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Episode Date: August 4, 2023The Able McLaughlins by Margaret Wilson audiobook. Genre: family The Able McLaughlins won the Pulitzer Prize for a novel in 1924 in Margaret Wilson's debut work. Aptly described as 'Little House on t...he Prairie - but for adults' the novel follows a group of Scottish families who pioneer the Iowa prairie in the 1860’s. The main storyline concerns Wully, the eldest McLaughlin son, who returns home from the Civil War to find that his sweetheart, Chirstie, has experienced an unspeakable tragedy that will profoundly affect the couple's lives. Their story is one of shame and honor, secrets and guilt, fear and loathing, revenge and forgiveness. But perhaps the stars of the novel are the strong older women such as Wully’s mother, Isobel, whose love and matriarchal strength keeps the family together as well as Chirstie’s stepmother, Barbara, who finds ways to make her good-for-nothing husband keep his promises. Interlaced with the plots are richly detailed descriptions of frontier prairie life, the love that families share, and the relationships within the Scottish immigrant community. For ad-free listening try our premium subscription Chapters (Approximate) (00:00:00) Chapter 01 (00:33:13) Chapter 02 (01:03:42) Chapter 03 (01:34:38) Chapter 04 (02:06:27) Chapter 05 (02:40:58) Chapter 06 (03:04:14) Chapter 07 (03:33:09) Chapter 08 (04:07:40) Chapter 09 (04:34:34) Chapter 10 (05:02:11) Chapter 11 (05:26:20) Chapter 12 (05:57:10) Chapter 13 (06:27:22) Chapter 14 (07:00:18) Chapter 15 (07:21:23) Chapter 16 (07:39:18) Chapter 17 Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
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The Abel McLaughlins by Margaret Wilson. Section 1
The Prairie lay that afternoon, as it had lain, for centuries of September afternoons,
vast as an ocean, motionless as an ocean, coaxed into very little ripples by languid breezes.
Silent as an ocean where only very little waves slipped back into their element.
One might have walked for hours without hearing anything louder than high white clouds casting shadows over the distances,
or the tall slaw grass bending lazily into waves. One might have gone on, startled only by the falling of scarlet swamp lily seeds,
by sudden goldfinches, or the scratching of young prairie chickens in the shorter grasses. For years,
now, not even a baby buffalo had called to its mother in those stretches, or an old squaw
broken ripening wild grapes from the creek thicket. Fifteen years ago, one might have gone west for
months without hearing a human voice. Even that day, a traveler might easily have missed the house,
where little David and the fatter little Sarah sat playing, for it was less in the vastly
about it than one short bubble in a waves crest.
Ten years ago, the children's father had halted his ox team there,
finishing his journey from Erishire,
and his eight boys and girls alighting upon the summer's crop of wild strawberries
had harvested it with shrieks of delight,
which broke forever the immediate part of the century's silence.
A solitary man would have loved.
left the last source of human noise 60 miles behind him, where the railroad ended.
But this far-sighted pioneer had brought with him a strong defense against the hush that maddens.
He had a real house now, the log cabin which he and his nine, his brother and his ten,
his two sisters and their 16 had all lived that first summer,
was now but a mere woodshed adjoining the kitchen.
The house was a fine affair, built from lumber, hauled but 40 miles.
So steadily the railroad crept westward, and finished.
The one half in wild cherry cut from the creek,
and the other half in walnut from the same one source of wood.
Since the day of the first McLaughlin alighting, there had arrived altogether to settle more or less near him, on land bought from the government, his three brothers and four sisters, his wife's, two brothers and one sister, bringing with them the promising sum of sixty-nine children, all valiant enemies of quietness and the fleeing rattlesnakes.
Some of the little homes they had built for themselves could be seen that afternoon, like distant
specks on the ocean. But Sarah and David had no eyes just then for distant specs. They had grown
tired of watching the red calf sleep, and Davy was trying to make it get up. Finally, in self-defense,
it rose, and having found itself refreshed, began gambling or,
about, trying its length of rope, its tail satisfactorily erect. The two had to retreat suddenly
to the doorstep, where Huey sat, so impetuous it grew. Huey was not, like the others, at home because he
was too small to go to school, indeed no, Huey was ten, and at home today because he had been
chilling the day before, with the fever that rose from the newly broken prairie.
The three of them sat quiet, only for a moment.
Why does he frisk his tail so?
Davy asked.
He's praising the Lord, replied Huey, wise and wan.
Is he now? exclaimed Davy, impressed.
Does God like it?
Fine, said Huey.
That was an easy one.
It's in the Psalm.
creeping things in all ye cattle.
Davy sat for some time sharing his maker's pleasure in the antics of happy calves.
Then bored, perhaps like his maker, he turned to other things.
He rose and went down the path towards the road and stood looking down it,
in the direction from which the older children must come, surely soon now, from school.
Only here and there, along that path where they would appear, was the grass not higher than the children's heads. In some places it was higher than a man on horseback. There seemed no children in sight. But wasn't that someone coming down there on the other road?
I see somebody coming on the road, Huey, he called.
You do not, answered Huey.
It wasn't at all likely anybody was coming.
Yet, in case anything so unusual was happening,
he would just have a look.
Sarah waddled after him.
Ship, ahoy!
Was that really something moving down there in the further slough?
The three stood still, peering across the prairie.
hands sheltering eyes, barefooted, the boys in the most primitive of homemade overalls,
Sarah in an apron unadorned, the golden autumn sunshine blowing around them. They stood looking.
Then the homecoming children emerged from the tall grass, into which the younger ones were
strongly forbidden to go, because children sometimes got fatally lost in it, and at this signal,
the three ran to meet them, crying out the news,
gaining the little rise of ground again,
upon which the house stood,
they all paused together to look at whatever it was that drew near.
Mary, the oldest of them, the teacher,
Jesse and Flora, James and Peter.
Yes, there was no doubt about it now.
Tis a team, cried Peter.
Tis a pair of grays,
he added in a moment.
They were all perfectly motionless from curiosity now.
Who had grays in that neighborhood?
There's two men in it, Mary affirms.
Then Peter yells,
One is wearing blue.
They can scarcely breathe now.
Blue, can it be blue?
This is too much for Mary.
Run, Peter, she cries.
Tell mother, get father.
It has the looks of us.
soldier. It is three weeks now since the last battle, since word has come from Wally. The little
girls are jumping about in excitement. The children's shouts had not at all disturbed the mother in the
kitchen, where she sat sewing, until could she believe her ears. They were shouting,
"'Tis Wally, mother, Tis Wally!' She ran out of the house, down the path.
It never is, she says, unsteadily.
But she can see someone in blue, someone standing up, waving a cap now.
She can see his white face.
The children bolt down the road.
She can see him, her black-bearded first-born.
The driver is whipping up the horses.
Home from battles, pale to the lips.
He is in her arms, but she is paler.
"'Run for your father,' she cries, to whoever will heed her.
The children are pulling at him boisterously.
The strange driver is patting his horses, his back to the family reunited.
Hugged and kissed and patted and loved, the bearded wally turns to the stranger.
"'This is Mr. Knight of Tyler, mother. He brought me all the way.'
"'Tis a kind thing you have done,' she exclaims, shaking his hand.
devoutly. Oh, he was a soldier, and he didn't look able to walk so far. You're not sick,
she cries to Wally, scanning his face. Certainly he was not sick now. He could have walked it,
but he was glad he didn't have to, he adds, smiling engagingly at the stranger. They stand
together awkwardly, joy-smitten, looking at one another, excited beyond words.
Then the mother leads the way to the unpainted house, the children hanging to Wally, dancing about.
The 15-year-old Andrew was working in the farther apart to the field just below the house that afternoon,
when he saw, from a distance, his father, called by Peter, suddenly leave his plow and run towards the house,
surely faster than an old man ever runs.
His own team was fly-bitten and restless, and he left it just long enough to see that in front of the house there was a team and a light wagon.
He unhitched his half-broken young steers, urged them impatiently to the nearest tying place, and hurried to the house.
What he saw there made so great an impression on him
that, 57 years later,
when that stranger's grandson was one of the disheartened veterans of the World War,
who came to his office looking for work,
the whole scene rose before him in such poignancy
that he had to turn his head away abruptly, remembering.
There in the kitchen, in his mother's chair,
sat the stranger in the fine clothes, with a drink of whiskey in his hand, which his father had just
poured out. There on the bed sat his great-gant brother in blue. One trouser leg rolled up to his hairy knee.
There, on a strip of carpet, in front of the bed, knelt his mother with a strange white face,
soaking bloody rags away from evil-looking sores on that precious foot. There,
by the cupboard, stood Mary, tearing something white into bandages, with the children huddled around
her, awed by the sight of their mother. Andy saw all that the moment that Wally, taking up one of the
children's old jokes, cried out to him in a voice that belied his foot, a greeting that the
young ones had loved deriding. Langmeur Lamaric, Andy.
There wasn't really anything wrong with Wally, it seemed.
That wasn't a wound, he affirmed.
It was only a scratch.
He really couldn't say just how it had happened.
It wasn't anything.
It might not be anything to a soldier,
but to his mother,
it was the mark of imminent death for her dearest son.
She began rubbing it gently with lambs fat.
Wally, bethinking himself,
pulled from a pocket a paper-wrapped bundle
of sweeties for the children who saw such things but seldom. They were intent upon the contents of that,
and the stranger was talking to his father, when Andy, still standing awkwardly in the door,
saw a thing happen which was a landmark in his understanding. He saw his mother, who had made fast
the last bandage, and was carefully pulling down the trouser leg, suddenly bend over and kiss
that leg. Such passion he saw in that gesture that he realized vaguely then some great fierce hidden
thing in life, escaping secrecy only at times, a terrible thing called love, which breaks forth
upon occasions even in old women like his mother. He turned his face away suddenly,
as from some forbidden nakedness, and fixed his eyes upon Wally.
That hero, quite unabashed, was pulling his mother, who had risen, down to a seat beside him on the bed.
She sat there, unconscious of the roomful, just looking at him, looking, as if she could never see his face enough.
She watched him devouringly, when presently, with the attention of them all, he began lightheartedly telling about his escape.
Half of his regiment had been made prisoners, including his major.
They had been marched away towards a train to be sent south,
and he had marched among them until he dropped.
He told his captors that they could shoot him if they would,
but he couldn't go a step further.
They had left him lying helpless there by the roadside,
a guard standing over him,
and before the wagon came along, which was to pick them up,
The guard had slept, and Wally, stronger to run to freedom than to march to prison, had made his escape.
Starved and hiding, he had crept night by night towards the Mississippi, and there he had seen a boat,
which was bringing northern wounded men home, tie up at the riverbank to bury its dead.
Its captain had taken pity on him, chilling and nauseated, and had brought him to Davenport.
Then, when he had got by train to the nearest Iowa town, this stranger had shown him this kindness.
Oh, his mother needn't worry about his being shot for a deserter. They knew him too well in his
company, if there was any of them left. And hadn't his chum, Harvey Stowe, been home four times to
visit, without permission from anyone, and had he ever been punished for it? As soon as he had something to
eat, and he could find where to report, he would be going back. Yes, certainly, going back,
however much his mother caught her breath at the mention of it. It was so interesting to hear him talk
that the men could scarcely leave for their duties, but there were the horses to feed, and the cows to milk,
and the kind, strange team to reward. Mr. Knight followed the boys to the barn, and watched,
with amusement how reverently they rubbed down and bedded and fed the guests of the stable.
And when they came in again, there sat the scrubbed soldier in a fresh hickory shirt and clean jeans
in his mother's chair, his swallowed foot on a stool. The stool was Huey's thought,
and the New York Tribune in his hand. The paper was Flores' contribution. He was talking grinningly
to his mother. A white cloth was spread on the table, and the mother, shining, uplifted with joy,
was wiping pink-banded cups, which Wally remembered to have seen taken from the sacred shelf
only when her Scott cousin, who had come to this country to enlighten the darkness of the Yankees
by taking the presidency of one of their colleges, had come west to visit this family. Not since then had
the Scottish sheets been out of the chest, and now they were airing on the line.
It was an occasion magnificent to consider.
When they sat down at the table for supper, and they had not long to wait,
for the mother was that woman of whom tradition says she could make a pair of gene pants
in 20 minutes.
They had fried prairie chicken and potatoes and scones and egg butter and stewed wild plums,
sweetened with sugar at forty cents a pound.
The father instituted the feast by a long prayer.
Of course, thought the stranger, they're scotch.
He counted the children. There were ten.
You've a fine family, he commented.
Not so bad when they're all here, returned the mother complacently.
There's a boy and a girl await at school.
She paused abruptly.
Our boy, younger than Wally, was killed at Fort Donaldson, explained the father.
Ah, my son was wounded there. Lost a hand. There was a moment's silence. Then Wally said,
wanting the subject changed. It's over now, mother. Grant'll get them now.
They proceeded to talk of the coming election. Five families of covenanting Scotch in the neighborhood,
were deserting the principles of their forefathers
and taking out naturalization papers,
hoping to vote for Lincoln.
The visitor wondered vaguely what kind of scotch that might be.
He had no chance to ask.
The mother seemed to have read every word of the last Tribune.
He had hardly time for that himself.
She seemed a woman of wide information.
Apparently she knew the position of every unit of the army.
Supper was over. Flora handed her father the book and moved the candle near him. He found the place and said,
The 23rd Psalm. To the man's surprise, the mother began the song in a clear, sure voice, and the children all joined,
without hesitation, as if this was a part of a familiar routine. The boys and girls were obviously thinking of the guests of honor.
The mother's face was turned to her son, but the father was looking away in a dream to something
he seemed to see through the wall before him. When the singing was over, he began reading from the
book, words that clearly had some exalted meaning to him, though what it might be, the stranger
could not imagine. "'Lift up your heads, O ye gates, and be ye lift up ye everlasting doors,
and the king of glory shall come in.
Who is this king of glory?
The Lord strong and mighty.
The Lord mighty in battle.
It sounded impressive, read with a subdued ring in the voice.
Then he shut the book, in a high silence,
and they all moved their chairs back and knelt down.
The stranger knelt, too, somewhat tardily.
Not that he objected to prayers, of course,
He was a religious man himself in a way.
His wife often went to church.
He could see the rapt face of the father praying in great sonorous phrases,
which sounded vaguely familiar.
Of all the children he could see, not one had an eye open.
They were thanking the Lord for the boy's return.
Bless the Lord, oh my soul, and all that is within me, bless His holy name.
They proceeded to pray for everyone,
in the United States, the President and his cabinet, the generals and the colonels and the
captains, all the privates, all the sick and homesick, for those destroyed by war,
for the mourning and all small children, for slaves in their freedom, and masters in their
poverty, and then for the stranger that he might hear the judge say unto him,
come, ye blessed of my father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the beginning of the world,
for I was sick and ye ministered unto me, that the beauty of the Lord as now might be upon him forever.
The stranger had scarcely got over that, when they all began saying the Lord's prayer together.
Nothing lacking but the collection, he thought, somewhat resentfully.
Not having heard a sermon for some time, he had for a sermon for some time, he had for
forgotten that. When they rose from their knees, Sarah and David were found asleep.
Andy picked them up and carried them away to bed. And even while Mr. Knight was wondering how
many of the children he would have to sleep with, the mother took the sheets from beside the stove,
and as she started for the fine parlor, whose bed was to be got ready for the guest,
she said, Lully is to have the kitchen bed by himself. You all just go upstairs. You all just go upstairs.
and leave him alone. The stranger had the decency to go soon to his bed. It wasn't a half-bad bed,
either, and he was tired. It had been a sudden impulse, this driving the soldier home,
with a new team, over no road at all, but he was glad he had come. He had wanted to see this country.
The new horses had jogged along very well. Moreover, he had made friends among the Scot.
and he was a politician.
He thought of his son with Sherman's army.
He thought of the soldier's impressive mother.
He smiled over the number of children.
He slept.
But long after the house was quiet,
Wally lay talking to his father and mother,
who sat on his kitchen bed.
He told them of marches and battles and fevers and skirmishes,
none of which had endangered him at all, of course.
of the comradeship among the boys from the Yankee settlement down the creek,
and of the hope everywhere now that the end was near.
Then gradually there fell a silence over them,
and understanding silence, wherein each knew the other's thoughts.
They were all thinking of that first terrible homecoming of his,
of the things that led up to it.
He remembered how the boys had been,
eating breakfast in camp, when the orders came that meant their first battle. He had been in an agony
of fear, lest he might be afraid. The one good thing about it was that Alan, his brother,
had been sent away on a detail not an hour before. He would go into battle without having his
brother to worry about. That trembling, as he advanced, had not been fear, but only ague so severe,
he might have stayed behind if he had chosen. But he had advanced, with the rest of them,
and in the darkness, when he tried to sleep after it was over, he knew he need not fear cowardice
again. They had won the day, and they exalted as fiercely as they had fought. Had not their
regiment been one of three, which, not getting their orders to retreat, had stood firmly till fresh
troops came to save the day. But the next morning's task had mocked terrifyingly their victory.
He could have pleaded fever to escape from that. Some on the snow-covered hillside were digging
great trenches. Some were throwing body after body into them. Some were shoveling earth in upon them.
He had bent down to tugget a stiff thing half-hidden by snow. He had turned it over. He had turned it over,
A head, grotesquely twisted backward, a neck mud plastered, horrible, bloody.
Then he had cried out and fallen down, that thing, with the lower face shot away, was Alan.
His comrades, hunting about, found the bodies of the others of the little squad that had been hurriedly recalled.
That night, Wally planned to desert.
He had announced his intention to his lieutenant, who came to sit beside him.
They might drum him out of camp as a deserter if they would.
He was telling them plainly what he intended doing.
He would never fight again.
But before he was able to walk, his comrades had got him a furlough.
They understood only too well his fever and his delirium,
and they remembered how he had gone through the battle,
vomiting and egg-w shaken, firing with a hand too weak to aim, and vomiting again, and shaking and firing.
All the way home he had planned how to break the news to his mother.
But when he had seen her, his grief, which before had had no outlet, suddenly burst forth,
so that even as she asked him, he was sobbing it all out to her.
He had never told her, of course, how Alan's son.
sweet singing mouth had been destroyed. For Alan had been a gay lad, playing the fiddle and singing
many songs, sometimes little lovable ones he made as he sang, about pumpkins, or the old red
rooster, or anything that might please the little children. For Wally, no homecoming could ever again
be so terrible as that one. But his father and mother, who sat beside him there, were trying not to know
that just such news might come at any time of this one,
who must go back to death's place.
Wally lay telling them little things he could recall of those last days.
Had he told them of the time that the captain had stood,
unbeknown to Alan, behind a bush,
listening to him imitate all the company's officers?
There had never been a day that Alan had not been called upon
to make fun for his comrades.
Laughter had bubbled up within him and gushed out even in stark times.
There was no detail of his nonsense, not precious to the two who listened.
It was late before they left him, and he soon slept.
Towards morning, his mother slept.
Soon after daylight, the stranger came into the kitchen.
The mother was standing half hidden by the steam that rose from the milk pails that she was scalding out.
The oldest sister at a table where Candlelight and Dawn struggled together
was packing a school lunch into a basket.
A small girl was buttoning Fat Sarah into her dress.
Two small boys were struggling with their shoes on the floor.
Wally presently hobbled in from out of doors,
declaring himself recovered, a giant refreshed.
The stranger noticed that when they found their places at the table,
there was a larger child beside each smaller one to look after him.
There was one little fellow who looked like the soldier
and a half-grown sister with beautiful regular features like his,
but the others were all alike with deeply set dark blue eyes,
long upper lips, and lower faces, heavy, keen, determined.
He could have appreciated what the mother said sometimes simply to the neighbors,
when they remarked how good her children were.
Yes, there'd never any care when they're well.
If we had one or two, we might let them have tantrums,
but who could live in a house with thirteen ill-bearance?
Since by that she meant, of course, naughty children,
her question seemed indeed unanswerable.
Now they sat eating lustily their cornmeal,
and she talked with leisure and understanding.
When the meal was finished, Flora handed her father the book again.
By golly, the stranger said to himself, they're going to do it again.
And they did.
The mother lifted the psalm from memory, and then they repeated some part of the Bible.
The stranger was the more ill at ease because young Huey's eyes were fixed accusingly upon him.
Again the father prayed for all the inhabitants of the world,
by name or class.
When the boys brought the guest's wonderful team to the door,
all the family gathered to bid him goodbye.
I wish you well, sir, for your kindness,
the father said, and the mother, at a loss to know how to thank him sufficiently,
added,
We'll never forget this, neither us nor our children.
It was that trembling, choked back in her voice,
that gave the stranger's grandson his work
with the firm of Andrew McLaughlin
in the fall of 1920.
The beautiful grays started impatiently away.
The men went to their work
and the children to their school.
In the kitchen his mother bandaged Wally's feet
and put the Wians out of door to play
while he had asleep.
At half-past eleven he woke.
His mother was sitting in the door,
way shelling beans. How was he to guess that she was late with her dinner preparations,
because, again and again, she had to stop, and look at this child of hers, grown a strange man
in the midst of horrors unimaginable. He lay very still looking at her. The kettle was singing on the
stove. Through the door, he saw the red calf sleeping in the sunshine. A wave of joy. A wave of joy.
boy, of ecstasy complete, passed over him. Oh, the heaven of home, the peace of it, of a good bed,
of a mother calmly getting dinner. I'm starved, mother, he sang out suddenly to her.
She hurried to the cellar and brought him cool milk and two cookies. The children, hearing him,
came in to watch him. He sat down in the doorway and began throwing beans up.
and catching them skillfully to win the friendship of the doubtful little Sarah.
David watched him eagerly.
Presently, Huey said,
Mother, why did yon strange man not say the psalm?
You mustn't stare so at visitors, Huey.
But why, mother? Why did he not say it?
Maybe he didn't akin it.
Didn't it can what? The psalm.
Didn't acin the fifteenth psalm and him aggrim.
man. Huey had never seen anyone before who couldn't say the 15th Psalm.
Oh, mother, he exclaimed remonstratingly. Even Davy knows that.
Wally chuckled. He knew the world. He had seen cities. He had marched across states.
He had eaten ice cream.
End of Section 1. Section 2 of The Abel McLaughlins by Margaret Wilson.
This Librovoc's recording is in the public domain.
Wally slept the whole afternoon,
and that evening the aunts and uncles and cousins began coming to see him.
He and Alan, being among the oldest of the clan's young fry,
had been the first to enlist,
though since then two of the McNair's,
a Stevenson and a McElany,
had grown old enough to fight,
Allen's death and Wally's spectacular career had endeared him to the neighbors.
They had suffered with him, they thought.
Two years before, when they had gathered to offer their consolation to the family
because he was reported dead, they had found his mother rejecting sympathy
with as much decision as was civil.
The United States government might be a powerful organization,
but it could never make her believe that woolly had been shot in the back,
running away from duty.
The Stoes doubtless did well to array themselves in mourning for Harvey,
but she knew her son was alive.
And, sure enough, after three weeks, a letter came,
no larger than the palm of her hand.
She knew it had come when she saw a nephew running towards the house to give it to her.
On one side, the little paper had said that Wally was alive and well in a prison in Texas,
and on the other, crowded together, were ten names of comrades imprisoned with him,
and Harvey Stowe's name was written first and largest.
That minute she had buttoned the bit of paper into Andy Schuster,
shirt pocket and sent him 15 miles down the creek to tell the stoves to take off their morning,
and the clan, hearing the news from the mad riding Andy, had gathered to rejoice with her.
And now that the exciting Wally was home again, they brought him wild turkeys and the choice
of the wild plums, an apple or two, first fruit of their new orchards, and whatever else their
poverty afforded. Mrs. Stowe came to see him, bringing a package of sugar, but the Stoes
were well-to-do. The others were exclusively what Alan had dubbed the ragged lairds of the Wapsopinican.
Not that their creek was really the Wapsopinican, Alan had only crossed that chuckling stream on his
first journey with his father, but he had delighted in the name so whimsical, so rollicking,
and had used it largely.
Pigs and chickens of his christening
bore it unharmed,
and he put it into the song he used to sing sometimes
when the prairies youth and beauty
were tired of dancing to his fiddle.
All the neighbors were mentioned in it.
The McWees, the McNabs, the McNorkels,
the Gilacuddies, the McEles, the Wannels,
the Wannos, the McTaggarts, the Struthers,
The Stephensons, the McLaughlins, and the Sproles.
In his pronunciation, the meter was perfect,
and Sproles and McDonald's rhymed perfectly,
both of them with holes.
For an encore, he would show his appreciative audience
how the head of each family mentioned,
asked for the blessing,
always politely and stubbornly refusing to imitate
the master of the house
in which the fun was going
on, at least until the master had retired.
Between the visits of the ragged lords and their offspring, Wally got so much sleep that on the
fourth day he announced himself able to help with the fall plowing.
His mother refused to have such a suggestion considered, and they compromised on his
digging carrots in the garden.
At that task, she found him doggedly working away after an hour.
white and trembling. For a week he recovered from the fever that came on, sleeping by day and by night.
The twelfth day he was so well that he rode to look over the 80 his father had bought for him
with the $200 that had accrued to him during the 14 months he lay in prison, trying to carve enough
wooden combs to earn what would keep him from starving. His father explained that,
he might have bought land further on at a dollar and a half an acre, but this was the choice bit of
land, and moreover it joined the home farm. And this bit of ground, rising just here, was obviously
the place for the house to be built. Wally smiled indulgently at the idea of his building a house.
But he wasn't to smile about it, his father protested. Indeed, they would
some way get an acre broken this fall yet in time to plant maple seed and poplar for the first
windbreak so that the little trees would be ready for their duty. The elder McLaughlin sighed
with satisfaction as he talked. Even yet, he had scarcely recovered from that shock of incredulous
delight at his first glimpse of the incredible prairies, acres from which
no frontiers-man need ever cut a tree. Acres in which a man might plow a furrow of rich black earth
a mile long without striking a stump or a stone. A state how much larger than all of Scotland
in which there was no record of a battle ever having been fought. What a home for a man who,
in his childhood, had walked to school down a path between the graves,
of his martyred ancestors, whose fathers had farmed a rented sandpile, enriched by the blood of battle,
among the rock of the Bay of Luce. Even yet he could scarcely believe that there existed such an
expanse of eager virgin soil, waiting for whoever would husband it. Ten years of storm-bound winters,
and fever-shaken, marketless summers before the war,
had not chilled his passion for it,
nor poverty so great that sometimes it took the combined efforts of the clan
to buy a 25-cent stamp to write to Scotland
of the measureless wealth upon which they had fallen.
From the time he was ten years old, he had dreamed of America.
He had had to wait to realize his dream,
till his landlord had sold him out for rent overdue.
What Wally remembered gallingly about that sale
was that his grandmother had been present at it,
and her neighbors, thinking she bought the poor household stuff
to give back to her son, refused to bid for it against her.
Then, having got it all cheap,
she sold it at a considerable profit and pocketed the money.
That was why, taught by his father, he despised everything that suggested Scottish stinginess.
Nor had he wept a tear when the old woman died soon after, and his father, taking his share of her hoardings, had departed for his utopia.
Some of the immigrants had long since lost their illusions, but not John McLaughlin.
He loved his land like a blind and passionate lover.
Really, there was nothing glorious that one was not justified in imagining about a nation to be born to such an inheritance.
And he told Wally that he might at least console himself with the thought that those months in prison had made him possessor of such land.
That with the possible exception of the fabled Nile Valley,
there was probably in the world no richer,
and the McLaughlins prided themselves on the fact
that they were no American soil scratchers,
exhausting debauchers of virgin possibilities.
Their rich soil, they promised themselves,
was to be richer by far for every crop it yielded.
The next day, Wally felt so well
that he must have something to do.
On the morrow, the Bible,
weekly mail would be in, and if it brought orders for him, he would be returning to his regiment.
He stood in the doorway, looking towards his father's very young orchard, and considering the
possibilities of the afternoon. Of course, he might ride over and see Stowe's sweetheart,
who had come to see him the other time he was home ill, but he dreaded talking to a strange
woman. She was pretty, certainly. That was why he was afraid of her. If he had been Alan now,
with an excuse for going to see a pretty girl, his horse would have been in a lather before he arrived.
Wally had envied Stowe sometimes, his eagerness for just a certain letter. It must, he thought,
in certain moods, after all, be rather pleasant to have someone so dear
that a man like Stowe would endanger his honor and life itself by stealing a way to see her.
Stowe was to be married as soon as he got home.
He was so close a friend that he talked to Wally about that.
If Stowe had had a sight for a house waiting him as Wally had,
he would have talked his friend deaf.
But just the same, Wally wasn't going to see his sweetheart.
He would do anything for Stowe but that.
Easing his conscience by that assurance, he heard his mother speaking to him.
If he wanted something to do, would he ride over to Jeannie McNair's for her?
She wanted to know if Jeannie had any news yet from Alex.
When would that man be back? she wondered indignantly.
Whoever heard of a man harvesting a wheat crop and starting back to Scotland?
leaving his family alone with the snakes.
She always added the snakes because the McNair cabin was on low land,
which those reptiles rather affected,
and all to prevent his half-brothers from getting a bit more of a poor inheritance
than they were entitled to.
If Wally went on her errand,
he was to take poor Jeannie a few prairie chickens,
and those three young ducks she had raised for her,
alone there with her barons.
And if he was going, he must put on his uniform.
He demurred, she insisted.
Why, Jeannie had never seen him in his uniform.
He smiled to hear her imply that not to have seen him so arrayed
was the greatest of her deplorable privations.
Yet he went and put it on, nevertheless,
for it was the most handsome suit he had ever happened.
always before having been clothed in the handiwork of his mother and sisters.
When he was ready to go, the ducks caught and tied,
a bit of jelly safely wrapped, as he stood by the horse.
In his mother's sight, the most beautiful soldier in the American armies,
she said,
"'Genie's Jimmy was just your age, you mind, Wally.'
She watched him riding away, the fondness of her face,
ministering to the joyous sense of well-being that swept over him.
How unspeakably lovely the country was!
How magnificent its richness!
He had never felt it so keenly before.
He must be getting like his father,
or perhaps it looked so much more impressive
because he had seen so much swampy desolation in the South.
The grass he rode through seemed to bend under the sparkling of the golden,
sunshine. He came to the creek, and as he crossed it, he remembered with a pang the time his
companions had staggered thankfully and hastily to drink out of a pool, covered with green slime.
He turned with disgust from the memory. He wouldn't even think of those things to spoil his few
days at home. He gave himself up to the persuasive peace around him. He rode along,
completely, unreasonably happy. He began to sing. Singing, he remembered Alan. How was it that he was here
singing, and Alan, the singer, was dead? But the afternoon's glow took away soon, even the bitterness of
that question. He came presently in sight of the McNair's cabin, though every other man of the neighborhood
had been able, thanks to the wartime price of wheat,
to build for his family,
a more decent shelter than the first one,
that Alex McNair,
fairly crazy with land hunger, added acre to acre,
regardless of his family's needs.
Such a man, Wally scorned with all the arrogance of youth.
He had, moreover, understood and shared something of his mother's pity
for her beloved friend, McNair's wife.
He remembered distinctly that when his parents had been leaving the Ayrshire home for America,
Jeannie had put into his hand a poke of sweeties to be divided by him
among the other children during the journey.
That had been a happy farewell, because Jeannie and her five were soon to follow.
But when the ten flourishing McLaughlin's again saw Jeanne,
saw Jeannie on this side of the water. Of her five, there remained only her little Kirstie,
and a baby boy. The bodies of the other three, she had seen thrown out of the smallpox
smitten ship, which the feasting sharks were following. Since then, she had been a silent woman,
though Wally's mother spoke of her sometimes, sighing, as a girl of high spirits and wit.
Now, however much other air-shire women might rejoice, in a dawning nation,
the memory of those bloody mouths stood always between her and hope.
She endured the new solitude without comment or complaint.
Homesick for a hint of old country decency,
she hung the walls of her cabin with the linen sheets of her dowry,
sheets that must have come out of the poisonous ship.
Wally's mother admired that immaculate room without one sigh of envy.
White sheets would keep clean a long time in that cabin with only the two barons,
but she thanked God that in her crowded cabin there was not room for one sheet on the wall.
Moreover, in the Newland, Jeannie had lost two babies,
so that now, for her labor and travail, she had only,
the Scottish two and a baby girl. With another baby imminent, her husband had trapassed away to
Scotland. He was too close to have taken her with him. But not for the wealth of Iowa would she have
exposed her children again to sea. She would stay and save them on dry land. She wouldn't be
left altogether alone. Her brother's family lived but two miles away.
Wally rode up to the house unperceived,
though not one tree, not one kindly bush,
protected it against the immensity of the solitude around it.
He tied his horse and was at the door before Jeannie saw him.
Then she exclaimed,
If it isn't Isabel's Wally!
She shook his hand and patted him on his shoulder
and reached up and kissed him.
He didn't mind that.
She was practically an aunt, so intimate were the families.
In her silent excitement, she brought him into her wretched little cabin.
And there stood another woman, by the window, a young woman, turning towards him with sunshine
on her white arms, and on the dough she was needing, sunshine on her white throat,
and on the little waves of brown hair about her face.
Sunshine making her fingertips transparent pink.
A woman like a strong angel, beautiful in light.
Wally just stared.
It's only Kirstie.
Jeannie was surprised at his surprise.
Only Kirstie!
She was just a Wien when I saw her, he stammered.
I didn't akin she was so bonnie.
Fool that he was, idiot!
yammering away in bits of a forsaken dialect, what would the girl think of him?
It's more than four years you've been away, Jeannie reminded him kindly.
She began plying him with questions. He answered them, realizing that the girl was covering her
bread with a white cloth, freshly shaken from its folds, that she was washing her hands,
and pulling down her sleeves, and seating herself near him, composedly,
enough. His mother was well, he said. They were all well. It was 12 days now since he had come home.
Yes, he was tired of the war. The more he saw of the girl, the tireder he got. The other boys from
the neighborhood were all alive and well as far as he knew. He looked at that girl as much as he
dared. He could think of nothing to say, that is, of nothing he dared yet to say. He was
most stupidly embarrassed, trying not to appear foolish. He stammered out that his mother had sent over
some things, some squashes. He would go and bring them in. He went out to get them. Oh, it wasn't
squashes, it was ducks. The girl giggled deliciously. Her mother smiled. Wally was more at his ease.
Now where should they put the ducks? They were all standing together now in the door-yard.
the three ducks, the three humans.
There was no place ready for the gifts.
Well, Wally would make a coop for them.
Just give him a few sticks.
But there were no sticks.
Then Kirstie thought of some bits of wood behind the barn.
They went and got them.
She stood, shy because of the ardor of his eyes, by her mother,
watching his skill in making duck shelters.
He could have gone making them forever.
but the work was done. He grew embarrassed again. He must be going. Not before he had had tea.
He really didn't care for tea. He would have just a drink of water. No sooner had he said that word,
than he regretted it painfully. There was no fresh water. But Kirstie would go get some.
He knew that one of the things that annoyed his mother most about the McNair place was that Alex
had never even dug a second well. The water was all still carried a quarter of a mile from the old well
in the slough. Kirstie was ready to start for his drink at once. Was he not a soldier and a fine-looking one?
Her eyes inquired demurely, whom she would be honored to serve. No, he would get it himself.
Go along the two of you, said Jeannie. And as they start,
she stood in the door looking after them, and on her face there grew a sore and tender smile.
He took the pail. She reached for the big stick. That was to kill rattlesnakes. He took that, too,
shocked by the thought of death near her feet. They walked silently together, in a path just wide
enough for one. Their hands touched at times. He grew bold to turn and study her beauty.
Their eyes met, but she said never a word. On they went silently. He could hear his heart beating
presently. He forgot that his feet had ever been sore. He could have walked on that way with her
to Ershire. They came to the well. His hand trembled.
as he let the pail down into it.
That may have been the ague.
He filled the cup and gave it to her to drink,
looking straight at her.
She put it to her lovely lips and drank,
looking across the prairie.
She handed it back to him,
and he took it, and her hand.
The grass about the well was very high.
Some way.
He put out his arm,
arms, and she was in them.
Gertie, he whispered,
I didn't know that you were here.
I didn't know that you were the lassie for me.
He kissed her fearfully.
He kissed her without fear many times.
She said only, oh, he held her close.
After a time, how long a time it must have been to have worked so mightily,
she sighed and said,
we must go back.
Hand in hand, they went back,
until they came to the edge of the tall grass.
They couldn't miss the last of that opportunity.
Out in the short grass, she pulled her hand away.
No one must see yet, she said.
Of course not, not yet.
No, he said to Jeannie, he couldn't stay for tea.
He had had his drink.
He had indeed drunk deep.
He rode out into the loveliness of the distances, unconscious of everything but that girl in the sunlight.
He was shaken through with the excitement of her lips.
Her name sang itself riotously through his brain.
Perhaps in a thousand miles there was not a man so surprised as that one.
But he was not thinking of his emotions.
He was thinking of what he had.
had found. He was looking through vistas, opened suddenly into the meaning of life. He was seeing
glimpses of its space and graciousness. He laughed aloud, abruptly remembering the sight his
father had chosen for his house, and yesterday a house had meant nothing to him. He was getting too
near home. He had come to the creek. He stopped his horse, and sat still, going over a
again and again that supreme moment. He had never kissed a girl before in his life.
Alan had kissed them whenever he had gotten a good chance, or any chance at all.
Now, today, with Kirstie, it had been just simply the only thing to do.
She was, already by the significance of that caress, a part of him. Oh, no wonder Stowe had come
home four times. And now his holiday was all but over. He vowed rashly, he would not go back,
never. If only he had come and found her the first of his twelve days. He wondered why he had left
her. He might have stayed for supper. But no, not with her mother there. He was glad he had come
away. To think of him, who had marched through states and territories, finding a girl
like that, the very queen of beauty, right there on the prairie.
He could scarcely remember how she had looked when he had seen her last.
Just some kind of a little girl.
No stunning queen like this.
The song of her name rose and fell in his mind, rhythmically.
The sun grew low while he sat, exulting.
A chill came into the air.
He couldn't endure to take his excitement home
to the light. He would wait till they would all be at supper. How glad his mother would be when
sometimes she heard of his love. He knew it was the very thing she would have chosen for him.
When he came into the kitchen, she said, with relief,
You're a long time away, Wally! He replied without a waiver. I stopped for a swim in the creek.
She sat looking at him, wondering why he was pale of it.
again and silent. He was far from well, she was thinking, and before the meal was over,
he was wondering why the children's chatter was so strangely tiresome. Wouldn't they ever get away to bed
and leave him to his memories? Even with that babbling about, he could feel her face against his.
His Uncle Peter's Davy came in with the mail after supper, bringing a paper.
with a notice for the scattered men of his regiment and paroled prisoners.
They were to have reported yesterday to headquarters.
He tried to appear eager to go.
His mother lifted the psalm, when the visitors were gone,
and left the children to quaver through it.
And when he was lying in his bed,
vowing desperately he would not go back, she came to him.
"'I can't tell you're going, Wally.'
she cried to him, and her cry braced him. He remembered with shame how she had made him go back
after Alan's death, how she had signaled fiercely to him to keep the mention of anything else from the
children, as if he, her son, could not do whatever he must do and do it well. She had been ashamed
of him before the children, then. He remembered that, and grew brave,
Now, he hated to remember what a baby he had been, as if, however terrible the war might be,
it hadn't to be fought out some way by men, as if he must escape from the hell other men must endure.
He was glad now he had occasion to strengthen the strengthener.
It's almost over now, Mother, he kept saying.
Almost over, indeed, and a bullet the death of the death.
of a second? What was the use of saying that, when an hour could kill thousands?
She sat stroking his hair, her face turned away from him, so that he suspected tears.
She felt like an old broken woman, worn out, not by years and childbearing, but by this war.
All that night she lay sleepless, praying for her son. He lay sleepless, and
the room next to her, never giving her a thought. He gave all his thoughts, he gave all he had,
to the girl of the slough well. The dream of the night wore away, and the nightmare of the morning
was upon him. His father was calling him long before daybreak. He was starting away,
in the darkness, in the cold, away from Kirstie, towards his due.
his feet ached, his back ached, his head ached, his heart ached.
He was one new great pain.
It didn't seem possible that life could be so hard.
But on, his father drove, through the first shivering glimpses of dawn, towards the train.
End of Section 2.
Section 3 of the Abel MacLocclan.
by Margaret Wilson.
This Libravox recording is in the public domain.
After more than three months spent in hospitals,
Wally came home the next March,
honorably discharged from the Army.
His father met him at the end of the railroad,
and before dawn, they started westward
over the all-but-impassable paths called roads.
Rain began falling when the sun.
sun should have been shining. Hour after slow hour of the morning, their horses strained and plunged
and splashed through the deep black mud. At every slough the men alighted to pull and tug at the
sunken wagon, and returned be mired to their wet blankets. From noon till dusk, they rode on,
pulling grain sacks helmet-wise down over their caps to protect the back of their necks from
trickles of water, rearranging their soaked garments, hearing when their voices fell silent,
only the splashing of the horse's feet down into the thawed mud, and the sucking of the water
around hoofs reluctantly lifted to take the next step.
Darkness set in early, but they made the ford while there was still a soggy twilight.
More soaked, more dripping, they went on.
peering into the wall of blackness which settled down in front of them they were hungry they were tired they were chilled to the bone
wallie's teeth chattered in spite of all he could do to prevent them and they were both immeasurably happy on they went caressing the fine joy in their hearts the father had his son home safe from battles the son each shrewably happy the son each shrewd
shivering step was nearing the queen of the afternoon light. At half-past eight they drew near the
welcoming lighted window towards which they had strained their eyes so eagerly. If the boy had had had a lesser
mother, if he had been well, he would have gone on through the four miles of pouring darkness to Kirstie,
but here was shelter and rest for his feebleness, a fire, food, light,
a mother, and the children, caresses sprung from the warmest places in human hearts.
All things, in short, that a man needs, except one.
It seemed that the very kitchen breathed in great deep sighs of thankfulness and content,
this great night of its life.
The night Wally got home from the army.
The younger children sat watching him till they sank down from their chairs asleep,
for no one thought to send them away to bed.
He had so many things to tell them that he forgot how weary he was.
Now that his danger was over, he had no need of minimizing for his mother's sake
the discomforts he had been suffering.
He said feelingly what he thought of a government
that couldn't get letters from a soldier's home in Iowa
to a military hospital in New Orleans.
He shouldn't have minded the fever so much if he could have heard from home,
and if he had been stronger, he would likely have been more sensible about not getting letters.
It seemed to him he had been confined in a madhouse, devised for his torture.
He would have preferred a battle, months long, to those endless, helpless, sick-minded days.
And now he never wanted to speak of that time or hear of it again.
as long as he lived.
Young Peter had torn his coat, half off his back at play that day,
and it must be mended before school time next morning.
It was a piece of patching not long or difficult,
but his mother laid it down to look at her wally.
She laid it down and took it again a dozen times before it was done.
She couldn't deny her eyes the sight of his white, thin, beautiful face.
He ought to go to bed.
She could see that. She urged him to, again and again, as they sat around the stove.
But he had always one more thing to tell as he started to go. He had never written in full about
getting back to his regiment after his last visit home, had he? Well, when he got back,
there was not an officer left whom he had known. And the one to whom he had to tell his tale of
escaping from his guard? Oh, he was a new man, most hated by the boys. He had put
Wally and two others in prison in the loft of a barn, on bread and water. And every night the
guard, who knew them, used to hand up on the end of bayonets all the food they could desire,
and the officer heard of it, and was more angry. He was a man who raged, and he changed the guard,
and yet the men who hated his being there, in place of the colonel they had liked,
Wally's friends, managed some way to feed the prisoners,
so that rarely in the loft they had nothing to do but to sleep well-fed and rest.
And presently the new colonel waxed more raging and swearing
and sent the three away to another place to be disciplined,
sent them, guess where of all places,
to Colonel Ingersoll for punishment,
What? Not that infidel? Yes, exactly. And that was just how Wally had felt about it. The prisoners made Wally their spokesman in the first hearing. Colonel Ingersolle listened to them kindly till he had finished speaking. He had a boil on the back of his neck and was not able to turn his head. And he sat there, just looking at Wally, a long time. Too long, Wally began to fear.
And then he said,
I wouldn't punish you if you were my man, Maglachlan,
and I don't see why I should because you aren't.
And he called in orderly and told him to take the men to a mess.
Ingersoll, did that, that infidel?
Yes.
His mother was leaning forward, Peter's coat, forgotten.
"'Yon's a grand man,' she cried with conviction.
"'He's an infidel!'
Her husband reminded her,
"'He's a grand man for a that,' she asserted.
"'But he's an infidel.
"'He's a grand man, I'm telling you, for a that.'
After that, every time she sang the Antichrist's praise to her neighbors,
she had the last word of characterization.
After all, her family had not been covenanters.
Presently she laid the coat down again.
The children were in bed now, and Wally, too, with only his father and mother beside him in the kitchen.
Your father told you about Jeannie's death, Wally?
His father had told him briefly about it on the way home.
He didn't say to his mother that the news had thrilled him with the certainty that now his plans could have no opposition,
since Kirstie was left quite unprotected, and must be needing him.
He was ashamed of the hope he had had from it
when he saw his mother's face hardened with grief and resentment
as she went on to relate the details of her friend's death,
a death grim enough to be in keeping with Jeannie's life.
For her part, she hoped to live till Alex McNair got home,
till she could get one good chance to tell him what she thought of him.
Oh, it had been altogether a terrible winter,
almost as bad as that worst early one,
just one fierce-driven blizzard after another.
Jeannie had known in that darkening afternoon
that it was no common illness coming over her.
Kirsty, terrified by her isolation,
had begged to be allowed at once to go for her aunt,
but even then so thick was the storm raging
that from the window she could not see the barn,
and to venture out into the storm could mean only death.
As the night had hurled itself upon the poor little shelter,
almost hidden underdrifts,
and the maniac wind unchecked by a tree,
unhindered by a considerable hill for a thousand miles,
tore on in its deadly course,
inside the cabin where the candle flickered gustably out.
Jeannie had whispered to her children that she was dying.
One thing they must promise her so that she might die in peace.
They must not venture out for help, even in the morning, unless the storm was over.
She lay then, moaning inarticulately, which was frightful for the children,
but not so frightful as the silence that followed,
when they could in no way make her answer their cries of agony.
All that night, Kirsty sat watching, besides her,
her, relighting the candle, while the other children slept.
In the quieted morning, she had helped her brother dig an entrance to the stable,
and together they had got the horse out.
She had wrapped him as securely as possible, and sent him across the blinding snow to his
uncles, John Keith's.
And when Aunt Libby finally got there, she found the baby playing on the floor,
the dinner cooking on the stove, and Kirstie on her mother's bed unconscious.
Tears were running down Isabel McLaughlin's face as she finished.
Though she never doubted that God was infinitely kind,
she wondered at times why that's something else,
called life or nature, should be so cruel.
She wondered why it was that, while with her, all things
Prospered, with the good genie, nothing ever refrained from turning itself into tragedy,
and besides all that, now that the spring seemed coming, that stubborn girl Kirstie,
refusing longer to stay with her aunt Libby, had suddenly taken her small brother and sister
and gone back to her empty house, and there she was, living alone, with no company but occasionally
a neighboring girl or her distressed Aunt Libby. Wally's mother had gone to her and begged her to come
and stay with her. Other faithful friends had invited her to their home, but they had begged and
pleaded in vain. Kirstie would listen to no one. It was a most unfitting and dangerous thing,
a young girl like that, alone there. She kept saying her father would be home any day now,
but Isabel McLaughlin would prophesy that he would not be back
till he had a new wife to bring with him.
They would all see whether she was right about that or not.
Wally, the ardent, jumped instantly to the hope
that Kirsty had known he was coming
and had gone back to the cabin to be there alone to receive him.
That was the explanation of her stubbornness,
and indeed it was a brave thing for a girl to do for her lover.
Alone there she would be this rainy night, grieving for her mother and waiting for him.
Of course she would marry him at once. He would put in a crop there for her father.
Tomorrow, not later than the next day at most, they would be married. He slept but excitedly that
night. In the morning it was still raining. Breakfast and worship over, he went to the barn,
where the men were setting about those rainy-day tasks,
which all well-regulated farms have in waiting.
In the old thatched barn,
three sides of which were stacked slawgrass,
his father was greasing the wagon's axles.
Andy was repairing the rope-locks harness.
Peter and Huey were struggling to lift Wee Sarah
into their playhouse cave in a haystack side of the barn,
and having at length all but upset the wagon on themselves,
propped up, as it was, by only three wheels,
they had to be shued away to play on the cleaner floor of the new barn.
Wally took up a hoe that needed sharpening for the weeding of the corn that was to be planted.
They talked of the new machine that was being made for the corn planting.
Wally answered absent-mindedly that he had seen one in Davenport once.
He spoke with one eye on the hoe and one on the heavens.
After an hour's waiting, the skies still forbade a journey,
but his father, presently, looking up from his work,
saw him climbing on a horse,
wrapping himself in bedraggled blankets as best he might,
against the downpour.
He naturally asked, in surprise,
"'Wherever are you going, Wally?'
Wally replied,
"'Just down the road.'
"'Fancy that now.
a McLaughlin answering his father in a tone that implied that what he asked was none of his business.
But it was Wally who was answering, just home after four years of absence.
His father was amused.
The thought came gradually into his slow mind that there would be a lassie in this.
A feverish man wasn't riding out through a rain like that one, without some very good reason.
What lassie would it be?
He must ask his wife about.
it. The path which Wally took required caution, but the cause demanded speed. The ways seemed to
have stretched out incredibly since he had last gone over it. After riding a hundred miles or so,
he got to the little shanty of a barn on the McNair place. Kirstie's 12-year-old brother Dodd was there,
and Wally gave his horse to his care. That horse had to be watched carefully,
Wally bowed. He had never seen such tricks as it had been doing on the way over.
Dodd must not take his eyes from it. Wally hurried to the house. The door of the house opened and,
Oh, damn, and all other oaths, Scotch and Army. Kirstie's aunt stood there in it. Libby Keith.
She was Wally's aunt, too, that sister of his father's, who had married Jeannie McNair's brother, John Keith.
This was the first time that Wally had wanted really to curse an aunt,
though he liked this one but dutifully.
She saw him, and her voice fell in dismay.
Lassie me, she bewailed.
I thought it was my Peter.
Bad enough to be taken for her Peter at any time,
and she had to stand there stupidly a moment
to recover from the disappointment, as it were,
and then looking straight at him, it was like her to ask,
Is it you, Wally?
As if she couldn't see that it was,
standing there, filling the door, hiding the room from him.
Whatever is the matter?
Where was the girl?
Was his aunt a permanent blockade?
He came vigorously towards her, hurrying her slow cordiality.
There she was.
There was Kirsty.
She had seen him. He went towards her, and she shrank away from him.
Not only had she not an impulse of welcome, she shrank away from him.
She gave him her hand because she couldn't help herself.
Girsty, he faltered.
Are you back? she asked. She pulled her hand away in a panic.
It's a fine day, he heard her murmur.
It was the bitterest day of his life. He sat down weekly. Men staggered down helplessly that way,
when bullets go through them. The damnable aunt began now welcoming him fondly. He didn't know
what he was answering her. It couldn't be possible, could it, that Kirstie didn't want to see him?
She had taken a seat just as far away from him as the room permitted.
She sat about her knitting industriously.
Sometimes she raised her eyes to look into the fire,
but never once did she raise them to satisfy Wally's hunger.
His eagerness, her refusal,
became apparent at length to even the stupid aunt.
She understood that Wally had got home only the night before,
and in the morning, rain and all,
had ridden over to see the girl who didn't want to see him,
He really was looking very ill.
Well, well, Isabel McLaughlin would have been mightily set up by such a match.
If Kirstie had not been Peter's own cousin, Libby Keith would have liked nothing better than the girl for her son.
She had fancied at times her son had thought of it too.
Her sympathy was with the soldier.
She rose heavily after only a few minutes and said,
I doubt that setting hands have left the nests, Kirstie.
She put a shawl over her head and went to the door and closed it after her.
Wally jumped to his feet and went to bend down over his sweetheart.
What's the matter, Kirstie? What's the matter? What have I done?
She shrank back into her chair.
You haven't forgotten? You remember that afternoon?
I thought now that you are alone here, we needn't wait.
"'Sit down on your chair,' she commanded.
"'Don't.'
"'He didn't. He couldn't.
"'You're in my light.'
He drew back only a little way.
"'I didn't say it all but you know.
"'Didn't you get my letters either?'
She moved farther away from him.
"'Now that I think of it, I guess I did.
I got one or two.'
She looked as if she was trying to recall something trivial.
He stood absolutely day.
looking at her hard face. Then she said,
It's near dinner time. You'll be going back.
I will not, he cried, outraged. I came for you, Kirsty. I thought we could be married right away.
That's what I meant. You knew that. He bent over her again, and she struggled away angrily.
She went to the door and called, Auntie, while he's going, do you want to see him?
Aunt Libby came heavily in. She urged him to stay for dinner. At least she would make him something hot,
why he was all wet from the ride. Don't bother about me, he said angrily, hardly knowing his own voice.
I just rode over to see a calf of Stevenson's. I'll be on my way. Out of the house he rushed,
leaving his aunt to meditate upon her theories. Turning back, he saw,
through tears, that the girl was looking after him.
He wouldn't ride towards the Stevenson's.
He would ride straight home, and she would know why he had come.
He was chilling severely now, from the shock of her denial,
from rage and humiliation and sorrow.
He hardly knew whether it was tears or rain in his face.
Fool, he kept saying to himself,
fool that he had been,
why had he ever taken so much for granted?
He had had only a little letter from her, a shy letter,
but he had never doubted she wrote often to him,
letters which, like his mothers, had never reached him.
Of course she had never really said that she would wait for him.
She had never promised,
but that was what that afternoon meant to him.
It must be that some other man had won her.
They must all be wanted to her.
They must all be wanting her. While he had been lying in that hospital, living only on the dreams
of their love-making, some other man had taken his place against her face. Or could it be that
the tragic death of her mother had made her cold? It was no use trying to imagine that,
for what ordinary, unkissed girl of the neighborhood would not have given him a decent welcome
home. A mere acquaintance would have been more glad to see him back than she had been.
Glad. She had not only not been glad, she had shrunk away in fear and dread, even disgust.
If it had been but mourning for her mother, she would have come to him. If he had been disconsolate,
he would have known where to go for comfort. He had simply been a fool to suppose he had won her,
Still, there was that afternoon to justify his hope.
Could it be possible that that had meant nothing to her?
Could he believe that that had been to her an accustomed experience?
If only her face had blossomed just a little for him,
that was all he would have asked.
He could have waited, respecting her bereavement.
But that shrinking away, that fear, what could he make of that?
and he had supposed, full that he was, that she felt toward him, somewhat as he had felt toward her.
She wanted nothing of him but his absence.
All the family would now hear of his visit from Aunt Libby.
Not that he would mind that, if only she had welcomed it.
The wound was sickening him.
His mother's curiosity about the lassie disappeared at the first glimpse she got of his face.
She put him to bed with hot drinks and heating stones, with quilt after quilt wrapped about him.
But still he chilled and shivered. He was so wretched that she had no heart to reprove him for that rash outing through the rain.
For a long time he remained fever shaken and low-spirited, the last one certainly she would venture to ask about a girl.
Day after day, he lay contrasting in his mind those two hours with Kirstie,
contrasting his dreams with the reality, while the rain continued to sweep across the prairies
in gray and windy majesty. One day Andy returned dripping from the post office with the news
of Lee's surrender. Wally celebrated the event with an unusually hard chill. The tidings of Lincoln's
death, sickened him desperately. He got to thinking he was never again to be a strong man,
and he could see no reason for wanting to be. After a few weeks, the rain ceased, and the spring
flooded her sunshine over the fields with high engendering ecstasy. The McLaughlin's, man and boy,
from dawn to darkness, went over their ground, getting the prodigal soil into the best
possible tilth, scattering the chosen seed by hand.
Even on the Holy Sabbath of the Lord, Wally's father walked contentedly through his possessions,
dreaming of the coming harvest, and of the eventual great harvest of a nation.
It was lambing time, and calving time, and time for little pigs and chickens.
The very cocks went about crowing out their conquering energy all over the yard.
till it seemed to Wally, sitting wearily on the doorstep,
that he was the only thing in the world, sick and useless and alone.
May passed, and June.
Thoughtful men sighed when they spoke of the soldier,
and hated war the more.
Five years ago he had gone away a strong, high-spirited lad,
and now he dragged himself brokenly around the dooryard,
the wreck of a man.
His mother, trying to tempt his appetite, was at her wits' end.
She sometimes thought, if he had been a younger boy, she would have given him a thoroughly good spanking.
She didn't know what to make of him. Had he not always been the happiest, most even-tempered of her flock?
Had there not been times when he and Alan had made bets about which one would begin chilling first,
when malaria, like everything else, had been a joke with them.
She had never seen a child as unhappy, as irritable as her wally was now.
There was no way of pleasing him.
All he wanted was to be left alone, to lie with his face in his arms on the bed,
scarcely speaking civilly when she tried to get him to eat something.
But whenever she said to herself that he ought to be spanked,
At once her heart reproved her.
How could she imagine all that he had been through,
all the strain of those years?
The poor laddie, so wretched,
and his own mother having no patience with him.
In all these weeks, Wally had seen the girl only a few times,
and none of them an occasion much less painful than the first.
Once he had been well enough to go to church.
He had waited till she came out of the door,
and then, before them all, he had gone over to the wagon where she was seating herself with her brother.
She had drawn away from him as if he had been a rattler, he said to himself bitterly,
"'What did she suppose he had done, anyway, that she didn't even want to look in his direction?'
He had gone again to her, desperately one evening, determined to find out what it all meant.
She had indeed been alone when he came within sight.
But, seeing him, she had called sharply to Dodd to come and sit beside her,
as if she were afraid of him, as if he would hurt her.
She was even more distant now than she had been when he was in New Orleans,
when he could at least think of her with hope.
Once he had driven over with his mother to see her,
had ridden along in forbidding silence,
wondering how much his mother knew of that first visit,
dreading lest she might mention Kirstie's name significantly to him.
He had not condescended to go into the house that time,
but, finding Dodd's hoe, he had weeded their little patch of corn,
weeded it fiercely and well,
to let her see how he would have worked for her,
if only she had been willing.
His mother had not said a word about the girl as they rode home together,
but she sighed deeply from time to time,
so that he guessed Kirstie had not even been cordial to her.
He tried hard enough, as he grew stronger, to shake off his depression.
There were plenty of girls in the world whom he might marry, weren't there?
The trouble was he hated other girls.
Still, he couldn't let merely one woman make him unhappy, could he?
Not much.
He used to be happy all the time before he got to thinking about her some of the first.
much. He would brace up, he vowed, and forget her. But Harvey Stowe came home in July and came
at once to see him, a strong and hilarious Harvey, who wouldn't take any excuses. Wally must come over
to his wedding. Wally would not. Likely he would go to another man's wedding. He would have a fever that
day if he hadn't had it for a week. But he went. The day after,
Thinking of his friend's happiness as he walked through his father's wheat,
he sat down to rest in a patch which it shaded and stretched himself out in it.
There suddenly and poignantly, for the first time in his life,
he envied Alan and wanted to die.
He wanted to die with so keen a despair that never afterwards
could he hear the cocksure rail against suicide.
He hated living vehemently and wanted to escape from it.
There was no use saying one girl couldn't make him unhappy.
He was meant for Kirstie, and without her, life had no meaning.
Some way, it had just that combination of demure eyes and white arms
to stimulate his desire till it was without mercy.
He could not go on without her.
He wished there had been a battle that day, which he could have gone into.
He would have shot himself dead with his first bullet.
That was the climax of his despair, though he was far from knowing it.
End of Section 3. Section 4 of the Abel McLaughlin's by Margaret Wilson.
This Librevox recording is in the public domain.
The next Sunday, Wally walked with his brothers to the church,
where the lairds of the Wapsopinican, ragged but clean,
worshipped the god of their fathers.
The little church they had built out of their wartime prosperity
stands on a green knoll on Gibb McQueen's farm.
Entering it, one saw then, as one sees nowadays,
a large unadorned square room, with only one beauty, and that, so great, that any church in the
world, might well envy it. Eight high, narrow windows it has, pointedly arched, of clear glass,
and whatever one thinks of a style of ecclesiastical architecture, which draws one's attention
from the sermon to the prairies,
those eight windows frame pictures of billowing,
cloud-shadowed, green distances,
in which surely sensible eyes
can never sufficiently luxuriate.
Up the scrubbed aisle,
into pews varnished into yellow wave patterns.
Family after family filed decorously that morning,
mothers and infants in arms,
and strong men. There were as yet no old men in that world. Wally went to the family pew.
Before the war, he had usually sought out a place where the overflow of big boys sat as far as possible
away from the source of blessings. The McLaughlin pew held only twelve, and that uncomfortably.
But there had never been more than twelve children at church together, since small Sarah had been born
after her brothers had gone to war.
The congregation sang their psalms out of books now,
no more lining out of numbers in a congregation
so well established and prosperous.
The man of God read the scriptures,
and then at last came that welcomed long prayer,
good for fifteen minutes at least.
Wally, sitting determinedly in a certain well-considered place in the pew,
bowing his head devoutly, and bending just a bit to one side, could watch Kirstie through his fingers,
where she sat on the other side of the church in a pew just behind the McLaughlin's.
Her eyes were closed, but his did a week's duty.
There was no doubt about it.
She was getting thinner and thinner.
It wasn't just his imagination.
She was paler.
she was unhappy. He had noticed that week by week. Surely she was not happy. The minister was an
indecent man, cutting that prayer short in so unceremonious of fashion. While he wondered,
the elders didn't notice his carelessness, but after the sermon there would be another prayer,
just a glimpse long. He had that to look forward to. He made a mental note of the text,
which the children would be expected to repeat at the dinner table,
and then settled down, to be disturbed no more by sermons.
He had long ago acquired a certain immunity to them.
A breeze cooled the warm worshipping faces,
and from outside came the soothing hum of bees,
and the impatient stamping of fly-bitten horses.
The minister's voice was rich and low.
The younger children slept first, unashamedly, against the older ones next them,
and then, gradually, one God-fearing farmer and another, exhausted by the weeks haying,
nodded, struggled, surrendered, and slept.
Wally was wide awake, waiting for the last prayer.
There was no time to be lost when the petitions were so short.
He turned his head, and there, oh, Kirstie was looking at him. With head bowed, but eyes wide open,
she was looking at him. Hungrily, tenderly, pitifully, just as he wanted her to look. Their eyes met,
and her face blossomed red. She turned her head hastily away. Let her turn away. Let her pray.
He knew, now, that was enough.
For some reason she didn't mean him to understand, but he had found out,
it was all right. He could wait. He could wait any length of time,
if only she would look at him again in that way. The congregation had risen, and had begun the psalm.
He would tell her, then and there, how glad he was, how he understood.
He lifted up his voice and sang,
sang louder than anyone else. That was what Alan used to do when the service particularly bored him.
He would sing the last psalm louder and clearer than the whole congregation, with the face of an earnest, humble angel,
while his elders admired and his contemporaries hid their amusement as best they might.
Kirstie would know Wally was sending her a joyous, patient answer.
What did it matter that in going out she never once would turn towards him?
Perhaps that was the way of women.
They don't just tell you all that is in their hearts.
It was all very well.
He knew what she was thinking.
After dinner, he said he was going down to the swimming hole,
where the assembly of cousins proved week by week
that the heat had prevailed over the shorter catechism.
but instead he rushed eagerly and cautiously over to Kirstie.
He knew there might be someone with her on Sunday,
and he left his horse some distance away,
intending, if he saw others there, to come back and wait.
There was not a sound to be heard as he crept up,
though he stopped, listening.
He hesitated and drew nearer.
Then he saw her.
She was sitting in the little plot of shade the cabin made on the doorstep,
and her head was bowed on her arms.
On a bit of rag carpet on the ground, her little sister was sleeping.
Kirsty didn't hear him.
He went cautiously nearer, not wanting to startle her.
He stood still, scarcely knowing how to be the least unwelcome.
What was this he saw?
What was this?
She was crying.
He stood still, watching her carefully.
She was shaken with sobbing.
His impulse was to run and take her in his arms,
but he knew now that he must be careful.
You can't be impetuous, it seems, with women,
at least not with that one.
He had tried that once and learned his lesson.
He slipped behind the barn and stood wondering what to do.
After a few seconds he peered around,
cautiously. There she sat, crying shakenly. He tried vainly to imagine a reason. Perhaps her uncle was
complaining of having the responsibility of her and the children alone there. Perhaps she was actually
in want, perhaps in want of food. Perhaps the other girls have been talking about going away to school,
and she was heartbroken because her mother's plans for her education were not to be carried out.
Maybe she had just seen a snake.
He remembered his mother saying that,
after Jeannie McNair had had to kill a snake,
she used to sit down and cry.
Some women did things like that, he knew,
not his mother and sisters, but some.
He peered around at her again, most uncomfortable.
Her sobbing was terrible to see.
He felt like a spy.
He refrained from going to her
because something warned him
that if she had not welcomed him before, she was less likely to do so now, when her face would be
distorted with tears. But he remembered that prayer look with hot longing. He stood hesitating.
Presently, he looked again. She was just lifting her head to wipe her nose, and she saw him.
She gave a little cry, and, jumping up, ran into the cabin and slammed the door behind her.
as if he were a robber.
Then she came out, even more insultingly, more afraid,
and caught up the sleeping baby and carried her away to safety.
She needn't barricade the house against him, need she?
Wally thought angrily.
Then he remembered her face in church.
He would sit down and wait a while.
He would wait till Dodd came home and see what he could learn from the lad.
But when he looked again,
towards the house, there she was, sitting inside the door, and in her hands she had her father's
old gun. How preposterous! How outrageous! If she didn't want him as a lover, she might at least
remember he was Wally McLaughlin, a decent, harmless man, waiting for him with a gun.
Could it be that the girl was losing her mind? Her mother had never recovered from that shocker
of hers. Could Kirstie have been unbalanced by her mother's death? He wouldn't think it. That would be
disloyalty. But somebody, his mother, their aunt, somebody ought to go to her by force and get her
away from this lonely place. Who could tell what a girl might do with a gun? One thing he knew,
he wasn't going away and leave her there alone, so madly armed and weeping.
After a while, Dodd came home, a red-faced, sweating little lad,
and sat down contentedly with the soldier in the shade of the barn.
He was, of course, barefooted and clothed in jeans,
and his fitful haircut did no great honor to Kirsty's skill as a barber.
Surely he must know what she was crying about,
and he would know that Wally would not be one to make light of her grief.
What's happened, Dodd?
He began at once.
When I came up, Kirstie was sitting on the doorstep crying.
What's the matter? Don't you mind her?
Dodd was instantly resentful.
It's nothing I done.
He was decided and scornful.
She won't even let me go swimming a minute.
She wants me to stay here all the time.
She cries all the time, no matter what I do.
This was worse than Wally had expected.
Was she crying before now?
he asked. She cries all the time, I tell you. He spoke carelessly. Girl's tears were nothing to him.
She cries when she's eating. She gets up in the morning crying. She's daft. You mustn't say that, Dodd,
said Wally sharply. Can't a girl grieve for her mother without being called daft? That's no way for a man to
speak. Dodd was abashed, but unconvinced. She's not grieving for mother.
he answered, defending himself. She's grieving for herself. This sounded good to Wally.
He hoped she was unhappy for the same reason he was. How do you know? He demanded.
She says so. I says for her not to cry about mother, and she says she wasn't. I'm crying for
myself, she says. Wally had no longer any scruples about finding out everything he could from the boy.
What she's sitting with that gun in her hands for, Dodd? Does she shoot many chickens?
Her? She couldn't hit a barn. She's afraid. That's what's the matter with her.
What's she afraid of? Nothing. What's there to be afraid of here? I don't know what's got into her.
Tell me now, Dodd, begged Wally. My mother would want to know. Does Uncle John see that you have everything you need?
That's not it.
exclaimed the boy proudly.
We have enough.
Some of them would come here and stay all the time,
but she don't want them.
She won't have anybody here,
and we're not going to church again.
This last he undoubtedly considered a decision worthy
of the most tearless girl.
Wally, who seized upon trifling straws,
saw a promise in this.
She wasn't going to church again,
and she had wanted a good look at him.
But what was it?
Why should she be so silly?
Why wouldn't she let him make her happy?
She wouldn't need to be afraid if he was with her.
He saw that Dodd knew not much more than he did
about the explanation of his difficulties,
but Dodd at any time might find something enlightening
while he coveted his help.
It really beats all the way you run this farm with your father gone,
he affirmed.
When he gets back,
I'd like to hire you myself.
He saw the boy relishing his praise.
You must treat Kirstie like a man, Dodd.
You mustn't blame her for crying.
It's the way women do sometimes.
You say to her when you go in
that my mother is always waiting to do for her.
She's the one that can help her.
She don't need to cry anymore.
We can fix things right.
You say that to her, Dod,
and tomorrow I'll ride over and see what it is.
You tell her we'll fix everything for her.
He went away in uncertainty and distress.
He ought to tell his mother how things were.
The idea of that girl sitting there with a gun,
as if she didn't recognize him.
Or maybe it would be better to go to his aunt Libby Keith.
She ought to know.
He didn't like going to anybody.
It was his affair.
He couldn't think of insinuating to anyone.
that the girl was, well, not quite right in her mind. He must be very careful.
And then her face came before him, loving him. After all, it was just his affair and hers.
There was some reason why she must wait, but she loved him. His mind dwelt on that,
rather than on his inexplicable rejecting. He decided that, in the morning,
he would ride over to the Keese and ask, in a roundabout way, what the trouble was with Kirstie.
But in the morning he felt so certain that she loved him, in spite of everything, that he announced to his father that he was going over to cut slough grass on his 80,
to use in thatching his new barn, having decided to go to Keese, less conspicuously, in the evening,
This was the first time he had as much as mentioned his own farm all summer.
His father was pleased, but his mother protested.
Why should he begin such work on the hottest morning of the summer
when he hadn't really been able to help in the haying at all?
He might easily be overcome with the heat in his condition.
But Wally, it seemed, was at last feeling as well as he had ever felt.
He had been loafing too long.
He must begin to get something done on his own place.
So down in his slough, he worked away with all his might,
and now that his heart was light and his fever broken,
it was no contemptible strength he could exert.
About the time he was so hot, so soaked through with sweat,
that he must sit down for a rest,
he saw a horseman coming towards him.
and upon that meeting there depended the destiny of generations.
He smiled when he saw who it was.
Peter Keith was a cousin of both Kirstie's and his,
the only remaining child of their aunt Libby's and Uncle John Keese,
the smallest adult of Wally's 71 cousins,
being not more than five feet seven,
and he was, by far,
the most worthless of them. Of course Peter would be riding leisurely over after the mail
in the middle of the morning while the haying was to be finished, and the wheat was white and heavy
for harvest. His excuse this summer for not working was that he had a disabled foot. He said that
he had accidentally discharged his gun into it. Peter Keith was such a man that when he told
that story, his hearer's faces grew shrewd and thoughtful, trying to decide whether or not he
really was lazy enough to hurt his own foot in order to get out of work. There was no place for
laziness in a world where men existed only by toil. It was like chronic cowardice in the face of the
enemy. Peter's mother, to be sure, said he wasn't strong. Libby's way and
of hanging over him, of listening to his rather ordinary cough. Her constant babying of him
was what was spoiling Peter, many said. Wally had always been more tolerant of him than some of the
cousins were, because he could never imagine a man feigning so shameful a thing as physical weakness.
If Peter didn't want to farm, why insist, he argued? If he wanted to go west,
To get into something else, let him go.
He might be good for something somewhere,
but his doting mother would never listen to such hard-heartedness.
The two of them made themselves a shade in the grass
and talked away intimately.
Lolly was more affable than usual,
having resolved upon first sight of Peter
to learn something from him.
Peter was always full of neighborhood news.
Tam McQueen had bought ten acres more of timber, and the sproles were beginning to break their further 40, and so on and so on.
Wally was screwing up his courage to introduce the subject that was interesting him, in some casual way.
Peter was the last man with whom he cared to discuss Kirsty, but he was exactly the one who might know something valuable.
He delayed the question at the tip of his tongue, till even the lazy Peter thought it was time to be riding on and rose to go.
His foot wasn't really much hurt, but he hadn't renounced his limp.
It was then or never with Wally, so he said, trying to appear uninterested.
I was writing by McNair's yesterday, and saw Kirstie sitting there crying.
What do you suppose she would be crying?
about, Peter. Peter gave him a sharp look, and grew red in one moment.
How the devil should I know what girls cry about? He asked angrily. It's none of my business,
nor yours either. A cry of frightened anger like that sent an excitement through Wully.
You know very well what it is, he cried. You've got to tell me. It's some of your doings.
Peter was jumping into a little.
his saddle. I'll tell you like hell, he shouted. You'll tell me before you go. Let go, my bridle.
Let go, I tell you, it's none of your business. His face told terrible secrets that Wally had never,
till that moment, imagined suspecting. Now he was pulling him down from his horse.
Let me alone. It's not my fault. Take your hands off me. I never meant to hurt her. Peter was fighting
desperately for his freedom. Wally was trying to control his insane rage.
Stand still and tell me what it is. I'm not going to hurt you. He cried scornfully.
What are you afraid of? Don't be a baby. But his grasp never relaxed. The boy was afraid he would
be shaken to death. Let me alone. Take your hands off me. Let me go and I'll tell you. It's none of your
business anyway. He was
free now and trembling.
I didn't mean to get her into trouble.
I wish I'd never seen her.
I offered to marry her once.
He dodged Wally's blinded blow.
You marry her!
He cried murderously.
You marry her!
The first realization of his meaning
had filled Wally with a lust to kill.
Peter had sprung away.
He gained his horse.
Wally ran after him.
All the oaths he had ever heard.
came back to him in his need. He ran furiously after the fleeing seducer. He called after him
ragingly. He threw himself down, too shocked to think plainly. So that was Kirstie's
sickening secret. That was why she was afraid of him. That was why she was defending herself
with that poor old gun. This was why she had left her uncle's house and avoided others. Kirstie,
betrayed and desolate. Oh, it was well he was trained in killing. He would go after Peter Keith
and make short work of him. He would break every bone in his body. There was no death long enough,
large enough, bitter enough for Peter Keith. Wally lay there weak with rage, crying out curses.
Anger, what little he knew of it, had always been to him an exhausting disease.
He gave himself up to it.
He was so dazed by this revelation that he never thought how time was passing
till he heard the voice of a little brother calling him.
It was long after dinner time.
Why didn't he come home?
His mother was anxious about him.
Was he ill?
He rose and stumbled along home.
The sight of that kitchen was a blow to him,
so innocent, so habitual it looked, so remote from violence and revenge. The dishes had been
gathered from the table. The girls were beginning to wash them. His mother came forward solicitously.
What was the matter, she wanted to know? Wally stood blinking. Murder? Had he thought of murder
in a place of peace? Instantly he had come far back on that road.
to his habitual self, when, with a shock, he came against the criminal fact of Peter.
He was ill, he cried. He wanted to rest. He couldn't eat. He shut the door of his room and sat down,
bewildered, on the edge of his bed. Thoughts of the old security and of the new violence
clashed in his mind. His gun stood in the corner. He reached out and took it. He reached out and took
and sat fingering it, like a man in a baffling dream. At length, from the kitchen,
there came a burst of happy laughter. That was his sister laughing, his sister Mary,
laughing. Yes, Mary was laughing, and Kirsty sat there sobbing, sobbing and shaking. In that
unbetrayed kitchen, one of the children had said something absurd that had delighted Mary.
He knew that outburst. Mary was a girl safe, and Kirsty was undone. A girl people would scoff at. Not while he was alive. He threw himself down on the bed. He began thinking only of the girl. If he killed that snake, who would Kirsty turn to? Who, if she no longer had him? She was alone. Defending herself, fighting for herself.
That was what she thought of men. She didn't know any better. He would kill Peter, certainly.
But what was to become of her, then? After a while, lying there, he began to see a way out.
He saw it dimly at first. It grew persuasive. Peter had been always talking about running away
west, had he? Well, he would run away that very night. Either that, or Wally would destroy
him. Wally would have that girl, as she was, if he had to fight the whole country for her.
His terrible anger still shook him, but there was Kirstie to save, for himself, and for herself.
If he killed Peter, what good would that do her? It would make her notorious. The way he saw
was better than that. It was an ugly way, but it was safe for her.
A situation hideous forced upon them, a thing which had to be faced out, like the war,
from which there was no escape but victory. If he got rid of Peter, why should he not have her?
Possession of her was worth letting the betrayer go scot-free for, wasn't it? She had no one but himself
now. And yesterday, in her straits, in her despair, she's,
had turned her face towards him. By suppertime, his mind was perfectly clear about the course he would
take. He rose and ate something, excitedly reassuring his mother that the son had not prostrated him.
He felt all right. He had only to settle with Peter, and then...
Peter was sitting securely between his father and mother in front of the house, when Wally rode up
that evening, and demanded a word with him in private. Peter hesitated. He did not dare to fear his cousin
before them. He went cautiously out through the dusk towards him. Daylight was almost gone,
but Wally turned his back deliberately towards those who sat casually watching. He didn't want them to see
the hate he felt mounting over his face. He didn't want anyone ever to suspect what he was going to
do. He spoke to his cousin only a few sentences, then he turned and rode swiftly away.
He came to Kirstie's. She was sitting there in the dusk. Her head bowed in that despairing way.
He gave his horse to Dodd, with the command, and strode over to where she sat. She needn't
try to resist him now. It was useless. I know the whole thing, he whispered.
I've got it all settled.
He took her in his arms.
She needn't struggle.
It's all right.
He'll never frighten you again.
You can't get away.
I've come for you.
Dawn found them sitting there together.
Indeed, Wally had to urge his horse along
to get home in time for breakfast.
The McLaughlins were assembled for their unexciting morning cornmeal,
all at the table together,
when Wally announced, in a fine, loud voice among them,
"'I'm going to be married today, mother.'
Her spoon was halfway to her mouth.
It was some time before it reached its destination.
"'Wolly!' she gasped.
"'Well, you needn't be so surprised. I am.'
"'Is it Kirstie? Could they ask that?'
"'I am that pleased,' she cried.
Oh, she wouldn't have liked anything else as well.
She looked at him narrowly with delight.
But you'll kind of just be married today and the harvesting coming on.
You bet I can, replied her American.
Indeed, he never could, not to Kirsty.
They must do something for Jeannie's Kirsty, make her some clothes.
Wally scoffed at the idea.
She had plenty of clothes, of course.
were going to drive to town and be married, and he would buy her whatever she needed.
He refused to listen to them. Kirstie might decide not to have him if he gave her time.
"'Hawvers!' exclaimed his mother. As if Kirstie didn't know her own mind. That was no way to talk.
Isabel couldn't imagine, of course, that Wally had any real reason for such misgivings. Was it likely a
girl would not have her Wally? If he would just listen to her a moment and wait even till
the morrow, they would call the friends in and have a wedding worthy of Kirstie's mother.
It occurred to him that, under the circumstances, a plan so respectable might have advantages
for Kirstie if only she would consent. And his father began planning how soon he could spare
men and horses to begin hauling lumber for the house.
End of Section 4. Section 5 of the Abel McLaughlins by Margaret Wilson.
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The McLaughlin House shone ready for the guests the next evening.
The light that glimmered out through the dusk came from as many new kerosene lamps as
could be borrowed from the neighbors. Inside the house, beds had been removed to make room for dancing,
though Isabel McLaughlin sighed, to remember that there would be, at best, an indifferent fiddler,
not one with a rhythmic dancing soul, like her Alan. Indoors, mosquitoes hummed through the light and
odor of the lamps, and out of doors they attacked, whoever turned away from the series of
smudges the boys had built and were carefully guarding from flame between the house and the barn.
Wagon loads of well-wishers came driving up as it grew dark, and with each arrival,
the pile of pieced quilts on the chairs in the bedroom grew higher, and the collection of
wedding presence in the dooryard grew noisier and broke loose and ran and was pursued with shouts
by the assembled half-grown boys. Some guests brought ducks, and some hens with small chickens,
some gave maudlin geese, and some bewildered and protesting young pigs. The squire gave a heifer calf,
The Keith's, poor distracted Aunt Libby and Uncle John Keith,
brought two heavy chairs he had made the winter before from Walnut.
The bride was not visible.
Wally had guarded her carefully, even from a minute alone with his mother,
ever since he had arranged her wedding.
He told his mother, now that Kirsty had consented,
she was worried about what her father would say when he heard about it,
and because it was so soon after her mother's death.
Isabel McLaughlin reassured her.
The wedding was the best possible solution of the situation.
Let them just leave Kirstie's father to her.
She comforted the girl earnestly, being distressed by her face.
She hoped in her heart that the marriage would put an end to the girl.
newly developed and stubborn depression. She couldn't understand why. Now that the guests were
arriving, the bride should still seem just terrified. No less word described her condition.
Isabel McLaughlin could do nothing but leave her with Wally. In his room, where he sat,
holding her close against him, every time she said, I can't do this, Wally, I won't.
He kissed her again, powerfully.
She must go through with it now, he whispered to her.
Even the minister was waiting for them now.
He led her forth, at last, into the parlor.
She was wearing the white dress her mother had made for her the summer before,
which Mrs. McLaughlin had ironed that day,
and freshened with her daughter Mary's cherry-colored ribbons.
Wally, harassed.
by the trivial necessity for respectable garments, was wearing the suit his mother had made for his
brother John to wear to college in the fall. It didn't fit Wally altogether, but then it scarcely
fitted John at all. In a space, in the midst of their unsuspecting kinsmen, they stood,
the bride, as pale as death, the groom, nervously hiding his fear that, at the critical minute,
his bride might altogether reject him.
He kept watching her covertly,
as the minister tried the patience of man and God
by the length of his prayer.
He tried to stand near enough her to support her.
When the invocation ceased,
everyone in the room lifted his head,
except the bride.
The minister explained, interminably,
the nature of holy matrimony,
He exhorted the pair to mutual faithfulness.
Wally felt her tremble.
Will you have this man to be your husband?
He asked at length.
She kept silent.
She couldn't raise her head.
Wally felt his heart beginning to beat furiously.
She was going to refuse him,
in spite of all he had done.
There was an awful moment.
The room seemed to be hushed
and waiting. It was terrible, the length of that moment of silence. At last he spoke forth simply.
You wouldn't think she would, but she will, won't you, Kirsty? Those standing near heard his words,
and as the outraged divine whispered sternly, answer, he bent down and kissed her. She looked around like one in a nightmare.
Her lips moved. The minister accepted the sign. He proceeded with a ceremony. The smile which
Wally's words had occasioned spread from those standing nearest, even to those who were looking in
at the windows, those who pretended to be leaving room for the rest, but were really thinking of
their unsuitable bare feet. The minister had made them, man and wife. The crowd,
gathered around them. The squire gave Kirstie a resounding smack on her cheek.
Girls were pressing around her. The roomful was gathering near her. But she swayed,
and fell against her husband, and fainted quite away. Of course, that fainting was altogether
the smartest feature of the hurried wedding. Not many hard-working prairie women had bodies
which permitted such gentility. It was a distinguished thing to do. The women who saw it
forgot for a while to comment on the strange appearance of the bride, which they understood more
fully later. At the time, it seemed no more than a proper honor to pay Jeannie McNair's memory.
When she was herself again, Wally found a place for her out of doors. Planks laid on boxes
and chairs made seats for supper, out there where the smoke defended them, and since there was
no back for her to lean against, she having just fainted and all, it was only proper that Wally's
arm due its duty around her, and it was necessary that it gave her little strengthening messages,
while inside the more zealous young things danced to the fiddle that was not Allen's.
Out in the warm starlight and the smoke, the older guests talked to the bride and groom.
Aunt Libby joined them again when by chance they were for a moment alone.
Tell me again what it was, Peter said Wally, she begged.
He felt Kirsty shrinking against him.
He told me in the morning that he had decided to go this time for sure.
I told him he was foolish.
and I wrote over again to give him some advice in the evening.
Kirstie's hand stirred nervously within his,
and he held it more firmly.
And did he not say where he was going?
He only said West.
That's all he said in his note,
she sighed brokenheartedly.
It's a strange thing he wouldn't heed you, Wally.
Wally gritted his teeth.
He certainly heeded me that,
time, he thought grimly to himself. He had already told his aunt those nicely dovetailing lies
half a dozen times, and each time he had felt them crushing his wife. He wished his aunt would go
away and leave them in peace. After all, her cursed Peter hadn't got a taste of what he deserved.
Finally, the wedding was over. Time, however it drags, must eventually pass.
They had driven away together after he had changed John's good clothes for a fresh hickory shirt and jeans, leaving Dodd at the McLaughlin's.
They had had 24 hours of the unfathomable luxury of unhindered intimacy.
The baby's sister was asleep.
It was bedtime again.
The new family sat down for prayers.
Not that Wally was a man deeply religious, but,
As far as he knew, daily family prayers was one of the things a decent man does for his family.
They had read that morning, according to Custom, the first chapter of Genesis,
and that had been most satisfactory, even quite personally interesting now,
all about male and female, created he them.
It had come over Wally with a chuckle that, divine commands,
have seldom been as satisfactory to humans as that first one was.
And now, in the evening, he had read the first chapter of the New Testament.
He resented that.
He wouldn't have read it if he had remembered what was in it.
That story of Mary's humiliation might seem ever so slightly to reflect upon his wife,
and that right he denied even to the word of God.
They were sitting together on the doorstep, and his lips were not far from her ear.
"'Yon was a strange man, now, Kirstie,' he began.
"'What man?'
"'That Joseph and Matthew. I fear he hadn't very good sense.'
"'Why, Wally, and him a man in the Bible?'
"'I don't care. He didn't know much. He didn't know enough to take his own lassie till an angel told him.
"'A man like that! He was a man. He was a man.
daft, or else, I wonder at you, Wally, or else what? I doubt the lassie wasn't really
Bonnie, not like mine. A deeper embrace, more kisses. Oh, Wally! It was growingly inevitable that the
news, the determined news, must be broken. Wally, with his whole heart shrinking from the task,
made light of it to Kirstie.
Wasn't having her better than anything he had ever imagined.
He hadn't really known at all at the time.
How greatly he was enriching himself.
If he had been ready then to shoulder whatever blame there might be,
he was ready now to do it a dozen times over.
He didn't mind, in the least, telling his parents about it.
Accidents of the sort happened among even the most respectable people,
from time to time. It was in vain that he tried to reassure her. It might be all very well for him to
talk so, but when everybody knew about her, oh, what would she do then? Was it that she doubted him then?
Wasn't he going to be with her? If by chance there should be one neighbor, rash enough to see
anything not perfect about his marriage, he would tell her for sure there would never be a
another. It was his mother, she thought most about. What would his mother ever do when she heard it?
That was nothing. Well, he would go and explain it all to her after his fashion. Falsely, his wife
insisted on saying wretchedly. His mother would be angry, of course, at first, and give him the
scolding of his life. But she'd soon get over it and come over bringing Kirstie a lot of baby clothes.
"'Cirstie would see if she wouldn't.
"'Why hadn't he explained it to her then?
"'The last time he went over for that purpose,
"'if it was so light a matter.
"'The children happened to be all at home that day
"'because the teacher was ill,
"'and he had got no word alone with her.
"'He didn't add that he had been highly relieved
"'to find them all there.
"'He would go over at once
"'so that the burden would be off Kirsty's mind.
having arrived at the scene of his humiliation the next morning he saw his father coming from the cornfield with his hands and pockets full of chosen ears of seed corn
walley met him in the path just behind the barn and they greeted each other without a sign of affection what did wally think of these ears walley felt them critically one after another with his thumb and found them good
His father started on towards the barn.
I want to tell you something, father.
He stopped, without a word, and stood, listening.
We're going to have a baby.
Tis likely.
I mean in December.
December?
In December?
Yes, that's what I mean.
John McLaughlin's long, keen face,
which changed expression only under great provocation,
Now surrendered to surprise.
He stood still, looking at his son penetratingly, a long time.
Wally kicked an imaginary clawed back and forth in the path.
Presently, the father said,
with more bitterness than Wally had ever heard in his voice,
It seems we have brought the old country to the new.
Wally pondered this unexpected deliverance without looking up.
After a little, the older man added, sighing,
I prayed my sons might be men who could wait.
A lot he knows about waiting, thought Wally, half angrily,
thirteen of us.
You tell mother about it, father, he pleaded,
knowing his entreaty useless.
I will not.
I wish you would, I can't, very well.
You'd best.
Wally stood watching him tie the yellow ears into clusters on the sheltered side of the barn.
He was trying, with all his might, to gather courage to face his mother.
He hadn't felt such a nervous hesitancy since the first time he went into action.
He remembered, only too well, the last time he had really stirred her displeasure.
Alan and he had quarreled and had nursed their own.
anger, in spite of her remonstrances, for two days. He had growled out something to his brother
across the supper table, and after that she had put the little children to bed, and had set her two
sons down before the fireplace. It was in the first house they were living then. She had drawn her
chair near them, and had proceeded, quietly and grimly, to flay them with her tongue. She had
continued with deliberateness till they were glad to escape, half-crying, to bed.
He remembered still how she had begun.
It might be natural, she said, for brothers to quarrel,
but she believed that it would never again be natural for her sons to quarrel in her presence,
and she had been perfectly right about that.
What she would say now, upon an occasion like this, with her dismay,
Maying self-control, he couldn't even imagine. It would be nothing common, he felt sure.
On the bed which she had just finished spreading with a drunkard's path quilt, they sat down together
in a low room of the second story, where three beds full of boys were accustomed to sleep.
She kissed him fondly when he came to her, saying it was a lonely house with him away so much.
She wondered why they had not been at church.
Was Kirstie not well again?
I have something to tell you, Mother, he stammered.
I am listening, she said encouragingly, her eyes studying him tenderly.
How beautiful a head he had.
How beautiful a man he was.
We're going to have a baby.
In December, Mother.
Over her face, their spread sweat,
swiftly, a smile of soft amusement.
She had always looked that way when one of her children said something especially innocent
and lovable.
You don't mean December, Wally?
Didn't you ken that?
The weans cannot just hurry so.
He couldn't look at her.
I know what I mean, he said doggedly.
I mean December.
I understand.
The silence became.
so ominous that, at length, he had to steal a look at her. Her incredulous face was flushed red,
with shame and anger. He rose to defend his love from her. You aren't to say a word against her.
It wasn't her fault. Then the storm broke. Do you think I'm likely to say a word against
the poor, Gritin Baron? She cried. Her sitting there alone, among the
the wolves and snakes, and a son of mine to bring her to shame.
I'll never lift my head again.
Her rush of emotion quite choked her.
My fine, brave soldier of a son, she burst out, recovering herself.
You did well now to choose a lassie alone, with neither father nor mother to defend her from you.
Mother, he cried.
Genie's weak, hasty, she went on.
"'No one else could please you, I suppose.
"'Oh, she did well to die when her son was but a laddie.'
"'Wretchedly ashamed of his deceit as he was,
"'he was not able to take more of her reproof
"'without trying to defend himself.'
"'I didn't mean any harm,' he mumbled.
"'I didn't think.
"'That was what Peter had said.
"'And why did you not think?'
"'She demanded, furiously.
Have you no mind of your own? You didn't know what you were doing, I suppose. Oh, that I should have a son, who is a fool.
How terrible mothers are! Fool was a word she hated so greatly that she never allowed her children to pronounce it. It was her ultimate condemnation. He had never heard her use it before, and now she used it for him.
"'This is why you've been ailing all summer? You'd reason to be. Did you think you could do evil and prosper?'
He wasn't going to stand any more of that tone. He got up. "'I'll be going,' he exclaimed.
"'There's no place for me here.' No sooner had he used those words than he regretted them.
They might seem to appeal to her pity. That was what he had said once when he was a little
lad upon seeing a new baby in her arms, and afterwards, whenever she had shown him a new child,
she had reminded him of it gaily.
"'Don't go,' she answered, unrelenting.
"'There's always a place for you, whatever you elect to do.
This is a sore stroke, Wally.'
Then she added, wearily and passionately, when I was a girl, I wanted to be some
great person, and when you all were born, I wanted only to have you great men.
And when you grew up, I prayed you might be at least honest, and I'm not to even have that,
it seems.
He had heard her say that before.
He was so sorry for her pain that he hardly knew what to do.
If only there had been any other way out.
Maybe Kirstie had been right in demanding he tell at least to do.
his mother, the truth. But he would not. He would not share his wife's blame.
I'm sorry about it, mother, he pleaded. I'm sick about it. I've done what I could to make it
right. To make it right. Do you ever think you can ever make wrong, right? You have spoiled your
own marriage. You'll never be happy in it. Don't worry about that. And you the oldest, she added.
suddenly. I suppose the other six will be doing the same now. If a brother of mine did a thing like
that, I'd kill him, cried Wally fiercely. It soothed her to have something not tragic to reprove him for.
Wally, she said severely, don't you speak words like them here? Tis something you learned in the army.
A fine one you'd be to say who should live and who should die. We didn't say,
the like here.
I can't please you in any way,
he cried,
stung by her up ratings.
Strange ways you have a trying,
she retorted.
He said nothing.
She cried again, presently.
If only it had been some other girl,
Wally, not genies.
What could he answer?
Mother, you come and see her.
She needs someone.
Thanks to you,
to my son.
I won't can speak to her. That shamed I'll be of you. She thought a bitter moment.
Alex McNair will be home before December. You'd best come here to me. Wally, if any other mouth in the
world had told me this, I wouldn't have believed it. You were always a good boy, always,
before the war. I've got to go, he cried and answered. He wrote. He wrote. He
rushed away, damning Peter Keith into the nethermost hell. The open air was some relief.
If only women wouldn't take these things so hard, well, that was over, the worst part.
Any taunt that he might ever have to defend himself from would be easy after that.
After her unkissed son had gone, Isabel McLaughlin, reeling from the blow he had dealt her,
sat with her hands covering her face.
Nothing but Wally's own recital
could ever have made her believe such a story.
It was even thus incredible.
If only it had been any other girl but Jeannie's,
and her dead,
scarcely dead either,
till her son, betraying years of trust,
had shamed her daughter.
If Jeannie had been alive,
she would have gone to her in humiliation,
though it killed her. Now there was not even that comfort. There was only Kirstie left,
and her in such a state. It was not possible to believe her good, beautiful son had done such a
base thing. If it had been any boy but Wally, had he ever given her a moment of anxiety before,
did not the whole clan like him, knowing him for a quiet, honorable, sweet-tank,
boy, eminently trustworthy, and now a thing like this to fall upon her. She refused to remember
that Alan's irresponsibility, his extravagant pleasure in the society of women, of any size or kind
of woman, had made her anxious many an hour. That son, from the time he was twelve,
had fairly glowed when there was a woman about to admire him. But while he was a woman,
had only chuckled over his brother's kaleidoscopic love affairs, things so foreign to his
nature. His mother, remembering Alan's escapades, exempted the dead loyally from blame. If
Wally had been like that, she might have understood this tale, but he was not like that. He had
never been at all like that. It must be the army that had wrought such evil changes in him.
That was what had undone her years of teaching.
That was what had made all this frontier sacrifice barren.
Was it not for the children's sake?
They had endured this vast wilderness, and endured it in vain,
if the children were to be of this low and common sort.
In their utopia, it was not to have been, as it had been, in the old country,
with each family having a scholar or two in it,
and the rest toilers, here they were all to have been scholars and great men,
and now the war had taken away Wally's schooling and Allen's life,
and not only Wally's schooling, which was, after all, not essential to life,
but that ultimate gift, his very sense of being a McLaughlin.
Some Americans might have smiled to know that this immigrant family
never for a moment considered Americans in general
their equal, or themselves, anything common.
They were far too British for that.
Until lately, it had never occurred to them
that anyone else might manage some way
to be equal to a Scot.
Until the war, when some young McLaughlin
had shown signs of intolerable depravity,
his father had entirely extinguished
the last glimmer of it by saying, as he took his pipe out of his economical mouth,
"'Din'ye act like a Yankee?'
So witheringly was that reproach that no inequity ever survived it.
Now that that Yankee of the Yankees, Harvey Stowe, had been a very brother to Wally
through campaigns and prisons, that denunciation was to be heard no more.
But surely, Isabel McLaughlin moaned, her husband and herself, had not let the children think that they were anything common.
Had she not hated all that democracy that justified meanness of life, and pointed out, faithfully to her children, its fallacy.
She remembered the first time she had taken them all to a Fourth of July celebration in the Yankee settlement,
where a bare-footed, tobacco-spitting, red-haired orator of the day,
after an hour of boasting and of braggings, had shouted out his climax,
saying that, in this free land, we are all kings and queens.
A fine old king yawn, she had chuckled again and again,
explaining his folly to her flock.
A man like that had no idea what a king was.
he most likely had never even seen a gentleman.
She recalled that Wally, once when he was quite a small boy,
had alone and unaided, found and identified a gentleman whose team was struggling in a swamp.
He was a poor old gentleman, trying manfully to get an orphaned grandson to a son's home, farther West.
And Wally had brought him proudly home, and his mother had done for him,
till he was able to travel on. Having him in the house had been like having a pitiable angel with them.
When he was better, they had called all the neighbors in, and the old New Englander had preached
them a sermon. He had preached to the children about the Lamb of God, using as his text the Lamb
tied near the door, and they had never forgotten how gentleness, he said, had made God great.
And when he had been starting on, John McLaughlin had taken a bill from his pocket,
and bills were things not often seen by the children, and given it to him humbly,
for the benefits his presence had bestowed upon the family.
Afterwards, when his mother had asked Wally
how he had known the stranger would be welcome,
he had said he knew he was some great man
by the way he spoke to his floundering horses.
Oh, surely in that wilderness,
Wally had known the better ways of living
and he had chosen despicable ways.
She was only an old, tired, disappointed,
woman. If her first-born, that lad Wally, had done a thing like this, what might not the rest of them
choose to do? Pride did not let her remember that if the family had been in no generation without a man
of more or less eminence, neither had it been without a precedent for Wally's conduct. She was a woman
who had sympathy with the mother of Zebedee's sons. If she had been there with Christ,
she would have asked, unashamed, for four places on his right, and for four on his left,
the nearest eight seats for her eight sons. What dreams she had dreamed for them.
Once she had beheld the President of the United States consulting his cabinet,
and behold, her wally was the President, and, after she had beheld her Wally was the President, and
Alan, the vice-president, and the cabinet, consisted of her younger lads, even young
Huey sitting there, still only nine, with a freckled little nose and a wisp of a curling
lock straying down from his cowlick towards eyes shining with contemplated mischief.
She had felt at the time that such a dream might be somewhat, perhaps, foolish, and profiting by
Joseph's distant but well-known experience, she had told it only to her husband. He diagnosed her case
in one instant. You dream that's wide awake, woman. She had thought at times that Alan was to be
another Burns, a maker of songs for a new country. In her dreams, to be great was to be one of
three things, a Burns, a Lincoln, or a Florence Nightingale, and now one dream,
her first and longest, was permanently over. Wally was a man now, and a man who brought women
to ruin. Sometimes it seemed to her as she lay there moaning that surely the girl must have
enticed him into this evil. Then she came swiftly to blaming the whole thing on Alex McNair.
If he had come home when he should have, if he had not left the girl unprotected there,
this would never have happened. Blaming Alex violated no fond loyalty. In time, it came to seem
to her that the whole fault was his. But that afternoon,
the small McLaughlin's coming home from school
found a state of affairs new in their experience.
There was absolutely no sign of a baby in the house,
and yet their mother was in bed.
Once, she said when they asked her anxiously,
that her headache,
and once she said that her heart was troubling her.
End of Section 5.
Section 6 of the Abel McLaughlin's by Margaret Wilson.
This Librevox recording is in the public domain.
The autumn seemed to set itself against the house that Wally had determined to have ready for occupancy before winter.
Week after week, the roads continued so deep in mud that six oxen could not manage to haul a load of lumber.
the mere 26 miles.
Kirstie was not as much disappointed by the delay as her husband.
She rather liked being hidden away just then,
on the outskirts of the settlement,
in her father's lonely cabin.
She had seen no one but Wally's mother
and her aunts into whose chagrined ears,
the humbled Isabel McLaughlin,
had poured a story as sympathetic as possible,
blaming Alex McNair for this fruit of his unfotherly desertion.
Mrs. McLaughlin had come at once to see Kirsty, after Wally's revelation,
apparently utterly pleased over the prospect of a grandchild,
never intimating by a syllable that she saw anything deplorable
in the unchristian haste of his advent.
Her kindness had naturally humbled the girl more than any reproof could have done,
and, after a long cry, the two had been friends, both relieved that estrangement was a thing of the past.
One afternoon, late in November, Mrs. McLaughlin came as far as Kirsty's with her husband,
who was going on to the Kese on an errand.
It seemed to Kirsty then, and often afterwards, that one who had not seen loving-kindness incarnate in her mother-in-law, had never seen it at all.
Her own mother had been a sad, repressed woman, well loved indeed by her children, but as far different as possible from this great cordial, brimming woman, who seemed so capable of anything,
that might ever be required of her. One couldn't imagine her hesitating, complaining, broken in spirit.
Kirsty sat beside her sewing, an all-filled pupil in the things of maternity. It was comforting,
when one was feeling daily more wretched, to be assured by the mother of thirteen huskies
that a baby is just nothing whatever but a joy, no trouble worth speaking of.
Did Kirsty remember that her brother Jimmy had been just Wally's age?
Many was the time Jeannie McNair and Isabel McLaughlin had sat together waiting for those two and sewing,
and Jeannie had said so-and-so, and Isabel had answered thus and thus.
Once she had said to Kirsty's grandmother that she wouldn't like to have just a common baron,
and the old woman had replied that,
there was not the least chance of it, for no woman yet had mothered just a common child.
In Scotland, too, when a baby was born, one had to lose the flavor of joy, wondering where
its food was to come from. But in this land, crying aloud to the heavens for inhabitants,
there was no anxiety of that sort to dull one's happiness. What had it been to them,
but an omen of the new home's abundance, that the John McLaughlin's had had twins born the year of their
arrival, that the Squires had had twins within six months, and that before the year was gone,
the weirs from the same Earshire village, were also blessed in the same way. To be sure,
Squire McLaughlin, had uttered a word which might not have been taken to signify altogether pure
satisfaction with these godsends the morning after the double increase in his family.
He had gone to his barn, and finding that his dearly bought cow, which was to have furnished
him milkers, had given birth to twins, he had sighed a sigh which became a tradition,
and murmured, bull calves and lassie weans. The men had laughed at that, but the women considered it
a rather cheap thing of the old wag, even as a joke. And so they talked on, until the clouds
covered the sun again, and they heard the wind rising noisily, as they drew near the fire to
consider their knitting in the light of it. The older Mrs. McLaughlin, who was, as usual,
doing most of the talking, looked enviously around the kitchen from time to time. She knew she was
considered a capable woman, and she had a fine family, yes, certainly a fine family,
in spite of this affair of Wally's, but she could never keep house as Jeannie did, or even
Kirstie. She could, of course, polish her kitchen to some such a degree of lustre for special
occasions, but to maintain such a brightness was out of the question for her. There had been
no white sheets on the wall here for some time now, but each little pane in the window glowed
from its daily polishing. The bits of rag carpet seemed always scarcely yet to have lost the marks
of their folding. So recently had they been spread down after washing. Even the fireplace was
more kept than any other fireplace. The back of it had always just been scraped and scrubbed and whitewashed.
Isabel wondered if her son realized the degree of this beautiful neatness.
After a while they heard a wagon drive in, and Mrs. McLaughlin, thinking it was her husband,
rose and began leisurely wrapping her knitting. There was no hurry about going. Her man had best
come in and warm himself. She stood buttoning her old gray faded coat about her. It had been made,
mantle fashion in Scotland, before she had grown so large, and she had increased its capacity
by the simple device of putting broad black strips of cloth down either side of the front,
where it fastened. Afterwards it had needed new sleeves, and hadn't apparently sulked about
having new ones of a brownish-gray homespun woolen. It had nothing to sulk about, in fact,
It was still given plenty of honor as a good serviceable garment.
Mistress McLaughlin was wrapping round and round her throat, a knitted scarf,
pulling it carefully up around her ears, when the door opened,
and in walked, not John McLaughlin, but that tall, gaunt, thin-faced Alex McNair.
With those little round, black, piercing eyes shining out from under,
under the straight black brows.
And after him, a woman!
A woman in olive-green silk,
with black fringe around a puffy overskirt,
and such fur and gloves as Isabel McLaughlin
had seen only in her travels,
and Kirstie never remembered seeing in all her life,
the two of them, coming right into the room.
McNair, seeing Isabel standing there,
cried, blinking,
"'Will, wheel, you hear, Isabel, wheel, wheel, this is Barbara, Isabel?'
Kirstie had shrunk in fear and confusion, back into her seat.
But the older woman showed no signs of confusion.
She looked the grand wee body over majestically, and replied,
"'Is it indeed, I hope she fares better than Jeannie, Alex, dying here alone.'
Alex had bent down to kiss his daughter and seemed to be not so much impressed by this greeting as the little woman was. She continued,
"'I have just been sitting a while with my son's wife. You may not remember Kirstie was married,
you having so grand a time in Scotland.' "'Worb yourself,' he said to his wife, indicating a chair,
"'I'll be bringing in the kissed.'
out of the door, which had not yet been shut, so suddenly and quickly had it all happened.
Mrs. McLaughlin's manner changed at once, and she began helping the amazing stranger out of her
wraps. How could those two who watched, so impressed by the richness of them, and so unbetraying
of their impressions, how could they have imagined seeing her the deceitfulness of those little,
innocent, hesitating airs.
The garments were scarcely laid gingerly on the bed, until Alex returned, carrying,
with Bob McNorkel's help, a great box, which they seemed to plan to leave in the middle of
the floor.
Kirstie remonstrated and gave them directions.
It seemed from Alex's grunting and hard-breathing words as the box was put in the only
possible place for it, that he and his bride had ridden out with Bob, who had to be hurrying on.
Alex went out of the door with him, and after Alex, Isabel the Avenger.
"'I'll just have a word with you,' she said to him, stepping inside the barn to be out of the wind.
It was a powerful word. Had she not planned it many a night, as she lay sleepless, thinking of
Jeannie and her daughter.
I ain't mind the day you brought Jeannie home a bride, she began.
T'was no day like this.
None of them would ever forget the day she died deserted.
Never had Isabel McLaughlin had an occasion worthier of her tongue,
and never a stronger motive for making the best of the occasion.
McNair was a slow-moving, slow-thinking man, not without tenderness.
Isabel's recital of grim detail after grim detail, as he stood there amazed, remorseful,
humiliated, angry, tired of his journey, and chilled to the bone, overwhelmed him.
He could scarcely follow her. It seemed that the whole clan was bitter against him,
not only because of his wife's death, but because some way his absence had to be able to
brought disgrace beyond disgrace upon the McLaughlin's. He could scarcely understand. Wally and
Kirstie had waited and waited for him to come home, and he would not, and fine results these were of
his delay. They were married now, but not soon enough. The girl feared to marry without his
permission, if he had only come when they wrote for him to. He wasn't to blame the Kese or any of the
neighbors for this. They had done what they could. He was to be very careful what he said to
Wally, none too pleased with him, and always hot-headed, and to Kirstie. It was all his own
fault, he was to remember. The man was staggered. He liked this news all the less, because all the day
the little new wife's spirits had been sinking as they traveled over the prairies away from
the world. Now to bring her into a disgrace of this sort. He was shivering. He wanted to get in to the
fire. I have nothing against Wally, he murmured to the woman who bearded him. He's a fine man for the
lassie. Nevertheless, when they were inside again, Isabel watching saw his face darken with anger
as he realized Kirstie's condition.
She saw, too, that the girl had seen it,
and she determined not to leave the house till Wally would come.
She busied herself to make tea for the strange woman,
sparing her daughter-in-law with the consideration
which so beautiful and so fruitful a woman deserved.
She sat herself to make the wee body feel at home.
Dodd came in from school,
and she noticed, without relenting, the warmth of his father's greeting.
Even the little lassie was persuaded to go to his lap.
Alex was probably wishing Isabel would go home and leave his family in peace.
But she would wait.
McNair was telling something about the passage across when Wally opened the door.
He paused a moment, seeing the room full.
He looked at them in surprise.
And they looked at him with various degrees of admiration.
He came from cutting and hauling home wood for the winter,
and the wind had made his cheeks as red as the fringe of the scarf around his neck,
and his eyes as blue as the knit wool of it.
In the old coat wrapped about him, he filled the door,
a huge young man one would not like for an enemy.
His mother had just begun to tell the strange woman that this was her son, when Alex rose and stretched out his hand.
Come away, man, come away, he cried cordially. It was not the kind of meeting Wally had anticipated,
but what could he do with his mother and the women right there, but acknowledged the little women's salutation
and give his hand to Kirstie's father? And taking his cue from him,
his mother, he smiled so warmly down upon the wee body, that, then and there, she began
liking her stepson-in-law. His mother began at once giving him instructions. He and Kirstie had best
begin packing their things. His father would be along any minute now, and they would all go home
together. Wally would no longer be needed at McNair's, and with all that work to be done on his own
house. McNeer interrupted her decidedly.
"'Hauts Isabel, you cannot take Kirstie away the night.'
One would almost think she was the McLaughlin's daughter to hear Isabel.
That manipulator of events smothered the retort that came to her upon this.
She simply enlarged innocently upon the inconvenience of Wally's having to ride every day
from this place to his own such a distance.
McNair could understand that, but nevertheless they weren't going one step tonight.
Wally winked slidly at his wife.
He didn't know exactly how his mother had worked at all,
but it did him good to hear his father-in-law begging for the privilege of his company for a while.
That man he had expected to have such a time with.
Isabel yielded gracefully at length.
They might stay the night without a while.
but they mustn't stay longer.
With her big girls both away at school,
she was that lonely for Kirstie.
Then the elder McLaughlin came in,
and the greetings were all gone over again,
with this difference,
that John McLaughlin,
being less quick at taking hints from his wife
than his son had been,
showed just enough coldness to McNair
to let him see that
Isabel's account of the clenade,
Anne's opinion of him was not exaggerated. Naturally, after the worthy McLaughlin's had departed with so
little of the old cordiality, Alex was more eager than ever to placate Wally, who, divining that
Kirstie dreaded her father's outburst against her, stood very much upon his dignity, a rather forbidding
son-in-law. When the young two were alone in the kitchen that night, Kirstie said,
weary with the day's excitement and her first taste of shame before strangers.
Whatever will she say in the morning when you're not here, Wally?
He answered.
But you care what she says.
Anyway, she don't look like she'd say anything.
Just you hold your head high, and she won't dare.
It's well enough for you to talk of holding your head high, but how can I?
I'll stay about in the morning, and in the afternoon we'll go home. I'll say we must go.
So they planned, little knowing, how useless it was, to fear the wee body. In the next room,
she was saying to her husband, You never tell to me you lived in a sty. Hutz, woman, tis no sty,
and I, thinking you like a laird with so many fine acres.
It's a new country. It's an old sty.
Had she not, from the train, seen many a little snug place among comforting hills,
livable little places, but that had been, to be sure, far from this, in the east.
The further west they came, the more they traveled into desolation.
Lonely enough places she had seen, but none so on.
unpromising as this sty. Could it be expected that a man was so disconsolate a bride would add to her woe
by rehearsing the fresh scandal of the family into which she had come? She remarked at length that it was a
terrible thing for Alassie with the baby coming. Why had he not told her of that before? He hadn't
remembered to. It was a fine place for Bairns. Just let her wait till the spring came.
She remarked that it was many months till spring. He snored more or less successfully.
The next morning the new mother unpacked the great kiss to get out the presents she had brought
for her stepchildren. She unpacked till the poor room lay heaped high and hidden under richness.
Wee Jeannie had a fine doll. Dodd had fur-lined mittens.
Kirstie had a collar of lace, more soft and fine than she had ever seen.
And the wee body presented these things with that timid, conciliatory air
that made her career later so hard to understand.
She apologized for having nothing for the baby.
If she had known about that, she would have brought it something
good. When was it to be born, she asked, point blank?
Kirstie, blushing to the unruly little curls about her forehead, said in December,
this seemed to relieve her stepmother greatly. By that time, she declared, she could make a fine
little dress for it, out of stuff she had in another box. Another box! Were there then
other boxes? Of course, brides bring dowries to their husband.
the girl remembered with a pang,
but she had brought hers, only disgrace.
But the wee body talked on in a kindly way.
Kirsty watched her making friends with little genie.
She liked her very much.
That woman could never be anything but kind to the little sister
who was to be left in her charge.
Oh, Kirsty could have coveted that woman's love for herself.
But of course, when the truth about her,
herself became known, and when she thought of going to the McLaughlins, to live in that house,
full always of children and cousins and visitors, the center, as it were, and rallying place of
the neighborhood, her spirits sank lower and lower. Wally had learned before now to conquer
her depression, and he talked the cold hours cunningly away as they rode towards his
fathers. His reward that evening was to see his wife sitting there at the table, long after the
meal was over, forgetful of herself, telling his ejaculating mother of the dresses, the capes,
the mantles, the ribbons and feathers, reds and browns and greens and blues, puffs and ruffles
and tucks, all of these out of one box. And besides the one, there were three others.
left at the station to be brought out, full of, whatever did they suppose.
They couldn't imagine.
Isabel was trying to fancy how Alex had enticed a woman so obviously rich to the wilderness.
She was disappointed in this marriage.
She had hoped when Alex married again he would get a woman who would show him how to treat
a wife.
But that timid wee body, meekly.
like, with faded red hair and mild light blue eyes. There would be no hope of her ever separating
him from the price of a milk crock. Anyone could see that. The poor wee thing, married to Alex
McNair. End of Section 6. Section 7 of the Abel MacLachlands by Margaret Wilson. This Librevox recording
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Kirstie used to say afterwards,
when Wally's younger orphaned brothers and sisters
would try to thank her for making her home their own,
that she had never spent a happier winter in her life
than the one during which she lived with her mother-in-law.
That partly explained to them,
her detestation of all mother-in-law jokes.
She would never try to concede.
her contempt for any low person, proved low by the very act, who repeated one in her hearing.
She had never realized until that winter what a shadow her mother's tragedy had cast over her
childhood, until she came to live among the hilarious young McLaughlin's.
It was as if, set free from the fear and shame of the summer, her life expand.
in all directions to make room for the three great loves that came to her.
The first and greatest, her redeeming husband, the second her little son, and the third her mother-in-law,
who overcame her by the most insidious kindness, by such a simplicity that the charitableness of her
deeds became apparent only upon later reflection. There were even hours when she sang with the
children and laughed in such self-forgetfulness that her eyes grew demure and saucy again.
But at other times, if by chance the house was quiet by day, or at night when she was unable
to sleep, the shamefulness of her position came back upon her,
like an attacking pain.
The more she grew to appreciate Wally's mother,
the more intolerable his deception of her seemed to her.
Every time a visitor came into the kitchen,
and Isabel McLaughlin stood like a high wall between Kirstie
and the possibility of even a sliding insinuation.
Kirstie hated more the part Wally had forced upon her.
It was the only thing about which she dreamed then of disagreeing with him.
She begged him, she entreated him, she really prayed him, to let her tell the truth.
But he would not.
The only way to keep a secret was to tell not even his mother.
Some way always he overpowered her with foolish arguments.
She wouldn't do just the only one thing he had ever asked her.
her not to, would she? The only one thing that could make him hate her would be to betray him now,
after it was all over. It wasn't over, not for his mother, she argued. She pointed out that
some day it would all be known, some way. It was sin, and were they not to be sure their sin
would find them out? How could he grin
and make such an unbelieving face about such a thing?
She was helpless before him. He wouldn't even let her talk about telling anyone.
Her only comfort was that, some time, it would all come out.
And then he would have to say to his mother that every day
she had begged him to tell her the truth. He would have to take him,
all the blame for this unkindness, this cruelty.
It was only a few days before her confinement that one afternoon she sat knitting,
in that house of destructive boys, not even pregnant hands might lie idle.
She had been talking with her mother-in-law about Aunt Libby, whom they were expecting almost any
moment.
All the neighbors were talking about Libby Keith.
She had been away again, searching for Peter, in Chicago this time, on a clue so slender, so foolish, that even the most malicious tongues wagged with a sigh.
Her husband, to satisfy her, had gone searching for the sun to Iowa City, and there he had met a man who said that one day in Chicago he had seen a lad in a livery stable,
who afterwards he thought might be Peter.
He hadn't recognized the boy at the time, only knowing him slightly.
And he didn't remember exactly where the stable was.
He had been passing an odiferous door,
from which men were pitching out steaming manure.
Thereupon, Libby Keith had gone to Chicago,
and now she was futilely home again,
and she was coming to Isabel McLaughlin to pour out her restlessness.
Even winter weather could not keep her at home.
She went from house to house, seeking reassurance from those who could have none to give.
She had had no letter from her boy, and that proved to her that he was lying in some place ill, unable to write.
The neighbors scarcely dared suggest.
to her, that Peter might be, well, the least bit careless. Boys were at times, and thoughtless
about writing, but she would never believe that her boy was like that. It was not like him.
He would write her, that she knew, if he was able, because he had always been such a good laddie,
such an exceeding good laddie, that indecency, they seemed to have to agree with her.
Whoever went to town went laden with her instructions for inquiry.
They must ask everywhere if anyone had heard about a sick laddie trying to get back to his home.
Not a quiet woman, the neighbors reflected, not one of dignity.
one who never would scruple to disturb a world for her son.
Some of them recalled Isabel McLaughlin
when the news of Wally's death had come to her.
They had gone to her, carrying their consolation,
and she had rejected it with a gesture,
going softly about her work with a face that none of them forgot.
But Libby Keith took, thankfully, the crumbs of comfort they
saved for her and begged for more. She humbled herself to ask their incredulous aid.
She had no pride left. She had nothing left, but her anxiety for her worthless Peter.
She had had three children there in Scotland, when her brother John's letters from the new world
began stirring her kinsman. She lay bedridden reading them. She had had,
not moved from her bed for two months, even when John had taken his departure.
Nor would she ever again, the doctor said.
She lay there suffering when her second brother, Squire McLaughlin, came to say his last words
to her before leaving for America. Then her sisters said farewell to her there,
one after another, and her cousins, and her friends. And when she would say,
she would soon be joining them over there. They were kind and saw no harm in saying that they
hoped so. For two years she lay fighting, crying for pain, making her absurd plans. Her neighbors
tried to turn her mind away from such wild ideas by ridicule. They hooted at her in disgust.
How was she to go to a new place, where there were no houses, nor any doctors,
nor any beds. Her brothers wrote her, sternly forbidding her to think of such a thing.
But were the children of others to lord it over utopian acres in a new world, while hers,
because she had married somewhat poorly, slaved along in an old one,
apprentices of some half-fed mechanic? Her husband resisted with all his might. He was no farmer,
He felt no drawings toward pioneer hardships, but his lack of them was in vain.
She rose, and took him and her three, and journeyed stoutly to her brother's house in Iowa,
where she was received with an awe that would have been greater if he could have known
she was to die at the fairly mature age of 92.
She had come thus for her children's sake to the new world.
Her oldest son, her Davy, a lad well-liked by all,
was the first of those who fell before the plague of typhoid.
That bowed her down.
She was nothing but a mother,
a woman who nowadays would be called rotten with tenderness.
Maternity was her whole life.
Then her one daughter married, her flora,
and shortly died in childbirth.
These things ought not to be.
Then Peter, who was all she had left to spend her love on, disappeared,
leaving in his place a scribbled paper.
No wonder, after all, that she sought him through cold cities.
When she came into the McLaughlin kitchen,
she bent over and patted Kirsty on the shoulder,
commiseratingly, sighing a sigh that recalled to the girl,
girl, all the agony of Flora's death in labor. She was a large woman, heavily built,
without grace, and with the long upper lip and heavy face that John McLaughlin and his children
had, and keen, deep-set, very dark blue eyes, like theirs. Since that long illness of hers,
her heavy cheeks hung pale and flabby. So you're back, Libby. Isabel,
was constrained to speak to her softly, as one speaks to a mourner. She deserted her spinning-wheel
and took her knitting for a visit. I'm back. You've no word of him. No word. Each of her answers
was accompanied by a sigh, most long and deep. They supposed you looked everywhere? I went about
the whole city asking for him.
How could you know how to go, Libby?
That was no trouble.
Men in Barns is that kind to a body.
I asked them in every one where the next one was, and they told me.
Sometimes they drove me in some carriage, and there was the cars.
I just said I was looking for my Peter, who was sick in some stable.
James McQueen went to the police and to the hospitals.
There's none better than the McQueen's, Isabel.
They have a fine painted house with trees about it.
They would have me stay longer.
James said he would be always looking for him.
She gave another great sigh.
How well, Libby.
Someday he'll find him.
Someday you'll get word from him, no doubt.
It's a fine place, Chicago.
The sick will be well cared for there.
It wouldn't be like New Orleans now.
Well, he says the lake is just like the ocean.
Did you see the lake, Libby?
I didn't see the lake.
I was eye-seeking Peter.
Isabel was determined to have a change of subject.
They say it beats all, the great buildings they now have in Chicago.
It'll be changed since we saw it.
I saw no buildings but the barns.
It passes me why they have so many.
There was a real old gentleman standing by the door and one,
waiting for something done to his carriage.
His son went to California in 49, and he still seeks him.
He said he would be looking for my Peter.
Yon was a fine old man.
Isabel tried to talk about the train, which was nothing common yet.
Libby told her in reply what each man and woman in her car had answered
when she asked if any had seen her poor sick laddie.
Isabel was constrained to tell what one and another of the neighbors hoped about the lost.
The squire had said that he would be coming back in the spring.
The boy could never stay in the city when the spring came.
came, he prophesied, whereupon his mother replied, that he wouldn't stay away now if he could
by any means get back to his home. And then she wailed, through a moment of silence. If I but knew
he was dead, Isabel, not wanting someplace, not grieving. That's true, Libby. I know that well.
I felt that way when I knew Alan was dead.
There was rest, then, no fear then.
They sat silent.
Kirsty bestirred herself guiltily to offer her bit of hope.
She felt always in a way responsible for Peter's departure.
However much Wally scouted the idea.
Wally hadn't told him not to write to his silly mother, had he?
Hadn't Peter always been whining about going west?
He would have gone, Kirsty or no Kirsty?
Wally told her she naturally blamed herself for everything that happened,
and she acknowledged that in some moods it did seem to her that she was the cause of most of the pain she saw about her.
She began now about the uncertainty of the males.
Didn't her auntie know that Wally never got but a few of the letters that had been sent him during the war?
It was Kirstie's opinion that Peter had written home
maybe many times, and the letters had miscarried.
Maybe he had written what a good place he had to work and how much wages he was getting.
They considered this probability from all sides.
And Libby's attention was diverted to the girl.
Isabel McLaughlin was not one of those by any means,
who saw in Libby's search something half ridiculous.
Her boys had been away too many months for that.
She had deep sympathy for her, and for that reason Libby came to her more often than to others,
nearer of kin. But now she did wish Libby would stop asking Kirsty those pointed,
foreboding questions about her condition, stop sighing terribly upon each answer.
She was making the girl nervous, and in that house there was no place for nervousness.
Libby dwelt pathetically upon the details of her daughter's death,
upon the symptoms of her abnormal pregnancy.
She kept at it, in spite of all Isabel's attempts, to divert her, until she was about to go.
She rose then, and gave a sigh that surpassed all her other sighs, adequate to one oppressed
by the whole scheme of life.
She said,
It oughtn't to be. There should be some other way of them being born without such suffering and pain, with a danger divided between the two. I think.
But what she thought was too much for Isabel, who had no patience with those who fussed about the natural things of life.
How is Libby? She exclaimed, how can you say such things?
and thinking only of herself and the woman before her, she cried passionately,
How can you say that it's the bearing of them that hurts? It's the evil they do when they're grown.
That's the great pain. We want them to be something great, and they won't even be decent.
Can you share that with anyone? Her words, so poorly aimed, missed their mark,
and struck Kirstie.
She bowed her head on the back of the chair in front of her.
Isabel, returning from seeing Libby away,
found her sitting that way, sobbing.
She began comforting her.
Kirstie wasn't to listen to what that poor daft body said.
Why, Aunt Libby scarcely knew what she was saying.
No fear of Kirstie dying.
She was doing fine.
and well as a woman ever was.
But Kirstie couldn't stop crying.
She sobbed a long time.
Isabel was putting cobs into the fire,
when at last Kirstie lifted her red face from her arms
and sat erect, trying to speak.
I don't care. I might die.
I'm going to tell you something.
And she fell to crying again.
Isabel came and stood over her,
A fierce hope gleamed uncertainly for a moment in her mind, and went out again.
What are you going to tell me, Kirstie?
She asked kindly.
If ever you tell, I told you, I suppose you'll break up everything between us,
she sobbed.
I don't know what Wally'll do if he finds out.
Maybe he won't have me.
Maybe he'll turn me out.
Her excitement excited Isabel.
Kirstie wasn't just hysterical, she saw.
You needn't fear I'll tell, she exclaimed loftily.
I don't go about telling secrets.
Oh, it would never be the same between us again if he finds out I told you.
He'll never find out from me.
Then Kirstie sat up, sobbing heroically.
You needn't say while he's doing evil.
He isn't. He couldn't. This isn't any fault of his. It isn't his disgrace.
I never supposed it was his fault, said his mother. Kirstie never heeded the insinuation.
I mean, it isn't his. It isn't his baby. Years might have been seen falling away from
Isabel McLaughlin. She sat down slowly on the chair against which Kirstie was leaning.
She could scarcely find her voice.
Are you telling me, it's not Wally's Wien?
She asked at length.
It's not Wally's.
Bewildered, she asked.
Whose is it?
I can't tell you that.
It's not his.
And you let us think it was.
Oh, mother, I couldn't help it.
Oh, I didn't know what to do.
and he just did whatever he wanted to.
He has everything his own way.
And he wouldn't let me tell you.
Every day I've told him he ought to tell you,
but he wouldn't, Mother.
And if he finds out I've told you,
he might even, oh, I don't know what he'll do.
She sobbed passionately.
Isabel put out her hand and began stroking her hair.
He'll never find it out from me.
Oh, I conno-scent.
it, she cried.
Whatever made him do it?
He did it to help me, Mother, to help me out.
Oh, I wanted him to tell you before we were married.
It just seemed as if I couldn't marry him without telling you,
but he didn't want anyone to know he wasn't like me.
He says, what does he say, Kirstie?
He says he doesn't want anyone to know it isn't his.
He doesn't want them to know about
the other one. Mother, I'll make this right sometime. You trust me. Someday I'm going to tell
how good he is. Isabel began kissing her. Oh, Kirsty, you did well to tell me. You needn't fear I'll
ever let him know. His own mother, this is the best day of my life, Kirsty. She rose and began
walking about the house in her excitement, unable to contain her delight.
He never was an ill child, Kirsty. He wanted to help you out, I see. There never was one of the
boys as good as Wally, and so gentlelike. She began poking the fire, not realizing what she did.
He'll never know you told me. Don't you cry. I knew he was good. I never believed that
story of his. It wasn't like him to do such a thing. It was like him to help you.
She went to the door presently and called in the children who were playing outside.
And when they came in, she took little Sarah passionately up in her arms.
Your mother's young again, she cried to the surprised child. Young again. She gave them both
cookies. She comforted Kirstie. She comforted Kirstie.
stopping in her turns about the room to stroke her hair.
She sang snatches of psalms.
He never was an ill child, she kept repeating.
She began making tea for the girl's refreshment.
She looked out of the window.
She clasped and unclasped her hands excitedly.
She shone.
An hour later, John McLaughlin drove into the yard with a load of wood,
and Wally was with him.
Isabelle threw a shawl over her head and went out through the winter nightfall to meet them.
Aunt Libby's been here, Wally, talking to Kirstie about Flora till she's having a great cry.
You needn't be frightened. She's lying on the bed, but there's nothing wrong with her.
Then, as Wally started hastily for the house, she drew close to her husband. He had begun to unhitch his horses,
She said, John!
At the sound of her voice, he turned, startled towards her.
What ails you?
He had begun to ask, but she was saying,
Yon's no child of Wollies!
His hands fell from the horse's side.
I can't it all the time, she cried triumphantly.
No child of Wollies?
He repeated.
He never done it.
I said so all.
the time. Now she's told me herself. He peered at her through the blue half-darkness that rose from the
snow. Not his, God be thank it. Whosoever is it? It's Peter Kese. Who's would it be? And her and Libby's
house half the winter. And Peter running away the very day they were married. Libby's that slack,
thinking him such an angel.
Did she tell you that?
She did not, but I can't it.
Did I not say Wally never did so ill a thing?
You did not?
It was a grand thing for him to do,
but I can't think what possessed him ever
to take all that blame on us.
Can you not?
Meditated her husband.
She says he doesn't want folks to know it isn't his.
He wouldn't.
Why wouldn't he, indeed, would he be wanting to disgrace us all?
He wouldn't want folks to know Peter had her.
That's but natural.
It's but natural I shouldn't want folks to think he'd shame Jeannie's Kirsty.
So it is, he agreed.
The thing looked well to the Lord, I'm thinking, he added.
I wish it looked better to the name.
neighbors, she retorted. This is a strange thing, John. She gave a sore sigh.
Libby grieving herself daft about that gomero already, so that we want can say a word to anybody
till he's found. Any more sorrow is killer. But when he comes back, I'll have her tell the whole
thing. She says she's been wanting to clear Wally. She's a good girl, John, but we'll have to
just bide our time. I'm glad I've no son like that lad, Peter. She had had to forget how he had
sacrificed her pride for that girl. She had to idealize her son again. She could see that he had done
a generous thing, and she would see that the world saw that. She could run to meet Jeannie now,
across the floor of heaven, unashamed.
Her husband stood enjoying her face.
He said,
"'It's early for boasting, woman.
You'd best wait twenty years.'
"'Little I fear twenty years,' she retorted.
A light shone down the path from the house.
Wally had opened the door and shut it,
and was coming towards them.
She wished she could take him up in her arms,
and cuddle him against her neck, kissing him as she had done in her youth.
She said quietly to him,
You needn't worry. It's only Auntie Libby that's upset her.
There's nothing else, sir.
He said anxiously, honestly, mother?
Wonder welled up within her as she looked at him.
There he stood before her, demanding honesty of her,
while for months he had been lying great fundamental lies about her very life, which was his honor.
Honestly, indeed.
But there he was before her, beautiful and unrealized, risen to new life in her great expectations for him.
She said only,
Honestly, there's nothing wrong.
End of Section 7.
Section 8 of the Abel McLaughlin's by Margaret Wilson.
This Librevox recording is in the public domain.
Barbara McNair had watched Wally and Kirstie driving away towards Wally's home
that afternoon after her arrival at the Stuy in the Slough.
It was raining then, and it rained for nearly six weeks.
She stood looking after them,
till they were out of sight.
Then she went to the other little window.
There she shut her lips tightly,
regarded what her eyes discovered.
Two bony cows, shivering, it seemed to her,
in the blown rain,
trying to find shelter from the wind
by huddling against the haystack
that was one side of the barn.
The rain was gray and sullen,
the prairies sodden and brown.
The cows had treas'ed,
trampled the ground between the house and the barn into mud, into which they sank knee-deep.
She stood contemplating. The rain continued blowing about in imprisoning drab vales.
Finally, she turned away and sat down weakly. From where she sat, she saw the dripping cows shivering.
She sat huddled down. She seemed trying to cuddle up against her.
herself. Her hands, folded in her lap, seemed the only sight not terrifying, that her eyes
might consider. Presently, the silence of the room was broken with a little sob. She looked up.
Kirsty's little sister, standing near the window, was just turning away from it. She had been
trying to see something of Kirsty. She felt deserted. Big tears were running,
slowly down her face. She looked like a neglected, ragged, little heartbroken waif.
Barbara started from her chair. That moment her face showed she had forgotten the surrounding
desolations. She ran and gathered the child into her arms. She sat down with her in her lap.
The little genie, finding herself caressed, began crying lustily. The new mother kissed her,
She caressed her. She soothed her, coaxing her into quietness. She told her little stories. She sang little songs, examining thoughtfully the poor little garments she wore. Dusk came upon them as they sat consoling one another. Barbara demanded help then of the child. Jeannie must show her where all the things were kept, which were needed for the supper.
They would make some little cakes together.
Jeannie grew important and happy.
Dodd's eyes fairly bulged with amazement when he saw that supper table.
Nothing of the sort had been set before him in that kitchen.
His new mother made no apologies.
She had been thinking to herself that it had been food of the most primitive sort
that had been set before her by Kirstie on the three occasions upon which,
which they had sat down to eat since she had arrived.
Doubtless, Kirsty wasn't feeling very well,
and she was at best but a young housekeeper,
whose omissions one could easily overlook.
Barbara was pleased with what she had managed to prepare
on the strange stove and in the newfangled oven.
She saw her husband scowling at the table.
I did not like so many cakes, he remarked severely.
"'One must begin with these women at once,' he seemed to be thinking.
"'He had forgotten, apparently, that his bride came from the very land of cakes,
"'though he wasn't to be allowed to forget it often in the future.'
"'She said apologetically,
"'They're not so good, I doubt.
"'I couldn't find any currants in the house.
"'When we get currants, you'll like them fine.'
"'There's too much in them now,' he declared bravely.
"'We don't have any curving.
cake every day. I do, she said placidly. I like a wee cake with my tea.
Alex McNair was not entirely a stingy man, not the most stingy man in the neighborhood.
He wasn't like Andy McPhee, for example, who was so careful of expenditure that when his
corn got a little high in the summer, he always took off his shirt and hoed the weeds in his
skin to save the wear of the cloth, and who persisted in habits of frugality so that, in his old
age, when he rode about in his grandson's Pierce Arrow, he removed his shoes upon seating himself
to save them from harm, and persisted in this till an able granddaughter-in-law urged him not to misuse
shoestrings with such extravagance. Nor was he like the elder John McKnight,
who when he went to mill, always took with him a hen tied in a little basket,
to eat the oats that fell from his horse's midday feeding.
McNair thought such extremes foolish.
He even laughed at McNight's device.
How much easier it was simply to gather the oats up by hand, as he did, dust and all,
and take them home for the hens in his pocket.
By this plan, the oats were saved, and the hen had a whole day at home to convert useless
angleworms into saleable eggs. He was not, this proves, an entirely stingy man, yet the idea
of cakes like those for just a common supper. He would have to show that woman his disapproval,
his disgust, his sharp pain at such extravagance.
He did his best then, and in the days that followed, to impress her.
But she was difficult.
She never lifted her voice in perturbation, and she never heeded a word he said.
When the howling of the wind woke him up at night, he would hear her sighing,
it's still raining.
When she looked shrinkingly out of the window in the morning, she murmured,
it's still at it.
When he came in for dinner, she would ask,
Does it ever stop?
At supper she sighed, like a weary child,
"'Tis a fine land of this,
For all the world as if he was to blame for the weather.
She had been housekeeping for him but two days
when he pointed out the woodpile to her.
Bring the wood into the house, she said,
as if that was a man's task.
I don't like going out in the rain.
The rain will not hurt you, he assured her, going about his work.
When he came in at noon, the fire was out, the room was cold,
and she and the little girl were asleep and comfortable in bed.
I don't like going out in the wet, she repeated simply,
as if she had done nothing outrageous in defying him.
He had to wait for dinner till the wood was brought in,
and dried and the fire made.
The next day she refused in the same passive, happy way
to bring water from the slough well.
She simply remarked,
she wouldn't think of going so far in the mud,
and waited till he brought the water.
He never knew that she had hidden enough water for thirsty hours
in a jug under the bed,
and was prepared to stand a long sea.
And then his boots were to be tallowed and dried near the fire.
His wife Jeannie had always tallowed his boots.
The new wife looked mildly surprised that he should have expected such a duty from her
and left the boots standing, muddy and soaked, just where they were,
till he was driven to caring for them himself.
And she kept asking him, hour by hour, mildly,
when he was going to town for her other boxes.
She asked him so often, so kindly,
that he was forced in despair to attempt the journey through the rain,
thinking that maybe if she had something to sew,
she would cease making cakes by the hour.
And when he started, she gave him a great list of groceries to bring back,
and ordered more sugar than his family ate in years,
He growled at this, just growled.
There had been enough sugar in the house when she came to last till spring.
They could not use sugar as if it were water.
Why not? she asked simply.
Wasn't he a great lord with acres?
She liked sugar.
He brought back with him only a little sugar,
and most of it the coarse brown kind,
and a jug of sorghum, which was,
to last till spring. She fell upon her boxes eagerly and adorned the sty amazingly,
with rich-looking things which never really seemed at home there. She made a new dress for her little
stepdaughter at once, and set about making Kirstie's baby a robe. She seemed almost to have
resigned herself to the deluge. She spoke with gaiety about her arc to the children,
and told them to keep their eyes open for the dove.
And then, just when she seemed to be getting settled, the winter set in.
Rains she had seen, and could understand, and snows too, in moderate fashion.
But snow like this, continuing.
Winds like these, whirling, darkening wild clouds of whiteness to burst against the windows and doors,
rocking the little sty, as if it were an insecure cradle.
winds with horror howling in them, howling all night through the shaken darkness,
triumphant, unconquerable winds against which no life could stand.
She had never imagined anything like them.
She had never before risen in the morning to find doors drifted tight shut, windows banked with white.
She had never seen men burrow out of windows,
to dig open their doors and tunnel away to their barns.
The well was as distant as if it had been in Patagonia.
The newborn calf froze in the barn with its first breath.
The men's ears froze, their hands froze, their feet froze,
everything in the house froze solid.
The bread had to be thawed out in a steamer over a kettle
before they could get a bite to eat in the morning.
The milk had to be pounded into little bits and melted.
The cold, its intensity, its cruelty, staggered her.
Her work would be done early in the morning,
while the men were yet melting snow at the stove to water their beasts.
That is, all the work she chose to do.
To conquer those long, dark hours,
she worked away on the baby dress. When it was all finished, alas, too soon for one having
endless time to beguile, she looked at it with satisfaction. She had made every stitch of it by hand.
It was a yard and a half long, with seven clusters of seven tiny tucks around the skirt,
with hand embroidery between some of the rows, and darned net between others. It was ruffled and
Shured, and smocked and feather-stitched, and hem-stitched, eye-ledded and piped and gathered,
and a tiny darned net bonnet, which went with it, was worthy of it.
It had taken many weeks to complete it, and always, when her eyes were worn by the fine stitching
in the flickering candlelight, she made cakes for a change, sparing white sugar with noble
economy using only brown sugar, whatever eggs were unfrozen, fresh butter and thick cream,
and raisins and currants while they lasted. From the day that Wally took Kirstie home,
until the first week of January, Barbara McNair had but one visitor in her prison,
and that one was her sister-in-law, Libby Keith. She had to turn to Dodd to companionship,
which no boy could have grudged to so unfailing a source of cakes as his new mother.
His Spartan scorn of the cold brought her, many a time, near to tears.
He was anointing his frozen ears one morning, and when she cried out in pity of him,
he remarked indifferently that this was nothing.
She ought to have seen last year, the time his mother died.
With what keen sympathy could she appreciate that story now?
She asked without hesitation.
It was no colder than this, was it?
She couldn't imagine anything worse.
Oh, said Dodd, they were alone last winter,
and his mother and Kirsty had sometimes to help shovel out.
But they had had Kirsty's husband, hadn't they,
to do that hard work for them?
Indeed they hadn't.
Dodd himself had been the man of the farm.
Wally had come but lately.
Not lately, surely, she exclaimed.
Yes, only in harvest.
They had been married right in harvest.
He was sure of it.
What month would harvest be in this land?
She had asked hurriedly.
He informed her and took up his story.
He had had to go alone that morning after his mother's death to his uncles to get help.
and hadn't it taken them three hours to get the sled over the two miles of drifted snow.
He told all the tale, even how the little sister was playing alone, and Kirstie had fainted.
All that afternoon there came little words of pity to Barbara McNair as she fondled her little genie.
Sometimes, when she was making that great, most magnificent cake, which appeared unashamed on the
supper table, she had to stop and wipe her eyes. Alex McNair had but begun to disapprove of that
delicacy when she ordered him so sharply to hold his tongue that he all but obeyed, and after supper,
she made him lift down her kists, which because of the narrowness of the sty, had to sit one above
another in her bedroom. She opened the third one from the top, and took out a dress,
wine-colored and soft, and looked at it carefully a long time, examining the seams. Then she sat down,
and by candlelight, began to rip it apart, basque and polonaise and all, to make a dress for the airing
Kirstie. It was the next afternoon that she saw a bobsled drive in.
She could see the bundled driver when he was yet some distance from the house,
but as he drew near and stopped, she saw another great be-shalled bundle
rise from behind the sideboards of the sled.
This bundle came at once towards the house,
wiped its feet carefully on the doorstep,
and, unwrapping layer after layer of covering,
revealed itself Isabel McLaughlin.
Mrs. McNair could heart,
hardly have been more surprised if she had seen an angel descending from heaven,
that any woman would be riding around the country and weather like this had not entered her mind.
Her concern seemed mildly amusing to her guest, who quickly disclaimed any conduct especially
praiseworthy. It wasn't really cold now, she explained. It was thawing. This was what is called the
January thaw. A body can't just stay cooped up in the house all winter, and besides,
and this was the great affair, Mistress McNair would be glad to know that she had a fine,
strong grandson, born a week ago, the mother doing well. Mrs. McLaughlin had wanted to bring the news
herself. She was that pleased. She had stopped two at a neighbors, Maggie Stewart's,
who had a baby exactly the same age,
a woman whom always before Mrs. McLaughlin
had helped through her confinement.
She didn't add, she had made that visit,
with the hope of lessening the fierceness of Maggie's slander-loving tongue.
Though if a good opportunity came,
she intended explaining to this newcomer
the unusual circumstances of the child's birth,
which, sooner or later she would be sure to hear some way.
But no opportunity came.
The new Mrs. McNair was so unfeignedly glad to see her.
She brought out that wonderful little robe so timidly
that Mrs. McLaughlin had to admire it even more than it deserved.
Kirsty hadn't many new things for her baby,
because there were so many little things of the young McLaughlin's
saved for future need.
Not that any of them had so fine a garment
as this Mrs. McNair had made.
Speed, rather than elaborateness,
had always been Mrs. McLaughlin's motto, necessarily.
But Kirstie would be that proud of such a little dress.
Mrs. McLaughlin could just see her delighted with it.
This seemed to comfort Mrs. McNair,
who then ventured to show the red dress,
all pressed and ready to be put together again,
by a method which she hoped would make it large enough
for Kirsty, that is, if Kirsty would not be offended by having a made-overdress offered to her.
Mrs. McLaughlin again thanked her and assured her that she need not worry about that.
Then Mrs. McNair wondered if Mrs. McLaughlin would take home to the girl her part of her mother's
housekeeping things, which the new mother had wrapped and made ready for her.
She had divided the few sheets and spoons and cups into two parts.
one for each of the sisters.
That is, she hoped Mrs. McLaughlin and Kirsty
would be satisfied with such a division.
Mrs. McLaughlin,
feeling sure that Alex had no knowledge of a plan so bountiful,
protested that Kirstie didn't really need the things,
that Wally could get her what she needed in the town.
But Mrs. McNair wouldn't hear of such a plan for a minute.
The lassie must have her share of what had been her mother.
She forbore to mention that she had brought a great deal of household stuff, of a quality
much superior to any she found awaiting her. Mrs. McLaughlin, impressed by this spontaneous
liberality, began to wonder if, after all, the avenging hand of God might not be seen in this
second marriage of Alex McNair. The hostess was overflowing with questions, the burden of
them, all being just the one unanswerable one, that constantly confronted her, namely,
how did civilized persons live through winters of this sort? Why did they endure life in small
prisons buried under snow? Had there ever before been a winter equal to this one? And did Mrs. McLaughlin
look forward with composure to living through such another one? Mrs. McLaughlin recalled with a
and sympathy, her own horror of her first winter, enlarging upon her experience.
Had not she and her husband, and their ten, and the squire and his ten, lived through one winter
altogether in an unfinished cabin, with a row of beds three deep, built right around the walls,
and a curtain across the middle of it. Often in those terrible nights she had risen from her bed,
to go about and feel the legs of her wee sleepers, to be sure they were not all freezing solid.
Of course, there had not really been as much danger as she imagined,
but one of the Macnights had frozen to death that winter being overtaken on his drunken way
homeward by a great storm. That had shocked her until she was really foolish about her children.
Her twins had been born that year, too, before the cabin was sealed,
and the first snow had drifted in upon the bed where she lay.
Fine strong bairns they were, too.
The cold really didn't hurt anyone.
Moreover, it drove the fever away,
so that they welcomed its coming in the fall,
when the whole family would be shaking at one time.
Fever wasn't as bad,
now, either, as it had been at first, though she still fed her family quinine regularly
every Saturday during the spring and summer. When the land had all been plowed once or twice,
there would be no more of it, to us said, and there had been much typhoid at first,
before they had realized how much more defileable the new wells were than those in the old places had
men. Five of the McLaughlin children had escaped typhoid altogether, which was very lucky indeed,
and none of them had died of it, although many of the young ones of the settlement had.
These things had all made a good deal of nursing necessary for thirteen, but undoubtedly the
worst days were over, and it was these winters, which made the children strong as little lions.
Every tree that was planted, moreover, every year's growth of their cherished windbreaks, took away something of the winter's severity. And when spring came, besides, in the glory of that season, one forgot the cold and all one's troubles. When would spring be coming? asked the longing stranger. Would it be in February, now that January, was said to be
Thawing? No, not February, nor in March. Sometimes it was a bit of spring-like by the
first of April, but the spring really opened in May. Everyone got out then. Oh, sometimes,
if the roads were good, the women got out to church in April. Once even there had been a large
congregation in March. Mrs. McNair sighed. It was a shame, now, commented her visitor,
that she should have had to be alone so much of her first season,
if there had been an older daughter.
Now, if Kirstie had been at home with her,
Mrs. McNair wondered timidly,
if Kirstie couldn't come home for a visit,
when it got a little less freezing.
Mrs. McLaughlin,
thinking quickly that Kirstie would surely be happy
with this simple gift-giving woman,
thought it possible that Wally might bring her over
for a few days in March, at least in April.
And when she saw the poor wee body seize upon this hope of companionship,
she felt more sure than ever that Kirstie would enjoy the visit.
If only she would come, that dress should be made for her,
Mrs. McNair ventured to promise, and she went on to get more information.
What sort of a little house would it be now,
that Wally was building for his wife.
What could houses be like in these parts?
How many rooms would it have?
Isabel explained that there were to be three rooms on the first floor,
a parlor, a kitchen and a bedroom, and two bedrooms above.
Certainly it would be plastered, all white and clean.
Doubtless it would be painted in time,
not just at first, of course, but as soon as Wally could manage it.
Of course it would have a fence around it, like those Mrs. McNair had seen from the train,
and trees most certainly.
They had been planted last fall.
Trees were one thing essential on the prairies.
Well, likely flowers too in time, although women as yet had so much to do that there
weren't many flowers about.
Mrs. McLaughlin had herself often sighed for a few wee rose bushes.
and she had a fine young orchard set out in flourishing.
Had not Alex McNair been in these parts as long as the McLaughlin's,
the new wife asked,
and Mrs. McLaughlin,
hiding her malice sweetly,
didn't doubt but what he would be setting out in orchard soon.
The poor wee body, she said to herself,
her wanting flowers and a man like Alex.
The pitied one set out such a tea,
she sent her guest home with such an abundance of sweeties for her barrens
that Mrs. McLaughlin talked hopefully about her all the way home to her husband.
She solemnly affirmed that the new wife would give away Alex McNair's last sock
if she could find anyone to take it, and for her part she hoped fervently that she could.
That evening, as Alex sat smoking his pipe, with his stocking feet well into the oven,
his wife asked him artlessly,
Will Kirstie's man have much now?
What would he have but this land?
But he's building a fine house.
He would.
The McLaughlin's wherever spenders and poor.
Not that the house would cost much, he added.
Now what would such a house as his begin?
costing. It seemed a natural question.
Four hundred dollars or maybe five. She was surprised, for once, almost excited.
You could build a castle with your money from Scotland.
Likely, he commented, knocking his pipe's ashes into the stove.
But a little house like the new one would do me fine.
Don't say new house to me, woman, he roared.
A great deal of good his roaring did him.
It was as if she never heard him protesting.
I cannot live in a stye, she explained, for the thousandth time,
and she said new house to him without ceasing, without haste or rest, by night and by day,
apropos of everything he mentioned, till he began to wonder if he were indeed a gun
God-fearing Presbyterian, with such murder in his heart.
He couldn't quite beat a woman, a small woman, no matter how utterly she might deserve punishment.
He could scarcely do that, but he sometimes wondered if there was any other measure of relief
for him.
He thought longingly of the silences of Kirstie's mother.
He remembered story after story of men who had beat their wives.
He experienced a sharp.
sharp sympathy for them. Doubtless, when men do such desperate things, they have adequate reason,
he reflected often. He was at his wits' end. He was in despair. That he might have made himself
comfortable by granting her request never occurred to him. He was already deliberating upon
certain pieces of land he intended buying. And that woman didn't seem able to believe that he would
really buy more land. She simply looked out of the window when he mentioned it, looked out of the
window at the winter, and then turned puzzled to look at him as of trying to fathom why anyone
should desire more of such a country. So February passed, tantalized by new houses, and March
got away, maddened by little white fences. Kirstie came over for her visit at home.
the first of April, and that first week was frenzied by plans his wife insisted on drawing of her
grounds and garden. Alex was no special lover of babies, but he was driven to feigning a prodigious
interest in his grandson to escape, even temporarily, from the meek, eternal din of her ambitions.
Kirstie had come with misgivings, somewhat doubtful of her welcome, but she perceived.
the first hour in the house that her stepmother was lonely enough to have welcomed the most disgraceful,
the most evil of women. She wondered sometimes if she was not dreaming. After all that had passed,
how strange it was to be sitting, honored in her father's house, coddled, waited on, made much of,
by this harmless stranger who cooked surprising rich things for her delectation,
and was making her the most beautiful dress she had ever seen.
She was so happy that she almost regretted that Wally came for her so soon.
Mrs. McNair was determined that she must try on the new dress to show it to him.
She had forbidden him at first to look in their direction,
so he sat with his back to them, holding his little sister-in-law in his lap by the fire.
After pinnings and bastings and warnings and ejaculations,
they had bidden him to turn and look.
Kirstie was standing by that window, in the sunshine,
where he had first seen her.
And now, turning towards her,
he gave a little involuntary gasp of delight,
more flattering than anything he could have said.
He had never seen her before,
in a soft, rich thing like that.
She had worn, of necessity,
grey or brown calico garments,
and the glowing crimson fabric
brought out the whiteness of her neck,
the darkness of her hair,
the softness of her coloring cheeks,
as he cried sincerely,
Why, Kirsty, you queen!
Turn around!
She turned around for his inspection.
Goodness!
He exclaimed,
I wouldn't have known you.
What do I do now?
I want can walk beside you in my old rags.
I'll have to get some store clothes.
They laughed for delight.
What do I get to match it?
He went on, looking at his mother-in-law.
I ought to have.
A purple coat or something magnificent.
Kirsty, do you remember that window?
She was standing there the first time I ever saw.
her, he explained to Mrs. McNair. And then at length, in their high young spirits,
they went away and left her alone there. She was a puzzled woman. A man like that,
and a scandal like that. It was incomprehensible, a man building so happily a new house for his
wife, with a little fence around it. That evening, Alex McNair, gave him a little bit of
vent to a great wicked, blood-curdling oath.
Most surprising, most improper, all for no reason at all,
apropos of nothing.
His innocent wife had simply remarked that
she couldn't live in a sty.
End of Section 8.
Section 9 of the Abel McLaughlin's by Margaret Wilson.
This Libravox recording is in the public domain.
The infamy of Kirstie's condition, becoming known,
had been scarcely less interesting than the scandal of Isabel McLaughlin's attitude toward it.
She herself had told her sister and her sisters-in-law what was soon to be expected from the girl,
and all her cousins and friends.
She had informed them of it casually, without the flutter of an eyelid,
as if, to be sure, a little less haste might have been, from some points of view, desirable,
but, after all, Wally's marriage was the one she would have chosen for him, if she had had her choice,
and the young pair would be happier with a baby.
The neighbors had certainly never expected,
Isabel McLaughlin to take on in such a fashion. Some of them had been annoyed at times by her self-reliance,
her full trust in her own powers, and were not exactly sorry to hear of this affair,
which must set her down a notch. But not a notch down would she go. Her pride, it appeared,
was too strong for even this blow. The way she talked about her expectations,
scandalized the righteous.
Maggie Stewart said,
one would have supposed
Wally had waited
ten years for that baby.
It had been bad enough
in the beginning,
but after the child was born,
it grew out of all bounds.
Her husband's younger sister, Janet,
a woman still of childbearing age,
came to remonstrate with her.
For the sake of the other young people,
people in the community, to say nothing of her own family, of half-grown boys and girls,
she really ought to moderate her rapture somewhat. She was just encouraging them in wrongdoing.
But Isabel replied simply that since she had always had to be painfully modest in praising her own
children, she was going to say exactly what she thought about this grandchild. She philosophized
shamelessly about the privileges of grandmothers. And after all, if she was his own grandmother who was saying
it, Janet would have to acknowledge that the baby was an unusually fine child. Janet did have to grant
that. She was the first one, too, to notice the remarkable resemblance the child bore to his father.
Isabel was grateful to her for that hint, and after that day, no visitor departed without agreeing that we, Johnny, was a living picture of Great Wally.
Isabelle would recall her son's infant features. Wally's nose had been just like that, and his eyes. She minded it well now. The child brought it all back to her. She had occasion to repeat
these reminiscences, for baby judging, giving a decision about his family traits, was nothing
less than a ritual among these Scots. A woman could hardly acquit herself with distinction in it
with less than six or eight of her own, and men, even fathers of thirteen, knowing how far short
of the occasion they would come, generally avoided it as best they might.
Squire McLaughlin, of course, was just brazen enough to enjoy such a ceremony.
He may have had some secret sympathy for Wally's predicament,
for he came over to inspect the child only a few days after it was born.
The squire was the playboy of the community.
None of them ever took him seriously,
and none failed to welcome him heartily in for a crack.
It appears that even his absurd pretensions
endeared him to his friends.
He fancied himself a great lord
before an acre of his estate was subdued
and sang a silly song about gravel walks and peacocks.
He never hauled a load of gravel to fill the mud hole before his cabin door,
but he did the easier thing.
He managed to have some gullible soul
send him a pair of peacocks.
They died promptly upon arrival.
He said, laughing with the neighbors at himself,
that it was the shock of seeing their laird barefooted
that killed them.
He was a farmer who rode forth
to preside at theorizing agricultural meetings,
while the forests of weeds, on his land,
grew unchecked, up to the heavens.
Even two years ago,
the wild sunflowers near a culvert on that farm reached the telephone wires.
He was later on one of the first men west of the Mississippi to have pure-bred bulls,
and, east or west, no man confused pedigrees more convivially.
From the first he considered it his duty to see that no Scottish folly was forgotten in the
New World, or even Hodgemini, allowed to pass unobserved. He was the man who all but popularized
curling in the West. Three times he had been left an undaunted widower with a family of small,
half-clothed children, his esteemed heirs and heiresses of only his gay fancies. Just now,
he was looking for a fourth helper to relieve him of the responsibilities of his
family, and such a man he was that, in spite of his follies, all wished him success in the
venture. He consulted Isabel about various possibilities, and she gave him her opinion,
with the frank statement that she pitied any woman who married him. However, he still liked her.
He had always liked her since that time in Ershire, soon after she had married his older brother,
when she had saved him from a long and well-earned term in prison for poaching.
His successful pursuers were almost upon him
when they turned suddenly in the wrong direction,
from which they had just heard firing.
She had seen his plight and fired cunningly into the air,
and when the men had rushed into her cottage,
they found only a young woman demurely so in.
on baby clothes. Now since, of course, it was impossible to poach in a land where not even God
preserved game. He was a reformed man and an eminent huntsman. But sometimes he still said jovially
that he might as well have gone to prison as to have to listen to all she said to him on that
occasion. Even yet he was not averse to giving her occasions of finding fault with him.
So when she lifted the baby up for his inspection, he rose and squinted down thoughtfully upon
the little bundle. He turned his head appraisingly from one side to the other. Then, knowing very
well what she thought, he said recklessly, he's a perfect little McNair, Isabel. He's like Alex,
That knows of his?
She enlightened him stoutly.
He persisted in his air, and only asked,
What's he called?
Now what to name the child
was a question not altogether easy for Wally,
who had been standing near his mother,
looking with proper paternal pride upon the child.
Each McLaughlin named his first-born son,
not boastingly for himself, but gratefully for his father, so that Johns and Williams came
alternatingly down through the generations. That was the rub. Perhaps John McLaughlin might not relish
having this irregular child bear his name, so Wally was too proud to seem to desire it.
He's such a husky little fighter for what he wants.
We thought we'd call him Grant.
There's no better name than that, is there?
His father was sitting by the stove, smoking,
seeming as usual, absorbed in a dream,
and only half-conscious of what was going on about him.
At this, he took his pipe from his mouth and said,
without a sign of emotion,
I wonder at you, Wally. The laddie's name is John. Wally was greatly relieved.
Oh, well, he said lightly, maybe that would be better. There won't be more than 14 or 15 John McLaughlin's
about in 20 years. Grant'll keep. We'll save it for the next one. Wally had rejoiced,
beyond measure, at the child's birth. Not for the reason some supposed,
but solely because Kirstie was safely through her ordeal.
So gay he had become, so light-hearted,
after that burden of anxiety for her had been taken from him,
that he seemed quite like a rejoicing young father.
It had been terrible for him to see her time unescapably approaching.
Those days seemed to him now like a nightmare.
He had planned what he would say to his wife when he adopted her baby for his own.
He would go blithely in and cry to her gaily,
Where's my son, Kirstie?
And the child would be his.
He had planned that, but it had been different.
That one irrepressible moan he had heard from her,
before his mother had sent him for the doctor,
had driven him through the night.
cursing, cursing that man, whose very name he hated to recall, cursing any man who lightly
forced such hours upon any woman, to say nothing of a dear woman like Kirsty. He wanted to kill
such men, to pound them to bits. And yet, lightly or not lightly, what would his love of her
bring to her, eventually, if not to such hours as these? It's a lightly. It's a lightly, it's a lightly, it's,
was a hellish night. Afterwards, he had gone in to see her, not blithely, but otherwise.
He found her lying there, hollow-eyed, exhausted, all her strength taken from her and her roundness,
leaving her reduced, it seemed, to her essential womanhood. And then suddenly, he had not been able
to see her for the tears that burned his eyes. He had knelt down beside her to put his face near
hers, so on seeing that she had cried sharply, don't be careful. He had hurt her, but her hand was
seeking for his. When she had shown him the child, well, he remembered that she had never asked him
for pity for herself. But now her eyes were praying,
My baby, love my baby Wally. With her lying there, even her familiar hands looking frail,
her hair lying wearily against her pillow. If she had asked him to love a puppy,
would he not have bent down to kiss it? Later, he had marveled to see her with the child,
a farmer, a man judging his very female animals by the sureness of their instincts for their young.
He wouldn't have wanted a wife, not greatly maternal, he told himself.
It came to be soon that in loving the child he was playing no role.
He liked all his wife's adornments.
So the terrible days passed away.
His wife became altogether his.
And we Johnny slept and thrived.
His tiny hands doubled against his little red face
in the cradle that had served the five younger McLaughlins.
When he opened his Bonnie Blue Eyes,
he saw only adoration bending over him.
He felt only delighted and reverent hands lifting him.
His grandmother, who just couldn't buy the house without a baby in it,
would sometimes allow one of her children sitting carefully in just a certain chair to hold him a little while as a mark of her favor.
If Johnny was ashamed to the household, he was certainly an entertaining and well-fed shame.
If he was a disgrace, he was surely an amusing and a hungry one.
It was wonderful how completely Kirstie was sheltered from.
from reproach, though her humiliation was gossiped about by the hour. After all, the gossipers had
to remember her mother, and sighing, grant the daughter some little toleration. And then,
however proud that Isabel McLaughlin might be, there was hardly a family in the community,
which had not, upon arriving from the old country, made Uncle John McLaughlin's their convenience
home till another could be built. Moreover, Wally had always been particularly indulgent to those
who were his aunts and uncles. Greatest of all, he was a soldier. Not far down the creek,
a Quaker soldier had come home from war without a leg, and his congregation had said,
if only he would say, even privately, that he was sorry he had fought,
he would again be received into their communion.
But he refused to say he was sorry,
and they refused to take him again to their approval.
That didn't seem to trouble the soldier very much,
but it had troubled the Scotch,
where he had come to work, extremely.
They loved to belittle the Quakers
for what they considered a meanness to a man who had fought.
so it behooved them to treat their own veterans with more consideration.
On the whole, there might have been much more gloating than there was.
There might have been battles.
Great, quiet, simple men like Wally, however,
people seem instinctively to avoid exciting to fury.
So Kirstie had scarcely had occasion to feel the awkwardness of her position
till the afternoon in early April when her stepmother came over with the finished dress to try on her.
Kirsty had dawned the beautiful, rich, wine-colored thing, to be sure it hung right and set right
and standing forth so that Isabel McLaughlin might view the effect.
She turned round and round while Barbara McNair smoothed out even imagining,
wrinkles. It was pronounced perfect. Mrs. McNair admired it, as if it were not her skill,
but the girl's beauty that made the gown remarkable. Then, beaming, as much as her little pale,
weak face could beam, she unwrapped a hat, a hat all wine-colored in black, and set it
jauntily on Kirsty's head, so that the long feather swept down over the brown coil of hair
low on her neck.
Kirsty was radiant.
She had never seen so lovely a hat in her life, she said, and she stood looking at herself
in the little glass, in surprise, a very happy surprise, to see how she looked in such
soft, rich things. Then, with a command, Barbara McNair took all the joy out of her face.
She simply demanded that Kirstie wear that conspicuously beautiful outfit the second Sabbath to
come when the winter's crop of babies was to be formally dedicated to the Lord.
"'Cirsty went suddenly crimson, standing there blankly, fingering the feather on her neck.
"'Mrs. McNair insisted on an answer.
"'Oh!' cried Kirsty meekly, her eyes appealing to her mother-in-law,
"'Our baby!'
She began to say it wasn't to be baptized, but she had to turn away.
She started for her room to take the dress off.
The girl was so sensitive, Isabel started to say,
but Barbara called after her to come back,
breaking forth into the broadest Glasgow accent.
They weren't to suppose she didn't understand.
She had known it all the time,
that innocent laddie had told her unconsciously,
more innocent then than now she might have added, if she had known,
and she thought, indeed, that Kirsty had great reason for shame, and not of her Bonnie Wee Johnny
either, but of her own heathen in gratitude.
Kirsty lifted her face upon hearing that, from the towel upon which she was wiping it,
and Mrs. McNair demanded that moment if she expected the Lord to sit studying the almanac all
the year for her convenience. She was sure that if she had been in Kirstie's place,
and the Lord had given her a son, she wouldn't have gone sulking, no matter what the month
might have been. Was it not better to have one any time than none at all, she demanded?
With such a passion of regret for her own childlessness, that Kirstie was left speechless.
She had never imagined anyone speaking in such a strain.
She looked at her mother-in-law, who seemed mildly amused.
The idea that she had been deriding the Lord's chronological calculations
was in itself sobering to one of so tender a conscience.
The giver of all her good clothes went scolding away at her,
till she promised, at least to wear the new things the week after the baptisms.
Kirstie kept thinking of the scolding as she drove in the wagon of that harassed man,
Alex McNair, with her stepmother and her mother-in-law,
to see the new house that was getting about ready for her occupancy.
Wally had to lay a plank for a walk hurriedly from the wagon to the house,
for the new Mrs. McNair still wore such boots that one step in the thawing black mire
would have ruined them. It was always that way. That little insignificant-looking person
refused to adjust herself to the new country. She just sat tight and let the great
significant country adjust itself to her as best it might. The house tore her. The house tore
towards which she neatly walked, was not perhaps, too disinterested eyes, a very inviting place,
but to Wally and Kirstie, it was their very palace of love. It stood a story and a half high,
on a slight rise of ground, a decent way back from the path that has since become one of the
nation's highways, built of shining new lumber. The tall grass around it, trampled,
into the black ground littered with bits of boards and yellow curling shavings.
From the front door, just hung that day.
The women looked down over 15 miles of prairie,
an occasional plowed square humanizing the distances,
which sloped with so gentle an incline
that one standing on any one of the acres
could scarcely have told it was not level.
From the windows of the parlor, the women saw the plot that Wally's father had insisted on breaking the year before,
along one side of which the maple seeds he had planted were presently to appear as slight as spears of sprouting grass.
From the kitchen window they saw a row of elms as thick as broomsticks,
which Wally had brought the fall before from the creek.
In a long furrow there, the walnut trees that were to make gunstocks for the World War
were still waiting in their shells for a warmer sun to bring them forth.
And to the north, the trench was ready for the red and white pines that are nowadays a pride to the family.
Kirstie pointed to the piece of ground that was to be fenced for a garden,
whereupon Mrs. McNair asked, anxiously, if the fence was to be painted white.
Wally heard his father-in-law move impatiently behind him,
and, though he hadn't before thought of such a thing,
he answered that it would be painted white,
as soon as he had the money for the paint.
The stepmother-in-law sighed with relief
and began inspecting the kitchen closet.
Wally pointed out with malicious glee the finish of the cupboards,
making light of the expense and difficulty of building,
while his father-in-law poked about, glooming,
refusing to admire the conveniences which the little woman coveted
with so gentle a simplicity.
He still had a grudge against that man,
and erred it whenever he could without Kirsty seeing him.
He knew McNair disapproved of his.
the size of the windows. But what business of that man's was it? What his windows cost?
The Sabbath of the communion, Wally unabashed, and shame-filled Kirstie, wearing the appealing old coat of her
mother, and the bedecked wee Johnny, went to church for the first time since the baby's birth.
But let no one suppose that they attracted much attention. What chance were consider
could even the most unholy child have had that morning,
sitting in front of the Glasgow fashions,
in the person, or on the person, of his step-grandmother.
Wasn't she wearing a most stunning little hat
with a dark green feather curling down over a shingon of red hair,
sitting there in the pew just behind Mrs. McLaughlin,
who wore with grace and scyenne,
satisfaction, the bonnet, a lamenting friend in Earshire, had made for her in 54, and just in front of
Mrs. Wannell, whose headpiece was conceived in the spring of 58, and across from Mrs. McTaggart,
who had bought somewhat more expensively than was necessary in 61, but who, considering the well-preserved
condition of her purchase had really nothing to regret.
One skilled in millinery might have reckoned from the mother's bonnets more or less accurately
the year of each family's immigration, although the array of such young girls as were not
away at school, would have slightly vitiated his calculations.
And now, this Sabbath morning, there sits down in this world so remote.
from others, a Metternich jacket, a cape-like affair trimmed with fur, and a skirt spreading
gracefully but without hoops, a floating veil, and gloves embroidered in faint gray.
If we Johnny had been base-born twins, he could never have attracted more than a stray thought
to himself on that occasion.
End of Section 9
Section 10 of the Abel McLaughlins by Margaret Wilson
This Liebervaux recording is in the public domain
Soon after the garments of Barbara McNair
dawned upon the congregation
Her husband bought 300 acres of land
At $3 an acre
There are those who say
a man owning 840 acres of land should be happy.
Alex McNair was not.
There was, in his flesh, one great thorn, that Glasgow wife.
She had lived through the autumn and the terrible winter, waiting for spring.
And now that spring was here?
What was it?
only an oozy wet waste, with patches of green in the lower places, and winds shrieking always across flat desolations.
Near the sty, a sagging haystack of a barn, and a couple of bony cows trampling dead grasses deeper into the mire of the dooryard.
If only there had been even a little white house and a fence.
and a few flowers sending up their endearing shoots.
But this, and her from Glasgow.
Words failed her.
Had she not set forth day by day and hour by hour,
conscientiously, the necessity of a new house.
Yet, in the face of her demands,
her man had gone to town to buy more wilderness,
If she had known that spring that Dodd was to sell part of that land for $600 an acre,
her contempt for her husband's folly would scarcely have been less hot.
There he was, driving into the yard now.
She went to the door and greeted him.
You didn't buy it, she asked.
Did I not say I would buy it?
He answered, doggedly.
Not a change of expression passed over her face.
She stood watching him unhitch his team.
She had never before been so much interested in that process,
having always avoided the barn.
The next day, when he was in the field,
and Dodd was hitching up,
she went out and watched him.
Would he show her how he did that? she asked.
She thought she ought to know, she said.
Which were the gentlest horses, and which harness did they take?
She learned where it all hung in the barn.
Dodd liked teaching an old person.
It wasn't any trick to hitch a horse to the wagon, he said.
You put this under the belly, so, and the lines went through here, taking them from here, thus.
She practiced. She grew proficient. She waited.
One day in early May, her husband rode away horseback to the Keats,
to pay back one of the many days of labor he owed that family.
He left home at daylight, and Dodd went to school.
Then Barbara began.
When McNair came home that evening, Dodd asked, lonesomely,
"'Where's mother? Is she not here?'
"'She is not.'
she'll be gone to curstees or macris who came for her she took the team and went herself you're daft her take a team
but the team was gone the barn was as empty as the house dodd made a fire in the fireplace and put the kettle on then the father made a discovery that the son had made some time ago the
The cupboard was bare, not a bite in it, not a crumb of cake.
McNair didn't like that.
She might have told them where she was going.
She ought to have come back in time to have the supper ready.
He hated a cold house.
He went to his tobacco box.
At least that was always ready for a hungry man.
He opened it and found a strange white paper in it,
a note from his wife.
A fine note.
I can't live in a sty, it said.
I have gone back to Scotland.
Jeannie is with Kirstie.
Barbara Ferguson.
Back to Scotland?
A woman alone.
Starting away with his team.
She was daft.
He rushed into the bedroom as soon as he began to realize her meaning.
Were her hat and cloak there?
They were not.
What was this?
The kists, not one on top of the other as usual,
spreading all over the room and empty.
Nothing left in them.
He rushed to the kitchen.
The kist that sat there was empty too,
more empty if possible than the others.
He sat down.
He was outraged.
He was speechless.
That woman hadn't been able to lift those boxes alone,
into the wagon, so she had taken all their contents and left them. Such cunning, such deceit.
And had he not paid all her passage from Scotland, she had left him, left him, Alex McNair,
without saying a word, her so quiet and all, the whole clan would know all about it,
they would all have seen her passing. A woman alone,
Had anyone ever before heard of such a thing?
Certainly not in those parts.
Everybody wondering where his wife was off to.
Oh, Jeannie would never have played him so base a trick.
Dodd came into the room.
McNair stuffed the note hastily into the box.
Your mother has gone to town, he murmured meekly.
Dodd heard that with surprise.
Presently, he volunteered that he saw now why she had wanted to learn how to hitch up the horses.
Had she indeed learned all that from him, his father gasped.
Oh, the depth of deceit in her!
And he had paid her way from Glasgow.
Dodd made disconsolate cornmeal for their supper, forgetting to put salt in it.
To think of that woman ridding the cupboard of its last crumb.
McNair went to the barn and pretended to work, after the meal, being too excited to sit still.
Back to Scotland. Had ever anyone heard the like?
Everyone would be laughing at him, a rich wife indeed.
Oh, he understood now, by the canny widowers of Scotland, had meekly let him take this jewel of a woman away to America.
They must have known her.
There was but one thing to be done.
He would rise early, long before dawn, and pursue her,
getting out of the neighborhood before anyone would be awake to see him pass.
Her with his good horses in the town,
not knowing enough, maybe, to give them a drink at the end of the journey.
If she ever imagined, he would give her a cent to get back with
how greatly mistaken she was.
He would surely show her who was master here.
He found her the next afternoon,
in the hall of one of those long, shanty-like hotels,
which comprised the town,
found her in the very act of making a bargain with a man
to make her new boxes to take the place of those
she had so extravagantly abandoned.
They faced each other in her room.
He, tall, gaunt, black-eyed, ragged.
She, small, dainty, red-haired, bedecked.
Her placidness, as usual, disarmed him.
He began,
You can't go back to Scotland?
Are you daft?
I cannot live in a sty.
They were off, then.
He urged decency.
morality, economy, honesty, pride, race, the waning reputation of Glasgow. After each argument,
she simply said, like one born foolish, I cannot live in a stye. It was a deadlock,
till he demanded angrily where she expected to get the money for the journey. At her answer,
he surrendered. It fairly took the life out.
of him. She certainly had not expected to get it from him, thank you. She knew him too well.
She had money enough with her to take her comfortably to her home in Glasgow. Did he suppose that she
was one to come to the wilds without knowing how she might get back? She had kept it all,
all that gold, mind you, in the lining of her muff. That woman had come. That woman had come
thinking she might not stay. He, Alex McNair, had been, as it were, married on probation,
and him a Presbyterian. He asked hopelessly, what kind of house she wanted. She replied promptly,
that she wanted three good big rooms downstairs, and two upstairs, a wee porch, all painted white,
except the green shutters, with closets and windows like Kirsties,
and besides a wee white house for the fowls.
All this was to be bought today, at once.
The Lord preserve us, why there wasn't a painted foul house in the state.
The train left for Glasgow at seven the night.
He couldn't buy all that in a day, could he? He had no money.
He could sell the last great plot he had bought.
Was she daft?
Did she suppose he could sell it in a day?
Why could he not sell it in one day?
Hadn't he bought it in one?
She would call to the man to bring in those boxes.
He would buy the lumber as soon as he got around to it.
Couldn't she trust him to do it?
He hadn't told her, in the first place,
that he lived in a stye.
Had he? She felt the inside of her muff carefully.
The next day, in the dusk, they drove into wallies together,
having a wagon whose strange shape would have excited the curiosity of the most philosophical
with that same long, uneven thing, all covered with blankets and tucked in,
such a load as no man ever hauled.
And plainly, the same thing, the same thing.
thing she had taken with her the day before.
McNair was apparently in a bad humor.
How could the two, who came out to welcome them in,
know that the nearer he had got to his home,
the more he dreaded the explanation he would have to give
of his wife's desertion?
But he had not yet learned all the depth of that linty.
Was she embarrassed?
Not she. She began immediately telling the news in that hesitating, ingratiating way of hers.
They were to have a new house. The lumber was to be hauled at once. She was that glad.
She hadn't been able to wait for Alex. She had gone in ahead to see about it. It was all settled.
Just about like Wally's it was to be. But a little.
little larger, with a white fence, in a wee white foul house.
They had bought even the paint, and, having had some time on her hands, she had found
this wee pair of shoes for the baby.
No, they couldn't come in.
Let Wally just hold wee Johnny up, till she would see if they were the right size.
Out of that confounded muff came the shoes.
They fitted.
Well, the McNair's would just take their wee, Jeannie, and be going on.
She had wanted them to hear her good news.
She hoped Jeannie hadn't troubled Kirstie too much.
And wasn't Johnny just growing Bonnier day by day?
What could a man do in the face of that?
Where in the name of the shorter catechism
had the woman got those shoes?
And when, after all the money she had wasted that day,
on houses. McNear simply gave up. Like the queen of Sheba before Solomon, he had no spirit left in him,
but he had acquired an uncomfortable amount of fear of women. Kirstie and Wally took it for granted
that the rich wife had paid for the house until the next Sabbath. Therefore, when Wally heard,
as he came out of church, that his
revered father-in-law had sold part of his newly bought land to Jordie Sproll in a panic,
so to speak, in a hurry, without much bargaining, to get the required funds for the lumber.
He grinned to himself and waited to hear his mother's comment on the tale.
He took his family, as usual, home to his mothers, after the service, and when dinner was over,
he had a chance to speak with her alone.
She heard his pleasant suspicions.
Doubtless the new wife had made himself that land.
And she chuckled with deep, deep mirth.
Yon's a fine woman, Wally, she exclaimed, relishing her thoughts,
She's a grand wee captain.
She heaved sighs of contentment from time to time all the afternoon.
whose import was not lost on her son.
Surely, late as it was,
Jeannie was being avenged.
Quite unconscious of the envious comment
and the Snickers of admiration,
which her house was causing among her neighbors,
Barbara McNair went again with her husband to town.
A month later, after the bluebells had faded in the creek woods,
just when the wild roses were beginning,
to bloom, when the prairie was blue with spider-lilies.
She rode along, arrayed like the lilies, not to say like the twenty-eight colors of wild
flocks which a dartsmith botanist records he found there that year.
When at length she came within sight of the town, which stirred Isabel McLaughlin so greatly
to speculation, she speculated upon it,
Not at all. There was nothing significant to her in a town of 11 real estate offices and 19 hotels,
wherein every other inhabitant was a land speculator. She left the main street without paying
it the complement of a thought and turned toward the first street of dwellings, a muddy lane,
not worthy to be called a street. The further down,
it she went, the more homesick she grew. So bare and naked it was. Shack after shack,
uncared for, wherever she turned. No gardens, no flowers, no trees, even in the year's
height of leaf and blossom. On she went, down one path after another. Then, away at the end of one,
Oh, there she found a little unpainted vine-covered chantee with color, with fragrance,
iris blooming, borders of clove-pinks, pansies, a yellow rose-bush, a red one,
grape-vines and blossom, a honeysuckle, budding peonies.
It came over her with such delight that it never occurred to her to hesitate.
She pushed open the gate.
and followed the path of clove pinks around the house.
There in the shade, a woman was bending over her washtub,
a large, fat, uncorseted woman, who raised a red face from her steaming work.
Barbara said to her positively and politely, moving to her broadest accent,
I've come to see your flowers.
The woman wiped her well-soaked hands on a limp,
apron and replied in perfect Pennsylvania Dutch,
I don't understand you. But she smiled a smile
of extraordinary width. They faced each other, Scotland
and Germany, curiously for one moment. Then Barbara
pointed dramatically at the pansies. There was that look on her
face that was understood by Frontiers' women of many
tongues. The German began babbling sympathetically about her display, pointing out one beauty after
another, breaking off little sprays to hold near her visitor's longing nose. So much there was
that Barbara wanted to ask, and her hostess wanted to explain, and they understood each other
after so many repetitions and efforts. Barbara examined each other. Barbara examined each of
each plant, and felt the soil it grew in.
She bowed her face down to them again and again, hungrily.
Not one did she omit to sigh over enviously.
Presently the German led her into the shanty,
and set before her in a red-carpeted, closely guarded parlor,
coffee and coffee-cake,
which Barbara esteemed but lightly,
surprised out of politeness by the fact that on the kitchen table a pair of pigeons sat cooing.
Then the refreshments being finished, the woman took her by the hand
and led her out of the house down a barren street, just as she was in her wet dress,
unhatted, red-faced.
Barbara surmised she was being taken to a place where plants were some.
They came to a large square house, built on a high foundation, in a yard planted with trees which were not just small sticks, approached by a walk, which had wide, blossoming borders, which Barbara would fain have examined. But her guide, bottled up determinedly and knocked on the door. A lady opened it, a lady perhaps fifty, whose grey caly.
was fastened at the throat most primly by an oval brooch.
She was sad-faced and gray-haired,
and as the German woman babbled to her,
she turned and smiled upon Barbara gravely and kindly,
and asked them to come in.
But the German was not for sitting in a house on such a morning.
The lady put on a wide hat and gloves
and came out to the border.
In her foreign language,
which was merely New England English,
she discussed her loves,
pointing out one blossom and another.
Her pansies never equaled the Germans,
but look at the number of buds on her peonies.
She could hardly wait till they opened,
and Mrs. McNair followed her about
with the great question on her tongue,
namely, where does one get these things in this country?
She was standing by a yellow rose bush when she asked that, first,
and its owner, bending down, said,
There's a good little one now, you may have that, have you a place for it.
Where do you live?
Twenty-five miles west.
The lady sighed.
We have come for wood.
to build our house today, Barbara informed her.
Have you been here long?
Long enough, said Barbara simply.
I came in November.
The lady sighed again and went to get her spade.
She asked again if Barbara had a place for the rose.
Barbara was offended at the suggestion
she might not cherish that plant until death.
Where can you buy them here? she asked.
again.
That rose, the lady explained,
she had brought with her from Davenport
in a little box with grape cuttings
and the peony,
which she had carried in her lap
in a covered wagon
long before there were railroads to the town.
She had brought it to Davenport,
coming down the Ohio and up the Mississippi,
soon after she was married.
A woman had given it to her
when she left Ohio for the West.
The peony, her mother had brought
from eastern to western Ohio,
many years ago,
and when she had died,
her daughter had chosen the peony
for her share of the estate.
Her mother had got it from her mother,
who came a bride to Ohio
from western New York,
clasping it against her noisy heart
Out of the way of the high waters, her husband had led her horse through, across unbridged streams,
cherishing it more resolutely than the household stuffs which had to be abandoned in pathless woods.
Her great-grandfather had brought it west in New York in his saddlebag,
soon after Washington's inauguration as he returned from New York City.
She supposed, before that, the Dutch had maybe brought it from Holland to Long Island.
There had been tulips, too, but the pigs had eaten them in Ohio.
She had wondered sometimes if it was the fate of the peony to be carried clear to the Pacific by lonely women.
At least, if she gave a bit of it to Mrs. McNair, it would be that much farther west.
on its way to its destination, which she, for one, hoped it might soon reach,
so that there would be some rest for women. Let Mrs. McNair remember to come for a root of it in the fall,
when her fence would be finished. Without fences, it was useless to try to protect flowers.
Her mother in Ohio had had a sort of a high stockade made of thorny brush,
around a little garden, so that one had to come near and look down over the top to get a glimpse of the blossoms.
But the pigs had been very hungry in those days. Their destruction of that garden and the rescue of the peony,
she had heard her mother tell about, with tears in her eyes twenty years afterwards. It was one of the sorrows of her life.
When Mrs. McNair went home that day, she had with her the roots of all transplantable things,
lilacs, light and purple, roses pink and red and yellow, pinks and young hollyhocks,
grape cuttings, and snowballs. She had a pile of old horticultural advisors from the ladies' library,
full of advice about planting windbreaks
and letters from frontier gardeners
who had morning glories growing over their young pines
and walls of Hollyhocks 12 feet high.
She had been urged to stay at the ladies for dinner
and the German had made her promise
always to come back to her for coffee
when she came to town.
The road was full of ruts and swamps
and her bones ached long before the springless wagon got home.
But her plants had felt no joltings,
for she had held them carefully in her lap.
That was the first day she sang in the United States of America.
It was her Americanization.
Her husband never even noticed her song, however.
He was suffering.
acutely from the price of glass windows.
End of Section 10. Section 11 of the Abel McLaughlin's by Margaret Wilson.
This Librevox recording is in the public domain.
Wally and Kirstie and their Bonnie, Wee Johnny, moved into their new house towards the
1st of May, and at the end of that month, Wally's brother John,
having finished his second year in the snug little New England college,
came to work for him.
That institution was only 50 miles away,
a distance that a lame McLaughlin, unfit for the army,
walked to vote for Lincoln in 64,
not being able to give one great big valuable dollar for the hire of a horse.
John himself walked when his sister Mary's come,
didn't necessitate a wagon. Having John at Wally's suited the whole family. His mother liked it
because Wally was such an excellent example of patience and goodness for John, who needed just that.
Kirstie liked it, not only because she was spared the unpleasantness of having a strange hired man
at the table, but because she saw in John the first of a succession of younger brothers,
to whom, as they worked for Wally, she might in some degree repay their mother's kindness to her.
Wally heartily admired John, and never neglected to point out the signs of his brilliancy to
those who were interested, especially his mother. There was no one like John in the
family, and therefore, of course, in the community, in Wally's estimation, the books which the other
children in the little school studied ragged, John glanced at, and mastered. He never had anything
to read, because the few books that Wally went slowly through, he read in an hour or two,
getting more out of them in that fashion than Wally could in his.
He had read every printed thing in the neighborhood.
The books Wally had sent home from St. Louis,
most of Scott and some of Dickens in McColley's histories.
You understand that no stolen book comes into my house, Wally.
His mother had written him, enraged by the boys' stories of warplunder.
He had read those 300 pious volumes that the governor of an Eastern state
had sent to the library of a Sunday school nearby,
in which he had become, in so romantic a manner, interested.
He had read the college library from start to finish,
and the more precious books his interested teachers would lend him.
His teachers thought sometimes that John was to have a great career,
but they were all amateurs in expectations compared to his mother.
John had two very good reasons for wanting to work for Wally.
The first was that, at Wally's, he could study all the Sabbath's day in peace,
which he was not allowed to do at his fathers.
To be sure he was still expected to appear at church,
which he did but seldom, and then only with great,
groans and complainings. Wally told him it wouldn't hurt him to rest his mind an hour or two
once a week, and he retorted that, after a week in the field, rest was the thing his mind needed least.
He scolded about his father's intolerance. Wally only grinned at him and remarked that
he couldn't see that the father was much more intolerant than the son. However, if he was
If John was seized with a pain on the morning of the Sabbath,
Wally wouldn't minimize his agony when his father inquired about it.
The other reason that John liked being with his brother
was that there he could be sure of being paid.
The summer before, he had hired out to a Yankee at Fisher's Grove
for $12 a month, payable in gold.
He had endured food inexcusably bad,
even for those circumstances, and when he had asked for his wages,
the man had given him, shamefacedly enough to be sure, instead of gold,
120 acres of land.
John had been barely 17 at the time, and it was years before he acknowledged that,
in his disappointment, he had gone to the woods and cried bitterly.
He could afford to tell that story with a mutiny,
when there was a town of 40,000 on that land, and he still owned most of it.
That year his father had, with much difficulty, got a deed to the land, and mortgaged it for a little
to help with a boy's schooling. He and his sister, living together on cornmeal carried from home
and working for their room rent for the kindly New Englanders with whom they lived, needed,
fortunately, only a little cash. But this next year, John was going to Chicago to study law.
That was what the teachers advised, and that would take real money. It was one of those
interested teachers who unknowingly changed the order of worship at Wally's that season.
One morning, when breakfast was over at dawn, John's first week there, as Wolle
reached for the book, he said in a voice which seemed, as usual, a little impatient, somewhat too
eager, let me do the reading, Wally, and you do the praying. Wally was rather surprised by such
devotion on John's part. All right, he said, handing him the book. John began abruptly at the
first of Isaiah, which was not the place according to the custom of their fathers, and he read
stumblingly with pauses, so that his brother, turning toward him, saw that he was looking at the text
only for occasional phrases, trying to read from memory. And when they sat around the table
again, in the evening, almost stupid from weariness, John went over the same chapter,
but with scarcely any hesitation.
Wally asked him, after prayers, why he had repeated it.
John had just picked up the lamp to go to bed.
He had the one lamp, because he studied.
And he turned at the bottom of the stairs to answer,
the light flickering across his neck,
where his hickory shirt collar was open.
He was six feet, even then,
and he had huge broad shoulders, strangely awkward.
His head was long and narrow,
and though he was blistered red just then from the sun,
his untanned forehead was a clear yellow,
unlike any other complexion in the family.
He had the long upper lip that spoiled the symmetry of so many McLaughlin faces,
and a long, determined chin,
and from his deep-set blue eyes,
He stood gazing at his brother with that speculating keenness, with which he examined even the most familiar things.
Professor Jameson advised me to learn Isaiah this summer. He said it would be a good thing to get the swing of the sentences.
We might as well get some good out of worship, I suppose.
Commit Isaiah to memory? gasped Wally.
"'Well, why not? We know most of it now, don't we? We've heard it all our lives. I told him we knew the Psalms. We'll read a chapter twice a day and we'll know it.'
"'I won't,' said Wally. "'You'll know enough of it,' said John, starting up to his reading.
Wally gave Kirstie a significant look. "'Did you ever hear the equal of that?' he asked her.
I wouldn't know that chapter if I read it every day for a month.
He considered John.
It would not have been his father's way
to use the few minutes of the day set apart for the worship of the Most High God
to learn the swing of sentences, whatever that might be.
It certainly would not have been Wally's own way,
but it was John's way and doubtless a good way,
and since John was living with them,
He might as well have his way.
Kirstie didn't mind.
She only wanted John to be happy.
They were happy, as the summer wore on,
the three of them working from the first streak of dawn
to the frog croaking darkness.
The stars in their courses and the clouds in their flights
seemed to be working with them that season,
week after week, just as the ground grew ready for it.
it. They watched the desired clouds roll up in great hills against the sky and pour down long,
slow, soaking rains. They watched the sun grow more and more stimulatingly warm,
and then, just when their corn needed it, grow fiercely hot in its coaxing. They worked like slaves,
of course, but then they had always worked like slaves.
Wally was at the height of his strength that year, apparently,
and he tried to save John, who was, after all, still a growing boy,
but John sharply refused to be considered less than any man.
Kirstie was cruelly tired every night, with far too much fever.
She had her new house to keep as clean as her mother's linen-hung cabin had been.
She had more than a hundred little chickens to feed in water,
and to guard from the slow-rising storms and the low-hovering hawks.
She had an orphan lamb to feed.
She had washing to do and ironing and scrubbing and sewing and cooking,
bread-making and butter-making, with pans and pails and churns to be scalded and kept sweet.
She had yarn-making and knitting, vegetable-drying, and wild fruit canning,
She had wee Johnny to care for, and whenever she sat down to nurse him, she fell asleep, worn out.
More than one pie got itself scorched that way that summer.
And with it all, they were so happy that sometimes she had to say to Wally,
although he didn't want her to mention it,
Oh, think of last summer and of this.
And he would answer,
I certainly had a time without you, Kirstie.
Everything seemed to swell the sum of their well-being.
Every noon, if the dinner was not entirely ready,
when Wally was washed for it,
he seized his spade and transplanted
two or three little trees from their seedbed
to their place in the windbreak.
Every evening, tired to death,
with the baby in his arms,
he went with his wife to see if by chance any seedlings had halted and needed water.
Every leaf on the little trees called for comment.
There they would stand, looking over their domain, brushing mosquitoes from their faces.
Wheat and corn had surely never grown better than theirs did that year.
To John, now, a field of wheat was.
was a field of wheat, capable of being sold for so many dollars. To Wally, as to his father,
there was first, always, to be sure, the promise of money in growing grain, and he needed money,
but besides that, there was more in it than perhaps anyone can say, certainly more than he
ever said, all that keeps farm-minded men farming.
It was the perfect symbol of rewarded, lavished labor, of requited love and care,
of created power, of wifely faithfulness, of the flower and fruit of life,
its beauty, its ecstasy.
Wally was too essentially a farmer ever to try to express his deep satisfaction in words,
but when he saw his own wheat, strong and gritty,
green, swaying in the breezes, flushed with just the first signs of ripening,
the sight made him begin whistling. And when, working to exhaustion, he saw row after row of corn,
hoed by his own hands, standing forth, unchoked by weeds, free to eat and grow like happy
children, even though he was too tired to walk erectly, something within him, maybe his heart,
danced with joy. Therefore, he was then, as almost always, to be reckoned among the
fortunate of the earth, one of those who know ungrudged, contented, exhaustion. John came out for a three
months vacation the next year and worked again for Wally. They had acres of sod corn that summer
and wheat to make a miser chuckle. Both men, and whatever neighborly passer-by they might be able to
hire, worked day after day till they staggered. To have stopped, while yet there was sufficient
Daylight, to distinguish another hill of corn, would have been shirking.
To go to supper, while yet one could straighten up without a sharp pain in his back,
would have been laziness.
Yet John was never too tired to choose an idiom as far removed as possible from the one he
heard about him.
Now that he had been in Chicago, he had a growing contempt, which never failed.
to amuse Wally for the speech of his own people.
What was it, they spoke, he demanded scornfully,
swinging a violent hoe among the weeds.
It was Scotch no longer.
It wasn't English.
It wasn't American, certainly.
It was just a kind of...
He tried all summer to describe it satisfactorily in a word.
Once, he called it,
the gruntings of the inarticulate forthright.
Mrs. Alex McNair was the only one that spoke pure anything, he declared.
John seemed to like that woman, strange to say.
Wally suspected he listened to her because her pronunciation fascinated him.
But at Wally's, he was intolerant of any tendency towards Scottishisms.
Wally's and Kirstie's articulation, he supervised continually, their grammar and their diction.
They were not allowed to say before John,
She won't can some, or I used to could.
A less happy man than Wally might have resented correction from a younger brother.
Wally took it gratefully, feeling he was getting not a poor substitute for the
schooling he had been forced to miss. And when he saw his mother, he would repeat John's
innovations to her with gusto. Indeed, she exclaimed upon one such occasion,
The gruntings of the inner? That, Wally? Lassie me, you did well to remember that.
Yes, cried Wally. But John didn't remember them, mother. He makes them up.
Kirstie would have been annoyed sometimes by John's attitude
if her son had not been so devoted to his uncle.
We Johnny refused to go to sleep in the evening
till he had had his daily romp with John on the doorstep.
And even if he did treat her like an unimportant younger sister,
she had to like her baby's playmate.
The child was, by this time,
the joyous little husky heart of the family.
John had noticed him dutifully at first
because he was Wally's,
but he came speedily to love him
for his own diverting charms.
There had been an evening,
nearly two years ago,
when he came into the little room
where he and his sister cooked their meals
and had found her,
stretched out on the bed crying.
He read the letter she gave him in explanation.
His mother had written about the impending, disgraceful baby.
John hadn't forgotten his sense of amazement,
or the sharp wound that his disdainful sense of superiority sustained.
But now he seldom recalled either.
It outraged his sense of the fitness of things
that he so well understood that scrape, that he had to wonder at times that passion was ever less
rampant, less controlled, than in the case he had to consider. The information encouraged a budding
cynicism within him. If it had been anyone but Wally, even Alan, he would have understood it
better. He had read the letter and stood looking at it. Then, without a word, he went out,
and walked about the streets through the dusk, and never a mention of it passed between the brother and
sister. And then, when he came home and saw Wally, when that brotherly honest geniality shone out
simply towards him. He couldn't think of that story. Wally's presence denied it, obliterated it.
That was all, and we Johnny justified himself. John was, of course, keen about having his nephew
speak English undefiled, and between their little games, he begged him patiently to say,
Uncle John. But, after hours of slipping gleefully away from effort, the baby came no nearer the
desired sounds than diddle. He had lovely, twinkling ways of making light of instruction. He would
duck his curly head and hold it reflectingly to one side, and purse up his little lips enough
to have spoken volumes. Yet when he saw his uncle coming towards the house,
he would sing out that absurd diddle, delightedly,
waiting an award for such perfect enunciation.
When his grandmother got him into her arms,
she would beg him to say, Granny.
And he would say it, in a way that satisfied him entirely.
Only he called the word poo.
And in that absurdity, too, he persisted.
Mama, he said, and Papa and Chickie, and Diddle and Pooh. And that was all. No coaxing could elicit more from him.
Kirstie grew vexed at times, hearing other women tell how early and plainly their children had talked.
She longed to have Johnny shine vocally. Sometimes she almost wondered if he wasn't simple.
But her mother-in-law consoled her by telling about her John.
He had spoken hardly a word till he was three,
and she was getting really alarmed about it,
when suddenly he seemed to join the family conversation,
so rapidly he learned words and sentences.
So with that foolish ayn, which was his question,
and with the aine, which was his consent,
Bonnie, we, Johnny, went on rolling his domain.
The men never started to the fields with a team
without letting the baby ride a few steps on the back of the old mare.
No one plowed into a bird's nest without saving an egg to show the baby.
No one ran across a long, gaudy pheasant's feather
without saving it for Johnny's soft fingers to feel.
At noon John carried him out to pat the colt's nose, or to see the little pigs, nosing their way among
one another, to their mother's milk. The baby had just naturally become Wally's child.
Wally could never bear the thought of Peter Keith. He kept it resolutely out of his mind.
He had to. He shrank from it, as he had never shrunk from the face of an end. He had never shrunk from the face of
an enemy. Making the baby his own helped the forgetting. Barbara McNair said to Isabel McLaughlin
that she had never seen a man with such a way with a baby as Wally had with that child.
And Isabel McLaughlin answered that, it was small wonder Wally had away with babies since he
had carried one in his arms ever since he was three years old. Month by month,
Wally became, in the eyes of that prairie-bound world,
a more exemplary and unsuspected father to Kirstie's son.
End of Section 11.
Section 12 of the Abel McLaughlin's by Margaret Wilson.
This Liebervaux-Recording is in the public domain.
June came and went.
The corn began hiding the black soul.
at its roots entirely from sight. It was knee-high by the 4th of July, according to the
scriptures. There was to be a great celebration that year in Woolsey's Woods, and Wally had, of course,
planned to take his family to the picnic. All his army comrades would be there, and neighbors
for 30 miles round, talking crops and prices, and the president's troubles in Washington.
It was to have been a grateful change from hoeing.
However, when the day came, it was out of the question to take Kirstie, who had been having
fever and the baby, who was unhappily teething, for a 25-mile ride through the heat,
even with the new spring seat which Wally had bought for the wagon,
extravagantly, according to Alex McNair.
John, therefore, rode away on horseback before dawn,
not that John would have condescended to care to go
if it had been only, what he would have called in our day,
a gathering of neighborhood fatheads.
But there was to be a speaker there,
who helped to make laws and thwart the president in Washington,
and John wanted to hear what he had to say
and how he managed to say it.
Wally and Kirstie accordingly began their holiday
by a most unusually long sleep in the morning,
the baby for some reason allowing it.
They had a late and lazy breakfast.
If Kirstie cared to, they would draw,
drive down to the creek and look for some blackberries, Wally said.
He dallyed about, playing with the baby,
who was better than they had expected him to be.
They sauntered out to their garden of little trees,
after Wally had wiped the breakfast dishes,
and spent some time there,
weeding it and cultivating it, playing together.
Were not the two of them quite content
to spend their holiday at home?
Together now. It was not as if they were young, unmated things, running about experimentally,
investigatingly. When it grew warm and they sought the shade of the house to rest in,
a Sabbath piece brooded over them. Wally stretched out on the grass, and the baby sat contentedly
on his chest. Kirstie looked at the morning glories, blooming on the fence of the little
vegetable garden. There were but few of them. The hens had got into the garden earlier and scratched
them almost all out. She hated to kill the hens she had had the trouble of raising just because they
spoiled her morning glories. Her stepmother, she reflected, had no such hesitations. If a rash hen
flew into Barbara McNair's garden, she caught it and cut its wing feathers. If it repeated the
offense, into the boiling kettle it went. She had scarcely a hen left. That famous wee white
fowl house was really little more than an ornament. Yet when Kirsty sighed over her morning glories,
Wally said at once that he would get a better fence around a bigger garden.
by next spring.
He, too, was thinking of the McNair place.
Everyone thought of that place that summer
and planned to make his own less desolate looking.
The McNair's was now the very showplace of the country.
One driving up to it, unless he had heard reports,
could scarcely believe his eyes.
No sty now, no business.
bony cows trampling knee-deep in mud. One saw a trim white house, inside a smart white fence,
upon a jaunty rise of ground, with a gay white fowl house in the rear, and in the front yard,
what sights for pioneer eyes? Crimson hollyhocks, just beginning to open, almost as high as the lean to,
screening the porch. A grapevine, halfway across the main part of the building. Morning glories
on cunning arrangements of hidden wires, scarlet poppies and magenta petunias, romping all along the front walk,
laughing to the Confederate heavens, flaunting their uselessness flippantly before the eyes of those who
lived slavishly.
Blossoms with the scriptures behind them
To justify their toiling knot,
Their spinning not,
They're being arrayed beyond King's glory,
Not economically.
The gardens scouted the very principles of the hard-working,
Of those who would get ahead.
It hooted aloud at frugality.
Barbara McNair kept a lamb, to be sure,
but for no utilitarian purpose.
She kept it to mow her lawn,
and when its hunger had shaved its environments,
she moved the stake which held it to another spot.
She kept hens languidly,
perhaps only to justify artistically,
that supernumerary luxury, the white fowl house.
But let those chickens beware,
How they turned their eyes towards her garden spaces, lest they discover fatally her feelings toward them and their like.
No useless and unguardening orphan calf would she, mother?
No bereaved young pigs owed their life to her.
She did only what she elected to do.
Though there was at that time scarcely a servant girl west of the Mississippi,
Barbara McNair was almost never without some neighbor girl to do her work for her,
while in return she taught her sewing or made some pretty garment for her.
Just now, Wally's sister Mary, who was to marry a Yankee minister that fall, was working at the McNair's,
while Barbara, in spite of Isabel McLaughlin's protests, was making her a,
famous blue silk dress, equaled in grandeur only by that red wool one of Kirsties.
Always some girl or other eating that helpless McNair's good bread, while his wife knit tidies,
and watered her trifling wee flowers, from a pump, all painted and handy just outside the kitchen
door, and lived like a lady, envied by all the wind.
women in the neighborhood, and distrusted by nearly all the men.
Wally lay playing with the baby, who liked tickling his face with a long spear of grass,
and thinking just how he would make that fence, and grinning at times to himself.
The Sabbath before he had taken Kirstie home for dinner, and when she had seen how the flowers
were blooming there, she had explained.
in vexation about her morning glories.
Wally had been walking with his father-in-law and the women
among the trifling flowers when Kirstie had spoken of the accident
in answer to Barbara McNair's question.
And Alex had turned to Wally and remonstrated with him
for not having a better fence for Kirstie.
A man ought to see that the women had such things.
McNair had assured him solemnly.
That was one of the best things
he had had to tell his mother for a long time.
Alex McNair, telling him, Wally McLaughlin,
how to treat a wife.
McNair strutted about,
taking all the credit for that garden,
extremely proud of having the best-looking place for miles around,
as if he had been able to help himself,
Wally had said nothing about the incident to Kirstie,
he couldn't seem always to be laughing at her father.
Just then, she went on to tell him about the new dress
Barbara had made for little genie.
Whatever the neighbors might say,
enviously, about Barbara McNair,
they must in justice agree
that she was an excellent stepmother to her husband's children.
The way she loved Jeannie and Dodd, and was loved in return,
was a source of deep satisfaction to Kirsty.
And so she gossiped contentedly and harmlessly on about the neighbors,
and the baby kicked the protesting Wally gleefully in the ribs.
They felt cozily shut in to themselves by the sense of the countryside,
emptied of its patriotic and picnicking dwellers.
Wally lounged about till almost eleven.
There was a little hay cut which he wanted to turn.
He would be back by dinner time, he said.
He started down the path to the hayfield,
taking the scythe with him.
It was a hot day,
but there was a lively breeze blowing the grass into waves and billows
and momentary disappearing swift maelstroms.
Safe white clouds were sailing on,
high, but along the horizon, hints of much rain were gathering slowly. It wouldn't be safe to cut
much hay in face of them. He really need not have brought the scythe. He began turning what was cut,
forkful by forkful. Then he caught a few swaths. Working, he lay bare a marsh hawk's nest.
He stopped for breath, and stood watching the cat.
like birdlings turn on their backs and offer fight with their pawing scrawny claws,
while the mother circled angrily about him. He must tell Kirstie about those warlike babies.
He went on to leave them in peace. He kept getting farther and farther away from the house,
towards the far edge of the plot of prairie they had chosen for hay. He worked away,
scarcely lifting his head from his task, wondering occasionally if the rain, undoubtedly gathering,
would come by night. Suddenly, he heard a cry. He looked up. He threw down his scythe. He started running.
Kirstie was running towards him. She was crying out to him, too far away to be heard. He gave a look towards
the house. There seems to be.
to be no sign of fire. He tore on towards her. It must be the baby. He saved his breath till he got
near her. She stumbled against him, gasping, fainting. What she managed to say brought the contentment
of his life, crashing down to ruin. It's Peter, Peter Keith, he's back. She would have fallen.
He caught her. He held her against him. She couldn't speak. He couldn't believe his ears.
You said he wouldn't come back, she began again.
Well, he took hold of me, he. She was weeping with rage and terror.
Look here. Her sleeve was torn half off.
You said he wouldn't come back, she cried, shaking.
You're dreaming.
he cried. He couldn't believe it. It wasn't possible. He came to the door, she sobbed.
I didn't see him till then. I'm not dreaming. Look at my dress. Where are you going? Don't leave me
alone. He had started for his gun. Rage came over him like a fever mounting. The sight of that
torn sleeve, made him suddenly blind with anger. He couldn't believe it. It wasn't possible that
man had dared to come back and lay violent hands on his wife. It simply couldn't be.
She was calling to him to wait for her. She wouldn't be left alone. He helped her along blindly.
He had never known such murderous anger. He wanted her to hurry. He wanted her to hurry. He
lusted for that gun. He felt her trembling against him. By God, his wife wouldn't have to
tremble much longer. It seemed to him long before they came to their house, very long.
"'Don't you let him hurt you?' she moaned as they came up to it. He strode into the kitchen.
There the baby slept in his cradle, and flies walked leisurely over the pie crust, scattered over the
floor. He seized his gun. He went to the east door and looked out. He went to the west door.
He stood looking. Before his eyes, Hens scratched for their broods in peace. He searched the house.
He turned to go to the barn. She cried after him, Oh, don't let him hurt you. He went without caution,
madly. But in the barn there was no enemy. No sign of a man behind the barn where the grass billows
chased one another. No one hiding about in the haystack. He strode about seeking. There was no enemy
in any place. But beyond the little tree bed and the garden, beyond the wheat fields,
what might be there, to the east, to the west, to the north and the south,
in those wild, man-high grasses?
There a thousand men might hide and laugh at pursuers.
Looking at those baffling stretches, Wally choked.
He was helpless.
He went back to his wife.
She was trying vainly to compose herself.
I never thought he would come.
I never imagined it. You said he wouldn't, Wally.
Didn't she see how that reproach must madden him?
I was just standing there making the pie. He came to that door. I thought it was you.
And when I looked up, he was looking at me, Wally. She wailed out that last.
He was looking at me. I didn't know what to do. He just grabbed me.
She buried her face in her arms.
and sobbed. God, if only he could get hold of that snake, who hid in the grasses.
He turned abruptly again to the search.
Stay with me, she cried. Where are you going?
There's no one here, he answered, beside himself, wanting to comfort her.
Come and see for yourself.
Trembling and crying, she came out with him to the barn.
That morning, there was a little bit of him.
no great cement-floored barn to search through, in whose loft a hundred men might lie,
nor long-feeding sheds for steers, nor any tower-like silos. There were no scattered
groups of lighted hog-houses, nor garages, nor heated drinking tanks. There were no machine
sheds, nor ventilated corn-cribs, nor power plants, nor ice-houses, as now there are. Only that one
little unconcealing barn, those small slight plantings, that innocent wheat, that shaved
patch of the prairie, which was the hayfield. He's run out there, Kirstie moaned, pointing to the
distances. Somewhere out there, he had lain in wait, perhaps, seeing Wally depart,
maybe watching their just caresses. Somewhere out there, he must be.
be pausing now, watching them hunt for him. Wally was shaking with incredulous fury. It simply wasn't
possible that Peter Keith should have so underestimated him. But no wonder, after he had been such a
fool, as to let him go unpunished once, oh, all Wally needed was one more chance at him.
They ate no dinner.
Kirstie lay down wearily.
Wally, with his gun in hand, stood watching,
promising her he wouldn't go far,
or leave her alone more than a minute.
She moaned as he came to her during the afternoon
to give her the baby.
Oh, what do we ever do now, Wally?
Leave that to me, he said,
in such a voice that she said, in such a voice
that she could say no more just then.
You won't hurt him, Wally, she begged again, thinking only of her husband's safety.
Will I not? he answered grimly. She wept.
There's Aunt Libby, she moaned. Is there? He cried.
There was no Auntie in his intentions. He was thinking only of his wife, who trembled and
wept temporarily. Wally, you'll get into trouble. If he won't bother us, let him come back.
He does bother me. She dared not answer that tone. Wally choked and turned away to look out over the
prairies again. A rattlesnake, that man was, hiding in the grass, a damned, poisoned snake,
and like a snake he should be treated.
If it had been a windless day, one might have traced him through the grasses,
but now one second of the wind swept away any trace of him.
A good dog might have trailed him, but there was no dog at hand.
In many places before Wally's very eyes, a man, a snake, might walk upright and unperceived.
Inside, Kirsty lay moaning in fever.
outside, while he patrolled his premises, frustrated, raging.
In his excitement, details came rushing back to his mind, to which he had long and obstinately
refused entrance. He remembered all the bits of confession that Kirsty had made to him
the first night that, knowing her trouble, he had gone to claim her.
Peter had loved her. He had wanted her for his, she had told him, but she wouldn't listen to him
because she thought of Wally. She thought of herself as his. That was when she was living at her
aunt's, after her mother had died. Then once, Aunt Libby had gone to stay with her sister who was
having a baby. Wally would curse that woman's name for having so blindly,
So fondly, trusted her knavish son.
Why couldn't she have at least left dawd with his sister?
But Kirsty hadn't been afraid.
Wasn't Peter her cousin?
She hadn't been at all afraid.
And that night, when there was no help within a mile,
she had run out of the house, undressed, barefooted, across the snow,
till Peter caught her and brought her back.
Wally hadn't often thought of that,
because he couldn't think of it and live.
But it had no mercy on him now.
That story cried aloud to him,
shrieking through his mind.
He would kill that man and go to the sheriff and give himself up.
He would stand up and tell any twelve men in the count.
that story, and come home acquitted. If only he could find the man, he went beating through the
grasses nearer him, maddened by the feeling that it was in vain. To the west, the treacherous grasses
jeered at him wavingly, and to the east. North and south, they mocked him. The afternoon passed.
Neither of them could eat at suppertime.
Kirstie wouldn't stay alone in the house while he went to milk.
She insisted on crawling out to the barn to be near him.
She could scarcely sit up, so worn and weak she was.
The baby howled bitterly, being neglected.
Wally put him to sleep, laying him on the bed beside his mother.
He shut the door to the east.
It had no lock. It had never needed one. He put a chair against it and sat down on the step of the other door, fingering his gun, as the stars came out, watching, thinking sorely.
There was no jury that would not set him free when he told the story. What sort of men would those be who would say he had not done right to kill a poison's
snake. He would just tell them, ah, but to tell that story now, when it was being so well
forgotten, to bring it all back to sneering ears, as it had been brought back to him so painfully fresh
today. If only he could find the man and kill him quietly and bury him somewhere in the tall
grasses, without anyone knowing. If only he might find him, crouching there somewhere.
So desirable did that consummation seem, that he turned abruptly and went to the barn,
to see if his spade, which his father had borrowed, had been returned to its place.
Yes, there it was. He could laugh as he dug that grave in the farthest, most remote,
Slough. By God, only two years ago, the government of the United States had been paying him
for digging graves, graves for honest men, who made no women tremble. Oh, if he might find that man,
and get it over quietly. That wish became a drunken, cursing prayer in his mind. If only in the
morning, he might only say to her, you needn't be afraid he will ever come back again.
Terrible things rushed through his mind. Once, when the baby had been a few days old,
he had asked her a question curiously, casually. She had seemed so surprised in those days
that she hadn't had twins. He had asked her why she had supposed she would.
And when she had not answered, he had asked her again.
She said simply that, after all that had happened that night,
she thought she couldn't have less.
He had really so successfully pretended to make light of her situation
that she didn't know how that must rankle in his mind.
He had turned and gone abruptly out into the dark,
when she had answered him so, and she never realized what she had done.
He had wondered then why he had ever let that man go.
He had wondered often at the time of the child's birth.
Well, once he got a chance now, he would be done with that regret forever.
He remained on guard, not realizing how the hours were passing, till he heard.
where John riding hurriedly in home.
He went to look at the clock then.
It was midnight.
The storm was almost upon them.
The thunder was growling about its coming.
John sat down on the step,
and Wally sat down near him,
intending not to let John know what had happened.
The speaker, John began,
had been traveling through the south,
and strange things he had seen.
He said Johnson ought to be impeached.
Wally had a vague idea what his brother was saying.
He didn't want to excite his suspicion in the least.
He rallied and asked if Stowe had been there.
John had seen Stowe, and Stowe had asked why Wally wasn't there.
Lots of friends had asked about Wally.
John talked on.
The thunder grew louder. Rain began falling, in big drops. They both rose to go in. Rising,
John said,
Yes, and as I was coming home, guess whom I met, Wally? Our esteemed kinsman, Peter Keith.
I stopped in at O'Brien's, and there he was, drinking away as usual. Wasn't that interesting now for us?
and Aunt Libby was going about all day as usual, asking if anyone had seen her poor sick,
blessed laddie. I brought him as far home as the McTaggerts's corner. Maybe Auntie will lapse into
sanity now, comparative sanity at least. Wally had risen with John to follow him into the house,
but at the sound of that name, he had paused outside the door to hide his face.
from his brother. John's story made him heart-sick. There was no chance now of getting it over
secretly. Peter had gone home. It didn't seem possible. He intended to defy Wally. He intended to
hide behind his mother. Well, he would speedily find that no women's skirts could save him now
from his desserts. He feigned a natural interest and tarried outside till he heard John going up the
stairs. Then he came in from the rain and sat down. That room, that home of theirs, all spoiled,
all defiled, their table, their chairs, their clock. All the things that they had bought
and enjoyed together seemed alien and same.
sinister. He gave a look around all the little room, wonderingly, and then it all faded from
his thought. He laid his arms on the table, and buried his face in them, as if he was weeping,
but he was not weeping. Until almost morning he sat that way, scarcely moving, not heeding,
the sharp breaking of the thunder.
He was planning ghastly things.
Kirsty called to him sometimes,
and he answered,
she called to him at length,
wearily, to come to bed,
to take his place beside her.
Oh, God!
She was his wife,
and he hadn't been able to defend her.
But morning was coming,
the new day's light would make things right.
End of Section 12.
Section 13 of the Abel McLaughlin's by Margaret Wilson.
This Librevox recording is in the public domain.
You go on with the corn, Wally said to John at breakfast,
I am taking Kirsty over to mothers.
John made no comment.
Kirstie looked as if she had had fever unusually severe the day before, and, naturally,
she would be better cared for at the McLaughlin's.
John suspected nothing. He wasn't especially observant.
Talking still of the celebration, he didn't see Wally watching his wife,
covertly watching the way her eyes turned hauntedly toward any slight sound out of doors.
Wally went through the prayers as usual.
Prosper us in our duties this day, he implored, with unaccustomed fervency.
John went away to his work.
Kirstie and the baby got into the wagon, where Wally had slyly hidden his gun.
He had to conceal his sterner purpose from her.
He said to her simply that he had made Peter get out once,
and he could do it again.
He saw no use in saying,
how much more thoroughly
he intended doing it this time.
They scarcely spoke,
riding away together, man and wife,
sitting there, so close to him,
she seemed so dear,
so dear,
and life so precious.
Why should he have to endanger it now,
just when he was beginning to appreciate it,
for the sake of that man's villainy.
The poignant silence struggled and surged about them,
his rage, her fear, their love,
fighting together with no relief in expression,
her beseeching, mourning eyes,
searching the face he tried to keep averted.
No one at his mother's had heard of Peter,
return. That was proved by the fact that no one began talking about it.
Kirsty had had fever the day before, Wally announced to them shortly. He was worried about her.
He had to go over to the store, and he thought she had better be left where she would have some
care. He said he and John could batch it a few days. She spoke up sharply and demanded that he come for her
by evening at least. He had to promise that much to keep her from exciting suspicion. It was
plain she meant to take no denial. Her eyes implored him to be careful. Lightened of his
encumperances, he drove away. He was praying that circumstances might be made to serve him,
so that he could get his task over secretly. If not, then Peter would find that
that no woman could help him now. He drove straight along towards his aunts, grimly,
not having to nurse his wrath, having only to restrain it. He wasn't made for anger, as he knew.
It had even, as a little boy, always made him ill. It had exhausted him now. He felt limp,
and he must be strong and calm for what was coming.
He let his horses take their own gait.
The heat of the sun, after the rain of the night,
was making the country one great steam bath.
He wiped the sweat from his forehead.
He came to the McTaggerts' corner.
John had seen that man so far home the night before.
If John had known then all that story,
what a chance he would have had.
Thank God he hadn't known.
But when he did know, today, now, in a few hours, he would stand by Wally, with what a sincere strength.
Of course, John couldn't be expected to stay and look after the farm while Wally was taken.
Where?
Maybe Andy would do that, and Kirstie would have to stay at his mother's until—what?
His happiness was scarcely more now than a sickening,
faint memory. He could do what he had to do. The McLaughlins could always do that,
and do it well. He could see the little Keith house now. He drove on towards it. There was no one
working in the hayfield. There was no one owing corn. No sign of life, but a tethered colt in the path.
He drove up and got out of the wagon.
He tied his steaming horses to the barn.
He hadn't taken his gun into his hands yet
when the door opened and his aunt came out.
She was ready for some work in the garden, apparently.
She wore a kind of sunbonnet,
made by sewing a ruffle of old calico
part way round a man's old cap
to protect her neck from the sun.
She saw Wally,
and her face lightened with a greeting.
"'Is it you, Huwally?' she exclaimed.
"'And how's Kirstie the day?
We missed you yesterday.
She had too much fever.
I doubt.
She's better.
She's at mothers.
Where's everybody?'
"'Your uncle's at the McNair's.'
"'Trying to hide that skunk, was she?
"'I want to see Peter.'
"'What, Peter?'
She asked with a start.
Your Peter.
My Peter?
Yes.
She needn't think she could work that.
Did you think he was here, Wally?
She asked, Hurt.
John saw him last night, he cried accusingly.
What, John?
Our John.
He saw him last night.
So who?
Saw your Peter.
Could it be?
be. Saw my Peter. He came home with him last night as far as the McTaggerts.
Last night? Yes. With my Peter? Yes, stammered Wally. Peter had never got home. There was no doubt
about that. Libby Keith was standing transfixed there. Her gray face began working. Suddenly she
put her hand up to her head and gave a moan.
Oh, he's destroyed. He never got to me.
She started and ran past Wally in the path
and had climbed into his wagon before he could stop her.
She gave his hitched horses such a slap with the lines
that they plunged strongly. He sprang to get them
before they broke away. He jumped to his place and seized the lines.
"'You can't go with me?' he shouted at her. He couldn't throw her out of the wagon,
and the horses were all he could manage, thanks to her excitement, as if in obedience to the thoughts of the humans behind them,
they were racing down the path towards the MacReith, over which Wally had just come.
"'You can't come with me!' he cried again. She never heeded him.
"'You'll have stopped at the Macquarie.
Curries, she said, moaning, moaning, and making little sounds of speed to his team,
which couldn't possibly have been tearing ahead more madly.
She sat rocking back and forth, and making sounds, which unmanned him,
overwrought as he was by his own excitements and hatred.
Through the steaming slough they plunged and splashed.
He didn't care now how quickly they came to their destination,
he gave up trying to control the horses.
Anything to get away from that noise she was making,
that anguished crooning.
Never was a man with murder in his heart,
so undone by the grief he intended augmenting.
The sandy-haired, bewhiskered McRieth,
had stopped still in his dooryard to watch the runaway team coming up.
When he saw who it was,
he dropped the hoe in his hand,
and came on out down the path to meet the evident crisis.
Wally pulled up the panting horses,
and before they had stopped,
Libby Keith cried to the man approaching,
Where is he? Where's my Peter?
At first he could not understand so impossible a question.
She scrambled perilously down,
and started on a run for the house, with him following.
Where is he?
She cried again, turning on him.
Then Macrieth understood.
She was mad, the poor body.
He said gently.
He isn't here, you know, Libby.
Peter isn't here.
He is, she cried.
He's come.
They've seen him.
Wally had followed them.
Macrieth turned to him and got a nod in confirmation.
They were at the door now,
and Mrs. McRieth had come that far to see what the disturbance was.
Macreth cried heartily to his wife.
Peter's home, Aggie!
Tears sprang quickly to Aggie's eyes.
Where is he?
Libby cried at the same moment.
He's not here, you know.
Macrieth repeated kindly.
Not here, Libby repeated.
John saw him last.
night, while he cried angrily.
Where? they all demanded.
John had seen him at O'Brien's, and as far on the way home as the McTaggart's corner,
and they had supposed he must have turned in at the MacReese when the storm came up.
He's at the McTaggerts, then.
MacReith seemed sure of it, but Libby Keith couldn't wait till the words were out of his mouth.
She was down the path again, and climbing up into the wagon, and the MacReese were following her, breathing out their congratulations.
They didn't know when any news had pleased them as much as that. They were that glad for her.
They were shouting after the galloping team in vain. And again, he had to sit by her, as she went on again,
crooning and whimpering, making noises like a shot rabbit.
He would drive his horses till they fell in their tracks to get away from that torture.
On the corner, where the little path from the quies joined the wider road,
the McTaggarts were building a house.
Three men were working on the roof of it, and from the vantage of the height,
they watched the team flying towards them.
They speculated about it.
They came down.
Where's my Peter?
She shouted to them before they could hear her.
She kept shouting as she climbed down.
They stared at her.
They hadn't seen anything of her, Peter.
They had to go all over that again.
John McLaughlin had seen him at this corner last night.
Where was he now?
Wally wouldn't be balked.
Libby Keith wouldn't be cheated.
The McTaggarts stood looking at the two blankly.
Where was Jimmy McTaggart, who had been drinking with Peter last night?
He ought to know.
Jimmy McTaggart was wakened from the sleep that followed his holiday spree
and dragged to the light of the morning, half-clothed.
He remembered nothing.
While he turned from him wrathfully,
where was his older brother?
Let Gib be brought.
Gib wouldn't have been too drunk to remember.
Gibb was in a far field. A boy went for him on horseback. They made Libby sit down. They stood around,
dazed. Wally went on explaining what he knew again and again. It seemed hours before Gibb appeared.
There stood Gibb before them, telling the truth and making it believed. They had come with John from O'Brien's to be
shore, and at the corner John had ridden on home, and Peter had turned and gone walking down the
path towards home. That was all that Gibb knew about it. Peter had walked right along, not staggering,
or seeming drunk. The men stood looking blankly at one another, fumbling among possibilities,
in quietness for one second. Then Libby cried out, he's fallen, he's fallen, he's
destroyed. She started down the path towards the road calling him, making a more terrible
sound than ever, a stronger sound. Lemmy! she cried. Where are you? Mother's coming.
Some place between that corner and her home, she thought him lying helpless, dying maybe.
Lying drunk, the men thought, and nodded significantly to each other.
It flashed through Wally's bewildered mind that he had probably started back towards Kirstie.
Or maybe back to O'Brien's, someone suggested.
Mrs. McTaggart was running after Libby Keith.
The men started to help her search.
In decency, they could do no less.
They tried to soothe her.
He would be sleeping somewhere had she looked in her own barn.
Could it be?
They wondered vaguely, thinking of her.
other children. That had happened. Anything tragic? Wally had to join them. After all,
she was mad, stark mad, and shrieking over the prairies, and she wasn't a McTaggart that they
should have to care for her. She was his father's sister, and he must see what became of her.
Down the road she ran, calling out to her son and commanding them. They were to go,
for her husband. They were to get her brothers, her neighbors, to send men on horses to look for him.
Some of them turned back to obey her. Wally ran along with her, beating along both sides of the road
they went, tramping down grasses, calling him, calling till Wally felt tears running down his face.
Not that he pitied her, he cursed her. He was saying to himself,
God damn, you stop that noise. And to her, habit-bound as he was, and shrinking from the pain of her voice,
"'Let me do the shouting, Auntie, let me call for you. He didn't know his voice when he lifted it.
So how could Peter know who was begging him for an answer? Oh, if only he might come across him there,
fallen, and make an end of this horror.
Sometimes he stayed a distance from her in this wild hope.
Sometimes he had to support her to keep her from falling.
Down through the slough they went, splashing and bedraggled.
Mrs. McTaggart, with a baby in her arms, followed as best she might.
The slough was shallow where the path crossed it,
but how deep the waters might be on either side,
No one knew.
Libby Keith stretched out her arms dramatically towards them.
Let me, mother's coming, she implored.
Mrs. McTaggerts sobbed.
But she sobbed only like a woman.
Not like a...
The neighborhood gathered at the alarm.
By noon, Wally's father and mother were at the Keith's
and the heads of families for miles around.
Up and down the road the boys and younger men were halloing and beating about,
and in the kitchen the wise old heads were holding a consultation.
Young John McLaughlin had been sent for,
that is Wally's brother, John, not the squires, John,
and all the men who, according to Gibb McTaggert's story,
must have seen Peter the night before.
As the elders waited their coming,
they debated solemnly.
What could have happened to a man between the McTaggerts' corner and his home?
A drunken man, a man said always to be weak, a man known to be lazy,
with a storm coming on, and sharp lightning,
a dark road with deep waters not far from it.
Blinded by the lightning, could he have turned from the path and been drowned?
Could he have fallen and broken a leg?
Men have broken bones as they walked.
Was he now lying helpless somewhere about?
If he was as weak as his mother always insisted,
might he not have fallen down drunk,
and lying in the way throughout the night,
now be overcome by fever?
Could he have been bitten by a rattler,
and asleep, died of the poison?
Could the lightning have struck him?
Men wondered, rather than dared to ask aloud,
could there have been a drunken quarrel and blows perhaps fatal?
Wally suggested that he might be in hiding,
but this was considered a simple suggestion to come from him,
and no one gave it any attention.
They all seemed to think that it was his mother Peter was trying to get to.
Wally dared not explain what reason he might have for hiding.
He wished he had not suggested such a thing.
The young men came and submitted to questionings.
None of them knew exactly when Peter had arrived at O'Brien's.
There had been a fight at the saloon.
Young Sprole had still a black eye from it,
and after Bob McQueen had knocked him down,
there had been a few bad minutes
when the onlookers wondered if he was ever to rise again.
It had been exciting, to say the least, and men had been busy pacifying the two.
After that, Peter was there, though no one remembered to have seen him coming in.
He hadn't asked for anything to eat.
He had drunken quietly, and been silent.
Wally, who had been swallowing his wrath as best he might all the morning,
as man after man came out of pity for Libby Keith.
Each man's kindness to her, making Wally's purpose,
seemed the greater sin against the mother.
Wally couldn't understand this story about Peter's quietness.
Peter gabbled, naturally.
He went noisily on and on,
and now, not a man who had seen his surprising return
could report definitely a thing he'd.
had said. He hadn't really said anything. Wally's brother John testified that, when he first
saw him, he asked him if he had come back to see his mother. Libby Keith, listening with her
harrowed soul, saw no sarcasm in such a greeting. Peter had just mumbled something in reply.
It had never occurred to John that Peter hadn't been home. He thought, of course, he had had
had supper there. It seemed strange to no one that John had desired no further intercourse with his
cousin. His story agreed with that of all the others. He had tarried but a few minutes at the saloon,
naturally, and besides, there was the storm coming on. He had cared enough for the family name
to get Peter started on his way home with the McTigerts. The young Jimmy McTigert had sung song,
obscenely all the way along, and Peter had sat on the side of the wagon. He hadn't been too drunk
to hold on there over all the joltings. John had left him getting down at the corner. Then the great,
honest, young McTigert took up the story, and lucky indeed it was for his wildly drinking young
brother that no one doubted what he had to say. Even O'Brien, the whiskey-susky-susers.
selling man, whose name was anathema to mothers of rollicking sons and earing husbands,
came volunteering his futile help.
They organized the search.
They divided into parties.
Some were to venture out into the deep waters of the more probable sloughs.
Some were to hunt the woods towards O'Brien's,
because Peter was always wanting another drink and might have turned befuddled in that direction.
Some were to hunt through the creek underbrush.
Wally chose to go with one of the parties towards the creek,
partly because that would take him past his father's,
and he was anxious to warn Kirstie under no provocation to tell yet what she knew,
and partly because in that way he would get farthest away from his aunt.
He felt as if all the solid faithful earth under his feet,
feet had given way, and he was attempting to cling to just nothing. That woman, his aunt,
had harvested before him all the sympathy that should have been his. When now he had killed Peter,
the community would think only of her sorrow. There would be no thought of the justification of
the man constrained to his murder. There was an intense unfairness about it.
at all some way. Wally was consoled dumbly by the squire's half-heartedness in the search.
He grumbled as he went along about having to go, and Wally's heart warmed to him, not knowing
that the squire's sensualism, like all men's, had always to be at war with maternity,
which was Libby Keith. Wally had time to question John privately, but he got no further
information. Even Kirstie could explain nothing. Did he look sick? Wally demanded of her anxiously.
He was drunk, wasn't he? She drew back from the question. Oh, don't ask me, she murmured. He just
looked at me. The men spent all day in the more unfathomable menaces. The women searched back and
forth about the Keese's house. The two miles between that house and the corner, back and forth,
up and down that road, they beat persistently and prayerfully, until the little path of the day
before was a great riverbed of trodden muddy grass, hiding nothing. They searched all impossible places.
Through the Keese and McTaggart's barns they went again and again. Peter had to be able to,
hadn't disappeared out of existence, he was somewhere, likely somewhere between the house and
the corner. They went over that path continually till their children began to cry for supper.
The men stopped not even to eat. Let the women and the children do the chores. Let them go
undone. Steaming and weary and excited, they went on with their hunt till the sunset,
till the last glimmer of twilight was gone.
Now, none was as persevering as the squire.
The hunt had become for him the greatest game of his maturity.
One by one in the darkness,
the men had at length to ride home to their waiting families,
with no news.
Strange things they had to think on,
places in the swamps,
where they had not been able to touch bottom,
places where the rushes grew rank and thick
with scarcely space enough for nest
of the crying water birds,
stretches with no sign of a lost man,
and no hope for one losing himself.
At the Kese, Isabel McLaughlin
in Peter's bed in the kitchen,
was lying, praying.
Except his mother,
no one prayed as fervently for Peter's safe return
as Isabel.
All that she asked of the Almighty was that Peter might be found alive,
and well enough, to take the shame away from her good, innocent Wally.
If Peter was brought home dead,
how then ever, in the face of Libby's grief,
could she say that the beloved was a scoundrel?
How could she ever endure not saying it?
That would be too bitter a dose for her.
let God not give her that cup to drink.
If fervency could have brought an answer to prayer,
how quickly would Peter have appeared?
Her passionate hope had been some consolation to Libby,
who so little understood the reason for it.
Libby was lying down in her room,
not because Isabel had besought her to,
but because she was no longer able to stand up.
Isabel wanted to get some rest, but she couldn't leave off her praying to God, the good father.
She hoped Libby might sleep till morning.
But the moon rose after midnight, and with the first flicker of its light,
Libby came out of the bedroom, tying a skirt about her.
Isabel sat up in bed.
"'There's moonlight now,' said Libby,
even from the doorway, where she stood in the darkness,
Isabel could hear her breathing.
Lie down, Libby, she implored.
I mind we, Jenny Price, said Libby.
Oh, Libby, protested Isabelle, shrinking from the mention of such poignancy.
Jenny Price was the six-year-old, who had been lost in the grasses,
wandering from her home some twenty miles down the creek, a year or two ago.
What but that had all the women been thinking of all the day and shrinking from mentioning?
Libby was groping about for her shoes which she had left in the kitchen.
Just near home, Isabel, forty yards from her mother's door.
You can't go out by night, Libby. You can't stand up.
"'crowling towards home it may be.
"'Libby, Libby!' cried Isabel, getting up.
"'40 yards from home they had found the girlish skeleton the next spring.
"'In a place a hundred men would swear in court they had sought through dozens of times.
"'The mother herself had come upon it.
"'Had the child been stolen away for some evil purpose,
"'and flung back later to die,
No one would ever know.
The wee bones were all white, Isabel.
Spare us, Libby.
Peter's a grown man.
The women went out, calling down the road together.
At dawn, when John McRith came out to milk,
while yet the stars were shining,
he heard Libby calling hoarsely,
"'Lummy, Blah me, your mother's coming.'
End of Section 13. Section 14 of the Abel McLaughlin's by Margaret Wilson.
This Librevox recording is in the public domain.
By that time, men were beginning to gather again.
Middle-aged men on horseback, stiff from years of toil,
bearded great young men with dogs at their heels,
large-boned, ruddy, gaunt, rugged a face like Lincoln. Overgrown boys, and boys are the very smallest size
which fearful mothers could be persuaded to let go into possible danger. They came walking or riding
toward the Keats for 30 miles away. The younger ones were sent on horseback to spread the news along all
the roads towards town, even along obscure untravelled paths that led to the cross-state coach road
to the north. In the morning council, Wally had again ventured to suggest that Peter had,
of his own accord, gone back to the place from which he had so mysteriously come. Again,
they all refused to consider his suggestion. Was it likely a man should? He said, he had so mysteriously come. Was it
likely a man should return without a glimpse of those he had come so far to see.
The whole thing was baffling. It seemed beyond belief that no one had seen him come.
That could have happened only on such a day as the fourth, when all the settlers were away from
home. Wally wondered to himself, grimly, however, why, if Peter had managed to come once,
unperceived, he would not be able to come again, as slyly. He didn't see that to tell what he knew
would ease the situation, and he had no intention of telling it if he had proof that it would
have ended the search. He would tell that tale only to justify his making Kirstie safe from
violence. He felt strangely distant from those whose eagerness to help increased with each glimpse
they got of Libby Keith. At his father's bidding, he went again with a party to search the
creek underbrush. From morning till noon, they went on fighting their way through the impenetrable
briory wall of green, stopping only for breath at the water's edge, scratched, mosquito
biten, baffled, exhausted. Once John and Wally happened to get to the bank at the same moment,
and John, stooping down to wash his face, said to his brother, carefully lowering his voice,
I wouldn't be at all surprised if you were right, Wally. It would be just like Peter to have to
leave someplace suddenly in some scrape. I think it probable, after all, that he had started on
short notice for the West, and passing O'Brien's, was unable to resist the smell.
He wouldn't even have had the decency to go see his mother if he had been within half a mile
of the house. Wally said nothing to this, but it comforted him to know how low John's opinion of
Peter was. He could work with new energy after that. At noon, the ten of them stopped at the
nearest house for dinner. There was not a woman in the neighborhood who would not have been glad to
set dinner before a party of searchers, not a woman who had not been frightening her little ones
more carefully about wandering into the tall grass, such helpless slight persons, with that tall
menace, always waiting at hand for them. Margaret McDowell had all the morning been looking from time
to time down the road, hoping to see a horseman coming with good news. But no news came.
She served the men. They ate in silence, hungrily. Having finished, they went out and lay down
in the shade of the house. Most of them slept. Davy McDowell sat next to Wally,
smoking vile, homegrown tobacco in a stern old pipe. Beyond him,
Jordy Sprole went on theorizing in a lullabying voice.
Wally was half asleep himself when he heard him saying,
If we knew the girl to ask, we might learn something.
Girl, when he pronounced it, rhymed with peril.
He was a canny man, Jordy, and Wally was instantly awake.
Hoot, replied Davy, he was never one to run after girls.
Was he not? answered Jordie. His voice was so suggestive, so leering, that Wally sat up.
It's one o'clock, he hastened to announce, we ought to be going on.
He woke all the lads up. They started by twos and threes back towards the creek.
Wally might easily have asked Jordy privately what he meant by that comment of his,
but he didn't dare.
Was it possible that Jordy,
that unconsidered man,
knew anything about Kirstie?
Or about Wally McLaughlin's private affairs?
He must have meant something,
and Wally wanted intensely to know what it was.
Doubtless Davy McDowell would presently be inquiring for gossip's sake.
But Wally assured himself that
if Jordy really knew anything about the truth of the matter,
he would never dare to tell it,
nor would he have dared to hint before Wally
that he knew it.
Only would he not dare.
Men dared strange things nowadays, it seemed,
even cowards like Peter Keith.
They seemed to think Wally McLaughlin,
a soft, easy-going man.
They would speedily
find out their mistake.
They would get rid of the idea that he was a man with whom one might safely take
unspeakable liberties. If only he might have the fortune, the one chance in a thousand,
or ten thousand, to come upon that damned snake, lying somewhere hidden.
Exhausted, sore and muscles in mind, he went on through the
breathless thicket. At four he came again to the water's edge and saw Kirstie's brother Dodd just
coming out from a swim. He threw himself down under a great linden tree for a rest,
and under his hand he saw Dodd's hat full of choice blackberries. Dodd was undoubtedly preparing to
make himself as comfortable as possible. He was weary enough to defy the world,
and relinquish his pretences of being a man.
He made his decision known flatly.
I'm not going back into that, he announced, I'm through.
It was plain that his swim hadn't cooled his temper much.
Wally repressed a smile.
Dodd was extremely thin.
The ridges of his ribs showed under his skin,
which gleamed white and wet in places.
in vivid contrast to his tanned arms and neck,
and he was stepping along gingerly to avoid thorns,
lifting his bony legs high.
One of his eyelids had been scratched,
so that his eye was swollen shut.
You've done enough, said Wally.
You've got a bad eye there.
The boy struggled into his shirt and overalls
and stretching out near Wally
began dividing the berries. Wally had to notice how men's zeal to help Libby Keith vanished as she grew distant.
In her presence, in the presence of motherhood itself, so to speak, they were shame-faced and eager,
deploring their helplessness, as men are while their wives labor in childbirth.
But away from her agony, they forgot.
as men do after labor is over, and turned again to their own comfort.
Dodd broke the silence, surprisingly.
Kirstie'd be glad if he was dead, he said resentfully.
Why, Dodd, exclaimed Wally.
She would that. She hates him.
He's your cousin, lad.
He's as much your cousin as he is mine.
She can't endure the sight of him.
Wally sat up. He looked at Dodd. He had thought of him always as a child. He was a big, tall boy now.
Fourteen years old he was, and doubtless able to put two and two together. How much did he know?
He must have heard people talking. Wally suddenly wondered why he had not always been afraid of Dodd.
To be sure, he had always been careful to keep on the good side of his little brother-in-law.
He never done us any good.
Dodd spoke vindictively.
Now what could he mean by that?
Wally was getting excited.
Why had the boy so great a resentment against Peter
instead of against him, Wally, under the circumstances?
Dodd sudden and apparent preference for Wally
at once grew odious to him.
Dodd had chosen that morning to work with Wally,
He was always choosing to work with him.
Why? It seemed unaccountable to him that he had never been suspicious of the lad before.
While he dared not to say to him, well, he never did you any special harm, did he?
Suppose Dodd would blurt out what he knew.
He said, confusedly,
Look here, Dod, you oughtn't to talk that way. Not at this time.
I mean, you can't speak ill of the dead, you know.
I ain't said half the truth.
You know how Aunt Libby feels, Wally urged stupidly.
And Kirstie wouldn't like you to say that.
Not now, you know.
Old fool?
commented Dodd.
Undoubtedly, he was meaning his aunt.
Wally couldn't approve of such sentiments in one so young.
You ought to go home and get something put on your eye, he began hastily.
And if you feel like working,
in the morning, you come back with me again.
Dodd went away, unsolved and uncomforting.
Hour by hour, the seekers,
conquered by fatigue, and the growing assurance of futility,
stopped more often for breath.
They had time to gather more and more berries,
from bushes which obviously hid no dying man.
They refreshed themselves more and more frequently in waters,
wherein no drowned man was floating.
Most of them went home in time for their neglected chores that night,
discouraged, hopeless.
Isabel McLaughlin was still at the Keats, detained by Libby's need of her.
Libby, though she used men easily for her purpose,
was not a woman to depend on them.
Her mild old husband could give her no sufficient support
in her affliction. He had never been a mother. He was just a man whom life and marriage had left
blinking, swallowing as best he might, his realization of his own unimportance in the universe.
Libby would have Isabel with her. So Kirstie, in her mother-in-law's house, put the younger
McLaughlin's and Bonnie Wee Johnny to bed, and came out to sit on the door-stead. And came out to sit on the door-stead.
with her weary and outraged husband.
Presently, she asked him wistfully,
Do you think he's dead, Fali?
It's getting to look like it.
She gave a great sigh.
If only she could be sure he was dead.
You don't think he's just gone away now,
she continued.
Nobody thinks that now.
Why don't they?
It don't look reasonable to them.
It looks reasonable enough to me.
He longed to reassure her.
If he had gone back to town,
he would have had to stop in some place to get something to eat.
He didn't stop anywhere.
She slapped away a mosquito.
But if he didn't stop as he came,
why should he stop going back?
He may have stopped at a dozen places coming
and found no one at home.
He may have gone to his mother's when she was at the time.
a picnic. That's what she keeps wailing about, because she wasn't there when he came.
In the silence of the starlight, she gave a great sigh.
It's all my fault, she declared. He was too tired to listen to that.
Our fault, indeed, he answered sharply. We never told him to come sneaking back and get lost,
did we? We didn't tell him never to write to his mother.
I didn't say it was your fault. I said mine. Really? Oh, Auntie's trouble seems to come from me.
Sometimes I just seem to make everybody miserable.
She had been wondering what she was to do if Peter's death made Wally's lie permanent.
Haversed, Kirstie, he remonstrated. Her trouble comes through her own foolishness.
She was never less a fool about that, that—
She was always good to me, Wally, whatever you say.
I mind how she stayed with me after Mother's death.
If she's been foolish about Peter, she's paid well for it.
So of you, said Wally.
He's dead, I tell you.
And there was another thing to be said.
Wally might be bewildered, uncomfortable, frustrated,
cheated of any assurance of safety for Kirstie,
but there was one triumph.
and not a small one.
He's dead, and we never speak ill of the dead, Kirstie.
She understood his triumph.
She would have been glad to have him dead,
and not putting Wally into danger.
She would be relieved, too, of that sense of terror
if she saw him dead.
Then she thought of that great sinful lie
and of Isabel McLaughlin.
I can't tell what to wish.
She sighed miserably.
It can't end well.
I wish they'd find him dead.
But if he's dead, how can I ever?
Her voice gave way to despair.
Yes, repeated Wally.
How can you ever?
They sat silent.
You never can, he said securely at length.
The night after the second day's search,
Libby Keith had gone to bed for a while because she was unable longer to stand up.
Again, she had risen when the moon rose, and Isabel McLaughlin, hearing her in the kitchen,
had risen to find her washing out a shallow tin milk pan.
Libby had managed to make her purpose known.
Her voice was altogether gone now, after so much calling to her lammy.
and she was starting out with the pan and the poker
so that when her Peter heard the noise she was making
he would know that help was near
with Isabel following her as best she might
she beat back and forth up and down the roads again
till morning when she fell exhausted near the MacRease at dawn
so that they had to hitch up and take her home
And lying in the wagon, she muttered and moaned.
Isabel understood that sometimes she was simply saying her son's name.
Sometimes she was trying to tell what a good lad he had always been.
And sometimes she said,
Only forty yards from home.
Sometimes, of wean's bones.
But some of the neighbor's gathering had heard her pan's den and praying,
and the hunt was on again, before the sun was well up.
Later that morning, Isabel McLaughlin sat telling Wally about that night,
in the Keese kitchen, whispering,
looking carefully towards the door of the room where Libby was supposed to be resting.
She was sitting by the breakfast table.
On the red cloth, three cold half-drunk cups of tea told how negligible a thing
food was in that household.
Suddenly, she said passionately,
Folly, you've got to bring him home alive today.
And with that, to her son's consternation,
she burst into great weeping.
Wally, fearing the sight of his aunt's grief,
hadn't wanted to come that morning to the accursed house,
but his father had asked him to,
looking at him, while he was.
he thought, with an unusual sharpness, so that, hurriedly, to avoid suspicion, he had said
he would come. He had dreaded the errand, but he had never foreseen this. He never remembered
seeing his mother cry before, not even at the time of his brother's death, though she must have
wept then. And now, well, it was no wonder she was undone, after
48 hours of such nightmare. But he was beside himself at the sight. He got up and strode around the
room at his wits' end. Life was upside down. Kirstie at his mother's, broken and nervous from her
shock, his aunt, raving mad, his mother, crying, noisily. We'll think he's alive, don't you, Wally,
She was asking him, between sobs and sniffles,
You don't think he's dead, do you?
He marveled to see how utterly she shared his aunt's grief.
She could scarcely have wanted more Peter's return
if he had been her own son.
He answered staunchly.
No, of course he's not dead, mother.
A man don't die from sleeping outdoors a couple of nights in July.
You don't think.
he's fallen into some slough and drowned, do you?
No, mother, of course not.
He's around someplace, drunk, likely.
Don't cry, mother.
How could he be alive someplace, and let us all go on hunting him?
Suddenly, she added, with a greater sob, lifting her head,
Well, if Peter's alive, and just letting his mother think he's lost,
We ought to whip him when he's found.
Every man that's spent a day hunting him ought to give him a beating.
Folly, he'd never do that.
I think he's... he's dead.
Mother, mother, don't you cry, so it'll be all right.
They'll find him soon.
If you don't find him soon, Auntie will go mad.
Wally could have cried aloud the conviction that came flooding over him that minute.
If we do find him alive and I get my hands on him, you will go mad.
He began, like a child begging.
Mother, don't you stay here.
You come home with me.
It's enough to kill you, staying here with hauntie.
Let someone else stay a while.
Why can't Aunt Flora stay with her today?
You come on home with me.
I can stay.
She wants me.
I can stand anything if only he's found.
"'Wolly!' she cried, raising a face toward him distorted with tears.
"'Don't you know where he is!'
If Kirstie had been there to see that face, she would have thought that now, at last,
Isabel McLaughlin was betraying her secret, so visibly did forbidden questions tremble on her tongue.
Wally only said, soothingly, indulgently,
If I knew where he was, don't you think I would go there and find him?
Mother, you need a rest. You haven't had enough sleep.
His mother sat bending towards him, beseeching him with all her soul to tell her the truth.
But not one of her passionate, unspoken entreaties reached him.
It never occurred to him that she might know.
He sat looking at her sympathetically.
troubled that she spoke words of such unusual foolishness,
being overwrought by all that had befallen her.
Won't you come home with me? he said again.
No, I won't, she said with some asperity,
and put her head down on her arms on the table, and went on crying.
He rode away to his place in the hunt,
and underneath all his greetings, his short and dry comments,
on the day's possibilities, there stayed with him a troubled sense of pity for his mother.
She was getting old, and he had treated her badly. Sometimes he even thought that he had treated
her very badly in that affair, even though it was over now. All those hours, those murderous
hours of the last days, he had never given her a thought. He hadn't stopped in his head. He hadn't stopped
in his hating long enough to imagine how deeply, how terribly, he was about to wound her.
If he came upon Peter and killed him, as he must, what would his mother do?
How brokenly even now she grieved for Aunt Libby!
What would her grief be like then?
The thought sickened him.
He said to himself bitterly that he was so tired,
so confused that if he came upon that damned snake alone,
he'd likely shake hands with him and let him go.
He scarcely knew what he was doing.
All the parties had changed places that day.
It seemed impossible for men to hunch repeatedly
through the same place with any heart.
It was a fifteen-hour nightmare,
added to the growing sense of futility of frustration, of physical exhaustion, and the burden of the heat,
Wally had that uneasiness about his mother to harrow him. He had gone with the men who were searching
through his own lands that day, through the lowland, where he had so prayerfully hoped to bury his
enemy. And he seldom was allowed even to hunt about alone. Someone or other was always near him,
so that, if he came upon that, that, he would have no chance to work his quick will upon him
safely. The fourth day they gathered again, going over roots that seemed hopeless. Peter,
alive or dead, was simply in no place within miles.
Not a little pebble, even, remained unturned now.
The older men were sustaining themselves on strong drink, more or less soberly,
and the younger ones considerably less soberly.
The first day of the alarm had been something of a picnic
to thoughtless youngsters used to solitary hoeing,
something of a diversion to men accustomed to plowing alone from
dawn to darkness. But the excitement was dying away. Paths were beaten roads, and roads great wide highways.
Miles of untrodden sloughs had become familiar ground, and acres of cryptic underbrush had become
overworked monotony. What the slough had swallowed up, it would keep. If the tall grasses
had treasures hidden, only the winter could bring low the tall grasses.
The crowd dwindled.
First, those from the farther and less concerned settlements went back to their work,
protesting they would all be watching, that they would keep a wide and long lookout always
for any sign of news.
They regretted that their harvests were urgent.
They departed.
Then, day by day, members of the clan returned to neglected fields.
John McLaughlin kept his children hunting,
and as for the squire, he vowed he would never stop.
His sporting blood was up.
For nine days more, Wally and his father went again and again,
from impossible clue to foolish conjecture.
Wally's belief grew constantly stronger,
that Peter had simply gone back to wherever he had come from.
But how he had done it, on a road where one passerby made a day memorable,
he couldn't imagine.
It suggested a devilish cunning, a subtility not to be lightly reckoned with,
a persistence that made an honest man's blood boil.
To his praying mother, he affirmed that Peter,
was alive. To his dreading wife, he proclaimed that certainly he was dead. The whole desire of his life
was to know which statement was true. Their wheat called them at length. It was almost their year's
income, and to its whitening invitation they must listen. They took down their cradles and fell upon it.
Then they together went and harvested poor old Uncle Keese crop for him.
He was no farmer at any time, and now too weakened by sorrow to save his wheat.
Libby kept her bed for days together, and for many days Isabelle McLaughlin hung over her,
trying to save her sanity.
However much Kirsty shrank from it, she had to leave her mother-in-law's well-filled house
and go back to the loneliness of her own.
Her harvesters must have food cooked and ready for them.
Sometimes one of Wally's little sisters stayed a few days with her,
sometimes a little brother.
Wally had told his mother simply that,
since the day Kirstie had fainted there alone on the 4th of July,
he wouldn't have her left without company.
His mother had listened simply, searchingly,
wondering unhappily about many suggestive circumstances.
And all the time, Kirstie kept insisting she wasn't afraid,
not she, no indeed, but she never got Wally to believe her.
He knew why she brought lunches so often to the field,
and why she had loitered about with him, forgetting her housework.
He saw why she had suddenly become,
so keen about shooting. Why, day by day, she potted away at worthless small birds, which formerly,
her pity, would never have let her shoot. Let her say what she would. She was so much afraid that her
very eyes had changed. Never before had they had that way of shifting instantly under her long
lashes. Never before, since she had been his wife, had they had that haunted expression.
She was bitterly afraid, and he was unable to reassure her. He could do nothing. It was as if some
invisible, unconquerable rattler crawled about in that little house where his wife and baby had been
so happy. It seemed that all his safety lay in crushing down a great, uplifted club upon an intangible
enemy. The green months passed at length, and the golden ones were all but gone. John went back to
Chicago, and the young children started back to school through goldenrod and wild sunflowers,
down paths with fuchsia-colored wild asters, amethyst, blue and pink.
Kirstie was alone, perforce.
Occasionally she had a visitor.
Aunt Libby came oftener than anyone else.
She was better again, able to spend day after day on horseback,
going about from neighbor to neighbor, and calling, as she went,
to ease her heart in the lonely places,
Lemmy, let me.
She came often to Wollies to see Bonnie Wee Johnny.
She had taken a notion that he was like her Peter.
He ran about now, and it seemed not strange to his mother
that a woman should ride miles for the pleasure of watching him.
She taught him carefully to tolerate Aunt Libby's extravagant caresses.
Wally's sisters were entirely indignant when they heard that Aunt Libby thought the baby looked like her son.
But as they afterwards remarked, it was just like Aunt Libby to say that the prettiest child in the neighborhood resembled her blessed Peter.
End of Section 14.
Section 15 of the Abel McLaughlins by Margaret Wilson.
This Libravox recording is in the public domain.
The year's calendar of color was almost at an end.
Only white was left for it now.
The fields had been black.
They had grown green, shyly, softly.
They had given themselves up to bold greenness.
They had achieved their golden maturity.
They had reveled in gold.
and dazzled by it. They had faded into dullness and browns. They died and lay withered.
Snowes would come soon for their burial. The morning's white frosts were the promise of it.
Kirstie must keep the door shut now, for the baby's sake. With doors shut, the house seemed a trap,
a trap from whose windows she had often to be looking to re-reelieu.
assure herself. Out of doors, she felt safer, freer. So she said that the baby must have
more air, and she took him day after day to the field, where Wally was husking corn. Since the mosquitoes
were no longer hungry, the baby's face was free, for the first time in months, from red blotches.
He grew rosier and rosier in the cornfield.
He looked so blooming that Kirstie said
She just had to take him visiting
To show him to the neighbors.
That was another excuse for not staying at home alone,
Another which Wally pretended to be deceived by.
It happened one morning, Squire McLaughlin,
riding past, saw a flock of wild turkeys alight in her dooryard,
and, leaving his horse, he crept toward the house to borrow Wally's gun and bring down a bird for dinner.
He had all but gained the house when out of the door shot Kirstie, crying out a cry, unintelligible,
out of the door and down towards the corn she flew. It gave him a startle, as he said afterwards.
He didn't know what terrible thing might have happened.
He started after her.
He called to her questioningly.
She never lessened her pace.
He said later that he had never seen a woman run as fast as she did.
He could scarcely keep within sight of her among the dead cornstalks.
He happened to see Wally hear her cry of anguish and his swift leaping answer.
The squire called to him, and Wally heard him, and stopped, confusedly,
and began calling to his wife.
"'It's Uncle Wally, Kirstie! It's only Uncle Wally!' he called to her,
as if he had some great news to give her.
She stumbled against him, panting in white,
and the squire hurried on to them, in consternation.
There the three of them stood, breathless, excited,
looking blankly from one to the other.
"'What ever's the trouble?' the squire gasped,
recovering first.
Kirsty had grown red with relief and humiliation.
Oh, she stammered, confusedly.
Oh, I just thought, I thought you were a tramp.
You were never running from me, Kirsty? he exclaimed.
Yes, I was. I just thought.
You came up so quietly I didn't know.
She paused and looked at her husband, beseechingly.
I got a fright, she murmured.
Wally knew what she thought.
Pitiful, she was, just pitiful, standing there, trembling, ashamed, trying to cover her folly.
Let the squire laugh as loud as he would.
Let him fill the prairies with his relief and amusement.
He said he had never seen anything so amazing.
Him to be chasing her, frightening her.
frightening her more and more.
He didn't know he looked so much like a tramp.
The birds must have been as frightened as she had been.
She had spoiled a fine shot for him.
He had supposed the house was on fire, at least.
I hope they were scared.
I don't want them shot.
I'm taming them.
They come every morning, she retorted.
She wanted to make him forget what she had done.
He stood laughing at her indulgently, amused because she was a pretty thing.
Come back to the house, and I'll give you a slice of cold turkey that father shot yesterday.
Wasn't it a good bird, Wally?
She started back towards the house.
Wally went with them.
After all, it was nearly noon.
She begged the squire not to tell what had happened.
She had been having fever.
and it would only worry Isabel McLaughlin to know she was so flighty.
He promised, but she saw from his face he was already making a fine yarn about how he terrified women.
She knew he wouldn't be able to keep it to himself.
That hour Wally came to a great decision.
He had been considering for some time a proposition a cousin of his had made to him,
a son of the squires.
Next spring, the railroad would have completed its track to its next western terminal,
and the news station, which would become a town, was to be but three miles from Wally's farm.
From that town, all the supplies that settlers must have would be hauled a hundred miles west.
What they would need first and always would be lumber.
The squires John wanted Wally to leave his farm and start with him selling lumber.
Wally would have a little money, and the cousin had some, and for a great wonder, they knew where they could borrow more.
The money they could borrow was a thing which even in those days startled men's minds.
Wally's cousin John had an aunt who had come with her husband, a miller from Scotland,
and had settled some hundred miles away where Houghton could get work in a mill.
His employer was an old Yankee of some wealth.
In the winter of 60, the old man had decided suddenly and irrevocably to sell the mill,
and the Houtons had wondered where they would be able to find work anew.
The miller had ordered Houghton to find a purchaser. His orders were always imperious and startling.
Houghton had set about the task and had persuaded two men to buy the plant, which he promised to manage.
They had come and looked the place over carefully, but just as the papers were to be signed,
they had changed their minds, so that when the miller was already rejoicing erratically,
Because of his freedom from responsibility, he found himself still encumbered with a business.
He was beside himself with anger. He was determined to sell that mill at once without delay.
He wouldn't wait. So it came about that almost before he knew what he was doing,
Halton himself had bought that mill, with 50,000 bushels of wheat for 50 cents a bushel,
paying down for it all the money he could raise, which was $85.
The Miller had simply bullied him into the bargain.
Houghton was overwhelmed with the burden of so great a debt.
He felt that he had been basely taken advantage of.
Then, in a few weeks, came the war.
The first thing he knew, he sold his wheat for three times what he paid for it,
Wealth has perhaps seldom fallen so suddenly upon a man so little dreaming of it.
Houghton bought at once 10,000 acres of Iowa land,
and nowadays his sons, who go round and round this stuffy little stupid globe in their yachts,
berate his memory, yawningly, because he didn't buy a hundred thousand acres.
He was the man who would lend two soldiers of his kin a few hundred dollars to begin business.
Wally had thought, before the bomb of Peter's return, that farming was no life for Kirstie.
She was no tireless woman like his mother.
Malaria was a hard thing for young wives and nursing mothers.
Wally had often wished that in some way he might make her necessary.
work lighter. And now that this intolerable menace of violence hung over their home,
it seemed best altogether to leave it. He knew what his father would say to the idea that
a man getting a dollar and seventy cents for wheat should leave his land. His father thought,
a man who left off tilling his land to dig gold out of it, a poor shiftless creature.
None of those who would advise him so vigorously against his contemplated course could foresee that wheat, that brought so great a price that fall, would the next year be selling for thirty cents.
But after Kirstie's flight from her uncle, Wally didn't care what they advised, he wouldn't have his wife trembling.
He would give his answer to his cousin at once.
they would move to town.
A Sabbath, some weeks later, Wally and Kirstie and Bonnie Wee Johnny were at Isabel McLaughlin's for dinner,
and the Squire was there, with several of his smaller children, and the McNair's.
The women and the girls were clearing away the dinner things in the big kitchen,
and the men had withdrawn to the Sabbath parlor, where the best rag carpet was,
and the basket quilt spread on the bed.
In the stiff propriety of that room,
they had been talking with less cordiality than usual.
McNair had only scorn for Wally's folly in leaving his farm,
and Wally had no great patience for his father-in-law's disapproval.
He had been saying that he would get a renter,
and McNair had commented scoffingly that then,
That was a likely thing. Who would rent land that could be had almost for the asking?
The place would go back to weeds, he averred. Wally protested that he would never allow that,
somebody would come along glad to get a bit of broken ground for a crop. If not, he would drive
back and forth from town every day and care for it himself. That would be great farming,
McNair had remarked significantly.
Farming was just now beginning to amount to something.
Look at the years they had spent, miles from markets.
Consider the money they had lost before the war,
when they had got for their produce, greenbacks,
which depreciated in value before they could get them spent.
And now, when the iron horse was here to serve them,
when their millennium was a good,
hand, Wally was going to quit farming. They never called the railroad anything but the iron horse
at that time and place. Hadn't they prayed for its coming? Hadn't they waited and paid in their
hard-earned dollars for its advent? John McLaughlin himself had contributed $300 when the
subscription paper went round for funds to help out the prospective builders of the road, and
McNair himself had been moved to give 150. Well, that money had been wasted. That company had failed.
But now, ah, now the day was at hand. They had the land. The nation needed food. The railroad solved
their last problem. How rich they were to be! They sat, exulting in hope of years that were to be,
and dying, and now the young men talked of selling lumber.
The Keith's came driving in, and the men joined the women in the kitchen to welcome them.
Even the children playing at the door followed them in.
Libby Keith took off her hat and wrap, and gave them to a niece.
She was more gray, more flabby than ever now, and her eyes were dull and brooding.
But just as she went to sit down, Bonnie-wee Johnny came in, and she saw him, and instantly
her face grew soft and warm with tenderness, and her eyes grew bright.
She ran and knelt down on the floor and folded her arms about him.
Oh, the Bonnie-wee laddie! she murmured, kissing him.
Oh, the gay little.
And then, kneeling as she was, she did.
turned her face up towards her old husband and exclaimed,
"'Look, John, is he not like him?'
The unimportant John, peering intently out of his kindly old face,
smiled down on them, sighing,
"'As like as two peas,' he said gently.
Then Libby, fumbling with one hand,
while her other held the little boy,
pulled from a pocket in her voluminous cotton skirt a picture in a little case.
No other woman of her class had dreamed in Scotland
of aping the gentry to such an extent as having a picture of her children made.
But Libby Keith had, of course, gone without food to save the necessary money.
She could starve more easily than lose the remembrance of those
tender child faces of hers.
She opened the case and looked at it intently for only a moment.
Then she handed it to Isabel McLaughlin.
Look at this, Isabel. You said he was more like Wally.
Isabel took the picture and looked at it.
Tears came unexpectedly into her eyes.
There before her was Libby's Davy, a little innocent,
broad-faced, laddie, with his arms protestingly around his sister Flora, who, with her head shyly on one side,
looked out at the world with wondering round eyes, and seated before them, on a stool with a fringe,
one leg crossed under him, sat little Peter, with a plaid cap lying proudly in his lap.
Isabel blinked away her tears.
Ah, Davy was like that, she murmured.
And then she turned and looked at her grandson still in Libby's arms.
He had on his best Sunday dress that his step-grandmother had made for him,
of scarlet wool nuns-vailing.
A little frock that Kirsty keeps to this day folded immaculately away.
It was low in the neck.
and had no sleeves to hide the soft dimpled arms.
Around the neck and the flaring skirt were three rows of very narrow black velvet ribbon.
Kirstie had curled his hair that morning around her finger.
The curls at the back of his head were still in shape,
and the long one that came down the top of his head to his forehead,
disarranged as it was,
still showed what a soft, sweet,
thing it must have been before his romp with the children. And there in the frame,
Isabelle looked at what might have been the picture of the child before her, the very forehead,
the same childish nose. Only little Johnny had a winsome way of screwing his mouth into smiles,
which he must have got from his secret grandfather Keith, who, quite unenmired, stood watching him
indulgently.
Isabel McLaughlin said gently,
You're right, Libby.
He's like it.
Peter is a McLaughlin, if ever there was one.
And having taken away any cause for apprehension that Kirstie might have had,
and having given her husband's family,
a little knock from which, under the circumstances,
the two McLaughlin men were not able to defend themselves,
she handed the picture calmly to Kirsty, saying again,
it might have been our baby's picture.
She never again had any doubt about the paternity of the child,
and so simply had she justified the resemblance
that Kirsty studied the picture unabashed, with a natural interest.
The picture was handed from one to another,
and Wally, when he got it,
studied it intently. No one noticed him doing it. Libby Keith had sighed again,
and said, Just about that time,
To them that hath it shall be given, them that has sons, has grandsons.
Wally looked up from the picture to her, and wondered if it would have comforted her to know
that the child so brutally begotten was indeed her grandson.
Not that it made any difference, of course.
He wouldn't tell her in any case.
He hated that little picture.
It had possibilities against which he couldn't fight.
And the women were saying to the baby,
Say Aunt Libby, Johnny, come on now, say Aunt Libby.
Say it, baby.
Look, he's going to say it.
They had reason to think so.
Johnny prepared for action.
He pursed up his red lips.
He looked around upon his admirers, complacently, happily.
All eyes were upon him.
He let them wait a moment.
Then he manipulated his lips more earnestly.
The great moment was at hand.
PUR!
He articulated proudly.
Burr.
Various honest.
aunties dived for him, rewarding him with laughter and huggings, enthusiastically.
Was there ever so silly a baby, ever a bairn so lovable, they asked.
It occurred to Wally casually that, perhaps the secure son of Wally McLaughlin,
was a more fortunate being than the unfothered offspring of Peter Keith would have been.
End of Section 15.
Section 16 of the Abel McLaughlins by Margaret Wilson.
This Librevox recording is in the public domain.
The corn was hussed.
The year's work in the fields was over.
Wally had sold, from 60 of the acres for which his father had paid $210 in 64,
wheat worth $3,060.
He had his house all paid for now.
He owned 300 acres of land,
some of it a bit farther west,
where a bushel of wheat still bought an acre of faithful soil.
His little pines had grown steadily,
and his orchard, now that the grasses and weeds were frosted,
was visible to the naked eye from the house.
house. A lot of little switches ready to stand bravely against the gales.
Everything prospered with him. Everything, except for that shadow of evil that clouded their
lives hatefully. Every day, Wally's mind dwelt futilely upon the problem of Peter Kese's fate.
And Kirstie's eyes, he observed, still shifted apprehend.
under their tender lids.
And what was he to do now,
when he must go to the timber
for his winter's supply of wood,
when he must leave early in the morning
and return at nightfall?
He couldn't leave her alone.
He had remarked to one neighbor and another
that he wanted some man to bring his wood home for hire,
but he found no man willing to do it.
his work.
Kirstie would have to take the baby and go to her father's or his mother's.
She didn't want to do that.
Either Wally would have to take her back and forth daily, and that was a difficult thing
under the circumstances, or else she would have to stay away for days together, and then
Wally would come home to a cold house and no food ready.
They dreaded those days.
He finished the corn on a Wednesday, and on Thursday they were to have a great lark.
They were to go to town together for the first time.
He had a wagonload of prairie chickens to sell, which ought to bring at least ten dollars.
Silly birds he had caught almost without effort as he hussed his corn.
Everything was ready.
For one day they would put aside all the whole.
their misgivings and be happy together. They were enjoying what seemed to be a second Indian summer,
bland days for riding across the country. And there was that spring seat ready for Kirstie's comfort.
Moreover, she was to have a new coat. Wally had wanted to get her one the fall before,
but she had said that there were so many things that they had to buy for their house that
they really couldn't afford the coat. She still protested that she really didn't need it,
but Wally was the more determined because he suspected she wore her mother's old wrap for the
principle of the thing, as if she needed to act humble. He wouldn't have it. The store in which
they found the right coat finally was narrow and dark and full of dull necessities,
mittens and milk crocks, grim boots, and grimmer tobacco.
Wally hated the clerk the moment he saw him fix upon Kirstie,
eyes that narrowed expressively.
Nevertheless, the odious man brought out from some dark recess
behind the main room the very garment they were searching for.
Put this on, he urged familiarly.
She put it on.
It was a green thing, so dark a green it was almost black, and rich-looking, short in front,
and falling, mantel-wise, well down over her skirts behind.
It had rich fringe on it and intricate frogs for fastenings.
Wally would have forestalled the clerk and buttoned it for her,
but his fingers were awkward and helpless in such a task.
So the man did it, standing as near her as he dared.
But when she stood forth a raid, Wally's annoyance was forgotten.
He heaved a sigh of satisfaction.
He saw again, with surprise, how garments change women.
She was scarcely the same being who had walked in in that faded old dingy wrap.
This coat was made for her, beyond a dark.
doubt. She asked the price. $16. She sighed and began on doing it. She would look at some others,
she said. The man left them. Don't you like it? demanded Wally. It's too fine for me.
Sixteen dollars, she commented. It's not too fine. It's becoming, Kirstie. But $16. She is. She commented.
It's not too fine. It's becoming, Kirstie.
But $16, she exclaimed, as if that settled the matter.
Ah, $16 isn't going to break us up, Wally urged, determinedly.
It's a grand coat. It's snobby.
He was at a loss to express his admiration for the garment.
He only felt vaguely that it looked like Glasgow.
But $16, Wally, the idea.
You'll have it anyway.
I will not.
She was indignant.
Why, Wally, your coat, your overcoat was only ten last winter.
But I hadn't any red dress to match, nor any feather.
The man had come back.
If you want something cheap now for your wife.
I don't want anything cheap.
said Bolly. We'll take this.
Kirstie stood examining it inside and out.
She was wondering what her father would say to such a coat.
She wore the knobby coat anyway.
Wally carried the old garment.
He had been gay, almost hilarious all the morning,
ever since selling the prairie chicken so well.
And now, as he looked at his stunning wife,
walking demurely along in such grand,
his spirits rose higher. He watched people look at her. He chuckled to see them.
They walked down the busy little street. He left the old coat at the hotel. She saw a shawl,
she admired, and he wanted to buy it for her. But she was thinking how nice it would be for his mother.
A little soft fine shawl like that. He wondered that he hadn't thought of that.
himself. They bought the shawl and went on down the street. They came to a place where
tin types were taken. It came over him in a flash. We'll go in and have our pictures taken,
he exclaimed. Oh, she said, hesitating. How much will it cost? Oh, nothing much, he exclaimed.
He made her go in with him. There was a picture, was there, he was there, he was
was thinking, that made we Johnny look like the son of that snake? Well, there should be another
that made him look like another man's son. Kirstie had never had her likeness taken, but Wally
had had his maid in St. Louis to be sent to his mother. He knew how to walk in and have the thing
done grandly. He sat down in a chair and put the baby on one knee,
paternally. On the other knee, he spread out a great hand. Kirstie took her place behind him,
her hand on his shoulder, her feather curling down over her hat, her new $16 coat,
her wine-colored skirts showing bravely. And when that was done, he made her sit down with the
baby on her knee for a picture of just the mother and son. And then a further happy thought
came to him. He sat down and took the baby and cuddled his face right up against his own,
and demanded a picture. It ain't usual, the photographer protested. I can't take a picture like that.
It ain't usual. This ain't no usual baby, Wally replied, chuckling. Who could have made a statement
more paternal than that? I want his face against mine. And he got the picture taken. He got the picture
taken that way in the end.
They sought the street again.
Kirstie was rather overcome by her husband's grandness.
He had such a worldly air, commanding people about.
He kept getting more imperious, more happy all the time,
though he was entirely sober.
After a while, when it was growing dusk,
he spied a friend on the street, just going into his office.
That's Mr. Knight, Kirstie. You remember? The man that drove me home that time. I'll take you to see him. He wanted to show her to everybody.
They went into an office, having not only a kerosene lamp, but a lamp with a rich green shade, most luxurious, most metropolitan-looking.
Kirstie was shy, and Mr. Knight puzzled for a moment.
I'm McLaughlin, Wally explained.
The soldier you drove out to Harmony two years ago.
I was sick, you remember?
Mr. Knight's face lighted up with recognition.
Come in, McLaughlin, he said heartily.
I didn't recognize you. Sit down.
Around a table at one end of the room, men were playing cards.
well-dressed men, who paused and looked up, and continued looking at the newcomers.
A tall wide bookcase screened off one corner into something like a private office,
and to this Mr. Knight led them.
My wife, Wally said proudly, as he seated them.
Your wife, your baby, why, it doesn't seem possible.
How the time gets away.
and where did you find her?
He asked, so frankly pleased with her appearance,
that she blushed more deeply than she had at his first remark.
She's from out there, from Harmony.
She is, he exclaimed.
He continued looking at her.
Well, I always said that that was a remarkable country,
a remarkable country, he drawled.
Wally was delighted.
Knight was a man whose opinion was valuable, a prosperous man, a man dressed as men dress in cities,
whose interest he felt was not merely assumed for political ends.
"'How's your mother?' he went on.
He asked about the children and the crops and the new town which was to be near them.
Finally, he said,
"'Well, you certainly don't look much like you did that morning.'
You were sick, skin and bones. Do you remember?
Do I remember? exclaimed Wally.
Will I ever forget? He turned to his wife.
Kirsty, I was sitting right down there by the elevator,
where the sidewalk is built up high, you know.
I wasn't sitting either. I was lying stretched out
to try to keep from throwing up.
I thought I'd seen Jimmy Sproll out there,
and I'd ride home with him. And when I hurried up to him, it wasn't Jimmy at all.
It just made me sick. And I was lying there when Mr. Knight came along and began asking me
what was the matter of me. He said he would take me home. How far is it? You asked.
And when I said 26 miles, you said, oh, 26 miles. Naturally, that made some difference.
My heart sank, as they say, or maybe it was my breakfast trying to get out.
Anyway, I had a pang of some kind, and you said, you wait here, and pretty soon along you came with those grays.
I tell you I felt better even then.
I got better all the way home, every step.
It seemed that morning as if I couldn't wait another minute to start home.
Naturally, remarked Mr. Knight,
looking again with a smile at Kirstie.
Oh, I didn't know her then.
If I had known her, I'd have started home crawling.
Have you got those grays yet?
asked Wally, suddenly curious.
No, I haven't.
The man smiled reminiscently.
I wish I had sometimes.
A Chicago man came along and wanted them.
He was determined to have them.
I let them go for half a section of land in Lyons County.
I wouldn't have done it, he added confidently.
Only my son had a baby born, a day or two before that.
I thought the land would be a good thing to keep for the child.
How old is this little fellow?
He snapped his fingers invitingly towards the child.
Oh, he's a year or two, something like that, isn't he?
He asked his wife.
"'Tot-Tot, McLaughlin, you need experience.
"'When they're young like that, the women count them in months.
"'Don't they, Mrs. McLaughlin?' he appealed.
"'How old is your grandchild?' Wally parried boldly.
"'Oh, mine's several months. Mine's, well, he's got two teeth already.'
And they laughed.
Wally hastened to safer ground.
if he wasn't careful, someone might ask him when he was married.
I'll tell you another thing I remember, he began.
I got in on that night train that time, you know,
and I went to the hotel where we had always stayed.
Sick I was, you know.
I told the man, he'd seen me a dozen times before,
that I hadn't the price of a room.
He'd had too much.
He never even looked to see who.
who I was. Just saw my uniform and began swearing. Wasn't going to be eaten out of house and home by a lot of
begging soldiers, he said. It nearly knocked me over. I went out to the street, and I couldn't get up
face enough to go someplace else and ask for a bed at first. I just sat around. Then finally I went
to the Great West. That's where we all stay now when we come in. And Pearson there almost
began swearing at me because I said I'd pay him later. He didn't take soldiers' last
sense away from them, he said. He saw how I felt, and he went and got some milk toast made for me,
and soft-boiled eggs. And then, do you know what he did? He went to a room with me, and when he saw
the pillows on the bed, he went and got me a pair of good pillows from someplace. I hadn't slept on a
pillow for I don't know how long. A man notices those things when he's most dead, I tell you.
Milk toast and pillows by Jiminy. And in the morning he sat and fed me such a lot of breakfast.
No wonder I had trouble. I felt as if I'd never get enough to eat.
Mr. Knight made him go on talking. They sat there till the street was dark, and then Wally led his
wife away, right up to the hotel, and then into the dining room. It seemed lordly to her,
that dining room. An amazing day. And Wally, most lordly and amazing of all. It was like a fine
wedding trip, almost that day. End of Section 16. Section 17 of
The Abel McLaughlin's by Margaret Wilson.
This Libravox recording is in the public domain.
They had breakfasted together before daylight,
and he had gone to load the lumber he was taking home for his father,
so that they might have a very early start.
In the noisy, untidy hotel office,
she sat watching, in surprise, the confusion and the stir.
There were crowds of women waiting near her, women like herself, waiting for wagons to take them on towards the west, women with bundles and babies, and quarreling, crying young children.
Kirsty's face showed how exciting the scene was to her. She looked from group to group. She considered a foreign woman with a handkerchief tied on her head, whose tiny baby coughed and
weezed distressingly. She longed to say something sympathetic to the stolid mother, but she was too shy.
Between caring for her own vigorous son and watching other women's children, the hour hurried by.
Presently, she saw her husband drive up and get out to tie his horses. But before he had started for the hotel door,
a stranger accosted him, and with the stranger, Wally turned and went down the street.
So she waited on. Two sets of youngsters quarreling drew their mothers into the fray,
and Kirstie shrank away from their roughness, thoroughly shocked.
Then, before she had expected him, Wally was standing over her, reaching down for the baby.
She scarcely knew him.
His face was white.
His eyes were shining strangely.
What ails you?
She cried.
You're sick, Wally.
What's the matter?
I'm all right, he said sharply.
His voice quivered with feeling.
He couldn't trust himself to speak.
His mouth was set in a hard line.
She rose and followed him, frightened.
She got into the wagon, and he handed her the baby.
He climbed up beside her, and they were off.
She saw he couldn't tell her what had happened just there.
She could wait, a little.
They were almost out of town now.
Wally, what's the matter? Are you sick?
I am all right.
She was more anxious than ever.
She waited till the baby.
baby was asleep in her arms, and then she laid him carefully down in the little box,
in which Isabel McLaughlin had taken her babies back and forth to town. Then she turned
towards her husband with determination and hesitated. He looked too stern, too fierce. She sat
undecided, wretched, glancing quickly at him and then away.
After a few perplexed moments, her face darkens with terror.
Oh, I know. You're—you've seen him. You were like that on the fourth.
He turned toward her, trying to speak.
Yes, he broke forth. I saw him dying.
Oh, dying. She tried to realize it.
Oh, if he's dying, then we'll be it.
be happy again. He said nothing. His lips worked. I won't have to be afraid now.
She spoke like one overcome by a great fortune. He had never imagined she had been as unhappy
as that cry of hers indicated by its relief. Dying, she repeated, tasting the sweetness of the
word. Then, suddenly, how do you know? Where did you? Where did you?
you see him? She saw his face harden with hatred. Wally, are you sure he's dying? He isn't dead yet.
He's dying all right. After a moment, she exclaimed, but how did you find him? Somebody told me just as I was
ready to start home. Oh, that man, I saw that man speaking to you. How did he know to tell you?
They were looking for someone to take him out home.
Oh, they were!
That seemed to have changed the situation for her.
You mean they asked you to bring him out?
He didn't relish her questions.
Yes.
And you wouldn't do it, would you?
She approved.
She clasped his arm with both hands.
She rejoiced in her assurance.
His anger flamed again.
Likely I'd bring him out with you.
Oh, we'll be happy now, Wally.
But after a minute, she stirred uncomfortably.
He felt her face grow grave.
Where was it you saw him, Wally?
In a livery stable.
In a livery stable, she repeated.
Dying in such a place.
Dying seemed not so sweet a word now.
But why didn't he send word home before?
Think of Aunt Libby, Wally.
He came in on a train last night.
Oh, she exclaimed, enlightened.
He wanted to get home alive.
What's the matter of him?
She asked again.
Hemorrhage, said Wally, as shortly.
as it was possible to speak.
He wouldn't tell her how he had seen that snake,
lying bloody, dirty, sunken helpless on a bed of straw.
He urged his horses on.
She looked at him.
He turned away from her troubled eyes.
After a while,
Look here, Wally, she faltered.
He gave her no encouragement.
After all, he was Aunt Libby's baby, she sighed.
After all, he sneered.
He meant to silence her.
She spoke again.
Aunt Libby was always kind to me, Wally.
He wouldn't answer her.
He knew what was coming.
She said timidly.
I doubt we ought to go back and get him.
If he's dying, Wally, and Auntie,
waiting there for him.
He never said a word.
He may be dead before she sees him if we don't.
We won't, he almost shouted.
That should have settled matters.
But what will you tell her?
She'll ask.
She'll find out you wouldn't.
You won't can say you saw him dying
and didn't bring him home.
That was true.
True, he had begun to think of that. Libby Keith would leave no detail of that death undiscovered.
Will you say you went away and left him there to die?
What else could he say? He certainly wouldn't tell that for one long rejoicing moment
he had stood looking into the eyes that so terribly besought him.
those eyes that were dying prayers, ultimate beseechings, and had turned victoriously away.
He wouldn't say that he had told the men who were seeking a ride home for that snake,
that he had too heavy a load for so essential a favor.
He wouldn't tell how shortly he had answered them,
and how hatefully turned on his heel and departed.
Wally, she said, after a little, with conviction,
we ought to go back and get him.
We can't treat Auntie this way.
Can't we? he exclaimed bitterly.
Giddy-up, he cried to his horses.
He felt her wretchedness.
He hardened his heart against her sentimentation.
presently she said imploringly,
We can't do this, Wally, we must go back.
I will not, he spoke passionately.
When she spoke again, it was to warn him.
If you don't go back, I will.
No, you won't, he cried.
She was silent for several minutes then.
He felt her bending down to see a little bit.
if the baby was covered. Then she sat still. She was hesitating. Then, after a minute,
before he could realize what was going on, she had climbed over the side of the wagon.
Her foot was on the hub. Then, skirts and cloak and all, she had alighted, backwards, stumblingly,
from the wagon. By the time he had pulled up the horses, she was the length of the wagon from him.
ignoring him, defying him, she was calling to him over her shoulder.
He made me do evil once, you made me do evil once, but nobody can make me do it again.
Down the road she ran, I'm going back to him, she cried.
He had never been really angry with her before.
Sometimes, at first, before the baby had been born, he had grown very weary of her
importunity, her determination to make him tell his mother the truth.
But of late, she had not done that.
She had been so satisfactory, so lovely.
Now his rage burst forth against her.
Go back to him then, if you like him.
So well, he hurled the words after her and drove on.
Even before he heard her cry of protest, he regretted his bitter taunt.
Furious with himself, with her, he hurried west.
Already he had begun to see the mistake of his sweet refusal.
It would inevitably become known that he had seen Peter's straits,
and had refused him so slight a kindness.
The whole neighborhood would be asking the reason.
He vowed to himself that he would not take that carcass into the wagon with his wife,
if all the world had to know the reason of his hatred.
Such things were expected of no man.
He was only human.
He couldn't do a thing like that.
And his wife had defied him. She had left him. Ah, and he had taunted her so unjustly, so brutally. But he had never imagined himself saying so cruel a thing to her. He had never imagined her defying him in such a fashion. That was what she thought of him then. He made her do
wrong once, classing him with that damned. That was all the gratitude she felt for his saving of her.
But then, of course, it was an awful thing he had just done. He thought of himself,
lying sick on the sidewalk, waiting for a chance to get home. He hardened his heart. But he had
been a decent man, no violator of women.
He would never do it.
He turned and looked after his deserting wife.
He could see her hurrying away from him.
He had an idea of shouting to her to come back,
of commanding her to come back.
But he knew she wouldn't heed him.
He ought never to have said so hateful a thing to her,
as if she could want to go back to that.
He remembered how she had sat sobbing,
on the doorstep when he first went to her. He was glad to think of Peter Keith dying there,
lonely, shrunken, filthy. He looked again after his wife. She went steadily eastward,
running towards the town. But he had the baby. She would be coming back after a while.
He drove on, raging against her, trying to justify himself.
He went so far that he could scarcely see her now.
He might have gone on home if there had not appeared on the horizon,
a team coming towards him.
Its approach was intolerable.
Somebody who might know them was coming nearer.
Somebody would see Wally McLoughlin,
riding westward and presently overtake his wife, running east.
He turned around abruptly.
Facing east, he could just see her.
He would quickly overtake her and order her to get in and come home with him at once.
He would never let her go to that livery stable full of drunks alone.
He was getting near her.
Then a strange thing had.
happened. He saw her stop and suddenly turn around and come half running towards him as fast as she
had run away. He kept his face hard, unrelenting. He saw when she came near that she was crying
softly. She climbed quickly up when he stopped. I doubt he's not dying, she wept. I can't do it.
"'He's too strong, Wally. He's tricky.'
She cuddled against him.
"'Don't cry,' he had to say.
"'I won't look at him,' she sobbed.
"'You know I don't want to go back to him.
"'You oughtn't to have said that.
"'You know I don't like him.
"'If you want to know how much I hate him, I'll tell you.
"'It was me that shot him that time.
"'It wasn't his foot I was aiming at either.'
She wept unrestrainedly.
You shot him?
Wally gasped.
He would come back.
What could I do?
There was no place to hide.
I shot at him.
She had shot him.
She had been as desperate as that.
He was horrified anew.
She bent down to feel the baby's hands
to cover him more securely.
She wanted to see.
say something else, but she couldn't speak plainly because of her sobs.
Yet she managed to urge the horses eastward.
I'll never look at him, she cried passionately.
You needn't think I like him. You oughtn't to have said that.
I know it, Kirsty. I oughtn't to have said such a thing.
But you oughtn't to have jumped out and run away that way.
Yes, I ought.
she retorted, swallowing, choking.
I couldn't help it. It wasn't my place to do it, but my husband wouldn't do his part.
Wally, if you hurry now, hurry enough, they'll just think you've been unloading.
You won't need to explain. I won't have you doing such a mean thing.
I've got enough bad things to tell without that.
Hurry!
They had passed the bridge.
on their burdened way home.
They had come to the place at which Kirstie had so astonishingly defied him.
They had ridden together in a silence, broken only by the refreshed wee Johnny's cooing,
as he bounced back and forth in his mother's lap.
Wally looked covertly at his wife from time to time in awe.
She wasn't thinking now, what a nice baby Peter Kee.
Keith had been. Never once had she turned her face towards what was in the wagon box to see if it was
indeed dying. Returning to town, she had instructed him, womanlike, to be sure that Peter had no
weapons concealed, no way of hurting a benefactor. And Wally had unloaded his lumber, raging, caught,
he was trapped.
Having to do this unspeakable thing
to satisfy the sentimentality of a woman
and to save his secret from desecration.
Grimly, he had made sure from the doctor
that there was no chance of Peter living
to reveal what Wally had so well kept hidden.
Coldly, he had ordered the man at the stable
to wash the blood from that fide.
face from that matted beard, as if Peter was their cousin and not his. Grudgingly, he had helped
them deposit the bony thing in the wagon, covered to his head, still as a bag of meal, Peter lay there
when Wally McLaughlin drove to the hotel to get his wife, and she had never once turned her head
towards him. And now, when Wally looked at her from the corner of his eyes, his own anger,
his bitter hatred seemed a small thing before hers. Her face was as white as marble,
and as hard, one might have thought. Her mouth was screwed tight in loathing. She sat perfectly
still, looking straight ahead, tragically.
She wasn't thinking of Aunt Libby now.
Wally was almost afraid of her,
afraid certainly to offer her comfort.
They rode west.
The sun was high now
and shone dazzlingly over the brown stretches.
The horses felt the stimulus of the frosty morning.
We Johnny jumped about,
chuckling out his absurd, little, meaningless words.
Three miles they went, four miles. From time to time, Wally turned to assure himself that his enemy lay still. He would let him die there, without lifting a finger to lengthen his life by a second. The sight of that shape, under the old brown blanket, inflamed his hatred. He looked and turned away quickly, remembering always that.
That second time, Peter had dared to lay violent hands on his wife.
It was that second time he could never forgive.
That second time.
The baby grew restless.
He complained fretfully of his mother's lack of attention.
Wally gave him, almost mechanically, the ends of the lines to play with.
They pleased him, for a while.
Then he turned again to his mother, unable to fathom her sternness.
Never before had her hands touched him so coldly.
Looking right ahead of her, she would pull that little shawl tightly around him again,
after he had succeeded in working his bare arms out of it,
tucking him in without a kiss or any coaxing.
His eyes studied her face.
and found there no thought for him.
He stood up in her lap.
He put his arms around her neck
and stroked the forbidden feather.
She failed even to reprove him.
He seized the chance
and put the curling thing into his mouth
and chewed the end of it experimentally.
He spit it out and disgust.
He sat down again in her lap
and began playing with the frogs on her nose.
new coat. He fingered the interesting fringe. He squirmed about more vigorously than ever.
He called to her. He put his hands up to her face. She bent down and kissed him, but not as she
usually gathered him against herself with warmth. The caress was hard and preoccupied, and he whispered a
little. He tried patacaking to get her to smile upon him.
That too failed.
Wally handed him the whip, and he shook it so fiercely that they had both hastily to rescue their faces
from the blows he might have inflicted.
Still his mother looked straight ahead.
They came then to a low place.
The horses could go only very slowly.
The baby adjusted himself to the new motion of the wagon.
There was a splashing of mud that made him giggle delightedly.
It would have been a choice morning for any baby whose mother wasn't sitting frozen.
We Johnny made the best of it.
He kicked and giggled and squirmed about.
The horses failed of their own accord to take their proper pace again.
Wally had to speak to them.
He slapped them lightly with the lines.
"'Get up, Nellie,' he exclaimed.
"'What's the matter of you?'
"'We Johnny moved his arms
"'exactly as Wally had done.
"'Give up, Nellie,' he said,
"'what's the matter of you?'
"'He said all that, plainly,
"'if not perfectly,
"'and before he knew what was happening,
"'his mother had seized him
"'and was hugging him up against her
in the good old way, kissing him.
Get up, Nellie, he cooed.
What's the matter of you?
She had been so surprised, so delighted with her son's first sentence,
that she had turned, even kissing him, to Wally.
No joy complete, unless he shared it.
Did you hear that?
She cried triumphantly.
Her face blossoming towards him.
Say it again, Lammy.
And almost before Wally could smile in return, he stopped.
He turned around.
He thought he heard a groan from his load.
He couldn't even smile at her,
with that man possibly spying upon them.
He looked, and from the end of the wagon,
that man had lifted his head a little.
like a snake, and had seen the smile that Kirstie had turned upon her husband.
And Wally, when he saw that face, it was the last thing in the world that he intended doing,
but some way, in spite of himself, he achieved generosity, the spoil it may have been
of ancestral struggle.
At the terrible sight of that face,
he pitied his enemy.
That coward, in his damned way,
had loved Kirstie,
and in his tormented, sunken dying,
he had seen all the sweet intimacy
from which he had been shot out
and had sunk back,
felled by the blow of that revelation.
Wally had foregone revenge. He had forborne, running a sword less sharp through his fallen enemy
than Kirstie's wifely smile had been. In a flash, Wally saw himself, sitting there by the woman,
loved, living, not dying, full of strength and generations, while that man, loaves, loaves,
loathed and rejected, was already burning in hell.
The poor devil.
He pulled the horses up suddenly and gave his wife the lines.
He climbed back to lift his cousin into a position less painful.
Through holes in the old blanket, straws from beneath were scratching the ghastly face.
There was a farmhouse not so far down the road.
I'll stop there and buy him a pillow,
Wally resolved.
End of Section 17.
End of The Able McLaughlin's by Margaret Wilson.
