It seemed to be Emily's only physical inheritance from her mother. In all else he thought she was like the stars, in her large, purplish-grey eyes with their
Starting point is 00:07:56 very long lashes and black brows, in her high white forehead, too high for beauty, in the delicate modelling of her pale oval face and sensitive mouth, in the little ears that were pointed just a wee bit to show that she was kin to tribes of Elfland. I'm going for a walk with The wind woman, dear, said Emily, I wish I could take you too. Do you ever get out of that room, I wonder? The wind woman is going to be out in the fields tonight. She is tall and misty with thin, grey, silky clothes blowing all about her, and wings like a bats, only you can see through them,
Starting point is 00:08:33 and shining eyes like stars looking through her long, loose hair. She can fly, but tonight she will walk with me all over the fields. She's a great friend of mine, the wind woman is. I've known her ever since I was six. We're old, old friends, but not quite so old as you and I, little Emily in the glass. We've been friends, always, haven't we?
Starting point is 00:08:56 With a blown kiss to little Emily in the glass, Emily out of the glass was all. The wind woman was waiting for her outside, ruffling the little spears of striped grass that were sticking up stiffly in the bed under the sitting-room window, tossing the big boughs of Adam and Eve, whispering among the misty green branches
Starting point is 00:09:15 of the birches, teasing the rooster pine behind the house. It really did look like an enormous, ridiculous rooster, with a huge bunchy tail and a head thrown back to crow. It was so long since Emily had been out for a walk that she was half crazy with the joy of it. The winter had been so stormy and the snow so deep that she was never allowed out. April had been a month of rain and wind,
Starting point is 00:09:39 so on this May evening she felt like a released prisoner. Where should she go? down the brook, or over the fields to the spruce barons. Emily chose the latter. She loved the spruce barons, away at the further end of the long, sloping pasture. That was a place where magic was made. She came more fully into her fairy birth right there than in any other place. Nobody who saw Emily skimming over the barefield would have envied her.
Starting point is 00:10:09 She was little and pale and poorly clad. Sometimes she shivered in her thin jacket. yet her queen might have gladly given a crown for her visions, her dreams of wonder. The brown frosted grasses under her feet were velvet piles. The old mossy, noiled, half-dead spruce tree, under which she paused for a moment to look up into the sky, was a marble column in a palace of the gods. The far dusky hills were the ramparts of a city of wonder, and for companions she had all the fairies of the countryside, for she could believe in them here.
Starting point is 00:10:45 the fairies of the white clover and satin catkins the little green folk of the grass the elves of the young fir trees sprites of wind and wild fern and thistledown anything might happen there everything might come true and the barons were such a splendid place in which to play hide and seek with the wind woman. She was so very real there, if you could just spring quickly enough around a little cluster of spruces, only you never could. You would see her as well as feel her and hear her. There she was. That was the sweep of her grey cloak. No, she was laughing up in the very top of the taller trees and the chase was on again, till all at once it seemed as if the wind woman were gone.
Starting point is 00:11:30 and the evening was bathed in a wonderful silence, and there was a sudden rift in the curdled clouds westward, and a lovely pale, pinky-green lake of sky with a new moon in it. Emily stood and looked at it with clasped hands, and her little black head upturned. She must go home and write down a description of it in the yellow account book, where the last thing written had been Mike's biography. It would hurt her with its beauty until she wrote it down.
Starting point is 00:11:58 Then she would read it to father. she must not forget how the tips of the trees on the hill came out like fine black lace across the edge of the pinky green sky. And then for one glorious supreme moment came the flash. Emily called it that, although she felt that the name didn't exactly describe it. It couldn't be described, not even to father, who always seemed a little puzzled by it. Emily never spoke of it to anyone else. It had always seemed to Emily ever since she could remember that she was very very, very, very near to a world of wonderful beauty.
Starting point is 00:12:32 Between it and herself hung only a thin curtain. She could never draw the curtain aside, but sometimes, just for a moment, a wind fluttered it, and then it was as if she caught a glimpse of the enchanting realm beyond, only a glimpse, and heard a note of unearthly music.
Starting point is 00:12:51 This moment came rarely, went swiftly, leaving her breathless with the inexpressible delight of it. she could never recall it, never summon it, never pretend it, but the wonder of it stayed with her for days. It never came twice with the same thing. Tonight the dark boughs against that far-off sky had given it. It had come with a high wild note of wind in the night,
Starting point is 00:13:17 with a shadow wave over a ripe field, with a grey bird lighting on her window still in a storm, with the singing of Holy, Holy, holy, holy in church, with a glimpse of the kitchen fire when she had come home on a dark autumn night, with a spirit-like blue of ice palms on a twilight pane, with a felicitous new word when she was writing down a description of something. And always when the flash came to her, Emily felt that life was a wonderful, mysterious thing of persistent beauty.
Starting point is 00:13:48 She scuttled back to the house in the hollow, through the gathering twilight, all agogged to get home and write down her description, before the memory picture of what she had seen grew a little blurred. She knew just how she would begin it. The sentence seemed to shape itself in her mind. The hill called to me and something in me called back to it. She found Ellen Green waiting for her on the sunken front doorstep.
Starting point is 00:14:13 Emily was so full of happiness that she loved everything at that moment, even fat things of no importance. She flung her arms around Ellen's knees and hugged them. Ellen looked down gloomily into the rapt little face, where excitement had kindled a faint wild rose flush, and said with a ponderous sigh, Do you know that your pa has only a week or two more to live? End of Section 1, recording by Leanne Fortune.
Starting point is 00:14:47 Section 2 of Emily of New Moon by Lucy M. Montgomery. This Librivox recording is in the public domain, recording by Leanne Fortune Section 2 Emily stood quite still and looked up at Ellen's broad red face as still as if she had been suddenly turned to stone she felt as if she had
Starting point is 00:15:09 she was as stunned as if Ellen had struck her physical blow the colour faded out of her little face and her pupils dilated until they swallowed up the irises and turned her eyes into pools of blackness The effect was so starkling That even Ellen Green felt uncomfortable I'm telling you this
Starting point is 00:15:29 Because I think it's high time you was told She said I've been at your powerful months to tell you But he's kept putting it off and off I says to him says I You know how hard she takes things And if you drop off sudden someday It'll most kill her if she hasn't been prepared
Starting point is 00:15:46 It's your duty to prepare her And he says he There's time enough yet to Ellen but he's never said a word, and when the doctor told me last night that the end might come any time now, I just made up my mind that I'd do what was right, and drop a hint to prepare you.
Starting point is 00:16:04 Loza, messy, child, don't look like that. You'll be looked after. Your mouse people will see to that, on account of the Murray pride if or no other reason. They won't let one of their own bloods starve or go to strangers, even if they have always hated your paw-like poison. You'll have a good home, veteran you've ever had here. You needn't worry a mite.
Starting point is 00:16:26 As for your par, you ought to be thankful to see him at rest. He's been dying by interest for the last five years. He's kept it from you, but he's been a great sufferer. Folks say his heart broke when your ma died. It came on him so sudden-like. She was only sick three days. That's why I want you to know what's coming, so as you won't be all upset when it happens.
Starting point is 00:16:49 For mercy's sake, Emily Bird's start. Don't stand there staring like that. You give me the creeps. You ain't the first child that's been left an orphan and you won't be the last. Try and be sensible. And don't go pestering your paw about what I've told you. Mind that. Come you in now, out of the damp, and I'll give you a cookie for you go to bed.
Starting point is 00:17:10 Ellen stepped down as if to take the child's hand. The power of motion returned to Emily. She must scream if Ellen even touched her now. With one sudden sharp, bitter, little cry, she avoided Ellen's hand, darted through the door, and fled up the dark staircase. Ellen shook her head and waddled back to the kitchen. Anyhow, I've done my duty, she reflected.
Starting point is 00:17:36 He'd have just kept staying time enough and put it off till he was dead, and then there'd have been no managing her. She'll have time now to get used to it, and she'll brace up in a day or two. I will say for her she's got spunk, which is lucky from all i've heard of the murray's they won't find it easy to over crow her she's got a streak of their pride too and that'll help her through i wish i did send some of the murray's word that he's dying but i don't ask go that pa there's no telling what he'd do well i've stuck on here to the last and i ain't sorry not many women would a done it living as they do here it's a shame the way that child's been wrought her never even sent to school. Well, I've told him often enough what I've thought of it. It ain't on my conscience.
Starting point is 00:18:24 That's one comfort. Here, you sell thing, you get out. Where's Mike too? Ellen could not find Mike for the very good reason that he was upstairs with Emily, held tightly in her arms as she sat in the darkness on her little cot bed. Amid her agony and desolation, there was a certain comfort in the feel of his soft fur and round velvety hair. Emily was not crying. She stared straight into the darkness, trying to face the awful thing Ellen had told her. She did not doubt it. Something told her it was true. Why couldn't she die too? She couldn't go on living without father. If I was God, I wouldn't let things like this happen, she said. She felt it was very wicked of her to say such a thing. Ellen had told her once that it was the wickedest thing anyone could do to find fault with God,
Starting point is 00:19:20 but she didn't care. Perhaps if she were wicked enough, God would strike her dead, and then she and father could keep on being together. But nothing happened. Only Mike got tired of being held so tightly and squirmed away. She was all alone now, with this terrible burning pain that seemed all over her, and yet was not of the body. She could never get rid of it.
Starting point is 00:19:43 she couldn't help it by writing about it in the old yellow account book she had written there about her sunday-school teacher going away and of being hungry when she went to bed and ellen telling her she must be half crazy to talk of windwomen and flashes and after she had written down all about them these things hadn't hurt her any more but this couldn't be written about she could not even go to father for comfort as she had gone when she burned her hand so badly, picking up the red-hot poker by mistake. Father had held her in his arms all that night and told her stories and helped her to bear the pain. But father, so Ellen had said, was going to die in a week or two. Emily felt as if Ellen had told her this years and years ago. It surely couldn't be less than an hour since she had been playing with the wind woman in the barrens and looking at the new moon in the pinky-green sky. The flash will never come again.
Starting point is 00:20:47 It can't, she thought. But Emily had inherited certain things from her fine old ancestors, the power to fight, to suffer, to pity, to love very deeply, to rejoice, to endure. These things were all in her, and looked out at you through her purplish-grateful, eyes. Her heritage of endurance came to her aid now and bore her up. She must not let Father know what Ellen had told her. It might hurt him. She must keep it all to herself and love Father.
Starting point is 00:21:24 Oh, so much, in the little while she could yet have him. She heard him cough in the room below. She must be in bed when he came up. She undressed as swiftly as her cold fingers permitted and crept into the little cot-bed which stood across the open window. The voices of the gentle spring night called to her all unheeded, unheard the wind-woman whistled by the ease, for the fairies dwell only in the kingdom of happiness, having no souls they cannot enter the kingdom of sorrow. She lay there cold and tearless and motionless when her father came into the room.
Starting point is 00:22:02 How very slowly he walked, how very slowly he took off his clothes. How was it she had never noticed these things before? But he was not coughing at all. Oh, what if Ellen were mistaken? What if? A wild hope shot through her aching heart. She gave a little gasp. Douglas Starr came over to her bed.
Starting point is 00:22:25 She felt his dear nearness as he sat down on the chair beside her, in his old red dressing gown. Oh, how she loved him. There was no other father like him in all the world. They never could have been. So tender, so understanding, so wonderful. They had always been such chums. They had loved each other so much.
Starting point is 00:22:47 It couldn't be that they were to be separated. Winkham's, are you asleep? No, whispered Emily. Are you sleepy, small dear? No, no, not sleepy. Douglas Starr took her hand and held it tightly. Then we'll have our talk, honey. I can't sleep either. I want to tell you something. Oh, I know it, I know it, burst out Emily. Oh, father, I know it. Ellen told me.
Starting point is 00:23:22 Douglas Starr was silent for a moment, then he said under his breath, the old fool, the fat old bull, as if Ellen's fatness was an added aggravation of her folly. Again for the last time, Emily hoped. Perhaps it was all a dreadful mistake, just some more of Ellen's fat foolishness. It isn't true, is it, father? She whispered. Emily, child, said her father. I can't lift you up, I haven't the strength, but climb up and sit on my knee in the old way.
Starting point is 00:23:59 Emily slipped out of bed and got on her father's knee. He wrapped the old dressing-gown about her and held her close with his face against hers. Dear little child, little beloved Emily Kin, it is quite true, he said. I meant to tell you myself tonight, and now the absurdity of an Ellen has told you, brutally, I suppose, and hurt you dreadfully. She has the brain of a hen and the sensibility of a cow. May jackal sit on her grandmother's grave, I wouldn't have hurt you, dear.
Starting point is 00:24:35 Emily fought something down that wanted to choke her. Father, I can't, I can't bear it. Yes, you can, and will. You will live because there is something for you to do, I think. You have my gift, along with something I never had. You will succeed where I've failed, Emily. I haven't been able to do much for you, sweetheart, but I've done what I could. I've taught you something, I think, in spite of Ellen Green.
Starting point is 00:25:06 Emily, do you remember your mother? Just a little here and there like lovely bits of dreams. You were only four when she died. I've never talked much to you about her. I couldn't. But I'm going to tell you all about her tonight. It doesn't hurt me to talk of her now. I'll see her so soon again.
Starting point is 00:25:28 You don't look like her, Emily. Only when you smile. For the rest, you are like your namesake, my mother. When you were born, I wanted to call you Juliet, too, but your mother wouldn't. She said if we called you Juliet, then I'd soon take to calling her mother to distinguish between you, and she couldn't endure that. She said her Aunt Nancy had once said to her, The first time your husband calls your mother, the romance of life is over.
Starting point is 00:25:56 So we called you after my mother. Her maiden name was Emily Bird. your mother thought emily the prettiest name in the world it was quaint an arch and delightful she said emily your mother was the sweetest woman ever made his voice trembled and emily snuggled close i met her twelve years ago when i was sub-editor of the enterprise up in charlottetown and she was in her last year at queen's she was tall and fair and blue-eyed she looked a little like your aunt laura but laura was never so pretty their eyes were very much alike and their voices she was one of the murrays from blairwater i've never told you much about your mother's people emily they live up on the old north shore at blairwater on new moon farm always have lived there since the first murray came out from the old country in seventeen ninety the ship he came on was called the new moon and he named his farm on his farm on the first murray came out from the old country in seventeen ninety the ship he came on was called the new moon and he named his farm on after her. It's a nice name.
Starting point is 00:27:02 The New Moon is such a pretty thing, said Emily, interested for a moment. There's been a Murray ever since at New Moon Farm. They're a proud family. The Murray Pride is a byword along the North Shore, Emily. Well, they had some things to be proud of. That cannot be denied. But they carried it too far.
Starting point is 00:27:23 Folks call them the chosen people up there. They increased and multiplied. and scattered all over, but the old stock at New Moon Farm is pretty well run out. Only your aunts, Elizabeth and Laura, live there now, and their cousin, Jimmy Murray. They never married, could not find anyone good enough for a Murray, so it used to be said. Your uncle Oliver and your Uncle Wallace live in Somerside, your Aunt Ruth in Shrewsbury, and your great-aunt Nancy at Priest Pond. Priest Pond. That's an interesting name.
Starting point is 00:27:59 Not a pretty name like New Moon and Blair Water, but interesting, said Emily. Feeling father's arm around her, the horror had momentarily shrunk away. For just a little while, she ceased to believe it. Douglas Dar tucked the dressing gown a little more closely around her, kissed her black head, and went on. Elizabeth and Laura and Wallace and Oliver and Ruth were old Archibald Murray's children. His first wife was their mother. When he was 60, he married again, a young slip of a girl who died when your mother was born. Juliet was 20 years younger than her half family, as she used to call them.
Starting point is 00:28:44 She was very pretty and charming, and they all loved and petted her and were very proud of her. When she fell in love with me, a poor young journalist, with nothing in the world but his pen under his ambition, there was a family earthquake. The Murray Pride couldn't tolerate the thing at all. I won't rake it all up, but things were said I could never forget or forgive. Your mother married me, Emily, and the New Moon people would have nothing more to do with her. Can you believe that, in spite of it, she was never sorry for marrying me? Emily put up her hand and patted her father's hollow cheek. Of course she wouldn't be sorry.
Starting point is 00:29:32 Of course she'd rather have you than all the marries of any kind of a moon. Father laughed a little, and there was just a note of triumph in his laugh. Yes, she seemed to feel that way about it, and we were so sorry. happy. Oh, Emily Kin, there never were too happier people in the world. You were the child of that happiness. I remember the night you were born in the little house in Charlottetown. It was in May, and a west wind was blowing silvery clouds over the moon. There was a star or two here and there. In our tiny garden, everything we had was small, except our love and our happiness. It was dark and I walked up and down the path between the beds of violets your mother had planted and prayed.
Starting point is 00:30:19 The pale east was just beginning to glow like a rosy pearl when someone came and told me I had a little daughter. I went in and your mother, white and weak, smiled just that dear, slow, wonderful smile I loved and said, We've got the only baby of any importance in the world, dear. just think of that. I wish people could remember from the very moment they're born, said Emily. It would be so very interesting. I dare say we'd have a lot of uncomfortable memories, said her father, laughing a little. It can't be very pleasant getting used to living.
Starting point is 00:31:01 No pleasanter than getting used to stopping it. But you didn't seem to find it hard, or you were a good wee kidlet, Emily. We had four more happy years, then, do you remember the time your mother died, Emily? I remember the funeral, father. I remember it distinctly. You were standing in the middle of a room, holding me in your arms, and mother was lying just before us in a long black box, and you were crying, and I couldn't think why, and I wondered why mother looked so white and wouldn't open her eyes, and I leaned down and touched her cheek, and oh, it was so cold,
Starting point is 00:31:39 It made me shiver, and somebody in the room said, Poor little thing, and I was frightened and put my face down on your shoulder. Yes, I recall that. Your mother died very suddenly. I don't think we'll talk about it. The Murrays all came to her funeral. The Murrays have certain traditions, and they live up to them very strictly. One of them is that nothing but candles shall be burned for light at New Moon,
Starting point is 00:32:06 and another is that no quarrel must be carried part of it. the grave. They came when she was dead. They would have come when she was ill if they had known. I will say that much for them. And they behaved very well. Oh, very well indeed. They were not the Murrys of New Moon for nothing. Your aunt Elizabeth wore her best black satin dress to the funeral. For any funeral but a murrays, the second best one would have done. And they made no serious objection when I said your mother would be buried in the star plot in Charlottetown Cemetery. They would have liked to take her back
Starting point is 00:32:40 to the old Murray bearing ground in Blair Water. They had their own private bearing ground, you know. No indiscriminate graveyard for them. But your uncle Wallace handsomely admitted that a woman should belong to her husband's family in death, as in life. And then they offered to take you and bring you up to give you your mother's place. I refused to let them have you then.
Starting point is 00:33:04 Did I do right, Emily? Yes, yes, yes, whispered Emily with a hug at every yes. I told Oliver Murray, it was he who spoke to me about you, that as long as I lived, I would not be parted from my child. He said, if you ever change your mind, let us know. But I did not change my mind, not even three years later when my doctor told me I must give up work. If you don't, I give you a year.
Starting point is 00:33:35 said, if you do and live out of doors all you can, I give you three, or possibly four. He was a good profit. I came out here and we've had four lovely years together, haven't we, small, dear one. Yes. Oh yes. Those years and what I've taught you in them are the only legacy I can leave you, Emily. We've been living on a tiny income I have from a life interest that was left me in an old uncle's estate, an uncle who died before I was married. The estate goes to a charity now, and this little house is only a rented one. From a worldly point of view, I've certainly been a failure. But your mother's people will care for you.
Starting point is 00:34:19 I know that. The Murray pride will guarantee so much, if nothing else, and they can't help loving you. Perhaps I should have sent for them before. Perhaps I ought to do it yet. but I have pride of a kind too. The stars are not entirely traditionless, and the Murray said some very bitter things to me when I married your mother. Will I send a new moon and ask them to come, Emily?
Starting point is 00:34:45 No, said Emily, almost fiercely. She did not want anyone to come between her and father for the few precious days left. The thought was horrible to her. It would be bad enough if they had to come afterwards, but she would not mind anything much then. We'll stay together to the very end then, little Emily child. We won't be parted for a minute.
Starting point is 00:35:11 And I want you to be brave. You mustn't be afraid of anything, Emily. Death isn't terrible. The universe is full of love, and spring comes everywhere, and in death you open and shut a door. There are beautiful things on the other side of the door. I'll find your mother there.
Starting point is 00:35:31 I've doubted many things, but I've never doubted that. Sometimes I've been afraid that she would get so far ahead of me in the ways of eternity that I'd never catch up. But I feel now that she's waiting for me, and we'll wait for you. We won't hurry. We'll loiter and linger till you catch up with us. I wish you could take me right through the door with you. whispered Emily. After a little while you won't wish that. You have yet to learn how kind time is,
Starting point is 00:36:05 and life has something for you. I feel it. Go forward to meet it fearlessly, dear. I know you don't feel like that just now. But you will remember my words, by and by. I feel just now, said Emily, who couldn't bear to hide anything from Father, that I don't like God anymore. Douglas Starr laughed. the laugh Emily liked best. It was such a dear laugh. She caught her breath over the dearness of it. She felt his arms tightening round her. Yes, you do, honey.
Starting point is 00:36:38 You can't help liking God. He is love itself, you know. You mustn't mix him up with Ellen Green's God, of course. Emily didn't know exactly what father meant, but all at once she found that she wasn't afraid any longer, and the bitterness had gone out of her sorrow, and the unbearable pain out of her heart. She felt as if love was all about her and around her,
Starting point is 00:37:02 breathed out from some great invisible hovering tenderness. One couldn't be afraid or bitter where love was, and love was everywhere. Father was going through the door? No, he was going to lift a curtain. She liked that thought better, because a curtain wasn't as hard and fast as a door, and he would slip into that world of which the flash had given her glimpses. He would be there in its beauty, never very far away from her. She could bear anything if she could only feel that father wasn't very far away from her, just beyond that wavering curtain.
Starting point is 00:37:40 Douglas Dar held her until she fell asleep, and then in spite of his weakness he managed to lay her down in her little bed. She will love deeply. She will suffer terribly. She will have glorious moments to compensate. as I have had. As her mother's people deal with her, so may God deal with them. He murmured brokenly. End of Section 2, recording by Leanne Fortune. Section 3 of Emily of New Moon by Lucy M. Montgomery. This Librivox recording is in the public domain. Recording by Leanne Fortune, Section 3. Douglas Starr lived two weeks more. In after years when the pain had gone out of their recollection, Emily thought they were the most precious of her memories. They were beautiful weeks, beautiful and not sad.
Starting point is 00:38:41 And one night when he was lying on the couch in the sitting room with Emily beside him in the old wing chair, he went past the curtain, went so quietly and easily that Emily did not know he was gone until she suddenly felt the strange stillness of the room. There was no breathing in it but her own. Father, father, she cried. Then she screamed for Ellen. Ellen Green told the Murrys when they came that Emily had behaved real well when you took everything into account.
Starting point is 00:39:11 To be sure, she had cried all night and hadn't slept to wink. None of the Maywood people who came flocking kindly into help could comfort her, but when morning came her tears were all shed. She was pale and quiet and docile. That's right now. said Ellen. That's what comes of being properly prepared. Your pa was so mad at me for warning you that he wasn't rightly civil to me since, and him a dying man, but I don't hold any grudge against him. I did my duty. Mrs. Hubbard's fixing up a black dress for you, and it'll be
Starting point is 00:39:48 ready by a supper time. Your ma's people will be here tonight, so they've telegraphed, and I'm bound they'll find you looking respectable. They're well off, and they'll provide for you. Your pa hasn't left a cent, but there ain't any debts. I'll say that for him. Have you been in to see the body? Don't call him that, cried Emily wincing. It was horrible to hear father called that. Why not?
Starting point is 00:40:16 If you ain't the queerest child, he makes a better-looking corpse than I thought he would. What was being so wasted and all, he was always a pretty man, though too thin. Ellen Green, said Emily, If you say any more of those things about bother, I will put the black curse on you. Ellen Green stared. I don't know what on earth you mean, but that's no way to talk to me. After all, I've done for you. You'd better not let the Murrays hear you talking like that, or they won't want much to do with you.
Starting point is 00:40:51 The black curse indeed. Well, here's gratitude. Emily's eyes smarted. She was just a lonely, solitary little creature, and she felt very friendless. But she was not at all remorseful for what she had said to Ellen, and she was not going to pretend she was. Come you here and help me wash these dishes, ordered Ellen. It'll do you good to have something to take up your mind,
Starting point is 00:41:16 and then you won't be after putting curses on people who have worked their fingers to the bone for you. Emily, with an eloquent glance at Ellen's hands, went and got a dish towel. "'Your hands are fat and pudgy,' she said. "'The bones don't show at all. "'Never mind sassing back. "'It's awful with your poor part dead in there. "'But if your Aunt Ruth takes you, she'll soon cure you of that.' "'Is Aunt Ruth going to take me?'
Starting point is 00:41:44 "'I don't know, but she ought to. "'She's a widow with no chick or child and well-to-do.' "'I don't think I want Aunt Ruth to take me,' said Emily, "'deliberately, after a moment. moment's reflection. Well, you won't have the choosing, likely. You ought to be thankful to get a home anywhere. Remember, you're not of much importance. I am important to myself, cried Emily proudly. It'll be some chore to bring you up, muttered Ellen. Your Aunt Ruth is the one to do it, in my opinion. She won't stand no nonsense. A fine woman she is, and the neatest housekeeper on P.E. I.
Starting point is 00:42:26 You could eat off her floor. I don't want to eat off her floor. I don't care if her floor is dirty as long as the tablecloth is clean. Well, her tablecloths are clean too, I reckon. She's got an elegant house in Shrewsbury with bow windows and wooden lace all round the roof. It's very stylish. It would be a fine home for you. She'd learn you some sense and do you a world of good.
Starting point is 00:42:52 I don't want to learn sense and be done a world of good too, cried Emily with a quivering lip. I want somebody to love me. Well, you've got to behave yourself if you want people to like you. You're not to blame so much. Your pa has spoiled you. I told him so often enough, but he just laughed. I hope he ain't sorry for it now.
Starting point is 00:43:15 The fact is Emily Starr, you're queer, and folks don't care for queer children. How am I queer? Demanded Emily. You talk queer and you act queer And at times you look queer And you're too old for your age Though that ain't your fault
Starting point is 00:43:33 It comes of never mixing with other children I've always threeped at your father To send you to school Learning at home ain't the same thing But he wouldn't listen to me of course I don't say but what you are As far along in book learning as you need to be But what you want is to learn how to be like other children
Starting point is 00:43:53 In one way it would be a good thing if your uncle Oliver would take you, for he's got a big family, but he's not as well off as the rest, so it ain't likely he will. Your uncle Wallace might, seeing as he reckons himself the head of the family, he's only got a grown-up daughter, but his wife's delicate, or pansies she is. I wish Aunt Laura would take me, said Emily. She remembered that father had said Aunt Laura was something like her mother. "'Hunt Laura! She won't have no say in it. Elizabeth's boss at New Moon. Jimmy Murray runs the farm, but he ain't quite all there, I'm told.
Starting point is 00:44:34 What part of him isn't there?' asked Emily curiously. "'Hillows it something about his mind, child. He's a bit simple, some accident or other when he was a youngster I've heard. It addled his head, kind of. Elizabeth was mixed up in it some way. I've never heard the right. of it. I don't reckon the new moon people will want to be bothered with you. They're awful set in their ways. You take my advice and try to please your aunt Ruth. Be polite and well-behaved. Maybe she'll take a fancy to you. There, that's all the dishes. You'd better go upstairs and be out of the way. Can I take my consort's cell? asked Emily. No, you can't. They'd be company for me, pleaded Emily.
Starting point is 00:45:21 Company or no company, you can't have them. They're outside and they'll stay outside. I ain't going to have them tracking all over the house. The floor's been scrubbed. Why didn't you scrub the floor when father was alive? asked Emily. He liked things to be clean. You hardly ever scrubbed it then.
Starting point is 00:45:40 Why do you do it now? Listen to her. Was I to be always scrubbing floors with my rheumatres? Get off upstairs and you do. better lie down a while. I'm going upstairs, but I'm not going to lie down, said Emily. I've got a lot of thinking to do.
Starting point is 00:45:58 There's one thing I'd advise you to do, said Ellen, determined to lose no chance of doing her duty. And that is to kneel down and pray to God to make you a good and respectful and grateful child. Emily paused at the foot of the stairs and looked back. Father said I wasn't to have anything to do with your
Starting point is 00:46:17 God, she said gravely. Ellen gasped foolishly but could not think of any reply to this heathenish statement. She appealed to the universe. Did anyone ever hear the like? I know what your God is like, said Emily. I saw his picture in that Adam and Eve book of yours. He has whiskers and wears a nightgown. I don't like him.
Starting point is 00:46:43 But I like Father's God. And what is your Father's God like, if I may ask? demanded Ellen sarcastically. Emily hadn't any idea what Father's God was like, but she was determined not to be posed by Ellen. He is as clear as the moon, fair as the sun, and terrible as an army with banners, she said triumphantly. Well, you're bound to have the last word,
Starting point is 00:47:10 but the Murrays will teach you what's what, said Ellen, giving up the argument. There are strict Presbyterians and won't hold by any of your father's awful notions. Get off upstairs. Emily went up to the south room, feeling very desolate. There isn't anybody in the world who loves me now, she said as she curled up on her bed by the window. But she was determined she would not cry. The Murray's, who had hated her father, should not see her crying.
Starting point is 00:47:42 She felt that she detested them all, except perhaps Aunt Laura. How very big and empty the world had suddenly become. Nothing was interesting anymore. It did not matter that the little squat apple tree between Adam and Eve had become a thing of rose and snow beauty, that the hills beyond the hollow were of green silk, purple misted, that the daffodils were out in the garden, that the birches were hung all over with golden tassels,
Starting point is 00:48:10 that the wind woman was blowing white young clouds across the sky. None of these things had any charm or consolation for her now. In her inexperience she believed they never would have again. But I promised Father I'd be brave, she whispered, clenching her little fists. And I will. And I won't let the Murray see I'm afraid of them. I won't be afraid of them. When the far-off whistle of the afternoon train blew beyond the hills,
Starting point is 00:48:40 Emily's heart began to beat. She clasped her hands and lifted her face. Please help me, Father God. Not Ellen's God, she said. Help me to be brave and not cry before the Murray's. Soon after there was a sound of wheels below, and voices, loud decided voices. Then Ellen came puffing up the stairs with the black dress, a sleazy thing of cheap Marino. Mrs. Hubbard just got it done in time, thanks, B.
Starting point is 00:49:11 I wouldn't I have the Murray see you not in black for the world. They can't say I haven't done my duty. They're all here, the New Moon people, and Oliver and his wife, your aunt Eddie, and Wallace and his wife, your aunt Eva, and Aunt Ruth. Mrs. Dutton, her name is. There, you're ready now. Come along. Can't I put my Venetian beads on? asked Emily. Did ever any mortal? Venetian beads with a morning dress. Shame on you! Is this a time to be thinking of vanity?
Starting point is 00:49:46 "'It isn't vanity,' cried Emily. "'Father gave me those beads last Christmas, "'and I want to show the Murray's that I've got something. "'No more of your nonsense. "'Come along, I say. "'Mind your manners. "'There's a good deal depends on the impression you make on them.' "'Emily walked rigidly downstairs before Ellen and into the parlour.
Starting point is 00:50:09 "'Eight people were sitting around it, "'and she instantly felt the critical gaze of sixteen stranger eyes. She looked very pale and plain in her black dress. The purple shadows left by weeping made her large eyes look too large and hollow. She was desperately afraid, and she knew it, but she would not let the Murray see it. She held up her head and faced the ordeal before her gallantly. This, said Ellen, turning her around by the shoulder,
Starting point is 00:50:41 is your Uncle Wallace. Emily shuddered and put out a cold hand. She did not like Uncle Wallace. She knew that at once. He was black and grim and ugly, with frowning brisly brows and a stern, unpatying mouth. He had big pouches under his eyes and carefully trimmed black side-whiskers. Emily decided then and there that she did not admire side-whiskers. How do you do, Emily? He said coldly, and just as coldly he bent forward and kissed her cheek. A sudden wave of indignation swept over Emily's soul. How dead! He kissed her.
Starting point is 00:51:22 He had hated her father and has owned her mother. She would have none of his kisses. Flash quick she snatched her handkerchief from her pocket and wiped her outraged cheek. Well, well! exclaimed a disagreeable voice from the other side of the room. Uncle Wallace looked as if he would like to say a great many, things but couldn't think of them. Ellen, with a grunt of despair,
Starting point is 00:51:49 propelled Emily to the next sitter. Your Aunt Eva, she said. Aunt Eva was sitting huddled up in her shawl. She had the fretful face of the imaginary invalid. She shook hands with Emily and said nothing. Neither did Emily. Your Uncle Oliver, announced Ellen. Emily rather liked Uncle Oliver's appearance.
Starting point is 00:52:14 He was big and fat and rosy and jolly looking. She thought she would not mind so much if he kissed her, in spite of his bristly white moustache. But Uncle Oliver had learned Uncle Wallace's lesson. I'll give you a quarter for a kiss, he whispered Gene Emily. A joke was Uncle Oliver's idea of being kind and sympathetic, but Emily did not know this and resented it. I don't sell my kisses, she said,
Starting point is 00:52:43 lifting her head as haughtily as any merry of them all could do. Uncle Oliver chuckled and seemed infinitely amused and not a bit offended. But Emily heard a sniff across the room. Aunt Addie was next. She was as fat and rosy and jolly looking as her husband, and she gave Emily's cold hand a nice gentle squeeze. How are you, dear? She said.
Starting point is 00:53:09 That dear touched Emily and thawed her a trifle. But the next in turn froze her up instantly again. It was Aunt Ruth. Emily knew it was Aunt Ruth before Ellen said so. And she knew it was Aunt Ruth, who had well-weld and sniffed. She knew the cold, grey eyes, the prim dull brown hair, the short stout figure, the thin, pinched, merciless mouth. Aunt Ruth held out the tips of her fingers, but Emily did not take them.
Starting point is 00:53:41 shake hands with your aunt, said Ellen in an angry whisper. She does not want to shake hands with me, said Emily distinctly. And so I am not going to do it. Aunt Ruth bolded her scorned hands back on her black silk lap. You are a very ill-bred child, she said. But of course, it was only what was to be expected. Emily felt a sudden compunction. Had she cast a reflection on her father by her behaviour?
Starting point is 00:54:14 Perhaps after all she should have shaken hands with Aunt Ruth. But it was too late now. Ellen had already jerked her on. This is your cousin, Mr James Murray, said Ellen, in the disgusted tone of one who gives up something is a bad job and is only anxious to be done with it. Cousin Jimmy, cousin Jimmy, said that individual. Emily looked steadily at him.
Starting point is 00:54:39 and liked him at once without any reservations. He had a little rosy, elfish face with a forked grey beard, his hair curled over his head in a most unmarry-like mop of glossy brown, and his large brown eyes were as kind and frank as a child's. He gave Emily a hearty handshake, though he looked as gone at the lady across from him while doing it. Hello, pussy, he said. Emily began to smile at him, but her smile was as always so slow in developing that Ellen had whisked her on before it was in full flower, and it was Aunt Laura who got the benefit of it.
Starting point is 00:55:19 Aunt Laura started and paled. Juliet smiled, she said half under her breath, and again Aunt Ruth sniffed. Aunt Laura did not look like anyone else in the room. She was almost pretty with her delicate features, and the heavy quills of poor. pale, sleek, fair hair, faintly greyed, pinned closely all around her head. But it was her eyes that won Emily. There was such round blue, blue eyes. We never quite got over the shock of their blueness, and when she spoke it was in a beautiful, soft voice.
Starting point is 00:55:56 You poor dear little child, she said, and put her arm around Emily for a gentle hug. Emily returned the hug and had a narrow escape then from letting the Murray see her cry. All that saved her was the fact that Ellen suddenly pushed her on into the corner by the window. And this is your Aunt Elizabeth. Yes, this was Aunt Elizabeth. No doubt about that. And she had on a stiff, black, satin dress so stiff and rich that Emily felt sure it must be her very best. This pleased Emily.
Starting point is 00:56:32 Whatever Aunt Elizabeth thought of her father, at least she had paid him the respect of her best dress. And Aunt Elizabeth was quite fine-looking, in a tall, thin, austere style, with clear-cut features and a massive coronet of iron-grey hair under her black lace cap. But her eyes, though steel-blue, were as cold as Aunt Ruth's, and her long, thin mouth was compressed severely. Under her cool, appraising glance, Emily retreated into herself and shut the door of her soul. She would have liked to please Aunt Elizabeth, who was boss at New Moon, but she felt she could not do it. Aunt Elizabeth shook hands and said nothing. The truth being that she did not know exactly what to say, Elizabeth Murray would not have felt put about before King or Governor General. The Murray pride would have carried her through there,
Starting point is 00:57:30 but she did feel disturbed in the presence of this alien, level-gazing child, who had already shown that she was anything but meek and humble. Though Elizabeth Murray would never have admitted it, she did not want to be snubbed as Wallace and Ruth had been. Go and sit on the sofa, ordered Ellen. Emily sat on the sofa with her eyes cast down, a slight black, indomitable little figure. She folded her hands on her lap and crossed her ankles.
Starting point is 00:58:01 They should see she had manners. Ellen had retreated to the kitchen, thanking her stars that that was over. Emily did not like Ellen, but she felt deserted when Ellen had gone. She was alone now before the bar of Murray opinion. She would have given anything to be out of the room. Yet in the back of her mind, a design was forming of writing all about it in the old account book. It would be interesting. She could describe them all.
Starting point is 00:58:30 She knew she could. She had the very word for Aunt Ruth's eyes, stone grey. They were just like stones, as hard and cold and relentless. Then a pang tore through her heart. Father could never again read what she wrote in the account book. Still, she felt that she would rather like to write it all out. How could she best describe Aunt Laura's eyes? There were such beautiful eyes.
Starting point is 00:58:57 Just to call them blue meant nothing. Hundreds of people had blue eyes. Oh, she had it, Wells of Blue. That was the very thing. And then the flash came. It was the first time since the dreadful night when Ellen had met her
Starting point is 00:59:13 on the doorstep. She had thought it would never come again. And now in this most unlikely place in time it had come. She had seen with other eyes than those of sense, the wonderful world behind the veil. Courage and hope flooded her cold little soul like a wave of rosy light. She lifted her head and looked about her undauntedly, brazenly, Aunt Ruth afterwards declared.
Starting point is 00:59:41 Yes, she would write them all out in the account book. Describe every last one of them. Sweet Aunt Laura, nice cousin Jimmy, grim old Uncle Wallace, and Moonface Uncle Oliver, stately Aunt Elizabeth, and a testable Aunt Ruth. She's a delicate-looking child, said Aunt Eva suddenly in her fretful, colourless voice. Well, what else could you expect? said Aunt Addie, with a sigh that seemed to Emily to hold some dire significance. She's too pale. If she had a little colour, she wouldn't be bad-looking. I don't know who she looks like, said Uncle Oliver, staring at.
Starting point is 01:00:24 at Emily. She is not a Murray, that is plain to be seen, said Aunt Elizabeth, decidedly and disapprovingly. They are talking about me just as if I wasn't here, thought Emily, her heart swelling with indignation over the indecency of it. I wouldn't call her a star either, said Uncle Oliver. Seems to me she's more like the birds. She's got her grandmother's hair and eyes. She's got old George bird's nose, said Aunt Ruth, in a tone that left no doubt as to her opinion of George's nose. She's got her father's forehead, said Aunt Eva, also disapprovingly. She has her mother's smile, said Aunt Laura, but in such a low term that nobody heard her. And Juliet's long lashes. Hadn't Juliet very long lashes? said Aunt Addie? Emily had reached the limit of her
Starting point is 01:01:23 endurance. You make me feel as if I was made up of scraps and patches, she burst out indignantly. The Murray's stared at her. Perhaps they felt some compunction, for after all, none of them were ogres, and all were human, more or less. Apparently nobody could think of anything to say, but the shocked silence was broken by a chuckle from cousin Jimmy, a low chuckle, full of mirth. and free from malice. That's right, Puss, he said. Stand up to them. Take your own part.
Starting point is 01:02:01 Jimmy, said Aunt Ruth. Jimmy subsided. Aunt Ruth looked at Emily. When I was a little girl, she said, I never spoke until I was spoken to. But if nobody ever spoke until they were spoken to, there would be no conversation, said Emily argumentatively.
Starting point is 01:02:20 I never answered back. Aunt Ruth went on severely. In those days, little girls were trained properly. We were polite and respectful to our elders. We were taught our place, and we kept it. I don't believe you ever had much fun, said Emily, and then gasped in horror. She hadn't meant to say that out loud. She had only meant to think it, but she had such an old habit of thinking allowed to bother.
Starting point is 01:02:46 Fun? said Aunt Ruth, in a shock tone. I did not think of fun when I was low. little girl. No, I know, said Emily gravely. Her voice and manner were perfectly respectful, for she was anxious to atone for her involuntary lapse. Yet Aunt Ruth looked as if she would like to box her ears. This child was pitying her, insulting her by being sorry for her because of her prim impeccable childhood. It was unendurable, especially in a star. And that abominable Jimmy was chuckling again. Elizabeth should suppress him. Fortunately, Ellen Green appeared at this
Starting point is 01:03:30 juncture and announced supper. You've got to wait, she whispered to Emily. There ain't room for you at the table. Emily was glad. She knew she could not eat a bite under the Murray eyes. Her aunts and uncles filed out stiffly without looking at her, all except Aunt Laura, who turned at the door and blew her a tiny furtive kiss. Before Emily could respond, Ellen Green had shut the door. Emily was left all alone in the room that was filling with twilight shadows. The pride that had sustained her in the presence of the Murray suddenly failed her, and she knew that tears were coming. She went straight to the closed door at the end of the parlour, opened it and went in. Her father's coffin stood in the centre of the small room, which had been a bedroom. It was heaped with flowers.
Starting point is 01:04:22 the murrays had done the proper thing in that as in all else the great anchor of white roses uncle wallace had brought stood up aggressively on the small table at the head Emily could not see her father's face, for Aunt Ruth's heavily fragrant pillow of white hyacinths lying on the glass, and she dared not move it. But she curled herself up on the floor, and laid her cheek against the polished side of the casket. They found her there asleep when they came in after supper. Aunt Laura lifted her up and said, I'm going to take the poor child up to bed. She is worn right out. Emily opened her eyes and looked drowsily about her.
Starting point is 01:05:06 Can I have Mike? She said. Who is Mike? My cat. My big grey cat. A cat! exclaimed Aunt Elizabeth in a shock tone. You must not have a cat in your bedroom. Why not?
Starting point is 01:05:22 For once, pleaded Laura. Certainly not, said Aunt Elizabeth. A cat is a most unwholesome thing in a sleeping compartment. I'm surprised at you, Laura. Take the child up to bed and see that there are plenty of bedclothes. It's a cold night, but let me hear no more talk of sleeping with cats. Mike is a clean cat, said Emily. He washes himself.
Starting point is 01:05:47 Every day. Take her up to bed, Laura, said Aunt Elizabeth, ignoring Emily. Aunt Laura yielded neatly. She carried Emily upstairs, helped her undress, and tucked her into bed. Emily was very sleepy. But before she was wholly asleep, she felt something soft and warm and purry and companionable, snuggling down by her shoulder.
Starting point is 01:06:11 Aunt Laura had sneaked down, found Mike and brought him up to her. Aunt Elizabeth never knew, and Ellen Green dared not say a word in protest, or was not Laura a Murray of New Moon? End of Section 3. Recording by Leanne Fortune. Section 4 of Emily of New Moon by Lucy M. Montgomery.
Starting point is 01:06:38 This livery box recording is in the public domain. Recording by Leanne Fortune. Section 4. Emily wakened at daylight the next morning. Through her low, un-curtained window, the splendor of the sunrise was coming in, and one faint white star was still lingering in the crystal green sky over the rooster pine.
Starting point is 01:07:01 The fresh, sweet wind of lawn was blowing around the east. Ellen Green was sleeping in the big bed and snoring soundly. Except for that, the little house was very still. It was the chance for which Emily had waited. Very carefully, she slipped from her bed, deterred across the room, and opened the door. Mike uncoiled himself from the mat on the middle of the floor and followed her, rubbing his warm sides against her chilly little ankles.
Starting point is 01:07:31 Almost guiltily, she crept down the very dark steps. case. How the steps creaked. Surely it would awaken everybody. But nobody appeared. And Emily got down and slipped into the parlour, drawing a long breath of relief as she closed the door. She almost ran across the room to the other door. Aunt Ruth's floral pillow still covered the glass of the casket. Emily with a tightening of the lips that gave her face an odd resemblance to Aunt
Starting point is 01:08:02 Elizabeth lifted up the pillow and set it on the floor. Oh, father, father, she whispered, putting her hand to her throat to keep something down. She stood there, a little shivering white-clayed figure, and looked at her father. This was to be her goodbye. She must say it when they were alone together. She would not say it before the marries. Father looked so beautiful. All the lines of pain had vanished. His face looked almost like a boy's, except for the silver hair above it. And he was smiling, such a nice, whimsical, wise little smile, as if he had suddenly discovered something lovely and unexpected and surprising. She had seen many nice smiles on his face in life,
Starting point is 01:08:53 but never one just like this. Father, I didn't cry before them, she whispered. I'm sure I didn't disgrace the stars. Not shaking hands with Aunt Ruth wasn't disgracing the stars, was it? Because she didn't really want me to, oh, father, I don't think any of them like me, unless perhaps Aunt Laura does a little, and I'm going to cry a little bit now, father, because I can't keep it back all the time. She laid her face on the cold glass and sobbed bitterly, but briefly. She must say goodbye before anyone found her. Raising her head, she looked long and earnestly at the beloved face. Good-bye, dearest darling, she whispered chokingly.
Starting point is 01:09:42 Dashing away her blinding tears, she replaced Andrews' pillow, hiding her father's face from her forever. Then she slipped out, intent on speedily regaining her room. At the door, she almost fell over cousin Jimmy, who was sitting on a chair before it, swathed in a huge check dressing-gown and nursing mike shh he whispered patting her on the shoulder i heard you coming down and followed you i knew what you wanted i've been sitting here to keep them out if any of them came after you here take this and hurry back to your bed small pussy this was a roll of peppermint blasangers emily clutched it and fled overcome with shone shame at being seen by Cousin Jimmy in her nightgown. She hated peppermints and never ate them, but the fact of Cousin Jimmy Murray's kindness in giving them to her
Starting point is 01:10:41 sent a thrill of delight to her heart. And he called her small pussy too. She liked that. She had thought nobody would ever call her nice pet names again. Father had had so many of them for her, sweetheart and darling and Emily Child, and dear wee kidlet and honey and elfkin he had a pet name for every mood and she had loved them all as for cousin jimmy he was nice whatever part of him was missing it wasn't his heart she felt so grateful to him that after she was safely in her bed again she forced herself to eat one of the lozenges though it took all her grit to worry it down
Starting point is 01:11:27 the funeral was held that forenoon for once the lonesome little house in the hollow was filled the coffin was taken into the parlour and the murrays as mourners sat stiffly and decorously all round it emily among them pale and prim in her black dress she sat between aunt elizabeth and uncle wallace and dared not move a muscle no other star was present her father had no near-living relatives the mayward people came and looked at his dead face with a freedom and insolent curiosity they would never have presumed on in life emily hated to have them looking at her father like that they had no right they hadn't been friendly to him while he was alive they had said harsh things of him ellen green had sometimes repeated them every glance that fell on him hurt emily but she sat still and gave no outward sign aunt ruth said afterwards that she had never seen a child so absolutely devoid of all natural feeling when the service was over the murrays rose and marched around the coffin for a dutiful look of farewell aunt elizabeth took emily's hand and tried to draw her along with them but emily pulled it back and shook her head she had said her good-bye already aunt elizabeth seemed for a moment to be on the point of insisting then she grimly swept onward alone looking every inch of Murray. No scene must be made at a funeral. Douglas Dar was to be taken to Charlotte Town for burial beside his wife. The Murray's
Starting point is 01:13:07 wall going, but Emily was not to go. She watched the funeral procession as it wound up the long grassy hill through the light gray rain that was beginning to fall. Emily was glad it was raining. Many a time she had heard Ellen Green say that happy was the corpse the rain fell on, and it was easier to see father go away in that soft, kind, grey mist than through sparkling, laughing sunshine. Well, I must say the funeral went off fine, said Ellen Green at her shoulder. Everything's been done regardless. If your father was looking down from heaven at it, Emily, I'm sure he'd be pleased. He isn't in heaven, said Emily. Good gracious, of all the children.
Starting point is 01:13:53 Ellen could say no more. He isn't there yet. He is only on the way. He said he'd wait around and go slow until I died too, so that I could catch up with him. I hope I'll die soon. That's a wicked, wicked thing to wish, rebuked Ellen. When the last buggy had disappeared,
Starting point is 01:14:17 Emily went back to the sitting room, got a book out of the bookcase, and buried herself in the wing chair. the woman who were tidying up were glad she was quiet and out of the way it's well she can read said mrs hubbard gloomily some little girls couldn't be so composed jenny hood just screamed and shrieked after they carried her mother out the hood's all such a feeling people emily was not reading she was thinking she knew the murrays would be back in the afternoon and she knew her fate would probably be settled this Then, we'll talk the matter over when we come back, she had heard Uncle Wallace saying that morning after breakfast. Some instinct told her just what the matter was, and she would have given one of her pointed ears to hear the discussion with the other, but she knew very well she would be sent out of the way. So she was not surprised when Ellen came to her in the twilight and said,
Starting point is 01:15:18 You'd better go upstairs, Emily. Your aunts and uncles are coming in here to talk over the night. the business. Can't I help to get supper? asked Emily, who thought that if she were going and coming around the kitchen, she might catch a word or two. No, you'd be more bother than help. March, now. Ellen waddled out to the kitchen without waiting to see if Emily marched. Emily got up reluctantly. How could she sleep tonight if she did not know what was going to happen to her? and she felt quite sure she would not be told till morning, if then. Her eyes fell on the oblong table in the centre of the room. Its cloth was of generous proportions, falling in heavy folds to the floor.
Starting point is 01:16:07 There was a flash of black stockings across the rug, a sudden disturbance of drapery, and then silence. Emily, on the floor under the table, arranged her legs comfortably and sat triumphant. She would hear what was decided, and nobody would be any the wiser. She had never been told that it was not considered strictly honourable to eavesdrop, no occasion for such instruction ever having arisen in her life with her father, and she considered that it was a bit of pure luck that she had thought of hiding under the table. She could even see dimly through the cloth, her heart beat so loudly in her excitement that she was afraid they would hear it.
Starting point is 01:16:51 There was no other sound, save the soft, far-away singing of frogs through the rain it sounded through the open window. In there came, down they sat around the room. Emily held her breath. For a few minutes nobody spoke, though on to Eva sighed long and heavily. Then Uncle Wallace cleared his throat and said,
Starting point is 01:17:14 Well, what is to be done with the child? Nobody was in a hurry to answer. said. Emily thought they would never speak. Finally, Aunt Eva said with a whine, she's such a difficult child, so odd, I can't understand her at all. I think, said Aunt Laura timidly, but she has what one might call an artistic temperament. She's a spoiled child, said Aunt Ruth very decidedly. There's work ahead to straighten out her manners if you ask me. The little list now under the table turned her head and shot a scornful glance at Aunt Ruth
Starting point is 01:17:55 through the tablecloth. I think that your own manners have a slight curve. Emily did not dare even to murmur the words under her breath, but she shaped them with her mouth. This was a great relief and satisfaction. I agree with you,
Starting point is 01:18:12 said Aunt Eva, and I for one do not feel equal to the task. Emily understood that this meant Uncle Wallace didn't mean to take her, and she rejoiced thereat. The truth is, said Uncle Wallace,
Starting point is 01:18:27 Aunt Nancy ought to take her. She has more of this world's goods than any of us. Aunt Nancy would never dream of taking her and you know it well enough, said Uncle Oliver. Besides, she's entirely too old to have the bringing up of a
Starting point is 01:18:43 child, her and that old witch Caroline. Upon my soul, I don't believe either of them is human. I would like to take Emily, but I feel that I can hardly do it. I have a large family to provide for. She'll not likely live long to bother anyone, said Aunt Elizabeth crisply. She'll probably die of consumption same as her father did. I won't, I won't, exclaimed Emily. At least she thought it with such vim that it had almost seemed that she exclaimed it. She forgot that she had wanted to die soon,
Starting point is 01:19:18 so that she could overtake father. She wanted to live now, just to put the Murray's in the wrong. I haven't any intention of dying. I'm going to live for ages and be a famous authorist. You'll just see if I don't Aunt Elizabeth Murray. She is a weedy-looking child, acknowledged Uncle Wallace. Emily relieved her outraged feelings by making a face at Uncle Wallace through the tablecloth. If I ever possess a pig, I am going to name it
Starting point is 01:19:48 after you, she thought, and then felt quite satisfied with her revenge. Somebody has to look after her as long as she's alive, though, you know, said Uncle Oliver. It would serve you all right if I did die, and you suffered terrible remorse for it all the rest of your lives, Emily thought. Then in the pause that happened to follow, she dramatically pictured out her funeral, selected her pallbearers, and tried to take her to take her to her. choose the hymnverse that she wanted engraved on her tombstone. But before she could settle this, Uncle Wallace began again. Well, we're not getting anywhere. We have to look after the child. I wish you wouldn't call me the child, thought Emily bitterly. And some of us must give her a home.
Starting point is 01:20:41 Juliet's daughter must not be left to the mercy of strangers. Personally, I feel that Ava's health is not equal to the care and training of a child. Of such a child, said Aunt Eva. Emily stuck out her tongue at Aunt Eva. Poor little soul, said Aunt Laura gently. Something frozen in Emily's heart melted at that moment. She was pitifully pleased over being called, Her little soul, so tenderly.
Starting point is 01:21:10 I do not think you need pity her over much, Laura, said Uncle Wallace. decidedly. It is evident that she has very little feeling. I have not seen her shed a tear since we came here. Did you notice that she would not even take a last look at her father? said Aunt Elizabeth. Cousin Jimmy suddenly whistled at the ceiling. She feels so much that she has to hide it, said Aunt Laura. Uncle Wallace noted. Don't you think we might take her, Elizabeth? "'Laura went on timidly. "'Aunt Elizabeth stirred restlessly.
Starting point is 01:21:51 "'I don't suppose she'd be contented at New Moon "'with three old people like us.' "'I would, I would,' thought Emily. "'Ruth, what about you?' said Uncle Wallace. "'You're all alone in that big house. "'It would be a good thing for you to have some company.' "'I don't like her,' said Aunt Ruth sharply. "'She is as sly as a snake.
Starting point is 01:22:15 I'm not, thought Emily. With wise and careful training, many of her faults may be cured, said Uncle Wallace, pompously. I don't want them cured. Emily was getting angrier and angrier all the time under the table. I like my faults better than I do your, your, you're, she fumbled mentally for a word, then triumphantly recalled a phrase of her father's, your abominable virtues. I doubt it, said Aunt Ruth in a biting turn. What's bread in the bone comes out in the flesh. As for Douglas Dar, I think that it was perfectly disgraceful for him to die
Starting point is 01:22:57 and leave that child without assent. Did he do it on purpose? asked Cousin Jimmy Blanley. It was the first time he had spoken. He was a miserable failure, snapped Aunt Ruth. He wasn't! He wasn't! screamed Emily, suddenly sticking her head out under the tablecloth between the end legs of the table. For a moment, the Murray sat silent and motionless as if her outburst had turned them to stone. Then Aunt Ruth rose, stalked to the table and lifted the cloth behind which Emily had retired in dismay,
Starting point is 01:23:36 realizing what she had done. Get up! and come out of that Emily Starr, said Aunt Ruth. Emily Starr got up and came out. She was not specially frightened. She was too angry to be that. Her eyes had gone black and her cheeks crimson. What a little beauty, what a regular little beauty,
Starting point is 01:24:01 said Cousin Jimmy, but nobody heard him. Aunt Ruth had the floor. You shameless little eavesdropper, she said. There's the star blood coming out. A Murray would never have done such a thing. You ought to be whipped. Father wasn't a failure, cried Emily, choking with anger. You had no right to call him a failure.
Starting point is 01:24:25 Nobody who was loved as much as he was could be a failure. I don't believe anybody ever loved you. So it's you that's a failure, and I'm not going to die of consumption. "'Do you realize what a shameful thing you have been guilty of?' "'demanded Aunt Ruth, cold with anger. "'I wanted to hear what was going to become of me,' cried Emily. "'I didn't know it was such a dreadful thing to do. "'I didn't know you were going to say such horrid things about me.'
Starting point is 01:24:59 "'Listners never hear any good of themselves,' said Aunt Elizabeth impressively. "'Your mother would never have done that, Emily.' The bravado all went out of poor Emily. She felt guilty and miserable. Oh, so miserable. She hadn't known, but it seemed she had committed a terrible sin. Go upstairs, said Aunt Ruth. Emily went without a protest, but before going, she looked around the room.
Starting point is 01:25:29 While I was under the table, she said, I made a face at Uncle Wallace and stuck my tongue out at Aunt Eva. She said it sorrowfully, desiring to make a clean breast of her transgressions, but so easily do we misunderstand each other, that the Murrays actually thought that she was indulging in a piece of gratuitous impertinence. When the door had closed behind her, they all, except Aunt Laura and Cousin' Jimmy, shook their heads and groaned. Emily went upstairs in a state of bitter humiliation. She felt that she had done something that gave the Murray.
Starting point is 01:26:05 is the right to despise her, and they thought it was the star coming out in her, and she had not even found out what her fate was to be. She looked dismally at little Emily in the glass. I didn't know, I didn't know, she whispered, but I'll know after this, she added with sudden whim, and I'll never, never do it again. For a moment she thought she would throw herself on her bed and cry. She couldn't bear all the pain and shame that was burning in her heart. Then her eyes fell on the old yellow account book on her little table. A minute later Emily was curled up on her bed, Turk fashion, writing eagerly in the old book,
Starting point is 01:26:50 with her little stubby lead pencil. As her fingers blew over the faded lines, her cheeks flushed and her eyes shone, she forgot the Murray's, although she was writing about them. She forgot her humiliation. although she was describing what had happened. For an hour she rode steadily by the wretched light of her smoky little lamp. Never pausing, save now and then,
Starting point is 01:27:14 to gaze out of the window into the dim beauty of the misty night, while she hunted through her consciousness for a certain word she wanted. When she found it she gave a happy sigh and fell to her again. When she heard the Murray's coming upstairs, she put her book away. She had finished. she had written a description of the whole occurrence and of that conclave ring of Murray's, and she had wound up by a pathetic description of her own deathbed, with the Murray's standing around imploring her forgiveness.
Starting point is 01:27:47 At first she depicted Aunt Ruth as doing it on her knees in an agony of remorseful sobs. Then she suspended her pencil. Aunt Ruth couldn't ever feel as bad as that over anything, she thought, and drew her pencil through the line. In the writing, pain and humiliation had passed away. She only felt tired and rather happy. It had been fun, finding words to put Uncle Wallace, and what exquisite satisfaction it had been to describe Aunt Ruth as a dumpy little woman.
Starting point is 01:28:20 I wonder what my uncles and aunts would say if they knew what I really think of them, she murmured as she got into bed. End of Section 4, recording by Leanne Gautcham. Section 5 of Emily of New Moon by Lucy M. Montgomery. This Libre Vox recording is in the public domain. Recording by the Anne Fortune, Section 5. Emily, who had been pointedly ignored by the Murray's of breakfast, was called into the parlour when the meal was over.
Starting point is 01:28:55 They were all there, the whole phallings of them, and it occurred to Emily as she looked at Uncle Wallace, sitting in the spring sunshine, that she had not just found the exact word after all, express his peculiar quality of grimness. Aunt Elizabeth stood unsmilingly by the table with slips of paper in her hand. Emily, she said, last night we could not decide who should take you. I may say that none of us feel very much like doing so, for you have behaved very badly in many respects. Oh, Elizabeth, protested Laura. She is our sister's child. Elizabeth lifted a hand regally.
Starting point is 01:29:36 doing this, Laura, have the goodness not to interrupt me. As I was saying, Emily, we could not decide as to who should have the care of you. So we have agreed to Cousin Jimmy's suggestion that we settle the matter by lot. I have our names here written on these slips of paper. You will draw one, and the one whose name is on it will give you a home. Aunt Elizabeth held out the slips of paper. Emily trembled so violently that at first she could not draw one. This was terrible. It seemed as if she must blindly settle her own fate. Draw, said Aunt Elizabeth. Emily set her teeth, threw back her head with the air of one who challenges destiny, and drew. Aunt Elizabeth took the slip from the little shaking hand and held it
Starting point is 01:30:24 up. On it was her own name, Elizabeth Murray. Laura Murray suddenly put her handkerchief to her eyes. Well, that's settled, said Uncle Wallace, getting up with an air of relief. And if I'm going to catch that train, I've got to hurry. Of course, as far as the matter of expense goes, Elizabeth, I'll do my share. We are not hoppers at New Moon, said Aunt Elizabeth rather coldly. Since it has fallen to me to take her, I shall do all that is necessary, Wallace. I do not Shook my duty. I am her duty, thought Emily. Father said nobody ever liked her duty,
Starting point is 01:31:05 so Aunt Elizabeth will never like me. You've got more of the Murray pride than all the rest of us put together, Elizabeth, laughed Uncle Wallace. They all followed him out, all except Aunt Laura. She came up to Emily, standing alone in the middle of the room, and drew her into her arms. I'm so glad, Emily, I'm so glad. she whispered don't fright dear child i love you already and new moon is a nice place emily it has a pretty name said emily struggling for self-control i've always hoped i could go with you aunt laura
Starting point is 01:31:44 i think i'm going to cry but it's not because i'm sorry i'm going there my manners are not as bad as you may think aunt laura and i wouldn't have listened last night if i'd known it was wrong of course you wouldn't said aunt laura but i'm not a murray you know then aunt laura said a queer thing for a murray thank heaven for that said aunt laura cousin jimmy followed emily out and overtook her in the little hall looking carefully around to ensure privacy he whispered your aunt laura is a great-handed making an apple turnover pussy emily thought apple turnovers sounded nice though she did not know what it was she whispered back a question which she would never have dared ask aunt elizabeth or even aunt laura cousin jimmy when they make a cake at new moon will they let me scrape out the mixing bowl and the scrapings laura will elizabeth won't whispered cousin jimmy solemnly and to put my feet in the oven when they get cold, and to have a cookie before I go to bed. Answer, same as before, said Cousin Jimmy.
Starting point is 01:32:55 I'll recite my poetry to you. It's very few people I do that for. I've composed a thousand poems. They're not written down, I carry them here. Cousin Jimmy tapped his forehead. Is it very hard to write poetry? Asked Emily, looking with new respect at Cousin Jimmy. Easy as rolling off a log if you.
Starting point is 01:33:16 You can find enough rhymes, said Cousin Jimmy. They all went away that morning except the New Moon people. Aunt Elizabeth announced that they would stay until the next day to pack up and take Emily with them. Most of the furniture belongs to the house, she said. So it won't take us long to get ready. There are only Douglas Dahl's books and his few personal belongings to pack. How shall I carry my cats? asked Emily anxiously.
Starting point is 01:33:46 Aunt Elizabeth stared. Cats? He'll take no cats, miss. Oh, I must take Mike and saucy self, cried Emily wildly. I can't leave them behind. I can't live without a cat. Nonsense, there are barn cats at New Moon, but they are never allowed in the house.
Starting point is 01:34:04 Don't you like cats? asked Emily wonderingly. No, I do not. Don't you like the feel of a nice, soft, fat cat? persisted Emily. No, I would as soon touch a snake. There's a lovely old wax doll of your mother's up there, said Aunt Laura. I'll dress it up for you.
Starting point is 01:34:26 I don't like dolls. They can't talk, exclaimed Emily. Neither can cats. Oh, can't they? My consortia cell can. Oh, I must take them. Oh, please, Aunt Elizabeth, I love those cats, and they're the only things left in the world that love me, please. What's a cat more or less on 200 acres? Said cousin Jimmy, pulling his forked beard.
Starting point is 01:34:54 Take him along, Elizabeth. Aunt Elizabeth considered for a moment. She couldn't understand why anybody should want a cat. Aunt Elizabeth was one of those people who never do understand anything unless it is told them in plain language and hammered into their heads. And then they understand it only. with their brains and not with their hearts. You may take one of your cats.
Starting point is 01:35:21 She said at last, with the air of a person making a great concession, one and no more. No, don't argue. You may as well learn first as last, Emily, that when I say a thing, I mean it. That's enough, Jimmy. Cousin Jimmy bit off, something he had tried to say, stuck his hands in his pockets and whistled at the ceiling. when she won't she won't murray like we're all born with that kinkin a small pussy and you'll have to put up with it more by turkin that you're full of it yourself you know
Starting point is 01:35:55 talk about you're not being murray the star is only skin deep with you it isn't i'm all star i want to be cried emily and oh how can i choose between mike and saucy's cell this was indeed a problem emily wrestled with it all day her heart bursting she liked mike best there was no doubt of that but she couldn't leave saucy's cell to ellen's tender mercies ellen had always hated sell but she rather liked mike and she would be good to him ellen was going back to her own little house in maywood village and she wanted a cat at last in the evening emily made her bitter decision she would take saucy sell better take the tom said cousin jimmy not so much bother with kittens you know emily jimmy said aunt elizabeth sternly emily wondered over the sternness why won't kittens to be spoken of but she didn't like to hear mike called the tom it sounded insulting some way and she didn't like the bustle in commotion of packing up she longed for the old quiet and the sweet remembered talks with her father. She felt as if he had been thrust far away from her by this influx of Marius. What's this? said Aunt Elizabeth suddenly, pausing for a moment in her packing. Emily looked up and saw with dismay that Aunt Elizabeth had in her hands the old account book,
Starting point is 01:37:30 that she was opening it, that she was reading in it. Emily sprang across the floor and snatched the book. You mustn't read that, Aunt Elizabeth? She cried indignantly. That's mine, my own private property. Hoity tootymy, Miss Dar, said Aunt Elizabeth, staring at her. Let me tell you that I have a right to read your books. I am responsible for you now. I am not going to have anything hidden or underhanded. Understand that. You have evidently something there that you are ashamed to have seen, and I mean to see it. Give me that book. I'm not a shamed of it, cried Emily backing away, hugging her precious book to her breast. But I won't let you or anybody see it. Aunt Elizabeth followed.
Starting point is 01:38:16 Emily Starr, do you hear what I say? Give me that book at once. No, no! Emily turned and ran. She would never let Aunt Elizabeth see that book. She flayed to the kitchen stove. She whisked off a cover. She crammed the book into the glowing fire. It caught and blazed mirily. Emily watched it in agony. It seemed as if part of herself were burning there. But Aunt Elizabeth should never see it. See all the little things she had written and read to father.
Starting point is 01:38:47 All her fancies about the wind woman and Emily in the glass. All her little cat dialogues. All the things she had said in it last night about the Murray's. She watched the leaves, shrivel and shadows if there were sentient things, and then turned black. A line of white writing came out vividly on one. Aunt Elizabeth was very cold and haughty. What if Aunt Elizabeth had seen that?
Starting point is 01:39:11 What if? She was seeing it now! Emily glanced apprehensively over her shoulder. No, Aunt Elizabeth had gone back to the room and shut the door with what, in anybody but a Murray, would have been called a bang. The account book was a little heap of white film on the glowing columns. Emily sat down by the stove and cried, She felt as if she had lost something incalculably precious.
Starting point is 01:39:36 It was terrible to think that all those dear things were gone. She could never write them again, not just the same. And if she could, she wouldn't dare. She would never dare to write anything again, if Aunt Elizabeth must see everything. Father never insisted on seeing them. She liked to read them to him, but if she hadn't wanted to do it, he would never have made her.
Starting point is 01:40:00 suddenly Emily, with tears glistening on her cheeks, wrote a line in an imaginary account book. Aunt Elizabeth is cold and haughty, and she is not fair. Next morning, while Cousin Jimmy was tying the boxes at the back of the double-seated buggy, and Aunt Elizabeth was giving Ellen her final instructions, Emily said goodbye to everything. To the rooster pine and Adam and Eve. They'll miss me so when I'm gone. there won't be anyone here to love them, she said wistfully.
Starting point is 01:40:35 To the spider crack in the kitchen window, to the old wing chair, to the bed of striped grass, to the silver birch ladies. Then she went upstairs to the window of her own old room. That little window had always seemed to Emily to open on a world of wonder. In the burned account book, there had been one piece of which she was especially proud,
Starting point is 01:40:58 a description of the view from my window. She had sat there and dreamed. At night she used to kneel there and say her little prayers. Sometimes the stars shone through it. Sometimes the rain beat against it. Sometimes the little greybirds and swallows visited it. Sometimes airy fragrances floated in from apple and lilac blossom. Sometimes the wind woman laughed and sighed and sang and whistled round it.
Starting point is 01:41:28 Emily had heard her there in the dark nights and in wild white winter storms. She did not say good-bye to the wind woman, for she knew the wind woman would be at New Moon too, but she said goodbye to the little window in the green hill she had loved, and to her very haunted barons, and to little Emily in the glass. There might be another Emily in the glass at New Moon, but she wouldn't be the same one, and she unpinned from the wall and stowed away in her pocket. The picture of the ball dress she had cut from a fashion sheet. It was such a wonderful dress, all white lace and wreaths of rosebuds,
Starting point is 01:42:10 with a long, long train of lace flounces that must reach clear across the room. Emily had pictured herself a thousand times wearing that dress, sweeping a queen of beauty across a boring floor. downstairs they were waiting for her. Emily said goodbye to Ellen Green rather indifferently. She'd never liked Ellen Green at any time, and since the night Ellen had told her her father was going to die, she had hated and feared her.
Starting point is 01:42:39 Ellen amazed Emily by bursting into tears and hugging her, begging her not to forget her, asking her to write to her, calling her my blessed child. I'm not your blessed child, said Emily, that I will write to you, and will you be very good to Mike? I believe you feel worse over-leaving that cat than you do over-leaving me,
Starting point is 01:43:00 sniffed Ellen. Why, of course I do, said Emily, amazed that there could be any question about it. It took all her resolution not to cry when she bade farewell to Mike. He was curled up on the sun-warm grass at the back door. Maybe I'll see you again sometime. She whispered as she hugged him. I'm sure good pussycats go to heaven. then they were off in the double-seated buggy with its springed canopy always affected by the murrays of new moon emily had never driven in anything so splendid before she had never had many drives once or twice her father had borrowed mr hubbard's old buckboard and grey pony and driven to charlotte town
Starting point is 01:43:42 the buckboard was ratly and the pony slow but father had talked to her all the way and made the road a wonder cousin jimmy and aunt elizabeth sat in front the latter very imposing in black lace bonnet and mantle aunt laura and emily occupied the seat behind with saucy cell between them in a basket shrieking piteously emily glanced back as they drove up the grassy lane and thought the little old brown house in the hollow had a broken-hearted look she longed to run back and comforted it in spite of her resolution the tears came into her eyes but aunt laura put a kid-gloved hand across sal's basket and caught Emily's in a close understanding squeeze. Oh, I just love you, Aunt Laura, whispered Emily. And Aunt Laura's eyes were very, very blue and deep and kind. End of Section 5, recording by Leanne Fortune. Section 6 of Emily of New Moon by Lucy M. Montgomery.
Starting point is 01:44:52 This Libre Fox recording is in the public domain. recording by Leanne Fortune Section 6 Emily found the drive through the blossomy June world pleasant Nobody talked much Even saucy's cell had subsided into the silence of despair Now and then Cousin Jimmy made a remark More to himself as it seemed than to anybody else
Starting point is 01:45:15 Sometimes Aunt Elizabeth answered it Sometimes not She always spoke crispy and used no unnecessary words They stopped in Charlotte Town and had dinner. Emily, who had had no appetite since her father's death, could not eat the roast beef which the boarding-house waitress put before her. Whereupon Aunt Elizabeth whispered mysteriously to the waitress, who went away and presently returned with a plateful of delicate cold chicken,
Starting point is 01:45:45 fine white slices, beautifully trimmed with lettuce rolls. Can you eat that? said Aunt Elizabeth Sturneby, as to a culprit at the bar. I'll try, whispered Emily. She was too brightened just then to say more, but by the time she had forced down some of the chicken, she had made up her small mind that a certain matter must be put right. Aunt Elizabeth, she said,
Starting point is 01:46:13 Hey, what? said Aunt Elizabeth, directing her steel-blue eyes straight at her niece's troubled ones. I would like you to understand, said Emily, speaking very primly and precisely, so that she would be sure to get things right, that it was not because I did not like the rose beef, I did not eat it. I was not hungry at all,
Starting point is 01:46:36 and I just ate some of the chicken to oblige you, not because I liked it any better. Children should eat what is put before them and never turn up their nose as at good, wholesome food, said Aunt Elizabeth severely. So Emily felt that Aunt Elizabeth had not understood after all, and she was unhappy about it. After dinner, Aunt Elizabeth announced to Aunt Laura
Starting point is 01:47:00 that they would do some shopping. We must get some things for the child, she said. Oh, please don't call me the child, exclaimed Emily. It makes me feel as if I didn't belong anywhere. Don't you like my name, Aunt Elizabeth? Mother thought it's so pretty, and I don't need any things. I have two whole sets of underclothes, only one is patched. Shhh, said Cousin Jimmy, gently kicking Emily's chins under the table.
Starting point is 01:47:33 Cousin Jimmy only meant that she would better let Aunt Elizabeth buy things for her when she was in the humour for it. But Emily thought he was rebuking her for mentioning such matters as underclothes and subsided and scarlet conviction. Aunt Elizabeth went on talking to Laura as if she had not heard. She must not wear that cheap black dress in Blairwater. You could sift oatmeal through it. It is nonsense expecting a child of ten to wear black at all.
Starting point is 01:48:03 I shall get her a nice white dress with black sash for good and some black and white check gingham for school. Jimmy, we'll leave the child with you. Look after her. Cousin Jimmy's method of looking after her was to take her to a restaurant down street and fill her up with ice cream. Emily had never had many chances at ice cream and she needed no urging, even with lack of appetite, to eat two saucerfuls. Cousin Jimmy eyed her with satisfaction. No use my getting anything for you that Elizabeth could see, he said.
Starting point is 01:48:39 But she can't see what is inside of you. Make the most of your chance, for goodness alone knows when you'll get any more. Do you never have ice cream at New Moon? Cousin Jimmy shook his head. Your Aunt Elizabeth doesn't like newfangled things. In the house, we belonged to 50 years ago. But on the farm she has to give way. In the house, candles.
Starting point is 01:49:04 In the dairy, her grandmother's big pans to set the milk in. But Pussy, New Moon is a pretty good place of. after all, you'll like it someday. Are there any fairies there? asked Emily Westphilly. The woods are full of him, said Cousin' Jim. And so are the columbines in the old orchard. We grow columbines there on purpose for the fairies. Emily sighed.
Starting point is 01:49:31 Since she was eight, she had known there were no fairies anyway nowadays. Yet she hadn't quite given up the hope that one or two might linger in old-fashioned, out-of-the-way spots, and were so likely as at New Moon. Really truly fairies? she questioned. Why? You know, if a fairy was really truly, it wouldn't be a fairy, said Uncle Jimmy, seriously. Could it now? Before Emily could think this out, the aunts returned, and soon they were all on the road again. It was sunset when they came to Blairwater, a rosy sunset that flooded the long, sainty and sandy sea coast with colour, and brought red road and fur-darkened hill out in fleeting clearness of outline.
Starting point is 01:50:20 Emily looked about her on her new environment and found it good. She saw a big house peering whitely through a veil of tall old trees. No mushroom growth of yesterday's birches, but trees that had loved and been loved by three generations, a glimpse of silver water glistening through the dark spruces. That was the Blair Water itself, she knew, and a tall golden-white church spire shooting up above the maple woods in the valley below, but it was none of these that brought her the flash. That came with the sudden glimpse of the dear, friendly little dormer window,
Starting point is 01:50:58 peeping through vines on the roof, and right over it in the opalescent sky, a real new moon, golden and slender. Emily was tingling all over with it as Cousin Jimmy lifted her from the buggy and carried her into the kitchen. She sat on a long wooden bench that was sat and smooth with age and scrubbing and watched Aunt Elizabeth lighting candles here and there in great shining brass candlesticks, on the shelf between the windows, on the high-dresser where the row of blue and white plates began to wink her a friendly welcome, on the long table in the corner,
Starting point is 01:51:37 and as she lighted them, elvish rabbit's candles flashed up amid the trees outside the windows. Emily had never seen a kitchen like this before. It had dark wooden walls and low ceiling, with black rafters crossing it,
Starting point is 01:51:54 from which hung hands and sides of bacon and bunches of herbs and new socks and mittens and many other things. The names are new stucs, of which Emily could not imagine. The sanded floor was spotlessly white,
Starting point is 01:52:10 but the boards had been scrubbed away through the years until the knots in them stuck up all over in funny little bosses, and in front of the stove they had sagged, making a queer, shallow little hollow. In one corner of the ceiling was a large square hole, which looked black and spookish in the candlelight and made her feel creepy. Something might pop down,
Starting point is 01:52:34 out of a hole like that if one hadn't behaved just right, you know, and candles caused such queer wavering shadows. Emily didn't know whether she liked the new moon kitchen or not. It was an interesting place, and she rather thought she would like to describe it in the old account book, if it hadn't been burned, but Emily suddenly found herself trembling on the verge of tears. Cold? Said Aunt Laura kindly. These June evenings are chilly yet.
Starting point is 01:53:07 Come into the sitting room. Jimmy has kindled a fire in stove there. Emily, fighting desperately for self-control, went into the sitting room. It was much more cheerful in kitchen. The floor was covered with gay striped homespun. The table had a bright crimson cloth. The walls were hung with pretty,
Starting point is 01:53:29 diamond pattern paper. The curtains were of wonderful pale-rayed Damasque, with a design of white ferns scattered all over them. They look very rich and imposing and Murray-like. Emily had never seen such curtains before. But best of all were the friendly gleams and flickers from the jolly hardwood fire in the open stove that mellowed the ghostly candlelight
Starting point is 01:53:54 with something warm and rosy golden. Emily toasted her toes before it and felt reviving interest in her surroundings. What lovely little leaded glass doors closed the china closets on either side of the high black polished mantle? What a funny delightful shadow the carved ornament on the sideboard cast on the wall behind it. Just like a negro side face, Emily decided. What mysteries might lurk behind the chintz-lined glass doors of the bookcase? books were Emily's friends wherever she found them. She flew over to the bookcase and opened the door.
Starting point is 01:54:33 But before she could see more than the backs of rather ponderous volumes, Aunt Elizabeth came in with a mug of milk and a plate, whereon lay two little oatmeal cakes. Emily, said Aunt Elizabeth sternly, shut that door. Remember that after this you are not to meddle things that don't belong to you." I thought books belong to everybody, said Emily.
Starting point is 01:55:01 Ours don't, said Aunt Elizabeth, contriving to convey the impression that new moon books were in a class by themselves. Here is your supper, Emily. We are all so tired that we are just having a lunch. Eat it and then we will go to bed. Emily drank the milk and worried down the oat cakes, still gazing about her. How pretty the wallpaper was, with the golland of roses inside the gilt diamond. Emily wondered if she could see it in the air. She tried.
Starting point is 01:55:35 Yes, she could. There it hung, a yard from her eyes, a little fairy pattern, suspended in mid-air like a scream. Emily had discovered that she possessed this odd knack when she was six. By a certain movement of the muscles of her eyes, which she could never describe. She could produce a tiny replica of the wallpaper in the air before her. Could hold it there and look at it as long as she liked.
Starting point is 01:56:06 Could shift it back and forth to any distance she chose, making it larger or smaller as it went farther away or came nearer. It was one of her secret joys when she went into a new room anywhere to see the paper in the air. And this new moon paper made the prettiest fairy paper she had ever seen. What are you staring at nothing in that queer way for? demanded Aunt Elizabeth, suddenly returning. Emily shrank into herself.
Starting point is 01:56:38 She couldn't explain to Aunt Elizabeth. Aunt Elizabeth would be like Ellen Green and say she was crazy. I wasn't staring at nothing. Don't contradict, I say you were, retorted Aunt Elizabeth. Elizabeth, don't do it again. It gives your face an unnatural expression. Come now, we will go upstairs. You are to sleep with me. Emily gave a gasp of dismay. She had hoped it might be with Aunt Laura. Sleeping with Aunt Elizabeth seemed a very formidable thing, but she dared not protest. They went up to Aunt Elizabeth's big, somber bedroom where there was dark, grim wallpaper that could never be transformed in
Starting point is 01:57:21 her very curtain. A high black bureau, topped with a tiny swing mirror, so far above her that there could be no Emily in the glass, tightly closed windows with dark green curtains, a high bedstead with a dark green canopy, and a huge, fat, smothering feather bed with high, hard pillows. Emily stood still, gazing about her. Why don't you get undressed? I asked on her. Elizabeth. I don't like to undress before you, faltered Emily. Aunt Elizabeth looked at Emily through her cold,
Starting point is 01:58:00 spectacled eyes. Take off your clothes at once, she said. Emily obeyed, tingling with anger and shame. It was abominable, taking off her clothes while Aunt Elizabeth stood and watched her. The outrage of it was unspeakable. It was even harder to say,
Starting point is 01:58:21 her prayers before Aunt Elizabeth. Emily felt that it was not much good to pray under such circumstances. Father's God seemed very far away, and she suspected that Aunt Elizabeth's was too much like Ellen Greens. Get into bed, said Aunt Elizabeth, turning down the clothes. Emily glanced at the shrouded window. Aren't you going to open the window, Aunt Elizabeth? Aunt Elizabeth looked at Emily, as if the latter
Starting point is 01:58:51 had suggested removing the roof. Open the window and let in the night air, she exclaimed. Certainly not. Father and I always had our window open, cried Emily. No wonder he died of consumption, said Aunt Elizabeth. Night air is poison. What air is there at night? But night air, asked Emily.
Starting point is 01:59:17 Emily, said Aunt Elizabeth, icily. Get into bed, Emily got in, but it was utterly impossible to sleep, lying there in that engulfing bed that seemed to swallow her up with that cloud of blackness above her, and not a gleam of light anywhere,
Starting point is 01:59:38 and Aunt Elizabeth lying beside her long and stiff and bony. I feel as if I was in bed with a griffin, thought Emily. Oh, oh, oh, I'm going to cry, I know I am. Desperately and vainly, she strove to keep the tears back. They would come. She felt utterly alone and lonely. There in that darkness, with an alien, hostile world all around her, for it seemed hostile now, and there was such a strange, mysterious, mournful sound in the air, far away, yet clear. It was the murmur of the sea, but Emily did not know that,
Starting point is 02:00:20 frightened her. Oh, for her little bed at home. Oh, for father's soft breathing in the room. Oh, for the dancing friendliness of well-known stars shining down through her open window. She must go back. She couldn't stay here. She would never be happy here. But there wasn't any back to go to. No home, no father. A great sob burst from her. Another followed, and then another. It was no use to clench her hands and set her teeth and chew the inside of her cheeks. Nature conquered pride and determination and hid her way. What are you crying for? asked Aunt Elizabeth.
Starting point is 02:01:04 To tell the truth, Aunt Elizabeth felt quite as uncomfortable and disjointed as Emily did. She was not used to a bedfellow. She didn't want to sleep with Emily any more than Emily wanted to sleep with her. but she considered it quite impossible that the child should be put off by herself in one of the big lonely new moon rooms, and Laura was a poor sleeper easily disturbed. Children always kicked, Elizabeth Murray had heard. So it was nothing to do but take Emily in with her, and when she had sacrificed comfort and inclination to do her unwelcome duty, this ungrateful and unsatisfactory child was not contented. I asked you what you were crying for, Emily, she repeated. I'm homesick, I guess, sobbed Emily.
Starting point is 02:01:58 Aunt Elizabeth was annoyed. A nice home you had to be homesick for, she said sharply. It wasn't as elegant as New Moon, sobbed Emily. But father was there. I guess I'm father's sake, Aunt Elizabeth. Didn't you feel awfully lonely when your father died? elizabeth murray involuntarily remembered the ashamed smothered feeling of relief when old archibald murray had died the handsome intolerant autocratic old man who had ruled his family with a rod of iron all his life and had made existence at new moon miserable with the petulant tyranny of the five years of invalidism that had closed his career the surviving murrays had behaved impeccably and wept decorously and printed a long and flattering obituary
Starting point is 02:02:52 but had one genuine feeling of regret followed archibald murray to his tomb elizabeth did not like the memory and was angry with emily for evoking it I was resigned to the will of Providence, she said coldly. Emily, you must understand right now that you are to be grateful and obedient and show your appreciation of what is being done for you. I won't have tears in repining. What would you have done if you had no friends to take you in? Answer me that. I suppose I would have starved today, admitted Emily. Instantly beholding a dramatic vision of herself lying dead, looking exactly like.
Starting point is 02:03:34 the pictures she had seen in one of Ellen Green's missionary magazines, depicting the victims of an Indian famine. Not exactly, but you would have been sent to some orphanage, where you would have been half-staffed, probably. You little know what you have escaped. You have come to a good home where you will be cared for and educated properly, and he did not altogether like the sound of being educated properly. But she said humbly,
Starting point is 02:04:01 I know it was very good of you to bring me to new moon, Aunt Elizabeth. And I won't bother you long, you know. I'll soon be grown up and able to earn my own living. What do you think is the earliest age a person can be called grown up, Aunt Elizabeth? You needn't think about that, said Aunt Elizabeth Shalking. The Murray woman have never been under any necessity for earning their own living. All we require a view is to be a good and consistent. intended child, and to conduct yourself with becoming prudence and modesty.
Starting point is 02:04:37 This sounded terribly hard. I will be, said Emily, suddenly determining to be heroic, like the girl in the stories she had read. Perhaps it won't be so very hard after all, Aunt Elizabeth. Emily happened at this point to recall the speech she had heard her father used once, and thought this a good opportunity to work it in, because, you know, God is good and the devil might be worse. Poor Aunt Elizabeth! To have a speech like that, wired at her, in the darkness of the night,
Starting point is 02:05:13 from that unwelcome little interloper into her orderly life and peaceful bed, was it any wonder that for a moment or so she was too paralyzed to reply? Then she exclaimed in tones of horror. Emily, never say that again. again. All right, said Emily neatly, but she added defiantly under her breath. I'll go on thinking it. And now, said Aunt Elizabeth, I want to say that I am not in the habit of talking all night if you are. I tell you to go to sleep and I expect you to obey me. Good night. The tone of Aunt Elizabeth's, good night would have spoiled the best night in the world.
Starting point is 02:06:01 But Emily lay very still and sobbed no more, though the noiseless tears trickled down her cheeks in the darkness for some time. She lay so still that Aunt Elizabeth imagined she was asleep, and went to sleep herself. I wonder if anybody in the world is awake but me, thought Emily, feeling a sickening loneliness. If I only had saucy cell here, She isn't so cuddly as Mike, but she'd better than nothing.
Starting point is 02:06:29 I wonder where she is. I wonder if they gave her any supper. Aunt Elizabeth had handed Cell's basket to Cousin Jimmy with an impatient. Here, look to this cat! And Jimmy had carried it off. Where had he put it? Perhaps, Rosie Cell would get out and go home. Emily had heard cats always went back home.
Starting point is 02:06:49 She wished she could get out and go home. She pictured herself and her cat running eagerly along the dog dark starlit roads to the little house in the hollow, back to the birches and Adam and Eve, and Mike in the old wing chair, and her dear little cot, in the open window where the wind woman sang to her, and at dawn one could see the blue of the mist on the homeland hills. Will it ever be morning, though dear me. Perhaps things won't be so bad in the morning. And then, she heard the wind woman at the window. She heard the little low whispering a murmur of the June night breeze, cooing, friendly, lovesome.
Starting point is 02:07:30 Oh, you're out there, are you, dearest one? She whispered, stretching out her arms. Oh, I am so glad to hear you. You're such company, wind woman. I'm not lonesome anymore. And the flash came, too. I was afraid it might never come at New Moon. Her soul suddenly escaped from the bondage of Auntie.
Starting point is 02:07:54 Elizabeth's stuffy feather bed and gloomy canopy and sealed windows. She was out in the open with the wind woman and the other gypsies of the night, the fireflies, the moths, the brooks, clouds. Far and wide she wandered in enchanted reverie, until she coasted the shore of dreams and fell soundly asleep on the fat hard pillow, while the wind woman sang softly and luringly in the vines. that clustered over New Moon. End of Section 6. Recording by Leanne Portune.
Starting point is 02:08:37 Section 7 of Emily of New Moon by Lucy M. Montgomery. This Libre Fox recording is in public domain. Recording by Leanne Fortune. Section 7. That first Saturday and Sunday at New Moon almost stood out in Emily's memory was a very wonderful time. So crowded was it with New and generally delightful. if it be true that we count time by hard throats emily lived two years in it instead of two days everything was fascinating from the moment she came down the long polished staircase into the square hall that was filled with a soft rosy light coming through the red glass panes of the front door emily gazed through the panes delighted
Starting point is 02:09:22 what a strange fascinating red world she behold with a weird red sky that looked she thought as if it was but a strange fascinating red world she beheld with a weird red sky that looked as if it belong to the day of judgment there was a certain charm about the old house which emily felt keenly and responded to although she was too young to understand it it was a house which aforetime had had vivid brides and mothers and wives and the atmosphere of their loves and lives still hung around it not yet banished by the old maidishness of the regime of elizabeth and laura why i'm going to love new new thought emily quite amazed at the idea aunt laura was setting the breakfast-table in the kitchen which seemed quite bright and jolly in the glow of morning sunshine even the black hole in the ceiling had ceased to be spookish and become only a commonplace entrance to the kitchen lot and on the red sand stern door-stick saucy cell was sitting preening her fur as contentedly as if she had lived it new moon all her life. Emily did not know but Sel had already drunk deep the delight of battle with her peers that morning, and taught the barn-cats their place once and for all. Cousin'emies' big yellow Tom had got a fearful drubbing and was minus several bits of his anatomy, while a stuck-up black lady-cat, who fancied herself considerably, had made up her mind that if that grey and white narrow-faced interloper from the, goodness knew where was going to stay at new moon, she was not. Emily gathered cell up in her arms and kissed her joyously to the horror of Aunt Elizabeth who was coming across the platform
Starting point is 02:11:08 from the cookhouse with a plate of sizzling bacon in her hands. Don't ever let me see you kissing a cat again, she ordered. Oh, all right, agreed Emily cheerfully. I'll only kiss her when you don't see me after this. i don't want any of your pertnessness you are not to kiss cats at all but aunt elizabeth i didn't kiss her on the mouth of course i just kissed her between her ears it's nice won't you just try it for once and see for yourself that will do emily you have said quite enough and aunt elizabeth sailed on into the kitchen majestically leaving emily momentarily richard she felt that she had had been very enough and aunt elizabeth sailed on into the kitchen majestically leaving emily muchard she felt that she had defended Aunt Elizabeth, she hadn't the least notion why or how. But the scene before her was too interesting to worry long over Aunt Elizabeth. Delicious smells were coming from the cookhouse.
Starting point is 02:12:07 A little slant-roofed building at the corner, where the big cooking stove was placed in summer. It was thickly overgrown with hop vines, as most of the new moon buildings were. To the right was the new orchard. Very wonderful, no. now in blossom, but a rather commonplace spot after all, since Cousin Jimmy cultivated it in most up-to-date fashion, and had grain growing in the wide spaces between the straight rows of trees that looked all alike. But on the other side of the barn lane, just behind the well, was the old orchard, where Cousin Jimmy said the columbines grew, and which seemed to be a delightful place where trees had come. come up at their own sweet will and grown into individual shapes and sizes, where blue-eyed ivy twined about their roots, and wild briar roses rioted over the grey-pailing fence. Straight ahead, closing the vista between the orchards, was a little slope, covered with huge white birches, among which were the big New Moon Bonds,
Starting point is 02:13:19 and beyond the new orchard a little lovable red road, looom, looom, loogees, looge of the little lovable red road, looped lightly up and up, over a hill, until it seemed to touch the vivid blue of the sky. Cousin Jimmy came down from the barns, carrying brimming pails of milk, and Emily ran with him to the dairy behind the cookhouse. Such a delightful spot she had never seen or imagined. It was a snow-white little building in a clump of tall balm of Gileads. Its grey roof was dotted over with cushions of moss, like a. like fat green velvet mice you went down six sandstone steps with ferns crowding about them and opened a white door with a glass panel in it and went down three more steps and then you were in a clean earthy smelling damp cool place with an earthen floor and windows screened by the delicate emerald of young hop-vines and broad wooden shelves all around whereon stood wine
Starting point is 02:14:23 shallow pans of glossy brown wave full of milk coated over with cream so rich that it was positively yellow aunt laura was waiting for them and she drained the milk into empty pans and then skimmed some of the full ones emily thought skimming was a lovely occupation and longed to try her hand at it she also longed to sit right down and write a description of that dear dairy but alas there was no account book still she could write it in her head she squatted down on a little three-legged stool in the dim corner and proceeded to do it sitting so still that jimmy and laura forgot her and went away and later had to hunt for her a quarter of an hour this delayed breakfast and made aunt elizabeth berry crops but emily had found just the right sentence to define the clear yet dim green light that filled the dairy and was so happy over it that she didn't mind aunt elizabeth's black looks a bit after breakfast aunt elizabeth informed emily that henceforth it would be one of her duties to drive the cows to pasture every morning jimmy has no hired man just now and it will save him a few minutes i don't be afraid added aunt laura the cows know the way so well they'll go of themselves you have only to follow and shut the gates i'm not afraid said but she was she knew nothing about cows still she was determined that the murrays should not suspect a star was scared so her heart beating like a trip hammer
Starting point is 02:16:12 she sallied valiantly forth and found that what aunt laura had said was true and cows were not such ferocious animals after all they went gravely on ahead and she had only to follow through the old orchard and then through the scrub maple growth beyond along a twisted ferny path where the wind woman was purring peeping around the maple clumps emily loitered by the pasture gate until her eager eyes had taken in all the geography of the landscape the old pasture ran before her in a succession of little green bosoms right down to the famous blairwater an almost perfectly round pond with grassy sloping treeless margins beyond it was the blaywater valley filled with homesteads and further out the great sweep of the white-capped gulf. It seemed to Emily's eyes a charming land of green shadows and blue waters. Down in one corner of the pasture, walled off by an old stone dyke, was the little private graveyard where the dead and gone murrays were buried.
Starting point is 02:17:22 Emily wanted to go and explore it but was afraid to trust herself in the pasture. I'll go as soon as I get better acquainted with the cows, she resolved. off to the right on the crest of a steep little hill covered with young birches and furs was a house that puzzled and intrigued emily it was grey and weather-worn but it didn't look old it had never been finished the roof was chingled but the sides were not and the windows were bordered over why had it never been finished and it was meant to be such a pretty little house a house you could love a house where there would be nice chairs and cosy fires and book-house and lovely fat purry cats and unexpected corns then and there she named it the disappointed house many an hour thereafter did she spend finishing that house furnishing it as it should be furnished and inventing the proper people and animals to live in it to the left of the pasture field was another house of a quite different type a big old house tangled over with vines flat-roofed with mansard ringed and a general air of indifference and neglect about it. A large untidy lawn, overgrown with unpruned shrubs and trees,
Starting point is 02:18:41 struggled right down to the pond, where enormous willows drooped over the water. Emily decided that she would ask Cousin Jimmy about these houses when she got a good chance. She felt that before she went back, she must slip along the pasture fence and explore a certain path which she saw, entering the grove spruce and makele further down she did and found that it led straight into fairyland along the bank of a wide lovely brook a wild dear little path with lady ferns beckoning and blowing along at the shyest of elfin june bells under the firs and little whims of loveliness at every curve
Starting point is 02:19:23 she breathed in the tang of fur balsam and saw the shimmer of gossomers high up in the boughs and everywhere the frolic of elfin lights and shadows here and there the young maple branches interlaced as if to make a scream for dryad faces emily knew all about dryards thanks to her father and the great sheets of moss under the trees were meet for titanious couch this is one of the places where dreamed grow, said Emily happily. She wished the path might go on forever, but presently it veered away from the brook, and when she had scrambled over a mossy, old-baud fence, she found herself in the front garden of the new room, where Cousin Jimmy was pruning some spurious bushes. Oh, cousin Jimmy, I've found the dearest little road, said Emily breathlessly, coming up through Lofty John's bush. Isn't it our bush? asked emily rather disappointed no but it ought to be fifty years ago uncle archibald solved that jog of land to lofty john's father old mike sullivan he built a little house down near the pond and lived there till he quarrelled with uncle archibald which wasn't long of course then he moved his house across the road and lofty john lives there now elizabeth has tried to buy the land back from him she's offered him far more than its work
Starting point is 02:20:54 but lofty john won't sell just for spite seeing that he has a good farm of his own and this piece isn't much good to him he only pastures a few young cattle on it through the summer and what was cleared is all growing up with scrub maple it's a thorn in elizabeth's side and likely to be as long as lofty john nurses his spite why is he called lofty john because he is a high and lofty fellow but never mind him i want to show you round my garden emily it's mine elizabeth bosses the farm but she lets me run the garden to make up for pushing me into the well did she do that yes she didn't mean to of course we were just children i was here on a visit and the men were putting a new hood on the well and cleaning it it was open and we were playing tag around it i made elizabeth mad forget what i said it wasn't hard to make her mad you understand and she made to give me a bang on the head i saw it coming and stepped back to get out of the way and down i went head first don't remember anything more about it there was nothing but mud at the bottom but my head struck the stones at the side i was took up for dead my head all cut up poor elizabeth was cousin jimmy shook his head as if to intimate that it was impossible to describe how or what poor elizabeth was i got about after a while though pretty near as good as new folks say i've never been quite right since but they only say that because i'm a poet and because nothing ever worries me poets are so scarce in blair-water folks don't understand them and most people worry so much they think you're not right if you don't worry
Starting point is 02:22:48 won't you recite some of your poetry to me cousin jimmy asked emily when the spirit moves me i will it's no use to ask me when the spirit doesn't move me but how am i to know when the spirit doesn't move me but how am i to know when the spirit is moves to you, Cousin Jimmy. I'll begin of my own accord to recite my compositions, but I'll tell you this. The spirit generally moves me when I'm boiling the pig's potatoes in the pool. Remember that, and be around. Why don't you write your poetry down? Paper's too scarce at New Moon. Elizabeth has some pet economies and writing paper of any kind is one of them. But haven't you any money of your own, Cousin Jimmy? Oh, Elizabeth pays me good wages, but she puts some. all my money in the bank, and just dolls out a few dollars to me once in a while.
Starting point is 02:23:36 She says I'm not fit to be trusted with money. When I came here to work for her, she paid me my wages at the end of the month, and I started for Shrewsbury to put it in the bank. Met a tramp on the road, a poor forlorn creature without a cent. I gave him the money. Why not? I had a good home and a steady job, and close enough to do me for years. I suppose it was the foolishest thing I ever did, and the nicest. But Elizabeth never got over it. She has managed my money ever since. But come you now, and I'll show you my garden before I have to go and sewed turnips. The garden was a beautiful place, well-worthy cousin Jimmy's pride. It seemed like a garden
Starting point is 02:24:22 where no frost could with a rough wind blow, a garden remembering a hundred vanished summons. There was a high hedge of clipped spruce all around it, spaced at intervals by tall Lombardies. The north side was closed in by a thick row of spruce, against which a long row of peonies grew, their great red blossoms blended against its darkness. One big spruce grew in the centre of the garden, and underneath it was a stone bench, made a flat shore stone's warm smooth by a long polish of wind and wave. In the southeast corner was an enormous clump of lilac. trimmed into the semblance of one large drooping-bowed tree bloried over with purple an old summer-house covered with vines filled the southwest corner and in the northwest corner there was a sundial of gray stone placed just where the broad red walk that was bordered with striped grass
Starting point is 02:25:17 and picked out with pink conches ran off into lofty john's bush emily had never seen a sundial before and hung over it enraptured your great-great-grandfather hugh murray had that brought out from the old country said cousin jimmy there isn't as fine a one in the maritime provinces and uncle george murray brought those conscious from the indies he was a sea captain emily looked about her with delight the garden was lovely and the house quite splendid to her childish eyes it had a big front porch with grecian columns these were thought very elegant in blairwater and the garden was lovely and the house quite splendid to her childish eyes it had a big front porch with grecian columns these were thought very elegant in blair water and went far to justify the murray pride the schoolmaster had said they gave the house a classical air to be sure the classical effect was just now rather smothered in hop-bines that rioted over the whole porch and hung in pale green festoons above the rows of potted scarlet geraniums that flanked the steps emily's heart swelled with pride it's a noble house she said and what about my garden demanded cousin jimmy jealously it's fit for a queen said emily gravely and sincerely cousin jimmy nodded well pleased and then a strange sound crept into his voice and an odd look into his eyes there is a spell woven round this garden the blight shall spare it and the green worm pass it by drought dares not invade it and the rain comes here gently emily took an involuntary step backward she almost felt like running away but now cousin jimmy was himself again
Starting point is 02:27:04 isn't this grass about the sundial like green velvet i've taken some pains with it i can't tell you you make yourself at home in this garden cousin jimmy made a splendid gesture i confer the freedom of it upon you good luck to you and may you find the love diamond. The lost diamond? said Emily, wondering me. What fascinating thing was this? Never hear the story. I'll tell it tomorrow. Sunday is lazy day at New Moon. I must get off to my turnips now, or I'll have Elizabeth out looking at me. She won't say anything. She'll just look. Ever seen the real Murray look? I guess I saw it when Aunt Ruth pulled me out from under the table, said Emily. No, no, that was the Ruth Dutton look, spite and malice and all uncharitableness. I hate Ruth Dutton. She laughs at my poetry, not that she ever hears any of it. The spirit never moves when Ruth is round. Don't know where they got her. Elizabeth is a crank,
Starting point is 02:28:11 but she's sound as a nut and Laura's a saint. But Ruth's worm-eaten. As for the Murray-look, you'll know it when you see it it's as well known as the murray pride we're a darn queer lot but we're the finest people ever happened i'll tell you all about us to-morrow cousin jimmy kept his promise while the aunts were away at church it had been decided in family conclave that emily was not to go to church that day she has nothing suitable to wear said aunt elizabeth by next sunday we will have her white dress ready Emily was disappointed that she was not to go to church. She had always found church very interesting on the rare occasions when she got there. It had been too far at Maywood for her father to walk. But sometimes Ellen Green's brother had taken her in Ellen. Do you think, Aunt Elizabeth, she said whispered,
Starting point is 02:29:09 that God would be much offended if I wore my black dress to church. Of course it's cheap. I think Ellen Green paid for it herself, but it covers me all. up little girls who do not understand things should hold their tongues said aunt elizabeth i do not choose that blarewater people should see my niece in such a dress as that wretched black merino and if ellen green paid for it we must repay her you should have told us that before we came away from maywood no you are not going to church to-day you can wear the black dress to school to-morrow we can cover it up with an apron emily resigned herself with a sigh of disappointment to staying home, but it was very pleasant after all. Cousin Jimmy took her for a walk to the pond, showed her the graveyard, and opened the book of yesterday for her. Why are all the Murray is buried here? asked Emily. Is it really because they are too good to be buried with common people? No no, pussy. We don't carry our pride as far as that. When old Hugh Murray settled at New Moon, there was nothing much but woods for miles, and no graveyards nearer.
Starting point is 02:30:19 or than charlottetown that's why the old murrays were buried here and later on we kept it up because we wanted to lie with our own here on the green green banks of the old blair water that sounds like a line out of a poem cousin jimmy said emily so it is out of one of my poems i kind of like the idea of exclusive bearing ground like this said emily looking around her provingly at the velvet grass sloping down to the fairy blue pond the neat walks the well-kept graves cousin jimmy chuckled and yet they say you ain't a murray he said murray and bird and star and a dash of shippley to boot or cousin jimmy murray is much mistaken shipley yes hugh murray's wife your great-great-grandmother was a shippley an english woman ever hear of how the murrays came to new moon no they were bound for quebec hadn't any notion of it of coming to PEI. They had a long, rough voyage, and water got scarce, so the captain of the new moon put in here to get some. Mary Murray had nearly died of seasickness coming out,
Starting point is 02:31:32 never seemed to get her sea legs, so the captain, being sorry for her, told her she could go ashore with the men and fill solid ground under her for an hour or so. Very gladly she went, and when she got to shore, she said, Here I stay, and stay she did. Nothing could budge her. Old Hugh, he was young Hugh then, of course, coaxed and stormed and raged and argued, and even cried, I've been told.
Starting point is 02:31:57 But Mary wouldn't be moved. In the end he gave in and had his belongings landed and stayed too. So that is how the Murray's came to P.E. Island. I'm glad it happened like that, said Emily. So was old Hugh in the long run, and yet it rankled, Emily, it rankled. He never forgave his wife with a whole heart. her grave is over there in the corner that one with the flat red stone go you and look at what he had put on it emily ran curiously over the big flat stone was inscribed with one of the long discursive epitars of an older day but beneath the epitur was no scriptural verse or pious psalm clear and distinct in spite of age and lichen ran the line here i stay that's how he glute even with her said cousin jimmy he was a good husband to her and she was a good wife and bore him a fine family and he never was the same after her death but that rankled in him until it had to come out emily gave a little shiver
Starting point is 02:33:02 somehow the idea of that grim old ancestor with his undying grudge against his nearest and dearest was rather terrifying i'm glad i'm only half murray she said to herself aloud father told me it was a murray tradition not to carry his fight past the grave. So tis now, but it took its rise from this very thing. His family was so horrified at it, you see. It made considerable of a scandal. Some folks twisted it round to mean that old Hugh didn't believe in the resurrection, and there was talk of the session taking it up, but after a while the talk died away.
Starting point is 02:33:41 Emily skipped over to another lichen-burnstone. Elizabeth Burnley. Who was she, cousin Jimmy? old William Murray's wife. He was Hugh's brother and came out here five years after Hugh did. His wife was a great beauty and had been a bell in the old country.
Starting point is 02:34:00 She didn't like the P.E. Island Woods. She was homesick, Emily. Scandalous homesick. For weeks after she came here, she wouldn't take off her bonnet. Just walked the floor in it, demanding to be taken back home. Didn't she take it off when she went to bed?
Starting point is 02:34:17 asked Emily. don't know if she did go to bed anyway william wouldn't take her back home so in time she took off her bonnet and resigned herself her daughter married hugh's son so elizabeth was your great-great-grandmother emily looked down at the sunken green grave and wondered if any homesick dreams haunted elizabeth burnley's slumber over a hundred years it's dreadful to the homesick i know she felt sympathetically little stephen murray is buried over there said cousin jim his was the first marble stone in the bearing-ground he was your grandfather's brother died when he was twelve he has said cousin jimmy solomon become a murray tradition why he was so beautiful and clever and good he hadn't a fault so of course he couldn't live they say they never was such a handsome child in the connection and lovable everybody loved him he has been dead for ninety years not a murray living to-day ever saw him and yet we talk about him at family gatherings he is more real than lots of living people so you see emily he must have been an extraordinary child but it ended in that cousin jimmy waved his hand towards the grassy grave and the white brimmy headstone i wonder thought emily if any one will remember me ninety years after i'm dead this old yard is a little yard is nearly full, reflected Cousin Jimmy. There's just room in yonder corner for Elizabeth and
Starting point is 02:35:52 Laura and me. None for you, Emily. I don't want to be buried here, flashed Emily. I think it's splendid to have a graveyard like this in the family, but I'm going to be buried in Charlottetown graveyard with father and mother. But there's one thing worries me, Cousin Jimmy. Do you think I'm likely to die of consumption? Cousin Jimmy looked judicially down into her eyes. eyes. No, he said. No, Miss Puss. You've got enough life in you to carry you far.
Starting point is 02:36:23 You aren't meant for death. I feel that too, said Emily nodding. And now, Cousin Jimmy, why is that house over there disappointed? Which one? Oh, Fred Clifford's house. Fred Clifford began to build that house 30 years ago. He was to be married and his lady picked out the plan. and when the house was just as far along as you see she jilted him emily right in the face of day she jilted him never another nail was driven in the house
Starting point is 02:36:56 fred went out to british columbia he is living there yet married and happy but he won't sell that lot to any one so i reckon he feels the sting yet i'm so sorry for that house i wish it had been finished it wants to be even yet it wants to be well i reckon it never will fred had a bit of shipli in him too you see one of old hugh's girls was his grandmother and dr burnley up there in the first you see fred had a bit of shippley in him too you see one of old hughes girls was his grandmother and dr bernley up there in the big gray house has more than a bit is he a relation of ours too cousin forty-second cousin way back he had a cousin of mary shipley's for a great something that was in the old country his forebears came out here after we did he's a good doctor but an odd stick oder by far than i am emily and yet nobody ever says he's not all there can you account for that he doesn't believe in god and i am not such a fool as that not in any god not in any god he's an infidel emily and he's bringing his little girl up the same way which i think is a shame emily said cousin jimmy confidentially doesn't her mother teach her things her mother is dead answered cousin jimmy with a little odd hesitation dead these ten years he added in a firmer tone. Ilza Burnley is a great girl,
Starting point is 02:38:25 hair like daffodils and eyes like yellow diamonds. Oh, Cousin Jimmy, you promised you tell me about the last diamond, cried Emily eagerly. To be sure, to be sure. Well, it's there, somewhere in or about the old summer house, Emily. Fifty years ago, Edward Murray and his wife came here from Kingsport for a visit. The great lady she was, and wearing silks and diamonds, like a queen, though no beauty. She had a ring on with a stone in it that cost two hundred
Starting point is 02:38:56 pounds, Emily. That was a big lot of money to be wearing on one wee woman finger, wasn't it? It sparkled on her white hand as she held her dress going up steps of the summer house. But when she came down the steps, it was gone. And was it never found? asked Emily breathlessly. Never. And for no lack of searching. would Murray wanted to have the house pulled down, but Uncle Archibald wouldn't hear of it, because he had built it for his bride. The two brothers quarrelled over it, and were never good friends again. Everybody in the connection has taken a spell hunting for the diamond. Most folks think it fell out of the summer house among the flowers or shrubs. But I know better, Emily. I know Miriam
Starting point is 02:39:42 Murray's diamond is somewhere about that old house yet. On moonlit nights, Emily, I've seen it, glinting, glinting and beckoning, but never in the same place, and when you go to it it's gone and you see it laughing at you from somewhere else. Again there was that airy, indefinable something in Cousin'emly's voice or look, that gave Emily a sudden crinkly feeling in her spine. But she loved the way he talked to her, as if she were grown up, and she loved the beautiful land around her. and at spite of the ache for her father and the house and the hollow which persisted all the time and hurt her so much at night that her pillow was wet with secret tears she was beginning to be a little glad agave in sunset and birdsong and early white stars in moonlit nights and singing winds She knew life was going to be wonderful here, wonderful and interesting, what with outdoor cookhouses and cream-girdled dairies and pondpaws and sundials and lost diamonds and disappointed houses, and men who didn't believe in any god, not even Ellen Green's god, Emily hoped she would soon see Dr. Burnley. She was very curious to see what an infidel looked like. and she had already quite made up her mind that she would find the last diamond end of section seven recording by le anne fortune
Starting point is 02:41:17 section eight of emily of new moon by lucy m montgomery this lebrfrox recording is in the public domain recording by leanne fortune section eight aunt elizabeth drove emily to school the next morning aunt laura had thought that since there was only a month aunt laura had thought that since there was only a month before vacation it was not worth while for emily to stop school but aunt elizabeth did not yet feel comfortable with a small niece skipping around new moon poking into everything in satia being and was resolved that emily must go to school to get her out of the way emily herself always avid for new experiences was quite keen to go but for all that she was seething with rebellion as they drove along aunt elizabeth had produced a terrible gingham apron and an equally terrible gingham sunbonnet from somewhere in the new moon garret and made emily put them on the apron was a long sack-like garment high in the neck with sleeves those sleeves were the crowning indignity emily had never seen any little girl wearing an apron of sleeves she rebelled to the point of tears over wearing it that aunt elizabeth was not going to have any nonsense emily saw the murray look then and when she saw it she buttoned her rebellious feelings tightly up in her soul and let Aunt Elizabeth put the apron on her. It was one of your mother's aprons when she was a little girl, Emily, said Aunt Laura comfortingly, and rather sentimentally. Then, said Emily, uncomforted and unsentimental.
Starting point is 02:43:00 I don't wonder she ran away with father when she grew up. Aunt Elizabeth finished buttoning the apron and gave Emily a none too gentle push away from her. Put on your son, bonnet, she ordered. Oh, please, Aunt Elizabeth. Elizabeth, don't make me wear that horrid thing? Aunt Elizabeth, wasting no further words, picked up the bonnet and tied it on Emily's head. Emily had to yield,
Starting point is 02:43:27 but from the depths of the sunbonnet issued a voice, defiant, the tremulous. Anyway, Aunt Elizabeth, you can't boss God, it said. Aunt Elizabeth was too cross to speak all the way to the schoolhouse. She introduced Emily to me. miss brownel and drove away school was already in so emily hung her sunbonnet on the porch nail and went to the desk miss brownel assigned her she had already made up her mind that she did not like miss brownel and never would like her miss brownell miss brownell had the reputation in blairwater of being a fine teacher due mainly to the fact that she was a strict disciplinarian and kept excellent order she was a thin middle-aged person with a colorless face prominent teeth most of which she showed when she laughed and cold watchful gray eyes colder even than old roofs
Starting point is 02:44:27 emily felt as if those merciless agate eyes saw clean through her to the core of her sensitive little soul emily could be fearless enough on occasion but in the presence of a nature which she instinctively felt to be hostile to hers she shrank away in something that was more repulsion than fear. She was a target for curious glances all the morning. The Blaywater School was large, and there were at least twenty little girls of about her own age. Emily looked back curiously at them all, and felt the way they whispered to each other behind hands and books when they looked at her very ill-mannered.
Starting point is 02:45:07 She felt suddenly unhappy, and homesick, and lonesome. She wanted her father, and her old husband. home and the dear things she loved. The new moon girl is crying, whispered a black-eyed girl across the aisle, and then came a cruel little giggle. What is the matter with you, Emily? said Miss Brunnell suddenly and accusing me. Emily was silent. She could not tell Miss Brunnell what was the matter with her, especially when Miss Brunel used such a tone. When I ask one of my pupils a question, Emily, I am accustomed to having a matter. an answer why are you crying there was another giggle from across the aisle emily lifted miserable eyes and in her extremity fell back on a phrase of her father's
Starting point is 02:45:58 it is a matter that concerns only myself she said a red spot suddenly appeared in miss brownel's cello cheek her eyes gleamed with cold fire you will remain in during recess as a punishment for your impertinence, she said, but she left Emily alone the rest of the day. Emily did not in the least mind staying in at recess, for acutely sensitive to her environment as she was, she realized that for some reason she could not fathom the atmosphere of the school was antagonistic. The glances cast at her were not only curious, but ill-natured. She did not want to go out to the playground with those girls. She did not want to go to school in Blaywater, but she would not cry anymore. She sat erect and kept her eyes on her book. Suddenly a soft malignant hiss came across the aisle. Miss Bridie, Miss Bridie! Emily looked
Starting point is 02:47:06 across at the girl. Large, steady, purplish grey eyes gazed into beady twinkling black ones, gazed unquailingly with something in them that cowed and compelled. The black eyes wavered and fell, their owner covering her retreat with another giggle and toss over her short braid of hair. I can master her, thought Emily with a thrill of triumph. But there is strength in numbers, and at noon hour, Emily found herself standing alone on the playground,
Starting point is 02:47:40 facing a crowd of unfriendly faces children can be the most cruel creatures alive they have the herd instinct of prejudice against any outsider and they are merciless in its indulgence emily was a stranger and one of the proud murrays two counts against her and there was about her small and ginghamed and sunbonneted as she was a certain reserve and dignity in fineness that they resented. And they resented the level way she looked at them, with that disdainful face under cloudy black hair, instead of being shy and drooping, as became an interloper on probation. You are a proud one, said black eyes.
Starting point is 02:48:27 Oh my, you may have buttoned boots, but you are living on charity. Emily had not wanted to put on the button boots. She wanted to go barefoot as she had always done in summer, but Aunt Elizabeth had told her that no child from New Moon had ever gone barefoot to school. Oh, just look at the baby apron, laughed another girl with a head of chestnut curls. Now Emily flushed. This was indeed the vulnerable point in her armour.
Starting point is 02:48:57 Delighted at her success in drawing blood, the curled one tried again. Is that your grandmother's sunbonnet? There was a chorus of giggles. "'Oh, she wears a sunbonnet to save her complexion,' said a bigger girl. "'That's the Murray Pride. The Murray's are rotten with pride, my mother says. "'You're awful ugly,' said a fat squat little miss, nearly as broad as she was long. "'Your ears look like a cat's. "'You needn't be so proud,' said Black Eyes.
Starting point is 02:49:30 "'Your kitchen ceiling isn't blasted even, and your cousin Jimmy is an idiot. said chestnut girls he isn't cried emmy he has more sense than any of you you can say what you like about me but you are not going to insult my family if you say one more word about them i'll look you over with the evil eye nobody understood what this threat meant but that made it all the more effective it produced a brief silence then the baiting began again in a different form can you sing asked a thin freckled girl who yet contrived to be very pretty in spite of thinness and freckles no said him can you dance no can you sew no can you cook no can you knit less no can you crochet no then what can you do said the preckle one in a contemptuous term i can write poetry said emily without in the least meaning to say it but at that instant she knew she could write poetry and with this queer unreasonable conviction came the flesh right there surrounded by hostility and suspicion fighting alone for her standing without backing or advantage came the wonderful moment when souls seemed to cast aside the bonds of flesh and spring upward to the stars the rapture and delight on emily's face amazed and enraged her foes they thought it a manifestation of murray pride in an uncommon accomplishment
Starting point is 02:51:18 you lie said black eyes bluntly a star does not lie retorted emily the flash was gone but its uplift remained she looked them all over with a cruel detachment that quelled them temporarily why don't you like me she asked directly there was no reply emily looked straight at chestnut curls and repeated her question chestnut curls felt herself compelled to answer it because you ain't a bit like us she muttered i wouldn't want to be said emily oh my you are one of the chosen people mocked black eyes of course i am retorted she walked away to the schoolhouse conqueror in that battle but the forces against her were not so easily cowed there was much whispering and plotting after she had gone in the conference with some of the boys and a handing-over of a dozen pencils and shoes of gum for value received an agreeable sense of victory in the afterglow of the flash carried emily through the afternoon in spite of the fact that miss brunell ridicule redoccurred her for her mistakes in spelling. Miss Brownell was very fond of ridiculing her pupils. All the girls in the class giggled except one who had not been there in the morning
Starting point is 02:52:43 and was consequently at the tail. Emily had been wondering who she was. She was as unlike the rest of the girls as Emily herself, but in a totally different style. She was tall, oddly dressed in an over-long dress of faded striped print. and barefooted her thick hair cut short fluffed out all around her head in a bushy wave that seemed to be of brilliant spun gold and her glowing eyes were of a brown so light and translucent as to be almost amber her mouth was large and she had a saucy pronounced chin pretty she might not be called but her face was so vivid and mobile that emily could not drag her fascinated eyes from it and she was the only girl in class who did not some time through the lesson get a bulb of sarcasm from miss brownel though she made as many mistakes as the rest of them
Starting point is 02:53:44 at recess one of the girls came up to emily with a box in her hand emily knew that she was rhoda stuart and thought her very pretty and sweet rhoda had been in the crowd around her at the noon hour but she had not said anything she was dressed in crispy pink gingham she had been in the crowd around her at the noon hour but she had not said anything she was dressed in crispy pink gingham she had had smooth, lustrous braids of sugar-brown hair, big blue eyes, a rosebud mouth, doll-like features, and a sweet voice. If Miss Brunel could be said to have a favourite, it was Rhoda Stewart, and she seemed generally popular in her own set, much petted by the older girls. Here is a present for you, she said sweetly. Emily took the box unsuspectingly. Roda's smile would have disarmed any suspiciously. for a moment emily was happily and disciplined as she removed the cover then with a shriek she flung the box from her and stood pale and trembling from head to foot there was a snake in the box whether dead or alive she did not know and did not care for any snake emily had a horror and repulsion she could not overcome the very sight of one almost paralysed her a chorus of giggles ran around the porch
Starting point is 02:55:00 before i'd be so scared of an old dead snake scoffed black eyes can you write poetry about that giggled chestnut calls i hate you i hate you cried emily you are mean hateful girls calling names isn't ladylike said the freckled one i thought a murray would be too grand for that if you come to school to-morrow miss star said black eyes deliberately we are going to take that snake and put it around your neck let me see you do it cried a clear ringing voice into their midst with a bound came the girl with amber eyes and short hair just let me see you do it jenny strang this isn't any of your business ilsa burnly muttered jenny sullenly oh isn't it don't you sass me piggy eyes He also walked up to the retreating Jenny and shook a sunburned fist in her face. If I catch you teasing Emily's doll tomorrow with that snake again, I'll take it by the tail and you by your tail and slash you across the face with it.
Starting point is 02:56:18 Mind that, piggy eyes. Now you go and pick up that precious snake of yours and throw it down on the ash pile. Jenny actually went and did it. ilsa faced the others clear out all of you and leave the new moon girl alone after this she said if i hear of any more meddling and sneaking i'll slit your throats and rip out your hearts and tear your eyes out yes and i'll cut off your ears and wear them pinned on my dress cowed by these ferocious threats or by something in ilsa's personality emily's persecutors drifted away ilsa turned to emily don't mind them she said contentiously. They're jealous of you.
Starting point is 02:57:03 That's all jealous because you live at New Moon and ride in a fringe-top buggy and wear button boots. You smack their mugs if they give you any more of their jaw. Elsa vaulted the fence and tore off into the maple bush without another glance at Emily. Only Rhoda Stewart remained.
Starting point is 02:57:21 Emily, I'm awfully sorry, she said rolling her big blue eyes appealingly. I didn't know there was a snake in that box cross my heart I didn't. The girls just told me it was a present for you. You're not mad at me, are you? Because I like you. Emily had been mad and hurt and outraged.
Starting point is 02:57:40 But this little bit of friendliness melted her instantly. In a moment she and Rhoda have their arms around each other, parading across the playground. I'm going to ask Miss Brownell to let you sit with me, said Rhoda. I used to sit with Annie Gregg, but she's moved away. You'd like to sit with me, wouldn't you? "'I'd love it,' said Emily warmly. "'She was as happy as she had been miserable.
Starting point is 02:58:04 "'Here was the friend of her dreams. "'Already she worshipped Rhoda. "'We ought to sit together,' said Rhoda importantly. "'We belong to the two best families in Blairwater. "'Do you know that if my father had his rights, "'he would be on the throne of England?' "'England!' said Emily, too amazed to be anything but an echo. "'Yes, we are descended from the kings of Scotland,' said Rhodo.
Starting point is 02:58:29 so of course we don't associate with everybody my father keeps store and i'm taking music lessons is your aunt elizabeth going to give you music lessons i don't know she ought to she's very rich isn't she i don't know said emily again she wished rhoda would not ask such questions emily thought it was hardly good manners but surely a descendant of the stuart kings ought to know the rules of breeding if anybody did she's got an awful temper hasn't she asked rhoda no she hasn't cried emily well she nearly killed your cousin jimmy in one of her rages said rhoda that's true mother told me why doesn't your aunt laura get married has she got a beau what wages does your aunt elizabeth pay your cousin jimmy i don't know well said rhoda rather disappointedly i suppose you haven't been at new moon long enough to find things out But it must be very different from what you've been used to, I guess. Your father was as poor as a church mouse, wasn't he? My father was a very, very rich man, said Emily deliberately. Rhoda stared.
Starting point is 02:59:43 I thought he hadn't assent. Neither he had. But people can be rich without money. I don't see how. But anyhow, you'll be rich someday. Your aunt Elizabeth will likely leave you all her money, Mother says. so i don't care if you are living on charity i love you and i'm going to stick up for you have you got a beau emily no cried emily blushing violently and quite scandalized at the idea why i'm only eleven oh everybody in our class has a beau mine is teddy kent i shook hands with him after i'd counted nine stars for nine nights without missing a night if you do that the first boy you shake hands with all
Starting point is 03:00:28 afterwards is to be your beau, but it's awful hard to do. It took me all winter. Petty wasn't in school today. He's been sick all June. He's the best-looking boy in Blair Water. You'll have to have a bow, too, Emily. I won't, depleted Emily, angry. I don't know a thing about bow and I won't have one,
Starting point is 03:00:50 Rhoda tossed her head. Oh, I suppose you think there's nobody good enough for you, living at New Moon. Well, you won't be able to be able to be. to play clap in and clap out if you haven't a bow. Emily knew nothing of the mysteries of clap in and clap out and didn't care. Anyway, she wasn't going to have a bow, and she repeated this in such decided tones that Rhoda deemed it wise to drop the subject.
Starting point is 03:01:17 Emily was rather glad when the bell rang. Miss Brownell granted Rhoda's request quite graciously, and Emily transferred her goods and chattels to Rhoda's seat. Rhoda whispered a good deal during the last hour, and Emily got scolded for it, but did not mind. I'm going to have a birthday party the first week in July, and I'm going to invite you, if your aunts will let you come. I'm not going to have Ilsa Burnley, though. Don't you like her? No, she's an awful tomboy, and then her father is an infidel, and so is she. She always spells God with a little G in her dictation. Miss Brunnell scolds her.
Starting point is 03:01:57 for it but she does it right along miss brownell won't whip her because she's setting her cap for dr burnley but mar says she won't get him because he hates women i don't think it's proper to associate with such people ilsa is an awful wild queer girl and has an awful temper so has her father she doesn't chum with anybody isn't it ridiculous the way she wears her hair you ought to have a bang emily they're all the rage and you'd look well with one because you have such a high forehead. It would make a real beauty of you. My, but you have lovely hair, and your hands are just lovely. All the Murrays have pretty hands, and you have the sweetest eyes, Emily. Emily had never received so many compliments in her life. Rhoda laid flattery on with a trowel.
Starting point is 03:02:53 Her head was quite turned, and she went home from school determined to ask Aunt Elizabeth to cut her hair in a bang. If it would make a beauty of her, it must be compassed somehow. And she would also ask Aunt Elizabeth if she might wear her Venetian beads to school next day. The other girls may respect me more then, she thought. She was alone from the crossroads, where she had parted company with Rhoda, and she reviewed the events of the day with a feeling that, after all, she had kept the star flag blind, except for a temporary reverse in the matter of the snake. School was very different from what she had expected it to be, but that was the way in life, she had heard Ellen Green say, and you just had to make the best of it. Roder was a
Starting point is 03:03:43 darling, and there was something about Ilsa Burnley that one liked, and as for the rest of the girls, Emily got square with them by pretending she saw them all being here. hanged in a row for frightening her to death with a snake, and felt no more resentment towards them. Although some of the things that had been said to her wrangled bitterly in her heart for many a day, she had no father to tell them to, and no account book to write them out in, so she could not exercise them. She had no speedy chance to ask for a bang, for there was company at New Moon, and her aunts were busy getting ready an elaborate supper. But when preserves were brought on. Emily snatched the opportunity of a lull in the older conversation.
Starting point is 03:04:30 Aunt Elizabeth, she said, can I have a bang? Aunt Elizabeth looked to her disdain. No, she said, I do not approve of bangs. Of all the silly fashions that have come in nowadays, bangs are the silliest. For Aunt Elizabeth, do let me have a bang. It would make a beauty of me. Rhoda says so. It would take a good deal more than a bang to do that, Emily. We will not have bangs at New Moon, except on the molly cows.
Starting point is 03:05:01 They are the only creatures that should wear bangs. Aunt Elizabeth smiled triumphantly around the table. Aunt Elizabeth did smile sometimes when she thought she had silence some small person by exquisite ridicule. Emily understood that it was no use to hope for bangs. loveliness did not lie that way for her it was mean of aunt elizabeth mean she heaved a sigh of disappointment and dismissed the idea for the present there was something else she wanted to know why doesn't ilsa burnley's father believe in god she asked because of the trick her mother played him said mr slade with a chuckle mr slade was a fat jolly-looking old man with bushy hair and whiskers he had already said something's Emily could not understand, and which had seemed greatly to embarrass his very lady-like wife.
Starting point is 03:05:54 What check did Ilsa's mother play? asked Emily, all agog with interest. Now Aunt Laura looked at Aunt Elizabeth, and Aunt Elizabeth looked at Aunt Laura. Then the latter said, Run out and feed the chickens, Emily. Emily rose with dignity. You might just as well tell me that Ilsa's mother isn't to be talked about, and I would obey you. I understand perfectly what you mean, she said, as she left the table. End of Section 8. Recording by Leanne Fortune.
Starting point is 03:06:36 Section 9 of Emily of New Moon by Lucy M. Montgomery. This Libri-Vox recording is in the public domain. Recording by Leanne Fortune. Section 9 Emily was sure on that first day at school that she would never like it. she must go, she knew, in order to get an education and be ready to earn her own living, but it would always be what Ellen Green solemnly called a cross. Consequently, Emily felt quite astonished when, after going to school a few days,
Starting point is 03:07:12 it dawned upon her that she was liking it. To be sure, Miss Brownhill did not improve on acquaintance, but the other girls no longer tormented her. indeed to her amazement they seemed suddenly to forget all that had happened and hailed her as one of themselves she was admitted to the fellowship of the pack and although in some occasional tip she got a dig about baby aprons and murray pride there was no more hostility veiled or open besides emily was quite able to give digs herself as she learned more about the girls and their weak points and she could give them with such merciless lucidity and irony that the others soon learned not to provoke them chestnut kills whose name was grace wells and the freckled one whose name was carried king and jenny's drang became quite chummy with her and jenny sent chews of gum and tissue thumb-papers across the aisle instead of giggles emily allowed them all to enter the outer court of her temple of friendship but only rhoda was admitted to the inner shrine as for ilza burnley she did not appear after that first day ilsa sir rhoda said came to school or not just as she liked her father never bothered about her
Starting point is 03:08:38 Emily always felt a certain hankering to know more of Ilsa, but it did not seem likely to be gratified. Emily was insensibly becoming happy again. Already she felt as if she belonged to this old cradle of her family. She thought a great deal about the old Murray's. She liked to picture them revisiting the glimpses of New Moon, great-grandmother rubbing up her candlesticks and making cheeses, great-aunt Miriams dealing about looking for her lost treasure,
Starting point is 03:09:08 home said great-great-aunt Elizabeth's talking about in her bonnet. Captain George, the dashing, bronze sea-captain, coming home with the spotted shells of the Indies. Stephen, the beloved of all, smiling from its windows, her own mother, dreaming of father, they all seemed as real to her as if she had known them in life. She still had terrible hours when she was overwhelmed by grief for her father, and when all the splendors of New Moon could not stifle the longing for the shabby little house in the hollow where they had loved each other so.
Starting point is 03:09:46 Then Emily fled to some secret corner and cried her heart out, emerging with red eyes that always seemed to annoy Aunt Elizabeth. Aunt Elizabeth had become used to having Emily at New Moon, but she had not drawn any nearer to the child. This hurt Emily always, but Aunt Laura and cousin Jimmy loved her. and she had saucy cell in rhoda fields creamy with clover soft dark trees against amber skies and the madcap music the wind woman made in the firs behind the barns when she blew straight up from the gulf her days became vivid and interesting full of little pleasures and delights like tiny opening golden buds on the tree of life if she could only have had her old yellow account-book or some equivalent, she could have been fully content.
Starting point is 03:10:42 She missed it next to her father, and its in false burning was something for which she held Aunt Elizabeth responsible, and for which she felt she could never wholly forgive her. It did not seem possible to get any substitute. As Cousin Jimmy had said, writing paper of any kind was scarce at New Moon. Letters were seldom written, and when they were a sheet of note-paper, has sufficed emily dared not ask aunt elizabeth for any there were times when she felt she would burst if she couldn't write out some of the things that came to her she found a certain safety valve in writing on her slate in school but these scribblings had to be rubbed off sooner or later which left emily with a sense of loss and there was always the danger that miss brownell would see them that emily felt would be unendurable no stranger eyes must
Starting point is 03:11:37 behold these sacred productions sometimes she let rhoda read them though rhoda rasped her by giggling over her finest flights emily thought rhoda as near perfection as a human being could be but giggling was her fault but there is a destiny which shapes the ends of young misses who are born with the itchful writing tingling in their baby fingertips and in the fullness of time this destiny gave to emily the desire of her heart gave it to her too on the very day when she most needed it that was the day the ill-star day when miss brownall elected to show the fifth class by example as well as precept how the bugle's song should be read standing on the platform miss brownall who was not devoid of a superficial elucutionary knack read those three wonderful verses emily who should have been doing the sum in long division dropped her pencil and listened entranced she had never heard the bugle's song before but now she heard it and saw it the rose-red splendor falling on those storied snowy summits and ruined castles the lights that never were on land or sea streaming over the lakes she heard the wild echoes flying through the purple valleys and the misty passes and the misty passes and the lights the mere sound of the word seemed to make an exquisite echo in her soul and when miss brownell came to horns of elf-lan faintly blowing emily trembled with delight she was snatched out of herself she forgot everything but the magic of that unequalled line she sprang from her seat knocking her slate to the floor with a clatter she rushed up the aisle she caught miss brownel's arm
Starting point is 03:13:36 oh teacher she cried with passionate earnestness read that line over again oh read that line over again miss brannel thus suddenly halted in her elocutionary display looked down into a rapt uplifted face where great purplish-gray eyes were shining with the radiance of a divine vision and miss brunel was angry angry with this breach of her strict discipline angry angry with this unseemly display of interest in a third-class atom whose attention should have been focused on long division miss brownel shut her book and shut her lips and gave emily a resounding slap on her face go right back to your seat and mind your own business emily's daft said miss brownel her cold eyes malignant with her fury emily thus dashed to earth moved back to her seat in a daze. Her smitten cheek was crimson, but the wound was in her heart. One moment ago in the seventh heaven, and now this. Pain, humiliation, misunderstanding. She could not bear it. What had she done to deserve it? She had never been slapped in her life before. The degradation and the injustice ate into her soul. She could not cry. This was a grief too deep for tears.
Starting point is 03:15:12 She went home from school in the suppressed anguish of bitterness and shame and resentment, an anguish that had no outlet, for she dared not tell her story at New Moon. Aunt Elizabeth, she felt sure, would say that Miss Brownell had done quite right, and even Aunt Laura, kind and sweeter she was, would not understand. She would be grieved because Emily had misbehaved in school and had had to be punished. Oh, if I could only tell father all about it, thought Emily. She could not eat any supper. She did not think she would ever be able to eat again.
Starting point is 03:15:53 And, oh, how she hated that unjust, horrid Miss Brownell, She could never forgive her, never, if there were only some way in which she could get square with Miss Brownell. Emily's sitting small and pale and quiet at the New Moon's supper table was a seething volcano of wounded feeling and misery and pride. A pride! Worse even than the injustice was the sting of humiliation over this thing that had happened. she emily bird star on whom no hand had ever before been ungentle laid had been slapped like a naughty baby before the whole school who could endure this and live then destiny stepped in and drew aunt laura to the sitting-room bookcase to look in its lower compartment for a certain letter she wanted to see she took emily with her to show her curious old snuff-box that had belonged to hugh and in rummaging for it lifted out a big flat bundle of dusty paper paper of a deep pink colour in oddly long and narrow sheets it's time these old letter-balls and little letter-balls and it's time these old letter-balls and old letter-balls were burned she said what a pile of them they've been here gathering dust for years and they are no earthly good father once kept the post-office here at new moon you know emily the mail came only three times a week then and each day there was one of these long-red letter-balls as they were called
Starting point is 03:17:32 mother always kept them though when once used they were of no further use but i'm going to burn them him right away. Oh, Aunt Laura, gasped Emily, so torn between desire and fear that she could hardly speak. Oh, don't do that. Give them to me, please give them to me. Why, child, whatever do you want of them? Oh, auntie, they have such lovely blank backs for writing on. Please, Aunt Laura, it would be a sin to burn those letter balls. have them, dear, only you'd better not let Elizabeth see them, breathed Emily. She gathered her precious booty into her arms and fairly ran upstairs, and then upstairs again into the garret, where she already had her favourite haunt, in which her uncomfortable habit of
Starting point is 03:18:32 thinking of things thousands of miles away, could not vex aunt Elizabeth. This was the quiet corner of the dormer window, where shadows always move. about softly and swingingly and beautiful mosaics patterned the bare floor from it one could see over the tree-tops right down to the blair water the walls were hung around with great bundles of soft fluffy rolls all ready for spinning and hanks of untwisted yarn sometimes aunt laura spun on the great wheel at the other end of the garret and emily loved the whir of it in the recess of the dormer window she crouched breathlessly she selected a letter-bow and extracted a lead pencil from her pocket an old sheet of cardboard served as a desk she began to write vehemishly end of section nine recording by the anne fortune section ten of emily of new moon by lucy m montgomery this libri fox recording is in the public domain recorded by leanne fortune section ten dear father and then she poured out her tale of the day of her rapture and her pain writing heedlessly and intently until the sunset faded into dim starlit and twilight the chickens went unfed cousin jimmy had to go himself for the cows saucy cell got no new mork aunt laura had to wash the dishes what mattered it emily in the delightful throes of literary comforts
Starting point is 03:20:19 position was lost to all worldly things when she had covered the backs of four letter-bills she could see to write no more but she had emptied out her soul and it was once more free from evil passions she even felt curiously indifferent to miss brownell emily folded up her letter-balls and wrote clearly across the packet mr douglas starr on the road to heaven then she stepped softly across to an old worn-out sofa in a far corner and knelt down stowing away her letter and her letter-balls snugly on a little shelf formed by a board nailed across it underneath emily had discovered this one day when playing in the garret and had noted it as a lovely hiding-place for secret documents nobody would ever come across them there she had writing-paper enough to last for months there must be hundreds of those jolly old "'Oh!' cried Emily, dancing down the garret stairs. "'I feel as if I was made out of stardust. Thereafter, few evenings passed on which Emily did not steal up to the garret and write a letter, long or short, to her father. The bitterness died out of her grief.
Starting point is 03:21:41 Writing to him seemed to bring him so near, and she told him everything, with a certain honesty of confession that was characteristic of. her her triumphs her failures her joys her sorrows everything went down on the letter-bills of a government which had not been so economical of paper as it afterwards became there was fully half a yard of paper in each bill and emily wrote a small hand and made them most of every inch i like new moon it's so stately and splendid here she told her father and it seems as if we must be very aristocratic when we have a sundial. I can't help feeling proud of it all. I'm afraid I have too much pride, and so I ask God every night to take most of it away, but not quite all.
Starting point is 03:22:38 It is very easy to get a reputation for pride in Blairwater School. If you walk straight and hold your head up, you are a proud one. rhoda is proud too because her father ought to be king of england i wonder how queen victoria would feel if she knew that it's very wonderful to have a friend who would be a princess if everyone had their rights i love rhoda with all my heart she is so sweet and kind but i don't like her giggles and when i told her i could see the school wall-paper small in the air she said you lie it hurt me awfully to have my dearest friend say that to me and it hurt me worse when i woke up in the night and thought about it i had to stay awake ever so long too because i was tired lying on one side and i was afraid to turn over because aunt elizabeth would think i was fidgeting i didn't dare tell rhoda about the wind woman because i suppose that really is a kind of lie though she seems so real to me i hear her now singing up on the roof around the big chimneys i have no emily in the glass here the looking-glasses are all too high up in the rooms i've been in i've never been in the look-out it is always locked it was mother's room and cousin jimmy says her father locked it up after she ran away with you and aunt elizabeth keeps it locked still out of respect to his memory
Starting point is 03:24:13 though cousin jemmy says aunt elizabeth used to fight with her father something scandalous when he was alive though no outsider knew of it because of the murray cried i feel that way myself when rhoda asked me if aunt elizabeth burned candles but-and-a asked me if aunt elizabeth burned candles because she was old-fashioned. I answered haughtily, no, it was a Murray tradition. Cousin Jimmy has told me all the traditions of the Murray's. Saucy's cell is very well and bosses the bonds, but still she will not have kittens and I can't understand it. I asked Aunt Elizabeth about it, and she said nice little girls didn't talk about such things,
Starting point is 03:24:52 but I cannot see why kittens are improper. When Aunt Elizabeth is away, Aunt Laura and I smuggles cell into the house, but when Aunt Elizabeth comes back I always feel guilty and wish I hadn't. But the next time I do it again. I think that very strange. I never hear about dear Mike. I wrote Ellen Green and asked about him,
Starting point is 03:25:16 and she replied and never mentioned Mike, but told me all about her rheumatism, as if I cared about her rheumatism. Rode is going to have a birthday party, and she is going to invite me. I'm so excited. You know I never was to a party before. I think about it a great deal and picture it out. Rhoda is not going to invite all the girls, but only a favourite few.
Starting point is 03:25:43 I hope Aunt Elizabeth will let me wear my wife dress and good hat. Oh, father, I pinned that lovely picture of the lace ball dress up on the wall of Aunt Elizabeth's room, just like I had it at home, and Aunt Elizabeth took it down and burned it, and scolded me for making pin marks in the paper. I said, Aunt Elizabeth, you should not have burned that picture. I wanted to have it when I grow up to have a dress made like it for balls. And Aunt Elizabeth said, Do you expect to attend many balls if I may ask? And I said, yes, when I am rich and famous, and Aunt Elizabeth said, Yes, when the moon is made of green sheaves.
Starting point is 03:26:29 I saw Dr. Burnley yesterday when he came over to buy some eggs from Aunt Elizabeth. I was disappointed because he looks just like other people. I thought a man who didn't believe in God would look queer in some way. He did not swear either, and I was sorry, for I have never heard anyone swear and I am very anxious to. He has big yellow eyes like Ilsa and a loud voice, and Roda says when he says when he can, gets mad you can hear him yelling all over blairwater there is some mystery about ilsa's mother which i cannot fathom dr bonley and ilsa live alone rhoda says dr bonley says he will have no devils of women in that house that speech is wicked but striking old mrs simms goes over and cooks dinner and supper for them and then vermusas and they get their own breakfast the doctor sweeps out the house now and then and Ilsa never does anything but run wild.
Starting point is 03:27:29 The doctor never smiles, so Rhoda says. He must be like King Henry II. I would like to get acquainted with Elsa. She isn't as sweet as Rhoda, but I like her looks too. But she doesn't come to school much. And Rhoda says I mustn't have any chum but her, or she will cry her eyes out. Roda loves me as much as I love her.
Starting point is 03:27:51 We are both going to pray that we may live together all our lives and die the same day. Aunt Elizabeth always puts up my school dinner for me. She won't give me anything but plain bread and butter, but she cuts good thick slices, and the butter is thick too, and never has the horrid taste Ellen Green's butter used to have. And Aunt Laura slips in her cookie,
Starting point is 03:28:14 or an apple turnover when Aunt Elizabeth's back is turned. Aunt Elizabeth says apple turnovers are not healthy for me. Why is it that the nicest thing is never a healthy, father? ellen green used to say that too my teacher's name is miss brownall i don't like the cut of her jib that is a nautical phrase that cousin jimmy uses i know phrase is not spell-dry but there is no dictionary at new moon but that is the sound of it she's too sarcastic and she likes to make you ridiculous then she laughs at you in a disagreeable snorting way but i forgave her for slapping me and i took her for slapping me and i took her to make you ridiculous and i took her to make you ridiculous and i took her for a bouquet to her to school the next day to make up. She received it very coldly and let it fade on her desk. In a story she would have wept on my neck. I don't know whether it is any use for giving people or not. Yes it is. It makes you feel more comfortable yourself. You never had to wear
Starting point is 03:29:16 baby aprons and sunbonnets because you were a boy, so you can't understand how I feel about it. and the aprons are made of such good stuff that they will never wear out, and it will be years before I grow out of them. But I have a white dress for church, with a black silk sash, and a white leg-orn hat with black bows and black kid slippers, and I feel very elegant in them. I wish I could have a bang, but Aunt Elizabeth will not hear to it. Roda told me I had beautiful eyes.
Starting point is 03:29:53 I wish she hadn't. I have always suspected my eyes were beautiful, but I was not sure. Now that I know they are, I'm afraid I'll always be wondering if people notice it. I have to go to bed at half-past eight, and I don't like it, but I sit up in bed and look out of the window till it gets dark, so I get square with Aunt Elizabeth that way, and I listen to the sound as he makes. I like it now, though it always makes me feel sorrowful,
Starting point is 03:30:22 but it's a kind of a nice sorrow. I have to sleep with Aunt Elizabeth, and I don't like that either, because if I move ever so little, she says I fidget, but she admits that I don't kick, and she won't let me put the window up. She doesn't like fresh air,
Starting point is 03:30:39 all light in the house. The parlour is dark as a tomb. I went in one day and rolled up all the blinds, and Aunt Elizabeth was horrified and called me a little hussy, and gave me the Murray look. You would suppose I had, had committed a crime i felt so insulted that i came up to the garret and wrote a description of myself being drowned on a letter-ball and then i felt better aunt elizabeth said i was never to go into the parlour again without permission but i don't want to i am afraid of the parlour all the walls are hung over with pictures of our ancestors and there is not one good-looking person among them except grandfather murray who looks handsome but very cross the spare of
Starting point is 03:31:22 from his upstairs and is just as gloomy as the parlour aunt elizabeth only lets distinguished people sleep there i like the kitchen in daytime and the garret and the cook-house and the sitting-room and the hall because of the lovely red front door and i love the dairy but i don't like the other new moon rooms oh i forgot the cellar covered i love to go down there and look at the beautiful rows of jam and jelly pots cousin jimmy says it is a new moon tradition that the jam pots must never be empty. What a lot of traditions, New Moon has! It is a very spacious house, and the trees are lovely. I have named the three Lombardies at the Garden Gate, the three princesses, and I have named the old summer house Emily's bower, and the big apple tree by the old orchard gate, the praying tree, because it holds up its long boughs exactly as Mr. Dare holds up his arms in church where he prays. aunt elizabeth has given me the little right-hand top bureau draw to keep my things in oh father dear i've made a great discovery i wish i had made it when you were alive for i think you'd have liked to know
Starting point is 03:32:37 i can write poetry perhaps i could have written it long ago if i tried but after that first day in school i felt i was bound in honour to try and it is so easy there is a little curly black covered book in aunt elizabeth's bookcase called thompson seasons and i decided i would write a poem on a season and the first three lines are now autumn comes ripe with the peach and pear a sportsman's horn is heard throughout the land and the poor partridge fluttering bulls dead of course there are no peaches in the island and i never heard a sportsman's horn here either but you don't have to stick too close to facts in poetry i've filled a whole letter-ball with it and then i ran and read it to aunt laura i thought she would be overjoyed to find she had a niece who could write poetry but she took it very coolly and said it didn't sound very much like poetry it's blank verse i cried very blank said aunt elizabeth sarcastically though i hadn't asked her opinion but i think i will write rhyming poetry after this so that there will be no mistake about it and i intend to be a poetess when i grow up and become I'm famous. I hope also that I will be soft-like. The poetess should be sort-like. Cousin Jimmy makes poetry, too. He has made over one thousand pieces, but he never writes any down,
Starting point is 03:34:15 but carries them in his head. I offered to give him some of my letter-gles, for he is very kind to me, but he said he was too old to learn new habits. I haven't heard any of his poetry yet because the spirit hasn't moved him, but I'm very anxious to, and I'm sorry they don't fatten the pigs till the fall. I like Cousin Jimmy more and more all the time, except when he takes his queer spells of looking and talking. Then he frightens me, but they never last long. I've read a good many of the books in the New Moon bookcase, a history of the Reformation in France, very religious and sad. A little fat book, describing the months in English, and the aforesaid Thompson Seasons.
Starting point is 03:35:02 I like to read them because they have so many pretty words in them, but I don't like the feel of them. The paper is so rough and thick it makes me creepy. Travels in Spain, very fascinating with lovely smooth, shiny paper. A missionary book on the Pacific Islands. Pictures very interesting because of the way the heathen chiefs arrange their hair. After they became Christians, they cut it off, which I think was a pity. mrs heman's poems i'm passionately fond of poetry also of stories about desert islands rob roy a novel
Starting point is 03:35:38 but i only read a little of it when aunt elizabeth said i must stop because i must not read novels aunt laura says to read it on this life i don't see why it wouldn't be all right to obey aunt laura but i have a queer feeling about it and i haven't yet a lovely tiger book full of pictures and stories of tigers that make me feel so nice and shivering the royal road also religious but some fun in it so very good for sundays reuben and grace a story but not a novel because reuben and grace are brother and sister and there is no getting married little katie and jolly jim same as above but not so exciting and tragic nature's mighty wonders which is good and good and improving. Alice in Wonderland, which is perfectly lovely, and the memoirs of Anzaneta v. Peters, who was converted at seven and died at twelve. When anybody asked for a question, she answered with a hymn verse. That is, after she was converted. Before that, she spoke English. Aunt Elizabeth told me I ought to try to be like Anzaneta. I think I might be an Alice under more favourable circumstances, but I am sure I can never be as good as Anzeneta was,
Starting point is 03:36:59 and I don't believe I want to be, because she never had any fun. She got sick as soon as she was converted and suffered agonies for years. Besides, I am sure that if I talked hymns to people, it would excite ridicule. I tried it once. Aunt Laura asked me the other day if I would like blue stripes better than red in my next winter's stockings, and I answered, just as Anzeneta did, when asked a similar question, only different about a sack. Jesus, thy blood and righteousness, my beauty are, my glorious dress. An Aunt Laura said, was I crazy? And Aunt Elizabeth said I was irreverent, so I know it wouldn't work.
Starting point is 03:37:44 Besides, Anzoneta couldn't eat anything for years, having ulcers in her stomach, and I am pretty fond of good eating. old mr wells on the dairy pond road is dying of cancer jenny strang says his wife has her morning already i wrote a biography of saucy cell to-day and a description of the road in lock to john's bush i will pin them to this letter so you can read them too good-night my beloved father your most obedient humble servant emily b star p s i think our laura loves me i like to be be loved by the dear end of section ten recording by leanne fortune section eleven of emily of new moon by lucy m montgomery this library-box recording is in the public domain recording by le anne fortune section eleven there was a great deal of suppressed excitement in school during the last week in june because thereof being rhoda stewart's birthday party which was to take place days early in july the amount of hot burning was incredible who was to be invited that was the great question there was some who knew they wouldn't and some who knew they would but there were more who were in truly horrible suspense everybody paid call to emily because she was rhoda's dearest friend and might conceivably have some voice in the selection of guests jenny strang even when he was borrows bluntly to offer emma a beautiful white box with a gorgeous picture of Queen Victoria on the cover to keep her pencils in,
Starting point is 03:39:34 if she would procure her an invitation. Emily refused the bribe and said grandly that she could not interfere in such a delicate matter. Emily really did put on some airs about it. She was sure of her invitation. Rhoda had told her about the party weeks before, and had talked it all over with her. It was to be a very grand affair. a birthday cake covered with pink icing and adorned with ten tall pink candles, ice cream and oranges, and written invitations on pink gilt-edged notepaper, sent through the post office,
Starting point is 03:40:12 this last being an added touch of exclusiveness. Emily dreamed about that party day and night, and had her present all ready for Rhoda, a pretty hair ribbon which Aunt Laura had brought from Shrew. on the first sunday in july emily found herself sitting beside jenny strang sunday school for the opening exercises generally she and rhoda sat together but now rhoda was sitting three seats ahead with a strange little girl a very gay and gorgeous little girl dressed in blue silk with a large flower-wreathed leg-worn hat on her elaborately curled hair white lacework stockings on her pudgy legs and a bang that came clean down to her eyes. Not all her fine feathers could make a really fine bird of her, however. She was not in the least pretty, and her expression was cross and contemptuous. Who is the girl sitting with Rhoda? whispered Emily. Oh, she's Muriel Porter, answered Jenny. She's a townie, you know. She's come out to spend her vacation with her aunt,
Starting point is 03:41:24 Jane Beatty. I hate her. If I was her, I'd never dream of wearing blue with her skin as dark as hers. But the porters are rich, and Muriel thinks she's a wonder. They say Rhoda and her have been awful fix since she came out. Rhoda's always chasing after anybody she thinks is up in the world. Emily stiffened up. She was not going to listen to disparaging remarks about her friends. Jenny felt the stiffening and changed her note. Anyway, I'm glad I'm not invited to Rhoda's old party. I wouldn't want to go when Muriel Porter will be there, putting on her airs. How do you know you're not invited? wondered Emily.
Starting point is 03:42:09 Why, the invitations went out yesterday. Didn't you get yours? No. Did you get your mail? Yes, cousin Jimmy got it. Well, maybe Mrs. Beecher forgot to give it to him. likely you'll get it tomorrow. Emily agreed that it was likely
Starting point is 03:42:29 that a queer cold sensation of dismay had invaded her being, which was not removed by the fact that after Sunday school, Rhoda strutted away with Muriel Porter without a glance at anyone else. On Monday, Emily herself went to the post office, but there was no pink envelope for her.
Starting point is 03:42:51 She cried herself to sleep that night, but did not quite give up hope until Tuesday had passed. Then she faced the terrible truth, that she, she, Emily Bird Star, of New Moon, had not been invited to Rhoda's party. The thing was incredible. There must be a mistake somewhere. Had cousin Jimmy lost the invitation on the road home?
Starting point is 03:43:19 Had Rhoda's grown-up sister who wrote the invitations overlooked her, name. Had, Emily's unhappy doubts were forever resolved into bitter certainty by Jenny, who joined her as she left the post office. There was a malicious light in Jenny's beady eyes. Jenny liked Emily quite well by now, in spite of their passage at arms on the day of their first meeting, but she liked to see her pride humbled for all that. So, you're not invited to Rhoda's party after all, no, admitted Emily. It was a very bitter moment for her. The Murray Pride was sorely rung,
Starting point is 03:44:01 and, beneath the Murray Pride, something else had been grievously wounded, but was not yet quite dead. Well, I call it dirt mean, said Jenny, quite honestly sympathetic in spite of her secret satisfaction. After all the fuss she's made over you too, but that's rhoda stuart all over deceitful is no name for her i don't think she's deceitful said emily loyal to the last ditch i believe there's some mistake about my not being invited jenny stared then you don't know the reason why beth beattie told me the whole story muriel porter hates you and she just up and told rhoda that she would not go to her potty if you were invited
Starting point is 03:44:49 and Rhoda was so crazy to have a town girl there that she promised she wouldn't invite you. Muriel Porter doesn't know me, gasped Emily. How can she hate me? Jenny grinned impishly. I can tell you she's dead stuck on Fred Stewart. And Fred knows it, and he teased her by praising you up to her. Told her, you were the sweetest girl in Blair Water, and he meant to have you for his girl when you were a little older, and Muriel was so mad and jealous, she made Rhoda leave you out.
Starting point is 03:45:27 I wouldn't care if I was you. A Murray of New Moon is way above such trash. As for Rhoda not being deceitful, I can tell you she is. Why, she told you that she didn't know that snake was in the box when it was her thought of doing it in the first place. Emily was too crushed to reply. She was glad that Jenny had to switch off down her own lane and leave her alone. She hurried home, afraid that she could not keep the tears back until she got there.
Starting point is 03:46:00 Disappointment about the party. Humiliation over the insult. All was swallowed up in the anguish of her faith betrayed and a trust outraged. Her love of Rhoda was quite dead now, and Emily smarted to the core of her soul with the pain of her. the blow that had killed it. It was a child's tragedy, and all the more bitter for that, since there was no one to understand. Aunt Elizabeth told her that birthday parties were all nonsense, and that the Stuarts were not a family that the Murrays had ever associated with,
Starting point is 03:46:35 and even Aunt Laura, though she petted and comforted, did not realize how deep and grievous the hurt had been. So deep and grievous, that Emily could not even write about it to her father, and had no outlet for the violence of emotion that racked her being. The next Sunday, Rhoda was alone in Sunday school, Muriel Porter having been suddenly summoned back to town by her father's illness. And Rhoda looked sweetly towards Emily, but Emily sailed past her with her head held very high and scorn on every lineament.
Starting point is 03:47:08 She would never have anything to do with Rhoda Stewart again. She couldn't. She despised Rhoda more than ever for trying to get back with her. now that the town girl for whom she had sacrificed her was gone it was not for rhoda she mourned it was for the friendship that had been so dear to her rhoda had been dear and sweet on the surface at least and emily had found intense happiness in their companionship now it was gone and she could never never love or trust anybody again there lay the sting it poisoned everything emily was of a nature which even as a child did not readily recover from or forget such a blow she moaked about new moon last her appetite and grew thin she hated to go to sunday school because she thought the other girls exulted in her humiliation and her estrangement from rhoda some slight feeling of the kind there was perhaps but emily morbidly exaggerated it if two girls whispered or giggled together she thought she was being discussed and laughed at if one of them walked home with her she thought it was out of condescending pity because she was friendless for a month emily was the most unhappy little being in blairwater i think i must have been put under a curse of birth she reflected disconsolately aunt elizabeth had a more prosaic idea to account for emily's languor and lack of appetite
Starting point is 03:48:38 she had come to the conclusion that emily's heavy masses of hair took from her strength and that she would be much stronger and better if it were cut with Aunt Elizabeth to decide was to act. One morning she coolly informed Emily that her hair was to be shingled. Emily could not believe her ears. You don't mean that you're going to cut off my hair, Aunt Elizabeth, she explained. Yes, I mean exactly that, said Aunt Elizabeth firmly. You have entirely too much hair, especially for hot weather. I feel sure that is why you have been so miserable lately.
Starting point is 03:49:17 now i don't want any crying but emily could not keep the tears back don't cut it all off she pleaded just cut a good big bang lots of the girls have their hair banged clean from the crown of their heads that would take half my hair off and the rest won't take too much strength there will be no bangs here said aunt elizabeth i've told you so often enough i'm going to shingle your hair close all over your head for the hot weather you'll be thankful to me some day for it emily felt anything but thankful just then it's my one beauty she sobbed it and my lashes i suppose you want to cut off my lashes too aunt elizabeth did distrust those long up-culled fringes of emily's which were an inheritance from the girlish stepmother and too unmarry liked to be approved but she had no designs against them the hair must go however and she curtly bade Emily wait there without any fuss until she got the scissors. Emily waited, quite hopelessly. She must lose her lovely hair the hair her father had been so proud of. It might grow again in time, if Aunt Elizabeth let it.
Starting point is 03:50:40 But that would take years, and meanwhile what a fright she would be. Aunt Laura and cousin Jimmy were out. She had no one to back her up. This horrible thing must happen. Aunt Elizabeth returned with the scissors. They clicked suggestively as she opened them. That click, as if by magic, seemed to loosen something, some strange formidable power in Emily's soul.
Starting point is 03:51:07 She turned deliberately around and faced her aunt. She felt her brows drawing together in an unaccustomed way. She felt an uprush as from unknown depths of some irresistible surge of energy. Aunt Elizabeth, she said, looking straight at the lady with the scissors, My hair is not going to be cut off. Let me hear no more of this. An amazing thing happened to Aunt Elizabeth. She turned pale. She laid the scissors down. She looked aghast for one moment at the transformed or possessed child before her.
Starting point is 03:51:43 And then for the first time in her life, Elizabeth Murray turned tail and fled, literally fled, to the kitchen. What is the matter, Elizabeth? cried Laura, coming in from the cookhouse. I saw farther looking from her face, gasped Elizabeth, trembling. And she said, Let me hear no more of this, just as he always said it, his very words. Emily overheard her and ran to the sideboard mirror. She had had, while she was speaking, an uncanny feeling of wearing somebody else's face instead of her own. It was vanishing now, but Emily caught a glimpse of it as it left, the Murray look, she supposed. No wonder it had frightened Aunt Elizabeth. It frightened herself. She was glad that it had gone.
Starting point is 03:52:34 She shivered. She fled to her Garrett retreat and cried, but somehow she knew that her hair would not be cut. Nor was it. Aunt Elizabeth never referred to the matter again, but several days passed before she meddled much with Emily. it was a rather curious fact that from that day Emily ceased to grieve over her last friend. The matter had suddenly become of small importance. It was as if it had happened so long ago that nothing, save the mere emotionless memory of it, remained. Emily speedily regained appetite and animation, resumed her letters to her father, and found that life tasted good again, marred only by a mysterious prescience that on Elizabeth had it in for her in regard to her defeat in the matter of her hair and would get even
Starting point is 03:53:25 soon or later. Aunt Elizabeth got even within the week. Emily was to go on an errand to the shop. It was a broiling day, and she had been allowed to go barefooted at home, but now she must put on boots and stockings. Emily rebelled. It was too hot. It was too dusty. She couldn't walk that long half-mile in buttoned boots. Aunt Elizabeth was inexorable. No Murray must be seen barefooted away from home, and on they went. But the minute Emily was outside the New Moon Gate, she deliberately sat down, took them off, stowed them in a hole in the dike,
Starting point is 03:54:04 and pranced away barefooted. She did her errand and returned with an untroubled conscience. How beautiful the world was! How softly blue was the great round Blairwater! how glorious that miracle of buttercups in the wet field below lofty john's bush at sight of it emily stood stock-still and composed a verse of poetry butter-cup flower of the yellow dive i see thy cheerful face greeting and nodding everywhere careless of time and place in boggy field or public road or cultured gardens pale who sport your peckles sat in soft and down within the veil. So far, so good, but Emily wanted another verse to round the perimorph properly, and the divine afflatus seemed gone. She walked dreamily home, and by the time she reached New Moon,
Starting point is 03:54:58 she had got her verse, and was reciting it to herself, with an agreeable sense of completion. You cast your loveliness around, wherever you chance to be, and you shall always but a cup, be of flower, dear, to me. felt very proud. This was her third poem, and undoubtedly her best. Nobody could say it was very blank. She must hurry up to the garret and write it on a letter ball, but Aunt Elizabeth was confronting her on the steps. Emily, where are your boots and stockings? Emily came back from Cloudland with a disagreeable jolt. She had forgotten all about boots and stockings. In the hole by the gate, she said flackly you went to the store barefooted yes after i had told you not to this seemed to emily a superfluous question and she did not answer it but aunt elizabeth's turn had come
Starting point is 03:56:00 end of section eleven recording by leanne fortune section twelve of emily of new moon this liby vox recording is in the public domain recording by leanne fortune emily was locked in the spare room and told that she must stay there until bedtime she had pleaded against such a punishment in vain she had tried to give the murray look but it seemed that in her case at any rate it did not come at will oh don't shut me up alone there aunt elizabeth she implored i know i was naughty but don't put me in the spare room aunt elizabeth was inexorable she knew that it was a cruel thing to shut an over-sensitive child like emily in that gloomy room but she thought she was doing her duty she did not realize and would not have for a moment believed that she was really wreaking her own smothered resentment with emily for her defeat and fright on the day of the threatened hair-cutting. Aunt Elizabeth believed she had been stampeded on that occasion by a chance family resemblance coming out under stress, and she was ashamed of it.
Starting point is 03:57:21 The Murray Pride had smarted under that humbling, and the smart ceased to annoy her only when she turned the key of the spare room on the white-faced culprit. Emily, looking very small and lost and lonely, her eyes full of such fear as should have no place in a child's eyes, shrank close against the door of the spare room. It was better that way. She could not imagine things behind her then, and the room was so big and dim that a dreadful number of things could be imagined in it.
Starting point is 03:57:54 Its bigness and dimness filled her with a terror against which she could not strive. Ever since she could remember, she had had a horror of being shut up alone in semi-dark, she was not frightened of twilight out of doors but this shadowy walled gloom made of the spare room a place of dread the window was hung with heavy dark green material reinforced by draught blames the big canopyed bed jutting out from the wall into the middle of the floor was high and rigid and curtained also with dark draperies anything might jump at her out of such a bed what if some great black hand should suddenly reach out of it, reach right across the floor, and pluck at her. The walls, like those of the parlour, were adorned with pictures of departed relatives. There was such a large connection of dead Murray's. The glasses of their frames gave out weird reflections of the spectral threads of light,
Starting point is 03:58:57 struggling through the slat blinds. Worst of all, right across the room from her, high up on the top of the black black, wardrobe was a huge, stuffed white Arctic owl, staring at her with uncanny eyes. Emily shrieked aloud when she saw it, and then cowered down in her corner, aghast at the sound she had made in the great silent echoing room. She wished that something would jump out of the bed and put an end to her. I wonder what Aunt Elizabeth would feel like if I was found here dead, she thought vindictively. In spite of her fright, she began to dramatize it and felt Aunt Elizabeth's remorse so keenly that she decided only to be unconscious and come back to life when everybody was sufficiently scared and penitent.
Starting point is 03:59:46 But people had died in this room, dozens of them. According to Cousin Jimmy, it was a new moon tradition that when any member of the family was near death, he or she was promptly removed to the spare room to die amid surroundings of proper grandeur. Emily could see them dying in that terrible bed. She felt that she was going to scream again, but she fought the impulse down. A star must not be a coward. Oh, that owl! Suppose, when she looked away from it and then looked back,
Starting point is 04:00:21 she would find that it had silently hopped down from the wardrobe and was coming towards her. Emily dared not look at it, for fear that was just what had happened. didn't the bed-curtain stir and waver she felt beads of cold perspiration on her forehead then something did happen a beam of sunlight struck through a small break in one of the slats of the blind and fell directly athwart the picture of grandfather murray hanging over the mantelpiece it was a crayon enlargement copied from the old de gerotype in the polar below in that gleam of light his face seemed verity to leap out of the gloom at Emily with its grim frown, strangely exaggerated. Emily's nerve gave way completely. In an ungovernable spasm of panic, she rushed madly across the room to the window, dashed the curtains aside, and caught up the slap blind.
Starting point is 04:01:21 A blessed flood of sunshine burst in. Outside was a wholesome friendly human world. And of all wonders, there, Leaning right against the windowsill was a ladder. For a moment, Emily almost believed that a miracle had been worked for her escape. Cousin Jimmy had tripped that morning over the ladder, lying lost among the burdox under the balm of Gilead's behind the dairy. It was very rotten and he decided it was time it was disposed of.
Starting point is 04:01:53 He had shouldered it up against the house, so that he would be sure to see it on his return from the hayfield. in less time than it takes to right of it, Emily had got the window up, climbed out on the saw, and back down the ladder. She was too intent on escaping from that horrible room to be conscious of the shakiness of the rotten rungs. When she reached the ground, she bolted through the bomb of Gileads and over the fence into lofty John's bush.
Starting point is 04:02:25 Nor did she stop running till she reached the path by the brook. Then she paused for breath, exultant. She was full of a fearful joy with an elf and delight running through it. Sweet was the wind of freedom that was blowing over the foams. She had escaped from the sparrum and its ghosts. She had got the better of mean old Aunt Elizabeth. I feel as if I was a little bird that had just got out of the cage, she told herself.
Starting point is 04:02:56 And then she danced with joy of it all, along her very path to the very end, where she found Ilsa Burnley, huddled up on the top of a fence panel. Her pale gold head making a spot of brilliance against the dark young firs that crowded around her. Emily had not seen her since that first day of school, and again she thought she had never seen, or pretended anybody just like Ilsa. Well, Emily of New Moon, said Ilsa, where are you running to? I'm running away, said Emily frankly. I was bad.
Starting point is 04:03:34 At least I was a little bad. And Aunt Elizabeth locked me in the spare room. I hadn't been bad enough for that. It wasn't fair. So I got out of the window and down the ladder. You little cuss, I didn't think you'd gimp enough for that, said Ilsa. Emily gasped. It seemed very dreadful to be called a little cusp.
Starting point is 04:03:58 But Ilsa had said it quite admiringly. I don't think it was Gimp, said Emily. Too honest to take a compliment she didn't deserve. I was too scared to stay in that room. Well, where are you going now? asked Ilsa. You'll have to go somewhere. You can't stay outdoors. There's a thunderstorm coming up.
Starting point is 04:04:21 So there was. Emily did not like thunderstorms, and her conscience smote her. Oh, she said, Do you suppose God is bringing up that storm to punish me because I've run away? No, said Ilsa scornfully. If there is any God, he wouldn't make such a fuss over nothing. Oh, Ilsa, don't you believe there is a God? I don't know.
Starting point is 04:04:45 Father says there isn't. But in that case, how did things happen? Some days I believe there's a God and some days I don't. You'd better come home with me. There's nobody there. I was so dodgastedly lonesome I took to the bush. Elsa sprang down and held out her sunburned paw to Emily. Emily took it and they ran together over Lofty John's pasture to the old Burnley house,
Starting point is 04:05:11 which looked like a huge grey cat, basking in the warm late sunshine, that had not yet been swallowed up by the menacing thunderheads. Inside it was full of furniture that must have been quite splendid once, but the disorder was dreadful, and the dust lay thickly over everything. Nothing was in the right place, apparently, and Aunt Laura would certainly have fainted with horror if she had seen the kitchen. But it was a good place to play. You didn't have to be careful not to mess things up. Ilsa and Emily had a glorious game of hide-and-seek all over the house, until the thunder got so heavy and the lightning so bright that Emily felt she must huddle
Starting point is 04:05:55 on the sofa and knows her courage. Aren't you ever afraid of thunder? She asked Elsa. No, I ain't afraid of anything except the devil, said Elsa. I thought you didn't believe in the devil either. Rhoda said you didn't. Oh, there's a devil all right, father says. It's only God he doesn't believe in.
Starting point is 04:06:19 And if there is a devil and no God to keep him in order, is it any wonder I am scared of him? look here emily bird's doll i like you heaps i've always liked you i knew you'd soon be good and sick of that little white-livered lying sneak of a rhoda stuart i never tell lies father told me once he'd kill me if he ever caught me telling a lie i want you for my chum i'd go to school regular if i could sit with you all right said emily off-handedly no more sentimental rhodian vows of eternal diversion for her. That phase was over, and you'll tell me things. Nobody ever tells me things, and let me tell you things. I haven't anybody to tell things, too, said Ilsa. And you won't be ashamed of me because my clothes are always queer and because I don't believe in God? No. But if you knew Father's God, you'd believe in Him. I wouldn't. Besides, there's only one God if there is any at all.
Starting point is 04:07:25 I don't know, said Emily, perplexedly. No, it can't be like that. Ellen Green's God isn't a bit like fathers, and neither is Aunt Elizabeth's. I don't think I'd like Aunt Elizabeth's, but he is a dignified God at least, and Ellen's isn't. And I'm sure Aunt Laura's is another one still. Nice and kind, but not wonderful like fathers.
Starting point is 04:07:52 Well, never mind, I don't like talking about God. said Ilsa uncomfortably. I do, said Emily. I think God is a very interesting subject, and I'm going to pray for you, Ilsa, that you can believe in Father's God. Don't you dust! shouted Ilsa, who for some mysterious reason
Starting point is 04:08:11 did not like the idea. I won't be prayed for. Don't you ever pray yourself, Elsa? Oh, now and then, when I feel lonesome at night or when I'm in a scrape. But I don't want anyone else to pray, for me. If I catch you doing it, Emily's dog, I'll tear your eyes out. And don't you go sneaking and praying for me behind my back either. All right, I won't, said Emily sharply,
Starting point is 04:08:39 multiplied at the failure of her well-meant offer. I'll pray for every single soul I know, but I'll leave you out. For a moment, Ilsa looked as if she didn't like this either. Then she laughed and gave Emily a volcanic hug. Well, anyway, please like me. Nobody likes me, you know. Your father must like you, Ilsa. He doesn't, said Ilsa positively. Father doesn't care a hoot about me. I think there's times when he hates the sight of me.
Starting point is 04:09:13 I wish he did like me because he can be awful nice when he likes anyone. Do you know what I'm going to be when I grow up? I'm going to be an elocutionist. What's that? A woman who recites at concerts. I can do it dandy. What are you going to be? A poetess.
Starting point is 04:09:35 Golly, said Ilsa, apparently overcome. I don't believe you can write poetry, she added. I can so too, cried Emily. I've written three pieces. Autumn and... lines to Rhoda, only I burned that, and an address to a buttercup. I composed it today, and it is my, my masterpiece. Let's hear it, ordered Ilsa.
Starting point is 04:10:05 Nothing, loath. Emily proudly repeated her lines. Somehow she did not mind letting Elsa hear them. Emily Berth's doll. You didn't make that out of your own head? I did. cross your heart cross my heart well ilsa drew a long breath i guess you are a poetess all right it was a very proud moment for emily one of the great moments of life in fact her world had conceded her standing but now other things had to be thought of the storm was over and the sun had set it was twilight it would soon be dark she must give her home and back into the spare room before her absence was discovered. It was dreadful to think of
Starting point is 04:10:56 going back, but she must do it lest a worse thing came upon her at Aunt Elizabeth's hands. Just now, under the inspiration of Ilsa's personality, she was full of Dutch courage. Besides, it would soon be her bedtime and she would be let out. She trotted home through Lothy John's bush that was full of the wandering mysterious lamps of the fireflies, dodged cautiously through the balm of Gileads, and stopped short in dismay. The ladder was gone! Emily went around to the kitchen door, feeling that she was going straight to her doom. But for once the way of the transgressor was made sinfully easy. Aunt Laura was alone in the kitchen. Emily dear, where on earth did you come from, she exclaimed. I was just going up to let you out. Elizabeth said I might. She's gone to
Starting point is 04:11:52 prayer meeting. Aunt Laura did not say that she had tiptoed several times to the sparrum door and had been wracked with anxiety over the silence behind it. Was the child unconscious from fright? Not even while the thunderstorm was going on would relentless Elizabeth allow that door to be opened, and here was Miss Emily, walking unconcernedly in, out of the twilight after all this agony. For a moment, even Aunt Laura was annoyed. But when she heard Emily's tale, her only feeling was thankfulness that Juliet's child had not broken her neck on that rotten ladder. Emily felt that she had got off better than she deserved. She knew Aunt Laura would keep the secret, and Aunt Laura would keep the secret, and Aunt Laura would be.
Starting point is 04:12:43 Laura let her give saucy sell a whole cup full of strippings, and gave her a big plummy cookie and put her to bed with kisses. You oughtn't to be so good to me because I was bad today, Emily said between delicious mouthfuls. I suppose I disgraced the Murray's going barefoot. If I were you, I'd hide my boots every time I went out of the gate, said Aunt Laura, but I wouldn't forget to put them on before I had. came back. What Elizabeth doesn't know will never hurt her. Emily reflected over this until she had
Starting point is 04:13:21 finished her cookie. Then she said, That would be nice, but I don't mean to do it anymore. I guess I must obey Aunt Elizabeth because she is the head of the family. Where do you get such notions? said Aunt Laura. Out of my head. Aunt Laura, Ilsa Vernely and I are going to be chums. I like her. I've always felt I'd like her if I had a chance. I don't believe I can ever love any girl again, but I like her. Poor Ilsa, said Aunt Laura sighing. Yes, her father doesn't like her. Isn't it dreadful? said Emily. Why doesn't he?
Starting point is 04:14:00 He does, really. He only thinks he doesn't. But why does he think it? You're too young to understand, Emily. Emily hated to be told she was too young to understand. she felt that she could understand perfectly well if only people would take the trouble to explain things to her and not be so mysterious i wish i could pray for her it wouldn't be fair though when i know how she feels about it but i've always asked god to bless all my friends so she'll be in that and maybe some good will come of it is golly a proper word to say aunt laura no no i'm sorry for that said emily seriously because it's very striking end of section twelve recording by leanne fortune section thirteen of emily of new moon by lucy m montgomery this librivox recording is in the public domain recording by le anne fortune section thirteen
Starting point is 04:15:13 emily and ilsa had a splendid fortnight of fun before their first fight it was really quite a terrible fight arising out of a simple argument as to whether they would or would not have a parlor in the playhouse they were building in lofty john's bush emily wanted a parlor and ilsa didn't ilsa lost her temper at once and went into a true bonely tantrum she was very fluent in her rages, and the volley of abusive dictionary words, which she hurled at Emily, would have staggered most of the Blaywater girls. But Emily was too much at home with words to be flawed so easily. She grew angry too, but in the cool, dignified, Murray way, which was more exasperating than violence. When he also had to pause for breath in her diatrives, Emily, sitting on a big stone with her knees crossed, her eyes black, and her cheeks crimson, interjected little sarcastic retorts that infuriated Ilsa's door further.
Starting point is 04:16:23 Elsa was crimson, too, and her eyes were full of scintillating, tawny fire. They were both so pretty in their fury that it was almost a pity they couldn't have been angry all the time. You needn't suppose, your little pealing, sniveling chit that you are going to boss me, just because you live at New Moon, shrieked Ilsa, as an ultimatum, stamping her foot. I'm not going to boss you, I'm not going to associate with you ever again, retorted Emily, disdainfully. I'm glad to be rid of you, you proud, stuck up, conceited, top lofty biped, cried Ilsa. Never you speak to me again, and don't you go about Blair Water,
Starting point is 04:17:12 to saying things about me either. This was unbearable to a girl who never said things about her friends or once friends. I'm not going to say things about you, said Emily deliberately. I am just going to think then. This was far more aggravating than speech, and Emily knew it.
Starting point is 04:17:36 Ilsa was driven quite frantic by it. Who knew what unearthly things Emily might be thinking about her any time she took the notion to. Ilsa had already discovered what a fertile invention Emily had. Do you suppose I care what you think, you insignificant serpent? Why, you haven't any sense?
Starting point is 04:17:57 I've got something then that's far better, said Emily with a maddening, superior smile, something that you can never have, Ilsa Burnley. Ilsa doubled her fists as if she would like to demolish Emily by a physical force. If I couldn't write better poetry than you, I'd hang myself, she derided. I'll lend you a dime to buy a rope, said Emily.
Starting point is 04:18:26 Ilsa glared at her, vanquished. You go to the devil, she said. Emily got up and went, not to the devil, but back to New Moon. Ilsa relieved her feelings by knocking the boards of their china closet down, and kicking their moss gardens to pieces and departed also. Emily felt exceedingly badly. Here was another friendship destroyed, a friendship too that had been very delightful and satisfying.
Starting point is 04:18:57 Elsa had been a splendid chum, there was no doubt about that. After Emily had cooled down, she went to the dormer window and cried, "'Rretched, wretched, me!' she sobbed dramatically. but very sincerely yet the bitterness of her break with rhoda was not present this quarrel was fair and open and above board she had not been stabbed in the back but of course she and ilsa would never be chums again who couldn't be chums with a person who called you a chit and a biped and a serpent and told you to go to the devil the thing was impossible and besides ilsa could never forgive her for emily was honest enough to admit to herself that she had been very aggravating too. Yet when Emma went to the playhouse next morning, bent on retrieving her share of broken dishes and boards,
Starting point is 04:19:53 there was Ilsa skipping around hard at work with all the shelves back in place, the moss garden remade and a beautiful parlor laid out and connected with the living room via spruce arch. Hello you! Here's your parlour and I hope you'll be seen. satisfied now, she said gaily, what's kept you so long? I thought you were never coming. This rather posed Emily after her tragic night,
Starting point is 04:20:22 wherein she had buried her second friendship and wept over its grave. She was not prepared for so speedier resurrection. As far as Elsa was concerned, it seemed as if no quarrel had ever taken place. Why, that was yesterday, she said in amazement, when emily rather distantly referred to it yesterday and to-day were two entirely different things in ilsa's philosophy emily accepted it she found she had to elsa transpired could no more help flying into tantrums now and then than she could help being jolly and affectionate between them what amazed emily in whom things were bound to rankle for a time was the way in which elsa appeared to forget get a quarrel the moment it was over. To be called a serpent and a crocodile one minute and hugged and darling the next,
Starting point is 04:21:20 was somewhat disconcerting until time and experience took the age of it. Aren't I nice enough between times to make up for it? Demanded Ilsa. Dot Payne never flies into tempers but would you like her for a chum? No, she's too stupid, admitted Emily, and Rhoda Stewart is never out of temper that you got enough of her, do you think I'd ever treat you as she did? No, Emily had no doubt on this point.
Starting point is 04:21:52 Whatever Ilsa was or was not, she was loyal and true. And certainly Rhoda Stewart and Dot Payne compared to Ilsa were, as moonlight unto sunlight and as water unto wine, or would have been if Emily had as yet known anything more of her tenets, than the bugle's song you can't have everything said ilsa i've got dad's temper and that's all there is to it wait till you see him in one of his rages emily had not seen this so far she had often been down in the burnley's house but on a few occasions when dr bernley had been home he had ignored her save for a curt nod he was a busy man for whatever his shortcomings were his skill was unquestioning questioned, and the bounds of his practice extended far. By the sickbed, he was as gentle and sympathetic as he was brisk and sarcastic away from it.
Starting point is 04:22:51 As long as you were ill, there was nothing Dr. Burnley would not do for you. Once you were well, he had apparently no further use for you. He had been absorbed all through July, trying to save Teddy Kent's life up at the Tanzy patch. Teddy was out of danger now and able to be up, but his improvement was not speedy enough to satisfy Dr. Burnley. One day he held up Emily and Ilsa, who were heading through the lawn to the pond, with fishing hooks and a can of fat abominable worms,
Starting point is 04:23:27 the latter manipulated solely by Ilsa and ordered them to betake themselves up to the tansy patch and play with Teddy Kent. He's lonesome and moping. Go and cheer him up, said the doctor. Ilsa was rather loath to go. She liked Teddy, but it seemed she did not like his mother. Emily was secretly not averse.
Starting point is 04:23:51 She had seen Teddy Kent but once at Sunday school, the day before he was taken seriously ill, and she had liked his looks. It had seemed that he liked hers too, for she caught him staring shyly at her over the evening. intervening views several times. He was very handsome, Emily decided. She liked his thick, dark brown hair and his black-browed blue eyes,
Starting point is 04:24:17 and for the first time it occurred to her that it might be rather nice to have a boy playmate too. Not a beau, of course. Emily hated the school jargon that called a boy your bur if he happened to give you a pencil or an apple and picked you out frequently. will his partner in the games. Teddy's nice, but his mother is queer, Ilsa told her on their way to the Tansy Patch. She never goes out anywhere, not even to church,
Starting point is 04:24:49 but I guess it's because of the scar on her face. They're not Blairwater people. They've only been living at the Tansy Patch since last fall. They're poor and proud, and not many people visit them, but Teddy is awfully nice. so if his mother gives us some black looks, we needn't mind. Mrs. Kent gave them no black looks, though her reception was rather distant. Perhaps she too had received some orders from the doctor.
Starting point is 04:25:21 She was a tiny creature with enormous masses of dull, soft, silky fawn hair, dark mournful eyes, and a broad scar running slantwise across her pale face. Without the scar, she must have been pretty, and she had a voice as soft and uncertain as the wind in the tansy. Emily, with her instinctive faculty of sizing out people she met, felt that Mrs. Kent was not a happy woman. The tansy patch was east of the disappointed house, between the Blairwater and the sand dunes. Most people considered it a bare, lonely, neglected place, but Emily thought it was fascinating. the little clap-boarded house topped a small hill over which tansy grew in a hard flaunting aromatic luxuriance rising steeply and abruptly from a main road a straggling rail fence almost smothered in wild rose bushes bounded the domain and a sagging ill-used little gate gave ingress from the road stones were let into the side of the hill for steps up to the front door behind the house was a time of the town
Starting point is 04:26:33 humble-down little barn, and a field of flowering buckwheat, creamy green, sloping down to the blay water. In front was a crazy veranda, around which a brilliant band of red poppies held up their enchanted cups. Teddy was unfainedly glad to see them, and they had a happy afternoon together. There was some colour in Teddy's clear olive skin when it ended, and his dark blue eyes were brighter. Mrs. Kent took in these signs greeders. and asked the girls to come back with an eagerness that was yet not cordiality but they had found the tansy patch a charming place and were glad to go again for the rest of the vacation there was hardly a day when they did not go up to it preferably in the long smoky delicious august evenings when the white moths sailed over the tansy plantation and the golden twilight faded into dusk and purple over the green slopes beyond and fireflies lighted their goblin torches by the pond sometimes they played games in the tansy patch when teddy and emily somehow generally found themselves on the same side and then no more than a match
Starting point is 04:27:50 for agile, quick-witted Ilsa. Sometimes Teddy took them to the barn loft and showed them his little collection of drawings. Both girls thought them very wonderful, without knowing in the least, how wonderful they really were. It seemed like magic to see Teddy take a pencil and bit of paper and with a few quick strokes of his slim brown fingers
Starting point is 04:28:15 bring out a sketch of Ilsa, or Emily, or Smoke or Buttercup. that looked ready to speak or meow. Smoke and Buttercup were the Tansy Patch cats. Buttercup was a chubby yellow delightful creature, hardly out of kittenhood. Smoke was a big Maltese and an aristocrat from the tip of his nose to the tip of his tail.
Starting point is 04:28:41 There was no doubt whatever that he belonged to the cat cast of Beardavir. He had emerald eyes and a coat of plush. The only white thing about him was an adorable dicky. Emily thought, of all the pleasant hours, fainted the Tansy patch. The pleasantest were those, when tired with play, they all three sat on the crazy veranda steps in the mystery and enchantment of the borderland, between light and dark, when the little clump of spruce behind the barn looked like beautiful dark phantom trees. The clouds of the west faded into grey,
Starting point is 04:29:19 and a great round yellow moon rose over the fields to be reflected brokenly in the pond where the wind woman was making wonderful woven lights and shadows mrs kent never joined them though emily had a creepy conviction that she was watching them stealthily from behind the kitchen blind teddy and ilsa sang school ditties and ilsa recited and emily told stories all they sat in happy silence each anchored in some secret port of dreams while the cats chased each other madly over the hill and through the tansy tearing round and round the house like possessed creatures they would spring up at the children with sudden pounces and spring as suddenly away their eyes gleamed like jewels their tails swayed like plumes they were palpitating with nervous stealthy life oh isn't it good to be alive like this emily said once wouldn't it be dreadful if one had never lived still existence was not wholly unclouded aunt elizabeth took care of that aunt elizabeth only permitted the visits to the tansy patch under protest and-and-exist and because dr bonley had ordered them aunt elizabeth does not approve of teddy emily wrote in one of her letters to her father which epistles were steadily multiplying on the old garret's sofa the first time i asked her if i might go and play with teddy she looked at me severely and said who is this teddy person we do not know anything about these kents remember emily the murrays do not associate with every one i said i am a star i am not a murray you said so yourself dear father i did not mean to be impertinent but aunt elizabeth said i was and would not speak to me the rest of the day
Starting point is 04:31:20 she seemed to think that was a very bad punishment but i did not mind it much only it is rather unpleasant to have your own family preserve a disdainful silence towards you but since then she lets me go to the tansy patch because dr bernley came and told her to dr bernley has a strange influence over aunt elizabeth i do not understand it rhoda said once that aunt elizabeth hoped dr bernley and aunt laura would make a match of it which you know means get married but that is not so Mrs. Thomas Anderson was here one afternoon to tea. Mrs. Thomas Anderson is a big fat woman, and her grandmother was a Murray, and there is nothing else to say about her. She asked Aunt Elizabeth if she thought Dr. Burnley would marry again, and Aunt Elizabeth said, No, he would not, and she did not think it right for people to marry a second time. Mrs. Anderson said,
Starting point is 04:32:24 Sometimes I thought he would take Laura. Aunt Elizabeth just swept her a haughty glance. There is no use in denying it. There are times when I am very proud of Aunt Elizabeth, even if I do not like her. Teddy is a very nice boy father. I think you would approve of him. Should there be two peas in approve?
Starting point is 04:32:47 He can make splendid pictures, and he is going to be a famous artist someday, and then he is going to paint my portrait. He keeps his pictures in the barn loft, because his mother doesn't like to see them. He can whistle just like a bird. The tansy patch is a very quaint place, especially at night. I love the twilight there. We always have such fun in the twilight.
Starting point is 04:33:13 The wind woman makes herself small in the tansy, just like a tiny, tiny fairy, and the cats are so queer and creepy and delightful then. They belong to Mrs. Kent, and Teddy is afraid to pet them much for fear she will drown them. She drowned a kitten once, because she thought he liked it better than her. But he didn't, because Teddy is very much attached to his mother. He washes the dishes for her and helps her in all the housework.
Starting point is 04:33:42 Elsa says the boys in school call him Sissy for that, but I think it is noble and manly of him. Teddy wishes she would let him have a dog, but she won't. I have thought Aunt Elizabeth was tyrannical, but Mrs. Kent is far worse in some ways. But then she loves Teddy, and Aunt Elizabeth does not love me. End of Section 13, recording by Leanne Fortune. Section 14 of Emily of New Moon by Lucy M. Montgomery. This Libre Vox recording is in the public domain.
Starting point is 04:34:24 Recording by Leanne Fortune, Section 14. but mrs kent doesn't like ilsa or me she never says so but we feel it she never asks us to stay at a tea and we've always been so polite to her i believe she is jealous of us because teddy likes us teddy gave me the sweetest picture of the blaywater he had painted on a big white cowhawk shell but he said i mustn't let his mother know about it because she would cry mrs kent is a very mysterious person very like some people you read of in books i like mysterious people but not too close her eyes always look hungry though she has plenty to eat she never goes anywhere because she has a scar on her face where she was burned with a lamp exploding it made my blood run cold dear father how thankful i am that aunt elizabeth only burns candles. Some of the Murray traditions are very sensible.
Starting point is 04:35:34 Mrs. Kent is very religious, what she calls religious. She prays even in the middle of the day. Teddy says that before he was born into this world, he lived in another one, where there were two sons, one red and one blue. The days were red and the night's blue.
Starting point is 04:35:55 I don't know where he got the idea, but it sounds attractive to me. And he says the brooks run honey instead of water. But what did you do when you were thirsty, I said? Oh, we were never thirsty there. But I think I would like to be thirsty because then cold water tastes so good. I would like to live in the moon. It must be such a nice silvery place.
Starting point is 04:36:20 Elsa says Teddy ought to like her best because there is more fun in her than in me. But that is not true. true. There is just as much fun in me when my conscience doesn't bother me. I guess Ilsa wants Teddy to like her best, but she is not a jealous girl. I'm glad to say that Aunt Elizabeth and Aunt Laura both approve of my friendship with Ilsa. It is so seldom they approve of the same thing. I am getting used to fighting with Ilsa now and don't mind it much. Besides, I can fight pretty well myself when my blood is up.
Starting point is 04:36:59 We fight about once a week, but we make up right away, and Ilsa says things would be dull if there was never a row. I would like it better without rouse, but you can never tell what will make Ilza mad. She never gets mad twice over the same thing. She calls me dreadful names.
Starting point is 04:37:19 Yesterday she called me a lousy lizard and a toothless viper. But somehow I didn't mind. mind it much because I knew I wasn't lousy or toothless, and she knew it too. I don't call her names because that is unladylike. But I smile, and that makes Ilsa far madder than if I scald and stamped as she does, and that is why I do it. Aunt Laura says I must be careful not to pick up the words Ilsa uses,
Starting point is 04:37:48 and try to set her a good example, because the poor child has no one to look after her properly. I wish I could use some of her words because they are so striking she gets them from her father. I think my aunts are too particular. One night when the Reverend Mr. Dare was here to tea, I used the word bull in my conversation. I said Ilsa and I were afraid to go through Mr. James Lee's pasture where the old well was because he had a cross bull there. after mr dare had gone aunt elizabeth gave me an awful scolding and told me i was never to use that word again but she had been talking of tigers at sea in connection with missionaries and i can't understand why it is more disgraceful to talk about bulls than tigers of course bulls are ferocious animals but so are tigers but aunt elizabeth says i am always disgracing them when they have company when mrs lockwood was here from shrewsbury last week they were talking about mrs foster beck who is a bride and i said dr bernley thought she was devishly pretty
Starting point is 04:39:05 aunt elizabeth said emily in an awful tone she was pale with wrath dr burnley said it i cried i'm only quoting and dr burnley did say it the day i stayed to dinner with ilsa and dr jameson was there from shrewsbury i saw dr burnley in one of his rages that afternoon over something mrs simms had done in his office it was a gruesome sight His big yellow eyes blazed, and he tore about and kicked over a chair, and threw a mat at the wall, and fired a vase out of the window, and said terrible things. I sat on the sofa and stared at him like one fascinated. It was so interesting, I was sorry when he cooled down, which he soon did, because he is like Ilsa, and never stays mad long. He never gets mad at Ilsa, though. Ilsa says she wishes he would. It would be better than being taken no notice of.
Starting point is 04:40:10 She is as much of an orphan as I am, poor child. Last Sunday she went to church with her old faded blue dress on. There was a tear right in front of it. Aunt Laura wept when she came home and then spoke to Mrs. Sims about it because she did not dare speak to Dr. Burnley. mrs simms was cross and said it was not her place to look after elsa's clothes but she said she had got dr berny to get ilsa a nice spriged muslin dress and ilsa had got egg stain on it and when mrs sims scolded her for being so careless ilsa flew into her rage and went upstairs and tore the muslin dress to pieces and mrs simms said she wasn't going to bother her head again about a child like that
Starting point is 04:41:01 and there was nothing for her to wear but her old blue, but Mrs. Sims didn't know it was tall. So I sneaked Ilsa's dress over to New Moon, and Aunt Laura mended it neatly, and hid the tear with a pocket. Ilsa said she tore up her muslin dress one of the days she didn't believe in God and didn't care what she did. Ilsa found a mouse in her bed one night, and she just shook it out and jumped in. Oh, how brave. I could never be as brave as that. It is not true that Dr. Burnley never smiles. I have seen him do it, but not often. He just smiles with his lips, but not his eyes, and it makes me feel uncomfortable.
Starting point is 04:41:47 Mostly he laughs in a horrid, sarcastic way, like Jolly Jim's uncle. We had barley soup for dinner that day, very watery. Aunt Laura is giving me five cents a week for washing the dishes. I can only spend one cent of it, and the other four have to be put in the toad bank in the sitting room on the mantel. The toad is made of brass and sits on top of the bank, and you put the sense in his mouth, one at a time. He swallows them and they drop into the bank. It's very fascinating. I should not write fascinating again because you told me I must not use the same word too often. But I can't think of any other that describes my feeling so well.
Starting point is 04:42:30 The turd bank is Aunt Laura's. But she said I could use it. I just hugged her. Of course, I never hug on, Elizabeth. She is too rigid and bony. She does not approve of Aunt Laura paying me for washing dishes. I trembled to think what she would say if she knew Cousin Jimmy gave me a whole dollar on this lie last week.
Starting point is 04:42:54 I wish he had not given it. me so much. It worries me. It is an awful responsibility. It will be so difficult to spend it wisely, also without Aunt Elizabeth finding out about it. I hope I shall never have a million dollars. I am sure it would crush me utterly. I keep my dollar head on the shelf with my letters, and I put it in an old envelope and wrote on it, Cousin Jimmy Murray gave me this, so that if I died suddenly and Aunt Elizabeth found it, she would know I came by it honestly. Now that the days are getting cool, Aunt Elizabeth makes me wear my thick flannel petticoat. I hate it. It makes me so bunchy. But Aunt Elizabeth says I must wear it because you died of
Starting point is 04:43:45 consumption. I wish clothes could be both graceful and healthy. I read the story of Red Riding Hood today. I think the wolf was the most interesting character in it. Red Riding Hood was a stupid little thing. So easily fooled. I wrote two poems yesterday. One was short and entitled Lions Address to a Blue-Eyed Grass Flower Gathered in the Old Orchard. Here it is.
Starting point is 04:44:15 Sweet little flower thy modest face is ever lifted towards the sky And a reflection of its face is caught within thy. own blue eye. The meadow queens are tall and fair. The columbines are lovely too, but the poor talent I possess shall laurel thee my flower of blue. The other poem was long, and I wrote it on a letter-ball. It is called the Monarch of the forest. The Monarch is the big birch in Lofty John's bush. I love that bush so much it hurts. Do you understand? that kind of hurting. Ilsa likes it too and we play them most of the time when we are not at the tansy patch. We have three paths in it. We call them the today road, the yesterday road and the
Starting point is 04:45:09 tomorrow road. The today road is by the brook and we call it that because it is lovely now. The yesterday road is out in the stumps where lofty john cut some trees down and we call it that because it used to be lovely. The Tomorrow Road is just a tiny path in the maple clearing, and we call it that because it is going to be lovely someday when the maples grow bigger. But, oh, Father dear, I haven't forgotten the dear old trees down home. I always think of them after I go to bed.
Starting point is 04:45:46 But I am happy here. It isn't wrong to be happy, is it, father? Aunt Elizabeth says I got over being homesick very quick, but I am often homesick inside. I've got acquainted with Lofty John. Ilsa is a great friend of his, and often goes there to watch him working in his carpenter shop. He says he has made enough ladders to get to heaven without the priest, but that is just his joke. He is really a very devout Catholic, and goes to the chapel at White Cross. every Sunday. I go with Ilsa, though perhaps I ought not to when he is an enemy of my family.
Starting point is 04:46:32 He is of stately bearing and refined manners, very civil to me, but I don't always like him. When I ask him a serious question, he always winks over my head when he answers. That is insulting. Of course, I never ask any questions on religious subjects, but Ilsa. She likes him, but she says he would burn us all at the stake if he had the power. She asked him right out if he wouldn't, and he winked at me and said, Oh, we wouldn't burn nice pretty little Protestants like you. We would only burn the old ugly ones. That was a frivolous reply.
Starting point is 04:47:12 Mrs. Lofty John is a nice woman and not at all proud. She looks just like a little rosy wrinkled apple. On rainy days we play at Ilses. We can slide down the banisters and do what we like. Nobody cares. Only when the doctor is home, we have to be quiet because he can't bear any noise in the house, except what he makes himself. The roof is flat, and we can get out on it through a door in the garret ceiling.
Starting point is 04:47:41 It is very exciting to be up on the roof of a house. We had a yelling contest there the other night to see which could yell the loudest. to my surprise I found I could you never can tell what you can do till you try but too many people heard us and Aunt Elizabeth was very angry she asked me what made me do such a thing that is an awkward question
Starting point is 04:48:10 because often I can't tell what makes me do things sometimes I do them just to find out what I feel like doing them and sometimes I do them because I want to have some exciting things to tell my grandchildren. Is it improper to talk about having grandchildren? I have discovered that it is improper to talk about having children. One evening when people were here, Aunt Laura said to me, quite kindly, What are you thinking so earnestly about, Emily? And I said, I'm pecking names for my children.
Starting point is 04:48:47 I mean to have ten. And after the company had gone, Aunt Elizabeth said to Aunt Laura, I silly. I think it will be better in the future, Laura, if you do not ask that child what she is thinking of. If Aunt Laura doesn't, I shall be sorry,
Starting point is 04:49:05 because when I have an interesting thought, I like to tell it. School begins again next week. Ilsa is going to ask Miss Brownell if I can sit with her. I intend to act as if Roda was not there at all. Teddy is going too. Dr. Burnley says he is well enough to go, though his mother doesn't like the idea.
Starting point is 04:49:29 Teddy says she never likes to have him go to school, but she is glad that he hates Miss Brownell. Aunt Laura says the right way to end a letter to a dear friend is yours affectionately. So I am yours very affectionately. Emily Bird Star P.S. Because you are my very dearest friend still, Father. Ilsa says she loves me best of anything in the world
Starting point is 04:50:00 and her red leather boots that Mrs. Sims gave her next. End of Section 14, recording by Leanne Fortune. Section 15 of Emily of New Moon. This Libre Vox recording is in the podcast. public domain recording by lian fortune new moon was noted for its apples and on that first autumn of emily's life there both the old and the new orchards bore a bumper crop in the new were the titled in pedigreed apples and in the old the seedlings unknown to catalogs that yet had a flavour wildly sweet and all their own there was no taboo on any apple and emily was free to eat or all she wanted of each and every kind, the only prohibition being that she must not take any to bed with her. Aunt Elizabeth very properly did not want her bed messed up with apple seeds,
Starting point is 04:51:06 and Aunt Laura had a horror of anyone eating apples in the dark, lest they might eat an apple worm into the bargain. Emily, therefore, should have been able fully to satisfy her appetite for apples at home. but there is a certain odd kink in human nature by reason of which the flavour of the apples belonging to somebody else is always vastly superior to our own as the crafty serpent of eden very well knew emily like most people possessed this kink and consequently thought that nowhere were there such delicious apples as those belonging to lofty john he was in the habit of keeping a long long time row of apples on one of the beams in his workshop and it was understood that she and Ilsa might help themselves really whenever they visited that charming dusty shaving carpeted spot three varieties of Lofty John's apples were there a special favourites the scabby apples that looked as if they had leprosy but were of unsurpassed deliciousness under their queerly blotched skins the little red apples scarcely bigger than a crabby deep crimson all over and glossy as satin it had such a sweet nutty flavor and the big green sweet apples that children usually thought the best of all emily considered that day wasted whose low descending sun had not beheld her munching one of lofty john's big green sweets in the back of her mind emily knew quite well that she should not be going to lofty john's at all to be sure she had never been forbidden to ago simply because it had never occurred to her aunts that an inmate of new moon could so forget the beloved old family feud between the houses of murray and sullivan belonging to two generations back it was an inheritance that any proper murray would live up to as a matter of course
Starting point is 04:53:11 but when emily was off with that wild little ishmaelite of an ilsa traditions lost their power under the allurement of lofty joms reds and scabs she wandered rather lonesomely into his workshop one september evening at twilight she had been alone since she came from school her aunt's and cousin jimmy had gone to shrewsbury promising to be back by sunset Ilsa was away also. Her father prodded thereto by Mrs. Sims, having taken her to Charlottetown to get her a winter coat. Emily liked being alone very well at first. She felt quite important over being in charge of New Moon. She ate the supper Aunt Laura had left on the cookhouse dresser for her, and she went into the dairy and skimmed six lovely big pans of milk. She had no business at all to do this, but she had always hanked to do it, and this was too good a chance to be missed. She did it beautifully, and nobody ever knew,
Starting point is 04:54:12 each on supposing the other had done it, and so she was never scolded for it. This does not point any particular moral, of course. In a proper yawn, Emily should either have been found out and punished for disobedience, or been driven by an uneasy conscience to confess. But I am sorry, or ought to be, to have to state that Emily's conscience never worried her about,
Starting point is 04:54:36 the matter at all. Still, she was doomed to suffer enough that night from an entirely different cause to balance all her little peccadillos. By the time the cream was skimmed and poured into the big stern crock and well stirred, Emily didn't forget that either. It was after sunset and still nobody had come home. Emily didn't like the idea of going alone into the big dusky echoing house, so she hired her to to Lofty John's shop, which she found unoccupied. Though the plane halted midway on a board indicated that Lofty John had been working there quite recently and would probably return. Emily sat down on a round section of a huge log and looked around to see what she could get to eat.
Starting point is 04:55:25 There was a row of reds and scabs clean across the side of the shop, but no sweet among them, and Emily felt that what she needed just then was a sweet and nothing else. then she spied one a huge one the biggest sweet emily had ever seen all by itself on one of the steps of the stair leading up to the loft she climbed up possessed herself of it and ate it out of hand she was gnawing happily at the call when lofty john came in he nodded to her with a seemingly careless glance around just been in to get my supper he said the wife's away so i had to get it myself he felt to planing in silence. Emily sat on the stairs, counting the seeds of the big suite. You told your fortunes by the seeds, listening to the wind woman whistling elfishly through a knot-hole in the loft, and composing a description of Lofty John's carpenter shop by lanternlight, to be written later on a letter-ball. She was lost in a mental hunt for an accurate phrase to picture the absurd, elongated shadow of Lofty John's nose. on the opposite wall when Lofty John whirled about so suddenly that the shadow of his nose shot upward like a huge spear to the ceiling and demanded in a startle voice. What's become of that big sweet apple that was on that stair?
Starting point is 04:56:54 Why, I, I ate it, stammered Emily. Lofty John dropped his plane, threw up his hands and looked at Emily with a horrified face. "'The Saints Preserve us, child. "'Ye never ate that apple. "'Don't tell me you've gone and ate that apple.' "'Yes, I did,' said Emily uncomfortably. "'I didn't think it was any harm. "'I—'
Starting point is 04:57:20 "'Harm? Listen to her, will you? "'That apple was poisoned for the rats. "'They've been plaguing me life out here, "'and I had me mine made up to finish their fun. "'And now you've ate the apple. "'It would kill it doesn't. have ye in abrasive shakes. Lofty John saw a white face, and a gingham apron flashed through the workshop and out into the dark.
Starting point is 04:57:45 Emily's first wild impulse was to get home at once, before she dropped dead. She tore across the field through the bush and the garden and dashed into the house. It was still silent and dark. Nobody was home yet. Emily gave a bitter little shriek of despair. When they came, they would find her stiff and cold. Black in the face, likely. Everything in this dear world ended for her forever,
Starting point is 04:58:10 all because she had eaten an apple, which she thought she was perfectly welcome to eat. It wasn't fair. She didn't want to die. But she must. She only hoped desperately that someone would come before she was dead. It would be so terrible to die there all alone in that great big empty new moon.
Starting point is 04:58:29 She dared not try to go anywhere for help. It was too dark now, and she would likely drop dead on, the way, to die out there, alone, in the dark. Oh, that would be too dreadful. It did not occur to her that anything could be done for her. She thought if you once swallowed poison, that was the end of you. With hands shaking in panic, she got a candle lighted. It wasn't quite so bad then, you could face things in the light, and Emily, pale, terrified alone, was already deciding that this must be faced bravely. She must not shame the stars and the murrays. She clenched her cold hands and tried to stop trembling. How long would it be before she died, she wondered. Lofty John had said the apple would kill her in a brace of shakes. What did that mean? How long was a brace of shakes? Would it hurt her to die? She had a vague idea that poison did hurt you awfully. Oh, and just a little while ago she had been so happy. She had
Starting point is 04:59:32 thought she was going to live for years and write great poems and be famous like mrs heemans she had had a fight with ilsa the night before and hadn't made it up yet never could make it up now and ilsa would feel so terribly she must write her a note and forgive her was there time for that much oh how cold her hands were perhaps that meant she was dying already she had heard or read that your hands turned cold when you were dying she wondered if her face was turning black she grasped her candle and hurried up the stairs to the spare room there was a looking-glass there the only one in the house hung low enough for her to see her reflection if she tipped the bottom of it back ordinarily emily would have been frightened to death at the mere thought of going into that spare room by dim flickering candle-light but the one great terror had swallowed up all lesser ones she looked at her reflection amid the sleek black flow of her hair, in the upward striking light on the dark background of the shadowy room. Oh, she was pale as the dead already. Yes, that was a dying face. There could be no doubt of it.
Starting point is 05:00:47 Something rose up in Emily and took possession of her, some inheritance from the good old stock behind her. She ceased to tremble. She accepted her fate, with bitter regret, but calmly. I don't want to die. but since I have to, I'll die as becomes a Murray, she said. She had read a similar sentence in a book, and it came pat to the moment. And now she must hurry.
Starting point is 05:01:14 That letter to Elsa must be written. Emily went to Aunt Elizabeth's room first to assure herself that her right-hand top bureau drawl was quite tidy. Then she flitted up the Garrett stairs to her dormer corner. The great place was full of lurking, pouncing shadows that crowded about the little island of faint candlelight, but they had no terrors for Emily now. And to think I was feeling so bad today because my petticoat was bunchy, she thought, as she got one of her dear letter-balls. The last she would ever write on. There was no need to write to father.
Starting point is 05:01:52 She would see him soon, but Ilsa must have her letter. dear, loving, jolly, hot-tempered Ilsa, who just the day before had shrieked insulting epithets after her, and who would be haunted by remorse all her life for it. Dearest Ilsa, wrote Emily, her hand-shaking a little, but her lips firmly said, I am going to die. I have been poisoned by an apple Lofty John had put for rats. I will never see you again, but I'm writing this to tell you, I love you, and you are not to feel bad because you called me a skunk and a bloodthirsty mink yesterday i forgive you so do not worry over it and i'm sorry i told you that you were beneath contempt because i didn't mean a word of it i leave you all my share of the broken dishes in our playhouse
Starting point is 05:02:40 and please tell teddy good-bye for me he will never be able to teach me how to put worms on a fish-hook now i promised him i would learn because i did not want him to think i was a coward but i am glad i did not for I know what the worm feels like now. I do not feel sick yet, but I don't know what the symptoms of poisoning are, and Lofty John said there was enough to kill a dozen of me, so I can't have long to live. If Aunt Elizabeth is willing, you can have my necklace of Venetian beads. It is the only valuable possession I have. Don't let anybody do anything to Lofty John,
Starting point is 05:03:16 because he did not mean to poison me, and it was all my own fault for being so greedy. perhaps people will think he did it on purpose because i am a protestant but i feel sure he did not and please tell him not to be haunted by remorse i think i feel a pain in my stomach now so i guess that the end draws nigh farewell and remember her who died so young your own devoted emily as emily folded up her letter-bow she heard the sound of wheels in the yard below a moment later elizabeth and laura murray were confronted in the kitchen by a tragic-faced little creature, grasping a guttering candle in one hand, and a red-letter-bull in the other. Emily, what is the matter? cried Aunt Laura. I'm dying, said Emily solemnly.
Starting point is 05:04:09 I ate an apple lofty John had poisoned for rats. I have only a few minutes to live, Aunt Laura. Laura Murray dropped down on the black bench with her hand at her heart. Elizabeth turned as pale as Emily herself. Emily, is this some play-acting of yours? She demanded sternly. No, cried Emily quite indignantly. It's the truth.
Starting point is 05:04:33 Do you suppose a dying person would be play-acting? And, oh, Aunt Elizabeth, please will you give this letter to Ilsa, and please forgive me for being naughty, though I wasn't always naughty when you thought I was. And don't let anyone see me off. after i'm dead if i turn black especially rode a stuart by this time aunt elizabeth was herself again how long ago is it since you ate that apple emily about an hour if you'd eaten a poisoned apple an hour ago you'd be dead or sick by now oh cried emily transformed in a second a wild sweet hope sprang up in her heart was there a chance for her after all then she added
Starting point is 05:05:19 despairingly, but I felt another pain in my stomach just as I came downstairs. Laura, said Aunt Elizabeth, take this child out to the cookhouse and give her a good dose of mustard and water at once. It will do no harm and may do some good, if there's anything in this yon of hers. I'm going down to the doctors. He may be back, but I'll see Lofty John on the way. Aunt Elizabeth went out, and Aunt Elizabeth went out very quickly, if it had been anyone else it might have been said she ran as for emily well aunt laura gave her that emmetic in short order and two minutes later emily had no doubt at all that she was dying then and there and the sooner the better when aunt elizabeth returned emily was lying on the sofa in the kitchen as white as the pillow under her head and as limp as a faded lily wasn't the doctor home cried aunt laura desperately i don't don't know. There's no need of the doctor. I didn't think there was from the first. It was just one of Lofty John's jokes. He thought he'd give Emily a fright. Just for fun. His idea of fun. March you off to bed, Miss Emily. You deserve all you've got for going over there to Lofty Johns at all, and I don't pity you a particle. I haven't had such a turn for years. I did have a pain in my stomach, whiled Emily in whom frighten my
Starting point is 05:06:49 mustard and water combined had temporarily extinguished all spirit. Anyone who eats apples from dawn to dark must expect a few pains in her stomach. You won't have any more tonight, I reckon. The mustard will remedy that. Take your candle and go. Well, said Emily, getting unsteadily to her feet. I hate that dodgastard lofty John. Emily, said both arms together. He deserves it. said Emily vindictively. Oh, Emily, that dreadful word you used. Aunt Laura seemed curiously upset about something. Why, what's the matter with Dodd-Gasted?
Starting point is 05:07:32 Said Emily, quite mystified. Cousin Jimmy uses it often when things vex him. He used it today. He said that Dodd-Gasted heifer had broken out of the graveyard pasture again. Emily, said Aunt Elizabeth, with the air of one impaling her soul. on the easiest horn of a dilemma. Your cousin Jimmy is a man,
Starting point is 05:07:54 and men sometimes use expressions in the heat of anger that are not proper for little girls. But what is the matter with Dodd Gasted? persisted Emily. It isn't a swear word, is it? And if it isn't, why can't I use it? It isn't a ladylike word, said Aunt Laura. Well, then, I won't use it anymore,
Starting point is 05:08:17 said Emily resignedly. But Lofty John is dodgasted. Aunt Laura laughed so much after Emily had gone upstairs that Aunt Elizabeth told her a woman of her age should have more sense. Elizabeth, you know it was funny, protested Laura. Emily being safely out of sight, Elizabeth permitted herself a somewhat grim smile. I told Lofty John a few plain truths. He'll not go telling children they're poisoned again,
Starting point is 05:08:49 in a hurry. I left him fairly dancing with rage. Born out, Emily fell asleep as soon as she was in bed, but an hour later she awakened. Aunt Elizabeth had not yet come to bed, so the blind was still up, and Emily saw a dear, friendly star winking
Starting point is 05:09:05 down at her. Far away the sea moaned alluringly, though it was nice just to be alone and to be alive. Life tasted good to her again. Tasted like more, as Cousin Jimmy said. She could have a chance to write more letter balls and poetry. Emily already saw a yard of verses entitled,
Starting point is 05:09:26 thoughts of one doomed to sudden death, and play with Ilsa and Teddy, scour the bombs with saucy cell, watch Aunt Laura skim cream in the dairy, and help Cousin Jimmy Garden, read books in Emily's bower, and trot along the Today Road, but not visit Lofty John's workshop. She determined that she would never have anything to do with Lofty John again after. after his diabolical cruelty she felt so indignant with him for frightening her after there had been such good friends too that she could not go to sleep until she had composed an account of her death by poison of lofty john being tried for her murder and condemned to death and of his being hanged on a gibbet as lofty as himself emily being present at the dreadful scene in spite of the fact that she was dead by his act when she had finally cut him down and buried him with obloquy, the tears streaming down her face out of sympathy for Mrs. Lofty John, she forgave him. Very likely he was not dodgasted after all.
Starting point is 05:10:31 She wrote it all down on a letter bill in the garret the next day. End of Section 15. Recording by Leanne Fortune. Section 16 of Emily of New Moon by Lucy M. Montgomery. This Libre Fox recording is in the public domain. recording by leanne fortune section sixteen in october cousin jemmy began to boil the pig's potatoes unromantic name for a most romantic occupation also it appeared to emily whose love of the beautiful and picturesque was satisfied as it had never yet been on those long cool starry twilights of the waning year at new moon there was a clump of spruce trees in a corner of the old orchard and under them an immense iron pot was hung over a circle of large stones a pot so big that an ox could have been comfortably stewed in it
Starting point is 05:11:40 emily thought it must have come down from the days of fairy tales and been some giant's porridge pot but cousin jimmy told her that it was only a hundred years old and old hugh murray had had it sent it out from England. We've used it ever since to boil the potatoes for the New Moon pigs, he said. Blair water folks think it all fashioned. They've all got boiler houses now with built-in boilers, but as long as Elizabeth's boss at New Moon, we'll use this. Emily was sure no built-in boiler could have the charm of the big pot. She held cousin Jimmy fillet full of potatoes after she came from
Starting point is 05:12:24 school. Then, when supper was over, cousin Jomey lighted the fire under it and patted about it all the evening. Sometimes he poked the fire. Emily loved that part of the performance, sending glorious streams of rosy sparks upward into the darkness. Sometimes he stirred the potatoes with a long pole, looking with his queer, forked gray beard and belted jumper, just like some old gnome or troll of Northland's dory, mixing the contents of a magical cauldron, and sometimes he sat beside Emily on the grey granite boulder near the pot, and recited his poetry for her. Emily liked this best of all, for Cousin Jimmy's poetry was surprisingly good, at least in spots, and Cousin Jimmy had fit audience, though few, in the slender little maiden with her pale, eager,
Starting point is 05:13:24 face and rapt eyes. They were an odd couple, and they were perfectly happy together. Blair Water people thought cousin Jimmy of failure and a mental weakling, but he dwelt in an ideal world of which none of them knew anything. He had recited his poems a hundred times thus, as he boiled the pigs' potatoes. The ghosts of a score of autums haunted the clump of spruces for him. was an odd ridiculous figure enough bent and wrinkled and unkempt gesticulating awkwardly as he recited but it was his hour he was no longer simple jimmy murray but a prince in his own realm for a little while he was strong and young and splendid and beautiful accredited master of song to a listening enraptured world none of his prosperous sensible play-water neighbours ever lived through such an hour,
Starting point is 05:14:26 he would not have exchanged places with one of them. Emily, listening to him, felt vaguely that if it had not been for that unlucky push into the New Moon well, this queer little man beside her might have stood in the presence of kings. But Elizabeth had pushed him into the New Moon well, and as a consequence he boiled pig's potatoes and recited to Emily. Emily, who wrote poetry too, and loved these evenings so much that she could not sleep after she went to bed until she had composed a minute description of them. The flash came almost every evening over something or other.
Starting point is 05:15:07 The wind woman swooped or purred in the tossing boughs above them. Emily had never been so near to seeing her. The sharp air was full of the pleasant hang of the burning spruce cones cousin Jimmy shoveled under. the pot. Emily's furry kitten, Mike the second, frisked and scampered about like a small, charming demon of the night. The fire glowed with beautiful redness and allure through the gloom. There were nice whispery sounds everywhere. The great big dark lay spread around them full of mysteries that daylight never revealed, and overall the purple sky powdered with stars. Ilsa and Teddy came too on some evenings.
Starting point is 05:15:52 Emily always knew when Teddy was coming, for when he reached the old orchard he whistled his call, the one he used just for her, a funny dear little call, like three clear bird notes, the first just medium pitch, the second higher, the third dropping away into lowness and sweetness long drawn out,
Starting point is 05:16:13 like the echoes in the bugle song, that went clearer and further, in their dying. That call always had an odd effect on Emily. It seemed to her that it fairly drew the heart out of her body, and she had to follow it. She thought Teddy could have whistled her clear across the world with those three magic notes. Whenever she heard it, she ran quickly through the orchard and told Teddy whether Cousin Jimmy wanted him or not, because it was only on certain nights that Cousin Jimmy wanted anybody but her. He would never recite his poetry to Ilsa or Teddy, but he told them fairy stories and tales about the old dead and gone Murray's in the pond graveyard
Starting point is 05:16:58 that were as queer sometimes as the fairy stories. And Ilsa would recite too, doing better there than she ever did anywhere else. And sometimes Teddy lay sprawled out on the ground beside the big pot and drew pictures by the light of the fire. Pictures of Cousin'Gimmies stirring the potatoes. Pictures of Ilsa and Emily dancing, hand in hand around it like two small witches. Pictures of Mike's cunning little whiskered face peering around the old boulder.
Starting point is 05:17:31 Pictures of weird, vague faces crowding in the darkness outside their enchanted circle. They had very wonderful evenings there, those four children. Oh, don't you like that? the world at night, Ilsa? Emily once said rapturously. Ilsa glanced happily around her, poor little neglected Ilsa,
Starting point is 05:17:52 who found in Emily's companionship what she had hungered for all her short life, and who was, even now, being led by love into something of her rightful heritage. Yes, he said, and I always believe there is a God when I'm here like this. Then the potatoes were done, and Cousin Jimmy gave each of them one before he mixed in the bran. They broke them in pieces on plates of birch bark, sprinkled them with salt, which Emily had cached in a small box under the roots of the biggest spruce, and ate them with gusto. No banquet of gods was ever as delicious as those potatoes. Then finally came Aunt Laura's kind, silvery voice calling through the frosty dog.
Starting point is 05:18:44 Ilsa and Teddy scampered homewards, and Emily captured Mike the second, and shut him up safely for the night in the New Moon Dog House, which had held no dog for years, but was still carefully preserved and whitewashed every spring. Emily's heart would have broken if anything had happened to Mike the second. Old Kelly, the tin peddler, had given him to her. Old Kelly had come round through Blairwater every fortnight from May to November for 30 years, perched on the seat of a bright red peddler's wagon, and behind a dusty, ambling red pony of that peculiar gait and appearance pertaining to the ponies of country peddlers,
Starting point is 05:19:26 a certain placid, unhasting leanness, as of a nag that has encountered troubles of, of his own and has lived them down by sheer patience and staying power. From the bright red wagon proceeded a certain metallic rumbling and clinking as it bowled along and two huge nests of tin pans on its flat, rope-en-circled roof flashed back the sunlight, so dazzlingly that old Kelly seemed the beaming sun of a little planetary system all his own. A new broom, sticking up aggressively at each of the four corners, gave the wagon a resemblance to a triumphal chariot. Emily hankered secretly for a ride in Old Kelly's wagon. She thought it must be very delightful. Old Kelly and she were great friends. She liked his red, clean-shaven face under his plug hat, his nice twinkly blue eyes,
Starting point is 05:20:22 his brush of upstanding sandy hair and his comical pursed-up mouth, the shape of which was partly due to nature and partly too much whistling. He always had a little three-cornered paper bag of lemon drops for her, or a candy stick of many colours which he smuggled into her pocket when Aunt Elizabeth wasn't looking, and he never forgot to tell her that he supposed she'd soon be thinking of getting married for old Kelly thought that the surest way to please a female creature of any age was to tease her about getting married. One day instead of candy, he produced a plump grey kitten from the back jaw of his wagon and told her it was for her.
Starting point is 05:21:08 Emily received the gift rapturously, but after Old Kelly had rattled and clattered away, Aunt Elizabeth told her they did not want any more cats at New Moon. "'Oh, please let me keep it, Aunt Elizabeth,' Emily begged. "'It won't be a bit of bother to you. "'I have had experience in bringing up cats, "'and I'm so lonesome for a kitten. "'Sauce's cell is getting so wild running with the barn cats "'that I can't associate with her like I used to do, "'and she never was nice to cuddle.
Starting point is 05:21:45 "'Please, Aunt Elizabeth.' "'Aunt Elizabeth would not, and did not please. She was in a very bad humour that day, anyhow. Nobody knew just why. In such a mood, she was entirely unreasonable. She would not listen to anybody. Laura and Cousin Jimmy had to hold their tongues, and Cousin Jimmy was bidden to take the grey kitten down to the Blairwater and drown it. Emily burst into tears over this cruel command, and this aggravated Aunt Elizabeth still further. She was so cross that Cousin Jimmy dared not smuggle the kitten up to the barn as he had at first planned to do. Take that beast down to the pond and throw it in and come back and tell me
Starting point is 05:22:29 you've done it, said Elizabeth angrily. I mean to be obeyed, New Moon is not going to be made a dumping ground for old Jock Kelly's superfluous cats. Cousin Jimmy did as he was told and Emily would not eat any dinner. After dinner, she stole mournfully away through the old orchard down the pasture to the pond. Just why she went, she could not have told, but she felt that go she must. When she reached the bank of the little creek, where Lofty Johnsbrook ran into Blair Water, she heard piteous shrieks, and there marooned on a tiny islet of sear-marsh grass in the creek, was an unhappy little beast. Its soaking fur plastered against its sides,
Starting point is 05:23:16 shivering and trembling in the wind of the sharp autumnal day. The old oat bag in which cousin Jimmy had imprisoned it was floating out into the pond. Emily did not stop to think, or look for a board, or count the consequences. She plunged in the creek up to her knees, she waded out to the clump of grass, and caught the kitten up.
Starting point is 05:23:38 she was so hot with indignation that she did not feel the cold of the water or the chill of the wind as she ran back to new moon a suffering or tortured animal always filled her with such a surge of sympathy that had lifted her clean out of herself she burst into the cook-house where aunt elizabeth was frying doughnuts aunt elizabeth she cried the kitten wasn't drowned after all and i am going to keep it you're not said aunt elizabeth emily looked her aunt in the face again she felt that odd sensation that had come when aunt elizabeth brought the scissors to cut her hair aunt elizabeth this poor little kitten is cold and starving and oh so miserable it has been suffering for hours it shall not be drowned again archibald murray's look was on her face and archibald murray's tone was in her voice This happened only when the deeps of her being were stirred by some peculiarly poignant emotion. Just now she was in an agony of pity and anger. When Elizabeth Murray saw her father looking at her out of Emily's little white face, she surrendered without a struggle,
Starting point is 05:24:56 rage at herself as she might afterwards for her weakness. It was her one vulnerable point. The thing might not have been so uncanny if Emily had, resembled the Murray's, but to see the Murray look, suddenly superimposed like a mask over alien features, was such a shock to her nerves that she could not stand up against it. A ghost from the grave could not have cowed her more speedily. She turned her back on Emily in silence, but Emily knew that she had won her second victory. The grey kitten stayed at New Moon and waxed fat and lovable, and Aunt Elizabeth never took the slid. lightest notice of its existence, save to sweep it out of the house when Emily was not about. But it was weeks before Emily was really forgiven, and she felt uncomfortable enough over it. Aunt Elizabeth could be a not ungenerous conqueror, but she was very disagreeable in defeat. It was really just as well that Emily could not summon the Murray look at will.
Starting point is 05:26:02 End of Section 16, recording by Leanne Fortune. Section 17 of Emily of New Moon by Lucy M. Montgomery. This Librivox recording is in the public domain. Recording by Leanne Fortune, Section 17. Emily, obedient to Aunt Elizabeth's command, had eliminated the word bull from her vocabulary, but to ignore the existence of bulls was not to do away with them, and specifically with Mr. James Lee's English. English bull, who inhabited the big windy pasture west of Blairwater and who bore a dreadful reputation.
Starting point is 05:26:52 He was certainly an awesome-looking creature, and Emily sometimes had fearful dreams of being chased by him and being unable to move, and one sharp November day these dreams came true. There was a certain well at the far end of the pasture concerning which Emily felt a curiosity, because cousin Jimmy had told her a dreadful tale about it. The well had been dug 60 years ago by two brothers, who lived in a little house which was built down near the shore. It was a very deep well, which was considered a curious thing in that low-lying land near pond and sea. The brothers had gone 90 feet before they found a spring. Then the sides of the well had been stoned up, but the work never went further. Thomas and Silas Lee had quarreled over some trivial difference of
Starting point is 05:27:43 opinion. As to what kind of a hood should be put over it, and in the heat of his anger, Silas had struck Thomas on the head with his hammer, and killed him. The well-house was never built. Silas Lee was sent to prison for manslaughter, and died there. The farm passed to another brother, Mr. James Lee's father, who moved the house to the other end of it, and planked the well over. Cousin Jimmy added that Tom Lee's ghost was supposed to haunt the scene of his tragic death, but he couldn't vouch for that, though he had written a poem on it. A very eerie poem it was, too, and made Emily's blood run cold with a fearful joy when he recited it to her, one misty night by the big potato pot, ever since she had wanted to see
Starting point is 05:28:30 the old well. Her chance came on Saturday, when she was prowling alone in the old graveyard. Beyond it lay the lee past her, and there was apparently not a sign of a bull in or about it. Emily decided to pay a visit to the old well and went skimming down the field against the sweep of the north wind racing across the Gulf. The wind woman was a giant test that day, and a mighty swirl she was stirring up along the shore. But as Emily drew near the big sand dunes, they made a little harbour of calmness around the old well. Emily coolly clearly lifted up one of the planks, knelt on the others, and peered down. Fortunately, the planks were strong and comparatively new, otherwise the small maiden of New Moon might have explored the well more thoroughly than she desired
Starting point is 05:29:20 to do. As it was, she could see little of it. Huge ferns grew thickly out of the crevices among the stones of its sides, and reached across it, shutting out the view of its gloomy depths. Rather disappointed, Emily replaced the plank and started homeward. She had not gone ten steps before she stopped. Mr. James Lee's bull was coming straight towards her and was less than 20 yards away. The shore fence was not far behind Emily and she might possibly have reached it in time had she run, but she was incapable of running. As she wrote that night in her letter to her father, she was paralysed with terror and could no more move than she could in her dreams of this very occurrence.
Starting point is 05:30:12 It is quite conceivable that a dreadful thing might have happened then and there, had not a certain boy been sitting on the shore fence. He had been sitting there unnoticed all the time Emily had been peering into the well. Now he sprang down. Emily saw or sensed a sturdy bird. body dashing past her. The owner thereof ran to within ten feet of the bull, hurled a stone squarely into the monster's hairy face, then sped off at right angles towards a side fence. The bull, thus insulted, turned with a menacing rumble and lumbered off to this intruder. Run now! screamed the boy, over his shoulder to Emily. Emily did not run, terrified as she was.
Starting point is 05:31:00 there was something in her that would not let her run until she saw whether her gallant rescuer made good his escape. He reached his fence in the neck of time. Then, and not till then, Emily ran too and scrambled over the shore fence just as the bull started back across the pasture, evidently determined to catch somebody. Trembling, she made her way through the spiky grass of the sand hills and met the boy at the corner. they stood and looked at each other for a moment the boy was a stranger to emily he had a cheery impudent clean-cut face with keen grey eyes and plenty of tawny curls he wore as few clothes as decency permitted and had only the pretence of a hat emily liked him there was nothing of teddy's subtle charm in him but he had a certain forceful attraction of his own and he had just said to him-he's subtle charm in him but he had a certain forceful attraction of his own and he had just said to him her from a terrible death thank you said emily looking up at him with great gray eyes that looked blue under her long lashes it was a very effective look which lost nothing of effectiveness from being wholly unconscious
Starting point is 05:32:18 nobody had as yet told emily how very winsome that shy sudden upglance of hers was isn't he a rip snorter said the boy easily he thrust his hands into his ragged pockets and stared at Emily so fixedly that she dropped her eyes in confusion, thereby doing further damage with those demure lids and silken fringes. He's dreadful, she said with a shudder, and I was so scared. Were you now? And me thinking you were full of grit to be standing there like that, looking at him cool as a cucumber. What's it like to be afraid? Won't you ever afraid? Won't you ever asked Emily. No, don't know what it's like, said the boy carelessly and a bit boastfully.
Starting point is 05:33:09 What's your name? Emily, Bird, Star. Live around here? I live at New Moon. Where simple Jimmy Murray lives. He isn't simple, cried Emily indignantly. Oh, all right, I don't know him, but I'm going to. I'm going to hire with him for Chawboy for the winter. I didn't know, said Emily surprised. Are you really?
Starting point is 05:33:35 Yep. I didn't know it myself till just this minute. He was asking Aunt Tom about me last week, but I didn't mean to hire out then. Now I guess I will. Want you know my name? Of course. Perry Miller. I live with my old beast of an Aunt Tom down at Stovepipe Town.
Starting point is 05:33:55 Dad was a sea captain, and I used to sail with him when he was alive. sailed everywhere. Go to school? Yes. I don't, never did. Aunt Tom lives so far away. Anyhow, I didn't think I'd like it. Guess I'll go now, though. Can't you read? asked Emily wonderingly. Yes, some, and figure. Dad learned me some when he was alive. I ain't bothered with it since. I'd rather be down round the harbour. Great fun there. But if I make up my mind to go to school, I'll learn like. thunder. I suppose you're awful clever. No, not very. Bother said I was a genius, but Aunt Elizabeth says I'm just queer. What's a genius? I'm not sure. Sometimes it's a person who writes poetry. I write poetry. Perry stared at her. Golly. I'll write poetry too then. I don't believe you could write poetry, said Emily, a little disdainfully. It must be admitted. Teddy can't, and he is very clever. Who is Teddy?
Starting point is 05:35:05 A friend of mine. There was just a trace of stiffness in Emily's voice. Then, said Perry, folding his arms across his breast and scowling, I'm going to punch this friend of yours head for him. You're not, cried Emily. She was very indignant and quite forgot for the moment that Perry had rescued her from the bull. she tossed her own head and started homeward perry turned two mayors will go up and see jimmy murray about hiring for i go home he said don't be mad now if you don't want anybody's head punched i won't punch it only you've got to like me too "'Why, of course I'll like you,' said Emily, as if there could be no question about it.
Starting point is 05:35:54 She smiled her slow, blossoming smile at Perry, and thereby reduced him to hopeless bondage. Two days later, Perry Miller was installed as Chawboy at New Moon, and in a fortnight's time, Emily felt as if he must have been there always. Aunt Elizabeth didn't want Cousin Jimmy to hire him, she wrote to her father, because he was one of the boys who did a dreadful thing one night last fall, they changed all the horses that were tied to the fence one Sunday night when preaching was going on, and when folks came out the confusion was awful.
Starting point is 05:36:31 Aunt Elizabeth said it wouldn't be safe to have him round the place, but Cousin Jimmy said it was awful hard to get a chore boy, and that we owed Perry something for saving my life from the bull. So Aunt Elizabeth gave in and lets him sit at the table with us. but he has to stay in the kitchen in the evenings. The rest of us are in the sitting room, but I am allowed to go out and help Perry with his lessons. He can only have one candle, and the light is very dim.
Starting point is 05:37:00 It keeps us snuffing it all the time. It is great fun to snuff candles. Perry is head of his class in school already. He is only in the third book, although he is nearly 12. Miss Brownell said something sarcastic to him the first day in school, and he just threw back his head and laughed loud and long. Miss Brownell gave him a whipping for it, but she has never been sarcastic to him again.
Starting point is 05:37:26 She does not like to be laughed at, I can see. Perry isn't afraid of anything. I thought he might not go to school anymore when she whipped him, but he says a little thing like that isn't going to keep him from getting an education since he has made up his mind to it. He is very determined. Aunt Elizabeth is determined too, but she says Perry is stubborn. I'm teaching Perry grammar.
Starting point is 05:37:52 He says he wants to learn to speak properly. I told him he should not call his Aunt Tom an old beast, but he said he had to because she wasn't a young beast. He says the place he lives in is called Sturfpipe Town, because the houses have no chimneys, only pipe sticking out of the roof, but he would live in a mansion someday. Aunt Elizabeth says I ought not to be so friendly with a hired boy. But he is a nice boy, though his manners are crude.
Starting point is 05:38:21 Aunt Laura says they are crude. I don't know what it means, but I guess it means he always says what he thinks right out, then eats beans with his knife. I like Perry, but in a different way from Teddy. Isn't it funny, dear father, how many kinds of ways of liking there are? I don't think Ilsa likes him. She makes fun of his ignorance and turns up her nose at him because his clothes are patched, though her own clothes are queer enough.
Starting point is 05:38:49 Teddy doesn't like him much and he drew such a funny picture of Perry hanging by his hills from the gallows. The face looked like Perry's and still it didn't. Cousin Jimmy said it was a caricature and laughed at it, but I dared not show it to Perry for fear he would punch Teddy's head. I showed it to Elsa and she got mad. and tore it in two. I can't imagine why. Perry says he can recite as well as Ilsa and could draw pictures too, if he put his mind to it. I can see he doesn't like to think anybody can do anything
Starting point is 05:39:24 he can't, but he can't see the wallpaper in the air like I can, though he tries until I fear he will strain his eyes. He can make better speeches than any of us. He says he used to mean to be a sailor like his father, but now he thinks he will be a lawyer when he grows like and go to parliament teddy is going to be an artist if his mother will eat him and he also is going to be a concert reciter there is another name that i don't know how it is spelled and i am going to be a poetess i think we are a talented crowd perhaps that is a vain thing to say dear father A very terrible thing happened the day before yesterday. On Saturday morning we were at family prayers, all kneeling quite solemn around the kitchen. I just looked at Perry once, and he made such a funny face at me that I laughed right out loud before I could help it. That was not the terrible thing.
Starting point is 05:40:20 Aunt Elizabeth was very angry. I would not tell that it was Perry, who made me laugh, because I was afraid he might be sent away if I did. So Aunt Elizabeth said I was to be punished And I was not let go to Jenny Strang's party in the afternoon It was a dreadful disappointment But it was not the terrible thing either Perry was away with cousin Jimmy all day And when he came home at night he said to me
Starting point is 05:40:48 Very fierce Who has been making you cry I said I had been crying a little but not much Because I was not let go to the party Because I had laughed at prayers and Perry marched right up to Aunt Elizabeth and told her it was all his fault that I laughed. Aunt Elizabeth said I should not have laughed anyhow,
Starting point is 05:41:10 but Aunt Laura was grievously upset and said my punishment had been far too severe and she said that she would let me wear her pearl ring to school Monday to make up for it. I was enraptured for it is a lovely ring and no other girl has one. As soon as roll call was over Monday morning, I put up my hand to ask Miss Brownell a question, but really to show off my ring.
Starting point is 05:41:38 That was wicked pride, and I was punished. At recess, Cora Lee, one of the big girls in the sixth class, came and asked me to let her wear the ring for a while. I didn't want to, but she said if I didn't, she would get all the girls in my class to send me to Coventry, which is a dreadful thing, dear father, and makes you feel like an outcast. So I let her, and she kept it on till the afternoon recess, and then she came and told me she had lost it in the brook. This was the terrible thing. Oh, father dear, I was nearly wild. I dared not go home and face Aunt Laura. I had promised her I would be so careful.
Starting point is 05:42:26 of the ring. I thought I might earn money to get her another ring, but when I figured it out on my slate, I knew I would have to wash dishes for twenty years to do it. I wept in my despair. Perry saw me and after school he marched up to Cora Lee and said, You fork over that ring or I'll tell Miss Brownell about it. And Cora Lee forked it over, very meek, and said I was going to give it to her. anyhow, I was just playing a joke, and Perry said, Don't you play any more jokes on Emily, or I'll joke you. It is very comforting to have such a champion. I trembled to think what it would have been like
Starting point is 05:43:10 if I had had had to go home until Aunt Laura I had lost her ring. But it was cruel of Coralie to tell me she had lost it when she had not, and harrow up my mind so. I could not be so cruel to an orphan girl. When I got home I looked in the glass to see if my hair had turned white, I'm told that sometimes happens, but it hadn't. Perry knows more geography than any of us because he has been nearly everywhere in the world with his father. He tells me such fascinating stories after his lessons are done. He talks till the candle is burned to the last inch, and then he uses that to go to bed with up the black hole into the kitchen loft,
Starting point is 05:43:52 because Aunt Elizabeth will not let him have more than one candle a night. Ilsa and I had a fight yesterday about which we'd rather be Joan of Arc or Francis Willard. We didn't begin it as a fight, but just as an argument, but it ended that way. I would rather be Francis Willard because she is alive. We had the first snow yesterday. I made a poem on it. This is it. Along the snow The sunbeams glide
Starting point is 05:44:21 Earth is a peerless gleaming bride Tripping with diamonds Clad in trailing white No bride was ever half so fair And bright I read it to Perry And he said he could make poetry Just as good and he said right off
Starting point is 05:44:36 Mike has made a long row of tracks Across the snow Now isn't that as good as yours I didn't think it was Because you could say it just as well in prose. But when you talk of peerless gleaming brides in prose, it sounds funny. Mike did make a row of little tracks right across the barnfield, and they looked so pretty, but not so pretty as the mice tracks in some flower. Cousin Jimmy spilled on the granary floor. They are the dearest little things.
Starting point is 05:45:07 They look like poetry. I'm sorry winter has come because I'll say and I can't play in our house in Lofty John's bush anymore till spring, or outside at the Tanzi Patch. Sometimes we play indoors at the Tanzy Patch, but Mrs Kent makes us feel queer. She sits and watches us all the time,
Starting point is 05:45:27 so we don't go, only when Teddy coaxes very hard, and the pigs have been killed, poor things, so Cousin Jimmy doesn't boil for them anymore. But there is one consolation I do not have to wear a sunbonnet to school now. Aunt Laura
Starting point is 05:45:43 made me such a pretty red hood with ribbons on it, at which Aunt Elizabeth looked scornfully, saying it was extravagant. I like school here better every day, but I can't like Miss Brownell. She isn't fair. She told us she would give the one who wrote the best composition of pink ribbon to wear from Friday night to Monday. I wrote the Brook story above the Brookend lofty John's Bush, all its adventures and thoughts, and Miss Brownell said I must have copied it, and wrote a Stuart got the ribbon. Aunt Elizabeth said, You waste enough time writing trash.
Starting point is 05:46:19 I think you might have won that ribbon. She was mortified, I think, because I had disgraced New Moon by not getting it, but I did not tell her what had happened. Teddy says a good sport never winds over losing. I want to be a good sport. Rhoda is so hateful to me now. She says she is surprised that a New Moon girl
Starting point is 05:46:40 should have a hired boy for a bow. that is very silly because Perry is not my beau. Perry told her she had more gab than sense. That was not polite, but it is true. One day in class, Rhoda said the moon was situated east of Canada. Perry laughed right out, and Miss Brownell made him stay in at recess, but she never said anything to Rhoda for saying such a ridiculous thing. But the meanest thing Rhoda said was that she had forgiven me for the way I had used her.
Starting point is 05:47:12 That made my blood boil when I hadn't done anything to be forgiven for. The idea! We have begun to eat the big beef ham that hung in the southwest corner of the kitchen. The other Wednesday night, Perry and I helped Cousin Jimmy Picker Road through the turnips in the first cellar. We have to go through it to the second cellar because the outside hatch is banked up now. It was great fun. We had a candle stuck up in a hole in the wall, and it made such lovely, shadows, and we could eat all the apples we wanted from the big barrel in the corner, and the
Starting point is 05:47:47 spirit moved Cousin Jimmy to recite some of his poetry as he threw the turnips. I'm reading the Alambra. It belongs to our bookcase. Aunt Elizabeth does not like to say it isn't fit for me to read, because it was one of her father's books, but I don't believe she approves because she knits very furiously and looks black at me over her glasses. Teddy lent me Hans Anderson's story. Teddy lent me Hunts Anderson stories. I love them. Only, I always think of a different end for the ice maiden and save Rudy. They're same as John Killigrew has swallowed her wedding ring. I wonder what she did that for. Cousin Jimmy says there is to be an eclipse of the sun in December. I hope it won't interfere with Christmas. My hands are chapped. Aunt Laura rubs mutton tallow on them every
Starting point is 05:48:35 night when I go to bed. It is hard to write poetry with chapped hands. I wonder if Mrs. Heemans ever had chapped hands. It does not mention anything like that in her biography. Jimmy Ball has to be a minister when he grows up. His mother told Aunt Laura that she consecrated him to it in his cradle. I wonder how she did it. We have breakfast by candlelight now and I like it. Ilsa was up here Sunday afternoon and we went up here. up in the garret and talked about God because that is proper on Sundays. We have to be very careful what we do on Sundays. It is a tradition of New Moon to keep Sundays very holy. Grandfather Murray was very strict. Cousin Jimmy told me a story about him. They always cut the wood for
Starting point is 05:49:24 Sunday on Saturday night, but one time they forgot, and there was no wood on Sunday to cook the dinner, so Grandfather Murray said, you must not cut wood on Sundays, boys, but just break a little with the back of the axe. Ilsa is very curious about God, although she doesn't believe in him most of the time, and doesn't like to talk about him, but still wants to find out about him. She says she thinks she might like him,
Starting point is 05:49:51 if she knew him. She spells his name with a capital G now, because it is best to be on the safe side. I think God is just like my flash, only it lasts only a second, and he lasts always. We talked so long with, got hungry and I went down to the sitting room cupboard and got two donuts. I forgot Aunt Elizabeth
Starting point is 05:50:11 had told me I could not have donuts between meals. It was not stealing, it was just forgetting. But Ilsa got mad at the last and said I was a she Jacobite, whatever that is, and a thief, and that no Christian would steal donuts from her poor old aunt. So I went and confessed to Aunt Elizabeth and she said I was not to have a donut at supper. It was hard to see the others eating them. I thought Perry ate his very quick, but after supper he beckoned me outdoors and gave me half his donut which he had kept for me. He had wrapped it in his handkerchief, which was not very clean. But I ate it because I did not want to hurt his feelings. Aunt Laura says Ilsa has a nice smile. I wonder if I have a nice smile. I looked at the glass in Ilsa's Roman's
Starting point is 05:51:02 smiled, but it did not seem to me very nice. Now the nights have got cold, until Elizabeth always puts a gin jar full of hot water in the bed. I like to put my toes against it. That is all we use the gin jar for nowadays, but Grandfather Murray used to keep real gin in it. Now that the snow has come, Cousin Jimmy can't work in his garden anymore,
Starting point is 05:51:26 and he is very lonesome. I think the garden is just as pretty in winter as in summer. There are such pretty dimples and baby hills where the snow has covered up the flower beds, and in the evenings it is all pink and rosy at sunset, and by moonlight it is like dreamland. I like to look out of the sitting-room window at it, and watch the rabbit's candles floating in the air above it, and wonder what all the little roots and seeds are thinking of down under the snow. And it gives me a lovely, creepy feeling to look at it through the red glass in the front door. there is a beautiful fringe of icicles along the cookhouse roof, but there will be much more beautiful things in heaven.
Starting point is 05:52:07 I was reading about Anzaneta today and it made me feel religious. Good night, my dearest of fathers, Emily. P.S. That doesn't mean that I have any other father. It is just a way of saying, very, very dear. E. B.S. End of section 17. by Leanne Fortune. suggesting a rhyme when emily was momentarily stuck for one it may as well be admitted here and now that they had no business whatever to be doing this they should have been doing sums as miss brownell supposed they were
Starting point is 05:53:22 but emily never did sums when she took it into her black head to write poetry and ilsa hated arithmetic on general principles Miss Brownell was hearing the geography class at the other side of the room. The pleasant sunshine was showering in over them through the big window, and everything seemed propitious for a flight with the muses. Emily began to write a poem about the view from the school window. It was quite a long time since she had been allowed to sit out on the side bench. This was a boon reserved for those pupils who had found favour in Miss Brownell's cold, eyes, and Emily had never been one of those.
Starting point is 05:54:06 But this afternoon, Elsa had asked for both herself and Emily, and Miss Brownell had let both go, not being able to think of any valid reason for permitting Ilsa and refusing Emily, as she would have liked to do, for she had one of those petty natures which never forget or forgive any offence. Emily, on her first day of school, had, so Miss Brownell believed, been guilty of impertinence and defiance and successful defiance at that. This rankled in Miss Brownell's mind still, and Emily felt its venom in a score of subtle ways. She never received any commendation. She was a target for Miss Brownall's sarcasm continually,
Starting point is 05:54:50 and the small favours that other girls received never came her way. So this opportunity to sit on the side bench was a pleasing novelty. there were points about sitting on the side bench you could see all over the school without turning your head and miss brownel could not sneak up behind you and look over your shoulder to see what you were up to but in emily's eyes the finest thing about it was that you could look right down into the school bush and watch the old spruces where the wind woman played the long grey-green trails of moss hanging from the branches like banness of elfland, the little red squirrels running along the fence, and the wonderful white aisles of snow where splashes of sunlight fill like pools of golden wine, and there was one little opening in the trees through which you could see right over the Blairwater Valley to the sand hills and the Gulf beyond. Today the sand hills were softly rounded and gleaming white under the snow, but beyond them the Gulf was darkly, deeply, blue, with dazzling white masses of ice like baby icebergs floating about in it.
Starting point is 05:56:07 Just to look at it, thrilled Emily with a delight that was unutterable, but which she yet must try to utter, she began her poem. Fractions were utterly forgotten. What had numerators and denominators to do with those curving bosoms of white snow, that heavenly blue, those crossed dark furtips against the pear-tips against the pear-skies. Those ethereal woodland aisles of pearl and gold, Emily was lost to her world, so last that she did not know the geography class had scattered to their respective seats,
Starting point is 05:56:44 and that Miss Brownall, catching sight of Emily's entranced gay skywoods as she searched for a rhyme, while stepping softly towards her. Ilsa was drawing a picture on her slate, and did not see her, or she would have warned Emily. The latter suddenly felt her slate drawn out of her hand, and heard Miss Brownell saying,
Starting point is 05:57:07 I suppose you have finished those sums, Emily! Emily had not finished even one sum. She had only covered her slate with verses, verses that Miss Brownell must not see, must not see. Emily sprang to her feet and clutched wildly off to her slate. but Miss Brownell, with a smile of malicious enjoyment on her thin lips, held it beyond her reach. What is this? It does not look exactly like fractions. Lines on the view. View from the window of Blairwater School. Really, children, we seem to have a budding poet among us.
Starting point is 05:57:52 The words were harmless enough. But, oh, the hateful sneer that ran through the tone, the contempt, the mockery that was in it, it seared Emily's soul like a whiplash. Nothing was more terrible to her than the thought of having her beloved poems read by stranger eyes, cold, unsympathetic, derisive stranger eyes. Please, please, Miss Brownell, she stammered miserably, don't read it, I'll write it, I'll rub it off. I'll do my sums right away. Only please don't read it. It isn't anything. Miss Brownell laughed cruelly. You are too modest, Emily. It is a whole slateful of
Starting point is 05:58:38 poetry. Think of that children. Poetry. We have a pupil in the school who can write. Poetry. And she does not want us to read this. Poetry. I'm afraid Emily is selfish. I'm sure we should all enjoy this. Poetry. Emily cringed every time Miss Brownell said, poetry, with that jeering emphasis and that hateful pulse
Starting point is 05:59:07 before it. Many of the children giggled, partly because they enjoyed seeing a Murray of New Moon grilled, partly because they realized that Miss Brownall expected them to giggle. Roda Stewart giggle louder than anyone else,
Starting point is 05:59:24 but Jenny's who had tormented Emily on her first day at school, refused to giggle, and scowled blackly at Miss Brownell instead. Miss Brownell held up the slate and read Emily's poem aloud in a sing-song nasal voice with absurd intonations and gestures that made it seem a very ridiculous thing. The lines Emily had thought the finest seemed the most ridiculous. The other pupils laughed more than ever, and Emily felt that the bitterness of the moment could never go out of her heart. The little fancies that had been so beautiful when they came to her, she wrote, were shattered and bruised now, like torn and mangled butterflies. "'Vist is in some fairy dream,' chanted Miss Brownell, shutting her eyes and wagging her head from side to side. the giggles became shouts of laughter oh thought emily clenching her hands i wish i wish the bears that ate the naughty children in the bible would come and eat you
Starting point is 06:00:32 there were no nice retributive bears in the school bush however and miss brownell read the whole poem through she was enjoying herself hugely to ridicule a pupil always gave her pleasure and when that pupil was Emily of New Moon, in whose heart and soul she had always sensed something fundamentally different from her own. The pleasure was exquisite. When she reached the end, she handed the slate back to the crimson-cheeked Emily. Take your poetry, Emily, she said. Emily snatched the slate. No slate rag was handy, but Emily gave the palm of her hand a fierce lick, and one side of the slate was wiped off. Another lick and the rest of the poem went. It had been disgraced, degraded, it must be blotted out of existence. To the end of her life, Emily never forgot the pain and humiliation of that experience. Miss Brownell laughed again. What a pity to obliterate such
Starting point is 06:01:39 poetry, Emily, she said. Suppose you do those sums now. They are not, "'poetry? But I am in the school to teach arithmetic. Then I am not here to teach the art of writing. Poetry. Go to your own seat. Yes, Rhoda?' For Rhoda Stewart was holding up her hand and snapping her fingers. "'Please, Miss Brownell,' she said with a distinct triumph in her turns. Emily Starr has a whole bunch of poetry in her desk.
Starting point is 06:02:12 She was reading it to Elsa Burnley this morning while you thought they were learning history. Perry Miller turned around and a delightful missile compounded of chewed paper and known as a spit-pull flew across the room and struck Rhoda squarely in the face. But Miss Brownell was already at Emily's desk, having reached it one jump before Emily herself. Don't touch them, you have no right, gasped Emily frantically. But Miss Brownwell had the bunch of poetry in her. her hands. She turned and walked up to the platform. Emily followed. Those poems were very dear to her. She had composed them during the various stormy recesses when it had been impossible to play out of doors and written them down on disreputable scraps of paper borrowed from her mates. She had meant to take them home that very evening and copy them on letter balls, and now this horrible woman was going
Starting point is 06:03:13 to read them to the whole jeering giggling. school. But Miss Brownell realized that the time was too short for that. She had to content herself with reading over the titles, with some appropriate comments. Meanwhile, Perry Miller was relieving his feelings by bombarding Rhoda Stewart with spitpulls, so craftily timed, that Rhoda had no idea from what quarter of the room they were coming, and so could not tell on anyone. They greatly interfered with her enjoyment of Emily's scrape, however, as for Teddy Kent, who did not wage war with spitpulls, but preferred subtler methods of revenge. He was busy drawing something on a sheet of paper.
Starting point is 06:03:58 Rhoda found the sheet on her desk the next morning. On it was depicted a small, scrawny monkey, hanging by its tail from a branch, and the face of the monkey was as the face of Roder Stewart. Whereat Rhoda Stewart waxed wrought, but for the sake of her, her own vanity, tore the sketch to tatters and kept silence regarding it. She did not know that Teddy had made a similar sketch, with Miss Brownell figuring as a vampire-ish-looking bat, and thrust it into Emily's hand as they left school. The last diamond, a romantic tale, read Miss Brownell. Lines on a birch tree. Looks to me more like lines on a very dirty piece of paper, Emily. lines written on a sundial in our garden did her lines to my favourite cat another romantic tale i presume
Starting point is 06:04:53 ode to ilsa thy neck is of a wondrous pearly sheen hardly that i should say ilsa's neck is very sunburned a description of our parlour the violet spell i hope the violet spills better than you do emily the disappointed house "'Lillies lifted up white cups for the bees to drink. "'I didn't write it that way,' cried tortured Emily. "'Lines to a piece of brocade in Aunt Laura's bureau draw. "'Farewell on leaving home. "'Lines to a spruce tree. "'It keeps off heat and sun and glare. "'Tis a goodly tree I wean.
Starting point is 06:05:37 "'Are you quite sure that you know what wean means, Emily?' poem on mr tom bennett's field poem on the view from aunt elizabeth's window you are strong on views emily epitaph on a drowned kitten meditations at the tomb of my great-great-grandmother poor lady to my northern birds lions composed on the bank of blaywater gazing at the stars hum hum crusted with uncounted gems though stars so distanced with uncounted gems though stars so distanced and cold and true. Don't try to pass those lines off as your own, Emily. You couldn't have written them. I did, I did. Emily was white with sense of outrage,
Starting point is 06:06:23 and I've written lots far better. Miss Brownall suddenly crumpled the ragged little papers up in her hand. We have wasted enough time over this trash, she said. Go to your seat, Emily. She moved towards the stove for a moment. moment Emily did not realize her purpose. Then, as Miss Brownell opened the stove door, Emily understood and bounded forward, she courted the papers and tool them from Miss Brownell's hand before the latter could tighten her grasp. You shall not burn them, you shall not have them, gasped Emily. She crammed
Starting point is 06:07:03 the palms into the pocket of her baby apron, and faced Miss Brownell in a kind of calm rage. The Murray look was on her face, and although Miss Brownell was not so violently affected by it as Aunt Elizabeth had been, it nevertheless gave her an unpleasant sensation, as of having roused forces with which she dared not tamper further, this tormented child looked quite capable of flying at her, tooth and claw. Give me those papers, Emily. But she said it rather uncertainly. I will not, said Emily's. stormily. They are mine. You have no right to them. I wrote them at recesses. I didn't break any
Starting point is 06:07:46 rules. You—' Emily looked affiantly into Miss Brownell's cold eyes. You are an unjust, tyrannical person. Miss Brownell turned to her desk. I'm coming up to New Moon tonight to tell your aunt Elizabeth of this, she said. Emily was at first too much excited over saving her precious poetry to pay much heed to this threat. But as her excitement ebbed, cold dread flowed in. She knew she had an unpleasant time ahead of her, but at all events they should not get her poems, not one of them, no matter what they did to her. As soon as she got home from school, she flew to the garret and secreted them on the shelf of the old sofa. She wanted terribly to cry, but she would not. Miss Brownell was coming and Miss Brownell should not see her with red eyes, but her heart burned within her.
Starting point is 06:08:46 Some sacred temple of her being had been desecrated and shamed, and more was yet to come, she felt wretchedly sure. Aunt Elizabeth was certain to side with Miss Brownell. Emily shrank from the impending ordeal with all the dread of a sensitive, fine-strung nature facing humiliation. She would not have been afraid of justice, but she knew at the bow of Aunt Elizabeth and Miss Brownall, she would not have justice. And I can't write father about it, she thought, her little breast heaving. The shame of it all was too deep and intimate to be written out, and so she could find no relief for her pain. They did not have supper at New Moon in wintertime until Cousin Jimmy had finished his chores and was ready to stay in for the night, so Emily was,
Starting point is 06:09:38 was left undisturbed in the garret. From the dormer window, she looked down on a dreamland scene that would ordinarily have delighted her. There was a red sunset behind the white distant hills, shining through the dark trees like a great fire. There was a delicate blue trastery of bare-branch shadows all over the crusted garden. There was a pale, ethereal, alpine glow
Starting point is 06:10:05 all over the southeastern sky, and presently there was a little lovely new moon in the silvery arch over lofty john's bush, but Emily found no pleasure in any of them. Presently she saw Miss Brownell coming up the lane, under the white arms of the birches, with her manish stride. If my father was alive, said Emily, looking down at her, you would go away from this place with a flea in your ear. The minutes passed, each seeming very long to Emily.
Starting point is 06:10:39 At last, Aunt Laura came up. Your Aunt Elizabeth wants you to come down to the kitchen, Emily. Aunt Laura's voice was kind and sad. Emily fought down a sob. She hated to have Aunt Laura think she had been naughty, but she could not trust herself to explain. Aunt Laura would sympathise and sympathy would break her down. She went silently down the two long flights of stairs before Aunt Laura and out to the kitchen.
Starting point is 06:11:11 The supper table was set and the candles were lighted. The big black-rafted kitchen looked spookish and weird as it always did by candlelight. Aunt Elizabeth sat rigidly by the table and her face was very hard. Miss Brownell sat in the rocking chair, her pale eyes glittering with triumphant malice. There seemed something baleful and poisonous in her very glance. Also, her nose was very red, which did not add to her charm. Cousin Jimmy in his grey jumper was perched on the edge of the wood box, whistling at the ceiling, and looking more gnome-like than ever.
Starting point is 06:11:52 Perry was nowhere to be seen. Emily was sorry for this. The presence of Perry, who was on her side, would have been a great moral support. I am sorry to say, Emily, that I've been hearing some very bad things about your behaviour in school today, said Aunt Elizabeth. No, I don't think you are sorry, said Emily gravely. Now that the crisis had come, she found herself able to confront it coolly, nay, more, to take a curious interest in it, under all her secret fear and shame, as if some part of her had detached itself from the rest, and was interested in her. absorbing impressions and analyzing motives and describing settings.
Starting point is 06:12:37 She felt that when she wrote about this scene later on, she must not forget to describe the odd shadows the candle under Aunt Elizabeth's nose cast upward on her face, producing a rather skeletonic effect. As for Miss Brownell, could she ever have been a baby? A dimpled, fat-loughing baby? The thing was unbelievable. "'Don't speak impertinently to me,' said Aunt Elizabeth. "'You see?' said Miss Brownall significantly.
Starting point is 06:13:09 "'I don't mean to be impertinent, but you are not sorry,' persisted Emily. "'You are angry because you think I have disgraced New Moon, "'but you are a little glad that you have got someone to agree with you that I am bad.' "'What a grateful child!' said Miss Brownall, flashing her eyes up at the ceiling where they encountered a surprising sight. Perry Miller's head, and no more of him, was stuck down out of the black hole, and on Perry Miller's upside-down face was a most disrespectful and impish grimace. Face and head disappeared in a flash, leaving Miss Brownell staring foolishly at the ceiling.
Starting point is 06:13:53 You have been behaving disgracefully in school, said Auntie M. Elizabeth, who had not seen this by-play. I am ashamed of you. It was not as bad as that, Aunt Elizabeth, said Emily steadily. You see, it was this way. I don't want to hear anything more about it, said Aunt Elizabeth. But you must, cried Emily. It isn't fair to listen only to her side.
Starting point is 06:14:18 I was a little bad, but not so bad as she says. Not another word. I have heard the whole story, said Aunt Elizabeth. grimly. You heard a pack of lies, said Perry, suddenly sticking his head down through the black hole again. Everybody jumped, even on to Elizabeth, who at once became angrier than ever because she had jumped. Perry Miller, come down out of that loft instantly, she commanded. Can't, said Perry laconically.
Starting point is 06:14:52 At once, I say. Can't, repeated Perry, winking audacious. at Miss Brownell. Perry Miller, come down, I will be obeyed, I am mistress here yet. Oh, all right, said Perry cheerfully, if I must. He swung himself down until his toes touched the ladder. Aunt Laura gave a little shriek.
Starting point is 06:15:16 Everybody else seemed to be stricken dumb. I've just got my wet duds off, Perry was saying cheerfully, waving his legs about to get a foothold on the ladder, while he hung to the sides of the black hole with his elbows. Fell into the brook when I was watering the cows. I was going to put on dry ones, but just as you say, Jimmy, implored poor Elizabeth Murray, surrendering at discretion. She could not cope with the situation.
Starting point is 06:15:46 Piri, get back into that loft and get your clothes on this minute, ordered Cousin Jimmy. The bare legs trot up and disappeared. There was a chucked up. as merciful and malicious as an hour's beyond the black hole. Aunt Elizabeth gave a convulsive gasp of relief and turned to Emily. She was determined to regain ascendancy and Emily must be thoroughly humbled. Emily, kneel down here before Miss Brownell and ask her pardon for your conduct today, she said. Into Emily's pale cheek came a scarlet protest. She could not do this. She would
Starting point is 06:16:24 ask pardon of Miss Brownall, but not on her knees. To kneel to this cruel woman who had hurt her so, she could not, would not do it. Her whole nature rose up in protest against such a humiliation. Kneel down, repeated Aunt Elizabeth. Miss Brownell looked pleased and expectant. It would be very satisfying to see this child who had to fight her, kneeling before her as a penitent. Never again, Miss Brownell felt, would Emily be able to look levely at her with those dauntless eyes that bespoke a soul, untamable and free, no matter what punishment might be inflicted upon body or mind? The memory of this moment would always be with Emily. She could never forget that she had knelt in abasement. Emily felt this as clearly as Miss Brownell did, and remained stubbornly on her feet.
Starting point is 06:17:19 On to Elizabeth, please let me tell my side of the story, she pleaded. i have heard all i wish to hear of the matter you will do as i say emily or you will be outcast in this house until you do you no one will talk to you play with you eat with you have anything to do with you until you have obeyed me emily shuddered that was a punishment she could not face to be cut off from her world she knew it would bring her to terms before long she might as well yield at once but oh the bitterness the shame of it "'A human being should not kneel to anyone but God,' said Cousin Jimmy unexpectedly, still staring at the ceiling. A sudden strange change came over Elizabeth Murray's proud, angry face. She stood very still, looking at Cousin Jimmy, stood so long that Miss Brownell made a motion of petulant impatience. "'Emily,' said Aunt Elizabeth in a different tone, I was wrong.
Starting point is 06:18:24 I shall not ask you to Neil. But you must apologise to your teacher, and I shall punish you later on. Emily put her hands behind her and looked straight into Miss Brownell's eyes again. I am sorry for anything I did today that was wrong, she said, and I ask your pardon for it. Miss Brownell got on her feet.
Starting point is 06:18:48 She felt herself cheated of a legitimate triumph. Whatever Emily's punishment would be, she would not have the satisfaction of seeing it. She could have shaken, simple Jimmy Murray with a right good will, but it would hardly do to show all she felt. Elizabeth Murray was not a trustee, but she was the heaviest rate pair in New Moon and had great influence with the school board. I shall excuse your conduct if you behave yourself in future, Emily. She said coldly, that I have only done my duty in putting the matter before your aunt. No, thank you, Miss Murray.
Starting point is 06:19:26 I cannot stay to supper. They want to get home before it is too dark. Godspeed all travellers, said Perry cheerfully, climbing down his ladder, this time with his clothes on. Aunt Elizabeth ignored him. She was not going to have a scene with a hired boy before Miss Brownall. The latter switched herself out, and Aunt Elizabeth looked at Emily. You will eat your supper alone tonight, Emily, in the pantry.
Starting point is 06:19:52 You will have bread and milk only, and you will not speak one word to anyone until tomorrow morning. But you won't forbid me to think, said Emily anxiously. Aunt Elizabeth made no reply, but sat haughtily down at the supper table. Emily went into the pantry and ate her bread and milk, with the odor of the delicious sausages the others were eating for savour. Emily liked sausages, and New Moon sausages were the last word in sausages. Elizabeth Burnley had brought the recipe out from the old country, and its secret was carefully guarded, and Emily was hungry, but she had escaped the unbearable, and things might be worse. It suddenly occurred to her that she would write an epic poem in imitation of The Lay of the Last Minstrel.
Starting point is 06:20:44 Cousin Jimmy had read the lay to her last Saturday. She would begin the first canter right off. When Laura Murray came into the pantry, Emily, her bread and milk only half eaten, was leaning her elbows on the dresser, gazing into space with faintly moving lips and the light that never was on land or sea in her young eyes. Even the aroma of sausages was forgotten,
Starting point is 06:21:11 was she not drinking from a fount of castile emily emily said aunt laura shutting the door and looking very lovingly upon emily out of her kind blue eyes you can talk to me all you want to i don't like miss brownall and i don't think you were altogether in the wrong although of course you shouldn't be writing poetry when you have sums to do and there are some ginger cookies in that box i don't want to talk to any one dear aunt laura i'm too happy said emily i'm composing an epic it is to be called the white lady and i've got twenty lines of it made already and two of them are thrilling the heroine wants to go into a convent and her father warns her that if she does she will never be able to come back to the life you gave with all its pleasures to the grave oh aunt laura when i composed those lines the flash came to me and ginger cookies are nothing to me any more aunt laura smiled again not just now perhaps dear but when the moment of inspiration has passed it will do no harm to remember that the cookies in the box have not been counted and that they are as much mine as elizabeth's end of section eighteen recording by Leanne Fortune. Section 19 of Emily of New Moon by Lucy M. Montgomery.
Starting point is 06:22:52 This Libre Fox recording is in the public domain. Recording by Leanne Fortune, section 19. Dear father, oh, I have such an exciting thing to tell you. I've been the heroine of an adventure. One day last week, Ilsa asked me if I would go and stay all night with her, because her father was away and wouldn't be home till very late and ilsa said she wasn't frightened but very lonesome so i asked aunt elizabeth if i could i hardly dared hope dear father that she would let me for she doesn't approve of little girls being away from home at night but to my surprise she said i could go very kindly and then i heard her say in the pantry to aunt laura it is a shame the way the doctor leaves that poor child so much alone at nights it is wicked of him and aunt laura said the poor man is warped you know he was not a bit like that before his wife and then just as it was getting interesting
Starting point is 06:23:58 Aunt Elizabeth gave Aunt Laura a nudge and said, Shh, little pictures have big ears. I knew she meant me, though my ears are not big, only pointed. I do wish I could find out what Ilsa's mother did. It worries me after I go to bed. I lie awake forever so long, thinking about it. Ilsa has no idea. Once she asked her father and he told her,
Starting point is 06:24:25 in a voice of thunder. never to mention that woman to him again. And there is something else that worries me too. I keep thinking of Silas Lee who killed his brother at the old will. How dreadful the poor man must have felt. And what is it to be walked? I went over to Ilsa's and we played in the garret. I like playing there because we don't have to be careful and tidy like we do in our garret.
Starting point is 06:24:55 Ilsa's garret is very untidy and can't have been dusted four years. The rag room is worse than the rest. It is boarded off at one end of the garret, and it is full of old clothes and bags of rags and broken furniture. I don't like the smell of it. The kitchen chimney goes up through it and things hang round it or dead. For all this is in the past now, dear father. When we got tired playing, we sat down on an old chest and talked. This is splendid
Starting point is 06:25:26 in daytime, I said, but it must be awful queer at night. Mice, said Ilsa, and spiders and ghosts. I don't believe in ghosts, I said scornfully. There isn't any such thing.
Starting point is 06:25:43 But maybe there is for all that, dear father. I believe this garret is haunted, said Ilsa. They say garrets always are. Nonsense, I said. you know dear father it would not do for a new moon person to believe in ghosts but i felt very queer it's easy to talk said ilsa beginning to be mad though i wasn't trying to run down her garret but you wouldn't stay here alone at night i wouldn't mind it a bit i said then i dare you to do it said ilsa i dare you to come up here at bedtime and say-i'll say you to come up here at bedtime and say
Starting point is 06:26:25 sleep here all night. Then I saw I was in an awful scrape, father dear. It is a foolish thing to boast. I knew not what to do. It was dreadful to think of sleeping alone in that garret, but if
Starting point is 06:26:41 I didn't, Ilsa would always cast it up to me whenever we fought, and worse than that, she would tell Teddy, and he would think me a coward. So I said proudly, I'll do it, Ilsa Burnley. and i'm not afraid to either but oh i was inside the mice will run over you said ilsa oh i wouldn't be you for the world it was mean of ilsa to make things worse than they were
Starting point is 06:27:11 but i could feel she admired me too and that helped me a great deal we dragged an old feather bed out of the rag-room and elsa gave me a pillow and half her clothes it was dark by this time and Ilsa wouldn't go up into the garret again. So I said my prayers very carefully, and then I took a lamp and started up. I'm so used to candles now that the lamp made me nervous. Ilsa said I looked scared to death. My niece shook, dear father, but for the honour of the stars and the Murray's too,
Starting point is 06:27:45 I went on. I had undressed in Ilsa's room, so I got right into bed and blew out the lamp. But I couldn't go to sleep for a long time, The moonlight made the garret look weird. I don't know exactly what weird means, but I feel the garret was it. The bags and old clothes hanging from the beams look like creatures. I thought I need not be frightened.
Starting point is 06:28:10 The angels are here, but then I felt as if I would be as much frightened of angels as of anything else. And I could hear rats and mice scrambling over things. I thought what if a rat was to run over? me, and then I thought that next day I would write out a description of the garret by moonlight and my feelings. At last I heard the doctor driving in, and then I heard him knocking round in the kitchen, and I felt better, and before very long I went to sleep, and I dreamed a dreadful dream. I dreamed the door of the rag-room opened, and a big newspaper came out and chased me all
Starting point is 06:28:50 around the garret. And then it went on fire, and I could smell the smoke plain as plain, and it was just on me when I screamed and woke up. I was sitting right up in bed, and the newspaper was gone, but I could smell smoke still. I looked at the ragroom door, and smoke was coming out under it, and I saw firelight through the cracks of the boards. I just yelled at the top of my voice and tore down to Ilsa's room and she rushed across the hall and worked her father. He said, damn! But he got right up and then all three of us kept running up and down the garret stairs with pails of water, and we made an awful mess, but we got the fire out. It was just the bags of wool that had been hanging close to the chimney that had caught fire. When all was over, the doctor wiped the perspiration from his
Starting point is 06:29:49 manly brow and said, that was a close call. A few minutes later would have been too late. I put on a fire when I came in to make a cup of tea, and I suppose those bags must have caught fire from a spark. I see there's a hole here where the plaster has tumbled out. I must have this whole place cleaned out. How in the world did you come to discover the fire, Emily? I was sleeping in the garret, I said. Sleeping in the garret, said the doctor, what in, what the, what were you doing there? Ilsa dared me, I said. She said I'd be too scared to stay there and I said I wouldn't.
Starting point is 06:30:32 I fell asleep and woke up and smelled smoke, you little devil, said the doctor. I suppose it was a dreadful thing to be called a devil. But the doctor looked at me so admiringly that I felt as if he was paying me a compliment. He has queer ways of talking. Elsa says the only time he ever said a kind thing to her was once when she had a sore throat he called her poor little animal and looked as if he was sorry for her. I feel sure Elsa feels dreadfully bad
Starting point is 06:31:04 because her father doesn't like her though she pretends she does not care. But oh dear father there is more to tell. Yesterday the shrewsbury weekly times came and in the Blair notes it told all about the fire at the doctors and said it had been fortunately discovered in time by Miss Emily Starr. I can't tell you what I felt like when I saw my name in the paper. I felt famous and I never was called Miss in earnest before.
Starting point is 06:31:36 Last Saturday, Aunt Elizabeth and Aunt Laura went to Shrewsbury for the day and left Cousin Jimmy and me to keep house. We had such fun. and cousin jimmy let me skim all the milk pans but after dinner unexpected company came and there was no cake in the house that was a dreadful thing it never happened before in the annals of new moon aunt elizabeth had toothache all day yesterday and aunt laura was away at priest pond visiting great aunt nancy so no cake was made i prayed about it and then i went to work and made a cake by aunt laura his receipt and it turned out her right. Cousin Jimmy helped me set the table and get supper, and I poured the tea and never slopped any over in the sauces. You would have been proud of me, father. Mrs. Lewis took a second piece of cake and said I would know Elizabeth Murray's cake
Starting point is 06:32:33 if I found it in Central Africa. I said not a word for the honour of the family, but I felt very proud. I had saved the Murray's drum disgrace. When on to Elizabeth, came home and heard the tale. She looked grim and tasted a piece that was left, and then she said, Well, you have got some merry in you anyway. That is the first time Aunt Elizabeth has ever praised me. She had three teeth out, so they will not ache anymore. I'm glad for her sake. Before I went to bed, I got the cookbook and picked out all the things I'd like to make, queen pudding, sea-firm sauce, black-eyed Susan's, pigs in blankets. They sound just lovely. I can see such beautiful, fluffy, white clouds over lofty John's bush. I wish I could soar up and drop right into them.
Starting point is 06:33:28 I can't believe they would be wet and messy like Teddy says. Teddy cut my initials and his together on the monarch of the forest, but somebody has cut them out. I don't know whether it was Perry or ill so. Miss Brownell hardly ever gives me good deportment marks now, and Aunt Elizabeth is much displeased on Friday nights, but Aunt Laura understands. I wrote an account of the afternoon when Miss Brownall made fun of my poems, and put it in an old envelope, and wrote Aunt Elizabeth's name on it, and put it among my papers. If I die of consumption, Aunt Elizabeth will find it, and know the rights of it, and mourn that she was so unjust to me. But I don't think I will die because I'm getting much better.
Starting point is 06:34:16 An Elsa told me she heard her father tell Aunt Laura I would be handsome if I had more colour. Is it wrong to want to be handsome, dearest father? Aunt Elizabeth says it is, and when I said to her, Wouldn't you like to be handsome, Aunt Elizabeth? She seemed annoyed about something. Miss Brownell has had a spite at Perry ever since that evening and treats him very mean, but he is meek and says he won't kick up any fuss in school because he wants to learn and get ahead. He keeps saying his rhymes are as good as mine and I know they are not and it exasperates me.
Starting point is 06:34:52 If I do not pay attention all the time in school, Ms. Brunel says, I suppose you are composing. Poetry, Emily, and then everybody laughs. No, not everybody. I must not exaggerate. Teddy and Perry and Elsa and Jenny never laugh. It is funny that I like Jenny so well now and I hated her so that first day in school. Her eyes are not piggy after all. They are small, but they are jolly and twinkly. She is quite popular in school.
Starting point is 06:35:24 I do hate Frank Barker. He took my new reader and wrote in a big, sprawly way all over the front page. Still not this book for fear of shame, for on it is the owner's name. And when you die the Lord will say, where is that book? You stole away. And when you say you do not know, the Lord will say, go down below. That is not a refined poem. And besides, it is not the right way to speak about God.
Starting point is 06:35:56 I tore out the leaf and burned it, and Aunt Elizabeth was angry. and even when I explain why, her wrath was not appeased. Yasser says she is going to call God Allah after this. I think it is a nicer name myself. It is so soft and doesn't sound so stern, but I fear it's not religious enough. May the 20th. Yesterday was my birthday, dear father.
Starting point is 06:36:24 It will soon be a year since I came to New Moon. I feel as if I had always lived here. I have grown two inches. Cousin Jimmy measured me by a mark on the dairy door. My birthday was very nice. Aunt Laura made a lovely cake and gave me a beautiful new white petticoat with an embroidered flounce. She had run a blue ribbon through it,
Starting point is 06:36:52 but Aunt Elizabeth made her pull it out. And Aunt Laura also gave me that piece of pink satin brocade in her bureau drawer. I have longed for it ever since I saw it, but never hoped to possess it. He also asked me what I meant to do with it, but I don't mean to do anything with it. Only keep it up here in the garret with my treasures, and look at it, because it is beautiful. Auntie Elizabeth gave me a dictionary. That was a useful present. I feel I ought to like it. You will soon notice an improvement in my spelling, I hope. The only trouble is, when I'm writing something interesting, I get so excited it is just awful to have to stop and hunt up a word to see how it is spelled.
Starting point is 06:37:39 I looked up wean in it, and Miss Brownall was right. I did not know what it really meant. They rhymed so well with Sheen, and I thought it meant to behold or see, but it means to think. Cousin Jimmy gave me a big, thick, blank book. I am so proud of it. It will be so, nice to write pieces in, but I will still use the letterables to write to you, dear father, because I can fold each one up by itself and address it like a real letter. Teddy gave me a picture of myself. He painted it in watercolours and called it the smiling girl. I look as if I was listening to something that made me very happy. Elsa says it flatters me. It does make me better looking than I am, but not
Starting point is 06:38:28 any better looking than I would be if I could have a bang. Teddy says he is going to paint a real big picture of me when he grows up. Perry walked all the way to Shrewsbury to get me a necklace of pearl beads and lost it. He had no more money, so he went home to stovepipe town and got a young hen from his aunt Tom and gave me that. He is a very persistent boy. I am to have all the eggs the hen layers to sell the pedlar for myself. Ilsa gave me a box of candy. I'm only going to eat one piece a day to make it last a long time. I wanted Elsa to eat some, but she said she wouldn't, because it would be mean to help eat a present you had given, and I insisted, and then we fought over it, and Elsa said, I was a cater-walling quadruped, which was ridiculous, and didn't know enough to come in when it rained.
Starting point is 06:39:26 and i said i knew enough to have some manners at least ilsa got so mad she went home but she cooled off soon and came back for supper it is raining to-night and it sounds like fairy's feet dancing over the garret roof if it had not rain teddy was going to come down and help me look for the last diamond wouldn't it be splendid if we could find it cousin jimmy is fixing up the garden he lets me help him and i have a little flower bed of my own. I always run out first thing every morning to see how much the things have grown since yesterday. Spring is such a happy frying time, isn't it, father? The little blue people are all out round the summer house. That is what Cousin Jimmy calls the violets, and I think it is lovely. He has names like that for all the flowers. The roses are the queens, and the June lilies are the snow ladies, and the tulips are the gay folk, and the daffodils are the golden ones, and the china asters are my pink friends. Mike the second is here with me, sitting on the windowsill.
Starting point is 06:40:38 Mike is a Smee cat. Smee is not in the dictionary. It is a word I invented myself. I could not think of any English word which just describes Mike's second, so I made this up. It means sleek and glossy and soft and fluffy, all in one, and something else besides that I can't express. Aunt Laura is teaching me to sew. She says I must learn to make a hem on muslin that can't be seen tradition. I hope she will teach me how to make pointless someday. All the murrays of New Moon have been noted for making pointless. I mean all the women marries. None of the girls in school can make point lace. Aunt Laura says she will make me a point lace handkerchief when I get married. All the New Moon brides had pointless handkerchiefs, except my mother who ran away. But you didn't
Starting point is 06:41:35 mind her not having one, did you, father? Aunt Laura talks a good bit about my mother to me, but not when Aunt Elizabeth is around. Aunt Elizabeth never mentions her name. Aunt Laura wants to show me mother's room, but she has never been able to find the key yet because Aunt Elizabeth keeps her head. Aunt Laura says Aunt Elizabeth loved my mother very much. You would think she would love her daughter some, wouldn't you? But she doesn't. She is just bringing me up as a duty. June the 1st.
Starting point is 06:42:10 Dear Father, this has been a very important day. I wrote my first letter. I mean the first letter that was really to go in the mail. It was to great Aunt Nancy, who lives at Priest Pond and is very old. She wrote Aunt Elizabeth and said, I might write now and then to a rural woman. My heart was touched, and I wanted to. Aunt Elizabeth said, we might as well let her.
Starting point is 06:42:39 And she said to me, you must be careful to write a nice letter, and I will read it over when it is written. If you make a good impression on Aunt Nancy, she may do something for you. I wrote the letter very carefully, but it didn't sound a bit like me when it was finished. I couldn't write a good letter when I knew Aunt Elizabeth was going to read it. I felt paralysed. June 7th. Dear Father, my letter did not make a good impression on great Aunt Nancy.
Starting point is 06:43:10 She did not answer it, but she wrote Aunt Elizabeth that I must be a very very good impression. his stupid child to write such a stupid letter. I felt insulted because I'm not stupid. Perry says he feels like going to priest pond and knocking the daylights out of great Aunt Nancy. I told him him he must not talk like that about my family. And anyhow, I don't see how knocking the daylights out of great Aunt Nancy would make her change her opinion about me being stupid. I wonder what daylights are. and how you knock them out of people i have three cantos of the white lady finished i have the heroine immured in a convent and i don't know how to get her out because i am not a catholic
Starting point is 06:43:56 i suppose it would have been better if i had a protestant heroine but there were no protestants in the days of chivalry i might have asked love to john last year but this year i can't because i've never spoken to him since he played that horrid joke on me about the apple when i met him on the road i look straight ahead just as lofty as he does i have called my pig after him to get square cousin jimmy has given me a little pig for my own when it is sold i am to have the money i mean to give some for missionaries and put the rest in the bank to go to my education and i thought if i ever had a pig i would call it uncle wallace but now it does not seem to me proper to call to call pigs after your uncles, even if you don't like them. Teddy and Perry and Elsa and I play we are living in the days of chivalry, and Elsa and I are distressed damsels rescued by gallant knights. Teddy made a splendid suit of armour out of old barrel staves, and then Perry made a better one out of old tin boilers hammered flat, with a broken saucepan for a helmet. Sometimes we play at the Tansy Patch. I have a queer feeling that Teddy's mother hates me this summer. Last summer she just
Starting point is 06:45:17 didn't like me. Smoke and buttercup are not there now. They disappeared mysteriously in the winter. Teddy says he feels sure his mother poisoned them because she thought he was getting too fond of them. Teddy is teaching me to whistle, but Aunt Laura says it is unladylike. So many jolly things seem to to be unladylike. Sometimes I almost wish my aunts were infidels like Dr. Burnley. He never bothers whether Ilsa is unladie-like or not. But no, it would not be good manners to be an infidel. It would not be a New Moon tradition. Today I taught Perry that he must not eat with his knife. He wants to learn all the rules of etiquette. And I am helping him learn a recitation for school examination day.
Starting point is 06:46:10 I wanted Ilsa to do it, but she was mad because he asked me first and she wouldn't. But she should, because she is a far better reciter than I am. I am too nervous. June the 14th. Dear father, we have composition in school now. And I learned today that you put in things like this, quotation marks, when you write anything anybody has said. I didn't know that before. I must go over all my letters to you and put them in.
Starting point is 06:46:44 And after a question, you must put a mark like this. Question mark. And when a letter is left out, apostrophe, which is a comma up in the air, this brownel is sarcastic, but she does teach you things. I'm putting that down because I want to be fair, even if I do hate her. And she is interesting, although she is not nice. I've written a description of her on a letter-ball. I like writing about people I don't like,
Starting point is 06:47:13 better than about those I do like. Aunt Laura is nicer to live with than Aunt Elizabeth, but Aunt Elizabeth is nicer to write about. I can describe her faults, but I feel wicked and ungrateful if I say anything that is not complimentary about dear Aunt Laura. Aunt Elizabeth has locked your books away and says,
Starting point is 06:47:35 I'm not to have them till I'm grown up. Just as if I wouldn't be careful of them, dear father. She says I wouldn't because she found that when I was reading one of them. I put a tiny pencil dot under every beautiful word. They didn't hurt the book a bit, dear father. Some of the words were dingles, pearled, musk, dappled, intervails, glen, bosky, piping, shimmer, crisp, beechon, ivory.
Starting point is 06:48:04 I think those are all lovely words, father. Aunt Laura lets me read her copy of a pilgrim's progress on Sundays. I called a big hill in the road to White Cross the delectable mountain, because it is such a beautiful one. Teddy lent me three books of poetry. One of them was Tennyson, and I have learnt the bugle song Of My Heart, so I will always have it. One was Mrs. Browning.
Starting point is 06:48:32 She is lovely. I would like to meet her. I suppose I will when I die, but that may be a long time away. The other was just one poem called Sorob and Rustam. After I went to bed, I cried over it. Aunt Elizabeth said, What are you sniffling about? I wasn't sniffling. I was weeping, sore. She made me tell her, and then she said,
Starting point is 06:48:55 You must be crazy. But I couldn't go to sleep until I had thought out a different end for it, a happy one. June the 25th. Dear Father, there has been a dark shadow over this day. I dropped my saint in church. It made a dreadful noise. I felt as if everybody looked at me. Aunt Elizabeth was much annoyed.
Starting point is 06:49:19 Perry dropped his two soon after. He told me after church he did it on purpose because he thought it would make me feel better. But it didn't, because I was afraid the people would think it was me dropping mine again. boys do such queer things. I hope the minister did not hear because I'm beginning to like him. I never liked him much before last Tuesday. His family are all boys and I suppose he doesn't understand little girls very well.
Starting point is 06:49:49 Then he called it New Moon. Aunt Laura and Aunt Elizabeth were both away and I was in the kitchen alone. Mr. Dare came in and sat down on Salcy Cell, who was asleep in the rocking chair. He was comfortable, but saucy cell wasn't. He didn't sit on her stomach. If he had, I suppose he would have killed her. He just sat on her legs and tail.
Starting point is 06:50:15 Sal yelled, but Mr. Day is a little deaf and didn't hear her, and I was too shy to tell him. But cousin Jimmy came in just as he was asking me if I knew my catechism and said, Catechism is it? Lawful heart, man. Listen to that poor dumb beast. Get up if you're a Christian.
Starting point is 06:50:36 So Mr. Dare got up and said, Dear me, this is very remarkable. I thought I felt something moving. I thought I would write this to you, dear father, because it struck me as humorous. When Mr. Dare finished asking me questions, I thought it was my turn, and I would ask him some about something.
Starting point is 06:50:57 I've wanted to know for years. I asked him if he thought God was very particular about every little thing I did, and if he thought my cats would go to heaven. He said he hoped I never did wrong things and that animals had no souls. And I asked him why we shouldn't put new wine in old bottles. Aunt Elizabeth does with her dandelion wine,
Starting point is 06:51:22 and the old bottles do just as well as new ones. He explained quite kindly that the Bible bottles were made of skins and got rotten when they were old. It made it quite clear to me. Then I told him I was worried because I knew I ought to love God better than anything, but there were things I loved better than God. He said, what things? And I said flowers and stars and the wind women and the three princesses and things like that. And he smiled and said,
Starting point is 06:51:57 But they are just a part of God, Emily. Every beautiful thing is. And all at once I liked him ever so much and didn't feel shy with him any more. He preached a sermon on heaven last Sunday. It seemed like a dull place. I think it must be more exciting than that. I wonder what I will do when I go to heaven since I can't sing.
Starting point is 06:52:21 I wonder if they will let me write poetry. But I think churches have. interesting. Aunt Elizabeth and Aunt Laura always read their bibles before the service begins, but I like to stay around and see everybody and wonder what they are thinking of. It's so nice to hear the silk dresses swishing up the aisles. Bustles are very fashionable now, but Aunt Elizabeth will not wear them. I think Aunt Elizabeth would look funny with a bustle. Aunt Laura wears a very little one. Your lovingest daughter, Emily, B. star. P.S. Dear father, it is lovely to write to you. But oh, I never get an answer back. E. B.S.
Starting point is 06:53:09 End of section 19. Recording by Leanne Fortune. Section 20 of Emily of New Moon by Lucy M. Montgomery. This Libre Fox recording is in the public domain. Recording by Leanne Fortune. Section 20. Consternation reigned at New Moon. Everybody was desperately unhappy. Aunt Laura cried. Aunt Elizabeth was so cantankerous that there was no living with her. Cousin'amese went about as one distracted, and Emily gave up worrying about Ilse's mother and Silas Lee's remorseful ghost, after she went to bed and worried over this new trouble, for it had all originated in her disregard of New Moon tradition in making calls on Lofty John, and Aunt Elizabeth did not mince matters in telling her so. If she, Emily Bird Star, had never gone to Lofty John's, she would never
Starting point is 06:54:16 have eaten the big sweet apple, and if she had never eaten the big sweet apple, Lofty John would not have played a joke on her, and if he had not played a joke on her, Aunt Elizabeth would never have gone and said bitter, Murray-like things to him, and if Aunt Elizabeth had never said, bitter, Murray-like things to him, lofty John would not have become offended and revengeful, and if lofty John had not become offended and revengeful, he would never have taken it into his lofty head to cut down the beautiful grove to the north of New Moon. For this was exactly where this house the jack-built progression had landed them all. lofty john had announced publicly in the blairwater blacksmith shop that he was going to cut down the bush as soon as harvest was over every last tree and sapling was to be laid low
Starting point is 06:55:12 the news was promptly carried to new moon and upset the inhabitants thereof as they had not been upset for years in their eyes it was nothing short of a catastrophe elizabeth and laura could hardly bring themselves to believe it The thing was incredible. That big, thick, protecting bush of spruce and hardwood had always been there. It belonged to New Moon morally. Even Lofty John Sullivan would not dare to cut it down. But Lofty John had an uncomfortable reputation for doing what he said he would do. That was a part of his loftiness. And if he did, if he did, New Moon will be ruined.
Starting point is 06:55:59 Well, poor Aunt Laura, it will look dreadful, all its beauty will go, and we will be left open to the north wind and the sea storms. We have always been so warm and sheltered here, and Jimmy's garden will be ruined too. This is what comes of bringing Emily here, said Aunt Elizabeth. It was a cruel thing to say, even when all allowances were made, cruel and unjust, since her own sharp tongue and Murray's sarcasm had had quite as much to do with it as Emily. But she said it and it pierced Emily to the heart
Starting point is 06:56:38 with a pang that left a scar for years. Poor Emily did not feel as if she needed any additional anguish. She was already feeling so wretched that she could not eat or sleep. Elizabeth Murray, angry and unhappy as she was, slept soundly at nights, but beside her in the darkness, afraid to move or turn, lay a slender little creature,
Starting point is 06:57:02 whose tears, stealing silently down her cheeks, could not ease her breaking heart. For Emily thought her heart was breaking. She couldn't go on living and suffering like this. Nobody could. Emily had lived long enough at New Moon for it to get pretty thoroughly into her blood. Perhaps it had even been born there.
Starting point is 06:57:24 At any rate, when she came to it, she fitted into its atmosphere as a hand into her glove. She loved it as well as if she had lived there all her short life, loved every stick and stone and tree and blade of grass about it, every nail in the old kitchen floor, every cushion of green moss on the dairy roof, every pink and white columbine that grew in the old orchard, every tradition of the old. its history. To think of its beauty being in a large measure rift from it was agony to her. And to think of Cousin Jimmy's garden being ruined, Emily loved that garden almost as much as he did. Why, it was the pride of Cousin Jimmy's life that he could grow their plants and shrubs that
Starting point is 06:58:15 would winter nowhere else in P.E. Island. If the northern shelter were removed, they would die. And to think of that beautiful bush itself being cut down, the today road and the yesterday road and the tomorrow road being swept out of existence. The stately monarch of the forest is crowned. The little playhouse where she and Ilsa had such glorious hours destroyed. The whole lovely, ferny, intimate place torn out of her life at one fell swoop. Oh, Lofty John had chosen and timed his vengeance well! When would the blow fall?
Starting point is 06:58:57 Every morning, Emily listened miserably as she stood on the sandstone doorstep of the kitchen, for the sound of axe blows on the clear September air. Every evening when she returned from school, she dreaded to see that the work of destruction had begun. She pined and fretted. There were times when it seemed to her she couldn't bear her life any longer. Every day, Aunt Elizabeth said something imputing. the whole blame to her, and the child grew morbidly sensitive about it. Almost she wished Lofty John would begin and be done with it. If Emily had ever heard the classic story of Damocles,
Starting point is 06:59:37 she would have heartily sympathised with him. If she had had any hope that it would do any good, she would have swallowed Murray pride and star pride and every other kind of pride, and gone on her to Lofty John to entreat him to hold his revengeful hand, but she believed it would not. Lofty John had left no doubt in anybody's mind as to his bitter determination in the matter. There was much talk about it in Blair Water, and some were very well pleased at this blow to New Moon pride and prestige, and some held that it was low and unclean behaviour on Lofty John's part and all agreed that this was what they had prophesied all along, as bound to happen some day, when the old Murray-Sullivan feud of three generations should have come to its inevitable head.
Starting point is 07:00:30 The only surprising thing was that Lofty John hadn't done it long ago. He had always hated Elizabeth Murray since their school days when her tongue had not spared him. One day by the banks of Blairwater, Emily sat down and wept. She had been sent to trim the dead blossoms off the rose bushes on Grandmother Murray's grave. Having finished her task, she had not the heart to go back to the house, where Aunt Elizabeth was making everybody miserable because she was herself so unhappy. Perry had reported that Lofty John had stated the day before at the blacksmiths that he was going to begin cutting down the big bush on Monday morning.
Starting point is 07:01:14 i can't bear it sobbed emily to the rose bushes a few late roses nodded at her the wind-woman combed and waved and stirred the long green grasses on the graves where proud murrays men and women slept calmly unstirred by old feuds and passions the september sunlight shone beyond on old harvest fields mellowly bright and serene and very softly against its green shrub-hung-bank purred and lapped the blue blair water i don't see why god doesn't stop lofty john said emily passionately surely the new moon murrays had a right to expect that much from providence Teddy came whistling down the pasture. The notes of his tune blowing across the blaywater like elfin drops of sound, vaulted the graveyard fence, and perched his lean, graceful body irreverently on the here-eye's day of great-grandmother Murray's flat tombstone. What's the matter? he said.
Starting point is 07:02:25 Everything's the matter, said Emily a little crassly. Teddy had no business to be looking so cheerful. She was used to more sympathy from Teddy and it aggravated her not to find it. Don't you know Lofty John is going to begin cutting down the bush Monday? Teddy nodded. Yep, Ilsa told me, but look here, Emily.
Starting point is 07:02:47 I've thought of something. Lofty John wouldn't dare cut down that bush if the priest told him not to. Would he? Why? Because the Catholics have to do just what their priests tell them to, haven't they? I don't know, I don't know anything about them.
Starting point is 07:03:05 We are Presbyterians. Emily gave her head a little toss. Mrs. Kent was known to be an English church woman, and though Teddy went to the Presbyterian Sunday school, that fact gave him scanty standing among Bread in the Bone Presbyterian circles. If your Aunt Elizabeth went to Father Cassidy at White Cross and asked him to stop Lofty John.
Starting point is 07:03:29 Maybe he'd do it, persisted Teddy. Aunt Elizabeth would never do that, said Emily positively. I'm sure of it. She's too proud. Not even to save the bush. Not even for that. Then I guess nothing can be done, said Teddy, rather crestfallen.
Starting point is 07:03:49 Look here. See what I've made. This is a picture of Lofty John in purgatory with three little devils sticking red-hot pitiful. forks into him. I copied some of it out of one of Mother's books. Donte is infernal, I think it was, but I put Lofty John in place of the man in the book. You can have it. I don't want it. Emily uncoiled her legs and got up. She was past the stage when inflicting imaginary torments on Lofty John could comfort her. She had already slain him in several agonizing ways during her night vigils. But an idea had come to her.
Starting point is 07:04:26 her, a daring, breathless idea. I must go home now, Teddy. It's supper-time. Teddy pocketed his despised sketch, which was really a wonderful bit of work, if either of them had had the sense to know it. The expression of anguish in Lofty John's face as a merry little devil, touched him up with a pitchfork, would have been the despair of many a trained artist. He went home wishing he could help Emily. it was all wrong that a creature like Emily, with soft purple grey eyes and a smile that made you think of all sorts of wonderful things you couldn't put into words should be unhappy.
Starting point is 07:05:07 Teddy felt so worried about it that he added a few more devils to his sketch of Lofty John in purgatory, and lengthened the prongs of their pitchforks quite considerably. Emily went home with a determined twist to her mouth. She ate as much supper as she could, which wasn't much. for Aunt Elizabeth's face would have destroyed her appetite if she had had any, and then sneaked out of the house by the front door. Cousin Jimmy was working in his garden, but he did not call her. Cousin Jimmy was always very sorrowful now.
Starting point is 07:05:41 Emily stood a moment on the Grecian porch and looked at lofty John's bush, green-bosomed, waving, all lovely. Would it be a desecrated waste of stumps by Monday night? Voded by the thought, Emily cast fear and hesitation to the winds and started briskly off down the lane. When she reached the gate, she turned to the left on the long red road of mystery that ran up the delectable mountain. She had never been on that road before. It ran straight to White Cross. Emily was going to the parish house there to interview Father Cassidy. It was two miles to White Cross and Emily walked it all too soon.
Starting point is 07:06:24 not because it was a beautiful road of wind and wild fern, haunted by little rabbits, but because she dreaded what awaited her at the end. She had been trying to think what she should say, how she should say it, but her invention failed her. She had no acquaintance with Catholic priests, and couldn't imagine how you should talk to them at all. They were even more mysterious and unknowable than ministers. Suppose Father Cassidy should be dreadfully angry
Starting point is 07:06:54 at her, daring to come there and ask a favour. Perhaps it was a dreadful thing to do from every point of view, and very likely it would do no good. Very likely Father Cassidy would refuse to interfere with Lofty John, who was a good Catholic, while she was, in his opinion, a heretic. But for any chance, even the faintest of averting the calamity impending over New Moon, Emily would have faced the entire sacred college. horribly frightened miserably nervous as she was the idea of turning back never occurred to her she was only sorry that she hadn't put on her venetian beads they might have impressed father cassidy
Starting point is 07:07:39 although emily had never been to white cross she knew the parish house when she saw it a fine tree-embowed residence near the big white chapel with the flashing gilt cross on its spire and the four gilt angels one on each of the little spires at the corners. Emily felt them very beautiful as they gleamed in the light of the lowering sun and wished they could have some on the plain white church at Blairwater. She couldn't understand why Catholics should have all the angels, but there was not time to puzzle over this, for the door was opening, and the trim little maid was looking a question. Is Father Cassidy at home?
Starting point is 07:08:23 asked Emily rather jerkily. Yes. Can I see him? Come in, said the little maid. Evidently there was no difficulty about seeing Father Cassidy. No mysterious ceremonies such as Emily had half expected, even if she were allowed to see him at all. She was shown into a book-lined room and left there while the maid went to call Father Cassidy who,
Starting point is 07:08:51 she said, was working in the garden. That sounded quite natural and encouraging. If Father Cassidy worked in a garden, he could not be so very terrible. Emily looked about her curiously. She was in a very pretty room, with cosy chairs and pictures and flowers. Nothing alarming or uncanny about it,
Starting point is 07:09:15 except a huge black cat who was sitting on the top of one of the bookcases. It was really an enormous creature. Emily adored cats and had always felt at home with any of them, but she had never seen such a cat as this. What with its size and its insolent gold-hued eyes, set like living jewels in its black velvet face? It did not seem to belong to the same species,
Starting point is 07:09:43 as nice cuddly respectable kittens at all. Mr. Day would never have had such. such a beast about his manse all emily's dread of father cassidy returned and then in came father cassidy with the friendliest smile in the world emily took him in with her level glance as was her habit or gift and never again in the world was she the least bit afraid of father cassidy he was big and broad-shouldered with brown eyes and brown hair and his very face was the least afraid of father cassidy he was big and broad-shouldered with brown eyes and his very face was was so deeply tanned from his inveterate habit of going about bareheaded in merciless sunshine that it was brown too emily thought he looked just like a big nut a big brown holstom nut father cassidy looked at her as he shook hands emily had one of her visitations of beauty just then excitement had brought a wild rose hue to her face the sunlight brought out the watered silk gloss of her black hair her eyes were softly dark and limpid but it was at her ears father cassidy suddenly bent to look emily had a moment of agonized wonder if they were clean she's got pointed ears said father cassidy in a thrilling whisper pointed ears i knew she came straight from fairer lamb the minute i saw her
Starting point is 07:11:15 sit down elf if elves do set set don't give me the latest news of titania's court emily's foot was now on her native heath father cassidy talked her language and he talked it in such a mellow throaty voice slurring his ofs ever so softly as became a proper irishman but she shook her head a little sadly with the burden of her errand on her soul she could not play the part of ambassadress from elfland i'm only emily star of new moon she said and then gasped hurriedly because there must be no deception no sailing under false colours "'And I'm a Protestant.' "'And a very nice little Protestant you are,' said Father Cassidy. "'But for sure I am a bit disappointed. "'I'm used to Protestants, the woods hereabouts being full of them, "'but it's a hundred years since the last elf called on me.'
Starting point is 07:12:16 "'Emily stared. "'Surely Father Cassidy wasn't a hundred years old. "'He didn't look more than fifty. "'Perhaps, though, Catholic priests did live longer than us, other people. She didn't know exactly what to say, so she said a bit lamely, I see you have a cat. Wrong, Father Cassidy shook his head and groan dismally. The cat has me. Emily gave up trying to understand Father Cassidy. He was nice, but un-understandable. She let it go at that, and she must get on with her errand.
Starting point is 07:12:52 You are a kind of minister, aren't you? she asked timidly. She didn't know whether Father Cassidy would like being called a minister. Kind of, he agreed amiably. And you see, ministers and priests can't do their own swearing. They have to keep cats to do it for them. We never knew any cat that could swear as genteelly and effectively as the buy. Is that what you call him? asked Emily, looking at the black cat in some awe. It seemed hardly safe to discuss him right before his face.
Starting point is 07:13:26 that's what he calls himself my mother doesn't like him because he steals the cream no i don't mind he's doing that no it's his way of licking his jaws after it that i can't stand oh by wave a fairy calling on us be excited for once i implore you there's a duck of a cat the by refused to be excited he winked an insolent eye at emily have you any idea what goes on in the head of a cat, elf? What queer questions Father Cassidy asked. Yet Emily thought she would like his questions if she were not so worried. Suddenly Father Cassidy leaned
Starting point is 07:14:09 across the table and said, No, just what's bothering you? I'm so unhappy, said Emily, piteously. So are lots of other people. Everybody is unhappy by spells. But creatures who have pointed ears
Starting point is 07:14:23 shouldn't be unhappy. It's only mortals who should. should be that oh please please emily wondered what she should call him would it offend him if a protestant called him father but she had to risk it please father cassidy i'm in such trouble and i've come to ask a great favour of you emily told him the whole tale from beginning to end the old mary sullivan feud her erstwhile friendship with lofty john the big sweet apple the under unhappy consequence and Lofty John's threatened revenge. The by and Father Cassidy listened with equal gravity until she had finished. Then the by winked at her, but Father Cassidy put his long brown fingers together. Hymph, he said. That's the first time, reflected Emily, that I've ever heard anyone outside of a book say Hymph. Hymph, said. Hymph, said.
Starting point is 07:15:26 said Father Cassidy again, and you want me to put a stop to this nefarious deed? If you can, said Emily. Oh, it would be so splendid if you could. Will you, will you? Father Cassidy fitted his fingers still more carefully together. I'm afraid I can hardly invoke the power of the keys to prevent Lofty John from disposing as he wishes of his own lawful property,
Starting point is 07:15:55 you know, elf? emily didn't understand the allusion to the keys but she did understand that father cassidy was declining to bring the lever of the church to bear on lofty john there was no hope then she could not keep the tears of disappointment out of her eyes "'Oh, come now, darling, don't cry,' implored Father Cassidy. "'Elves never cry. They can't. It would break my heart to discover you weren't of the green folk. You may call yourself of New Moon and of any religion you like, but the fact remains that you belong to the golden age and the old gods. That's why I am a savior, precious bit of greenwood for you.' Emily's dead. "'I think it can be done,' Father Cassidy went on.
Starting point is 07:16:40 i think if i go to lofty john and have a hard to hard talk with him i can make him see reason lofty john and i are very good friends he's a reasonable creature if you know how to take him which means to flatter his vanity judiciously i'll put it to him not as priest to parishioner but as man to man that no decent irishman carries on a feud with women and that no sensible person is going to destroy for nothing but a grudge those fine old trees that have taken half a century to grow and can never be replaced. Why, the man who could stone such a tree, except when it is really necessary, should be hanged as high as Hammond or Nogalo's made from the wood of it. Emily thought she would write that last sentence of Father Cassidy's down in Cousin'emie's blank book when she got home. But I won't say that, to lofty John, concluded Father Cassidy. Yes, Emily of New Moon, I think we can consider it a settled thing that your bush
Starting point is 07:17:40 will not be caught down. Suddenly, Emily felt very happy. Somehow she had entire confidence in Father Cassidy. She was sure he would twist Lofty John around his little finger. Oh, I can never thank you enough, she said honestly. That's true, so don't waste breath trying. And no tell me things, are there any more of you? And how long if you've been yourself?
Starting point is 07:18:06 I'm 12 years old. I haven't any brothers or sisters. and I think I'd better be going home. No till you've had a bite of lunch. Oh, thank you. I've had my supper. Two hours ago and a two-mile walk since. Don't tell me. I'm sorry, I haven't any nectar and ambrosia on hand.
Starting point is 07:18:25 Such food as elves eat. And not even a saucer of moonshine. But my mother makes the best plum cake of any woman in P.E. Ireland. I'm we keep a cream cow. Wait here a bit. Don't be afraid of the bye. he eats tender little protestants sometimes but he never meddles with leprechauns when father cassidy came back his mother came with him carrying a tray emily had expected to see her big and brown too but she was the tiniest woman imaginable with snow-white silky hair mild blue eyes and pink cheeks isn't she the sweetest ting in the way of mothers asked father cassidy they keep her to look at
Starting point is 07:19:09 of course. Father Cassidy dropped his voice to her pigs whisper. There's something odd about her. I've known that woman to stop right in the middle of house, lean in and go off and spend an afternoon in the woods. Like yourself, I'm thinking she has some truck with berries. Mrs. Cassidy smiled, kissed Emily, said she must go out and finish her preserving, and trot it off.
Starting point is 07:19:34 Now you sit right down here, elf, and be human for a ten minutes and we'll have a friendly snack. emily was hungry a nice comfortable feeling she hadn't experienced for a fortnight mrs cassidy's plum-cake was all her reverend son claimed and the cream cow seemed to be no myth what do you think of me now asked father cassidy suddenly finding emily's eyes fixed on him speculatively emily blushed she had been wondering if she dared ask another favour of father cassidy i think you are awfully good she said i am awfully good agreed father cassidy i'm so good that i'll do what you want me to do for i feel that something else you want me to do i'm in a scrape and i've been in it all summer you see emily was very sober i am a poetess holy mike that is serious i don't know if i can do much for you how long have you been that way are you making fun of me asked emily gravely father cassidy swallowed something besides plum cake this sense forbid it's only that i'm rather overcome to be after entertaining a lady of new moon and an elf and a poetess all in one is a bit too much for a humble praise like myself have another slice of cake and tell me all about it it's like this i'm writing an epic father cassidy suddenly leaned over and gave emily's wrist a little pinch
Starting point is 07:21:09 "'I just wanted to see if you were real,' he explained. "'Yes, yes, you're right in an epic. Go on. "'I think I've got my second twin now.' "'I began it last spring. "'I called it the White Lady first, "'but now I've changed it to the Child of the Sea. "'Don't you think that's a better title? "'Much better.'
Starting point is 07:21:30 "'I've got three cantos done, "'and I can't get any further "'because there's something I don't know "'and can't find out I've been so worried about it. what is it my epic said emily diligently devouring plum-cake is about a very beautiful high-born girl who was stolen away from her real parents when she was a baby and brought up in a woodcutter's hut one are of the seven original plots in the world murmured father cassidy what nothing just a bad habit of tinking aloud go on she had a lover of high degree that his family did not want him to marry her because she was only a woodcutter's daughter another of the seven plots excuse me so they sent him away to the holy land on a crusade and word came back that he was killed and then editha her name was editha went into a convent emily paused for a bite of plum-cake and father cassidy took up the strain and now her lover comes back very much alive though covered with pen and
Starting point is 07:22:39 scars, and the secret of her birth is discovered through the dying confession of the old nurse and the birth mark on her arm. How did you know? Gosped Emily in amazement. Oh, I guessed it, I'm a good, castor, but where's your bothering all this? I don't know how to get her out of the convent, confessed Emily. I thought perhaps you would know how it could be done. Again, Father Cassidy fitted his fingers. let us see now it's no light matter you've undertaken young lady how stands the case editha has taken the veil not because she has a religious vocation but because she imagines her heart is broken
Starting point is 07:23:25 the catholic church does not release its nuns from their vows because they happen to think they've made a little mistake of that sort no no we must have a better reason is this editha the sooth child of her real parent Yes. Oh, then the way is clear. If she had had any brothers or sisters, you would have had to kill them off, which is a messy thing to do. Well, then, she is the sole daughter and heiress of a noble family who have for years been at deadly feud with another noble family, the family of the lover. Do you know what a feud is? of course said emily disdainfully and i've got all that in the poem already so much the better this feud has rent the kingdom in twain and can only be healed by an alliance between capulet and montague those aren't their names no matter this then is a national affair with far-rich in issues therefore an appeal to the supreme pontiff is quite in order what you want paul carthead nodded solemnly is a dispensation from rome dispensation is a hard word to work into a poem said emily undoubtedly but young ladies who will write epic poems and who will lay the scenes there over may times and manners of hundreds of years ago, and we'll choose heroines of a religion quite unknown to them. Most expect to run up against a few snags. Oh, I think I'll be able to work it in, said Emily cheerfully, and I am so much obliged to you. You don't know what
Starting point is 07:25:14 a relief it is to my mind. I'll finish the poem right up now in a few weeks. I haven't done a thing at it all summer, but then, of course, I've been busy. Ilsa Burnley and I have been making a new language. Making a new, excuse me. Did you say language? Yes. What's the matter with English? Isn't it good enough for you,
Starting point is 07:25:37 you incomprehensible little being? Oh yes, that isn't why we're making a new one. See, in the spring, Cousin Jimmy got a lot of French boys to help plant the potatoes. I had to help too, and Elsa came to keep me company, and it was so annoying to hear those boys talking French when we couldn't understand a word of it.
Starting point is 07:25:58 They did it just to make us mad. Such jabbering. So Ilsa and I just made up our minds we'd invent a new language that they couldn't understand. We're getting on fine, and when the potato-picking time comes, we'll be able to talk to each other, and those boys won't be able to understand a word we're saying,
Starting point is 07:26:18 oh, it will be great fun. We haven't a doubt, but two girls who will go to all the trouble of inventing a new language, language, just to get square with some poor little French boys. You're beyond me, said Father Cassidy, helplessly. Goodness knows what you'll be doing when you grow up. You'll be read revolutionists. I tremble for Canada.
Starting point is 07:26:40 Oh, it isn't a trouble. It's fun, and all the girls in school are just wild, because they hear us talking in it and can't make it out. We can talk secrets right before them. Human nature being what it is, I can see where the fun comes in, all right. Let's hear a sample of your language. Natmelino's de dormant bought a shrewsbury furnace to Apuletanos, said Emily glibly. That means, next summer I'm going to Shrewsbury woods to pick strawberries.
Starting point is 07:27:11 I yelled that across the playground to Ilsa the other day at recess, and oh, how everybody stared. Staring is it? I should say so. My own poor old eyes are all but dropping out of me, Let's hear a bit more of it. Mottrally dead, said Adly Motrin. Mabbertrell said Mourbertrine. Does stand dead it, ting, etc. That means my father is dead and so is my mother.
Starting point is 07:27:40 My grandfather and grandmother have been dead a long time. We haven't invented a word for dead yet. I think I will soon be able to write my poems in our language and then Aunt Elizabeth will not be able to read them if she finds them. have you written any other poetry besides your epic oh yes by just short pieces dozens of them hmm would you be so kind as to let me hear one of them emily was greatly flattered and she did not mind letting father cassidy hear her precious stuff i'll recite my last poem she said clearing her throat importantly it's called evening dreams Father Cassidy listened attentively. After the first verse, a change came over his big brown face, and he began patting his fingertips together.
Starting point is 07:28:29 When Emily finished, she hung down her lashes and waited tremblingly. What if Father Cassidy said it was no good? No, he wouldn't be so impolite. But if he bantered her, as he had done about her epic, she would know what that meant. father cassidy did not speak all at once the prolonged suspense was terrible to emily she was afraid he could not praise and did not want to hurt her feelings by dis praise all at once her evening dreams seemed trash and she wondered how she could ever have been silly enough to repeat it to father cassidy of course it was trash father cassidy knew that well enough all the same for a child like this and and rhyme and rhythm were flawless.
Starting point is 07:29:19 And there was one line. Just one line. The light of faintly golden stars for the sake of that line. Father Cassidy suddenly said, Keep on. Keep on writing poetry. You mean? Emily was breathless.
Starting point is 07:29:38 I mean you'll be able to do something by and by. Something. You don't know how much. But keep on. Keep on. Emily was so happy she wanted to cry. It was the first word of commendation she had ever received, except from her father,
Starting point is 07:29:55 and a father might have too high an opinion of one. This was different. To the end of her struggle for recognition, Emily never forgot Father Cassidy's keep on, and the tone in which she said it. Aunt Elizabeth scolds me for writing poetry, she said wistfully. She says people will think I am as simple as cousin Jimmy.
Starting point is 07:30:15 the path of genius never did run smooth but have another piece of cake do just to show there's something human about you ve meriti odour a dolman cosy a manris inriter that means no thank you i must be going home before it gets dark well drive you home no no it's very kind of you the english language was quite good enough for emily now but i'd rather walk it's it's such good exercise meaning said father cassidy with a twinkle in his eye that we must keep it from the old lady good-bye and to me you always see a happy face in your looking-glass emily was too happy to be tired on the way home there seemed to be a bubble of joy in her heart a shimmering prismatic bubble when she came to the top of the big hill and looked across to new moon her eyes were satisfied and loving how beautiful it was lying embowered in the twilight of the old trees the tips of the loftiest spruces the tips of the loftiest spruces came out in purple silhouette against the northwestern sky of rose and amber. Down behind it the Blairwater dreamed in solver.
Starting point is 07:31:37 The wind woman had folded her misty bat wings in a valley of sunset and stillness layer over the world like a blessing. Emily felt sure everything would be all right. Father Cassidy would manage it in some way, and he had told her to keep on. End of Section 20, recording by Leanne Fortune. Section 21 of Emily of New Moon by Lucy M. Montgomery. This Librivox recording is in the public domain.
Starting point is 07:32:15 Recording by Leanne Fortune, Section 21. Emily listened very anxiously on Monday morning, but no sound of axe, no ponderous hammer rang in Lofty John's Bush. that evening on her way home from school lofty john himself overtook her in his buggy and for the first time since the night of the apple stopped and accosted her will you take a lift miss emily of new moon he said affably emily climbed in feeling a little bit foolish but lofty john looked quite friendly as he clucked to his horse so you've clean whirled the heart out of father cassidy's body he said the sweetest scrap of a girl i've ever seen says he to me sure and ye might leave the poor praises alone emily looked at lofty john out of the corner of her eye he did not seem angry ye've put me in an ice-tight fix of it he went on i'm as proud as any new moon murray of ye all and your aunt elizabeth said a number of things that got under my skin i've many an old score to settle with her so i thought i'd get square by cutting off the bush down and you had to go inquire me
Starting point is 07:33:41 with me braced because of it and now i make no doubt i'll not be afted daring to cut a stick of kindling to warm me shivering carcass without asking lava the pope oh mr sullivan are you going to leave the book alone said emily breathlessly it all rests with yourself miss emily of new moon you can't be after expecting a lofty john to be too humble i didn't come by the name because of me makness what do you want me to do first then i'm wanting you to let bygones be bygones in that matter of the apple and be token of the same come over and talk to me now and then as you did last summer sure not and i've missed ye ye and that spit fire of an ilsa who's never come either because she thinks i mistreated you i'll come of course said emily doubtfully if only aunt elizabeth will let me tell her if she don't the bush'll be cut down every last stick of it that'll fetch her and there's one more thing ye must ask maryl make and polite to do ye yehers the favour of not cutting down the bush. If you do it pretty enough, sure, never a tree will I touch, but if you don't, down they go, praced or no braced, concluded Lofty John. Emily summoned all her wiles to her aid. She clasped her hands. She looked up through her lashes at Lofty John. She smiled as slowly and seductively as she knew how, and Emily had considerable
Starting point is 07:35:30 native knowledge of that sort. Please, Mr. Lofty John, she coaxed. Won't you leave me the dear bush I love? Lofty John swept off his crumpled old felt hat. To be sure and I will. A proper Irishman always does what a lady asks him. Sure. and it's been the ruin of us. We're at the mercy of the petticoats. If ye'd come and said that to me afore, you'd have had no need of your walk to White Cross, but mind ye, keep the rest of the bargain.
Starting point is 07:36:07 The reds are ripe, and the scabs soon will be, and all the rats have gone to glory. Emily flew into the New Moon kitchen like a slim whirlwind. Aunt Elizabeth, lofty John isn't going to cut down the bush. He told me he wouldn't, but I have to go and see him sometimes if you don't object. I suppose it wouldn't make much difference to you if I did, said Aunt Elizabeth. But her voice was not so sharp as usual. She would not confess how much Emily's announcement relieved her,
Starting point is 07:36:41 but it mellowed her attitude considerably. There's a letter here for you. I want to know what it means. Emily took the letter. It was the first time she had. had ever received a real letter through the mail, and she tingled with the delight of it. It was addressed in a heavy black hand to Miss Emily Starr, New Moon, Blairwater. But, you opened it, she cried indignantly.
Starting point is 07:37:11 Of course I did. You're not going to receive letters I am not to see, miss. What I want to know is, how comes Father Cassidy to be writing to you and writing such nonsense. I went to see him Saturday, confessed Emily, realizing that the cat was out of the bag. And I asked him if he couldn't prevent Lofty John from cutting down the bush.
Starting point is 07:37:39 Emily, Bird, Star! I told him I was a Protestant, cried Emily. He understands all about it. And he was just like anybody else. I like him better. than Mr. Dare. Aunt Elizabeth did not say much more. There did not seem to be much she could say.
Starting point is 07:38:01 Besides, the bush wasn't going to be cut down. The bringer of good news is forgiven much. She contented herself with glaring at Emily, who was too happy and excited to mind glares. She carried her letter off to the Garrett Dormer and gloated over the stamp and the superscription a bit before she took out. the enclosure.
Starting point is 07:38:24 Dear Pearl of Emmylies, wrote Father Cassidy, I've seen our lofty friend, and I feel sure your green outpost of Beryland will be saved for your moonlit revels. I know you do dance there by light a moon, when mortals are snoring. I think you'll have to go through the form of asking Mr. Sullivan to spare those trees. But you'll find him quite reasonable. It's all in the knowing-house. how hunt the time off the moon how goes the epic and the language i hope you'll have no trouble in freeing the child of the sea from her vows
Starting point is 07:39:04 continued to be the friend of all good elves and of your admiring friend james cassidy p s the boy sends respects what word have you for cat in your language sure and you can't get anything catier than Cat, can you know? Lofty John spread the story of Emily's appeal to Father Cassidy far and wide, enjoying it is a good joke on himself. Rhoda Stewart said she always knew Emily's doll was a bold thing, and Miss Brownell said she would be surprised at nothing Emily's doll would do, and Dr Burnley called her a little devil more admiringly than ever, and Perry said she had pluck,
Starting point is 07:39:50 and Teddy took credit for suggesting it, and Aunt Elizabeth endured, and Aunt Laura thought it might have been worse. But Cousin Jimmy made Emily feel very happy. It would have spoiled the garden and broken my heart, Emily, he told her. You're a little darling girl to have prevented it. One day, a month later, when Aunt Elizabeth had taken Emily to Shrewsbury to fit her out with a winter coat, they met Father Cassidy in his door. Aunt Elizabeth bowed with great stateliness, but Emily put out a slender paw.
Starting point is 07:40:28 What about the dispensation from Rome? whispered Father Cassidy. One Emily was quite horrified, lest Aunt Elizabeth should overhear and think she was having sly dealings with the Pope, such as no good Presbyterian half-murry of New Moon should have. The other Emily thrilled to her toes with the dramatic delight of a secret understanding of mystery and intrigue. She nodded gravely, her eyes eloquent with satisfaction.
Starting point is 07:41:01 I got it without any trouble, she whispered back. Fine, said Father Cassidy. I wish you good look, and I wish it hard. Goodbye. Farewell, said Emily. thinking it a word more in keeping with dark secrets than goodbye she tasted the flavor of that half-stolen interview all the way home and felt quite as if she were living in an epic herself she did not see father cassidy again for years he was soon afterwards removed to another parish but she always thought of him as a very agreeable and understanding person End of Section 21.
Starting point is 07:41:49 Recording by Leanne Fortune. Section 22 of Emily of New Moon by Lucy M. Montgomery. This Libre Fox recording is in the public domain. Recording by Leanne Fortune, Section 22. Dearest Father, my heart is very sore tonight. Mike died this morning. Cousin Jimmy says he must have been poisoned. Oh, father dear, I felt so bad.
Starting point is 07:42:25 He was such a lovely cat. I cried and cried and cried. Aunt Elizabeth was disgusted. She said, You did not make half so much fuss when your father died. What a cruel speech. Aunt Laura was nicer, but when she said,
Starting point is 07:42:43 Don't cry, dear, I will get you another kitten. I saw she didn't understand either. I don't want another kitten. If I had millions of kittens, they wouldn't make up for Mike. Ilsa and I buried him in Lofty John's bush. I'm so thankful the ground wasn't frozen yet. Aunt Laura gave me a shoebox for a coffin and some pink tissue paper to wrap his poor little body in. And we put a stone over the grave and I said,
Starting point is 07:43:12 Blessed are the dead who die in the Lord. When I told Aunt Laura about it, she was horrified and said, oh Emily that was a dreadful thing you should not have said that over a cat and cousin Jimmy said don't you think Laura that an innocent little dumb creature has a share in God Emily loved him and all love is part of God and Aunt Laura said maybe you're right Jimmy but I'm thankful Elizabeth did not hear her cousin Jimmy may not be all there but what is there is very nice that oh father I'm so lonesome for Mike tonight. Last night he was here playing with me, so cunning and pretty and smee,
Starting point is 07:43:55 and now he is cold and dead in Lofty John's bush. December 18th. Dear father, I'm here in the garret. The wind woman is very sorry about something tonight. She is sighing so sadly around the window. And yet the first time I heard her tonight, the flash came. I felt as if I had just seen
Starting point is 07:44:18 something that happened long, long ago. Something so lovely that it hurt me. Cousin Jimmy says there will be a snowstorm tonight. I'm glad. I like to hear a storm at night. It's so cozy to snuggle down among the blankets and feel it can't get at you. Only when I snuggle, Aunt Elizabeth says I squirm.
Starting point is 07:44:39 The idea of anyone not knowing the difference between snuggling and squirming. I'm glad we will have snow for Christmas. The Murray dinner is to be a good. New Moon this year. It is our turn. Last year it was at Uncle Oliver's, but Cousin Jimmy had gripe and couldn't go, so I stayed home with him. I will be right in the thick of it this year, and it excites me. I will write you all about it after it is over, dearest. I want to tell you something, father. I am ashamed of it, but I think I'll feel better if I tell you all about it. Last Saturday, Ella Lee had a birthday party, and I was invited.
Starting point is 07:45:19 Aunt Elizabeth let me put on my new blue cashmere dress. It is a very pretty dress. Aunt Elizabeth wanted to get a dark brown, but Aunt Laura insisted on blue. I looked at myself in my glass, and I remembered that Ilsa had told me her father told her I would be handsome if I had more color. So I pinched my cheeks to make them red. I looked ever so much nicer, but it didn't last. Then I took an old red velvet flower that had once been in Aunt Laura's bonnet and wet it, and then rubbed the red on my cheeks.
Starting point is 07:45:56 I went to the party, and the girls all looked at me, but nobody said anything. Only Rhoda Stewart giggled and giggled. I meant to come home and wash the red off, before Aunt Elizabeth saw me, but she took a notion to call for me on her way home from the stone. store. She did not say anything there. But when we got home, she said, What have you been doing to your face, Emily? I told her and I expected an awful scolding, but all she said was, don't you know that you've made yourself cheap? I did know it too. I had felt that all along, although I couldn't think of the right word for it before.
Starting point is 07:46:36 I will never do such a thing again, Aunt Elizabeth, I said. You'd better not. She said, she said, go and wash your face this instant. I did, and I was not half so pretty, but I felt ever so much better. Strange to relate, dear father. I heard Aunt Elizabeth laughing about it in the pantry to Aunt Laura afterwards. You can never tell what will make Aunt Elizabeth laugh. I'm sure it was ever so much funnier when saucy Salve followed me to prayer meeting last Wednesday night, but Aunt Elizabeth never laughed a bit then.
Starting point is 07:47:13 I don't often go to prayer meeting, but Aunt Laura couldn't go that night, so Aunt Elizabeth took me, because she doesn't like to go alone. I didn't know Sal was following us, till, just as we got to the church, I saw her. I shooed her away, but after we went in, I suppose Sal sneaked in
Starting point is 07:47:34 when someone opened the door and got upstairs into the gallery, and just as soon as Miss Missed, Mr. Day began to pray, Sal began to yell. It sounded awful up in that big, empty gallery. I felt so guilty and miserable. I did not need to paint my face. It was just burning red, and Aunt Elizabeth's eyes glittered fiendishly.
Starting point is 07:47:58 Mr. Day prayed a long time. He is deaf, so he did not hear Sel any more than when he sat on her. But everyone else did, and the boys giggled. After the prayer Mr Morris went up to the gallery and chased her out. We could hear her scrambling over the seats, and Mr. Morris after her. I was wild for fear he'd hurt her. I meant to spank her myself with a shingle next day, but I did not want her to be kicked. After a long time, he got her out of the gallery, and she tore down the stairs and into the church.
Starting point is 07:48:35 Up one aisle and down the other, two or three times as fast as she could go, and mr morris after her with a broom it is awfully funny to think of it now but i did not think it so funny at the time i was so ashamed and so afraid sell would be hurt mr morris chased her out at last when he sat down i made a face at him behind my hymn-book coming home aunt elizabeth said i hope you have disgraced us enough to-night emily's dar i shall never take you to prayer-meeting again i am sorry i disgraced the murrays but i don't see how i was to blame in any way i don't like prayer-meeting because it is dull But it wasn't dull that night, dear father. Do you notice how my spelling is improved? I've thought of such a good plan. I write my letter first, and then I look up all the words I'm not sure of and correct them. Sometimes, though, I think a word is all right when it isn't.
Starting point is 07:49:34 Ilsa and I have given up our language. We fought over the verbs. Ilsa didn't want to have any tenses for the verbs. She just wanted to have a different word altogether for every tense. I said if I was going to make a language, it was going to be a proper one. And Elsa got mad and said she had enough bother with grammar in English, and I could go and make my old language by myself. But that is no fun, so I let it go too.
Starting point is 07:50:03 I was sorry, because it was very interesting and it was such fun to puzzle the other girls in school. We weren't able to get square with the French boys after all, for Ilsa had sole throat all through potato pecking time and couldn't come over. It seems to me that life is full of disappointments. We had examinations in school this week. I did pretty well in all, except arithmetic. Miss Brownell explained something about the questions, but I was busy composing a story in my mind and did not hear her.
Starting point is 07:50:38 So I got poor marks. The story is called Madge MacPherson's Secret. I am going to buy four sheets of Fulscap with my egg money and sew them into a book and write the story in it. I can do what I like with my egg money. I think maybe I'll write novels when I grow up as well as poetry, but Aunt Elizabeth won't let me read any novels, so how can I find out how to write them?
Starting point is 07:51:05 Another thing that worries me, if I do grow up and write a wonderful poem, perhaps people won't see how wonderful it is. Cousin Jemmy says that a man in priest-pond says the end of the world is coming soon. I hope it won't come till I've seen everything in it. Poor Elder McKay has the mumps. I was over-sleeping with Elsa the other night because her father was away. Ilsa says her prayers now,
Starting point is 07:51:32 and she said she'd bet me anything she could pray longer than me. I said she couldn't, and I prayed ever so long about it. everything I could think of, and when I couldn't think of anything more, I thought at first I'd begin over again. Then I thought, no, that would not be honourable. A star must be honourable. So I got up and said, You win, and Elsa never answered. I went around the bed, and there she was asleep on her knees. When I woke her up, she said, we'd have to call the bed off, because she could have gone on praying forever, so long if she hadn't fell asleep. After we got into bed, I told her a lot of things I wished afterwards I hadn't. Secrets. The other day in history class, Ms. Brownell read that
Starting point is 07:52:24 Sir Walter Rale had to lie in the tower for 14 years. Pery said, wouldn't they let him get up sometimes. Then Miss Brownell punished him for impertinence, but Perry was in earnest. Ilsa was mad at Miss Brownell for whipping Perry, and mad at Perry for asking such a full question, as if he didn't know anything, but Perry says he is going to write a history book someday that won't have such puzzling things in it. I'm finishing the disappointed house in my mind. I'm furnishing the rooms like flowers. I'll have a rose room all. I'll have a rose room all pink and a lily room all white and silver, and a pansy room blue and gold. I wish the disappointed house could have a Christmas. It never has any Christmases. Oh, father, I've just
Starting point is 07:53:16 thought of something nice. When I grow up and write a great novel and make lots of money, I will buy the disappointed house and finish it. Then it won't be disappointed anymore. Ilsa's Sunday school teacher, Miss Willison, gave her a revival for learning 200 verses. But when she took it home, her father laid it on the floor and kicked it out in the yard. Mrs. Sims says a judgment will come on him, but nothing has happened yet. The poor man is warped. That is why he did such a wicked thing. Aunt Laura took me to old Mrs. Mason's funeral last Wednesday.
Starting point is 07:53:56 I like funnels. They are so dramatic. My pig died last week. It was a great financial loss to me. Aunt Elizabeth says Cousin Jimmy fed it too well. I suppose I should not have called it off to Lofty John. We have maps to draw in school now. Rhoda Stewart always gets the most marks. Miss Brownell doesn't know that Roda just puts the map up against a window pen and the paper over it and copies it off.
Starting point is 07:54:27 I like drawing maps. Norway and Sweden look like a tiger, with mountains for stripes, and Ireland looks like a little dog, with its back turned on England, and its paws held up against its breast, and Africa looks like a big pork ham. Australia is a lovely map to draw.
Starting point is 07:54:47 Elsa is getting on real well in school now. She says she isn't going to have me beating her. She can learn like the Dickens, as Perry says, when she tries, and she has won the silver metal for Queens County. The WCTU in Charlottetown gave it for the best reciter. They had the contest in Shrewsbury, and Aunt Laura took Ilsa because Dr. Burnley wouldn't, and Ilsa won it. Aunt Laura told Dr. Burnley when he was here one day that he ought to give Ilsa a good
Starting point is 07:55:20 education. He said, I'm not going to waste money educating any she thing. And he looked black as a thunder cloud. Oh, I wish Dr. Burnley would love, Ilsa. I'm so glad you loved me, Father. December 22nd. Dear father, we had our school examination today. It was a great occasion. Almost everybody was there except Dr. Burnley and Aunt Elizabeth. All the girls, wore their best dresses but me. I knew I Elsa had nothing to wear but her shabby old last winters played that is too short for her.
Starting point is 07:56:00 So to keep her from feeling bad, I put on my old brown dress too. Aunt Elizabeth did not want to let me do it at first because New Moon Murray's should be well dressed that when I explained about Ilsa, she looked at Aunt Laura and then said I might. Rhoda Stewart made fun of Ilsa and me, but I heaped curls of buyer on her head.
Starting point is 07:56:23 That is what is called a figure of speech. She got stuck in her recitation. She had left the book home and nobody else knew the piece but me. At first I looked at her triumphantly. But then a queer feeling came into me and I thought, what would I feel like if I was stuck before a big crowd of people like this? And besides, the honour of the school is at stake. so I whispered it to her because I was quite close.
Starting point is 07:56:52 She got through the rest all right. The strange thing is, dear father, that now I don't feel any more as if I hated her. I feel quite kindly to her, and it is much nicer. It is uncomfortable to hate people. December 28th. Dear Father, Christmas is over. It was pretty nice.
Starting point is 07:57:13 I never saw so many good things cooked all at once. Uncle Wallace and Aunt Ava and Uncle Oliver and Aunt Addie and Aunt Ruth were here. Uncle Oliver didn't bring any of his children and I was much disappointed. We had Dr. Burnley and Ilsa too. Everyone was dressed up. Aunt Elizabeth wore her black satin dress
Starting point is 07:57:37 with a pointed lace, collar and cap. She looked quite handsome and I was proud of her. You like your relations to look well. even if you don't like them. Aunt Laura wore her brown silk, and Aunt Ruth had on a grey dress. Aunt Eva was very elegant.
Starting point is 07:57:57 Her dress had a train, but it smelled of mothballs. I had on my blue cashmere and wore my hair tied with blue ribbons, and Aunt Laura let me wear mother's blue silk sash with the pink daisies on it that she had when she was a little girl at New Moon. Aunt Ruth sniffed when she saw me.
Starting point is 07:58:18 She said, You have grown a good deal, Emily. I hope you are a better girl. But she didn't hope it, really. I saw that quite plain. Then she told me my bootlace was untied. She looks better, said Uncle Oliver. I wouldn't wonder if she grew up into a strong, healthy girl after all.
Starting point is 07:58:41 Aunt Eva sighed and shook her head. Uncle Wallace didn't say anything but shook hands with me. His hand was as cold as a fish. When we went out to the sitting room for dinner, I stepped on Aunt Eva's train and I could hear some stitches rip somewhere. Aunt Eva pushed me away, and Aunt Ruth said, What a very awkward child you are, Emily. I stepped behind Aunt Ruth and stuck out my tongue at her.
Starting point is 07:59:09 Uncle Oliver makes a noise eating his soup. We had all the good silver spoons out. Cousin Jimmy carved the turkeys, and he gave me two slices of the breast because he knows I like the white meat best. Aunt Ruth said, when I was a little girl, the wing was good enough for me. And cousin Jimmy put another white slice on my plate. Aunt Ruth didn't say anything more then, till the carving was done. And then she said, I saw your school teacher in Shrewsbury last Saturday, Emily. and she did not give me a very good account of you.
Starting point is 07:59:46 If you were my daughter, I would expect a different report. I'm very glad I am not your daughter, I said in my mind. I didn't say it out loud, of course, but Aunt Ruth said, Please do not look so sulky when I speak to you, Emily. And Uncle Wallace said, It is a pity she has such an unattractive expression. You are conceited and domineering and stingy, I said, still in my mind. I heard Dr. Burnley say you were.
Starting point is 08:00:17 I see there is an ink stain on her finger, said Aunt Ruth. I had been writing a poem before dinner. And then a most surprising thing happened. Relations are always surprising you. Aunt Elizabeth spoke up and said, I do wish Ruth that you and Wallace would leave that child alone. I could hardly believe my ears. Aunt Ruth looked annoyed, but she did leave me alone after that,
Starting point is 08:00:46 and only sniffed when Cousin Jimmy slipped a bit more white meat on my plate. After that, the dinner was nice, and when they got as far as the pudding, they all began to talk, and it was splendid to listen to. They told stories and jokes about the Murray's. Even Uncle Wallace laughed, and Aunt Ruth told some things about Great Aunt Nancy. They were sarcastic, but they were interesting. Aunt Elizabeth opened Grandfather Murray's desk and took out an old poem that had been written to Aunt Nancy by a lover when she was young and Uncle Oliver read it. Great Aunt Nancy must have been very beautiful.
Starting point is 08:01:25 I wonder if anyone will ever write a poem to me. If I could have a bang, somebody might. I said, was Great Aunt Nancy really as pretty as that? And Uncle Oliver said, they say she was 70 years ago. and Uncle Wallace said, She hangs on well. She'll see the century mark yet. And Uncle Oliver said,
Starting point is 08:01:48 Oh, she's got so in the habit of living, she'll never die. Dr. Bonley told a story I didn't understand. Uncle Wallace ho-hoed right out, and Uncle Oliver put his napkin up to his face. Aunt Addie and Aunt Eva looked at each other sidewise, and then at their plates, and smiled a little bit.
Starting point is 08:02:10 Aunt Ruth seemed off-ended, and Aunt Elizabeth looked coldly at Dr. Burnley and said, I think you forget that there are children present. Dr. Burnley said, I beg your pardon, Elizabeth. Very politely. He can speak with a grand air when he likes. He is very handsome when he is dressed up and shaved. Elsa says she is proud of him, even if he hates her. After dinner was over, the presents were given.
Starting point is 08:02:43 That is a Murray tradition. We never have stockings or trees, but a big brown pies passed all around with the presents buried in it, and ribbons hanging out with names on them. It was fun. My relations all gave me useful presents except Aunt Laura. She gave me a bottle of perfume. I love it.
Starting point is 08:03:05 I love nice smells. Aunt Elizabeth does not approve of perfumes. She gave me a new apron, but I am thankful to say, not a baby one. Aunt Ruth gave me a New Testament and said, Emily, I hope you will read a portion of that every day until you have read it through. And I said, why, Aunt Ruth, I've read the whole New Testament a dozen times, and so I have. I love revelations, and I do. When I read the verse, and the twelve gates were twelve pearls, I just saw them, and the flash came.
Starting point is 08:03:43 The Bible is not to be read as a storybook, Aunt Ruth said coldly. Uncle Wallace and Aunt Eva gave me a pair of black mitts, and Uncle Oliver and Aunt Addy gave me a whole dollar in nice new silver dimes, and cousin Jimmy gave me a hair ribbon. Perry had left a silk bookmark for me. He had to go home to spend Christmas day with his Aunt Tom at Stervepipe Town, but I saved a lot of nuts and raisins for him. I gave him and Teddy handkerchiefs. Teddy's was a little, the nicest, and I gave Ilsa Herobin.
Starting point is 08:04:21 I bought them myself out of my egg money. I will not have any more egg money for a long time because my hen is stopped laying. Everybody was happy, and once Uncle Wallace smiled right at me, I did not think him so ugly when he smiled. After dinner, Ilsa and I played games in the kitchen, and Cousin Jimmy helped us make taffy. We had a big supper, but nobody could eat much because they had had such a dinner. Aunt Ava's head ached, and Aunt Ruth said she didn't see why Elizabeth made the sausages so rich. But the rest were good-humoured, and Aunt Laura kept things. things pleasant. She is good at making things pleasant, and after it was all over, Uncle Wallace said,
Starting point is 08:05:06 this is another Murray tradition, let us think for a few moments of those who have gone before. I liked the way he said it, very solemnly and kind. It was one of the times when I am glad the blood of the Murray's blows in my veins, and I thought of you, darling father, and mother, and poor little Mike, and great-great-grandmother, Murray, and of my old account book that Aunt Elizabeth burned, because it seemed just like a person to me, and then we all joined hands and sung for Old Lang Zine before they went home. I didn't feel like a stranger among the Murray's anymore. Aunt Laura and I stood out on the porch to watch them go. Aunt Laura put her arm around me and said, your mother and I used to stand like this
Starting point is 08:05:54 long ago, Emily, to watch the Christmas guests go away. The snow creaked and the bells rang back through the trees, and the frost on the pig-house roof sparkled in the moonlight, and it was also lovely. The bells and the frost and the big shining white night, that the flash came, and that was best of all. End of Section 22, recording by Leanne Fortune. This Librivox recording is in the public domain, recording by Leanne Fortune, Section 23. A certain thing happened at New Moon because Teddy Kent paid Ilsa Burnley a compliment one day, and Emily Starr didn't altogether like it. Empires have been overturned for the same reason.
Starting point is 08:07:02 Teddy was skating on Blair Water and taking Ilsa and Emily out in turns for slides. Neither Ilsa nor Emily had skates. Nobody was sufficiently interested in Ilsa to buy skates for her, and as for Emily, Aunt Elizabeth did not approve of girls skating. New Moon girls had never skated. Aunt Laura had a revolutionary idea that skating would be good exercise for Emily and would, moreover, prevent her from wearing out the soles of her boots sliding. But neither of these arguments was sufficient to convince Aunt Elizabeth, in spite of the thrifty streak that came to her from the Burnleys. The latter, however, caused her to issue an edict that Emily was not to slide. Emily took this very hardly. She moped about in a wo-begone fashion, and she wrote to her father, I hate Aunt Elizabeth. She is so unjust. She never plays fair. But one day Dr. Burnley stuck his head in at the door of the New Moon kitchen and said gruffly,
Starting point is 08:08:12 What's this I hear about you not letting Emily slide, Elizabeth? She wears out the soles of her boots, said Elizabeth. Bootsby! The doctor remembered that ladies were present just in time. Let the creature slide all she wants to. She ought to be in the open air all the time. she ought, the doctor stared at Elizabeth, furiously, she ought to sleep out of doors.
Starting point is 08:08:41 Elizabeth trembled, lest the doctor, should go on to insist on this unheard-of proceeding. She knew he had absurd ideas about the proper treatment of consumptives and those who might become such. She was glad to appease him by letting Emily stay out of doors in daytime and do what seemed good to her. if only he would say no more about staying out all night too. He is much more concerned about Emily than he is about his own child,
Starting point is 08:09:13 she said bitterly to Laura. He'll say it's too healthy, said Aunt Laura with smile. If she were a delicate child, Alan might forgive her for being her mother's daughter. Sh, said Aunt Elizabeth. but she shh-shed. Too late. Emily, coming into the kitchen, had heard Aunt Laura, and puzzled over what she had said all day in school. Why had Ilsa to be forgiven for being her mother's daughter? Everybody was her mother's daughter, wasn't she? Wherein did the crime consist. Emily worried over it so much that she was inattentive to her lessons, and Miss Brownell
Starting point is 08:10:01 raked her fore and aft with sarcasm. It is time we got back to Blairwater, where Teddy was just bringing Emily in from a glorious spin clear round the great circle of ice. Elsa was waiting for her turn on the bank. Her golden cloud of hair aureoled her face and fell in a shimmering wave over her forehead, under the faded little red tam she wore. Ilsa's clothes were always faded. The stinging kiss of the wind had crimsoned her cheeks, and her eyes were glowing like amber pools with fire in their hearts. Teddy's artistic perception saw her beauty and rejoiced in it.
Starting point is 08:10:45 Isn't Ilsa handsome? he said. Emily was not jealous. It never hurt her to hear Elsa, raised. But somehow she did not like this. Teddy was looking at Ilsa altogether too admiringly. It was all, Emily believed, due to that shimmering fringe on Ilsa's white brows. If I had a bang, Teddy might think me handsome too, she thought resentfully. Of course, black hair isn't as pretty as gold, but my forehead is too high. Everybody says so, and I did look nice in Teddy's picture because he drew some curls over it.
Starting point is 08:11:31 The matter rankled. Emily thought of it as she went home over the sheen of the crusted snowfields, lanting to the light of the winter sunset, and she could not eat her supper because she did not have a bang. All her long-headed yearning for a bang seemed to come to her head at once. She knew there was no use in coaxing on. Elizabeth for one, but when she was getting ready for bed that night, she stood on a chair so that she could see little Emily in the glass, then lifted the curling ends of her long braid, and laid them over her forehead. The effect, in Emily's eyes at least, was very alluring.
Starting point is 08:12:15 She suddenly thought, what if she cut a bang herself? It would take only a minute, and one Once done, what could Aunt Elizabeth do? She would be very angry and doubtless inflict some kind of punishment, but the bang would be there, at least, until it grew out long. Emily, her lips set, went for the scissors. She unbraided her hair and parted the front tresses. Snip, snip, snip, went the scissors. Glistening locks fell at her feet.
Starting point is 08:12:52 In a minute, Emily had her. her long-desired bang. Straight across her brows fell the lustrous, softly curving fringe. It changed the whole character of her face. It made it arch, provocative, elusive. For one brief moment, Emily gazed at her reflection in triumph. And then sheer terror seized her. Oh, what had she done? How angry Aunt Elizabeth would. be. Conscience suddenly awoke and added its pang also. She had been wicked. It was wicked to cut a bang
Starting point is 08:13:32 when Aunt Elizabeth had forbidden it. Aunt Elizabeth had given her a home at New Moon, hadn't Rhoda Stewart that very day in school, tweeted her again with Living on Charity, and she was repaying her by disobedience and ingratitude. A star should not have done that. In a panic of fear and remorse, Emily snatched the system.
Starting point is 08:13:54 and cut the bang off, cut it close against the hairline, worse and worse. Emily beheld the result in dismay. Anyone could see that a bang had been cut, so Aunt Elizabeth's anger was still to face. And she had made a terrible fright of herself. Emily burst into tears, snatched up the fallen locks, and crammed them into the waste basket, blew out her candle and sprang into bed just as Aunt Elizabeth came in.
Starting point is 08:14:24 emily burrowed face downward in the pillows and pretended to be asleep she was afraid aunt elizabeth would ask her some question and insist on her looking up while she answered it that was a merry tradition you look people in the face when you spoke to them but aunt elizabeth undressed in silence and came to bed the room was in darkness thick darkness emily sighed and turned over there was a hot gin-jar in the bed bed she knew and her feet were cold, but she did not think she ought to have the privilege of the ginger. She was too wicked, too ungrateful. Do stop squirming, said Aunt Elizabeth. Emily squirmed no more, physically at least. Mentally, she continued to squirm. She could not sleep. Her feet, all her conscience, or both, kept her awake, and fear also. She dreaded the morning, until, Elizabeth would see then what had happened, if it were only over, if the revelation were only over.
Starting point is 08:15:30 Emily forgot and squirmed. "'What makes you so restless to-night?' demanded Aunt Elizabeth in high displeasure. "'Are you taking a cold?' "'No, ma'am. "'Then go to sleep. I can't bear such regling. "'One might as well have an eel in bed.' "'Awl!' "'Aunt Elizabeth, in squirming a bit herself, had put her own foot,
Starting point is 08:15:54 against Emily's icy ones. Goodness, child, your feet are like snow. Here, put them on the gin jar. Aunt Elizabeth pushed the gin jar over against Emily's feet. How lovely and warm and comforting it was. Emily worked her toes against it like a cat, but she suddenly knew she could not wait for morning. Aunt Elizabeth, I've got something to confess.
Starting point is 08:16:21 Aunt Elizabeth was tired and sleepy and did not want confessions just then. In no very gracious tone, she said, What have you been doing? I, I cut a bang on to Elizabeth. A bang? Until Elizabeth sat up in bed. But I cut it off again, cried Emily hurriedly, right off, close to my head. Montelisabeth got out of bed, lit a candle and looked Emily over. Well, you have made a sight of yourself, she said grimly, I never start. I anyone as ugly as you are this minute, and you have behaved in a most underhanded fashion. This was one of the times Emily felt compelled to agree with Aunt Elizabeth.
Starting point is 08:17:06 I'm sorry, she said, lifting, pleading eyes. You will eat your supper in the pantry for a week, said Aunt Elizabeth, and you will not go to Uncle Oliver's next week when I go. I had promised to take you, but I shall take no one. who looks as you do anywhere with me. This was hard. Emily had looked forward to that visit to Uncle Oliver's, but on the whole she was relieved.
Starting point is 08:17:34 The worst was over, and her feet were getting warm. But there was one thing yet. She might as well unburden her heart completely while she was at it. There's another thing I feel I ought to tell you. On to Elizabeth got into bed again with a grunt. Emily took it for permission.
Starting point is 08:17:54 Aunt Elizabeth, you remember that book I found in Dr. Burnley's bookcase and brought home and asked you if I could read it. It was called the History of Henry Esmond. You looked at it and said you had no objections to my reading history, so I read it. But Aunt Elizabeth, it wasn't history. It was a novel, and I knew it when I brought it home. You know that I have forbidden you to read novels, Emily Stahl. "'There are wicked books and have ruined many souls.' "'It was very dull,' pleaded Emily, as if dullness and wickedness were quite incompatible.
Starting point is 08:18:33 "'And it made me feel unhappy. "'Everybody seemed to be in love with the wrong person. "'I've made up my mind, Aunt Elizabeth, that I will never fall in love. "'It makes too much trouble. "'Don't talk of things you can't understand and that are not fit for children to think about. this is the result of reading novels i shall tell dr bernley to lock his bookcase up oh don't do that aunt elizabeth exclaimed emily there are no more novels in it but i am reading such an interesting book over there it tells about everything that's inside of you i've got as far along as the liver and its diseases the pictures are so interesting please let me finish it this was worse than novels Aunt Elizabeth was truly horrified.
Starting point is 08:19:24 Things that were inside of you were not to be read about. Have you no shame, Emily Starr? If you have not, I am ashamed for you. Little girls do not read books like that. But Aunt Elizabeth, why not? I have a liver, haven't I? And heart and lungs and stomach and that will do, Emily, not another word.
Starting point is 08:19:47 Emily went to sleep unhappily. She wished she had never said a word about Esmond. And she knew she would never have a chance to finish that other fascinating book, nor had she. Dr. Burnley's bookcase was locked thereafter, and the doctor gruffly ordered her and Elsa to keep out of his office. He was in a very bad humour about it, for he had words with Elizabeth Murray over the matter. Emily was not allowed to forget her bang. She was twittered and teased in school about it, and Aunt Elizabeth looked at it whenever she looked at Emily,
Starting point is 08:20:24 and the contempt in her eyes burned Emily like a flame. Nevertheless, as the mistreated hair grew out and began to curl in soft little ringlets, Emily found consolation. The bang was tacitly permitted, and she felt that her looks were greatly improved thereby, of course as soon as it grew long enough she knew aunt elizabeth would make her brush it back but for the time being she took comfort in her added beauty The bang was just about at its best when the letter came from Great Aunt Nancy.
Starting point is 08:21:02 It was written to Aunt Laura. Great Aunt Nancy and Aunt Elizabeth were not over-fond of each other, and in it Great Aunt Nancy said, If you have a photograph of that child, Emily, send it along. I don't want to see her. She's stupid. I know she's stupid, but I want to see what Juliet's child looks like. also the child of that fascinating young man douglas starr he was fascinating what fools you all were to make such a fuss about juliet running away with him if you and elizabeth had both run away with somebody in your running days it would have been better for you this letter was not shown to emily aunt elizabeth and aunt laura had a long secret consultation and then emily was told that she was to be taken to shrewsbury to
Starting point is 08:21:55 have her picture taken for Aunt Nancy. Emily was much excited over this. She was dressed in her blue cashmere, and Aunt Laura put a point-laced collar on it and hung her Venetian beads over it, and new-buttoned boots were got for the occasion. I'm so glad this has happened while I still have my bang, thought Emily happily. But in the photographer's dressing-room, Aunt Elizabeth grimly proceeded to brush back her bang and pin it with hairpins. Oh, please, Aunt Elizabeth, let me have it down, Emily begged, just for the picture. After this I'll brush it back. Aunt Elizabeth was inexorable. The bang was brushed back and the photograph taken.
Starting point is 08:22:41 When Aunt Elizabeth saw the finished result, she was satisfied. She looks sulky, but she is neat, and there is a resemblance to the Murray's I never noticed. before, she told Aunt Laura. That will please, Aunt Nancy. She is very clannish under all her oddness. Emily would have liked to throw every one of the photographs in the fire. She hated them. They made her look hideous. Her face seemed to be all borrowed. If they sent Aunt Nancy that, Aunt Nancy would think her stupider than ever. When Aunt Elizabeth did the photograph up in cardboard and told Emily to take it to the office, Emily already knew what she meant to do.
Starting point is 08:23:24 She went straight to the garret and took out of her box the watercolour Teddy had made of her. It was just the same size as the photograph. Emily removed the latter from its wrappings, spurning it aside with her foot. That isn't me, she said. I looked sulky because I felt sulky about the bang, but I hardly ever look sulky, so it isn't fair. She wrapped Teddy's sketch up in the cardboard and then sat down and wrote her letter. Dear great-aunt Nancy, Aunt Elizabeth had my picture taken to send you,
Starting point is 08:23:59 but I don't like it because it makes me look too ugly, and I'm putting another picture in instead. An artist friend made it for me. It is just like me when I am smiling and have a bang. I am only lending it to you, not giving it, because I value it very highly. Your obedient grand niece, Emily Birdstar. Pierce, I am not so stupid as you think. E.B.S.
Starting point is 08:24:29 Piers number two. I am not stupid at all. Emily put her letter in with the picture, thereby unconsciously cheating the post office, and slipped out of the house to mail it. Once it was safely in the post office, she drew a breath of relief. She found the walk home very enjoyable.
Starting point is 08:24:50 It was a bland day in early April, and spring was looking at you around the corners. The wind woman was laughing and whistling over the wet sweet fields. Free-booting crows held conferences in the treetops. Little pools of sunshine lay in the mossy hollows. The sea was a blaze of sapphire beyond the golden dunes. The maples in Lofty John's bush were talking about red, buds. Everything Emily had ever read of, dream and myth and legend, seemed a part of the charm of that
Starting point is 08:25:24 bush. She was filled to her fingertips with a rapture of living. Oh, I smell spring, she cried as she danced along the brook path. Then she began to compose a perm on it. Everybody who has ever lived in the world and could string two rhymes together has written a poem on spring. It is the most be-rhymed subject in the world, and always will be, because it is poetry incarnate itself. You can never be a real poet if you haven't made at least one poem about spring. Emily was wondering whether she would have elves dancing on the brook side by moonlight, or pixies sleeping in a bed of ferns in her poem, when something confronted her at a bend in the path, which was neither elf nor pixie, but seemed odd.
Starting point is 08:26:16 and weird enough to belong to some of the tribes of little people. Was it a witch? Or an elderly fay of evil intentions. The bad fairy of all christening tales? I'm the byer's Aunt Tom, said the appearance, seeing that Emily was too amazed to do anything but stand and stare. Oh! Emily gasped in relief. She was no longer frightened.
Starting point is 08:26:46 but what a very peculiar-looking lady peri's aunt tom was old so old that it seemed quite impossible that she could ever have been young a bright red hood over crone-like fluttering grey locks a little face seemed by a thousand fine criss-crossed wrinkles a long nose with a knob on the end of it little twinkling eager grey eyes under brinkling and a little twinkling eager grey eyes under brinkles brows, a ragged man's coat, covering her from neck to feet, a basket in one hand, and a black knobby stick in the other. Staring wasn't thought good breeding in my time, said Aunt Tom. Oh, said Emily again, excuse me, how do you do? She added with a vague grasp after her manners. Polite and not too proud, said Aunt Tom, peering curiously at her. I've been up to the big house with a pair of socks for the buyer,
Starting point is 08:27:50 but twas yourself I wanted to see. Me? said Emily blankly. Yes. The buyer has been talking a bit of you, and a plan came into my head. Thinks I to myself, it's no bad notion, but I'll make sure before I waste my bitter money. Emily Bird's die is your name,
Starting point is 08:28:12 and Murray is your nature. if I give the by an education, will ye marry him when you grow up? Me? said Emily again. It seemed to be all she could say was she dreaming. She must be. Yes, you.
Starting point is 08:28:31 You're half-morry, and it'll be a great step-up further by. He's smart, and he'll be a rich man some day, and boss the country. But devil is sent while I spend on him, unless you promise. Aunt Elizabeth wouldn't let me, cried Emily, too frightened of this odd old body to refuse on her own account. If you've got any merry in you,
Starting point is 08:28:56 you'll do your own choosing, said Aunt Tom, thrusting her face so close to Emily's that her bushy eyebrows tickled Emily's nose. Say you'll marry the by, and to college he goes. Emily's seemed to be rendered, speechless. she could think of nothing to say. Oh, if she could only wake up, she could not even run.
Starting point is 08:29:22 Say it, insisted Aunt Tom, thumping her stick sharply on a stern in the path. Emily was so horrified that she might have said something, anything, to escape. But at this moment, Perry bounded out of the spruce cops, his face white with rage, and seized his aunt Tom most disrespectfully by the shoulder. You go home, he said fiercely. Now, I'll buy, dear, quavered on Tom deprecatingly. I was only trying to do you a good turn. I was asking her to marry ye after a bit and...
Starting point is 08:30:01 I'll do my own asking. Perry was angrier than ever. You've likely spoiled everything. Go home, go home, I say. Aunt Tom Hobaldorf muttering, Then I'll know better than to waste me bitter money. No murray, no money me buy. When she had disappeared down the brook path, Perry turned to Emily.
Starting point is 08:30:27 From white, he had gone very red. Don't mind her. She's cracked, he said. Of course, when I grow up, I mean to ask you to marry me, but I couldn't, Aunt Elizabeth. Oh, she will then. I'm going to be Premier of Canada's someday. But I wouldn't want, I'm sure I wouldn't. You will when you grow up.
Starting point is 08:30:52 Elsa is better looking, of course. And I don't know why I like you best, but I do. Don't you ever talk to me like this again, commanded Emily, beginning to recover her dignity. Oh, I won't, not till we grow up. I'm as ashamed of it as you are, said Perry with a sheepish grin. Only I had to say something after Aunt Tom batted in like that. I ain't to blame for it, so don't you hold it against me. But just you remember that I'm going to ask you someday,
Starting point is 08:31:26 and I believe Teddy Kent is too. Emily was walking haughtily away, but she turned after this to say Cooley over her shoulder. If he does, I'll marry him. If you do, I'll knock his head off, shouted Perry in a prompt rage. but emily walked steadily on home and went to the garret to think things over it has been romantic but not comfortable was her conclusion and that particular poem on spring was never finished end of section twenty three recording by leanne fortune section twenty four of emily of new moon by lucy m montgomery this librivox recording is in the public public domain recording by leanne fortune section twenty four no reply or acknowledgment came from great aunt nancy priest regarding emily's picture aunt elizabeth and aunt laura knowing great aunt nancy's ways tolerably well were not surprised at this
Starting point is 08:32:39 but emily felt rather worried over it perhaps great aunt nancy did not approve of what she had done or perhaps she still thought her too stupid to bother with. Emily did not like to lie under the imputation of stupidity. She wrote a scathing epistle to Great Aunt Nancy on a letter-ball, in which she did not mince her opinions as to that ancient lady's knowledge of the rules of epistolary etiquette. The letter was folded up and stirred away on the little shelf under the sofa, but it served its purpose in blowing off steam, and Emily had ceased to think about the matter when a letter came from Great Aunt Nancy in July. Elizabeth and Laura took the matter over in the cookhouse,
Starting point is 08:33:28 forgetful or ignorant, of the fact that Emily was sitting on the kitchen doorstep just outside. Emily was imagining herself attending a drawing room of Queen Victoria, robed in white, with ostrich plumes, veil and court train, she had just been to kiss the queen's hand when Aunt Elizabeth's voice shattered her dream as a pebble thrown into a pool scatters the fairy reflection. What is your opinion, Laura? Aunt Elizabeth was saying. Of letting Emily visit Aunt Nancy, Emily pricked up her ears. What was in the wind now?
Starting point is 08:34:08 From her letter, she seems very anxious to have the child, said Laura. Elizabeth sniffed. A whim, a whim. You know what her whims are. Luckily, by the time Emily got there, she'd be quite over it and have no use for her. Yes, but on the other hand, if we don't let her go,
Starting point is 08:34:28 she will be dreadfully offended and never forgive us, or Emily. Emily should have her chance. I don't know that her chance is worth much. If Aunt Nancy really has any money beyond her annuity, and that's what neither you nor I nor any living soul knows unless it's Caroline. She'll likely leave it all to some of the priests. Leslie priests, a favourite of hers, I understand.
Starting point is 08:34:57 Aunt Nancy always liked her husband's family better than her own, even though she's always slurring at them. Still, she might take a fancy to Emily. They're both so odd. They might suit each other, but you know the way she talks. She and that abominable old Caroline. Emily is too young to understand, said Aunt Laura. I understand more than you think, cried Emily indignantly.
Starting point is 08:35:25 Aunt Elizabeth jerked open the cookhouse door. Emily Starr, haven't you learned by this time not to listen? I wasn't listening. I thought you knew I was sitting here. I can't help my ears hearing. Why didn't you whisper? When you whisper, I know you're talking secrets, and I don't try to hear them. Am I going to great Aunt Nancy's for a visit?
Starting point is 08:35:50 We haven't decided, said Aunt Elizabeth coldly, and that was all the satisfaction Emily got for a week. She hardly knew herself whether she wanted to go or not. Aunt Elizabeth had begun making cheese. New Moon was noted for its cheeses, and Emily found the whole process absorbing. From the time the rennet was put in the warm new milk till the white curds were packed away in the hoop and put under the press in the old orchard, with the big round grey cheese stone to weight it down,
Starting point is 08:36:26 as it had weighed down new moon cheeses for a hundred years. And then she and Elsa and Teddy and Perry were absorbed heart and soul in playing out, the midsummer night's dream in Lofty John's bush, and it was very fascinating. When they entered Lofty John's bush, they went out of the realm of daylight and things known into the realm of twilight and mystery and enchantment. Teddy had painted wonderful scenery on old boards and pieces of sails which Perry had got at the harbour. Elsa had fashioned delightful fairy wings from tissue paper and tinsel, and Perry had made an ass's head for bottom out of an old calf skin that was very realistic. Emily had toiled happily for many weeks, copying out the different parts and adapting them to circumstances. She had cut the play after a fashion that would have harrowed Shakespeare's soul,
Starting point is 08:37:23 but after all, the result was quite pretty and coherent. It did not worry them that four small actors had to take six times as many parts. Emily was Titania and Hermia, and a job lot of fairies besides. Ilsa was Hippolyta and Helena, plus some more fairies, and the boys were anything that the dialogue required. Aunt Elizabeth knew nothing of it all. She would promptly have put a stop to the whole thing, for she thought play-acting exceedingly wicked. But Aunt Laura was privy to the plot, and Cousin Jimmy and Lofty John had already attended a moonlight rehearsal. To go away and leave all this, even for
Starting point is 08:38:09 a time would be a hard wrench, but on the other hand, Emily had a burning curiosity to see Great Aunt Nancy and Withergrange, her quaint old house at Priest's Pond with the famous ston dogs on the gateposts. On the whole, she thought she would like to go, and when she saw Aunt Laura doing up her starched white petticoats, and Aunt Elizabeth grimly dusting off a small black nail-studdered trunk in the garret, she knew, before she was told, that the visit to Priest-Pond was going to come off. So she took out the letter she had written to Aunt Nancy and added an apologetic post-script. Ilsa chose to be disgruntled because Emily was going for a visit. In reality, Ilsa felt appalled at the lonely prospect of a month or more
Starting point is 08:39:03 without her inseparable chum. No more jolly evenings of play-acting in lofty John's bush. No more pungent quarrels. Besides, Elsa herself had never been anywhere for a visit in her whole life, and she felt sore over this fact. I wouldn't go to Wither Grange for anything, said Ilsa. It's haunted. Tisn't.
Starting point is 08:39:29 Yes. It's haunted by a ghost you can, feel and hear but never see. Oh, I wouldn't be you for the world. Your great aunt, Nancy, is an awful crank, and the old woman who lives with her is a witch. She'll put a spell on you. You'll pine away and die. I won't.
Starting point is 08:39:50 She isn't. Is. Why? She makes the stone dogs on the gateposts. Howl every night if anyone comes near the place, they go, ooh. "'Ilsa was not a born elocutionist for nothing. "'Her who was extremely gruesome, "'but it was daylight, and Emily was as brave as a lion in daylight.
Starting point is 08:40:15 "'You're jealous,' she said and walked off. "'I'm not, you blithering centipede,' Ilsa yelled after her, "'putting on airs because your aunt has stone dogs on her gateposts. "'Why, I know a woman in Shrewsbury, who has dogs, on her posts that are ten times stonier than your aunts. But next morning, Ilsa was over to bid Emily goodbye and entreat her to write every week. Emily was going to drive to Priest Pond with old Kelly. Aunt Elizabeth was to have driven her, but Aunt Elizabeth was not feeling well that day,
Starting point is 08:40:51 and Aunt Laura could not leave her. Cousin Jimmy had to work at the hay. It looked as if she could not go, and this was rather serious, for Aunt Nancy, had been told to expect her that day, and Aunt Nancy did not like to be disappointed. If Emily did not turn up that Priest Pond on the day set, great Aunt Nancy was quite capable of shutting the door in her face when she did appear, and telling her to go back home. Nothing less than this conviction would have induced Aunt Elizabeth
Starting point is 08:41:24 to fall in with old Kelly's suggestion that Emily should ride to Priest Pond with him. His home was on the other side of it, and he was going straight there. Emily was quite delighted. She liked old Kelly and thought that a drive on his fine red wagon would be quite an adventure. Her little black box was hoisted to the roof and tied there, and they went clinking and glittering down the new moon lane in fine style. The tins in the bowels of the wagon behind them rumbled like a young earthquake. "'Get up, my nag, get up,' said old Kelly.
Starting point is 08:42:03 "'Sure, and I always like to drive the pretty girls. "'When is the wedding to be?' "'Who's wedding?' "'The slyness of her, your own, of course.' "'I have no intention of being married immediately,' said Emily, "'in a very good imitation of Aunt Elizabeth's tone and manner. "'Sure, and you're a chip of the old block.' Miss Elizabeth herself couldn't have said it better.
Starting point is 08:42:33 Get up, my nag, get up. I only meant, said Emily, fearing that she had insulted old Kelly, that I am too young to be married. The younger the better, the less mischief ye'll be after working with them. Come hither eyes. Get up, my nag, get up.
Starting point is 08:42:52 The bast is tired. So we'll let him go at his own swate will. here's a bag of sweeties for ye old kelly always traits the ladies come now tell me all about him about who but emily knew quite well your beau of course i haven't any beau mr kelly i wish you wouldn't talk to me about such things sure and i won't if tis a sore subject don't ye be minding if he he haven't got one. They'll be scads of them after a while. And if the right one doesn't know what's good for him, just ye come to old Kelly and get some toe-dointment.
Starting point is 08:43:41 To-dointment! It sounded horrible, Emily shivered. But she would rather talk about toe-doinment than Bo. What is that for? It's a love charm, said old Kelly mysteriously. put a little smooch on his eyelids, and he's yearn for life with never as squint at any other girl. It doesn't sound very nice, said Emily. How do you make it?
Starting point is 08:44:12 You bile four toads alive till they're good and soft and then mash. Oh, stop, stop, implored Emily, putting her hands to her ears. I don't want to hear any more. You couldn't be so cruel. cruel is it you were after eating lobsters this day that were biled alive i don't believe it i don't if it's true i'll never never eat one again oh mr kelly i thought you were a nice kind man but those poor toads girl dear it was only me joke and you won't be nading toad ointment to win your lads love wait you now i've seen you now i've seen you now i've something in the till behind me for a prison for you. Old Kelly fished out a box, which she put into Emily's lap. She found a dainty little hairbrush in it. Look at the back of it, said old Kelly.
Starting point is 08:45:10 You'll see something handsome, all the love charm you'll ever neighed. Emily turned it over, her own face looked back at her from a little inset mirror, surrounded by a scroll of painted roses. Mr. Kelly. How pretty. I mean the roses and the glass, she cried. Is it really for me? Oh, thank you. Thank you. Now I can have Emily in the glass whenever I want her. Why, I can carry her around with me. And you were really only in fun about the toads? Of course. Get up, my nag, get up. And so you're going to visit the old lady over at praised pond ever been there no it's full of praist's you can throw a stone but he hit one and hit one hit all there is proud and lofty as the murrays themselves the only one i know is adam praised the others hold too high he is the black shape and quite sociable but if you want to see how the world looked on the morning after the flood going to his barnyard on a rainy day look i here girl dear old kelly lowed his voice mysteriously don't ye ever marry a priest why not asked emily who had never thought of marrying a priest but was immediately curious as to why she shouldn't
Starting point is 08:46:44 they are ill to marry ill to live with the wives die young the old lady of the grange fought her man out and buried him but she had the merry luck I wouldn't trust it too far. The only decent praced among them is the one they call jarback praised, and he's too old for you. Why do they call him jarback? One of his shoulders is a little bit higher than the other. He's got a bit of money and doesn't be after having to work. A bookworm, I'm believing. Have you got a bit of cold iron about you?
Starting point is 08:47:22 No, why? You should have. Old Caroline praised at the Granger's a witch if ever there was one. Why, that's what Ilsa said. But there are no such thing as witches really, Mr. Kelly. Maybe that's true. But it's better to be on the safe side. Here, put this horse shoe nail in your pocket,
Starting point is 08:47:46 and don't cross her if he can help it. You don't mind if I have a bit of a smoke, do ye? Emily did not mind. it left her free to follow her own thoughts, which were more agreeable than old Kelly's talk of toads and witches. The road from Blairwater to Priest Pond was a very lovely one, winding along the Gulf shore, crossing fir-fringed rivers and inlets, and coming ever and anon on one of the ponds for which that part of the North Shore was noted, Blairwater, Derry Pond, Long Pond, Three ponds, where three blue lakelets were strung together,
Starting point is 08:48:29 like three great sapphires held by a silver thread, and then priest pond, the largest of all, almost as round as Blair Water. As they drove down towards it, Emily drank the scene in, with avid eyes. As soon as possible, she must write a description of it. She had packed the Jimmy Blank book in her box for just such purposes. The air seemed to be filled with opal dust over the great pond, and the Bowery summer homesteads around it.
Starting point is 08:49:04 A western sky of smoky red was arched over the big Melvin Bay beyond. Little grey sails were drifting along by the fur-fringed shores. A sequestered side road, fringed thickly with young maples and birches, led down to the Grange. how damp and cool the air was in the hollows and how the ferns did smell emily was sorry when they reached with a grange and climbed in between the gate-posts whereon the big stone dogs sat very sternly looking grim enough in the twilight the wide hall door was open and a flood of light streamed out over the lawn a little old woman was standing in it old kelly seemed suddenly in something of a hurry. He swung Emily and her box to the ground, shook hands hastily and whispered,
Starting point is 08:50:03 Don't lose that bit of a nail. Goodbye. I wish she a cool head and a warm heart, and was off before the little old woman could reach them. So, this is Emily of New Moon! Emily heard a rather shrill, cracked voice saying. She felt a thin, claw-like hand, grasp hers and draw her towards the door.
Starting point is 08:50:28 There were no witches, Emily knew, but she thrust her hand into her pocket and touched the horse shoe nail. End of Section 24, recording by Leanne Fortune. Section 25 of Emily of New Moon by Lucy M. Montgomery. This Librevox recording is in the public domain, recording by Leanne Fortune Section 25 Your aunt is in the back parlour, said Caroline Priest.
Starting point is 08:51:07 Come this way, are you tired? No, said Emily, following Caroline and taking her in thoroughly. If Caroline were a witch, she was a very small one. She was really no taller than Emily herself. She wore a black silk dress and a little streaks. cap of black net edged with black rushing on her yellowish white hair her face was more wrinkled than emily had ever supposed a face could be and she had the peculiar gray-green eyes which as emily afterwards discovered ran in the priest clan you may be a witch thought emily but i think i can manage you They went through the spacious hall, catching glimpses on either side of large, dim, splendid rooms,
Starting point is 08:52:03 then through the kitchen end, out of it, into an odd little back hall. It was long and narrow and dark. On one side was a row of four square small-pained windows. On the other were cupboards, reaching from floor to ceiling, with doors of black shining wood. emily felt like one of the heroines in gothic romance wandering at midnight through a subterranean dungeon with some unholy guide she had read the mysteries of udolpho and the romance of the forest before the taboo had fallen on dr bonley's bookcase she shivered it was awful but interesting at the end of the hall a flight of four steps led up to a door Beside the steps was an immense black grandfather's clock, reaching almost to the ceiling. We shut little girls up in that when they're bad, whispered Caroline, nodding at Emily as she opened the door that led into the back parlour.
Starting point is 08:53:13 I'll take good care you won't shut me up in it, thought Emily. The back parlour was a pretty quaint old room where a table was laid for supper. caroline led Emily through it and knocked at another door using a quaint old brass knocker that was fashioned like a cheeshy cat with such an irresistible grin that you wanted to grin too when you saw it somebody said come in and they went down another four steps was there ever such a funny house into a bedroom and here at last was great aunt nancy priest, sitting in her armchair with her black stick leaning against her knee and her tiny white hands still pretty and sparkling with fine rings, lying on her purple silk apron. Emily felt a distinct shock of disappointment. After hearing that poem in which Nancy Murray's beauty of nut-brown hair and starry brown eyes and cheek of Saturn Rose had been berimed, she had somehow expected great Aunt Nancy in spite of her 90 years to be beautiful still.
Starting point is 08:54:29 But Aunt Nancy was white-haired and yellow-skinned and wrinkled and shrunken, though her brown eyes were still bright and shrewd. Somehow she looked like an old fairy, an impish, tolerant old fairy who might turn suddenly malevolent if you rubbed her the wrong way. Only fairies never wore long gold-tasseled earrings that all. almost touched their shoulders, or white lace caps with purple pansies in them. "'So this is Juliet's girl,' she said, giving Emily one of his sparkling hands. "'Don't look so startled, child. I'm not going to kiss you. I never held with
Starting point is 08:55:12 inflicting kisses on defences creatures simply because they were so unlucky as to be my relatives. Now, who does she look like, Caroline?' Emily made a mental grimace, now for another ordeal of comparisons, wherein dead and gone noses and eyes and foreheads would be dragged out and fitted on her. She was thoroughly tired of having her looks talked over in every gathering of the clans. Not much like the Murray's, said Caroline, peering so closely into her face that Emily involuntarily drew back. not so handsome as the Murray's. Nor the stars either. Her father was a handsome man,
Starting point is 08:55:56 so handsome that I'd have run away with him myself if I'd been fifty years younger. There's nothing of Juliet in her that I can see. Juliet was pretty. You're not as good-looking as that picture made you out, but I didn't expect you would be. Pictures and epitaphs are never to be trusted. Where's your bang gone, Emily?
Starting point is 08:56:17 "'Aunt Elizabeth combed it back. "'Well, you comb it down again while you're in my house. "'There's something of your grandfather Murray about your eyebrows. "'Your grandfather was a handsome man, "'and a darn bad-tempered one, "'almost as bad-tempered as the priests. "'Hey, Caroline.' "'If you please,' Great Aunt Nancy,
Starting point is 08:56:40 "'said Emily deliberately, "'I don't like to be told I look like other people. "'I look just like. myself. Aunt Nancy chuckled. Spunk, I see. Good. I never cared for, meek youngsters, so you're not stupid, eh? No, I'm not. Great Aunt Nancy grinned this time. Her false teeth looked uncannily white and young in her old brown face. Good. If you've brains, it's better than beauty. Brains last. Beauty doesn't. Me, for example. Caroline here now never had either brains nor. beauty had you caroline come let's go to supper thank goodness my stomach has stood by me if my good looks haven't great-aunt nancy hobbled by the aid of her stick up the steps and over to the table she sat at one end caroline at the other emily between feeling rather uncomfortable but the ruling passion was still strong in her and she was already composing a description of them for the blank book
Starting point is 08:57:47 I wonder if anybody will be sorry when you die, she thought, looking intently at Caroline's wizened old face. Come now, tell me, said Aunt Nancy. If you're not stupid, why did you write me such a stupid letter that first time? Lord, but it was stupid. I read it over to Caroline to punish her whenever she is naughty. I couldn't write any other kind of a letter because Aunt Elizabeth said she was going to read it. Trust, Elizabeth, for that.
Starting point is 08:58:20 Well, you can write what you like, yeah, and say what you like, and do what you like. Nobody will interfere with you, or try to bring you up. I asked you for a visit, not for discipline. Thought likely you'd have enough of that at New Moon. You can have the run of the house, and pick a boat to your liking from the priest boys. Not that the young friar what they were in my time. I don't want a beau, retorted Emily. She felt rather disgusted.
Starting point is 08:58:51 Old Kelly had ranted about bow half the way over, and here was Aunt Nancy beginning on the same unnecessary subject. Don't you tell me, said Aunt Nancy, laughing till her gold tassels shook. There never was a Murray of New Moon that didn't like a beau. When I was your age, I had half a dozen. all the little boys in Blairwater were fighting about me. Caroline here now, never had a bow in her life, had you, Caroline. Never wanted one, snapped Caroline.
Starting point is 08:59:26 Eighty and twelve say the same thing and both lie, said Aunt Nancy. What's the use of being hypocrites among ourselves? I don't say it isn't well enough when men are about. Caroline, do you notice what a pretty hand Emily has? as pretty as mine when I was young, and an elbow like a cat's. Cousin Susan Murray had an elbow like that. It's odd. She has more Murray points than star points, and yet she looks like the stars, and not like the Murray's.
Starting point is 08:59:58 What odd sums in addition we all are. The answer is never what you'd expect. Caroline, what a pity jarback isn't home. He'd like Emily. I have a feeling he'd like Emily. Jarback's the only priest that'll ever go to heaven, Emily. Let's have a look at your ankles, Puzz. Emily rather unwillingly put out her foot.
Starting point is 09:00:20 Aunt Nancy nodded her satisfaction. Mary Shipley's ankle. Only one in a generation has it. I had it. The merry ankles are thick. Even your mother's ankles were thick. Look at that in-step, Caroline. Emily, you're not a beauty, but if you learn to use your eyes and have, and feet properly you'll pass for one the men are easily filled in if the woman say you're not twill be held for jealousy emily decided that this was a good opportunity to find out something that had puzzled her old mr kelly said i had come hither eyes aunt nancy have i and what are come hither eyes jock kelly's an old ass you haven't come hither eyes it wouldn't be a
Starting point is 09:01:10 Murray Tradesh." What Nancy laughed. The Murrays have keep your distance eyes, and so have you, though your lashes contradict them a bit, but sometimes eyes like that, combined with certain other points, or quite as effective as come
Starting point is 09:01:28 hither eyes. Men go by contraries oftener than not. If you tell them to keep off, they'll come on. My own Nathaniel now. The only way to get him to do anything was to coax him to do the opposite. Remember, Caroline?
Starting point is 09:01:44 Have another cookie, Emily? I haven't had one yet, said Emily, rather resentfully. Those cookies looked very tempting, and she had been wishing they might be passed. She didn't know why Aunt Nancy and Caroline both laughed. Caroline's laugh was unpleasant. A dry, rusty sort of laugh.
Starting point is 09:02:08 No juice in it. Emily decided. She thought she would write in her description that Caroline had a thin, rattling laugh. What do you think of us? demanded Aunt Nancy. Come now, what do you think of us? Emily was dreadfully embarrassed. She had just been thinking of writing that Aunt Nancy looked withered and shriveled. But one couldn't say that.
Starting point is 09:02:35 One couldn't. Tell the truth and shame the devil. said aunt nancy that isn't a fair question cried emily you think said aunt nancy grinning that i'm a hideous old hag and that caroline isn't quite human she isn't she never was but you should have seen me seventy years ago i was handsomest of all the handsome marries the men were mad about me when i married nat priest his three brothers could have cut his throat one cut his own oh i played havoc in my time all i regret is i can't live it over twas a grand life while it lasted i queened it over them the woman hated me of course all but caroline here you worshipped me didn't you caroline and you worship me yet don't you caroline caroline i wish you didn't have a wart on your nose i wish you had one on your tongue said caroline was especially. Emily was beginning to feel tired and bewildered. It was interesting, and Aunt Nancy was kind enough in her queer way, but at home, Ilsa and Perry and Teddy would be four-gathering in
Starting point is 09:03:55 lofty John's bush for their evening revel, and saucy cell would be sitting on the dairy steps, waiting for Cousin Jimmy to give her the froth. Emily suddenly realized that she was as homesick for New Moon, as she had been for Maywood, her first night at New Moon. The child's tired, said Aunt Nancy. Take her to bed, Caroline. Put her in the pink room. Emily followed Caroline through the back hall, through the kitchen, through the front hall, up the stairs, down a long hall, through a long side hall. Where on earth was she being taken?
Starting point is 09:04:34 Finally, they reached a large room. Caroline set down the lamp and asked Emily if she had a nightgown. Of course I have. Do you suppose Aunt Elizabeth would have let me come without one? Emily was quite indignant. Nancy says you can sleep as long as you like in the morning, said Caroline. Good night. Nancy and I sleep in the old wing, of course, and the rest of us sleep well in our graves.
Starting point is 09:05:03 With this cryptic remark, Caroline trotted out and shut the door. Emily sat down on an embroidered ottoman and looked about her. The window curtains were a faded pink brocade, and the walls were hung with pink paper, decorated with diamonds of rose chains. It made a very pretty, very paper, as Emily found by cocking her eyes at it. There was a green carpet on the floor, so lavishly splashed with big pink roses that Emily was almost afraid to walk on it. She decided that the room was a very splendid one.
Starting point is 09:05:45 But I have to sleep here alone, so I must say my prayers very carefully, she reflected. She undressed rather hastily, blew out the light and got into bed. She covered herself up to her chin and lay there, staring at the high white ceiling. she had grown so used to aunt elizabeth's curtained bed that she felt curiously unsheltered in this low modern one but at least the window was wide open evidently aunt nancy did not share aunt elizabeth's horror of night air Through it, Emily could see summer fields lying in the magic of a rising yellow moon. But the room was big and ghostly. She felt horribly far away from everybody. She was lonesome, homesick.
Starting point is 09:06:38 She thought of old Kelly and his toad ointment. Perhaps he did boil the toads alive after all. This hideous thought tormented her. It was awful to think of toads or anything being boiled. alive. She had never slept alone before. Suddenly she was frightened. How the window rattled.
Starting point is 09:07:00 It sounded terribly as if somebody or some thing were trying to get in. She thought of Ilsa's ghost. A ghost you couldn't see, but could hear and feel was something especially spooky in the way of ghosts. She thought of the stone dogs that
Starting point is 09:07:18 went, woo-o-o-h, at midnight. A dog did begin to howl somewhere. Emily felt a cold perspiration on her brow. What had Caroline meant about the rest of them sleeping well in their graves? The floor creaked. Wasn't there somebody or something tiptoeing round outside the door? Didn't something move in the corner? There were mysterious sounds in the long hall.
Starting point is 09:07:48 I won't be scared, said Emily. I won't think of those things, and tomorrow I'll write down all about how I feel now. And then she did hear something right behind the wall at the head of her bed. There was no mistake about it. It was not imagination. She heard distinctly strange, uncanny rustles, as if stiff silk dresses were rubbing against each other, as if fluttering wings fan the air.
Starting point is 09:08:20 And there were soft, low, muffled sounds like tiny children's cries or moans. They lasted. They kept on. Now and then they would die away, then start up again. Emily cowered under the bedclothes, cold with real terror. Before, her fright had been only on the surface. She had known there was nothing to fear, even while she feared. Something in her braced her to endure.
Starting point is 09:08:50 But this was no mistake, no imagination. The rustles and flutterings and cries and moans were all too real, where the grain suddenly became a dreadful, uncanny place. Elsa was right. It was haunted, and she was all alone here, with miles of rooms and halls between her and any human being. It was cruel of Aunt Nancy to put her in a haunted room. Aunt Nancy must have known it was haunted.
Starting point is 09:09:19 cruel old Aunt Nancy with her ghoulish pride in men who had killed themselves for her. Oh, if she were back in Dear New Moon, with Aunt Elizabeth beside her. Aunt Elizabeth was not an ideal bedfellow, but she was flesh and blood, and if the windows were hermetically sealed, they kept out spooks as well as night air. perhaps it won't be so bad if I say my prayers over again, thought Emily, but even this didn't help much. To the end of her life, Emily never forgot that first horrible night at Wether Grange. She was so tired that sometimes she dozed fitfully off, only to be awakened in a few minutes in panic, horror, by the rustling, and muffled moans behind her bed. Every ghost and groan, every tortured spirit,
Starting point is 09:10:18 and bleeding none of the books she had read, came into her mind. Aunt Elizabeth was right, novels aren't fit to read, she thought, Oh, I will die here of fright, I know I will, I know I'm a coward, I can't be brave. When morning came, the room was bright with sunshine, and free from mysterious sounds. Emily got up, dressed, and found her way to the old wing. She was pale with black-ringed eyes, but resolute. Well, and how did you sleep? asked Aunt Nancy graciously.
Starting point is 09:10:56 Emily ignored the question. I want to go home today, she said. Aunt Nancy stared. Home? Nonsense. Are you such a homesick baby as that? I'm not homesick, not very much. Very, but I must go home. You can't.
Starting point is 09:11:15 There's no one here to take you. You don't expect Caroline can drive you to Blair Water, do you? Then I will walk. Aunt Nancy thumped her stick angrily on the floor. You will stay right here until I'm ready for you to go, Miss Puss. I never tolerate any whims but my own. Caroline knows that, don't you, Caroline? Sit down to your breakfast and eat.
Starting point is 09:11:40 Eat. Aunt Nancy glared at Emily. I won't stay here, said Emily. I won't stay another night in that horrible haunted room. It was cruel of you to put me there if... Emily gave Aunt Nancy glare for glare. If I was Salomey, I'd ask for your head on a charger. Hoity-toity, what nonsense is this about a haunted room?
Starting point is 09:12:08 We've no ghosts at Wither Grange. Have we, Caroline? We don't consider them hygienic. You have something dreadful in that room. It rustled and moaned and cried all night long, right in the wall behind my bed. I won't stay. I won't. Emily's tears came in spite of her efforts to repress them. She was so unstrung nervously that she couldn't help crying. It lacked but little of hysterics with her already.
Starting point is 09:12:39 Aunt Nancy looked at Caroline, and Caroline looked back at Aunt Nancy. We should have told her, Caroline. It's all our fault. I gleaned forgot. It's so long since anyone slept in the pink room. No wonder she was frightened. Emily, you poor child, it was a shame. It would serve me right to have my head on a charger, you vindictive scrap. We should have told you. told me what about the swallows in the chimney that was what you heard the big central chimney goes right up through the walls behind your bed it is never used now since the fireplaces were built in the swallows nest there hundreds of them they do make an uncanny noise fluttering and quarrelling as they do emily felt foolish and ashamed much more ashamed than she needed to be Phil, for her experience had really been a very trying one, and older folks than she, had been woefully frightened of knights in the pink room at Wither Grange.
Starting point is 09:13:50 Nancy Priest had put people into that room sometimes expressly to scare them, but to do her justice, she really had forgotten in Emily's case, and was sorry. Emily said no more about going home. Caroline and Aunt Nancy were both very kind to her that day. She had a good nap in the afternoon, and when the second night came she went straight to the pink room and slept soundly the night through. The rustles and cries were as distinct as ever,
Starting point is 09:14:22 but swallows and specters were two entirely different things. After all, I think I'll like Withergrange, said Emily. of section 25, recording by Leanne Fortune. Section 26 of Emily of New Moon by Lucy M. Montgomery. This Libre Fox recording is in the public domain. Recording by Leanne Fortune, Section 26. July 20th. Dear Father, I have been a fortnight at Withergrange and I have not written to you once,
Starting point is 09:15:09 but I thought of you every day. I had to write her on Laura and Ilsa and Teddy and cousin Jimmy and Perry and between times I am having such fun. The first night I was here I did not think I was going to be happy, but I am, only it's a different kind from New Moon happiness. Aunt Nancy and Caroline are very good to me and let me do exactly as I like. This is very agreeable. They are very sarcastic.
Starting point is 09:15:41 to each other. But I think they are a good bit like Ilsa and me. They fight quite frequently, but love each other very hard between times. I am sure Caroline isn't a witch, but I would like to know what she thinks of when she is all alone by herself. Aunt Nancy is not pretty any longer, but she is very aristocratic looking. She doesn't walk much because of her rheumatism, so she sits mostly in her back parlour and reads and it's lace or plays cards with Caroline. I talk to her a great deal because she says it amuses her, and I have told her a great many things, but I have never told her that I write poetry. If I did, I know she would make me recite it to her, and I feel she is not the right person to recite your poetry to.
Starting point is 09:16:35 and I do not talk about you or mother to her, though she tries to make me. I told her all about Lothy John in his bush and going to Father Cassidy. She chuckled over that and said she always liked to talk to the Catholic priests, because they were the only men in the world a woman could talk to for more than ten minutes without other women saying she was throwing herself at their heads. Aunt Nancy says a great many things like that. She and Caroline talk a great deal to each other about things that happened in the priest and Murray families.
Starting point is 09:17:13 I like to sit and listen. They don't stop just as things are getting interesting. The way Aunt Elizabeth and Aunt Laura do. A good many things I don't understand, but I will remember them and will find out about them sometime. I have written descriptions of Aunt Nancy. and Caroline in my Jimmy book. I keep the book hid behind the wardrobe in my room,
Starting point is 09:17:38 because I've found Caroline rummaging in my trunk one day. I must not call Aunt Nancy great aunt. She says it makes her feel like Methuselah. She tells me all about the men who were in love with her. It seems to me they all behave pretty much the same. I don't think that was exciting, but she says it was. She tells me all about the parties and dances they used to have here long ago. With a grange is bigger than New Moon, and the furniture is much handsomer,
Starting point is 09:18:12 but it is harder to feel acquainted with it. There are many interesting things in this house. I love to look at them. There is a Jacobite glass on a stand in the parlour. It was a glass, an old ancestor of the priests had long ago in Scotland, and it has a thistle and a rose on it, and they used it to drink Prince Charlie's Healthwith and for no other purpose.
Starting point is 09:18:38 It is a very valuable heirloom, and Aunt Nancy prizes it highly. And she has a pickled snake in a big glass jar in the China cabinet. It is hideous, but fascinating. I shiver when I see it, but yet I go to look at it every day. something seems to drag me to it aunt nancy has a bureau in her room with glass knobs and a vase shaped like a green fish sitting up on end and a chinese dragon with a curly tail and a case of sweet little stuffed humming-birds and a sand-glass for boiling eggs by and a framed wreath made out of the hair of all the dead priests and lots of old daguerre types but the thing i like the best of all is a great silvery shining ball hanging from the lamp in the parlour it reflects everything like a little fairy world aunt nancy calls it a gazing ball
Starting point is 09:19:45 and says that when she is dead i am to have it i wish she hadn't said that because i want the ball so much that i can't help wondering when she will die and that makes me feel wicked I am to have the Chessy Cat door-knocker and her gold earrings too. These are Murray heirlooms. Aunt Nancy says the priest heirlooms must go to the priests. I will like the Chessy Cat, but I don't want the earrings. I'd rather not have people notice my ears. I have to sleep alone. I feel frightened, but I think if I could get over being frightened, I'd like it.
Starting point is 09:20:26 I don't mind the swallows now. It's just being alone so far away from anyone. But it is lovely to be able to stretch out your legs just as you like and not have anybody scold you for squirming. And when I wake up in the night and think of a splendid line of poetry because the things that you think of like that always seem the best, I can get right out of bed and write it right down in my Jimmy book. I couldn't do that at home.
Starting point is 09:20:58 and then by morning I'd likely forget it. I thought of such a nice line last night. Lily's lifted pearly chalices. A chalice is a kind of cup, only more poetical, where bees were drowned in sweetness, and I felt happy because I was sure there were two better lines than any I had composed yet. I am allowed to go into the kitchen and help Caroline cook. Caroline is a good cook, but sometimes she makes a mistake, and this vexes Aunt Nancy because she likes nice things to eat.
Starting point is 09:21:34 The other day Caroline made the barley soup, far too thick, and when Aunt Nancy looked at her plate, she said, Lord, is this a dinner or a poultice? Caroline said, it is good enough for a priest, and what is good enough for a priest is good enough for a marry. and Aunt Nancy said, Woman, the priests eat of the crumbs that fall from the Murray's tables. And Caroline was so mad, she cried. And Aunt Nancy said to me, Emily, never marry a priest.
Starting point is 09:22:07 Just like old Kelly, when I have no notion of marrying one of them, I don't like any of them I've seen very much, but they seem to me a good deal like other people. Jim is the best of them, but impudent. I like the Withergrange breakfasts better than the New Moon breakfasts. We have toast and bacon and marmalade, nicer than porridge. Sunday is more amusing here than at New Moon, but not so holy. Nice for a change.
Starting point is 09:22:37 Aunt Nancy can't go to church or knit lace. So she and Caroline play cards all day, but she says, I must never do it, that she is just a bad example. I love to look at Aunt Nancy's. big parlor bible because there are so many interesting things in it pieces of dresses and hair and poetry and old tin types and accounts of deaths and weddings i've found a piece about my own birth and it gave me a queer feeling in the afternoon some of the priests come to see aunt nancy and stay to supper leslie priest always comes he is aunt nancy's favorite nancy's favorite
Starting point is 09:23:20 nephew, so Jim says. I think that is because he pays her compliments, but I saw him winked Isaac priest once when he paid her one. I don't like him. He treats me as if I was a mere child. Aunt Nancy says terrible things to them all, but they just laugh. When they go away, Aunt Nancy makes fun of them to Caroline.
Starting point is 09:23:46 Caroline doesn't like it because she is a priest, and so she and Aunt Nancy all. always quarrel Sunday evening, and don't speak again till Monday morning. I can read all the books in Aunt Nancy's bookcase except the row on the top shelf. I wonder why I can't read them. Aunt Nancy said they were French novels, but I just peeped into one and it was English. I wonder if Aunt Nancy tells lies. The place I love best is down at Bay Shore.
Starting point is 09:24:17 Some parts of the shore are very steep, and there are such a lot of the shore. nice, woodsy, unexpected places all along it. I wonder there and compose poetry. I miss Ilsa, and Teddy and Perry and saucy sell a great deal. I had a letter from Ilsa today. She wrote me that they couldn't do anything more about the midsummer night's dream till I got back. It is nice to feel so necessary. Aunt Nancy doesn't like Aunt Elizabeth. She called her a tyrant one day, and then she said jemmy murray was a very clever boy elizabeth murray killed his intellect in her temper and nothing was done to her if she had killed his body she would have been a murderess the other was worse if you ask me i do not like aunt elizabeth at times myself but i felt dear father that i must stand up for my family and i said i do not want to hear such things said of my own Aunt Elizabeth, and I just gave Aunt Nancy a look. She said, well, source box, my brother
Starting point is 09:25:28 Archibald will never be dead as long as you're alive. If you don't want to hear things, don't hang around when Caroline and I are talking. I noticed there are plenty of things you like to hear. This was sarcasm, dear father, but still I feel Aunt Nancy likes me. But perhaps she will not like me very long. Jim Priest says she is fickle and never liked anyone, even her husband, very long, but after she has been sarcastic to me, she always tells Caroline to give me a piece of pie, so I don't mind the sarcasm. She lets me have real tea, too. I like it. At New Moon, Aunt Elizabeth won't give me anything but cambric tea because it is best for my health. Aunt Nancy says the way to be healthy is to eat just what you want and never think about your stomach. But then she was never
Starting point is 09:26:28 threatened with consumption. She says I needn't be a bit frightened of dying of consumption because I have too much ginger in me. That is a comforting thought. The only time I don't like Aunt Nancy is when she begins talking about the different parts of me and the effect they will have on the men. It makes me feel so silly. I will write you oftener after this, dear father. I feel I have been neglecting you. P.S. I am afraid there are some mistakes in spelling in this letter. I forgot to bring my dictionary with me. July 22nd. Oh dear father, I am in a dreadful scrape. I don't know what I am to do. Oh, bother, I have broken on Nancy's Jacobite glass.
Starting point is 09:27:17 It seems to me like a dreadful dream. I went into the parlor today to look at the pickled snake, and just as I was turning away, my sleeve called the Jacobite glass, and over it went on the hearth, and shivered into fragments. At first I rushed out and left them there, but afterwards I went back, and carefully, gathered them up and hid them in a box behind the sofa. Aunt Nancy never goes into the parlour now, and Caroline not very often, and perhaps they may not miss the glass until I go home, but it
Starting point is 09:27:53 haunts me. I keep thinking of it all the time and I cannot enjoy anything. I know Aunt Nancy will be furious and never forgive me if she finds out. I could not sleep all night for worrying about it. Jim Priest came down to play with me today, but he said there was no fun in me and went home. The priests mostly say what they think. Of course, there was no fun in me. How could there be? I wonder if it would do any good to pray about it. I don't feel as if it would be right to pray, because I am deceiving Aunt Nancy. July 24th, Dear Father, this is a very same. strange world. Nothing ever turns out just like what you expect. Last night I couldn't sleep again. I was so worried. I thought I was a coward and doing an underhanded thing and not living up to my
Starting point is 09:28:53 traditions. At last it got so bad I couldn't stand it. I can bear it when other people have a bad opinion of me, but it hurts too much when I have a bad opinion of myself. So, I got out of bed and went right back through all those halls to the back parlour. Aunt Nancy was still there, all alone playing solitaire. She said, what on earth was I out of bed for at such an hour? I just said, short and quick to get the worst over. I broke your Jacobite glass yesterday and hid the pieces behind the sofa. Then I waited for the storm to burst. Aunt Nancy said,
Starting point is 09:29:37 What a blessing! I've often wanted to smash it, but never had the courage. All the priest clan are waiting for me to die. To get that glass and quarrel over it, and I'm tickled to think none of them can have it now and yet can't pick a fuss with me over smashing it. Get off to bed and get your beauty sleep. I said, and aren't you mad at all aunt nancy if it had been a murray heirloom i'd have torn up the turf aunt nancy said but i don't care a hoot about the priest things
Starting point is 09:30:12 so i went back to bed dear father and felt very relieved but not so heroic i had a letter from ilsa to-day she says saucy cell has had kittens at last i feel that i ought to be home to see about them likely aunt elizabeth will have them all drown before i get back i had a letter from teddy too not much of a letter but all filled with dear little pictures of ilsa and perry and the tansy patch and lofty john's bush they made me feel homesick july twenty eighth oh father dear i have found out all about the mystery of ilsa's mother it is so terrible i can't write it down even to you i cannot believe it but aunt nancy says it is true i did not think there could be such terrible things in the world No, I can't believe it, and I won't believe it, no matter who says it is true. I know Ilsa's mother couldn't have done anything like that. There must have been a fearful mistake somewhere. I am so unhappy and feel as if I could never be happy anymore.
Starting point is 09:31:33 Last night I wept on my pillow, like the heroines in Aunt Nancy's books do. End of Section 26, recording by Leanne Fortune. Section 27 of Emily of New Moon by Lucy M. Montgomery. This Librivox recording is in the public domain, recording by Leanne Fortune, Section 27. Great Aunt Nancy and Caroline Priest will want to colour their grey days with the remembered crimsons of old, long past deline. and merry-makings.
Starting point is 09:32:21 But they went further than this and talked over any number of old family histories before Emily, with a total disregard of her youth. Loves, births, deaths, scandals, tragedies, anything that came into their old heads, nor did their spare details. Aunt Nancy reveled in details. She forgot nothing,
Starting point is 09:32:45 and sins and weaknesses that death had covered, and time shown mercy to, were ruthlessly dragged out and dissected by this ghoulish old lady. Emily was not quite certain whether she really liked it or not. It was fascinating. It fed some dramatic hunger in her, but it made her feel unhappy somehow, as if something very ugly were concealed in the darkness of the pit they opened,
Starting point is 09:33:17 before her innocent eyes. As Aunt Laura had said, her youth protected her to some extent, but it could not save her from a dreadful understanding of the pitiful story of Ilsa's mother on the afternoon when it seemed good to Aunt Nancy to resurrect that tale of anguish and shame. Emily was curled up on the sofa in the back parlor,
Starting point is 09:33:43 reading the Scottish Chiefs, because it was a breathlessly hot. July afternoon. Too hot to haunt the bay shore. Emily was feeling very happy. The wind woman was ruffling over the big maple grove behind the grange, turning the leaves until every tree seemed to be covered with strange, pale, silvery blossoms. Fragrances drifted in from the garden. The world was lovely. She had had a letter from Aunt Laura saying that one of Salicy-Cetons had been saved for her. Emily had felt when Mike the second died that she would never want another cat, but now she found she did. Everything suited her very well. She was so happy that she should have sacrificed her
Starting point is 09:34:34 dearest possession to the jealous gods if she had known anything about the old pagan belief aunt nancy was tired of playing solitaire she pushed the cards away and took up her knitting emily she said has your aunt laura any notion of marrying dr burn lee emily recalled thus abruptly from the field of bannock bern looked bored Blaywater gossip had often asked or hinted this question, and now it made her in Priest Pond. No, I'm sure she hasn't, she said. Why, Aunt Nancy? Dr. Bonley hates women. Aunt Nancy chuckled. Thought perhaps he'd got over that. It's eleven years now since his wife ran away.
Starting point is 09:35:28 Few men hold to one idea for anything like eleven years. But Alan Burnley always was stubborn in anything, love or hate. He still loves his wife, and that is why he hates her memory, and all other women. I never heard the rights of that story, said Caroline. Who was his wife? Beatrice Mitchell, one of the Shrewsbury Mitchells. She was only 18 when Alan married her. He was 35.
Starting point is 09:35:59 Emily, never you be fool enough to marry a man, much older than yourself. Emily said nothing. The Scottish chiefs was forgotten. Her fingertips were growing cold as they always did in excitement, her eyes turning black. She felt that she was on the verge of solving the mystery that had so long worried and puzzled her. She was desperately afraid that Aunt Nancy would branch off to something else. I've heard she was a great beauty, said Caroline. Aunt Nancy sniffed. depends on your taste in style oh she was pretty one of your golden-haired dolls she had a little birthmark over her left eyebrow just like a tiny red heart i never could see anything but that mark when i looked at her but her flatterers told her it was a beauty spot the ace of hearts they called her allan was mad about her she had been a flirt before her marriage
Starting point is 09:37:00 but i will say for justice among women is a rare thing caroline you for instance are an unjust old hag that she didn't float off to marrying openly at least she was a sly puss always laughing and singing and dancing no wife for allan burnly if you ask me and he could have had laura murray but between a fool and a sensible woman did a man ever hesitate the first woman the fuller fool wins every time, Caroline. That's why you never got a husband. You were too sensible. I got mine by pretending to be a fool. Emily, you remember that. You have brains. Hide them. Your ankles will do more for you than your brains ever will. Never mind Emily's ankles, said Caroline keen on a scandal hunt. Go on about the burn leaves. Well, there was a cousin of hers. Leo Mitchell from Shrewsbury. You remember the Mitchells, don't you, Caroline?
Starting point is 09:38:06 This Leo was a handsome fellow, a sea captain. He had been in love with Beatrice, so gossip ran. Some said Beatrice wanted him, but that her people made her marry Alan Burnley because he was the better match. Who knows? Gossip lies nine times and tells a half-truth the tenth. She pretended to be in love.
Starting point is 09:38:30 with Ellen anyhow and he believed it when Leo came home from a voyage and found Beatrice married he took it coolly enough but he was always over at Blairwater Beatrice had plenty of excuses Leo was her cousin they had been brought up together they were like brother and sister she was so lonesome in Blairwater after living in a town he had no home except with a brother Alan took it all down. He was so infatuated with her she could have made him believe anything. She and Leo were always together there, when Alan was away, seeing his patience. Then came the night Leo's vessel. The Lady of Winds was to sail from Blair Harbour for South
Starting point is 09:39:19 America. He went, and My Lady Beatrice went with him. A queer little strangled sound came from Emily's corner. If Aunt Nancy or Caroline had looked at her, they would have seen that the child was white as the dead with wide, horrifled eyes. But they did not look. They knitted, gossiped on,
Starting point is 09:39:41 enjoying themselves hugely. How did the doctor take it? asked Caroline. Take it, take it. Nobody knows. Everybody knows what kind of a man he's been ever since, though. He came from.
Starting point is 09:39:56 home that night at dusk. The baby was asleep in its crib, and the servant girl was watching it. She told Alan that Mrs. Burnley had gone to the harbour with her cousin for a goodbye walk, and would be back at ten. Ellen waited for her easily enough. He never doubted her. But she didn't come back. She had never intended to come back. In the morning, the Lady of Winds was gone, had sailed out of the harbour dark the night before. beatrice had gone on board with him that was all anybody knew allan burnley said nothing beyond forbidding her name ever to be mentioned in his hearing again but the lady of winds was lost with all on board off hatteras and that was the end of that elopement and the end of beatrice with her beauty and her laughter and her ace of hearts but not the end of the shame and her wretchedness she brought to her home, said Caroline shrewishly.
Starting point is 09:41:02 I'd die and feather such a woman. Nonsense, if a man can't look after his wife, if he blinds his own eyes. Mercy on us, child. What is the matter? For Emily was standing up, holding out her hands as if pushing some loathly thing from her. I don't believe it, she cried in her. a high unnatural voice. I don't believe Ilse's mother did that.
Starting point is 09:41:32 She didn't. She couldn't have. Not Ilse's mother. Catch her, Caroline, cried Aunt Nancy. But Emily, though the back parlour had whirled about her for a second, had recovered herself. Don't touch me, she cried passionately. Don't touch me.
Starting point is 09:41:54 You, you, you, you really. liked hearing that story. She rushed out of the room. Aunt Nancy looked ashamed for a moment. For the first time it occurred to her that her scandal-loving old tongue had done a black thing. Then she shrugged her shoulders. She can't go through life in cotton wool. Might as well learn spades or spades now as ever. I would have thought she'd have heard it all long ago if Blairwater gossip is what it used to be. If she goes home and tells this, I'll have the indignant virgins of New Moon coming down on me
Starting point is 09:42:34 in holy horror as a corruptor of youth. Caroline, don't you ask me to tell you any more family horrors before my niece, you scandalous old woman, at your age, I'm surprised at you. Aunt Nancy and Caroline returned to their knitting and their spicy reminiscences, and upstairs in the pink room, Emily lay face downwards on her bed and cried for hours. It was so horrible.
Starting point is 09:43:04 Ilsa's mother had run away and left her little baby. To Emily, that was the awful thing, a strange, cruel, heartless thing that Ilsa's mother had done. She could not bring herself to believe it. There was some mistake somewhere. There was. Perhaps she was kidding.
Starting point is 09:43:24 napped, said Emily, trying desperately to explain it. She just went on board to look around, and he weighed anchor and carried her off. She couldn't have gone away of her own accord, and left her dear little baby. The story haunted Emily in good earnest. She could think of nothing else for days. It took possession of her, and worried and gnawed at her with an almost physical pain. She dreaded going back to New Moon and meeting Ilsa with this consciousness of a dark secret which she must hide from her. Ilsa knew nothing. She had asked Ilsa once where her mother was buried and Ilsa had said, Oh, I don't know. At Shrewsbury I guess. That's where all the Mitchells are buried. Emily wrung her slim hands together. She was as sensibly. She was as
Starting point is 09:44:22 sensitive to ugliness and pain as she was to beauty and pleasure, and this thing was both hideous and agonising. Yet she could not keep from thinking about it, day and night. Life at Wethergrange suddenly went stale. Aunt Nancy and Caroline all at once, gave up talking family history, even a harmless history before her, and as it was painful repression for them, They did not encourage her hanging round. Emily began to feel that they were glad when she was out of hearing. So she kept away and spent most of her days wandering on the bay shore. She could not compose any poetry.
Starting point is 09:45:07 She could not write in her Jimmy book. She could not even write to her father. Something seemed to hang between her and her old delights. There was a drop of poison in every cup. even the fulmy shadows on the great bay the charm of its fur-hung cliffs and its little purple eyelids that looked like outposts of fairyland could not bring to her the old fine careless rapture she was afraid she could never be happy again so intense had been her reaction to her first revelation of the world's sin and sorrow and under it all persisted the same incredulity. Ilsa's mother couldn't have done it, and the same helpless longing to prove she couldn't have done it. But how could it be proved? It couldn't. She had solved one mystery,
Starting point is 09:46:07 but she had stumbled into a darker one, the reason why Beatrice Burnley had never come back on that summer twilight of long ago. For all the evidence of facts to her, the contrary notwithstanding, Emily persisted in her secret belief that whatever the reason was, it was not that she had gone away in the Lady of Wins when that doomed ship sailed out into the starlit wonder of the Gulf beyond Blair Harbour. End of Section 27, recording by Leanne Fortune. Section 28 of Emily of New Moon by Lucy M. Montgomery.
Starting point is 09:46:58 This Librivox recording is in the public domain. Recording by Leanne Fortune, Section 28. I wonder, thought Emily, how much longer I have to live. She had prowled that evening further down the bay shore than she had ever gone before. It was a warm, windy evening. The air was resinous and sweet.
Starting point is 09:47:24 The bay a misty turquoise. that part of the shore whereon she found herself seemed as lonely and virgin as if no human foot had ever trodden it save for a tiny trixie path slender as red thread and bordered by great green velvety sheets of moss that wound in and out of the big furs and scrub spruces the banks grew steeper and rockier as she went on and finally the little path vanished altogether in a plot of bracken. Emily was just turning to go back when she caught sight of a magnificent spray of farewell summer, growing far out on the edge of the bank.
Starting point is 09:48:12 She must get it. She had never seen farewell summers of so dark and richer purple. She stepped out to reach them. The treacherous mossy soil gave way under her feet and slid down the steep slope. Emily made a frantic attempt to scramble back, but the harder she tried the faster went the landslide, carrying her with it.
Starting point is 09:48:38 In a moment it would pass the slope and go over the brink of the rocks, straight to the boulders-tren shore 30 feet below. Emily had one dreadful moment of terror and despair, and then she found that the clump of mossy earth, which had broken away, had held on a narrow ledge of rock, half hanging over it, and she was lying on the clump. It seemed to her that the slightest movement on her part would send it over, straight to the cruel boulders underneath. She lay very still, trying to think, trying not to be afraid.
Starting point is 09:49:18 She was far, far away from any house. nobody could hear her if she screamed, and she did not even dare to scream, lest the motion of her body dislodge the fragment on which she lay. How long could she lie there motionless? Night was coming on. Aunt Nancy would grow anxious when the dark fell
Starting point is 09:49:40 and would send Caroline to look for her, but Caroline would never find her here. Nobody would ever think of looking here for her, so far away from her. from the Grange, in the spruce barons of the lower bay, to lie there alone all night, to fancy the earth was slipping over, waiting for help that would never come, Emily could hardly restrain a shudder that might have been ruinous. She had faced death once before, or thought she had, on the night when Lofty John had told her she had eaten a poisoned apple, but this was even harder to die here. all alone, far away from home. They might never know what had become of her, never find her.
Starting point is 09:50:29 The crows or the gulls would pick her eyes out. She dramatized the things so vividly that she almost screamed with the horror of it. She would just disappear from the world as Ilsa's mother had disappeared. What had become of Ilsa's mother? Even in her own desperate plight, Emily Arsson's. asked herself that question, and she would never see Dear New Moon again, and Teddy, and the dairy, and the Tansy Patch, and Lofty John's Bush, and the mossy old sundial, and her precious little heap of manuscripts on the sofa shelf in the garret. I must be very brave and patient, she thought.
Starting point is 09:51:16 My only chance is to lie still, and I can pray in my mind, I'm sure God can hear thoughts as well as words. It is nice to think he can hear me if nobody else can. Oh God, Father's God, please work a miracle and save my life, because I don't think I'm fit to die yet. Excuse my not being on my knees. You can see I can't move. And if I die, please don't let Aunt Elizabeth find my letterbles ever.
Starting point is 09:51:51 please let aunt laura find them and please don't let caroline move out the wardrobe when she house cleans because then she would find my jimmy book and read what i wrote about her please forgive all my sins especially not being grateful enough and cutting a bang and please don't let father be very far away amen then characteristically she thought of a postscript and oh please let somebody find out that Ilsa's mother didn't do that. She lay very still. The light on the water began to turn warm gold and rose. A great pine on a bluff in front of her overflowed in a crest of dark boughs against the amber splendor behind it, a part of the beauty of the beautiful world that was slipping away from her.
Starting point is 09:52:49 The chill of the evening golf breeze began to. to creep over her. Once a bit of earth broke off at her side and went down. Emily heard the thud of the little pebbles in it on the boulders below. The portion upon which one of her legs lay was quite loose and pendant also. She knew it might break off too at any moment. It would be very dreadful to be there when it got dark. She could see the big spray of farewell summer that had lured her to her doom, waving, unplucked above her, wonderfully purple and lovely. Then, beside it, she saw a man's face looking down at her. She heard him say, my God, softly to himself.
Starting point is 09:53:37 She saw that he was slight and that one shoulder was a trifle higher than the other. This must be Dean Priest, Jarback Priest. Emily dared not call to him. She lay still, and her great, grey, purple eyes said, Save me. How can I help you? Said Dean Priest, hoarsely, as if to himself. I cannot reach you, and it looks as if the slightest touch or jarl would send that broken earth over the brink.
Starting point is 09:54:10 I must go for a rope, and to leave you here alone, like this. Can you wait, child? Yes. breathed Emily. She smiled at him to encourage him, the little soft smile that began at the corners of her mouth and spread over her face. Dean Priest never forgot that smile, and the steadfast child eyes looking out through it from the little face that seemed so perilously near the brink. I'll be as quick as I can, he said, I can't go very fast. I'm a bit lame, you see, but don't be frightened. I'll save you. I'll leave my dog to keep you company.
Starting point is 09:54:56 Here, Tweed. He whistled. A great tawny gold dog came in sight. Sit right here, Tweed, till I come back. Don't stir, poor, don't wag a tail, talk to her only with your eyes. Tweed sat down obediently and Dean Priest disappeared. Emily lay there and dramatized the whole incident for her Jimmy book. She was a little frightened still, but not too frightened to see herself writing it all out the next day. It would be quite a thrilling bit. She liked to know the big dog was there. She was not so learned in law of dogs as in law of cats, but he looked very human and trusty, watching her with great kindly eyes.
Starting point is 09:55:43 A grey kitten was an adorable thing, but a grey kitten would not have sat there and encouraged her. I believe, thought Emily, that a dog is better than a cat when you're in trouble. It was half an hour before Dean Priest returned. Thank God you haven't gone over, he muttered. I hadn't to go as far as I feared. I found a rope in an empty boat up shore and took it. And now, if I drop the rope down to you, I'll you strong enough to hold it while the earth goes,
Starting point is 09:56:19 and then hang on while I pull you up? I'll try, said Emily. Dean Priest knotted a loop at the end and slid it down to her. Then he wound the rope around the trunk of a heavy fur. Now, he said. Emily said inwardly, Dear God, please, and caught the swaying loop. the next moment the full weight of her body swung from it for at her first movement the broken soil beneath her slipped down slipped over
Starting point is 09:56:55 dean priest sickened and shivered could she cling to the rope while he drew her up then he saw she had got a little knee hold on the narrow shelf carefully he drew on the rope emily full of pluck helped him by digging her toes into the crumbling bank. In a moment she was within his reach. He grasped her arms and pulled her up beside him into safety. As he lifted her past the farewell summer, Emily reached out her hand and broke off the spray. I've got it anyhow, she said jubilantly. Then she remembered her manners. I'm much obliged to you. You saved my life. And I think I'll sit down a moment. My legs feel funny and trembling. Emily sat down all at once more shaky than she had been through all the danger. Dean Priest leaned against the knolled old fur.
Starting point is 09:57:55 He seemed trembly too. He wiped his forehead with his handkerchief. Emily looked curiously at him. She had learned a good deal about him from Aunt Nancy's casual remarks, not always good-natured remarks, for Aunt Nancy did not wholly like him, it seemed. She always called him jarback, rather contemptuously, while Caroline scrupulously called him Dean. Emily knew he had been to college, that he was 36 years old, which to Emily seemed a venerable age, and well off, that he had a malformed shoulder and limped slightly, that he
Starting point is 09:58:35 cared for nothing, save books, nor ever had, that he lived with an older brother, and travelled a great deal and that the whole priest-clan stood somewhat in awe of his ironic tongue. Aunt Nancy had called him a cynic. Emily did not know what a cynic was, but it sounded interesting. She looked him over carefully and saw that he had delicate, pale features and tawny brown hair. His lips were thin and sensitive, with a whimsical curve. She liked his mouth. Had she been older, she would have known why, because it connoted strength and tenderness and humor. In spite of his twisted shoulder,
Starting point is 09:59:22 there was about him a certain aloof dignity of presence, which was characteristic of many of the priests, and which was often mistaken for pride. The green priest eyes that were peering in uncanny in Caroline's face, an impudent in Jim priests, were remarkably dreamy, and attractive in his. Well, do you think me handsome?
Starting point is 09:59:48 He said, sitting down on another stone and smiling at her. His voice was beautiful, musical and caressing. Emily blushed. She knew staring was not etiquette, and she did not think him at all handsome. So she was very thankful that he did not press his question, but asked another, Do you know who your nightly rescuer is?
Starting point is 10:00:12 "'I think you must be jar—Mr. Dean, priest!' Emily flushed again with vexation. She had come so near to making another terrible hole in her manners. "'Yes, jaw-back priest. You needn't mind the nickname. I've heard it often enough. It's a priest idea of humour.' He laughed rather unpleasantly. The reason for it is obvious enough, isn't it? I never got anything else at school. How came you to slide over that cliff? I wanted this, said Emily, waving her farewell summer. And you have it.
Starting point is 10:00:51 Do you always get what you go after, even with death slipping a thin wedge between? I think you're born lucky, I see the signs. If that big astor lured you into danger, it saved you as well, for it was through stepping over to investigate it that I saw you. its size and colour caught my eye otherwise i should have gone on and you what would have become of you whom do you belong to that you are let risk your life on these dangerous banks what is your name if you have a name i begin to doubt you i see you have pointed ears have i been tricked into meddling with fairies, and will I discover, presently, that twenty years have passed, and that I am an old man long since lost to the living world, with nothing but the skeleton of my dog for company. I am Emily Bird's door of new moon, said Emily, rather coldly.
Starting point is 10:01:53 She was beginning to be sensitive about her ears. Father Cassidy had remarked on them, and now jar-backed priest, was their wreath? Really something uncanny about them? And yet, there was a flavour about the said jarback that she liked. Like decidedly. Emily never was long in doubt about anyone she met. In a few minutes she always knew whether she liked, disliked, or was indifferent to them.
Starting point is 10:02:25 She had a queer feeling that she had known jarback priest for years, perhaps because it had seemed so long when she was lying on that crumbling earth waiting for him to return he was not handsome but she liked that lean clever face of his with its magnetic green eyes
Starting point is 10:02:45 so you're the young lady visitor at the Grange said Dean Priest in some astonishment then my dear Aunt Nancy should look after you better my very dear Aunt Nancy Aunt Nancy. You don't like Aunt Nancy, I see, said Emily coolly. What is the use of liking a lady who won't like me? You have probably discovered by this time that my lady aunt detests me.
Starting point is 10:03:17 Oh, I don't think it's as bad as that, said Emily. She must have some good opinions about you. She says you're the only priest who will ever. go to heaven. She doesn't mean that as a compliment, whatever you in your innocence believe it to be. And you are Douglas Dar's daughter? I knew your father. We were boys together at Queen's Academy. We drifted apart after we left it. He went into journalism, I to McGill, that he was the only friend I had at school, the only boy who would bother himself about jar-back priest, who was lame and hunchback and couldn't play football or hockey. Emily Bird's star.
Starting point is 10:04:04 Star should be your first name. You look like a star. You have a radiant sort of personality shining through you. Your proper habitat should be the evening sky just after sunset or the morning sky, just before sunrise. Yes, you'd be more at home in the morning sky. I think I shall call you star. Do you mean that you think me pretty?
Starting point is 10:04:28 asked Emily directly. Why, it hadn't occurred to me to wonder whether you were pretty or not. Do you think a star should be pretty? Emily reflected. No, she said finally. The word doesn't suit a star. I perceive you are an artist in words. Of course it doesn't.
Starting point is 10:04:51 Stars are prismatic, palpitating, elusive. It is not often we find one made. flesh and blood. I think I'll wait for you. Oh, I'm ready to go now, said Emily, standing up. Hmm, that wasn't what I meant. Never mind. Come along, Star, if you don't mind walking a bit slowly. I'll take you back from the wilderness, at least.
Starting point is 10:05:20 I don't know that I'll venture to with a Grange tonight. I don't want Aunt Nancy to take the edge of you. and so you don't think me handsome? I didn't say so, cried Emily. Not in words. But I can read your thoughts, Star. It won't ever do to think anything you don't want me to know. The gods gave me that gift when they kept back everything else I wanted.
Starting point is 10:05:48 You don't think me handsome, but you think me nice. Do you think you are pretty yourself? A little, since Aunt Nancy lets me wear my bang, said Emily frankly. Jarback priest made a grimace. Don't call it by such a name. It's a worst name even than bustle. Bangs and bustles. They hurt me.
Starting point is 10:06:14 I like that black wave breaking on your white brows. But don't call it a bang, ever again. It is a very ugly word. I never use it in my mouth. poetry, of course, whereby Dean Priest discovered that Emily wrote poetry. He also discovered pretty nearly everything else about her in that charming walk back to Priest's pond in the first scented dusk, with tweed walking between them, his nose touching his master's hands softly, every now and then, while the robins in the trees above them whistled blithely in the
Starting point is 10:06:51 Afterlight. With nine out of ten people, Emily was secretive and reserved. But Dean Priest was sealed of her tribe, and she divined it instantly. He had a right to the inner sanctuary, and she yielded it unquestioningly. She talked to him freely. Besides, she felt alive again. She felt the wonderful thrill of living again, after that dreadful space when she had seemed to hang between life and death, she felt, as she wrote to her father afterwards, as if a little bird was singing in my heart, and oh, how good the green sod felt under her feet. She told him all about herself and her doings and beings. Only one thing she did not tell him, her worry over ils his mother. That she could not speak of, to anyone. Aunt Nancy need not have been frightened that she
Starting point is 10:07:49 would carry tails to New Moon. I wrote a whole poem yesterday when it rained, and I couldn't get out, she said. It began, I sit by the western window that looks on Melvin Bay. Am I not to hear the whole of it? asked Dean, who knew perfectly well, that Emily was hoping that he would ask it.
Starting point is 10:08:11 Emily delightedly repeated the whole poem. When she came to the two lines she liked best in it, perhaps in those wooded islands that gem the proud bay's breast she looked up sideways at him to see if he admired them but he was walking with eyes cast down and an absent expression on his face she felt a little disappointed hmm he said when she had finished you're twelve didn't you say when you're ten years older i shouldn't wonder but let's not think of it. Father Cassidy told me to keep on, cried Emily. There was no need of it. You would keep on anyhow.
Starting point is 10:09:01 You have the itch for writing, born in you. It's quite incurable. What are you going to do with it? I think I shall be either a great poetess or a distinguished novelist, said Emily reflectively. Having only to choose, remarked, Drey Lee. Better be a novelist. I hear it pays better. What worries me about writing novels, confided Emily, is the love talk in them. I'm sure I'll never be able to write it. I've tried,
Starting point is 10:09:36 she concluded candidly, and I can't think of anything to say. Don't worry about that. I'll teach you someday, said Dean. Will you? Will you, will you really? Emily was very eager. I'll be so obliged, if you will. I think I could manage everything else very nicely. It's a bargain then. Don't forget it. And don't go looking for another teacher mind. What do you find to do at the Grange besides writing poetry? Are you never lonesome with only those two old survivals? "'No, I enjoy my own company,' said Emily gravely. "'You would. Stars are said to dwell apart, anyhow, sufficient unto themselves,
Starting point is 10:10:27 "'inspired in their own light. Do you really like Aunt Nancy?' "'Yes, indeed, she is very kind to me. She doesn't make me wear sun-bonnets, "'and she lets me go barefooted in the forenoons. but I have to wear my button boots in the afternoons and I hate button boots. Naturally, you should be shot with sandals of moonshine and wear a scarf of seamist, with a few five flies caught in it over your hair. Stahl, you don't look like your father, but you suggest him in several ways. Do you look like your mother?
Starting point is 10:11:05 I never saw her. All at once, Emily smiled demurely. A real sense of humour was born in her at that moment. Never again was she to feel quite so unmixedly tragic over anything. No, she said, It's only my eyelashes and smile that are like mothers, but I've got father's forehead and grandma's hair and eyes, and great-uncle George's nose, and Aunt Nancy's hands,
Starting point is 10:11:35 and cousin Susan's elbows, and great-great-grandmother Murray's ankles and grandfather Murray's eyebrows. Dean Priest laughed. A rag-bag as we all are, he said, but your soul is your own and by a new, I'll swear to that. Oh, I'm so glad I like you, said Emily impulsively. It would be hateful to think anyone I didn't like had saved my life. I don't mind you're saving it a bit.
Starting point is 10:12:09 That's good. Because you see, your life belongs to me henceforth. Since I saved it, it's mine. Never forget that. Emily felt an odd sensation of rebellion. She didn't fancy the idea of her life belonging to anybody but herself, not even to anybody she liked as much as she liked Dean Priest. Din, watching her, saw it and smiled his whimsical smile,
Starting point is 10:12:40 that always seemed to have so much more in it than mere smiling. That doesn't quite suit you. Ah, you see, one pays a penalty when one reaches out for something beyond the ordinary. One pays for it in bondage of some kind or other. Take your wonderful Astor home and keep it as long as you can. has cost you your freedom. He was laughing. He was only joking, of course.
Starting point is 10:13:11 Yet Emily felt as if a cowboy better had been flung round her. Yielding to a sudden impulse, she flung the big astor on the ground and set her foot on it. Dean Priest looked on amusedly. His strange eyes were very kindly as he met hers. You rare thing. You vivid thing, you starry thing, we are going to be good friends. We are good friends.
Starting point is 10:13:43 I'm coming up to Wither Grange tomorrow to see those descriptions you've written of Caroline and my venerable aunt in your Jimmy book. I feel sure they're delicious. Here's your path. Don't go roaming again so far from civilization. Good night. My star of the morning. He stood at the crossroad and watched her out of sight. What a child, he muttered.
Starting point is 10:14:11 I'll never forget her eyes as she lay there on the edge of death, the dauntless little soul. And I've never seen a creature who seemed so full of sheer joy in existence. She is Douglas Starr's child. He never called me jarback. He stooped and picked up the broken astor. Emily's hill had met it squarely and it was badly crushed, but he put it away that night between the leaves of an old volume of Jane Eyre,
Starting point is 10:14:43 where he had marked a verse. All glorious rose upon my sight, that child of shower and gleam. End of Section 28, recording by Leanne Fortune. Section 29 of Emily of New Moon by Luce. C.M. Montgomery. This Libre Fox recording is in the public domain. Recording by Leanne Fortune, section 29. In Dean Priest, Emily found for the first time since her father had died, a companion who could fully sympathise. She was always at her best with him, with a delightful feeling of being understood. To love is easy and therefore common, but to understand how rare it is.
Starting point is 10:15:45 They roamed wonderlands of fancy together in the magic August days that followed upon Emily's adventure on the bay shore, talked together of exquisite immortal things, and were at home with nature's old felicities, of which Wordsworth so happily speaks. emily showed him all the poetry and descriptions in her jimmy book and he read them gravely and exactly as father had done made little criticisms that did not hurt her because she knew they were just as for dean priest a certain secret well-springer fancy that had long seemed dry bubbled up in him sparklingly again you make me believe in fairies whether i will or no he told her, and that means youth. As long as you believe in fairies, you can't grow old. But I can't believe in fairies myself, protested Emily sorrowfully. I wish I could. But you are a fairy yourself, or you wouldn't be able to find fairyland. You can't buy a ticket there,
Starting point is 10:16:58 you know? Either the fairies themselves give you your passport at your christening, or they don't. That is all there is to it. Isn't very land the loveliest word, said Emily dreamily. Because it means everything the human heart desires, said Dean. When he talked to her, Emily felt as if she were looking into some enchanted mirror where her own dreams and secret hopes were reflected back to her with added charm. If Dean Priest were a cynic, he showed no cynicism to Emily, but in her company he was not a cynic. He had shed his years and become a boy again with a boy's untainted visions.
Starting point is 10:17:48 She loved him for the world he opened to her view. There was such fun in him too, such sly, surprising fun. He told her jokes, he made her laugh. He told her strange old tales of forgotten. garden gods who were very beautiful of court festivals and the bridles of kings. He seemed to have the history of the whole world at his fingers ends. He described things to her in unforgettable phrases as they walk by the bay shore, or sat in the overgrown, shadowy old garden of Weathergrange. When he spoke of Athens as the city of the violet crown, Emily realized afresh what magic is made.
Starting point is 10:18:32 when the right words are wedded, and she loved to think of Rome as the city of the seven hills. Dean had been in Rome and Athens, and almost everywhere else. I didn't know anyone ever talked as you do except in books, she told him. Dean laughed, with a little note of bitterness that was so often present in his laughter, though less often with Emily than with other people. It was really his laughter that had won Dean his reputation for cynicism. People so often felt that he was laughing at them, instead of with them. I've had only books for companions most of my life, he said.
Starting point is 10:19:15 Is it any wonder I talk like them? I'm sure I'll like studying history after this, said Emily. Except Canadian history. I'll never like it. it's so dull, not just at the first when we belong to France and there was plenty of fighting, but after that it's nothing but politics. The happiest countries like the happiest woman have no history, said Dean. I hope I'll have a history, cried Emily. I want a thrilling career. We all do, foolish one. Do you know what makes history?
Starting point is 10:19:55 pain and shame and rebellion and bloodshed and heartache. Star, ask yourself, how many hearts ached and broke to make those crimson and purple pages in history that you find so enthralling? I told you the story of Leonidas and his Spartans the other day. They had mothers, sisters, and sweethearts. if they could have fought a bloodless battle at the polls, wouldn't it have been better, if not so dramatic? I can't feel that way, said Emily confusedly.
Starting point is 10:20:39 She was not old enough to think or say, as she would say ten years later. The heroes of Thermopylae have been an inspiration to humanity for centuries. What squabble around a ballot box? will ever be that. And, like all female creatures, you form your opinions by your feelings. Well, hope for your thrilling career, but remember that if there is to be drama in your life,
Starting point is 10:21:12 somebody must pay the piper in the coin of suffering. If not you, then someone else. Oh, no, I wouldn't like that. Then be content with fewer thrills. What about your tumble over the bank down there? That came near being a tragedy. What if I hadn't found you? But you did find me, cried Emily.
Starting point is 10:21:41 I like near escapes after they're over, she added. If everybody had always been happy, there'd be nothing to read about. Tweed made a third in their right. rambles, and Emily grew very fond of him, without losing any of her loyalty to the pussy folk. I like cats with one part of my mind and dogs with another part, she said. I like cats, but I never keep one, Dean said. They're too exacting, they're asked too much. Dogs want only love, but cats demand worship.
Starting point is 10:22:18 They have never got over the pubastis habit of godship. emily understood this he had told her all about old egypt and the goddess pashd but she did not quite agree with him kittens don't want to be worshipped she said they just want to be cuddled by their priestesses yes if you had been born on the banks of the nile five thousand years ago emily you would have been a priestess of pashd an adorable slim brown creature with a fillet of gold around your black hair and bands of silver on those ankles, Aunt Nancy admires, with dozens of sacred little godlings frisking around you under the palms of the temple courts. Oh, gasped Emily rapturously, that gave me the flash. And, she added wonderingly, just for a moment it made me homesick, too. Why?
Starting point is 10:23:20 Why? Because I haven't a doubt you were just such a priestess in a former incarnation, and my words reminded your soul of it. Do you believe in the doctrine of the transmigration of souls, Do you believe in the doctrine of the transmigration of souls, Da? But of course not, brought up by the true blue Calvinists of New Moon. What does it mean? asked Emily. And when Dean explained it to her, she thought it a very delightful belief, but she was it. was quite sure Aunt Elizabeth would not approve of it. So I won't believe it yet, she said gravely. Then it all came to an end quite suddenly. It had been taken for granted by all concern that Emily was to stay at Wither Grange until the end of August. But in mid-August, Aunt Nancy said suddenly to her one day, Go home, Emily, I'm tired of you.
Starting point is 10:24:17 I like you very well. You're not stupid and you're possibly pretty, and you've behaved exceedingly well. Tell Elizabeth you do the Murray's credit. But I'm tired of you. Go home. Emily's feelings were mixed. It hurt her to be told Aunt Nancy was tired of her. It would hurt anyone.
Starting point is 10:24:38 It rankled in her for several days, until she thought of a sharp answer she might have made Aunt Nancy and wrote it down in her Jemmy book. she felt quite as relieved then as if she had really said it and she was sorry to leave with a grange she had grown to love the old beautiful house with its flavour of hidden secrets a flavour that was wholly a trick of its architecture for there had never been anything in it but the simple tale of births and deaths and marriages and everyday living that most houses have she was sorry to leave the bay shore and the quaint garden and the gazing ball and the chesa-cat and the pink-room bird of freedom and most of all she was sorry to leave dean priest but on the other hand it was delightful to think of going back to new moon and all the loved ones there teddy and his dear whistle ilsa and her stimulating comrades ship perry with his determined reaching up for higher things saucy's cell and the new kitten that must be needing proper training now and the fairy world of the midsummer night's dream
Starting point is 10:26:02 cousin jimmy's garden would be in its prime of splendour the august apples would be ripe suddenly emily was very ready to go she packed her little black box jubilantly and found it an excellent chance to work in neatly a certain line from a poem Dean had recently read to her, which had captured her fancy. Goodbye, proud world, I'm going home, she declaimed feelingly, standing at the top of the long, dark, shining staircase, and apostrophising the row of grim priest photographs, hanging on the wall. But she was much annoyed over one thing. Aunt Nancy would not give her back the picture, Teddy had painted.
Starting point is 10:26:51 I'm going to keep it, Aunt Nancy said, grinning and shaking her gold tassels. Someday that picture will be worth something as the early effort of a famous artist. I only lent it to you. I told you I only lent it to you, said Emily indignantly. I'm an unscrupulous old demon, said Aunt Nancy Cooley. That is what the priests all call me behind my back. Don't they, Caroline. May as well have the game as the name. I happen to have a fancy for that picture, that's all.
Starting point is 10:27:29 I'm going to frame it and hang it here in my parlour, but I'll leave it to you in my will. That and the Chessie Cat and the gazing ball and my gold earrings. Nothing else. I'm not going to leave you a cent of my money. Never count on that. I don't want it, said Emily, loftily. I'm going to own heaps of money for myself.
Starting point is 10:27:56 But it isn't fair of you to keep my picture. It was given to me. I never was fair, said Aunt Nancy. Was I, Caroline? No, said Caroline, shrewishly. You see, now don't make a fuss, Emily. "'You've been a very good child, but I feel that I've done my duty by you for this year.' "'Go back to New Moon, and when Elizabeth won't let you do things till her,
Starting point is 10:28:23 "'I always let you. I don't know if it will do any good, but try it.' Elizabeth, like everyone else related to me, is always wondering what I'm going to do with my money. Cousin Jimmy came over for Emily. How glad she was to see his kind face with its gentle, elfish eyes, and forked her beard again, but she felt very badly when she turned to Dean. If you like, I'll kiss you goodbye, she said, chokily. Emily did not like kissing people. She did not really want to kiss Dean, but she liked him so much.
Starting point is 10:28:58 She thought she ought to extend all the courtesies to him. Dean looked down, smiling into her face so young, so pure, so softly curved. No, I don't want you to kiss me yet. And our first kiss mustn't have the flavour of goodbye. It would be a bad omen. Star a morning. I'm sorry you're going. But I'll see you again before long.
Starting point is 10:29:24 My oldest sister lives in Blair Water, you know, and I feel a sudden access of brotherly affection towards her. I seem to see myself visiting her very often henceforth. In the meantime, remember you have promised to write me every week. and I'll write you. Nice fat letters, coaxed Emily. I love fat letters. Fat?
Starting point is 10:29:50 They'll be positively corpulent, star. Now, I'm not even going to say goodbye. Let's make a pact, star. We'll never say goodbye to each other. We'll just smile and go. Emily made a gallant effort, smiled and went. Aunt Nancy and Caroline returned to the back parlour and their cribbage. Dean Priest whistled for tweed and went to the bay shore.
Starting point is 10:30:17 He was so lonely that he laughed at himself. Emily and Cousin Jimmy had so much to talk of that the drive home seemed very short. New Moon was white in the evening sunshine which also lay with exceeding mellowness on the grey old barns. The three princesses, shooting up against the sunsionessing up against the sunshinets, silvery sky, whereas remote and Princess Lee as ever. The old gulf was singing away down over the fields. Aunt Laura came running out to meet them, her lovely blue eyes shining with pleasure. Aunt Elizabeth was in the cookhouse preparing supper, and only shook hands with Emily, but looked a trifle less grim and stately than usual, and she had made Emily's favorite cream puffs for
Starting point is 10:31:08 supper. Perry was hanging about, barefooted and sunburned, to tell her all the gossip of kittens and calves and little pigs and the new foal. Ilsa came swooping over, and Emily discovered she had forgotten how vivid Ilsa was, how brilliant her amber eyes, how golden her mane of spun silk hair, looking more golden than ever under the bright blue silk tam Mrs. Sims had bought her in shrewsbury. As an article of dress, that loud tam made Laura Murray's eyes and sensibilities ache, but its colours certainly did set off Ilsa's wonderful hair. She engulfed Emily in a rapturous embrace and quarrelled bitterly with her ten minutes later over the fact that Emily refused. used to give her saucy cell soul surviving kitten.
Starting point is 10:32:07 I ought to have it, you doddering hyena, stormed Ilsa. It's as much mine as yours, pig. Our old barn cat is its father. Such talk is not decent, said Aunt Elizabeth, pale with horror. And if you two children are going to quarrel over that kitten, I'll have it drowned. Remember that. Ilsa was finally appeased by Emily's offering to let her name the kitten and have a half-interest in it. Elsa named it daffodil.
Starting point is 10:32:40 Emily did not think this suitable, since from the fact of Cousin Jimmy referring to it as Little Tommy, she suspected it was of the sterner sex. But rather than again provoke Aunt Elizabeth's wrath by discussing tabooed subjects, she agreed. I can call it deaf, she thought. That sounds more masculine. The kitten was a delicate bit of striped greyness that reminded Emily of her dear lost mics. And it smelled so nice,
Starting point is 10:33:14 of warmth and clean furiness, with whiffs of the clover hay where saucy cell had made her mother nest. After supper, she heard Teddy's whistle in the old orchard the same enchanting call, Emily flew out to greet him. After all, there was nobody just like Teddy in the world. They had an ecstatic scamper up to the Tansy patch
Starting point is 10:33:40 to see a new puppy that Dr. Burnley had given Teddy. Mrs. Kent did not seem very glad to see Emily. She was colder and more remote than ever, and she sat and watched the two children playing with the chubby little pup, with a smouldering fire in her dark eyes. that made Emily vaguely uncomfortable whenever she happened to glance up and encounter it. Never before had she sensed Mrs. Kent's dislike for her so keenly as that night. Why doesn't your mother like me?
Starting point is 10:34:16 She asked Teddy bluntly when they carried little Leo to the barn for the night. Because I do, said Teddy briefly. She doesn't like anything I like. I'm afraid she'll poison Leo very soon. I wish she wasn't so fond of me, he burst out. In the beginning of a revolt against this abnormal jealousy of love, which he felt rather than understood to be a fetter that was becoming galling. She says she won't let me take up Latin and algebra this year.
Starting point is 10:34:49 You know, Miss Brownall said I might, because I'm not to go to college. She says she can't bear it apart from me ever. I don't care about the Latin and stuff, but I want to learn to be an artist. I want to go away some day to the schools where they teach that. She won't let me. She hates my pictures now because she thinks I like them better than her. I don't. I love Mother.
Starting point is 10:35:14 She's awful sweet and good to me every other way, but she thinks I do, and she's burned some of them. I know she has. They're missing from the barn wall and I can't find them anywhere. If she does anything to Leo, I'll, I'll hate her. Tell her that, said Emily Cooley, with some of the murray shrewdness coming uppermost in her. She doesn't know that you know she poisons smoke and buttercup. Tell her you do know it, and that if she does anything to Leo, you won't love her anymore. She'll be so frightened of you're not loving her that she won't meddle with Leo.
Starting point is 10:35:51 I know. Tell her gently. Don't hurt her feelings. but tell her it will concluded emily with the killing imitation of aunt elizabeth delivering an ultimatum be better for all concerned i believe i will said teddy much impressed i can't have leo disappear like my cats did he's the only dog i've ever had and i've always wanted a dog oh emily i'm glad you're back it was very nice to be told this especially by teddy emily went home to new moon happily in the old kitchen the candles were lighted and their flames were dancing in the winds of the august night blowing through door and window "'I suppose you'll not like candles very well, Emily, "'after being used to lamps it with a grange,' said Aunt Laura with a little sigh.
Starting point is 10:36:47 "'It was one of the bitter small things in Laura Murray's life "'that Elizabeth's tyranny extended to candles. "'Emily looked around her thoughtfully. "'One candle sputtered and bobbed at her as if greeting her, "'one with a long wick, glowed and smouldered like a sulky little demon. one had a tiny flame, a sly meditative candle. One swayed with a queer fiery grace in the draught from the door. One burned with a steady upright flame like a faithful soul.
Starting point is 10:37:22 I don't know, Aunt Laura, she answered slowly. You can be friends with candles. I believe I like the candles best after all. Aunt Elizabeth coming in from the candles. Cookhouse, heard her. Something like pleasure gleamed in her gulf blue eyes. You have some sense in you, she said. That's the second compliment she has paid me, thought Emily. I think Emily has grown taller since she went to With a Grange, Aunt Laura said, looking at her rather wistfully. Aunt Elizabeth, snuffing the candles, glanced sharply over her
Starting point is 10:38:02 glasses. I can't see it, she said. Her dress is just the same length on her. I'm sure she has, persisted Laura. Cousin Jimmy, to settle the dispute, measured Emily by the sitting-room door, she just touched the former mark. You see? said Aunt Elizabeth triumphantly, liking to be right, even in the small matter. She looks different, said Laura with a sigh. laura after all was right emily had grown taller and older in soul if not in body it was this change which laura felt as close and tender affection swiftly feels the emily who returned from with a grange was not the emily who had gone there she was no longer wholly the child aunt nancy's family histories over which she had pondered her endearing anguish over the the story of Ilsa's mother, that terrible hour when she had lain cheek by a jarl with death on the cliffs of the bay shore. Her association with Dean Priest all had combined to mature
Starting point is 10:39:15 her intelligence and her emotions. When she went to the garret next morning, and pulled out her precious little bundle of manuscripts to read them lovingly over, she was amazed and rather grieved to find that they were not half so good as she had believed they were. Some of them were positively silly, she thought. She was ashamed of them, so ashamed that she smuggled them down to the cookhouse stove and burned them. Much to Aunt Elizabeth's annoyance when she came to prepare dinner and found the firebox all choked up with charred paper. Emily no longer wondered that Miss Brownell had made fun of them,
Starting point is 10:39:57 though this did not mellow her bitterness of remembrance in regard to that lady in any degree. The rest she put back on the sofa shelf, including the Child of the Sea, which still impressed hers fairly good, though not just the wonderful composition she had once deemed it. She felt that many passages could be rewritten to their advantage. Then she immediately began writing a new poem, on returning home after week's absence. As everything and everybody connected with New Moon had to be mentioned in this poem,
Starting point is 10:40:35 it promised to be quite long and to furnish agreeable occupation for spare minutes in many weeks to come. It was very good to be home again. There is no place just like dear New Moon, thought Emily. End of Section 29. recording by Leanne Fortune. Section 30 of Emily of New Moon by Lucy M. Montgomery.
Starting point is 10:41:08 This Librivox recording is in the public domain. Recording by Leanne Fortune. Section 30. One thing that marked her return, one of those little household epochs, that make a keener impression on the memory and imagination, than perhaps their real importance warrants, was the fact that she was given a room. of her own. Aunt Elizabeth had found her unshared slumber too sweet a thing to be again surrendered.
Starting point is 10:41:38 She decided that she could not put up any longer with a squirming bedfellow who asked unearthly questions at any hour of the night. She took it into her head to do so. So, after a long conference with Laura, it was settled that Emily was to have her mother's room, the lookout, as it was called, though it was not really a lookout. but it occupied the place in new moon looking over the front door to the garden that the real look-outs stood in other blaywater houses so it went by that name it had been prepared for emily's occupancy in her absence and when bedtime came on the first evening of her return aunt elizabeth curtly told her that henceforth she was to have her mother's room or to myself exclaimed emily yes we were expect you to take care of it yourself and keep it very tidy. It has never been slept in since the night before your mother went away,
Starting point is 10:42:40 said Aunt Laura with a queer sound in her voice, a sound of which Aunt Elizabeth disapproved. Your mother, she said, looking coldly at Emily over the flame of the candle, an attitude that gave a rather gruesome effect to her aquiline features, ran away, flouted her family, and broke her father's heart. She was a silly, ungrateful, disobedient girl. I hope you will never disgrace your family by such conduct.
Starting point is 10:43:10 Oh, Aunt Elizabeth, said Emily breathlessly. When you hold the candle down like that, it makes your face look just like a corpse. Oh, it's so interesting. Aunt Elizabeth turned and led the way upstairs in grim silence. There was no use in wasting perfectly good admoner. on a child like this, left alone in her lookout, lighted dimly by the one small candle, Emily gazed about her with keen and thrilling interest. She could not get into bed until she had explored every bit of it. The room was very old-fashioned, like all the new moon rooms.
Starting point is 10:43:52 The walls were papered with a design of slender gilt diamonds enclosing golden stars and hung with worked woollen motos in pictures that had been supplements in the girlhood of her aunts. One of them, hanging over the head of the bed, represented two guardian angels. In its day, this had been much admired, but Emily looked at it with distaste. I don't like feather wings on angels, she said decidedly. Angels should have rainbowy wings. On the floor was a pretty homespun carpet and round-braided rugs. There was a high black bedstead with carved posts, a fat feather bed,
Starting point is 10:44:36 and an Irish chain quilt. But, as Emily was glad to see, no curtains. A little table with funny claw feet and brass knob drawers stood by the window, which was curtained with muslin frills. One of the window panes contorted the landscape funnily, making a hill where no hill was. Emily liked this. She couldn't have told why, but it was really because it gave the pain an individuality of its own. An oval mirror in a tarnished gilt frame hung above the table. Emily was delighted to find she could see herself in it, all but my boots, without craning or tipping it. And it doesn't twist my face or turn my complexion green, she thought happily. two high-backed black chairs with horsehair seats, a little washstand with a blue basin and pitcher,
Starting point is 10:45:34 and a faded ottoman with woolen roses cross-stitched on it, completed the furnishing. On the little mantle were vases full of dried and coloured grasses and a fascinating pot-bellied bottle filled with West Indian shells. On either side were lovable little cupboards with leaded glass doors like those in the sitting-room, underneath was a small fireplace. I wonder if Aunt Elizabeth will ever let me have a little fire here, thought Emily. The room was full of that indefinable charm found in all rooms, where the pieces of furniture, whether old or new, are well acquainted with each other, and the walls and floors are on good terms.
Starting point is 10:46:19 Emily felt it all over her as she flitted about examining everything, This was her room. She loved it already. She felt perfectly at home. I belong here. She breathed happily. She felt deliciously near to her mother, as if Juliet's star had suddenly become real to her.
Starting point is 10:46:41 It thrilled her to think that her mother had probably crocheted the lace cover on the round pincushion on the table, and that fat black jaw of popery on the mantle, her mother must have compounded it. when emily lifted the lid a faint spicy odour floated out the soles of all the roses that had bloomed through many olden summers at new moon seemed to be prisoned there in a sort of flower purgatory something in the haunting mystical elusive odour gave emily the flash and her rum had received its consecration there was a picture of her mother hanging over the mantel a large daguerre type taken when she was a large little girl. Emily looked at it lovingly. She had the picture of her mother which her father had left,
Starting point is 10:47:32 taken after their marriage. But when Aunt Elizabeth had brought that from Maywood to New Moon, she had hung it in the parlour where Emily seldom saw it. This picture, in her bedroom, of the golden-haired rose-cheeked girl, was all her own. She could look at it, talk to it at will. mother, she said. What did you think of when you were a little girl here like me? I wish I could have known you then, and to think nobody has ever slept here since that last night you did, before you ran away with father. Aunt Elizabeth says you were wicked to do it, but I don't think you were. It wasn't as if you were running away with a stranger. Anyway, I'm glad you did, because if you hadn't, there wouldn't have been any me.
Starting point is 10:48:27 Emily, very glad that there was an Emily, opened her lookout window as high as it would go, got into bed and drifted off to sleep, feeling a happiness that was so deep as to be almost pain, as she listened to the sonorous sweep of the night wind among the grey trees in lofty John's bush. When she wrote to her father a few days later, she began the letter,
Starting point is 10:48:53 dear father and mother, and I'll always write the letter to you as well as father after this mother. I'm sorry I left you out so long, but you didn't seem real till that night I came home. I made the bed beautifully next morning, Aunt Elizabeth didn't find a bit of bolt with it, and I dusted everything. And when I went out, I knelt down and kissed the doorstep. I didn't think Aunt Elizabeth saw me, but she did, and said, had I done, had I, gone crazy. Why does Aunt Elizabeth think anyone is crazy who does something she never does?
Starting point is 10:49:29 I said, no, it's only because I love my room so much. And she sniffed and said, You'd better love your God. But so I do, dear father and mother, and I love him better than ever, since I have my dear room. I can see all over the garden from it, and into Lofty John's bush,
Starting point is 10:49:51 and one little bit of the blaywater through the gap in the trees, where the yesterday road runs. I like to go to bed early now. I love to lie all alone in my own room and make poetry and think out descriptions of things while I look through the open window at the stars, and the nice big, kind, quiet trees in lofty John's bush. Oh, father, dear, and mother, we are going to have a new teacher. Miss Brownell is not coming back. She is going to be married and Ilsa says that when her father heard it he said,
Starting point is 10:50:26 God help the man and the new teacher is a Mr. Carpenter. Ilsa saw him when he came to see her father about the school because Dr. Bonley is a trustee this year and she says he has bushy grey hair and whiskers. He is married too and is going to live in that little old house down in the hollow below the school. It seems so funny to think of a teacher having a wife and whiskers. I am glad to be home, but I miss Dean and the gazing ball. Aunt Elizabeth looked very crass when she saw my bang, but didn't say anything. Aunt Laura says just to keep quiet and go on wearing it, but I don't feel comfortable going against Aunt
Starting point is 10:51:08 Elizabeth, so I have combed it all back except a little fringe. I don't feel quite comfortable about it even yet, but I have to put up with being a little uncomfortable for the sake of my looks. Aunt Laura says bustles are going out of style, so I'll never be able to have one, but I don't care because I think they're ugly. Rhoda Stewart will be cross because she was just longing to be old enough to wear a bustle. I hope I'll be able to have a ginger all to myself when the weather gets cold. There is a row of ginger's on the high shelf in the cookhouse. Teddy and I had the nicest adventure yesterday evening. We are going to keep it a secret from everybody,
Starting point is 10:51:55 partly because it was so nice, and partly because we think we'd get a fearful scolding for one thing we did. We went up to the disappointed house, and we found one of the boards on the windows loose, so we pried it off and crawled in and went all over the house. It is lathed but not plastered, the shavings are lying all over the floors, just as the carpenters left them years ago. It seemed more disappointed than ever.
Starting point is 10:52:24 I just felt like crying. There was a dear little fireplace in one room, so we went to work and kindled a fire in it with shavings and pieces of boards. This is the thing we would be scolded for, likely, and then sat before it on an old carpenter's bench and talked. We decided that when we grew up, we would be. by the disappointed house and live here together. Teddy said he supposed we'd have to get married,
Starting point is 10:52:52 but I thought maybe we could find a way to manage without going to all that bother. Teddy will paint pictures, and I will write poetry, and we will have toast and bacon and marmalade every morning for breakfast, just like with a grange, but never porridge. And we'll always have lots of nice things to eat in the panes,
Starting point is 10:53:15 and i'll make lots of jam and teddy is always going to help me wash the dishes and will hang the gazing ball from the middle of the ceiling in the fireplace room because likely aunt nancy will be dead by then when the fire burned out we jammed the board into place in the window and came away Every now and then today, Teddy would say to me, toast and bacon and marmalade, in the most mysterious tones, and Ilson Perry are wild because they can't find out what he means. Cousin Jimmy Jimmy Joe Bell to help with the harvest. Jimmy Joe Bell comes from Overderry Pondway. There are a great many French there. When a French girl marries, they call her mostly by her husband's first name.
Starting point is 10:54:04 instead of Mrs. like the English too. If a girl named Mary marries a man named Leon, she will always be called Mary Leon after that. But in Jimmy Joe Bell's case, it is the other way, and he is called by his wife's name. I asked Cousin Jimmy why, and he said it was because Jimmy Joe was a poor stick of a creature, and Bell wore the breeches.
Starting point is 10:54:30 But still I don't understand. Jimmy Joe wears britches himself. That means trousers. And why should he be called Jimmy Joe Bell instead of her being called Bill Jimmy Joe? Just because she wears them too. I won't rest till I find out. Pousin' Jimmy's garden is splendid now.
Starting point is 10:54:51 The tiger lilies are out. I'm trying to love them because nobody seems to like them at all. But deep down in my heart I know I love the late roses best. you just can't help loving the roses best. Ilsa and I hunted all over the old orchard today for a four-leaved clover and couldn't find one. Then I found one in a clump of clover by the dairy steps tonight when I was draining the milk and never thinking of clovers. Cousin Jimmy says that is the way luck always comes and it is no use to look for it.
Starting point is 10:55:26 It is lovely to be with Ilsa again. We have only fought twice since I. came home. I'm going to try not to fight with Ilsa anymore because I don't think it is dignified, although quite interesting, but it is hard not to because even when I keep quiet and don't say a word, Elsa thinks that's a way of fighting and gets madder and says worse things than ever. Aunt Elizabeth says it always takes two to make a quarrel, but she doesn't know Ilsa as I do. Ilsa called me a sneaking albatross today. I wonder how many animals are left to call me.
Starting point is 10:56:04 She never repeats the same one twice. Though she wouldn't, Clapper saw, Perry, so much. Clapper saw is a word I learned from Aunt Nancy, very striking, I think. It seems as if she couldn't bear him. He dared Teddy to jump from the henhouse roof across to the pig house roof. Teddy wouldn't. He said he would try it. if it had to be done, or would do anybody any good,
Starting point is 10:56:31 but he wasn't going to do it just to show off. Perry did it and landed safe. If he hadn't, he might have broken his neck. Then he bragged about it and said Teddy was afraid, and Elsa turned red as a beat and told him to shut up or she would bite his snout off. She can't bear to have anything said against Teddy, but I guess he can take care of himself.
Starting point is 10:56:57 I can't study for the entrance either. Her father won't let her, but she says she doesn't care. She says she's going to run away when she gets a little older and study for the stage. That sounds wicked, but interesting. I felt very queer and guilty when I saw Ilsa first, because I knew about her mother. I don't know why I felt guilty because I had nothing to do with it. The feeling is wearing away a little now, but I am so often. unhappy by spells over it. I wish I could either forget it altogether or find out the rights of it, because I am sure nobody knows them. I had a letter from Dean today. He writes lovely letters, just as if I was grown up. He sent me a little poem he had cut out of a paper called
Starting point is 10:57:47 The Fringed Gension. He said it made him think of me. It is all lovely, but I like the last first best of all. This is it. Then whisper blossom in thy sleep, how I may upward climb the alpine path so hard, so steep, that leads to height sublime, how I may reach that far-off goal of true and honoured fame, and write upon its shining scroll a woman's humble name. When I read that the flash came, and I took a sheet of paper, I forgot to tell you. cousin Jimmy gave me a little box of paper and envelopes on the sly, and I wrote on it, I, Emily Bird's doll, do solemnly vile this day that I will climb the alpine path and write my name on the scroll of fame. Then I put it in the envelope and sealed it up and wrote on it,
Starting point is 10:58:46 the vial of Emily Bird's doll, age 12 years and 3 months, and put it away on the sofa shelf in the garret. I'm writing a murder story now and I'm trying to feel how a man would feel who was a murderer. It is creepy but thrilling. I almost feel as if I had murdered somebody. Good night, dear father and mother, your lovingest daughter, Emily. Pierce. I have been wondering how I'll sign my name when I grow up and print my pieces. I don't know which would be best. Emily Bird Star in full Or Emily B. Star
Starting point is 10:59:27 Or E.B. Star Or E. Bird Star. Sometimes I think I'll have a nom de plume. That is another name you pick for yourself. It's in my dictionary among the French phrases at the back. If I did that, then I could hear people talking of my pieces right before me, never suspecting, and say just what they really thought of them. That would be interesting, but perhaps not always comfortable.
Starting point is 10:59:55 I think I'll be E. Birds' Dar. End of Section 30. Recording by Leanne Fortune. Section 31 of Emily of New Moon by Lucy M. Montgomery. This Librivox recording is in the public domain. Recording by Leanne Fortune. Section 31. It took Emily civil.
Starting point is 11:00:27 weeks to make up her mind whether she liked Mr. Carpenter or not. She knew she did not dislike him. Not even though his first greeting shot at her on the opening day of school in a gruff voice, accompanied by a startling lift of his spiky grey brows, was, So you're the girl that writes poetry, eh? Better stick to your needle and dust her. Too many fools in the world trying to write poetry and. failing. I tried it myself once. Got better sense now. You don't keep your nails clean,
Starting point is 11:01:05 thought Emily. But he upset every kind of school tradition sur speedily and thoroughly, that Ilsa, who gloried in upsetting things and hated routine, was the only scholar that liked him from the start. Some never liked him. The Rhoda Stewart type, for example. But most of them came to it after they got used to never being used to anything, and Emily finally decided that she liked him tremendously. Mr. Carpenter was somewhere between 40 and 50. A tall man, with an upstanding shock of bushy grey hair, bristling grey moustache and eyebrows, a truselent beard, bright blue eyes, out of which all his wildlife had not yet burned the fire, and a long, lean, greyish face, deeply lined. He lived in a little two-roomed house below the school
Starting point is 11:02:01 with a shy mouse of a wife. He never talked of his past, or offered any explanation of the fact that at his age he had no better profession than teaching a district school for a pittance of salary. But the truth leaked out after a while, for Prince Edward Island is a small province and everybody in it knows something about everybody else. So eventually, Blaywater people, and even the schoolchildren, understood that Mr. Carpenter had been a brilliant student in his youth and had had his aisle in the ministry, but at college he had got in with a fast set. Blaywater people nodded heads slowly and whispered the dreadful phrase potentiously,
Starting point is 11:02:47 and the fast set had ruined him. He took to drink and went to the dogs generally. And the upshot of it all was that Francis Carpenter, who had led his class in his first and second years at McGill, and for whom his teachers had predicted a great career, was a country school teacher at 45, with no prospect of ever being anything else. Perhaps he was resigned to it.
Starting point is 11:03:14 Perhaps not. Nobody ever knew, not even the brown mouse of a wife. Nobody in Blairwater cared. He was a good teacher, and that was all that mattered. Even if he did go on occasional sprees, he always took Saturday for them and was sober enough by Monday. Sober and especially dignified, wearing a rusty black frock coat, which he never put on any other day of the week. He did not invite pity, and he did not pose as a tragedy. But sometimes when Emily looked at his face, bent over the arithmetic problems of Blairwater School, she felt horribly sorry for him without in the least understanding why. He had an explosive temper, which generally burst into flame at least once a day, and then he would storm about wildly for a few minutes, tugging at his beard,
Starting point is 11:04:11 imploring heaven to grant him patience, abusing everybody in terms. general and the luckless object of his wrath in particular. But these tempers never lasted long. In a few minutes, Mr. Carpenter would be smiling as graciously as a sun bursting through a storm cloud on the very pupil he had been rating. Nobody seemed to cherish any grudge because of his scoldings. He never said any of the biting things Miss Brownell was wont to say, which rankled and fested for weeks.
Starting point is 11:04:45 His hail of words fell alike on just and unjust and rolled off harmlessly. He could take a joke on himself in perfect good nature. Do you hear me? Do you hear me, sirrah? He bellowed to Perry Miller one day. Of course I hear you, retorted Perry Cooley. They could hear you in Charlottetown. Mr. Carpenter's dead for a moment, then broke into a great jolly laugh.
Starting point is 11:05:15 his methods of teaching were so different from miss brownells that the blairwater pupils at first felt as if he had stood them on their heads miss brownel had been a martinet for order mr carpenter never tried to keep order apparently but somehow he kept the children so busy that they had no time to do mischief he taught history tempestiously for a month making his pupil play the different characters and enact the incidents. He never bothered anyone to learn dates, but the dates stuck in the memory just the same. If, as Mary Queen of Scots, you were beheaded by the school axe, kneeling blindfolded at the doorstep, with Perry Miller, wearing a mask made out of a piece of Aunt Laura's old black silk
Starting point is 11:06:09 for executioner, wondering what would happen if he brought the axe down too hard, You did not forget the year it happened, and if you fought the Battle of Waterloo all over the school playground, and heard Teddy Kent shouting, Up gods and at him! As he led the last furious charge, you remembered 1815 without half trying to. Next month history would be thrust aside altogether,
Starting point is 11:06:39 and geography would take its place. When school and playground were mapped out into countries, and you dressed up as the animals inhabiting them, or traded in various commodities over their rivers and cities. When Rhoda Stewart had cheated you in a bargain in hides, you remembered that she had bought the cargo from the Argentine Republic, and when Perry Miller would not drink any water for a whole hot summer day, because he was crossing the Arabian desert with a caravan of camels
Starting point is 11:07:12 and could not find an oasis and then drank so much that he took terrible cramps and Aunt Laura had to be up all night with him you did not forget where the said desert was. The trustees were quite scandalised
Starting point is 11:07:28 over some of the goings-on and felt sure that the children were having too good a time to be really learning anything. If you wanted to learn Latin and French you had to do it by talking your exercises, not writing them. And on Friday
Starting point is 11:07:43 afternoons, all lessons were put aside, and Mr. Carpenter made the children recite poems, make speeches, and declaim passages from Shakespeare and the Bible. This was the day Ilsa loved. Mr. Carpenter pounced on her gift like
Starting point is 11:08:02 a starving dog on a bone, and drilled her without mercy. They had endless fights, and Ilsa stamped her foot and called him names, while the other pupils wondered why she was not punished for it, but at last had to give in and do as he willed. Ilsa went to school regularly, something she had never done before. Mr. Carpenter had told her that if she were absent for a day without good excuse, she would take no part in the Friday
Starting point is 11:08:33 exercises, and this would have killed her. One day Mr. Carpenter had picked up Teddy Slate and found a sketch of himself on it, in one of his favorite, if not exactly beautiful attitudes. Teddy had labeled it, the black death. Half of the pupils of the school having died that day of the Great Plague, and having been carried out on stretches to the potter's field by the terrified survivors, Teddy expected a roar of denunciation, for the day before, Garrett Marshall had been ground into figurative pulp on being discovered with the picture of a harmless cow on his slate.
Starting point is 11:09:16 At least, Garrett said he meant it for a cow. But now this amazing Mr. Carpenter only drew his beetling brows together, looked earnestly at Teddy's slate, put it down on the desk, looked at Teddy and said, I don't know anything about drawing. I can't help you.
Starting point is 11:09:37 But by Gad, I think hereafter you'd better give up those extra arithmetic problems in the afternoon and draw pictures. Whereupon Garrett Marshall went home and told his father that old carpenter wasn't fair and made favourites over Teddy Kent. Mr. Carpenter went up to the Tansy patch that evening and saw the sketches in Teddy's old Barnloft studio. Then he went into the house and took him. to Mrs. Kent.
Starting point is 11:10:07 What he said and what she said, nobody ever knew. But Mr. Carpenter went away looking grim, as if he had met an unexpected match. He took great pains with Teddy's general schoolwork after that, and procured from some way certain elementary textbooks on drawing, which he gave him, telling him not to take them home. A caution Teddy did not require. knew quite well that if he did they would disappear as mysteriously as his cats had done. He had taken Emily's advice and told his mother he would not love her if anything happened to Leo, and Leo flourished and waxed fat and doggie.
Starting point is 11:10:53 But Teddy was too gentle at heart and too fond of his mother to make such a threat more than once. He knew she had cried all that night after Mr. Carpenter had been there, and prayed on her knees in her little bedroom most of the next day and looked at him with bitter haunting eyes for a week he wished she were more like other fellows mothers but they loved each other very much and had dear hours together in the little grey house on the tansy hill it was only when other people were about that mrs kent was queer and jealous she's always lovely when we're alone teddy had told her old Emily. As for the other boys, Perry Miller was the only one Mr. Carpenter bothered much with in the way of speeches, and he was as merciless with him as with Ilsa. Perry worked hard to please him and practiced his speeches in barn and field, and even by nights in the kitchen loft, until Aunt Elizabeth put a stop to that. Emily could not understand why Mr. Carpenter would smile amiably in
Starting point is 11:12:05 say, very good, when Nedy Gray rattled off a speech glibly, without any expression whatever, and then rage at Perry and denounce him as a dunce and a ninkum-poop by gad, because he had failed to give just the proper emphasis on a certain word, or had timed his gesture a fraction of a second too soon. Neither could she understand why he made red pencil corrections all over her compositions and rated her for split infinitives and two lavish adjectives, then strode up and down the aisle and hurled objugations at her because she didn't know a good place to stop when she saw it by gad,
Starting point is 11:12:49 and then told Rhoda Stewart and Nan Lee that their compositions were very pretty and gave them back without so much as a mark on their. them. Yet in spite of it all, she liked him more and more as time went on, and autumn passed, and winter came with its beautiful bare-limbed trees and soft pearl-grey skies that were slashed with rifts of gold in the afternoons, and cleared to a jeweled pageantry of stars, over the wide white hills and valleys around New Moon. Emily shot up so that winter that Aunt Laura had to let down the tucks in her dresses. Aunt Ruth, who had come for a week's visit, said she was outgrowing her strength.
Starting point is 11:13:36 Consumptive children always dead. I am not consumptive, Emily said. The stars are tall, she added with a touch of subtle malice, hardly to be looked for in near 13. Aunt Ruth, who was sensitive in regard to her dumpiness, sniffed. It would be well if that were the only thing in which you resemble them, she said. How are you getting on in school? Very well, I am the smartest scholar in my class, answered Emily composedly. You conceited child, said Aunt Ruth.
Starting point is 11:14:16 I'm not conceited. Emily looked scornful indignation. Mr. Carpenter said it, and he doesn't flatter. Besides, I can't help seeing it myself. Well, it is to be hoped you have some brains because you haven't much in the way of looks, said Aunt Ruth. You have no complexion to speak of, and that inky hair around your white face is startling. I see you're going to be a plain girl. You wouldn't say that to a grown-up person's face.
Starting point is 11:14:48 said Emily with a deliberate gravity which always exasperated Aunt Ruth because she could not understand it in a child. I don't think it would hurt you to be as polite to me as you are to other people. I'm telling you your fault so you may correct them, said Aunt Ruth frigidly. It isn't my fault that my face is pale and my hair black, protested Emily. I can't correct that. "'If you were a different girl,' said Aunt Ruth, "'I would, but I don't want to be a different girl,' said Emily decidedly. "'She had no intention of lowering the staff flag to Aunt Ruth.
Starting point is 11:15:32 "'I wouldn't want to be anybody but myself, even if I am plain. "'Besides,' she added impressively, "'as she turned to go out of the room. "'Though I may not be very good-looking now, when I go to heaven I believe I'll be very beautiful. Some people think Emily quite pretty, said Aunt Laura, but she did not say it until Emily was out of hearing. She was merry enough for that.
Starting point is 11:16:00 I don't know where they see it, said Aunt Ruth. She's vain and pert and says things to be thought smart. You heard her just now, but the thing I dislike most in her is that she is unchildlike and deep as the sea. Yes, she is, Laura. Deep as the sea. You'll find it out to your cost one day if you disregard my warning. She's capable of anything. Sly is no word for it. You and Elizabeth don't keep a tight enough rain over her. I've done my best, said Elizabeth stiffly. She herself did think she had been much too lenient with Emily. Laura and Jimmy were two to one, but it was a lot of nettled her to have Ruth say so. Uncle Wallace also had an attack of worrying over Emily that winter. He looked at her one day when he was at New Moon and remarked that she was getting to be a big girl. How old are you, Emily? He asked her that every time he came to New Moon.
Starting point is 11:17:06 Thirteen in May. Hmm. What are you going to do with her, Elizabeth? I don't know what you mean, said Aunt Elizabeth coldly, or as coldly as is possible to speak when one is pouring melted tallow into candle moulds. Why, she'll soon be grown up. She can't expect you to provide for her indefinitely. I don't, Emily whispered resentfully under her breath. And it's time we decided what is best to be done for her. The Murray women have never had to work out for a living, said Aunt Elizabeth.
Starting point is 11:17:44 as if that disposed of the matter. Emily is only half Murray, said Wallace. Besides, times are changing. You and Laura will not live forever, Elizabeth, and when you are gone, New Moon goes to Oliver's Andrew. In my opinion, Emily should be fitted to support herself if necessary. Emily did not like Uncle Wallace, but she was very grateful to him at that moment.
Starting point is 11:18:10 Whatever his motives were, he was proposing the very thing, she secretly earned for. I would suggest, said Uncle Wallace, that she be sent to Queen's Academy to get a teacher's license. Teaching is a genteel ladylike occupation. I will do my share in providing for the expense of it. The blind person might have seen that Uncle Wallace
Starting point is 11:18:34 thought this very splendid of himself. If you do, thought Emily, I'll pay every cent back to you as soon as I'm able to earn it. But Aunt Elizabeth was adamant. I do not believe in girls going out into the world, she said. I don't mean Emily to go to Queens. I told Mr. Carpenter so when he came to see me about her taking up the entrance work. He was very rude. School teachers knew their place better in my father's time, but I made him understand, I think. I'm rather surprised at you, Wallace. You did not
Starting point is 11:19:11 send your own daughter out to work. My daughter had parents to provide for her, retorted Uncle Wallace, pompously. Emily is an orphan. I imagined from what I had heard about her that she would prefer earning her own living to living on charity. So I would, cried out Emily. So I would, Uncle Wallace. Oh, Aunt Elizabeth, please let me study for the entrance.
Starting point is 11:19:40 Please. I'll pay you back every cent you spend on it. I will indeed. I pledge you my word of honour. It does not happen to be a question of money, said Aunt Elizabeth in her stateliest manner. I undertook to provide for you, Emily, and I will do it. When you are older, I may send you to the high school in Shrewsbury for a couple of years. I am not decrying education, but you are not going to be a slave to the public. Murray girl ever was that, Emily, realizing the uselessness of pleading, went out in the same bitter disappointment she had felt after Mr. Carpenter's visit. Then Aunt Elizabeth looked at Wallace, have you forgotten what came of sending Juliet to Queens? She asked significantly.
Starting point is 11:20:31 If Emily was not allowed to take up the entrance classes, Perry had no one to say him nay, and he went at them with the same dogged determination he showed in all other matters. Perry's status at New Moon had changed subtly and steadily. Aunt Elizabeth had ceased to refer scornfully to him as a hired boy. Even she recognized that though he was still indubitably a hired boy, he was not going to remain one, and she no longer objected to Laura's patching up his ragged bits of clothing, or to Emily's helping him with his lessons in the kitchen after supper, nor did she growl when Cousin Jimmy began to pay him a certain small wage,
Starting point is 11:21:17 though older boys than Perry were still glad to put in the winter months touring for board and lodging in some comfortable home. If a future Premier was in the making at New Moon, Aunt Elizabeth wanted to have some small share in the making, it was credible and commendable that a boy should have ambition. The girl was an entirely different matter. The girl's place was at home. Emily helped Perry work out algebra problems
Starting point is 11:21:46 and heard his lessons in French and Latin. She picked up more thus than Aunt Elizabeth would have approved, and more still when the entrance pupils talked those languages in school. It was quite an easy matter for a girl who had once upon a time invented a language of her own. when George Bates, by way of showing off, asked her one day in French, his French, of which Mr. Carpenter had once said doubtfully that perhaps God might understand it, have you the ink of my grandmother and the shoebrush of my cousin and the umbrella of my aunt's husband in your desk? Emily retorted quite as glibly and quite as Frenchly. No, but I have the pen of your father and the cheese of the inkkeeper and the time. of your uncle's maid-servant in my basket. To console herself for her disappointment in regard
Starting point is 11:22:41 to the entrance class, Emily wrote more poetry than ever. It was especially delightful to write poetry on a winter evening when the storm winds hulled without and heaped the garden and orchard with big ghostly drifts, starred over with rabbit's candles. She also wrote several stories, desperate love affairs wherein she struggled heroically against the difficulties of affectionate dialogue, tales of bandits and pirates. Emily liked these because there was no necessity for bandits and pirates to converse lovingly. Tragedies of earls and countesses, whose conversation she dearly loved to pepper with scraps of French, and a dozen other subjects she didn't know anything about. she also meditated beginning a novel, but decided it would be too hard to get enough paper for it.
Starting point is 11:23:36 The letter-bills were all done now, and the Jimmy books were not big enough, though a new one always appeared mysteriously in her school basket, when the old one was almost full. Cousin' Jimmy seemed to have an uncanny prescience of the proper time. That was part of his jimminess. Then one night, as she lay in her look-out bed and watched a full moon gleaming lustrously from a cloudless sky across the valley, she had a sudden, dazzling idea. She would send her latest poem to the Charlottetown Enterprise. The Enterprise had a poet's corner where original verses were frequently printed. Privately, Emily thought her own were quite as good as probably they were.
Starting point is 11:24:25 for most of the Enterprise poems were sad trash. Emily was so excited over the idea that she could not sleep for the greater part of the night and didn't want to. It was glorious to lie there thrilling in the darkness and picture the whole thing out. She saw her verses in print signed E. Bird Star. She saw Aunt Laura's eyes shining with pride. She saw Mr. Carpenter pointing them out to strangers.
Starting point is 11:24:53 The work of a pupil of mine by Gad. She saw all her schoolmates envying her or admiring according to type. She saw herself with one foot at least firmly planted on the ladder of fame. One hill at least of the alpine path crested, with a new and glorious prospect opening therefrom. Morning came. Emily went to school, so absent-minded because of her secret that she did badly in everything.
Starting point is 11:25:23 and was raged at by Mr. Carpenter, but it all slipped off her like the proverbial water off a duck's back. Her body was in Blairwater School, but her spirit was in Kingdom's Imperial. As soon as school was out, she betook herself to the garret with half a sheet of blue-lined note-paper. Very painstakingly, she copied down the poem,
Starting point is 11:25:47 being especially careful to dot every eye and cross every tea. She wrote it on both sides of the paper, being in blissful ignorance of any taboo thereon. Then she read it aloud delightedly, not emitting the title Evening Dreams. There was one line in it she tasted two or three times, the haunting elfin music of the air. I think that line is very good, said Emily. I wonder now how I happen to think of it. She mailed her poem the next day, and, lived in a delicious mystic rapture until the following Saturday.
Starting point is 11:26:26 When the Enterprise came, she opened it with tremulous eagerness and ice-cold fingers, and turned to the poet's corner. Now for her great moment, there was not a sign of an evening dream about it. Emily threw down the Enterprise and fled to the Garrett Dormer, where, faced downward on the old haircloth sofa, she wept out her bitterness of disappointment. She drained the draft of failure to the very dregs. It was horribly real and tragic to her.
Starting point is 11:27:01 She felt exactly as if she had been slapped in the face. She was crushed in the very dust of humiliation and was sure she could never rise again. How thankful she was that she hadn't told Tidy anything about it. She had been so strongly tempted to, and only refrained because she didn't want to spoil the dramatic surprise of the moment when she would show him the verses with her name signed to them. She had told Perry, and Perry was furious when he saw her tear-stained face later on in the dairy,
Starting point is 11:27:35 as they strained the milk together. Ordinarily Emily loved this, but to-night the savour had gone out of the world, even the milky splendour of the still mild winter evening, and the purple bloom over the hillside woods that presaged a thaw could not give her the accustomed soul thrill. I'm going to Charlottetown if I have to walk, and I'll bust that Enterprise editor's head, said Perry, with the expression which, 30 years later, warned the members of his party to scatter for cover. That wouldn't be any use, said Emily drearily. He didn't think it good enough to print.
Starting point is 11:28:18 That is what hurts me so, Perry. He didn't think it any good. Busting his head wouldn't change that. It took her a week to recover from the blow. Then she wrote a story in which the editor of the Enterprise played the part of a dark and desperate villain who found lodging eventually behind prison bars. This got the venom out of her system,
Starting point is 11:28:40 and she forgot all about him, in the delight of writing a poem addressed to, sweet lady April. But I question if she ever really forgave him, even when she discovered eventually, that you must not write on both sides of the paper. Even when she read over evening dreams a year later and wondered how she could ever have thought it any good.
Starting point is 11:29:03 This sort of thing was happening frequently now. Every time she read her little hoard of manuscripts over, she found some of which the fairy gold had unaccountably two, turned to withered leaves. Fit only for the burning. Emily burned them, but it hurt her a little. Outgrowing things we love is never a pleasant process. End of Section 31.
Starting point is 11:29:29 Recording by Leanne Fortune. Section 32 of Emily of New Moon by Lucy M. Montgomery. This Librevox recording is in the public domain. Recording by Leanne Fortune. section thirty two there had been several clashes between aunt elizabeth and emily that winter and spring generally aunt elizabeth came out victorious there was that in her that would not be denied the satisfaction of having her own way even in trifling matters but once in a while she came up against that curious streak of granite in emily's composition which was unyielding and unbendable and unbreakable mary of a hundred years agone had been so family chronicle ran a gentle and submissive creature generally but she had that same streak in her as her here i stay abundantly testified when aunt elizabeth tried conclusions with that element in emily she always got the worst of it yet she did not learn wisdom therefrom but pursued her policy of repression all the more rigorously for it occasionally came home to her as laura let down tax
Starting point is 11:30:58 that emily was on the verge of beginning to grow up and that various breakers and reefs loomed ahead ominously magnified in the midst of unseen years emily must not be allowed to get out of hand now lest later on she make shipwreck as her mother had done or as elizabeth murray firmly believed she had done there were in short to be no more elopements from new moon one of the things they fell out about was the fact that emily as aunt elizabeth discovered one day was in the habit of using more of her egg money to buy paper than aunt elizabeth approved of what did emily do with so much paper they had a fuss over this and eventually on Elizabeth discovered that Emily was writing stories. Emily had been writing stories all winter under Aunt Elizabeth's very nose, and Aunt Elizabeth had never suspected it. She had fondly supposed that Emily was writing school compositions. Aunt Elizabeth knew in a vague way that Emily wrote silly rhymes which she called poetry, but this did not worry her especially
Starting point is 11:32:22 Jimmy made up a lot of similar trash. It was foolish, but harmless, and Emily would doubtless outgrow it. Jimmy had not outgrown it, to be sure, but then his accident, Elizabeth always went a little sick in soul when she remembered it, had made him more or less a child for life. But writing stories was a very different thing, and Aunt Elizabeth was horrified. Fiction of any kind was an abominable thing.
Starting point is 11:32:56 Elizabeth Murray had been trained up in this belief in her youth, and in her age she had not departed from it. She honestly thought that it was a wicked and sinful thing in anyone to play cards, dance, or go to the theatre, read or write novels, and in Emily's case there was a worse feature. It was the star coming out in her, Douglas Star especially. No Murray of New Moon had ever been guilty of writing stories, or of ever wanting to write them. It was an alien growth that must be pruned off ruthlessly.
Starting point is 11:33:39 Aunt Elizabeth applied the pruning shears, and found no pliant snipable root, but that same underlying streak of granite. Emily was respectful and reasonable and above board. She bought no more paper with egg money, but she told Aunt Elizabeth that she could not give up writing stories, and she went right on writing them, on pieces of brown wrapping paper and the blank backs of circulars, which agricultural machinery firms sent Cousin'Gy.
Starting point is 11:34:13 Don't you know that it is wicked to write novels? demanded Aunt Elizabeth. Oh, I'm not writing novels yet, said Emily. I can't get enough paper. These are just short stories, and it isn't wicked. Father-like novels? Your father... began Aunt Elizabeth and stopped.
Starting point is 11:34:37 She remembered that Emily had acted up before now when anything derogatory was said of her father, but the very fact that she felt mysteriously compelled to stop annoyed Elizabeth, who had said what seemed good to her all her life at New Moon, without much regard for other people's feelings. You will not write any more of this stuff, Aunt Elizabeth contemptuously flourished the secret of the castle under Emily's nose. I forbid you, remember? I forbid you.
Starting point is 11:35:11 Oh, I must write. Aunt Elizabeth, said Emily gravely, folding her slender beautiful hands on the table and looking straight into Aunt Elizabeth's angry face with a steady, unblinking gaze, which Aunt Ruth called unchildedlike. You see, it's this way. It is in me.
Starting point is 11:35:34 I can't help it. And father said I was always to keep on writing. He said I would be famous someday. wouldn't you like to have a famous niece aunt elizabeth i am not going to argue the matter said aunt elizabeth i'm not arguing only explaining emily was exasperatingly respectful i just want you to understand how it is that i have to go on writing stories even though i am so very sorry you don't approve if you don't give up this this worst the nonsense Emily, I'll, I'll... And Elizabeth stopped. Not knowing what to say she would do.
Starting point is 11:36:23 Emily was too big now to be slapped or shut up, and it was no use to say, as she was tempted to, I'll send you away from New Moon. Because Elizabeth Murray knew perfectly well, she would not send Emily away from New Moon. Could not send her away, indeed. though this knowledge was as yet only in her feelings and had not been translated into her intellect.
Starting point is 11:36:51 She only felt that she was helpless and it angered her. But Emily was mistress of the situation and calmly went on writing stories. If Aunt Elizabeth had asked her to give up crocheting lace or making molasses taffy or eating Aunt Laura's delicious drop cookies, emily would have done so wholly and cheerfully though she loved these things but to give up writing stories why aunt elizabeth might as well have asked her to give up breathing why couldn't she understand it seemed so simple and indisputable to emily teddy can't help making pictures and ilsa can't help reciting and i can't help writing
Starting point is 11:37:41 don't you see aunt elizabeth i see that you are an ungrateful and disobedient child said aunt elizabeth this hurt emily horribly but she could not give in and there continued to be a sense of soreness and disapproval between her and aunt elizabeth in all the little details of daily life that poisoned existence more or less for the child who was so keenly sensitive to her environment into the feelings with which her kindred regarded her. Emily felt it all the time, except when she was writing her stories. Then she forgot everything, roaming in some enchanted country between the sun and moon, where she saw wonderful beings whom she tried to describe
Starting point is 11:38:34 and wonderful deeds which she tried to record, coming back to the candlelit kitchen, with a somewhat dazed sense of having been years in no man's land. She did not even have Aunt Laura to back her up in the matter. Aunt Laura thought Emily ought to yield in such an unimportant matter and please Aunt Elizabeth. But it's not unimportant, said Emily despairingly. It's the most important thing in the world to me, Aunt Laura. Oh, I thought you would understand.
Starting point is 11:39:10 I understand. I understand that you like to do it, dear, and I think it's a harmless enough amusement. But it seems to annoy Elizabeth somewhere, and I do think you might give it up on that account. It is not as if it was anything that mattered much. It is really a waste of time. No, no, said distressed Emily. Why, someday, Aunt Laura, I'll write real books and make lots of money. she added, sensing that the business like Murray's measured the nature of most things on a cash basis. Aunt Laura smiled indulgently. I'm afraid you'll never grow rich that way, dear.
Starting point is 11:39:54 It would be wiser to employ your time preparing herself for some useful work. It was maddening to be condescended to like this. Maddening that nobody could see that she had to write. Maddening to have Aunt Laura's. so sweet and loving and stupid about it. Oh, thought Emily bitterly. If that hateful Enterprise editor had printed my piece, they'd have believed then.
Starting point is 11:40:24 At any rate, advised Aunt Laura, don't let Elizabeth see you writing them. But somehow Emily could not take this prudent advice. There had been occasions when she had connived with Aunt Laura to hoodwink on to Elizabeth. on some little matter, but she found she could not do it in this. This had to be open and above board. She must write stories, and Aunt Elizabeth must know it.
Starting point is 11:40:55 That was the way it had to be. She could not be false to herself in this. She could not pretend to be false. She wrote her father all about it, poured out her bitterness and perplexity to him. in what, though she did not suspect it at the time, was the last letter she was to write him. There was a large bundle of letters by now on the old sofa shelf in the garret, for Emily had written many letters to her father, besides those which have been chronicled
Starting point is 11:41:29 in this history. There were a great many paragraphs about Aunt Elizabeth in them, most of them very uncomplimentary, and some of them, as Emily herself would have owned, when her first bitterness was passed, overdrawn and exaggerated. They had been written in moments when her hurt and angry soul demanded some outlet for its emotion, and barbed her pen with venom. Emily was mistress of a subtly malicious style when she chose to be. After she had written them, the hurt had ceased, and she thought no more about them, but they remained. And one spring day, Aunt Elizabeth, house-cleaning in the garret, while Emily played happily with Teddy at the tansy patch, found the bundle of letters on the sofa shelf, sat down
Starting point is 11:42:24 and read them all. Elizabeth Murray would never have read any writing belonging to a grown person. but it never occurred to her that there was anything dishonourable in reading the letters wherein emily lonely and sometimes misunderstood had poured out her heart to the father she had loved and been loved by so passionately and understandingly aunt elizabeth thought she had a right to know everything that this pensioner on her bounty did said or thought She read the letters and she found out what Emily thought of her, of her. Elizabeth Murray, autocrat, unchallenged, to whom no one had ever dared to say anything uncomplimentary. Such an experience is no pleasanter at 60 than at 16. As Elizabeth Murray folded up the last letter, her hands trembled with anger, and something underneath it that was not anger.
Starting point is 11:43:37 Emily, your aunt Elizabeth wants to see you in the parlour, said Aunt Laura when Emily returned from the tansy patch, driven home by the thin grey rain that had begun to drift over the greening fields. Her tone, her sorrowful look, warned Emily that mischief was in the wind. Emily had no idea what mischief she could. not recall anything she had done recently that should bring her up before the tribunal, Aunt Elizabeth occasionally held in the parlour.
Starting point is 11:44:12 It must be serious when it was in the parlour. For reasons best known to herself, Aunt Elizabeth held super serious interviews like this in the parlour. Possibly, it was because she felt obscurely that the photographs of the Murray's on the walls gave her a backing she needed when dealing with his hop-out-of-kin. For the same reason, Emily detested a trial in the parlour. She always felt on such occasions like a very small mouse, surrounded by a circle of grim cats.
Starting point is 11:44:49 Emily skipped across the big hall, pausing, in spite of her alarm, to glance at the charming red world through the crimson glass, then pushed open the parlor door. The room was dim, for only one of the slat blinds was partially raised. Aunt Elizabeth was sitting bolt upright in Grandfather Murray's black horsehair chair. Emily looked at her stern, angry face first, and then at her lap. Emily understood.
Starting point is 11:45:20 The first thing she did was to retrieve, her precious letters. With the quickness of light, she sprang to Aunt Elizabeth, snatched up the bundle. and retreated to the door. There she faced Aunt Elizabeth, her face blazing with indignation and outrage. Sacrilege had been committed. The most sacred shrine of her soul had been profaned. How dare you?
Starting point is 11:45:51 She said. How dare you touch my private papers? Aunt Elizabeth? Aunt Elizabeth had not expected. this she had looked for confusion dismay shame fear for anything but this righteous indignation as if she forsooth were the guilty one she rose give me those letters emily no i will not said emily what with anger as she clasped her hands around the bundle they are mine and fathers, not yours. You had no right to touch them. I will never forgive you. This was turning the tables with a vengeance. Aunt Elizabeth was so dumbfounded that she hardly knew what to say or do.
Starting point is 11:46:52 Worst of all, a most unpleasant doubt of her own conduct suddenly assailed her, driven home perhaps, by the intensity and earnestness of Emily's accusation. For the first time in her life, it occurred to Elizabeth Murray to wonder if she had done rightly. For the first time in her life, she felt ashamed, and the shame made her furious. It was intolerable that she should be made to feel. ashamed. For the moment they faced each other, not as aunt and niece, not as child and adult, but as two human beings, each with hatred for the other in her heart. Elizabeth Murray, tall and austere and thin-lipped, Emily Starr, white of face, her eyes pools of black flame,
Starting point is 11:47:55 her trembling arms, hugging her letters. So this is your gratitude, said Aunt Elizabeth. You were a penniless orphan. I took you to my home. I have given you shelter and food and education and kindness, and this is my thanks. As yet, Emily's tempest of anger and resentment prevented her from feeling the sting of You did not want to take me, she said. You made me draw lots, and you took me because the lot fell to you.
Starting point is 11:48:37 You knew some of you had to take me because you were the proud Murray's and couldn't let a relation go to an orphan asylum. Aunt Laura loves me now, but you don't. So why should I love you? ungrateful, thankless child. I'm not thankless. I've tried to be good. I've tried to obey you and please you. I do all the chores I can to help pay for my keep.
Starting point is 11:49:07 And you had no business to read my letters to father. There are disgraceful letters and must be destroyed, said Aunt Elizabeth. No, Emily clasped them tighter. I'd sooner burn myself. You shall not have them, Aunt Elizabeth. She felt her brows drawing together. She felt the Murray look on her face.
Starting point is 11:49:34 She knew she was conquering. Elizabeth Murray turned paler. If that were possible, there were times when she could give the Murray look herself. It was not that which dismayed her. It was the uncanny something which seemed to peer out behind the Murray look that always broke her will.
Starting point is 11:49:57 She trembled, faltered, yielded. Keep your letters, she said bitterly, and scorn the old woman who opened her home to you. She went out of the parlour. Emily was left mistress of the field,
Starting point is 11:50:15 and all at once, her victory turned to dust in ashes in her mouth. She went up, to her own room, hid her letters in the cupboard over the mantle, and then crept up on her bed, huddling down in a little heap, with her face buried in her pillow. She was still sore with a sense of outrage, but underneath another pain was beginning to ache terribly. Something in her was hurt because she had hurt Aunt Elizabeth, for she felt that Aunt Elizabeth, under all her anger,
Starting point is 11:50:52 was hurt. This surprised, Emily. She would have expected Aunt Elizabeth to be angry, of course, but she would never have supposed it would affect her in any other way. Yet she had seen something in Aunt Elizabeth's eyes when she had flung that last stinging sentence at her, something that spoke of bitter hurt. Oh, oh, gasped Emily. She began to cry chokingly into her pillow. She was so wretched
Starting point is 11:51:26 that she could not get out of herself and watch her own suffering with a sort of enjoyment in its drama set her mind to analyse her feelings. And when Emily was as wretched as that, she was very wretched indeed and wholly, comfortless. Aunt Elizabeth would not keep her at New Moon after a poisonous quarrel like this.
Starting point is 11:51:53 She would send her away, of course. Emily believed this. Nothing was too horrible to believe just then. How could she live away from dear New Moon? And I may have to live 80 years, Emily moaned. But worse even than this was the remembrance of that look. in Aunt Elizabeth's eyes. Her own sense of outrage and sacrilege ebbed away under the remembrance. She thought of all the things she had written her father about Aunt Elizabeth.
Starting point is 11:52:28 Sharp, bitter things, some of them just, some of them unjust. She began to feel that she should not have written them. It was true enough that Aunt Elizabeth had not loved her, had not wanted to take her, had not wanted to take her to New Moon, but she had taken her. And though it had been done in duty, not in love,
Starting point is 11:52:53 the fact remained. It was no use for her to tell herself that it wasn't as if the letters were written to anyone living, to be seen and read by others. While she was under Aunt Elizabeth's roof, while she owed the food she ate and the clothes she wore to Aunt Elizabeth, she should not say, Even to her father, harsh things of her, a star should not have done it. I must go and ask Aunt Elizabeth to forgive me, thought Emily at last. All the passion gone out of her, and only regret and repentance left. I suppose she never will. She'll hate me always now.
Starting point is 11:53:39 But I must go. She turned herself about, and then the door opened. and aunt elizabeth entered she came across the room and stood at the side of the bed looking down at the grieved little face on the pillow a face that in the dim rainy twilight with its tear-stains and black-shadowed eyes looked strangely mature and chiselled elizabeth murray was still austere and cold her voice sounded stern but she said an amazing thing. Emily, I had no right to read your letters. I admit I was wrong. Will you forgive me? Oh, the word was almost to cry. Aunt Elizabeth had at last discerned the way to conquer Emily. The latter lifted herself up, flung her arms about Aunt Elizabeth, and said chokingly, oh, Aunt Elizabeth, I'm Sorry, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have written those things, but I wrote them when I was vexed, and I didn't mean them all. Truly, I didn't mean the worst of them. Oh, you'll believe that, won't you, Aunt Elizabeth? I'd like to believe it, Emily. An odd quiver passed through the tall, rigid form. I don't like to think you hate me. My sister's child, little Juliet's child,
Starting point is 11:55:14 I don't, oh, I don't, sobbed Emily. And I love you, Aunt Elizabeth, if you'll let me, if you want me to. I didn't think you cared, dear Aunt Elizabeth. Emily gave Aunt Elizabeth a fierce hug and a passionate kiss on the white, fine wrinkled cheek. Aunt Elizabeth kissed her gravely on the brow in return, and then said, as if closing the door on the whole incident, you'd better wash your face and come down to supper. But there was yet something to be cleared up.
Starting point is 11:55:54 Aunt Elizabeth whispered Emily. I can't burn those letters, you know. They belong to Father, but I'll tell you what I will do. I'll go over them all and put a star by anything I said about you. and then I'll add an explanatory footnote, saying that I was mistaken. Emily spent her spare time for several days putting in her explanatory footnotes, and then her conscience had rest.
Starting point is 11:56:26 But when she again tried to write a letter to her father, she found that it no longer meant anything to her. The sense of reality, nearness, of close communion had gone, Perhaps she had been outgrowing it gradually as childhood began to merge into girlhood. Perhaps the bitter scene with Aunt Elizabeth had only shaken into dust, something out of which the spirit had already departed. But whatever the explanation, it was not possible to write such letters anymore. She missed them terribly, but she could not go back. back to them. A certain door of life was shut behind her and could not be reopened.
Starting point is 11:57:17 End of Section 32. Recording by Leanne Fortune. Section 33 of Emily of New Moon by Lucy M. Montgomery. This Librivox recording is in the public domain. Recording by Leanne Fortune, Section 33. It would be pleasant to. be able to record that after the reconciliation in the lookout, Emily and Aunt Elizabeth lived in entire amity and harmony. But the truth was that things went on pretty much the same as before. Emily went softly and tried to mingle serpent's wisdom and dove's harmlessness
Starting point is 11:58:06 in practical proportions, but their points of view were so different that there were bound to be clashes. They did not speak the same language, so there was bound to be misunderstanding. And yet, there was a difference. A very vital difference. Elizabeth Murray had learned an important lesson, that there was not one law of fairness for children and another for grown-ups. She continued to be as autocratic as ever, but she did not do or say to Emily anything she would not have done or said to Laura, had occasion called for it. Emily on her side had discovered the fact that, under all her surface coldness and sternness, Aunt Elizabeth really had an affection for her, and it was wonderful. What a difference this made. It took the sting out of Aunt Elizabeth's
Starting point is 11:59:04 ways and words and healed entirely a certain little half-conscious sore spot that had been in Emily's heart ever since the incident of the drawn slips at Maywood. I don't believe I'm a duty to Aunt Elizabeth any more, she thought exultantly. Emily grew rapidly that summer, in body, mind and soul. Life was delightful, growing richer every hour like an unfolding rose. Forms of beauty filled her imagination and were transferred as best she could to pay though they were never so lovely there, and Emily had the heartbreaking moments of the true artist
Starting point is 11:59:49 who discovers that never on painter's canvas lives the charm of his fancies dream. Much of her old stuff she burned. Even the child of the sea was reduced to ashes, but the little pile of manuscripts in the mantel cupboard of the lookout was growing steadily larger. emily kept her scribblings there now the sofa shelf in the garret was desecrated and besides she felt somehow that aunt elizabeth would never meddle with her private papers again no matter where they were kept she did not go now to the garret to read or write or dream her own dear look-out was the best place for that she loved that quaint little old room intensely it was almost like a living thing-and-and-and-a-lainting thing-and-and-a-lainting she loved that quaint little oldroom intensely it was almost like a living thing thing to her, a sharer in gladness, a comforter in sorrow.
Starting point is 12:00:47 Ilsa was growing, too, blossoming out into strange beauty and brilliance, knowing no law but her own pleasure, recognising no authority but her own whim, Aunt Laura worried over her. She will be a woman so soon, and who will look after her? Alan won't. I've no patience with Alan, said Aunt Elizabeth. grimly. He is always ready to Hector and advise other people. He'd better look at home. He'll come over here and order me to do this or that or not to do it, for Emily. But if I say one word to him about Ilsa, he blows the roof off. The idea of a man turning against his daughter and neglecting her as he has neglected Ilsa, simply because her mother wasn't
Starting point is 12:01:36 all she ought to be, as if the poor child was to blame for that. But, shh, said Aunt Laura, as Emily crossed the sitting room on her way upstairs, Emily smiled sadly to herself. Aunt Laura needn't be shing. There was nothing left for her to find out about Ilse's mother. Nothing, except the most important thing of all, which neither she nor anybody else living knew. for Emily had never surrendered her conviction that the whole truth about Beatrice Burnley was not known. She often worried about it when she lay curled up in her black walnut beder nights, listening to the moan of the Gulf and the wind woman singing in the trees, and drifted into sleep, wishing intensely that she could solve the dark old mystery
Starting point is 12:02:32 and dissolve its legend of shame and bitterness. Emily went rather languidly upstairs to the lookout. She meant to write some more of her story, The Ghost of the Well, wherein she was weaving the old legend of the well in the Lee Field, but somehow interest was lacking. She put the manuscript back into the mantel cupboard. She read over a letter from Dean Priest which had come that day,
Starting point is 12:03:01 one of his fat, jolly, whimsical, delightful letters, wherein he told her that he was coming to stay a month with his sister at Blair Water. She wondered why this announcement did not excite her more. She was tired. Her head was aching. Emily couldn't remember ever having had a headache before. Since she could not write, she decided to lie down and be Lady Trevagnan for a while. Emily was Lady Trevanyan very often that summer. In one of the dream lives she had begun.
Starting point is 12:03:34 to build up for herself. Lady Trevanion was the wife of an English earl, and, besides being a famous novelist, was a member of the British House of Commons, where she always appeared in black velvet, with a stately coronet of pearls on her dark hair. She was the only woman in the house, and, as this was before the days of the suffragettes, she had to endure many sneers and innuendos and insults. And, from the ungallant males around her. Emily's favourite dream scene was where she rose to make her first speech, a wonderfully thrilling event. As Emily found it difficult to do justice to the scene in any ideas of her own,
Starting point is 12:04:22 she always fell back on Pitt's reply to Walpole, which she had found in her royal reader, and declaimed it with suitable variations. The insolent speaker who had provoked Lady Trevanian into speech had sneered at her as a woman, and Lady Trevanion, a magnificent creature in her velvet and pearls, rose to her feet amid hushed and dramatic silence, and said, The atrocious crime of being a woman, which the Honourable Member has, with such spirit and deep, decency charged upon me, I shall attempt neither to palliate nor deny, but shall content myself with wishing that I may be one of those whose follies cease with their sex, and not one of that
Starting point is 12:05:18 number who are ignorant in spite of manhood and experience. Here she was always interrupted by thunders of applause. But the savour was entirely lacking in this scene today, and by the time Emily had reached the line, but womanhood, sir, is not my only crime, she gave up in disgust, and fell to worrying over Ilsa's mother again, mixed up with some uneasy speculations regarding the climax of her story about the ghost of the will, mingled with her unpleasant physical sensation. Her eyes hurt her when she moved them. She was chilly, although the July day was hot. She was still lying there when Aunt Elizabeth came up to ask why she hadn't gone to bring the cows home from the pasture.
Starting point is 12:06:12 I didn't know it was so late, said Emily, confusedly. I... My head aches, Aunt Elizabeth. Aunt Elizabeth rolled up the white cotton blind and looked at Emily. She noted her flushed face. She felt her pulse. Then she bade her shortly to stay where she was, went down, and sent Perry for Dr. Verne. Probably she's got the measles, said the doctor as gruffly as usual. Emily was not yet sick enough to be gentle over.
Starting point is 12:06:46 There's an outbreak of them at Derry Pond. Has she had any chance to catch them? Jimmy Joe Bell's two children were here one afternoon about ten days. ago. She played with them. She's always playing round with people she's no business to associate with. I haven't heard that they were or have been sick, though. Jimmy Joe Will, when asked plainly, confessed that his young ones had come out with measles the very day after they had been at New Moon. There was therefore not much doubt as to Emily's malady. It's a bad kind of measles apparently, the doctor said. Quite a number of the dairy pond children have died of it,
Starting point is 12:07:29 mostly French though. The kids would be out of bed when they had no business to be and caught cold. I don't think you need worry about Emily. She might as well have measles and be done with it. Keep her warm and keep the room dark. I'll run over in the morning. For three or four days, nobody was much alarmed. Measles was a disease, everybody. had to have. Aunt Elizabeth looked after Emily well and slept on a sofa which had been moved into the lookout. She even left the window open at night. In spite of this, perhaps Aunt Elizabeth thought because of it, Emily grew steadily sicker, and on the fifth day a sharp change for the worst took place. Her fever went up rapidly. Delirium set in, Dr. Verne-le came,
Starting point is 12:08:22 looked anxious, scowled, changed the medicine. I am sent for to a bad case of pneumonia at White Cross, he said. And I have to go to Charlotte Town in the morning to be present at Mrs. Jackwell's operation. I promised her I would go. I'll be back in the evening. Emily is very restless. That high-strung system of hers is evidently very sensitive to fever. What's that nonsense she's talking about the wind woman?
Starting point is 12:08:50 Oh, I don't know. said don't Elizabeth worriedly. She's always talking nonsense like that, even when she's well. Ellen, tell me plainly. Is there any danger? There's always danger in this type of measles. I don't like these symptoms. The eruption should be out by now, and there's no sign of it. Her fever is very high. But I don't think we need be alarmed yet.
Starting point is 12:09:18 If I thought otherwise, I wouldn't go to town. her as quiet as possible. Humour her whims if you can. I don't like that mental disturbance. She looks terribly distressed. Seems to be worrying over something. Has she had anything on her mind of late? Not that I know of, said Aunt Elizabeth. She had a sudden, bitter realization that she really did not know much about the child's mind. Emily would never have come to her with any of her little troubles and worries. Emily, what is bothering you? asked Dr. Burnley, softly. Very softly. He took the hot, tossing little hand gently, though so gently in his big one. Emily looked up with wild, fever-bright eyes. She couldn't have done it. She couldn't have done it.
Starting point is 12:10:15 Of course she couldn't, said the doctor cheerily. Don't worry. she didn't do it. His eyes telegraphed, what does she mean, to Elizabeth. But Elizabeth shook her head. Who are you talking about, dear? She asked Emily. It was the first time she had called Emily, dear.
Starting point is 12:10:35 But Emily was off on another tack. The well in Mr. Lee's field was open, she declared. Someone would be sure to fall into it. Why didn't Mr. Lee shut it up? Dr. Burnley left Aunt Elizabeth trying, with trying to reassure Emily on that point and hurried away to White Cross. At the door, he nearly fell over Perry, who was curled up on the sandstone slab, hugging his sunburned legs desperately.
Starting point is 12:11:04 How is Emily? he demanded, grasping the skirt of the doctor's coat. Don't bother me, I'm in a hurry, growled the doctor. You tell me how Emily is, or I'll hang on to your coat till the seams go. said Perry stubbornly. I can't get one word of sense out of them old maids. You tell me. She's a sick child, but I'm not seriously alarmed about her yet. The doctor gave his coat another tug,
Starting point is 12:11:32 but Perry held on for a last word. You've got to cure her, he said. If anything happens to Emily, I'll drown myself in the pond. Mind that! He let go so suddenly, the doctor Vernley nearly went headlong on the ground. Then Perry curled up on the doorstep again. He watched there until Laura and cousin Jimmy had gone to bed, and then he sneaked through the house and sat on the stairs,
Starting point is 12:11:59 where he could hear any sound in Emily's room. He sat there all night, with his fists clenched, as if keeping guard against an unseen foe. Elizabeth Murray watched by Emily until two o'clock, and then Laura took her place. "'She has raved a great deal,' said Aunt Elizabeth. "'I wish I knew what is worrying her. "'There is something, I feel sure.
Starting point is 12:12:26 "'It isn't all mere delirium. "'She keeps repeating she couldn't have done it "'in such imploring tones. "'I wonder. "'Oh, Laura, you remember the time I read her letters. "'Do you think she means me?' "'Laura shook her head. "'She had never seen Elizabeth so moved.
Starting point is 12:12:46 if the child doesn't get better said aunt elizabeth she said no more but went quickly out of the room laura sat down by the bed she was pale and drawn with her own worry and fatigue for she had not been able to sleep She loved Emily as her own child, and the awful dread that had possessed her heart would not lift for an instant. She sat there and prayed mutely. Emily fell into a troubled slumber, which lasted until the grey dawn crept into the lookout. Then she opened her eyes, and looked at Aunt Laura, looked through her, looked beyond her. I see her coming over the fields. said in a high, clear voice. She is coming so gladly.
Starting point is 12:13:40 She is singing. She is thinking of her baby. Oh, keep her back. Keep her back. She doesn't see the well. It's so dark she doesn't see it. Oh, she's gone into it. She's gone into it.
Starting point is 12:13:57 Emily's voice rose in a piercing shriek which penetrated to Aunt Elizabeth's room and brought her flying across the hall. in her flannel nightgown. What is wrong, Laura? She gasped. Laura was trying to soothe Emily, who was struggling to sit up in bed. Her cheeks were crimson,
Starting point is 12:14:17 and her eyes had still the same, far, wild look. Emily, Emily, darling, you've just had a bad dream. The old Lee well isn't open. Nobody has fallen into it. Yes, somebody has, said Emily shrilly.
Starting point is 12:14:34 She has. I saw her, I saw her, with the ace of hearts on her forehead. Do you think I don't know her? She fell back on her pillow, moaned and tossed the hands which Laura Marie had loosened in her surprise. The two ladies of New Moon looked at each other, crossed her bed in dismay, and something like terror. Who did you see, Emily? asked Aunt Elizabeth. Ilsa's mother, of course. I always knew she didn't do that redress. thing. She fell into the old well. She's there now. Go, go and get her out, Aunt Laura. Please.
Starting point is 12:15:13 Yes, yes, of course we'll get her out, darling, said Aunt Laura soothingly. Emily sat up in bed and looked at Aunt Laura again. This time she did not look through her. She looked into her. Laura Murray felt that those burning eyes read her soul. You are lying to me. cried emily you don't mean to try to get her out you are only saying it to put me off aunt elizabeth she suddenly turned and caught aunt elizabeth's hand you'll do it for me won't you you'll go and get her out of the old well won't you elizabeth remembered that dr bernley had said that emily's whims must be humoured she was terrified by the child's condition yes i'll get her out if she is in there she said Emily released her hand and sank down. The wild glare left her eyes. A great sudden calm fell over her anguished little face.
Starting point is 12:16:15 I know you'll keep your word, she said. You are very hard, but you never lie, aunt Elizabeth. Elizabeth Murray went back to her own room and dressed herself with her shaking fingers. A little later, when Emily had fallen into a quiet sleep, Laura went downstairs and heard Elizabeth giving cousin Jimmy some orders in the kitchen. Elizabeth, you don't really mean to have that old well searched? I do, said Elizabeth resolutely. I know it's nonsense as well as you do, but I had to promise it to quiet her down and I'll keep my promise.
Starting point is 12:16:56 You heard what she said. She believed I wouldn't lie to her. Nor will I. Jimmy, you will go over to James Lee's, after breakfast and ask him to come here. How has she heard the story? said Laura. I don't know. Oh, someone has told her, of course. Perhaps that old demon of the Nancy priest.
Starting point is 12:17:17 It doesn't matter who. She has heard it, and the thing is to keep her quiet. It isn't so much of a job to put ladders in the well and get someone to go down it. The thing that matters is the absurdity of it. We'll be laughed at for a pair of fools. protested Laura, whose share of Murray pride was in hot revolt, and besides, it will open up all the old scandal again. No matter, I'll keep my word to the child, said Elizabeth stubbornly. Alan Burnley came to New Moon at sunset, on his way home from town. He was tired, for he had been going night and day for over a week.
Starting point is 12:18:00 He was more worried than he had admitted over Emily. He looked old and rather desolate as he stepped into the New Moon kitchen. Only Cousin Jimmy was there. Cousin Jimmy did not seem to have much to do, although it was a good heyday than Jimmy Joe, Bill and Perry were hauling in the great fragrant sun-dried loads. He sat by the western window with a strange expression on his face. "'Hello, Jimmy. Where are the girls? And how is Emily?'
Starting point is 12:18:32 "'Emily is better,' said Cousin Jimmy. "'The rash is out and her fever has gone down. I think she's asleep.' "'Good. We couldn't afford to lose that little girl, could we, Jimmy?' "'No,' said Jimmy, but he did not seem to want to talk about it. "'Lora and Elizabeth are in the sitting-room. They want to see you.' He paused a minute and then added in an ear. there is nothing hidden that shall not be revealed. It occurred to Alan Burnley that Jimmy was acting mysteriously.
Starting point is 12:19:09 And if Laura and Elizabeth wanted to see him, why didn't they come out? It wasn't like them to stand on ceremony in this fashion. He pushed open the sitting-room door impatiently. Laura Murray was sitting on the sofa, leaning her head on its arm. He could not see her face, but he felt that she was crying. Elizabeth was sitting bolt upright on a chair.
Starting point is 12:19:36 She wore her second-best black silk and her second-best lace cap. And she, too, had been crying. Dr. Bonley never attached much importance to Laura's tears, easy as those of most women, but that Elizabeth Murray should cry. Had he ever seen her cry before? The thought of Ilsa flashed into his mind, his little neglected daughter.
Starting point is 12:20:06 Had anything happened to Ilsa, in one dreadful moment, Alan Burnley paid the price of his treatment of his child. What is wrong? He exclaimed in his gruffest manner. Oh, Alan, said Elizabeth Murray. God forgive us. God forgive us all. It is. Ilsa, said Dr. Burnley, Dully. No, no, not Ilsa. Then she told him. She told him what had been found at the bottom of the old Lee well. She told him what had been the real fate of the lovely, laughing young wife, whose name for 12 bitter years, had never crossed his lips.
Starting point is 12:20:57 It was not until the next evening that Emily saw the doctor. She was lying in bed, weak and limp, red as a beat with the measles rash, but quite herself again. Alan Burnley stood by the bed and looked down at her. Emily, dear little child, do you know what you have done for me? God knows how you did it. I thought you didn't believe in God. said Emily wonderingly. You have given me back my faith in him, Emily.
Starting point is 12:21:30 Why? What have I done? Dr. Bonley saw that she had no remembrance of her delirium. Laura had told him that she had slept long and soundly after Elizabeth's promise and had awakened with fever gone and the eruption fast coming out. She had asked nothing and they had said nothing. When you are better, we will tell you all, he said, smiling down at her. There was something very sorrowful in the smile, and yet something very sweet. He is smiling with his eyes as well as his mouth now, thought Emily.
Starting point is 12:22:12 How? How did she know? whispered Laura Murray to him when he went down. I can't understand it, Alan. nor I. These things are beyond us, Laura, he answered gravely. I only know this child has given Beatrice back to me, stainless and beloved. It can be explained rationally enough, perhaps.
Starting point is 12:22:39 Emily has evidently been told about Beatrice and worried over it, who repeated she couldn't have done it, shows that. And the tales of the old Lee well naturally made it deep impression on the mind of a sensitive child keenly alive to dramatic values. In her delirium, she mixed this all up with the well-known fact of Jimmy's tumble into the new moon well, and the rest was coincidence. I would have explained it all so myself once, but now, now, Laura, I only say humbly, a little child shall lead them. Our stepmother's mother was a Highland Scotch woman.
Starting point is 12:23:22 They said she had the second sight, said Elizabeth. I never believed in it before. The excitement of Blairwater had died away before Emily was deemed strong enough to hear the story. That which had been found in the old Lee well had been buried in the Mitchell Plotter Shrewsbury and a white marble shaft sacred to the memory of Beatrice Burnley, beloved wife of Alan Burnley had been erected. The sensation caused by Dr. Burnley's presence
Starting point is 12:23:55 every Sunday and the old Burnley pew had died away. On the first evening that Emily was allowed to sit up, Aunt Laura told her the whole story. Her manner of telling stripped it forever of the taint and innuendo
Starting point is 12:24:11 left by Aunt Nancy. I knew Ilsa's mother couldn't have done "'said Emily triumphantly. "'We blame ourselves now for our lack of faith,' said Aunt Laura. "'We should have known too, but it did seem black against her at the time, Emily. "'She was a bright, beautiful, merry creature. "'We thought her close friendship with her cousin natural and harmless.
Starting point is 12:24:38 "'We know now it was so, but all these years since her disappearance we have believed differently. Mr James Lee remembers clearly that the well was open the night of Beatrice's disappearance. His hired man had taken the old rotten planks off of that evening, intending to put the new ones on at once. Then Robert Gerson's house caught fire, and he ran, with everybody else to help save it. By the time it was out, it was too dark to finish with the well, and the man said nothing about it until the morning. Mr. Lee was angry with him.
Starting point is 12:25:19 He said it was a scandalous thing to leave a well uncovered like that. He went right down and put the new plankst in place himself. He did not look down in the well. Had he looked, he could have seen nothing, for the ferns growing out from the side screened the depths. It was just after harvest. No one was in the field again before the next. spring. He never connected
Starting point is 12:25:45 Beatrice's disappearance with the open will. He wonders now that he didn't. But you see, dear, there had been much malicious gossip, and Beatrice was known to have gone on board the Lady of Wins.
Starting point is 12:26:01 It was taken for granted she never came off again, but she did, and went to her death in the old Lee Field. It was a dreadful ending to her bright young life, but not so dreadful, after all, is what we believed. For twelve years we have wronged the dead.
Starting point is 12:26:21 But Emily, how could you know? I don't know. When the doctor came in that day, I couldn't remember anything, but now it seems to me that I remember something, just as if I dreamed it of seeing Ilsa's mother coming over the fields, singing. It was dark, and yet I could see the ace of hearts. Oh, Auntie, I don't know. I don't like to think of it some way.
Starting point is 12:26:51 We won't talk of it again, said Aunt Laura gently. It is one of the things best not talked of, one of God's secrets. And Elsa, does her father love her now? asked Emily eagerly. Love her? He can't love her enough. It seems as if he were poor. pouring out on her, at once, all the shut-up love of those twelve years.
Starting point is 12:27:18 He'll likely spoil her now as much with indulgence as he did before with neglect, said Elizabeth, coming in with Emily's supper in time to hear Laura's reply. It will take a lot of love to spoil Ilsa, laughed Laura. She is drinking it up like a thirsty sponge, and she loves him wildly in return. There isn't a trace of grudge in her over his long neglect. All the same, said Elizabeth grimly, tucking pillows behind Emily's back with a very gentle hand, oddly in contrast with her severe expression.
Starting point is 12:27:56 He won't get off so easily. Ilsa has run wild for twelve years. He won't find it so easy to make her behave properly now, if he ever does. Love will do wonders, said Aunt Lauren. of course, Elsa is dying to come and see you, Emily. But she must wait until there is no danger of infection. I told her she might write, but when she found I would have to read it because of your eyes, she said she'd wait till you could read it yourself. Evidently, Laura laughed again.
Starting point is 12:28:32 Evidently, Elsa has much of importance to tell you. I didn't know anybody could be as happy as I am now, said Emily. And oh, Aunt Elizabeth, it is so nice to feel hungry again and to have something to chew. End of Section 33. Recording by Leanne Fortune. Section 34 of Emily of New Moon by Lucy M. Montgomery. This Libre Vox recording is in the public domain. Recording by Leanne Fortune. Section 34. Emily's convalescence was rather slow. Physically she recovered with normal salarity, but a certain spiritual and emotional languor persisted for a time. One cannot go down to the depths of hidden things and escape the penalty. Aunt Elizabeth said she moped, but Emily was too happy and contented to mope.
Starting point is 12:29:42 it was just that life seemed to have lost its savour for a time as if some spring of vital energy had been drained out of it and refilled slowly she had just then no one to play with perry ilsa and teddy had all come down with measles the same day mrs kent at first declared bitterly that teddy had caught them at new moon but all three had contracted them at a Sunday school picnic where dairy-pond children had been. That picnic infected all Blair Water. There was a perfect orgy of measles. Teddy and Elsa were only moderately ill, but Perry, who had insisted on going home to Aunt Tom at the first symptoms, nearly died. Emily was not allowed to know his danger until it had popped. lest it worry her too much even aunt elizabeth worried over it she was surprised to discover how much they missed perry round the place it was fortunate for emily that dean priest was in blaywater during this forlorn time
Starting point is 12:31:00 his companionship was just what she needed and helped her wonderfully on the road to complete recovery they went for long walks together all over blerwater with tweed woofing around them and explored places and roads Emily had never seen before. They watched a young moon grow old, night by night. They talked in dim, centred chambers of twilight over long red roads of mystery. They followed the lure of hill winds. They saw the stars rise, and Dean told her all about them, the great constellations of the old myths. it was a wonderful month but on the first day of teddy's convalescence emily was off to the tansy patch for the afternoon and jarback priest walked if he walked at all alone
Starting point is 12:31:56 aunt elizabeth was extremely polite to him though she did not like the priests of priest pond overmuch and never felt quite comfortable under the mocking gleam of jar-back's green eyes and the faint derision of his smile which seemed to make murray pride and murray traditions seem much less important than they really were he has the priest flavour she told laura though it isn't as strong in him as in most of them and he's certainly helping emily she has begun to spunk up since he came emily continued to spunk up and by september when the measles epidemic was spent and dean priest had gone on one of his sudden swoops over to europe for the autumn she was ready for school again a little taller a little thinner a little less childlike with great grey shadowy eyes that had looked into death and read the riddle of a buried thing and henceforth would hold in them some haunting elusive remembrance of that world behind the veil dean priest had seen it mr carpenter saw it when she smiled at him across her desk at school she's left the childhood of her soul behind though she is still a child in body he muttered one afternoon amid the golden days and hazers of october he asked her gruffly to let him see some of her verses i never meant to encourage you in it he said i don't mean it now probably you can't write a line of real poetry and never will but let me see your stuff if it's hopelessly bad i'll tell you so i won't have you wasting years striving for the unattainable
Starting point is 12:33:55 at least i won't have it on my conscience if you do if there's any promise in it i'll tell you so just as honestly and bring some of your stories too they're trash yet that's certain but i'll see if they show just insufficient cause for going on eminy spent a very solemn hour that evening weighing choosing rejecting to the little bundle of verse she added one of her jimmy books which contained as she thought her best stories she went to school next day sir secret and mysterious that ilsa took offence started in to call her names and then stopped ilsa had promised her father that she would try to break herself of the habit of calling names she was making fairly good headway and her conversation, if less vivid, was beginning to approximate to New Moon standards. Emily made a sad mess of her lessons that day. She was nervous and frightened. She had a tremendous respect for Mr. Carpenter's opinion. Father Cassidy had told her to keep on.
Starting point is 12:35:06 Dean Priest had told her that some day she might really write. But perhaps they were only trying to be encouraging. because they liked her and didn't want to hurt her feelings. Emily knew Mr. Carpenter would not do this. No matter if he did like her, he would nip her aspirations mercilessly if he thought the root of the matter was not in her. If, on the contrary, he bade her godspeed, she would rest content with that against the world
Starting point is 12:35:37 and never lose heart in the face of any future criticism. No wonder the day seemed fraught with tremendous issues to Emily. When schools out, Mr. Carpenter asked her to remain, she was so white and tense that the other pupils thought she must have been found out by Mr. Carpenter in some especially dreadful behaviour and knew she was going to catch it. Rhoda Stewart flung her a significantly malicious smile from the porch
Starting point is 12:36:11 which Emily never even saw. She was indeed at a momentous bar with Mr. Carpenter as supreme judge and her whole future career, so she believed, hanging on his verdict. The pupils disappeared and a mellow, sunshiny stillness
Starting point is 12:36:30 settled over the old schoolroom. Mr. Carpenter took the little packet she had given him in the morning, out of his desk, came down the aisle and sat in the seat before her, facing her. Very deliberately, he settled his glasses astride his hooked nose, took out her manuscripts and began to read, or rather to glance over them, flinging scraps of comments,
Starting point is 12:37:00 mingled with grunts, sniffs and hoots, at her as he glanced. Emily folded her cold hands on her desk, and braced her feet against the legs of it to keep her knees from trembling. This was a very terrible experience. She wished she had never given her verses to Mr. Carpenter. They were no good. Of course they were no good. Remember the editor of the Enterprise.
Starting point is 12:37:29 Hmpf, said Mr. Carpenter. Sunset, Lord, how many poems have been written on sunset? The clouds are massed in. splendid state at heaven's unbarred western gate where troops of star-eyed spirits wait. By gad, what does that mean? I don't know, faltered, startled Emily, whose wits had been scattered by the sudden sweep of his spiked glance. Mr. Carpenter snorted.
Starting point is 12:38:02 For heaven's sake, girl, don't write what you can't understand yourself. and this to life. Life as thy gift I ask no rainbow joy. Is that sincere? Is it, girl? Stop and think. Do you ask? Do you ask?
Starting point is 12:38:20 No rainbow joy of life? He transfixed her with another glare. But Emily was beginning to pick herself up a bit. Nevertheless, she suddenly felt oddly ashamed of the very elevated and unselfish desires, expressed in that sonnet. No, she answered reluctantly. I do want rainbow joy.
Starting point is 12:38:44 Lots of it. Of course you do. We all do. We don't get it. You won't get it. But don't be hypocrite enough to pretend you don't want it, even in a sonnet. Lines to a mountain cascade.
Starting point is 12:38:58 On its dark rocks like the whiteness of a veil around a bride. Where did you see a mountain cascade in Prince Edward Island. Nowhere. There's a picture of one in Dr. Bonley's library. A wood stream. The threading sunbeams quiver. The bending bushes shiver.
Starting point is 12:39:18 Oh, the little shadowy river. There's only one more rhyme that occurs to me, and that's liver. Why did you leave it out? Emily writhed. Windsong. I have shaken the dew in the meadows from the clover's creamy gown. pretty but weak june june for heaven's sake girl don't write poetry on june it's the sickliest subject in the world it's been written to death no june is immortal cried emily suddenly a mutinous sparkle replacing the strained look in her eyes she was not going to let mr carpenter have it all his own way but mr carpenter had tossed june aside without reading a life
Starting point is 12:40:05 line of it. I weary of the hungry world. What do you know of the hungry world? You, in your new moon seclusion of old trees and old maids, but it is hungry. Ode to winter. The seasons are a sort of disease all young poets must have, it seems. Ha! Spring will not forget. That's a good line. The only good line in it. Hmm, wanderings. I've learned the secret of the ruin. that the sombre pines on the hillside croon have you have you learned that secret i think i've always known it said emily dreamily that flash of unimaginable sweetness that sometimes surprised her had just come and gone aim and endeavour too didactic too didactic you've no right to try to teach until you're old and then you won't want to her face was like a star all pale and fair were you looking in the glass when you composed that line no indignantly when the morning light is shaken like a banner on the hill a good line a good line oh on such a golden morning to be living his delight too much like a faint echo of wordsworth the sea in september blue and austerely bright austerely bright
Starting point is 12:41:34 child how can you marry the right adjectives like that mourning all secret fears that haunt the night what do you know of the fears that haunt the night i know something said emily decidedly remembering her first night at with a grange to a dead day with the chilly calm on her brow that only the dead may wear have you ever seen the chilly calm on the brow of the dead emily yes said emily softly recalling that gray dawn in the old house in the hollow i thought so otherwise you couldn't have written that and even as it is how old are you jade thirteen last may Hymph. Lines to Mrs. George Irving's infant son. You should study the art of titles, Emily. There's a fashion in them, as in everything else. Your titles are as out of date as the candles of New Moon. Soundly he sleeps with his red lips pressed, like a beautiful blossom, close to her breast. The rest isn't worth reading. September. Is there a month you've missed? Windy Meadows, Harvest. deep, good line, blair water by moonlight, Gossamer, Emily, nothing but Gossamer, the garden of New Moon, beguiling laughter and old song of merry-maids and men, good line, I suppose New Moon is full of ghosts. Death's fulminion well fulfilled its part. That might have passed in Addison's day, but not now, not now, Emily. Your azure dimples are the graves, where million buried sunbees,
Starting point is 12:43:22 play. Atrocious, girl, atrocious. Graves aren't playgrounds. How much would you play if you were buried? Emily writhed and blushed again. Why couldn't she have seen that herself? Any goose could have seen it. Sail onward, ships, white wings sail on, till past the horizon's purple bar. You drift from sight. In flush of dawn. sail on and neath the evening star trash trash and yet there's a picture in it lap softly purple waves i dream and dreams are sweet i'll wake no more ah but you'll have to wake if you want to accomplish anything girl you've used purple twice in the same poem buttercups in a golden frenzy a golden frenzy girl i see the wind shaking the buttercups. From the purple gates of the west I come. You're too fond of purple, Emily.
Starting point is 12:44:29 It's such a lovely word, said Emily. Dreams that seem too bright to die, seem, but never are. Emily? The luring voice of the echo of fame. So you've heard it too. It is a lure, and for most of us only an echo, and that's the last of the lot. Mr. Carpenter swept the little sheets aside, folded his arms on the desk,
Starting point is 12:44:57 and looked over his glasses at Emily. Emily looked back at him mutely, nervously. All the life seemed to have been drained out of her body and concentrated in her eyes. Ten good lines out of 400, Emily, comparatively good, that is, and all the rest balderdash, Boulder dash, Emily. I suppose so, said Emily faintly. Her eyes brimmed with tears.
Starting point is 12:45:31 Her lips quivered. She could not help it. Pride was hopelessly submerged in the bitterness of her disappointment. She felt exactly like a candle that somebody had blown out. What are you crying for? demanded Mr. Carpenter.
Starting point is 12:45:49 Emily blinked away the tears and tried to laugh. I, I'm sorry, you think it's no good, she said. Mr. Carpenter gave the desk a mighty thumb. No good, didn't I tell you there were ten good lines? Jade, for ten righteous men Sodom had been spared. Do you mean that, after a few, all? The candle was being re-lighted again. Of course I mean, if at 13 you can write 10 good lines, at 20 you'll write 10 times 10, if the gods are kind. Stop messing over months though,
Starting point is 12:46:34 and don't imagine you're a genius either, if you have written 10 decent lines. I think there's something trying to speak through you, but you'll have to make yourself a fit instrument for it. You've got to work hard and sacrifice. By gad girl, you've chosen a jealous goddess. And she never lets her votaries go. Not even when she shuts her ears
Starting point is 12:46:59 forever to their plea. What have you there? Emily, her heart thrilling, handed him, her jimmy book. She was so happy that it shone through her whole being with a positive radiance. She saw her future.
Starting point is 12:47:15 Wonderful. Brilliant. oh her goddess would listen to her emily b starr the distinguished poet e bird's dar the rising young novelist she was recalled from her enchanting reverie by a chuckle from mr carpenter emily wondered a little uneasily what he was laughing at she didn't think there was anything funny in that book it contained only three or four of her latest stories the butterfly queen a little fairy tale a disappointed house wherein she had woven a pretty dream of hopes come true after long years the secret of the glen which in spite of its title was a fanciful little dialogue between the spirit of the snow the spirit of the grey rain the spirit of mist and the spirit of moonshine so you think i am not beautiful when i say my prayers said mr carpenter Emily gasped, realized what had happened, made a frantic grab at her jimmy book, missed it. Mr. Carpenter held it up beyond her reach, and mocked at her. She had given him the wrong Jimmy book, and this one, oh, horrors what was in it, or rather what wasn't in it. Sketches of everyone in Blairwater, and a full, a very full description of, of Mr. Carpenter himself.
Starting point is 12:48:50 Intent on describing him exactly, she had been as mercilessly lucid as she always was, especially in regard to the odd faces he made on mornings when he opened the school day with a prayer.
Starting point is 12:49:04 Thanks to her dramatic knack of word painting, Mr. Carpenter lived in that sketch. Emily did not know it, but he did. He saw himself as in a glass, and the artistry of it pleased him so that he cared for nothing else. Besides, she had drawn his good points quite as clearly as his bad ones.
Starting point is 12:49:28 And there were some sentences in it. He looks as if he knew a great deal that can never be any use to him. I think he wears the black coat Mondays because it makes him feel that he hasn't been drunk at all. Who or what had taught the little Jade these things? Oh, her goddess would not pass Emily by. I'm sorry, said Emily, crimson with shame all over her dainty paleness. Why, I wouldn't have missed this for all the poetry you've written or ever will write.
Starting point is 12:50:04 By God, it's literature, literature, and you're only 13. But you don't know what's ahead of you, the stony hills, the steeper sense, the buffets, the discouragements. Stay in the valley if you're wise. Emily, why do you want to write? Give me your reason. I want to be famous and rich, said Emily Cooley. Everybody does. Is that all? No, I just love to write. A better reason, but not enough, not enough. Tell me this. If you knew you would be poor as a church mouse all your life. If you knew you'd never have a line published, would you still go on writing? Would you? Of course I would, said Emily disdainfully.
Starting point is 12:51:01 Why, I have to write. I can't help it by times. I've just got to. Oh, then I'd waste my breath giving advice at all. If it's in you to climb, you must. There are those who must lift their eyes to the hills. They can't breathe properly in the valleys. God help them if there's some weakness in them that prevents their climbing. You don't understand a word I'm saying yet. But go on. Climb. There, take your book and go home. Thirty years from now, I will have a claim to distinction. in the fact that Emily Bird Star was once a pupil of mine. Go, go, before I remember what a disrespectful baggage you are to write such stuff about me, and be properly enraged.
Starting point is 12:51:56 Emily went, still a bit scared, but oddly exultant, behind her fright. She was so happy that her happiness seemed to irradiate the world with its own splendor. All the sweet sounds of nature around her. seemed like the broken words of her own delight mr carpenter watched her out of sight from the old worn threshold wind and flame and sea he muttered nature is always taking us by surprise this child has what i never had and would have made any sacrifice to have but the gods don't allow us to be in their debt she will pay for it she will pay At sunset Emily sat in the lookout room. It was flooded with soft splendor. Outside, in sky and trees,
Starting point is 12:52:51 with delicate tintings and aerial sounds. Down in the garden, Daffy was chasing dead leaves along the red walks. The sight of his sleek, striped, sides, the grace of his movements, gave her pleasure, as did the beautiful, even glossy furrows, of the ploughed fields beyond the lane and the first faint white star in the crystal green sky the wind of the autumn night was blowing trumpets of fairyland on the hills and over in lofty john's bush was laughter like the laughter of fawns gilsen perry and teddy were waiting there for her they had made a trist for a twilight romp she would go to them presently not yet she was still
Starting point is 12:53:39 full of rapture that she must write it out before she went back from her world of dreams to the world of reality once she would have poured it into a letter to her father she could no longer do that but on the table before her lay a brand new jimmy book she pulled it towards her took up her pen and on its first virgin page she wrote new moon blair water p e island october the eighth i'm going to write a diary that it may be published when i die end of section thirty four end of solo emily of new moon by lucy m montgomery

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