CreepsMcPasta Creepypasta Radio - "If you ever explore an abandoned school. Don't feed the students" Creepypasta

Episode Date: August 7, 2020

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Starting point is 00:00:27 com. to being the only person who lives in walking distance of the school I teach. Every single time the alarm goes off or someone forgets the lock, I'm called in. And at times, I feel like this has become more of a custodial job than anything. It's gotten so bad that the school had a silent alarm installed years ago, and just though I'd insult to injury, they rooted it to my phone. Of course, the head tends to call me up to make sure I'm on my way, just have a quick little walk around, Mrs. Wears says to me over the phone,
Starting point is 00:01:02 Just make sure some of the kids haven't tried breaking into the pool again It'd be awful if something happened Right, yeah Except it never is just a quick little walk around There's always something to keep you lingering Some noise that needs investigating Some mess that can't be left for kids to find In the day, that school is nothing but a shrine to the banal and mediocre
Starting point is 00:01:26 The walls are plastered in kitschy GCSE art of local beaches bronze award in athletics and cardboard thermometers used to count the hundreds of pounds we've raised to stave off cancer or the apocalypse with light streaming in and halls buzzing with running children it's nothing but another busy part of the world
Starting point is 00:01:44 whistling through space with bugger all to do except keep busy but it's different in the dark or perhaps just when it's empty maybe it's because I see it so live and full of activity in the day
Starting point is 00:02:00 There's something innately unsettling about a place Only recently emptied of life Perhaps there's a lingering body heat in the air Or a scent too subtle for the conscious mind to register Something that tells you that a thousand eyes have looked away from this place And now it exists outside anyone's notice but yours You feel alone walking those empty corridors Whose walls look unusually tall
Starting point is 00:02:26 And where the distance stretches away into dizzying perspective and it always looks so much worse at night. Maybe it's the effect bright fluorescent light have, but I swear it looks cleaner in the day. And come night, the floors look filthy and cracked in a way that makes me wonder if this is really the elitest private school it pretends to be. But I hate it. I hate how I only notice the rot at night.
Starting point is 00:02:53 Moldy tiles, cheap, laminate flooring that's buckled from moisture, and equipment that was dated in the night. It's such a silly thing to let the dark get to me like that, but then again, it's not at all uncommon to hear giggling or see the shadows moving in the corner of your eye. It is impossible to escape the feeling you are following something, tracing the path of a laughing child as they run from classroom to classroom. Doors will swing gently ajar just as you turn a corner,
Starting point is 00:03:23 chairs will squeak seconds before entering a room, and TVs will blare with documentaries only to switch our own. just before your finger touches the button. And for some reason, I just keep looking. I keep going, from room to room, sometimes twice around, sometimes for hours. I once sat alone in my classroom, light switched off,
Starting point is 00:03:47 and listened quietly as someone took a seat and the sound of a scribbling pencil filled the silence. By the time it finally stopped, the sun was rising, and the only thing left behind was a badly chewed pen. The wood blooded and rancid, like it had been dragged out of a septic tank. It was so late I didn't even bother going home.
Starting point is 00:04:09 I just stayed until 7C filed in as normal a few short hours later. I've thought about leaving, but I didn't exactly exit my last school in a good standing. This place doesn't seem to mind so much if I skip a lesson or two or turn up hungover. And despite my regular difficulties, there is still a monthly bonus attached to my check that I was told the other staff should not hear about. I have to figure it's for the extra work and wonder if I'd be mad to turn this place down. I know with some certainty that if I ever told Mrs. Wears, I couldn't check in on the school. I wouldn't keep my job for much longer, and I can't help but wonder if I'm the butt of some big joke.
Starting point is 00:04:54 Sometimes I find myself going there even without being called. From my house I can see the chemistry lab Which is a large glass building that's freezing in winter and scalding in summer It's all windows and on a bright night I can see people moving around in it Sometimes there's a light Sometimes just a vague sense of a commotion But I can't stop myself checking it out in person
Starting point is 00:05:21 Walking around the very space I once spied from a quarter of a mile away Where my house backs onto the football field It's weird. I might find a broken phone, something way too old for today's kids, or a bag of old pennies, or even a few teeth scattered around the floor. What are they doing, I wonder? I found out from the IT teacher that every day he has to come in and restart all the computers because their screens will be frozen on shock porn.
Starting point is 00:05:53 He didn't make a big thing of it. He just said it wasn't nice. and if he was ever ill, I'd have to do it. So, I went one night, went and sat in the IT room with 15 old computers in three rows of five. It's small. We're not a big school, just 500 kids, and the room doesn't catch much light where it is.
Starting point is 00:06:16 So it felt more like a dungeon than my own room. That's usually a clean, greyish blue at night. It was pitch black in there, and once again I turned off my light and waited for something. I didn't know until one by one, the monitors thunked on, an internal fan started up, going from a silent burr to a frenetic and unnatural wine. I felt a kind of panic, something I attributed to the surprising volume of the computers and the epileptic sight of the monitor's glitchy flashing.
Starting point is 00:06:49 I stayed myself, though, and waited it out until the monitors clicked from the buggy displays to images of mutilated and brutalized bodies. smashed mouths with exposed teeth and cracked bone, ribcages held open by groping fingers, soft thighs shredded by broken bottles. Each image was different and riddled with pixelated artifacts. After a moment, the fans died down and the monitors settled, and the room was lit up from within like a Christmas tree,
Starting point is 00:07:20 and I suddenly became aware that I couldn't see anything else. The bright light unsettled my eyes so much, that all I could make out were the screens that floated in the abysmal darkness. Something deep within me started screaming that I wasn't alone, and my eyes darted from the spaces beside and behind the computers, even under the shadowy desks, but it was all impenetrable shadow. Suddenly the images animated,
Starting point is 00:07:51 and I suppressed a gasp and a shudder. Each one looped at different rates, some juddering with half a second of motion, others playing out elaborate acts of violence across the silent seconds. I turned my torch on and tried to force myself to move, but didn't even manage to take a step. The door I'd entered in from, the one I'd firmly closed before settling down,
Starting point is 00:08:14 was open, and tar black footprints led into the computer room and stopped by one of the computers. I shone the light down a fraction to see beneath the desk and found myself wondering if there had been a glimmer of motion as I moved the light as if something had retreated from the beam.
Starting point is 00:08:34 A few pale fingers, a scrap of fabric, or the tip of someone's foot. My mind was racing, and I was paralysed the fear, and in the end, I simply waited it out until the sun rose
Starting point is 00:08:48 and the room lit up naturally. It took hours, and those hours were not silent. whoever was in there with me, and was sobbing quietly. Their muffled cries ebbing with the changing of the gore streaked monitors. God, it's strange to say,
Starting point is 00:09:07 but over time those images didn't look so pixelated, and for the very last hour, I swore I wasn't looking through a screen at all. It really was like standing around 15 windows looking into torture cells. It wasn't about clarity. There was a sense of depth you just don't get from a computer.
Starting point is 00:09:29 There were hours of unbridled suffering, assaults, torture, sadism, groups of people laughing at a shivering victim who was left to pick glass out of the body, the gleeful joy in humiliation, in the power of what a gun can do to the human body and its owner. It all blurred together into a moving montage,
Starting point is 00:09:50 and at times I wonder how much of what I remember I actually saw. By the time I was ready to turn the monitors off I was pale and shaking and my face was streaked with tears The footprints had disappeared in the light But I couldn't bring myself to check the desk where they'd led I merely thunded the off switch on each computer
Starting point is 00:10:11 Before hurrying out like a child Afraid of the dark It'd be a lie to say the things here make me drink I've always had a problem But it was different before I was prone to bad bouts of drunkenness for most of my life but I might spend months, even years, reasonably sober I either didn't drink or I drank a lot
Starting point is 00:10:35 It's just that when I went off the deep end I went in head first and wouldn't resurface until I was dragged kicking and screaming out of the pool But now I drink every day I keep a flask on me just to take the edge off It makes things a little fuzzy, but makes the kids funnier, makes the staff friendlier, makes me a better liar. I wake up in the school some nights, unsure of how I got there, or if I ever even left. Sometimes I open my eyes and don't even know if I'm awake or asleep or alive or dead, because there's just blackness.
Starting point is 00:11:16 Only the cold feel of the tiles beneath my shirt and my hands lets me know where I am. In the distance a door will groan as it swings open. I might hear the shuffle of a few chairs or the barely suppressed whispers of a fleeting presence, and I lie there, ears pricked to these sounds, and I wonder if I even really hear them at all, or if I'm just going mad. But I wait. I wait for the sun and for my eyes to see again, and I find myself lying on the floor of my classroom,
Starting point is 00:11:49 with the desks piled up on high around me, and I found it hard to answer anything except yes to that question. Once I awoke with an old pencil case in my hand, a faded space jam logo on the gel plastic front. It was coated with dust and stuffed full with long dead felt-tip pens. The weight of it in my hands stole some of the dreamlike haze away from my mind and I grabbed my phone for light to check where I was. I sat up in the middle of my classroom and steady myself
Starting point is 00:12:19 while I studied the strange object in my hand. It was 3am. The school's distant halls buzzed with an uneasy noise and I pulled myself up to go looking around. For what? I didn't know. But the strange case in my hand gave me an unusual sense of purpose
Starting point is 00:12:38 and I searched until I found a loose ceiling tile in the assembly hall the height of which is easily 30 feet. I might have been inclined to leave it especially after I turned on the light and found myself staring at the distant corners as if firm in the knowledge that I wasn't alone. But there was no giggling in the air tonight
Starting point is 00:12:58 nor squeaking chairs or anything else. It felt as if the school itself was holding its breath and I dragged out the enormous step-ladder used by maintenance and began my shaky ascent. God, even now I wonder how I found the courage. I'm terrified of heights. But I climbed up anyway until my fingertips could reach out and gently push the tile further away. A flurry of empty crisp wrappers and crumbled paper fell out,
Starting point is 00:13:28 and I clutched the step-ladder with white knuckles and wide eyes as my startled reaction sent it wobbling side to side. When it finally settled back onto all four legs, I breathed a sigh of relief and rapidly began descending, feeling only some mild sense of safety when my feet were back on the ground. I knew the ceiling was too lightweight for anyone to actually be up there, and yet I stared at the small pile of rubbish with a worrying sense of unease. The food was ancient, the paper covered with felt-tip drawings, and I found a dried-up pen that matched the others in the pencil case. More than that, though, there was a stench that emanated from the pile that made me think of desperation and neglect, and amongst the rubbish was a plastic bag with
Starting point is 00:14:16 bottles of unhealthy looking pee, and a wet rag that looked like it had been pulling toilet duty for quite a while. When I finally turned my attention back to my surroundings, I saw I was not alone. From the size of him, I'd say he was around 13, and he had somehow approached me without me hearing or seeing him, stopping only when he was a few metres away, where he crouched low to the floor and swayed from side to side. He looked like an animal. He was certainly feral in the way he moved, but it wasn't his demeanour that made me cry out.
Starting point is 00:14:51 It was the gaping hole where his face should have been. The skull caved in like a hollowed out egg. His remaining skin was parkmarked and lesioned, and it took me a moment to register that he was nude. He was waiting for something, though I didn't know what. I tried to take a step towards the nearest door, but he took one too. He knew where I was, that much was clear. even if I couldn't figure out how. I considered shining my torch straight at him,
Starting point is 00:15:22 given that the faraway ceiling lights made the hole in his head pure shadow. But there was a faint impression of wriggling amidst the dark that made my stomach churn, and I had no idea how this thing would even react to the stimulation. I'm still not sure what put the connection in my head, but I eventually reached around to my back pocket and took the pencil case out.
Starting point is 00:15:46 The boy started gibbering at the sight of it And I cringed at the realization The wet excited sound Was coming from his cave-like skull But I slid the case across the floor anyway He snatched it up eagerly And immediately ran to the nearest wall Where he scaled it with a wet sound of a gecko
Starting point is 00:16:06 Running up glass With one final flourish He stuck to the ceiling And slithered behind those loose ceiling tiles Like a spider After a few seconds the tile shunted back into place and it looked like nothing
Starting point is 00:16:19 had ever happened. Some of the kids, I think, no more than they're letting on. They're not difficult kids. Most of them are quite smart. This place pumps out Oxbridge candidates like crazy and the parents pay big fees to help smooth
Starting point is 00:16:35 things over when stuff goes wrong. Suicides and runaway aren't uncommon, but we're told it's a consequence of pressure, ambition, social difficulties, so on. So now we're handed out questionnaires twice a year to ask our students about stress. The RA teacher doubles as a counsellor and we have a mental health awareness day every October. But it has never sat right with me to back with the two things are related.
Starting point is 00:17:02 James Kinsberg, for example, went missing a few years back. He was a rugby player who wanted to study medicine and rumours were he could even be looking at a contract to play under 21s for a local team. He was a big, strong boy And yet one day I found myself trying to drag him out to the pool Half conscious In the moment you just think Oh damn, a student is drowning
Starting point is 00:17:26 And in my head my students are all kids You see But it was only after I dragged him out That I found myself wondering How the hell he found himself in trouble He looked like he could wrestle an orca and win But there he was on the floor shivering and sputtering water out of his mouth.
Starting point is 00:17:46 When I looked back at the pool, there was a kind of moment of recognition. I'm not sure what exactly. Just the dimming of the overhead lights and muted silence. A tinny laugh I could not place amidst the gaggle of kids crowded around us. But I looked back at James and wondered if he'd run into any real trouble at all, because the look in his eyes wasn't one of someone who'd nearly drowned. but instead someone who didn't care. He made me think of myself,
Starting point is 00:18:18 lying there on my classroom floor in total darkness. And that was how we'd found him. It had all started with screaming and shouting, and I ran over from the bleachers where I was acting as a substitute for the lesson, only to seem pale and blue, lying down at the bottom of the pool. He didn't resist when I dove in and hauled him up,
Starting point is 00:18:39 but it was like he wasn't really there. Like the lights were on, but nobody was home. When he went missing, I extended my rounds to include the pool. It's a huge warehouse of a room, and the water paints pretty lights on the walls, even in the dark, since the roof is mostly glass panes. But I don't like it. The bleachers, all in a neat row with scaffolding behind, to make strange shadows, and the dam filters bang every few seconds from water that churns and makes odd shapes of the tiles beneath the waves.
Starting point is 00:19:12 When I first dove in to save him, I opened my eyes underwater for just a few seconds and got the strangest sense something hideous was nearby. But the pool wasn't empty, and it could have been anything. But a few times in the night, I have seen something slithing around out of sight as I walk around the water's edge. It isn't human, I think. Although I have, on occasion, seen the faceless boy standing at the bottom of the water. with eerie stillness.
Starting point is 00:19:44 But I don't think it was him that James saw. I think it was something else. Something that looks like a mass of hair drifting in a current. Something that effortlessly pushes itself from shadow to shadow. Something that occasionally slaps its way onto dry land and watches me
Starting point is 00:20:02 from behind the bleachers as I check the perimeter. I don't know where it lives. God knows it can't be in the water all the time. But when I confronted James and asked him what he saw, he told me only that it wasn't going to leave him alone. Not now, not ever. And a few weeks later, he went missing while out for a jog along the beach. When they found him, he'd been hollowed out and stuffed into a storm drain like an inside-out gym sock. It'll eat you, he said.
Starting point is 00:20:35 But that was all he ever offered me. We all acted like he committed suicide. aside from the pressure, even as the rumours filled the school. How could the two things possibly be linked? I saw the photos of what happened to him. Even the police said it'd be treated as a murder. It was almost like the school knew the part it played in his death. So, we were all playing along to the facade that he was just another promising kid
Starting point is 00:21:01 lost to the difficulties of adolescence. But he knew clearly what was going to happen to him. I saw that much in his eyes. That's why he laid there on the floor That's why he wanted to drown That thing in the pool had tagged him And he lay down right there and then Ready to be eaten rather than go another second
Starting point is 00:21:24 Something about the sight of it Just overrode every instinct inside him And he lay down Ready No, desperate to die Is that why I lie down too why I wake up on the floor of my classroom why I shudder into lucidity at 3am
Starting point is 00:21:43 sleepwalking from room to room am I waiting to die to be eaten by the building itself I teach lessons in the silence sometimes deliberately sometimes in my sleep I teach about history but no one else is just my own
Starting point is 00:22:02 I write out episodes of my life on the blackboard like a study of the Tudors or Stewart assigning homework and asking questions and even chastising the silent ghostly whispers in the back of the nocturnal classroom. To what extent was my alcoholism a consequence of modelling my mother's behaviour? Compare and contrast the loss of my father with the loss of my wife. Were the negative effects accumulative, or did they interact in unforeseen ways? How has age altered my politics?
Starting point is 00:22:33 Compare and contrasts my voting habits as a young adult with those of the last election cycle. One day I came to in the darkness, half remembering a lesson on the role music played in my adolescent identity, and instead of continuing, I asked an instinctual question that surprised even myself. Why do I do this? I said, my voice unnaturally loud and clear in the silence. One by one, the shadowy chair scraped back as the unseen students rose and ghostly footsteps filled the room as they felt. filed out. Lesson over, I muttered out as I was filled with a deep despairing loneliness that made me realize just how brittle the truth is.
Starting point is 00:23:19 Lately, I've started getting things mixed up. I teach the wrong lessons to the wrong students, and a few reports have gone in about my behaviour. It's not always guaranteed that I'll wake up to find the darkness all around me. Instead, there have been times I've awoken to a crowd of kids, giggling, and, and and finding me asleep on the floor, with the sun out bright and strong. It'd be one thing if Mrs. Weir dragged me out to give me a rolligan when this happens, but she just asks me if I'm doing okay, if I'm fine, if my home life is trying.
Starting point is 00:23:53 She looks at me with pity, and it breaks my heart. I wish she'd be angry instead, because the more she coos, the more she calls me to check in on the place at night, and the more I feel like the centre of a cruel joke, Sometimes I visit the playground from when this place taught under 12s. It must have been a long time ago, because now it's a giant pile of collapsed metal pipework, and, thanks to a hole in the nearby fence, has made it a popular place to fly-tip. All kinds of rubbish.
Starting point is 00:24:27 It's isolated from the rest of the grounds by a short hedge and a weak fence, but the kids know about it anyway, and sometimes go there to smoke, although not often. I'd like to look at it from my house. It's so ugly and brutalist. It looks like the kind of sculpture you find at the Tate with a placard mentioning things like late-stage capitalism or the inevitability of death.
Starting point is 00:24:52 Whatever it is, I watch it and listen to it and occasionally visit it in person. I swear the piles changes, sometimes even just between blinks of the eye. I've pulled out bloody axes and bifference. chains, pointed knives with clumps of hair and matted gore along the edge. Tricycles smashed the pieces with bits of headlights in the spokes. All these things make me feel queasy in the stomach.
Starting point is 00:25:21 Supposedly, the pile eats pets, which is a rumor that works wonders for keeping kids away in the day, but it has only piqued my curiosity. I have pulled out my fair share of crumpled pelt and torn collars, but for some reason I'm not sure they come from things around here. I have nightmares about climbing down between the endless beams of rusted jagged metal and climbing on forever and ever with no stop. It's an unspoken certainty, a belief held deep within my chest, but I don't think that the pile rests on asphalt at all. I think it doesn't stop. I think it gathers things.
Starting point is 00:26:00 Things of loss and regret and guilt, just like everywhere else in this school. Are there blackboards in the day? I stopped not long ago and held a dry erase marker in my hand, stomped by the most unbelievable thought. When I teach at night, I use chalk. I've even gone home and washed my clothes to clear them of all the dust. But how then do I come in and teach to the class using a whiteboard? My memories are becoming fuzzier with time, perhaps because of the drink, perhaps not. Sometimes I think back to my experience in the computer lab.
Starting point is 00:26:40 and my finger is pushing the heavy button of the clunky CRT monitor, and sometimes I simply depress the dainty touchscreen button of the modern LCD. Which one was it exactly? Could it be both? Might it have happened more than once? I'm not sure it's the same school come night, and in fact it feels worse as time wears on. There's an acceleration happening behind the scenes, just out of sight.
Starting point is 00:27:07 Sometimes I visit the hall And half the tiles have fallen down And the face this boy looks sad As he perches along the vents and wiring Sometimes the pool has grown thick with algae And the tiles have decayed And the window panes along the roof Have been smashed to pieces
Starting point is 00:27:23 And the only hint of the aquatic inhabitant Is the disturbance of the grotesque pond scum As it tracks my movement from edge to edge Crotty trainers and children's shoes And human hair rising to the surface as the water churns. But was it always like that? Why do I have memories
Starting point is 00:27:42 of pulling James out of a sewage riddle pool pushing through the thick green water as I dove in to drag him up? When did I even see the photo of him stuffed into a storm drain? And yet I remember it so clearly. He was a good kid, I think. Sometimes he's there,
Starting point is 00:28:02 amid the faces that surround me when I wake up in the middle of the day to bright lights and laughter. Sometimes he asks questions as I talk about my experiences growing up. His hands raised as he asks me if my three weeks with mono will appear on the final exam.
Starting point is 00:28:17 That doesn't make sense. But I don't question it. It's my duty to educate after all. And I think he needs it where he is. I hate this place. But I can't leave it alone. I feel hollowed out most days.
Starting point is 00:28:36 I'm forgetting things a little too important, things I don't want to let go off without a fight. But every time I speak to Mrs. Wears, I lose all sense of time and just find myself agreeing to everything she says. Have I met her? In person? I'm sure I have.
Starting point is 00:28:57 She's spoken to me in her office. But is that the same as seeing her in person? I can't say. I must have interviewed for this position, right? I remember asking her about lunch, about the canteen, and she gave me the funniest answer. Oh, don't worry about that. She smiled, no one here needs a canteen, but they might just gobble you right up. Did I laugh at the time, or leave?
Starting point is 00:29:26 I think I stormed out of her office after she said something I didn't like, something about my wife, maybe. Except, well, after storming out, I went straight back to work in my classroom. which was always just a few doors down from her office, which now that I think about, just doesn't seem right. But then again, my name has always been on the faculty list. I've read it there multiple times. But like I said, my memory grows fuzzier with time.
Starting point is 00:29:56 Things change. The school has changed, I think. But I can never revisit the past. Can I? Only what I remember of it. I remember it one way. sometimes I stand in the silence in the pitch-black nothingness of a moonless night, and I wonder if it has always been exactly as it is now. Change is so hard to keep track of. Why is it that when
Starting point is 00:30:21 I awake on the floor, my clothes have gotten bigger? I must be so very old. Was I as old as I am a few years ago? Of course not. What a stupid question. It's just sometimes I walk around here, and I feel like the art of Garnarian, which doesn't quite sit right in my mind. Shouldn't I be... What? Mid-40s? Or is that a meaningless question to a drunk? Still, I keep going.
Starting point is 00:30:50 I keep teaching. Although lately, it feels like I teach more at night than at day. Sometimes I never even see the sunrise. It just keeps going. One long episode without end. I hope to take a bit of a day. break soon, to retire. God knows I need it. I just need to clear my head to get it all down in one place, to think clearly, if only for just a few minutes. But after writing it all down,
Starting point is 00:31:21 I feel only more confused than I did before. My most recent question for the students, written in chalk on a blackboard illuminated only by moonlight, leaves me feeling empty and alone. I don't like it. It says, what is eating my mind?

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