Habits and Hustle - Episode 197: Dr. Nicole LePera - The Holistic Psychologist, Author, and Podcast Host

Episode Date: December 6, 2022

Find out Jen's secret to getting anything you want out of life 👉 https://www.jennifercohen.com/the-secret-to-getting-anything-you-want-in-life Dr. Nicole LePera is The Holistic Psychologist, Author, and Podcast Host. Guiding her millions of followers through personal development and self-reflection, Dr. LePera has a wonderfully straightforward approach to holistic psychology. Being clinically trained and then taking that education to a more personal and unashamed level attempting to address each individual where they are she has created resource after resource of actionable materials for anyone seeking betterment and/or recovering from past traumas. She and Jen discuss relationships, ego, ego in relationships, trauma, taking space for yourself, addressing your own shortcomings and so much more in an always caring and never shaming way that could leave listeners inspired to challenge their own growth. Never really thought psychology or "self-help" worked for you? Eager to hear a well-spoken expert break down the nuance of tackling your own personal barriers and excelling towards a path of constant improvement? You won't be disappointed! Check it out! Youtube Link to This Episode Dr. Nicole LePera’s Instagram - https://theholisticpsychologist.com/ Dr. Nicole LePera’s Instagram - https://www.instagram.com/the.holistic.psychologist ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ Did you learn something from tuning in today? Please pay it forward and write us a 5-star review on Apple Podcasts.  📧If you have feedback for the show, please email [e-mail]  📙Get yourself a copy of Jennifer Cohen’s newest book from Habit Nest, Badass Body Goals Journal.  ℹ️Habits & Hustle Website - http://habitshustle.com 📚Habit Nest Website - http://habitshustle.com 📱Follow Jennifer - Instagram - https://instagram.com/therealjencohen - Facebook - https://www.facebook.com/therealjencohen - Twitter - https://twitter.com/therealjencohen - Jennifer’s Website - https://jennifercohen.com Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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All right, the time has almost come. My book, Bigger, Better, Boulder, is hitting the shelves, launching, debuting on December the 27th. And I am so excited. I'm thrilled that I get to share this book with you guys. I took me two years to write it. And it really is a culmination of all the different tactics and traits that I used to build. My life that I've used on tons of clients from the last 20 years, from athletes to entrepreneurs. And it's all about building your bold, making boldness a skill that you can learn to really get what

you want, chase what you want, and not just take what you can get. My entire philosophy is about living the life you want and not the life you get, and really it's really about taking actionable steps that anybody can do and anybody can learn. Unfortunately, a lot of us get stuck in the self-doubt syndrome, right? And the fear of failure, which then holds us back from going after things or asking for things that really is much more aligned with who we are in the life we want to live. So that's why I'm so thrilled that I have this book now to share with people about helping people, teaching people how they can make these bold moves and become bolder and asking for what they want, and finding the courage within them to live the life they want.

Like I said, I'm so excited. It's on pre-order right now. You can pre-order it anywhere, Amazon, Bart Barnes and Noble, Target, and really start living true to who you are, and a count-way to see your response once you get it. Thanks. Hi guys, it's Tony Robbins. You're listening to Habits and Hustle. Crush it. Today on the podcast, we have my friend, Dr. Nicole LaPera, otherwise known as the holistic psychologist.

Over the past few years, Nicole has become the leading voice in psychological self-healing, helping millions of people around the world rise out of survival mode to consciously create authentic lives they love. Her number one instant New York Times bestseller, How to Do the Work, offered readers a revolutionary holistic framework for self-healing. It was a manifesto of how to heal from the dysfunctional patterns that hold us back from living up to our fullest potential.

And since that publication, she heard from thousands of readers who wanted more and to go deeper. So she created How to Meet Yourself, which is a workbook for self-discovery. It's literally a revolutionary guide, kind of encouraging companion and a comprehensive master work of self-understanding. It's designed to completely be self-guided, to be used at at your own pace and to be used wherever you feel most comfortable. Nicole and I speak about everything on this podcast, you know, past trauma, how it affects our present, and how we don't want it to affect our future. I always love speaking with Nicole because she is amazing, I'm meeting people where they are and when she speaks, it resonates. Obviously with millions of people around the world, like I said, I enjoyed having

this conversation. I know you will enjoy listening to this conversation and have takeaways that are extremely helpful for you. Leave me a comment. Please let me know what you think and enjoy. leave me a comment, please let me know what you think and enjoy. Nicole LePair is on the podcast who I adore. And if you guys don't know who she is and you're living under a rock, then just just put her on IG or Google her because she's incredible. She's known as a holistic psychologist. And what I was saying before we started recording was what, and I'm going to have to just repeat myself.

So bear with me that when I first met first met you, you were already exploded. You went from like zero to let's say a million followers in a very short period of time. And then you went from one million to two to two to five, like to three to now like almost six million followers. People are like obsessed with you for good reason. You have amazing information, which we're going to get into. But I was just asking her, I was like, well, has all this fame and popularity, like, how have you been?

Has it affected you? Are you overwhelmed by it? Are you do notis it? And so, yeah, tell me. Absolutely. I think from going in a visible, putting myself on a public platform like Instagram, whatever, I created that account some three plus years ago, for me, even presenting myself publicly is a challenge. There's a very little wounded girl inside of me that as much as, you know, I think many of us want to be seen and heard

and loved for who we are, given my own past experience in trauma, I'm sure we'll get into all of this. So we're really proud of that. But ultimately saying a lot to say, being visible has always been, obviously a desire in some way, understanding that I could be the vehicle for this message

that I'm really impassioned to get out to the collective, though there's been the challenge side of me of, oh my gosh, don't look at me, don't listen to me. Am I important enough to be heard in this way? So as the community has grown, and I think it's grown, because people just are seeing themselves and the things that I'm talking about,

and the messages, they're resonating with maybe concepts that at one point we're just an idea or a concept and really now understanding how what that means in their own life and how to utilize the tools to create change. So I think the message is universally resonant, which is why to speak to your point. There's been explosive growth and on the daily what that then is translated to is more opportunities for me to be seen and to is more opportunities for me to be seen. And going in my day to day life, I was sharing with you even yesterday,

when I grabbed lunch and the person checking me in was a member of the community and spoke to me about. I remember about the work and then someone sitting at a table when I was leaving, who had just ended a relationship and was feeling that seeing me and crossing paths with the sign. And so while being seen again is challenging when I have those moments, it's so affirming.

And I honestly, I feel honored, Jennifer, that I can be whether it's a messenger of this piece of information or this tool that this listener might receive and use to change their life, or I can be a symbolic messenger, right? Walking past someone even yesterday, taking my presence to affirm that

them ending that relationship was the choice for them and they were actually out on a self-care date for themselves and seeing me at that self-care date was this affirming message. So again, while I know that it's me that people are responding to in some ways, I also understand that it's more than me, it's the message is what I symbolize. it's the change that they're maybe empowered to create in their life. So that keeps me showing up even though it is difficult sometimes, I think, to be seen in all of these different contexts. Yeah, I mean, just think about that. Like the social media in a sense is the new Hollywood, right? Absolutely. And so you have such a huge audience and like legit like an engaged audience.

You can have it. People can have a huge number, but it means nothing if you know, is really engaged with the content. But like you have such an engaged community membership audience. And like I was saying to you even before before like people that I would never even normally think that would I guess read like recognize the episode that we did the first time like two three years ago were calling me or texting me or DMing me oh my god I love Nicole she's helped me I've listened to for this like you really are making like a profound difference in people's

lives which is unbelievable on a massive scale. It's amazing. It's really, really incredible. And it's been really, I'm really grateful for the opportunity because just as much as they're connecting with me or my message, I mean, I've cultivated many relationships with community members from just seeing their handle, creating conversations, and almost getting to know them so that if I ever would and I have happened upon some of them in real life, you know, coincidentally, at meditations that I used to hold, that I hoped to hold again,

in person, and oh my gosh, now I have a face to this handle and this name that I've actually felt like, you know, I'm feeling like we're having a relationship of sorts. And for me, having modified myself in so many ways to relate to other people in all different types of relationships, not only romantic, but with my friends and colleagues and just in general and public, learning how to be authentic in a safe space has for me been one of the most healing aspects of this amazing community that we've created together. What's beautiful also, is that you haven't changed even a little, like you really are the same person, it doesn't feel like it's gotten to your head at all

or you feel like you're bigger, or like it doesn't, you feel very grounded and just normal, like it's because a lot of times when you meet people who have had like a lot of like success and fame really quickly like that, it does make them different and it does affect them. But you see them like true blue just you know. I'm going the same way. I'm happy at trends. I mean, even the title of the new workbook, how to meet yourself. I mean, one of my goals is

being that authentic self. So regardless of how in what context that you are interacting with me or with any of us that are on this journey to just figure out who they are and to be that person more consistently than not, hearing you say that is really affirming to me. Oh, absolutely. That's my intention and my goal and my hope

to give these tools to the collective so that they can figure themselves out and learn how to be the grounded human no matter what's happening around them. Well, that's what we're talking about the workbook. I'm glad you brought it up because that's why we're here talking about it. But what made you decide now is a time to write the workbook? The idea for the workbook has been percolating since I wrote how to do the work. One of the aspects, while it is a very much a narrative-based book, conceptual book, I was very intentional with making that those concepts practical at the end of each chapter. I have the practical application, whether it's journal prompts or breathwork or tools like that. And as I was

marrying along writing that, I'm like, well, there's a lot of other stuff here that I could be offering in terms of tools. And I really wanted to give a comprehensive guidebook and very much the way I think about how to do the work. And we'll always think about it. My hope is that, and I've always said this, since the idea to publish it and I had the opportunity came to mind is I want to put out a work that is livable, that someone can live with, no matter where they are in life, they might go back to it, revisit opportunity came to mind is I want you put out a work that is livable, that someone can live with. No matter where they are in life, they might go back to it, revisit certain chapters, revisit certain exercises, and not be a book that I read it and there it goes. On your bookshelf and then never again.

I was up about it. I've heard more consistently than not, like I see people tag it. This is the third time I'm reading this book and I get something new every time and I get chills even thinking about it. So very similarly, my hope for the workbook because it is very comprehensive, is that people live with it, they sit with it, they take their time going through it, they revisit certain aspects that somewhere down the line

or certain exercises or tools as they need them. So the seed of the workbook was planted when I discovered or kind of identified. I do want to put a little more comprehensive start to finish journey about the elusive search for this authentic self. I think that's what joins us together. I think we're all in some way totally trying trying to find, figure out, find our way back to who we are. So having then the opportunity to actually put it in the workbook and publish it in such a beautiful workbook, I'm really proud of how it came out.

It's great. I think you did a really nice job. And I got, I was again, sometimes, you know, I feel on these podcasts, the best conversations happen before you press report, right? Because it's like, and then I feel like I'm just repeating myself. But it is so, it's so not just extensive and there's such practical, like to your point, I love when I read a book or when I'm going through something and not only does it resonate with me because you can pick from so many different pieces of that book that you're like, oh my God, that is me or like I know someone like that or my husband's like that and you can make

the connecting points, but then you have these practical these actionable elements where then you can put it into practice as opposed to the theory, right? Which is very, like that's when you end up just putting it on the shelf and then not doing anything about it. So I like I said, I think you did a great job on it. So, I guess my first question about the book is then,

what is the first step? What's the first step that people should be doing to be getting to this authentic self? The first step I will always say, whatever transformational self-discovering journey you're on, and I wish this from the rooftops, probably, until I'm not here anymore is creating a habit of being conscious to how we're showing up each and every day.

Because the reality for most of us, I've referenced it before and how to do the work as our autopilot. What the autopilot consists of and in my opinion is all of those conditioned thoughts, feelings, ways of being. And so what most of us are embodying, and I talk about a concept in the workbook of the, the habit self, right? This way of being that is so unconscious to us that we just have learned to identify. Oh yeah, I always feel this way. I'm a sad person or I'm an angry person or I'm a reactive person or however it is that we kind of describe our self in a whole totality.

And so the first step I think is becoming conscious that while we might be so merged with these habits that we've been repeating from probably the beginning of our lived experience is that that's not truly who we are. And we can become conscious to that when we learn how to be conscious witness, to observe the very habitual way. Many of us go about our day, we wake up, and we don't even think about it, and we all have habits. We're just not intentional with a lot of our habits.

Building a foundation of that witnessing or that consciousness will be the foundation that we then evolve into, how am I caring for my body? The first section of the book is really focusing on the nervous system and health and physical health care and really creating habits to really attune to the physical bodies that most of us are living in. Well, it's interesting because that's, how do we, even if we don't know what we don't know? Right?

So if someone is not someone who self-aware, right? The first step is to have the consciousness or the self-awareness to even pick up on those habits or those things that are getting them down that negative rabbit hole, right? That self-sabotage. So what do we do? How do we stop doing these habits that are self-sabotaging? First part. The second part, or I should say, the second part would be if we have no awareness of what

they are in the first place, I guess. So starting with part two, learning how to be in awareness, learning how to, and I often reference, you know, we all walk around with phones, setting that alarm a couple of times a day to just consciously check in with yourself. First, am I paying attention fully? Am I in my body? Am I connected to whatever experience is happening around me or am I lost in thought? Am I somewhere else in my mind?

Am I distracted? So really learning how to be visible to us allows us then to see the habits that we're repeating that may not be serving us ultimately. So before we can change them, we have to see what we are doing, the choices that we're making, the reactions that we're having. And then to speak to your first question, point two, because the embodiment now of change is challenging. Creating new habits, making new choices will ultimately challenge

the subconscious part of our brain that prefers those habits. Because in the predictability of those habits, we think is safety. There's a reason why we are habitual beings. And that's because we know what comes next. And that feels so much safer than to our survival driven subconscious mind, then the possible threat that might be in that unknown. And it's counterintuitive because many of us are like, well, I don't understand. I'm creating new habits that are going to help my physical body or help me, you know, be more emotionally regulated logically. And I want to, you know, embody these new choices and the reality of it is,

the second we do, it's going to signal you're in unfamiliar territory, and one of two things happen. We either get the racing thoughts, all of the reasons why we shouldn't be doing this, now's the right time, this isn't working anyway, you can start tomorrow. Some of us it drops into our body.

We start to experience ourselves in a new way, and it feels unfamiliar. We might be uncomfortable in new ways. Again, all of the reason to return to those old habits. So the step of embodying that choice is really the journey of creating the change and of learning to tolerate the discomfort that will come with it. Which is interesting because we would rather do something that's bad for us because it's familiar, than to change that habit in the first place. Absolutely. Which is, and in order to change that neuroplasticity,

you have to kind of, you have to keep on doing something that's uncomfortable or different over and over again. How do you change the neuroplasticity? Consistency is really important. And just to clarify, because when we're saying neuroplasticity, I think sometimes neuroplath ways.

No, no, you're right. But I think listeners might think then we are just talking about the brain, right? Thinking a new thought, using information, a mantra, right? Conceptualizing or having a new awareness, and I really want to highlight that it also means the body, right? Learning how to, and I keep focusing are going back to the nervous system because so many of our nervous systems into adulthood are dysregulated. We have to learn how to create safety in our body, how to, you know,

drop back in for some of us first and foremost to our bodies. So if you talk about that in the book, regulator versus deregulated, what's the difference? How would you know the difference? Like how would someone, like me, know the difference? Yes. So we have an unconscious system. It's called neuroception. We're always scanning. Our nervous system is always on alert for a possible threat. I'll simplify kind of what happens when there is no threaded hand.

We're in what's called the parasympathetic, otherwise, and it's rest and digest. We're able to be calm, to feel peaceful, to feel connected to others, the world around us, we're engaged, we're safe. If when we're scanning, we perceive the possibility of a threat, the first attempt that we'll do is to fight the threat. If we have the idea that we might be able to overcome the threat, our nervous system will mobilize, we'll go into sympathetic fight or flight. And the first thing we'll do is our heart will start pumping. Think about a

fight, right? Boxing. Our heart will start pumping. Our muscles will tense, getting ready to throw that physical punch. We might start to sweat a little bit. Our body heat will rise, our body temperature will rise, because we're attempting to create safety by defeating that threat. If we discover that we can't fight that threat or if we perceive that that threat is too big for me, it's overwhelming me. The second thing I'll try to do is to use all that mobilized energy and flee. My next best option is to get the heck away from the thing that could threaten me.

Same thing. I have all the blood pumping. My muscles are tense. I may be running away. I'm blood pumping through my veins, my chest, or my breath might be quickened. If we can't escape, we become shutdown. Our energy decreases. We might feel listless. Our muscles might even feel like we can't move. Our breath might be non-existent. We might be holding our breath. Now we're in a shutdown state. So dropping in, I described a little bit, the sensations.

Dropping into your body is going to give you the clues to whether or not your nervous system is dysregulated. And our muscle tension is a great place to look. Our blood flow, our breath, and our heart rate. Those are usually signals. And again, if we're too much energy, if we're amplified, we can bring it down. If we don't have enough energy,

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And you know, it's all about being safe, you said. And you talk about safety a lot too. What are some ways and tools that people can work on that to get their bodies to feel safe? Safety. Safety. Yes, safety is incredibly important. And again, it's a embodied practice.

And a lot of us when we drop in and we don't feel safe, we want to shift the way we're breathing. Shift, the energy in our body, if it's too low, bring it higher, if it's too high, bring it lower, we can ground ourselves in the present moment, attuned to what's actually happening around us, turn our attention to grounding, the feeling of our heels on the earth when we're standing or sitting. Anytime we can really focus our energy and what's happening here now. Because for a lot of us, the fear

and that nervous system reaction is living in a past moment, right? We're assigning a meaning of a similar experience that happened before, and I was overwhelmed, and I had a fight or flee, and so now my nervous system is mobilizing as if that's my only option now. So for many of us, if we can just really turn our focus

of attention to where are we standing? What is available to us? Can I maybe breathe a little bit deeper? If I do feel my breath starting to quicken, all of those are ways that we can ground ourselves and create safety in our body, but it's those choices that involve our body, that involve changing its energy,

changing the focus of my attention, changing maybe the pace of my breath that will send that signal to my body. This is where we have to make that action instead of just thinking, I am safe. Well, you give all these different breathing techniques. There's like so many. I didn't know there was so many different types of breathing. My God. So, when do you do what?

Which ones are certain breathing techniques that are better for different scenarios, or you can just pick and choose like, you know, whatever you want? There's a ton, ton of type of breath works, probably some I've never even heard of or are not educated enough for a million of them. To speak of, but really simply, I'll simplify, when our breathing is quickened, when we're kind of our chest is heaving, we want to calm our breathing is quickened, when we're kind of our chest is heaving, we want to calm our breathing down. Slow, deep, belly-breathing is a great kind of go-to.

If we're always holding our breath, or if we're in that nervous system, shut down state that I described, we have no energy. It's really, we feel very listless. Then we can actually do, I love to shout out Wim Hof. I think he does a great stimulating, vigorous breathing type of practice. We did this on the podcast. He did his breath work with Brad on the podcast. And again, YouTube is a great place. You can go and pop in some keyword searches if neither of those are of interest to you. But if our breath is too quick,

we want to slow it down. Just really simple. If our breath is too slow or we're holding it, we want to stimulate our body. But there's a time to slow it down. Just really simple. If our breath is too slow or we're holding it, we want you stimulate our body. But there's a time to speak to your point of different types. So I really suggest listeners really find one that works for them that can fit into their daily life. Because again, what is most important is the consistency of practice. And breath work is one of those areas where,

oh yeah, I know, deep belly breathing when I'm stressed out. So I'm only going to do it when I'm stressed out. That's what I was going to ask is, I was going to say, how important is this for a daily use? Most importantly. You do this daily daily and you meditate daily? I meditate not in a traditional sense daily so when I started my journey I was very much in that shutdown state.

I was detached, associated, disconnected from my body. I felt like I had very little energy. I was actually fainting at some point. I remember this. So can you give people a little bit of background because just in case that they don't know the first episode. Absolutely. Absolutely.

So to kind of take you through all those nervous system states. So in the beginning, from like when you were stressing my childhood environment, right, cycling through that attempt at fighting it, at fleeing it, my nervous system, not being able to actually leave the home that I was growing up in. A lot of stress was happening, not only because I was living in a city where there was active stressors just related to daily city life. I had health-related issues with my mom and my sister in particular who both struggled or suffered with chronic illness my whole life.

So, lots of stress resulted in, before I know it, a completely shut down nervous system. I had none of this language though. I know idea couldn't even acknowledge that there was even something wrong with me. When I was in my teenage years, high school years, I started to come to my awareness that I didn't have memories of my childhood. I would talk to my friends

and they would share a childhood Christmas stories and this and that and looked to me for how it was like, I don't remember very soon, we would have memories together as friends. Oh, that concert last year, I went, what? You know, really start- No memory. No memory.

So then I'm like, what is wrong with me? Why don't I have memories? Like do I have a brain disorder? Again, not having language, no understanding of why I didn't have memories, trudging along, pushing myself through life. I'm just a little bit more focused on my life. I'm just a little bit more focused on my life. I'm just a little bit more focused on my life. I'm just a little bit more focused on my life. I'm just a little bit more focused on my life.

I'm just a little bit more focused on my life. I'm just a little bit more focused on my life. I'm just a little bit more focused on my life. I'm just a little bit more focused on my life. I'm just a little bit more focused on my life. I'm just a little bit more focused on my life. I'm just a little bit more focused on my life. I'm just a little bit more focused on my life. emotions working for the weekend, couldn't wait to go away again. And before long, out of nowhere, I started fainting and never fainting in my life.

The first time it happened, I was actually, not coincidentally, at a good childhood friend's house. We had reconnected after years of, you know, kind of living our own lives. And so I think something subconsciously was percolating, seeing her again. And we were out, she was showing me her new complex that she lived in, they had a pool accessible.

She's like, I wanna show you my pool, we got to the pool. I faint, I wake up to her and lolly my partner, waving over me, scared out of their mind, because I hit my head and like what happened, probably about three or four weeks later, I fainted again. Early one morning, we were in a hardware store, I started to get that feeling.

I fainted, again, I had no language. Now I'm sure something's wrong with my brain. Yeah. How could it not be? We were in a hardware store, I started to get that feeling. I fainted. Again, I had no language. Now I'm sure something's wrong with my brain. How could it not be? It was shortly after that I was exposed to this whole new world of the body, physiology, and the nervous system. When I started to learn about the nervous system, what I discovered was I was in that state of that shutdown.

I was living my whole life and fainting was just kind of my nervous system's final attempt at being like, you're done here. So having the language for it really helps me and then to answer your question, I got very consistent in Wim Hof in particular. I made a commitment each and every morning to pop it on his YouTube and to take myself through his breathing because my nervous system was shut down. I needed to stimulate my body. So again, it's important that we practice these tools consistently. Because if we're waiting for the moment when we need them, a couple of things will happen. We won't remember because the moment we need them now, this logical part of my brain that learned this new tool is actually shut down. We're now totally in our emotional

limbic system brain. We don't have access to this new thing I want to do. We actually kind of go offline in a lot of ways and we're not going to be confident in the tool. We're going to be so dysregally. So developing that consistent habit will translate to then in that moment when we really need it, then we can actually utilize it. Wow. That's a great explanation by the way from why, because I'll always say, oh, I don't like it. I'm not going to do it. I'll do it when I need it. And then you end up forgetting exactly to your point, but there's such benefits from doing the daily practice of that.

But you're saying you don't actually do real meditation. So meditation. So in the beginning, when I first discovered in my early 20s, I met the concept of mindfulness intuitively. I knew it was important. Oh, that's right. That's right. We did it here.

And I avoided it because by that point, sitting in silence with my thoughts was probably the most overwhelming thing. I actually pride it myself on keeping myself busy, never alone, never in silence, and never wrapped up in those thoughts, distracted, disconnected. So for me, that felt completely unapproachable and I know it does for many. So we can become what we're practicing when we're meditating really simply in my opinion, at least is we're becoming conscious. We're learning, closing the eyes in the traditional way that we meditate, decreases the external stimulation, allows us to be present with our internal world.

It's an act of consciousness, right? Then we get to view these thoughts in our mind and choose if we pay attention to them or what we're doing with our attention in that moment. Because that felt really overwhelming, as it will for a lot of us. I practiced consciousness when I was going about my day. For me, moving my body, because in addition to breathwork, I made a commitment, understanding that I had so much attention and tightness from living stressed out. My whole, even my posture showed it.

I made a daily commitment to moving. Again, not in a strenuous way, I definitely wasn't at the gym. Up until that point, I was someone who avoided physical discomfort. Even after having played sports, I had so much tightness in my muscles. At the second I stretched,

and my muscles got a little bit outcheated, I'd stop my stretch. I took that to mean that, oh, you can't push your body, pass that limit, your body's screaming not to. So I developed a complete habit of avoiding discomfort, which meant that outside of walking around the city that I lived into, commute myself to work, I didn't do much activity at all. So the commitment I made was not only to breathwork, it was to my body. To first, for me, gently stretching my body. Maybe 10 minutes a day I would put in, I loved yoga with Adrian.

Still lover to this day. You know, I don't know that one. She was a simple, daily kind of easy yoga practitioner. And it was so approachable for me. She does these 30 day challenges where some practices are 10 minutes, some are maybe 20 minutes. And I commit it to gently moving my body each and every morning to begin to create, you know, release the tension, create a new habit of moving and working past that resistance that I didn't like to do that.

Wow. And it's worked for you. And it's, I mean, that for me, tending to my body, allowing my nervous system to come back into balance, I think has been the foundational change. And why now I call myself the holistic psychologist and I really profess the need to incorporate the body. In my opinion, without the body where our nervous system lives, we're not going to create

the healing and the transformation. It's interesting because I'm so much in my body that I become less in my head. So it's like that mind body connection is very difficult for either people are too in their body or they're too in their head to get the combination is I find to be very challenging, right? Like, do you know what I'm saying? But do people ever ask you about that?

Like that they are not having the, there's a disconnect between the two? Yeah, I think we can have different focal points and where we spend our most time. And I think like you're saying, learning how to shift and all out of third area to shift focus, like how is my body feeling? What are the thoughts going into my mind? How am I perceiving? What is the meaning? I'm making the event and what's happening outside of me? Yeah. And how do I balance my attention on all of those areas to make sense then of what I'm experiencing and what choice then I want to make.

And to speak to your point, I do think some of us become hyper focused in one area. In one area. I'm hyper focused on my body. I'm so lost in my mind all the time. Or I'm so externally focused. I don't even me, who's me? I'm always looking at my body or I'm so lost in my mind all the time or I'm so externally focused I don't even me who's me I'm always looking at you and what you need in perceiving the external environment

You did I love how you break down also like everything that's why I love your book Like both of you because you give like if you're this kind of person Like this kind of person. Well, then what was it? Like there's so many of them like you know look for this Like there's something you talked about with a lot, but you talked about the emotional self, the authentic self, the, what was the other one, the physical self? What is the emotional self? And then, yeah, can you break those down? Absolutely. So the book begins with that foundation of the physical self. Let's attune to my physical body. Let's identify the state of nervous system, dysregulation, I'm in safety. Let's, let to my physical body. Let's identify the state of nervous system to circulation in safety.

Let's create safety. Let's make sure I'm, another way we create safety is to make sure I'm consistently meeting my needs. Am I sleeping the amount I need to sleep? And this is some air. Big news is physical needs. These are physical needs. Like there's a whole, there's a whole pyramid of myself.

Because that's also how we feel safe. If our needs aren't consistently met, we don't feel safe. Our body is gonna send a signal that's actually not safe because it needs more sleep. Right. It needs, it's muscles to be, you know, moved a bit or it's not getting the nutrients that it needs. So safety is about not only creating safety in those moments where I'm perceiving a threat, it's continuously sending my body signals that it has what it needs.

So that begins the journey because that is the foundation as far as I say it. And then the next layer of the onion is our mental or emotional self. All of these experiences, perceptions, the way we even navigate our emotions. For many of us as adults, we didn't have an attuned caregiver who modeled emotional regulation, which is the ability to feel, experience emotions, take them for the information that they carry. Emotions actually do send us information about how we're experiencing the environment around us.

They're very helpful. And then choosing how we respond, and I'll be the first to admit, as an adult, I had none of those tools. I wasn't connected enough to my body to know what emotion I was having. And I definitely wasn't responsive. I was very reactive when my stress got too much, you know, and I didn't speak up for myself enough. I would explode out with anger at times.

If it got too much and I became too overwhelmed, I would disconnect, dissociate. Right. And so learning emotional resilience in adulthood, I think, is a point of shame for a lot of us because we feel like, oh, I should know already how to tolerate my emotions. And maybe some of us actually do shameful things when we're saying or doing things that hurt ourselves or our loved ones, though I find the large majority of us as adults, we don't know. I mean, here I am at clinical psychologists, right?

Task. Teaching other people emotions and emotional resilience. And I didn't have those tools myself. Well, emotionally, to regulate your emotions, I think it's a very hard thing to, as an adult, as a child, I think they say a lot of things I've read and other experts have spoken what to say. If you can master that,

that's like the key to success in life, they say, which is very hard. I mean, there's a whole thing on mastering your emotions. I think it's, again, easy and theory, quite difficult in real life. Absolutely. Like, what would you tell people, how could they even start to do this?

It's like the one on the hardest things ever. Well, I first want to, I think, explore a curious address, how we're even defining master, because I think some of us think that what mastering our emotions mean is not having them. Right. Right. Knowing how to control, I think this is what it means. Stop them. Control them. Controlling them. Maybe you're recognizing what you're feeling and then controlling them or not letting them

control you. Right, basically. Some version, I think, when I hear that, I hear like, stop them. Yeah, right, and again, I don't think that's not, that's like a Jordan Peterson thing. Do you know that you know Jordan Peterson? Yes, he says, it's like you have to,

that's what he says, master your emotions, first recognize him and then like, that's his whole thing Peterson. Yes. He says it's like you have to, that's what he says. He master your emotions, first recognize him, and then like that's his whole thing. Right, yeah. And I intentionally begin with that, because again, like I was just sharing, emotions have value. We don't want to squash or become so disconnected

from our emotional world, though, we do want to remain in choice about how we respond. That's true mastery of emotions, allowing stressful things to happen, allowing us to become upset or angry or sad, and then allowing ourselves to be with it, and to support ourselves, seek support through it, and possibly even utilize some of these tools

on understanding that emotions are in the body. There are things we can do to help us even process our emotions. And that's what I believe emotional mastery is. And again, it's a daily commitment to first becoming aware of the emotions as they're happening. And to learn then different ways because we all are coping. There is something we're all doing. And what it is typically is the way we've adapted. The only thing that we could do it at some early time in an environment where that was our only choice. Yeah, I find this, I also find so interesting that we are picking people, doing things in our life based on things that we, from our past, right? That may necessarily not be good for us or emotional

that we from our past, right? That may necessarily not be good for us, or emotional care, or whatever we're doing. But yet, like, because again, we don't know what we don't know. And though, doesn't that become like a vicious loop? Because then I'm picking people that are, and you put this all in, you're like, how I love this part of your book, right? Like, hold on, I gotta go back to this part.

The emotional, what was this that you said that was so good? Not the 90 second rule of emotions, because I do like that part too, but emotional addiction. What is that exactly? And then I'll get into what I'm trying to say, but I'm saying it very poorly. Emotional addiction is essentially the familiarity that many of us have ingrained in our bodies and our mind bodies of the repeated emotions in our childhood environment. So I use myself in the same. Okay, growing up with a lot of stress in the home That was the main emotion emotional climate of my home Which means that in my body I had my fight or flight response who's activated

I had all the tension right my my heart was Tending to the need to deal with that threaded hand. I had court of saw, the stress hormone racing through my blood. Before very long, I was start to proclaim in my heart. I always kind of joke, but I'm a hippie at heart. I love two things, freedom and peace. That's all I want. Right, so now flash forward in time, say I have a peaceful moment. I'm not around anyone or there's no active stressor.

What I would notice is how difficult it was and before long I would create a stress. I would revisit the argument that happened in the morning or what could have been an argument or I'd focus on the to-do list that is hanging over my head. I'd almost create a stressful experience in absence of one and seeing a similar pattern and maybe it's for listeners, it's sadness, it's a different feeling. But what is the feeling that most of my experience is in childhood elicited in my body and again, back to that familiarity principle, if you will, for lack of a better word, we become so used to that and our body body is, for me, so using that moment in time

where there's no stress, my body wasn't. My body was in a stress-down state. My nervous system was activated. There was probably a lot of cortisol because my body was in that fight-of-flight mode. So it's understandable when I understand physiologically what's happening because those stressful stories running through my mind about the look that I now want to argue about or the to-do list that I want to worry about, that's

actually just narrating the messages it's getting from my body. Because my mind is always just as much, my mind is scanning my body, my body is sending messages up to my mind. So my mind in that moment is getting a message that Nicole, you're in fight or flight, right? Something's happening, right? My body is sending sending it you're of cortisol running through your veins so we're gonna have to now identify what thing is stressing you out and lo and behold here come the cyclone of stressful thoughts and if I hook my attention if I think then about the look the to-do list now I'm top down right I'm thinking a stressful thought and continuing a stressful

reaction in my body. And the majority of us as adults because we haven't, we don't have emotional resilience, which is the ability to deal with something stressful or an emotion and come back to peace to balance so that very utopian description. I gave earlier, right? I'm peaceful and balanced. I'm calm. I'm connected. If we're not ever going back there, then our familiar is some other emotional state. And again, we gravitate toward that. We feel not like ourselves when we're not lit up with stress or upset about something.

And again, before long, because our body is in that state, our mind is gonna join in and we're gonna continue that in that cyclone of that emotional addiction. And so how you break this, because you end up, my point was you end up picking people in your life that are familiar, that may not be the great, because you don't know all this stuff or you do,

and it's what's familiar. And then your whole life becomes living out a trauma that you had in your past, because then how do people reconcile that? Like, what do people, how do you break an addiction like that at a time when, I guess my point, how do you break that addiction? All this comes down to like,

how do you try to control your emotions, break bad patterns that now that you're aware of? Because again, it's like you can know the trigger, but yet you come back to Because again, it's like you can know the trigger, but yet you come back to that place where it's comfortable and it's really hard to then do something with it. Right. I keep on coming back to the same piece because I feel like that's what everyone I think is, that's what everyone's struggle is. Some people may be more aware than others, but at the end of the day, you can know all the information, but yet still be caught and stuck in the same vicious cycle of trauma mode. Absolutely.

I think that might be, and when I would do individual work with clients several years ago, that I think is one of the most frustrating, disempowering places to go. The more aware we're becoming, as we're kind of almost witnessing ourselves do that thing again, you know, and living the aftermath of it, I think it can really, you know, provoke a lot of shame in thoughts of what is wrong with me. Why can't I, you know, change? Why do I keep doing the same things that aren't serving me? And all of this just speaks to the point of how important it is to embody those choices. And right, to do so back to this idea of consistency. I think another area where we really do ourselves

a disservice is when we try to do too much new things, too many changes at once. So if we do discover we're picking the wrong partner. So we wanna show up completely differently now in this new relationship experience. The more we're gonna venture into that unfamiliar territory, the more our nervous system we're going to feel overwhelmed, the more likely we are to go right back to those old habits. So it can be really frustrating to patiently and incrementally focus on the consistency of those promises,

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to push past that, right? And I'm sure you get this all the time like even in your membership group What is a number what's the number one thing that you even hear in your business and your practice and your membership that people are Mostly suffering with is it that they don't know or they do know and yet they don't know what to do about it It's they kind of know they have an idea and some definitely now right and they don't know what to do about it. They kind of know they have an idea and some definitely know. And they don't know what to do about it. And so self betrayal is a word that kind of we use a lot in the membership, which is this idea of all of the different ways we're showing up not in service of us or on this idea that we're not worth it.

Or, you know, we can't is another big one. In my opinion, all of those beliefs come from usually our earliest environment where things that happened around us or to us given the developmental immaturity of our meaning-making system, our brain at that time, we could really only land on a certain meaning for events. And the typical meaning when people don't show up consistently to care for us, whether it's physically or emotionally, or we are told to suppress certain aspects of who we are

as children, the more consistently that happens, we're not able to understand the dynamics of the caregivers who are giving us these messages or whoever it is sending us these messages. We're not able to maybe understand that our parent can't be physically present because of other factors in their life or their own past experience and history that's causing them to not be emotionally connected to us, to our childlike developmental mentality, all rose lead back to, it's something wrong with us. So at our core, most of us humans who don't have

that attuned, present, available caregiver, because very few of us have that for different reasons, for cultural reasons, for generational reasons, for resource reasons. There's a lot of generations that came before us that never learned how to care for all of their needs, so they weren't able to translate that to the children. So so many of us have that deep belief of we're not worthy because someone wasn't available or present as consistently as we needed them. And that was the only sense that we can make of it. So then what gets compounded on that are like you're beautifully saying

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upfront payment required, full terms at onepeloton.com for slash home dash trial. Right, right, right. And then like, so you say like consistency, being conscious of what you're doing, triggers, what are other ways that we can get closer to our authentic self? When I very intentionally take us through the journey of creating that safety in our physical

box, becoming aware of our emotional world, our emotional addictions that are coloring, how we're experiencing our self, because ultimately what we want to do is we want to all get to part three. How do I meet my authentic self? But you could just like fast forward. Where is that person? Right. I was very intentional in building the framework because we can to all get to part three. Well, how do I meet my authentic self? But you could just like fast forward. Where is that person? I was very intentional in building the framework because we can't get there. You're good at that too.

You did a very good job because you went from the habit, was it the habit self, the physical self, the physical emotional self, the authentic self. You also put in there a lot of like affirmations. So you're a huge fan of affirmations. I was gonna ask you about that. Do you believe, obviously, you believe they work? Because I feel like unless you feel it from the inside, if you just

say something over and over again, it doesn't resonate unless you really believe it to be true. Do you believe that if you say something over and over again enough, it becomes, you believe it after a while? In the beginning, you absolutely aren't gonna believe it because beliefs are not only practice thoughts. This is how I simply define them. They're grounded in our lived experience. So the common meanings I've made, this similar thing that's happened so long enough.

So now I believe this to be true about myself. So that's why when we start to say, if you believe so, it's just unworthy example. If my core belief is how unworthy I am, as it is for most of us, and I start to just affirm, I'm worthy every day. Your subconscious mind is gonna be rolling its eyes and say, no, you're not,

because actually, I think that happened this morning just proved how unworthy you are. That call, you're not getting back from this possible date, it's just telling you how unworthy you are. We're filtering our experience and confirmation of our beliefs because we love to be right. We love to self-confirm in that way. So to speak to your point,

no, we're not every month in this circle. We offer an affirmation that goes along with the content of the month. How big is the circle by the way? We're growing, it's global. It's a global membership. Yeah, we actually have more members outside of the United States than inside the United States,

which for me is very much a point of pride. Wow. I'm very passionate about making sure that these message and, you know, some of the underserved countries are in the circle. So because of demand and because we want to make enrollment not feel stressful, not activate our nervous system. So in a dramatic way,

I'm just regulated. We've initiated a wait list process where all everyone who enrolls on the wait list does get an opportunity and we're able to kind of Navigate or manage the enrollment process so it doesn't crash our systems I'm so every time it does open there is an enrollment process, but everyone does get an opportunity to how long is the membership for? Is it a year on people it's monthly? Goes on forever so some people buy, some people buy the yearly. We have members that have been founding members

for three years now, still in the membership. And what do you get? So I don't mean to change VR over here, but I was just going to say, like, do you learn these things? Because I feel like it was such a meaningful purposeful to do the membership. In addition to the community, which is a main reason why people are internationally

joining. We just rolled out a members map where you can drop your geolocation and connect with humans in real human form. So for a lot of people, it's the community that they're joining for, though, every month in addition to affirmations. We put out PDF content on the particular topic with kind of what the topic is, what the concept is, practical tools, how to integrate these lived kind of experiences or tools in action. Every month I do a guided meditation so you can pop in meditation.

We have a book hub, we have a workshop a month, I think each week even now we've expanded we have a lot of four live events, everything from community check-ins, the teaching workshops, a Q&A each month with me. So it's really jam-packed. People really, we call it self-led individualized so that people can really tailor the experience. So every month we offer a new course, so there's members working in all different course areas. It's like a choose your own journey in community with people and to go back to affirmations.

Yeah. choose your own journey in community with people. And to go back to affirmation, if affirmation is a big part of it. And the thing I hear most frequently is how often and how little we believe those affirmations. So in addition to repeating them, I think there's a couple different steps. First, it's removing the focus of attention from how often you're repeating the old belief. Because chances are you're going about your day,

even if you affirm in the morning, I'm worthy. Throughout your day, you're probably thinking those critical thoughts of how unworthy you are. So really choosing to take our, while we can't control our thoughts, and I think this is another misperception people have, I'm just going to stop those thoughts. No, you're not. Those thoughts will happen. They're rehearsed. They're how your subconscious has made sense of the world. The best choice you can make is acknowledge them and then remove your focus of attention. Because an affirmation in the morning is only going to be as strong as how much you're validating, right? This old belief. So we want to stop validating that by not paying as much attention to it.

So that over time, not only are we laying down the new neural network by repeating it like you're saying, we can start to be more intentional and begin to expand that filter. So begin to intentionally see instances question when that idea of unworthiness comes with it. And is this really an indicator? This person not getting back to me that I'm not worthy right now or might they be busy with something else, right? Then we can challenge the evidence that we've been validating an old

belief with and maybe over time let in some confirmation because you're right. We're not going to immediately overnight affirm something 20 times. I know, right. Believe it to be true. It's again that more full embodiment process of acknowledging, of living in consciousness so that you're not validating an old belief and of intentionally allowing yourself to see this new evidence. That's similar to act as if, like act as if, pretend like you, because it does, if you think you can

or you think you can't, you know? Right, you're right, right? So is that kind of in the same ilk of that whole thing? In the actions. In the action. Absolutely. You know, all of the different ways, especially with unworthiness,

if we continue assuming we're doing the work to show up consciously and rebuild our care for our physical body and our emotional body, those daily actions will indicate worthiness. The action of showing up for yourself in this new way of saying, you know what, I need sleep, and I'm gonna put that priority tonight and take care of me or whatever it is.

I'm going to do some breath work because my nervous system is so dysregulated. All of that in those actions and those daily commitments, after you've worked with the resistance of doing this new thing, will begin to fill that bucket of worthiness because you are now acting as if by even showing up as someone who is worthy enough to have their needs met, right? In opposition to that child experience, I'm not worthy because this person isn't showing up, you can be the worthy adult who in the action

of caring for yourself can begin to affirm that, you know what? You are more worthy than you once thought yourself to be. I think the self-worthy, self-doubt, and the self-sabotage, even when, because it's hard, when you feel, think you deserve only a certain amount and then you, you'll, you will never pass that threshold, right? You'll always bring away to, so I guess it's back to the subject. Are those two things that you feel also like the other one that people are always mentioning and talking about as a whole? Because there's so many people who want to see you.

I think, I think a core core belief, all, most roads are leading back to that idea of not worthy and the lived manifestation of how we create the unworthiness into our daily life, whether it's interpersonal and it happens mostly in our relationships, whether or not, you know, we do so professionally in our career or what have you, it's those daily habits that really are illustrating, some version of that. belief and relationships is the next kind of highlighted piece because those of us that are in, you know, partnerships of any kind, which most of us are, and even friendships include it, often the dynamics, the issues, the conflicts, like you were saying earlier, picking the same kind

of person and really realizing that like, I do want to kind of show up differently in my next relationship. That's the largest, I think, focus. I feel like also it's so subconscious though, but you know, you can have the right, you think that you could be attracted to one type of person, right? Initially, I guess, superficially, not superficially physically, but your brain goes there, even though they're not the right person for you, you're saying also like you catch that, you'd be conscious of what you're doing to stop the behavior from happening, right? Being conscious first of how you're showing up, all of the ways in a relationship, from developing a relationship, and I am not as shocked now, though, I've talked to many

people who, and even getting to know someone, whether it's romantic, professionally, absolutely, platonically, so much of us aren't actually focused on our experience of that person. What we're more focused on is their experience of us. Right. We want them to call us back. We don't know if we like them, but we want to call back. Or we don't like them really, and we're upset

when we don't get. Why is it because we want to feel back. Or we don't like them really, and we're upset when we don't get. Why? Is it because we want to feel validated? That we want. Because we want external validation. Because in childhood, right, there was maybe safety, value, connection that we were able to create or maintain with someone by putting someone else first,

by scanning and by looking for the cues that we are, say, for connected or accepted by them. And then that just becomes our framework. So here we are trying to assess the appropriateness of whatever connection it is. And we're not actually even checking in with our experience. And so that, for some of us, is a first ground baking shift that it's more important that you're interested in this person and then how are you showing up when you're there in interaction with them? Are you attuned to how you're feeling? Are

you attuned to what you want? What you want to express and are you doing that? That's kind of everything that I mean when I say the role you're playing and what most of us will see is all the different focal points we have, all the different worries that we have, all different habits that we have, caretaking someone else or whatever it might be for us. And we're not actually focusing on getting our needs a part of the relationship equation. Gosh, it's so cool. There's so many layers upon layers of stuff here. I mean, there's like, it's just unbelievable.

And like, you're so good at just explaining it and like, kind of, you know, you are, you're, thank you. We're complex as humans. As, I mean, beyond. I mean, like, everything I have here, like I was ripped, now I'm noticing when I was reading your book, I was like,

right down notes, but they're not really questions. They're just stuff like that I like really like, like that authentic knees pyramid, but there's no question to it or like body beliefs or physical. I mean, your book is so good. I mean, this really, you do a such a good job. Thank you. You really, really do.

Thank you. You're welcome. So then, again, getting back to how do we, you draw this huge pathway to get to the authentic self, right? So then what? Now what's the next step? The affirmation now I understand. It's like you've explained it's really well.

So after the emotional self, after all this, what's the next? So we were grounded, we're safe in our body, we're safe in our body. We're connected, we know when we're having emotions. Right, we're not repeating the emotions of the pain. We're consistent, we're present. We're here now. And now where am I?

It's about carving those moments out of solitude, of time with myself, with my thoughts. For me, it's incredibly important. I'm someone who conditioned way of overachieving, focusing as a distraction, all of the things I have to do, it's very easy up until now. Now, actually, for me not to wake up and go right into work mode. So that means for me being really intentional, that for me, it's in the mornings, for anyone listening to me anywhere on their day, that you have at least a few moments with yourself,

with your own thoughts, with your own presence. So many of us, for very real obligations and all of the other places our attention goes throughout the day, we're not anywhere on that map. There's no moments. There's no minutes in the day that we actually spend just with ourselves. So that's a big... It's a big showing of kids, it's also a big warning. Absolutely. So finding the time to make the space to hear yourself and what are you listening to

then as a next question because very, I think a lot of us, when we're looking for who we are, this authentic self, I think we're doing what we're habit it to do. We're looking in our thinking mind. We're looking to be guided by thoughts in our head and I believe that this intuition, the guidance of the authentic self that we're all searching for,

again, I'm sure not no surprise by this conversation. The director is good, it lives in our body. It speaks in a more kind of somatic visceral way. Some of us kind of get sensations, maybe in our heart space, or we feel constricted when things aren't meant for us, or we start to feel a lightness and ease, even in the excitability when something is meant for us.

For others, it's not the repetitive thoughts that we have. It's light bulb ideas or just instincts, intuition, senses. I guess is the word I'm trying to find here that we get. Without that space to attune to, how is it that my intuition talks to me? Because it probably will be different than how you've learned your kind of guidance is. So carving the space to attune to

how am I being communicated with? What is the areas that just come easeful to me? I talk a lot about flow, finding your flow zone, finding those areas that you get so immersed in what you're doing, you're just in that beingness day. That's a component, I believe, of your authentic self. Other people might be surprised to hear that also lives in their passion purpose.

For me, these are words that I read them in books through my 20s. Or just scrolling Instagram. Didn't relate to them, thought that chip was not genetically inside of me I must be someone who doesn't have a passion or a purpose. I told myself this for decades Because again when we're in survival mode all this goes back to the system passion purpose the future Survival immediate right now, so it's not that I didn't have a passion or purpose

I didn't feel safe enough to allow myself to express or even identify what that was now. Of course, I will shout from the rooftops. I'm very passionate about the work I do and feel very purposeful. I feel like this is what I meant here to do. But again, a decade ago, when we're in survival mode, we can't have the space to even entertain our deepest desires, things that we want for ourselves. Imagining even creativity is not accessible.

So those are all components and might be for a lot of listeners, just words that they hear me saying because you could be, right? So stuck in survival, that your nervous system won't allow you to be creative, to be imaginative, to connect with your passion or your purpose or you might not feel safe in doing so. So those are components of the authentic self,

which I think maybe listeners now understand why, need to build those foundations. While we wanna jump to section three, I'm sorry, I can't, without the band, no, I'm saying, most of us, not you, I was directing this to most people. No, most people who pick up that book, right, how to meet yourself, oh authentic self, oh well. Geez how many pages and let me get there But without the connection to your body without the safety in your body without having to have a step shifting right from the past

Experiences that are coloring now that might not be accurate. I don't have the safety to connect with what I truly want in this Mo. Yeah, no, I think that's actually very true I mean, I just tease you because I like all the other stuff, actually, because it's, it just explains who we are, Moira, I said to you. What part of social media do you think has really affected, though, being disassociated, being distracted? All these things that are taking us further and further away from our authentic self. You know, people say in hashtags, authenticity, body positivity, blah, blah, blah, blah, they were all just blabby, blah, words that people are getting very tangled up in. But I think there's a lot of disservice happening and taking us further away.

Social media, I think, is a tool for lack of a better word. Like, you know, an entity and object, something we can manipulate and use. So like over time, we've had many of those social media is immediately accessible. So just like in ages ago, we've distracted ourself with all the different things we found as a distraction. And like now we just have the 24 hours immediately accessible,

ping on our phone to do that with. So I think in a lot of ways, it's not necessarily anything new, though the immediacy, a lot of times you'll hear like the dopamine and the kind of reinforcement of. The dopamine stimulation. And now 12 second videos and 15 seconds is too long. My attention span's not there.

I think again, it's a lot of stimulation that's at our fingertips. So like any tool, I think it can, you know, developing, cultivating, creating a conscious relationship with it because on social media also lives the playground for our emotional addictions. I'll share from myself. I know exactly where to go to find things online

that'll stress me out. In those moments where I'm feeling agitated, it's really easy, like you know what, I'm gonna check on that little person in there and see what they're saying now and get myself all upset again. Yeah, and I'll work up. So I think it becomes a space too for us to kind of

indulge those familiar feelings and stresses is my go-to. No, no me too. That's why I'm the same. And I just find it just, not only does it suck up time that you're actually dealing with what's really important and dealing with your stuff, but it's misguiding a lot of times. So picking, I think, having people, being very, I think being very specific and targeted and what you're doing, how you're following can help you

because the more distracted you are, you know, it's again, taking away time that's really meaningful and useful. And it's just getting worse, more platforms, more this, more that, like there's such a rise in mental health problems because of all of this. I think the more, with any choice that we make, the more we become conscious or intentional,

or we see ourselves picking up that fence to go do it. But when I haven't seen ourselves, it's just happening like the more that we do, if we're able, whatever it is in life, if we're able to create a intentional though, conscious relationship where we are employing choice, where I'm not just, I'm upset. So now I'm scrolling and I catch myself 20 minutes later into the scroll. If I'm conscious in that moment, even if the same choice is what I make,

I believe then we are empowering ourselves because I have then the conscious being who is kind of identifying that I'm stressed out right now and I'm making a choice to go to this thing. Because in that moment of making the choice, I could just, I could make a different choice too. And so whether we're talking about eating, scrolling online, anything that we could equally be unconscious and reactive and just be doing in our habits, I think it profoundly changes even if it's the same kind of action if it's coming from a consciously chosen place. So there are still moments where I will indulge the stress role, the doom scroll,

or where I'll distract myself, or I'll kind of numb myself in some different way. I'll zone out to mindless television. I'm doing so though consciously. I'm tired and this is how I'm going to tune out for this moment. That to me is an empowered space. Like I said, because I did have the opportunity to say,

you know what, I'm not gonna do that right now. I'm gonna do this other thing. That's very different than I have no other choice. I'm reacting and I'm just knee deep in my doom school or my 17 hours of television. And I didn't have that point of choice. Yeah, it was true. Did in this workbook, is it,

but you basically took what worked for you and basically put into a book for other people, correct? These are all things that you've practiced and done, right? Worked for me, worked for the community, kind of I've aggregated everything from things I've learned in clinical psychology as a clinical psychologist, nor more holistic work to watching members, whether again I was working individually with clients or now in this more group membership, kind of the universal kind of what I've seen to be helpful. Yeah.

Do you ever see a therapist yourself? I have in the past. I'm not currently. I've been in, oh, I was in for a very long time. I thought I was going to be a psychoanalyst, which is, think, yes. The couch laying with someone behind me. You'd be good. So as part of my training for that,

I was in, when I was really needy, but I was having panic attacks through my early 20s before I discovered any of this. I was thought I was anxious from that genetic chip that I got from my family, because they're all anxious too. And I was seeing a third, my first time. That's not true, are you, like me?

I'll tell you. That's okay, that's why. I'll tell you. I started thinking therapists had that place. And then I continued when I was going to train to be a psychoanalyst, one of the requirements and also benefits, I think, is being on the couch yourself. So then I was in psychoanalysis multiple times a week,

laying on a couch. When I disconnected with my family, has been part of my journey learning to create boundaries. I separated, I went no contact with my family has been part of my journey learning to create boundaries. I separated I went no contact with my family of origin for probably about 18 months ish and when we reconnected We did so in family therapy, so I was in family therapy So you're speaking to them again. We're speaking to them again. Really great. Yeah, we reconnected it through family therapy and then evolved out and I have active relationships with my dad my sister lost my mom last year. Oh my gosh, I'm sorry.

Yeah, she was sickly and kind of struggling for the past. I mean, for her whole life as long as I've known her, she had a lot of chronic illness and right, she finally passed. She had breast cancer at the last couple of years of her life. She didn't went through treatment with that and she was 84.

She was? She died. Yeah, my mom was 42 when she found out she was pregnant with me and my dad was 45. So really? Were you able then? Were you in contact with her when she died? That was. Oh my God.

Yes. Yes, we had been back in contact for probably almost a year and a half, two years. Oh wow. That's good then. Yeah. That's a moment. Yeah, that moment. That's a great full that we had the opportunity to. So part of the family therapy was having a lot of difficult hard conversations

that continued outside of therapy of really creating the space. So one of the reasons why I made the very difficult decision to take space was I was so amassed or just kind of connected to them that all my previous attempts at creating space or by that time I was living right outside of, or I was living in Philadelphia, they were living right outside of Philadelphia. So there was a lot of family suffers, Sunday dinners that I was required to. And being involved, you know, a lot of expectation and I was really struggling to uphold or create new limits for myself or boundaries

in active communication. So I made the decision to take some space to figure me out, to reconnect with what I wanted, what I needed, not really knowing how they would receive my request for space and if they would even be interested. On the other side, I just made the commitment at that point discovering everything we've been talking about and kind of helped. So many of my habits were putting them particularly first, other people first, how I had to make that kind of bold choice for me. And it is, but a lot of the time separated from them, wondering, worrying, unsure of what would happen next. And I'm very grateful that when I made the decision

to reach back out and kind of see where they were at, that they had already started family therapy themselves. And we're very interested. And we're scared themselves and not sure of what would happen next, though, we're very open. And a lot of really difficult, honest, helpful conversations were at that point where I was finally beginning to feel like there was space for me and my experience. And since then, there's just been a lot

of shifts in all the different individual relationships within the family. I'm very proud of them. That's amazing. How courageous of that I've due to do that. Because I think that that could be probably really helpful for a lot of people, but people don't have the courage to even bring that out. I used to, I have always loved California. Visiting here loved it, though, for a very long time would just kind of squash, because I could never move across country. My mom would kill me. So it was not even an option. And then I got into the stage of life where I was like, but wait, I really do want to move. And my mom's going to kill me.

So for a while, I would joke and say, I was going to leave in the dark at night. Just like call them from California. Let them know. That's what I did basically, but anyway. Yeah, but I mean, to speak to the point, every decision I was making, I was so vetting through them, by them,

it would affect them. This applied outside of even my relationship with my family. It was really a very hard decision because there was then a part of me too that felt like I didn't know right to ask for space. What really did they do wrong? Exactly. I was almost trying to convince myself out of it. They weren't actively abusing me. There was like, you know, nothing catastrophic per se

and it was really, really hard to make that the priority. And how did you do it? And why did you, like, what was the final straw or the catalyst that decided that you're going to do that? If there wasn't anything so acute moments, it wasn't acute. When I realized that I needed to change and put limits up, I did start to do that.

I started to be fast available. I put boundaries up, right? Stop coming to as many events or coming in a different way from working team, right? And there was a lot, it was hard to do that. There was a lot of expectation that I be there, that I be present, a lot of guilt when I was in. So it was enough of those moments where I was kind of living.

Yeah, it was a cute, honestly, that's what I was like. I, you know, and me just watching myself not be able to honor myself. And as opposed to, by that point, I knew where that tape played out to over time, because this is what happened in all of my romantic relationships. I wanted to get upset. I was really subconsciously upset with myself, but I wouldn't directly look at myself in the mirror and say, oh, I'm going to call this is you. You're not putting up these boundaries. You're not whatever it was

that I wasn't doing. I would point the finger at that person and say, you're the problem. And my, what was beginning to happen in my family was the resentment and there the problem was beginning to happen. And the reality of it was I understood that I actually was playing the role by not creating the limit and maintaining the limit, even though it was very difficult, that that was my responsibility. So to actually save the possibility of a future with them, understanding that the future did have to look different, which meant that I had a start to shop differently. I had to create, for me, it was space to be able to learn how to show up differently. So that when I did show up, I was accountable to myself,

and I wasn't going to blame them for what happened next in our relationship. So, you know, that's what you're, I think that's kind of one of your things, like, not, I think. It's that you put the onus on the person, right, on me, or whatever, to do the work. It's not about someone else fixing your life and your problems. It's about you taking ownership and having agency and doing it on your own, which is I think very, it's a, I think it's like the only, it's like you do teach them how to fish

or you do it for them type of thing, right? But that's so courageous, because when it comes to families like that, I mean, people do the play the whole blame game, even with like emotional stuff, like that person is not emotionally available, it's them, not me, right? Like, how do you tell, what do you say to people or how do you give people advice on how to stop pointing that finger on another people? Like, oh, he's not emotionally

available. It's him, it's her, it's that person or it's this thing and start taking that on themselves. Yeah, I think it's, I speaking, my own little thing, it's a difficult shift to make. Sure. When we live, you know, very habitual, very reactive, I think the byproduct is it naturally does feel like it's them. Because without that space, right, to do everything we've been beautifully talking about,

this thing happened, I created this meaning, this is what my body's feeling now, right. Without that space, it does very much feel like stimulus action event happened and I'm just reactive and we can disempower ourself and feel like it's what that person did. And if you just didn't, I wouldn't have. And it's natural to feel that way.

So having that very difficult honest conversation with ourself is the first step. I had to get really clear that I was someone who blamed everyone else for me and my life and how I was showing up and that wasn't serving me. So that's a difficult, I think, self-conversation to have and then just really refocusing, okay, if someone's not being emotionally available to you,

right, what part might you be playing? Are you sharing your emotions? Because a road that I always come back to is how I'm not being emotionally supported only to discover how I don't I expect people to mind read when I need emotional support. And at the same time, while I'm expecting them to mind read, I actually have my hand up, I might be being passive aggressive, or I might be leaving the room entirely and not allowing you to support me.

So while I have a need, the message I'm sending, the lack of communication around that need is creating that emotional absence that I was used to in my childhood. So that familiarity of being distanced from someone, it was exactly what I was creating, yet you would have heard me profess up until I met Lali, how I needed to just find a new partner because they weren't emotionally deep enough for me. We weren't emotionally connected. So I blamed them thinking that I was showing up

as this vulnerable, emotional being who was available for this connection. When lo and behold, I was disconnected on my spaceship, not aware of my own emotions, definitely not sharing them with someone else and not allowing myself to be supported. But on the same token, you found Lollie, right? Who then did give you emotional support.

So at what point is it that those other people were the wrong partners and it was just until you met the right one. With Lolli to this day, there are still moments where I am that person who's come close, but not really. Yeah. There's still those active moments.

Having an available partner who's ready for support, I still see myself and a lot came up for me around the one year anniversary of my mom's death. This past May when a lot of sadness, grief, was happening for me around the one year anniversary of my mom's death is past May when a lot of sadness, grief, was happening for me and instead of vulnerable, sharing with my partners that I needed support, I did exactly what I just described to you. I expected them just to know.

And at the same time, I was passive aggressive, right? And I didn't allow them near me. And then I held them responsible and got even outwardly angry. And maybe erupted a time or two. How dare you not emotionally support me? So right, humans available for emotional support, me close down.

And that's the reality that the role that many of us are playing. We think we're showing up, connected, grounded, open, for love and really we're repeating habits that are just maybe keeping us close down, disconnected, unavailable for love and really we're repeating habits that are just maybe keeping us closed down, disconnect, unavailable for love. Right, right, right, because that's all we know. And that's like we don't even see how we occur. We're like totally, completely wrong about how we occur. So again, a lot of us comes back to having self awareness, so it's just so hard for

I think to, even if you think you're being self awareaware a lot of times, you're just quite frankly not being. And this is why the value of partnerships is much as it's difficult sometimes to hear. And this isn't mean taking in every outside perspective from every person you cross on the street. Of course, this is your close, confident, trusted relationships. But to speak to your point again,

we are completely subjective. We only know what we know. So a lot of times when listeners might have heard people say, oh, you know, relationships are teachers. One of the ways they are a teacher to us is they can offer us this alternate perspective of us. One that might be really difficult to hear. It was very difficult to hear when I was being told I was being passive aggressive, prickly

as well. Lollie likes to call me sometimes. Like, you know, and I did not, the first thing we did was, no, I'm not, deny it. I don't want to hear that. I don't want to hear that. I don't want to hear that. I don't want to hear that.

I don't want to hear that. I don't want to hear that. I don't want to hear that. I don't want to hear that. I don't want to hear that. I don't want to hear that. I don't want to hear that. I don't want to hear that.

I don't want to hear that. I don't want to hear that. I don't want to hear that. I don't want to hear that. I don't want to hear that. I don't want to hear that. I don't want to hear that. I don't want toly person, I'm a loving-war person, right? And now my nervous system is reactive, and I might be screaming, yelling, and defending myself, fighting, I might just dismiss you, and I leave the conversation flaying.

I might just associate, you're talking, but I'm somewhere out. My nervous system is now tending to this threatening piece of information you're sharing with me. So relationships, alternate perspectives of ourself, if we choose to hear them again, doesn't mean letting in all sources of information.

It doesn't even mean taking it if it's coming from a loved one. It means hearing it and then getting curious yourself. Okay, I'm prickly. Let me go say. And then being that witness in those moments and seeing maybe from her perspective, am I being prickly and if maybe from her perspective, am I being

prickly and if I'm being honest, she wasn't wrong. She offered me a perspective that I was unable to see. God, you're good. Thank you. What else can we go over? I mean, I don't know how long I've been going on for. You're sleeping at the wheel over there a long time. Oh my gosh, I'm so sorry.

I apologize. I'm enjoying this. No, I mean, listen, I'm looking at my watch. Where's my question? This is my passion now. I love talking to that. I was gonna say you probably love talking about this. I mean, this flow state, right?

There are so many moments where having these talks, teaching in the circle or whatever it is I'm doing, I do feel that experience of like, nothing else matters. I'm here. I'm really connected to what I'm saying, to how it's being experienced, and that's just again giving Descriptives of what flow could feel like. And if a flow can happen and what did not, wait, wait, wait, before I go back to this authentic piece, I'm so sorry. We discover the flow and we're safe in our body and we're able to connect with those kind of deeper things that come naturally. A lot of us revisit things that need to be-

We're living in our valley. We're so good. Like in childhood, right? We can go back to what were those early things in life that were of interest to you that came easily, that you just like to do. Probably by the time we've reached adulthood for many different reasons, we probably stop doing them.

Right. So for a lot of us, it means if we don't know where to start or what we like, it might mean revisiting to the things that lit us up or we were interested about before the world told us not to be. That's right. No, that's a good point. I was going to, that was my last thing I wanted to actually talk to you about was that because you're talking about in the authentic self, you know, living out your value, your purpose, we talk a bit a little bit here. A lot of people just don't know what their purpose is or their value, like we said, but revisiting maybe like what you like to do. But then there's a whole other argument that like maybe your passion should just stay your passion, like do you believe that your

passions should become your work in order to live a fulfilling life or what do you have? What's your belief system and all of this? I mean, I think if you got lucky, you can find a alignment. And I actually am very hopeful, going back to the internet that we were just dismissing earlier, I'm watching just society, culture, resources, tools, technology, even just thoughts around school and systems and some things that were just so ingrained

in what that did to get the good job and do the thing that you needed to do in life. I think things are shifting and changing. So I think that we're going to see more opportunities for people to live in that alignment of finding creating paid work, you know sustaining life or living their life in a real and an authentic way. It could be personally or professionally, but living for, I think also living for you, not for someone else's belief of what you should be doing. One hundred percent.

I think that to me is like living off into that. And we get being Jewish, your Italian, a lot of people, we get stuck in the traps of what our communities or our cultures want for us, which is where we get stuck in the traps of what our communities or our, our, our, our, cultures want for us, which is where we get really, but then your whole authentic self becomes diminished. And I think passions can span. Yeah. Everything has paid unpaid. I mean, I think, you know, for many, for many people parenting our future generations is, is their passion. Yeah. legitimately, you know, their contribution. It's legitimately their contribution,

and that's an incredible, I'm not choosing to have children, and that's an incredible, I'm not known, that's an incredible contribution, purpose, passion, and I think that's an area where it's not a work, I don't diminish it for ourselves. We think that that's not purposeful or passionate, a known for us to do. So I'm happy actually that we're expanding, you know, it doesn't necessarily have to be the income or the

job in a traditional way. There's so many passion areas of our life that we can foster, but it all does come back to reconnecting with what we want, what we like. Well, we're interested in what and it begins maybe with what we're curious about first. It always starts with the curiosity, but I'm glad that you said that because it's true, people tend to just again have kids because society tells them. That's another side of it. 100%. And then you're living a life, even if you don't want kids, like being honest, if like

who you are and what you want in life is actually very validating to yourself, living true to yourself. Yes. Right? 100%. I mean, living true to yourself, right? 100%. I mean, is there anything else that's follow the whole thing? By the way, her book is amazing, her workbook is amazing.

Although I only have the PDF, but I'm getting the full copy very soon. It's a great book. You do such a good job. You're so good. Thank you. I appreciate you, Jennifer, so much. No, it's the truth.

Tell people, if you're living under a wall, where people can find anything about you. Absolutely. The most prolific place that I'm at each and every day. As the Instagram account, the holistic psychologists, we also have a new Instagram account for the new workbook, how to meet yourself. I'm gonna start to populate that a bit more actively in the next couple weeks. I have a new more actively in the next couple of weeks. I have a new podcast, Self Healer Soundboard. We release an episode every Sunday.

How long have you had that, by the way? I rolled it out as a master class when how to do the work came out. So anyone who did read how to do the work and wants an additional supplement, Jenna and my co-host and I, Jenna, go through a chapter by chapter discussion of all of the concepts in the chapters for each of the chapters of how to do the work.

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