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Episode Date: November 23, 2023Rose Mather - A Tale by Mary Jane Holmes audiobook. Genre: romance Set in the Northern village of Rockland as the news of Fort Sumter ignites the Civil War, Rose Mather: A Tale follows a community su...ddenly forced to measure its ideals against its losses. Rose Mather is young, fashionable, and newly married to wealthy William Mather, and she arrives at the first war meeting with the careless confidence of someone certain the conflict will touch other people first. Around her, the stakes are immediate: gentle Annie Graham wrestles with duty and devotion as her husband considers enlisting, while the sharp-tongued Widow Simms and the struggling Bakers watch their own sons step forward. As neighbors march off, letters and rumors begin to reshape life at home, and the lines between patriotism, fear, and ambition blur. Rose, who can be silly and coquettish as often as she is kind-hearted, finds her world challenged by grief, courage, and the moral weight of class prejudice. With a large cast of soldiers, sweethearts, and rivals - including the steadfast Tom Carleton and the resilient Isaac Simms - Holmes builds a homefront romance where love is tested by uncertainty, sacrifice, and the hard truth that war changes everyone it reaches. For ad-free listening try our premium subscription Chapters (Approximate) (00:00:00) Chapter 01 (00:19:54) Chapter 02 (00:44:29) Chapter 03 (01:10:15) Chapter 04 (01:39:49) Chapter 05 (02:06:51) Chapter 06 (02:37:10) Chapter 07 (02:59:37) Chapter 08 (03:17:26) Chapter 09 (03:38:43) Chapter 10 (04:05:19) Chapter 11 (04:34:29) Chapter 12 (04:58:44) Chapter 13 (05:19:35) Chapter 14 (05:48:40) Chapter 15 (06:15:39) Chapter 16 (06:55:09) Chapter 17 (07:30:54) Chapter 18 (08:03:52) Chapter 19 (08:32:52) Chapter 20 (09:03:00) Chapter 21 (09:28:09) Chapter 22 (09:55:16) Chapter 23 (10:20:25) Chapter 24 (10:48:53) Chapter 25 (11:09:20) Chapter 26 Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
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rose mather a tale by mary jane holmes one the war meeting the long disputed point as to whether the south was in earnest or not was settled and through the northern states the tidings flew that sumter had fallen and the war had commenced
with the first gun which boomed across the waters of charleston bay it was ushered in and they who had cried peace peace found at last there was no peace then and not till then
did the nation rise from its lethargic slumber and shake off the delusion with which it had so long been bound.
Political differences were forgotten.
Republicans and Democrats struck the friendly hand.
Pulse beat to pulse.
Heart throbbed to heart, and the watchword everywhere was,
the Union Forever.
Throughout the length and breadth of the land were true loyal hearts,
and as at Roderick Doe's command, the Highlanders sprang to view from every clump of heather on the wild moors of Scotland,
So when the war cry came up from Sumter our own Highlanders arose, a mighty host, responsive
to the call.
Some from New England's templed hills with hands inured to toil, in hearts as strong and
true as flint, some from the Empire, some the Keystone State, and others from the prairies
of the distant west.
It mattered not what place had given them birth.
It mattered little whether the green mountains of Vermont, the granite hills of New Hampshire,
or the shadowy forest of Wisconsin
had sheltered their childhood's home.
United in one cause they rallied round
the stars and stripes
and went forth to meet not a foreign foe,
but, alas,
to raise a brother's arm against another brother's arm
in that most dreadful of all anarchies
and national civil war.
In the usually quiet village of Rockland
the utmost interest was felt,
and though there as elsewhere
were many whose hearts beat us warmly
for their southern friends,
as when the sun shone on a nation at peace,
all felt the necessity of action,
and when at last the evening came in
which the first war-meeting of that place was to be held,
a dense and promiscuous crowd
wended its way to the old brick church,
whose hollowed walls echoed to the sound of fife and drum,
strange music for the house of God,
but more acceptable in that dark hour
than songs of praise sung by vain and thoughtless lips.
In the center of the church,
the men were mostly congregated,
while the seats nearest the door were occupied by the women.
The wives and mothers and sisters
who had come with aching hearts to see their brothers,
sons and husbands give their signatures
to what seemed their sure death warrant.
Conspicuous among these was widow Sims
whose old-fashioned leghorn,
with its faded green veil was visible at all public gatherings,
its broad frill of lace shading a pair of sharp gray eyes
and a rather peculiar face.
It was very white now,
and the thin lips were furrowed,
compressed as the widow tried to look resolute and unconcerned when two of her sons went
forward. Their face is glowing with youthful enthusiasm, as they heard the president repeat their
names. John Sims. Eli Sims. The widow involuntarily set it after him, her mother's heart
whispering within her, Isaac won't go. He's too young. I can't give Isaac up. And her eye
wandered to where her youngest boy was sitting, twirling his old cloth cap, and occasionally
exchanging a word with the young man next to him, William Baker, who together with his brother
arose to follow John and Eli Sims. Scarcely, however, had they risen to their feet, when a woman
occupying the same seat with widow Sims uttered a cry more like the moaning howl of some wild
beast than like a human sound. No, Harry, no, Bill, no, no, and the bony arms were flung wildly
toward the two young men who with a dogged indignant glance at her, fell back.
among the crowd where they could not be seen,
muttering something not very complimentary
to the old woman, as they called her.
But the old woman did not hear it,
and if she had it would have made no difference.
It mattered not to her
that they had ever been the various pests in the whole village,
the planners of every grade of mischief,
the robbers of barns and plunderers of orchards.
They were her boys, and she didn't want them shot.
So she continued to moan and cry,
muttering incoherently about the rich treading
the poor, and wondering why Judge Warner didn't send his own white-fingered sons if he thought
going to war was so nice.
I wouldn't make such a fuss let what would happen to me, said the widow Sims, casting a half-contemptuous
glance upon the weeping woman, whom she evidently considered far beneath her and adding,
They had an off-sight better be shot than hung.
As an aside to the young woman just behind her, sweet Annie Graham, who was holding fast to her
husband's hand, as if she would thus keep him in spite of the speaker's eloquent appeals,
and the whispers of his companions who were urging him to join the company forming so rapidly
before the altar. There was a terrible struggle going on in Annie Graham's breast,
duty to her country and love for her husband waging a mighty conflict. The former telling her
that if the right would triumph, somebody's husband must go, and the wife-heart crying out,
"'Yes, somebody's husband must go, I know, but not mine. Not George.'
Very tenderly George Graham's strong arm encircled the girlish form,
and when he saw how fast the tears came to the great dreamy eyes of blue,
and thought how frail was the wife of little more than a year,
he bent down until his chin rested on her pale brown hair and whispered sobly to her.
"'Don't, any, darling? You know I will never go unless you think I ought,
and give your free consent.'
had George Graham wished he could not have chosen a more powerful argument than the words,
unless you think I ought. Annie repeated them to herself again and again,
until consciousness of all else around her was forgotten in that one question of duty.
She heard no longer the second speaker, whose burning eloquence was stirring up hitherto
reluctant young men to place their names beside others, already pledged to their country's
cause. Leaning forward so that her forehead rested on the railing in front she tried to pray,
but flesh and strength were weak, and the prayer ended always with the unuttered cry,
I cannot let George go, while the fingers twined more and more closely around the broad, warm hand
which sought a while to reassure her, and then was withdrawn from her grasp as George arose and
politely offered his seat to a lady who had just arrived, and who, after glancing an instant at his
coat, accepted his civility as a matter of course, but withheld the thanks she would have
accorded to one whom she considered her equal. Spreading out her wide skirt of rich blue silk so
that it nearly covered poor Annie, she threw her crimson scarf across the railing in front,
hitting widow Sims, and so diverting the attention of Mrs. Baker that the latter seized her
crying while the widow turned with an expression half curious, half indignant. Annie, too,
attracted by the heavy fringe and softly blended colors of the scarf, a part of which had fallen
upon her lap, as the widow shook it from her shoulder with a jerk, stole a glance at the newcomer
in whom she recognized the bride, the beauty, the envied bell of Rockland, Rose Mather from Boston,
and wife of the wealthy and aristocratic William Mather, who three months before had ended the
strife between the Rockland ladies as to what fair hand should spend his gold and drive his iron
Gray's, by bringing to his elegant mansion a fairy little creature with whose exquisite beauty,
even the most fastidious, could not find fault. Childish in proportions and perfect in form and
feature she would have been handsome without the aid of the dancing brown eyes and chestnut curls
which shaded her girlish brow. Rose knew she was pretty, knew she was stylish, knew she was
fascinating, knew she was just then the rage, and as such could do and say what she pleased.
her chestnut hair with her snowy hand, she gave one rapid glance at the sea of heads around
her, and then, in a half-petulant tone, exclaimed to her companion,
"'I don't believe Will is here. I can't see him anywhere.'
"'Didn't you know he had enlisted?' asked a young man who had made his way through the crowd
and joined her. For an instant the bright color faded from Rosemather's cheek,
but it quickly returned as she read in Mr. Wentworth's eye a contradiction of his words.
Will enlisted, she repeated,
such people as Will don't go to war.
It's a very different class,
such for instance as that one going up to sign.
Upon my word, it's the boy who saws our wood,
and she pointed at the youth offering himself up
that just such people as Rose Mather,
radiant in silks and diamonds and lace,
might rest in peace at home,
knowing nothing of war and its attendant horrors,
save what came to her through the daily prince.
Widow Sims heard their remark and with a swelling heart turned toward the boy who sawed Rose Matherswood,
for she knew who it was, and it did not need the loud whisper of Mrs. Baker to tell her that it was
her boy, the youngest of the three, the one she loved the best, the baby who kept the milk of
human kindness from turning quite sour within her breast by his many acts of filial love and his
gentle caressing ways. How could she give him up? Her darling, her idol, the one
so like his father, dead air he was born. Who would comfort her as he had done? Who would give her
the good-night kiss, timidly, stealthily, lest the older ones should see and laugh at his girlish
weakness? Who would bring his weekly earnings and empty them slyly into her lap? Who would find her
place in the prayer-book on Sunday and pound her clothes on Monday long before it was light? Who would
split the nice fine kindlings for the morning fire, or bring the cool fresh water in the
summer from the farther well, and who, when her head was aching sadly, would make the cup of
tea she liked so much. Homely offices many of them it is true, but they made up the sum of
that mother's happiness, and it is not strange that for a moment the iron will gave way,
and the poor widow wept over her cruel bereavement, not noisily, as Mrs. Baker had done,
but silently, bitterly, her body trembling nervously, and her whole attitude indicative
of keen, unaffected anguish.
Rose did not know the relationship existing between the widow and the boy who sawed her wood,
but her better nature was touched always at the sight of distress, and for several minutes she did
not speak, except to tell Mr. Wentworth how much Brother Tom had paid for the crimson scarf,
one end of which he was twirling around his wrist.
To Annie it seemed an enormous sum, and a little overawed with her close proximity to one who
could support so expensive an article of dress. She involuntarily tried to move away and avoid if
possible being noticed by the brilliant bell.
She might have spared herself the trouble, for Rose was too much absorbed with the group of
admirers gathering around her to heed the shrinking figure at her side, and after a time,
as Widow Sims recovered her composure. She resumed her gay battenash, bringing in Will with
every other breath, and showing how completely her heart was bound up in her husband,
notwithstanding the evident satisfaction with which she received the flattering compliments
of the gentleman who, since her arrival at Rockland, had made it a point to admire her
and flirt with the little Boston bell,
laughing loudly at speeches which, from one less piquant and attractive,
would have been pronounced decidedly silly and meaningless.
Rose was not well posted with regard to the object of that meeting.
She knew that Sumter or Charleston had been fired upon.
She hardly could tell which, for she was far too sleepy
when Will read the news to comprehend clearly what it was all about,
and she had skipped every word which Brother Tom had written about it in his last letter,
the one in which she enclosed five hundred dollars for the silver tea set she saw in Rochester and
wanted so badly. Rose was an accomplished musician, a tolerable proficient in both French
and German, and had skimmed nearly all the higher branches, but like many fashionably educated
young ladies, her knowledge of geography comprised a confused medley of cities, towns, and villages
scattered promiscuously over the face of the earth, but which was where she could not pretend to tell,
and were it not that Brother Tom had spent three winters in Charleston, leaving at last his
fair-haired wife sleeping there beneath the southern sky, she would scarcely have known whether
the waters of the Atlantic or of Baffin's Bay washed the shore of the Palmetto State.
And still Rose was not a fool in the ordinary acceptation of the term.
She knew as much or more than half the petted bells of modern society, and could say smart
foolish things was so pretty an air of childishness that even those of her own sex who were
at first most prejudiced against her, confessed that she was certainly very captivating,
and possessed the art of making everybody like her, even if she hadn't common sense.
On this occasion she chatted on in her usual style, provoking from George Graham more than one
good-humored smile at remarks which evince so much ignorance of the matter then agitating
the entire community.
"'Will wouldn't go to the war, of course,' she said.
Supposing there were one, which she greatly doubted, northern men, particularly those
of Rockland were so hateful toward the south.
She didn't believe Boston people were that way at all.
At least Brother Tom was not, and he knew.
He had lived in Charleston and described them as very nice folks.
Indeed, she knew they were herself,
for she always met them at Newport and liked them so much.
She didn't credit one word of what the paper said.
She presumed Mr. Anderson provoked them.
Tom knew him personally.
You have another brother besides Tom.
"'Won't he join the army?' asked Mr. Wentworth, a smile curling the corners of his mouth.
Rose sighed involuntarily, for on the subject of that other brother she was a little sore,
and the mention of him always gave her pain. He was not like Brother Tom, the eldest, the pride of the
Carlton family. He was Jimmy, handsome, rollicking, mischievous Jimmy, to those who loved him
best, while to the Boston people who knew him best he was, that young scapegrace Jim Carleton destined
for the gallows or some other ignominious end.
A prediction which seemed likely to be verified at the time
when he nearly broke a comrade's head for calling him a liar,
and so was expelled from college covered with disgrace.
Something of this was known to Mr. Wentworth,
and he asked the question he did just to see what Rose would say.
But if he thought she would attempt to conceal anything pertaining to herself
or anyone else for that matter, he was mistaken.
Rose was too truthful for anything like duplicity,
frankly answered. We don't know where Jimmy is. They turned him out of college and then he ran away.
It's more than a year since we heard from him. He was in Southern Virginia then.
Mother thinks he's dead, or he would surely write to some of us. And a tear glittered in Rose's
eyes as she thought of recreant Jimmy, sleeping elsewhere than in the family vault at beautiful
Mount Auburn. Rose could not, however, be unhappy long over what was a mere speculation, and after a few
moments she resumed the subject of her husband's volunteering.
She knew he wouldn't if he did vote for Lincoln.
She was not one bit concerned, for no man who loved his wife as he ought would want to go
and leave her, and the little lady stroked her luxuriant curls coquettishly, spreading out
still wider her silken robe, which now completely covered the plain shilling calico of poor Annie,
whose heart for a moment beat almost to bursting as she asked herself if it were true that
no man who loved his wife as he ought would want to go and leave her.
In a moment, however, she repelled the assertion as false, for George had given too many
proofs of his devotion for her to doubt him now, even though he had expressed a desire to join
the army.
Then she wished she was at home, where she could not hear what Rose Mather said, and she
was about proposing to George that they should leave when Mr. Mather himself appeared, and
she concluded to remain.
He was a haughty-looking man, very fond of his little wife, on whose shoulder he laid his
hand caressingly as he asked, what she thought of war now.
I just think it is horrid, and Rosa's fat hand stole up to meet her husband's.
Mr. Wentworth tried to make me think you had volunteered, but I knew better.
The idea of your going off with such frights.
Why, Will, you can't begin to guess what a queer-looking set they are.
There was our milkman, and the boy who saws our wood, and canal drivers and peddlers, and
mechanics and—
Rose did not finish the sentence, for something in her husband's expression stopped her.
He had caught the quick uplifting of Annie Graham's head, had noted the indignant flashing
of her blue eye, the kindling spot on her cheek and glancing at George he saw at once
how Rose's thoughtless words must have wounded her.
He had seen the disgusted expression of widow Sims as she flounced out in the aisle,
and knowing that the boy who sawed Wood was her son, he felt sorry that his wife should
have been so indiscreet.
still he could not be angry at the sparkling little creature chatting so like a parrot but he felt impelled to say you should not judge people by their dress or occupation the boy who saws our wood has a heart larger than many who make far more pretensions
rose tried to pout at what she knew to have been intended as a reprimand but in the excitement of the jam as they passed out of the church she forgot it entirely only once uttering an impatient ejaculation as someone inadvertently stepped upon her sweeping skirt and so held her
for a moment, producing the sensation which nearly every woman experiences when she feels a sudden
backward pull as if skirt and waist were parting company.
With the hasty exclamation,
Who is stepping on me I'd like to know?
She turned just in time to hear Annie Graham's politely spoken words of apology.
I beg your pardon, madam.
They push me so behind that I could not help it.
It isn't the least bit of matter, returned Rose, disarmed at once of all resentment,
by Annie's ladylike manner
and the expression of the face
on which traces of tears were still lingering.
Who is that, Will?
She whispered,
as they emerged into the moonlight
and George Graham's tall form
was plainly discernible,
together with that of his wife.
Will told her who it was
and Rose rejoined.
He has volunteered, I most know.
Poor, isn't he?
Not very rich, most certainly,
was Mr. Mather's reply.
Then, I guess he's going to the war,
was Rose's mental comment,
as if poverty were the sole accomplishment
necessary for a soldier to possess,
a conclusion to which older and wiser
heads than hers seemed at one time to have
arrived. Annie Graham
heard both question and answer,
and with emotions not particularly pleasant,
she whispered to herself.
Rose Mather shall see that one man
at least will not go, even if he is
a mechanic and poor. And,
clinging closer to George's arm, she walked on
in silence, thinking bitter
thoughts of the little lady who delighted with
having will on one side of her and Mr. Wentworth, his partner on the other, tripped Galy on,
laughing as lightly as if on the country's horizon there were no dark, threatening cloud,
which might yet overshadow her in its gloomy folds and leave her heart as desolate as that
of the widow Sims, or the wailing mother of Harry and Bill.
End of Chapter 1
Chapter 2 of Rose Mather, A Tale by Mary Jane Holmes.
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domain. Two, Rose and Annie.
Rose Mather's home was a beautiful place, containing everything which love could devise or
money purchase, and Rose was very happy there, dancing like a sunbeam through the handsome
rooms of which she was the mistress, and singing as gaily as her pet canary in its
gilded cage by the door. No shadow of sorrow or care had ever crossed her pathway, and the
18 summers of her short life had come and gone like so many pleasant memories,
ringing with them one successive round of joys, leaving no blight behind, and bearing with them
alas, no thanks for the good bestowed, for Rose was far too thoughtless to think that the providence
which shielded her so tenderly might have dealt more sharply with her. But the shadow was creeping
on apace, and Rose was conscious that the war meeting had awakened within her a new and uncomfortable
train of thought. Like many others, she had a habit of believing that nothing very bad could happen
to her, and so let what might occur, she was sure her husband would be spared. Still, in spite of her
gaiety, an undefined something haunted her all the way from the church, and even when alone with
her husband in her tasteful sitting-room with a bright glass-light falling cheerily around her, and
adding a fresh luster to the elegant furniture she could not shake it off, nor guess what it was that
ailed her. At last, however, it came to her, suggested by the sight of her husband's evening paper,
and, laying her curly head upon his knee, she gave vent to her restlessness in the expression.
I wish there wouldn't be any war. What is it all for? Tell me, please.
It was the first interest she had evinced in the matter and glad to talk with anyone upon the
subject which was beginning to occupy so much of his own thoughts. Mr. Mather drew her into his
lap, and endeavored as far as possible to explain to her what it was all for.
Much of what he said, however, was Greek to Rose, who only gained a vague idea that the
North was contending for a bit of cloth, such as she had often seen floating over the dome of the
old Statehouse in Boston, and, with the remark that men's lives were far more valuable
than all the stars and stripes in the world. She fell away to sleep, leaving her husband in the
midst of an argument not quite clear to himself, for, like his wife, he could not then see
exactly what the war was for. Still, inasmuch as there was war, he would not play the coward's
part, nor shrink from the post of duty if his country should need his services. But this Rose did not
know, and secure in the belief that whatever might happen will would never go. She soon resumed
her wanted cheerfulness, and if she said anything of the war was sure to startle her hearers
with some remark quite unworthy of a New England daughter.
She did wish they would stop having so many meetings, she said.
Or if they must have them, she wish they'd get Brother Tom to come and set them right.
He had lived in Charleston.
He could tell them how kind the people were to marry his sick wife,
and were it not that, twas beneath him to lecture,
she'd surely write for him to come.
Rose Mather was growing unpopular by her foolish speeches,
and when at last she was asked to join with other ladies of the town
in making articles of clothing for the volunteers,
she added the last drop to the brimming bucket
by tossing back her chestnut tresses,
and, guessing she shouldn't blister her hands
over that coarse stuff.
She couldn't sew much anyway,
and as for making bandages and lint,
the very idea was sickening.
She'd give them fifty cents if they wanted,
but she positively couldn't do more than that,
for she must have a new pair of lavender kids.
She had worn the old ones three or four times,
and Will preached economy
every day. With a frown of impatience, the matron who had been deputed to ask help for Rose took the
fifty cents, and, with feelings anything but complimentary to the silly little lady, went back to the
hall, where scores of women were busily employed in behalf of the company, some of whom would
never return to tell how much good even the homely housewife, with its pins and needles and thread
had done them when far away where no mother or sister hand could reach them, nor yet how the thought
that perhaps a dear one's fingers had torn the sot linen band, or scraped the tender lint
applied to some gaping wound, had helped to ease the pain and cheer the homesick heart.
It was surely a work of mercy in which our noble women were then engaged, and if from the
group collected in Rockland Hall there was much loud murmuring at Rose Mather's want of sense
or heart, it arose not so much from ill nature as from astonishment that she could be so
callous and indifferent to an object of so much importance.
Wait till her husband goes, and she won't mince along so daintily,
taking all that pains to show her pal moral when it isn't one bit muddy,
muttered the widow Sims pointing out to those near the window,
the lady in question tripping down the street in quest of lavender kids, perhaps,
or more likely bound for her husband's office,
where, now that everybody worked all day along at the hall she spent much of her time,
it was so lonely at home with nobody to call.
i hope he'll be drafted and have to go upon my word continued the widow whose heart was very sore with thinking of the three seats at her fireside so soon to be vacated by her darling boys eli john and isaac yes i do hope he'll be drafted don't you mrs graham
and she turned toward annie who was rolling up bandages of linen and weaving in with every coil a prayer that the poor soldier whose lot it should be to need that band might return again to the loved ones at home or else might return again to the loved ones at home or else
be fitted for that better home, where war is unknown." Annie shook her head, but made no answer.
There was no bitterness now in her heart against Rose Mather. She had prayed that all away,
and only hoped the anguish which had come to her, making her brain giddy, and her heart faint
might never be borne by another, if that could be. George had volunteered, was to be second lieutenant,
and Annie, oh, who shall tell of the gloom which had fallen so darkly around the cottage she had
called hers for one brief year.
It was a neat, cozy dwelling, and to Annie it never seemed so cheerful as on that memorable
night of the war meeting when she had lighted the lamp and sat down with George upon the
chintz-covered lounge he had helped her to make when first she was a bride.
It is true the carpet was not a velvet, like that rose-mather trod upon.
Neither was there in all the house one inch of rose-wood or of marble.
But there was domestic love, pure and deep as any rose ever experienced, and there was
something better far than that, a patient trusting faith in one who can shed light upon the
dreariest home and make the heaviest trial seem like not. It was this trusting fate,
which made Annie Graham the sweet, gentle being she was, shedding its influence over her whole life,
and softening down a disposition which otherwise might have been haughty and resentful.
Annie was naturally high-spirited and proud, and Rosa's remarks concerning volunteers in general
and George in particular had stung her to the quick. But with the indignant mood there came another
impulse, and ere the cottage had been reached, the bitter feeling had gone, leaving nothing
but sorrow that it had ever been there. Like Rose, she wished there would be no war,
but wishing was of no avail, and long after George Graham was asleep and dreaming it may be
of glory's one on battlefields, Annie lay awake, questioning within herself whether she ought by word
or deed to prevent her husband's going, if he felt as he seemed to feel that it was as much
his duty as that of others to join in his country's defense. Annie was no great reason or logically.
All her decisions were made to turn upon the simple question of right and wrong,
and on this occasion she found it hard to tell, so evenly the balance seemed adjusted.
More than once she stole from her pillow and going out into the fresh night air knelt in
the moonlight and asked for guidance to choose the right even though
that right should take her husband from her.
If I knew he would not die, it would not be so hard to give him up, she murmured.
As sickening visions of fields strewn with the dead and hospitals filled with the dying
came over her, and for an instant her brain reeled with the thought of George dying thus,
and leaving her no hope of meeting him again, for George's faith was not like hers.
Anon, however, something whispered to her that the God she loved was on the field of carnage,
and in the camp and in the hospital,
and everywhere as much as there in Rockland,
that prayers innumerable would follow the brave volunteers,
and that the evil she so much feared
might be the means of working the great good she so desired.
And thus it was that Annie came to a decision.
Stealing back to her husband's side,
she bent over him as he lay sleeping,
and with a heart which throbbed to its very core,
though the lip uttered no sound,
she gave him to his country asking if it could be
that he might come back.
back again, but if it were ordered otherwise, God's will be done. There was no shrinking
after that sacrifice was made, though when the morning came, the death-white face and the dark
circle beneath the eyes, told of a weary vigil, such as many and many a woman kept both
north and south during the dark hours of the rebellion. But save the death-white face and heavy
eyes, there was no token of the inner struggle, as with a desperate effort at self-command,
and he wound her arms around her husband's neck and whispered to his.
him, you may go, I give my free consent. And George, who cared far more to go than he had dared express,
kissed the lips which tried so hard to smile, little dreaming what it cost his brave young wife
to tell him what she had. To one of his temperament there was no danger to be feared for himself.
The bullet which might strike down a brother at his side would be turned away from him.
Others would, of course, be killed, but he should escape unharmed. In the language of one speaker,
whose eloquent appeal had done much to fire his youthful enthusiasm.
He was not going to be shot, but to shoot somebody.
This was his idea, and ere the clinging arms had unclasped themselves from his neck,
his imagination leaped forward to the future, and in fancy George Graham wore, if not a colonel's,
at least a captain's uniform, and the cottage on the hill which Annie so much admired,
and for the purpose of which a few hundreds were already saved was his, but with the money he would earn.
The deed should be drawn in her name, too, he said,
and he pictured her to himself coming down the walk to meet him
with a rose blush on her cheek,
just as she looked the first time he ever saw her.
Something of this he told her,
and Annie tried to smile and think it all might be.
But her heart that morning was far too heavy
to be lighted by a picture of what seemed so improbable.
Still, George's hopeful confidence did much to reassure her,
and when a few days after she started for the hall,
she purposely took a longer walk for the sake of
passing the cottage on the hill, thinking, as she leaned over the low iron fence,
how she would arrange the flower beds more tastefully than they were now arranged,
and teach the drooping vines to twine more gracefully around the slender columns supporting the piazza in front.
She would have seats, too. Willow twisted chairs beneath the trees,
where she and George could sit at twilight and watch the shadows creeping across the hollow
where the old cottage was, and up the opposite hill where the cupola of Rose Mather's home
was plainly visible, blazing in the April.
sunshine. It was a very pleasant castle which Annie built, and for a time the load of pain which,
since George volunteered had lain so heavy at her heart, was gone. But it returned again when,
as she passed a turn in the road, her eye wandered down to the hollow, and that other cottage
standing there so brown and small, and looking already so desolate because she knew that ere many
days were over, she should wait in vain for the loved footsteps coming down the road, should
miss the pleasant, cheery laugh, the teasing joke and words of love which made the world all sunshine.
The cottage on the hill became a worthless thing as poor Annie forced back her tears,
and with quickened steps hurried on to join the group of ladies busy at the hall.
Taking her seat by the window, she commenced the light work imposed on her,
that of tearing and winding bandages for those who might be wounded.
Maybe there'll never be no fight, but it's well enough to be prepared, was the soothing remark of the
kind-hearted woman who gave the work to Annie, noting as she did so, how the lip quivered
and the cheek paled at the very idea. What if George should need them? Kept suggesting
itself to her as she worked industriously on, hoping that if he did, someone of the role she
was winding might come to him, or better yet, if he could only have the bit of soft linen
she had brought herself. A piece of her own clothing and bearing on it her maiden name
Annie Howard. He would be sure to know it, she said. It was written so plain.
plainly with indelible ink, and it would make him feel so glad.
But there might be other Annie Howard's. It was not an uncommon name, was suggested next to her,
as she tore the linen in strips, and quick as thought, her hand sought the pocket of her dress
for the pencil which she knew was there. Glancing around to see that no one observed her,
she touched the pencil to her lips and wrote after the name,
It's your Annie, George. Try to believe I'm there. Rockland, April 1861.
There were big tear-drops on that bit of linen, but Annie brushed them away and went on with her rolling,
just as widow Sims called her attention to Rose Mather, as mentioned several pages back.
Annie could not account for it to herself, but ever since Rose's arrival at Rockland,
she had felt a strange inexplicable interest in the fashionable bell, an interest prompted by
something more than mere curiosity, and now that there was an opportunity of seeing her without
being herself seen, she straightened up in smoothing the soft brink.
of her pale brown hair, waited for the entrance of the little lady who with her pink hat
sat jauntily on her chestnut curls, and her rich fur collar buttoned gracefully over her
handsome cloth cloak, tripped into the room, doing much by her sunny smile and pleasant manner
to disarm the ladies of their recent prejudice against her.
She was nothing but a child, they reflected, a spoiled, petted child.
She would improve as she grew older and come more in contact with the sharp corners of the
world, so those who had the honor of her acquaintance received her with a familiar
deference, if we may be allowed the expression, which had always marked their manner toward
William Mather's bride. Rose was too much accustomed to society to be at all disconcerted by
the hundred pair of eyes turned scrutinizingly toward her. Indeed, she rather enjoyed being
looked at, and she tossed the coarse garments about with a pretty playfulness, saying that,
since the ladies had called upon her she had thought better of it,
and made up her mind to martyr herself one afternoon at least in benefit the soldiers.
To be sure there wasn't much she could do.
She might hold yarn for somebody to whine, she supposed,
but she couldn't knit, and she didn't want to sew on such ugly, scratchy stuff as those flannel shirts.
But if someone would thread her needle and fix it all right,
she'd try what she could do on a pair of drawers.
For a time no one seemed inclined to volunteer her services.
and widow sims shears clicked spitefully loud as they cut through the cotton flannel at last however mrs baker who had more than once officiated as washerwoman at the mather mansion came forward and arranged some work for rose
who untying the strings of her pink hat and adjusting her tiny gold thimble labored on until she had succeeded in sewing up and joining together a long leg with one some inches shorter which had happened to be lying near
loud was the shout which a discovery of this mistake called forth nor was it at all abated when rose demurely asked if it would not answer for some soldier who should chance to have a limb shot off just below the knee
the little simpleton muttered the widow while mrs baker pointed out to the discomfitted lady that one division of the drawers was right side out and the other wrong there was no alternative save to rip the entire thing and with glowing cheeks rose began the task of undoing what she had done incidentally
letting out as she worked, that Will might have known better than to send her there.
She shouldn't have come at all if he had not insisted, telling her people would call her a
secessionist unless she did something to benefit the soldiers. She didn't care what they called her.
She knew she was a Democrat or used to be before she was married. But now that Will was a
Republican, she hardly knew what she was. Anyway, she was not a secessionist, and she wasn't
particularly interested in the war either. Why should she be?
Will was not going, nor Brother Tom, nor any of her friends.
But somebody's friends are going.
Somebody's Will, somebody's Tom, as dear to them as yours are to you, came in a rebuking tone
from a straightforward outspoken woman who knew from sad experience that somebody's
Tom was going.
Yes, I know, said Rose, a shadow for an instant crossing her bright face, and it's dreadful
too.
Will says everything will be so much higher, and it will be so dark.
at Saratoga and Newport next summer without the southern people.
One might as well stay at home.
The war might have been avoided, too, by a little mutual forbearance from both parties,
until matters could be amicably adjusted, for Brother Tom said so in his letter last night
and a heap more which I can't remember.
Here Rose paused quite exhausted with the effort she had made to repeat the opinion of
Brother Tom.
She had read all his last letter, fully endorsing as much of it as she understood,
and after a little while she went on.
Wasn't it horrid, though?
They're firing into the Massachusetts boys.
And they were from right round Boston, too.
Tom saw them when they started.
They were fine-looking men, he says,
and will thinks I ought to be proud that I'm a Bay State girl.
And so I am, but it isn't as if my friends had gone.
Tom is a Democrat, I know,
but it's quite another kind that joined the army.
Widow Sims could keep silent no long.
and brandishing her polished shears by way of adding emphasis to what she said she began and s'posin tis folks as poor as poverty struck hain't they feelin's i'd like to know hain't they got bodies and souls and mothers and wives and sisters and s'posen tis democrats more shame for t'other side that helped get up the mus
where be they now them chaps that wore the big black capes and did much toward puttin lincoln in that chair why don't they help to keep him settin there and not
stand back with their hands tucked in their trousers' pockets.
Both my boys, Eli and John, voted t'other ticket, and Isaac would, but he wasn't twenty-one.
They've all gined, and I won't say I'm sorry if there's anything I hate. It's a sneak.
It makes me so mad.
And the Big Shears again clicked savagely as Widow Sims resumed her work, after having thus
delivered her opinion of the Black Republicans, besides having, in her own words given,
that Puckran Mist Mathers a piece of her mind.
Obtuce as Rose was on many points, she saw there was some homely truth in what the widow had said.
But this did not impress her so much as the fact that she had evidently given offense,
and she was about trying to extricate herself from the dilemma when George Graham appeared,
ostensibly to bring some trivial message to the president of the society,
but really to see if his wife were there and speak to her some kind word of encouragement.
Rose recognized him as the young man she had seen at the
war meeting, and the moment he left the hall she broke out impetuously.
Isn't he handsome? So tall, so broad-shouldered and such a splendid mark for a bullet.
I most know he will be shot. Hush! came warningly from several individuals but came too late.
The mischief was done. Air Rose could collect her thoughts a group of frightened women had
gathered around poor Annie, who had fainted. What's the matter? Do tell, cried Rose, standing on tiptoe
clutching at the dress of widow Sims who angrily retorted,
I should suppose you'd ask.
It's enough to make the poor critter-fink clear way
to hear a body talk about her husband's being a fast-right mark for a bullet.
With all her thoughtlessness, Rose had the kindest heart in the world.
And forcing her way through the crowd,
she knelt by the white-faced danny,
and, taking the drooping head in her lap,
pushed back the thick braids of hair,
noticing with her quick eye for the beautiful,
how soft and luxuriant they were,
How pure was the complexion.
How perfect were the features.
How small and delicate the fingers.
And how graceful was the slender neck.
I'm so sorry.
I wish I'd stayed at home.
I am so sorry, she kept repeating.
And when at last Annie returned to consciousness,
Rose Mathers was the first voice she heard.
Roses, the first face she saw.
With an involuntary shudder, she closed her eyes wearily,
while Rose anxiously asked of those abelabell.
her how they should get her home.
Oh, Jake! she suddenly exclaimed, as towering above the female head she saw her colored coachman
looking for her, and remembered that her husband was to call and take her out to ride.
Oh, Jake, lift this lady up, careful as you can, and put her in our carriage.
Is Will there?
Well, no matter.
He'll just have to get out.
Stand back, won't you, and let Jake come?
She continued authoritatively to the group of ladies, who half amused and half surprised at this
new face in Rose-Mather.
character made way for burly jake who lifted annie's light form as if it had been a feather's weight and bore it down the stairs followed by rose who with one breath told annie not to be a bit afraid for jake certainly would not drop her and with the next asked jake if he were positive and sure he was strong enough not to let her fall
lazily reclining upon the cushions of his carriage william mather was smoking his havana and admiring the sleek coat of his iron grays when rose appeared and seizing him by the arm peremptorily ordered him to a light
and help Jake lift the lady in.
I don't know who it is,
but it's somebody I made faint away with my silly talk,
she replied an answer to Mr. Mather's question.
Who have you there?
You made faint away?
He repeated, as he found himself
rather unceremoniously landed upon the flagging stones,
his havana rolling at his feet
and his wife preparing to follow Annie
whom Jake had placed inside.
Yes, I talked about her husband's being a splendid mark
for a bullet and all that.
without ever thinking she was his wife.
He looked so tall and big and nice
that I couldn't help thinking his head would come above all the rest in a fight,
but I don't believe it will.
There, Jake, we are ready now, drive on, said Rose,
while poor Annie groaned afresh at this doubtful consolation.
Drive war, asked Jake.
I don't know where they lives.
To be sure, nor I either, returned Rose,
turning inquiringly to her husband who gave the information
adding as he glanced down the street.
Mr. Graham himself is coming, I see.
I think Rose, who had best give your place to him.
Rose, who was fond of adventures,
wanted sadly to go with Annie,
but George, when he came up,
seemed so concerned and asked so many questions
that she deemed it best to leave it for his wife
to make the necessary explanations,
merely saying as she stepped upon the walk,
I am so sorry, Mr. Graham.
I really did not mean anything wrong
in saying I knew you'd be shot, for you are so.
"'Rose, your dress is rubbing the wheel,' interrupted Mr. Mather by way of diverting Rose from
repeating the act for which she was expressing sorrow.
"'No, it ain't rubbing the wheel either. It isn't anywhere near it,' said Rose, wondering what
Will could mean. While George, taking a seat by Annie, smiled at what he saw to be a ruse.
Bent upon reconciliation, Rose pressed up to the carriage and said to Annie,
"'You won't be angry at me always, will you? I shouldn't have thought of it, only he does,
looks so. Go on, Jake, Mr. Mather called out, cutting short Rose's speech, and the next moment
Annie was driving down the street in Rose Mather's carriage, and behind the iron grays, an honor she had
never dreamed in store for her when she saw the stylish turnout passing the door of her cottage
in the hollow. End of Chapter 2. Chapter 3 of Rose Mather, A Tale by Mary Jane Holmes.
This LeBrovoc's recording is in the public domain.
Three, the departure.
The 13th regiment was ordered to Almira, and the day had arrived for the departure of the
volunteers. Bright was the sun and cloudless the sky which shone on Rockland that spring day.
But cloudless sky nor warm spring sun could comfort the hearts about to part with their
treasures, some forever and some to meet again, but when or where or how, none could tell
save him, who holds the secret of the future. There were mothers who had never felt a pang so keen
or a pain so sore as when with hearts too full of anguish for the dry red eyes to weep,
they watched their sons pass from the threshold of the door,
and knew that when the golden sunlight falling so brightly around them was purple in the West,
they would look in vain for that returning step,
and listen in vain for tones which were the first, perhaps,
to stir the deep fountains of maternal love.
Fathers too were there, with heads bent down to hide the tears they deemed it weak to shed,
as they gave the farewell blessing to their boy,
praying that God might be over and around him, both when the deafening battle war was sounding in his ear,
and when in the stilly night he wrapped his blanket about him and laid him down to rest,
sometimes with the southern stars shining upon him, and sometimes with the southern rain falling on his unchalted head,
for all these vicissitudes must come to a soldier on the field.
Wives and sisters too there were, who shuddered as they thought how the dear ones to whom they said goodbye,
would miss the comforts they were leaving. Miss the downy pillow.
the soft warm bed made with loving hands,
and the luxuries of home never prized one-half so much as now,
when they were to be exchanged for a life within the camp.
And there were maidens,
from whose cheeks the roses faded as they gave the parting kiss,
and promised to be faithful,
even though the manly form the lover bore away
should come back to them all maimed and crushed and crippled with the toil of war.
Far better so than not to come at all.
At least so Annie Graham thought,
as winding her arms around her husband,
husband's neck, she whispered to him,
If the body you bring back has my
George's heart within it, I shall love
you just the same as I do now.
And with her fair head lying on
his bosom, Annie wept piteously.
Not till then had she realized what it was
to let him go. She had become
somewhat accustomed to thinking of it,
accustomed to seeing him pass in and
out, dressed in his stylish uniform,
which made him look so handsome, and then
she had hoped the regiment would not be ordered
for a long, long time, never perhaps.
but now that dream was over.
The dreaded hour had come,
and for a moment Annie felt herself too weak to meet it.
Through the live-long night she had prayed,
or if perchance sleep for a moment shut the swollen lids,
the lips had moved in prayer that her husband might come back to her again,
or failing to do so that he might grasp,
even at the eleventh hour the Christian's faith,
and so go to the Christian's home where they could meet once more.
She had given him her little Bible,
all pencil-marked and worn,
with daily usage, the one she read when first the Spirit taught her the meaning of its great mysteries,
and George had promised he would read it every day, had said that when he went to battle he would
place it next his heart, a talisman to shield him from the bullets of the foe. And Annie, smiling
through her tears, pointed him again to the only one who could stand between him and death,
asking that when he was far away he would remember what she said and pray to the God she honored.
It's time now, darling. He said at last, as he heard.
heard in the distance the beat of the drum. But the clinging arms refused to leave his neck,
and the quivering lips pressed so constantly to his murmured. Wait a little minute more.
Tis the last, you know. Again, the drumbeat was heard mingled with the shrill notes of the fife.
The soldiers were marching down the street and he must go. But, oh, who can tell of the love,
the pain, the grief, the tears mingled with that parting, or the agony it caused poor Annie to take her
arms from his neck, to feel him putting her away, to hear him going from the room across the
threshold, down the walk, through the gate, and know that he was gone.
As a child in peril instinctively turns to the mother who it knows has never failed to succor,
so Annie turned to God, and, with a moaning cry for help, sank on her knees just where George
had left her. Burying her face in the lounge, she prayed that he who heareth even the raven's
cry would care for her husband, and bring him home again if that could be.
So absorbed was she as not to hear the gate-sharp click, nor the footstep coming up the walk.
Impelled by something he could not resist, George had paused just by the garden fence,
and yielding to the impulse which said he must see Annie's face once more, he stole softly
to the open door and stood gazing at her as she knelt, her hands clasped together, and her face
hidden from his view as she prayed for him.
"'Will the kind father keep my George from peril if it can be?
But if—'
"'Oh, God, how can I say it?
If he must die, teach him the road to heaven?'
That was what she said, and George, listening to her felt as if it were an angel's presence
in which he stood.
He could not disturb her.
She wasn't safer hands than his, and he would rather leave her thus.
Would rather think of her when far away just as he saw her last, kneeling in her
desolation and praying for him.
It will help to make me a better man, he said, and brushing aside the great tears
swimming in his eyes, he left his angel Annie and went on his way to battle.
Just off from Rockland's Main Street, and in a cottage more humble than that of George Graham,
the sun shone on another parting, on widow Sims giving up her boys and straining every nerve
to look composed and keep back the maternal love throbbing so madly at her heart.
rigid as if cut in stone were the lines upon her forehead and around her mouth as she bustled about,
doing everything exactly as it should be done, and, coming often to where Isaac sat trying to look
unconcerned and whistling Dixie, as he pulled on the soft, warm pair of socks she had sat up nights to
knit him.
Eli and John had some two snuckly tucked away in their bundle, but Isaacs were different.
She had rambled her own lambs-wool stockings for the material composing his, for Isaac's feet were
tender. There were marks of killblains on them. They would become sore and swollen from the
weary march, and his mother would not be there with soothing lint anointment made from the blue
pokeberries. Great pains had the widow taken with her breakfast that morning, preparing each son's
favorite dish, and bringing out the six china cups and damask cloth part of her grandmother's
bridal-dower. It was a very tempting table, and John and Eli tried to eat, exchanging meaning
smiles when they saw their mother put in Isaac's cup the biggest lump of sugar and the largest
share of cream. They did not care, for they too loved the fair-haired, smooth-faced boys
sipping the yellow coffee he could not drink for the mysterious bunches rising so fast in his throat.
The breakfast was over now. Isaac was trying on his socks, while Eli and John, knowing their
mother would rather be alone when she said goodbye to her baby, prepared to start, talking quite
loud and keeping up stout courage till the last moment came, when both the tall six-foot young
men put their arms around the widow's neck and faltered a faint. Goodbye, mother, goodbye.
There were no tears in the mother's eyes nor in the sons, but in the breast of each there
was a whirlpool of raging waters, hurting far more than if they had been suffered to overflow
in torrents. Eli was the first to go, for John lingered a moment. There was something he would say,
something which made him blush and stammer.
Mother, he began.
I saw Susan last night.
We went to Squire Hardings together.
And, and...
Well, they'd no use opposing it now.
Susan and I are one.
And if I shouldn't come back,
be good to her, for my sake.
Susan's a nice girl, mother.
And on the brown-bearded cheek,
there was a tear,
wrung out by thoughts of only last night's bride,
Susan Ruggles,
whose family the widow did
not like and had set herself against.
There was no help now, and a sudden start was all the widow's answer.
She was not angry John knew, and, satisfied with this he joined his brother in the yard,
where he was cutting his name upon the beech tree.
Thrice, the widow called them back, failing each time to remember what she wanted to say.
It was something sure, and the hard hands worked nervously, twisting up the gingham apron
into a roll, smoothing it out again and working at the strings, until Eli and John
passed from the yard and left her standing there,
watching them as they walked down the road.
They were a grand-looking couple, she thought,
as she saw how well they kept step.
They were to march together to the depot, she knew,
and nobody in town could turn out a finer span,
but who would go with Isaac?
Stubb, his brothers called him.
She hoped it might be Judge Warner's son.
It would be such an honor,
and that brought her back to the fact
that Isaac was waiting for her inside,
that the hardest part of all was yet to come,
the bidding him, goodbye.
He was not in the chair where she had left him sitting
but was standing by the window,
and raising often to his eyes his cotton handkerchief.
He heard his mother come in and turning toward her, he said,
with a sobbing laugh.
I wish the plaguy thing was over.
She thought he meant the warrant, answered that,
it would be in a few months, perhaps.
I don't mean that.
I mean the telling you goodbye, mother.
Oh, mother!
And the warm-hearted boy clasped his mother to his mother.
bosom crying like a child.
If I've ever been mean to you, he said his voice choked with tears.
If I've ever been mean to you or done a hateful thing, you'll forget it when I'm gone.
I never meant to be bad in the time I made that face and called you an old fool when I was
a little boy.
You don't know how sorry I felt, nor how long I cried in the trundle bed after you were
asleep.
You'll forget it, won't you, when I am gone?
Never to come back, maybe.
Will you, mother?
say. Would she? Could she remember odd against her youngest born, save that he had ever been to her
the best, the dearest, most obedient child in the world? No, she could not, and so she told him,
caressing his light brown hair and showering upon at the kisses which the compressed lips
could no longer restrain. The fountain of love was broken, and the widow's tears dropped like
rain on the upturned face of her boy. Suddenly there came to their ears the same drumbeat which had
sounded so like a funeral knell to Annie Graham.
Isaac must go, but not till one act more was done.
Mother, he whispered half hesitatingly,
it will make me a better soldier if you say the Lord's prayer with me
just as you used to do with your hand upon my head.
I'll kneel down if you like,
and the boy of 18 wearing a soldier's dress did kneel down,
nor felt shame as the shaky hand rested once more on his bowed head,
while his mother said with him, the prayer learned.
learned years ago, kneeling as he knelt now.
Surely to the angels looking on there was charged given concerning that young boy,
charged to see that no murderous bullet came near him,
even though they should fall round him thick and fast as summer hail.
It would seem that some such thought as this intruded itself upon the widow Sims,
for where the swelling pain had been there came a gentle peace.
God would care for Isaac.
He would send him home in safety,
and so the bitterness of that parting was more than half-take-
away. Again the drum beat just as Annie heard it. Another pressure of the hand. Another burning
kiss. Another—' "'Good-bye, Mother. Don't fret too much about us.' And then the last of the
widow's boys was gone. Turn we now to the shanty-like building down by the mill where the mother
of Harry and Bill rocked to and fro upon the unmade bed, and rent the air with her dismal howls,
hoping thus to win at least one tender word from the two-use voraciously devouring
the breakfast she, like Widow Sims, had been at so much pains to prepare, watching even
through her tears to see, if they want going to leave her one atom of the steak she had
spent her yesterday's earnings to buy. No, they didn't. Harry took the last piece, growling angrily
at Bill, who, kind or harder than his brother, suggested that Hal shouldn't be a pig, but
leave something for the old woman. Leave it yourself, was Harry's gruff response, and
turning to his mother, he told her, not to make a fool of her.
when she knew she was glad to be rid of them. At any rate, if she were not, the whole
village were, adding by way of consolation that, he should probably end his days in state
prison if he stayed at home, and he had better be shot in a fair fight as there was some credit
in that. Around Harry Baker's childhood there clustered no remembrance of prayers set at the
mother's knee or of Bible stories told in the dusky twilight, and, though reared in New England
within sight of the church spire, he had rarely been inside the house of God.
and this it was which made the difference between that scene and the one transpiring in the house of widow sims all the animal passions in harry baker's case were brought to full perfection unsubdued by any softer influence and rising from the table after filling his stomach almost to bursting he swaggered across the room and opening his bundle began to comment upon the different articles he having been too drunk to notice them when given to him on the previous night what in thunder is this for he exclaimed holding up
the calico housewife and letting buttons, scissors, and thread drop upon the floor.
Plagy pretty implements of war these, and he began to enumerate the articles.
Fine-tooth comb, black as the ace of spades.
Good enough idea that. Ain't used one since I can remember.
And he passed it through his shaggy hair, whose appearance fully verified the truth of his
assertion.
Half a paper of pins!
Why didn't the stingy critters give us more?
An old brass thimble, too.
"'Here, Mother, I'll give you that to remember me by,'
and he tossed it into her lap.
The drawers then took his attention.
The identical pair Rose Mather made,
and though they were better than any he had ever worn,
he laughed at them derisively.
Trying them on, he succeeded in making quite a long rip
in one of the seams, for Rose's stitches, were none the shortest.
Then, with a flourish, he kicked them off,
uttering an oath as he felt a sharp scratch from the needle
which Rose had broken and failed to extricate.
The woolen shirt came now.
but any remarks he might have made upon that were prevented by his catching sight of the little brown book which lay at the bottom of the bundle hurrah bill if it ain't a testament with harry baker inside rich by george wonder if they supposed i'd read it let us see what it says
come on to me all ye that labour mother that means you scrubbing and working you know keep the pesky thing i enlisted to lick the southerners not to see
hymns and psalms? And he threw the sacred book across the floor just as the first drumbeat sounded.
That's the signal, he exclaimed, and hastily rolling up the shirt and drawers he started for the door
carelessly saying,
Come, Bill, take your testament and come along. Goodbye, old lady. You needn't wear black if I'm
killed. It won't pay, I guess. Oh, Harry, Harry, wait. Wait, Billy, boy, do wait. Give your
old Marm one kiss. And the poor woman tottered toward Harry, who savagely repulsed her, saying,
He wasn't going to have her slobren over him? You, Billy, then. You'll let me kiss you, won't you?
And she turned toward Bill, who hesitated a moment, but Harry was in the way.
Bill was afraid of Harry's jeers, and so he too refused, while the wailing cries rose louder.
Oh, Billy, do just once, and I've been so good to you. Just once, do. Just once, do.
Billy.
Shant do it, was Bill's reply as he followed Harry,
who, as a farewell parting, had hurled a stone at a cow across the street,
set the dog on his mother's kitten, stepped on the old cat's tail,
and then left the yard, slamming after him the rickety gate his mother had tried in vain
to have him fixed before he went.
Billy, however, waited.
There was something more human in his nature than in his brothers.
He had not thrown his testament away, and the sight of it in his bundle had touched a tender
cord, making him half-resolved to read it.
Watching his brother till he was out of sight, he went back to where his mother sat,
moaning dolefully,
Oh, that I should raise such boys!
That I should raise such boys!
Mother, he said, and Mrs. Baker's heart fairly leaped at the sound,
for there was genuine sympathy in the tone.
Mother, now that Hal has gone, I don't mind kissing you or letting you kiss me if you want
to.
The doleful moan was a perfect scream
As the shriveled arms clasped bill
While the joyful mother kissed the rough but not ill-humored face
There now, don't screech so like an owl, he said
Releasing himself from her and adding as he glanced at a huge silver watch won by gambling
Maybe see and I've a few minutes to spare I'll drive a nail or so into that confounded gate
And I don't know but while I'm about it I'll spit you an arm full of wood
I had or to have cut up the hole on it, I suppose,
but when hell is round I can't do nothing.
It was strange how many little things Bill did do in these few minutes he had to spare,
things which added greatly to his mother's comfort and saved her several shillings,
beside making a soft, warm spot in a heart which knew not many such.
Glancing at the tall clock brought from New England,
when Mrs. Baker first moved to Rockland, Bill remarked,
"'The darn thing has stopped again.
I ought to have aisle, did I suppose.
It would kind of been company for you hearing it tick.
I, bum, if I hate a mind to give you this old turn-up,
and again he drew out the silver watch.
You'll lay a bed all day without no time.
Like enough, I'll nab one from some tarnel rebel.
Who knows?
And with his favorite expression,
Nuff said, Bill laid the watch upon the table,
his mother moaning all the while.
Billy boy, Billy boy, I nudge.
never sought so much store by you before. How can I let you go? Stay, Billy, do, or else run away
the first chance you get. Will you, Billy boy? Not by a jugful, was the emphatic response.
I ain't none of that kind. I'll be shot like a dog before I'll run. The baker name shall never
be disgraced by my desertin. It's more like Al to do that, but don't howl so. I'm kinder put
on the tender, you know, because I'm going away.
I should be ugly as ever if I's to stay to home.
So stop, your sniveling.
And having driven the last nail into a broken chair,
Bill gathered up his bundle and with the single remark,
Nuff said, darted through the open door,
and was off ere his mother fairly comprehended it.
There was a great crowd out that morning to see the company off.
Fathers, mothers, wives, and sisters,
those who had friends in the company and those who had none,
the mather carriage was there and from its window rose's childish face looked out now irradiated with smiles as its owner bowed to some acquaintance and again shadowed with sympathy as the cries of some bereaved one were heard amid the throng
widow sims too was there drawn thither by a desire to see if isaac did march with charlie warner as she hoped he would notwithstanding that he had told her he was probably too short she didn't believe that he was taller than he looked and inasmuch as charlie was the most aristocratic of the company she did hope isaac would go with him
so there she stood waiting not far from mrs baker who had dried her eyes and come for a last look at her boys onward the soldiers came slowly steadily on
the regular tread of their feet and the measured beat of the drum making solemn music as they came and sending a chill to many a heart for twas no gal a day no fourth of july no old-fashioned general training they were there to celebrate
every drum-beat was the note of war and they who kept time to it were going forth to battle onward onward still they came george graham's splendid figure towering above the rest and eliciting more than one flattering compliment from the lookers-on
there were john and eli side by side john eagerly scanning the female forms which lined the walk for a sight of last night's bride and eli looking for his mother if perchance she should be there
she was there and what to john was better yet she stood with her hand on susan's shoulder showing that thus early she was trying to mother her that's him that's john and susan's voice faltered as she pointed him out to the widow whose heart gave one great spasm of pain as she was trying to mother her that's him-and susan's voice faltered as she pointed him out to the widow whose heart gave one great spasm of pain as she
saw him, and then grew suddenly still with wrath and indignation. For alas, her Isaac,
who was to have gone with Charlie Warner, son of Rockland's judge, was marching with William
Baker, Bill, who had been to the workhouse twice to say nothing of the times he had stolen
her rare rites and early melons. She had not looked for anything like this and could scarcely
believe her senses. Yet there they were, right before her eyes. Isaac and Bill, the former
hoping his mother would not see him, and
the latter trying not to see his mother, who was quite as much delighted to see him with
Isaac Simms as the widow would have been had Isaac been with Charlie Warner just in front.
Mrs. Baker had followed her sons to the hall, had heard the reasons for the captain's decision,
and she called out in a loud, exultant tone,
"'Miss Sims, Miss Sims, do you see your Ike with Billy?'
Captain Johnson would have put him with Charlie Warner if he hadn't fell short two inches.
"'Look kinder nice together, don't they?
only Ike stoop's a trifle,
peers to me.
It didn't peer so to widow Sims,
but then her eyes were blurred
so that she could not see distinctly.
For strange to say,
the sharpest pang of all
was the knowing that Isaac,
so pure, so gentle, so girl-like,
must be a companion
for reckless swearing gambling bill,
and for a time she could not quite
forgive her youngest born
that he had not just been two inches taller.
Blind, ignorant widow Sims.
The hour will come
when on her bended knees
she'll thank the overruling hand which kept her boy from growing just two inches taller.
Onward, still onward they moved until they turned the corner and paused before the depot.
A little apart from the rest George Graham stood, wishing that the cars would come,
and building airy castles of what would be when he returned covered with laurels,
as he was sure to do if only opportunities were offered.
He would distinguish himself, he thought, with many a brave deed,
so that the papers would talk of him as a gallant hero.
And when he came back to Rockland,
the people would come out to meet him
a denser crowd than was assembled now.
Their faces would not then be so sad,
for they would come to do him honour,
and in fancy he heard the stirring notes of the martial music,
and saw the smile of joy steal over
the weather-beaten features of the leader of the band,
the man with the jammed white hat
as he piped that welcome home.
There would be carriages there, too, more than now,
and maybe there would be a carriage expressly for him,
him, and the dreamer saw the long procession moving down the street, saw the little boys on the
walk, the women at the doors, and heard the peel of the village bells. It would be grand, he thought,
if he could have a crown just as the Roman victors used to do. It would please Annie so much to see him
thus triumphant. She would not come up to the depot he knew. She would rather be alone when she met him,
while he too would prefer that all those people should not be looking on when he kissed his little wife.
Just then the train appeared, and the confusion became greater as the crowd drew nearer together,
and the man with a jammed white hat who was to fipe George's welcome home redoubled his exertions,
and tried his best to drown his own emotions in the harsh sounds he made.
But above the fipe's shrill scream, above the bass drums beat,
and above the engine's hiss was heard the sound of wailing,
as one by one the Rockland Volunteer stepped aboard the train.
Bill was the last to go, for as a parting act he had fired the old cannon, which almost from time in memorial had heralded to Rockland's sleeping citizens that twelve o'clock had struck, and it was Independence Day.
Some said it was no good omen that the worn-out gun burst in twain from the heavy charge with which Bill had seen fit to load it, but Bill cared not for omens, and with three cheers and a tiger for Uncle Sam, he jumped upon the platform just as the final all aboard was shouted.
There was a ringing of the bell, a sudden puffing of the engine, a straining of machinery,
a sweeping backward of the wreaths of smoke, and then, where so lately one hundred soldiers
had been, there was nothing left save an open space of frozen ground and iron rails, as cold
and empty as the hearts of those who watched, until the last curling ring of vapor died
amid the eastern woods, and then went sadly back to the homes left so desolate.
End of Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Of Rose Mather
A Tale by Mary Jane Holmes
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4
Will and Brother Tom
Letter from Brother Tom
I am so glad
It's an age since he wrote
And I've been dying to hear from home
Dear Old Tom
And dropping parasol in one place
Gloves in another and shawl in another
Rose Mather who had just came in from shopping
seized the letter her husband handed her,
and seating herself upon an ottoman near the window,
began to read without observing
that it was dated at Washington instead of Boston as usual.
Gradually, however, there came a shadow over her face
and her husband saw the tears gathering slowly in her eyes
and dropping upon the letter she had been dying to get.
What is it, Rose? Mr. Mather asked as a sob met his ear.
Oh, Will!
And Rose cried outright.
I didn't believe Tom would do that.
I thought people like him never went to war.
I most know he'll be killed.
Oh, dear, dear, what shall I do?
And Rose hid her face in the lap of her husband
who fondly caressed her chestnut hair as he replied,
You'll bear it like a brave New England woman.
We need just such men as your brother Tom,
and I never respected him one half so much as now
that he has shown how truly noble he is.
He was greatly opposed to Lincoln, you know,
and worked hard to defeat him.
But now that our country is in day,
he, like a true patriot, has thrown aside all political feeling and gone to the rescue.
I honour him for it and may success attend him.
Yes, interrupted Rose as a new idea, struck her.
But what will his southern friends think of him, and he has got a heap of them?
There are the Bernies and Franklins from New Orleans, the Richardson's in Mobile,
and those nice people in Charleston.
What will they say when they hear he has taken up arms against them,
and he always used to quarrel so with those stills.
abolitionists in Boston when they said the Southerners had no right to their slaves.
Tom insisted they had and that the North was meddling with what was none of its business,
and now he's turned abolitionist and joined two.
Dear, dear.
Mr. Mather smiled at Rose's reasoning and after a moment replied,
I have no idea that Tom has changed his mind in the least with regard to the Negroes,
or that he loves as southern friends one with the less than when defending them from abuse.
"'Negroes and southern proclivities have nothing to do with it.
A blow has been struck at the very heart of our union,
and Tom feels it his duty to resent it.
It's just like this.
Suppose you, in a pet,
were trying to scratch your mother's eyes out,
and Tom should try to prevent it.
Would you think him false to you
because he took the part of his mother?
Would you not rather respect him far more
than if he stood quietly by and saw you fight it out?
It is not very likely I should try to scratch out Mother's eyes, said Rose, half laughing at her
husband's odd comparison, and adding after a moment, I don't see how folks can fight and love each other
too. Mr. Mather didn't quite see it either, and without directly replying to Rose, he asked,
by way of diverting her mind from the subject of her brother's volunteering, if she noticed what Tom
said about the Rockland Company in general, and George Graham and Isaac Sims in particular.
This reminded Rose of Annie, who had been ill most of the time since her husband's departure.
I'm meant to have called on Mrs. Graham right away, she said.
The poor creature has been so sick, they say, but would not let them send for George
because it was his duty to stay where he was. I'd like to see duty or anything else make me
willing to part with you. I don't believe Mrs. Graham loves her husband as I do you,
or she would never consent to be left alone. And Rose nestled closer to her husband,
could not find courage to tell her what he meant to do when he handed her Tom's letter.
It would be too much for her to bear at once, he thought, as he saw how greatly she was
pained because her brother had joined the army and was even then in Washington.
To Rose, it was some consolation that Tom was captain of his company and that his soldiers
were taken from the finest families in Boston. This was far better than if he had gone as a
private, which of course he would not do. He was too proud for that, and she could never have
forgiven him the disgrace.
still viewed in any light it was very sad for tom had been to rose more like a father than a brother he was the pride the head of the carlton family upon whom herself and mother had leaned the one since the day of her widowhood and the other since she could remember
he it was who had petted and caressed and spoiled her up to the very hour when at the altar he had given her away to will he it was too who had been the arbiter of all the childish differences which had arisen between herself and jimmy teasing naughty jimmy wandering now no one knew where if indeed he were alive
and at the thought of jimmy with his saucy eyes and handsome face her tears flowed afresh what if he were living and should join the army like tom it would be more than she could bear and for a long time after her husband left her rose sat weeping over the picture she drew of both her brothers slain on some bloody battlefield
the shadow of war was beginning to enfold her and brought with it a new and strange sympathy for those who like herself had brothers in the army again remembering annie graham she sprang up exclaiming to herself i'll go this very afternoon she'll be so glad to know what tom thinks of george
and ere long rose was picking her way daintily through the narrow street which led to the cottage in the hollow it was superior to most of the dwellings upon that street and rose was struck at once with the
air of neatness and thrift apparent in everything around it, from the nicely painted fence
to the little garden with its plaits of flowers just budding into beauty.
They have seen better days, I am sure, or else Mrs. Graham's social position was above her
husband's, was Rosa's mental comment as she lifted the gate latch and passed up the narrow walk,
catching a glimpse through the open window of a sweet, pale face and of a thick stout figure
flying through the opposite door as if anxious to avoid being seen.
poor Annie had been very sick, and more than once the physician who attended her had suggested sending for her husband, but Annie, though missing him sadly and longing for him more than anyone could guess, always opposed it, begging of widow Sims, who of her own accord went to nurse her not to write anything which would alarm him in the least.
So George, ever hopeful, ever looking on the sunny side, thought of his blue-eyed wife as a little bit sick and nervous it might be, but not dangerous at all, and wrote to her kind of.
loving, cheering letters, which did much to keep her courage from dying within her.
Annie was better now, was just in that state of convalescence when she found it very hard to lie all
day long, watching widow Sims as she bustled out and in, setting the chairs in a row with
their six-back square against the wall, and their six fronts opposite the table, stand and
bureau also in a row. She was just wishing someone would come when the swinging of the gate
in the widow's exclamation, "'Oh, the land! If that stuck-up thing ain't coming!'
announced the approach of Rose Mather.
I'll make myself missin, for mercy knows I don't want to hear none of your secession stuff.
It fairly makes my blood bile, was the widow's next comment.
And gathering up her knitting, she hurried into the kitchen, leaving Annie to receive her visitor alone.
Not waiting for her knock to be answered, Rose entered at the open door and advanced at once into the room where Annie was.
Her fair hair pushed back from her forehead, her blue eyes unusually brilliant, and her face scared
scarcely less white than the pillow on which it lay.
Rose had an eye for the beautiful,
and after the first words of greeting were over,
she broke out in her impulsive way.
Why, Mrs. Graham, how handsome you are looking,
just like the apple blossoms.
I wish your husband could see you now.
I'm sure he wouldn't stay there another hour.
I think it's cruel in him, don't you?
The tears came at once to Annie's eyes,
and her voice was very low as she replied.
George does not know how sick I have.
been, neither do I wish to have him.
It would only make his burden
heavier to bear, and I try to care
more for his comfort than my own.
This was a phase of
unselfishness wholly new to Rose,
and, for an instant she was silent,
then, remembering Tom's letter, she seated
herself upon the foot of the bed, and throwing
aside her bonnet took the letter from her pocket,
telling Annie as she did so that
she too was now interested in the war,
and in every one whose friends had gone.
I never knew how it felt before,
she said, and I've made a heap of silly speeches I know.
Don't you remember that time in the hall when I talked about your husband being shot?
I am sorry, but I do think he's more likely to be picked off than Tom, who was not nearly as tall.
You are faint, ain't you?
She added, as she saw how deathly pale Annie grew, while the drops of perspiration stood thickly about her lips.
Simpleton, Simpleton! muttered Widow Sims, listening through the keyhole in the kitchen while Annie whispered.
please don't talk that way mrs mather i know george is very tall but unless god wills it otherwise the bullets will pass by him as well as others rose saw she had done mischief again by her thoughtless way of speaking and eager to repair the wrong she bent over annie and said
i am sorry i am always doing something foolish you are faint shan't i tell the servant to bring you some water she's in the kitchen i suppose and ere annie could explain rose had darted into the neat
little kitchen where widow Sims was stooping over the stove and kindling a fire with which
to make the evening tea. Girl, girl, Mrs. Graham wants some water. Hurry and bring it quick,
will you? Rose called out a little peremptorily, for there was something rather suggestive of
defiance in the square straight bag which never moved a particle in answer to the command.
Def or hateful, was Rose's mental comment, and as it might possibly be the former,
she wished she knew the girl's name as that would be more apt to attract her.
Most every Irish girl is Bridget, she thought to herself.
And I guess this one is.
Anyway, she acts like the girl that used to order Mother outdoors,
so I'll venture upon that name.
Bridget, Bridget!
And this time the voice was decidedly authoritative in its tone,
but what more Rose might have added was cut short by the widow,
who dropped the griddle with a bang and turning sharply round, replied.
There's no Bridget here, and if it's me you mean, I am Mrs. Joseph Sims.
Rose had good reason for remembering Mrs. Sims and coloring crimson she tried to apologize.
I beg your pardon. I did not see your face. I supposed everybody kept a girl, and your back looked like,
don't make the matter any worse, interrupted the widow, smiling in spite of herself at Rose's attempt to excuse her blunder.
You thought from my dress that I was a hired girl, and so I was in my younger days and I don't feel none there was for it neither.
"'Miss Graham's faint, is she?
"'She's had time to get over it, I think.
"'Here's the water.'
And filling a gourd shell, she handed it to Rose,
who in her admiration of the
"'To her, novel drinking cup,
"'came near forgetting Annie.
"'But Annie did not care,
"'for their encounter between the widow and Rose
"'had done her quite as much good as the water could,
"'and Rose found her laughing
"'the first really hearty laugh
"'she had enjoyed since George went away.
"'It's just like me,'
Rose said, as she resumed her seat by Annie, listening intently while she told how kind the widow Sims had been,
coming every day to stay with her and only leaving her at night because Annie insisted that she should.
I like Mrs. Sims, was Rose's vehement exclamation. And I am glad Tom said what he did about Isaac,
who used to saw our wood. I did not tell you, did I? And there's something real nice about your husband, too.
I mean to call her in while I read it. And Rose ran out to the woodshed,
where the widow was now splitting a pine for kindling,
the newspaper she at first had used, having burned entirely out.
Rose's manner and voice were very conciliatory, as she said,
please, Mrs. Sims, come in and listen while I read what Brother Tom has written
about Mr. Graham and your Isaac, something perfectly splendid.
Tom has volunteered and gone to Washington, you know.
It was strange how those few words changed the widow's opinion of Rose.
The fact that Thomas Carleton, whom the Rockland people fancied was a secession,
had joined the federal army, did much toward affecting this change, but not so much as a fact
that he had actually noticed her boy and spoken of him in a letter.
Miss Mather ain't so bad after all, she thought, and, striking her axe into the log, she followed
Rose to the sitting-room, listening eagerly while she read the few sentences pertaining to George
and Isaac. They were as follows. By the way, Will, I find there's a company here from Rockland.
Fine appearing fellows, too. Most of them are, and under good.
discipline. I am especially pleased with the second lieutenant. He's a magnificent-looking man and
attracts attention wherever he goes. That's George, you know, and Rose, quite as much pleased as
Annie herself, nodded toward the latter, whose pale cheek flushed with pride at hearing her
husband thus spoken of by Rose Mather's brother. Yes, but Isaac, interrupted the widow. Whereabouts
does he come in? Oh, pretty soon I'll get to him. There's more about George yet, answered Rose, as she
resumed her reading. I had the pleasure of talking with him yesterday and found him very intelligent
and sensible. If we had more men like him, success would be sure and speedy. He has about him a great
deal of fun and humor which go far toward keeping up the spirits of his company, and some of the
poor fellows need it sadly. There's a young boy in the ranks, Isaac Sims, who interests me
greatly. Oh, and the widow drew a long sigh as Rose continued. I wonder he was ever suffered
to come, he seems so young, so girl-like, and so gentle.
Still, he does a great deal of good, Lieutenant Graham tells me,
by visiting the sick and sharing with them any delicacy he happens to have.
He's rather homesick, I imagine, for when I asked him if he had a mother,
his chin quivered in a moment, and I saw the tears standing in his eyes.
Poor boy. I can't account for the interest I feel in him.
Heaven grant that if we come to open fight he may not fall a victim.
Yes, yes, my...
boy, my darling boy.
And burying her face in her
hard hands, the widow sobbed aloud.
I thank you, Miss Mather, for reading me that,
she said, and I thank your brother
for writing it. Tell him so, will you?
Tell him I'm nothing but a cross, sour grain,
snappish old woman, but I have a mother's heart, and I bless him for
speaking so kindly of my boy.
Rosa's tears fell fast as she folded up the letter,
and Annie's kept company with them.
there was a bond of sympathy now between the three as they talked together of the soldiers mrs sims and annie devising various methods by which they might be benefited and rose wishing she too could do something for them
but i can't she said despairingly i never did anybody any real good in all my life only bothered them and rose sighed as she thought how useless and aimless was her present mode of life you'll learn by and by said the widow and
a tone unusually soft for her.
Then, as if the socks she held in her lap,
had suggested the idea, she continued.
Can you knit?
Rose shook her head.
Nor your mother neither.
Again, Rose shook her head,
feeling quite ashamed that she should lack this accomplishment.
Well, the widow went on.
Tate much use to learn now.
It would take a year to get one stocking done,
but if when winter comes,
that brother of yours want socks and mittens
or the like of that, tell him I'll knit
them for him. Oh, you are so kind, cried Rose, thinking to herself how she'd send
widow Sim some pineapple preserves, such as she had with dessert that day. They grew to liking
each other very fast after this, and Rose stayed until the little round table was arranged
for tea and rolled to Annie's bedside. There was no plate for Rose, the widow having deemed it
preposterous that she should stay, but the table looked so cozy with its tiny black teapot
and its nicely buttered toast that Rose invited herself with such a pretty patronizing way
that the widow failed to see the condescension it implied. It did not, however, escape Annie's
observation, but she could not feel angry with a little lady touching her bone-handled knife
as if she were afraid of it, and looking round in quest of the napkin she failed to find,
for widow Sims had banished napkins from the table as superfluous articles, which answered
no earthly purpose save the putting an extra four cents into the pocket of the washerwoman
Harry Baker's mother.
It was growing late and the sunset shadows were already creeping into the hollow when
Rose bad Annie goodbye, promising to come again ere long and wondering as she took her homeward
way.
Whence came the calm, quiet peace which made Annie Graham so happy, even though her husband were
far away in the midst of danger and death.
Rose had heard that Annie was a Christian, and so were many others whom she knew, but they
were much like herself.
Good, well-meaning people, amiable, and submissive when everything went to
suit them, but let their husbands once join the army and they would make quite as much
a fuss as she who did not profess to be anything. And then, for the first time in her life,
Rose wished she too could learn from Annie's teacher, and so have something to sustain her
in case her husband should go. But he wouldn't go, and if he did, all the religion in the world
could not make her resigned, and the tears sprang to Rose's eyes as she hurried up the handsome
walk to the piazza, where Will sat smoking his cigar in the hazy twilight. She took
told him where she had been, and then sitting upon his knee told him of Annie, wishing she could
be like her, and asking if he did not wish so, too. Will made no direct reply. His thoughts
were evidently elsewhere, and after a few minutes he said, hesitatingly, would it break my darling's
heart if I should join Tom at Washington? There was a cry of horror, and Rose hid her face in her
husband's bosom. Oh, Will, will, you shan't, you can't, you mustn't and won't. I didn't. I didn't
know you ever thought of such a cruel thing.
Don't you love me any more?
I'll try to do better.
I certainly will.
And Rose nestled closer to him, holding his hands
just as Annie Graham had once held her husband's.
You could not be much better.
Neither could I love you more than I do now, Rosa darling.
Mr. Mather replied, kissing her childish brow.
But, Rosa, be reasonable once,
and listen while I tell you how, ever since the fall of Sumter,
I have thought the time would come when I should be needed.
resolving to that when it came it should not find me a second sardinopoulos the sudden lifting of rose's head and her look of perplexed inquiry showed that notwithstanding the fanciful ornament styled a diploma lying in her writing-desk sardinopoulos had not the honour of being numbered among her acquaintances
But her heart was too full to ask an explanation, and her husband continued.
Besides that, there was a mutual understanding between Tom and myself that if one went the other would, and he has gone,
nobly laying aside all the party prejudice which for a time influenced disconduct.
Our country needs more men.
Yes, yes, gasped Rose.
But more have gone.
There's scarcely a boy left in town, and is just so everywhere.
Mr. Mather smiled as he replied,
I know the boys have gone,
boys whose fair beardless faces should put to shame a strong, full-grown man like me.
And another class, too, have gone.
Our laboring young men, leaving behind them poverty and little helpless children,
whereas I have nothing of that kind for an excuse.
Oh, I wish I had a dozen children if that would keep you, cried Rose,
the insane idea flashing upon her that she would at once a-dose,
a score or more of those she had seen playing in the muddy hollow that afternoon.
Mr. Mather smiled and continued,
suppose you try and accustom yourself to the idea of living a while without me.
I shall not die until my appointed time, and shall undoubtedly come back again, don't you see?
No, Rose didn't.
Her heart was too full of pain to see how going to war was just as sure a method of prolonging
one's life as staying at home, and she sobbed passionately,
one moment accusing her husband of not loving her as he used to, and the next begging of him to abandon his wild project.
Mr. Mather was a man of firm decision, and long before he broached the subject to his wife,
his mind had been made up that his country called for him, not for somebody else, but for him, personally,
that if the rebellion were to be crushed out, men of wealth and influence must help to crush it,
not alone by remaining at home and urging others on, though this were an important part, but by
actually joining in the combat, and by their presence cheering and inspiring others.
And Mr. Mather was going, too, had in fact already made arrangements to that effect,
and neither the tears nor entreaties of his young wife could avail to change his purpose.
But he did not tell her so that night. He would rather come to it gradually,
taking a different course from that which George Graham had pursued, for where George had left
the decision wholly to his wife, Mr. Mather had taken it wholly upon himself, making it first
and telling Rose afterwards.
It was better so, he thought,
and having said all to her
that he wished to say on that occasion,
he tried to divert her mind
into another channel.
But Rose was not to be diverted.
It had come upon her like a thunderbolt,
the thing she's so much dreaded,
and she wept bitterly,
seeing in the future
which only a few hours before
looked so bright and joyous,
nothing but impenetrable gloom,
for she could read her husband tolerably well,
and she intuitively felt
that she had lost him,
that he was going from her, never to come back, she knew.
She should be a widow before she was nineteen,
and the host of summer dresses she meant to buy when she went back to Boston
changed into a widow's somber weeds,
as Rose saw herself arrayed in the habiliments of mourning.
What a fright she looked to herself in the widow's cap,
with which her vivid imagination disfigured her chestnut hair,
and she shuddered afresh as she thought how hideous she was in black.
Poor, simple little Rose!
And yet we say again, Rose was not a fool, nor yet an unnatural character.
There are many, many like her, some who will recognize themselves in this story, and more who will not.
Gay, impulsive, pleasure-seeking creatures, whom fashionable education and two indulgent parents
have done their utmost to spoil, but who still possess many traits of excellence,
needing only adverse circumstances to mold and hammer them into the genuine coin of true-hearted
womanhood.
Such a one was Rose.
reared by a fond mother petted by an older brother and teased by a younger flattered by friend and foe and latterly caressed and worshipped by a husband rose had come to think far too much of her own importance as mrs rose mother
nay miss rose carleton of boston an acknowledged belle and leader of the ton there was a wide difference between rose and annie graham for while the latter in her sweet unselfishness thought only of her husband's welfare both here and hereafter rose's first
impulse was a dread shrinking from being alone, and her second terror, lest the years of her youth
now spread out so invitingly before her, should be passed in secluded widowhood with nothing
from the gay world without wherewith to feed her vanity and love for admiration.
Still, beneath Rosa's light exterior, there was hidden a mine of tenderness and love, a heart
which, when roused to action, was capable of greater more heroic deeds than would at first seem
impossible. And that heart was rousing, too, was gradually waking into life. But not all at once,
and the tears which Rose shed the whole night through were wrung out more from selfishness,
perhaps, than from any higher feeling. It would be so stupid living there alone in Rockland.
If she could only go to Washington with Will, it would not be half so bad, but she could not,
for she waked Will up from sound sleep to ask him if she might, and he answered no,
falling away again to sleep, and leaving Rose to wakefulness and
tears, unmingled with any prayer that the cloud gathering so fast around her might
sometime break in blessings on her head. It was scarcely light next morning when Rose,
determining to prevail, redoubled her entreaties for her husband to abandon the decision he now
candidly acknowledged, but she could not. He was going to the war and going as a private.
Rose almost fainted when he told her this and for a time refused to be comforted.
She might learn to bear it, she said, if he were an officer, but
to go as a common soldier, like those she worked for at the hall, was more than she could bear.
It was in vain that Mr. Mather told her how only a few could be officers, and that he was
content to serve his country in any capacity, leaving the more lucrative situations to those
who needed them more. He did not tell her he had declined a post of honour for the sake of one
who seemed to him more worthy of it. He would rather this should reach her from some other source,
and ere the day was over it did, for in a small town like Rockland it did not. It did not. It would
take long for every other one to know that William Mather had enlisted as a private soldier when he might have been colonel of a regiment had he not given place to another because that other had depending on him a bedridden mother a crazy wife and six little helpless children
how fast William Mather rose in the estimation of those who never having known him intimately had looked upon him as a cold haughty man whose loyalty was somewhat doubtful and how proud Rose felt even in the midst of her tears as she heard on every side or husband's
praise. Even the widow Sims ventured to the Mather mansion, telling her how glad she was, and offering
to do what she could for the volunteer, while Annie, unable to do anything for herself, could only pray
that God would bring Mr. Mather back safely to the childwife who was so bowed down with grief.
How Annie longed to see her, and, if possible, impart to her some portion of the hopeful trust which
kept her own soul from fainting beneath its burden of anxious uncertainty. But the days passed on,
and Rose came no more to the cottage in the hollow.
Love for her husband had triumphed over every other feeling,
and rousing from her state of inertness,
she busied herself in doing or rather trying to do
a thousand little things which she fancied might add to Willie's comfort.
She called him Willie now, as if that name were dearer,
tenderer than Will,
and the strong man every time he heard it felt a sore pang.
There was something so plaintive in the tone
as if she were speaking of the dead.
It was a most beautiful summer,
her day when at last he left her, and Rosa's heart was well-nigh bursting with its load of pain.
It was all in vain that she said her usual form of prayer, never more meaningless than now
when her thoughts were so wholly absorbed with something else. She did not pray in faith,
but because it was a habit of her childhood, as something she rarely omitted, unless in too
great a hurry. No wonder, then, that she rose up from her devotion quite as grief-stricken
as when she first knelt down. God does not often answer what is mere lip service.
and Rose was yet a stranger to the prayer which stirs the heart and carries power with it.
The parting was terrible, and Mr. Mather more than half repented when he saw how tightly she clung to his neck,
begging him to take her with him, or at least to send for her very soon.
What shall I do when you are gone?
What can I do? she sobbed, and her husband answered.
You can work for me, darling.
Work for all the soldiers.
It will help divert your mind.
I can't.
I can't, was Rose's answer.
I don't know how to work.
Oh, Willie, Willie, I wish there wasn't any war.
Willie wished so, too, but there was no time now for regrets,
for a rumbling in the distance and a rising wreath of smoke on the Western plain
warned him not to tarry longer if he would go that day.
One more burning kiss, one more fond pressure of the wife he loved so much,
a few more whispered words of hope, and then another rob.
Auckland volunteer had gone. Gone without daring to look backward to the little form lying just
the same as he put it from him, and yet not just the same. He had felt it quivering with anguish
when he took his arms away, but the trembling, quivering motion was over now, and the form he had
caressed lay motionless and still, all unconscious of the dreary pain throbbing in the heart,
and all unmindful of the loud hurrah which greeted William Mather as he stepped upon the platform
of the car and waved his hat to those assembled there to see him off.
Rose, who had meant at the very last to be so heroic, so brave, so worthy the wife of a soldier,
had fainted.
End of Chapter 4.
Chapter 5 of Rose Mather A Tale by Mary Jane Holmes.
This Librevox recording is in the public domain.
5. Jimmy
There were loving words being breathed into Rose's ear.
when she came back to consciousness.
And there was something familiar
in the touch of the hand
bathing her brow and smoothing her tangled hair.
But Rose was too weak and sick
to notice who it was caring for her so tenderly
until she heard the voice saying to her,
Is my daughter better?
And then she threw herself
with a wild scream of joy
into the arms which had cradled her babyhood,
sobbing piteously.
Oh, mother, mother,
Willie has gone to the war.
Willie has gone to the war
It was very strange Rose thought
That her mother's tears should flow so fast
And her face wear so sad an expression
Just because of Will
Who was nothing but her son-in-law
Then it occurred to her that Tom might be the occasion of her sadness
But when she spoke of him
Asking why her mother had not prevailed on him to stay at home
Mrs. Carlton answered promptly
I never loved him one half so well
As on that night when he told me he had voluntary
teared. He would be unworthy of the Carlton blood he bears, were he to hesitate a moment,
and the eye of the brave New England matron kindled, as she added. If I had twenty sons,
I would rather all should die on the federal battlefield and have one turned traitor to his country.
Oh, Jimmy, Jimmy, my poor misguided boy! It was a piteous cry which came from the depths of that
mother's aching heart. The cry so full of anguish that Rose was startled and asked in much
alarm what it was about Jimmy. Had she heard from him, and was he really dead?
No, Rose, and in the mother's voice there was a hard, bitter tone. No, not dead, but better so
than what he is? Oh, I would so much rather he had died when a little innocent child than
lived to bear the name he bears. What name, mother? What has Jimmy done? Do tell me,
you frighten me you look so white. And Rose clung closer to her mother, who with quivering lip
and faltering voice, told her how her
recriont runaway Jimmy had joined the Confederate Army under Boregarde,
and was probably then marching on to Washington to meet her other son
in deadly conflict it might be, his hand, the very one, perhaps,
to speed the fratocidal bullet which should shed a brother's life blood.
No wonder that her heart grew faint when she thought of her boy as a rebel.
Aye, a rebel of ten times deeper die than if he had been born of southern blood,
and reared on southern soil, for the roof to reaped.
which sheltered his childhood was almost beneath the shadow of Bunker Hill's monument,
and many an hour had he sported at its base, playing directly above the graves of those brave men
who fell that awful day when the fierce thunders of war shook the hills of Boston, and echoed
across the smoky waters of the bay. Far up the lofty tower, too, as high as he could reach.
His name was written with his own boyish hand, and the mother had read it there since
receiving the shameful letter which told of his disgrace. Climbing up the wretched,
weary, winding flight of stairs, she had looked through blinding tears upon that name, James
Madison Carlton. Half hoping it had been erased, it seemed so like a mockery to have it there on
Freedom's Monument, and know that he who bore it was a traitor to his country.
Yet there it was, just as he left it years ago, and with a blush of shame the mother crossed
it out, just as she feign would have crossed out his sin, could that have been?
But it could not. She knew that Jimmy was in the Southern Army, and
not wishing to speak of it at home, where he already bore no envied name, she had come for sympathy
to her only daughter. And it was well for both she did, for it helped to divert Rose's grief
into a new and different channel, to set her right on many points and gradually to obliterate all
marks of what some had called secession. Tom had been her pride. The brothers she honored and feared,
while Jimmy nearer her age was more a companion of her childhood. The one who teased and petted her
by turns, one day putting angle-worms in her bosom just to hear her scream, and the
next spending all his pocket money to buy her the huge wax doll she saw in the shop window
down on Washington Street and coveted so badly. Such were some of Rosa's reminiscences of Jimmy,
and, while time had softened down the horrid sensation she experienced when she felt the cold
worms crawling on her neck, it had not destroyed the doll. The handsomest she had ever owned,
nor made her cease to love the teasing boy.
She could not feel just as her mother did about him, for she had not her mother's strong
patriotic feeling, but her tears flowed nonetheless while she too half-wished him lying
beneath the summer grass in beautiful Mount Auburn.
How did you hear from him? she asked when her first burst of grief was over and her mother
replied by taking out a letter on which Rose recognized her brother's handwriting.
He sent me this, Mrs. Carlton said, and tearing open the letter she read it aloud to Rose.
Richmond, Virginia, June 1861
Dear Mother
Pray don't think you've seen a ghost when you recognize my writing
You thought me dead, I suppose, but there's no such good news as that
I'm bulletproof, I reckon, or I should have died in New Orleans last summer
when the yellow fever and I had such a squabble.
I was dreadfully sick then, and half-wished I had not run away,
for I knew you would feel badly when you heard how I died with nobody to care for me
and was tumbled into the ground
head sticking out as likely as any way.
I used to talk about you old Martha said
and about Rose too.
Dear little Rose,
I actually laid down my pen just now
and laughed aloud as I thought
how she looked when I tweeted her to those worms,
telling her I had a necklace for her.
Didn't she dance and didn't Tom thrash me too
till I saw stars?
Well, he never struck me a blow amiss,
though I used to think he did.
I was a sorry scamp, Mother, the biggest rascal in Boston, but I've reformed.
I have upon my word, and you ought to see how the people here smile upon and flatter me,
telling me what a nice chap I am and all that sort of thing.
In short, mother, to come at once to the point and not spend an hour in arguing,
as Tom used to do when he took me up in the attic where he kept the gads, you know.
In short, I've been naturalized.
Have sworn allegiance to the future southern monarchs.
and I'm as true as Southern blood as you would wish to see.
I've got a Palmetto Cockade on my cap,
a tiny Confederate flag on my sleeve,
and what is best of all,
I've joined the Southern Army under Borr Guard,
and shall shortly bring the war to the threshold of the capital,
licking the Yankees there congregated like fun.
It's about time now, Mother, for you to ring for Margaret.
You'll want the camphor and make a fuss, of course,
so while you were enjoying that diversion,
I'll go and practice a little with my gun.
you know i could never hit a barn without shooting twice but i'm improving fast and shall soon be able to pick off a yankee at a distance of a mile two o'clock p m
well mother i take it for granted you are nicely tucked up in bed with a curtains drawn and a wet rag on your head as the result of what i've told you i'm sorry that you should feel so badly and wish i could see you for an hour or so as i could surely convince you we are right we have been brow-beaten and trodden upon by the north i'm sorry that you should feel so badly and wish i could see you for an hour or so as i could surely convince you we are right we have been brow-beaten and trodden upon by the north on
until forbearance has ceased to be a virtue,
and now that they've thrown down the gauntlet,
we will meet them on their own terms.
I dare say that they have made you believe
that we struck the first blow by firing into Sumter,
but, Mother, those northern papers do lie so,
all except the Herald and a few others,
which occasionally come within a mile of the truth,
but even they have been bribed recently or something.
If you want the unbiased truth of the matter,
subscribe for the Richmond Examiner,
or better yet, the Charleston Murr.
Mercury, whose editor is a New England man and of course is capable of judging right.
He knows what has brought on this war. He'll tell you how the South Carolinians generously bore the
insult of the federal flag flying there defiantly in their faces until they could bear it no longer,
and so one day we pitched in. I say we, for I was there in Fort Maltry and saw the fight,
but did not join for the brave fellows out of compliment to my having been born near Bunker Hill,
said I needn't. So I mounted a cotton bale and looked to,
on, feeling I'll admit, some as I used to on the 4th of July, when I saw how noble old Sumter
played her part. And once, when a shell burst within ten feet of me, turning things generally
to obsy-turvy, and blowing shirt-sleeves and coat-sleeves and waistbands and boots higher
than a kite, I was positively guilty of harrowing for the stars and stripes. I couldn't help
it to save me. And yet, Mother, I believe the North wrong and the South-right, but so generous
of people, are we, that all we ask now
is for you to let us alone.
And if the Lincolnites won't do that,
why, then we must stoop to fight the mudsills.
It's all humbug, too,
about the Negroes being on the verge of insurrection.
A more faithful devoted set I never saw.
They'll fight for their masters
until they die, every man of them.
Tom will tell you that.
What are his politics?
Bell and Everett, I dare say,
so there's no danger of my meeting him in battle.
and I'm glad of it, for to tell the truth, I should feel rather ticklish raising my gun against Old Tom.
Maybe, though, he is humbugged like the rest, and forms a part of that unit said to exist at the North.
What sort of a thing is that, mother? What does it look like? Democrats and Republicans,
abolitionists and garrisonites, all melted in one crucible and bearing Abraham's image and
superscription. I wish I could see it. Must have changed mightily round Boston from what they
used to be when they quarreled so, some against and some for southern rights and southern people.
But strange things happen nowadays, and it may be Tom, too, has turned his coat and taken
size with the Federals. If so, all I can say is, Tommy,
Tommy, oh, Tommy, beware of the day when Southern Bloods meet thee in battle array.
For a field of weak cowards rushes full on my sight, and the ranks of the Yankees are
scattered in flight. Won't we rout them, though? I shall fight next time.
I've played Pollywog long enough.
I am regularly enlisted now.
Am a rebel, as you call us at home.
Nothing very bad about that either, as I can prove to you,
if you'll take the trouble to hunt up my old dog-eared history of the United States
where Washington is styled by the British, the rebel chief.
The South are only doing what the 13 did in 76,
trying to shake off the tyrant's yoke.
It's the same thing, precisely, only the shoe is on the other foot,
and pinches mightily.
we did not at first intend to subjugate the north but maybe they'll provoke us to do it if they keep on now however we only want or rather did want a peaceable separation and you may as well yield to it first as last
what do you intend doing with us anyway suppose you succeed in licking us hold us as a conquered province just as england holds ireland much good that will do you it will be some like keeping a mad dog chained so tightly that he cannot get away but is none the less snappy but is none the less snappy
and non-com at table for that.
No, no, acknowledge our independence,
and call home the chaps you have dragged
from poor houses in state prisons, lanes and ditches,
and sent to fight against southern gentlemen.
This, to me, is the most humiliating feature of the whole,
and if I must be shot or taken prisoner,
I hope it will be by someone worthy of my steel.
This last I'm writing for old Tom's benefit.
Give him my compliments,
and tell him nothing would please me more
than to welcome him to our camps.
someday. Dear little Rose, perhaps she would not let a rebel kiss her, and I don't know,
but I'd turn federal for half an hour or so for the sake of tasting her sweet lips once more.
I do love Rose, and I feel a mysterious lump in my throat every time I look at her picture
taken just before I left home. I never show it, for somehow it would seem like profanation
to have the soldiers staring at it. So I wear it next my heart, and when I go into battle I
shall keep it there. Perhaps it will save my life. Who knows? I am getting tired and must close
ere long. Now, mother, please don't waste too many tears over me. The time will come when you'll see
we are right, and if it will be any consolation, I will say in conclusion that I have written a heap
worse than I really believe. I am not a fool. I understand exactly how the matter stands,
but I like the southern side the best. I think they are just as near right as the
and I'm going to stick to them through thick and thin.
We shall have a battle before long,
and this may be the last time I'll ever write to you.
I've been a bad boy, mother, and troubled you so much,
but if I'm shot, you will forget all that,
and only remember how, with all my faults, I love you still.
You and Tom and Little Rose, more than you ever guessed.
By the way, I believe I'll send you a lock of my hair,
cut just over my left ear, where you used to think it curled so nicely.
perhaps it will enhance its value if you know I severed it with a bowie knife, such as I now carry with me.
Tell Rose I'll send her a calico dress by and by.
It will be the most costly present I can make her if the blockade is carried out, but it won't be.
That old bull across the sea will be goring you with his horns first, you know.
Then you'll have a sweet time up there, beset before and behind, and possibly annexed to Canada.
But I don't want to make you feel any bluer than you are probably feeling so.
Goodbye. Goodbye. Your affectionate rebel, James M. Carlton. P.S. I shall send this to Washington by a chap who is
going to desert, you know, and join the Federals with a pitiful story about having been pressed into
the rebel service, telling them too how poor and weak and demoralized we are. How a handful of
troops can lick us and so draw them into our web as a spider tempts a fly, don't you see?
They offered me that honor knowing that a son of George Carlton, twice MC from Massachusetts,
and now defunct, would be above suspicion and would thus gather a heap of items.
But hang me if I could turn spy on any terms.
So I respectfully declined.
You see, I am quite a somebody, owing to my having had sense enough to wait until I was
twenty-one ere I ran away, and so bringing a part of my property with me.
Money makes the mayor go here as elsewhere, but I'm about running out.
I wish you could send me a few thousand, can't you?
And this was Jimmy's letter.
over which the mother had wet far bitterer tears than any she shed when her eldest-born bade her his last farewell,
giving to her just as Jimmy had done, a lock of his brown hair. She had it with her now, and she laid them both on Rose's hand,
the dark brown lock and the short black silken curl, which twined itself around Rose's finger as if it
loved the snowy resting place. Rose's first impulse was to shake it off as if it had been a guilty thing,
but the sight of it recalled so vividly the handsome, saucy face
and laughing mischievous black eyes at once had helped a shade
that she pressed it to her lips and whispered sadly,
Dear Jimmy, I cannot hate him if I try,
nor see how he is greatly at fault,
while in her heart was the unframed prayer
that God would care for the rebel boy and bring him back to them.
Mrs. Carlton was proud of her family name,
proud of her family pride,
and she shrank from having it known how it had been disgraced,
so after Rose's first grief was over, she bade her keep at a secret, and Rose promised readily,
never doubting for a moment her ability to do so.
Rose had already borne much that morning.
Excessive weeping for her husband added to what she had heard of Jimmy took her strength away,
and she spent that first weary day in bed, sometimes sobbing bitterly as the dread reality
came over her that Will was really gone, and again starting up from a feverish broken sleep
with the idea that it was all a dream, or a horrid nightmare, from her.
which she should at last awake.
Collars were all excluded, and with a delicious feeling that she was not to be disturbed,
Rose late in the afternoon lay watching the western sunlight dancing on the wall
when a step upon the stairs was heard, and in a moment widow Sims appeared,
her sharp face softening into an expression of genuine pity when she saw how white and
wan Rose was looking.
"'They tried to keep me out,' she said.
"'That brawny cook of yours and that filigree waiting-maid, but I would come up and here I
am. Then, sitting down by Rose, she told her Annie had sent her there.
She's sorry for you, the widow said, and she sent this to tell you so. And the widow handed
Rose a tiny note written by Annie Graham. Once Rose would have resented the act as
implying too much familiarity, but her heart was greatly softened, while had she tried her best,
she could not have regarded Annie Graham in the light of an inferior. Tearing open the envelope
she read. My dear Mrs. Mather, I am sure you will pardon the liberty I am taking.
My apology is that I feel so deeply for you, for I understand just what you are suffering,
understand how wearily the hours drag on, knowing as you do that with the waning daylight
his step will not be heard just by the door, making in your heart little throbs of joy,
such as no other step can make. I am so sorry for you, and I had hoped you at least might be
spared, but God in his wisdom has seen fit to order it otherwise, and we know that what he does
is right. Still it is hard to bear, harder for you than for me, perhaps, and when this morning I heard
the car signal given, I knelt just where I did when my own husband went away and asked our
heavenly father to bring your willy back in safety, and Mrs. Mather, I am sure he will,
for I felt even then an answer to my prayer, something which said, it shall be as you ask.
Dear Mrs. Mather, try to be comforted, try to see the brighter side, try to pray,
and be sure the darkness now enveloping you so like a pall will pass away, and the sunshine
be the brighter for the cloud.
Come and see me when you feel like it, and remember you have at least two friends who pray for you,
one at the Father's right hand in heaven, and one in her cottage in the hollow.
Annie Graham
Rose had not wept more passionately than she did now as she kissed the note and
wish she were one half as good as Annie Graham.
But I am not, she said, and never shall be.
Tell her to keep praying until Will comes home again.
I will tell her, returned the widow, but wouldn't it be well enough to try what you can do
at it yourself and not leave it all for her?
Try what I can do at praying, Rose exclaimed.
I can't do anything, only the few words I always say at night, and they have nothing in them
about Will.
Brought up like a heat.
then, muttered the widow, feeling within herself that to the names of her own sons and Captain
Carlton, William Mathers must now be added, when as was her daily custom she took her troubles
to one who has said, Cast your burdens upon the Lord, for he careth for you.
Will both remember your husband, Miss Graham and I? So don't fret yourself to death, she said
soothingly, as Rose broke into a fresh burst of tears.
It isn't him so much, Rose sobbed, though that is terrible and it will kill me I'm
most know, but there's something else that
a great deal worse than that.
At least mother has made me think
it is, though I can't quite see how
having one's brother join the rebel army
is so very bad.
Rose forgot her promise of secrecy
just as her mother might have known she
would. The story of the
Carlton disgrace was told and
perfectly aghast, the horrified
widow listened to it.
"'Your brother a rebel!' she almost
shrieked. A good-for-nothing ill-begotten rebel.
I thought you said he was a captain of a company.
And mentally, the widow struck from her list of names that of poor scandalized Tom,
that very moment perspiring at every pore as he went through with his evening drill within the federal camp.
No, no, Rose cried vehemently.
Not Tom.
I have another brother, a younger one.
Jimmy, we call him.
Did you never hear of Jimmy, who ran away more than a year ago?
Never.
And the staunch patriot of a widow pursed up her thin,
with an expression which plainly said the Carlton family had fallen greatly in her estimation,
in spite of all Tom had said of Isaac.
Rose, however, was not good at reading expressions, and taking it for granted the widow wanted
to hear all about it, she told her what she knew, marveling much at the rigid silence her auditor
maintained.
"'Isn't it shameful?' she asked when she had finished.
"'Shameful, yes. I hope he'll be catched and hung higher than Haman. I'll furnish the rope to hang him.
was the indignant widow's reply and air rose could quite make out what ailed her she had said good afternoon and banging the door behind her was hurrying off muttering to herself something wrong in there bringing up needn't tell me i'd like to see my boys turnin traitor the rascal
and as by this time the widow had reached the shop where she was to stop for burning fluid she turned into the little store and catching up the can with a jerk spilt a part of its contents upon her clean gingham dress and then hurried on
off again with rapid strides toward the cottage in the hollow.
The Carlton's Tom and all were below par in her opinion, and kept sinking lower and lower
until she reached the cottage where she gave vent to her wrath as follows.
"'A pretty, how do you do up to Miss Martha says?
Her brother, Jim, has joined the cowardly sneaking low-lived contemptible rebels
and is coming on to take Washington.
The scallywag.
If things go on at this rate, I'll join the all.
army myself and tire and feather every one on them. Needn't tell me. Annie was no lover of gossip,
and knowing that the widow was terribly excited, she made no reply except to pass her a letter
bearing the Washington postmark. This had the desired effect, and utterly oblivious of Jimmy,
the widow tore open Isaac's letter, in which he spoke of Captain Carlton as being very kind to him,
and very popular with the soldiers. I would fight for him till the very last, Isaac wrote. He
has been so good to me, always noticing me with a bow when he comes into our regiment as he
sometimes does, and when he can, speaking to me a pleasant word. He knows I sought his sister's
wood, for I told him so. It seems so mean like to be passing myself off better than I am, and
you know a soldier's dress doesn't prove a chap mightily, giving him kind of a dandy air. Why, even
Harry Baker and Bill look like gentlemen, though Harry gets drunk awfully and has been in the guardhouse twice.
But as I was saying, Captain Carlton didn't appear to think it a bit less of me,
though he struck me on the shoulder and laughed kind of queer when I said why I told him I saw
Mrs. Matherswood, and the next day I saw him talking with our colonel and heard something
about Sergeant and Isaac Sims and too young to be expedient.
Then, when I met him again, he asked me wasn't I twenty-one, in such a way that I knew
he wanted me to tell him yes.
But, Mother, I thought of that prayer we said together, the morning I came away,
"'Lead us nod into temptation, and I couldn't tell a lie,
"'though the answer stuck in my throat and choked me so,
"'but I out with it at last.'
"'I said, no, sir, I was only eighteen last Thanksgiving,
"'and then his face had the same look at war
"'when I told him I was a wood-sawyer.
"'And so I suppose you'll be nineteen next Thanksgiving,' he said, adding,
"'you don't know what you lost by telling the truth so frankly,
"'but the moral gain is much greater than the loss.'
You are a brave boy, Isaac Sims, and worthy of being a second George Washington.
I do like him so much.
Can't you send him something, Mother, if it's nothing more than the nice cough candy you used to make
or some of that poke ointment?
I notice he coughs occasionally, and I heard him say his feet were sore.
I'd like to give him something, just to see his handsome white teeth when he laughed and said,
Thank you, my boy.
Oh, I would almost die for Captain Carlton.
surely after reading this the widow could feel no more animosity against the Carlton's on account of Jimmy's sin
Every family must have a black sheep she said to Annie though where hers was she could not tell
It surely was not John nor Eli nor Isaac so she guessed it must have been the girl baby that died before it was born and for whom she shed so many tears
She shouldn't do it again she'd bet for if it had lived it would most likely have cut up some rusty or other just as Jim
Carlton had. Married Bill Baker like as not. And with this consolatory reflection,
the widow took up Isaac's letter for a second time, resolving in her own mind that she would
send that Captain Carlton something if she set up nights to make it. I'm glad my boy didn't
tell a lie, she whispered softly to herself, as she came again to that part of the letter,
poor, weak human nature creeping in with the same thought, and suggesting how grand it would be
to have him, Sergeant Sims, with the increased wages.
per month it would have brought.
This was the old Adam counseling
within her, while the new Adam said,
Better never to be promoted than lose
his integrity. And with a
silent prayer for the boy who would not tell
a lie, the widow folded up the letter
and then repeated to Annie the particulars of
Jimmy Carlton in a much milder manner
than she would have done an hour before.
So much good little
acts of kindness do, stretching on
link after link, until they reach a point
from which they recoil in blessings on the doer's
head. Thus,
Captain Carlton's friendly words to Isaac Sims
were the direct means of saving his mother and sister
from the bitter prejudice the Rockland people
in their then excitable state might have felt toward them.
Had widow Sims told the story of Jimmy in the spirit
she surely would have told it had it not been for Isaac's timely letter.
This, together with a little judicious caution from Annie,
changed her tactics,
and though she that very night had several opportunities
for telling how Miss Mathers's brother was a rebel
and that Miss Mathers couldn't see the mighty harm in it if he was,
she kept it to herself, speaking only of the noble Tom,
so kind to her boy, Isaac.
End of Chapter 5. Chapter 6 and 7 of Rose Mather,
A Tale by Mary Jane Holmes.
This Librevox recording is in the public domain.
6. Finding something to do for the war.
The next morning the Mather carriage
containing both Mrs. Carlton and Rose
drove down the hollow
and stopped in front of Annie's gate.
Mrs. Carlton's business was with widow Sims
who was mixing bread in the kitchen,
and who experienced considerable trepidation
when told the Grand Boston Lady
had asked for her.
I'm pesky glad I ain't tattled about Jim,
she thought, as washing the flour from her hands
and hooking her sleeves at the wrist
she entered the sitting room and with a low curtsy,
waited to hear the lady's errand.
Mrs. Carlton had come with a request
that the widow should not repeat what Rose had so heedlessly told her the previous night.
You may think it's strange that I care so much, Mrs. Carlton said,
and until you are placed in similar circumstances,
you cannot understand how I shrink from having it known that my son could fall so low
or do so great injustice to his early training.
If the widow had possessed one particle of prejudice against the Carlton's,
this would have disarmed her entirely, but she did not.
Isaac's letter had swept that all away, and she replied that
Jimmy's secret was as safe with her as if locked up in an iron chest.
I did feel blazing mad at you, though, for a spell,
she said, for I thought you might have brung him up better,
but this cured me entirely, and she handed Isaac's letter to Rose,
bidding her read it aloud.
Noble boy, you must be proud of him,
was Mrs. Carlton's comment, while Rose ever impulsive seized upon a new idea.
It would be so nice for the Rockland ladies to fit up a box of things and send to Company R,
reserving a corner for Tom and Will.
She should do it anyway on her own responsibility if nobody chose to help her,
and she whispered to Annie that George should have a large share of the delicacies she would provide.
You may send that candy to Tom if you choose, she said to the widow,
though I think cod liver oil would be better, and the ointment too,
only it mustn't sit near my preserves, for fear the two will get mixed.
rose had found something to do and so absorbed was she in a plan which everyone approved that she forgot to cry all the time for will as she had fully intended doing
up the streets and down she went sometimes walking sometimes riding but always in a flurry always excited now tumbling over dry goods boxes in quest of one large enough to hold the many articles preparing in rockland for the then ill-fed suffering soldiers of the thirteenth regiment now up at the express office bargaining about the express-office bargaining about the express-office
which she meant to bear herself, and now down at the hall, adroitly smoothing over little
bickrings frequently arising among the ladies assembled there, concerning the article sent in,
some declaring the fried apple pies brought by Mrs. Baker should not go, nor yet the round balls
of Dutch cheese she had saved sour milk two weeks to make, just because Billy relished it so
much, long with apple turnovers.
Poor old Mrs. Baker! It was the best she could do, and when Rose saw how the tears came at
the prospect of Billy's losing the feast she had prepared with so much care,
she declared that she should go if she had to send it in a separate box.
It was just so with the widow's poke ointment,
some of the ladies wondering what necks would be brought in and what it could be for.
Rose knew exactly what twas for.
Tom had corns, and the despised salve was for him,
so that should go if nothing else.
But when Susan Ruggles-Simbs, her thoughts intent on John,
brought in a round of roasted veal, which her mother-in-law,
said would be in a most lively condition
by the time it reached Washington.
Rose, after suggesting that it'd be packed
in ice and put in a refrigerator, yielded
for once, and persuaded the girl
wife to carry home her veal, which
would most surely be spoiled ere John came
to see it. You can
write him a nice long letter, she
said, when she saw how disappointed Susan
looked. You can tell him your intentions
were good until we old experienced
married ladies persuaded you out of them.
So Susan, with a
sigh, carried back her nice stuff
roast, the widow muttering in an aside tone. That's all them shiftless, rugglaces know.
Might as well send maggots and done with it.
It was a strange medley that huge box contained, for every member of Company R was remembered,
thanks to the indefatigable Rose who procured a list of the names, and when she found any
without friends in that immediate vicinity, she supplied the deficiency from her own store of
luxuries. Of course, Will and Tom fared the best, while next to them came Lieutenant Graham
and Isaac Sims, Rose writing a tiny note to the latter, telling him how much she liked him for
speaking so of Tom, and sending him a pair of her fine linen sheets because she couldn't
think of anything else and thought these would be cool to sleep in on hot summer nights.
Dear Little Rose, how fast she grew in popularity, the people wondering they had never
seen before how good she was, and imputing some portion of her present interest to the presence
of her mother, who had made arrangements to remain for an indefinite length of time in Rockland,
and who, far less demonstrative than her active daughter,
did much by her sensible advice to keep the wheel in motion,
and rose from overdoing the matter so zealously taken in hand.
The box was packed at last. Every chink and crevice was full.
Mrs. Baker's Dutch cheese and fried apple pies were there,
wrapped by Rose Mather in innumerable folds of paper,
tied around with yards of the strongest twine she could find,
and safely stowed away where they could not be harmed.
widow Sims' ointment, too, and the candy she had made occupied a corner,
together with her daguerre type sent to Isaac and a letter to Captain Carlton.
That letter was a mammoth undertaking, but the widow felt at her duty to write it,
groaning and sweating, and consulting Perry's old leather-bound dictionary
for every word of which she felt at all uncertain,
and driving poor Annie nearly distracted with asking,
if this were grammar, and if that were too lovin-like, for a widder to send a widower.
Not a little amused Annie gave the required advice, smiling in spite of herself as she read the note the widow handed her in which ran as follows.
My dear Mr. Captain Carlton, I can't help puttin' deer before your name. You seem so nigh to me since Isaac told how kind you was to him.
I'm nothing but a shrivel dried-up widder, fifty-odd years old, but I've got a mother's heart big enough to take you in with my other boys.
I know you are a nice clever man,
but whether you're a good one as I call good, I don't know,
though being you come from Boston I'm afraid you're a Unitarian,
and I'll never quit praying for you till I know.
That's about all I can do, for I'm poor a most as jobs turkey.
But if there's any shirts or trousers or the like of that wants me make
and let me know, for I don't believe your mother or sister is great at soan.
Mrs. Marthers ain't I know, though as nice a little body as ever
drawed the breath. Your wife is dead, too, they say, and that comes hard again. I know just how
that feels, for my man died eighteen years ago last October, a few weeks before Isaac was born.
I send you some intment for your feet and some bits of linen rags to bind round your toes,
also some red pepper candy in my likeness to Isaac. He'll let you see it if you want to.
It don't peer to me that my eyes is as dull as that, or my little,
so puckered up, but we can't see as others see us, and I ain't an atom proud.
Heaven bless you for being kind to Isaac, and if an old woman's prayers and blessings is of any
use, you may be sure you have mine. If you come to battle, be so good as to oversee him, won't you,
and get him put way back if you can. Excuse haste and a bad pen. Yours with regret,
Mrs. Belinda Sims.
This was the widow's letter,
with Tom's parcel to Washington, where the box was greeted by the company with exclamations
of joy, and could those who sent it have seen the eager, happy faces of each one as he found
he was remembered. They would have felt doubly repaid for all the trouble and annoyance it had cost
them. Only one growl of dissatisfaction was heard, and that, from Harry Baker, who with a muttered
oath, exclaimed as he undid his paper parcel, "'Apple! Turnovers by, Jing!
Sour than swill and moldier than the rot!
Oh, Bill, got some, too, I see.
What in fury is this?
Dutch cheese as I'm alive.
Make good bullets for secesh.
So here goes.
And the next moment there whizzed through the air
the cheese poor old Mrs. Baker had found so hard to smuggle in.
The apple pies followed next,
and then the reckless Harry amused himself with cheering at Bill,
who, after carefully stowing away in his pocket
the large, strong twine Rose Mather had bound
around the paper parcel, seated himself,
upon the ground and was munching away at his pie, not because he liked it, but because his mother
had sent it, and Billy's mother was dearer to him now than when he was at home.
Meanwhile, in another part of the camp, Tom Carleton was opening his parcel, while around him
stood a group of officers, some his personal friends whom he had known in Boston.
There must be some mistake, he said, as he dobed his white fingers with a sticky candy.
But Rose had packed his things in a separate box and directed at her
There could be no mistake, and he continued his investigations, coming next upon the widow's
picture which rose had carelessly placed in his parcel.
It would be impossible to describe Tom's look of amazement and perplexity as his eye fell upon
the face which looked out upon him from its glass covering.
Precise, puckered, and prim with the decided best clothes there.
Who could it be?
Tom asked this question aloud, while his companions laughingly declared it some Lady
love he had left behind, suggesting at last that he read the note which lay just beneath it,
as that might explain the mystery. So Tom did read it, with a fellow officer looking over his
shoulder and reading too. But there was too much of the anxious, genuine mother-tone about that
letter to cause more than three or four hardy laughs at the expense of Tom and the widow.
Tom knew now for whom the picture was intended, and he carried it to Isaac, but it was many a day
Tom Carlton heard the last of Mrs. Belinda Sims.
Numerous were the thanks sent by Company R to Rose
for her kind thoughtfulness in setting afloat a plan which brought them so much good,
and Rose, as she received the messages, wished it was all to be done again,
and wondered what she could find to do next.
One of Will's letters told her at last what to do.
She could be kind to the soldiers if there were any in Rockland.
She could visit their families, speak to them words of comfort
and supply if needful their necessities.
this was just what suited her and she commenced her task with a right good-will startling many an awkward youth wearing a soldier's dress by accosting him in the street inquiring into his history and frequently ending the interview by offering him her soft white hand
and leaving in his rougher one a piece of money which affected him less than the brightness of the brilliant eyes he remembered long after the silver was spent every soldier's wife and every soldier's mother was looked after and the mother carriage was oftener seen in the muddy hollow and by
lanes in Rockland than at the gates of more pretentious dwellings. Harry's mother and
Bills and others of her standing blessed the little lady, for the sunshine brought so often
to their squalid homes, while Annie and Widow Sims prayed from a full heart that no evil
should befall the husband or the brother of the heroic rose.
7. The Battle
Brightly, beautifully the Sabbath morning broke over all the hills of the Northland,
covering them with floods of rosy light, burnishing the
forest trees with sheens of gold, and cresting each tall spire with colors which seemed
born of paradise. So radiantly bright they looked, flashing from their lofty resting place,
and glancing off across the valleys where the fields of waving corn and summer wheat were growing.
To the westward, too, where prairie on prairie stretches on into almost interminable space,
the same July's sun was shining as quietly, as peacefully as if in the hearts of men there
burned no bitter feeling of fierce and vindictive hate. No thirsting for each other's
blood. Oh, how calm! How still it was that Sunday morning both east and north and west,
and as the sun rose higher in the heavens, how soothingly the bells rang out their musical chimes.
From New England's templed hills to the far-off shores of Oregon, the echoes rose and fell,
ceasing only whencease the tramp of the many feet hastening up to worship God in his appointed way.
Old and young, rich and poor, father and mother, sister and brother, husband and wife,
assembling together to keep the holy day, that best day of the seven, praying not so much for
their own sins forgiven as for the loved ones gone to war, the dear ones far away, and little,
little dreaming as they prayed how the same sun stealing so softly up the church's aisle,
and shining on the church's wall, was even then looking down on a far different scene,
a scene of carnage, blood, and death. For off to the southward, near where the waters of the Potomac
ripple past the grave of our nation's hero,
another concourse of people was gathered
together. There, Sunday bell,
the cannons roar. Their Sunday
hymn, the battle cry.
Long before the earliest Robin had
trailed its mat and song, they had been on the move,
their bristling bayonets glittering in the brilliant
moonlight, like the December frost, as with
regular, even tread they kept on their winding way,
knowing not if the pale stars watching their course
so pityingly as it were would ever shine on them again.
Onward, onward, onward, onward still they pressed, over the hills, through the ravines,
down the valleys, across the fields, till the same sun which shone so softly on their distant homes
rose also over the federal fly, as it has been aptly termed, moving onward to the web which lay
beyond, so well-concealed and so devoid of sound that none could guess that the treacherous woods
wearing so cool, so inviting a look, were sheltering a mighty expectant host, watching as
eagerly for the advancing foe as ever ambushed spider waited for its diluted prey backward backward stretched the confederate army line after line rank after rank battalion after battalion until in numbers it more than quadrupled that handful of men steadily moving on
from out their leafy covert the enemy peered exulting that the fortunes of the great republic their wylam mother were so surely within their power and pausing for a time in sheer wantonness just as a kitten sports
with a mouse she has already captured and knows cannot escape.
Onward, onward, onward swept the Federal troops.
Their polished arms and glittering uniforms flashing in the morning sunlight,
just as the flag for which they fought waved in the morning breeze.
They were weary and worn, and their lips were parched with feverish thirst,
for hours had passed since they had tasted food or water.
But not for this did they tarry.
There was no faltering in their ranks, no faintly beating heart,
no wild yearning to be away, no timid shrinking from what the woods now just before them
might hold in store, and when the whisper ran along the lines that the enemy was in view,
there was not felt save joy that the long suspense was ended and the fray about to commence.
There was a halt in the front ranks, and while they stand there thus, let us look once more
upon those whom we have known. Just where the good-humoured faces of the Irish regiment
and the tall caps of the Highlanders are perceptible, the 13th appears in view,
our company marching decorously on, no lagging, no faltering, no cowards there,
though almost every heart had in it some thought of home and the dear ones left behind.
Prayers were said by lips unused to pray,
and who shall tell how many records of sins forgiven were that morning written in heaven.
Bibles too were pressed to throbbing hearts,
and to none more closely than to George Graham's broad chest.
He had prayed that morning in the clear moonlight, and by the same moonlight he had tried to read a line in Annie's well-worn Bible, opening to where God promises to care for the widow and the fatherless.
Was it ominous that passage? Did it mean that he, so strong, so vigorous, so full of life, should bite the dust ere many hours were done?
He could not believe it. He was too full of hope for that. He could not die with Annie at home alone, so he buttoned her Bible over his whole.
heart and prayed that if a bullet struck him it might be there, fondly hoping that it would break
its force. There was a shadow on his handsome face, and it communicated itself to Isaac Sims,
who was glancing so stealthily at him, and guessing of what he was thinking.
Isaac too had prayed in the moonlight, and he too had thought,
What if I should be killed, wondering if his mother ever would forget her soldier boy,
even though she might not weep over his nameless grave. This to Isaac was the hardest thought
of all.
The boy that would not tell a lie for the sake of promotion was not afraid to die,
but he preferred that it should not be there midpiles of bloody slain.
He would rather death should come to him in the humble attic,
for he had lain so oft and listened to the patter of the rain on the roof above,
or feigned to be asleep when his mother stole noiselessly across the threshold
to see if he were covered from the cold and shielded from the snow,
which sometimes found an entrance through a crevice in the wall.
Tis strange, when we are in danger what flights our fancy often
takes, gathering up the minutest details of our past life, and spreading them out before us
with startling distinctness. So Isaac, with possible death in advance, thought of his past life.
Of every object connected with his home, from the grass plat in the rear, where his mother
bleached her clothes in spring, to the blue and white-checked blanket hung round his attic bed
to protect him from the winter storm. That widow, so stern, so harsh, so sharp to almost
everyone, had been the tenderest of parents to him, and a tear glistened on the cheek of the
fair-haired boy as he remembered the only time he ever was hateful to her. He had asked her
forgiveness for it, and she surely would not recall it when she read the letter Eli or John would
send bearing the fatal line, Mother, poor Isaac is dead. He knew they would call him,
poor Isaac, for though they sometimes teased him as his mother's great girl baby, they petted
him quite as much as she, only in a different way, and he felt now that both would step
between him and the bullet they thought would harm him. Eli would anyway, but John perhaps would
hesitate as he now loved Susan best. Isaac was proud of his brothers, and he glanced admiringly
at them as they marched side by side, keeping even step just as they did down Main Street with
his mother and Susan looking on. One now was thinking of Susan, and one of his widowed mother.
Close by Isaac walked Bill, quiet and subdued. He had not prayed that morning. He never prayed. He
but when he saw Isaac kneeling on his blanket he had said to him,
"'Managed to get in a word or two for me and Hal. We need it, mercy knows.'
And surely, if ever poor mortal, needed a prayer, it was Hal, as his brothers styled him.
Half stupefied with the vile liquor he had constantly managed to get he to
hudged on, boasting of what he could do. Only give him a chance and he'd lick the entire
secession army. He'd like to see the ball that could kill him. He was good at dodging. He
show him a thing or two in the way of fight.
He'd take the tuck out of the southern gentleman.
Yes, he would.
And so he went, thoughtlessly boasting on to death.
Will Mather was not there.
Indisposition had detained him at Washington,
and with a hearty Godspeed he had sent his comrades on their way,
lamenting that he too could not join them,
and bidding his brother-in-law do some fighting for him.
At the head of his company, Captain Carlton moved,
firm, erect, and dignified, as if born to command, he did full justice to the Carlton name of which he was justly proud.
But his face was paler than its want, and a tinge of sadness rested upon it as his regiment halted at last in front of what was supposed to be the hidden foe.
Thomas Carleton had wept bitter tears when he laid his merry to rest beneath South Carolina's sunny skies,
and had thought he could never be reconciled to the loss, but he was half glad now that she was dead, for she was born of Southern blood.
and he would rather she should not know the errand which had brought him to Virginia, where first he met and loved her.
Rather she should not know how he had come to war with her people.
There was another thought, too, which made him sad that July day.
The green, beautiful wood standing there so silently before him
probably sheltered more than one with whom he had in bygone days struck the friendly hand
and bandied the friendly joke, for his home was once in Richmond,
and there were there those who once held no small place in his heart.
and they were dear to him yet he was not fighting against them personally he was contending only for his nation's rights his country's honor he bore no malice toward his southern brethren and like many of our staunchest bravest northern men he would even then have met them more than half-way with terms of reconciliation
He knew they were no race of bloodthirsty demons, as some fanatics had madly termed them.
They were men, most of them, like himself, warm-hearted, impulsive men, generous almost to a
fault in peace, but firm and terrible in war. Tom had lived among them, had shared their
hospitalities, had seen them in their various phases, and making allowance for the vast
difference which education and habits of society make in one's opinions, he saw many
points wherein the North had misunderstood their actions, and not made due concessions when they
might have done so without yielding one iota of their honor. But time for concession was over now.
Political fanatics had stirred up the mass of the people till not but blood could wash away
the fancied wrong, and they were there that Sabbath mourned to spill it. Tom, however, did not know
that the green silent wood sheltered his brother, for his mother had purposely withheld from him
the fact that Jimmy had joined the Southern Army.
She knew the struggle it had cost him to take up arms against the people he liked so much,
and she would not willingly add to his burden by telling him of Jimmy's sin.
And it was well she did not, for had he known how near he was to Jimmy,
he could not have stood there so unmoved, awaiting the first booming gun
which should herald the opening of the battle.
It came at last, a bellowing thunderous roar, whose echoes shook the hills for miles
as the hissing shell went plowing through the air bursting harmlessly at last just beyond its destined mark.
The enemy were in no hurry to retort, for a deep silence ensued,
broken air long by another heavy gun, which did its work more thoroughly than its predecessor had done.
For where several breathing souls had been, there was not, left save the bleeding,
mutilated trunks of what were once human forms.
The battle had commenced.
Sherman's brigade in which was the New York 13th did its part of it,
nobly, overrunning in its headlong charges battery after battery, and wrecking little of
the shafts of death falling so thick and fast.
Louder and more deafening grew the battle din, hoarser and heavier the battle thunder,
denser deeper the battle smoke, dimming the brightness of that Sabbath morn.
Louder, shriller grew the gaelic scream, fiercer rose the Celtic cry.
Wilder rang the yells of the 13th, as its members plunged into the thickest of the fight
their demoniacal shouts appalling the hearts of the foe far more than the reign of shots so vigorously
kept up and causing them to flee us from a pack of fiends. Steady in its place, George Graham's
giant form was seen. No thought of Annie now. No thought of home. No thought of Bible buttoned over the
heart. Thoughts only of the fray and victory. Not far away and where the fight was thickest,
the widow's boys, Eli and John, stood firm as granite rocks. The beaded soon.
sweat-dropping from their burning brows, begrimed with battle-smoke, as with unflinching nerve
and hands that trembled not, they took their aims, seeing more than one fall before their sure
fire. White as the winter snow one boyish face gleamed amid the excited throng. The fair hair
pushed back from the girlish forehead, and the scorching sun falling upon the unchalted head,
for Isaac's cap had been shot away, and the ball which shot it lay swimming in the dark-life
blood of poor Harry Baker, just behind, and just two inches.
inches taller than the widow's youngest born. Poor Harry! He had done his best to keep the
promise made so boastfully. In all the 13th regiment there was not one who played a braver part
than he, firing off with every gun a timely joke, which raised a smile even in that dreadful
hour. But Harry's work was done, and Mrs. Baker had but one boy now, for her first
born lay upon the ground so blackened and disfigured, with the thick brains slowly oozing from
his mangled head, and the purple gore pouring from his lips that only those who saw him fall
could guess that it was Harry. Poor Harry! We say it again, sadly, reverently, for rude and reckless
though he was, he fell fighting for his country. And to all who perished thus, we owe a debt of
gratitude, a mead of praise. Sacred then be the memory of those whose graves are with the slain
far away beneath Virginia's sky, and sacred to the memory of poor Harry Baker.
his own worst enemy he lived his life's brief span and died at last a soldier's death shot plumb through the upper story won't the old woman row it though was bill's characteristic comment as the whizzing and the death shriek met his ear and the falling bleeding figure met his view
spite of his jeering words there was a keen pang in billy's heart as he shrank away from the gory mass he knew had been his brother a sudden upheaving of something in his throat and a blur before his vision
as he began to realize what it was to go to war.
But there was then no time to waste over a fallen brother.
The dread work must go on, and with the whispered words,
"'Poor Hal, I'll do the tender for you when we get the varmints licked.'
He marked the position by signs he could not miss,
and then pressed closer to his comrades saying as he did so.
"'Ake, Hell's a goner, shot right through his top knot
with a piece of your cap wedged in his skull.
If you'd been a little taller, you'd been scalped instead of,
Hal. So much you get for being stub.
Isaac shuddered involuntarily, but ere he could look back, the crowd behind pushed him forward,
and so he failed to see the ruin which but for his short stature would have come to him.
There were no marks upon him yet. Nothing saved the uncovered head to tell where he had been.
The balls which struck others passed him by, the wind they made, lifting occasionally his fair
hair but doing no other damage. Above, around, before, behind.
At right, at left, the grape-shot fell like hail, but left him all untouched, and Billy
grown timid since poor Harry's fate, press closer to the boy who would not tell a lie,
as if there were safety there.
Onward, onward they pressed, Isaac wondering sometimes how Tom Carlton fared, and looking again
in quest of their young Lieutenant Graham, still towering above them all in spite of Rose's prediction.
The ball for which he was the mark had not been fired yet, but it was coming.
An Alabamian volunteer had singled out that form, yelling exultingly as he saw it reel and totter like a broken reed.
They were well-matched in size, the two combatants, both splendid marks, as Rose had said,
and Bill Baker's sure aim froze the laugh upon the Alabamian's lips and sent him staggering to the ground,
just as Isaac received his captain orders to lead the fainting wounded George to a place of comparative safety.
It's only my arm they've shattered, George whispered, glancing south.
sadly at the disabled limb over which Isaac's tears were falling.
Will it kill me think?
Was the next remark, prompted by a thought of Annie.
Isaac did not believe it would, and with all a woman's tenderness
he bounded up and held his canteen to the lips of the fainting, weary man, whispering,
Water, boy, water!
Isaac had not, like many others, thrown his canteen away,
and he gave freely to the thirsty George,
who with each draught felt his spouse grow stronger,
while his eyes kindled with fresh zeal as the nethered,
noise of the battle grew louder and seemed to be coming nearer. The onslaught was terrible now.
Cannon after cannon belched forth its terrific thunder. Ball after ball sped on its deadly track.
Battery after battery opened its blazing fire. Shell after shell cut the summer air and burst with
murderous hiss. Shout after shout rent the smoky sky, shriek after shriek went down with the rushing
wind. Officer after officer bit the dust. Rank after rank was broken up.
Soul after soul went to the bar of God, and then there came a pause.
The firing ceased, the stifling smoke rolled gradually away and showed a dreadful sight.
Men mutilated and torn till not a vestige of their former looks was left to tell who they had been.
Mingled together in one frightful mass, the dead and dying lay, smiles, wreathing the livid lips of some,
and frowns, disfiguring others. Arms, hands and feet, heads, fingers, turn.
toes and clots of human hair dripping red with blood were scattered over the field.
Parts of the living mass we saw but a few hours are gone, moving on so hopefully beneath the
morning moonlight, like leaves of the forest when autumn had blown. They lay there now, their
mangled remains crying loudly to heaven for vengeance on the heads of those who brought
this curse upon us.
End of Chapter 6 and 7.
Chapter 8 of Rose Mather, A Tale by Mary Jane Holmes.
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Eight. The retreat.
The day was ours, nobly one with sweat and toil and blood,
and the brave men who won it were thinking of the laurels so laboriously earned,
when suddenly the entire scale was turned,
and ere they knew what they were doing, the tired, jaded troops
found themselves rushing headlong from the battlefield,
never so much as casting a backward glance,
but each striving to outrun the other,
and so escape from they knew not why.
What? How that panic happened, no one can tell. Some charged it to the reckless conduct of a band
of regulars sent back for ammunition, and others, upon the idle lookers-on, the curious ones who had come
to see the rebels whipped, and who at the first intimation of defeat joined in the general stampede,
making the confusion worse and adding greatly to the fright of the flying multitude.
It was a strange retreat our soldiers made. All law and order were at an end, company mixed with
company, regiment with regiment, and together they rushed headlong down the hill, many in their
dismay, fording the creek, regardless of the shot and shell sent after them by the astonished
foe, now really in pursuit. Some there were, however, who made the retreat more leisurely, and among
these, Bill Baker. Remembering the mark he had fixed in his own mind, he sought among the slain
for Harry, finding him at last, trampled and crushed by the flying troops, and wholly
unrecognizable by any save a brother's eye.
Bill knew him, however, in a moment,
but there was no time now to do the tender as he had purpose doing.
There was danger in tarrying long,
and with a shudder Bill bent over the mangled form,
and with his jackknife severed a lock of matted blood-wet hair,
taking also from the pockets whatever a value they contained,
not from any avaricious motive,
but rather from a feeling that the rebel should get nothing save the body.
"'A darn sight good hell's carcass will do ye?' he said,
shaking his fist defiantly in the direction of the foe.
But the worst is your own this hot weather if you don't bury him decently.
Then turning to the lifeless score, he continued.
Poor Hal.
I'm kind of sorry you are dead.
You had now and then a streak of good about you,
and I'm sorry we ever quarreled.
I be upon my word.
And I wish you could hear me say so.
But you can't, knocked into a cocked-up hat as you are, poor hell.
If there was a spot on your face as big,
as a sixpence that wasn't smashed into a jelly, I'd kiss you just for the old woman's sake,
but I swan if I can stomach it. I might your hand, perhaps, and bending lower Bill's lips
touched the clammy fingers of the dead. There was something in the touch which brought to Bill's
heart a pang similar to the one he felt when he saw his brother fall, and rising to his feet,
he said mournfully, "'Good-bye, old Hal, I'm going now. I wish you might go too. Goodbye,' and wiping
away a tear which felt much out of place on his rough cheek, Bill walked away, saying to himself,
"'Poor Hal, I didn't suppose I had such a hankering for him. Didn't suppose I cared for nobody.
But such a day's work as this finds the soft spot in a feller's heart if he's got any.
Poor Hal. Mother'll nigh about raise the rough.'
Thus soliloquizing Bill moved on, not rapidly as others did, but rather leisurely than otherwise.
He seemed to be benumbed and did not care much
what became of himself. Waiting the stream, he trudged on, now wondering,
What the plague they all were running for when they got the rascals lit? And again anathematizing
the shot which fell around him. Suppose I care for you? He said hitting a spent ball a kick.
Suppose I care if I do get killed. Better do that than to run. Then, reflecting that to be shot in
the back was not considered a distinguished mark of honor, he hastened his lagging steps until the
shelter of the wood was reached. Bill was very tired and feeling comparatively safe, determined not
to travel farther until you'd had some rest. Hunting out a thick clump of underbrush near a stream of
water, where he would be sheltered from observation, he crawled into its midst, and was ere long,
sleeping soundly, wholly oblivious to the strange sights and sounds around him as squad after squad
of soldiers hurried by. Meanwhile, George Graham was sitting faint and weary beneath the tree when the
first token of the retreat met his view.
See, they are running, Isaac said, grasping his sound arm in summer fright.
Let us run, too.
You lean on me, and I'll lead you safely through.
With a bitter groan, George attempted to rise, but sank back again from utter exhaustion.
A species of apathy had stolen over him, and he would rather stay there and die, he said,
than make the attempt to flee.
He did not think of Annie until Isaac, bending down, said entreatingly,
It will be horrid for Annie to know you died when you might have got away.
Try for Annie's sake, can't you?
Yes, for Annie's sake he could, and at the mere mention of her name, the dim eye kindled,
and the pale cheeks glowed while the wounded man made another effort to rise.
He succeeded this time, and with slow steps the two commence their retreat.
It was a novel sight, that tall, muscular man towering head and shoulders above the frail boy
upon whom he leaned heavily for support,
the generous Isaac, who would not leave him there alone
even though he knew the danger he was incurring for himself.
They'll treat us decent if we're taken prisoners, won't they? Think?
He asked as the possibility of such a calamity was suggested to his mind.
Not till then had George thought of that.
They would not murder a wounded man, he was sure,
but they might take him prisoner, and death itself was almost preferable
to days of captivity and sickening suspense away from Annie.
The very idea roused him into life, and with a superhuman effort he hastened on,
almost outrunning Isaac, until they, too, had reached the friendly woods where Bill had already
taken shelter.
Just then, a loaded wagon passed them its frightened excited occupants paying no heed to Isaac's
cry for help, until one whose uniform showed him to be an officer sprang up, exclaiming,
The Strong must give place to the wounded.
I can find my way to Washington better than that bleeding man, and Tom Carleton.
seized the reins with a grasp which brought the foaming steeds nearly to their haunches.
The vehicle was stopped, and the next instant Tom had leaped upon the ground, spraining his
ankle severely, and reeling in his first pain against the astounded Isaac, who cried out joyfully,
"'Oh, Captain Carlton, save Lieutenant Graham, won't you? We can walk you and I.'
Tom had not the least suspicion as to whom he was befriending until then, and now unmindful
of his own aching foot, he assisted George to the seat he had vacated, and why,
the party without a pang as they drove rapidly away, leaving him alone with Isaac.
We'll do the best we can, my boy, he said cheerily as he met the confiding, inquiring
look bent upon him by Isaac, who relieved of his former charge felt now like leaning for
protection and guidance upon Captain Carlton.
Alas, his hopes were short-lived, for a groan just then escaped from Tom's white
lips, wrung out by the agony it caused him to step.
Isaac saw him stagger when he sprang to the ground, and comprehending the case at once, he resumed his burden of care, and kneeling before Tom, who had sunk upon the grass, he rubbed the swollen limb as tenderly as Rose herself could have done.
If we could only find some water, Tom said, scanning the appearance of the woods and judging at last by indications which seldom failed, that there must be some not very far away.
There where the bushes are, he said, pointing toward the very spot where Bill lay snoring,
and dreaming of robbing Parson Goodwin's orchard in company with Hal.
There must be water there, and human beings, too, for I hear singing, don't you?
Isaac listened till he too caught a strain of melody, as sad and low as if it were a funeral dirge
someone was trilling there.
What can it mean? Tom said.
Lend me your hand, my boy, and I'll soon find out.
It was a harder task to move than he anticipated, for the ankle was swelling rapidly and
bearing the least weight upon it made the pain intolerable.
Leaning on Isaac's shoulder, he managed to make slow progress toward the stream bubbling
so deliciously among the grass, and toward the music growing more and more distinct.
It was reached at last, and the mystery was solved.
Leaning against a tree was a Confederate officer, whose white face told plainer than words could tell
that never again would he be seen in the pine-shadowed home he had left so unwillingly
but a few months before.
Beside him upon the grass lay a boy, scarcely more than twelve years old, a drummer in a company of New England volunteers, both little hands shot entirely off, and the bleeding stumps bound carefully up in the handkerchief of the rebel, who had smothered his own dying anguish for the sake of comforting that poor child sobbing so piteously with pain.
I didn't suppose any of you was so good, or I shouldn't have come to fight you.
"'Oh, mother, mother, they do ache, oh.
My hands, my hands!' he said the cry of contrition, ending in a childish wail for the mother's sympathy never more to be experienced by that drummer-boy.
A smile flitted across the officer's face as he replied,
"'Had we all known each other better this war would not have been.'
And the noble foe held the boy closer to his bleeding bosom,
dipping his hand in the running stream and laving the feverish brow with the drops of
sweat were standing.
What makes you so kind to me?
The dying boy asked, his dim eyes gazing wistfully into the face bending so sadly over him.
I have a boy about your size.
Charlie, we call him, the stranger said.
And I am Charlie, too, the child replied.
Charlie Younglove, and my home is in New Hampshire, right on the mountainside.
Father is dead, and we are poor, mother and I.
That's why I came to the war.
I wanted to go to college sometime.
Do you think I'll die?
Will I never go home again?
Never see mother nor little sister either?
The soldier groaned and bent still closer to the drummer boy asking so earnestly if he must die.
How could he tell him yes, and yet he felt he must?
He would not be faithful to his trust if he withheld the knowledge
or failed to point that dying one to the only source of life.
Yes, Charlie.
He answered mournfully.
I think you will.
Are you afraid to die?
Did your mother never tell you of the Savior?
Yes, yes, oh yes, and the little face lighted up as at the mention of a dear friend.
I went to Sunday school and learned of Jesus there.
I've prayed to him every night and every morning since I came from home.
I promised her I would, mother, I mean, and she prays too.
She said so in her letter, right here in my jacket pocket.
Don't you want to read it?
The officer shook his head and Charley went on.
I didn't want to fight today because I knew it was Sunday, but I had to, or run away.
Will God punish me for that, think?
Will he turn me out of heaven?
No, no, oh no, and the North Carolinian tears dropped like rain upon the troubled face
upturned so anxiously to his.
God will never punish those who put their trust in Jesus.
I do, I do, I do, and the trembling voice grew fader adding after a pause.
You are a good man, I know.
You have been to Sunday school, I guess, and you prayed this morning, didn't you?
The soldier answered, yes, and the child continued.
You are dying, too, I most know, for there's blood all over us.
We'll go together, won't we?
you and I?
Will there be war in heaven?
Between the north and south?
No, Charlie.
There is not but peace in heaven.
And again the white hands allaved to the feverish forehead,
for the soldier would fain keep that little spirit
till his could join it in company,
and speed away to the land where trouble is unknown.
But it could not be, for Charlie's life was ebbing away.
The last sand was dropping from the glass.
closer the fair curly head nestled to its strange pillow, the bleeding bosom of a foe,
and the lips murmured incoherently of the elm trees growing near the mountain home,
and the mother watching daily for tidings of her boy.
Then the train of thought was changed and Charlie heard the bell,
just as it peeled that morning from his own village spire.
How grand the music was echoing through the Virginia woods,
and the blue eyes closed as with a whisper he asked,
don't you hear the old bell at home calling the folks to church?
It has stopped now, and the children are singing before the organ.
Glory to God on High.
I used to sing it with them.
Do you know it?
Gloria inexhaelis.
Yes, yes, the soldier eagerly replied, glad to find they were both of the same faith.
That little Yankee boy born among the Granite Hills,
and he a North Carolinian born on Southern St.
toil. Then, sing it, Charlie whispered. Sing it, won't you? Maybe I'll go to sleep. I don't
ache any now. With a mighty effort the soldier forced down his bitter grief, and in a low, mournful tone
commenced our beautiful church chant. The dying child for whom he sang, faintly joining with him
for a time, but the sweet voice ceased ere long. The curly head pressed heavier. The bleeding stumps
lay motionless, and, when the chant was ended, Charlie had gone to his last sleep.
Carefully, reverently, the North Carolinian laid the little form upon the grass, and kissed the
stiffened lips for the sake of the mother, who might never know just how Charlie died.
Just then footsteps sounded near. Tom and Isaac were coming, and the face of the soldier darkened
when he saw them, as if they had been intruders upon him and his beautiful dead. Their appearance, however,
disarmed him at once, and with a faint sense,
smile he pointed to his companion and said,
He was in the Federal Army two hours ago.
He has joined God's Army now.
Poor Charlie.
I would have done much to save him.
And with his hand he smoothed the golden hair
on which the flex of Western sunshine lay.
Isaac knew it was a rebel speaking to him,
and for an instant he experienced the same sensation
he had felt in the midst of the fray,
but only for an instant,
for though he knew it was a sworn foe,
he knew too that twas a noble-hearted man, and with a pitying glance at the dead, he asked if
aught could be done for the living. No, and the soldier smiled again. My passport is sealed. I am
going after Charlie. Some one of your men did his work well, see? And opening his coat he
disclosed the frightful wound from which the dark blood was gushing. Then in a few words he had
told them Charlie's story, adding in conclusion, you will escape.
you will go home again and if you do write to charlie's mother and tell her how he died tell her not to weep for him so early saved her letter is in his pocket take it as a guide were to direct your own
this he said to isaac for he saw tom was disabled isaac did as he was bidden and the letter from charlie's mother written but a week before was safely put away for future reference and then isaac did for the north carolina soldier with the north carolina soldier
had done for the Yankee boy.
He stanched the flowing blood as best he could,
bathed the throbbing head,
and held the cooling water to the dry,
parched lips, which feebly murmured their thanks.
The stranger saw the distinction there was
between his newfound friends,
and feeling that Tom was the one to whom he must appeal,
he turned his glazed eyes upon him and said,
"'Whose government will answer for all this?
Yours are the one that I acknowledge.'
"'Both, both,' Tom replied.
vehemently and the stranger rejoined yes both have much to answer for one for not yielding a little more and the other for its rash impetuosity
oh had we as a people know each other could we have guessed what brave kind hearts there were both north and south we should never have come to this but we believed our leaders too much trusted too implicitly in the dastardly falsehoods of a
lying press, and it has brought us here. For myself, I am willing to die in a good cause,
and of course I think ours is just, exactly as you think of yours. But who will care for my
poor Nellie I left in my southern home? What splendid victory can repay her for the husband
she will lose ere yonder son has set, or what can compensate my daughter, Maude, or my boy Charlie
for their loss?
The North Carolinian paused from exhaustion, and Tom essayed to comfort him.
Bending over him and supporting the drooping head which dropped lower and lower the lips whispering
of Nellie, of Maud and Charlie, and of the Tar River winding past their door, until there
seemed no longer life in that once vigorous frame.
He's dead, Isaac was about to say, but the words froze on his lips, for in the distance
he caught sight of two other men coming towards them.
One strong and powerful, the other slight and girlish-looking.
Tom saw them, too, in turning to Isaac, said hurriedly,
"'Run, my boy, and leave me.
They will think far more of capturing an officer than a private.
You can escape as well as not. Run, quick!'
But Isaac would share Captain Carlton's fate,
whatever that might be, and with a deep flush on his boyish face,
he drew nearer to his companion and stood gazing defiantly at the rebels as they came up.
"'We have nothing to hope,' Tom whispered,
but we'll sell ourselves dearly as possible,
and bracing himself against the tree he prepared to do battle,
refusing at once the bullying rebels' command.
Surrender or die?
Never, was the firm response,
and while Isaac engaged hand-to-hand with the smaller of the two,
Tom parried skillfully each thrust of his antagonist
who accused him of having murdered the North Carolina officer lying near.
Both Tom and Isaac had thought the stranger dead,
but at this accusation the white lips quivered and whispered faintly.
No, no, they were kind to me, the officer and the boy.
For an instant the rebel's uplifted hand was stayed,
and it is difficult to say what the result might have been
had not yet another voice called through the leafy woods.
No quarter to the Yankee.
Tom's cheek blanched to an unnatural whiteness
as with partial lips and flashing eyes he watched the newcomer hastening to the rescue,
the handsome, graceful stranger,
whose appearance riveted Isaac's attention at once, causing him to gaze spellbound upon the
face of the advancing foe as if it were one he had seen before. How handsome that young man was,
with his saucy laughing eyes of black, his soft silken curls of hair, and that air of self-assurance
which bespoke a daring, reckless spirit. Isaac could not remove his eyes from the young rebel
and his late antagonist met with no resistance as he passed his arms around him and held him
prisoner at last. Isaac did not even think of himself. His thoughts were all upon the stranger,
at whom poor Tom sat gazing half-bewildered, and trying once to stretch his arms toward him
while the lips essayed to speak. But the words he would have uttered died away as a sudden faintness
stole over him when he saw that he was recognized. There was a violent start, a fading out
of the bright color on the rebel's cheek, and Isaac still watching him, heard him exclaim.
No, no, not him. Leave him alone.
while at the same time he attempted to free Tom from the firm grasp the enemy now had upon him.
With an oath the soldier shook him off, then rudely bade his half-senseless victim rise and follow as a prisoner of war.
And Tom, unmindful of the pain, arose without a word and leaning heavily upon his captor, hobbled on,
caring little now it would seem what fate was in reserve for him.
He seemed benumbed, and only an occasional groan which Isaac fancied was wrung out by pain,
told that he was conscious of anything.
He's lame, Isaac cried,
the hot tears raining over his face
while he begged of them to stop,
or at least to carry poor Captain Carlton
if they must go on.
I won't run away,
he said imploringly to his own captor,
feeling intuitively that this was the kinder nature.
Don't be afraid of me.
I'll help you carry him if necessary.
Do have some pity.
He's fainting, see?
And Isaac almost shrieked as poor Tom
sunk upon the same.
the grass utterly unable to move another step. They must carry him now or leave him there,
and anxious for the honor a captured officer of Tom Carlton's evident rank in life would confer
upon them. The rebels availed themselves of Isaac's proffered aid and the three bearing their
heavy burden moved slowly on until far beyond the bushes by the stream, where the other
soldier sat upon the ground, his laughing black eyes heavy with tears, and his heart throbbing
with a keener pain than he had ever known before.
I was wrong to let him go, he said aloud.
Three against two would surely have carried the day,
and that boy at his side was brave, I know.
But it cannot be helped.
He is there prisoner,
and all that remains for me to do
is see that the best of treatment comes to him
until he is released.
But what?
Are the dead coming back to life?
And the soldiers started up as he caught a sound
of bending twigs nearby.
End of Chapter 8.
Chapter 9 of Rose.
Mather, A Tale by Mary Jane Holmes.
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Nine. The Rebel and the Yankee.
Bill Baker was awake at last, and from his hiding place had seen Captain Carlton and Isaac
disappear beneath the trees in the distance.
They are goners, he muttered to himself.
Won't that snap-dragon of a widow be mad, though, when she hears how they'd got Ike?
Poor Ike. I'd help him if I could, but take no use.
interferrin now, and with this reflection Bill turned his attention toward the stranger,
watching him for several minutes, first to decide his politics and second to calculate his probable
strength. The soldier was at least a head taller than Bill, who nevertheless far exceeded him in
strength of muscle and power of endurance. I can manage him, was Bill's contemptuous comment, and
feeling in his pocket for the strong cord Rosemather had bound round his paper parcel of turnovers
and cheese, he prepared to spring upon his foe in the rear and take him.
by surprise. The cracking twigs betrayed him, and changing his tactics he walked directly in
front of the astonished young man, who, with heightened color, haughtily demanded what he was
doing there and whether he were a friend or foe. "'What am I doing here?' Bill repeated, sticking his
cap a little more to one side and half-shutting one of his wicked gray eyes. Kind of peaking round
to see what I can find. Be I friend or foe. You must be green to ask that. Don't you
recognized my regimentals, made after the cut of Uncle Sam,
siled some to be sure, but then I've been at a dirty job,
been licking just such scamps as you.
Now then, Corporal, see and I answered you, Civil,
what are you doing here?
You won't answer me, hey?
He continued, as the stranger gained him,
no other reply than a look of ineffable disdain.
Well, then, if you're so afraid of your tongue,
s'posing we try a rassel, rough and tumble, you know,
and the one that gets beat is t'other's prisoner.
That's fair, as these dead folks will witness,
and Bill's glance for the first time fell upon the bodies lying near them,
upon Charlie's childish face with the golden curls clustering around it.
The sight touched a tender cord in Bill,
and forgetting for a moment his new acquaintance,
he bent over the drummer-boy murmuring,
"'Poor child, your folks ought to have been ashamed to let you come to war.'
"'Now was the rebel's time.
He felt intuitively that he was no match for the thick-set brawny Bill.
Safety lay alone in flight, and with a sudden bound he fled like a deer.
Nuff said, dropped from Bill's lips, and the next instant he too was flying through the woods in pursuit of the foe.
It proved an unequal race, and Bill's strong arms ere long clothes like a vice around the struggling soldier,
who resisted manfully, until resistance was vain and then suddenly stood still,
while Bill fastened his hands behind him with the courts unwittingly furnished by robole.
mother. Don't squirm so, Corporal, Bill said, as he bound the knot securely with his knee upon the
back of the stranger whom he had thrown upon his face. Don't squirm so like a kneel and I'll be
done the quicker. I calculate to tie you so you can't get away and you may as well hold on. Got kind
or delicate hands, ain't you? Never done nothing, I guess, but lick niggers and shoot your
betters. There, you may stand up now if you want to.
The young man struggled to his feet, saying proudly,
What do you intend doing next, sir?
What do I intend doing?
Bill replied with impertable gravity.
I intend leading you by the string intercap
and showing you up for two pence a sight.
What do you suppose I intended doing?
The young man made one more desperate struggle to free himself,
but the twine only cut into his flesh,
making the matter worse,
so he finally submitted to his fate
and suffered Bill to take him where he listed.
Bill was in no hurry to get to camp.
He rather enjoyed being alone with his prisoner,
and, leading him to a little thicket,
he made him sit down,
and placing one of his feet upon him,
he began to ask him innumerable questions.
What was his name?
Where did he come from?
What company was he in, and so on,
to none of which did the stranger vouchsafe a reply.
With a haughty look upon his handsome face,
he maintained a rigid silence while Bill continued.
needn't talk unless you want to speech is free with us you know but seeing you won't tell who you be maybe you wouldn't mind hearing my genealogy it'll make you feel better mabby to know my reputation and standin in society
corporal did you ever hear of a yankee a real live mud-sill yankee such a southern gentleman feel above fighting with while i'm that critter what do you think of me take me as a hull
The stranger groaned and disgust, and Bill continued.
Them cords hurt you, I guess.
Like enough, I'll ease him up a trifle if you say so.
I ain't hard-hearted, if I be rough as a nutmeg, greater.
Shall I loosen him so as not to hurt them, soft baby hands of yorn?
Thank you, sir, I don't mind it in the least, was the soldier's answer,
though all the while the coarse twine was cutting cruelly into the tender flesh.
This Bill suspected and muttering to himself,
good grit if he is a rebel he went on considerable top lofty ain't you corporal and as chaps of your cloth like to meet with their equals i'll go on with my history
i was born in massachusetts not over a day's ride from boston ever been to boston no answer from the stranger save a heightened color and bill proceeded tall old town got a smashing monument out to charlestown heard on it i suppose
as I take it some of you southern dogs can read.
Wow. Father died in states prison down there to Charlestown,
and then we moved to Rockland, the old woman Hal and me.
Hal's lying up there where the hottest of the fight took place,
and I'm here tormenting you by telling you my character.
I've been to the workhouse twice.
I have, I swan.
Once for getting drunk and once for something else a good deal was.
How do you feel now?
and Bill leered wickedly at the young man who seemed bent on keeping silence.
Only the expression of his face told the extreme contempt he felt for his companion,
and how it did wound to the quick one of his nature to be held a prisoner by such as William Baker.
But there was no help for it. He must submit to be taken to Washington by the despised Bill,
and then—oh, how his heart sank within him as he thought. What then? Was there no method of escape?
couldn't he get away or better yet couldn't he hire Bill to let him go strange he had not thought of this before Yankees were proverbially avaricious and almost every man had his price he could try at all events and unbending his dignity he inquired what bill would ask to let him go
what'll I ask repeated Bill placing both feet instead of one upon his prisoner I don't know let's dicker a spell and see what do you give and where do you keep your
traps. "'In my pockets,' the unsuspecting soldier answered.
"'There's my watch and chain worth over $300.'
"'Phew!' whistled Bill, his face lighting up instantly while hope crept into the
stranger's heart.
"'A gold watch worth over three hundred. Let's see the critter.'
"'You forget that my hands are tied,' the stranger suggested.
"'So they be, but mine ain't.'
And the next moment Bill was holding to his ear an elegant
Parisian watch, and asking if the stranger were positive, sure it cost more than $300.
I had an old pewter thing that I ginned a mother, he said, and this concern just comes in
play. It's mine, you say, if I'll let you cut stick and run? Yes, sir, I give you that in exchange
for my liberty. While now, kind of generous, ain't you? But I want you should fling in something
to clinch the bargain. A chap of your cloth is of more value than three hundred.
"'What else have you got, Corporal?'
And laying the watch carefully upon the grass,
Bill's hand a second time sought the stranger's pocket,
bringing out an expensive and exquisitely wrought quizzing-glass.
"'Well, now, if these ain't the curious spectacles,' he exclaimed.
"'I'll just see how a rib looks through him.'
And adjusting them to his eyes, Bill walked demurely around his prisoner,
and then standing at a little distance inspected him minutely
as if he had been some curious monster.
Hanged if I can see in them,
but maybe they'll suit the old woman to hum,
he said placing the glass beside the watch
and adding,
Watch and spectacles ain't enough, corporal.
What more have you got?
Ain't there a ring on one of your hands?
Yes, a costly diamond,
was the faint response,
and Bill Ayr-Long was trying in vain
to push it over his large joints.
It don't fit me,
but I guessed will my guess,
well, my gal when I get one, he said laying that too with the watch and eye-glass.
A silver tobacco box and handsome cigar-case followed next, the stranger groaning mentally as a faint
suspicion of Bill's real intentions crossed his mind. There remained now but one more article,
the dearest of all the young rebel possessed, and the perspiration started from every pore
as he felt the rough hand again within his pockets and he knew he could not prevent it.
"'Oh, no, no, no, not that.
"'Spare me that.
"'Do not open it, please!'
And the haughty tone was changed to one of earnest supplication
as Bill drew forth a small daguerian case
and placed his dirty thumb upon the spring.
Something in the stranger's voice made him pause a moment,
but anything like delicacy of feeling was unknown to the rough bill,
and the next instant he was feasting his rude gaze
upon the features which the rebel youth had guarded almost religiously,
even from his equals in camp.
How beautiful that girlish face was
with its bright laughing eyes
and soft chestnut curls
falling in such profusion
around the childish brow
and upon the smooth white neck.
Even Bill was awed into silence
while a feeling of bewilderment
crept over him
as if he had seen that face before.
And mingled with this feeling
came remembrances of that last day at home
when fair hands,
which ere he was a soldier,
would have scorned a touch
such as he had waved him in adieu.
"'Hew!' he whistled at last.
"'Ain't she pretty, though.
"'You're a sweetheart, I guess.'
And he leered at the stranger who made him no reply.
Only the lips quivered, and in the dark eyes there was a gathering moisture.
But when Bill asked,
"'May I have this, too, if I'll let you go?'
The stranger answered promptly.
"'Never.
I'll die a thousand deaths before I'll part with that.
Liberty is not worth that price.
"'Give me back the picture, and I'll go with you willingly wherever you please.'
"'Do give it back,' he added in an agony of fear as Bill continued gazing at it and making his remarks.
"'Can't a feller look at a gal on glass if he wants to? I wouldn't hurt the little critter if I could as well not.'
"'So you won't give her to me, nor tell me who tis neither.'
"'Stranger,' said the rebel, "'have you no feelings of refinement?'
"'Nary feeling,' and Bill shook his head, but did not withdraw his eyes from the picture.
"'Well, then, have you a wife?'
"'Nary wife. Nobody would have Bill Baker. Nor sister.
"'Nary sister, but a dead one that I never seen.
"'Nor mother? You surely have a mother,' and the soldier's voice shook with strong emotion.
"'You've got me there,' and Bill's eyes turned upon his prisoner.
"'I have a mother and yachting.
hear the old gal take on when she comes home from washing from Miss Marthers's or some of the
big bugs and finds Hal dead drunk on the trundle bed and me not a great sight better.
Handsome old gal. One of the kind that don't wear hoops, but every time she steps takes
her gowned up on her heels, you know? The rebel groaned aloud. There was no tender point
upon which his captor could be touched, and the tears reigned over his handsome face as he begged
of veil to give him at least the ambrotype.
"'It's the only thing which has prevented me
"'from being a perfect villain,' he said.
"'It has kept me from the wine-cup
"'and from the gambler's den.'
"'Pity it hadn't kept you out of the Southern Army,'
"'was Bill's dry response, and the stranger answered eagerly.
"'I wish it had. I wish it had.
"'Please give it back, and I'll swear allegiance
"'to the various minion in Lincoln's train.'
"'I never thought no great of a turncoat,'
"'bill replied, closing the case and still holding it
in his hand. If you're a southern dog, stay so, not go to barking on both sides. We don't want
no traitors. Honest, though, corporal, where was you born? There's a kind of natural look in
your face as if I'd seen it afore, and Bill laid the amphotype upon the grass. But with regard
to his birthplace, the stranger was non-committal, and Bill continued, If I let you go, you'll give
me the watch. Willingly, willingly. And the spetting,
"'Yes, oh yes. And the glass-bead ring? Yes, everything but the picture.'
"'Don't be so fast,' Bill rejoined. "'I'll get to that by-m-by.'
"'Watch, spectacles, glass-bead-ring, to Barker-box, and this other thing I'm above, but not the picture, if I'll let you go.
And you'll go with me to Washington and be showed up like a caravan if I'll give you the picture.
them's the terms as I understand.
Yes, the stranger gasped, a shadow of hope stealing into his heart.
Alas, how soon it was erased by Bill's continuing.
Yankees ain't generally very green.
We can make you southern bloods by wooden cowcumbersies any time of the day,
and do you suppose I'm going to let you off at any price?
No, sir.
If you go to war, you must take the chances of war.
I ain't a-goin' to hurt you, and I'll ease up them strings if you say so,
but, Corporal, you're my prisoner, and these traps, laying his hand upon the various
articles upon the grass, these traps, picture and all, I confiscate as contraband.
How do you feel now?
And Bill coolly pocketed his contraband's all save the watch which he adjusted about his neck.
There was a fierce storm of tears and sobs and wild entreaties, and then the poor discursed
a courage soldier was still, his white face wearing again its look of cold, haughty reserve,
and his whole manner indicative of the aversion he felt for the vulgar Bill, upon whom the
feeling was entirely lost, for though Bill knew the proud southerner felt above him, he could
not appreciate the feelings which made the young man shrink from him as from a loathsome reptile.
Bill had no intention of treating him cruelly, and as by this time the night shadows were creeping
into the woods, he sought out a dryer and more sheltered spot and bade his prisoner's sleep while he
sat by and watched. It seemed preposterous that the stranger should sleep under so great excitement,
but human nature could endure no longer without rest, and when at last the stars came out,
they shone down upon that tired soldier, sleeping upon the grass, with Bill sitting near and watching
as he slept. There were visions of home, and of the battle to it would seem mingled in the young
man's dreams, for he talked sometimes with his mother asking her to forgive her boy and take him back
again to her love. Then he was pleading for another, a captive it would seem, asking that not
but the best of care should come to the wounded officer. And then the picture flitted across his mind,
for he held converse with the original, and Bill listening to him muttered,
"'Twas his gal or sister, sure. I am sorry for him, my bum, but hanged if I'll give it up.
It's contraband, according to war. He needn't have joined the army.'
And so the weary night wore on. The Deawee
stillness of the Virginia woods broken occasionally by the shouts of riders as they passed by
in search of whatever there was to find. Once, as the shouts came nearer, the soldiers started up,
but ere the scream for help it passed his lips, Bill's hand was laid firmly upon them,
and Bill himself whispered fiercely. One yelp and I gag you with the handkerchief the
old woman took from her pocket and gimme the morning I come from home. She takes snuff, too,
the old woman does. There was a gesture of disgust, and then the strange
became quiet again while the shouts died away in the distance and were not heard again that
night. The morning broke at last, and just as it was growing light, Bill aroused by the falling
rain from the slumber into which he had inadvertently fallen, awoke his prisoner and led him
safely through the pickets of the enemy without encountering a human being. They were a strange-looking
couple, and when on the following day they reached Washington, they attracted far more attention
than the prisoner desired, for he shrunk nervously from the curious gaze fixed upon him,
refusing to answer all questions as to his name or birthplace,
and appearing glad when at last he was relieved from Bill's surveillance
and led to his prison home.
End of Chapter 9. Chapter 10 of Rose Mather, A Tale by Mary Jane Holmes.
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10. News of the Battle at Rockland
Great Battle at Manassas.
Total rout of the Federal Army
3,000 killed and has many more taken prisoners.
Fire zoavs all cut to pieces. Only three or four escape alive.
New York 13th completely riddled.
Sherman's battery and hosts of guns in the hands of the rebels.
Frightful panic at Washington. The Capitol in imminent danger.
General Scott in convulsions, the President Crazy, and Seward threatened with softening of the brain.
Women and children fleeing for their lives.
Bower Guard marching on with 500,000 men.
The Baltimoreians in ecstasies and the Philadelphians in despair.
Such were some of the exaggerated reports which ran like lightning
through the streets of Rockland on the first arrival of the news,
throwing the people into a greater panic than was said to exist in Washington.
Hints of some terrible disaster,
the exact nature of which could not be known until the arrival of the evening papers,
had early in the afternoon found their way from the telegraphic station
into the village, creating the most intense excitement.
Men left their places of business to talk the matter over, while groups of women assembled
at the street corners, discussing the probabilities of the case and each hoping that her child,
her husband, her brother, had been spared.
Prominent among these was widow Sims, holding fast to Susan's hand and occasionally whispering
a word of comfort to the poor child whose eyes were red with weeping over the possible fate
of John.
Rose Mather's carriage drove up and down, and from its window Rose herself looked anxiously out,
her face indicative of the anxiety she felt to hear the worst, if worse there were.
She knew her husband could not have been in battle, for he was still in Washington,
but she was conscious of a feeling as if some dire calamity were impending over her,
and, among the crowd collected in the street, there was none who waited more impatiently
for the coming of the evening train than she.
She had taken Annie Graham to ride with her, and the two
presented a most striking contrast, for where Rose was nervous, impatient and excited,
Annie, though feeling nonetheless concerned, was quiet, submissive and resigned, exhibiting no outward
emotion until the shrill whistle was heard across the plain when a crimson flush stole into her
cheek, deepening into a purple as the carriage drew up in front of the office where the throng
was growing denser. Men pushing past each other and elbowing their way to a standpoint near the
door, where they could watch the first item of news and scatter it among the eager crowd.
the papers came at last and the damp sheets were almost torn asunder by the excited multitude me one me please and rose mather's hand was thrust from the window in time to catch a paper destined for someone farther in the rear but ere she had found the column sought she heard from those around her that the worst was realized
there had been a battle our troops were utterly defeated and worse than all disgraced but the thirteenth annie whispered faintly does it speak of the thirteenth rose did not know
her interest just then was centered in the massachusetts blank and in her eagerness to hear from tom she forgot for a moment that such a regiment as the new york thirteenth existed but there were others who did not forget and just as the question left annie's lips the answer came in a despair
bearing cry which rent the air as some reckless person shouted aloud,
The thirteenth a total wreck!
Not a man left of company are!
Oh, George, poor Annie cried,
and the next moment Rose held the fainting form upon her lap.
Drive home, to Mrs. Graham's, I mean,
she said to Jake, who with some difficulty made his way through the crowd,
but not until the story so cruelly set afloat
was contradicted by those who had more coolly read the sad intelligence.
The news was bad enough, but the Rockland Company was not mentioned, and its friends had no alternative
but to wait until the telegraph wire should bring some tidings of the saved.
Rose was the first to be remembered.
Will did his duty faithfully.
A terrible battle, his message ran.
Soldiers are arriving every hour, but Tom has not come yet.
A telegram for the widow Sims came next.
The mother's quick eye taking in at a glance that only Eli's name and Johns were a penitentiary.
to it. Isaac's was not there.
Where was he then? Oh, where?
She asked this question frantically,
refusing to read the note lest it should confirm her fears.
I'll read it, Mother. Let me see, Susan said,
resting the paper from her hands and reading with trembling tones.
Eli and I are safe. Isaac was last seen
leading Lieutenant Graham from the field.
Oh, what a piteous whale went up to heaven then,
for widow Sims when she received the new
was sitting in Annie's door, and Annie was kneeling at her side.
George was wounded, of course, and if wounded, dead, else why had you not thought of her ere this?
Locked in each other's arms, the two stricken woman wept bitterly, the mother sobbing amid her tears.
My boy, my boy, while Annie moaned sadly.
My George, my husband.
Well, was it for both that ere that dark hour came they had learned to follow on,
even when their father's footsteps were in the sea,
knowing the hand which guided would never lead them wrong.
Annie was the first to rally.
It might not, after all, be so bad, she said.
George and Isaac were prisoners, perhaps,
but even that was preferable to death.
It would surely save them from danger in future battles.
The southerners would not maltreat helpless captives.
There were kind people south as well as North.
Thus Annie reasoned, and the widow felt herself grow strong,
as hope whispered of a brighter day tomorrow.
To Annie it was brighter,
for it brought her news of George
wounded in his right arm
an inmate of the hospital
and at present too weak to write.
This was all,
but it comforted the young wife.
He was not dead.
He might come home again,
and Annie's heart overflowed
with grateful thanksgiving
that while so many were bereaved
of their loved ones,
she had been mercifully spared.
The next male brought her
a second letter from Mr. Mather,
more minute in its particulars than any which had preceded it.
He had obtained permission to stay with George,
had removed him to a private boarding-house
far more comfortable than the crowded hospital,
and at his request he wrote to Annie that her husband,
though badly wounded and suffering much from the terrible excitement of the battle,
was not thought dangerous,
and had strong hopes of ere long receiving his discharge
and returning home where she could nurse him back to life.
This was Annie's message read by her eagerly,
while the widow Sims, forgetting all formality in her anxiety to hear if there was aught concerning her boy,
looked over her shoulder, her eye darting from line to line until she caught his name.
There was something of him, and grasping Annie's arm, she whispered.
Read what it says of Isaac.
And Annie read how brave Tom Carleton had generously given place to the poor wounded George,
and stayed behind him with Isaac, hoping to make his way to Washington in safety.
They had not been heard from since.
and the widow's heart was sick as heart could be with the dread uncertainty.
Anything was preferable to this suspense, and, in a state of mind, bordering upon distraction,
she walked the floor, now wringing her hands and again declaring her intention to start at once for
somewhere, she knew not wither or cared, provided she found her child.
In the midst of her excitement, the gate swung open, and Mrs. Baker rushed up the walk,
her sleeves above her elbows, and her hair pushed back from her bonnetless head,
just as she had left her washing at a neighbor's when she received Bill's letter,
which told of Hal's sad fate and unraveled the mystery of Tom Carleton's silence.
He's took. The rebels have got your ike? She shrieked,
brandishing aloft the soiled missive and howling dismally. Then, putting her hand into her bosom,
she drew forth the lock of hair and thrusting it almost into the widow's face, cried out.
Look, tis Harry's hair. All there is left of Harry. That's what I get for happen.
"'and a boy two inches taller than Ike,
"'who stood in front and would have been shot instead of Harry.
"'Only he was shorter.
"'Read it, Miss Graham.'
"'And tossing the letter into Annie's lap,
"'the wretched woman sank upon the doorstep,
"'and covering her face with her wet apron
"'rocked back and forth while Annie read aloud as follows.
"'Dear mother,
"'We've met the rascals
"'and been as genteelly licked as ever
"'a pack of fools could ask to be.
"'How it happened, nobody knows.'
I was fighting like a tiger when all in a sudden I found us a running like a flock of sheep.
And what is the queerest of all is that while we were taken to our heels one way,
the rebels were going at the other, for what I know, we should have been running from each other
till now if they hadn't found out the game and so turned upon us.
But whilst a ball is to come, Hal is dead, shot right through the forehead,
and the ball that struck him down took off Ike Simps' cap,
so if I had been only a little taller, Hal would have lived to been hung most likely.
Oh, I wish he had, I wish he had, poor Mrs. Baker moaned, still waving back and forth and
kissing the lock of hair, while the widow involuntarily thanked her heavenly father
that the two inches she once so earnestly coveted for her boy had wisely been withheld.
Then followed Bill's account of cutting away the hair he enclosed, of his flight into the woods,
his sleep by the brook, and his waking just in time to see Captain Carlton and Isaac Sims
disappear beneath the trees in charge of rebel soldiers. Now that she knew the worst,
the widow sat like one stunned by a heavy blow, uttering no sound as Annie read Bill's account
of capturing his prisoner. Here she reached this point, however, she had another auditor,
Rose Mather, who had come with a second letter from her husband, and who, passing the
weeping woman in the door, came and stood by Annie, and listened with strange interest to the story of
that captive parting so willingly with everything save the picture.
Poor young man, she sighed when Annie finished reading.
I don't suppose it's right, but I do feel sorry for him.
What if it had been Jimmy?
Perhaps he has a sister somewhere weeping for him just as I cried for Tom.
Dear Tom, Will writes he is a prisoner with Isaac Sims.
I'm glad they are together. Tom will take care of Isaac.
He had a quantity of gold tied around his waist,
and Rose's soft hand smoothed caressingly the widow's thin light hair.
The widow had not wept before,
but at the touch of those little fingers the floodgates opened wide
and her tears fell in torrents.
They were bound together now by a common bond of sympathy.
Those four women, each so unlike to the other,
and for a time they wept in silence,
one for her wounded husband, one for her child deceased,
one for a captured brother, the other, for a son.
Now, as ever, Annie was the first to speak of hope,
and her words were fraught with comfort to all, save Harry's mother.
She could not comfort her, for from reckless misguided Harry's grave
there came no ray of consolation, but to the others she spoke of one
who would not desert the weary captives.
Neither bolt nor bar could shut him out.
God was in Richmond as well as there at home,
and none could tell what good might spring from this seeming great evil.
For a long time they talked together, and the afternoon was half spent when at last they separated,
Rose going back to her luxurious home where she wrote to her mother the sad news concerning Tom,
blurring with great tears the line in which she spoke of Jimmy, wondering what his fate had been.
Slowly, disconsolately, poor Mrs. Baker returned to her day's work so long neglected,
but the said she left so hot two hours before had grown cold.
The fire burned out, and with that weary, discouraged feeling which poverty alone can
prompt, she was setting herself to the task of bringing matters up again when her employer, touched
with the sight of the white, anguished face, kindly bade her leave the work until another day,
and seek the quiet she's so much needed.
Poor old woman!
How desolate it was going back to the squalid house were everything, even to the boot-jackie
had once hurled at her head reminded her of the hairy who would come back no more.
She did not think of his unkindness now.
That was all forgotten, and motherlike, she remembered only the
the times when he was good and treated her like something halfway human.
He was her boy, her first-born, and as she lay with her tear-stained face buried in the scanty
pillows of her humble bed, she recalled to mind the time when first he lisped the sweet
word mother, entwined his baby arms about her neck. He was a bright pretty child, easily
influence for good or evil, and the rude mother shuddered as she felt creeping over her the
conviction that she had helped to make him what he grew to be, and at times provoking him on purpose
just to see him bump his little round hard head against the oaken floor.
Then, as he grew older, it was fun to hear him imitate the oaths his father used,
and she had laughed at that until the habit became so firmly fixed that neither threats nor punishment could break it.
And when the Sabbath bells were peeling forth their summons to the house of prayer,
she had suffered him to stay away, offering but slight remonstrance,
when the robin's nest just without the door was pilfered of its unfledged occupants,
the mother bird moaning over its murdered young,
just as she was moaning now over her ruined boy.
For Harry.
There was some excuse for him,
some apology found in the nature of his early training,
but for her who reared him, none.
She might have taught him better.
She might have sent him to the Sunday school across the way,
where Sunday after Sunday she had heard the hymns
the children sang swelling on the Sabbath air.
Harry sometimes joining in as he sat at the cottage door,
adjusting the bait with which to tempt the unsuspecting fish
playing in the brook nearby. A mother's fearful responsibility had been hers. She had not fulfilled
it, and it rolled back on her now, stinging as only remorse can sting, and making her wish amid her
pain that the boy once so earnestly desired had never been given her or else had died in its
cradle-bed, and so gone where she knew the hardened and sin never could find entrance. So absorbed was
she in her grief as not to hear the sound of wheels stopping near her gate, nor,
the tripping footstep upon the floor.
Rose Mather, restless at home and wishing for something to do, had remembered the miserable
woman, and knowing how desolate her comfortless house must seem that summer night, she had
conquered her aversion to the place and come to speak, if possible, a word of cheer.
Mrs. Baker's Howells always had the effect of making her laugh, they seem so forced, so
unnatural.
But there was something so new, so real in the stillness of that figure crouching upon the
bed, that Rose, for a moment, was uncertain how to act.
It was no feigned sorrow of which she was a witness now,
and advancing at last towards the untidy bed she laid her hand upon the disordered,
uncombed hair and whispered soothingly,
I am so sorry for you, Mrs. Baker, and I'll do all I can to help you.
I'll give you money to make your cottage pleasanter,
and by and by you won't feel so badly, maybe.
This was Rose's idea of comfort.
Money, in her estimation, was to the poor of panacea for nearly every evil,
but all her wealth could not avail to quiet the feeling of remorse from which Mrs. Baker was suffering.
With a sob she thanked the kind-hearted rose and then continued,
"'Tain't the poverty so much, nor than knowing that he's dead, though that is bad enough.
It's the something that tells me I ought to have to brung him up better.
I never sent him to meet and never went myself.
Never had him baptized, though I did try once to learn him.
now I lay me but he that's my man laughed me out of it he said there wasn't any god that we all come by chance but I knew better
I had a praying mother and though I forgot what she learned me it appears to come back to me now oh Harry I wish I'd done different I do I do and the repentant woman buried her face again in the scanty pillows while Rose looked
on.
Here was a case she could not reach.
Money could not cure that aching heart or quiet that guilty conscience.
Mrs. Graham would know exactly what to say, Rose thought, wishing more and more that she
too possessed the wisdom which would have told her what it was poor Mrs. Baker needed.
Sitting down beside her, Rose talked to her of Bill, who her husband said was highly
complimented for having captured a rebel.
Will had not seen the prisoner, she said, or hurt his name.
He only knew the fact and that bill was greatly praised.
This was some consolation to Mrs. Baker, but it did not take the pain away, and as she was not inclined to converse, Rose soon bade her goodbye and left her there alone in her deep sorrow.
The following Sunday, just as the notes of the organ were dying away in the opening service, a bent, shrinking figure stole noiselessly in at the open door, and Rose Mather recognized beneath the thin black veil the haggard face of Widow Baker, who, except on funeral occasions, had never before.
been seen within the walls of the church.
Annie saw her, too,
and while Rose touched with a humble attempt
she had made to put on something like mourning for her child,
thought how she would give her an entire new suit of black,
Annie thought how she would daily pray
that the blow which had fallen so crushingly
might result an everlasting good to the now-stricken mother.
Scarcely less keen, but of a far different nature,
was the grief of widow Sims.
There was no black upon her leghorn bonnet.
She would not have worn it if I,
Isaac had been dead, but every expression of her stern face told how constantly her heart was
going out after her darling boy. Her captured Isaac, languishing in his sultry prison,
sick perhaps and pining for his mother. How savage she felt toward Boregard and all his
clan, resolving at times to start herself for Richmond and beard the lion in his den.
She'd tell them what was what, she said. She'd let them know what an injured mother could do.
She'd turn a second Charlotte
Corderoi if necessary
and free the land from such vile monsters
and she actually sharpened up her shears
as a weapon of offense in case the pilgrimage were made.
This was the widow Sims excited
but the widow Sims when calm was a very different woman
praying then for her boy
and even asking forgiveness for the stirers-up of the rebellion.
At Annie's request she had at last
come to live all together at the cottage in the hollow
and it was well for both that they should be together
for the widow's stronger will upheld the weaker Annie,
who in her turn imparted much of her own trusting childish faith
to the less trusting widow.
Greatly Annie mourned as the days went on
because no line came to her from George himself,
nothing in his own handwriting,
when he knew how she desired it if it were but just his name.
What made him always deputized Mr. Mather to write his letters for him?
Annie put this question once to Rose,
but the twilight was gathering over them
and so she failed to see the heightened color on Rose's cheek and the moisture in her eye.
Rose did not now, as formerly, bring her William's letters, and read to her every word he said of George.
She only told her how cheerfully George bore his illness, and how Will read to him every day from Annie's Bible,
choosing always the passages she had marked, but the rest was all withheld, and Annie never dreamed the reason,
or of the effort it caused the talkative little Rose to keep back what William said she must until the worst were known.
thus the august days glided by one by one until the summer light faded from the rockland hills and september threw over them her rich autumnal bloom and then one day there came a note for annie written as of old by william mather but signed by george himself
poor annie how she cried over and kissed that signature to which george had added god bless you darling annie every letter was unnaturally distorted and few could have deciphered the words
but to the eye of love they were plain as noonday and annie's kisses dropped upon them until they were still more blurred than when they came to her it was very hard for rose to keep from telling the dreadful story of what had followed the penning of those brief words god bless you darling annie
But Will had said she must not, so she made no sign. Only her arms clung closer around Annie's
neck, and her lips lingered longer upon the snowy forehead as she said good-night, and went
away with the secret which Annie must not know then.
End of Chapter 10. Chapter's 11 and 12 of Rose Mather, a tale by Mary Jane Holmes.
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11
The Wounded Soldier
How those polished, cruel-looking instruments
sparkled and glittered and flashed,
and how the sick man shuddered as he glanced
toward the table where they lay asking with quivering lip
if there were no other alternative save the one their presence suggested.
None but speedy death
was the response of the attending surgeon
who was too much accustomed to just such scenes as this
to appreciate the feelings of that poor soldier
shrinking so painfully from what they told him must be if he would live.
None but speedy death.
George repeated the word slowly to himself, dwelling longest upon the last, as if to
accustom himself to thoughts of it.
Wait a little, wait till I think the matter over, he said in reply to the question,
are you ready?
And turning his face to the wall so that those about him should not see the fearful conflict
going on, he thought long and earnestly.
Wasn't it better to die?
than go back to Annie maimed and disfigured for life. Better die than lose a portion of the manly
beauty of which he had been so proud. Would Annie love him just the same, even though the strong
right arm which had toiled for her so cheerfully could never work for her again? Never encircle her
in its embrace. Would the scarred stump be as dear to her as the well-molded limb had been?
He did not know, and the tears which all through the weary days of his sickness had been kept back,
now fell like rain upon the pillow
as he fancied the meeting between his sweet
young wife and her poor crippled husband.
The cottage on the hill so earnestly coveted would never be theirs now.
He could not earn it.
He could not earn much anyway, with his left arm,
and he groaned aloud as he thought of the poor, unfortunate
seen so often in the Rochester Depot
peddling daily papers.
Would he ever come to that?
He, who but a few months ago had so bright hopes for the future,
would the delicate annie he had meant to shield so carefully from every ill of life yet be compelled to earn the bread she ate it was a sad sad picture the excited soldier drew of what the future might bring and the fainting spirit had almost cried out i would rather die
when there came stealing across his mind the memory of annie's parting words if the body you bring back has in it my george's heart i shall love you all the same yes she would love him just the same
same, for as it was not her fair sweet face alone which made her so dear to him, so it was not
his splendid form which made him dear to her. Annie's love would not abate even though he went
back to her the various cripple that ever crawled the earth. But how different his going home would
be from what he had fondly hoped. No papers heralding his arrival. No dance crowd out to meet him.
No fife trilling a jubilee. No drum beating a welcome. No bell ringing its merry peal.
No carriage, no procession.
Nothing but the curious gaze of the few who might come out to see how George Graham looked without an arm
and whisper softly to each other.
Poor fellow, how I pity him.
He didn't want to be pitied.
He would almost rather die.
And he did not want to die either when he thought calmly of it.
He was not prepared.
And forcing back the bitter tears he turned his white-worn face to William Mather,
bending so sadly over him and whispered,
"'Tell them they may cut it off,
"'but not till you've written to Annie and I have signed my name.'
"'You know how she has begged for a word from me.
"'Tell them to keep away.
"'They shall not intrude on my interview with Annie.'
"'George was growing excited,
"'but he became calm again when he found himself alone with Mr. Mather,
"'who wrote the letter which gave Annie so much joy.
"'There was nothing in it of the expected amputation,
"'nothing but encouragement that he should ere long come home
"'to stay with her always.
There, give me the pen, he said, when the letter was finished, and the trembling fingers grasped it eagerly,
but quickly let it fall as the purple festered flesh above the elbow throbbed and quivered with the pain the sudden effort caused.
Once more, I'll do it if it costs my life, he whispered, nerving himself with might and main,
and then with Mr. Mather guiding his hand he wrote his name and the words,
God bless you, darling Annie. It's done, and she must never know the agony at
cost me. He moaned as his bandaged arm fell heavily at his side, while with his other hand
he wiped away the sweat which stood so thickly upon his face.
"'Bring Annie's Bible,' he said, and lay it on my pillow. It will make me bear it better.
"'Oh, Annie, Annie, if you could be here to pray for me. Can't you?'
And the dim eyes turned imploringly toward Mr. Mather, who shook his head hesitatingly.
"'Man of the world as he had been, he had not yet learned to pray,
"'but he could not resist that touching appeal, and bending down he answered.
"'I never learned to pray, but while the operation is going on,
"'I'll do the best I can.
"'Shall I call them now?'
"'George nodded, and William admitted the two surgeons
"'who were growing somewhat impatient at the delay.
"'They were not naturally hard-hearted men,
"'but years of practice had brought them to look on amputations
"'in a mere business point of view.
Still, there was something about this case which touched a chord of sympathy,
and they spoke kindly to the sufferer telling him it would soon be over,
and was not half so bad as losing a leg would be.
George made no reply except to shudder nervously,
as he saw the cold, polished steel so soon to cut into his flesh.
You'll need bandages, he said his mind flashing backward
to the day when he had looked in at Rockland Hall
where Annie with others sat working for just such a scene as this.
It's here, Mr. Mather answered,
pointing to a table where lay a ball prepared for Company R.
Without knowing why he did so,
Mr. Mather took it up and began mechanically to unroll it,
pausing suddenly as traces of a pencil met his view.
There was something written there.
Something which made him start as he read,
Annie Howard, it's your Annie, George.
Try to think I'm there, Rockland, April 1861.
Was it a happen-so, or a special providence
that this bit of linen over which Annie's prayers had been breathed,
should come at last to him for whom it was intended.
Mr. Mather believed the latter,
and pointed it out to George,
who, comprehending the truth at a glance
uttered a wild, glad cry of joy
as he pressed it to his lips.
Yes, Annie, I know you are here.
I can feel your presence,
and it will help to ease the pain.
Begin without delay.
Don't wait if it must be done.
There was a moment's silence,
a shutting of both Williams and George's eyes,
and a shriek of anguish of anguish.
rang through the room as George cried out.
Oh, Annie, Annie, stand up closer to me.
It makes me faint, it hurts me so bad.
Pray, Mr. Mather, pray.
And Mr. Mather did pray,
the first prayer which had passed his lip since his early boyhood,
not allowed, but silently.
And the writhing victim grew still at last,
only shivering once as the sharp saw glided through the splintered bone.
Carefully they bound up the bleeding stump
with the soft linen Annie had sent,
speaking comforting words to the sufferer
who seemed to be stupefied,
for he did not notice what they said.
It was done, at last,
and after a few directions,
the operators hurried off
to do for others what they had done for George.
Poor George!
How long and weary were the days and nights
immediately succeeding the amputation,
and how horrible the sensation
which prompted him to fancy the severed limb was there,
to feel the hot blood tingling through his fingertips,
throbbing through his wrists, streaming into his elbow joints, and then to know it was all a mere delusion.
For the right arm, once so full of vigor, was not now, save a putrefying mass buried away
beneath the sod. He would not have Annie know it yet, he said. He would rather spare her as long as
possible, and so the news was withheld from her, while day after day George waited and watched
for the favorable change which should make it safe for him to undertake the tedious journey.
Three times was the traveling bag packed, with the hope of going tomorrow,
and as often did the doctor's turn mandate bid him wait a little longer.
At last, the terribly nervous sensation passed away,
taking with it all the pain and leaving no feeling save one of intense uneasiness and languor
which the once strong man strove in vain to shake off,
trying day after day to sit up if only for a moment,
and as often falling back upon his pillows from sheer exhaustion.
He was only tired.
He had never been rested since the battle, he said,
and if he could once go home to Annie and lie upon the lounge
where he last saw her kneeling, he should get well so fast.
Often in his troubled sleep he talked of her,
begging her not to spurn her poor crippled husband,
but to love him just the same.
I never can work for you as I used to do, he would say.
Never can buy that cottage on the hill,
but God won't let us starve,
and I shall love you so much.
so much when I find you do not shrink away from poor mutilated George.
It was a sad but not unprofitable lesson which William Mather was learning by that bedside.
At home in Rockland, where their positions were so different,
he had always respected George Graham,
but he had learned to love him now with a brother's love,
and gladly would he have saved him for the sweet wife
in whom with his own darling Rose was so deeply interested,
and whose letters were silently working good in him as well as George.
greatly his personal friends marveled that he should stay so closely immured within that sick room
when he might had he chosen have mingled much in the world without, and many were the
attempts they made to drag him away. But he beststood them all, and clung the closer to his friend
who leaned upon him with all the trustful confidence of a little child.
Hour after hour he sat by his patient, reading to him from Annie's well-worn Bible,
and when at last the heavy cloud was lifted and the pathway through the valley of death was
divested of its gloom, he was the first to whom the sick man imparted the joyful news,
that whether he lived or died, all was well. All was peace within. In silence and in tears,
Mr. Mather listened to the story of what was so strange to him, and in the next letter sent
to Rose, he told her of the new resolves awakened within him, tracing them back to that humble
cottage in the hollow where Annie Graham, unknown, save to a few, was wielding a mighty power for good.
everything which he could do for George he did,
and Annie herself could scarcely have been more gentle or kind.
And George, oh, how grateful he was to his noble friend,
blessing him so often for the kindly deeds.
God will surely let you go home unharmed,
he said one day when Mr. Mather had been more than unusually attentive.
I pray to heaven every hour that you may never know
the dreary heart-bang it costs one to die away from home,
and all that we hold dear, for I am dying.
I have given up the delusion that tomorrow will find me better.
I shall never be better until I wake in heaven.
Shall never go back to Annie.
Never see my old home again.
It is a humble home, Mr. Mather,
but you can't begin to guess how dear it is to me
because it is the spot where I brought Annie after she was mine.
How well I remember that first night of housekeeping.
How proud I felt, knowing it was my home, my table,
my wife sitting opposite, that her own darling hands had made the tea and cut the bread she passed me,
and that I had earned it, too. The poor have many joys to which the rich are strangers,
and I have sometimes thought we love each other more because there is little else to divide our love.
True it is that mortal man never loved a creature better than I have loved my Annie.
She was of gentler blood than I, was far more delicately reared, and I know it was an unequal match.
She was far above me in social position, highly educated and accomplished, too.
She was a bell and favorite everywhere while I was only George Graham, a mechanic and engineer.
She kept nothing from me, and she told me of a childish fancy when she was a mere girl of fourteen,
but if she ever sent a regret after the handsome black-eyed boy, the object of that fancy.
It was not perceptible to me.
Still, I think that may have had its influence.
that and the fact that her life was very wretched with her proud hard aunt on whom she was dependent
and who wanted her to marry a white-haired millionaire. But Annie chose me, and I have worshipped her
with an idolatry which I know is sinful in the sight of heaven who will have the first place
in our hearts. I have told you all this, because your wife has been a friend to Annie, and I want
her to know that Annie is her equal if she did marry a poor mechanic. I am not blaming anyone.
I know the distinctions there are in social life.
I should feel just so, too, perhaps,
if I was rich and I had been educated as you were.
Even as it is, I always was proud to think my wife was a lady born,
and I hoped one day to raise her to the position she ought to fill.
But that dream is over now.
It matters little what becomes of the body after the soul has left it,
though I should rather lie in Rockland Graveyard
where Annie can sometimes come to see me,
and I do so want to hear her voice once more before I go.
To tell her with my own lips
that if in heaven I find a place,
she has led me there.
Suppose we send for her,
Mr. Mather said,
the glad thought flashing upon his mind of the joy
it would be to see his own darling once more,
for if Annie came, Rose he knew was sure to come also.
I'll send for both Annie and Rose at once.
They can come together.
Mr. Graham made no objection,
and Mr. Mather said himself to the task,
of writing the letter which he hoped was to bring not only Annie but his own precious
rose don't say a word about my arm I'd rather tell her myself she won't mind it so
much when she sees how sick and weak I am George suggested and so mr.
Mather bad rose keep the amputation to herself as heretofore you will defray
mrs. Graham's expenses he wrote and come as soon as possible for her husband
is nearer death than you imagine twelve get
getting ready.
Oh, I have such perfectly splendid news this morning.
We are going to Washington right away, you and I, for Will says so in his letter.
You see, George is a great deal.
George can't—well, George isn't very well.
And quite delighted with the happy turn she had given her words,
Rose skipped around Annie's cottage like a bird, lighting at last upon a stool at
Annie's feet and asking if she were not glad.
Why, how white you are!
She exclaimed as she observed the paleness of Anne.
Annie's cheek. What makes you? Don't you want to go? Annie was not deceived by Rose's abrupt turn.
She knew that George was worse, Elsie had never sent for her, and hence the sudden faintness
which Rosa's gay badinage could not shake off at once.
Did your husband right or mine? she asked, and Rose replied.
Will, of course. George has never written, you know. Yes, I know. And in Annie's voice
there was a tone approaching nearer to bitterness than any that Rose had ever heard from.
her. Where is the letter? Let me read it for myself. But Rose had found it convenient to leave the
letter at home, and so she answered, I did not bring it with me. I can tell you all there is in it.
But will you? And Annie grasped her shoulder firmly. Will you tell me all? Tell me what it is
about my husband and why he never writes. Is George dying, and is that the reason why he sends
for me? Tell me, Mrs. Mather, for I will not be put off longer.
there was a look in the blue eyes before which rose fairly quailed and turning her face away she answered truthfully yes george is very sick he will never come home again and he wants you there when he dies
softly the quivering lips repeated when he dies poor annie wondering if it could be george who was meant had the evil she most dreaded come upon her at last must she give her husband up and live without him
how dark how cheerless the future looked stretching before her through many years it might be was there no hope no help it was annie's darkest hour of trial and for a moment the spirit fainted refusing to bear the load which though more than half expected had come so sudden at the last
But Annie was not one to murmur long, and Rose Mather never forgot the sweet submissive smile which played over her white face, as she said.
Whether George lives or dies, God will do all things well.
After this, there was no more repining, no more bitterness of tone, nothing save humble submission to whatever might be in store for her.
Rose was very enthusiastic on the subject of the Washington trip, and Annie listened eagerly to her suggestions.
It is absurd for two young ladies like us to travel alone, Rose said.
We must have some nice elderly woman to matronize the party.
I mean to write to mother to send up one from Boston.
Miss Marthers, interrupted the widow Sims, who sat by the window knitting for some soldier boy.
Miss Marthers, don't be as simpleton, ascending down to Boston for somebody to meritorize you and Miss Graham
when you can find forty of them nearer home.
Let me go.
"'Ely and John are there, you know,
"'and taint such a great ways to Richmond
"'where my poor Isaac is.
"'Did I tell you I got a letter last night
"'from a strange woman up in New Hampshire
"'whose boy was in the battle?
"'The rascals let your brother write to her
"'because there was something between her Charlie
"'and a rebel officer who was good to the child
"'when he was dying.
"'There's now and then a streak of good amongst them.
"'Yes, but what of Tom?'
"'Rose asked eagerly, forgetting Washington in her hand.
anxiety to hear from her brother, of whom not one word had been known after his name had appeared in
the paper as one of the prisoners at Richmond, together with that of a boy called Isaac Simpson.
The more humane of Captain Carlton's captors had repeated what the dying officer said of Tom's
kindness to him, and, for this Tom had at last found opportunity for sending a note to Charlie's
mother, telling her how her darling died, and asking her to write for him to his mother, his sister,
and the widow Sims. This, the grateful woman had done, but Rose had not.
received her letter yet, and she listened eagerly while the widow read the very words which
Tom had written concerning himself and Isaac. There was but little said of suffering or privation.
Tom, it would seem, was tolerably well cared for, but he told of days and nights when his heart went
out in earnest longings for the loved ones at home, and then he spoke of Isaac saying,
tell his mother that he does not bear prison confinement well, and she would hardly know her boy.
He is very popular among his fellow prisoners, and does more good.
I verily believe than half our army chaplains.
One poor fellow who died the other day
blessed Isaac Sims as the means of leading him to heaven.
Oh, I'm so glad he's there, ain't you?
And the tears shone in Rose's eyes
as she involuntarily paid this tribute to Christianity.
On some accounts I am and then again I ain't,
was the widow's reply as she wiped the moisture
from her glasses and returned them to her pocket.
I'm glad he's doing good,
but I don't want him sick there alone without his mother.
it's hard to see why these things are so but that's nothing to do with the going to washington would you take me mrs marthers i know i'm homespun and ignorant but you may call me waitin maid or anything you'll like if you'll only take me
the widow's voice was full of entreaty and rose could not resist it it would be grander she thought to have a woman from boston but then mrs simms wanted to go so badly while annie too preferred her she was sure so it was settled that as soon as the woman from boston but then mrs simms wanted to go so badly while annie too preferred her she was sure so it was settled that as soon as the
the necessary arrangements could be made, Mrs. Sims, Annie, and Rose were to start for the
Federal Capitol. Had the care of an entire regiment devolved upon Rose, she could not have been
busier or have felt a greater responsibility than she did in planning and arranging the journey,
and between times trying to initiate widow Sims into the mysteries of traveling, telling her
not to be frightened and think they'd run off the track each time the whistle blew. Not to show
undue anxiety about her baggage as she, Rose, should hold the checks. Little Brow.
pieces, which they would get at the depot, not to bother the conductor by asking questions,
or let the people know that she had never been further in the cars than Rochester.
To all these directions, the widow gravely promised compliance, saying in an aside to Annie,
It does me good to see the little gritter patronized me, as if she supposed I was a tarnal fool
and didn't know a steam loco-foco from a canal boat.
The day before the one appointed for the commencement of the journey came at last.
Rose's three trunks of the size which makes the porter's swear
were packed to their utmost capacity
for Rose meant to make a winter's campaign
and display her numerous dresses at parties and levies.
So everything which she could possibly and impossibly need,
even to her skating dress, was stowed away in the huge boxes,
together with various luxuries for her husband and George
and then, as the afternoon was drawing to a close,
she started for the cottage in the hollow
to see that everything there was in readiness.
It had not taken the widow,
long to pack up her three dresses, and her small, old-fashioned hair trunk, locked and tied
round with a bit of rope, was standing near the door ready for the morrow's early train.
On Annie's face there was a hopeful expectant expression, which told how glad she was at the
prospect of meeting her husband so soon.
"'Two days more and I shall see him,' she thought, picturing to herself the meeting and
fanting what she would do, what she would say, and how carefully she would nurse him
when once she was there with him.
It was a bright picture she drew of that meeting with her husband.
Of the kisses, the caresses, she would lavish upon him,
and she was almost as impatient as Rose herself to have the November day come to an end,
knowing that with the darkness she was nearer to the asked for tomorrow.
Just as the sun was setting, Rose took her leave, saying as she bade Annie goodbye,
I mean to drive round by the depot and get the tickets tonight so as to save time in the morning.
Annie smiled at the little lady's restlessness, and after
kissing her good night, stood by the window watching her as she drove down the street and
thinking to herself, When I see her again, it will be tomorrow.
Rapidly, Rose Mather's iron grays bore her to the depot where but a few idlers were lounging
as it was past the hour for the cars. The window between the ladies' sitting-room and the
office was closed and Rose knocked against it in vain. The ticket agent had gone to his tea,
and with a feeling of dissatisfaction, Rose was turning away when a sharp clicking sound from an
adjoining apartment reached her ear, and, stepping to the open door she stood looking in while the
telegraphic operator received a communication. What was it that made him start so and utter an
exclamation of surprise? Was it bad news the virus had brought to him? Had there been another battle?
Was Washington in danger? Rose wished she knew, and she was about to inquire when the operator
turned upon her and asked if she knew Mrs. Graham, wife of the lieutenant. Yes, yes, has anything happened
to him? She answered, grasping the now-written message which the agent handed her saying,
Break it to her as gently as possible. He was the finest fellow in all the company, and the kind-hearted
man not yet accustomed to the horrors entailed by the war wiped a tear away as he muttered to
himself. Poor George! There was no need for Rose to open the envelope, for she knew well enough
what it contained, but her fingers mechanically tore it apart, and with streaming eyes she read the
fatal message which would break for Annie's heart.
Oh, I cannot tell her, she cried sinking down upon the heart setty and sobbing bitterly.
How can I take this to her when I left her so happy half an hour ago?
But it must be done, and summoning all her courage she bade Jake drive back to the hollow,
shivering as she saw the cheerful light shining from the window, and shrinking more and more
from the task imposed upon her when as she drew nearer, she saw Annie's bright joyous
face as she put together the garments for tomorrow, pausing occasionally to speak to
widow Sims, who sat before the blazing fire, dreaming visions of what might be could she
but get a pass to Richmond.
Don't you hear wheels?
The widow asked as the carriage stopped before the gate.
Annie thought she did, and going to the window she saw Rose as she came up the walk.
Why, it's Mrs. Mather, she cried.
Whitken have brought her back to-night, and hastening to the door she led Rose in asking
why she was there.
"'Oh, Annie!' Rose replied, winding her arms around Annie's neck.
"'I wish I did not have to tell, but I must, and I know it will kill you dead.
I'm sure it would me, and I don't see why you should be served so either.
We shall not go to-morrow, for Will is going to bring him home.'
"'Don't you know now? Can't you guess?'
And Rose thrust the dispatch into the hands of the bewildered Annie, who clutched it eagerly,
and bending to the lamplight, read what Rose had.
had read before her.
It came to her like a thunderbolt, striking all the deeper because it found her so full
of eager expectation, and the November wind as it swept past the door and down the lonely hollow,
took with it one wailing cry of anguish, and then all was still within the cottage,
save the sobbing whispers of widow sims and rose, bending over the unconscious form which
lay upon the bed, so white and still that a terrible fear entered the hearts of both,
lest the stricken Annie, too, were dead.
End of chapters 11 and 12.
Chapter 13 and 14 of Rose Mather, a tale by Mary Jane Holmes.
This Librevox recording is in the public domain.
Thirteen. The dying soldier.
Backward now we turn and stand again in the chamber where we saw the glitter of the polished steel,
and heard the bitter cry forced out by pain from lips unused to give such
sign of weakness. They were white now as the wintry snow which covers the northern hills,
and the breath came feebly from between them as the sick man whispered faintly.
I shall not be here if Annie comes, for when the drum beats on the morrow, calling my comrades
to their daily drill, I shall be far away where sounds of battle were never heard but once.
Oh, the peace, the quiet, the rest there is in heaven. I hope you will one day come to share it
with me, you, who have been kinder than a brother, and the long white fingers grasped the
hand which for so many days and weeks had soothed the aching head and cooled the fevered pillows
with all a woman's tenderness. Never for an hour had that faithful friend deserted his post.
Day and night had found him there, ministering to every want, and as far as human aid could do,
smoothing the pathway leading so surely down to death. But his vigils were almost over now.
His release was just at hand, for, as George had said,
the morrow's drumbeat would only find there the body which was so worn by suffering and disease
that William Mather could lift it in his arms as easily as he could have lifted a little child.
He was greatly changed from the days when he had been aptly called the Rockland Hercules.
But as the outer man decayed, the inner life grew strong and bright,
shining forth at the last, with all the splendor which perfect faith in Christ's atonement can shed around a death.
bed. There was no repining now, no murmuring at the mysterious dealings of Providence,
nothing but sweet childish confidence, and a patient waiting for the end coming on so fast that
George himself could feel the irregular beat of his wiry pulse, and mark the death hue as it came
creeping on, settling first in purplish spots about his fingertips, and spreading its ash and
coloring over his clammy hands. A stormy November night had closed over Washington, and the rain beat
dismally against the windows of the room where Mr. Mather bent over the dying soldier,
listening to what he said.
You can't tell Annie all.
George whispered, looking fondly up into the face he had learned to love so well.
You must write it down so as not to lose a single word.
Ring pen and paper, and then sit where I can see you, for the sight of you does me good.
You have been so kind to me.
The writing utensils were brought, and then sitting where George could look into his face.
Mr. Mather wrote as the dying man dictated.
My dear, dear, darling Annie.
It will be days, perhaps before you see this letter,
and ere it reaches you, somebody will have told you that your poor George is dead.
Are you crying, darling, as you read this?
Do the tears fall upon the words?
Poor George is dead.
Don't cry, my precious, Annie.
It makes my heartache to think how you will sorrow and I not there to comfort you.
It's hard to die away from home, but not so hard as it would once have been, for I hope I am a different man from the one who bad you goodbye a few short months ago.
And, darling, it must comfort you to know that your prayers, your sweet influence have led the wanderer home to God.
We shall meet again in heaven, Annie. Meet where partings are unknown. It may be many years, perhaps,
and the grass upon my grave may blossom many times ere you will sleep the sleep.
which knows no waking, but at the last you'll come where I am waiting you.
I know I shall be there, Annie.
All the harassing doubts and fears are gone.
Simple faith in the Savior's promise has taken them away and left me perfect peace.
God bless you, Annie, darling, and grant that as you have guided me,
so you may guide others to that home above where I'm going so fast.
You have made me very happy since you have been my wife, and I bless you for it.
It makes my death-pillow easier to know that not one bitter word has ever passed between us,
nothing but perfect confidence and love.
I was not good enough for you, darling.
None knows that better than myself.
You should have married one of gentler blood and higher birth than I a poor mechanic.
I have always felt this more than you, perhaps,
and I have tried so hard not to shame you with my homespun ways.
Had I lived, I should have lived,
I should have improved constantly beneath your refining influence, but that is all past now,
and it is well, perhaps, that it is so. As you grow older, you might have felt there was a lack in me,
a something which did not satisfy the cravings of your higher nature, and though you might not have
loved me less, you would have seen that we were not wholly congenial. I am well enough in my way,
but I am not a suitable companion for a girl of culture like yourself, and I have often wondered
that you should have chosen me.
but you did and again i bless you for it never never was year so happy as the one i spent with you my darling darling annie and i was looking forward to many such but god has decreed it otherwise and what he does we know is right
i shall never see you again and though they will bring me back to you i shall not feel your tears upon my face or see you bending over my coffin-bed still i know you will do this and that makes it
necessary for me to tell what perhaps has been too long withheld, because I would spare you,
if possible. Annie, had I lived, I never could have toiled for you as I once did, for where
the right arm which has held your light form so often used to be, there is nothing now but a scarred
stump, and this is why I have not written. Does it make you sicken and shrink away from me?
Don't, Annie? Your crippled husband's heart is as full of tenderness now as ever. I will
too proud of my figure, Annie, and the thought that you might love me less when you knew how
maimed I was, hurt more than the cold, sharp steel cutting into my throbbing flesh.
And now, dear Annie, I come to the hardest part of all.
I know just how you'll start and shudder at what you deem so cruel a suggestion.
Know just how keen the pang will be, for I have felt the same, and my spirit well-nigh fainted
as I thought of the time when another's caresses than mine would call the sweet love-light
to your eye and kindle the soft blushes on your cheek.
Listen to me, Annie. You'll be glad one day to remember that I told you what I did.
You are young and beautiful, and though you do not believe it now, the time will surely come
when my grave will not be visited as often as at first, and the flowers who will plant
above me when next spring sun is shining will wither for want of care, and the rank grass
growing there will not be trodden down by your dear little feet, for they will be waiting by
another fireside than ours in the hollow, and my Annie will bear another name than mine.
Do you discredit me, darling? It will surely be, and I am willing that it should, but you
will never know the anguish it costs me to be willing. It is the bitterest drop in all the
bitter cup, but I drank it with tears and prayers, and now I can calmly say to you what I am saying.
Can even from my deathbed give you to another, whoever he may be. You can never
forget me, I know. Never forget
your soldier, husband, who fell in his
country's cause, but by and by
thoughts of him will cease to give you pain,
and our short married life
will seem like some far-off dream.
I cannot say how it would be with me, were you taken
and I left, but I am much
like other men, and judging from their
example I should do just as they do.
So if in after years another
asks you, as I once did, to be his
guiding star, don't refuse
for me. Think,
that from my low grave I bless you in your new relations, and will welcome you to heaven all the
same, though you come fettered and bound with other links than those my love has thrown around you.
I am almost done now, Annie. There is a gathering film before my eyes, and I feel the death chill
creeping through my veins. It would be sweet to have you here, as I go down the brink up which no
traveller has ever come, but it cannot be, and I will not repine. There is one with me whose presence
is dearer far than yours could be.
One whose everlasting arm
will be beneath me as I pass over, Jordan.
Leaning on him, I need no other stay,
but shall go fearlessly down to death.
There is another with me, too,
an earthly friend, who has been kinder than a brother,
and my heart clings to him more fondly than he can ever guess.
Always respect William Mather, Annie,
for what he has been to me.
Pray that prosperity may attend him all his days,
and that at the last he may find a place in heaven.
He is thinking of these things I know,
and, from the dreary hours spent with me,
there may yet spring up plants of everlasting growth.
My mind begins to wander, darling.
There's a rushing sound in my ears,
while thoughts of you and thoughts of that terrible Sabbath battle
are blended together.
Goodbye, my precious one.
Don't cry too much when you read this.
It is not goodbye forever.
A few more years of earth to you,
a moment of heavenly bliss to me.
And then we meet again,
where golden harps are ringing.
I can almost hear them now.
Almost see the shining throng sent out to meet me,
just as I once vainly dreamed
the Rockland people would come to welcome me home for more.
In fancy, I put my arms around your neck
just as I used to do.
In fancy, hold you to my bosom.
In fancy, kiss your girlish lip.
and smooth your pale brown hair.
I don't know how you'll live without me.
Don't know who will earn your bread,
but the god of the widow and fatherless
will surely care for my darling
and keep her heart from breaking.
With him I leave you,
knowing you are safer there than elsewhere.
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye.
There were great tear-blots upon this letter
for Mr. Mather as he penned it
had wept over it like a child,
forming a resolution which he wondered
had not suggested itself before.
Kneeling by the dying George, he said,
God will care for your darling,
and I shall be his instrument.
So long as I have a home,
Annie shall not suffer.
Rose's love was given to her long ago,
and mine will follow soon.
She shall be a sister to us both.
The glazed eyes lighted up with joy,
and the white lips whispered the thanks
which ended in a prayer for blessings
on one who had proved himself so kind to the poor soldier.
Come closer to me, they said.
Take my hand in yours and keep it there while I thank you for what you've been to me.
You'll forgive me, I know, that I ever thought you proud, for I did,
and sometimes there was a bitter feeling in my heart when I saw your rose
surrounded with every luxury and thought of Annie, as highly educated as she taking a far lower
place in Rockland because her husband was a mechanic.
There is more of that feeling among the working classes than you imagine, and you don't know how much good a familiar word or a little notice from such as you does to those who fill the humbler walks of life.
Women feel this more than men, and again I bless you for their care promised my Annie.
I do not ask that you should take her to your home as you suggest. You'll think differently of that by and by, but see that she does not want.
see that no winter shall find her hungry, no winter morning cold.
Oh, Annie, Annie, that you should ever come to this.
It was a bitter, wailing cry, embodying all the mighty love the sick man had ever felt for his young wife.
George had thought himself resigned, but weak human nature which clings so tenaciously to life,
was making one last effort for the mastery, and the worn spirit fainted for a time in the fierce struggle which ensued.
the mind began to wander and was in fancy back again at the cottage in the hollow where the soldier clasped his anny to his bosom begging of her in piteous tones not to love him less because he was a cripple
i have only one arm to work with now but i won't let you starve for when there's but one crust left i'll give it all to you and laugh so merrily that you will never guess how the hunger pain is gnawing at my heart i've felt it once my darling i know just what it's like
"'Twas on that terrible day when our brave boys met the foe, way up there at Manassas.
There were hours and hours and hours when we neither ate nor drank,
and the July sun poured down so hotly, drying the perspiration which dropped from my hair like rain.
"'Twas my very life I sweat away that awful day, fighting for the Union?'
"'Did you hear the battle, Annie? Hear the cannons bellowing thunder as it echoed through the Virginia woods.
"'Wasn't it grand?' they yelled the Highlanders.
gave us, as with the sixty-ninth they bore down battery after battery and plunged into the enemy's
midst. How bravely our company played their part, fighting their way through shot and shell
and blood and brains, wading ankle-deep in human gore. Hurrah for the stars and stripes, my boys.
Three cheers for the federal flag. Yes, give us three times three. And when it floats again
over all the land, remember the soldiers who help defend it. Hurrah, hurrah! Hurrah!
Mr. Mather shuddered as the wild shout ran through the room.
It seemed so like a mockery, that dying soldier shouting for liberty
and trying in vain to wave aloft his poor, scarred stump.
Anon, however, the patriotic mood was changed,
and the voice was very sad, which whispered.
But hush, what sounds are these, mingling in the glad notes of victory?
Tis the widow, the orphan, the mother, weeping over the slain.
There's morning east and west.
There's weeping north and south
for the dead who will return no more.
A crushed rebellion is hardly worth the fearful price.
Oh, Annie, pray for the poor soldier.
Everybody pray.
Honor our memory, forget our faults.
Speak kindly of us when we are gone.
We gave our life for freedom.
Tis all that we can do.
Speak kindly of the soldier slain.
Reason was struggling back again and bending lower, Mr. Mather said.
George, we will honor the soldiers dead and care for the soldiers living.
Yes, yes, George answered faintly.
They need it so much, more than the people guess who stay at home and read about the war.
It will be long in the contest terrible.
The north is strong and the south determined, and both will fight like fiends.
but right must conquer at last and the star-spangled banner shall wave again even over misguided charleston whose sons and daughter shall weep for joy as they greet the joyful sight god speed the happy day
mr mather could only press the hand which lay again in his he could not speak for he knew there was a third presence now in the sick-room that its dark form was shading the bed whereon he sat and with that feeling of awe death always inspires he sat silently watching its progress
and thinking it may be of the future time when william mather would be the dying one instead of george graham slowly the marble pallor and the strange chill crept on pinching the nose
contracting the lips, touching the forehead, and moistening the soft brown hair which William smoothed caressingly,
as he bent down to catch the last faint whispers of his spirit nearly gone.
We fought the battle bravely. Tell them not to be discouraged because of one defeat.
Our cause is just. Twill triumph at the last. Don't be too bitter toward the south.
There are kind hearts there as well as here, and its daughters weep as sad.
as any at the north. God help and pity them all. Annie, darling, I am almost home, so near
that I can see the pearly gates which stand open night and day. It is not hard to die. No pain,
no anguish now. Nothing but joy and gladness and everlasting, rest, rest, perfect rest,
for the redeemed. Derely the November winter,
went sweeping down the street, and the sobbing rain beat against the window, whilst the misty
daylight came struggling faintly into the silent room which held the living and the dead. The one,
cold and white and still, his features wearing a smile of peace as if he had indeed entered into
everlasting rest, the other kneeling by his side, and with his face buried in the pillows,
praying that when his time should come he too might die the death of the righteous,
and go where George had gone. Fourteen. Matters.
in Rockland.
With quivering lip, Mr. Mather told the members of Company R
that their lieutenant was dead.
And strong men as they were they did not deem themselves
unmanly that they wiped the big tears away,
and crowding around their informer anxiously asked
for particulars of their departed comrade,
all speaking kindly of him
and each thinking of the sweet girl-wife at home
on whom the news would fall so crushingly.
A soldier's dying was no novel thing in Washington,
and so aside from Company R,
there were few who knew or cared that another soul had gone to the God who gave it,
that another victim was added to the list which shall one day come up with fearful blackness
before the provokers of the war. The drums beat just the same. The bands played just as merrily,
and the busy tide went on as if the quiet chamber in, Blank Street, held no stiffened form,
once as full of life and hope as the gay troops marching by. But away to the northward
there was bitter mourning, and many a bright eye wept as the same.
sad news ran along the street that Rockland's young lieutenant, of whom the people were justly
proud, lay dead in Washington, and many a heart beat with sympathy for the young wifu
ever since hearing the fatal news, had lain upon her bed more dead than alive, with a look
upon her white face which told better than words of the anguish she was enduring.
Nothing could induce Rose to leave her for a moment.
Will had stayed by George, she said, and she should stay by Annie.
With her sitting by, Annie grew stronger
and could at last talk calmly what was expected on the moral.
"'It will be terrible,' she said,
to hear the tramp of feet coming up the walk
and know they are bringing George.
"'Oh, Mrs. Mather, you'll stay by me, won't you?
Even if your husband is among the number.'
Annie did not mean to be selfish.
She was too much benumb to realize anything fully,
and she never thought what it would cost Rose to stay there
knowing her husband would seek her at home and be so disappointed at not finding her there.
Rose could not refuse a request so touchingly made, but just as the morning broke, she went
home for a few moments to see that all necessary preparations were made for Will's comfort.
Then, penning him a note to tell why she was not there to meet him, she returned again to the
cottage, where widow Sims was busily at work setting things to rights for the expected arrival.
Her tears falling upon the furniture she was dusting, and her chest heaving with sobs as she heard
in the distance the sound of a gathering crowd and thought,
It may be my boy they'll go up next to meet.
Poor Annie, too, shuddered and moaned as she caught the ominous sounds and knew what they
portended.
It would be better to bring him back quietly, she said.
It seems almost like mockery this parade which he can never know.
I may be glad by and by that they honoured him thus, but it's so hard now.
And, covering her head with her pillow, Annie wept silently as she heard the mournful
beat of the muffled drum, and knew the march to the depot had commenced.
How Rose wanted to be in the street and see her husband when he came.
But with heroic self-denial, she forced down every longing to be away, and, sitting down
by Annie, busied herself with counting off the minutes and wondering if the clock would ever
point to half-past ten or the train ever arrived.
There was a great crowd out that morning to meet the returning soldier, and George's dream
of what might be when he came back again was more than realized.
There were men and carriages upon the street,
and groups of women at the corners,
while the little boys ran up and down.
But in the beat of the muffled drum,
there was a tone which made the hearts of those
who heard it overflow with tears,
as they remembered what that dirge-like music meant.
Around the jammed white hat of the man who played the fife
there was a badge of mourning,
and in the notes he trilled a mournful cadence
far different from the patriotic strains
he played as a farewell to Rockland soldiers going forth to battle, with hope so sanguine of success.
One of that youthful band was coming back. Not full of life and fiery ambition as when he went away,
dreaming bright dreams of the glory he would win, and the laurels he would wear when once again
he trod the streets at home. Not as a conquering hero with the crown of fame on his brow,
though the crown indeed was won, and where the golden light of heaven shines from the everlasting
hills, he was wearing it in glory. But his ear was deaf to all earthly sounds, and the tribute of
respect his friend's fane would bestow upon him awakened no thrill in his cold, palsless heart.
Still, they felt that all honor was due to the dead, and so they had come up to meet him,
a greater throng than any of which he had dreamed when ambition burned within his bosom.
There was a carriage waiting, too, just as he hoped there might be. A carriage sent expressly for him,
but the children on the sidewalk shrank away and ceased their noisy clamor as it went by.
Its somber appearance somewhat relieved by the gay coloring of the stars and stripes laid reverently upon it.
Slowly up the street the long procession passed,
unmindful of the rain which mingled with the snow and sleet,
beat upon the pavements,
and dashed against the window-panes from which many a tear-stained face looked out upon the gloomy scene,
made ten times gloomier by the sighing of the wind and the riffs of leaden clouds veiling the November's
sky. Over the eastern hills there was a rising wreath of smoke, and a shrill, discordant scream
told that the train was coming, just as the carriage sent for George drew up to its appointed
place. Gently, carefully, tenderly, they lifted him out, and set him down in their midst. But no
loud cheering rent the air, no acclamations of applause. Nothing save that dreadful muffled beat and the
soft notes of the fife, telling to the passengers leaning from the windows that the dead as well as
the living had been their fellow-traveler.
The banner upon the hearse told the rest of the sad story, and, with a sigh to the memory
of the unknown soldier, the passengers resumed their seats, and the train sped on its way,
leaving the Rockland people alone with their dead.
Reverently they placed him in the carriage which none cared to share with him.
Carefully they wrapped around him the stars and stripes, and dropping the heavy curtains,
followed through the streets to the cottage in the hollow, which he had left so full of life and
hope. Around that cottage there was a gathered multitude next day, and though on the unsheltered
heads of those without, the driving rain was falling, they waited patiently while the prayer was said,
and the funeral anthem chanted. Then there came a bustling moment, people passing beneath the
star-spangled banner and pausing to look at the dead. There were sobs and tears and words of fond
regret, and then the coffin-lid was closed, and once more that muffled beat was heard, as with arms
reversed, the Rockland guards marched up the walk, where leaning upon their guns they stood,
while strong men carried out their late companion and placed him in the hearse, the carriage sent
for him. There was no relative to go with him to the grave, none in whose veins his blood was
flowing, so Mr. Mather and Rose took the lead, followed by a promiscuous crowd of carriages
and pedestrians, the very horses keeping time to the solemn music beaten by the drum and played
by the man in the jammed white hat. Slowly, through the November rain,
through the November sleet, and through the November mist they bore him on through the streets which he so oft had trodden.
On past the cottage he meant to buy for poor Annie, whispering to herself with every note of the tolling bell,
George has gone to heaven. Onward, still onward, till onward, till streets and cottage were left behind,
and they came to wear the marble columns, gleaming through the autumnal fog, told who peopled that silent yard.
Just by the gate the bearers paused, and stood with uncovered heads while the sun,
solemn words were uttered.
Earth to earth, ashes to ashes, dust to dust.
Then, when it was all over, the long procession moved through the spacious churchyard,
past the tall monuments betokening worldly wealth, past the less imposing stones, whose
lettering told of treasure in heaven, past the group of cedar trees and pine, past the
graves of the nameless dead, and so out upon the highway, rose Mather starting an alarm as the
band struck up a quicker, merrier march, whose stirring jubilant notes seemed so much like
mockery. She knew it was the custom, but the music graded nonetheless harshly, and drawing her veil
over her face she wept silently, occasionally glancing backward to the spot of freshly upturned
earth where Rockland's first soldier was buried, the brave, self-denying George, who gave all he had
for his country and died in her behalf. Four weeks after George's death, Annie left the cottage in the
hollow and went to live for a time with Mrs. Mather. Early orphaned and thrown upon the charity
of a scheming aunt, who after her marriage with George had cast her off entirely,
there was now no one to whom she could look for help and sympathy, save Rose,
and when the latter insisted that her home should be Annie's also,
while William II joined his entreaties with those of his wife,
and urged as one reason his promise made to George,
Annie consented on condition that as soon as her health was sufficiently restored,
she should do something for herself, either as teacher or governess in some private family.
Amid a wild storm of sobs and tears, she had a wild storm of sobs and tears,
read her husband's dying message, growing sick and faint just as he knew she would when first
she learned of his loss, and why it was he had never written to her himself. But this was not,
compared to the horror which crept round her heart as she read what George had written of a coming
time when the long grave by the gate would not be visited as often as at first, or he who
slept there remembered us tearfully. Oh, George, George, she cried. It was cruel to tell me so,
and sinking to her knees she essayed to breathe a vow
that other love than that she had born for George Graham
should never find entrance to her bosom.
But something sealed her lips.
The words she would have uttered were unspoken,
and the rash vow was not made.
Still, there was an added drop to her already brimming cup of sorrow,
and a sadder, more loving note in the tone of her voice
when she spoke of her husband,
as if she would fortify herself
against the possibility of his prediction coming true.
It was a sorry day when she finally left her cottage home, and only God was witness to the parting.
But the dim, swollen eyes and colorless cheeks attested to its bitterness, as with one great
upheaving sob she crossed the threshold and entered the carriage where Rose sat waiting for her,
while the motherly widow Sims wrapped around her the pile of shawls which were to shield her
from the cold and bade her godspeed to her new home.
Rapidly the carriage drove away, while the widow returned to the cottage to perform the last, needful
office of fasting down the windows and locking up the doors. Then, with a sigh at the changes a few
short months had wrought, she went back to her own long deserted home. And the busy tide of life
rolled on in Rockland just the same as if in the churchyard there was no new-made grave, holding the
buried love of Annie, who in Rose Mather's beautiful home, was surrounded with every possible
comfort and luxury and treated with as much consideration as if she were a born princess,
instead of the humble woman who a few months before was wholly unknown to the little lady of the Mather Mansion.
End of chapters 13 and 14. Chapter 15 of Rose Mather, a tale by Mary Jane Holmes.
This Librevox recording is in the public domain.
Fifteen. The Deserter
Another had taken George's place in Company R, and both the widow Sims and Susan Sim shed tears of natural pride when they
read that John was the favored one, and bore the title of lieutenant.
It more than half atoned for his long absence to the young wife, who, greatly to her
mother-in-law's disgust, was made the happy possessor of a set of furs bought with a part
of the new lieutenant's increased wages.
Better lay by for a wet day, but easy come, easy go.
They will never be worth a cent.
Taint like them, Ruggles is to save and to think of the silly critters coming round in the
storm just to show them late on Saturday night.
I'm glad I want to hum,' was the widow's muttered comment as on the Sunday following the receipt of the furs,
she pinned around her high square shoulders the ten-year-old blanket shawl,
and tying round her neck the faded tippet of an even greater age started for church,
determining not to notice or speak to the extravagant Susan if she appeared as she was sure to do in her new finery.
This was hardly the right kind of spirit for the widow to take to church,
but hers was a peculiar nature, and the grace which would have sufficed,
to make Annie Graham an angel, would hardly have kept her from boiling over at the most
trivial matter.
This the widow felt, and it made her more distrustful of herself, more careful to keep down
the first approaches of her besetting sin.
But the furs had seriously disturbed her, particularly as they were said to have cost
thirty-five dollars, more than she had spent on her mortal body in half a dozen years, she
thought, as with her well-worn prayer-book in hand and a pair of Eli's darned blue socks upon her
feet to keep them from the snow, which had fallen the night before, she walked rapidly on
in the direction of St. Luke's. There was an unusual stir about the doors. A crowd of eagerly
talking people and conspicuous among them was Susan, looking so pretty in her neatly-fitting collar
and holding her little muffs so gracefully that the widow began to relent at once, and to feel
a kind of pride that John's wife was as genteel looking as the next one if she did come off them
shiftless ruggleses. But in as much as it was Sunday, she shouldn't flatter
Susan by speaking of the furs. But the first chance she got on a weekday, she tell her,
she was glad she got him if they didn't make her vain, though I know they will. She added,
it's Ruggles' nature and she's standing out there now just to show them to the folks in the
street going to the Methodist meeting. But the widow was mistaken, for Susan had
scarcely thought of her furs so absorbed was she in throwing what little light she could
upon a mystery, which was troubling the people and keeping them outside the door while they
talked the matter over. It seemed that the sexton, when at about ten o'clock on the previous
night, he came to see that the fire kindled in the furnace at sunset was safe, had stumbled over
a human form lying upon the pile of evergreens gathered for the Christmas decorations,
and placed for safe keeping in the cellar of the church. There was a cry between surprise and
terror and a muttered oath, and then the ragged, frightened intruder sprang to his feet.
and bounding up the narrow stairway fled through the open vestry door ere the sexton had time to collect his scattered senses.
This was his story corroborated by Susan Sims, who said that when, at about seven o'clock the previous night,
she was passing the church, she saw a dark-looking object which she at first mistook for a woman,
but as she came nearer she saw it was the figure of a man who, at the sound of her steps,
dropped behind a pile of rubbish and thus disappeared from view.
That feeling timid she did not return home that way.
but took the more circuitous route past her mother-in-laws,
where she stopped for a moment and repeated the circumstance
to the neighbor she found staying there.
Then she didn't come half a mile out of the way
just to tell of her finery, thought the widow,
coming nearer to Susan, and even smoothing the soft fur
which half an hour before had so provoked her ire.
Various were the surmises as to who the man could be
and why he had entered the lonesome cellar,
and the morning services had commenced ere the knot of talkers and listeners,
at the door disbanded and took their accustomed places in the church.
Rose Mather was there as usual, but she knelt in her handsome pew alone,
for Will had been gone from her two whole weeks and Annie was still too much of an invalid
to venture out.
With others at the door she heard of the intruder, and, after asking a few questions,
she had passed into the aisle with a certain wise air about her, as if she knew something
which she should not tell.
As one after another came in, it might have been observed that she turned often and
curiously toward the door, glancing occasionally at the spot where Mrs. Baker, now a regular
attendant, was in the habit of sitting. She was not there today, a fact which no one observed
save Rose and the widow Sims, the latter of whom only noticed it because Annie she knew was
deeply interested in the repentant woman. She's sick, most likely, the widow thought,
while Rose too had her own opinion as to what kept Harry's mother from church that Sunday morning.
meantime, the object of their solicitude sat crouching over the fire of wet green wood she had
succeeded in coaxing into a blaze, now looking nervously toward the half-closed door of the
small room her boys used to occupy, and again congratulating herself that it was Sunday,
and consequently no one would be coming there to pry into the secret she was guarding
as carefully as ever Tigris guarded its threatened young.
The half-frozen famished wretch fleeing from the shadow of the church out into the wintry store,
which had come up since nightfall, had gone next to the tumble-down shanty of a house which
Mrs. Baker called her home. It was late for a light to be there, for Mrs. Baker kept early
hours, but through the driving snow the wanderer as he turned the corner caught a friendly
gleam shining out from the dingy windows, and, waking in his breast one great wild
throb of joy, such as some lost mariner feels when he spies in the distance the friendly bark
and knows there's help at hand. It was a desolate, dreary home, but
to the wanderer hastening toward it, and glancing so timidly round as if behind each ripped
of snow were bristling bayonets sent to stop his course, it seemed a splendid palace.
Could he gain that shelter he was safe? His mother would shield him from the dreaded officers
he fancied were on his track, and so the sick fainting man kept on until the old board fence
was reached, where leaning against the gate he stood a moment, and with his feverish hands
scooped up the grateful snow to cool his burning forehead. The tallow candle
was burning yet within the cottage.
But the fire was raked together on the hearth,
and the stranger could see the glow of the red embers,
and the broken shovel lain across the Andiron.
I wonder what she's doing up so late, he whispered,
and, moving cautiously up the walk to the uncurtained window,
he started suddenly at the novel site which met his view.
Years before, when he lived in New England,
he remembered that one day when playing in the garret he had found in a chest of rubbish,
a large square book which Hal had said was their gravest.
mother's Bible. Afterward he had seen it standing against a broken light of glass to keep out the
snow which sometimes beat in upon himself and Hal, and that was the last he could remember concerning
that Bible or any other belonging to his mother. How then was he astonished to see it lying on the
old round stand, the dim tallow candle casting a flickering light upon the yellow leaves and upon
the figure of his mother bending over them, and loudly whispering the words she was reading? It was not an
entirely new business to Mrs. Baker, the reading of the Bible, for after the news of Harry's
death she had hunted up the long neglected volume which had given her aged mother so much comfort.
It might bring consolation to her, she thought, and so with tearful eyes and aching heart
she had tried to read and understand the sacred pages, pencil-marked some of them, by a
sainted mother's hand, and fraught with so many memories of the olden time when she was not
the hard, wrinkled, desolate creature people knew as Mrs. Baker.
The way of life was still dark and dimmed that half-heathenish woman,
but she was determinedly groping on, following the little light she had,
and each night found her bending over the Bible ere she sought the humble bed
standing there in the dark corner, just where it stood that morning when her two boys
went away. It was far more comfortable looking now than then,
for there was a nice warm blanket on it, while the outer covering was clean and new.
Rose Mather had kept her promise given in the hour of the poor woman's bereavement,
and scattered about the room were numerous articles which once did duty in the servant's apartments at the Mather Mansion.
But the intruder did not notice these. He was too much absorbed with the stooping figure,
whispering a part of the fourteenth chapter of John, and occasionally wiping away a tear as she came to
some passage more beautiful than the others. There were tears, too, in the eyes of the rough man
outside, but he forced them back, and pressing closer to the window, watched the lone woman
inside as sinking down upon her knees with the flickering candle shining on her wrinkled face.
She prayed first for herself and then for him, the boy standing without the door and
listening while his heart beat so loudly that he almost feared she would hear and know that he was
there. But she paid no heed, and the tremulous voice went on, asking that God would follow
and bless and care for the Billy Boy far away and bring him back to the mother who had never
been to him what she ought. The name Billy Boy touched a tender cord, and stretching out his
hands toward her, the man who bore that name sobbed out. Oh, mother, mother, I'm here, I'm here.
There was a sudden pause, and, turning her head, the startled woman listened. Was it the wind
moaning round her lonesome dwelling, or was it poor dead Harry calling to her, as in her superstitious
imagination she sometimes believed he did when she was praying for Billy?
approaching her that no prayer had ever been said for him, the lost one.
Again the sobbing cry, and a rustling movement by the door.
It could not be the wind, for that only shook the loosened timbers or screamed through
some gaping crevice, while this, whatever it might be called,
Mother, come!
Was it a warning from the other world?
A summons to follow her first-born?
Annie Graham had said there were no such messages sent to us, and Annie was always right.
so the frightened woman listened again until the rattling of the latch and a feeble timid knock told her there was more than the winter wind or spirits of the dead about her house that night there was a human being seeking to gain entrance and tottering to the door she asked who it was and what they wanted there
mother mother let me in i'm your billy boy come from the war the words were hardly uttered ere the door was opened wide the frantic woman dragging rather than leading in the war
out man, who staggering forward fell into her arms sobbing piteously.
I'm so sick and tired. I've been weeks on the road hiding everywhere. For mother,
shut the door tight so nobody can hear. I've run away. I've had enough of war and so I left
one night. You know what they do to deserters. They hang them neck and heels. Oh, mother,
mother, don't let them find me, will you? I've done my best in one dresser. I've done my best in one
dreadful battle. They mustn't get me now, will they think? And Billy cast a searching glance
around the room to see that no officer was there with power to take him back. Would they get him from
her? She'd like to see them do it, she said, as she led the childish deserter to the hearth, he
leaning heavily upon her and falling rather than sitting upon the chair she brought.
Weary of a soldier's life, and satisfied with one taste of battle, he had stolen away one night
when the rain in the darkness sheltered him from observation.
Greatly magnifying the value put upon himself,
as well as the chances for detection,
he had not dared to take the cars,
lest at every station there should be one of the police waiting to secure him.
So he had made the entire journey from Washington on foot,
traveling by night and resting by day,
sometimes in barns, but oftener in the woods,
where some friendly stump or leafless tree was his only shelter.
He had reached his home at last,
but his haggard face, his blood-shot eyes, his blistered feet and tattered garments
bore witness to his long, painful journey.
With streaming eyes the mother listened to the story, then opening the bed of coals,
she warmed and shaped his half-frozen limbs, handling tenderly the poor blistered feet
from which the soles of the shoes had dropped, leaving them exposed.
But all in vain did she prepare the cup of fragrant tea sent her that afternoon by Mrs. Mather.
Billy could do little more than taste it.
He was too tired, he said.
He should be better in the morning after he had slept.
So with eager trembling hands, his mother fixed the bed in the little room which had not been used since he went away,
bringing her own pillows and the nice rose blanket given by Mrs. Mather,
together with a strip of carpet which she spread upon the floor so as to make it soft for Billy's wounded bleeding feet.
How sick he was, and how he moaned in his fitful sleep,
now talking of Hal, now of being shot, and again of the Bible on the stand,
and the prayer he heard his mother make.
Mrs. Baker was not accustomed to sickness,
but she knew this was no ordinary case,
and she suggested sending for the doctor.
But Billy started up in such dismay,
telling her no one must know that he was there
unless she wanted him killed,
that he succeeded in communicating a part of his terror to her,
and she spent the entire Sunday by her child's bedside,
doing what she could to ally the raging fever increasing so fast,
and keeping watch to see that no one came near to drag her boy away.
The next morning it became absolutely necessary for her to leave him for a time,
as she must procure the few necessaries he needed,
and taking advantage of the heavy sleep into which he had fallen,
she stole noiselessly out, hoping to return ere he should wake.
Scarcely, however, had she left the lane and turned into Main Street,
when Rose came tripping to the gate, drawn thither by a curiosity to see if her suspicions were correct.
She had learned from her husband of Bill's exit from Washington,
and for some days had been expecting to hear of his arrival in town.
That he had come, she was certain,
and telling Annie where she was going she had started rather early for Mrs. Baker's.
As her knock met with no response, she entered without further ceremony,
and passing on through the low, dark kitchen came to the door of the little room
where Bill lay breathing heavily, and muttering about camps and guard-houses and deserters.
The sight of suffering always awoke a chord of sympathy in Rosemather's bosom,
and without a thought of danger
she bent close to the sick man
and involuntarily laid her soft, cool hand
upon his burning forehead.
The touch awoke him, but in the wild eyes
turned upon her there was no glance of recognition
or look of fear.
He evidently fancied himself back in Washington
and asked the name of her regiment.
Oh, I know, he continued
still keeping his eyes fixed upon her.
You're the chap I took, but you fell away mightily since then.
Yanky Fair don't set well
on your rebel's stomach, I guess.
And a wild, coarse laugh
rang through the room making Rose shudder
and draw back, for she felt intuitively
that Billy was mad.
She was not, however, afraid
of him, and, standing at a little distance
she tried to reason with him, telling him
she was not a rebel. She was
Mrs. Mather come to do him good.
Bill only laughed derisively.
Couldn't cheat him.
Guess he knew them eyes and them hands
white as cotton wool?
I'll bet I've got a ring that'll
fit him. He continued, and reaching for his pantaloons, which he had insisted should lie behind
him on the bed he took from the pocket the costly diamond once worn by his rebel captive,
and confiscated by him as contraband.
Try it on, he said to Rose, who mechanically obeyed, wondering why it should look so familiar
to her. It was too large for her slender fingers, and dropping off rolled upon the floor.
Rose at once set herself to finding the missing ring and had just returned it to its
when Mrs. Baker came in, terribly alarmed at finding Mrs. Mather there.
Rose, however, quieted her fears at once by telling her she had known for some days past of
Bill's desertion, and had kept it from everyone but Annie because her husband thought it best.
She did not believe he would be followed, she said, for Will wrote that he had become so
reckless and discontented that his absence was no loss to the army, but for a while it might
be well that his presence should not be known in Rockland, as the people might be indignant
at a deserter, and perhaps in their excitement do him some injury.
He ought to have medical advice, though, she added, for I think he's very sick.
Mrs. Baker knew he was, and fear lest he should die, overcame every other feeling, making
her consent that Rose should call their family physician.
It was nearly noon ere he arrived, and in the meantime Rose had reported the case to Annie,
and then, returning to Mrs. Baker, took her place by Billy, who called her his little
rebel, and ordered her about as if he had been a commanding officer and she his subordinate.
The novelty of the thing was rather pleasing to Rose, and notwithstanding that the physician
pronounced the disease typhus fever in its most violent form, she persisted in staying,
saying someone must help Mrs. Baker and she was not afraid. So day after day found her in that
comfortless dwelling, while the frequent callers at the Mather Mansion wondered where she could be.
It came out at last that she was nursing William Baker,
lying dangerously sick of typhus fever in his mother's dilapidated home,
and then, as villagers will,
the Rockland people wondered and gossiped and wondered again
how the aristocratic Rose Mather could sit hour after hour
in that poverty-stricken cottage,
ministering to the wants of despised Bill Baker.
Rose hardly knew herself,
and when questioned upon the subject, could only reply,
I guess it's because he's a soldier,
and I must do something,
for the war. Will knows it. He says I'm doing right, and Annie Graham too. And so, with her heart
kept brave by thinking that Will and Annie approved her course, Rose went every day to Mrs. Baker's,
doing more by her cheerful presence and the needful comfort she supplied to arrest the progress
of the disease and effect a favorable change than all the physicians in the county could have done.
Bill owed his life to her, and it was touching to witness his childish gratitude when Reason
resumed her throne, and he learned who it was he had sometimes called his
little rebel, and again had fancied with some beautiful angel sent to cure and comfort him.
He had often seen Mrs. Mather in the streets before he went away, but never as closely as now,
and for hours after his convalescence he would lie looking into her face, which seemed to
puzzle him greatly. Occasionally, too, he would take from his pocket a picture, which he evidently
compared with something about her person, then with a sly wink, which began to be very
annoying, he would return it to its hiding-place and ask her sundry questions, which under
ordinary circumstances she would have resented as being too familiar. At last, one afternoon,
as she was sitting by him, while his mother did some errands in the village, he suddenly
surprised her by dropping upon her lap an elegant gold watch, which Rose knew at a glance must
have belonged to some person of taste and wealth. "'What is it? Whose is it?' she asked, and Bill replied.
"'Twas his'n, the chaps I took, you know?'
"'He's down to the old capital now.
"'Shut up. Didn't you never hear of him?'
"'You mean the young man you captured,' Rose replied.
"'Tell me about him, please.
"'Who was he, and where was his home?'
"'You tell,' Bill answered with one of his peculiar winks.
"'He gave it as John Brown.
"'But a chap who knowed him said twas something else.
"'He want a rebel neither.
"'That is, it want his nature,
"'for he came from Yankee land.'
"'A traitor, then,' Rose suggested, and Bill replied.
"'You needn't guess again. And you and I ought to be glad that no such truck belongs to us.'
Rose colored Scarlet but made no response, for Requiem and Jimmy flashed across her mind,
and she shrank from having even the vulgar Bill know how intimately she was connected with a traitor.
Bill watched her narrowly and thinking to himself,
"'I'm on the right track, I'll bet,' he continued.
I hate no relations in the Confederate Army, I know,
and I don't an atom believe you have.
No answer from Rose except a heightened bloom upon her cheek,
and her inquisitor went on.
Have you any friends there?
Rose could not tell a lie,
and after a moment's silence she stammered out.
Please don't ask me.
Oh, Jimmy, Jimmy, I wish I knew where he was,
and the great tears trickled through the snowy fingers
clasped over her flushed face.
I'll be darned if I ain't,
crying too, Bill said, wiping his eyes with his shirt-sleeve.
But, Bean I'm in for it, I may as well see it through.
What might be your name before it was Miss Marthers?
Carlton, and Rose looked up quickly at Bill, who continued.
You came from Boston, I believe?
Yes, from Boston.
And Rose leaned eagerly forward while Bill, with his favorite,
Nuff said, plunged his hand into his pocket and taking out the picture,
passed it to Rose.
Quick as thought, the bright color faded from her cheek, and with ashen quivering lips,
she whispered.
It's I.
It's mine taken for Jimmy, just before he went away.
How came you by it?
Oh, tell me!
And in the voice there was a tone of increasing anguish.
Tell me, was it?
Was it?
Jimmy, my brother, whom you took prisoner and carried to Washington?
If James Carlton is your brother, I suppose it was, Bill said,
and that's the very picture he stuck to like a chestnut burb,
begging for it like a dog and offering everything he had if I'd give it up.
Why didn't you then?
And Rosa's eyes blazed with anger, making Bill shrink from their indignant gaze.
"'Twas rotten in me, I know,' he said timidly,
"'but they was contraband according to law, and I felt so savage at the pesky rebels then.
I didn't know twas you he teased so for, actually crying when I wouldn't give it up.
"'I'm sorry, I be I swah, and I'll give you every single.
confounded contraband.
You've got the watch, and there's the ring,
the spectacles, the tobacco-box, and the thing I'm a bob
for cigars, the sum total of his traps, except a cha or so
of the weed that I couldn't very well bring back.
And Bill's face wore a very satisfied expression as he laid in
Rose's lap, every article belonging to her brother.
She knew now who the prisoner was in whom she had felt so strange
and interest. It was Jimmy, and the mystery concerning his fate was
solved. He was a captive at Washington, and her heart ached to its very core as she thought of both
her brothers languishing so many weary months in prison. Very minutely, she questioned Bill,
eliciting from him little or nothing concerning Jimmy's present condition. He only knew that he was
a captive still, that he was represented as maintaining the utmost reserve, seldom speaking
except to answer direct questions, and that he seemed very unhappy. Poor boy, he wants to come home,
mine, no, and Rose sobbed aloud as she thought how desolate and homesick he must be.
I can't stay any longer today, she said. As she heard Mrs. Baker at the door and bidding Bill
goodbye she hurried home, where after a long, passionate flood of tears, wept in Annie's lap.
She wrote to her mother and husband both, telling them where Jimmy was, and begging of the
former to come at once and go with her to Washington.
End of Chapter 15
Chapter 16 of Rose Mather, A Tale by Mary Jane Holmes
This Librevox recording is in the public domain.
Sixteen
News Direct from Jimmy
That night as Rose sat alone in her cheerful boudoir musing upon the strange events
which had occurred within the last few months,
a letter was brought to her bearing her mother's handwriting.
It had passed hers on the road and Rose tore it open,
startling as a soiled tear-stained note dropped from the inside upon the floor.
Intuitively she felt that it was from Jimmy and catching it up, she read the homesick,
heart-sick, remorseful cry of penitence and contrition, which the weary rebel boy had at
last sent to his mother.
Stubberness and proud reserve could hold out no longer and he had written confessing
his error and begging earnestly for the forgiveness he knew he did not deserve.
I am not all bad, he said, and on that quiet morning when beneath the cover of the Virginia
Woods I lay, watching the Union soldiers coming so brave
on, there was a dizziness in my brain, and a strange womanly feeling at my heart, while the
sensation I cannot describe thrilled every nerve when I saw in the distance the stars and stripes
waving in the summer wind. How I wanted to warn them of their danger to bid them turn back from
the snare so cunningly devised, and how proud I felt of the Federal soldiers when contrasting them
with ours. I fancied I could tell which were the Boston boys, and there came a mist before my eyes,
as I thought how your dear hands and those of Little Rose
had possibly helped to make some portion of the dress they wore.
You know about the battle.
You read it months ago and wept, perhaps,
as you thought of Jimmy firing at his own brother.
It mightn't be.
But, mother, I did not.
I scarcely fired at all,
and when I was compelled to do so to avoid suspicion,
it was so high that neither the wounded nor the dead can accuse me as their murderer.
And I'm glad now that it is so.
It makes my prison bed softer to know there is no stain of blood upon my soul.
Poor Tom, I dare say has written to you of our encounter in the woods,
but he does not know the shock it was to me to meet him there and know I could not help him.
Dear Tom, my heart aches more for him than for myself,
for the Richmond prison guards are not like those who keep watch over us.
There are humane people there,
kind, tender hearts, which feel for anyone in distress,
but the jailers, the common soldiers, and the rabble are not, I fear, as considerate as they might be.
Many of them have been made to believe the war entirely of the north-provoking,
that Hamlin is a mulatto and Lincoln a foul-hearted knave whose whole aim is to set the Negroes free.
But enough of southern politics.
It will all come clear at last, and the star-spangled banner wave again over every revolted state.
Write to me, mother. Say you forgive your rebel boy.
say that when I am exchanged as I hope to be, I may come home,
and that you will not turn away from your sinful, airing, Jimmy.
There was a message of love for Rose,
and then the letter closed with one last touching entreaty,
that the mother would forgive her child and take him back again to her confidence and love.
Of course she'll do it, Rose said vehemently,
and, seizing a pen and paper she wrote to Will,
enclosing a note to Jimmy, full of pardon and tender love,
bidding him when he should be released come directly to Rockland where their mother should be waiting for him,
and were she forgetting all the past would nurse him back to health.
Nearly a week went by, and then there came a letter from Will,
telling how he had visited the rebel Jimmy in his prison,
and Rose wept frantically as she read the particulars of that interview
when her brother first met the sister's husband, of whom he had never heard.
I found him sitting apart from the others, William wrote,
apparently absorbed and disagreeable reflections, for there was a
an abstracted look upon his face and deep wrinkles upon his forehead.
If he had not been pointed out to me, I should have known him by his striking resemblance
to your family.
The Carlton features could not be mistaken, particularly the proud curve about the mouth and
the arching of the eyebrows, while I recognize at once the soft, curling hair and brilliant
complexion, which you will remember once attracted me toward a certain little girl who is
now all the world to the old bachelor will.
But this isn't a love letter, darling.
I'm only going to tell you how sorry your brother looked sitting there alone in that noisy multitude
whose language and manners are not the most refined that could be desired, and how my heart warmed
toward the solitary being and forgave him at once for all his errors passed.
Very haughtily he bowed to me when I was introduced, and then in silence awaited to hear my
errand, the proud curve around his mouth deepening as he surveyed me with a hauteur which under
ordinary circumstances would have annoyed me exceedingly.
as it was I could almost fancy myself the prisoner and he the free man he seemed so cool so collected while I was embarrassed and uncertain how to act
is your visit prompted by curiosity to see how a so-called rebel can bear confinement or did you come on business he asked and then all my embarrassment was at an end
I came I said partly at your sister's request and partly to ascertain how much you are willing to do toward the attainment of your freedom
I do not think he understood the last.
He only caught at the words,
Your sister, and grasping my arm, he whispered hoarsely,
What of, my sister? Have you seen her? Do you know her?
And does she hate me now?
I told him I was your husband, and with quivering lip he asked me,
Is she well, my precious little rose, whom I remember almost as a child,
and mother, has she cast me off?
Oh, if she only knew how I am punished for my sin,
she would forgive her wayward boy.
Here he broke down in such a wild storm of sobs and tears
that the inmates of the prison gathered in groups around him,
their looks indicative of their surprise at witnessing so much emotion
in one who up to that moment had appeared haughtily indifferent to everything around him.
With an authoritative gesture he waved them off,
and then passing him your note I too walked away,
leaving him alone while he read it.
But even where I stood I could hear the smothered sobs he tried in vain to suppress.
I am inclined to think he is right in saying that joining the Confederate Army was the best lesson he ever learned.
I am sure he must be greatly changed from the reckless daring boy whose exploits you have described so often.
He is very anxious to swear allegiance to the stars and stripes, even though he should be doomed to prison life for five more weary months,
and, as I am not a mere private now, and I have considerable influence in Washington,
I hope ere long to write that he is free and on his way to Rockland whether he will go first.
jimmy expresses the utmost sympathy for tom and says he would gladly take his place if that could be for he fears the inmates of those richmond tobacco houses are not always scared for as he has been at washington
poor tom i hope he will be among the list of the exchanged and if so you may expect soon to welcome both your brothers no wonder rose wept tears of joy over his letter while her thoughts went after her rebellious but repentant brother nor tarried there for farther to the south
Another weary captive pined, and every fiber of her heart bled with sympathy for Tom.
Poor Tom, she always called him, and as the days of sickening suspense went by,
she grew so nervous and so ill that her mother came up from Boston to attend her
while Annie shook off her own feelings of weary languor, and did for Rose the same offices
which Rose had once done for her.
"'I do so wish you had been my sister,' Rose said to her one day when she had been
kinder than usual. I know I should be a better woman, and so would all of us.
Annie made no reply except to twine around her fingers their coil of chestnut hair
lying in such profusion upon the pillows. For a few moments Rose lay perfectly still,
with her eyes fixed upon the paper bordering, as if counting the fanciful flowers,
but her thoughts were intent upon a far different subject. Turning to her mother, she suddenly
asked, "'How old is Jimmy? Twenty-three or twenty-four?'
Twenty-three last May, was the reply, and with a rather troubled expression upon her face, Rose continued,
Will is thirteen years older than I am, and the little curly head shook doubtfully.
"'What are you talking about?' Mrs. Carlton asked, but Rose did not answer at once.
There was another interval of silence, and then starting quickly Rose called out.
"'Mother, don't you remember that affair of Jimmy's ever so long ago when he was a boy at school in New London?'
There was a little girl that he fancied, and you took him home for fear of what would come of it,
when you found she was poor and nobody.
Glancing quickly at Annie, who was attentively examining the hemstitch of the fine linen pillowcase,
Mrs. Carlton said reprovingly,
You should not parade our family matters before strangers, my daughter.
Oh, Andy is no stranger, Rose answered laughingly.
She is one of our folks now.
Besides, she is not enough interested in the love affair of a seventeen-year-old boy,
ever to repeat it.
Love affair, Mrs. Carlton rejoined a little scornfully.
Not very much love about it, I imagine.
She was stopping with her aunt at the Pequot House,
and Jimmy saw her a few times, passing himself off by another name than his own.
If he had cared for this child, he would never have done that.
He seems to have a penchant for assuming names,
Rose rejoined playfully.
He called himself John Brown at Washington, while to this little Pequot girl he was,
let me see. What was it? Can't you think, Mother? Rose was bent on talking about Jimmy and his
Pequot girl, and knowing that she could not stop her, Mrs. Carlton replied. Richard Lee, or something
like that. Oh, yes, Dick. I remember now. And her name was, what was it, mother? It makes my headache,
so trying to recall it. If ever I knew I've forgotten, Mrs. Carlton said, and after trying in
vain to think, Rose dismissed the name, but not the subject.
How angry Jimmy was, she continued, when you brought him home and how awfully he swore.
It makes you shudder, don't it? And she turned to Annie, who had shivered either with cold
or horror at Jimmy's profanity. He was a bad boy once, but I most know he's better now.
Maybe, Mother, this was a real nice girl, and if you'd let Jimmy alone he might have become
attached to her, and she have been his wife by this time.
then he would not have joined the rebel army don't you think you and tom were a little too severe on jimmy sometimes perhaps so was the faint response as mrs carleton looked out upon the wintry landscape seeing there visions of a handsome boyish tearful face flushed with anger and entreaty as its owner begged of her not to take him back to boston which he hated
But leave him where he was, saying that the little girl at the Pequot house had already done him more good than all the sermons preached from the pulpits of the Bay State Capitol.
But she had disregarded Jimmy's wishes, and from that time forward he had pursued a course of recklessness ending at last in prison.
With a half-regretful sigh, Mrs. Carlton thought of all this, and in her heart she blamed herself for some of her boy's disobedience.
But it could not now be helped, and with another sigh she turned toward Roe.
still speculating as to what the result might have been had Jimmy been suffered to follow up his first and so far as she knew only fancy.
What do you suppose would have happened if Jimmy had stayed in New London and this scheming aunt whom mother feared far more than the Pequot had stayed there too?
She asked of Annie, forgetting that the particulars of the affair had not been repeated.
But it did not matter, for Annie answered all the same.
She was sitting now with her back to Mrs. Carlton, while so far as Rose was concerned, her face
was in the shadow. Consequently, Rose could not see its expression as she replied. Nothing
probably would have come of it. I imagine the Pequot, as you call her, was not more than
fourteen, and you know how easily we forget the fancies of that age. She was undoubtedly pleased
with the evident admiration of your handsome brother, and watched anxiously it may be for
the evenings when, with others of his comrades he came to the hotel. But a closer acquaintance
would have resulted in her knowing the deception about the name, and after that she would
would not have cared for him?
If he really liked her, he would not have imposed upon her thus.
She's forgotten him ere this, and is probably a married woman.
Perhaps so, Rose replied.
I wish I knew.
Jimmy didn't mean to deceive her long.
He took the name Dick Lee partly in sport,
and partly because he didn't wish his teacher to know how often Jim Carlton was at
the Pequot House when he thought him somewhere else.
After he began to like her and saw how pure and good and truthful she was,
he hated to tell her, but had made up his mind to do so when mother took him away.
He might have written, Annie said, and she may have been silly enough to cry over his
abrupt and unexplained departure. Mother wouldn't let him write, Rose rejoined laughingly.
She watched him closely and got Tom interested, too. Poor Jimmy, I wonder if that girl ever thinks
of him now. She may, but I dare say she is glad your mother took him home. She has outlived all
that fancy, and Annie's white fingers on one of which the wedding ring was shining, worked nervously
together. As if bent on tormenting both her auditors by talking of Jimmy Rose kept on, wondering how he
looked, if she should know him, what he would say, how he would act, and if he ever would come.
I'm so glad you are here, Annie, she said, for you do everybody good you come in contact with,
and I want you to talk to Jimmy, will you? Annie only smile.
but her cheeks burned with excitement and rose was about asking her if her head didn't ache when a letter was brought in bearing the washington postmark eagerly rose broke it open screaming with joy as she read that jimmy had been released had taken the oath of allegiance and was coming home to rockland
he'll be here let me see thursday on the three o'clock train that's to-morrow oh i'm so glad and in her delight the little lady forgot that for the last week she had been playing
sick, and leaping upon the carpet, densed about the room, kissing alternately her mother and
Annie, and asking if they were ever so pleased in their lives.
Oh, I forgot, she suddenly exclaimed as she saw the great tears dropping from Annie's eyes
and guessed of what she was thinking.
I did not mean to make you sorry contrasting Jimmy's coming home with that of poor George.
Dear Annie, don't cry!
And the chubby arms closed coaxingly round the now sobbing Annie's neck.
Don't cry. You'll like Jimmy, I know. And if you don't, I know you'll like dear Tom. He's perfectly
splendid, and he gave his place to George, you know. Yes, Annie knew, but it only made her tears flow
faster as she thought of Rose so full of hope, her husband yet alive, and her brother's coming home,
while she, without a friend on whom she could lean, was alone in her desolate widowhood.
Excusing herself from the room she sought her own pleasant chamber, and there alone poured out her
grief into the ear of one who almost since she could remember had been the recipient of all her
sorrows. And Annie had far more need for help than Rose suspected. She could not stay there and
meet Jimmy Carlton face to face after what she had heard, while a return to the lonely cottage
seemed impossible. Widow Sims' home suggested itself to her mind. But if the prisoners were
exchanged and Isaac came home, she might be an intruder there, and besides, what truthful reason
could she give to Rose for her strange conduct.
It was a sad dilemma in which Annie found herself so suddenly placed,
and more than an hour of solitary and prayerful reflection
found her still uncertain as to the course duty would dictate in the present emergency.
It seemed expedient that she should go away,
and when in the evening she joined Rose, who chanced to be alone,
she suggested leaving her house, at least during Jimmy's stay,
and going either to the cottage in the hollow or to stay with widow Sims.
In the utmost astonishment, Rose listened to the proposal and then replied,
You go away because Jimmy is coming.
Preposterous.
Why, I want you here on his account, if nothing more.
Besides, where will you go?
Widow Sims has taken Susan to live with her at John's request,
and that little teeny place will not begin to hold three women with hoops.
You forget the widow does not wear them, Annie suggested.
Her heart beginning to sink, notwithstanding her playful words.
"'Yes, I know,' Rose replied.
"'But you are not going there.
"'If you are in the way here with Jimmy,
"'you'd surely be more in the way there with Isaac.
"'Don't you see?'
"'And Rose looked as if this argument
"'were altogether conclusive.'
"'I can go home,' Annie said faintly.
"'The cottage is mine till the first of April.'
"'Rose coloured and hesitated somewhat,
"'as if a little uncertain how
"'what she had to say on this subject might be received.
"'Then resolving to put a little bit of,
bold face upon it, she said.
I ought to have told you before, I suppose.
Don't you remember the day you had the sick headache, more than a week ago?
Well, while you were asleep, a man came to know if you'd let him into the cottage till
spring, as he was obliged to leave where he was and could find no other place.
I did not wish to wake you, and as I knew you would not care, I said yes on my own responsibility,
and sent Bridget down to pack all your things in the chamber, as he only wanted the lower
rooms. She put them away real carefully, Bridget did, for I've been to see myself. Rose added quickly
as she saw the color mounting to Annie's cheeks and feared she might be indignant at the liberty.
And is he there? Annie asked, conquering all emotion and speaking in her natural tone.
Yes, he's there, Rose answered. You are not angry, are you? He's a nice man and so is his wife.
I am not angry, Annie replied. But, more so is.
sorry than I can express, though, had I been consulted, I should undoubtedly have done as you did.
Oh, I'm so glad, for it has bothered me a heap wondering what you'd say, Rose cried,
throwing her arms around Annie's neck. And now you'll stay with us, for you see you have nowhere
else to go. Shan't she, mother? And she appealed to Mrs. Carlton, who had just come in.
Of course Mrs. Graham will stay, was Mrs. Carlton's reply, for during the few days of her sojourn at
Rockland she had become greatly interested in the sweet young Annie, and already foresaw the
benefit she would be to Rose, who needed some such influence to keep her in check.
Mrs. Carlton was proud, and at first her daughter's growing intimacy with the wife of a mechanic
had given her pride a pang, but a closer acquaintance had dispelled the foolish prejudice,
for she saw in the gentle Annie unmistakable marks of education and refinement, while she was
not insensible to the charm thrown around the beautiful stranger by the lovely Christian character
which shone so brightly now in the dark hour of affliction.
Coming nearer to her and laying her hand in a motherly way upon her pale brown hair, she said.
We all want you, Mrs. Graham, and as Rose, by an act which I will admit was to presuming
has virtually closed your own doors against you, I see no alternative but for you to stay with us.
Rose needs you, and as she says, you may do Jimmy good, while Tom, if he ever comes,
will be glad to meet the wife of one in whom he was greatly interested.
After this, Annie offered no further remonstrance, though in her heart she hoped Jimmy's residence in Rockland would not be very long.
Of Tom she had no dread. She rather wished to see him than otherwise, for he had been so kind to George,
and in fancy she had enshrined him as a middle-aged, greyish-haired man, stooping a little, perhaps,
and with all very fatherly and venerable in his appearance. This was Tom. But Jimmy, handsome,
saucy-eyed, mischievous Jimmy, putting angle-worms and roses' bushy.
and frightening the little Pequot with a mud turtle found on New London Beach
was a very different thing, and though trusting much to the lapse of years and change of name,
Annie shrank nervously from the dreaded tomorrow, which was to bring the rebel home.
End of Chapter 16 of Rose Mather, a tale by Mary Jane Holmes.
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17. The Confederate Soldiers Welcome to Rockland.
Rose had fretted herself into a headache, and as Mrs. Carlton could not think of meeting her
returning prodigal in the presence of strangers, there was no one to go up to meet him unless Annie should
consent to do so. But greatly to Rose's disappointment, Annie obstinately refused, while Mrs. Carlton
too said it would not be proper for Mrs. Graham to go alone and meet a stranger whom she had never
seen. Couldn't she tell him she was Annie, my adopted sister? Rose said half-poutingly. What will he
think when he finds nobody there but Jake, who I verily believe, looks upon him as half a savage
for having joined the Southern Army? I heard him myself tell Bridget that Ben Arnold was coming
today, meaning that horrid traitor that gave up Yorktown or something, and, having thus betrayed
her ignorance of revolutionary history, rose bathed her aching head in Odocolon and lay back
upon her pillows, wondering what Jimmy would say and how he would manage to brave the gaping people
who were sure to stare at him as if he were some monster.
She hoped there would not be many there, and of course there wouldn't, for who knew or cared for Jimmy's coming?
More cared for Jimmy's coming than Rose suspected, and the streets were full of men and boys of a certain class, hastening to the depot to see the rebel, as they persisted in calling him, in spite of Billy Baker's repeated suggestions that they soften it down somewhat by prefixing the word reformed.
Bill was very busy, very important, very consequential that day,
and quite inclined to be very patronizing
and do the agreeable to the man he had captured in Manassas.
Folks are to overlook him, he said,
and treat him halfway decent, for the best was apt to stumble,
and there should neither be hootin nor hissing if he could help it.
Indeed, so impressed was Bill with the idea
that the responsibility of Jimmy's reception was pending upon himself,
that he deliberately knocked down two of the ringleaders,
who announced their intention to hoot and to hiss as much as they pleased.
Bill's warlike propensities were pretty generally understood in Rockland,
and this energetic demonstration had the effect of quelling, to a certain extent,
the babble which would otherwise have reigned,
when at last the train stopped before the depot and the expected lion appeared upon the platform,
his identity proven by Bill who whispered,
"'That's him with a rowdy hat. That's the chap.'
Then, with a proud air of self-assurance,
he stepped forward and offered his hand to the embarrassed street.
who was looking this way and that in quest of a familiar face.
Hello, Corporal, he called out with the utmost Saint-Froix.
You recognize me, I suppose?
I'm the critter that took you in the Virginia woods.
I've gin all them contraband's to your sister, Miss Marthers.
She and I has got to be considerable intimate.
I think a sight on her.
He continued, as Jimmy showed no signs of reciprocating the coarse familiarity other than by
rather hotly offering his hand.
but bill was not to be put down for wasn't he as good as corporal carlton hadn't they sustained to each other the relation of captor and captive and if there were any preference wasn't it in his favor
he thought so and nothing abashed by jimmy's evident disgust he was about announcing to him that a carriage was in waiting when jake made his way through the crowd to the spot where jimmy stood the sight of him suggested a new idea to bill and bowing first to one and then to the other he said
Ah, Mr. Jacob Seliman.
Allow me to introduce you to my friend, Corporal Carlton,
late of the Confederate Army,
supposed to be fit in for just such goods and chattels as you.
The African teeth were plainly visible at this novel introduction,
while the good-humoured smile which broke over the hitherto cold,
haughty features of the stranger,
changed into a general laugh,
the muttered groans and imprecations which the words Confederate Army had provoked.
It was strange what a difference that smile made
in the looks of Jimmy's handsome face.
removing its haughty sarcastic expression and softening to a great extent the feelings of the crowd many of whom instinctively dropped the brickbats stones and bits of frozen mud with which they were prepared to pelt the rebel's carriage so soon as they should be in the rear
still they must have some fun even if it were at bill's expense and just as the latter was button-halling the persecuted jimmy and escorting him to the carriage one more daring than the others proposed three groans and a tiger for the deserter
instantly hats caps and fists were flourished aloft and the air resounded with the most direful sounds imaginable as groan after groan came heaving up from the leathern lungs of the crowd
with a fierce gesture of impatience jimmy turned upon them his black eyes flashing fire at what he deemed an insult offered to himself whatever his faults had been desertion was not among the number and he was about to say so when bill with imperturbable gravity whispered to him they don't mean you now corporal
it's me they're hitting a dig.
You see, I did leave Washington in a hurry.
Don't mind them and add them.
They're the offscorans of the town.
And having piloted Jimmy safely to the carriage door,
Bill took off his own cap and swinging it around his head, shouted aloud.
Three cheers for Corporal Carlton!
For an instant there was a silence,
the crowd a little uncertain as to how far their loyalty
might be impeached by cheering for a rebel.
But when the dark, handsome face with its winning smile,
was again turned toward them, and they saw in it a strong resemblance to the patriotic little
lady whom even the lowest of them had learned to regard with respect. Their doubts were given to
the winds, and the ringleader who carried in his pocket a quantity of questionable eggs, designed
for use as the occasion might require, led off the cheers, making the deep old ring with the loud
hosers interlarded here and there by a groan or his from those not yet won over to the popular party.
Lifting his hat gracefully, Jemmy bowed an acknowledgement, and his lips
moved as if about to speak while cries of,
Here, here, give us a speech.
Let's have your politics, ran through the excited throng.
Standing close to Jimmy, who would fain have dispensed with his suggestive presence,
Bill whispered in his ear.
Let her slide, Coprol.
Go in strong for Uncle Sam, if you don't want this new coat of urine spilt.
There ain't a rotten hens nest in town but what was robbed this morning on your account,
and if they once get fairly to work, it'll take more than me and Mr. Sullivan to
stop them? Pitch in them to your Sarman.
Jimmy's natural disposition prompted him to brave the purloined contents of Rockland's
hen's nests. But he would not endanger his sister's carriage, and besides that, he felt
that submission to people so infinitely beneath him was a part of his merited punishment.
So forcing down his pride, he, in a few well-chosen words, told his breathless audience that
though he had once proved faithless to his country, none regretted more than himself or was now
a firmer friend to the stars and stripes.
The brief speech ending with the proposal of three cheers for the star-spangled banner.
In a trice the whole crowd responded with might and main,
prolonging their yells with the cries of Carlton, Carlton forever,
and promises to make him police justice in the spring
should he want to run for that very agreeable office.
Couldn't have done much better myself, said the delighted bill,
hovering about the window of the carriage in which Jimmy had now taken his seat.
Thoroughly tired of the scene,
Jimmy intimated to Jake his wish to go home,
and the iron gray sprang quickly forward,
but not until Jimmy had caught Bill's parting words.
Call round and see a feller, won't you?
I'll show you the old gal.
You know you asked me about her in the Virginia woods.
It seemed like a new world to Jimmy
when after they had left the noisy crowd,
they turned into the pleasant, quiet street
which wound up the hill to where the handsome mother mansion stood,
every blind thrown back and reeds of smoke curling gracefully from every chimney,
for Rose wishing to do something in honor of her brother's return,
had ordered the whole house to be opened as if for a holiday,
while every flower which could possibly be spared from her conservatory
had been broken from its stem and fashioned into bouquets by Annie's tasteful hands.
Wouldn't it be splendid, Rose said as she lay watching Annie at her task,
wouldn't it be splendid to hang the stars and stripes and festoons across the hall
where Jimmy will pass under them.
Annie did not think it would.
In her opinion, Jimmy was not deserving of such an honor,
and she said so, as delicately as possible, adding that,
were it Tom, it would be a very different thing.
Rose knew that Annie was right,
and so the stars and stripes were not brought out
to welcome the young man now rapidly approaching.
Annie was the first to catch the sound of the carriage wheels,
and when Rose turned to ask if she really supposed Jimmy was there,
she found herself alone.
"'She's gone to meet him, of course,' she said.
"'But I most wish she had stayed here, for I wanted to introduce her myself.
"'I hope she won't dislike him.'
"'Meantime, in the parlour below, Mrs. Carlton sat waiting for her boy.
"'Not as Spartan mothers were wont to wait for their sons returning from the war,
"'but with a yearning tenderness for the loved prodigal blended with loyal indignation for his sin.
"'He was not coming to her as a hero who had done what he could for his country,
but with a traitor stain upon his fair name which she would gladly have wiped out.
She heard the carriage as it stopped and heard the step on the piazza,
not rapid and bounding as it used to be, but slow and heavy, as if uncertain which way to turn.
I must go out to meet him, she said, but all her strength forsook her,
and sinking upon the sofa she could only call out faintly.
Jimmy, my boy.
He heard her, and almost before the words had left her lips, heard Jimmy.
boy was kneeling at her feet, with his face buried for an instant in her lap. Then, with one
burning kiss upon her forehead, the proud James Carlton, who, in his early boyhood was scarcely
ever known to acknowledge that he was wrong, asked to be forgiven and restored again to the
confidence and love he had forfeited. And with her hand upon his bowed head, the mother forgave her
boy, bidding him look up, that she might see again the face she had once thought so handsome.
It was tear-stained now and worn, and Mrs. Carlton sighed as she detected upon it unmistakable marks of reckless dissipation.
Still, it was Jimmy's face, and it grew each moment more natural as the flush of excitement deepened on the cheeks,
and lent an added brightness to the saucy laughing eyes.
The lines upon the forehead and about the mouth would wear away in time, Mrs. Carlton hoped,
and, parting the soft black curls clustering around the broad white brow, she told him why,
Rose was not there to meet him and asked if he would go up then to see her.
Rose heard them coming, and at the sound of the familiar voice calling her name, the tears
flowed in torrents, and with her face buried in her pillow she received her brother's first
embrace.
Very gently he lifted up her head, and taking in his the little hot hands, kissed again
and again her childish face, into wiping her tears away, asked half seriously, half
playfully, if they met in peace or war.
Oh, in peace, in peace, Rose answered, and winding her arms around his neck, she hugged and cried over him, asking why he had been so naughty when he knew how badly they would feel, and why he had not interfered to save poor Tom from a prisoner's fate.
He explained to her how that was impossible, but for his treachery he had no excuse. He could only answer that he was sorry and ask again to be forgiven.
I do not now believe the South all wrong, he said.
Many of them sincerely think they are fighting for their firesides.
Others hardly know what they are fighting for,
while others again are impressed into the army and cannot help themselves.
As for me, I would gladly blot out the past for which I have no apology,
but as that cannot be, I would rather talk as little of it as possible.
Try, Rose, to forget that you ever had a rebel brother.
Will you?
Rose's kisses were a sufficient answer.
She was too happy just then to remember odds.
save that he had always been the dearest brother imaginable.
Besides that, Annie taught that we must forgive as we would be forgiven.
Annie bore no ill will toward the South.
She prayed for them as well as for the North,
and cried most as hard over the sick, suffering soldiers
captured by our army as over our own prisoners,
and if she could forgive, Rose surely ought to do so too.
You have not seen Annie yet, she said.
She ran away the moment she knew you had come.
I thought she might be going.
to meet you, but it seems she did not.
You must love her a heap, and I know you will.
She's so beautiful in her morning and bears her trouble so sweetly.
I wish everybody was as good as Annie Graham.
She has never been heard to say one bitter thing against the South.
She only pities and prays, and says they are misguided.
And pray, who is this paragon of excellence that I must love a heap?
Jimmy asked, when Rose had exhausted the list of Annie's very
and pause for a little breath.
Who was she?
Hadn't he heard of Annie?
Had Will failed to tell him of her adopted sister?
Rose asked in some astonishment.
Will had proved remiss in that one particular duty,
and never until this moment had Jimmy heard that Rose had an adopted sister.
And if Rose, why not himself?
Wasn't he Rose's brother?
Certainly you are, Rose replied.
But I'm not sure Annie will let you call her sister because you're—
You're...
Well, you see, Annie is real good, and, as I told you, praise just as hard for Southern
soldiers as for ours.
That is, praise that they may be Christians, and that their sick and wounded may be kindly
cared for her.
But of course she wants us to beat, and knows we shall, but I guess she does not think of
you just as she does of Tom, though she never saw either.
She would not go up to the depot to meet you, and I wanted her to so much.
She said to it was not good taste, or something like that, to hang out our banner on a
Rebels account, and she acts so funny generally about your coming home that I hope you'll do
your best to be agreeable and make her like you.
Will you, Jimmy?
And Rose looked up at her brother in such a comical, serious way, that E laughed aloud, promising
to do his best to remove all prejudice from Miss Graham's mind and asking who she was and where
she came from.
I'm sure I don't know where she came from, Rose replied, a little uncertain how to grapple
with the Carlton Pride which existed in Jimmy as well as the rest of them.
She's a lady as anyone can see, and possessed of much refinement as we often find in Boston.
She can't help it, Jimmy, if she is poor. It don't hurt her one bit, and I'm getting over those
foolish notions cherished by our set at home. Will says she came of a good family and might
have married a millionaire, old enough to be her father, but she wouldn't. She preferred a mechanic,
George Graham, the most splendid-looking man you ever saw. He's dead now, poor fellow. Will took care of him
and brought him home. That's why Annie lives with me.
Rosa's explanations were not the plainest that could have been given, but Jimmy
extracted from the medley of facts a very prominent one. It was not a miss, but a missus
to whom he was to be agreeable. It had not seemed a very unpleasant duty to change a beautiful
young girl's opinion of himself, but a missus was a very different affair, and for the first
time since his arrival his old Mary half-sarcastic laugh ran through the room, as with a mocking
whistle, he said. A widow, eh? How many children does she boast? Not a single bit of a one,
Rose answered, feeling that Jimmy had said something very bad of Annie. He saw it in her countenance
and hastened to make amends by asking numberless questions about Annie, whose history from the
time of Rose's first acquaintance with her up to the present hour he managed at last to get.
The result being that he was not as much interested in the widow Graham, as he mischievously called her,
as he might have been in Miss Annie.
The easily disheartened Rose gave him up as incorrigible,
and, mentally hoping Tom would not prove as refractory as Jimmy had done,
she turned the conversation upon Will,
whose goodness she extolled until the supper bell rang,
and Jimmy arose to leave her for a time,
as she was not prepared to go down that night and do the honors of the table.
The gas was lighted in the dining room,
and the heavy-de-mask curtains were dropped before the long French windows.
A cheerful coal-fire was blazing on the,
the marble hearth, while the table with its snowy linen, its china, silver, and cut glass,
presented a most inviting appearance, making Jimmy feel more at home than he had through all the
long years of his voluntary exile from the parental roof.
"'This is nice,' he said, with a pleasant feeling of satisfaction, not unmingled with a certain
degree of self-reproach, which whispered that after what had passed he was hardly worthy to be
the recipient of so much luxury. Thoughts like these were about shaping themselves into words,
when he caught sight of a figure he had not before observed,
and became aware that he was not alone with his mother as he had first supposed.
It was a delicate little figure,
not as petite as his sisters, but quite as graceful,
with its sloping shoulders and rounded waist,
almost too small to suit the theorems of a water cure,
but looking vastly well to Jimmy,
whose first thought was that he could span it with his hands.
Around the well-shaped head,
the heavy bands of pale brown hair were coiled,
forming a large square knot which falling low upon,
on the neck gave to the figure a more girlish appearance than Jimmy had expected to find in his
sister's protege, the widow Graham. He knew it was Annie by the morning robe fitting so closely
around the slender throat, and for an instant he wished she were not there as he preferred
being alone with his mother. But one glance at the sweet face turned toward him as Mrs. Carlton
repeated his name, dispelled all such desires, and with a strange sensation which he
attributed to pleasant disappointment, he took the soft white hand which Annie extended toward
him. It was a very small, a very pretty hand, and trembled perceptibly as it lay in Jimmy's
broader, warmer one, while on the pale cheek there was a deep, rich bloom which Mrs. Carlton
herself had never observed before. I have heard of Mrs. Graham from my sister, Jimmy said,
bowing to her with his usual gallantry, while Annie tried to stammer out some reply, making a
miserable failure, and leaving on Jimmy's mind the impression that she was prejudiced against him,
and so would not welcome him home.
A dozen times in the course of the supper
Jimmy assured himself that he did not care
what was the opinion held of him by such as an Annie Graham
while he has often changed his mind and knew that he did care,
wondering what it was about her face which puzzled him so much.
She looked a little like Tom's wife Mary, he thought,
that is, as Mary had looked just before her departure for Charleston
when she bade him goodbye,
whispering to him timidly of a world
where she hoped to meet again the friends she loved so well.
And as, whenever he thought of him,
Mary, he felt that her angel presence was around him still. He now felt that another angel's
spirit looked out at him from the soft eyes of blue raised to his so seldom, and when raised
withdrawn so quickly. What did she think of him? He would have given something to have known,
but he was far from suspecting the truth or guessing what Annie felt, as she saw upon his face
the lines of dissipation and thought of the debasing scenes through which he must have passed
since the days of Old Langsign,
when, with the little Pequot of New London,
he sat upon the rocks and watched the tide come in,
telling her how, on the morrow night,
his own fanciful little boat named for her,
should bear them across the placid waters of the bay
to where the green hill lay sleeping in the summer moonlight.
The Pequot's reply had been that the morrow was a Sabbath,
and not even the pleasure of a sail with him
could tempt her to steal God's time,
and appropriated to such a purpose.
He had called her a little Puritan, then,
asking were she learned so strict a creed and adding.
But I believe you're right, and if I'd known you sooner I should have been a better boy.
Then, kissing her blushing cheek, he had led her from the rocks over which the waves were breaking now,
and that was the last the Pequot ever saw of him.
There was no sail upon the bay, no more watching for the ebb and flow of the evening tide,
no walks on the long piazza or strolls upon the beach.
Nothing but news one night that the handsome, saucy-eyed boy was gone to his home in
Boston, leaving no message or word of explanation for her, the little Pequot, whose step was
slower for a few days, and whose headache was not feigned, as the harsh aunt said it was,
when she refused to join the revelers in the parlor, and dance with a grey-haired man four times
her age who sought her for his partner.
They had not met since then till now, and Annie struggled hard to keep back the tears as she
remembered all that had come to her since that summer at New London, remembered the childish
fancy which died out so fast, and the later later that.
love which crowned her early girlhood, finding its full fruition at the marriage altar,
and twining itself so closely around the fibers of her heart that when it was torn away,
it left them sore and bleeding with pain at every pore.
Surely with this sad experience Annie, young and beautiful though she was, could feel for
Jimmy Carl to not save the deference she would have felt for any stranger who came to her
as the brother of her patroness, and still she was conscious of a deeper interest in him
than if he had been a perfect stranger,
and his presence awoke within her an uncomfortable feeling,
making her wish more and more that she was away
where she would not be obliged to come in daily contact with him.
Under these circumstances, it is not strange the conversation flagged
until for Rosa's sake Annie felt compelled to make an effort.
Suddenly remembering Isaac Sims,
she asked if anything was ever heard at Washington of the Richmond prisoners.
Yes, Jimmy replied,
and eager to show his own willingness to talk of the war and the federal army,
he told how only the day before he left for Rockland news had come from Tom,
saying he was well as could be expected considering his fare,
but the boy captured with him would surely die if not soon restored to pure air
and better care than those tobacco prisons afforded.
Oh, it will kill Mrs. Sims that they should bring him back to her dead,
and the hot tears gushed from Annie's eyes as she heard in fancy
the muffled drum beating its funeral marches to the grave of another Rockland volunteer.
The tears once started could not be repressed, and Mrs. Carlton and Jimmy finished their supper
alone, for Annie excused herself, and hastening to her room poured out her grief in tears and prayers
for the poor sick boy, pining in his dreary prison home. While mingled with her tears was a note
of Thanksgiving that to her had been given the comfort of knowing that the death-pillow
of her darling was smooth with friendly hands, and that no harsh distinctions.
discordant sounds of prison, riot, or discipline had disturbed his peaceful dying.
Meantime, Jimmy had returned to his sister, whose first question was for Annie.
What did he think of her? Wasn't she sweet? And hadn't she the prettiest blue eyes he ever saw?
I hardly saw them, for she is evidently coy of her glances at a rebel.
Jimmy answered half playfully, half bitterly, for Annie's manner of quiet reserve had piqued him
more than he cared to confess.
She's bashful, Rose replied.
And then, Jimmy, you can't expect her to forgive you as readily as your own sister,
for you know she never saw you till tonight, and she's a true patriot.
But say, did you ever see so sweet a face?
One that made you think so much of an angel?
Rather too pale to suit my taste.
I like high color better.
And Jimmy pinched Rose's glowing cheek until she screamed for him to stop.
It's all going wrong, I know, Rose began poutingly.
you don't like Annie a bit and she's so good too.
You can't begin to guess how good.
And there's nothing blue about her either.
Why, she's a heap more cheerful than I could be if Will were dead, as George is.
I'd die too.
I know I should.
But Annie's a real Christian, and that does make a difference.
It seems to be all through her and she lives at every minute.
I honestly believe I'm better than before she came.
She has actually persuaded me not to get up big dinners on Sunday, as I used to do,
but to let all the servants go to church,
and every night she goes for half an hour into the kitchen
and teaches old black Phyllis how to read the Bible.
She's so truthful, too.
Why, she said she presumed that little Pequot girl would not have liked you anyway
after she heard that Dick Lee was not your name?
The Pequot girl.
How came Mrs. Graham to hear of her?
Jimmy asked his face-flushing crimson.
Oh, I happened to ask Mother something about her one day right before Annie, and so, of course, explained a little.
It would not have been polite if I hadn't, Rose replied, adding, as she saw her brother's evidence chagrin,
You need not mind one bit, for Annie never tells anything.
It was not the fearing she would tell which affected Jimmy unpleasantly.
It was the feeling that he would rather Annie Graham should not know of all his delinquencies,
and so despise him accordingly.
How unfortunate it was that she was there.
and yet he would not have sent her away if he could,
though he did wish she were not so well posted
with regard to his affairs both past and present.
What made Rose tell her of the Pequot,
and why had the Pequot haunted him
ever since he came into that house?
Something had brought her to his mind,
and as the servant just then came in,
bringing her mistress's supper,
he left his seat by Rose,
and, walking to the window,
looked out upon the starry sky,
wondering within himself where she was now.
The little girl who had sat with him,
upon the rocks and told him it was wicked to break God's fourth command.
The scene which Annie saw at the supper table was present with him now, remembered for the
first time since the battle at Bull Run.
Then as he lay waiting for the foe, he had in fancy heard again a sweet girlish voice
bidding him keep holy the Sabbath day, and the tear which dropped upon his gun was prompted
by the thought of all he had passed through since the happy schoolboy days when the
Pequot preached to him her gentle sermons.
In the hall there was a rapid footstep, and Rose called out,
Annie, Annie, come here.
Why, where are you going tonight?
She continued in much surprise, as Annie looked in, hooded and shawed as for some expedition.
Going to Mrs. Sims, it is not far, you know, was Annie's answer,
and the door closed after her in time to prevent her hearing Rose's reply.
It's dark as pitch and slippery, too.
Jimmy do please see her to the gate, but don't go in, for the widow is.
is awful against rebels.
The next moment Jimmy was halfway down the stairs
calling to Annie, who held the doorknob in her hand.
Mrs. Graham, allow me to be your escort.
Rose is not willing you should go out alone.
Thank you, I am not at all afraid,
and prefer going alone, as Mrs. Sims might not care
to meet a stranger.
Annie replied with an air of so much quiet dignity
that Jimmy knew there was no alternative for him
save to return to his sister's chamber,
which he did, feeling far more crestfallen
that he had supposed it possible for him to feel,
just because a widow had refused his escort.
It was wholly owing to the taint of rebeldom
clinging to him, he knew,
for he was not accustomed to having his attentions thus slighted
by the ladies to whom they were offered,
and all unconsciously the manner of reserve
which Annie assumed toward him was punishing him for his sin,
quite as much as anything which had yet occurred,
making him feel keenly that by his straitrous act
he had, for a time at least,
built a gulf between himself and those whose good opinion
was worth the having.
Why haven't you gone?
Rose asked as he came into the room.
She wouldn't let you.
I don't believe you asked her just as you should.
Dear, dear, it's all going wrong between you two.
And if Tom don't act any better when he comes home,
what shall I do?
Send Mrs. Graham away.
Trimbled on Jimmy's lips,
but knowing from what he had seen,
that so far as Rose was concerned,
Annie's tenure at the Mather Mansion
was stronger than his own,
he wisely kept silent.
and sitting down by the open grate he went off into a fit of abstraction,
mingled with sad regrets for the past and occasional thoughts of the little white-faced Annie,
now essaying to comfort the widow Sims who had extorted from her the intelligence brought by Jimmy of her boy,
and who, with her hard hands covering her face, was weeping bitterly and sobbing amid her tears.
My poor, poor boy, it's the same to me now as if he was dead.
I'll never see him any more.
Oh, Isaac, my darling.
End of Chapter 17.
Chapter 18 of Rose Mather A Tale by Mary Jane Holmes.
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18. The Richmond Captives
How close and dirty and terrible it was on that third floor of the dingy tobacco house,
where Isaac as a private was first confined, and as the summer days glided by in the August
The sun came pouring into the great disorderly room, how the young boy panted and pined for
a breath of sweet, pure air, such as swept over the far off eastern hills, and how full of
wistful yearning were the glances he cast toward the grated windows, seeking to catch
glimpses of the busy world without, in which he could not mingle.
Not very near those windows did he dare approach, for more than one had already paid the
penalty of such transgression, and in his dreams Isaac saw yet the white death agony which
stole over the face of the fire-zov shot by the inhuman guard while looking from the window.
No wonder that the homesick boy grew sadder, wearier each day amid such horrors as these,
praying sometimes that he might die, even though he must be buried far from the quiet Rockland
churchyard, where the cypress and the willow were growing so green and fair, and where a mother
could sometimes come and weep over her soldier-boy's grave. It would matter little where he slept, he thought,
or what indignities were heaped upon his lifeless form, for his soul could not be touched.
That would be safe with him, whom Isaac in his captivity had found to be indeed the friend which sticketh closer than a brother.
The Savior, honored since early childhood, did not desert the captive, and this it was which made him strong to bear through the long summer days during which there came to him no tidings of his home, and his eye was greeted with no sight of a familiar face, for Captain Carlton was yet an inmate at the hospital.
Neither did any friendly message come to tell he was remembered by the man whose fortunes he had voluntarily shared when he might perhaps have escaped, for though Tom thought often of the generous lad and sent to him many a word of comfort, through mistake or negligence, only one brief message had ever reached its destination, and so forsaken by every human aid, poor Isaac looked to heaven for help, finding there a peace which kept his heart from breaking.
But as the summer days glided into September, and the heat grew more and more intense,
until at last September 2 was gone, and the Virginia woods were blazing in the light of the
October sun, and still there was no token of relief.
Oh, who save those who have felt it, can tell of the loneliness, the dreary despair,
which crept into the captive soul, driving out all hope and making life as it existed in those
walls a burden which would be gladly shaken off.
how Isaac paled and drooped as the weary hours stole on,
how he loathed the sickening food,
and how at night he shuddered with horror
and shrank away from the vermin-covered floor,
his only pillow, unless he substituted the coat
now scarcely less filthy than its surroundings.
As Tom wrote to the New Hampshire woman,
Mrs. Sims, would scarcely have recognized her son
in the haggard emaciated boy,
who on one October afternoon sat crouching in his corner,
grasping the Little Testament given by the Rockland ladies,
and repeating its precious truth to the poor, sick, worn-out youth,
whose head lay on his lap and whose eyes, blistered with homesick tears,
were fastened with a kind of hungry wistfulness upon the girlish face above him,
the face of Isaac Sims, pointing the dying soldier to the only source of life.
It was thus Tom Carlton found him.
Tom, just released from the hospital and transferred to the first floor of that dark prison.
With Tom it had fared better, for Yankee-like in his precautions,
he had gone into the battle with a quantity of gold fastened securely around his person,
and gold has a mighty power to unlock the hardest heart.
As a commissioned officer and a man of wealth and rank,
many privileges were accorded to him which were denied the common soldiers,
and his first act after entering the tobacco house was to seek out his late companion
and ask after his welfare.
He did not know him at first, though directed to that locality
as the one where the preacher would probably be found.
He could not think he had ever seen either of these famished, miserable-looking creatures.
But, touched by the impressive scene, he stood a moment listening, while Isaac read,
I am the way, the truth, and the life.
No man cometh to the father but by me.
Yes, but how shall I go to him?
Where is he?
The sick boy asked, and bending lower, Isaac answered.
He's here.
He's standing close by you.
He hears all I say.
He knows you want him, and he will not cast you off, for he has said he wouldn't.
Only believe and take him at his word, that's all.
There was an evident lifting up of both souls to God, and Tom felt that even in that horrid place
there were angels dwelling.
He knew now that one was Isaac, and the great tears rolled down his cheeks as he saw the
fearful change wrought in little more than two short months.
"'Isaac,' he said softly.
"'Isaac, my boy, don't you know me?'
"'Not till then had Isaac observed the tall figure standing near,
but at the sound of the well-remembered voice he looked quickly up,
and, putting gently from him the head of his comrade,
sprang to his feet with a scream of joy and threw himself into the open arms of Tom,
who held and soothed him while he sobbed out his delight.
"'Oh, Captain Carlton!' he cried, with his body quivering with emotion.
"'I am so glad. I thought you were,
you had. I didn't know. Oh, why haven't you come before? I'm so sick, so sick and tired that I
almost want to die. Will we ever be exchanged? Have they forgotten us at Washington? Shall we
never go home again? These were questions which more than one poor captive had asked and which none
could answer. Tom, however, did the best he could, and hushing Isaac as he would have fushed and quiet at a
grieving child, he spoke to him many a word of comfort, promising to care for him as a younger brother,
and speaking of various ways in which his forlorn condition should be bettered, now that he was
an inmate of the same prison. It was a blissful interview, and its good effects were seen in the
brightness of Isaac's face and the cheerful smile which played around his mouth, even after
Tom had gone to his quarters below. Softer than Downy pillow seemed the hard bare floor that night,
as with his arm thrown round his invalid friend, Isaac lay dreaming.
of the frost-tipped trees at home,
and the brown nuts ripening on the hill,
where he perhaps might pick them yet.
For Tom had given some encouragement
that an exchange would ere long be affected,
and as each believed his own name
would be upon the list, so Isaac hoped his would.
And in slumber's fitful fancy
he was at home again, and saw his mother
come softly in to tuck the bedclothes around him,
or see if he were sleeping just as she used to do.
How still he lay to make her think he was asleep.
How real seemed the vision.
how lifelike the kiss pressed upon his lips and the tear-drop that came with it.
In a corner of the room there were groans and imprecations,
and with a nervous start the dreamer woke to find it all a horrid delusion.
That stifling-fetted atmosphere had in it no odor of Rockland's healthful breezes,
and the star shining on him through the iron bars, though familiar to him,
was not the same which he used to watch from the window beneath the caves facing to the north.
No home, no mother, no soft.
feathery pillow for his head or blanket for his body nothing but the feverish hand still upon his forehead and that tear on his cheek for these were real and the sick soldier at his side who gave the kiss and tear was whispering in his ear that the way so tearfully sought was found at last
that the gloomy desolate prison was like the gates of paradise and death disarmed of all its terror if mother could only know it he said i should be so glad and you'll tell you'll tell you
Tell her, won't you, when you get home again?
Tell her, it wasn't very hard to die, even in this dingy hole.
That heaven and Jesus are as near to me here on the floor as if I were lying on my own bed
at home with her standing by.
Tell her I'm glad I fought for the stars and stripes, but sorry I ran away without her
consent, for I did.
I got out on the woodshed roof and so came off unseen.
She's prayed for me every day and every night, and God has her own.
her prayers. He sent you here to lead me in the way, and after I am gone, he'll let you go back
again. There were a few more whispered words on either side, and then the exhausted but happy
youth fell away to sleep, while Isaac wept with thankfulness that his confinement there had not
been all in vain. Faithful to his promise, Tom, as far as was possible, alleviated the
hardships so long and so meekly borne by Isaac, and with his gold bought many a delicacy for
Isaac's end. The poor sick Massachusetts boy who one night ere the physician had fairly decided that he
was in need of medical care, laid his head on Isaac's lap as he was wont to do, and with another
whispered message for the mother far away, and another assurance of perfect peace went where the wicked
cease from troubling and the weary are at rest. While he lived, there had been something to take
Isaac's mind, something to excite his sympathy, and administering to Henry's wants, he had more than
half-forgotten his own. But now that he was gone and the corner where he had sat
or lain was empty, Isaac, too, faded rapidly, and not all Tom's efforts had power to save him
from the apathy which came stealing over him so fast. Touched with pity at his forlorn dejected
appearance, his comrades made him a little bed in the corner where the dead boy had been,
and there all the day long he lay, rarely noticing anyone except Tom Carlton who came often to
his side, and whose own warm blanket formed the pillow for his head.
From the first floor to the third there was not one who was not more or less interested in the pale invalid,
bearing his pain so patiently, never complaining, never repining,
but thanking those about him for any kindness rendered with such childlike touching sweetness
that even the rough jailer regarded him with favor, and paused sometimes to speak to him a word of
encouragement. In this state of feeling, it was not a difficult matter for Tom to obtain permission
for Isaac to be removed from the dirty corner above to his own comparatively comfortable
caught in the officer's apartments below.
But this did not affect a cure.
Nothing could do that save a sight of home and mother.
Could I see her, Isaac said one day,
or even stand again beneath the federal flag,
I might get better, but here I shall surely die,
and if I do, oh, Captain Carlton,
you'll get them to send me home, won't you?
I don't care for myself where I am buried,
but my mother.
It would break her heart to hear I was put with
Negroes. She's a rough woman, and folks who don't know her much think she's cross and queer,
but she's been so good to me, and I love her so much. Oh, mother, mother, I wish she was here now.
And the sick boy turned his white face to the wall, sobbing out choking sobs, which seemed to
come from the lowest depths of his heart. Cries for home and mother were not uncommon in that
prison house. But there was something so piteous in his childlike wail that other officers than Tom bent
over the poor lad, trying to comfort him by telling of an exchange which it was hoped would ere long
be affected, and by painting happy pictures of the glad rejoicing which would greet the returning captives.
For an instant the great tears, dropping so fast from Isaac Slits, were stayed in their course,
and a smile of hope shone on his pallid face, but quickly passed away as he suggested.
"'Yes, but who knows if I will be on the list?'
"'No one could tell him that.
All would not go, they knew,
and they could only wait patiently
each hoping he would be the favoured one.
At last there came a day never to be forgotten
by the inmates of that tobacco house,
a day on which was read the names of those
who were to be released and breathe again the air of freedom.
Oh, how anxiously the sick boy listened
as one after another was called.
Captain Thomas Carleton was among the number,
and a deep flush stole to the young man's face
as uncertainty was thus made sure.
He was going home,
and like waves upon the beach
the throbs of joy beat around his heart,
making him glad as a little child
when returning to its mother after a long separation.
But, oh, who shall tell Isaac's emotions
as name after name was called,
and none that sounded like his?
Would they never reach it?
never say Isaac Sims
Could it be he was not there?
Larger and thicker grew the drops of sweat
quivering about his mouth and standing upon his forehead.
White or more death-like grew his face.
Heavier, sadder, more mournful the eyes
fixed so wistfully upon the collar of that roll
growing less so fast.
There could not be many more,
and the head drooped upon the heaving bosom
with a discouraged, disheartened feeling,
just as the last was read,
not his, not Isaac Sims.
He was not there, and with a moan which smote painfully on Tom's ear, the disappointed boy turned
away and wept bitterly, while his pale lips moved feebly with the prayer for help he essayed
to make. To be left there alone, with no kind Captain Carlton to soothe the weary hours,
to be returned most likely to the noisy floor above, to die some night when nobody knew
or cared. It was terrible, and widow Sims would have shrieked.
in anguish could she have seen the look of despair settling down on her darling's face.
But though she did not see it, there was one who did, and guessing at the thoughts which prompted
it, he walked away to be alone, and gathered strength for the sacrifice he must make.
Tom Carleton could not desert the boy who had clung so faithfully to him, and as Isaac had once
stayed by him in the Virginia woods when he might have gone away, so he now would stay with
Isaac. Still, it was hard to give up going home, and for a moment he felt as if he could not.
There was a fierce struggle between duty and inclination, a mighty combat between Tom's selfishness
and his better nature, and then the latter conquered. He must stay. It would not be difficult
to find some person to take his place clandestinely, for already were the unfortunate one
seeking to buy such chances, and offering every possible inducement to any who would accept.
a young lieutenant about his age and appearance and whose wife and child were suffering from his absence was the one selected by tom as his substitute and the matter soon arranged then with a forced cheerfulness he did not feel tom went back to isaac who was still weeping silently on his couch and whispering to an unseen presence
you'll never leave me will you and when i die you'll take me up to heaven here was a faith a trust to which tom carleton was a stranger and wishing himself more like that sick boy he bent over the cot and said cheerily isaac are you asleep
in the tone of his voice there was something so kind and sympathetic that isaac started up and winding his feeble arms around tom's neck sobbed out forgive me captain carleton i'm glad you are
going home, but I wasn't at first. The bad, hard lumps kept rising in my throat as I thought
of staying here alone without you. But they're gone now. I prayed them all away, and I am
glad you are going. I shall miss you dreadfully, but God will not forsake me. And Captain Carlton,
if you ever do— See—my—my—' Isaac's voice was choked with tears, and he could not at first
articulate that dear word, but soon recovering, he went on. See my mother's
you'll tell her about me.
Tell her everything except how I've suffered.
That would do no good.
It would only make her cry,
and when she hears as she may be will that I am dead,
tell her I wasn't afraid,
for the Savior was with me.
I'd rather you shouldn't say goodbye at the last.
It would make me feel so bad,
only sometime before you go,
I want to tell you how much I love you for your goodness,
and to ask you to be a—
He did not finish the sentence for Tom,
knew what he would say, and wiping both sweat and tears from off the worn face, looking so lovingly
at him, he answered. I will try to be a better man. I never felt the need of it so much till
I came here, and, Isaac, I am going to stay till you two are exchanged. Did you think I would
desert the boy who but for me would not have been a prisoner? Isaac did not reply. Only the
soft blue eyes lighted up with sudden eager joy. The lips trembled as if they would speak, there was a
perceptible shudder, and then Tom held in his arms a fainting, unconscious form.
The revulsion of feeling was too great, and for many minutes Isaac gave no sign of life,
but when at last he was restored again he tried to dissuade Tom from making so great a sacrifice,
but all in vain. Tom silenced every objection, and when the third of January came and
prisoners were released, another than Tom Carlton answered to his name and marched from Richmond
in his stead.
Tom had once spent several months in Richmond, and in the higher circles he numbered many personal friends,
who, until quite recently, were ignorant of the fact that he was a prisoner in their midst.
Of these, the more loyal to the new Confederacy ignored him entirely.
Others, remembering his genial humor and quiet gentlemanly manner which had won their admiration
for the elegant Bostonian and his gentle wife, threw their prejudice aside,
and respecting him because he had stood firmly by his own state, visited him in his prison
while others sent playful messages that though they denounced him as an intruder upon their rights,
they owned him as a friend and would gladly ameliorate his condition.
To these acquaintance it was soon known how great a sacrifice Tom had made for the sake of a young boy,
and the result was a gradual abatement of the surveillance held over Tom,
while many privileges hitherto denied by the strict jail discipline were accorded to him.
Isaac too was benefited through him,
and more than one fair lady visited the invalid growing strangely interested in the gentle
Yankee boy, and bringing many a delicacy with which to tempt his capricious appetite.
But no amount of kindness could win him back to health so long as he breathed the atmosphere of
prison walls. To go home was all he desired, and day after day the flesh shriveled from his bones,
and the blue veins stood out round and full upon his wasted hands until there came a night
when the physician told the jailer whom he met upon the stairs that the Yankee boy was dying.
There were not many now in prison, and ere long the sad news was known throughout the building,
causing the riotous ones to hush their noisy rebels and tread softly across the uncovered
floor lest they should disturb the sufferer below. The jailer, too, remembering his own son
afar in southern Tennessee, wiped a tear from his rough face, and drew nearer to the humble
cot where Tom sat watching the panting and seemingly dying boy. There were moments of feverish
delirium when the prison with its surrounding horrors faded away and Isaac was at home, bathing his
burning brow with the snow covering the northern hills, or talking to his mother of all that had
transpired since the April morning when, followed by her prayers and tears, he left her for the battle.
Then reason came back again, as clear as ever, and with Tom Carlton's hand pressed between his own,
he dictated what Tom should say to the mother when he went back to her alone and left her boy behind.
I shall never go home any more, he said, and I've built such bright castles about it, too,
fancying how nice it would seem to lie on mother's soft, warm bed, and watch the sun shining through the windows,
or the grass springing by the door. The snow will melt from the garden before long,
and the flowers I used to tend come up again, but I shan't be there to see them.
I shall be lying here so quiet and so still that I shall not even hear the cannons roar.
or the loud hussas when peace is at last declared and the cruel war is ended.
Oh, if all the dead ones could know, it would be something worth fighting for.
But when the troops are marching home and the bells ring out a welcome,
they'll be many of one missing in the ranks, and almost every graveyard both north and south
will hold a soldier's grave.
But you will not forget us, will you?
And the sunken eyes turned pleadingly on Tom.
when the bonfires are kindled at the north and the glad rejoicings are made you will think of the poor boys who fought and died that you might enjoy just such a holiday tom could only answer by pressing the thin hands he held and isaac continued
tell mother not to fret too much for me i guess she did love me best because i was the youngest but eli and john will comfort her old age tell them too how much i love them and how proud i'm
I was of them that day at Bull Run.
They used to plague me sometimes and call me a girl baby,
but I've forgiven that, for I know they did not mean it.
I hope they'll both be spared.
It would kill Mother to lose us all.
Tell her how I bless her for the lessons of my childhood,
the prayer is set at her knee before I knew their meaning,
the Sunday school she sent me to,
and the Bible stories told in the winter twilight.
Tell her I was not afraid to die.
Only I wanted her so much.
But everybody's been good.
There are kind folks here in Richmond,
and God will bless them for it.
Oh, Captain Carlton, I'm a poor, ignorant boy,
and you a proud rich man,
but you will heed me, won't you?
And when I'm gone,
you'll take my little testament and read it every day.
Read it first for Isaac's sake,
but it won't be long before you'll read it for its precious truth,
and you will come to heaven where we can meet again.
promise won't you there was a moment's silence during which tom choked down the tears he could scarcely suppress so strongly this scene reminded him of another when he sat by mary's side and heard her dying voice urging him to meet her
four years the southern sun had shone upon her grave and he had made no preparation yet but now he would put it off no longer and bending over isaac he replied i promise and if you see my darling in the better land tell her god helping me
I'll find my way to where she has gone.
The white lips feebly murmured their thanks, and then suddenly asked,
Do you think Mother's got the letter you sent and knows how sick I am?
If so, she's praying for me now, and maybe her prayers will save.
I'm not afraid to die, but if I could go home to Rockland first, it would not seem so bad.
Pray, Mother, pray, pray, pray, pray hard, and too much exhausted to talk longer, the half
delirious boy turned upon the pillow furnished by some kind lady, and fell into a heavy sleep,
from which the physician said he would never waken. Midnight in Richmond and Tom, counting off
the strokes, bent lower to watch for the expected change. There was no color in the parted lips,
and about the nose there was a pinched contracted look, which Tom remembered to have seen in Mary's
face when by her bedside he had sat, just as he sat by Isaac's, but where Mary's hands were cold and dry,
Isaacs were moist and warm, while the rapid pulses were not as wiry and irregular as hers had been.
There was hope. And falling on his knees, Tom Carlton asked that the life almost gone out
might be restored, and promised that if it were he would not forget this lesson as he had
forgotten the one learned by Mary's deathbed. He would be a better man, he said, and God,
as he sometimes does, took him at his word. Gradually the sharp expression passed away. The hair grew
damp with a more healthful moisture, the pulses were slower, the breathing more regular,
and when at last the heavy slumber was broken and Isaac looked up again, Tom knew that he
would live. There was a murmured prayer of Thanksgiving, a renewal of his pledge, and then he
bent every energy to sustain the life coming so slowly back. Softly, the morning broke over the
prison walls, and they who had expected to look on Isaac dead rejoiced to hear that he was
better. It may be I shall see mother yet, he whispered faintly, when Tom told him that the dreaded
crisis was past. And if I do, I'll tell her of your kindness. Would you like very much to go home
to your mother? Tom asked, and with a quivering lip and chin, Isaac answered. Yes, oh yes, if I only could.
I was willing to die, but I guess we all cling to life at the last, don't you? Tom did not reply to this,
but spoke instead of a rumor that all were soon to be discharged and sent back to Washington.
We'll go together then, he said,
you and I, for I shall visit Rockland first and see my sister Rose.
The prospect of release was meat and drink for Isaac,
who rallied so fast that when the joyful news of an exchange did come,
he was able with Tom's help to walk across the floor of what had been his home so long.
Haggard, wasted, weary, and worn were those prisoners as they filed down.
down the stairs and out into the streets, but with each moment which brought them nearer home,
their spirits rose, and when at last they stood again on federal soil, and saw the stars and
stripes waving in the morning breeze, long and deafening with a huzzas which rent the air as
one after another gave vent to his great joy at finding himself free once more.
Isaac, however, could neither shout nor laugh nor speak, and only the large eyes brimming with
tears told of joy unutterable, but when arrived at Washington, his two stalwart brothers took
him in their arms, hugging and crying over him as over one come back to them from the grave.
His calmness all gave way, and laying his tired head on Eli's bosom, while John held and caressed
his wasted hands, he solved out the happiness too great to be expressed in words.
To him, a full discharge from service was readily accorded, while to Tom a furlough of several
weeks was given, and after a few days at Washington, both started northward to join the
friends waiting so impatiently for their arrival.
End of Chapter 18
Chapter 19 of Rose Mather A Tale by Mary Jane Holmes.
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19. Tom's Reception
The people of Rockland had become somewhat accustomed to the rebel lion as they had
playfully called Jimmy Carlton, and the latter could now go quietly through the streets without
attracting attentions which at first had been vastly disagreeable to the sensitive young man.
Gradually as he mingled more with the people they had learned to like him, and were fast
forgetting that he had ever joined the ranks of the foe and struck at his mother country.
With the rabble who had met him at the depot on his first arrival at Rockland he was vastly
popular, for forcing down his pride he had been very conciliatory toward them, and they still adhered
to their olden promise of making him their next police justice provided he would consent to run.
With his usual impudence Bill Baker continued to annoy the proud Bostonian with his good-humored
familiarities, some of which Jimmy permitted, while others he quietly repulsed, for Bill's
constant allusions to the past were exceedingly disagreeable, and as far as possible he avoided
his squandum associate, who, without the least suspicion that his manner was disgusting in the
extreme, would hail him across the street addressing him always as corporal, and if strangers were
hearing inviting him to call round and see a feller once in a while for old acquaintance
sake at the Mather mansion matters remained about the same as when Jimmy first came home
Mrs. Carlton was still there waiting for her son and Rose as usual was ever on the alert
seeking ways and means by which the soldiers might be benefited compelling Jimmy to be
interested in all her plans dragging him from place to place sending him on errands
and once when in a great hurry to get a box in readiness for the hospitals at Washington
actually coaxing him into helping tie a comfortable, which was put up in her back parlor
and which she must send immediately for some poor fellow was sure to need it.
Jimmy could learn to tie as well as herself, she said, when he pleaded his ignorance as an excuse
for refusing his services. She didn't know how once, but widow Sims and Annie had taught her a heap
and Annie would teach him too. All he had to do was to put the big darning needle through twice.
Taya weaver's knot, cut it off, and the thing was done.
Besides that, t'was a real pretty quilt made from Annie's calico dress
which she used to wear last summer and looked so sweetly in.
Annie was tying on one side and Jimmy must tie on the other.
He needn't be so lazy.
He ought to do something for the war.
By the time Rose had reached the last points in her argument,
Jimmy had closed the book he was reading
and concluded that there might be duties required of him a great deal worse
than tying a soldier's comfortable with Annie to oversee.
It was strange how much teaching he needed, and how often Annie was called to the rescue.
The needle would stick so in the cotton, and he could not remember just how to tie that knot.
So Annie, never dreaming that he knew how to tie the knot as well as she, would come to his aid,
her hands, sometimes touching his, and his black girls, occasionally brushing her pale brown braise
as he bent over her to see how she did it so as to know himself next time.
There was a world of mischief in Jimmy's saucy eyes as he demurely apologised,
to Mrs. Graham for the trouble he was giving her.
But Annie never once looked up,
neither did the color deepen in the least upon her cheek,
and when Jimmy on purpose to draw her out suggested that
he was more of bother than help,
she answered that he, had better return to his reading
as she could get on quite well alone.
After this, Jimmy thought proper to learn a little faster
and soon outstripped his teacher,
who rewarded him with no word of approval save a cool,
thank you, when the comfortable was done
and taken from the awkward frames.
and this was a fair specimen of the nature of the intercourse existing between Jimmy and Annie.
Secure now in the belief that she would never be recognized as the Pequot of New London,
Annie regarded Jimmy as an ordinary stranger, in whom she had no particular interest,
save that which her kind heart prompted her to feel for all mankind.
She could not dislike him, and she always defended him from the aspersions of the widow
who could not quite conquer her repugnance to a rebel,
and who frequently gave vent to her ill-will toward Jimmy whom she thought so proud.
Stuck up, Critter, she said, strutton round as if he was good as anybody and feeling above his
betters. Of course he felt above her and Susan and Annie she knew he did. And if she's Annie,
she bummed if she'd stay there and be looked at as Jim looked at her.
Although making due allowance for the widow's prejudice, these remarks were not without their
effect upon Annie, who imperceptibly to herself began to feel that probably Jim
he did regard her as merely a poor dependent on his sister's bounty, and she unconsciously assumed
toward him a cool reserved manner, which led him to fancy that she entertained for him a deep-rooted
prejudice on account of his past error. Twenty times a day he said to himself he did not care what
she thought of him, and as many times a day he knew he did care much more than was at all conducive
to his peace of mind. Where this caring might end he'd never stop to consider. He only felt now that
he respected the Quaker like Annie more than he ever respected a woman before, and coveted
her good opinion more earnestly than he ever remembered to have coveted anything in his life,
unless indeed it were his freedom when a prisoner in Bill Baker's power.
In this state of affairs it required all Rosa's tact to sustain anything like sociability
between her brother and Annie, and the little lady was perfectly delighted when the joyful
tidings was received that Tom was coming home. Annie would like Tom for everybody did,
besides Tom had written as if he were almost a good man himself, and Annie was sure to be pleased with that.
They at least would be fast friends, and, secure on this point, Rose with her usual impulsiveness
plunged into the preparations for Tom's reception. Even Annie did not think any reasonable honor
too great for him, particularly after Isaac wrote from Washington to his mother, telling her of
Tom's generous sacrifice, and how he might have been home long before if he had not chosen to stay in care
for a poor sick boy.
How the widow's heart warmed toward the Carlton's,
taking the whole family into its hitherto rather limited dimensions.
Even Jimmy was not excluded,
the widow admitting to Mrs. Baker,
between whom and herself there had been many a hot discussion
touching the so-called rebel,
that when he laughed,
he was uncommon handsome for a secessioner,
and she presumed that,
at the bottom he was as good as they would average.
But if the widow were thus affected by Tom's kind act,
how much more were the mother and sister pleased to know how noble and good he was,
while Annie amid the tear she could not repress said to Rose,
You should be so proud of such a brother. There are few like him, I am sure.
How Jimmy envied Tom as he heard on all sides praises for his noble unselfishness,
and the resolution to welcome him and Isaac with military honors.
Once more in his element, Bill Baker industriously drilled his clique,
who were to answer no earthly purpose save to swell the throng,
and prolonged the deafening cheers. Bill began to feel related to the Carlton's, and regularly
each day he called at the Mather Mansion to keep Rose posted with regard to the progress of affairs.
They were to bring out the new gun, he said, and as it was minus a name, the villagers had
concluded to call it the Thomas Carleton, asking, how she thought the square would like it,
and how many times it ought to be fired. The band would serenade Tom in the evening, he said,
and we shall have bonfires kindled in the streets,
talking as if instead of being merely a canon tender,
he were head manager of the whole,
and that all the responsibility was resting on himself.
Rose understood him perfectly,
and with the utmost good nature listened to his suggestions
and scolded Jimmy for calling him her prime minister and confidant.
From the cupola of the Mather Mansion,
the stars and stripes were to be hung out,
and on the morning of Tom's expected arrival,
Jimmy and Annie climbed the winding stairs
and fastened the staff securely to its place.
There were tears in Annie's eyes
as the graceful foals shook themselves to the breeze,
for she remembered the coming of another soldier
when this same banner was wrapped around a coffin.
Across the valley and beyond the confines of the village,
she could see where that coffin with its loved inmate was buried,
and as the past came rushing over her,
she suddenly gave way,
and sitting down beneath the flag wept bitterly,
while Jimmy, with a vague idea as to what might have caused her tears,
stood looking at her, wishing he could comfort her.
But what should he say?
As yet, they had scarcely passed the bounds of the most scrupulous politeness to each other,
and for him to attempt to comfort her seemed preposterous,
while to leave her without a word seemed equally unkind.
Perhaps it was the beautiful glossy braids of hair which brought him at last to a decision,
causing him to lay his hand involuntarily upon the bowed head while he said,
I am sorry for you, Mrs. Graham, for I know how much the contrast between
my brother's return and that of your husband must affect you and gladly would i spare you the pain if i could i am not certain but the good people of rockland and their intended kindness to tom are doing you an injury and surely lieutenant graham having been a resident of this place should receive their first thought with all pertaining to him
there was no mistaking the genuine sympathy which thrilled in every tone of jimmy's voice and for a moment annie wept more passionately than before it was the first
first time he had ever spoken to her of her husband, and his words touched a responsive court
at once.
"'It is not that so much,' she answered at last.
"'I am glad they are honoring your brother thus.
He richly deserves it for his noble adherence to his country in her hour of peril,
and for his generous treatment of poor Isaac Sims.
I would do much myself to show him my respect.
But, oh, George, George, I am so desolate without him.
And covering her face with her hands, Annie Whip.
again more piteously than before.
Here was a point which Jimmy could not touch, and an awkward silence ensued, broken at last by
Annie, who, resuming her usual calm demeanor, frankly offered Jimmy her hand, saying,
"'I thank you, Mr. Carlton, for your sympathy.
It has made me believe you are my friend, and as such I would rather consider you.'
"'Your friend?
Did you ever deem me other than that?'
Jimmy replied in some surprise, involuntarily pressing the little hand which only for an instant
rested in his, and then was quietly withdrawn, just as rose from the foot of the stairs called
out to know what they were doing up there so long. It was strange how differently Jimmy felt
after this incident and how fast his spirits rose. The few words said to him by Annie up in his
sister's cupola had made him very happy, for he felt that a better understanding existed between
himself and Annie, that she did not so thoroughly despise him as he had at first supposed,
and that the winning her respect was not a hopeless task.
as early as two the crowd began to gather in the streets and half an hour later rose's carriage with jimmy in it was on its way to the depot mrs carleton did not care to go and so rose too remained at home and mounting to the cupola watched for the first wreath of smoke which should herald the approach of the train
i see it he's coming she screamed as a feathery mist was discernible over the distant plains and in a few moments more the car swept round the curve while a booming gun told them
Bill Baker was faithful to his duty.
There was a swaying to and fro of the throng at the depot,
a pushing each other aside, a trilling of fife, a beating of drums,
and then a deafening shout went up as Tom Carleton and John Sims
appeared upon the platform, carefully supporting the tottering steps of the weak,
excited boy who stood between them.
At sight of Isaac there was a momentary hush,
and then with a shriek such as a Tigris might give when it saw its young in danger,
the widow Sims rushed frantically forward, and catching the light form of her child in her arms
tried to bear him through the crowd. But her strength was insufficient, and she would have fallen
had not Jimmy relieved her of her burden which he sustained with one hand, while the other was
extended to welcome the stranger who came near. Half bewildered, Tom looked around upon the
multitude asking in a whisper what it meant. He could not think that they had come to welcome him,
and when assured by Jimmy that such was the fact, his lip quivered for an instant.
and his tongue refused its office.
Then, in a few well-chosen words,
he thanked the people for the undeserved surprise
so far as he was himself concerned.
Isaac was more worthy of such welcome, he said,
and more than half of it was meant he knew for their townsmen,
who had shown himself equally brave in camp, in battle, and in prison,
while had they known that Lieutenant Sims too was coming,
he was sure they would not have thought of him a stranger to them all.
The brief speech ended, and Rose, listening at home,
clapped her hands in ecstasy as she heard the terrific cheers and caught the name of Carlton mingled with Isaac Sims.
Poor boy, she said. I wonder how he'll get home. I wish I had told Jimmy to drive that way and take him in the carriage.
She need have given herself no uneasiness for what she had forgotten was remembered by Jimmy,
who, after a hurried consultation with Tom, insisted that both Isaac and his mother should take seats in the carriage
while he and Tom mingled with a crowd.
"'And your other son, there's room for him,' he said,
looking round in quest of John who at the last moment had obtained permission to visit his bride
and so came on with Isaac.
At a glance his eye had singled out Susan, and the young couple were now standing apart
from the rest exchanging mutual caresses and words of love,
the tall lieutenant kissing fondly the blushing girl who could not realize that she stood
in the presence of her husband.
After a little it was decided that Tom and Jimmy, Mrs. Sims and Isaac,
should occupy the carriage while John and Susan walked, and so, from her lofty standpoint,
Rose watched the long procession winding down the streets amid the strains of music and the cannon's
bellowing roar. It was very exciting to Isaac, and by the time the cottage was reached he was glad
to be lifted out by Jimmy, who bore the tired boy tenderly into the house and laid him down
on the soft, warm bed he had dreamed about so many nights in the dark, filthy prison corner.
How faint and weak he was, and how glad to be home.
again winding his arms around his mother's neck he sobbed out his great joy saying
amid his tears God was so kind to let me come back to you it was a very happy group the
villagers left behind in that humble cottage and neither John nor Susan thought it
out of place when the mother called on them to kneel with her and thank the giver of
all good for his great mercy in granting them this blessing meantime the procession
passed on until it reached the mother mansion, where with three cheers for Captain Carlton the crowd
dispersed, leaving Tom at liberty to join the mother and sister waiting so impatiently for him,
one on the steps and the other in the parlor just where she had welcomed Jimmy.
If Will were only here, it would be the happiest day I ever knew, Rose said.
As seating herself on Tom's knee with her chubby arm around his neck, she asked him numerous
questions concerning her absent husband. Then, as she saw in him sign the same,
of weariness, she said. You are tired, I know. Suppose you go to your room till
dinner time. It's the one right at the head of the stairs, she continued, and glad of an
opportunity to rest, Tom went to the room where Annie Graham just then chanced to be.
She had discovered that the servant had neglected to supply the rack with towels, and
so she had brought them herself, lingering a moment after they were arranged to see if everything
were in order. She did not hear Tom steps until he opened the door upon her and uttered an
exclamation of surprise and apology. He had no idea who the little black-robed figure was,
for though he knew the wife of George Graham was an inmate of his sister's family, he had her in his
mind as a very different person from this one before him. Mrs. Graham was young, he supposed,
and possibly good-looking, but she did not bear the stamp of refinement and elegance, which this
graceful creature did, and fancying he had made a mistake and stumbled into the apartment of some
city visitor, he was about to withdraw when Annie came toward him, saying,
excuse me sir i came in to see that all was all right in your room mr carleton i presume this last annie spoke doubtingly for in the tall handsome stranger before her there was scarcely a vestige of the greyish-haired oldish father-looking man she had in fancy known as captain carleton
and but for the eyes so much like mrs mrs mathers and the unmistakable carlton curve about the mouth she would never have dreamed that it was tom to whom she was speaking as it was
she waited for him to confirm her suspicions which he did by bowing in the affirmative
to her interrogation, Mr. Carlton, I presume. Then holding the door for her to pass out,
he stood watching her till she disappeared at the extreme end of the hall, wondering who she
was and why a mere visitor should take so much interest in his room. Once he thought of
Annie Graham, but this could not be a widow, though the deep morning dress told of recent bereavement.
Still, Annie Graham was a different personage she knew, and thus perplexed, Tom
instead of resting, commenced his toilet for dinner, determining as soon as it was completed to go
down and have the mystery unraveled. Restless and impatient to know just what his brother thought of his
late treachery to the federal flag, Jimmy paced the parlors below until he could wait no longer,
and knowing by the sounds which came from the chamber above that Tom was not trying to sleep,
he finally ran upstairs and knocking at the chamber door was soon closeted with Tom.
It was an awkward business to speak of the past, but
But Jimmy plunged into it at once, stating some reasons which had led him to abjure his own government,
expressing his contrition for having done so, and ending by saying he hoped Tom, if possible,
would forget that he ever had a rebel brother.
It had taken Tom a long time to recover from the shock of meeting his brother in the Virginia woods,
and knowing he was a traitor to his country, but the same generous feeling which led him
to refrain from any allusion to that meeting in the messages sent to his mother and sister from his
Richmond Prison, now prompted him to treat with kind forbearance the brother whom he had loved
and grieved over since the days of his mischievous boyhood.
I should have found it very hard to forgive you if you had stayed in the Southern Army,
he said, but as it is, we will never mention the subject again.
Jimmy knew, by the warm pressure of Tom's hand, that he was forgiven, and with a burden
lifted from his mind he was about leaving the room when Tom, with a preliminary cough, said,
"'ahem. By the way, Jimmy, who has Rose got here? What visitor, I mean?'
And Tom tried to look vastly indifferent as he buttoned his vest and hung across it the chain
made from Mary's hair. But the ruse did not succeed. Jimmy knew he had seen Annie, and with a sudden
uprising of something undefined he answered in apparent surprise. "'Visitor? What visitor? He must have
come to-day, then. Where did you see him?' "'I saw her in here.'
Tom replied, and Jimmy laughingly rejoined.
A pretty place for a her in your quarters. Pray what was she like?
Some like Mary, as she used to be when I first knew her, a little body dressed in black.
With large handsome blue eyes, interrupted Jimmy, while Tom without suspecting that his brother's
object was to ascertain how closely he had observed the figure in black, replied.
Yes, very handsome, dreamy eyes.
And pale brown curls.
was the teasing Jimmy's next query, to which Tom quickly responded.
Girls, no. The hair was braided in white plaits and twisted around the head, falling low in the neck.
Not a very white neck, was it? Jimmy continued with imperturbable gravity.
Indeed it was, Tom said, industriously scraping his thumbnail with his penknife.
White as snow, or looked so from the contrast with her dress, who is she?
One question more.
Had she big feet or little, slippers or boots?
And this time Jimmy's voice betrayed him.
Tom knew he was being teased and bursting into a laugh, he answered.
I confess to having observed her closely, but not enough as to tell the size of her slipper.
Come now, who is she?
Some lady you spirited away from secessiondom?
Tell me, you know you've nothing to fear from steady old Tom.
For an instant the eyes of the two brothers met with a curious expression.
impression in each. Both were conscious of something they were trying to conceal, while a feeling
akin to a pang shot through Jimmy's heart as he thought how much more worthy of Annie Graham's
respect was steady old Tom than a rollicking young scapegrace like himself.
From your rather minute description, I think you must have stumbled upon the widow Graham,
he said. Rose has taken her up, you know, and as a word of brotherly advice, let me say that
if you wish to raise Rose to the seventh heaven, you have only to praise her protege.
we that is the widow and i do not get on very well for she is a staunch patriot and until this morning i verily believe she looked on me as a kind of monster she's a perfect little puritan too and if she stays here long we'll make a straight-laced methodist of rose under the garb of an episcopalian of course as she is the strictest kind of churchwoman
i shall not esteem her less for that tom said and in rather a perturbed state of mind as far as the widow graham was concerned he went with jimmy to the parlor half hoping his brother had mischievously misled him and that the stranger would prove after all to be some visitor from boston
but the first object he saw in entering the parlor was the dainty figure in black standing by the window and on the third finger of the hand raised to adjust the heavy curtain glittered the wedding-ring tom knew now that jimmy had not deceived him
and with a feeling of disappointment he addressed mrs graham when introduced by jimmy making some playful allusion to their having met before but saying nothing to her then of george for remembering his own feelings when mary died he knew that annie would not thank him a stranger to bring up sad memories of the past by talking of her husband
still in his manner toward her there was something which told how he pitied and sympathized with her and annie grateful always for the smallest kindness threw off her air of quiet reserve and talked with him freely asking many questions concerning isaac sims and the condition of the richmond prisoners generally
she was going round after dinner to call on isaac she incidently said whereupon tom rejoined that wishing to know how isaac bore the journey and the excitement he had intended going there himself and would with her permission time his visit to suit her convenience and so accompany her
instantly jimmy's black eyes flashed upon annie a look of inquiry which brought the bright colour to her cheeks for she knew he was thinking of the night when she had refused his escort and she felt her present position a rather embarrassing one still the circumstances were entirely different
There was a reason why Tom should call on widow Sims, while with Jimmy there was none,
and bowing to Captain Carlton she replied that, she presumed Mrs. Sims would be glad of an
opportunity to thank him for his kindness to Isaac, and that, though not in the least afraid to go
alone, she had no objection to showing him the way.
What?
Going off the first night, and they are coming to serenade you, too?
You must not go, Tom.
Shall he, mother?
cried Rose, who at first had been too busy with her duties as hostess, clearly to
comprehend what Tom was saying to Annie.
It will look as if you do not appreciate the people's attention,
Mrs. Carlton replied, while Jimmy vehemently protested against the impropriety of the act,
and so Tom was compelled to yield, thinking the while that a walk to the widow Sims
might possibly afford him quite as much satisfaction as staying at home for a serenade.
I always surrender to the majority, he said playfully, while Jimmy's spirits rose perceptibly,
and Annie had never before seen him so witty or gazed.
since he came home from Washington as he was during the dinner.
It was joy at his brother's return, she thought,
never suspecting that Tom's decision had anything to do with it,
and Jimmy hardly knew himself that it had.
He only felt relieved that Tom was not to receive a favor
which had once been denied to himself,
and glad also that Annie was to spend the evening with them.
But in this he was mistaken.
There was no necessity for Annie's deferring her visit.
The serenade was not for her,
and with that nice sense of propriety,
which prompted her to shrink from anything like intrusion,
she felt that on this first night of their reunion,
the Carlton family would rather be alone.
This rule would also apply to Mrs. Sims,
but Annie knew she was always welcome to the widow,
and wishing to see the boy who had led her husband from the battlefield,
she went to her room,
and throwing on her cloak and hood stood quietly downstairs,
just as Jimmy was crossing the hall.
He guessed where she was going,
and coming quickly to her side, said,
I suppose you'd had given up that call,
but if you persist in going,
it must not be alone this night of all others, when the streets are likely to be full of men and
boys. You accepted my brother's escort, you cannot, of course, refuse mine. And, seizing his hat
from the hall stand, he led her out upon the steps and placed her arm in his with an air of so
much authority that Annie had no word to offer in remonstrance. It was not a very comfortable walk
to either or a very sociable one either, but ere it was ended and he had reason to be glad
that she was not alone, for as Jimmy had predicted, the streets were full of men and boys
following the band up to the Mather Mansion, and as they met group after group of the noisy
throng, Annie timidly drew closer to her companion, who pressed more tightly the arm trembling
in his own.
"'I am glad you came with me,' she said, when at last the friendly gleam of the widow's
candle appeared in view.
"'But if you please, I think you had better not go in to-night.
You are so much a stranger to the family, and Mrs. Sim's boys have but just returned.'
"'John will see me safely home, and I'll excuse you now.
"'You must feel anxious to rejoin your brother.'
"'But Jimmy was not to be disposed of so easily.
"'He had no intention of entering the house,
"'but he should wait outside,' he said,
"'until Annie's visit was over.
"'Annie had no alternative save submission,
"'and parting from Jimmy at the gate,
"'she hurried up the walk and was soon bending over the couch of the sick-boy,
"'whose eyes beamed the welcome his pale lips could scarcely speak.
"'How many questions she had to,
ask him, and how much he had to tell her of that day when her husband received his fatal
wound?
Altogether it was a sad interview, and Annie's eyes were nearly blistered with the hot
tears she shed while listening to Isaac's touching account of George ere the woods were
gained, and Tom Carlton generously giving up his seat to the bleeding man thereby becoming
himself a prisoner.
Much, too, was said in praise of Tom, and Annie felt that she could not do too much for one
who had shown himself so generous and brave.
talking of Tom reminded her of Jimmy's talking up and down the icy walks waiting patiently for her,
and when at last the music of Tom's serenade had ceased she arose to go, wishing to get away
ere the band came there as she knew they were intending to do. As John arose to accompany her,
she had to say that Jimmy Carlton was waiting for her by the gate.
Instantly the sharp eyes of the widow shot at her a curious glance, which brought the hot
blood to her cheek, while John and Susan exchanged a smile, the meaning of which she
could not fail to understand.
Poor Annie.
Her heart throbbed with pain
as she guessed of what they were thinking.
Could they for a moment believe her so heartless and cold?
The mere idea made her dizzy and faint
and scarcely articulating her good-night,
she hastened out into the cool night air,
feeling half-empted to refuse outright
the arm offered for her support.
If she only dared tell him to leave her there alone,
leave her to flee away through the dark,
lonely streets to the still more lonely yard were on Georgia's grave she could lay herself down and
die. But not thus easily could life's heavy burden be shaken off. She could not lay it down at will.
And conquering the emotions which each time she thought of John Sims' significant smile
threatened to burst out into a fierce storm of passionate sobs, she apologized for having kept
Jimmy waiting so long, and taking his arm left the cottage gate just as the throng of
serenaders turned into that street.
Jimmy knew she had been crying and conjecturing that she had been talking of her husband,
he too began to speak of George, asking her many questions about him, and repeating many
things he had heard in his praise from the Rockland citizens.
It seemed strange that this should comfort her, but it did.
The hard, bitter feeling insensibly passed away while listening to Jimmy, and by the time
the Mather Mansion was reached, the tears were dried on Annie's cheeks, and outwardly
she was cheerful and patient as ever.
after that night rose had no cause for complaint that jimmy was rude to annie or annie cool toward him for though annie talked to him but little she did not forget the sympathy so delicately manifested for her and treated him with as much respect as she awarded tom who grew each day more and more interested in the black-robed figure reminding him so much of his lost mary
jimmy knew he did and watched narrowly for the time when she would know it too but such time did not come for annie had no suspicion that either of the brothers regarded her with the shadow of a feeling save that of ordinary friendship
as much of her time as possible was spent with the widow sims and a great part of isaac's visible improvement was owing to her gentle care and the sunshine of her presence john's furlough had expired and now that he was gone the disconsolate susan turned to annie for comfort while isaac watched her watch
daily for the sound of the little feet coming up the walk, and bringing with them so much
happiness to the lonely cottage.
I wish you'd stay home more. We miss you so much, and it's so dismal without you.
Mother nods over her knitting. Tom just walks the floor or reads some stiff Presbyterian
book, while Jimmy thrums the piano and teases my kitten awfully. Rose said to Annie one night,
when the latter came in from a tour of calls, the last of which had been on Mrs. Baker,
now a much happier or better woman than when we first made her acquaintance.
"'It's so different when you are here,' Rose continued, as Annie came and sat down by her side.
"'Tom is a heap more entertaining, while Jimmy is not half so mischievous and provoking.'
"'I did not suppose my absence could affect your happiness, or I would certainly have stayed with you more,' Annie replied.
And Rose continued, "'Well, it just does, and now that both Tom and Jimmy are going so soon,
I shall need you to oversee the things I must get ready for them.'
Captain Carlton and Jimmy going away soon.
Annie repeated in some surprise.
Where are they going?
The captain's furlough has not yet expired.
I know it, Rose continued,
but as he is perfectly well,
he thinks it's right to go back
and has fixed on one week from today.
Yes, but Jimmy, you spoke of his leaving too,
Annie said, and Rose rejoined.
Jimmy is going with Tom to join the Federal Army
on the Potomac, and, as he says,
retrieve, if possible, the character he lost
by turning traitor once.
"'Oh, I am so glad, and I like him so much for that,' Annie exclaimed,
her white face lighting up with a sudden animation, which made it seem very beautiful to the young
man just entering the door.
"'I would brave the cannon's mouth for another look like that,' was Jimmy's mental comment
as he stepped into the room and advanced to the lady's side.
"'So you are glad I'm going,' he said half playfully to Annie, who answered frankly.
"'Yes, very glad.'
"'And won't you miss me about it?
bit. Folks like to be missed, you know, if they are ever so bad. It makes one think better of
himself, and consequently do better if he knows that his absence will cause a feeling of regret,
however slight, to the friends left behind. Jimmy remarked, while in his eyes there was a peculiar
expression which Annie failed to see as he stood looking down upon her. She would miss Jimmy,
she knew, for she had become accustomed to his merry whistle, his ringing laugh, his teasing
jokes at Rose's expense, and his going would leave them very very much. She knew. She knew, for she had become accustomed to his
going would leave them very lonely, and so she frankly admitted, adding that,
it was not because she wished to be rid of him that she was glad. It pleased her to see him
in the path of duty, even though that path led to danger and possible death.
Oh, don't, Annie, don't talk of death to Jimmy, Rose cried with a shudder.
You can't begin to guess how it makes me feel, or how terrible it would seem if either he
or Tom should die? Can't I? Annie asked, with such a depth of mournful pathos, that Rose's
tears flowed at once. Of course Annie knew how it felt, and every fiber of her heart was
bleeding now, as she remembered one who left her as full of life and hope as either Tom or Jimmy,
but who came back no more, save as the dead come back, shrouded and coffined for the grave.
But Annie would not give way to her own feelings then. She would comfort Rose and encourage the
young man who she felt shrank from the peril spread out before him. So she told how few there were
comparatively who died on the battlefield, while the chances for life in the hospitals were greater
now that better care and skill had been procured. Annie, excuse me, Mrs. Graham, and Jimmy spoke
vehemently while his eyes kindled with a strange gleam. Why don't you go as a nurse? You might be
the means of untold good to the poor fellows who need such care as you could give. I have thought of it,
said Annie, while Rose exclaimed, you, turn hospital nurse. Ridiculous. You. You, turn hospital nurse. Ridiculous. You. You. You.
You never shall so long as I can prevent it.
Shall she, Tom?
And she appealed to the latter who had just come in.
Shall Annie go into those horrid hospitals?
I am not Mrs. Graham's keeper, Tom replied,
but I should be sorry to see her acting in the capacity of hospital nurse,
even though I know that some of our noblest best women are engaged in that work.
Yes, old chap.
And Jimmy laugh to Mary laugh.
It's mighty easy talking that way now.
But suppose you, Captain Carlton, are some day among the terribly wounded, thigh shot through,
arms splintered above the elbow, jawbone broken and all that.
Wouldn't the pain be easier to bear if the nurse should happen to be Mrs. Graham or somebody
just like her?
Undoubtedly it would, Tom answered.
Still, I should be sorry to have her there amid the sickening horrors.
Please stop.
I can't bear to hear about it, Rose exclaimed.
I know it would be nice to be a Florence Nightingale,
and Annie would make a splendid one,
but I'll never let her go,
unless you or Jimmy or Will are wounded,
and then we'll come together, won't we, Annie?
There was no response from Annie until Jimmy said.
Say, Mrs. Graham,
if I am ever wounded and you hear I am suffering
in some dismal hole,
will you come and care for me?
He did not join Will's or Tom's name with his own.
It was Jimmy Carlton, whom Annie was to nurse.
But it did not matter,
lifting up her head so that her soft
blue eyes looked into his, Annie answered unhesitatingly.
Providence permitting I will, and I would do the same for any brave fellow who follows,
as my husband did, where duty to his country leads.
So you see you will fare no better than I, after all, Tom laughingly rejoined, while
Jamie thought within himself.
Why need she always bring that husband in?
It's bad enough to know she's had one without eternally hearing about him.
Foolish Jimmy.
It was folly for him to love him.
I awake so long as he did that night or to dream when at last he slept.
Of hospital walls expanding into a palace has an angel form with hair and eyes like Annie's bent
over his feverish pillow, while soft white hands dressed some gaping wound where the enemy's
bullet had been.
Shear folly, too, was it for dignified old Tom to watch from his window the young moon
until it set in the western sky, thinking of Mary, as he tried to make himself believe,
wondering why it was that Annie reminded him so much of her, and why he should be a little
be so deeply interested in one who, until a few weeks past, had been to him a stranger.
To Annie, Captain Carlton and Jimmy were nothing more than friends.
And if, during the week preceding their departure, she was quite as busy as Rose,
and apparently as much interested in the various preparations for their comfort,
it was only because they were soldiers, and not, as Widow Sims once suggested to Susan,
because they were Carlton's, and handsome and rich, and, well, there's no tellin what will happen
when a widder's young and handsome.
but this I know. I've never married, and my man's been dead this nineteen years.
Nobody need tell me she'd be so busy for anybody but them, Carlton's.
If twas the captain, I wouldn't mind. But that sassy-faced jeems?
Ugh. And in her ire at Annie's supposed preference for sassy-faced jeems,
the widow spilled more than half of the spiced chocolate she was carrying to Isaac.
Never was the widow more mistaken. Annie Graham would have done for
Eli, John, and Isaac Sims, or possibly William Baker, the same office as she was doing for the
Carlton's, and her voice would have been just as sweet and hopeful when she bade them farewell,
as it was that bright spring morning when in the parlor of the Mather Mansion, Tom and Jimmy
were waiting to say goodbye. At the very last moment Bill Baker had announced his intention
of going to. $13 a month in dogs fare was better than laying around home, he said,
and livin on the old gal who was getting most too straight and blue for his notions.
Besides that, he felt kind attached to the corporal
and wanted to be where he could see him and wait on him like any other nigger.
Jimmy would gladly have dispensed with such a singular attache,
but Bill could not be shaken off,
and as he did in various ways events a strong regard for his former captive,
Jimmy was forced to submit to what he termed his thorn in the flesh,
giving from his own purse money for Billy's outfit, and furnishing the mother with means to repair her dwelling and make it far more comfortable than at present.
This he was sure pleased Annie, and no sacrifice was too costly if it won her regard.
She had prayed for him he knew for Rose had told him so, and prayers like hers, though it did not avail to save her George's life, which surely shield him from danger.
He should come back again when the war was over. Come back to find an older grave by Rockland's Churchyard.
gate, while the wife, who daily watered that grave with tears, would be as young, as beautiful,
and far more girlish-looking than now when in her widow's weed she offered him her hand at parting,
bidding Godspeed to him and the noble Tom who stood beside him.
There were tears and kisses and blessings from Rose and her mother, a few low-spoken words of
sympathy and good-will from Annie, and the two young men were gone.
Half an hour later and the eastern train thundered through the town, bearing away to the fields of
bloody carnage, three more young vigorous lives, and leaving desolate two homes, one the
lonely cottage where Bill's mother wept alone, the other the Mather Mansion, where Mrs. Carlton
and Rose sobbed bitterly, while Annie strove in various ways to comfort them.
End of Chapter 19.
Chapters 20 and 21 of Rose Mather, A Tale by Mary Jane Holmes.
This Libervox recording is in the public domain.
20 at the Mather Mansion
It was very lonely at the Mather Mansion after the departure of the soldiers,
and it required all Annie's tack to keep Rose from sinking entirely under the sense of desolation,
which crept over her as she began more and more to realize what the war meant,
and to tremble for the safety of her husband and her brothers.
They were still in Washington, but they might be ordered to advance at any moment,
and in a tremor of distress, Rose waited and watched for every male which could bring her tidings of them.
next to her husband's letters,
Jimmy's did her the most good,
for Jimmy had in his nature a world of hopefulness and humor,
and his letters were full of fun and quaint description
of the life he was leading.
And still of the three young men,
Will Mather, Tom Carlton, and Jimmy,
the latter suffered the most acutely,
for, in addition to his dislike of military life,
he was compelled to endure the jokes and jeers
which the coarser and more unfeeling of his comrades
heaped upon him when, from Bill Baker,
they heard that his first experience
and arms bearing had been learned in the army of the enemy.
To one of Bill's instincts it seemed a great thing that he had captured and brought to Washington
so illustrious a prisoner as the corporal as he persisted in calling him.
And the story was repeated with such wonderful additions that Jimmy, when once by accident
he was a listener to the tale, failed utterly to recognize himself in the chap who had run so many
miles from and then bought so many hours with the redoubtable Bill, who, while annoying his
quantum captive so terribly, still, under all circumstances, evinced for him an attachment as
singular as it was sincere. Everything which he could do for Jimmy he did, becoming literally his
servant and drudge, and thus saving him from many a hardship which as a private he would otherwise
have encountered. It was a fancy of Jimmy's that by serving as a private in the army against
which his hand had once been lifted, he should in some way expiate his sin and perhaps
be sure of winning favor from Annie Graham, whose blue eyes were constantly
before him, just as they had looked when in her dress of black, she stood in the spring
sunshine bidding him goodbye. Soon after his arrival in Washington, he had been offered a second
lieutenantcy in Captain Carlton's company, but he steadily declined the office, giving no explanation
to anyone except his brother and sister Rose, to whom he wrote. Perhaps I was foolish to decline
the offer, and for a moment I was horribly tempted to accept it, especially when by doing so,
I could to some degree escape my thorn in the flesh, who notwithstanding that he did,
does me many a kindness, annoys me excessively. But I could not feel that I deserved that post.
It ought to belong to someone who had never spurned the old flag, and so I stood firm,
and suggested as a substitute that other Sims chap from Rockland. Huffney or Phineas or Eli, hanged if I
know what his name is. Anyway, he is that crabbed widow's son that used to pucker her mouse
so when she saw that young rebb of a Carlton and snatch away her gown for fear it should hit me.
I reckon he'll get the office with its twelve hundred a year
which he can use for his mother's support.
One of her sons, you know, is married and as good as lost to her,
while that boy Isaac is not long for this world.
Prison life at Richmond did the business for him, or I'm mistaken.
So let Eli be lieutenant and James Carlton only a private.
Do you think I did right, and will that paragon of yours mistress Graham think so too?
This was what Jimmy wrote to Rose after he had been gone for three or four
weeks, and what Rose with her usual impetuous thoughtlessness, read to her mother and Annie,
who were both in her room when the letter came. Annie had made an attempt to leave, but Rose had
insisted that there could be no secret in Jimmy's letter. If there was, she would skip it,
she said, and she read on, stumbling dreadfully and mispronouncing words for Jimmy's handwriting
was never very plain, and this letter written with a soft lead pencil with a bit of slate-stone
for a table was his very worst. She made out, however, that he was a little. She made out, however, that
he had declined the office of second lieutenant because he thought he did not deserve it,
that he had named Eli Sims as a fitter person for it than himself, and that he had called
the widow a crab-apple or something like it. All this was very clear, and after exclaiming
against Jimmy's morbid sense of justice in one breath and pronouncing him perfectly splendid
in another, she kept on till she reached the paragon which she rendered Pequot, making the sentence
read, Will that Pequot of yours, Mistress Graham, think I did right?
What did he call me? Annie exclaimed, her face turning very white as she leaned toward Rose,
who startled at her vehemence, tried again to make out the word, which was strangely distorted
from the fact that just as Jimmy was writing it, his shadow bill, had struck him familiarly
upon the shoulder saying with a laugh, "'Wrightin't your gal, I suppose. Give her Bill Baker's regrets.'
"'It looks like Pequot, and some like Patagonian,' Rose said, deciding at last that it was
Paragon, and adding by way of an explanation to herself of Annie's evident surprise,
you did not like the idea of his calling you a Pequot, did you, Annie?
It wouldn't have meant anything if he had, and it was natural that I should make the blunder,
for that's the name he gave the young girl at the Pequot House, the one he liked,
and to whom he passed himself off as Dick Lee. You remember I told you about her?
Yes, I remember. And Annie's voice was a little husky,
the little girl who was not happy with her aunt, and so listened the
more willingly to the boy's kind winning words. Annie did not know why, she said that, unless
it were rung from her by some sudden and bitter memory of what had been a bright sunspot in her
cheerless childhood. When the Pequot girl was mentioned in her presence once before, she had
gathered that it was mostly Mrs. Carlton's pride which had taken the boy away from any more rambles
on the beach or moonlight sails upon the bay, and perhaps it was a desire to defend and excuse
the girl which prompted her to advance a reason why Dick Lee's attentions had been so
acceptable. She would have given much to recall her words which made Mrs. Carlton
dart a quick, curious glance at her, while Rose exclaimed,
How do you know she was not happy with her aunt? Did Jimmy ever tell you about her?
Never, Annie replied, feeling glad that a servant appeared just at that moment, telling Rose a little
girl was in the kitchen asking to see her. It was a daughter of one of the soldiers whose mother
was sick and had sent to Mrs. Mather for some little delicacy. Such calls were
frequent at the Mather House, for the soldiers did not receive their pay regularly, and there
was much destitution among their families who, but for Rose's liberality, would have suffered
far more than they did. As freely as water, her money was used to relieve their wants, and now,
forgetting Jimmy and his Pequot, she entered at once into the little girl's story, and when
told that the sick woman had expressed a wish to see her, she said, I'll go now. There's Jake
just come in. I'll have him harness the horses and take you home. It must be a mile or more
to your house. Rose usually acted upon her impulses and was soon in her carriage with a huge
basket at her feet and the little girl opposite enjoying her ride so much, and enjoying it the more
for the unmistakable signs of envy and wonder which she detected in the faces of her companions
as she neared her humble home in the hollow. Rose had asked both her mother and Annie to accompany her,
but they had declined, and for a time after Rose's departure they sat together in perfect silence,
while a curious train of thought was passing through the minds of each.
Annie's agitation when Rose-red Pequot for Paragon had surprised Mrs. Carlton,
while what she had said of the girl and her aunt had awakened a feeling of disquiet and suspicion.
Mrs. Carlton was proud of her own and her husband's family,
proud of her wealth and proud of her position.
Not offensively so, but in that quiet assured kind of way so natural to the highly-bred Bostonian.
It was this pride which had prompted her to her to her turn.
resort to so extreme measures with the boy Jimmy when she found how much he was interested
in the little Pequot. And when during Jimmy's brief stay in Rockland, she, with a mother's
quick intuition, detected in him signs of interest in Annie Graham, her pride again took fright,
and she was half glad to have him go from the possible temptation. Something in the nobler part
of the woman's nature told her how wrong the feeling was, while each day some new development
of Annie's gentle Christian character made the desolate young creature dearer to her.
that she was superior to most people in her rank of life, Mrs. Carlton knew,
and she had more than once wondered how one like her had ever become the wife of a mechanic.
She was not thinking of this, however, on the afternoon when she was alone with Annie
while Rose was away on her errand of mercy.
She was thinking, rather, of the suspicion which had just found a lodgment in her mind
and was devising some means of testing its reality.
To this end, she at last made some casual remark about Rockland and its people,
asking if Annie had always lived there.
Only since I was married, was the reply,
and Mrs. Carlton continued,
You seem more like Eastern people than like a New Yorker.
Were you born in New England?
Yes, in Connecticut, Annie said,
and then Mrs. Carlton made a great blunder by asking next,
were you born in or near New London?
I have been there several times and may know your family.
At mention of New London, Annie's eyes flat.
upon Mrs. Carlton with a startled look, as if she felt that there was a deeper meaning
in the questioning to which she was being subjected than appeared on the surface, and her
voice trembled a little as she replied.
I was born in Hartford and lived there till I was eight years old when my parents both died
of cholera in one day, and I went to live with my aunt in New Haven.
Yes, Mrs. Carlton answered slowly.
Thus far there was quite as much to prove as there was to disprove the correctness of her
surmise, and thinking to herself,
I may as well go further now
I have commenced with being rude.
She continued,
Pardon me, Mrs. Graham, if I seem inquisitive,
but I cannot help feeling interested in one to whom
Rose is so greatly attached.
And I do not remember that I ever heard any of your
history before your husband went to war.
I do not even know your maiden name.
Annie's heart beat almost audibly,
and her cheeks were very red as she replied.
My father was Dr. Howard,
and I was Annie Louise Howard.
Excuse me, Mrs. Carlton, if I cannot talk much of my girl life after my parents died.
It was not a happy one.
I was wholly dependent upon my aunt, who, while giving me every advantage in the way of education,
kept before me so constantly the fact that I was an object of charity
that it embittered every moment of my life,
and when George offered me his love, I accepted it gladly,
finding in him the only real friend I had known since the day I was an orphan.
Annie was crying now, and excusing herself she left the parlor and repaired to her own room,
where her excitement spent itself in tears and sobs as she recalled all the dreadful years
when she was subject to the caprices of the most capricious of women,
who had attempted to force her into a marriage with a millionaire of 60,
and had driven her to accept a love which George Graham had offered her.
George had not been her equal in an intellectual point of view,
and none knew this fact better than Annie herself.
but he was the kindest, tenderest of husbands,
and she had loved him devotedly for the manly virtues
which made him the noble and selfish man he was.
Captain Carlton and Jimmy both could sympathize
with her tastes and inclinations far better than George had done,
but never once during her brief married life
had she allowed herself to wonder what her lot might have been
had had been cast with people like the Carlton's.
And since her husband's death,
anything which looked away from that grave by the churchyard gate
seemed so terrible to her that now, as she recalled Mrs. Carlton's questionings, and guessed what
had prompted them, every nerve quivered with pain, which could only be soothed by a visit to
George's grave. There, on the turf which covered him, she had wept out many a grief, and she
started for it now, the villagers watching her as she passed their doors, and curiously speculating,
as people will, upon the time to come when the long black dress and graceful girlish form
would not be so often seen among the Rockland dead.
already the gossips of the town were coupling her name with the Carlton's,
the majority giving her to Tom, the elder, and more worthy of the two.
A whisper of this gossip had been born to Mrs. Carlton,
who, while pretending to ignore it, had felt troubled as she recalled all the incidents of Jimmy's visit at home.
Then, when the suspicion came to her that the woman whom Rose had taken into her household
was possibly identical with the girl of New London,
whose name she could not remember, she felt for a moment greatly disturbed.
There was a fierce struggle with her pride, a close reasoning with herself, and then her
better nature triumphed, and her heart went out very kindly toward poor Annie at that moment
standing by her husband's grave, and wondering why her thoughts would keep straying away to
the wayward young man who had been a traitor to his country, but was trying to atone by
voluntarily bearing the hardships of a private's life when a better was offered him.
He had asked if she would think he did right, and the question had shown that he cared for
her good opinion. Yes, she did think he was right, and she resolved to send him a message to that
effect when Rose wrote to him next. There was no wrong to the dead in the thought, and her tears
dropped just as fast upon the marble as she stood to kiss the name cut upon it and then left
the silent graveyard. Meantime, Rose had visited her sick woman in the hollow, had fed the hungry
children, and dropped upon the floor the six-week's baby which she tried to hold, then gathering her shawl
about her and holding up her scource, just as she always did when in the homes of the poor,
she reentered her carriage and bad Jake driver next to widow Sims.
Everything there was neat and clean as soap and sand and the widow's two hands could make it,
while Susan made a very pretty picture in her dark-stuffed gown with a scarlet velvet ribbon
in her black hair. There was a saucer of English violets on the round deal table,
and their sweet perfume filled the room into which Rose came dancing, her eyes shining like
stars and her cheeks so brilliant to color that the widow began directly to wonder if there
wasn't some paint there. The widow was not in her best mood, for she was very tired, having
done a heavy washing in the morning before Rose Mather had thought of opening her bright eyes.
Then, after the coarser larger pieces were dried and iron she had tried to spin, a work to
which she clung as tenaciously as if on every stream in New England there was not a cotton or
woolen factory capable of doing the work so much easier and better than herself.
The widow was fond of spinning, and she had turned the wheel with a right goodwill
until Isaac had complained that the continuous humming hurt his head and made him think of
the wind as it howled so dismally around the dreary prison in Richmond.
Libby, they called it now, and Isaac always shuddered when he heard the name and thought of
what he suffered there.
Isaac was very weak and pale, and his face looked like that of some young girl as he lay
among his pillows in the pretty dressing gown which Rose had bought and Annie had made for him.
He was sleeping when Rose came in, and the widow's,
Sh, came morningly as a greeting but came too late, for Rose's blithsome voice had roused him,
and his glad, welcoming smile more than counterbalanced the frown which settled on the widow's face
when she saw her boy disturbed. Rose was accustomed to the widow's ways, and throwing off her shawl
and untying her hat, she sat down on the foot of Isaac's bed, and drawing Jimmy's letter from her
pocket she began. I've got such splendid news for you, Mrs. Sims, at least I think
I have. Yes, I know it's sure to come true. Eli is going to be a lieutenant with twelve hundred
dollars a year. Such a heap of money for him, and it's all Jimmy's doings, too. He would not
have the office because he did not think he deserved it. Listen to what he says. Both the widow and
Susan were close to Rose now, the frown all gone from the widow's brow, and the pucker from her
mouth. But both came back in a trice as blundering rose read on about Huffney and Phineas
and Eli till she came to the crabbed, which she called crabapple, and then stopped short,
her face of perfect blaze as she tried to apologize.
Take worthwhile to soap it over, the widow said fiercely. I be a crabapple, I suppose, and a
gnarly one at that, but I am as I was made, and I'd like to know if crabs wasn't as good as
secessioners.
"'Please, mother, never mind,' Isaac said pleadingly,
and his voice always quieted the fiery woman
who listened while Rose read of Eli's good fortune
and made another terrible mistake
by stumbling upon Jimmy's opinion of Isaac's sickness.
She only read,
"'He is not long for this world,
but that was enough to bring a flush to his brow
and blanch his mother's cheek,
while with a gush of tears Rose hid her face in Susan's lap and sobbed.
I wish I had not come.
I'm always doing wrong when I mean to do the best.
Oh, I wish the war had never been,
and I don't believe Isaac is so sick.
Jimmy has no right to judge.
He don't know.
Rosa's distress was too genuine not to touch the widow
who tried to appear calm and unconcerned
and even said something kind of Jimmy
who had so generously preferred Eli to himself.
But there was a restraint over everything,
and after a few awkward attempts at something
like natural conversation, Rose
bade a hasty goodbye, and went out
from the house to which she had brought more
sorrow than joy.
21. Not long for this world.
The sick boy whispered
the words a great many times to himself,
as with his face to the wall, where
neither his mother nor Susan could see it,
he thought of what Rose had read and wondered if it were true.
He was not afraid to die.
He had been very near death once before,
and had not shrunk from meeting it as death,
It was only the dying from home he had dreaded so much, asking to live till he could see his mother again and the grass growing by the cottage door and the violets by the well.
And God had taken him at his word. He had lived to see his mother, to feel the touch of her rough hands upon his hair, to hear her voice always kind to him, calling him her, Aiky boy, to see the green grass by the door and the violets by the well.
But this, alas, did not suffice. He wanted to live.
Live longer. Live to be a man like Eli and John. Live to do good. Live to take care of his mother.
Live to hear the notes of victory borne on the northern breeze as the federal flag floated again over land and sea.
All this was worth living for and Isaac was young to die. Only 19 and looking three years younger.
It was very hard, and the dark eyelashes closed tightly to keep back the tears as the white lips tried to pray.
Thy will be done.
That was what they meant to utter, but there came instead the first words of the prayer the
Savior taught.
Our Father.
That was all.
But the very name of Father brought a deep peace into Isaac's heart.
God was his father, and he had nothing to fear.
Living or dying, it would be well with the boy who would not tell a lie even for promotion.
And so, while the mother whose heart ached and throbbed with this new fear, and still
found time to fill a thrill of pride in Lieutenant Eli, moved softly around the room.
preparing the dainty supper for her child,
Isaac slept peacefully,
nor woke until the delicate repast
was ready and waiting for him
on the little table by the bed.
There was spiced chocolate tonight
and nice cream toast with grape jelly
and a bit of cold baked chicken,
and the highly seasoned cucumber pickles
Isaac had craved so much since his return,
and which the physician said were good for him.
And the best china cup was brought out,
and the silver spoons marked with the widow's maiden name,
and a white napkin was on the train.
And Isaac, who enjoyed such things, knew why it was all done that particular night, just as the widow knew why at bedtime.
He asked Susan to read from Revelation chapter 7, verse 16.
They shall hunger no more, neither thirst any more.
Neither shall the sun light on them nor any heat.
For the lamb which is in the midst of the throne shall feed them,
and shall lead them unto living fountains of waters, and God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes.
He was thinking of his heavenly home,
while the mother was thinking of the time
when he, who Jimmy Carlton had said,
was not long for earth, would be gone,
and she could no longer do for him
the little offices which gave her so much comfort.
Since the dreadful days when she knew her boy was in prison,
the widow had not felt so keen a pang
as that which stirred her heartstrings now.
When, alone in her room,
she dropped in her quick, defiant way into the high-backed chair,
and sitting stiff and straight tried to face,
the future. It could not be that Isaac had only come home to die. God would not deal thus harshly
with her. He had spared Eli and John. He had promoted them both, and he would not take Isaac from her.
The boy was getting better. He was mending every day, or at least she had thought so, until
Rose Mather came with her message of evil. Why could not Rose have stayed at home?
Why need she come there and leave such a sting behind?
the widow was growing very hard and wicked toward poor little thoughtless rose and her heart lay like a stone in her bosom as for an hour or more she sat in her high-backed chair thinking of the boy whose low breathing she could hear from the next room
he was sleeping she thought and she would steal softly to his side and see if it was written on his face that his days were numbered but isaac was not asleep and he knew the moment his mother bent over him and turning toward her he whispered i know why you are up
so late, Mother, and what you are here for. You are thinking of what Mrs. Carlton said and
wondering if it is true. I guess it is, mother, for I don't get any stronger, and my cough
hurts me so. But I'm not a bit afraid to die now with you beside me up to the very last minute.
In Richmond it was different, and I prayed so hard that God would let me come back,
if only to drink from the well and then die on the grass beside it. He did let me come,
and now we mustn't say anything if he does not let me stay but a little bit of a while.
I've been thinking it over since Mrs. Mather went away,
and at first it seemed hard that Eli and John should have such good luck,
and only Stubbed to be the one to suffer.
He said this last, playfully, using his old nickname Stub,
because he saw by the dim light burning on the table the bitter look of anguish upon his mother's face,
and he would fain remove it.
At the mention of the name which her more stalwart sons had given to her baby, the widow's chin quivered,
and her rough hands moved the thin light hair, but she did not speak, and Isaac went on.
Then, too, I want to live till the war is over. I want to hear the joyful shouts and see the
bonfires they will kindle in the streets. There's a big box in the barn. I hid it there the
morning I went away, and I said when the peace comes we can burn that box and mother will look out from
the window, and the church bells will ring, and there'll be such rejoicings.
Now, I most know I shan't be here to see it.
But, mother, you'll burn the box.
You and Susan, with Eli and John.
And you'll think of me, who did what I could to bring the peace.
There was a choking sound like the swallowing of a great sob, and that was all the answer
the widow made.
Only her hands moved faster through the threads of light brown hair, and her rigid form
sat up straighter, more rigid than ever.
she was suffering the fiercest pang she would ever know, for she was giving Isaac up.
She was coming to the knowledge that he was really going from her,
that Jimmy Carlton was right, and Isaac was not long for this world.
When at last her mind reached that point, the tension of nerve gave way for a little,
and her hot tears poured over the white face she kissed so tenderly.
The moon was looking in at the low west window ere the widow went back to her own bed,
and Isaac, nestling down among his pillows, fell away to sleep, dreaming of the bonfire in the street
when the hidden box was burned and dreaming, too, of that other world which lies so near this
that he could almost see the loving hand stretched out to welcome him.
After that night, the widow's mouth shut together more firmly than ever, and the frown
between her eyes was more marked and decided, while her manner to all save Isaac and
Annie Graham was sharper and crisper than before. When Eli's letter came telling of his promotion
and lauding Jimmy Carlton, whose generous act was a byword in the company,
her face relaxed a little, and she said to Annie Graham,
"'The Lord is good to my two oldest boys, but if he'd give me, Isaac, I wouldn't care for all
the titles in Christendom.'
As the warm weather came on, Isaac did not get up anymore to sit by the open door,
but lay all day on his bed, sometimes sleeping, sometimes thinking, and sometimes listening
while Annie read to him from the Bible.
Isaac was very fond of Annie.
She had been George Graham's wife,
and he evinced so much desire to have her constantly with him
that at last she stayed altogether with Mrs. Sims,
only going occasionally to the Mather Mansion
where they missed her so much.
Rose was nothing without her,
and at first opposed her going to the widow Sims.
If help was needed, she said,
she would hire someone,
for Annie must not tire herself out
just as she was beginning to grow plump and beautiful again.
But when Isaac said to her,
"'Please let Mrs. Graham come.
It will not be long she'll have to stay,
and she is so full of hope and faith
that it makes me more willing to die
and to go away alone across the Jordan.'
She withdrew her opposition,
and Annie was free to go and come as she liked.
It suited Annie to get away from the Mather Mansion just then,
for she could not help feeling that there was a purpose
in Mrs. Carlton's questioning her of her early history,
and she hailed any excuse which removed her from the scrutiny
with which since that conversation, touching her early home and maiden name Mrs. Carlton had
evidently regarded her.
Jimmy had written to her once, enclosing the unsealed note in a letter to Rose,
and Annie's cheeks had been all ablaze as she read it, for she knew the mother's eyes were
fastened upon her.
It was nothing but a simple acknowledgment of some article Annie had made and sent to him in
a box filled for all three of the soldiers, Will Mather Tom and Jimmy.
There was also mention made of Annie's kindly message to the intent that
she did think he was right in giving the office to Eli, and a wish expressed that she would
write to him. You don't know how much good letters from home do such scamps as we privates are,
or how we need something from the civilized world to keep us from turning heathens.
Tom, too, had sent thanks to Annie Graham for the needle-book made for him, but he did not write
to her, though every letter had in it more or less of Mrs. Graham, and Mrs. Carlton while
saying to herself, "'Both my boys have fallen under the spell.'
felt her pride gradually giving way
and her heart growing warmer
toward the woman whom she missed so much
during the week spent at Isaac's bedside.
They were not many,
for when the dry days of August came on
and the grass withered by the door,
and the flowers drooped for want of rain,
and the sun rose each morning redder,
hotter than on the previous day,
the sick boy began to fail rapidly.
And one night, just as the wind was beginning
to blow from the west,
where a bank of dark clouds was lying,
he whispered to Annie,
call mother and Susan, for I know I'm going now.
The widow was in the backyard, putting out the barrels and tubs to catch the rain if it came,
for the well and the cistern were nearly dry, just as her dim eyes were,
when a few minutes after she bent over her boy and saw the change coming so rapidly.
She could not weep, and Susan sobs annoyed her.
"'Twas like them ruggluses to go into hysterics and make a fuss,' she thought,
with a kind of bitter scorn for her daughter-in-law who loved I.
Isaac as a brother, and wept that he was leaving them.
Perhaps the dying boy detected the feeling, for he said feebly,
Go out, Susan and Mrs. Graham both.
I want to be alone with Mother a minute.
Then, when they were alone, he said,
I am dying, mother, and I know you won't be angry at what I say.
I want you to be kind to Susan, and pet her some and love her for John's sake.
She is a good girl, and Mr. Carlton's good, too,
the one they called Jimmy, I mean.
Don't say harsh things of him because he was once a rebel.
Don't speak against him to Mrs. Graham.
Maybe she will like him sometime,
and if so, help her mother instead of hindering it.
Jimmy Carlton on his lone picket watch that night on the banks of the Potomac,
and thinking, alas, more of a black-robed figure with braids of pale brown hair
than ever lurking foe,
little dreamed of the good words spoken for him by the dying boy,
whose eyes turned lovingly to Annie when she came back to him and held his clammy hand.
It is not dark, it is not hard.
I am not afraid, for the Savior is with me, he kept repeating,
and then he sent messages to his absent brothers,
to Captain Tom Carlton, who had been so kind to him in prison,
and to Jimmy too and all the boys who had been with him in battle.
And then, just as the wind began to roar down the chimney,
and the refreshing rain to beat against the windows,
Isaac's spirit went out into the great unknown expanse beyond this life,
and only the pale, emaciated body was left in the humble room,
where the lone woman stood looking upon the boyish face,
which seemed so young in death.
The widow uttered no sound when she knew he was dead,
and it was her hand which drew the covering decently about him,
and then picked up from the floor a loose feather which had dropped from the worn pillow.
Susan must speak to their next-door neighbor, she said,
and asked them to care for the body.
Then when the men came in,
she remembered an open window in the back chamber
where the rain must be driving in,
and still up there on the pretense of shutting it.
But she did not return till the men were gone,
and Isaac was lying on the calico-covered lounge
with a look of perfect peace upon his face,
and the damp night air blowing softly across his light hair.
Kneeling at his side and laying her hard cheek
against the icy face of her last born,
the mother gave vent to her grief in her own peculiar way.
There were no tears or sobs, but loving, tender, cooing words whispered over the boy as if he had been a living baby instead of a soldier dead.
And yet the fact that it was a soldier lying there before her was never lost sight of,
and the bitter part of the woman's nature was stirred to its very depths as she remembered what had brought her boy to this.
It was the war, and fierce were the mental denunciations against those who had stirred up the strife,
while with the bitterness came pitying thoughts of the poor boys who died in the lonely hospitals or on the battlefields.
And with her cheek still resting against the pale, clammy one and her fingers threading the light hair,
the widow vowed that all she was and all she had should henceforth be given to the war.
She would work for the soldiers, give to the soldiers, deny herself food and raiment for the soldiers.
I, even die for them if need be. And, whispering the vow into her dead boy's ear,
she left him there alone, just as the early summer dawn was breaking.
And when next morning her friends came in to see her,
they found her sitting by the body and working upon the shirt
she had a few days before taken from the Aid Society to make for some poor wretch.
She should not wear mourning, she said.
She had other uses for her money, and so the leghorn of many years date,
with the old faded green veil, followed Isaac Sims to the grave,
and the widow's face was still and stony as if cut from solid marble.
they made him a great funeral too though not so great as george grahams had been for isaac was not the second nor the third nor the fourth soldier buried in rockland's churchyard but he was isaac sims little like stub whom everybody liked
and so the firemen came out to do him honour and the rockland guards and the company of young lads who were beginning to drill and the boys from the academy and rose mather was chief directress and her carriage carried the widow and susan and annie and herself up to the newly-made grave
where they left the boy who once at sod wood for the little lady now paying him such honour the war was a great leveller of rank bringing together in one common cause the high and the low the rich and the poor
and in no one was this more strikingly seen than in the case of rose mather who utterly forgetful of the days when as rose carlton of boston she would scarcely have deigned to notice such as the widow sims now sought in so many ways to comfort the stricken woman going every day to her humble home
and once coaxing her to spend a day at the Mather Mansion together with Susan,
whom Rose secretly thought a little insipid and dull.
Susan's husband was alive and in the full flush of prosperity.
So Susan did not need sympathy, but the widow did,
and Rose got her up to the great house, as the widow called it,
and ordered a most elaborate dinner with soups and fish and roasts and salads prepared with oil,
which turned the widow's stomach and ices and chocolate and shallot-rus,
and nuts and fruit and coffee served in cups the size of an egg,
the widow thought, as very red in the face and perspiring at every pore, she went through
the dreadful dinner which lasted nearly three hours and left her at its conclusion,
weak as water and sweating like rain, as she whispered to Annie, who took the tired woman for a few
moments into her own room, and listened patiently to the comments upon the grand dinner
which had so nearly been the death of her. Susan on the contrary enjoyed it. It was her first
glimpse of life among the very wealthy, and while her mother-in-law,
was wondering, how Annie could stand such doings every day and especially that
bombable soup, and still was salute. Susan was thinking how she should like to live in
just such style and wondering if when John came home with his wages all saved, she could
not set up housekeeping somewhat on the Mather order. At least she would have those little
coffees after dinner, though she doubted John's willingness to sit quietly until the coffee
was reached. It was a long day to the widow, and the happiest part of it was the going
home by the cemetery, where she stopped at Isaac's grave and bending over the turf,
murmured her tender words of love and sorrow for the boy who slept beneath.
There was a plan forming in the widow's mind, and it came out at last to Annie who was
visiting her one day. The hospitals were full to overflowing, and the cry all along the lines
was for more help to care for the sick and dying, and the widow was going as nurse,
either in the hospital or in the field. She would prefer the latter, she said, for only folks
with pluck could stand it there. And Annie encouraged her to go, and even talked of going too,
but the first suggestion of the plan brought such a storm of opposition from Rose that, for a
little time longer Annie yielded, resolving, however, that ere long she would break away and take
her place where she felt that she could do more good than she was doing in Rockland.
End of Chapters 20 and 21
Chapter 22 and 23 of Rose Mather A Tale by Mary Jane Holmes
This Librevox recording is in the public domain.
22. The Wounded Soldier
Widow Sims was going to the Army and Jimmy Carlton, who was coming home for a few weeks,
was to be her escort to Washington. During the summer, Jimmy had seen a good deal of hard
service. He had been in no general battle, but had taken part in several skirmishes and raids,
in one of which he received a severe flesh wound in his arm, which, together with a sprained
ankle confined him for a time to the hospital, and finally procured for him a furlough of three or four
weeks. Rose was delighted, and this time the federal flag was actually floating from the cupola of the
Mather mansion in honor of Jimmy's return, but there was no crowd at the depot to welcome him.
That custom was worn out, and only the Mather carriage was waiting for Jimmy, whose right arm was
in a sling and whose face looked pale and thin from his recent confinement in hospital.
altogether he was very interesting in his character as a wounded soldier Rose thought as she made an impetuous rush at him, nearly strangling him with her vehement joy at having him home again.
And Jimmy was very glad to see her, glad too to meet his mother, but his eyes kept constantly watching the door and wandering down the hall as if in quest of someone who did not come.
During the weary days he had passed in the Georgetown Hospital, Annie Graham's face had been constantly with him.
and as he watched the tall wiry figure of the nurse who always wore a sunbonnet and had a pin between her teeth he kept wishing that it was annie and even worked himself into a passion against his sister rose who in one of her letters had spoken of annie's proposal to offer herself as nurse and her violent opposition to the plan
if rose had minded her business annie might possibly have been in this very ward instead of that old maid from massachusetts who looks for all the world like those awful good women in boston who don't wear hoops and who distribute tracts on sundays in the vicinity of cornhill
why can't a woman look decent and distribute tracks too annie in her black dress with her hair done up somehow would do more good to us poor invalids than forty strong-minded females and pasteboard bonnets with an everlasting pin between their teeth
thus jimmy fretted about rose and the massachusetts woman who in spite of her big pin and paste-bored bonnet brought him many a nice dish of tea or bowl of soup until the order came for him to go home when with an alacrity which almost belied the languor and weakness he had complained of so bitterly he packed his valise and started again for rockland
this time he wore the army blue but the suit which at first had been so fresh and clean was soiled and worn and hateful to the fastidious young man who only endured it because he fancied it might in some way commend him to annie graham
rose had written that she worshipped the very name of a soldier especially if he were a poor private her sympathies being specially enlisted for that class of people and jimmy was a poor private and a wounded one at that with his arm in a sling and a cane in his hand
and his curly hair cut short,
and his coat all wrinkled and soiled,
and his knapsack on his back.
And he was going home to Annie,
who surely would welcome him now
and hold his hand a moment,
and possibly dress his wound.
That would be delightful.
And Jimmy's blood went tingling through his veins
as he felt in fancy
the soft touch of Annie's fingers upon his flesh,
and saw her head crowned
with a pale brown hair bending over him.
He felt a little disappointment
that she was not at the depot to me,
him, while his chagrin increased at the tardiness of her appearance after his arrival home,
but she was coming at last, and Jimmy's quick ear caught the rustle of her garments as she came
down the stairs and into the room, smiling and blushing, as she took his offered hand and
begged him not to rise for her.
"'You are lame, yet, I see. I had hoped your ankle might be well,' she said, glancing at
his cane which he carried more from habit, and because it had been given him by an officer than from
any real necessity. His sprained ankle was almost well, and only troubled him at times.
But after Annie's look of commiseration at the cane and her evident intention to pity him for his
ankle rather than his arm, he found it vastly easy to be lame again, and even made some excuse
to cross the room in order to show off the limp, which had not been very perceptible when he
first came in. And Annie was very sorry for him, and inquired with a great deal of interest into the
particulars of his being wounded, and kindly sat where he could look directly at her and thought,
alas, how much he was changed from the fashionably dressed, saucy-faced young man who went from
them only a few months before. Short hair was not becoming to him. Neither was his thin, burnt face.
Neither was that soiled blue coat, and he looked as little as possible like a hero whom maidens
could worship. Some such thought passed through Annie's mind while Rose, too, felt the change in her
handsome brother, and, with a puzzled expression on her face said to him as she stood by his
side, "'How queer you do look with your hair so short and the hollows in your cheeks!
Does war change all the boys so much? Are Tom and Will such frights?'
"'Rose,' Mrs. Scarleton said reprovingly, while Annie looked up in surprise, pitying Jimmy,
whose chin quivered even more than his voice, as he said,
"'Tom and Will have not been sick like me.' And then, there's no denying it. Officers have
easier times as a general thing than privates?
I do not mean by that that I regret my position, for I do not.
Somebody must take a privates place, and it would better be I than a great many others.
But, Rose, I shall regret it, perhaps, if by the means my looks become obnoxious to my sister
and friends.
There was a marked emphasis on the word friends, and Jimmy's eyes went over appealingly to
Annie, who remembered how proud the boy Dick Lee used to be of his beauty, and guessed how
Rose's remarks must have wounded him.
Rose suspected it, too, and winding her arms around his neck, she tried to apologize.
"'Forgive me, Jimmy,' she said.
"'I do not mean anything.
Only your hair is so short, just like the convicts at Charlestown, and your coat is so
tumbled and dirty.
But Hannah can wash that, or I can buy you a new one.'
And Rose stumbled on, making matters ten times worse, until Mrs. Carlton succeeded
in turning the conversation upon something besides.
her son's personal appearance.
Annie was very sorry for him, and her sympathy expressed itself in the soft light of her blue eyes
which rested so kindly upon him, and in the low gentle cadence of her voice when she addressed
him, and her eager haste to bring him whatever she thought he wanted, and so save him the pain
of walking.
Mrs. Carlton saw through that ruse at once.
She had noticed no limp when Jimmy first came in, and she readily suspected why it was put on.
but it was not for her to expose her son.
From a lady who had spent a few days at the Mather House
and who once lived near Hartford,
Mrs. Carlton had learned that the Dr. Howard,
who had died of cholera in 49, was highly respected,
both as a gentleman and a practicing physician,
and this had helped to reconcile her in a great measure
to whatever might result from her son's evident liking for Annie Graham,
nay, Annie Howard, and as she more than half suspected,
the heroine of Jimmy's boyish fancy.
How very beautiful,
Jimmy thought Annie was, after he had had time to recover himself a little and look at her closely.
She was in better health, and certainly in better spirits than when he saw her last.
Her cheeks were rounder, her eyes were brighter, and her hair more luxuriant and
worn more in accordance with the prevailing style. This was Rosa's doing, as was also the
increased length of Annie's dress which swept the floor with so long a trail that the widow Sims
had made it the subject of sundry invidious remarks.
needn't tell her that a widder could wear such long, switching gowns, and think just as much of the grave by the gate?
She knew better, and Miss Graham was beginning to get frilicky.
She could see through a millstone.
This was Mrs. Sim's opinion of the long-gord dress which Jimmy noticed at once,
admiring the graceful symmetrical appearance it gave to Annie's figure,
just as he admired the softening effect which the plain white collar and cuffs had upon Annie's dress.
When he was home before, everything about her was black of the deepest dye,
but now the somberness of her attire was relieved somewhat, and Jimmy liked the change.
He could look at her without seeing constantly before him the grave by the churchyard gate,
where slept the man whose widow she was.
She did not seem like a widow. She was so young.
Only twenty-one, as Jimmy knew from Rose,
who delighted with the friendly meeting between her brother and friend,
was again building castles of what might be.
Could Rose have had her choice in the matter, she would have selected Tom for Annie.
He was older, steadier, while his letter seemed very much like Annie.
Tom had found the savior of whom Isaac Sims once talked so earnestly in the prison house at Richmond.
He was better than Jimmy Rose reasoned and more likely to suit Annie.
Still, if it were to be otherwise, she was satisfied,
and in a quiet way she aided and abetted Jimmy in all his plans to be frequently alone with Annie.
It was Annie who rode with him when Mrs. Carlton was indisposed, and Rose did not care to go.
Annie who read to him the books which Rose pronounced too stupid for anything.
Annie who brought his cane, and Annie who finally attended to his wounded arm.
The physician did not come one day.
Mrs. Carlton was sick, and Rose positively could not touch it,
and so Annie timidly offered her services and Jimmy knew from actual experience just how her soft fingers felt upon his arm.
his pulse throbbing and the blood tingling in every vein as she dressed his wound so carefully asking anxiously if she hurt him very badly he would have suffered martyrdom sooner than lose the opportunity of feeling those soft fingers upon his flesh
and so it came about that annie was his surgeon administered daily to the wound which healed far too rapidly to so suit the young man who began to shrink from her return to the life he had found so irksome tom had written twice for him to come as soon as possible and
Now only one day more remained of the month he was to spend at home.
The widow Sims was ready to go with him.
Susan had gone to her mother and the cottage was to be closed,
subject to a continual oversight for Mrs. Baker and an occasional inspection from both Rose and Annie.
The box which Isaac had hidden in the barn,
waiting for the bonfire which should celebrate our nation's final victory,
had been brought from its hiding place,
and baptized with the first and only tears the widow had shed since she went back to her humble home
and left him in the graveyard.
Sacred to her was that box,
and she put it with her best table and chairs,
bidding Annie Graham see that no harm befell it
and saying to her,
in case I never come back and pieces declared,
burned the box for Isaac's sake,
right there on the grass-platt,
which he dreamed about in Richmond.
And Annie promised all,
as she packed the widow's trunk,
putting in many little dainties
which Rose Mather had supplied,
and which were destined for the soldiers
whom the widow was to nurse.
She had been all day with Mrs. Sims, and Rose had been back and forth with her packages, curtailing her calls because of Jimmy with whom she would spend as much time as possible.
Jimmy was not in a very social mood that day. The house was very lonely without Annie, and the young man did nothing but walk from one window to another, looking always in the direction of widow Sims, and scarcely heeding at all, what either his mother or sister were saying to him.
when it began to grow dark and he heard Rose speak of sending the carriage for Annie as she had promised to do, he said.
I ought to see Mrs. Sims myself tonight and know if everything is in readiness for tomorrow.
I will go for Mrs. Graham and Rose.
Don't order the carriage.
There is a fine moon and she, that is, I would rather walk.
Oh, Jimmy, she exclaimed.
I'm so glad.
Tell her so for me.
I thought at first you did not like each other and everything was going wrong.
I am so glad, though I had picture out for Tom.
I most know he fancied her, and then he is a widower.
It would be more suitable.
Rose meant nothing disparaging to Jimmy's suit.
She did think Tom, with his thirty-two years better suited to Annie,
who had been a wife, then saucy-faced teasing Jimmy of only twenty-four.
But love never consults the suitability of a thing,
and Jimmy was desperately in love by this time.
It was not possible for one of his temperament to live a whole
month with Annie as he had lived and not be in love with her. Her graceful beauty, brightened by
the auxiliaries of dress and improved health, and the thousand little attentions she paid him
just because he was a soldier, had finished the work begun when he was home before, and he could
not go back without hearing from her own lips whether there was any hope for him. The scamp,
the scapegrace, the rebel, as he had been called by turns. What Rose said of Tom brought a
shadow to his face, and as he walked rapidly toward widow Sims, not limping now or
scarcely touching his cane to the ground, he thought of Tom. Old Tom, he called him,
wondering how much he had been interested in Annie Graham and asking himself if it were just the
thing for him to take advantage of Tom's absence, and supplant him in the affections of one whom he
might perhaps have one had he an opportunity. But Tom has had his day, Jimmy thought. He can't
expect another wife as nice as Mary was, and it is only fair to.
for me to try my look. I never loved anyone before. Jimmy stopped suddenly here, stopped in his soliloquy
and his walk, and looking up into the starry sky, thought of the boy at New London and the hills
beyond, and the hotel on the beach, and the white-robed little figure with blue ribbons in the
golden hair, and the soft light in the violet eyes which used to watch for his coming, and
looked so bright and yet so modest withal when he came. Louise, her aunt had called her, and he had
designated her as Lou or Lulu just as the fancy took him.
I did love her some, Jimmy thought. Yes, I loved her as well as a boy of 17 is capable of
loving as I deceived her shabbily. I wonder where she is. She must be twenty or more
by this time and a woman much like Annie. If I could find her, who knows that I might not like her
best? And for a moment Jimmy revolved the propriety of leaving Annie to Tom, while he sought for his first love
of the Pequot house.
But Annie Graham had made too strong an impression upon him to be given up for a former love
who might be dead for aught he knew, and so Tom was cast overboard, and Jimmy resumed his
walk in the direction of Widow Sims' cottage. The widow's trunks were all packed and ready.
Everything was done in the cottage which Annie could do, and with a tired flush on her cheek,
a tumbled look about her hair and her rent in the black dress, made by a nail on one of the
boxes, Annie was waiting for the carriage and half wishing as she looked out into the bright
moonlight that she was going to walk home instead of riding. The fresh air would do her good,
she thought, just as Jimmy appeared at the door. He had come to see if there was anything he could
do for Mrs. Sims, he said, and to escort Mrs. Graham home. Annie's cheeks were very red as she went
for her shawl and then bade goodbye to Mrs. Sims whom she did not expect to see on the morrow.
As soon as they were outside the gate, Jimmy drew her
shawl close round her neck and taking her arm in his said to her,
The night is very fine and warm, too, for the first of November.
You won't mind taking the longest route home, I am sure,
as it is the last time I may ever walk with you,
and there is something I must tell you before I go back to danger and possible death.
He had turned into a long, grassy lane or newly opened street,
where there were but few houses yet,
and Annie knew the route would at least be a mile out of the way,
but she could not resist the man who held her so closely to his
side. She must hear what he had to say, and with an upward glance at the clear blue sky where
she fancied George was looking down upon her, she nerved herself to listen. Annie, he began. I've called
you Mrs. Graham here tofore, but for tonight you must be Annie, even if you give me no right to
call you by that name again. Annie, I have been a scamp, a wretch, a rebel, and almost everything
bad. I deceived a young girl in you London years ago when I was a boy.
Rose told you something about it once.
Her name was Louise,
Lulu I called her,
and I made her think I loved her.
And didn't you love her?
Annie asked suddenly,
her voice ringing clear in the still night
and making Jimmy start,
there was something so quiet
and determined in its tone.
Still, he had no suspicion
that the woman beside him
was the girl he had left
on the beach at New London,
and he continued.
Yes, Annie, I did.
As boys of seventeen love girls of fourteen,
She was pretty and soft and pure and good, and I kissed her once on her forehead, and then I went
away and never saw her after, or knew what became of her. And I am telling you this by way of
confessing my misdeeds, for I've been a fast and reckless young man. I have gambled and sneered at
the Bible, and broken the Sabbath heaps of times, and flirted with more than forty girls,
some of them not very respectable either, and none as pure as little Lulu. I ran away from home and
nearly broke my mother's heart.
I joined the rebel army and fought against my brother at the Battle of Bull Run.
I was captured by Bill Baker and led with a halter to Washington and there shut up in prison.
A fine character I give myself, and yet after all this I have dared to love you, Annie Graham,
and I have brought you this way to ask if you will be my wife.
Not now, of course, not before I go back, but if I come through the war alive, will you be mine
then, Annie. Tell me, darling, and don't tremble so, or turn your face away.
Annie was shaking in every joint, and the face which Jimmy tried in vain to see was white as
ashes. She had expected something like this when he let her down that grassy lane, but nevertheless
it came to her with a shock, making her feel as if in some way she had injured her dead
husband by listening to another's love. And still, she could not at once repulse the young man
whose arm was around her, and who had drawn her to a gap in a stone wall where he made
her sit down while she answered him. Strange feelings had swept over her as she heard
Jimmy Carlton's voice telling her how much she was beloved. How, from the first moment he saw
her he had been interested in her, and asking her again if she had anything to give the
recreant Jim. He said the last playfully, but there was a great fear at his heart lester's
silence portended evil to him. No, Mr. Carlton. I have no.
heart to give you. I buried it with George. I can never love another.
Forgive me if in any way I have misled you. I was only kind to you as I would be to any soldier.
Bill Baker, for instance, came savagely from Jimmy's lips. He was cruelly disappointed, for he
had not believed Danny would refuse him as she had done. He thought a good deal of himself
as a Carlton. Nay, he believed himself superior to the man who was standing between
him and the woman he coveted, and to be so decidedly refused by one who had been content
with a person in George Graham's position, anchored him for a moment. Annie knew he was offended,
and when he spoke of Bill Baker, she said to him gently, "'You mistake me, Mr. Carlton. If necessary,
I could do for William Baker more than I have done for you, but it would only be from a sense of duty.
There would be no pleasure in it, while caring for you was a pleasure, because you are Mrs. Mather's
brother and because, because.
She did not know how to finish the sentence, for she could not herself tell why it had of
late been so pleasant for her to do for Jimmy Carlton those little acts of kindness which had
devolved on her.
She was only interested in him as a soldier, she insisted, and she tried to make him understand
that her decision was final.
That were George dead a dozen years, she should give him the same answer as she did now.
She could not be his wife.
and Jimmy understood it at last, and by the terrible pangs of disappointment which crept over him,
the Pequot girl was fully avenged for the many times she had watched from her window of the hotel,
or walked sadly along the road by the bay to see if Dick Lee were coming.
But Annie had no wish for revenge.
She was only sorry for him, and she tried to comfort him with the assurance of her interest in him,
and by telling him that if ever he was sick in hospital or camp and unable to come home,
she would surely go to him as readily as if he were her brother.
Jimmy did not particularly care for such comforting then,
and his face when he reached home were so dark and sorry a look
that Rose knew at once that something was wrong.
But she refrained from asking any questions then,
feeling intuitively that both Annie and her brother would prefer to have her do so.
It was a very grave, silent party which met at the breakfast table next morning,
and only Annie was at all inclined to talk.
She tried to be cheerful and appear as usual to the silent young man who never looked at her
as she sat opposite him, with her smooth bands of hair so becomingly arranged in her eyes so full
of pity for him.
She could not revoke her decision, but she was sorry to send him from her with that look upon
his face.
And when after breakfast she met him for a few moments alone in the library, she laid her hand
timidly upon his arm and said,
"'Jimmy, don't be angry with me.
try to think of me as your sister your best friend if you like it grieves me that i have made you so unhappy she had never called him jimmy before in his hearing and as she did it now the dark handsome face into which she was looking flushed with a sudden joy as if he thought she were relenting
but she was not she could only be his friend his best friend she repeated and her face was very pale as she told him how she should remember him and work for him and
pray for him when he was gone.
And then she gave him her hand
saying to him,
It is nearly time for you to go.
I would rather say goodbye here.
And Jimmy took her hand,
and pressing it between his own, said to her,
You have hurt me cruelly, Annie Graham,
for I believed you cared for me.
But I cannot hate you for it,
though I try to do so all night long.
I love you just the same as ever,
and always shall.
Remember your promise to come to me
when I am sick,
and let me kiss you.
you once for the sake of what I hoped might be.
She did not refuse his request, and when at last he left her, there was a red spot on her
cheek where Jimmy Carlton's lips had been.
From her window she watched him going down the walk, and while with Widow Sims he waited
at the depot for the coming of the train, she on her knees was praying for him and his safety,
just as eighteen months before she prayed for George when he was going from her.
23 Tom and Jimmy
Jimmy's journey was performed in safety
and he won golden opinions from his traveling companion
for whom he had cared as kindly as if it had been his mother instead of the
crabbed widow in her eternal leghorn with the veil of faded green
he had left her at one of the hospitals in Washington
where she was to begin her work as nurse and hastened on to join his regiment
Captain Carlton was glad to welcome back the brother whom he had missed so much
but he saw that something was wrong.
And that night as they sat around the tent-fire
he asked what it was,
and why the face usually so bright and cheerful
seemed so sober and sad.
Tom had made minute inquiries
concerning his mother and Rose and Susan Sims,
and even poor old Mrs. Baker,
but not a word of Annie.
He could not speak of her
with that unfinished letter lying in his little travelling writing-case.
That letter commencing,
My dear Mrs. Graham,
and over the wording of which Tom has
spent more time by far than he did ever the first epistle sent to Mary Williams.
That had been dashed off in all the heat of a young man's first ardent passion, just as Jimmy
two weeks ago would have written to Annie. But Tom was eight years older than Jimmy. His first
love had met its full fruition and Mary the object was dead. Tom had always been old for his years.
He looked and seemed and felt full forty now, save when he thought of Annie who was only 21. Then he
went back to 32, glad that he had numbered no more birthdays. He had made up his mind to write to her.
A friendly letter the first should be, he said, a letter merely asking if she would correspond with
him, and hinting at the interest he had felt in her ever since he saw how much she was to Rose,
and how constant were her labours for the suffering soldiers. If her answer was favorable,
he should ere long ask her to be his wife, and this is the way he took to win the woman
whose name he would not mention to his brother. He had been,
a little uneasy when Jimmy first went home,
for he knew how popular the wayward youth was with all the ladies,
but as Rose had never written a word to strengthen him in his fears,
he had thrown them aside and commenced the letter which, tonight, after Jimmy was gone,
he was intending to finish for the morrow's mail.
He changed his mind, however, as the night wore on,
for in reply to his question as to what was the matter
Jimmy had burst out impetuously with,
It's all over with me and the widow.
I went in strong for her, Tom.
I told her all my badness, confessed everything I could, and then she said it could not be.
I tell you, Tom, I did not know a man could be so sore about a woman.
And with a great choking sob, Jimmy Carlton laid his head upon Tom's lap and moaned like some wounded animal.
Tom, who had been as a father to this younger brother, was touched to his heart's core,
and felt as if by having that unfinished letter in his possession he was in some way guilty,
and as a pitying woman would have done, he smote.
the dark curly hair and tried to speak words of comfort.
What had Annie said? Perhaps she might relent. Would Jimmy tell him about it?
Then Jimmy lifted up his head and looking straight in Tom's eyes said,
"'Forgive me, old Tom, I was inclined to be jealous of you. Rose said you were more suitable
and I know you are. But Tom, I did love Annie so much, after I had swallowed the first husband
which cost me a great effort, for a widow is not the bow-eyed.
I used to cherish of my future wife.
Tom, you don't care for Annie, do you?
He continued in a startled tone as something in Tom's face affrighted him.
Tom would not deceive him then, and he replied,
I have, that is, yes, I do care for her, and I had commenced a letter, but—
Don't finish it, Tom.
Do this for me.
Don't finish it, Jimmy exclaimed eagerly, knowing now how the hope that Annie might relent
had buoyed him up and kept him from utter despond.
Don't send it, Tom. Leave her to me if I can win her yet. She may feel differently by and by. Her husband is only one year dead. Let me have Annie, Tom. And Jimmy grew more vehement as he saw plainly the struggle in Tom's mind. You've had your day with Mary. Think of your years of married life when you were so happy and leave Annie to me. At least, don't try to get her from me. Not yet. Wait a year. Will you, Tom?
few could resist jimmy carleton's pleadings when they were so earnest as now and generous tom yielded to the boy whom he had scolded and whipped and disciplined and loved and grieved over ever since the day their father died and left him the head of the family
i will wait a year and see what that brings to us and you jimmy must do the same then annie shall decide he said at last and his voice was so steady in its tone and his manner so kind that jimmy never guessed how much it cost the man who had had his day to unlock the little desk and take from it the letter intended for annie graham and commit it to the flames
they watched it together as it crisped and blackened on the calls neither saying a word or stirring until the last thin flake had disappeared when tom bent to pick up something which had dropped from the desk when he took out the letter it was mary's picture and in her lap the baby which had died when six months old
yes i have had my day tom thought as he gazed upon the fair sweet face of her whose bright head had once lain where he had thought to have annie's lie i have had my day and though it closed
before it was noon, I will not interfere with Jimmy.
And so the compact was sealed between them,
and Jimmy slept Sonder on his soldier bed that night than he had slept before since Annie's refusal.
Jimmy was not selfish, and as the days went by and he reflected more and more upon Tom's
generosity, his conscience smote him for having allowed his brother to sacrifice his happiness
for a whim of his. She might have refused him too, and then again she might not.
At all events he had a right to try his luck.
Jimmy reasoned, until at last his sense of justice triumphed,
and he wrote to Annie an account of the whole transaction.
It was mean in me to let Tom burn the letter, he said.
But I could not bear the thought of his winning what I had lost,
and so like a coward I looked on
and felt a thrill of satisfaction when I saw his letter crisping on the coals.
But as proof that I have repented of that selfish act,
I ask you plainly.
Would you have replied favorably to that,
letter had it been sent. If so, tell me truly, and without ever betraying the fact that I have
written to you on the subject, I will manage to have Tom write again, and if the fate shall so decree
I will try to forget that gap in the stone wall where we sat that night, when I told you of my love.
His letter found Annie sick in bed from the effects of a severe cold which kept her so long in her
room that it was not till just on the eve of the Battle of Fredericksburg that Jimmy received her
answer. I should say no to your brother, just as I did to you.
This was what Jimmy read, and with a feeling of relief as far as Tom was concerned, he
crushed the few lines into his pocket, and went on with his preparations for the contest at
Fredericksburg, which seemed inevitable, with a kind of recklessness which characterized
many of our soldiers. Jimmy had heretofore felt no fears of a battle.
The bullet which might strike down another would not harm him, and he charged his
preservation mostly to Annie's prayers for his safety. But in this, her last brief note, she had not said
so much as God bless you, and Jimmy's heart beat faster as he thought of the impending danger.
Jimmy seldom prayed, but if Annie had failed him, he must try what he could do for himself,
and when the night came down upon that vast army camping in the woods and on the hillside,
it looked on one young face upturned to the wintry sky, and the moaning winds carried up to heaven
the few words of prayer which Jimmy Carlton said.
oppressed with a strange feeling of foreboding he prayed earnestly that god would blot out all his manifold transgressions and if he died grant him an entrance into heaven where annie was sure to go
close beside him crouched bill who listened with wonder to the corporal a feeling of terror beginning to creep into his own heart as he detected the accents of fear in his companion i say corporal he began when jimmy's devotions were ended be you afraid of something's happening to you when they set us to cross
in that darned river, and if there does, shall I write to the folks and the gal you mentioned
and tell him you prayed like a parson the night before?'
Jimmy was terribly annoyed with Bill's impertinence, and, for a man who had just
been praying, did not exercise as much Christian forbearance as might have been
expected.
A harsh, mind your own business, was his only reply, which Bill received with a good-humored.
Guess you'll have to try again, Corporal, before you get into the right frame.
and then there was silence between them, and the night crept on apace, and the early
morning began to break, and the wintry sky was obscured by a thick, dull haze, which hid for a time
our soldiers from view. Then a deadly fire of musketry from the opposite bank of the Rappahannock
was opened upon them, till they fled to the shelter of the adjacent hills, where forming
into line, they again went back to the laying of the pontoon bridges, while the roar of the
cannon shook the hills and told the listeners miles away that the Battle of Frederick
Berksburg was begun.
End of chapters 22 and 23.
Chapters 24 through 26 of Rosemather,
A Tale by Mary Jane Holmes.
This Lieuvovaux's recording is in the public domain.
24. Results of the Battle
The streets of Rockland were full of excited people
when the news first reached the town of the terrible battle
which had left so many slain upon the field
and desolated so many harses both north and south.
rose mather was nearly frantic for will she knew was in the battle together with her two brothers and it was not probable that all three would escape unharmed eagerly she grasped the paper to see who was killed wounded or missing but neither of the three names was there
and she began to hope again and found time to comfort poor susan sims whose husband was also in the fight and who had gone almost mad with the fear lest he should be killed two days passed and then there came a telegram from tom and mrs carleton who read it first
gave a low, moaning cry,
while Rose, who read it next,
uttered a piercing shriek
and fell sobbing into Annie's arms.
Oh, Will! Oh, Will!
My husband!
Was what she said while Mrs. Carlton
uttered Jimmy's name,
and then Annie knew that harm had come to him,
and placing Rose upon the sofa
she took the paper from Mrs. Carlton's hand and read.
Will was badly wounded,
lay on the field all night.
Jimmy missing, supposed to be a prisoner.
I am well.
T. Carlton.
poor jimmy annie whispered sadly her heart throbbing with pity for the young man who had gone back in time to meet so sad a fate never had so dark a day dawned upon rose mather as that which followed the arrival of tom's telegram but ere its close there came a message of hope to her
Will had been taken to Washington, where he had providentially fallen into the hands of Mrs. Sims,
who sent the joyful news that no bones were broken and he was doing well.
Oh, Annie, God is so much better to me than I deserve.
I must love him now, and I will, if he will only send Jimmy back, Rose said,
while Annie's heart went up in a prayer of Thanksgiving for Mr. Mather's comparative safety,
and then went out after the poor prisoner whose destination was as yet unknown.
That night, Rose started for Washington, and three days after there came to Annie a soiled,
queer-looking missive directed to Miss Whitter Annie Graham at Miss Martha says.
The name written at the top of the letter and the superscription spreading over so much surface
that had there been another word it must, from necessity, have been written on the other side
of the letter.
It was from Bill Baker, and it read as follows.
Army of Potomac, and about as licked out an army as you ever seen,
to all it may concern, and especially Miss Annie Grame,
I send you my regrets greeting,
and hoping this will find you in joy in the same great blessing.
Burnside has made the thunderinous blunder,
and more than a million of our boys is dead before Fredericksburg.
Mr. Mathers was about riddled through, I guess, and the corporal,
well, may as well take it easy,
I fit for him like a tiger till they knocked me endways
and I played dead to save my life.
But the corporals are,
Goner, took prisoner with an awful cut on his neck. And now what I'm going to tell you is this.
The night before the battle I came upon him praying like a priest, kneeling in an awful mud puddle,
and what he said was something about heaven Aunt Annie, which, begging your pardon, I think,
means you, and so I asked him in case of bad luck if I should write and tell you.
I don't think he could have been in a very spiritual frime of mind, for he told me to mind my
business, but I don't lay it up
again him, and when them two tall
lantern-jawed sons of Balham
grabbed him as he was trying to scaddle with
the blood a spurtain from his neck,
I pitched into him and gave him hail
Columbia for a spell, till they
knocked me flat and I made believe dead
as I was telling you.
Don't feel bad, Miss Graham.
Trust luck and keep your powder dry, and
Mabby he'll come back sometime.
Yours to command, Bill Baker.
Tell the old woman I'm well.
but pretty well tuckered out.
God soft in the hearts of his captors.
God keep him in safety, Annie whispered,
and then as Mrs. Carlton came in,
she passed the note to her
and tried to comfort the poor mother
who, in Rosa's absence,
leaned on her as on a daughter.
Annie seemed very near the sorrowing woman
who wept bitterly for her poor boy,
and in the first hours of her sorrow
she spoke out what was in her mind.
I believe Jimmy loved you, Annie,
and that makes you very dear to me.
We can mourn for him together, and Annie, you will pray for him night and day that God will bring
him back to us. Annie could only reply by pressing the hand which sought hers for her heart
was too full to speak. Had Jimmy been dead, she would scarcely have mourned for him more deeply
than she did now. The country was already rife with rumors of the sufferings endured by our
prisoners, and death itself seemed almost preferable to months and years of privations and pain
in the southern prisons. Sent to Richard.
and probably from thence further south probably to Georgia this was all the intelligence they could procure from him until spring when there came news direct that he was at salisbury and there for a time the curtain dropped leaving his face shrouded in darkness while in his northern home tears were shed like rain and prayers went up to heaven from the quivering lips of a mother who was just learning to pray as she ought and in annie graham's heart they gradually crept a wish that the poor weary prisoner might know how much and how kindly she would be
thought of him, feeling at times half sorry that she had not given him some little hope as a
solace for the weary hours of his prison life. Twenty-five. Gettysburg.
Rose Mather had brought her husband home as soon as it was safe to move him, and with the
good nursing of Mrs. Carlton and Annie he grew strong enough to rejoin his regiment in May,
and the last which Rose heard from him directly was a few words hastily written and sent
off to Washington, just as the Army of the Potomac was moving on to Gettysburg.
Then came the terrible battle when the summer air was full of smoke and dust and flying splinters,
with clouds of torn up earth which blinded the horror-stricken men,
who vainly sought for shelter behind the trees and the headstones of the graveyard,
where the dead must almost have heard the fierce commotion around them as wail after wail of human anguish
mingled with the awful shrieks of dying horses, went up to the blackened heavens and then died away in silence.
Where the battle was the hottest and the carnage the most terrible,
Will Mather followed or rather led,
and when the fight had ceased,
he lay upon his face,
unconscious of the pitiless rain beating upon his head,
or the two savage-looking Texans
bending over him and turning him to the light.
Among the list of killed,
the Rockland Chronicle of July 10th
had the name of William Mather,
while in another column designated by long lines of black,
was a eulogy upon the deceased
who was known to have fought so bravely.
Then, every blind of the Mather mansion was closed,
and knots of crape streamed from the doorknob,
and the villagers missed the roll of the carriage wheels
which were wont to carry so much comfort and sunshine
to the hearts of the poor soldiers.
And the little airy dancing creature,
whose bright smile and rare beauty
had done quite as good service as her generous gifts
lay in her darkened room.
Never weeping, never speaking,
except to moan so piteously.
Oh, Will, my darling, my poor, poor husband!
They could not comfort her,
for she did not seem to hear, or at least to understand one word they said,
and the soft, dark eyes had in them a wild, scared look,
which troubled the watchers at her side and made them tremble for her safety.
The knots of crape were taken from the doors, and the blinds were opened at last,
and the light of heaven let into the dreary house.
But there came no change to poor little rose,
whose white face grew so thin that Tom, when in September he came home to see her,
would scarcely have known the little sister of whose beauty he had been so proud.
as if the sight of him in his uniform had brought back the horror of the past she uttered a piercing shriek and hid her face for a moment in her pillows then with a sudden movement lifted her head and shedding back her tangled curls from her pale forehead she stretched her arms toward him and whispered
take me tom hold me as you used to do let me be a little girl again in the old home in boston for will you know is dead and tom took her in his strong brotherly arms
and laid her head against his breast and caressed and smoothed or tumbled hair,
and petted and loved her just as he did when she was a little child, with no shadow around her
like that which enfolded her now. And then he spoke of Will, and the dark eyes fastened eagerly upon
him as he told her how the very night before the battle, Will knelt down with him and prayed
that whether he lived or died all might be well with him. And Rose, he continued,
he bade me tell you in case he was killed, that all was well, and you must think of him as in heaven,
not far as some suppose, but near to you. With you, he said, and you must meet him there.
You must bear bravely what God chooses to send, not give up like this when there is so much to be
done. Will my darling little sister heed what poor Will said? Will she try to rally and be a brave woman?
Yes, Tom, I'll try, came gaspingly from the white list.
lips, and Rose's voice was broken with sobs as the first tear she had shed since she heard the
fatal news ran in torrents down her face. Tom only stayed a week, but he did them a world of good,
and Annie felt she had never known one half how noble a man he was until she saw how tender he was
with Rose, and how kind to his mother whose heart was aching to its very core for her youngest son.
He had been removed from Salisbury to Andersonville when they last heard from him, and was dead
perhaps by this time.
Poor Jimmy.
The year he had asked Tom to wait
would be up before very long,
but Tom would still keep faith with him.
Annie was sacred to Jimmy's memory,
and once, when talking with her of the captive,
he alluded to what would probably be
when Jimmy came home again.
And Annie did not turn from him now
as she would once have done
had such a thing been suggested.
God only knows how I might feel,
she said, and by the look
in her blue eyes and the tone of her voice,
Tom knew there was no hope for him.
With many kisses and loving words of sympathy,
he bade his sister goodbye when his leave had expired,
and then in the hall stood a moment
while his mother whispered something to him
which made him start and turned pale, as he said.
Poor Will!
He would have been so glad.
Then, as if the news had brought Rose nearer to him
and made her more the object of his special care,
he went back to her a second time
and wound his arms about her lovingly, as he said.
poor little wounded dove.
God's promises are for the widow and fatherless, and he will care for you.
And Rose guessed to what he referred, but there was no answering joy upon her face,
and her hands were pressed upon her heart as she watched him from the window,
going from her just as Will had gone, and whispered to herself,
It would have been too much happiness if Will had lived.
But now I cannot be glad.
26.
Course of events.
With a howl of despair, Mrs. Baker came rushing into the kitchen of the Mather Mansion one morning in November,
startling Annie with her vehemence as she thrust into her hand a dirty half-worn envelope which she said was from Bill,
who had been missing since August and who it now appeared was at Andersonville.
Might better be dead, his mother said, and then she explained that the letter she brought
Annie had come in one to herself received that morning from Bill.
How he ever got it through the lines was a mystery which she did.
did not explain, nor did Annie care in as much as it brought news direct from Jimmy.
He had written to her with the pencil on the sheet of paper Bill had brought him,
for Bill Baker was employed outside the prison walls and allowed many privileges
which were denied to the poor wretches who crowded that swampy pen.
In short, Bill had taken the Confederate oath,
had done some tall swearing, as he wrote to Annie giving as an excuse for the treasonable act,
that he couldn't stand the racket, in that horrible place,
where twenty thousand human beings were crowded together in a space of twenty-five acres,
and part of that a marshy swamp teeming with filth and scum and hideous living things.
Another reason too Bill gave, and that was pity for the corporal,
to whom he could occasionally take little extras,
and whom he would have scarcely recognized, he said,
so worn and changed had he become from his long imprisonment.
I mistrusted he was there, Bill wrote,
and so when me and some other fellow-travelers was safely landed
in purgatory, I went on an
explorer to find him.
But you bet it wot's so easy
getting through that crowd.
Why, the camp meeting
they had in the fairgrounds in Rockland
when Marm Freeman buster Biller
Hollering was nothing to the piles
of ragged, dirty, hungry-looking dogs,
some standing up, some
lying down and all looking as if they
was on their last legs.
Right on a little sandbank
and so near the dead line that I
wonder he didn't get shot, I
found the corporal with his trousers tore to tatters and looking like the old gal's rag-bag that hangs
in the sutterway. Didn't he cry though when I hit him a kelp on the back and want there's some
tall crying done by both of us as we sat there flat on the sand with the hot sun pouring down on us
and the sweat and the tears running down his face as he told me all he'd suffered. It made my
blood bile. I've had a little taste of Libby and Bell Isle too, but they can't
"'I can't hold a candle to this place.'
"'Miss Graham, you are the good sort, kind of pious-like.
"'But I'll be hanged if I don't believe you'll justify me in the thumping lies I told the corporal that day to keep his spirits up.'
"'Says he, have you ever been to Rockland since Fredericksburg?'
"'And then I thought in a minute of that night in the woods when he prayed about Annie and says I to myself,
"'The piousest lie you ever told will be that you have been home and seen Miss Graham,
with any other trifling additions you may think best.
So I told him I had been hum on a fur below,
as the old gal, meaning my mother calls it.
And I seen her too, says I, Miss Graham,
and she talked an awful sight about you, I said,
when you are to have seen him shiver all over
as he got up closer to me and asked,
What did she say?
Then I went on Romance and told him
how you spend a whole evening at the old hut
talking about him and how sorry you was for him, and couldn't get your natural sleep for thinking of him,
and how when I came away you said to me on the sly,
William, if you ever happened to meet Mr. Carlton, give him Annie Graham's love and tell him she means it.
Great Peter, I could almost see the flesh come back to his bones, and his eyes had the old look in him,
as he liked to have hugged me to death. I'd done him a world of good, he said,
for some days he seemed as chipper as you please.
But nobody can stand a diet of raw meal
in the nastiest water that ever run,
and says I to myself,
Corporal will die as sure as thunder
if something don't turn up.
And so, when I got the hang of things a little,
and seen how the machine was worked, says I,
I'll turn cessish, though I hate him as I do, Pizzen.
They was glad enough to have me
being on the kind of carpenter and giner,
and they let me out, and I went to work for the corporal.
i'll bet i told a hundred lies fast and last if i did one i said he was at heart's sech that he was in the rebel army and i took him prisoner at manassus which you know was true
then i said his sweetheart meanin you begging your pardon got up a row and made him join the feral's and promised never to go agin the flag and that's how he come to be nabbed up at fredericksburg
i said twant no use to try to make him swear for he thought more of his gal's good opinion than he did of liberty and i set you up till i swan if i believe you'd an owned yourself and every one of them fellers was ready to stand by you and two of em drank your health with the wust whisky i ever tasted
one of em asked me if i was a fair specimen of the northern army and i'll be darned if i didn't tell him no for i was ashamed to have em think the federals was all like me
i guess though they liked me some anyway they let me carry something to the corporal every now and then and i believe he'd die if i didn't i've smuggled him in some paper and a pencil and he's going to write to you and i shall send it no matter how
the rebs won't see it and i guess it's pretty sure to go safe i must stop now and write to the old woman yours to command william baker esq it was with great difficulty that annie could decipher the badly written scrawl
but she made it out at last and then took Jimmy's letter next, shuddering as she saw it in
marks of the horrors which Bill had described but faintly, and which were fully corroborated
by Jimmy himself.
"'My dear Annie,' he wrote,
"'I do not know that this letter will ever reach you.
I have but little hope that it will.
Still it is worth trying for, and so, here in this terrible place, whose horrors no pen or tongue
can adequately describe, I am writing to you, who I know thinks sometimes of
the poor wretch starving and dying by inches in Andersonville.
Oh, Annie, you can never know what I have suffered from hunger and thirst and exposure and
filth which makes my very blood curdle and creep, and from that weary homesickness which
more than odd else kills the poor boys around me.
When I first came here, I thought I could not endure it, and though I knew I was not prepared,
I used to wish that I might die.
But a little drummer boy from Michigan, who took to me from the first, said his prayers
one night beside me, and the listening to him carried me back to you, who I felt sure prayed for
me each day. And so Hope came back again, with a desire to live and see your dear face once more.
My little drummer-boy Johnny was all the world to me, and when he grew too sick to sit or stand,
I held his poor head in my lap, and gave up my rations to him, for he was almost famished,
and ate eagerly whatever was brought to us. We used to say the Lord's prayer together every night
when a certain star appeared, which he playfully called his mother, saying it was her eye
watching over him. It was a childish fancy, but we grow childish here, and I too have given that star a
name. I call it Annie, and I watch its coming as eagerly as did the little boy who died just as the
star reached the zenith and was shining down upon him. His head was in my lap, and all there was
left of my coat I made into a pillow for him and held him till he died. His mother's address
is, blank, Michigan. Write to her Annie, and tell her how Johnny died in the firm hope of meeting
her again in heaven. Tell her he did not suffer much pain, only a weakness which wasted his life
away. Tell her the keepers were kind to him and brought him ice water several times. Tell her two
of the star at which he gazed so long as he had strength. It was all the companion I had after he
was gone, until Bill Baker came. I shall never forget
that day. I had crawled up to my sandbank and drawn my rags around me and was beginning to wish again
that I could die, when a broad hand was laid upon my shoulder, and a voice which was music to me then,
if it had never been before, said to me cheerily,
"'Hello, old corporal! Such are the chances of war. Give us your fist.'
But when he saw what a sorry jaded wretch I was, his chin began to quiver, and we cried
together like two great babies as we were. Oh, Annie, was it a lie, Bill Baker told me,
or did you really send me your love and say that you meant it? He told me such a story,
and I grew better in a moment. Have you relented, and if I could ask you again the question
I asked a year ago when we sat together beneath the moonlight, would you tell me yes?
Darling, Annie, Andersonville is not so terrible since I am kept up by that hope. I do not
mind now if my shoes and stockings are all gone, and my trousers nearly so, and I watch for that
star so eagerly, and make believe that it is you. And when the dark clouds obscure it and the
rain is falling upon my unsheltered head, I say that it is Annie's tears, and do not mind that
either. I pray, too, Annie. Pray with my heart, I hope, though my prayers have more to do with you than
myself. Bill Baker said he should write and tell you about his taking the oath, which I believe he did
almost solely for my sake, and greatly have I been benefited by it.
Rough as he is and disgusting at times, he seems to have gained friends outside, and he does
us many a kindness, confining his attentions mostly to me, who am his especial care.
It is a strange providence that he who took me a prisoner at Bull Run and annoyed me so
terribly should now be caring for me here at Andersonville, and literally keeping the life
within me, for I should die without him. I have not written half-a-frey-recent-one. I have not written half
I want to say, but my paper is nearly used up, and not one word have I said to Mother or Rose.
Tell them they would not know me now, and tell them, too, that in my dreams, when I am not
with you, I am with them, and Mother's face is like an angel's.
While Rose's sparkling beauty makes my heart beat just as it used to be when I first began to
realize what a darling sister I had.
Dear Annie, you did send that message by Bill Baker, I will believe, and thus believing
shall gain strength maybe to bear up until the day of release.
Goodbye, my darling.
From my crowded, filthy, terrible prison,
I send you a loving goodbye.
Notwithstanding the sickening details of this letter,
the day succeeding its receipt was a brighter one at the Matherhouse
than the inmates had known for a long time.
Jimmy was still alive,
and with Bill Baker's care he might survive the horrors of Andersonville
and come back to them again.
Annie showed both letters to be.
Mrs. Carlton, who, when she read them, wound her arms around Annie's neck and whispered,
Is it wrong for me to be glad that Bill Baker told that lie, when by the means our prisoner boy is so
greatly benefited? Annie could not tell. She was not sorry that Jimmy should think of her as he did,
and that night, when the stars came out in the sky, she looked tearfully up at them, wondering which
was the one watched for by the childish young man and the little boy who died?
Mrs. Carlton had taken it for granted that if Jimmy came back, Annie would be her daughter,
and she clung to her with a love and tenderness second only to what she felt for Rose.
Poor Rose! She had listened with some degree of interest to such portions of Jimmy's letter
as Annie chose to read to her, but it had no power to rouse her from the state of apathy
into which she had fallen. She never smiled now, and rarely spoke except to answer a question,
but sad all day by the window in her own room and looked away to the same.
southward where all her thoughts were centered. It was very strange that nothing could be heard
of her husband except that he was shot down dead. A dozen corroborated that fact, but his body had not
been found on the field, nor was any mention ever made of him in any official accounts.
Once Rose had been startled from her stupor by a soldier who pretended to have seen her husband
in one of the southern prisons, but a closer examination proved that the man was intoxicated
and had told what he did in the hope that money might be given him for the intelligence,
and then Rose sank back into her former condition.
The same hopeless look in her eyes which had been there from the moment she heard her
husband's name among the killed, and the same look of anguish upon her face which never relaxed
a muscle, as she watched indifferently the preparations made by her mother and Annie for an event,
which under other circumstances, would have stirred every pulsation of her heart.
But when on Christmas morning the bell from St. Luke's was sending forth his joyous,
for the child born in Bethlehem
more than eighteen hundred years ago,
there came a softer, more natural
look to Rose's eyes, and her lip
quivered a little as she said to Annie who was
bending over her. What is that
sound in the next room like the crying of a
baby? It is your
baby, Rose, born last night.
Don't you remember it?
A beautiful little boy
with his father's look in his eyes and Jimmy's
dimple in his chin.
Annie hoped by mentioning both
the father and Jimmy to awaken some
interest in the little mother, whose eyes grew larger and rounder and brighter as she whispered,
My baby? I can't understand. It is all so strange and mysterious. How came I with a baby, Annie? Bring it
to me, please. They brought it to her and laid it in her arms, and then stood watching her as the
first tokens of the mother's love came over her face and crept into her eyes, which gradually
began to fill with tears until at last a storm of sobs and moans burst
forth as Rose Rock to and fro whispering to her child.
Poor darling, to be born without a father when he would have been so proud of his boy.
Poor murdered will!
Poor fatherless baby!
I am glad God gave you to me.
I did not deserve it.
I have been so thoughtless and wicked, but I will be better now.
Dear little baby, we will grow good together, so as to go someday where Papa has gone.
She would not let them take the child from her.
It was hers, she said.
God had sent it to make her better, and she would have it.
There was something in the touch of its soft, warm hands which kept her heart from breaking.
And so they left it with her, and from the day that little life came to be one in the household,
Rose began to amend, and in her love for her child forgot, in part, the terrible pain in her heart.
Once her mother said to her,
will you call your baby William?
And she replied,
No, there is but one Willie for me, and he is in heaven.
Baby will be called for Brother Jimmy.
And so one bright Sunday morning in March,
when St. Luke's was decked with flowers from the Mather Hot House,
and the children of the Sunday school sang their Easter carols,
Rose Mather in her widow's weeds went up the aisle with her mother, Annie, and Brother Tom.
The latter of whom gave her bright-eyed beautiful boy to the rector,
who baptized him,
James Carleton. And all through the congregation there ran a thrill of pity for the widowed mother,
whose face, though it had lost some of its brilliant color, was more beautiful than ever,
for there was shining all over it the light of a new joy, the peace which comes from sins forgiven.
And after the baptism was over and the morning service read, Rose knelt with her mother,
brother and Annie, to receive for the first time the precious symbols of a Savior's dying love.
Rose had ceased to oppose Annie in her wish to join Mrs. Sims, who was then a
at Annapolis, and when Tom a few days after the baptism went back again, Annie would go with him
as a regular hospital nurse. It might be that Jimmy would be among the number of skeletons sent
up to God's land, as the poor fellows called it, and Annie's heart throbbed with the pleasure
it would be to minister to him, to call the life back to his heart, to awaken an interest in him
for olden times, and then perhaps whisper to him that the decision made that moonlight night, more than a
year and a half ago had been revoked, and where she had said no, her answer, now was yes.
Between herself and Mrs. Carlton there had been a long talk of which Jimmy and the little
Pequot girl were the subjects, and the proud lady had asked forgiveness for the wrong done to
that girl if wrong there were. Something tells me you will find my boy, she said, and if you do,
tell him how freely I give him this little Lulu, and God bless you both. A few weeks later and news
came to the Matherhouse that when the battle of the wilderness was over, Captain Tom Carlton was not with
this handful of men who came from the field. A prisoner of war was the next report, and then,
as if her last hope had been taken from her, Mrs. Carlton broke down entirely, and secluding herself
from the world without, sat down in her desolation, mourning and praying for her two boys.
One a prisoner in Andersonville, and one in Columbia.
Chapter 27 and 28 of Rose Mather, A Tale by Mary Jane Holmes.
This Librevox recording is in the public domain.
27. The hunted soldier
The sun was just rising, and his red beams gilded the summits of the Allegheny Mountains,
which in the glory of the early morning seemed as calm and peaceful
as if their lofty heights had never looked down upon scenes of carnage and strife.
Or their tangled passes and dark ravines, sheltered poor, starving, frightened wretches,
fleeing for their lives, and braving death in any form rather than be recaptured by their
merciless pursuers. There were several of these miserable men hiding in the mountain passes now.
Prisoners escape from Salisbury and other points, but our story now has to do with but one,
and that a young man with a look of determination in his eye and the courage of a Samson in his
heart. He had suffered incredible hardship since the day of his capture. He had been stripped
at once of his handsome uniform by the brutal Texans who found.
found him upon the field. His gold, which he carried about his person into every battle,
had been taken from him, and in this condition he had been sent from one prison to another until
Salisbury received him. At first he had suffered but little mentally, for the ball which
struck him down had left him with his reason impaired, and to him it was all the same whether
friend or foe had him in keeping. Deprived of everything which could mark his rank as an officer,
and always insisting that his name was Rose, he passed for a demented creature whom the
brutal soldiery delighted to torment.
Gradually, however,
his reason came back, and he woke
to the full horrors of his condition.
Then, like a caged lion,
he chafed and fumed and resolved
to be free. He could
not die there, knowing that far away
there was a blithsome little woman waiting
for his coming, if indeed she had not
ceased to think of him as among the living,
a state of things which he thought very
probable, as he became aware of the fact
that no one of his companions was
acquainted with his real name.
rose was the only cognomen by which he was known and the proud man shivered every time he heard that dear name uttered by the coarse jesting lips around him a horrid suit of dirty gray had been given him in place of the stolen uniform and though at first he rebelled against the filthy garments
he began ere long to think how they might aid him in his escape inasmuch as they were the garb of the confederates day and night he studied the best means of escape until at last the attempt was made and he stood one dark rain
night out on the highway a free man breathing the pure breath of heaven and ready to sell his life at any cost rather than go back again to the prison he had left he had put his trust in God and God had raised him up a friend at once who had seen him leave the prison and greatly aided him in his escape just as he had aided others knowing the while that by doing so he was putting his own life in jeopardy
but a staunch unionist at heart he was willing to brave everything for the cause and it was through his instrumentality and
and minute directions that Will Mather had finally reached the shelter of the mountains which separate
North Carolina from Tennessee. He had found friends all along the route, true, loyal men who had
periled their lives for him, brave, tender women whose hands had ministered so kindly to his wants,
and who had so cheerfully divided with him their scanty meals, even though hunger was written
upon their thin haggard faces and stared in their sunken eyes. And Will had taken down each name
and registered a vow that if ever he reached the north,
these noble self-denying people should be rewarded,
and, if possible, removed from a neighborhood
where they suffered so much from privation
and from the hands of their former friends,
who, suspecting their sentiments, heaped upon them every possible abuse.
Ragged, bareheaded, foot sore, and worn,
he came at last at the close of a June day
to the entrance of a cave in the hills to which he had been directed,
and where, on the damp earth,
he slept so soundly from fatigue and exhaustion,
that the morning sun was shining through the entrance to the cave,
and a robin on a shrub growing near was trilling its morning song ere he awoke.
The air, though damp from the water which trickled through the rocks,
was close and stifling, and Will crept cautiously out from his hiding place,
and sitting down upon the ground drank in the beauty and stillness of the summer morning.
Exactly where he was he did not know,
but he felt certain that his face was toward the land where the stars and stripes were waving,
and a thrill of joy ran through his veins as he thought of home and rose, whose eyes by this time
had grown so dim with looking for him.
God, take me safely to her, he whispered, when up the mountainside came the sound of voices and the
tramp of feet. Creeping to the farthest side of the cave and crawling down beneath the shelving
rock where the cool waters were dripping, he hoped to avoid being seen. Up to this moment
Will's courage had never flagged, but now, when the federal lines were not many miles away and rose and
home seemed certain, he felt a great pang of fear, and his white lips whispered,
God pity me, God help me. God save me for his own glory, if not for Rose's sake.
Then knee-deep in the pool of water he stood with his body nearly double, while the voices
and the feet came nearer, and at last stopped directly in front of his hiding-place.
There were terrible oaths outside, and bitter denunciations were breathed against any
luckless union man who might be lurking near, and then the light from the entrance of the
cave was wholly obscured, and Will saw that a man's back was against the opening as if
someone were sitting there. Did they know of the cave? Would they come in there, and if they
did would they find him? Will kept asking himself these questions, and his breath came gaspingly
as he knew that the man whose back barred the entrance to his hiding place was the bitterest
in his invectives against the Yankees and the most anxious to find them. Something in his
voice and language indicated both education and positions superior to his companions, who
who evidently looked up to him as their leader, calling him square, and acquiescing readily,
when after the lapse of ten or fifteen minutes he suggested that they go higher up the mountain
to a gorge, where some of the fugitives had heretofore taken refuge.
Five minutes more, and the footsteps and voices were heard far up the mountain, and will
breathe more freely again, and, kneeling down in the pool of water, thank God who had
turned the danger aside and kept him a little longer. He did not dare leave the cave, but he came
out from under the rock and stretching himself upon the ground, tried to ring and dry the tatters which
hung so loosely upon him. It was two days since he had tasted food and the long fast began to make
itself felt in the keen pangs of hunger. Surely he could venture out toward the close of the day, he thought,
and see if there were not berries growing in the ledges, and when the sun was setting he crawled to
the mouth of the cavern, where just in the best place for him to see it lay a huge corn-cake
and a slice of bacon, wrapped nicely in a bit of paper.
How it came there he did not stop to ask.
That it was there was sufficient for him then,
and never had the costliest dinner served on massive silver
tasted to him half so well as did that bit of bacon with the coarse cornbread.
Refreshed and encouraged he went back to his hiding place,
intending to start again on his perilous journey
when the mountain path grew dark enough to warrant him in doing so.
But soon after the sunsetting, a fearful storm came up,
and in the pitchy darkness of the cave,
Will listen to the bellowing thunder
roaring through the mountain gorges
and saw from the opening
the forked lightning
which struck more than one tall tree
near the place of his concealment.
Fed by the rain which had fallen in torrents,
the stream under the projecting rock
was beginning to rise and spread itself
over the surface of the cave.
It was up to his ankles now,
and it rose so rapidly
that Will was thinking of leaving the cave
and groping his way as well as he could
to the westward,
when his quick ear caught the sound
as of two or more persons coming
stealthily up the mountainside.
Whoever they were, they seemed to move
with the utmost caution, and Will's heart
beat high as he hoped it might be some
brother fugitives seeking the shelter of the cave.
The gleam of a lantern, however,
and the same voice he had heard in the morning cursing the Yankees
so bitterly dispelled that illusion,
and in a tremor of terror he drew
back in his watery quarters, crawling
in the darkness to the farthest end of the cavern,
and feeling the rising water flow over his knees as he
waited for what might come next.
stay here charlie will i go in i know he must be here and if he isn't drowned by this time is just a special providence that's all i have to say
surely that was no unfriendly voice notwithstanding the oath of the morning but still will did not move until the stranger who evidently knew every turn and nook of the cavern was so near him that the light from the dark lantern fell full upon his face and betrayed him at once
there was a thought of rose and the freedom he had almost regained and then forgetting the friendly tones will gave a low bitter moan and stretching out his hand said imploringly kill me here as well as anywhere and let the suspense be ended
kill you my boy and the stranger spoke cheerily as he bent over poor will and rubbed his clammy hands what should i kill you for i've had my eyes on you ever since yesterday evening when i saw you creeping under the brushwood and knew you were hunting for the escape
the refuge of safety I call it
and it has proved so to many
a poor devil who like yourself
has taken shelter here
I have never known one to fail
of reaching the happy land
when once they got so far as this
so cheer up my man
Paul Haverill can swear
a string of swears about the yanks
which will reach from here to Richmond
if necessary
and then when the hounds are thrown off the track
he can turn round and save the poor hunted rascals' life
you are among your friends
so come out from this puddle.
You must be wetter than a rat.
There's a spring under the rocks,
and it rises in a rain so as to fill the cave sometimes.
Here, Charlie, give us that shawl.
His teeth are fairly chattering.
Thus talking, the stranger who had announced himself as Paul Haverill,
led Will out to where the boy Charlie stood,
holding a bright plait shawl in his hand,
and looking curiously at the worn,
drooping, sorry figure emerging from the cave.
It was a woman's shawl.
Will knew, but it was very soft and warm, and he wrapped it closely round him, for he was shaking
with cold, and his tattered garments were ringing wet. Very few words were spoken, and those in a
whisper as they went cautiously down the mountain until they reached what seemed to be a road,
winding among the hills. This they did not follow, but striking into the field or pasture
land beside it kept to the right, and at a safe distance from it, lest some straggler might be
abroad and meet them face to face.
Will Mather was enough acquainted with southern customs not to be surprised to find here in the Mountain Wiles a substantial and even handsome-looking building, which, with its white walls and green blinds seem much like the farmhouses in New England.
There was a light shining from the windows, and a woman's brisk step was heard as they went toward the door.
Paul Haverill coughing to give warning of his approach.
All right, was the password by which they entered, and Will soon stood in the wide hall which ran through the entire building and opened in the rear upon the door.
on a broad piazza.
Better take him to Miss Maud's room, the woman said,
and Will followed on to an upper chamber
which she would have known at once belonged to a young lady.
It was not as elegantly furnished as his own sleeping apartment at home,
but it bore unmistakable marks of taste and refinement,
while the air of pure gentle womanhood which pervaded it
brought Rose very vividly before him.
This is my niece's room, Maud de Vere.
Mr. Haverill explained when they were alone,
and Will was drying himself.
before the fire, kindled by the woman who had admitted them, and who, Will saw, was a mulatto.
"'My niece is not at home now,' he continued.
"'She is in South Carolina, has been gone several months on a visit to old Judge Turnbridge,
her mother's uncle.
I'm her mother's brother, and she and the boy Charlie have lived with me since the first year
of the war.
Their father was Captain Devere from North Carolina, and was killed at the first bull run.
Nellie, their mother, never held up her head after that.
I was with her when she died and brought the children home.
Maud is twenty now and Charlie fourteen.
I am their guardian.
Mod is Union, Charlie Sessash, but safe.
They have a great deal of property here and there,
though how it will come through the war the Lord only knows.
Will was glad to see that his host was inclined to talk on
without waiting for answers, and he kept quiet while Mr. Haverill continued.
I dare say you wonder to find a chap like me among people
who are so bitter against you Yankees,
and I sometimes wonder at myself.
I am South Carolina-born,
and ought to be foremost in the rebellion.
But hanged if I can see that it is right.
Why, I might as well set up a government of my own
here on the oak plantation,
and refuse to come under any civilized laws.
Mind, though, I don't think the South all wrong.
Not a bit of it.
The North did bully us,
and the election of Mr. Lincoln
was particularly obnoxious to the majority here,
but we had no right to secede, and you did your duty trying to drive us back.
For a spell I kept quiet, didn't take either side, or if I did, I wanted the South to beat,
as all my interests are here. But when our folks got to abusing their prisoners so shamefully,
and told so many lies by way of deceiving us fellows who live among the hills, and only get the
news once or twice a week, I changed my politics, and after the day when I found one of my
neighbors, and the best man that ever breathed, too, hung to a tree like a dog with a word
abolitionist pinned to his coat. I made a vow that every energy I had should be given to caring
for and helping just such wretches as you, and if I've helped one, I've helped a thousand.
Why, at least a hundred have slept in this very room. Maud's room, for as I told you,
she is union to the backbone, and led one chap across the mountain herself. She is a regular
die Vernon and is not afraid of the very devil.
When she went away, she bad me put them in here as the room less liable to suspicion.
To the folks around me, I am the roughest kind of a secessionist, and I suppose nobody can
beat me swearing about the Yankees, just to hoodwinkum, you know.
I suppose that's wrong.
My wife would say so.
She was a saint when she was here.
She is an angel now.
She died five years ago, before the war broke out.
and Lois, the woman you saw, has been my housekeeper since.
I shouldn't like the North to take her from me.
They tried at once, when a squad of them ransacked my house and I was sick in bed.
Maud threatened to blow their brains out.
And, sir, she would have done it, too, if the scamps hadn't let Lois alone.
I don't agree with your folks on the nigger question, though none of mine has run away since the proclamation, which I did not like.
They know, too, they are free, or will be when the Yankees come.
for I took pains to tell them,
and gave them liberty to cut stick for the federal lines as soon as they pleased.
But they stayed, in great help I find them in the business I'm carrying on.
They are constantly on the lookout for runaways or refugees,
and are quite as good as bloodhounds to send one.
They told me about you,
and I watched and saw you go into that cave which is on my land,
and which few know about,
or if they do they think it a springhole and never dreamed that anybody can hide in there.
somebody else must have seen you too, for word came that a man was hiding in the mountains,
and as the acknowledged leader of as hard as set as ever hunted a Yankee, I went with him to
find you, and carried in my pocket that bacon and cornbread which I managed to drop into the cave
when I sat with my back against it. I knew you must be hungry, and it might be some time before I could
come to your aid. We didn't find the chap, but to-morrow they'll be added again, and so,
while I help him hunt for a man about your build,
you will stay in the room in Lois's charge.
Maud has a good many gym cracks here,
such as books and things which may amuse you.
She is coming home by and by.
The house is very different then.
You ought to see, Maude.
We are very proud of her.
That's her picture, only not half so good looking,
and he pointed to a small oil painting
hanging above the mantle.
It was a splendid head,
and the glossy black hair bound about it in heavy braze gave it a still more regal look.
The eyes too were black, but very soft and gentle in their expression,
though something about them gave the impression that they might flash and blaze brilliantly under excitement.
It was a beautiful face, and Will did not wonder that his host was proud of his niece.
Prouder even than of the pale-faced delicate boy who next day,
while the hunt for the runaway went on among the mountains,
tried to entertain Will Mather by telling him of his old home
in North Carolina, and how happy they were there before the war came and took his father away.
I don't see it in the late Uncle Paul and sister do, Charlie said.
I don't want them to catch and torment the prisoners or murder folks who don't think as they do.
But I do want our side to succeed, and when I hear of a victory I say,
Hurrah for the Confederacy.
I can't help it when I think of father who was killed by the Yankees and all the trouble the war has brought.
I am willing to work like a dog for the refugees and prisoners, and I'd die sooner than betray one.
But if I was a man, I'd join Mr. Davis's army, sure.
The pale face of the boy was flushed all over, and his dark eyes burned with southern fire
as he frankly avowed his sentiments, and Will Mather could not repress a smile at this noble
specimen of a southern rebel.
"'I like you, my boy, for your frankness,' he said.
"'And when the war is over, I shall have to send for you to come north and be cured of your
treason. It is not treason, and the boy stamped his girlish foot. It is not treason any more than the
views held by the revolutionary soldiers. Didn't the colonies secede from England? And does anybody
call Washington a traitor now? I tell you, it is success which decides the nature of the thing.
If we succeed, future historians will speak of us as patriots, as a persecuted people,
who gave our lives in defense of our homes and firesides. You won't succeed. You won't succeed.
my poor boy the confederacy is gasping its last breath you will be conquered at the last and then what have you gained nothing nothing but ruin and the tears poured over the white face of this defender of southern rights soon recovering himself however he exclaimed proudly we may be conquered but not subjugated you can't do that with all your countless hordes of men and your millions of money the north can never subjugate the south
We may lay down our arms because we have no other alternative,
but we shall still think the same and feel the same way as we do now.
Here was a curious study for Will Mather,
who was surprised to find such maturity of thought
and so strong determination in one so young and frail.
No wonder it is hard to conquer a people composed of such elements, he thought,
and he was about to continue the conversation
when he was startled by a loud blast from a horn among the hills.
They've caught someone.
They always do.
that as a kind of exaltation. The boy exclaimed, wringing his hands and evincing as much
distress as he had heretofore shown bitterness against the opposing party. It was a poor
refugee from a neighboring county whom, in spite of Paul Haverill's precautions, they had found
in a hollow tree, and whom they brought more dead than alive down to the oak plantation amid
vociferous cries of, tar and feather him. Hang him to a sour apple tree. Give him a taste of
the halter. Make him an example to all other sneaking Yankee sympathizers.
With his face as white as marble and his lips set firmly together,
Paul Haverill stood in the midst of the noisy group which he tried to quiet.
Let us try him by jury, he said, and something in his voice reassured the frightened
haggard wretch who had seen his house burn down and his son shot before his very eyes,
and of course expected no mercy. The trial by jury proved popular, and then Paul
Haverill suggested that a judge be chosen in the person of someone who had lost a near friend in the war,
and was, of course, competent to meet out full justice to the criminal.
Charlie, for instance, and his eye fell on the boy who had joined the crowd and was standing
close to the prisoner. The boy caught his uncle's meaning at once and exclaimed,
Yes, let me be the judge. My father was killed at Bull Run. My mother died of grief. Surely I may
decide? Charlie Devere was a favorite with the men who knew how staunch a confederate he was,
and waving the trial for want of time, they said,
"'Charlie shall decide whether we hang, drown, whip, or tar, and feather the prisoner
at the bar.'
Then, with far more energy and fire than had characterized his vindication of the South,
Charlie Devere pleaded for the criminal that they would let him go.
"'Just this once, for father's sake and mine and Mauds,' he said.
and at the mention of Maude the dark brows began to clear, and the scowling faces grew more lenient in their expression, for Maude Devere was worshipped by the rough men of the mountains, who, though they knew her sympathies were on the Union side, made an exception in her favour, and held her person and opinions sacred.
For her sake they would let their captive go, giving him warning to leave the neighbourhood at once, nor let himself be seen again in their midst while the war lasted.
and thus it chanced that Will Mather had a companion in his wanderings which were renewed the following day.
The boy Charlie acting as guide through the most dangerous part of the way,
and at last bidding him goodbye with great tears in his eyes as he said,
I hope you won't be caught, but I don't know. The woods are full of our soldiers.
Travel at night and hide through the day. Trust no one but the Negroes.
And if you are captured, ask for mercy in sister's name. Everybody knows, Ma,
Devere. Twenty-eight. The Dead Alive
It was the night of the 3rd of July the anniversary, as she supposed of her husband's death,
and Rose was sitting up unusually late. She could not sleep for thinking of one year ago,
and the white-faced man who lay upon the battlefield with the rain falling upon him.
It was a clear starlight night, and she leaned many times from her open window and looked
up at the kindly eyes keeping watch above her. But she did not see the figure coming down this
and up the walk to their own door. The figure of a worn-out soldier who from the prison at Salisbury
had escaped to Tennessee and had come from thence straight on until the midnight train dropped
him at the Rockland Station. The light was behind her, and Will saw her distinctly as he went up
the avenue, and he stopped a moment to look at her. She was very pale and much thinner than when he
saw her last, but never, even on her bridal day, had she seemed so beautiful to him as then, when
leaning from her window and apparently listening for something.
It was the sound of his footsteps as he came up the walk which had attracted her attention,
and when it ceased so suddenly as he stopped under the trees she felt a momentary pang of fear,
for burglars had been very common in the town that summer.
Possibly this was one of the robbers, and Rose was thinking of alarming the house
when the figure emerged from under the shadow of the trees and came directly up beneath the window,
while a voice which made Rose's blood curdle in her vein.
called softly. Rose, darling, is it you? Had the dead come back to life? Was that her husband's
voice, and that his step in the lower hall? Rose had supposed the front door bolted. She had not
heard it open, and now, when the steps sounded upon the stairs, her heart gave one throb of fear,
as all the old superstitious stories of New England lore rushed to her mind. Perhaps on this
anniversary of his death, he had come back to see her.
And perhaps?
Rose did not finish the sentence,
for the opening of her own door
disclosed the wasted figure of a man
wearing the army blue,
his face very pale,
but lighted up with perfect joy
as he stretched his arms
toward the shrinking woman by the window
and said,
"'Come to me, darling.
I am no ghost.'
Then she went to him
but uttered no sound.
Her heart was too full for that,
and seemed bursting from her throat
as she laid her head
upon the bosom of her husband, and felt his arms around her waist and neck.
Her stillness frightened him, it was so unlike her, and lifting her from the floor he took her
in his lap and said to her, speak to me, Rose, let me hear your voice once more.
You thought I was dead, and you've been so sorry.
Yes, killed at Gettysburg, came gaspingly at last, and then a storm of tears and kisses
fell upon Will's face, and Rosa's arms were thrown about his neck as she tried to tell him
how great was her joy to have him back again.
"'I have been so lonely,' she said,
"'for everybody is gone.
Jimmy and Danny and poor Tom, too, is a prisoner at last, so Mother and I are all alone,
except—'
Just then it occurred to her that her husband had no suspicion of the great joy in store for him.
"'How shall I tell him?' she thought, and her eyes went from his eyes.
face to the basket and chair where baby's clothes were lying.
The little white dress with the shoulder knots of blue.
The flannels and the soft wolf socks were all there in plain sight.
Will saw them, too, as his eye followed roses.
Rose, tell me, what is that?
What does it mean?
He asked, and then without a word Rose led him into the adjoining room
where in his crib slumbered her beautiful boy.
There, beautiful boy, rather.
He was hers alone no longer, for the father was there,
now, and the happiest moment he had ever known was that when he knelt by his baby's cradle
and felt how much he had for which to thank his maker. He could not wait till morning
before he heard the sound of his first-born's voice, and he took him at once in his arms,
every pulse thrilling with pride and exquisite delight as he felt the soft baby hands in his own,
and looked into the beautiful dark eyes which met his so wonderingly as baby awoke and gazed up
into his face. It was not afraid of him, and Rose almost danced with joy as she saw its smile
in his father's face and then turned slyly away. It was so terrible till baby came last Christmas,
she said, beginning to explain how they believed him dead and how much she had suffered.
Even baby did not make me glad as it ought, she continued, for I could not forget how happy
you would have been to come home and find him here, and now you've come. God is very very,
very good i love him now will better i hope than i love you or baby or anything i've given baby to him and given myself too but he had to punish me so hard before i would do it
then together the reunited couple knelt and thanked the father who had remembered them so mercifully and asked that henceforth their lives might be dedicated to his service and all they had be subject to his will
there was no more sleep in the mather mansion that night for by the time mrs carleton and the servants had recovered from their surprise and joy the early morning was red in the east and the sun was just beginning to show the return soldier how pleasant and beautiful his home was looking
the people of rockland had not intended to have much of a celebration on that fourth of july the churchyard was too full of soldiers graves and the war-clouds were still too dark over the land while the battle of the wilderness where so many had perished
was too fresh in their minds to admit of much festivity. But when it was known that Will Mather
had come home, the town was all on fire with excitement. Every bell was rung, and the canon of
Bill Baker memory bellowed forth its welcome, while in the evening impromptu fireworks attested
to the people's delight. Then followed many days of delicious quiet in which Will told his
wife and mother the story of his wanderings, but said very little of his life in Salisbury.
That was something he could not mention without a shudder, and so he was a-we.
he passed it over in silence, choosing rather to tell of his journey across the mountains where
so many friendly hands had been stretched out to help him. He had every name upon paper,
and was only waiting for an opportunity to show his gratitude in some tangible form.
Especially was he grateful to Paul Haverill, whose name became a household word, together
with that of Charlie and Maude Devere. Of her Rose thought so often, wishing she could see her,
and resolving when the war was over either to write at once or go away.
all the way to the mountains of Tennessee to find her.
Poor Tom, she often sighed,
if he could only fall into so friendly hands.
But everything pertaining to Tom was shrouded in gloom.
The last they heard he was in Columbia,
while Jimmy still pined in Andersonville
if indeed he had not died amidst its horrors.
Exchanged prisoners were constantly arriving at Annapolis
where both Mrs. Sims and Annie were,
and every letter from the latter was eagerly torn open by Rose
in hopes that it might
contained some news of her brothers. But there was none, and the morning garments which with her
husband's return were exchanged for lighter, airier ones, seemed only laid aside for a few weeks,
until words should come that one or both of her brothers were in the dead whose graves were far
away, beneath a southern sky.
End of chapters 27 and 28.
Chapter 29 of Rose Mather A Tale by Mary Jane Holmes.
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29
The Heroin of the Mountain
Of the three captives,
Will Mather, Jimmy and Tom,
the latter had suffered the least as a prisoner of war.
A strong freemason he had found friends at Columbia
were chanced through in his way
a near relation of his dead wife and a former classmate.
Though firmly believing in the southern cause,
Joe Haskell, from the first, befriended Captain Carlton,
whom he finally helped to escape,
giving him money and so far as he was able,
directions were to go in whom to ask for aid. Tom's imprisonment had been of short duration, and thus it was,
with vigor unimpaired and spirits unbroken, that he found himself free on that very night,
when Will Mather lay sleeping in the cave among the mountains of Tennessee. But that refuge of safety was
many, many miles away, and Tom's route to the land of freedom was a longer and far more dangerous one than
Wills had been. Still, Tom had in his favor, health, and strength, together with a knack of passing himself off
as a southerner whenever an opportunity was presented, and so for a week or more he proceeded
with comparatively little trouble. But at the end of that time, dangers and difficulties beset him
at every step, while more than once death or recapture stared him in the face, either from the
close proximity of his pursuers or the pertinacity of the bloodhounds which were set upon his track.
Escape at times seemed impossible, and Tom's courage and strength were beginning to give way when
one night, toward the last of June, he found himself in an evening.
cabin, and an occupant of a bed who's covering, though, impregnated with the peculiar
odor of the sable-hued faces around him, seemed the very embodiment of sweetness and
cleanliness to the tired and foot-sore man, who nearly all his life has slept in the finest linen,
with lace or silken hangings about his bed. For linen now there was a ragged quilt, and the bed
was festooned with cobwebs, while, from the blackened rafters hung bundles of herbs and
strings of peppers, alternated here and there with the grimy articles of clothing which old
Hetty had washed that day for her own boys, and in consequence that the rain had hung in her cabin
to dry. Coarse, heavy shirts they were, but Tom, as he washed them drying on the pole, fell to
coveting the uncouth things, and thought how soft and nice they would feel on his rough flesh.
Then he thought of home, and rose, and wondered what she would say could she look in upon him in
that negro hut, with all those tallward boys sitting by, while Hetty their heady, their
mother, cooked the corn cake and fried the slice of bacon for supper. Two sat just where Tom could
see them, while the third was near the door, keeping a constant watch on the circuitous path
leading from the cabin to a large dwelling on the knoll. Marsher's house, where tonight a number of
young people were assembled in honor of the return of the son and air, Lieutenant Arthur,
who had been in so many battles and had a taste of prison life at the north. Though bitterly opposed
to the Unionists, Arthur was truthful almost to a fault, as some of his auditors,
thought to whom he was recounting the incidents of his prison life. Comfortable beds, decent bread,
well-cooked meat with plenty of pure air and water, he had received from the hands of his enemies,
and once when for a few days he was sick he had been fed with toast and jelly and tea
quite as good as head he could make, he said. And while he talked, more than one present thought
of the southern prisons where so many men were dying from starvation and neglect. And one young
girl's eyes flashed angrily and her nostrils quivered with passion as she burst out with the
exclamation. That's the story most of our prisoners tell when they come back to us. Think you a like
report would be carried north if the poor wretches ever lived to get there? I think it's a shame to
allow such suffering in our midst. This speech, which had in it the ring of unionism, did not
startled the hearers as much as might be expected. They were accustomed to Maude DeVier's outspoken
way, and they knew that when she first came among them.
she was on the federal side, and had opposed a secession movement with all the force of her
girl nature. As yet, no harm had been threatened her, for Maud was one to whom all paid deference,
and her clear arguments touching the right of secession had done much toward keeping alive a feeling
of humanity, for our prisoners in the family were for months she had been a guest.
Squire Turnbridge, or Judge, as he was frequently called, was her near relative, and as his only
daughter had died only two years before, and he was very lonely in his great house.
He had invited Maud to visit him and insisted upon her staying as long as possible.
At first he had laughed at her Yankee preferences, but when the deaths that Salisbury
and Andersonville increased so fast, he shook his head sadly and protested against the cruelty
and neglect of the government.
He did not believe in killing men by inches, he said.
Better shoot them at once.
And still he would not willingly have harbored.
a runaway on his premises for fear of the odium which would attach to him, if the fact were known.
And so, when late that night, while Tom lay sleeping in Hetty's cabin and Hetty up at the big
house, was waiting upon the guests and making secret signs to Maude Devere, there came a band
of men into the yard in pursuit of an escaped Yankee. The squire roused at once, saying that
no one could possibly be hidden on his plantation unless the blacks had secreted him.
The negro houses were closed by, they could look for themselves.
He had supposed his servants loyal, but there was no telling in these perilous times,
and the old man's face flushed as his southern blood fired his zeal for the southern cause.
In her evening dress of white with her bands of glossy black hair bound like a coronet around her regal brow,
Maude Devere stood leaning upon the piano, her eyes shining like burning coals,
and her lips slightly parted as she listened to the conversation,
and then darted an anxious glance toward the spot where Hetty had been standing a moment before.
But Hetty had disappeared, and under cover of darkness was running and rolling and slipping down the steep wet path which led to her cabin door.
Arrived there, she seized the sleeping Tom by the arm and exclaimed,
"'Wake up, master, for de dear Lord's sake.
The secessioner is come and we'll be here in a minute.
I'm mighty afraid even Miss Maud can't save you.'
Tom was awake in a moment and fully alive to the danger of his condition.
from the house on the knoll he could hear the excited voices of his pursuers,
and the sound made every pulse throb with fear.
Tell me what to do, he said, and Hetty replied,
"'Can you bar smotherin' for a spell?
If you can, get under de old straw-tick and lie right still and flat,
and you hell buckle into Masters' place,
as if twas you who've been lying here all the time.'
Tom did not hesitate a moment,
and had just straightened himself under the straw bed,
and drawn a long breath as he felt Harry's body settling down above him, when steps were heard
coming down the path, and a young man's voice asked of Hedy if she had any strangers there.
"'Any Yankees, you know? Because if you have—'
The young man paused a moment and peered out into the night to make sure that no one was listening.
Then in a whisper he added,
"'Keep them safe, and remember, Fleetfoot knows all the passes of the mountains between here and Tennessee.'
A suppressed, thank God, might almost have been heard beneath the straw.
bed while old Hetty exclaimed.
The Lord bless
Master Arthur and Miss Modd, too.
I know it is her doings.
And Hetty was right, for Tom Carlton
owed his escape from that great peril
to Maude Devere rather than to Lieutenant Arthur.
When the order was given to search the Negro quarters,
Arthur had seen that in Maude's face,
which constrained him to follow her when she beckoned him
to come out upon the piazza.
Arthur, she said, putting her lips to his ear.
Remember the kind treatment you received from your enemies and be merciful.
Don't let them find him, for there is a Yankee soldier down in Hetty's cabin.
She told me tonight.
Search her house yourself.
Throw them off the track.
Anything to mislead them.
Be merciful.
Do it, Arthur, for my sake.
Always beautiful, Maude Devere was dazzingly so now,
as she stood before the young officer pleading for Tom Carlton,
and Arthur Turnbridge was more influenced,
by her beauty than by any party feelings.
Assuming a fierce, determined manner, he went back to the pursuers and said,
It's perfectly preposterous that one of those unionists should come here for protection
when it is well known what we are.
Still, it may be.
There's no piece of a frontery they are not capable of.
I know them well, just as I knew every nook and corner of the Negro cabins.
Stay here, gentlemen, and take some refreshment while I search the quarters myself.
arthur turnbridge wore a lieutenant's uniform he had been in the army from the very first he had fought in many a battle had been prisoner for four months while his father was known to be a staunch secessionist who was ready to sacrifice all he had for the success of the cause he believed to be so just and righteous
there could be no cheating in such a family as this and so while maude de vere wore her most winning smile and with her own hands served cake and coffee to the soldiers lieutenant arthur went on his tour of investigation and brought back word that not a trace of a runaway had he found notwithstanding that every cabin on the premises had been visited
a savage oath was the answer to this report but something in maud's eyes kept the soldiers in check and made them tolerably civil as they mounted their horses and with a respectful good-night rode off in an opposite direction
with a feeling of security after hearing from hetty of maude de vere tom came out from his hiding-place and ventured to open the door of the cabin where he stood looking at the big house on the hill from which the guests were just departing he could hear their voices as they said good-night and fancied he would detect the clear well-bred tones of mom
Monde d'Avere in whom he began to feel so deeply interested.
He could see the flutter of her white dress as she stood against a pillar of the piazza,
with Arthur at her side, but her back was toward him, and he could only see her well-shaped head,
which sat so erect and proudly upon her shoulders.
She was very tall, Tom thought, comparing her with Mary, Annie, and Petit Rose as she walked
across the piazza with Arthur, who, from comparisons seemed the shorter of the two.
Profoundly grateful to her as his probable deliverer,
From went back into the cabin and began to question Hetty with regard to the young lady.
Who was she? And where did she live? And how came she so strong a unionist?
She's Miss Maud Devere, bred and born in the old North State somewhere near Tar Run,
Aunt Hetty said. Her father was killed at first Bull Run, and then her mother died,
and she went to live with her uncle off toward Tennessee and the hills.
She's got an awful side of money and heaps of niggers.
lazy no-count critters, who just do nothing from morn till night.
She and Miss Nettie, Master Turnbridge's gal, was great friends at school,
and Miss Maud was here when she died, and has been here by spells ever since.
Young Master thinks she mighty nice, but this child don't exactly know what Miss Maud do think of him.
Reckon he's too short, or too sessionary to suit her.
this was hetty's account of the young lady who at that very moment was listening with a defiant look upon her face to arthur turnbridge's remonstrance against what he termed her treasonable principles
they will get you into trouble yet the war is not over as some would have you think the north is greatly divided be warned of me maud and do not run such risks as you do by openly avowing your union sentiments think what it would be to me if harm should befall you maud
Arthur spoke very gently now, while a deep flush mounted to his beardless cheek,
but met with no reflection from Maude Devere's face.
Only her eyes kindled and grew blacker, if possible, as she listened to him,
first with scorn when he spoke of treason, and then with pity when he spoke of himself,
and the pain it would cause him if harm should come to her.
Maude knew very well the nature of the feelings with which her kinsman, young Arthur Turnbridge,
regarded her.
At first she had been disposed to laugh at him, and his preference.
for an Amazon as she styled herself. But Arthur had proved by actual measurement that in point
of height he excelled her by half an inch, while the register showed that in point of age he had
the advantage of her by more than four years, though Maud seemed the elder of the two.
Don't be foolish, Arthur, nor entertain fears for me, she said. I am not afraid of General
Lee's entire army nor grants either for that matter. My home at Uncle Paul's has been beset
alternately by either party, and I have held a loaded pistol at the heads of both
federal and Confederate, when one was for leading away Charlie's favorite horse, and the
other for coaxing off old Lois to cook the company's rations.
No, I am not afraid, and if necessary I will guide that poor wretch down in Hetty's cabin
safely to Tennessee.
Arthur's face grew dark at once, and he said half angrily,
"'Mod, let that man alone. Let them all alone.
It is not womanly for you to evince so much interest in such people.
For your sake, I'll help this one get away, but that must be the last.
And remember, it is done for your sake with the expectation of reward.
Do you consent to the terms?
Maud's nostrils squivered as she drew her tall figure to its full height and answered back.
I could not prize the love I had to buy.
No, Arthur.
I have told you once that you are only my brother, just as Nettie was my sister.
believe me arthur i cannot give you what you ask she spoke gently kindly now for she pitied the young man whose sincerity she did not doubt but whose love she could not return he was not her equal either physically or mentally and the man who won maude de vere must be one to whom she could look up to as a superior
such a one she would make very happy but she would lead arthur a wretched miserable life and she knew it and would save him from herself even though there were many kindly tender feelings in her heart for the young lieutenant
she saw that he was angry with her and as further conversation was useless she left him and repaired to her room the windows of which overlooked hetty's cabin and there until daylight the noble girl sat watching lest their unwelcome visitors of the previous night failing to find their victim should return
and insist upon another search.
As Maude Devere said,
she had held a loaded pistol
at the head of both federal and Confederate
when her uncle was sick,
and the house was beset one week
by one of the belligerent parties
in the following week by the other.
She was afraid of nothing,
and Tom Carleton,
so long as she stood his sentinel,
had little to fear from his pursuers.
But she could not ward off the fever
which for many days had been lurking in his veins,
and which was increasing so fast
that when the morning came he was too sick to rob,
and lay moaning with the pain in his eyes and complaining of the heat which in that dark corner of the close cabin and on that sultry summer morning was intolerable mighty poorly with face as red as them flowers in your hair and the veins in his forehead as big as my leg was the word which hetty brought up to maud de vere the next morning and half an hour later maud in her pale buff cambric wrapper with her black hair shining like satin went down to hetty's cabin and stood beside tom carleton
he was sleeping for a few moments and the drops of perspiration were standing on his forehead and about his lips he was not worn and emaciated like most of the prisoners and refugees whom maud had seen
his complexion though bronzed from exposure had not that peculiar grayish appearance common to so many of the returned prisoners while his forehead was very white and his rich brown hair damp with the perspiration clung about it in the soft round curls so natural to it
there was nothing in his personal appearance to awaken sympathy on the score of ill-treatment and yet maud felt strangely drawn toward him guessing with a woman's quick perception that he was somewhat above many whom it had been her privilege to befriend
and maud being human did not like him less for that on the contrary she the more readily brushed away the flies which were alighting upon his face and with her own handkerchief wiped the moisture from his brow and then felt his rapid pulse
he ought not to stay in this place she said and she was revolving the propriety of boldly asking squire turnbridge if he might be removed to the house when tom awoke and turned wonderingly toward her
he knew it was maude de vere and something in her face riveted his attention making him wonder where he had seen somebody very like her you are sick she said to him kindly as he attempted to rise on his elbow and fell back again upon the squalid bed
i am afraid you are very sick but you are safe here that is yes i know you are safe none but fiends would betray a sick man she spoke rapidly and tom saw the bright color deepen in her cheek and her eyes flash with excitement
she was very beautiful and tom felt the influence of her beauty and tried to draw the ragged quilt over him so as to hide the coarse gray shirt hetty had given him and which was as unlike the immaculate linen tom carleton was
accustomed to wear as it was possible to be.
You are Miss Devere, I am sure, he said.
And you are very kind.
I shall not tax your hospitality long.
I hope to go on tonight.
Don't stay here, Miss Devere.
You must be uncomfortable.
It's hotter here than in Massachusetts.
You are from New England, then,
Maude asked, and Tom replied.
From Boston, yes.
Your people hate us most of all, I believe.
And Tom tried to smile, while Maude answered.
answered him. It makes no difference to me whether you are from Maine or Oregon. You are sick and have
come to us for succor. I'll do what I can to help you. With the last words she was gone,
her tall, lithe figure bending gracefully under the low doorway and the rustle of her fresh, clean
garments leaving a pleasant sound in Tom Carlton's ears. A sick Yankee down in Hetty's cabin.
A Boston won at that, with his Wendell Phillips notions, and you want me to let him
be brought up to this house the house of a southern gentleman who if he hates one of the dogs worse than another hates the massachusetts kind whose women have nothing to do but to write abolition books about our niggers
no indeed he shall not come an inch and by the hairy i'll send for the authorities and have him bundled off to jail before night with his camp fever and his boston airs needn't talk see if i don't do it and i'll have
head he strung up and whipped for harboring the villain treason under my very nose and a yankee too go away go away i tell you i won't hear you i hate em all for the cussedness there is in em
this was squire turnbridge's reply to maude de vere who had told him of tom carleton and asked permission to have him moved up to the house nothing daunted maud went close up to him and her beautiful eyes looked straight into his as she said
think if it was arthur sick among his enemies they were kind to him he says and remember nettie too had she lived she would have married a northern man you liked robert and nettie loved him for her sake let this man be brought to the house he will die there where it is so close
serve him right for coming down here to fight us wish they were all dead how are you going to get the rascal up that confounded hill can he walk
maud had gained her point and with mrs turnbridge who had a soft kind heart she hastened to make ready a large airy chamber somewhat remote from the rooms occupied by the family and their frequent guests it was not the best room in the house but he would be safer there than elsewhere and maud made it as inviting as possible by pulling the bed
head out from the corner to the center of the room, covering the plain stand with a clean white
towel and the table with a gaily colored shawl of her own. Then, with Hetty and one of Hetty's
son she started for the cabin, followed by the squire himself. Since the war began, he had not
seen a Yankee, and curiosity as much as anything took him to Tom Carlton, whom he assailed
with a string of epithets telling him, to see what he'd got by making war on people so much
better than himself. Good enough for you. He continued.
as assisted by Hetty and Claib,
Tom tried to walk up the winding path
with Maud in front and the squire in the rear.
Yes, good enough for you if you die like a dog
and I dare say you will.
Fevers go hard with you, bunker hill chaps.
Claib, you villain, you are letting him fall.
Don't you see he hasn't strength to walk?
Carry him, you rascal.
And thus, changing the nature of his tirade,
the squire thrust his cane against Tom.
back by way of assisting him up the hill he was human if he was not quite consistent and his face was very red and he was very much out of breath when the house was reached at last and tom was comfortably disposed in bed
for thunder's sake hetty take that gray niggery thing off from him the squire said pointing to the coarse shirt tom had thought so nice when he exchanged it for his dirty uniform if you women are going to do a thing do it decent
arthur's shirts won't fit em i reckon for arthur ain't bigger than a pint of cider but mine will fetch em one and for gracious sake souse him first in the bath-tub he needs it bad for them prison pens ain't none the needest according to the tell
in spite of his aversion to the boston yankees the judge had taken the ordering of this one into his own hands and it was to him that tom owed the refreshing bath which did him so much good and abated the force of the fever which nevertheless ran high
for many days during which time Maud nursed him as carefully as if he had been her brother.
Arthur was absent when the moving occurred, but when he found out that it was done and the
Yankee was actually an inmate of his father's house, he concluded to make the best of it, merely
remarking that they would be in a pretty mess if the story got out of their harboring a prisoner.
The judge knew that, and in fancy he saw his house burned down and himself perhaps ridden on a rail
by his justly incensed neighbors. The fear wore upon
him terribly until a new idea occurred to him.
Maud, as everybody knew, had long been talking of going back to Tennessee, and what more
natural than for Paul Havaril to send an escort for her in the person of some cousin or
other, who was foolish enough to fall sick immediately after his arrival.
This was a smart thought, and as that very day at least a dozen people called at the
cedars, as the judge called his place, so the dozen were told of John Camp, sick a bed upstairs,
kind of cousin to Mott and sent to see her home by her uncle Paul.
Right, smart chap, the judge said, feeling amazed at the facility with which he invented falsehoods
once he began.
Been a gorilla there in the mountains and done some tall fightin, I reckon.
This was the judge's story which his auditors believed, wondering some of them why the visitor
should occupy that back chamber in preference to the handsome rooms in front.
Still, they had no suspicion of the truth.
john camp was accepted as a reality and kind inquiries were made after his welfare as day after day the fever ran its course and ma d'avere bent over him bathing his forehead smoothing his pillows and brushing his hair
Her white fingers, insinuating queer fancies into his brain as half unconscious,
he felt their touch upon his face and saw the soft eyes above him.
At first Arthur had kept aloof from Tom, but as the latter grew better, he yielded to
Maud's entreaties and went in to see him, feeling intuitively that he was in the presence
of a gentleman as well as of a superior.
He could not dislike him, for there was something about Tom Carlton which disarmed him
of all prejudice, and many a quiet friendly talk the two had together on.
the all-absorbing topic of the day.
He is a splendid fellow if he is a Yankee,
was Arthur's mental verdict,
and fine-looking, too,
finer a hundred times than I.
And then there crept into his heart
a fear less Maud should think as he did,
and ere he was aware of it,
he found himself fiercely jealous
of one who was at his mercy,
and whom, if he chose,
he might have removed so easily.
End of Chapter 29.
Chapters thirty and thirty-one of Rosemather,
A Tale by Mary Jane Holmes.
This Librevox recording is in the public domain.
30. Arthur and Maud.
Tom Carlton was able to start on his journey westward.
Twice he had left his room and joined the family below, making himself so agreeable,
and adapting himself so nicely to all the judge's crotchets,
that the old man confessed to a genuine liking for the Yankee rascal,
and expressed himself as unwilling to part with him.
He had inquired into his family history,
and to his infinite delight,
found that the elder Carlton, Tom's father,
was the very lawyer whose speech years ago
had been instrumental in sending back to bondage
the judge's runaway negro had his husband,
whose grave was out by the garden wall
and whose wife and sons had rendered so different a service
to the lawyer's son.
Tom's face was scarlet when he thought of the difference
and remembered how his father had worked to prove
that the master was entitled to his property
wherever it was found.
The judge suspected the nature of his thoughts
and with a forced laugh said good-humoredly.
You are more of an abolitionist than your father was, I see.
Well, well, young man, times change, and we change with them.
Old man, Carlton, did me a good turn, for Seth was worth $2,000.
I never abused him nor gave him a blow when I got him back.
I only asked him how he liked freedom as far as he had gone, and he didn't answer.
He seemed broke down like, and in less than a year he died.
He was the best hand I ever had, more and half white.
I cried when he died.
I'll be hanged if I didn't.
I told him to live and I'd set him free.
And when I see how his eyes lighted up,
I made out his papers on the spot and brought him to him,
and he died with him in his hand,
held so tight we could scarcely get him out,
and I had him buried with him in his coffin.
Thank you, Master.
God bless you for letting me die free,
but it's come too late.
I would work for you, Master, all the same if you'd done this before.
I wanted to be a man, and not a thing, a brute.
You have been kind to be, Master.
Thank you, thank you for liberty.
These are cess very words.
I got them by heart, and I said them so much that I began to wonder if freedom wasn't better
than slavery.
But bless you, my niggers was about all I had.
I couldn't give them up, though I used to go out to say.
Seth's grave and think how he hugged the papers to the last and wonder if the claws,
all men are born free and equal, didn't mean the blacks.
But the pesky war broke out and drove all this from my head.
I hate the Yankees. I hate Lincoln. I hate the whole Union army,
though I'll be blamed if I can hate you. Got a wife, eh?
He turned abruptly to his guest, who had listened with so breathless interest to the story of poor Seth,
that he did not see Maude Devere her eyes shining and her cheeks flushed as if she were under some strong excitement.
Between herself and Arthur there had been a long conversation concerning Captain Tom Carlton
and other matters of greater interest to Maude. The John Camp Ruse had succeeded well
and Maude had a fancy for making it do still more by taking her patient and safety as far as her
uncle Havril's. She had received several letters from her uncle urging her to come home and in a week
at most she was going. As one who had been expressly sent as her escort, Mr. Carlton would of course
go with her, and in order to make the journey with perfect safety she would have Arthur go to,
and it was of this that she had spoken to him that morning when she found him in a little
summer-house at the rear of the Long Garden. There was a dark shadow on Arthur's face as he
listened to Maud's proposition, and when she had finished speaking, he replied,
I intend to go with you, provided I'm not ordered back to the army, but Maud, I will not have
that Yankee soldier hanging on to us.
We have done that for him which imperils our lives,
and now that he is able to go on, let him take his chance alone.
If he is one half as keen as Yankees think themselves to be,
he will get through unharmed.
No, I won't have him in our way.
But think of the dangers to be encountered.
The hordes of guerrillas which infest the mountains,
Maude pleaded, and in her earnestness she laid both her hands on Arthur's shoulders
and stood leaning over him.
"'Mod Devere,' and Arthur spoke very decidedly,
"'why are you so much interested in this man?
"'Tell me and tell me truly, too.
"'Have you learned to care for him,
"'more than you would for a common soldier,
"'had such a one come to you as a runaway Yankee?'
"'If you have, Maude,'
"'and Arthur's face was white with determination,
"'if you have, by the heavens above us,
"'I'll put a bullet through him myself,
"'or worse than that, send him back to where he came from.
"'That would be an act worthy of a turnpour
bridge and a southern gentleman,
Maude said bitterly, and something
in her tone warned Arthur that he had gone
too far, so changing his tactics
he said more gently.
Sit here beside me, Maude, and listen to
what I have to say. You know
that I have loved you ever since I knew the
meaning of the word, and it is not in my
nature to give up what my heart is set upon.
You have refused me,
but that does not matter.
I want you for my wife.
I must have you for
my wife. I know you are
are my superior, and I am willing it should be so. You can fashion me into anything you like.
I have screened and hidden and lied for that Yankee, Carlton, just to gratify you.
And when I first consented to act the traitor's part, I suppose he was most likely
some coarse ignorant bore, but he is not. Returning health shows him to be a well-bred gentleman
and decidedly good-looking, so much so that I have been jealous of him, Maude, not knowing to
what your strange opinions might lead you.
"'You know, of course, he has a wife,'
"'dropped scornfully from Maud's lips, and Arthur started quickly.
"'No, Maud, I did not know it.
"'How came you by the knowledge? Did he tell you so?'
"'Not directly, but when he was out of his head or asleep he talked of Rose and Annie and
Mary, and he called the latter his wife.
"'That is the way I know,' Mott said, and Arthur's face cleared at once.
"'Forgive me, Maud. I was a fool to be jealous of him.
and now let us come to a final understanding.
You have laughed at and browbeaten and queened it over me for years,
but I have never despaired of winning you at last.
Once for all then, will you be my wife?
I must have you.
I cannot be denied.
Arthur was in earnest now, and his pleadings were eloquent with the love he felt for the girl,
who listened in silence and then said to him,
"'Arthur, it cannot be.
I should make you very unhappy.'
We do not agree in any one point.
But we will agree.
I promise to conform to your opinions in everything.
I'll guide this man to Tennessee
and give myself in future to the work of saving
and helping the entire Yankee army.
I'll be a second Dan Ellis, if you like.
I'll do anything but take the oath to the Union.
I've sworn to stand by the other side.
I cannot break my word even for you, Maude.
"'Mod did not like him less for that last.
"'There was southern fire in her heart as well as his,
"'and southern blood in her veins,
"'and though she clung to the old flag,
"'there were moments when she felt a flush of pride
"'in her misguided brothers,
"'who fought so like heroes and believed so heartily in their cause.
"'Say, Maude,' Arthur continued,
"'will you be my wife if I will do all this?
"'Think how many lives I might save
"'and how much suffering relief.
"'There are so many chances where I could
do good, for no one would suspect me.
Give me some hope,
Maud. Speak to me.
She was sitting with her face
buried in her hands, as many another
maiden has sat, counting the cost.
All her lifelong Arthur Turnbridge had followed her
with his love till she was tired of the contest.
Nothing she had ever said disheartened him.
No rebuff, however severe, had availed to keep him quiet.
She knew he loved her, and perhaps
she might in time love him.
It would make the old judge and his wife so happy, while Charlie liked Arthur so much.
Other people liked him, too.
He was very popular, and she well knew that she was envied by many a proud maiden
for the attentions of the agreeable Lieutenant Turnbridge.
Besides, if Arthur pledged himself to help the escape of prisoners, he would keep his word,
and so through her much good might be done and hearts made happy, perhaps.
Others had willingly sacrificed their lives for their country,
and why should she shrink from sacrificing her happiness if by it so many lives could be saved?
Was it not her duty to cast self aside and think only of the suffering she could relieve with Arthur as her ally?
Maud was selling herself for her country, and with one great throb of bitter pain she said at last.
I will deal frankly with you, Arthur, as I always have. You are not disagreeable to me.
I like you very much as a friend. I miss you when you are away, and I am glad when you
you come back. Still, you are not just what I have imagined my future husband to be.
I like you for the good I know there is in you, and I may learn to love you. I shall lead you
a horrid life if I do not, for it is not in my nature to affect what I do not feel.
If I cannot love you, I shall learn to hate you, and that will be terrible.
She was looking at him now, and though he winced a little beneath the blazing eyes,
she looked so grand, so beautiful, that foolish youth as he was he fancied her hate.
would be preferable to losing her, and so he said,
Go on, Maude. I am not afraid of the hatred if you always look as you do now.
Something like contempt leaped to her eyes, then, but she put it aside and continued.
I will promise only on conditions. You shall see this, Mr. Carlton, safely, to my Uncle Paul's.
You shall befriend and help every runaway you chance to find. You shall relieve every
suffering union soldier when an opportunity occurs. You shall use your influence for
the prisoners and seek to ameliorate their wretched condition.
If you do this, Arthur, and do it faithfully, when the war is over, I will try to answer yes.
Are you satisfied?
It was a very one-sided affair, and Arthur knew it, but love for Maude Devere was
the strongest passion of which he was capable, and he answered.
I am satisfied, and he kissed the cold hand which Maude placed in his, and thought
what a regal creature he had won, and thought, too, how implicitly he would keep the
contract, even if it involved a giving up of Jefferson Davis himself into the enemy's
hands.
31.
Maud and Tom
It was then that Maud left him and went back to the house where, standing in the door,
she scanned the face and person of the man for whose safety in part she had pledged
her heart and hand.
Tom's T'Ensomble was good, and there was about him a certain air of grace and culture which
showed itself in every movement.
A stranger would have trusted to him.
him in a moment and recognize the true manhood in his expressive face.
And Modd recognized it as she never had before, and the contrast between him and Arthur struck her
plainfully.
If Arthur were more like him, I could love him better, she thought, just as the judge asked
the abrupt question.
You have a wife, eh?
Of course he has, Maude thought, and still she listened for the answer.
My wife died some years ago before the war broke out.
She was a Mary Williams, a near relative of the Williamses of Charleston.
Perhaps you know them.
Know them? I'll bet I do.
The finest family in the state.
And you married one of them?
The old judge said his manner indicating an increased respect for the man who had married a Williams of Charleston.
Maud knew the family too, or rather knew of them,
and remembered how some years before when she was at St. Mary's,
she had heard a Charleston young lady speaking of a Mrs. Carlton from
who had recently died, and whose husband had been so kind and patient and tender and was
the most perfectly splendid-looking man she ever saw. Maud remembered this last distinctly
because it had called forth a reproof from the teacher who had overheard it, and who asked
what kind of a man the most perfectly splendid-looking one could be. Maud had not thought
of that incident in years, but it came back to her now as she stood close to the man who had
been so kind and tender to his sick, dying wife.
He would be all that, she knew, for his manner was so quiet and grave and gentle,
and then a great throb of pain swept over Maud Devere as she thought of Arthur and the
pledge she had given him.
Maud could not analyze her feelings or understand why the knowing who Tom Carlton was
and that he was all so free should make the world so desolate all of a sudden,
and blot out the brightness of the summer day which had seemed so pleasant at its beginning.
I did it in part for him, she said, feeling that in spite of her pain,
was something sweet even in such a sacrifice.
She was still standing in the door when Tom,
turning a little more toward his host, saw her,
his face lighting up at once and the smile which made him so handsome
breaking out about his mouth and showing his fine teeth.
Ah, Miss Devere, take this seat!
And with that well-bred politeness so much part of his family he arose
and offered her his chair.
But Maude declined it, and took a seat instead upon a little capstool
near to the fine-wreathed columns of the piazza.
It was very pleasant there that morning,
and Maud, sitting against that background of green leaves,
made a very pretty picture in her pink cambric wrapper
trimmed with white, white pendants in her ears,
and a bunch of sweet-scented heliotrope in her hair,
and at her throat where the smooth linen collar came together.
And Tom enjoyed the picture very much,
from the crown of satin hair to the high-heeled slipper
with its bright ribbon rosette.
It was not a little slipper like those
which used to be in Tom's dressing room in Boston
when Mary was alive,
nor yet like the fairy things which Rose Mather wore.
Nothing about Maud Devere was small,
but everything was admirably proportioned.
She wore a seven glove and she wore a four boot.
She measured just 25 inches around the waist
and five feet six from her head to her feet
and weighed 140.
A perfect Amazon, she called herself,
but Tom did not think so.
He knew she was a large type of womanhood,
but she was perfect in form and feature,
and he would not have had her one whit smaller than she was.
Neither did he contrast her with anyone he had ever known.
She was so wholly unlike Mary and Rose and Annie,
that comparison between them was impossible.
She was Miss Devere.
Maud, he called her to himself,
and the name was beginning to sound sweetly to him
as he daily grew more and more intimate
with the queenly creature who bore it.
He had buried his pale, proud-faced but loving Mary,
He had given up the gentle Annie, and surely he might think of Maude Devere if he chose,
and the sight of her sitting there before him with the rich color in her cheek and the southern
fire in her eyes stirred strange feelings in his heart, and made him so forgetful of what
the judge was saying to him that the old man at last rose and walked away, leaving the two
young people alone together. Tom had never talked much to Maude except upon sick-room topics,
and he felt anxious to know if her mind corresponded with her face and form.
Here was a good opportunity for testing her mental powers, and in the long, earnest conversation
which ensued concerning men and books and politics, Tom sifted her thoroughly, experiencing
that pleasure which men of cultivation always experienced when thrown in contact with a woman
whose intelligence and endowments are equal to their own.
Mod's education had not been a superficial one, nor had it ceased with her leaving school.
In her room at home there was a small library of choice books which she read in
studied each day together with her brother Charlie, whose education she superintended.
Few persons north or south were better acquainted with the incidents and progress of the war than
she was. She had watched it from its beginning, and with her father from whom she had inherited
her superior mind, she had held many earnest argumentative discussions concerning the right
and wrong of secession. Maud had opposed it from the first, but her father had thought
differently, and carrying out his principles had lost his life in the first Battle of Bull Run.
"'Mod spoke of him to Tom, and her fine eyes were full of tears,
"'as she told of the dark, terrible days which proceeded and followed the news of his death.
"'The ball which struck him down went further than that.
"'It killed Mother, too, and made us orphans,' Maud said.
"'And something in the tone of her voice and the expression of her face puzzled Tom
"'just as it had many times before, and carried him back to Bull Run
"'where it seemed to him he had seen a face like Maud Devere's.
"'Was your father killed in battle?'
Tom asked, and Maude replied,
No, sir, that is, he did not die in the battlefield.
He was wounded and crawled away into the woods where they found him dead sitting against a tree,
with a little Union drummer boy lying right beside him,
and Father's handkerchief bound round the poor bleeding stumps,
for the little hands were both shot away.
I've thought of that boy so often, Maud said, and cried for him so much.
I know Father was kind to him, for the little fellow was nestled close to him,
Arthur said. He was there and found my father, though he did not at first recognize him, as it was a
number of years since he had seen him. Tom was growing both interested and excited. He was beginning
to find the key to that familiar look in Maude Devere's face, and coming close to her, he said,
were any prisoners taken near your father, Miss Devere? Union prisoners, I mean. Yes,
"'Mod replied.
"'Arthur was a private then,
"'and with another soldier was prowling through the woods
"'when they came upon father,
"'and two Union soldiers near him.
"'One a boy, Arthur said,
"'and one an officer whose ankle had been sprained.
"'In their eagerness to capture somebody
"'they forgot my father and carried off the man and boy.
"'Then they went back and Arthur found
"'by some papers in the dead soldier's pocket
"'that it was father,
"'and he had him decently buried at Manassas with a little boy.
"'I liked Arthur for that.'
i would never have forgiven him if you left that child in the woods when the war is over i am going to find the graves she was not weeping now but her eyes had in them a strange glitter as they looked far off in the distance as if in quest of those two graves
maud de vere tom carlton said and at the sound maud started and blushed scarlet you must forgive me if i call you maud this once it's for the sake of your noble father by whose side i stood when the spirit left his body and went after
after that of the little drummer-boy, whose bleeding stumps were bound in your father's
handkerchief.
I remember it well.
I had sprained my ankle, and with a lad of my company was trying to escape, when I heard
the sound of someone singing that glorious chant of our church, peace on earth, goodwill
toward men.
It sounded strangely there amid the dead and dying, who had killed each other, but there
was peace between the Confederate captain and the federal boy as they sang the familiar words.
As well as we could, we cared for him.
I wiped the blood from your father's wound, and the boy brought him water from the brook,
while he talked of his home in North Carolina, of his children who would never see him again,
and of Nally, his wife. It comes back to me with perfect distinctness, and it is your father's
look in your eyes and face which has puzzled me so much. Two soldiers wearing the Southern
gray came up and captured us, and we were taken to Richmond. Surely, Miss Devere, it is a special
providence which has brought me at last to you, the daughter of that man, and may be
you the guardian angel who has stood between me and recapture.
There is a meaning in it, if we could only find it.
Tom's fine eyes were bent upon Maude, and in his excitement he had grasped her hand,
which did not lie as cold and pulseless in his as an hour before it had lain in Arthur's.
It throbbed and quivered now, but clung to Tom's with a firm hold which was not relaxed
even when Arthur came up, his face growing dark and threatening as he saw the position of the two.
Ma did not care for Arthur then,
or think what that look in Tom's kindling eyes might mean.
She only remembered that the man whose hand held hers so firmly
had ministered to her dying father,
had held the cup of water to his parched lip,
had wiped the flowing blood from his face,
and spoken to him kindly words of sympathy.
Here was the answer to her prayer
that God would send her somebody who could tell her of her father's last minutes.
That somebody had come,
and in her gratitude to him she could all
have knelt and worshipped him.
Oh, Arthur, she cried.
Captain Carlton is the very man you and Joe Newell captured at Bull Run.
He was with father when he died.
He took care of him, and was so kind until you came and took him.
And Ma's eyes flashed with anything but affection upon her lover,
who for a moment could not speak for his surprise.
Curiously, he looked at Tom, seeking for something on which to fasten a doubt,
for he did not wish Maude to have a cause for granted.
to the northern officer.
But the longer he gazed, the less he doubted.
The face of the lame officer in the Virginia woods
came up distinctly before him,
and was too much like the face confronting him
to admit of a mistake,
especially after Maud repeated the substance
of which she had heard from Captain Carlton.
Arthur was convinced,
and as Maud dropped Tom Thand,
he took it in his and said,
It is very strange that my first prize,
over whose capture I felt so proud,
should fall again into my power,
"'But this time you are safe, I reckon.
I am older than I was three years ago,
and not quite so thirsty for a Yankee's blood.
You did Maud's father good service, it seems,
and to prove that we rebels can be grateful and generous even to our foes,
I will take you under my protection as one of my party,
when I escort Maud home to Tennessee as I intend doing in a few days.'
Maud's face was white with passion as she listened to this patronizing speech,
which had in it so much of assumed superiority over the man who smiled of
very peculiar kind of smile, as he bowed his acknowledgement of Arthur's kind attentions.
Not a hint was there that Maud was set in front of the arrangement, that for Tom's sake
she had pledged herself to one whose inferiority never struck her so painfully as now, when she
saw him side by side with Captain Carlton.
Arthur did not care to have Captain Carlton know how much he was indebted to Maud for his
present pleasant quarters, and his prospect of a safe transfer to the hills of Tennessee.
But Tom, though never suspecting the...
whole truth, did know that his gratitude for past and present kindness received from that
southern family was mainly due to Maude, whom he admired more and more as the days wore
on and he learned to know her intimately. The shy reserve which, since his convalescence she
had manifested toward him, passed with the knowledge that he had stood by her dying father,
and she treated him as a friend with whom she had been acquainted all her lifelong. Occasionally,
as something in Tom's manner made her think that but for Arthur she might perhaps in time bear
that relation toward him, which Mary Williams had borne, she felt a fierce throb of pain and a sense
of such utter desolation that she involuntarily rebelled against the life before her. But Modd was a brave,
sensible girl. She had chosen her lot, she reasoned, and she would abide by it and make Arthur as
happy as she could. He was fulfilling his part of the contract well, as was proven by the terror-stricken
creature, whom he had found hiding on the plantation and had brought to Hetty's cabin, where he now lay so weak,
that it was impossible to take him along on that journey to Tennessee.
His time will come by and by, Arthur said when Maude expressed anxiety for him.
I'll land him safely at your Uncle Paul some night when you least expect it.
My business now is with you and your Yankee captain.
Maude had asked that for the present nothing should be said with regard to their engagement.
And so, though the judge suspected that some definite arrangement had been made between his son and Maude,
he did not know for certain, even when she stood.
before him attired for the journey.
The judge was sorry to part with Maud,
and he was sorry to part with Tom.
He liked him because he was a gentleman
if he was a Yankee,
and because his father had sent Seth back,
poor Seth with his free papers in his coffin,
and because he had been kind to Maud's father,
and married Mary Williams of the Charleston Williamses,
and could smoke a cob-pipe and enjoy it.
These were the things which recommended Tom
to the old man who shook his hand warmly at parting, saying to him,
i hate northern dogs mostly but and if i don't like you may you get safely home and if you do my advice is to stay there and tell the rest of em to do the same they can't whip us no by george they can't even if they have got some advantage
the paper say it was all a strategical trap and we'd rather you'd have the places than not you can't take richmond no sir we will die in the last ditch every mother's son of us and what is left will set the town on fire and let it go to thunder
the old judge was waxing very eloquent for a man who had one union soldier recruiting in hetty's cabin and was bidding good-bye to another but consistency was no part of war politics and he rambled on until all the union soldier recruiting in hetty's cabin and was bidding good-bye to another but consistency was no part of war politics and he rambled on until all
Arthur cut him short by saying they could wait no longer.
With Arthur as a safeguard in case of an attack from Confederates
and Tom Carleton in case of an assault from the Unionists,
Maude felt perfectly secure,
and, in quiet and safety, she accomplished her journey
and was welcomed with open arms by Paul Haverill and Charlie.
Arthur could only stop for a day among the hills.
He might be ordered back to his regiment at any time,
and if he got that other chap through he must bestir himself, he said.
And so he bade goodbye to Ma'am.
in whom he had implicit faith,
and whose sober, quiet demeanor
he tried to attribute to her sorrow at parting with him.
She does like me some,
and by and by she will like me better,
he said as he went his way,
leaving her standing in the doorway of her uncle's house,
her face very pale,
and her hands pressed closely together
as if forcing back some bitter thought
or silent pain.
Churning once ere the winding road
hit her from view,
Arthur kissed his hand to her gaily,
while, with a wave of her handkerchief
she re-entered the house,
and neither guessed nor dreamed how or when they would meet again.
End of chapters 30 and 31.
Chapters 32 and 33 of Rose Mather a tale by Mary Jane Holmes.
This Libervox recording is in the public domain.
32. Suspicion
Maude Devere had insisted that Captain Carlton should have her room in as much as he would be more secure there.
For if the house was suspected and searched,
a catastrophe Paul Haverill was constantly anticipating. No one would be likely to invade the sanctity
of her apartment. And Tom found it so very pleasant and quiet and home-like that he was not at all
indisposed to linger for several days, particularly after Paul found an opportunity for sending
the Federal lines a letter which would tell the anxious friends in Rockland of his safety.
This letter which was directed to Mrs. William Mather had been the direct means of Tom's
ascertaining that his brother-in-law was not only alive, but had once shared in the hospital
now so freely extended to himself.
After learning this, Tom could not forbear tearing open the envelope and adding in a post-script.
I have just heard that Will was not many weeks since a guest in this very house where I am so
kindly cared for.
God bless the noble man who has saved so many lives and the beautiful girl his niece.
I cannot say enough in her praise.
I do believe she would die for a unionist any day.
Will, it seems, did not see her as she was away when he was here.
here. And perhaps it is just as well for you, little Rose, that he did not.
There is something in her eye and voice and carriage, which stirs strange thoughts and feelings
in the hearts of us savages who have so long been deprived of ladies' society. She is a very
queen among women. That postscript was a most unlucky thought. The first part of Tom's letter
had been so guarded with regard to the people who befriended him that no harm to them could
possibly have accrued from its falling into hostile hands. But in the post-cript he forgot himself,
and assumed forms of speech which pointed directly to Paul Haverill and his niece Maude Devere.
And so the guerrillas, who caught and half killed the refugee entrusted with the letter,
set themselves at once at work to find the noble man who had the beautiful niece.
It was not a difficult task, and Paul Haverill, who had been looked upon as so rank a
secessionist, was suddenly suspected of treason.
Paul was popular and dangerous, while Mauddavir, whose principles were well known, was too much beloved by the rough mountaineers to allow of harm falling upon her at once. But the writer of that letter, the Yankee Carlton, should not go unpunished, and just at sunset one afternoon, Lois, who had been at a neighboring cabin, came hurrying home with that ashen hue upon her dark face which is the negro sign of paleness.
"'Massar Paul was suspicion of harbourn's somebody,' she said,
"'and already the hordes of mountaineers were assembling around the crossroads
"'and concerting measures for surprising and entrapping the Yankee.
"'Clo tell me she hear him say if they was perfectly sure about Masser,
"'and it wasn't for Miss Maud they'd set the house on fire.
"'And they looks mighty like they's fit to do it.
"'The wust faces, Miss Maud, and they does swar awful about.
the Yankee? They's got halters and tar and feathers and guns. Lois was out of breath by this time,
and even if she had not been, she would have paused with wonder at the face of her young mistress.
Maude had listened intently to the first part of Lois's story, but felt no emotion save that
of scorn and contempt for the men assembled at the crossroads and whom Uncle Paul could manage
so easily. But when it came to the halter for the Yankee, her face turned white as marble,
and in that moment of peril she realized all that Captain Carlton was to her,
and knew what had been the result of the last week's daily intercourse
with one so gifted and so congenial.
She knew, too, that he was not for her.
Arthur Turnbridge stood in the way of that.
She would keep her faith with him, but she would save Captain Carlton or die.
Lois, she said, and there was no tremor in her voice.
Bring that red dress I gave you last Christmas,
the one you think is so long.
Your shawl and bonnet to and shoes.
Bring them to Captain Carlton's room.
Lois comprehended her mistress at once
and hurried away to her cabin after the dress
whose extra length she had so often deplored, saying,
It wasn't for such as her to wear switch and trains like the grand folks.
Meanwhile, Maud had communicated with her uncle
who manifested no concern except for his guest,
and even for him he had no fearst
provided he could reach the cave in safety.
to accomplish that was maud's object and as the crossroads lay in that direction a great amount of tact and skill was necessary but maud was equal to any emergency and half an hour later there issued from paul haverol's door two figures clad in female garments and whom a casual observer would have sworn were maud de vere and her servant lois
maud had a revolver in her pocket and another in the basket she carried so carefully and which was supposed to contain the cups of jelly and custard she was taking a poor sick neighbor whose house was up the mountain path
at her side with the shuffling gate peculiar to lois tom carleton walked his nicely blackened face hidden in the deep shaker which lois had worn for years and his calico dress flopping awkwardly about his feet lois fortunately was very tall and so her skirts did good service for the young man whose power
of imitation were perfect and who walked and looked exactly like the old colored woman watching
his progress from an upper window and declaring that she would almost sware it was herself
at her side stood charlie a round spot of red burning on either pale cheek and his slender
hands grasping a revolver while occasionally his blue eyes looked eagerly along the mountain road
which as yet was quiet and lonely i never thought to raise my hand against my own people he
said. But if they harm Uncle Paul, I shall shoot somebody.
The sun had been gone from sight for some little time, and the tall mountain shadows were
lying thick and black across the valley, when up the road several horsemen came galloping,
and Paul Haverill's house was ere long surrounded by a band of as rough, savage-looking men as
could well be found in the mountains of Tennessee. Comely and fearlessly, Paul Haverill went
out to meet them, asking why they were there and why they seemed so much excited. For a moment,
His old power over them asserted itself again, and they hesitated to charge him with treason as
they intended doing. But only for a brief space was there a calm, and then amid oaths and
imprecations and taunting sneers and threats, they told him of the letter and deriding him as a
traitor demanded the sneaking Yankee who had written that letter and was now hidden in
the house. To reason with such people was useless and Paul Haverill did not try it.
standing upon his doorstep with his grey hair blowing in the evening wind and his hands deep in his pockets he said i admit your charge in part there has been a union soldier in my house an escaped prisoner from columbia
I did care for him, and I am neither ashamed nor afraid to own it.
Fear is a stranger to old Paul Haverl, as any of you who tries to harm him will find.
Never mind a speech, Paul, said the leader of the men.
Nobody wants to hurt you, though you deserve hanging, perhaps.
What we want is the Yankee.
Fetch him out, and let's see how he'll look dangling in the air.
Yes, fetch him out! yelled a dozen voices in chorus.
"'Bring out the Yankee. We want him.'
"'Hello, puny face. Are you a bad egg, too?'
They continued as Charlie appeared in the door.
"'Shall I fire, Uncle Paul?' Charlie asked, and his uncle replied,
"'By no means, unless you would have them on us like wolves.'
"'Friends!' and he turned to the mob, which had been increased by some twenty or more.
"'Friends, that man is gone. He is not here. He has left my house.
"'You can search it if you like.'
where's miss de vere a coarse voice cried we know her to be union she never tried to cover that as you hoary old villain did she was out and out let her come and say the yankee is gone and we will believe her
my niece i regret to say is not just now in either she has gone with lois to take some knick-knacks to a sick neighbor that's so boys i met her myself as i came down the mountain called out a young man of the company called out a young man of the company
who seemed to be superior to his associates.
Gone with Lois, eh?
Then whose woolly paid is that?
Responded a drunken brute who, rising in his stirrups,
fired a shot toward the garret window from which Lois,
in an unguarded moment had thrust her head.
Others had seen her, too, and as this gave the lie to the story that Lois was gone,
the maddened crowd pressed against the house,
declaring their intention to search it and hang any runaway they might find secreted there.
It never occurred to them that the runaway could have been with Maud in Lois's clothes,
but the young man who met the two lone women saw the ruse at once, and influenced by Maud's beauty
and the remembrance of the sweet, Good evening, Mark, with which she had greeted him as he passed,
he made his way to Charlie's side and whispered,
If you know where your sister has gone and can warn her do so at once,
tell her if she is tolerably safe to stay there and not return here tonight.
Charlie needed no second bidding
and stealing from the rear of the house
he was soon speeding up the mountain path
in the direction of the cave.
Meanwhile, the search in Paul Haverill's house went on.
Closets were thrown open, beds were torn to pieces,
cellars were ransacked, and old Lois was dragged
from the ash house where she had taken refuge,
while, worse than all, Tom Carlton's boots
were found in the chamber where he had dressed so hurriedly,
and the sight of these maddened the excited crowd
which, failing up finding their victim, began to clamor for Paul Haverill's blood.
But Paul kept them at bay. In the rear of the house was a small, dark room to which there
was but one entrance and that a steep narrow stairway. Here Paul Haverill took refuge, and
standing at the head of the stairs, threatened to shoot the first man who should attempt to come up.
They had not yet reached that state when they counted their lives as nothing, and so amid
yells and oaths and riding up and down the road, and drinking the fine grape wines with which
the cellar was stocked, the hours of the short summer night wore on until just as the dawn
was breaking in the east, the marauders put the finishing touch to their night's debauch by
setting fire to the house, and then starting in a body up the mountainside in the direction of
the cave. 33. In the cave
The cave was dry and comparatively comfortable, and Tom felt as he entered it almost like going home.
Will Mather had spent a day and a night there, while better than all, Maud Vier was with him,
her bright eyes shining upon him through the darkness, and her hands touching his as she groped around for the candle her uncle had said was on the shelf and the rock.
It was presently found, and with the aid of the match Maud had brought with her, a light was soon struck,
its flickering beams lighting up the dark recesses of the cavern with a ghastly kind of light,
which to Mod seemed more terrible than the darkness.
She was not afraid, but her nerves were shaken as only threatened danger to Tom Carlton could shake them,
and she felt strangely alone on the wild mountain side and in that silent cavern.
Tom did not seem like much of a protector in that woman's garb,
but when with a shake and a kick and a merry laugh he threw aside the bonnet, shawl, and dress,
and stood before her in his own proper person,
minus the boots, she felt all her courage coming back,
and with him beside her would have defied the entire Southern Army.
There was water enough in the spring to wash the black from his face,
and Maude lent her own pretty ruffled white apron for a towel,
and then, when his toilet was completed, began to speak of returning.
At this hour, and alone with a road full of robbers,
never, Maude, never.
You must either stay here with me or I shall go back with you,
Tom said, and he involuntarily wound his arm around the waist of the young girl who
trembled like a leaf. She did not think of Arthur then, or her promise to him, for something in
Tom's voice and manner as he put his arm about her and called her Maude, brought to her
a feeling such as she had never experienced before. Perhaps Tom suspected that he was understood,
for he held her closer to him and passing his hand caressingly over her burning cheek, he whispered,
"'Dear Maude, I cannot let you incur any danger which I must not share.
You understand me, don't you?'
She thought of Arthur, then, and the thought cut like a knife through her heart.
She must not understand.
She must not listen to words like these.
She must not stay there to hear them, and with a quick gesture she was removing Tom's arm
from her waist when his wary hiss made her pause and stand where she was,
leaning against him, and heavily, too, as terror overcame every other feeling.
Footsteps were coming near and coming cautiously, too,
up to the very entrance of the cave where they stopped as someone outside seemed to be listening.
It was a moment of terrible suspense, and Maud could hear the throbbing of her heart,
while Tom strained her so close to him that his chin rested on her hair,
and she felt his breath upon her cheek.
"'Mod, Sister Maud!' came reassuringly in a low whisper,
and with a cry Maude burst away from Tom exclaiming,
Charlie, what brings you here?
He explained to her why he was there,
and that she must stay all night,
and with a shudder as she thought of what might befall her uncle,
Maude acquiesced in the decree,
feeling glad that Charlie was with them,
a hindrance and preventive to the utterance of words she must not hear.
A hindrance he was, it is true,
but not a total preventive,
for by and by the tired boy's eyes began to droop as drowsiness,
stole over him, and when Tom made him a bed with Lois's dress and shawl, and bat him lie down
and sleep, he did so at once, after first offering the impromptu couch to Maude.
Seen by the dim candlelight, Maude's face was very white, and her eyes shone like burning
coals as she watched Captain Carlton and guessed his motive. Had there been no Arthur in the way,
she would not have shrunk from Captain Carlton, but with that haunting memory she could have
shrieked aloud when she saw the weary lids droop over Charlie's eyes, and
and knew by his regular breathing that he was asleep.
Tom knew it as soon as she did,
but for a time he kept silence.
Then he came close to her,
and sitting down by her side said softly,
"'Mod, you and I have been very strangely thrown together,
and as I once said to you,
there is a meaning in it, if we will but find it.
Shall I try and solve it for you,
or do you know yourself what is in my mind?'
She did know, but she could not answer,
and her face drooped over her brother whose head she had pillowed upon her lap.
Perhaps this is not the fitting place for me to speak, Tom continued.
But if the morning finds me in safety I must be gone,
and no one can guess when we may meet again.
Let me tell you, Maude, of my early life before ever I saw or dreamed of you.
Surely she might hear this,
and the bowed head lifted itself a little, while Captain Carlton told first of his home in Boston,
of beautiful little rose and saucy dark-eyed Jimmy,
and then of the pale, proud Mary his early manhood's love,
who at the last had lost the pride in Hoteur inherited from her race
and had died so gentle and lowly,
and gone were her husband one day hoped to meet her.
Then there came a pause,
and Tom was thinking of a night when poor Jimmy sat by his side
before the lonely tentfire, and talked with him of Annie Graham.
Should he tell Maude of that?
Yes, he would.
and by the even beating of his heart as he made that resolve and thought of Annie,
he knew he had outlived his fancy for one of whom he spoke unhesitatingly,
praising her girlish beauty, telling how pure and good she was,
and how once a hope had stirred his heart that he, perhaps, might win her.
But I gave her up to Jimmy.
Annie will be my sister, and I know now why it was so appointed.
God had in store for me a gem as beautiful as Annie Graham and better adapted to me.
I mean you, Maude.
God intends you for my wife.
Do you exceed willingly?
Have you any love for the poor Yankee soldier
who has been so long dependent upon you?
He had her head now on his arm
and with his hand was smoothing her bands of satin hair
while he waited for her to speak.
He had dealt honestly with her.
She would be equally truthful with him,
and she answered at last.
Oh, Mr. Carlton,
you don't know how much it pains me to tell you what I must.
i might have loved you once but now it is too late i promised arthur if he would be kind to the poor prisoners and help the escaped ones to get away and oh i don't know what but i am to be his wife when the dreadful war is over
pity me mr carleton but don't love me no no don't make me more wretched by telling me of a love i cannot return could you return it maud if there were no promise to arthur tom spoke
very low with his lips close to her burning cheek, but Maude did not reply, and Tom continued.
Maud was the getting me here in safety any part of the price for which you sold yourself.
She did not answer even then, but by the low gasping sobbed she gave as she shed back from her hot brow the
heavy hair, Tom knew the truth, and to himself he said, it shall not be. And then from his heart
there went up a silent prayer that God would give him the brave, beautiful girl who drew herself,
away from him, and, leaning over her sleeping brother sat with both hands clasp upon her face.
They did not talk together much more, and once Tom thought Maud was asleep, she sat so rigid
and motionless with her face turned toward the entrance of the cave. But she was not asleep,
and her dark eyes were fixed wistfully upon the one bright star visible to her, and which
seemed whispering to her of hope. Perhaps Arthur would release her from her promise, and perhaps.
But Maud started from that thought as from an evil spirit, and her white lips whispered faintly,
God, help me to keep my promise.
The night was very still, and as the hours wore on, and the faint dawn of day came over the
mountaintops, Maud's quick ear caught the echo of the fierce shouts in the valley below,
and laying Charlie's head from her lap, she went out of the cave, followed by Captain Carlton,
who wondered to see how that one night had changed her.
The brilliant color was gone from her cheek, which looked haggard,
and pale, as faces look when some great storm of sorrow has passed over them.
Her hair had fallen down and lay in masses upon her neck from which she shook it off
impatiently, and then intently listened to the sounds which each moment grew louder.
Shoutings they were in tones of command mingled with a distant tramp of horses' feet,
while suddenly above the tall treetops which skirted the mountainside arose a coil of smoke.
Too dark, too thick to have come from any chimney where the early morning fire was kindled,
It told its own tale of horror, and Maud's eyes grew so black and fierce that Tom shrunk back from her,
as pointing her finger toward the fast increasing rings of smoke and flame she whispered.
Do you see that, Captain Carlton?
It's Uncle Paul's dwelling. They have set it on fire.
I never thought they would do that, though I have watched more than one burning house in these mountains,
and have almost felt a thrill of pride as I thought how dearly we are paying for our love to the old flag.
but when it comes to my own home the pride is all gone the fire burns deeper and one is half tempted to question the price required for the union tom was about to speak to her when she turned abruptly upon him and said captain carleton do you believe your northern women your rose your annie would bear and brave what the loyal women of the south endure they may be true to the union no doubt they are and they think they know what war means but i tell you they do not
Did they ever see their friends and neighbors driven to the woods and hills like hunted beasts,
or watch the kindling flames devouring their own houses, as I am doing now?
For I know that is my Uncle Paul's, and whether he still lives or is hung between the earth
and heavens, God only knows, and perhaps he has forgotten.
I sometimes think he has.
Else why does he not send us aid?
Where are your hordes of men?
Why do they not come to save us when we have waited so long?
and our eyes and ears are weak and weary with watching for their coming.
She was talking now more to herself than to her companion,
and she looked a very queen of tragedy as with her hair floating over her shoulders,
and her hands pressed tightly together.
She walked hurriedly the length and breadth of the long flat rock
which bordered a precipice near the cave.
Tom was about to answer her,
when a ball went whizzing past him,
while the loud shouts of the men whose heads were visible beneath the distant trees
told that he had been discovered.
To return to the cave and take mod with him was the work of a moment,
and amid yells of fury the drunken mob came on to where maud,
forgetting everything now except Tom Carlton, stood waiting for them.
They would not harm her, she knew, and like a lioness guarding its young,
she stood within the cave but so near the entrance that her face was visible to the men,
who at sight of her stopped suddenly and asked what she was doing there and who she had with her.
"'My brother, Charlie, and Captain Carlton,
the man whom you sought at Uncle Paul's,'
she answered fearlessly,
as she held with a firm grasp
the dangerous-looking weapon which she knew how to use.
"'And pray what may you be doing with the Yankee?'
asked one of the courser of the men,
and Maud replied,
"'I am standing between him and just such creatures as you are.'
While Tom grasping her shoulder's head,
"'Step aside, Maud, I cannot endure this.
"'You, a girl, defending me,
"'I must go out. Let me pass.'
"'To certain death?
"'Never,' Maud replied,
"'thrusting him back with a strength-born of desperation.
"'Charlie, who had roused from his sleep
"'and fully comprehended what was going on,
"'caught Tom around the neck and nearly strangled him as he said.
"'Let Maud alone, Captain Carlton.
"'They'll not harm her.
"'They would only shoot you down for nothing.'
"'Thus hampered and importuned,
"'Tom stood back a little,
while Maude held a parley with her besiegers,
threatening to shoot the first man who should attempt to pass her.
She did not think of danger to herself,
and she stood firmly at her post,
while the men consulted together as to the best course to be pursued.
And while they talked,
and Maude stood watchful and dauntless,
the flames of Paul Haverill's house rose higher in the heavens,
and strange ominous sounds were heard in the distance.
Sounds as of many horsemen riding for dear life
with shouts and excited voices,
and Maude became aware of some
sudden influence working upon the crowd around her.
Then a band of cavalry dashed into sight and all was wild hurry and consternation.
But above the din of the strife without, Tom Carlton caught sounds which made his heart
leap up and springing forward past Maude Devere, he exclaimed,
Thank God the Federals have come.
We are saved.
Mod, we are saved.
As his tall form emerged into view, a brutal soldier, maddened by the surprise and unavoidable
defeat, leveled his gun and fired,
breaking little whether Tom or Maude was the victim.
The ball cut through the sleeve of Maude's dress,
and grazing her arm enough to draw blood,
lodged harmlessly in the rocks beyond.
At that sight all Charlie's fire was roused,
and the shot which went whizzing through the air
made sure work than did the one intended for Tom Carlton.
Tom was out upon the ledge of rocks by this time,
grasping the hands of the bluecoats
who were a part of a company sent out to Reconoiter,
and who had reached Paul Haverill's house
just after the rebels had left it.
At first they had tried to extinguish the flames, but finding that impossible they had followed the enemy,
most of whom were made prisoners of war.
Some months before, John Sims had been transferred from the Army of the Potomac to the Army of the Cumberland,
and he it was who led his men to the rescue, doing it the more daringly and willingly when he heard who was in danger.
He was a captain now, and he stood grasping Tom Carleton's hand when a piercing shriek rose on the air,
and turning round, the young men saw Maude DeVier bending over.
the prostrate form of a soldier whose head she gently lifted up as she moaned bitterly oh arthur arthur how came you here end of chapters thirty two and thirty three chapters thirty four through thirty six of rose mather a tale by mary jane holmes this librovoc's recording is in the public domain thirty four poor arthur he had kept his word and piloted safely across
the mountains the prisoner left in Hetty's cabin.
His arrival at Paul Haverle's burning home had preceded that of the federal troops by twenty
minutes or more, and when he heard of Maude's danger he followed our soldiers up the hillside
to where Maude held the entrance to the cave. He saw her and tried to make his voice heard,
but it was lost amid the strife and noise of the conflict, and she only knew of his presence
when Charlie with chattering teeth and a face as white as ashes clutched her dress frantically
and said,
"'Come, sister, come this way to Arthur.
Somebody shot him.
Do you think he will die?'
Quick as lightning the remembrance of the thought
which had yet scarcely been a thought
of just such a contingency as this flashed over Maud,
sweeping away all the pain, the terror,
the shrinking she had felt when she contemplated
the fulfillment of her promise to Arthur Turnbridge.
He was lying there at her feet,
and the grass beneath him was all a pool of blood,
while his dim eyes showed that the objects around him were now but faintly discerned.
He saw Maude, though, and when her loud cry met his ear, he smiled a glad, grateful smile,
and said to her as she knelt beside him and took his head in her lap.
You are sorry, Maude. It was a mistake. You did love me some.
She pressed her quivering lips to his and said again,
Oh, Arthur, Arthur, how came you here?
Arthur knew he was dying, but shaking off all thought of his own pain, he explained to
Maude how he came there.
The man, you remember, I got him through, and I am not sorry, for he told me of a blind
mother and six little children dependent upon him away off somewhere among the Ohio
hills.
Think if they had been left without support.
I am glad I saved him, even if it cost my life.
And still, it is hard to die, Maude, just as you are beginning to be.
love me, for you are, and if I had lived you would have kept your promise to me.
Yes, Arthur, I would, and Maude's white fingers threaded the bloody hair and moved softly
over the ghastly face.
Who did it, Arthur? she asked, and Arthur's face flushed to a purple hue as with a moan,
he said. Don't ask me. There was a mistake. I had taken no part in the fray, except to knock
knock down the ruffian who fired at you. I was standing right behind him.
Yes, there was a mistake.
Oh, Maude, it was a mistake.
He kept repeating the words while Maude tried to stop the blood flowing so freely from the wound in his temple.
The ball had entered there but had not penetrated to the brain, and he retained his consciousness to the last,
smiling once kindly on Charlie, who half-frantic bent over him and said,
Yes, Arthur, it was a mistake.
Oh, Arthur, oh, Maude, and you two were engaged.
I did not know it before.
Then a bright flush
crept into Maud's white face,
for she knew the tall shadow on the grass
beside her belonged to Captain Carlton,
and he, she guessed, was thinking of last night
in the cave.
He did think of it, but only for a moment,
and then his thoughts were merged in his great
anxiety for Lieutenant Arthur,
who he saw was dying.
Arthur knew he was there and smiled
when he asked if he felt much pain.
"'None with Maud beside me.'
She was to have been my wife, weren't you, Maude?
Yes, Arthur, I was to have been your wife.
She spoke it openly, frankly, as if by doing so she was seeking to atone for an error,
and the eyes lifted to Tom's face had in them something defiant as if she would say,
I mean it, I would have been his wife.
But she met only pity in Tom's looks, pity for her,
and pity for the young man dying among the mountains on that soft summer morning,
when the whole world seemed so at variance with a doubt.
death like that. It was a strange scene, and one which those who witnessed it never could forget.
The broad level platte on the mountainside, the mounted horsemen, the group of prisoners,
the beautiful queenly girl whose lap pillowed the head of the dying soldier, while her brilliant
eyes swept floods of tears which with quick nervous movements of her fingers she swept away.
Beside her was Charlie, his face whiter than that of the dying man, and his muscles working
painfully as if he was forcing back some terrible pang or cry of agony.
Tom Carlton, too, and Paul Haverill, who had later joined the group and stood looking
sadly on, while toward the south the smoke and flame of his own house was ascending, and in
the east the early morning was bright and fresh with the summer's golden sunshine.
And there on the mountainside they waited and watched, while the young lieutenant talked faintly
of his distant home where the news would carry so much sorrow.
Tell father I died believing.
in our cause, and were I to live my life over, I should join the Southern Army, but it's wrong
about the prisoners. We ought not to abuse those who fall into our hands. I've loved you,
Maude, for so long. Remember me when I am gone. Not for anything brilliant there was about me,
but because I loved you so well, and died in carrying out the work you gave me to do.
Oh, Arthur, Arthur, speak some word of comfort too.
me or I shall surely die.
It was a mistake,
Charlie whispered as he crept close
to Arthur's side.
The dying man's eyes rested
inquiringly for a moment in Charlie's face,
then lighted up with a sudden joy.
Charlie, Charlie, come close, he whispered.
Bend your ear to my lips.
Maud must not hear me.
His head was still lying on Maud's lap,
but he spoke so low to Charlie
that she did not hear the question asked.
She only knew that Charlie started quickly, and throwing one arm across her neck as if to save her from some evil said promptly energetically.
No, no, Arthur, no!
Then the quivering lips went down again to Arthur's ear and Maude caught the word, mistake, and that was all.
She did not know or think what it really meant.
It was all a mistake, the terrible war which had brought her so much pain and suffering.
I die easier now.
It was so horrible before.
Poor Charlie.
Don't let it trouble you.
Care for Maude.
She would have been my wife.
Stick to our cause.
You never forsook it,
came faintly for Martha,
and his eyes, when again they rested on Maude's face,
had lost the strange, frightened look
which she had observed when she first came to his side.
He was dying very fast,
and his mind seemed groping for some form of prayer
with which to meet the last great foe.
pray somebody he moaned and paul haverill who wholly overcome with all he had passed through during the last few hours had stood dumb and motionless replied in a choking voice
i am not a praying man but god be with you my boy and land you safely on t'other side where there's no more fighting yes but that isn't our father i used to say it at home came feebly from the white lips and then tom carleton knelt beside the youth whose path had crossed his so often and so strangely and with deep reverence and earnest entreaty commended the departing spirit to the god who deals more gently and mercifully and lovingly with his children than the
they dealt with each other.
Tom thought of Isaac Sims and the noisome filthy room in Libby where he at first learned to
pray, and the thought gave fervor to his prayer, to which Arthur listened intently, his lips
motioning the amen he could not speak, for he had no power of utterance.
Once again they moved with a pleading kind of motion, and Maude stooped over to kiss
them, her long hair falling across the pallid brow where the bloodstains were, and when she
lifted her head up and pushed back her heavy locks, there was the
the seal of death on Arthur's face.
Thirty-five.
The dead and the living.
Of all Paul Haverill's comfortable buildings, house, stables, barn, and a negro quarters,
there was left him only one cabin which the fire had not consumed.
That stood a little distant from the rest and had been occupied by Lois before her husband
died.
It was superior to the other cabins then.
It was neat and tidy now, and where they laid the dead lieutenant in his grey uniform,
with a little flag of stars and bars across.
his breast. This was Charlie's thought, and it was very
meet that he, to the last, had believed in the righteousness of the Confederacy,
should have her sign above him.
There was no other spot except the cabin where Maud could stay, and the entire day and
night she sat by her dead Arthur, whom now that he was dead, she cherished in her heart
as a martyr and a hero, questioning even the ground on which she had hitherto stood so
firmly, and asking herself if, after all, the South was so very far out of the way, or if the
Union were worth the fearful price the Southern people were paying for it.
Maad did not know herself in this mood. It was so unlike all her former theories, and more than
once she pressed her hot hands to her still haught her head, and asked if she was going mad.
Crouched beside Maude with his blue eyes fixed upon her with a pitying remorseful look was Charlie.
Poor Maude! Poor sister! I am so sorry. I never thought. I did not know. You used to
to laugh about him so to Uncle Paul.
I'd give my life to bring him back for you.
Did you love him so very much?
Charlie said in broken sentences,
and then Maid shivered from head to foot,
but made him no reply.
She had not loved him so very much,
but his violent death and all the horrors attending it
had shaken her terribly,
and could he have come back to life she would have tried to love him,
and with her iron will would have crushed that other love,
the very knowledge of which had made her heart throb with so much joy,
but the dead come not to life again and the next morning they buried arthur turn bridge in the grassy enclosure where paul haverl's wife was sleeping with the infant son who had he lived would have been just arthur's age
the blue-coated soldiery who had been his deadly foes paid him every military honor possible within their means even marching to his grave behind the stars and bars which lay upon his coffin but when they came back from the burial they bore the national flag whose folds that peaceful summer night floated in the breeze from the top
of Lois's cabin. Very kind and gentle and pitiful was Tom's demeanor toward Maude.
During the day and the night when she had sat by Arthur in Lois's cabin he had not been near her,
but after all was over he went to her, and with the authority of a friend and brother
insisted that she should take the rest she needed so much. And Maude gave way at the sound of his
soothing, quieting voice, and with a flood of tears did what he bade her do.
And then Tom sat by her and bathed her throbbing.
head and smoothed her beautiful hair, and paid back in part the services she had rendered him
when he lay sick in Squire Turnbridge's house.
Maud was not ill, only exhausted, both physically and mentally, the exhaustion showing itself
in the quiet, listless state into which she lapsed, paying but little attention to what
was passing around her and offering no suggestion or remonstrance when told of her uncle's
plan to accompany Captain Sims and his men to Knoxville.
Over Paul Haverill, too, a change had passed.
the attack upon him by his old friends and neighbors though long expected had been sudden and terrible when it came and as he watched the burning of the house which had been his so long he felt that every tie which bound him to the old place was severed
then came swiftly the fearful tragedy of the mountains when arthur was brought to him dead stunned and bewildered by the startling events which had followed each other so rapidly paul was hardly able to counsel for himself and assented readily to the plan which had really originated with captain carleton
who had another scheme underlying that,
but who suggested both so skillfully
that Paul Haverill fancied they were his own ideas
and gave them as such to Mod.
They would go to Knoxville with their soldiers, he said,
thence to Nashville.
They had some relatives living there,
and after resting for a little,
they would continue their journeyings north,
going perhaps as far as New York.
I always wanted to travel north, he said,
but my affairs kept me at home.
Now I have no affairs.
My neighbors have relieved me of such commodities, and I want to get away from a spot where I have witnessed such dreadful things.
We all need change. You, Mod, more than I, and Charlie more than either. I don't know what has come over the boy.
That horrible night and morning were too much for him.
Maude knew that so far as Charlie was concerned, her uncle had spoken truly.
Charlie was greatly changed and his eyes had in them a scared look, as if every detail of the horrors of the fight on the mountain.
had stamped itself indelibly upon his mind, and was never for an instant forgotten.
He needed a change of place and scene. And as she could not return to Arthur's desolate home,
whether the sad news had been sent at once, Maud assented to the Nashville arrangement,
and in three weeks was comfortably settled at a Nashville hotel with Lois as her attendant.
Her uncle, Charlie and Captain Carlton were with her, the latter constantly putting off his
journey to Rockland where they were so anxiously waiting for him.
He had written to Rose immediately after his arrival at Nashville,
telling her of all that had transpired and speaking of Maude Devere as one whom he hoped to make his wife.
This time the letter went safely, and Rose replied at once, urging Tom to come home
and insisting that Mr. Haverill, Maud, and Charlie should accompany him.
They saved Will's life as well as yours, Rose wrote.
I have a right to them all and especially to the noble Maude.
Bring her to me, Tom, and let me coax back the color to her dear face and the brats.
to her eyes. I shall come myself and get her if she refuses.
Maud had never known the companionship of a sister, had never had a single intimate
girlfriend except Nettie Turnbridge who died. Independent, strong-willed and self-reliant,
she had cared but little for any society except that which she found with nature in the
wild mountains of Tennessee. But now, broken and shocked and shorn of some of her strength,
she longed for sympathy and companionship, and something in Rose Mather's sprightly letter
made her heart yearned toward the little lady who had written it,
and the pleasant home which Rose described as beautiful with the summer bloom.
I will think about it by and by, she said to her uncle,
but for the present it is nice to rest here in Nashville.
So for a time longer they lingered in Tennessee,
while Rose waited impatiently for them and fretted at the delay.
34. Andersonville Prisoners
This seems to be one of the worst cases we have had.
I doubt if his mind will survive the horrors he has endured, even if his body does.
Poor fellow, his mother would not recognize him now.
This was what the physician at Annapolis said to Mrs. Sims of a miserable emaciated skeleton,
which had come up from Andersonville with the last arrival of prisoners.
While we in the mountains of Tennessee were tracing the wanderings of Will Mather and Captain Carlton,
Mrs. Sims and Annie had stood untiringly at their posts beside the sick and dying soldiers
who had learned to bless and watch for the stern widow,
and to love and worship the beautiful Annie Graham.
And well had she earned such appreciation,
for she had been most faithful to the wretched ones committed to her care,
faithful both to body and soul,
and in the better world she knew there was waiting
to welcome her more than one,
whose darkened mind she had led to the fountain of all light.
And Annie had made a vow to stay till from that foul southern prison
where twenty-eight thousand men had died,
there came to her, the one for whom she always looked so anxiously when your arrivals came,
her blue eyes running rapidly over each wasted form, and then filling with tears when their
scrutiny was found to be in vain. James Carleton had never been heard from since that letter
sent to her so long ago, and Hope had died out of Annie's heart when at last, with widow Sims,
she stood by the cot where lay the insensible form of which the physician had spoken so discouragingly.
It was the figure of a young man
who must once have been finely formed
with handsome face and hair and eyes.
The latter were closed now,
and only the lids moved with a convulsive motion
as Annie bent over him.
The dark hair, matted and coarse and filthy,
had curled in rings about the bony forehead,
but had been cut away when the bath was given,
and the closely shorn head was like many other heads
which Annie Graham's hands had touched,
gently, tenderly, as they now moved over this one,
trying to infuse some life into the breathing skeleton.
He was to be her charge.
He was in her division,
and Mrs. Sim's keen gray eyes scanned Annie curiously
as she bent over the poor fellow.
He was helpless as an infant,
and Annie nursed him much as she would have nursed a baby
whose life hung on a thread.
He had been there four days,
and only a faint moaning sound
had given token of life or consciousness.
But at the close of the fourth day,
as Annie sat chafing the pulseless fingers
where the gray skin hung so loosely,
the eyes opened for a moment and were fixed upon her face.
There was no consciousness in them.
No recognition of her presence,
nothing but the strained, hungry, despairing look
Annie had seen in the eyes of so many of our prisoners,
and which to a greater or less degree was peculiar to them all.
Annie saw this look, and then underneath it all she saw something more.
What it was she could not tell,
but it brought back to her those moonlight nights upon the beach at New London,
and that other night of more recent date when she sat with Jimmy Carlton beneath the Rockland sky
and heard his passionate words of love, and saw his soft, black eyes kindle with earnestness
and then grow sad and sorrowful with disappointment. There was no kindling in them now,
no ardent passion or heat of love, but a certain softness and brightness, and even sauciness,
lingered still and told Annie at last who it was.
"'Oh, merciful, father, it is Jimmy,' she said,
and unmindful of any who might be looking on,
she bent down and kissed the sunken cheeks from which the flesh was gone.
She had expected him so long
and grown so weary and hopeless with expectations unfulfilled
that she could scarcely believe it now,
or realize that the half-dead wretch before her
was once the lively, humorous teasing Jimmy Carlton.
How she pitied him,
and how her heart throbbed
that she thought of the suffering he must have endured
ere he reached this state of apparent imbecility.
Then, as she remembered what the physician said about his mind,
she dropped upon her knees,
and, clasping her hands over her face,
prayed earnestly that God would remove the darkness
and wholly restore the man whom she loved so dearly.
Do you think he will die?
She asked Mrs. Sims, who had come for a moment to her side.
You know him, then?
I was wondering that an old woman like me
should see clearer than you.
I mistrusted from the first, Mrs. Sims answered, and then to Annie's eager question, she replied,
It will be almost a miracle if we do get any sense into that brain or flesh upon these bones,
but we'll do the best we can. Her words were not very encouraging, and Annie's tears fell like
rain upon the face of the man who gave no sign that he knew where he was, or who was bending
over him. Oh, how he had longed for the air of the north,
as his face daily grew thinner, grayer, and more corpse-like, while his flesh seemed shriveling
and drying on his bones. Bill Baker had done what he could to ameliorate his condition,
done too much, in fact, and as the result he suddenly found himself shorn of his privileges
and an inmate again of that dreadful prison. Even then he clung to and cared for Jimmy,
until the pangs of starvation and the pains of sickness made him forgetful of all but
himself. And there they pined and wept and waited until the day of their release, when Bill
was too ill to be removed and was left in charge of a humane family who kindly promised to care
for him until he was better. From a Rockland soldier who had been taken prisoner at the Battle of
the Wilderness, Jimmy had heard that Mrs. Graham was at Annapolis, and then, oh, how he longed for the
time when it might be his fate to be tended and nursed by her. She would do it so gently and so
kindly, and in his dreams the walls of his pestilential prison stretched away to the green fields of
the north, where he walked again with Annie, and felt the clasp of her little hand and the light of her
blue eyes. She was always present with him. She or the little Lulu of Pequot memory. Somehow these
two were strangely mixed, and when his mind began to totter as the physical strain on it became
too great, the two faces were united in one body, and both bent lovingly over him, just as Annie Graham was
doing now when he was past knowing or caring who ministered to him.
A vague suspicion he had at intervals that in some respects there was a change,
that his bed was not the filthy sandbank, nor his covering the pitiless sky.
Gradually, too, there came a different look upon his face.
The colour was changing from the dingy grey to a more life-like hue.
Flesh was showing a little beneath the skin, and the dark hair began to grow,
and Annie watered the tiny curls with bitter tears, for as proof of
the terrible life whose horrors will never half be written, the once black hair was coming
out streaked with gray. They knew in Rockland that he was at Annapolis, but Annie had peremptorly
forbidden either Mrs. Carlton or Rose to come. They could do no good, she wrote. Jimmy would not
know them, and they might be in the way. They were constantly expecting Tom from Tennessee,
with Maud DeVier and her friends, and so they remained at home the more willingly and joining
it upon Annie to write them every day, just a line to tell how Jimmy was.
was. The summer rain was falling softly upon the streets of Annapolis, and the cool evening air
came stealing into the room where Annie Graham sat by her patient. There were not so many now in
her ward, and she had more time for Jimmy, by whose bedside every leisure moment was past.
She was sitting by him now, watching him as he slept, and listening breathlessly to his
low murmurings as he seemed to be talking of her and the dreadful prison life. Then he slept more
soundly, and she arranged the light so that it left his face in shadow, but fell full upon her own.
Half an hour passed in this way, and Annie's head was beginning to droop from languor and drowsiness,
when a sudden exclamation startled her, and she looked up to see her patient's eyes fixed upon her,
while, with his finger, he pointed to the window opposite and whispered,
The star is risen again, when I thought it had said forever.
I take it as a good omen, Bill. I shall see her face again.
did he think himself in prison still with that star shining over him and did he take her for bill baker the thought was not a very complimentary one but annie forgot everything in her joy at this evidence of returning reason
jimmy she said softly and she bent her face so close to his that her lips touched his forehead jimmy don't you know that you are in annapolis with me with annie graham you remember annie
she had many a time said these very words in his ear hoping somehow to impress them upon him and now she had succeeded for he repeated them after her slowly and with long pauses like a schoolboy trying to say a half-learned lesson
jimmy don't you know that you are here in annapolis with me with annie graham you remember annie
and as he said them consciousness began to struggle back the black eyes fastened themselves upon annie with a wistful look then they took in her dress her hands folded in her lap the decent covering on the bed the furniture of the room
and then throwing up his arms he felt of his flesh and examined his linen and padded the pillow while still the look of wonder and perplexity deepened on his face suddenly he let his arms drop helplessly then stretched them feebly towards annie and while both chin and lip quivered touch
and the tears streamed from his eyes he whispered clean face clean hands soft pillow and bed with the hunger and thirst and home sickness gone this is yes this must be god's land and she is there with me
he fainted then the shock of coming back to god's land had been too great and for a week or more he paid but little heed to what was passing around him
don't you know me jimmy it's i it's annie mrs graham would say to him as his restless eyes turned upon her and he would repeat after her don't you know me jimmy it's i it's annie
this was a peculiarity of his and it continued until bill baker who had become strong enough to be moved came to annapolis and asked to see the corporal at first the physician refused but annie approved the
plan, hoping for a good result, and she waited anxiously while Bill said cheerily,
"'Hello, old corporal. Rather nice quarters here than that sandbanked down by that infernal nasty
stream.' Bill Baker's voice was the last which in the far-off prison had sounded kindly in Jimmy's
ears, and now, as he heard it again, his face lighted up, and his eyes kindled with something
like their olden fire. "'You know me, corporal? I'm Bill. We've been exchanged. We're up
to Annapolis and Miss Graham is Nassineau, Bill continued, and then Jimmy drew a long breath
and burst into a passionate fit of tears. They'll do him good. They all as did to Andersonville.
He'd hold in till he was fit to burst, and then he'd let him slide and feel better. He'll know you,
Miss Graham, after this. Annie was called away just then to attend to another patient and Bill was
left alone with Jimmy. There were a few broken sentences from the latter, and the
then Bill Baker was heard talking rapidly, but very gently and cautiously, and Jimmy lifted
his head once and looked across the room where Annie was. Better leave him alone a spell till he
thinks it out and gets it arranged, Bill said to Annie. I made him understand where he was and
that you was here, it all right on the main question. And though he'd like to have bust his
byler for a minute, he'll come all straight, I reckon. It was more than an hour before Annie
went to Jimmy again, but
when she did, the eager, joyful look in his eyes told her that she was recognized.
"'Don't speak to me, don't talk,' she said, laying one hand lightly upon the lips which began to move,
while with the other she smoothed the short curls of hair. He kissed the hand upon his lips
and whispered through the fingers. "'Tell me first, was it true? He told me. Do you?'
He did not finish the sentence for Annie understood him, and bending so near to him that no one else could hear,
she said.
Yes, Jimmy, I do.
He seemed satisfied, and something of his old manner came back to him when, later in the day,
Annie tried to straighten the clothes about him and wet and brushed his hair.
Look like a hippopotamus, don't I?
He asked, touching his thick-skinned face.
Not half as much as you did, Annie replied,
and the first smile her face had worn for weeks glimmered around her lips,
for she knew now the danger was past and Jimmy Carlton would live.
End of chapters 34 through 36.
Chapter 37 and 38 of Rose Mather, A Tale by Mary Jane Holmes.
This Librevox recording is in the public domain.
37. In Rockland
The warm, bright November day was wearing to its clothes.
The purple haze of the Indian summer lay around the hilltops,
and the soft golden sunlight fell softly upon the grass,
and the few autumnal flowers which had a skis
the recent storm. The grounds around the Mather Mansion were looking almost as beautiful as in the
early summer, for the grass, invigorated by the rain was fresh and green again, and the
brilliant foliage of the trees which dotted the lawn made up for the loss of the flowers.
Even these last were not lacking indoors, for the hot house had been robbed of its costliest flowers,
which filled the whole house with perfume, and made Maud d'Avier start with surprise when she first
entered the parlors. It takes me back to you.
my southern home, she said to Rose, who standing on tiptoe, fastened a half-open lily in her hair,
going into ecstasies over the effect, and thinking to herself that Maude Devere was the most
regal creature she had ever seen. Maud had been in Rockland three weeks, and Rose was already
as much in love with her as if she had known her all her life. At first she had dreaded a little
to meet the fearless heroine of the mountains. A girl who had held a revolver at the heads of both
federal and confederate, who in the night had ridden twenty miles on horseback to conduct a party of
refugees to a place of safety and had guarded the entrance of the cave in the face of a furious mob,
must be something very formidable, or at least something unlike all Rose's ideas of what a
lady gently born should be, and both Rose and her mother had waited nervously for the arrival
of one who they felt sure was to be the wife of Tom. Nothing definite had been said upon the
subject since Arthur died, but it was tacitly understood by all parties that Maude Devere was
sometime to be Maude Carlton, and Tom was allowed to pay her attentions which could only be paid to
his fiancée. In a great flutter of spirits, Rose had heard of Maude's arrival at the Monterhouse,
and immediately after dinner had driven down to see her accompanied by Will, who, if possible,
was more anxious than herself to pay his respects to Maude. She was kneeling by Charlie's
couch when the party entered, but she rose at once and came forward with the most beautiful
carnation staining her cheeks and a look of modesty in her brilliant eyes.
She wore a long, trailing dress of heavy silk and stood so erect, and held her head so high
that she seemed taller than she really was.
Taller than Tom, Rose feared. But as he stepped up to her, she saw he had the advantage of her
by at least four inches, and thus reassured she drew a long breath of relief.
Then, as thoughts of all her husband and brother had been saved from by this heroic girl came over her,
she sprang toward Maude and, winding her arms around her neck, sobbed hysterically,
but never spoke one word.
"'What is it? What are you crying for?'
"'Mod asked, petting her as if she had been a little child.
"'Oh, I don't know.
"'The sight of you who have done so much for the war and been so brave
"'makes me seem so little, so small, so mean beside you, Maude Devere.'
Rose replied brokenly, and then Maude's eyes filled with tears, and she hugged the sobbing
little creature whom from that moment she loved so fondly.
She too had dreaded this meeting, for she knew that Rose's mother and her mother were
both women of the highest culture, and she felt that they might criticize and perhaps condemn
one who had lived so long among the pines of North Carolina and the mountains of Tennessee.
But Rose's manner divested her of all fear, and in a moment she resumed that unconscious air
superiority to all else around her, which was part of herself.
Queenly was the word which best suited her looks and her manners, and Rose paid homage to her
as to a queen, and told her that she loved her and how much she had thought of her, and how
anxious her mother was to see her and how happy they would all be when Jimmy and Annie came
home. There had been daily visits to the Monteur since then, and Mrs. Carlton had met the
beautiful mod and mentally approved of Tom's choice. Charlie, too, had been petted and caressed,
his blue eyes opened with wonder, as he saw what northern women were like, and remembered his
prejudice against them. He liked the northerners, he said, but he was loyal to the southern
cause and listened with flashing eyes and crimson cheeks, to all he continually heard of the
sure defeat and disgrace of the Confederacy. Matters were in this wise when the day came on which
Annie was expected home with Jimmy. Great preparations had been made for that arrival. In Rockland,
there was more than one prisoner who had been nursed by Annie Graham, and her name was spoken with
reverence and love by the various vagabond that walked the streets. They had not made a demonstration
in a long, long time, but they were going to make one now, and the honors which poor George
saw in fancy awarded to himself were to be given to his wife. Jimmy, too, whose terrible
sufferings had excited so much commiseration, was to have his share of consideration. Bill Baker, who had been
home for a week and was as usual the most active spirit of all, suggested that when they flung out
the banner on which was inscribed, Honor and welcome to Annie Graham, they should give three
cheers for Mr. Carlton, too. Be'en, as he said, that they are about as good as one.
Prompt to the moment when it was due, the train swept round the Rockland Curb and stopped at the
depot where a large concourse of people was gathered. They had not expected the widow Sims,
and when her green veil and straw bonnet appeared on the platform,
the foremost of the group looked a little disappointed,
while the widow's face darkened as she saw the waiting multitude
and guessed why they were there.
Annie had appeared by this time, and at sight of her the tongues were loosened,
and deafening shouts of welcome greeted her on every side.
The flag bearing her name was held aloft.
The cannon in the adjoining field sent forth its bellowing roar,
and the band struck up the sweet refrain of Annie Laurie,
while the voices of the Andersonville prisoners who had been Annie's charge sang the last line,
and for Bonnie Annie Graham I would lay me down and die.
Surely this was a coming home which Annie had never looked for,
and with her face flushed with excitement and her eyes shining with tears,
she stood in the midst of the shouting throng, gazing wonderingly from one to the other
and realizing nothing clearly, except the firm clasp upon her arm.
It was Jimmy's hand, and Jimmy himself leaned upon.
her as the crowd coupled his name with hers and herod for James Carlton and Annie Graham.
"'And the widder Sims? I swan if it's fair to leave her out. She did some tall
nusson down to Annapolis,' Bill Baker said. And then the widow was cheered and she acknowledged
the compliment with a grim smile and wondered when folks would quit making fools of themselves
and if Susan wasn't up there somewhere in the jam. Of course she was. T'was like them
to go where the doings was.
And while she shook the hand of her neighbors,
she kept her eyes on the watch for Susan
and felt a little chagrined that she did not find her.
Susan was at home in the neat little house
which John had bought with his captain's wages so carefully saved.
The same house it was at which Annie Graham
had looked with longing eyes in the commencement of the war.
And in the pleasant chamber which overlooked the town
there was a little boy who had been in Rockland only a week,
and whose existence was yet unknown to the widow.
They had purposely kept it from her,
so she had no suspicion that he was expected,
and the first genuine feeling of happiness
she had known since Isaac died,
she experienced when she was ushered into Susan's room
and the little red-faced thing was laid in her lap.
She had looked askance at the new house
and neat furniture and the pretty curtains,
as so many proofs of them-ruglass's extravagance,
but she was not proof against the white face
which from the pillows smiled so kindly upon her and called her mother.
And she was guilty of kissing her daughter-in-law even before she saw the baby,
her first grandchild whom Susan called Isaac,
although she hated the name and had tacked on to it Adolphus,
with the hope that the future would adjust the name into Adolf,
or something more fanciful than the good plain Bible, Isaac.
And while the widow kissed and wept over her grandson
and felt herself growing young and soft and gentle again,
the crowd around the depot had dispersed,
apart going to their own homes
and a part following the soldiers
and band which escorted Annie Graham
and Jimmy Carlton to the Mather Mansion,
where everything had been made so beautiful for them.
It was a pleasant coming home
and a most ample compensation
for all the weariness and privation
which Annie as hospital nurse had endured,
and she felt that far more was awarded to her
than she deserved.
Mr. Carlton was the one to be honored,
she said.
and her soft blue eyes rested upon the pale tired man who exhausted with his journey and the excitement lay down at once upon the sofa while his mother and rose knelt beside him and kissed and pitied and cried over his poor white face and long bony hands which were almost transparent in their whiteness
maud was not one of the party at the mother mansion that night you ought to be alone the first night she said when rose insisted that she should join them to-morrow i will come round and call on mrs graham and your brother
she had been greatly interested in all the arrangements and was curious to see the woman who had almost been her rival while annie was quite as curious to see her the heroine of the mountains in her letters to annie rose had purposely refrained from mentioning tom's name with maud's so that annie was quite as curious to see her the heroine of the mountains in her letters to annie rose had purposely refrained from mentioning tom's name with maud's so that annie was
ignorant of the real state of things. But she did not remain so long.
Is she so very beautiful? She said to Rose when after supper they were all assembled in the
parlor and Maude was the subject of conversation. Ask Tom, he can tell you, Rose replied,
and by the conscious look on Tom's face Annie guessed the truth at once. That night when the two
brothers were alone in their room, Tom said to Jimmy, well, my boy, I've kept my word. I've waited a
and more. I have given you every chance a reasonable man could ask. Have you made a proper use of your
privileges? Would it do me any good to try and win Annie now? You can try if you like, Jimmy said with a
smile. And then Tom told him of his hopes concerning Maude Devere and Jimmy said to him
saucily, don't you remember I told you once you had had your day? But some lucky dogs have
too. And you, it seems, are one of them.
The Lovers
The next day brought Maud Devere
looking so handsome in her black dress
with her coquettish drab hat
and long drab feather tipped with scarlet
that she reminded Annie of some bright tropical flower
as she came into the room with the sparkle
in her brilliant eyes
and the deep rich bloom upon her cheek.
She had regained her health and spirits rapidly
within the last few weeks,
and even Jimmy, who seldom saw beyond
Annie's fair face and soft blue eyes,
drew a breath of wonder at the queenly girl
who completely overshadowed those around her so far as size and form and physical development were concerned.
But nothing could detract from the calm, quiet dignity of Annie's manner,
or from the pure angelic beauty of her face,
and as the two stood holding each other's hands and looking into each other's eyes,
they made a most striking tableau.
And Mrs. Carlton thought, with a thrill of pride, how well her sons had chosen.
That night, as Maude was walking back to the hotel accompanied by Tom,
He asked her again the question put in the cave of the Cumberland.
I understand about Arthur, he said, but he is dead.
There is no promise now in the way.
I claim you for my own.
Am I wrong in doing so?
That Maud's reply was wholly satisfactory was proved by the expression of Tom Carlton's face
when at last he stopped at the door of the hotel
and by the kiss which burned on Maud's lips long after he had disappeared down the street.
The next afternoon, while Tom was with Maud and both Mrs. Carlton and Rose were out on a shopping expedition,
Annie sat alone with Jimmy in the pleasant little room which had been given to him as a place where he would be more quiet than in the parlor.
Annie had been playing with Rose's boy, the little Jimmy, a handsome, sturdy fellow of nearly a year old, whom the entire household spoiled.
He was already beginning to talk, and having taken a fancy to Annie, he tried to call her name,
and made out of it a tolerably distinct ante, which brought a blush to Annie's face and a teasing smile to Jimmy's.
Come, sit by me a moment, Annie, Jimmy said, when the child had been taken out by his nurse.
Sit on this stool, so, a little nearer to me. There, that's right, he continued, in the tone of
authority he had unconsciously acquired since his convalescence. He was lying upon the couch,
and Annie was sitting at his side and so near to him that his long fingers could smooth and
caress her shining hair, while his saucy eyes feasted themselves upon her face as he asked,
when she really would be the ante of the little boy who called her by that name.
Not till you are able to stand alone, was Annie's reply, and then, for the first time since his
return from Andersonville, Jimmy spoke of that episode in his life at New London, when little
Lulu Howard had stirred his boyish blood and filled his boyish fancy.
Perhaps he wanted to tease Annie, for he said to her,
did like that little blue-eyed loo. That's a fact. I used to think about her all day and dream
about her all night. I wonder where she is now. What would you do if you knew? Annie asked,
and Jimmy replied, I believe I would go miles to see her just to know what kind of a woman
she has developed into. I trust she is not like her aunt. I could not endure her. She
struck me as a hard, selfish, ambitious woman, terribly afraid lest to her.
the world generally should not think Mrs. Scott Belknap all which Mrs. Scott Belknap thought herself
to be. Annie's cheeks were very red by this time, and imputing her heightened color to a cause
widely different from the real one, Jimmy drew her face down to his and kissing the burning
cheek said, "'Of course I should take you with me when I went after Little Lou.'
"'He would hardly find her if you did not,' Annie said, while Jimmy looked inquiringly at her.
Annie had only been waiting for Jimmy to speak of the little Pequot
before making her own confession, and she now said to him abruptly,
Did Lulu look any like me?
Why, yes, I've always thought so.
Only she was younger and had short hair, you know, and short dresses, too.
Annie, Annie, tell me, was she, do you, are you?
Jimmy began, raising himself upright upon the couch
as something in Annie's expression began to puzzle and mystify.
him. Am I what? Annie asked. Am I little Lulu of the Pequod House? My name was Annie Louise Howard
before I married George. My aunt called me Louise. You never inquired my maiden name, I believe?
I suppose you thought I had always been a married woman, but I was a girl of fourteen once and went with
my Aunt Belknap to London and met a boy who called himself Dick Lee, and who was so kind to the orphan girl
that she began to think of him all day and watch for his coming after his school hours.
He was a saucy teasing boy, but Lulu liked him,
and when one day she waited for his promised coming till it grew dark upon the beach,
and the great hotel was lighted up for the evening festivity,
and when other days and nights passed and he neither came nor sent her any word,
and she heard at last from one of his comrades that he had gone home to Boston.
I say, when all this came about, she began to think that she had to think that she had
loved the boy who deceived her so, for he did deceive her in more points than one, as she afterward
learned. His name was not Dick Lee. But Annie, Jimmy began, and Annie stopped him saying,
Wait, Jimmy, till I am through. This is my hour now. I have delayed telling you all this for
various reasons. Your mother knew who I was before I went to Washington, and she excused you as far as
was possible, that I have promised to be your wife is proof that I have forgiven the pangs of
disappointment I endured. For Jimmy, I did suffer for a time. There was so little in the world to
make me happy, and you had been so kind that I fully believed in and trusted you. And when I found
I was deceived, my heart ached as hard, perhaps as the heart of a girl of fourteen can ache
from such a cause. Poor Annie! Poor little Lulu! Jimmy said, as he clasped one of
Annie's hands in his own, and his voice expressed all the sorrow and tenderness he felt for
Annie, who continued. Such childish loves are usually short-lived, you know, but mine was the
first pleasant dream I had known since my parents died and I went to my Aunt Belknap in New Haven.
She meant to be kind, I suppose, and in a certain way she was. She gave me a good education
and every advantage within her means. She took me to Newport and Saratoga and the New York
hotels, and she turned her back on George Graham, whom we met at Long Branch, where he was making
some repairs upon an engine. A mechanic was not her idea of a husband for her niece. She preferred that I
should marry a man of sixty, who had already the portraits of three wives in his handsome house
of Meriden, but then for each portrait he counted over two hundred thousand dollars, and a half a million
covers a multitude of defects and a great many wives. I would not marry that man, and as the result of
my persistent refusal, my life with my aunt became so unbearable that when Providence again
threw George in my way, and he asked me to be his wife, I consented, and I never regretted the
step. He was very kind to me, and I loved him so much that when he died, I thought my heart
died too, for he was my all. Annie was very beautiful in her excitement as she paid this tribute
to her deceased husband, and Jimmy saw that she was beautiful, but felt relieved when she left
George Graham and spoke of Rose, who had come to her like an angel of light and made the
burden easier to bear.
I had no suspicion that she was the suadizant Dick Lee's sister, or that my bore hero
was not Dick Lee until just before you came home for the first time, and then I thought
I must go away, for I did not care to meet you.
But Rose prevented me, and I am glad now that she did.
And I am glad, too, Jimmy said.
your staying has been the means of untold good to me, darling.
It was the memory of your sweet holy life and character
which led me a wretch at Andersonville
to seek the Savior whom you have loved so long.
God has led us both in strange paths.
We have suffered a great deal.
You mentally, I physically, and only what I deserved.
But let us hope that the night has passed
and the morning of our happy future dawning upon us.
We are both young yet, you twenty-three and,
and I only 26.
We have a long life to look forward to,
and I thank God for it.
But most of all, I thank him
for giving me my darling Annie.
My dear little Lulu.
Does Rose know that you are Lulu?
Mrs. Carlton had thought it better
not to add to Rose's excitement
by telling her who Annie was
while Jimmy's fate was shrouded in so much gloom.
Then, after his return,
she decided that Annie should have the satisfaction
of telling herself,
and thus Rose was still in ignorance with regard to Annie's identity with the Pequot.
But Annie told her that night,
and Rose's eyes were like stars as she smothered Annie with kisses,
and it declared it was all like some strange story she had read.
End of chapters 37 and 38.
Chapter 39 of Rose Mather by Mary Jane Holmes.
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39.
Charlie
He did not improve as his sister and uncle hoped he might,
and as the cold weather increased,
they began to talk of taking him to a warmer climate,
but Charlie said,
"'I am as well here as I could be anywhere.
I don't want to be moved about.
Let me stay here in quiet.'
So they made him as comfortable as possible at the hotel,
and Rose and Annie came every day to see him,
and he learned to watch and listen for their coming,
especially that of Annie to whom he took the kindliest.
She knew just how to nurse him, and as she once cared for the poor prisoners, so she now cared for the Southern boy,
who, while acknowledging the kindness of the Northern people, was still as thorough a secessionist as he had ever been.
Actiously he waited for daily news of the progress of Grant's army, refusing to believe that Lee was so closely shut up in Richmond that escape was impossible.
Blindly, like many of his older brethren, he clung to the hope that underlying the whole was some hidden
motive which when in time appear and work good to his cause.
Maud never opposed or disputed with him now, but read him every little item of good for the
South.
But when in the spring the fighting at Petersburg commenced, there were no such items to read,
and Charlie asked no longer for news.
Then there came a never to be forgotten day, when, through the length and breadth of the land,
the glad tidings ran that Richmond had fallen, that Lee with his army was flying from the city
with Grant in hot pursuit.
The war was virtually over,
and from Maine to Oregon
the air was filled with the jubilant notes of victory.
For three long hours
the bells of Rockland rang out their merry peels,
and at night they kindled bonfires in the streets,
and on the grass plat by the well in widow Sims' yard,
they burned the box,
which four years before poor Isaac had put away
for just such an occasion as this.
All the morning of that memorable Monday,
while the bells were ringing and the crowds were shouting in the streets,
Charlie Devere had lain with his white face to the wall,
and his lips quivering with the grief and mortification he felt that it should have ended thus.
Occasionally, as the shouts grew louder, he stopped his ears
so as to shut out what seemed to him like exaltations over the death of so many hopes.
But when Annie came in and told Maude of the bonfire they were to have that night in Mrs. Sim's yard
and asked her to come for the sake of the boy whose box was to be burned, Charlie began to listen.
And as he listened, he grew interested in Isaac Sims and the grass-platt by the well,
and the box hidden in the barn, and he expressed a wish to be present when it was burned.
Maud, too, had heard of Isaac Sims before.
She knew that he had been captured by Arthur Turnbridge,
but she did not know the particulars of his prison life,
or how generously Tom had sacrificed his chance of liberty
for the sake of the poor, sick boy, until Annie told the story,
to which she listened with swimming eyes and a heart throbbing with love and respect for her.
lover, who had been so noble and unselfish.
She would go to the bonfire on the grass plat, she said, and Charlie should go too.
He had wept passionately at the recital of Isaac's sufferings in Libby, but still found
some excuse for the South generally.
It was not the better class of people, he said, who did these things.
It was the lower ignorant ones whose instincts were naturally brutal.
And neither Maud nor Annie contradicted him, though the eyes of the former flashed
indignantly, and her nostrils quivered as they always did when the sufferings of our prisoners
were mentioned in her presence. That night when the stars came out over Rockland, a party of
twelve or more was congregated at the house of the widow Sims, where, but for the sad memory
of Isaac, whose soldier coat hung on the wall, with a knapsack carried into battle, all would have
been joy and hilarity at the prospect of certain peace. But death had been in that household,
just as it had crept across many and many another threshold.
and mingled with the rejoicing were tears and sad regrets for the dead of our land whose graves were everywhere,
from the shadowy forests of Maine, and the vast prairies of the west to the sunny plains of the south where they fought and died.
There were twenty-five buried in the Rockland graveyard,
and others than the party assembled at Mrs. Sims thought of the vacant chairs at home,
and the sleeping dead whose ears were deaf to the notes of peace floating so musically over the land.
Charlie's face was very white, and there were tears.
in his eyes as he laid his thin white hands reverently upon the box, examining its make,
and bending close to the name and date and words cut upon it. Isaac Sims, Rockland, April 25, 1861.
This box to be burned. There was a blank which the boy who had cut the words with his
jackknife could not supply. He did not know when the box would be burned. Then it was April
1861. Now, it was April 1865. Four years of strife and bloodshed, thousand and thousands of
desolate hearth stones and broken hearts, and lifeless forms both north and south, and the end had come at last.
But the boy Isaac was not there to see it. It was not for him to fill up that blank,
but for the southern boy Charlie Devere, who took his pencil from his pocket and wrote, April 3,
to celebrate the fall of Richmond and the end of the Confederacy.
Charles Devere.
Who shall light the pile?
Tom asked when all was ready.
And Charlie answered,
Let me, please. Surely I may light the fire.
And he did light it, and then, with the rest,
looked on while the smoke and the flames curled up toward the starry heavens
where the boy Isaac had gone,
and where Charlie in his dreams that night saw him so distinctly
and grasped his friendly hand.
After that night Charlie failed rapidly,
and often in his sleep he talked to someone who seemed to be Arthur
and said it was a mistake, a dreadful mistake.
At last as Maud sat by him one day,
the fifth after the bonfire on the grass plat,
he said to her suddenly,
"'Mod, if a man kills another and didn't mean to, is it murder?'
"'No, it is manslaughter.
Why do you ask?'
"'Mod said, and Charlie continued.
Don't hate me, Maude, nor tell anybody, for I killed Arthur myself.
I shot him right through the head, and,
Maude, he thought it was you.
Oh, Charlie, Charlie!
And Maude shrieked aloud as she bent over her brother, who continued.
Not when he died, but at first, when he lay there on the grass,
moaning and looking at you so sorry and grieved like,
don't you remember?
Yes, Maude gasped, and Charlie went on.
You know that one of the rest of the rest of you.
ruffians fired at Captain Carlton and hit you, and then I could not help paying him back.
He was taller than Arthur who stood behind him and knocked him down in time to take the ball
himself. He knew you had a revolver, and he thought it was you, though an accident, of course,
and it made him so sorry that you should be the one to kill him. But I told him different.
When I whispered to him, you know? I said it was I, and his eyes put on such a happy look.
I know he forgave me, for he said so.
but my heart has ached ever since with thinking about it.
I could not forget it, and I've asked God to forgive me so many times.
I think he has, and that when I die I shall go where Isaac Sims has gone.
I like him, Maude, if he was a Yankee and fought against us,
and I like Mrs. Graham so much,
and Mr. James Carleton and the Mathers and Mrs. Sim some,
but I can't like that dreadful Bill Baker with his slang words in vulgar,
ways. He makes me so sick, and I feel so ashamed that we should be beaten by such as he.
You were not beaten by such as he? You are mistaken, Charlie. The Northern Army was composed
of many of the noblest men in the world. There are Bill Bakers everywhere, as many south as
North. It is foolish to think otherwise. Maud was growing hot and eloquent in her defense
of the Northern Army, but Charlie's gentle, low-spoken reply stopped her.
Perhaps it is.
I got terribly perplexed, thinking it all over and how it has turned out.
I think, yes, I know I am glad the Negroes are free.
We never abuse them.
Uncle Paul never abused them.
But there were those who did.
And if slavery is a divine institution as we were taught to believe,
it was a broken-down and badly conducted institution,
and not at all as God meant it to be managed.
Charlie paused a moment, and when he spoke again it was of Tom, who had been so kind to him.
He is like a brother to me, Maude, and I am glad you are to be his wife.
And, Maude, don't wait after I am dead, but marry Captain Carlton at once.
You will be happier then.
With tears and kisses, Maude bent over her brother, who after that confession seemed so
much brighter and more cheerful that hope sometimes whispered to Maude that he would live.
Annie was almost constantly with him now.
He felt better and stronger with her, he said,
and death was not so terrible.
So, just as she had soothed and comforted
and nursed many a poor fellow from Andersonville,
Annie comforted and nursed Charlie Devere
until that dreadful Saturday
when the telegraphic wires brought up from the south
the appalling news that our president was dead,
murdered by the assassin's hand.
No, no, not that.
We did not do that.
Charlie cried, with a look of horror in his blue eyes when he heard the dreadful story,
and that the southern leaders were suspected of complicity in the murder.
It would make me a unionist if I believed my people capable of that.
But they are not. It cannot be.
Charlie kept repeating to himself, while the great drops of sweat stood upon his white forehead,
and his pulse and heartbeat so rapidly that Maud summoned the attending physician,
who shook his head doubtfully at the great change for the worse in his patient.
I had hoped at least to keep him till the warm weather, but I am afraid those bells will be the death of him, he said, as he saw how Charlie shivered and moaned with each sound of the tolling bells.
Perhaps they would stop if you were to ask them and tell them why, Annie suggested to Maude, but Charlie who heard it exclaimed,
No, let them toll on. It is proper they should mourn for him. The South would do the same if it was our precedent who had been murdered.
So the bells told on, and the public buildings were draped in mourning, and the windows of Charlie's room were festooned with black, and he watched the somber drapery as it swayed in the April wind and talked of the terrible deed, and the war which was ended, and the world to which so many thousands had gone during the long four years of strife and bloodshed.
I shall be there to-morrow, he said, and then perhaps I shall know why all this has been done, and if we were so wrong.
Maude and Annie, Paul Haverill and Tom Carleton watched him through the night, and just as the beautiful Easter morning broke and the sunlight fell upon the Rockland Hills, the boy who to the last had remained true to the southern cause lay dead among the people who had been his foes.
At Maude's request they buried him by the side of Isaac Sims, and Captain Carlton ordered a handsome monument on which the names of both the boys were cut.
Isaac Sims, who had died for the North, and Charlie DeVier, who, if need be, would have given his life for the South,
each holding entirely different political sentiments, but both holding the same living faith which made for them an entrance to the world where all is perfect peace,
and where we who now see through a glass darkly shall then see face to face, and know why these things are so.
Six months had passed since Charlie DeVier died.
Paul Haverle, Will Mather, and Captain Carlton
had been together on a pilgrimage to Paul's old neighborhood
where the people, wiser-grown,
welcomed back their old friend and neighbor,
and strove in various ways to atone
for all which had been cruel and harsh
and their former dealing toward him.
The war had left them destitute,
so far as Negroes and money were concerned,
but such as they had, they freely offered Paul,
entreating him to stay in their midst and rebuild the homestead,
whose black and ruins bore testimony
to what men's passions,
will lead them to do when roused and uncontrolled.
But Paul said no.
He could never again live where there was so much to remind him of the past.
A little way out of Nashville was a beautiful dwelling-house,
which, with a few acres of highly cultivated land, was offered for sale.
Maud had spoken of the place when she was in the city and had said,
I should like to live there.
And Tom had remembered it, and when he found it for sale,
he suggested to Mr. Haverill that they buy it as a winter of
residence for Maude. And so what little property Paul Haverill had left was invested in
fair oaks as the place was called. And Tom gave orders that the house should be refurnished
and ready for himself and bride as early as the first of November. As far as was possible,
Will and Tom found and generously rewarded those who had so kindly befriended them in their perilous
journey across the mountains. But some were missing, and only their graves remain to tell the
story of their wrongs. This trip was much.
made in June, and early in August, the whole Carlton family went to New London, where Jimmy improved
so fast that few would have recognized the pale, thin, invalid of Andersonville notoriety in the
active red-cheeked, saucy-eyed young man who became the life of the Pequot House, and for whom
the gay bells practiced their most bewitching coquettries. But these were all lost on Jimmy, who
was seldom many minutes away from the fair, blue-eyed woman who the girls had learned was a widow,
and of whom they at first had no fears. But they changed their minds when day after day saw the
handsome Carlton at her side, and night after night found him walking with her along the road,
or sitting on the rocks and watching the tide come in, just as he had done years ago when both
were younger than they were now. They lived those days over again, and in their perfect happiness
almost forgot the sorrow and pain which had come to them both since they first looked out upon
the waters of New London Bay.
and Maude were there too, together with Rose Mather and Will, and Susan Sims and John.
A well-timed investment in oil stock, a lucky turn of the wheel, and Captain John Sims awoke one
morning with $100,000. He did not believe it at first, and Susan did not believe it either.
But when John, who, with all his good sense, was a little given to show, or as his mother expressed
it, to making a fool of himself, brought her a set of diamonds handsomer than Rose Mous.
and bought her a new carriage and took her to saratoga with an english nurse for little ike she began to realize that something had happened to her which brought rose mather's envied style of living within her means
she soon grew tired of saratoga she was too much alone in that great crowd and when she heard that the carlton's were at new london she went there with her diamonds and horses and patronized by rose who took her at once under her protection she made a few pleasant acquaintances and ever after talked
confidently of her summer at the seaside.
She did not care to go again, however.
She and John were not exactly like people born to high life, she said,
and so she settled quietly down in her pretty home and made as the widow Sim said,
Quite a decent woman, considerin she was one of them ruglaces.
Bill Baker was a stir very early one bright October morning,
his face indicating that some important event was pending in which he was to act apart.
It was a double wedding at St. Luke's, and Maud and Annie were the brides.
There was a great crowd to witness a ceremony, and Annie's boys, whom she had nursed at Annapolis,
were the first to offer their congratulations to Mrs. James Carlton, who looked so fair and pure and
lovely, while Maud, whose beauty was of a more brilliant order, seemed to sparkle and flash
as she bent her stately head in response to the greetings given to her.
upon Bill, who had turned hack driver, devolved the honor of taking the bridal party to and from the church,
and his horses were covered with the federal flag, while conspicuous in his buttonhole,
was a small one made of white silk and presented to him by a girl whom he called M,
and who blushed every time she heard Bill's voice ordering the crowd to stand back in his horses to
show their oats, as he drove from the church with the newly married people.
Their destination was Nashville, where in Maud's beautiful,
home, Jimmy and Annie passed a few delightful weeks, and then returned to Boston to the old Carlton
House on Beacon Street, which had been fitted up for their reception. Mrs. Carlton, Sr., divides her time
between her three children, Tom, Jimmy, and Rose. But her home proper is with Annie in Boston,
where there is now a little Lulu Graham, six months old, and where Rose and Will often go,
while each summer Tom Carleton comes up from Fair Oaks with his beautiful mod, the heroine, of the
Cumberland Mountains
End of Chapter 39
End of Rose Mather by Mary Jane Holmes
