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Episode Date: September 11, 2023

The Octave of Claudius by Barry Pain audiobook. Genre: horror Claudius Sandell is young, clever, and nearly broken: disowned by his father, rejected by publishers, and left to starve on the streets of London. When the formidable surgeon Dr. Gabriel Lamb rescues him from the brink of death, the help comes with a proposition that is as tempting as it is terrifying. Lamb offers Claudius a fortune and an octave of time - eight days to live as he pleases - but at the end of that brief holiday Claudius must report back to the doctor and submit to a secret experiment that Lamb insists will benefit mankind. Suddenly armed with money and possibility, Claudius tries to rebuild everything that seemed lost: his work, his reputation, his future, and the chance of love. Yet every triumph only sharpens the same question: what is a life worth when it has already been sold? As the eighth day draws closer, Claudius is pulled between pride, gratitude, fear, and a growing suspicion that Dr. Lamb's household hides darker histories than any simple bargain can explain. Barry Pain blends social satire with mounting dread in a compact tale of ambition, debt, and the cost of desperation. For ad-free listening try our premium subscription Chapters (Approximate) (00:00:00) Chapter 01 (00:11:07) Chapter 02 (00:24:02) Chapter 03 (00:35:40) Chapter 04 (00:48:23) Chapter 05 (01:03:16) Chapter 06 (01:27:39) Chapter 07 (01:42:35) Chapter 08 (02:07:44) Chapter 09 (02:42:18) Chapter 10 (03:10:50) Chapter 11 (03:34:21) Chapter 12 (03:54:44) Chapter 13 (04:20:58) Chapter 14 (04:44:38) Chapter 15 (05:03:00) Chapter 16 (05:18:24) Chapter 17 (05:40:25) Chapter 18 Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

The Octave of Claudius by Barry Payne. Chapter 1 Mrs. Wicherley was not quite old. She seemed always to be keeping one foot on the tail of her youth. The poor thing squeaked, but could not quite break away. In her conversation, she would often drag you, all tremulous, with her into the confessional, where you found, to your disappointment, that she had no sins, only errors of diet. She was by way of being a woman of the world, what the world left out.

its place in her Ercystyn Square Salon was taken by the world's understudies. Henry Burnage, who for years had made her salon a habit, would torture himself at times with the thought that he was only a fashionable man's understudy. But the torture did not persist, for his opinion of himself was high and on the whole stable. Of the understudies, there were many. Her rooms were full on Sunday evening. Mr. Wetchley would be seen there sometimes. He sat in corners and was mildly disapproving. He made the money, and Mrs. Wicharly spent it. Still, he acknowledged that his daughter, Angela, must have every chance,

and the salon was in some sense a chance. More often, Mr. Wicherly did not show himself. He liked to take a walk on Sunday evenings, and he frequently took it. He had a dislike, not wholly irrational, to the salon. Reason was a strong point with him. Be rational, Jessica, he would frequently say to his wife, I only ask you to be rational. When he went his walk, she alluded to his headache.

Nobody minded. He was not the attraction, neither was she, and they both knew it. But Angela wore pink, and understudies attract one another. Angela petted her papa a good deal, and, in return, he never mentioned anything in which he was seriously and commercially interested. In public, she would sometimes talk to him with endearing facetiousness. This mildly puzzled him. He only dealt in the milder sensations because in private she rarely talked too brightly to him.

Mrs. Wicharly's drawing room was not in itself wonderful. The walls were covered with a paper that had a dado to it. She'd ordered it some years ago herself, and she regretted it. She knew now that it had been premature, and that a paper with a dato did not constitute art's last word with regard to wall decoration. Mr. Wicharly did not think the times were yet ripe for it to be superseded. He had said so more than once. Mrs. Wicharly rather believed in what she called,

those pretty trifles that make a room look bright. So she concocted some flower holders out of Japanese fans and some velvet that had been on the dress that she had worn when Maria was married. These things afterwards were transferred to a spare and prematurely unoccupied bedroom. It was thought that Angela had been responsible for their removal. Angela considered that the room was irredeemable and thought that cheap attempts at redemption humiliated her.

It was late one evening, Mrs. Witcherley's guests had all gone, She'd interviewed the hired man in the hall, paid him, swung back into the room again with a declaration that Jameson was invaluable, and now sat down in her rocking chair, facing her daughter, fanning herself rather vehemently with a fan that had been mended. Oh yes, Angela, you may say what you like, but there's never any need to tell Jameson anything. Why he goes on the job instead of taking a permanent place is more than I can imagine. He's just the picture of the perfect butler. All right, Mama, all right, said Angela, rather. irritably. He does, but you needn't think that he deceives anybody. I don't wish that he

should, dear. Far from it. The queen herself may know that he's hired for the evening for all that I care. When one is entertaining a great number of people, one supplements, one staff. The very best people have to do it. Yes, drawed Angela, but they have a staff to supplement. Ah, if we were only quite poor. Angela, that is really wicked. If you dislike our means, our moderate means, you would dislike poverty still more. We do our best, and it's too ungrateful of you. Mind, I don't say that I am not fond of a little society myself. Oh, mama dear, don't be intolerable. I don't know what you mean, but I do know that it's chiefly for your sake that your father consents to these Sunday evenings. and you know that it's the dream of our lives to see you happily married, like Maria.

Poverty would be to you life's greatest cursed. Mr. Burnage told me tonight that he thought families whose income just touched the full figures really had the hardest fight against vulgarity, but he added from conjecture and subsequent politeness that all things were possible to genius. We have the fatal income without the genius I fancy. Ah, Mr. Burnage is one of those rather clever young men. I don't understand him, but he looks very well in a room. Angela, my dear, I must hunt myself up a little supper.

I hadn't any. I dare not eat when I'm feeling nervous. It only means that I wake with a fluttering in my side and feel as if the angel of death had summoned me. I'll just go into the dining room and see what I can rescue. She returned in a minute with a champagne bottle, still loyal to the third of its contents, and a plate and a small tumbler.

On the plate was a cold cutlet in Aspice, and a silver fork. On the portion of the plate which still remained untenanted were two chocolate eclares. She was careful to keep the aspis clear of the eclares until their turn came. She ate rather greedily. Angel looked geniusly distressed.

Honesty is a poor word for Jameson, Mrs. Wichorley remarked as she filled her glass. Any other man would have finished the bottle. You can trust him. That's what I feel so much about Jameson. As a tonic for the stomach, I believe that there's nothing. oh mamma mamma said angela suddenly why do we keep on fighting i used to love our parties once but i'm getting to know things we're ridiculous we aren't quite what we want to be and we are the more absurd because in some things we are very near it i don't think i want to marry i used to but i don't now i certainly don't want to marry any of the underbred young men who come to this house and fall in love with me i often wonder why i go on trying to be bright and amusing to them and why i do my best to cover up the rough places and make things go smoothly and cajole papa and dress as well as i can

the hell the awful hell of this london life and poor angela buried her head in a recently purchased cushion and began to sob a little you destroy the whole hell of this london life and poor angela buried her head in a recently purchased cushion and began to sob a little you distressed me said mrs witcherly excitedly i can't bear to see you like this angela i insist that you shall not sob i cannot digest when my mind is disturbed poor angela do be comforted angela sat up and dried her eyes in silence her brief storm had passed you're feeling low mrs witcherley continued decisively now be guided by me and take something there are some of these eclares still left you may just as well have one you know what things with cretlery continued decisively you know what things with christixtrally continue to take something there are some of these eclares still left you may just as well have one you know what things with cream and them are like on the second day, and chocolate sustaining, now do, and that, she said, suddenly breaking off as she heard a sound at the front door, is your father's latchkey. Don't let him come in and find you like this. By the time that Mr. Wicharly had entered, Angela had composed herself. Mr. Wicharly was short and bald, with a slight tendency towards rotundity.

I have had such a walk, he said with enthusiastic satisfaction, he took a distinctly comfortable chair. I went as far as Putney by an omnibus, just as I said I would. Then I struck across the common. Wonderful place. Round by the mill, thinking about Richmond, do you know. And then off to the left in Wimbledon. Changed my mind, you see.

From Wimbledon, I took train to Waterloo and walked to the club. I found Bodgers there, and we split a bottle of old port. Boggers would pay. I hope you've all enjoyed yourself as much as I have. "'It's been a most successful evening,' said Mrs. Wicharly. "'Do you like the new champagne, Jessica?' "'On the whole, I think it's an improvement.' "'Six a bottle cheaper. That's what it is. Be reasonable, Jessica, and don't pretend to know

anything about anything. There, kiss me and good night. Angela, it's time you are off to bed.' His lips smacked on her forehead, hers brushed his cheek. "'Six pence a bottle cheaper,' he murmured to himself again. and went off in a wild approach to hilarity. Mrs. Wichley turned once more to her daughter. She was feeling quite optimistic. I noticed, Angela, that you talk a good deal to Henry Burnage. Do I? I'm glad you mentioned it, Mama.

I won't do it in the future. As a rule, I talk to anyone who isn't talking to anyone else. I haven't a word to say against your manner. It isn't the old-school stately manner exactly. Angela leant forward, her elbows resting on her knees, her pretty face. was not nearly as pretty as she looked, framed by her warm little hands. At this point, she interrupted her mother. Dear Mama, I'm a flirt. When you can't be what you want to be, it's kind of baby's consolation to be the thing you hate the most. But you must not deceive yourself. It occasionally

seems to me that Henry Burnage is less foolish and rather better bread than the average here, but don't imagine that I love him, and he's not the least in love with me. Well, he's been here off and on for years. He must be a good deal taken by us. I don't say that, as a rule, I would recommend a girl to marry a young commencing barrister. No, no, I'm not so unwise as that, but Mr. Bernage has means, independent means, as I ask you to look at the way his rooms are furnished. You may call them what you like, but I call them gorgeous, and then he entertains, not so frequently as we do, nor on so large a scale. But so infinitely better, said Anne. Angela fervently.

There, you're defending him. What does that mean? It doesn't mean that I tolerate him, and it does not mean that I love him. I know what you want, and it couldn't be done. Why, if he kissed me, or if I thought even that he wanted to kiss me, I should go quite mad, mad with disgust. Oh, Angela, darling, said Mrs. Wichorley, you know that I wouldn't force you into anything? There, good night. We must not sit up any longer, or what will your father say? you'll come directly won't you at the drawing-room door she paused a moment and looked almost beseechingly at her daughter angela she said i believe that i've had one eclair too many end of chapter one chapter two of the octave of cloudius this is a librivox recording all libravox recordings are in the public domain for more information or to volunteer please visit librivox dot org recording recording by Aaron Rivera.

The Octave of Cloudius by Barry Payne. Chapter 2 If Mr. Wichelie had taken his stroll over Wimbledon Common later in the evening, he would have had an opportunity to play the part of the Good Samaritan. There is no role which is more popular. The feeling of self-satisfaction and superiority helped to make life enjoyable, and in consequence it is delightful to rescue. But to be rescued is quite enough.

affair. The thing which is condemned as ingratitude is often a very natural resentment of one who has been placed compulsorily under an obligation. Most men, given a certain number of sensitiveness, would sooner fall among thieves than among good Samaritans. The chance which Mr. Lichorley lost was taken by Dr. Gabriel Lamb. The doctor was returning home rather late. It was already beginning to get dark. When he was within a few yards of the garden gate of his his own house, he noticed a young man lying in an awkward position on the grass by a roadside. Dr. Gabriel Lamb bent over him, found him half conscious and made a cursory examination of him. The young man was clad in a well-cut tweed suit, worn to utter shabbiness. His boots were in holes.

He was lying where he had fallen when he had found he could go no further. His hat was off and had received from the fall a damage with which it was already familiar. His face was thin, and at present quite colorless, but it had the tokens of refinement and strength. Dr. Lamb's examination lasted less than a minute. I shall be back directly, he said, and began to run towards his own house. He was a middle-aged man. His head, save for a fringe of reddish hair all around it, was bald. But he was very active.

He dashed up the garden drive and into the house where he gave one or two rapid orders to servants and hurriedly prepared what he wanted. In a very few minutes he was out on the roadway again, with a glass in his hand bending over the young man. The doctor's servants had accompanied him, and stood at a few yards distance, waiting. The young man's eyes were half closed when the doctor held the glass to his lips. He turned his head away impatiently. "'Drink it at once,' said the doctor sharply. "'Do you want to die?'

The young man spoke in a faint whisper and with some difficulty. "'Not a beggar. I'm much obliged, very natural mistake.' sake of ears. I'd rather you left me alone. I won't then. Whoever heard of such nonsense. Any man who is taken suddenly ill accepts help from the first stranger who is not too much of a brute to give it to him. It's no question of begging. Damn it! He went on getting furious. You shall pay for the hay-porth of brandy if you like, but drink it. The young man shook his head. No money, he murmured. That's why I'm... The effort at explanation seemed to be too much for him,

He stopped. All right, then, I'll take your clothes, or you shall work for me. At any rate, I promise you that I will put you under no obligation which you cannot repay. I swear it. Now then." The young man drank the contents of the glass. In a moment or two, his eyes opened wider. He looked reflective.

That wasn't Brandy, he said. His voice was already a shade stronger. Not Brandy alone. There were other things in it. I'm a doctor, you know. Now do you see that house? The young man raised himself into a sitting position, looked at it, nodded his head. That's my house, and I'm going to take you there with the help of my servant.

Then you'll be put to bed. In a day or two, you'll be all right. Now, you must place yourself entirely in my hands and trust me. I'm not going to put you under any obligation. You shall work out your debt. You look like an educated man. Ettenham, Cambridge, but you couldn't believe it. I believe it entirely. Now then, you should get up. steady. There, that's it. Now slowly. Supported, almost carried by the doctor and his servant, the young man was taken into the house. It was a house which seemed to have an old quiet in it, a quiet that had been there long. The colors in the interior were low. It was lit softly, without glare, one's footsteps were not heard on the thick carpets. The house was of red brick,

but the red had been softened and shaded by time, and the walls were partly covered with iv. At the back of the house, there was a modern addition, which Dr. Lamb had erected for his own purposes. It was a long, low building and had a separate entrance into the garden. The young man found himself in a large and very comfortable bed. At one end of the room there was a door into a bathroom. At the other end of the room communicated with a dressing room in a small study. Here the doctor's servant did for him all that a valet could do for a man. Soon he was lying in bed, refreshed by a bath,

soothed by the luxuriousness that he had missed so much and for so long, dreamily wondering whether it could be all true. He'd suffered very much, and this sudden change for the better seemed so strange. He thought half-amusedly that the doctor had done a foolish thing. He had taken into his house a man of whom he knew nothing, except that he'd found him, a mere vagrant, shabby and fainting from exhaustion and want of food but the young man reflected that in the course of his life he had frequently been trusted like this on sight certainly in some way or another he must repay the doctor how he could not imagine it did not matter the doctor had promised to find a way for him but the doctor's kindness and trust were he felt beyond repayment began to wonder if they would bring him something to eat he hoped so the valet had left the lamp and the candles by his bedside of light so it seemed certain that he would return the valet had treated him with the utmost respect as an honored guest and not as a relieved vagabond

if he ever got any money he would remember the man presently the door opened and the doctor and the servant entered the servant carried a small tray on which were a couple of chocolate and two sandwiches made of toast and some kind of the servant carried a small tray on which were a couple of chocolate and two sandwiches made of toast and some kind of kind of meat jelly. While the young man was eating, he was ordered to eat slowly, the doctor sat down by the bedside and began to talk to him. At first he was merely medical, then he said, My name, you know, is Lamb. I'm Dr. Gabriel Lamb. May I ask your name? Mine is Claudius Sandel. I don't really know how to thank you. Not a word, not a word, if you please. Words would certainly be of little good. I hope that I have not been keeping you from any other patients. The doctor smiled. Oh, I don't practice, he said. It was lucky for you, and I think it's lucky for me also, that you chose a Sunday evening for your collapse. I only walk on Sunday evenings,

chiefly because it's not church. Ah, yes, quite true. There is a church also on Sunday morning, Sunday afternoon, and on certain occasions in the week. My wife, to whom I hope soon to introduce you, attends every service. She also stays for the after-meetings. You must not, by the way, think that I am an unbeliever. I am not. At one time, I always went to church on Sunday evenings, and there was much in it that I enjoyed, but the curates, banaletics, the superstitiousness of the people, and the perfectly evil singing of the choir vexed me. Then it occurred to me that if I went for a walk on Sunday evening instead, I could get the service without the church. I could have the sunset and the aspirations, the longing for the far away that it produces. He stopped abruptly and noticed that the servant

was listening with a rather puzzled face. He turned to him. Wait outside, Francis, he said. When the man retired, the doctor began to pace the room and went on talking. Under his very thick sandy eyebrows and long lashes, his gray eyes grew luminous. Sometimes it's in the spring. Damn it, there's nothing like a spring evening. I'm in earnest about it. The poetry of it is so strenuous and yet so quiet, so full of fresh life and yet so full of the old peace that still passes all understanding.

But it's always as the service of God that I take my Sunday evening walk. I love the lime trees, trees of the Pentecost. With their leaves turning to tongues of fires, they shake under the strokes of wind and sunlight. I love the cold purity of the sky on winter evenings that get dark so soon? How all the stars look at me? The heavens declare the glory of God. Ah, I'm talking far too much. Claudius was watching him with keen interest. No, no, he said, go on. I'm beginning to understand. That really is all. Only on Sunday evenings do I walk because it's not church,

but it is service. The rest of my time is given to work. To work, doctor, but you said that you do not practice. Quite so, I do not, although when I was a younger man I had practiced for a time. It did not content me. One night I was rung up by a woman. I went downstairs and found her hysterical on the doorsteps. She pulled herself together and prayed me to come at once to see her son who was dying. She lived about a mile off. We ran a good deal. She was distressed, and I was sympathetic. When we got there, I found that the boy was not dying, but was slightly bilious. Then I asked myself if that kind of thing was science as I loved it, if it really assisted the great cause of humanity for which alone I live.

I gave up my practice. I studied the individual man only when he's likely to throw light on the aggregate. I never work on behalf of the individual, but I tire you. No, I'm not tired. Pardon me, but you are. It is merely the effect of the restorative that makes you feel strong, and that effect will pass off. You are very much run down and you need rest.

you would perhaps like something more to eat. I shall not give it to you. Tomorrow you should be better treated. Good night, Mr. Sandel. Good night. When he got to the door, he paused a moment and said. Do the clothes you were wearing fit you perfectly? Very fairly.

It's about all you can say for them. I've got thinner since they were made. That's all right. A tailor can make others from them, I suppose. It will save you the bother of measurements. Good night again. Before Cloudies could answer, the doctor had gone. In the passage outside the room, Dr. Lamb was detained for a minute by the ballet.

Excuse me, sir, but I've seen this Mr. Sandel before. Where? At Cambridge. I was a jip at Trinity, sir, you remember, before I came to you? This Mr. Sandel was really there. It's quite true what he said. Don't make that mistake again, said Dr. Lamb somewhat impressively. When I told you a few minutes ago that Mr. Sandel was my guest, it ceased to be necessary for you to give him a character for truthfulness or sobriety. or early rising or anything else. You will sleep in the dressing room

in case Mr. Sandel should want you during the night. If he's unable to sleep or turns faint again, you know what to do, but he won't. I shall want you to go to town tomorrow for me. You must go early. I will give your orders immediately after breakfast. As Dr. Lamb was coming down the stairs, a carriage drove up to the door.

Mrs. Lamb had come back from the after-meeting. She placed on the hall table two or three devotional books. Amongst them was her Bible, fastened by an elastic band and bulged with the sheets of written notes. She was rather a short woman with dark hair and plain anemic face and ecstatic eyes. She looked very young, 20 years younger than the doctor. I'm late, she said to him, but I've been very happy, so happy. We had Mr. Catacomb, as usual, Elijah and the believer's hope. Dr. Lamb looked at his wife and said nothing, then he smiled slightly.

When he smiled, his thin lips showed rather large white teeth. She saw the smile, and a nervous expression came into her face. She appeared to be slightly afraid of her husband. They went into the dining room, at a small table supper was laid, and they both sat down. Mrs. Lamb, said Grace audibly, while her husband stared pensively at a mayonnaise. End of Chapter 2. Chapter 3 of the octave of Claudius. This is a Librevox recording.

All Libravox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer please visit Libravox.org. Recording by Aaron Rivetta The Octave of Claudius by Barry Payne. Chapter 3 Mrs. Lamb's want of tact was so pronounced that it even overcame her fear of her husband, and she still spoke about the service of the church and the great good that she had received from it.

He listened politely with attention, occasionally looking up from his plate at her almost inquisitively. At each glance from under the thick sandy eyebrows, and at each slight smile that showed the big white teeth she faltered. The glance and smile had a kind of reserved meaning in them. They forced her into exasperating belief that she was being treated with superiority. She was half inclined to lose her temper, did indeed, for one moment cut the chicken wing on her plate as if it had been an enemy, but commanded herself. She was not a very clever woman, emotional, half fanatical, with the pathetic want to be good.

Dr. Lamb said very little until supper was over, and his few remarks to his wife were commonplace enough. As she rose from the table, he said, I have told them to take the coffee to my room tonight. I can't talk comfortably in these big rooms, and I've got some news for you. Will you come, Hilda? Yes, dear, in one minute. He held open the door for her. She passed into the hall.

He stood a moment reflective. His brows were slightly wrinkled. He did not like the substitution of a late cold supper for dinner at the usual time, but it marked Sunday for Hilda. He did not like Hilda to sit down to an evening meal and afternoon dress with her hat on, but it marked Sunday for her. This interested him slightly. He wondered how her observation of Sunday would work out when her day came.

There had been signs lately, he noted them all as they came, that her day was very near. He crossed the hall and went down a corridor to the two rooms which constituted the addition which he'd made to the house. The first of these rooms was furnished as a study. The walls were covered with books, most of them books of the advanced scientists, some of them books that even an advanced scientist would have classed as heterodox, the work of charlatans. It was brightly lighted.

On a side table the coffee and liqueurs had been placed already. At one end of the room was a door leading into the laboratory. The doctor opened the door and looked in. The laboratory was in darkness, but he reached his hand upward to a button in the wall and switched on the electric light. The lamps reflected themselves on polished mahogany cases and on the bell glass that protected a large microscope from the dust. There was a rather unpleasant smell in the room. shelves and cabinets were ranged all around the walls. In one corner stood a lead-covered table.

On another stood two or three bottles and a measuring glass. The doctor put the bottles back in their places on the shelves and washed the glass at a square stone basin. He had used the things in preparing the restorative. Then he switched off the electric light and went back into the study again, closing the door behind him. Here he sat down, poured out his coffee, tilted a little glass of cognac into it, lit a cigarette, began to think.

He really had a great deal to think about that night. He was interrupted, however, almost immediately by the entrance of his wife. She had changed her dress and was wearing a loose black teagown. It suited her fairly well, and her pale face now had a pretty tinge of color in it. Dr. Lamb looked at her critically. You've changed, he began. Yes, I saw you weren't liking the other. "'Ah,' said Dr. Lamb, "'that's good of you. It's the curse of the individual that such trifles should matter to him. There's nothing so small in the impulses of collected humanity, the aggregate. "'Mankind,' he continued, speaking more to himself than to her,

"'is so great, an isolated man so small.' "'You had something to tell me,' Hilda said timidly. "'Ah, yes!' he told her how he had found Cloudy Sandell and taken him into the house. It was his intention to keep him for a few days, perhaps weeks, to provide him with clothes and so on. He says that he must repay me, cannot bear the obligation. It is very strong on that point. Gabriel, this is one of the queerest things you have done. Of course, it is very kind of you, and I must say that many professing Christians would have been quite content to just have given the man a copper or sixpence.

He would not have taken it, and in that condition it would have been no good to his. him if he had taken it. No. It was so silly of him to not want to be helped. I rather like him for that. Quite dark hair, you said, and tall, I imagine him. Well, I hope it will turn out all right. But you've done almost more than you need, the best suite of rooms in the house and in every way the treatment of an honored guest. Quite so. Apart from the fact that a gentleman cannot very well take advantage of another gentleman's poverty in order to humiliate them, there are a reasons. You will oblige me by treating him exactly as I have done, as an honored guest. I will do anything to please you, she said humbly. And I must confess that I like you better in this

docile mood than in the mood which it has replaced. When you came back to the house tonight, you addressed me as if I were an atheist, which was incorrect of you, as I frequently explained. You also spoke to me about the curate and Elijah and the believer's hope, and you are quite aware that I do not discuss such subjects with you. Your God is the projection of the curate upon the average feminine intelligence. You believe in your heart that your God wrote the Bible in English and got it published by Bagster. I cannot share your conception or your view, but I am not an atheist. I love God. That is the reason why I love and serve to the utmost his humanity and would sacrifice any unit of it in the cause

of the aggregate. Now this must be the last time I leave you your intellectual freedom, and you may go to church, but you may not talk church. Gabriel, did you love me when you married me? Her downcast eyes were raised and looked full at his. I am a man of like passions to others. You made me happy, you know. It was a life of sordid drudgery at home. Papa was always overworked and Mama was always tired,

and there was that trouble with my sister Matilda. You gave me all that money could give, and then she gained. asked and caught her breath. Our child. Well, go on. Now, I don't know whether you love me or not. I don't even know whether I love you because I'm afraid of you so. But I know that there's a change.

You used even to go to church with me. You were not always locked up in the laboratory. Even now you are good to me. You give me more money than I can spend. You give me presents. You're considerate for me and do things to please me. But I'm shut out of your real life. Oh, Gabriel, I hate science.

You should not do that, dear, said the doctor blandly. My interest in you is largely scientific. Don't, she said pathetically, not irritably. Don't look at me as if I were a specimen. Don't be just interested in me. I'm a woman. It wasn't for the money and comfort that I married you. I loved you.

You loved me once, Gabriel. Science did not stand first. You used to make concessions to me. I'm making a good. concessions now. By listening to me politely, yes, you regard all the smaller conventionalities. I do. I have no pretense to transcend humanity. My contempt for the individual includes my individual self. I try to regard all the smaller conventionalities, and to some of them I am really attached. I get vexed at trifles. I am particular about some quite unimportant things.

For that reason, I prefer the conventional dinner to the Sunday supper, which is one of my concessions to you, to which you sit down, perspiring and religious, in a hat. And I despise myself forever thinking about such light things when I realize the greatness of the work before me. Do I love you? My dear Hilda, I do not even love myself. My point of view has been changed by, Don't talk, she broke impassionately, bursting into tears. Don't go on talking.

It doesn't comfort me. me. Love me again, Gabriel. Love me. Else I shall hate you. Excessive emotion, said the doctor, is not good for you and will probably hasten your day. You must go to bed at once. She rose like a whipped child. I'm sorry, she said in a low husky voice. I forgot. I know you don't like scenes, and I'm wanting to try very hard to please you in everything. I'm going. Good night, dear. The doctor raised one of her hands and kissed it and opened the door for her. She passed out. Halfway up the broad staircase that led to her room, she paused a moment thinking,

What had he meant by, hasten her day? He had said once before that her day would come. She knew instinctively that it would be useless to ask him, and put the question by with a kind of despair. In her room, she stood before the glass surveying herself. The color on her cheeks was something. slightly disordered. She took a sponge and washed it off. She made up her mind not to use it again. It was of no good for her to try and make herself look pretty anymore. And, even if Rouge had given

her beauty, that would not have made her husband love her again. Love, she whispered to herself, panting. Then she remembered that it was wicked to use Rouge. She had just but come from church and had painted her face like a bad woman. It was wicked of her. She knelt and prayed, God, to forgive her. Then she rose and took a candle and stepped across the passage to another room. It had been her baby's nursery. She unlocked the door and entered. The room was neatly kept. A little cradle stood in one corner, bedecked and empty. She walked over to it and rocked it a little. Then she opened a drawer and turned over piles of tiny clothes that were not wanted now. My little baby, she whispered. Her eyes restrained and aching and dry.

cry, but she cried again in bed that night. It was long before Dr. Lamb came to bed. He'd not been working in his laboratory. He had been thinking about Claudius Sandel. The doctor had not had much opportunity to observe him, but nevertheless, he summed him up, a man whose pride was greater than his instinct of self-preservation, a truthful man. The doctor thought for a long time. Oh, I shall use him.

I shall certainly use him, he said to himself at last. A great find. He will quite repay me. Upstairs, Claudius Sandel slept peacefully. End of Chapter 3. Chapter 4 of the octave of Claudius. This is a Librevox recording. All Libervox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visitlibrovox.org.

Recording by Aaron Rivera. The Octave of Claudius by Barry Payne. Chapter 4 Yes, said Henry Burnage to himself. I must marry Angela. He paced up and down the soft carpet thinking about it. He was alone in his well-ordered chambers, smoking a cigarette that was not to be bought in shops. It was a good cigarette, but its flavor was as nothing to the fact that it was not to be bought in shops.

It seemed to fill the room with that atmosphere of unique, distinction, speciality that Henry Burnage believed that he loved. He had arrived slowly at his resolution. He rarely hurried important things. He liked to act correctly. And though he would say a passably brilliant thing about the commercial spirit and the middle classes, he very much liked to get on in the world. He had been considering marriage with Angela Wichorley, as one might consider anonymous journalism, in a critical spirit, weighing the arguments for and against. That was the way he had begun at least. Angela's mother was barely possible.

She was too large, too obvious, too good-tempered, and she gave too much publicity to that side of her which would have been reserved for the specialist in dyspepsia. Her circle included too generously. Well, once married, Henry Burnage felt that Mrs. Wicherley could be deleted altogether. Then there was her father. A mid-lead commercial person who Sunday night anxiety, unless he had one of those headaches,

seemed to be first to find the background and then to sit in it he would not need to be deleted he would delete himself he would probably do something for angela the commerce was only mildly successful but angela was the only unmarried child it was almost certain there would be something for her besides henry burnage's own father had made him a very liberal offer if he got married the elder burnage did not believe the young men kept straight unless they married besides he wanted to see a grandchild then there was angela to be considered just here the merely critical consideration became touched by emotion the material side of henry burnage was in love with angela he had come under her charm now this charm was not peculiar to angela many other girls have it and it is more easily described in its results. Angela made the men that she met imagine her secrets. She inspired fascinating reverie. Burnage, with all his business qualities, was much given to fascinating reveries. A catalogues justice would have been unjust to her looks, for her features were slightly irregular. The ebb and flow of color on her dusky cheeks, or chance movement of her long eyelashes,

or the curve of her figure in some chance position that she had taken, would balk this passionate criticism. She had a store of trifles to throw in the scale against classical beauty, and apparently outweigh it. She had seemed at one time to Burnage to be a flirt, but now he was inclined to think that she had grown serious-hearted and was being hurt by it. He wondered if she cried sometimes at night,

just before she went to sleep because of her thoughts. That would be terrible. She would tell him about it, just give him her warm little hands to hold, cast her eyes down, and make sure. shy confidences. His vanity, caught by his imagination, soared grandly upwards like thistle down riding in the wind. He began to picture things. Her rapt eyes seemed to look at him and her low voice to tell him how good he was. He seemed to hear music. The wedding march took

its memorable downward sweep, curled over the keynote, and broke at his feet. It moved upwards again, changed to a slow, straining waltz that beat its great wings regularly, upwards into the rarefield atmosphere of the passionate lover where the whole world stopped, and one kiss continued. He had arrived slowly at his resolution, beginning with criticism and ending in ecstasy, just at the last, warming the cold ambition by the fires of love, or the nearest that he could get to love. He was glad that the resolution was taken, and had been hovering in his mind for some time.

He felt a kind of importance and consequence of it. He seemed to himself to be embarking on a fresh epoch in his existence. He dined at his club and dined well. Thoughts of the love-touched future, black coffee, a small glass of Kirsched, and another of the cigarettes that could only be obtained by favor occupied him for the next two minutes. Then he proceeded to write two letters.

His first letter was to his father, and Henry Burnage's letters to his father were exceedingly unlike his letters to anybody else. The elder Burnage had started life with a small shop, and although he had long ago retired from his business and he had never been able to feel properly ashamed of it, and he never even said a passably brilliant thing about the commercial spirit, the middle classes.

This alone made him different from the kind of man that his son was. The father was somewhat puritanical and quite uncultured. Here again, the son was different. In a more humorous moment, the father would sometimes say, Have you been buying any aesthetic things lately, Henry? What was to be done with such a man? A man who could never succeed in forgetting the back numbers of punch. A man who was quite crude and point blank.

A man who could never be convinced that he miss him. understood another man's point of view, and yet always did misunderstand it. Henry could only sigh drearily and try to read the essays of Matthew Arnold without noticing that their severest thoughts went straight through his own father, happily ignorant of the assault and quite contented. Just as a mean motive and a more generous motive had made Henry decide to marry Angela, a mixture of motives influenced him in the treatment of his father. He was not without filial affection, but he also wondered occasionally in what proportion his father would, in his last Will and Testament, divide his property between him and his very plain and unattractive

sister. He tried to write his father the kind of letter that his father would like, but he spent as little time as possible on the composition of it, knowing that his father was not critical in such things. Tonight, his letter ran as follows. My dear father, you may be assured that your last letter, stating that you have had no return of the sciatica, gave me great pleasure. I was delighted to hear that you managed to get as far from our house to the cemetery. You must be careful not to overdo it, but I suppose you would not walk that distance without permission from the doctor. Certainly, the embrocation, which he prescribed, seems to have done wonders. So you have got the main drainage at last and are compelled to connect with it. I always said that it would come and after the initial

expenses, you would probably find the arrangement much more satisfactory. I'm sorry that the new Vicar is not to your liking. His adoption of the eastward position and other ritualistic practices and face of so many protests seems to me very silly. It is, as you say, a great pity that the living should be in the gifts of Sir Constantine Sandel, a man who has belonged at times to almost every conceivable religious sect. By the way, I am almost certain that the I saw Claudius Sandel in the Fulham Road about a month ago, just after I sent you my last letter. It was getting dark, and I cannot be positive. But if I am right, he has very much come down in the world.

The man I saw was dressed in the seedyest clothes, no stick or gloves, smoking a clay pipe and peering into the window of a small eating house. As I had two other men with me, I was naturally not anxious to claim the acquaintance of, apparently a half-starved tramp. So I hurried on to avoid the recognition. Otherwise, I should have been glad to have lent him a few shillings for the sake of old times together at Cambridge. Of course, we do not know what the quarrel was between Sir Constantine and Claudius.

You think that Sir Constantine was in the wrong. He may have been. At the same time, I do not think that a father, however hot-tempered and however eccentric, entirely breaks with his own son for nothing. Why was it that Claudius, who is quite, by the way, being my friend at Trinity, never told me one word of the reason for the quarrel, and parried my questions on the subject?

Why is it that, although he has been in London and knew that he could get my address at the temple, he has never been to see me and has never sent me his own address? It must mean that he is ashamed of something. It is strange that he, who is always, always thought so wonderful should have been compelled to leave Cambridge without taking a degree, and should then have gone completely under, while I, who was nobody in particular, took a second in my tripos and I am already beginning to get on at the bar. By the way, is that curious woman,

Miss Combe, still at Sir Constantine's? In conclusion, I have something important to say. I feel that you are right, and I accept your very generous offer. You will not be surprised. You will not be surprised to hear that the lady whom I intend to marry is Angela Wicharly, of whom I have often spoken to you. I am now only waiting my opportunity to make a formal proposal, and I think I may say, without conceit, that I know what her answer will be. Before I do so, I shall be glad to hear from you if you think the alliance suitable. Your affectionate son, Henry Burnage. His next letter was to Luke Monce sent, and to him Henry Burnage employed a sort of shame. literary style with a good deal of affection, short paragraphs, and capital letters in it.

Dear Luke, action and reaction make me distrust all. The swing of the pendulum in one direction seems to take a man so far. It also returns as far. There is no stability. How we clung to the expression of culture through furniture, environment. Nay, I still cling to it. Yet always I shift my ground from time to time. Even now it is better to employ Annaline dyes with the Duchess than to like the art flower pot that has penetrated Bloomsbury. Stability, if you knew, if you could only know how long I get to it. Now come some hope at last, you ask what? A woman's eyes that are more beautiful because they are now grown serious. On my part, nights in which I do not sleep, but think in tranceingly. Is there not hope of stability there? The bourgeois married to perpetuate their

indifferent species, and I to find anchorage for my soul in calm waters. If so, then, at last, stability. Of other news, nothing. Say that I hear that our friend, Cloudy Sandel, is now definitely gone under, and you thought him very great. Ah, well, it will teach you to distrust. of your own life what? Write soon. Yours and these bonds of flesh, Henry Burnage. He did not write in this style to his father, because his father was not sympathetic, would not have understood and would certainly have called him an ass.

But Henry Burnage fancied the style, and probably would have believed that his letter to Luke was rather good. But in one point he was mistaken. Claudius was not yet definitely gone under. In fact, not very long after this date, Dr. Gabriel Lamb wrote a letter to his bankers, asking them to place 8,000 pounds to the credit of Mr. Claudius Sandell, of whom's signature he disclosed examples, during a period of eight consecutive days to commence on the following Saturday morning.

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Three days after the curious arrival of Claudius Sandell at the house of Dr. Gabriel Lamb, the two men stood together in the greek. garden one morning after breakfast. Claudius was smoking a delicious cigar, the first that he had smoked for over a year. He had drunk good coffee. His memory contrasted with the cup of thick that he had been compelled to take a few days before at an early morning stall. He remembered the sharp eyes of the man who had handed it, him, and the furtive Jew

boy that had rubbed shoulders with him. and the bad green smell of everything. And now he was looking out on a well-kept garden, noting the fruit trees as they spread themselves to the sun along the wall. He heard the sleepy hum of the mowing machine, where at the little distance a gardener was busy on the lawn. He had been refreshed by a long sleep in a cold bath. He was wearing good clothes.

He had fed well and been well treated. it was hard for him to realize that all this was the result of charity for the kindness that had been shown him had come in the guise of hospitality dr lamb had acted up to his principle that it was impossible for a gentleman to take advantage of the necessities of another gentleman in order to humiliate him come down to the end of the garden said the doctor cheerily you haven't half seen the place the doctor was wearing a short holling jacket and no hat in one hand he swung a small empty canvas bag as they went down the path claudius happened to make some remarks with the almost boyce nevete on the perfection of the house and garden he had he said never seen a place which was so complete in small details trifles now my dear sandel said the doctor putting one hand on his arm i am not going to contradict you but i am going to correct an impression that i believe he must have formed of me I own that I have taken great care, at least there should be anything wrong, even in the minutest domestic matters. But you must not think that because I in particular about trifles, I admire them or take an interest in them. I assure you that I hate them.

I hate them so much that I cannot bear to have them in my mind. If the details of my house and domestic life were wrong, they would always be uptruding themselves upon my mind. attention. I should think about them, and I should detest that. It is the same with money. If a man really hates money, he takes good care that he has enough of it for all his needs, in order that he may not think about it. You found me, said Claudius, without a penny in my pocket, and fainting from exhaustion. But all the same, I assure you that I do not love money. do not, said the doctor, pleadingly, be so ultra-sensitive, my dear fellow. I like fine feelings, but to be ultra-sensitive is so, so altogether damnable.

I assure you that your case was not in my mind when I spoke, and my remark would not apply to you in any case because you are too young. You will make money yet because you hate it. There is plenty of time before you. You're much too good to me, Doctor, Claudius said rather seriously. I am inclined to agree with you. One of the greatest curses of poverty and privation is that they make a man who is not used to them sensitive and bad tempered. I never used to be bad-tempered.

There's good evidence of that. Claudius looked as if he did not quite understand, and the doctor went on. i mean of course in your physiognomy you are on the whole very good tempered you can lose your temper badly for all that in that you are not exceptional at all but it is queer that you have never told a lie and couldn't tell one if you wanted to why said clavius i've told any amount of the usual quite so the ordinary social fib that has no other motive but to spare some one's feelings We may leave that out. That is not dishonorable. You have never told the dishonorable lie, the lie that would get you out of some scrape or be of some advantage to you.

But of course, Claudia has answered. One doesn't do that. No, I've told dozens of dishonorable lies myself. But there, my system of ethics is different and simpler. There is one great purpose, and all else is subordinate to it. But men in other respects, like yourself, do, as a matter of fact, tell mean lies, or would if the occasion were urgent enough.

Now no occasion, however urgent, would make you break your word. Well, one never knows. Claude has found this open praise, as it seemed, of himself very embarrassing, and he hastened to change the subject. If it comes to that, doctor, I've noticed one exceptional point, and you. I had flattered myself, the doctor said, that I was composed chiefly of exceptional points. Which do you mean? You talk a great deal of your work and professed to be devoted to your work and call it the enthusiasm of your life, and yet you really do work very hard.

I've only been here a few days, but I've noticed that. I happened to wake at 3 o'clock this morning and looked out. There was still a light in your laboratory. Now at Cambridge it was different. The men who talked much about their work as a rule did least. And to keep an average of your number of hours work per diem was simply a preliminary step to being spun in your trippos. Well, the case is so different. The ordinary man at Cambridge works, I suppose for the purpose of is tripled and with the involved purposes of pleasing his people and providing himself with a profession. Oh yes, those are very good things, of course, but they are not great. If you try to simulate an enthusiasm for work with such purposes, you are likely to use all

the energy for the simulation and have none left for the work. Yes, I did work late last night. The doctor's eyes grew brighter and his manner more exciting. He gesticulated a little with the hand that held the canvas bag. Last night, Sandel, I stood before the gate, the lock gate that stands between the living and the mystery of life. I tampered with the lock, but I could not force it. I could not get in. But, Sandel, I assure you, I am speaking seriously.

Last night I caught a glimpse between the bars. It makes me breathless. Can you wonder that I am enthusiastic and... Lord, I do keep talking about myself. I wish I did not. I shall become a bore. Will you, say Claudius? If I may speak as frankly of you to you as you have done of me to me,

I will say that I have never met anyone who interested me so much, and I do not suppose that I shall ever meet anyone who will be half so kind to me. Oh, kindness is not in the question at all. for all that i give you i intend to receive as much a gain practically you are in a hotel and have the means to pay your bill only it does not quite suit either of us to treat each other just like that no not a word i won't be thanked i assure you that i shall come out of this under a great obligation to you now look here we won't talk of this i want to show you my rabbits they reached the end of the garden. Here there was a row of twelve small rabbit hutsches, standing about two feet from the ground. The hutchers were kept very clean and dry, and it was evident that good care was taken of their occupants.

I didn't know you were a fence here, said Claudius. Oh, I'm not. These are all of the common kind. They hardly remain here long enough for me to make pets of them, and in a pet one would prefer a little more intelligence. Still, these hutches are well planned, and I think and I like to have them properly fed and care for until they are wanted. Research, you know, would be impossible without experiment. One is as humane, of course, as it is possible to be under the circumstances. By the way, I want one of these this morning for my work.

He opened one of the hutches and a black dough that had been nimbling green stuff at the entrance scurried away to the far end of the cage, pressed close to the boards, she watched the two men with soft, furtive, frightened eyes. Pretty creature, isn't it? said the doctor. Now then, my common rabbit, you'll want it. Why didn't you stand erect and have articulate speech and wear white ties in the evening? Then you would have had a god and lost him and worried yourself about it at nights when you had no one to talk to and never got any further. And also you would have bragged about it. People always do. You weren't consulted, neither was I. Now you are going to die in a dream.

But first, you've got to tell me what you know, but don't know that you know. He stretched his great hand into the hut and grasped the dough by the neck. Come now, he said pleasantly, as she kicked and struggled. Don't you be frightened, my little dear? Then he dropped her into the canvas bag. The two men walked on to the garden entrance of the laboratory. Vithecision had been the subject of debates at which Claudius had been present. They had not been, as a rule, very well-informed debates.

It had been a case of brutality against sentimentality and had not interested him very much. One of the most potent arguments for vivisection that he had yet come across was that Dr. Gabriel Lamb practiced it. He mentioned this to the doctor. Dr. Lamb put down his canvas bag in the garden path and fumbled for the key of the laboratory door. He was an astonishing grotesque figure. The short hauling jacket did not seem to go well with the ball head, with its fringes of arbor hair. Curious traces of scientists, sensualists, and poet seemed to flit across his face, hopelessly inconsistent and passing in a moment.

Between a box edging of either side of the path, the black doe rabbit jumped and struggled in the bag that imprisoned it. Vivisection? I am not, of course, opposed to it. at the same time i realize its limitations it has taught us what we know about physiology and will teach us more but it will never teach us everything as practised at present and nothing less than everything is of much good to myself i have got to pass through that gate of which i spoke to you see here you know of course that a pig is internally much the same as a man but the pig's nervous constitution A very important factor, mark you, is that it's different from a man. Once more, he broke off abruptly. You are provoking me to become a scientific bore, he went on, and all bores are hateful,

and the scientific bore is the worst of the lot. Well, Dr. said Claudius, I can only say again that I am not bored. Now, by the way, I could not, perhaps, do a good hard day's work, but I am so far recovered that a few hours secretary of work would not hurt me. May I not undertake your correspondence for you or copy your scientific memorandum? You have already decided that I am to be trusted, and I should not abuse your confidence, and I need not tell you that I should be careful.

I should give you the best of such ability as I have. That is quite so, said the doctor, if I were the usual philanthropist, I should probably fake up some secretary work for you to do. But I am not, and the work for which I want your assistance is far more serious and important. I will tell you about it when the time comes. In the meantime, if you would order the Victoria and take my wife for a drive, I know she would be delighted. No, you'd rather drive yourself, I think. Have the dog cart and the bay mare.

Oh yes, and you'd better ask for her, or they will give you peach boston. Who's a good horse, but not so amusing? Claudius drove the bay mare, and she did not give him much leisure for conversation. She was a beauty, but she needed driving. Mrs. Lamb watched him earnestly all the way, and only spoke to praise him. The doctor never drove the mayor himself. It is curious that even the cleverest man will fail to notice when things are significant, if they concern himself. Clobius had that morning omitted to notice several things.

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by Barry Payne. Chapter 6 It was a comfortable house to live in, Claudius decided, but there were some queer points about it. In the first place, there were no visitors. It suited the doctor,

apparently, to live in a certain style. Dinner, for instance, was distinctly a formal function, but he evidently did not think there was any necessity for witnesses of his severe taste in appointments or of his conversation, which at times was brilliant, or of the excellence of his chef and his cellar. In the word, he did, merely to soothe himself, what most people do in order to keep up appearances. No stranger, apparently, with the exception of Claudius, ever trod those soft carpets. or tasted those exquisite wines or heard the doctor on those few occasions when it pleased him to put his great ideas aside and be merely eccentricly witty mrs lamb must have realized that claudius would notice this she took particular pains to tell him that the doctor was a recluse and would see no one and so on there was something queer too about mrs lamb she was

religious, ardently religious, but yet she was an untamable woman. Religion might inspire her, Claude's thought, and he was aggrieved with himself for such analysis of his hostess, but it would never hold her. Her eyes looked searchingly at him out of her pale face, and he saw in them this much, at least, that she was not a woman to be taken lightly or easily. With regard to her feelings towards her husband, she was very much in doubt, but he was certain that she was afraid of him. And what was the doctor's own position? He was formerly courteous to his wife in public.

Further, he did not talk her over with Claudius. Further, he took an evident interest in her. But for all that, Claudius could not persuade himself that the interest which the doctor took in his wife was the same as the interest which a man takes in the woman whom he loves. It seemed a colder, more scientific thing. Clodius could not explain it. He could only wonder. But one point seemed stranger to him than all, the curious way in which he was taken for granted. He had been in the house for days, and he had come into it as a broken-down tramp. The lambs had only his word for it that he was not a broken-down tramp. Yet the days when by and no question was put to him about his past and very little was said about his payment of his obligation nothing in fact except the doctor's indefinite assurance that it would be all right

as a rule he spent the greater part of the day with mrs lamb he drove her out read to her educated her taste and music she began to make some sort of confidence in him she told him she had had a very great sorrow and and that religion had been a consolation to her in it. Once she began to talk about the doctor, with her eyes fixed nervously on the door of the room, Leastie should enter suddenly. Claudez did not like this. Gabriel was very clever, she said, but it was too awful.

He despised religion. He seemed to be entirely given up to one thing. She did not know with her it was leaning, but she had an uncomfortable sensation that it was leading, somewhere, that they were on the verge of things. Then she hesitated and looked shyly down at her own knees and said, with seeming irrelevance, I want you, Mr. Sandell, to be very careful. In what way? Am I dealings with the doctor? Why, surely, he broke off and laughed. You must not

have these pre-sentiments. There is nothing to be afraid of in a scientific enthusiasm. isn't there, she said, rather drearily. Claudius had no desire whatsoever to make confidences. If anything, he was inclined to reserve. But he felt that his host and hostess had a claim to know something about him. And it was characteristic of him that he had to satisfy all claims of which he was conscious, whether they were pressed or not. He chose this opportunity one night after dinner.

The dining room was large and irregular in shape. The table, an oval oak table, was laid in a square recess and brightly lit with wax candles. The rest of the room was almost in a shallow. It had been rather an interesting dinner. The doctors, starting from a case in the papers that morning, had gone on to a theory that suicide was largely the result of a sense of humor. People killed themselves because they saw that any further existence would be ridiculous. It was a pity, but those who had a sense of humor generally had it over-excentuated. Had Claudius ever noticed that?

Had it never occurred to him how much better things must be on the moon? Yes, of course, there were usual shilling manual baby arguments to show that the atmosphere and temperature of the moon did not permit the existence of human beings. It was the common confusion of beings with bodies. There were certainly beings on the moon, and the bodies did not matter. Things will be much better there because nothing there would be over-excentuating. The consuming passion of love that we men and women feel would be on the moon a mild preference. Our Athanasian creed would be there a hesitating ascent to Matthew Arnold's definition. Dinner would be afternoon tea, and after.

afternoon tea would be no more than one transient, dreamy glance at the thinnest possible bread and butter. Everything would be toned down. My own enthusiasm, he concluded, will be nothing more than the feeling which makes it buoyed by the six-penny chemical cabinet, do four tricks, break one test tube, and swoop the remainder for a specimen of common quartz, with which to initiate a new geological passion. Claudius took up the idea and went on with it mirthfully. He and the doctor combined their suggestions, the wildest suggestions of what this under-accentuated,

toned-down moon-like would be. Mrs. Lamb, consciously well-dressed, watched them in silence, sometimes with anxious eyes. As she wondered if all this was quite religious, sometimes with quite a different expression as she thought what a good thing was to look at Claudius and hear his musical voice

and then grew afraid of the thought. The doctor said that the moon life would be heavenly. Why not have it? Why not reconstruct your existence here? Why not reduce your enthusiasm to the schoolboy's whim? The doctor became suddenly serious. That is my own fault for speaking inaccurately, he said. I spoke of my own enthusiasm, and I was wrong.

The enthusiasm is not mine, but I am its. I belong to it. I am its slave. Bothing soul, I am claimed by the service of humanity, and given up to it. But a willing slave? The doctor did not answer for a moment. He went on peeling a peach, his white nervous fingers, and the knife in them, suggesting the rapid neatness of a surgical operation.

He seemed to be thinking deeply. I really do not know, he said at last. I never wanted it to come, and I never resisted it. It is, I should say, that some powerful tendency has absorbed my will into it. I feel like part of a natural law. Yes, that's absurd, but I really groped for words to describe my sensations, and I do not get them very well. and your work is for the good of humanity?

Ultimately, I wish I had some part in it. My end in view, in my own work, was so much more selfish. Perhaps that was why I failed. I have never told you about it. Dr. Lamb shocked a rapid glance at his wife, and it was she who answered, Yes, you must not speak about it, Mr. Sandell, if the subject hurts you. on the contrary he protested i am anxious to tell you the one thing i can do apparently is to prevent you from being generous in the dark no no said mrs lamb leaning back in her chair you must not imply that we could possibly mistrust you that is hard on us she spoke earnestly the doctor looked at her significantly she was saying just what he wished but he was very well aware that she was not seeing it because he wished it

nor from mere politeness but because he really meant it it confirmed a vague notion that had crossed his mind that day it enabled him as he thought over his future plans to see where there was a possible weak spot the whole thought went through his mind in a flash quite so he murmured as he passed the tips of his fingers gently through the rose water in the bowl beside him quite so i should really like to tell you said claudius i think it would interest you mrs lamb leaned her elbows on the table and her head on her hands and looked at him intently ah that is undoubted it would be very good of you said the doctor at this moment a servant came forward with the coffee and dr lamb gave a rapid order the coffee and everything we are likely to want on the lawn at once you would rather the doctor went on inquiringly turn to the others the night is so hot and i thought it would be pleasanter to talk out there. They both thought it a capital idea. Mrs. Lamb's maid had entered the room with an oriental shawl in her hand. Mrs. Lamb adjusted it carefully over her head and shoulders. She was a curiously grotesque figure in that shawl. Her dinner dress had all that Madame Elise could do for mortal woman. The pallor of her face and the darkness of her hair were noticeable. She missed being

beautiful. She looked like an Egyptian dissenter that had known Bond Street. The world had chosen her dress. The flesh and the spirit showed alternately in the expression of her face. Outside was growing dusk. A big rug had been spread over the grass. On it were lounge chairs and a low table. On the table were the smoking apparatus and the wonderful Madeira that the doctor liked to taste after dinner. The tiny Roman lamp gave a minute weird flame. The servant handed the coffee and withdrew. The two men lighted their cigars from the lamp. Now, said the doctor, if you are ready, Mr. Sandell. Clodius began. I think, he said slowly, that the thing I have wanted most of all through life has been freedom, the absence of limitation. I have often thought that I would be willing merely to taste it and then die, yet I have never tasted it.

As for my birth, I am the only son of my father, and my recollection of my mother, who died when I was a child, is very vague. My father, Sir Constantine Sandel, his knighthood was one of the birthday honors in the year that I was born, and it is an honor that he has since regretted would have been considered in some respects an indulgent man. At Eton, I know now, I had very much more pocket money than was good for me. At the age of 16, I got the parental sanction to the use of tobacco. Well, my father is himself a smoker. At Cambridge, again, my allowance was very generous. but an important point I was never free.

Now religion is, I suppose, an important point. Mrs. Lamb looked up at the gray sky and then slowly down again. Claudius continued. Religion was, is and always will be, a most important point to my father. Unfortunately, it is a point on which he has never been able to satisfy himself. He has changed his religion times without number. He is about due into Buddhism by now, he said with a bitter laugh, so I do not see what else is left. No, I am not joking, and I was always compelled to follow any sect with which he happened to be in sympathy.

I myself have been a Scott Presbyterian, an English low churchman, and an English ritualist. I have found that the truth was in the Greek church alone. I have been a Roman Catholic. I have followed my father into the religion of three persons and no God, which has its dwelling somewhere off Feather Lane. I have tried with him to find consolation in metaphysics that neither of us could quite understand. Then I listened to the sermons of Parker and after that to Voise. I did not mind. I was only a boy.

Fellows always believed what their fathers believed, and it was all in. in the day's work. It was at the call to spiritualism that I rebelled. By this time I was at Cambridge and had begun to think. Now my father had invited to our place a professed medium from London, a Miss Matilda Combe. At this moment the doctor and Mrs. Lamb exchanged glances as though the name of Miss Matilda Combe were significant. It was almost dark. Claudius noticed nothing and continued. For all I know to the contrary, Miss Matilda Combe may be there still. With all that I have against her, I must own that she is a distinctly clever woman.

I began to study conjuring tricks. I paid with my father's money for lessons from professors. When I thought that the time was ripe, I exposed Miss Matilda Combe, and showed to my father that the absolute proof, as he called it, was ingenious, but that they did better at the Egyptian hall. I might as well have spoken to the pyramids. Miss Matilda Combe was clever and plausible. She had warned my father against the very explanations that I offered.

She considered that her position was confirmed and told me in so many words that I was a blasphemer. all that was the cause of your quarrel with your father said dr lamb dreamily no he still had hopes of me we did quarrel of course but the real reason is much more difficult to tell one day at cambridge i had a leather from him that surprised me and distressed me a good deal i knew that this woman matilda combe had a great influence over my father but i did not guess how great until i read that leather Briefly, preemptorily ordered me to marry Matalakumby, a woman ten years older than myself, a woman whom I had always had the greatest difficulty to treat with even the bare civility, a woman whom I knew to be a fraudulent charlatan. During the whole of a year I had been doing my best to get this woman turned out of our house, and now I was calmly told that I was to marry her. The spirits had willed it.

The spirits were very anxious for it. The spirits had foretold that it would be a singularly blessed union. It sounds like madness. Yet in all business matters, my father, at this very time, was showing himself particularly sane, particularly judicious. That, said the doctor, is not uncommon. Matilda Combe also must have had some talent for speculative business. My father is, I suppose, a very wealthy man. With all her influence, she doubted at first if she could persuade him to leave his entire property away from me.

On money matters, he was too sane, but it had probably occurred to her that she might marry me and come into the money that way. The spirits had suggested the marriage, but there was never any doubt that the spirits were merely Matilda Combe. One moment, said Mrs. Lamb, rather shyly. Matilda, I mean Miss Combe, was a Charleston, of course. I think myself that spiritualism is wicked, but has it not occurred to you that possibly she was really? It is so hard to be certain. Really in love with you? Impossible, Mrs. Lamb. I had always made it fairly clear that I despised her.

Sometimes, you know, that does not make any difference. Well, I do not think that her subsequent behavior showed that she was very fond of me. At first I treated the thing as a joke, but I soon saw that my father was in earnest, then I refused point-blank. Now my father does not take point-blank refusals nicely as a rule, and I expected a storm. on the contrary i got a very patient leather the spirits had been at it again they had told him that i was secretly engaged to another woman and that it was for this reason i had refused but that it would be to the advantage and happiness of the other woman if i gave her up i replied that there was no other woman in the case at all as a matter of fact although it is not a particularly interesting fact i have never been in love in my life and i repeat

my refusal. His next letter accused me of having trifled with Matilda Combe's affection. Oh, it was the wildest business. Matilda Combe never appeared directly in it at all. But it was obvious that her hand guided my father's in every leather that he wrote. I need not give you details of all the correspondence. At last he called me a liar and I sent him a leather, which I now regret, for after all I am his son. That finished it. I had a brief communication from him to the effect that he did not wish to see me or hear from me again. He enclosed me a check for one-quarterless allowance in advance and told me that I was to expect nothing further from him, either during his lifetime or after his death. I sent the check back. Well, there I was with a bank balance of fifty pounds and the world before me.

It was very cruel of him, said Mrs. Lamb. It was very cruel. and unjust, she shivered slightly. Ah, the doctor said, it has turned a little chilly, hasn't it? Let us finish the story indoors, in my study, Sandel. I have got some of that tobacco about which you were speaking, if you care to try it. Thanks very much, said Sandel. I should be delighted to try the tobacco, but I must get my pipe first from upstairs. As soon as he had gone upstairs, Dr. Lamb turned briskly to his wife. Matilda Combe, he said, Your sister?

I fear so. Why is she going by her maiden name? Oh, I see. Yes, her husband. I thought she would go back to it after her husband went away. But I know no more for certain than you do. She had stopped writing letters to us, you know. Gabriel, even before my marriage.

It is possible that her husband may have died In died there Ah yes, my wife's sister originally ran away With a fraudulent company promoter He married her and got into difficulties He is now, if alive, doing a term of penal servitude So your sister resumes her maily name Becomes a common swindler and attempts bigamy

What trifles these things are they ought not to concern me and yet hilda i should prefer that you did not mention these facts to mr sandel but they give him the means of reconciliation with his father he will never take the first step in that direction besides why sacrifices any man's good opinion of you how will you be regarded if you say that you are the sister of matilda with involuntary dislike and distrusts but i might write to sir charles anonymously giving proof of my statements quite so admirable but you must get proof unless you know that the convict is still alive you have no case find that out first how i have not the least idea be clear of your facts before you sacrifice sistently affection to your passion for he paused a moment and added your passion for justice and reconciliation i will do that gabriel i won't say anything to mr sandel how happy he will be to get back in his right place again there run along hilda he will be down in a study by now join him and say i will be there in a moment i have a short note to write which must go to-night when she had gone he sat down before the fire with his head in his hands thrusting fingers into the fringe of his hair his brow wrinkled and then cleared he smiled horribly to himself

hilda's letter cannot go for three or four days i think that i can finish my business with claudius sandel to-night to-morrow at the latest after i have got him once got him bound by his word after that there may be as much reconciliation as you please my dear helder because it will not make any difference praise god he rose and paced the room excitedly praise god in the highest he said with fervour he sat down and scribbled a brief note and gave it to a servant then he crossed the hall and went down the passage to the study I wonder, he thought to himself, does Hilda think that I noticed nothing, nothing at all? She is falling in love with Sandel. I use that. He is entirely honorable. I use that.

I have been kind to him, and I use that. And now we really progress. End of chapter six. Chapter 7 of the octave of Claudius. This is a Libravox recording. All Libravox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit Libravox.org. Recording by Dan Grisinski.

The active of Claudius by Barry Payne. Chapter 7. The rest of the story Claudius had to tell, need not be told in his own words. He had come to London with his 50 pounds in his pocket, and had taken cheap lodgings in Bloomsbury. He meant to live economically, but he did not quite know how to do it. He also meant to write, and he did not quite know how to do that either. It was probably his acquaintance with Burnage and Monce at Cambridge that had given him this idea of making a living by literature. These two men had been actually printed in a London paper, Burnage once and Monset twice.

In all three cases it was poetry and unworthy. remunerated. Claudius did not think that he could write poetry. He cheerfully acknowledged in burnage and Monson their superior talents, but in common with most men, he wanted to tell a story, and unlike most men, he had a story to tell. He had had it for a long time. He remembered vaguely what had started it. He had been one summer evening on a country railway station, and as he waited for the train, he had read the advertisements and some chance line of the merest foolishness had been whimsical enough to give him a suggestion. Looking up, he saw at the further end of the platform a woman standing silhouetted against the sunset sky, and the sight of her had carried

the suggestion on. It had all been forgotten next day, and all remembered many days afterwards. Since that time, it had gone through a long period of change and growth in his mind, until he knew all the people of his story intimately, and its incidents had become like incidents in his own career. Now, when he had to make his own livelihood, he thought he would write his own novel. Both Burnage and Monset had drawn for themselves brilliant pictures of literary success, and Claudius had listened. He knew that such success was not for him. merely hoped to write a passable, readable, and consequently saleable story. There was nothing else that he cared to do. While he was learning how to write, he was surprised to find there was so

very much to learn, and learning how to live economically, the 50 pounds slipped away. There came a day when he left his Bloomsbury lodgings and took all his personal belongings to a shop in the Fulham Road. Nominally and externally was a second-hand furniture shop, but there was really nothing that its proprietor would not buy and sell. He was an obese man with a little voice and a quick, narrow eye, and a watch-chain like a golden snake that sends itself on a hillock. To this man, Claudius sold all his books and almost all his clothes, leaving himself hardly enough to keep himself warm.

It was late winter. Now, sir, said the man, when the last iniquitous bargain had been completed, Is there anything else? I buy anything and sell anything. Think now, sir. Any little bits of furniture? Old carpets or rugs? Fetch him away in my own cart and give you no trouble. Or betting now. I give a fair price for that. Claudius, being in a rather mad and bitter mood, had answered that he would sell himself body and soul for one thousand pounds and one year to spend it in. "'Come now, sir, the man went on, joking apart. "'I'm not joking. I've nothing else to sell, and I mean what I say.'

"'Supposing,' the man said, rubbing his fat chin, "'the law allowed it, and I could take you up somehow. "'I might risk two hundred pounds and give you your year. "'It'd be a speculation, but there—there, where'd my security be? "'No, that's all nonsense. Claudius went off with something under ten pounds in his pockets. Instead of two rooms in Bloomsbury, he now took one small and dirty room in a back street in the Fulham neighborhood. Here he almost starved himself and constantly overworked himself. He had intended at one time to write

his novel to make his living. Now he chiefly wanted to live in order to write his novel well. It was, as it were, a race against time to get the novel finished, as he would have it, before the little money that he had gave out. Hopelessly improvident and unpractical, he made no calculation for a possible future when the novel might be finished and prove a failure. His experiences in those lower strata of London in which he now lived had helped to make him bitter and angry with the world, so that he told himself that when his novel was finished, he would no longer want to live in the world at all. It seemed to be a world in which there was no generosity and no sense of what was really valuable. To guess the motives of those with whom he came in contact, he persuaded himself that he had only to guess the meanest, possible in order to be always right. The struggle for life hardly seemed worthwhile.

Sore as he still was at the treatment he had received from his father, his depression was further increased by his miserable surroundings, his semi-starvation, his occasional loss of his belief in his power to right it all, and his terrible loneliness. The latter was his own proud and foolish fault. It is true that the friends he might have had in London were quite singularly few, but still there were some. Partly from the belief that he would work best if he worked alone, and still more from a reluctance to meet in his adversity those whom he had known in his prosperity, or to discuss the quarrel with his father, Claudius had kept to himself. Otherwise, burnage, to do him justice, would have been willing.

staunch and loyal to have walked hand in hand with his lonely embryo-navelist, until that point when Claudius really needed a friend. Lady Verriter, an old friend of the Sandell family, a kindly and worldly woman who was fond of Claudius, would have gone with him much further, and there were others of less importance who would have been glad to see him, but Claudius would have none of them. The lower he sank in poverty and dejection, the more obstinity became on this point. He had much the same instinct that makes the wounded animal hide itself. On the day that the novel was finished,

Claudia sent it off to a publishing firm. It came back almost directly, and he sent it to another. He paid his landlady and had one shilling left in his pocket. And now he thought that he could die quite easily, and soon found that he could not. He was young. and unable to rid himself of the instinctive love of life. There were many ways in which a man of good character and education

and some abilities could make a fair livelihood. None of them appealed to his tastes particularly, but he determined to adopt one of them, anyone, only it was necessary to have a little money first. He must be able to buy an outfit and pay a railway fare, or he could do nothing. If the publishers accepted his novel, he determined to sink his pride and ask for an advance from them.

This was his only chance. He had in his letter to them, asked them to let him have their opinion as soon as possible, and somehow or other he must hang on until their letter came. He had only one shilling on which to wait. To speak accurately, he had only 11 pence, for the landlady had intimated that she would charge one penny for taking in the letter for him when he was no long. her lodger. As it was necessary to make his eleven pence last as long as possible, he considered

that it would be absurd to spend any of it on a bed. The early summer had begun now, fortunately, and the nights were just warm enough to make it possible to keep in the open air without killing oneself. He had found a spot away on Wimbledon Common where it was unlikely that anyone would interfere with him. There he slept for nine successive nights. Indeed, he spent most of the days there, too, for he found himself too weak to do very much walking about. On the morning of the tenth, he had only one penny left out of the shilling, which the landlady would want if there was a letter for him. He walked slowly to his old lodging in Fulham and inquired if there was a letter. There was a letter, and the novel had come back.

The landlady refused to take his penny and said that he could leave the parcel with her. His first sensation was one of intense delight that he would now be able to buy something to eat. He hurried off. When he got to the baker's shop, he was so breathless that he could hardly ask for what he wanted. He bought a penny loaf and hid it under his coat, breaking bits of it off and eating them as he went along. It was very beautiful bread, he thought. When he had finished half the bread, he put the rest in his pocket. He had a vague idea that when he had come to the end of the bread,

bread, he would have come to the end of everything. It was with the greatest difficulty that he walked back to Wimbledon Common, there among some Veresbushes, out of sight he lay down. Late in the evening, he finished his bread. He did not sleep that night, but in the early morning he dozed for an hour or two. When he awoke, the world seemed to be very far off. Nothing that he had ever said or done seemed to him to be quite real. There was no gnawing of hunger now, and even that the instinctive craving for mere life had left him. He did not think about his novel at all, but he noticed very small things. He picked a big leaf and counted the veins in it carefully. A gradual drowsiness came over him, and he had moments when his consciousness seemed to go, and he was not sure whether he was walking or lying down.

It was on that night, as has already been described, the doctor found him. Claudius did not tell all this. He gave the bare facts without comment, and hardly recorded at all what his sensations had been. When he had finished, Mrs. Lamb rose and said quietly, That has been very interesting to me, Mr. Sandell. I am sorry that you suffered so much. You must not suffer anymore. Life must be made easy. for you. It has been already too easy, I'm afraid. I am tired and must say good-night. She gave him her hand, it shook visibly, and even Sandel noticed that she seemed to be with difficulty concealing some emotion. He reproached himself. Ah, Mrs. Elam, he said, you must not believe too much in my own

story of my own sufferings. One is inobly tempted to make the most of such things when one is speaking to sympathetic people. No, she said, you did not do that, but I certainly am sympathetic. Good night, Mr. Sandell. Good night, Gabriel. Dr. Lamb looked at her curiously from narrowed eyes. He looked like a chess player, hovering over a great and final move, whose attention has been for a moment distracted.

Good night, my dear, he said. When she had got upstairs that night, she had. hesitated a moment before the door of the room that had been her dead baby's nursery. Her thin white hand touched the handle of the door, and then left it. She dared not go in. In her own room she flung herself on the bed. After a minute or two she rose and knelt down. There were prayers which she said in a certain formal order every night. She began the first of them in a low voice, almighty and most merciful. Then she stopped, suddenly, her whole body shaken by a dry sob.

God help me, she wailed. God help me, I'm a wicked woman. I hate Gabriel. I hate him, hate him. Make me love him again. Take away my sin, my sin that I can't help or fight against anymore. Even in the moment of her prayer, she felt no faintest hope. This sudden, awful love for Claudius that had come upon her

seemed to have entered too deeply to be part of her, so that not even the fires of torment could burn it out. In great anguish she prayed on. Was I not tried enough and heard enough? Every day I see women in the street that have their babies with them, and they're laughing. They don't know that they're driving me mad. They don't know it, but they are.

I bore it all when my darling was taken away. from me. I bore it all when I lost Gabriel's love, too. Only have mercy now. Do not let me be wicked. Oh, God! Once more she stopped suddenly. This time she rose to her feet. It's no use, she said. God has left me. She did not sob any more at all. She was perfectly quiet. When the dawn stole into her room hours afterwards, she still lay with eyes wide open. Her hands rested quietly by her side. All through her sleepless hours, she had hardly moved. It was such a little thing to lose one's sleep,

when one had lost one's child and love and God. End of Chapter 7, Chapter 8, of the Octave of Claudius. This is a Libravax recording. All Libravax recordings were in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit Librevox.org. Recording by Dan Grosensky The Octave of Claudius by Barry Payne, Chapter 8 Downstairs in the study, the two men went on talking,

long after Mrs. Lamb had left them. Claudius felt himself to be just a shade above his normal state. The difference was very slight, a feeling of unusual contentment, almost of exultation. Perhaps it was no more than the pleasure that comes in telling of trouble past. Sandell, said the doctor. In some respects, I observe that you are a practical man. Claudius laughed.

I've never been accused of that before, he said. Do you mean it? Well, perhaps I should have put it that, according to my view, you were practical. The world would think otherwise. It would consider that you should have gone to your friends in London and bothered them to find you work of some sort. It would rebuke you for your foolishness and having written a novel when you ought to have been earning money. It would have asked you why you did not take a post as a master in a private school or become a cab driver. My wife tells me that you drive well, since either profession would have brought you a certain income. For that matter,

said Claudius, that they would have bought about the same income. Well, when I come to look back on my life now, I honestly think that the world would be right. Do you? Is life from your life's sake worth living? Could you, for instance, live on in a state of continual humiliation and obligation? Do not forget that I am living in a state of great obligation at this moment. It is true that I will not, there there. I wasn't referring to that. If it is any comfort to know it, I will give you the chance tonight to end all the obligations, even to place me under an obligation to you. I accepted it once, said Claudius impulsively. No, you must hear about it first. Oh, don't let's bother about it just now. Let me see. I was speaking of life for its own sake. There I entirely agree with what

must have been your own belief. Life for its own sake is without value. I do not want it. You reached a point in your career in which you lived for your work alone. Believe me, whatever your future fate may be, you will always look back on that period with a great and legitimate elation. For myself, I always live for my work alone. I also should be elated, only I haven't the time. Besides, my work makes me humble. Your work, Claudia said, is different from mine. It is so much finer. I suppose that my novel is very bad. I have been too close to it. Work too long on it to be able to form any opinion about it myself. Now that it is written, I hardly ever think about it. But if it were good and deserved reward, I should have it. The days of the unappreciated are over. The unseen blush has gone out. I work for myself and get a reward. If I'm a I deserve it. You work for humanity at large, regardless of rewards. Pioneers are seldom rewarded, the doctor answered. Ideas don't pay. The improvements on ideas do. And the tinkers are kings nowadays.

But I certainly have my reward. You've noticed, perhaps, that only people with imagination lay down wine. The old man in his cellar, storing the vintage that he knows he cannot live to drink, tastes in that moment all its unborn perfections that one day his grandson overhead will praise. The man that plants trees sleeps in imagination under their grateful shade. He began to pace slowly up and down his study. He went on, and I have at least imagination enough to picture the humanity that might be if my own line of research would do all that it promises. Ah, Sandel, it is well enough that we should look backward, from man to the anthropoid ape, from the ape to the original bird or reptile.

But to look forward is better. We are not at the end yet. I see, yes, in my mind's eye, I actually see this new humanity. It walks erect, clinging to no mystery. It holds the keys of life or death. of heaven and hell. It is the master of its fate, makes its character, molds its physique, has just what intellect it wills, and all that may happen, if I will tell it, as I hope to tell it, some two or three things. He opened the window and looked out in the direction of the lights of London. There, he exclaimed, There they are, millions of them, away in the smoke, laughed. laughing, sweating, living, dying. Each man of them is nothing as an individual. Charles Peace and

William Shakespeare were both accidents. Yet how I am compelled is by some blind force to love them in the mass. They don't know where they come from or whither they go. They have their hopes about it, or their fears, or their complete indifference. But not one of them knows. Not one, echoed Claudius. They don't know their own potentialities, and most of them are half afraid to push the limits of their knowledge. Yes, that is really pathetic, unspeakably pathetic. I should have thought, said Claudius, that the tendency nowadays was the opposite of that. A thirst to find out all that one possibly could. Yes, yes, in certain directions.

Not in all? Not for the average man. He believes in his divine genius and his devilish criminal. He does not want to have them explained away. He does not want to find their origin traced otherwise than directly to God or devil. He will let the doctor give him pills for his body, but he believes that his mind and his morals are exclusively in the hands of God and fate. And you do not believe in any of that? At any rate, I substitute very indirectly for directly. If there is any antagonism between religion and science, it is the fault of religion. It will defend untenable positions, and then when the positions are lost, assert that it was unnecessary to have defended them, as they were immaterial. That kind of thing makes any man angry who loves truth. At the same time, I did not rail against religion.

while your raw medical student is making himself objectionable about the doctrine of the incarnation, I am studying parthenogenesis. True, I sneered just now at the divinity of genius and the devilishness of the criminal. Neither has the inevitability, which belongs to one's idea of a superhuman power. Bring me a genius, and permit me to hit him on the head. If I hit him hard enough, but not too hard, he will not die, But his genius will leave him. His books will remain unwritten, his pictures unpainted.

But the reverse process, said Claudius, to make a stupid man intelligent? By the simple operation required for the removal of a post-nasal growth, a stupid child may be made intelligent. The administration of a simple purge may preserve the sanity that a man would otherwise have lost. by the, but why should I quote these commonplaces? You know that the connection between mind and body exists. The connection between fear and the heart, for instance, between hope and the respiratory organs, between anger or melancholy, and the digestive apparatus, is as well as the connection between thought and the brain. After all, why should I bother you with the starting points of medical psychology, of my own?

own beliefs in my own line of research. Really, doctor, I am more eager to find out than you are to tell. I want to know how this research is going on and how it will end. It will go on and end in the service of humanity. If I give you the details, I think that you would regard me rather as a quack than as a doctor, a quack with the restless ambitions of a madman. Yet remember that the heterodoxy of today is the orthodoxy of tomorrow. All the charlatan falsely pretends to do the man of science sneers at as impossible, but the man of science of the next generation actually does what the charlatan falsely pretends to do. If I have been ambitious at any rate, I have not been reckless. I have worked. I have won my way step by step. If I was ever tempted

to make a theory and one little fact stood in the path. I have either accounted for the fact or modified the theory or abandoned it altogether. I have proved theories, on the other hand, that I should have never dared to imagine. They have been forced upon me by the chain of facts, theories that have never even been propounded before. As far as I have got, I could write my discoveries on half a sheet of notepaper. But though they may be few, They are vital. I tell you solemnly, Sandell, that the whole future of humanity depends upon them and what will follow them. Will it be long before you reach the end? I cannot say. At present I cannot get on properly. I am in a position of the greatest tantalization and difficulty. If I had not learned from my work the utmost patience and humility, this tantalization would be enough to drive me,

Mad. I told you how, the other night, I almost forced the gate. That word, almost. It comes in and spoils everything. There is one thing that I want. What is it? I want a man whom I can trust implicitly, who will trust me implicitly. I am at your service, Dr. Claudius answered. I mean it. You said the other day that you knew I did not tell lies. I would keep your secrets. Ah, yes, it is proverbial, of course, that it is better not to show children or fools half-finished work. I should be reluctant to have one of my discoveries known at present, because it could be so easily misused. Still, you must not think that I am the victim of scientific jealousy.

Lord, what a lot there is of that! Let me do the work and get the knowledge. and anyone else may have the glory of it. But you must hear more. Well, Dr. Lamb sat down again, his great hands interlocked, his eyes fixed steadily on Claudius. You must have had your finger on his pulse to know that he was going through critical and exciting moments. Sandell, he said, do you remember that when you sold all your personal property to get enough money to enable you to finish your novel, that you made one offer. Ironical, I suppose,

which the shopman was foolish enough not to accept. Yes. But my offer was more foolish than his refusal. Your offer was foolish for two reasons. You asked too little. You have probably 30 efficient years before you in the ordinary course of things. The doctor pulled out a pocket pencil

and did a rapid sum on his shirt cuff. The entire command of your body and soul, must be worth any man more than 33 pounds sixpence a year. Even you must see that. You would get more if you simply worked for a few hours a day as a bricklayer's laborer. Then again, you asked for a year in which to spend that money. Yes, too little. Too little, my dear Sendell, it was too much, very many times too much. Think what may happen in a year, the countless ties that one may form and find it difficult to break. The entire change that may come over one's opinions, the entire alteration in one's views of life. How could you go back at the end of a year?

Temptation to break your word would be almost insuperable. Yet, if I had made the senseless arrangement, I should have gone back. You would, but you would have rendered it difficult. Besides that year, that pleasant holiday in which you would have. have said farewell to the world in your own past, should have been characterized by freedom. As far as freedom could possibly be obtained, you said tonight that you had never tasted real freedom. You would certainly not have had it if you had lived for a year on a thousand pounds. You would have found yourself constantly exercising common care to avoid a pecuniary indiscretion. In that last holiday of your life, you should have never.

no common care. At any rate, they'll thought of money. Yes, it sounds reasonable. It always interests me to discuss imaginary conditions of life, the moon life of which we were speaking at dinner, for instance. Sandell, said the doctor seriously, the conditions which we are discussing now need not be imaginary. I told you that I wanted a man who would trust me implicitly. I want a man who will trust me so far that he will make over to me asking no questions the remainder of his life for the consideration, 8,000 pounds, that I am prepared to offer. He must come to me as he would come to death itself, putting his past behind him and away from him, giving up himself, body and soul, to me. Twice recently, if I found a man who would have been willing to have placed that trust in me.

but in neither case could I have trusted the man. Sooner or later you would have gone back on his bargain, and of course the law would not have helped me. But I trust you. If you give me your word of honor, I do not want other security. I do not offer you more than you are worth to me. Indeed, I am not wealthy enough to offer you as much as you are worth. You would leave me under an obligation. I offer eight thousand pounds, and I offer eight thousand pounds, and I am not.

give you eight days. Are you really meaning this? Yes. I am to ask no questions about the future. It would be better not. For your own sake, it would be better that the eight days of holiday and farewell should be without anticipations, that you should be able to shut the future out of your mind. And for my sake, you must place yourself in my position. You know it, at any rate, shows me that you place the same confidence in me that I do in you. Perhaps it is for that reason I ask it. Remember that I risk 8,000 pounds on your word alone. True. Why eight days? And I could not possibly take the money. On that point, you must let me decide. The money is not too much. A thousand pounds a day will make it unnecessary for you exercise common care.

Besides, it will be a satisfaction to me to feel that I have paid it. In eight days, you will not have time to form new ties or make new opinions. Only time to taste freedom for once in your life, to enjoy deeply, and yet not to that pitch of nausea which comes to those who follow enjoyment for a long period. To say farewell in happiness, instead of saying it, as you would have done on the night that I found you in abject misery. For me, the eighth days is too long. I am impatient for your cooperation. Eight days, the octave that the church gives to its saints do not ask for more. Well, I refuse. Is there no other way by which I can repay my obligations to you? Oh, why speak of them? If you refuse, there is an end of it. And I am charmed to have the

been able to give my medical advice and my poor hospitality to such a good fellow as yourself. That is all. That ends it, so far as you were concerned. Of course, there remains for myself a considerable disappointment. The doctor's voice was careless. His expression was one of geniality and generosity. It is a tremendous thing, said Claudia, slowly. Yet I did not see why I should refuse. As you say, you found me when. if you had not found me, I should have died, probably. I really speak the truth without affectation, when I tell you that I was perfectly ready and willing to have died then. Very little has changed since. I have been away from all friends for so long that I have got used to doing without them. I am still

cut off from my father and my home. I have never been in love in my life. I am alone in the world. If I gave my mind to it now, I would probably make a livelihood, enough to give me bare life, without the things in it that I should like. But possibly I couldn't. If I could, I should be serving no good end. If I come to you, you use me as you use yourself for the service of man. I have no scientific training, and I do not see how I can help you. But you know that. What you say suggests to me that you may record.

my assistance in some, well, you know, doctor, it is inevitable that in your research there should be experiments. And I dare say some of them are singularly repulsive. You may require from me good nerves, laboriousness so great that it takes no account of health, and complete secrecy and devotion rather than scientific attainments. I did not see why I should not leave these things to you. I have myself had some experience of your unusual knowledge. The rapidity with which I recovered my strength under your treatment was almost miraculous. Still more have I reason to trust your kindness and humanity. It is not merely the material kindness that I have had from you. I think under difficult circumstances you have shown more delicate regard for the feelings of a foolishly sensitive man than ever I experienced before. You showed no trace of even unkindliness when I spoke of refusing your offer, proving, if proof had been wanted, that your generosity was spontaneous without a second motive. Claudius was not looking at Dr. Lamb at this moment.

The doctor half-closed his eyes and smiled slightly. There was a short pause. Claudia sat with his eyes fixed on one point of the carpet. Then he drew a long breath and said, I put the responsibility for myself in your hands, doctor. I accept. I will take my eight days of freedom and then come back to you. You understand that you give me your word of honor, said the doctor,

and that the arrangement once made will not be revoked. It will be terminated only by your own death or mine. Yes. A deep-toned clock struck the hour of midnight. The doctor stretched. himself, picked up a cigarette, and lit it. Extraordinary things, Sandel, he said. The difficulty the two men have

who are not used to business experience in concluding a money bargain with each other. They shirk it and get awkward in their manner and clumsy in their speech. Well, it's over. I'm glad of it. The day's over, too, said Claudius, glancing at the clock. Personally, I'm not sleepy, but it seems to me that I must be keeping you either from your work or your sleep.

From neither, I assure you, the day was made for working, and the night was made for talking, whenever one wants to talk. If you care to discuss the details, by all means, let us do it. Well, doctor, said Claudius. There is very little to say. I shall spend the eight days in London, probably. When would you like them to begin? Now, said the doctor laughing, of course I don't mean that.

Let me see. Tomorrow's, no. Today's Friday. That's the worst of sitting up past midnight. Tomorrow becomes today, which is damnably confusing. I really don't see why you shouldn't leave me at midnight on Friday, returning consequently at midnight on Saturday, eight days afterwards. Then you begin your new career with a new week.

one's always despicably hungry to secure these dirty little coincidences. Both men laughed. I should like, of course, Claudia said, to see my friends again in London in these eight days. The two or three friends that I have there. True, I didn't see them when I might have done so. I felt too poor to see anybody, which, now I come to think of it, was vulgar of me. But still, friends are friends. besides, how can I say farewell unless I have someone to say it to?

And my father decides that I have already said it as far as he is concerned. By all means, see your friends, the doctor replied cheerfully. Have as good at time as you possibly can. Remember that for eight days you are absolutely free. In the morning, Francis shall go into London for us. He will take the necessary letter to my banker for me, and he will do anything for you that you want. Secure you the best rooms and the best hotel.

Take letters to your friends and bring back their answers. Order your box at the opera. Carry out any commission you like. Thanks very much. A thousand pounds a day. It is tremendous. What couldn't one do with it? Let us hope that you won't find out the answer to that question, Sendell.

The doctor went on. We are neither of us drinking anything. The formal, necessary, unpretentious whiskey and seltzer is here, but it doesn't seem to me to be suited to the occasion. I may be old, but I am young enough to want to drink champagne now. The servants are all in bed, but no matter where are my keys? Ah, here. It is a wise man that knows his own cellar.

Don't you trouble to come. I'll find what I want. He was back in a minute or two with the bottle in his hand. the last he said the very last of a wine that i have reverenced with deft fingers he began to uncork it both men had for some unexplained midnight reason got into the highest spirits and they jested like boys over the operation the doctor filled two tumblers handed one to claudius and raised his own success to your eight days he cried success to the octave end of chapter eight Chapter 9 of the Octave of Claudius This is a Libravox recording. All Libravox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit Libravox.org.

The Octave of Claudius by Barry Payne. Chapter 9 Claudius breakfasted late and alone on Friday morning. The doctor had breakfasted long before, and Mrs. Lamb did not leave her room. The doctor excused her on the ground of ill-health and said that when Claudius returned, they would probably be leaving England. She needs a change. After breakfast, Claudius wrote two notes, one to Burnage and another to Lady Vereder. Francis was to take them to town and bring back answers. He was also to execute various other commissions for Claudius and make the necessary arrangements

at the bank. Dr. Lamb was much more fertile than Claudius in suggesting what might be done. The doctor had a keen appreciation for the various luxuries and pleasures that eight thousand pounds would procure. To Claudius, the chief point was that the eight thousand pounds would free him from the necessity for thinking about pounds at all. He did not want nearly so much money, but the doctor insisted, and only by this arrangement, carried out exactly as the doctor proposed it, would he be allowed to free himself of his obligations? The doctor had told him very little, and it was useless for him to make conjectures. Possibly he had done a very foolish thing, but there had seemed to be nothing else before him. It was just before dinner that Francis returned

from London. He brought back with him two notes for Claudius. The first was from Henry Burnage. It contained this passage. Of course I shall be delighted to lunch with you at your hotel tomorrow. I need not inquire after the material prosperity of anyone who can afford to patronise such a place. And I am glad to think that all goes well with you. But why have you hidden yourself like this for so long? It was such an exceedingly bad thing to do that there is probably a woman at the bottom of it. And why are you leaving England? But we can talk to you. about that tomorrow. Yes, I still write. My work is not of a class that could be called popular, nor should I wish it to be. I am writing a series entitled, Inward Incidents, every week,

in a new journal called The Latest Light. They are impressions of some emotional experiences in the life of a young and sensuous girl. I will bring you a number or two to see, but I dare say you won't make much of them. Are you married or engaged or anything, you ask? No, my dear Sandel. Art is my only mistress. It is unaccountable to me, and I do not say it out of any spirit of boasting, but the fact is that I seem to have a horrible gift of seeing right through every woman I meet, an absolute incapacity for being illusionised. The wonder to me is that every other man does not show a similar incapacity, but they do not. Poor Luke Monset, you remember him, has just engaged himself to his principal's daughter.

It is perhaps unnecessary to add that Henry Burnage had carried out his intention and proposed to Angela Wicherly, and that Angela had, in the kindest and most considerate way, refused him. It had been a great sorrow to Mrs. Wicherley, but her husband, who was not without shrewdness, had quite approved of the refusal. The other letter was briefer. It was from old lady Verrida. My good Claudius, I've half a mind never to speak to you again. I've quarrelled with your father about you, and by way of showing your gratitude you leave me severely alone for over a year.

Well, you always were erratic, and honestly, I shall be very glad to see you again. Young men always do as they like. Now, I am going to be at home to you on Saturday, afternoon, if you will come and have a talk and account for yourself a little, and in any case, you must dine with me on Saturday night. You shall take into dinner a good and sufficient reason for changing your mind about leaving England. I've recently discovered her and love her, and her name's Angela. Always your friend, Jane Verider. saw but little of the doctor during the day. He had been busy in his laboratory, but shortly before dinner he came into the library where Claudius was reading. Your carriage will come for you at 12, precisely tonight, he said. You forgot to tell Francis when you wanted it, and so I took the liberty. You see, I am not going to let you off one single minute of your imprisonment here, at 12 exactly the octave begins. Imprismanment, said Claudius. Good heavens! What a word for it! Why didn't you let me go to town

today instead of Francis? I've been dying for want of occupation, except when I was driving your Bay Mayor, and then I pretty nearly died for other reasons. You'd better sell her before she kills somebody. I shall be selling all three horses before I leave England. You couldn't have gone to town any You haven't the genius that Francis has for doing a whole lot of uninteresting things in the quickest and most practical way without forgetting any of them. I'm afraid, though, you've been having a rather solitary time of it. I was at a point in my work when I simply couldn't leave it, and my wife. Oh, I hope she's better tonight. She says she is.

She will dine with us. The doctor's shaggy eyebrows contracted a little. A curious case, he said, almost as if he were speaking to himself. A very curious case. Claudius did not like to hear the doctor speak of his wife as a case. He had a vague idea that to doctors, all sick persons were cases, but this seemed to be in bad taste. He changed the subject. Doctor, he said.

Francis brought me back from town a note from a man called Burnage, whom I used to know at Cambridge. I won't say that he was an absolutely intimate friend of mine, but certainly I thought I knew him fairly well. I wrote to ask him to lunch with me tomorrow, a half-chafing letter. Well, he sends me back a long and serious reply, the most preposterous stuff. And it puzzles me. Has burnage changed altogether since I knew him at Cambridge, or have I? Both, said Dr. Lamb. As far as character is concerned, it is pretty certain that the boy is not father to the man.

It was the ambition of my life at one time to be an evangelical preacher. I fainted on the first occasion when I went into a dissecting room, and I wrote a letter attacking vivisection to an evening paper. I fell in love several times, and I certainly wanted to make money. Do you mean to tell me that the man who did these things is the man who speaks now? Of course not. Is the girl who flutters under her first kiss the same as the weirousome mammal who's the mother of your seventh? Of course not.

That sounds brutal, but this man, Burnage, he wasn't particularly popular at Cambridge. he went in for despising athletics, which was a stupid kind of thing to do. But he wouldn't have written that letter then. He went in for being distinctly the man of taste. Certainly, corrupto-optimimus. Carry precision in literary style too far, and you may get the precious and emasculated. Carry truth too far, and as you observe, you may get brutality. The worst possible taste is the release.

result of an attempt to grow the best possible taste from anything but the best possible feeling. I don't fancy that the belief in the change of individuality could be carried to its logical conclusions, said Claudius. For instance, now, Doctor, when I was a boy of 14, I, in company with another boy, surreptitiously procured a bottle of whiskey. We put a lot of sugar into it to make it more palatable, and even then we didn't like it. And, of course, we had no previous experience with spirits. However, we both of us got completely drunk. We weren't discovered, as it happened, but we suffered punishment for all that. Well, I laugh about this, and yet for the life of me, I can't help feeling ashamed of it. The boy that got so badly intoxicated on cheap whiskey

wasn't the man I am now. Then why should I? I feel ashamed of his notions. Why, indeed. To me, it seems that it is no more logical to be ashamed of one's past than to be ashamed of one's waist tissues. Be ashamed of your present if you like, but what has the past got to do with you? You are illogical because you are influenced by a long-formed habit. Habits of thought are just as hard to break off as other habits. After all, said Claudius, it's only a question of a point of view. The illogicality does no actual harm. In your case, probably not, but take our method of dealing with the criminal. We tie him tight down to his past, and we do our best to destroy his self-respect, which is the most important factor in the production of self-improvement.

In fact, if we can make the man heartily ashamed of himself, we call him penitent, and we are very glad. When we do those things, we say that we are repressing crime or punishing crime. As a matter of fact, we are making crime. One night, a clerk, in the ordinary way, a respectable clerk, allows the utter pig within him to come uppermost. There may perhaps be some exceptional combination of temptation and opportunity. Well, the utter pig is so outrageous that the man is in a very much. imprisoned. His name is in all the papers. When he comes out, he finds not only that his self-respect is gone, but that the conditions of his life have been so altered that it is more difficult for

him to get work and be decent and upright. Of course, it should be much more easy. Equally, of course, the man's self-respect should be strengthened in every possible way. That's all very well, doctor, but what about the habitual criminal? Would it be of any use to take the habitual criminal, slap him on the back, tell him that there was plenty of good in him after all, and put him into a position of trust? Possibly not. I was not speaking of the habitual criminal. When the criminal has really ceased to be responsible, as in the case of some of the habitual female drunkards that you come across in the police reports, I think medical treatment might be good occasionally. And in cases where medicinal treatment could do nothing, obviously the really moral and humane thing is to kill the criminal.

No one would hear of it. No one ever will hear of the obviously right thing to do. They mistrust it just because it's obvious. So we kill the man who has committed one murder. Often he is a man of talent and activity, with strong potentialities for good. a man who might do his part towards human happiness and human improvement. But we let the confirmed sot live and breed more sots. Remember, too, that it is under your penal system that the hardened criminal occurs and that method which you considered ridiculous has at any rate never been tried. Would you try it? Oh, no. It's not much less ridiculous than you think it.

It would succeed in a greater percentage of cases than you suppose, but even then the percentage would be very small. It is wrong because it is working at the wrong end. It is dealing with effect instead of cause, and that kind of mistake is a good deal more common than you would suppose. Even Darwin popularly supposed to be the exponent of a belief that man sprang from the monkey. Curious, all these popular suppositions are, made the same kind of a person who's not. of mistake in a different use. In the question of sex difference, he substitutes a teleological

for an etiological explanation. Ah, said Claudius laughing, it's just as well that we've got to get up and dress. You're taking me too deep. Deep. Good heavens, man, we aren't even paddling. Your education, pardon me, was too one-sided. It gave you much that I would like to have. and have not, but it was the kind of education which could let you hold a popular and imperfect notion of Darwinism, and could let you be ignorant how far the theories of Darwin have since been modified or corrected. And you think that a mission very important? Well, yes, for certain reasons, but we will discuss them after dinner. Subsequently, Claudius found Mrs. Lamb in the drawing room. She was wearing some fine diamonds. They were quite out of place, of course. The doctor raised his

thick eyebrows. Yes, it was so. Of taste and tact, she had very little. Yet the greater things, the things that lie at the back of life, the things that we try to put away because they are too serious, seemed sometimes to rise and at once to claim her for their own, and to justify her. twice that night she surprised Claudius. At dinner, in the course of ordinary talk, quite suddenly and quite calmly, she made her a remark that was worse than irreligious. It was virulently blasphemous. It did not involve the use of any word that a decent woman could not use, but for all

that, it was indescribably shocking, even to the two men who were neither of them orthodox. The more shocking because it was so utterly unexperienced. expected. Clorius was staggered. For a moment, he hardly knew what was happening, and then he became conscious that the doctor was talking to him about steamrollers, and, at the same time, looking at Mrs. Lamb, and that Mrs. Lamb seemed nervous and half-frightened. For the rest of dinner, she was almost entirely silent. She seemed to avoid her husband's glance. Her eyes looked hard and dry. After dinner she excused herself to Claudius on the ground of her health. She felt tired and must go back to her room.

Certainly she looked very pale. Claudius opened the door for her. The doctor stood at the dining table some distance away, absorbed in the choice of a cigar. You have chosen a queer time for leaving us, she said. You should have stopped and driven over to London in the morning. However, goodbye. She said it without the least treason.

trace of excitement. He took her hand. Don't let us call it goodbye. I am coming back. I must have another opportunity to thank you for all of your kindness to me. It is, Orovoire, Mrs. Lamb. She laughed, said that she was not to be thanked at all, and passed into the hall. Claudius shut the door and then noticed Mrs. Lamb's handkerchief lying on the floor. He picked it up and opened the door again to give it to her. As he did so, she did so, she called from halfway up the stairs. Have I dropped my handkerchief, Mr. Sandel? Yes, he said, and I shall bring it to you.

Don't trouble to come down. He went up and handed it to her. Without a word of thanks, she clutched his arm and said in a low, rapid voice, Listen quickly, you must not come back, for my own sake for yours. I warned you before, and you wouldn't believe me. It's a matter of life and death. I'm sorry, said. But I must not discuss it at all. The doctor wants me, and I have given my word of honour.

I shall do all I can to prevent your return. I've had ideas, but Gabriel used to say my day was coming, and I know now what he meant. It may come before I can carry the ideas out, and if I fail, you must break your word. Ah, if I only had time to tell you, it would be less wrong to break your word. "'No, no,' said Claudius gently, withdrawing his arm. "'You must not think about that, Mrs. Lamb. "'Everything will be all right. "'You need have no fear. "'Good night again.'

"'She put one hand to her throat for a second, "'and seemed to be trying to speak again, "'but she said nothing. "'She turned and ran upstairs. "'Poor lady,' said Clorius to himself. "'She was, he felt sure now, "'far more ill than he had supposed. "'She had evidently.

not known what she was saying. In the dining room he found the doctor, leaning back in his chair smoking placidly. Sandal, he said, there are two alternatives between which every night after dinner I find it difficult to choose. If I perform a simple amputation of the end of my cigar, I find that the draft is good, but that the leaf unrolls. If, on the other hand, I make a wedge-shaped incision at a distance of one-eighth of an inch from the end, the leaf does not unroll, but the draft is less satisfactory. What am I to do? What do you do? Well, said Claudius, I've tried both ways, and I've always found both of them answer perfectly, but if your cigars won't work, why don't you try a pipe? Sublime in its simplicity. I will. It's only my own method with the

irreclaimable criminal adapted. Have some more wine? No? Then let's go to the study out of the smell of the mutton. In the study, the doctor suddenly changed his tone. Sandel, he said nervously, I've been thinking it over, and I've had an uneasy feeling that I've been taking advantage of you in this business.

I hurried you. I rushed it too much. No, said Sandel. When I spoke, I spoke deliberately. The chances of my book are, I am persuaded, worth nothing. As a schoolmaster or a secretary, I might have scraped up enough to repay you what you have spent upon me, but there would still be much of another kind that could not be repaid, and I have some doubt whether I could stand the life. Doctor, I'm sick of pettiness and struggling.

I had so much of it in the months before you found me, and I'm equally sick of working for merely selfish and ignoble reasons. Let me be some good to somebody. "'The work that you do is great, and if I can help you at all in it, I ask nothing better. "'No, my one objection is that I do not in the least want £8,000.' "'No more of that,' said the doctor. "'See here, I don't want reputation. "'I only want to get the knowledge, but the reputation will come, and you will not share it. "'Money too will come, though I shall take no steps to acquire it.

"'You will not have any of it. "'You are merely taking your share in advance, and you must see your own point of view. The law does not recognize any such arrangement as we have made together. By the law, I am wrong, but there are grades in wrongness. And if I did not carry out my side of that arrangement, I should be more wrong. If I allowed you to give yourself to me and gave you nothing in return, I should stand condemned by my own moral sense.

Curious thing my own moral sense is, owing to my disregard of individuals, it is never affected by any personal bias, and it is always perfectly just. It will let me use any means, however, wrong, that are requisite for the great end that I have in view. But it will not let me use means that are more wrong than is really requisite. I don't ask or expect you to listen to this, of course. If any man talked to me after dinner about his moral sense, I'd go to sleep under his very eyes and tell him afterwards why I did it. But, oh, I'm not going to sleep. Very well, then. We let things stand just as we arranged last night.

I was more or less in a hurry, said the doctor, and consequently I hurried you. But there is some excuse for me. When you first came here, my wife was, for her, unusually well. She, well, you saw for yourself tonight. I must get her abroad as soon as possible, and, yes, yes, I understand, said Clorious. They felt to chatting of other subjects. The doctor was, as usual, sometimes enthusiastic, sometimes bitter, and sometimes blasphemous, and sometimes showed the clearest judgment and sense. He began by saying how glad he was that Claudius had friends in London who would help him to enjoy his eight days. Otherwise, you'd have died of ennui. One can enjoy nothing alone except solitude. And now I come to think of it, said Claudius, I suppose I must make rather a point of not

dying. To die intentionally, the doctor said smiling, would of course be fraudulent. Otherwise, your death would merely end the bargain. I take the risk of that, just as I take the risk of my own death. By the way, death isn't altogether uninteresting. What is death, doctor? Good heavens, man. If I could define it, I should know enough about it to avoid it forever. To be out of harmony with one's environment is to die. If you can stand a definition that tells nothing and means nothing, death is the price we pay for being multicellular. That's rather better. The happy protozone, with his single cell, never dies.

Never. At any rate, by natural death. The strength of wind blows down the tower, but does not damage the single brick. Yes, said Claudius rather impatiently. That accounts for the body, looks at the mechanical side. One knows all that. Our bodies are rolled round in Earth's diurnal course,

with rocks and stones and trees, but I have a personality, feel sure of it. What becomes of that? The doctor altered the position of the lamp and spread out the fingers of his great hand. You observe, he said, the shadow of my hand on the wall. I take away the hand, the shadow goes. That's the second analogy I've used tonight, and I might as well be a curate. However, no matter. Take away the body and the personality goes. We find them always together. Not connected, but simultaneous. Is it unreasonable to suppose that if the body breaks up, the personality suffers some similar dispersion?

And, he added, with sudden passion, is there the least comfort, the least satisfaction, in finding that the conclusion, or any other conclusion, is not unreasonably to suppose? Damn it, man, why you take me on to the subject of my greatest difficulties? The questions that you ask are just the questions that you may ultimately help me to answer. The thing that most surprises me in man is his lethargic, contented ignorance about some essential points. He has been here so long, and he does not yet know how he gets here.

How he goes, or how to influence with certainty, and to a really appreciable extent, his moral character or his intellectual abilities. There are moments when he cares, and gets very nervous. But, as a rule, he is quite comfortable, sits before the fire, reads the daily papers, and says he is master of his fate. Master of his fate, indeed. Never was there a more astounding and audacious lie. Yes, he said at another point in the conversation later in the evening. That is, put in a few words, the aim of my work, to make the man master of his fate. Ah, Sandel, I've been ordinary enough. I've loved a woman, I loved my child, and my child died. I have had delight out of good

books and good wine. I felt fear, envy, sorrow, hate. Gone through every experience, which could show that I do not transcend humanity. But my work is not ordinary. It is on a higher plane. The time has come for man to hasten his own evolution. For the slow, crude modifications of nature, he must substitute his own thought, his own researches. He must put truth into the boast that he is master of his fate. Doctor, said Sandal, you told me once that you believed in God, without giving any definition. Do you believe in the will of God? The phrase, Dr. Lamb answered, frowning slightly, is anthropomorphic.

To ascribe will to God is to ascribe a limitation which except to a theologian with his talk of the self-conditioned must seem futile. Well, put it in other words, do you believe that there is something which you cannot thwart? I dislike the word thwart, interrupted the doctor. I believe that there is a tendency which man can neither retard nor accelerate. Ah, said Claudius, now a moment ago you said that the time had come for man to hasten his evolution. I am not illogical. The time has come. The tendency is here, thanks to the primitive instincts of reproduction and self-preservation, we have arrived slowly at what we are. Thanks to the evolved mind of man, we should,

arrive more quickly at what we shall be. Evolution itself has provided that which will accelerate evolution. The tendency is not accelerated by man, but by itself acting through man. I see what you mean, but how will it happen? If I said that I myself was the point of the new departure, you would probably consider me a me a megalomaniac, but then you are not yet in possession of the facts. possibly I may only live to see the bare commencement of the results of my own work, if even that. But I trust I shall not die until I am assured that those results must ultimately follow. Is there any satisfaction to be got out of being the slave of a tendency? Can one be said to be the slave of a master that is doing all that the slave wishes?

The tendency is but part of the manifestation of God, and, to the man of science in my position, the love of God has passed from a religious duty into a logical necessity. God, so far as God is revealed by our knowledge of nature, is taking man to the heaven where he would be. Sandel, you've often thought me brutal and once said so. It is because I do not regard the individual but the race, and what the race may ultimately be, but think whether my view or yours is most in accord with the laws of nature. The manifestation, if you like the term, of the will of God, it is on the just and the unjust alike, that the sun shines or the Tower of Siloam falls. There is no regard there of the individual.

A moment ago you spoke of your personality, as though it were so precious a thing that you could not bear to lose it. No, I am not sneering at you. The instinct for self-preservation is almost universal, but do not let it make you lose sense of proportion. Read a manual of astronomy. Read Darwin. We all crib his facts even when we can.

correct his theories, familiarize yourself with great tendencies, great members, great space. You may still believe that you are something, but to give that up when your time comes will seem to you in a delightful obedience that is no slavery to be far better. The doctor, who had paced up and down the room as he was talking, now seated himself facing the fireplace. He had seemed to speak with sincerity, enthusiasm, almost excitement, but with him excited. excitement did not slowly die, it vanished like a flame blown out. As he filled another pipe, he remarked in a matter-of-fact way, look here, Sandel, if you write me a check for 50 with

tomorrow's date, I'll cash it for you now. You may want small sums tomorrow before it is convenient for you to change a check. Thank you, said Claudius. He did not quite seem to be hearing and understanding. However, he wrote the check, took the notes and thrust them into a pocket, and thanked the doctor again. For a few moments there was silence, and then Claudius said, And I'm going away to spend eight thousand pounds, or as much of it as I can, in eight days. I feel like a Bibulon's coaster, who has come into a little money and means to go on the burst with it. You will do in your way what he would do in his, but the ways are widely different. Don't frighten yourself with phrases. Enjoy, enjoy. Before Claudius could answer,

Francis opened the door. Mr. Sandel's carriage is here. Both men glanced at the clock. It was five minutes to twelve. As Francis shut the door, the doctor said, Don't be impatient. You have tried to earn what you are now going to have, but you have failed.

I know the feeling that you are going through, but remember, you will earn fully afterwards, all the enjoyment that eight days can bring you. Ah, you will do far more than that. words cannot express the obligation under which I shall be to you, or the delight which I feel in having found you. They had passed into the hall as the doctor talked. Claudius smiled drearily.

How do you know that I shall come back? You must have me watched. I know it because you have truth and courage. You will not be watched, of course. The greater your freedom and the law will not recognize our contract. The more such a man as you will feel bound. for a minute or two they chatted. The clock had begun to strike the hour as they shook hands, and Francis opened the carriage door. The doctor waved his hand as Claudius stepped into the carriage.

Au revoir, Sandel. Saturday after next, at the same hour, hope you will have a good time. I'll give your message to my wife. The carriage drove off. In the window above the entrance doors, there was a light. It was the window of the room that had been the nursery. The blind was held back a little. his lamb was watching the lights of the carriage passing down the drive. As the carriage turned onto the road, Claudius thought he heard a cry. The coachman must also have heard it, for he almost pulled up his horses, and then, probably with a reflection that, after all, it was none of his business, drove on again. The doctor, standing alone in the hall, heard that cry very distinctly. It was the scream of a hysterical woman, and it came from the room overhead. He wrinkled his brow a little, and his lips drew

back showing his great white teeth. He crossed the hall and took down a light riding whip. Then he went slowly upstairs, humming to himself. He opened the door of the nursery. On a chest of drawers stood a couple of lighted candles in tall candlesticks that Mrs. Lamb had brought from her own room. On the floor against the window, she lay face upwards, chuckling, panting, sobbing, occasionally speaking incoherently. Gabriel Lamb closed the door behind him. "'Get up,' he said curtly. "'No, no,' she moaned. "'Don't come near me, Gabriel. Don't touch me!'

In four quick steps he had crossed the room and was by her side. She began to scream again. He dragged her to her feet, and as she went staggering away from him with arms widespread, he struck her savagely across the back again, and again with the whip. The immediate effect of this brutality was that the hysterical fit stopped suddenly. She reached the mantelpiece and stood clutching it, and facing her husband, her bosom rose and fell quickly and deeply, with anguish in her eyes. But her self-control had partly returned, and when she spoke it was in a subdued voice. Why? Why have you done this awful thing?

For two reasons. When you come to think over it, you will see that you know them both. She could think of nothing. The blows that he had given her stung and throbbed, From sheer physical pain she began to cry quietly. Oh, Gabriel, you have hurt me so. You have hurt me so. You had better go to bed now, he opened the door for her. I will put the lights out here. Be careful not to drop your handkerchief as you go out this time.

Without another word, she went into her room. The doctor went downstairs, through his study and into the laboratory. He switched on the electric light, flung the riding whip into a corner, and began work. End of chapter 9. Recording by Rich Burgess. Chapter 10 of the octave of Claudius. This is a Libravox recording.

All Libravox recordings are in the public domain. For more information, or to volunteer, visit Libravox.org. The Octave of Claudius by Barry Payne. Chapter 10. As Claudius dressed for the dinner at Lady Vereders on the following night, he felt that so far he had had a pleasant day. He had breakfasted late, had had a delightful ride in the park, an amusing luncheon with Burnage, and a friendly talk afterwards with Lady Verader at her house, and had just left her in time to dress and return to dinner. It did occur to him once that it was not

perhaps worthwhile to barter the rest of his life for eight such days, but it still had been pleasant enough. Burnage had been full of questions at first, and Claudius had evaded them. Burnage did not press his inquiries, for a chance was offered him of talking about himself, and he could not bear to miss it. He apologized at intervals for egotism. He referred rather slightly to his varsity days. One is so young. You know, when one is young, he said, he was fond of saying that kind of thing.

It was not difficult. He knew that if he only adopted the form of the epigram, a humble and stupid world would always give him credit for the point of it. Finally, at the request of Claudius, he read out one or two of the inward incidents, those passages in the life of a young and sensuous girl. If Claudius had taken them seriously, he would have been of the opinion that Bernage must have lived a very moral life, but have been afflicted with a very indecent imagination. he did not take them seriously. He chafed him good-naturedly about them, and regarded them as evidence of merely a passing phase. Burnage served to remind Claudius of the good times he had had at Cambridge, and merely for that, Claudius was grateful to him. Bernage's irrepressible superiority was not to be

overcome by good-natured chaff. "'My dear fellow,' he said, "'you have given me an excellent luncheon. The wine has been beyond reproach. Consequently, I am sorry to have to be rude to you, but fear that you are a sojourner in the land of Gath. You have told me that you don't like my cigarettes. They're quite perfect. It's only by the greatest, well, the Turkish ambassador happens to. However, I needn't go into that. The dislike of those cigarettes is a mark.

Then there is the way in which you receive my little inward. incidents. You don't understand them. You have gone backward. At Cambridge, I remember you used to think about writing, to take an interest in literature. Now, if you wrote at all, you would turn out, let me see. A novel with a plot to it, with adventures in it. Claudius chuckled. That's exactly what I have done, he said. Ah, where is it? To tell you the truth, I exactly know, but don't in the least care. Then you can have given no trouble to it. I gave too much, and that's why I want to forget it.

Please. Well, doing anything tonight? Yes, dining out. I was to have dined tonight at Lady Veredars, but I had to send an excuse the other day. I happened to find out that, well, it's nothing of importance, but a girl's dining there who ought not to meet me. why not it isn't as if you talked as you wrote you misunderstand poor little thing pretty too in her way it would hardly be fair to tell you more and besides it's nothing i say

in the afternoon lady verida had been a little puzzled by claudius he had been charming to her as ever his looks she thought had improved as they had passed from boyishness to manliness most faces she noticed coarsened in the process or else became effeminate But there had been a certain reserve. He had not told her all she had expected. He had explained freely his long absence from her house. He had wanted to give himself up entirely to his work, and he had, besides, been too poor to see anyone. It was with reference to the future that he was so reticent. Where was he going to when he left England?

With whom was he going? What would he do, if anything, when he went abroad? He would, he told her, earn the first. the money which he was now spending. For the rest, he was afraid that his future was not his own secret, and therefore it must remain a secret. Entangled! cried Lady Verader. A woman! I see it all! No, said Claudius. There is no woman in the case at all. It's almost a matter of business. Be as kind to me as you always are, and don't ask me any more about it, or mention to anybody that there is any mystery. It's embarrassing. I can't be mysterious. I couldn't look the part.

Yes, you could. Do and always did. Lady Verrida answered snappishly. However, young men always have their own way. I've known that for a long time. Unless, of course, you marry her. Yes, Angela. I beg your pardon. I said Angela. Oh, it's lucky that you're coming here to dine tonight, a man dropped out two days ago and you've got his place. Otherwise, there might not have been, as far as you're concerned, any Angela at all. She's your reason for not leaving England, as I told you in my letter. Might we hear more? Claudius asked. The father's invisible, and the mother ought to be. No, that's sheer spite and worldliness. The mother's a good mother with social aspirations. I believe they're chiefly for the daughter's sake, and that, as soon as she's married,

the aspirations will be folded up and put away, and the poor old lady will go to bed tired. Looks as if she's dressed too youthfully and always had done, even in her cradle. Homeopath, I fancy. Takes pills, anyhow. But quite a good heart. And if you had not set aside all spite and worldliness, said Clorious, How would you have described her then? My dear Claudius, haven't I said that she's got a good heart? Claudius smiled.

When it comes to mentioning that, but, however, with regard to Angela, Lady Verida's grey eyes lit up with enthusiasm. A wayward lamb, eyelashes, so wrong and sweet and rather discontented, and good. Oh, I can't describe her. "'Ah,' said Claudius, "'I've not deserved these treasures. "'I am an outcast.' "'Lady Verrador sighed.

"'If only I could be anything half as romantic as that. "'But no, I simply must not talk about your dear father. "'Temper upsets me. "'In his last letter he said that he "'utterly, absolutely and altogether declined "'to receive any further communication from me. "'Think of it!' "'I recognise the idiom,' said Claudia.

"'Then you've no recent news, I suppose?' "'Fairly recent, but there's no change. "'That Comey woman has a cottage in your father's place now. "'The spiritualistic business goes on. "'I got that, by the way, from my maid, "'whose cousin is in service there. "'I didn't ask her anything, of course, "'but sometimes one has to give her the run of her tongue.'

"'Lady Verrida's husband had been long dead. "'At her dinners, her brother acted as host, "'if he was in London. He was a dried-up little man who drank water during dinner, and one glass of claret afterwards. He knew nothing about horses, something about men, and quite a great deal about women. So he liked best to talk about horses. At any rate, in the first stage of acquaintanceship. In the last stage, there were with him about sixteen of them.

You would perhaps find out that he had lived much abroad, fought three duels, killed one man, and regretted exceedingly that he had not killed the other two. He was good-tempered, rather absent-minded, and lived chiefly at his club. He's a nice little man, Geoffrey, Lady Verrida used to say, and kind and obliging to me, though we don't know each other very well. Lady Verida looked brilliant that night. She could no longer be beautiful as in her youth, but she had such pearls and old laces can be had for money,

and always seemed more dignified than she felt. "'Don't hurry away tonight,' she murmured as she shook hands with Claudius. "'Otherwise, I shan't have a chance of seeing you. "'One never sees anybody in one's own house if there's anyone else there.' With this enigmatical utterance, she turned to shake hands with a member of Parliament, who believed that he had rescued her from a bore. Everybody who shook hands with Lady Verrida at once believed that he had done something great and right. Jeffrey Severn emerged from behind a palm to greet Claudius.

"'Delighted to meet you again, old man,' he said. "'Saw you in the park this morning, on the top of a horse. "'You were in the distance, or I'd have saluted you before. "'Going abroad, I hear, well, well, you'll get tired of it. "'I did. "'At least, I think I did. "'At any rate, I came back to England, and mind you, do the same. "'And, by the way, you're taking Miss Witchily, if you would, know her.

"'Come along, then,' silhouetted against a shaded lamp. Claudius saw the face of a young girl. She turned as Geoffrey spoke to her, presenting Claudius. She smiled prettily. But as the smile died away, her eyes looked rather sad. She was the image of sweet discontent. There had certainly been some fog that evening. The real question was whether it would or would not become any worse. He thought and said with due gravity that he feared it would. She half opened her fan and looked down at it, caressingly. Then she said a little shyly that she hoped it wouldn't. We're going out of the land of fogs on Monday, she added, as he gave her his arm. Mama and I are going down into the country. Really? So am I, he said. But can you bear to part

with London in the season? We shan't be there for more than a few days. Do you know Guildbridge at all? Yes, very well. Here are our places. Why must one always go to the wrong side first? You don't mean to tell me that it's to Guildbridge that you're going. Yes, rather humbly. Do you mind?

It's a coincidence because I happen to be going there myself. Still, there's plenty of room, isn't there? I hoped you wouldn't mind. You see, we've taken our rooms there now, and I don't think we can afford. their eyes met and understood. They both laughed. Don't you think, Claudius said, that you're being a little severe? Then, she answered somewhat inconsequentially, Why did you say that I couldn't bear to part with London in the season?

Do I look merely worldly? Has somebody introduced me? I believe, he said seriously, that I asked the question for much of the same reason that I feared the fog was getting worse. It's a humiliating confession to have to make. "'As for the rest, no one has introduced you. "'Lady Verida adores you and spoke of you to me. "'You don't look merely worldly.' "'She drew a long breath. "'Ah, please say that last part of that again.

"'Slowly.' "'As for the rest, no one has. "'No, go on after. "'You don't look merely worldly, and say some more.' "'You don't look merely worldly. "'You look. "'But I'm afraid I've known you long enough to say that. Let me see, she said meditatively.

How long have you known me? Either five minutes or five hundred years. Well, with conscious audacity, make it years then. In that case, I may say that you look like, like your first name, grown little tired of paradise. Oh, stop! You must go back at once away with those years. You've only known me minutes, just three minutes, Mr. Sandel. "'Pardon me, Miss Witchelie, but it must be at least six, probably more.

"'You observe that we are eating salmon.' "'Angela laughed. "'What a nice idea to measure time by the menu. "'Now observe, when it's a half past the caramel pudding, "'we may possibly speak about myself again. "'Until then, no. "'You've been to the academy, of course? "'Certainly not.

"'A great theatre-goer? "'Hardly ever. "'Come soon, soon, caravan.' caramel pudding. You ought not to say that. Here's another chance for you. The lady in black satin is my mama, and Lady Veritas are dear too, but you can say anything you like about anybody except those two and me. Then, said Claudius, I shall talk about myself and at some considerable length. I've made up my mind to it, and it's your fault. She lowered her voice and looked mischievous. Do you think, Mr. Sandel, that you ought to neglect that quite nice lady on your other side

all through dinner? Ought you to give her some of it? They laughed again. Not at all. She's very busy, telling Mr. Severn all about herself. She doesn't wait for any caramel puddings. And as he knows a great deal more about her than she does, he's amused and she's interested. It would be brutal to interrupt them. Very well. Why are you going to Guildbridge? The moment that Angela had said that she was going down into the country, Claudius had decided also to go down into the country. To know that she was going to Guildbridge was to know that he was also going there. He had changed all his plans, suddenly, gladly, without the slightest hesitation. And now he was asked why. Why was he going? He hardly knew. He was a little dazed, like a man who is suddenly wakened from sleep,

and with his eyes half closed, vaguely feels that it is a glorious morning. But he knew, quite clearly, that the reason, whatever it was, was not one that could be told, now at any rate. I think London's at its worst in the hot weather. I've been to Guildbridge before, had the cointest lodgings there. It's so jolly to be near the river in the summer. "'Most lodgings are quaint,' said Angela meditatively. "'The people who let them have always had more bereavements than other people, "'and everything looks too clean at the beginning of the season "'and too dirty all the rest of the time.

"'And the furniture is of a type. "'Our rooms at Guildbridge are of the normal hideousness, I believe, "'but they look out over the heath. "'You know it. "'Ah, it's lovely that heath. "'They talked on the heath of boating, of many things, not more seriously than a dinner table permits, but just a little confidentially, happy in a kind of tacit understanding that each pleased the other.

Ah, said Claudius suddenly, the moment has come. It is exactly half past the caramel pudding. Yes, Angela answered. That is the time by your plate, but your plate is a little fast. Miss witchily, said Claudius, you may think that I eat too quickly. You may regret it, But you really can't mention it. Not to me. You're now going to talk about yourself. I only said I might. There's nothing to say, too.

Oh, yes, why did you say that I was like my first name? How could you even know that I had a first name? As for the last question, I may answer that I conjectured it. I do these brilliant things at times. But listen, you said that I was like my first name. Now my first name is Lord. A! What did you think it was? Angela. She had wanted to hear how it sounded when he said it. She had just what she wanted, and straight away blushed slightly. It is Angela really, but I wouldn't be discontented with Paradise or tired of it, if only I could find it.

Does anybody ever find it? I haven't. Some do. Don't look at the girl opposite to you because I'm going to talk about her. know her? No. Her name's Eva Murray, and of no importance. To look at, she's pretty but commonplace. I noticed her a few minutes ago. I grant you the commonplace. Well, most of the time her face has had the usual expression, the expression that a woman puts on with the powder for social purposes. But I caught her just now at a moment when she was neither talking nor listening. She allowed herself a moment's absent-mindedness. Her story seemed to come up into her eyes. Her face was transfigured, ecstatic and pathetic. It only lasted a moment, and it was not very becoming. Made her look seven years older. She was quite right to change it for that metallic and sincere brightness. But nonetheless,

if we were in possession of Miss Murray's private history, we should find a paradise period in it. Really, Miss Witchelie? If you can tell as much as that from a momentary change of expression, I shall be very much afraid of you. Suppose, for instance, that you were to guess all my horrible past. One can only guess such things vaguely and occasionally. I don't think you've had a horrible past, but she stopped short. Well, isn't it quite absurd that we should have a fog at this time of year?

I call it perfectly preposterous. Perfectly? "'Well, you had a sentence to finish. "'I am not quite sure how I was going to finish it. "'You must let me think.' "'At that moment, the matronly lady on the other side secured Claudius. "'Now, Mr. Sandel, I haven't seen you for an age, "'and when we do meet, you don't talk to me.'

"'Ah,' said Claudius, "'Mrs. Severn has given me no chance, "'a selfish man, I'm afraid, Lady Dunwich.' "'Very nicely put, on a French model I should, say, now, do you know anything about guinea pigs? I am most anxious to find out about them, and Mr. Severn knows nothing. My daughter Ella, you remember the child, keeps them, or I should say did keep them. There were 13. They died at intervals. I mean they died one after another. Beautifully kept, died perfect, everything all right, and yet they died. So very

annoying. Oh, poor Ella. Can you explain it? It looks to me like foul play. It is mysterious, even, romantic. Has Ella an enemy? Had the guinea pigs an enemy? You really suggest the most horrible things. You don't think a good vet. Oh, his evidence would be useful. You grant the police detectives the vengeance of the law. But Mr. Sandel, I assure you, I do not. I refuse positively to go to the law about anything. I am. not going to stand up in a public witness box with a young man in a foolish wig paid to be impertinent to me. The hostess was already making her preparations for departure when Claudius got free from Lady Dunwich and turned again to Angela. You have a moment in which to finish that sentence.

Please do it. You do not think I have a horrible past, but... It's only a conjecture. You'll laugh at it, I think. I'm inclined to think you have some... something very important at stake just now. She rose with the rest of the women. She had dropped a glove. Claudius picked it up, saying as he gave it to her, No, I am not ashamed at your conjecture. It is right.

Then followed what seemed to Claudius a waste of time. The man who chatted with him over the coffee thought him slightly absent-minded as indeed he was. The days of the octave had suddenly acquired a value for him, far beyond the value of material luxury and enjoyment. plans formed themselves rapidly, one after another in his mind. When the men entered the drawing room afterwards, Angela Wicharly wondered what Claudius would do. She did not want him to come and talk to her just at first. He did not.

She saw him go up to Lady Verrador and chat with her for a few moments. Then, at his request, Lady Verreter took him up to Mrs. Wicherly and presented him to her. Claudius was not always reckless. he could do wise things at times. Mrs. Wichelie found him delightful. He had known their old friend Mr. Burnage at Cambridge. She was the soul of indiscretion, and he heard with a flickering smile that Angela had refused Burnage.

On the question of her own health, however, Mrs. Wichelie showed what was for her an unusual reticence. But he understood that she was a sufferer and was quite sympathetic. He was mildly amazed to find that this was the mother of Angela, but he recognised that she really had the good heart of which Lady Verrador had spoken. She spoke of her daughter, Angela, with pride, but slightly concealed, and told stories of her childhood. The wayward Angela had had rather a naughty childhood, Mrs. Wichelie was expecting to have a few friends at her house on the following evening, the Sunday evening. She wondered many things and apologised too much, but Claudius was delighted

and said that he would come. Mrs. Wichelie was equally delighted to find that he was going to Guildbridge. He was so considerate, so interesting, had such a pleasant manner. She decided to find out more about him from Lady Verder. She glanced across at her daughter, Angela, and for the moment her imagination ran riot. The drawing room gradually emptied. Lady Dunwich and several other guests were going on to a dance. Mrs. Wicherly began to be a little uneasy. The hired Broome, it was never less than that when she dined with great wealth or slight title, had not come, and was already twenty minutes late. It was not the first time that he had defected. Claudius crossed the room and sat down beside Angela. I have been making your mother ask me for tomorrow night, he said. It was very good of her. It was kind of you,

said, and Angela demurely. Yes, he said, smiling. I am never unnecessarily severe with myself, Miss witcherly. May I say how glad I shall be to meet you again? I think we have some explanations. Yes, she said, looking down, we have, and yet, well, you must not think that my unfortunately right guess compels you at all to tell me anything that you would rather not tell. Nor to believe, that it would be of the least interest to you? Mama is going, I see. Good night, Mr. Sandel. She gave him her pretty hand.

And she hesitated a little. It would interest me. Mrs. Wicherley wished to know if she might have a cab called, a four-wheeler, please. For some reason or other, her broom had not come, and it was really most annoying. One moment, Mrs. Wichelie, said Claudius. My carriage is waiting, and I shall not be going yet for some little time.

It would be pleased and proud if you would allow it to take you and your daughter home, and then come back for me. Mrs. Wichley was infinitely obliged. It was very kind of Mr. Sandel, and really, if it was not giving trouble, she thought she would. Reassured on this point, and with her hand warmly shaken, she and Angela departed. Son of Sir Constantine Sandel, she thought to herself, keeps his own carriage and is a very charming young man. obviously much attracted by Angela. Ah, if it could only be, the poor lady had given up hoping much. To her feminine and most intimate friends and contemporaries, she hid frankly that Angela simply would not look at a man.

Lady Verida, Geoffrey Severn and Claudius are left together. I say, Jane, said Geoffrey. If you've gone with me now, I've got a sort of half-appointment at the club. You might come there too, Sandel. You may go, said Lady Vennel. Verida, you've behaved very nicely and I'm very grateful to you. Can't let you take Claudius, though, because I want him myself. Good night, Geoffrey, and thanks again.

When they were alone, Lady Verader went to the fireplace, rested an arm on the mantel place, and glazed into a quaint Venetian mirror. Her back was turned on Claudius as she spoke. Well, Claudius, I'm not blind. I have eyes and see. I don't want you to tell me what you've. think of my Angela, I know. What difference does it make? The future is not in my own hands. Nothing can alter that after next Saturday. You mean that seriously? Yes. I would give

worlds to know what hideous trouble you have gotten yourself into. I have been a friend to you since you were a baby and you tell me next to nothing. Why do you stop at a hotel and why don't you stop here with me? Why should I lose your confidence? She stamped her foot impatiently. My dear lady, you have not lost my confidence in the very slightest. I should be very glad to accept your hospitality, but my plans are changed. I am going into the country on Monday. Are you going to the Witchelies on Sunday night? Yes.

Is it to Guildbridge that you're going on Monday? Yes. Knowing that she will be there? Yes. Lady Verrida turned around and faced him. Claudius, my good friend, I'm going to speak to you very plainly. there is a chance that the girl may get fond of you. I think she will. And then. And then you suddenly leave her without a word? Pass out of her life. Drop her. Leave her humiliated and puzzled. You cannot do that.

I do not think there is much chance of what you say, but I propose to tell her as soon as I decently can, at least as much as I have told you. Your intimacy with her seems to have progressed sufficiently rapidly. I know that you cannot do anything dishonorable. I have the utmost faith in you, but you are human, a man and not a god. And she is human. Poor pretty Angela. You may explain to her that you cannot marry, but that will not prevent the chance that she may fall in love with you. And, said Claudius rising, I am unwilling to risk on so slight a chance the utmost happiest I have ever had. Do I not speak frankly to you now? "'The days are so few that are left to me. "'Trust me a little further.'

"'I hope the best,' said Lady Verrida. "'Women go by siege, man by assault. "'The days are few, certainly, "'and it is possible no harm may be done to her. "'But I am anxious.' "'Tell me,' she added. "'Is this a money matter?' "'No, dear lady,' he said.

"'Money could not help me. "'I know your kindness, though, "'and do believe that I am very great for it. Good night. Good night, then, Claudius. Let me know if I can help you in any way, and in any case, write me. As he stepped away from his carriage into the hotel, he heard above the sound of the traffic, the clang, and chime for many steeples. The first day of the octave was over. End of Chapter 10. Read by Rich Burgess. Chapter 11 of the Octave of Claudius. This is a Libravox request.

morning, all Libravox recordings are in the public domain. For more information, or to volunteer, please visit Libravox.org. Recording by John Brandon The Octave of Claudius by Barry Payne. Chapter 11 Claudius slept ill and rose early. From his brief sleep, he had been awakened by a horrible dream. He dreamed that he saw the doctor's face bending over him.

The eyes were wolfish and eager, the lips drawn back a little, the whole expression diabolical. He tried to speak but could not. As the face came nearer, and the horror of it grew on him, he tried to raise his arms and thrust it away, but he was unable to move. Then he awoke. It had merely been ordinary and typical form of nightmare. Yet long after he was awake, something of his horror from his sleep haunted him. For the first time, a suspicion of the doctor, and a dread of the future, entered his mind.

He banished them at once as reasonless. What the doctor required, he told himself, was an assistant, absolutely devoted. There might be experiments, which would require constant watching night and day, secrets that could be trusted only to one who first forfeited his right to use them for himself. A thousand explanations occurred to him. He had been told that he was to regard himself as a slave, body, and soul. It had been said seriously, and he must be prepared to accept it literally. Yet it was always possible that there had been in the doctor's use of the phrase much of the

phrase much of that whimsical exaggeration, which was habitual with him. It seemed even probable, and the suspicions vanished. Before the octave was over, they were to return again. After breakfast, Claudius chose the inexpensive pleasure of an aimless walk through the London streets. He had much to think about. His point of view had changed. The doctor had been right in saying that a year freedom was too long. If it was to be once last year, much might happen in that time to bind one to earth and make the farewell bitter. But eight days, one day, even one hour might also be too long. It was little more than an hour that had made the change in Claudius, placed him in the position of one who, with the strongest possible motor for living,

sees the end of life, very, very near. He loved Angela, though he had seen her but once. Contonu, wrote the awful Gutier. Our view is that if we don't aim a person the first time we see, there is no reason for him the second, and even more than the third. If Claudius had met Angela

but one hour before the doctors spoke of their strange contract, that contract would never have been made. If life meant Angela, then it would be worthwhile to undergo poverty, sordid struggles, many humiliations, in order to live. Life would be then beyond price, Claudius saw now, that among the many mingled causes which had resulted in the contract, under which he was bound, there was one which he had not suspected at the time. Yet in this tragic position, he had no feeling.

of tragedy and no unhappiness. He loved, and it was enough. True, it seemed that the ordinary end of love was not for him, but then no lover at first thinks of marriage or possession. Lady Verrida's word of warning was vaguely in his mind, the dim memory, of one who was wise from her point of view. He could not bring himself to think that Angela would love him like that. The nauseous vanity of such a supposition was insufferable. He hoped that she would be kind to him and let him see her often. On his part, he knew that he was not free to. He hated the banal words to make love to her. Dr. Gabriel Lamb seemed a shadow, and all the previous incidents of Claudius' life seemed obscure and unsubstantial when he thought of Angela.

She was the light, in the joy of thinking that for those few days he would often be with her, he could forget that when those days were passed, he was to leave her forever. On one point, he forced himself, however, to be clear, doing this much justice to Lady Veritur. He would take advantage of a strange guess that Angela had made at dinner, the night before, to tell her everything. He did not believe that in this point it mattered one straw whether he deceived her or not, but all the same he would not deceive her. She should know exactly how he stood.

Until he met her, he had decided not to tell anyone the story of his contract with the doctor. But if anyone could possibly think that he ought to tell Angela, then he would tell her. He would leave it for the night to settle how much and how little he should tell her then. But certainly she should know all as soon as might be managed. In the afternoon he went to Gilbridge and took three rooms at the hotel there.

He returned and dined in town. Halfway through dinner it occurred to him that he would have preferred another wine but he did not commit the extravagance of ordering it. Of course, he might have taken the entire hotel at Gelbridge and ordered the entire wine list in London. But perhaps one of the best proofs that it was not for the thousand pounds a day that he had sold himself,

was that he constantly forgot that he had a thousand pounds a day. The doctor had strangely insisted on his side of the contract that little or no interest for Claudius. Mrs. Wicharly had not a thousand pounds a day, but she had no doubt that her husband had been making money lately. Within the last fortnight, he had. In his mild and unpretentious way, he had been practically gambling,

and gambling for far more than he could have afforded to lose. It is a pity to have to record it because its effect may be deplorable on those, if any, who hear about it, but Mr. Ridgerly had won. Having won, he had decided not to gamble anymore but to stick to his legitimate business. He kept to that decision.

Once only in his life did he sell shares which he did not possess in a mind which practically did not exist. Once only did he buy shares for which he would have been unable to pay from people who had not got them to sell. These two speculations, although they may not look promising when stated boldly,

put money into Mr. Wicharly's pocket and left him quite satisfied that dabbling in mines was a dangerous business, and he must never touch it again. He did not tell his wife any of this. He did not want to make her anxious. Besides, in matters matter, masculine and commercial, Jessica did not know anything about anything, and explanations were tedious.

But still she noticed things. Mr. Wirtleley one day tasted the party champagne. On inquiry, he found that he had six dozen of it. He sent that six dozen off to a hospital, remarking dryly that it ought to be drunk in some place where the doctors were handy. Also, he thought that after all he might as well have some wine that he could drink himself and he ordered that wine. Then again, he suddenly discovered that the house needed to be redecorated. Jessica and Angela were to go to Gilbridge while it was being done, and Jessica might have those Oxford Street people she was always thinking about to do it. No, he wouldn't go to Gilbridge himself.

When a man leaves his business, his business leaves him. Besides, there ought to be somebody in the house to keep an eye on the workman. Mrs. Wichrely was delighted. Things are looking up in the city, then, she said. We get along somehow, he answered, with a sigh. It was his invariable reply to that question. He would not let Mrs. Wicharly keep her own carriage. Be reasonable, Jessica.

In people in our position, that would be ostentatious. Mrs. Bodgers, Jessica began. Bodgers, by the way, had joined Mr. Wicharly in that speculation. Bodgers is a fool, a fair judge of Port, but in many ways, sadly wanting indiscretion. No, you may have that higher. broom sometimes, well, pretty often. You can fetch me from the office at five now and then if you like. The first time that Mrs. Wichorley and Angela fetched him from the office,

he inquired of them vaguely, What's the name of the place where you get your clothes? They suggested several places. Ah, said Mr. Wicharly, this is more comfortable than the bus. Mustn't do it every day, though. Then he relapsed into silence. But presently he added, I don't like your clothes, Angela, and I don't like your mothers either.

We'll go and get some more. On this occasion, he was wildly generous, insisting on Bond Street and the best of everything. On the next afternoon, he came back on the bus, though, and not to make a penny fare into tuppence, walked the last quarter of a mile. Mrs. Wicharly had a few people to dinner that night, and the invaluable job Jameson assisted. After dinner, Jameson retired to the basement and spoiled a previously immaculate career by getting drunk on about equal parts of kitchen beer and upstairs kerosoo. He did not appear again, fortunately, until the guests were gone, and then he attempted to leave the

house surreptitiously. That is to say he took off his coat, folded it neatly, over his arm, opened his umbrella and came up into the hall. Here he paused, possibly to add some further touches to the disguise, and was discovered by Mr. Wicharly. Mr. Wicharly had been inquiring the reason for Jameson's absence and had been told by a euphemistic parlor maid that Mr. Jameson had come over very strange in this manner. Mr. Wichley was, in fact, looking for Jameson.

Mr. Wiley, said Jameson with dignity, I know your family many years, and I manage like to see everything tidy round about me. Everything quite tidy. And then I'm as I ought to be. He lowered himself into one of the hall chairs. You'll excuse me for speaking burr when things are understood.

Then they're... der, ash, they ought to be. And everything ought to be ash, it ought. With which remarks on the comial foe, Jameson immediately fell asleep. He was removed from the house in a four-wheeled cab, and he never returned to it. Mrs. Wicharly aghast and much upset,

said she was deeply and truly thankful that this shocking scene had not taken place when the guest was still there. Mr. Wicharly said, Get a permanent man, Jessica, good, but not too expensive. Get him tomorrow. It was the crowning extravagance. It was this permanent and perfect person

who hovered at the doors of Mrs. Wichwley's salon when Claudius entered. Claudius, generally self-possessed, felt himself almost trembling with excitement tonight. He could not, however, see Angela at first. Mrs. Wichelie, breaking in waves on a black velvet chore, shook his hand and was so glad. She handed him on to a clever girl, in the wrong pink with the smudgy complexion, that almost always goes with much soul.

She talked vivaciously, and so did Claudius. The buzz of conversation around them made most of their remarks inaudible to each other, but neither minded it much. As Claudius was talking, he caught a glimpse of Angela. She was standing at some distance away in the window, and an undersized young man with yellow hair and a makeup tie was openly and rather nervously adoring her. He was one of the world's understudies.

And there were many of them there. However, Lady Verrador had almost promised to come and bring her title. Mrs. Wichreley did not dispel spare of the evening's brilliancy. Angela was in white, satin, and silver, and the dress had cost a great deal of money. She was feeling quite all right about herself, as far as appearance went,

but her eyes were sad and thoughtful. She knew that Claudius was in the room. Had glanced once rapidly at him, found him looking intently at her, and not dared to glance again, until she heard his voice, and he was shaking hands with her. May I be introduced to nobody and talk to you all the rest of the evening, said Claudius.

Thy servant is the daughter of the house, she said, and has duties, which I am sure Mrs. Wicharly performs to perfection. Has the daughter of the house also had supper? Angela Rose put her hand under his arm, and the two joined the stream flowing supperwards. Isn't that a charming dress? said Angela. I mean the lady right over there in the corner. I should have thought so. You must think so. I've seen one I admired more. Which, what color? If my audacity may be forgiven, white and silver. Oh, yes, it's pretty. I tried to dress like an angel and I've come out like a wedding cake.

I didn't dare to go into supper before, or fear someone would cut a slice. I will protect you. Me? No, protect them. Think of their disappointment. It's true, though, those that go often to dances and things always become gradually, exactly like some dish in a ball supper. Their dresses are no longer trimmed. They're garnished. Their expressions alter too, get creamy like a mayonnaise, luscious like a massive wine, virulent like a boar's head, patient and vacuous like a cold fowl. Every chaperone looks like a cold fowl. I know one of them will get carved by accident one of these days. Their talk at suppertime was not much more serious. Angela was happy, bewitching and in rather mad spirits apparently. She introduced Claudius maliciously to several

people. She had a way of making others fall into her mood. Many dull and heavy people sprang into wit at her end of the table that night, and wondered when they got home, with a proving wonder at the things they themselves had said. Afterwards, Claudius took Angela out onto the balcony. Here, striped canvas made a sweet seclusion for two lounge chairs. A tiny table shaded lamp and a ponderance. spotted palm. Well, he said, and now we're out of the crowd. My crowd, please, poor little struggling crowd. I must go back to it soon. Before you go, I have something to tell you. She leaned right back in her chair, a graceful creature, her pretty white hand playing with her ivory fan.

Her eyes had grown sad again, almost plaintive, under the long lashes. Her red lips had lost their garb of raillery. Yes, she said, you have. But there is one thing, tell me nothing, if you would rather not. We met by chance. I guessed something by chance. I ought not to have guessed.

Shall we leave it? It would be kind of you if you would let me tell you. Yes, then. Tell me, I'm interested. I guessed that you had something of importance at stake. And why should I not say it? I have thought a great deal about it since. Have you, he said eagerly, have you?

No doubt it is chiefly important to myself. But it is more important to myself than I thought once. Why, a promise given, a contract made, After a few days I become body and soul the property of another man, his to kill or to keep alive, his to do justice he likes with. is utterly until one or other of us dies. There was a moment's silence.

Angela's eyes were wide open. You astonished me, she said. It's an airy story I cannot understand. It is literally true. Yes, that of course, but I do not understand how it happened, how it could happen. The story is long. I don't want you to think too badly of me.

when I gave my promise, I thought, I thought I was right. I'm sure enough now, God knows that I was wrong. It is a long story, but if you have the patience to hear it, I will tell it you. Angela rose from her chair and clasped her hands. She was thinking, I cannot hear it now, she said, because we must go back. I'm not quite sure whether I want you to tell me it or not. That has nothing to do with patience or interest, of course. I am interested.

It is also strangely romantic. My possible reason for not hearing it would be, be different. Did you not say that you expected to be at Gilbridge? Tomorrow, your mother has promised to bring you to dine with me at my hotel that night. I'm hoping to see you very often. I wonder why you spend your last days there. No, don't tell me, not now. Perhaps one day at Gailbridge, I shall ask you for the whole story.

Will you tell it me then? Yes, whenever you wish it. You have given me the impression that you are a lonely man and sometimes that you are unhappy. I ought to be unhappy. I do not think I am, strangely enough. I want, she faltered quickly and suddenly, to give you my sympathy. She stretched out both hands, and he held him for a second.

Her face had grown pale. She looked to him unspeakably beautiful. He checked an impulse, and they passed back into the crowded room together. A formal farewell followed. On his way home, he felt glad that he had not made love to Angela, whicherly. Better men have had similar illusions. After all the guests had gone, Mrs. Wicharly had a talk with Angela.

We met him last night, said Mrs. Wicharly with fat gaiety, and again tonight, and we're to dine with him tomorrow, and he means to see us often at Gilbridge. He tells me, I'm sure I don't know what it means. Perhaps you could tell me, my dear. Angela sat down beside her. Mama dear, she said, I'm going to be serious. What is it at last?

Tonight, Mr. Santel told me something of his private affairs. He will not and cannot marry. Then why? I wish to see a good deal of him during the next few days. I am grown up. You must trust me completely. Yes, darling, Angela, I do trust you. But is this right in him?

And is it, is it dear for your own happiness? Yes, I think so. The circumstances are strange. You know me, Mama dear, and you trust me. That is sweet of you. Leave this to me and don't ask me any more questions now. I will tell you all one day, if Mr. Sandell lets me, and I'm sure he will. My dear, this is terribly upsetting.

I wonder, no, I won't ask any questions. Of course he does not make love to you. Don't say those words, Mama dear. I do hate them so. No, no, he has not. She honestly believed it. Better women have had similar illusions. Mrs. Wichorley allowed herself to be persuaded on every point.

In her heart, she supposed that there was but some tempsed, temporary obstacle exaggerated by Angela's imagination, and that, although Angela might not think it now, she would yet be happily married to Claudius Sandell. End of Chapter 11. Recording by John Brandon. Chapter 12 of the octave of Claudius. This is a Liebervox recording. All Librevox recordings are in the public domain.

For more information or to volunteer, please visit Libravox.org. Recording by John Brandon The Octave of Claudius by Barry Payne, Chapter 12 Before Claudius left for Gilbridge, on the following morning, he sent a messenger to his old lodgings to recover the manuscript of his novel. The motive of living had come now, and come too late. It was his whim to see if the means of living would not come also now and with a similar irony. The book had been refused, when refusal meant despair.

Possibly it would be accepted when acceptance could bring with it no hope. He sent the manuscript off to another publisher. In the note that accompanied it, he said that, as he was leaving England, an early decision would greatly oblige him. At the same time, he dispatched another messenger with a note to Dr. Gabriel Lamb. It was only after long consideration that he had decided to send it.

The question he wished to ask was, indeed, one which practically had been asked and answered before. Yet there seemed to him just the barest possibility that the doctor might change his mind, and if not, it would be something definitely to know the worst. Besides, it was possible that the doctor's answer might throw some light on the future on what was to come when the octave was over.

In the course of the letter, Claudius wrote, Is there any consideration which would make you rescind our contract? If, for instance, though I cannot imagine anything of the kind could happen, some stroke of luck made it possible for me to repay you twice or three times the sum that you have advanced to me. Would you then, if I asked it, give me back my promise? Or is there any other way? There were several arrangements besides that Claudius had to make before his departure to supplement the resources of a provincial hotel and make things more worthy of Angela.

She had mentioned that she had meant to ride when she had. she was at Gilbridge. If she found she could hire a horse that was suitable, Flores had to make it certain that the horse would be forthcoming and without any necessity for hiring it. Just as he was leaving for Gilbridge, the man who had taken his note to Wimbledon returned with a verbal message that the doctor would send his reply by post that night. At the last moment, Mr. Wichorley decided that the... that he would accompany his wife and daughter down to Gilbridge, see them safely established in their lodgings,

and then return to dine at his club. You don't understand about trains, Jessica, said Mr. Wicharly, and you might let these lodging housepeople be too independent. I'll just come down with you and see that you really get there. So Mr. Wicherly put on a light-tweed suit. He had bought it and paid for it. but it did not look in the least as if it belonged to him, guided his wife and daughter,

safely through the intricacies of Waterloo Station, and finally conducted them to their lodgings at Gilbridge. There he explained to the landlady that a variety of things, which she was sure she had never been asked for before, would be both asked for and insisted upon, Then with a consciousness of duty done, he took Mrs. Wicharly and Angela for a stroll on the heath, previous to his return to the station. Here Claudius chanced to meet them, and he would not hear of Mr. Wicharly going back to the station.

He had been told that Mr. Wichelie was not coming to Gilbridge, but as he had come, he must certainly stop and dine with him. Angela seconded the appeal. Do stop, Papa. There are lots of trains after dinner, and you can't eat your poor little dinner all alone in a solitary club. There was a chance, well, half a chance, of my meeting Bodgers at the club.

I said something about it, and he said something about it, but nothing definite. Mr. Bodgers must dine alone, said Claudius. A telegram to the club in case he goes, there and the thing is settled. You really must not disappoint me. And, added Mr. Wicharly, I've no clothes with me, except what I stand up in. That doesn't matter in the least. I also will dine in this very identical suit, if you like. There's the last excuse shot dead. Oh well, said Mr. Wicherly, with mild geniality. I'm sure I'm not anxious to make excuses. If you'll take

me as I am, I'll come with pleasure. Very kind of you. The pleasure was quite real on Mr. Wichrolley's part. Young people did not, as their rule, make much fuss with the little man, or seem particularly desirous for his society. He felt rather flattered. The hotel proprietor did not feel flattered at all. Claudius had taken some trouble about this dinner. There had been various importations from London, which seemed to the hotel proprietor to cast imputations on the quality and extent of his resources. He ventured respectfully and grand eloquently to remonstrate with Claudius, and he did not obtain a lengthy hearing. Go away and don't bother, said Claudius, I know that what I've done is unusual, but no slight to you is intended by it.

I must have my own way, and I expect to pay you for the privilege. The actual dinner was short and simple, but the wine, the Venetian glass, the linen, the silver, and cutlery, the flowers and fruit, even the oak table on which the dinner was served, had all come from London, and the arrangement of the table had been rested from the hands of the hotel head waiter, and given to an imported superior and professional. person. And this was all done for the entertainment of a mature lady in a teagown that looked like a dressing gown, or it may have been a dressing gown, that looked like a teagown, a young girl in pink, a young man in a tweed suit, and another tweed suit with an older man lurking in its interior.

But then the girl in pink had eyelashes and very pretty ways and was sympathetic. Even the hotel proprietor could see this, and he was stirred to emulation. He himself stood in the kitchen, closely inspecting, wisely directing, even with his own hands, adding last touches, while the dinner was being prepared. He himself decanted a bottle of port that was one. of a remaining three long ago taken out of the wine list and reserved for the most rare and exquisite occasions. The dinner was short and simple, but it was perfect. You know, said Mr. Wicharly mildly. I was once at this hotel before, came over with Mr. Bodgers one Sunday,

but they didn't do me like this. Yet we ordered our dinner carefully, very carefully. "'Bodgers is always careful about that. "'This is miraculous. "'You flatter me,' said Claudius, laughing. "'Hotels won't trouble themselves for mere men, I believe. "'You should have brought your wife and daughter with you.' "'No, no,' cried Angela. "'I protest against that.

"'I'm not going to be taken about the country as a decoy diner, "'even for my own starving father.' It's too sort of a role. Claudius changed the subject. Now, he said, I do take to myself some credit for the view from this window. I think I've arranged that very well.

Will you please look? Through the open window one saw a big yellow moon and a clear night sky. In front, the tops of the dark trees in the garden outside and beyond the dim low hills. Now, that is nice.

said Mrs. Wicharly. You don't think, asked Claudius, that it would have improved the composition of the picture if I had put my moon a little more to the right. Don't be irreverent, Mr. Sandell, said Angela reprovingly. It's too far away Le Lovely, she sighed. I don't think any of us deserve it, except perhaps me.

Ah, well, Mr. Wicherly said, said, views are not a thing that I'm much of a judge of. Now, this port, that is to remind us that we ought to leave them to drink it, Angela, said Mrs. Wicharly. They passed into the next room. Mr. Wicharly settled himself again and filled his glass. This port, he continued, is not the port that they gave my friend and myself when we were here, Mr. Sandus. shouldn't have believed a country hotel had got any of it. I seemed to be particularly lucky, said Claudius.

Mr. Wicharly rolled the wine round in his glass meditatively. Lucky said, I wish there wasn't such a thing. It's the ruin of legitimate business. Claudius led him out on this subject. It was Mr. Wicherley's own subject. and he talked exceedingly well upon it. In a dry and unpretentious way, he gave Claudius glimpses

of the romantic side of commerce. He had stories of the mining market that were worth telling, and he told them. When he paused, Claudius started him afresh, on the subject that he thoroughly understood. Mr. Wichorley became fascinating and interesting.

He was, it appeared, strongly opposed to avoidable gambling. Of course, he said, all business is nowadays more or less of the nature of a gamble, but there is avoidable speculation, and the number of men that go in for it is astounding.

Some make fortunes, more get broken. I won't touch it myself. Mr. Wicharly, it will be observed, did not say that he He never had touched it. A man came to me today, he went on. It was that friend of mine, Bodgers, I spoke to you about.

He wants me to buy some shares that are at present on the rubbish heap. He's seen the last report from the mine, not yet published, and it's very favorable. He knows that a syndicate is just being formed in Paris to deal. with the shares. I'm convinced that his information is as good as it can be, and I can trust him as I can trust myself, but for all that I am not going to touch it. When they had rejoined Mrs. Wicharly and Angela in the next room, Angela told her father that he had been behaving very badly, and she had a great mind to send him to bed at once. "'Dear me,' said Mr. Wicharly,

"'what have I done? "'You have been talking business after dinner, which is wicked of you.' "'No, I didn't listen at all. "'You raised your voice once, "'and I couldn't help hearing the words. "'Three hundred percent. "'I won't have any three hundred percent after business hours.' "'I never have it during business hours,' replied Mr. Wicherly.

"'I confess I've been talking shop.' But it is really Mr. Sandell's fault. When I stopped and apologized, he made me go on again. Oh, oh, how cowardly. But perfectly true, added Claudius, I can't understand this prejudice against talking shop, Miss Witcherly. If a man speaks of something that he really and specially knows and makes it exceedingly interesting,

why should he be stopped with the word shop? Everybody ought, at times, at any rate, to talk his regular shop. Very well, said Angela. If he really has been interesting, he may sit up a little longer. I wonder what my own particular shop is. You professed, Claudia said, to have a special gift for appreciating the moon. I don't know whether there was anything in it. And by the way, Mrs. Wichily remarked, what a pity it is.

We can't see it from this room. So pretty it was. Claudius suggested the hotel garden. The night was fine and warm, and Mrs. Wicharly was sure it would be most pleasant. All four went downstairs and out into the gravel walk. Here Claudius and Angela passed on in front. When they were out of hearing, Mr. Wicharly said,

Don't know when I've enjoyed an evening so much, Jessica. Most pleasant and sensible young man, that. Who is he, by the way? Son of Sir Constantine Sandell, my dear, and a great friend of Lady Veriters. She speaks most highly of him, and money, as you see. Does he want to marry Angela? asked Mr. Witcherly, bluntly. Ah, my dear, that's what you're. where I'm puzzled.

There may be a certain something, though Angela doesn't say there is, but there's something else, rather, in the way at present. I don't know whether you see. I don't, said Mr. Wicharly, laconicly. And I don't know that I do either exactly. Angela was really most mysterious. If the child has a fault, it is that she won't. discuss things enough. She wants me to take no step at all, to leave things to her.

And one day she will tell me, it sounds all wrong and rather shady, said Mr. Wichrly, if he's entangled with some other woman. Oh, I don't think it's that. It generally is that, Jessica. You see, you don't know about things. If it is, He has no business here. For he's obviously here for Angela. Shall I speak to her firmly? Take her away? No, it is not necessary.

But, my dear, you said it was all wrong. I said it sounded all wrong. You were never exact enough in your language, Jessica. As a matter of fact, it's all right, I believe. It sounds as if he were, entangled with another woman and had no business to be after Angela. On the other hand, Lady Veriter, who is devoted to Angela, introduces him. Also, Angela is independent and takes care of herself. Girls have more freedom now than they had when you and I were young. They've got used

to it. Don't lose their heads over it. Also, there may be nothing in it. And as it's a question of a few days only, we'd better not interfere unless something fresh and different happens. How do you see the reasons of things, said Jessica, admiringly? Besides, I'm much inclined to like the young man, and I don't often like anybody on sight. If dining out were always like this, you'd get me to dine out more often. Small dinner, no crowd, no tinned humbug to eat and good wine to drink. That suits me. Mrs. Witcher Lee was switched into her favorite topic at once. I never had a better appetite, she observed. It may be the country air, or it may be the railway jerking being good for the liver, which Maria always said.

But for me, I had a capital dinner. And afterwards, not a touch, not a touch, not. a twinge. You know how it is sometimes. Mrs. Wichorley expatiated with some plainness of speech on how it was sometimes. Her husband listened, or appeared to listen patiently. He was smoking an excellent cigar, and placidity came easily to him. On ahead, Angela and Claudius walked together. They saw the golden moon through gently swaying branches. The summer night was lavish of its poetry. Angela's voice was soft and touched with emotion. She spoke of the most matter-of-fact commonplace things, but her personal glamour made them beautiful to Claudius.

She wondered if she would be able to find anything to ride in Gilbridge. Perhaps the hotel let out horses. Did Claudius know? Claudius said that he himself had a little mare there, had bought her because she was beautiful. beautiful and cheap, though he didn't know what to do with her beyond selling her again. He would be very glad if Angela would try her. On the following afternoon, perhaps they might ride together over to deep water.

Mrs. Wichorley might drive and meet them there. There was a picturesque inn by the river where they could get tea. It was arranged, and it was all commonplace. and yet it brought back to Claudius's mind echoes of a poem that everyone knows and loves. I and my mistress, side by side, shall be together, breathe and ride. So one day more am I deified. And the possible days were few and flying with terrible swiftness. End of chapter 12.

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Chapter 13 After breakfast on Tuesday morning Claudius took the morning papers out into the garden and stretched himself comfortably under the mulberry tree on the lawn to glance through them. He had had a long swim in the river before breakfast, and had eaten a breakfast that would not have discredited a criminal on the morning of his execution. As he lay there in a light flannel suit with his pipe in his mouth, and the times open before him, he fell perfectly placid and contented,

The day was glorious. In a few hours he would see Angela again and be riding by her side. He was so absorbed in feeling that life was good that he could forget that for him it was so brief. He glanced up for the first time in his life over a report of the mining market. He wondered which out of the long list it was that Mr. Witcherly had been told to buy. His eye was attracted by the name Martin House Deep. That might be it or might not. Possibly it was not even in that list at all. He flung the paper down and picked up another.

He opened it casually, and once more the same name caught his eye. Martin House Deep. He noted that the shares were to be bought at 1316th. He recollected at the same time that he knew personally his father, this broker. For a few minutes he lay back and reflected. Then he got up and walked briskly back into the hotel. He wrote a hurried note to the broker, asking him to purchase 4,000 Martin House Deep and giving the name of his banker. He set this off at once by a messenger to town. He had never transacted any business of the kind before. He was not even clear if his note was correct, and the

the commission would be executed, or if he had omitted any necessary formality. By the second post came a letter from Dr. Gabriel Lamb, written in a small, neat hand on thick white paper. It ran as follows. My dear Sandell, how on earth did you get the preposterous notion that I entered into our contract in a commercial spirit, and would be likely to close it for consideration of 100 or more percent. You really do me an injustice. Remember that you were positively reluctant to take the sum that you will fully earn.

I had to satisfy my own conscience, actually, to insist. Should I, if I had been commercially minded, have spent 8,000 pounds on what I might have obtained with equal ease for 800, or merely as a return for such poor hospitality and attention, as I was able to show you, a consideration of no value whatever, except for the pleasure of your company gave us.

It is a pity, of course, that you have met her. You obviously have met her, you know. Under these circumstances, I waited to reply to your letter until I had once more thought the matter over. The notion had occurred to me that you might, perhaps, in the event of that stroke of luck, be able to find and purchase a substitute. I had to decide whether I would accept a substitute. Speaking, quite frankly, any young man of a normal type would, if I could only trust him, suit me just as well as yourself. But I am

afraid that I cannot trust anyone as well as I trust you. mind I have nothing but the word of the other party to the contract. He has but to break his word, and he can go. I have no legal hold. For the matter of that, you have only to break your word. You are not watched. I do not know whether you have left London for Gilbridge in order to be with her or in order to avoid her. I think the former, and hope the latter.

Even if I had you watched, I should have no power to compel you to come to me next Saturday at midnight, and to be mine to do as I please with. It remains with you. If you break your word, you will not come. Otherwise, only the death of one or other of us will end the contract. I need not point out again that murder or suicide would have for you, in addition to the conventional objections, the objection that either act would be dishonorable. But although I can hold out no hope to you, the enthusiasm of my work which requires you

is stronger than myself. I can honestly sympathize with you. You entered into that agreement when you had no motive for living. You have now found the motive. It is possible. that within the few remaining days you may have that motive strengthened. Possible even that you may find yourself in a position to offer me

absurd sums to free you as you suggest. This will make you feel bitter against what the storyteller calls fate, and though unjustly, bitter against me. Believe me, my dear Sandell, the best romance is the briefest. Though I am acting in the interests of my work, and without the least regard to your own private interests, I do you a service in saving you from satiety.

Come away from life, while it is still giving you youth and poetry and romance and possibilities. I myself should have left it long ago, had not my work detained me. It may interest you to hear that the Bay Mayor, whose temper has daily grown more damnable, has killed the coachman, Did not you say that she would kill somebody?

I have never driven her myself. My life is valuable to humanity. The coachman was not a perfect coachman, but his widow has already called twice at the house, apparently with no other motive than to tell me that he would have preferred to live, which I could have conjectured for myself and to have hysterics on the doormat.

We leave England next Sunday, and of course you with us. I've sold the house and preparations for departure are already being made. If you happen to come across any really fine Madeira, would you let me know, or, better still, order twelve dozen to be packed for shipping and sent to me here? I have nearly finished my own wine,

and my wine merchant seems to think that I will buy disease and disappointment at 120 the dozen. This is quite above the card. market quotation for such commodities, as I have explained to him. I would pay double that to get exactly the wine I want. By the way, there is no earthly likelihood of your finding anything of the kind, but I thought I would mention it on the barest of chances, as you have a palate and understand my taste. If my wife were in the room, I'm sure she would join me in sending kind regards. Her health is at present a subject for the gravest anxiety, O pleasure.

Cordially yours, Gabriel Lamb. Claudius read this letter through twice and put it in his pocket. He walked up and down thinking about it. Certain phrases in it haunted him. His suspicions of the doctor came back again, came back with more force and would not be dispelled. He had strange and horrible fears for the future before him. He could not put them from him till he was cantering over the turf with Angela beside him.

Angela was not a very experienced horsewoman, but she was not nervous. A child would have been safe with the mare she was riding, perfectly made and as kind and easy as possible. In the exhilaration of the ride and the presence of Angela, the worst could be easily forgotten. From the heath, their way led through a gate into a grassy, lane with high hedges on either side. As they approached the gate at a walking pace, two youths humorous louts apparently, shut the gate, latched it, and then ran off laughing down the lane. Please wait here a moment, said Claudius to Angela quietly. He wheeled his horse round and then put it at the gate. Over he went and down the lane after those louts. He

returned in a minute, literally driving them before him, with a pleasant smile on his face. men who smile pleasantly when they have lost their temper are mostly dangerous. Possibly the two louts knew this. Their choice lay between going back to the gate, being ridden down, and pulling Claudius off his horse. They decided to go back to the gate. Open it, said Claudius curtly, and hold it open until we're through.

It was only a joke, said one of them rather sheepishly, as he pulled the gate back. So is this, replied Claudius, Don't let it go any further than that. Claudius rode up to Angela, laughing, and returned through the gate with her. His fit of temper had completely vanished. He flung a coin to the youths as they passed. To show them that their civility will pay them better than their humor, he explained.

That was rather pretty, said Angela. And rather silly, I'm afraid, said Claudius. I don't know exactly why, but I feel a little like a circus. writer in consequence. I expected a bad brass band to begin as I came down the lane and was rather disappointed that it didn't. Oh no, Angela answered. You were in a very bad temper. Many a poor child has had its pudding and its pocket money cut off for less. Leave me my pudding, and I will apologize. I've got the nastiest possible temper myself. I can't pretend to believe it, said Claudius. You ask too much. But look, here we are at the inn. Mrs. Wicharly had not yet

arrived. Angela said that she would order tea while Claudius saw that the horses were properly looked after. They met in the garden of the inn, a picturesque garden dotted about with tables and chairs and arbors. Have you ordered a very good tea? Well, said Angela, I've done my best. The place looked so tumbled down and old and out of the world that I had great expectations of it.

I hoped that there would be a surly landlord who would say that he never had been asked for tea and wouldn't give us it. Then I should have persuaded him and bribed him and helped to cut the bread and butter and gradually he would have got to like us. It's not impossible, said Claudius, but the place is different,

spoiled by the patronage of the tripper, ruined by civilization. I gave my orders to a trim little person in a clean London apron with a lot of nasty little hotelways. And there was a tariff, mark you, Mr. Sandell, a horrible fixed tariff, with three kinds of tea on it. Plain tea, tea with eggs, and tea with meat. Tea with meat would be

extravagant and ostentatious. If you have ordered that, I refuse to pay for my share, or to countenance it in any way except by eating it. But I didn't. Neither did I order the plain tea because it sounded dull, and also because I thought it would make the trim persons, think that we were not wealthy. I went in for the golden mean, which takes the form of eggs. And where are we going to have the golden mean? Out here in the garden. I insisted on honey and cream. I prayed the trim person, if only for a few hours, to be as pastoral and unsophisticated as possible. And she said, oh, you'll find us quite punctual. So possibly she hasn't caught the special. spirit of the thing. Possibly not. Why this hunger and thirst after pastorality?

Because I'm in the country, she said impetuously, because all of a sudden I hate horrible, vulgar, complex, social, dirty, striving, mean London life. It has made me so bad, and I want to be better again. Oh, I'm much more in earnest than you think. Really, really I am. It's been coming upon me lately, and quite suddenly I know it. I'm a changed girl. There was a whimsical smile on her face, but her eyes were serious and looking out for sympathy. Yes, tell me all about it. It would be a heavenly thing to confess everything.

You confessed to me a little, didn't you, at our house the other night? I haven't been criminal in spots. No murders or burglaries or things of that kind. I've only been mildly always and altogether wrong. I believe I would have been good if the world and circumstances had not spoiled me. I was very vulgar in one way and very angry with anybody

who was very vulgar in the other way. I didn't know the right value of things. I ran after straws that were worth nothing. I see now that nothing's more vulgar than to think much about vulgarity. and to use the word. This is subtle. S subtle?

Ah, believe me, I'm fairly crying for simplicity. If I could get work as a dairy-made, not the stage dairy-made, but the real thing, I might save my soul alive. As it is, I, she made a movement with her hands to her throat, I'm choked in London. It's all one game of brag, silly, undignified brag.

I've played at it, loathed it, and gone on playing it. Everyone tries for an effect, and most of them miss it, and are laughed at for their failure. And those who get it find that it is not worth getting. One manages and schemes and thus humiliating things to secure. What? Less than the fluff of that seeding dandelion? Is this all quite serious? Yes, if you like.

It is the cynicism of extreme youth and therefore counts for nothing. But it's not assumed at any rate. I'm being very honest this afternoon. With the arrival of Mrs. Wichorley and T, Angela suddenly changed her tone. She was no longer mournful. Her eyes brightened. Her talk was full of the brightest and maddest raillery. But as Claudius and she rode back again,

she as suddenly became very quiet. They had written for some time side by side without a word when Angela raised her head and said, Mr. Sandell, what are you thinking about? I had the presumption to be thinking about you. What are you thinking about me? That you have as many moods as an April day? Do you mind? I would have nothing altered. You enter into all my moods. When I am in good spirits, You are in good spirits, too. How can you do it with the end so near for you? I think I shall ask you to tell me the rest of your story very soon.

I have not forgotten it. There was a pause, and then she added, I am in a sad mood now. Their eyes met, and she read the sympathy that he did not speak. He found himself wishing that the ride might last forever, on and on. in a perpetual quiet summer afternoon. He desired nothing better than the strange exultation that he felt just now.

The ride lasted exactly until half-past six. Angela praised Jenny, the mayor, that she had been riding. She thanked Claudius. You must ride her again if you like her, said Claudius. She's an adorable beauty, and too good for me, perhaps. and thank you again, Mr. Sandell.

Goodbye. Even as he left her, he knew that he was to see her again that night. He felt sure of it. After dinner, he strolled out onto the heath. It was growing dark, and the twilight was cool and fascinating. He was not surprised to see her standing silhouated against the sky, a slender gray figure. Nor did she seem surprised.

as she turned and saw him. Are you not afraid to be out alone? No, no, thank you. When we are in the country, I often do this. Mama writes one letter and then goes to bed early, and I, if I'm restless, walk on till I'm tired. See, I have my own key. Would you rather be by yourself, Ms. Wichorley,

or may I, if you would walk with me and tell me the rest of, now the rest of the story, he began at once. He told the story as briefly as possible, wasting no word on apologies for telling it. He told how an outcast from his own home, a failure in the work he had attempted with no tie to life and no motive for living, worn out by privations and disappointment. He had been found by Dr. Gabriel Lamb. He dwelt at length on the kindness of the doctor and his wife and tried to indicate the character of the man. He described how the agreement came to be made and told the precise terms of it. Thank you for telling me, she said quietly, when he had finished. It's worse than I had feared. If there's no other way, can he not be bought?

I thought of that only yesterday I wrote and asked him. Early this morning I ventured on a mining speculation. Your father had spoken of such things the night before. I do not care in the least for gambling of any kind. It doesn't amuse me. I know nothing whatever of the shares I have bought, except their name and present price. I somehow felt sure it was a silly presentiment,

but a strong one, that I was right and that I should make a profit large enough to buy my release. I had hardly sent off the order to the broker before the second post came in. The doctor refuses

to cancel the agreement for any money consideration whatever. I believe that he really does not care for money in the least or for anything very much except his work. Is the name of the mine,

Martin House Deep? Yes. Why? How do you know? Because as we were coming here yesterday, Papa asked me jokingly, if I should like him to make a fortune, he said he could make one in less than a week by buying Martin House Deep, but that he wouldn't do it because it was outside his legitimate business. As you were speaking, the name flashed into my memory again. Wait, there's another thing I want to ask you, will you let me see the manuscript of your novel? I would, but I've sent it off to another publisher. Why? Why she exclaimed impatiently, did you not do that before the agreement? The book had been refused twice, and I was quite hopeless about it. But if I had known the agreement was coming, I think I should have tried again first. I did not know. It came suddenly.

Time was apparently of great importance to the doctor, and he would not have waited for the publisher's decision. Then I was under great obligations to him. He had saved my life, clothed me, fed me, treated me with the most delicate kindness and perfect trust. By accepting, I repaid him. If I refused, I saw nothing before me. It is too soon to say yet, but if it is, too soon to say yet, but if I, if I was a repaid him, I repaid him, if I refused, I saw nothing, I

everything came now, now in these few days, now when it's too late, that would be terrible. Do not be angry with me, Mr. Sandel, for what I'm going to say. You tell me that the doctor has no legal hold on you. I think he has no moral hold, that he is not acting in good faith. Have you thought of the possibility of breaking your word? I am not angry with you, said Claudius, with a dreary smile. I'm no better than other men, and I've thought of it. If I did it,

I dare say for a few days, I should feel nothing but relief, freedom, pleasure. The other thing would come, though. I should feel that I had broken my promise, betrayed a man who trusted me. I should feel that I had done it through cowardice. It would not be possible to live like that.

Perhaps it would be easier to break my word if he had a legal hold upon me, if I ran the least risk in breaking it, if it were not mere cowardice. Yes, yes, I see, said Angela, I had not guessed what the story would be, and very often when I had been laughing and generally silly, you must have hated it and thought me unsympathetic. You know, when you were at your house, I gave you my sympathy, and I meant it. Only I did not know that it was quite so horrible, or quite so hopeless then, or so sometimes, ah, do not alter. Let me be happy for the little time that is left.

Angela laughed, a little mirthless laugh. I feel, she said, as if I had been playing the fool at a funeral. No, no, if you must reproach anyone, reproach me for having done a reckless and suicidal thing, and for having distressed you by telling you about it. I've told no one else. I wanted you to tell me about it. I would not have that different. Will you please let me go home alone, Mr. Sandell? Now, please. Good night. Her small cold hand touched his a moment, and she had turned and gone. As he stood still watching her as she walked away, he heard through the still night a faint sound and knew that she was sobbing.

He went back to the hotel, cursing himself for all he told her, cursing that excellent Lady Veriter, for her well-meant advice that had led him to do it. He spent a wretched and sleepless night. In the letter which Mrs. Wichorley wrote to her husband, she said, Angela has gone for one of her favorite evening strolls. Just after dinner, but the young never think of these things. A good daughter, she always was. But really, she improves.

Never corrects me now if I do or say anything that isn't quite as it should be, less strict she seems to be and fonder. We have much to be thankful for. Not one touch or one twinge since I've been here. Country air and plain food account for it. The cooking is good here with the exception of the gravies, no richness or strengthen them. But I've not spoken about it yet. End of Chapter 13, recording by John Brandon. Chapter 14 of the octave of Claudius. This is a Libravox recording. All Libravox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit Libravox.org. Recording by John Brandon

The Octave of Claudius by Barry Payne, Chapter 14. Wednesday morning brought two letters for Claudius. One of them was merely the contract note for 4,000 Martin House Debt. Purchased at 1316th. In the report in the morning paper, Plawius read, the chief feature in the mining market was the demand for Martin House Deep on Paris buying. After quickly springing to two and five-eighth, there was a slight relapse, owing to profit-taking. This, however, was nearly recovered in the street, the last price reaching two and a half. Plotius had thought of wiring to Mr. Wicharly to ask whether he should sell or hold, then he decided for himself to hold

and leave it to luck. Whether he won or lost could not matter to him now. His other letter was a friendly and informal note from the senior partner in the publishing firm to which he had sent his novel. It is not a common thing, wrote Mr. Aragon, for a novel to be sent us on Monday. and accepted on Tuesday. That, however, is the case with your book. On Monday afternoon, I happened to want something to read in the carriage as I drove home from business

and picked up the first few pages of your novel. There were several manuscripts on the table waiting to be sent off to my reader. It is seldom that I read anything myself, and it was the merest chance. that I picked up part of your book rather than one of the others. Well, I read these few pages on my way home, and as soon as I got there,

I sent the carriage back again for the rest of it. I finished it after dinner. That was quite enough to decide me. If the book took hold of me like that, and I'm fairly hardened, it is certain to interest others. We shall be very glad, to publish it. The terms offered were fair and business-like, neither unjust nor wildly generous.

Claudius wrote to thank Mr. Aragon and accept them. That also could not matter to him now, save that it added to the irony and bitterness of the fate that held and mocked him. He sent round a note to Mrs. Wichorley, offering her his carriage. Jeannie, too, was at Miss Wichorley's disposal if she preferred to ride. He waited impatiently for the reply. He picked up a book and tried to read, then found that he was turning the pages mechanically without being in the least conscious of what he was reading.

He flung the book down and went out into the road pacing up and down impatiently. It seemed as if the messenger would never come. He came in sight at last, sauntering leisurely along until he saw Claudius. The note that he brought was from Mrs. Wicharly. It was brief. It thanked Mr. Sandell very much for his kindness, but neither she nor her daughter would ride or drive that day. It gave no reason and suggested no meeting.

Claudius had once read into that letter more than poor Mrs. Wicharly had ever intended to put there. It vexed him with a certainty that there was something behind, and an uncertainty what that something was. It seemed cold. Was Angela ill? Mrs. Wicherly distrustful. What could it be? To remain still. was impossible. He had his horse brought round and started out. He rode past the house where Mrs.

Wichorley and Angela were lodging. He had some faint hope that they might come out or in as he passed, that if only for a moment he might speak to Angela. He saw nothing of them. He noticed, though, that the blinds were drawn in the upstairs rooms. Again the fear came to him that Angela might be ill. His mind was a torture chamber, anxiety for her, self-reproach, impotent rage at his fate, burning in stifled passion goaded and maddened him. The octave was drawn near to its end, and the hours were flying, wasted away, wasted without Angela. He turned onto the heath and rode as a man rides, who would fain get away from himself, from his own thoughts.

It was three o'clock when he returned. He had come back by the same way he went. Once more he had failed to see Angela. Once more, he had noted the drawn blinds. At four o'clock, he could endure it no longer. He had decided to call at the house, expecting only to be refused admission. But Mrs. Wicharly was at home.

She was in the garden. If he would walk through the house, he would find her there. He found her seated in the shade, in an easy chair propped up with cushions that she took with her when she went away from home. She looked benevolent. She was reading a shilling paper-covered book that she had purchased at the station bookstall,

dainty dishes, how to cook and how to serve them. It might give me some ideas. she had said to Angela. She laid aside the book, with the title downwards, as she saw Claudius. Now this is very kind of you, said Mrs. Wicharly, not to have got tired of us. Claudius looked for satire in her voice, her expression,

and found none. It was so good of you to send round this morning, too, Mrs. Wicherley continued. But Angela seemed so tired. No, not ill, merely. tired. I thought a quiet day would be the best thing for her. They're bringing you a chair, aren't they? Yes, I see. That's right. Oh, Angela, yes, I was speaking about her. A short walk. That really has been all we have done. In this heat, you see, everything is so, so hot. And that

induces lassitude. Angela, in fact, is lying down upstairs now. I insisted upon it. I ought to have proposed the river this morning. It would have been cool there. For Angela, yes, for me, I'm afraid it would not do. I suppose I am a curiously constructed person, but the rocking of the boat sadly interferes with, with my being perfectly well. As my doctor once said to me,

putting it as I thought very neatly, You have not, he said, got a delicate constitution. But you have got a sensitive constitution. Angela is not a sufferer at all. She adores the river. Now, to my mind, there's nothing pleasanter than to be driven through beautiful green country in a comfortable carriage.

That drive to deep water and back really did me good. You must try it again. Claudia spoke at intervals, as her babble demanded it of his civility, all the time he was looking towards the house. And Angela came at last, contemporaneously with the tea-things. She steps slowly through the French windows, and down the lawn towards him. She walked gracefully, her head thrown back.

She was pale and dark under the eyes. Her expression was one of patience, new to her wonderfully appealing. She shook hands hurriedly with Claudius, and busied herself with the teacups. I'm sorry to hear that I tired you out, yesterday, Miss Wicharly, said Claudius. She smiled and shook her head. I wasn't tired, and you didn't do it if I was. And besides, I got over it, modeled on the housemaid's excuse for the broken vase. She seemed afraid to meet his eyes. In her manner, she was strangely shy. And I had meant to tire you out again tomorrow, he said. I thought the river. Ah, the river,

I love it, but Mama, Mrs. Wicharly, would not hear of that objection. We might arrange something, she said. She had just been reading in that yellow-covered book a descriptive passage entitled, The Picnic Pie. A picnic was in her mind. Her imagination built up a lovely entertainment with the pie as its chief cornerstone and seated her on emerald moss under an azure sky. Angela refused the suggestion of a picnic. Unless you leave the picnic part out, she added,

I don't mind the sward so much, but I dislike the sandwiches. Then there's bother and discomfort, and one always tears one stress, she sighed. Give me peace at a public house, she said earnestly. Claudius laughed. Mrs. Wicharly said that Angela was really too shocking. But the idea is excellent, Mrs. Wicherley.

We go by the river to the in at deep water. You go in the carriage and meet us there. Then luncheon, peace, and a public house. That was settled. Soon after Claudius left, with some at least of his troubles over, Mrs. Wichelie and Angela were not angry with him for anything. Angela was not ill. He would be alone with her on the morrow.

All that was good, but each time that he saw Anne, Angela made it harder to part with her and harder to love in silence. That night, Mrs. Lamb dined downstairs with her husband. She said that she felt better and she looked better. Though the extreme pallor of her face was still noticeable, her eyes were restless and unsteady and she was very talkative. Throughout dinner he took his own part in the conversation, genially enough, admired her dress, told her a good story or two, and answered readily her questions as to their departure from England.

As dinner progressed, she seemed to grow rather more excited, and as soon as the servants had gone, she turned abruptly to the doctor and said, I want to be forgiven, Gabriel. He looked critically at her and did not answer. She avoided his gaze and rambled on, speaking vaguely at times, almost incoherently. She wanted to be forgiven. She had saved him from himself or believed she had, and he knew nothing about it. She said that she had felt that she had to tell the truth now, and that she was compelled to say that she hated him, but she had saved him from himself all the same. She knew he was clever, but it was better to be good, and she was trying to be good again.

trust her. Dr. Lamb gave a long, slow yawn. This, he said, is becoming tiresome, Hilda. However, as you insist, I will go through it all once, quite plainly, and get it over. You should not try to be mysterious with me, for you are not good at mystery. You have said more than once that you want me to forgive you. You do not tell me why. I cannot. I can tell you, though. No, no, she cried, I will not hear it. You will understand your position and mine better if you hear it. You want me to forgive you for your desire to be a much worse woman than you will ever have the chance to be. Claudius Sandel. She rose, gasping, looking round her with agonized eyes. She took two or three steps to the window. A heavy curtain was drawn over it. She stood there, with her back to the doctor, holding onto the curtains with both hands, her white face pressed against its folds. Claudius Sandell does not and never will love you.

You are saved from being bad by being, pardon me, insufficiently attractive. Even if he cared for you, it would make no difference because he is an honorable man, and also, but I need not go into that. Your own position is therefore contemptible, and my position is perfectly secure. His position, by the way, is unfortunate. I had a letter from him the other day, from which I understand that there is another woman, hopeless, of course, as I have not quite finished. I would suggest that you should sit down, standing will tire you.

She sat down, covering her face with her hands. I pass to the next point. You say that you've saved me from myself. A pulpit phrase, I should imagine. Strange that though you have suddenly passed from a somewhat crude religion to a somewhat crude atheism, you still use the phrases of the religion. If you mean that you have written to Sir Constantine Sandel,

I'm perfectly well aware of it, could have easily stopped. but did not care enough about it. Your letter may bring about a reconciliation between father and son, but that will not prevent Claudius Sandel from keeping his word and returning here, and it will not alter my subsequent treatment of him.

Your guess as to what that will be is, roughly speaking, correct. It will turn Miss Matilda Combie a fraud, but your sister out of a very comfortable birth and makes your Constantine miserable. Nothing more than that. Lastly, you say that you hate me. I pass over the impropriety of it. I merely ask you to consider the possibility that the fact, if it is a fact,

though apparently of great interest to you, may not be of the least interest to me. Have I made myself clear? She nodded her head. Then we need not refer to these. matters again. That will be in every way better. I am exceedingly sorry to use language to you which is positively rude and excitement is very bad for you. After tonight, there need be no occasion for either. As to your future conduct, I should prefer that you did not tell me I was clever, and also that you did not treat me as if I were a fool. That is to say, do not plot, be mysterious,

or undertake the guidance of my actions, especially where my work is concerned. Always speak to me as if they were a servant in the room. Great though my contempt is for every individual, including myself, I find that my tastes can be best disregarded when they are entirely satisfied, and my tastes are not in favor of Clapham Villa squabbles with you. I cling, positively cling, to the conventionalities of decent life. There are many men in my place who would have killed you or tried to divorce you. I myself gave you a certain remedial punishment that you have not forgotten.

But violence and scandals, though violence was necessary in that instance, offend my love of conventionality. I only ask to live until your day comes as almost every man of the world lives, on perfectly friendly and civil terms with a woman in whom he has ceased to be interested. You understand? Is there anything you would like to ask? Hilda Lamb slowly raised her head. Her fit of excitement and volubility had passed.

She looked beaten and suffering. There was blood on her lower lip where she had bitten it. Oh, God! she wailed. If I could only die tonight! Once more she rose and paced up and down the room. Then she stopped and said, "'Am I free to do what I like? To write letters if I like?

Are you having me watched?' "'How could you suspect me of such abominable vulgarity? Of course you're free, and of course you're not watched. By all means, write your letter to Scotland Yard to say that your husband intends to murder Claudius Sandel and has told you so, and will Scotland Yard please come and stop it? If you succeed in making your stories sufficiently probable to induce the police to investigate it,

which I do not for one moment think, the police will discover that I am about to employ an amanuensis, a Mr. Sandel, as my poor afflicted wife is no longer able to. to help me. Yes, she said drearily. I believe that I'm going mad. Sometimes I'm mad already. I could do nothing. But I was right then, and it will be murder. My dear child, said the doctor, we do not use these coarse, crude, inappropriate terms. That word mad, for instance. Consider, rather, that you are in a state of unstable equilibrium.

I apply a certain force. Notice to the saucer of my coffee cup. It moves slightly, but returns to its original position. Its equilibrium is stable. The same force or stress applied to this wine glass would knock it over and break it. Its equilibrium is unstable. You must guard against stress. against excitement, avoid violent emotion of any kind. There is no occasion to think or speak of madness.

As for the other word, equally melodramatic, murder, it is out of place, supposing that an experiment ends in death. In this case, death merely means the conclusion of a commercial transaction. I might also point out that the loss of life to one individual is nothing, as compared with the gain to the race. But I know that you do not take these broad views. Say to yourself that Claudius Sandell has, for a consideration, agreed to help me verify much, which at present is merely theory, and that you hope all will be satisfactory. Be optimistic, be euphemistic, and you may yet be happy.

Mrs. Lamb half-closed her eyes. Gabriel, she said, did he, did Mr. Sandel know about me, about the tacit but unfortunate compliment you paid him? He did not. And I should not tell him. Can you tell me the name of the other woman? I do not know it.

But in any case, he must. leave her on Saturday. And he will not see her again. She does not concern any of us. Gabriel, one cannot help thoughts and feeling. One can only try to check them, and at first, when I could pray I did. He made a little impatient gesture. She went on.

I have not said or done anything wrong. The rest I could not help. and perhaps if you had gone on loving me, or if my baby had not died, it would not have happened. But you are my husband, and you pay everything for me. So it was wicked. And so I asked you to forgive me. And now I want to ask you a favor. Well, she asked very slowly,

Let Mr. Sandel go and use me instead. I can bear things, and I would not let anyone suspect, and I should be glad to die. Do you think it probable, the doctor asked, that I should allow you the exquisite pleasure of dying for him? Surely it is not to me that you should offer evidence of such devotion, but in no case could I have thought of it, as you are not suitable, not what I want. Is there anything else that you want to ask? No. He gave a deep sigh of relief.

That is capital. We have been through it all and got it over. It is half-past nine, and you should get as much sleep as possible. Mrs. Lamb rose obediently. And after this, no more scenes. We meet tomorrow, on ordinary terms, the most ordinary possible, perfectly ordinary. Good night, Hilda. He opened the door for her, and she passed out.

He sat down again, lit a cigar, and smiling. He sat there smoking. He made two observations. The first was typical. That connection between religion, self-sacrifice, and the sexual instinct. The second was, wonder why I told her to avoid excitement and not think about her mental state. Professional habit, I suppose.

End of Chapter 14, recording by John Brandon. Chapter 15 of the octave of Claudius. This is a Libravox recording. All Libravox recordings are in the public domain. For more information, or to volunteer, please visit Libravox.org. Recording by John Brandon, the octave of Claudius by Barry Payne, Chapter 15. Mrs. Witcherly supposed that it is. it must have been in consequence of her sitting out in the garden.

She did not see how it could have been that. But at the same time, if it was not that, what else could it have been? Anyway, there it was, a slight chill. Not so much a cold, she explained, as the beginning of a cold. Deal with these things promptly, she said to Claudius, and you get them over in a day. Keep indoors, and in one room as much as possible. Spirits of camphor, light diet, and a little champagne in the evening.

That is my rule. And I do not know what it is to have a cold last more than one day. You nip it in the bud before it really gets hold of the system. Claudius was properly sympathetic. Mrs. Wichorley must not, of course, dream of going out. The visit to deep water could easily be postponed. until the morrow. But the good-natured lady would not hear of this. Why, she said, should three people sit indoors for one cold, or rather the beginning of a cold, on a glorious morning like

this? If you don't mind conducting Angela alone and unchaperoned, I am sure you would take good care of her, and for that matter I think she is quite capable of taking care of herself. I told her I should insist, and she's putting her hat on now. But won't you be wretchedly dull all alone? My dear Mr. Sandell, if I thought that I was spoiling everybody's pleasure, then I should indeed be dull. But I assure you, I have much to occupy me. I'm working for a bazaar.

I don't know if you ever... At this moment Angela entered. She wore white muslin. And it was quite a new dress. Mama won't let me nurse her, she said, and has turned me out of doors. I'm going back to live with Papa. Mrs. Wicharly smiled, protested, fluttered, fussed. There were a few moments of amiable and aimless small talk,

and as much opposition to Mrs. Wicharly's plan as civility demanded, and then Claudius and Angela started out. "'This is your own boat,' said Angela, as she stepped into the stern of it and took the lines. "'Yes, it's mine. Why did you think so?' "'I thought it looked too new for a hired boat, and the cushions are too good, and it's got several little treats in it, that one does not get in a hired boat. They spoke further of the difficulty of steering with the sun blazing on the water, of dragonflies, and of certain popular beliefs as to the bad temper and physical

strength of swans. And of all these, they spoke with that appearance of great interest that one always shows when one is being more interested in something of which one is not speaking. After a while, they came to a backwater and went down it. Here they were quite alone. The dragonflies flashed across the river over the floating water-lily leaves. The midges and fevered shoals danced out their day. From the high white road in the distance where a man was driving cattle and having trouble with them came the faint echo of an angry shout. In a shady place, with trees meeting over the water, Claudius drew the boat into the bank, and Angela nestling more comfortably into the silken cushions thanked him for having found so lovely a spot. They had both

known through all their impersonal talk that the personal question was for them the inevitable question, that on that day sooner or later, in one way or another, it would arise. I've been thinking a good deal, said Angela suddenly, looking away from Claudius and over the water. I was afraid so, said Claudius. I was wrong, but I know it now. and I'm very sorry for it. In what way wrong?

I do not understand. For telling you, even though you asked it, all that I told you on Tuesday night, I knew that you were sensitive, tender-hearted, that the story must hurt you. I knew that by telling you, I was not materially benefited. The only thing that can be said for me is,

he paused. Yes? said Angela, in a low voice. Why should I not say it? I could not endure to be in a false position with you. A slight flush came and died in her cheeks. And besides, he continued, I felt I think it was the first time in my life that I needed sympathy.

Why should tender-hearted people be cowards, said Angela. In order to give sympathy, one must first feel pain. But in giving it, there is pleasure. The greater that pain, the greater that pleasure. No, you must not reproach yourself. I should be glad if you would tell me more, if there is any more. We shall soon be at the end of that story. Last night I laid awake an hour and seemed to hear all the clocks in the world,

ticking out the minutes left to me. There is little that is new since I spoke to you that night on the heath, and what is new is very prosaic. A publisher has accepted my novel. Before I came to you this morning, telegrams passed between my broker and myself. I have sold my Martin House deep. They were up again yesterday at a profit of twelve thousand pounds. I could repay Dr. Lamb twofold, if there were the remotest chance that money would tempt him. Your book accepted? Remembered, Angela? And fortune come to you, and all too late? If that were all, said Claudius passionately, if that were only all. Isn't it, she said? You know that it is not. You must know what I have no right to tell you, except it be the right of a dying man.

It is the love which comes too late. It is that which hurts. Angela, I love you. I who have no right to say it, I love you. I think I knew, she said, she spoke with quiet serenity, but her bosom rose and fell more deeply and quivered. quickly. Her pathetic eyes look fixed away from him. And it all goes on, she said after a moment's silence, the shadow of the clouds drifting over the water and little bits of things floating downstream. And that thrush there, singing, just the same. And in a few hours you will have gone away, and I shall not hear you speaking to me any more, and just then she broke down something. suddenly she covered her face with her hands. I can't bear it, Claudius, she sobbed.

I can't bear it. Forgive me, dear Angela. She let her hands drop, looked at him with tears in her eyes, and spoke, catching her breath here and there. But no, if you had not spoken, that would have been harder. Now there's happiness coming through it all.

He was as one dazed. It's so hard to believe, he said. Do you mean that you care, that you love me? Yes, oh yes. She said it almost proudly, with her sad eyes still looking full into his. Though I died tonight, he said, I shall have seen paradise.

Do you remember saying that? Yes, I remember. That was the first evening I met you and loved you. Oh, Claudius. All my life through, I must have been looking for you. Only two days more. I too. I seem to hear all the clocks in the world ticking out the minutes.

Have you no hope at all, dearest? He smiled. I have but to break my word, and I am free. She shook her head. You know, she said, I could not ask that. Is there no other hope? So little. he said drearily, that I had no right.

Don't, she broke it impetuously. Don't say that anymore. You must not reproach yourself. You have done right in telling me. I feel it, know it. It cannot go on to the conventional end, but it's good that you have loved me, even this very little while.

Away in the distance, a church clock chimed out the hour. Then near at hand they heard the regular turn of oars in the rollocks. Another boat was approaching. Voices and laughter grew gradually more distinct. Claudius pushed out from the bank. They were not far now from the inn at deep water, and he rode towards it in silence. Angela lay back on the cushions, watching him. Beyond the Garden of the Inn, with its sly, commonplace, sentimental arbores, was an old orchard. They had their coffee brought here after luncheon. Angela sat playing with her coffee cup.

Claudius, lying on the grass at her feet, looked up in her eyes and praised her. Their talk was enraptured, full of those endearing words and phrases that lovers use. and the rest of the world derides. After a while, they spoke of the past, each wanting to know what the other's life had been like. Full of the smallest things, said Angela, until, until this, until I loved you, said Claudius,

my life was worthless, not worth with Dr. Lamb gave me for it, not worth anything. They praised love. love was the light in life the stars in the night the scent in the flowers the soul in the music all the truisms come out new when one is living the truth of them to the dying man tempest fugit is no commonplace as they rose at last to go homewards claudius took her by the hands and drew her towards him she half whispered something He could not hear the words. I love you, he cried.

If you knew how I loved you, I love you, her gentle voice came like an echo. He held her closely in his arms now. Her head fell backward. Her eyes fainted. Her breathing quickened. He kissed her beautiful mouth. Together, in silence, they passed back through the orchard. Through the garden, to the inn.

and the river. In the boat, too, for some time, they sat in silence. If, said Claudius at last, by some means, by some means that I cannot foresee now, I can get back my liberty, I shall come back to you, I am bound to you, but you must not think yourself bound to me. You are free. She held her little hands together like a chained captive. I shall never be free again, she said. I would not be. Will you come to me tonight on the heath? said Claudius. I will be by the white beaches, you remember,

where I found you that night when I told you my story, and wait for me there. The time is so short, and I must see you again before the day is over. Yes, she said, I will come to you, Claudius. Once that afternoon, Angela had said, said, I do not think we need tell anyone about this. No one else could understand. Lovers love secrecy, and Claudius would fain have given in to her wishes, but he felt he had no right in this matter.

I am afraid, he said, that you must tell your mother our secret, but not of course Dr. Lambs. Perhaps no one could have understood, certainly when Angela tried to do as Claudius had said, for Mrs. Wicharly was mystified extremely. She sympathized. She said that she could have wished for nothing better than an engagement between her daughter and Claudius Sandel, who was a kind and honorable gentleman,

if Mrs. Wicharly had ever seen one. But was this an engagement? If not, what was it? Oh, couldn't Angela explain a little more? Angela on the verge of tears could not. Mrs. Wicharly thereupon roamed into a wild field of hypothetical explanations on her own account. Some of them sounded likely. Some were very wild, and all were quite wrong.

Then she became expostulatory. Until this obstacle, whatever it was was removed, Angela ought really not to see Mr. Sandell. Well, as you have promised, I shall let you go tonight just for five minutes, or shall we say four? Well, five then. But after that, no more. No more at all until he is free to go on as he ought to go on.

But Mother, Angela pleaded, you've told me that you like him and trust him. If I do not see him again after tonight, perhaps I shall never see him again at all, never as long as I live. You can't understand. The difficulty is not any of the things you think, not anything he can escape or alter. If not tomorrow, let me see him on Saturday before he goes. It will only be like saying good-bye to a dying man. Oh, I will be good and do what you tell me, but I am so unhappy, and hear Angela, not ineffectively,

though the poor child was not acting, burst into tears. Mrs. Wichelie was sure that she was more distressed than she could express. She blamed herself that it had ever come to this, and how she asked was she to know what to say. say, but she only wanted to act in the way that was best for Angela. What she said at last was that they would be back in London on Saturday, that Claudius might call on them in her assistant square on Saturday evening, and Angela should be allowed to see him alone then.

When they met on the heath that night, Angela told her sorrows breathlessly and asked what was to be done. I had meant to ask you that, he replied. See, can you read this? I found it waiting for me when I got back this afternoon. It is from Lady Veriter. By the light of the wax match that Claudius held in his hand, Angela read the telegram.

Your father wires me nothing wrong with him, but he would like to see you at once. Do please go to him. I'm sure it would be best. What does it mean, said Angela? the telegram says that he is not ill. It may mean reconciliation, said Claudius thoughtfully, or it may mean that the spirits have advised Matilda Combe

to send for me. It may mean anything. Claudius, I think you must go to him. Yes, I think so too now. If I cannot be seeing you, I will go there, indeed, if it does mean reconciliation. I shall be glad to go. I should love to be on good terms with him again before the end. But Angela, to think that we have only two days left,

and we are to lose almost the whole of them. Dear love, as best they could they comforted each other, yet parted with heavy hearts. End of Chapter 15. Recording by John Brandon. Chapter 16 of the Octave of Claudius. Libravox recording. All Libravox recordings are in the public domain.

For more information or to volunteer, please visit Libravox.org. Recording by John Brandon. The Octave of Claudius by Barry Payne, Chapter 16. That night, immediately after leaving Angela, Claudius took the train from Gilbridge to London and then went on by the Nightmail North. It was a hideous journey. The man was in a fever and could not sleep.

In following the witcherlies to Gilbridge, he had acted as those weak fools act who shut their eyes and deceived themselves. It was a bitter reproach to one who had in him the makings of a strong man. He had before him horribly and vividly the certainty that he would lose his life, and that life, since now he knew that life meant love,

was immeasurably valuable. And above reproaches and above horror came the exultation of mutual love. Angela's words seemed to speak themselves again to him. The dawn, coming pale through the carriage windows, seemed to him symbolical of her far-awayness. His life had been like a gray day, working and commonplace,

and its sunset was like the gate of heaven, and the night was inevitable. It was little wonder that he could not sleep. A servant in livery was on the platform when he arrived, in a slow, local train from the junction, and the carriage was waiting for him, although it had been too late for him to telegraph that he was coming. It was a wearisome drive to Sir Constantine's place.

In the hall he found a servant whom he remembered, the old butler. Yes, sir. Sir Constantine is in very good health, sir. He'd expected you'd come by this train. Well, this is a pleasure, if I may say so. sir. Claudius chatted with the old man for a minute or so. They had always been friends, and it is pleasant to be welcomed.

Well, now, Gunning, he said. What's the news here? How's Miss Cumbie? Gunning dropped his voice. Gone, sir, went Wednesday night. After telegrams had been coming and going, March in orders I fancy. and if I might take the liberty, we're all of us, well, we can live through the loss of her.

We're to fire too last night while you were in the train. But that you'll hear about, sir, but it's not for me to speak. Breakfast will be ready directly. But if you'd like to have your bath first, Claudius had his bath and made his way into the dining room. Gunning brought a message that Sir Constantine would, would be down directly, and Claudius was not to wait. Claudius was in love, but he was also physiologically hungry. He had scarcely begun breakfast when the door opened,

and Sir Constantine, noticeably well-dressed with a newspaper in his hand, sauntered into the room. Sir Constantine had the face of a dreamer, poetic eyes, and rather a weak chin. He had an erratic sense of humor. His forehead was developed in a way that showed he was not such a fool as his chin would have had you believe. He shook hands with Claudius, calmly and quietly, as if they had parted the night before. Sir Constantine had an admirable talent for ignoring anything which he wished to ignore, and it was very soon apparent that he intended to use it.

While you were asleep in the train, Claudius, he said. We were having a little excitement here, a fire. That's why I'm late this morning. Nothing serious, I hope, sir, said Claudius. He had been brought up to address his father in this old-fashioned way. Just a cottage burned to the ground and not insured. I dare say it won't ruin us, but still it's a loss, of course. But your private wire to the fire station in the town.

To some reason or other, it wouldn't act. That's a pity. Who had the cottage? No one at the time. Up till the night before it had been occupied by a woman called Cumbie. You know nothing about her. She did not arrive here until sometime after you had left for your work. Claudius opened his eyes.

wider. Sir Constantine quietly repeated this pleasant fiction. Claudius smiled and accepted it. The past was to be ignored, or rather, it was to be altered, to suit the taste of Sir Constantine. He gave a little more information about Miss Cumbie. He had thought her a deserving woman who had seen trouble with some knowledge of philosophy, and which, as you know, my boy, have always taken an interest. He was willing to own that he had been deceived. An anonymous letter had arrived. He had telegraphed and had received telegrams.

It was a shocking, a most deplorable and shocking case. He utterly and altogether declined to go into it, but he might say that the anonymous letter had stated the actual facts. and, in consequence, the woman had gone. He dwelt with an ill-concealed satisfaction on the fact that in the fire at the cottage, the whole of the furniture assigned to Miss Cumbie's use and even the books, which Sir Constantine had lent her,

were completely destroyed. He spoke of a poacher, seen lurking about the grounds, but Claudius had little doubt who the incendiary was. After breakfast, Sir Constantine took Claudius round the stables. A pony, he mentioned, had been stolen by gypsies. Then they wandered out into the paddock. At the end of the paddock was a disused slate quarry, deeply excavated and fenced off some distance from its edge.

Sir Constantine climbed over the fence, and Claudius followed. Under a tree, Claudius saw a neat little governess cart with a set of plated harness, the cushions, a rug, and a little clock lying in it. What is that doing here, sir? Claudius asked with some surprise. Sir Constantine chose to misunderstand the question. What is that? Oh, that's the cart that Miss Cumbie used to drive. He picked up the shafts.

Neat little thing, isn't it? Run so lightly. He pushed it from him. There was a loud crash from a projecting jagged ledge and a splash in the deep water in the pit below. The cart had gone over. Good heavens, Claudia exclaimed. Careless of me, said Sir King.

Constantine, really very careless, he fumbled for his cigarette papers. We'd better send a man to see after it, said Claudius. Not worthwhile. They retraced their steps to the house. The fire, the theft of the pony, the accident to the cart, were all perfectly obvious. Sir Constantine would not allow one trace of Miss Combe to remain. By the way, said Sir Constantine, as he said Sir Constantine as, As that woman displeased me, it might be as well if her name were not mentioned. In fact, I utterly an altogether decline to have her name mentioned in my presence. Very well, sir.

And now, what about yourself? You will be here sometimes, I hope. Then came rather a difficult part for Claudius. There was so little about himself that he could tell. It was unfortunate, but he would have to return to London almost at once. He was leaving England on Sunday. You will not be away for long. I do not really know exactly.

It does not depend entirely on me. Yes, your work, said Sir Constantine vaguely. A man ought to be able to support himself by his work. Even if it is not necessary, it increases his self-respect. I'm glad to see you a capable man. I reverence capacity. You used to have, I remember a tendency towards a writing. I've written a novel, said Claudius.

It has been accepted and will be published, and that will be the end of it. Let us hope not. From what I know of your abilities, speaking frankly, I do not think your novel will be either good enough or bad enough for a complete failure. but a novel. I could have wished it had been a philosophical work. I have not the knowledge, nor I, nor I. But I'm taking a great interest in it. I've gone

back to my Greek. Aristotle is very difficult, so is Plato. I employ the classical master, the grammar school here, three evenings in a week. I also use translations. That is, I have arranged for the classical master and the translations. I only began on Wednesday, but yesterday, though I had other things to think about, I gave some hours to the subject, and I already have the idea. The Socratic Gospel, the Gospel according to Socrates, in that lies the only real consolation.

He warmed to his newly acquired pet. Not only for the man of education, he went on, the Socratic gospel is universal. The bricklayer may leave his crude salvationism. The hysterical woman, he said it without the least sign of embarrassment, may leave her silly spiritualistic nonsense. The gospel, according to Socrates, is the gospel of the future. It may fall to my lot to present it in, English in a popular form. It would be an honorable work. On the title page, the Gospel of Socrates,

translated, arranged, and edited for the use of the English-speaking races by. And so he went on, galloping his latest conviction into the land of nowhere. It was half sad and half ridiculous. But this son had known the father for so long now that the exposition neither depressed him nor amused him. It was his father, as he had always known him, and now once more his good friend. Sir Constantine showed very little curiosity. He took it for granted that Claudius would come to see him again

in two or three months, or possibly later. Claudius did not undeceive him, That could be better done by letter, at the last moment. On the station platform a few minutes before the train came in by which Claudius was to return, Sir Constantine remarked hesitatingly that Claudius looked well, fairly, only fairly, well-dressed, but well-fed, comfortable. He was very pleased to see it. By this route he arrived at what he wanted to say.

But all the same, my boy. I don't want you to be absolutely dependent on your work, your novels, for the comforts and necessities of life. Now, I find from my bankers that there has been a very grave irregularity in paying you your allowance. In fact, for some little time, it has not been paid. Even the best of banks seem to make silly mistakes and misinterpret orders sometimes.

Now, I must have my wishes, carried out. And I have made this arrangement. I have made over to you the sum of 10,000 pounds. It's invested, and I shouldn't alter the investment if I were you. But the money is yours absolutely. And if you ever had any pressing need for a large sum, you could of course realize. The interest will be paid into your account at the bank. Strelin, old Streland arranged it for me. he thought it the best plan streland was sir constantine's country solicitor and his opinion of sir constantine's plans was generally complimentary here's your train the old man went on now take this he drew an envelope from his pocket and handed it to claudius it's the particulars about the money certainly not i absolutely and altogether decline to be thanked merely my duty and at the same time my

pleasure. He shook Claudius warmly by the hand, and without waiting a moment longer hurried from the station, as if escaping from the consequences of a shameful act. Claudius found in his traveling bag, placed there by his father's hand, a volume of Groats, History of Greece, with certain passages marked. On the fly-leaf was scrawled an injunction to him to read the book on his journey, and posted back when he arrived. End of Chapter 16. Recording by John Brandon. Chapter 17 of the octave of Claudius. This is a Libravox recording. All Libravox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit Libravox.org. Recording by John Brandon, the octave of Claudius by Barry Payne. Chapter 17. Saturday morning was fortunately for a lot of,

for Claudius full of business. There were arrangements to be made, bills to be settled, and a really good solicitor to be persuaded to do something in a hurry, and the really good dislike hurry. He had to call at the bank and at the publishers. He had a score of trifles that needed his attention. So far he had preserved appearance as well. On his journey north, and on his return, he had spoken and acted in a normal way, had forgotten nothing. He had forgotten nothing, given no sign of absent-mindedness, allowed no railway porter or chance-traveling companion even the vague idea that there must be something the matter. He had gone successfully through the ordeal of meeting with his father and parting from him, but this morning it was

different. Every business act was a great effort to him. Continually he had to recall his thoughts and to concentrate his attention. Sometimes he would find that he had forgotten to say something of importance, and sometimes that he had repeated some needless commonplace, a remark on the weather, for instance, two or three times. But the flicker of a suppressed smile on the face of the man who happened to be talking with him at the time gave him no annoyance. The same thing that made him capable of small mistakes

made him incapable of small annoyances. The excitement overmastered him. The excitement of love returned, yet hopeless. A fortune gained, yet worthless, of life continued yet worse than death, of fate laughing and the end near. Two letters had reached him that morning, at his London Hotel by the first post. One how often he had read it was from Angela. Early on Friday morning, Mrs. Wicharly had telegraphed to her husband, and he had come at once. First he had seen Mrs. Wicherly alone. Then he had called Angela down and taken her out in the garden with him. He had seemed serious, but not in the least angry with her. On the contrary, he had never been kinder. He had questioned her, but there had been some questions which she had to tell him she could not answer.

Indeed, she had not told him very much. After that, he had left for London. Angela had heard him say, I shall certainly call upon Lady Veritur this afternoon. She quoted another remark of his. It's a case, I think, for a man of business and plain common sense, and I am that, and very little else. At the end, he had tried to cheer Angela up and told her that all might be well. He could not say for certain, but he thought the case was not quite hopeless, if Claudius could be got to listen to reason. Her little budget of news told, poor child, somewhat incoherently occupied by a little of her long letter.

The rest was quite sacred and quite human, and to Claudius, most lovely and priceless and sad. The second letter, which was from Mr. Wichelley, ran as follows. My dear Mr. Sandell, I intend to call at your hotel tomorrow, Saturday afternoon at first, and take my chance of finding you. I know that you will naturally be much occupied, but I hope you'll be able to spare a few minutes in which to see me. I'm far from thinking that you have acted, to say the least of it, with discretion, but I do not want you to suppose that I'm

calling in order to blame you or oppose you. The happiness of my only child is very dear to me, and any obstacle to that must be removed, if I can remove. it. Believe me, I am only anxious to secure what you yourself must wish. I may be able to help you, and I hope you will let me try. From the little that I have been able to learn, I think that my business experience may be of service to you. The letter presented Mr. Wichorley to Claudius as the very image of the completely kind father on the utterly wrong tack, but of course he determined to see him. He wished first to see Lady Verreter, but the business of the morning prolonged itself into the afternoon,

and it was after four before he arrived at her house. Lady Veritur paced the room. She was beautifully dressed, and quite furious, angry, and affectionate by turns. And the more angry, because she was really fond of him. He had to listen to tirades. What did I tell you? What did I warn you? I knew what would happen.

What was bound to happen if you went to Gilbridge? I know that devout lover type so well. It's going to love in silence, and it never does. It's going to worship from afar, and it always insists on propinquity. It is determined to be content with very little, and it never is. And if it's good-looking, as I suppose you are, and takes trouble, as I know you did, it may manage to make some poor girl love it, and confess her love. Then the devout lover raises his hat politely and says, good morning, and how sorry he is, that it can never be, and he had never dreamed that it would come to that, and he is not worthy, and so on. Then he walks off. Pretty figure, isn't he? My dear lady, I am not that

cur exactly. I told Angela, from the first, that the rest of my life was not mine. Then the time was so short. Just a few days, it did not seem possible that any harm could happen. Angela was and is so far beyond me that I did not suppose. No, you devout lovers never do suppose that any perfectly ordinary thing can possibly happen. But why did you say that you loved her? Why did you tell her? My God, said Claudius with sudden fashion, do you ask me that? Have you never been in love? Yes, I was in love with the man I married. That is one of the reasons why I am so sorry for the poor girls who are made to fall in love with the men that they can never marry. I dare say, said Claudius, that you will tell me that it is the usual formula of the devout lover, but I can only say again that I did not expect what happened. Of course, Lady Veriter continued, I know in my heart that you don't deserve what I say to you,

but I am angry and miserable. You are not a cur. I almost wish you were. What I am afraid of in you is your silly, out-of-date, romantic, highfalutin chivalry. Nothing but that. I'm convinced could have got you

into your present impossible position. I have been talking to Mr. Wicharly, a very sensible little man. He quite agrees with me. There was a pause, and then Lady Veriter asked quickly, You went to see your father. Are you reconciled?

no formal reconciliation took place the past was ignored you know his way but we're on the best of terms he insisted on giving me money ten thousand and you also made a small fortune by speculation i am told yes i made some money And your novel has been accepted, and Angela would marry you. And just at this point, you disappear, and will not explain why. I cannot explain it to you. I have told Angela, and she will tell no one. Will you tell me one little thing? You say that your life has been disposed of. To whom? Who is this mysterious man in the background? His name, please, just his real name and nothing more. tell me that, and the rest I will manage for myself.

I know you ask it from the kindest motives. I am ashamed not to be able to tell you. If the secret were all my own, it should be yours too and at once. But it is not only mine, I cannot tell you. Oh, I give it up. It's killing me, and I'm absolutely miserable. I am sorry indeed, said Claudius, that I should distress you in this way. She stood before the mantelpiece, moving little objects on it restlessly.

Mind you, she added suddenly, you will find Mr. Wicharly far more determined. That may be. I am to see him almost directly. I must be going. He has certain rights now. You've given him those rights. Yes, I'm glad you told Angela, and you cannot get over them. Dear Lady Veriter, don't speak as if I wanted to get over them. I'm not a natural martyr. I'm longing to be free and happy. My wishes are just the same as yours and witcherlies. If without knowing the circumstances and I cannot tell him them, he can show me a possible solution, I shall welcome it. Then Claudia said goodbye. He assured Lady Veritur that he would do all he could,

and reminded her that some unforeseen chance might possibly favor him. But she would not be assured. she had a presentiment, she said, that she would never see him again. Claudius found Mr. Richard Lee at the hotel. How is Angela? Claudius asked eagerly. She is very unhappy, the little man replied simply. He was rather nervous at first, observed that the rain still kept off, inquired as to the health of Sir Constantine, fidgeted with his hat, then he put down the hat, seated himself, wiped his forehead,

head and plunged. Now, Mr. Sandell, you know that I have seen my wife and daughter. Jessica is, you may have noticed it, a little inclined to be vague. If I may put it so, she never seems actually to know anything about anything. I'm not finding fault with her for it. You'll understand. It's in her nature and we're none of us perfect. I mention it to account for any mistakes I have made in

informing my idea of the situation. Angela is far more clear in her statements, but she will not go beyond a certain point. She could tell but won't. My wife would but can't. Will you let me question you somewhat plainly, that I may correct myself where I am wrong? Ask anything and plainly as you will.

I will tell you all that I can. You love my daughter and would marry her. Yes. The simple answer was as effective as a more fervent protest. But after tonight you ceased to be your own master. Of the remainder of your life, some disposition was made before you met Angela. Yes. I've known young men, good fellows really, make for themselves unending trouble. Youth, hot blood, and ignorance. They do a deal of harm. Pardon me, but is there another woman in the case? No. Has there been some previous, or nothing, nothing? I have never loved, nor ever shall love anyone else. I believe you. Indeed, you tell me what I expected, but I wanted to be quite sure. That finishes with woman. We come to money. Claudius handed Mr. Wichelly some memoranda and letters, one dated that day from the bank. No, no, no, protested Mr. Wichelley. It's not necessary. I would rather, said Claudius. Mr. Wichelley examined and his face fell. If all this money will not help, then the case is bad indeed.

No amount of money could help. The case is bad indeed. I want you also to read this. It is my will by which I leave all unconditionally to Angela. My solicitors are also acting as my executors. and I am just returning it to them. Mr. Wichelie stared at the carpet. God-helper, was all he said. I knew it was nothing, said Claudius, after a pause. All that I can do now is nothing. I shall not at least die happily.

Die? Die! exclaimed Mr. Wichelie suddenly, then you expect to die? Is that so? Is it? Is it? I cannot tell you.

But I think you have to be. told me, you leave me to work in the dark. You won't show me the reason, the motive. If it had been woman, I could have helped you for I was once young. If it had been money, I could have helped you for I am now old. It seems that it's neither. But I have worked in the dark before. In the city, I needn't go into it, but I have had to play the game when I did not know what the game was or where it would end. But as I have gone on, I have found a glimmer here and a glimmer there. Until at last there was light enough. I'm going to work in the dark now, for already, Mr. Sandell, I've seen the glimmer, just the faintest. Now, you said that,

I might question you, tell me under what compulsion you agreed that within a few days you would sacrifice your life. I did not guess at the time, Claudius paused. Go on, go on, said Mr. Witchfully, excitedly. You say that you did not guess at the time, that there was an actual peril of life. However, you know it now. Go on. There was no compulsion, whatever. I was broken down at that time, and did not think that my life could ever have any value for me. But why to this man? Why give it to him? Mr. Wichorley, it's no use, said Claudius. I beg you not to ask me any more questions. I've had no sleep and I'm worn out. I can't think clearly. and I can't trust myself to talk. I'm so afraid of telling you things unintentionally,

which I am bound in honor not to tell. Don't think me ungrateful. I am not that. You've been very kind to me, when you might with justice, have been only very angry. Yes, said Mr. Richerly, you look tired and ill. I had noticed that. I won't question you any further. On the contrary, instead of asking for an explanation, I will give you one. I'm nothing much, you know, only a businessman, but Angela is, is a good deal to me. I can't see the rest of her life spoiled, and I won't do it. Nor will I let you be murdered because of some sense of honor, which as a businessman I can't understand. You feel yourself bound by a contract of a nature which the law doesn't allow. I've not been angry with you, though you were in the wrong to go to Gilby,

bridge in the first place. Once there, the rest was inevitable. Now you must not be angry with me if I should seem afterwards to have interfered with you, for I am going on working. How? In what way? It is my turn to say that I cannot tell you. Claudius thought for a few moments. You are justified, he said. Mr. Wicholie, there is one more thing to say. I must tell you how sorry. I am. The worst that I have to bear is that Angela should suffer. I never dreamed that she would come to care for me. My days were so few. I thought the joy and the sorrow of it would be mine alone. And now, when I think of it, and how you and her mother love her, I see that I have done the worst thing I ever did in my life. I have done a terrible thing that will weigh me down to the end.

"'Angola will not let me ask for forgiveness, "'and will not hear that there is anything to forgive. "'You know how much there is.' "'I won't say there's nothing to forgive,' said Mr. Wichelay, "'and then very simply and kindly he held out his hand. "'But it's all right, Claudius. "'I believe you're a good fellow. "'I couldn't have wished for a better for Angela.

"'I should be a harder man than I am "'if I couldn't forgive you now. I see how you're placed. If you're to be saved, it must be in spite of yourself, and in spite of you, I'm going on working. When you come tonight to say goodbye to Angela, remember that she takes things hard. Don't let her think that it's the last time,

that you'll never see you again. You understand, of course. Perfectly. Thank you. Thank you very much. It was arranged between them that Claudius was to call at Ersistan Square at 9 o'clock that night. He was to see Angela alone, and only Angela. Mr. Wicharly was no sooner outside the hotel than his work began,

and he was not, he thought, working so completely in the dark now. He remembered all that he had heard from his wife, from Angela, from Lady Verida, from Claudius himself. He pieced his information together rapidly and formed his conjectures. The commissioner called a cab for him. Where, too, sir, the man asked. Ludgate Circus, said Mr. Wicharly. From Ludgate Circus, Mr. Wicherley had not far to go to the office of Mr. Abraham Penny's detective agency.

It was after six on Saturday night, but that office knows no hours. His business with simplicity itself, a young gentleman description given, would arrive at Mr. Wichelie's house at nine o'clock that night. He would leave it for some other house before twelve. for he had to be at this other house by twelve. Mr. Wicharly wished to know where this other house was, who its occupants were, and all that could be discovered about them, in fact.

Mr. Wicharly would like a report to this effect to be on his breakfast table on Sunday morning and would then send further instructions. Until these were received, a close watch by night and day was to be kept on that other house, and every movement of that young gentleman or of the occupants of the house was to be followed and reported to Mr. Wicharly at once, and Mr. Wicharly hoped that there would be no difficulty. Difficulty, said the assistant manager. It's the ABC. We see the young gentleman,

go into your house, and follow him when he comes out. You shall hear from us by 11 on Sunday morning, and anything that turns up further as the day goes on, you don't want the young gentleman or his companions to suspect they're shadowed, and you'd like the thing to be done thoroughly. Quite so. Put your best men onto it, and don't spare expense. Want a check in advance, or a reference? Not from you, sir, said the assistant manager, and thereby showed his astuteness,

and he showed it further by not putting his best men on to do work, which the less good could do equally well. Mr. Wicharly was well pleased. He had common sense and had proved it. As he entered the omnibus that would take him nearest to Assistant Square, he smiled upon his achievement. But common sense is not the gift of prophecy. And Mr. Wicharly little knew what the next few hours were to bring.

How is Angela, he asked his wife as soon as he got home? Mrs. Wichelie was troubled and tremulous. She doesn't cry anymore, not since this morning. She seems to me to try to talk of other things and cheer me up, and there's nothing breaks me down more than that, coming from her. Takes nothing, a biscuit and a glass of wine that I insisted upon, but nothing more, so she won't be down to dinner. You saw Mr. Sandell?

What have you done? I saw him, and I have done the right thing. go and tell Angela that Claudius will come to say goodbye to her at nine tonight, that I have been doing what I can and have good reason to hope that Claudius will not be away long. But one moment before I go, what have you really done? Don't tell Angela, for she'd tell Claudius, and he must not know or it would spoil all. Not a word. I've put it in the hands of Abraham Penny. Penny? What penny? Private detective. Ah! And then was Mrs. Wicharly, greatly comforted and refreshed. For like most really good women, she had a faith in private detectives that never

reasoned why, and could not be justified by facts. End of Chapter 17. Recording by John Brandon. Chapter 18 of the octave of Claudius. This is the Libravox. recording. All Libravox recordings are in the public domain. For more information, or to volunteer, please visit LibraFox.org. Recording by John Brandon. The Octave of Claudius by Barry Payne. Chapter 18. There was a little back-sitting room in the house in her assistant square, which had been known in the Witcherle's earlier days as the library. Angela had objected that there were no books in it. and that therefore it was not a library.

So Mrs. Wichelie, who could see a point very well when her attention was directed to it, decided that it should be called the breakfast room and issued a solemn kitchen decree to that effect. There were relapses into the use of the word library on the part of the housemaid, a creature of habit. Mrs. Wicherley took a strong line, and the weeping maiden obtained a fixed idea

that the use of the word library was indecent. So the breakfast room triumphed and was securely established. Nobody ever breakfasted there, of course. It was in this room lit by two red-shaded candles on the mantelpiece that Claudius said goodbye to Angela. The dim rose light was kind to her pale face.

Claudius had no longer any hope at all in his own heart. Mr. Richelie might attempt something. It did not much matter what he attempted. Claudius knew that Dr. Lamb would be clever enough to foresee that some such attempt might be made and clever enough to checkmate it. Yet, he spoke to Angela as if he would come back, perhaps, and she too spoke as one who hoped. then, at times, a hard look of horror came into her soft eyes, and both were very careful not to raise the question of the purpose for which Dr. Gabriel Lamb needed Claudius Sandell.

Remember, said Claudius, that as long as I live, I shall always be loving you. But not to hear you say it any more, cried Angela, if that should be, it can't be. It can't be. It can't end like this. Oh, Claudius, dear love, what shall I do? Tell me what I should do. How shall I wait for you? Mrs. Wichorley had quite realized that this was an emotional hour in her house, and that for the sake of others she must bear up. To that end, she took a glass of cocoa wine, and found it a broken reed. The poor, silly, affectionate woman loved her beautiful daughter so dearly that the thought of Angela's unhappiness made composure impossible.

She was in her bedroom now with her cap off. All sobs and Sal volatile. The undignified love as much as the dignified. This idea of an emotional hour, this sense that there was sorrow in the house. had even permeated into the basement. Cook sniffed. The housemaid, the one who had never said library,

now observed, It's my Sunday out tomorrow, but I shan't take it. A dark saying, a vague well-meant effort to get into keeping with a general atmosphere. Mr. Wichelie sat bolt upright in a straight-back chair in the drawing-room.

He held the times in his hands, and thought he was reading it, and his face was solemn. He was ready, ready and waiting. He would hear the breakfast room door open and shut, and the front door open and shut, and the carriage drive away. And at that moment he would emerge with a most cheerful smile and take the broken crying Angela into his arms,

and he would say, don't fret, Angela. It's all right. I couldn't tell you before, but I have taken this in hand myself. I have. Tomorrow morning, you shall have news of Claudius. I promise it. I absolutely promise it. That would surely do some good. Her parents had entrusted Angela with comforting messages for Claudius, and with their farewells, the messages were easily delivered. The rest was difficult. and as they will not see you tonight, and it may be long before they see you again, they asked me to say, oh, Claudius, I don't want to say goodbye. Her breast heaved, and her lips trembled.

Claudius drew her to him and kissed her again and again. Neither of them spoke any more now until the moment when Claudius left the house. He could hardly see, his head swam, he staggered. like a man that has been drugged. Hardly had he flung himself back in his carriage before he fell asleep. Nature was exhausted. He did not wake until the carriage entered the drive before Dr. Lamb's house. Waking, he wondered where he was,

for he had dreamed that he was back at home. Then he remembered, he pulled out his watch and glanced at the time. It still wanted ten minutes to twelve. He got out, and just as he was on the point of ringing the bell, paused, changed his mind, and turned around. You can put my portmanteau down, he said. You needn't wait. Very good, sir, the man replied. There were still a few minutes of freedom left. Claudius clung to them. The coachman hesitated before driving off. Claudius had been very liberal.

After all, it might be as well to mention what he had noticed. I beg you pardon, he said, but I'm not sure if you know we've been followed. Followed? Yes, sir. I noticed a handsome hanging about when I was waiting in her assistant square. As soon as I drove off the cab followed, it kept behind me all the way,

and when I turned in here, went on a few yards and then stopped. It's there now. Anyone in the cab? Two men, sir. I only got a glimpse. Common-looking, they seemed. Thanks. You were quite right to tell me,

though I don't know that it's of much importance. The carriage drove off. Claudius stood beside his luggage with his watch in his hand. After all then, he supposed, Dr. Lamb had not trusted him. him and had put detectives on to follow him. The black shrubberies stood out clear against the pale sky. A breath of wind woke and rustled and fell again. All was absolutely still. In a moment, Claudius put his watch back in his pocket and rang the bell. The sound spoke out resonant far back in the house,

and immediately the door opened. Almost before the bell sounds. It was opened slowly and not to the full extent, not as Francis opened it. Mrs. Lamb stood there, she was barefooted, and in her nightdress. Her hair hung loose about her shoulders. Her eyes were wild and roaming. She spoke in a horrible whisper. I've been waiting behind the door for you. I got up and crept out, and they never knew.

She shivered in the chill night air. Behind her was a chaos of packing cases. The carpets were up in the hall and on the stairs. The house looked naked. A gas jet flared without a globe. Mrs. Lamb, Claudius began. He was going to persuade her to go in. Poor mad woman.

But she would not let him speak. There is no time. Listen quickly before they come and take me. I have been sent by heaven to save you. You are to go away at once, and you must never come here again. She pointed to the passage that led to the study and laboratory. Gabriel's in there. Not the angel Gabriel, but the devil Gabriel.

He's getting ready to kill you, sharpening knives. Every night I can hear him sharpened knives, though he does not want me to hear. All was sharpening knives. It goes like this. Brr, brr, brr. She made hideous, guttural imitation of the sound of a grindstone. At the same moment a door opened, and a woman in a plaid dressing gown came out.

She had a cloak over one arm, and she said quietly, Mrs. Lamb, you must come back to bed. Hilda Lamb flung herself down on the floor of the hall, kicking and screaming. The nurse was a big woman with a not unkindly face. She would not let Claudius help her, and indeed she needed no help. Her strength was enormous. She wrapped Mrs. Lamb in the cloak, lifted her, and carried her off. Then Claudius saw that the servant Francis was standing waiting at the further end of the hall. He now came forward, greeted Claudius respectfully,

and began to carry in the luggage. Dr. Lamb is in the study, sir, he said. My dear Sandell said the doctor cordially, coming forward as Sandell entered. Welcome to a half-empty and exceedingly uncomfortable home. I trust that you've been enjoying yourself in your absence. Laudius shook hands mechanically, thanked him mechanically, and sat down.

The octave is over. Lucisti sattis. How does it go? Tempice, Abere, T.B.S. You will notice the preparations for departure everywhere here. Indeed, had all been well, we should have gone aboard the yacht on Sunday afternoon. But there has been a sudden change in my wife's mental condition. I'm afraid that when you came in just now, you heard I saw Mrs. Lamb. The nurse took her back into her room. Believe me, I am very sorry.

Well, this change, though not uninteresting from one point of view, is of course exceedingly sad. And it has altered my plan slightly. My wife cannot possibly come with us now, and I have not yet finished the arrangements for her remaining in England. It may be Monday before we can start. Where are we going? Sandell, I own you now. I do not want to insist on that ownership more than is necessary. necessary for my purpose, and I cannot bring myself to give you an order like a servant,

but I ask you for your own sake, not to put questions to me about the future. Do not ask what I'm going to do with you. Sandell looked the doctor straight into the eyes. I know very well what you're going to do with me, he said. You believe, said the doctor, that I intend to use you for the subject of experiment, and yet you keep your word. Well, I was sure you would. You were sure. You were sure. "'Sure,' Claudia said, "'yet I have been followed by your detectives "'tnight right up to your house.'

"'My good Sandal, "'I have never employed a private detective in my life. "'I should think it dishonorable, "'and it has the additional disadvantage "'of being almost always useless. "'They are far from clever, that class has a rule. "'At the same time, I can readily believe "'that you were followed here,

"'and that you're being shadowed now. I can believe that there may be someone in London who has sufficient interest in you to be suspicious of your mysterious disappearance at a time when I understand you have every reason for not disappearing. Is that not so? Claudius remembered that Mr. Wicharly had said that he would work on his own account and in the dark. He saw it all now. I think you're right. i did you an injustice i believe i know now who sent them i have no doubt he believed he was acting in my interest but it was done without my knowledge and authority

i should not have thought that i had any right to interfere with you in that way shall i tell you who i think sent them no said the doctor i don't think his name would interest me he can do nothing of course His very smart people will hardly come aboard my yacht. They were amusing to watch for a short time, but I don't propose to allow them to take a voyage with me. Sandel, the doctor added after a pause in which Claudius had not replied to him, You look very tired and broken down. You are also very depressed. I will not keep you here much longer, for you need sleep. But there's one thing I want to say,

You have done me one injustice tonight, perfectly trivial as it happened. And I am afraid that you also do me another injustice. You doubt my humanity. There was a time when you regarded me as a good Samaritan. You now regard me as a murdering devil. The reaction has set in, and possibly it has been assisted by the chatter of that mad woman. I heard her talking to you. Now I cannot let you suspect my humanity, and partly for that reason, and partly because I really trust you.

I will change my mind and tell you what I have arranged. You are, of course, to be the subject of experiment. Claudia Sandell looks steadily and contemptuously at the doctor. I do not mean it in any offensive sense, the doctor continued, when I say that you are of no practical use to me, for any other purpose. I value your good opinion, as I am now showing, and have always found you a most pleasant and interesting companion.

If I were not yours absolutely and had any right to suggest, I should suggest we pass over this part. My dear fellow, do not be so humble or so bad-tempered. I'm not LaGree in Uncle Tom's cabin. You can suggest anything you like, and be sure that your suggestions will always be considered with respect and adopted whenever it is possible. I do not bask on revel in villainy, and for the purposes of melodrama, I am useless. Your attitude towards me hurts me. For days and nights I have been planning how to make everything as

easy as possible for you. Shall we pass over that also? Certainly in one moment. I want to tell you how things stand. When the time comes, I shall ask you to allow me to administer an anesthetic. After a time, you'll regain consciousness. Then from 30 to 50 minutes you will suffer. The anesthetic will be administered again immediately. The doctor paused. And when I regain consciousness the second time, the doctor lit a cigar, blew out the match and flung it into the grate. You will not regain consciousness a second time. That will be In fact, that will be all. That is why you're leaving England?

The doctor shrugged his shoulders. There is no privacy in England, he said. But I ask you to notice that the very most you have to fear is fifty seconds of suffering, probably not acute. All the lurid pictures that your imagination may have conjured up, or my wife and her madness may have depicted, may be dismissed from your mind. I am emphatically a humane man. if it were not from my humanity for my broad love of the race for my infinite longing that some future generation might be born not under the curse which weighs us down but free and masters of their fate i would not even ask you for that little thing your life

again claudius made no reply until that moment comes when i begin the experiment your comfort shall be my first consideration no indigniagnation no indigniagnation shall be put upon you, except for that one purpose, and what is connected with it. You are free. I have a considerable fortune, said Claudius. I am afraid, said the doctor, that I cannot consent to accept gratuities. You have already told me that money was of no consideration with you. I was not intending to repeat my offer to buy myself from you. I wanted to ask if I were free, to dispose of my money now and to will it after my death as I wish. Absolutely perfectly free. And I may write letters? Certainly any letters which do not prejudice my main purpose. After we leave England, you will omit the address, of course. Thank you, said Claudius. I have a lot

only one more question. Is there any consideration whatever, which would induce you to terminate our agreement, any consideration, apart from money? I had thought that you would be likely to ask the question, and I have no objection to it. My answer is none. Absolutely none. At that moment, Francis entered. The nurse would like to speak to you for a moment, sir. Excuse me, said the doctor, and went out. Plotius leant forward with his head in his hands. He felt how easy it would be to fall asleep and to forget. In a moment or two the doctor returned.

The nurse, he said, seems to think that someone should sit up with my wife tonight. It cannot be done. The nurse has not been to bed for two nights, and it would be hazardous to keep her up a third night, unless it were absolutely necessary. and I do not think it is. Fortunately, I have to be up all night myself. I have something in the laboratory which requires watching, and I shall be here until six. With the door open, I shall hear any sound. My wife sleeps downstairs now, you know. Yes, said Claudius,

hardly conscious of what had been said. Yes, it is her idea that her dead baby crawls about upstairs and would disturb her rest. At any rate, she will not sleep upstairs. Claudius rose from his chair. May I go to bed now, he said, I'm so tired that I'm not very good company. Certainly. I hope you'll find your room comfortable. Francis will get anything you want. Whiskey and soda, before you go? No? Oh, Claudius, I'm sorry I can't give you my philosophy, and I won't insult you by trying. Everybody has the philosophy, which is suitable to the situation of somebody else. My philosophy is the very thing for a man in your situation.

Well, well, good night. May I make one request? Again, this legris business, do please ask for anything you want, said the doctor a little irritably. I want you to begin this experiment as soon as possible, to wait for it that is hard to do. Be assured, smiled the doctor, suavely, that I also am impatient.

Good night again. Sleep well and breakfast just when you happen to feel like it. Flodius left the room and went upstairs without a word. The doctor went on, composedly with his work, and two hours slipped by. He'd grown drowsy, and leaning forward with his head on his arms, fell into a dose. He often found that half an hour's sleep

Snatched in this way Made a great difference to him And sent him back to his work As fresh and energetic as ever And as he slept Pitpet Pitpet across the stone floor of the hall Came the sound of naked feet

Pass the bare hall Where the windows had stared like Lidless eyes Since the curtains were packed away And unfaded patches stood where pictures had been, and the naked gaslight flared. Past the hall, and down the passage, came Hilda Lamb, quiet and cunning as a cat.

With all hell awake in her mad eyes, she opened the study door softly. She smiled when she saw that the doctor was asleep. Without a sound, she passed through into the laboratory and switched on the electric light. she opened the big mahogany case of instruments and was careful not to let the click of steel be heard. She took what she wanted, switched off the light, and came back into the studio again. The bright edge of the thing she held in her hand attracted her attention.

She said in her throat, imitating the sound of the grindstone. Dr. Lamb began to move his head. In a moment she flung herself upon him and thrust and hacked and pulled. A storm came into the dream that Claudius dreamed that night. The forked lightning split the sky. The thunder cracked and roared. Below were people with white frightened faces. A dense mass of people, all looking upward.

They began to howl with terror, weaving their arms. The dream suddenly ceased and Claudius was awake. He was awake, and the room was filled with smoke. Someone was knocking violently at the door and crying to him to get up, Fire, fire! And someone outside in the garden was singing. A poor mad woman that had been rescued from the merciful fire, the servants of the house watched her in awe-struck silence,

as she was dragged away, ceasing her singing from time to time and fighting hard to get back to the flames. The fire had broken out in the annex, in the doctor's study. This was completely wrecked before the arrival of the engines. The main body of the building was damaged but not ruined. In the gray early dawn, the police on watch talked confidently among themselves. I saw her myself, said one of them. And there was blood both on her hands and face.

It'll be brought more. At a little distance from the house, Claudius stood alone on the road and looked towards London. A four-wheeled cab lumbered slowly up, and Francis, who had gone to Wimbledon to order it, jumped down from the box. It's the best they can do, sir. Thanks, said Claudius, as you got in. It'll do very well. Tell him to drive as quickly as he can.

Yes, sir. Where to, sir? Her assistant square. Francis shut the carriage door. Her assistant square, he echoed, as he seated himself beside the driver again. End of Chapter 18. End of the octave of Claudius by Barry Payne.